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If you want some stories to get you started in The Pink Necromancer series, reading these first will give you a good introduction to the 3 main characters:
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I shouldn't have to say this, but people keep contacting me, so apparently I do:
If you have any information about my son’s murderer, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
Do you know who this woman is?
On August 8, 2013 she drove a backhoe over my house. On November 14, 2013 she arrived at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me with a golf club and murdered my son. One June 24, 2016, days after my first attempts to walk again, she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarborough, Walmart, reinjuring the Nov 14, 2013 injury.
She crippled me when I was 8 months pregnant, a woman with a golf club, severed my spine and bashed my baby's head in, I spent 9 years relearning to walk, and the FBI is 13 years into the murder investigation and not yet id-ed the attacker who crippled me and killed my baby, both violently with a golf club.
Complete details of EVERYTHING she did is on this page here.
The golf club woman who called herself Clair as she looked November 14, 2013. Her hair is a weird chin leangth pageboy (very Medival style cut) platinum blonde with wide brown/black dyed stripes in it (like a reverse of Lily Munster, but the stripes are several, almost like a zebra). I am 5'6" and she was a LOT taller then me, like closer to the height of a man; she had thin lips like a man, and large nose like a man... she COULD have been a man disguised as a woman, given the ease with which she severed my spine....she's is a LOT stronger then is typical for a woman). She was wearing a chambre blue denim "blazer jacket over shirt" and a button up mens shirt (possibly flannel) and blue jeans. The bulk of her yelling was focused on accusing me of being transgender, even while ripping my baby out of my 8 month pregnant belly and bashing his head in with a golf club. |
The Claire woman as she looked during her shoping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart June 2016, the attack with left me paralyzed and in a wheelchair. Her hair was dyed dark red, and she drove away in a gold Volvo 240 Station Wagon of a late 1980s/early1990s model, with a "458" on the lisnce plate.... If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
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If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
Good god! We just found out about yet another slanderous rumour this woman has been spreading? When does it end? How many more of these things are out there?
Video explains what else she's done ...
If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
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If you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine 04064-1520 on August 8, 2013 please give the information of who it is to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. If you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine 04064-1520 on August 8, 2013 please give the information of who it is to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING
This article deals with the topic of creating a rapist character.
How to Write a Sleazy Male
Discussion in 'Character Development' started by Georgie S., Thursday at 1:27 PM.
So I'm trying to write a sleazy male character who has a girlfriend that he loves but to whom has a lot of trouble staying faithful. He kissed someone else a few months earlier and even full-on cheated on his girlfriend about a year before. He is attracted to the waitress at the diner he goes to and has trouble hiding the fact that he is infatuated with this new girl he meets. He also has sexually assaulted someone while drunk (which was the time he cheated on his girlfriend). The problem is I want him to be believable, but I feel like a guy this sleazy and horny just isn't. I also want to make him somewhat redeemable while still showing this major character flaw, because it's a big part of who he is in this story.
Any tips?
Wow, thanks for all the responses everyone! I guess I should have clarified: this guy is not the main character, but the person he sexually assaulted is... somewhat. If you want all the details, read the most recent posts on my thread "A little help?" The guy is somewhat of a main character, along with others, who are trying to find the identity of a mysterious person to whom they are all connected. The guy was blackout drunk when he assaulted her, and she was too afraid to press charges (tying it back to the concept of a power move). He does feel remorse once he realizes what he's done (because for the former part of the book he just has no recollection), so there's that, but the thing is, the story isn't just about him, so I don't want to get sucked into a rabbit hole of consequences. Don't get me wrong, I totally agree that he's a criminal and that he needs to be punished, but that's a later problem right now, and at the moment I want to make him seem normal and not fall into the cliche of "all men are attracted to all women and simply because he's a man he is a sexually deviant pig."
You bring up another important point. He was drunk and she was not. I am well aware that alcohol can bring out the worst in people, and this was my plan to segway into this happening; he is a sexually deviant man but is sometimes better at hiding this, such as from his girlfriend, but when alcohol gets mixed in, the very very worst of him comes out. So I want to help develop this subtle characteristic of being attracted to many different girls and having trouble keeping his feelings to himself, which is then amplified when he gets blackout drunk. Does that make sense?
ChickenFreak said: ↑Yes; I'd like to know if we're talking groping or rape.
I'm not 100% sure which one I'm going to go with, but I'm fairly certain I'm going to make it so that he groped this girl repeatedly and was then trying to have full on sex but she managed to push him off of her
That's not the point I'm trying to make. This is a really touchy subject and this thread has really veered off topic from what I originally wanted to talk about. My point is trying to make this character believable while still having this part of his character be there. I want him to act this way so that it's believable that he would do this to someone when it's revealed later on in the story. My goal is to create a somewhat sexually deviant character that way it doesn't completely come out of nowhere with the reveal while also not making it seem like he is the walking cliche of "every man can't keep his d*ck in his pants and can never be faithful, and also is a rapist"
Cave Troll said: ↑The way you represent him as I have seen, he is a Tom-Cat that becomes Mr. Grabby when on the sauce. What exactly are the readers suppose to take away from that?
Yeah, that's the main issue: there's nothing that makes him a decent character and not the worst person in the world if that's all there is to them, which is why I created this thread. But pretty much all of your responses have been very helpful, so thank you. I have a pretty good idea of how I want this guy to be. Let me know if this is alright, and if/how I need to alter this:
So this guy, his name is Calvin, has been in a relationship with his girlfriend for a few years now and has "feelings" for her, but not in the same way he does with other girls. He is mainly with her to throw people off the scent of his true behaviors and treats her more like a friend with benefits than an actual romantic relationship. He cares for her and doesn't want to make her upset, but that is mainly because he feels that if she leaves him, people will start to catch on to what he is really like. He has a type, which will help avoid the idea of him being attracted to LITERALLY EVERY GIRL EVER, but never really sees them as people he wants to get into a deep relationship with; to be a little crude, he's more interested in humping then dumping them. A few months prior to the events of the story, he was caught making out with another girl and insisted it was all her to avoid his girlfriend catching on, but that's not entirely true. Later on in the story, his best friend (who is complicit and that is one of his major "character flaws" –aka what makes him a bad person) reveals to him what he did one night when blackout drunk (groped a girl repeatedly until she managed to get away), which he feigns horror at, but actually doesn't care, because he does not respect the girl's body or feelings like he pretends he does. He still doesn't want to come out and tell other people, because deep down he is aware that what he does is wrong, but simply doesn't care. Throughout the story, we get little hints to this via third-person limited narration with him as the pseudo-narrator, and this whole concept is revealed at the end, where he is then dumped by his girlfriend (and possibly gets some other comeuppance? I dunno, I'm not sure yet).
What do you guys think? Thanks for all the help!
