EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita

By Wendy C Allen

Wendy Christine Allen, 2019, able to sit up in a chair for the first time in years, and able to raise up my arm and wiggle fingers. This was when I started playing Witcher 3 on Twitch as part of my physical therapy to regain finger movement. Playing Witcher 3 daily from 2016 to 2019, is how I regained the use of my thumb and two for fingers on my right hand... it is also why I stopped playing Witcher 3 in 2019, once I had strengthen my two forefingers enough to start typing again. Wendy Christine Allen, Old Orchard Beach's Autistic Author, Artist, Illustrator, & Art Car Designer Counting Down to the September 23, 2028 50th Anniversary of my first published book (September 23, 1978) If you are here looking for The Twighlight Manor series, The Crystonite Wars series, The Wild Years series, The White Rock Asylum for the Criminally Insane series, The Twisted Tales series, the Captured By a MerMan series, The Space Dock 13 series, The Kats of Planet Ptarmagin series, the stories about Miss Citten the Eel-Kat, or the stories about Etiole... ALL of those series were combined and consolidated into The Adventures of Quaraun the Insane Pink Necromancer series in 2014, so ALL the different series, are now under one series title. List of the published titles still in print: The Index of over three thousand stories in The Pink Necromancer series What the series is about, for those new here: The introduction to The Pink Necromancer Series.

If you want some stories to get you started in The Pink Necromancer series, reading these first will give you a good introduction to the 3 main characters: BoomFuzzy's Chowder Dilemma If your ass ain’t freezing or your brains ain’t scrambled, you’re ain’t really trying A Very Important Clump of Grass The Washer Woman & The Fae Absinthe Slushies: An Ode to Frozen Green Fairy Wine Bone Dice Excited For The New Baby Zwodder: A Drowsy Stupid State of Mind Pink Sheep, Cheesy Burritos, and The Grim Reality of Zombies Open Grave The Phooka's Dragon School The Moon Goddess Laughs From The Rooftops The Jar of Pickled Toes The Book Burning Maggots, a You Can't Spell Hatred Without Red Hats A Day In The Life of a Bumbling Necromancer The Three-Seventeen Pee Expedition

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There are 20 volumes of this writing prompt series currently planned and in varying stages of finishing, hopefully all 20 will be published by the end of 2026. I likely will do a 2nd series of writing prompt books in 2027.

The first of the Visual Novels/Video Games for The Adventures of Quaraun the Inane/The Pink Necromancer series is published and available on Itch.io, there are 3 more planned for release in 2026, 6 more planned for release in 2027, and the big 60-hour 80k word 150 page one (Quaraun Goes To the Fair) is planned for a 2028 release.

There is a Pink Necromancer card game and a Pink Necromancer board game, as well as a Pink Necromancer table top RPG supliment for Dungeons and Dragons, all in the works, and to be released over the next couple of years as well.

Health update: August 4, 2026 - in recovery for 6 months+ (at least until mid-January 2027...all book and video game releases are pushed back at least 6 months) see video below for why...

@eelkat health update #maine #disabilityawareness #wheelchairlife #wheelchairvlogger #multiplesclerosis ♬ original sound - Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author

@eelkat The man who built the grease fryer bomb that blew up my house October 16, 2006, gets out of prison in 4 years. :( #thishapped #fbiinvestigation #mainelife #oldorchardbeach #Maine ♬ original sound - Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author

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@eelkat I seem to have had another stroke (during the night while I was asleep?) #stroke #paralysis ♬ original sound - Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author

Update Sept 3, 2026:

I am able to get around enough to take Koko to dog park... today is 29 days since getting out of hospital. My diet is still mostly liquid, but im eating some solid food again, but its like rice or soft mushy baby food type stuff because I still can not chew yet, though I can swallow again. My jaw is still not functioning good so im having trouble talking still. So there's been slight improvement to my mouth, throat, and jaw, but, zero improvement to my eye, which is a major concern, be Im almost fully blind right now. im legally blind since birth in my left eye, so I have no ability to fall back on using my left eye. My right eye is the one injured and my vision in it is "40% decreased" according to my doctor, but it wasn't good vision to begin with, and right now my right eye is not much different from my legally blind left eye. Which I why I have to have someone drive my car for me instead of me driving my car myself right now, which is very frustrating, because, being a female, I had to fight for over twenty years to be allowed to drive. I started sneaking out at age 31 and dressing as a man to go to Old Orchard Beach high school to get a ged, because us females are not allowed to go to school. And i was 37 years old when snuck out to the DMV and got a driver's permit and started going to college. I was 42 and 8 months pregnant when my family found out I was going to college and thats when I was punished by the backhoe driving over my house and my spine broken with a golf club and my baby born right then and killed with same golf club. So it's very frustrating now, so soon after finally being able to drive , to now not be able to drive because of an eye injury, especially after 14 years of being paralyzed from the golf club and not being allowed to have a wheelchair, again, because i am female and we females are simply not allowed to do anything. I hate the culture I was born into. I wish I had the freedom to go to school and drive a car the way American women do. I wish having my spine broken with a golf club and my baby killed with a golf club and a backhoe driven over my house was not how men in my family punishment women in my family for learning to read and write. Its so frustrating not being able to to drive again, so soon after 14 years being paralyzed, and being paralyzed by the golf club was the punishment for getting a driver's license back in 2013 after 30 years of men not letting me have one. I hate my family's culture and how they treat us women.

I get so sick of Americans telling me how they wish they could be a Gypsy… they are either misogynist woman hating pigs, or delusional idiots who haven't got a clue how shittily we Gypsy women are treated by Gypsy men, because no one in their righ mind who knows anything about Gypsy culture would ever want to be part of it. I hate that I was born a Gypsy. 

update sept 7, 2026

"You would not make a good teacher"... what does that mean, and why are there so many people on Railroad Ave and Western Ave and Cutts St why walk up to me and say that to me?

