Happy 2026!
It is our 30th anniversary here at Space Dock 13!
On the web since 1996!
You have encountered an extremely old website that continues to exist in old web ways, the same way it has done for now three decades.
In spite of being now 30 years old this year, started in 1996, it is still heavily active and old pages updated daily, new pages added daily, still now in 2026. All hand written, all hand coded (no AI), all by me, same as it ever was.
We Still Exist: The Old Web Did Not Go Away, You Just Forgot How To Find Us
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This site was NOT designed for mobile devices (as they had not been invented yet when I created it) thus this site looks best on a computer, at 1280x768 or above. |
This is a very old website created in 1996, so, yes, javascript is needed for the site to work as it should. If things don't function, you may need to update javascript drivers on your device |
This site tries to be mobile friendly but it's been online since 1996, so old pages may not load right on mobile devices, and as this site has had pages added near daily for 30 years there are now over 20k pages here. |
Having started out in life as a GeoCities site, this site contains glitter, bright colours, blinkies, moving gifs, and other things the old web was known for. |
As has been requested (endlessly) EK's Star Log is returning to the internet. You can still read the original archive here... https://eelkat.wordpress.com
The reason you couldn't find it is because I set it to private un-index mode, meaning it no longer shows up in Google search results and can only be accessed by a direct link.
Meaning, if you didn't have the url for it, no amount of searching for it would tell you how to find it. Anyone who had the url could still access it though.
I had set it to private September 23, 2013, intending to move each page here to EelKat.com... however, November 14, 2013, after only moving about 30 pages, I was beaten up and left paralyzed for 5 months, then spent 18 months relearning to walk. I am still crippled and have limited mobility.
Below is one of the blog posts that originally appeared on EK's Star Log. The original articles are still online but no longer indexed in Google. Links to the original article, are included with this post, as is the original posting date. Clicking the links will take you to the original site, where you can see the old Space Dock 13 website still online. Space Dock 13 as it looked when hosted on WordPress from 2003 to 2013.
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If you want some stories to get you started in The Pink Necromancer series, reading these first will give you a good introduction to the 3 main characters:
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My Elves Are JellyFish...and I asked Google AI and ChatGPT 5.6 what they thought of this.
As requested, my daily writing prompt series is now available print paperback editions on Amazon.
There are 20 volumes of this writing prompt series currently planned and in varying stages of finishing, hopefully all 20 will be published by the end of 2026. I likely will do a 2nd series of writing prompt books in 2027.
The first of the Visual Novels/Video Games for The Adventures of Quaraun the Inane/The Pink Necromancer series is published and available on Itch.io, there are 3 more planned for release in 2026, 6 more planned for release in 2027, and the big 60-hour 80k word 150 page one (Quaraun Goes To the Fair) is planned for a 2028 release.
There is a Pink Necromancer card game and a Pink Necromancer board game, as well as a Pink Necromancer table top RPG supliment for Dungeons and Dragons, all in the works, and to be released over the next couple of years as well.
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Update Sept 3, 2026:
I am able to get around enough to take Koko to dog park... today is 29 days since getting out of hospital. My diet is still mostly liquid, but im eating some solid food again, but its like rice or soft mushy baby food type stuff because I still can not chew yet, though I can swallow again. My jaw is still not functioning good so im having trouble talking still. So there's been slight improvement to my mouth, throat, and jaw, but, zero improvement to my eye, which is a major concern, be Im almost fully blind right now. im legally blind since birth in my left eye, so I have no ability to fall back on using my left eye. My right eye is the one injured and my vision in it is "40% decreased" according to my doctor, but it wasn't good vision to begin with, and right now my right eye is not much different from my legally blind left eye. Which I why I have to have someone drive my car for me instead of me driving my car myself right now, which is very frustrating, because, being a female, I had to fight for over twenty years to be allowed to drive. I started sneaking out at age 31 and dressing as a man to go to Old Orchard Beach high school to get a ged, because us females are not allowed to go to school. And i was 37 years old when snuck out to the DMV and got a driver's permit and started going to college. I was 42 and 8 months pregnant when my family found out I was going to college and thats when I was punished by the backhoe driving over my house and my spine broken with a golf club and my baby born right then and killed with same golf club. So it's very frustrating now, so soon after finally being able to drive , to now not be able to drive because of an eye injury, especially after 14 years of being paralyzed from the golf club and not being allowed to have a wheelchair, again, because i am female and we females are simply not allowed to do anything. I hate the culture I was born into. I wish I had the freedom to go to school and drive a car the way American women do. I wish having my spine broken with a golf club and my baby killed with a golf club and a backhoe driven over my house was not how men in my family punishment women in my family for learning to read and write. Its so frustrating not being able to to drive again, so soon after 14 years being paralyzed, and being paralyzed by the golf club was the punishment for getting a driver's license back in 2013 after 30 years of men not letting me have one. I hate my family's culture and how they treat us women.