Perhaps my next door neighbour can help you:
First encounter: I'm attempting to go in my front door when out of the blue an old drunk man I'd never seen before, grabs my arm, and starts dragging me to the alley between the buildings while saying: "I need some loveys and kissys"; I kick him and run away.
A few days later: a woman I've also never seen before, very drunk, stumbles over to me and says: "My uncle has come to live with us, he's just out of prison, but he's harmless, don't call the cops on him okay"
A few days later: My boyfriend is working on my car, the same old rummy, a man I assumed to be in his 70s, comes stumbling over, says to my boyfriend: "You get away from her you hear." My boyfriend stands up to see who's talking to him, and the old drunk says: "I'm a Gnome!" then runs off laughing hysterically
The next day he's back, does the same thing, this time, he hands my boyfriend a knife (big 10" blade switch blade). He's holding it by the blade aiming the handle at my boyfriend. Before my boyfriend has time to respond, the man starts yelling hysterically, screaming that my boyfriend pulled a knife on him!

Every night for the following month, when I get home from work, I am unable to get to the apartment on the 3rd floor because the man is hiding under the stairs, and as soon as I start to go upstairs, he starts stabbing his knife through the stairs and grabbing my legs, while screaming: "I need loveys, Jesus came to the white room with me tonight and told me to get some loveys"
After a month of this, he's waiting on the 2nd floor one night and grabs my by my hair and drags me back down the stairs, holding the knife to my throat while screaming: "God told my he don't like ya hair none, nope he don't, Jesus says ya has to cut it cause ya won't give me loveys."
At this point I push him down the stairs and run away. Next thing I know there's a big black dog chasing me with the man yelling to the doog: "Go get her, get her good!"
I run 4 blocks until I get to the police station (note that I am crippled, have a lame leg, and walk with a cane, so running this distance is no easy feat for me). At the police station I tell the first officer I see what has happened. He says a name, "Is it Guy Gammon?" I don't know the name, He asks me if I can draw what the man looks like... well, I'm a artist by profession, so, yes I can and I did. The officer says: "That's him!"
5 officers leave the stations while a woman officer explains to me this man is wanted for 27 rapes, and I was lucky to get away from him.
He's arrested.
About 6 months later, he's back... officer stops by to tell me, that the man is out of prison on a technicality and they are watching him, but to be careful as he's in the area again... turns out, though he was a wrinkled old rummy, who we thought to be in his 70s he was only 46 years old. Never would have guessed.
A grand jury trail is set for 2 years away.
2 months pass, and a new girl moves in next door, claims to be his girlfriend.
On a weekly basis he gets drunk, drags her out onto the sidewalk and beats up up. On 4 separate occasions he siced the black dog on her. On one occasion the dog tore off most of her face and she had to have plastic surgery.
On each occasion the police BEGGED her to file charges. Maine law, only the victim can file charges. The police could do nothing. In spite of dozens of witnesses to each event, he could not be arrested because of Maine law stating only the victim can press charges.
March 2, 2016... the worst fight we've ever seen takes place and the man and one of his friend, beat the girl up again, on the sidewalk. 3 police officers BEG her to press charges. She says to the officer: "It's okay, he's just drunk. He loved me. He'll calm down in a few hours."
March 5, 2016... the police are roping off the street. The building is evacuated. Me, my family, my neighbours, we are all standing on the sidewalk at 5AM wondering why the police woke us up and asked us the quietly and quickly get the hell out of the building.
A hearse drives up. They carry the dead girl out. The man is arrested. He's now in prison on murder charges in addition to the 27 rape charges.
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When you ask the habits of a sleazy man, one who'd commit sexual assault, and how to make it so no one is too surprised when it happens... that man, the one who attacked me, he's what I think of.
A violent drunk, with a history of grouping women, chasing them into their homes, sicing his dog on them, swearing, drinking, pulling out knives... that was my personal experience with that type of man, so, if I ever had to write a sleazy man who will one day sexually asult the main character, I would base him off that man who had attacked me and then murdered my neighbour.
Not sure if that helps you any or not, but, that's what I think of at least, when I think of a character like the one you are considering writing.
I do in fact write this type of character.
Unicorn. Primary character of the Quaraun series.
He's not a good person
It saddens me when people read the Quaraun series and then hail it "The best gang bang erotica ever written".
Sadly there is a large group of people who are fans of the Quaraun series specifically BECAUSE of Unicorn and his deviated sexual behaviour.
Unicorn is a serial rapist.
While Unicorn vocally jokes about his raging sex addiction, the reality is Unicorn is an extreme self conscious person with a low self esteem. When he feels threatened by someone, he forces and exchange of power by raping them.
He uses sex to control people.
Unicorn is a bully.
He is also fully aware of the fact that forcing sex on someone humiliates, traumatizes, and victimizes people. He uses sex as a weapon to render his enemies powerless.
Unicorn is a sadistic villain. Many readers seem to forget that he is NOT Human and sees Humans as prey. He is a monster in the truest sense of the word.
Of all the villains I have ever created, Unicorn is probably the worst.
Point of note "he was blackout drunk when he assaulted her" Depending on what he did I very much doubt it, if you are blackout drunk your chances of overpowering anyone are pretty slim, not to mention whether you are sexually capable..... "I was too drunk to control myself/remember what I did/ know it was wrong" is a pretty common excuse by sleaze bags but its not generally an accurate description of circumstances
that aside ' Sleazy guys' are generally one of two character types (massive generalisation)
You have Mr Horndog/Bad boy who's superficially attractive and knows it, this is the guy who tells girls he loves them to get them into bed but in the morning can't remember their name, he gets lots of female attention in the scene he moves in but he's incapable of fidelity. At the far end of the spectrum he doesn't think of his partners as people but just as a method of sexual recreation. If he assaults someone it will be because he thinks he has a right to their body (brock the rapist - doing an unconscious girl behind a dumpster and then claiming it was okay because she didn't say no, fits this model).
The other type is Mr stereotypical loser, this guy isn't attractive at all, and knows it, he doesn't get female attention and probably resents women because of it, he'll say crude stuff and talk a good game about sex but in reality is probably either still a virgin in love with his right hand, or he pays for it. If he assaults someone its probably driven by rage over rejection or a perceived rejection, or it will be about power
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I'm going to agree with big soft moose's comment here.
If your character was blackout drunk, he'd be passed out on the floor unconscious, thus the term "blackout" for having blacked out. He likely can't get his dick up either and isn't able to rape anyone.
A blackout drunk is someone who drinks a lot all at once, but doesn't drink the rest of the day, and probably only has one night a week that he drinks at all.
If he's raping people while he is drunk, in more likelihood he is like Guy Gammon and is always drunk, all the time. Someone who drinks a glass here and a glass there, all day long. Someone who has a beer with breakfast and 2 or 3 more with brunch, another for lunch, and couple more before dinner, some wine during dinner, then some light beer to finish off before bed.
