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Vanilla Avallac'h vs Modded Avallac'h
Vanilla Avallac'h vs Modded Avallac'h
Vanilla Avallac'h vs Modded Avallac'h
If you are Mormon, Mason, Jewish, or Zoroastrian, take a close look at his gambeson and see what you see. If you are Mormon, Mason, Jewish, or Zoroastrian, you'll see it and you'll know exactly what it means. On the other hand if you are a Gentile or an Infidel, you won't have a clue.
>>Both images on the left from May 2018, the 1st Avallac'h Playthrough
Vanilla Avallac'h has black hair and eyebrows turned grey, and has an appalling LOD of 5 and draw distance of 7, and has no hairworks effects, no wind effects, and while his 3d model & texture files have wrinkles, scars, bruises, bug bites, moles, and veins, you can't see them on the vanilla settings.
Also while Avallac'h's clothen had a RedCloth file, it had very low grade settings/pollies causing the details of the cloth weave, seam stitches, and embroidery to be blurry.
Vanilla Avallac'h has pupils that react to light, like all other characters in the game.
>>Both images on the right from September 15, 2020, the 3rd Avallac'h Playthrough
Modded Avallac'h has a 5,000 LOD and draw distance, resulting in wrinkles, scars, bruises, bug bites, moles, and veins on his skin can now be seen. This also revealed that he has a fine scar down the side of his nose and one over his eyebrow, both were not visible at all with the vanilla LOD settings.
Hairworks and wind effects have been added to his hair.
While we are talking about his hair... notice that he wears payot. If you don't know what payot are or why a man would have them... Google will help you. It brands him as Hasidic.
His hair and eyebrows are changed to blond (as described in the novels), his skin has been lightened several shades (again to match novel descriptions), and he has new texture files for his eyes to make them pale ice aquamarine with pink pupils, as described in the novels.
Modded Avallac'h has pupils that are frozen into tiny pinpricks and never grow or retract with light changes, matching the information we were told about him having suffered severe nerve damage which caused him to have tiny frozen pupils that did not react to light.
Because the file which changes a character's pupils, is NOT connected to their eye file, but rather is connected to their shadow file and changes not only the size and shape of pupils in different lights, it also changes the shadows on their face, and changes the intensity of their makeup.
The result of changing this file, is that shadows on Avallac'h's face are now fainter and his vanilla very dark eyeshadow is now many shades much lighter.
This results in a bright highlight on his cheekbones, making them much paler, and has caused an illusion that his cheekbones are even sharper than before, even though no change was made to his 3D model bone structure... i is simply a result of less shadow below his cheekbones with brighter highlight over them, and fewer shadows around his eyes.
I increased the depth of Avallac'h's RedCloth file (edited the 3D model to make ridged details a deeper depth) and increased settings/pollies causing the details of the cloth weave, seam stitches, and embroidery to be much sharper and more noticable, making the cloth look more real.
And speaking of the cloth looking more real... if you are a Gentile or an Infidel, you won't have a clue what it was I mentioned earlier, so let me point it out... on the beast of his gambeson, right over the nipple, there are slash marks that are stitched into a very specific pattern/design... this marks Avallac'h as a very high ranking priest, one who has access to the deepest, inner circles of the Temple, on par with The Levite in the Bible, it also tells us that he is a virgin and living celibate lifestyle because of his religious rank.
On their own, the slash marks do not identify a specific religion, but one of 5 religions. However, that, with the payot, and the fact that he covers his head when going outside, brands him as a Hasidic Jew.
We further know that in the novels, ALL Elves are Jewish, and the masque of the Elves during the Human invasion, was an outright retelling of the Holocaust, and Avallac'h spoke an ancient dialect of Hebrew and was unable to understand most Humans as he spoke none of the common tongues.
Raise your hand if you ACTUALLY KNOW what Manna is? Sephiroth? Sackcloth and ashes? Golems? The Tree of Life? The Pentagram? Tzitzit? Are you able to explain ANY of those things and what they are, when you encounter them in quests in the game?
