Never Forget: My Son Was Murdered - The Killer Walks Free - Your Child Could Be Next

If you have ever encountered my Volvo and wondered what the signs on the windows say. here is the text:

If you have any information, about the group of 70+ people who ganged up on me and murdered my infant son,

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.

April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.

September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (the thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).

June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.

I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.

There are more details, on the other sign, on the other window, on the other side of the car.

NEVER FORGET:

On Christmas Day December 2023, my son would have celebrated his 10th birthday... but...

...On November 14, 2013, my unborn son was murdered by CHRISTIANS who mistook me, a straight 8 month pregnant woman, for a gay man, and attacked me with golf clubs, in The SMCC parking lot at 10PM while I was putting bags in my car.

And THAT is WHY I painted this car... so you would come closer, to see the art, and read about my son's murder, so that you can spread awareness, and prevent what happened to me, from happening to anyone else.

Your hatred defines you, and you are NOT a Christian and are NOT doing Jesus' work if you are actively trying to hurt people.

Is MURDERING PEOPLE REALLY what your God teaches?

I am not only a Christian; I am an ordained minister, and a devote practitioner of Folk Catholicism. Because JESUS TAUGHT all women to cover their heads, I wear a veil, exactly as the Catholic Church teaches us to do. I was wearing a veil the day my son was murdered, the day I was crippled. The attackers, while beating me with a golf club, not only falsely accused me of being a gay man, but they also accused me of being what they termed "a Muslim terrorist", because I wear a veil. These so called Christians knew so little about what their Jesus taught, that they didn't know Jesus commanded woman to wear veils.

I am crippled for the rest of my life, and my son is DEAD, because HATERS were "doing Jesus' work" and getting rid of what they THOUGHT was a gay man in a dress.

Ask yourself this: is murdering people REALLY what Jesus would do? Is hating LGBTQAI+ people REALLY what Jesus would do?

I don't think so. Jesus taught to love EVERYONE. And if YOU hate the LGBTQAI+ community, then you have no clue what it means to be Christian and are giving Christians a bad name. And you ought to be ashamed of yourself.

There are more details on the other sign, on the other side of the car... read it too... because there was more then one attack, the group was more then 70 people, and the FBI is looking for this group of 70+ murderers who murdered my son.

If you have any information about the group of 70+ people who ganged up on me and murdered my infant son,

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

More Info @ eelkat.com

Update: November 7, 2022

This week we should be celebrating the 9th birthday of my son.

Instead we are celebrating the 9th anniversary since his murder.

If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.

On top of that, they have also taken to harassing the baby's father, a disfigured, homeless, WW2 veteran, whom they call "Etoile". They spread hateful rumours about him claiming he is a cryptid, a demon, or most often what they term "an amphibious alien". He lives in pine branch lean-toos he builds in Old Orchard Beach and Ocean Park, and they have been hunting the locations of them, tearing them down, and smashing up his belongings.

April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.

September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (they thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).

June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.

November 21, 2021: They shot "Etiole" in Biddeford, while he was staying at the tent-shanty-village with about 50 other homeless people along the Saco River in Biddeford. They made the claim he was a "suicide demon" citing that he was driving locals to suicide by putting "evil eye curses" on them.

These people murdered my baby, attempted to murder the baby's father, drove a backhoe over our house, and left me crippled for the rest of my life in their attempt to murder me.

I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The police and FBI believe I was not the intended target, and that they were likely after my mother because of posts she makes on FaceBook and got us mixed up. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.

These people who show up to vandalize, while they scream about aliens and demons and Etiole, prove how retarded they are by their own words.

Why?

Because only a retarded person believes in aliens.

Because only a retarded person believes in ufos.

Because only a retarded person believes in demons.

Because only a retarded person believes in ghosts.

Because only a retarded person believes in haunted cars.

Because only a retarded person believes in demon possessed cars.

Because only a retarded person believes in alien abduction.

The inbred insect locals of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine are too damned retarded to know how much of a fool they make themselves look when they run around calling my cars demon possessed, calling my husband an alien, and calling me an alien abductee.

More Info @ eelkat.com

Long detailed info on the over 200 attacks they have done between June 2001 and May 2022, including photos of them driving a backhoe over our house on August 8, 2013 and the details of the malicious "amphibious alien" rumour they have been spreading about a local homeless disabled veteran @
https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html

Images:

July 4th 2013: my car in front of my house.

August 8, 2013: me getting home from work to find a backhoe sitting on top of my house.

The FBI already found the people with the backhoe incident, and learned that the backhoe driver was paid $600 and given a fake demolition paper, the paper stating one of my relatives (the one who paid him the $600) owned my land. The backhoe driver was unaware that the man he was dealing with was not the owner. I have lived at 146 Portland Ave since 1975 and have owned the land since 1983, it has never been owned by anyone else, even though we have now learned that both my mother and my father and 3 of my uncles had been actively going around Old Orchard Beach claiming they owned my land.

This happened 3 months before my son was murdered and the police and FBI believe my son was murdered BECAUSE of this picture being posted on FaceBook, and my mother making inciting/inflammatory posts about it on HER FaceBook, where she falsely accused me of being a witch. The FBI and OOB police believe the golf club wielding woman of November 14, 2013, is somehow connected to the backhoe driving over my house incident.

Since the murder, 3 other different backhoes have invading my land to dig up my yard, looking for the grave of my son. There is a family cemetery on my land, the stones dating mostly in the 1500s and 1600s, with a few from the past hundred years, the most recent being my son in 2013. 146 Portland Ave has belonged to my family since 1530, and I inherited it in 1983 from my grandmother Helen Ricker Allen. The most recent backhoe attack happened September 19, 2020, when they illegally cut down several trees in my yard, and started construction of a road through my yard between my pink 1975 Dodge Sportsman motorhome and BackElder Brooke, again the backhoe digging up and destroying large portions of my farm, in their search for my murdered son's grave. They dug up 16 of the graves in this attack.

We have had to remove the grave markers from the family grave in order to stop these vandals and their illegally trespassing construction equipment from destroying the graves.

The FBI believes these construction crews are being hired by the golf club wielding women, and believe she is trying to destroy the grave of my son, due to a fear of his golf club smashed skull being used as court evidence against her.

The most recent attacks by these people occurred November 21, 2021 and March 27, 2022 when they attacked my painted Volvo while it was parked at my dad's apartment in Biddeford, both times the vandals also cut all the wires to electricity, internet, and cable off the apartment building, effecting all 9 families living there.

The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police Departments as well as the Portland FBI are seeking any information regarding any and all of these attacks on my family, my home, my land, or my cars.

If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

And no... to those who asked... the FBI is not looking for info on the 4-door white truck driver... the FBI has ALREADY ARRESTED the driver and owner of the 4-door white truck - 2 different people. The 4-door white truck was owned by Old Orchard Beach Town Hall clerk and Old Orchard Beach Police Department Dispather Kathy Smith, Relief Society President of the Saco Ward of the Agusta Stake Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Her son was the driver. They were both arrested and sentenced in 2017, and were also both excommunicated from the Mormon church as a result of their MANY hate crimes, which included but were not limited to the 4 door white truck attacks of 2013 to 2016.

Yes. A LOT of arrests have already been made. Do keep in mind the April 10, 2015 attack involved 74 people who were wearing Ku Klux Klan style white robes and pillow cases over their heads (which is how you can tell they were not real, actual Ku Klux Klan members as the REAL Ku Klux Klan wear miters on their heads, NOT pillow cases). There are in total MORE THEN 74 people actively being hunted down by twenty-one different Maine police departments, the Maine state police, the Florida State police, the Connecticut State police, and the FBI.

Since the backhoe attack of August 8, 2013, there have been a whooping 24 arrests JUST IN TWO CHURCHES:

The Saco Ward of the Augusta Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints

and

The Sanford Ward of the Exeter Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints.

There have been additional arrests at the following three churches which all have the same owner:

Grace Point in Biddeford

New Life (aka That Church in front of WalMart) in Biddeford

and

Curtis Lake Church in Sanford

Due to the alarmingly high rate of arrests and prison sentences made at these 5 churches, the police and FBI have focused the bulk of their investigation on all members of these five congregations, with the bulk of the investigation being on the two Mormon churches and all friends, family, and relatives of the members of those five churches, as it is believed that ALL people involved in the murder and 20+ years of harassment of my family, are all members of these 5 churches and or friends, family, and relatives of these five churches.

To date, 64 of the 74 suspected white hood wearers of April 10, 2015, have commit suidice, four of which when killing themselves, also killed 5 or more members of their families with them at the same time. One of them was Old Orchard Beach Police officer Bruce Savoy, who killed his entire family and then himself.

The police and FBI believe there is a suicide pact between the 74 attackers who arrived April 10, 2015 on my farm at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... as 64 of them have now commit suicide, between 2015 and 2023.

Additionally, Agent Andy Drewer was NOT the original FBI agent heading the case. Laura was. FBI agent Laura was murdered February 6, 2021, during her attempt to arrest a murder suspect who was in Florida at the time he murdered her. So in addition to murdering my son, these people have now also murdered an FBI agent.

People around local, seem to forget that what happened April 10, 2015, was not some local hick beating up one person... this was a large PREMEDITATIED ORGANIZED EVENT which drew in a CROWD of WELL OVER ONE HUNDRED PEOPLE to activly participate in beating to deth and beheading ten children, the oldest being aged 16 and the youngest being aged just 4 years old.

What the people of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine did was monstrous on levels of extreemes.

And then when the FBI agents tried to arrest these people, they ganged up again on February 6, 2021 and murdered, not one, but THREE FBI agents.

This is an organized terrorist group that is activly killing people here in Maine.... and this Claire woman that murdered my baby, the one the FBI believes is the ring leader who has been organizing these events.... and when I say events... I was NOT the first family attacked.

According to the FBI, the April 10, 2015 attack was the ELEVENTH such attack to happen on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine since June 2001.

And since the April 10, 2015 attack on my family, this VERY LARGE hate group has repeated this even seven more times, to seven more families all on just one street, all on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... in total, this extremist fanatical Christian hate group has murdered more then 120 CHILDREN, just on our one street alone.

And in every case, the grand of white hood wearers was chanting the same mantra: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach, kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaws". 

This terrorist group is murdering anyone on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, whom they believe of being gay or transgender, whether or not they are gay or transgender.

These people are beyond evil. And this Claire woman is their leader, and she's the one the FBI wants.

If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Update: February 12, 2023

I have a weird text message… from the woman, a relative who looks enough like me to pass for my twin…from the women, who keeps pretending to be me, the one who lat Aprile pretended to be me and tried to sell my land, the one who in 2007 pretended to be me and hired a guy with a backhoe to dig holes in my land under the guise of putting in a septic system that I never ordered… the woman who in 2013 hired the same back hoe to drive over my house…

the woman the FBI suspects of being the one who hired the golf club woman also in 2013 to cripple me nd murder my baby… the same woman who was in my yard April 10, 2015 again pretending to be me when she locked her cats in my motorhome, the same woman who took out 27 credit cards in my name and ran them each up to $20k max, me, who’s never had a credit card in my life because I can’t count or do math so also can’t do money or numbers, …. The same woman who creates several online accounts pretending to be me on those… that woman… just sent me a text message, wants me to go with her to Bug Light lighthouse tomorrow…

Uhm… Bug Light lighthouse art studio is where I was November 14, 2013, when the Claire and Kendra women broke my spine with a gold club… so, why does this woman who has a 50 year history of impersonating me… the woman who convinced half of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford that she owned my land, and has half the locals convinced that SHE and not ME, is me… she, suddenly wants me to met with her at the exact location where the blond Claire and red haired Kendra women - whom the FBI are still trying to find out the identity of - crippled me 9 years ago… and she won’t tell me why.

Well, at the moment I am recovering from, a broken pelvis, so, I can’t get out of bed, I haven’t been able to get out of bed since December, it’s not February. So, even if I would meet up with her, which I wouldn’t, right now, I can’t anyways.

She’s an Atwater… yes, the sister of Bruce Atwater… you remember him, he’s the one who was a member of Heaven’s Gate, and is so obsessed with aliens, that he and her, she helped him by pretending to be me, yet again… went around with the whole “amphibious aliens” rumors, making the claim I was abducted by aliens, calling my husband Ben Wildes, an aliens, dubbing him Etiole… he is by the way, the guy you see walking my dog with me in Biddeford… so, yeah you locals have met and talked to “Etiole” quite frequently, he attends the Saco Ward Church or Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and spent 48 years as the High Preist Quarum Leader of the Sandford Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of atter Day saists, he left the Mormon church in May 2015, after our children were murdered… thhey were kidnapped April 10, 2015, the same day the impersonator bitch locked her ten cats in my motorhome and tried to pretend they were mine, called the police, the police, Will Watson specifically, took her cats, and did not arrest me, because, they weren’t my cats… then she spent the past 9 years running around saying they were my cats and because it happened the same day, she also tries to convince people that mychildren never existed and that her cats are my children… what the fuck? She’s a raving lunatic.

She’s the one who who runs around screaming “Mark and Dan this and Mark and Dan that” and I don’t know who the fuck her Mark or her Dan are, however, the psychotic gun totoing white haired man with a green pickup truck, regularly arrives in my driveway to yell at me a, claiming he’s Mark, while saying I’m deframing him, and I don’t know who the hell he is… but apparently, he’s the Mark she keeps talking about, and she’s fighting with him while claiming to be me, so now, he’s mad at me because of something she said, but I don’t even know who the hell he is or what he’s talking about.

This is the same woman who ran around cutting the internet and electric wires off my Biddeford apartment building in 2021, while screaming about Tod Murphy, and I still don’t know who Todd Muruphrey is yet… except she and her friends claim he was hit by an Amtrak train Nov 21, 2021 at 10PM, and you can check the police records, no one was hit by a train that day… However, as you all saw on my dog walking livestream on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27pm, 4 women on bikes chased a homeless man on the the freight train tracks a quarter mile away from the Amtrak train tracks… I have it on video and I’m the one who called the police. Apparently, that’s the train accident she was talking about, be she had all the dates and times and names wrong, AND, for a full 8 months after that, I had to deal with her Atwater hoodlums and their friend vandalizing my car… they did more then $10k in damages, which yes, that why I don’t have my car again, in case you hadn’t noticed a 40 year old antique car is rather difficult to find parts for.

This woman… the one who does all of these things… oh yeah, by the way, you remember the woman who cut my 1964 Dodge 330 in half on May 9, 2010… yeah… same damn woman… and the same woman who took a fucking sledge hammer to my 1974 AMC Gremlin… that woman, the same one woman who has done ALL of these things… just sent me a text, wanting me to meet her at Bug Light lighthouse, where her Claire and Kendra buddies crippled me and murdered my baby 9 years ago.

No!

Fucking no!

Why can’t this bitch leave me and my family alone!

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!!!

Bug Light? Really? The location where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life?

Really. She wants me to meet her at Bug Light Lighthouse.

Why?

I don't know.

She won't tell  me. It's all a big secret.

Everything's always a big secret with the Atwaters. Because everything has to be a secret with criminals. If their crimes get found out, they end up in jail. That's how criminal thugs operate. In secret. So she she can't do anything without it being some big grand secret.

Why do you want me to meet you at BugLight, the lcation where my baby was murdered?

It's a secret, I can't tell you, you just have to come and find out.

No.

For one thing my car is not here, because oh, fucking Atwater scum bags vandalized it.

For another thing, I have a broken pelvis, I have been able to get out of bed since a week before Christmas 2022.

This is the 3rd time my pelvis has rebroken, since it was originally broken by the golf club weilding Claire bitch at... oh, BugLight lighthouse!

This is the same woman and her Mark simp from the day the police showed up at my Biddeford apartment to ask:

Police: "You're EelKat, right?"

Me: "No, that's what people call me though. EelKats a fictional character from my books."

Police: "This is Biddeford, right?"

Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"

Police: "And I'm standing here in Biddeford right now, talking to you, right?"

Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"

Officer starts talking in his phone to officers Will and Robby of Old Orchard Beach Police Department: "Yeah, she's right here with me, I'm talking to her right now. Got her Autism car here and everything."

Will and Robbie: "Yeah, that's what I been saying. This isn't her."

Me: "What's going on?"

Police: "Wolfboy is trespassing on your property again…"

Me: "Wolfboy? Who's Wolfboy?"

Police: "Mark. We call him Wolfboy. He calls 911 a few dozen times a day. Constant false complaints about every one. Boy who cries wolf you know."

Me: "Who's Mark? I don't know anyone named Mark."

Police: "Town busy body. Gossips and complains about every one. He's a real pain in the ass. Pardon my French. Can't leave anyone alone."

Me: "Why is he in my yard?"

Police: "Citizens arrest. Says he's arresting you."

Me: "Me?"

Police: "Yeah. He's got some bogus court documents that say you are not allowed on your own property because you're gay."

Me: "I'm gay? How am I gay?"

Police: "Yeah. Well Wolfboy thinks everybody is gay. He's waiting for the gaypocalypse, you know?"

Me: "What's the gaypocalypse?"

Police: "He thinks us guys are going to mass murder all the Christians. We have to deal with his fake 911 calls reporting us gaaaaaayz all the time."

Me: "I take it you're gay?"

Police: "Ahyap, several of us on the department. We don't like jerks like Wolfboy. He harasses people like you all the time."

Me: "Like me?"

Police: "Disabled. He targets disabled women. Thinks it makes him a man. You might not remember me. I was the one who came with the ambulance. You know? I knew you were laid up in bed here and couldn't be in Old Orchard right now, seeing how you can't walk, let alone drive."

Me: "And you said he's in my yard right now?"

Police: "Yep. He says you hired him to dig a septic tank."

Me: "I what?"

Police: "Yeah, we know. We checked. It wasn't you. We got this woman who's impersonating you. She's the one he's trying to arrest right now. She hired him to dig a hole in your front lawn. She says she's EelKat. That's why I'm here, to make sure you are here in Biddeford and not in Old Orchard Beach, right now. Buddy Will and Robbie are dealing with it."

Me: "Why is there anyone in my yard? There should never be anyone in my yard!"

Police: "Yep, we know. Wolfboy and crew do this sort of thing every day. You have no idea how often we have to deal with his crew of chronic 911 false report complainers. Whole family's crazy."

Me: "So, you're telling me there are two people in Old Orchard, right now, on my land, fighting over my land, and one of them is claiming to be me?"

Police: "Yeah, that's the deal."

Me: "He says I hired him to build a septic tank?"

Police: "Yep."

Me: "Do I look like I can afford to have a septic tank built? I have twenty million in medical bills. I can't even walk! What would I even do with a septic system, my bladder and intestines don't work, I wear adult diapers because I can't even use a toilet! Why would I of all people have a septic tank put in?"

Police: "Yeah. I know. I don't think Wolfboy and crew know how crippled you are. That's why we knew whoever he had in your yard, wasn't you. I also, don't think he's ever met you. We showed him a picture of you, and he swears that it wasn't you. We showed him a picture of *name removed* and he says that's you."

Me: "She's not me."

Police: "We know."

Me: "She's been after my land for decades. Was trying to get it aways from Grammy Helen, before I inherited it."

Police: "Oh, we know. Police reports from your Helen Ricker go all the way back to the 60s. They been after the Ricker farm since before you was born. Wolfboy's bitten off more than he can chew this time. He don't know who he's dealing with. He never should have gotten messed up with the Bacon Street Gang."

Me: "Bacon Street Gang?"

Police: "Ahyep. That's who Wolfboy has got tangled up with."

Me: "Who's the Bacon Street Gang?"

Police: "A gang. Think of them as kind of like the local Mafia, only worse. Most of them are doing time for murder. A few of them are out now. I don't think Wolfboy knows that's who he's dealing with any more than he knows who you are. He wouldn't be down there right now claiming she's you if he'd ever actually met you face to face."

That woman and that Mark, are the ones behind most of the rumors and misinformation spread about me.

The woman I know. She's a relative, with a long list of mental health problems.

Her Mark buddy, that the local police call Wolfboy, I don't know. I've never seen him. Never met him as far as I know. Obviously he's some friend of hers, probably one of her exs as she has a lot of them. She's got a bad reputation for slutting around with married men and breaking up families.

But all these wild alien abduction, transgender, ufo, nutcase rumors that get spread about me, whenever I ask "Who told you that lie?" They always say it came from her, my Uncle Bruce, or some guy named Mark.

And clearly this Mark guy is talking about her, but he uses MY name when he does it, because he's convinced she is Me. It's incredibly obvious this Mark guy has never met me and has no clue he's being scammed by her. But it is incredibly annoying because, I'm the one who is crippled for the rest of my life because some blonde bitch named Claire beat me up with a golf club at Southern Maine Community College Bug Light Art Studio on November 14, 2013, while screaming "Kill or be killed, gotta kill the transvestite freaks before they kill us all!" I was 8 months pregnant. That mystery Claire bitch not only left me crippled, she also murdered my baby. Why? Because this mystery Mark guy runs around calling me transgender and gay even though I'm not trans or gay. And he's only doing that because this nut job Atwater woman who pretends to be me, is after my land, so she runs around doing crazy ass shit while pretending to be me, in order to start the crazy ass rumors in the first place!

This Claire woman is the one the FBI is looking for information on. Because no one knows who the hell she is. She's just some random nut job who clawed out of the woodwork and showed up at college one day to attack me and kill me baby, while screaming utter insanity. The guy with her called her Claire, beyond that we've no clue who she is.

This Claire woman is the one wanted for murder, agitated assault, and owes me $20million in medical bills. If she's ever identified, she's also got life in prison for murder to look forward to.

No, I can not identify her: I am blind.

Did you forget I am blind? I've been blind my whole life.

I am legally blind. I can not see faces, not even if you are close to me. I can not make out the colour of skin because there is so little variation in colour from light to dark. I can only identify the attackers by their hair colour, because I am blind and can no see their faces. That is why I do not know who these people are. I'm blind. I've been blind since I was 8 years old. I can only identify people by their scent and the sound of their voice. Yes, the golf club woman attacked a blind pregnant women, and the FBI needs help to identify her because, I'm blind, I can only id her by the sound of her voice, and I've only encountered her twice...

November 14, 2013 when she crippled me with a golf club and murdered my babyat SMCC, and June 26, 2016 when she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarboror WalMart, she drove away in a gold volvo station wagon. The first time 2 people were with her and they called her Claire. The 2nd time only the red haired woman was with her, and she was screaming "My name is Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine!"

I do not know what the faces of wither the blond Claire who drove a gold volvo wagon or the redhair Kendra Silvermander are because I'm blind... I can see exactly 8 inches from my nose, I can't even see the ground to see my own feet. That's why the FBI is in need of witnesses to come forward and identify the 2 women who murdered my baby.

I'm blind, I don't know what they look like, I only know them by their voices.

If you have any information, about the Claire bitch who murdered my baby at BugLight Lighthouse on November 14, 2013, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

I am severely disabled. I have been since November 14, 2013. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to get out of a wheelchair. It's been 9 years and I'm still using a cane and walker to get around, but, after standing and walking for an hour or two, I collapse and have to be carried back to bed, where I end up staying for days, sometimes weeks, before I can attempt to stand up again.

And since that happened, there have been a lot of local rumores.

Plastic surgery reconstructed my face, but I noticeably don't look the same as I did for 40 years prior to becoming disabled. And this has led to a lot of local rumors... people call me a demon, or demon possessed, or an alien, or say I was abducted by aliens and that's why I look different.

Welcome to Maine, where the average person believes aliens and demons are real, and think nothing of driving a backhoe over my house, because im just a demon who deserves it, they vandalized my car repeatedly every few months I who am already disabled and severe difficultly getting out and to the store, have even less ability to get out when my car is in the shop for repairs months to a time, multiple times a year.

This is the reality of how we horrifyingly disabled people are treated, at least here in Maine.

Being attacked in the college parking lot by 3 strangers with golf clubs is what dramatically changed my appearance. Doctors, plastic surgeons, rebuilt my face as best as they could, and they did a very good job all things considering. My vertebrae are broken in such a way that my spinal column is severed and so I have almost no use of my left hand and arm, I have no control over my bladder or intestines so have to wear adult diapers. And Doctors can't operate on this injury because there is an 80% chance of me becoming paralyzed from the neck down if they even attempt surgery.

I have been sent to the top neurological surgeons in America and they've all said, they wouldn't dare take the risk of doing the surgery.

I have been 9 years, actively studying everything I can find on the subject of spine surgery. I follow every medical journal, hanging on every update, watching and waiting for the day, when surgery advances to the point that it is an option for me.

Interestingly, as a side effect of this, I started reading and watching Horror genre, something I did not previously do. Things like The Island of Dr Moreau have become my favorite books and movies. I'm not sure why. Perhaps it is because I can identify with the characters who have those radical body changing surgeries in those books and movies.

In short, I have become fully obsessed with studying all aspects of radical surgery, both real and fictional, in some sort of hope of finding, something, anything, that will help me walk again.

THIS is what this Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon did November 14, 2013... and made worse when she attacked the second time June 26, 2016.

The Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon, not only murdered my son, she completely destroyed my life, my health, my ability to function on even the most basic levels.

I can't walk, my baby is dead, there's a giant fucking hole in my yard that looks like a Moon crater, and I'm homeless because a fucking backhoe drove over my house.

And because I was paralyzed for 5 months, and spent 18 months relearning to walk, and still can't walk on my own now 9 years later, I also have $20million in medical bills, which is why I can't afford to rebuild my house.

In the meantime, some jackass with a green dump truck that has a black and silver striped nose, dumped hundreds of loads of garbage, actual literal black bags of garbage that he stole from the town dump, and dumped them in my yard. Do you know how much garbage he dumped in my yard? It was one hundred and seventy three feet long, thirty feet wide, and twelve feet tall… yes, the pile of garbage was 173 feet long, 30 feet wide, and 12 feet tall… and it cost me $12k March 2015 to have a garbage company come in and haul it away.

What the fuck?

And you know what the police said? They think this woman and her Mark buddy are having a fuel, but because she's convinced him that she is me, and he's never seen me, so he doesn't know she's not me, that the police think, he's the one doing all the harassing of me and my family, but he thinks he's harassing her and her family and doesn't know he's harassing the wrong people, because she gave him my address as her address.

So, I'm being harassed by some guy who is a total stranger to me, because he's mad at some psycho bitch who was pretending to be me.

And because of all this, I'm crippled for the rest of my life, my baby is dead, a backhoe drove over my house, and then on April 10, 2015 my 10 foster children were kidnapped, and then on May 15, 2025 there heads were nailed to the door of my big pink motor home. So, now not only am I homeless and crippled, but my family has been murdered as well, all because some bitch impersonated me spreading weird ass alien abduction lies, weird as transgender lies, and weird ass gay lies about me, because for some reason she thought that would get her my land, and in doing so, she passed off some guy who went psycho serial killer on me, while thinking he was attacking her.

Yeah.

And so, two criminal ass thugs are funding with each other, and now I'm homeless and crippled and my family is dead, and the FBI is here now, and according to them, me and my family was never the target, me and my family got attacked by mistake because at the start of all this, some ufo nut, thought it would be funny to impersonate me and try to make it look like I believed in aliens, because this whole thing started because of some phoney ass alien abduction ufo haunted car hoax started by my uncle Bruce back in the 1990s, because he was mad, that Stephen King filmed The Thinner movie on my land, and my uncle Bruce was mad that he didn't get to be in The Thinner movie.

All of this started because Stephen King filmed a movie in my yard almost 50 years ago, and an uncle of mine was jealous, so he had his sister, pretend to be me to start some crazy ass alien abduction rumors, her running around claiming she was me while claiming to be abducted by aliens, while dubbing my husband as "etiole" and "amphibious alien", because in their minds that was some kind of revenge porn for not being in a Stephen King movie, and they've spent almost 40 years running with their alien abduction hoax, adding more and more to it all time time, including to start calling me a transvestite... and then, these people who used to live in Utah, my uncle and his sister, come back here to Maine to run around spreading the alien and trans rumour on a local level around Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, because, I have no ide why... they are just pure evil, and evil things like this are what hate filled evil people do.

Jealousy and hate. That's what fuels her. Pure raw jealousy and hate.

And my family is dead, my house is gone, and I'm crippled, all because some uncle of mine, whom I never even knew before any of this started, wanted to be in a Stephen King movie, and wasn't in a Stephen King movie and for some reason that was justification for all of this.

I don't get it.

The Atwaters are just hate filled, evil scum. You can't do something like this and be anything OTHER than pure evil scum.

Buglight lighthouse is where my baby was murdered on November 14, 2013 by the Kendra Silvermander and Claire bitch duo... why would I want to go there?

What the hell is she even thinking?

Every one who knows me knows my baby was murdered at Buglight lighthouse the beach behind the art studio at Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, on November 14, 2013, the same event that left me crippled for the rest of my life.

So why in the hell would anyone dare ask me to meet them at fucking Buglight lighthouse?

How much more evil can you be?

Update: February 19, 2023

Update: February 19, 2023

??? Weird. ...

So, I just got a flurry of weird text messages… about FabeBook posts? I’ve not seen said posts, so I don’t know exactly what they says, but I’ll respond to the text messages about said posts:

ONE... who is in my yard? It's certainly not me, I broke my pelvis a week before Christmas and haven't been out of bed in 3 months. There should never be anyone in either of my yards, not the one in Biddeford nor the one in Old Orchard...

TWO... when did my cousin Danny die? First I heard of it. Last I knew he was living on a farm up by Heath road in Saco. I haven't seen him since a few years before the grease fryer bomb blew up my house, that happened on October 16, 2006... so it was sometime before 2004 last time I saw Danny. Didn't know he died. That's sad. I liked Danny. He was one of the few good Atwaters...

Three, uhm, what garden? My land in Old Orchard is bare ledge. Not even any soil to plant anything in. It's been that way for nine years. When the backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, it also came in with a green dumptruck and strip mined my land, they stole all of my roses, apple trees, grapes, blueberries, and flowers, and took all the top soil down to over six feet deep, strip mined my farm down to bare shale and granite. It would cost over $three-million dollars to buy new top soil to replace what the vandals stole, and I don't have that kind of money, so I've not had a garden since, no vegetables, no flowers, nothing, can't plant anything on bare ledge....

so, yeah, weird, this latest rumor, which states I stole something from Danny's grave to put in my garden. Seeing how, I didn't even know Danny died and I also don't have a garden.

........... Update February 22, 2023

So, because I didn't know Danny died, people have started sending me these long lists of Atwaters whom have died since 2015... apparently there are well over 30 - thirty - dead Atwaters, none of whom I knew had died, and many of whom, I never even heard their names before. I'm told they are largely from the Utah division of the Scottish Traveller clans. But I did notice, half of the original twelve are dead? Is that true? No one told me any of this. I had no clue. It says here that uncle Peter and his wife, Bobby's wife Cathy, and even my uncle Brucie are all dead? When did all this happen and why did no one tell me? There a bunch of cousins, second cousins, and thrid cousins on the list too, but I've never heard any of their names before I have no clue who any of them are.

There also seems to be some weird thing where they are saying no one ever told them my son was murdered November 14, 2013... my mother, my father, my step father Wade, aunt Barbara, uncle Dickie, uncle Brucie, cousin Danny, and Danny's wife Amanda all knew about this. Barbara showed up at the hospital and tried to get me to join her in some stupid ass medical scam she said she was running via her EMT job, she wanted me to be some poster child for some medical scam website she was running, she said she could get more money if she had a real cripple on her website. Dickie and Brucie were both at my Water St apartment the night it happened and they were mad that the police showed up to question my family and found them there with my daddy and some private detective, I don't know who the private detective was... according to the FBI agent in charge of the murder investigation, my dad hired the private detective to trail my mother and her then husband Wade, and Dickie and Brucie were helping my father with that.

Barbara, Dickie, and Brucie were all at the hospital November 2013, when I was paralyzed.

Barbara knew I was in a wheelchair, because in 2014, at Saco Shaw's, she stopped to talk to me, while I was shopping and in the wheelchair.

I'm also being told most of them are claiming they didn't know a backhoe drove over my house. Uncle Joey in Australia, not only knew about the backhoe driving over my house, by the FBI has copies of the $600 wire he sent to the backhoe driver. My father is the one who forged the demolition permits, with some guy named Dan who I never heard of before.

Also, you remember Barbara's ex Paul Martal... do you know what he's in prison for? FBI arrested him in 2016, for not one, but many bombs that he built, including the bomb that blew up my house October 16, 2006 and wait for it... the Boston Marathon bomb in 2013, he built it and sold it to ISIS.

The Atwaters claiming they know nothing of the 2006 bomb, is a lie, considering the FBI arrested some of them for it.

The Atwaters claiming they knew nothing of the backhoe driving over my house August 8, 2013, that replaced the bombed house, is a lie, because because Joey is the one how organized and funded it and he's going to straight to prison if he ever sets foot in America again, the FBI is ready to arrest him the moment he sets foot outside of Austraila. They have uncovered all the evidence they need to do so.

Barbara posted the message on my FaceBook wall: "The next head nailed to a door will be yours", she posted that message May 14, 2015... the DAY BEFORE my foster children's heads were nailed to the door of my motorhome. I didn't know she posted that message... the FBI agent, had screenshots of it that he had made, he showed them to me in June 2016... I didn't know she had posted that on my wall.

Yvonne and Shem, posted on my FaceBook wall more then two hundred pictures of themselves holding various guns, and on every post they wrote the words: "This is the gun I'm going to kill you with." Again, I did not see the posts, because I was in the hospital, paralized, I was paralyzed 5 months, I was 18 month relearning to walk... I've been bedridden for the last 9 - NINE - years... I found out about the death threats Shem and Yvonne were posting when an FBI agent, the one, who is now dead. Larua, she was murdered February 6, 2021... arrived, at my 6x8 tarp that I was living under in my yard... she arrived, with a huge stack of printed out screenshots of death threats posted by them, along with 27 FaceBook accounts all owned by Brucie, most of them using variations of Doris's name... all 29 of those accounts spent the entire of 2014, 2015, and 2016 DAILY posting death threats on my FaceBook wall, and often mentioned the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, the August 8, 2013 backhoe, and the April 10, 2015 SWAT team... the SWAT team being something I never mentioned online... also... the police department is in search of a VERY UNIQUE murder weapon that was used in the May 15, 2015 beheadings, and the crackhead Camilla, the cocaine dealer for the Bacon Street Gang, who is an Atwater, has been since October 2021 showing up on my Biddeford front porch to gibber about... that murder weapon... the police and the FBI never released to the public what the murder weapon was, because it is a VERY UNIQUE one of a kind hand made item. And yet, MANY of the Atwaters... 23 of them, showed up in my Biddeford driveway January 8, 2021 to gibber about that murder weapon while also chanting "God-King-Trump".

And the thing I don't understand is who in the fuck are these people and why do they think I should know who they are and why do the police and FBI think I know who they are? I don't get it. Before the FBI showed up asking questions about Shem Atwater, I had never even heard the name Shem Atwater before. I have no fucking clue who Shem Atwater is. And yet, the FBI hs got reams and reams of website screenshots of FaceBook posts made by someone named Shem Atwater, and it's nothing but hundreds and hundreds of death threats, bragging to building bombs, talk about plots to murder my family... what the fuck? Who in the fuck is this psychopath and why is he obsessed with me?

According to the FBI, he's some relative of one of my mother's relatives, ut I don't understand why anyone would think I would know any of my mother's relatives when I barely even know my mother!

But the FBI started showing up with these print outs from Shem Atwater's FaceBook and all the death threats he posts there, in 2007. I didn't know who Shem Atwater was back in 2007, and I still don't know who he is today, but, the FBI agents show up every 2 to 4 months, with yet more print outs of "here's his latest death threats about you". But then, January 15, 2021, the FBI shows up, with footage off my January 7, 2021 livestream, and point to the guy in my driveway who was chanting "God King Trump" and the FBI says, that's Shem Atwater and, they think he's getting more dangerous and is planning to kill me, my brothers, my mother, my pets, and my neighbors, and THAT is why he was in my driveway January 7, 2021 chatting "God King Trump"

What the fuck?

