November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322

NEVER FORGET:

My Son Was Murdered, The Killer Walks Free, Your Child Could Be Next!


FAQ: What are the most visited pages on this website and how many visits do they get?

Several years ago, I wrote an article on how to write different types of magic uses, or rather how I personally write various types of magic users within the context of my Quaraun books. Today that page is one of my top ten most visited articles. It gets 50 to 500 views/reads/hits/visits per day depending on the time of the years and has had over 200k visits total since it was published.

Amphibious Aliens: Debunking The Atwater Family's Alien Abduction Hoax with more then 30MILLION reads since 2007 and The GoldenEagle: Debunking Stephen King's World's Most Haunted Car Hoax with over tenMILLION reads since 2007 still rank as the two most visited articles on my website, but, neither of those are writing related.

Writing Medieval Servants is my most visited writing related article with over 7MILLION reads.

This website was started in 1996 and has 1 to 3 new articles (all written by me, I am the only writer on this site) published almost daily. In 2017 we crossed ten thousand articles published. As of 2023, EACH article gets MINIMUM 10 to 70 reads PER DAY, with the high traffic articles getting 500+ reads per day.

And since December 2019, my website now gets three hundred thousand to 7 million reads per month - well over ONE HUNDRED MILLION PAGE READS PER YEAR, making it not only the single most trafficked site in the State of Maine, but also one of the most visited websites in ALL OF NEW ENGLAND!

{{{HUGS}}} Thank you to all my readers for making this possible!



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Books in Vacationland 2017



By EelKat Wendy C Allen

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We are excited to bring an author signing event to our home state! We hope you will join us and over 50 authors on Saturday October 14th, 2017 for Books in Vacationland.

Where: Doubletree by Hilton’s Ballroom in Portland, ME  check out the venue and book your room HERE

Time: 10am- 3pm

TICKETS ARE ON SALE NOW via Eventbrite

*General admission will include your ticket to get in to see many authors, bloggers, models and more!

*VIP admission will not only get you access to our atttending authors, blogs, and models, but you will also get an event tote bag with swag!


Be sure to follow us for updates on who will be attending, special giveaways and more!


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What did you do today to step closer to that goal?
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By EelKat Wendy C Allen




Eye of the GrigoriIf you ever made fun of or had any part in the destruction of my farm, and the illegal selling of half of my land to Colliard, you shall lose your land.
tent2.JPGIf you ever made fun of or had any part in my being homeless since 2006 - YES, I AM still homeless in 2023, you shall become homeless.
eelkats_house_before_after.jpgIf you ever made fun of or had any part in the backhoe driving over my house, you shall lose your house.
home again the return of the goldeneagle dodge 330If you ever made fun of or had any part in my car being cut in half, you shall lose your car.
volvo-art-car-eelkat-Dazzling-Razzbury-3-artist-wendy-c-allen-painting3.pngIf you ever made fun of or had any part in my becoming crippled, you shall lose your health.
If you ever made fun of or had any part in the murder of my son, your child shall die an equally horrible death.

Evil men go out of their way to try to drive a person to suicide.

Are you an evil man?

Are you sure you're not?

How many people have YOUR hate filled words killed?

Next time you go to do a mean thing to a fellow human, stop and really think about the consequences of your actions.

Did you ever notice how every one has a story to tell about me, yet not one of them ever speaks the truth?

What lies has YOUR gossiping tongue spread about me?

Did you know...

October 16, 2006, bomb blew up my house because of YOUR lies.

August 8, 2013, the house which replaced the one the bomb blew up, was driven over by a backhoe.

November 14, 2013, my 8 month old infant son was murdered because of your lies.

November 14, 2013, I was beaten up, paralized for 5 months, spent 18 weeks relearning to walk, I'm now crippled for the rest of my life, because of YOUR lies.

Are you proud of what you have done?

Enjoy your eternity in Hell. You earned it. You've certainly worked hard for it.

~EelKat


If you have any information about any of these events, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322


Attending Authors

Here is the list of those attending Books in Vacationland 2017!


A.E. Woodward:

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A.E. lives in Vacationland with her husband and two children. Between her real job and writing she finds little time to enjoy life's finer things. However in the free time she does manage to steal, she enjoys spending time with friends and family, and reading. A.E. is the co-author of CAUGHT, and the author of Kismet, Working Girl and A Series of Imperfections: Imperfectly Perfect, Imperfectly Real, and Imperfectly Bad. Reprieve is her seventh novel.