The rummy style drunk, never sobers up and always walks around with his head in the clouds, and ALWAYS feels big and bold. He thinks he is invincible. Thinks he can jump off a cliff and fly to the moon. Thinks every woman is crawling at his feet begging for cock.
This is the type of drunk who rapes women, on a frequent basis, and it sounds like the type of character you are describing your character to be.
Also adding to moose's comment...
Unicorn falls into the Horndog stereotype on some levels, but not so much. When he was younger he had several wives, one after the other, and was unable to stay in a stable relationship. This was mostly because of his violent, obsessive personality. Everything has to be his way or no way and anyone who challenges him is swiftly smashed to the floor and has their face pummeled.
Most of his life, he is the bold self important type who thinks everyone should love him and becomes violent if someone does not.
Born Gwallmaiic, Unicorn came from a hostile home, never had a strong relationship with either of his parents, and was abandoned by them as a young child, simply because he was sick and they had the "survival of the fittest" mindset to an extreme. He was literally dumped on the roadside and left behind.
The young boy ran after them for miles, until he collapsed. They did this to him in the dead of winter, assuming the sick child would freeze to death in a few days. He survived through the cold for months, nearly starving to death.
The story of Gwallmaiic's survival become legendary throughout the land, as the young boy came across the body of a dead Elf, which he ate to avoid starving to death. When the Elf flesh ran out he sought out an Elf village and set about killing Elves in order to survive Pepper Valley's harsh winter. Because of this he became known as The Elf Eater of Pepper Valley.
He continued to live on his own in the wild, becoming deadly and feral, hunting Elves as his primary food source. His isolated youth left him wild, feral, and undomesticated, with no social interactions, no education, and growing up illiterate and brutal.
He took his parents "survival of the fittest" attitude to heart and turned himself into a killing machine that could survive anything just to prove them wrong.
As an adult he set out to find his parents to show them he'd survived, but upon finding them, found his father to be an evil tyrant Necromancer king of a small tribal band. Hellbent on becoming a Lich, his father murdered his mother and most of their tribe, and attempted to murder their son.
Realizing how utterly evil his father really was, Gwallmaiic murdered his father and ate him, then systematically murdered all of his father's soldiers, army, and supporters, and eat all of them.
Crowning himself King in his father's place, King Gwallmaiic set out to kill all the evil in the world. His vendetta against abusive parents turned into a blood frenzy as he gathered up an army and marched across the planet slaughtering anyone who even raised their voice at their children.
What started out as him getting back at his parents for abandoning him, quickly spiralled out of control as he became more and more violent. Soon he was slaughtering entire villages for no reason at all, other then as he put it: "It was a joy to hear them scream."
He quickly became a sadistic monster, razing every village in his path, letting his soilders rape and plunder along the way.
All the while, Gwallmaiic was haunted by the fact that his parents abandoned him as a child and had no love for him. This spurred him to seek love, but to do so in a manner that was horrific, because he had no real concept of what it meant to either love or be loved.
He began gathering up women as slave brides, raping any female that crossed his path and passing a law that decreed all virgins belonged to him. He soon had more "wives" than he could count, fathering hundreds of children with them over the next few decades, but never finding love.
Because of the forced marriage by rape, he was unsuccessful in finding any one to love him. This lead to him declaring he hated women and instead set out to raping men.
His vicious, brutal violence was a result of his desire for some one to love him, but his lack of a mental understanding of what love was or how one goes about finding love.
You see, his brutal reign of terror end, when he encounters what is the equivalent of a "screaming fangirl" ... a masochistic Elf who has followed reports of King Gwallmaiic's career for decades and lives in a fangirl's fanfiction rape fantasy world of hoping to meet and be captured by the Evil Faerie King.
In one of the very first scenes to show Gwallmaiic in the Quaraun series, you see, him and his army riding North, and encountering a young Elf camped by the road for the night. The group of Fae immediately respond as they always do, to attack the Elf and rape it to death.
The scene however, ends abruptly with the King NOT raping the Elf and instead ordering his men away from Quaraun, when he realizes, Quaraun is not putting up a fight and is not trying to stop the attack.
His attempt to rape Quaraun, is the first time he encountered someone who does not try to resist him and he does not know how to deal with this. Gwallmaiic has encountered someone who loves him, and while it's a twisted love, it's still love on some level and he doesn't know how to respond to someone who loves him.
So, Unicorn does not quite fall into either of big soft moose's descriptors, which tells us that, there are more then two general types of rapists.
In general, "bad people," come in two varieties:
Some have a skewed moral compass and think that the things they do, like cheating, aren't really wrong. Not only are they not wrong, or less wrong than depriving themselves, but hiding it to avoid hurting people is "good." This can apply to killers who think they are justified, rapists who think their victim was asking for it, thieves who steal from their corrupt bosses or people who have "too much and won't miss it." You also have people who benefit from other people's evil, such as the citizens of a corrupt democracy who enjoy plundered wealth without dirtying their own hands.
The other kind are people who have some guilt about it, and may even have self-loathing, but value their indulgences more than their self-respect. Someone who kills for the drug cartel might fit this model if he believes he lives in an eat or be eaten society.
So, your sleazy male is probably one of those two. Either he's a fiend who hates himself, or he thinks everyone else has the wrong idea on right and wrong. In either case, he probably hides it from anyone he needs to respect him or who would be hurt by his actions, and he values. Most sleazy people love to talk about their exploits with co-workers, internet buddies, strangers, or anyone else that won't connect back to their lives.
I like how John Calligan's comment was posted immediately after big soft moose's comment, and both said there are 2 types, yet, each described two different types, giving us 4 types total.
While some of what big soft moose said fits Unicorn, I feel more of what John Calligan says fits him better.
In Unicorn's case, he sees nothing wrong with killing and raping his victims. He feels justified. In some sick, twisted way, he almost feels he's doing the world a favor. He does not consider himself evil, either. He has a skewed sense of morals. He often says his victims were asking for it, usually states the men and women he's raped both wanted and deserved it.
In short, he does not see that he is doing anything wrong and if someone was to tell him what he was doing was a crime, he'd simply law and say he's the king so his word is law and whoever he kills was kills by the law.
He feels no guilt or remorse for the things he has done.
And when he dies... he is cursed to roam the world, haunted by the souls of them he's killed... told he was too evil even for Hell itself and cast into a Realm of nonexistence, where he has no corporeal body and can not satisfy his hunger, thirst, or lusts, but feels them all the same and is driven mad by the eternal torment of his lusts for food and sex.
Believing himself lost in this cursed existence for eternity, he is stunned when on the 100th anniversary of his death, he finds himself again alive (undead) living in a physical body, once again able to eat and drink and fuck.
Confused as to why someone as evil as he was in life was given a second chance, he finds that it was the little Elf whom he had not raped and let go, whom had resurrected him. His little screaming fangirl, brought him back from the grave.
