If Black Lives REALLY Mattered, to the BLM Protesters, they would stop and think about the consequences their actions have...
UPDATE: June 24, 2020: Much sadness, the painting of Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna, one of Vudo's Primary Loas was destroyed by BLM vandals :( , she along with her sister Erzulie Freda are my patron saints.
Much sadness, the painting of Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna, one of Vudo's Primary Loas was destroyed by BLM vandals :( only 2 days after the destruction of Erzulie Freda aka Immaculate Conception, she along with her sister Erzulie Freda are my patron saints.
Erzulie Danta & Erzulie Freda are 2 of the primary Loa of Voodoo.
They are the 2 wives of Damballah Weddo, The One God, The Great Serpent, The Creator of Life.
White slave owners, would not allow black slaves to worship the Loa. Slave owners brought in Catholic Priests and Nuns to convert the slaves. The slaves took the icons, prayer cards, and paintings the priests and nuns gave them, and gave the Loa, "Catholic names"
Thus Damballah Weddo began to be represented by images of Moses carrying a Brass Serpent, and his wives Erzulie Danta & Erzulie Freda began to be represented by The Black Madonna and The Lady of The Immaculate Conception.
All of the Loa, have Catholic Saints and Martyrs to represent them. It was a way for the slaves to trick the Masters into thinking the slaves were converted to Catholicism, when in fact, Voodoo, or Vuvu as it was called in the 1400 to 1700s, stayed strong in their hearts and the mysteries of the Loa stayed alive.
Today Voodoo is a branch of the Catholic church, and while most Christians call us Pagans or Heathens or worse, we are in fact Christian, and branch of Catholicism.
It's why you see me always with a rosary, which I wear like a necklace, much to the horrors of many Catholics, and why I have so many statues of Mary, Jesus, and the Saints all over my room and my car, and why I have crosses and crucifixes all over my walls, and why I wear veils, mantilla, and hijab.
If you walked in my room, you would immediately assume I was an extremely devout orthodox Catholic, and you'd be wrong.
I am a Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsan Fey Marija Loa to Damballah Weddo and serve the local shrine to Papa Damballah and Erzulies Freda and Danta. This painting was very dear to me.
It means I am married to God, something for which there was an actual wedding, with a wedding dress and everything.
In simpler terms: I'm a nun.
I am married to my god the same way a Catholic nun is married to Christ.
Which is also why sex is not a part of my life.
This painting is a painting that we Voodoo practitioners hold with deep reverence.
The Black Madonna, Erzulie Dantar, Our Dear Sweet Lady of Retribution.
Voodoo Practitioners, follow many things, many paths, many roads, many branches. But with every branch, every form of Voodoo, one thing remains constant: The Black Madonna. There is no Voodoo Practitioner on the planet, who does not have a statue or a prayer card or her dagger through the heart veevee on their prayer alter. She is the mother of life. The mother of us all. The goddess who created life, with Papa Damballah.
This painting is dearly beloved in the Voodoo Community, and now she is destroyed.
The painting was made in 1433, based off of the description of Jesus in the Bible.
The book of Revelations describes Jesus as having roped locks of hair like lambs wool and feet the colour of brass. Jesus was from the southern region of Judea which is in Africa.
Jesus was black. The Bible itself tells us this.
Most images of Jesus and Mary paint them white, blond, blue eyed... but that's not how the Bible described them.
This is one of the few historical images of a Black Jesus and a Black Mother Mary. And most Black people love it dearly. So why would followers of a movement to bring equality to black lives, destroy it?
Or did they? Was it people who hate the BLM movement and so destroyed a symbol near and dear to the hearts of millions in the black community?
Who destroyed this painting?
BLM graffiti is the only clue.
But is it, BLM because it was done by someone in the BLM movement?
Or was it done by someone against the BLM movement?
No one knows.
No one knows who did this.
My grandmother was half Black *(yes, I am 1/4 Black)* and she loved this painting. She didn't call it The Black Madonna like most people do, she called her Black Baby Jesus. She took a trip over there to see it in person.
Whoever did it, these people should pay heed to history, and to what happened to the pirates who slashed her face. It didn't end well for them.
Our dear Lady of Retribution, wielder of vengeance upon the unjust, may your curse of iniquity fall upon all who cause harm.
She was one of my 2 faves, along with The Immaculate Conception...
Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna
Erzulie Freda aka The Immaculate Conception
...and to see them both destroyed 2 days apart from each other is heartbreaking.
Why is the BLM movement attacking the Patron Saint of Slaves? Our Dear Lady of Retribution. Vicious Punisher of the Masters who take away freedom.
She is the symbol of everything the Black Lives Matter movement stands for, so why destroy her?
Do you idiots know nothing?
Do you not know the history of this painting?
Or how it got destroyed by Nazis in World War II... and it remains, rebuilt, in Poland, by Jewish Concentration Camp Survivors.
How many times has she been destroyed since her creation in 1433?
Freed Black Slaves, rebuilt her.
Freed Jews, rebuilt her again.
Why would you destroy the symbol of freedom? The symbol of escape from oppression? The symbol of survival against all odds?
Ignorance and arrogance is a dangerous pairing. This just proves their lack of intelligence. Destroying anything and everything, without knowing what it is.
Do you know, that without this painting, you even have the Black Lives Matter Foundation? Are you aware of the history of the organization you are screaming the name of from the rooftops?
Has anyone else noticed the similarities in behavior with this movement and ISIS or The Ku Klux Klan or The Nazis... destroying anything they don't like, taking control of portions of cities... doing it all in the name of a call to lord over others?
When you destroy history, try to erase it, you will allow it to happen again in future generations. Instead of burying bad parts of history, you should be teaching your children to learn from the mistakes of that history, so history doesn't repeat itself.
Funny thing is... this particular painting... she was hated by the Nazis too. They destroyed her. This is a reproduction that was made in 1945, because Nazis destroyed the original 1433 one.
She was rebuilt, to stand as a testament AGAINST fucking White Power bastards who murdered millions of Jews, Blacks, Gays, and Gypsies.
We Gypsies hail her as our Patron Saint, because she is a strong woman of colour, who survived one of the worst White Power atrocities in history.
If there is any painting out there that should be used as the fucking logo of the BLM movement... THIS IS IT! And you destroy her?
Regardless of which side destroyed it, you are both acting like ill mannered children.
One side smash and trashes items, then the other side retaliates back with more smash and trash, so the first side smashes more, then then 2nd side smashes back... when will it end? Both sides are acting like idiots right now. Neither side is making the other side look bad, because both sides are too busy making themselves look bad.
The Ku Klux Klan is parading up and down streets in Maine calling BLM protestors monkeys, and, I gotta say... they are kind of right. I mean, monkeys don't have enough brains to know not to smash things, so monkeys run around smashing things. Humans know better then to destroy things, because Humans know how to use their brains.
Think about that!
There should NEVER be a point, when we can say "The Ku Klux Klan is right."
The Ku Klux Klan are horrible people, and right now THEY are the ones in the right! That shouldn't happen! The villain shouldn't be better than the hero, and right now that is what's happening!
Come on people... 2 wrongs don't make a right.
Don't be like them!
Do not lower yourselves to their level.
We are better then this.
You ALL are better then this.
Stand up and prove you are better.
Smashing everything, because they smash everything, how does that make you any better than them?
It makes you JUST LIKE THEM!
And they are standing out there calling black people monkeys! And I wish I could say they were wrong, but it's kind of hard to do, when you are running around, making mindless grunts, waving spray cans, smashing things up, and FUCKING ACTING LIKE MONKEYS!
You are giving the racists POWER OVER YOU!
That's all the rioting and vandalism is doing.
You are giving power to the fucking white power bastards.
STOP GIVING THEM POWER OVER YOU!
The whole point of the BLM Protests is the SHOW that black people ARE NOT monkeys! To prove that black people ARE humans and deserve to be treated like humans.
They should not be out there chanting "monkey" like that. Yes, they are wrong and it is horrible that they are doing it... but at WHY they are saying it.
They are saying that BECAUSE you are giving them reason to.
Don't prove the Ku Klux Klan to be right about black people... prove them WRONG!
#PROVE THEM WRONG!
Stop giving them power to hate. Stop feeding then fuel to fan their hatred with.
Are you people all so caught up in the frenzy of rioting that you not see yourselves, the way the white power haters see you, right now?
Go to Twitter and look for the hashtag "BLMTerrorists" and spend an hour or two, reading those Tweets.
You really, REALLY, need to look at what you are doing. Look at the message your rioting is sending. LOOK at what they saying about the rioters, the vandals.
They're scared. And that's bad. That's really bad. Because sooner or later, they'll lash back. And it won't be good. It never is.
And look at what the rioters are doing.
It's not just statues anymore.
Did you see the video footage of a mob of rioters who ran into Target, and started smashing up the store with baseball bats, and when an elderly man in his 90s, ran from the store to avoid getting hurt, the mod dragged him to the ground, torn off his Covid19 facemask, starting spitting in his face, while kicking him. That happened this morning.
How about the one that happened Sunday. Another elderly man, this one his 80s, leaving church, heading across the parking lot, going to his car... when a BLM mob, came storming across the parking lot, grabbing anyone they saw and throwing them to the ground. Three men, mauled the old man. Beat unconscious. For no reason. He didn't even see or hear them coming.
That's not right.
That's not protesting.
That's being a gangster.
You know what mobster means, right? It means, being part of mob and beating people up for the fun of it.
That's all this has become. A mob of rioters, beating people up for the fun of it.
You know it is.
Hurting people is never right.
Violence is not going to solve anything.
Violence is just going to make, people who hate minorities, start to hate minorities even more! That the opposite of what we need or want.
Use your brains.
Every time you act like mindless animals, you just give the white power lunatics MORE POWER over you!
Don't give them that power. They don't deserve it.
Look at what is happening.... You destroy their works of art, so they fight back, by destroying ours.
Can't you see what you are doing?
LOOK at the swastika across The Black Madonna's face, and the words BLM underneath.
This is wrong on so many levels.
These riots, all vandalism... you'll gain one or two victories, small ones, meaningless ones, you'll get statues moved... but what is the fucking point?
You've lost focus of the BIG PICTURE... which is saving lives.
Taking down a statue is NOT going to save lives.
You people should be in courthouse, filing paperwork, writing dockets, reading law books, and getting laws passed.
You can do that. You don't NEED politicians to do those things. All you need is the make your case, in front of a judge who agrees with you.
You don't need violence.
You don't need riots.
You don't need vandalism.
You need law books and enough education to know how to write a docket and word it persuasively, so that you can convince a judge, to sign off on that law and get it passed.
Why are none of you doing THAT?
Violence is NOT the answer.
Hate crimes are not the answer.
Riots are not the answer.
Criminal acts are not the answer.
You'll be no help to anyone if you get arrested and are behind bars.
These protests are NOT peaceful, and you're deluded if you think they are.
Yes, there are dirty cops out there. I've met plenty in my lifetime.
But for every bad cop I've ever meet, I've met dozens of officers who were good.
Taking over police stations, setting fire to police cruisers, beating up police officers, just because they are police officers.... none of this is right. It's terrorism.
Yes, action needs to be taken, but not violent action. Look in the mirror... you people are using acts of terrorism to protest acts of terrorism. That's not right.
You don't fight fire with fire.... all that does is make the fire bigger. You are fanning the flames of hate and making them grow.
You fight fire with water. You put the fire out.
You need to tame the lion of hate, make it a lamb of peace. Sooth it. Teach it to see the error of it's ways. Show it that it can trust you, let it know you won't hurt it. That's win the lion over.
