Do Black Lives REALLY Matter
to the BLM Rioters?
No.
If Black Lives REALLY Mattered,
to the BLM Protesters,
they would stop and think
about the consequences their actions have
on those of us who live with REAL, ACTUAL
White Supremacists
harassing and murdering our families...
They are using words like
White Supremacists, Nazis, and KKK
loosely, as slurs and descriptors for any and all white people...
but they forget...
White Supremacists, Nazis, and the Ku Klux Klan
ARE REAL TERRORIST ORGANIZATIONS
WHO COMMIT ACTUAL HATE CRIMES
AGAINST ACTUAL MINORITIES
...and by using using words like
White Supremacists, Nazis, and KKK loosely,
as slurs and descriptors for any and all white people,
they cause people to forget about the horrors committed by the REAL White Supremacists, Nazis, and the Ku Klux Klan
UPDATE: June 24, 2020: Much sadness, the painting of Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna, one of Vudo's Primary Loas was destroyed by BLM vandals :( , she along with her sister Erzulie Freda are my patron saints.
Much sadness, the painting of Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna, one of Vudo's Primary Loas was destroyed by BLM vandals :( only 2 days after the destruction of Erzulie Freda aka Immaculate Conception, she along with her sister Erzulie Freda are my patron saints.
Erzulie Danta & Erzulie Freda are 2 of the primary Loa of Voodoo.
They are the 2 wives of Damballah Weddo, The One God, The Great Serpent, The Creator of Life.
White slave owners, would not allow black slaves to worship the Loa. Slave owners brought in Catholic Priests and Nuns to convert the slaves. The slaves took the icons, prayer cards, and paintings the priests and nuns gave them, and gave the Loa, "Catholic names"
Thus Damballah Weddo began to be represented by images of Moses carrying a Brass Serpent, and his wives Erzulie Danta & Erzulie Freda began to be represented by The Black Madonna and The Lady of The Immaculate Conception.
All of the Loa, have Catholic Saints and Martyrs to represent them. It was a way for the slaves to trick the Masters into thinking the slaves were converted to Catholicism, when in fact, Voodoo, or Vuvu as it was called in the 1400 to 1700s, stayed strong in their hearts and the mysteries of the Loa stayed alive.
Today Voodoo is a branch of the Catholic church, and while most Christians call us Pagans or Heathens or worse, we are in fact Christian, and branch of Catholicism.
It's why you see me always with a rosary, which I wear like a necklace, much to the horrors of many Catholics, and why I have so many statues of Mary, Jesus, and the Saints all over my room and my car, and why I have crosses and crucifixes all over my walls, and why I wear veils, mantilla, and hijab.
If you walked in my room, you would immediately assume I was an extremely devout orthodox Catholic, and you'd be wrong.
I am a Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsan Fey Marija Loa to Damballah Weddo and serve the local shrine to Papa Damballah and Erzulies Freda and Danta. This painting was very dear to me.
It means I am married to God, something for which there was an actual wedding, with a wedding dress and everything.
In simpler terms: I'm a nun.
I am married to my god the same way a Catholic nun is married to Christ.
Which is also why sex is not a part of my life.
This painting is a painting that we Voodoo practitioners hold with deep reverence.
The Black Madonna, Erzulie Dantar, Our Dear Sweet Lady of Retribution.
Voodoo Practitioners, follow many things, many paths, many roads, many branches. But with every branch, every form of Voodoo, one thing remains constant: The Black Madonna. There is no Voodoo Practitioner on the planet, who does not have a statue or a prayer card or her dagger through the heart veevee on their prayer alter. She is the mother of life. The mother of us all. The goddess who created life, with Papa Damballah.
This painting is dearly beloved in the Voodoo Community, and now she is destroyed.
The painting was made in 1433, based off of the description of Jesus in the Bible.
The book of Revelations describes Jesus as having roped locks of hair like lambs wool and feet the colour of brass. Jesus was from the southern region of Judea which is in Africa.
Jesus was black. The Bible itself tells us this.
Most images of Jesus and Mary paint them white, blond, blue eyed... but that's not how the Bible described them.
This is one of the few historical images of a Black Jesus and a Black Mother Mary. And most Black people love it dearly. So why would followers of a movement to bring equality to black lives, destroy it?
Or did they? Was it people who hate the BLM movement and so destroyed a symbol near and dear to the hearts of millions in the black community?
Who destroyed this painting?
And why?
BLM graffiti is the only clue.
But is it, BLM because it was done by someone in the BLM movement?
Or was it done by someone against the BLM movement?
No one knows.
No one knows who did this.
My grandmother was half Black *(yes, I am 1/4 Black)* and she loved this painting. She didn't call it The Black Madonna like most people do, she called her Black Baby Jesus. She took a trip over there to see it in person.
Whoever did it, these people should pay heed to history, and to what happened to the pirates who slashed her face. It didn't end well for them.
Our dear Lady of Retribution, wielder of vengeance upon the unjust, may your curse of iniquity fall upon all who cause harm.
She was one of my 2 faves, along with The Immaculate Conception...
Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna
Erzulie Freda aka The Immaculate Conception
...and to see them both destroyed 2 days apart from each other is heartbreaking.
Why is the BLM movement attacking the Patron Saint of Slaves? Our Dear Lady of Retribution. Vicious Punisher of the Masters who take away freedom.
She is the symbol of everything the Black Lives Matter movement stands for, so why destroy her?
Do you idiots know nothing?
Do you not know the history of this painting?
Or how it got destroyed by Nazis in World War II... and it remains, rebuilt, in Poland, by Jewish Concentration Camp Survivors.
How many times has she been destroyed since her creation in 1433?
Freed Black Slaves, rebuilt her.
Freed Jews, rebuilt her again.
Why would you destroy the symbol of freedom? The symbol of escape from oppression? The symbol of survival against all odds?
Ignorance and arrogance is a dangerous pairing. This just proves their lack of intelligence. Destroying anything and everything, without knowing what it is.
Do you know, that without this painting, you even have the Black Lives Matter Foundation? Are you aware of the history of the organization you are screaming the name of from the rooftops?
Has anyone else noticed the similarities in behavior with this movement and ISIS or The Ku Klux Klan or The Nazis... destroying anything they don't like, taking control of portions of cities... doing it all in the name of a call to lord over others?
When you destroy history, try to erase it, you will allow it to happen again in future generations. Instead of burying bad parts of history, you should be teaching your children to learn from the mistakes of that history, so history doesn't repeat itself.
Funny thing is... this particular painting... she was hated by the Nazis too. They destroyed her. This is a reproduction that was made in 1945, because Nazis destroyed the original 1433 one.
She was rebuilt, to stand as a testament AGAINST fucking White Power bastards who murdered millions of Jews, Blacks, Gays, and Gypsies.
We Gypsies hail her as our Patron Saint, because she is a strong woman of colour, who survived one of the worst White Power atrocities in history.
If there is any painting out there that should be used as the fucking logo of the BLM movement... THIS IS IT! And you destroy her?
Why?
Regardless of which side destroyed it, you are both acting like ill mannered children.
One side smash and trashes items, then the other side retaliates back with more smash and trash, so the first side smashes more, then then 2nd side smashes back... when will it end? Both sides are acting like idiots right now. Neither side is making the other side look bad, because both sides are too busy making themselves look bad.
The Ku Klux Klan is parading up and down streets in Maine calling BLM protestors monkeys, and, I gotta say... they are kind of right. I mean, monkeys don't have enough brains to know not to smash things, so monkeys run around smashing things. Humans know better then to destroy things, because Humans know how to use their brains.
Think about that!
There should NEVER be a point, when we can say "The Ku Klux Klan is right."
The Ku Klux Klan are horrible people, and right now THEY are the ones in the right! That shouldn't happen! The villain shouldn't be better than the hero, and right now that is what's happening!
Come on people... 2 wrongs don't make a right.
Don't be like them!
Do not lower yourselves to their level.
We are better then this.
You ALL are better then this.
Stand up and prove you are better.
Smashing everything, because they smash everything, how does that make you any better than them?
It doesn't!
It makes you JUST LIKE THEM!
And they are standing out there calling black people monkeys! And I wish I could say they were wrong, but it's kind of hard to do, when you are running around, making mindless grunts, waving spray cans, smashing things up, and FUCKING ACTING LIKE MONKEYS!
You are giving the racists POWER OVER YOU!
That's all the rioting and vandalism is doing.
You are giving power to the fucking white power bastards.
STOP GIVING THEM POWER OVER YOU!
The whole point of the BLM Protests is the SHOW that black people ARE NOT monkeys! To prove that black people ARE humans and deserve to be treated like humans.
They should not be out there chanting "monkey" like that. Yes, they are wrong and it is horrible that they are doing it... but at WHY they are saying it.
They are saying that BECAUSE you are giving them reason to.
Don't prove the Ku Klux Klan to be right about black people... prove them WRONG!
#PROVE THEM WRONG!
Stop giving them power to hate. Stop feeding then fuel to fan their hatred with.
Are you people all so caught up in the frenzy of rioting that you not see yourselves, the way the white power haters see you, right now?
Go to Twitter and look for the hashtag "BLMTerrorists" and spend an hour or two, reading those Tweets.
You really, REALLY, need to look at what you are doing. Look at the message your rioting is sending. LOOK at what they saying about the rioters, the vandals.
They're scared. And that's bad. That's really bad. Because sooner or later, they'll lash back. And it won't be good. It never is.
And look at what the rioters are doing.
It's not just statues anymore.
Did you see the video footage of a mob of rioters who ran into Target, and started smashing up the store with baseball bats, and when an elderly man in his 90s, ran from the store to avoid getting hurt, the mod dragged him to the ground, torn off his Covid19 facemask, starting spitting in his face, while kicking him. That happened this morning.