I find it very confusing. I have low functioning Autism (the Rain Man type) and so i have very little understanding of words beyond the basic ones, and i never went to to school, so I never learned maths or sciences, and I only had remedial classes at Southern Maine Community College, because I did not have an education to enroll with regular, I was there taking every reading and writing class they had to learn how to read and write, and also took speaking classes to learn how to talk (i spoke Shetland Scottish language because that was language my grandmother spoke but she died when I was 8 so I only knew that language to speak and write, and I was 37 when I went to college and 42 when I learned English speaking and I still cant speak English good yet), all the other classes I took were art painting and cooking.

So the phrase "You would not make a good teacher" makes no sense to me because it seems to imply that I am trying to be a teacher, but I don't have anything close to the education ti be a teacher, and im not trying to be a teacher. So I don't know why people keep saying this phrase to me and I assume it must have some sort of a slang meaning, but I can't figure out what it could be of why do these people keep saying it to me.

see video below for more information: 

@eelkat "You would not make a good teacher"... what does that mean, and why are there so many people on Railroad Ave and Western Ave and Cutts St why walk up to me and say that to me? I find it very confusing. I have low functioning Autism (the Rain Man type) and so i have very little understanding of words beyond the basic ones, and i never went to to school, so I never learned maths or sciences, and I only had remedial classes at Southern Maine Community College, because I did not have an education to enroll with regular, I was there taking every reading and writing class they had to learn how to read and write, and also took speaking classes to learn how to talk (i spoke Shetland Scottish language because that was language my grandmother spoke but she died when I was 8 so I only knew that language to speak and write, and I was 37 when I went to college and 42 when I learned English speaking and I still cant speak English good yet), all the other classes I took were art painting and cooking. So the phrase "You would not make a good teacher" makes no sense to me because it seems to imply that I am trying to be a teacher, but I don't have anything close to the education ti be a teacher, and im not trying to be a teacher. So I don't know why people keep saying this phrase to me and I assume it must have some sort of a slang meaning, but I can't figure out what it could be of why do these people keep saying it to me. #mainelife #biddefordmaine #maine #disabilitytiktok #Biddeford ♬ original sound Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author

update Sept 15, 2026:

I have some slight movement in some my fingers again again after over a decade being paralyzed

you remember how I used to be a professional doll making, pattern designer, and embroiderer, back before I became paralized and before my son was murdered and being the backhoe drove over my house?

all my equipment, sewing machines, ect were all destroyed by the backhoe driving over my house, and I have been quardepelegic for over a decade because of it so could not use my hands to sew or draw or embroider, and so only continued to do my writing of novels since then because I could do that with dragon dictation software,

well, since 2016, I been playing Witcher 3 and don't starve video games on twitch livestream, one hand two fingers, as part of my therapy to regain nerve and muscle use of my fingers, and now after 10 years of that, I have somewhat more movement in my fingers and im thinking maybe I can try to do embroidery and doll making again, but not sure, anyways, now im rebuying all of my sewing and embroidery equipment that the backhoe destroyed when it drove over my house, and hopefully I can use my hand enough to embroider again.

waiting for stuff to arrive in mail, so soon I should find out if ten years of twitch gaming has given me enough muscle strength to use my fingers to embroider again.

update to the previous video, answering viewer question about lack of hospital vs broken spine

Wheelchair Fundraiser... I need to upgrade to a power wheelchair, the manual one just isn't enough anymore. But the power wheelchair is $25k. Yes, twenty five thousand dollars. Wtf? I can get a car for a quarter that price, why are wheelchairs so damned expensive? That's more money then I make in five years, so I need to start a fundraiser for it.

Elegant Gothic Lolita (EGL for short) is a type of OtherKin. Specifically VampireKin.

Somewhat of a cross over between Gothic Lolita, Elegant Aristocrat, and Steampunk, The Elegant Gothic Lolita is one of the earliest Lolita movements. Started in the 1970s, long before the addition of crinoline mini skirts, doll face make up, dolly eyes, or chunky shoes, the EGL has a distinctive look that stands out as markedly different from any other type of Lolita. EGL is often described as "the mature women's Lolita" as most of the women who wear it are in their 40s or older. The reason older women are seen wearing it however, is because most of them started wearing it as teens in the 1980s and are still wearing it once they got older.

The primary difference between Elegant Gothic Lolita and just plain Gothic Lolita (sometimes called Sweet Gothic Lolita) and the Elegant Aristocrat is the OtherKin element. While EGLs live every day of their lives as though they were vampires, Gothic Lolitas are just Lolitas wearing Gothic fashion and Elegant Aristocrats are just Goths who focus on the Victorian fashion period. An Elegant Aristocrat and a Gothic Lolita does not consider herself to be a type of OtherKin while the EGL does identify as a type of OtherKin, specifically VampireKin.

While EGL wears ashen, white, vampire looking make-up, the Gothic Lolita wears sweet, rosy cheeked baby doll make up.

Gothic Lolita looks cute and innocent, Elegant Aristocrat looks wealthy and important, EGL looks creepy, dead, and has a somewhat erotic BDSM fetish feel to it.

Hairstyles are very different as well. Gothic Lolitas have big sausage curls, often in blond or pastels like pink or mint. EGLs often have dread locks or cyberpunk yarn hair, and a wild disheveled look. Elegant Aristocrats tend to go for a Gibson Girl or similar historically accurate style.

Gothic Lolita wears big chunky shoes to make them look like a toddler. EGLs wear sexy fetish shoes. Elegant Aristocrats aim for historical accuracy in their show styles.

Also, the Sweet Gothic Lolita wears the super short Shirley Temple crinoline skirts that are typically associated with Lolitas, while the EGL is usually wearing ankle or floor length dresses.

Likewise the Elegant Aristocrat will aim more for historical accuracy, while the EGL may have a more fantastical, cartoony, or even a CosPlay look to her outfits.

It's easier to show you the difference between the three very similar styles, so here are some of each side by side, so you can see the difference:

To make things even more confusing to the newbie, there are several other similar fashion types...

For example the Pastel Gothic Lolita is identical to the Gothic Lolita, except instead of black, she wears whit. Frequently you will see them in pairs with one dressed in black and one dressed in white. While the one dressed in black is emulating a vampire, the one dressed in white is emulating a ghost.

