Counting Down to the 2028 50th Anniversary of my first published book (September 23, 1978)
Happy 2026!
It is our 30th anniversary here at Space Dock 13!
On the web since 1996!
You have encountered an extremely old website that continues to exist in old web ways, the same way it has done for now three decades.
In spite of being now 30 years old this year, started in 1996, it is still heavily active and old pages updated daily, new pages added daily, still now in 2026. All hand written, all hand coded (no AI), all by me, same as it ever was.
We Still Exist: The Old Web Did Not Go Away, You Just Forgot How To Find Us
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EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
f you are here looking for aliens, ufos, demons, cryptids, haunted cars, curses, Etiole, the wild man of old orchard beach, the goldeneagle car, the white monkey, or any of that other weird bullshit, you want this video:
...and after that video, you want these ones:
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 Wendy Christine Allen, 2019, able to sit up in a chair for the first time in years, and able to raise up my arm and wiggle fingers. This was when I started playing Witcher 3 on Twitch as part of my physical therapy to regain finger movement. Playing Witcher 3 daily from 2016 to 2019, is how I regained the use of my thumb and two for fingers on my right hand... it is also why I stopped playing Witcher 3 in 2019, once I had strengthen my two forefingers enough to start typing again.Wendy Christine Allen, Old Orchard Beach's Autistic Author, Artist, Illustrator, & Art Car Designer Counting Down to the September 23, 2028 50th Anniversary of my first published book (September 23, 1978) If you are here looking for The Twighlight Manor series, The Crystonite Wars series, The Wild Years series, The White Rock Asylum for the Criminally Insane series, The Twisted Tales series, the Captured By a MerMan series, The Space Dock 13 series, The Kats of Planet Ptarmagin series, the stories about Miss Citten the Eel-Kat, or the stories about Etiole... ALL of those series were combined and consolidated into The Adventures of Quaraun the Insane Pink Necromancer series in 2014, so ALL the different series, are now under one series title. List of the published titles still in print: The Index of over three thousand stories in The Pink Necromancer series What the series is about, for those new here: |
If you want some stories to get you started in The Pink Necromancer series, reading these first will give you a good introduction to the 3 main characters:
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My Elves Are JellyFish...and I asked Google AI and ChatGPT 5.6 what they thought of this.
As requested, my daily writing prompt series is now available print paperback editions on Amazon.
There are 20 volumes of this writing prompt series currently planned and in varying stages of finishing, hopefully all 20 will be published by the end of 2026. I likely will do a 2nd series of writing prompt books in 2027.
Coming soon (Nov/Dec 2026)... patterns for my slow stitched embroidery:
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The first of the Visual Novels/Video Games for The Adventures of Quaraun the Inane/The Pink Necromancer series is published and available on Itch.io, there are 3 more planned for release in 2026, 6 more planned for release in 2027, and the big 60-hour 80k word 150 page one (Quaraun Goes To the Fair) is planned for a 2028 release.
There is a Pink Necromancer card game and a Pink Necromancer board game, as well as a Pink Necromancer table top RPG supliment for Dungeons and Dragons, all in the works, and to be released over the next couple of years as well.
I shouldn't have to say this, but people keep contacting me, so apparently I do:
- No, I do not believe in aliens. Stop contacting me to ask for alien information. If you believe in aliens, I think you are insane, retarded, or both.
- No, my car is not haunted. I've debunked that rumour many times now. . Stop contacting me to ask for haunted car information. If you believe in haunted cars, I think you are insane, retarded, or both.
- No, I am not connected to Stephen King. I didn't even know who he was until you idiots started contacting me asking about him. I had to look him up on Google to find out what you were even talking about! If you have questions about Stephen King, go contact him and ask him. I'm not him. I don't know him. I know nothing about him. I've never read one of his books. I've never seen one of his movies. I can't figure out why you people are even coming to me to ask about him in the first place!
- If someone told you I believe in aliens, if someone told you my car was haunted, if someone told you I was connected to Stephen King, you NEED to contact the FBI agent in charge of my son's murder investigation and TELL HIM WHO it was who told ou, exactly WHAT it was they said, HOW they contacted you, WHERE they contacted you... because it is a KNOWN FACT that my son's murderer is the one who started all these slanderous alien, haunted car, Stephen King rumours, and the FBI is trying to catch her.
If you have any information about my son’s murderer, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
Do you know who this woman is?
On August 8, 2013 she drove a backhoe over my house. On November 14, 2013 she arrived at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me with a golf club and murdered my son. One June 24, 2016, days after my first attempts to walk again, she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarborough, Walmart, reinjuring the Nov 14, 2013 injury.
She crippled me when I was 8 months pregnant, a woman with a golf club, severed my spine and bashed my baby's head in, I spent 9 years relearning to walk, and the FBI is 13 years into the murder investigation and not yet id-ed the attacker who crippled me and killed my baby, both violently with a golf club.
Complete details of EVERYTHING she did is on this page here.
 The golf club woman who called herself Clair as she looked November 14, 2013. Her hair is a weird chin leangth pageboy (very Medival style cut) platinum blonde with wide brown/black dyed stripes in it (like a reverse of Lily Munster, but the stripes are several, almost like a zebra). I am 5'6" and she was a LOT taller then me, like closer to the height of a man; she had thin lips like a man, and large nose like a man... she COULD have been a man disguised as a woman, given the ease with which she severed my spine....she's is a LOT stronger then is typical for a woman). She was wearing a chambre blue denim "blazer jacket over shirt" and a button up mens shirt (possibly flannel) and blue jeans. The bulk of her yelling was focused on accusing me of being transgender, even while ripping my baby out of my 8 month pregnant belly and bashing his head in with a golf club. |
 The Claire woman as she looked during her shoping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart June 2016, the attack with left me paralyzed and in a wheelchair. Her hair was dyed dark red, and she drove away in a gold Volvo 240 Station Wagon of a late 1980s/early1990s model, with a "458" on the lisnce plate.... If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
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If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
Good god! We just found out about yet another slanderous rumour this woman has been spreading? When does it end? How many more of these things are out there?
Video explains what else she's done ...
If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
 If you encounter anyone claiming my car is haunted, demon possessed, or somehow connected to Stephen King please give the information of who, when, where/location to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
If you encounter anyone claiming I believe in aliens or was an alien abducttee, please give the information of who, when, where/location to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
If you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine 04064-1520 on August 8, 2013 please give the information of who it is to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.  If you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine 04064-1520 on August 8, 2013 please give the information of who it is to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
I am sick and tired of people not giving a shit that my son was murdered!
I am sick and tired of jackasses making up rumours and lies about me and my car, calling me an alien abductee and my car haunted, just to try to cover up my son's murder!
Elegant Gothic Lolita (EGL for short) is a type of OtherKin. Specifically VampireKin.
Somewhat of a cross over between Gothic Lolita, Elegant Aristocrat, and Steampunk, The Elegant Gothic Lolita is one of the earliest Lolita movements. Started in the 1970s, long before the addition of crinoline mini skirts, doll face make up, dolly eyes, or chunky shoes, the EGL has a distinctive look that stands out as markedly different from any other type of Lolita. EGL is often described as "the mature women's Lolita" as most of the women who wear it are in their 40s or older. The reason older women are seen wearing it however, is because most of them started wearing it as teens in the 1980s and are still wearing it once they got older.
The primary difference between Elegant Gothic Lolita and just plain Gothic Lolita (sometimes called Sweet Gothic Lolita) and the Elegant Aristocrat is the OtherKin element. While EGLs live every day of their lives as though they were vampires, Gothic Lolitas are just Lolitas wearing Gothic fashion and Elegant Aristocrats are just Goths who focus on the Victorian fashion period. An Elegant Aristocrat and a Gothic Lolita does not consider herself to be a type of OtherKin while the EGL does identify as a type of OtherKin, specifically VampireKin.
While EGL wears ashen, white, vampire looking make-up, the Gothic Lolita wears sweet, rosy cheeked baby doll make up.
Gothic Lolita looks cute and innocent, Elegant Aristocrat looks wealthy and important, EGL looks creepy, dead, and has a somewhat erotic BDSM fetish feel to it.
Hairstyles are very different as well. Gothic Lolitas have big sausage curls, often in blond or pastels like pink or mint. EGLs often have dread locks or cyberpunk yarn hair, and a wild disheveled look. Elegant Aristocrats tend to go for a Gibson Girl or similar historically accurate style.
Gothic Lolita wears big chunky shoes to make them look like a toddler. EGLs wear sexy fetish shoes. Elegant Aristocrats aim for historical accuracy in their show styles.
Also, the Sweet Gothic Lolita wears the super short Shirley Temple crinoline skirts that are typically associated with Lolitas, while the EGL is usually wearing ankle or floor length dresses.
Likewise the Elegant Aristocrat will aim more for historical accuracy, while the EGL may have a more fantastical, cartoony, or even a CosPlay look to her outfits.