How about the one that happened Sunday. Another elderly man, this one his 80s, leaving church, heading across the parking lot, going to his car... when a BLM mob, came storming across the parking lot, grabbing anyone they saw and throwing them to the ground. Three men, mauled the old man. Beat unconscious. For no reason. He didn't even see or hear them coming.
That's not right.
That's not protesting.
That's being a gangster.
Mobster.
You know what mobster means, right? It means, being part of mob and beating people up for the fun of it.
That's all this has become. A mob of rioters, beating people up for the fun of it.
It's wrong.
You know it is.
Hurting people is never right.
Violence is not going to solve anything.
Violence is just going to make, people who hate minorities, start to hate minorities even more! That the opposite of what we need or want.
Think!
Use your brains.
Every time you act like mindless animals, you just give the white power lunatics MORE POWER over you!
Don't give them that power. They don't deserve it.
Look at what is happening.... You destroy their works of art, so they fight back, by destroying ours.
Can't you see what you are doing?
LOOK at the swastika across The Black Madonna's face, and the words BLM underneath.
This is wrong on so many levels.
These riots, all vandalism... you'll gain one or two victories, small ones, meaningless ones, you'll get statues moved... but what is the fucking point?
You've lost focus of the BIG PICTURE... which is saving lives.
Taking down a statue is NOT going to save lives.
You people should be in courthouse, filing paperwork, writing dockets, reading law books, and getting laws passed.
You can do that. You don't NEED politicians to do those things. All you need is the make your case, in front of a judge who agrees with you.
That's it.
You don't need violence.
You don't need riots.
You don't need vandalism.
You need law books and enough education to know how to write a docket and word it persuasively, so that you can convince a judge, to sign off on that law and get it passed.
Why are none of you doing THAT?
Violence is NOT the answer.
Hate crimes are not the answer.
Riots are not the answer.
Criminal acts are not the answer.
You'll be no help to anyone if you get arrested and are behind bars.
These protests are NOT peaceful, and you're deluded if you think they are.
Yes, there are dirty cops out there. I've met plenty in my lifetime.
But for every bad cop I've ever meet, I've met dozens of officers who were good.
Taking over police stations, setting fire to police cruisers, beating up police officers, just because they are police officers.... none of this is right. It's terrorism.
Yes, action needs to be taken, but not violent action. Look in the mirror... you people are using acts of terrorism to protest acts of terrorism. That's not right.
You don't fight fire with fire.... all that does is make the fire bigger. You are fanning the flames of hate and making them grow.
You fight fire with water. You put the fire out.
You need to tame the lion of hate, make it a lamb of peace. Sooth it. Teach it to see the error of it's ways. Show it that it can trust you, let it know you won't hurt it. That's win the lion over.
But if you attack the lion, threaten it, hurt it, it'll lash back, fiercer, meaner, far worse than it was to begin with.
Can you not see that?
Can you not see, how all this violence is only stirring the haters up more and teaching them to say to themselves "We was right about them minorities"...
You should be showing the haters, that they are wrong, not that they are right.
Every act of violence committed in the name of "Black Lives Matter" only teaches white people, to hate black people even more.
Don't prove the haters they are right, prove them wrong instead.
What the hell is wrong with you people?
Have you all got your heads shoved so damned far up your asses that you are just going to destroy anything and everything you get near now, even symbols like THIS, that you should be hailing as one of the greatest memorials in tribute to people of colour?
She is a tribute AGAINST fucking White Supremacists.... don't you idiots know that?
Or is that EXACTLY the point?
No one saw who did this.
And it happened after so many statues were torn down, statues of white men, torn down by black men.
Are we now seeing here White Supremacists "fighting back"?
It's possible.
But I wonder... how many of the BLM Protesters have ever faced REAL racism face to face?
How many of them, have ever been attacked by the REAL and ACTUAL Ku Klux Klan?
Look at the memes on Twitter, showing supposed KKK pictures... people in white pillow cases with holes cut out.
That is NOT the REAL Ku Klux Klan... you know right?
GOOGLE THE FUCKING BASTARDS! Find out what they REALLY look like, what they REALLY wear.
They wear miter hats, with veils on the front, and long heavily embroidered and beaded white robes, with large red crosses on their capes. Their outfits are EXACT REPLICAS of the Catholic Pope's robes and hat.
It's not a white pointy pillowcase.
Also, ONLY the leaders wear white.
The rest of the members, wear colours based on rank. Green Robes, Red Robes, Blue Robes, Yellow Robes, Black Robes... the REAL card-carrying members of the Ku Klux Klan, DO NOT WEAR WHITE!
There are 200,000 active card-carrying members of the REAL Ku Klux Klan, living in Maine. The largest concentration of them in one place, on the entire planet.
And they are actual terrorists. They build bombs. They murder children. They skin people alive, hang them in trees, and leave them there to bleed to death and long slow death that takes weeks to happen.
And they DO NOT WEAR WHITE!
The fakes as white robes and pillow case hoods, are a thing that was created by Hollywood Movies... it's NOT a thing that exists in the REAL world.
Fake ass wanna-bes, wear white robes and white pillow cases, because they never saw a REAL KKK member and they don't know shit about the REAL Ku Klux Klan. They dress up in white robes and put pillow cases on their heads, because that is what MOVIES tell people the Ku Klux Klan does.
That's how you can tell the fake ass wanna-bes from the REAL Ku Klux Klan. And if you have ever seen them face to face, you'd have known that.
My first encounter with the Ku Klux Klan... I was 14 years old. Me and 5 other children were kidnapped and tortured.
Anastasia was just 4 years old. A toddler. They ripped off her leg. Doing so, pulled her intestines out, and spilled her partly digested breakfast all over the floor.
Then they just left her there.
It took her a week to die.
Tajid... they beat his chest, crushed his lungs. He saved my life. Those blows were meant for me. He got between me and them. He died 2 days later.
I survived.
July 1, 2001. A backhoe drove my house while my family was gone to the movies. We rebuilt.
February 14, 2003, my doctor's office, First Care Health Clinic, Saco Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... was blown up with a bomb. My doctor died. 3 of his nurses died. 21 patients were hospitalized in critical condition. The Ku Klux Klan left an 8 foot tall white cross in the parking lot.
It wasn't in the news.
I was there. It was the first Ku Klux Klan bomb, I survived.
May 9, 2006, they beat up my dad, he is in a coma for 2 months, and an additional 6 months in the hospital recovering.
October 16, 2006, a bomb blew up my house, and the Ku Klux Klan left an 8 foot tall white cross in my rose garden.
It wasn't in the news.
It was 1AM. I was asleep in my bed. The bomb was put in the doorway of my bedroom. I was on fire. My hair and my clothes were burned off of me. It was the second Ku Klux Klan bomb, I survived.
We rebuilt again.
April 7, 2007, a backhoe drove over my house, again. We rebuilt again.
Also in 2007, the headless body of a teenage girl was found in the parking lot of Scarborough, Shaw's. Her head was found on the Payne Road, 3 months later, with a circle of 7 dead black labrador retriever dogs around her head.
May 9, 2010, they saw 1964 Dodge 330 car in half.
Also, 2010, a 90-year-old black man, was beaten to death with a shopping cart, in Westbrook Shaw's parking lot, while dozens of white onlookers cheered on his murderer.
May 2013, Southern Maine Community College was evacuated when a bomb was found under my desk, a desk I sat at every day. It was the 3rd bomb I survived.
June 4, 2013, my cousin Murphy's headless body was left in the crossroad of Ross Road and Cascade Road, Old Orchard Beach, Maine.
June 8, 2013, my cousin Murphy's head was left in the crossroad of Portland Ave and Road Road, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, a 1/4 mile away from where his body had been left.
I live on Portland Ave, 5 houses from that crossroad. I found his body while driving home from work at the Maine Mall.
August 8, 2013, a backhoe drove over my house, again.
November 14, 2013, while putting my art easel in the back of my car, after art studio class at Southern Maine Community College, a man and 2 women, with a metal golf club and 2 metal baseball bats, attacked. They were waiting behind my car. I didn't see them. They broke my legs, my hip, my knee. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk.
#You think you know racism... I guarantee you don't know it half as well as I do.
August 2014... Saco Shaw's made national news when a woman's head was found in the ice cream freezer.
A week later another head was found in their dumpster.
April 10, 2015, 12 members of my family were kidnapped, by 14 Ku Klux Klan members, all of them police officers at the Scarborough, Maine Police Department, and Old Orchard Beach, Maine Police Department.
Do you remember Bela? She used to be in all my videos. A police officer beat her head in with a cinder block. Ripped her jaw clean off her face. April 10, 2015. That's why she's not in streams anymore.
Do you remember Georgie? Same thing. Same brick. Split the whole side of his head open.
While a pole with an electric taser neck hold held them down.
12 members of my family, had that happen. April 10, 2015.
How old were they?
The oldest was 14.
The youngest was 4.
Three were 7.
Two were 5.
Yeah. They were very young.
Still think you know what racism is?
But why would white people care about children? Children are disposable in America, remember? Americans murder 5,000 babies every day. Ninety Million babies have been murdered in America, since 1991. It's no wonder, white power terrorists think nothing is wrong with killing children. Murdering babies is, after all the American way.
Two escaped. They lived, but both have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and both are missing all their teeth and most of their jaws.
The other 10?
May 15, 2015, their heads were nailed to my door. Their intestines wrapped around my windows.
It wasn't in the news.
Maine law, only a police officer can report a crime to the news stations or newspapers.