Cyber Goth, takes the EGL and gives it a futuristic, techno, sci-fi cyber punk feel too it. These nearly always include bright neon colours, huge dreads, fuzzy legwarmers, 

Steam Goth, is a combination of EGL and SteamPunk, and often is in shades of brown and rust. This one incorporates 1940s style pilot gear, especially googles, and often includes eliments of the American Wild West. This one is often done by men more then women.

While the EGLs are dressing in Vampire fashion and the Pastel Goths are dressing in Ghost fashions, there is also the Guru Lolita, who dresses in Zombie fashions, usually as an undead nurse, spattered in blood.

An additional sub-set are the "Good Little Witches".

There is also a style which dress as Wraiths (undead brides who died on their wedding night)

My favorite one is Pastel Fairy Gothic Lolita, which is the one I've done almost the longest and is the one I currently do. It is another of the OtherKin Lolitas and features Fae Realm Kin Folk, such as Faeries, Elves, Unicorns, Mermaids, etc. It's predominantly pinks, whites, and bright pastels.

My 2nd favorite one, and the one I started out with, way back when I was just 12 years old, is Decora Gothic Lolita. Basically take the Jem cartoon, toss it into Lolita, cover everything with buttons, beads, embroidery, and glitter, and that's Decora. I still do Decoa currently.

The other one I currently do is Mori Kei, which is a hippie inspired, bohemian wood nymph style, of loose flowing, long dresses of shades of green, brown, or orange. Worn by all ages from young toddlers to senior women in their 80's. This is the simplest style and has no wigs, no petticoats, and is made of lots of unmatched layers.

So as you can see, there are a lot of different Gothic Lolita styles. And that's only a few of the many sub-styles. There are many, many, many more. But the focus of this page is the Elegant Gothic Lolita, so we'll save the others for another page.

The EGL wardrobe is made up of mostly black or grey, sometimes with a touch of purple or red accents. Shirts tend to be longer and straighter then what is typically seen in other Lolita styles. Bustle skirts and mermaid skirts, corsets, ruffles, and top hats are standard.

The most common type of shoe worn in EGL is the winkle picker, followed by button down spats.

BDSM fetish items such as patent leather, vinyl, extreme high heels, masks, chains, hand cuffs, spikes, and whips may sometimes be seen used in some EGL outfits.

Makeup is mostly black on a white foundation. Nail art is usually black, silver, dark purple, or blood red.

Hair is usually long and either black, grey, silver, or white. If coloured it is usually dark purple, navy blue, blood red, or dusty lilac.

Accessories include Victorian mourning jewelry (black cameos, and large amethyst stones), black chockers made of velvet and lace.

The most common type of purse, bag, totebag, or backpack to carry is one shaped like a coffin, to let people know you are a vampire and can not ever be far away from your grave dirst, so thus carry your grave dirt with you in a mini coffin, to allow yourself to travel farther distances from your grave.

The original intention was to look like an Edwardian vampire, so fake fangs and fake blood are often included in the mix as well. Also as vampires can not go out in daylight, dark glasses and umbrellas are often worn when outside.

I began wearing EGL style in the late 1980s and throughout most of the 1990s. It's not a style I wear often anymore, due to the fact that a bomb blew up my house on October 18, 2006 and most of my EGL wardrobe was destroyed in the fire. EGL is a rather expensive wardrobe to build and I've never had enough spare income since 2006 to rebuild the wardrobe the bomber destroyed.

Elegant Aristocrat, Gothic Lolita, Guru Lolita, Pirate Lolita, and SteamPunk Lolita all branched out of and broke away from EGL in the 1980s and 1990s.

EGL is worn by both men and women and is one of the few Lolita movements where you see nearly as many men as women wearing it.

But Where Are The Ruffly Skirts? Doesn't Lolita Mean Wearing Big Mini Skirts With Lots Of Ruffles?

A lot of people look at fashion movements like Elegant Gothic Lolita and Mori Kei Lolita or Fairy Lolita and ask: Where's the frilly short skirts? It ain't Lolita without the frilly short shirts!

No. Actually, the term Lolita has nothing to do with the type of skirt, but rather is a term that comes from the Porn industry. Yes, I did say Porn industry. The word Lolita come from very controversial child pornography erotica book titled Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov

The book is about a man having a mid-life crisis and feeling old and no longer able to have sex with women because they make him feel old. He becomes a predator going after progressively younger women, until he discovers the little 12 year old girl next door, named Lolita, who he becomes obsessed with. He takes over the girl's life, in her minds being the daddy she never had, but in his mind he's training her to be the ultimate sex slave. To prevent her from becoming a teenager, and therefor causing him to lose sexual interest in her, he forces her to wear baby cloths and pretend to be a 3 year old as he has reached the point of he can only get sexual satisfaction from children 3 and 4 years old.

The book is incredibly disturbing on many levels and shows the dual sides of a relationship with older men and children, the innocence of the child not knowing what the man is doing to her and the extremes the man will go to to hide his pedophile nature from those around him.

While the book is a horrific work of blatant child pornography and glorifies (and yes promotes child porn, with the author attempting to show it is okay to have sex with children because the child is too innocent to know what sex is and is therefore still a virgin no matter how many times you fuck her), in spite of the book's horrific nature and intent, it is hailed as one of the top 100 classics in literature and is required reading in most High schools across America.

As a result of this book, it became a trend in the 1930s/1940s, for men t make their wives dress up like Shirley Temple. Soldiers stationed in Japan during World War II, made a habit of bringing with them, Shirley Temple dresses and having the Geishas (prostitutes - yes, a Geisha is a prostitute) wear them.

After the war, in the 1950s and 1960s, Geshias kept these dresses and continued wearing them for American men who bought their services.

By the 1970s, it became common practice for most prostitutes to stand on the street corners, dressed in super elaborate versions of the Shirley Temple dress.