This is when you see Gwallmaiic cast aside his past, become Unicorn, and devote his new life to the Elf, and no more killing and raping every one he meets, but instead now protecting the Elf that gave him a second chance at life.
Thus you see the horrificly evil, totally unredeemable King Gwallmaiic, evolve into the much more relatable, and sympathetic to the readers, Unicorn, now somewhat repentant and on a road to redemption.
It is difficult to take an unredeemable character and redeem them.
But it sounds like for your story, redemption is not the direction you are headed?
Sexual assault isn't just a character flaw, and it's certainly not "cheating"; simple cheating assumes consent, and using the word for a major crime doesn't work. I think that if you want this story to be about anything but the fact that this guy is a serious criminal, you may need to leave that part out.
I'd like to know if we're talking groping or rape.
You're running into the question of whether rape is (1) result of a man (edited to add: Yes, or woman) who is a helpless victim of overwhelming feelings of sexual attraction, or (2) whether it's a crime of power and violence.
You can probably tell from my phrasing that I absolutely don't go with interpretation (1), whether the rapist is drunk or sober, and the same is likely to be true of a lot of readers.
"Trouble keeping his feelings to himself" could, say, result in inappropriate remarks. A violent attack? That's beyond feelings.
Let's imagine that I really admire someone's jewelry, and wish I owned it, and I express that feeling by attacking that person with a baseball bat and taking that jewelry. I don't feel that that could be legitimately described as me "having trouble keeping my feelings to myself". A violent attack? That's beyond feelings.
While some of what big soft moose said fits Unicorn, and more of what John Calligan says fits him better, I think ChickenFreak describes his personality type best of all when s/he says this:
>>"Trouble keeping his feelings to himself" could, say, result in inappropriate remarks. A violent attack? That's beyond feelings.
>>Let's imagine that I really admire someone's jewelry, and wish I owned it, and I express that feeling by attacking that person with a baseball bat and taking that jewelry. I don't feel that that could be legitimately described as me "having trouble keeping my feelings to myself". A violent attack? That's beyond feelings.
Unicorn is DEFINITELY the type of person who would see something he wants, and violently crack your skull in to take it from you, giving no thought to how badly he injured you, and in fact, he'd be just delighted if he killed you, because then he could rip out your entrails and eat them. Keeping in mind that he is a Phooka and eating Humans is something that Phookas do, so Phookas tend to look at Humans the same way Humans look at cows...tasty served with ketchup.
While he's no longer raping people after he's been resurrected, he's still killing and eating people, something that Quaraun is constantly chiding him for. While Unicorn has learned not to hurt people, he has trouble differentiating between hurting someone and killing them. In his mind he is not hurting them, seeing how they are dead and no longer feel pain. Also, as he is a predator and Humans are his natural food supply, he had trouble understand why he's not allowed to kill a thing that is only there for him to eat to begin with.
ChickenFreak said: ↑Sexual assault isn't just a character flaw, and it's certainly not "cheating"; simple cheating assumes consent, and using the word for a major crime doesn't work. I think that if you want this story to be about anything but the fact that this guy is a serious criminal, you may need to leave that part out.
Yes! Thank you! For the last time, people. Sexual assault is not about sex, it is about power.
Getting back to the OP, here's a story line you can use from something that happened to a friend in real life. Make the guy not just a cheater, but have him juggle an entire double life that even his best friend didn't know about. Have him take a second "job" that doesn't exist, and have him use this time to cheat. (The guy's best friend was so disgusted, he ended their childhood friendship and took the side of the girl who was cheated on, by the way.) Throw in a gambling addiction or something--clearly this guy is a guy who likes living on the edge.
>>Sexual assault isn't just a character flaw, and it's certainly not "cheating"; simple cheating assumes consent, and using the word for a major crime doesn't work.
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>>Yes! Thank you! For the last time, people. Sexual assault is not about sex, it is about power.
Yes.
Again, this is something I find troubling.
There is nothing Erotica about the Quaraun series, and yet so many fans of the series, specifically call it Erotica and say they love it for it's sex scenes.
Well, if you've gotten this far reading this page, you know wgat the sex scees are like... Unicorn attacking someone and literally raping them to death, then eating them.
Yep. That's it.
The fact that Quaraun, is lovestruck by King Gwallmaiic and wants to be raped by him, is me writing satire about the girls on fanfiction.net who write rape fantasy.
I assume it's those same girls who read the Quaraun books and then call them Erotica. They are probably the same ones who read 50 Shades of Grey and call it Erotica too.
Make sure the character has dimension. He can do all of those things, but people in real life (even assholes) have more to them than just one dominating trait. Maybe he takes care of his grandmother and that's a priority in his life, or while he's sleazy, he's still a friendly person who likes to make people laugh. Characters have many traits, personalities, a history, a mix of emotions, regrets, flaws, and qualities, and that's what separates them from a caricature.
Yes...
This is why Unicorn has so many fans, in spite of how horrible a person he is.
He's also a kind, tender, gentle, loving protector.
You see the other side of him often.
Quaraun is a sickly, frail little Elf, always weak and getting hurt. Unicorn is always there to take care of the frail Elf, nursing him to health and protecting him from harm.
Unicorn takes a very gentle loving stance with Quaraun.
Gwallmaiic is also a chef.
For many years he and his cousin Krumpas lived with Santa Claus. Gwallmaiic developed a gingerbread cake that could be used for making houses and built Santa Claus's gingerbread village.
While he hates with a vengeance anyone who abuses children and will quickly slaughter a child abusing parent, he has a deep protective nature around children. He is often seen rescuing children and finding better homes for them. (Part of why he liked working for Santa was because of Santa's kind treatment of children.
So, this is what I'm thinking.
You keep referring to him as 'sexually deviant' and there's this idea of him being attracted to a lot girls being the reason he's scummy. I don't think that's the crux of the issue. For this dude to have no probs cheating on his girlfriend and assaulting another girl, it's not a case of "I just have so much love (cough lust cough) to give!" - it's a matter of him feeling entitled to these womens' time/bodies. A high sex drive and being attracted to a lot of people doesn't directly translate into being unfaithful or assaulting those people - there's a different mindset there.
To me, it seems like he doesn't respect his girlfriend, specifically, and probably not any of the other women he's messed around with. He's not 'attracted' to them - he wants them. It's a different impulse. If you're hungry and you see a delicious cake, you're not attracted to the cake, you want to own and eat that cake. Being drunk just lowers his impulse control and tips him over from "I'm owed this" to "I'm going to take this".
So, in looking to characterize this guy, he's most likely got a general disregard for women's feelings, but he knows that this isn't considered acceptable. He probably tries to act like a gentleman or at least not a scuzbag, and he could even be pretty charming. He might have a decent relationship with his mom and even revere her / view her as the one worthy woman (the whore/madonna thing) - she might be the one who taught him to not act like an asshole. Or he might not care about her either, and he gleaned his ability to not be a asshole %100 of the time from society at large.