It's easier to show you the difference between the three very similar styles, so here are some of each side by side, so you can see the difference:
To make things even more confusing to the newbie, there are several other similar fashion types...
For example the Pastel Gothic Lolita is identical to the Gothic Lolita, except instead of black, she wears whit. Frequently you will see them in pairs with one dressed in black and one dressed in white. While the one dressed in black is emulating a vampire, the one dressed in white is emulating a ghost.
Cyber Goth, takes the EGL and gives it a futuristic, techno, sci-fi cyber punk feel too it. These nearly always include bright neon colours, huge dreads, fuzzy legwarmers,
Steam Goth, is a combination of EGL and SteamPunk, and often is in shades of brown and rust. This one incorporates 1940s style pilot gear, especially googles, and often includes eliments of the American Wild West. This one is often done by men more then women.
While the EGLs are dressing in Vampire fashion and the Pastel Goths are dressing in Ghost fashions, there is also the Guru Lolita, who dresses in Zombie fashions, usually as an undead nurse, spattered in blood.
An additional sub-set are the "Good Little Witches".
There is also a style which dress as Wraiths (undead brides who died on their wedding night)
My favorite one is Pastel Fairy Gothic Lolita, which is the one I've done almost the longest and is the one I currently do. It is another of the OtherKin Lolitas and features Fae Realm Kin Folk, such as Faeries, Elves, Unicorns, Mermaids, etc. It's predominantly pinks, whites, and bright pastels.
My 2nd favorite one, and the one I started out with, way back when I was just 12 years old, is Decora Gothic Lolita. Basically take the Jem cartoon, toss it into Lolita, cover everything with buttons, beads, embroidery, and glitter, and that's Decora. I still do Decoa currently.
The other one I currently do is Mori Kei, which is a hippie inspired, bohemian wood nymph style, of loose flowing, long dresses of shades of green, brown, or orange. Worn by all ages from young toddlers to senior women in their 80's. This is the simplest style and has no wigs, no petticoats, and is made of lots of unmatched layers.
So as you can see, there are a lot of different Gothic Lolita styles. And that's only a few of the many sub-styles. There are many, many, many more. But the focus of this page is the Elegant Gothic Lolita, so we'll save the others for another page.
The EGL wardrobe is made up of mostly black or grey, sometimes with a touch of purple or red accents. Shirts tend to be longer and straighter then what is typically seen in other Lolita styles. Bustle skirts and mermaid skirts, corsets, ruffles, and top hats are standard.
The most common type of shoe worn in EGL is the winkle picker, followed by button down spats.
BDSM fetish items such as patent leather, vinyl, extreme high heels, masks, chains, hand cuffs, spikes, and whips may sometimes be seen used in some EGL outfits.
Makeup is mostly black on a white foundation. Nail art is usually black, silver, dark purple, or blood red.
Hair is usually long and either black, grey, silver, or white. If coloured it is usually dark purple, navy blue, blood red, or dusty lilac.
Accessories include Victorian mourning jewelry (black cameos, and large amethyst stones), black chockers made of velvet and lace.
The most common type of purse, bag, totebag, or backpack to carry is one shaped like a coffin, to let people know you are a vampire and can not ever be far away from your grave dirst, so thus carry your grave dirt with you in a mini coffin, to allow yourself to travel farther distances from your grave.
The original intention was to look like an Edwardian vampire, so fake fangs and fake blood are often included in the mix as well. Also as vampires can not go out in daylight, dark glasses and umbrellas are often worn when outside.
I began wearing EGL style in the late 1980s and throughout most of the 1990s. It's not a style I wear often anymore, due to the fact that a bomb blew up my house on October 18, 2006 and most of my EGL wardrobe was destroyed in the fire. EGL is a rather expensive wardrobe to build and I've never had enough spare income since 2006 to rebuild the wardrobe the bomber destroyed.
Elegant Aristocrat, Gothic Lolita, Guru Lolita, Pirate Lolita, and SteamPunk Lolita all branched out of and broke away from EGL in the 1980s and 1990s.
EGL is worn by both men and women and is one of the few Lolita movements where you see nearly as many men as women wearing it.
But Where Are The Ruffly Skirts? Doesn't Lolita Mean Wearing Big Mini Skirts With Lots Of Ruffles?
A lot of people look at fashion movements like Elegant Gothic Lolita and Mori Kei Lolita or Fairy Lolita and ask: Where's the frilly short skirts? It ain't Lolita without the frilly short shirts!
No. Actually, the term Lolita has nothing to do with the type of skirt, but rather is a term that comes from the Porn industry. Yes, I did say Porn industry. The word Lolita come from very controversial child pornography erotica book titled Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
The book is about a man having a mid-life crisis and feeling old and no longer able to have sex with women because they make him feel old. He becomes a predator going after progressively younger women, until he discovers the little 12 year old girl next door, named Lolita, who he becomes obsessed with. He takes over the girl's life, in her minds being the daddy she never had, but in his mind he's training her to be the ultimate sex slave. To prevent her from becoming a teenager, and therefor causing him to lose sexual interest in her, he forces her to wear baby cloths and pretend to be a 3 year old as he has reached the point of he can only get sexual satisfaction from children 3 and 4 years old.
The book is incredibly disturbing on many levels and shows the dual sides of a relationship with older men and children, the innocence of the child not knowing what the man is doing to her and the extremes the man will go to to hide his pedophile nature from those around him.
While the book is a horrific work of blatant child pornography and glorifies (and yes promotes child porn, with the author attempting to show it is okay to have sex with children because the child is too innocent to know what sex is and is therefore still a virgin no matter how many times you fuck her), in spite of the book's horrific nature and intent, it is hailed as one of the top 100 classics in literature and is required reading in most High schools across America.
As a result of this book, it became a trend in the 1930s/1940s, for men t make their wives dress up like Shirley Temple. Soldiers stationed in Japan during World War II, made a habit of bringing with them, Shirley Temple dresses and having the Geishas (prostitutes - yes, a Geisha is a prostitute) wear them.
After the war, in the 1950s and 1960s, Geshias kept these dresses and continued wearing them for American men who bought their services.
By the 1970s, it became common practice for most prostitutes to stand on the street corners, dressed in super elaborate versions of the Shirley Temple dress.
By the 1980s, teen girls, wanting to look like hot sexy prostitutes, took to wearing the same fashions.
By the 1990s, Shirley Temple dresses had evolved into the wild baby doll dresses you see today.
Interestingly, when teen girls started wearing "Lolita" fashion as an every day trend, prostitutes went back to wearing their more traditional white face and kimono, and by the 1980s, Lolita was no longer code for "hooker".
When people ask, why was the 3 year old film star Shirley Temple seen by men as a sex object... to find the answer you have to go to her very first, now banned and not available on any DVD anywhere, Porn flicks. Yes, at 3 years old Shirley Temple was the most sought after porn star on silent films.
Though made illegal in 1987, "Baby Porn" porn films that literally stared baby girls in sex scenes with adult men, was the top selling type of porn of all time, and that is what Shirley Temple started out as, before she went on to the more family friendly movies she is known for today.
Had Temple's parents been doing today what they did back in the 1920s, they would have gone to prison. However, in the 1920s child porn was seen nt only as normal, but was considered good for the men who watched it, as it kept them from raping their own daughters, which was not illegal in the 1920s but was frowned upon.
In the 1950s men could still legally rape children in America.
Yes... LEGALLY.
Children were still considered PROPERTY and a man could buy a child for a farm hand or a sex toy and the law did nothing.
Yes... in AMERICA.
In 1954 women began petitioning to make laws protecting children's rights.
The book Lolita was written in 1955 to PROTEST the fact that children deserved rights and to support the rights of men to fuck as many children as he wanted.
It was not until 1957, the American invented laws enforcing a legal age of consent and in 1957, age of consent was 10.
Keeping in mind that the book Lolita was written in this time period. Keep in mind also that the legal age of consent as not increased to the age of 10 until 1957. Yes, in America, before 1957, age of sexual consent was 8 years old. Age of consent was not increased from 10 to 18, until 1987, the same year that the laws were made banning porn stars under the age of 18.
In the end, the word "Lolita" means "too make one look younger then they are" and has nothing to do with the type of shirt worn.
Shirley Temple skirts are the most common skirt worn in the Lolita fashion movement, simply because it makes a women in her 40s look like a 10 year old.
Elegant Gothic Lolita and Mort Kei Lolita, stand out for their lack of the Shirley Temple skirt. Both are called "the mature women's Lolita" because they are often worn by seniors, women as old as their 80s wear these fashions, but while wearing them are often mistaken by strangers as being only in their 20s and 30s.
Interestingly many Americans look at the Lolita girls and assume they are looking at children. Here, let's look at some Classic Shirley Temple style Lolita girls:
How old do you think those girls are?
Most of them are in their 30s, some are in their 40s.
