Happy 2026!
It is our 30th anniversary here at Space Dock 13!
On the web since 1996!
You have encountered an extremely old website that continues to exist in old web ways, the same way it has done for now three decades.
In spite of being now 30 years old this year, started in 1996, it is still heavily active and old pages updated daily, new pages added daily, still now in 2026. All hand written, all hand coded (no AI), all by me, same as it ever was.
We Still Exist: The Old Web Did Not Go Away, You Just Forgot How To Find Us
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Having started out in life as a GeoCities site, this site contains glitter, bright colours, blinkies, moving gifs, and other things the old web was known for. |
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If you want some stories to get you started in The Pink Necromancer series, reading these first will give you a good introduction to the 3 main characters:
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My Elves Are JellyFish...and I asked Google AI and ChatGPT 5.6 what they thought of this.
As requested, my daily writing prompt series is now available print paperback editions on Amazon.
There are 20 volumes of this writing prompt series currently planned and in varying stages of finishing, hopefully all 20 will be published by the end of 2026. I likely will do a 2nd series of writing prompt books in 2027.
The first of the Visual Novels/Video Games for The Adventures of Quaraun the Inane/The Pink Necromancer series is published and available on Itch.io, there are 3 more planned for release in 2026, 6 more planned for release in 2027, and the big 60-hour 80k word 150 page one (Quaraun Goes To the Fair) is planned for a 2028 release.
There is a Pink Necromancer card game and a Pink Necromancer board game, as well as a Pink Necromancer table top RPG supliment for Dungeons and Dragons, all in the works, and to be released over the next couple of years as well.
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Update Sept 3, 2026:
I am able to get around enough to take Koko to dog park... today is 29 days since getting out of hospital. My diet is still mostly liquid, but im eating some solid food again, but its like rice or soft mushy baby food type stuff because I still can not chew yet, though I can swallow again. My jaw is still not functioning good so im having trouble talking still. So there's been slight improvement to my mouth, throat, and jaw, but, zero improvement to my eye, which is a major concern, be Im almost fully blind right now. im legally blind since birth in my left eye, so I have no ability to fall back on using my left eye. My right eye is the one injured and my vision in it is "40% decreased" according to my doctor, but it wasn't good vision to begin with, and right now my right eye is not much different from my legally blind left eye. Which I why I have to have someone drive my car for me instead of me driving my car myself right now, which is very frustrating, because, being a female, I had to fight for over twenty years to be allowed to drive. I started sneaking out at age 31 and dressing as a man to go to Old Orchard Beach high school to get a ged, because us females are not allowed to go to school. And i was 37 years old when snuck out to the DMV and got a driver's permit and started going to college. I was 42 and 8 months pregnant when my family found out I was going to college and thats when I was punished by the backhoe driving over my house and my spine broken with a golf club and my baby born right then and killed with same golf club. So it's very frustrating now, so soon after finally being able to drive , to now not be able to drive because of an eye injury, especially after 14 years of being paralyzed from the golf club and not being allowed to have a wheelchair, again, because i am female and we females are simply not allowed to do anything. I hate the culture I was born into. I wish I had the freedom to go to school and drive a car the way American women do. I wish having my spine broken with a golf club and my baby killed with a golf club and a backhoe driven over my house was not how men in my family punishment women in my family for learning to read and write. Its so frustrating not being able to to drive again, so soon after 14 years being paralyzed, and being paralyzed by the golf club was the punishment for getting a driver's license back in 2013 after 30 years of men not letting me have one. I hate my family's culture and how they treat us women.
I get so sick of Americans telling me how they wish they could be a Gypsy… they are either misogynist woman hating pigs, or delusional idiots who haven't got a clue how shittily we Gypsy women are treated by Gypsy men, because no one in their righ mind who knows anything about Gypsy culture would ever want to be part of it. I hate that I was born a Gypsy.
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update sept 7, 2026
"You would not make a good teacher"... what does that mean, and why are there so many people on Railroad Ave and Western Ave and Cutts St why walk up to me and say that to me?
I find it very confusing. I have low functioning Autism (the Rain Man type) and so i have very little understanding of words beyond the basic ones, and i never went to to school, so I never learned maths or sciences, and I only had remedial classes at Southern Maine Community College, because I did not have an education to enroll with regular, I was there taking every reading and writing class they had to learn how to read and write, and also took speaking classes to learn how to talk (i spoke Shetland Scottish language because that was language my grandmother spoke but she died when I was 8 so I only knew that language to speak and write, and I was 37 when I went to college and 42 when I learned English speaking and I still cant speak English good yet), all the other classes I took were art painting and cooking.