Can you explain WHY Geralt meditates on a prayer rug facing East?
Explain to me WHY after her grandmother dies, Ciri shreds her cloths, starts wearing sackcloth, and rolls her golden blond hair in ashes to turn it into dreadlocks, resulting her becoming known as "the ashen haired maid"?
When the game shows you Avallac'h naked in Kaer Morhen, can you read the Hebrew writing tattoo across his chest and abdomen? Do you know what the symbols on his tattoos mean?
After having watched more than 5,000 playthroughs of Witcher 3 on Twitch, I'm continually amazed at how few people ever recognize the plethora of openly Jewish characters and miss the HUNDREDS of Holocaust reference easter eggs that flood every segment of the game.
And now that the books are becoming popular, after 40 years of being ignored by the bulk of society... it likewise amazes me, how many people are so clueless about the Holocaust and what happened to the Jews in Poland, that they read the Witcher novels with blind eyes, and completely miss that the Gnomes and Elves are blatantly Jewish, while the Humans are blatantly Nazi, and the mass murder of millions of Jewish Gnomes and Elves at the hands of their Nazi Human invaders, is an outright retelling of the events of real world history.... of that happened just 80 years ago.
Our world is in a pitiful state if the so recent mass murder of 20 million is so easily forgotten, so soon.
If you know nothing about the Holocaust, you REALLY shouldn't play this game or read the novels it was based on, because you'll completely miss the message they send. It'll go right over your head.
Spend a year or two doing some massive research into the Holocaust, especially what happened in Poland, and THEN play the game and read the novels, and THEN remember that the author who created this: was a Polish Jew who as a small child, saw his friends and family murdered, and then you'll understand why he wrote what he wrote.
The Princess Bride predicting Covid-19?
Avallac'h's a Good Tutor? Of What? How to Better Bed Kings?
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How to Handle Writing Fantasy-Horror That Features Violence Against Children
How to Handle Writing Fantasy-Horror That Features Violence Against Children
I am answering random questions today about character creating, plots points, and world building type styff, over on Reddit and decided to take my answers from there and expand upon them even further over here. So that's what this page is. Me rambling on about various aspects of world building techniques I use when writing the Quaraun series. The questions I am answering are embedded here. Clicking the link in the embedded question will take you to the original Reddit page where you can see the original answer along with other people's answers. If you wish to comment, you can do so on the Reddit page where a place to do so is provided.
My main character starts out the series, murdering his 4 children to get back at his wife. Poisons them, then slits their throats. Turns it into a massive Necromancy ritual. Then he kills his wife too.
The whole thing is drawn out in gory detail, spans about 20 pages of descriptive murder.
It's the ending of the first book in the series, after you see him being bullied, tortured (literally tortured, as in a full blown 40 page long scene of him being mutilated, dragged naked in the streets tied to a horse, and castrated in public.... it's very much medieval torture porn).... but you see 300 pages of him putting up with one thing after another. The wife is an arranged marriage he wanted no part of, the children were a result of her raping him.
Through all of it he had his lover, so he tried to turn the other cheek and forgive them for how he was treated, but then his lover dies a horrific gruesome death because of his wife, and she's just sadistic laughing over his pain, and he just snaps. Kills the kids to get back at her. For the first time she's faced with the realization of how much he'd really been holding back all these years, then he kills her. Then he uses the souls of his dead children to resurrect his lover.
Like you I found the killing his children part troubling and very difficult to write. I kept going around the story trying to figure out if there was a different way around it. But no matter what else I came up with none of the alternatives felt right.
The way I dealt with it, was, to actually write it that same way... with him, having trouble with killing his children.
