November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322


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FAQ: What are the most visited pages on this website and how many visits do they get?

Several years ago, I wrote an article on how to write different types of magic uses, or rather how I personally write various types of magic users within the context of my Quaraun books. Today that page is one of my top ten most visited articles. It gets 50 to 500 views/reads/hits/visits per day depending on the time of the years and has had over 200k visits total since it was published.

Amphibious Aliens: Debunking The Atwater Family's Alien Abduction Hoax with more then 30MILLION reads since 2007 and The GoldenEagle: Debunking Stephen King's World's Most Haunted Car Hoax with over tenMILLION reads since 2007 still rank as the two most visited articles on my website, but, neither of those are writing related.

Writing Medieval Servants is my most visited writing related article with over 7MILLION reads.

This website was started in 1996 and has 1 to 3 new articles (all written by me, I am the only writer on this site) published almost daily. In 2017 we crossed ten thousand articles published. As of 2023, EACH article gets MINIMUM 10 to 70 reads PER DAY, with the high traffic articles getting 500+ reads per day.

And since December 2019, my website now gets three hundred thousand to 7 million reads per month - well over ONE HUNDRED MILLION PAGE READS PER YEAR, making it not only the single most trafficked site in the State of Maine, but also one of the most visited websites in ALL OF NEW ENGLAND!

{{{HUGS}}} Thank you to all my readers for making this possible!

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The Reality of Online Incomes
vs The Fantasy Dreamers Seek

Today's question about The Reality of Online Incomes vs The Fantasy Dreamers Seek, is not a question at all but a comment comes from:

The Warrior's Forum

which I am commenting on. Enjoy!

[QUOTE=Steve B;11076253]Here's what I have noticed over the course of many years in the small business development arena that I chose to make a career decades ago.

Most people that have the dream of starting a business don't really want to have a business at all.


[*]They dream of huge incomes that will support all their fantasies

[*]They dream of a non-structured lifestyle where they avoid commitments, deadlines, and boring meetings

[*]They dream of being the boss, not taking orders from anyone, making all the strategic business decisions themselves

[*]They dream of being able to run their business from wherever they choose

[*]They dream of working when they want to and as long as they want to - typically  craving shortened work days and work weeks

[*]They dream of the prestige and status of owning their own company

[*]They dream of a secure and fulfilling working career with lots of money available for their early retirement


The dreamers almost never acknowledge the underlying realities of the work, sacrifice, and commitment that are never optional for success.

.... (large section removed... go to the thread to read the full quote)...

The best to all of you,


While my original answer to this question (The Reality of Online Incomes vs The Fantasy Dreamers Seek) appeared on the thread linked above, my answer here on is longer and has more detail then the one posted on the original forum.

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Eye of the GrigoriIf you ever made fun of or had any part in the destruction of my farm, and the illegal selling of half of my land to Colliard, you shall lose your land.
tent2.JPGIf you ever made fun of or had any part in my being homeless since 2006 - YES, I AM still homeless in 2023, you shall become homeless.
eelkats_house_before_after.jpgIf you ever made fun of or had any part in the backhoe driving over my house, you shall lose your house.
home again the return of the goldeneagle dodge 330If you ever made fun of or had any part in my car being cut in half, you shall lose your car.
volvo-art-car-eelkat-Dazzling-Razzbury-3-artist-wendy-c-allen-painting3.pngIf you ever made fun of or had any part in my becoming crippled, you shall lose your health.
If you ever made fun of or had any part in the murder of my son, your child shall die an equally horrible death. If you haven't got a child to lose, it will be a brother or sister or parents or spouse or whomever you love the most, and that you should know it was this curse which you brought upon yourself that killed them, they will die on exactly the 7 year anniversary of the very first time, you mocked the death of my child.

Evil men go out of their way to try to drive a person to suicide.

Are you an evil man?

Are you sure you're not?

How many people have YOUR hate filled words killed?

Next time you go to do a mean thing to a fellow human, stop and really think about the consequences of your actions.

Did you ever notice how every one has a story to tell about me, yet not one of them ever speaks the truth?

What lies has YOUR gossiping tongue spread about me?

Did you know...

October 16, 2006, bomb blew up my house because of YOUR lies.

August 8, 2013, the house which replaced the one the bomb blew up, was driven over by a backhoe.

