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Google just reranked my website - the keyword currently bringing the most traffic to my site... tells me you people are all sick minded perverts...
You know... half the people in my chat call Avallac'h perverted because he has nude drawings of Ciri...
...but hey...
Every 30 days Google ranks my website and tells me the current top keyword search term trends that are driving traffic to my website.
Here's the list of the top search terms that drove traffic to my website this month:
And there are more... LOTS more... those are just the top most used versions
And how many people used those search terms to find my website?
"ciri nude" ranks at number 1 with a grand total of 66,715 people reaching my website via that search term this month.
66,715 visited my website in October 2019, via typing into Google the search term "ciri nude".
Good god!
And you people call Avallac'h perverted. What the hell are you?
Apparently I'm the only person who ever played The Witcher 3 as a nude Ciri and them posted screenshots of the whole thing online.
Damn... even all those screenshots of Ciri having sex with Avallac'h got 2,650+ visits each! LOL
What the hell?
What happened?
Why did EVERYONE suddenly start searching for "ciri nude" all of a sudden?
Well, whatever the reason... you pervs pushed us over the 200,000 mark this month!
Yep, 200,000 pages views in a SINGLE MONTH!
A great big hug and thank you to all you wonderful perverted freaks!
Watch Part 1: Google just reranked my website - the keyword currently bringing the most traffic to my site... tells me you people are all sick minded perverts! from EelKat on www.twitch.tvAnd before you get all hyped up over more "nude Ciri content", you might just want to reel your penis in and watch these two videos....
and
you might find them, rather eye opening....
You do know what Ciri did to Avallac'h in the novels, right?
If you are a man and you LIKE Ciri... wow, just, fucking WOW... clearly you ain't never read the novels.
You want a nude picture that BEST REPRESENTS Ciri... HERE HAVE A LINK.
Happy nightmares to any man who dares click on ^^^THAT^^^ link (which by the way, oddly, is the most visited picture on my website... I'm not sure why... you people are freaks.)
Ever heard of Lorena Bobbitt?
No?
How about Sada Abe?
No?
Better hide your dick for this one...
Ever heard of Catherine Kieu?
Hey, but you want nude pics of Ciri... well, have fun jerking your penis off to her while you can, because she's got a sword just waiting to slice your dick off.
If you want to continue to jerk off to Ciri, then make sure you NEVER read the novels... run... run far, far away from the novels and the REAL Ciri the game never told you about: the penis chopping, testicle mutilating psycho whore.
I continue to be amazed by how many men fantasize over women who are famous for cutting off penises. Damn. I'll never understand why you men like Ciri so much. But hey, you want to fantasize over penis mutilating women, I'm sure there are hundreds of real world women who would be more then happy to line up to castrate you.
Me personally, I hate rapists, sexual abusers, abortion bitches, spouse abusers, senior abusers, and terrorists... and Ciri is ALL OF THE ABOVE. But you keep on lusting after the baby murdering, spouse abusing, senior citizen raping, penis chopping, testical mutilating, shit bitch of a slutty assed whore... while you're at it, why do you go lust after Alex from Clock Work Orange? His crimes are nearly as horrific, brutal, or violent as Ciri's though, so he probably ain't enough of an abuser for you to like him.
So while you get off fantasizing over Ciri chopping your dick off, I'll continue to hate Ciri and all the psycho-feminist, social-justice-terrorism she stands for and is the poster child of. Sorry but, I like Avallac'h too much to share your love for the bitch who castrated him.
Why do I hate Ciri? Reasons: 1: Ciri is a rapist. 2: Ciri is an abortion bitch. 3: Ciri is a sex crazed pervert. 4: Ciri is a drunk. 5: Ciri is a cocaine addict. 6: Ciri has a bloodlust. She is addicted to killing anything, everything, and every one that moves. 7: Ciri is a slutty assed whore who spends 90% of her time in the novels masterbating for the reader, demanding sex from every one, and raping elderly men. 8: Ciri says children, especially babies are parasites, and should all be killed. 9: One of Ciri's favorite pastimes is stabbing pregnant women in the belly. to "rescue them from the parasites that will destroy their lives." In short, Ciri is a vile, immoral piece of shit. HAVE YOU NEVER LISTENED TO A WORD I HAVE EVER SAID IN MY STREAMS? Hell! We do more preaching Bible verses here then anything else. We even use Ciri as the Why do you think I hate that immoral, sex-crazed, perverted, crackhead, drunk, child murdering, rapist, gutter scum piece of trash, bitch Ciri so much? Who in their right mind wouldn't hate her? The bigger question here is, why do YOU like a deviated, immoral piece of trash like that? WHAT? DID THEY THINK ^^^^THAT^^^ WAS A JOKE? |
Watch Page 179 of Lady of the Lake aka Why I don't like Ciri and Why I absolutely hate,, loath, and revile Ciri's psychotic fan base from EelKat on www.twitch.tv
<<<---- 24 MILLION people consider this vile drug addicted, drunk, spouse abusing, child murdering, rapist who was modeled after The Lady of the Lake/Satan to be "The #1 female little girls should look up to and strive to be like". While 21 MILLION people consider this moral, just, kind man who was modeled after The Fisher King/Christ Jesus himself, to be the most vile, terrible, evil villain of any villain ever created. --->>> It says a lot about the society we live in when evil acts are hailed as good and good acts are hailed as bad. How? Tell me how.... how do you sick, perverted jackasses look at Ciri and see ANYTHING but disgust and revulsion? |
Why do I like Avallac'h? You mean other then the fact that he was brutally raped and left crippled in a manner near identical to what happened to me? Reasons: 1: Avallac'h is asexual, a virgin, lives a celibate life, and shuns sex. 2: Avallac'h is a vegan, animal rights, human rights, monster rights activist. 3: Avallac'h is doesn't drink alcohol. 4: Avallac'h has morals and strives to live a pious, righteous, holy life free from sin. 5: Avallac'h executes abortion bitches. 6: Avallac'h rescuses would-have-been-aborted babies. 7: Avallac'h abhors violence, weapons, and war 8: Avallac'h is a quiet, peaceful, kind, gentle, loving, docile man who spends his life doing nothing but fishing off his boat. 9: Animals and monsters do not fear Avallac'h because he has never shed innocent blood, never taken an innocent life, he has never murdered anyone. 10: Avallac'h is The Fisher King, holiest of the Grail Knights... The Maimed King... literally Jesus the Christ Fisher of Men; the ultimate moral person. Do you really know NOTHING about King Arthur Myhos or the fact that The Fisher King and the 12 Grail Knights are Jesus and his 12 disciples? Who wouldn't love Avallac'h knowing that? |
I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. You can't even begin to imagine how much I hate the thought of sex, I have post traumatic stress disorder and sex, any mention of it, triggers it. I'm asexual, I have Kanner's Syndrome (actual Autism), I'm a 5th generation Mormon, and I'm an ordained minister.