I get so sick of Americans telling me how they wish they could be a Gypsy… they are either misogynist woman hating pigs, or delusional idiots who haven't got a clue how shittily we Gypsy women are treated by Gypsy men, because no one in their righ mind who knows anything about Gypsy culture would ever want to be part of it. I hate that I was born a Gypsy.
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update sept 7, 2026
"You would not make a good teacher"... what does that mean, and why are there so many people on Railroad Ave and Western Ave and Cutts St why walk up to me and say that to me?
I find it very confusing. I have low functioning Autism (the Rain Man type) and so i have very little understanding of words beyond the basic ones, and i never went to to school, so I never learned maths or sciences, and I only had remedial classes at Southern Maine Community College, because I did not have an education to enroll with regular, I was there taking every reading and writing class they had to learn how to read and write, and also took speaking classes to learn how to talk (i spoke Shetland Scottish language because that was language my grandmother spoke but she died when I was 8 so I only knew that language to speak and write, and I was 37 when I went to college and 42 when I learned English speaking and I still cant speak English good yet), all the other classes I took were art painting and cooking.
So the phrase "You would not make a good teacher" makes no sense to me because it seems to imply that I am trying to be a teacher, but I don't have anything close to the education ti be a teacher, and im not trying to be a teacher. So I don't know why people keep saying this phrase to me and I assume it must have some sort of a slang meaning, but I can't figure out what it could be of why do these people keep saying it to me.
see video below for more information:
@eelkat "You would not make a good teacher"... what does that mean, and why are there so many people on Railroad Ave and Western Ave and Cutts St why walk up to me and say that to me? I find it very confusing. I have low functioning Autism (the Rain Man type) and so i have very little understanding of words beyond the basic ones, and i never went to to school, so I never learned maths or sciences, and I only had remedial classes at Southern Maine Community College, because I did not have an education to enroll with regular, I was there taking every reading and writing class they had to learn how to read and write, and also took speaking classes to learn how to talk (i spoke Shetland Scottish language because that was language my grandmother spoke but she died when I was 8 so I only knew that language to speak and write, and I was 37 when I went to college and 42 when I learned English speaking and I still cant speak English good yet), all the other classes I took were art painting and cooking. So the phrase "You would not make a good teacher" makes no sense to me because it seems to imply that I am trying to be a teacher, but I don't have anything close to the education ti be a teacher, and im not trying to be a teacher. So I don't know why people keep saying this phrase to me and I assume it must have some sort of a slang meaning, but I can't figure out what it could be of why do these people keep saying it to me. #mainelife #biddefordmaine #maine #disabilitytiktok #Biddeford ♬ original sound Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author
update Sept 15, 2026:
I have some slight movement in some my fingers again again after over a decade being paralyzed
you remember how I used to be a professional doll making, pattern designer, and embroiderer, back before I became paralized and before my son was murdered and being the backhoe drove over my house?
all my equipment, sewing machines, ect were all destroyed by the backhoe driving over my house, and I have been quardepelegic for over a decade because of it so could not use my hands to sew or draw or embroider, and so only continued to do my writing of novels since then because I could do that with dragon dictation software,
well, since 2016, I been playing Witcher 3 and don't starve video games on twitch livestream, one hand two fingers, as part of my therapy to regain nerve and muscle use of my fingers, and now after 10 years of that, I have somewhat more movement in my fingers and im thinking maybe I can try to do embroidery and doll making again, but not sure, anyways, now im rebuying all of my sewing and embroidery equipment that the backhoe destroyed when it drove over my house, and hopefully I can use my hand enough to embroider again.
waiting for stuff to arrive in mail, so soon I should find out if ten years of twitch gaming has given me enough muscle strength to use my fingers to embroider again.
update to the previous video, answering viewer question about lack of hospital vs broken spine
Wheelchair Fundraiser... I need to upgrade to a power wheelchair, the manual one just isn't enough anymore. But the power wheelchair is $25k. Yes, twenty five thousand dollars. Wtf? I can get a car for a quarter that price, why are wheelchairs so damned expensive? That's more money then I make in five years, so I need to start a fundraiser for it.
