EelKat Wendy C Allen - zdark Fantasy Author


2018 April/May/June Update:

As you know, most of the year I publish 2 to 3 articles a day.

However, every year during convention season, I take a break from that to go full swing CosPlay.

From early April 2018 to late June 2018, article posting schedule will be sporadic, while CosPlay Season and Convention events are going full swing.

During this time period, you can expect most, possible all new articles to be focused on costume making, CosPlay, and the characters I'm CosPlaying.

UPDATE: It's now divided into 7 pages. The primary page "Meet Avallach" is now over 20,000 words long. At this rate, it'll cross 60,000 long before the costume is finished, and that's not including the other 5 pages. The primary page has now crossed 60,000 89,000 words and counting, the whole set of Avallac'h pages are now more than 200,000 words long, and more then 500 pictures of Avallac'h and his friends have now been uploaded on these pages, plus there are now 400+ hour-long videos f the costume making process as we record live, every second of this insanely elaborate, over the top CosPlay project.

As of May 19, just 29 days to PortCon we are embroidering his blue coat in a countdown against the clock to finish in time for the event, while we pray that The Dazzling Razzberry will be re-weilded back together and drivable in time for PortCon, after it's recent vandalism by Old Orchard Beach's ever growing Ku Klux Klan problem.

There will still be daily updates, but the BULK of the daily updates will be limited to the pages linked here:

  1. The Avallac'h CosPlay: Who is Avallac'h?
  2. Obsession: Meet Avallac'h
  3. [NSFW] Avallac'h & His Nude Women | Witcher 3 Game Screenshots
  4. Historical Accuracy vs Avallac'h (to go live later this summer)
  5. The Avallac'h CosPlay Costume Making Vlogs (will go live AFTER finishing the costume)
  6. How To Make The Avallac'h CosPlay (will go live AFTER PortCon)
  7. How Much Did It Cost? ($800+ will run to around $3,000) Budgeting The Avallac'h CosPlay (eing written as the costume is being made, will go live after completion of the costume)
  8. Why do children CosPlay rapists & rape victims? & WHY Avallac'h is a M18+ character. 
  9. PortConMaine 2018
  10. On Being a Handicapped CosPlayer: A Look At Events of PortConMaine 2017 That Resulted In 3 Disabled CosPlayers Getting hurt at The Convention and How These Things Could Have Been Avoided


After PortCon Update:

PortCon 2018 is over... but the making of the Avallac'h CosPlay is not. It is not possible to make a costume as detailed as I'm making in fewer then 400 hours, and only 129 hours went into the simplified first run version you saw at PortCon'18. The complete version will not be seen until PortCon'19

If you want to see this costume in person and watch it's progression onward as I continue to expand it... I'll be wearing it at the monthly Maine Association of CosPlay Enthusiasts (M.A.C.E.) events, throughout 2018 and 2019, you are welcome to join us. The list of current events can be found here: https://www.facebook.com/groups/293470827423558/events/ This list is updated monthly, so be sure to check back often to find all the dates, locations, and details of events.




Ask A YouTuber Anything
Be True To You:
Advice For YouTube Gamers:  
"Faking" a personality until you make it?

"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself?

Today's Date is: March 13, 2017


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Ask A YouTuber Anything
Be True To You: 
Advice For YouTube Gamers:  
"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

You here me say these words over and over again. To so many people. In so many questions. Today, we find a question that again has me chanting those words...


Today's YouTube Lets Plays question comes from Reddit:

"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself? from letsplay

While my original answer to this question appeared on the Reddit thread linked above, my answer here is longer and has more detail then the one posted on the YouTube Lets Plays Reddit forums.














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Ask A YouTuber Anything
Be True To You: Advice For YouTube Gamers:  
"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself?
My Answer:


I'm someone who simply does not understand why it is people feel they must be fake. Whenever people see my car (with 2.5million marbles glued to it) or me, drifting around my yard dressed as an Elf Wizard, they assume, I'm going to be some loud obnoxious person; then they meet me and find out I can barely speak above a whisper, a side effect of having been mute the first 37 years of my life (I have Autism - ACTUAL Autism - not Aspergers).

The first thing people say to me every time they meet me is:

"I'd never dare to dress like that"

and

"I'd never dare drive a car like that in public."

I ask why and they say:

"What will people think?"

What will people think? Uhm... why does it matter what the hell any one thinks?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

Fuck any one who says otherwise.

When I ask people to explain to me, this bizarre obsession Americans have with what others think, they start babbling about school, friends, co workers, etc, and ask how I did any of those things look as I look, dressing as I dress, and driving that pink Volvo shaped disco ball around...