These are not children. They are not teenagers. They are not young adults. These are business women, business women as in doctors and lawyers, who when not at work, walk up and down the streets of Japan, posing for photos for tourists.
It takes a lot of hours, putting on a lot of make-up to transform a women in her 30's into a 10 year old, but that is exactly what these women do.
For many the goal is not to look young, but rather to look like a living doll. Many of these women are a type of OtherKin known as DollKin.
I'm also going to point out here, that not all of the Sweet Lolitas are girls either. I know at least 2 of the ones I included are men.
When men do Doll-Face Sweet Lolita it's called Sissification. It is a type of transvestite and is in fact the type of transvestite that Quaraun is.
Remember, Lolita means "dressing younger then your age", not "wearing poufy short skirts". These women, all in their 60s to 80s, are Lolitas: (This is Mori Kei Lolita and as you can see, men wear it too)
So, remember, you are never too old to be a Lolita, men can be Lolitas too, and Lolita DOES NOT require big poufy mini skirts, because Lolita means "wearing clothes to look younger then you are".
But back to our topic...
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
The Vampire Aristocrats of The Lolita Universe:
One thing to keep in mind is that Gothic does not mean "black", and in fact the real Goths rarely wore black.
There are 2 Gothic periods, one will have you wearing Greek togas and Roman chariot leather. That's the original Gothic Period, which was in late Medieval times.
The other is the Gothic Revival Period, also known as The Edwardian Period, when King Edward was on the throne. There was an additional Gothic Revival Era in France known as the Josephine Era, when Napoleon was on the throne.
Interestingly when most people today set out to create a "Gothic" ensamble, they usually look to Victorian fashions and not Edwardian fashions.
One must consider why it was these periods were considered "Gothic Revival" and why it is that the Victorian Era was NOT Gothic. Gothic Revival meant a return to simpler things. For women it meant tossing aside the corset and wearing loose straight dresses inspired by Greek togas. It meant lots of straight lines and no curves.
Keep in mind that the Gothic Revival gave way to Suffragette and Art Nueve, resulting in Flappers in the 1920s.
When EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita movement first started in the 1970s, the goal was to look Goth, in other words to dress like Edwardian women's liberators and 1920's Flappers. It meant casting off your bras, freeing you body as well as your soul of the confining restraints of girdles, bras, and corsets.
It is interesting to watch the evolution of Goth fashion over time. In the 1970s Goth fashion had no corsets, no women wore bras, dresses were made of pastel pinks and yellows and were loose fitting.
In the 1980s the Punk movement adopted elements of the Goth movement, resulting in the easily identifiable, black clad Emo Goths which rose up in the 1990s and are what most people think of when they hear the word "Goth".
While Emo Goths wear black and lace up in tight corsets, most Goths are not Emo and do not wear either black or corsets.
The defining nature that makes a Goth a Goth, is their attempts to bring back Gothic fashion to the mainstream.
What one must now ask themselves, what exactly did the Goths wear? To find the answer we must go to the Gothic Period and actually look at the Gothic cloths, worn by the controversial "loose women" of the Gothic period who tossed their corsets aside and fought for the right to vote...
And here they are:
Real Goths, Wearing Real Gothic Fashions, From The Real Gothic Period
And did you know the fashions in the first 2 columns walked side by side, both from the same period? Most people don't realize that and assume there were many years between the two styles.
Now I must ask... how in the hell did Gothic go from meaning, wearing corset-less clothes resembling white Greek togas, to wearing skin tight black corsets, I don't know. But it did.
<----This is an actual Gothic woman from the actual Gothic Period... The original Goths were women who fought for the right to NOT wear corsets and to show their ankles, and they did it in light airy pastels.
This is today's version of bringing back Gothic fashion
Women (and men) wearing corsets tighter then ever and doing it in black?------>
Can you see the similarities?
No?
Neither can I.
I think, Goth has come to mean "rebellious" and in current fashion, women do not wear corsets, thus a women who DOES wear a corset is seen as rebellious now. The same goes for the color. Dark colours used to be the norm and the rebellious young girls of the Gothic era wore scandalous pinks and yellows. Now pastels are the norm and wearing black is scandalous.
In any case. Gothic means "emulating the Gothic Revival Period" in other words: standing up for your rights, wearing cloths that do not fit the current norm, and not taking shit from no one, and does not mean "wear black", and as such, you can wear whatever colour you want and still be Goth.
Build Your Own EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Wardrobe
All of the images below this point are affiliate links that take you to the page where the product is sold. I've tried to include as many items from Amazon as possible, as they are the site most people are familiar with buying from. There are also links to other sites as well.
If you want to make an EGL outfit like any of the ones shown above, know that most of them, started out with simple easy to find components (skirts, blouses, etc) and then did a lot of hand sewing, hand beading, hand embroidering, altering, cutting pieces out, adding pieces to them, added lace trim, etc. Very few EGL outfits are bought "as is" and the ones that are, cost several thousands of dollars to buy/order/have made.
I will include a section of common items used to embellish clothen items to convert them into the elaborate creations seen in the photos above.
The super elaborate components like horns, feather head dresses, etc, are usually one of a king items made by the person wearing the outfit and are rarely things you can find available for sale.
Also, it is not uncommon to run into "Goth Snobs". They are rare, but they exist. If you run into a Goth or Lolita or other fashion subculture person, who picks on you or belittles you about your outfit being "not Goth enoth" or "too cyber punk to be Loli" or whatever else they can think of to complain about: just ignore them and go right on doing your personal wardrobe the way you feel comfortable.
Never feel you have to fit in 100% with any one style. If you want to wear pink Decora bow filled hair with your Guro Nurse Lolita and toss on some Fairy wings besides, you go right ahead. Remember, every one of these sub-groups within the sub groups of the Lolita and Gothic fashions community, was started by someone who strayed from the "norm" and added their own personal touches to their style.
Remember: The most important thing about your wardrobe is that no matter what you wear, you have fun wearing it.
I will be periodicity adding new items to this page as I come across more, so expect to see it get much bigger over time.
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
Mermaid Corset Skirts
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
Bustle Skirts
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
High Low Asymmetrical Skirts
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Cocktail Skirts
The tulle cocktail skirts shown below (the one that comes in 35 different colours) are the base for which most of the Classic Baby Doll style Lolita dresses are built on. If you are making that style outfit, it is recommended that you purchase at minimum 2 of these skirts and as many as 4 of them, to wear all at once, in order to achieve the fullness usually seen in Lolita skirts. You would then wear 1 to 4 crinoline petticoats under them. Typically to achieve the huge full fluffy shirts of the Classic Baby Doll Lolita, you will require at minimum 6 layers and as many as 10 layers, depending on the amount of fullness you want in your finished outfit.
While the outer layers of an EGL skirt will usually be black, the tulle underskirts are often of a contrasting colour, thus I have included all the colour options available for this skirt.
For those wanting to make a hoopless floor length skirt, see the next section below this one, for this exact same tulle skirt in a floor length option. Again, use up to 10 of them worn all at once to achieve the vast fullness of the really big width skirts.
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Maxi Skirts
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Apron & Pinafores
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Pumpkin Pants & Bloomers
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Petticoats & Hoop Skirts
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Coats & Jackets
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Corsets
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Belts & Sashes
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Dresses
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Blouses
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Scarves, Stoles, & Cloaks
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Snoods, Fascinators, & Hair Accessories
(These are the horns I used for my BoomFuzzy the Unicorn CosPlay)
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Hats
Note, nearly ALL the hats you see in Lolita outfits are handmade by the wearer. Hat making is not that difficult to do, if you have the time and patience. It's a tedious process. Here are the patterns if you want to try your hand at hat making:
Hat Making Supplies
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Wigs
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Bags, Purses, & Totes
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Dress Patterns
I have more then 700 patterns for reproduction cloths, and more then 200 pattern books, including all of the ones I've listed here. I highly recommend these patterns and pattern books as they make wonderful EGL outfits.
(This is the pattern I used for my mauve velvet gown.)
(This is another pattern I have used.)
(This is the pattern used to make my lovely lavender bustle dress. Sadly this was one of the dresses destroyed by the bomb.)
(This is my purple velvet "Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach" cape.)
(This is my huge blue velvet burnoose.)
This is one of my all time favorite patterns. I wear these, with the next pattern --->
This is my #1 all time favorite pattern. I have several copies of it as I use it so often. A large portion of my wardrobe is simply this one pattern made in every colour imaginable.