I don't even know who this guy is or what his problem is. I dont understand any o this.

January 15, 2021, a few days later, the fbi shows up with half the fucking plice department, here at my biddeford apartment, said they followed lucy and barbara up here from some attack on the president in washington dc and wanted to know if U'd seen them? what the fuck? I have no clue. I've not see Lucy since 1994 and I've not seen Barbara since 2013 the day she tried to get me to join her weird medical scam plot. But according to the FBI... they were watching my Twith livestream tht day, so they saw the "God King Trump" chanters, as did all of my viewers, I was live and my webcam faces the driveway window so, they were chanting "God-king-trump" on my Twitch livestream... according to the FBI, those 23 people were Lucy's crew and the had stolen stuff from the White House, and were carrying the stolen white house stuff while chanting in my driveway... the FBI wanted to know if I recgonined any of them, and I didn't, the FBI had tons of pictures of them, and I don't know who any of them were... but according to the FBI, they are the adult children of several of my cousins, via Lucy and Barbara's kids. What the hell?

I am so sick and tired of the FBI showing up here and questioning me every few weeks, because of some fucking ass shit Barbaras family is doing, when I don't even know Barbara's family! I haven't babysat for her kids since I was 12 years old and that was fifty fucking years ago!

Tell me, how do so many Atwaters have inside information about the murder weapon that was used to behead my ten foster children on May 15, 2015... when those police records are sealed, were classified by the FBI, and only me, 6 FBI agents, 3 police officers, and of course the murderer, know what the murder weapon was?

I don't know who contacted the FBI... it wasn't me. I assume is was police officer Will Watson as he was the original head of the police investigation. And yet, I have many THOUSANDS of hate emails, hate snail mail letters - hand written and signed by Atwaters, accusing me of sending the FBI to "snoop in on them" as they put it. Good god! The FBI is over here interigating me 2 or 3 times a fucking month! The Atwaters act like they are the only ones who have to deal with FBI agents hanging around all the time! At least with me the FBI are here trying to help solve a crime, not interigating me of being a criminal... my fucking son was murdered! Atwaters bitching about the FBI questioning them, well maybe they shouldn't be posting death threats all over my FaceBook wall constantly none stop, the same week my sn was murdered, but that's what they are being questioned about.

I never sent the FBI anywhere... I don't control the FBI, and anyone who thinks that is got some serious mental retardation issues.

I didn't even know the FBI was actively going from Atwater to Atwater questioning them, and I wouldn't have known, had the Atwaters not been writing long hate letters and mailing them to me.

My son was murdered in 2013... it was 3 years later, when the FBI showed up to talk to me, for the first time, and yet they informed me, they'd been on the case for three years at that point and had some pretty daming evidence, about one Atwater: Paul Martal, whom I've never met, didn't even know he existed... he got 14 years in prison for the 2006 bomb that blew up my house. But what the FBI wanted to know was: Why me? It appeared he didn't know me any more than I knew him. According to the FBI, Paul Martal was in heavy contact with 2 people, and the FBI believes it's one of them, who hired the golf club woman to murder my baby November 14, 2013...

...and the problem is, I've not mentioned it to the family, The Atwaters, so they don't know, not even my parents know, but on September 12, 2021, there was another attack. I've not released any details, nor have the police or the FBI, One of the biggest ones yet. The FBI pointed out one thing... the attacks stopped when one of te two primary suspects died. They said they had reason to believe the one, of the two suspects, whom they believe murdered my son, died... so how did the the September 12, 2021 attack happen?

When that attack happened the FBI asked me to repaint paint my car: put the info from 2 different events, with the dates reversed, to see WHO would notice it was wrong. Someone DID notice it was wrong: Crackhead Camilla, cocaine dealer of the Bacon Street Gang, she showed up on my Biddeford porch less then ten hours after I painted my car. She noticed the incorrect date for the incorrect event... and she has said WHO told her... and it was one of the three people who arrived at the hospital November 2013... except, 2 of those 3 people are now dead, and the one she's naming, is the one still alive.

Who is it, who runs around telling people I believe in aliens? That same person. I don't believe in aliens. I'm the one who proved aliens and alien abductions to be a hoax, did that in 2007, posted my findings proving aliens a hoax here: https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html

Who is it, who runs around claiming I say things about Utah Atwaters, people who I've never heard of, people I've never met? That same person.

Whose husband is right now sitting in prison for building the bomb that blew up my house? That same person.

Camilla was the bridesmaid of who? That same person. 

How old was I at that wedding?

Three.

Yes.

I was THREE YEARS OLD the first, last, and ONLY time I ever saw ANY of these people.

I do not remember any of these people. Why would I? I was fucking THREE YEARS OLD the ONLY time I ever encountered any of them.

And that is why I can't understand why these people are so psychotically derangly obsessed with me.

I don't know these people. I wouldn't know them if I saw them. I don't know what they look like. I don't even know their names!

And yet, according to TWENTY-ONE police departments of FIVE different staes, these people are MEGA big time uber super duper obsessed with me on insane levels, to the point that, they are a groupof well over FOUR HUNDRED PEOPLE, who do NOTHING but spent 8 to 10 hours a day, every day, for YEARS now, comparin the methods they plan to use to kill me and my family, on a FaceBook group that is dedicated to brainstorming ways to harass me.

What the fuck?

According to the FBI, the FaceBook Group was started by MY MOTHER and is called "Dog Murderer: The Real EelKat" and was started in November of 2008, when her Old English Sheep Dog, Toby, died. She and her friends from the Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, created the original posts, which were horrendous articles about animals being tortured to death, with them claiming I was the one killing said animals... irronically, these were in fact discriptions of how my own cats, dogs, horses, and birds were killed, and the police believe that my petswere killed by one of my mother's nephews, they elieve he used the stuff my mother wrote as "instructions" for how to kill my animals!

The police say that ALL members of this FaceBook group are either relatives of my mother and or members of one of the fifteen different churches she attends.

The police and FBI alsosay that this horrifying FaceBook group is the source for all the alien abduction rumors, the ufo rumrs, the demon rumors, and the cryptid rumors. They say too that all the rumors about Etiole and the Goldeneagle are also sourced from this FaceBook group.

To make it even worse, the police say they have located at leaest TWENTY - SEVEN FaceBook accounts that are impersonating me, pretending to be "EelKat" and are activly claiming to be an alien abductee! According to the FBI, these 27 FaceBook account were run by Bruce Atwater, Lucy Atwater, Shem Atwater, Yvone Joneson, and Brooke Johnson... and, I don't know who those people are, other then Bruce. Bruce is the deranged uncle who started the alien rumors about Etiole 50 years ago, back when I was 4 years old.

But who are Lucy Atwater, Shem Atwater, Yvone Joneson, and Brooke Johnson? I don't know. All I know is the police say they have been activly creating hundreds of accounts on Reddit, KBoards, FaceBook, Twitter and other places, all impersonating me is some sort of defimation attempt, that has no basis in any sort of logic at all.

I don't know who these people are o why they are doing this, but, the FBI says it is my mother who is getting them worked up. The FBI says my mother is the one contacting them and spreading weird lies about me to them, and that is in turn causing them to get worked up and react.

The FBI says these people BELIEVE I am spreading rumors about them, because my MOTHER is tellin them I am, but.... I don't even know who these people are, so how could I even be talking about them at all?

I am so confused by all of this.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer and Police Detective Bower say that my mother suffers from Narrcissism and is jealouse that one of my books sold a million copies, and started this hate war with her reltives  as a way to get back at me for being successful. What the fuck?

But then, the whole time all of this is happening, I have been hospitalized with a broken spine, and I wasn't even aware any of this was going on.

And now, 9 years after being paralized, I'm starting to walk again, and people are asking me why no one ever told them I was crippled, and many are saying they did not know I was not online the past 9 years, because they had thought the fake impersontion accounts were me, so... nw I've got HUNDREDS of people contacting me, just as confused as I am, them wondering why they never were told I was paralized and bedridden all these years.

Who KNEW I was paralyzed for 5 months, 18 months in wheelchair, and 9 years serverly crippled, bedridden... but neglected to tell anyone in the family? That same person.

Who is it, who is right now spreading rumors and lies about me, my brothers, and my mother, all over FaceBook? That same person.

Do you know what gaslighting means? Look at what she's doing. It's called gaslighting. It means she is trying to cast doubt on the victims, in order to make the victims look guilty, as a way to try to hide, her own crimes.

Ask yourself why you didn't know my son was murdered?

Ask yourself why you didn't know I was attacked by a blond woman with a golf club, left for dead, almost died, and have been crippled on paraplegic levels ever since?

Ask yourself why you didn't know I was paralyzed for 5 month?

Ask yourself why you didn't know I was in a wheelchair for 18 months?

Ask yourself why you didn't know my foster children, where not only murdered, but their heads were nailed to my door?

Ask yourself why you didn't know when Barbara, Brucie, and Dickie were all at the hospital, and knew what had happened. Why didn't they tell any of you? Why did they pretend not to know? Why did they hide for the rest of the family, what had happened to me?

Here's an important thing to ask: Why did none of you know the FBI was here investigating a very brutal murder that coincided with a LOT of harassment, vandalism, and hate crimes that were on levels of alarming extremes?

It's called impeding and FBI investigation.

Someone, in the Atwater family, has been very actively lying to all of you about what happened to me and my family... why? What is their motive? If they have nothing to hide, then why arethey bending over backwards to try to keep every one of you from finding out what happened to me, my son, my house, my yard, and my foster children?

Why?

Only the person doing these crimes, who any motive to try to cover them up.

Only the person who murdered my son, would have any motive to go out of their way to do everything in their power to try to make you forget he ever existed.

Only the person who did these things has any motive, to try to cover it up.

Only the person behind my son's murder has a motive to try to convince you I believe in aliens, when it's damn well documented that I don't believe in aliens.

Think about that, next time an Atwater starts spreading rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my dead children, or my dead son.

Also... who is it who told you that I knew about all these deaths in the family? Was it one of the three people who was at the hospital and knew what happened to me, but never told you all?

Also, yes... I have noticed that Dickies supposed death date is a full 3 months before he was at the hospital, before he was visiting my dad with Brucie and and having a meeting with the private investigator about Wade Witen... that's puzzling... but then again Brucie had faked his own death 4 times since the 1980s, each time to invade IRS fraud, so the Atwaters do have a history of faking their deaths. I know this because the FBI has all that info too and when interviewing me, they wanted to know if I was aware of the faked death, by 3 of the original 12 Atwaters... yep, three of the brothers have faked their deaths multiple times. So... when you people tell me Dickie and Brucie are dead, yeah, I kind of don't believe you.

Also, Barbara is the one going around telling everyone that Danny is dead and his grave is being vandalised... several people have told me that Danny is dead, his grave was being vandalised, and I a bedridden crippled, was being blamed for the vandalism, and I asked each of these people who told them this, and every one of them stated they recieved either a rtext, post, comment, email, or phone call from Barbara, some said she told them face to face in person... near as I can tell NO ONE other then Barbara os saying Danny died, no one other then Barbara is saying his grave is vandaised, and no one other then Barbara is saying I did it... also newsflash... my camera runs 24/7/365 ever since the day my foster children's heads was nailed to my door, so I can prove where I was and what I was doing every minute from May 16, 2015 to right now. The camera runs 24/7 in hopes of catching the murderer returning to attack again. Smile... if you've ever said anything to me online or offline, I have video footage of you doing it.

In case you've forgotten who Barbara is, besides being Bruce's sister, she's the 2 year old girl who was run over by this car. https://www.eelkat.com/images/1964dodge330_theGoldeneagleWorldsMostHauntedCar.jpg My 1964 Dodge 330 the one that was cut in half on May 9, 2010 by raving lunatics of the Saco Ward church calling it demon possessed. She's the one who started the rumor that the car was haunted, possesed by a demon and tried to kill her. The car used to belong to Dr Larochell, who paid Barbara $20k to stop her from spreading rumors about his car. Her rumours about his car got so bad that locals started attacking him, so in 1975 he sold the car and I bought it specifically to prove that it was niether haunted demon possessed and Barbara was just delusional and trying to get attention.

After I proved the car not haunted, I let a local elderly homeless man sleep in the car at night, while the car was parked behind my barn, 175 feet from the road in the forest where it could not be seen from the road, so no one knew the WW@ veteran was sleeping in my car... until that is, in 1978, Barbara tresspassed on my land, found him there, declared him first a demon, then in the 1990s started calling him "The Amphibious Alien"... Barbara is the only Atwater who ever learned French and guess what, she is also the one who coined the name "Etiole" and started calling the homeless WW2 vet "Etiole" and she is the one who has been vocal in instigating EVERY SINGLE attack on Etiole and my 1964 Dodge 330.

Also, do take a look at Barbara... we look alike, she and me... we can almost pass for twins. And what keeps happening around locally? People keep saying they are encountering me doing and saing things in places I've never been to, to people I've never heard of!

Also, every time I go outside, people - ttal strangers - keep coming up to me and asking me why I am emailing them stuff about aliens, and newsflash: I don't even use email! What the hell? I couldn't eail some one even if I wanted to!

In November, this guy comes up to me, he's about 90 years old and carrying this massive stack of sheets of paper - like 300 sheets, it's an entire reem of paper, and he starts waving it around and says it's print out of all the emails I sent him just in the past week, he says he gets more then three thousand emails from me on a daily basis and it's all crazy stuff about aliens... I looked at the papers and, the emails are coming from tons of emails with the word "eelkat" in the name, but they aren't mine. I'm not sending these things out to people and I don't know who is... but I do know who has a history of impersonating me with emails: Barbara!

In 1996, she started an email war with the Atwaters, with two emails, one that she said was heres, and one that she said was mine.

At that point... I had never had contact with an American, or TV, or electricity... I had never heard of computers or internet or email... he email war, was her, impersonating me, and sending hundred of hate filled emails to my aunts, uncles, and counsins... I found out about it a year later when Bishop Paul Morgan of the Cape Elezabeth Ward (no, not the Portland Ward, but yes the same building) called me in to his office one day, to ask why I was sending so many hundreds of emails about aliens and alien abductions to him and 750 other members of the church. No that's not a typo... seven hundred and fifty members of the church...

I had 3 questions for Paul Morgan:

1: What's email?

2: What are aliens?

3: What's alien abduction?

I had never heard of those 3 things before.

Paul Morgan had print outs of those emails, and it took me over a month to read those more then six thousand sheets of paper, but I read every one of them.

Paul Peterson, administrative director of Pine Land Center Insane Asylum... he showed up at church a few weeks later, yeah... turns out, several Atwaters used to be, how shall we call it... straight jacketed in padded cells because they were insane... and Pine Land Center, government run mental health institute, lost funding, shut down, in... oh look... 1996... and literally just let formally straight jacket nut cases, walk free out the front door. It's not hard to find out who the inmates of Pine Land Center were... the micro films are available in New Gloughster. So, yeah, that evidance exists and says a lot.

ALL of the rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my cars... all the Demon rumors, all the alien rumors, ALL of it... every single rumor, all the way back to the 1960s... all of them, were started by one person, Barbara, because, she was the 2 year old girl who was hit by that car, and she's pissed that I bought it, and she's even more pissed that Stephen King, my neighbour at the time, made a movie about it... did you know my real name is Christine and that's why the car is named Christine in the movie, even though the real car was named The Goldeneagle.

After Christine, Stephen King returned to film Thinner on my farm, and THAT is why, Barbara, has had endless amounts of jealosue rage and hatred for my farm, my land, my house... did you know I've rebuilt my house 5 times now... the backhoe has driven over THREE houses on my land, we keep rebuilding and it keeps coming back... but before the backhoe there was the bomb... and who did the FBI arrest for building that bomb again? Barbara's husband Paul Martal. That's what he went to prison for. He built the bomb that blew up my house, the FBI found him with the bomb parts in his house and car.

That's why, I always ask, when these weird rumors about demons and aliens show up... who told you? And EVERY SINGLE PERSON, EVERY SINGL TIME... they always say: "Barbara told me", "Baraba said it" , "Barbara called me" , "Barbara emailed me"... and so, I'm not surprised to find out that the rumors flying around this week, are once again, started by the same person who always starts them: the pissed off now adult, 2 year old girl, who 60 years ago was run over by the world's most haunted car, and is the one who both declared it haunted and dubbed the homeless man living in it as "Etiole"

Know your sources people. Do your background checks. Find out if the one spreading the rumors about me, might actually have a motive. Barbara REALLY hates that car. And at the core, her hatred of that car, her rage that Stephen King made it famous, is the cause of everything.

But guess what: Barbara and Brucie and their fucking endless jealose rage, is why I'm crippled, why my son is dead, why I've had to rebuild my house on my land five fucking times now... I'm not bothering any of them, I never have , and I don't know why they are bothering me! I want those bastards to fucking leave me, my family, my cars, my land, and anything else of mine alone.

Update: February 25, 2023

Uhm… okay… so, a member of the Sanford ward church was just in a rage yelling at me about the drug raid across the street last year at the missionary apartment and this being the 18th anniversary of the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh… and, I'm not sure why they are yelling at me about it…but they were mad saying: "Why is the FBI here talking to you about the dead girl in Scarborough. You aren't family."

Uhm… no, but I am the one who found the body and called 911 to report it. And I've had to deal with police and FBi questions in regards to her death for the past few decades every single time they get a lead they show up and ask me:"So tell us once again what you saw." And I tell them yet again about the girl with no head, the thirty dogs with no heads, and that, I never saw her or the dogs before.

I was driving to work and they were all laid out ritual like in the road, not a one of them had any heads. Not the girl, not any of the dogs.

First experience with headless bodies… but far from the last. And police and fBi believe the killer was there and saw me call 911 and that's why my 75 pet roosters had their heads cut off and their bodies tied in rope nooses and hung in my Orchard fruit trees and rose bushes shortly after.

I can show you where ever body was the girl and the dogs. The first one was at the Ross rd Portland rd intersection at the light by where the medical building is now. The next one was at the Eastern trail Bridge just before the rv center. There was another at the cascade rd intersection by the flea market... they continued like that all the way to the Scarbourogh marsh. All black dogs, mostly Rottweilers and black labs, more than 30 of them, leading in a path to the dead girl. None of them had heads. Not the girl or the dogs.

It was after dark, I was on my way to Macy's.

The fbi says they think it was the same person who beheaded my cousin Murphy in 2013, beheaded 75 of my roosters and hung them from nooses in trees in 2007, murdered my son in 2013, and beheaded my mother's cats in 2015... he says there were 11 other beheading like this between 2001 and 2015 all of them invloving a huge amount of pets, mostly dogs and cats, but also birds and horses… in title more then 500 pets just on Portland Ave in old Orchard beach alone, the first one was a German Shepherd in June 2001 whose head was hung on the bucket of his owners bulldozer, and there have been 7 more since 2015 to 2021, all on Portland Ave, Ross rd, and Cascade Rd.

The dead girl in Scarborough had no head, neither did any of the dogs. I'm the one who called the police.

I was there when they found Timmy Murphy on cascade and Ross rd intersection. He had no head either.

My cousin Murphy, the newspaper said he was hit by a truck. But that's not what happened. I was there. Police made me wait 3 hours while they looked for his head. I got questioned all over for that. It happened June 2013. Backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, and golf club woman attacked November 14, 2013... fbi thinks the backhoe and golfclub attacks were both because I was there when Timmy's body was being wrapped up by police. The police found his head 2 weeks later down by my driveway on Portland Ave almost a half mile from where they found his body.

They believe the killer of my cousin Timmy was at the scene while the police were questioning me, and that's how the killer knew to target my house with the backhoe a month later… the issue with that is, one of my uncles, paid the backhoe driver, but that uncle lives in Australia and wired the money to the backhoe driver. The police have all the paperwork for this. And the police can't figure out, why it appears that my Atwater relatives are heavily invested in impending the investigation of what police are calling "the Ouellette case".

It appears the Atwaters are being egged on by someone involved in the murder of the headless Scarborough marsh girl, and that the Atwaters are being deliberately needled into a frenzy at me and my family in a bold attitude to through police off the killers trail.

The thing is, the Atwaters have gone into wild extremes bringing in weird alien abduction rumors that are just outlandish… but then… one of my uncles, when the FBI went to interview him… he had dozens of dead, headless black dogs, black cats, and black chickens laying in weird pentagram ritual formations, all over his yard, in his driveway, around his house, hanging on his fences… and… well… dead headless black animals were all around the Scarborough marsh that day of the dead girl… and so… it kind of looks a lot like one of my uncles either is the murderer or at least is the one supplying the murderer with dead black pets.

So, this lead the FBi to ask me more questions, because now it looks like the Atwaters lashing out at my family has a far bigger motive then, them just being crazy lunatic ufo nuts.

I've been a witness at 4 different beheadings.. and was the one who called police each time.

The raid at the Saco Ward missionary apartment across the street…I never said the raid across the street was a drug raid... the state drug force wasn't there. Ive seen drug raids before. My Atwater relatives are notorious for drugs, ive been in the house when two drug raids happened, one in 1982 and one in 2016 and both times the state police drug team was the one who did the raid.

State police drug team wasn't there at the raid on the missionary apartment across the street last year, it the US Marshalls and FBI there. They had 8 people handcuffed face down in the road in front of our apartment. And they said it was about the Ouellette case, specifically the headless girl in Scarborough marsh. I know this, because thry asked me if i recognized any of these 8 people. One I did, she's been my dads nurse since 2009. Fbi was here asking me about that raid, because he wanted to know if the dead cats and birds in the road here in front of our Biddeford apartment were lined up same way as the dead dogs were back in Scarborough years ago with the dead girl.

Me and others locally have been finding dead pets lined up on Main Street, western Ave, Cutts St, West Cutts st, James St, and Bradbury st every since summer 2021, I sent videos footage of all the dead pets to fbi, because it DID look like same ritual pattern used in my yard with roosters in 2007 and my mother's cats in 2015 and those dogs with the dead girl at the Scarborough marsh.

That's why I stopped walking around our apartment at night... dead cats and birds are being set up around my apartment and also my mothers apartment... looks like whoever killed cats and roosters in Old Orchard, wanted me to know they knew where I lived.

The officers think the person leaving the dead pets all around our apartment is whoever killed the headless girl at the marsh... they think that's why the attack on my roosters happened in 2007, the backhoe in 2013, the golf club women who killed my son and crippled me in 2013, because I'm the one who called the police about the headless dogs in Scarborough with the dead girl.

Weird, this Sanford Ward Mormon, who was just here at my apartment, made the comment: "But the dead girl in Scarborough wasn't beheaded."

I don't know if there's a different girl too or not. I only know about the headless girl, the one I called 911 about all those decades ago. I never looked up the news reports so I don't know if they ever mentioned the thirty dead dogs or her and the dogs having no head. I don't know what the news said about it. I don't even know her name. I just know whenever the police or FBI ask me to retell how the dogs were laid out, they always call it "The Ouellette Case". Beyond that I know nothing about it.

My focus has always been on the attacks on me and my family. I don't know any of the other families. I just know the officers said the April 10, 2015 attack on my farm was the 11th such attack on Portland Ave since June 2001 and that they now tell me there have been seven more such attacks on Portland Ave since 2015. They said a lot of details have not been released to the public, but that there are a few common things recurring in every attack which indicates it's just one person (group of persons) doing it. They say they keep going back to all 18 of our families reasking us for details we can remember because they are trying to match up the similarities of each case.

I know what details were left out of reports about the attacks on my family. I don't know anything about any of the other 17 families at all.

I don't understand these Saco and Sanford ward church members who keep showing up all upset because I'm trying to find out who murdered my son and left me crippled. What is their problem? It's MY family that's dead, not theirs, what the fuck business is it of theirs? Why are they so damned ruffled up about me asking for anyone with information to call the FBI? By being upset like this, they are just making themselves look suspicious. When they are mad that I'm asking people for help finding the killer, they just make themselves look like they are involved, they make it look like they know who the killer is, they make it look like they are protecting and defending the killer. Do they not realize how suspicious they make themselves look when they get angry that I ask on Facebook for anyone with info to please call the FBI and help put my son's killer in prison?

Do you remember Timmy? He's the same age as you and me. He's the one who lived at the black house next door to my on Portland Ave. He was the used car dealer, the one who always have a dozen or so cars lined up for sale across his front lawn. He also owned Etiole's swamp, my abutting neighbour from the back side of the land. He used to help me babysit Barbara's kids back in the 1970s and 1980s, we used to duo babysit together.

Timmy Murphy was the one beheaded June 2013 at the Ross Rd and Cascaed Rd intersection.

That's why I can't understand these Todd Murphy fucktrds who spent the entire of November 2021 to May 2022, daily arriving in my Biddeford driveway, chanting "Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy!" while vandalizing both the building and my car. They did $10k+ in damages to my Volvo and they did so much damage to the building that landlord Matt Holiday couldn't afford to repair the apartment building so he sold it because the city of Biddeford was going to condemn the building and kick out all 9 families at 409 Maine Street, because the Todd Murphy fucktard attackers did so much damage to the building. People know about them cutting all the wires off the building, but it was a lot more then that. They did huge amounts of stucture damage to the building itself as well. That's why Matt sold the building. He just didn't have enough money to repair the damages.

But the thing was, these vandals were acting like they thought I knew who Todd Murphy was, and I never heard of anyone by that name before. I think they mixed up whoever this Todd Murphy was with my cousin Timmy... who is not an Atwater... what the fuck are the Atwaters even talking about? Timmy was my dad's older sister's god-son. My aunt Victoria from Portland? The one who lived in that big tower on the waterfront up on the Promanard.

Why are the Atwaters so damned fucking arrogant that they think they are the only relatives I have? The Allens of Allen Ave in Portland are my relatives too you know, and Timmy Murphy was one of them. You know, the whole family who founded Amatos... the woman who founded Amatos was my dad's great aunt. That's why we always get free food at Atmatos, their family. The Atwaters don't hold a fucking monopoly over me, what the hell is wrong with them? You know, I'm sick of the Atwaters barging their way into everything and trying to make everything be about them. They aren't the center of the world and they need to stop acting like they are.

Near as I can tell, these Todd Murphy vandals are conneted to the Atwaters somehow, but I don't know how. And again, they are impeeding a fucking FBI murder investigation. Do the Atwaters know how to do ANYTHING other then stick their busy body noses in places they don't belong? What the fuck?

Do you know what the police said? They said Todd Murphy is the son of someone my mother and Barbar fight with on FaceBook. I've had my mother and Baraba both blocked on FaceBook since the shit they pulled back in 213 after my son was murdered. I don't have a fucking clue who my mother or Barbara are friends with on FaceBook, I have them blocked. I've had them blocked for 10 years this Novmber.

But then, I have fucktards from the Sanford Ward church showing up here now, do you realize how far they have to drive to get here to my driveway? What the hell? And they claim that Todd Murphy was a member of the Sanford Ward... you know what he's not on the rouster. You know I'm a member of that church right? I got access to the rouster, because my husband is the high preist quorum leader of that church... there's no one named Todd Murphy who is a member of the Sanford Ward church, and there hasn't been in the last 48 years that I've attended that church. So now I'm left wondering, even more what the fuck?

Who the ell is Todd Murhy and why the fuck should I care? I haven't got a clue what these people are talking about. I don't know who they are and I don't know who their Todd Murphy is.

Only thing I can figure, is somehow, something my mother and Barbara said, convinced these people that when I talk about Timmy Murphy's murder case that I'm talking about Todd Murphy. But why? Was Todd Murphy murdered in 2013 of the Ross Rd in Old Orchard Beach, same as my cousin Timmy Murphy, who was also my abutting neighbor and had the same birthday as me, so we celebrated our birthdays together, you know because we grew up together and knew each other own entire lives?

I mean, what the hell? And what does Todd Murphy have to do with The Ouelltte case aka the beheaded girl in the Scarborogh Marsh from 20 years ago? That's what they were talking about last night... thee Snford Ward members who were here in my ard in Biddeford last night, who yes, I do know who they are, but I don't know who this Todd Murphy is that they are talking about or what he has to do with my cousin Timmy Murphy and that girl, both being beheaded down the street from my Old Orchard Beach farm?

I asked, no one in Timmy's family knows any one named Todd. None of my Scarborough or Old Orchard Beach Murphy relatives know or have ant relatives named Todd, so none of them, know what the fuck these people in Biddeford are talking about. You know just because someone has the same last name, doesn't mean they are relatede, right? Do these Todd Murphy people who won't stop hrassing us, and now clearly have a connection to the Sanford Ward realize that?

And what is with Joel Bailey? What? Yeah... they're bringing Joel Bailey back into stuff? He went to prison in 2013, he, if you forgot was the counsellor of the Bisiop of the Saco Ward church, the entire bishiprisk went to prision, 2 to 10 years each one, along with the Old Orchard Beach Town Manager, oh wait, he was one of the bishipric, and 13 people from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police departments, all members of the Saco Ward church, for stealing a little bitty number of thirty MILLION dollars in Old Orchard Beach tax funds out of the town hall bank account, which I only found out about, because they tried to forge my name onto the documents and that was why FBI Laura, the agent ho was murdered in Florida on Feberuary 6, 2021, was sent to interview me in 2007, 2010, and 20134... the Saco Ward church bishopric stole $30million from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and tried to pin it on me, only, I can't count, mI never learned math, and they didn't know I couldn't possibly have written the math figures. I don't know how to do money and only someone really good with money could have done the things they did. They also put a lot of stuff in Ken Shoop's name. That Joel Bailey, the one who is now out of prison and likes to walk circles around my Biddeford apartment all summer long in 2022. Yeah, I am aware he's back, the mini-Winnie RV that parks at the Biddeford High School at night, he is the one driving it.

Given his past history, no, I'm not surprised at all to find his name bring brought back up. Though the Saco Ward Mormons now trickling out of prison and back on the streets, would explain why the vandalism started up again, seeing how they were the ones who used to do most of it and the vandalism did stop when they went to prison.

I'm sick of the Atwaters and their Mormon friends. They're nothing but criminals, drug dealers, and gangster thugs.

The fact remains, the only thing I'm focused on is finding my son's killer and the Atwaters and their Mormon thugs, are interupting that, and I want to know WHY? No one who is not guilty of being involved in my son's murder has any reason or incentive to be here harassing me and telling me to take the FBI phone number off my FaceBook wall, and that's what they are doing and I want to know why. What business is it of theirs if the FBI phone number is on my FaceBook wall and what is their involvment with my son's murder that they think the FBI phone number on my FaceBook wall effects them?

Here's a weird one… I just got a text message from a Sanford Ward Mormon which states: "I've known you for 40 yeas I would remember you being attacked how come you never mentioned it before now"

Uhm… since 1996, my website, originally known as Space Dock 13, has documented daily blog posts of every day of my life.

The July 2, 2001 attack, when a house mover cut our house in half, put it on a flatbed and drove it to Waterville, was documented the day it happened. It was also the first attack. My neighbor's German shepherd dog was beheaded and left in the bucket of his bulldozer that same day.

Go look at my blog… every day since July 2, 2001 , every attack, from the minor paintball attacks to the big house bomb attacks, are all documented, each blog post written the day it happened. There are more then ten thousand daily blog posts just on that one blog, chronologizing every event of every day of my life and including every attack, since June 2001.

That fact that they only just noticed it now, does not mean, I've never mentioned it… it just means they were too self absorbed to notice anything going on around them. It also means I was never important enough to them, for them to notice I was homeless, or in the hospital, or had a baby that was murdered. … their shock of just discovering these things, says more about their lack of caring about me, then anything else.

As for the headless girl and dogs in the marsh, the murder of my cousin Timmy Murphy, and the golf club attack ,the 3 events they specifically brought up in their text…

I had Squidoo articles about all 3 events. Squidoo went out of business in 2014.

I have more then a thousand blog posts published between 2007 and 2013, on Tumblr, BlogSpot, and WordPress, about those 3 events.

On YouTube I had more than 2k video uploads between 2008 and 2017 that did absolutely nothing but talk about those events, and included the interrogations by police and Fbi, which I've recorded all of since May 2015. So, yes, you can go watch FBI agent Andy Drewer, lawyer Gene Libby in the Biddeford District Court, and police officer Will Watson, and dozens of others talking about these events, on YouTube, because my camera catches everything.

Since 2008, I have posted daily on Facebook and Twitter asking for witnesses to come forward about the dead dogs and the marsh girl...

Since June 2013, I added Tim Murphy to my daily Facebook request for witnesses to come forward,

Since August 2013, I added the back hoe driving over my house info to my daily Facebook requests for witnesses to come forward.

since November 2013, daily every single day requests for witnesses to the attack at phi theta Kappa ceremony at bug light lighthouse, where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life.

I'm still crippled by the way, are they going to tell me they didn't notice that either? Did they not notice I was 5 months paralyzed, wait I know that person noticed because in February 2014 that exact same person carried me to their car and from their car into the hospital precisely because I was paralyzed and couldn't walk…. The person who carried me to the hospital because I was paralyzed and had to be carried is the exact same person who is now saying they don't remember this… and yet, they are the ones who had to fill out the paperwork to admit me in the hospital and their signature is on those documents. So, proof they are lying, right there.

after the June 2016 attack by the 2013 golf club woman, this time at walmart, the fbi gave me a hotline number for witnesses to call... this phone number has been on the flyers in the windows of my Volvo ever since June 2016 and these events are printed on said flyers.

Also in June 2016 the Old Orchard Beach Libby library and the Biddeford McArthur library and the Old Orchard Beach Salvation Army Church all printed up flyers about these events, and spent the summer handing them out to tourists and the fBI number was on all of those.

This is all very well documented as, I have been post them DAILY for over a decade now... and I talk about it constantly in my livestreams which I started doing in May 2015.

Just because one person had their head shoved too far up their church's ass to know what was going on in their own family, and they only just now noticed what was going on around them, doesn't mean I only just now started talking about it.

This is why I don't like churches. Church people are so focused on their Bibles that they haven't got a clue what's going on in the real world around them.

Not to mention all of the police reports, there are more than four hundred police reports, which span twenty one police departments, in three states as well as the Maine state police and the Florida state police, plus the FBI besides! Most of those police reports are public record, you can go read them for yourself. As far as I know only 3 of them were classified and sealed from public access which means there's still 400+ that can be read. There were newspaper reports of some of the attacks. And even though I don't own a TV so have never seen the tV news reports, I know those exist because there were so many TV station news reporters showing up in my yard with camera crews asking for interviews with me. This case is so damned well documented. It's utterly ridiculous to think there is a single person in Southern Maine who is so self absorbed and so oblivious that they have never heard of this case or any of the events that have happened within it in the last 18 fucking years!

But the worst part is, this my own church, a church I have been a member of for 48 fucking years, that is saying, they never heard of this! What the hell? There were more than 24 people from the Saco and Sanford Wards arrested by the FBI just since 2015, because of their involvement in this case. Several of them are still in prison. These people are really that oblivious that they didn't know I was in the hospital, they didn't know I was in a wheelchair, they didn't know my son was murdered, and they didn't noticed 24 members of their congregation disappeared because they went to prison for their involvement.

Really? Wow do these people really give a shit about their fellow congregation members or what? They not only didn't notice I was missing from meetings for 9 years because I am bedridden now, they also didn't notice 24 other members not in meetings because they are now in prison. Talk about dense numb skulls.

It appears the High Priest is back. You, Paul, have met the High Priest. You met him at WalMart. You met him at McDonalds, where you had a 4 hour long conversation with him. You met him my yard in Old Orchard when you visited a few days after the April 0, 2015 attack, and can I add here that you are the ONLY person since that happened, to ever once stop by and ask how I was doing, it’s you’re the only person I knew before the murder of my family, whom I still talk to. You ARE the only person, who ever showed you actually cared about what was going on.

Not one single member of my family or my church has ever stopped to see how I was doing, has ever asked online how I was doing.