But when the police officers, are marching around wearing white robes and white hoods and erected white crosses in the front yards of the people they torment... there are no police officers too who will file the reports.
THAT is REAL racism.
THAT is REAL police brutality.
But we're just Gypsies, so no one cares.
And this is Maine, the state that is proud to call itself: 99.9% white.
And this is The Town of Old Orchard Beach, a town run by the Ku Klux Klan. They took over our town in 2001. Now they run the Town Hall, the Police Department, the Fire Department, and Dispatch.
Heaven help you if you live in Old Orchard Beach, and you need to call 911, but you ain't white enough for them to respond.
Heaven help you if they do respond... and you're not white enough... because whatever help you called them for, they'll beat the shit out of you.
November 2015, Scarborough Walmart was evacuated, because a bomb was left in my department, under one of the HallMark card displays. I worked at WalMart at the time. It was the 4th bomb I survived.
July 24, 2016, Scarborough Walmart was evacuated, yet again, because a bomb was left in my department, under one of the HallMark card displays. I worked at WalMart at the time. It was the 5th bomb I survived.
July 26, 2016, while putting groceries in my car, at Scarborough Walmart, the same attackers from 2013, beat me with a shopping cart and left me for dead. They broke my spine. Severed the nerves in my spinal column. I've never walked again.
5 times in 2018... you saw my live streams interrupted, as the Ku Klux Klan arrived in my driveway, a shot bullet holes through the walls... you saw them on the live streams. The VODs are still up. I didn't take them down.
October 2019... local Jewish Synagogue was bombed. They blew the whole side off the building. You saw it in my live streams... I drove there and showed you what they did...
It wasn't in the news.
February 12, 2020, yet another of my cousins was gunned down. This time in Scarborough, Maine WalMart, while putting groceries in his car.
Biddeford, Maine's Rotary Park, used to have the Guinness World Record for the tallest, largest flag pole. They took it down 5 years ago. Do you know why?
Because in the dead of winter, Old Orchard Beach Officers, thought it would be funny, the strip a 14 year old boy naked, tie his ankles to the back bumper of a police car, and drive 14 miles from Old Orchard Beach, to that flag pole, and tie the child to the rope, like he was a lag, host him to the top, and left him there. 3 days of blizzard later, a dog walker found him, nearly frozen to death, unconscious, hanging upside down from the flagpole.
They assumed him to be gay, he wasn't, but they thought he was because he was wearing a pink coat.
It wasn't in the news. So if you didn't know the family, you didn't know it happened.
2 weeks ago, Black Lives Matter protestors arrived in Biddeford, Maine... they were meet face to face with white hoods carrying assault rifles, machine guns, and Gatlin guns... the protesters, didn't have the balls to stand up to REAL racists, so they fled to Sanford, Maine... but one of the Ku Klux Klan's primary "club" buildings is in Sandford, Maine, so the protestors were met with even more white hoods carrying assault rifles, machine guns, and Gatlin guns... the protesters, didn't have the balls to stand up to REAL racists, so the protestors fled to Monmouth, Maine, and after 5 hours there... they fled Maine entirely.
It wasn't in the news.
Why wasn't it in the news?
All us locals here in Maine, we saw it happen. We saw the protesters turn tail and run, as soon as the White Hoods marched out with their assault rifles.
The BLM protestors CLAIM they have lived with racism, but when they came to Maine, they found out fast, that they really had no clue, what REAL racists are like.
You don't know racism until you've lived with the fucking Ku Klux Klan terrorizing your town, terrorizing your family.
They kidnapped 12 members of my family. April 10, 2015. Tortured them. Killed 10 of them. And nailed their heads to my door.
#THAT IS FUCKING REAL RACISM!!!
You people don't know shit!
The BLM protestors are attacking statues and paintings because they are cowards who don't have the balls to fight REAL racists. They proved that when they arrived in Maine and got chased out within 5 hours, by the fucking Ku Klux Klan.
Yeah, you want to decry police brutality?
Do you remember a few years ago, a black boy while standing in line, at San Diego Comic-Con, waiting to buy tickets for the convention, was gunned down by a police officer...
Do you know who that black boy was? He was cousin Matt. The one I used to play multiplayer video games with... the reason I don't play multiplayer video games anymore.
His mother was so distraught over his death, that she remarried his father and 7 other men. Yeah, my aunt with the 8 husbands. That's WHY she has the 8 husbands. Her son gunned down by a police officer because he was the only coloured person standing in a line of white people, and the police officer thought that was suspicious.
Attacking statues and paintings doesn't help anybody.
You aren't bringing awareness, you are just making yourselves look like idiots.
Don't be haters.
There are enough haters in the world already. Don't add to the hate.
And those of us, who live with REAL racists in our towns, and are families are being brutalized, tortured, and murdered by those fucking racists... you are making life worse for US...
...because while you can go back home, and be safe, we still have the Ku Klux Klan lording over our town. And no amount of torn down statues or destroyed paintings is going to stop them.
And all you people have done is made things worse, for those of us, who live with the daily constant threat of violence at the hands of REAL White Supremacists.
You people running around calling politicians, actors, singers, white supremacists because of something they said on Twitter... you haven't got a fucking clue what a REAL White Supremacists is like.
And let me ask you this: how are YOU any different, from the racist white people who destroy all things non-white?
You're not. You are just the same.
You are acting just like them.
Violence is only going to breed more violence. Don't you people know that?
You who are destroying things... you don't care about the consequences of your actions, but you will not suffer any harm.
But what about my family?
Persian Gypsies. 1/2 Jewish, 1/4 Native American, and 1/4 Black. Not one drop of white blood in us ... living in Old Orchard Beach... the whitest town, of the whitest state in America... and town that got taken over by the Ku Klux Klan June 2001.
Do you care?
Do you care what they will do to us, in retaliation, for what you people are doing to statues on the other side of the world from us?
Do you care, at all?
You people say you care... but I don't see it.
I don't see it at all.
All I see is a herd of mindless sheep, jumping on a bandwagon, following the herd, and not once stopping to think about the consequences of their actions.
You people keep asking me "Why Avallac'h?", "Why are you so obsessed?", "Why did this fandom take over your life?"... look at the date it started.
* Did you know I'm on 24 hour suicide watch, and I have been since January 4, 2016?
* Did you know I was hospitalized for a nervous breakdown, after 10 members of my family had their heads nailed to the door?
* Did you know I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?
* Did you know Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is not itself an illness, but rather is a symptom and a coping mechanism for dealing with extreme emotional trauma?
* Did you know, a team of doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists, social workers, and FBI agents, had me hooked up to tons of medical monitors, heart monitors, blood monitors, a portable EKG... for weeks, so they monitor what activities I did, so they determine a lifestyle change prescription, that would get my resting heart rate under 131 and my blood pressure over 70 over 60?
* Did you know that the doctors discovered that the ONLY time my body relaxes on any level at all is when I'm playing Witcher 3?
* Did you know, I have an actual prescription, which says, to play Witcher 3 as much as possible every day?
* Did you know, playing Witcher 3 is the only thing keeping me alive right now, and my doctors says the worst I could do right now, is STOP playing it?
The Ku Klux Klan took everything from me. My home. My family. My health.
I have no one now. I have 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, of the rest of my life, to be crippled, bedridden, and alone.
"Why Avallac'h?", "Why are you so obsessed?", "Why did this fandom take over your life?"... because I used to be able to walk. I used to have a family. I used to have a home. And I'm having a very difficult time trying to find a reason to live. And I needed something to take away the pain. I needed someone who had lost everything as brutalily as I had, to talk to, because only someone who had been through what I had been through, would understand how I feel. I needed something to see, other then 10 heads nailed to my door. It's all I can see. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't close my eyes. I can't get the image of their bloody heads out of my mind.
Playing this video game, researching every detail, writing articles, and sewing the costume, it's the only thing I can do that blots out the images of their heads. And as soon as I stop playing the game, stop rereading the novels, stop making screenshots, stop writing the articles, stop sewing the costume, the images of their heads are back.
I can't function at all any more. I haven't been able to function since April 10, 2015.
This obsession with Avallac'h... it's not about him. He's just the tool that right now keeping me from killing myself, until I can find something else, some reason to live.
And you people, you think because someone called you a hate slur, that you know racism is. You have no clue.
Until the Ku Klux Klan, kills your entire family and nails their heads to your door... you'll never know what it like to live with real racism.
You who don't know REAL racism, you think you are being funny with your acts of hate and violence, smashing statues? If you ACTUALLY knew REAL racism, you'd be so mentally broken that you wouldn't be able to see the statues, because all you can see is the horror of your murdered families's remains.
And because you don't know REAL racism, after you get done destroying things, you can safely go home, because while you THINK, someone is racist, because they called you a "nigga"... it's just a word. These people who murdered my family and destroyed my home, and left me crippled, they call me a "nigga" all the time. I don't even look black. I'm not even close to being able to pass for black. Heck, half the people who call me "nigga" 10 or 12 shades of brown darker than me. I'm 1/4 black, but you wouldn't know it to look at me. I'm physically whiter than most white people. But that doesn't matter to White Power people like the Ku Klux Klan. They don't care about skin colour. They care about blood.
If you think, you know what racism is because someone used hate slurs to describe you, then you don't know a thing about racism. Words can't hurt you. But bombs can. As can golf clubs. Guns can. Shopping carts can.
Look at yourselves... destroying property, vandalism... why? What good does it do? Do you think about those of us who live here and are left behind after you get done trashing things, and you back to the safety of your homes, where the worst thing you have to deal with is people calling you dirty words?
... we are left behind when you leave, and we are the one who will be hanging from flagpoles, our heads nailed to doors, our homes and churches bombed, by REAL racists, who don't just spout off hate slurs, because they are too busy loading their assault rifles and building bombs.