By the 1980s, teen girls, wanting to look like hot sexy prostitutes, took to wearing the same fashions.

By the 1990s, Shirley Temple dresses had evolved into the wild baby doll dresses you see today.

Interestingly, when teen girls started wearing "Lolita" fashion as an every day trend, prostitutes went back to wearing their more traditional white face and kimono, and by the 1980s, Lolita was no longer code for "hooker".

When people ask, why was the 3 year old film star Shirley Temple seen by men as a sex object... to find the answer you have to go to her very first, now banned and not available on any DVD anywhere, Porn flicks. Yes, at 3 years old Shirley Temple was the most sought after porn star on silent films.

Though made illegal in 1987, "Baby Porn" porn films that literally stared baby girls in sex scenes with adult men, was the top selling type of porn of all time, and that is what Shirley Temple started out as, before she went on to the more family friendly movies she is known for today.

Had Temple's parents been doing today what they did back in the 1920s, they would have gone to prison. However, in the 1920s child porn was seen nt only as normal, but was considered good for the men who watched it, as it kept them from raping their own daughters, which was not illegal in the 1920s but was frowned upon.

In the 1950s men could still legally rape children in America.

Yes... LEGALLY.

Children were still considered PROPERTY and a man could buy a child for a farm hand or a sex toy and the law did nothing.

Yes... in AMERICA.

In 1954 women began petitioning to make laws protecting children's rights.

The book Lolita was written in 1955 to PROTEST the fact that children deserved rights and to support the rights of men to fuck as many children as he wanted.

It was not until 1957, the American invented laws enforcing a legal age of consent and in 1957, age of consent was 10.

Keeping in mind that the book Lolita was written in this time period. Keep in mind also that the legal age of consent as not increased to the age of 10 until 1957. Yes, in America, before 1957, age of sexual consent was 8 years old. Age of consent was not increased from 10 to 18, until 1987, the same year that the laws were made banning porn stars under the age of 18.

In the end, the word "Lolita" means "too make one look younger then they are" and has nothing to do with the type of shirt worn.

Shirley Temple skirts are the most common skirt worn in the Lolita fashion movement, simply because it makes a women in her 40s look like a 10 year old.

Elegant Gothic Lolita and Mort Kei Lolita, stand out for their lack of the Shirley Temple skirt. Both are called "the mature women's Lolita" because they are often worn by seniors, women as old as their 80s wear these fashions, but while wearing them are often mistaken by strangers as being only in their 20s and 30s.

Interestingly many Americans look at the Lolita girls and assume they are looking at children. Here, let's look at some Classic Shirley Temple style Lolita girls:

How old do you think those girls are?

Most of them are in their 30s, some are in their 40s.

These are not children. They are not teenagers. They are not young adults. These are business women, business women as in doctors and lawyers, who when not at work, walk up and down the streets of Japan, posing for photos for tourists.

It takes a lot of hours, putting on a lot of make-up to transform a women in her 30's into a 10 year old, but that is exactly what these women do.

For many the goal is not to look young, but rather to look like a living doll. Many of these women are a type of OtherKin known as DollKin.

I'm also going to point out here, that not all of the Sweet Lolitas are girls either. I know at least 2 of the ones I included are men.

When men do Doll-Face Sweet Lolita it's called Sissification. It is a type of transvestite and is in fact the type of transvestite that Quaraun is.

Remember, Lolita means "dressing younger then your age", not "wearing poufy short skirts". These women, all in their 60s to 80s, are Lolitas: (This is Mori Kei Lolita and as you can see, men wear it too)

So, remember, you are never too old to be a Lolita, men can be Lolitas too, and Lolita DOES NOT require big poufy mini skirts, because Lolita means "wearing clothes to look younger then you are".

But back to our topic...

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
The Vampire Aristocrats of The Lolita Universe:

One thing to keep in mind is that Gothic does not mean "black", and in fact the real Goths rarely wore black.

There are 2 Gothic periods, one will have you wearing Greek togas and Roman chariot leather. That's the original Gothic Period, which was in late Medieval times.

The other is the Gothic Revival Period, also known as The Edwardian Period, when King Edward was on the throne.  There was an additional Gothic Revival Era in France known as the Josephine Era, when Napoleon was on the throne.

Interestingly when most people today set out to create a "Gothic" ensamble, they usually look to Victorian fashions and not Edwardian fashions.

One must consider why it was these periods were considered "Gothic Revival" and why it is that the Victorian Era was NOT Gothic. Gothic Revival meant a return to simpler things. For women it meant tossing aside the corset and wearing loose straight dresses inspired by Greek togas. It meant lots of straight lines and no curves. 

Keep in mind that the Gothic Revival gave way to Suffragette and Art Nueve, resulting in Flappers in the 1920s.

When EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita movement first started in the 1970s, the goal was to look Goth, in other words to dress like Edwardian women's liberators and 1920's Flappers. It meant casting off your bras, freeing you body as well as your soul of the confining restraints of girdles, bras, and corsets.

It is interesting to watch the evolution of Goth fashion over time. In the 1970s Goth fashion had no corsets, no women wore bras, dresses were made of pastel pinks and yellows and were loose fitting.

In the 1980s the Punk movement adopted elements of the Goth movement, resulting in the easily identifiable, black clad Emo Goths which rose up in the 1990s and are what most people think of when they hear the word "Goth".

While Emo Goths wear black and lace up in tight corsets, most Goths are not Emo and do not wear either black or corsets.

The defining nature that makes a Goth a Goth, is their attempts to bring back Gothic fashion to the mainstream.

What one must now ask themselves, what exactly did the Goths wear? To find the answer we must go to the Gothic Period and actually look at the Gothic cloths, worn by the controversial "loose women" of the Gothic period who tossed their corsets aside and fought for the right to vote...

And here they are:

Real Goths, Wearing Real Gothic Fashions, From The Real Gothic Period

And did you know the fashions in the first 2 columns walked side by side, both from the same period? Most people don't realize that and assume there were many years between the two styles.