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Fabric For Sewing With
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
Lace & Ribbon Trim For Sewing With
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Stockings & Tights
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Jewelry
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Gloves
EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Shoes
Items Commonly Used In Creating EGL:
Elegant Gothic Lolita Wardrobes
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CosPlayer's Supply Index
I am an OtherKin Life Actor, which means I'm a CosPlayer who dresses in full CosPlay 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year. I own no "normal street wear". I started doing this February 4, 1987 and have now been doing it for more then 30 years. The bulk of that time I CosPlay a transvestite Elf wizard. My mother was a professional seamstress who specialized in pageant dresses for little girls and very elaborate Halloween costumes. She taught me to sew when I was 8. I made my first ball gown at age 12. At age 16 I graduated college with a degree in Fashion Design, Dressmaking, and Theatrical Costumes. I've gone on to make some of the most insanely detailed, over the top CosPlays ever seen at many conventions.
Because of this I am frequently asked by others looking to get into CosPlaying, LARPing, SAC, OtherKin, and costume making for advice on how to make and where to buy supplies. This resulted in a series of Squidoo pages on the topic of CosPlaying and included Squidoo's #1 most visited and highest paid Squidoo Lens of all time: "The Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay" If you remember me from Squidoo, chances are high you knew me as "The Bride of Sesshomaru" rather then "EelKat" (Bride of Sesshomaru is the other online username you see me using across the internet - and was the username I had on FanFiction.net, when I wrote my long running short story series "The Bride of Sesshomaru", featuring a pink clad Lord Sesshomaru gone mad, which has since been renamed "The Adventure of Quaraun the Insane").
Squidoo went out of business in 2013, leaving most users with their hard work lost forever. Fortunately, I had backups of everything, and so all of my Squidoo pages are slowly returning to the internet here on EelKat.com. Eventually they will all be back.
Anyways, fans of the Squidoo CosPlay series, have been emailing me and asking if I'd put it back online the Gallery pages I had built for shoes, hats, lolita, goth, cyberpunk, clubbing, and costumes, which had featured links to suppliers of a lot of very hard to find, fetish items. These pages were very specifically, links to the actual products I had used to make my own CosPlays. Over time my CosPlay Squidoo series became the go-to spot for many con goings seeking to find suppliers for making their CosPlays and they were deeply saddened by the lack of this resource. Seeing the return of my other popular Squidoo pages Amphibious Aliens, Autism & Me, and The World's Most Haunted Car, my Squidoo followers have been asking is I can bring the CosPlay series back next.
Yes.
Yes I can.
And here it is...
Costume Supplies: Shoes
Disabled/Handicap Friendly Flat Soled Fetish Shoes
Fetish Shoes - Black
Fetish Shoes - Sliver
Fetish Shoes - Gold
Fetish Shoes - Cream/Beige/Nude
Fetish Shoes - Brown
Fetish Shoes - Animal Print
Fetish Shoes - Multi-Print & Florals
Over the Top Gypsy Style Wedding Dresses
Yellow Wedding Dresses
Green Wedding Dresses
Purple Wedding Dresses
Pink Wedding Dresses
Silver Wedding Dresses
Gold Wedding Dresses
Brown Wedding Dresses
Black Wedding Dresses
Gypsy Fashion
Real Gypsy Wedding Dresses
Gypsy Veiling - Hijab Head-covering - Dupatta Modesty
J-Fashion
Aristocrat (J-fashion)
Kogal (J-Fashion)
Visual kei
Ganguro
Neo-Victorian
Steampunk
Decora/Dekora (J-Fashion)
Mori Kei (Forest Nymph)
Yamanba (J-Fashion)
Rockabilly
Fairy Kei
Dolly kei
Cult party kei
Angura kei
Oshare kei
OtherKin
Elven Kin/Elf Kin
Dragon Kin
Unicorn Kin
Fairy Kin
Demon Kin
Doll Kin
Wolf Kin
Fox Kin
Cat Kin
Dog Kin
MermKin
Big Fancy High Fashion Hats
Red Hats
Orange Hats
Yellow Hats
Green Hats
Blue Hats
Purple Hats
Pink Hats
White Hats
Grey Hats
Brown Hats
Black Hats
Silver & Gold Hats
Capes
Red, Orange, Yellow Capes
Green, Blue, Brown Capes
Pink, Purple Capes
Black, White Capes
Butterfly, Bird, Wing Capes
Silver, Gold Capes
Isis Wings & Dance Capes
PreMade Costumes
Sexy Vampires
Sexy Pirates
Disney Princess Costumes
Lolita Supplies
Gothic Lolita
Steampunk Lolita
Amai Lolita or Amarori (Sweet Lolita)
Pastel Goth Lolita
Guro Lolita (grotesque)
Wa Lolita
Kuro Lolita
Sailor Lolita
Qi Lolita
Pankurori/Punk Lolita
Himerori /Princess Lolita
Country Lolita
Kurashikaru Rorita (Classical Lolita)
Erorori/Ero Lolita
Shirorori (White) Lolita (Shiro Lolita)
Kurorori (Black) Lolita (Kuro Lolita)
Pinkurori (Pink) Lolita
Mizuirorori (Light Blue) Lolita
Itarori (Painful Lolita)
Housewife Lolita (Also Obarori): Mother and child lolita
Decora Lolita
Pirate Lolita
Mori Kei (Forest Nymph) Lolita
Yamanba Lolita
Fairy Kei Lolita
Dolly kei
Cult party kei Lolita
Oshare kei Lolita
Dance Wear
Belly Dance Skirts: Red
Belly Dance Skirts: Orange
Belly Dance Skirts: Yellow
Belly Dance Skirts: Green
Belly Dance Skirts: Blue
Belly Dance Skirts: Purple
Belly Dance Skirts: Pink
Belly Dance Skirts: Black
Belly Dance Tops: Red
Belly Dance Tops: Orange
Belly Dance Tops: Yellow
Belly Dance Tops: Green
Belly Dance Tops: Blue
Belly Dance Tops: Purple
Belly Dance Tops: Pink
Belly Dance Tops: Black
Belly Dance Scarfs: Red
Belly Dance Scarfs: Orange
Belly Dance Scarfs: Yellow
Belly Dance Scarfs: Green
Belly Dance Scarfs: Blue
Belly Dance Scarfs: Purple
Belly Dance Scarfs: Pink
Belly Dance Scarfs: Black
Costume Supplies: Wigs
Wigs (A General Mix)
Wigs - Red
Wigs - Orange
Wigs - Yellow
Wigs - Green
Wigs - Blue
Wigs - Purple
Wigs - Pink
Wigs - White
Wigs - Grey
Wigs - Black
Wigs - Brown
BDSM Fetish Wear & Stuff
BDSM Fetish Wear For Women
BDSM Fetish Wear For Men
BDSM & Biker Masks
French Maid Costumes
Sissification Gear
Whips, Chains, Restrains, Etc
Flamboyant Nipples: Nipple Rings & Pasties
Flamboyant Penises: Penis Rings & Scrotum Pendants
CBT Supplies: Penis Sleeves, Cock Cages, Ball Chains, etc.
Dildos. Lots and Lots of Dildos
All Things Penis: Penis Pops, Penis Shaped Cake Pans, Penis Shaped Balloons... Yeah, they exist and here they are.
There were over 200 pages in this series back on Squidoo (listed above). It'll take me a bit of time to get all of them back up, as I have to go through each list and check every single link, to make sure the supplier is still active, the items are still available, and remove dead links, etc. It takes 2 or 3 days to go through each list, so it could be a while before all of the pages are back online for you, but I'll try to get up as many as I can, as quickly as possible for you guys. The pages listed on the list above will be turned into links as each page goes live.
(Sadly, as some of you may already be aware, my favorite supplier of Goth fashions has gone out of business, and as such, the Drac-In-A-Box series of Squidoo Pages will not be returning.)
And... Yes, The Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay Squidoo Lens will be returning to the internet. When it does, the link to it will be here.
This page was written by Wendy Christine Allen of 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine.
All Rights Reserved.
Note: there are likely spelling errors on this site, and I am unlikely to see the ... I fix them when I find them, but, there are many issues here...
Note: English is not my first language, Shetlean Scottish is my native language, there are likly spelling and grammar errors, as I do not know American English and am attempting to write it by sounding words out.
Many times that Americans think a word on my site is misspelled, often it is not misspelled, it is just I mixed up languages and wrote it in Scottish without realizing I mixed the Scottish in with the English. Also our grammar is somewhat reversed from English grammar so words that are seeming in the wrong order for American English, is usually because they are in the correct order for Scottish and I either put English words in Scottish order by mistake or was unaware English put them in a different order then Scottish does.