So the phrase "You would not make a good teacher" makes no sense to me because it seems to imply that I am trying to be a teacher, but I don't have anything close to the education ti be a teacher, and im not trying to be a teacher. So I don't know why people keep saying this phrase to me and I assume it must have some sort of a slang meaning, but I can't figure out what it could be of why do these people keep saying it to me.
see video below for more information:
@eelkat "You would not make a good teacher"... what does that mean, and why are there so many people on Railroad Ave and Western Ave and Cutts St why walk up to me and say that to me? I find it very confusing. I have low functioning Autism (the Rain Man type) and so i have very little understanding of words beyond the basic ones, and i never went to to school, so I never learned maths or sciences, and I only had remedial classes at Southern Maine Community College, because I did not have an education to enroll with regular, I was there taking every reading and writing class they had to learn how to read and write, and also took speaking classes to learn how to talk (i spoke Shetland Scottish language because that was language my grandmother spoke but she died when I was 8 so I only knew that language to speak and write, and I was 37 when I went to college and 42 when I learned English speaking and I still cant speak English good yet), all the other classes I took were art painting and cooking. So the phrase "You would not make a good teacher" makes no sense to me because it seems to imply that I am trying to be a teacher, but I don't have anything close to the education ti be a teacher, and im not trying to be a teacher. So I don't know why people keep saying this phrase to me and I assume it must have some sort of a slang meaning, but I can't figure out what it could be of why do these people keep saying it to me. #mainelife #biddefordmaine #maine #disabilitytiktok #Biddeford ♬ original sound Wendy C Allen | 📚 Author
update Sept 15, 2026:
I have some slight movement in some my fingers again again after over a decade being paralyzed
you remember how I used to be a professional doll making, pattern designer, and embroiderer, back before I became paralized and before my son was murdered and being the backhoe drove over my house?
all my equipment, sewing machines, ect were all destroyed by the backhoe driving over my house, and I have been quardepelegic for over a decade because of it so could not use my hands to sew or draw or embroider, and so only continued to do my writing of novels since then because I could do that with dragon dictation software,
well, since 2016, I been playing Witcher 3 and don't starve video games on twitch livestream, one hand two fingers, as part of my therapy to regain nerve and muscle use of my fingers, and now after 10 years of that, I have somewhat more movement in my fingers and im thinking maybe I can try to do embroidery and doll making again, but not sure, anyways, now im rebuying all of my sewing and embroidery equipment that the backhoe destroyed when it drove over my house, and hopefully I can use my hand enough to embroider again.
waiting for stuff to arrive in mail, so soon I should find out if ten years of twitch gaming has given me enough muscle strength to use my fingers to embroider again.
update to the previous video, answering viewer question about lack of hospital vs broken spine
Wheelchair Fundraiser... I need to upgrade to a power wheelchair, the manual one just isn't enough anymore. But the power wheelchair is $25k. Yes, twenty five thousand dollars. Wtf? I can get a car for a quarter that price, why are wheelchairs so damned expensive? That's more money then I make in five years, so I need to start a fundraiser for it.
I'm gonna ramble on a bit here. It may or may not help you, because I don't know your genre or if you are doing fiction vs non-fiction. So what I say, may apply to you and your situation or it may not. Every genre and every niche in every genre has different results.
The first thing I need to comment on is this:
[QUOTE=travelguyharris;10119632]No. If one of these gurus sells 1000 ebooks a day why shouldnt I be able to sell 8? Or 10?
That was my thinking. But it aint that easy.[/QUOTE]
Do have any idea how many authors sell 1,000 books a day? Not many, and certainly not any self published on Kindle. Stephen King does. J.K.Rowlings does. E.L.James does.
A book selling 8 or 10 books a day, is going to be ranked around 100,000 sales rank. That is VERY high ranked on amazon and it's REALLY hard to do.
Look at the sales rank of the books. There are more the 8 MILLION self-published books on Amazon with a sales rank of a million or lower. That means there are about 7 million authors who are selling 1 or fewer copies of their book, per MONTH. And you think 1,000 books a day is possible? You need to take a reality check.
Amazon has several of my books listed as "best seller" for their genres, and most are ranked top 3 to 8 in the top 100 of the genres in question, but here's the thing: those same books RARELY sell more then a single copy a WEEK, and they have a sales rank of 1,000,000 - they are bottom feeders, and that means the 90 lesser ranked ones on the 100 lists of those genres are selling under 1 copy a month AT BEST.
The Amazon "best seller" tag is very deceptive, because it only means, that I sold 3 copies this month, while everyone else in my genre sold 2 copies or fewer this month.
When I first started publishing on Kindle I used to see all the "Amazon best seller" tags and I thought it was like NYT Bestseller where they are selling ten of thousands of copies... then my books started out ranking the "best sellers" after only selling 3 or 5 copies and I was like: what the heck? It was a real eye openers for me once I realized that being a best seller in a genre on Amazon meant diddly squat. I used to read all the blogs and see authors say "best seller in blah, blah category on Amazon" and I got all excited over it. Then I started publishing on Kindle and saw what it ACTUALLY meant. I went through the whole "why is my book not selling" thing too, then I realized, all the hype on those blogs was just hype and nothing more.
So I stopped reading author blogs and pretty much anything claiming to give advice about Kindle. I started realizing the only way to learn it was by doing it, and testing things out and figuring out what worked for me and my books.
A quick thought: the average author will not see an income that is equivalent of part time minimum wage ($7.50 an hour for 20 hours a week or $7,800 a year) for AT LEAST 3 years after the publication of their FIRST book, and rarely will see anything close to a full-time minimum wage income ($7.50 an hour for 40 hours a week or $15,600 a year) until after the publication of their 30th (year THIRTY) book is published.
