Harassment On Twitch  
Why I Turned off My Channel's Chat

I'm confused. There is another streamer who talks about you all the time, like every 5 minutes, every day. She doesn't stop talking about you. You're like the only thing she talks about. She seems to be obsessed with you bad. She keeps saying how you are this big porn star and have all sorts of stripper friends and you are into bondage and yo write erotica and are a fetish freak. She says you do nothing but play the sex quests over and over again and every one in your game is nude. I decided to check you out and I admit I am quite shocked. You are not what I was expecting. I did not expect a Muslim wearing modesty and hijab. I read your profile and found out you were Mormon, so that why you dress like Muslim I think. But now I read you have never done any sex quests on stream and removed all nudity from your game and put modesty dress on all the women in the game. I been watching you for the past few weeks and all you do is pick flowers while just chatting. You don't even play the game at all, this is just a just chatting stream. I looked you up and thought to buy your books because she said you are an erotica author, but I couldn't find anything by you that was erotica. Only horror novels and science fiction short stories. I am very confused. I thought you were supposed to be this big sex industrusy star or something, but I read your website and found the news reports about what happened to you and I'm so sorry. I couldn't even imagine what it must been like to live through something like that. It no wonder you have so much hate for sex. I feel bad now that I believed all that sex talk she was doing about you. I understand now why you are so upset. I feel so bad. I unfollowed her. I am so sorry I ever watched her streams. 

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Well, you certainly covered a lot, didn't you?

I'm gonna have to break this down into parts to make sure I don't miss answering anything.

Answering your very many questions/comments...

#I'm confused. There is another streamer who talks about you all the time, like every 5 minutes, every day. She doesn't stop talking about you. You're like the only thing she talks about. She seems to be obsessed with you bad. She keeps saying how you are this big porn star and have all sorts of stripper friends and you are into bondage and yo write erotica and are a fetish freak. She says you do nothing but play the sex quests over and over again and every one in your game is nude. 

You mean Claudia? Yes. I am aware of what she has been doing. Her wild sex stories about me are what resulted in a gang of 5 men showing up at my apartment building looking for me, and getting the wrong door, breaking down the next door in the hall down from mine, and gng raping the 2 young military wives who lived ther while their husbands were overseas. They proceeded to beat up the elderly people in the building, took baseball bats to all the windows. Then doing the same to the cars in the parking lot. In total they did $230,000 in damages to the building, totaled 3 cars including my Dazzling Razzberry which was my only means of transportation, raped 2 women, put several elderly in the hospital including my 82 year old father who was hospitalized with a ruptured kidney, killed one young boy, and left 28 families homeless...  all because they said they were told vis DisCord that they had been given an "open invitation" to "gang bang the Wicher 3 BDSM Dominatrix". She also incited several other streamers to do the "Deserve to be Raped" raids, which resulted in 712 raiders raiding my channel with the raid message "deserve to be raped". [YES, I am VERY aware of the sex rumors and BDSM dominatix lies she has been malliciously spreading across the internet about me.] She and her discord friends are small minded evil people who get off on hurting others. She and her vile, hateful, uncompassionate, cruel, cold hearted crew is the reason why chat is off. 

I do find what she did (and continues to do, obviously, other wise you would not be asking me this question) extreemly baffling, considering I've been all over the internet since 1996 and am well known to my some 30 million online followers, for my extreeme hatred for all things related to sex, my aversion for things like BDSM, my being asexual, my post traumatic stress disorder that was caused by extreme levels of sexual abuse as a child... my absolute verhemant hatred for sex and all things related to sex is legandary across the internet for close to 30 years now. So for her to be spreading these maliciously slanderous rumors and lies about me is a absolute vicsious act of pure hatred on her part. She is evil beyond imagining for doing this to me.

I have learned, however that there IS IN FACT a BDSM Dominatrix on Twitch, who IS ALSO a porn star, claims to be one of the top BDSM PornStars for some porn cam streaming site, claims to have been a porn star for 8+ years, and DOES in fact play quite a lot of Witcher 3 on her Twitch channel. It's not difficult to find her. Every time she plays Witcher 3, she has 1,000 to 5,000 viewers. So she hits the top of the Witcher 3 directory frequently. She is by far the largest channel on Twitch which sort-of regularly plays Witcher 3. I can't help but wonder if Claudia somehow mixed me and my channel up with this other streamer and her channel?

I did go and read all 2,000+ of her Discord posts about me and watched her 200+ Twitch VODs about me, and she gets some stuff right, for example when she says I modded my game to play as Avallac'h, but MOST of what she says about me is way, way, way, WAAAAAY off. About 99.9% of the shit she posted and said about me was straight up falsehoods and out and out lies.

I can't help but wonder if she watches the ACTUAL pornstar streamer's Witcher 3 streams and somehow thought she was watching my streams? But the pornstar streamer doesn't use mods on her game and her name isn't anything even close to mine, so there is no way to mix the names up... however, like me, everything about her is pink: her room is pink, her clothes are pink, her headphones are pink. My room is pink, my clothes are often pink, and for about 2 years I had pink headphones (until they stopped working and I replaced them), so it would be possible to at a quick glance opn her stream and THINK you was watching my stream, just because at a first glance you see the prodominatly pink webcam. 

#I decided to check you out and I admit I am quite shocked. I think do I have the right streamer? You are not what I was expecting. I did not expect a Muslim wearing modesty and hijab. I read your profile and found out you were Mormon, so that why you dress like Muslim I think.

Yes, it seems that ALMOST EVERYONE who finds me on Twitch (as opposed to people who find my channel from FaceBook, Twitter, etc.) arrives at my channel after watching one of her streams or reading one of her posts and ALWAYS arrives here fully 100% expecting to find me being some tittie flashing, boobashious porn star. I am so damned sick of her sending that kind of perverted minded trashy filth to my channel. 

And yes, I'm a 5th generation Fundamentalist Mormon, that is QUITE DIFFERANT than being an LDS Mormon. Fundamentalists are much more strict, live a rigoius lifestyle, adhearing to rules and regulations regarding lifestyle, dress, and social interactions. Traditionally Fundamentalists dress one of 2 ways:

* in 1800s prairie dress, very similar to how the Amish dress, sun bonnets, petticoats, and all; families who were Catholic or Protesent and converted to Mormonism usually dress this way

* in a traditional Biblical Hebrew style, similar to how you see Mother Mary dressed in Medival paintings of her; families who were Jewish and converted to Mormonish usually dress this way 

Both types of Fundamentalist fahsions are acompanied by the covering of heads, both in men and women. In the 1800s type you see women wearing Holly Hobby style sun bonnets and men wearing star hats or cowboy hats whenever outside, only removing them when inside. In the Biblical style, you see women and men both wearing various types of head wraps, hoods, viels, and head scarfs, including hijab.

Additionally, same as Jewish men, Fundamentalist Mormon men wear very specific aprons around their waists, with knotted tassles. Many men wear long black coats and are often mistaken for being Jewish when out in public because of how they are dressed.

Men and women both wear prayer shawls that are often similar to or identical with Jewish prayer shawls.

Fundamentalist Mormons are often described as "Christian Jews" and many think of themselves as Hebrews who converted to Christianity but still hold strongly to Orthodox Jewish traditions.

While the LDS Mormon church has strict rules forbidding men from having beards or long hair, most Fundamentalist men have both very big beards and very long hair, believing it is a sin to let a blade touch their hair. 

It is VERY rare to see a Fundamentalist Mormon wear anything even remotly similar to modern dress and things like t-shirts and jeans are full on shunned by men and women alike. While LDS Mormons wear modest fashions, they are very similar to current fashions and are not easily picked out of a crowd, whereas Fundamentalist Mormons can be identified in an instant by the distinctive and centuries out of fashion way of dressing.

My family were amoung the original members of the Mormon church, in Saco Maine, in the late 1700s, before Joseph Smith was born. Back when the church was known as The Concrenites. Joesph Smith would not take over the Concrinite Church until the 1830s, at which point he disbanned it, started a new church, and began to refer to his followers as "Mormon Saints".

That said, yes, I do often wear a hijab and you will find I am one of the very few Twitch streamers who does. I am never on stream without my head covered, though you more often see me wearing a scarf, viel, or kerchief, than you do a hijab. I also always wear lose fitting robes, caftans, kimono, hakama, muu-muu. While I am 38DDD, you would not know that from how I dress because I wear binders and think tank tops under my robes, both to flatten and for coverage. I wear many layers, often 2 caftans and 3 kimono at the same time. And you nearly always see me wrapped up in a heavy knitted wool shawl. Skin, boobs, and tittie flashing are definatly not things you will find here.

#She says you do nothing but play the sex quests over and over again and every one in your game is nude. I decided to check you out and I admit I am quite shocked. I think do I have the right streamer? You are not what I was expecting. 

#I been watching you for the past few weeks and all you do is pick flowers while just chatting. You don't even play the game at all, this is just a just chatting stream. 

Yes. I am not an entertainer. I am not here to satisfy your need to watch a buffon shove her boobs in the camera. I am not here to play games you watch to see.

I am here because I am crippled, bedridden, extreemly isolated, have no one to talk to, and am 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 12 months a year, for years on end, laying here in bed with a broken spine and nothing I can do. I play the game because it is one of the very few things I can do while laying down in bed. I stream because I'm playing the game anyways, so I might as well stream in case anyone out there is interested in watching. Only this and nothing more.

I am not here to entertain you. 

I'm not sure where she got the idea that all I did was sex quests, considering we have played Witcher 1 and Witcher 3 ten times each and have yet to do ANY of the sex quests.

You see screen shots from the sex quests here, because I run Avallac'h and Ciri through the sex quests off-stream and with mods so they still have their clothes on, so that I can get screen shots of Avallac'h and Ciri hugging and or kissing. Half the time people say they can't figure out what quests I got the screenshots from because they don't recgognize them as the sex quests due to the fact Ciri and Avallac'h are fully clothed in most of the shots of them together.

But no, you've never seen sex quests done on stream. And you never will.

And again, I wonder if some how she mixed me up with the mega-huge streamer who IS an actual pornstar? Because she DOES play and replay and replay and replay the sex quests over and over and over and over and... she kind of doesn't do anything else whenever she plays Witcher 3. But her channel is HUGE, MASSIVE, with millions of views and followers and rarely does she have anything fewer then 3,000 viewers per stream. She is one of the top biggest streamers on Twitch. Up there with Ninja and Shroud.

I wonder if Claudia could have mixed us up because I am the **biggest WITCHER EXCLUSIVE channel** on Twitch, while that pornstar streamer is the **biggest CHANNEL on Twitch WHO HAPPENS TO SOMETIMES PLAY WITCHER**? But again, I read every one of Claudia's 2,000+ Discord posts about me and watched all of her 200+ Twitch VODs about me, and she ALWAYS used my username "EelKat" and ALWAYS referanced the fact that I played the game as Avallac'h. But beyond the fact that I play the game as Avallac'h, literally EVERYTHING ELSE she said about me was 100% false and instead was matching of the pornstar streamer. 

But again, how do you mix up "EelKat" playing as Avallac'h with "miamakova" playing as Geralt? Or, how do you mix up "EelKat" playing with 4,000+ mods and  "miamakova" playing vanilla? Or, how do you mix up "EelKat" strict Christian who reads the Bible while playing the game with "miamakova" porn star who obsesses over sex none stop? It's almost as if Claudia watched BOTH me and miamakova and somehow her twisted mental state blended the 2 of us together and she thinks me and miamakova are both the exact same person? I don't know. I can't think of what else it could be.

Somehow Claudia got it into her head that I was a BDSM dominatrix pornstar with bondage foot fetishes, but I can't figure out how she could have come to such a bizarrly innacurate oppinion of me. Nor can I understand why she devoted 2 years of her life to spreading these vile, filthy lies about me all over Twitch and Discord. It was increadibly men of her to do this.

#I looked you up and thought to buy your books because she said you are an erotica author, but I couldn't find anything by you that was erotica. Only horror novels and science fiction short stories. I am very confused. 

Yes, again, I'm not sure why Claudia is obsessivly running her filthy, lying, flapping mouth off about me or why she has taken it upon herself to call me an Erotica author, when I've never written any Erotica at all.

The series I'm most known for is The Quaraun series (aka The Twighlight Manor series), which spans 130 volumes, more then 2million pages, and has only 21 sex scenes in it, most of them fade to black with no on page sex happening. The Quaraun series gets sold under differant genres depending on the book seller:

* Gorn

* SplatterPunk

* Dark Fantasy

* Bizzaro Horror

* Yaoi

* Gay Romance

* CBT (Cock & Ball Torture)

* Transgender Literature

* Literary

* Slice of Life

* Space Fantasy

There are an additional 2,000+ short stories that exist within the same universe but follow other characters.

The publisher has the genre marked on the cover as *Dark Fantasy/Bizzaro*

It has never been shelved as or sold as Erotica.

The 1st volume was published September 23, 1978 and 2020 will be it's 42nd anniversary. Most volumes were published in the 1980s. The last vlomue was published in 2016, though more volumes are planned if my health let's me get back to writing.

Since the series is about a gay couple and was published in the 1970s & 1980s, it was heavily boycotted, banned almost everywhere in America, and saw most of it's following in Japan, Germany, and Brazil, remaining very obscure to the rest of the planet. I don't think any volume sold more then 1,000 during it's 1st printing, making it relativly rare, obscure, and difficult to find 1st edition copies of. The 35th anniversary editions (the pink cover editions) are the ones most easily found, but even thouse are fairly rare. Though 2 volumes are ranked as bestsellers "The Night of the Screaming Unicorn" and "BoomFuzzy" both of which sold more then 10,000 copies the 1st day of the 40th anniversay 1st release of their Kindle reprint editions, each of which going on to sell more then 100,000 copies the first month of the Kindle release.

And since it is unlikely you have ever read the 130 volume series and don't know what it is, here, let me tell you a summary of what the Quaraun series is:

The main character, Quaraun The Insane, is a Moon Elf crown prince who secretly has a male lover (BoomFuzzy). When the king decides to unit 2 Elf kingdoms by marrying his son to a she-Elf princess, the fact of his being gay and already in a relationship with another male surfaces causing chaos in the Moon Elf society, which has a full on ban on same sex couples. The crown prince is brutally tortured by a mob of angry citezens who castrate him over the course of torturing him. This event causes him to flee the kingdom with his male lover. One thing leads to another and they end up seperated, he ends up forced to marry the princess, and his lover comits suicide.

The prince emotionally shuts down and retreats into a tower in the palace, spending decades there, ding what, no one knows. He emerges 100 years after the suicide of his lover, and proceeds to murder every last Moon Elf in the kingdom, then uses their blood and corpses in a massive necromancy ritual that resurects his dead lover as an infinatly powerful Lich... though the spell goes wrong and BoomFuzzy is also resurected as a Unicorn. A purple undead Lich-Unicorn.

Quaraun with his army of resurect dead roses and BoomFuzzy with his bloodthirsty army of marshamallow bunny rabbits, join forces with FarDarrig a vampire leprechaun who wears human skin coats, GhoulSpawn The Crazed a teenaged half-demon D&D Dungeon Master turned wizard whose primary spell is to throw glittering sheep and dancing banasa at people, The Jiggler an amphibous strip dancer with an army of robotic teddy bears that shoot lasers from their nipples, BatDude and Pigeon Poop Boy 2 cosplaying humans who believe themselves to be super heroes, a green skinned Gnome pirate Captain Quirk and his flying pirate ship Rent-A-Prize, and Miss Citten the Eel-Kat & Spriggan & & Lynxiana a pack of talking space cats with a planet destroying star ship, Quaraun and BoomFuzzy march their way across first the planet, then then the universe, in a bloody treck of terror mass murdering every person who ever gave any hint to dislikeing gay couples.

Known for it's toe curling murder scenes of extreme castration torture and endless page after page of axe hacking, chainsaw weilding, blood splashing guts and entrails spewed on every page.

Banned in 27 countries for being "too graphicaly grusome and gory" the series follows an outraged castrated gay Elf necromancer as he mass murders every gay hater in the universe, then feeds their remains to his bloodthirsty unicorn lover.

Claudia has a very warped view of what Erotica is if she can look at anything I wrote and call it Erotica.

If you can look at the Quaraun series and call it Erotica... you probably show be locked in prison, and insane asylum, or both. FOREVER. And NEVER let out. 

#You are NOT fit or safe to be walking free in society if you think mass murdering gay haters by extreme castration torture, is Erotica.

#I write brutal, bloody, SlasherPunk Horror Gorn, featuring Fantasy characters and set in a Science Fiction space travelling galaxy, and you are SERIOUSLY MESSED UP IN THE HEAD in and some DESPERATE NEED OF PSYCHIATRIC HELP if you think THAT is Erotica!

The series spans 130 volumes, more then 2million pages, and has only 21 sex scenes in it, most of them fade to black with no on page sex happening. The 1st volume was published September 23, 1978 and 2020 will be it's 42nd anniversary. The last vlomue was published in 2016, though more volumes are planned if my health let's me get back to writing.

#I am very confused. I thought you were supposed to be this big sex industrusy star or something, but I read your website and found the news reports about what happened to you and I'm so sorry. I couldn't even imagine what it must been like to live through something like that. It no wonder you have so much hate for sex. I feel bad now that I believed all that sex talk she was doing about you. I understand now why you are so upset. I feel so bad. I unfollowed her. I am so sorry I ever watched her streams. 

Yes, I was born and raised into a child prostitution ring. My own mother is young enough to be my sister, she was only a small child when I was born. I never went to school or doctors and spent most of the first 31 years of my life locked in a tiny dog cage, in a closet with no lights. I was raped on a near daily basis and had 7 "misscarriages" that were caused by being thrown into a shower stall while my uncles kicked me uncounsious. I was one of 140+ children rescuded in the 1997 FBI raid that occurred only because one of my uncles was also invloved in the Heaven's Gate mass murder of 39 people a few days before the FBI raid. The FBI didn't know about the child prostitution ring and only found us as a side effect of the Heaven's Gate murders, when they came in to confinscate my uncles' hundreds of illegal guns and bomb making gear.

I was 37 years old when I first started learning to speak American English (I was speaking fluent cat), and went to school for the first time to get a GED. A team of more then a dozen social workers, psychologists, and psychiatrists diagnosed me as "a feral child" and "a UFO cult survivor" and spent several years teaching me to do things like walk on my feet instead of all 4s, brush my hair and teeth, eat out of dishes and bowls and with forks and spoons instead of off the ground. They taught me that things like growling, hissing, baring my teeth, and scratching with my claws were not things humans did because humans were not cats. It has been nearly 30 years since them and they've still not figure out how to "socialize" me or teach me that Humans are not evil monsters.

They were shocked to learn that the author of so many books, had written those books, all by hand pen and ink, and had never received a penny of the royalties because the uncles published the books and kept the money. They were also shocked to realize that the torture scenes of the quaraun novels WERE NOT FICTIONAL and rather were instead accurate descriptions of the daily torture of the children my uncles were hiding.

They were even more horrified in March 2015, when the FBI decided to investigate just HOW ACCURATE were the murder scenes in the Quaraun novels, and began the massive excavation of the bodies of dozens of murdered children in the GooseFareBrooke Ravine in the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach, Maine. 31 of the more then 200 murdered children have been excavated so far.

Yes, Claudia is an EXTREMELY and EXTRAORDINARILy VILE and DEMENTED person for taking these horrific real world torture of me and my cousins and murders of 200+ of my cousins, and turning them into 200+ Twitch heavily sexualized and lewdly perverted VODs and 2,000+ BDSM running gag sex joke Discord posts. I am utterly horrified by what she did. She is just as bad as, if not worse then, the uncles who tortured us and murdered so many children.

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Harassment On Twitch | Why I Turned off My Channel's Chat

*image: EelKat current Queen of the Scottish Gypsies seen here in official Erzuli robes*

#TO THOSE ASKING WHY IS CHAT OFF AND IF IT WILL COME BACK ON...

We Gypsies seperate ourselves from immoral Gentiles and Infidels, and you need to prove to me that you are neither, before I'm going to turn chat back on, as chat has already proven they are hate mongering, vile, perverted, lewd, sex crazed pieces of shit. Chat proved that without a doubt, when 712 of them were chanting "deserve to be raped".

Chat used to be on but I'm just plain sick and tired of vile perverted sex crazed Infidels posting their immoral shit in my chat.

Your chat is an extension of your house.

When you invite people to post in chat, it is you inviting them to sit on your living room sofa and talk to you and your family.

Sadly the bulk of Twitch chat is a scum pit of filth that I don't want associating with my family... a lesson I learned the hard way.

The full   answer [can be found HERE](https://www.eelkat.com/harrasment_on_twitch_why_I_turned_off_chat,html)

And clearly you have forgotten who I am, where I came from, and WHY I uphold stritch morals in every aspect of my life, including Twitch chat.

I am EelKat... and if you don't know what that means, then you are either very young, or have spent the last 50 years living under a rock... because there isn't a country in the world, who doesn't know me.

Yeah, I AM, THAT famous.

Yes, I am the REAL EelKat... since 1997 I make the laws for my people, pass judgments, and oversee punishments and executions.

Most famous for having taken down 13 Clan Kings of New England's infamous "Scottish Mafia" and rising up as the strictest, least lenient leader The Scottish Gypsies of New England have had since the 1530s.

Working alongside FBI agent Andy Drewer, I've sent 14 of The Scottish Mafia's worst drug lords and child prostitution ring leaders in prison since 2015.

I'm taking down every last man who tortured me. Every last man who locked me in a cage. Every last man who electrocuted me. Every last man who raped me. Every last man who beat me.

I was locked in a cage when I was 8 years old, left 10 to 12 days between meals, sleeping in feces, only let out when an American showed up with $20,000 to rape a child... and I wasn't let out until I was 31 years old when an FBI raid rescued me, and the 140+ others who had had the same thing done to them.

I took over the clan as its leader less then a year after the FBI raid and I've made sure to eliminate every last child abuser, every last drug maker, every last spouse abuser, every last drug dealer, every last rapist, and every last bastard who ever murdered a child.

No more children beaten to death, sawed up and buried in the backyard.

Never again, will they sell a 5 year old for sex.

Never again will a child starve to death while locked in a cat carrier.

Never again will they saw up a teenager and cook them in stew, feed them to the other children, then toss their bones in the swamp.

I'm taking down every last child abusing, child raping, child torturing, child murdering, cannibalistic, drug dealing, bastard among them....

...along with everyone who helped them, and everyone who thinks what they did was a good funny thing to make jokes and memes about.

And I don't stop with the bastards who tortured us children... I won't let anyone use what happened to us to make stupid ass sex memes or jokes online either.

If you ever once thought about making fun of the abuse we children went through, I will find out, I will hunt you down, and I will destroy your life.

I don't take shit from my own people so I also won't take shit from mindless, ingrat pieces of shit who try to be toxic bastards in my Twitch chat. If you want to talk to me, you better make damned sure you are worthy to even grace my presence at all... 

The smartass little stunt ThingyChan pulled is the last fucking straw. 

I can't think of anything more evil, more vile, than what ThingyChan did when she took the torture my uncles did to me and my cousins, rapists, murdered, and cannibals... they raised us like we were food!

You think that's funny!

You think something to make BDSM sex memes jokes about!

ThingyChan, you filthy piece of shit! You're as bad as they are!

Did you ever once stop and think about the shit we went through! They raised us as food, and sold our bodies to be raped by strangers while they waited for us to be tender enough to slaughter and cook!

We spent our entire childhoods, teen years, and young adult years in cages too small to fit in!

Did you know not one of us knew how to speak in human languages, but were fluent in cat and chicken, our ability to "speak" limited to hissing and clucking?

Did you know 140+ of us were classified as "feral children" and after being rescued during the FBI raid, spend more than a decade learning how to do basic things like using toilets, brushing teeth, eating with forks, and bathing?

And you think that kind of long term abuse and torture is fucking funny?

You think that's something to make jokes about!

How much did my aunt Barbie Jean pay you to make those memes? Yes, I saw her in your Discord and Twitch chat.... don't think I didn't. Along side of bastard Shem and Yvonne. You picked the wrong damned people to have your ha-ha's with... Barbie Jean, Shem, and Yvonne were front running in abusing us children, Shem is a fucking cannibal who butchered his own sisters and ate them. The FBI is actively hunting the 3 of them down right now, and your "cute little sex memes" and befriending them in your Discord, has branded you an accessory to their crimes.

Did you know Barbie Jean's husband Paul Martel went to prison for selling the bomb making parts to members of Isis, that killed dozens of people in the Boston Marathon?

Did you know Barbie Jean's son Scott Jurgen went to prison first for drug dealing at Scarborough Downs race track, and less then a year after being released, went back to prison for impersonating a police officer?

Did you know Shem Atwater and Yvonne Johnson are the founders of The Loyalist White Knights of the Ku Klux Klan - the single most violent branch of the KKK to ever exist?

Did you know that by having Barbie Jean, Shem, and Yevonne in your Discord and Twitch chat, you've branded yourself as a supporter of BOTH Isis AND the Ku Klux Klan?

You underhanded, two-faced, vile fucking piece of shit!

You were the first and only friend ever had in my entire life, and now I find out you were only pretending to be my friend so you could get inside information on what torture was like for your sick ass fucking BDSM torture fetish fan fiction about me!

How much did they pay you to fake being my friend for the entire of the 2 years you made those memes and spread them around the internet?

Oh and it keeps getting worse... in the weeks following the discovery of what ThingyChan was doing... more then 60 other Twitch streamers and viewers have now come forward to say, she did the same thing to them.... 

... she has been actively hunting down and seeking out victims of horrendous sexual child abuse, befriending them, while behind their backs making Twitch streams and posting Discord posts filled with sexual, BDSM, torture fetish lies about them.

... every one of the 60+ people who've contacted me between October 2019 and February 2020, describe Claudia as: 

* "a mean spirited bully", 

* "a self centered, bitch with no compassion, empathy, or concern for other people's feelings", 

* "a sociopath who takes sick delight in the suffering and pain of others", 

* "obsessed with sadism and bondage on horrifying levels"

More than 60 others have come forward to tell me horrifying nightmare stories of how they were sadistically and maliciously teased, bullied, belittled, and treated like shit by Claudia.

Every one of them tells nightmare stories of her vile obsession with their sex lives and building horribly slanderous lies about sexal fetishes that ThingyChan has been spreading about them.

Everyone of them said they used to be her subscribers and followers, one is even one of her chat mods... they all said they are too scared of her to dare confront her and ask her to stop harassing them. They said they felt harassed, bullied, and may to feel bad about themselves. Four of them said things she said to and about them, made them want to commit suicide. 

All of them say they were made to feel very uncomfortable by her obsession with sex, bondage, panties, and torture devices, especially giving her habit of making lewd, off colour jokes about their sex lives.

Each of them said they unfollowed, unsubscribed, and stopped viewer her channel after she lashed out at them, making up wild sexually perverted jokes about them, in some cases "pairing them up" with other members of her chat as "sex partners". 

37 of them said she had "paired them up" with me (EelKat), spreading lies about their sex lives, telling her viewers that they were among my sex partners!!!

More than a dozen of them said they felt "virtually raped" by her "endless lewd perverted sex jokes" about them.

Wow.

Just. wow.

Virtually raped.

That's exactly how I felt when I found out the sex lies she was spreading about me.

She is the worst type of online sexual predator. A person who's one goal is to run across the internet spreading fake news about other people's sex lives for the simple purpose of getting sick sadist glee in watching the relationships of couples being destroyed by her slanderous lies about their sex lives.

Virtual rape.

That is exactly what she is doing.

I thought I was the only one she was harassing, whom she had done this to and now I'm finding out she has a huge history of doing this.

She supposedly lives with her parents... my question is:

* do her parents know the type of sexually deviated shit she is doing online?

* does her mom or dad know they are paying the internet services for their daughter to be sexually harassing people online?

* would her mom and dad continue to let her live under their roof, if they knew their daughter was an online sex predator?

* and what is the contact information for her local government officials so I can report her for her predatory online sex offences?

ThingyChan is lucky she's not a citizen under my control, because the sex crimes she committed on her Twitch streams and Discord would have gotten her, her fingers cut off and tongue cut out. 

I am deeply saddened that this sexually deviated, perverted little piece of shit isn't one of my subjects and is protected from punishment by a vile government that allows online sex offenders like her to walk free without punishment.

Twitch is a place for people to come together as a community, sharing experiences, hopes, dreams, and hobbies.

Twitch is NOT a place for sex offenders to congregate and hunt down victims to vitually rape.

Twitch is NOT a place where deviated sex predators should be allowed to roam free, sexually harassing others.

Twitch is NOT a place where cyberbullies belong, especially not sexual bullies.

#TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY YOU WANT TO BE TREATED....

...you can be damned sure that however you treated me, I AM going to treat you EXACTLY the same, tenfold, seventy times seven EXACTLY like Jesus told us to do in the Bible.

Be good to me and I'll be golden to you.

Treat me like shit and I'll be your fucking damned worst nightmare.

Claudia is not the first piece of shit to try to deceive me and pretend to be my friend with no true goal of friendship and only self-centered desire to get something for nothing.

The first 31 years of my life was spent sleeping in feces, starving, locked in a cage.

My first experience with Americans was to be plastered by paparazzi all over every newspaper as a feral child who survived "the worst child abuse case in American history".

My 2nd experience with Americans was for Stephen King's film crew to show up, trespassing, unannounced, to film not one, but 2 movies on my farm, without my permission.

Since then I went on to published 130 novels, 30 nonfiction books, 2,000+ short stories, and 10,000+ non-fiction articles.

I founded The Procter & Gamble Boycott going on to spend 27 years shutting down the animal test labs of not only P&G but also Avon, Estee Lauder, and dozens of others.

All of those things has resulted in people flocking to me as fans, pissing their pants to meet me and get my autograph, but never once becoming a friend... they already have friend who they run back to screaming they shook my hand.

I've never had a friend.

Never.

Not one.

Ben is the closest thing I've ever had to a friend, and do you know who he is? He's the damned fucking high priest. Yeah, the child raping bastard who bought me for $13,000 when I was 12 years old, then spent the next 20+ years buying my mother new cars, paying my dad's tax bills, spending tens of thousands of dollars every month for decades, for the EXCLUSIVE right to be the ONLY pedophile allowed to rape me. Yeah, the sadistic man who dictated my living conditions, all those years. And he's only with me still today, because he's scared shitless that he'll get life in prison if I ever turn him in, like I did the rest of the jackass bastards I grew up with.

