You have encountered an extremely old website that continues to exist in old web ways, the same way it has done for now three decades.
In spite of being now 30 years old this year, started in 1996, it is still heavily active and old pages updated daily, new pages added daily, still now in 2026. All hand written, all hand coded (no AI), all by me, same as it ever was.
We Still Exist: The Old Web Did Not Go Away, You Just Forgot How To Find Us
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This site was NOT designed for mobile devices (as they had not been invented yet when I created it) thus this site looks best on a computer, at 1280x768 or above. |
This is a very old website created in 1996, so, yes, javascript is needed for the site to work as it should. If things don't function, you may need to update javascript drivers on your device |
This site tries to be mobile friendly but it's been online since 1996, so old pages may not load right on mobile devices, and as this site has had pages added near daily for 30 years there are now over 20k pages here. |
Having started out in life as a GeoCities site, this site contains glitter, bright colours, blinkies, moving gifs, and other things the old web was known for. |
As has been requested (endlessly) EK's Star Log is returning to the internet. You can still read the original archive here... https://eelkat.wordpress.com
The reason you couldn't find it is because I set it to private un-index mode, meaning it no longer shows up in Google search results and can only be accessed by a direct link.
Meaning, if you didn't have the url for it, no amount of searching for it would tell you how to find it. Anyone who had the url could still access it though.
I had set it to private September 23, 2013, intending to move each page here to EelKat.com... however, November 14, 2013, after only moving about 30 pages, I was beaten up and left paralyzed for 5 months, then spent 18 months relearning to walk. I am still crippled and have limited mobility.
Below is one of the blog posts that originally appeared on EK's Star Log. The original articles are still online but no longer indexed in Google. Links to the original article, are included with this post, as is the original posting date. Clicking the links will take you to the original site, where you can see the old Space Dock 13 website still online. Space Dock 13 as it looked when hosted on WordPress from 2003 to 2013.
f you are here looking for aliens, ufos, demons, cryptids, haunted cars, curses, Etiole, the wild man of old orchard beach, the goldeneagle car, the white monkey, or any of that other weird bullshit, you want this video:
...and after that video, you want these ones:
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If you want some stories to get you started in The Pink Necromancer series, reading these first will give you a good introduction to the 3 main characters:
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My Elves Are JellyFish...and I asked Google AI and ChatGPT 5.6 what they thought of this.
As requested, my daily writing prompt series is now available print paperback editions on Amazon.
There are 20 volumes of this writing prompt series currently planned and in varying stages of finishing, hopefully all 20 will be published by the end of 2026. I likely will do a 2nd series of writing prompt books in 2027.
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The first of the Visual Novels/Video Games for The Adventures of Quaraun the Inane/The Pink Necromancer series is published and available on Itch.io, there are 3 more planned for release in 2026, 6 more planned for release in 2027, and the big 60-hour 80k word 150 page one (Quaraun Goes To the Fair) is planned for a 2028 release.
There is a Pink Necromancer card game and a Pink Necromancer board game, as well as a Pink Necromancer table top RPG supliment for Dungeons and Dragons, all in the works, and to be released over the next couple of years as well.
I shouldn't have to say this, but people keep contacting me, so apparently I do:
If you have any information about my son’s murderer, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
Do you know who this woman is?
On August 8, 2013 she drove a backhoe over my house. On November 14, 2013 she arrived at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me with a golf club and murdered my son. One June 24, 2016, days after my first attempts to walk again, she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarborough, Walmart, reinjuring the Nov 14, 2013 injury.
She crippled me when I was 8 months pregnant, a woman with a golf club, severed my spine and bashed my baby's head in, I spent 9 years relearning to walk, and the FBI is 13 years into the murder investigation and not yet id-ed the attacker who crippled me and killed my baby, both violently with a golf club.
Complete details of EVERYTHING she did is on this page here.
The golf club woman who called herself Clair as she looked November 14, 2013. Her hair is a weird chin leangth pageboy (very Medival style cut) platinum blonde with wide brown/black dyed stripes in it (like a reverse of Lily Munster, but the stripes are several, almost like a zebra). I am 5'6" and she was a LOT taller then me, like closer to the height of a man; she had thin lips like a man, and large nose like a man... she COULD have been a man disguised as a woman, given the ease with which she severed my spine....she's is a LOT stronger then is typical for a woman). She was wearing a chambre blue denim "blazer jacket over shirt" and a button up mens shirt (possibly flannel) and blue jeans. The bulk of her yelling was focused on accusing me of being transgender, even while ripping my baby out of my 8 month pregnant belly and bashing his head in with a golf club. |
The Claire woman as she looked during her shoping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart June 2016, the attack with left me paralyzed and in a wheelchair. Her hair was dyed dark red, and she drove away in a gold Volvo 240 Station Wagon of a late 1980s/early1990s model, with a "458" on the lisnce plate.... If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
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If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
Good god! We just found out about yet another slanderous rumour this woman has been spreading? When does it end? How many more of these things are out there?
Video explains what else she's done ...
If you have any information about the woman who crippled me with a golf club, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
If you encounter anyone claiming my car is haunted, demon possessed, or somehow connected to Stephen King please give the information of who, when, where/location to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
If you encounter anyone claiming I believe in aliens or was an alien abducttee, please give the information of who, when, where/location to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
If you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine 04064-1520 on August 8, 2013 please give the information of who it is to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. If you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine 04064-1520 on August 8, 2013 please give the information of who it is to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office. |
Here's an old fan favorite. The original forum post got 173,000 likes, and resulted in a mass flood of traffic to my blog. Here it is, the original question I was asked, my original answer... and the forum troll's response, with my response to the troll.
Enjoy!
~EelKat (May 28, 2017)
Posted on Sunday, December 16, 2012 | Comments Off
“HOW VALUABLE IS A WRITER’S GROUP IF ALL THE WRITERS ARE UNPUBLISHED OTHER THAN SELF-PUBLISHING OR UNPAID OUTLETS? WRITING STORIES THAT OTHER UNPUBLISHED AUTHORS ENJOY IS A FINE THING, BUT IS NOT EVIDENCE THAT THE STORIES THEMSELVES ARE FINE THINGS. ONE OF THE BIGGEST PROBLEMS I FACE IS THE PUBLISHED AUTHORS (AS IN PUBLISHED BY A LEGIT, TRADITIONAL PUBLISHER) ARE FEW AND FAR BETWEEN. THERE ARE LOTS OF SUCCESSFUL (DEFINED AS SELLING ENOUGH COPIES TO MAKE A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS) SELF-PUBLISHED AUTHORS OUT THERE. MY GOAL IS NOT TO IMPRESS OTHER UNPUBLISHED AUTHORS, BUT TO IMPRESS SOMEBODY IN A POSITION TO SIGN A CONTRACT OR WRITE A CHECK. IF THAT ROLE IS NOT REPRESENTED IN THE DISCUSSION, THEN WHAT IS THE REAL BANKABLE VALUE OF MY PARTICIPATION?”