November 14, 2013, my 8 month old infant son was murdered because of your lies.

November 14, 2013, I was beaten up, paralized for 5 months, spent 18 weeks relearning to walk, I'm now crippled for the rest of my life, because of YOUR lies.

Are you proud of what you have done?

Enjoy your eternity in Hell. You earned it. You've certainly worked hard for it.


If you have any information about any of these events, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322

The Reality of Online Incomes
vs The Fantasy Dreamers Seek

My Responce:

I must nit-pick this list, for it is so true and I am so sick of people saying to me: "But....but...but... I thought..."

[QUOTE=Steve B;11076253]

Most people that have the dream of starting a business don't really want to have a business at all.


This is so true.

When people start looking to make money online and they come to me and ask where to start first, because I make money online and therefor I MUST be a "guru" just falling all over myself to "mentor" them (see my Warrior's Forum inbox).... the first thing I tell them is this:

Do you have a business license?

Did you get a permit for running a business in your home?

Have you applied with the IRS for an EIN?

Does your town have laws against operating online businesses out of your home (thus requiring you to rent office space elsewhere)?

Have you contacted the SBA and requested their pamphlets and guides to starting a business?

Have you registered your business name?

These are all things you have to do BEFORE you get started.

These are the first steps to starting a business. Yes, even an online one.

And then they go...

"But....but...but... I thought..."

What? You thought you didn't have to obey the law or pay your taxes?

"But....but...but... I don't live in the USA..."

Well, tough luck, because if you have an online business selling to Americans, you ARE required to collect taxes from them and report them to the IRS, no matter where you live. Just like we Americans who sell to Europe have to pay those VAT fees.

In fact, non-Americans needing to pay IRS taxes, is the #1 reason, Kindle authors give up on ebooks with Kindle, after they make their first $600 in USA sales and Amazon closes their account because they refuse to forward tax information to Amazon.

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I sell most of my Kindle books to readers in Japan and Germany. Only 5% of my sales are in America, even though I'm a Scottish person living in America. Every February I get a mountain of paperwork from Amazon. Because my books are sold in over a dozen different countries and I have to fill out all the various tax forms for each and every one of them.

Welcome to the world of global online business, where you not only have the IRS, but every other country has taxes that have to be paid too. Who knew? 

And more importantly: how many "make money online gurus" are out there telling newbies this very important information? None. Not one.

Why? Because they are too busy screaming "Buy my get rich quick scam guide, give me all your money, money, money!" to get money out of newbs.

Those gurus have no real interest in helping them get a business started. How many "gurus" and "mentors" are there out there who ACTUALLY teach starting a business? 

I see time and time again, newbies bemoaning having spent $20,000 to $30,000 in years of mentor "coaching" and never getting anything useful out of it.

You want REAL knowledge on how to start and online business? Do what I did: go to your local community college and sign up for a business degree. I took 3 semesters of business and entrepreneur classes. Didn't go for the full degree because I wasn't interested in the degree, I just wanted to take those classes and you had to be in the degree program to take them. But I learned way more in that year and a half of business classes at a local college, then any online guru ever spouted out in their "get rich online" guides. And I learned it from REAL business owners, running REAL businesses, and got to take class tours of businesses to see how REAL online money makers make their online money.

Dreaming of making money online is vastly different from the reality of making money from an actual online business. I wish more people realized that.

My inbox, wishes more people realized that too. Along with wishing people didn't spam with "OMG! You make money online! I want to do that! Tell me how!" If I spent all my time answering newbies looking for answers, I'd never have time to make money online.

But, I'll answer ALL the newbies in my inbox right now, and say this:

I never once emailed someone to ask them to tell me how they made money online. No. I was too busy in libraries researching how to start a small business. I was too busy going to college taking business starting classes. I was too busy teaching myself how to start a business and applying what I learned and putting it to action, to have time to waste running around online chasing after online money makers asking them how they did what they did.

[QUOTE=Steve B;11076253]

[*]They dream of huge incomes that will support all their fantasies


There are quite a few people online and offline who over the years have pointed to me and said "She's a success" They have had wide and varied reasons for what they termed "success" to mean as well.

Because I am fully transparent with who I am, where I am, what I do, how I do it, and even post my actual income figures online in yearly reports... it has resulted in certain people of certain circles to, realize where I live and for some reason decide it's okay to drive up hear, prance up into my yard and visit me uninvited.