Another thought: there are EXACT THREE (3) Kindle authors who have ever made a million dollars, and according to Amazon's public release of their IRS tax records, fewer then 10 (TEN) Kindle authors have ever earned more then $300k a year, and fewer then a thousand (1,000) have ever earned a 6 figure ($100,000) income in a single year, with more then 800,000 of then earning UNDER five thousand ($5,000) income per year.
Yes that DOES include all the tens of thousands of Erotica authors who run around FALSELY CLAIMING to make a 6 figure income on Kindle. They are not anyone can find that out by reading Amazon's public release of their tax records which list what they pay to who. All those authors claiming they are making 6 figure incomes in Erotica are lying so they can sell a book on how to make money selling Erotica. Don't believe them. it's a load of hype.
Don't believe any body claiming to tell you how to become a "Kindle Millionaire' either. Because there have only ever been exactly THREE Kindle millionaires. The first one was a 14 year old kid who used his "spare change" to take out a $12k full page add in The New York Times, and he made his first million, not on book sales, but on movie royalties.
The second "Kindle Millionaire" used the $25k in spare savings he won off of Survivor reality show, to buy several hundred thousand fake 5 star reviews.
Leaving only 1 (ONE) single, solitary, Kindle Millionaire, who actually wasn't a millionaire before writing her book. And she wrote 8 vampire novels, and and published all 8 of them the same day: conveniently, a week after Twilight ended. Three months later she became the FIRST and ONLY self-made Kindle Millionaire.
It's a pretty big eye openers to know the actual facts, behind the hyperbole.
Go back and look at those numbers, and then think about this: Amazon only has a little over 800,000 Kindle authors, and yet, 800,000 authors are listed by Amazon, in their tax records, as earning under $5k a year.
All those books hyping you into thinking you can make lots of money fast on Kindle, are just that: hype.
Hype is just a fancy word for a lie.
Those books are lying to you and Amazon's tax records prove it.
Do not believe the authors running around bragging that they are getting loads and loads of sales. Every time I see an author saying that, I go look at their amazon account and check the sales ranks of their books.
Did you know that a book ranked at 200,000 is considered to be a best seller in MOST of the genres categories on amazon. Do you know how many sales it takes to rank at 200,000 on Amazon? 2 to 3 sales a week. Or about $6 income if your price at $2.99, or about .90c income if you price at .99c.
Guess what?
I have a how-to write book, that sold only 1 copy and it out ranks, the top 8 "best sellers" below it, including the 4 top selling "how to write Erotica" books, every one of which written by an author with no Erotica on their author profiles and yet claiming to tell you how to make thousands a week/month writing Erotica.
WHERE is their proof?
Okay, you say you keep hearing authors talk about 200 sales day one. Ask them to prove it, by looking at the sales rank of that book.
I had a book that did sell 198 copies day one. I'll tell you how I did it, but you ain't gonna like it, because I guarantee, you won't be able to repeat it. That book, ranked 4,000 on Amazon, for about 12 days. It now, a year later, sells 1 to 30 copies a week and ranks 200,000 to 800,000 depending on if it sells 1 copy or 30 copies that month.
How did it sell 198 copies the first day, 114 copies day 2, and then taper down to only a few copies each week after that?
I wrote in 2007 and published in on fanfic .net. Over the years it was read by about 7,000 people. In 2011, I deleted it off the internet, in preparation to publish as an actual book. It originally was going to be released on Kindle in 2012, but unexpected long term health issues (including being paralyzed from a back injury for 5 months and then several more months relearning to walk) put it off. All my fans from fanfic .net (all 7k of them) follow me on Twitter, FB, and/or Tumblr, and so I update them daily on my life and book progress, and in August 2014, I announce that, that the long awaited book was about to be released, and that for the first 2 days it would be .99c and then on day 3 raise to $7.99. I told them the release date, and on September 1st 2014, they were on Amazon, screaming fangirls, buying that book like crazy.
I have never before or since been able to duplicate that sort of day one sales rate.
170+ books on Kindle and ONLY 1 ever sold 100+ copies in a single day EVER, and only 2 ever sold more then 12 copies the first day, and MOST didn't sell more then a dozen copies their first month.
I can also tell you that it's highly unlikely that any of my books will ever sell more then 7k copies total in their lifetime, because, I have almost exactly 7k fans and I don't promote my books to any one but them. And I do that by posting the announcement to Tumblr, which pings it to Twitter, which pings it to FB. (So 1 post gets posted 3 times)
I do no promotions, I don't post on FB groups and I don't do paid ads. I do use Twitter as a chat room and am daily hitting Twitter's 100 posts per hour limit. I NEVER post links to my books. I simply tell my followers "I published a new book today", half the time I don't even tell them the title. If they want to find it, they have to go to Amazon, hope they remember my author name and then, look for the newest release day.