Throughout the entire rest of the series (it's very long running, lots of books in the set) you see him constantly saying to himself: "I loved my children, but I loved BoomFuzzy more." He says it over and over again. He never used to drink or do drugs. Now after killing his children, you see him sitting in a tavern drinking and saying to whoever is near him: "I loved my children, but I loved BoomFuzzy more." He'll be buying drugs and say to the dealer: "I loved my children, but I loved BoomFuzzy more." That phrase is stuck in his head, because he's trying to convince himself resurrecting his dead lover was worth murdering his children, but telling himself that isn't working so he's using drinking and drugs to try to forget, only that just makes the night terrors worse... it absolutely destroys him and, then he's got the law hunting him down, so he's now living on the run...
And to make things worse, his lover came back as a cold hearted, incorporeal lich, so, he didn't really get his lover back either AND now in addition to having lost his lover, he's lost his children as well, and he now realizes how much he really misses having them in his life. The reader really sees him tore apart mentally and emotionally over this.
The difficult in killing children, ended up becoming a major plot point in later volumes, as you see him struggling with guilt, regret, depression, and many times suicide. He's plagued with night terrors, and seeing visions of his children in hell screaming, while trying to drag him into a bottomless pit.
It absolutely shatters his ability to function is society as he's slowly driven mad by the realization of :"Omg! What did I do? I killed my children." It hunts him his entire life, and he can't escape it.
It was published a few years ago. Never once had a reader complain about it. It's the 2nd most popular volume of the series. Readers seem to love it, even with the horrific murder scenes of him killing his own children. (And they are young - 2 girls, 2 boys, the youngest was 3, the oldest was 9)
I think, because the way I handled his after reaction to what he did. I think, readers were able to sympathize with why he did what he did, yet also be horrified by it, and then see that he's not a monster and now has to live with what he did and he can't because he really did love his children and the guilt of it is crushing him. I think too it helps him being the point of view character, so readers really get inside his head and know exactly what he's feeling, rather than standing back and watching him do thing, they experience it with him.
I think, how people react to a story like this is dependent on how you handle the killer's motive and after reaction to what they did. It's the difference between him being seen as a monster they can not identify with, or a man who made mistakes that are tormenting his mind and readers can feel sympathy for in spite of what he did.
I think also, because it was not the very first scene in the book either. Readers had a chance to go along with him, see him being beaten up by bullies, see his wife hurting him... readers were likely going "Why is he just taking it, why doesn't he punch her back, come on man, do something." So, by the time he does do something, the reader is now rooting for him, going "Yes, finally he's gonna do something... wait... no... don't do that... what are you doing... no not that!" By the time he kills the kids the reader is too drawn into the story to turn away and wants to see where it goes.
So I think in the end. it not what he does, but how you as a writer, get the reader to accept what he does.
That was the end of the answer posted on Reddit, but why stop there? Let's keep going...
If you don't know, there is an issue with the Quaraun series... one that baffles me to extremes. One that makes me seriously question the mental health of quite a few of my readers.
As you saw from the post up to this point, the Quaraun series is very violent. It features rape, torture, and child abuse on levels that push far beyond the limits. It takes actual events from my own childhood, and puts them on the page in glaring colour.
Quaraun himself suffered horrific levels of abuse as a child, as a teen, as a young adult.... abuse that is laid out on the pages of the books. Abuse that the reader lives through, as they see it happen, and see it through the perspective of the child being abused: Quaraun.
Every single volume of the series prominently features and excessively violent and brutal rape seen, with Quaraun often seriously injured by his rapist(s).
And I worry about my readers...
Because I have dozens of emails from dozens of fans, who, after reading these graphic, gory, emotionally traumatizing, psychological terror scenes of rape and abuse... they then write to me saying the books are "the best BDSM Erotica stories ever written".
I have written mutiple articles on my worry about the type of person these readers are and all the reasons why the Quaraun series it NOT Erotica...
Why do I worry about the readers who glorify the Quaraun series as Erotica? Well, think about it... these people find child abuse erotic. These people find rape erotica. These people think that a man being gang raped by a 12 bullies who continue to rape him after slicing him open by forcing a dagger up his rectum, them raping him while he is unconscious and bleeding to death, he being seriously maimed, suffering injuries that leave him bedridden for weeks... they found that scene to be "the best gang bang in BDSM Erotica history"
Clearly they have no clue what BDSM is and have a very warped perception of what constitutes and erotic scene.