They get here (trespassing in my yard, clamoring past dozens of keep out and no trespassing signs) and ask stuff like: 

"But....but...but... I thought that whole story about the bomb blowing up your house and you living under a tarp for 9 years was a marketing gimmick..."

Nope. I really am not white and the Ku Klux Klan really did blow up my house, because they didn't like the fact that Stephen King filmed The Thinner movie on my farm, and the Old Orchard Beach town hall really is run by the KKK and refusing to give my non-white Gypsy arse building permits to rebuild because I'm not white enough.

Have Information? 
Call FBI Agent Andy Drewer 
@ (207) 774-9322 

"But....but...but... I thought you make all this money online... how can you not have a house to live in a sleep under a tarp for 11 years... I thought you were a success..."

Yes, that is my income, yes, I really am homeless, now going on 11 years as of April 2017, the bomb blew up my house October 18, 2006. Here, while you're here, let me introduce you to Golgotha. She's the big white cross the KKK left behind after blowing up my house. Hey, let me point to the 4-door-white pick up truck across the street. Notice his loaded gun pointed out the window and aiming up here, you better duck and run, he's one of the KKK ring leaders and it doesn't matter how white YOU are if he sees you standing in my yard talking to little none-white me. 

Do You Know Who Drove This Backhoe
Over My House August 8, 2013?
Have Information? 
Call FBI Agent Andy Drewer 
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Welcome to Maine. We really is mountain folk. Just look at him, owner of the biggest motel overlooking Pine Point, brags he paid $6million for his house, and runs around town screaming and pointing and pointing at me while saying: "That's Ken's son, that's a man, look at how he's dressed, kill or be killed, all transsexuals are alike, remember Saco Shaw's! Look at that car and that camper. That thing and it's cars are too gay for the family friendly town of Old orchard beach!"...followed by a rant of how HIS motel is better than all the rest, because HIS motel doesn't allow gays or non-whites inside. In between, more bragging to having paid $6million for his house, which he claims gives him the right to tell the town hall what to do.

He calls himself "civilized" while running around shooting at everything with his big old gun, and calls me savage, because I painted my motorhome pink and grow too many gay, I mean pink roses.

He worked the town up into a frenzy of "OMG! There's a transsexual in town"... so I walked around naked for a bit, nothing but a purple cape that said in 8" letters on it "I'm too gay for OOB". My 38D boobs and vagina embarrassed the hell out of them, and they haven't calls me a man ever since.

Hey - never call an OtherKin female hermit with Schizophrenia a man, or call her gay, especially when she's so straight she obsessively writes Yaoi... she'll toss her clothes off and run around town naked just to prove them wrong. You know, because that's how someone with Schizophrenia responds to jackasses like the gay hating, cat murdering do-goodies of Old Orchard Beach.

"But....but...but... I thought... you make so much money online... why don't you move... buy a mansion in Florida or France or something..."

What? And leave the swamps of Old Orchard Beach? I've lived here since 1975. Having all the money in the world isn't gonna make me leave, it's just gonna make me build higher barbed wire fences then I already got.

Besides, where else other then Maine could I live the way I live. How many crazy cat women do you have in your town, living under tarps in swamps in the dense forests, dressing like Liberace, living as an Elf and driving a car with 2.5million marbles glued to it.

You know there is a reason the tourists who come to Old Orchard Beach, Maine laugh at us year round residents and call us hicks in the sticks... it's because we are hicks in the sticks. 

You really think a crazy wild swamp hermit like me could live in a society any place else in the world? I fit inn here in Maine. Believe me, I'm far from the craziest crazy person Maine has. Maine has a slew of cult compounds, religious maniacs.... and if you to Parsonfield, you'll find signs in driveways a hell of a lot bigger then my queen sized bed sheets/Keep out signs.

Think about it. Do you really think YOUR town could handle having someone like me living in it with people like YOU?

People around here don't tell you I'm a feral child who was raised by feral cats, for nothing you know.

"But....but...but... I thought... you make so much money online...  you could have beach houses, mansions, race horses, Ferrari, Lamborghini, Rolls Royce, ... isn't that why you make money online?"

No. I didn't.

Yes, I could have those things. If I wanted them. But I don't.