I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. His wife died while she 8 months pregnant with another man's baby. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. His entire story takes place on a lake, beside his wife's grave, where he does nothing but ride his around the lake, fish off a rowboat, and wander the fields picking flowers for his wife's grave.
And after he's raped, his legs broken, and the tomb of his wife smashed and destroyed, he never again leaves the boat, never speaks again, and never walks again.
Do you know the full extent of what happened to him? How bad it really was? How big of a piece of shit Ciri really is?
He was raped 5 times total. He tried to run away each time, but he's elderly, and had a lame leg, and was easily tackled by the sex crazed shit bitch that is Ciri. Because he kept running away, she broke both of his legs, then raped him again. Then, to punish him for refusing to have sex with her, she drove a sword through his hip, through his testicles, and out his other thigh. He was never able to walk again.
And all this, happened after he had already been tortured, locked in a cage, his blood drained, his family tortured to death in front of him: his parents, his siblings, his wife, his adopted baby, and his cats.... who when they were dead, were chopped up and force fed to him.
And WHY did she do all this? She was angry, that he was an asexual virgin and was refusing to have sex with her on command. She, 12 year old Queen of Cintra, who was used to demanding men to have sex with her and was horrified to encounter a righteous, just, decent, moral holy man who dared stand his ground and NOT obey the vile, perverted, debauched bitch's sex crazed demands.
I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my baby, died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again... something I can't do for myself...and THINGY KNEW THAT! I told her that August 2018. The game is only thing that keeps me from killing myself. You don't know what it;s like. I use to aqua jog 13 miles a day, go mountain climbing, horseback riding... and after 6 miscarriages, I finally had a pregnancy that was almost full term and a chance of finally having a baby.
The murderer has not yet been identified. If you have any information, FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the investigation. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322
I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. He's one of the 12 Holy Grail Knights of King Arthur's Round Table.
My playing as Avallac'h has nothing to do with sex and I'm tired of you vile jackasses trying to make it out to be.
I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again and I can give him his cats back... something I can't do for myself.
Answer me this:
How can you glorify a rapist?
I'm thinking you are so vile, so perverted, so immoral, so evil... that THAT is why you are so in love with Ciri and have a hard time understanding why I don't join you in making fun of a moral, righteous man while glorifying the vile perversion that is Ciri. You are just plain THAT EVIL, that you can't see past your own debauched, vile life of sin to understand what it is like to be utterly disgusted and abhorred by repulsive evil things like yourself.
GO THINK ON THAT FOR A WHILE.
Shame on you!
How dare you glorify a rapist!
You want nude pictures of Ciri?
Here!
Have nude pictures of your vile mother of sin.
Patron of evil.
Embodiment of filth!
Then go burn in hell with her!
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NOTE: Witcher 3 a NSFW 18+ Stream with Wild Nudity settings turned on (meaning the females are nude - boobs and titties everywhere) sex scenes happening frequently - drug use and strong graphic violence in every stream - viewer discretion is STRONGLY ADVISED!
Often doing mod building, mod editing, and how to mod Witcher 3 streams as well. Full list of publicly available mods I'm using, is listed on my Twitch profile, along with detailed instructions for how to get each of the 3 Ciri endings of the game, and the full history of Avallac'h's character from both the novels and the game. WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT:
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As has been requested (endlessly) EK's Star Log is returning to the internet. You can still read the original archive here... https://eelkat.wordpress.com
The reason you couldn't find it is because I set it to private un-index mode, meaning it no longer shows up in Google search results and can only be accessed by a direct link.
Meaning, if you didn't have the url for it, no amount of searching for it would tell you how to find it. Anyone who had the url could still access it though.
I had set it to private September 23, 2013, intending to move each page here to EelKat.com... however, November 14, 2013, after only moving about 30 pages, I was beaten up and left paralyzed for 5 months, then spent 18 months relearning to walk. I am still crippled and have limited mobility.