Angela Sanders:

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Living in Kentucky as a wife, Mommy, retired Navy Chief and former political writer, I left the political world for the things that dreams are made of: books! I began my journey by reading whatever I could get my hands on, then became a beta reader and also edited books on the side for wonderfully talented authors. I wouldn't be writing today if not for the encouragement and support of my fellow authors who took me under their wing. 

Delphine Rising is my first series with Winds of Change and Raging Inferno being the first to release.


Betty Bolte:

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I've always loved writing and reading, and am thrilled to be able to spend my time doing both.

Favorite Books: Morning Glory by LaVyrle Spencer; The Williamsburg Stories by Elswyth Thane; Garden Spells by Sarah Addison Allen; The Tradd Street Trilogy by Karen White; and many, many more!

Personal Interests: Writing, reading, hiking, traveling, history, needlework, dogs, cats, horses, music


Cecile Teller:

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Cecile Tellier holds Masters degrees in Special Education as well as Criminal Justice: Law. She lives in upstate NY with her husband and two children and got her start in writing as early as high school having been published in poetry anthologies and freelance erotica. Cecile is the author of the Magus of Miami series as well as the Binding series.


Danielle James:

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I am a smart-mouthed Kentucky gal who loves to read and write. Currently, I have more than twenty books available ranging from steamy paranormal romance to thrillers and everything in between! I enjoy mingling so look for me at your nearest Book Con!


E.J. Fechenda:

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E.J. Fechenda has lived in Philadelphia, Phoenix and now calls Portland, Maine home where she is a wife, stepmom, and pet parent all while working full time. 

She has a degree in Journalism from Temple University and her short stories have been published in Suspense Magazine, the 2010 and 2011 Aspiring Writers Anthologies, and in the Indies Unlimited 2012 Flash Fiction Anthology. E.J. is the author of The New Mafia Trilogy and co-founder of the fiction reading series, “Lit: Readings & Libations”, which is held semi-quarterly in Portland.


Erin Hayes:

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Sci-fi junkie, video game nerd, and wannabe manga artist Erin Hayes writes a lot of things. Sometimes she writes books.

She works as an advertising copywriter by day, and she's an award-winning New York Times Bestselling Author by night. She has lived in New Zealand, Hawaii, Texas, Alabama, and now San Francisco with her husband, cat, and a growing collection of geek paraphernalia.


Freya Barker:

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Freya Barker loves writing about ordinary people with extraordinary stories. 

Driven to make her books about 'real' people; with characters who are perhaps less than perfect, but just as deserving of romance, thrills and chills, and some hot, sizzling sex in their lives.

A recipient of the RomCon “Reader’s Choice” Award for best first book, “Slim To None”, and Finalist for the Kindle Book Award with “From Dust”, Freya has not slowed down. 

She continues to add to her rapidly growing collection of published novels as she spins story after story with an endless supply of bruised and dented characters, vying for attention!

JD Nelson:

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JD Nelson is a Bestselling Author of Fantasy Romance and Adult Paranormal Romance. A transplant from Mobile, Alabama, she gave up Mardi Gras and frequent hurricanes to move to the earthquake capital of the United States, the San Francisco Bay Area. JD loves to hear from her readers. You can contact her through her website, AuthorJDNelson.com, or on Facebook, where she spends an alarming amount of time chatting to her many author and reader friends, much to the dismay of her continually neglected manuscripts.


Jennifer Field:

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Jennifer’s debut full length novel Twice Lost – Book 1 in the Harbinger Series was released in September 2014 under the Forever Red Publishing label. She is currently working on four Novella length books within the Harbinger Series to be released in-between her full length novels just to keep the steaminess going.

She currently lives in Western Massachusetts and has a love for adventure that makes her who she truly is. As an avid mountain climber & hiker it is not unusual for her to be hanging off of a 5.9 in the Adirondacks or the Shawangunk Mountain ranges. During the off season of climbing, also known as winter, she attends the New England Center for Circus Arts where she studied static trapeze (think Cirque rather than Circus). 

She an only child so has her mother to thank for her over active imagination and knack for storytelling. Over the years she’s written several short stories of the “naughty” nature. But had never envisioned herself as a writer. Just someone who enjoyed telling a steamy story from time to time.