First off, can I point out that Joe Koranth, John Knox, and Amanda Hocking are all self-published authors, each of whom are bringing in MONTHLY incomes of $35,000, which means they are earning more per month than the average traditional published author makes per year.
Don’t know who they are? Google them.
And before you say they are flukes, consider that there is a huge difference between a hobbyist who self publishes 1 or 2 books in their entire life time while sitting on their tuffet waiting for sales, and a self published author who does this as a full time career, published 3 or 4 novels a year 5 or 10 short stories a month, and has a full team of cover artists, editors, and marketers helping them.
When you say the average self publisher is only making a few thousand dollars per year, I laugh. That’s not a self publisher. That’s a person with no clue how to run a business, who thinks slapping a single ebook up is going to make them a writer.
News flash: writers write.
Strange but true.
Writers write a lot.
Career writers who write for a living write several novels a year and several short stories a week and several non-fiction articles a month.
Writers DO NOT spend 3 years working on a single novel. Hobbyists with an outside career do that.
Yes, the average hobbyist makes only a few thousand dollars a year, if they make that much at all. However, the average traditional published writer earns $24,000 a year, and the average self publisher earns $56,000 a year. Average high end traditional publisher earn $120,000 a year, while average high end self publishers earn $400,000 a year.
Also remember there are those little self published books out there, you may have heard of them: Eragon by Christopher Paolini. Or maybe you saw the movie? Perhaps you bought your kids the toys? It was not only self published, it was self published by a 14 year old kid.

Never heard of it, well let’s think, bigger, more famous. How about Gary Gygax and his little self published set of books titled: Dungeons and Dragons Player’s Handbook, The Dungeon Master’s Guide, and The Monster Manuel. Still self published to this day.
Or maybe Tracy Hickman’s self published book titled Ravenloft.
Don’t suppose you ever heard of Resident Evil, right? Self published books. Self published video games. It's even a self published movie. Who knew?
Still need a bigger one? Here’s one to knock your socks off, how about a little self published booklet with a set of cards that was titled Magic The Gathering. And in spite of being a multi BILLION dollar business today is STILL self published by a tiny little indie press known as Wizards of the Coast.
You might want to rethink self publishing. Seriously. When you start researching self publishing, you’ll find out fast that the biggest players in the industry are NOT the traditional publishers, but the self publishers.
And please, don’t confuse the full-time writers with people who write in between a full time job. They are apples and oranges. Full time self publishers don’t have time for a job other than writing.
But getting past that and on to your main question: Is there value in a group with unpublished writers? Yes, of course there is. We as humans learn best from other people’s mistakes, and who makes more mistakes in writing, than some one just starting out? New writer’s excel at helping other new writers to learn what not to do. Because new writers are so eager to learn new things, they are also very eager to warn others “don’t do this, I tried that and it doesn’t work”
But yeah, I can see your point. Self publishers who hang out on groups ted to be the hobbyists, not the career writers. As for the traditional writers, it’s usually in their contract that they can’t hang out on forums like this for fear they’ll embarrass the company. Thus yes, finding a place to rub elbows with the big boys is not an easy thing to do, and you will find yourself having to settle for every one else. But really, that’s not a bad thing, when you consider that the big boys started out small same as the rest of us.
As for impressing the guy with the check, it’s my experience (as both a writer and a publisher) that publishers do not hang out on the same forums as writers, and when they do, it’s not because they are looking for “new talent”.
I know it’s commonly said that getting your work out there is going to attract the attention of publishers, but this is simply untrue. I have been working in publishing since 1978. I can tell you right now that there is NO SUCH THING as a publisher who is searching websites looking for talent. Publishers receive hundreds of submissions a week, thousands more per year than they can ever get around to reading, let alone publishing. No publisher has either the time or even a reason to be “seeking new talent” on the web. So hoping to find “the guy with the check” in any online group is somewhat of a silly ideal.
Okay, so why join any group at all? Well, every group is going to be different, so really it depends on the group itself now doesn’t it? Me personally, I hang out on a lot of writer groups. The two you find me spending the most time on are NaNoWriMo and eHarlequin (as in the publisher of Harlequin Romance novels). Why? Because for me, these are the two I find most useful to me personally.
NaNoWriMo is a mixed bag. The forum is huge, one of the largest forums in the world (writer themed or otherwise) You get everything from grade schoolers to high schoolers brand new to the idea of writing to folks trying to get their first novel out to self published authors to trad published authors and even a few really big name authors, all cruising the forums together. This is also the ONLY forum I have ever found which has publishers and editors to be buzzing about as well. Every one is really nice and every one has advice for every one else no matter what the topic is. Over the years I have learned more about the art and career of writing from NaNoWriMo forums than from any place else.
eHarlequin is a different place entirely. The forums are small with only a few hundred people, mostly women in the 30s or 40s, all of them with a single goal in mind: to publish a romance novel with Harlequin. The forums are heavily modded, get this: by the publishers and in-house editors of Harlequin. Authors wanting to submit their work for review, submit samples right on the forum, and the heads of staff come on and give them public critics and reviews. The authors benefit from getting to know the publishers and editors on a first name basis and know what exactly they are looking to publish. I will point out here that Harlequin created this forum for the specific purpose of making their job of sifting through submissions easier.
Another place you find me is over at Wizards of the Coast’s forum. I am there because I am a Dungeon Master, and I am a player in 3 different Dungeons and Dragons groups, and I also write RPG game modules. I get info on what other DMs are looking for, what other players are looking for, AND as WotC is a tiny little indie press publishing house, I also get the chat one on one with the owners, publishers, and editors, as well as other RPG writers.