Ben's not a friend... he's a terrified pedophile covering his ass. An elderly man, regretting his past and trying to buy his way into heaven.

I tolerate his presence, because in spite of everything he did throughout my childhood... he's the only person I can depend on to help me now that I'm crippled. And he only does that because he's got FBI agents on his back watching his every move.

He doesn't love me. He never has. No one ever has.

My parents, my uncles, they only loved the money they could get from having an 8 year old child with 38DDD breasts.

I had my first "miscarriage" at age 14 when one of my uncles decided it was bad for business for me to be pregnant, so tossed me in a shower stall, and kicked my belly until I passed out. I woke up 3 days later, still in the shower stall, the entire bathroom a bloodbath.

ALL 7 so-called "miscarriages" have been that way. Outright murder.

Ben was the father of every murdered baby and he not only doesn't give a shit, he goes so far as to say, none of the babies were his, goes into wild, violent meltdowns accusing me of being "unrighteous and unfaithful", so he doesn't have to care... but when I was 12, he bought the exclusive rights to me, and I've not been with anyone else since.

Ben's cold, callous uncaring about the deaths, murders of his own children, at the hands of my uncles, is the number 1 primary reason why I like Avallac'h... 

Avallac'h loves babies and hates people who kill them. It's rare to find a man who wouldn't kill a baby, even their own. Real men hate babies. Avallac'h doesn't. Real men kill babies. Avallac'h kills baby killers. 

A man who doesn't kill babies is among the rarest thing there is. Real men are evil. All they care about is sex. They don't care about your health. They don't care about your safety. They only care about their dicks. And babies are in the way. Men massacre babies without batting an eye. 

Avallac'h's love for babies, alongside his fierce, violent protection of babies and their mothers, marks him as a rarity among men and a hero beyond any hero out there.

I was only one of the 140 nieces, my uncles regularly chained down, then jumped on their stomachs while they were pregnant. David was the worst. He was a 6'4" weight lighter, he'd tie the girls down, then beat their bellies with his 200lb weights.

That's the reality of child prostitution rings.

Go to my VOD list. Look for the VOD uploaded April 24, 2019, with the phrase "NSFW" in its title. The video includes footage of the sawed up bones, of 31 of those girls, being dug up on my farm.

Not everyone lived through their so-called "miscarriages". Nearly half died with their babies.

The FBI is still looking for more 200 girls between the ages of 4 and 12, who went missing in the 1970s and 1980s. I know where they are. August 16, 1991, uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater, alongside grandpa David Henry Atwater drove a caravan to Canton Lake, Canton Maine... I spent that 7 hour drive, tied up, gaged, and locked in the trunk of one of the several dozen cars involved in that caravan.

They Heaven's Gate murders happened just 5 years later and is what caused the FBI raid that rescued me and 140 others.

But the FBI first showed up at the farm in 1987.

The FBI started hanging around a lot in 1990.

And then, August 16, 1991, the entire clan gathered, from all over Canada, New England, Utah, Arizona, Colorado, Wyoming... thousands of them, in the biggest "family reunion" the Scottish Gypsies ever held... on Canton Lake.

Those 200+ missing girls... are at the bottom of Canton Lake. 

Lead by David Henry, Mervin Bruce, David, and Shem, the oldest of the grandchildren - men in their 30s and 40s - slit the throats of those girls, gutted them, sawed them up, boiled their meat off the bones, and then made a game, with the youngest children - boys all under the age of 12 - a contest to see who could throw bones the farthest, off a high cliff out into the lake...  in what they referred to as a "Moose poaching camp"... a huge hunting camp that they usually used for processing poached moose. ... a moose processing camp, owned, run, and operated by Barbie Jean.... 

They knew the FBI was coming down on them, so they decided to hide the evidence of the child prostitution ring.... thus they spent the night processing the meat of those 200+ young girls, and then, loaded the steaks into the backs of the door-to-door steak trucks that you see all over Maine, and sold them as "deer meat steaks".

That's what happened to the 200+ girls that went missing, and didn't get rescued with the 140 others, during the FBI raid that shut down the biggest child prostitution ring in America.

You see the constant police and backhoes digging up my farm at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine - it's been going on since the first bodies were dug up by coyotes in 2016, ... if you're local, you've seen it, the hundreds of rusty oil barrels the FBI and police are digging up in my yard... the crowds of locals gathering around my farm, and police simply saying: "We are investigating cannibals" and giving no more details.

The oldest barrels they've excavated so far, date to the 1920s.... the bulk of them are from the 1950s to 1970s.... 

In those oil barrels are the bones of children. Little girls, 8, 9, 10, 12 years olds, who dared commit the sin of getting pregnant when white Americans paid $20,000 to rape them.

Americans like to spread all kinds of rumors about the group they call "The Scottish Mafia", but the reality of the so-called Scottish Mafia, is far worse then the stupid ass rumors.... a clan of cannibals, who raised little girls like they cattle, girls who spent their childhoods in cages, let out only long enough to be raped by American men willing to pay the highest prices, then slaughtered eaten as steaks when they turned 14 years old.... that's the REAL Scottish Mafia, a very big far cry from what you see portrayed as "Scottish Mafia" in TV and movies isn't it?

We females were seen as livestock.

Kept in cages, even puppy mills wouldn't dream of using.

Let out long enough to be raped by strangers.

Our rape babies beaten out of our bellies, on the orders of their fathers, who the uncles blackmailed more money out of. Pay money to beat the 8 year old child carrying your rape baby, ensure no one finds out what you do in your spare time.

Then slaughtered for food when you turn 14.

Your bones, sawed up, packed in oil barrels, and buried in the swamps.

They thought the swamps would rot the metal barrels, rot the bones.

They were wrong, weren't they?

The peat bog moss of the swamp preserved them. And now they are being dug up.

Go watch the VOD. See the bones being excavated out of my farm for yourself.

That is what I grew up with.

Daily being raped from the time I was 4 years old

When any of children got pregnant, our bellies were crushed.

And when we reached the age of 14, we were cut up into steaks and sold as fucking deer meat.

Have you noticed that in 2016, the door-to-door deer steak trucks all but vanished in Maine? Yeah. Now you know why. A lot of them are in prison now for selling human not deer steaks.

#If you have any information regarding this case, FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the investigation. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322

I'm one of the few who survived, because I had papers. When I was 12, a millionaire high priest from Austria, bought exclusive rights to me, and he also got me legal paperwork: American citizenship, a social security number, a birth certificate - things females in this clan were not allowed to have. Ben is the only reason I went on to become one of the few girls still alive today, and not sold as deer steaks when I turned 14.

A lot of people don't know WHY I got so damned mad at ThingyChan, when she took events from my childhood and made BDSM sex fetish memes about it... because unlike ThingyChan, a lot of people don't know the full details of what happened to me, what I saw happen to my cousins.

Half the time they weren't killed humanely... Anastasia... was only 4 years old, when on August 21, 1991, she had her leg pulled off her body.... the intestines came out with the bone .... her breakfast half digested spewed out all over the floor mingled with the blood... it took her 5 damned days to finally bleed to death. And they left her laying their, while the older male cousins, Shem leading them, kicked her, punched her, and rapeded her, over and over again.

#THEY FUCKING TORTURED HER TO DEATH!

Do you know what it feels like to have your head held down on a cement cinder block while a more traditional red brick is slammed into your face?

I do!

It was a common punishment.

I can even begin to count how many times my jaw was broken that way.

#Do you see now how incredibly VILE the sex joke memes ThingChan made about the torture I went through, is?

#HOW DISGUSTING THINGYCHAN IS FOR CALLING A 4 YEAR OLD BEING TIED DOWN, RAPED, AND JAW BROKEN WITH A BRICK, A BDSM SEX FETISH!!!!!

ThingyChan is a bad as the fucking men who did that to us!

How dare she call the torture we went through BDSM sex fetishes!

Over 300 little girls between the ages of 4 and 14 were MURDERED!

What kind of a sick bastard makes sex jokes about THAT?

#WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!!!!!

There has never been a time in my life, when I wasn't suffering in pain from broken bones that never got set, ruptured organs that left me bleeding for weeks on end. Not once being allowed to go to the hospital.

My hip dysplasia was caused by having a 2 foot long foundation nail driven through my hip when I was 4 years old.  

I've heard people say sex was good, fun, happy... I've never had sex that wasn't forced, wasn't rape, wasn't brutal, and didn't leave me without broken bones or torn muscles. Sex is the worse, most evil, most horrible, vile, pain riddin form of torture there is. I can't even image how anyone could enjoy being beaten, having their bones broken, strangled, stabbed with knives, forks, and broken glass plates... sex the most awful thing there is, I can not understand how anyone would want it.

The only good thing about sex is the babies that come from it, but all of mine were murdered before they could be born. I was never allowed to raise any of my babies, and I nearly died after every beaten that killed my babies. 

The most recent one, they beat me with metal baseball bats and golf clubs, left me not only without my baby, but with my spine, hips, and knees broken, I'm crippled for the rest of my left and have spent the last 6 years relearning to walk.

No one has ever been kind to me.

No one has ever hugged me.

No one has ever kissed me.

No one has ever loved me.

There are only 2 things I've ever wanted: a baby and a friend.

America has laws, a woman my age can't adopt, you have to be under 45 in order to qualify for consideration to adopt a child in America; and the last beaten, left me unable to have children.

That leaves me with only one thing left to hope for in life: a friend, someone to talk to. I've never had that. Not once. More than half my life was spent locked in a cage, with no lights, no heat, total darkness, in a room with no windows, no nothing, just mold and fungus several inches thick on rotten walls, and a dirt ledge floor, bare ground, no floor boards. Alone for weeks on end, not knowing if or when I would ever see a person, if or when I would be given another burned saucepan to claw scrapings off of.

#When the FBI raid happened, I was

* 31 years old, 5'6" and weighed 87lbs. 

* my bones and muscles were (and still are) brittle and falling apart from 2 decades of extreme malnutrition. 

* I was nearly starved to death and the rescuers estimated I would have died with in the next few months had the raid not happened

* the room was filled with the bones of others who had died, been tossed in the room, their flesh eaten by the same rats that chewed on my arms and legs each night... they had all been beheaded, so no heads or skulls were ever found and the FBI continues to excavate the area and dredge local waters in search of the skulls, to this day

* It had been decades since I'd last eaten a meal, with as many as 2 weeks passing between being tossed a burned pan to scrap out. 

* I couldn't see in daylight because I'd spent so many years in total darkness. 

* And I didn't know how to speak human languages, was only able to speak cat and chicken, due to the only ones I had, had to talk to in that time, was the feral cats that snuck in through the cracks in the walls at night, and the chickens who were put in the room in the winter to protect them from the cold.

* I had no social skills, did not know how to communicate with others; was only able to communicate via writing; 

* because the only physical touch I had ever had from anyone was being raped or being beaten... I had (and still have) a massive phobia of humans getting near me and am prone to massive meltdowns of total hysteria if someone gets within 5 feet of me

* I had (and still have) a massive phobia of forks, seeing them as weapons, not food utensils, due to have been stabbed, scarred, and tortured with sharped forks by my uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater, so many dozens of times

* I was 37 years old before I found out I was a human, and not a demon, like I had been raised to believe

* I got my driving permit at age 34 and gt my driver's license at age 35

* I started school at age 35 and got my GED at age 37

* many of the children who did not reach adulthood and died in those horrendous conditions, killed themselves before reaching the age of 16... I was the only one rescued who not only reached adulthood, but was in my 30s at the time of the raid

* when the team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers assigned to me asked what kept me from killing myself like the bulk of the others had done... in those 27 years of hell, I held on to 2 memories: when I was 6 years old Grammy Eva had taken me to the Ice Capades, and when I was 7, in the weeks before Grammy Helen's death I had watched The Liberace Show with her every week.

* my 2 grammys - one who lived in Hawaii and wore Muumuu & kimono - the other who in her 80s drove a orange metal flake 3-wheel motorcycle and wore neon purple pantsuits; The Ice Capades, and The Liberace Show were my only memories of the outside world... bright, colourful, and happy... and are why I wear the bright coloured clothes I wear today

* I held onto the memories of my good, kind, loving, compassionate grammys, and that's the only thing that kept me alive, I thought that if I ever escaped, the outside world would be like them... but now that I've met the outside world, I know that my 2 grammys were flukes, and that I was locked up because I was a fluke like them, and humanity hates kindness, compassion, and goodness because the entirety of Humanity is EXACTLY like my uncles - cruel, evil, hateful, abusive, mean, incapable of love, compassionless, and not deserving of the life God gave them - In my years since the FBI, I've yet to met a single, solitary person, who was kind, good, compassionate, or loving

* the team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers assigned to me, all agreed that they did not believe I would ever be able to assimilate into HUMAN society, due to my extreme hatred for and fear of HUMANS, and my total 100% belief that I was not a HUMAN, caused by my mother's extreme paranoid schizophrenia, and her having locked me in a cage in that isolation room on my 8th birthday because she believed faeries had stolen her real daughter and replaced her with me, a demon changeling

* the team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers assigned to me, all agreed that I likely will never be able to feel any empathy for or towards HUMANS, due to 3 decades of being raised by violent mentally unstable humans who had severe untreated schizophrenia that they bounced off each other... with them glorifying the glories of them being HUMAN and us children being DEMONS unworthy of living in HUMAN presence

* the thing this group of 24 psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers found to be the single most disturbing fact of all, was that ...

#my 3 decades of neglect, abuse, and isolation was so extreme that I possess no sympathy, empathy, compassion, pity, or ability to identify with Humans - the only emotion I feel towards humans is loathsome hatred and the unnerving desire to kill them all

* they said my total lack of any good feelings towards humans, combined with my extreme desire to kill all humans, alongside my having been raised to believe I was not human, marked me as an anomaly that they didn't know how to properly diagnosed because nothing like my case had ever been encountered before and there was no diagnosis for it

* among things included in my diagnosis, was the phrase: 

>>>"is a UFO suicide cult survivor"

and

>>>"was raised by radical fundamentalist extremists"

and

>>>"was raised to believe she was not human"

and

>>>"was raised to believe she was a demon"

and

>>>"in interviewing the adults who raised her, 52 of then maintain the belief that she is a demon channeling that they refer to as 'Her Grandmother's Evil Spirit'", "they claimed the real child ceased to exist after her grandmother's funeral", "they claimed that upon returning from the funeral, the real child was gone and this demon changeling was left in her place"

and

>>>"evidence suggests that her grandmother was murdered and she witnessed this event, resulting in the adults who murdered her grandmother creating the delusion that she was a demon, removing her from public school, and locking her in a cage in order to prevent her from telling anyone about the grandmother's murder"

and

>>>"they said they could not let her out of the cage because she refused to reveal where the faeries had taken the real child to"

and

>>>"they said they had no choice but to beat her daily because of her refusal to reveal the location of the real child she had replaced"

and

>>>"they likewise believe that both grandmothers were not human, cutting they too were demons"

and

>>>"they cited that the girl inherited 'Helen's evil spirit' upon Helen's death and 'Eva's evil spirit' upon Eva's death"

and

>>>"alarmingly every adult involved in her rearing displays severe schizophrenia, total belief in demons, and is fully convinced that this girl is a demon changeling; scarily their delusions fed on each other, giving rise to even more delusions" 

and

>>>"was removed from public school at the age of 8 years old a few hours following her grandmother's funeral; an investigation was made by the superintendent of schools, but social workers never followed up on the girl's sudden disappearance from public eye. These horrific events may never have happened had The Maine State Department of Human Services taken those initial reports from the her teacher, principal, superintendent, school nurse, and the child's pediatrician, all of whom files individual reports regarding concerns for the girl's safety after witnessing several signs of abuse during the weeks prior to her disappearance"

and

>>>"reports were made to the Old Orchard Beach Police Department regarding the girl's disappearance from school. No follow up was done. It has been discovered that members of the family worked in the police department and destroyed the department's record of these reports made by concerned school officials" 

and 

>>>"has never experienced kind, good, or loving relationships"

 and

 >>>"since infancy has never been hugged, held, cuddled, or touched in a good way by other humans" 

and

>>>"displays post traumatic stress disorder symptoms similar to WW2 concentration camp victims"

and

>>>"can not remember her name, answers to the names 'four eyed retard' and 'competition bitch' which appear to be the only names her mother called her since the age of 8 years old"

and 

>>>"has never been taught to view humans as equals" 

* in the weeks following the FBI raid, my mother and her 3 sisters and 8 brothers, were all diagnosed with schizophrenia... 

* the 12 siblings, their 50+ spouses, and 400+ adult children who ran the child prostitution ring, were all diagnosed with sociopathy, 5 were diagnosed with megalomania, more the 3 dozen (including my mother) were diagnosed with Munchausen syndrome by proxy

* the group was classified as the most radical of the compounds that called themselves members of Heaven's Gate - 4 of it's leaders killed themselves in the infamous HaleBop murder/suicide that killed 39 people in California and was what led to the FBI raid a few weeks later

* the FBI raid would result in dozens of Catholic, Mormon, Pentecostal, Baptist, Born Again Holy Roller, New Life, and non-Denominational churches throughout southern Maine and the Greater Boston tri-state area being closed in the weeks/months that followed, in the mid-late 1990s, as hundreds of pedophile priests were arrested for having paid money (often $millions in church funds) to rape the young girls

* wild rumors began to surface, as horrified Americans dubbed the clan leaders involved in the Scottish Gypsy child prostitution ring as "The Scottish Mafia"

* while American movie producers had a field day stereotyping "Scottish Mafia" to mean anything and everything, we 140 survivors, had to fight claw and fang against paparazzi, alongside trying to even learn what the hell an American even was

* the worst of them, Stephen King arrived at the compound, with a huge movie crew and set out to filming a movie "The Thinner" based off what he referred to as "the Gypsies of Saco, Maine, the most REAL Gypsy style Gypsies I have ever encountered"... he and his crew were trespassers, had no permits or permissions, and today are in a legal battle against our clan trying to get the rights to release Thinner on DVD, something we absolutely refuse to sign off on - we are abhorred that he tried to capitalize on our decades of torture, pain, and suffering

* and all of the 140 others like myself, were also raised to believe they were locked in cages because they were demons

* as of 2020, more than half of the 140 survivors rescued from that FBI raid have commit suicide, due to the pressures of trying to BECOME A HUMAN and to date none have been able to see themselves as HUMANS or successfully assimilate in HUMAN society and most are still 100% convinced they are DEMONS and are unable to identify as HUMAN or live among HUMANS

* while I was 31 at the time of the FBI raid; the eldest of my brothers was only 7 years old - yes, I am old enough to be the grandmother of every one of my brothers; one of them, was so badly traumatised by the abuse he received, he does not talk still to this day

* given the fact that my mother has multi-hundreds of medical records that all list her as infertile and unable to have children, after MY 16 YEAR OLD MOTHER - a brutal "miscarriage" (caused by an overdose of sleeping pills, then having her head cracked open with a brick b an unknown attacker while she was unconscious) she had 4 years after I was born, combined with the dates of the births of my brothers vs the dates of the so-called "miscarriage" beatens, some of the psychiatrists, psychologists, and social workers involved in the case, believe that chances are high that my brothers, may actually be my sons, stolen from me by my own mother, after being beaten unconscious by her brother Mervin Bruce.... this theory was further emphasized by the fact that one of my brothers is a blue eyed blond (everyone in the Atwater family has dark skin, black eyes, and black hair, due to being 3/4 Native American and 1/4 black African) and looks exactly like Ben (a blue eyed blond Austrian), the father of my babies

#and yes, my mother was a VERY SMALL CHILD when I was born - she and I are closer in age to each other then most sisters are, which is also why people often mistake us for twin sisters and have difficulty telling us apart

* my father was 39 when I was born, making the age difference between my parents one of the youngest in the clan and one of the few where the father was less than 30 years older then the mother... the biggest age difference between mother and father is 57 years

* at age 14 I hold the record of being the OLDEST female to get pregnant, and was nicknamed by the uncles "the old maid" due to my being "so very old" the first time getting pregnant

* I was 1 of only 2 females to reach the age of 14 with fewer than 4 pregnancies under my belt

* because only 4% of all babies reach the 3 years old, babies are not named until after their 3rd birthday and are given only bare necessity minimum contact (feeding time once every 4 hours and diaper changes twice a day), to avoid emotional attachments to them; this results in most of the parents and adults feeling no emotions at all then the 97% of babies born to the clan die - a rate of about 3 baby deaths per week

* feeding babies and diaper changes are the responsibility of the "non-Human, Demon slaves", some of whom are let out of their cages for the hour long baby feeding and diaper changing sessions

* mothers rarely, if ever, saw their babies - this made it easy to sell excess (male) babies for $20,000 each to infertial American couples through fly-by-night (not legal) "adoption clinics"

* male blue eyed blond newborn babies are highly sought after by infertial American couples and can sell for as high as $200,000; thus wealthy blue-eyed blond priests from Catholic, Mormon, Pentecostal, New Life, and Baptist churches were sought out with offers to pay money to rape little girls

* the child prostitution ring was in operation for 57 years, bringing in multiple millions of dollars per year to the so-called "motel owners of Old Orchard Beach" aka The Cyr Clan, who owned it, before the FBI raid shut most of it down in 1997

* while as of 2020 most of the Atwater Clan men involved with running & managing the child prostitution ring have been arrested, the actual owners of the child prostitution ring (The Cyr Clan) whom the Atwater Clan worked for, have yet to be arrested and are still at large

* I do not know the name of the man who owned it, he rarely showed up on the farm, but when he did show up, he ALWAYS drove a giant backhoe, with a German Shepherd Dog riding in the bucket/scoop; the man looked exactly like Bo Duke from the Dukes of Hazzard, appeared to be TRYING to look like Bo Duke; he wasn't very big; most of the Atwater uncles who ran the clan were over 6'2" the tallest being 6'7" and the man from the Cyr clan barely reached to their shoulders, so he was around 5'7" tall; he was also very skinny and was flighty and nervous acting and seemed to very paranoid, he was loud and demanding and yelled a lot; in spite of his tiny size, my giant brutal, spouse abusing, child torturing uncles were terrified of him, but I never knew why; he reminded me of a chihuahua - small, loud, barking constantly, but scared of his own shadow; he was in his 30s at the time and had taken over "the business" from his father; he'd be around 65 or 70 years old today in 2020; he always spoke of owning a hotel, and every autumn arrived at the farm to hire my uncles to saw the copper pipes off of "competitors' hotels" and to burn down other hotels; throughout the 1980s and into the 2000s, every single year, no fewer than 4 and as many as 20 hotels were stripped of copper pipes and/or burned to the ground by my uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater for the Cyr Clan man, between October and December, in Old Orchard Beach, Maine - Mervin Bruce Atwater was arrested  2016 and Old Orchard Beach has not had a motel stipped of pipes or burned to the ground since; 

* the child prostitution ring was able to operate for such a very long time for 2 reasons: ... 1: there is no limit to the extremes a wealthy infertial American couple will go through to get their hands on a blue-eyed blond male newborn baby.... 2: there is no shortage of wealthy blue-eyed blond American men willing to jump on the opportunity to rape a 10 year old girl and willing to pay tens of thousands to do so

* mothers who protested this, were declared "Demons" and put in cages with the rest of the "Demons"

* the "non-Human, Demon slaves" were let out of their cages once a week for 3 hours; every Sunday to go to church, where they received weekly exorcisms to try to cast out their "Demons" and turn them "back into Humans again"

* the girl with the most babies the youngest, had had 7 pregnancies, including 2 sets of twins, by the time she was 14, making her the mother of 9 by the time she reached her 14th birthday - today she holds the clan record of the mother with the most pregnancies to live, the most babies to reach the age of 3, and the most children to reach the age of 18... with a whopping 37 of her pregnancies not only being born alive, but reaching the age of 3, and then surviving to reach the age of 18; at the age of 40, she had 200 grandchildren and 37 great-grandchildren 

* my mother suddenly and mysteriously "became infertile again" after the FBI raid and her freak unexplained popping out new babies days after each of my so-called "miscarriages"  (each one caused by being beaten unconscious at around 8 months pregnant, and waking up with the baby gone, followed by my mother's miraculous "giving birth" to a slightly premature baby a few weeks later) suddenly ceased to happen

* I was 37 years old when a team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers set out to training me how to do things like walk on my feet instead of crawl on all 4s like a cat

* while today in 2020, I've trained my mind to accept the fact that Humans eat daily, and not once a week, the 27 years of eating what most would consider less than a snack, one day every week or 2, I am today not physically able to eat a daily meal because my digestive track is not big enough or strong enough to hold what ... a side effect of 27 years of extreme malnutrition and starvation

* the extreme starvation went on for so long, that even today 20 years after the FBI raid, I look like I am 9 months pregnant, because of my permanently distended "starvation" abdomen, a side effect of 27 years of scraping burnings off of sauce pans once every 12 days, and never once having a full meal in that 27 year period... I was still only 8 years old when the bloated starvation belly formed...  because it is caused by extreme levels of starvation, no amount of dieting while remove the distended starvation belly, which can only be removed by reconstructive surgery of my entire digestive tract

* the distended starvation belly is the reason I never wear tight fitted clothes, can not wear pants or skirts, and can only wear big loose fitting caftans, muumuu, and kimono as "normal" clothes do not fit over my distended starvation belly, which is so big that even maternity pants don't stretch enough to fit

* I was also 37 years old when a team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers set out to teaching me how to speak in human languages instead of in chicken clucks and cat growls and hisses

* during attempting to teach me to speak, they made an alarming discovery: I spoke via chicken clucks and cat growls and hisses, not because I didn't know human languages or lacked understanding as they originally thought, but rather, because I'd been hit in the face with a brick so many times in my lifetime, that I couldn't open my jaw wide enough to form words

* x-rays and trips to a dentist, revealed massive damage to my jaw bones, cheek bones, sinus region bones, and teeth, from years of being baten in the face with a brick

* at 41 years of age I had reconstructive surgery of my jaw, including 7 root canals... meaning my jawbone and 21 of my teeth are porcelain - not real bone or teeth, resulting in I am now able to eat solid foods for the first time in my life and also am now able to talk normally (before the surgery, the damage to my jawbone was so bad that I was classified as "near-mute" due to an extreme inability to open my jaw enough to be able to form words.

* all of my molars (back teeth) were crumbled shards, with raw pulp exposed

* my jaw was broken and healed improperly, in so many places that doctors could not determine how many times I had suffered a broken jaw in my lifetime

* the broken teeth and jaw bones were a result of having my head held down on a cement cinder block, while a regular red brick was used to smash my jaw - this was a recurring punishment I received a few times a month, from the time I was 8 years old until I was 31 years old

* I stopped talking when I was 14 years old and was classified as mute for the next 16 years - I "refused" to talk, because the searing pain in my jaw was so bad that I could not open my mouth far enough to form words

* the reconstructive surgery at age 41, resulted in my being able to speak normally, for the first time in my life

* I was 42 years old when I found out the concept of things like friends and people talking to other people existed; and my desire to have a friend, someone I could talk to set in

* July 1, 2001 a backhoe with the mural of a big red apple painted on it's side, drove over my house, while me and my brothers were gone to the movie theater... my mom's brother Joey bragged on Facebook that he had hired the man to do it

* February 14, 2003 - I was stuck in traffic and arrived to my doctor's appointment 10 minutes late.... lucky for me, as I arrived in time to see the mushroom cloud as a bomb in my doctor's office blew up First Care Health Clinic on Saco Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, killing my doctor and 3 nurses, and leaving 21 patients in critical condition

* October 16, 2006 a bomb blew up my house and an 8 foot tall Ku Klux Klan cross was left behind in the rubal (keeping in mind, several members of the Atwarer family are members of the KKK)

* April 2007, the same backhoe returned to drive over my house yet again

* May 15, 2010, my car, the 1964 Dodge 330, was cut in half by a group of radical members of a local church known as The Saco Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints; my mother's church; her friend Joel Bailey went to prison 7 months later

* May 2013 Southern Maine Community College was evacuated when a bomb was found in the back corner of the classroom I was in

* July 2013, while driving home from my job at the Maine Mall, I was pulled off the road to wait, while police closed off the crossroad at my street.... the body of my cousin Murphy was laid out in the middle of the road, minus his head... the police found his head a few miles away at a different crossroad... he was one of the children abused and survivors rescued

* August 8, 2013 the infamous backhoe returned to drive over my house yet again and this now being the 5th house this backhoe had driven over shortly after rebuilding from the previous attack, I gave up rebuilding houses to live under a tent instead

* August 13, 2013, on my birthday, my mom's brother Joey posted on my FaceBook wall "paying that construction worker to demolish your house for your birthday was the best $600 I ever spent, Americans are such boobs, they'll do anything for money"

* November 14, 2013, while in a parking lot putting bags of art supplies in the back of my car 3 unknown people attacked me from behind with 2 metal baseball bats and a metal golf club. This was the first time since the FBI raid of 1997, that I had been pregnant again, and for nw the 7th time, had a "miscarriage" caused by a brutal beaten; but for the first time a beaten by stranger, not one of my uncles or my mother

* 2 of them were women who looked to be about 65 and acted like sisters or best friends, one with long curly orange red hair and cyberpunk looking neon lime green cyclops-style glasses and a off the shoulder sweater of large black and white stripes and screaming "I'm Kendra Silvermander, it's my turn to shine"; the other a blond wearing a denim button front work-shirt; the 3rd a bald man who acted like either the blond woman's son or lover, and had a football player muscle build

* the FBI is still trying to identify these 3 attackers; alarmingly they discovered that the username "Kendra Silvermander" appears on the friend lists of 7 of my mother's social network accounts, including Twitter, FaceBook, and Pinterest, and they now suspect that this mysterious Kendra Silvermander, the blond woman, and the bald man, are relatives of my mother's, most likely connected to her brother David

* the November 14, 2013 attack broke my spine, hips, and knees leaving me paralyzed for 5 months and 18 months to relearn to walk 

* I returned to work in 2015, but now with limited movement and requiring a cane

* November 2015 Scarborough WalMart evacuated when a bomb was found in the department I was stationed to work in

* March 2015 Barbie Jean's husband Paul Martel was arrested  by the FBI on a Boston Mass beach for selling bombs, bomb marking parts, automatic rifles, and machine guns to members of Isis; his bombs were identified both as the bombs that were used in the Boston Marathon attacks AND the bombs in my house, doctors' office, college, and work places; branding my mom's sister Barbie Jean as the FBi's number 1 suspect in ALL of the attacks prior

* March 2015 Barbie Jean's son Scott was arrested at Scarborough Downs Race Track for selling prescription bottles stolen from the Southern Maine Medical Center (aka The Barbara Bush Foundation Children's Hospital aka the Biddeford Hospital)

* April 10, 2015 - 12 members of my family were kidnapped

* April 12, 2015 - 2 escaped and returned home, both with their jaws broken and nearly all of their teeth knocked out

* May 15, 2015, the heads of 2 of them were returned (8 more heads would be returned in the weeks following)

* May 15, 2015 Barbie Jean posted a message on my FaceBook wall which read: "the next head nailed to a dor will be yours"... she posted it 5 hours before I discovered the heads nailed to my door

* June 2016  Scarborough WalMart evacuated a second time when a bomb was found yet again in the department I was stationed to work in

* July 2016 - Kendra Silvermander, the blond woman, and the bald man, this time in a gold Volvo suv, once again attacked me in a parking lot - this time at WalMart while I was putting groceries in my car... they attacked me from behind yet again, this tie with a shopping cart, while the redhead woman screamed yet again "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my time to shine", while the blond woman screamed "that's EelKat she tried to kill my husband"

* since the July 2016 attack I have been bedridden with inoperable damage to my spinal column and unable walk unaided with the help of others

* though I have let's played games online since 2004 (on Myspace until moving to YouTube in 2008) it was a hobby I did only an hour or 2 a week. 