Katana Collins:

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When Katana Collins was younger and stole her mother’s Harlequins to read beneath the covers with a flashlight, she wanted to read about the tough as nails heroine. The perfectly imperfect girl with quirks and attitude and sass. And the anti-heroes who were anything but “Prince Charming.” Forget the knight on a white horse… she wanted the bad boy on a motorcycle.

So, now, she writes those romance novels she craved to see on the shelves all those years ago—the sassy heroines. The badass heroes. She penned her first romance novel back in 2012 and now, a few years later, she is an international author with 15 published books, in a wide range of contemporary romance genres (Paranormal, New Adult, Small town, Erotic Suspense… you name it!).

She lives in Portland, Maine, with an ever-growing brood of rescue animals: a kind of mean cat, a very mellow chihuahua, and a very not mellow lab puppy... oh yeah, there's a husband somewhere in that mix, too. She can usually be found hunched over her laptop in a cafe, guzzling gallons of coffee, and wearing fabulous (albeit sometimes impractical) shoes.


Melanie Moreland:

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New York Times/USA Today bestselling author Melanie Moreland, lives a happy and content life in a quiet area of Ontario with her beloved husband of twenty-seven-plus years and their rescue cat, Amber. Nothing means more to her than her friends and family, and she cherishes every moment spent with them. 


While seriously addicted to coffee, and highly challenged with all things computer-related and technical, she relishes baking, cooking, and trying new recipes for people to sample. She loves to throw dinner parties, and also enjoys travelling, here and abroad, but finds coming home is always the best part of any trip. 


Melanie loves stories, especially paired with a good wine, and enjoys skydiving (free falling over a fleck of dust) extreme snowboarding (falling down stairs) and piloting her own helicopter (tripping over her own feet.) She's learned happily ever-afters, even bumpy ones, are all in how you tell the story. 


Mary Moriarty:

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I live on the coast of Maine with my sons and many pets, drinking way too much tea...


P. Marie:

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I am a small town girl from outside of Boston where I live with my loud Italian family and fur babies Tekk (Yes named after Jason V) and Tessie (Drop Kick Murphy's) my springer spaniels. I am happily married for 34 years to my High School sweetheart, and we have two beautiful and successful children. I am a corporate girl by day and Author by night. I also run and manage New England Naughty and Nice Book Blog promoting and helping out other wonderful Authors!. Welcome to Beantown is my debut novel that I co-author with Elle Vanzandt. This is a great story of friendship and family love and loss. You will find yourself thinking back to the first time you formed that real friendship with your close friends and how they helped you through the ups and downs that life throws at you. Please note that 10% of my proceeds from the sale of this story will be going to a Dana Farber Cancer Institute to help the wonderful warriors who are fighting their battles with cancer.


Renee Dyer:

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From a young age Renee Dyer had a love of writing, starting with a doodle pad at age four that soon turned into journals and later computer documents. Poetry became short stories and short stories became a novel.

Although she's surrounded by males all day having three sons, a husband and a hyperactive chocolate lab, she still finds time to be all woman when she escapes into the fantasy of reading and writing romance. That is, until she needs male perspective and garners eye rolling from her husband. She's a true New Englander.

You'll find her screaming profanity at her TV while the Pats play and cuddling under blankets during the cold seasons (which is most of them) reading a good book. To her snow is not a reason to shut things down, only a reason to slow down and admire the beauty. Ask her questions and she'll answer them. She's an open book, pun fully intended.


Teresa Michaels:

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Wife and mother. Romance writer. Avid reader. Pizza and chocolate lover.

Author of the new romantic-suspense novel CURVEBALL. 


Tim Farren:

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Tim was born and raised in rural Maine. From a young age he had a desire to explore the world around him and beyond. The woods and waters of Maine were accessible to him and he took full advantage of that accessibility.

Beyond Maine was not so accessible until his later years. He joined the military and was fortunate enough to end up as a flight crew member in the Air Force. The places in the world that the military exposed him to only fueled his desire to experience other cultures and places. After spending nearly a month in Africa in 1995 he formed a safari company with a partner from Zimbabwe. Farren Safaris has allowed Tim the opportunity to travel extensively to remote areas of Africa and continually quench his thirst for adventure and meeting new friends.