Now, based on your question, I think a group like eHarlequin or WotC is what you are looking for. I don’t know if other big name trad publishers have forums like this or not, but I would assume that if one does, than several of the others must as well. So my advice to you would be to figure out which publisher you want to publish your book, and find out if they have a forum on their website and if they do, join it and chat there daily, so that you have a better chance of getting in good with the person who signs the checks (that’s what Harlequin romance authors do). But other than publisher owned forums, you aren’t going to find check writers hanging out in very many online groups.
If you REALLY want to get in with the really big, big, big BIG name authors and publishers, than you want to join the professional associations. Romance Writers of America, Mystery Writers of America, Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America, Western Writers of America, Writers Guild of America, Horror Writers Association, Dog Writers Association, Maine Writers and Publishers Allegiance, etc, etc, etc.
I am a member of the Romance Writers and also the Horror Writer’s one. There are several, every genre has one. Most every state has one. I know there is one for Children’s Writers, forget the name, but a quick Google search should lead you in the right direction. Those groups are where you are going to find the “more professional” authors. Just be warned, these groups tend to be more snooty that others, they are not free to join (some are quite expensive – as in several hundred dollars a year), most require that you ALREADY have published 2, 3, or 4 traditionally published novels BEFORE they will consider you for membership (and will often require you mail copies of your books with the membership check). The ones that do allow unpublished writers, tend to be far from friendly towards “newbies” and often members won’t take you seriously until you have been multi published. These are good places to meet agents and in-house editors of big publishing houses, but you may find the super snobby elitist attitude of members to be a bit out of your tastes.
Most big house publishers do have some sort of forum or FaceBook group at least, you might want to check out those.
Anyways. I hope that helps you out. And good luck with it.
Moments after publishing this blog post I received the following message to which I have the following reply:
Jody Lebel • @ EelKat You are one angry person. Ed was talking about the value of joining live groups in his immediate area and the value for time expended, not to mention gas, for spending his limited time with self or non pub groups vs. pubbed groups. That’s all. Nobody is knocking self pubs. We all are in the same boat and start out the same way.
Nope. He does not mention live groups in his area.
He did not mention gas either.
His entire post is right there, go back and read it. You jumped through some pretty big invisible hoops to translate his words to mean live groups or gas prices. Wow do you have a vivid and wild imagination, not to mention a great flare for putting words that aren't there in people's mouths!
??? And angry?
There is no anger in my comment at all.
I’m confused.
Where did you see anger?
I must point out to you that I have Autism and my ability to either feel or show emotion is limited at best. There is zero emotion at all in what I said here and if you see angry, I can only assume that you are reading more into what I have said, than what it is I actually said thus meaning that it is you who are feeling anger, otherwise why would you find anger in my words?
Perhaps it is my lack of emotion at all which you have mis interpreted as anger?
I do realize that non Autistic folks find it very difficult to comprehend the emotionless logic minds of us Autistic folks and often mistake lack of emotion as anger, however this response from non Autistic folks always baffles me, as I do not fully understand the concept of anger to begin with.
Perhaps it would help if you explained to me what it is you define anger as to help me than better understand what this thing you call anger is to begin with?
Any anger you see in my writing is purely your’s and your’s alone as there is no emotion at all in my writing, my writing, being quite simply a list of facts. If you see anger in my writing, it is because you yourself are angry.
If you translate an emotionless Autistic person, listing facts as that person being an angry person, it is only because you yourself are an angry person and therefore you see other as angry, because your own thoughts are filled with anger while you read these words.
Ask yourself, what in my writing triggered these angry feelings within you? Answering that question will help you out abundantly, both in your every day life and in your writing career.
I never said he was knocking self publishing. He does however suggest that self publishers are below his stature, because he states that he views it as a waste of his time to join a group where the members are mostly self publishers, thus why I pointed out the error of his assumption that self publishers are worthless no bodies not worthy of his wasting time talking to on groups.
I simply stated logic, facts, and hard evidence, all devoid of any emotion at all.
Are you suggesting that correcting an erroneous falsehood by stating the truth is therefor an act of anger?
I find the logic of your comment to me dreadfully confusing because you seem to be typing out of anger yourself, and are trying to say that I am angry because you yourself are feeling anger towards me. could you please explain the logic you have used to conclude that I am in any way angry?
Look at HIS question (which can I point out is in all caps, suggesting HE is himself the one who is angry?):
“HOW VALUABLE IS A WRITER’S GROUP IF ALL THE WRITERS ARE UNPUBLISHED OTHER THAN SELF-PUBLISHING OR UNPAID OUTLETS?”
He comes right out and states that HE does not think self-published authors have any valuable input. HIS words, not mine.
Look at the terms HE uses:
“ONE OF THE BIGGEST PROBLEMS I FACE IS THE PUBLISHED AUTHORS (AS IN PUBLISHED BY A LEGIT, TRADITIONAL PUBLISHER) ARE FEW AND FAR BETWEEN. ”
He makes the claim that self published authors are not valuable... HIS words, not mine.
He makes the claim that self published authors are not “legit”… again, HIS words, not mine.
Look at what else he says:
“THERE ARE LOTS OF SUCCESSFUL (DEFINED AS SELLING ENOUGH COPIES TO MAKE A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS) SELF-PUBLISHED AUTHORS OUT THERE.”
The average “legit” traditionally published author makes $5,000 PER book, and has to publish 4 books per year minimum just to make PART-TIME MINIMUM WAGE.
On the other hand, there are THOUSANDS of self-published authors who are earning 6 figure incomes. And I listed quite a few of them in my answer.
How is me pointing out the error of his FALSE ASSUMPTION, but providing him with a list of ACTUAL FACTS, seen by YOU as me being angry?
Quite the contrary, it is me trying to calm down HIS vehement hatred of self-publishing, by pointing out that he really shouldn’t be knocking it before he tries it.
Don’t take his hatred of self publishing, his arrogance in thinking self publishers are low life pieces of shit, and translate that into ME being angry, when he is the one, ranting and raving all over the forum his out rage against self publishing (did you click on his profile to see his other posts today? I did.)
“MY GOAL IS NOT TO IMPRESS OTHER UNPUBLISHED AUTHORS, BUT TO IMPRESS SOMEBODY IN A POSITION TO SIGN A CONTRACT OR WRITE A CHECK. ”
He doesn’t even try to veil his arrogance and holier-then-thouness in this line.
I could have commented on his bitterness, his pride, his vanity, his arrogance, the fact that he came right out and said the opinions of self published authors have no value and that only trade published authors are legit and able to offer advice of any real value, but I didn’t, did I?
No.