* because of my permanently crippled state for the rest of my life with no hope of ever walking normally again, I joined Twitch and set out to streaming 12 hours a day

... and then I met ThingyChan...

ThingyChan was the first time someone made an effort to be my friend, no strings attached, without some altaria selfish motive... or so I thought.

I didn't know until October 21, 2019, that she had spent 2 years pretending to be my friend, while behind my back spreading horrendous, sexually devatate, slanderous lies about me, claiming that my physical therapy to relearn to walk was what she termed "BDSM bondange fetish", in more than 200 multi-streams with someone named "Outsidelane" she made wild, lewd jokes referring to me as a "dominatrix", "bondage freak", and claiming I was into "foot fetishes".

On top of that, she took EVERYTHING that my vile, evil uncles did to me in my childhood, and started wild rumors that Avallac'h had done those things to Ciri AND said that I only liked him because he was what she called "a BDSM fetish freak dungeon master with torture devices and kept Ciri in cages while sexually abusing her".... something ANYONE WHO EVER READ THE NOVELS OR PLAYED THE GAMES KNOWS IS NOT TRUE!!!

But worst of all.... do you remember the "Deserve to be Raped" raids that happened in my Twitch Chat August 2018 and I had no clue who was sending these people to my channel - I only knew that they were coming from Discord and Reddit (or so Twitch Analytics said - but it didn't say WHICH Discord or WHICH subreddit)?

It turns out, that it was ThingyChan's Discord, where she built a massive fanfiction fantasy about me, spread across an astounding 2,000+ posts over a period of 2 years, telling people I was a "dominatrix" and spreading wild lies about what she termed my so-called "bondage freak fetishes".

:(

What Claudia did, HURT, a lot.

She pretended to be not only my best friend, but also my only friend, and the first friend, I've ever had in my entire life.... she pretended to be my friend the whole time she was doing that behind my back.

Her wild slanderous lies about me on he multi-streams, JackBox streams, and Discord posts, resulted in working 712 of her viewers into wild anti-erotica, anti-bdsm, anti-bondange, anti-Avallac'h, anti-EelKat frenzies, as their fundamentalist anti-sex Christian minds, believed every word of her lewd, perverted lies about me!

Me! Someone who is even more fundamentalist Christian, more anti-sex, then even they were!

But because they only knew me from Claudia's sex filled lies about me, they fully believed that I was the evil, sex crazed, devant that ThingChan had told them I was!!!!

They likewise knew nothing about Avallac'h, having not read the novels or played the games, but fully believed him to be the "dungeon master with torture devices who ket Ciri locked in cages and sexually abused her" simply because Claudia told them that's what he was, while falsely claiming she had read the novels, when clearly the only thing she had read was the news reports about the abuse my uncles had done to me.

I am shocked and flabbergasted.

I can't understand why she did it.

She worked so many people into hate filled, rage fueled frenzies, that I had to turn my chat off.... 

.... and Claudia did that KNOWING that Twitch chat was my ONE AND ONLY connection to ANY ONE AT ALL now that I'm bedridden.

Claudia made a deliberate, malicious attack on my Twitch channel, clearly hoping I would leave Twitch. But I don't know why.

What Claudia did, HURT, a lot.

Especially considering SHE KNEW what had happened to me... she KNEW IN MORE DETAIL THAN ANYONE ELSE, because as soon as she found out about it, she questioned me up one side and down the other about every last detail, and I had no reason to not tell her, seeing I didn't know then that she was using it as research for the massive fanfiction BDSM fetish erotica mems she was creating about me behind my back.

I've never known a female who liked sex.

Men are obsessed with sex.

SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX...

Sex is the only thing men care about.

They stop thinking about sex only long enough to start thinking about money.

I'm stunned to find a female who has a sex crazed brain like a male. I seriously question if ThingyChan is ACTUALLY a female or is she one of those transgender people who just passes as a female?

I can't maging their is an actual female, born with a vagina, who's brain is none stop SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX, SEX... the way ThingyChan's deviate slanderous lies about me on her Twitch streams and Discord were. There has to be a penis under her skirts for her to be that vile of an ingrate.

I thought I'd finally found a human being who wasn't a piece of shit.

I was wrong.

I'm tired of not one damned person ever wanting to ACTUALLY talk to me or ACTUALLY be my friend. 

I'm sick of people who are looking for handouts.

I'm fed up with people looking to get their 15 minutes of fame.

I've had it.

I've survived hell that most people can't even stomach hearing about.

I REFUSE to be treated like shit, by a vile piece of trash like ThingyChan who thinks taking the pain and suffering of others is good thing to make fucking BDSM fetish memes about.

Clearly being on social media, hiding behind a keyboard, makes ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, Niv and the 712 bastards they sent to my channel think they can say and do anything they want.

Do you REALLY think you are anonymous?

Or was this all just ThingyChan trying to cause drama just to get views?

Is getting attention really that important to you?

Two biggest things that sell something are sex and drama... boy does the media know how to do that!

You do know you don't have to be promiscuous or cause drama or be toxic to gain followers and views right?

What the hell happened to you?

April 2018 when I first started hosting ThingyChan and telling everyone on my Twitter and FaceBook to follow her, it was BECAUSE she classified her channel as FAMILY FRIENDLY and SEX FREE!

I meet ThingyChan a month before she started playing Witcher 3. At the time she was a 3D artists streamer, not a gamer.

I was hosting her channel before she started Witcher 3, but on her first day setting up playing Witcher 3, she announced that because her channel was FAMILY FRIENDLY and SEX FREE, that she would play Witcher 3 and avoid the sex quests.

^^^THAT^^^ is why I put so much work into promoting her channel.

^^^THAT^^^ is why she went on to be one of ONLY THREE Twitch channels I have ever subscribed to.

#BECAUSE SHE DEVOTED HER CHANNEL TO BEING TOTALLY 100% SEX-FREE!!!

Do you have any idea how hard it is to find a Twitch channel that is NOT splattered with perversion, promiscuity, immorality, and sex, sex, sex, sex, sex, sex, SEX!!!!

It's not easy.

Claudia promoted her channel as family friendly and sex-free, and THAT is why I devoted so many hours in marketing her channel on Twitter, FaceBook, Tumblr, Reddit, LinkedIn, LiveJournal, Blogger, even MySpace!

I even embedded her streams on my websites, so that my fans could remote view her channel without even being on Twitch at all!

For 2 years you saw me shut down my own streams, to host her streams... EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM, EVERY SINGLE DAY! I never missed hosting her channel, not once in 2 years.

Every time her chat went into typical sex-crazy Twitch chat frenzies, I always unhosted her, because she was reading the vile, shitty assed, sex posts on stream, and the last thing I want is that kind of filth being played on my channel.

I asked her why she started allowing sex talk in her chat and she said: "Well you know, it's harmless."

Harmless? Sex? Really? What happened to being family friendly and sex free?

As her channel became more and more lewd and sexialized, you saw me stop hosting her.... before she ended Witcher 3, which shocked most of my own viewers, who kept messaging me to say "She's streaming Witcher 3 again, you forgot to host her."... No, I didn't forget to host her. Her vile sex jokes about a butter churn in February 2019, was the last time I hosted her. I'm not going to host a channel with a streamer making sick jokes like that!

But then I was offline from the last week of February till the last week of May, because February 2019 it took Avallac'h hating Ciri fans under 20 minutes to scrape down the car removing not only all of it's beads and marbles, but also all of it's paint.

My car, The Dazzling Razzberry had 2.5 million beads and marbles glued to it.

It took 4 years to hand glue these on one bead, one marble at a time.

The glue to do this cost $3,000, while the beads and marbles cost $12,000

Additionally the tires were slashed, the bumpers ripped off, brake lines cut, power steering lined cut, and acid was poured over the windshield etching it to a white frost that can not be seen through.

It's been over a year since the last car vlog, due to the fact that my income is $4,000 a year, meaning it'll be another 10 years or more before I have enough money to get the $30,000 in repairs needed to get my car running again.

These same enraged Ciri fans also beat up my 82 year old retired fireman dad, rupturing his kidney and leaving in him the hospital.

One of then had a gun and shot bullet holes into our front door.

The people who did this, did it while chanting Zutrix's famous chant: "Kill EelKat" while the one with a gun was screaming that he had to kill me in order to stop the Avallac'h Playthrough because Ciri was his wife and he had to stop her from having sex with Avallac'h in my playthrough.

Twitch chat was turned off the following day.

My family moved the following week as a result of this event, which was why I was offline from February 2019 to May 2019.

^^^THAT^^^ is why I was offline from the last week of February till the last week of May... but it wouldn't be until October 21, 2019, that I would find out the bullshit ThingyChan was doing on her Discord that had caused Ciri fans to go into that frenzy.

Ask me again why I am mad at psychobitch ThingyChan for working these people into a frenzy and sending them not only to my Twitch chat chanting "deserve to be raped" but also sending them to my house.

Why did she do this?

I still don't know.

I looks like she thought she could get more views and followers if she caused drama about somebody very famous, and when she realized how huge of a celebrity I was, she thought she could take advantage of posting my name as much as possible would get her viewers who were looking for me. Thing is most people don't look for me as a streamer, my fans are not the type of people who even use the internet let alone watch streams. 

It appears that once she realized just basting my name all over the place wasn't working to gain her views and follows, she decided to follow the rule most streamers follow: post sex and cause drama to get views and followers.... so she decided to cause drama by posting sex lies about me.

You want to cause drama by posting sex lies about me? Well, SugarPlum.... you sure the hell did that, now didn't you?

Can't you focus on your own content? Your own streams?

You want to post sex on your streams and Discord... go fucking post sex about yourself.

Don't be a fucking jackass and make up sex lies about other people!

What the fuck is wrong with you?

What the hell?

Did getting views and followers really go to your head that bad? Toss aside your whole philosophy of being family friendly and sex free for the sake of views and follows?

Well aren't you a spineless worm!

Flap your mouth off proclaiming to be family friendly and running a sex free channel, then collapse to peer pressure of using sex to gain views?

Good god!

If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything and clearly you don't have enough spine to stand tall for morals in the face of the peer pressure to get more follows and views!

But if you were going to toss your morals out the window and turn into a vile, sex crazed, gutter scum piece of shit.... why do it by spreading sex lies about me?

Why did you decide you needed to focus on me? And then do so in such a vile, malicious way? You not only focused on me, you focused on slandering my name?

#WHAT THE FUCKING HELL?

Real life sucks bad enough, why do you have to go out of your way to try to make my life even worse than it already is?

Twitch should be a place where you can chill out and have a good time. Is being mean, hurting others, and slandering someone's reputation REALLY what you call having a good time?

You know what I call it? I call it you being low-life, scumbag, piece of shit.

Claudia is 24 years old, sitting behind her computer screen, laughing, joking, making sex memes about the suffering of others...

Do where I was when I was 24 years old?

Locked in a cage that a chihuahua wouldn't even fit in. Nearly starved to death.  Hips broken. Jaw broken. Pools of blood gushing from my rectum. The bloody, clotted remains of the six month old unborn baby that had just been beaten out of my belly covering the walls of the cage.

#HOW DARE YOU TRY TO TURN THAT INTO A BDSM SEX FETISH MEME, YOU VILE PERVERTED, FUCKED UP PIECE OF SHIT!

#ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, Niv and the 712 bastards they sent to my channel have taught me that there is not one single, solitary person on the planet, who was kind, good, compassionate, or loving, and that, my uncles were not the flukes I thought they were, but rather the norm.... Humanity is evil.

#ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, Niv and the 712 bastards they sent to my channel are just like my uncles... sadistic bastards who's only happiness in life is to hurt others and cause as much pain and suffering along the way, as they possibly can.

My whole life, after every blow, I've gotten back up and moved forward, fighting ever onward against all odds, because the hope for something better, the hope that somewhere out there, someone would love me, someone would want to spend time with me, someone would want to be my friend.

But it's been endless blow after blow for 60 straight years without a single break, not once, not even for a single week.

I'm too old, and my health is to poor, for me to keep getting back up and pushing forward any more.

I've nothing to look forward to in life, nothing left to hope for.

And I've no good or happy memories to look back on.

Not once.

Nothing.

Not one single day.

No one has ever loved me.

No has ever wanted me.

No one has ever been my friend.

There's no fight left in me.

I've no more will to even try.

I've reached a point, where I can no longer see a reason why I should even continue to live.

I don't have anything left to live for.

Right this game is the reason I have to live, and ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, Niv and their 712 friend, have made it so I barely want to do that anymore.

Playing this game, used to bring some level of joy, but now it's just constrant dread... 

Who's going to be pissed off today? 

How many death threats are going to be sent to me this stream?

You ave no idea how much it ment to me, that ThingyChan said she was my friend. Or how big of a blow her decieatful betrail was.

She was the first and only friend I've ever had.

I thought I had finally found someone who cared, and she turned out to be just as evil as my uncles.

I tried turning chat back on October 7, 2019... and within minutes Zutrix arrived with death threats, brings others with them and chanting "Kill EelKat".... They did that for 3 days, and I turned chat back off again Oct 10.

I can't take it any more.

It's bad enough there is not one single person on this planet who loves me or cares about me, but the endless hundreds of people daily chanting they wish I was dead is too much.

You want to talk to me? You want to be my friend? Then fucking PROVE IT! 

#STOP BEING A SELFISH FUCKING DICK!

ACTUALLY talk to me.

ACTUALLY be my friend.

Stop being a fucking jackass leech only hanging around because you want something from me.

#THAT IS WHY CHAT IS TURNED OFF.

...............................................

#UPDATED TO ANSWER VIEWER QUESTION: I just realized who you are. I remember the news reports. You're that poltergeist child aren't you? The one they called Etiole's Friend.

[Etiole](https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html)

Yes.

Etiole's friend.

Etiole.

The one thing that team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers could not explain, nor could agree on.

The thing that scares everyone.

My ability to call up a being made of blinding white light and send him anywhere, to find anyone, and kill them.

To date more 370 people have been killed by Etiole since the FBI raid in 1997... 

...40 have been killed since the kidnapping and murder of 10 members of my family on April 10, 2015.... including Dan Feeney's entire family.

Yep. EVERYONE in Dan Feeney's family is dead. All died the same day. Freak accident. House was hit by lightening. 9 times. Killed everyone inside. 

Who was it again, that kidnapped 12 members of my family and nailed the heads of 10 of them to my door?

...let me think... oh yeah... it was Dan Feeney.

Funny how the man who killed everyone in my family, saw his entire family die from a freak lightning strike.

What goes around comes around.

Do unto me as you want me to do until you.

Oh yeah... you remember that district attorney who got Dan Feeney off on a technicality? His heart exploded. He's dead too.

Karma's a bitch.

Especially when you are dealing with a Voodoo Priestess that happens to have a Grigori archangel as her pet familiar that she can just send out whenever, wherever, after whoever, and has no issues with casting death spells.

The others in that 40, ALL died from heart attacks, brain aneurysms, and being hit by lightning.

Including a certain backhoe driver, who had a massive heart attack, quintuple bypass surgery, now has a pacemaker, and is not expected to live another 2 years.... oh my... look at that... the 7 year anniversary of April 10, 2015, is just exactly 2 years away. Would've thunk?

Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.

Oh... me thinks, they maybe should have done their research a little bit better and Googled me before they attacked me or my family... or better yet, they should have Googled Etiole.

An Avenging Angel. They are the bloodiest, most brutal, and least forgiving of any type of angel out their.

The Grigori Angels.

Seraphime who lost their wings, were cast onto Earth, and are called Alfar by some, Daemons by others, Faeries elsewhere... the Bible calls them The watchers... creatures who branded themselves the protectors of women and children, and when called upon, enact vengeance for wrongdoing.

Etiole showed up in my life September 23, 1978, and he answers my call every time since. Killing everyone whom has ever hurt me.

And every one of them, dies on the 7th anniversary of the crime they commited.

No one mourns David Henry Atwater, Richard Merlin Atwater, Mervin Bruce Atwater, or no one especially mournes Dan Feeney

My grandmothers, both Voodoo Priestesses, taught me how to call up archangels when I was just 3 years old.

And the angel who answered my screams for help, was Etiole.

The psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers, found themselves alarmed by the consistency of one thing found in every interview with all of the uncles, cousins, and my mother... more than 400 adults all swore they had seen with their own 2 eyes - Etiole.

They also all claimed he lived in a car: a 1964 Dodge 330.

Since 2007, 30,000+ psychologists, psychiatrists, social workers, pseudo-scientists, MUFON members, conspiracy theorists, college students, and researchers have come to my farm, to see the car, study the swamp, and attempt to photograph Etiole.

No one has a definitive answer for what he is, though to date, more than 7,000 of them claim to have seen him.

Some call him an EBE.

Most call him an [Amphibious Alien](https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html)

Others call him a White Reptilian Draconian 

The Atwaters and Cyrs firmly believe he is a demon.

Most of the psychologists and psychologists call him a "true poltergeist: a physical manifestation of an abused child's psychokinetic energy that kills her abusers with a terrifying force"

Etiole is the Jewish Archangel otherwise known as The Archangel Etreal an Avenging Angel, Protector of the Innocent. He appears in the Christian Bible in the story of Lot and is the Angel of Justice and Retribution who rained brimstone and fire on the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah. He is one of The Grigori.

Known as The Grigori aka The Fallen Angels, The Alfar are the archangels who had their wings cut off and were cast out of heaven forced to live on earth with the humans.

To further punish The Alfar, Archangels Michael, Uriel, and Gabriel chained to the Alfar to millstones then forced them to watch while their human wives and Nephilim children were tortured to death.

The Alfar branded themselves the protectors of humans, especial pregnant women and children.

However, some Alfar fell astray even father, mutating themselves into Daemons, they became obsessed with resurrecting their dead wives and Nephilim children, and took to abducting pregnant women at night, using them in blood rituals under the command of their leader Beelzebub.

The Alfar divided into 2 factions:

* Dökkálfar aka The Dark Elves - black skinned Elves who rode on red dragons

* Ljósálfar aka The Light Elves - White skinned Elves who rode on white unicorns.

In Scandinavian folklore the Archangel Etreal is known also as The Fox aka Avallac'h.

Yeah, Etiole and Avallac'h are representations of the same person. Sheds some light on why I like Avallac'h so much, doesn't it?

I told you Avallac'h was a character from ancient folklore who was very important to me for more than 50 years.

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#UPDATED TO ANSWER VIEWER QUESTION: Wait. I'm looking at the dates here and the similarities of the events. Did Andrj Sapkowski base Ciri off of you and Avallac'h off of your uncles? Is that why you like avallac'h so much?

Yes.

He did.

I contacted him and asked him. He said he was inspired by the news reports of the Gypies' baby breeding program and child prostitution ring that was all over the new in the late 1980s and throughout the 1990s.

The FBI raids started in 1987. Many of the fake adoption clinics were shut down in those early raids. There were 3 dozen more FBI raids across the country in Maine, Arizona, Nevada, Illinois, Colorado, Florida, Connecticut, Utah, Oregon, Vermont, and Wyoming throughout the 1990s and into the 2000's. Most of the 1990s raids focused on rescuing child prostitutes who were between the ages of 4 and 12 years old. In the mid-1990s more then 100 churches in Maine & Massachusetts were shut down by the FBI for holding young girls in their basements and selling 15 minutes of sex-time to the men of the congregations; and 3 times as many priests, mostly Catholics & Mormons, were arrested for their involvement in the sexual abuse of the children.

In total, from the first FBI raid in 1987, to the current FBI raids that continue to go on in 2020, more than 400 girls were rescued, nearly as many boys were rescued, 300+ priests have gone to prison, 14 compounds (breeding farms) have been shut down across the country, 6 of the worst clan leaders are dead,  and a grand total of more then 4,000 wealthy pedophile American white men have been arrested for paying to rape and sexual abuse children.

Not all of the compounds have been shut down. There were more than 70 total run by the Atwater Clan and the Cyr Clan claimed to have double that, plus the operation is run by the Cyrs, not the Atwaters, and the Cyrs have other clans working for them besides the Atwaters. The Atwaters had at minimum 1 compound in each of all 50 states, as well as several more in Canada. In Utah they had one compound per country. In Maine there were 4 compounds at one point, all but 1 are not shut down. 

Each compound has at minimum a dozen girls, the largest compound had 120 girls. 

All the girls start being sold for sex at the age of 4 and most are outright sold into slavery before they reach the age of 14 (usually leaving the compound to live with their owner, but sometimes, like in my case, the man buys the girl and then pays a lease for her to continue to be housed on the compound - this is generally done by business men, priests, and married men who don't want their employees, church congregation, or families knowing they buy humans and keep them as slaves)

Girls are generally considered unsellable and past their prime once they reach the age of 16. If the girl turns 16 before a man buys her, chances are very high she will not live to see her 17th birthday.

Sadly, the slave trade industry (also called Human trafficking industry) in America is bigger today than it was during the Civil War error of the old South, with the FBI estimating that there are more than 40million slaves in the United States.... the Atwater clan's operation, being only one of the thousands of similar child sex slave businesses run in America.

And, the Atwater clan's child prostitution ring is considered to be one of the smallest of such businesses because they never had more than 500 girls in their care at any given time, total across the country in all compounds; whereas others are known to keep that many girls per compound.

Most of these child prostitution rings are owned, run, and operated by Americans, and because Americans like to pat themselves on the back while pushing their own shit under the rug, the child prostitution rings run by them, rarely make news headlines.

The only reason the one I grew up in made news headlines is because it was NOT run by Americans, but was rather run by Gypsies, and Americans had to plaster their hatred for all things not American on every TV screen and newspaper, to make sure you didn't see the shit they pulled as well....

,,,by that I mean, there were only 8 Gypsy men and 3 Gypsy women involved in running the child prostitution ring. Yep, just 11 people.

...and more then 4,000 American white men, mostly Catholic and Mormon priests, where arrested, while all 11 of the Gypsies running the operation WERE NOT ARRESTED.

Why?

Bureaucratic red tape vs rape kit DNA. It took so long to file the paperwork to press charges and get warrants, that the 11 Gypsies who ran the child prostitution ring, slipped through the cracks and fled the country to seek immunity in Australia. 

And while red tape and paperwork filing time allowed the 11 Gypsies running the compound to escape.... rape kits and DNA testing allowed 4,000+ white American priests to be arrested and put in prison almost all the day week.

The news reports focused on 3 things:  

* look, we told you all Gypsies are evil and 

* look, we told you all Catholics are evil, and 

* hey yay America aren't we the greatest for putting an end to this.

In spite of news reporters focusing on Catholic priests, only around 300 of the priests arrested were Catholic while over 3,000 of the priests arrested were Mormons.... the TV reporters decided it would be more sensational to just say all 4,000 of the priests were Catholic and completely ignore the fact that very few of the priests were Catholic.

Apparently there had already been something else in the news about the Catholic church around that same time, so the news media took the opportunity to grind their axe at the Catholic church, rather than focusing on what was important: helping the children and putting an end to these horrifying sex crimes.

Likewise, tv reporters branded ALL Gypsies as baby kidnappers... when in fact it was only one and only 11 Gypsies involved... and kidnapping was NOT even involved at all, as ALL of these children, were the children and grandchildren and great grandchildren of those 11 Gypsies.

The fact that more then 40million American children are still today in slavery situations in America, all of them in compounds owned by WHITE AMERICANS, and nearly twice as many American men are estimated to pay underground groups for sex with 5 year olds was completely ignored by the tv reporters and was never once mentioned by any of them at all.

The irony is that while it received way too much more media attention then it deserved

The tv reports blew the whole thing out of proportion, trying to lay all the blame on Gypsy cultures as a whole, when in fact, this one operation was very tiny, and the Gypsy men who started it, started it after taking a trip to Las Vegas and discovering that the largest industry in Las Vegas was not casinos, gamling, or strip clubs, but rather underground child prostitution rings.

The men who start the compounds did so on the logic of: "Well if Americans can make that much money selling their children for sex, we can do it too."

Child prostitution remains to this day the largest underground big business for white Americans... bringing in more money than drugs, guns, and more traditional adult prostitution combined.

Sadly, the news media narrow focused in on 11 Gypsies and blew the whole thing out of proportion, with very little accurate information being given to the general public.

I say sadly, because this has resulted in a huge boom in anti-Gypsy propaganda, when this sort of thing is not normally a part of Gypsy culture, and while the focus is fully on "look how bad Gypsies are", the tens of millions of children, still locked in cages owned by white Americans are being completely ignored because news media has to scream: 

#"Praise America, hey look, go attack the non-white guy that's doing a little crime, so you don't see the bigger shit we white Americans are shoving behind Oz's curtain"

While it's great that most of the Gypsy run child prostitution rings are now shut down, the way the media blew things out of proportion, has caused hundreds completely innocent Gypsy families across the ENTIRE PLANET NOT JUST IN AMERICA, to see their children confiscated by social services for no reason at all other then: "you are Gypsy, you have 12 children, therefore you must be selling them for sex"...

...while tens of millions of child sex slaves continue to go on being tortured by their American owners, who are getting away with it because they has white skin and they are American, so therefor they can do no evil.

And people like ThingyChan, who make vile memes and jokes about these child sex slaves, making them out to be willing participants of the hell they live in by calling them BDSM dominatrixes, are exactly why more people DON'T do anything to help rescue these children.

Vile women like her who can make sick sex jokes about that kind of shit are what's wrong with society today.

Someone with integrity would not make jokes about any kind of sexual abuse at all, let alone child rape and sexual torture.

Someone with respect for human life would not think 50 year old men raping 5 year old children was a good thing to make fun of.

Someone with compassion for their fellow mankind would not laugh at children starving to death in cages, never seeing sunlight, never knowing love, a life that was nothing but abuse and ended too early.

Claudia took horrible events of my childhood and turned it into a 2 year long running gag spread across 2,000+ posts on her Discord and 400+ multi-stream VODS with 5 other streamers here on Twitch, and together they spread it to the 712 viewers who arrived at my channel in vicious attacks, chanting "deserve to be raped" because ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv in their vilness thought it was funny to build a fanfiction fantasy sex world that branded me as a BDSM dominatrix. What she and her friends did is vile and despicable on levels of evil that I can't even begin to comprehend.

How vile does someone have to be to devote 2 years of their life to making thousands of sex jokes about someone who has Post Traumatic Stress Disorder as a result of having been raped more than 500 times before reaching the age of 8 years old?

ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv have ugly personalities, as does anyone else who makes jokes about child rape.

ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv are small, petty bullies who clearly have no self esteem, so tried to make themselves feel big by launching an unwarranted, uncalled for attack on someone they perceived to be too weak to fight back.... and that makes them just as vile as the bullying men who beat up on and rape children.

I didn't survive decades of sexual abuse and torture because I was too weak to fight back.... ask the men I've castrated how much lack of fight back they think I have... I was 8 years old when I learned the best way to avoid being raped was to grab a machete and slice your attacker's balls off... 

...and how many men do you think are going to admit to their hospital ER doctors that an 8 year old chopped off their balls while he was raping her?

The primary reason the uncles called me a demon, was because I had a reputation of castrating the customers.

Did you really think I took down the biggest leaders of the Scottish Mafia - the 3rd largest Mafia family in America, and took over as the new leader of the Family because I was too weak to fight back?

Do you even know who The Scottish Mafia is? Chicago's Italian Mafia is scared shitless of us.

#AND I FUCKING TOOK THEM DOWN!

And as long as I'm alive, I'm going to see to it that those fucking pedophile bastards never hurt a child ever again.

I've made sure to put every last sex offender, every last drug dealer, every last child abuser, every last spouse abuse among them in prison.

The Scottish Mafia used to be the fucking terror of the East Coast, and where are they now? In shambles. Scattered. In hiding. In prison. And on the run from the FBI.

There is no more damned Scottish Mafia. I obliterated them.

You REALLY have no clue who ACTUALLY I am, do you?

Did ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv really think I was gonna lay back and silently let them attack my reputation like this?

...you jakasses picked the wrong damned person to bully.

Until people STOP acting like ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv, and STOP making memes and jokes about this horrendous child porn industry, we are never going to see enough people rise up to stop child porn once and for all.

#I don't know who is more vile: 

* the men who sell the children,

*  the men who buy the children, 

* or jackasses like ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv who make fun of the children for the sake of getting views.

I am horrified that such vile people can exist, people who target victims to make fun them, pouring salt into the wound to try to make their suffering even worse.