And what is in that scene, which some readers have hailed: "the best gang bang in BDSM Erotica history"? Why am I so disturbed by readers saying this?
Here is a summery of that 10 page rape scene:
The first half of that gang rape scene is shown from Quaraun's terrified perspective as he desperately tries to get away from his attackers. The reader is in his head, knowing his thoughts, how terrified he is, as the the rapists tear is ear rings from his ears and nose rings from his face, laughing as the blood gushes from these wounds.
The reader knows his thoughts, his pain, his agony as the knife if stabbed up into his ass, tearing him open in what the rapist call: "making room for more dicks to go in you at once"
Quaraun is screaming in agony, begging for his life, is full aware that these men are intending to rape him to death, as they have told him they want to do exactly that as they are seeking to feel the thrill of being in him while he dies.
And his injuries are very serious. He really is bleeding to death, and passes out both from shock and blood loss.
Once he passes out the scene switches to the perspective of one of his friends, who is being held down and forced to watch, and is likewise horrified and traumatized by this event, and also, believes he is not just watching his friend being raped, but also being murdered. The scene is made event more NOT erotic, when another of his friends realizes what is happening and MURDERS every last one of the rapists in a frenzied bloodbath.
The following day the reader sees Quaraun awake again, but not yet aware that his attackers are dead, and is jumping and terrified by every shadow, every sound, to the point he drags himself out of his sick bed and hides under the bed, trembling in fear, traumatized so badly that none of his friends are able to calm him or convince him that he is safe.
THAT is most certainly NOT Erotica. That is Horror. It's psychological terror. It's a victim being humiliated, brutalized, traumatized, and having every last shred of dignity taken away from him. It is bullies asserting their power by taking away his power and making him a victim of of the worst possible abuse there is: rape.
Rape is a crime.
Rape is the most de-humanizing of crimes.
Rape is a crime of power.
Rape is taking someone and saying: you are worthless, I'm gonna show you how worthless you are by proving you are powerless to stop me from doing whatever I want to your body.
Rape is not erotic.
Rape is not BDSM.
Rape is abuse.
Rape is repulsive.
Rape is vile.
Rape is disgusting.
That scene...that is not an Erotica scene, it's a crime scene. You are not reading something intended to titillate you, you are reading something intended to horrify you.
And so... can you see why I say I worry about some of my readers and the type of person they are, when they look at horrific crime happening and see it as something to be sexually aroused by?
It bothers me, that someone could take something so horrible, so degrading, and see it as something meant for sexual gratification.
Even the novel BoomFuzzy, has been hailed as a work of Erotica. 300 pages of child abuse and neglect that were based off the real life child abuse and neglect of my own childhood. Page after page of rape scenes that were based off real life child rape that I was subjected to growing up.
I write these scenes, because they happened to me in real life and I can't get them out of my head. I write abut them over and over again because I was so very traumatized by them.
I can't live in normal society. My phobia of adults, most especially men, is that bad. My phobia of beds is so horrific that I've selpt outside under a tarp for most of the last 40 years. I was so traumatized by rare that by the time I was 8 years old, I was no longer able to set foot in a room with a bed in to without screaming in terror until I black out from sheer fear of what bed was.
Quaraun is raped and abused by his family throughout his childhood, because I was raped and abused by my family throughout my childhood.
Quaraun is bullied and beaten by the neighbors he went to for help, because I was bullied and beaten by the neighbors I went to for help,
Quaraun's church and town turns on him in a violent mass mob, because my church and town turned on me in a violent mass mob,
When the child Quaraun tries to fit back the abusive adults who are sexually abusing him and sadistically torturing him, they hold him down and beat his cats heads in in front of him, because the abusive adults who were sexually abusing me and sadistically torturing me until I was 31 years old, when I finally escaped the clan, they beat my cats heads in and nailed them to my door.
