Lost In a Space That Isn't There:
Santa's Letter To Satan
(free chapter to read online of Bizarre Dark Fantasy Yaoi Novel)

EVERYTHING We Are Allowed To Publicly Release About The FBI Investigation Can Be Found HERE

Do you know who this woman is?
If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

She is wanted for:

• -the 2013 murder of my son, Xavier-Octavian Allen-Wildes, whom she ripped out of my 8 month pregnant belly and then used a golf club to beat his brains in on the parking lot;
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• -for the attempted murder and crippling of me in 2013 (the golf club attack, after killing my son she used the same golfclub to severe my spine leaving me a quadrapalegic for 18 months)
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• - & 2nd attempted murder of me 2016 (the shopping cart attack - which re-injured my 2013 spine injury, and is why I am now in a wheelchair),
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• - and the murder of my dog Mickie in 2023 (poisoned the pizza I was eating which my Llasha Apso also ate) and a 3rd attempted murder of me the same day (the poisoned pizza attack).

She ALREADY has a life sentence for prison for the murder of my son, but she has not yet been identified and is still walking free.

As of 2025 she is believed to be between 70 to 80 years old now.

It is believed she was involved in the 2017 beheading of my 75 pet roosters who's headless bodies were hung from rope nooses in my rosebushed, and the May 12, 2015 beheading and vivisection of my cat Cleo who's head was nailed to my motorhome door and intestines braided to the motorhome awning.

She is suspected of being the one who is starting and spreading the UFO, alien abduction, cryptid, erotica, and other vile slanderous defamation gossip rumours about me.

She is suspected of being the one who illegally sold half of my land (now 144 Portland Ave) ILLEGALLY to Don Cooliagrd.

as she looked November 14, 2013 - drove away in a 4 door white pick up truck; from BugLight Lighthouse, at the art studio parking lot of Southern Maine Community College	as she looked June 24, 2016 - drove away in a mid-1990s gold Volvo 240 station wagon; from parking lot of Scarborough, walMart
as she looked June 2023- at PortConMaine'23 at the Round 1 bowling alley at the Maine Mall	as she looked June 2023- at PortConMaine'23 at the Round 1 bowling alley at the Maine Mall

On November 14, 2013, she used a golf club to bash out the brains of my 8-month-old baby Xavier-Octavian Allen. She called herself “Claire” as though she thought I knew her, but I know no one named Claire and had never seen her before. She was about 65 years old and would be around 75 years old today in 2025. The FBI believes the woman who murdered my son is the same woman who hired the backhoe to drive over my house on August 8, 2013, a few weeks before my son’s murder.

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

@eelkat #edometriosis #cancer #tumor #belly #womenshealth ♬ original sound - Wendy C Allen | 📚 Yaoi Author

If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, on July 4, 2013 and on August 8, 2013 after vandals drove a backhoe over it. The backhoe is still running in this photo, I got home from work while they were doing it and the white haired man jumped out and ran away leaving the backhoe running, until it ran out of gas. It sat in my yard for 6 months until the police finally towed it away.

She is the same woman who severed my spine with the same golf club used to murder my baby. She had distinctive two-inch wide stripes in her hair all the way around her head, platinum blond and dark reddish brown, in a pageboy haircut.

If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer,please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

Of the Portland, Maine FBI Office, 4th floor, Middle Street Portland.

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

FAQ: How Did the FBI get involved?

The FBI believes this woman who crippled me and murdered my baby on November 14, 2013, is connected to the backhoe that illegally drove over my house making me homeless on August 8, 2013.

Between June 2001 and continuing on into 2025, there have been over 200 violent attacks on 146 Portland Ave, Old orchard Beach, Maine, including the beheading of 75 pet roosters April 2007, whose headless bodies were hung in my rosebushes from rope nooses.

The FBI believes ALL of these events are being done in an attempt to drive me off my land. 

According to the FBI, in 2007, a developer went to the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall and filed an illegal building permit for a 27 unit condominium, on my land and CLAIMED to be the owner of my land. This land has been in my family since 1531, we are Native Americans of the Kickapoo tribe and there are more than 500 graves, most dating from the 1500s to 1600s on my land. 

This land has been in my family well over 500 years, and I inherited it from my grandmother Helen Ricker Allen in 1983.

The FBI believes, ALL of the slander/rumours that falsely accuse me of being transgender were ALSO started by this woman who murdered my son, in a further attempt to drive me from my land via working locals of Old Orchard Beach into a trans-hating frenzy.

If you are a real estate agent and ANY ONE contacts you interested in buying 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, PLEASE report that "client" IMMEDIATLY to FBI Agent Andy Drewer, head of my son's murder investigation, and head of the investigation into the 200+ acts of vandalism and hate crimes which have occurred at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine between 2001 to 2025.

If you have ANY information about ANY of the incidents, attacks, vandalisms, and hate crimes that took place between 2001 and 2025, on 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, please give that information to FBI agent Andy Drewer as well.

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

My land is not for sale and ANY ONE offering to buy it is likely connected to this woman who murdered my son.

ANYONE interested in buying my land has a HIGH PROBABILITY of being hired BY MY SON'S MURDERER, and you MUST send their information to the FBI.