Probably the most vile thing of all is Claudia was aware that I am on suicide watch, and have been since January 4, 2016... doctor's orders... a police officer is assigned to stop by and check in on me routinely, make sure I'm still alive, because I'm diagnosed as with Clinical Suicidal Depression.

Predators.

That's all people like that are.

Vultures circling the sky looking for weak to pick down.

I refused to be a victim to my uncles, I refuse to be a victim to ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv either.

I am tired of people like ThingyChan, Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv who are drawn to other people's misfortune and think getting a laugh out of the pain and suffering of others is good fun.

Claudia is not the first sick ass, cold, heartless bully to do this, she's just the first one who pretended to be my friend while they did it....for 2 fucking years... laughing and joking with her friends Outsidelane, Zutrix, and Niv, while lying about me and telling them I was a dominatrix BDSM fetish freak! She took horrific sexual torture from my childhood and made filthy slanderous lies about my current sex life... and she did it on a daily basis for 2 damned fucking years, while pretending to be my friend the whole time and continually asking for more info about my childhood, I thought because she cared, and now I find out she was just gleaning for information she could use to make sex jokes and memes about, the fucking backstabbing bitch!

Be sure your sin will find you out. How long did she think she could hide what she was dong from me? Vile, disgusting backstabbing bitch from hell.

What do you get out of it? 5 minutes of feeling better about yourself for stomping on someone you think is weaker than you?

Are the years of mental anguish, pain, and suffering you caused me really worth those 5 minutes of laugh time you had?

Could you really live with my suicide on your head, knowing you caused it?

Are your 5 minutes of laughter really worth a human life?

Do you have any idea how much it meant to me to finally have a friend for the first time in my life?

Can you even begin to imagine how much it hurt to find out what low down, piece of filth backstabbing scumbag she turned out to be?

Pretending to be my friend, only so she could make fun of me behind my back with her real friends?

That was bad enough... but then to used her Twitch streams and Discord community to spend 2 years spreading malicious sexually deviated lies about me to thousands of others resulting in 712 of her viewers launching a violent attack on my channel, because she had them 100% convinced that the deviated sex filled lies she had told them about me was true?

And she's so evil, she can't, won't, refuses, to even apologize. That's how evil a bitch she is.

Can't apologize... that makes her more vile, more evil, then a rapist and murderer combined.

Refuses to apologize. Well we all know what the Bible has to say about that. Her eternity in Hell will be greater then all the Hells of all the abusers, liars, rapists, and murders combined.

There is nothing Jesus hates more than someone who refuses to repeat of their sins and forgiveness.

Refusal to apologize. It's the worst sin of them all, according to Jesus.

Unapologetic. There is nothing more evil then that.

I am horrific that someone could be so cruel, so heartless, so cold, so unfeeling, so sadistic, that they would find the kind of hell I grew up with to be something they can make jokes about.

And then take that vile, evil, crue, cold hearted bastard and have them be so deviated, so twiisted, so sadistic, so mentally deranged, so sick in the head, that they seek out the person that was hurt, to pretend to befriend them, out of sick deviated pleasure to watch them be hurt even more by your own hands.

What kind of a psychopathic sociopath does something like that? Why would you do something like that? What the fuck is wrong with her?

I am so damned sick and tired of people taking vile, horrific events from my childhood and making fun of it like it was some fucking joke.

Tens of thousands of news reports about this supposedly "massive" Gypsy baby breeding/child prostitution (so called "Scottish Mafia Crime Family" as the media often call it) ring have been circulated around the world in the 3 decades since the FBI raids started, and Andrzej Sapkowski is not the first, nor will he be the last, person to take elements of my childhood and write a fictionalized version of it.

And while I'm known to be very vocal in my absolute total outrage against people capitalizing on the hellish abuse me and many other children lived through... Andrzej Sapkowski stands out as one of the rare few who I not only don't hate, but actually liked how he handled what he wrote.

Andrzej Sapkowski kept a lot of details of the real life events virtually unchanged. The bodies on the ravine for example. In real life there were 31 bodies The Goodfare Brooke Ravine, in The Reclaim Plains, in The Ross Forest, of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, and in the novel Lady of the Lake he changed it to tens of thousands of bodies in the ravine.

Ciri was 12 when Avallac'h took over her life and started breeding her to other men.

I was 12 when Ben took over my life and bought exclusive rights to be my only breeder, not allowing other men access to me after that.

And then of course there's me, Etiole's friend, the poltergeist telekinetic and psychokinetic abilities that result in everyone being scared shitless of me and wanting to study me.

Verses Ciri the girl with telekinetic and psychokinetic abilities that result in everyone being scared shitless of me and wanting to study me.

The big, notable differences are primarily in the living conditions.

Avallac'h kept Ciri and the other girls in his care in a palace, made her Queen of Avalon, practically worshiped her while treating her like royalty. Avallac'h never hurt the girls and he killed anyone who did. He was very protective of them and took very good care of them.

In real life we "breeders" were locked in cages, went weeks between meals, slept in our own feces, many starved to death before they were 10 years old, others were beaten to death. 

Avallac'h was fierce in his protection of babies. He was brutal with anyone who dared hurt a baby. Abhorred abortion.

In real life, the uncles who ran the clan, thought nothing of beating a pregnant child until her belly popped and the splattered remains of the baby burst out. They thought it was funny. They'd laugh and joke about it and call us "pinatas" and gamble money to see who would be the one to burst our pregnant bellies open first.

Avallac'h actually wanted a baby. His Lara Dorren wife died when she was 8 months pregnant with another man's baby and he promised to raise the child, but lost it. His mind fell apart and he became obsessed with babies. Ciri looked like Lara to the point that he refused to believe she was not Lara and demanded she get pregnant by another man, so he pick up where he left off, raising the family he had lost: Lara and her illegitimate baby. Avallac'h loved Lara and he loved the baby. He was devastated by their lost and was trying desperately to bring them back.

In real life, the uncles didn't give a shit about the children or rape babies of those children. We just dollar signs, easily expandable when we were no longer useful for bringing in more cash.

Avallac'h was every bit as kind and loving to the girls in his care as the uncles were brutal and cruel to the girls in their care. 

Avallac'h wanted a family. The uncles wanted money. 

Ciri and the other girls lived in the lap of luxury in Avallac'h's palace harem. We starved to death in cages and fought rats for scraps of rotted maggot filled food.

Avallac'h loved Ciri and the other girls in his care. He never hurt them and he fiercely protected them. The uncles justified the torture, abuse, and outright murder of the girls in their care by dehumanizing us, stripping us of dignity, and convincing themselves what they did was okay because we were "not human" but rather "just demons".

Yes, Avallac'h's being heavily influenced by the real world events from my childhood, is why I like him, because he's what the uncles SHOULD have been.

The thing I don't like is how Andre Sapkowski handled writing ciri, portraying her as a sex crazed trashy whore, constantly ripping off her panties, masterbating for the reader every 5 pages, and shoving her naked ass in the face of every man she meets.

He wrote 12 year old Ciri as a horndog, lustful, sex crazed slut who was ready to jump in bed with everyone because she just plain wanted sex every 5 minutes of the day.

In reality, we REAL 12 year old girls fought the men every step of the way, biting, kicking, clawing, and often castrating, the men ho were raping us. Not one of us 12 year old girls WANTED sex. Every chance we got we would grab hold of knives and hack and slash you way through the men, then run hoping to escape.

His writing Ciri as a sex crazed 12 year old loving every minute of being a child prostitute in Avallac'h's baby breeding program, was HUGELY inaccurate to how real world 12 year olds act in REAL world baby breeding programs.

We see 8 different scenes of 12 year old Ciri, angry and enraged because her breeder, King Auberon, refused to have sex with her and wanted to wait until she was older. In each scene we see 12 year old Ciri, smashing furniture, breaking mirrors, stomping her feet, throwing herself on the flooring holding her breath, and screaming at the top of her lungs "AUBERON WON'T GIVE ME AN ORGASM".

In the rape scene on page 179, we see 12 year old Ciri at her sex crazed worst, when she viciously attacks Avallac'h raping and then castrating him, while screaming "MAKE ME PREGNANT RIGHT NOW!"

Real world 12 year old girls DO NOT ACT LIKE THIS in these situations.

I can't identify with Ciri, even though she lives through many near identical events that I lived through (including the beheading torture of my best friends, which happened when I was 14, vs Mistle's beheading which happened when Ciri was 12), which should make me be able to identify with her, because I have first hand experience with being tortured in exactly the same way Leo and Vilgizfort's tortured Ciri... but Ciri does not have realistic, relatable responses to these events.

Unfortunately, because of how he portrayed Ciri in the sex scenes with King Auberon, and he nullified, numb reactions to Mistle's beheading, alongside her steady, constant, non-stop demands for sex.... I feel that Andrzej Sapkowski, wanted to be one of the American men with enough money to pay to rape us girls. That's how the Witcher novels read.

Andrzej Sapkowski's writing, glamorizes, glorifies, sexualizes, and turned into child porn Erotica, some of the worst cases of real world child abuse in American history.

It is clear that Andrzej Sapkowski is drooling with lust for Ciri's 12 year old vagina, with every line he writes of her furiously masterbating for King Auberon.

It is clear that if Andrzej Sapkowski had lived in America and had had $20,000 to spend, he would have been first in line to rape a 12 year old Gypsy girl....

...and because of that... the Witcher novels horrify me.

Yes, I like the Witcher novels, but I don't recommend them. Why? You need to remember one thing: 

Not ever priest involved in the child prostitution ring has been arrested.

You remember the high priest from Austria?

Yeah.

You see him in my streams, every week.

Ben.

The power of an apology.

You remember how I said ThingyChan was a worse piece of shit then my uncles were because SHE REFUSES TO APOLOGIZE for the crap she pulled?

Unlike the other priests, unlike my uncles, unlike the rest of the men... Ben was never arrested, nor will he be... because he said was sorry for what he did.

He apologized.

The power of an apology... that's what kept him out of prison, while 4,000 pedophile priests are now behind bars.

On top of that, Ben and I are now a couple and have been together for 32 years.

Officially, I am diagnosed with Stockholm Syndrome, because of my absolute refusal to turn Ben over, like I did the rest.

And he did buy me when I was 12, so technically, he stills owns me, and while my uncles were abusive, Ben wasn't. He's never hit me. I don't believe he would. He probably scare himself if he did.

Not many men are able to gain respect from their women. Too many men buy us because they just want sex and something to beat on when they get drunk. Ben's not like that. He's rather unique.

I'm quite lucky.

Not many women get bought by a man who is not abusive.

Compared to the other girls who grew up with what I did, I came to a fairly good end.

Most girls will get bought by a man who is going to beat them to death before they are 20 years old.

It' rare to see a female Gypsy over the age of 30 and that's why.

Unfortunatly, most men in Gypsy culture, see women as a type of livestock.

We get bought and sold all the time.

A lot of Gypsy women live in fear that the man who owns them, will get bored with them and sell them to a man even worse.

Others hope the man who owns them, will get bored with them and hopeful sell them to a man who is better.

A man like Avallac'h, one who doesn't beat his women, and treats them with kindness... most Gypsy women don't even dare dream of being owned by someone like that. Men like that are just so rare.

Yeah, I like the Witcher novels, because segments of them, the parts with Avallac'h, were based off of real world events from my childhood and I have Stockholm Syndrome.

I have an extreme obsession with shutting down, every last child prostitution ring in the clan, and hunting down every last man involved in it and putting them all in prison.

The last 30 years of my life have been fully 100% devoted to that goal.

And over the course of carrying out that goal, I started collecting every last bit of media about my childhood.

You see, I am utterly fascinated, with the fact that so many people are fascinated by my childhood.

And am left to wonder, why, when so many millions, upon millions, upon countless millions of people publicly, in newspapers, on TV news reports, in online forums, authors of novels, writers of movies... all CLAIM to to be horrified by my childhood, and many of them, hundreds of locals, all CLAIM, that any one of them would have come to our rescue... then why the hell, did not one of them, ever do so?

One of my brothers escaped, made it to a near by church, and begged the bishop for help, told the bisop what was happening... and Bishop Dan Kenning, took him back "home" and recommended to my parents and the uncles, that he be punish for "telling such a whopper"... oh he was punished alright... and he hasn't said a word in the 30 years since... yeah... my brother who doesn't talk.

In the 1980s we were let out once a week, for 3 hours to go to church. During that 8 year period, I reported what was happening to 16 bishops, 3 town managers, 32 town councilman, and 24 police officers, all of Old Orchard Beach, all of whom were members of that church. I even gave them the address 37 Smithwheel Rd as the location ... yeah IN FUCKING 1988!!!!! 

#THINK ABOUT THAT!

37 Smithwheel Rd, Old Orchard Beach, Maine.... in 1988: 24 police officers, 16 bishops, 3 town managers, 32 town councilman, HAD ALL BEEN GIVEN REPORTS that children were being bought and sold

24 police officers KNEW about 37 Smithwheel Rd in damned fucking 1988!

#SHOVE THAT UP YOUR DAMNED NEWS REPORTS!

Hundreds of locals, INCLUDING ALL 24 OF THOSE POLICE OFFICERS, all CLAIM, that any one of them would have come to our rescue... HAD THEY KNOWN WHAT WAS HAPPENING.... and yet, I know of more then 40 different children, who during those 3 hour Sunday services outside of our cages DID MAKE REPORTS OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING.... 

I am so damned sick of bastards who what to look good in public, but don't give a shit about doing good deeds... THEY FUCKING KNEW what was happening, 40+ children, begged them for help, half those children were DEAD YEARS before help came.... they claim they would have helped us? Well then why the hell, did not one of them, ever do so?

They only said for news cameras, that they would have helped had they'd known, because they wanted to make themselves look good to others, they didn't give a shit about helping us. 

They didn't care, they didn't even believe us.

And THAT'S why I like the Witcher novels.

Not for Geralt.

Not for Dandelion.

Not for Yennefer.

Not for Triss.

Not even for Ciri.

Just for 3 chapters. 32 pages. The 32 pages that were based off my childhood.

I am utterly fascinated, with the fact that so many people are fascinated by my childhood... and I collect EVERYTHING, that anyone writes about those events, be they news reports in the Boston Globe, or fiction in a Polish Fantasy fanzine magazine.

I can't stand Geralt or Dandelion.

Both of them are the type of men who'd be waving $20,000 in the air and fighting to be first in line to rape a 12 year old.

Geralt and Dandelion are vile, perverted men, who if they were real, would be in prison where men like them belong. I deeply dislike that so many millions of people glorify Geralt and Dandelion, because vile, perverted, pedophile, rapists should never be glorified.

It's terrifying to look at today's society, and the wild craze of Geralt and Dandelion fans who flock to these vile, sexually devated, immoral men who take sexual advantage of women.

I do like Yennefer and can see her as a hero. She's a strong woman who fought against some terrible odds that life dealt her, and she adopted Ciri, and raised her when no one else would.

Like Avallac'h, Yennefer was kind and gentle and loving to Ciri. I like Yennefer for the same reason I like Avallac'h.

Though I also think Yennefer is kind of stupid. Geralt uses and abuses her something fierce, He's mean to her all the time. He outright admits he doesn't give a shit about her feelings and is going to fuck every woman he sees wither she likes it or not. She can do better. She deserves better. But in spite of how big of a dick he is to her, she stands by him, her heart breaking, knowing he'll never love her, never care about her, and will quickly toss her out of bed the first sight of a brothel.

Triss. I loath. More than any other character. She's an absolute total whore. Deviated sex crazed bitch who's doesn't give a shit about Geralt, but hates Yennefer so will stop at nothing to shove her ass in Geralt's face as much as possible just to spite Yennefer. A piece of trash not worth the bullet it would take to shoot her and rid the world of her slutty ass.

Ciri.... I wanted to like Ciri. o much of her life was based off of real world events that happened to me in my childhood.... but, Ciri's slut assed whoness make Triss look like a sainted Vestal Virgin. And believe me... that is NOT how a real world 12 year old acts. Not even close.

Sadly Andrzej Sapkowski did what the bulk of people fascinated by my childhood do... fetishized it, sexualized horrific child abuse into child porn erotic sex fantasies.

It horrifies me that Andrzej Sapkowski had the oppertunity to take these horrific real world events and show them through Ciri's eyes.... ad instead of showing the world how vile, evil, and horrible those events were, how traumatizing the real girls involved were by what happened to them.... instead, he showed Ciri as a female version of Dandelion, slobbering in sex crazed lust for every penis she saw. (I'm still wonderin how readers call Ciri's penis lust crazed obsession "lesbianism").

:(

It saddens me to no end, to see Avallac'h tell Ciri she's to have sex with King Auberon, and Ciri's response is to light up in joyful glee and say "Oh boy! You mean I get to have sex with the Alder King?"

A REAL 12 year old is going to run screaming from that situation. Not sex crazed penis lusting 12 year old Ciri. She joyfully and giddily ran all yippie skippies to jump in bed with the King, only to be enraged when the King is horrified to find out she's still a child and refuses to have sex with her, in spite of Avallac'h's insistance that Ciri has perfectly ripe ovaries at 12 years old.

And, while Avallac'h is initially unfazed by the thought of 12 year old Ciri having sex with 400 year old King Auberon... he backs off, changes his mind and tels Ciri to spend a few years enjoying living with the Elves instead, have a baby later when you're an adult.... and that just enrages 12 year old Ciri who decides to brutally and violently rape Avallac'h while screaming: "MAKE ME PREGNANT RIGHT NOW!"

Yeah... how many 12 year old girls do you know who do that?

Like I said, I wanted to like Ciri.

Every other page of Ciri's life, is ripped right out of the news reports of my life, so you'd think I could identify with her.

The problem is, I know what it is like to be in those situations and I know how I felt, and my reactions to those exact same situations was completely the polar opposite of Ciri's reactions in those situations, making her reactions unbelievable and alien to me, resulting in  simply can not identify with her.

I don't like the Witcher novels for the story.

I like them, for Avallac'h and Avallac'h alone.

There isn't anything else in the Witcher novels that I like.

The bulk of the Witcher novels are just endless immorality, prevention, and sex, and I don't like any of that.

I don't like anything in the Witcher novels that involves Geralt.

While I liked Geralt in the game... I absolutely loathe Geralt in the novels. He is vile on levels of vilness I don't even want anything to do with. After finding out how revolting, immoral, sexully deviated, and disgusting he was in the novels, I couldn't remove him from the game fast enough.

And you do have to remember, that I ONLY READ THE WITCHER NOVELS BECAUSE I WAS CONTACTED BY SOMEONE FAMILIAR WITH THE FBI CASE AND THEY ASKED ME TO READ THE NOVELS BECAUSE THEY WERE AFRAID SOMEONE INSIDE THE CASE HAD LEAKED INFORMATION TO THE PUBLIC.....

Yeah.... I was asked to read the Witcher novels to see if I thought Andrzej Sapkowski was one of the men who had been raping the little girls BECAUSE HE HAD SO MANY DETAILS RIGHT about the FBI investigation.

I do not like Fantasy novels.

I do not read Fantasy novels.

I only read the Witcher novels because information in the novels matched information in a murder investigation and they wanted to know if I thought he could have gotten his details THAT ACCURATE from just reading news reports or could he have been one of the men involved.

I never would have read the Witcher novels otherwise as they are not the types of books I normally read.

I did not go into reading the Witcher novels looking to have a fun time reading Fantasy.

I went into the Witcher novels with a fine tooth comb looking for the supposed connections it had to the murder trail I was involved in, because the question had been brought up.... do we need to contact this author and bring him into this court trail over the fact that he used so many details from the lives of these real people from a currently active murder investigation?

I went into reading the Witcher novels as research for writing up court documents, to see did he just read the news reports or was their info that he used that was not released to the public.

And no, everything he used in the novels, can be found in news reports, no evidence was found that he had any connection to the case outside of seeing news reports and being inspired to add those details to his novels.

And yes, that is how I got so obsessed with playing the game as well.

While I had played all 3 games previously, it was not until lawyers started suggesting many aspects were based off on news reports of my childhood, that I began replaying the game over and over, searching through every last inch of it to find out, just how far they dug into those news reports and how much did they use.

I don't understand why so many people have such a hard time believing it, but Avallac'h really is the ONLY thing I like about the Witcher novels.

Which I know is odd, given he's supposed to be partly based off the real world men who abused me, but like I said... he's so very different from the real world men he was based on: my uncles.

We real girls starved to death in cages, sleeping in feces. There were no lights. Total darkness in that room 24 hours a day for weeks on end, in total solitary confinement. And once the weekly outings to church stopped.... it was sometimes 6 months or more, between going outside of the cage, outside of that room (which, if you can stomach it... there are picture of, lower down on my profile... most people tell me they can't even look at the pictures of that room as it turns their stomach to see what I lived in for 27 years). The door to the room opened once every other week - to toss food scraps at me - a handful of food once every 12 days. No light. No one else in the room. Total solitary confinement. That was my punishment for asking the bishop for help one Sunday, the last Sunday I was ever allowed in church. I was starving to death, in pitch blackness, sleeping in feces, going month between hearing another person's voice.... that's the reality of that room, and what it was like to be a child in a child prostitution ring, who dared fight back and tried to escape to get help.

Ciri grew fat on pastries and slept in a bed covered with red silk and mink furs, with Avallac'h while he sang to her.... had our REAL WORLD experience in a child prostitution breeding program been like THAT, I doubt any of us would have tried to escape. Avallac'h and how he treated Ciri was a HUGE far cry from how real men running such a place treated the REAL child prostitutes.

Though we at 5 years old did get to wear sequin pageant dresses that outhine prom dresses, we only got to bath and wear those if a man paid to let us out of the cages to be raped by him. That was a mixture of excitement and dread... excited to finally get to wear clothes and look pretty, followed by the dread of why we were being dressed up like little 5 year old Barbie dolls.

Had we had someone like Avallac'h raising us. A kind, gentle, loving man who actually cared about and took good care of the girls in his care, our lives would have been very different. 

We girls, we needed someone like Avallac'h. A man who didn't beat us, didn't starve us, didn't lock us in cages, didn't torture us. We didn't have the lap of luxury that Ciri had. We were unloved, unwanted, beaten, tortured, caged, abused, starved, our unborn babies murdered. 

At 8 years old, we lived in total dread of giving birth to a female baby, because that meant having our stomachs crushed, our bones broken, to punish us for the sin of not giving birth to blue eyed blond boys that could be sold to wealthy Americans.

And had I grown up in different circumstances, I doubt I'd like the Witcher novels at all. Yeah... I like Avallac'h because he represents what our childhoods could have been. And that's the single, solitary, ONLY reason I like the Witcher series. Because I wish we'd been raised by a kind, gentle man like Avallac'h, a man who would not have killed our babies or starved us or beaten us or caged us. We needed a man like him who cared about us and didn't just see us as a means of making money.

And yeah, I do hate Ciri because she's an ungrateful bitch. There isn't a one of us girls who wouldn't have killed to be owned by a man like Avallac'h.

The men who owned us treated us like shit. Ciri is an ungrateful little bitch. She don't know how good she had it.

Most girls grow up dreading the man who will own them.

We get bought and sold by abusive bastards all the time.

Men don't care about the girls they buy. They care even less about us once we are adults.

Do you have any idea how rare it is to be bought by a man who is NOT going to treat you like shit. Who is NOT going to beat you?

It rare. It's very, very, very RARE.

Men are mean.

Men are cruel.

It is every girl's dream to be bought by a man WHO WILL NOT BEAT HER.

It is every girl's dream to be bought by a man WHO WILL NOT KILL HER BABIES.

It is every girl's dream to be bought by a man WHO WILL NOT PUT HER IN A CAGE.

Do you know what it is like to dream about being owned by someone who actually cares about you?

Avallac'h not only cared about her... he let her go outside!

Do you know how rare it is to be bought by a man who will let you go outside?

Ciri is a vile piece of shit. She had what every single girl dreams of having, and she destroyed it.

That's why I don't like Ciri. I'd kill to have the type of freedom she had. And she threw it away.

I think that's why I am in such awe over what ThingyChan did... it looks like, sees 24 years old, and no one seems to own her.

I don't know what the culture she is like is from, but it's bizzare to see a female run wild with sex talk like she does. Clearly she has no father, brother, male cousins, uncles, or a husband to beat her in the face with a brick and teach her some manners and decency.

I never trust wild women. I didn't realize she was one. Though that does explain quite a lot.

Her ill manners.

Her refusal to apologize for being a vile piece of shit and spreading all those slanderous BDSM fetish sex lies about me.

Clearly she is desperately in need of a man to take a brick to her head and put her in lie. No woman in Gypsy culture would dare talk about the vile, perverted BDSM sex talk she was saying about me, that's for sure. No man would let them talk like that.

I don't know... Americans like to talk about giving women more rights, but if ThingyChan is any example of what women are like when they don't have a man to keep them in line, I'm not sure I would want women having more rights. 

She's hurting a lot of people, and if she does have a man who owns her, he's certainly not doing his job, that's for sure.  A man who can't keep his women in check is just as bad as a man who abuses his women.

After seeing what she did, I think of ThingyChan as being like a wild rabid dog. A dog with a good owner, knows manners and respect and doesn't jump all over people who visit. A dog with a bad owner, runs and hide. While a dog with no owner runs around pissing on every corner and biting everyone. ThingyChan is like the dog with no owner, running around pissing on the corners of Discord and biting everyone she meets because she has no man to teach her otherwise, no firm hand to reign her in and make her behave. And, like any wild woman with no owner, she will continue to run wild, hurting people until a man steps into her life and teaches her some manners and dignity.

It's rather sad, really, when you stop and think about it... at 24 years old and no one has bought her yet? She's an old maid with no hope of ever being bought. Men don't pay good money for a 24 year old dried old prune. What viability does she have of giving birth to healthy babies at that age! 

Perhaps that's why she's so mean? I've seen that before. Not getting picked. It's generally considered quite bad if you reach the age of 16 and no man's bought you yet. That's almost as bad as reaching 14 with anything fewer the 4 babies.

24 years old, no children, no man, unbought, unloved, unpicked, unwanted, 10 years past her prime. No wonder she's so mean.

I could almost feel sorry for her, if she hadn't launched a 2 year long attack on my reputation, maliciously spreading hateful, slanderous sex lies about me behind my back while pretending to be my best friend the entire time she did it.

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UPDATE: DECEMBER 11, 2019: I'm tired of other streamers slandering my name, I am tired of being bullied, stop harassing me... aka Why I no longer interact with chat... .......................................................  You mean you weren't talking about sex when you said ___insert here EVERYTHING I have ever said in ThingyChan's chat every day since April 2018 ___? ..............................................

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#You mean you weren't talking about sex when you said ___*insert here EVERYTHING I have ever said in ThingyChan's chat every day since April 2018* ___?

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#Want an answer you can watch instead? Here watch this 35min VOD: [The Purple Bison Scene... My Reaction To Being Called Out On Someone Else's Stream aka Why I like Avallac'h](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/503775003)

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And because you people have got your filthly perverted heads shoved so damned far up your sex crazed asses... HERE... have another VOD.... You want to know why I like Avallac'h? THIS IS WHY: Because he is a sainted virgin knight, the holiest, most righteous of all the 12 Holy Grail Knights of the Round Table: The Fisher King:  [The Fisher King & The Lady of The Lake:  The Real People vs The Original Novels vs The Witcher Versions or Why I Like Avallac'h & Hate Ciri](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/503781222)

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*(Added November 2, 2019, in response to questions asked as a result of [THIS VOD](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/502909096) and [THIS ONE](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/502560247) and also [THIS ONE](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/502227080) and the panel that starts out titled FAQs: Why did you add a rope to Avallac'h's belt?)* 

No.

I wasn't talking about sex.

I have been in ThingyChan's chat since April 2018, and NOT ONCE in that entire time have I ever mentioned sex or hinted to sex, and I am HORRIFIED that YOU ALL TWISTED MY WORDS to try to make them be about sex!

Good god! Have you never listened to anything I have ever said or read anything I have ever written?

Heck, you can barely get through 5 minutes of one of my streams without me going off on a rant about how fed up I am with the none stop nudity, pornography, and sexual content that gets posted, streamed, and chatted on Twitch every day.

Why do you think I no longer interact with chat? I say it often enough! I'm fed up with the jackasses who flood Twitch with steady none stop chat posts about boobs, dicks, tits, sex, and rape.

Hell, everyone who has ever met me knows I stopped playing JackBox games years ago, a game I used to play near daily, and knows I stopped playing them because I was fed up with the damned, fucking, retarded, sex crazed, perverted shit heads the Jackbox games attract in droves! 

It is so difficult to find a streamer these days who isn't screaming sick shit like "titties for bitties" or using sexual innuendos as their stream titles.

And damned chat... every single chat box on Twitch is flooded with steady, non-stop sex talk.

Twitch has become a den of perversion and I hate it.

And just becuse there are millions of sex crazy shit heads on Twitch slobbering their filthy dicks and tits all over every ones chat... doesn't give you the right to jump to false conclusions that every one on Twitch is a gutter scum piece of pig shit like them.

#How dare you attribute anything I say or do to be some sort of hidden sexual innuendo! 

#What gives you the right to judge me by what other scumbag jackasses on Twitch do!

It's people like you that are what's wrong with Twitch.

People like you are why so many gutter scum pieces of trash rove like rabid dogs from one Twitch stream to another shoving tits and dicks in every chat box.

The utter scum sex creeps wouldn't have a home on Twitch if streamers would just show some self respect, have some damned morals, and not allow the jackass pervs in their chats to begin with.

It's a sorry state Twitch is in, if you can't post in anyone's chat without it being assumed everything you say MUST me sex related just because you are on Twitch!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

#YOU HAVE THE GAUL TO CONNECT MY NAME TO SEX! HOW CAN YOU BE SO HATEFUL?

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

#HOW DARE YOU SLANDER MY NAME LIKE THIS! ARE YOU REALLY THAT VILE? THAT EVIL?

Let's look at some important facts that YOU KNEW, but for some reason chose to COMPLETELY IGNORE:

* 1: I am asexual. I have absolutely no libido at all, find no sexual attraction to anything or anyone, and can't even begin to comprehend how or why you are aroused or see sexual meaning in ANYTHING.