But, since November 2021, Sanford Ward mormons have been showing up, all of them in wild raging infernos, and all of them talking about people and events I know nothing about, so I have no clue what any of them ae talking about, but they act like they think I know who the names they mention are, in particular they are cult-like worshiping someone names Todd Murphy whom I can only assume they have gotten mixed up with my beheaded cousin Tim Murphy of Pine Point district of Scarborough and Old Orchard Beach, somehow.

They showed up near daily from November 21, 2021 until May 17, 2022. They were lead on by two blond girls who looked like twins, and have mega long knee-length hair they kept in pony tails, and a smaller pudgier girl with a mint-green pixie hair cut. I don’t know these girls, they looked to be in their 20s. They are the same girls who spent the entire summer of 2021 harassing the homeless man who was living under the trestle bridge across the street from us. They would show up on bicycles every night around 1AM, chase him up out of the ravine, then chase him up the old back tracks along the dirt road to South Street, up towards your place. They did that every night for about 5 months, until he got hit by a freight train on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27PM. They started attacking my and my family Nov 21, 2021, I think because they knew I had video footage of them harassing the homeless man and I think too they were pissed that I call the police when they killed him by cornering him at the bridge overpass so he couldn’t get out of the way of the oncoming train. Outside of them nightly harassing the homeless man, and then spending Nov 21, 2021 to May 17, 2002 chanting “Todd Murphy” in my driveway while vandalizing my car and apartment building, I’ve never seen these girls before of since. They seemed to have completely vanished May 17, 2022. Not seen them at all and the vandalism stopped cold turkey that day. I assume the police must have finally caught and arrested them, but the police never said they did, and in the past when someone harassed me, the police would always ask me to go to the station to ID them after the arrest.

In any case, the “Todd Murphy” dipshit bitches stopped harassing us May 17, 2022, and I heard no more of them, until this past month… only it’s not them showing up this time… this time it’s older people, elderly people in their 70s and 80s, members of the Sanford Ward Mormon church across the street from Curtis Lake Church… Curtis Lake Church being the congregation that shows up in my Old Orchard driveway with the “god hates fgs” signs and calling me a transvestite and calling my car gay, and marching around chanting “too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach”... several Curtis Lake members have been arrested by the FBI and gone to prison for their involvement in both the April 10, 2015 attack on my family and the headless Marsh girl. However, to date,, the killer has not been found, every one arrested so far has always been weird “cultist-like” gay-haters who are attacking people in the area while chanting “kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws” and then rambling gibbering about heads in ice cream. The people arrested, for 5 different local churches, are all outspoken in radically preaching a doctrine of beheading anyone suspected of being gay, while stating that they are doing so on god’s orders.

That’s why there has been so much difficultly in finding out who killed the marsh girl and my cousin Murphry and my family, because, it looks like it’s not just one person, but rather an entire group of people involved, and so far, all evidence has pointed to those 5 churches: Saco Ward, Sanford Ward, Grace Point, Curtis Lake, and New Life, all in Biddeford, Saco, or Sanford, and all run by just 2 families. One family runs 3, another family runs the other 2.

Anyways, I was just thinking, and I think I figured out why the Sanford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints members are seemingly so clueless and unaware that I have been crippled and bedridden for nine years and why they were unaware that 24 members of their congregation have gone to prison, arrested by the FBI for being accomplices in the The Ouellette Murder Case aka The Cascade Murders aka The string of beheading on and around Portland Ave, Ross Rd, and Cascade Rd the past twenty years, which included the headless girl I found in the Scarborough Marsh, my cousin Timmy Murphy whom I found headless on the Ross and Cascade Rod crossroads, the beheading of my own foster children… Ben is the common link to all of them.

Ben, as you know, has severe dissociative identity disorder, that was brought on when his brother Willy commit suicide.

Ben has seven different, very distinctive different “people” living in him, that we know of, there could be moe then 7. Etiole is the one most locals are familiar with, though he does not call himself Etiole, Etiole being a name locals dubbed him. However, there is the High Priest, who is the one you, Paul, are personally most familiar with.

I’ve not seen the High Priest since April 10, 2015. Ben WAS there the day of the attack, he was also attacked… the attackers had me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, all on the ground with guns to our heads, while they use a weird looking long pole with a piano wire-like loop on the end, to cu the heads off of everyone else who was there. Me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, were the only ones to walk out of that attack alive. Ben’s favorite daughter Bella was one of the ones beheaded. His mind snapped, because, he recognized one of the attackers as “Rick”... When the attackers arrived, Ben ran up to one of them and said “Rick! What are you doing here?” Ben does have a friend named Rick… I know Rick. Rick is a very violent, vicious spouse abuser. His wife Paula used to come to church been to a pulp every week. Broken arms, broken legs, broken nose, black eyes. It went on for years. She finally divorced him and fled to Utah when he beat and nearly killed their teenage son. Rick has beaten me up, right in the Sanfard Ward church building. He’s a major bully, a huge bigot, and an extreme white power racists. Rick WAS there April 10, 2015… he didn’t have a white pillow case over his head like the rest of them did, but I don’t kow if he was a part of the attack or not, I was too busy trying to fight the bastard who was holding me own with a pistol in my face, to notice what Rick was doing. It was Rick though, his face in unmistakable… he has no face. Elephant man disease, I think you cal it, but you can’t mistake Rick, and he WAS in my yard April 10, 2015 the day my family was murdered, I just don’t know what he was doing there or if he was involved in the attack or not.

The thing is, something snapped in Ben that day. ALL 7 of his multiple personalities vanished, including the High Priest, thankfully. You know how bad the High Preist could get, you met him several times.

Ben left the Mormon church. I don’t know what triggered him more: his favorite daughter Bella being beheaded in front of him or his best friend Rick, seeming to be the one leading the charge ahead of estimated 74 people in white robes and white pillow cases over their heads.

In either case, Ben has developed a server hatred for the Mormon church and refuses to set foot in a Mormon church building… he who was High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward for so many decades.

The thing about the High Priest, was he was everything so far the opposite of who Ben, my husband, actually is.

The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to be a virgin. Ben in not a virgin. Not even close. He had a prostitute problem back in the 1980s when I met him.

The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to not be married, yet Ben and I got married on the Old Orchard Beach Pier August 13, 1987, so he’s been married several decades and still is, we don’t live together because he’s terrified of the Bishop finding out he has a wife. Keeping in mind Mormons don’t forbid priests from marrying, however Ben grew up extreme strict Catholic and his brother is the current leader of Opis Dia and he has to keep up appearances of being a Catholic Priest for his brother, from times when he visites from Italy, which happens a few times a year. Ben became a High priest in the Mormon church, but then goes to several local Catholic churches when his brother is in America, so that he can say he’s a High Priest without lying about it, and keeps his brother thinking he’s Catholic High Priest when he’s actually a Mormon High Priest. In other words, Ben lives a very big double life of trying to juggle his priesthood in two religions, hiding it from each other religion, while also maintaining a (very annoyed) wife (me) that he hides from BOTH religions.

Which is WHY, I’m allowed to PUBLICLY be friends with you, because it helps him to keep up the facade of “see, I’m not married, she hangs around with Paul”, which yes, that IS what Ben tells people at church about you.

Yes, Ben is a dick, I am very aware of this.

But, here’s the thing… Ben TELLS ME he is no longer in contact with any Mormons whatsoever, claims he hates, them, claims he shuns them, claims he’s not spoken to any of them since April 10, 2015…. HOWEVER… he was caught in July 2022, giving one of the Sanford Ward Mormons a ride to the store…. And Rick specifically, has been one the phone with him, when I came in the room and he thought I was elsewhere, causing Be to run around in a panic, knock his glasses off, break them by stepping on them, all while Rick was screaming out of the phone, “Ben, ya there? What happened? What’s going on?”

It appears the High Priest is back…. However, I suspected this in November 2021… the High Priest uses specific pontificating phraseology that none of Ben’s other personalities use…. And on november 24, 2021, the same night the Sanfard Ward Mormons were here cutting the wires off our Biddeford apartment building, Ben started talking like the High Priest again. It’s really distinctive. Normal people don’t talk in long winded drawn out droning, monologuing pontifications about Jesus, and of Ben’s 7 known people living inside him, the High Priest is the only ne who does this. Ben was here and witnessed the wire cutting event, he even went out side and talked to the crowd of “Todd Murphy” chanting lunatics to try to talk to them… and,... he said one of them is Todd Murphy’s grandmother from the Sanford Ward. Ben indicated at that point that he knew who Todd Murphy was, but since then, has denied knowing who Todd Murphy is. But, he came in, and told me outright that “I know her from the Sanfard Ward, she’s Todd Murphy’s grandmother”..

Each of the 7 people who live in Ben have no knowledge or memory of the other 6, and when one of the 7 does or says something, none of the other 6 have any memory of doing or saying those things.

It appears that The High Priest knows Todd Murphy, not only that, but also knows the attackers who came here daily from November 21, 2021 to May 17, 2022… and it looks like Ben, in his High Preist version of himself, is the one who told them where I live and is the one who worked them into a frenzy to begin with.

I have video footage of the homeless man who died Nov 19, 2021… a LOT of it. He knew Ben. That was obvious. Me and Ben were walking Main Street every night the summer of 2021 and the homeless man from under the trestle bridge would stop to talk to us a few times a week. And those weren’t just videos, those were Twitch livestreams so everyone watching my channel saw this homeless man stop and talk to Ben… he said he knew us. I did not recognize him, but Ben… I don’t know… Ben acted like he did know the homeless man, but didn’t want me to know it, so he told the homeless man he was mistaken. But people around local are saying that thie homeless man who kept showing up in my videos IS Todd Murphy, they say they saw my videos and it was Todd Murphy in my videos.

I am finding this whole thing very confusing… because NOW… even though I have video footage of Ben talking to the homeless man, Ben now claims, he never saw the homeless man at all and tells me I’m delusional. That's what he said: Ben said: “Your delusional, there was no homeless man” and, yet hundreds of people, many of them local, saw those videos of Ben talking to the homeless man. Which means, the man Ben was when he was walking with mt summer 2021,is NOT the man he is right now… and… either this a new 8th personality Ben has recently developed, or, it’s the High Priest back, but being deliberately sneaky to try to hide the fact that he’s the High Priest… which is odd, because before now, NONE of Ben’s multiple personalities have ever showed any signs of acknowledging any of the others, and the High Priest trying to high he’s the High Priest by trying to act like a different person, indicates the High Priest DOES remember and IS AWARE of the other personalities.

As you are well aware, I HATE the High Priest. I want nothing to do with him. I never would have married Ben if I had ever encountered his High Priest alter ego before marrying him.

June 26, 2016… FBI Agent Andy Drewer asked me to meet him at his Portland office on Middle St. He had… info. And a new primary suspect. Ben, specifically his High Priest alter ego, is the FBI’s #1 suspect in being the inforat, who told the golf club attackers I was at BugLight Lighthouse November 14, 2013. The FBI has phone records. I told only 3 people, where I was going that night: my mother, my father, and Ben. I told them only 5 minutes before I left, because I had been sick earlier and had previously told everyone I was not going to that event at the college. According to the FBI, my parents and step father Wayne Whiyyen, never left Biddeford, they continued to argue all night, and the FBI knows this because my father had hired a private investigator to tail Wayne, and so they have a lot of evidence as to where 2 of the 3 were. Ben on the other hand, called his friend Rick, the same Rick who was in my yard April 10, 2015… Minutes after I left my dad’s Water St apartment and drive to Southern Maine Community College, November 14, 2013… Ben called Rick. Rick drove to Ben’s house. And the two of them together left.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer had one question: “How well do you trust Ben? Because right now, he’s our primary suspect.”

They believe Ben told Rick, I was pregnant with someone else’s baby and Rick is the one who sent the golf club women to deliberately kill my baby.

Why do they believe this?

Because between 1987 and 2013 I have had 7 miscarriages, something that can be proven… Ben ins the only man I’ve ever been with. It’s not possible for anyone else to be the father. This was my 8th pregnancy by Ben and he was at the time running around accusing me of cheating on him with Etiole. The thing is… he IS the one people call Etiole… but his D.I.D. means he things Etiole is someone else, he doesn’t believe its him, because none of his personalities have any memory of each other.

Ben is a total nightmare to live with because I never know from one day to the next, who the hell he is going to be that day.

Ben has denied every pregnancy. Why? His exact words are: “I wouldn’t. I am a High Priest. What would the Bishop think?”

According to the FBI too, Ben, behind my back, runs around from one LDS/Mormon congregation to the next tell people that I am quote: “An unrhightious, unfaithful aunty-Mormon who puts the church down.”

Interestingly, I have been a member of the Mormon church since 1975. Ben joined in the 1980s. Ben left the church in 2015. I am still a member.

My FATHER is an extremist anti-Mormon, who preaches hatred for the Mormon church. Not me. Kenny, my father, is the anti-Mormon. My father, is such a huge radical extremist anti-Mormon that he has gone on to convince my mother, a 5th generation Mormon who is related to one of Smith’s poly-wives, to leave the church. She left the Mormon church in 1994 and joined up with some anti-Mormon group lead by some woman named Tanner or something. My mother, took her anti-Mormonis to extremes far above and beyond my father, taking to FaceBook and a forum called exMormon something and went total psycho nutjob anti-Mormon conspiracy theory all over the internet through the late 1990s into the 200s and still does it to this day now in 2023, preaching her wild anti-Mormon conspiracy theories now 27 years. In 3 years it’ll be her 30th anniversary of her wild mega hyper anti-Mormon rampage, with my father cheering her on and needling her forward the whole way in a weird Bonnie and clyde style vendetta attack everyone who is a Mormon hate fueled bigotry.

I on the other hand, am still a Mormon, have never had anything to do with the anti-Mormon movement, and, was shocked to learn from the FBI, that, the anti-Mormon rumors about me online are massive, and spread largely by members of the Saco and Sanfard Wards, with their info being just misinformation they regurgitate after talking to Ben, my mother, or my father.

Apparently, because I am bedridden and crippled, since 2013, and thus have had no way to get to church these past nine years, this, my absence in church meetings, after 48 years of never once missing a meeting, has allowed my mother, my father, and Benn to be able to spread wild anti-Mormon rumors about me, with the 3 of them going to my church, the Sandford Ward, and telling the church leaders that I’m not in church because I’ve turned anti-Mormon.

And yet, it is Ben who is the biggest anti-Mormon of all… he’s actual friends with that Tanner woman. My parents only run around preaching the Tanner woman’s message, Ben, actually sought her out and became personal friends with her and helps the Tanner woman one on one…. And he brags about this all the time.

I’m sick of hearing all the anti-Mormon Tanner woman bullcrap from Ben and my father and my mother so, whenever any of the three of them start chiding me for being a Mormon and telling me how evil and deceived I am because I refuse to leave the Mormon church, I just put my headphones on and listen to Markiplier YouTube videos and, ignore them.

I don’t hate the Mormon church like Ben, my mother, and my father do, so I am fed up with them constantly bitching at me because I’m a Mormon. Which is why I’ve not spoken to my father in 3 years even though we live in the same apartment, and was a contributing factor to why I blocked my mother on FaceBook in 203 and have had no contact with her at all offline since… though that hasn’t stopped her from showing up, trespassing, and hounding me.

Ben, is far worse then my mother or my father combined… since 2015, he has hand written thousands of anti-Mormon letters to every church leader he can find, local, not local, all the heads in Utah… and he bought a dozen cases, each case with 144 books in it, cases of Ket Kerr’s books and daily mails them out to every member on every rouster list of every ward in the Exiter and Augusta stakes, using his position as High Priest Quorum leader to get the home addresses of every Mormon in Southern Maine and New Hampshire, mailing all of them aunty-Mormon letters and copies of Kat Kerr’s books. Ben, as you know, has more money then he knows what to do with, and right now, he’s spreading thousands of dollars every day, just on the postage stamps to mail Kat Kerr’s books and his anti-Mormon letters to every local Mormon he can find.

And so, I knew he was mailing out the Kat Kerr books… but, until FBI agent Andy Drewer told me, I did not know that Ben and my mother and my father, having been putting MY NAME of the letters they are mailing out to people, and the three of them, through impersonating me, have got my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, 100% convinced that I stopped attending church because I’mm now an anti-Mormon who hates the church, and that’s why my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, are both unaware that I have NOT left the church, but rather I’m bedridden and crippled and have no one to help me get to church.

My mother's shed has 3 bullet holes...from the September 12, 2015 Too Gay For old orchard beach attach when the men with assault rifles were marching around me yard... heck... my mother's the one who called 911... Of course my mother knows what happened. It's HER buildings they shot full of bullet holes, it's HER pets that got beheaded... and SHE is the one who called the police and made the report!

The police confiscated the guns of Ken Blow, Morin, Mark, and 5 different Townsends and arrested Ken Blow. Sargent Jack Nick and Timmy Deluca were the arresting officers.

And I have all the police reports, I went down to the station and got more then FOUR HUNDRED police reports for 146 Portland Ave printed up.

It wasn't in the paper, that is why I went to Channel 13 office in Portland to ask and they said Officer Will Watson had issued warnings to all tv and papers in the area to not cover it, they had the letters sent from the police department. Fbi arrested Tim DeLuca in 2016 for fraud and suppressing evidence. Ben knew all of this, I don't know why Ben is pretending he don't, it just makes him look guilty of being involved.

Ben took me and the police reports into every newspaper and TV news station in the area, every station had the same story of threatening letters sent to them by the Old Orchard Beach police department.

Ben knows all of this, and that was when Ben bought my camcorder, Ben bought it the week following September 12, 2015, and I have recorded every day since then. That was BEN's idea because BEN was so mad at them for not putting it in the news that he said we needed to start recording everything and uoloading it online so people would know the truth. That was ALL BEN.

But now people from our church are saying Ben not only never told them any of this, but that he has been activly saying he doesn't remember saying or doing any of these things (even though I have EVERY DAY and EVERY WORD Ben has said SINCE September 13, 2015 in camera and can PROVE ALL of his involvment). I don't see how Ben could forget something like that.

I am crippled from the golf club attack November 14, 2013.

Ben took me to the hospital and they wouldn't take me in because no insurance.

Ben spent 5 months taking me to free clinics before we finally got into one in February, and by that point, my broken bones had healed wrong because they had not been set.

I was using a wheelchair for a week, then on crutches for over 6 months while relearning to walk, then on a cane, which I am still on, and Ben took me to every doctor visit those entire 18 months because I couldn't drive that whole time.

In 2013 I still had the bantams, I had to give them to my mother after the golf club attack at the college November 14, 2013, because I couldn't stand up to go feed them.

I had only 1 week left of my semester and failed all 5 classes because I had no way to get to the college to turn in my final exams because my hip, knee, and spine were broken. I planned to go back the next semester, but the next semester had started BEFORE I was seen by a doctor 5 months later.

I could not walk the ENTIRE of 2014 and most of 2015.

I had only just started walking again in September of 2015, Ben had just brought my car back so I could work at Hallmark, the September 12, 2015 attack was the 4th largest and most violent attack of all.

The Jun 26, 2016 attack, same 2 women with the golf club at the college, this time at Scarborough Walmart with a shopping cart, re broke my spine, this time doing worse damage then the college golf club attack. It happened on my lunch break and I couldn't go back to work. Ben took me to the hospital that same day.

The first MRI was scheduled a week later, Ben took me to all of those as well, because again, I couldn't drive. I had planned to both go back to college and back to work, but my spine and hip was injured so badly November 14, 2013 and re-damaged so badly June 26, 2016, that I am still not yet recovered now in September 2023.

Ben pretending these things never happened just to keep up appearances for the church people who happen to be the very same people the FBi suspects of being the attackers, is beyond ridiculous and makes Ben look like Ben is lying about what happened to me in order to protect your church friends and cover up their guilt. But why? Why would he do that? Ben and I have been married since 1987. We celebrate of 40th anniversay soon, and there are even people at church, now say he never told them he was married, they say he's been attending singles meetings at church and going on dates with women from the Relief Society and that they are shocked to learn he's had a wife for 38 years.

Ben were heavily involved in all of these things and Ben were the one who took me to my hundreds of doctors visits throughout all of this.

And so, now I’m finding out, that Ben, my mother, and my father, working together, according to the FBI, seem to be the fuel that is, and has been for several years, the fuel working locals up into a frenzy… including, they are the ones who are getting the Atwaters riled up, my being an Atwater, and the Atwaters further fueling locals on top of what Ben, my mother, and my father are doing.

What is their motive?

I ask them.

My father says he’s doing it to impress my mother so she’ll remarry him.

My mother says she’s doing it because I need to sell my land and give her the money so she can buy a house in Kennebunk.

Ben says he’s doing it because Mormons are led astray by Satan and he has to save my soul from Hell.

I’m so sick of all of them.

Update: March 9, 2023

You know, one of the things I find most weird about the Atwaters is that so many of them seem to think I know them, even though I have never met them, nor even know any of their names.

Of the original twelve, I have only ever met five of them. And while I know Danny, I don’t even know the names of his siblings. I met Angelia once when she was twelve, at a Halloween party at the Cape Elizabeth Ward LDS Church, and then I saw her for about 2 minutes before she left. And Danny I only met when I was 37 years old and I only saw him about 10 times, back when my mother was trying to scam him out of his money from being hit by a train… which I didn’t know that was why she was visiting him, until a few years later when she had a big rant about how she wouldn’t visit him any more because he was, in her words “stingy and greedy” because he refused to give her the money to “use as a downpayment for a house in Kennebunk”. I should have known that was why she was visiting him, as that’s the only reason she ever does anything. She’s obsessed with trying to by that $3.7million mansion by the Wedding Cake House, and has been trying to scam relatives out of money for a downpayment on it for decades now… it was her reason for her involvement in the backhoe that her brother Joey hired to drive over my house. She and Joey figured I’d sell my land if there was no house on it. They didn’t exect me to set up a lean to made out of a 8x6 tarp and just spend the next 9 years living under that.

I met Doris once when she was squatting illegally on my land back in 1996. Took me and the Old Orchard Beach Police 9 months to get them out. I only ever saw her one day. She had 4 military tents, the size houses, 2 Winobegos and a Cadillac, that they illegally dumped on top of my corn crops, along with more then 600 bicycles, and 2 school buses full of sawed up copper pipes. Took us 9 months to find out who in the hell was living there and dumping that garbage on m land, and it turned out it was Doris. Only time I ever saw her, was one day, for about 15 minutes.

I remember Micheal, Tonya, and Scotty from before the caged years, but, I was put in the cage hen I was 8 years old, so I’ve not seen then since I was 8.

Once every year, usually on September 19th, David and Lucy would show up with a herd of incredibly violent gun toting vandals who would go through our farm and use shovels to chop the heads off all our pet cats, dogs, hens, ducks, and roosters. They were kill 200 to 500 of our pets every year in this anuel bloodbath on my farm. I don’t know who the hoodlums were. David said they were his kids, but he also said he had 15 kids and there were WAY more then 15 people involved in the annual Sptember 19 boodbaths… way more, closer to 100. Brucie said once that it was not JUST Davivd’s kids, but also a group known as The Halls. I don’t know who any of them were, but the police showed up every time, trying to get them out, and they always had huge shootouts with the police every year. It’s why I have a massive phobia of guns. A bunch of them were arrested in 1982, when that time the state police drg team showed up and arrested them and confincasted meth, marhawana, opium, and LSD

I know Dickie, Brucie, David, and Barbara because they were the ones that helped my mother build that room, that they locked me in when I was 8 years old, right after my Grammy Hellen Ricker’s funeral. They kept me in there for 27 years. One of the 4 of them would show up every 12 days to throw rotted molded food in the cracks between the boards. They are the only 4 Atwaters I know, and I only know them from their weekly coming into the room to beat me up, torture me. They are the five who raised me and said I was not Human, said I was a Demon and that I wasn’t allowed out of that room because Demons weren’t allowed to have contact with Humans.

I was 12 years old when the High Priest found out about that room, and he took me out every Sunday to go to church, and then took me back to that room after.

No one ever told me I was a Human and was allowed to go outside or talk to Humans until the social workers showed up when I was 31 years old. They are the ones who started using the term “feral child” to describe me and they to this day are still trying to “integrate me into Human culture” but two of them say they have given up on trying to convince me I am Human, they say there is little chance of my mind ever fully grasping the concept of being human because it’s too difficult to undo the three decades of Brucie, David, Dickie, Barbara, and my mother doing their “child social experiment” (as the social workers call it) to raise me to believe I was not human. They said the bigger problem is the fact that almost immediately after I was rescued out of that room/cage they kept me locked in for 27 years, the 2006 bomb blew up my house, which the FBI says it was Barbara’s husband Paul Martel who did that, but I don’t know why, as I never met him or even knew about him prior to the FBI arresting him, and the backhoe arrived to drive over my house 5 different times over the next 10 years, same back hoe, same yard, different house each time, as I kept rebuilding houses. Then I found that headless girl in the marsh with all the headless dogs and the FBI thinks one of the Atwaters did it seeing how the headless dogs were lined up in a row from my land to the march, each dog about 500 feet apart (for some reason the Saco and Sanford ward church members forget my land in Old Orchard abuts the Scarborough Marsh and is right on the edge of OOB bordering Pine Point in Scarborough. And that the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh was literally only a few hundred feet away from my driveway… they keep asking why I am obsessed with the Oulette Case, but they forget I’m the one who found the dead girl in the Marsh and that she was set up in a friging ritual pose, practically on my front lawn AND the FBI thinks the whole thing was done in some weird attempt by the Atwaters to frame me, so that I would go to prison for murder and they culd take my land… which it’s always my land and the Atwater obsession with taking it that is at the core of everything)

But in any case, the social workers say that because these events were my very first interactions with Humans, that it instilled in me an psychosis effect of further belief in not being human because I had trouble accepting the fact that I am the same type of creature as the monsters humans are, because, yeah, all I’ve ever seen from humans is death, bloodshed, violence and distruction. I have no reason to WANT to be integrated into a society that leaves headless dogs and headless girls in my front yard.

But then 2013, came along…. Social workers got me into college in 2010, in an attempt to show me that ONLY the Atwaters were shitty bloodthirsty bastards and that MOST humans don’t drop dead headless animals all over their houses and yards the way the Atwares do. And they were right. Humans in college were nothing like the Atwaters and their drug dealing, petty thieve, ganster thugs. The social workers and police keep telling me that this sort of behavior is not normal and that it is ONLY something the Atwaters and their friends do, that normal humans don’t act, do, or say the things the Atwaters do.

But then, I’m constantly running into people who make the claim to “know all about” me and they will spout off this weird freaked out stuff about witchcraft and curses and spelcasting and aliens and ufos and, I’m left totally clueless because I don’t know a single thing at all about witchcraft or curses or spellcasting or aliens or ufo, and I can’t figure out why these people think I have the faintest idea what the fuck they are even talking about.

They’ll say they thought I was some expert in casting curses and say they want to hire me to cast curses on people, and they act like spell casting is some sort of job I do. I don’t know heads or tails about spell casting.

They’ll say, “But your the sea witch of Old Orchard Beach”... yeah, people have been calling me that ever since Stephen King filmed Thinner on my land back in the early 1990s, but, I’ve never read a Stephen King book or seen a Stephen King movie, not even Thinner, so, I haven’t got a clue what is in his books and movies. All I know is he based some “Gypsy witch” in Thinner off me, because I’m the “Queen” (aka Priestess) of a local Gypsy clan. A Gypsy Queen is similar to a Catholic Nun in the Folk Catholicism of Mexico and has nothing to do with witches, witchcraft, spells, or curses, so I don’t know what the fuck Stephen King did in the Thinner movie to make people think I’m some kind of spell casting witch, but, people seem to have trouble understanding that the Thinner movie is FICTIONAL. I’m not a witch and I don’t know the first thing about witches or witchcraft. I haven’t got a clue how to cast spells or curses. And I can’t figure out why so many total random strangers think they can walk up to me at WalMart or Rotary Park or the library and demand I cast some curse on someone for them.

But, when these people do this, and it happens EVERY SINGLE TIME I go outside, which I have agoraphobia, so it’s sometimes weeks or months between my setting foot outside, every single time I go out, some one always identifies me as a witch and watches a curse cast.

At the same time I’ve got these UFO nuts constantly coming up to me asking me this or that about some weird ass alien ufo idea, and I never have a clue what they are talking about, They use all sorts of weird ass words and phrases that I’ve never heard before and gibber on like another language which I can’t understand… but then they act all surprised that I don’t know the meanings of the words they are using, and they’ll say: “But I thought you were supposed to be a top expert on UFOs and alien abductions” and I’m like what the hell are they even talking about and how the hell would anyone in their right mind come to think that I would believe in ufos or aliens, when I think people who believe in ufos and aliens are raving lunatics, my uncle Brucie being a perfect example of a raving lunatic who believes in aliens and ufos.

I don’t get it.

But then, every time this happened, and it just happened again today, because, as you know I’ve not received any mail since May 2022 and I went to the post office yet again today to once again ask where the hell is my mail… and low and behold, I can’t set foot outside without some alien believing, curse believing freak ass weirdo nutjob showing up to ask me to put a curse on someone while gibbering about ufos.

I ask him, where the hell did he get the ludacris idea that I was a witch, that I cast curses, or that I believed in aliens, nd he said: “Well, your mother says on FaceBook…” yeah, my mother is a freaking nut, which is why I’ve had nothing to do with her in decades. She’s a white power freak who runs around calling black people the n-word, is part of the anti-vaccer micro-chip in vaccines conpreracy theory, wouldn’t let me or my brothers go to school because in her words “the government controls the schools, and satan controls the government”, SHE spends 90% of her time running around putting curses on people, all she does is talk about whores and demons, demons and whores, every other word out of her mouth is either demon or whore. And the only time she ever shows up its because she’s trying to pul yet another lame ass scam to try to steal my land because she hated my grandmother and says it’s her life duty to destroy everything that”ever bolgned to that old bitch of a whore” including the farm I inherted from gramy Helen. My mother is spiteful, violent, vindictive, and has a police record for running around beating people in the face with bricks. On top of all of that she’s chronic liar and I’ve never heard a truthful word come out of her mouth.

I am well aware that my mother is the source of 90% of the problem, simply because she’s the biggest fucking gossip in Southern Maine, after he sister Barbara, and the two of them are rather famous all over Maine for thei trouble they have caused HUNDREDS of families. They are petty Karens who devote every minute of their lives to making up vicsious rumors and lies about every person they see, both people they know and people they don’t know.

And thanks to the FBI investigation into the murder of my on, I’ve found out a LOT about both my mother and Barbara and the bizarre, outlandish extremes they each have gone to in their petty vindictivness.

But the fact remains, I’ve not had contact with either of those bitches in several decades, precisely because I am sick and tired of their endless hate for everything and everyone around them. They both do nothing but gossip and lie, lie and gossip, and run around like a couple of teenage brats making a game out of seeing who they can hurt next … they fucking brag about it and spend hours laughing over how fun it is to destroy families.

It doesn’t take any level of intelligence to see that the dynamic trio (Barbara, Brucie, and my mother) are the source of every damn rumor about everyone in York County, Maine.

It’s such a big problem that I’ve had people come to my apartment and ask me if I could ask my mother and her siblings to leave their family alone. The fucking Biddeford Police have stopped by my apartment to ask me if I could do anything about my mother, that’s how I found out it was HER who knows Todd Murphey, because the police came right out and told me that my mother has been harassing Todd Murphey’s ex-wife and 15 year old son on their FaceBook accounts and wanted to know if I could ask her to stop.

No. I can’t. And you know why? Because when I asked her to stop spreading witchcraft and curse casting rumors about me, she arrived the next day and cut my car in half! The 1964 Dodge 330… she said it had a demon in it and she had to kill the demon by killing the car. What the fuck? She’s fucking insane!

And worse… half the time, these people will tell me some name I never heard of. Say this or that person told them I was a witch who cast curses or was some alien expert, and I’ll ask them who the hell is that, and they’ll say: “Oh that’s one of Brucie’s kids” or “David’s kids” or a grandkid… and I’ll point ou that I’ve NEVER EVEN MET Brucie's kids or Davids kids or ANY of the rest of the Atwares.

There are more then four hundred Atwaters, and I’ve meet EXACTLY SEVEN of them in my life time. I don’t even know the names of all the original twelve, let alone the names of their kids or grandkids… why would I? Most of them live in Utah and I’ve not set foot outside of Maine for nearly SIXTY YEARS!

I’ve never in my entire life even talked with an Atwter, not face to face off line, not online.

Because I’ve never even seen pictures of any of the Atwaters, I wouldn’t even know an Atwater if I saw one!

And yet, they run around spouting off things I supposedly said or did, and make the claim I’ve talked to them… and I’m just left wondering who the fuck is running around talking to the Atwaters while pretending to be me, because I don’t even know who the Atwaters are!

Clearly, there is someone out there pretending to be me and the Atwaters think they are talking to me, but they are NOT talking to me, I’m not talking to them, and I want to know in the the fuck is running around pretending to be me?

Its so damned fucking obvious the Atwaters don’t know one iota about me, just by the level of the ludicrous witchcraft, curse, alien, and ufo lies they spread around about me!

I should be able to go to my post office, go shopping, heck just walk down my driveway to get my mail, without being bombarded with stupid ass freaks gibbering about witches, curses, demons, aliens, and ufos! I am so damned sick of my mother and her fucking Atwater relatives…

You know, another thing that’s fucked up about all this and again is my mother running around lying her ass off to hell and back, yet again… is this whole situation with HER cats.

The attack on my family, happened the same day as the whole thing with her cats, and she is so obsessed with the cats, that she has gone out of her way to run around telling people that when I talk about April 10, 2025, I’m talking about HER cats… but, in order to further promote that lie, she also tells people they were MY cats! What the fuck?

You know that Nick guy my mother sleeps around with? The one she broke up his marriage, convinced him to leave his wife and kids down in Mass and move up here to Maine, because she was scamming him… the guy she stole his credit card and went and bought that shed she put on my land, and bought those $2k dogs with, and bought those appliances with, and bought that tractor with, before that Nick guy found out she stole his credit cards? Him.

Did you know, she convinced him that she owned MY land in Old Orchard Beach, and she tried to get him to join her scam, and pretend he was a real estate agent, and my mother and her pimp Nick tried to sell my land last year… and this is not the first time she’s done this.

Did you know, that in 2007, she went to the town hall, pretending to be me, had them divide my land into sections, and then sold one section? That’s why Don Cooliard and his sister have a house in my driveway now… something they built in 2019… and it was when they built the house in 2019, that was when I found out my shit face mother and her jackass whore master Nick, sliced off a peice of my land in 2007 and sold it!

I had no idea they had done it!

That’s the kind of shit faced scum bag scam artist my mother and her fuck buddy Nick are!

But it gets worse.

My mother had 83 cats… eighty three cats.

And she was hiding 113 of them in an apartment owned by this Nick scammer. He found out she had cats in her apartment… guess what day… April 14, 2015. The day before the attack on my farm.

Here’s a thing… did you know there were no locks on the doors of my motorhome? Not one. I bought it February 21, 2012, and first thing I did was took all the locks off, because I have a PTSD phobia of locks, after my mother kept me locked in the room cage thing for 27 years.

And yet… when the vandals showed up with a Blow Brothers sewage truck to fill my motorhome with 500 gallon of raw feces, they had to pry a padlock off the door to get inside. A padlock, that I did not put there.

Do you know how that padlock got there? My mother put it there the night before, when she took HER thirteen cats, and shoved them in my motorhome, without telling me she was doing it… because she had to hide them from Nick.

People often ask, why, I a professional artist whom has had displayed at the Portland Museum of art… don't paint anymore.

It’s because paint supplied are expensive, and 500 gallons of raw human feces not only did $10k in damages to my bedroom, it also destroyed $30k in art materials.