But if you attack the lion, threaten it, hurt it, it'll lash back, fiercer, meaner, far worse than it was to begin with.
Can you not see that?
Can you not see, how all this violence is only stirring the haters up more and teaching them to say to themselves "We was right about them minorities"...
You should be showing the haters, that they are wrong, not that they are right.
Every act of violence committed in the name of "Black Lives Matter" only teaches white people, to hate black people even more.
Don't prove the haters they are right, prove them wrong instead.
What the hell is wrong with you people?
Have you all got your heads shoved so damned far up your asses that you are just going to destroy anything and everything you get near now, even symbols like THIS, that you should be hailing as one of the greatest memorials in tribute to people of colour?
She is a tribute AGAINST fucking White Supremacists.... don't you idiots know that?
Or is that EXACTLY the point?
No one saw who did this.
And it happened after so many statues were torn down, statues of white men, torn down by black men.
Are we now seeing here White Supremacists "fighting back"?
But I wonder... how many of the BLM Protesters have ever faced REAL racism face to face?
How many of them, have ever been attacked by the REAL and ACTUAL Ku Klux Klan?
Look at the memes on Twitter, showing supposed KKK pictures... people in white pillow cases with holes cut out.
That is NOT the REAL Ku Klux Klan... you know right?
GOOGLE THE FUCKING BASTARDS! Find out what they REALLY look like, what they REALLY wear.
They wear miter hats, with veils on the front, and long heavily embroidered and beaded white robes, with large red crosses on their capes. Their outfits are EXACT REPLICAS of the Catholic Pope's robes and hat.
It's not a white pointy pillowcase.
Also, ONLY the leaders wear white.
The rest of the members, wear colours based on rank. Green Robes, Red Robes, Blue Robes, Yellow Robes, Black Robes... the REAL card-carrying members of the Ku Klux Klan, DO NOT WEAR WHITE!
There are 200,000 active card-carrying members of the REAL Ku Klux Klan, living in Maine. The largest concentration of them in one place, on the entire planet.
And they are actual terrorists. They build bombs. They murder children. They skin people alive, hang them in trees, and leave them there to bleed to death and long slow death that takes weeks to happen.
And they DO NOT WEAR WHITE!
The fakes as white robes and pillow case hoods, are a thing that was created by Hollywood Movies... it's NOT a thing that exists in the REAL world.
Fake ass wanna-bes, wear white robes and white pillow cases, because they never saw a REAL KKK member and they don't know shit about the REAL Ku Klux Klan. They dress up in white robes and put pillow cases on their heads, because that is what MOVIES tell people the Ku Klux Klan does.
That's how you can tell the fake ass wanna-bes from the REAL Ku Klux Klan. And if you have ever seen them face to face, you'd have known that.
My first encounter with the Ku Klux Klan... I was 14 years old. Me and 5 other children were kidnapped and tortured.
Anastasia was just 4 years old. A toddler. They ripped off her leg. Doing so, pulled her intestines out, and spilled her partly digested breakfast all over the floor.
Then they just left her there.
It took her a week to die.
Tajid... they beat his chest, crushed his lungs. He saved my life. Those blows were meant for me. He got between me and them. He died 2 days later.
July 1, 2001. A backhoe drove my house while my family was gone to the movies. We rebuilt.
February 14, 2003, my doctor's office, First Care Health Clinic, Saco Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... was blown up with a bomb. My doctor died. 3 of his nurses died. 21 patients were hospitalized in critical condition. The Ku Klux Klan left an 8 foot tall white cross in the parking lot.
It wasn't in the news.
I was there. It was the first Ku Klux Klan bomb, I survived.
May 9, 2006, they beat up my dad, he is in a coma for 2 months, and an additional 6 months in the hospital recovering.
October 16, 2006, a bomb blew up my house, and the Ku Klux Klan left an 8 foot tall white cross in my rose garden.
It wasn't in the news.
It was 1AM. I was asleep in my bed. The bomb was put in the doorway of my bedroom. I was on fire. My hair and my clothes were burned off of me. It was the second Ku Klux Klan bomb, I survived.
We rebuilt again.
April 7, 2007, a backhoe drove over my house, again. We rebuilt again.
Also in 2007, the headless body of a teenage girl was found in the parking lot of Scarborough, Shaw's. Her head was found on the Payne Road, 3 months later, with a circle of 7 dead black labrador retriever dogs around her head.
May 9, 2010, they saw 1964 Dodge 330 car in half.
Also, 2010, a 90-year-old black man, was beaten to death with a shopping cart, in Westbrook Shaw's parking lot, while dozens of white onlookers cheered on his murderer.
May 2013, Southern Maine Community College was evacuated when a bomb was found under my desk, a desk I sat at every day. It was the 3rd bomb I survived.
June 4, 2013, my cousin Murphy's headless body was left in the crossroad of Ross Road and Cascade Road, Old Orchard Beach, Maine.
June 8, 2013, my cousin Murphy's head was left in the crossroad of Portland Ave and Road Road, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, a 1/4 mile away from where his body had been left.
I live on Portland Ave, 5 houses from that crossroad. I found his body while driving home from work at the Maine Mall.
August 8, 2013, a backhoe drove over my house, again.
November 14, 2013, while putting my art easel in the back of my car, after art studio class at Southern Maine Community College, a man and 2 women, with a metal golf club and 2 metal baseball bats, attacked. They were waiting behind my car. I didn't see them. They broke my legs, my hip, my knee. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk.
#You think you know racism... I guarantee you don't know it half as well as I do.
August 2014... Saco Shaw's made national news when a woman's head was found in the ice cream freezer.
A week later another head was found in their dumpster.
April 10, 2015, 12 members of my family were kidnapped, by 14 Ku Klux Klan members, all of them police officers at the Scarborough, Maine Police Department, and Old Orchard Beach, Maine Police Department.
Do you remember Bela? She used to be in all my videos. A police officer beat her head in with a cinder block. Ripped her jaw clean off her face. April 10, 2015. That's why she's not in streams anymore.
Do you remember Georgie? Same thing. Same brick. Split the whole side of his head open.
While a pole with an electric taser neck hold held them down.
12 members of my family, had that happen. April 10, 2015.
How old were they?
The oldest was 14.
The youngest was 4.
Three were 7.
Two were 5.
Yeah. They were very young.
Still think you know what racism is?
But why would white people care about children? Children are disposable in America, remember? Americans murder 5,000 babies every day. Ninety Million babies have been murdered in America, since 1991. It's no wonder, white power terrorists think nothing is wrong with killing children. Murdering babies is, after all the American way.
Two escaped. They lived, but both have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and both are missing all their teeth and most of their jaws.
The other 10?
May 15, 2015, their heads were nailed to my door. Their intestines wrapped around my windows.
It wasn't in the news.
Maine law, only a police officer can report a crime to the news stations or newspapers.
But when the police officers, are marching around wearing white robes and white hoods and erected white crosses in the front yards of the people they torment... there are no police officers too who will file the reports.
THAT is REAL racism.
THAT is REAL police brutality.
But we're just Gypsies, so no one cares.
And this is Maine, the state that is proud to call itself: 99.9% white.
And this is The Town of Old Orchard Beach, a town run by the Ku Klux Klan. They took over our town in 2001. Now they run the Town Hall, the Police Department, the Fire Department, and Dispatch.
Heaven help you if you live in Old Orchard Beach, and you need to call 911, but you ain't white enough for them to respond.
Heaven help you if they do respond... and you're not white enough... because whatever help you called them for, they'll beat the shit out of you.
November 2015, Scarborough Walmart was evacuated, because a bomb was left in my department, under one of the HallMark card displays. I worked at WalMart at the time. It was the 4th bomb I survived.
July 24, 2016, Scarborough Walmart was evacuated, yet again, because a bomb was left in my department, under one of the HallMark card displays. I worked at WalMart at the time. It was the 5th bomb I survived.
July 26, 2016, while putting groceries in my car, at Scarborough Walmart, the same attackers from 2013, beat me with a shopping cart and left me for dead. They broke my spine. Severed the nerves in my spinal column. I've never walked again.
5 times in 2018... you saw my live streams interrupted, as the Ku Klux Klan arrived in my driveway, a shot bullet holes through the walls... you saw them on the live streams. The VODs are still up. I didn't take them down.
October 2019... local Jewish Synagogue was bombed. They blew the whole side off the building. You saw it in my live streams... I drove there and showed you what they did...
It wasn't in the news.
February 12, 2020, yet another of my cousins was gunned down. This time in Scarborough, Maine WalMart, while putting groceries in his car.
Biddeford, Maine's Rotary Park, used to have the Guinness World Record for the tallest, largest flag pole. They took it down 5 years ago. Do you know why?
Because in the dead of winter, Old Orchard Beach Officers, thought it would be funny, the strip a 14 year old boy naked, tie his ankles to the back bumper of a police car, and drive 14 miles from Old Orchard Beach, to that flag pole, and tie the child to the rope, like he was a lag, host him to the top, and left him there. 3 days of blizzard later, a dog walker found him, nearly frozen to death, unconscious, hanging upside down from the flagpole.
They assumed him to be gay, he wasn't, but they thought he was because he was wearing a pink coat.
It wasn't in the news. So if you didn't know the family, you didn't know it happened.
2 weeks ago, Black Lives Matter protestors arrived in Biddeford, Maine... they were meet face to face with white hoods carrying assault rifles, machine guns, and Gatlin guns... the protesters, didn't have the balls to stand up to REAL racists, so they fled to Sanford, Maine... but one of the Ku Klux Klan's primary "club" buildings is in Sandford, Maine, so the protestors were met with even more white hoods carrying assault rifles, machine guns, and Gatlin guns... the protesters, didn't have the balls to stand up to REAL racists, so the protestors fled to Monmouth, Maine, and after 5 hours there... they fled Maine entirely.
It wasn't in the news.
Why wasn't it in the news?
All us locals here in Maine, we saw it happen. We saw the protesters turn tail and run, as soon as the White Hoods marched out with their assault rifles.
The BLM protestors CLAIM they have lived with racism, but when they came to Maine, they found out fast, that they really had no clue, what REAL racists are like.
You don't know racism until you've lived with the fucking Ku Klux Klan terrorizing your town, terrorizing your family.
They kidnapped 12 members of my family. April 10, 2015. Tortured them. Killed 10 of them. And nailed their heads to my door.
#THAT IS FUCKING REAL RACISM!!!
You people don't know shit!
The BLM protestors are attacking statues and paintings because they are cowards who don't have the balls to fight REAL racists. They proved that when they arrived in Maine and got chased out within 5 hours, by the fucking Ku Klux Klan.
Yeah, you want to decry police brutality?
Do you remember a few years ago, a black boy while standing in line, at San Diego Comic-Con, waiting to buy tickets for the convention, was gunned down by a police officer...
Do you know who that black boy was? He was cousin Matt. The one I used to play multiplayer video games with... the reason I don't play multiplayer video games anymore.
His mother was so distraught over his death, that she remarried his father and 7 other men. Yeah, my aunt with the 8 husbands. That's WHY she has the 8 husbands. Her son gunned down by a police officer because he was the only coloured person standing in a line of white people, and the police officer thought that was suspicious.
Attacking statues and paintings doesn't help anybody.
You aren't bringing awareness, you are just making yourselves look like idiots.
Don't be haters.
There are enough haters in the world already. Don't add to the hate.
And those of us, who live with REAL racists in our towns, and are families are being brutalized, tortured, and murdered by those fucking racists... you are making life worse for US...
...because while you can go back home, and be safe, we still have the Ku Klux Klan lording over our town. And no amount of torn down statues or destroyed paintings is going to stop them.