* 2: I have Autism. ACTUAL Autism. Kanner's Syndrome. Not Aspergers. I speak VERY LITERALLY. I use direct dictionary definitions for every word I say. I say EXACTLY what I mean. I do not use slang, hidden meanings, or sexual innuendos. I wouldn't even know how to. I likewise have no ability to comprehend or understand any slang terms, hidden meanings, or sexual innuendos you may see fit to use.

* 3: I grew up in the 1970s, born and raised into Heaven's Gate, a group of Fundamentalist Mormons most famous for mass murdering 39 people when Comet HaleBop flew across the sky... I was 31 years old before I ever set foot outside of the compound. 31 years old the first time I had contact with either Americans or non-Mormons... 

>>>SIDE NOTE: We had no electricity and no plumbing - that means until I was 31 years old, I had none of the luxuries that Americans call necessities like: toilets, sinks, tv, showers, phones, etc. For lights we used kerosene lamps, for heat we had wood stoves. For entertainment we read books and played board games and card games. 

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>>>We did not go to stores, everything we needed we grew and made ourselves. All food and clothes were grown and made by hand. The compound was a poultry farm with 5,000 head of chicken, and also had horses, goats, ducks, geese, rabbits, and more. 

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>>>Females were not allowed to wear pants or make-up, cut their hair, or get jobs. No one, male or female went to schools or doctors, as schools and doctors were seen as "things made by the government, the government being run by Satan, therefore schools and doctors were all of Satan".  

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>>>No one was born in hospitals and therefore also no one had vaccinations, birth certificates, social security numbers, or fingerprinting. While dozens of children were born each year, few made it to 3 years old, most dying from Mumps, Measles, Chicken Pox, Whooping Cough, Rubella, or Small Pox within the 1st 3 years of their lives. Most teens did not reach adulthood dying from either TB or Anthrax before reaching the age of 18. 

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>>>At age 13 I had small pox and was one of the few to get it and survive... however it was unknown then that it was small pox and, this diagnosis came when I was 42 years old and a blood test showed I had had small pox. At the time, when I was 13 adults told me it was "chicken pox again, for the 3rd time"... however the pox on my palms and soles were over an inch across, and left me unable to use my hands or feet for 10 months, and I was mute from the time I was 14 till I was 27, as a result of the pox scars in my throat and lungs which prevented me from talking. 

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>>>My dad was 64 years old when he learned to read and write, and to this day is still "mostly illiterate". I was 37 years old when I started night school and got my GED a year later. 

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>>>When you make references to things like school, high school, friends growing up, ect... 

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>>>I have no point of reference to understand, identify with, or sympathize with you.

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>>> This also means when you ask me questions or make comments about tv shows and movies, no, I have never seen them and are clueless to what you are referencing. 

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>>>To this day, I still do not have a tv or go to movies, so no, pretty much 100% of every single slang pop culture reference or joke you make, I am not going to know, understand, get, or find funny.

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>>>I simply can not relate to what you are saying. I have never seen the movies, tv shows, cartoons, animes, videos, whatever that you are talking about, so I have no clue who the characters are, what the plots are, what the inside jokes are, or what point you are trying to get across when you talk about anything that has anything to do with movies, tv shows, cartoons, anime, or videos.

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>>>Other things that get brought up on chat comments frequently, which I do not understand and can not comment on include: dating, chasing after boys/girls based on what they look like, romance for love or lust, and similar things. I was married when I was 12, to a man 32 years older than me, whom I didn't know before marrying him. The marriage was arranged by my uncles. And this is marriage is in Gypsy culture. 

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>>>Gypsies do not marry for love, do not seek out a mate based on how the other person looks, do not go on dates, do not go to schools and therefore have no concept of being a sex crazed teenager who goes to high school only to chase down tits and dicks, which is the VERY REASON Gypsies home school, because they believe in school = education, not the American immoral debauchery of school = lusting after sex.

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>>>No, I also do not understand your gripping about trying to get a boy's/girl's attention, nor can I help you with your constant questions for advice on how to "win a date" or "find a girl/boy"... this is not something I can either understand or wrap my mind around. Gypsy culture has arranged marriages... we do not marry for love and do not look for mates based on what they look like.

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>>>So no... all your comments of you're not understanding how I can like characters like Avallac'h and Kalkstein, because you think they "look funny" or "ugly"... I did not come from a culture that sexualized what people look like.... I do not base liking a person on what they look like... sorry, but I'm not a shallow sex crazed dip shit like you.... I base liking someone off their personality, things they do, and how they treat others.

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>>>I simply can not relate to what you are talking about. I can not understand why anyone would be so cruel, cold, shallow, unkind, uncaring, and evil enough to like a person based solely on what that person looks like or not like a person, based on what they look like. Are you really that immoral, that big of a dick, that much of a douchebag, that evil a person, that you ONLY care about what someone looks like? Well, if that's the case, then it's no wonder your like Ciri in spite of her being a rapist, a murderer, a child abuser, a spouse beater, a drunk, a drug addict, and an abortion bitch. Clearly you care only about her ass and boos and don't give a shit about her personality. I'm sorry, but I'd rather like people based on their actions, their personalities, their beliefs, and how they treat others. 

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>>>I can't even begin to wrap my mind around how you can like a person based on looks and not be nauseated, disgusted, reviled, and want to vomit over their shitty, ugly, horrible personality. There is something seriously wrong with you if you can like a person with an ugly soul, just because she has big boobs, yet hate a person with a kind loving soul because he has high cheekbones... that tells me that you, yourself have an evil soul. Clearly sex is all you care about and you care nothing for a person. You're the type of fuck shit who uses a person then loses them. You are not their for good and bad, not their when hard times come... you're just their for so-called fun times in bed, and that makes you a piece of shit.

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>>>As we are Scottish and spoke Scottish "English" and I was 37 years old before I learned to speak American English, I also know the American language from dictionaries, and do not know things like street slang inside jokes or sexual innuendos... all of which are lost on me and when you use them, I either assume you meant the ACTUAL LITERAL DICTIONARY DEFINITION of the words you used or that you are speaking in some sort of gang lingo gibberish.

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>>>I am the current queen of the clan, and Americans have dubbed me "a mafia leader" and refer to us Scottish Gypsies as "The Scottish Mafia". Though mafia is an Italian group so I do not understand why Americans call us this as we are Scottish, not Italian.

* 3a: ...among the many things Heaven's Gate members did that is "not standard" to most cultures is the fact that clothen was optional... in other words it was nearly a nudist camp, with most adults and children 100% naked all of the time... clothing was seen as a way to protect ourselves from the elements... keep warm in winter, unburned in summer... clothing was never seen as or used as a way to hide parts of the body or sexually amplify parts of the body... and when they did wear clothing, everyone wore long flowing caftans, kimono, and robes, that were comfortable and not form fitting *(I still have and still wear these robes to this day)*

* 3b: ...as a result of this, I was never raised to view the naked body as a sex object, I never learned to connect nudity to sex and unlike most of society, I do not place any sexual meaning or need for sexual arousal to the naked body.

* 3c: ...which means I am fully capable of talking about breasts, boobs, nipples, tits, vaginas, pussies, cunts, penises, dicks, testicals, cocks, balls, asses, bums, butts, and any other body part, without connecting any reference to sex to that body part at all

* 3d: ...this also means, that while YOU may find those body parts to be references to sex... I DO NOT and have no mental or emotional programing, to EVER think of those or any other body parts as sex objects

* 3e: I was raised to think of the human body as a sacred temple of the lord, a work of art created by our heavenly father and not to be degraded into meer sexual objectification

* 3f: ... in the culture I was raised in, eyes and hair, were the ONLY 2 body parts ever associated with sexual arousal... and you rarely hear me mention anyone's eyes or hair at all, because of the sexual connection my culture places on both

* 4: I am a Mormon. 5th generation Fundamentalist Latter Day Saint. Sex is a grave sin, as is eating meat, drinking alcohol, drinking coffee, drinking tea, women wearing pants, dances, music, night clubs, smoking, drugs, and a very long list of other things that your lewd, perverted mind probably could not comprend as even close to being bad, let alone being a sin worthy of eternity in Hell.

* 4a: I am a Mormon. 5th generation Fundamentalist Latter Day Saint. Sex is a grave sin, sex for recreational use or self indulgent pleasure is not allowed. Sex is a practice reserved only for the making of babies. This alone and nothing more. 

* 4b: I am a Mormon. 5th generation Fundamentalist Latter Day Saint. Sex is a grave sin, sex outside of marriage is punishable by castration. 

* 4c: I am a Mormon. 5th generation Fundamentalist Latter Day Saint. Sex is a grave sin. Adultery, fornication, prostitution, sex used for recreations, sex used for pleasure, talking about sex, making sexual jokes, hinting to sexual innuendos, all result in disownment and shunning from both Church and Family.

* 4d: While Heaven's Gate is famous for their radical religious practices, The Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of The Latter Day Saints is quite proud to be famous for being responsible for 83% of all abortion clinic bombings and abortion bitch murders in America... a church known for radical High Priests who preach from the pulpit the evils of sex for pleasure while their hands still drip with the blood of the latest abortion bitch they've killed.

* 4e: How many TIMES have you heard me say I like Avallac'h BECAUSE he's a good, decent, righteous moral man who shuns sex and executes abortion bitches?

* 4f: How many TIMES have you heard me say I HATE ANYONE who uses sex for pleasure and abuses their God given gift of the creation of life?

* 5: I have a Ph.D in Christian Religion & Philosophy, with heavy focus in the history of Judea. That means 12 years of Calvinist Bible Seminary, and included Latin, Greek, Hebrew, and studying all the concordances of Calvin, Wesley, and more than a dozen other Medieval and Renaissance Christian Theologians.

* 6: I have read the King James Bible 31 times, cover to cover, like a novel. I was 9 years old the first time I did so.

* 7: I have read 16 OTHER translations of the Bible no less than 4 times each.

* 8: I have read the Book of Mormon 14 times, The Doctrines and Covenant 4 times, the complete, unabridged Discourses of Brigham Young, and all the biographies of all the Church Prophets.

* 9: I am a practitioner of The Enochian Angel Faith

* 10: I founded, built, run, a church where I am the minister.

* 11: I am a freelance content writer who writes sermons for other ministers.

* 12: My long time favorite singer is Carman. Don't know Carman? Here, have some music videos:

* [Our Turn Now](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQmf2nzwLeo)

* [God's Got an Army](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4viNTjCH4o)

* [Righteous Invasion of Truth](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8OIXBD5zQQ)

* [Addicted To Jesus](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CzxHiIJNv9Y)

* [Satan Bite The Dust](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-AAJNmoxWp0)

* [Who's In The House ](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhPR5R0h2LM)

* [7 Ways 2 Praise](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvgY3tukrfA)

* [No Monsters](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-ColBjTs6I)

* [Great God](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6ruLMhNqSQ)

* 13: For the past 40+ years I have been the front runner of the petition to legalize the execution without trial of every last abortion bitch on the planet.

* 14: I am KNOWN for my absolute TOTAL HATRED of women who use and abuse their God given ability to create life as a tool for perversion and deviated lusts of the flesh, only the murder the child they created because they put pleasure over life

#AND....

* I was raised in a child prostitution ring and was raped daily, multiple times since I was 8 years old, until I escaped from my captures when I was 31 years old

* meaning I KNOW EXACTLY what it is like to be raised as breeder, seen as worthless and useless beyond how much money being raped by Mormon priests makes for my uncles

* I had 7 miscarriages and therefor know EXACTLY what it is like to want nothing more then to have a baby, and be horrified to discover that there exist millions of jackass bastards who murder babies that they could be giving to someone to actually wanted them

* I was raped AGAIN November 14, 2013

*  I was beaten with a metal baseball bat, breaking my spine, hip, and knees November 14, 2013

*  I was pregnant and the baby died November 14, 2013

* the injuries left me unable to have another baby

* I was paralyzed for 5 months

* I was in a wheelchair and doctors said I would never walk again

* I spent 18 months stubbornly teaching myself to walk again

* 6 years later I still struggle to use my legs, can only walk a few feet, and rely heavily on a cane even for that

*  I am still crippled and stream on Twitch because playing video games is one of the few things I'm able to do from bed, because my spine, hip, and knees are messed up so bad I'm stuck in bed nearly 24 hours a day for the past 6 years

>>>Let me repeat that, because I've said it in my steams AND in ThingyChan's chat HUNDREDS of times, and you claim you never heard me say it before:

#I was raped AGAIN November 14, 2013

#I was beaten with a metal baseball bat, breaking my spine, hip, and knees November 14, 2013

#I was pregnant and the baby died November 14, 2013

#the injuries left me unable to have another baby

#I was paralyzed for 5 months

#I was in a wheelchair and doctors said I would never walk again

#I spent 18 months stubbornly teaching myself to walk again

#6 years later I still struggle to use my legs, can only walk a few feet, and rely heavily on a cane even for that

#I am still crippled and stream on Twitch because playing video games is one of the few things I'm able to do from bed, because my spine, hip, and knees are messed up so bad I'm stuck in bed nearly 24 hours a day for the past 6 years

#Let me repeat that, that  I've said it in my steams AND in ThingyChan's chat HUNDREDS of times, and you claim you never heard me say it before!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And THAT says a lot about YOU. It says you are uncaring, unsympathetic, and are so damned sex crazed with your head shoved so damned far up your own dicks and vaginas that you do not give a fucking shit about others.... IT'S NO WONDER YOU MADE THE CLAIMS YOU DID!

* I have severe post traumatic stress disorder caused by having been brutally raped, my internal organs are messed up so bad that surgery can not fix it, I have no control of bodily functions, and have spent most of my life having to wear adult diapers because I have no clue when I have to pee or defecate... to avoid accidents I have to keep a timer on, and use the bathroom every 2 hours when the timer goes off.... something you see every day throughout my daily 12 hour streams

* among other things, my hip, knee, and spine was broken with a baseball bat, resulting in I spent 5 month paralyzed and 18 months relearning to walk... and you see me streaming from bed because I have been crippled the rest of my life.... today I am no longer in a wheelchair and can walk for limited distances with a cane, but I will never again run, dance, or mountain climb

The attack happened at quarter past 10PM at the BugLight Lighthouse parking lot beside the art department studio of Southern Maine Community College. I was putting an easel in the back of my car, bent over the back seat, and did not see them come up to the car; they carried a metal baseball bat and a golf club, which they used to beat me in the back with, while I was still leaned into the car.

The attack was done by 3 people, a man and 2 women. The man was bald, around 6'4" and in his 30s, the 2 women were in their 60s and appeared to be the man's mother and aunt; the "mother" had distinctive dyed hair, shoulder length, pageboy cut, of platinum blond and dark brown stripes about 4 inches wide, EXTREMELY 1980s space girl fake hair dye; the other woman had long natural-orange-red curly hair, lime green glasses with a very distinctive narrow "x-men cyclops style" shape, she was screaming "I'm Kendra Silvermander, It's my turn to shine"... the 3 of them drove away together in a 4-door white pick-up truck with a silver tool box across the back and large oversized mountain bike tread tires.

#The murderer has not yet been identified. If you have any information, FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the investigation. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322

#Do know too that the fastest way for you to become a suspect of being involved in this attack, is by coming to my channel and mentioning sex or rape on ANY LEVEL AT ALL.

#If you have EVER mentioned rape of sex in my chat or in ThingyChan's chat while I was there, especially if you made fun of rape, used terms like "deserve to be raped", pointed sexual references to me.... YOU HAVE BEEN REPORTED TO FBI AGENT ANDY DREWER!

* also, I am asexual. 

* I am continually baffled by society's' constant obsession with sex; 

* I fail to understand why someone would WANT to have sex

* I find the thought of sex repulsive

* I see the onslaught of perverted, lewd, dick joking, boob obsessing posts that flood Twitch's chat to be horrifying... and I am utterly disgusted with just about 99% of what I see posted in most streamers' chats

* I am reviled by the fact that Twitch chat is nothing but a den of sex crazed perverts incapable of intellectual conversation

* heck, I'm the author of 130+ novels, not one of which is Erotica, all of which  focus heavily on showing rape from the victims horror filled point of view, and ultimately shows the rape victim murder their rapists... 

* and yet, readers constatly call me an Erotica author, constantly bill my work as "the best rape fantasy erotica ever written" (I've one several awards saying that and refused to accept any of them)...

* I remain baffled and confused as to why society glorifies sex to such an extent, that they can view the act of rape as Erotica

* I HATE that people call me an Erotica author and list my work as Rape Fantasy Erotica

#So you can see why I am HIGHLY OFFENDED by the fact that you people saw fit to CONNECT MY NAME TO ANY TYPE OF SEX REFERENCES AT ALL as such a thing is nothing short of a vicious, hateful, slanderous attack on your part against my reputation in the religious community.

 I probably won't be around Thingy's channel for a while; not sure I'll go back at all. 

I know, ThingyChan's channel is the place people tend to go to to be able to talk in chat with me, meaning, you don't have a place to talk to me online at all now, but these people behaved deplorable. Making fun of rape is inexcusable and unforgivable.

I'm very upset with what happened, and considering both Zuntrix and Niv went off on rants about how they didn't want me around, saying I was not a good or valuable part of the community, and stating everything I ever post is about sex with nothing I ever posted was about sex. The timing they picked for this is really bad - it's the anniversary of the day I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. 

You can't even begin to imagine how much I hate the thought of sex, I have post traumatic stress disorder and sex, any mention of it, triggers it, I've been in Thngy's chat since April 2018, and was not aware that she and her chat thought everything I posted was about sex. I'm asexual, I have Kanner's Syndrome (actual Autism), I'm a 5th generation Mormon, and I'm an ordained minister. I do not have any ability to understand slang or sexual innuendos, so for the past year I've been clueless, that Thingy and her chat thought I've been talking about sex this whole time. 

Zuntrix and Niv have been posting stuff like this for a few months, saying they didn't want me in chat, it's why I started lurking more and posting less, but this is the first time they've say they thought my posts were only about sex, and it's the first time Thingy went off on a rant because of what they said, that very much upset me.

I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. His wife died while she 8 months pregnant with another man's baby. 

I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. His entire story takes place on a lake, beside his wife's grave, where he does nothing but ride his around the lake, fish off a rowboat, and wander the fields picking flowers for his wife's grave. 

And after he's raped, his legs broken, and the tomb of his wife smashed and destroyed, he never again leaves the boat, never speaks again, and never walks again. That's his ENTIRE STORY.

I don't know where Thingy's rant came from, where she connected him to dungeons, torture devices, BDSM, I don't know, because says she read the novels, but she went off on a rant saying I only liked Avallac'h because of his BDSM sex dungeons where he tortured Ciri. He didn't do that. He has no dungeons, no BDSM sex fetish... I don't what Thingy read, but it wasn't the novels. 

I find it very upsetting that she said those things, because I outright told her, in August 2018, I liked Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. He's one of the 12 Holy Grail Knights of King Arthur's Round Table. 

To associate a holy man who lived a very moral life, with sex, BDSM fetishes, dungeons, and torture? I'm deeply disturbed that she twisted why I liked Avallac'h so very, very, very far out of context.

And then for her to say that stuff, in a live stream, in response to Zentrix and Niv's saying they don't want me around any more because all I talk about is sex???? What the 3 of them did was VERY mean... especially considering they chose to do it on the anniversary of the day I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my baby, died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. 

I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again... something I can't do for myself...and THINGY KNEW THAT! I told her that August 2018. 

The game is only thing that keeps me from killing myself. You don't know what it;s like. I use to aqua jog 13 miles a day, go mountain climbing, horseback riding... and after 6 miscarriages, I finally had a pregnancy that was almost full term and a chance of finally having a baby. 

My playing as Avallac'h has nothing to do with sex. Everything Thingy, Zuntrix, and Niv said was very, very mean, very inaccurate, and done at the worst possible time.

#DID ANY OF THEM EVEN EVER ONCE PAY ATTENTION TO WHY I LIKE AVALLAC'H AND HATE CIRI? I SAY IT EVERY DAMNED DAY!

Why do I hate Ciri?

Reasons: 

#1: Ciri is a rapist.

#2: Ciri is an abortion bitch.

#3: Ciri is a sex crazed pervert.

#4: Ciri is a drunk.

#5: Ciri is a cocaine addict.

#6: Ciri has a bloodlust. She is addicted to killing anything, everything, and every one that moves.

#7: Ciri is a slutty assed whore who spends 90% of her time in the novels masterbating for the reader, demanding sex from every one, and raping elderly men.

#8: Ciri says children, especially babies are parasites, and should all be killed.

#9: One of Ciri's favorite pastimes is stabbing pregnant women in the belly. to "rescue them from the parasites that will destroy their lives."

In short, Ciri is a vile, immoral piece of shit.

HAVE YOU NEVER LISTENED TO A WORD I HAVE EVER SAID IN MY STREAMS?

Hell! We do more preaching Bible verses here 

then anything else. We even use Ciri as the 

prime example of the most vile, most immoral, 

most debauched, gutter scum piece of filth sinner we could find and compare Bible verses

to her life as sermons and lessons of what type of piece of shit NOT TO BE!

Why do you think I hate that immoral, sex-crazed, perverted, crackhead, drunk, child murdering, rapist, gutter scum piece of trash, bitch Ciri so much?

Who wouldn't hate her?

The bigger question here is, why do YOU like a deviated, immoral piece of trash like that?

#WHAT? DID THEY THINK ^^^^THAT^^^ WAS A JOKE?

#YES... ^^^ THAT IS COPY AND PASTED HERE IN THIS PANEL OUT OF A POST I MADE IN THINGYCHAN'S CHAT!

#HOW DID THEY TAKE ME SAYING SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND TWIST IT TO ME I *LIKED* DEVIATED PERVERTS? WHAT? DID THEY THINK ^^^^THAT^^^ WAS A JOKE?

#By connecting ANYTHING I say in my streams, in ThingyChan's chat, in anyone else's chat, anywhere else online or offline... YOU ARE SLANDERING MY NAME AND DAMAGING MY REPUTATION.

Why do I like Avallac'h?

You mean other then the fact that he was brutally raped and left crippled in a manner near identical to what happened to me?

Reasons 

#1: Avallac'h is asexual, a virgin, lives a celibate life, and shuns sex.

#2: Avallac'h is a vegan, animal rights, human rights, monster rights activist.

#3: Avallac'h is doesn't drink alcohol.

#4: Avallac'h has morals and strives to live a pious, righteous, holy life free from sin.

#5: Avallac'h executes abortion bitches.

#6: Avallac'h rescuses would-have-been-aborted babies.

#7: Avallac'h abhors violence, weapons, and war

#8: Avallac'h is a quiet, peaceful, kind, gentle, loving, docile man who spends his life doing nothing but fishing off his boat. 

#9: Animals and monsters do not fear Avallac'h because he has never shed innocent blood, never taken an innocent life, 

has never murdered anyone.

#10: Avallac'h is The Fisher King, holiest of the Grail Knights... The Maimed King... literally Jesus the Christ Fisher of Men; the ultimate moral person.

Do you really know NOTHING about King Arthur Myhos or the fact that The Fisher King and the 12 Grail Knights are Jesus and his 12 disciples? 

Who wouldn't love Avallac'h knowing that?

#But forget Arthur Mythos, are you really, THAT MUCH OF A DEGENERATE that you don't even know the story of Jesus in the Bible when you see it retold?

<<<---- 24 MILLION people consider this vile drug addicted, drunk, spouse abusing, child murdering, rapist who was modeled after The Lady of the Lake/Satan to be "The #1 female little girls should look up to and strive to be like".

While 21 MILLION people consider this moral, just, kind man who was modeled after The Fisher King/Christ Jesus himself, to be the most vile, terrible, evil villain of any villain ever created. --->>>

It says a lot about the society we live in when evil acts are hailed as good and good acts are hailed as bad.

How?

Tell me how.... how do you sick, perverted jackasses look at Ciri and see ANYTHING but disgust and revulsion?

I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. You can't even begin to imagine how much I hate the thought of sex, I have post traumatic stress disorder and sex, any mention of it, triggers it. I'm asexual, I have Kanner's Syndrome (actual Autism), I'm a 5th generation Mormon, and I'm an ordained minister. 

I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. His wife died while she 8 months pregnant with another man's baby. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. His entire story takes place on a lake, beside his wife's grave, where he does nothing but ride his around the lake, fish off a rowboat, and wander the fields picking flowers for his wife's grave. 

And after he's raped, his legs broken, and the tomb of his wife smashed and destroyed, he never again leaves the boat, never speaks again, and never walks again. 

#Do you know the full extent of what happened to him? How bad it really was? How big of a piece of shit Ciri really is?

#Avallac'h was raped 5 times total. He tried to run away each time, but he's elderly, and had a lame leg, and was easily tackled by the sex crazed shit bitch that is Ciri. Because he kept running away, she broke both of his legs, then raped him again. Then, to punish him for refusing to have sex with her, she drove a sword through his hip, through his testicles, and out his other thigh. He was never able to walk again.

#And all this, happened after he had already been tortured, locked in a cage, his blood drained, his family tortured to death in front of him: his parents, his siblings, his wife, his adopted baby, and his cats.... who when they were dead, were chopped up and force fed to him.

And WHY did she do all this? She was angry, that he was an asexual virgin and was refusing to have sex with her on command. She, 12 year old Queen of Cintra, who was used to demanding men to have sex with her and was horrified to encounter a righteous, just, decent, moral holy man who dared stand his ground and NOT obey the vile, perverted, debauched bitch's sex crazed demands.

I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my baby, died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again... something I can't do for myself...and THINGY KNEW THAT! I told her that August 2018. The game is only thing that keeps me from killing myself. You don't know what it's like. 

I use to aqua jog 13 miles a day, go mountain climbing, horseback riding... and after 6 miscarriages, I finally had a pregnancy that was almost full term and a chance of finally having a baby.

I was raped November 14, 2013

I was beaten with a metal baseball bat, breaking my spine, hip, and knees November 14, 2013

I was pregnant and the baby died November 14, 2013

the injuries left me unable to have another baby

I was paralyzed for 5 months

I was in a wheelchair and doctors said I would never walk again

I spent 18 months stubbornly teaching myself to walk again

I have severe post traumatic stress disorder caused by having been brutally raped

my internal organs are messed up so bad that surgery can not fix it, I have no control of bodily functions, and have spent most of my life having to wear adult diapers because I have no clue when I have to pee or defecate... to avoid accidents I have to keep a timer on, and use the bathroom every 2 hours when the timer goes off.... something you see every day throughout my daily 12 hour streams

among other things, my hip, knee, and spine was broken with a baseball bat, resulting in I spent 5 month paralyzed and 18 months relearning to walk... and you see me streaming from bed because I have been crippled the rest of my life.... today I am no longer in a wheelchair and can walk for limited distances with a cane, but I will never again run, dance, or mountain climb

The attack happened at quarter past 10PM at the BugLight Lighthouse parking lot beside the art department studio of Southern Maine Community College. I was putting an easel in the back of my car, bent over the back seat, and did not see them come up to the car; they carried a metal baseball bat and a golf club, which they used to beat me in the back with, while I was still leaned into the car.

The attack was done by 3 people, a man and 2 women. The man was bald, around 6'4" and in his 30s, the 2 women were in their 60s and appeared to be the man's mother and aunt; the "mother" had distinctive dyed hair, shoulder length, pageboy cut, of platinum blond and dark brown stripes about 4 inches wide, EXTREMELY 1980s space girl fake hair dye; the other woman had long natural-orange-red curly hair, lime green glasses with a very distinctive narrow "x-men cyclops style" shape, she was screaming "I'm Kendra Silvermander, It's my turn to shine"... the 3 of them drove away together in a 4-door white pick-up truck with a silver tool box across the back and large oversized mountain bike tread tires.

And do you REALLY need to be reminded about the cats... you know, the 10 kidnapped cats whose heads were nailed to my door!

I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. He's one of the 12 Holy Grail Knights of King Arthur's Round Table.

My playing as Avallac'h has nothing to do with sex and I'm tired of you vile jackasses trying to make it out to be.

I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again and I can give him his cats back... something I can't do for myself.

Answer me this:

How can you glorify a rapist?

I'm thinking you are so vile, so perverted, so immoral, so evil... that THAT is why you are so in love with Ciri and have a hard time understanding why I don't join you in making fun of a moral, righteous man while glorifying the vile perversion that is Ciri. You are just plain THAT EVIL, that you can't see past your own debauched, vile life of sin to understand what it is like to be utterly disgusted and abhorred by repulsive evil things like yourself.

GO THINK ON THAT FOR A WHILE.

Shame on you!

How dare you glorify a rapist!

You seem to have forgotten that I am a minister. 

Yeah, that Rev. in front of my name, actually means something.

Yes. I'm a minister. I'm not sure why you forgot that. 

How the hell did you forget that someone who talks about God and Jesus near 24/7 and quotes Bible scripture practically every sentence, while none stop preaching against immorality and sin.... how the hell did you forget that person was a minister?

We talk about the Bible every stream, we removed all nudity from the game, we don't do sex quests, we preach steadily, constantly non-stop on the evils of sex, drinking, drugs, and immorality.

Perhaps you had your heads shoved so far up your own immoral perverted dicks and vaginas that you completely ignored me telling you that or maybe you were deviated enough of an infidel to thought it was a joke. 

I NEVER joke. 

Jokes are lies. 

Lies are sin.

What the fuck is wrong with you?

Do you not know right from wrong on even the most basic of levels?

Jokes are lies. 

Lies are sin.

Didn't your parents teach you ANYTHING!

Good god! What type of immoral jackass bastards raised you?

Heck, I tell you every single stream WHY I hate the slime-ball, gutter scum, rapist shit bitch filth trash that Ciri's slutty rapist whore ass is.

You shouldn't have to ask me 20million times why I hate her.

And... I've said WHY I like Avallac'h and hate Ciri... every single stream in ThingyChan's chat, because there is always someone there asking.

When one member of her chat, a mod a here on my channel, asked them to stop making fun of EelKat, 3 of the people in her chat, lashed out at HIM, and started saying:

"EelKat is not a good contributing part of our community, all she ever talks about is SEX and EROTICA!"

#What the fucking hell?

I have NEVER talked about sex or Erotica in ANYONE'S chat... ThingyChan or otherwise.

#ARE YOU REALLY THAT MUCH OF AN IMMORAL DEGENERATE THAT YOU TRANSLATE EVERYTHING TO BE ABOUT SEX?

#THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN MAKE ANYTHING I SAY BE ABOUT SEX, IF IF YOU YOURSELF WAS A SICK PERVERTED JACKASS, LIKE CIRI, AND SPEND YOUR MIND IN THE GUTTER SO DAMNED MUCH THAT YOU JUST FALSELY ASSUME EVERYONE AROUND YOU IS TALKING ABOUT SEX ONLY BECAUSE YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT SEX AND THEREFORE CAN NOT SEE PAST YOUR OWN LUSTS TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE'S WORDS AT FACE VALUE FOR WHAT THEY ACTUALLY MEAN!!!!

I am so confused and baffled by this accusation.

I'm sorry, but I was raised Mormon and I still am Mormon and we were taught to BE NICE TO PEOPLE.

TREAT PEOPLE WITH RESPECT.

TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY YOU WANT TO BE TREATED.

BE KIND.

BE LOVING.

BE GENTLE.

BE GOOD.

BE NICE.

SHARE JOY.

SPREAD LOVE.

UNITE IN PEACE.

And yet, time and time again, I am baffled, confused, and utterly astounded, by HOW MEAN SPIRITED, SNARKY, AND HATEFUL people become when you are nice to them.

I do not understand why these people turned on me and attacked in such a mean, cruel, vil, hate filled manner, when I've never been nothing but kindness to them.

EVERY ONE OF THEM has at one point or another in the past year needed help with something, and if I knew how to help them, I did, and if I didn't, I took time out of my schedule, to seek out someone who could help them.

And THIS is how they repay kindness and good deeds? By maliciously slandering my name?

Why did they do this?

I do not understand.

I can't even begin to wrap my mind around where they ever saw sex or erotica in ANYTHING I ever said!

I can't understand why they would be so mean, so evil, so hate filled, so vile, that they would stoop to such levels of evil, vile hate filled, meanness and try to attach my name to any connection to sex at all!

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

How could anyone be so hateful as to attach a connection of something as vile and disgusting as sex to someone's name?

Why would they do this?

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#WHEN HAVE I EVER TALKED ABOUT SEX OR EROTICA!?!?

#YOU KNOW... SEX... THAT THING I ABSOLUTELY ABHOR! ... AND EROTICA... THAT THING I FUCKING HATE!

What the hell are they talking about?

#WELL GUESS WHAT... YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANTED, BECAUSE I'M TALKING ABOUT SEX NOW!

#AND I'M TALKING ABOUT HOW FUCKING HORRIFIED I AM BY THE DISCOVERY THAT YOU<<< THOUGHT I WAS TALKING ABOUT SEX EVER!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#I have been in this streamers chat **DAILY** since April 2018... and NOT ONCE HAVE I EVER MENTIONED SEX!

#NOT ONCE!

Then 7 others joined in to agree and ALSO say that THEY TOO didn't want me in this streamer's chat because, hey, THEY TOO claimed ALL my posts in the past year were about sex!!!!! (Note, the streamer herself, told them to calm down.)

Good god!

Not once have I ever posted anything even remotely related to sex in her chat!!! 

What the hell are these people talking about?

How did these people take ANYTHING I have ever said in her chat and assumed it had sexual meaning or was in any way at all connected to sex?

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

I am so confused.

And I can't believe it!

For the past year, these people have been tacking sexual meanings to everything I have ever said, and I never knew it.

Not once did they ever let on any clue that they thought I was talking about sex.

Not once, did it ever occur to me that they thought I was talking about sex.

I can't believe, their minds were so stuck in the gutter, that they thought I was talking about sex.

I am very deeply, saddened and troubled by this.

I can't understand how they mis-interrupted my words so very, very, very badly.

Are they really THAT obsessed with sex, that they took everything I've ever said to have hidden sexual meanings?

How is that even possible?

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

And, seeing how some of you missed it because it was at the end of my answer to a question with a long answer on other things, let me add this here, which gives you more incite...

There is a scene in the novels, where Avallac'h is brutally attached and raped. He escapes his attacker 3 times, running away, but each time gets cornered by taking a wrong turn in the stone-walled garden where this event occurs. When he is tackled a 4th time, his attacker, breaks both of his legs to prevent him from escaping again. He is violently raped a 4th time, then a sword is driven into his hip, through his testicles, into his other leg, and out his thigh. He never recovers from this injury, and is crippled the rest of his life, never again walking, only able to crawl on his belly, becomes mute from shock, so never speaks again either, and spends the rest of his life camped out on the edge of a lake, because the ice water is the only thing that eases the pain in his legs. 

I suffer from severe post traumatic stress disorder caused by having been brutally raped, left unable to have children, and spent 5 month paralyzed and 18 months relearning to walk.

Yes.

I identified, empathize, and sympathized with Avallac'h because:

* I was raised in a child prostitution ring and was raped daily, multiple times since I was 8 years old, until I escaped from my captures when I was 31 years old

* meaning I KNOW EXACTLY what it is like to be raised as breeder, seen as worthless and useless beyond how much money being raped by Mormon priests makes for my uncles

* I had 7 miscarriages and therefor know EXACTLY what it is like to want nothing more then to have a baby, and be horrified to discover that there exist millions of jackass bastards who murder babies that they could be giving to someone to actually wanted them

* I have severe post traumatic stress disorder caused by having been brutally raped, my internal organs are messed up so bad that surgery can not fix it, I have no control of bodily functions, and have spent most of my life having to wear adult diapers because I have no clue when I have to pee or defecate... to avoid accidents I have to keep a timer on, and use the bathroom every 2 hours when the timer goes off.... something you see every day throughout my daily 12 hour streams

* among other things, my hip, knee, and spine was broken with a baseball bat, resulting in I spent 5 month paralyzed and 18 months relearning to walk... and you see me streaming from bed because I have been crippled the rest of my life.... today I am no longer in a wheelchair and can walk for limited distances with a cane, but I will never again run, dance, or mountain climb

* also, I am asexual. 

* I am continually baffled by society's' constant obsession with sex; 

* I fail to understand why someone would WANT to have sex

* I find the thought of sex repulsive

* I see the onslaught of perverted, lewd, dick joking, boob obsessing posts that flood Twitch's chat to be horrifying... and I am utterly disgusted with just about 99% of what I see posted in most streamers' chats

* I am reviled by the fact that Twitch chat is nothing but a den of sex crazed perverts incapable of intellectual conversation

* heck, I'm the author of 130+ novels, not one of which is Erotica, all of which  focus heavily on showing rape from the victims horror filled point of view, and ultimately shows the rape victim murder their rapists... 

* and yet, readers constatly call me an Erotica author, constantly bill my work as "the best rape fantasy erotica ever written" (I've one several awards saying that and refused to accept any of them)...

* I remain baffled and confused as to why society glorifies sex to such an extent, that they can view the act of rape as Erotica

* I HATE that people call me an Erotica author and list my work as Rape Fantasy Erotica

#meaning I KNOW EXACTLY what it is like to be horrible maimed, crippled by a violent rapist, and never again be able to live a normal life... while also  being an asexual person, baffled by the sex crazed society I live in

#I understand Avallac'h

And so to see a character, like Avallac'h who devotes his life to killing rapists and abortion bitches, and rescues babies... a man whose life was destroyed by bastards murdering his wife, bastards rapiing and crippling him... you look at the hell I've been through and you ask why I like him?

I empathize with Avallac'h on levels you can't even begin to image.

I sympathize with Avallac'h, because I know EXACTLY what he went through and what drove him to become what he became.

>>>>

I am constantly asked by streamers and varios chatters why I so rarely post in anyone's chat...

Why?

#BECAUSE I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING I SAY AND DO BEING TRANSLATED AS SOME FORM OF SEXUAL INNUENDO!!!!!!!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#JUST BECAUSE YOU PEOPLE ARE PERVS AND HAVE TO RE-TRANSLATE EVERYTHING EVERYONE SAYS INTO SOMETHING TO DO WITH SEX DOESN'T MEAN THE PERSON WHO SAID IT WAS THINKING IN TERMS OF SEX WHEN THEY SAID IT!!!!!!!!!!!

#GOOD GOD!!!!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#Every time I do or say anything in my streams, there is always someone in chat to translate a sexual meaning to what I said or did!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#Every time I say anything in some one's chat there is always someone in chat or even the streamer themselves, to translate a sexual meaning to what I said!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU STUPID, PERVERTED, LEWD, SEX CRAZED IMBECILE, IDIOTS!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#WHY DO YOU FUCKING RETARDS TRANSLATE EVERYTHING TO BE ABOUT SEX?

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#I FEEL LIKE I'M SURROUNDED BY FUCKING RETARDS WHO CAN'T GET THEIR MINDS OUT OF THEIR OWN DICKS AND VAGINAS LONG ENOUGH TO USE THEIR DAMNED RETARDED BRAINS!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE ABOUT SEX WITH YOU PEOPLE?!?!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#Judge not, lest ye be judged by the same measuring rod, with which ye have judged.

#You think to judge me by YOUR measure of sexual perversion?

#Perhaps you should look in the mirror and judge yourself... for it is YOU, not me, who saw sex in my words.

#Spit on your own lusts and perversions, for it is you and your own rod of judgment that saw sexual perversion where there was none, meaning it is YOU YOURSELF who is the sexually perverted one.

I hate that I can't talk to ANYONE, ever, at all, anywhere, without the person I'm talking to, twisting my words around and mis-translating everything I say to have so hidden sexual meaning.

It is very frustrating.

Do you realize, I can't even talk about editing Avallac'h's 3D model with other 3D graphics artists here on Twitch, because every time I ask for help with the editing, I get some snarky answer about sex shot back at me?

No... really...

...because Avallac'h is shorter, skinnier, and over all just so much smaller than Geralt, this also means that most every piece of armor, pants, boots, and gloves in the game does not fit him and can not be used.

Every time I want to use a armor piece from Geralt's collection, I have to open up the 3D model in blender and physically change the size of it to fit the size of Avallac'h's body.

Geralt has the thick neck, wide chest, and broad shoulders, in addition to being taller then Avallac'h... all of these aspects of the armor must be changed in order to make the armor fit on Avallac'h.

While I have changed the sizes of the robe-like pieces (Ursine chest armor, Oathbreaker chest armor, and Redanian Halberdier chest armor) so that Avallac'h can wear them, most of the armor in the game remains unusable for the Avallac'h playthrough, just because it is so time consuming to change so many 3D models.

Interestingly, while Avallac'h is overall smaller then Geralt and most pieces, are laughably too big to fit him.... the gloves and boots have the opposite problem.

As it turns out, Avallac'h's hands and feet are disporpotionaly big for his, otherwise very small, thin body, and are quite a bit larger then Geralt's hands and feet.

Meaning that while chest and pants pieces are too big for Avallac'h to wear... gloves and boots are too small for Avallac'h to wear, with his fingers and toes clipping through the ends of the gloves and boots.

In order to make the gloves and boots wearable, I had to increase the size of the boots and gloves to make them fit Avallac'h. However, only a few pieces are changed, and most do not fit him and can not be used.

....

Well, at the time I started editing Geralt's cloths to fit on Avallac'h's 3D model, I had never done ANY 3D edited EVER, not once in my entire life!

I knew absolutely nothing about 3D editing or how to go about making Geralt's armor resized to fit on Avallac'h so I could use it in the game.

Most of the Twitch streamers I watch are 3D graphics artists, JUST BECAUSE I wanted to learn how to edit the 3D models in the game.

When I was trying to edit Geralt's boots to make them fit on Avallac'h, I asked a 3D artists, during one of her streams, how to do such a thing, as it was the type of work she was currently doing in her stream.

When I explained I needed to change the size of Geralt's boots to fit on Avallac'h because Avallac'h's feet were bigger then Geralt's, rather then answer my question how to change the size of the 3D model, she she spouted off a ton of lewd, perverted sex tak, started accusing me of being into foot fetishes, and then instigated her entire chat, to make lewd sex jokes about "foot porn".

The entire next 3 hours of her stream was devoted to talk about PornHub, Erotica, and making fun of me about Avallac'h... her chat... a group of around 30 people that day, joined in, and spent the rest of the stream spewing sex jokes at me and Avallac'h.

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

:(

I never did get an answer to my question of how to change the sizes of the 3D models of Geralt's boots to make it so Avallac'h could wear them in the game and went to YouTube in search of how to videos there instead, so I wouldn't have to deal with any more harassment from streamers and their chats in live streams.

And YES.... that 3D streamer is the SAME ONE, who had the rape supporting Avallac'h rant mentioned above.

And you want to know how BAD the rape supporting rant got?

While twisting everything else that had nothing to do with sex to have sexual meanings... she also went off on a rant about Uma.

In the game, while at Crow's Perch, there is a Pulp Fiction Easter Egg... it is one of the single most vile, horrible, debauched, immoral, references to degradation in the entire game. The Gimp.

If you do enough exploring of the Bloody Baron's house at Crow's perch, you will find out from The Sergeant and his men, that they are sexually abusing, sexually torturing, and RAPING Uma, whom they refer to as "The Gimp" and include the line "bring out the Gimp"... 

Geralt overhears this scene, and thinks nothing of it at first, until later, after the quest Nameless, when he believes Ciri is Uma, and returns to Crow's Perch, and has a meltdown on the Baron's Men, threatening to shove things up their asses if they don't hand over Uma. Uma is later discovered to be Avallac'h.

This streamer, and 7 different members of her chat, took that scene of Uma sexually abused, sexually tortured, and raped.... and thought it would be fun, to turn it into some kind of sick, twisted, lewd, perverted erotica.

RAPE.

Uma was being RAPED while at Crow's Perch.... and these people thought it was FUNNY.

They also thought it was FUNNY, to then use that to make fun of me, accusing me of thinking such vile acts of debauchery were erotic.

You've seen how we play The Avallac'h Playthrough... the fact that we SLAUGHTER EVERY LAST BASTARD AT CROW'S PERCH every time we get near that place.

#RAPIST FILTH! 

#IF THERE WAS A WAY TO BURN THAT TOWN TO THE GROUND IN GAME, I WOULD!

It's bad enough that this streamer made of rape to begin with, but she had the gaul to incite her damned chat into it with her!

When one member of her chat, a mod a here on my channel, asked her to stop making fun of EelKat, 3 of the people in her chat, lashed out at HIM, and started saying:

"EelKat is not a good contributing art of our community, all she ever talks about is EROTICA!"

#What the fucking hell?

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#WHEN HAVE I EVER TALKED ABOUT SEX OR EROTICA!

#YOU KNOW... SEX... THAT THING I ABSOLUTELY ABHOR! ... AND EROTICA... THAT THING I FUCKING HATE!

What the hell are they talking about?

#WELL GUESS WHAT... YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANTED, BECAUSE I'M TALKING ABOUT SEX NOW!

#AND I'M TALKING ABOUT HOW FUCKING HORRIFIED I AM BY THE DISCOVERY THAT YOU<<< THOUGHT I WAS TALKING ABOUT SEX EVER!

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#Judge not, lest ye be judged by the same measuring rod, with which ye have judged.

#You think to judge me by YOUR measure of sexual perversion?

#Perhaps you should look in the mirror and judge yourself... for it is YOU, not me, who saw sex in my words.

#Spit on your own lusts and perversions, for it is you and your own rod of judgment that saw sexual perversion where there was none, meaning it is YOU YOURSELF who is the sexually perverted one.

#I have been in this streamers chat **DAILY** since April 2018... and NOT ONCE HAVE I EVER MENTIONED SEX!

#NOT ONCE!

Then 7 others joined in to agree and ALSO say that THEY TOO didn't want me in this streamer's chat because, hey, THEY TOO claimed ALL my posts in the past year were about sex!!!!! (Note, the streamer herself, told them to calm down.)

Good god!

Not once have I ever posted anything even remotely related to sex in her chat!!! 

What the hell are these people talking about?

How did these people take ANYTHING I have ever said in her chat and assumed it had sexual meaning or was in any way at all connected to sex?

I am so confused.

And I can't believe it!

For the past year, these people have been tacking sexual meanings to everything I have ever said, and I never knew it.

Not once did they ever let on any clue that they thought I was talking about sex.

Not once, did it ever occur to me that they thought I was talking about sex.

I can't believe, their minds were so stuck in the gutter, that they thought I was talking about sex.

I am very deeply, saddened and troubled by this.

How did these people take my words so far out of context?

Are their brains that far corrupted, that low in Satan's gutter scum filth of Hell that they simply are no longer able to see ANY word at face value and can ONLY see a sexual meaning for EVERYTHING?

Have they NEVER ONCE paid attention to ANYTHING I said and ONLY ever twisted my words into a totally out of context corruption so far that they never saw ANY of my words for their ACTUAL dictionary definition meanings?

Did they NEVER even notice that 90% of my sentences (booth in my own streams and in her chat)  include the words Bible, Jesus, God, and archangels?

Did they COMPLETELY IGNORE ME when I told them I was an ordained minister?

How did these people take my words so far out of context, to the point that they saw THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE meanings of EVERYTHING I have ever said?

Did every time I said I liked Avallac'h because he was asexual and shunned sex, they they mentally edit my words to make them say "I like Avallac'h because he is sexual and loves sex?"

WHAT THE HELL?

How did they take my liking a decent, moral, holy, righteous, virtuous man, who strives to live a decent, moral, holy, righteous, virtuous, a man who is asexual, a virgin, celibate, and completely SHUNS SEX.... 

...and translate that into him being a BDSM fetish freak with dungeons and torture chambers, and say that I liked that kind of perversion?

What the hell?

#^^^^THAT IS WHAT THEY SAID^^^^^

While they were raving and ranting, they started listing things off, and ^^^THAT^^^ was one of the things the STREAMER HERSELF listed off!

As my viewers know, I'm in the process of making 2 mods: one to change Geralt's boots, so that they can fit on Avallac'h (the one I asked the streamer for advice on how to do this) and the other to make it so Avallac'h and/or Ciri could carry a baby with them while we are doing the open world exploring.

The streamer, went into a wild, 2 hour long rant about the sexualization of feet, foot fetishes, and falsely accusing me of seeing Avallac'h in some sort of a BDSM Dungeon Master with a foot fetish (the term she used)... and then lashed out on babies, going into a rant on how horrible a thing it would be for me to give a baby to a monster who tortured Ciri in his dungeons... WHAT THE HELL?

Avallac'h has no dungeons, no torture devices, never once hurt Ciri... and HIS ENTIRE STORY in the novels centered FULLT 100% on his wanting a baby because his wife died when she was 8 months pregnant!!!

Where in the hell did she get the sex stuff, fetish stuff, BDSM stuff, dungeon stuff, and torture stuff from, I don't know. 

But get this...

She ended the rant by saying: 

#"I agree with what you said, EelKat, Avallac'h and Ciri go good together. They are both such horrible people. They deserve each other. No reason to let hurt other people. Just let them hurt each other. He won't hurt any one else in those dungeons as long as he's got Ciri locked up in them."

Wait a minute... WHAT?

#WHEN DID I EVER SAY ^^^^THAT^^^?!?!?!?

What is she talking about?

Yes. I DID say Ciri and avallac'h went good together... but she COMPLETELY IGNORED THE REST OF WHAT I SAID... you know WHY they went good together!

#Here... let me repost EXACTLY WHAT I SAID IN HER CHAT... BECAUSE, I TYPE EVERYTHING IN A WORD PROCESSOR BEFORE I POST IT IN ANYONE'S CHAT... SO I HAVE A COPY OF MY EXACT WORDS.... HERE THEY ARE:

>>>>>>>No, actually, Avallac'h and Ciri go good together. He is as good and kind as she is degenerated, mean, and evil. He's a loving as she is hateful. He helps others as much as she hurts others. He is as gentle as she is brutal. He is a patient as she is impetuous. He's a virtuous as she is perverted. He's willing to put up with the constant beatings and abuse to try to teach her to not be barbaric and savage. He's willing to love her, when no one else could, would, or even should. She beat him, nearly killed him, destroyed everything that belonged to his dead wife Lara, raped him, crippled him, destroyed his life, caused him to be cast out from his people... he lost his family, his lands, his titles, his kingdoms... all to protect her from people who wanted her dead, and she repaid his endless kindness, love, gentleness, protection, and patience by being the evilest, meanest, most brutal, violent piece of shit she could be to him, and he didn't care, he still loved her anyways. 

>>>>>>>He's trying against all odds to make her become a good person, and he has the patience to go ahead and try and turn a vile, evil, piece of shit into something decent and moral. Maybe if he holds out long enough, and she doesn't beat him to death first, he'll succeed in making a good person out of her. They go good together. They are so opposite. >>>>>>>Eredin got it right: Avallac'h's gold nugget plucked from a dung heap. Ciri's certainly a big dung heap, but Avallac'h sees a gold nugget in her somewhere. I don't know where. I certainly can't see it. But if anyone can polish that turd Ciri into something good, it'd be Avallac'h, he loves her enough to try.

>>>>>>>Avallac'h was depressed and suicidal, he spent 200 years trying to kill himself after Lara died. Having Ciri was good for him, gave him a reason to want to live again. As horrible as she treats him, she got him to leave Lara's grave, they are good for each other. Ciri is far less evil, brutal, and psychotic with Avallac'h. He calms her, she's happy with him. When she's with Avallac'h is the only time we ever see Ciri smile or laugh. They are both sad and broken, hurt by so many bad things. He's only ever happy with Ciri, she's only ever happy with Avallac'h. They need each other to heal each other.

#She twisted ^^^THAT into THIS vvv???

#"I agree with what you said, EelKat, Avallac'h and Ciri go good together. They are both such horrible people. They deserve each other. No reason to let hurt other people. Just let them hurt each other. He won't hurt any one else in those dungeons as long as he's got Ciri locked up in them."

After a 2 hour long rant on how he was a dungeon master who tortured Ciri and deserved to be raped as Uma in Crow's Perch?

What the fuck?

Don't twist my words! I don't like it!

And yes, I have the whole damned thing recorded, because I NEVER post in anyone's chat if the screen capture isn't turned on... I've been doing that since Kendra Silvermander pulled her KBoards Forum stunt in 2013 WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL and she hacked my account and posted from it WHILE PRETENDING TO BE ME!!!

I can prove EVERY WORD she said, every word I said, every word Zutrix said, every word Niv said.... EVERY DAMNED WORD of every stream ALL THE WAY BACK TO APRIL 2018!!

I have recorded footage copies of EVERY POST I HAVE EVER MADE IN ANYONE'S CHAT ON TWITCH! I can start uploading screenshots of EVERY DAMNED POST I'VE MADE IN HER CHAT FOR PAST 2 DAMNED YEARS!

Don't you dare falsely accuse me of posting sexual things online... because you ain't the first person to have done it, that's why I record every word I type EVERYWHERE now.... I don't like my words being taken out of context and twisted to mean things I never intended them to mean.

You think your chat words VANISH after a stream is gone? Not if I was in chat they don't... I record my chat postings, and that means the chat posts I was responding to are recorded too!

Connecting me to sex!

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

Connecting my trying make it possible for Avallac'h to wear Geralt's shoes in the game to some sick perverted foot fetish!

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

Connecting Avallac'h to dungeons, BDSM, and torture chambers!

What the hell?

What was this, some hyper sex crazed PMS rant?

Good god!

And how does ANYONE connect Avallac'h to dungeons, BDSM, and torture chambers!

OH! MY! GOD!

Wow!

If a person can take a Sainted Holy Grail Knight of The Round Table, the one said to be the Most Righteous of All, and imagine that he's a dungeon master with a torture chamber.... when all he ever does is ride his horse around the lake and fish off of his rowboat in the lake.... it's NO WONDER that same person can take my posts and imagine they have anything to do with sex!

How?

Tell me how?

How do you take an asexual 5th generation Mormon and come to the conclusion, everything she says MUST be about sex, when NOTHING she says is EVER about sex?

SEX!

Can you believe it?

Freaking SEX!

The single, most vile, horrible thing on the entire planet!

SEX!

The most horrible thing a person could do!

SEX!

The evilest of all evil acts out there!

SEX!

The thing that no decent, moral person would have ever have anything to do with!

SEX!

They are accusing me of posting sex talk in her chat!

WHAT THE FUCK!

SEX!

The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying!

SEX!

The single most worse act of sin you could ever attach to a person's name!

I thought these people were my friends!

And now they do THIS? SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone?

What the hell!

How do you take an asexual virgin, who only wants to fish off his boat all day, and come to the conclusion, he's a dungeon master with torture devices, when all he freaking does is fish off his boat, 24 hours a day, for 2,000 damned years?

What the fuck?

Have these people got do dignity at all?

Have these people never set foot in church?

Are they really THAT immoral, that they wouldn't know morals if they got smacked in the face by them?

What the fuck?

#SHE CLAIMS SHE READ THE NOVELS.... WELL DAMN! She certainly proved she most certainly DID NOT read the novels with THAT outburst!

What the fuck?

#How the hell do you take a moral decent man, a SAINTED HOLY GRAIL KNIGHT of THE ROUND TABLE... THE MOST RIGHTEOUS OF THE GRAIL KNIGHTS!!!! ... and translate him into the deviated sex degenerate she was describing????????

And she had half her chat SAYING THE SAME THING!!!!! Clearly NOT ONE OF THEM has a fricking clue who or what Avallac'h is or why I like him, or they COULD NOT have connected sex, lewdness perversion, BDSM, and fetishes to me or him!!!

#GOOD GOD! What is wrong with these people?

I am so very confused.

Who the hell is she talking about?

Yeah, there was a character who put Ciri in a Dungeon and tortured her... several did in fact: Phillipa, Shelea, Crach an Craite, Vesemir, Geralt, but the worst 2 to do so was Leo and Vilgizforzt.

Avallac'h had no dungeons!

Avallac'h never tortured Ciri!

What is she talking about?

I am just so confused.

>>>She included on her list, among other things "his" dungeons, "his" torture devices, "his" having tortured Ciri, "his" abusing Ciri, his drug problem, "his" BDSM sex fetish, "his" habit of eating Humans, "his" drinking beer... if you know Avallac'h you are probably scratching your head wondering what she is talking about as much as I am.

#What the hell are you reading? [CLEARLY NOT THIS!](https://amzn.to/2BXyVH5)

#his dungeons?

* Avallac'h has no dungeons

Why are you calling him a dungeon master and saying he keeps Humans, including Ciri, in a dungeon?

#his torture devices

* Avallac'h has no torture devices

Why are you saying he has torture devices?

#his having tortured Ciri

* Avallac'h never tortured Ciri

Avallac'h rescued Ciri from 2 men who were torturing her horrifically; took her back to his home, treated her wounds, nursed her back to health, and tenderly took care of her for the next 8 years. 

Avallac'h was extremely gentle, kind, and loving with Ciri.

When she was healed of her injuries, he took her on daily horseback rides around the lake; daily fishing trips on his boat in the lake, and spent hours each day picking flowers, writing poetry, signing, and playing his flute, while Ciri played in the apple trees in the orchards around the lake.

At night, Ciri and Avallac'h slept on his fox fur cloak, beside a campfire on the beach on the edge of the lake. Ciri stated she felt safe sleeping with Avallac'h stating that she knew he'd never force himself on her and would always protect her from harm.

Ciri called Avallac'h her best friend, her only true friend, the only person she could trust, and the only her who was ever good to her.

Why are you saying Avallac'h tortured Ciri?

#his abusing Ciri

* Avallac'h never abused Ciri

See what I just said for the last one.

Why are you saying Avallac'h abused Ciri?

#his drug problem

* Unlike Ciri who is a major crackhead and takes drugs for the fun of it, Avallac'h is crippled, every step he talks is agonizing pain, and he takes fisstech as a pain reliever medication, not as a recreational drug

#his BDSM sex fetish

* Avallac'h doesn't have a BDSM sex fetish; he's 2,000 year old asexual virgin who is scared of sex.

Half the reason Ciri stated that she felt safe sleeping with Avallac'h, was the fact that he was asexual and had absolutely no interest in sex at all. Ciri fell asleep each night in his arms, while he hugged her and sang his whale songs to her. There is no other male Ciri ever let get this close to her, because Ciri was terrified of being raped. She knew she had no need to fear such things from Avallac'h.

Why are you calling Avallac'h a BDSM sex fetish freak?

#his habit of eating Humans

* Avallac'h is a vegan, a Human Rights activist, and he rescues Human babies 

If you read the novels far enough to find out there were Elves eating Humans, then you also read that avallac'h WAS NOT eating Humans, because both things are said on the very same page!

Why are you saying Avallac'h eats Humans?

#his drinking beer

* Avallac'h is an extremely Orthodox Jew and abstains from any and all immoral acts, including the drinking of wine, beer, and other alcohols.

Avallac'h goes so far as to not let others drink alcohol and turns all wine, beer, ect into bubble solution.

#WHAT THE FLYING FUCK IS SHE EVEN TALKING ABOUT?

I don't know who the hell you think Avallac'h is, or what you read, but Avallac'h appears:

* [in chapter 7 here](https://amzn.to/2PAyHxz)

and

* [in chapter 5 here](https://amzn.to/2BXyVH5)

And all of this was started, after a rant about the baby (the fact that I am making a mod that let's Ciri and/or Avallac'h carry a baby in the game), which was a long slew of sarcastic remarks about *"oh, gonna have a happy family, what's he gonna do, eat the baby? Why would Avallac'h want a baby? He doesn't have anything to do with babies..."*.

Avallac'h doesn't have anything to do with babies?

#REALLY?

#NOW I KNOW SHE IS LYING AND DID NOT READ THE NOVELS!!!!

#100% of every single scene with Avallac'h, all 32 pages he appears on, are him steadily, non-stop, talking about his desire to have a baby with Ciri, because Ciri looks like his dead wife Lara who was 8 months pregnant when she died.... ALL AVALLAC'H WANTS IS FOR CIRI TO BE LARA AND HAVE HIS BABY.... so he can go back to the family life he had with his wife and baby, before his wife was brutally murdered.

She said she forgot about the baby and always think of Avallac'h as a dungeon master with dungeons and torture devices. 

 Uhm... what is she talking about?

Why would she think of Avallac'h as a sex crazed dungeon master?

Good god! I thought she said she read the novels?

#BUT DAMN!

#What the hell?