I didn't set out to make money online. Making money online is something that happened naturally over the course of time. It wasn't my goal. It never was. I'm happy here in woods. Don't need to go anywhere else, don't need the mansions or cars...

"But....but...but... you don't have a house!!!!!!!"

And I dose nae seem to care.

2001 a back hoe drove over my house.

2001, got a new house moved in, and Morin House Moving Company, cut it in half and moved it to Lake Arrowhead. They were paid to do so by Mark Elliot. A local pastor from Arundeal.

2006 a bomb blew up my next house.

2007, same back hoe drove over my next house

2013 same back hoe drove over my next house. 3 times now.

You'd think they'd realize by now that I'm not leaving and give up.

Next house I put up is going to be a backhoe proof stone peel tower.

"But....but...but... you live under a tarp!!!!!!"

Yes. I do. So what? Are YOU going to get off your lazy ass and do anything about the psychopath with a backhoe? I've had 5 houses on my land since 2001. And not one person has ever done a damned thing about this Ku Klux Klan problem we have in this town. Not one. Not one single police officer in this town has the balls to stand up to the billionaire with a back hoe. They're all too scared of his hoards of guns.

More then 40 families in this town have lost their houses to that man's back hoe since 2001. Including both of my neighbours to either side of me.

More the 140 families have had a grand total of more then 500 pets, mostly cats, but some dogs as well, kidnapped and slaughtered by these white power bigots.

I know for a fact that more then 3 million people on this planet have read the Squidoo articles about these events.

I also know that not a single damned one of you ever lifted a figure to help a single one of us families being terrorized and tormented by these viscous gay hating, white power bigots.

Yes, I live under a tarp. What do you care? Are YOU going to stand up to that back hoe? Or are you just gonna stand in my driveway pissing your pants and going "OMG! How can you stand it!"

Unlike YOU, I don't have a choice. And I will continue to be forced to live like this until, someone like YOU, stands up to the horrific hate crimes of this town, says enough is enough and does some thing to help us.

I have 3 ruptured discs in my spine, a cracked hip, and am on a cane, because that bastard doesn't just drive over houses and cut cat heads off, he also beats up defenseless elderly women too.

I don't want or need your damned pity and if you aren't going to help me fight for my rights, then get the hell out of my yard and stop boo-hooing over my living conditions. Your pity isn't helpful. Your pity doesn't put a house in my yard. Your pity doesn't put my cats heads back on. Your pity doesn't heal my injuries and allow me to walk again.

And you're only boo-hooing n my driveway in the summer. You don't see how hard winters are here. We get 21 feet of snow in the winter. Snow starts in October and melts in May. We get a lot of snow and I have no walls around me to keep out the cold and no roof over my head to keep me dry, and now that the Ku Klux Klan has cut the heads off my cats, I don't have anything to keep me warm any more either.

"But....but...but... money and cars and houses...."

I don't care about those things. I never did.

Yes, I would like to have a house, why do you think I keep rebuilding after each time the bigots attack? But 5 houses destroyed now and my health is now to the point I don't have the strength to rebuild again and I don't have one damned person to help me build a 6th house.

You got to remember I built the tent YEARS before the bomb blew up my house. Largely because, with the Ku Klux Klan and their back hoe it's rather difficult to keep a house up, so I have had to get used to no house.

What do the police do? Nothing. One officer's response was to laugh in baby talk... "Ooooooh, did somewon dwive a witty bitty backhoew over the cwazy Gypsies house, oh boo hoo."

They had a similar response to he bomb that killed my doctor in 2003, seeing how he was a Muslim from Russia.

The fire department confirmed a bomb blew up my house in 2006, but the bomb was "lost" from the evidence room of the police department, the following week.

The police response to being told my cats heads were cut off and nailed to my door was to say: "Oh, well, what can ya do. Cats die."

Welcome to Old Orchard Beach. The town that is currently being investigated by the FBI.

Have Information? 
Call FBI Agent Andy Drewer 
@ (207) 774-9322 

I only had to house so I had a place to cook in a kitchen and a bathroom to wash and poop in. I've been sleeping outdoors at night for decades. All the bomb did was make it harder for me to cook meals and bath. Nothing more.

"But....but...but... you're making all this money online..."

Again, money was not my goal.

Money does not motivate me. Neither does buying things.