Below is one of the blog posts that originally appeared on EK's Star Log. The original articles are still online but no longer indexed in Google. Links to the original article, are included with this post, as is the original posting date. Clicking the links will take you to the original site, where you can see the old Space Dock 13 website still online. Space Dock 13 as it looked when hosted on WordPress from 2003 to 2013.
Every year since 2004, I post in the Mental Illness thread on NaNoWriMo, a list of places where authors can find actual/accurate information on a variety of mental illnesses and physical disabilities to help them write their characters more accurately. Most of these site also have lists of other sites as well.
Here for you now, is that list:
Act Early on Developmental Concerns: Partnering with Early Intervention
Adolescents with autism spectrum disorder at risk for bullying
Advancing Futures for Adults with Autism
Advice for autistic adults about work - NASAlmost half of kids with autism are bullied, study shows
American Association of People with Disabilities
American Association on Intellectual and Developmental Disabilities
American Foundation for the Blind
American Psychological Association
American Psychological Association's Trauma Psychology Division
Americans Disabled for Accessible Public Transit
An Anti-Bullying Intervention for Children with Autism
Anxiety and Depression Association of America
AnxietySocialNet - Agoraphobia support groups and more
Archives of Scientific Psychology®
Are Autistic People More Sensitive To Trauma
Asian American Journal of Psychology
Assistance Dog Advocacy Project
The Association Between Bullying and the PsychologicalAssociation for Applied Psychophysiology and Biofeedback
Association of University Centers on Disabilities
Australian Centre for Posttraumatic Mental Health
Australasian Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
Autism and Asperger Syndrome Educator’s Guides, Organization for Autism Research (OAR)
Autism Genetics Initiative Data Archive
Autism Genetics Resource Exchange
The Autism Speaks Transition Tool Kit
Autistic Self Advocacy Network
Autism Source, Autism Society of America (ASA)
Autism Spectrum Disorder and bullying
Autism Wandering Awareness Alerts Response Education (AWAARE)
Behavior Analysis: Research and Practice
Biofeedback Foundation of Europe
BC Schizophrenia Society Foundation
Bullying | Autism SpeaksBullying Among Adolescents With Autism Spectrum DisordersBullying & Abuse | Life on the SpectrumBullying and Autism: Helping Kids CopeBullying and Autism - Medical Home Portal
Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders: guidance for
Bullying and autism spectrum disorders - Norfolk Schools
Bullying Experiences Among Children and Youth with Autism
Bully Stoppers - Victorian Government
Canadian Foundation for Trauma Research & Education
Canadian National Institute for the Blind
Canadian Psychology / Psychologie canadienne
Cannon (1942/1957). "Voodoo" death. (Walter Cannon's seminal article on death through the shock of terror.)
Care For Disabled Veterans: Acknowledging Post-traumatic Stress Disorder from Iraq War Experience
Caring for Children With Autism Spectrum Disorders: A Resource Toolkit for Clinicians
CDC’s Disability and Health Program
CDC’s National Center on Birth Defects and Developmental Disabilities Funding Opportunities
The Center on the Social and Emotional Foundations for Early Learning (CSEFEL)
Center for Evolutionary Psychology
Child Abuse Prevention Network
The Child Survivor of Traumatic Stress [newsletter]
Children and Adults with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
Children’s Health Insurance Program
Clinical Practice in Pediatric Psychology®
Code of Federal Regulations, Title 45, Part 46
Community Alliance for the Ethical Treatment of Youth
Council of Parent Attorneys and Advocates
Cultural Diversity & Ethnic Minority Psychology®
Data Resource Center for Child and Adolescent Health
The Decline in Child Sexual Abuse Cases.
Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance
Developmental and Behavioral Pediatrics Online
Developmental Screening/Testing Coding
Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders
Disability Rights Education and Defense Fund
Disabled Peoples' International
DisAbled Women's Network Canada
Down Syndrome Advocacy Foundation
Drew Westen's Lab of Personality & Psychopathology
Eastern Association for the Surgery of Trauma
EEG & Clinical Neuroscience Society
The Effects of Psychological Trauma on Children with Autism
Equal Employment Opportunity Commission
ERIC - The Experience of Friendship, Victimization and Bullying in ChildrenEuropean Federation of Associations of Families with Mental Illness
EFORT European Federation of National Associations of Orthopaedics and Traumatology
European Society for Trauma and Dissociation
European Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
Exploring the Nature of Traumatic Memory
Family Association for Mental Health Everywhere
Families for Depression Awareness
Family Council - Empowerment For Families
Focus on Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders | StarrFoundations of Positive Psychology
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Down Syndrome Advocacy Group
From "Bully" to Bullied - Autism Spectrum ExplainedGalloway's Society for the Blind
The Growing Concern of Suicide and High Functioning AutismHealth Resources and Services Administration
Human Behavior and Evolution Society
Information Sheet Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders
International Bipolar Foundation
The International Classification of Diseases
International Consortium for Brain Mapping
International Disability and Development Consortium
International Society for Neuronal Regulation
International Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
International Trauma Studies Program
Journal of Abnormal Psychology®
Journal of Applied Psychology®
The Journal of Injury and Violence Research (JIVR)
Journal of Personality and Social Psychology®
Journal of Rural Mental Health®
Leaving the Mentally Ill Out in the Cold (newspaper/blog post)