Quaraun is locked it that horrible room, left to starve to death, because I was locked it that same horrible room, and left to starve to death,
Here, have pictures of it:
That is the real live room, my child raping, cat murdering, sex slave human trafficking uncles kept me locked in.
It horrifies me that there are people who read the atrocities written in the Quaraun series and call it "Erotica."
Here, why don't you go read about the real life events that inspired the horrific events of the Quaraun series and THEN come back and tell me you still think it's Erotica.
The Ku Klux Klan is a terrorist organization and they happen to be a very big problem here in Old Orchard Beach, and I write about the abuse and terrorize that has been inflicted on me and my family by them. That's not Erotica.
Three Hundred years before Quaraun meet Unicorn in The Night of The Screaming Unicorn, he meet another Phooka, the same Phooka in another form, when an Elf eating candy-maker arrives in the Moon Elf Village and puts every one under a spell so that no one notices as villagers are one by one disappearing.
Young wizard Quaraun sees through the illusion, but instead of stopping it, helps the monster pick who to kill, and builds 13 phylacteries for the most infamous Lich making spell any wizard ever cast: the one that created the Thirteen Lich Lords, in the process falling in love with the leader of the Lich Lords, The Elf Eater of Pepper Valley himself.
Life is going good for the young wizard, until his best friend BeaLuna the Gnome alerts his father that there's more going on in the gingerbread house the making candy, and a mob of Moon Elves sets out to kill Quaraun in a public execution.
Enranged by the near murder of his lover, the illusions melt away revealing the Lich Lord and his innocent looking gingerbread house for the monsters they really are.
With the Twighlight Manor now threatening to eat every Elf in the village, the Moon Elves plot to destroy the suicidal Elf Eater and his sentient house, not realizing that worse things walked among then then Phooka's and Liches: a Thullid has taken up residence in the Pink Necromancer's head, remaining peacefully dormant until BoomFuzzy's death unleash's it's fury on them all.
Another of the stories banned by fanfiction.net in 2012, this one contains three controversial scenes:
The torture scene when Quaraun receives his sex altering injury.
The graphically detailed suicide of BoomFuzzy
The bloody murder of Quaraun's four children.
By far the bloodiest story of the series, this novel contains disturbing details of death, abuse, torture, suicide, and murder and is considered to be Gorn.
As you follow the series along, you find that Unicorn's obsession with Quaraun reaches a point where Quaraun gives up and simply allows himself to be sexually abused, daily, for years on end, by the Unicorn, because he's realized he can't get away from the extremely obsessive creature that follows him every where he goes.
One of the most disturbing scenes of the entire series is in volume 3, BoomFuzzy, when it is revealed, just how long the Unicorn's obsession has been going on. While most of the series takes place when Quaraun is an adult and is actually quite old, the novel, BoomFuzzy, is a flashback, that takes place when Quaraun was a child.
As a young boy, about 9 years old, Quaraun finds an injured pony, badly abused, shackled in chains, and locked in a cage. Not realizing the little innocent looking Shetland Pony, is actually a Phooka (a type of evil Faerie Horse), he sets it free. Phookas a viscous black unicorns, fire breathing monsters who skewer people on their horns, and take delight in crushing people to death under their hooves. There is no such thing as a good Phooka, and they are killed on sight whenever they are found. That the boy let him go free, puzzled the demonic beast.
The boy went back to his life. The Phooka followed him. From that point on, Quaraun could not escape the black Unicorn that followed his every move.
When Quaraun was age of 15, the Black Unicorn took on a humanoid form, that of a candy maker named BoomFuzzy, and set up shop in Quaraun's village. Luring children to his gingerbread house, the beast set out to killing and eating every one who got near his candy shop... except for Quaraun.
Quaraun was small, sick, and liked wearing dresses, resulting in his being bullied by the other boys in the village. When one day the bullying got out of hand and Quaraun was nearly killed, the Unicorn swept in and slaughtered the bullies, saving Quaraun's life, then taking the injurged boy back to the gingerbread house.