You don't know what REAL racism is.... if you did, you wouldn't be doing these thing, because you'd know how badly every non-white who lives in a town where there are active Ku Klux Klan members, is going to suffer, because of what you people are doing.
If you REALLY wanted to make a difference... you'd do something to make life safe for families like mine, instead of attacking statues and paintings that are never going to hurt anybody.
#STOP THE HATE!
They hate you.
You hate them.
When does it end?
Stop destroying things and start helping people.
Stop spreading hate and start spreading peace.
We who live with actual racism, we desperately need your help... but what you are doing right now... you are making things even worse for us.
Stop making things worse.
Start making things better.
Spread love and peace, not hate and violence.
Before & After
Damages Done To
The Dazzling Razzberry aka The Autism Awareness Car
What Happened To The Dazzling RazzBerry?
The answer is a vicious streamer on Twitch took to spreading maliciously slanderous sex rumors and lies about me, convincing people that I was what she termed: "A BDSM Dominatrix"
Me, a 5th Generation Mormon Turned Voodoo Priestess Rank of Marija Loa!
An asexual nun living a celibate life!
| A Look At What Happens When So-Called "Pranksters"
Take Their Twitch Chat & DisCord Sex-Jokes Too Far
& Send a Gang of 5 Rapists To My House
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The Deserve To Be Raped Raids & Why I Turned Off Twitch Chat...
How The Avallac'h Playthrough changed my life, caused the destruction of The Dazzling Razzberry Autism Awareness Car, made 28 families homeless, caused the death of a 10 year old
Including a detailed look inside what news media said was "The Worst Child Abuse Case In American History", more info about Etiole, and how growing up in a child sex slavery ring caused my to start The Avallac'h Playthrough - [NSFW] |
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I Now Hold The World Record
For The Highest Level Ever Achieved in Witcher 3!!
If This Video Is Active, I'm Live Streaming Right Now...
WARNING:
Avallac'h & Ciri Shipping Happens Daily In My Cult of Avallac'h Stream
(This seems to piss people off so we seem to need to provide a warning about it)
For those asking if I'm ever going to return to Twitch streaming... I don't know at this point. I'm sick of the harassment.
It's been 2 years since I last did a stream when ThingyChan DID NOT send her group of shithead dipshits to my chat to chant "deserved to be raped" and "kill eelkat".... she has done it with 712 of my streams so far and blocking her and her 800 dipshit cultist followers do no good because they create new throwaway accounts as fast as I block and ban them.
That was bad enough, but she also made 200+ VODs each 4 to 7 hours long, that do nothing but spread highly sexualized malicious lies about me, in which she made the false accusation calling me a "bondage freak", a "BDSM dominatrix", and claiming I had a "foot fetish".
Her running gag memes on Discord are out of control, and not having a Discord myself, I was unaware of them. She started a trend, where if anyone, anywhere, talking about anything, said the word "BDSM", "bondage" or "foot fetish", everyone who read it was to reply in the comments below it "just like EelKat".
Additionally, she built up this massive post-written-rpg-fan-fiction of me, while claiming it was 100% true, depicting me as a whip carrying, pleather wearing, BDSM dominatrix, strip dancer, porn star, who own a gang bang house for men to pay money to be tortured by me.
This went on for 2 full years on Discord before I found out about it, and spanned over 2,000+ Discord posts, JUST WRITTEN BY HER, and not including the many, many, many TENS OF THOUSANDS of posts written by her fans, including her 150+ of which where she used the line: "EelKat is a cunt for liking that pussy Avallac'h".
One of the worst things she did, was to take the horrifying sexual, child abuse I suffered through at the hands of my uncles, and take word for word, line by line, EVERYTHING my uncles dd to me as a child, and make memes of Avallac'h doing those things to Ciri, knowing full well Avallac'h and Ciri and my favorite characters and that my obsession with Avallac'h is in part psychiatric prescribe therapy to use as a coping mechanism for dealing with the abuse I went through at the hands of my pedophile uncles.
On Twitch, she made an active stalking habit of finding very-pro-fundy-Christian groups, telling them her wild sex lies about me, working them into violent attack mode frenzies, and then siccing them on my channel chanting in my chat the message "deserve to be raped" and "kill eelkat". This went on from August 2018.
The worst thing though was sending 5 gang rapists with guns to my house. They totaled 3 cars including my Dazzling Razzberry, raped 2 military wives in the apartment next door to mine, killed a 10 year old boy, beat up and hospitalized 3 elderly men including my 82 year old dad who they put in the hospital with a ruptured kidney, and did $230,000 in damages to our landlord's apartment building, resulting in the city condemning the building, making 28 families homeless, which is why my family moved February 2019.
For the longest time, I was baffled and puzzled by the wild hate that was daily posted in my Twitch chat, from people who were clearly being sent to my channel, pre-worked up, and in a mass hoard, but I could not understand who was sending them or why.
I discovered ThingyChan as being the source of the harassment, on October 21, 2019, when I saw one of her live streams, where she was making a 3d model of a character who she titled "Bjorn The Bondage Freak Just Like EelKat". I had started watching the stream, to find out why my name was in the title. I watched for 3 hours while she and OutSideLane, another streamer on a multi-stream, and 37 members in her chat, and as many more in his chat, in total over 90 people, spent the entirety of the stream talking about my supposed BDSM bondage sex life and how they should make the 3D model Bjorn do the things I supposedly did.
The other streamer suddenly stopped talking and told ThingyChan: "EelKat's in your viewer list, let's take this to Discord" at which point they ended the multi stream.
So, I went to Discord to see what moving it to Discord meant and that's when I found the 2 year long running gag, the 2,000+ posts, and the 200+ VODs.
Among the VODs was one that she did on my birthday August 13, 2019, that was a JackBox stream, and was fully devoted to making 5 hours of lewd, sexualized jokes about me and Avallac'h, and had over 300 people in chat joining in.
When I contacted her to ask why she was doing this... her answer was: "Because it's fun!", "It's just a joke!" and "Besides, retarded cunts don't belong on Twitch".
Jokes are funny. Nothing about what she did is funny. Everything about what she did was mean and hurtful.
And jokes don't cause harm. Two women were raped. A boy died. 3 elderly men were hospitalized. 3 cars were totaled. 28 families were made homeless. The landlord lost his business.
Those are some pretty BIG side effects for "just a joke".
What she did was mean, cruel, and far from harmless.
She has taken her "meme joke" harassment to levels of mind boggling extremes and, I'm just sick of it. She is out of control and she needs to stop.
I would like to be able to stream on Twitch without this psychotic bitch and her equally psychotic followers harassing me, each and every single stream.
I'm not bothering her, I don't know why she is bothering me.
I want her to leave me alone.
Evil is as evil does.
This is a perfect example of an evil person, doing evil things.
Bullies don't care, because bullies are mean and mean people care about no one.
These people are very, very, very mean.
August 2, 2020 UPDATE TO the above...
Twitch has now taken action against the attacks on my Twitch channel, so I may return to streaming soon...
Jokes can get you banned from Twitch, yes. One streamer spent the past 2 years "telling jokes" about me on their stream and discord, only I was unaware of it. Their followers started spreading the joke on other social medias.
The joke was telling people that I, a hijab wearing, modesty dressed Mormon, was a BDSM dominatrix running a gang bang service out of my house. The joke became a running gag, that involved more than 800 people across more than a dozen websites. In total more then 800 viewers helped this group of streamers slander my name with sex lies about me. They started "the joke" in April 2018, but I wouldn't find out about it for a very long time.
February 2019 -- 5 men with guns and baseball bats showed up at my apartment building... they raped 2 women, they beat up a lot of people, 3 elderly men, including my 82-year-old dad ended up in the hospital, my dad with a ruptured kidney, 3 cars in the driveway were totaled, including my daily driver, they smashed out the windows and walls of the building ripped out pipes and wires, did $230,000 in damages to the building... it was a medical building next door to a hospital, patients on life support and their families lived there... they ran through pulling out life support equipment... a 10 year old boy died because of it... the town condemned the building the damage was so bad, resulting in 28 families, becoming homeless .... it happened during a stream, so part of it was caught on live stream and the police got 300+ 911 calls from countries all over the world, reporting the attack.... the guys when arrested, said a streamer on Twitch, via her Discord, sent them, told them I was a BDSM dominatrix and that all the apartments in my apartment building with gang bang shops.... that's how I found about the "joke"... via the police report.
There's a big lawsuit going on right now, with everyone involved. 2 streamers are now in prison, several viewers are in jail or out on bail, more will likely follow.
The FBI is investigating every streamer and every viewer involved in the "joke".
And 2 weeks ago (July 2020) Twitch banned more than 70 of the people involved, including more than 20 streamers. The 800 viewers involved in the joke have also all received various forms of Twitch bans and suspensions.... for "just a joke" that in some cases they said only once, as long ago as 2 years ago, and not even on Twitch.
Do not underestimate something being "just a joke" and the consequences you could face for "just a joke".
*(The investigation into this is still ongoing. If you have information on any of the people involved in inciting this event, FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the
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I have Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism, not Aspergers), which means I'm not good at group things. I'm classified as Savant, meaning I have a few things that I obsess about, big time, and have world records in them as a result, and everything else in my life I still require a caretaker to help me with.
I was believed to be mute until I was 31 years old, when a college professor whose day job was working with Autism children, meet me at an Autism Awareness event (I own The Autism Awareness Car, which has 2.5million marbles glued to it - took 4 years to build it). He spent several years teaching me to talk and I was able to get a GED at age 37 (I had never been allowed to go to school as Autism in the 1970s = too retarded to be taught anything so why bother? It was assumed I couldn't be taught, so no one tried to, until I was 31 years old), and started college at age 42.