I point out the very simply fact that THEY are trespassing on my yard and I would not have meet them had they not invaded my PRIVACY -

I'm a hermit with agoraphobia -

only time I talk to a human face to face is when they are piss pants excitedly jumping over fences, barging pass no trespassing and keep out signs,

and I then point out I was never allowed to go to school - check the news reports - they called it one of the worst cases of child abuse in recorded history -

I was 31 years old the first time I had contact with Humans outside of the Heaven's Gate Compound...

and I did not like what I found, promptly went back into the woods and I'm now fast closing in on 60 years without Human contact.

If I cared what other people thought, I'd do as the army of social workers who parade up in here endlessly, keep saying to do and go be a nice friendly people person.

Well, guess what? I'm not a nice friendly people person. So why should I fake being a thing that I am not?

I do not like being around people. Why should I fake enjoying the company of creatures that I find to be vile perversions of life?

This is who I am. Take it or leave it.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

This is who I am. Why should I pretend to be anything else? I'd be miserable if I did.

I spend my life peaceful, happy, and in a constant state of joy... until trespassing home invaders arrive in my yard and disturbed my privacy. I like my privacy. I don't humans invading my privacy. I like to be left alone.

I had 30 years of you vile humans beating me up, raping me, starving me... and guess what: I'm perfectly happy to at long last have peace and quiet with no humans to bother me.

30 years of rape, beatings, starvation, being locked in a room with boarded up windows for days on end, taught me one thing:

what ANY ONE thinks of you DOES NOT MATTER.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

I didn't survive the hell I went through by worry about what others thought. I survived by doing exactly the opposite: by being me and never letter nothing, no one did force me into submission. You don't survive if you back down and give in to the whims of others.

Stand tall, stand proud, and be you, no matter who you are. Don't you dare EVER let any one force you to be someone you are not. Not in the little things, especially not in the big things.

Think about it: YouTube is insignificant. It's a small thing. It's nothing. It's meaningless. If you haven't got the strength to be yourself in something that menial, then how can you ever expect to stand up for yourself when REAL life or death challenges are put in your path?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

Be yourself in the small things, it'll help give you the backbone you need to fight for your life, should the time you ever need to do so arise.

Yes, people are going to complain if you are quiet on YouTube. I know. i'm quiet and they do. And you know what? I don't give a rat's ass what they think. Their opinions are meaningless.

When push comes to shove, they couldn't survive 30 years of rape, beatings, starvation, being locked in a room with boarded up windows for days on end - you know how I know that?

Because, they are such spineless whimps who've never seen any bad side of life, living in the lap of luxury to such an extent that the ONLY thing they can find to complain about is if someone is too loud or too quiet on YouTube, and THAT makes their opinion of me meaningless, because I know where I've been, what I've survived, and I know busy body complaining whimps like them, could never even face a shadow of what I survived.

Remember that, next time you are worries about what someone thinks of you. Ask yourself: Does it REALLY matter? No. It doesn't. Any one who tries to force you to be someone you are not, is a person whose opinion means nothing.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

Be yourself. Never let anyone change you. Be proud of who you are.

I'm a hermit with a agoraphobia. This is who I am. Why should I try to pretend I'm anything other then what I am?

Why would you, feel that the opinions of others makes enough of a difference in your life, that's you'd be willing to crush the real you and put a fake you in your place?

If you are a loud person, be loud. If you are a quiet person, be quiet. A person who fakes being something they are not, is just trying to impress someone whose opinion didn't matter in the first place.

I simply do not understand why it is the Americans believe they have to do whatever everyone else does, pander to a false leader, grovel at the feet of bullies, and only do things that others say they must do.

Does no one in America have a spine? Can no one stand up to any one? Is their entire population spineless pussies that can do nothing without someone else doing it first?

Is there no one in America, willing to do their own thing? Be their own person? Does everyone have to follow the Jones, playing follow the leader, doing only things they see others doing?

Do they not have brains? Can they not think for themselves?

Why the need to run to others asking "should I do this or that, what is the more popular thing to do?"

Since when is doing the most popular thing, the best thing, the thing you actually should do?

When the whole world is standing in shit, are you going to be a brainless sheep and wallow in the shit with, just because everyone else is doing it, or are you going to use your brain and walk away to safety, even if you have to walk alone?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

You don't need to follow the crowd.

Dare to be different.

Dare to be unique.

Dare to be you.

And consider this: Your question asks what it takes to become popular on YouTube, how to get more views. Should you be like Jack or should you be like Cryotic? Did you ever consider that both of them became successful by NOT following the crowd? Both of them stand out, because NEITHER of them does what is considered standard, typical or the norm when it comes to YouTube.

Jack and Cryotic BOTH stand out in the crowd, because both just do their own thing and bes them-self. 

Jack and Cryotic BOTH reached success because they were DIFFERENT from every one else.

You want to be like Jack and Cryotic? You'll never stand out in the crowd, if you do what every one else is doing.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

You don't need to follow the crowd.

Dare to be different.

Dare to be unique.

Dare to be you.


This article was originally written on: March 13, 2017

This page last updated on: March 13, 2017


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