His disregard for other people's personhood may extend to everyone or it may be gendered. Maybe he's an inconsiderate dick to guys too, and maybe he doesn't even try to hide that, because there's nothing that he wants from guys. Maybe he has especial ire for guys who are faithful/considerate because he views them as idiots (why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free, right?). Maybe he has some close-ish male friends who give his behavior a pass, and he views them as being like himself because of it, regardless of whether they really are or just see him as a harmless horny dude.
When it comes to his girlfriend, he's probably pretty controlling. He's paranoid that she'll be unfaithful, because to him that's just what you do. But because he feels entitled to her, no one else should have her. That's pretty classic philanderer behavior.
I think you need to develop this guy enough to make him unique if you want to avoid the cliche. Understand his behavior yourself - what drives him - so that it'll be consistent and not come off as as just generic gross dude qualities pasted on. You can also have male characters who don't behave like him so that he's singled out as one guy who's like this, not that every guy is like this.
>>>You keep referring to him as 'sexually deviant' and there's this idea of him being attracted to a lot girls being the reason he's scummy.
Yes, I had noticed this as well.
Now, by this assumption, GhoulSpawn would therefore be evil, and he isn't. GhoulSpawn is the farthest thing from evil. He's a shy, quiet, timid character who is incapable of thinking a bad thought about anyone. His Pollyanna personality sees the good in everyone and looks at the bright side of everything. He tries to help everyone. He's a vegan animal rights activities, always rescuing animals (especially sheep, which are his favorite animal).
Because of the society he lives in, which shuns half-Elves and does not allow them to buy, sell, or trade, does not allow them to have jobs or owning property, like all half-Elves GhoulSpawn is a pickpocket cat thief, who has to steal food and supplies to survive. Often feeling guilty for being forced to steal, he frequently steals for the rich to give to the poor to make up for his having to steal at all.
His major flaw, however, is his sex addiction. GhoulSpawn loves women. He spends every chance he can in the company of females. Often that means prostitutes. Frequently it means other men's wives.
GhoulSpawn has a charisma about him that attracts women to him. He rarely is able to stay in any one town long, because he is frequently chased out by angry husbands.
While his insatiable sexual appetite could be seen as him being a sexual deviate, the fact remains that he has never raped anyone, never abused anyone, nor would he. He'd never raise either his hand or his voice to a woman. GhoulSpawn is a gentle lover, who couldn't father harming any one, man woman, child, monster, or animal.
He is the closest thing the Quaraun series has to a hero.
>>>A high sex drive and being attracted to a lot of people doesn't directly translate into being unfaithful or assaulting those people - there's a different mindset there.
What you're describing isn't just sleazy, but criminal, and possibly someone with a mental illness.
What is your story about? Because from what you've described, if he's got a problem that severe, his problem is going to overshadow everything else in the story--which is fine, if your story is about a guy trying to redeem himself from his problem. However, it kind of feels like you're beating a dead horse by making him a criminal if your story isn't about his redemption.
>>What you're describing isn't just sleazy, but criminal, and possibly someone with a mental illness.
Agreeing with this as well.
This is something I empathizes with Unicorn. He is portrayed as a criminal, and all three characters (Quaraun, Unicorn, and GhoulSpawn) are portrayed as having severe mental illness issues that they are aware they have and are struggling to live with.
Georgie S. said: ↑Any tips?
Don't strike a match in a pile of oil-doused tires. This is going to take forever to put out.
But really?
Researching people's experiences with this kind of thing is your best bet. Don't ask people how to write the character, because all you'll get is moral grandstanding and people telling you what to do. You need to understand what you're writing about, so if you don't have direct experience that's inspiring this, I'd highly recommend committing some time to understanding the psychology behind sexual assault, both for the perpetrator and the victimized. You need to treat it with respect, first and foremost. It comes across very clear when someone tries to write about something like this with little understanding of the emotional implications. Once you've gathered enough firsthand accounts, I would move onto researching sexual assault forgiveness. Put those three words into google and you'll have all the perspectives you could need on it. I say look for forgiveness, because that could be the window into redeeming the character. Maybe the person he sexually assaulted sees him in a way that could allow the readers to not completely hate him. Did this person know him before? Statistically, she probably would have.
And really, I guess it all depends on what kind of story you want to tell. Is this the story of a dysfunctional group of people? A redemption story for the guy? What about him changes by the end of the story? You don't have to answer these here of course, but you need to answer them for yourself.
>>>Researching people's experiences with this kind of thing is your best bet.
Yes. Agreeing with this as well.
If you ever paid close attention to the series, and cross reference events against my blog, you'd notice many of the events which happen in the Quaraun series, happened to me or someone I know in real life.
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Note: English is not my first language, Shetlean Scottish is my native language, there are likly spelling and grammar errors, as I do not know American English and am attempting to write it by sounding words out.
Many times that Americans think a word on my site is misspelled, often it is not misspelled, it is just I mixed up languages and wrote it in Scottish without realizing I mixed the Scottish in with the English. Also our grammar is somewhat reversed from English grammar so words that are seeming in the wrong order for American English, is usually because they are in the correct order for Scottish and I either put English words in Scottish order by mistake or was unaware English put them in a different order then Scottish does.
For those unaware, Scottish Shetlean looks like this:
American English to Scottish:
a bit (piece) = a party --- EXAMPLE: "And some know a bit of Latin " > "And somme kan of latyn a party "
a long distance from = A piece fae
a piece of = the bit --- EXAMPLE: "The duck ate a piece of bread " > "The deuk ett the bit breid "
about the banks (on the shore/at the beach) = aboot da banks
accomplishments = kunnandi
After = Back o --- EXAMPLE: " After Halloween" > "Back o Hallomas "
alive (living) = kvikr
Always on the move = Never aff o da go
am I not = amn't I --- EXAMPLE: "Am I not invited? " > "I amn't invited? or Amn't I invited?"
are = is --- EXAMPLE: "Are you going soon?" > "Is ya to be going soon?"
autumn = dah haihst
belong to = fylgja
best = bettah moost
betray (verb) = svíkja
bewildered = villhyggjandi
building = biggin up --- EXAMPLE: "building confidence in everyday use " > " biggin up confidence in ivvryday øs "
built = builded --- EXAMPLE: "He built a new porch." > "Hims builded a new porch."
cast a spell = hoodooed
cat = kat (sounds like "caught") --- EXAMPLE: "Is it an orange cat?" > "Be he a o'jinn kat?"
child = bairn
church = kirk
color = colour
danger = hœttr
daren't = darena
daring = djarfr
dark = dökk
dark elf = Dökkálfr
dark-elves = Døkkálfar
darker = dökká
do you agree = ,eh? --- EXAMPLE: "That's a fine looking woman, do you agree?" > "Dair's ah right bonnie lass, eh?"