Learning Disabilities Association of America - Disability Rights and Advocacy
Lew Goldberg's International Personality Item Pool
Life Journey Through Autism Series, Organization for Autism Research (OAR)
Maeve: Psychiatric Service Dog and Mental Health Advocate
Marriage Advocates - Infidelity and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Mencap (The Royal Society for Mentally Handicapped Children and Adults)
Mental Disability Advocacy Center
Mental Health Advocacy Services
Mental Health for Youth in Armed Conflict
Mental Health Services Locator, National Mental Health Information Center
Mental Wellness Today (magazine - has large article database)
Mood Disorders Society of Canada
Mood Disorders Association of Ontario - Helpful Links
Muscular Dystrophy Association
Naropa University: Somatic Counseling Psychology
National Advocate for People with Down Syndrome
National Association of County and City Health Officials
National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC)
National Alliance on Mental Illness
National Association of the Deaf
National Association of Special Education Teachers
National Centre Against Bullying - The Alannah and Madeline Foundation
National Center for Education Statistics
National Center for Health Statistics
National Center of Medical Home Initiatives for Children with Special Needs
National Child Traumatic Stress Network
National Database for Autism Research
National Dissemination Center for Children with Disabilities (NICHCY)
National Network of Adult and Adolescent Children who have a Mentally Ill Parent
The National Professional Development Center on Autism Spectrum Disorders
NCP Clinicians Trauma Update Online
North American Society for Childhood Onset Schizophrenia
Office of the Children's eSafety Commissioner - Australian Government
Office of Special Education and Rehabilitative Services
Open Culture: Free Online Classes
Operation Autism for Military Families
A Parent’s Guide to Evidence-Based Practice and Autism
Parkinson's Disease Foundation
Pet Partners - Denied Access, Now What?
PTSD - AUTCOM - The Autism National CommitteePTSD | Autism SpeaksPost-Traumatic Stress Disorder | The Scott CenterThe Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Alliance
PTSD and Autism - The Thinking Moms' RevolutionPTSD and Autism It has amazed me how... - AutismPrejudice. No way! - NSW Government
Primate Handedness and Brain Lateralization
Psychological Trauma: Theory, Research, Practice, and Policy®
Questioning Answers: PTSD and autismRacism. No way! - NSW Government
Raindrop: Death Education for Children of all Ages
Recovered Memories of Sexual Abuse: Research and Resources
Reflections on The Problem of Psychic Trauma
Retrieving, Assessing, and Classifying Traumatic Memories
Schizophrenia and Related Disorders Alliance of America - SARDAA
Schizophrenia Awareness Association of India
Schizophrenia News and Information
Schizophrenia Society of Canada
Schizophrenia Society of Ontario - Official SiteSchool Accreditation, National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC)
Special Education Technical Assistance and Dissemination Network
Spina Bifida Association of America
Stigmatization of People with Autism Spectrum DisordersStress, Trauma and Sleep in Children
Suicide Awareness Voices of Education
Survey finds 63% of children with autism bullied - CBS NewsTeaching Tips for Children and Adults with Autism
Terrorism Injuries: Information, Dissemination and Exchange (TIIDE)
tips for educatorsTrauma Intervention Programs, Inc.
The Traumatic Stress Centre (Wales)
UK Psychological Trauma Society
University of Washington - Fact Sheets - Facts About Mental Illness and Violence
Using Drawing as Intervention with Traumatized Children
Washington Autism Alliance & Advocacy
Webcast Berkeley: online courses & speakers at UC Berkeley
When Bullies Target Autistic Kids | Support for Special NeedsWhy Autistic Kids Make Easy Targets for School BulliesYoung Children with Challenging Behavior
During NaNoWriMo 2007's novel writing contest, a forum thread was started... a young author wanted to write an Autistic main character and asked on the NaNoWriMo forum if any one could tell her how to write a mental illness that she did not have and also knew no one with... the result was a 700 page non-fiction book, called "Autism and Me: On Being An Adult With Autism, A Look Into My Everyday Life."
Originally published on LuLu as a book for sale, a month later I unpublished it and released it as a free to read online series of articles on Squidoo. I continued to add new articles to the series on a near monthly basis in the 10 years since then.
The series of pages linked below, are those articles, the 2007 originals, the ones written in the years since, and the 2017 10th Anniversary updates on what has changed in the decade since those first articles were released.
Autism & Me - Part 2: A look at REAL Autism and the urban myths spread by those with a self-diagnosis. |
"People deserve a break. The stressed and unorganized person who doesn’t have the same priorities as you. They may be dealing with an autistic child, abusive spouse, fading parents, or cancer. Don’t judge people until you’ve walked a mile in their shoes. Give them a break instead."
— Guy Kawasaki
I'm a woman who has had 7 miscarriages, and wears "elaborate clothes". Because I have no children, the residents of Old Orchard Beach, beat me up, calling me a transsexual, claiming only a man would dress like I do, claiming that the reason I have no children is because I'm not really female.
They left me paralyzed and crippled.
They crushed my hips, my pelvis, and my spine, and took away, what little chance I had to carry a pregnancy to full term.
I'm crippled for the rest of my life. I can barely walk now. It's why I'm now on a cane. Any hope I had of having children is gone now.
That's the reality, of the gay hatred of this town.
I have Autism. I wear pink. I wear glitter. I talk with a "funny gay sounding voice".
Acording to the people in this towm:
I walk like a fag...
talk like a fag...
dress like a fag...
act like a fag...
and therefor must be treated like a fag...
I need to be taught my place...