And all you people have done is made things worse, for those of us, who live with the daily constant threat of violence at the hands of REAL White Supremacists.
You people running around calling politicians, actors, singers, white supremacists because of something they said on Twitter... you haven't got a fucking clue what a REAL White Supremacists is like.
And let me ask you this: how are YOU any different, from the racist white people who destroy all things non-white?
You're not. You are just the same.
You are acting just like them.
Violence is only going to breed more violence. Don't you people know that?
You who are destroying things... you don't care about the consequences of your actions, but you will not suffer any harm.
But what about my family?
Persian Gypsies. 1/2 Jewish, 1/4 Native American, and 1/4 Black. Not one drop of white blood in us ... living in Old Orchard Beach... the whitest town, of the whitest state in America... and town that got taken over by the Ku Klux Klan June 2001.
Do you care?
Do you care what they will do to us, in retaliation, for what you people are doing to statues on the other side of the world from us?
Do you care, at all?
You people say you care... but I don't see it.
I don't see it at all.
All I see is a herd of mindless sheep, jumping on a bandwagon, following the herd, and not once stopping to think about the consequences of their actions.
You people keep asking me "Why Avallac'h?", "Why are you so obsessed?", "Why did this fandom take over your life?"... look at the date it started.
* Did you know I'm on 24 hour suicide watch, and I have been since January 4, 2016?
* Did you know I was hospitalized for a nervous breakdown, after 10 members of my family had their heads nailed to the door?
* Did you know I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?
* Did you know Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is not itself an illness, but rather is a symptom and a coping mechanism for dealing with extreme emotional trauma?
* Did you know, a team of doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists, social workers, and FBI agents, had me hooked up to tons of medical monitors, heart monitors, blood monitors, a portable EKG... for weeks, so they monitor what activities I did, so they determine a lifestyle change prescription, that would get my resting heart rate under 131 and my blood pressure over 70 over 60?
* Did you know that the doctors discovered that the ONLY time my body relaxes on any level at all is when I'm playing Witcher 3?
* Did you know, I have an actual prescription, which says, to play Witcher 3 as much as possible every day?
* Did you know, playing Witcher 3 is the only thing keeping me alive right now, and my doctors says the worst I could do right now, is STOP playing it?
The Ku Klux Klan took everything from me. My home. My family. My health.
I have no one now. I have 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, of the rest of my life, to be crippled, bedridden, and alone.
"Why Avallac'h?", "Why are you so obsessed?", "Why did this fandom take over your life?"... because I used to be able to walk. I used to have a family. I used to have a home. And I'm having a very difficult time trying to find a reason to live. And I needed something to take away the pain. I needed someone who had lost everything as brutalily as I had, to talk to, because only someone who had been through what I had been through, would understand how I feel. I needed something to see, other then 10 heads nailed to my door. It's all I can see. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't close my eyes. I can't get the image of their bloody heads out of my mind.
Playing this video game, researching every detail, writing articles, and sewing the costume, it's the only thing I can do that blots out the images of their heads. And as soon as I stop playing the game, stop rereading the novels, stop making screenshots, stop writing the articles, stop sewing the costume, the images of their heads are back.
I can't function at all any more. I haven't been able to function since April 10, 2015.
This obsession with Avallac'h... it's not about him. He's just the tool that right now keeping me from killing myself, until I can find something else, some reason to live.
And you people, you think because someone called you a hate slur, that you know racism is. You have no clue.
Until the Ku Klux Klan, kills your entire family and nails their heads to your door... you'll never know what it like to live with real racism.
You who don't know REAL racism, you think you are being funny with your acts of hate and violence, smashing statues? If you ACTUALLY knew REAL racism, you'd be so mentally broken that you wouldn't be able to see the statues, because all you can see is the horror of your murdered families's remains.
And because you don't know REAL racism, after you get done destroying things, you can safely go home, because while you THINK, someone is racist, because they called you a "nigga"... it's just a word. These people who murdered my family and destroyed my home, and left me crippled, they call me a "nigga" all the time. I don't even look black. I'm not even close to being able to pass for black. Heck, half the people who call me "nigga" 10 or 12 shades of brown darker than me. I'm 1/4 black, but you wouldn't know it to look at me. I'm physically whiter than most white people. But that doesn't matter to White Power people like the Ku Klux Klan. They don't care about skin colour. They care about blood.
If you think, you know what racism is because someone used hate slurs to describe you, then you don't know a thing about racism. Words can't hurt you. But bombs can. As can golf clubs. Guns can. Shopping carts can.
Look at yourselves... destroying property, vandalism... why? What good does it do? Do you think about those of us who live here and are left behind after you get done trashing things, and you back to the safety of your homes, where the worst thing you have to deal with is people calling you dirty words?
... we are left behind when you leave, and we are the one who will be hanging from flagpoles, our heads nailed to doors, our homes and churches bombed, by REAL racists, who don't just spout off hate slurs, because they are too busy loading their assault rifles and building bombs.
You don't know what REAL racism is.... if you did, you wouldn't be doing these thing, because you'd know how badly every non-white who lives in a town where there are active Ku Klux Klan members, is going to suffer, because of what you people are doing.
If you REALLY wanted to make a difference... you'd do something to make life safe for families like mine, instead of attacking statues and paintings that are never going to hurt anybody.
#STOP THE HATE!
They hate you.
You hate them.
When does it end?
Stop destroying things and start helping people.
Stop spreading hate and start spreading peace.
We who live with actual racism, we desperately need your help... but what you are doing right now... you are making things even worse for us.
Stop making things worse.
Start making things better.
Spread love and peace, not hate and violence.
Before & After Damages Done To The Dazzling Razzberry aka The Autism Awareness Car
What Happened To The Dazzling RazzBerry?
The answer is a vicious streamer on Twitch took to spreading maliciously slanderous sex rumors and lies about me, convincing people that I was what she termed: "A BDSM Dominatrix" Me, a 5th Generation Mormon Turned Voodoo Priestess Rank of Marija Loa! An asexual nun living a celibate life!
| A Look At What Happens When So-Called "Pranksters"
Take Their Twitch Chat & DisCord Sex-Jokes Too Far
How The Avallac'h Playthrough changed my life, caused the destruction of The Dazzling Razzberry Autism Awareness Car, made 28 families homeless, caused the death of a 10 year old
Including a detailed look inside what news media said was "The Worst Child Abuse Case In American History", more info about Etiole, and how growing up in a child sex slavery ring caused my to start The Avallac'h Playthrough - [NSFW] |
Welcome to the New Space Dock 13! Helping Authors Write Weird, Bizarre, Absurd, Psychedelic Horror-Fantasy Since 1996! (We've Moved & Changed URLs; Space Dock 13 is now EelKat.com) (We are also novel-writing-tips.com, a-pink-unicorn.com, & of course are still SpaceDock13.com)
I Now Hold The World Record For The Highest Level Ever Achieved in Witcher 3!!
If This Video Is Active, I'm Live Streaming Right Now...
WARNING: Avallac'h & Ciri Shipping Happens Daily In My Cult of Avallac'h Stream (This seems to piss people off so we seem to need to provide a warning about it)
I have Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism, not Aspergers), which means I'm not good at group things. I'm classified as Savant, meaning I have a few things that I obsess about, big time, and have world records in them as a result, and everything else in my life I still require a caretaker to help me with.
I was believed to be mute until I was 31 years old, when a college professor whose day job was working with Autism children, meet me at an Autism Awareness event (I own The Autism Awareness Car, which has 2.5million marbles glued to it - took 4 years to build it). He spent several years teaching me to talk and I was able to get a GED at age 37 (I had never been allowed to go to school as Autism in the 1970s = too retarded to be taught anything so why bother? It was assumed I couldn't be taught, so no one tried to, until I was 31 years old), and started college at age 42.
Today in addition to being a rabid gamer, I'm also an artist (acrylic on canvas and watercolor on rag) sell my art in local galleries, I build art cars and installation art, published over 130 Dark Fantasy novels, and became a retail merchandiser for Macy's, WalMart, and HallMark for 16 years because I'm very good at organizing things... I can't do much else, but I can certainly make sure nothing on the sales floor is out of place.
On Twitch I'm known for my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it removing and making my own... I rewrote Witcher 3, removed Geralt and Roach and the combat system, and build my own player character, made travel companions, wrote a new combat system, made new quests, made new maps... removed all the texture files and made all new ones. There's nothing in Witcher 3 that I have not rewritten. With over 4,000 mods now made for it, you can barely recognize my game as being Witcher 3 anymore.... and yet I can't read C++ code.
I spent my childhood and teen years, being told I would never amount to anything. I proved them all wrong.
People see the things I do very well (art, writing, my exemplary organization skills in retail stores, and my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it and making my own) but they often don't see past that.
Social skills are a thing I've not yet mastered, which makes streaming very difficult for me as, chat is sensory overload and I have it turned off. I also can't count, do Math, tell time, use calendars, use money, numbers are lost on me.
Basic things - bathing, eating, brushing my hair, etc - that most people have no trouble with, I have caretakers who have to help me do those thing, even though I'm 20, 30, 40 years older than my caretakers. I am VERY low-functioning, but I can write, I can paint, I disect video games, and I can organize things. I just can't do one thing else. Which is very upsetting, because I wish I could. I try too. I don't know why I can't. It's like there are a few things in my brain turned all the way up on super high and everything else is just turned off and won't come on.
And then there are issues with meltdowns, screaming fits, panic attacks, bad ones. Bad enough that I generally avoid contact with the public, simply because I'm tired of dealing with the police. Someone my age, screaming on the floor, people assume I'm on drugs and call the police. It's very frustrating, because I can not control these attacks and I can't stop them once they start.
It is extremely distressing, I'm insanely good at a few things, but everything else, things most of society doesn't bat an eye at, I can't do them, no matter how hard I try. And I'm not capable of "acting properly" or "behaving in socially acceptable ways".
Most people when they meet me in real life, they are very taken back, by how extremely disabled I am. Fans of my novels, meet me at book signings and ask: "So, what's the joke, what's this retard doing here, where's the author?" They refuse to believe, someone as deeply retarded as me, is capable of writing novels.
It hurts a lot, people's reactions to meeting me and them finding out the reality of what ACTUAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, is really like... and that it's NOTHING like Asperger's, with it's "cute Sheldon Cooper quirks" that they are used to and think of as being Autism.
They forget, people with Asperger's can live normal lives, they can pass for normal in public if they have too, they get married and have families, and I'm not capable of living on my own or without caretakers, and I never will be.
I wish more people knew the difference between Aspergers and Autism, and how vastly different they are from each other. Far too many people hear that I have Autism, and they automatically assume I have Aspergers, and then they meet me in person, and are shocked, horrified, and they tell me they've meet dozens, sometimes hundreds of Aspies, and when they meet me, they say, they realize, they've NEVER seen Autism before, in spite of all the hundreds of Aspies they've met, and then they tell me, they wish they had known, they wished someone had told them, how starkly different Autism is from Aspergers, because they always say, no matter how many Aspies they worked with, it never prepared them to come face to face with ACTUAL REAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, for the first time.
1 in 3 children have Aspergers, it's very common, but only 1 in 1,200,000 children have Autism, it's very rare. In the wake of the mass flood of people calling Asperger's Autism, people forget how incredibly rare actual Autism really is. They aren't the same thing and until you've seen both side by side, you don't realize how different they really are.