Now I must ask... how in the hell did Gothic go from meaning, wearing corset-less clothes resembling white Greek togas, to wearing skin tight black corsets, I don't know. But it did.

Can you see the similarities?

No?

Neither can I.

I think, Goth has come to mean "rebellious" and in current fashion, women do not wear corsets, thus a women who DOES wear a corset is seen as rebellious now. The same goes for the color. Dark colours used to be the norm and the rebellious young girls of the Gothic era wore scandalous pinks and yellows. Now pastels are the norm and wearing black is scandalous.

In any case. Gothic means "emulating the Gothic Revival Period" in other words: standing up for your rights, wearing cloths that do not fit the current norm, and not taking shit from no one, and does not mean "wear black", and as such, you can wear whatever colour you want and still be Goth.

Build Your Own EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Wardrobe

All of the images below this point are affiliate links that take you to the page where the product is sold. I've tried to include as many items from Amazon as possible, as they are the site most people are familiar with buying from. There are also links to other sites as well.

If you want to make an EGL outfit like any of the ones shown above, know that most of them, started out with simple easy to find components (skirts, blouses, etc) and then did a lot of hand sewing, hand beading, hand embroidering, altering, cutting pieces out, adding pieces to them, added lace trim, etc. Very few EGL outfits are bought "as is" and the ones that are, cost several thousands of dollars to buy/order/have made.

I will include a section of common items used to embellish clothen items to convert them into the elaborate creations seen in the photos above.

The super elaborate components like horns, feather head dresses, etc, are usually one of a king items made by the person wearing the outfit and are rarely things you can find available for sale.

Also, it is not uncommon to run into "Goth Snobs". They are rare, but they exist. If you run into a Goth or Lolita or other fashion subculture person, who picks on you or belittles you about your outfit being "not Goth enoth" or "too cyber punk to be Loli" or whatever else they can think of to complain about: just ignore them and go right on doing your personal wardrobe the way you feel comfortable.

Never feel you have to fit in 100% with any one style. If you want to wear pink Decora bow filled hair with your Guro Nurse Lolita and toss on some Fairy wings besides, you go right ahead. Remember, every one of these sub-groups within the sub groups of the Lolita and Gothic fashions community, was started by someone who strayed from the "norm" and added their own personal touches to their style.

Remember: The most important thing about your wardrobe is that no matter what you wear, you have fun wearing it.

I will be periodicity adding new items to this page as I come across more, so expect to see it get much bigger over time.

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
Mermaid Corset Skirts

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
Bustle Skirts

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
High Low Asymmetrical Skirts

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Cocktail Skirts

The tulle cocktail skirts shown below (the one that comes in 35 different colours) are the base for which most of the Classic Baby Doll style Lolita dresses are built on. If you are making that style outfit, it is recommended that you purchase at minimum 2 of these skirts and as many as 4 of them, to wear all at once, in order to achieve the fullness usually seen in Lolita skirts. You would then wear 1 to 4 crinoline petticoats under them. Typically to achieve the huge full fluffy shirts of the Classic Baby Doll Lolita, you will require at minimum 6 layers and as many as 10 layers, depending on the amount of fullness you want in your finished outfit.

While the outer layers of an EGL skirt will usually be black, the tulle underskirts are often of a contrasting colour, thus I have included all the colour options available for this skirt.

For those wanting to make a hoopless floor length skirt, see the next section below this one, for this exact same tulle skirt in a floor length option. Again, use up to 10 of them worn all at once to achieve the vast fullness of the really big width skirts.

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Maxi Skirts

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Apron & Pinafores

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Pumpkin Pants & Bloomers

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Petticoats & Hoop Skirts

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Coats & Jackets

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Corsets

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Belts & Sashes

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Dresses

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Blouses

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Scarves, Stoles, & Cloaks

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Snoods, Fascinators, & Hair Accessories 

(These are the horns I used for my BoomFuzzy the Unicorn CosPlay)

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Hats

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Note, nearly ALL the hats you see in Lolita outfits are handmade by the wearer. Hat making is not that difficult to do, if you have the time and patience. It's a tedious process. Here are the patterns if you want to try your hand at hat making:

Hat Making Supplies

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Wigs

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Bags, Purses, & Totes

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Dress Patterns

I have more then 700 patterns for reproduction cloths, and more then 200 pattern books, including all of the ones I've listed here. I highly recommend these patterns and pattern books as they make wonderful EGL outfits.

(This is the pattern I used for my mauve velvet gown.)

(This is another pattern I have used.)

(This is the pattern used to make my lovely lavender bustle dress. Sadly this was one of the dresses destroyed by the bomb.)

(This is my purple velvet "Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach" cape.)

(This is my huge blue velvet burnoose.)

This is one of my all time favorite patterns. I wear these, with the next pattern --->

This is my #1 all time favorite pattern. I have several copies of it as I use it so often. A large portion of my wardrobe is simply this one pattern made in every colour imaginable.

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Fabric For Sewing With

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita
Lace & Ribbon Trim For Sewing With

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Stockings & Tights

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Jewelry

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Gloves

EGL: Elegant Gothic Lolita Shoes

Items Commonly Used In Creating EGL:
Elegant Gothic Lolita Wardrobes

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I am an OtherKin Life Actor, which means I'm a CosPlayer who dresses in full CosPlay 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year. I own no "normal street wear". I started doing this February 4, 1987 and have now been doing it for more then 30 years. The bulk of that time I CosPlay a transvestite Elf wizard. My mother was a professional seamstress who specialized in pageant dresses for little girls and very elaborate Halloween costumes. She taught me to sew when I was 8. I made my first ball gown at age 12. At age 16 I graduated college with a degree in Fashion Design, Dressmaking, and Theatrical Costumes. I've gone on to make some of the most insanely detailed, over the top CosPlays ever seen at many conventions.