Of course you got to realize, every time I buy anything, there's that crazy neighbor with a backhoe, who makes even me look sane... it's rather pointless for me to buy anything as long as he's there to destroy it and the white power police officers of this town refuse to do anything to stop the KKK from doing these things to us non-white residents.

"But....but...but... what do you do with your money?"

I glued 2.5million marbles to my car. Then I bought a motorhome and painted in pink with 300+ cans of Rustolium "Very Berry Pink". Made a Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay, then made a Quaraun the Insane CosPlay... and crazy cat woman... I spend $500 a month just in cat food alone.

I buy tons of non parisable food and pack my car full of bags of food, then drive around Biddeford and Portland (yes in the car covered in marbles) and look for homeless people in Maine's ever growing cardboard box villages, and hand out bags of food to people.

The rest goes to The Salvation Army. It's not like I'm allowed to spend my money on anything thing for me, when the psychopath with the backhoe is running around vandalizing everything. Might as well buy stuff for people who don't have a psychopath destroying everything they own. Besides, I grew up in the forest. I know how to survive. Most of the homeless around here are too pampered from house upbringings to know how to survive. They're a lot worse off then me. Homeless problem is really bad in Maine. A state with 2million residents and 90,000 homeless.

I never had a fantasy of big houses or huge incomes. I don't need them. I probably keep less then 10% of my income.

You know, maybe instead of thinking about yourself, you should think about others for a change.

I happen to like being a crazy cat woman hermit in the woods of Maine, ain't got no desire to change my lifestyle. Making money online, just gives me more I can do to help other people in my local community with, that's all.

I think a large part of why I succeeded while so many others have failed is BECAUSE money doesn't motivate me at all. I'm not trying to push items in people's faces, I'm not rushing around trying to get everyone to click on links. I'm just being me, talking with fellow mankind, sharing ideas and information, no strings attached. 

[QUOTE=Steve B;11076253]

[*]They dream of a non-structured lifestyle where they avoid commitments, deadlines, and boring meetings


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Well, I certainly have that one covered. Can't get any more non-structured then dressing like Liberace, dripping in sequins and rhinestones, while living under a tarp and driving around town in a car with 2.5 million marbles glued to it.

The thing is, I've always lived a non-structured life. Money had nothing to do with it.

This is who I am.

I lived like this back in the 1970s when I had no money at all.

I still live like this 40 years later.

I've lived like this for close yo 50 years now.

A hell of a lot longer then online incomes and internet marketing existed and a hell of a lot longer then I had money.

Heck, I remember when our town celebrated having 1,000 residents.

I remember when our town celebrated 12,000 residents.

And then the Ku Klux Klan took over the town in 2001, and now we have 3,000 going back down to 1,000. This town relies on tourist income to survive, but with all those non-white and gay business owners being run out by Pine Points "Royal" family... not many businesses left to serve the tourists, thus now instead of 2 million summer tourists, we've been down to under 30,000 each summer since the bomb blew up my house in 2006, and last year, with the ordinance banning gays from living in their own homes from January 6, 2016 to September 2, 2016... the town struggled to get 10,000 tourists in 2016 as a direct result of the town's ban on gays. The white power shit heads of this town are killing our town and if something isn't done to stop them, at the rate residents AND tourists are fleeing, Old Orchard Beach will be a dead ghost town by 2022.

And oddly, while the white power of this town is trying to drive out gays, Jews, Muslims, blacks, and Gypsies... this town's #1 tourist attraction is the filming location of Stephen King's The Thinner movie and the REAL Christine, the world's most haunted car... I own them both... the land and the car. If the white power drives me out like they are trying to do, how many tourists do they think they'l get then?

Did they even notice that the tourists went from 2million a year to 30,000 a year the EXACT SAME YEAR they cut my car in half, and I put it in storage no longer on public display for the tourists to visit?

Let's look at what he says again...

[QUOTE=Steve B;11076253]

[*]They dream of a non-structured lifestyle where they avoid commitments, deadlines, and boring meetings


Non-structured lifestyle. You can have that any time you want. You don't need money for that.

If you can dream it, you can do it. Just grow some balls and start acting on your dreams instead of laying on your ass dreaming your life away.

Did you ever notice, I like Elves.

I like Elves so much, I decided to become one.


That's what the gun toting, gay hating crazy man runs around town calling me "Too gay for Old Orchard Beach" by the way.

Because I'm OtherKin. Which is in fact a type of transgender.