People forget WHY I became such a good writer. I was mute for 31 years. Writing was the only way I could communicate with anyone. But I grew up in a family that crumpled up the paper, never even looked at it. In their minds I was too stupid to talk and therefore anything I wrote on paper MUST have been gibberish. They didn't even look at it. So I wrote letters to the cats that lived with us. I started doing that when I was 8 years old. I still do it 50+ years later.
But I'm not likely to be much use in a group, as outside of writing, art, video games, and organizing sale floors of retail stores, I'm too retarded to be able to do anything else. I'm rarely welcomed in groups, because I'm too retarded, too Autistic to fit in, or so I'm always told. I'm rarely of any use to anyone.
NaNoWriMo The ML Rumours & The KBoards Incident
Or: I am NOT a NaNoWriMo ML KENDRA SILVERMANDER YOU SLANDERING LYING ASSED BITCH FROM HELL Stop Lying About Me & Saying I am! & I did not write those wild posts on Kboards - KENDRA SILVERMANDER YOU SLANDERING LYING ASSED BITCH FROM HELL Stop Lying About Me & Saying I Did!
There Is A False Rumor Circulating, Calling Me A NaNoWriMo ML, Something I Never Was And Don't Like People Calling Me. Today, We Are Going Look At That Rumor And The Woman Who Started It
Crippled By The Psychopathic #NaNoWriMo ML - Dreading The Arrival of @NaNoWriMo 2016
If You Came Here From NaNoWriMo:
And finally, if you are one of the countless NaNoWriMo members who comes to me each year asking for advice on how do win NaNoWriMo, please know a few things:
#1) I'm not a NaNoWriMo ML and I don't know who is running around lying about me and telling you people that I am, but I am getting tired of it. I'm not a NaNoWriMo ML, I've never been a NaNoWriMo ML, and the next time someone tells you I am a NaNoWriMo ML, do me a favour and tell them to fuck off. Okay? I was a Script Frenzy ML for 3 years nearly a decade ago. Script Frenzy is a completely different writing contest/challenge/group from NaNoWriMo, and Script Frenzy also went out of business about 5 years ago. I don't know why people keep contacting me and saying: "So I heard you were a NaNoWriMo ML..." You heard? Heard where? You didn't hear it from me. I'm not affiliated with NaNoWriMo, I never have been and I don't know who is telling you that I am, but they are lying to you.
#2) The ONLY way to win NaNoWriMo is to just sit your ass down and write. That's it. That's all there is to it. Just write. Don't worry about word counts, don't waste time on the forum, just write.
#3) My word counts were: 2004=2k; 2005=5k; 2006=183k; 2007=200k across 2 books and multiple short stories; 2008/2009/2010/2011/2012 were each 230k to 280k; 2013 was 537k; 2014 & 2015 were both 75k; there, now you don't have to ask.
#4) I don't do NaNoWriMo anymore because I got sick of my email inbox being bombarded with nasty hate mail every time I reached 50k words on day 3 of the contest. Bombarded as in, I received 21,000, yes 21k, emails in 2012. That's a lot of people sending me a lot of hate that I really don't need in my life. Joining writing contests used to be fun, it's not anymore. There are too many small minded haters who act like their word count is a matter of life or death. I am disabling my contact pages and removing my contact info, in hopes that NaNoWriMo haters will stop contacting.
#5) My online accounts were hacked in 2010, again in 2011, again in 2013, twice in 2014, and twice in 2015. In each case, the hacker targeted my forum posts, my blog posts, and my Twitter account, and the majority of the attacks targeted my "How to Write" type of posts, rewriting them. It appears the hacker is a NaNoWriMo member with a chip on their shoulder and wild vendetta, which I have yet to determine their motive. In any case their attacks primarily focus on rewriting my posts and articles into gibberish nonsense and wild hysteria. As such I have now removed all 1,371 of my "Writing Guide" type articles, and will no longer be giving writing advice to future writers.
I'm sorry, I know it's not fair to those of you who had nothing to do with this small minded hater's attack, but you must understand my health is not good. Since November 2013, the only thing keeping me alive is my monthly, sometimes weekly hospital visits and surgeries.
We are only 46 days into 2016 and already I've had 2 surgeries and have 4 more lined up in the next 30 days. I'm barely able to walk these days and it is unknown how much longer I will live. I can't waste my final days trying to undo the horrific hate crimes, bullying, and hacking of my accounts that has been going on so endlessly the past couple of years. It's why you don't see me online much any more. I've more important things to do in my final days, then pander to an online bully whose identity I don't even know.
I've heard rumours, from you people emailing me - you've suggested that I have been on NaNoWriMo forums in 2013, 2014, and 2015. No. I haven't.
The last time I did the NaNoWriMo writing contest on site was November 2012. While I still doing the challenge offline with my own circle of friends, I have not logged in on the NaNoWriMo website in 4 years. My last forum post on the NaNoWriMo forums was made the first week of December 2012.
On day 3 of the 2012 contest, I rolled past 50,000 words, updated my word count via the official validator chart on the NaNoWriMo forum and hours later received a mega whopping 20,000 hate filled emails accusing me of cheating and lying about my wordcount. That was the last time I used the NaNoWriMo word count valitator.
I have no interest in certificates or awards or prizes, so there was no reason for me to continue doing NaNoWriMo on site.
I am a professional author, with secretarial training. I type at very slow one handed speed of 91 words a minute (5,000 words an hour) with spelling errors. To be a secretary requires a 2 handed typing speed of 175 words a minute (10,500 words an hour) WITHOUT spelling errors.
While it takes me 3 days to reach 50,000 words, a secretary could do it in 5 hours.
The world record for fastest typing is 211 words a minute (12,600 words an hour) - take person could complete NaNoWriMo's 50,000 word challenge in just 3 hours.
I type for 8 hours every day. With 1 hand. I have limited use of my left hand due to a stroke many years ago. I have done this since the 1980s. I published my first book in 1978. I write on average 11,000 to 17,000 words a day, every day, 7 days a week, all year long. Ad I have for 3 decades.
In 2004 I was suffering from burn out, had very bad writer's block, and was on the verge of giving up writing. I was building my Dare's Generator in an attempt to end my writer's block. A friend (who was teaching me how to build random generators) suggested I try NaNoWriMo. Me and my writing dares meet the NaNoWriMo forum August 2004.
NaNoWriMo was NOT a challenge for me. It never was. I write 50,000 words a week, every week, all year long and I have for years. Most of my years doing NaNoWriMo I never even updated my word courts, nor validated them in the system, and therefore never received any of the certificates or awards. I had absolutely no interest in those things. I'm not a competitive person, nor am I somebody interested in walls of plagues.
So why did I do NaNoWriMo at all? Prior to 2004, my writing was very serious. Only on fanfiction.net did you see my parodies and satire and dark humor and bizarro works. I had just created my Dares Generator in August 2004 and was looking for a way to test it out. I was fed up with writing serious fiction, I wanted to switch to writing satire, parodies, and dark comedy as a full time career. I took my Dares Generator to the NaNoWriMo forums and I asked members to toss the craziest most insane writing challenges at me, they could come up with.
My goal was not to write a 50,000 word novel, but rather to every day, take a writing dare and write a full complete, short story using nothing but the dares people gave me that day. That is how the Dares Thread got started. THAT was what I did on NaNoWriMo. I was never there to write a 50,000 word novel. I was there to get help with jump starting my satire career. As my fans and readers know, those daily short stories went up on fanfiction.net. People got to see immediately the result of the writing dare challenges they had given me.
Pivotal to WHY I stopped doing NaNoWriMo on site, was the change of fanfiction.net's website in 2012. Previously the site had allowed sex in stories, and most of my stories had very graphic sex scenes in them (rated MA for ages 21+ according to fanfiction.net's rating system).
In 2012, fanfiction.net split their site in 2, with the original site now being rated E, G, PG, PG13, PG16 stories only. The new site was to contain everything adult rated. Howver, rather then move the adult stories from the old site to the new site, they mass deleted some 60,000 story for being rated R, M, MA, or X, including the entire collection of my "Bride of Sesshomaru" fanfics that had been written using the NaNoWriMo challenge.
Google the event - there are thousands of authors who did not have backups of the stories they posted on fanfiction.net who were devastated by the mass deletion of all adult rated stories (no one was given prior warning it was to happen either.) I am fourtunate in being one of the authors who had backups of my stories and they are now being republished on Amazon.
So here's the thing: the combination of the "I hate you because you write too fast" typhoon of emails to arrive on day 3 of NaNoWriMo 2012, along side the fanfiction.nets mass deletion of pretty much everything I had ever posted on their site (I think there are 2 maybe 3 stories still up), was very discouraging for me and I simply moved on and never went back to either NaNoWriMo or fanfiction.net, instead focusing on editing my Bride of Sesshomaru series into a non-fanfiction fully publishable parody version.
From 2008 to 2013, I used my Twitter account to track my word counts. Because I was offline, due to my health issues, I have not posted word count updates on Twitter since 2013.
If there is anybody on the NaNoWriMo forum after December 2012, using the "EelKat" ID name -they are not me.
My health these past 3 years has not allowed me to have enough time to devote to daily updating word counts, or even writing daily anymore. Until my health improves, I simply am not able be active online. Most days I'm not even able to get out of bed. I'm in bed as much as 18 hrs a day now. My health is very poor. My ability to even stay awake more then 2 or 3 hours to a time is not good these days.
I am deeply saddened to learn that someone out there is taking advantage of my ill health and my not being active online any more, to hijack my online accounts and go out of their way to try to damage my reputation by posting the crap that has been posted via my Kboards and NaNoWriMo accounts these past 2 years.
As most of you know, I have been online since 1997. I have a 2 decades long history of being one of the most helpful go-to people on the internet and some small minded person has gone to a lot of trouble to try to kill my reputation.
For those of you watching this forum and social network drama unfold - please know that it is NOT ME writing those posts. I shut down my accounts. Those accounts using my name and claiming to be me - they are not me. I am very upset to know that out there somewhere is someone who hates me enough to go to such outlandish lengths to defame me and try destroy my reputation. May they burn for eternity in Hell.
What about KBoards?
KBoards? I still don't know what happened over there.
All I know is I was hospitalized, parlazed for 5 months with a serious life threatening back injury, I was NOT online that entire time - because I was paralized - I could NOT move! I was paralized for 5 months, then I was in a wheel chair, then I spent another 5 months relearning to walk. 2013, 2014, 2015, and now still going into 2016, I am still relearning the use of my hands and fingers - yes, I can't type well anymore - it's why you don't see me online any more SINCE OCTOBER 2013 and why I've stopped publishing my weekly short stories & monthly novels & daily blog posts.
Simply put, in 2013, someone drove a backhoe over my house, then beat me up and left me for dead, and now 3 years later I am still recovering from that event which happened August 8, 2013 and I HAVE BEEN OFFLINE EVER SINCE.
All I know is I was hospitalized, paralyzed for 5 months with a serious life threatening back injury, I was NOT online that entire time - because I was paralyzed - I could NOT move!
I was paralyzed for 5 months, then I was in a wheel chair, then I spent another 5 months relearning to walk. 2013, 2014, 2015, and now still going into 2016, I am still relearning the use of my hands and fingers - yes, I can't type well anymore - it's why you don't see me online any more and why I've stopped publishing my weekly short stories - my life these past 3 years has been nothing but one surgery after another, with weeks of recovery in between.
We are 61 days into the year 2016 and I've already had 2 surgeries and have 4 more scheduled within the next 30 days.
I'm not well. Every day is a fight just to stay alive. And somewhere out there is a very mean, very cruel, very cold hearted, very hate filled person who hacked pretty much all of my online accounts.