And it took me close to 20 years to build up that fan following (I wrote in print since 1978, and I've been publishing fanfiction online since 1997.) So, my having a book that sod just under 200 copies day one, was a result of several decades of building up a fan following and inadvertently sending them into a frenzy, by a delay in the book release. But that was the only time I've ever had a book start out lie that, and it wasn't my first book, and it was the reprint of something I had written a decade earlier, so it already had fans waiting for it.
[QUOTE=agmccall;10118623]What exactly is a newbie friendly genre???
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Usually when you hear that term, it means "I started writing Erotica"
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[QUOTE=travelguyharris;10118820]I am just beginning to build my email list, I cant really expect anything from it yet. Thanks for the insight that a lot of sales come from a newsletter list, I suspected that. Is it true that these leads have the highest conversion rate?[/QUOTE]
I don't have an email list.
I don't have a newsletter either.
So this is one of those: it works for some and not for others, sort of answer.
Perhaps the way I use Twitter is similar to this concept?
Would I have more sales if I added an email list and started writing a newsletter? I don't know. Maybe. I never tried. I'd probably just have the same 7k followers I already have, so it'd be a waste of my time.
The other question would then be: but do I need an email list? Or is writing a newsletter just a waste of my time because it is me writing something that is not a part of my next book?
I am of the belief that more important then marketing your first book, is the act of writing your second book. And then once your second book is out, more important than marketing it, is writing your third book.
I set my goal at publishing no fewer then 1 book a month and strive for 1 book a week. My best week was 5 books in a single week.
(Note: I'm a full time author, I've been doing this for 28 years, I had secretary training and type 91 words a minute [5,000 words an hour], and I write for 8 hours a day [averaging 20 to 30 thousand words a day], 5 days a week, all year long. It takes a long time to be able to publish that many books that fast - think of typing like any other exercise and don't over do it when just starting out, your can pull the muscles of your fingers same as a baseball player can pull a leg muscle - I know, been there, done that, it is not fun having your fingers in a cast for 12 weeks. DO NOT try to publish multiple books a week/month early on in your writing career - build your finger muscles before typing for long periods of time.)
On Amazon, if you are publishing frequently (meaning a new book at least every 90 days) Amazon is always going to be promoting your book in the new release section.
The books that get the highest rate of promotion on Amazon's new release page, is the direct to Kindle Unlimited new releases, which Amazon promotes the heck out of for the first 5 days. This may or may not equal more sales depending on the genre and time of years.
Amazon has two other new release sections: Released in the last 30 days, and Released in the last 90 days (they used to have a 60 day list as well, but it was recently done away with and no word if it'll return). You book will come up in these lists as well.
Here's where the write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, write, publish, repeat method comes into your favor: The more books you have in the new release sections, the higher ranked your AUTHOR PAGE becomes on Amazon and the more likely you are to get sales.
So if you have a book released every 30 days (I'm releasing a 190 to 230 page novel once every month) you will always be in both the 30 day list and the 90 day list.
And if you have a KU book released every 7 days (I'm releasing a 25 to 45 page short story or novella weekly) you will always be in both the KU 5 day list.
IMPORTANT: Don't spam Amazon with useless "empty" 10 page $2.99 books. (They'd been flooding Amazon in droves the past few weeks) It's a recent trend that has been flooding Amazon, authors trying to game the new release system (and KUs 10% reader pay out, but forcing Amazon to pay them just for a reader opening the book [1 page opened = 10% of a 10 page book read]. Amazon has wised up to that scam and all of us authors are being punished for it - they are lowering the payout and changing out the payouts are determined.) If you start flooding Amazon with lots of spam booklets, you'll just end up with your books blocked and you isp blocked from creating more books on Amazon. Do make sure your books are REAL content and not "fluff". Amazon has been cracking down hard and heavy on the super short spammy fluff booklets lately.
This works better for fiction then it does for non-fiction (I write both)
I think, my success comes from the fact that I have no interest at all in making money. I have Autism, my concept of money is somewhat "warped" I am old enough to be the parent of my caretakers and yet I require 24 hour adult supervision. My caretakers do all the handling of money and buying and stuff like that, because I can't. I couldn't tell you one bill from another. The concept of money is somewhat beyond my abilities.
So you see, I'm not trying to make money. I write what I enjoy writing. I write Unicorn P-o-r-n and s-e-x with Dungeons and Dragons style Elves and wizards and, weird stories with talking cats and you know, really not mainstream stuff. I write Bizarro and Monster P-o-r-n. It's just plan fun to write. And I write it wither it makes me any money or not.
And that's the thing right there:
Because I am insanely in love with the stories I write, I'm able to just write tons of them. One after another. I'm not stopping to think: "Is this going to sell?" or "Is there a market for this?" or "How am I going to write the blurb so it's SEOd best?'
All I do it write things that I enjoy writing about (ie sex with monsters) and publish it, the write the next onem, publish that, and write the next one, and so on. I'm not thinking about target audiences, marketing, SEO, or anything else. All I'm thinking is: "OMG! I just thought of another hot super smexxy monster! I must write a story about him!"
In other words: write the think you love. Write what you are passionate about. Just take your favorite thing and run with it and write as much of it as you can. Just write and write and write and write, and keep on writing and in between writing, publish every single thing you write.