Today in addition to being a rabid gamer, I'm also an artist (acrylic on canvas and watercolor on rag) sell my art in local galleries, I build art cars and installation art, published over 130 Dark Fantasy novels, and became a retail merchandiser for Macy's, WalMart, and HallMark for 16 years because I'm very good at organizing things... I can't do much else, but I can certainly make sure nothing on the sales floor is out of place.
On Twitch I'm known for my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it removing and making my own... I rewrote Witcher 3, removed Geralt and Roach and the combat system, and build my own player character, made travel companions, wrote a new combat system, made new quests, made new maps... removed all the texture files and made all new ones. There's nothing in Witcher 3 that I have not rewritten. With over 4,000 mods now made for it, you can barely recognize my game as being Witcher 3 anymore.... and yet I can't read C++ code.
I spent my childhood and teen years, being told I would never amount to anything. I proved them all wrong.
People see the things I do very well (art, writing, my exemplary organization skills in retail stores, and my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it and making my own) but they often don't see past that.
Social skills are a thing I've not yet mastered, which makes streaming very difficult for me as, chat is sensory overload and I have it turned off. I also can't count, do Math, tell time, use calendars, use money, numbers are lost on me.
Basic things - bathing, eating, brushing my hair, etc - that most people have no trouble with, I have caretakers who have to help me do those thing, even though I'm 20, 30, 40 years older than my caretakers. I am VERY low-functioning, but I can write, I can paint, I disect video games, and I can organize things. I just can't do one thing else. Which is very upsetting, because I wish I could. I try too. I don't know why I can't. It's like there are a few things in my brain turned all the way up on super high and everything else is just turned off and won't come on.
And then there are issues with meltdowns, screaming fits, panic attacks, bad ones. Bad enough that I generally avoid contact with the public, simply because I'm tired of dealing with the police. Someone my age, screaming on the floor, people assume I'm on drugs and call the police. It's very frustrating, because I can not control these attacks and I can't stop them once they start.
It is extremely distressing, I'm insanely good at a few things, but everything else, things most of society doesn't bat an eye at, I can't do them, no matter how hard I try. And I'm not capable of "acting properly" or "behaving in socially acceptable ways".
Most people when they meet me in real life, they are very taken back, by how extremely disabled I am. Fans of my novels, meet me at book signings and ask: "So, what's the joke, what's this retard doing here, where's the author?" They refuse to believe, someone as deeply retarded as me, is capable of writing novels.
It hurts a lot, people's reactions to meeting me and them finding out the reality of what ACTUAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, is really like... and that it's NOTHING like Asperger's, with it's "cute Sheldon Cooper quirks" that they are used to and think of as being Autism.
They forget, people with Asperger's can live normal lives, they can pass for normal in public if they have too, they get married and have families, and I'm not capable of living on my own or without caretakers, and I never will be.
I wish more people knew the difference between Aspergers and Autism, and how vastly different they are from each other. Far too many people hear that I have Autism, and they automatically assume I have Aspergers, and then they meet me in person, and are shocked, horrified, and they tell me they've meet dozens, sometimes hundreds of Aspies, and when they meet me, they say, they realize, they've NEVER seen Autism before, in spite of all the hundreds of Aspies they've met, and then they tell me, they wish they had known, they wished someone had told them, how starkly different Autism is from Aspergers, because they always say, no matter how many Aspies they worked with, it never prepared them to come face to face with ACTUAL REAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, for the first time.
1 in 3 children have Aspergers, it's very common, but only 1 in 1,200,000 children have Autism, it's very rare. In the wake of the mass flood of people calling Asperger's Autism, people forget how incredibly rare actual Autism really is. They aren't the same thing and until you've seen both side by side, you don't realize how different they really are.
People forget WHY I became such a good writer. I was mute for 31 years. Writing was the only way I could communicate with anyone. But I grew up in a family that crumpled up the paper, never even looked at it. In their minds I was too stupid to talk and therefore anything I wrote on paper MUST have been gibberish. They didn't even look at it. So I wrote letters to the cats that lived with us. I started doing that when I was 8 years old. I still do it 50+ years later.
But I'm not likely to be much use in a group, as outside of writing, art, video games, and organizing sale floors of retail stores, I'm too retarded to be able to do anything else. I'm rarely welcomed in groups, because I'm too retarded, too Autistic to fit in, or so I'm always told. I'm rarely of any use to anyone.
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Wait... you're that freak that brought otherkin to the internet aren't you? You're like the founder of online otherkin awareness movement or something.
Yes.
I am.
I did on some level introduce OtherKin, or rather, ElfKin, to the internet in 1996.
I am considered to be one of, if not the VERY FIRST OtherKin to grace the internet.
Though, I am ElfKin, not OtherKin. They are different.
I completely reject Humanity.
I live my life, as an Elf.
I have done so, since 1987.
As of 2020, I have lived as an Elf for 33 years.
I hate Humans.
I feel no empathy, sympathy, or compassion for Humans.
I see Humans as vile, evil creatures, whom I share no connection to.
I feel nothing but revulsion for Humans.
There has never been a point in my life when a Human showed me any kindness, love, or compassion.
I have been tortured, beaten, caged, raped, shunned, outcast, ostracized, and bullied endlessly by Humans.
The Humans who raised me, kept me locked in a cage from the time I was 8, until I was 31 years old. They said they did so because I was not a Human and was not allowed to participate in Human activities like eating at the table, sleeping on a bed, using a toilet, or bathing. They said I was a Changeling, brought to them by Demons. They claimed the real Human baby was taken from them, and I was a Demon left in it's place. And while I agreed with them, that I had no similarities to their Human nature, I did not believe myself a Demon either.
I was 31 years old the first time anyone told me I was a Human. But no one has yet been able to prove to me that I possess the evilness of Humans.
Unlike Humans, I feel love.
Unlike Humans, I feel pain.
Unlike Humans, I shed tears.
Unlike Humans, I feel empathy.
Unlike Humans, I feel sympathy.
Unlike Humans, I feel compassion.
I have tried for 40 years, to live among Humans, but I've yet to meet a Human that will accept me as a part of their society.
I have never been welcomed by any Human.
I have never been accepted by any Human.
The older I get and the more Humans I meet, the crueler I learn that they are, the stronger my hatred for the entirety of Humanity grows.
I searched for years to find out, what I was, where I fit in, where I belonged, for everywhere I went, I was repeatedly told I was too strange, too bizarre, too different, too alien, too not-Human to be welcomed in any group, any church, and community, offline or online.
Since I was a toddler I felt a strong kinship to Eels and Cats, thus my name. My Native American grandmother named me EelKat when I was 3 years old, citing that Eels and Cats were my spirit animals.
My other grandmother called me FarSighted, because I talked to ArchAngels and Faeries in the forest. She said I walked through the veil between the Spirit World. She died when I was 8 years old.
As I grew older, and continued to be ostracized by all of Human society, I started researching the things Grammy Eva and Grammy Helen has said: Spirit Animals, Fairy Sighted, and Walking the Veil. That is when I realized, everyone was right... my parents, my uncles, everyone at every church I ever attended, random strangers I meet on the streets... every one, every single Human, as always said, I either was not Human, didn't act Human, or seemed to be Alien to Human Society, like I came from another world.
The Humans who raised me, kept me locked in a cage from the time I was 8, until I was 31 years old. They said they did so because I was not a Human and was not allowed to participate in Human activities like eating at the table, sleeping on a bed, using a toilet, or bathing. They said I was a Changeling, brought to them by Demons. They claimed the real Human baby was taken from them, and I was a Demon left in it's place. And while I agreed with them, that I had no similarities to their Human nature, I did not believe myself a Demon either. And decades later, after researching, I feel they were right.
The more I studied, the more I realized, everything I do that Humans say is strange and bizarre, things like love, feeling pain, shedding tears, empathy, sympathy, or compassion, those things Humans are incapable of doing, that I do and brand me as starkly notHuman, they were all things the Ljósálfar do.
So I researched the Ljósálfar. They do many thing I do, that Humans find to be my most deplorable traits: like growing flowers, being vegan, and not hurting animals, shunning drinking of alcohol, smoking, drugs, or owning weapons.
I eventually came to believe I am an Elf trapped in the world of Humans, as some sort of test.
No. I do not believe I am Human.
Yes. I do believe I am an Elf.
Yes, I AM that "freak" who introduced the internet to the concept of OtherKin, via ElfKin, in 1996.
Yes, I am the textbook standard, found in actual medical books, used by Psychiatry students, yes, those are photos of me you see in your college textbooks and in the Journal of Psychiatry entry. I am the first one diagnosed and therefore the standard by which all OtherKin are measured.
Yes, I am the measure by which all OtherKin around the world measure if they too are OtherKin or not. But I wonder how many of them, know the origin of the term OtherKin and how many of them would call themselves that label is the ACTUALLY KNEW, the ACTUAL origin and meaning of the word?
OtherKin is not a label I use to call myself. The term OtherKin was coined by team of Psychiatrists, who didn't know what else to call me. They classified me at first as "a Feral Child with Learned Schizophrenia", citing that while I didn't have Schizophrenia, all 5 of the uncles and their father, who raised me did have Schizophrenia and because I was raised in total isolation with zero contact with anyone outside of these men, I was raised as though what they were was normal because I had no outside source by which to judge that how they raised children was not normal, nor was how they lived their lives normal. I was told by these Psychiatrists, that once I got out in Human society and found out what mainstream society was like, I would see, how different, how unique, how bizarre, and how unusual and not the norm, my uncles were.