I’m "evil" because I write books? WTH? Anyone else ever get this?
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Okay, so some of you are on my FaceBook friend’s list and may already know about what’s been going on these past few weeks, so you’ll know what I’m talking about, but for every one else, I’ll explain. For starters, I come from a very, really, super-strict, super-Christian, they are saints and the rest of the world is going to hell multi-generation family of which I am one of 264 members. Aunts, uncles, cousins, you name it, they are all one big group. (One of my friend’s said that this sort of close-knit no one can make a move with out the rest of the family’s permission thing is highly unusual for a family, and often asks me:
“Are you sure your family isn’t the Mafia and they just haven’t told you yet?”
and another friend says:
“You do realize your family is a crazy whack-job cult group, don’t you?”)
Okay, yeah, I do realize my extended family is nuts, that’s why I try to stay away from them as much as possible, but with their stalker have to know every move I make attitudes that’s not always easy to do.

So, I’ve always been sort of the black sheep. I never fully “conformed” to their way of practicing religion, and I always pretty much did my own thing.
When I was 4 and again when I was 8 I had what I’m now told was an alien/UFO encounter, but which I called contact with faeries. This resulted in accusations from relatives stating that I was “evil”, “demon possessed”, needed and exorcism, was a “witch consorting with Satan”, etc, etc, etc. Whenever I told any one about what had happened to me, my family was quick to tell the person I was “possessed with an evil spirit”.
Anyways, because they would never let me talk about it, I started writing about it instead, and that is how I got started on my career are a writer.
So, 30 years and many books later, I still write, I still avoid my relatives, and they still say I have an evil spirit. Twelve years ago they took to bombarding my email with their accusations, so I got myself a new email and let them spam my old one. I’d been doing good, about avoiding my relatives for about 4 or 5 years, and it looked like maybe, finally, once and for all, I was rid of their endless accusations and weird nut job freak outs.
Than I joined FaceBook, and all hell broke lose, because as soon as they realized I was on FB they all sent me friend/family/relative requests. I approved them, not really knowing what FaceBook was, because I had just joined it.
For the first few months everything was fine. Than in February the demon accusations started coming on my FB Wall. Well, I had been talking with my FB friends a few months now, and when they saw the sudden, odd and completely inexplicable demon possession accusations, they asked me what these people were talking about, and since it was too long to explain in a FB post, I wrote this instead and told them to read that, and than explained that these people leaving the comments were my relatives and members of their church, and that they believed that because I had had an alien encounter 30 years ago, that I was therefor demon possessed, and that was what why they were saying the weird things they were saying about me on my FB Wall.
Well, from there, me and my FB friends just ignored the comments and kept on as usual. Than a few weeks ago, my bishop tells me I’m being excommunicated from the church because of what I wrote on that website. Okay. Whatever. He also thinks I’m a witch, and says that witchcraft is apostasy again the church, and used my website as “proof” that I am a witch.
Yadda, yadda, yadda.
Like I haven’t heard this all before? I think they are all freaking crazy, for translating what happened to me into “proof” that I am a witch possessed by demons.
So these past few weeks, the whole kit and kaboodle of them have been in an complete and total uproar, and my FB Newsfeed has been a flurry of thousands of posts starting how I have been putting curses on the local church members!
They are accusing me of everything from evil eyes and whammies to voodoo dolls and spell casting.
They are “coming forward” with “proof” that I caused deaths, car accidents, illnesses, disease, crop failure, 2 members died in the last month and I’m accused of having killed both of them with curses, people’s dogs have died and I’m accused of having used my evil eye to kill them, one guy got cancer and I some how gave it to him,
. . . ect, ect, ect, ect . . .
And I thought my relatives were crazy!
The Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints makes my crazy relatives look normal! OMG!
I’m reading their messages and comments and Wall posts (what to read them? Go see my FB wall for yourself... these people are freaking nuts. Talk about cult mentality!) and going:
What the hell???? Are they serious? Do these people actually believe the things they are saying? Are they freaking nuts? OMG! What kind of a freaking cult mentality do these people have anyways? How can they be so brainwashed as to believe that I have an evil spirit and can cause all these things to happen? Did I wake up in the wrong century or something? What are they time travelers from the 1500’s? What the hell is wrong with these people?