Angela Goldsberry:

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Angela Goldsberry (b. 1965) was born in Peru, Indiana, but grew up in Philadelphia. She began writing poetry after a writing assignment for school sparked a hidden talent, resulting in four volumes over a number of years. In addition to poetry, she began to include romance novellas to her repertoire. Writing was put on hold while she established a career in medical editing and brought up two lively and wonderfully unique children. Thirty years later, after having a dream in which her grandmother told her to finish a novel conceived decades ago, Angela resumed writing. She has just released her first novel, a smoldering, sexy paranormal romance, the first in a continuing series. She also continues to write short stories for erotic romance anthologies whenever new ideas rear their naughty little heads. She lives in Philadelphia with her husband Tom, and their children, Donna and Trey.


Ava Vixion:

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Once an avid traveler Ava Vixion now calls the Hidden Valley of New Hampshire home with her family and crazy cat and silly mutt.


Carian Cole:

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I have a passion for the bad boys, those covered in tattoos, sexy smirks, ripped jeans, fast cars, motorcycles and of course, the sweet girls that try to tame them and win their hearts. 

My first novel in the best-selling Ashes & Embers series, Storm, published in September of 2014. I have many books and sequels slated for this series. My new spin-off series, Devils Wolves, launched in 2016 with the best-selling novel, Torn. There are several books planned for this series as well.

Born and raised a Jersey girl, I now reside in beautiful New Hampshire with my husband and our multitude of furry pets and spend most of my time writing, reading, and vacuuming.

I love to hear from readers, feel free to contact me on Facebook or check out my web site at www.cariancole.com.


Danielle Bannister:

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Danielle Bannister lives with her two children in Midcoast Maine along with her precious coffee pot and peppermint mocha creamer. She holds a BA in Theatre from the University of Southern Maine and her Master’s degree in Literary Education from the University of Orono. Her writing includes: a collection of short stories called Short Shorts, The Twin Flames Trilogy: Pulled, Pulled Back, and Pulled Back Again, The ABC’s of Dee, Enigma, and Doppelganger. In addition, her work can also be found in the following anthologies: 2012 Goose River Anthology, 2012 Writeous Anthology, 2013 Maine Writes: Maine National Writing Project Anthology; and, 2013 The Stroke of Midnight: A Supernatural New Year’s Anthology. 


Deborah J Hughes:

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Since living several of her childhood years in a haunted house, Deborah has been interested in the paranormal. After all, she wanted to understand just what the heck went on there! Her imagination didn't always make things better but it sure made life interesting! Eventually Deborah started writing stories and since it became something of an obsession with her, she believes it's her life calling.

It seemed a perfect pairing to write about what interests her and so her paranormal mysteries have resulted. She draws from her experiences, her vivid imagination and even from channeling (since she doesn't plan her stories but lets them develop as they will, surprising even her when things are revealed!).

Although twenty years of her life was devoted to her country by means of her service in the United States Air Force, Deborah now spends all of her time writing, traveling (when she can!) and enjoying her extensive family.

She hopes her readers enjoy her stories as much as she enjoys writing them, and along with that, she LOVES hearing from them! 


H.K. Szczesiak:

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H.K. Szczesiak, author of contemporary romance, lives in Delaware with her husband and two children and their dog, Wrigley.

She is an avid reader who loves romance novels the most. She also works full time in an office setting, as well as owns and runs her own photography company, Captures From the Heart Photography. To say she is busy is an understatement. Her love of writing has always been present from the time she was a child and now shows self-published books, Enticing Sky & Explicitly Wyatt. Her third self-published book Enchanting Belle will be out early 2017.

She has also contributed in a writing collaboration called I Have A Name Project.


Jen Luerssen:

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Jen Luerssen grew up in New Jersey and then lived for 20 years in the San Francisco Bay area. She has held various jobs in her adult life. Some examples are nanny, waitress, receptionist, dispatcher, caterer and finally teacher. She spent the past 8 years teaching 4th and 5th graders, until last year when she felt the call to write. It’s been plaguing her thoughts and dreams for years, and those thoughts finally fought their way out.

Jen loves to read, obsessively. She has an unhealthy attachment to her e-reader and is rarely seen without it. She’ll read anything, but especially loves a good smutty or a post-apocalyptic young adult book.

After “retiring” from teaching, Jen sat down and wrote a book and it was the most fun she’s ever had working. She is self-published even though she’s not sure how it works and hopes that people like her stories.

Jen is back in her native New Jersey and lives with her husband and daughter, enjoying suburban life.


K. Larsen:

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Available through all major book retailers, all of her books can be purchased in paperback or for any e-reader. 