do you want to come too = ,eh? --- EXAMPLE: "I'm going to the store, do you want to come with me?" > "Me go to shope, eh?"
each = eche --- EXAMPLE: "Which each person can understand " > "That kan eche man understonde "
educated = lered --- EXAMPLE: "Both among the educated and the uneducated " > "As wel among lered as lewed "
elf = Alfr
Elf = Álfr
Elf Home = Álfheimr
Elf World = Álfheimr
elf-advice = Ælfred
elf-beautiful = ælfscyne
elf-friend = Ælfwine
elf-guardian (female) = Ælfwaru
elf-guardian (male) = Ælfweard
elf-powerful = Ælfric
everyday = ivvryday
eyelids = eye ledes --- EXAMPLE: "He closed his eyelids." > "Hims did shut hims eye ledes"
fair = faire --- EXAMPLE: "Going to the fair." > "Done gone went to the faire."
feild = felde --- EXAMPLE: "Standing in the feild." > "Stoodt in thems felde."
further = ferther --- EXAMPLE: "I looked further." > "I dids lokid ferther."
green = grene --- EXAMPLE: "Look at the green hedges and woods." > "Look see at thems heigges and holtz so grene."
handsome = braw --- EXAMPLE: "He is very handsome " > "Him wicked braw "
have faith = trúa
Have no doubts about our doing it = Nae faer o wis
Have no liking for this. = Hae nae brou o this.
have not = ain't
He knows how many beans make five. = He kens the laid frae the croun o the causey.
He knows which side his bread is buttered on. = He kens whilk side his bannock's buttert on.
Head for = Mak wye for
head rope in fishing nets and lines = baak
head to head = Be at the knag and the widdie
horse fly = klegsie
I = Me
I Think = Me thinks --- EXAMPLE: "I think we're late. " > "Me thinks that we is late. "
I wish you well for the future = Lang may yer lum reek (translation: Long may your chimney smoke)
idiot = eejit --- EXAMPLE: "You idiot." > "Ya eejit."
idiot = numpty
if = iffy or yif--- EXAMPLE: "If you don't mind..." > "Iffy yas does no care mind...."; "If you'll stay with me long enough = "Yif ye so longe with me wil dwelle". "
I'll be even with you = A'll see day aboot wi ye
know = ken
looked = lokid
looked = lokid --- EXAMPLE: "I looked up." > "I lifte up me eye ledes and lokid ferther."
magic = hoodoo
naked = nøkkviðr
needle = bodkin
neither = nouther --- EXAMPLE: "Who know neither Latin nor French " > "That kan nouther latyn ne frensch "
No = Nay --- EXAMPLE: "No, I don't think so. " > "Nay, me thinks not. "
Nobody knew = not-knew nobody
Noontide = Da heicht o da day
NOTE: Extra words are often added. --- EXAMPLE: "Did you meet the new family next door?" > "Dids ya gets a chance to stop by and meets with thems new folk that move-ed in down yawn there next doors to ya, eh?"
NOTE: Extra words are often added. --- EXAMPLE: "He went to Rite-Aid to pick up his prescription" > "Hims did go to that yawn there new fangled store the new folks call that Rite Aid place, to gets himself some of thems there pills what the doctor gone and tells him to take each morning, a-yep, hims did."
old = olde --- EXAMPLE: "But educated and uneducated, old and young " > "Bot lered and lewed olde and yonge "
orange = o'jinn
out = oot --- EXAMPLE: "The cat wants to go out." > "The kat he do wants oot."
outside = oot dair
people = fokk --- EXAMPLE: "the people of Shetland " > "Shetland fokk "
people = folke --- EXAMPLE: "Look at all those people." > "Lookie at all thems folke."
poorly = febelly --- EXAMPLE: "Who know French very poorly " > "That kan frensch ful febelly "
Recognising = Recognisin --- EXAMPLE: "Recognising the bilingual nature of Shaetlan speakers " > "Recognisin da wye at Shaetlan spaekers is bilingual "
shield = skjoldr
Since = For --- EXAMPLE: "Since that is your native language " > "For that is youre kynde langage "
tell = telle --- EXAMPLE: "I'll tell you in English " > "In englysch tonge I schal you telle "
the = da, de, or is not used at all --- EXAMPLE: "I went to the store" > "Me goes to da shoppe" or "Me goes to da shoppe" or "Me goes to shoppe"
them = dem, dem dair --- EXAMPLE: "I went with them" > "Me goes wit dem dair"
there = dair --- EXAMPLE: "I want those potatoes" > "Me be wanting dem dair tatetas."
they = dey
To where = whither --- EXAMPLE: ""Where you go, I will go." " > ""Whither thou goest, I'll go."
understand = understonde
understand = understonden --- EXAMPLE: "Some understand English " > "And somme understonden englysch "
very = wicked --- EXAMPLE: "very good" > "wicked good"; "very bad" > "wicked bad"; "very cold" > "wicked cold"
Where = Whither --- EXAMPLE: "Where is the restroom? " > "Whither is the privy?"
Yes = Yea or Aye --- EXAMPLE: "Yes, I think so. " > "Yea, me thinks so. " or "Aye, me thinks so. "
For anyone actually interested in learning my native language, the Scottish government has THIS listed as the official dictionary of our people: https://static1.squarespace.com/static/61d7352954b7fd1c9dbdfef4/t/65ddb2749d5e0541a01009c0/1709027964496/Spaektionary_2024feb.pdf
The Scottish government provides this document to show our language in use: https://www.shetland.uhi.ac.uk/t4-media/one-web/uhi-shetland-images-and-documents/documents-/shaetlan/Shaetlan-Language-Plan-2022-Shaetlan.pdf
More information about our language can be found on this website: https://www.iheardee.com which is written in my native language.
However, there is also other reasons why words might be misspelled, or why I might not understand someone when they speak to me.
My grandmother Helen Ricker Allen, was from Unst, Shetland, Scotland, and she the one who raised me. She taught me to read and write, but it was Shetlain that she taught me. She died when I was 8 years old, and I was locked in a woodshed after her furneral, I escaped the woodshed 27 years later at age 31, and have been trying to learn how to speak and write English since then.
It is a very great struggle.
At age 37 I took remidial reading and speaking classes at Southern Maine Community College, but we are Gypsies and Gypsy men do not allow us Gypsy women to have education, and so, while at college, on November 14, 2013, I was beaten with a golf club, while I was 8 months pregnet, breaking my spine, hips, and knees, killing my baby and leaving me quardepaleic since.
Now my primary focus these past 13 years has been on relearning to use my hand so I could type... as of 2023, I have regained the use of my right thumb, and first two right fingers, and after 10 years offline, I am back online due to I can use three finguers.