For those unaware, Scottish Shetlean looks like this:
American English to Scottish:
a bit (piece) = a party --- EXAMPLE: "And some know a bit of Latin " > "And somme kan of latyn a party "
a long distance from = A piece fae
a piece of = the bit --- EXAMPLE: "The duck ate a piece of bread " > "The deuk ett the bit breid "
about the banks (on the shore/at the beach) = aboot da banks
accomplishments = kunnandi
After = Back o --- EXAMPLE: " After Halloween" > "Back o Hallomas "
alive (living) = kvikr
Always on the move = Never aff o da go
am I not = amn't I --- EXAMPLE: "Am I not invited? " > "I amn't invited? or Amn't I invited?"
are = is --- EXAMPLE: "Are you going soon?" > "Is ya to be going soon?"
autumn = dah haihst
belong to = fylgja
best = bettah moost
betray (verb) = svíkja
bewildered = villhyggjandi
building = biggin up --- EXAMPLE: "building confidence in everyday use " > " biggin up confidence in ivvryday øs "
built = builded --- EXAMPLE: "He built a new porch." > "Hims builded a new porch."
cast a spell = hoodooed
cat = kat (sounds like "caught") --- EXAMPLE: "Is it an orange cat?" > "Be he a o'jinn kat?"
child = bairn
church = kirk
color = colour
danger = hœttr
daren't = darena
daring = djarfr
dark = dökk
dark elf = Dökkálfr
dark-elves = Døkkálfar
darker = dökká
do you agree = ,eh? --- EXAMPLE: "That's a fine looking woman, do you agree?" > "Dair's ah right bonnie lass, eh?"
do you want to come too = ,eh? --- EXAMPLE: "I'm going to the store, do you want to come with me?" > "Me go to shope, eh?"
each = eche --- EXAMPLE: "Which each person can understand " > "That kan eche man understonde "
educated = lered --- EXAMPLE: "Both among the educated and the uneducated " > "As wel among lered as lewed "
elf = Alfr
Elf = Álfr
Elf Home = Álfheimr
Elf World = Álfheimr
elf-advice = Ælfred
elf-beautiful = ælfscyne
elf-friend = Ælfwine
elf-guardian (female) = Ælfwaru
elf-guardian (male) = Ælfweard
elf-powerful = Ælfric
everyday = ivvryday
eyelids = eye ledes --- EXAMPLE: "He closed his eyelids." > "Hims did shut hims eye ledes"
fair = faire --- EXAMPLE: "Going to the fair." > "Done gone went to the faire."
feild = felde --- EXAMPLE: "Standing in the feild." > "Stoodt in thems felde."
further = ferther --- EXAMPLE: "I looked further." > "I dids lokid ferther."
green = grene --- EXAMPLE: "Look at the green hedges and woods." > "Look see at thems heigges and holtz so grene."
handsome = braw --- EXAMPLE: "He is very handsome " > "Him wicked braw "
have faith = trúa
Have no doubts about our doing it = Nae faer o wis
Have no liking for this. = Hae nae brou o this.
have not = ain't
He knows how many beans make five. = He kens the laid frae the croun o the causey.
He knows which side his bread is buttered on. = He kens whilk side his bannock's buttert on.
Head for = Mak wye for
head rope in fishing nets and lines = baak
head to head = Be at the knag and the widdie
horse fly = klegsie
I = Me
I Think = Me thinks --- EXAMPLE: "I think we're late. " > "Me thinks that we is late. "
I wish you well for the future = Lang may yer lum reek (translation: Long may your chimney smoke)
idiot = eejit --- EXAMPLE: "You idiot." > "Ya eejit."
idiot = numpty
if = iffy or yif--- EXAMPLE: "If you don't mind..." > "Iffy yas does no care mind...."; "If you'll stay with me long enough = "Yif ye so longe with me wil dwelle". "
I'll be even with you = A'll see day aboot wi ye
know = ken
looked = lokid
looked = lokid --- EXAMPLE: "I looked up." > "I lifte up me eye ledes and lokid ferther."
magic = hoodoo
naked = nøkkviðr
needle = bodkin
neither = nouther --- EXAMPLE: "Who know neither Latin nor French " > "That kan nouther latyn ne frensch "
No = Nay --- EXAMPLE: "No, I don't think so. " > "Nay, me thinks not. "
Nobody knew = not-knew nobody
Noontide = Da heicht o da day
NOTE: Extra words are often added. --- EXAMPLE: "Did you meet the new family next door?" > "Dids ya gets a chance to stop by and meets with thems new folk that move-ed in down yawn there next doors to ya, eh?"
NOTE: Extra words are often added. --- EXAMPLE: "He went to Rite-Aid to pick up his prescription" > "Hims did go to that yawn there new fangled store the new folks call that Rite Aid place, to gets himself some of thems there pills what the doctor gone and tells him to take each morning, a-yep, hims did."
old = olde --- EXAMPLE: "But educated and uneducated, old and young " > "Bot lered and lewed olde and yonge "
orange = o'jinn
out = oot --- EXAMPLE: "The cat wants to go out." > "The kat he do wants oot."
outside = oot dair
people = fokk --- EXAMPLE: "the people of Shetland " > "Shetland fokk "
people = folke --- EXAMPLE: "Look at all those people." > "Lookie at all thems folke."
poorly = febelly --- EXAMPLE: "Who know French very poorly " > "That kan frensch ful febelly "
Recognising = Recognisin --- EXAMPLE: "Recognising the bilingual nature of Shaetlan speakers " > "Recognisin da wye at Shaetlan spaekers is bilingual "
shield = skjoldr
Since = For --- EXAMPLE: "Since that is your native language " > "For that is youre kynde langage "
tell = telle --- EXAMPLE: "I'll tell you in English " > "In englysch tonge I schal you telle "
the = da, de, or is not used at all --- EXAMPLE: "I went to the store" > "Me goes to da shoppe" or "Me goes to da shoppe" or "Me goes to shoppe"
them = dem, dem dair --- EXAMPLE: "I went with them" > "Me goes wit dem dair"
there = dair --- EXAMPLE: "I want those potatoes" > "Me be wanting dem dair tatetas."
they = dey
To where = whither --- EXAMPLE: ""Where you go, I will go." " > ""Whither thou goest, I'll go."
understand = understonde
understand = understonden --- EXAMPLE: "Some understand English " > "And somme understonden englysch "
very = wicked --- EXAMPLE: "very good" > "wicked good"; "very bad" > "wicked bad"; "very cold" > "wicked cold"
Where = Whither --- EXAMPLE: "Where is the restroom? " > "Whither is the privy?"
Yes = Yea or Aye --- EXAMPLE: "Yes, I think so. " > "Yea, me thinks so. " or "Aye, me thinks so. "
For anyone actually interested in learning my native language, the Scottish government has THIS listed as the official dictionary of our people: https://static1.squarespace.com/static/61d7352954b7fd1c9dbdfef4/t/65ddb2749d5e0541a01009c0/1709027964496/Spaektionary_2024feb.pdf
The Scottish government provides this document to show our language in use: https://www.shetland.uhi.ac.uk/t4-media/one-web/uhi-shetland-images-and-documents/documents-/shaetlan/Shaetlan-Language-Plan-2022-Shaetlan.pdf
More information about our language can be found on this website: https://www.iheardee.com which is written in my native language.
However, there is also other reasons why words might be misspelled, or why I might not understand someone when they speak to me.
My grandmother Helen Ricker Allen, was from Unst, Shetland, Scotland, and she the one who raised me. She taught me to read and write, but it was Shetlain that she taught me. She died when I was 8 years old, and I was locked in a woodshed after her furneral, I escaped the woodshed 27 years later at age 31, and have been trying to learn how to speak and write English since then.
It is a very great struggle.
At age 37 I took remidial reading and speaking classes at Southern Maine Community College, but we are Gypsies and Gypsy men do not allow us Gypsy women to have education, and so, while at college, on November 14, 2013, I was beaten with a golf club, while I was 8 months pregnet, breaking my spine, hips, and knees, killing my baby and leaving me quardepaleic since.
Now my primary focus these past 13 years has been on relearning to use my hand so I could type... as of 2023, I have regained the use of my right thumb, and first two right fingers, and after 10 years offline, I am back online due to I can use three finguers.
I never went to school, so I do not know maths and numbers and sciences, and I do not know what else would have been taught to me in school. We are Scottish Gypsies and Gypsy culture does not allow females to go to school. Being born female was already a great sin, but my grandmother took great risk in teaching me reading and writing. At 4 years old I was punished by my Uncle Bruce for knowing how to read, by being beaten in the face with a cinder block brick, that broke my right jaw and left me with garbaled near-mute spoken words ever since.
Because no one ever spoke words to be face to face from he time I was 8 years old until I was 37 years old (I escaped the room at age 27, but did not start college until 37), I have no training in how to vocally sound out or speak the words I write or read. I can read words, but I do not know how to sound out or say those words. I can write words, but I do not know how to match the written word against the spoken word. I struggle to associate spoken words at all, or make them match up with writen words.
Esentially, written words and spoken words are two completly seperate languages in my brain, and I have difficulty understanding spoken words.
If you say a sentance to me with your mouth, chances are very high I will have ZERO understanding of what you said and I will not be able to ander you.
However, if you WRITE down that exact same sentabnce, I can understand you and can type a written responce to you.
My doctors tell me this is a side effect of extreme isolation and neglect and lack of human contact during my toddler, childhood, teen, and young adult years, and that my brain never deveoloped to comprehend spoken vocal words due to no one ever speaking to me in over three decades of the first half of my life.