But it gets worse… my mother was two timing Nick with both my father Kenny and her other ex husband Wayne… and on top of that, she was mad at Wayne, so, it turns out, that 7 of those cats were HIS cats, and she had stolen them from HIM…. so not only was she hiding thirteen cats from Nick, but seven of those cats were stolen cats besides!

She put the cats in my motorhome, them, because she is fueding with ALL her whore master fuck buddy men, one of them, the FBI hasn’t figured out which one yet, filled my motorhome with feces out of a Blow Brother’s sewage truck (my cousin Ken Blow is my neighbour, they stole one of his trucks to do it) , and then called the police and told them that the motorhome was HERS, because my mother had been running around telling everybody it was hers, she these guys thought they were pumping sewage into my mother’s bedroom and didn’t know they were pumping sewage into my bedroom.

But, because they DID know that she had put the cats in there, and they were made at both her and Wayne, they thought if they called the police, the police would arrest her and Wayne…

,...however, the gays haters of the local Mormon churches ALSO showed up that same morning, a completely separate incident from the cats, to attack my family, because, earlier that year, I had published a gay Romance novel, called Night of the Screaming Unicorn, and these gay hating church freaks, decided murdering my family was punishment for me publishing a Gay Romance novel.

A fucking five towns worth of police, including a SWAT team showed up… the white robed klan pretenders fled, thep police found the cats, I was left asking “What cats? What are you even talking about?” Later an officer asked me if I knew the cats, and I said, “Yeah, these ones belong to my step father Wayne up in Biddeford and those ones belong to my on the other side of Bideford, how the hell did they get in my motorhome?”

And the court cases people talk about… there where SEVEN different court cases going on all at once, including the Guy Gamon murder trail because he murdered my dog walker who walked my dog when I was sick, which was the big case, that uncovered he was a serial rapist, and went on for several years and included a jury trial.

The murder trail of my family was also going on. Different court case.

And then, my MOTHER had a court case going on with police over the cats, which, in the middle of that, she spun it around, started telling people the cats were mine, and the next thing I knew, there were TWO MORE court cases slapped on me, that I knew nothing about… both an extension of the cat case my mother had going on, because 2 weeks into HER court case about HER cats that SHE hid from Nick in MY motorhome, she had Nick convince the police to switch the case out of her name into my name, because she had convinced Nick that the cats were mine! So all of a sudden, I get this weird court case about HER cats slapped on me, on top of the three murder cases and rape case, that were already going on.

The cat court case lasted less then an hour before the judge threw it out of court, telling some Dan guy that if he ever tried to pull a stunt like this again (apparently he worked for the Old Orchard Beach town hall and had pulled scam court cases to frame disabled women before, because the judge told the Dan guy that this was the 64th bogus case he had done to try to steal land from disabled women in OOB)...... but… the judge was asking me about the cats, and I keep telling him, I don’t know anything about the cats because they were not my cats, they were my mother’s cats, and I still had no clue how they had even gotten in my motorhome in Old Orchard Beach, 14 miles away from Nick’s apartment in Biddeford where they had been for several years before that. Finally the judge asked if someone could get my mother to the court house, and surprisingly she showed up… with Nick of all people… and she boo-hooed to the court about the cats being mine, and my being homeless and living under a tarp (I was still living under the tarp in 2015, but not at the time of the attack… I had just moved in with my dad in Biddeford March 31, 2015 due to I have just come out of intensive surgery and the doctor wanted me to not be sleeping outdoors for the next 6 months because I had intensive amounts of surgery to heal from, so I wasn’t in Old Orchard the day my mother put HER cats in my motorhome and that’s why I had no clue the cats were in there).

Well, the judge got mad at my mother, because it was blatantly obvious to him that the cats were hers, because she was using all the cats’ names, while I didn’t know the cats’ names, and she was describing what they looked like and what breeds and ages they were, while I didn’t know what half the cats looked like, Three of the cats I had never even seen before, and I didn’t know their names. I didn’t know how many cats there were!

The judge outright told my mother to her face that she ought to be ashamed of what she did, framing me and pretending the cats were mine, and he sent the cats to the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter, something we knew right there in the court room, but in order to get pity, and money (my mother started a fund raiser on one of those kickstarter type places) saying she needed to raise money to locate the cats. What the fuck? We knew where the cats were. They were at the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter… she even went there to try to get them back… asked me to drive her there in my car, took Wayne with her because the cats were technically HIS cats that she stole from him… I have the whole thing on video camera, it was livestreamed… she had a big fucking fight with the people at the shelter and they told her they’s arrest her if she ever tried to get near their shelter again.

After that, she built up this weird ass conspiracy that the cats were sent to lots of shelters and foster care… which they probably were., I don’t know… and she went from one animal shelter to the next harassing them.

Meanwhile, her friend Joel Baily hacks my Twitter account and uses it to harass, yet another of my mother’s whore master men that she sluts around with trying to get money out of… some guy named Mark, who I never heard of before, but apparently, he’s been friends with my mother AND my father for some forty odd years, even though I myself had never seen or heard of him before. And yes, the same Joel Bailey from the Saco Ward and Old Orchard Beach town hall who went to prison for hacking the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall bank account and transferring $30MILLION in OOB tax money to members of the Saco Ward church… who it turns out, most of them were the anti-gay attackers in my yard April 10, 2015, which is why 24 members of that church went to prison between 2016 and 2021.

So, I’m still unable to do anything because, you know, still recovering from major spine surgery, because of the golf club attack that murdered my son in 2013, three years earlier, I didn;t have surgery until 2015 and 2016., because of the fucking red tape the USA medical system runs on… here I am, not online at all since November 14, 2013, so I have not yet told anyone about any of the April 10, 2015, and come January 2016, all of a sudden, there’s the Mark guy who crawls out of the woodwork, with yet another court case, this one claiming I was saying stuff on Twittrer about him… and yet, I had never heard of this guy before AND I hadn’t been online since November 14, 2013, so what the fuck? Who the hell is hacking my Twitter account pretending to be me, while harassing this guy I never even heard of before. But by this point FBI Agent Andy Drwer had taken over the whole case, and by June 2016, he found out, yeah,:” it’s your mother’s friends from the Saco Ward church. She’s convinced them the cats were yours and that you need to be punished for animal abuse, that you didn’t even do, by hacking your accounts and framing you” Great. So yet again, my mother and her cat obsession and her Atwater friends, and her Saco ward friends, and her fcck buddies are at the core of all of this, with them once again, putting my name on something I fucking had no part of and didn’t even know anything about! What the fuck!

This court case was ALL livestreamed, you can go watch it on YouTube. The Cat Court case was also live streamed. You can watch that on YouTube too. The murder court cases and the rape court cases, also livestreamed. You can watch them on YouTube too. And then on top of that, was the Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach Court case with the Old Orchard Bach Town Hall… also livestreamed, you can watch that on YouTube as well.

My mother, Nick. all these Saco Ward church people, the Dan guy, the Mark guy, the Gene guy… they are ALL on livestream… the judges, the police officers, the witnesses, the DA, even the FBI agents… all recorded, all livestreamed on Twich, all archived on YouTube, all SEVEN court cases, every day of every trial. You can go watch them all yoursel and see the truth, instead of listening to siller gossip and rumors started by my mother and her Nick buddy trying to cover their asses for trying to steal my land YET AGAIN, via the cats.

But have you ever noticed it is ONLY my mother and Nick talking about the cats in connection to April 10, 2015… do you notice how I never talk about the cats, because… oh look… they were NOT my cats, they were my MOTHER’S cats and that’s why SHE is talking about them?

Did you also notice how, in order to make people believe the cats were mine, that both my mother and Nick, are going out of their way to try to erase the existence of my family that was murdered that same day?

Did you notice how in order to push THEIR cat agenda, my mother and Nick are are doing a major gaslighting move to try to make everyone FORGET what happened two years earlier on November 14, 2013, the day my son was murdered and my spine was broken?

Did you notice how my mother and Nick are trying to use THEIR cats as a slight of hand move, so people wouldn’t see that they DID steal and sell part of my land to Don Colliard in 2007 nd that they tried to sell another section of my land in March 2015… yes, yet another court case which was going on, BEFORE the cats happened, and that the FBI believes my mother and Nick pulled the cat stunt deliberately to try to make people look the other way and forget that she and Nick tried to steal my land only 2 weeks prior to the cat event? Or that she and Nick tried for a THIRD time to steal and sell my land April 2022…

Know the truth.

Those cats were not mine, they never were, and I’m sick and tired of the jack ass fucking animal abuse rumors and lies my mother and Nick are spreading about me… lies that they are spreading ONLY to try to cover up the fact that they were trying to steal my land, to sell my land, so my mother could by some fucking mansion in Kennebunk.

Well guess what… my son is buried on my land, He’s been buried there since November 2013, and it doesn’t matter that there is no house on my land, because my son’s there and I’m never selling it. And my mother and he Nick and Saco Ward and Atwater friends are bunch of fucking scum bags who don’t give a shit about anything but the damned fucking money they think they can get out of my land.

Update: March 13, 2023

So, we have confirmation that yes, our mail IS being stolen from 146 Portland Ave. As you already know, we have not received mail since May 2022 and it is now March 2023, it's nearly a year. Post office has just been saying "we are short drivers" and has not looked into it... so we went over the heads of the local Old Orchard Beach post office and went to the distribution center, and told the state post master what was going on, they got in touch with our delivery driver, and he has delivered our mail every day, all year, and is baffled because the post office had not alerted him that we were not getting our mail. So, YES, if you live on Portland Ave, in Old Orchard Beach, and have not been receiving mail, and I know most of my neighbors are saying they've not gotten mail in weeks to months, as well, go to the Saco distribution center in the industrial park, and complain there, because tour driver IS delivering daily and has not been missing delivers... all missing mail from Portland Ave is stolen and you need to let them know what mail you have not received to they can get to the bottom of finding who is doing it.  

So, while I was at the post office today, seeing how the post office is on the Cascade Road, out here in the Old Orchard Beach section of the Scarbourgh Marsh... I decided to check the family cross, see if the name Todd had been added, seeing how the vandals and shitard harassers can't stop gibbering Todd Murphey this and Todd Murphey that in my driveway, and nope... here it is, https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg as you can see the only two names are my cousin Timmy Murphy and my uncle Gordon Murphy. No Todd.

You know, I would recommend these shittards take their heads out of their asses, and drive through all the roads of the Scarbourough Marsh. Why?

This cross is one of the more then a hundred crosses in the marsh, which marks the locations of the one hundred and twenty people whom have been beheaded in a four mile radius since June 2001. This cross stand at the Ross Road x Cascade Rd intersection. The Cascade Road, as everyone who watches the local news is aware, is where bulk of the serial killer's attacks have occurred, which is why local news reporters have dubbed the entire case as "The Cascade Murders", officially know to law enforcement as "The Oulette Case".

If you start driving through all the side streets of the Scarbourgh Marsh, you will find there are 120 - one hundred and twenty - of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them, each marking the location where the the person dubbed by locals as "The Portland Ave serial killer" has murdered 120+ people between June 2001 and February 2021.

For some odd reason, the Sanford Ward LDS church, a church only a 30 minute drive awa from the Scarborough Marsh, is so clueless about the local biome, that they seem to think the ONLY place the Scarborough Marsh exists is across the street from the church owned candy store Len Libby's Chocolates.

Do you recall how people like to dub my land "Etiole's Swamp"... do you know why they do that? Because my land is a literal swamp. It's a peat bog, with more sinking quicksand and 6 foot tall marsh grass, then solid ground. I live IN the Scarbough Marsh, as does EVERYONE on Portland Ave, Ross Road, Pine Point Road, Cascade Road, Walnut Street, East Grand Ave, West Grand Ave, Milliken Mills Rd, and more then 200 - two hundred - other streets in Old Orchard Beach, all of which are located inside the Scarborough Marsh.

The Marsh is not JUST in Scarborough, nor is it just that one quart mile stretch of road across from Len Libby's. The Marsh sits in two countries and five towns, and covers several thousand acres of land... and the Scarborough WalMart and the South Portland Main Mall, both site in the marsh, with both of those mega buildings building on a massive system of concrete pilings to keep them from sinking into the many acres of peat bog that site under each of those buildings.

But do take a drive on the above listed streets in Old Orchard, as well as the following ones in Pine Point: Pine Point Rd, Blue Point Rd, Black Point Rd, Dunstan Corner, Portland Rd aka Rt 1, Payne Rd, and all the little side streets off of each one. In Saco head to Heath St, Jenkins Rd, Flag Pond Rd (stop and see the very real pet cemetery where Stephen King's The Pet Cemetery movie was filmed while you are there), and all their side streets, yes those are in the Scarbourogh Marsh as well... and instead of just blindly driving through the Marsh on your way to work, slow down and start counting the crosses... big white crosses, little white crosses, unpainted wooden crosses, reflector covered orange crosses... see if you can find all one hundred and twenty crosses in the Scarbourogh Marsh... they sit in 5 towns, in 2 counties... and every one of them marks the location of someone who was beheaded by a still uncaught, still actively killing people, serial killer who has plagued the streets in the Portland Ave region of the Scarbough Marsh since June 2001.

But as you can see, it's Timmy Murphy who was beheaded on the Cascade Rd... not Todd Murphy... there's it's cross which has stood there since June 2013.

You know, if these harassers spent more time paying attention to what is going on around them, and less time being self absorbed jerks... they'd know these crosses were here... they'd know, Old Orchard Beach has a serial killer on the lose who has beheaded more then 120 people and left their bodies at cross road intersections all over the marsh... they'd know that this has been going on for 18 years now, and they'd know that my family had been hit by this madman multiple times now, fist killing my cousin Timmy Murphy, then killing my baby and leaving me not only crippled, but also one of only 5 people to live through and survive one of this serial killer's attacks, thus WHY the FBI is so hyper focused on not letting me out of their sight because this killer has a history of not leaving people alive... they'd know that SEVENTEEN families all within a quarter mile section of Portland Ave, between Walnut St and Milekin Miles Rd, 17 families in this space of street, have not only have their families murdered, but their houses bulldozed by a backhoe, and in just those 17 families, in addiction to the dead people, there are also more then FIVE HUNDRED dead pets, including cats, dogs, birds, and horses, every one of which was beheaded and the headless pet hung from rope nooses and draped in trees and porches of the 17 families... something the FBI says is a scene from a Stephen King book, which the serial killer likes to recreate... and then the FBI points out this: each of those 17 families has appeared in The Thinner movie... it's the one common thread for ALL 120+ Scarbourough Marsh killings: every sing victim has somehow been involved in the filming on one of the 14 Stephen King movies which was filmed in Saco, Old Orchard Beach, and Scarboughor back in the 1980s. According to the FBI, EVERY SINGLE ONE of these murders, animal killings, harassments, vandalisms, and hate crimes, can be found in a Stephen King book and this lunatic is recreating "art" in tribute to Stephen King, using the bodies of family members who were involved in the filming of Stephen King's oldest movies.

If these people in the Sanford Ward church would take their heads out of Joesph Smith's ass long enough to look around, they would have known these things were going on, that they were going on to people in their congregation, that several members of their congregation have stopped attended church because they were murdered, that several other members of their congregation no longer attend because like me they are crippled and bed ridden from these attacks, and that 24 members of their congregation no longer attend church because they are in prison for their connections and involvements in these murders.

Heck, these murders have been all over the TV and paper news for 18 years now... you'd think the people of the Saco and Sanford Ward LDS churches - who are the ones in my driveway bitch screaming about Todd Murphey for the past 2 years now - would at least have seen enough TV news or newspaper news... oh look, did you know one of the big name newscasters on TV, someone who has in fact covered the Scarbough Marsh case on TV several times now, is a member of the Sanfard Ward congregation, and even SHE knows what's going on, obviously because she's one of the reporters who keeps showing up to interview all us families who live in in the Scarborough Marsh... so I know not everyone in the Sandford Ward is clueless as to what has been going on in the community round them.... several of these church members are outright screaming, literally screaming from my neighbor's front porch in Biddeford, that they never heard of any of this before... I'm sorry... what the fuck?

The Scarbourough Marsh murders is quite literally the biggest unsolved murder case in all of New England, not just Maine, it's been covered by DateLine, 20/20 and half the crime network tv shows! The fucking planet has heard of it! These people are telling me, literally, while standing on my neighbors front porch and shrieking at the tops of their lungs, that they never heard of this murder case, a murder case I've not stopped talking about for the last 9 years because as of 9 years ago now members of my family have been murdered.. heck, with so many deaths now, it's pretty hard to find any family in the Scarbourough Marsh who DOESN'T have a dead relative killed by this nutjob... and these people, who vandalized our apartment building so bad that the landlord has a repair crew here all of this next upcoming summer... these vandals and hate fueled harassers from the Sandford Ward church, are telling me, that they had no clue any of this was going on?

And worse... y Atwater relatives... they keep showing up and ALSO saying they never heard of this... really? How? I know the FBI has been talking to them about it because they keep showing up in a rage yelling that the FBI was just at their house and it's all my fault and demanding I stop sending the FBI to their house... but I didn't send the FBI to their house, heck, I didn't even know they were related to me, as I never heard of them before they showed up to yell at me, so how the hell do they think I sent the FBI over there? What the fuck?

But also... what the fuck? Family members have been murdered and as far as I know, the FBI is trying to locate every relative to find out if they might have any information about a member of their family being murdered... I mean, if these people really are relatives, like they scream that they are when they are in my yard yelling at me, then, someone in my family being murdered IS ALSO someone in THEIR family being murdered.... and yeah, of course the law enforcement is going to go to every family member and ask for info, that's what law enforcement does, because, they just naturally assume that normal families help each other and WANT to solv a murder that happened in their family.

Which is something FBI Agent Andy Drewer pointed out to me, he said: "The Atware relatives of yours... they're pretty paranoid aren't they? I'm having trouble getting any of them to talk to me. Most slam the door in my face the minute I say I'm with the FBI. They act like they got something to hide. Looks mighty suspicious. Can you think of any reason why any of your uncles might want you dead?" That was the same day he pointed out that his five top suspects for the November 14, 2013 attack were my uncle Bruce, my aunt Barbara, my mother, my father, and Ben. He said he can prove they all knew about the golf club attack, and yet everyone of them is openingly, publicly denying any knowledge of it, and all five of them are doing their most public outspoken, over the top denying it in two places: The Saco Ward LDS Church and the Sandford Ward LDS Church.

And most disturbing of all is this: He says my father was having an affair with a woman named Claire back in the 1970s, and that my father and my mother and Claire and Claire's husband have been feuding since the late 1970s, a fued which goes on to this day... and... that on ALL of my mother's social media accounts, FaceBook, Twitter, Pinterest, everything, are two usernames that show up in her friends' lists: both with the same last name, one using the username Claire while posting a 4 door white truck as her user photo, and the other... wait for it... has the user name: KendraSilvermander".

Yep.

The FBI has found an actual person, a relative, in law of the Atwaters, who goes by the username KendraSilvermander.

Why is this significant?

The people who murdered my son at BugLight Light house art studio at Southern Maine Community College on November 14, 2013, was a blond woman whom the other two called "Claire", a red haired woman who was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!..." like she was singing a song... both women looked to be in their 60s, and today a decade later, would now be in their mid-70ish, and were with a large bald man, about 30th, today would be about 40ish, and the 3 of them left in a 4 door white pickup truck.

The odd thing is, people don't talk about themselves in 3rd person limited, but, that's what the red haired woman was doing.... and I've seen her before... she showed up at Westbrook Panera 3 different occasions in 2009 and 2010 and in each of those instances also did the same marching goosestep around, back then carrying a white poodle wearing a purple dragon coat... while again saying "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" while also bragging that her father owned Saco FunTownSplashtown USA and having a psychotic meltdown screaming" My chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIR!" Annalese, the woman sitting next to me, another published author, as thi was a NaNoWriMo writer's meeting, who was the NaNoWriMo Ml of Souther Maine, leaned over and whispered to me "That's Kendra Silvermander, she thinks she's he ML, we try to humor her. She can get rather violent if you don't."

Whoever this red haired woman is, she has a server, mega in need of medical care, mental disorder, appears to be incapable of functioning beyond the mental level of a two year old, and is quite proud of repeating her name as fast as an auctioneer. But, she speaks in 3rd person limited about herself, using us and ours and we to refer to herself, and uses the phrase: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" as though it was a period at the end of every sentence. I don't know what sort of a mental disorder she has, but Annelese was right, this woman gets over the top violent, as we quickly saw at Westbrook Panera in 2009, when she started slamming her dog on the table while chanting "My chair", and then quickly lashed out at me, in a mega violent rage of throwing chairs. The restaurant had to drag her out and make her leave.

She repeated this at three different writer's meetings at the Westbrook Panera in 2009 and 2010.

She is the same woman who was ordering/leading/demanding the blond Claire woman's golf club attack at Southern Maine Community college November 14, 2013, murdering my baby and crippling me.

She returned for a 5th attack June 26, 2016, again with the bond Claire woman, this time at Scarborough WalMart, and this time attacking with a shopping cart, this being the attack that caused the inoperable 3 broken vertebrae and the organ and nerve damage which caused my current crippled stat. In this attack, yet again the red haired woman was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" but this time the blond woman was shrieking: "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband. That thing is Ken's son, look at how IT's dressed! Kill or be killed! Remember Saco Shaws! No more heads in ice cream! End the gaypocalypse! Kill the transvestite freak! Too Gay for the Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach!" This time instead of driving away in a 4 door white truck driven by a bald man, this time he two women were alone and drove away in a gold Volvo late 1990s vintage suv station wagon.

The usernames now showing up on my mother's social media, and the Atwater relative's social media is significant, because, according the these FBI agents.... those are the exact same Atwaters who are REFUSING to talk to the FBI, slamming the doors in the FBI agents faces, and also, are the most vocal on social media in spreading the alien/UFO/witchcraft/cat rumors about me. And the FBI believes they not only know who the golf club murderer is, they likely were involved in planning the November 14, 2013 attack... and every one of them has been seen with the Sanford Ward LDS Church members who are likewise the biggest defamatory gossipers, running around slandering my name with their lies about witchcraft/curses/aliens/ufos/and cats.

AND... on top of that... they ae the EXACT SAME Atwaters ans Sandford Ward church members whom have spent the last two years bombarding my Biddeford apartment with these same rumors while the vandalize the building, which the landlord now has to spend the summer repairing.

AND... these are the same people who are also claiming, they had no clue these murders were going on in the Scarborough Marsh.

Overall... these people who are denying the events of the Scarborough Marsh murders, while simaltaniously going overboard gibbering lies about me online, are really working overtime at making themselves look like they were involved in the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, and making themselves look tremendously guilty of not only knowing who the killier is, but trying to cover up for the killer, and attempting to gaslight me with their weird alien rumors, in an attempt to make people not see their connection to the killer, that they are trying so very blatently to hide and are only succeeding and shining a mega sized spotlight of suspision on themselves, leaving everyone who is watching them doing it to ask: What the fuck did they do, that they are trying to hide so damned bad, that they are going mega big time slanderfeat screaming about aliens and ufos all over social media, trying to convince people that I believe in aliens and ufos when there are 40+ years of documented evidance of me debuncking aliens and proving their ufo accusations to a be a hoax they created to cover their own asses over a drug raid from 1982? And now they are rearing up their alien accusations again, which again, I can prove to be a hoax, because... what are they trying to cover up THIS time? Last time they rolled out the alien accusations they were trying to blame literal toddlers for the 1982 drug raid, by saying that 4, 5, and 6 year old children saw aliens... 72 people were arrested in the 1982 drug raid... there were no aliens... if anyone was seeing aliens, it was the drug addicted having drug induced hallucinations... and yet, those same drug dealers, now out of prison, are once again pointing to aliens, this time because they are mad that the FBI showed up to ask if they knew anything about the murder of my son.

???

Can I ask, what the fuck does not real, fictional aliens they saw because of drugs, during a 1982 drug raid, what does that have to do with my son being murdered?

And are they really that retarded that they think I control the FBI and tell the FBI what to do? What the fuck? Them coming over here and screaming for me to stop sending the FBI to their house, when I didn’t even know these people were relatives, never heard of them before, and wouldn’t even have had a way t tell the FBI a blooming thing about them at all, just makes them look suspicious, because for one thing: who even are these people? I still don’t know who they are! And for another thing, why do they think I sent the FBI over to them? And again: who are they? There are over 400 Atwaters and I’ve only ever met 7 of them, I don’t know the names or faces of any of the others, I don’t even know all the names or faces of the original 12, so I can’t figure out how they’d think I would know the names or faces of any of the kids, grandkids, or great grandkids of the original 12. What the fuck?

How are the Atwaters so full of themselves that they think I would have one iota of a clue anything about them, when I’ve never met them and I don’t even know their names… and also… why would I care? Tell me that? Do you know any sane person who knows the names of their parents in-laws.

Yes… my parents in-laws… in-laws of in-laws… not even blood relatives, but the aunts, uncles, cousins, grandkids, and great grandkids of in laws of my parents’ in laws… who in their right mind would even know the names of such distant relatives…

You, reading this right now… can you name your parent’s cousins? Do you know the names of your mother’s uncle’s great grand kids? Do you?

Can you see how utterly stupidly ridiculous the Atwaters are being, when they show up here yelling and screaming, and expect that I should know who they are or what the fuck they are talking about:

Newsflash: normal people don’t live in 400 person large family herds.

Normal people don’t live in herds.

Normal people don’t swamp in shark style frenzies in the driveways of distant relatives of your great grand pappies 5th removed cousin of an in-law, either. What the actual fuck?

And on top of everything else, there are Awaters running around screaming that I am vandalising some grave… the grave of a distant relative whom I never heard of before, so I don’t even know where the grave is… when I’m here bedridden and crippled and not even capable of going to visit my own son’s grave because… oh look: I’m crippled and stuck in bed with a broken spine and severed spinal cord for the past nine years!

You know… if you are going to accuse someone of going somewhere to vandalize something, you might want to first make sure that person is not wheelchair bound, bedridden, and crippled for a decade with a broken spine, so unable to even get to the place you are accusing them of going!

Also… since the day my son was murdered, I have a camera running 24/7 so, it’s pretty foolish of you to lie about me when I can not only prove you are lying, I can also prove every time you’ve been screaming in my driveway, because I have you on camera. They didn’t think of that did they? Oh no, of course not, why would they? They were too busy thinking about those aliens and witches they can’t stop gibbering about.

But look at this cross... Do you remember Timmy Murphy? He was the 5 year old with curly black hair, who was also accused of aliens during that 1982 drug raid. They called us The White Monkey Children, because we found Helen Pearly's missing pet white monkey. And the people arrested during the 1982 drug raid, many of them Atwaters, pointed to that white monkey that had escaped from White Animal Farm, a zoo in Old Orchard at the time, they pointed to that white money and called it an alien. Helen Pearly, look her up, is the founder of the Scarbourgh Marsh preserve, an animal preserve that started out with one pet white monkey, and is today, many thousands of acres of protected land known by the name The Scarboughorgh Marsh.

Can you see NOW why the idiots screaming aliens are seen as so damned idiotic?

But can you also see the names on the cross?

https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg

There were 31 children involved in helping Helen Pearly capture her escaped pet white money.

Drive through the scarborough marsh looking at the names of the beheaded victims on those crosses... 29 of the 31 White Monkey Children are now dead, killed and tossed in the marsh, where 40 years ago, they helped little old lady look for her lost pet albino monkey.

Every one of them accused of being alien abductees; accusations which was screamed ONLY by the drug dealers and drug users of the 1982 drug raid, which took place in the Scarbourough Marsh.

The only people who accuse me of aliens are the people now out of prison, who went to prison because of the 1982 drug raid... a drug raid known to locals as "The 458 Shoot Out" due to one woman screaming "Four! Five! Eight!" in between each time she loaded up her shotgun.

Everybody that has shown up in the marsh since June 2001, has been either one of the now adult White Monkey Children, or one of their children or grandchildren.

EVERY - SINGLE - ONE.

Go to the marsh, look for the crosses. Read the names. My cousin Timmy Murphy's cross is not the only one and if you open your eyes and start looking at the side streets all through the marsh, you'll see one hundred and twenty of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them. Crosses the entire country has seen on Dateline, 20/20, and dozens of unsolved crime shows... crosses that the Atwarers and their friends at the Sandford Ward church, are right now, this very week, posting all over social media, claiming aren't there, claiming I'm the only one talking about them, when clearly I'm not seeing hoe Dateline and 20/20 are pret big international news shows... and also claiming "Yeah EeelKat's crazy, she believes in aliens" when its extremely well documented my not believing in aliens and my debunking alien abductions as hoaxes... and these same people are also trying to convince people on social media "cats!".... but the cats were my mother's not mine, and my son was murdered November 14, 2013, two years before my mother's cat incident occurred.

These people are making total idiots of themselves, because all any one has to do is look up the new reports about the Scarbourough Marsh murders and the Cascade Murders to see that since June 2001, a LOT of people here in the marsh have been murdered, and originally they were not thought to b connected, but, now it is known that they are.

I wish these crazy ass Atwaters and their weird Todd Murphy obsessed Sanford Ward lunatics and their alien abduction ufo nuts, would leave me and my family alone. I don’t know what their problem is or why they are so obnoxiously hell bent on stalking my family and harassing us like this, but I am getting pretty damned sick of it. I have enough shit to deal with with, oh, I don’t know, half my family being murdered, my son’s killer still being on the loose, 9 years bedridden and still relearning to walk, … I don’t need these fucktards jumping into my life and trying to grab their 15 minutes of fame by tampering with the FBI’s investigation into hunting down my son’s murderer.

Know the truth. The truth will set you free.

April 7, 2023

It is 3 days to the 8 year anniversary of the murder of my family in Old Orchard Beach, Maine. The murderer is still unidentified and at large. If you have any information on the April 10, 2015 murder of my family please call FBI agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322

May 2, 2023

Also the vet found out someone fed my dog Mickey chocolate, cough drops, onions, and garlic... all extremely deadly poison to dogs... he almost died... he was having seizures and bleeding .... it damaged his pancreas and kidneys and liver and nerves.... he was on an iv for a week and had over $4k in hospital visits and has been on pills for over a month... and now he shakes all the time like Parkinson disease, which doctor says indicates he suffered brain damage from the seizures the toxins caused. Mickey has an entire grocery bag of pills he has to take every day, now....it is believed one of the Atwater s did it, in an attempt to kill my dog... it is believed to be connected to the April 20, 2015 murder of my family, considering it happened on the 9th anniversary of that murder... it happened the day the squatters with the Lincoln were in our driveway....the squatters are now suspected to be involved in the attempted murder of my dog this month, and are likely Atwaters... If you have information about anything, call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 and give it to him, not me.. in addition to the FBI, Biddeford and old Orchard Beach police are also seeking information about the people with this car who was in our yard, the week my dog was force fed poison...

I will point out that I don't have chocolate, cough drops, onions, or garlic in my house, because I am deathly allergic, peanut allergy levels of allergic, to those things, and that is a well known fact, which means the attack on my dog, might have been an intended attack on me as well.

May 27, 2023 - She's Back... psycho bitch who screams on porch has returned, because... somewhere there is a baby whose first words were... "EelKat" and "Volvo"? What the fuck? What is she even talking about?

You know... when you have a baby, just learning how to talk... you would expect it's first words to be momma or dadda. A few weeks ago, Crackhead Camilla was here, you heard her in the background of my March 20th livestream on Twitch, the day my dog was poisoned... that day... as you heard her screaming through the window of my apartment, her grandbaby's first word was "EelKat", according to the screaming she was doing in the window.

I have to ask... how much hatred do you have to have for me, that you talk about me so much, that your baby's fist word is MY name?

Interesting development. The baby, now speaks TWO words. Guess what the second word is?

Volvo.

And so, there is a baby, whose family, spends so much time obsessing 24/7 over me, and my car, that the first 2 words their baby learned to say was "EelKat" and "Volvo" and they are pissed about it.

I have to say, it's their own fault for talking about me 24/7 instead of spending quality time with their family, that has caused their baby's first words to be "EelKat" and "Volvo", however... I would have no way of knowing this if they hadn't taken it upon themselves to be in my driveway yelling at my neighbors about it.

Here's a tip: maybe you should stop harassing me, maybe you should stop obsessing over me, maybe you should get a life, maybe you should have been spending more time with your baby, instead of bitching 24/7 about me and my car, in front of your baby? Maybe you should just leave me alone, seeing how I've never bothered you and I haven't got a clue, who the hell you even are.

Here's another tip: my baby is dead, he was murdered, try being glad your baby is alive instead of being a psycho bitch Karen who spends here days being the loud mouthed busy body spreading rumors and lies about me. How would YOU feel is a psychopath beat YOU up with a golf club and murdered YOUR baby and left YOU crippled with a broken spine for the rest of YOUR life, and some bitch ass Karen like YOU showed up to endless harass YOU while running around spreading lies calling YOU a transvestite and transgender... did you ever think that maybe, YOU might not like it if someone like YOU did to YOU the things you do to me?

It serves you right if your baby's first words actually were "EelKat" and "Volvo". Maybe that'll teach you to leave me the fuck alone and stop spreading slander about me 24/7.

You are able to leave your house and walk, and you have a baby who is still alive, why don't you stop being a psychotic bitch and count your blessing and go spend time with that baby instead of showing up here and bitching at me? Do you realize every minute you waste focusing on me is another minute you miss in your baby's life? Do you even have any iota of a clue what a b;essing you have and are squandering, by having a baby who is alive and wasn't murdered by a psychopath named Claire who smashed it's brains out with a gold club, the way my baby was murdered?

Your baby is alive, go spend time with it. And leave me to continue my search for the Claire bitch who murdered my baby with a glf club at Southern Maine Community College on November 14, 2013 when she also left me crippled for the rest of my life.

As for my car.. it was NOT painted BEFORE my baby died. I painted it BECAUSE my baby died. I also did not own the pink motorhome before my baby died, I ought it BECAUSE the same Claire bitch who murdered my baby, also drove a backhoe over my house.

And both things she did, because someone, probably you, considering how you keep calling me a transvestite, convinced her that I was a man, a transvestite, even though I was 8 months pregnant.

I don't know who you are or why you keep showing up to yell at me, a blind, crippled, bed ridden elderly cis woman, but your harassment is rather annoying. Leave me alone. I'm not bothering you and I don't know either who you are or why you are bothering me.

May 28, 2023:

There keeps being an issue of people saying they have talked to me and I said this or that to them... as was being done again 2 days ago, so I wrote a response to that. Here it is: Next time someone tells you I said or did a thing READ THIS and REMEMBER WHY it is NOT possible for me to have said or done the things they slanderously claim about me:

There keeps being an issue of people saying they have talked to me and I said this or that to them… as well as people saying Ive done this or that as well… Do you want o know how you can tell if these people are lying to you? It’s very simple really:

#1: I am crippled. I am bed ridden. I have a broken spine. I can’t stand up. I can’t get out of bed. I have been crippled and bed ridden with a broken spine since November 14, 2013.

Test them by asking them to describe to you, what my bed looks like, what my room looks like, how is my bed set up… you see… if they HAD in fact talked with me, they would know the answer to these things, because, they would have been in my room, beside my bed, because… there’s this little detail, this one little problem, that they over looked when they told you they had talked to me, and it’s called: I can’t get out of bed, because:

I am crippled. I am bed ridden. I have a broken spine. I can’t stand up. I can’t get out of bed. I have been crippled and bed ridden with a broken spine since November 14, 2013.

#2: No ONE, not ONE, SINGLE, SOLITARY person, has EVER visited me. Not once. No one has ever visited me.

#3: I don’t have a phone. If you talked to me at a distance, you talked to me on FaceBook, as everyone is well away, I don’t comment, reply, direct message, or private message anyone, so EVERYTHING I ACTUALLY said, can be seen on my profile, just scroll down and read it for yourself.