I deserve to be shot in the head...
I look gay, and therefore I must be,
because no one but gay men, talk in this voice
no one but gay men wear pink
no one but gay men wear glitter
no one but gay men prance instead of walk...
so they beat me up, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they cut my car in half, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they put a bomb in my house, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they filled my motorhome with feces, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they kidnapped my cats, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they drove a back hoe over my house, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they cut my cats heads off and nailed their heads to my door, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
because I have Autism
and that makes me "too gay for the family friend town of Old Orchard Beach"
I used to dance when I walked... but after 5 months paralyzed, 18 months relearning to walk, and now 4 years later, my leg is lame and I am crippled, barely able to stand, dragging a lame leg, I'll never dance again.
Do you know what that's like?
Can you even begin to imagine?
To be an Autistic person, who can no longer dance when I walk?
They hate gay men so much, that they are willing to beat up a childless autistic women, in ill health, accusing her of being a transvestite.
Because these evil people took away my ability to have children, I had cats; but they took my cats, and cut off their heads, and nailed them to my door.
Welcome to Old Orchard Beach. The gay-hating capital of Maine.
This is the reality of how Autistics are seen by the world.
This is the reality of how Autistics are treated by "normal" people.
This is the reality of being transgender in Old Orchard Beach.
This is the reality of what bullies do to someone with mental illnesses, they do not understand.
This is the reality of living with Autism.
Once you’ve seen, you can no longer act like you don’t know.
Open your eyes to the truth. It’s all around you.
Don’t deny what the eyes to your soul have revealed to you.
Now that you know, you cannot feign ignorance.
Now that you’re aware of the problem, you cannot pretend you don’t care.
To be concerned is to be human.
― Vashti Quiroz-Vega
"Ignore and ignorance share the same root."
— Kathryn Erskine
“With ignorance comes fear- from fear comes bigotry. Education is the key to acceptance.”
― Kathleen Patel, The Bullying Epidemic-the guide to arm you for the fight
Here is my response to a question from the NaNoWriMo forums on avoiding the stereo types when writing about characters with Autism:
"Can anyone tell me how to write characters with autism while avoiding stereotypes? Thank you."
My response, resulted in a 700+ page non-fiction book on living with autism.
The response, went off into a rant, not because of the person asking the question, but instead, because of the 300+ Asperger's patients who responded to the question to tell her how to write ASPEGER'S characters, all while claiming their Asperger's was the SAME THING as Autism.
More then 2,000 forum posts were added to the thread, by these 300+ people, boldly spreading huge amounts of extremely inaccurate misinformation about what Autism is and is not, and helping to spread the urban myth that Aspergers is a type of Autism.
Sadly after taking 3 days to read every post on the thread, I finally reached the end to find that not even ONE of the more then 2,000 posts had given her ANY information about Autism.
My response is too long for one page, all pages are being linked to here:
Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?
You might be surprised how little you really know.
A look at REAL Autism and the myth spread by those with a self-diagnosis.
As an Autistic, I can tell you outright that I really hate it when people start sticking pills at me and telling me if I would take them I’d be normal.
You know what? I have no problem with who I am, I do not see any reason why I should change. I am different, yes. I know that, and have never denied it. I just want people to stop telling my to *be normal* or how nice it would be if I would *seek medical help*.
Me sewing pink dresses and paining pictures and writing novels, is not me needing to seek medical help.
You building a bomb and blowing up my house and setting fire to my clothes and killing my pets... that's YOU being a psychopath and needing medical help.
Me putting up 144 no trespassing signs across the end of my driveway, to keep out violent, bomb building home invaders, is not me needing medical help.
You trespassing on my private property, breaking into my house at 1AM, and putting a bomb in my kitchen, you shooting at me when I try to get my mail, you bring your entire church congregation to my yard and standing my my driveway calling me a demon possessed witch... that's YOU needing medical help.
Get your facts straight.
I'm not bothering anybody. You are.
I never leave me land. You are invading my privacy.
I'm sitting here painting and sewing and trying to ignore you yelling at me. You are the one harassing me.
I'm not the one coming to your house bothering you. YOU are the one coming to my house bothering me.
Think about it.
If I'm crazy... what are YOU?
I’d just like the whole pack of them to leave me alone . . . I don’t need a bunch of Hitlers in my life telling me how to act, how to talk (which I don’t and that pisses most people off), or anything else. I am not you, why do you expect me to act just like you do?
I am not a clone.
I am me.
I am normal.
Normal is what you were born as.
Every one was born to be normal in their own way. Just because what is normal for me, is not normal for you, doesn’t make it wrong or bad, or anything else. It just means that for me, normal is different than it is for you.
Besides, when you start being rude and staring at me and trying to get me to stare at you, and rudely talking to me, when I didn’t speak to your first, I look at you and think: “What the hell is wrong with this freak? Didn’t any one ever teach them any manners? ”
If you had decent manners you would know it was rude to stare and rude to speak when not spoken to, and yet, here you are trying to make eye contact with me and talking your fool head off.
You see, in my mind, it is you being weird and freaky and not acting normal, but do I try to poke pills at you or call you retarded?
No. I don’t do those things because I have the moral decency not to be rude.