I don’t get it.
I really don’t get it.
They are completely off their rocker, every freaking one of them.
And they're not even my church... I attend the Sanford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints nearly 50 miles away from the Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I'm trying to figure out why it is the Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the one flipping out.
Well, as you know, every year once August comes around, I put my regular writing projects on hold to start plotting for my NaNoWriMo contest entry. This becomes my vacation from my writing career. I know, I take a vacation from writing books to write another book.
Yep, that’s me, addicted to writing. So, I have once again become active on various writing forums and of course on NaNo itself, and as usual for this time of year, my Writing Blog has once again been pulled up and gone active. Off line I am surrounded by papers and note books and reference books and pens, and Moxie and I pretty much eat, breath, sleep, think, and talk about nothing but my NaNo entry for 2009.
Okay.
So yesterday I took a break from NaNo plotting to check my FB account.
My friends still sending me game requests/challenges and I send more back to them, and my relatives and church locals are still spamming me to death with their witchcraft accusations, I’m still supposedly killing people and their pets left and right (boy at this rate, I’ll be the only one left on the planet!).
Yep, all is well with the world – everything going about as usual.
Than I see it – the accusations, they are not the same as usual.
Oh no, no, now they have changed, it’s no loner just evil eyes and curses, nope, now it’s my books too!
Apparently, according to some new guy Dan Keenings (not sure who he is, he's not on my friend list -- friend of a friend, I guess?) my “evil spirit” or “demon” is making me write books so that I can control the minds of innocent teenagers and make them do my bidding.
Warnings are now being posted, telling people not to read my books because they are evil and have the ability to control the minds of others.
According to one accusation, I am writing my books to build up an army of evil minions which I will send out the kill every one, because I will not stop until every one on the planet is dead.
Other accusations call my books perverted tools of Satan.
Lovely. It’s good to know my books are capable of such great power. I do wonder though, if they can do these things, how come I was not aware of it? I mean, I did write them after all, shouldn’t I know if my books are capable of taking over the world?
You know, the really funny thing is, my books are not mass produced. I write chap books. Little 75 page pulp novellas that are not even sold in any major bookstores. You’d be hard pressed to find a copy of one.
I write because I like to write. Money was never a goal in my writing career, so I never pursued getting my books mass produced.
Now, if my goal was to build an army of teenage boys to destroy the entire population (as one accusation stated) wouldn’t you think I would have mass produced my books on some large grand scale? I mean, how big of an army can I build up by printing off 10 or 12 books a year?
What is wrong with the books I write? and why is that the latest “reason” for today’s round of “proof” that I am a demon possessed witch putting curses on church members? If you don’t like my books you don’t have to read them. . . heck, as far as I know the people saying these things have NEVER even read ANY of my books!
So where do they get off saying these things about some books which they never even read????? and for those who aren’t on their friend list and thus did not see what they said: their “proof” is the fact that I write horror and romance books. uhm . . . yeah . . .
They are saying that not just my books, but ALL Romance novels are building up Satan's hoard.
*sigh*
Who is this Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and why are they raving lunatics and why isn't their a psychiatrist with a straight jacket around when you need him?
I’m thinking, if what they are saying is true, well heck, there must be a heck of a lot of demon possessed witches putting curses on church members, because romance and horror novelists are a dime a dozen. Their are a lot of us out there you know. I’m guessing Stephen King and Danielle Steel must be really, really, REALLY wicked what with all the horror and romance they write.
I have to ask – if these people hate me so much, why did they send me a FB friend request to begin with? It looks like the only reason they are on my friend list is so that they can harass me online, since their harassment offline sent me into an agoraphobic state which now makes it difficult for them to get in touch with me in person.
And do they say these types of things about EVERYONE who had an alien/UFO encounter and EVERYONE who writes horror and/or romance, or are they only saying these things about me, because they know me personally and therefor feel justified by that fact alone?
Do other writers have to go through this?
Are nut jobs who accuse writers of being evil wide spread or did I just happened to run across a fluke of wackos?
Are there others out there like this or is it just the members of the Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints who think and act this way?
Sorry, this post got so long, but I just needed to vent. I mean, you’d think after 30 years they’d get tired of accusing me of being evil. Why can’t they find some one else to pick on? I mean, 30 years! Come on, give a rest already! You hate me, you think I’m evil. I know. You’ve been telling me for 30 years now, can you find something else to do with your life beside harass me?