Because of this I am frequently asked by others looking to get into CosPlaying, LARPing, SAC, OtherKin, and costume making for advice on how to make and where to buy supplies. This resulted in a series of Squidoo pages on the topic of CosPlaying and included Squidoo's #1 most visited and highest paid Squidoo Lens of all time: "The Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay" If you remember me from Squidoo, chances are high you knew me as "The Bride of Sesshomaru" rather then "EelKat" (Bride of Sesshomaru is the other online username you see me using across the internet - and was the username I had on FanFiction.net, when I wrote my long running short story series "The Bride of Sesshomaru", featuring a pink clad Lord Sesshomaru gone mad, which has since been renamed "The Adventure of Quaraun the Insane").

Squidoo went out of business in 2013, leaving most users with their hard work lost forever. Fortunately, I had backups of everything, and so all of my Squidoo pages are slowly returning to the internet here on EelKat.com. Eventually they will all be back.

Anyways, fans of the Squidoo CosPlay series, have been emailing me and asking if I'd put it back online the Gallery pages I had built for shoes, hats, lolita, goth, cyberpunk, clubbing, and costumes, which had featured links to suppliers of a lot of very hard to find, fetish items. These pages were very specifically, links to the actual products I had used to make my own CosPlays. Over time my CosPlay Squidoo series became the go-to spot for many con goings seeking to find suppliers for making their CosPlays and they were deeply saddened by the lack of this resource. Seeing the return of my other popular Squidoo pages Amphibious Aliens, Autism & Me, and The World's Most Haunted Car, my Squidoo followers have been asking is I can bring the CosPlay series back next.

Yes.

Yes I can.

And here it is...

Costume Supplies: Shoes

Fetish Shoes (A General Mix)

Disabled/Handicap Friendly Flat Soled Fetish Shoes

Fetish Shoes - Red

Fetish Shoes - Orange

Fetish Shoes - Yellow

Fetish Shoes - Green

Fetish Shoes - Blue

Fetish Shoes - Purple

Fetish Shoes - Pink

Fetish Shoes - White

Fetish Shoes - Grey

Fetish Shoes - Black

Fetish Shoes - Sliver

Fetish Shoes - Gold

Fetish Shoes - Cream/Beige/Nude

Fetish Shoes - Brown

Fetish Shoes - Animal Print

Fetish Shoes - Multi-Print & Florals

Over the Top Gypsy Style Wedding Dresses

Red Wedding Dresses

Orange Wedding Dresses

Yellow Wedding Dresses

Green Wedding Dresses

Blue Wedding Dresses

Purple Wedding Dresses

Pink Wedding Dresses

Silver Wedding Dresses

Gold Wedding Dresses

Brown Wedding Dresses

Black Wedding Dresses

Gypsy Fashion

Real Gypsy Wedding Dresses

Gypsy Veiling - Hijab Head-covering - Dupatta Modesty

J-Fashion

Aristocrat (J-fashion)

Kogal (J-Fashion)

Visual kei

Ganguro

Neo-Victorian

Steampunk

Decora/Dekora (J-Fashion)

Mori Kei (Forest Nymph)

Yamanba (J-Fashion)

Rockabilly

Fairy Kei

Dolly kei

Cult party kei

Angura kei

Oshare kei

OtherKin

Elven Kin/Elf Kin

Dragon Kin

Unicorn Kin

Fairy Kin

Demon Kin

Doll Kin

Wolf Kin

Fox Kin

Cat Kin

Dog Kin

MermKin

Big Fancy High Fashion Hats

Red Hats

Orange Hats

Yellow Hats

Green Hats

Blue Hats

Purple Hats

Pink Hats

White Hats

Grey Hats

Brown Hats

Black Hats

Silver & Gold Hats

Capes

Red, Orange, Yellow Capes

Green, Blue, Brown Capes

Pink, Purple Capes

Black, White Capes

Butterfly, Bird, Wing Capes

Silver, Gold Capes

Isis Wings & Dance Capes

PreMade Costumes

Sexy Ghosts

Sexy Vampires

Sexy Pirates

Sexy Fairies/Faeries

Star Wars Costumes

Wonder Woman Costumes

Disney Princess Costumes

Lolita Supplies

Gothic Lolita

Elegant Gothic Lolita

Steampunk Lolita

Amai Lolita or Amarori (Sweet Lolita)

Pastel Goth Lolita

Guro Lolita (grotesque)

Wa Lolita

Kuro Lolita

Sailor Lolita

Qi Lolita

Pankurori/Punk Lolita

Himerori /Princess Lolita

Country Lolita

Kurashikaru Rorita (Classical Lolita)

Erorori/Ero Lolita

Shirorori (White) Lolita (Shiro Lolita)

Kurorori (Black) Lolita (Kuro Lolita)

Pinkurori (Pink) Lolita

Mizuirorori (Light Blue) Lolita

Itarori (Painful Lolita)

Housewife Lolita (Also Obarori): Mother and child lolita

Decora Lolita

Pirate Lolita

Mori Kei (Forest Nymph) Lolita

Yamanba Lolita

Fairy Kei Lolita

Dolly kei

Cult party kei Lolita

Oshare kei Lolita

Dance Wear

Belly Dance Skirts: Red

Belly Dance Skirts: Orange

Belly Dance Skirts: Yellow

Belly Dance Skirts: Green

Belly Dance Skirts: Blue

Belly Dance Skirts: Purple

Belly Dance Skirts: Pink

Belly Dance Skirts: Black

Belly Dance Tops: Red

Belly Dance Tops: Orange

Belly Dance Tops: Yellow

Belly Dance Tops: Green

Belly Dance Tops: Blue

Belly Dance Tops: Purple

Belly Dance Tops: Pink

Belly Dance Tops: Black

Belly Dance Scarfs: Red

Belly Dance Scarfs: Orange

Belly Dance Scarfs: Yellow

Belly Dance Scarfs: Green

Belly Dance Scarfs: Blue

Belly Dance Scarfs: Purple

Belly Dance Scarfs: Pink

Belly Dance Scarfs: Black

Costume Supplies: Wigs

Wigs (A General Mix)

Wigs - Red

Wigs - Orange

Wigs - Yellow

Wigs - Green

Wigs - Blue

Wigs - Purple

Wigs - Pink

Wigs - White

Wigs - Grey

Wigs - Black

Wigs - Brown

BDSM Fetish Wear & Stuff

BDSM Fetish Wear For Women

BDSM Fetish Wear For Men

BDSM & Biker Masks

French Maid Costumes

Sissification Gear

Whips, Chains, Restrains, Etc

Flamboyant Nipples: Nipple Rings & Pasties

Flamboyant Penises: Penis Rings & Scrotum Pendants

CBT Supplies: Penis Sleeves, Cock Cages, Ball Chains, etc.