I am a straight female Human who lives as a gay male transvestite Elf.

I'm am ElvenKin... yes, that does mean I'm an OtherKin who stopped "being" a human decades ago.

Of course then you look at the people who are calling me crazy.

A man calls me crazy because I dress like an Elf and then he drives a backhoe over my house.

Man calls me crazy because I have agoraphobia and haven't left my farm in 40 years, so he builds a bomb and blows up my house.

A man says I'm crazy because I paint my motorhome pink and then he kidnapped my cats and cuts their heads off.

You know, maybe he should start looking in the mirror to see who the REAL crazy person of this town is.

All I'm doing is dressing like an Elf and painting everything pink. I'm peaceful. I'm harmless. I never leave my yard, so the only time I see anyone is when THEY are trespassing on MY land to yyell at me and call me crazy, while THEY run around violently waving guns in the air and threatening to kill me, putting bombs in my house, cutting my cats' heads off, slashing the tires on my car...

THEY are the ones acting crazy and being violent and dangerous, not me.

Did they ever think of that?

Of course, look at how many times we've caught their hate crime insanity on camera now...

Hhhhmmmmm.... caught them on camera more often then I thought... there's about 20 more videos, but it'll get hard to load the page if I put them all here. But that's enough to give you an idea of what the white power crazy lunatics of the area are like.

Let's think about something here...

I'm just a harmless old lady who likes to dress like and Elf and paint everything pink and write stories about Elves having sex with Unicorns. For THAT, the residents of Old Orchard Beach, call me crazy, build a bomb, blow up my house, stand in my drive way and shoot at me, kidnap my cats, cut my cats' heads off, nail my cats' heads to my door, beat my 28 year old Shetland pony's head in, drive a back hoe over my house 3 times, filled my motorhome with feces 3 feet deep, I was paralyzed for 5 months because they trespassed up in here and beat me up, 3 years later I finally recover and start walking again and they beat me up again this time with a shopping cart rupturing 3 discs in my spine while screaming "kill or be killed remember Saco Shaw's!" and they cut my car in half. I'm sorry, WHO exactly is the crazy person here? 

Yes, I wear pink ball gowns every day.

Yes I wear fake pointy ears and long white Rapunzel wigs.

Yes, I paint my cars, my motorhome, and my mailbox pink.

Yes, I write about Elves having sex with Unicorns.

So the fucking hell what?

I haven't set foot off my land in 40 years. The only time I have contact with people is when THEY trespass on my yard and invade my privacy. And you know what? I've always welcomed them with happy smiles and open arms, made them meals and served them tea, and spent the day happily chatting with any one and every one who wanted to visit me. I love it when you people stop by to visit me as it's the only time I have any one to talk to other then my cats... oh wait... I don't have ANYONE to talk to any more, now that sociopath freaks murdered them and nailed their heads to my door!

You call me crazy because I wear pink dresses, yet THESE THREE PEOPLE are the ones who built a bomb and blew up my house!

You call me crazy because I wear pink dresses, yet THESE THREE PEOPLE are the violent trespassers who stands in my drive way and shoot at me.

You call me crazy because I wear pink dresses, yet THESE THREE PEOPLE are the ones who kidnap my cats, cut my cats' heads off, nail my cats' heads to my door, beat my 28 year old Shetland pony's head in, drive a back hoe over my house 3 times, filled my motorhome with feces 3 feet deep, and cut my car in half.

I mean REALLY stand back and look around.

All I'm doing is wearing strange cloths. I'm not the violent animal abusing, bomb building, psychopath beating up elderly women... THEY are.

There's a hell of a big difference between a half blind elderly woman dressing up as comic book characters and not bothering one damned person, and violent psychopathic criminal creeps beating her up, bombing her house, driving a back hoe over 3 more of her houses, cutting her car in half, filling her motorhome with feces, murdering her horse, and slaughtering her cats!

Old Orchard Beach has a crazy person in it all right, but isn't me... and the residents of this town need to get off their asses and tell the FBI who this white haired man and his blond wife and red haired sister-in-law are BEFORE THEY KILL ME! The red haired woman calls herself Kendra Silvermander.