I never went to school, so I do not know maths and numbers and sciences, and I do not know what else would have been taught to me in school. We are Scottish Gypsies and Gypsy culture does not allow females to go to school. Being born female was already a great sin, but my grandmother took great risk in teaching me reading and writing. At 4 years old I was punished by my Uncle Bruce for knowing how to read, by being beaten in the face with a cinder block brick, that broke my right jaw and left me with garbaled near-mute spoken words ever since.
Because no one ever spoke words to be face to face from he time I was 8 years old until I was 37 years old (I escaped the room at age 27, but did not start college until 37), I have no training in how to vocally sound out or speak the words I write or read. I can read words, but I do not know how to sound out or say those words. I can write words, but I do not know how to match the written word against the spoken word. I struggle to associate spoken words at all, or make them match up with writen words.
Esentially, written words and spoken words are two completly seperate languages in my brain, and I have difficulty understanding spoken words.
If you say a sentance to me with your mouth, chances are very high I will have ZERO understanding of what you said and I will not be able to ander you.
However, if you WRITE down that exact same sentabnce, I can understand you and can type a written responce to you.
My doctors tell me this is a side effect of extreme isolation and neglect and lack of human contact during my toddler, childhood, teen, and young adult years, and that my brain never deveoloped to comprehend spoken vocal words due to no one ever speaking to me in over three decades of the first half of my life.
While I can read and write, American English (somewhat) I do no know how words are sounded out, what they are supposed to sound like. I readand write by shape recognition, not by sound/vocal recognition, so when reading and writing I do no "hear the words in my head" as I am told most people do when they read and write. In other words... I see "c a t" and think "c-a-t" I do not think "cat" nor do I "see" an image of a cat, no do I "hear" the word cat spoken. I'm told that this is very rare and that most people read and write by sounding out the words and linking them to visual mind images, while hearing the sound of the word in their head. I neiher hear words in my head no see images of things in my head. I'm told this is what makes me both a speed reader and speed writer, because I'm not tripped up by hear sounds or seeing images in my head like nomal people would be doing... however, I'm also told this is why my spelling and grammar are very poor, because my brain is not hear the sounds of the words or seeing visual images of the objects the words represent, so my mind also does not register spelling and grammer errors at all.
As I was only let out of the woodshed on Sundays to go to the Cape Elezabeth Ward Church of the August Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, I was never allowed to go to school or hospital either. No adults ever talked to me because I was evil for comitted the sin of being born female, so I never learned how to speak properly and do not know how to sound out words to say them.
I was 42 years old, in 2016 when, while having an MRI for my spine, the doctors found out my speak issue was caused by a broken jaw as a toddler that was healed wrong because not being allowed to go to doctors. I had surgury to fix that, and since 2016 have been trying to learn how to use my jaw and touge so I can speak vocal words now.
Since 2023 my primary focus shifted to relearning to walk. I can now, in 2026, sit up for 2 or 3 hours a day, and can sand with a cane for a few minutes, and can walk for around five thousand feet in 2 to 3 segments a day, with the help of pushing my wheelchair like a walker.
As of 2026, with a slight return to using my fingers and legs, I am once again focused on trying to learn the American English, but I live in mortal fear of my uncles and male cousins, as they are so hateful of allowing me to have education.
have no one to help me to know if I am doing words correctly, and as such, I have no way of knowing if there are spelling and grammar errors, but I asume there are, and I fix them when I learn them, but I do not know what I do not know and spelling American words is a thing I do bnot know.
I have Low Fucntioning Kanner's Syndrom, also known as "RainMan Type of Autism" aka REAL and ACTUAL Autism, not to be confused with Aspergers, High Functioning Autism, or and of thr 861 illnesses on the Autism Spectrum. An Autism Spectrum Disorder is an illness that has symptoms similar to Autism but IS NOT Autism. If you have an Autism Spectrum Disorder, it LITERALLY MEANS you do NOT have Autism.
I am medically diagnosed as "kanner's syndrome, actual autism, the rainman type, profoundly retarded autistic savant, with a general IQ of 73, and an writing IQ of 221" but they added that they did not know how to properly diagnose me as I am "technically a feral child" and they don't know "how much is the autism, and how much is simple horrific levels of abuse and neglect induced post traumatic stress disorder that will go away with proper socilization".
It means I know how to write, I can write a lot, and it is next to impossible for you to teach me how to do literally anythig else because my brain only knows how to write and doesn;t know how to do anything else..
There's a reason, when I do book signings, people are quick to say: "Okay, what's the joke? why is this stupid retard here? where's the real author? I know this retard isn't the author. where are you hiding the author, why is this fucking retard here"
The end result is, I have near zero social interaction... my 3 years in college was the ONLY face to face interaction I have ever had with humans in my entire life, and I struggle deeply to understand MOST words used by MOST people when they ask me question. And so I suffer from a huge lack of understanding many words people say to me, how to translate those words into spelling, and how to translate what it is that has been said.
The fact remains hat until there exists a human on this planet who is willing to sit down and teach me what words spoken line up with and match what words written, this deficent is unlily to improve. But the fact also remains, that I am simply far too profoundly retarded for anyone to even try to make any attempt at all even to speak a friendly "hgelloe" or "good morning" when passing me on the street, so I have lost all hope of anyone ever either being my friend, being willing to teach me how to match spoken words to written words, or how to speak to other humans.
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Do you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Avenue, Old Orchard Beach, Maine on August 8, 2013? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me July 26, 2016 at scarborough WalMart,... they arrived the first time with a backhoe on August 8, 2013, that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since....
... which means it is now only a few weeks from the 14th anniversary of my son's murder. I was 8 month pregnant November 14, 2013, and a student ay SMCC, and coming out of the Buglight Lighthouse art studio after art class, when a still unidentifiedwoman wielding a golf club attacked me, severed my spine, while I was 8 months pregnant, triggered early labour, then killed my son minutes after he was born.
While accusing me of being transgender, screaming "transvestite freak" and "look at that thing, that's Ken's son in a dress"... while I was 8 months pregnant.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son and crippled me, arrived the first time with a backhoe that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since. |
The backhoe driver returned November 14, 2013, armed with a golf club, used it to break my spine and smash my baby's brains out on the ground
On November 14, 2013, my son was murdered. I was 8 months pregnant, leaving my college classroom, and just getting into my car, when 3 strangers, a man and two women, armed with golf clubs leapt out from behind my car screaming "kill or be killed, kill the transvestite freaks, kill them all before they kill us! look at that thing! That is Ken's son, look at how it's dressed! kill the transvestite freaks! kill or be killed"... while the bald man and the red haired woman chanted this over and over, the blonde woman, lunged with the golf club.