Over all, I was offline completely for 18 months and only online once every few weeks for the following year. Most of 2013, the ENTIRE YEAR of 2014, and into 2015. I'm only just started to get online again now in February 2016.
Whoever it was that was posting via my accounts on Twitter, FaceBook, KBoards, NaNoWriMo and others from October 2013 to February 2016 - it wasn't me. And I am needless to say, quite upset by what happened.
At some point, someone highjacked my KBoards account (as well my Yahoo, Twitter, WordPress, Blogger, NaNoWriMo and several other accounts) and began re-writing all of my old blog and forum posts, as well as sending out new posts, pretending to be me.
Near as I can tell, the hacker had full control of my accounts throughout most of 2014.
The problem is, I was offline the entire time and no idea it was going on, and being hospitalized, you know, and DYING...I had no way of knowing or even being informed of what was going on, online. I had no way to stop what was happening, because I didn't even know it was happening. And had I died, it likely would still be going on.
Think about that part: I could have died. I could be dead right now, and the hacker would still be posting that shit, and people wouldn't even know I was dead and would still be thinking I was posting that stuff.
I went offline October 2013, after being beat up and left for dead, in my own driveway.
I was notified of the hack 13 months later in November 2014, while in the hospital, prepping for yet another surgery.
I was in the hospital when I got the message of what was going on on my Kboards account. The posts on my Kboards accounts was so horrific, that I didn't wait until recovering to delete those, I deleted those FROM THE HOSPITAL, from the surgery prep waiting room, 10 minutes before going into yet another surgery.
It was March 2015 before I was able to regain access to most of my accounts, at which point I shut them down and deleted the posts.
The KBoards account, was by far the worst of the hackers mess. I did not read all of the posts. I read a few paragraphs of the first 5 or 6 posts and then deleted everything. The things the hacker posted via my accounts was absolutely disgusting and offensive on so many levels.
I am horrified by the monstrous things this hacker did via my accounts. Whoever it was that was posting via my accounts on Twitter, FaceBook, KBoards, NaNoWriMo and others from October 2013 to February 2016 - it wasn't me. People who actually know me, knew it wasn't me - they knew I was dying in the hospital, they knew, I'm still not recovered yet, and they knew it wasn't "my voice". They knew how I "talk" when I write and knew it wasn't me.
Unfortunately, people who don't know me, people who are not my long time followers and readers, did not know, that the person posting on my accounts was no me, and the hacker DID do a lot of damage.
As you can see, from my Twitter account - in 2013, last time I logged in, I had 20,000 followers. In 2016 when I regained control of my account, it had just under 2,000 followers. That's a 90% loss in followers, because a hacker had hijacked my accounts and was posting utter lunacy.
Who did it and why? I don't know. But what is known - the ISPN of the hacker, was a public access computer, at a library, just 14 minutes from my driveway. Whoever the hacker was - they were VERY local. And that's terrifying.
Our primary suspect is the infamous stalker who called herself The Silver Salamander. Her real name and identity is unknown. I have received threats from a local NaNoWriMo member for several years (since 2006) every November. This is the same NaNoWriMo member who every year starts a thread on NaNoWriMo forums title "Will someone please kill EelKat for me?" and from what people have told me, appears to be the person spreading the lies that falsely accuse me of being a NaNoWriMo ML.
This is the same NaNoWriMo member who created 52 fake Amazon accounts to blast all of my books with 52 fake 1 star reviews which said: "retarded books, with retarded characters, written by retards, for retards" followed by the statements "we need to kill her career" and "she ought to be shot in the head". These are IDENTICAL to the statements that were made, interestingly enough, by 52 accounts on KBoards forums, during the time period of the hijacking of my accounts. It appears that whoever this Silver Salamander person is, they are the one behind the hacking and hijacking of my Kboards, NaNoWriMo, Twitter, and other accounts.
Frighteningly, a red haired woman, wearing "Janis Joplin glasses" CLAIMING to be this Silver Salamander person, has a bad habit of showing up at local cafes and restaurants around town to scream death threats to my face. (She claims to be an unpublished author in competition with me, stating I'm publishing too many books too fast and getting too far ahead of her, citing that she will "do what it takes to destroy your career". She shows up every time I publish a new book. Who this stalker is, why she is targeting me, or why she has unleashed this terrifyingly, wild, psychotically deranged vendetta against me, remains unknown.
Another suspect - This very massive hacking, is very similar to the hacks that happened in 2007 and 2010. And we do know who did that. The man was a "professional hacker" hacks, business security systems for a living. The man you all know as "My Stalker". He went to prison in September 2011. From September 2011 to August 2014. Yes. He's been released from prison. And he lives 1 block away, from the public access computer that was used to hack my accounts.
I've heard rumours, from you people emailing me - you've suggested that I have been on KBoards forums in 2013, 2014, and 2015. No. I haven't. If there is anybody on the KBoards forum after 2012, using the "EelKat" ID name -they are not me.
When I was informed that my old account became a "zombie account" (meaning a forum account where the owner had not logged in, for more then a year, then suddenly became active with uncharacteristic posts), I went to KBoards October 27, 2014 to see what people were talking about. Yes. It was true, someone had resurrected my account and was plagiarizing my old blog posts off of my WordPress blog (not used since 2010), rewriting them and making it look like I was posting new forum posts on KBoards. I deleted all of the posts, contacted the forum admins to tell them what happened and requested they lock down my account. I don't know if thy did or not, as I have not been back to KBoards since.
If my account is still activated on KBoards, it should have ZERO posts on it, because I wiped the account. Any posts showing on my Kboards account after August 2013 were NOT written by me.
Meet The Kboards Hacker:
Since 1997 SpaceDock 13 Was An Author Homepage To Find Out About My Books
Since 2003 This Site Was a Database of 6,000+ How-To Articles For Writers & Self-Publishers
In 2013 I went offline After a Cyber Bully Went Offline To Beat Me Up At College...
From November 2013 to March 2016 I was recovering From My Injuries...
From November 2013 to March 2016 a Hacker Was On My Site, Impersonating Me, and Rewriting All of My Articles :(
Now In 2016 All of my 20 years of hard work, have been obliterated by a small minded, evil hearted, jealous, hate mongering terrorist bigot.
Yes, the 6,000 How To Write & Self Publish Articles Are No Longer Online. It Took Me 20 Years To Write Them, and Three Years For A Hacker To Destroy Them
Will The Articles Return? Not Likely As I Have A.L.S. (Lou Gerhig's Disease) Which Is The REASON WHY I Was Doing the 2015/2016 Cross Country Book Signing Tour
Which as You Know Was Canceled Because The Same Cyberbully, Attempted Murderer, Stalker, Hate Monger, Attacked offline again Vandalising My Tour Bus 3 Days Before The Start Date of The Tour And Kidnapping My Cats.
In Response To The Monstrously Horrific Acts of Hate This Stalker Has Committed, My web site Is Now Being Changed...
...And Instead Of Being A Place For Authors To Seek Advice In Self-Publishing, as it has been for 19 years...
...It Is Now Going To Tell You What Happened...
The Illness I Have, Means That Even If I Survive This Stalker's Increasingly Violent attacks,
I Still Will Not Live To See The Next Decade...
...But I will Live, Long enough, To Expose To The World, The TRUTH Of The CyberBully Attacks That Went Offline
Don't Let What Happened To Me Happen To Someone Else
Don't Let What These Bigoted Hate Mongering Terrorists Did To Me Be Forgotten
Never let it be forgotten the terror and destruction brought about by bigoted hate mongers who let their false rumours and wild imaginations run away with them...
End The Hate Know The Truth
Never Forget, What The Gay-Hating Residents of Old orchard Beach, Did To The Crippled STRAIGHT Woman, They Falsely Accused of Being A Transexual Gay Man.
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November 14, 2013: A man with a 4-door white pick up truck beat me up, paralyzing me for 5 months, leaving me 18 months relearning to walk and type, resulting in my being offline from November 14, 2013 to March 30, 2016
From November 2013 to March 2016 an as of yet unidentified (LOCAL - ISPN 7 miles from my home) hacker, took over 300+ of my forum, social network, etc accounts, impersonating me, pretending to be me and slandering my reputation with several thousand wild and outrageous posts, spreading monstrous rumors and lies about me via all of my accounts...
I was horrified to return to the internet after 3 years of medical leave, to find my accounts in shambled, totally taken over and hijacked by a monstrous stalking troll, unlike anything I have ever encountered.
All of my old accounts are gone now and a new account has been created, to set the record straight about the rumours spread by the Kboards Hacker in my 3 year absence.
The Truth Behind The Rumours: Debunking The Lies Spread By My Stalker: EelKat Responds To The Kboard's Hacker's Posts
Welcome to the REAL Old Orchard Beach Where Gun Toting Gay Hating Bullies Stalk A Crippled, Half Blind, Retarded Autistic Girl and Murder Her Pets Because They Falsely Believes Her To Be a Gay Transvestite, Simply Because She Writes Transvestite Fictional Characters
PLEASE HELP ME.
June 10, 2016 - Old Orchard Beach's psycho lunatic in a 4 door white pick up truck stalking me again. Threatening to kill me with gun. Following me to work. Using his truck to try to push me off the road. The Transphobic Gay Hater who tried to run me off the road then followed me to work - AGAIN. I am a mentally retarded autistic (and not gay) senior woman that he (she?) is falsely accusing of being gay and therefore deserving of being shot in the head.
The murder of 12 cats (poisoned), 2 cats (beheaded), 75 pet roosters (hung in noses in my rose bushes), a bomb blew up my house (October 18, 2006), a backhoe drove over my barn (July 2001),pictures of guns keep being left on my front door, 3 dogs murdered (one hung in tree), backhoe drove over my house (April 2008), car cut in half (May 2010), backhoe drove over my house (August 8, 2013), beaten up and left for dead - paralyzed 5 months - 18 month relearning to walk - now crippled for the rest of my life (November 14, 2013), 3 feet deep of feces put in my motorhome (April 10, 2015), 10 cats kidnapped - their heads beaten in (April 10, 2015), bullet holes shot through hen house (February 2014), 7 dump trucks of garbage tires and appliances were dumped on my gardens - creating a junk pile 175' long, 30' wide and 12' tall...
An unidentified man with the 4 door white pick-up truck is currently following me everywhere I go, trying to force me off the road...and is believed to be the same white truck that has been seen leaving my driveway every time one of these events happened.
He arrives in my driveway carrying a gun and yelling "That is Ken's son, that thing is too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach, Kill or be killed, remember what the transexual did at Saco Shaws, we got to kill them, before they kill us all". I do not know who this man is or why he is doing it. If you know this man's identity, please report him to the police.
This guy is not much bigger then me, only about 5'6" or 5'7", very skinny, wears really big dark sunglasses that cover most of his face, and wears a shaggy white wig that resembles a messed up version of the "Moe haircut" from The Three Stooges. He never gets close enough for me to see his face and it could possibly be a woman disguised as a man.
There also appears to be THREE DIFFERENT 4-door white trucks. one had black door handles, another DID NOT, and one had "side spoilers" at the back windows with swirl design shaped windows in it. (The Maine plates but it is difficult to read a license plate while the psychopath driver is using their truck as a battering ram to push you off the road.)
Shortly after the truck follows me (with-in a half hour) a blond woman shows up and raises hell in my workplace, screaming through the store as loud as she can: "That is EelKat, that's a man. that THING wants to kill my husband!"
The woman, is about 50 or 60, has saloon straightened shoulder length "striped" fake blond hair (stripes of bleach blond and dark blond).