I have lived among mainstream society for 33 years now and I have yet to meet a kind, loving, friendly Human.
This group of Social Workers, Psychologists, and Psychiatrists, coined the term OtherKin, because they said there was nothing I conformed to, no textbook illness that matched what I was. They toyed with the idea of diagnosing me many different ways because they said that on the surface I seemed like this or that, but then, comparing all the symptoms, I never fully matched up.
Schizophrenia didn't stick because there were no voices in my head telling me what to do. After tossing out the option of Schizophrenia, they tried out Multiple Personality Disorder and also Dissociative Identity Disorder. But, I don't have multiple people I become. Both of those have the requirement of becoming someone else, another person. MPD you are unaware of the other people "living in you" while DID you are fully aware of the "other people" and communicate with them and likely have a lot of past life experiences. I don't believe in past lives or reincarnation or being multiple people inside of one mind. I dress up in costumes of characters, but I never try to be that character, I simply like to wear their pretty clothes.
They tried considering Asperger's for a bit, but I missed many, many, many a mark there.
In the end my official diagnosis is: Actual Autism Kanner's Syndrome, with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and SchizoAffective or maybe Schizotypal tendencies, I can't tell, and the most bizarre behaviour of refusing to believe she is Human, largely because she was raised in an isolated UFO Cult that raised her as a Demon from infancy to middle age. She has many phobias most notable a severe and disturbing phobia of Humans in general and Men in particular. There is no correct diagnosis for her. She is unique. This is a unique case. I am putting in a request to the State for funding to study her. This is something new. This needs to be studied. We are witnessing the side effect of child who was raised in total isolation. A child that was never loved, never kissed, never hugged, never showed empathy, sympathy, or compassion. She feels nothing for Humans. She does not believe she is Human. There has never been a documented case like this before. This is the worse case of child abuse in American history.
I did not found any "OtherKin Awareness Groups" as is the common internet misconception. I don't even use the term OtherKin. It's a label OTHERS slap on me, as further proof that I don't belong in Human society, am not Human enough to fit in, not Human enough to be welcomed, not Human enough to be included. That's all the label OtherKin means to me. Yet more proof that Humans hate me, see me as not Human, and feel the need to put a label on me.
But I am the standard by which all who claim to be OtherKin, measure if each other is OtherKin or not, because I am the textbook case, the original test subject, that caused Psychiatrists to coin the term OtherKin, so most people believe I am the "first" OtherKin, even though groups like The Silver Elves existed in the 1970s, long before the FBI raid that rescued me from one of the Heaven's Gate compounds.
No. I do not try to bring awareness to the "OtherKin Movement". OtherKin is a psychological disorder that for some odd reason, teens and young adults, think of as some sort of roleplaying, cosplaying movement. They don't know what it is. They never looked up any medical journals or psychiatry textbooks. They change what they are on a whim, a Vampire today because they love Twilight, a Witcher tomorrow because they saw the NetFlix series, SpiderMan next week after they watch that movie. They don't know what OtherKin is. It's not a fandom. It's not roleplay. It's not dressing up. And you're a fool if think that's what it is.
People get the misconception that it is roleplaying and cosplaying because I am prone to dress up in elaborate costumes. I like their clothes. It's as simple as that. I'm trying to be them. I don't roleplay them. I don't pretend I am them. I simply like to wear their clothes, in the exact same way, every teenage girl in school has to wear the same t-shirt as her best friend.
When the OtherKin diagnosis was coined, I didn't yet wear costumes. I'd never seen TV or movies or video games. I'd never been to school or doctors. I had no point of reference for what any of these characters would have looked like. The wearing of elaborate costume came about almost a decade AFTER Psychiatrists coined the term OtherKin to describe me.
OtherKin, was referencing my refusal to accept the fact that I was Human, when Social Workers, Psychologists, and Psychiatrists tried to convince me that I was not a Changeling Demon switched at birth like the adults who raised me had taught me to believe.
OtherKin, was referencing the fact that my combined hatred for and phobia of Humans was so great that I had no ability to believe I was a Human, when they told me I was.
OtherKin, it's ACTUAL Journal of Psychiatry definition, is very simply: The belief that one is not Human and is something other than Human. That's what OtherKin means.
Anyone who tells you OtherKin is anything else, has no clue what OtherKin is, knows nothing about it's history, knows nothing about how the term was coined, and is completely clueless about OtherKin in general.
People like to come in saying things like: "Well, because I think OtherKin is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of OtherKin to include ___"
No. OtherKin is an ACTUAL MEDICAL DISORDER... you don't walk into a doctors office and say:
- "Well, because I think Cancer is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of Cancer to include ___"
- "Well, because I think Asthma is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of Asthma to include ___"
- "Well, because I think being stung by a bee is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of being stung by a bee to include ___"
- "Well, because I think broken bones are about ___ I think we should change the meaning of broken bones to include ___"
- "Well, because I think Influenza is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of Influenza to include ___"
- "Well, because I think Diabetes is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of AIDS to include ___"
- "Well, because I think SmallPox is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of SmallPox to include ___"
Now can you now see how utterly stupid and idiotic people are when they say: "Well, because I think OtherKin is about ___ I think we should change the meaning of OtherKin to include ___"?
And, no, OtherKin is not the thing where, you wake up one morning and feel like wearing a cat ears headband, so that therefore makes you a cat.
The problem with OtherKin is there is far too much misinformation out there about what OtherKin is, written largely by know-nothing 10 year old children who couldn't tell their ass from a hole in the ground, and think that because they want to wear a headband with cat ears, that gives them to authority to rewrite the definition of medical illnesses.
OtherKin is a mental disorder. It's not a movement. Not a trend. Not a fad. But for some reason, in the last 20 years or so, people have thought it "cool" to "be OtherKin" so, they jumped on a bandwagon to try to be something that they really had no idea what it actually was.
Today, because, thanks to Tumblr and Instagram, OtherKin is now interchangeable with Furries and CosPlay, the OFFICIAL diagnosis of the Mental Illness as listed in the Journal of Psychiatry has been changed from OtherKin to Species Dysphoria, to definasciate from the the actual mental illness of not believing one is Human and the current fad trend of dressing up roleplaying.
People who say I started a movement or awareness groups or claim I try to bring awareness to the OtherKin movement, have no clue who or what I am and are talking out their asses. They don't know me. They do not speak for me. And they certainly don't understand me or how I live my life.
What's your thought on fictionkin? Do you think fictionkin is valid? I'm just a bit curious to know. Personally I think it's really neat! Is that what you do?
No.
I am not FictionKin.
I am EelKin turned ElfKin, according to people who believe in Kinship.
I don't move in OtherKin circles, groups, or communities.
I am considered the "first" or "original" OtherKin, by many in the "OtherKin community" and I hate it, because I have never identified as OtherKin and deeply dislike labels being slapped onto me by vile Humans who try translate what they think I am.
What are labels? A label is simply a way to point at someone and say: "they are not Human enough to be accepted in society". That's all any label is.
And that is all any Human has ever done to me. Label me as this, label me as that.
Never once has ANY Human, ever thought to look at me as another Human, as another member of society, as a potential friend.
Because I am technically "the first" OtherKin, seeing how I was the patient in question, when the team of Social Workers, Psychologists, and Psychiatrists coined the term. I am a patient who was undiagnosable and had "something new", and "OtherKin" was the working title. But because I am technically "the first" OtherKin, I am constantly being contacted by founders, creators, and moderators of groups, forums, subreddits, Discords, FaceBook groups, and other various assorted online communities. I don't know why. I think they see me as a "celebrity" in terms of OtherKin. I'm supposedly the "ideal OtherKin" whom others try to be like.
But... I'm not trying to "be" anything. I don't even call myself OtherKin or ElfKin or EelKin or UnicornKin or CatKin or FoxKin, all of those being types of Kins that people has used to describe me.
I accept the invites and then never post in their communities or groups, because I find myself incredibly uncomfortable around most people who call themselves "OtherKin", because 99.9% of the ones I've encountered are very clearly teenagers and young kids in their 20s who are just trying to be part of a club. They don't actually have post traumatic stress disorder, they know nothing about child abuse or rape, or witnessing multiple murders, or trying to cope with being raised in a cage from the age of 8 years old to 31 years old while also being raised to believe you were a demo, because the adults in your life had schizophrenia and couldn't tell the difference between children and demons. They don't know what it is like to be 31 years old the first time any one ever suggested to you that you might actually be a human, and everything the adults taught you about your lack of Humanity was a lie.
When I accept the invites to join these groups, I go there, hoping to find others like myself, who were never Human, not once from their time of birth. I go there hoping to find others like myself, who were rejected by Humans from the day they were born. But all I ever find are happy go lucky juvenile delinquents rebelling by wearing cat-ear headbands while licking milk out of a bowl. They ENJOY pretending to be animals. They have fun, partying in their fur tails. They have no trauma. They know nothing about OtherKin and it's origins. What OtherKin is or how the word got coined.
The bulk of them are just a group of kids looking for a party where they can dress up in costumes. Only this and nothing more. And that is not OtherKin. Not even close.
Now, that is not to say there is anything wrong with what you are, no matter what you are or how you identify. Your identity is certainly valid and should be acknowledged. I'm not saying it's invalid or should be pushed aside or ignored. What I'm saying is, chances are very high that what you are classifying as OtherKin, is not in fact OtherKin.
That's the problem with online OtherKin communities. They spread far too much misinformation and leave actual, correct information spread far too thin and this leads to a lot of confusion.