From there the BoomFuzzy story took a darker turn, as the young boy now finds himself, both well care for by a loving protector, and sexually abused by an obsessed stalker. The duel nature of BoomFuzzy the Unicorn, both comforts and terrifies Quaraun, as he finds himself safe and protected, while simultaneously abused and kept under strict control.
The rest of the BoomFuzzy novel becomes a self battle, with Quaraun, both loving and hating the Unicorn that both protects and hurts him.
At it's core, BoomFuzzy is a novel that takes a dark look into the effects of child abuse, sex slavery, and the confusion caused by being a child who is both loved and victimized by a psychopathic adult.
Quaraun remains with BoomFuzzy for 30 years, with their relationship rocky, as Quaraun finds himself wanting freedom to choose to love someone of his own choosing, and at the same time his not wanting to hurt the beast that truly does love him, but is incapable of showing that love in none abusive ways.
After 30 years, Quaraun leaves. He finally escapes the monster that held him captive and sexually abused him for 30 years. A few weeks later Quaraun marries his first wife. And the next day, BoomFuzzy kills himself.
Quaraun finds the body of the dead Unicorn 3 days later and is devastated, realizing that had he not married, BoomFuzzy would not have commit suicide.
The theme of Stockholm Syndrome pushes front and center into the series from that point on, with Quaraun torn between the guilt of having caused BoomFuzzy's death, and the wife he can not look at because without her, BoomFuzzy would still be alive.
The wife, seeing that her husband cares more for his childhood captive than he had let on, takes to bullying Quaraun, belittling BoomFuzzy's memory at every turn. Quaraun grows to hate his wife. The more his wife, puts down BoomFuzzy's memory, the more defensive Quaraun becomes in protecting BoomFuzzy's honor and denying that BoomFuzzy had spent years sexually abusing him.
As the years go on, Quaraun starts to forget he was BoomFuzzy's victim, he forgets that BoomFuzzy was a child rapist, he forgets that he had spent those years wanting freedom from his captive. His memories become warped and he starts to think of BoomFuzzy as a past lover. On the anniversary of BoomFuzzy's death, Quaraun's wife writes a nursery-rhyme song, belittling BoomFuzzy, and teaches it too their 4 children. Unable to take the constant belittling from his wife anymore, in a fit of rage, Quaraun lashes out at her and murders both his wife and their 4 children.
Horrified by what he's done, Quaraun flees into the mountains, not to be seen again for decades. When he does return to civilization, he's completly lost touch with reality, thus people begin to call him "Quaraun the Insane". When questioned as to why he killed his family, the only answer he gives anyone is: "I loved my children, but I loved BoomFuzzy more."
When the law tries to arrest him, he tries to escape and accidentally kills them too. Terrified, he flees again, now wanted for for multiple murders. Scared of his own temper, now afraid to be near anyone for fear he'll kill them, Quaraun becomes a wandering hermit, living on the run, never staying in any one place more then a day or two.
Several times his timing is bad and he arrives in towns, just as someone has been killed. Knowing he killed his family and the men who tried to arrest him, villagers are quick to blame him for any and every death, and soon reports calling him a serial killer are being spread across the entire country.
Responding To a Reader Response To "The Hanging Tree" scene from BoomFuzzy...
If you are unfamiliar with "The Hanging Tree" it is the original short story from which the entire BoomFuzzy novel was based upon.
It is also one of the single most graphic, grizzly, bloody, gory scenes of the entire Quaraun series.
And it is the scene that got the series banned off FanFiction.net.
In the short story called "The Hanging Tree" what happens is this:
Quaraun comes from a culture that outlaws same sex couples and is hiding that fact that he has a male lover. When he is accused of bedding with other males, he does not deny it and openly admits to having sex with other men, not realizing that this will incit his accusers into an angry mob, that next strips him naked, drags him to the center of town and publically tortures him, with most of the village coming forward to join in. They next hang him upside down in a tree in the town square, and continue to torture him.