If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

She shows up at my yard (both in Old Orchard and in Biddeford), at my college classes, at my workplace... always violent and smashing things, always yelling "transvestite freak" and similar hate slurs about transgender people (she seems to believe I am transgender even though I am I cis woman, and her hatred of transgender people seems to be her primary motive.).

At one point the man who was with her called her "Vallerie". But she herself talked of herself (in a bizarre, not how normal people talk "3rd person") Claire. She kept saying things like "I'm Claire, bitch!" and "I'm Claire you fucking transvestite freak!"

She really, really, really, really was going overboard in emphasizing that her name was Claire - to the point that I am led to believe that her name is NOT Claire, and that she was in fact pretending to be someone else, who's name was Claire.

The fact that the man with her (who was later discovered to be a Biddeford police officer - he was identified in February 2025 when he was killed in a car accident in New Hampshire.) called her "Vallerie" and not "Claire" when he talked to her, indicates, that her name is more likely to be Valerie, then Claire.

But I know no one named either Vallerie or Claire, and outside of these events where she shows up and attacks, I've never seen this woman before and have no clue who she is.

She has attacked more then a dozen times, IN ADDITION to the golf club attack when she murdered my son and crippled me.

She frequently dies her hair and wears wigs. And has looked quite different in the over TWELVE YEARS of her stalking and harassment

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

I have 3 broken vertebrae, 3 ruptured discs, a broken sariliac, hip dysplasia (broken hip and broken pelvic bone, with hip bone pushed back into pelvic bone and fused together), in addition to rheumatism in both hips, both knees, and both wrists, as well as MS.

Rheumatism I've had since I was 8.

MS I've had since I was 16.

All the rest was done by the crazy blonde woman with the golf club, November 14, 2013, at Southern Maine Community College. I was also 8 months pregnant and she murdered my son as well. I was paralyzed for 18 months and had to relearn to walk. Her hair was wild extreme unnatural rave style 2 to 3 inch wide platinum blond and dark blonde-brown stripes.

I found a pin that shows a similar hairstyle:

In May 2015 I returned to work, walking minimally with a cane.

On June 24, 2016, the same mystery blond woman with her hair now dyed rusted reddish blond, woman, this time driving a late 1990s vintage gold Volvo 240 station wagon, drove up beside my car, while I was putting groceries in my car at Scarborough Walmart, jumped out, grabbed an empty shopping cart from the shopping cart corral, and attacked again, same as she did with golf club three years earlier. This attack is the one which caused worse damage, and I have still not yet recovered from now in 2025.

In the 2016 attack, her hair was dyed an unnatural burgundy red, with slight grey roots growing out, the same unnatrually straitened pageboy style, and she was wearing a burgundy sweater that time.

In the 2016 attack, her hair was dyed an unnatural burgundy red, with slight grey roots growing out, the same unnatrually straitened pageboy style, and she was wearing a burgundy sweater that time.

She most often looks like this, with the red hair... and it was what she looked like on the December 24, 2016 Christmas Eve attack at my dad's apartment building. And THIS attack we have on camera, and so we have actual video footage of her... including, we have audio files of her yelling and chanting "transvestite freak!" while shooting a gun, during the Christmas Eve attack at 27 High Street, Biddeford, Maine.

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

Her hair has been a different colour each time she has shown up. In 2021 it was a neon dayglow purple, but still the same pageboy. The 2021 attack she was wearing a black poly satin dress with neon lime green trim

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

Her hair has been a different colour each time she has shown up. In 2021 it was a neon dayglow purple, but still the same pageboy. The 2021 attack she was wearing a black poly satin dress with neon lime green trim

When she showed up at PortCon 2023 and the Round 1 at the Maine Mall the same day, she was again wearing the black dressed, but this time her hair was died black, but she was wearing a neon dayglow lime green "clown wig".

Her face is covered in deep "smokers wrinkles" and her skin is very, very abnormally dry and flakey.

She had a somewhat large nose, (kind of more like a man's nose then a woman's nose) and very thin lips (almost none existant, again, more like a man's lips, then a womans)... she is a LOT bigger then me... a LOT - I am 5'6" and she's maybe 5'11" to 6'2"... she's like really, really, really big.

When she showed up at PortCon 2023 and the Round 1 at the Maine Mall the same day, she was again wearing the black dressed, but this time her hair was died black, but she was wearing a neon dayglow lime green "clown wig".

at one point at the Round One in the Maine Mall attack, she pulled off the green clown wig while she was yelling and her hair was a black-black super fake dyed black pageboy.

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

The 2016 attack is the one that did the most damage and. That is why I have the cane, walker, rollator, and wheelchair. And which one I use is determined by how much pain I am in at the time I try to stand and move.

She is the one the FBI is looking for. He said he thinks Bruce’s family knows who she is. He said they become alarmigly, agitated, evasive, and violently hostile whenever questioned about her.

If you have any information about my son’s murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

• Everything we are allowed to publicly release about The FBI Investigation Can Be Found Here

If you know evil is going on and you do nothing about it, are you not also evil?

If you stand by doing nothing, when evil happens, are you not supporting that evil by allowing it to continue?

You can not stand by silent about evil you witnessed, unless you support that evil being done.

If you know evil is going on and you turn a blind eye to it, you are evil.

She is the same woman who severed my spine with the same golf club used to murder my baby. She had distinctive two-inch wide stripes in her hair all the way around her head, platinum blond and dark reddish brown, in a pageboy haircut.

If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer,please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322