She severed my spine, I am now a quadriplegic, and been paralyzed arms and legs, and in a wheelchair for 13 years now. She broke my hips, my knees, my legs, ruptured most of my discs, and shattered three of my vertebrae so bad that the shards of bone acted like glass and embedded themselves into my spinal column nerve bundle.
The attack also triggered labour.
My son was born in that parking lot, and he lived only a couple of minutes, before the deranged blonde woman, beat his head in and smashed his brains out, with the same golfclub she had just used to sever my spine and leave me crippled for the rest of my life.
Realizing that I was not transgender, and they'd just murdered a baby, the man grabbed the 2 women and forcibly dragged them away to a 4 door white pickup truck, and they left me there to die.
The FBI told me later, that a few weeks before this attack, and transwoman, had murdered a cis woman, in a parking lot, abou 20 miles away from where I was attacked. The FBI, believes that my attackers, had somehow found out I wrote transgender fiction, connecting my real name to my penname, (my father's name is in fact "Ken", and I do have a brother) and believed that I wrote transgender fiction, because I was myself transgender, even though I'm not transgender. The FBI, believes the attackers, thought I was my brother, pretending to be a woman.
The FBI investigation, into my son's murder, has dragged on for 13 years, and still now in 2026, continues on, with the FBI, still not having yet identified my attackers, and only guessing at what their motive was.
Thus we come to 2014, and the full swing change of the series I write. WHY my series, went from just a transman main character living life, to the full blown Mpreg genre series that it now is today.
Before the attack, I had a chance of having a baby. I don't know. And because I'm in America, I'm too old to adopt. You have to be under 45 years old to adopt a baby. That is the law in America. I was informed this, when we tried to adopt, now that my injuries leave me unable to get pregnant a 9th time.
Thus began my obsessively writing, my transman main character, pregnant. Always pregnant now. Every time. Every story. Stories that now fully focus on pregnancy, labour, miscarriages, babies dying, babies living, raising babies... the whole series, since 2014 has devolved into an outright baby obsession.
Meanwhile, reborn baby dolls were suggested to me by my therapist, and have also become a deeply obsessive part of my life. Because 13 years ago my son was murdered minutes after he was born, because a transphobic bigot mistook me for being transgender, I'm STILL in a wheelchair, struggling to relearn to use my arms and legs, now 13 years later, and I'm still DAILY dealing with police officers and FBI agents who while they are trying to find my son's killer, they are also daily reminding me... oh, yeah, my son was murdered, literally ripped out of my belly, by a transphobe. Who still has not been located and walks free to kill again.
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The golfclub woman as she looked during the golf club attack at Southern Maine community college November 14, 2013. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The golfclub woman as she looked during the shopping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart July 26, 2016. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The 2nd woman as she looked at both attacks, her hair goes all the way down to her knees. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer's accomplice, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
I am a legally blind quadriplegic, and low verbal, I have also published 138 novels in the last 48 years. It's not as impossible as people think. The problem being blind and quadriplegic, medically have different meanings then how those two words are used medically.
Fewer than 3% of all blind people see nothing. While 97% people who are classified as fully blind are able to see up to two feet in front of them. Legally blind means I can see more then two feet in front of me but not far enough to see twenty feet in front of me. In my case I can see about eight feet.
Quadriplegic, has varying levels, it means having a damaged nerve bundle in the spinal column causing limited mobility of all 4 limbs, (in my case this was done by a women wielding a golf club, who also beat my 8 month infant's head to pulp on the parking lot tarmak, at the same time she severed my spine with the same golf club; both on November 14, 2013; the FBI investigation into my son's murder and my being crippled has gone on now for 13 years, a few weeks away from 14 years now, and the FBI has still not identified the killer or her motive). Contrary to popular misconception, quadriplegic does NOT mean ZERO movement, it means means limited movement, specifically in means unable to lift arms over head, unable to grip fingers around objects to pick them up, and unable to stand for more then 5 minutes to a time. Because there are so many thousands of nerves in each limb it is actually very rare for there to be 100% no movement, but how much, and to what extent varies by patent depending upon the specific point of injury to the spinal column.
Meaning typing is still possible for over 60% of all quadriplegics.
In my case, it was the lower spine that was severed, cutting off completly my ability to move my right leg, leaving limited feeling in my left leg, and an ability to stand but not walk, with crutches, for the first 9 years. I regained enough nerve growth in my legs by the 9th year to be able to take ten or twelve steps allowing me to get out of bed for the first time since the golf club attack; This in turn lead to me being able to start using a wheelchair, as I was able to sit upright for the first time as well.
Because the shattered vertebrae bone fragments are broken off completly and embedded into the nerve bundle just above my tailbone, doctors were saying I would never walk again, but now at 13 years, I am able to push mu wheelchair like a walker, a distance of almost a thousand steps a day. Though doctors are still doubtful I will ever walk "normally" again, I have proven them wrong, when their said 13 years ago, that I would never walk again at all.
But because of the placement of the damage to my spine, regaining hand use, was always thought possible, it was just a matter of waiting long enough for nerve regrowth, along side daily finger exercises. I was able to continue writing, after becoming quadriplegic, because I still have use of my right thumb, and 2 fore figures of my right hand. And can type 90 words per minute with those 3 fingers.
I however have no wrist strength, elbow strength, or shoulder strength, so I am not able to form a fist, or lift objects, or brush my hair, or my teeth, all thing I have to have my caretaker do. But, those things are not needed for typing. Unfortunately, my pinky and ring fingers are "nerve dead" and drag over the keyboard, and cause horrific spelling errors and typos, which are incredibly frustrating to deal with.
Unfortunately trying to edit errors myself, just makes the errors worse, because those same two fingers drag over the keyboard yet again. Prior to the golf club attack, I rarely had spelling errors; now I got more spelling errors then someone is learning English as second language. Editing is a challenge, that I've had to accept, I simply can not do myself, and I have to hire several editors to help with that.
Low verbal means sounds can still be made, sounds that software programs like Dragon can be trained to recognize and translate, and type into full words. More then half my novels were typed with this method.
I still have a long ways to go before I am anything close to being able to do the things I could do before the golf club woman beat my baby's brains out and shattered my spine. And you know what's more frustrating then how slow mu medical progression has been? The fact that it's been 13 years and the police and FBI are still coming up at dead ends as to who the woman who murdered my baby was, or why she even did it.
My son's 14th birthday is only a few weeks away, but he didn't even get to live long enough to celebrate his 1st birthday, I don't even know why. And I can't wait to regain my ability to walk again, because regaining my ability to walk, means gaining the ability to go outside and start looking for my son's murderer myself instead of sitting at home trapped in a wheelchair waiting for the police and FBI to to find her. So, writing isn't a big priority for me anymore. I only write now, as a way to exercise my hands, in between relearning to walk.
Never let a disability stop you. Plenty of writers, artists, athletes, do not let either blindness, speech impediments, or limited mobility hold then back from perusing their careers.
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
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