What I did was answer his question, by pointing out some self published authors he may have over looked in his research, and then answered his question on where to find forums and groups that ave editors and publishers hanging out on them.
I answered his question without bias, and unlike the rest of you, I actually told him how to find the type of writing group he was actually looking for: ones that are “valuable and :legit” by virtue of being inhabited by trade published authors, editors, and publishers, instead of ones like this one here where he seems to think no one but worthless illegitimate self published writers hang out.
I didn’t have to help him find a group like e was looking for, but I did. I could have been a forum troll like you and spewed out nothing but unhelpful snark and crass, but I didn’t now did I?
Is that what you are angry about? Angry that there there are actual people around here trying to help others rather then just bitching and moaning and starting forum wars?
Is that all this place has become to you? A place where only trolls are allowed? A place where real answers are not welcomed, because it’s more fun for people like you to put others down rather then lift them up?
It is you who is angry my friend. Just look at your own forum posts. I just did. I wanted to see what type of a person you were before I answered you and you, Jody, you like starting fights. You like snarking at people and getting wars started.
You know, me thinks, members like you are the ones he was referencing as being “not valuable” or “legit”… I mean really… would YOU consider a person who posts the stuff you have a history of posting as being professional, valuable, or legit? It’s no wonder he feels this place is not a good hang out for authors looking to expand their professional careers. He’s right, this place is full of low life forum trolls with no interest in expanding their writing careers because they are too busy looking to start fights instead.
I could have torn his question apart for the prideful arrogance it reeked of, but I didn’t because I understand his frustration of being a professional with a career to think of and having to put up with idiotic childish trolls that give a rat’s ass about their writing careers.
You want me to tear his post apart? Expose you miscreants for the jackasses you are? Let’s do that then.
My question is, WHY does a writer feel the need to impress others in his group?
Only an arrogant person would think they needed to impress someone.
Why can he just not write for the love of writing? Why must he feel the need to impress others?
This always baffles me, for I do not understand why Humans have the need to make attempts to impress other Humans. What’s the point? Why should it matter what any one else thinks of you or your writing? It makes no sense to me at all, the fact that he feels one would only join a writing group for the sake of impressing others.
It is my feeling that the purpose of a writing group is to try to expand your knowledge of writing, to learn from the successes and failures of others, to improve your work.
One does not go to a writing group to say “Look at me! Look at how great I am! Look at how wonderful my book is! Aren’t you impressed?”
That’s just plain silly. And arrogant.
One should be meek and humble and open to learning new things.
Just because someone is unpublished or is self publish, doesn’t mean they do not have experiences from which others can learn.
You join a writing group to LEARN NEW THINGS, not to try to impress others. His perception of what a writing group is, is seriously warped by his inability to see past his own vanity and pride. His pride will be his downfall. Vanity, pride, and foolish arrogance are always the things which take down the biggest, greatest of men.
By telling other writers they are unworthy of being in the same writing group with him, he is openly saying that he is better then they are, that he thinks they are worthless nothings. He is saying that he vomits out gold bricks while they can cough up drivel. And that’s not right.
No one should treat other people like that.
I mean think about it… would you really want someone in YOUR writing group, who sat around talking about how great he was and how worthless every one else was, because he was seeking traditional publishing, while they were just self published good for nothings?
and read the rest of that line:
“MY GOAL IS NOT TO IMPRESS OTHER UNPUBLISHED AUTHORS, BUT TO IMPRESS SOMEBODY IN A POSITION TO SIGN A CONTRACT OR WRITE A CHECK. IF THAT ROLE IS NOT REPRESENTED IN THE DISCUSSION, THEN WHAT IS THE REAL BANKABLE VALUE OF MY PARTICIPATION?”
He makes a very good point…
What value is HIS participation if he is too good to bring anything to the table?
A group is a give and take thing. You have to give a little to get a little. If he doesn’t want to share his experiences with others, then he SHOULDN’T be there. Who died and made him God, that he gets to be the only person in the group who gets anything without giving anything?
He made it very plain as day, that h only joins writers groups with the intent of pushing his manuscript in people’s faces to get published. He has no intention of wasting his time learning to edit his drafts, revise his manuscripts, or build better characters. No. He’s too good for that. He already knows more then every one else, so he’s not there to learn, he’s only there to market.
A writer’s group is there to help a writer, learn to write better. It’s not a place to market your manuscript. And he made it very plain, that if he can’t market his book then he doesn’t want to be there, because he already knows everything and has no need to learn anything new.
As for live groups, again you jump to conclusions, for he does not say this. He uses the term “discussion groups” which generally applies to online forums and FaceBook groups. You never here anyone say “discussion groups” in reference to an offline writer’s meeting.
Writer’s meetings, writers classes, writers courses… those are live groups you attend in your home town. He didn’t mention those at all.
If that is what he was talking about, he should have said so, but he didn’t.
If your assumption is true and he is in fact speaking of live groups, though this is not what he asked me, and I did simply answer the question as it was asked to me, I have Autism after all and reading hidden meanings into people’s words is not a talent I possess, perhaps I should than add to my comment that if he is in the local area, I head the Maine Charter of many of the groups I mentioned and he is more than welcomed to rub elbows with us “more professional” published authors.
I’m not a psychic like you apparently are. I can’t see into his head and know he means live offline groups. He didn’t say that.
Then again, your psychic powers are pretty off, considering you thought I was angry.
Now I suppose you’ll think I’m angry at you now. I’m not. I’m too busy laughing at how big of a fool you are making of yourself all week in your other forum posts.
Do keep in mind Jody that how you present yourself online is a reflection of your work.
Every text you send is a representation of your work, every misspelled word, every text-speech word, every verbal attack on a fellow writer tells the world you are an immature incompetent writer not worthy of publishing.
Every email you send is a representation of your work, every misspelled word, every text-speech word, every verbal attack on a fellow writer tells the world you are an immature incompetent writer not worthy of publishing.
Every private message you send is a representation of your work, every misspelled word, every text-speech word, every verbal attack on a fellow writer tells the world you are an immature incompetent writer not worthy of publishing.
Every comment you post online, on blogs or forums, is a representation of your work, every misspelled word and text-speech word tells the world you are an immature incompetent writer not worthy of publishing.
Every forum thread you start is a representation of your work, every misspelled word, every text-speech word, every verbal attack on a fellow writer tells the world you are an immature incompetent writer not worthy of publishing.