While I can read and write, American English (somewhat) I do no know how words are sounded out, what they are supposed to sound like. I readand write by shape recognition, not by sound/vocal recognition, so when reading and writing I do no "hear the words in my head" as I am told most people do when they read and write. In other words... I see "c a t" and think "c-a-t" I do not think "cat" nor do I "see" an image of a cat, no do I "hear" the word cat spoken. I'm told that this is very rare and that most people read and write by sounding out the words and linking them to visual mind images, while hearing the sound of the word in their head. I neiher hear words in my head no see images of things in my head. I'm told this is what makes me both a speed reader and speed writer, because I'm not tripped up by hear sounds or seeing images in my head like nomal people would be doing... however, I'm also told this is why my spelling and grammar are very poor, because my brain is not hear the sounds of the words or seeing visual images of the objects the words represent, so my mind also does not register spelling and grammer errors at all.
As I was only let out of the woodshed on Sundays to go to the Cape Elezabeth Ward Church of the August Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, I was never allowed to go to school or hospital either. No adults ever talked to me because I was evil for comitted the sin of being born female, so I never learned how to speak properly and do not know how to sound out words to say them.
I was 42 years old, in 2016 when, while having an MRI for my spine, the doctors found out my speak issue was caused by a broken jaw as a toddler that was healed wrong because not being allowed to go to doctors. I had surgury to fix that, and since 2016 have been trying to learn how to use my jaw and touge so I can speak vocal words now.
Since 2023 my primary focus shifted to relearning to walk. I can now, in 2026, sit up for 2 or 3 hours a day, and can sand with a cane for a few minutes, and can walk for around five thousand feet in 2 to 3 segments a day, with the help of pushing my wheelchair like a walker.
As of 2026, with a slight return to using my fingers and legs, I am once again focused on trying to learn the American English, but I live in mortal fear of my uncles and male cousins, as they are so hateful of allowing me to have education.
have no one to help me to know if I am doing words correctly, and as such, I have no way of knowing if there are spelling and grammar errors, but I asume there are, and I fix them when I learn them, but I do not know what I do not know and spelling American words is a thing I do bnot know.
I have Low Fucntioning Kanner's Syndrom, also known as "RainMan Type of Autism" aka REAL and ACTUAL Autism, not to be confused with Aspergers, High Functioning Autism, or and of thr 861 illnesses on the Autism Spectrum. An Autism Spectrum Disorder is an illness that has symptoms similar to Autism but IS NOT Autism. If you have an Autism Spectrum Disorder, it LITERALLY MEANS you do NOT have Autism.
I am medically diagnosed as "kanner's syndrome, actual autism, the rainman type, profoundly retarded autistic savant, with a general IQ of 73, and an writing IQ of 221" but they added that they did not know how to properly diagnose me as I am "technically a feral child" and they don't know "how much is the autism, and how much is simple horrific levels of abuse and neglect induced post traumatic stress disorder that will go away with proper socilization".
It means I know how to write, I can write a lot, and it is next to impossible for you to teach me how to do literally anythig else because my brain only knows how to write and doesn;t know how to do anything else..
There's a reason, when I do book signings, people are quick to say: "Okay, what's the joke? why is this stupid retard here? where's the real author? I know this retard isn't the author. where are you hiding the author, why is this fucking retard here"
The end result is, I have near zero social interaction... my 3 years in college was the ONLY face to face interaction I have ever had with humans in my entire life, and I struggle deeply to understand MOST words used by MOST people when they ask me question. And so I suffer from a huge lack of understanding many words people say to me, how to translate those words into spelling, and how to translate what it is that has been said.
The fact remains hat until there exists a human on this planet who is willing to sit down and teach me what words spoken line up with and match what words written, this deficent is unlily to improve. But the fact also remains, that I am simply far too profoundly retarded for anyone to even try to make any attempt at all even to speak a friendly "hgelloe" or "good morning" when passing me on the street, so I have lost all hope of anyone ever either being my friend, being willing to teach me how to match spoken words to written words, or how to speak to other humans.
While there are around 20k pages on this website, most of them are blocked from search engines, with only around 800 of them available for appearing in Google/Bing/etc search results. The remainder can only be accessed via the various links found throughout this site. This was done deliberately on my part, and I did it because the bulk of the pages on this website are chapters from 138 novels and 423 novellas, so only the first page of each novel and novella indexed by search engines, and the remainder are linked in order, one page at a time, via clicking "next page" at the end of each. So if you are looking for a specific page from a specific novel, Google can't help you.
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Do you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Avenue, Old Orchard Beach, Maine on August 8, 2013? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me July 26, 2016 at scarborough WalMart,... they arrived the first time with a backhoe on August 8, 2013, that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since....
... which means it is now only a few weeks from the 14th anniversary of my son's murder. I was 8 month pregnant November 14, 2013, and a student ay SMCC, and coming out of the Buglight Lighthouse art studio after art class, when a still unidentifiedwoman wielding a golf club attacked me, severed my spine, while I was 8 months pregnant, triggered early labour, then killed my son minutes after he was born.
While accusing me of being transgender, screaming "transvestite freak" and "look at that thing, that's Ken's son in a dress"... while I was 8 months pregnant.
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My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son and crippled me, arrived the first time with a backhoe that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since. |
The backhoe driver returned November 14, 2013, armed with a golf club, used it to break my spine and smash my baby's brains out on the ground
On November 14, 2013, my son was murdered. I was 8 months pregnant, leaving my college classroom, and just getting into my car, when 3 strangers, a man and two women, armed with golf clubs leapt out from behind my car screaming "kill or be killed, kill the transvestite freaks, kill them all before they kill us! look at that thing! That is Ken's son, look at how it's dressed! kill the transvestite freaks! kill or be killed"... while the bald man and the red haired woman chanted this over and over, the blonde woman, lunged with the golf club.
She severed my spine, I am now a quadriplegic, and been paralyzed arms and legs, and in a wheelchair for 13 years now. She broke my hips, my knees, my legs, ruptured most of my discs, and shattered three of my vertebrae so bad that the shards of bone acted like glass and embedded themselves into my spinal column nerve bundle.
The attack also triggered labour.
My son was born in that parking lot, and he lived only a couple of minutes, before the deranged blonde woman, beat his head in and smashed his brains out, with the same golfclub she had just used to sever my spine and leave me crippled for the rest of my life.
Realizing that I was not transgender, and they'd just murdered a baby, the man grabbed the 2 women and forcibly dragged them away to a 4 door white pickup truck, and they left me there to die.
The FBI told me later, that a few weeks before this attack, and transwoman, had murdered a cis woman, in a parking lot, abou 20 miles away from where I was attacked. The FBI, believes that my attackers, had somehow found out I wrote transgender fiction, connecting my real name to my penname, (my father's name is in fact "Ken", and I do have a brother) and believed that I wrote transgender fiction, because I was myself transgender, even though I'm not transgender. The FBI, believes the attackers, thought I was my brother, pretending to be a woman.
The FBI investigation, into my son's murder, has dragged on for 13 years, and still now in 2026, continues on, with the FBI, still not having yet identified my attackers, and only guessing at what their motive was.
Thus we come to 2014, and the full swing change of the series I write. WHY my series, went from just a transman main character living life, to the full blown Mpreg genre series that it now is today.
Before the attack, I had a chance of having a baby. I don't know. And because I'm in America, I'm too old to adopt. You have to be under 45 years old to adopt a baby. That is the law in America. I was informed this, when we tried to adopt, now that my injuries leave me unable to get pregnant a 9th time.
Thus began my obsessively writing, my transman main character, pregnant. Always pregnant now. Every time. Every story. Stories that now fully focus on pregnancy, labour, miscarriages, babies dying, babies living, raising babies... the whole series, since 2014 has devolved into an outright baby obsession.
Meanwhile, reborn baby dolls were suggested to me by my therapist, and have also become a deeply obsessive part of my life. Because 13 years ago my son was murdered minutes after he was born, because a transphobic bigot mistook me for being transgender, I'm STILL in a wheelchair, struggling to relearn to use my arms and legs, now 13 years later, and I'm still DAILY dealing with police officers and FBI agents who while they are trying to find my son's killer, they are also daily reminding me... oh, yeah, my son was murdered, literally ripped out of my belly, by a transphobe. Who still has not been located and walks free to kill again.
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The golfclub woman as she looked during the golf club attack at Southern Maine community college November 14, 2013. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The golfclub woman as she looked during the shopping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart July 26, 2016. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The 2nd woman as she looked at both attacks, her hair goes all the way down to her knees. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026.  If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer's accomplice, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
I am a legally blind quadriplegic, and low verbal, I have also published 138 novels in the last 48 years. It's not as impossible as people think. The problem being blind and quadriplegic, medically have different meanings then how those two words are used medically.