Eventually you are going to reach a time when, you've written so many things, that, something is going to sell every day, and once someone buys one book, they'll come back for the next one and they'll tell their friends and their friends will buy it too, and it'll just snowball from there.
But like I said... this is what worked for me and everyone's different, so it may not work for you. I don't know. I'm just throwing it out there and maybe, something I say will help you out in some way.
[QUOTE=BigFrank;10121011]You always say to keep going. Of course, you would. We've had this conversation before and you have already made it very clear that you don't care how long people suffer at being unsuccessful, before kindly suggesting that they might be better served to make a shift in their direction. Obviously you prescribe to the personal dictum, 'Lets beat that dead horse until it gets up and runs.'
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Yes, this, is the thing I always worry about.
I'm afraid I'm gonna have to agree with BigFrank.
Yes, I say keep going, because that's what I do, but then on the other hand, I'm writing something that I'm gonna write with it succeeds or fails. I don't care one way or the other because I'm not writing it for the money, I just love writing it. It's fun to write.
Because I'm not marketing and I'm writing genres that really aren't popular, most of my books are seriously low ranked bottom feeders. I'm only making a full time income off them, because I have so many titles that it only takes selling 1 or 2 copies of each title a week, to total a livable income. I'm not rich, but I pay the bills and have money left over for my hobbies.
My definition of success, is being able to do what I love and get paid for it. I'm doing that. But I know several authors have come right out and sad to me, that I don't match their definition of success, because they want the big house, the big boat, a million dollars, whatever. Me? I don't want those things. I build art cars in my spare time and I grew roses and I collect comic books and I make enough money to feed that hobby. So I see myself as successful, because I reached the goals I had. maybe my goals aren't as extravagant or as lofty as the goals others have, so because I set my goals on a lower level, I was able to feel successful, by my definition of success, faster.
So, I ALSO say to someone: keep going, but then... if their goal was writing for money, well, to keep going may not be in their best interest. There are hundreds of reasons why this could be the wrong career, wrong genre, or wrong niche for them. I don't know them or their life or what they write, so I don't know if their book is a good fit for them.
I do care. I don't want to see people get hurt, and that's why I tell it like it is. That's why I DON'T hype up the good parts of this career. That's why I DO point out the bad sides of this career. Hey, if you are looking for someone to pat you on the back and tell you, you'll be a millionaire by sunrise, there's plenty of phooney books and blogs and websites and forum posts and youTube videos out there that are more then willing to do that, just so long as you pay them enough money.
But money is not my motive, so I have no incentive to lie to you and tell you that you'll make millions if you keep at it long enough. I've already said, and I'll say it again, there are only THREE Kindle Millionaires on the planet, amazon's IRS public taxe record release PROVES that to be the truth, and no amount of scam artists, fanning your pride and hyping you into a frenzy is ever going to change that.
If you come to me, asking me what it is I do, well, then, I'll tell you what it is I do, and I'll tell you my results. But fact is, you won't like it. Because, in spite of my being one of the top "experts" in my genre, I am making less money then the average part-time worker at WalMart does, and that bothers a lot of people, who had the false impression that I MUST be a millionaire because I'm up at the top.
Fact is, far too many people are under the false impression that author is just another word for millionair. Too many people are thinking, they can write 2 books a year and earn $1,000 or more a week.
NEWSFLASH: according to Amazon's publicly released tax records, there are 800,000 authors making UNDER $5,000 a year, and that INCLUDES, just about every single author who is selling a "how-to" book, tell you how to make $1,000 a week, $5,000 a week, 6 figures a year, etc.
EVERY ONE OF THOSE BOOKS IS LYING TO YOU and Amazons tax records PROVE it. Those authors ARE NOT making $1,000 a week selling Erotica on Kindle, because if they were, Amazon would have said so, in their tax report.
Now you can get mad at me for speaking the truth all you want. Fact is, I'm not gonna lei to you and tell you, that you are going to make $1k a week. Because you're not. yes, you can make a good income. Yes, you can earn minimum wage and supplement your day job. Yes a lot of people a doing it. no, MOST people are never going to make more then $5k a year. Why? Because most of them were looking to make fast cash and were not willing to beat the dead horse with a stick.
If you want to succeed in this business, that's what you have to do. Yes, it's hard, yes, it's long hours, yes, there are a lot of easier ways to make money. No you should not be writing anything if all you want to do it make money.
NEWSFLASH: writing is not something you do to make money, it's something you do to share a part of yourself with others, It's something you do, to tell people: this is a part of me, I created this, this is what I believe.
I want people to succeed, and well, if their definition of success is money, and their book isn't making money, then, something has to change. Maybe they are priced wrong, maybe the book cover is off for the genre, maybe there are too many books in the niche already, maybe the niche is so small that they will never reach readers without heavy duty marketing, who knows.