Next time you feel like attacking a fellow writer, an editor, or a publisher (of which I am all of the above) it might be in your best interests to find out who it is you are talking to first, and how detrimental that attack could be on your personal career.
As I said, publishers don’t visit forms looking for talent, but we do visit forums and will avoid publishing future manuscripts.
Remember who I am, what I write, and what I do to people who attack me online, Jody Lebel. I repost their posts on my blog, which has 170,000+ subscribers. And they're all gonna read it. And they'll repost it to their FaceBook, Twitter, and Tumblr accounts and all their friends and their friends' friends will read it to.
An average of 3 million people will read this blog post by the end of the week.
Think about that.
Perhaps you should have Googled me, found out who the person behind the screen was, before you went cyber bully on them.
Let this be a lesson to you and those like you, to think before you attack next time.
I have a zero tolerance policy to bullies now. All bullies. Any bullies.
I don't make lemonade with life tosses me lemons, I rip off your balls and make testicle stew.
I'm tired of bullies bullying me and I don't sit back and take it any more.
By attacking me and other writers on this forum, you only give your own writing career a bad name, not only that but you give your publisher a bad name.
Yes, I looked up your profile. You are not self published and you have your publisher’s website boldly posted on your profile… the same profile that you use to post all these hate mongering troll attacks with.
Do you really think your publisher likes you giving them a bad name? You dragging THEIR name in the mud with all these forum posts of yours?
Think about it. What would your publisher think if they had a look at your posting history around here? Do you really think they’d extend your contract for another book?
Think about it... the things you said to me... how do you know I'm not YOUR publisher? You don't. Do you. You have no idea who I am. You just lashed out at me without thinking.
You never know who is on the other side of the screen reading your posts Jody. Do you REALLY want your publisher knowing what you do and say on this forum?
Your publisher is not going to want to publish future books with a creep like you who trolls online and gives their company a bad name.
And once they drop you… how easy do you think it’ll be to get another publisher? They’re gonna want to know why your publisher dumped you, and they won’t ask you, no, they’ll ask your last publisher.
You’re only destroying your own career on this forum.
You might want to take a look in the mirror once in a while, step back and see yourself as others see you.
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This page was written by Wendy Christine Allen of 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine.
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Note: English is not my first language, Shetlean Scottish is my native language, there are likly spelling and grammar errors, as I do not know American English and am attempting to write it by sounding words out.
Many times that Americans think a word on my site is misspelled, often it is not misspelled, it is just I mixed up languages and wrote it in Scottish without realizing I mixed the Scottish in with the English. Also our grammar is somewhat reversed from English grammar so words that are seeming in the wrong order for American English, is usually because they are in the correct order for Scottish and I either put English words in Scottish order by mistake or was unaware English put them in a different order then Scottish does.
For those unaware, Scottish Shetlean looks like this:
American English to Scottish:
a bit (piece) = a party --- EXAMPLE: "And some know a bit of Latin " > "And somme kan of latyn a party "
a long distance from = A piece fae
a piece of = the bit --- EXAMPLE: "The duck ate a piece of bread " > "The deuk ett the bit breid "
about the banks (on the shore/at the beach) = aboot da banks
accomplishments = kunnandi
After = Back o --- EXAMPLE: " After Halloween" > "Back o Hallomas "
alive (living) = kvikr
Always on the move = Never aff o da go
am I not = amn't I --- EXAMPLE: "Am I not invited? " > "I amn't invited? or Amn't I invited?"
are = is --- EXAMPLE: "Are you going soon?" > "Is ya to be going soon?"
autumn = dah haihst
belong to = fylgja
best = bettah moost
betray (verb) = svíkja
bewildered = villhyggjandi
building = biggin up --- EXAMPLE: "building confidence in everyday use " > " biggin up confidence in ivvryday øs "
built = builded --- EXAMPLE: "He built a new porch." > "Hims builded a new porch."
cast a spell = hoodooed
cat = kat (sounds like "caught") --- EXAMPLE: "Is it an orange cat?" > "Be he a o'jinn kat?"
child = bairn
church = kirk
color = colour
danger = hœttr
daren't = darena
daring = djarfr
dark = dökk
dark elf = Dökkálfr
dark-elves = Døkkálfar
darker = dökká
do you agree = ,eh? --- EXAMPLE: "That's a fine looking woman, do you agree?" > "Dair's ah right bonnie lass, eh?"
do you want to come too = ,eh? --- EXAMPLE: "I'm going to the store, do you want to come with me?" > "Me go to shope, eh?"
each = eche --- EXAMPLE: "Which each person can understand " > "That kan eche man understonde "
educated = lered --- EXAMPLE: "Both among the educated and the uneducated " > "As wel among lered as lewed "
elf = Alfr
Elf = Álfr
Elf Home = Álfheimr
Elf World = Álfheimr
elf-advice = Ælfred
elf-beautiful = ælfscyne
elf-friend = Ælfwine
elf-guardian (female) = Ælfwaru
elf-guardian (male) = Ælfweard
elf-powerful = Ælfric
everyday = ivvryday
eyelids = eye ledes --- EXAMPLE: "He closed his eyelids." > "Hims did shut hims eye ledes"
fair = faire --- EXAMPLE: "Going to the fair." > "Done gone went to the faire."
feild = felde --- EXAMPLE: "Standing in the feild." > "Stoodt in thems felde."
further = ferther --- EXAMPLE: "I looked further." > "I dids lokid ferther."
green = grene --- EXAMPLE: "Look at the green hedges and woods." > "Look see at thems heigges and holtz so grene."
handsome = braw --- EXAMPLE: "He is very handsome " > "Him wicked braw "
have faith = trúa
Have no doubts about our doing it = Nae faer o wis
Have no liking for this. = Hae nae brou o this.
have not = ain't
He knows how many beans make five. = He kens the laid frae the croun o the causey.
He knows which side his bread is buttered on. = He kens whilk side his bannock's buttert on.