Dildos. Lots and Lots of Dildos

All Things Penis: Penis Pops, Penis Shaped Cake Pans, Penis Shaped Balloons... Yeah, they exist and here they are. 

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There were over 200 pages in this series back on Squidoo (listed above). It'll take me a bit of time to get all of them back up, as I have to go through each list and check every single link, to make sure the supplier is still active, the items are still available, and remove dead links, etc. It takes 2 or 3 days to go through each list, so it could be a while before all of the pages are back online for you, but I'll try to get up as many as I can, as quickly as possible for you guys. The pages listed on the list above will be turned into links as each page goes live.

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(Sadly, as some of you may already be aware, my favorite supplier of Goth fashions has gone out of business, and as such, the Drac-In-A-Box series of Squidoo Pages will not be returning.)

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And... Yes, The Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay Squidoo Lens will be returning to the internet. When it does, the link to it will be here.

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This page was written by Wendy Christine Allen of 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine.

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@eelkat i just found out there is yet another bizarre rumour going around. where are these wild rumours coming from? who is starting them? and why? ♬ original sound - Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author

@eelkat since I've been flooded with hundreds of messages the past two weeks asking if I still own "the world's most haunted car", yes, and here it is, filmed today May 18, 2026… but my son Xavier is dead, i am crippled and given that people are AGAIN showing up calling my Dodge "haunted", calling my friend "an alien", calling me "transgender", and spreading wild defamation slander connecting me to Stephen King, I think I need to start taking down the contact information of every blogger, podcaster, youtuber, and social media account spreading these rumors, and sue every single one of them for CAUSING my car to be cut in half May 10, 2010, for CAUSING the backhoe that drove over my house August 8, 2013, for CAUSING my son's murder November 14, 2013, for CAUSING me to be crippled and in a wheelchair November 14, 2013, and for CONTINUING to CAUSE harassers to show up in person to harass me near daily, STILL now in 2026. EVERYONE telling you my car is haunted, telling you my friend is an alien, calling my car "the goldeneagle", calling my friend "Etiole", or trying to connect me or my car to Stephen King, is lying to you. They crippled me when I was 8 months pregnant, and a woman with a golf club, severed my spine and bashed my baby's head in, I spent 9 years relearning to walk, and the FBI is 13 years into the murder investigation and not yet identified the attacker who crippled me and killed my baby, both violently with a golf club and the FBI believes that it is friends and family of the woman who did it, are the ones who started and spread the rumors saying my car is haunted, saying I'm an alien abductee, saying all kinds of similar bs about aliens, ufos, ghosts, witchcraft, demons, and Stephen King connections, even though I don't believe in ghosts, aliens, ufos, demons, and had never heard of Stephen King before 30k of his fans showed up in my yard trying to find my car! FBI believes the backhoe driver and the murderer are the same person and it is a developer who wanted my land and so started the Stephen King, ghost, and alien rumors all in an attempt to drive me off my land, and when it didn't work they drove a backhoe over my house, and when that didn't work they crippled me and killed my son. Why are they doing this? How do I get them to stop? ♬ original sound - Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author

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Do you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Avenue, Old Orchard Beach, Maine on August 8, 2013? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.

My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me July 26, 2016 at scarborough WalMart,... they arrived the first time with a backhoe on August 8, 2013, that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since....

... which means it is now only a few weeks from the 14th anniversary of my son's murder. I was 8 month pregnant November 14, 2013, and a student ay SMCC, and coming out of the Buglight Lighthouse art studio after art class, when a still unidentifiedwoman wielding a golf club attacked me, severed my spine, while I was 8 months pregnant, triggered early labour, then killed my son minutes after he was born.

While accusing me of being transgender, screaming "transvestite freak" and "look at that thing, that's Ken's son in a dress"... while I was 8 months pregnant.

My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son and crippled me, arrived the first time with a backhoe that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since.

The backhoe driver returned November 14, 2013, armed with a golf club, used it to break my spine and smash my baby's brains out on the ground

On November 14, 2013, my son was murdered. I was 8 months pregnant, leaving my college classroom, and just getting into my car, when 3 strangers, a man and two women, armed with golf clubs leapt out from behind my car screaming "kill or be killed, kill the transvestite freaks, kill them all before they kill us! look at that thing! That is Ken's son, look at how it's dressed! kill the transvestite freaks! kill or be killed"... while the bald man and the red haired woman chanted this over and over, the blonde woman, lunged with the golf club.

She severed my spine, I am now a quadriplegic, and been paralyzed arms and legs, and in a wheelchair for 13 years now. She broke my hips, my knees, my legs, ruptured most of my discs, and shattered three of my vertebrae so bad that the shards of bone acted like glass and embedded themselves into my spinal column nerve bundle.

The attack also triggered labour.

My son was born in that parking lot, and he lived only a couple of minutes, before the deranged blonde woman, beat his head in and smashed his brains out, with the same golfclub she had just used to sever my spine and leave me crippled for the rest of my life.

Realizing that I was not transgender, and they'd just murdered a baby, the man grabbed the 2 women and forcibly dragged them away to a 4 door white pickup truck, and they left me there to die.

The FBI told me later, that a few weeks before this attack, and transwoman, had murdered a cis woman, in a parking lot, abou 20 miles away from where I was attacked. The FBI, believes that my attackers, had somehow found out I wrote transgender fiction, connecting my real name to my penname, (my father's name is in fact "Ken", and I do have a brother) and believed that I wrote transgender fiction, because I was myself transgender, even though I'm not transgender. The FBI, believes the attackers, thought I was my brother, pretending to be a woman.