Most likely, the problem is they were deluded by false hype and came into writing, thinking that it was an easy road to wealth, so they are jumping in with very unrealistic expectations about what their results will be. They expect to sell a 100 books day one of the first release of their first book. They don't consider the fact that they are unknown and no one has any reason to even look for them, let alone buy their books. They don't consider the amount of work and years it takes to build up a fan following before their books will sell right out the gate. They don't consider that the average author will be published for 3 years and have a minimum of 30 titles published before they'll hit the minimum wage make of $15k income a year.
No. They don't think about those things, because no one is telling them those things. The real authors, the ones making the money, are too busy writing their next book to spend time telling them these things, and so the scam artists take advantage of that, puffing up huge unrealistic lies about the kind of incomes and sales we authors get on Kindle.
I do think is requires a lot of soul searching to figure out if it's better for you to stick with it until you can make it succeed or toss it aside and try for something else. Some will choice one way and others will go the other way. Everyone has different goals and reasons for what they are doing so, there's no simple answer here.
If you are not enjoying the path you have to take, then you should choose a new path, at least, I would. I believe that enjoying what you do on your road to success, is more important then finally reaching that success. If you are not enjoying your road to success, it may simply mean you are on the wrong path for you.
Maybe writing just ain't your thing. Nothing wrong with that. Everybody has a few things they are good at and lots of things they can't do as well. Some times it's just a matter of trying out lots of new things until you find the one that fits you best.
I used to dream of being a ballet dancer. Then I started trying to dance. Didn't take me long to realize, that was not gonna happen. Ballet was not my thing no matter how much I tried to make it work. Problem is, one symptom of Autism is lack of coordination. I have trouble just walking across the room without falling flat on my face. I have to walk with a cane if I want to stay upright for long. So, ballet, was never gonna happen.
For me, writing was my thing. Writing came naturally to me, partly because I have Autism with Selective Mutism and I have to type to communicate, otherwise I'd never "say" anything at all.
Early on in my writing endeavors I was spending a lot of time planning, researching, outlining, testing, creating worlds, creating characters, etc... but then I realized something very important: writing is writing.
What does that mean? It means this:
Sure those are things needs to be down at the beginning of each and every book you write, so that you know what you'll write and where the story will end up, but, you can spend weeks, even months, creating the perfect characters, giving them the perfect world to live in, outlining the perfect story for them, daydreaming about all the readers who'll love your story, but guess what? If you don't actually write the damned story, then all that planning was a great, big, fat waste of time.
Only the act of writing is going to get that story written. Everything else, if you spend too much time doing them, is just your procrastinating and putting off the "work" of writing.
Only sitting your ass down and actually WRITING something, gets the story written. And sad fact of the matter is that a lot of first time writers, completly forget that.
I've had people come up to me and ask me to read their manuscript, to see if I think it's any good (it happens a few times a month, and they'll tell me, how they took 10 months off from work to write it. Or how, they started writing it as a teenager and they only just finished now that they've retired.
I mean, I get that it's a labor of love and life happens and you have to work around it, but good god, 4 decades to write one book? Ten months to write a book? You really couldn't turn the TV off long enough to write?
Oh yeah, that's a biggie. I probably should mention here that I don't have a TV. I always start talking about TV when people tell me how long it took them to write their book and they start flipping out, saying they want advice on writing faster, well, Sugar Pie, I'm gonna tell you right now, the sure fire way to have 5 extra free hours of writing time, each and every day: take a sledge hammer to your TV. That's it. That's all you have to do.
And next thing they do is bitch and moan about "Oh, I can't give up my soaps!" or "But my game shows!" or "But I have to watch Dr. Phil!" or "I can't go to bed without the 11 o'clock news!" or "My sports!" or "My sitcoms!" or "But I can't miss CSI!" and usually it's one person saying all of those things.
Okay, let's think about something here:
As yourself hour many hours you spend each day watching TV. Did you know the average person will answer to say "Only 1 or 2 hours." but that the average actual answer is 5 to 7 hours A DAY. EVERY DAY. Think about it. Shows are 30 minutes to an hour long and, if you watch 5 shows a night, there is, that's your 5 hours. Five hours totally wasted, doing not one damned thing. Five hours, that you could have spent writing your book.
The average author, types 750 to 2,000 words an hour. If you type for 5 hours, that's 5,000 to 10,000 words, in a single day. After 5 days, you have a full length novel written. After 30 days, you'll 3 full length novels written, just by turning off ONLY 5 of your TV shows each day. And the average person watches 7 TV shows a day, so even if you cut out just 5, you still get to have 2 TV shows a day.
Now, I'm not telling you, you have to get rid of the TV. What I'm telling you, is that, YOU are solely responsible for how you spend your time.
Here's something that REALLY throws people off:
What that means is that writing is not really that important to you, otherwise, you WOULD have made time for it.
But every time I say this to writer's who are tossing their 10 year manuscripts in my face, they get mad. They get defensive and angry, and start yelling and screaming, how writing is important to them, I just don't understand, because I'm a full-time writer, so I don't know what it's like to juggle work and writing and school and family, blah, blah, blah...
And yet, here I am, me, who works two jobs, goes to college, raises a family, has server Autism, runs a farm, and builds art cars in my spare time: and I STILL find 8 hours every day, 5 days a week, to get my writing done. Why? Because writing is important to me, so I MAKE time for it.