#4: The ONLY people, whom have talked to me in person, are the psycho deranged harassers who show up nearly daily to scream at me, through my bedroom window, while standing at the end of my driveway. And I don’t know why they are, because I do not recognize their voices, and there’s that one other little detail:

#5: I am blind. I have been blind my whole life. I can only see a little out of one eye. The little bit I can see, is exactly four inches. Have you ever noticed that when I do walk, which is very rare, I wear wrap around black glasses, and a carry a red and white striped cane with a yellow tip at the end? I am blind, so I do not recognize your voice, I have no way to identify who you are.

And if you did not know I was blind, you have to ask the question… how then, did you claim to have talked to me, because had you talked to me, you would have notice, I never look at your face, because I have no way of knowing where your face is, because I can’t see it.

This is why I can not identify the attackers, and why the FBI is asking for witnesses who CAN identify them to come forward, because I am blind and I do not know who attacked me. I couldn’t see them, because I am blind. I’ve been blind for over fifty years, and anyone who have ever ACTUALLY talked to me face to face, knows that I am blind. I know only that one had red hair and called herself Kendra Silvermander, speaking of herself in the 3rd person which is very unusual, the other, blond woman with her she called Claire. I was at the BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio packing my easel and suitcase of paint supplies into the back seat of my Volvo, when back then, was just a plain ordinary black Volvo, this event is what inspired me to paint it, I was not painted before this attack…I can see well enough to make out colours and shapes, but not details. The red-haired woman wore a black and white horizontal striped sweater and neon black-light glowing green cyborg style glasses. The blond woman wore a blue denim button down shirt and jeans, and had strange unnatural stripes in her hair, bands of light blonde and dark blonde, each several inches wide, very distinctive her hair and the red-haired woman’s glasses. But their faces I could not make out. I can’t see faces. I never could, not once since I was born. I do not know what ANYONE’S faces looking like, not my parents, not my brothers, not Ben, not you, NO ONE!

Which goes back to point 2: No one has EVER visited me. Not once. Not ever. Not once in over fifty years. You see people do not like to be around anyone with disabilities. People avoid you if you are disabled. I’ve never had a friend. No one. Not once. Not in my entire life. Not one friend, not ever, in more than fifty years.

#6: I have no friends. Any one telling you they are my friend, is lying to you. Friends visit each other. Friends spend time together. Friends go places together. Friends go to restaurants together. Friends go to movies together. Friends go shopping together. Friends do things together.

—-But no one has ever visited me: not once in fifty years, originally because I was blind, but now also because I am crippled, bedridden with a broken spine.

—-But no one has ever spent time with me: not once in fifty years, originally because I was blind, but now also because I am crippled, bedridden with a broken spine.

—-But no one has ever gone places with me: not once in fifty years, originally because I was blind, but now also because I am crippled, bedridden with a broken spine.

—-But no one goes to restaurants with me: not once in fifty years, originally because I was blind, but now also because I am crippled, bedridden with a broken spine.

—-But no one goes to movies with me: not once in fifty years, originally because I was blind, but now also because I am crippled, bedridden with a broken spine.

—-But no one talks to me: not once in fifty years, originally because I was blind, but now also because I am crippled, bedridden with a broken spine.

So how do they explain, their CLAIM, their LIE, when they say I have said a thing to them, when they have never been here to my room, to speak to me face to face.

And THAT is how you can tell, that ANYONE, and EVERY ONE, who says they have talked to me, and makes the claim I said some such thing, that’s how you can tell they are lying… ALL of them… EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM… because NONE of them, has EVERY, not once in fifty years, visited me, spent time with me, or talked to me face to face, and there is no other way to talk to me, then face to face.

So the next time someone makes the claim that I said something, KNOW that they are lying to you, because they NEVER talked to me. No one ever has.

If I am standing up, and you see me, believe the very fact that I am standing, means I am fucking pissed, because I have a broken spine, and every move I make hurts like hell, and YOU pissed me off, enough for me to get out of bed… or worse, if you have pissed me off, enough for me to drive to my land in Old Orchard, believe me, I’m fucking infuriated, not only for whatever you did, but also, because standing up hurts like hell, and every move I make, makes me hate you, because you were such an inconsiderate, ingrate jackass, uncaring about my health, uncaring how much pain I am in, how much each step I take is endless searing pain… then believe me, by the time I get to my land, I hate you a thousand times MORE then I did, the moment I stood up in the first place.

If you were not being and unkind, uncaring, ingrate, inconsiderate jackass, I wouldn’t have had to stand up and get out of bed in the first place.

And guess what? That brings us to point 7…

#7: If you were ACTUALLY my friend, and you ACTUALLY spent time with me, you would KNOW how much pain I am in 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, because I have a shattered vertebrae bone severing my spinal cord, and the doctors can’t overate on it, and every move I make, puts pressure on that shard of bone, that is punctured through my spinal cord, causing intense nerve pain to surge through my back, my hips, my pelvis, both legs, and my left arm, with every single fucking step I take… and the pain is s bad, that I often can not talk at all, and the nerve damage is so bad that I have almost no function in my left side at all, and this effects my ability to speak… I struggle to get out a full sentence…. The pain is so bad, that I take long deep breaths between each word, and a single sentence can take me several MINUTES to speak, as a result of this, resulting in I have very slow, stuttered, disorganized speak, and even if you WERE here face to face visiting me, you wouldn’t be able to have very much of a conversation with me, as I can barely speak at all…and if you ACTUALLY knew me, and was here, seeing what I go through, you’d have known that too.

#8: When I was 14 years old, I was beaten in the face with a brick, by DEAR KIND OOOOOh SOOOOO LOVING parents and Atwater uncles… beaten in the face with several bricks… cinder block bricks… that broke my jaw, so badly, that I was MUTE from the age of 14 till the age of 42.

I was 42, when the golf club attacked happened, and while at the hospital, having surgeries, and cat scans, and x-rays, and MRIs… the doctors made an alarming discovery… one that no one had ever considered before: I wasn’t actually a deaf, dumb mute like my parents had told every one for decades… no… I just had a broken jaw, and I was unable to open and close my mouth, and THAT was why I couldn’t talk.

I’ve had plastic surgery, and jaw surgery… that happened in 2016… three years AFTER the golf club attack… go watch my VoDs, you can see EXACTLY when I had the jaw surgery… because in my videos before, I couldn’t open my mouth and you could not understand my attempts to speak, because the limited ability to open my mouth resulted in garbled mumblings… and then there is a space of a few weeks of me with a very bruised looking face, and BOOM, suddenly, a video, where for the first time in forty years, I could speak well enough, that I could be understood… if you waited long enough for me to get a full sentence out, that is.

#9: I have lung scarring, caused by stacybotrin poisoning, a side effect of being locked in that “room” from the time I was 8 years old, until I was 31 years od. The mold was growing so thick in my lungs, that I can barely breath, and my throat is damages so badly, from the mold growing so thick in my esophagus and throat. For so many decades, that my voice in barely a whisper. I can not raise my voice. I can not yell. I can not scream. And if you want to talk to me, and a normal, everyday conversation, you have to have your ear VERY close to my face, in order to be able to hear me speak, at all.

Which does make some things people say about me laughable… like the white haired man who runs around Old Orchard with the false claiming slander saying that I yell at him…a claim he was making in 2015, a year BEFORE, I had my jaw surgery, a time period when I was still mute and had ZERO speech ability AT ALL. Pray tell, how exactly am I going to yell at him or anyone else, with my lifelong, multi faucted speech disability, that results in I only started speaking vocally, in June 2016, just seven years ago, and even now, most people can whisper far louder than my loudest volume is even capable…. AGAIN… this is a thing you WOULD HAVE KNOWN, had you ACTUALLY been friends wih me, and ACTUALLY visited me and ACTUALLY spoke with me face to face…

So the next time someone tells you that they have spoken with me or that I have spoken with them, know that, they are lying to you… because, well, it IS kind of difficult to speak to someone when you can’t speak at all, now, isn’t it?

And my question here is: WHAT IS THEIR MOTIVE?

That’s what I want to know.

If someone is running around slandering me, making the false claim that I spoke to them and said something to them… when clearly I have NOT spoken to them at all… my first question is to ask: WHY? Why are they slandering me in this manner? WHY are they spreading rumours and lies about me? WHY are they lying to YOU about me? WHY are they making the claims of me doing and saying things, that I simply am not even physically capable of saying or doing at all? What is their motive? They MUST have a motive, otherwise they would not be doing it at all. So what is their notice? What incentive drives them to spread these rumours and lies making slanderous claims about me?

May 31, 2023

So... these Atwaters who, supposedly know soooo much about me that they keep saying I'm YOUNG then my 3J brothers who are aged 33, 32, and 30... did you know that Ben and I's 40th anniversary FORTIETH ANNIVERSARY - is less then a year away now... Ben and I have been together just under 40 years now. You might want to think on THAT little tid bit, next time you believe anything an Atwater says.

And YES, I have been seeing your messages of "you mother says you told her..." and "you mother says you said...". No, I have no clue what my mother is talking about, no one ever does, it IS rather difficult to translate anything my mother says in between her gibbering about aliens, demons, witches, witchcraft, saran, hating god, anti-vaccine, hating blacks, hating jews, hating Mormons, or whatever else it is this time that her demon friends are telling her to hate.... Thing is: I don't believe in aliens, demons, ghosts, ufos, satan, witches, witchcraft, or ANY of the other lunacy my mother runs around claiming I believe in... if you pay attention you will notice that it is ONLY the ATWATERS, of which my mother is one, who EVER talk about aliens, demons, ufos, satan, witches, or witchcraft, and they accuses EVERYONE of being abducted by aliens, posessed with demons, or witches practicing witchcraft, I'm NOT the only person they falsly accuss of being demon possessed,, falsely accuse of be an alien abductee, falsely accuse of being a witch practicing witchcraft... also, my mother and ALL the Atwaters is one quater black and one quarter native American, because their mother Eva Viola Atwater had a full blooded Kickapoo mother and a full blooded black father. DNA has proven that, so, the Atwaters in all their white superiority aren't nearly as white as they are telling you they are.... and as for ANYTHING, my mother is telling you I supposedly said to her: I have not had contact with her in WELL OVER A DECADE... and I blocked her and all the rest of the Atwaters on every social media, way back in 2010, thirteen years ago, so I've not said anything to Barbara, Brucies, Dickie, David, Dawnie, Joey, Peter, Bobby, or and of the rest of them in WELL OVER A DECADE either...

...the short of it is this... either YOU are lying when you say, my mother, my aunt Barbara, or anyone else said to you, that I said something... which I doubt... you have no motive to say my mother told you I said something... or... it's my my mother and the Atwaters doing what they do best, doing what they ALWAYS do... trying to start fights, by running around lying about everyone they can think of, gossipping about everyone they can, and lying when they tell you that I said something to them...

Remember, these are the people who knew so little about me, that they didn;t know my son Xavier Wildes was murdered November 14, 2013, or that I was have been paralyzed and crippled and bedridden since November 14, 2013... or that on April 10, 2015 a grou p of around 74 people dressed as the Ku Klux Klan arrived murdered the REST of my family and nailed the heads of my ten foster children to the front door of my big pink motorhome.... My mother and the Atwaters know so VERY LITTLE about me, that they were unaware these things happened... and that tells you just EXACTLY how much they REALLY do NOT care or give a fucking shit about me or my family.

Remember THAAT, next time my mother or ANY other Atwater lies to you and says I even had one iota of an inkling of thinking of talking to them at all, let alone actually DID say ANYTHING to those no good filthy peices of dhit, who.... oh year, PAID the man who drove a back hoe over my house yes, destroying everything I owned inside the house including the ten thousand comics books people keep asking what happened too, they also paid the golf club woman $26k yes twenty six THOUSAND dollars to murder my baby, my father is the one who took out the loan and gave it to my mother, who gave it to the other Atwaters, the FBI has all the paperwork for that.... so, yeah... my parents, BOTTH of them, were involved in hiring that Claire bitch and Kendra Silvermander to murder my baby and cripple me, they are NOT as innocent as they pretend to be and the FBI can fucking prove it. What they can't figure out it who the hell Claire or Kendra Silvermander are... because the Claire they thought it was, the dead, and she's been dead a long time...

And yes, I AM aware that my father was involved in stealing a boat from Arizona and putting it on my land in Maine, that's why I want the fucking boat out of my yard, because it was my father who put it there... I asked him... he said he had to put things on my land to piss off some guy named Mark. I don't know who Mark is, I don't know antone named Mark, but apparently, whoever Mark is, my father conned him into thinking my father owned my land, and that's why my father dumped that silver car and boat on my land... and no that doesn't make since to me, but nothing my father ever does makes sense, logical considering he was diagnosed as having schizophrenia back in May 2006.

My father doesn't own the land in Old Orchard Beach and HE NEVER DID... that's why I'm also pissed to find out my father cut off half of my land which was only one eighth of an acre to begin with, and SOLD IT TO HIS COUSIN COOLIARD... which apparently he did in 2007, and no one at the town hall ever told me, even though I continued paying taxes on it until 2020.... something I stopped doing when Colliard put a house, yes, ON MY LAND that he bought from my father, AFTER MY FATHER FUCKING STOLE IT FROM ME!

Something, we now know was my MOTHER'S idea, she's the one who told him to do it!

So, yes, I HATE both of my parents with unfathomable fury and I want nothing to do with either one of those two piles of crap!

So, NO, I haven't said ANYTHING to any of them... so whaever they aree telling you I said... they ARE LYING TO YOU!

My parents are fucking con artists just like ALL the Atwaters are and I want nothing to do with any of them.

But also...Do you KNOW how old Ben is? You people who are giving him orders to run all over hell, moving things, lifting things, carrying thing, you DO realize he was in WOLR WAR TWO,,,, right? He's an Austrian who moved to America in 1953... Yes, that guy the Sanford Ward Church members keep getting to do errands for the elderly, is TWENTY to THIRTY YEARS OLDER then the elderly they got him running errands for and... I'm sorry, but the guy is almost a hundred years old, and I don't exactly like you making him do YOUR HEAVY LIFTING YARD WORK for you!

June 4, 2023

The car the squatters parked in my yard is gone... the boat the other squatters illegally parked in my yard is going next. Health update: Mickey, my elderly 12 year old dog, is starting to walk again. He can now sit up and scoot himself around on his bum. He still can not stand long though, and we are not yet able to return to going for walks. If you don't know, on March 20th, the jackasses whom have been squatting and dumping their cars and boats on my land poisoned him, because they thought poisoning a dog is funny... he's been on an IV and 15 different medications that he has to take every 8 hours, for the past 3 months, and his medical bills are now just under $10k. He's also been paralyzed, has severe nerve and muscle damage, and now has seizures and tremors. Which is why I'm no longer having the police issue the monthly please remove your illegally parked cars and boats off my land, and I'm just now outright having junk yards take them away. I am fucking sick of being harassed. Poisoning my dog was the last straw.

There are four different sets of squatters, 5 if you count the bicycle guy the police dragged out who was hiding his drugs under my motorhome, 4 different sets of squatters are dumping, huge, massive piles of garbage on my land... and I don't know which one poisoned my dog, so, I'm just getting rid of everything. I'm tired of being nice, being sympathetic to people who claim to be struggling when in reality they are just taking advantage of my good nature. This fucking dumping stuff in my yard has to end. In 2015 that idiot with the green dump truck hauled garbage, bagged garbage and dumped it on my land, the pile was 30 feet wide, one hundred and seventy-five feet long, and twelve feet tall, and cost me $12k to have it removed. And they are fucking doing it again! More stuff keeps being dumped on my yard every month. Do you know what is under the boat and the car? My picnic table, shattered, and my blue girl rose bushes, dead. People keep asking why I don't do the book review garden vlogs anymore... I can't... there is a giant boat and a car sitting on top of my now crushed recording set up! They didn't give a shit that they destroyed the thing I do for an income!

The one who owned the car, which just left this morning, is the one who cut all the wires off the Biddeford apartment November 2021, and is the one who runs around bragging he killed my previous dog, Mary, with rat poison, is the one who brags he put the potato in my Volvo tail pipe March 2022, when the gas tank blew up at the Wal-Mart intersection where I almost got hit by an 18wheeler, and is the same one who has spent most of Fall 2022 threatening to poison my dog Mickey, who was poisoned March 20th 2023. That is why, his car is now gone from my yard…. A car which he put there in 2027, without my permission or knowledge and has been refusing to remove. He's also one of the FBIs three primary suspects in the November 14, 2013 golf club attack at Southern Maine Community College, the attack which murdered my infant son and left me crippled with a broken spine, 5 months paralyzed, and 9 years relearning to walk.

It's his stuff that is being removed. The other stuff, not his, I am willing to work with the owners of the items, if they ACTUALLY want to take their things which have been on my land more three years for some more then 7 years for others. They've not been threatening me, and does appear that the guy who has been threatening me, is the one who actually stole their items and put it on my land, as some of them, like the boat the owners are unaware how their things got on my land… neither me nor the boats owner can figure out how his boat came to be sitting on my land… if any one knows of a way to deliver his boat back to him, that would be greatly appreciated by both of us.

Health update: Mickey, my elderly 12 year old dog, is starting to walk again. He can now sit up and scoot himself around on his bum. He still can not stand long though, and we are not yet able to return to going for walks. If you don't know, on March 20th, the jackasses whom have been squatting and dumping their cars and boats on my land poisoned him, because they thought poisoning a dog is funny... he's been on an IV and 15 different medications that he has to take every 8 hours, for the past 3 months, and his medical bills are now just under $10k. He's also been paralyzed, has severe nerve and muscle damage, and now has seizures and tremors. Which is why I'm no longer having to police issue the monthly please remove your illegally parked cars and boats off my land, and I'm just now outright having junk yards take them away. I am fucking sick of being harassed. Poisoning my dog was the last straw.

June 10, 2023

Boat's gone. The guy it was stolen from, has it back. We finally found help to get it back to him. We still don't know who stole it from him and dumped it in my yard or why they did it.

June 9, 2023

I do have to wonder the montive, of someone who doesn't know me, never met me, and feels the DAILY need to run into my driveway whenever aa stranger is around, run up to said stranger, and ACTIVLY take them by the arm, telling them to stay away from my car, telling them quite specifically and outright: "Don't read the lies on that poster", and then spends ten minutes, still trespassing in my driveway, explaining to said stranger that "she's crazy, you know, there are no children, the FBI is not looking for murderers..." and leaving said stranger to wonder what the hell she is talking about.

Side note: since the murder of my son on November 14, 2013, there has been a sign on my car asking for witnesses to come forward with info; the Ku Klux Klan attack on April 10, 2015 when 74 men and women in white robes and hoods beheaded my 10 foster children and nailed their heads to my motorhome door was added to the sign after April 10, 2015... June 16, 2016 FBI Agent Andy Drewer gave me the FBI hotline number, set up specifically for witnesses to call with information about the murder of my ELEVEN children was added to the sign.

No one who was NOT involved in the murder of my children has ANY reason to show up in my yard and do, what Steve's wife just did.

Steve: is your wife one of the women who was in my yard on April 10, 2025 using a piano wire noose to saw my 4 year old daughter's head off? Please explain to me why you wife, is right now, this very minute, standing in my driveway, beside my Volvo, telling a man with a lawnmower that my children were not murdered? What is your wife's motive for doing this? No one with out a motive has any reason to try to cover up the murder of my children... especially not to my landscaper who is just trying to mow the yard and is wondering why your wife is being a raving lunatic ranting at him about my car.

You know, when someone refuses to stop standing on your porch calling your car a suicide demon, the solution is to remove the porch, so Crackhead Camilla now has no place to stand and scream... Yes... the front porch is gone... try screaming your bitch lungs out at my car from the porch now.

June 15, 2023

This happens every time I CosPlay Quaraun, except they are starting early this year... PortCon is still a few days away. Quaraun, is a homosexual bio-cis-male, who wears elaborate pink ballgowns and is a transvestite; he is he main character of Gay Romance novels. He is my favorite character, and even though I am a bio-cis-female, I CosPlay him at events, like PortCon, something I have done since the late 1990s, almost thirty years now. And EVERY SINGLE TIME I CosPlay him, local nutcake fruit jub holier than though Christians, show up calling me a "transvestite freak", acussing me of being gay, accusing me of being transgender, throughout the entire of 2015 multiple church groups (Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, Sandford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, Grace Point Chaple, New Life Church, Saco Baptist Church, and Curtis Lake Church... all different denominations, but their members joined forces in a massive group of more then one hundred fag-haters, too show up in my yard with god hates fags signs while chanting "too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach" on a near daily basis for the entire of 2015 and 2016, and they are the group who showed up April 10, 2015 murdered my children, cut their heads off and nailed their heads to the door of my motorhome...

that group, them...

they also spent Christmas eve 2017 throwing rocks at the high street apartment while chanting "transvestite freak", they returned to the high street apartment February 2019 and did $230k in damages to the building and over $30k in damages to my car... which is why we moved to main street because the city condemned the high street building due to said $230k in damages...

the same haters who arrived at Southern Maine Community College on November 14, 2013 and crippled me with golf clubs when I was 8 months pregnant and they also murdered my baby by smashing his head in with golf clubs... THEM... those hate mongering slanderous jackasses who have spent the past decade trying to convince everyone I am transgender because I a cis female CosPlay gay men at event like PortCo... those idiots, are back...

because, oh look, Portcon 2023 is in 5 days and I am CosPlaying Quaraun, a two thousand year old shape shifting gay alien transvestite Moon Elf from Dungeon's and Drangon's SpellJammer... you know, a fucking FICTIONAL character! You do realize that the ONLY people who knew I was making a new version of the Quaraun CosPlay were people on my FaceBook friends list, because I haven't told anyone else about my costume... and that means, one of the haters who was involved in the murder of my son, is someone on my FaceBook friend's list, because hey look... those church crazy homophobic trans haters are here 5 DAYS before I've even worn the costume...

how the fuck did they find out I'd be wearing it, unless someone on my FaceBook friend's list told them? I am so sick of these fucked up haters who think, it is okay to harass a crippled, blind, woman, because she likes to CosPlay gay men at anime conventions. Never forget, those gay haters were so damned convinced that I MUST be trans because I CosPlay trann charcters, that they murdered my baby WHILE I WAS 8 MONTHS PREGNANT!

June 16, 2023

I'm getting weird messages from people asking why this or that other person is saying I said or did this or that other thing, and I don't know what they are talking about, or who is saying I am saying or doing what, or why they are claiming I am doing or saying anything at all. You do realize the people saying, that when I said A, I actually meant B, are total idiots who clearly never met me face to face, right? I have Kanner's Syndrome. They are inferring context, subtext, innuendos, similes, metaphors, cryptic messages, and hidden meanings to my words, which I'm not capable of. They'd know that if they have ever met me in person. Please watch the movie RainMan. THAT is Kanner's Syndrome, and that is EXACTLY what I talk like, act like, and how I function in life. Just because I am a savant who published my first book at the age 3, yes, I was 3 years old, and was removed from school at age 8, yes, 8, because I couldn't be taught, in spite of having published 5 more books by 8 years old. I was reading and writing at a college level by 9 years old, but I still could not talk, didn't know how to hold a spoon, and had no ability to be taught numbers or math or science. By the time I was 18 I have published more than 3 dozen books as well as more than 200 articles for the Boston Globe newspaper, but I also had not yet learned how to bath myself, count, tell time, or speak.

Kannar's Syndrome is also known by the names of "ACTUAL Autism" or "REAL Austism" or "None verbal Autism" or "Savant Autism". There IS a reason when I go to conventions like Portcn and PAX and Comic Con, that even though I am in my 50s I have adult caretakers with me at all times, and there is a reason when doing book signings, my fans and readers always say: "what's this retard doing here? come on, what's the joke, where's the real author, I want to met EelKat, not this fucking retard, look at her! look at how she acts, she can't even get a full sentence out, she can't talk, all she does is sit on the floor rocking back and forth and slapping her head, are you really telling me this brain dead retarded vegetable is EelKat, oh my god, I didn't know she was this damned retarded, how the hell did she write all these books?" ... I'm sorry, but there is a reason why 99.99% of people whom have ever met me face to face are going to be quick to tell you I am too retarded to fed myself, too retarded to not wear a diaper, too retarded to hold a vocal conversation... it's because I AM TAT retarded... no, them telling you I am retarded is NOT them being mean, because I AM retarded... I have Kanner's Syndrome.

Go watch the movie RainMan, I act EXACTLY like that.... I can write books, I can sew costume, but I literally can NOT do one other thing else... that's what Savant MEANS... and it also means that I am not mentally or physically capable of subtext... I say EXACTLY what I mean, straight up full dictionary definition, no, slang, no subtext, no hidden meanings, I don't know slang, I don't know how to infer subtext, ... I think perhaps you are too used to Asperger's idiots running around falsly calling themselves Autistic when they are not, and has caused you to not know what REAL AND ACTUAL AUTISM, is like... did you know that Autim, REAL Autism, ACTUAL Autism, is so rare, one of the rarest diseases on the planet, that since the 1940s, there have been FEWER then one hundred and twenty thousand REAL and ACTUAL cases of REAL and ACTUAL Autism, evr diagnosed? Aspergers on the other hand is so common that one in three people have it. Aspergers is NOT Autism, and I've always hated that idiots try to say Asperies are Autistic when they are not...

I say it again: go watch the movie RAINMAN... that is what REAL and ACTUAL Autism more correctly known as Kanner's Syndrome is like, and THAT is what I have, REAL Autism, NOT Aspergers...so no, these people who are trying to add subtext, THEY are inferring context, subtext, innuendos, similes, metaphors, cryptic messages, and hidden meanings to my words, which I AM NOT CAPABLE OF... and you and they and everyone else would KNOW this IMMEDIATLY, if you or they or anyone else ever met me face to face and actually attempted to have a real live vocal face to face conversation with me. Pay attention to WHO says exactly WHA... I know the meanings of words and I use them correctly as the dictionary intended. I do NOT use slang, subtext, innuendos, similes, metaphors, cryptic messages, and hidden meanings to my words, because, everyone else with Kannar's syndrome I'm not capable of it. If people what to SAY, my words MUST mean this or MUST mean that, that's on them, that's THEIR own parinoia putting words in my mouth and attributing words to me, that I never said. It's like the idoit who run around yip yapping about aliens, ufos, and demons... THEY talk about aliens, ufos, and demons... NOT me.

I've never studied aliens, ufos, or demons so I don't know the first thing about them. I never studied them because I don't believe in them and I think anyone who believes in aliens, ufos, or demons is stupid, to the point of being far more retarded than I am... and that's hard to do, because, guess what, when most people think of a retarded adult itting on the floor slapping their face gibbering one word over and over for hours, like I do, because I do that, that is what I do... THAT mental image of "retarded" IS REAL and ACTUAL Autism, and yes, if you have Autism, you ARE retarded, because that' IS what the word Autism means... Autism is NOT Aspergers... Autism is NOT "high functioning"... Autism, IS mental retardation of all the centers of the brain except for one... which is what SAVANT means... for me that one thing is reading and writing. But it really is the ONLY thing I can do. I have no ability to go shopping on my own because I have no ability to count or use money or even know one type of money from another. I have to rely on the honesty of a cashier, when they tell me this dollar amount and I literally hand then a giant wad of cash and say: "I can't count, I don't know math, I don't know money, is there enough here?"...

There is a reason it took me three decades to get a driver's license... because in America you can't drve if you have Autism... and I fought that for decades... and won... and at age 37 I became the FIRST and to this am still the ONLY person in America who has both REAL and ACTUAL Autism, and ALSO has a driver's license.... if you have Asperger's you are NOT mentally retarded and NOT restricted by the law from driving, but you have Autism, real and actual Autism, you are very, very, very, SERVERLY mentally retarded and the law won't let you drive, unless you fight them to hell and back and prove you CAN drive. And Autistics can't, so to this day, now twenty years later, I am not only STILL the first person with Autism to ever be given a driver's license, but I am still the ONLY Autistic driver in America, thus WHY I built and own The Autism Awareness Car... my Volvo is the Autism Awareness Car, that is WHY it is painted and why it says in VERY BIG LETTERS: Autistic Driver... Autism, real and actual Autism, the head pounding non verbal in the corner type, NOT Aspergers....

So the next time, someone says to you, I was inferring this or that such and such subcontext, context, subtext, innuendos, similes, metaphors, cryptic messages, and hidden meanings to my words, which I'm not capable of... you just punch them in the face for me and you tell them to stop making up nasty bitch rumors and lies about a mentally retarded Autistic Savant with Kannar's syndrome, who is not capable of inferring context, subtext, innuendos, similes, metaphors, cryptic messages, and hidden meanings to my words, because, again... go watch the movie RainMan... I'm EXACTLY like THAT. With him he could do numbers, with me, I can type., and I really can't do anything else, because yes, I REALLY AM THAT retarded. And these people who are attributting to me, things I'm not physically capable of, PROVE they have NEVER met me, NEVER talked to me and DO NOT know me, just by the fact alone, that they were UNAWARE how very, very, very SERVERLY retarded, I actually am.

The fact is, they heard I had Autism and thought it was Aspergers, because most people with Aspergers call themselves Autistic when they are not, which causes us who ACTUALLY are Autistic to have an even harder time interacting with people, because people see the Aspeies doing normal things, and forget that Aspergers is NOT Autism... and you RARELY see REAL ND ACTUAL Autism outside of a mental institute, for the very simple fact REAL Autism does require 24 hour adult supervision, something yes, I do require. Did you never notice I always have a care taken with me? There IS a reason he is always with me... I really am NOT mentally capable of doing things on my own, and he really does need to be there all the time.... so it's just plain silly, the idiot things these local nutjobs are trying to attribute as things I would or even could say and do.

June 21, 2023: Death Threats on FaceBook

Does anyone know who the FaceBook Account "Brooke Johnson" is? FaceBook just sent me a message notifying me that she's been posting a LOT of hateful threats about me, but I've never heard of her before. I just looked at her profile to see who she was and the profile image is a redhaired woman with green glasses, who looks like the "Kendra Silvermander" woman who was wielding the golf club that murdered my son on November 14, 2013. I don't know anyone named "Brooke Johnson" so I don't know who she is or why she's posting death threats of me on her friends' profiles, but she looks enough like Kendra Silvermander, that I think she could be the woman who murdered my son. Does anyone know who she is or why she posting death threats to me, on other people's FaceBook walls?

Also... There seems to be some sort of weird mix up going on. I keep getting messages about the signs in my yard, but the messages keep talking about a house, and saying the signs were about a house. Uhm... no. I have NEVER had signs about a house. The signs went up in 2013 and have ALWAYS been about the murder of my son. There have never been any signs mentioning a house.

And I've been getting messages about this for a couple of years, and it's always baffled me because I have no clue what these people are talking about.

Well, a guy sent me pictures of the signs about a house... ah... no... those are not mine. Those are over at 148 Portland Ave. Those are signs my mother put up about Pastor Elliot and The Arundel Christian Tabernacle. Those signs are made out of poster board and magic makers, and they are NOT mine. I don't know the details about the house signs over next door to me at 148 Portland Ave... those are NOT my signs and I'm not involved in any of whatever it is going on with them.

I'm at 146 Portland Ave. And my sings are the big twenty foot tall cloth banners and the metal 1950s billboard, both painted with paint. And are asking for people to call the FBI hotline about the murder of my son, if they have any information leading to the murderers being identified.

Again, these people seem to be mixing me up, with two other woman. My mother to the left of me at 148 and my cousin to the right of me at 144.

I'm the one with the pink motorhome at 146, and the motorhome is only about 10 feet skinnier than my yard.

The log cabin at 144, they are the ones fighting with some guy about a septic system... and the massive crater that used to be a house, that was stolen and to Lake Arrowhead, that's at 148, and she is ALSO fighting with the same guy about a septic tank...

I am between BOTH of them... the big hill, with the pink motorhome at 146 is me.

I'm not involved with the signs at 144 or the signs at 148, I'm not involved with e septic tank feud at 144 or the septic tank fued at 148. I'm not involved with the stolen house signs. I'm not involved with the Pastor Elliot signs. I'm not involved with the cat signs (which are again at 148, next door to me), I/m not involved in the Arundel church signs.

Those signs these people are talking about are my neighbours signs at 144 and 148, and those those signs went up in 2001, they've been up for almost 25 years now.

I never had any signs before 2013, and my signs are ALL about the murder of my son and asking for help in id-ing the murderer.

Likewise, the woman who fights with the pick up truck guy, she the woman at 148... again... I'm at 146, next door to her, and I don't know who that guy is, expect, she keeps calling him "Mark" so I assume his name is Mark, but I don't know anyone name Mark, noor do I know who he is. And he is always over at 144 fighting with my right side neighbor over there. Again, my 144 neighbor always calls him "Mark", but again, I have never met him and don't know who he is.

My 148 neighbour has a white car, my 144 neighbor has a big black car... I have the Volvo with the unicorns painted all over it.

The women at 148 and 144 are the two women you keep seeing out their yelling at some guy named Mark... NOT me... I can't yell, also... my voice is barely a whisper, my throat was damaged when I was 8 years old, I have been mute my whole life until I had surgery in 2016, and I can't yell, I can barly even talk.

These people are mixing me up with these two other women really bad. I think that's why I always have so much trouble trying to figure out what people are talking about. People are constantly saying I say or did this or that thing, and I'm always wondering what the fuck are they even talking about... I think 99.99% of the stuff people are attributing to me is actually stuff being said and done by my neighbours at 144 and 148 and for some reason, people don't know we are three different women? I'm at 146. I have no involvement in the goings on at 144 and 148.

The signs in my yard say the same thing as the signs on my car:

Updated wording of the new signs on my car:

If you have any information, about the group of 70+ people who ganged up on me and murdered my infant son,
please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.

April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.

September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (the thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).

June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.

I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.

There are more details, on the other sign, on the other window, on the other side of the car.

NEVER FORGET:

On Christmas Day December 2023, my son would have celebrated his 10th birthday... but...

...On November 14, 2013, my unborn son was murdered by CHRISTIANS who mistook me, a straight 8 month pregnant woman, for a gay man, and attacked me with golf clubs, in The SMCC parking lot at 10PM while I was putting bags in my car.

And THAT is WHY I painted this car... so you would come closer, to see the art, and read about my son's murder, so that you can spread awareness, and prevent what happened to me, from happening to anyone else.

Your hatred defines you, and you are NOT a Christian and are NOT doing Jesus' work if you are actively trying to hurt people.

Is MURDERING PEOPLE REALLY what your God teaches?

I am not only a Christian; I am an ordained minister, and a devote practitioner of Folk Catholicism. Because JESUS TAUGHT all women to cover their heads, I wear a veil, exactly as the Catholic Church teaches us to do. I was wearing a veil the day my son was murdered, the day I was crippled. The attackers, while beating me with a golf club, not only falsely accused me of being a gay man, but they also accused me of being what they termed "a Muslim terrorist", because I wear a veil. These so called Christians knew so little about what their Jesus taught, that they didn't know Jesus commanded woman to wear veils.

I am crippled for the rest of my life, and my son is DEAD, because HATERS were "doing Jesus' work" and getting rid of what they THOUGHT was a gay man in a dress.

Ask yourself this: is murdering people REALLY what Jesus would do? Is hating LGBTQAI+ people REALLY what Jesus would do?
I don't think so. Jesus taught to love EVERYONE. And if YOU hate the LGBTQAI+ community, then you have no clue what it means to be Christian and are giving Christians a bad name. And you ought to be ashamed of yourself.

There are more details on the other sign, on the other side of the car... read it too... because there was more then one attack, the group was more then 70 people, and the FBI is looking for this group of 70+ murderers who murdered my son.

If you have any information about the group of 70+ people who ganged up on me and murdered my infant son,
please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

More Info @ eelkat.com

June 23, 2023

There seems to be some sort of weird mix up going on. I keep getting messages about the signs in my yard, but the messages keep talking about a house, and saying the signs were about a house. Uhm... no. I have NEVER had signs about a house. The signs went up in 2013 and have ALWAYS been about the murder of my son. There have never been any signs mentioning a house.