I don't know who this man and his two women are. They are strangers to me. I don't know their names. And I don't know why they are doing this. Some body in this town must know who these people are ... PLEASE... the FBI is trying to put a stop to these insane hate crimes... PLEASE if you know who these psychopathic monsters are, PLEASE tell Agent Andy Drewer before they kill me. They cut my car in half in 2010. They cut my cats in half in 2015. How long do you think it'll be before they cut ME in half too? PLEASE HELP ME!

➽ ➽ ➽ If you have any information regarding the identity of the stalker/attacker/driver of the 4-door white pick-up truck please contact Officer Tim DeLuca of the Old Orchard Beach Police Department @ 207-934-4911 and/or

Agent Andy Drewer

of the Portland FBI

@ 207-774-9322 

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Please help the police and FBI put this brutal, violent, psychotically deranged stalker family in prison.

And in case you are wondering, because people always ask, soon as they realize, I'm not joking, when I say I gave up being a Human and have lived my life as an Elf since 1987....

I have:

Autism (Savant not Aspergers)

Schizo Effective Personality Disorder (which is different from Schizotypal Disorder and Schizophrenia, though all 3 are very similar)

Agoraphobia (recovering from)

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder


In short, yes, I am insane and I have the papers to prove it.

I know what's wrong with me and it's managed and I'm not violent, I never have been. It's not easy living with mental illness and it's let's easy when you have someone else who also has a mental illness - one that is NOT being treated and they are running around being violent, and claiming their violence is okay, because I'm supposedly crazy. Do they really belive, I'm crazier then they are, when they are murdering cats and building bombs and all I'm doing is dressing like an Elf? What's wrong with them? I'm not the unmediated lunatic running around with a gun shooting at every one like THEY are.

Crazy is as crazy does and apparently I am the epitamy of what it means to truly be utterly and completely insane off the wall bonkers out of my mind crazy.... and violent criminals, they aren't crazy at all apparently, at least not according to them.

Old Orchard Beach is built on a swamp. There are several meth dealers here in town because of the methane gas from the peat bog that this entire town is engulfed in. Scientists have actually come in to Old Orchard Beach to see if there was something wrong with the water or something, because of the EXTREMELY HIGH RATE of  severe mental illnesses in our town. We only have 3,000 year round residents, and more then 2,000 of them have "off the chart" mental illnesses that are very rare and not often seen, yet, 2/3s of our town has. The scientists concluded the swamp gas that we are all breathing is likely a large cause of the extremely high rate of psychosis in this town. Basically they concluded that most of the residents of Old Orchard Beach are out of their heads violent because they are high on methane gas 24 hours a day and don't know it.

And did you know I actually based the Elf (Quaraun the Insane) off a real life man, who lives right here in Old Orchard Beach and is ten times crazier then me, and in fact is a man I spend most of my days with for the very reason that he is SO off the wall bonkers that he makes even ME look normal?

People like to call me "crazy" to try to hurt my feelings, however, they fail to realize, that I learned to embrace my own insanity decades ago. Why fight it? I'm crazy. I know I'm crazy. I might as well embrace the insanity that is me, because I have to live with myself after all...

oh boy... there's that... 

Do you know why I am an author who writes about Elves? Because I have Elves living in my head and if I don't write about them I won't be able to get anything else I need to do, like sleeping or eating, done, because they won't let me do anything until I write about them. Schizophrenia is not what the movies make it out to be, the reality is, it's very difficult to get anything done when you have an entire universe living in your head.

Why do I tell you this?

Because... if I wasn't a crazy ElvenKin, writing about Elves obsessively, in between gluing marbles to my cars... I wouldn't be making money online.

Think about that.

If I wasn't crazy, I could live a normal life, have a normal job, go shopping in stores with normal people. I would have normal commitments like normal people do and all those boring business meetings would at least be a vacation fro the armies of things that live in my head.

My point is, we people who live a non-structured lifestyle where we seemingly "avoid commitments, deadlines, and boring meetings" in actuality, have very server and very crippling mental illnesses that we struggle with every day. We don't have the freedom to live "normal" structured lives the way you "normal" people do.

If you personality is such that you are suited to living a non-structured lifestyle where you avoid commitments, deadlines, and boring meetings... then you'd already be doing it, because living like that has nothing to do with how much money you do or do not have ... how you live your life is determined by chemicals in your brain and how your brain tells you to respond to the world around you.