#What, was she drunk? What the fuck is she even talking about?

And what was Zutrix and Niv talking about?

Good god!

The two of them were laying it on the worst of all! They were the 2 in chat, working the rest of chat into  frigging frenzy, by chanting *"EelKat is vile, all she does is sex*" and *"EelKat is not a good part of the community, everything she does in nothing but Ereotica"* and *"Every post EelKat has ever made was only ever about sex"* .... WHAT THE HELL?

I don't understand any of this.

What the hell happened?

I've been in ThingyChan's chat every stream she's done since April 2018, except for those couple of weeks my dad was in the hospital with a ruptured kidney back in February 2019 tp March 2019.... and NEVER ONCE have I posted about sex!

There have been a couple of times the streamer herself asked me about sex and answered her... she wanted to know if there was a mod for Witcher 3 that let's characters have real genitals, and there is, so I gave her the link for it, BECAUSE SHE ASKED ME TO FIND THAT MOD FOR HER!

Then another time she asked if there was a mod that made the characters in Minecraft nude and made sex possible in MineCraft and I told her I know nothing about MineCraft , it's not a game I have ever played, and I thought it was a kids game, couldn't imagine their would be a mod like what she was looking for, one to make everyone nude and make sex be a thing. Damn. It's fucking Minecraft for crying out loud! Digital Lego blocks! How in the heck could you make nude Lego blocks and have Lego blocks having sex? God! The perverted stuff she asked for. She pestered me for several days, whining that she NEEEEEEEEEEEEDED sex in her MineCraft and didn't know any other modders. Again I said I know nothing about MineCraft, but I'd ask on Nexus if anyone know if the sex and nudity mod she wanted for Minecraft was out there. And I returned to her channel about an hour later, gave her the reply that I got from Nexus members, which stated yes there was a mod like she was looking for that added nudity to MineCraft and made sex possible in MineCraft but it wasn't on Nexus and she's have to contact one of the modders herself and he's email her the download link.

Another time she wanted to know what was the banned/censored scene from the Witcher novels, that isn't in the American editions and asked me to post it in your discord. I told her it was a very sexually related scene and I was no comfortable posting anything related to sex anywhere and she said, "I want to read it, I have a NSFW section in my discord because we are all pervs there. Post it there" So I did.

Another time a member of her chat was on some dating site and wanted to know what a "Switch" was because the person he was messaging was a Switch... the streamer tells him: "Ask EelKat, she should know"... and I was baffled then, why anyone would think to ask me for advise on sex, when I am asexual... that's like going to the town drunk to ask him to do brain surgery on you...  well, all my years of protesting perverted, immoral, degenerates I did know what a Switch was, a gay man who switches between top and bottom during sex... meaning the "girl" he was messaging, wasn't a female, so I said exactly that.... EXACTLY ^^^THAT^^^

"In all my years of protesting perverted, immoral, degenerates I do know what a Switch is, a gay man who switches between top and bottom during sex... meaning the "girl" he's messaging, isn't a female"

Uhm....

Did they all completely SKIP the part that said:

#In all my years of protesting perverted, immoral, degenerates...

???

And the whole reason they thought to ask me about sex stuff, they said was because I was one of the founding members of OKCupid!

And one of them was all "But you are one of the founders of OKCupid!"... Yes. I was. And if you know that, you also know that OKCupid was a quiz taking site, where you made quizzes for your friends to take and post on MySpace. 

When MySpace fell in 2005, people stopped using OKCupid's quiz making app and OKCupid all but disappeared. It's owner abandoned it, trolls took over it and started posting porn quizzes. 

I left the site in 2005 when the porn posts got out of control and there were no mods besides me to deal with it. Around 2010 the owner went back to the site, realized it had devolved into a gutter scum sex hive and decided to capitalize on it by turning the site into a dating site. The site people know today as OKCupid is NOT EVEN CLOSE to the site I helped build back in 2001 and I want no part of its current form. 

My name has not been connected with OKCupid since 2005, I even asked the owner to remove all references to me from the site because I do not want my name connected to the piece of shit hive of degradation that OKCupid is today. 

In 2001, OKCupid was a child safe, kid friendly site for teens to make quizzes and have their friends take and post on MySpace... today OKCupid is a den of scum that no parent in their right mind would let a child near.

Those are the ONLY posts I ever made over there even remotely close to referencing sex, and EACH OF THOSE POSTS WAS THE STREAMER DIRECTLY ASKING ME BY NAME TO POST THEM!!!!

And now, with what just happened... looking back at those posts... it appears this streamer just asked me those questions ON PURPOSE, DELIBERATELY TRYING to get me to post "about sex" in her chat.

:(

And that is very sad. And I don't understand why would she do that?

Badger baiting.

That is such a mean and hateful practice.

How in the heck did they find anything sexual in relation to me or Avallac'h or the mods I am making?

#DAMN! I DON"T EVEN DO THE SEX QUESTS IN THIS GAME!

#I'M ON MY 11TH PLAYTHROUGH, AND WE ONLY DID THE SEX QUESTS IN ONE PLAYTHROUGH, JUST SO WE COULD MARK IT OFF A COMPLETIONIST!!!

#I EVEN MADE A MOD TO REMOVE 100% OF ALL NUDITY IN THE GAME, AND PUT MORAL, DECENT CLOTHES ON THE SLUTS! I MADE THAT OVER A YEAR AGO, AND THERE'S EVEN A YEAR OLD PANEL HERE ON MY PROFILE THAT RANTS ON HOW MUCH I HATE THE PERVERSION IN THE GAME AND WHY I MADE A MOD TO REMOVE IT!!!

I can't understand how they mis-interrupted my words so very, very, very badly.

Are they really THAT obsessed with sex, that they took everything I've ever said to have hidden sexual meanings?

How is that even possible?

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#Judge not, lest ye be judged by the same measuring rod, with which ye have judged.

#You think to judge me by YOUR measure of sexual perversion?

#Perhaps you should look in the mirror and judge yourself... for it is YOU, not me, who saw sex in my words.

#Spit on your own lusts and perversions, for it is you and your own rod of judgment that saw sexual perversion where there was none, meaning it is YOU YOURSELF who is the sexually perverted one.

Like I said, I was lurking, so they didn't even know I was there and seeing any of this... though I do I have it all recorded. My computer was video recording this whole thing, long before they found out i was there.

And I post in the chat to ask what are they talking about, because I've only ever talked about the mods I make for Witcher 3...

And they start saying, no, all I've ever talked about was sex and nothing else!!!!!!!!

What the hell?

I am so confused.

THEY talk about sex CONSTANTLY, and every time they do, I just leave the chat, as I do with EVERY streamers' chat once they start talking about sex.

It's why I lurk so much and post so rarely.

I want absolutely nothing to do with any conversation that involves sex,  that's why I always leave chats' when the topic of sex comes up.

Which is why I'm so stunned that they were able to take ANYTHING I have ever said to have a sexual meaning!

I very simply do not like being around lewd, perverted people. 

I walk away from conversations about sex.

How the hell did they come to the conclusion I ever even mentioned sex at all, is beyond me.

When someone starts talking about sex, I want absolutely nothing to do with them or their conversation, that's why I leave.

Well, it turns out, that every day for over a year now, these people, the streamer and her chat of around 30 regulars, have been under the assumption that I was speaking in sexual innuendos!!!!

What the flying fuck?

How the hell did they get that assumption?

I can't figure it out.

I can't believe it! 

I've been talking with this group of people for over a year now, and I never once realized that they thought EVERYTHING I ever said was somehow referencing sex!!!!! 

Good god!

I had no idea.

I have Autism. Not Aspergers. Actual Autism aka Kanner's Syndrome.

I speak VERY LITERALLY.

I say EXACTLY what I mean.

#I do not use slang, hidden meanings, or sexual innuendos. I don't even know how to!!!

And now I'm finding out that every day for over a year now, every word I have said to these people, they have been attaching slang, hidden meanings, and sexual innuendos to, and I never knew it!

#THEY HAD THE GAUL, TO ATTACH SEXUAL MEANINGS TO THINGS I WAS SAYING... ME... EELKAT... KNOWN FOR MY 4 DECADE LONG REVULSION OF AND HATRED FOR ALL THINGS RELATED TO SEX!!!

#THESE PEOPLE WERE ATTACHING MY NAME TO SEX!

#MY NAME!

#USED ALONGSIDE TALK OF SEX!

#Yeah... ^^^THAT^^^ is how bad it is... ^^THAT^^ is how BAD this streamer and her chat TWISTED MY WORDS!!!!!

#Because THEY were lewd and perverted and stuck sexual meanings to everything, they automatically assumed I was just as lewd and pervert as they were, and incorrectly ASSUMED that because everything reminded THEM of sex, that therefore I must have been talking about sex, even though I wasn't!

#WHAT THE HELL?

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

#Why do these people think that just because THEY think of everything in terms of sex, that I MUST have been talking about sex, no matter what I was saying?

I had no clue.

I am so stunned and baffled.

#How the hell did these people twist my words around SO BADLY!?!?!

I can't understand it.

I simply can not understand it.

I don't even know where to begin, to even try to understand it.

I'm asexual. I never see a sexual meaning to anything.

#If they hadn't specifically pointed out that they thought I talked about sex all the time, not stop, I never would have known that they were sexuallizing my words at all!

I am deeply saddened by this, because I had thought, at long last, I had found a group of people I could talk to.

Do you have any idea how hard it is to find people who don't talk about sex?

And here I find out, yeah, they were talking about se all along, they were just doing it in cryptic hidden meanings and slang, that I do not understand.

:(

I thought I had finally found some friends.

I've had no one to talk to since 2013. No friends I had before being crippled are still around. They moved on. I'm crippled. I can't get out of bed. People I knew for decades, just abandoned me, forgot about me. left me behind.

These people on ThingyChan's chat, they're the first people I've had to talk to since November 14, 20013.

And now they do this?

And I don't understand why?

I don't know what set them off.

SEX! The most vile, evil, malicious, hate filled thing you could ever do or say to someone? SEX! The evilest, vilest, most satanic, horrible thing you could ever accuse a person of doing or saying! I thought these people were my friends! How could they do something, so vile, so evil, so hate filled, as to conect my name to the worst, most evil sin of them all? SEX!

#HOW?

#AND WHY?

They knew... 

They knew...

I told them...

This is someone who:

* knows I was raped

* knows that I was beaten with a metal baseball bat, breaking my spine, hip, and knees

* knows I was pregnant and the baby died

* knows that the injuries left me unable to have another baby

* knows I was paralyzed for 5 months

* knows I was in a wheelchair and doctors said I would never walk again

* knows that I spent 18 months stubbornly teaching myself to walk again

* knows that today, 6 years later I still struggle to use my legs, can only walk a few feet, and rely heavily on a cane even for that

* knows that I am still crippled and stream on Twitch because playing video games is one of the few things I'm able to do from bed, because my spine, hip, and knees are messed up so bad I'm stuck in bed nearly 24 hours a day for the past 6 years

#I WAS 8 YEARS OLD WHEN I DECLARED I WAS SO SICK AND TIRED OF SEX, THAT I NEVER WANTED TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT AGAIN!!!

#DID YOU SEX CRAZED BASTARDS FUCKING FORGET THAT I WAS BORN INTO A DAMNED CHILD PROSTITUTION RING... AND I WAS RAPED MORE THAN 500 TIMES BEFORE I WAS EVEN 10 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!!

Good god!

>>>YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

Are you really so retarded that you don't know that?

Let me repeat that:

#YOU<<< thinking about sex when I talk, is YOU thinking about sex, NOT me talking about sex!

#JUST BECAUSE YOU<<<<<< TURN EVERYTHING INTO BEING ABOUT SEX, DOESN'T MEAN I DO!

#YOU SICK BASTARDS! 

#HOW DARE YOU TWIST MY WORDS LIKE THIS!

#Judge not, lest ye be judged by the same measuring rod, with which ye have judged.

#You think to judge me by YOUR measure of sexual perversion?

#Perhaps you should look in the mirror and judge yourself... for it is YOU, not me, who saw sex in my words.

#Spit on your own lusts and perversions, for it is you and your own rod of judgment that saw sexual perversion where there was none, meaning it is YOU YOURSELF who is the sexually perverted one.

#AND MOST OF ALL: HOW DARE YOU GLORIFY RAPE!

#HOW DARE YOU MAKE FUN OF ANY RAPE: REAL LIFE RAPE OR FICTIONAL RAPE IN GAMES ANDS NOVELS!

#WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!

#CAN I REMIND YOU THAT THAT EVERY ONE OF THESE PEOPLE INVOLVED IN THIS IS FULLY AWARE I WAS RAPED?

#EVERY ONE OF THEM KNOWS:

* knows I was raped AGAIN November 14, 2013

* knows that I was beaten with a metal baseball bat, breaking my spine, hip, and knees

* knows I was pregnant and the baby died

* knows that the injuries left me unable to have another baby

* knows I was paralyzed for 5 months

* knows I was in a wheelchair and doctors said I would never walk again

* knows that I spent 18 months stubbornly teaching myself to walk again

* knows that today, 6 years later I still struggle to use my legs, can only walk a few feet, and rely heavily on a cane even for that

* knows that I am still crippled and stream on Twitch because playing video games is one of the few things I'm able to do from bed, because my spine, hip, and knees are messed up so bad I'm stuck in bed nearly 24 hours a day for the past 6 years

#AND KNOWING THAT ^^^^ THESE PEOPLE THOUGHT IT WAS A DAMNED GOOD JOKE TO MAKE FUN FIRST OF AVALLAC'H BEING BRUTALLY RAPED AND CRIPPLED IN THE NOVELS....

#AND THEN MINUTES LATER MAKE FUN OF UMA BEING BRUTALLY RAPED IN THE GAME!!!!

#AND DO IT DAYS BEFORE THE ANNIVERSARY OF WHEN I WAS RAPED!!!!!!!!!!

#THE ANNIVERSARY OF WHEN I WAS CRIPPLED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!

#THE ANNIVERSARY OF WHEN MY BABY DIED, DAYS BEFORE IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BORN!!!!!!!

#YOU JACKASSES OUT OF HELL!

#NOVEMBER IS THE MONTH I STRUGGLE THE HARDEST TO EVEN WANT TO LIVE!

#NOVEMBER IS THE MONTH I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO MORE THAN EVER!

#AND YOU JACKASSES THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY TO PULL A STUNT LIKE THIS!

#I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY FRIENDS.

#HOW DARE YOU SLANDER MY NAME AND ASSOCIATE ME WITH SEX!

#YOU HAVE SERIOUSLY MISJUDGED ME, WHO I AM, WHAT I STAND FOR, AND WHAT I REPRESENT ON INSANELY HUGE LEVELS!

#I AM UTTERLY HORRIFIED BY THE INSANELY BLOWN OUT OF PROPORTION, SEXUALLIZED LEVELS BY WHICH, YOU WILLFULLY< KNOWINGLY< AND MALICIOUSLY< WENT OUT OF YOUR WAY TO SLANDER MY NAME!

#HOW DARE YOU SLANDER MY NAME YOU FUCKING SERVANT OF SATAN!

#YOU HEATHEN GENTILE FROM HELL!

#YOU FILTHY INFIDEL OF THE PIT!

#GET THEE BEHIND ME YOU SATANIC BASTARDLY SERVANT OF HELL!

#BY THE BLOOD JESUS I CURSE YOU AND YOUR FILTH!

#HOW DARE YOU CONNENT MY NAME TO THE PERVERTED DEGRIDATIONS OF SEX!

And ALL of this was because I asked her how to change the shoe size of the 3D models in the game, so that I could get Geralt's shoes to fit on Avallac'h!!!!

How the hell did they translate my asking for help in changing the shoe size of a 3D model, into me talking about sex?

What the fuck is wrong with them?

I am shocked, horrified, sickened, and saddened by their cruel, uncaring, mean spirited behaviour, their hatefully malicious accusations, and their vile attempt at slandering of my name.

And again... this attack was done by people who I thought were my friends.

The levels of heartbroken betrayment I feel from this is horrendous. 

 I probably won't be around Thingy's channel for a while; not sure I'll go back at all. 

I know, ThingyChan's channel is the place people tend to go to to be able to talk in chat with me, meaning, you don't have a place to talk to me online at all now, but these people behaved deplorable. Making fun of rape is inexcusable and unforgivable.

I'm very upset with what happened, and considering both Zuntrix and Niv went off on rants about how they didn't want me around, saying I was not a good or valuable part of the community, and stating everything I ever post is about sex with nothing I ever posted was about sex. The timing they picked for this is really bad - it's the anniversary of the day I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. 

You can't even begin to imagine how much I hate the thought of sex, I have post traumatic stress disorder and sex, any mention of it, triggers it, I've been in Thngy's chat since April 2018, and was not aware that she and her chat thought everything I posted was about sex. I'm asexual, I have Kanner's Syndrome (actual Autism), I'm a 5th generation Mormon, and I'm an ordained minister. I do not have any ability to understand slang or sexual innuendos, so for the past year I've been clueless, that Thingy and her chat thought I've been talking about sex this whole time. 

Zuntrix and Niv have been posting stuff like this for a few months, saying they didn't want me in chat, it's why I started lurking more and posting less, but this is the first time they've say they thought my posts were only about sex, and it's the first time Thingy went off on a rant because of what they said, that very much upset me.

I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. His wife died while she 8 months pregnant with another man's baby. 

I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. His entire story takes place on a lake, beside his wife's grave, where he does nothing but ride his around the lake, fish off a rowboat, and wander the fields picking flowers for his wife's grave. 

And after he's raped, his legs broken, and the tomb of his wife smashed and destroyed, he never again leaves the boat, never speaks again, and never walks again. That's his ENTIRE STORY.

I don't know where Thingy's rant came from, where she connected him to dungeons, torture devices, BDSM, I don't know, because says she read the novels, but she went off on a rant saying I only liked Avallac'h because of his BDSM sex dungeons where he tortured Ciri. He didn't do that. He has no dungeons, no BDSM sex fetish... I don't what Thingy read, but it wasn't the novels. 

I find it very upsetting that she said those things, because I outright told her, in August 2018, I liked Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. He's one of the 12 Holy Grail Knights of King Arthur's Round Table. 

To associate a holy man who lived a very moral life, with sex, BDSM fetishes, dungeons, and torture? I'm deeply disturbed that she twisted why I liked Avallac'h so very, very, very far out of context.

And then for her to say that stuff, in a live stream, in response to Zentrix and Niv's saying they don't want me around any more because all I talk about is sex???? What the 3 of them did was VERY mean... especially considering they chose to do it on the anniversary of the day I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my baby, died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. 

I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again... something I can't do for myself...and THINGY KNEW THAT! I told her that August 2018. 

The game is only thing that keeps me from killing myself. You don't know what it;s like. I use to aqua jog 13 miles a day, go mountain climbing, horseback riding... and after 6 miscarriages, I finally had a pregnancy that was almost full term and a chance of finally having a baby. 

My playing as Avallac'h has nothing to do with sex. Everything Thingy, Zuntrix, and Niv said was very, very mean, very inaccurate, and done at the worst possible time.

:(

..............................................

#And because I am sick and tired and absolutely fed up with the steady, none-stop sexual posts in my chat which I have now learned (October 21, 2019) are being caused by the slanderous, sexually enhanced statements being made by another streamer.... who has taken not only to spreading wild sexual rumors about me via her Twitch streams, but is also spreading such slanderous rumors on her Discord as well, and has at least 5 of her streamer friends doing the same on their streams and Discords, and as it now turns out are responsible for sending the bulk of the sex-crazed perverts to post vile, rape-supporting, sex talk in my chat, ...

#which was the reason I stopped interacting with chat - I just got tired of chat being nothing but endless sexual harassment...

#something I am now learning they have been doing since as far back as August 2018 (yep, we have finally found the source of the "Deserve to be Raped Raids" that happened daily from August 2018 to February 2019).... the bulk of it instigated by 2 of her chat regulars.... 

#needless to say I am very upset about and deeply saddened by the extraordinarily malicious nature of what this group of people did and the extent of how far they went to try to damage my reputation, in what appears now to be some sort of vindictive attempt on the part of one chat member (who I'll refer to as Niv for simplicity's sake) to shut down my channel and force me to leave Twitch ... 

#I have now (November 20, 2019) traced Niv's posts on various VODs and Discord, back to an alarmingly disturbing anti-gay post that references the Transgender Murders of Saco Shaws in Saco Maine and the Too Gay for Old Orchard Beach Court case.... yeah... posts that mean Niv is connected to Mark and Dan somehow... yeah... those local to me men who falsely accused me of being transexual and showed up in my driveway with gun... Kendra Silvermander's crew.... yes... the rapists from November 14, 2013 themselves... which explains why Niv's attack on my channel in 2018 and again in 2019, both coincided with the anniversary of my being brutally raped, crippled for the rest of my life, and my baby murdered... 

#Niv's wild anti-trans rants marks them as somehow connected to this event, quite possibly one of the 3 attackers/rapists/murderers... and that is very terrifying.  

#From the posts I traced back on various VODs and Discord, this entire thing, appears to have been instigated by this one person, but I don't know who they are or why they did this.

#Frustratingly, I don't know, why it was so easy for this Niv person, to twist my words, and gather up this streamer's chat, and the streamer herself, to all join in with Niv in their sex-crazed accusations. The streamer and most of her chat, are people I thought were my friends, and to see how easily this Niv person convinced them to make their wild sexual accusations, is utterly terrifying, because I would have thought they knew me better than that. 

#Either they've never actually paid attention to anything I have ever said, or they are just cruel, uncaring people who thought this type of vile perversion would make for a good laugh. 

#Either way proves they were not the friends I thought they were, because friends would have paid better attention to my words and not twisted them out of context and attached sexual meanings to them.

#And likewise, friends would not have thought it a good laugh to make rape jokes and turn my words into sexual meaning, knowing full well, that I am crippled, bedridden, and without my baby because of brutal, violent rape.

#Friends don't do things like this.

#Hell, have these people ever even WATCHED one of my streams? We do more Bible reading, sermon preaching, and religion debating than anything else here! 

#Bible and religion is the number 1 topic we talk about... 

#Why the hell do you think I hate that immoral, perverted, sex crazed, spouse abusing, child murdering, drug addicted, crackhead, slobbering drunk, senior citizen raping, debauched, piece of shit abortion bitch Ciri so much? 

#Bible, religion, and denouncing sex and sin is what my channel is KNOWN FOR!!!

#Heck! It's why I have so very few followers! Didn't you know that? I get more hate comments for my rants against abortion, drinking, sex, drugs, and sin then I do hate comments about my liking Avallac'h and hating Ciri!

#I'm constantly being sent messages telling me they'd watch my streams if I could just tone back the preaching and Bible reading a bit!

#Ben, the guy you hear reading Bible verses in most of my streams, was a LDS High Priest Quorum Leader, Temple Priest close to being made Bishop!

#I'm getting the distinct impression these people who are running around flapping their mouths off talking sex talk about me have no clue who the hell I am. I am most of all, absolutely horrified by the sex filled lies Niv is running around spreading about me. Clearly this Niv person knows nothing about me, my life, my streams, or my ministry. 

#I am horrified that these people pretended on Twitch to be my friends for so long... because in reading nearly 2 years of their Discord posts this past month, I've now learned, they've been posting sex jokes about me and making fun of me in lewd sexua ways, for nearly 2 years, doing so on Discord, because they for some reason, thought I'd never see their posts there.

#They've been slandering my name, for a very, very, VERY long time, and I'm only just now finding out, because I'm only just now reading their Discord posts. The mean things they said in her Twitch chat October 21, 2019, don't even scratch the surface of how vile, mean, and hate filled their posts on Discord for the past 2 years are.

#And these are people, I thought were my friends... and now I'm finding out, one of them, Niv, is very likely the rapist piece of shit monster who murdered my baby.

#And these are people, I thought were my friends... After reading their past 2 years of Discord posts, I can see now, that they weren't, and they never were. 

#I thought they were my friends... they were just horrible, hate filled, mean bullies, who thought it was a good laugh to hurt a cripple.

#What they did, hurts so much. It's been so many years since I've been able to get out of bed, so many years alone with no one to talk to, and I found these people here on Twitch... they seemed like nice people... good people... 

#since becoming crippled, I've had no one... all my old friends, not one of them has visited, called, written, not even while I was in the hospital dying.... 4 years since I'd heard from any of them, 6 years now, these people - this streamer and her chat - they were the first people to talk to me in 4 years... I thought they were my friends, and now, I see what they've been doing behind my back on Discord these past 2 years.

#They've been making these cruel, hate filled sex jokes and spreading these sex related slanderous rumors about me for 2 years.

#They are very cruel, Niv and Zutrix especially. And I don't know why.

#This came out of no where, for seemingly no reason at all. They just side swiped me with this. I completely did not expect it.

#And no, once again, just like 6 years ago, I find myself with no one. Not one single person I can talk to.

#While they may find what they did to be some sort of funny joke, I find it very mean, hate filled, and hurtful. What especially hurts is these people knew I was crippled, shut-in, had no one but them to talk to, and pretended to be my friends for nearly 2 years while doing this behind my back. :( 

#They may have had a good laugh, and can go on with their lives.... work, school, friends, the ability to get out of bed and go outside... but me? I can't even get out of bed. I can't go back to work. I can't go back to school. People I thought were my friends for 4 decades, haven't visited, called, written, in 6 years. 

#They moved on and forgot about me, because who wants to spend time with a bedridden cripple?

#No one.

#ThingyChan and her chat... you have no idea how important their friendship was to me... and for them to turn around and do this... you can't even begin to imagine how much their cruelty hurts.

#Good god!

#What the hell type of evil bastards are these people?

#The levels of their extreme sadistic cruelty is unfathomable to me.... thus I'm now adding this:

#Before you watch any of my streams, first watch these VOD: 

* 35 min VOD [The Purple Bison Scene... My Reaction To Being Called Out On Someone Else's Stream aka Why I like Avallac'h](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/503775003) 

* and this  2 hour VOD  [Page 179 of Lady of the Lake aka Why I don't like Ciri and Why I absolutely hate, loath, and revile Ciri's psychotic fan base](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/507755414)    

* and this 1 hour VOD [Avallac'h is a dungeon master with torture devices and hurt Ciri? What the F...? My response to the craziest accusation I've ever heard](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/507935953)

* and this 20 minute VOD [the hilarious side effect of removing nudity from the game - how making the lore-friendly Wild Hunt mod gave me 300+ new followers in one day then lost me 370+ followers the next day](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/507451042)

* this 10 hour stream that includes a 7 hour rant from me and Ben both [WARNING! The high priest is here and we both went off on anti-sex, abortion bitch bashing rants that'll twist most sensitive snowflakes](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/510780501)

* and also this 2 hour VOD:  [The Fisher King & The Lady of The Lake:  The Real People vs The Original Novels vs The Witcher Versions or Why I Like Avallac'h & Hate Ciri](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/503781222)

#Pay damned close attention to everything I say in those 6 VODS and don't you DARE post in my chat, message me, or talk about me in your stream UNLESS YOU'VE WATCHED THOSE FIRST and are certain you ACTUALLY KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I STAND FOR!

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# [I'm tired of other streamers slandering my name, I am tired of being bullied, stop harassing me... aka Why I no longer interact with chat...](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/518533838) 

* I'm sick of you people making sex jokes about the fact that 3 people attacked me with metal baseball bats and golf clubs, while I was 8 months pregnant, killing my baby, breaking my spine, hip, knees, and legs, leaving me paralyzed for 5 months, and spending the next 6 years relearning how to walk... 

* As a result of being brutally raped: I have been bedridden since 2013; I still can not walk without help; I no longer have proper use of my bowels or bladder; the severed nerves of my broken spine cause severe tremors making it difficult for me to use my hands;

* I can not go back to work; I can not go back to college

* I stream because I am stuck in bed 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, for the past 6 years and streaming on Twitch is not only one of the few things I'm physically able to do, it's also the only contact I've had with other people since 2013

* I almost died, my baby did die, and because doctors can not operate on my spine, I often stream hanging upside down by my ankles from a medical device called a Teeter, that that takes the presser off my vertebrae, and allows me to be able to walk for a few feet each day

* I am asexual, have no interest in sex, bdsm, or fetishes. 

* I am a Christian minister. 

* Since August 2018, my chat has been an onslaught of nothing by toxic hate thrown at me, sexually harassing posts, constant comments about BDSM, and 712 viewers chanting "Deserved to be raped - Kill EelKat"; 

* These people arrived daily in enraged toxic furies, with 4 streamers raiding my channel using the raid messages "Deserved to be Raped" and "Kill EelKat"

* I stopped streaming November 2018 in hopes that they'd forget about me and go away.

* I returned in February 2019 and they immediately attacked my chat within the first few minutes of the stream.

* I left again, not to return until May 2019, this time with chat set to subscriber only to keep out the bulk of the haters, and no longer interacting with chat at all, as I'm just tired of the constant hate

* October 21, 2019, I saw your slanderous multi-streams, and recognized everyone who harassed me in my chat, as viewers from your multi streams... 4 streamers on a grid, spent 2 hours laughing and giggling while telling their chat tales about me and my supposed bdsm sex life filled with fetishes.

* In checking their VODS and Discords I learned that they been doing this for nearly 2 years; often using JackBox Games to write up filthy sex jokes about me, all while telling their chats I was a deviated sex fetish freak

* You spent 2 years building a sexually perverted, BDSM fetish filled fanfiction fantasy about me, then spread it across your Discords and Mutli-Streams, spreading your slanderous perverted lies about me and my sex life to hundreds of people in your chats and viewers, acting as though your sick fantasies about me were actual things I did, resulting in the past 2 years HUNDREDS of people have come to my stream, posting in my chat, sexually harassing me, attacking me with the messages "Deserved to be raped"... 

* I've spent these past months baffled by the onslaughter of sexual harassing posts in my chat, baffled as to why these people attacked with such fury... 

* And now I understand why so many people have been attacking my chat with sexual perversions and chanting "Deserved to be Raped"... 