I esp don’t like people who walk up to you and say: “Why don’t you answer me? What are you retarded?” I really, really, REALLY hate that. To be retarded you require an IQ of 70 or less. The average IQ is 90 – 100. Less than 3% of the population has an IQ above 130. Want to know what my IQ is? I’ll tell you. It’s 138. I don't like taking about it and I wouldn't bring it up, if YOU were not yelling at me and saying I'm retarded. Do you even know what retarded means? Look it up. Retarded means having an IQ of 70 or less. I’m about as far as you can get from being retarded, so don’t call me retarded just because I don’t talk or make eye contact.
I’ve been asked why I don’t join any groups for people like me. I’m afraid I can’t really comment on those groups because I’m not familiar with any of the autism groups. I’m not a busy body who needs constant gossip (what most people call socialization, I call rude gossiping). The way I see it, that’s all those so-called groups are. A place to gossip and waste time. My time is better spent elsewhere.
Thing is, I've never been included.
I am unwanted.
I know this, because people tell me every day, that they do not want to be near me, do not want to spend time with me, and would never dream of including someone like me in any activity where they would have to be seen in public with me.
My family tells me this. My mother. Even my so-called best friend, the high priest, who says he can not be seen in public with me because "What would the bishop think" or "What would Rick think?"
I wasn't allowed to go to school.
I wasn't allow to go to the doctor. Not even through any of the pregnancies and miscarriage. 7 total. The first one happened when I was 14. I'm not supposed to talk about them. I'm supposed to pretend they never happened. I would loved to have loved my babies. Had they lived, at least I would have had someone human to talk to. But I'm not even allowed to acknowledge them at alll. "What would the bishop think?" The high priest does not care that his own children are dead. He is glad of it. Now the bishop will never know what he did. That's all he cares about - what the bishop will think. He doesn't care about me, my pain, my sadness, my loneliness.... I'm not even allowed to morn my dead babies. I'm supposed to pretend they never happened. How can he be so mean, so evil, so cruel, so cold, so heartless? There is no love in him. He is a very selfish man, who only cares how he looks to the bishop. Nothing else matters to him.
My mother says he loves me. She says he wouldn't spend so much money on our family to have me, if he didn't.
I don't believe her.
I don't think he knows how to love. He cares only about himself and how he looks to the church. He may be able to hide 7 dead babies from the bishop... but he can not hide them from god. God knows what he did. God sees all. God knows all. He can lie and say there was no baby... but god knows the truth.
He does not love me.
If he loved me, he would let me mourn my dead babies.
I am unloved.
I know this, because the only two people to tell me they loved me are both dead. Grammy Helen died when I was 8. Grammy Eva died when I was 17. No one else ever tells me they love me. They are too busy telling me I'm twisted, corrupted, evil, unholy, unrighteous, or the child of Satan.
Once in a while, one of them will have the snarky comment "Will, at least Jesus loves you. Don't know why he would, but, he even loves shit like you."
My mother only ever allowed me to have one friend. The high priest who raped me every day, and paid my parents bills in exchange. He's the only friend she would let me have. He's 30 years older then me. I've been forced to obey his every whim since I was 12. He says I can't have any friends other then him either, because if I had other friends, they'd find out about him, and no one can know. He doesn't allow me to get a job or drive a car. I'm almost 40 years old and he won't let me get a driver's license. Sex is all he cares about. Sex and money. He uses sex as a weapon - forces it on me when I don't want it; refuses it when I do. He is extreme sadistic and very sexually, verbally, and emotionally abusive.
Of course, as the years went by, I have learned that I don’t like being around people.
No one has anything good to say to me.
No one has anything good to say about me.
The only time I'm ever included in any group activities, it's so they can bully me, tease me, and push me.
I've never had a friend.
I used to want a friend.
I've given up hoping that there will every be a kind or loving person in my life who wants to be my friend. My cats are the only friends I have. My cats are the only ones I have to talk to. My cats are the only ones I have who will spend time with me. My cats are the only reason I go one each day. My cats are the only reason I have to want to live. I'd have killed myself years ago if I didn't have my cats to love me.
Why is the high priest so mean to me? He talks in terms of punishment. Punishment, for no going to church, when it is he who will not let me go to church. He yells at me constantly because I do not have a temple recommend and yet I do not have a temple recommend because he told the bishop I was not allowed to have one. If I try to take the sacraments he grabs my arm and drags me from the church and says I'm not allowed to take them, but when we get home he makes me sleep outside under the tarp because I didn't take them.
I don't know which one of him to obey or believe, he changes who he is so many times a day. He has 7 different people that he is, most of them I can tolerate, but not the high priest. The high priest so evil, he makes grandpa and the uncles look like saints. I hate the high priest. He is evil beyond evil. So full of hate. So cruel.
February 10, 2007 was the coldest day in Maine history. It was -47F below zero, -112F with wind chill factor. I begged him and begged him to please let me sleep inside. It is so cold I can barely feel my hands. My lungs hurt. It hurts to breath. He won't me in. He says "What would the bishop think, if he let a sinner like me sleep in the house at night." I'm losing the use of my left hand. It hakes all the time and can not feel my fingers any more. Why is he doing this to me? My cats are under the tarp with me. He only lets his two cats Jerry and Tom sleep inside at night. He makes my cats stay outside too. They keep me warm at night. It is so cold. The wind goes through the tarp like it's not even there.
No one loves me. I used to wish and pray every day for some one to love me.
But god never heard my prayers. I'm not sure I believe he's there any more.
It's hard to believe in someone who never does anything to let you know he is there.