Oh, wait, I’m sorry, I forgot. You don’t have a life, that’s why you spent the last 30 years focusing on mine. How do I get these people to leave me alone? How do other writers deal with situations like this? Do other writers have to deal with situations like this? Is there a time machine around somewhere so I can send these people back to the 1500’s where they belong?
Shhheeeesshh!
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Do you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Avenue, Old Orchard Beach, Maine on August 8, 2013? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me July 26, 2016 at scarborough WalMart,... they arrived the first time with a backhoe on August 8, 2013, that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since....
... which means it is now only a few weeks from the 14th anniversary of my son's murder. I was 8 month pregnant November 14, 2013, and a student ay SMCC, and coming out of the Buglight Lighthouse art studio after art class, when a still unidentifiedwoman wielding a golf club attacked me, severed my spine, while I was 8 months pregnant, triggered early labour, then killed my son minutes after he was born.
While accusing me of being transgender, screaming "transvestite freak" and "look at that thing, that's Ken's son in a dress"... while I was 8 months pregnant.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son and crippled me, arrived the first time with a backhoe that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since. |
The backhoe driver returned November 14, 2013, armed with a golf club, used it to break my spine and smash my baby's brains out on the ground
On November 14, 2013, my son was murdered. I was 8 months pregnant, leaving my college classroom, and just getting into my car, when 3 strangers, a man and two women, armed with golf clubs leapt out from behind my car screaming "kill or be killed, kill the transvestite freaks, kill them all before they kill us! look at that thing! That is Ken's son, look at how it's dressed! kill the transvestite freaks! kill or be killed"... while the bald man and the red haired woman chanted this over and over, the blonde woman, lunged with the golf club.
She severed my spine, I am now a quadriplegic, and been paralyzed arms and legs, and in a wheelchair for 13 years now. She broke my hips, my knees, my legs, ruptured most of my discs, and shattered three of my vertebrae so bad that the shards of bone acted like glass and embedded themselves into my spinal column nerve bundle.
The attack also triggered labour.
My son was born in that parking lot, and he lived only a couple of minutes, before the deranged blonde woman, beat his head in and smashed his brains out, with the same golfclub she had just used to sever my spine and leave me crippled for the rest of my life.
Realizing that I was not transgender, and they'd just murdered a baby, the man grabbed the 2 women and forcibly dragged them away to a 4 door white pickup truck, and they left me there to die.
The FBI told me later, that a few weeks before this attack, and transwoman, had murdered a cis woman, in a parking lot, abou 20 miles away from where I was attacked. The FBI, believes that my attackers, had somehow found out I wrote transgender fiction, connecting my real name to my penname, (my father's name is in fact "Ken", and I do have a brother) and believed that I wrote transgender fiction, because I was myself transgender, even though I'm not transgender. The FBI, believes the attackers, thought I was my brother, pretending to be a woman.
The FBI investigation, into my son's murder, has dragged on for 13 years, and still now in 2026, continues on, with the FBI, still not having yet identified my attackers, and only guessing at what their motive was.
Thus we come to 2014, and the full swing change of the series I write. WHY my series, went from just a transman main character living life, to the full blown Mpreg genre series that it now is today.
Before the attack, I had a chance of having a baby. I don't know. And because I'm in America, I'm too old to adopt. You have to be under 45 years old to adopt a baby. That is the law in America. I was informed this, when we tried to adopt, now that my injuries leave me unable to get pregnant a 9th time.
Thus began my obsessively writing, my transman main character, pregnant. Always pregnant now. Every time. Every story. Stories that now fully focus on pregnancy, labour, miscarriages, babies dying, babies living, raising babies... the whole series, since 2014 has devolved into an outright baby obsession.
Meanwhile, reborn baby dolls were suggested to me by my therapist, and have also become a deeply obsessive part of my life. Because 13 years ago my son was murdered minutes after he was born, because a transphobic bigot mistook me for being transgender, I'm STILL in a wheelchair, struggling to relearn to use my arms and legs, now 13 years later, and I'm still DAILY dealing with police officers and FBI agents who while they are trying to find my son's killer, they are also daily reminding me... oh, yeah, my son was murdered, literally ripped out of my belly, by a transphobe. Who still has not been located and walks free to kill again.