And I've been getting messages about this for a couple of years, and it's always baffled me because I have no clue what these people are talking about.

Well, a guy sent me pictures of the signs about a house... ah... no... those are not mine. Those are over at 148 Portland Ave. Those are signs my mother put up about Pastor Elliot and The Arundel Christian Tabernacle. Those signs are made out of poster board and magic makers, and they are NOT mine. I don't know the details about the house signs over next door to me at 148 Portland Ave... those are NOT my signs and I'm not involved in any of whatever it is going on with them.

I'm at 146 Portland Ave. And my sings are the big twenty foot tall cloth banners and the metal 1950s billboard, both painted with paint. And are asking for people to call the FBI hotline about the murder of my son, if they have any information leading to the murderers being identified.

Again, these people seem to be mixing me up, with two other woman. My mother to the left of me at 148 and my cousin to the right of me at 144.

I'm the one with the pink motorhome at 146, and the motorhome is only about 10 feet skinnier than my yard.

The log cabin at 144, they are the ones fighting with some guy about a septic system... and the massive crater that used to be a house, that was stolen and to Lake Arrowhead, that's at 148, and she is ALSO fighting with the same guy about a septic tank...

I am between BOTH of them... the big hill, with the pink motorhome at 146 is me.

I'm not involved with the signs at 144 or the signs at 148, I'm not involved with e septic tank feud at 144 or the septic tank fued at 148. I'm not involved with the stolen house signs. I'm not involved with the Pastor Elliot signs. I'm not involved with the cat signs (which are again at 148, next door to me), I/m not involved in the Arundel church signs.

Those signs these people are talking about are my neighbours signs at 144 and 148, and those those signs went up in 2001, they've been up for almost 25 years now.

I never had any signs before 2013, and my signs are ALL about the murder of my son and asking for help in id-ing the murderer.

Likewise, the woman who fights with the pick up truck guy, she the woman at 148... again... I'm at 146, next door to her, and I don't know who that guy is, expect, she keeps calling him "Mark" so I assume his name is Mark, but I don't know anyone name Mark, noor do I know who he is. And he is always over at 144 fighting with my right side neighbor over there. Again, my 144 neighbor always calls him "Mark", but again, I have never met him and don't know who he is.

My 148 neighbour has a white car, my 144 neighbor has a big black car... I have the Volvo with the unicorns painted all over it.

The women at 148 and 144 are the two women you keep seeing out their yelling at some guy named Mark... NOT me... I can't yell, also... my voice is barely a whisper, my throat was damaged when I was 8 years old, I have been mute my whole life until I had surgery in 2016, and I can't yell, I can barly even talk.

These people are mixing me up with these two other women really bad. I think that's why I always have so much trouble trying to figure out what people are talking about. People are constantly saying I say or did this or that thing, and I'm always wondering what the fuck are they even talking about... I think 99.99% of the stuff people are attributing to me is actually stuff being said and done by my neighbours at 144 and 148 and for some reason, people don't know we are three different women? I'm at 146. I have no involvement in the goings on at 144 and 148.

The signs in my yard say the same thing as the signs on my car:

Updated wording of the new signs on my car:

If you have any information, about the group of 70+ people who ganged up on me and murdered my infant son,
please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.

April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.

September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (the thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).

June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.

I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.

There are more details, on the other sign, on the other window, on the other side of the car.

NEVER FORGET:

On Christmas Day December 2023, my son would have celebrated his 10th birthday... but...

...On November 14, 2013, my unborn son was murdered by CHRISTIANS who mistook me, a straight 8 month pregnant woman, for a gay man, and attacked me with golf clubs, in The SMCC parking lot at 10PM while I was putting bags in my car.

And THAT is WHY I painted this car... so you would come closer, to see the art, and read about my son's murder, so that you can spread awareness, and prevent what happened to me, from happening to anyone else.

Your hatred defines you, and you are NOT a Christian and are NOT doing Jesus' work if you are actively trying to hurt people.

Is MURDERING PEOPLE REALLY what your God teaches?

I am not only a Christian; I am an ordained minister, and a devote practitioner of Folk Catholicism. Because JESUS TAUGHT all women to cover their heads, I wear a veil, exactly as the Catholic Church teaches us to do. I was wearing a veil the day my son was murdered, the day I was crippled. The attackers, while beating me with a golf club, not only falsely accused me of being a gay man, but they also accused me of being what they termed "a Muslim terrorist", because I wear a veil. These so called Christians knew so little about what their Jesus taught, that they didn't know Jesus commanded woman to wear veils.

I am crippled for the rest of my life, and my son is DEAD, because HATERS were "doing Jesus' work" and getting rid of what they THOUGHT was a gay man in a dress.

Ask yourself this: is murdering people REALLY what Jesus would do? Is hating LGBTQAI+ people REALLY what Jesus would do?
I don't think so. Jesus taught to love EVERYONE. And if YOU hate the LGBTQAI+ community, then you have no clue what it means to be Christian and are giving Christians a bad name. And you ought to be ashamed of yourself.

There are more details on the other sign, on the other side of the car... read it too... because there was more then one attack, the group was more then 70 people, and the FBI is looking for this group of 70+ murderers who murdered my son.

If you have any information about the group of 70+ people who ganged up on me and murdered my infant son,
please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

More Info @ eelkat.com

Update June 24, 2023 - Stalker arrives at PortCon Maine

So, interesting thing just happened...but you know the woman (the young fat one with short black hair, that is sometimes blond and other times has purple hair, not her elderly grandmother that locals call Crackhead Camilla) was just at PortCon doing the same thing she does on our Biddeford front porch... getting drunk and babbling about me, Ben, Etoile, and my car... she followed me and Ben out of the Doubletree across the street to Round 1... she, another similar aged and sized woman with strawberry blond hair, a guy who appeared to be cosplaying some odd version of Bob Ross, and a big bleach blond guy, got into the booth beside me and Ben, and the drunk woman who yells about suicide demons on the porch, spent two full hours blubbering drunk gibberish about me, Etiole, Ben, and my car... i have the whole thing on video, by the way. Camera was sitting on table less the 3 feet from her face, while she yapped right into it too drunk to realize she had her face practically in my camera.

Okay, I've said before that this drunk woman who since October 2021, shows up on the front porch of the Biddeford apartment, was saying things that THE POLICE DID NOT RELEASE TO THE PUBLIC about the April 10, 2015 Ku Klux Klan attack on my farm in Old Orchard... information known only to the victims of the attack, the attackers, the police officers, and the FBI agents in charge of the murder investigation... specifically she has details about the extremely unique one of a kind hand made item that was used to murder, behead, and gut my 12 year old foster daughter Cleo. Because that murder weapon was a one of a kind, hand made item, the police withheld what it was. It is not mentioned in any reports other then the classified report that was sealed from public access. The old Orchard Beach police department put a bogus report for April 10, 2015, in the public access system, specifically to see WHO would go to the police department to request that report. .. since April 10, 2015, more then 200 people, not a one of them anyone I know, have gone to the old Orchard Beach police department to request a copy of the April 10, 2015 police report and were given the FAKE report not the ACTUAL report, to see which one of them would notice that the information was incorrect.

This is the first time this woman has made a move at PortCon. .. something that IS IN FACT THE REASON I started attending PortCon June 2015, just days after my family was murdered. When 10 members of my family were murdered all the same day... I responded by doing something I had never done before: I attended PortCon. .. were raised a lot of eyebrows, because we hadn't even had the funerals yet... and here I was at PortCon, cosplaying very specifically a transgender character whom the April 10, 2015 attackers had been chanting about during their attack...the exact same character I am cosplaying right now.

This woman who was just stalking me and Ben at PortCon and the Doubletree and The Maine mall and the Round 1... who is the same woman who shows up at the Biddeford apartment to yell classified, not released to the public information about April 10, 2015... is the ONLY person whom has ever gone to the Old Orchard Beach police department to request the April 10, 2015 report AND notice that the information was incorrect. .. which MEANS... she is involved in the April 10, 2015 attack, and is very likely one of the 70+ people who showed up in my yard April 10, 2015, wearing fake COSPLAY versions of Ku Klux Klan white robes... keep in mind, the police and FBI found now ACTUAL Ku Klux klan involvement and the robes these people wore were made to look like robes found in a movie NOT robes actually worn by ACTUAL Ku Klux Klan.

She showed up for the first time October 21, 2021 the same day an FBI agent requested I paint the April 10, 2015 date on my car, but with the info for the November 14, 2013 attack... to see who would notice the wrong date for the wrong murder, and what they would do... the FBI agent said they had information which suggested a relative of the murderer had moved into our apartment building SPECIFICALLY to harass my family. .. this woman showed up less then 10 hours later... my car was parked in the back year, the info was painted on the roof, and could only be seen from 7 windows of 3 upstairs apartments. That woman somehow saw what was painted on the roof of my car as it was parked in a place where it could not be seen from the road... and the paint hadn't even had time to dry, before she showed up to yell about suicide demons and Etiole for the first time on Oct 21st 2021, less then ten hours after I painted what the FBI agents had requested I paint on my roof.

That information was painted over the following morning before my car was moved, and so no one other than those 7 windows of those 3 apartments EVER saw what was painted on the roof of my car. This raises A LOT of questions about this woman who shows up on the porch to yell at my car, and who was just now at PortCon and round 1, doing the same thing.

She seem to be VERY DESPERATE to try to slander me to as many people as possible, and is HIGHLY AGITATED by my Volvo, specifically the April 10, 2015 never forget, slogsn painted on it. Why? No one who was NOT involved in the murder of my family has any reason to be getting upset at all, let alone as extremely upset as this woman is becoming.

Keep in mind too that my FIRST PortCon was June 2015, less then 60 days after the April 10, 2015 attack BECAUSE right from the beginning it was suspected that the fake klan robes wear made by a local CosPlayer and police wanted me to attend PortCon SPECIFICALLY to draw the murderer out... they have waiting 9 years for a PortCon CosPlayer to come forward either with information to turn in the murder or for murderer themselves to slip up and start making mistakes. .. mistakes like this drunk woman is making more and more often as we count down the days to the 10th anniversary of November 14, 2013, the 10th anniversary of the murder of my son.

Keep I mind too... the police HAVE located a woman named Claire and a woman named Kendra Silvemander ... the two names that the Nov 14, 2013 murderers used, and... these women ARE NOT the women who were at the college and so even back in 2013, it was suspected that that it was a CosPlayer and that this was WHY these two attackers went so over the top in specifying their names, talking about themselves in the 3rd person , something that no one does when talking about themselves.which was a big indicator that the attackers were NOT the names they said they were and were I fact just pretending to me those 3 woman... one of whom, Claire, had actually died of cancer BEFORE November 14, 2013, meaning it 100% that she didn't murder my son, because she had died 6 months BEFORE the attack happened and apparently the attackers did not know that when they addressed themselves as her name.

Something I rarely mention. ..but the Sept 12, 2015 attack... no one was hurt that day, in spite of the attackers being armed with riles and shooting holes in all the buildings... an attack which would not have been connected to either November 2013 or April 2015 had not been for one little detail... more then a dozen of the people involved in September 12, 2015... were in cosplay costumes ... specifically they were men, who were wearing neon pink Tulle ballet dresses, with rainbow colored fairy wings, riding on bicycles, in circles in the road, blocking traffic on Portland Ave from 7am to 9am when the Old Orchard Beach police were finally able to clear the blockage of cyclists in pink dresses, who were chanting " too gay for the family friendly town of old Orchard Beach, down with transvestite freaks, kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaws the transgender murder store"... again... costumes and transphobic hate slurs, were what connected this event to the two murders... elaborate cosplay level costumes and a massive hatred for gay men and Trans people have been at the heart of these events.

And this is why, right from the beginning the police have suspected someone who makes a habit of sewing costumes on a regular basis...because EVERY attack has featured transphobic CosPlayers doing the attack.

Now as my ACTUAL READERS are aware, Quaraun's is not gay. He has a wife a 4 children. He just like wearing dresses. Quaraun is ONLY portrayed as a gay man when I Cosplay him at PortCon. .. because, because people whom have ACTUALLY read my novels are aware that Quaraun is not gay, and ONLY the murders at Nov 14, 2013 and April 10, 2015, and the gun shooters at September 12, 2015, only them, have ever called Quaraun gay... something anyone who had ever ACTUALLY read the novels, would never do because an ACTUAL reader is aware Quaraun is a polygamist with 37 wives, and more then a hundred concubines, and has fathered so many children, he has never counted how many there are. My readers know this.

And yet in each attack, the attackers referenced my novels, called me a yaoi author, a word i had never heard before, claimed my books were gay romance, and, gibbered a lot about Quaraun.

The whole reason I started cosplaying Quaraun was because of these attacks. I used to CosPlay lord Sesshomaru. CosPlayered Lord Sesshomaru for 9 years.

In 2014 BECAUSE of the 2013 attack, a special edition Quaraun novel was released, showing an alternate dimension where Quaraun and his friend Unicorn were shown as a gay couple. The book had already been released under my primary author name, and featured no gay anything, and included Quaraun's wife. A new penname was created for this release: EelKat.

As my longtime readers are aware, Empress EelKat is a black bobcat who is queen of the talking Kats of planet Ptarmigan.

I am NOT EelKat. i am Wendy. EelKat is a fictional character from The Twighlight Manor books. Before the November 2013 attack, no one had ever called me EelKat as though it was my name before. and it was not the username I used online before that attack either. Xavychup was always my online username BEFORE the November 14, 2013 attack.

The attackers of all 3 previously mentioned attacks addressed me as EelKat as though that were my name... and they appeared to be unaware that EelKat was a talking cat from my novels.

EelKat is a black bobcat who raises pet space eels... thus the name Miss Citten The Eel Kat... oh, yes, it IS TWO words... "Eel" + Kat" and is a descriptor NOT a name. Miss Citten is her name. The Eel Kat is her title.

And again, fans of my books, which by the way have sold over ten million copies since 1978... my fans KNOW that I am not "EelKat" and that "EelKat" is correctly spelt: "The Eel Kat".

The EelKat penname was created BECAUSE of these attacks, and changed all my social media usernames to EelKat in 2015 AFTER the 2nd murder... Including to change the name of this website.

From 1996 until 2013, this website was called Space Dock 13. Space Dock 13, as my readers are aware, is a haunted lighthouse, which is Quaraun's Black Tower, that acts as a beacon for guiding EelKat's VISDION-D8 ship to land under the ocean, where it parks. Space Dock 13 is nextdoor to The Twighlight Manor, owned by Quaraun's grandson Sir Roderick Swanzen. Space Dock 13 was the primary setting location of almost every story published from 1978 to 1996, thus why this website was named Space Dock 13, when it was started in 1996.

Here... to show you just how HUGE of a mega retarded idiot these harassers really are... here's pictures of the fictional characters from my novels, that these people are running around claiming are real people:

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PPMF-Kat-Princess-Lynxiana-cousin-of-The-Eel-Kat

PPMF-Kat-First-Officer-Spriggan-communications-officer-of-The-VISION-D8-and-head-of-staff-at-Space-Dock-13

PPMFKat-The-Ptarmagin-Kats-screenshot-Lynxiana-Spriggan-and-The-Eel-Kat

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Checka

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The-Jiggler

BullGaar-the-dwarf

BeLuna-The-Orchid-Gnome

Xanaddot-the-goblin

Can you see NOW, why it's so stupidly ridiculous these people calling me "EelKat" or my husband "Etiole" or the homeless man I take care of "Etiole"?

Can you see NOW how utterly brain dead retarded these people actually are?

People often ask why only 5 novels sit published under the EelKat penname when I have more then 400 books published for the Quaraun series. The Quaraun Series existed under a different series name on a different author penname. The 5 Quaraun novels on the EelKat penname are the only ones which call the Quaraun Series or feature gay characters. Those alternate gay romance versions of those novels exist ONLY because of the ongoing murder investigation.

In the original series, Quaraun, BoomFuzzy, and GhoulSpawn have different names. Those names only exist in the gay romance alternate versions.

The EelKat pennam and the gay versions of these 4 characters exist ONLY as part of the murder investigation of my children, due to the fact that the attackers, addressed me the name EelKat ...a name that NO ONE ELSE has ever called me...and these attackers are also the ONLY people to ever make the claim that the characters in my books were gay, when they were not, so gay alternate versions were created, to see, what these attackers would do if ACTUALLY gay characters did exist in my novels.

This woman who screams on the porch and was just going nuts at Round 1... is one of only a handful of people whom have EVER addressed me as EelKat. .. which makes it even more suspicious the baby she was talking about, one one whose first word was EelKat. .. because EelKat is not my name, nor is it an identity I have ever used... EelKat is the fictional talking black bobcat who live in the fictional haunted house The Twighlight Manor.

I am Wendy. I have always been Wendy, so why did the 2 murderers from November 14, 2013 refer to me as EelKat?

Why did the April 10, 2015 gang also refer to me as EelKat?

Why did the September 12, 2015 shooters likewise refer to me as EelKat?

Squidoo.

Squidoo, an old social media site similar to MySpace that went out of business October 2013, was the ONLY place online, in 2013, where you could have come across EelKat as a username… however, my Squidoo profile existed as a fan page profile for the EelKat CHARACTER and thus why the profile picture was the black bobcat herself, and why the bio mentioned things like being two thousand years old, flying a spaceship, and being empress of Planet Ptarmigan… and interesting note here… the pilot of EelKats star ship, is an Eel-Salamander-Hybrid Merman named Etiole, who was listed as five hundred years old and from planet Vesonta. EelKat and Etiole were also listed as best friends in a relationship. Etiole went by the nickname The Silver Salamander.

EelKat and Etiole are also fictional characters from a 16 page Science Fiction short story Friends Are Forever, that was published in a print magazine on September 23, 1978. It was the first thing I had ever published. It will celebrate its 50th anniversary, in five years.

My Squidoo profile also linked to the locations where you could by copies of said magazine and the reprint edition chapbooks of the story.

At that same time (2005) each of these 2 characters had a MySpace page where more information existed about the space cat and her silver salamander friend.

And let me state again… EelKat and Etiole were fictional characters.

However in 2007, a weird thing happened. Three of my uncles Brucie, Dickie, and David (all there of whom were members of Heavens Gate UFO cult and were friends with George Applewhite and lived on his compound for a while)... created Squidoo and MySpace accounts, and unknown to me at the time, took to calling ME EelKat and 2 local men in my life Etiole. One my Austrian husband Ben, got dubbed Etiole and the other, a homeless WW2 concentration camp survivor hermit who was living in the swamp that abuts my Old Orchard Beach farm, and whom I was taking care of because he's not capable of taking care of himself, was also called Etiole by my uncles. My uncles had never met either Ben or the WW2 vet so, they believed them to BOTH be the same man … and interestingly… believed them to also not be real, citing that I had made them up to cope with being an alien abducted.

It was my uncle Richard Merlin Atwater aka Dickie who wrote the original Amphibious Aliens article, which made the claim I was a member of MUFON, I was an abducted, and Etiole was an EBE alien… and yet, I had never heard of MUFON or EBEs before and had no knowledge of the concept of alien abductions, until AFTER fans of my uncle Dickie article showed up in my yard with weird beeping scanner boxes looking for aliens.
I wrote my version of Amphibious Aliens April 17, 2007 and pointed out, this was an uncle who had recently been released from Pine Land Center Mental Health Institute in New Gloucester, Maine, released due to the hospital going out of business and simply opening its doors, to let, previously straight jackets people walk free. This uncle being one of them. He claimed to work for NASA, claimed he walked on the moon with Niel Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin, claimed he went to Russia and used a sledgehammer to help tear down the iron curtain, and at one point in his life was married to a store mannequin that he bought in Europe. .. he was diagnosed with more than a dozen very deeply disturbing mental illnesses, including Narcissism and Grandiose Delusional Schizophrenia. He was also the author of several thousand handwritten and snail mailed "poison pen" letters which had been signed with the name "The White Monkey OST". In short, he was insane… BIG TIME.

I was very upset to discover that this psychotic deranged uncle of mine was calling me an abducted, calling me EelKat, and calling two different men in my life Etiole while also claiming they were aliens, while also claiming my car was haunted…thus why I wrote my rebuttal to his Amphibious Aliens Squidoo page, by writing Amphibious Aliens: The REAL Story of Etiole and The World's Most Haunted Car… which detailed out why my car was not haunted, why I was not EelKat, why Ben and the homeless man were neither Etiole nor aliens, why wasn't an abducttee, and why the entire Amphibious Aliens bull shit was nothing but a hoax started by three of my uncles, who… did I mention they were members of Heaven's Gate UFO Cult, and that that fact alone is proof they were fucking insane?

People like this woman at the Round 1 last night, who call me EelKat, ONLY call me EelKat because they are fucking UFO nuts who were fans of my deranged uncles' UFO lunacy articles… and as she proved by her actions at Round 1, are just as fucking psychotic as my uncle.

Everything always goes back to my three deranged uncles and either their obsession with UFO aliens or their obsession with Stephen King… every single time, some jackass shows up its ALWAYS a UFO nut or a Stephen King fan who found me through some idiotic slander my uncles wrote.

Always the Atwaters and their fucking MUFON friends. Every single time.

And it appears this woman is yet another of my uncles' lovesick fangirls who can't stop listing after my uncles, and so runs around a slave to her horny overages, attacking me, by my uncles told her to. Which is so damned ridiculous and I am so damned sick of it… and also, my uncles are dead now, so what the fuck? What is wrong with these women who kiss my uncles' asses so much that they slave to them even after they are dead?

Can I point out that my Uncle Richard Merlin Atwater, author of the Amphibious Aliens hoax, the man who started the trend of calling me EelKat, the man who called all the men in my life Etiole and accused them all of being aliens… can I point out he died

September 11, 2013.

I'll let that date soak in for a minute.

Did you see it.

The backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, and it is a known fact that my uncle hired the man who did it, because he bragged IN HIS WILL that he had done so… he also bragged IN HIS WILL that more would soon happen as he had hired a lot of other people to carry out his work of "spending the next decade harassing my niece EelKat and her best Etiole the Amphibious Alien"... he put that in his fucking will… I know this because September 13, 2013 after he died, The Jacksonville County State Police of Florida (my uncle Dickie Richard Merlin Atwater lived in Florida) contacted me to tell me my uncle had put that in his will.

And WHEN was my son murdered?

November 14, 2013.

And what detail was there, that a dead man wouldn't have known, and neither would his cronies have known?

Oh, yeah, Claire died…BEFORE…she murdered my son.

It is a known fact that my uncle hired someone to pretend to be Claire. The documents were found.

But he's dead and so is Claire. Claire was a friend of my father's. I never knew her. Claire and Leo. My uncle tried to frame them for murdering me… except there were some problems… Claire and Leo were both dead by the time the November 14, 2013 attack happened and I lived through that attack. So, the attackers botched up the job badly, because they didn't make sure I was dead and they also didn't make sure the people they were framing for murder were actually still alive at the time they were framed.

The fact remains my uncle hired someone to cosplay my father's old girlfriend and the police have been looking for, specifically a local female cosplayer, who knows information that wasn't in the public police reports, who addresses me as EelKat because she doesn't know EelKat is not my name, who refers to both Ben and the homeless man as Etiole, who refers to me as "EelKat Etiole's friend", who has never read my books so does NOT know that my characters are NOT gay, who thought I was a man who transitioned into a female, and who did not know I was 8 months pregnant because my uncle hired here a year before he or Claire had died, at a time when I wasn't yet pregnant.

I got pregnant in March 2013, the night a bomb shut down Southern Maine Community

College and sent Ben into a panicked frenzy because he saw it on the news, and us students in the building had no contact with the outside. Ben is the father. He claims he isn't but he is, because sex was his response to finding out I hadn't been killed in the bomb attack of Southern Maine Community College, which happened the same day as several other bombs throughout New England, including the Boston Marathon Bomb which killed 14 people.

It appears that the woman who murdered my baby, is having serious problems with learning that not only was I NOT transgender man in a dress like she thought I was, but I was also days from going into labor, and she murdered my baby… and that's a guilt she appears to be having a hard time living with.

And it's starting to look more and more, like the woman on the porch, who is now known to be a CosPlayer… IS the golf club wielding woman who murdered my baby.

The actions of this woman are very confusing to me, because I don't know who she is or why so mega obsessed with me... and yes, she is the same one who was here a few weeks ago in May making the claim that some baby's first words were EelKat and Volvo, and thing that she was very upset about and paced around my driveway babbling about for a very long time. And I am very upset that she felt the need to show up in my driveway and yell these things.

I have no way of knowing who that baby is or if it actually did say EelKat as it's first word and Volvo as it's second word, but if what she said is true... do you realize HOW super over the top obsessed you have to be with me and my car, in order to talk about me and my car so much, that you're baby's first words are EelKat and Volvo instead of momma or daddy?

This very deeply concerning and incredibly terrifying fir me and my family. .. to realize that someone is so obsessed with me that they spent 24-7 talking about me in front of a baby, to the extent that my name was that baby's first word?

The same woman who makes the claim that some baby's first word was EelKat. .. is the same women who spent 2 hours at the Round 1 tonight, gibbering about my best friend Etiole, my Austrian husband Ben, ... and here's something. .. do you remember I told you the day before PortCon that I endometriosis, which is causing abnormal levels of bloating, and I have ovarian cysts that has caused 500 days of none stop bleeding... THAT was the primary focus of her topic... but... people who know me offline, are well aware of my medical diagnoses and the $37k surgery I need to fix it... unknown to me, because I didn't read it before posting it, autocorret changed the $37thousand to $3MILLION. .. I just checked, yep, that is what it says... I went and checked. .. because at one point at the Round 1 last night, she jumped up on the bar table and started broadcasting to all the little children and their families, that I needed $3MILLION surgery. .. which led me to ask, where the hell did she get that number?

Well... I guess we know from that she's someone on my Facebook friends list isn't she? They are the only people who would have seen that typo autocorrect stuck in my post.

This by the way, is the FaceBook post she was referring too:

If you know who the woman is who is at PortCon RIGHT NOW... call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 and tell him who she is, because as it stands right now, there is a more than 90% chance she is the primary ringleader of the April 10, 2015 attack.

If you have information about anything or anyone connected to either the November 14, 2013 attack at SouthernMaine Community College, or the 70 people who staged the fake Ku Klux Klan attack at 146 Portland Ave in Old Orchard Beach, both attacks featuring the murders of my children, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 and tell him what you know.
Don't let these child murderers walk free. You'll never know when YOUR children are next children they decide to kill.

June 24, 2023:

Multiple people this week have used the phrase "dedication to your cosplay" in describing my 12 foot long Rapunzel extensions... but they miss the point... I'm not dedicated to my costume... I'm dedicated to finding my son's murderer, and if I have to put in 12 foot Rapunzel extensions to cosplay a gay man who is a Rapunzel fan, in order to draw my baby's killer out into the open, well then that's what this mother is gonna do.

June 26, 2023

mation, about the group of people who ganged up on me and murdered my infant son, in 2013, who were just at PortCon and Round 1 harassing me and Ben 

...the SAME woman who screams about some fucktard Tod Murphey --- whoever the hell that is, because as I've said a million times already, I have no clue who Tod Murphey is, I don't know anyone named Tod Murphey and I don't know what the fuck she is talking about... that she uses as an excuse for vandalizing my car...

...the same woman who arrives in my driveway, to yell from my neighbour's front porch accusing my car of having suicide demons in it, a thing she has been doing since November 2021...

...THAT SAME WOMAN is the one who is stalking my family now at PortCon and The Maine Mall... and because of what she said at Round 1, information that police sealed, classified information about murder details that were not released to the public...

...that women, is now, the FBI's #1 suspect for BOTH the murder on November 14, 2013 AND the multiple murders of April 10, 2015... if you know who this woman is:

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

You know, if a good, moral, decent, not guilty person, found themselves in possession of classified information that the police and FBI had withheld SPECIFICALLY so they could use that information to identify a serial child murderer… that good, moral, decent, not guilty person, would make an attempt to prove they were actually not the serial child murderer, by going to the FBI and telling the FBI agents WHERE they got the information they have, and explain WHY and HOW they have access to classified information… because guess what?

ONLY the serial child murderer has that information, and if a good, moral, decent, not guilty person now have that information as well, that means one: the possesor IS the evil, immoral, scumbag, guilty as fuck, serial child murderer, OR they have been in contact with the evil, immoral, scumbag, guilty as fuck, serial child murderer, meaning the person who gave that information IS the evil, immoral, scumbag, guilty as fuck, serial child murderer.

A good, moral, decent, not guilty person would turn the evil, immoral, scumbag, guilty as fuck, serial child murderer… only equally evil, immoral, scumbags would protect the evil, immoral, scumbag, guilty as fuck, serial child murderer by allowing said evil, immoral, scumbag, guilty as fuck, serial child murderer to implicate them.

And that is what they are doing if they gave you said classified information…the murderer is getting scared, so they are giving the classified information to the dumb as fuck scapegoats they want to get rid of.

It does appear that what we are seeing happening right now, is the murderer is terrified out of her mind… and yes, the murderer is a female… the fact that classified information was being spouted out by this woman at Round 1, indicates that the murderer is scared out of her freaking mind and is trying to hide her guilt, by spreading the classified information to as many people as possible… she is desperately trying to lay the blame on others, desperately trying to lay false trails, desperately trying

…and that too seems to be why a massive increase of libal, defamation, and slander, has gone big time spreading like wild fire…

Oh, big, big, big… big time… on Sunday morning as we were getting ready to leave for the final day of portcon, the woman from Round 1 was in the driveway, telling the elderly woman, who's she likes the scream from, "EelKat's not crippled she walks 2 miles a day"... and she wasn't just saying this, she was running out into the road and yelling it into the window of each and every car that drove by, making a big time fool of herself…. And it does appear now, that the elderly couple out front if us KNOW THIS WOMAN…

I live at 409 Maine Street apartment 101 by the way. She was streaming from the porch of the next apartment over, and the woman who lives there…this time…WAS DOING IT WITH HER…that’s new.

As for the walking she was referring to… it's 2 hours, not 2 miles… and it's about 750 feet from the front porch to the train tracks… not even close to one twentieth of a mile… it takes me 2 hours to walk from the front porch to the train tracks and back to the porch… a stretch of road which takes the average not crippled person about three minutes to reach and back.

And it's not every day… that walk happens once a week and hurts so bad to do, that I am bedridden unable to sit up at all, for 4 to 5 days afterwards.

So, again, you can see the type of slander that porch bitch is spreading…

…and one has to ask…

WHO OTHER THAN THE GOLF CLUB WIELDING MURDERER WHO MURDERED MY SON AND CRIPPLED ME…. WHO OTHER THAN THAT WOMAN HAS A MOTIVATION TO TRY TO CONVINCE PEOPLE I AM NOT CRIPPLED?

Only the person who is scared they are going to get slapped with the lawsuit to pay for my entire 9 years and OVER TWENTY MILLION DOLLARS in medical bills has any motivation to try to convince people I am not crippled.

The fact remains, I am supposed to walk to the tracks and back daily as part of my physical therapy to strengthen the muscles in my legs and back, so that I can relearn to walk normally… and at the start of this, in 2019, I was only able to get from the front door to the end of the driveway, before collapsing and having to be carried back inside.

To go from not making it even thirty feet in 2019, to being able to walk 750 feet now in 2023 is a massive accomplishment… especially when you consider that in 2013 doctors said I would never walk again at all, due to the amount of damage that bitch ass baby murderer did to my spine.

And this is very new… porch bitch aka Round 1 psycho just started doing this Sunday morning June 26, 2023… she is now running out into the street, trying to get the attention of random strangers driving by, flagging them down, waving her arms around, while screaming at the top of her lungs:
"EelKat's not crippled she walks 2 miles a day"

Why?

What is the motivation for this increasing incredibly bizarre behavior…and why was the woman who lives here… helping her do it?

It's got to be one of the most outlandish nut job freak shows I've seen porch bitch do since she first showed up here October 21, 2021.

But the 2 hours later, at PortCon, while waiting in line for the Oxford panel, over in the Doubletree restaurant, that same woman at Round 1, who was with porch bitch, but is not porch bitch, the strawberry blond woman, was sitting on a barstool of the Doubletree restaurant, and grabbing the arm of literary every person to walk by her, dozens and dozens of people over the course of the hour I was sitting in line… and pulling them aside to say "That's EelKat, she's not crippled, she's faking."

Well, I have 9 years of medical bills, mris, cat scans, surgeries, medications, physical therapy, wheelchair, walkers, and canes that can prove otherwise… but again, I'm left to ask, what is the MOTIVE here?

I do not know either of these 2 women, so, I simply can not fathom why either of them are so hung up on me, that they are literally running around tackling strangers, trying to spread lies about me as much as possible.

Why?

And yet, these women are BOTH also talking about classified information about my son's murder which police withheld from the public.

HOW did they get this information?

Either these two women ARE the November 14, 2013 murderers, or they know who the murderer is.

And, no, these two women are not the two women who attacked me November 14, 2013… they are far too young… but they are the right age that they could be the daughters of the women who murdered my son and crippled me on November 14, 2013.

It is very clear that these two women are trying to protect the ACTUAL murderer, by launching a massive slander campaign to try to discredit my disability that was caused by the golf club attack.

But why?

Who are they protecting?

Their actions at PortCon this week have made it painfully obvious that these two women KNOW WHO THE MURDERER IS and are hoping mega psycho extreme overboard to try to protect the killer.

If you know who these two women are or who it is they are trying to protect

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Update: June 27, 2023:

Answering the message just sent to me here, because I do not answer anything in private... There are 21 police officers (from Old Orchard Beach, Biddeford, Saco, Scarborough, South Portland, and Portland Maine police departments, as well as Maine State Police and Jacksonville County Florida State Police departments) and 6 FBI agents (from Portland, Maine and Boston, Mass field offices) who follow my FaceBook profile and track EVERYTHING I post here, everything everyone else posts here, and everything posted by my friends and followers on FB, as well as the posts made on pages I run, groups I run, and pages and groups I am joined. Because of this, I post NOTHING in private, and your private messages are forwarded to them, so that they can see, what it is I am responding to, even if I do not publicly post the message that was sent privately to me... yes, ALL posts I make on my FB profile ARE directed to these officers and NOT my friends list or followers, that is why long specific details of EVERYTHING done, said, and worn, by harassers and stalkers is spelled out here in these posts, this is so the officers know exactly who they are looking for...

keep in mind,... the FBI is not currently arresting people, they are looking for INFORMATION so they know who to WATCH... which houses to bug, which phones to tap, and so on... they already rewired my apartment building February 15, 2021, after one of the 2 primary FBI agents on my case was murdered in Florida... REMEMBER... my case happened a decade ago and was a cold case/unsolved case, that had not been focused on since 2016... it was the February 6, 2021 MURDER OF AN FBI AGENT in Florida, specifically the murder of Laura, who was originally in charge of this case before Andy Drewer took over...

...EVERY MURDER CASE... that Laura had been a part of was reopened in February 2021, and given top priority because they are looking for a COP KILLER who has killed now FOUR FBI agents since February 2021....including the one that was in charge of my case.

They are looking for a VERY LARGE DRUG GANG, headquartered in Connecticut, with connections to Biddeford, Saco, and Old Orchard Beach, Maine.... they believe the two women who murdered my son on November 14, 2013, are members of this gang.

AND... keep in mind, they can confirm there were AT LEAST 74 - SEVENTY-FOUR - people in my driveway on April 10, 2015... and suspect the actual headcount was closer to 120 people... and the FBI wants to identify EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM... which they have already ID-ed and arrested 64 of them... all in the past 3 years SINCE I painted the FBI phone number on the trunk of my car... The FBI has arrested 64 people as a result of the phone number on my car, that requests info... people ARE calling that number and people ARE being arrested.