The infamous highly detail, incredibly grizzly scene that got the series banned off FanFiction.net followed, as one Elf, pulled out a knife and forces it up into Quaraun's penis, then rippe the knife in a backward motion, slicing Quaraun's penis completely in half, leaving behind a scar known as "a sub penal incision". Following this Elf's example, other villagers slash Quaraun's belly, thighs, and groin with knives, leaving him horribly scarred for life. When they finished torturing him, Quaraun is left for dead, his bloody remains used as bait to capture The Elf Eater of Pepper Valley.
Unknown to the Elves however is the fact that it was the Elf Eater himself who is Quaraun's lover, and upon discovering what the Elves did to Quaraun, the Elf Eater slaughtered the Moon Elves, then takes Quaraun and spends the next several months nursing the dying Elf back to health. Quaraun eventually recovered, but he is left with a crippled leg, severe PTSD, rampant phobias that cripple his ability to function in society, and the horrific scars that he often bemoans.
This entire story is just under 3,000 words long. And it shows a horrify look at bigotry, bullying, and herd mentality of a mob joining a bully and nearly killing a gay man.
This is one of the very early stories in the series, which happens when Quaraun is very young, still a teenager. This story is the foundation base point that the other stories reference back to and you see flashbacks of it, glimpse to it, and the horrific night terrors caused by it, in nearly every volume of the Quaraun series.
In dozens of stories written after this, readers see Quaraun's life as it goes into a downward spiral of depression and mental illness, as he turns first to drugs, then to drinking, then to cutting, and eventually to multiple suicide attempts.
Today, here is what one person had to say about this scene, and what follows is my response... Enjoy!
Personally, as a bisexual person, I'm tired of seeing queer people only portrayed as villains, the token friend or victims of hate crimes.
~January 30, 2018
please come to Maine and tell the 140+ LGBTQA+ citizens of Old Orchard Beach this. I'm sure they would love to hear that you think "the queers" are NOT victims of hate crimes.
40+ of them (myself included) have had their houses blown up by bombs
80+ of them have had their houses run over by backhoes (I've had to build 5 houses on my land in the past 12 years)
500+ pets, cats, dogs, and horses have been beheaded, their nailed to the doors of their LGBTQA+ owners (this has happened to me personally 13 times)
my cousin, he'd love to hear your sentiments... unfortunately, he was one of the 4 gay men whom were beheaded by the Ku Klux Klan in 2013
I used to be able to walk, but, you know as I was putting groceries in my car in WalMart parking lot when 2 gay haters decided to beat me up with a shopping cart (July 2016) I was paralyzed, they ruptured 3 discs in my spine; I'm crippled the rest of my life
you could come visit me and I can introduce you to the 8 foot tall KKK cross in my yard
2010 Portland Shaws (supermarket): an 80 year old black gay man was beaten to death while putting groceries in his car, while more the 40 shoppers cheered the attacker... his head was hit so many times by the shopping cart that by the time the police arrived, there was nothing left of his head, skull, or brain but a pool of jellied goo on the ground
April 2015, someone decided to fill my motorhome, you know the one that says "Transgender Awareness Tour Bus" on the side of it... they filled it with several thousand gallons of raw sewage/feces
August 2015 - public beheading of a transgender woman took place in the ice cream department of a local grocery store: Saco Shaws
Rotary Park, Biddeford, right next door, until 2 summers ago had the Guiness World Record for a very tall flag pole; they took the flag pole down because, they got tired of every weekend cutting down the gay men who were stripped naked and hanging by their balls from the top of the flag pole
THIS by the way, is the very real life event that inspired The Hanging Tree scene.