* Some unscrupulous streamers, decided the Teeter was a BDSM fetish device, falsely concluded that seeing it in my streams ment I had some sort of a deviated sex life, and then set out to spending nearly 2 years slandering my reputation, by telling HUNDREDS of their viewers that I was a fetish freak

* On top of that, they took everything they had ever heard me say, scrambled my words around, and set out to telling thier viewers that everything I had ever said was somehow connected to sex, erotica, bdsm, and fetishes; outright claiming ALL my words were nothing more then sexual innuendos!

* I have Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL AUTISM) - ALL of my words are direct dictionary definitions; there is never a hidden meaning, never any use of slang, no speaking ironically, no sexual innuendos or euphemisms and I never make jokes

* Just because YOU were thinking about sex while I was talking, does not mean I was talking about sex.

* YOU attaching sexual meanings to my words, is YOU being an immoral piece of shit, NOT me talking about sex

* They built a massive fanfiction fantasy world about this bdsm sex life they made up for me, then spent hours each day, using this malicious, slanderous, fanfiction to create a massive multi-stream/multi-discord running gag, that included more than 800 people joining in and helping them to spread this horrible sex filled lies about me

* I've spent 50+ years building my reputation in the religious community 

* After murder, sex is the single most evil, most despicable, most vile thing you could ever attach to a person's name, and they've spent the past 2 years maliciously attacking that reputation, attaching vile, immoral sexual references to my name

* They had the gaul to take sex, the most evil of all sins after murder, and use it in reference to me, across well over 500 Twitch streams and VODs, and more then a thousand Discord posts

* I had no idea they were doing it, and to make it even worse, the streamers doing it, befriended me and pretended to be my friends all the while they were doing this behind my back

* I'm sick of you turning my medical treatments and physical therapy into perverted BDSM fetish sex joke running gags on your Discords and multi-streams... 

* You people are cruel, sadistic, uncaring, evil piece of shit bullies... 

* Streaming is not about seeking out cripples, so you can spend 2 years slandering their names with vile sex jokes... 

* You people ought to be ashamed of yourselves... 

* Why are you spreading these lies about me and my sex life? 

* What the hell is wrong with you people? 

* What you did is mean, hurtful, hate filled, malicious, and absolutely evil...

* Think about what you did... you took a sin as vile, as immoral, as evil as the act of sex, ... sex... the 2nd most evil of all sins a person could commit... and spent 2 years attaching that horrific act of evil to my name!

* Step back and take a good long look at what you did, you wouldn't like it if someone did the same thing to you, and you know it, so why did you think it was okay to do it to me?

* Did you never once think about how I might feel if I ever found out what you were doing?

* Were you really that confident I'd never find out what you did?

* Did it never once occur to you that I was a real person, with real feelings?

* Did you never once stop to think how hurt I was feel over you doing this?

* Are you just yet another in the massive line of douchebags who thinks people with Autism have no emotions?

* Did you really think you could get away with doing and saying anything you wanted about me, just because you think those of us with Autism have no feelings and feel no sadness?

* Did you really think you weren't hurting me when you did this?

* Do you really think those of us with Autism have no feelings to hurt?

* To make it even worse... when I confronted them about this, asking them to stop doing it... they started doing it even more, and said that it was okay for them to do this because they were QUOTE: "only having harmless fun" and "were just fooling around making jokes"

* Not one of the 800+ people involved in this felt any guilt or remorse for their actions, and not one of them has seen any need to apologize for the horrific sexual "jokes and good times" they had at the expense of my reputation

* Good, moral, decent people do not bully cripples

* Only mean, evil, hate filled bullies, think making sex jokes about rape victims is "just having fun" 

* Making fun of others, making fun of their disabilities, and spreading malicious, slanderous sexual lies about them, is a thing that only bullies do

* You people are mean spirited, cold hearted, evil bullies. Plain and simple.

* This is nothing short of the inhumane treatment of humans by humans

* You are very bad people.

* Did you really think that it was fun for me to learn that you have been branding me as a sexual deviant?

* Did you forget that people online are still real people?

* Do you not know that your actions and words can have real impact? 

* Did you think that EelKat, the most outspoken anti-bullying lecturer on the planet wouldn't speak up against your use of hate speech, harassment, abuse, and assault?

* Did you really think that slandering my name with your malicious rumors and lies about my sex life was anything less then hate speech, harassment, abuse, cyber bullying, and sexual assault?

* You really need to step back, stop, listen, and reassess your words and actions, because YES, you running around Twitch and Discord flapping your filthy, lying mouth off about me, telling people I'm into sex fetishes and BDSM DOES mean that your words and actions are harmful

#YOU LYING ABOUT ME, TELLING PEOPLE I AM INTO SEX FETISHES AND BDSM IS HARASSMENT!

#Harassment means actions such as:

#Discrimination, hate speech, offensive behavior, or verbal abuse related to sex, gender identity and expression, sexual orientation, race, ethnicity, disability, physical appearance, body size, age, or religion, unwelcome sexual attention including sexualized comments, jokes, and sexual advances, sharing hurtful or mean-spirited memes

#WHAT YOU DID, WAS TO MAKE THOUSANDS OF SEXUALIZED COMMENTS, JOKES, BASED OFF OF MY DISABILITIES... MAKING MEAN SPIRITED AND HURTFUL MEMES ABOUT LIFE THREATENING INJURIES I RECEIVED FROM SEXUAL ABUSE/RAPE THAT LEFT ME CRIPPLED AND BEDRIDDEN FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

#WHAT YOU DID TO ME WAS VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY MEAN

#AND IT WAS WRONG...

#WRONG!!!

#WRONG!!!!!!

#WHAT YOU DID... IT WAS JUST PLAIN WRONG AND YOU OUGHT TO BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF!!!!!!

* Good, moral, decent people do not spread malicious lie filled sex memes, sex jokes, and sex rumors about others

* Good, moral, decent people do not take a life threatening disability, harrowing painful treatments and spread malicious lie filled sex memes, sex jokes, and sex rumors about that disability and it's treatment

* Good, moral, decent people do not continue to spread malicious lie filled sex memes, sex jokes, and sex rumors after being confronted by their victim and being asked to stop

* Good, moral, decent people apologize when they get caught doing something wrong 

* It is now December 11, 2019, 32 days after I asked them to stop doing this and not one of them has apologized, not one of them has said they were sorry for hurting me, not one of them feels any guilt or remorse for the damage they have done to my reputation, AND they STILL CONTINUE to DAILY spout sex filled rumors and lies about me in their Twitch streams and Discord posts

* People who PRETENDED to be my friends

* People who I now see for the backbiting bastardly monsters they really are

#And ThingyChan did this KNOWING, she was the ONLY friend I had; KNOWING she was the ONLY person I had had to talk to since becoming crippled 6 years ago; KNOWING I had absolutely no one else in my life but her

* You are nothing but a cold hearted, uncaring, cruel, mean bully who doesn't give a shit about others

* Bad humans like you, don't deserve to call yourselves part of the human race

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#My in-stream responses to the sick shit these dip shits pulled:

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* [Why are you swimming all the time? I was told all you do is sex quests and I've not seen you do one yet. When do you do the sex quests.... Are you sure you are asking the correct person that? I'm on my 11th playthrough and we've NEVER done the sex quests](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/519144341)

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* [The Nudity Mod and how making the lore-friendly Wild Hunt mod gave me 300+ new followers in one day then lost me 370+ followers the next day](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/507451042)

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* [I forgot you picked flowers all the time. Whenever I think of you, I always think of the sex quests. Why don't you do those any more?... I have Kanner's Syndrome ACTUAL AUTISM - punding is the ONLY thing we've done in this game since March 2016; I've never done the sex quests, what are you even talking about?](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/519143688)

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* [Dominatrix? BDSM? Fetishes? What are these people talking about? How can any one be so evil? Why did she do this? What was her motive?](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/520322171)

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* [Being bedridden and crippled = No friends, abandoned, forgotten, and alone for birthdays, holidays, and Christmas](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/522096993)

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* [How I Became Crippled, Why I Hate Ciri, and the 4 5 8 shootout](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/516161674)

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* [How I learned to hate Ciri my 1st blind playthrough - a cold hearted, uncaring bitch who abandoned a crippled vs what happened to me Nov 14, 2013](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/510056041)

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* [Why I hate liars aka a harsh NSFW look inside growing up in a child prostitution slave ring, on being raped 500+ times before I was 8 years old and and a horrifying look at WHY the shit ThingyChan pulled makes her the evilest, most demented piece of shit I've ever run across](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/537466746)  ... and if you have never read the Amphibious Aliens article mentioned in this VOD, here it is, so you can read it: [Amphibious Aliens: The Story of Etiole & The World's Most Haunted Car](https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html)

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* [taking vile abuse my uncles did to me as a child and saying Avallac'h did those things to Ciri is you just being pure evil now](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/520319657)

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* [kanner's syndrome aka real actual autism vs jackasses spreading BDSM sex lies about me](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/536414769)

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* [making SEX memes, BDSM jokes, and multi-stream running gags about an invalid's life threatening disabilities is mean & cruel](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/515621184)

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* [Hamsters, Homelessness, HUD, and Bullies (On Being Homeless in Old Orchard Beach, Maine May 2006 to March 2015)](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/521564271)

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* [Yes, I am very upset to find out about the backstabbing jerks who spent the last 2 years slandering my name on Twitch and Discord No, I'm not impressed with your cruel, hate filled -   s  -  e  -  x  -   memes; I don't think you are funny, I think you are vile and evil. Why did these people pretend to be my friends while behind my back making horrendous sexual memes about my injuries](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/515064816)

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* [Thoughts on building the tent-tarp-thing (On Being Homeless In Old Orchard Beach, Maine from May 2006 to March 2015)](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/519993423)

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>>>THIS IS THE EVIL SHIT MY UNCLES DID TO US that ThingyChan thought would be funny to say Avallac'h did to Ciri....

* [Info about upcoming stream schedule plans with EXTREMELY NSFW FOOTAGE of my murdered cousins - the sawed up bones of 31 murdered children are found in Goosefare Brooke Ravine, at Reclaim Blueberry Plaines, Ross Forest, Old Orchard Beach, Maine - June 19, 2016 ----](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/408382223)

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* [AND HERE'S THE TYPE OF SICK EMAILS I'M GETTING BECAUSE OF ThingyChan's sick little sex fetish bdsm meme joke running gag... Jesus Christ Is Lord and Voodoo Is Satanic? What? - Reading Your Emails (March 7, 2018)](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/405913174)

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* [Why streams are no longer live & chat is now sub only aka Rape is evil and so are raiders who post "deserved to be rapedd" in a rape victim's chat](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/395790496)

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* [HERE IS THE KU KLUX KLAN FOOTAGE THAT ThingyChan thought would make for good fun running gag sex memes on her Discord... Footage of the KKK Cross in my yard and the hole in my yard from the KKK bomb that blew up my house... Flamboyant Nippers - A Lesson In How To Offend Your Readers #AuthorTube #BookTube Let's Read Reading aka STOP HARASSING ME!!!](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/333883306)

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* [foot fetishes? really? because we are trying to fix a load issue with boots? how the hell deviated are you?](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/521279135)

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* [WHAT TYPE OF A SICK CREEP DO YOU HAVE TO BE TO CALL BE PARALYZED & RELEARNING TO WALK a S  - E  - X  ...  F  - E  - T  - I  - S  - H? I have a broken spine from an injury and you translate my physical therapy as a S  - E  - X   F  - E  - T  - I  - S  - H? WHAT THE F? You think 6 years of medical hell with a broken spine is a S  - E  - X  ...  F  - E  - T  - I  - S  - H? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/515131717)

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* [Why I'm fed up with Twitch chat; Why I stopped playing JackBox games with Ethan](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/514860587)

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* [I don't like bullies](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/518533838)

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* [The Purple Bison Scene the asexual virgin elf's reaction to Geralt's perverted sex life... My Reaction To Being Called Out On Someone Else's Stream aka Why I, an asexual who hates sex crazed perverts likes Avallac'h, another asexual who hates sex crazed perverts](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/503775003)

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* [What the F Is Wrong with Geralt and Where the hell did the game come up with the Daddy Daughter relationship? The Purple Bison scene](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/514860584)

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* [Why do people say Avallac'h tortured Ciri when he rescued & protected her from tortures & Elder Blood, why did the game change what it was?](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/521564270)

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* [How did she take the sinless virgin who never shed innocent blood, and call him an evil dungeon master with torture devices?](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/516908914)

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* [Let's talk about Avallac'h's hands. Yep. Hands. Why? Because he's not dungeon master with torture chambers](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/515147912)

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* [Avallac'h is a dungeon master with torture devices and he hurt Ciri? What the F...? My response to the craziest accusation I've ever heard ](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/507935953)

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* [Why are you accusing Avallac'h of dungeons, cruelty, and torture devices? He did none of those. Here's the freaky shit he DID do.... ](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/508025857)

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* [How do people take a guy who rides horses around the lake and accuse him of being a dungeon master with cages and torture devices? ](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/514107121)

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* [Thoughts on being lore-friendly and also it amazes me, how many people on Twitch don't know what the words asexual and virgin mean... ](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/509998027)

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* [Avallac'h in the novels vs Avallac'h in the game; from the elder god serpent with a crashed spaceship to an elven mage... what?](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/514087580)

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* [Pissing off Ciri fans? So sick of whinny, annoying, Ciri fans harassing me. You're f...ing p...ied? So what? Take your toxic hate elsewhere](https://www.twitch.tv/videos/512320001)

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The Avallac'h Playthrough: Pissing Off Ciri Fans Since May 13, 2018

I'm thinking that should be our new slogan based off this month's onslaught of hate emails.

You're annoyed by my playthrough? Well, I'm annoyed by the daily dozens of emails telling me how pissed off you are.

And for those wondering: 

#How many people have contacted me? How many Ciri fans have reached out to say how pissed off they are?

The number is astounding, and way higher then the total amount of views my channel has (62, 000).

Here on Twitch, since May 13, 2018, I have received hate filled chat comments and whisper messages from 7,000+ different Twitch usernames. Many of those being death threats, included 712 Death Threats being posted in my chat, just in a single month (September 2018)

However, you can find screenshots from the Avallac'h Playthrough on nearly every social media platform out there: FaceBook, Twitter, Tumblr, Pinterest, Reddit, Nexus, Instagram, MySpace, LinkedIn, Blogger, WordPress, LiveJournal, and more.... in total 3.4 million usernames follow me in these places.

And though those social networks, I recieve well over 1,000 hate messages from enraged Ciri fans EVERY MONTH.... in total more than 21,000 enraged Ciri fans have contacted me through the social networks.

My website, where you can find the very NSFW nude screenshots from the sex quests that never streamed on Twitch... each image of nude Ciri with nude Avallac'h gets 50,000 to 70,000 views each month. And to contact me from there, you contact via email.

The images they are referring too, I can not post here on Twitch to show you. But I can tell you I have mods that both Ciri and Avallac'h functioning - FUNCTIONING - genitals. And it's THOSE pictures that result in the biggest, longest, most ernage, most infuriated,most hate filled emails of all.... more than 20,000 of them EVERY MONTH.

#In total, since May 13, 2018 I have received hate messages, hate comments, and hate emails from an astounding more than 300,000 different email addresses.

Ask me again why I had to turn chat off here on Twitch?

One thing The Avallac'h Playthrough has taught me is that the bulk of Ciri's fans (not Witcher fans in general - JUST fans of Ciri herself) are obnoxious, deranged, psychotic, violent, hostile men in their 30s, who can not tell the difference between fantasy and reality, believe Ciri is the ACTUAL REAL WORLD wife, and are very vocal about how much they really, really, really hate Avallac'h a lot *(usually for "touching my wife/waifu" as they put it)* and want to kill me, for posting pictures of Ciri and Avallac'h as a couple.

With the level of hostility these men use in contacting me *(a bedridden, crippled, elderly woman)*, I'd hate to see what would happen if you tossed a few of these men in the same room together.... they would most definitely kill each other, because they clearly can't tolerate any "competition for Ciri's affections" (as they term it.

I think the most frightening part of all, is that these men are so deranged, so mentally unstable, that they are unaware Ciri IS A FICTIONAL CHARACTER. Some of them have gone so far as to talk of things they do with Ciri with take her on dates, and how enranged they are to learn that she's been sneaking off with Avallac'h, behind their backs.

Yeah. A surprisingly large amount of the emails, read like that: these are not normal fans. These are clearly mentally disturbed people who are not taking their meds and desperately need to.

And my guess, quite a few of them are former mental institution patients who are walking free only because the hospital they used to be straight jacketed in got shut from lack of government funding.

But damn.... it's not a few.... more then 300,000 of these enraged, hate filled men who believe Ciri is real and is their wife, have contacted me with their vehement hatred for not only Avallac'h, but also for me, for putting Ciri with Avallac'h in the pictures I post online.

That's a REALLY BIG number.

And the bulk of them include the phrase "I'm so pissed off" alongside "poor Ciri". While more than half of them include various death threats.

I don't get it. Is there some sort of internet meme going around, I don't know about, that says if you are talking about Ciri, you have to start every post, comment, email, etc you write with the phrase: "I'm so pissed off"?

That alongside what Claudia did, sending those men to my house, it's very difficult to even want to go on. Especially with the destruction of my car. It took me 4 years to build that car. I wasn't crippled then. My muscles had not started deteriorating yet. I could stand there for hours painting and gluing marbles. I did. It took me 4 years working 8 hours a day, to glue those 2.5 million marbles to that car.

And all that work gone, destroyed by hate mongers. Why did Claudia send those men to my house? I don't understand what was going through her mind. Why would you do something like that? She told them I was a BDSM Dominatrix looking for a gangbang rape and sent them to my house. She thought it would make for a funny joke. Raping 2 women, the attempted murder of an elderly man, totalling 3 cars, and 28 families becoming homeless because the city condemned the apartment building because of the $230,000 in damages.... that's a hell of a BIG "joke". I'm not laughing am I? I see what Claudia did as funny at all.

A lot of people got hurt. How is that funny?

Three people almost died. Tell me how that is funny?

Twenty-eight families were made homeless. Why do you think that is funny?

Because it's something Ciri would do? Yeah, you're right. It IS something Ciri would do. But Ciri's not real. Ciri is a fictional character. 

And Avallac'h, who you hate so much, he's not real either. 

But those people who got hurt at 27 High Street in Biddeford, Maine.... those people who almost died... those people who lost their cars... those people who lost their home... They were real. They are real. 

Those 2 women that got BDSM gang raped by the men Claudia sent to our house... they were young girls in their 20s, sisters sharing an apartment, both with a baby, one 2 years old the other 4 years old. Military wives. Their husbands overseas.

Those 28 families... one was an elderly couple in their 80s taking care of their quadriplegic son. 

Another was a couple, whose wife was bedridden and on oxygen life support.

Another was a couple with 5 children, struggling to make ends meet... one of their sons has Leukemia... or he did... he's dead now.

And you know what? He might still be alive if his family hadn't been homeless for 2 weeks without access to proper care for him

Think about THAt.... especially you Claudia, because you are the one who told those 5 men they could come to my house and find me a BDSM dominatrix waiting for them. Proud of sex lies about me now? A little boy DIED because of you. You know that makes you? A child murderer by proxy. Can you live with yourself, knowing a little boy died because you spread lies about a crippled elderly woman telling men to go to her house to get BDSM bondage sex?

Have you noticed a trend?

It was a medical building. An apartment just outside of the hospital, that house critically crippled patents and their families.

I'm crippled. I need the help of nurse to take a bath, use the toilet, and to get out of bed and sit up here at the computer to stream. Yeah, it's that bad. That's why I lived there.

Children dying from cancer, housed next door to the hospital so their families could be with them during their long months of chemo. They lived there too.

You made them homeless.

Crippled elderly and crippled children. 

You beat them up, raped them, destroyed their cars, and destroyed the building they lived in.

Real, live, crippled elderly and crippled children, beaten, raped, and made homeless, because you want to fuck Ciri's fictional ass.

Are you proud of what you did?

Your little "joke", your little Avallac'h hating, Ciri glorifying, let's rape every body and smash and trash their house.... Do you know how sick that makes you?

And you sent them to my house, telling them that I was a BDSM dominatrix.

Do you even know WHO THE HELL I AM?

I am an ordained Marija Loa!

It's a type of CATHOLIC NUN!

Marija Loa.... it means married to god.

I am an ordained minister, a priestess, my rank and title being Medsen Fey Marija Loa to Damballah Weddo, in service to Erzulie Freda and Erzulie Dantor.

I was ordained a Medsen Fey in 2003 and I'm one of only 3 nuns in the United States to become Marija Loa, which happened in 2013.

It's a fucking rank in the Catholic Church!

Voodoo is a branch of the Catholic Church. 

To be ordained a minister in the Voodoo religion you are ordained by Catholic priests.

Hungans, Mambos, Medsen Fey, Marija Loa - they are Haitian words meaning Priest, Nun, Father Superior, Mother superior.

You are spreading sex rumors and sex lies about a damned nun!

Think about THAT.

Marija Loa.

A type of NUN!

Do you know what a nun is? 

A nun is a woman who is married to God. Yes, as in there is an actual wedding, with wedding dress and marriage vows. She remains celibate. Sex is not a part of her life. No men are allowed to touch her. 

Are you starting to see, how damn EVIL you are Claudia for spreading lies that someone like me was a BDSM dominatrix!

You sent gang bang rapists to the home of a Catholic Nun telling them that she was a BDSM Dominatrix!

Do you know ow many levels of HELL there are for you Claudia!

The absence of the car vlogs is worse than you know. I can't walk anymore, but I could drive. My car was my only ability to get outside, my only contact with people at all outside of Twitch. And with chat having to be shut off due to the hate... I have no one to talk to at all now.

The enraged Ciri fans are not just attacking online. A group of them showed up at my house. They nearly killed 2 of my neighbours, my 82 year old dad, they totaled 3 cars including mine, and left 28 families homeless after doing $230,000 in damages to the apartment building we was living in then. 

Why?

Because you are so delusional, that you believe Ciri is you REAL, ACTUAL wife, cheating on you with Avallac'h, because I have pictures of them together on my FaceBook?

What is wrong with you people?

Ciri is NOT your wife. And not she's not cheating on you with Avallac'h. And do you know why?

Because Ciri and Avallac'h are NOT real.

It's just a game and these are fictional characters. Don't you know that?

Why are you people doing this?

I've never done anything to hurt any of you.

What is wrong with you?

You all ought to be ashamed of yourselves.

Not just the 5 of you who showed up at my house, not just the 712 who were chanting "deserve to be raped in my Twitch chat", but every single damned one of you. All 300,000+ of you who have sent me emails telling me how pissed off you are, and poor Ciri this and poor Ciri that, all your death threats, and all you stupid jackassery.

Every damned one of you ought to be ashamed of yourselves.

Have you really got nothing better to do with your lives then send hate mail to a crippled, bedridden elderly woman?

Would you do to your grandmother what you do to me?

You call me obsessed with Avallac'h? Yes, that is true.... but what are you? You are far more obsessed with Ciri, than I am with Avallac'h, and while all I'm doing is playing a video game to alleviate the boredom of being bedridden and crippled, you are actually hurting people. Think about that.

Am I'm not the only one you sickos are doing this too. I'm just the only one speaking out against it.

I didn't used to be the only Witcher exclusive channel on Twitch. I didn't used to have the only heavily modded Witcher playthrough on Twitch. There were dozens of others, just a year ago. And you did the same damned thing to every one of them.

The guy who was playing the game as Radovid, the one who taught me how to build The Avallac'h mod.... the hate you sent him for doing a similar playthrough, playing as Radovid, with Lodge as travel companions, putting Phillipa as the sex quest girls... you fucking chased him off Twitch. That playthrough was amazing. Yeah, Radovid is a jackass and I can't stand hm, but hell that playthrough was awesome!

The girl playing the game as Yennefer and turning Triss into the sex girls, doing a full lesbian romance run of Yen and Triss saying fuck off to Geralt and travel the countryside together... you hate mongered her off Twitch!

Heck, the woman who was doing the Ciri run, playing the game as Ciri, using the fucking Shjall mod - the mod that turns every killable character into Avallac'h... the streamer who posts on Tumblr all those pictures of Ciri murdering Avallac'h... you even harassed her off Twitch! You ought to like her, she had Ciri killing Avallac'h every damned day! It was hysterical. I loved her streams. she found so many ways to kill Avallac'h, it was damed awesome, and now it's gone.

All the guys who were playing the game with WEE and Ghost Mode.... you hate mongered them away too.

The Legolas guy.... playing the game as Legolas; the guy playing the game as Batman, the guy playing the game as FF Cloud, the guy with Henry Cavill Geralt mods,... you chased all of them out too!

What the hell is wrong with you people?

You ain't fans of the Witcher series.

You ain't Ciri fans.

You're just a bunch of hate mongering trolls looking to destroy the Witcher modding community.

The Witcher 3 section of Nexus had 7,000+ mods in December 2018.... it has barely 2,000 mods now in 2020..... because you hate mongered the mod makers on Nexus so bad they deleted their accounts and pulled theirs mods off of Nexus.

You are hurting HUNDREDS of people.

Twitch streamers and Nexus mod makers alike.

And do you ever once step back and stop to think about who these people are, that you are attacking and hurting?

Did you ever once stop and think that you are hurting REAL people?

I can't tell you who the others you are bullying are, but I can tell you who I am:

I am an crippled, bedridden, elderly woman with no one to talk to. Alone 24 hours a day, for weeks to a time, sometimes going months between a 5 minute visit from family or friends. I have no one. And I can't get out of bed to do anything about it. It's why I play this game. 

And after playing the game several times, I started making mods for it.

And because I am crippled, bedridden, elderly woman with no one to talk to. Alone 24 hours a day, for weeks to a time, sometimes going months between a 5 minute visit from family or friends. I have no one. And I can't get out of bed to do anything about it. ... I have 24 hours a day to focus on making mods for this game and in the past 3 years I've made more than 4,000 mods for it. 

I don't have anything else in my life.

I don't have anyone in my life.

I'm alone in bed all day, all night, day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year, since I was attacked in a WalMart parking lot November 14, 2013, by 3 strangers with baseball bats who broke my spine, my hips, my knees, and left me crippled.

Did you think about that before clicking send on your hate? Or before getting in your car and driving all the way to my house, to lash out your hate in person?

I may be obsessed with my love for Avallac'h, but it pales in comparison to your obsession with your illogical and unwarranted hated for me, for Avallac'h, and for other mod makers in the Witcher community. 

I'm not nearly as obsessed with Avallac'h, as you are obsessed with me.

Think about that.

I'm just playing a video game.

You are destroying lives.

I'm just here playing a video game, minding my own business, not bothering anybody.

You are running around like a rabid dog looking for something to kill.

I am a gamer.

You are bully.

Maybe you ought to take a good long look in the mirror - see yourself, the way I see you: for your are pure evil.

The extreme amount of hate and the excess levels of the hate I get from this, something that I do love very much, is depressing, terrifying, and discouraging, to say the least, especially, there is never any good or kind comments and emails to offset the hate, and when there is at the same time not one single person out there who is also a fan of Avallac'h for me to talk to at all.

#The exponential increase of hate mails since the release of the Netflix series, alongside my daily worsening health is why streams are no longer daily and no longer 12 hours. 

My muscles are deteriorating, the pain in my joints is excruciating, and it is increasingly difficult for me to sit up at all, let alone get out of bed, and with the amount of hate I get thrown at me, it gets ever harder to even want try to fight against the pain in my muscles to try to stream at all, when there is little joy in streaming any more.

Well, Happy merry be pissed off day to you, I guess. Enjoy!

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"By autistic standards, the “normal” brain is easily distractible, is obsessively social, and suffers from a deficit of attention to detail and routine. Thus people on the spectrum experience the neurotypical world as relentlessly unpredictable and chaotic, perpetually turned up too loud, and full of people who have little respect for personal space." 

— Steve Silberman

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“I would rather be a little nobody, then to be a evil somebody.” 

― Abraham Lincoln

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“Karma comes after everyone eventually. You can't get away with screwing people over your whole life, I don't care who you are. What goes around comes around. That's how it works. Sooner or later the universe will serve you the revenge that you deserve.” 

― Jessica Brody

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NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

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*"Watching people defend someone they're a fan of, completely dismissing any evidence of wrongdoing, just because they think they know that creator like a close friend based solely on what they've seen in videos and stuff. Parasocial relationships are terrifying." ~ Welsknight Gaming*

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"You people who watch, follow, subscribe to, and defend the streamers who spread malicious sex lies about others, are accessories to the crimes they perpetrate. Without viewers like you, my family would not have been murdered by fans of bitches like them." ~EelKat

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“Don't tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass.” - Anton Chekhov

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“Read, read, read. Read everything -- trash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the master. Read! You'll absorb it. Then write. If it's good, you'll find out.” - William Faulkner

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“Many writers write because they’ve been there, seen that, did it and burnt their fingers” - Bangambiki Habyarimana

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"Close the door. Write with no one looking over your shoulder. Don’t try to figure out what other people want to hear from you; figure out what you have to say. It’s the one and only thing you have to offer."- Barbara Kingsolver

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"I'm writing a first draft and reminding myself that I'm simply shoveling sand into a box so that later I can build castles."  - Shannon Hale

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"It is common sense to take a method and try it. If it fails, admit it frankly and try another. But above all, try something."

- Franklin D. Roosevelt

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The best place to hide a body is on any random second page of Google search results. No one ever looks there.

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“1. Bullying is not okay. Period.
2. Freedom of religion does not give you the right to physically or verbally assault people.
3. If your sincerely-held religious beliefs require you to bully children,
then your beliefs are fucked up.” ― Jim C. Hines

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Give a man a fish and he'll eat for a day. Teach a man to fish and you can sell him fishing gear for the rest of his life. 

“People try to say suicide is the most cowardly act a man could ever commit.
I don't think that's true at all.
What's cowardly is treating a man so badly that he wants to commit suicide.” ― Tommy Tran

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"Writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way." -  E. L. Doctorow

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“You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you.” - Ray Bradbury

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"You can’t wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club." - Jack London

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"This violence against our Asian American neighbors is from the mouth of hell. Hate acts. It does not stay confined to the heart & mind. It incites the tongue. Untreated, it travels to hands & feet. Hate is murderous. (1Jn 3:15) Stand against it. Speak against it. Pray against it." - Beth Moore

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"To produce a mighty book, you must choose a mighty theme." - Herman Melville

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