Head for = Mak wye for
head rope in fishing nets and lines = baak
head to head = Be at the knag and the widdie
horse fly = klegsie
I = Me
I Think = Me thinks --- EXAMPLE: "I think we're late. " > "Me thinks that we is late. "
I wish you well for the future = Lang may yer lum reek (translation: Long may your chimney smoke)
idiot = eejit --- EXAMPLE: "You idiot." > "Ya eejit."
idiot = numpty
if = iffy or yif--- EXAMPLE: "If you don't mind..." > "Iffy yas does no care mind...."; "If you'll stay with me long enough = "Yif ye so longe with me wil dwelle". "
I'll be even with you = A'll see day aboot wi ye
know = ken
looked = lokid
looked = lokid --- EXAMPLE: "I looked up." > "I lifte up me eye ledes and lokid ferther."
magic = hoodoo
naked = nøkkviðr
needle = bodkin
neither = nouther --- EXAMPLE: "Who know neither Latin nor French " > "That kan nouther latyn ne frensch "
No = Nay --- EXAMPLE: "No, I don't think so. " > "Nay, me thinks not. "
Nobody knew = not-knew nobody
Noontide = Da heicht o da day
NOTE: Extra words are often added. --- EXAMPLE: "Did you meet the new family next door?" > "Dids ya gets a chance to stop by and meets with thems new folk that move-ed in down yawn there next doors to ya, eh?"
NOTE: Extra words are often added. --- EXAMPLE: "He went to Rite-Aid to pick up his prescription" > "Hims did go to that yawn there new fangled store the new folks call that Rite Aid place, to gets himself some of thems there pills what the doctor gone and tells him to take each morning, a-yep, hims did."
old = olde --- EXAMPLE: "But educated and uneducated, old and young " > "Bot lered and lewed olde and yonge "
orange = o'jinn
out = oot --- EXAMPLE: "The cat wants to go out." > "The kat he do wants oot."
outside = oot dair
people = fokk --- EXAMPLE: "the people of Shetland " > "Shetland fokk "
people = folke --- EXAMPLE: "Look at all those people." > "Lookie at all thems folke."
poorly = febelly --- EXAMPLE: "Who know French very poorly " > "That kan frensch ful febelly "
Recognising = Recognisin --- EXAMPLE: "Recognising the bilingual nature of Shaetlan speakers " > "Recognisin da wye at Shaetlan spaekers is bilingual "
shield = skjoldr
Since = For --- EXAMPLE: "Since that is your native language " > "For that is youre kynde langage "
tell = telle --- EXAMPLE: "I'll tell you in English " > "In englysch tonge I schal you telle "
the = da, de, or is not used at all --- EXAMPLE: "I went to the store" > "Me goes to da shoppe" or "Me goes to da shoppe" or "Me goes to shoppe"
them = dem, dem dair --- EXAMPLE: "I went with them" > "Me goes wit dem dair"
there = dair --- EXAMPLE: "I want those potatoes" > "Me be wanting dem dair tatetas."
they = dey
To where = whither --- EXAMPLE: ""Where you go, I will go." " > ""Whither thou goest, I'll go."
understand = understonde
understand = understonden --- EXAMPLE: "Some understand English " > "And somme understonden englysch "
very = wicked --- EXAMPLE: "very good" > "wicked good"; "very bad" > "wicked bad"; "very cold" > "wicked cold"
Where = Whither --- EXAMPLE: "Where is the restroom? " > "Whither is the privy?"
Yes = Yea or Aye --- EXAMPLE: "Yes, I think so. " > "Yea, me thinks so. " or "Aye, me thinks so. "
For anyone actually interested in learning my native language, the Scottish government has THIS listed as the official dictionary of our people: https://static1.squarespace.com/static/61d7352954b7fd1c9dbdfef4/t/65ddb2749d5e0541a01009c0/1709027964496/Spaektionary_2024feb.pdf
The Scottish government provides this document to show our language in use: https://www.shetland.uhi.ac.uk/t4-media/one-web/uhi-shetland-images-and-documents/documents-/shaetlan/Shaetlan-Language-Plan-2022-Shaetlan.pdf
More information about our language can be found on this website: https://www.iheardee.com which is written in my native language.
However, there is also other reasons why words might be misspelled, or why I might not understand someone when they speak to me.
My grandmother Helen Ricker Allen, was from Unst, Shetland, Scotland, and she the one who raised me. She taught me to read and write, but it was Shetlain that she taught me. She died when I was 8 years old, and I was locked in a woodshed after her furneral, I escaped the woodshed 27 years later at age 31, and have been trying to learn how to speak and write English since then.
It is a very great struggle.
At age 37 I took remidial reading and speaking classes at Southern Maine Community College, but we are Gypsies and Gypsy men do not allow us Gypsy women to have education, and so, while at college, on November 14, 2013, I was beaten with a golf club, while I was 8 months pregnet, breaking my spine, hips, and knees, killing my baby and leaving me quardepaleic since.
Now my primary focus these past 13 years has been on relearning to use my hand so I could type... as of 2023, I have regained the use of my right thumb, and first two right fingers, and after 10 years offline, I am back online due to I can use three finguers.
I never went to school, so I do not know maths and numbers and sciences, and I do not know what else would have been taught to me in school. We are Scottish Gypsies and Gypsy culture does not allow females to go to school. Being born female was already a great sin, but my grandmother took great risk in teaching me reading and writing. At 4 years old I was punished by my Uncle Bruce for knowing how to read, by being beaten in the face with a cinder block brick, that broke my right jaw and left me with garbaled near-mute spoken words ever since.
Because no one ever spoke words to be face to face from he time I was 8 years old until I was 37 years old (I escaped the room at age 27, but did not start college until 37), I have no training in how to vocally sound out or speak the words I write or read. I can read words, but I do not know how to sound out or say those words. I can write words, but I do not know how to match the written word against the spoken word. I struggle to associate spoken words at all, or make them match up with writen words.
Esentially, written words and spoken words are two completly seperate languages in my brain, and I have difficulty understanding spoken words.
If you say a sentance to me with your mouth, chances are very high I will have ZERO understanding of what you said and I will not be able to ander you.
However, if you WRITE down that exact same sentabnce, I can understand you and can type a written responce to you.
My doctors tell me this is a side effect of extreme isolation and neglect and lack of human contact during my toddler, childhood, teen, and young adult years, and that my brain never deveoloped to comprehend spoken vocal words due to no one ever speaking to me in over three decades of the first half of my life.
While I can read and write, American English (somewhat) I do no know how words are sounded out, what they are supposed to sound like. I readand write by shape recognition, not by sound/vocal recognition, so when reading and writing I do no "hear the words in my head" as I am told most people do when they read and write. In other words... I see "c a t" and think "c-a-t" I do not think "cat" nor do I "see" an image of a cat, no do I "hear" the word cat spoken. I'm told that this is very rare and that most people read and write by sounding out the words and linking them to visual mind images, while hearing the sound of the word in their head. I neiher hear words in my head no see images of things in my head. I'm told this is what makes me both a speed reader and speed writer, because I'm not tripped up by hear sounds or seeing images in my head like nomal people would be doing... however, I'm also told this is why my spelling and grammar are very poor, because my brain is not hear the sounds of the words or seeing visual images of the objects the words represent, so my mind also does not register spelling and grammer errors at all.