They are NOT just looking for the two women who murdered my son and crippled me… nor are they just looking for the 74+ people who attacked my farm…they are looking for a VERY LARGE heroin and cocaine dealing drug gang, whom they believe my uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater was heavily involved with and they believe my Uncle Bruce tried to pull a scam on the drug dealers, and that THIS was what led to the April 10, 2015 attack… you see, one of Uncle Bruce’s daughters ALSO lives on Portland Ave and ALSO has a pink motorhome and ALSO had a large family of 10+ children… and SHE (not me) is now known to have been the ACTUAL target of the April 10, 2015 attack, this was confirmed when a few months later HER FAMILY WAS ALSO attacked and even more people got murdered and beheaded… the “correct” people this time (the family that was the actual target)….

…and unknown to me at the time (I found out June 2016 when FBI agents told me)... my family was the SEVENTH family on Portland Ave to be raided like this. Between June 2001 and February 2021, a total of 120+ people have been killed on Portland Ave, during, now ELEVEN of these large scale “fake Ku Klux Klan” attacks…

At least two of these attacks, the one on my farm on April 10, 2015, are confirmed to have been the wrong family attacked.

MOST of the families attacked had a connection to my Uncle Bruce, most being his children, grandchildren, or in-laws, and most of them having long drug dealing records. In short, my Uncle Bruce and his children and grandchildren, pissed off some big time heroin/fentanyl/cocaine gang from Connecticut, and that gang, sent gang members up here to Maine to pose as “Ku Klux Klan” (as I said before, the police have found no ACTUAL evidence of ACTUAL Ku Klux Klan Involvement, and have only found evidence of drug dealers who have been hiring local CosPlay costume makers to sew white hooded robes).

Me, being a big name author, who gets 7 million hits on my author website each month, who was also in a Stephen King movie and have 57million followers on my profiles for that, was a BIG, BIG, BIG mistake on the drug gang’s part… because they just attacked the first yard they saw on Portland Ave with a pink motorhome, and didn’t stop to look t WHO owned that pink motorhome or how insanely famous I really am… remember, my biggest selling series sold over ten MILLION copies, my biggest selling book sold over a million copies… and the entire EelKat persona was created SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE my family was murdered… I am someone else, if you know what username to look for… I did not want my regular penname connected to the murder investigation, and that is WHY the EelKat penname was created… so that ALL murder investigation involvement could be directed to here and keep my big author name out of the news.

Keep in mind too, that in 2013 when the murder happened, I was a District Retail Merchandiser for HallMark and that job had me driving 100 to 500 miles per day to stores all over New England… I covered every state in New England, and that meant I was parking my car at EVERY WalMart, Post Office, Khols, CVS, WalGreens, RiteAid, and HallMark Gift Shop in ALL THIRTEEN STATES of New England… and THIS is WHY I suddenly painted lots of eels, cats, birds, fish, and unicorns all over my car… because I had put the FBI hotline contact info on posters in the windows of my car, but people don’t just randomly walk up to a car to look at posters… they DO however walk up to a carnival circus car to get a closer look at the murals… literally MILLIONS of people walk by my car every month, as a result of my long distance driving career…. My car was painted with bright pop art murals specifically to attract people to it, so they could read the FBI poster and call the hotline with information.

…and they do in fact know the identity of 64 of the people who raided my farm on April 10, 2015... 14 of those people were police officers from Old Orchard Beach and Scarborough and they are already in prison, and were obviously removed from the police force...

24 additional people were arrested from the following five churches: Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, The Sanford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, Curtis Lake Church in Sanford, Grace Point Church in Biddeford, New Life Church in Biddeford; additional arrests were made at the Baptist Church in Saco and the Arundel Christian Tabernacle but the arrests at those 2 churches were for other cases, not the murder, and were arrests that resulted from people calling the FBI hotline for my murder case, with info, but the info turned out to be connected to a different case then mine. The driver and owner (2 different people) of the 4 door white truck were arrested in 2017, they were a mother and son duo the mother worked at both the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall and the Old Orchard Beach Police Department and it turns out was also involved in the 2007-2010 money laundering fiasco of the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall, that was not connected to me, but they only found her because of her 4-door white truck attacks on my car. Had she not been arrested for the 4-door white truck attacks, they would not have uncovered her as the town hall embezzler.

Before my own family was murdered, I was connected to another murder case, The Ouellette Murder aka the headless girl in the Scarborough Marsh… I am the one who found the bodies of the thirteen headless black dogs lined up in a the road and called the police… the police followed the trail of dead headless dogs to see where it went, and it led them to the headless teen girl in the marsh. Because I was the one who found the body, HER case was also reopened in 2021, as a result of all the cold cases being reopened after FBI agent Laura was murdered. It was not her case, but it was considered connected because my case was Laura’s case and I was also the primary witness of the headless girl surrounded by thirteen headless black dogs in the Scarborough Marsh.

I don’t know the exact number, or how many cases have been reopened… I know there are MORE then TWO HUNDRED murder cases throughout New England and Florida, all cold cases, all involving beheaded victims, that have ALL be reopened, because it is now believed that they ALL might be connected to this one big heroin/fentanyl/cocaine drug gang in Connecticut.

I don’t know any details about any case, other than my own case. The only time I find out there i another case involved, is when police officers or FBI agents specifically ask me: “So what do you know about this case/date/murder?” and 99.99% of the time it’s a case I’ve never heard of. They don’t tell me any details so I know nothing of them. The things I know, I only know because they either happened to me/my family aka I/we was/were the victim(s) or I was a witness to them aka I was there and saw what happened.

YES… if you are on my FaceBook friends list, YES, the FBI HAS checked out you and you family. Who knows what exactly that means or how much checking they did. I only know that they said they check every single profile of everyone on my FaceBook friends list and my Twitter followers. I have no idea how much checking they did.

YES… if you have ever said or done ANYTHING that was recorded by one of my 3 video cameras that run 24/7, then YES… the FBI DID see and hear you do it… if you do NOT want the FBI to know what you say and do, then DO NOT do it within recording distance of my camera.

YES… if you set foot in my driveways - any of them… Biddeford, Old Orchard, or elsewhere, and there ARE several elsewhere in multiple counties throughout Maine - YES, YOU ARE RECORDED, both your VOICE, everything you say, and your person, everything you did… yes, also your cars, your plate numbers… ALL of it… all is recorded and all has already been forwarded to the FBI and state police.

NO… you CAN NOT run around my driveway, scream from my porch, jump up and down in the road, and then run to Round 1 and say you never did it, say your mother never saw it happen, - oh by the way, thank you for telling me your mother lives in my building, that was very helpful information you gave me - we DO now have confirmation that family members of the murderer of my son live in the 409 Main street Biddeford apartment building,,, and… oh, yeah, what was I saying… yeah, you can’t scream from the porch, then run to Round 1 and say you never did it and your mother who lives in my building never saw you do it… when,... uhm… yeah… I kind of have you on camera doing it. Yes, I DO have all the video footage of your screaming your Tod Murphy suicide demon insanity on camera… you probably should have thought off that BEFORE you stood on the porch to scream and yell… and your mother doesn’t see you do it? Interesting, does that mean your mother is involved in the murder of my son? I think I should start taking a closer look at the women who live in this building here at 409 Main street, where porch bitch says her mother lives and does not see porch bitch bitching or harassing me… I’m fascinated to learn that someone who lives in my building is actively proclaiming they are not seeing porch bitch harassing my family, because now I want to know just what exactly ARE they trying to cover up?

What did porch bitch’s mother do that porch bitch is covering for?

What did porch bitch do that porch bitch’s mother is covering for?

Who the fuck even is porch bitch’s mother and why should I care? What the fuck is porch bitch even talking about? I don’t know.

If you have any information on what the flying fuck porch bitch is talking about…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Porch bitch acts like she thinks I know who she and her mother are and I haven’t got a clue who either of them are!

Porch bitch is the same drunk, drug aideled woman who yaps about Tood Murphy all the time, accusing my car of being the suicide demon that killed him, and don’t know who Tod Murphey is either, but porch bitch seems to think I do!

If you have any information on who porch bitch is and why she is calling my car a suicide demon …

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

If you have any information on who Tod Murphy is and why porch bitch thinks my car is possessed by a demon that killed him…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who the fuck are these criminal cunts?

And what the hell does it got to do with me? Why are they even taking an interest in me? Why are they going out of their way to broadcast to everyone WHERE I LIVE? Yes, I DO live at 409 Main Street aprt 101 in Biddeford…., what they hell are they running around telling people that? WHO are they trying to herd into my yard? Why is porch bitch so obsessed with me that she is stalking me all over the fucking state?

If you have any information on who porch bitch is and why she is doxxing me…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who the fuck is porch bitch and why is she stalking me?

If you have any information on who porch bitch is and why she is stalking me…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

If you have any information on why porch bitch and her mother are so full of hatred for babies, toddlers, and the more then 120+ small children these drug dealers have murdered, that porch bitch and her mother have made it their life’s goal to do everything in their power to stop these children’s killers from being brought to justice…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

And why are they sticking their gossiping, trouble making, busy body noses in my business where neither they nor their noses belong?

If you have any information on why porch bitch and her mother are so full of hatred for babies, toddlers, and the more then 120+ small children these drug dealers have murdered, that porch bitch and her mother have made it their life’s goal to do everything in their power to stop these children’s killers from being brought to justice…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

But therein lays another problem… I’m legally blind. I’ve been legally blind in my left eye since I was 8 years old. I can see only 4 inches with that eye. Without glasses, I am also legally blind in my right eye, however, I can see about 20 feet with glasses via my right eye, but perception is skewed because I can only see out of one eye. This result in I can’t see fine details, for example: faces. I can see bodies, make out size, weight, height, shape, hair colour… but I can not see faces. And this is why I can not identify the two women who murdered my son and crippled me on November 14, 2013.

Porch bitch has never gotten close to me… she clearly knows at what distance my vision cuts out… but interestingly… there are THREE women in my building, whom also have NEVER gotten close to me… quite the contrary… they literally RUN away if I’m outside in the driveway… they laughably big issues of running away too, knocking over chairs and plant pots in their huge mega panic of getting as far away from me as possible… It’s very strange… but I am a Hoodoo Priestess aka a Voodoo Queen aka Gypsy Fortune Teller… I read cards and pendulums for clients and do Hoodoo rootwork, candle offerings, altar work… I AM the Gypsy Witch from Stephen King’s The Thinner after all… not the actress in the movie… the actual real Gypsy she was based off of, the consultant for making sure Gypsies were presented accurately in the movie… the actress in the movie was portraying me… I’m the REAL Gypsy Witch… and that’s scares people around local here shitless…so I’m used to people doing their over the top panic running away when they see me and I originally thought nothing of the three women in our building whom have NEVER spoken to me not once since I have been here… I’ve been here since February 4, 2019. Not even a single “hello” or “good morning” your typical holier than thou Christine snob nosed rudeness…

I’m used to that… I am a Christo-Pagan aka I practice Folk Catholicism aka I practice New Orleans Voodoo, I’m too Christian for most Pagans and am generally not accepted in Wicca or Witch circles… but I am also too Pagan for most Christian denominations and am not welcomed in Christian circles either. When you practice Voodoo aka Folk Catholicism as your religion, you get used to being outcast and hated by Christians and Pagans alike, as Christians hate Pagans and Pagans hate Christians and neither side can accept a unity of ChristoPagan coexistence.

And so, for the past four years, I had assumed that the general rudeness and high nose snobbery of the three women in the building who shun me (but NOT Ben… they DO talk to Ben) was due to my not Christian enough for them… I had never before considered that one of them, could be connected to the murder of my son, and might in fact even be the murderer… that never crossed my mind… not until porch bitch said at Round 1, that her mother lives in my building… that’s a VERY big deal… you see… porch bitch is the one who keeps spouting off classified info, info that the police withheld from the public… info that could identify the murderer because ONLY the murderer would know about it… but porch bitch is too young to be the murderer, so how does she know the info? The three women who snub me… one is also too young, one is far too old and also was in prison at the time of the murder, but the other one… she IS the right age… so many questions have now surfaced, because porch bitch’s saying at Round 1, that her mother lives in my building. This is a very, very, VERY deeply concerning revelation. So now the question is, not only how did porch bitch get the classified info… but also… WHY have these three women shunned me for the past 4 years? What is their motive for shunning me? Like I said, they do not shun Ben… they frequently talk to Ben, almost daily in fact, and even when I am right beside him, they completely ignore my existence, which I had always chalked up to Christian high polluting self righteousness hatred for Pagans, because that’s just Christians are, at least around here, but now… I’m wondering if it is instead because they are connected to the murder of my son and my becoming crippled?

But the fact remains…YES… if you show up in my yard, ANY of my yards, at buildings, ANY of them… you WILL become a murder suspect the moment your do or say ANYTHING even remotely unfriendly… you WILL be put on an FBI watch list… you ALREADY HAVE been put on an FBI watch list. The FBI is looking for a VERY BIG drug gang, and they are watching EVERYONE who has any connection to ANY of more than 200 different murders throughout New England and in Florida, NOT just my one/two murder case(s).
I agreed to help them, because I have the platform to do so.

There are more than TWO HUNDRED grieving families, who have no one to platform for their dead loved ones, they don’t have a social media presence; they don’t have a big name fan following… and they NEED help… more then two hundred unsolved murder cases in more than fifteen states are involved here… this is a LOT bigger then just me or my murdered son… I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again… you have NO CLUE what you are getting involved in, or massively BIG this really is… and so if you do not want to be slapped on an FBI watch list… you DO WANT to BACK OFF, get out of my yard, stay off of the porches of my building, stay away from my car, stay out of my driveway, and do NOT get within range of my camera in public…

…there IS a very good probability that porch bitch is just a severely mentally ill attention seeking copycatter who is just looking for her ten minutes of fame… there have been several of those show up already… and guess what… THEY DID GET ARRESTED… why? For impeding an FBI investigation. Yes, they DID turn ut to be fakers with ZERO connection to the murders, but they got arrested anyways, because being a troll IS illegal, when you start trolling federal officers.

If you have any information on why porch bitch is so full of hatred for these grieving families that she has made it her life’s goal to do everything in her power to stop their children’s killers from being brought to justice…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

YES… if you think you know who porch bitch is, and you think she is a mental nut case who is NOT connected to the murder… then YES, you DO DESPERATELY NEED to reel her in, call her off, and get her out of my yard, out of my building, off the front porch, and out of my camera… because as it stands right now, because of the things she did and say Saturday and Sunday, HER and HER ENTIRE FAMILY… are NOW MURDER SUSPECTS… and she and or they WILL be arrested, on grounds of impeding an FBI investigation, even if it turns out they are NOT involved in the murder… but she HAS got a connection… because… again… she DOES have classified information that she is saying, and she got that information SOMEHOW.

Either she knows the murderer by being related to them, or the murderer has targeted their family knowing that her busy body's big mouth would make her a good scapegoat.

If you have any information on why porch bitch is so hell bent determined to stick her fucking nosy, busy body cunt ass in my private business that does not concern her…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again… if your family is NOT one of the murder victims’ families, you NEED to back off and STAY OUT OF THIS… this is not some fucking game you can joke around with… we are dealing with a drug gang that is KILLING ENTIRE FAMILIES… and if your family are NOT already murder victims; you getting involved could very well cause them to be!

I AM trying to protect your stupid ass, by telling you to back off and stop messing around with things you don’t know what is going on and getting involved could make your family a target!

I’m only involved because my jackass uncle messed around with fucking drug dealers, thought he could pull a fucking scam on them and they decided to teach him a lesson by killing his daughter’s children, only they messed up, because they didn’t know there were TWO pink motorhomes on Portland Ave in Old Orchard Beach and they got the wrong damned one.

These people drove a backhoe over my house and murdered my children! And they’ll do the same thing to you if you stick your damn gossiping busy body nose in places it doesn’t belong!

My family is already dead, my house was already run over by a backhoe, I don’t have anything to lose, so I can be the bait that draws them out into the open… but you’re messing that up… these people are fucking inner city drug dealers from down south… these are not small potatoes dip shits bumming drugs in hick villages of Maine… you need to get the fuck out of this. You need to get your family the fuck out of this.

Yes… she IS endangering herself AND her entire family, all her friends, all her relatives… if she is, as you believe, just a mental case trying to get attention, then you NEED to pull her out of this FAST before she gets her entire family killed. These people are dangerous and they will not care that she’s a retard who thinks she’s playing a game. These drug dealers murdered FOUR FBI agents! Do you think they CARE about you? Your friends? Your families? They DON’T.

But I do! I DO CARE! And I’m trying to help the FBI stop them before they kill again!

These jackass drug dealers killed my family and I don’t want them killing anyone else's.

What the fuck is wrong with you people?

A lot of people have already been killed by these drug dealers and we are trying to stop more deaths from happening, and that shit she pulled at PortCon, at the DoubleTree, at the Maine Mall, at Round 1… she might very well have made EVERYONE WITH HER a target. Everyone who was sitting at that table with her… there were 8 people at two tables, one table in front of us and one table behind us… she may very well have endangered ALL EIGHT of them. So, if you know who those 8 people are, and they are NOT families of the murder victims, then you fucking tell them to reel her in…because it’s THEIR families she just put in danger this week.

I’m trying save lives here, you fucking idiots! Stop putting yourself in harm’s way by getting involved in things you know nothing about!

Who is porch bitch and why was she stalking me at the Round 1? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

IMPEDING AN FBI MURDER INVESTIGATION! THAT IS WHAT SHE AND HER 7 FUCK BUDDIES JUST DID AT ROUND 1!

If you have any information on why porch bitch or porch bitch’s 7 friends just helped child murderers escape at the Round 1..

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Oh, by the way… WHILE she was having her screaming fit at Round 1… someone poisoned my pizza… yeah… so, it DOES appear that the murderer paid her and her seven friends to stage that scene… I have a deadly allergy… there are foods I am allergic to… food that will kill me… and someone, while my back was turned to watch her screaming… peeled the cheese off my pizza and dumped about a half cup of uncooked chopped onions on it, then rolled the cheese back over it… I only noticed it, because when I picked up the first slice, the tampered cheese fell off and scattered chopped raw onions all over the table.

Who is porch bitch and why did she try to poison me at the Round 1? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Soooo… yeah… she’s now a BIG suspect, because… yeah… she clearly staged her whole Round 1 scene SPECIFICALLY so one of her 7 friends could try to kill me with a food allergy.

By the way… got that part on camera too.

It’s unknown yet, if the drug dealers paid her and her 7 friends to do this or if they just did it on their own thinking it was some sort of prank.

Who is porch bitch and why did she try to kill me at the Round 1? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Either way… porch bitch tried to kill me, and her 7 friends helped. What we need to know now is WHICH one of them put the onions in my pizza.

Who are these 8 people and why did they try to kill me at the Round 1? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Onions was the same thing that was used to poison my dog March 20, 2023…

Who poisoned my dog with onions March 20, 2023 and was it one of these 8 people? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Onions WILL kill me. I have an onion allergy.

If you know which of these 8 people put the onions on my pizza...

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why does she want me dead? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why did she and her friends try to kill me at the Round 1? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why was she stalking me at PortCon? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why was she trying to prevent my son’s murderer from being caught? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why was she getting involved with this murder case? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and what is her motive for interfering with this FBI investigation? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

I was dragged into this against my will… there is seriously something wrong with anyone who tries to get involved with it willingly.

Who is porch bitch and why was she overly invested in tampering with the FBI’s murder investigation of my son? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Do you have any clue what that bitch just did?

We had evidence that the murderer was going to be at PortCon this year and porch bitch, just flushed a 9 year long FBI investigation down the fucking toilet.

THAT is what this fucking bitch and her 7 jack ass fuck buddies just did.

Who is porch bitch and why is she impeding an FBI investigation? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why is she protecting my son’s killer? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why doesn’t she want my son’s murderer to be caught? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

I was trying to ignore porch bitch with all her screaming and yell from the porch every holiday week since October 21, 2021… but now she is stalking me to conventions and restaurants and making active attempts to prevent the arrest of my son’s killer.

Who is porch bitch and what is her connection to my son’s murderer? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Who is porch bitch and why doesn’t she want my 8 month old baby’s murderer brought to justice? If you know…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

If you have any information on why porch bitch and her 7 friends just activatly jumped in the middle of a murder investigation at Round 1 to make a big scene and to help give the murderers time to escape...

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

They just let a fucking child murderer get away AGAIN!

If you have any information on why porch bitch and her 7 friends just helped child murderers escape...

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

This is NOT THE FIRST TIME THIS FUCKING JACKASS BITCH HAS DONE THIS!

If you are one of porch bitch’s 7 friends who just helped child murderers escape at the Round 1 and you WERE NOT AWARE that porch bitch was using you as her scapegoat to help murderers get away...

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

Which is WHY, she and her mommy and daddy, whoever the hell they are... are now primary murder suspects #1, because this bitch, has made it VERY clear, that she will STOP AT NOTHING to do EVERYTHING IN HER POWER to stop the FBI from arresting the two women who murdered my son.

If you know who she or they are...

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

If a member of your family is NOT one of the murder victims, then you NEED to get yourself and ALL of your friends, family, and relatives OUT OF THIS SITUATION! STOP GETTING IN MY FACE! STOP GETTING IN MY CAMERA! STOP GETTING IN MY YARD - ALL OF THEM! You haven’t got a clue what is going on here and you are making yourselves a very big problem! LEAVE ME ALONE!

If you have ANY information about ANYTHING connected to ANY of this…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

I don’t know who these people are or why they are doing this.

If you know who these people are or why they are doing this…

please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322

ask for Agent Andy Drewer.

I don’t know who this woman is or why she is harassing me, but she put onions on my pizza, hide them under the cheese, and that is attempted murder. Onions can kill me. She tried to kill me. And I want to know why. I want to know who she is, why she is stalking me, why she is following me, why she shows up in my yard, why she shows up at the restaurant I was at with her gang of 7 thugs to surround my table on all sides and put an item I am allergic to in my food. She and her 7 cronies put a deadly allergy food on my pizza. That is attempted murder.

She first showed up in October 2021, it’s now June 2023. I don’t know who she is or why she is doing this, but I want her to stop.

I am not bothering her. Why is she bothering me?

I do not know her. How does she know me?

I am not harassing her. Why is she harassing me?

I am here, minding my own business, trying to track down my son’s murderer, something that has been the full 100% focus of my entire life every day since he was murdered November 14, 2013.

I want to find my son’s murderer, and I can not do it when some mentally deranged drunk ass psycho bitch is getting in my face every chance she can get.

I want to find my son’s murderer and she is trying to prevent me from doing that and I want to know why?

What is her connection to my son’s murder?

No one who is not connected to my son’s murder, has any reason to be interfering with the investigation into my son’s murder.

Only someone who knows who the murderer is and seeks to prevent me from finding the murderer, has any incentive to be interfering with attempts to locate my son’s murderer.

She makes repeated attempts to derail the investigation into the murder of my son and I want to know why.

I am severely crippled, something the murderer did to me. I am bedridden. I was paralyzed for 5 months, spent 18 months relearning to walk, only to be attacked a 2nd time by the same two women who murdered my son and crippled me the first time. The 2nd attack, June 2016, did severe damage to my spinal column and nerve bundle, causing my current state of being crippled, after I had spent 18 months relearning to walk the first time, I had to relearn to walk AGAIN, a 2nd time.

I have reached the point were it takes me now only 2 hours to walk seven hundred and fifty feet…. It takes the average person only 3 minutes to move that same distance, and they are not in agonising pain every step of the way like I am.

And yet, this woman is going to the corner store on Cutts Street, the Biddeford Library, the front porch on my apartment building, the restaurant at the Hilton DoubleTree, the Round 1 arcade at the Maine Mall, running around grabbing the arms of every random stranger she meets to babble out between her slovenly drunken slurs : “That’s EelKat, she walks 2 miles a day, she can run, she’s not crippled, she’s faking it!”

Why?

Tell me, WHO other than friends and family of my son’s murderer, the two women who crippled me, who ELSE has an incentive to be running around spreading these evil vicious slanderous defamations lies about me?

Who?

Only someone who is trying to protect the two women who crippled me, has any incentive to spread these filthy lies about me.

Who is this woman and what is her incentive to spread her hateful smear campaign about me?

Tell me that.

Tell FBI Agent Andry Drewer that.

He wants to know who she is and why she’s doing this too.

I have spent the last 3 years ignoring this woman and her harassment, but she has become too big of a problem to ignore her any more… namely in the fact that:

SHE FUCKING TRIED TO KILL ME BY TAMPERING WITH MY FOOD TO PUT SOMETHING I AM ALLERGIC TO IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That… along with her constant endless defamatory smear campaign, and warranting her number one first place of my primary attention now.

My primary focus was on finding my son’s killer. But I am finding it difficult to focus 100% of my attention on finding my son’s killer, when this bitch can’t get her fucking fat ass out of my business.

Every time I turn around, there she is again, no matter I go or what I do, and she is becoming a VERY BIG PROBLEM!

She needs to leave me alone.

I’m not bothering her.

I don’t know why she is bothering me.

I don’t know who she is.

I don’t know how she knows who I am or how she knows where I live or why she keeps showing up in my yard or why she shows up at stores and restaurants and libraries and conventions and every place else I go!

She’s becoming like a fucking shadow, there all the time and I don’t know why.

She just can’t fucking leave me alone and I don’t know why?

What is her funking OCD mega obsession with me?

Who the fuck is she and why the fuck is she bothering me?

What she did at Round 1 during PortCon was the last straw.

I am now removing my focus away from finding my son’s killer, to put all of my focus on finding out what this woman’s motive is and how she is connected to my son’s killer, because clearly she IS connected to my son’s killer. She has made it more than obvious that she is involved with the murder of my son and that means the best way NOW to find my son’s killer is to follow this lead and find out who this woman is and what her fucking problem is.

I apparently live rent free in her head, to such an extent that she has devoted 24/7 of her life to hounding and harassing me, and I want to know why this total stranger has taken such an illogical and unwarranted interest in stalking every move I make.

I am trying to find my son’s murderer and she is doing everything in her power to try to stop me from finding my son’s murderer and I want to know why.

Throughout 2021 and 2022, she showed up in my driveway to yell: “Get that shit off the trunk of your car!” Almost every day. From October 21, 2021 to May 17, 2022…. The shit she was referring to? Here, have a picture of the trunk of my car…

https://www.eelkat.com/images/volvo-art-car-eelkat-Dazzling-Razzbury-3-april-10-2015-never-foreget-fbi3.png

… do you see it?

Yeah… she was harassing me because she wanted me to remove the request for help finding my son’s murderer off my car.

WHO OTHER then the murderer or someone protecting the murderer would want THAT taken off my car?

Tell me THAT!

We had not seen her for a few months after that so e assumed she was gone… but then May 2023 she showed up again whining and bitching about some baby that she claims the baby’s first words were “EelKat” and “Volvo”.... Uhm… really? She’s obsessed with me SO BAD that she talked about me SO MUCH steadily none stop in front of some baby that that baby is now fluent in saying “EelKat’s Volvo” and nothing else… according to her.

Uhm… why do I care what some baby’s first words are? I don’t. I don’t care.

Do you know why I don’t care?

Because my baby is dead. He never got to say first words.

Do you know WHY he never said first words? Because 2 scum bag bitches beat his 8 month old head in with golf clubs… that’s why.

My son is dead and I’m trying to find his killer. And I really don’t care, that you hate me so much that you tught your baby how to say “EelKat’s Volvo”.

You know, normal people teach their babies to say momma or daddy. Normal people don’t spend their days gibbering “EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo,EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo,EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo,... 24/7, like you apparently do, because, a baby’s first word is ALWAYS going to be the word YOU say the most to that baby… yeah.

So, why exactly do you chant the words EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo, EelKat’s Volvo,... all day and all night to such an extent you taught a baby to say those words? What are you some type of Cthulhu cultist trying to summon an Elder God Mother Demon? I wouldn’t be surprised. I mean you DO run up here and screaming “suicide demon” at my car.

What the fuck?

There is the Hand of God aka The Evil Eye Protection Symbol painted on my car and she gets her face in that and starts saying that the Demon is trying to suck her into it!

Good god! What the fuck? Do you have any idea how crazy you are?

And then, now, she’s at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”... uhm… HELLO… it’s YOU… YOU, are the one coming up in my yard harassing me… YOU who just said your mother lives in my building… YOU ARE PORCH BITCH… yeah… YOU. It’s YOU. Are you REALLY getting that drunk that you are unaware that you are harassing me? Is THAT your “insanity plea”?

YOU who was at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”... YOU ARE PORCH BITCH!

YOU who was at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”...YOU ARE THE ONE COMING UP IN THE YARD HARASSING ME!

IT’s YOU!

YOU who was at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”...YOU ARE THE ONE CALLING MY CAR A SUICIDE DEMON!

YOU who was at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”...YOU ARE THE ONE SCREAMING ABOUT TOD MURPHY!

YOU who was at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”...YOU ARE THE ONE WHO SAYS YOUR BABY”S FIRST WORDS WERE EELKAT”S VOLVO!

YOU who was at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”...YOU ARE THE ONE WHO SCREAMS FROM THE PORCH!

YOU who was at Round 1, saying “My mother lives in the same building with EelKat and my mother says there is no one coming up in the yard harassing her”...ITS YOU WHO ARE DOING THESE THINGS!

If you can REALLY honestly say you were UNAWARE that it was YOU, YOURSELF who are doing these things, then, hey, here’s a great idea… maybe you should try… NOT DRINKING!

The bitch only seems to show up when she is drunk out of freaking mind.

Also… trespassing… you do KNOW you are trespassing when you are clinging to my bedroom window sill with your grubby drunk hands, slobbering your hate slurs through the screen at me, right?

You have to stagger your drunk ass 75 feet up the driveway, then squeeze around my car, climb over my car, to stick your face in my bedroom window to slobber out your drunk insanity at me, while lay here in bed… you know bedridden, can’t get out of bed, laying on my back 24/7, in the bed beside the window you are gibbering in…

LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE YOU FREAKING DRUNK LUNATIC!

I’M NOT BOTHERING YOU, SO DAMN FUCKING STOP BOTHERING ME!!!!

I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE OR WHY YOU ARE DOING THIS!

LEAVE ME ALONE!

LEAVE ME ALONE!

LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!

LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!

LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!

LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!

I am days on end, unable to sit up at all, can’t even roll over, let alone stand up… and, there’s not one damned thing I can do to protect myself from this drunk bitch who puts screaming in my bedroom window as her favourite pastime.

Who the fuck is this crazy ass lunatic?

And she reeks of liquor all the time. She smells like a fucking still. She’s one of those scum bags who drinks. You can smell it on her so bad! God! She’s a funking drunk, and I think that’s what half her problem is. It looks like every time she gets drunk she blubbers her drunk ass over here to my driveway to bitch funking lunacy at my car. She needs to stumble her way back to the fucking bar she fell out of and leave me alone!

What kind of a mental problem do you have to have to stalk a person and show up at every place they go to, so you gibber about suicide demons? What the fuck is wrong with her?

What is her motive for not wanting me to find my son’s killer?

What is her incentive for trying to impede the investigation into my son’s murder?

No one who is not involved in the events of August 8, 2013, November 14, 2013, April 10, 2015, May 15, 2015, September 12, 2015, or June 26, 2016… has any motive or incentive to try to hinder the search for my son’s killers.

Only someone involved in my son’s murder would try to stop the murder investigation.

Only someone involved with the killer would try to prevent the killer's identity from being found.

That means she knows who murdered my son and she’s withholding evidence, because no one who does NOT know who the killer was, would go to these extremely bizarre lengths this woman is going through to try to hinder the investigation.

ONLY someone who is protecting the murderer would run around trying to throw a monkey wrench into the works, like she is doing,

ONLY a person who knows who crippled me would go around trying to convince people I am not crippled.

This woman is going out of her way to act very, extremely, incredibly GUILTY of knowing who the murderer is… and that means we now need to find out WHO this woman is and WHAT exactly she knows and WHO she is trying to protect and WHAT she is trying to hide.

I’m trying to find my son’s murderer, and I want this fucking drunk gutter trash scum bag to leave me the fuck alone so I can focus on putting my son’s murderer behind bars.

But, there you go… your question answered.

Follow up Response: No. I am not joking. I am NEVER joking. I am completely incapable of joking. I have Kannar's Syndrome, aka the type of Autism featured in the RainMan movie. Go watch Rainman. I am like that. I am completely incapable of telling jokes, lies, slang, innuendos, or other types of falsehoods. I am also completely incapable of telling when someone is telling to me a joke, lie, slang, innuendo, or other type of falsehood. I do not joke. It is not physically or mentally possible for me to do so. I have Kannar's Syndrome, also known as ACTUAL and REAL Autism, not to be confused with either Aspergers or Autism Spectrum Disorders. I have Autism, not Aspergers. I have Autism, not an Autism Spectrum Disorder. I have real and actual Autism. I am one of only 120k people to ever in the past hundred years be diagnosed with REAl and ACTUAL Autism. Autism, the real and actual type that actually is Autism, is one of the rarest diseases in the world, and should never be confused with Aspergers. Asperger's is also known as High Functioning Autism and 1 in 3 people have it. Aspergers is one of the most common diseases in the world. But Aspergers is not Autism. I have Autism, and therefore, I never joke, I never lie, I'm not physically capable of doing either.

LEAVE ME ALONE!

LEAVE ME ALONE!

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LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!

Follow up response

No. I don't know who we was looking for at PortCon. All I know is the same drug dealer who murdered my family, a fetynol drug dealer from Connecticut, who has been trafficking drugs into Maine via Biddeford and Old Orchard Beach, was supposed to be at PortCon trying to sell drugs to the kids, and porch bitch and her 7 friends fucked up arresting them BIG TIME... but... yes... you are right... I had never considered that Porch Bitch and her 7 friends might in fact have been the drug dealers we were waiting for.

But yeah... they came in right behind us... they followed up out of the PortCon Game Room at he Main Mall, into Round 1, and hung around the arcades for a couple minutes, then about 5 minutes later me and Ben sat down, and sudden Porch Bitch and her 7 friend surrounded us... they filled up every table around us so we were completely cut off and trapped by them. One of them was the guy who ran the Smash Bros tournament. He was with the green haired girl in the table behind us.

I don’t know anything about the drug dealers or the gang from Connecticut, so I wouldn’t recognize any of them.

All I’m interested in is finding the two women who murdered my son and left me crippled on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College.

To this day I still don’t know why they attacked me. They never stole anything. It appeared to be just some random mugging, but then one of them used the name of my father’s old girlfriend Claire (pretending to be Loe’s wife Claire even though Claire died over a decade ago) and the other one was using some “Kendra Silvermander” name. The Claire woman is the one I’m looking for. She’s the one who murdered my son.

Like I said, had it not been for the fact she identified herself as my father’s old girlfriend, the attack would have seemed totally random. But the police think too, that the attackers thought they were attacking my mother. You see, I didn’t even know about my father’s Claire girlfriend before the attack… she was someone my father was with BEFORE my parents were even married, almost twenty years before I was even born.

Police think the attacker was targeting my mother, not me, and that’s why they were pretending to be some woman my mother knew forty years ago. But then my mother’s older brother’s will surfaced at the same time and so we know he was the one who hired the attackers. But then, his younger brother had some connection with a cocaine and heroin drug gang in Connecticut. I DO remember the drug gang. They are the ones who showed up in Old Orchard Beach in 1982, They called themselves “The Cyr Clan'' back then and were led by this little fat guy named Bryan Cyr who drove a robin egg blue Datsun pickup truck and had a sister named Anne who drove a yellow Oldsmobile hatchback. They arrived with 70+ people and had a big shoot out with the Atwater Clan (aka my Uncles Bruce and David and their crew). The only thing I remember was they shoot the eye out of the head of the kid sitting beside me at the picnic, they invaded, an then they set fire to the big yellow dome house that used to sit at 860 Portland Ave, which was renumbered and is now today 142 Portland Ave Old orchard Beach, where the Morin’s live now.