This same woman has attacked me multiple times while I was grocery shopping at Saco, Shaws, where she rams a shopping cart into my crippled leg as hard as she can...while ranting and chanting "It's kill or be killed! The Transexuals are all alike! Remember Saco Shaws!" (A transexual murdered someone in Saco Shaws in 2015.)
This woman is about the same build as the wig-wearing man in the 4 door white pick-up truck and I believe, the "man" who follows me is actually this woman, ironically BEING A TRANSVESTITE herself by DRESSING LIKE A MAN.
Interestingly, both the wig man and the blond woman are the same build as the cyber bully who calls herself "NaNowriMo ML Kendra Silvermander", the woman who has for several years posted death threats on the NaNoWriMo State of Maine Regional Forums. She yearly starts a thread titled "Will someone please kill EelKat for me?"
A bomb was put in my house October 18, 2006, two days after she put an online request for a hit man on the NaNoWriMo forum October 16, 2006.
Yes NaNoWriMo was alerted to the slew of death threats flooding their forum (more then once, with the last time being October 2013, days before I was attacked and crippled November 2013)... and being posted by one of THEIR OWN EMPLOYEES.
NaNoWriMo's DragonChilde's response was this: "We always side with our ML in matters like this. The ML is always right."
To my knowledge NaNoWriMo never looked into the death threats, not even after the bomb blew up my house in October 2006 nor after the psychopath beat me up and crippled me for life in November 2013.
Kendra's favorite phrases to post on the NaNoWriMo forum are:
"EelKat deserves to be shot in the head. It's my turn to shine!"
"I'm going to shoot EelKat in the head. She keeps stepping on my toes. It's my turn to shine!"
"Will someone please shoot EelKat in the head for me? It's my turn to shine!"
"Retards don't deserve to live. EelKat is retarded. She should die and make the world a better place."
"Retarded authors shouldn't be allowed to write. EelKat writes retarded books, about retarded characters, by retarded authors, for retarded readers."
"How come a retard can get published and I can't? It's my turn to shine!"
"Retards ought to be shot in the head."
"Will someone please kill EelKat for me? She wants to steal my thunder! It's my turn to shine!"
In person she has additionally phrases:
"It's not November. You're not allowed to write. I'm the ML. I get to say who can write. Don't you dare write another book. I'm the ML, not you, ME! Stop stepping on my toes! It's my turn to shine! Stop stealing my thunder!"
If she sees me in a public place writing, she goes into a rage saying I'm only allowed to write novels in November and only during NaNoWriMo and only if she says I can, citing because she's the NaNoWriMo ML of Maine no one in the state of Maine is allowed to write without getting her permission first (one time when she did this I was not even writing a novel, but instead writing an essay for college class.) When she sees me writing in public, she also accuses me of "holding NaNoWriMo Write-Ins and pretending to be a NaNoWriMo ML. I've been writing in public places (as do most authors) since 1983 a good decade before NaNoWriMo existed.
(I'm not sure why, but she also is constantly accusing me of being an ML - I'm not, never have been, can't figure out why she's accusing me of such- and has had several very public mental breakdowns of screaming hysteria, while accusing me of being after her "ML job". She seems to think that EVERY author who writes in public is trying to "steal" her "thunder!")
I had never met her or heard of her before she showed up at Panera. We had never crossed paths online, though I have since learned that she has been posting these death threats and rants online for well over a decade.
I had never met her or heard of her before she showed up at Panera. We had never crossed paths online, though I have since learned that she has been posting these death threats and rants online for well over a decade.
In person, like a broken record she gets stuck on certain lines while talking:
"It's my turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine! My turn to shine!"
...and seems to not have the ability to "turn the chant off" once it gets started.
She is obsessed with using the word "retard" and "retarded" and many variations of the phrase "shot in the head" and ends most sentences with "It's my turn to shine" as though it were a period.
In her forum posts, she brags steadily of "I'm supposed to be on meds" and "I can't do NaNoWriMo while taking my meds." And brags to stop taking her "meds" every April, May, October, and November, in order to "compete in NaNoWriMo" (NaNoWriMo is not a competition).
Interestingly, ALL of the vandalisms, hate crimes, violence, bombs, pet murders, beatings, etc that have occurred between 2001 and 2016, have ALL occurred in April, May, October, and November, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.
INTERESTING FACT: 2015 and 2016 saw STEADY attacks on my pets and property, starting April 2015. Also that same time, NaNoWriMo rolled out MONTHLY all year long writing challenges, no longer just in April and November.
Whoever this Kendra person is, she seems to be an unpublished author with a serious inferiority complex and is trying to "boost" herself by violently attacking published authors, and has a violently dangerous mental disorder that surfaces every time she stops taking her "meds".
A woman claiming to be Kendra has shown up at several restaurants while I was eating, to threaten me in person, citing that she is an unpublished author and "You had better not publish another book before I do". Often threatening to shoot me in the head if I dare publish a novel before she does. She often says while laughing "I'm off my meds."
Kendra in person, is TERRIFYING. She screams steady, yelling loudly, shrieking hysterically, flying clenched fists in my face, punching walls and slamming things on tables, and has wild infuriated eyes filled with raging insanity. I grew up with the Scottish Travellers - a Gypsy clan known for it's high strung violent leaders and I've never seen anyone as violently deranged and psychopathic out of their head as this strange Kendra woman who attacks me at Panera is. I have had to stop eating at the Panera restaurant in Westbrook because of her repeated and violent attacks.
This Kendra person looks like Janis Joplin, is about 50 to 60, has long red curly hair (that looks to be a "Brave" wig) and is prone to hysterically screaming at the top of her lungs and making big scenes.
It is my belief that Kendra Silvermander person, the blond woman, and the wig man are in fact all ONE PERSON, given they all have a similar body type/height/build and are all prone to wild shrieking fits in public places.
Interestingly ALL THREE of these people are convinced that I am a man, and accuse me of being gay and transexual.
I am a woman. I've had 2 miscarriages. Men can't do that. Females can't be gay.
I CosPlay a bi-sexual transvestite Elf Wizard from Dungeons and Dragons at comic book conventions, festivals, and beaches and it appears my stalker can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality, believing the "gay" Elf wizard to be a real person. (Though the character is bi-sexual, ALL THREE of these people, refer to him as "gay" clearly not knowing the difference. Also they refer to him as a transexual, which he isn't, the character only wears dresses, he makes no attempt to be a female. Again, this stalker doesn't know the meanings of these words.)
Whoever this person is he/she is seriously psychotically deranged, very dangerous, carries weapons, uses a 4-door white pick-up truck as a weapon, has tried to kill me twice now (the bomb that blew up my house in 2006 and crippling me in 2013), and has killed dozens of my pets.
This person is HIGHLY DANGEROUS and claims to be ARMED, If you see them, DO NOT approach them. Please, call the police and help them put this mentally deranged psychopath in prison.
Please, if you know who this person is, please tell the police, please help me BEFORE he/she kills me!
EelKat as Quaraun the Insane, The Gay Transvestite Moon Elf Wizard
I am a female and I am a CosPlayer, I CosPlay transvestite Elves and transvestite demons from comic books and because I CosPlay non-human transvestite characters from fantasy and science fiction comic book at festivals, this man believes I am what he terms "a gay transexual terrorist". This man can not tell the difference between reality and a costume of a fictional character.
I am not gay, not transexual, not a terrorist, but he refuses to believe this and is 100% convinced that he must in his words "I keep a gun under the seat of my truck for shooting woodchucks, I'm gonna blow your head off, you thing"
We believe this to be the same man who beat me up crippling me, as well as the same man who hacked my online accounts and impersonated me online for 3 years.
He never gets close enough for me to see his face. I don't know who he is. This man is a terrorist. He is threatening to kill me, because he thinks I'm gay. Please help me, BEFORE HE KILLS ME.
EelKat as Quaraun the Insane, The Gay Transvestite Moon Elf Wizard
Now on a cane and crippled for the rest of her life, because the gay-haters of Old Orchard Beach see nothing wrong with beating up a woman they FALSELY BELIEVE to be a gay man, leaving her paralized for 5 months, spending 3 years relearning to walk and type.
And while she was offline those 3 years recovering from the attempted murder, the gay haters added insult to injury by hacking all of her online accounts and impersonating her, writing many lewd child porn posts, while bragging of being "a gay transexual" in their monstrous attempt to convice the world I was what they term "a gay transexual terrorist"
THIS is the reality of what it means to live in the gay-hating community of Old Orchard Beach.
They tried to kill me, they tried to impersonate me, but after 3 years offline and 3 years of no Gay Elf Wizard greeting the tourists on the beach... I'm back, and the character I Cosplay is gayer than ever now...and seeing how I'm the author of the books he's featured in...I've rewritten one of the novels, crippling him, putting him on a cane, thus allowing me to continue to CosPlay him, now that I am stuck on a cane.
Who Is EelKat?
A lot of you already know me, but if you don't, my name is EelKat Wendy Christine Allen. I am the founder of the Procter & Gamble Boycott; the "Gypsy witch" from Stephen King's movie The Thinner (not the actress in the movie, but the REAL Gypsy witch the actress acted out); and owner of the World's Most Haunted Car, the real life car Stephen King's "Christine" was based off of.
I am an author, artist, & art car designer. I began publishing stories in 1978. Since than I have published 170+ novels, 600+ short stories, 2,000+ non-fiction articles, a few Disney comic book scripts, and a few dozen stage plays. I am also a Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsen Fey Marija Loa to Damballa Weddo and the current Queen of the Scottish Gypsy clan of Maine.
I have lived in Old Orchard Beach, on the Ricker Homestead (aka the filming location of the movie The Thinner) since 1975, where I write my books, grow insane amounts of rose bushes, and build the wild art cars, locals know me for, including The Dazzling Razzberry aka The Autism Awareness Car and No Hurry/Rosebud aka The Transgender Awareness Tour Bus.
From 1997 to 2013 I was active on 300+ forums and 60+ social network accounts, at one point having a fan base of 3 million followers across these accounts.
On November 14, 2013, I simply vanished offline. Paralyzed/hospitalized and with no way to contact you to tell you what happened, EelKat simply disappeared from the internet without a trace, not to return again, until: March 30, 2016.
At some point between November 2013 and August 2014, a hacker took over nearly all of my online accounts and has been impersonating me on forums and social networks for the past 3 years.
After being beaten/paralyzed I have been offline, recovering & relearning to walk & type. I am now returning online, crippled for the rest of my life (I will never be able to walk unaided again & can only type with 1 hand now). I am returning online after 3 year medical leave, to find that nearly all of my social network and forum accounts were hacked/hijacked by an unknown troll who has spent the past 3 years impersonating me online and, near as I can tell, doing quite a bit of damage to my reputation.
I have shut down most of my social network and forum accounts as I am simply not medically able to deal with the mess the hacker has made of my online accounts, and seeing how I am not yet recovered enough to type, to tell you why I was offline the last 3 years, I have now started a YouTube channel to talk to you via videos instead.
The hacker was able to impersonate me on forums, largely because of the autonominity of forums - you can not see my face or hear my voice to know if it really is me on the other side or not. For this reason I have shut down my forum accounts and from now on will be talking to you via YouTube videos so that you can see my face and hear my voice and know for certain, you really are talking to the REAL EelKat and not someone trying to deceive you by impersonating me.
Yes, after 3 years of medical hell, I'm back online. These first few months I'll be testing video making, so expect crappy videos at first while I figure out how to make them. Look for my none-test "actual" videos (filmed in my writing office instead of my car) to start showing up after September 23, 2016.