You have to find a balance and that will be unique to you. And no matter how you balance your life, you will ALWAYS do the thing that is the MOST important to you.
Where your heart is, that is where you will put the most effort, and most people, love their TV more then writing. Most people, would rather watch TV, then get the writing done, and that says a lot right there. It tells me, that that person, is NOT excited about writing. They don't have a driving force telling them: "I MUST write, I MUST write, right now." No. They have a driving force telling them: "I MUST watch my shows, I MUST watch my shows, right now."
Now you can stand there and lie to me and yourself and say how important writing is to you, but, Honey, step back and look in the mirror. If it took you months or years to write single book, then writing is NOT what is important to you. You are only deluding yourself if you think writing has any importance to you at all, because believe me, if it was REALLY as important as you say it is, then you already would have turned over every leaf to go hell or high water to be writing every day. You wouldn't be asking me how to write more words a day, because you would already have given your writing priority status in your life.
If you want to write, then just write. Turn off your TV, unplug your phone, get off the internet, and write. That's all you have to do: just write. There is nothing to writing, other then writing.
remember what I said back there: Only the act of writing is going to get that story written. Everything else, if you spend too much time doing them, is just your procrastinating and putting off the "work" of writing.
That's an important thing to consider. Ask yourself, why you are putting off writing? What is it about writing that prevents you from writing?
For most people, the answer is something along the lines of: 'but writing is so much work, it takes too much time, there are so many other things I could be doing, it feels like a job, it's hard, I want to do something easy."
Yeah, writing is hard, writing is work, writing does that a lot of hours, it's not easy, and if, you are looking at writing in that way, then you really are not cut out to be an author and should look for another career.
In the end: Do what's right for you. It's really the only thing any of us can do. And it is the thing, you WILL do, regardless of any advice anyone gives you.
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Do you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Avenue, Old Orchard Beach, Maine on August 8, 2013? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me July 26, 2016 at scarborough WalMart,... they arrived the first time with a backhoe on August 8, 2013, that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since....
... which means it is now only a few weeks from the 14th anniversary of my son's murder. I was 8 month pregnant November 14, 2013, and a student ay SMCC, and coming out of the Buglight Lighthouse art studio after art class, when a still unidentifiedwoman wielding a golf club attacked me, severed my spine, while I was 8 months pregnant, triggered early labour, then killed my son minutes after he was born.
While accusing me of being transgender, screaming "transvestite freak" and "look at that thing, that's Ken's son in a dress"... while I was 8 months pregnant.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son and crippled me, arrived the first time with a backhoe that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since. |
The backhoe driver returned November 14, 2013, armed with a golf club, used it to break my spine and smash my baby's brains out on the ground
On November 14, 2013, my son was murdered. I was 8 months pregnant, leaving my college classroom, and just getting into my car, when 3 strangers, a man and two women, armed with golf clubs leapt out from behind my car screaming "kill or be killed, kill the transvestite freaks, kill them all before they kill us! look at that thing! That is Ken's son, look at how it's dressed! kill the transvestite freaks! kill or be killed"... while the bald man and the red haired woman chanted this over and over, the blonde woman, lunged with the golf club.
She severed my spine, I am now a quadriplegic, and been paralyzed arms and legs, and in a wheelchair for 13 years now. She broke my hips, my knees, my legs, ruptured most of my discs, and shattered three of my vertebrae so bad that the shards of bone acted like glass and embedded themselves into my spinal column nerve bundle.
The attack also triggered labour.
My son was born in that parking lot, and he lived only a couple of minutes, before the deranged blonde woman, beat his head in and smashed his brains out, with the same golfclub she had just used to sever my spine and leave me crippled for the rest of my life.
Realizing that I was not transgender, and they'd just murdered a baby, the man grabbed the 2 women and forcibly dragged them away to a 4 door white pickup truck, and they left me there to die.
The FBI told me later, that a few weeks before this attack, and transwoman, had murdered a cis woman, in a parking lot, abou 20 miles away from where I was attacked. The FBI, believes that my attackers, had somehow found out I wrote transgender fiction, connecting my real name to my penname, (my father's name is in fact "Ken", and I do have a brother) and believed that I wrote transgender fiction, because I was myself transgender, even though I'm not transgender. The FBI, believes the attackers, thought I was my brother, pretending to be a woman.
The FBI investigation, into my son's murder, has dragged on for 13 years, and still now in 2026, continues on, with the FBI, still not having yet identified my attackers, and only guessing at what their motive was.
Thus we come to 2014, and the full swing change of the series I write. WHY my series, went from just a transman main character living life, to the full blown Mpreg genre series that it now is today.
Before the attack, I had a chance of having a baby. I don't know. And because I'm in America, I'm too old to adopt. You have to be under 45 years old to adopt a baby. That is the law in America. I was informed this, when we tried to adopt, now that my injuries leave me unable to get pregnant a 9th time.
Thus began my obsessively writing, my transman main character, pregnant. Always pregnant now. Every time. Every story. Stories that now fully focus on pregnancy, labour, miscarriages, babies dying, babies living, raising babies... the whole series, since 2014 has devolved into an outright baby obsession.