If he is there, he certainly doesn't care about me or love me enough to let me have a friend. I don't know why he hates me so much. I wish at least god would love me. But he doesn't. No one does. My cats are the only ones who do. They are the only ones who care. If I didn't have my cats, I wouldn't bother being alive tomorrow. I've no reason to want to live. No one loves me. I have no one to love.
There is no greater happiness, then to love and be loved in return. I wish someone loved me.
I don’t like to get involved in groups and such, because that means being around people and being out in public, both of which means there will be folks pestering me to talk and that’ll lead to teasing, and I really don’t want to deal with rude, cruel mouthed, and cuts and bruises from them beating me up, and the pain of the high priest not letting me go to a doctor because the doctors might find out about him, mean people anymore so I rarely leave the house anymore.
I used to try to be around people. I used to want to be around people. But there is just so many times you can call a person retarded, or schizoid, or crazy, before I finally, say: Why did I want to be around people when all people do is hurt me?
For 30 years I dreamed and hoped and wished and prayed... I wanted to be around people. I wanted to be loved. I wanted a friend. But I know now that god hate me and will never allow me to have those things. The high priest is right: I am too ugly to be loved, too unworthy, no one will ever love me. No one will ever want me. I have my cats and when they are gone, I will kill myself and then the high priest will not have to worry about hiding me from his bishop any more, and he can be happy and can be free, and maybe in the next life, some one there will love me, because no one here does.
People preach kindness and understanding and acceptance, but you’d be surprised how very few actually practice what they preach when they are forced to come face to face with someone like me.
I wish someone would love me.
I wish some one would be my friend.
I wish I had someone to talk too.
I wish someone would spend time with me.
The section above was originally written in 2007.
A 2017 10th Anniversary update is coming soon and will appear in this section below.
My cats are gone.
Evil people took them.
Evil people killed them.
Evil people cut their heads off.
Evil people nailed their heads to the door.
I questioned the existence of god 10 years ago... now I know without a doubt, there is no god.
The only friends I had are gone. Murdered by monsters who call themselves humans.
I repeat what I said on Squidoo 10 years ago....
I wish someone would love me.
I wish some one would be my friend.
I wish I had someone to talk too.
I wish someone would spend time with me.
Back then I had my cats.
Now I have no one at all.
I wish I had my cats to love me still, now I have no one at all.
I wish I still had my cats to be my friends.
I wish I had my cats to talk too.
I wish I had my cats to spend time with me.
And the high priest is worse then ever. He no longer worries about what the bishop thinks - he's left the Mormon church. Now all he cares about is doing good deeds to others (while continuing to abuse and neglect me) he's doing good deeds, because each good deed is another gold brick added to his mansion in heaven, or so he says.... so says the man who thinks nothing of raping children and wiping away all memory of the existence of the children he fathered in children.
He made me live under the tarp for 9 years. From May 9, 2006, until March 31, 2015. I've lost most of the use of my left arm. I never recovered the frostbrite from 2007, my arm hurts all the time. It's difficult for me to type or hold a pen. The frostbite damaged my hands. I only have 3 fingers that still function well enough to type with now. I used to be a speed typer. Typed 191 words a minute. I can't draw any more. I can't sew anymore. The frost bit from 9 years living under the tarp, has crippled my hands. I continue to write but it's very hard now. My lungs have permanent damage now. It hurts to breath all the time now, not just in the winter.
He doesn't care, how badly he hurt my hands, or how little I can do any more. How crippled I've become. All he cares about is building his mansion in heaven. He keeps talking about the gold bricks and how every penny he put in a Salvation Army bin, is another gold brick for his mansion.
Does he really think, God is going to reward him for his PUBLIC SHOWS of charity, when he's so very abusive to his own family?
The last miscarriage was in 2006. He made me live under the tarp, because I dared get pregnant, and that's not allowed. He won't allow me to have children. He hates children.
I had a stroke in 2010, but he wouldn't let me go to the doctor. Something happened to my brain after the stroke - I can talk now. I'm not mute any more. I can speak in full sentence now instead of just garbled gibberish.
I have a driver's license now. Got that in 2012. Had to fight like hell to get it. But he put a locking gas cap on my car and keep track of the miles. I'm not allowed to go anywhere. He still won't let me have any friends.
10 years ago, I at least had my cats. Now I have no one, and I find it even harder now, to want to live.
Who killed my cats? And why? Why would someone do that? They all I had. Now I have no one.
No one cares.
It's bad enough no one cares, but some where out there, is someone who hates me, so much that they murdered to only ones who did care about me.
I want it to end. I don't want to live in this world any more.
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“Don’t turn your face away. Once you’ve seen, you can no longer act like you don’t know. Open your eyes to the truth. It’s all around you. Don’t deny what the eyes to your soul have revealed to you. Now that you know, you cannot feign ignorance. Now that you’re aware of the problem, you cannot pretend you don’t care. To be concerned is to be human. To act is to care.”
― Vashti Quiroz-Vega
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The following pictures were taken on May 14, 2015, when the police officer who confessed to doing the majority of the damage and vandalism, let me go to the kennel where my cats were being held hostage to see them. You can see from the photos, the horrific living conditions my cats have been kept in these past 4 months since they were kidnapped on April 10, 2015. Each cat is being kept in a cage that is not even big enough for them to move.
The cats are shown from oldest to youngest:
Georgie - age 15
Emily - age 15
Mittens - age 15
Bela Lugosi - age 14
Dog - age 10
Fizzgig - age 9
Kewpie - age 6
Blackie - age 5
Sprout - age 5
Pipsisewah (Pippi) - age 5
Full details on how, when, and why the cats were kidnapped can be found ON THIS PAGE.