As I was only let out of the woodshed on Sundays to go to the Cape Elezabeth Ward Church of the August Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, I was never allowed to go to school or hospital either. No adults ever talked to me because I was evil for comitted the sin of being born female, so I never learned how to speak properly and do not know how to sound out words to say them.
I was 42 years old, in 2016 when, while having an MRI for my spine, the doctors found out my speak issue was caused by a broken jaw as a toddler that was healed wrong because not being allowed to go to doctors. I had surgury to fix that, and since 2016 have been trying to learn how to use my jaw and touge so I can speak vocal words now.
Since 2023 my primary focus shifted to relearning to walk. I can now, in 2026, sit up for 2 or 3 hours a day, and can sand with a cane for a few minutes, and can walk for around five thousand feet in 2 to 3 segments a day, with the help of pushing my wheelchair like a walker.
As of 2026, with a slight return to using my fingers and legs, I am once again focused on trying to learn the American English, but I live in mortal fear of my uncles and male cousins, as they are so hateful of allowing me to have education.
have no one to help me to know if I am doing words correctly, and as such, I have no way of knowing if there are spelling and grammar errors, but I asume there are, and I fix them when I learn them, but I do not know what I do not know and spelling American words is a thing I do bnot know.
I have Low Fucntioning Kanner's Syndrom, also known as "RainMan Type of Autism" aka REAL and ACTUAL Autism, not to be confused with Aspergers, High Functioning Autism, or and of thr 861 illnesses on the Autism Spectrum. An Autism Spectrum Disorder is an illness that has symptoms similar to Autism but IS NOT Autism. If you have an Autism Spectrum Disorder, it LITERALLY MEANS you do NOT have Autism.
I am medically diagnosed as "kanner's syndrome, actual autism, the rainman type, profoundly retarded autistic savant, with a general IQ of 73, and an writing IQ of 221" but they added that they did not know how to properly diagnose me as I am "technically a feral child" and they don't know "how much is the autism, and how much is simple horrific levels of abuse and neglect induced post traumatic stress disorder that will go away with proper socilization".
It means I know how to write, I can write a lot, and it is next to impossible for you to teach me how to do literally anythig else because my brain only knows how to write and doesn;t know how to do anything else..
There's a reason, when I do book signings, people are quick to say: "Okay, what's the joke? why is this stupid retard here? where's the real author? I know this retard isn't the author. where are you hiding the author, why is this fucking retard here"
The end result is, I have near zero social interaction... my 3 years in college was the ONLY face to face interaction I have ever had with humans in my entire life, and I struggle deeply to understand MOST words used by MOST people when they ask me question. And so I suffer from a huge lack of understanding many words people say to me, how to translate those words into spelling, and how to translate what it is that has been said.
The fact remains hat until there exists a human on this planet who is willing to sit down and teach me what words spoken line up with and match what words written, this deficent is unlily to improve. But the fact also remains, that I am simply far too profoundly retarded for anyone to even try to make any attempt at all even to speak a friendly "hgelloe" or "good morning" when passing me on the street, so I have lost all hope of anyone ever either being my friend, being willing to teach me how to match spoken words to written words, or how to speak to other humans.
While there are around 20k pages on this website, most of them are blocked from search engines, with only around 800 of them available for appearing in Google/Bing/etc search results. The remainder can only be accessed via the various links found throughout this site. This was done deliberately on my part, and I did it because the bulk of the pages on this website are chapters from 138 novels and 423 novellas, so only the first page of each novel and novella indexed by search engines, and the remainder are linked in order, one page at a time, via clicking "next page" at the end of each. So if you are looking for a specific page from a specific novel, Google can't help you.
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Do you know who drove this backhoe over my house at 146 Portland Avenue, Old Orchard Beach, Maine on August 8, 2013? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me July 26, 2016 at scarborough WalMart,... they arrived the first time with a backhoe on August 8, 2013, that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since....
... which means it is now only a few weeks from the 14th anniversary of my son's murder. I was 8 month pregnant November 14, 2013, and a student ay SMCC, and coming out of the Buglight Lighthouse art studio after art class, when a still unidentifiedwoman wielding a golf club attacked me, severed my spine, while I was 8 months pregnant, triggered early labour, then killed my son minutes after he was born.
While accusing me of being transgender, screaming "transvestite freak" and "look at that thing, that's Ken's son in a dress"... while I was 8 months pregnant.
My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son and crippled me, arrived the first time with a backhoe that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 months pregnant at the time and have been homeless for just under 14 years, homeless ever since. |
The backhoe driver returned November 14, 2013, armed with a golf club, used it to break my spine and smash my baby's brains out on the ground
On November 14, 2013, my son was murdered. I was 8 months pregnant, leaving my college classroom, and just getting into my car, when 3 strangers, a man and two women, armed with golf clubs leapt out from behind my car screaming "kill or be killed, kill the transvestite freaks, kill them all before they kill us! look at that thing! That is Ken's son, look at how it's dressed! kill the transvestite freaks! kill or be killed"... while the bald man and the red haired woman chanted this over and over, the blonde woman, lunged with the golf club.
She severed my spine, I am now a quadriplegic, and been paralyzed arms and legs, and in a wheelchair for 13 years now. She broke my hips, my knees, my legs, ruptured most of my discs, and shattered three of my vertebrae so bad that the shards of bone acted like glass and embedded themselves into my spinal column nerve bundle.
The attack also triggered labour.
My son was born in that parking lot, and he lived only a couple of minutes, before the deranged blonde woman, beat his head in and smashed his brains out, with the same golfclub she had just used to sever my spine and leave me crippled for the rest of my life.
Realizing that I was not transgender, and they'd just murdered a baby, the man grabbed the 2 women and forcibly dragged them away to a 4 door white pickup truck, and they left me there to die.
The FBI told me later, that a few weeks before this attack, and transwoman, had murdered a cis woman, in a parking lot, abou 20 miles away from where I was attacked. The FBI, believes that my attackers, had somehow found out I wrote transgender fiction, connecting my real name to my penname, (my father's name is in fact "Ken", and I do have a brother) and believed that I wrote transgender fiction, because I was myself transgender, even though I'm not transgender. The FBI, believes the attackers, thought I was my brother, pretending to be a woman.