In the meantime, I am looking for ideas and suggestions from my fans, for what kind of videos you want to see me start making. I'm taking your ideas and requests now, and will start making your requested videos in September 2016.
If you have questions you want me to answer in an upcoming video, or have an idea for a video for me to make, you can send your questions and/or ideas to me at:
EelKat Wendy C Allen
146 Portland Ave
Old Orchard Beach, ME 04064-1520
(Yes, I do save all your postcards, cards, and letters. I started collecting your wonderful fan mail in 1997 and haven't thrown any of them away. I still have every single letter, postcard, and card you've ever sent me. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I love it when you send me postcards of your home town. Thank you so much for sending them!)
Welcome to my YouTube Channel, please subscribe to get updated on the newest videos.Thank you for stopping by and as always, have a great and glorious sunny shinny day and may all your clouds be lined with rhinestones.
Hugs and kisses to my wonderful fans. Love you all! Talk to you again soon.
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Answering Reader Question (May 2016)
[QUOTE=name removed]I'm a member of several Kindle Facebook groups, as well as dedicated Kindle forums. Believe it or not, a lot of the tips mentioned here are actually superior to the advice I get from those other sources, who knew?
Anyway, I would like to know what factors come into play when building a solid Kindle author brand or platform. I know that this is crucial to developing a sustainable self-selling system for books on Amazon. I also already know that book quality is crucial.
Of course, you have to give your customers what they're looking for. But outside of that, what other factors come into play when it comes to building a credible and powerful author brand? This might seem like a simple or even naïve question, but I hope it isn’t. Why? Let's face it, if quality is the only arbiter of success, then there would be a lot more successful authors on Kindle, but there isn’t.
There are many authors out there that probably substandard stuff who makes money hand over fist. I've also read Kindle books that are really well-written, well-thought-out, and expertly put together and they're gathering cyber dust. What gives?[/QUOTE]
For me, the factors that came into play for building an author brand (because Kindle wasn't around when I started) was interaction with my fans.
I love my fans. I love meeting my fans. I love chatting with my fans online. I love signing books for them. I love having my picture taken with them. etc. etc. etc.
That means doing book signing tours, having booths at carnivals, conventions, festivals, etc.
That means business cards, posters, press releases to newspapers, etc.
I don't do online marketing, at least not in the traditional way people think of it. I don't use email or lists or affiliates or squeeze pages or any of those things.
I do more offline marketing, and my biggest offline marketer is my car, which has 2.5million marbles glued to every inch of it. I have signs about my books taped to the windows, and I work at Maine's largest WalMart. So for 8 hours a day, my car is sitting in front of WalMart advertising my books, as no one can resist stopping to touch a car that is covered in marbles.
This results in a lot of local people buying my books, and in turn results in a lot of local fans, hanging around my car, waiting for me to come out of work, so they can get their books signed and get photos with me and my car. Most days it takes me more then an hour to get from the parking lot after work, as there is always someone at my car, and often more then 30 people to a time, at my car.
Globally I'm not a high sales author and most of my books are bottom feeders, each selling 1 to 3 copies a week. If you live in Maine, than I'm probably a household word in your family, but outside of Maine chances are you've never heard of me. Most people know if they hover around my Amazon page long enough, all my books eventually go free at least once every 90 days, so I get lots of high spikes of free downloads and not many sales in between free days as a result. I'm fine with this, because money never was my goal in writing books.
Another thing that attracts local readers for me, is the very localness of my books. All of my books are set in Maine and feature Maine speaking characters, Maine foods, Maine landmarks, Maine restaurants...if you don't live in Maine a lot of the "Easter Eggs" in my books will be lost on you, but Mainers pick it up and are "OMG! I used to eat there! Ayah, that place is just like this."
So for me, author branding is about [B]Knowing Your Audience[/B].Now, I COULD write a more popular genre, one that attracts readers the world over, but, I don't. I like the genre I write. I have fun writing the genre I write. And so that's why you don't see me doing a lot of online marketing and instead see me doing a lot of local offline marketing. Simple fact is, most of the readers for the stuff I write are local residents in a 14 mile radious of my home.
When I say I write local, I mean very local. Not even the entire state of Maine is my target audience, but rather, just a tiny 5 town section of Maine, known as The Saco Bay Region.
So for me, it's all about targeting my readers. And knowing what my readers want. I know everyone says to know your audience, but most people really don't know their audience. They think they do, but if I asked you the following, could answer them?
Where does you target audience eat?
What car does your target audience drive?
Where do they work?
Where do they shop?
What is their income?
Where do they live?
How many children do hey have?
I can answer those questions. Can you?
Where does you target audience eat?
Pepperell Square, Saco Maine: Pizza by Micheal, The Golden Rooster, or Rapid Rays, being the most popular of the many little hole in the wall restaurants my readers eat at in Pepperell Square
What car does your target audience drive?
Cadillac, Lincoln. Roll Royce, sometimes a Hearse. Big, fancy, expensive, also 20 or 30 or 40 years old, very rusty, and probably bought it for under $1,000 off craigslist. Usually painted something like pink and purple zebra stripes, with rhinestone spokes, and skulls on the dash.
Where do they work?
Pepperell Mill, Northdam Mill, WalMart, 7-11, or one of the many little tiny mom-n-pop shops that fill this mill town district. Or they are lobstermen, sprimpmen, or alwivemem, or they run the amusment park rides at Palace Playland or Funtown or Aquaboggan or they run the scam joints, I mean souvenir shop that sell .99c China junk for $100 to the tourists in the summer. Hey, this is Old Orchard Beach. A town run by us Gypsies. Hey, Stephen King filmed Thinner here for a reason.
Where do they shop?
WalMart, 7-11, or one of the many little tiny mom-n-pop shops that fill this mill town district.
What is their income?
The average 2 income family of 8, according to USA .gov census of 2014 is $24,000 a year.
Where do they live?
In the many little 4 to 8 family townhouses that line the river up and down the mills.
How many children do hey have?
Average is 6. No one less then 4. Several have more then 12. At least one has 15. And that's CHILDREN PER WIFE. Oh, yeah, I did say PER WIFE. Polygamy is not uncommon around here.
That is my target audience: the residents of Saco Bay, Maine, which includes the towns: Old Orchard Beach, Saco, Biddeford, Scarborough, Pine Point, Ocean Park, and Camp Elise.
Approximately 26,000 people, about half of which I have meet face to face, and about 3,000 of which I know on a first name basis.
Now I know that is a bit extreme, but it does show you that, I know who my target readers are and because I know them so very well, I can write EXACTLY what they want to read.
Sure, it's harder to be as detailed in a more global market, but I find it's far better to cater to a small target, rather then just scattering books out at random and praying every person on the planet will read them.
Online authors are always telling me: "Do more marketing", "Get a list!", blah, blah...uhm... 1/3 of my target audience, doesn't have electricity, let alone the internet...half of them have never heard of Amazon. I spent an hour last summer, trying to explain to a local man, that Amazon was website, on a computer... because he wanted to read one of my books, and that particular book is a Kindle only book, there is no print edition. His response was to yell at me, saying it was highway robbery for me to force him to buy a plane ticket and fly all the way to South America, to buy my book at some exclusive bookstore in the Amazon rainforest. A guy in America, in his 40s, in 2015. Didn't know what the internet was. Never heard of Amazon or ebooks. And most of Maine is like that. I'm a freak because I have a computer - there is a local pastor who runs around telling people, I am the child of Satan, because own a computer. Hey, Welcome to Maine.
THAT is my target audience. That is why most of my books are print only, and sold locally. That is why I don't focus my marketing online or with email lists.
And THAT is how I've built an "author brand" that has lasted 40 years. Online & globally, few people know my books. But offline and locally, here in Maine, I bigger household word then Stephen King. No one in Maine reads Stephen King, and no one in Maine really likes him, he never comes out of that house, never out and about, hobnobbing with the locals or hugging his fans and signing books and posing for pictures, like I do.
So there are different ways of looking at it. Globally, someone like King is seen as a huge success, because the whole world knows his name. But locally, everybody is, "Oh yeah, that's just Stephen King, He don't talk to anybody any more." But then, globally, no one has ever heard of me, but locally everybody is: "OMG! It's EelKat, Is she on her way into The Golden Rooster? I'm gonna go see if I can grab a seat at her table, she invites fans to eat with her you know. I've had dinner with her before. She's cool. She's don't chase her fans out like Stephen King does. She loves her fans."
I do love my fans. And I never know who's eating with me. But somebody always is.
That's my reputation. That's what I'm known for: I love my fans. I eat dinner with my fans. I go shopping with my fans.
I've had people tell me, that what I do is what is called "a politician personality". A person who acts like they are campaigning for an election, so is always there to smile for the camera, and small talk with "the little people" (There are also locals who petition trying to get me to run for various local offices, but I have no interest in politics.)
So, success becomes a matter of perspective here: Most people online, would probably see my Kindle sales are a failure of epic proportions. But then again, they's never seen me drive a rhinestone encrusted Volvo at the head of a local parade either.
There is much more to success then money: there is love, family, and community as well. And those are things I value far more then money. Which is WHY you don't see me trying to cater to a global market, why you don't see me putting more of my books on Kindle... I care about my local community, and my local community knows that. I'm not after hoards of money and online internet marketing glory. I'm here to make the lives of the people in my home town, better, happier, more filled with joy. And in that, I'm very successful.
I think, before any author can try to build a "successful author brand" the first thing they need to know, is what do they deem the word "success" to be, what type of author do they want to be seen as to their fans, and what talents do they have that they can use to promote reaching those goals.
The answer is going to be different for every author.
And finally: Beware of underhanded tactics of the new breed of so-called self published author - the type that impersonates you online, hijacks all your forum and social network accounts, then posts lewd, psychotic, hateful, mean, crap via your own accounts, pretending to be you, while posting very derogatory stuff in an attempt to destroy your career and reputation as an author.
I know of 73 authors this has happened to - all 73 of them had accounts with Kboards & NaNoWriMo and suspect it was BECAUSE they were on those 2 forums, that their accounts with hacks and hijacked.
It happened to me, that's how I found out about it. Here's what happened:
I joined the internet in 1997. Between 1997 and 2013 I had created more then 300 forum & social network accounts. I had a huge online following, including 20,000 followers on Twitter. I also had a reputation of helping everyone, never saying an unkind word, helping mediate forum wars to keep the peace, and giving away thousands of copies of my books for free when every one said doing so was crazy - because I would rather see my fans happy then make scads of money.
I wrote 1,371 "How To" articles for authors (most of the articles between 7,000 to 20,000 words long, each) on how to get ideas, how to create characters, how to self publish, how to market, etc, etc, etc.
In 2003 I started the "Ask EelKat" advice column, where I weekly, sometimes daily, answered reader questions about writing, publishing, etc. Between 2003 and 2013 I had written 6,000 articles for the series, most 700 to 2,000 words each.
Then in 2013, I simply vanished from the internet, not to return until March 2016.
November 14, 2013 someone beat me up, leaving me paralyzed. I started training to learn how to walk again February 2014, but fell, damaging the same injury and would not be able to try to relearn to walk until May 2014.
I spent May 2014 to October 2014 relearning to walk.
From October 2014 to March 2015, I began relearning to use my hands and relearning to type.
By March 2016, I have regained the use of 3 fingers of one hand and now type with those 3 finger. When you know that my highest clocked typing speed was 175 words per minute and in 2010 I averaged 91 words per minute, you then relive how frustrating it is now, that I have lost the use of my hands, which for me is far more frustrating then the loss of the use of my legs.