The first time this event happened... the gay man, was a 15 year old boy who was only SUSPECTED of being gay, because he wore a pink suit to a dance at school. Old Orchard Beach High School. The boy was striped naked, his ankels tied to the back bumper of a Old Orchard Beach Police Car, and then dragged the entire 14 mile drive, to the flagpole at Rotary Park in Biddeford, Maine. Because it happened at night, at a dance, no one noticed him missing at first... Because it was February, the month of the year, when our temperature plummet to -40F. He nearly froze to death. And with the park closed for winter, there was no one around to find him. He hung there, upside down, tied to a flag pole, hanging from the rope by his balls, for FIVE days.
That's the type of "jokes" the Old Orchard Beach police - grown men in the 40s and 50s, play on 5 year old CHILDREN, if the suspect the child might possibly be gay.
At night the Ku Klux Klan stands in the driveway of LGBTQA+ residents and shoots rifles fire at them.
January 4, 2016: 140+ LGBTQA+ families were marched out of their homes AT GUN POINT by police, when The Old Orchard Beach Town Hall issued a court order declaring it illegal to own property/houses if you were LGBTQA+
January 4, 2016: 140+ LGBTQA+ families were marched out of their homes AT GUNPOINT by police, when The Old Orchard Beach Town Hall issued a court order declaring it illegal to own property/houses if you were LGBTQA+
It took us 9 months and taking the case to Superior Court, but on October 21, 2016 Superior Court overruled the town's original court order as grounds of being "a gross violation of civil rights being committed by the United States Government".... for 9 months 140+ LGBTQA+ families were homeless and living in their cars while the Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach court battle went on
November 9, 2017, 3 months ago - while eating at Biddeford, McDonald's, a the manager and 5 employees, spiked my gay brother's food with so much LSD. Molly, and Meth that he went into a coma seconds after taking a bite of his meal, he remained in a coma for 5 days and nearly died; the FBI agent in charge of the attempted murder of my brother knows who did it because the whole thing was recorded on one of the restaurant's security cameras
Personally, as a bisexual person, I'm tired of seeing queer people only portrayed as villains, the token friend or victims of hate crimes.
Glad to see you are comfortable using the hate slur queer on yourself; I suppose you must use it the same way black men use niggar on themselves right? Trying to reclaim that vile, hate filled word? Are you REALLY bi or are you just saying that to sound cool? You clearly have no issues tossing the word queer around which makes me question the validity of your claim to be a part of the LGBTQA+ community.
A REAL gay person knows queer is to gay what niggar is to black; wannabes let their TRUE colours fly when they use hate terms like queer to describe themselves. Nothing brands a straight person trying to fit in faster then how they use the word queer.
You are clueless to what REAL LGBTQA+ people live with everyday of our lives if you think the hate crimes against us are a trope and using the word queer is anything close to acceptable.
I dare you to come to Maine and tell any one you are bisexual... the Ku Klux Klan will be on you in less than 24 hours
Welcome to Maine
Most of the hate crimes against the gay characters of the Quaraun series are based off the real world hate crimes against gay men happening here in Old Orchard Beach on a DAILY basis.
If you are so fed up with LGBTQA+ people being victims of hate crimes, then why don't you prove it by getting off you ass, coming up here to Maine and doing something to stop the hate crimes going on right now?
I am wondering why has Amazon moved the Quaraun books to the category "Transgender Romance" and also "Gay Erotica"? The base story is a deeply depressed, suicidal, drug addict Elf who's lover commit suicide and he's trying not to do the same. It's an old Elf in a tavern, monologuing a lot of flashbacks and back story scenes of his youth. These stories are dark, bloody, angsty, full of drug use, murder, rape, Medieval torture, mental/physical/emotional abuse, and references to depression and suicide - no romance in it, unless you count the occasional (and usually brutally violent) rape scenes that show up in nearly every volume - sorry - no clue what Amazon is thinking or why they moved these to Romance and Erotica, but these books are NOT even close to being Romance or Erotica on any level at all. When I published these books I put them in "Dark Fantasy" and "Yaoi". If they show up in any category other then "Dark Fantasy" and "Yaoi", it's because Amazon put them there without my authorization or approval.