The FBI investigation, into my son's murder, has dragged on for 13 years, and still now in 2026, continues on, with the FBI, still not having yet identified my attackers, and only guessing at what their motive was.
Thus we come to 2014, and the full swing change of the series I write. WHY my series, went from just a transman main character living life, to the full blown Mpreg genre series that it now is today.
Before the attack, I had a chance of having a baby. I don't know. And because I'm in America, I'm too old to adopt. You have to be under 45 years old to adopt a baby. That is the law in America. I was informed this, when we tried to adopt, now that my injuries leave me unable to get pregnant a 9th time.
Thus began my obsessively writing, my transman main character, pregnant. Always pregnant now. Every time. Every story. Stories that now fully focus on pregnancy, labour, miscarriages, babies dying, babies living, raising babies... the whole series, since 2014 has devolved into an outright baby obsession.
Meanwhile, reborn baby dolls were suggested to me by my therapist, and have also become a deeply obsessive part of my life. Because 13 years ago my son was murdered minutes after he was born, because a transphobic bigot mistook me for being transgender, I'm STILL in a wheelchair, struggling to relearn to use my arms and legs, now 13 years later, and I'm still DAILY dealing with police officers and FBI agents who while they are trying to find my son's killer, they are also daily reminding me... oh, yeah, my son was murdered, literally ripped out of my belly, by a transphobe. Who still has not been located and walks free to kill again.
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The golfclub woman as she looked during the golf club attack at Southern Maine community college November 14, 2013. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The golfclub woman as she looked during the shopping cart attack at Scarborough WalMart July 26, 2016. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
The 2nd woman as she looked at both attacks, her hair goes all the way down to her knees. She is about 20 to 30 years older then me and would be around 75 to 85 years old now in 2026. If you have any information about the identity of this child murderer's accomplice, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 |
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
I am a legally blind quadriplegic, and low verbal, I have also published 138 novels in the last 48 years. It's not as impossible as people think. The problem being blind and quadriplegic, medically have different meanings then how those two words are used medically.
Fewer than 3% of all blind people see nothing. While 97% people who are classified as fully blind are able to see up to two feet in front of them. Legally blind means I can see more then two feet in front of me but not far enough to see twenty feet in front of me. In my case I can see about eight feet.
Quadriplegic, has varying levels, it means having a damaged nerve bundle in the spinal column causing limited mobility of all 4 limbs, (in my case this was done by a women wielding a golf club, who also beat my 8 month infant's head to pulp on the parking lot tarmak, at the same time she severed my spine with the same golf club; both on November 14, 2013; the FBI investigation into my son's murder and my being crippled has gone on now for 13 years, a few weeks away from 14 years now, and the FBI has still not identified the killer or her motive). Contrary to popular misconception, quadriplegic does NOT mean ZERO movement, it means means limited movement, specifically in means unable to lift arms over head, unable to grip fingers around objects to pick them up, and unable to stand for more then 5 minutes to a time. Because there are so many thousands of nerves in each limb it is actually very rare for there to be 100% no movement, but how much, and to what extent varies by patent depending upon the specific point of injury to the spinal column.
Meaning typing is still possible for over 60% of all quadriplegics.
In my case, it was the lower spine that was severed, cutting off completly my ability to move my right leg, leaving limited feeling in my left leg, and an ability to stand but not walk, with crutches, for the first 9 years. I regained enough nerve growth in my legs by the 9th year to be able to take ten or twelve steps allowing me to get out of bed for the first time since the golf club attack; This in turn lead to me being able to start using a wheelchair, as I was able to sit upright for the first time as well.
Because the shattered vertebrae bone fragments are broken off completly and embedded into the nerve bundle just above my tailbone, doctors were saying I would never walk again, but now at 13 years, I am able to push mu wheelchair like a walker, a distance of almost a thousand steps a day. Though doctors are still doubtful I will ever walk "normally" again, I have proven them wrong, when their said 13 years ago, that I would never walk again at all.
But because of the placement of the damage to my spine, regaining hand use, was always thought possible, it was just a matter of waiting long enough for nerve regrowth, along side daily finger exercises. I was able to continue writing, after becoming quadriplegic, because I still have use of my right thumb, and 2 fore figures of my right hand. And can type 90 words per minute with those 3 fingers.
I however have no wrist strength, elbow strength, or shoulder strength, so I am not able to form a fist, or lift objects, or brush my hair, or my teeth, all thing I have to have my caretaker do. But, those things are not needed for typing. Unfortunately, my pinky and ring fingers are "nerve dead" and drag over the keyboard, and cause horrific spelling errors and typos, which are incredibly frustrating to deal with.
Unfortunately trying to edit errors myself, just makes the errors worse, because those same two fingers drag over the keyboard yet again. Prior to the golf club attack, I rarely had spelling errors; now I got more spelling errors then someone is learning English as second language. Editing is a challenge, that I've had to accept, I simply can not do myself, and I have to hire several editors to help with that.
Low verbal means sounds can still be made, sounds that software programs like Dragon can be trained to recognize and translate, and type into full words. More then half my novels were typed with this method.
I still have a long ways to go before I am anything close to being able to do the things I could do before the golf club woman beat my baby's brains out and shattered my spine. And you know what's more frustrating then how slow mu medical progression has been? The fact that it's been 13 years and the police and FBI are still coming up at dead ends as to who the woman who murdered my baby was, or why she even did it.
My son's 14th birthday is only a few weeks away, but he didn't even get to live long enough to celebrate his 1st birthday, I don't even know why. And I can't wait to regain my ability to walk again, because regaining my ability to walk, means gaining the ability to go outside and start looking for my son's murderer myself instead of sitting at home trapped in a wheelchair waiting for the police and FBI to to find her. So, writing isn't a big priority for me anymore. I only write now, as a way to exercise my hands, in between relearning to walk.
Never let a disability stop you. Plenty of writers, artists, athletes, do not let either blindness, speech impediments, or limited mobility hold then back from perusing their careers.
Do you know who these two woman who crippled me and murdered my baby, at Southern Maine Community College at 10PM on November 14, 2013, are, and what their connection to the backhoe that drove over my house is? If you have any information, please give it to FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207–774–9322 of the Portland, Maine FBI office.
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