Fewer than 3% of all blind people see nothing. While 97% people who are classified as fully blind are able to see up to two feet in front of them. Legally blind means I can see more then two feet in front of me but not far enough to see twenty feet in front of me. In my case I can see about eight feet.
Quadriplegic, has varying levels, it means having a damaged nerve bundle in the spinal column causing limited mobility of all 4 limbs, (in my case this was done by a women wielding a golf club, who also beat my 8 month infant's head to pulp on the parking lot tarmak, at the same time she severed my spine with the same golf club; both on November 14, 2013; the FBI investigation into my son's murder and my being crippled has gone on now for 13 years, a few weeks away from 14 years now, and the FBI has still not identified the killer or her motive). Contrary to popular misconception, quadriplegic does NOT mean ZERO movement, it means means limited movement, specifically in means unable to lift arms over head, unable to grip fingers around objects to pick them up, and unable to stand for more then 5 minutes to a time. Because there are so many thousands of nerves in each limb it is actually very rare for there to be 100% no movement, but how much, and to what extent varies by patent depending upon the specific point of injury to the spinal column.
Meaning typing is still possible for over 60% of all quadriplegics.
In my case, it was the lower spine that was severed, cutting off completly my ability to move my right leg, leaving limited feeling in my left leg, and an ability to stand but not walk, with crutches, for the first 9 years. I regained enough nerve growth in my legs by the 9th year to be able to take ten or twelve steps allowing me to get out of bed for the first time since the golf club attack; This in turn lead to me being able to start using a wheelchair, as I was able to sit upright for the first time as well.
Because the shattered vertebrae bone fragments are broken off completly and embedded into the nerve bundle just above my tailbone, doctors were saying I would never walk again, but now at 13 years, I am able to push mu wheelchair like a walker, a distance of almost a thousand steps a day. Though doctors are still doubtful I will ever walk "normally" again, I have proven them wrong, when their said 13 years ago, that I would never walk again at all.
But because of the placement of the damage to my spine, regaining hand use, was always thought possible, it was just a matter of waiting long enough for nerve regrowth, along side daily finger exercises. I was able to continue writing, after becoming quadriplegic, because I still have use of my right thumb, and 2 fore figures of my right hand. And can type 90 words per minute with those 3 fingers.
I however have no wrist strength, elbow strength, or shoulder strength, so I am not able to form a fist, or lift objects, or brush my hair, or my teeth, all thing I have to have my caretaker do. But, those things are not needed for typing. Unfortunately, my pinky and ring fingers are "nerve dead" and drag over the keyboard, and cause horrific spelling errors and typos, which are incredibly frustrating to deal with.
Unfortunately trying to edit errors myself, just makes the errors worse, because those same two fingers drag over the keyboard yet again. Prior to the golf club attack, I rarely had spelling errors; now I got more spelling errors then someone is learning English as second language. Editing is a challenge, that I've had to accept, I simply can not do myself, and I have to hire several editors to help with that.
Low verbal means sounds can still be made, sounds that software programs like Dragon can be trained to recognize and translate, and type into full words. More then half my novels were typed with this method.
I still have a long ways to go before I am anything close to being able to do the things I could do before the golf club woman beat my baby's brains out and shattered my spine. And you know what's more frustrating then how slow mu medical progression has been? The fact that it's been 13 years and the police and FBI are still coming up at dead ends as to who the woman who murdered my baby was, or why she even did it.
My son's 14th birthday is only a few weeks away, but he didn't even get to live long enough to celebrate his 1st birthday, I don't even know why. And I can't wait to regain my ability to walk again, because regaining my ability to walk, means gaining the ability to go outside and start looking for my son's murderer myself instead of sitting at home trapped in a wheelchair waiting for the police and FBI to to find her. So, writing isn't a big priority for me anymore. I only write now, as a way to exercise my hands, in between relearning to walk.
Never let a disability stop you. Plenty of writers, artists, athletes, do not let either blindness, speech impediments, or limited mobility hold then back from perusing their careers.
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
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Wendy Christine Allen, Old Orchard Beach's Autistic Author, Artist, Illustrator, & Art Car Designer Counting Down to the 2028 50th Anniversary of my first published book (September 23, 1978) Yes, I am aware there are a lot of spelling errors on this site. No, I likely will not be fixing most of them. I have been quadriplegia/paralyzed arms and legs since November 14, 2013; As of 2026, I have regained use of two fully functional fingers on my right hand, and only stiff limited movement of all remained eight fingers. This causes most of the typos and spelling errors as my near-dead pinky and ring fingers tend to drag over the other letters on the keyboard. Attempts to correct errors, often causes more errors for the same reason. Much of my writing is also speech to text, but I have "profound low functioning, non-verbal kanner's syndrome aka autism aka the rainman type" (that is what the medical diagnosis called it), I have the medically diagnosed retarded type of autism, that medical doctors mean when they say "real and actual autism", I do not have the cool trend self diagnoses tiktok type of "autism". What this means is, in spite of five decades of trying, I have very limited vocal speaking abilities and a lower then average vocabulary, that leaves my speaking ability around the level of a 4 or 5 year old child; I do not know math or money or clocks and. I also, was raised by a Shetland Scottish Grandmother (Helen Ricker Allen) until her death when I was 8 years old, and she did not speak American, she spoke Shetland/Scottish, Shetlandic, which is a Nordic language, different from Scotts Language, not related to Gaelic which is what many Scottish speak, and while classified as a type of Scottish English is is considered "Olde medieval Norse" dialect of Scottish English and spoken by fewer then two thousand people as of 2026. It is the language of Scottish Travelling Gypsies, which is what we racial are. I was 31 years old first time I ever heard American English, and only started to learn American English at 42 years old. Right now in 2026 at 51 years old, I am able to speak American English on around the level of an 8 year old child, and greatly do not understand over 90% of American words, American slang, and American media references. What this means is, OFTEN words you think are spellt wrong (like color vs colour, or traveling vs travelling, are in fact NOT spelt wrong, because I use Scottish spellings) and often when I hear an American word, I spell it phonetically because I do not know the correct American spelling. Likewise we Scottish do not have words like my or your, and so say me and you, in places where Americans would say my and your. I also use Scottish word meanings, not American word meanings, for example Unicorn means a blood thirsty flesheating shapeshifting sea creature that comes on land and pretends to be a wounded horse to lure in humans to eat, it can only be captured by a virgin. But when I say Unicorn, a word I frequently use, because I write Unicorn folkloric short stories... I find that most Americans connect Unicorns to children's cartoons, gay pride, or swinging sex lives... I struggle to understand who in their right mind thought the most bloodthirsty monster of Scotland folklore was good fodder for children's cartoons or "sex positive" mascots, me thinks Americans need to brush up on the lore of Unicorns using their horns as sword to stabbed people's eyes out, while gallopping through swamps with rows of bloody Human heads hanging from their backs via braids made of Human entrails... really, why did Americans thinks a monster like a Unicorn was fit for children's cartoons or sex positivity? Americans is weird. All this to say... speech to text software, struggles badly with my thick Shetland accent, my slurred Autism speech impediment, and causes additional misspellings and typos because it can not figure out what words I am trying to say. And while I could take the time time to run all of it through a spell checker, that does require better hand mobility then I have, to copy the text from one program to the next and manually click each word, with finger mobility that I simply do not have, but also, most of my time is spent in trying to relearn to walk, and if you are local, you've probably seen this as I'm a stubborn bitch who refused to accept the doctor disnosis that I will never walk again, so, I walk around the block every day pushing my wheelchair, refusing to sit in my wheelchair, and... ...it's taking me 13 years to do it, but, I'm not actually able to stand up and make it all the way around the block now, and my focus on trying to relearn to walk is far more important to me, then catering to your pampered arse by fixing spelling errors, when there are far bigger problems to worry about in life, the spelling errors made by a quadriplegic who is typing this with her only two functioning fingers. Also, in recent years, I've watched the internet devolve into a mindless clusterfuck of ChatGPT written everything. Everyone sounds the same online these days, because no writes their own work anymore. Every website out there has become a carbon copy of each other, because they are all be written by ChatGPT now. I think ChatGPT makes a funny thing to chat with in your spare time, so you can laugh at the hilarity of how inaccurate it's responses are... but I am horrified that people are using AI for serious writing, writing they publish and try to pass off as their own. We live in a society where people people are forgetting how write. Heck I can read and write cursive, calligraphy, italic, short hand, and editor's marks, also edit my books by hand diagraming every sentence, and that... start walking around your neighbourhood and ask anyone under 30 if they sentence diagraming IS, let alone how to do it. So yes, I CAN spell check, and no I don't, for anything but my novels and short story collections, I spell check when it matters... and this is a website, not a printed book... but also, I am just getting so damn fucking fed up with endless AI writing online, so, no, I'm not going to fix errors and typos on my website, and you can bitch about that all you want (yes, I do get your messages, I just don't answer anyone in private) but, honey, maybe instead of bitching over my spelling errors, be thankful is still at least one website on the internet that still being written by a Human now in 2026 when ChatGPT writes over 70% of all posts online. |
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Not sure what the series is about? Check out and Faeries vs Elves (In The Quaraun Series) A Pink Necromancer World Lore Post and Worldbuilding MoonQuakes and Disabled Characters for Fantasy Writers and How well do I know Quaraun? - Let's find out! to find out more about the plot and lore of the series. Not sure which story to start with? These here are good places to start, to get a good introduction to the three main characters:
Or if after reading those, you still are looking for more free to read stories, there are over three thousand of them on this site, too many to list here, but here a few dozen to get you started... ...you can just jump in and try reading some of the free to read online stories first before committing to buying the books:
Hmmm... soooo... I was making the above list to ALL the links to EVERY Quaraun story published on my website here, and adding it into the footer of my site, here as you can see, which loads on every page, and then I realized... wait... there are over two thousand Pink Necromancer stories up free to read on my website, I can't put two thousand links on every single page! Whoops! LOL! So, now I'm putting list to ALL the links to EVERY Quaraun story published on my website here on this page instead and just link that page to the footer instead. But also I'll just leave some of the links in the footer, as you can see above.