The cats are currently be held hostage HERE.
These senior house cats are being listed as feral barn cats, a fact that I find very upsetting. The description they have placed on my cats is as follows:
Desperately Seeking Barns
FoFF currently has dozens of feral cats, who will be fixed and vaccinated, needing country or semi-rural homes with barns or other outbuildings to relocate to. These cats will lose their feeders but cannot be fixed and relocated until they have places to go. (Which could mean more new kittens in the meantime.) Please help us by adopting 1, 2 or even a small group. In turn they will keep your barn free of rodents and other critters. Usual donation of $40 per cat reduced to what you can afford so we can help as many as possible. Help us get these guys into homes before winter!
Please help--the need is great!
Contact apfish255@gmail.com or call 797-3014.
A feral cat is one that has lived apart from humans for so long that it is not socialized to humans. It has been abandoned or was born in the wild and has lived so long in the wild that it is not a candidate for adoption into a home.
A stray cat, on the other hand, is a domestic cat that has been abandoned or lost. It can usually be socialized to live with humans again in a home.
Feral cats are best suited to living outdoors with shelter in a safe place, food, and water. If they are vaccinated against rabies and spayed or neutered, they can live a contented life.
Uncared-for feral cats may struggle to live and eat, are subject to accidents and illness, inclement weather, and injuries from fights with other cats. Feral kittens up to 8 or 10 weeks of life can be socialized to live in homes, but not after this period.
The best way to help feral cats is TNR, a program of
Got mice? Put feral cats to work for you, in exchange for room and board!
Many feral cats are not likely to be be suitable as indoor housecats, but you can still give them a safe, warm home in your barn, and in exchange, they'll keep the rat and mouse population under control.
We're always looking for homes in barns, garages, sheds, or other outbuildings for feral cats who must be relocated from their colonies.
All FoFF barn cats are vaccinated and spayed or neutered. We recommend the adoption of two or more from the same colony so they have the companionship they need.
We ask that cats be given dry cat food and fresh water every day, and they must be contained for one week or longer in a large wire kennel (which FoFF can provide), to allow them to acclimate to their new environment.
Do you see what those monsters are saying about my DOMESTIC HOUSE CATS that LIVED WITH ME FOR 15 YEARS!
These people are so racist and so bigoted against Gypsies that they don't even consider us humans. Do you see what they said?
A feral cat is one that has lived apart from humans for so long that it is not socialized to humans. It has been abandoned or was born in the wild and has lived so long in the wild that it is not a candidate for adoption into a home.
In the eyes of these people, I am not a human, they admit it right on their web site.
These monster broke into my home, ripped to door off, tore the furniture up and smashed it to pieces, shredded my sofa with a pitchfork, that they left in it when they left, shedded our bedding, and pumped hundreds of gallons of raw sewage into our house - on my bed, 3 feet deep on my floors, on my counters, on my walls, on my ceiling.
These vile, racist, hate filled monster did that to my house, and then took my cats, claiming that the house was already like that when they arrived.
Friends of Feral Felines and their violent, racist, hate filled criminal operation needs to be shut down.
These people PRETEND to help cats, but look at what they did, to take my cats. The violence, the vandalism. They are running a scam operation. These monsters break into peoples home while they are gone to work, trash their houses, fill their houses with sewage, and then call the police to illegally seize the cats and charge the owners will thousands of dollars in vet bills. Then they list the cats for sale on their website, claiming that the fees they charge of for the vet bills, that the owners ALREADY PAID FOR.
They beat my cats heads in, two of them are crippled for life now, and those bastards had the nerve to send me the $2,000 vet bill for the injuries they did to my cats.
How many other families has this criminal operation destroyed?
How many cats have they stolen away from their families?
How many homes have they broken into and trashed?
How many innocent people have they set up the way they set me up?
This has to stop.
This group must be shut down before they attack another innocent family.
This group must be shut down before they destroy more lives.
This group must be shut down before they hurt more cats.
And to think, I used to fund Friends of Feral Felines.
As the founder of the Proctor & Gamble Boycott, I declare a new boycott founded. From now on, we boycotters of P&G add a new company to our list: Friends of Feral Felines - may their vile criminal members spend eternity in hell forever having their heads beat in by cats.
Please get my cats away from these monsters and bring them home.
VERY old picture of Georgie and Emily, back in the house that was blown up by a grease fryer bomb on October 18, 2006... back in the days before I had a neighbor with a backhoe hell bent on putting a condominium on my land. yep - these cats are so old, I had them before the harasser moved to Maine. the man behind the sewage dumped in my house to frame me, thus why ten cats were taken on false charges, is the EXACT SAME man who has now run over 3 separate houses. This man has no morals whatsoever and sees nothing wrong with driving backhoes over our houses as fast as we build them.
Cats in motorhome - notice white flokati wall to wall carpeting - not a feces in sight, because I vacuumed daily.
Under the bed, sleeping on the flokati - notice how WHITE and CLEAN i kept the inside of my motorhome. (And how infuriated I am that the kidnapping bastards thought nothing of filling my home with feces and sewage and destroyed my white flokati in addition to kidnapping my cats.)
Bela - a few HOURS before the kidnappers destroyed our home and stole our cats.
Me, Bela, and Georgie - 2 days before kidnapping.