The thing is I AM the ACTUAL MEDICAL, psychiatric definition of OtherKin, and it's incredibly rare to the point that fewer then 100 people have ever, EVER been diagnosed with it EVER. Fewer then 100 people in all of the millions of years of this Earth having existed. That's not many people.
And yet, there are MILLIONS of OtherKin, so called, self proclaimed OtherKin just on Tumblr, and not a one of them has a clue what OtherKin even is and that's painfully obvious.
The problem with the invites to join these groups, is I'm not what they think I am. They expect me to be a roleplaying party animal like them and I'm not.
And the fact remains - I hate Humans, and they are just Humans dressed like cats and dogs.
Let me repeat this: I HATE HUMANS.
I WISH HUMANS WOULD DIE. ALL OF THEM. I HATE THEM.
And you want me to join your little group of pretenders? I hate every one of you and you think ha-ha oh she's being in character.
No.
I really do hate Humans.
No Human has EVER given me a reason to think otherwise.
No Human has ever been my friend.
Not one.
Not Ever.
None.
Every Human I have ever met, pretends to be my friend for a few days, then they turn into cruel, hateful, backstabbing bastards.
Humans are incapable of love, friendship, compasion, sympathy.
Humans are evil.
Humans are cruel.
Humans are sadistic.
Humans enjoy hurting others.
Humans are hateful creatures who do nothing hurt everyone in their path.
And if you don't understand THAT, well, Honey, then you CERTAINLY Are NOT OtherKin.
OtherKin is not about your spiritual awakening, your identification with an animal guide... OtherKin is the hatred of Humans, on levels so extreme, that wish all Humans would die.
OtherKin is about you NOT being Human and seperating yourself from Humans because Humans are pieces of shit.
Humans can not be trusted.
Never turn your back on a Human.
Humans lie.
Humans cheat.
Humans steal.
Humans murder.
Humans torture.
There is NOTHING good in a Human.
And if you are ACTUAL, REAL, MEDICALLY DIAGNOSED as OtherKin, then I don't need to tell you that, because you already know evil Humans are.
Humans exist to kill, steal, and destroy. Only this and nothing more. There is nothing else in Humanity.
And the online OtherKin Communities who send me invites to join them.... I've yet to encounter one, single, solitary, actual, real, medically diagnosed OtherKin in any of them. And I've checked them all, and encountered well over a million people who claim to be OtherKin.
I go there are look, in hopes that one day, i will find someone, like myself, who is not Human and has never been accepted by Humans. But there is no one like me. Not surprising, seeing how in all the milinia of the Earth, fewer then 100 people have ever been diagnosed.
And the online OtherKin Communities who send me invites to join them....They do what everyone does and start rumors about me, gossiping among themselves about what they THINK I am, and they build up fanfiction, fantasy worlds about me, that have no basis in reality. They hyped up and excited, fall in love with the fictional version of me that they created in their heads, and then find themselves deeply disapointed when they actually talk to me for the first time and find out that 100% of everything they liked about me, was just fiction made up them, themselves.
Labels. They label me into a group and they love the IDEA of me as that label in that group, but then, meeting me shatters their fantasies about me, when they realize, I'm not what they told themselves I was.
That's the problem with OtherKin and people who call me OtherKin.
You see, they think I'm joking when I say I hate Humans, but I could show you a copy of my psychological evaluation, and the entire section, where the psychiatrist worried about my server homicidal desire to kill all Humans.
I'm not joking when I tell you, that if you act even remotely Human in my presence, I will pull a brick out of my tote bag and smash your jaw in. I've done it many times.
My psychological evaluation, has a full section, of worries that I show no empathy for Humans on any level what so ever, to the point of extreme Sociopathy. Yes, that's a word in my evaluation.
Far too many people look at my being the original "OtherKin" patient, and don't read the full report. They giddy with joy, thinking I'm play acting, role playing, pretending. I'm not. I don't joke. I never joke. Do you know why? I'll tell you why.
My uncles, while beating me in the face with a shovel when I was 8, or breaking my jaw with a cinder block brick when I was 14, or stabbing my arms with forks when I was 4, or driving a 2 foot long foundation nail through my hip leaving me crippled ever since I was 6 years old, or cutting the bottoms of my feet with rusted saw blades when I was 13.... or any of the hundreds of similar things they did.... while they did it, they always said the same thing: "It's just a joke, hahahahahahahaha!", "I'm only joking, hahahahahahaha!"
I have scars all over my body.... scars from wounds that bled for days. Wounds that should have been seen by a doctor. Wounds, that they filled with maggots, because they kept maggots in jars for that reason.
Do you know what it feels like to have you hands chained to cinder blocks, and forks driven into your arms with a hammer, that drove the tines in all the way to the bone, another fork put in, the wound torn open, and maggots poured in, as the adults around you laughed and slapped each other on the back over the good fun joke they were doing, because, the 5 year old girl they are torturing, is not Human, so it doesn't matter, because she's just a changeling left behind by Demons who took the real child. Have you ever watched maggots crawl under your skin then chew their way back out. And finally pass out hours later, and be left there unconscious for days in pools of your own blood. And when you wake up, the adults are disapointed, that you, the Demon Changeling is still alive.
That's what I grew up with.
I was 31 years old when the FBI raid rescued me.
My entire first 31 years of life, was spent being daily tortured, daily told it was okay, because I wasn't Human anyways.
The end result is the only thing in my mind that is more evil then rape and murder, is a joke.
And you'll find out how fast I beat you to a pulp if you dare say word joke in my presence. A joke is the only thing more triggering to me than rape.
Still think you are OtherKin or you know anything about me and my life, how much I hate Humans, or the fact that OtherKin was a term created by Psychiatrists, as a working title to diagnose me, the child who survived "the world child abuse case in American history"?
Yeah. the "OtherKin Community" has a vastly warped view of who I am, and why I'm the way I am.
When you ask me questions about OtherKin and CosPlay and RolePlay... and worse, when you try to sexualize anything about me or make mems about me and say you are just joking... you just make me hate Humans even more. Because you can call yourself OtherKin all you want, but you, running around playing and joking and laughing and smiling, you forget, I don't do any of those things.
Jokes. Laughing. Smiling..... I see those things as a threat and a reason to fight back. And clearly the OtherKin Community knows nothing of trauma, torture, and abuse at the hands of Humans.
OtherKin, it's ACTUAL Journal of Psychiatry definition, is very simply: The belief that one is not Human and is something other than Human. That's what OtherKin means.
If you believe something, you have no doubts, so you would never ask "Am I OtherKin?".
I have yet to find an OtherKin on any online community, who TRULY BELIEVED they were not Human. They will tell you they feel connected, they say they no longer want to be Human. Most acknowledge themselves as the spirit of a non-Human living in a Human body.
Answer me this... how can you stop being Human if you don't believe you are Human? Only someone who believes they are Human would say they want to stop being Human.
They build character sheets, detailing the backstory of their alternate being. But if the being IS YOU, then your life, your childhood, your experiance ARE your backstory. If you had to write a character backstory, you are not OtherKin, you are Multiple Personality Disorder or Dissociative Identity Disorder.
OtherKin you are YOU. You are just not Human and not accepted by Humans as Human. You live with Humans and your experiences with them, are very simply the experiences you have every day, and you don't need to sit down and write a backstory. There is no backstory in OtherKin.
Me? I wouldn't know the first thing about feeling Human, because I never was Human. I never had a transition. I never shifted. I never felt the need to STOP being Human, because there was never a point from the day I was born, when anyone ever acknowledge me as being Human.
But, let's answer your question. My email inbox is so full of so many OtherKin questions. Someday I'll get around to answering them. Let's start with your's.
When you ask me about what type of OtherKin I am, it is immediately clear that you know nothing about me, my history, or the history of the origins of the word OtherKin.
The first known group of OtherKin was ElfKin and was The Silver Elves, and the group still exists. They were founded in 1978. I joined them in 1987. I did not remain Silver Elf, as I found more of a connection to Elves in general, and they were a bit more "religion focused" (like they wanted people to obey their set of rules and such, with was too restrictive for me and contrary to how I felt Eves were). Because of the connection to spiritual teachings, in America The Silver Elves are considered a "legally recognized religion" by the Federal government (same as Catholic, Wicca, Baptist, LDS/Mormon, Voodoo, etc are considered as such). They are really connected to the spiritual and religious side of OtherKin and I liked that a lot.
The term OtherKin, was coined in 1997 by a group of Social Workers, Psychologists, and Psychiatrists and was the working title of the mental illness that would eventually become known as Species Dysphoria.
So calling groups like The Silver Elves "OtherKin" is questionable at best, but they are considered by most "OtherKin" to be the first "OtherKin Group", even though their compound was founded in 1978 and the term OtherKin was coined in 1997.
Being older (elderly) and an ElfKin for 40+ years now, I've seen the OtherKin movement evolve and change a lot. There is always something in it that makes me go: "What the f...?"
But there is never a point when I think: "They are not valid because of ____."
It's always just a reaction of more: "Wow! Boy do they have a completely different take on OtherKin than what I've always thought it was."
And then after I think about it I'm: "Yeah, yeah, I can see how they feel that way. Yep, that makes sense."
I think, because I'm a lot older, and got into it via The Silver Elves originally, I end up taking a very spiritual/religious outlook on it, where I see Elves sort of as my "spirit animals" so to speak... and it seems like, more recently, especially in teens and 20s age group, their take on OtherKin is more, like Dissociative Identity Disorder, like they actually believe they REALLY ARE an Elf or Wolf or whatever.