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Yes, this website (founded in 1996) is old enough to have WebRings on it, and they are still in use.
Don't know what a WebRing is?
They were how we webmasters used to get traffic to our websites before the invention of search engines (aka before Jeeves, DogPile, Yahoo. Google, Bing, or the rest existed). In their simplest form a WebRing is an html code that rotates link displays. In their more advanced form they are java scripts that give random results. Each ring had three active links titled "Previous", "Random", and "Next", clicking any of the 3 links would take you to the next website in the ring.
Web Rings are the REASON the internet was called "the world wide web". To use them, each webmaster submitted their site to the ring, a single code held 100 websites, and codes could be stacked to hold 100 code sets (or 10,000 links to 10,000 websites), each web master in the list, would then place the code in the footer of their website.
This created the SPIDER WEB that was the literal WEB OF LINKS that gave the internet it's name "World Wide Web" and is WHY websites are CALLED "web sites". And technically, your site is not a WEB site unless it is connected to a WEBRing, likewise you technically are not a WEBMaster if you do not build WEBrings links for you WEBsite to connect to the WEB.
Unfortunately, most knowledge of WebRings, and whi sites were called WEBsites and sites on the WEB were called the World Wide Web, vanished from the internet in 2014 when the official WebRing.org company who managed 90%+ of the internet's WebRings went out of business after the infamous Google Panda 2013 bot attack that delisted ALL websites from the Google Index if they contained a WebRing of links to other websites in it's footer.
And while most sites abandoned the use of WebRing Codes on their sites, Space Dock 13 did not. The Space Dock 13 WebRing remains active, now 28 years after it's creation. Over the decades however, one by one all the other websites in the ring have gone off line, and as they did, I replaced the url with a link to a page of my own website (as this is a java code - it updated on every website without the others needing to change anything). Today in 2026, eelkat.com is the last remaining website in the ring, and now all 10k links go only to pages on eelkat.com, no longer sending you to other websites.
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If you have any information about my son’s murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322
If anyone contacts you saying 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, is for sale, know that they are lying to you... it is my land, and it has been in my family since 1531... and the ONLY person whom has EVER gone around saying it is for sale, is a woman who the FBI believes to be the same woman who murdered my son.
My son is buried here, and the FBI believes she is trying to buy my land in order to destroy his grave and destroy evidence of his murder.
Since my son's murder November 14, 2013, every year dozens of real estate agent show up all with a story of a female developer who is offering them MILLIONS of dollars for my lot of land that is only 1/4 of an acre and is not big enough to develop.
When shown police sketches of my son's murderer, the real estate agents say "Yes, that's the woman who hired me to buy 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine", but then the woman disappears and the real estate agents never hear from her again... all contact information she gave them turns out to be fake.
The woman who murdered my son, is DESPERATELY trying to buy 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... this is the woman to watch out for... and this is what she did:
Looking to find out more about my son's murder, that information is on these pages:
Answering the questions:
Can you give me links to the news reports of your son's murder?
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Why can't I find any news reports about this?
Maine has well over a thousand murder cases that have never been in the news.
I found this out after my son was murdered November 2013, and a year later I found out it had never been in the news, even though I was hounded for weeks by news people. I went to each of the over a dozen TV stations and newspapers whom had showed up at the hospital and asked why they had never published any report after all the trouble they had gone through to (in some cases illegally) het into the hospital to interview me.
in every case they said some version of "well, it just wasn't news worthy, there was nothing we could use to get views". Really? These were big news stations, channel 13, 6, 8, Portland Press Herald, Bangor Daily...
What exactly was it they claimed was "not news worthy"?
I'll tell you.
On November 14, 2013, my son was murdered. At Southern Maine Community College in the parking lot of The Buglight Art Studio beside the Spring Point Lighthouse.
I was 8 months pregnant, leaving my college classroom, and just getting into my car, when 3 strangers, a man and two women, armed with golf clubs leapt out from behind my car screaming "kill or be killed, kill the transvestite freaks, kill them all before they kill us! look at that thing! That is Ken's son, look at how it's dressed! kill the transvestite freaks! kill or be killed"... while the bald man and the red haired woman chanted this over and over, the blonde woman, lunged with the golf club.
She severed my spine, I am now a quadriplegic, and been paralyzed arms and legs, and in a wheelchair for 13 years now. She broke my hips, my knees, my legs, ruptured most of my discs, and shattered three of my vertebrae so bad that the shards of bone acted like glass and embedded themselves into my spinal column nerve bundle.
The attack also triggered labour.
My son was born in that parking lot, and he lived only a couple of minutes, before the deranged blonde woman, beat his head in and smashed his brains out, with the same golfclub she had just used to sever my spine and leave me crippled for the rest of my life.
Realizing that I was not transgender, and they'd just murdered a baby, the man grabbed the 2 women and forcibly dragged them away to a 4 door white pickup truck, and they left me there to die.
The FBI told me later, that a few weeks before this attack, and transwoman, had murdered a cis woman, in a parking lot, abou 20 miles away from where I was attacked. The FBI, believes that my attackers, had somehow found out I wrote transgender fiction, connecting my real name to my penname, (my father's name is in fact "Ken", and I do have a brother) and believed that I wrote transgender fiction, because I was myself transgender, even though I'm not transgender. The FBI, believes the attackers, thought I was my brother, pretending to be a woman.
The FBI investigation, into my son's murder, has dragged on for 13 years, and still now in 2026, continues on, with the FBI, still not having yet identified my attackers, and only guessing at what their motive was.
Oh yeah, and I've been quadriplegic for 13 years.
oh yeah one more thing, same trio, they also found out where i lived in Old Orchard Beach and drove a backhoe over my house as well.
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146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach, Maine... July 4, 2013 vs August 8, 2013 |
I have been homeless and quadriplegic for 13 years, and right now it's just a few weeks away from both my son's 14th birthday and the 14th anniversary of the day he was murdered, both of which happened the same day.
Explain to me what about any of that is "not newsworthy"?
I did find out WHY it was deemed not newsworthy. "it would negatively impact tourism" was their reason. The College at Fort Prebble is a tourist destination. The lighthouse at the college is a tourist destination. My house on Portland ave is situated on the primary road to the beach that is a tourist destination.
The news reporters explained to me that, they risked losing their jobs if they publicised "negative news" occurring in these sorts of tourist destination spots.
My son's murder wasn't in the news, because it might cause tourists to stop visiting that lighthouse. That was the reason the reporters gave me.
How often are there things not being reported on just so businesses don't lose tourist money?
How often does this happen? A lot, I've since found out. In trying to find other mothers of murdered children to interact with... I found five others JUST in Old Orchard Beach, whom the murders were not in the news, and all of them happened after my son's murder. I found 2 such mothers in Scarbourogh, their children's murders not in the news. I found over a dozen more in the Bar Harbore area, also all not in the news.
It's a very disturbing trend here in Maine, one that I never would have found out about had my own son not been murdered.
One thing's very clear: in Maine you can get away with murdering a child, if you do it in a big tourist location, because news stations REFUSE to report any crime occurring in tourist locations.
Fuck torists.
I don't give a shit about your precious tourist money.
My son was murdered and I want his killer found... and I am VERY displeased with the deplorable way news stations try to bury child murders in Maine, just to appease tourist funded businesses.
And if you're one of those lunatic jackass bullshitting alien abduction UFO freaks, looking for haunted cars, Stephen King, cryptids, or EBEs, first off, you can go fuck yourselves. I am so damned sick of you conspiracy brained motherfuckers harassing my family and turning my son's murder case into a circus of you psycho deranged bullshit. Here's some pages for you:
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