Meanwhile, reborn baby dolls were suggested to me by my therapist, and have also become a deeply obsessive part of my life. Because 13 years ago my son was murdered minutes after he was born, because a transphobic bigot mistook me for being transgender, I'm STILL in a wheelchair, struggling to relearn to use my arms and legs, now 13 years later, and I'm still DAILY dealing with police officers and FBI agents who while they are trying to find my son's killer, they are also daily reminding me... oh, yeah, my son was murdered, literally ripped out of my belly, by a transphobe. Who still has not been located and walks free to kill again.
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The golfclub woman as she looked during the golf club attack at Southern Maine community college November 14, 2013. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The golfclub woman as she looked during the shopping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart July 26, 2016. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The 2nd woman as she looked at both attacks, her hair goes all the way down to her knees. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer's accomplice, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
I am a legally blind quadriplegic, and low verbal, I have also published 138 novels in the last 48 years. It's not as impossible as people think. The problem being blind and quadriplegic, medically have different meanings then how those two words are used medically.
Fewer than 3% of all blind people see nothing. While 97% people who are classified as fully blind are able to see up to two feet in front of them. Legally blind means I can see more then two feet in front of me but not far enough to see twenty feet in front of me. In my case I can see about eight feet.
Quadriplegic, has varying levels, it means having a damaged nerve bundle in the spinal column causing limited mobility of all 4 limbs, (in my case this was done by a women wielding a golf club, who also beat my 8 month infant's head to pulp on the parking lot tarmak, at the same time she severed my spine with the same golf club; both on November 14, 2013; the FBI investigation into my son's murder and my being crippled has gone on now for 13 years, a few weeks away from 14 years now, and the FBI has still not identified the killer or her motive). Contrary to popular misconception, quadriplegic does NOT mean ZERO movement, it means means limited movement, specifically in means unable to lift arms over head, unable to grip fingers around objects to pick them up, and unable to stand for more then 5 minutes to a time. Because there are so many thousands of nerves in each limb it is actually very rare for there to be 100% no movement, but how much, and to what extent varies by patent depending upon the specific point of injury to the spinal column.
Meaning typing is still possible for over 60% of all quadriplegics.
In my case, it was the lower spine that was severed, cutting off completly my ability to move my right leg, leaving limited feeling in my left leg, and an ability to stand but not walk, with crutches, for the first 9 years. I regained enough nerve growth in my legs by the 9th year to be able to take ten or twelve steps allowing me to get out of bed for the first time since the golf club attack; This in turn lead to me being able to start using a wheelchair, as I was able to sit upright for the first time as well.
Because the shattered vertebrae bone fragments are broken off completly and embedded into the nerve bundle just above my tailbone, doctors were saying I would never walk again, but now at 13 years, I am able to push mu wheelchair like a walker, a distance of almost a thousand steps a day. Though doctors are still doubtful I will ever walk "normally" again, I have proven them wrong, when their said 13 years ago, that I would never walk again at all.
But because of the placement of the damage to my spine, regaining hand use, was always thought possible, it was just a matter of waiting long enough for nerve regrowth, along side daily finger exercises. I was able to continue writing, after becoming quadriplegic, because I still have use of my right thumb, and 2 fore figures of my right hand. And can type 90 words per minute with those 3 fingers.
I however have no wrist strength, elbow strength, or shoulder strength, so I am not able to form a fist, or lift objects, or brush my hair, or my teeth, all thing I have to have my caretaker do. But, those things are not needed for typing. Unfortunately, my pinky and ring fingers are "nerve dead" and drag over the keyboard, and cause horrific spelling errors and typos, which are incredibly frustrating to deal with.
Unfortunately trying to edit errors myself, just makes the errors worse, because those same two fingers drag over the keyboard yet again. Prior to the golf club attack, I rarely had spelling errors; now I got more spelling errors then someone is learning English as second language. Editing is a challenge, that I've had to accept, I simply can not do myself, and I have to hire several editors to help with that.
Low verbal means sounds can still be made, sounds that software programs like Dragon can be trained to recognize and translate, and type into full words. More then half my novels were typed with this method.
I still have a long ways to go before I am anything close to being able to do the things I could do before the golf club woman beat my baby's brains out and shattered my spine. And you know what's more frustrating then how slow mu medical progression has been? The fact that it's been 13 years and the police and FBI are still coming up at dead ends as to who the woman who murdered my baby was, or why she even did it.
My son's 14th birthday is only a few weeks away, but he didn't even get to live long enough to celebrate his 1st birthday, I don't even know why. And I can't wait to regain my ability to walk again, because regaining my ability to walk, means gaining the ability to go outside and start looking for my son's murderer myself instead of sitting at home trapped in a wheelchair waiting for the police and FBI to to find her. So, writing isn't a big priority for me anymore. I only write now, as a way to exercise my hands, in between relearning to walk.
Never let a disability stop you. Plenty of writers, artists, athletes, do not let either blindness, speech impediments, or limited mobility hold then back from perusing their careers.
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
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