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The golfclub woman as she looked during the golf club attack at Southern Maine community college November 14, 2013. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The golfclub woman as she looked during the shopping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart July 26, 2016. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The 2nd woman as she looked at both attacks, her hair goes all the way down to her knees. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer's accomplice, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
I am a legally blind quadriplegic, and low verbal, I have also published 138 novels in the last 48 years. It's not as impossible as people think. The problem being blind and quadriplegic, medically have different meanings then how those two words are used medically.
Fewer than 3% of all blind people see nothing. While 97% people who are classified as fully blind are able to see up to two feet in front of them. Legally blind means I can see more then two feet in front of me but not far enough to see twenty feet in front of me. In my case I can see about eight feet.
Quadriplegic, has varying levels, it means having a damaged nerve bundle in the spinal column causing limited mobility of all 4 limbs, (in my case this was done by a women wielding a golf club, who also beat my 8 month infant's head to pulp on the parking lot tarmak, at the same time she severed my spine with the same golf club; both on November 14, 2013; the FBI investigation into my son's murder and my being crippled has gone on now for 13 years, a few weeks away from 14 years now, and the FBI has still not identified the killer or her motive). Contrary to popular misconception, quadriplegic does NOT mean ZERO movement, it means means limited movement, specifically in means unable to lift arms over head, unable to grip fingers around objects to pick them up, and unable to stand for more then 5 minutes to a time. Because there are so many thousands of nerves in each limb it is actually very rare for there to be 100% no movement, but how much, and to what extent varies by patent depending upon the specific point of injury to the spinal column.
Meaning typing is still possible for over 60% of all quadriplegics.
In my case, it was the lower spine that was severed, cutting off completly my ability to move my right leg, leaving limited feeling in my left leg, and an ability to stand but not walk, with crutches, for the first 9 years. I regained enough nerve growth in my legs by the 9th year to be able to take ten or twelve steps allowing me to get out of bed for the first time since the golf club attack; This in turn lead to me being able to start using a wheelchair, as I was able to sit upright for the first time as well.
Because the shattered vertebrae bone fragments are broken off completly and embedded into the nerve bundle just above my tailbone, doctors were saying I would never walk again, but now at 13 years, I am able to push mu wheelchair like a walker, a distance of almost a thousand steps a day. Though doctors are still doubtful I will ever walk "normally" again, I have proven them wrong, when their said 13 years ago, that I would never walk again at all.
But because of the placement of the damage to my spine, regaining hand use, was always thought possible, it was just a matter of waiting long enough for nerve regrowth, along side daily finger exercises. I was able to continue writing, after becoming quadriplegic, because I still have use of my right thumb, and 2 fore figures of my right hand. And can type 90 words per minute with those 3 fingers.
I however have no wrist strength, elbow strength, or shoulder strength, so I am not able to form a fist, or lift objects, or brush my hair, or my teeth, all thing I have to have my caretaker do. But, those things are not needed for typing. Unfortunately, my pinky and ring fingers are "nerve dead" and drag over the keyboard, and cause horrific spelling errors and typos, which are incredibly frustrating to deal with.
Unfortunately trying to edit errors myself, just makes the errors worse, because those same two fingers drag over the keyboard yet again. Prior to the golf club attack, I rarely had spelling errors; now I got more spelling errors then someone is learning English as second language. Editing is a challenge, that I've had to accept, I simply can not do myself, and I have to hire several editors to help with that.
Low verbal means sounds can still be made, sounds that software programs like Dragon can be trained to recognize and translate, and type into full words. More then half my novels were typed with this method.
I still have a long ways to go before I am anything close to being able to do the things I could do before the golf club woman beat my baby's brains out and shattered my spine. And you know what's more frustrating then how slow mu medical progression has been? The fact that it's been 13 years and the police and FBI are still coming up at dead ends as to who the woman who murdered my baby was, or why she even did it.
My son's 14th birthday is only a few weeks away, but he didn't even get to live long enough to celebrate his 1st birthday, I don't even know why. And I can't wait to regain my ability to walk again, because regaining my ability to walk, means gaining the ability to go outside and start looking for my son's murderer myself instead of sitting at home trapped in a wheelchair waiting for the police and FBI to to find her. So, writing isn't a big priority for me anymore. I only write now, as a way to exercise my hands, in between relearning to walk.
Never let a disability stop you. Plenty of writers, artists, athletes, do not let either blindness, speech impediments, or limited mobility hold then back from perusing their careers.
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
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