The FBI investigation, into my son's murder, has dragged on for 13 years, and still now in 2026, continues on, with the FBI, still not having yet identified my attackers, and only guessing at what their motive was.

Thus we come to 2014, and the full swing change of the series I write. WHY my series, went from just a transman main character living life, to the full blown Mpreg genre series that it now is today.

Before the attack, I had a chance of having a baby. I don't know. And because I'm in America, I'm too old to adopt. You have to be under 45 years old to adopt a baby. That is the law in America. I was informed this, when we tried to adopt, now that my injuries leave me unable to get pregnant a 9th time.

Thus began my obsessively writing, my transman main character, pregnant. Always pregnant now. Every time. Every story. Stories that now fully focus on pregnancy, labour, miscarriages, babies dying, babies living, raising babies... the whole series, since 2014 has devolved into an outright baby obsession.

Meanwhile, reborn baby dolls were suggested to me by my therapist, and have also become a deeply obsessive part of my life. Because 13 years ago my son was murdered minutes after he was born, because a transphobic bigot mistook me for being transgender, I'm STILL in a wheelchair, struggling to relearn to use my arms and legs, now 13 years later, and I'm still DAILY dealing with police officers and FBI agents who while they are trying to find my son's killer, they are also daily reminding me... oh, yeah, my son was murdered, literally ripped out of my belly, by a transphobe. Who still has not been located and walks free to kill again.

The golfclub woman as she looked during the golf club attack at Southern Maine community college November 14, 2013. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

The golfclub woman as she looked during the shopping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart July 26, 2016. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

The 2nd woman as she looked at both attacks, her hair goes all the way down to her knees. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer's accomplice, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322

Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.

I am a legally blind quadriplegic, and low verbal, I have also published 138 novels in the last 48 years. It's not as impossible as people think. The problem being blind and quadriplegic, medically have different meanings then how those two words are used medically.

Fewer than 3% of all blind people see nothing. While 97% people who are classified as fully blind are able to see up to two feet in front of them. Legally blind means I can see more then two feet in front of me but not far enough to see twenty feet in front of me. In my case I can see about eight feet.

Quadriplegic, has varying levels, it means having a damaged nerve bundle in the spinal column causing limited mobility of all 4 limbs, (in my case this was done by a women wielding a golf club, who also beat my 8 month infant's head to pulp on the parking lot tarmak, at the same time she severed my spine with the same golf club; both on November 14, 2013; the FBI investigation into my son's murder and my being crippled has gone on now for 13 years, a few weeks away from 14 years now, and the FBI has still not identified the killer or her motive). Contrary to popular misconception, quadriplegic does NOT mean ZERO movement, it means means limited movement, specifically in means unable to lift arms over head, unable to grip fingers around objects to pick them up, and unable to stand for more then 5 minutes to a time. Because there are so many thousands of nerves in each limb it is actually very rare for there to be 100% no movement, but how much, and to what extent varies by patent depending upon the specific point of injury to the spinal column.

Meaning typing is still possible for over 60% of all quadriplegics.

In my case, it was the lower spine that was severed, cutting off completly my ability to move my right leg, leaving limited feeling in my left leg, and an ability to stand but not walk, with crutches, for the first 9 years. I regained enough nerve growth in my legs by the 9th year to be able to take ten or twelve steps allowing me to get out of bed for the first time since the golf club attack; This in turn lead to me being able to start using a wheelchair, as I was able to sit upright for the first time as well.

Because the shattered vertebrae bone fragments are broken off completly and embedded into the nerve bundle just above my tailbone, doctors were saying I would never walk again, but now at 13 years, I am able to push mu wheelchair like a walker, a distance of almost a thousand steps a day. Though doctors are still doubtful I will ever walk "normally" again, I have proven them wrong, when their said 13 years ago, that I would never walk again at all.

But because of the placement of the damage to my spine, regaining hand use, was always thought possible, it was just a matter of waiting long enough for nerve regrowth, along side daily finger exercises. I was able to continue writing, after becoming quadriplegic, because I still have use of my right thumb, and 2 fore figures of my right hand. And can type 90 words per minute with those 3 fingers.

I however have no wrist strength, elbow strength, or shoulder strength, so I am not able to form a fist, or lift objects, or brush my hair, or my teeth, all thing I have to have my caretaker do. But, those things are not needed for typing. Unfortunately, my pinky and ring fingers are "nerve dead" and drag over the keyboard, and cause horrific spelling errors and typos, which are incredibly frustrating to deal with.

Unfortunately trying to edit errors myself, just makes the errors worse, because those same two fingers drag over the keyboard yet again. Prior to the golf club attack, I rarely had spelling errors; now I got more spelling errors then someone is learning English as second language. Editing is a challenge, that I've had to accept, I simply can not do myself, and I have to hire several editors to help with that.

Low verbal means sounds can still be made, sounds that software programs like Dragon can be trained to recognize and translate, and type into full words. More then half my novels were typed with this method.

I still have a long ways to go before I am anything close to being able to do the things I could do before the golf club woman beat my baby's brains out and shattered my spine. And you know what's more frustrating then how slow mu medical progression has been? The fact that it's been 13 years and the police and FBI are still coming up at dead ends as to who the woman who murdered my baby was, or why she even did it.

My son's 14th birthday is only a few weeks away, but he didn't even get to live long enough to celebrate his 1st birthday, I don't even know why. And I can't wait to regain my ability to walk again, because regaining my ability to walk, means gaining the ability to go outside and start looking for my son's murderer myself instead of sitting at home trapped in a wheelchair waiting for the police and FBI to to find her. So, writing isn't a big priority for me anymore. I only write now, as a way to exercise my hands, in between relearning to walk.

Never let a disability stop you. Plenty of writers, artists, athletes, do not let either blindness, speech impediments, or limited mobility hold then back from perusing their careers.

Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.

More information about the backhoe attack, my son's murder, my becoming crippled, my becoming homeless, and the FBI investigation around all of it, can be found here.

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