It is now May 2016 and I am out of the wheelchair and walking with a cane, and do most of my typing now with the help of a DigiMemo because I still have limited use of my hands.
And yet, I now find out that the online world, HAD NO IDEA I was offline, hospitalized, crippled, paralyzed, and dying, for 3 years, because, for those same 3 years, my online accounts went psycho frenzy crazy, posting a lot of very out of character posts.
Unknown to me at the time, was that a NaNoWriMo ML had hired a hitman to kill me and then hacked my accounts pretending to be me, in an attempt to destroy my 20 years of building a reputation as the #1 go to guru for writing advice. Her most notable posts were the 3,000+ wild, crazed, rants that she let lose on Kboards from 2013 through 2015 - posting from MY PROFILE - pretending she was me!!!!!!
Why this woman did this? I'm not sure. I still don't yet know the identity of this psychotically deranged, very dangerous woman who typed to have me killed, then spent 3 years impersonating me online.
What we do know, is that she is the same woman who in 2010, sent my several thousand emails in the month of October, all saying that, she could not write, it was my fault, and lots of threats that, if I dared to publish another book before she did, she would blow my brains out.
Near as I can tell, the woman behind the nightmarish hack of my online accounts, is an unpublished novelist (in serious need of mental help) and turned to insane levels of cyber stalking, rather then just writng her book and trying to get it published.
Why have I told you this?
Because... you asked
[QUOTE=name removed]There are many authors out there that probably substandard stuff who makes money hand over fist. I've also read Kindle books that are really well-written, well-thought-out, and expertly put together and they're gathering cyber dust. What gives?[/QUOTE]
I wrote my first book in 1978.
It is now 40 years, 170+ novels, 600+ short stories, 2,000+ articles, a few comic books, and a couple dozen stage plays later.
What have I learned?
Be it print or ebooks, doesn't matter 90% of what gets published, is never going to sell 5,000 copies in it's ENTIRE published lifetime. That has been the way the publishing industry has been for over a century. That's never gonna change.
If you want to be an author, and you want to make sales, you learn to do one of 2 things
#1: You write one book, you publish that book, and then you market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, market, .. for the rest of your life or until you get bored with that book and write a second book.
This works because every time someone turns around, there you are, and eventually they get so sick of seeing your face, they buy your book. (And do know the difference between spamming and marketing...learn to market without spamming.)
#2: You write one book, publish that book, write a second book, publish that book, write a third book, publish that book, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, for the rest of your life or until you decide writing is not the career for you.
This works because every time someone turns around, there you are with yet another new book release, and eventually they get so sick of seeing your face, they buy your book, and then buy another, and another, and another...
Note that on Kindle, this method only work if you publish a new title EVERY SINGLE MONTH like clockwork.
So what does any of all that have to do with this?
[QUOTE=name removed]There are many authors out there that probably substandard stuff who makes money hand over fist. I've also read Kindle books that are really well-written, well-thought-out, and expertly put together and they're gathering cyber dust. What gives?[/QUOTE]
The substandard stuff that makes lots of money, usually is someone doing a sit load ton of marketing or publishing monthly releases.
The well-written, expertly put together books collecting dust, are usually someone who has done none or only minimal marketing, and/or has a year or more between book releases.
Unfortunately, the authors of these well written flops, have started a trend of cyber attacks on forums (including on Amazon reviews - which is in fact a forum) and results in the type of things, you saw the stalker woman doing to me.
Saddly, I wish I could say it was a one time case of one very immature, unprofessional author having a 3-year long meltdown in my accounts, and therefor an isolated incident. The sad fact of it is, it was not an isolated case, and like I said, it happened to 73 authors who were on the Kboards forums. All those "Big Name Authors" who used to write the big helpful threads on Kboards and then suddenly vanished, some of them off the internet entirely? Where did they go? Well, at least 3 of them are now dead - yeah - dead. 2 of them we killed by a psychotic rival author on a rampage, and a third one commit suicide. A 4th one had her face cut off with a broken bottle. I just told you what happened to me.
No, it wasn't one author on a rampage. It turns out, each of us, was attacked by a completely different stalker! Yeah - it wasn't one deranged person attacking 73 authors - it 73 deranged people attacking authors, it what has become a very bad trend in low-sales authors, attacking, any author they think might possibly be out-selling them.
I've been in the publishing industry for 40 years now, and I've never seen anything like this, frightening new trend of authors impersonating authors on forums, in blatant attempts to damage their reputations, or this even more terrifying trend of author killing author, just to stop an author from having more sales then them.
It's why you don't see me on a lot of forums any more. WF is one of the few places you can still find me online - I used to have 300 forum accounts, and I've shut them all down.
I used to have 32 blogs, I took them offline.
All my how to articles for authors have been removed from the internet, the 200+ websites I used to run - I shut them down too.
SHE HACKED EVERYTHING!
It took me 20 years to build all of those websites... I don't have another 20 years o repair the damages she did to them, my health is not good. So I just shut them all down. This site you are reading right now, is the only one I have left, and I've had to password access 6,000 of it's pages, because yes, she even hacked here and it's going to take me years just to find all the trash crap hacking she did and fix it.
This psychopath hacked all of my accounts. It was a nightmare.
Here I was in the hospital, dying for 3 years, and I come back online, after 3 years offline, to find THIS had been done to my accounts. This women went out of her head insane. She hacked my forum accounts, my social networks, my blogs, my websites...I couldn't believe the stuff I was finding!
And that's just the stuff she did online. I haven't even told you about the stuff she did offline! My family lives in mortal terror: a bomb blew up my house, my car was cut in half, my cats were kidnapped - their heads returned, and now I'm crippled for the rest of my life, all because one seriously mentally disturbed author had writer's block and decided I had published too many books.
It baffles me, what could possibly have been going through this woman's mind, to cause her to do these things. It saddens me to know, that there exists in our world people who can become so full of hate and jealousy and greed, that they could set out to try to hurt another living being. I hope the woman who did these things is able to get the help she so very obviously needs.
Does any of this help you or actually answer you question? I don't know. I hope it does.
In any case, many hugs and kisses to you. Have yourself a gloriously wonderful day, and may all your clouds be lined with rhinestones.
Lots of love from
My House July 2013
My House August 8, 2013 with vandal's backhoe on top of it
A few days later I was beaten up and left for dead. I was paralized for 5 months.
I've spent 2 years - bedridden, then in a wheelchair, then on crutches, then a walker, and now a cane, while relearning to walk, type, write, and just stand up.
From August 2013 to February 2016 I was not online.
Whoever hijacked, hacked, and took control of my accounts, it is very likely the same person who tried to kill me.
So, No, answering your question: I don't know what happened on Kboards, I was too busy trying not to die, fighting to stay alive, going from surgery to surgery, and relearning to walk, to have time for forums, social networks, blogging, or ANYTHING else online or offline.
And yes, I am very unhappy, to learn that there is psychotic lunatic criminal out there who hates me so much that they would go to these extreme levels of absolutely psychopathic violent insanity to destroy my life by destroying my house, my health, my career, and my reputation.
Whoever owns that backhoe - they belong in prison.
Whoever beat me up - they belong in prison.
Whoever hacked my online accounts - they belong in prison.
Whoever the stalker is behind these outlandish, barbaric, hate filled attacked - they are seriously mentally deranged on a violently dangerous level and this stalker belongs in mental institute.
If you know who is behind these attacks: please go to the police, because this is a very dangerous person.
They tried to kill me - that's attempted murder, that's a very serious crime and if you know who this person is and you protect them, that makes you an accessory to murder, and when they finally do go to prison, you'll go to prison with them.
^^^THAT^^^ is why I was offline, for all those years.
Due to vandalism of our tour bus and the Kidnapping of the Ptarmagin Kats...
ALL 2015 and 2016 DATES for the cross country book signing tour have been Canceled!
ALL 2015 & 2016 Book Releases have been Canceled and pushed back a year or more.
I'm terribly sorry to fans who were expecting to meet me and the Ptarmagin Kats from the Quaraun series this summer.
At least 2 of your beloved cats are now dead, 2 more are crippled for life and no word on the condition or whereabouts of the others as these gay hating extremists continue their year long terrorists attacks in their attempts to force the Quaraun books out of publication.
We have now learned what caused these people to stage their massive unprovoked attacks on my, my cars, and my cats. A local tanssexual went on a killing spree last spring and the people who attacked me and my cats, did so because I write Transgender Literature and featured my cats as primary characters in the Quaraun books (the series whose cover art features on the side of The Transgender Awareness Tour Bus).
These people are saying, and I quote: "You know what that other transvestite did, we have to kill them all before they kill us. Get your guns and start blowing their brains out. They're transvestites, they deserve it. It's them or us."
The transgendered citizens of Old Orchard Beach, Saco, and Biddeford, Maine are under violent attack. The "straight" citizens of the area are rising up in extreme violence. And worst of all - many them are police officers.
What is happening in York County, Maine right now is not good - these transphobic people are close to turning into a riotous mob.
Your prayers are needed for the many victims and their families here in Maine.
What About Twilight?
Yes, I am a Mormon.
No, I'm not THAT Mormon.
I wrote the Twighlight Manor Series back in the 1970s. It's a set of 200+ short stories, most of which were only published locally in magazines, newsletters, and chapbooks. Most had fewer then 100 copies printed up. Most were distributed almost exclusively to fellow Mormons in the Cape Elizabeth Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, in Cape Elizabeth, Maine. The series is Dark Fantasy/Sci-Fi/Horror about a haunted house, where aliens live. While some readers have refereed to the aliens as "vampires from outer space" they are actually a race of Moon Elves, known as Ecrodons and nicknamed Ratzins, whom have gone insane and started eating Humans. Yes, there is a black talking cat named Bela in the series. Yes, the family name of the characters is Swanzen. Yes, the main character is a merman with silver sparkling fish scales for skin, he's also a drag queen and only 4'8" tall. No, there are no vampires in the series. No, no one is named Edward. No, there is no romance in it either. No, with the graphic murders, rape, and sex scenes it most certainly is not for children or young adults.
No, I do not know her.
No, I can not forward your email to her. All emails coming to me regarding Twilight or Edward are being henceforth deleted unread.
No, I really am NOT her.
No, I really don't know her. Please stop asking.
Any other questions you may have are probably going to have the following answers:
No, no, no, and oh yeah: NO!
I don't know who started this rumour or put my contact info on one of her fan sites, but...
PLEASE...if you are one of the thousands of people who come here each day in search of Edward or Twilight, I'm sorry to disappoint you, but you are in the wrong place... (you should have recognized that by now, but the number of emails I get asking about Edward and Twilight, tell me notice they are in the wrong place - seriously? LOOK at my website? It's pink and covered with transgender and demisexual logos because all my main characters are all transgender and demisexual, just like me - there is absolutely nothing dark or vampire like about this site - just - open your eyes and look around, it should be easy for you to tell you are in the wrong place...okay?)
And if you still can't believe you are in the wrong place... please read Twighlight NOT Twilight for an explanation as to where you are and why you are not where you wanted to be. Thank you.
Near as I can tell, this rumor about my connection with her Twilight, appears to be yet another of the hacker's attempts to damage my reputation. It also shows how desperate this hacker is, other wise why are they grasping at so many straws like this?
Because I am currently receiving an average of 2,000 emails each and every day, regarding this matter, I am disabling my contact pages and removing my contact info, in hopes that Twilight fans will stop contacting me and go contact the correct author instead.
This page is being used as part of a book. Due to an exclusive rights contract with my publisher, the contents of this page have been taken offline. You will be able to read them again once the book is published. A link to the book (or books if there is more then one) will be added below upon publication.
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