ALL the cars they had with them had Connecticut plates… I had written them all down… state police took my licence plate notebook and never returned it. I was just learning the alphabet and numbers, and our kindergarten teacher, Mrs Bureau, had told us to practise by writing down the letters and numbers of every licence plate we saw. Old Orchard Beach is a tourist town, and at the time got over two million tourists every weekend, so me and my cousins used to sit on the lawn writing plate numbers… so we had almost every single plate number off every single Connecticut car that the Cyr Clan had, and the state police took all of us kids’ notebooks, because we had big stacks of composition notebooks that were full of just hundreds and hundreds of pages of car licence plates, including all the plate numbers of every single car the Cyr Clan had that day of the shootout.

The police think that the November 14, 2013 attack that killed my son and left me crippled, could be related to the fact that I was one of the kindergarten kids from Mrs Bureau's class who had written those notebooks… there were 32 kids in her class and the state police took every notebook from all thirty two kids. The police came to the Jameson School and took all our notebooks for everything.

The police and FBI are currently focused on the drug gang. They say its the exact same drug gang from the 1982 shoot out, and that it’s the kids, grandkids, and great grand kids of the 1982 shooters who run the gang now.

Finding my son’s killer is an afterthought on the part of the police and FBI, all their focus is on locating who is trafficking fetanoyl into Biddeford and Old Orchard Beach from Connecticut. I don’t care about any of that. I’ve no interest in the drug dealers or what they are doing. All I care about is locating he Claire woman who murdered my son and crippled me.

It’s been 9 years, almost 10 years since my son was murdered and its taken me that long to relearn to walk again. I just want these two women put in prison where they belong.

As soon as the Claire and Kendra women who attacked me November 14, 2013 are in prison, I’m out of this. That’s all I’m involved for. Those two women murdered my son and left me crippled and I want them to have life in prison. As so as those two women have got life in prison, the police and FBI get no more help from me, because finding my son’s killers is my only goal.

Update: July 1, 2023

Did you know that if you are in the witness protection program and the FBI puts you in a specific apartment building because they want you in a specific location, and a small minded, nosy ass, harassing, gossiping, busy body moves into the building and starts harassing you, and does so for several months, then reaches the point of stalking you to PortCon, and seriously flubs up the arrest of your family's murderer, which your family being murdered is WHY you got put in the witness protection program and WHY the FBI placed your family in the building they put you in... and while you are being a shit head in Round 1 loudly broadcasting classified information about the witnesses being protected by the witness protection program, you happen to also announce that your mother lives in the witness protect building and is why you have the right to be a shit head on her porch... do you know that the FBI and the witness protection program will evict your mother out of the building 2 days later?

Huh... I did not know that... but yeah... porch bitch just got her mother evicted out of our building, evicted by the FBI who are very pissed that their family was impeding the FBI investigation into the murder of my family.

So from now on if porch bitch shows up she can be arrested by the local police because the FBI kicked her mother out of our building so that porch bitch would no longer have an excuse to be in our driveway yelling at me and my car.

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Update: July 6, 2023

I'm getting messages about Atwaters flipping out over the RainMan movie post I mentioned the other day. I don't know what they are talking about, but they seem to have movies mixed up or something.

I'm sorry, no... I don't think they have a clue what the RainMan movie is... they SERIOUSLY are mixing it up with something else, I don't know what... this is the RainMan movie... THIS is REAL and ACTUAL Autism, not to be confused with Aspergers which has no medical connection to Autism whatsoever... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DH6S0wKKGBM

THIS is what I have, and the Atwaters'd know that, had they ever met me in person and talked to me face to face because THIS is also EXACTLY how I talk and act... don't be fooled by the fact that I can think and type, because thinking and typing does NOT translate into how I act or talk...

THIS is REAL AND ACTUAL Autism https://youtu.be/G4Hwsz1sQmc

THIS is what I have, and they'd know that, had they ever met me in person and talked to me face to face because THIS is also EXACTLY how I talk and act... don't be fooled by the fact that I can think and type, because thinking and typing does NOT translate into how I act or talk.

And THIS is why no one can say nothing or do nothing near me, because I REMEMBER EVERYTHING word for word, line for line... even without the camera running 24/7... THIS is REAL and ACTUAL Autism, not to be confused with Aspergers which has no medical connection to Autism whatsoever... https://youtu.be/gN2ZP-q_qpc

THIS is what I have, THIS is how I talk and act and what I do... THIS is why I can not go out in public without a caretaker with me https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ioMspoSNgmw

the fact that these people who are gossiping about me and spreading rumours about me, do not know that THIS is what I am like, just proves even more that these people don't actually know me... which yet again, leads me to ask, what is their motive? Also who are they? I don't know a single one of these people... yes the Atwaters are relatives, but they are not people I ever met before, other then the group of 400+ of them that attack my farm every year on September 19th because that day means something to them, for some reason... they show up with assault rifles and shoot up every house on my street, beat people up, rape all my female neighbours -the most recent rape gang attack happened at my 27 High Street Biddeford apartment February 2019, when they also did $230k in damages to the building, totaled my Volvo (which I since had rebuilt and is now back on the road), sent 7 people to the hospital, annd left 27 families homeless due to the apartment building being condemned because of the damages. , and I've no clue who they are except they call themselves "The Davids and Lucys and Halls" they claim to be my uncle David's kids and grandkids,, but I have no way to confirm if they are who they say they are ot not. They are always led by a blond woman named Yvonne and her blond brother Shem, at least that's the names they say for themselves. But those are the only Atwaters I know and the Old Orchard Beach Police are scared shitless of them. I know this because every year when the Atwaters arrive we call the police, the police send 10 or 12 officers over, then the police throw their hands up in the air, say they do not have either the man power or weapon resources to deal with it and leave.

Old Orchard Beach Police Officer Will Watson, said during the 1996 Atwater attack on my farm: "You don't understand, these people form a small army, we are not equipped to deal with a situation like this; the state police aren't even equipped to deal with this. You don't need to police, you need the coast guards, or the marines, call the justice department, maybe they can pool their resources and get enough people here to help, but I doubt it; The Scottish Traveller Crime Family is four hundred people strong, there aren't even that many police officers in the entire state of Maine, there's nothing we can do, our hands are tied, there's just too many of them"

THOSE are the pepole who are right now contacting my followers on FaceBook, right now running around offline locally in Biddeford... THOSE people, are the Atwaters who are doing this weird thing of making strange claims of things I've said or done, things that I'm not physically able too say or do at all. But why? What is their motive? I don't know. I do know that Davd himself sent me a hand written letter in the mail, stating he and his crew are angry that I sent the FBI to their compound in Paylyra, Maine... but the thing is, I DIDD NOT send the FBI over there and I don't know what my Uncle David is even talking about.

The FBI has been here too. A LOT. Six different FBI agents have been to the Biddeford apartment more then a dozen times each just since 2021, and it's usually to ask questions about some bomb that they said they found at the White House in Washington DC. They keep showing me pictures of it and asking if it looks like the bomb that blew up my house October 16, 2006. It does not. The bomb that blew up my house was a yellow grease fryer with brough corn cobs painted all over it, and the bombs in the pictures the FBI keep bring over are like long silver metal sewer pipes. They don't look the same at all. But the agents said they have evidence they were made by the same person. Well, in March 2017 the FBI arrested my uncle Paul Martal for the bomb that blew up my house, and also the bomb that blew up my doctor's clinic on Saco Ave in February 2003, and 4 more bombs in Boston March 2013. Apparently my uncle Paul Martel built a lot of bombs over a lot of years and the one that blew up my house in 2006 was one of his early test bombs... but anyways, the FBI agents who been coming over the past few months said they had video footage of my uncle David's wife, sister, and 23 of his grandkids in Washington D.C. on January 6, 2021, they said they had stolen some woman's speaking pulpit, Nancy something, I think her last name began with a P? They said one of my cousins (they called her Yvonne, but I don't know any cousin named Yvonne... I have more then six hundred first cousins and more then two thousand second and third cousins (most of my Atwater relatives are FLDS polygamists with 5 to 15 wives each, so they father a LOT of kids) but I've only met ten of my cousins (Uncle Brucies 6 kids and Aunt Barbara's 4 kids)and so, there are six hundred cousins whom I have never met before, so I could have a dozen or more cousins named Yvonne and not know it!) and her son took it to Florida and that her son went to prison, and they are looking for the rest of David's crew who helped him steal the Nancy's woman's pulpit. They said the bomb they showed me pictures of was in her office and they think it was my uncle David's 23 grandkids who were down there who did it.

This is all confusing to me because the FBI was saying super crazy shit like that Donald Trump was president, which made me question if they were real FBI agents, but nope apparently Donald Trump really was president! How crazy is that? I don't have a TV or read newspapers so I don't know about politic shit. Politics is dull boring crap because it is jus nothing but people fighting with each other over stupid stuff that isn't important, while people are being hurt and no politician ever does a damned thing to help people, so, I don't know who the Nancy woman was, but apparently she worked for President Trump or something. It's just all too confusing for me and I zoned out and didn't listen to half of it, so I don't know what exactly it is that my uncle David's crew did down in Washington DC January 6, 2021, but whatever it is, it involved stealing some Nacy woman's pulpit and a pipe bomb, and the FBI agents were here for a good 5 hours asking me tons of questions about it and I had no clue what the fuck they was talking about. It was all very weird.

But, anyways, The FBI started showing up asking all sort of questions about David's crew on January 15, 2021, and I know nothing about David's group at all, so I had no answers to any of the FBI's questions other then "I don't know", "I don't know", "I don't know", "I don't know", "I don't know", "I don't know", and a lot more "I don't know".

February 14, 2021 I get a handwritten letter in the mail from David himself, all upset because he claims I sent the FBI to the compound in Palmyra/Bangor, Maine. I haven't got a clue what he is even talking about. I didn't send the FBI anywhere, I didn't even know David was in Maine at all, last I knew he was in Wyomin!

Then October 21, 2021, FBI agents show up again. There was a Fed Ex truck parked in front of our Biddeford apartment. It had been their a few weeks, broken down, taking up 3 parking spaces in front of the front porch. Never thought anything of it, figured Fed ex driver would be back to have it towed, but it sat their from Sept 2021 to November 2021... well, on October 21, 2021, I was out in my driveway repainting my Volvo, parked beside the Fed Ex truck, when the back door rolls open and four FBI agents climb out, and tell me, that they suspect a relative of my son's murderer (he was murdered November 14, 2013) had just moved into our building and that's why they had set up surveillance in the supposedly broken down Fed Ex truck. They ask me, can I hold off on painting the mural on my car, and can I instead, pull my car up into the back yard where it can not be seen from the road, where it can only be seen from 7 windows of the 3 upstairs apartments in our building. Then they give me a message to paint on the roof, hood, and trunk of my car... the one which detailed info about the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, but with the date of the April 10, 2015 attack on my farm, ending with a request for witnesses to call the FBI hotline phone number.

They then pointed out several other trucks parked in the area, on Cutts St, Harvey, Bradberry, Western Ave, and said there were agents in every one of them and if I needed to, I could walk up to any one of those trucks and ask for help or hand them info.

Within 10 hours Porch bitch showed up for the first time.

The next day a homeless man showed up, claiming his mother often bragged to having crippled me at the college... 2 weeks later he showed up dead on the train tracks behind our apartment building, and every day from November 21, 2021 to May 17, 2022 porch bitch showed up chanting his name.

September 19, 2021 was the BIGGEST and MOST DESTRUCTIVE attack to ever hit my Old Orchard Beach Farm... FBI asked me to mention NONE of the details online, so, no details have been released to the public at all.

What info was allowed to be made public, was that, all the 50foot tall cedar hedge trees across the front of my land were cut down, the infamous backhoe from 2013 returned, cut a road through my yard, attacked BOTH my neighbors to either side of me by digging up BOTH their septic tanks and cutting off their water supply from the city water, and made a MASSIVE attempt to locate my murdered son's grave by digging up ALL THREE of our yards... mine at 146, and both my neighbors at 144 and 148.

They made a monumentally HUGE attempt to find and destroy my murdered son's grave.

Why?

While it is known who owns the backhoe, he claims, same as he did in 2013 when it drove over my house, that it was stolen... many, many, many MILLIONS in damages were done to the 3 properties attacked, dozens of graves, some of them Native American from the 1600s's were dug up... and... MANY MILLIONS in heroin were shoved under my big pink motorhome, in an attempt to frame me for being in possession of fentanyl.

And... a member of my family was murdered....who, has not yet been released... nor has how they died been released.

THAT, is the ONLY info that has been allowed to be released to the public... but that info is only a tiny fraction of what was done during the September 19, 2021 attack on my farm on Portland Ave.

The FBI has put my uncle David's family, specifically his grandchildren, as their #1 suspects in this 2021 attack.

And the huge slander smear campaign on Twitter, FaceBook, and spread across more then 300 user accounts on Reddit, started November 21, 2021, and the FBI believes that porch bitch is the scape goat for David's grandkids...

...the FBI pointed out that the shoot out with the Connecticut drug gang in 1982, that happened on my farm, was between David, Brucie, and the drg gang. The FBI believes this whole thing has something to do with something the Atwaters did with the Connecticut drug gang back in 1968, BEFORE I WAS EVEN BORN!!!

The FBI also said they believe that David's grandkids are the ones behind the weird slander defamation smear campaign going on online, slandering my name everywhere, because according to the FBI the dead guy from 2021, went to church with one of Ben's friends who is one of David's grandkids friends.

And I'm just sitting here confused out of my mind, because I've never had anything to do with David, his relatives, any drug dealers, or any of this other stuff, and I can't figure out why they are trying to drag me into it... but, the FBI says that David somehow got it into his head that I was the one who "ratted him out" (what the fuck? ratted him out for what? what does that even mean?) but the FBI says they think it was ACTUALLY David's sister Barbara who ratted him out, but that she did it using my name so that she wouldn't take the blame for ratting him out.

And when I asked why the heck would she use MY name? The FBI said, they think she picked me because of my Autism. They said, that she spends an inordinate amount of time at local karaoke bars, spreading huge amounts of lies and gossip about me, with her girlfriend "crackhead Cammilla" (whoever the hell that is) and that, she's been dong it in bars around Old Orchard, Biddeford, and Kennebunk, Maine for well over fifteen years now!... they said she started doing it around the same time her husband Paul Martel blew up my house with a bomb, and they suspect that she started doing it, to try to take attention away from her husband (who is now in prison for building said bomb)... the FBI said they have a lot of surveillance footage of her calling me "a worthless brain dead retard" and stating that no one would miss me if I was gone. The FBI said she was unaware that I was in 2 Stephen King movies (which I'm not... but people are saying I am because of that illegal guerilla filming method of how Stephen King movies were filmed) and had written a bestselling novel that had sold ten million copies, so she was unaware how famous I was or that, by trying to pin the drug stuff on me, that they would end up making it VERY EASY to track everyone involved, simple because I was so VERY famous online.

They said The Atwaters were unaware of how famous I was, until in 2021, when a bunch of Stephen King fans who live in York County, Maine, made an issue about the fact that I, The Gypsy witch from The Thinner movie, was being harassed big time... and it was at that point that David's grandkids realized they had not only opened a can of worms, they had stomped on a fucking hornet's nest of angry Stephen King fans.

They said Stephen King fans quickly recognized that I was the severely retarded mute autistic girl whom Stephen King wrote DOZENS of stories about (did he? I don't know; I've never read a Stephen King book or watched a Stephen King movie... he's just one of my neighbours, I don't know anything about his work; I don't understand why is Stephen King so obsessed with me and my Gypsy family and my supposedly haunted car, that isn't haunted but no one ever listens to me, because they all say Stephen King told them it was haunted... and now, the FBI agents are saying he has made over a dozen books and movies about retarded mute autistic girls who are all based off of me! What the hell? Why is he doing this?

I don't like that Stephen King uses me as the basis of his characters, I don't like it at all; I never gave him permission to write about me, he never had permission to film Thinner on my farm either, I'm still mad about that too.... but now they are telling me that he is just super obsessed with my severe levels of Autism and that he has been obsessively writing weird ass horror shit that brands me as some kind of crazed mute psychopath with demon powers because I have Autism?

What the fuck? It never ends with Stephen King does it?! He just finds one way to slander and defame me after another and I'm so sick of it. Who the hell is this guy that he thinks he can get away with this stuff? You know what the FBI said... they said that EVERY major big time violent attack on me, my cars, my family, my farm... EVERY ONE OF THEM... coincides with the release date of a Stephen King book.

The FBI thinks Stephen King has some psycho fan who knows Stephen King is basing stuff off my life and is deliberately harassing my family JUST TO SEE how long it takes Stephen King to publish a book about what the harasser did to my family this time!

What the fuck!

You know writing books about my Autism and branding me as demon powered because of my autism is ablest shit, harassing a disabled person, right?

The FBI said that was why they sealed up all the police reports and got everything listed as classified, because they said they don't want Stephen King reading any more news reports about the harassment of my family and profiting off the murders and trauma ad suffering my family is going through any more! ).... and that Stephen King fans were outraged that some with low functioning Autism, that was so severely disabling as my Autism is, were outraged, that I was being harassed on mega extreme levels.

The FBI said once Stephen King's fans realized who I was and what was going on, that the FBI hotline has been FLOODED with calls coming in from ALL OVER THE PLANET... tens of thousands of calls each month... which have lead to DOZENS of arrests of a LOT of people connected to this Connecticut drug gang.

And they said THIS is why David believes I ratted him out... even though I did not. They said so many Stephen King fans have been calling the FBI phone number on my car and FaceBook and website, that they were able to gather up a LOT of evidence against a LOT of Atwaters... and that is why the Atwaters have gone mega hyper smear campaign, because the Atwaters believe it was ME who called the FBI..

...but the fact remains, as always... I am looking for the murderer of my son, and I have no interest in the Atwaters or their drug dealing hoodlum friends. I just want to know who murdered my son, that's the reason the FBI hotline number is there.

But... apparently, the Atwaters thought the FBI phone number was there to turn them in... which is weird, because it clearly states if you have information about the murder of my son... why would the Atwaters think it was about them, unless they were the ones who murdered my son?

I am just baffled and confused by the people around Biddeford and Old Orchard who tell me in person and the people online on FaceBook and Twitter who tell me online, that they are being contacted by Atwaters telling them things I supposedly said or did, and it's never anything I am even capable of saying or doing, but besides that who are these Atwaters who are doing this, why are they ding it, why do they think I should know them when I don't know the Atwaters at all, and why do they think they know me, and where are they sourcing this freaked out weird ass info they claim is about me, but it isn't about me, and why are they attributing it to me? It just seems like they have me mixed up with someone else, especially since they are saying they get emails from me but I don't use email, I never have, I don't even know how to use email, so I looks like someone is pretending to be me to get them worked up, but who or why, I don't know... but also whoever it is seems to be unaware I have Autism, seems to be just as unaware of my Autism as the Atwaters also clearly are unaware.

This whole thing is all just so very strange and I don't understand any of it. They are so disruptive of my life, and I can't figure out what the motive behind any of it is.

It's very frustrating not knowing who these people are or why they are doing the stuff they are doing.

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Update July 8, 2023

The Atwaters of the Sandford Ward are having themselves a rip old rip roar... I blocked them everywhere and they are mega pissed... but... they want to know why, and... here's why: Uhm... no... you see, I actually WAS aware what he was doing... I found out about it during PortCon 2022... he thought I was in the bathroom, and was having a good old yip yap laugh session with Steve Shaw and Rich Arsonal and, uhm... oh look... granny PROVENTIA... yeah... oh yeah... I've known about grand mommy Proventa for well over a year now... but hey guess what... I also knew, they's do it AGAIN at PortCon 2023, and hey look, I got them on camera and her mommy and daddy are lucky they are just being evicted and not being tossed into jail, because I COULD press attempted murder charges on them and their entire fucking family over what they did at Round 1 last month.... I hate the High Priest, I really do... and the fact remains, in November 2021, these people gunned down Etiole, and I'm more pissed about THAT then I am the 2013 murder of my son... NO ONE gets between me and Etiole and thinks I'm not going to do something about it.... yes, I DID block the High Priest... have fun getting getting your doctored information from him NOW grandmommy Proventa. Have I ever mentioned I HATE the High Priest? I think I have.... tell the High Priest, there's a little silver dollar from WalMart parking lot that he should have taken a damn better look at what it said on it, and WHO gave it to me... we Gypsies have a code, that none Gypsies can't read, we can get messages to each other, and Americans don't see them... you know who's more pissed then me? Etiole. Etiole put that coin on Ben's car... Etiole's mega pissed, he's been pissed for a while, but that gang of hoodlums from the Sandford ward LDS Church, hunted him down and shot him for no damned reason, and he's not happy about that. No one bit. And I'll take his side, before I take anyone elses....

these locals shot him calling him a suicide demon... they believe he is a demon... but Etiole, he truly does believe himself to be the avenging archangel of the Old Testament... whether or not he is what he claims to be, I do not debate... I can neither prove nor disprove his claim to be one of the Watchers from the Bible and I'm not going to try... he's an elderly man who lives in the forests and keeps to himself and I've taken care of him since 1978.... unlike the locals who call him a demon, I do not judge him for his appearance... he is my friend, he's the only friend I've ever had, and I value that friendship. He's not bothering anyone, these people had no reason to hurt him...

EVERYTHING Etiole has ever predicted has ALWAYS come to pass... I can not explain that and I do not try... is he NOT a Human as so many locals say? I have no reason to think he i anything other then what he looks like: an old man in his 90s; is he an archangel like he himself claims to be? He's certainty done things that defy logic and can not be explained, but I also have no education and know nothing of science, and I would assume there is science that could explain the things he does... in either case, you saw the coin when it showed up, I was livestreaming on Twitch a shopping vlog at WalMart March 2022.... here's that coin again, for those who forgot what it said on it

Here's the coin Etiole left on Ben's car. The avenging archangel from the Bible, evicting Adam and Eve. Here's the coin... Ben didn't read it, when Etiole put it on Ben's car ... it's the avenging archangel of the Bible evicting Adam and Eve for their transgressions

and YES... that IS the Watcher angel wings that are painted on the door o my car... I always paint those wings beside pictures I paint of Etiole, because there ARE six horrifying scars on his back, that DO look like he once had three pairs of wings that were brutally cut off, and those blue Wtcher wings, with eyes and feathers are what Etiole says his wings looked like... those wings are described in the Bible, and that is why they are also on the back of this cpoin... the wings of The Watchers, The Seraphim, The Guardian Angels, The Nephilim, The Grigori Archangels, which is what Etiole claims he is.

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No. Not Catholic; Voodoo. Folk Catholicism is a form of New Orleans Voodoo. Etiole is High Houngan (a very high ranked Voodoo Priest) . Coins are used in spell casting, curses, gris-gris, poppets (voodoo dolls). Coin familiar magic is pivotal to how Voodoo works, because people naturally pick up a coin when they see it and if the coin was coated in goofer dust they also picked up the curse that was attached to the coin. The track the dust into their home, other members of their family get the dust of them, the curse spreads to other people. We are Gypsies this is what we do. And I am the Gypsy Queen of the Scottish Gypsies of New England, yes, the Gypsy Witch from Stephen King's the Thinner, not the actress in the movie, the REAL Gypsy witch she was pretending to be, thus why Stephen King filmed Thinner on my farm. Tip, for future reference: never piss off a Gypsy, especially not one who is a high ranking Mamo, which I am, we'll curse your whole fucking family for seven generations.

Who is grandmommy Provintia? Ask my uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater's family (Doris, Danny, Angela, Amber, Adam, Autumn, or Bonny) to tell you the story of the Mormon Bishop who told them to fuck off because they had to choose between paying their tithing to the church or paying their rent, and they paid their tithing and got evicted, so the Bishop gave them a green Buddha Statue... THAT was done by Bishop Provinta and his first and second counselours, let's see who were THEY again? Oh yeah, Steve Shaw and Rich Arsonal... and WHO does the FBI have as the NUMBER ONE suspect of hiring the golf club bitch who murdered my baby November 14, 2013... uhm... let's see... oh yeah, that'd be Rick Arsonal again... the FBI said he was pissed to learn I was pregnant and that Ben was the father, because at the time Ben was paying Rick $3k a month to fund some get rich quick scam and Ben was going to stop paying Rick $3k a month to start building a house in Old Orchard for his son, my baby, the one that was murderered... the Rick was also in my yard on April 10, 2015, the day the rest of my family was murdered... so, yeah, the fact that THAT particular Bishop whose family has a FOUR DECADE HISTORY of harassing Atwaters turned out to be the grandparents of porch bitch.... yeah... LOTS of red flags... and the thing is, Ben KNEW it was them, he's KNOWN it was them right along, right since day one on October 21, 2021... I did not know that then, nor did I know that the REASON the FBI survalance was here is because they were watching BEN and his interactions with neighbours to see WHO he was chummy with and see if they had a connection to the Sandford Ward suspects in my son's murder, because guess what, according to the FBI, Ben never wanted a son, thought fathering a baby made him less of a man in God's eyes, and it''s Ben, the baby's own father, whom the FBI thinks is behind ALL of it... especially giving that he is very vocal in the Sanfard Ward at saying he's not married (we've been married since August 13, 1987, yeah check my age on THAT date, he can go to prison for that alone, that's why he bends over backwards to deny he has a wife)... but Ben has been VERY vocal about not being the baby's father as well... the FBI showed up June 12, 2016, and asked me to do something: carry a camera on me that runs 24/7 with one goal: TO RECORD EVERYTHING BEN SAYS AND DOES, because the FBI is gathering evidence against BEN, the baby's father...and EVERYONE who was connected to him via the Sanford Ward LDS Church between the murders of November 14, 2013 and April 10, 2015... because they don't think Ben actually PLANNED the murders, but they think he talked about wishing I wasn't in his life, and wishing I wasn't pregnent, and they think Rick Arsonal was pivotal in spreading that wish and got it to someone who actually carried it out, crippling me for the rest of my life and murdering my baby... and the FBI also thinks Ben KNOWS this and KNOWS who did it, and that the REASON he's spent SINCE 2015 running around lying about me, my health, my murdered baby, his being the father, his being married... is this: The FBI believes that Ben and Rick Arsonal are having a gay relationship and are hiding it from the Mormon church, and THAT is why they think Rick Arsonal hired the golf club bitch who killed my baby and almost killed me... and the FBI has a LOT of paperwork to back that beliefe up... so, yeah, finding out that porch bitch and her crew are Bishop Provintia's family... that... that's not good, and that means the FBI was right back in October 2021 when they said they suspected someone in our building was connected to the murder of my son. Yeah... so that's why I block him and all his fucking daned Sanford ward friend, because its starting to look like the FBI is right, he DOES care more about Rick then he does his own wife and son.

And you know what? That explains so much. The Saco and Sandford Wards, they say that they were told by Ben, my mother, and my father... that I had left the Mormon church!! What the fuck? My son had been murdered and I was paralized... I couldn't move for 5 months... couldn't sit up, couldn't stand up... Ben had to hand feed me with a spoon... I couldn't even eat on my own.... at the time that happened, I had more then 500 head of poultry, my farm was a working eggs farm, we were one of the largest commercial suppliers of eggs in the state of Maine! I had to shut the egg business down in February 2014, because, I couldn't find anyone to feed the hens for me while I was paralized in the hospital for 5 months, and then 18 months relearning to walk, nd then another month in a wheelchair and then over a year on crutches, and then 9 years going back and forth between a walker and a cane, that I am still using right now!

I had to sell my chickens and roosters, who were named pets, more then five hundred of them, because I didn't have one single person to feed them while I was NINE FUCKING YEARS in physical theropy relarning to walk, after a bitch with a golf club severed my spine!

Not one relative, not one person from church, NO ONE came to the hospital to visit me, no one came to my yard to visit me.... and guess what, a backhoe drove over my house a couple of weeks before all this happened, so not only was I crippled and bedridden but I was crippled and bedridden OUTSIDE, in the snow and rain, under a 6x9' TARP with no protection from the weather... HOMELESS and CRIPPLED... and these entire nine years almost ten years now of relearning to walk, I couldn't figure out why no one from my church ever cared that I was injured and needed help... and NOW I'm finding out that the REASON they never helped me, was because Ben and my mother and my father went to the church members and the Atwater relatives and LIED TO THEM telling them I had left the Mormon Church, and NEVER ONCE told anyone in my church or my relatives how badly I was injured, how badly I was crippled, that a fucking backhoe had driven over my house, that my father cut off half my land and sold it to his cousin Colliard, that my baby was murdered... that's why no one came to his funeral... did you know that? The REASON these people who keep trying to dig up his grave, the REASON they can't find his grave, is because no one but me knows where my son is buried, because NO ONE... not one single person, not even Ben, the baby's own father... not one single person came to his funeral... and now I'm finding out that the REASON no one came to his funeral is because his own father, Ben, LIED to every one at church, and so they never even knew I had a son or that he was dead or that I was so horrifically crippled or that a backhoe had driven over my house, so now I was homeless, plus everything I owned was in the house so all my clothes and furntaure and books and my huge Uncle Scrooge comic book collection... they're all in a landfill somewhere because not only did the bacckhoe drive over my house, but they clear cut my land, all the plants, trees, flowers, top soil, everything right down to the bare ledge, including the house and everything in the house was all loaded up into a bug green dumptruck that that has a silver and black stripe nose.

And my church, The Saco and Sanford Wards of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, never once helped me... a church I attended 3 days a week, for forty-seven YEARS, NEVER missed a meeting, not once. I paid tithing and temple fund and drove out to Cape Elethabeth church's kitchen every week to spend 12+ hours baking pies and cakes and casserole for the Missionaries to give to the homeless in Portland... I did that for forty-seven years... and those people who devoted four decades of my life to, turned their backs on me and shunned me when I bacame crippled, when my son was murdered, when a backhoe drove over our house... things that all happened the same damned fucking day!

And NOW... now that I am just finally after TEN YEARS finally starting to walk again... now I'm finding out that Ben and the Sanford Ward and Saco Ward congregations were the one who DID IT and they've spent the past ten years of my recovery, running a massive smear campaing to tarnish my reputation, because they knew I was recovering and sooner or later, I'd be back.

What the fuck!

They're a bunch of fucking shit head dicks every single one of them!

Update: July 13, 2023:

Ben has had an absolute, total psychotic breakdown over Mickey's death and I don't know what to do about it.

Ben is having a hard time. He hasn't buried Mickey yet. I tried to bury Mickey 2 days ago and Ben won't let me. We already had a coffin made and a cemetery plot arrangement, but Ben has full stop refused to allow me to bury Mickey. (Mickey is my Llasha Apso, who died after several months of struggling to stay alive after porch bitch poisoned him March 20th, 2023).

Ben put Mickey in a box. Spent 2 days digging a hole (something that normally takes less then an hour to do). Then refused to bury him and took Mickey back to his house. Ben has Mickey with my 1964 Dodge 330 right now. Ben is one of the people who believes that car is haunted, Ben believes Etiole is a demon, so Ben also thinks Etiole is an invisible entity living in the car still. (He elderly homeless man people call Etiole is in Old Orchard, I have someone there taking care of him, Ben refuses to believe that. Next month is Ben and I's 38th anniversary and Ben has never acknowledged that Etiole is a person and has been one of the biggest spreaders of the rumor that Etiole is a demon.) But Ben has got it I'm his head Etiole is a demon and can heal/raise dead, soooo… yeah. That's going on.

Ben has been taking Mickey for car rides.

Mickey died 4 days ago.

Ben has been driving around Biddeford and Old Orchard for the last 3 days, with Mickey, dead, taking Mickey for a car ride, for the past 3 days.

I repeat, Mickey died 4 days ago…and Ben has spent the last 3 days taking my dead dog for car rides and I can't get him to stop so that I can bury my dead dog!

Ben has both schizophrenia (he sees and hears aliens and demons, has both audio and visual hallucinations about them) and D.I.D. (there are at least 7 different people living in him, that we know of, the high priest being one of them, none of the 7 have any knowledge or memory of the existence of any of the other 6) which makes Ben interesting to say the least, but his delusional belief in aliens and demons is out of control even on a good day, and right now it's hyper mega over the top extremely out of control like I've never seen it before and I don't know what to do about it.

Ben knew Mickey was getting bad off. Vet had said Mickey wasn't doing good back in March and again in May. Mickey had been going in to vet a lot and having lots of tests done ever since porch bitch was squatted in my parking spot with her silver Lincoln last 2 weeks of March.

We knew Mickey wasn't going to live much longer. And the vet was giving us tons of medicine. Mickey had 15 different pills he had to take every day, some of them he had to take 2, 3, or 4 times a day each one. Plus he was on an IV that he had to have for an hour each day. I was basically doing hospice care since porch bitch poisoned Mickey March 20.

Mickey lost use of his hind legs in May. Hadn't been able to take him for walks any more, so we were going for walks and Ben was carrying Mickey and putting him down at posts so he could pee on them, then carrying him to the next post. Ben was acting as a wheel chair for Mickey because he couldn't walk any more. That has been going on for over 2 months now.

My brother, J2, had started carrying Mickey around the house the past few weeks because Mickey couldn't walk anymore.

J2 was helping me with the IV because I needed someone to hold it up several feet, while I held Mickey down so he didn't pull the needle out.

Mickey was having a really hard time to even stand up for the past several weeks. Ben was talking about getting him one of those wheelcarts. I had made a bum sling for him, so I could hold his bum up and he could walk around beside me using just his front legs. He had been scooting around the house on his bum, and lost all the fur on his back legs because of it. He had to have bum powder and bum spray and preparation h cream every day on his bum to keep it from getting sore

J2 was carrying him around all day. So he had Mickey up on his shoulder while he was cooking and playing videos. Mickey was staying with J2 almost all day for past several weeks because he couldn't walk and J2 had just started carrying him all day.

When we went to vet Monday I told Ben before we left I didn't think Mickey was going to make it through the night. I didn't even know if he'd live long enough to get to the vet. Ben didn't believe me. When we got to the vet, we walked in, I was carrying Mickey. Girl at the front desk took one look at Mickey and grabbed him and ran out back with him and yelled for one of the other girls to check us in and then send us out back. She was waiting on someone else and left him standing there. Ben was shocked and asked why she did that, I think Ben was in complete denial about how bad off Mickey was. Everyone in office could see Mickey was almost comatose. He couldn't even hold his head up. He was just flopping around limp and Ben acted like he didn't notice.

There was only 1 vet there and she was in with another patient and she left them and immediately came and started doing emergency blood work on Mickey. She said he probably wouldn't live to end of week, because it looked like he was going into septic shock. And whole time Ben was acting like we was at a routine check up and was acting like there was nothing wrong with Mickey at all. When we got home Ben went off laughing and joking with daddy and was talking about how we was going to take Mickey to Acadia soon as heat wave ended. Mickey lost consciousness in car on way home, he never woke up after we got home, and he died about 3 hours later. And Ben had an absolute meltdown when Mickey died, and spent over an hour doing cpr on him trying to wake him back up.

Ben can't stop crying and keeps saying over and over "I want him back" .then he spent 2 whole days digging a hole to bury Mickey and then didn't bury Mickey and instead took Mickey back to his house. He's got Mickey up at his house now. He won't bury him.

Yesterday after we left Old Orchard at one point yesterday, after we got back to Biddeford, he took the box apart, out on the sidewalk in front of the Biddeford Apartment, and took Mickey back out of it. I had to go out there and make him rebuild the box, out there on the sidewalk in front of the apartment last night.

Ben has spent the last 3 days taking Mickey for car rides. Mickey died 4 days ago.

I think Ben is in shock.

I don't think Ben ever saw anyone die before. He got upset over Marcy and Tope too, but it wasn't this bad, but he wasn't with them when they died either and he was this time with Mickey.

I don't know what to do.

Ben is completely off his rocker right now and he won't let me bury my dog.