Lucy Gage:

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Lucy Gage started her writing career under another name, but the same vivid imagination and love of books still fuels her daily life. When she's not writing, you can find her spending time with her family in her home state of Maine, experiencing a life that helps shape her writing.


Maria  Elena Alonso Sierra:

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Maria Elena Alonso-Sierra is a romantic suspense author with a unique point of view. Her adventure novels take place in locales across Europe and the United States, reflecting her international upbringing and extensive time as a global traveler. In her duology, The Coin and The Book of Hours, her characters, Gabriela and Richard, walk the same paths as their creator, though her life was never in so much danger.

Her short story collection, The Fish Tank: And Other Short Stories, is an imaginative ride through various genres. One section in particular, “Soul Songs”, delves into the gut-wrenching experience of exile with Ms. Alonso-Sierra’s fictionalized Cuban Diaspora stories, based on her own experience of exile.

The author’s short story, “Retribution Served”, is featured in the anthology Book Dreams: Volume 1, and has been well received by readers.

Ms. Alonso-Sierra’s writing career began circa age thirteen with a very juvenile science fiction short story, but the writing bug hit, and she has been writing, in one capacity or another, ever since. She has worked as a professional dancer, singer, journalist, and literature teacher in both the university and middle school levels (and not necessarily in that order) and holds a Masters in English literature. She loves to hear from readers and, when not writing, roams around to discover new places to set her novels.

She is currently working on her fourth book, a Detective Nick Larson novel, and lives in North Carolina with her husband and her dog, Amber.


Michelle Windsor:

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I am a full-time working mom of two teenage boys, one grown daughter, and wife to one seriously amazing husband. 


We live in a suburb about 25 miles north of Boston, Massachusetts with our two dogs, two cats and two birds. 


I often joke that all I need now is an Ark.... 


I have loved reading since I was a little girl, and fell in love with writing as a teenager. 


Hoping to share some of my wicked imagination with you, I decided to throw my hat in the ring and self-publish. 


It’s a scary thing and I truly hope you are able to escape reality for just a little bit with my stories.


Rebecca Rynecki:

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A New Englander through and through, minus being born in Virginia of course, I currently live in the northwest corner of Connecticut. I graduated from Hollins University with a degree in History, my focus specifically on Ancient European. I worked as a librarian in Virginia and Connecticut for too many years to count, and now find my days spent trying to get some rest and drink all the coffee while I chase after my young son and toddler daughter.

I love to dance, to sing really badly to 90s grunge music, and bake. Like actually bake. Like cookies and bars, and cupcakes. I like to imagine that I can draw, and my finished stick figures are totally awesome. 

I'm also always in search of more sleep...


Shari J. Ryan:

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Shari J. Ryan is an International Bestselling Author of heartbreakers and mind-benders. Shari was once told she tends to exaggerate often and sometimes talks too much, which would make a great foundation for fictional books. Four years later, Shari has written eleven novels that often leave readers either in tears from laughing, or crying. 

With her loud Boston girl attitude, Shari isn't shy about her love for writing or the publishing industry. Along with writing several International bestsellers, Shari has split her time between writing and her longstanding passion for graphic design. In 2014, she started an indie-publishing resource company, MadHat Books, to help fellow authors with their book cover designs, as well as assistance in the self-publishing process. 

While Shari may not find many hours to sleep, she still manages to make time for her family. She is a devoted wife to a great guy, and a mother to two little boys who remind her daily why she was put on this earth.


Victoria Saccenti:

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A native of Cuba, Victoria grew up in the nucleus of the prestigious Alonso family, founders of the National Cuban Ballet. The artistic environment fostered her writing spirit and an insatiable curiosity to explore the world and meet different cultures. She writes romance and generational sagas with complex emotional content, as the human condition in all its forms is her favorite theme.

She is the author of Destiny’s Plan, Destiny’s Choice, and Destiny’s Way, and a contributor to The Ultimate Guide to Dorothy Dunnett’s THE GAME OF KINGS, by Laura Caine Ramsey. Central Florida is home, but if she could convince her husband, she would pack her computer and move to Scotland, a land she adores.


Violet Vaughn:

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Violet Vaughn is a USA Today Bestselling author and writes romance on an island in Maine. She also writes paranormal romance as V. Vaughn. 


V. Vaughn:

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V. Vaughn is also known as Violet Vaughn and is a USA Today Bestselling author. Violet lives on an island in Maine and spends almost every day walking through the woods. She may have seen a bear once or twice....