In short, if you dream of a non-structured lifestyle where you can avoid commitments, deadlines, and boring meetings... know that you dream of a life where, you also can not function in normal society and will be forced to live alone, because society, really doesn't like "crazy people" and it takes "being crazy" to having the non-structured lifestyle where they avoid commitments, deadlines, and boring meetings. 

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[*]They dream of being the boss, not taking orders from anyone, making all the strategic business decisions themselves


In my experience most people are not well suited to "being the boss" because most people seeking to be the "boss" are also bullies who seek to push people around. Business decisions are not well made by them, because the goal was never running a business. The real goal was to have "little minions" they could give orders too.

Most people I've meet who sought to "be the boss" only really sought to be a slave master, which is a different thing entirely.

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[*]They dream of being able to run their business from wherever they choose


Again, doable, but only in certain careers. Quite a few careers demand you be on location. It's hard to repair a leaking sink, if you are in Texas and the sink is in Maine.

Me with my own online career, yes, I'm able to do it anywhere that has internet access. So that means 2/3s of Maine I can not work from as only 1/3 of Maine has internet access. Most of Papua New Guinea and a large majority of Africa and China don't have internet access either. I list those places because they are places I would consider living in. I love PNG.

My job is writing, so I can go anywhere and work any place. I write novels, short stories, stage plays, comic book scripts, and of course my non-fiction articles which get posted online. I do write about every place I visit, writing while I'm there so that I have it fresh in my mind while I write.

But not every business is as easily portable as mine and so not every one who gets into online income is going to be able to work from every where.

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[*]They dream of working when they want to and as long as they want to - typically  craving shortened work days and work weeks


Ah... there come those butts again...

"But....but...but... I thought you make all this money online... now you can work whenever, wherever, you hardly have to do a thing!"

If only that were true.

I work longer hours in my online business then I ever did in my "regular" retail jobs. (I've worked for Macy's, Avon, WalMart, RGIS, and HallMark, over the years)

What is my work schedule like?

I get up at 5am (yes 5am) and I start typing. Usually writing the Quaraun series (novels) doing this for 4 hours.

Hour break to eat and pee, then off to filming YouTube videos. I rotate every other day. One day I do a 6 hour recording session of vlogs, novel readings, and writing prompt videos, making 14 20 minute videos in a single sitting. The next day it a 6 our recording session of game play let's plays of Witcher and Don't Starve, recording 6 one hour videos per sitting. The rest of the week that 6 hour time period is spent editing - either editing novels or editing videos.

Another hour break to eat and pee and then, it off to writing articles for my website. I write and publish 1 to 3 new pages (1 article per page) every day.

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Then it's off to bed around 11PM

Repeat the next day.

I am spending 40 to 60 hours working each week. Some weeks reaching 80 hours (though I don't recommend doing that as it tires you out if you do it too frequently)

But then those buts return with...

"But....but...but... I thought you make all this money online... now you don't HAVE to work so many hours, you can work only 4 hours a week if you wanted too!"

Well... I could, but then the money would dry up and stop coming in.

When my dad was in the hospital this past month and I had to stop filming YouTube videos for 3 weeks because I had to devote time to hospital visits and home care and stuff for my elderly dad... I made a grand total of $1.26 that month from YouTube.

Hospital, Dialysis, Surgery, Etc. -
Why No Videos In 3 Weeks 
(April 10, 2017 Vlog)

Income STOPPED completely. Why? Because in my line of business, you are dependent on traffic. In YouTube if you do not publish a new video daily, traffic stops short. Sure a few people visit your old videos, but the majority of your traffic happened the first 24 hours of publication.

And that means I HAVE to film a new video EVERY SINGLE DAY in order to keep the income flowing in.

The same is true for my website. I was 5 months paralyzed and several more months relearning to walk. I wrote no new articles that entire time. My web site income nearly flat lined with AdSense bring on an average of .04c a day during that time period.

Sure, traffic continued coming to my old pages, but, like YouTube, the bulk of my traffic goes straight to the new pages the first 24 hours after publication.

Which means that in order to keep the income flowing in, I have no choice but to write a publish a new article/page to my website EVERY SINGLE DAY.

Then there is Kindle. Publishing novels, like publishing videos and articles, again requires repeat publishing. Not as often, but still, if you are publishing fewer then 4 novels a year, you'll see sales drop significantly. Every new novel you publish will see an increase of sales across all your novels, and the longer time passes between publications, the lower sales get.