The first time I heard of the new form of OtherKin, the "I'm not a Human, I'm a Dog" type, my mind was: "Wow! That's crazy!" You see, I look at OtherKin as "I'm channeling the spiritual energy of the Dog, not, I literally become a Dog because I don't want to be Human any more." So, at first, I just had a hard time wrapping my mind around the new "Tumblr style" OtherKin. But then, the more I thought about it, the more I realized, no, it's not crazy, because they are doing the same thing I'm ding, they are just doing it differently.
I mean, I use guided meditations and visualizations and oracle cards to connect with the spirit world and it's energy, and for me, connecting to Elf energy and Unicorn energy and ArchAngel energy has always been the best/easiest way for me to do that. And in guided meditation, you often focus on mentally becoming the Elf or Fox or Raven or whatever your spirit guide is, and so yeah, thinking of it that way, suddenly the new style of OtherKin didn't seem crazy to me anymore and I realized, they are just like me, only different.
And then I heard of FictionKin and I was like mind blown. I was like: "OMG, you don't really believe you actually ARE Harry Potter, do you?"
But then almost immediately I was reminded how many times people said to me: "OMG, you don't really believe you actually ARE Lord Sesshomaru, do you?" because I "CosPlayed" him for 9 years... not to conventions, no, I dressed like him 24/7/365 every day for 9 years, around the house, to go shopping, just all day, every day.
People interviewing me about that back in 2005 and 2007 is one of the early things that brought OtherKin to the internet. When people asked why, if I thought I was him, I would say: "No. I'm channeling his energy. I feel more connected to his energy when I dress like him. I'm not trying to be him."
And then I did the same thing with Quaraun for 7 years. And for the past 3 years I've done the same thing with Avallac'h. And yeah, these are fictional characters. Which, I guess, maybe, would cause other people to see me as FictionKin? But they are all Elves, and I am ElfKin and I'm not trying to be or become the Elf in question, rather I feel better able to connect to spiritual Elf energy, when I dress like a fictional Elf from a novel. It's more like I borrowed the Elf's clothes and just wear them.
It's like weighted blankets. They protect you and help you sleep. Same thing. I have PTSD, OCD, Kanner's Syndrome, and Agoraphobia. The longest I have gone without setting foot outside of the house was 15 years.
I was horribly abused by my uncles and several of their male friends from their church as a child and as a result, I developed a crippling fear of Humans in general and Men in particular, and than, as an adult, years later, I was raped and that brought back all the mental trauma memories of what my uncles did, and I don't know what happened, but my mind was just mentally crippled after that, to the point that I locked myself in my room and did not leave it for 15 years.
2006, I went outside for the first time, in 15 years, and I was only able to do so, by wearing a costume of Lord Sesshomaru. When you read the books, he's fearless. He can walk through crowds and he doesn't care who thinks what, and if someone tries to hurt him or his friends, he would never let the attacker hurt them. He's fiercely protective of Rin, the Human girl who travels with him. He has a fearless energy to him. Very powerful fearless energy, and I wanted to feel that.
I wanted to be able to go outside, without being terrified men would hurt me. And I tried for weeks, months, to go outside. I'd get to the door and I'd freeze. A mental block made my body so rigid I couldn't move my feet to get out the door. My agoraphobia was that bad.
So, I started meditating, channel Lord Sesshomaru's energy. And it healed, but it didn't help enough. So I ordered fabric, fur, leather, bolt of silk from Japan, from eBay and Amazon, and I made what went down in history as both the most expensive and most insanely elaborate Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay ever made. And, when I put it on, I was able to walk outside of my house for the first time in 15 years.
It was like, before I channeling his energy, but now, he was there with me. It's the only way I know how to explain it.
I still have severe agoraphobia today. But since 2006, I can go outside, IF, I dress up like an Elf. The stronger the Elf the better. A powerful protecting spirit.
That's why I now CosPlay Avallac'h. There's no one, more protective then he is. It's what he's known for. His fierce protectiveness of Ciri, the Human girl who travels with him is beyond Lord Sesshomaru's protectiveness of Rin. He won't let anyone hurt her. He'll die to to keep her safe. So I retired the Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay and made the Avallac'h CosPlay, my new protecting spirit. An Elf, but also, a Fictional Character.
He's not real. I'm aware he's not real. But that doesn't change the fact that I can draw on his fierce protective energy, to be able to go outside, go shopping, not have to buy everything online or have others buy things for me and deliver it. I can do it myself, dressed like an Elf, but at least I'm outside.
The fact remains, there's never been a real man in my life who DID NOT hurt me. I grew up with drug dealers. Real life gangsters. They killed people. Throughout my childhood and teen years I had witness multiple murders, Brutal. Violent. I was beaten and locked in cages. I watched them kill people, then turn around and threaten to kill me if I ever told anyone.
Today most of them are dead, in prison, or on the run from the FBI. There was never a time in my life when I felt safe, and around men, I felt less safe. There has never been anyone there for me. No mental support. No emotional support. No one to protect me from the men I grew up with, or the gangs they had shot outs with.
I would read books, while hiding under a blanket to try to blockout the screaming and yelling and gun fire. None of the children were allowed to go to school or doctors. We lived on a farm, in the forest, miles from the nearest anything, fenced in and guarded by riflemen. No one had birth certificates or SSNs. No paper trail. No adults outside the clan to turn to for help. I would read books, while hiding under a blanket and praying for someone to please help me. It was none stop terror every day, all day, my entire childhood. Fictional men in books, where my only friends. I was drawn to men who protected children, especially men who protected little girls.
Lord Sesshomaru protected Rin, an 8 year old girl.
Avallac'h protected Ciri, a 12 year old girl.
That's why I was drawn to them. They are strong men who protect little girls from evil men.
This is also why I take such a very strong and heavy offense to anyone trying to sexualize my kinship to either Lord Sesshomaru or Avallac'h.
My attraction to them is not sexual and I do not like people trying to translate it that way.
I see them, more along the lines of ArchAngels. Protectors. Someone you can look to to always be there for you. Someone who will never hurt you. Someone who will keep you safe.
Nothing will make you my enemy faster than you trying to sexualze me, my life, or anything I do. I am asexual, on an extreme anti-sex level. I have an extreme hatred for sex. And if you try to sexualize me or anything I do, you will quickly find yourself branded one of my top most hated people on the planet.
But, yeah, I am myself ElfKin, but you can see why I find no issues with FictionKin. Also, while I tend to lurk in OtherKin communities, I don't see myself as OtherKin, because I see ElfKin and OtherKin as being 2 very different, but also very similar things.
I should also point out that I think of ElfKin and FictionKin as both separate and different from OtherKin, that they are 3 completely different things in my mind, but that none is any less valid then the other and that each of the 3 should be supportive of the other 2.
My thought is, you wouldn't be Kin to anything if you had not suffered through extreme trauma and your Kinship, is your way of coping. For is, after all, nothing more than a mental illness. The concept of Kinship, was created by a group of psychiatrists, to explain people who are not Human, but live in Human society. You can not be Kin to anything and not also be insane. That is a medical fact. And therefore, all Kin are Kin to each other through their insanity, regardless of what type of Kin they are or how they explain their Kinship.
I think of all Kinships this way. Each is distinctly different, but, all are similar enough that each should try to learn from one another and be supportive of each other.
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Witcher 3 Mod List: All the mods I'm using in my Cult of Avallac'h playthrough
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Witcher 3 Mod List: All the mods I am using in my Cult of Avallac'h playthrough
Witcher 3 Mods Currently Used:
Got a request to list what mods I'm using. I've got 800+ mods that I switch back and forth between. Most days I'm running between 45 to 78 mods.
Mens de tegn swap mods er ændret for hver kamp, mest af de generelle gameplay mods jeg har brugt har været den samme / uændret siden min 2. playthrough.
Not all are available online, but here's a list of the ones that are available on Nexus Mods:
- Avalach Lab Music (bug fix if the music vanishes while trashing Avallac'h's lab) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2165
- BootStrap (needed to combine several other normally incompatible mods) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2109
- Chicken Helmets (exactly what it says - puts tin foil hats on the chickens, for no reason at all - the most useless against i use) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/446
- ESGO - Enemy Scaling and Gameplay Overhaul also known as "The Extreme Death March Mod" (WARNING: This is an "overhaul mod" - a MASSIVE game play changer - changes most everything about enemies and massively changes combat - think Death March is easy? This is the mod that changes enemies to have up to 130% additional health, do up to 460% additional damage, and spawn in up to 35 levels above player character - prepare for that, a lot ) https: //www.nexusmods .com / witcher3 / mods / 1185
A lot of mods are incompatible with ESGO because it changes so many files across so much of the game; ef þú getur ekki fengið þetta hleðslu skaltu fjarlægðu ALLA af þínum mods, þá skaltu setja þetta eitt fyrst og endurræsa hvert annað gegn einu, til að athuga hvort það virkar með ESGO; NOTE: I have been able to use ESGO with all the mods listed here, except for those I've specified ESGO is incompatible with; to get ESGO to load with all my other mods at that time. I had to rename the mod file to modzESGO - adding the z to force ESGO to load last on my list of mods. By reordering it to z - last to load - you should be able to use ESGO with most mods)
- Fera Roach: Thunder Charger (makes Roach a Yrden glowing purple unicorn) (This massive mod bundle includes 100+ mods to change Roah into literally any type of horse or unicorn you could imagine) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/ mods / 498
- Geralt Doppler Gwent Fix (needed for GoTy 1.31 because of Geralt Doppler incompatibility with 1.31) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2511
- GiveMeACard (gives you a card after EVERY gwent game - how I have such a huge deck - this against overrides the gwent card limit, thus how do I have 27 ghouls in my monster deck (instead of 4), 7 O'Dimm cards or 3) and 10 Shieldmaidens in my Different deck (instead of 3); If you play a lot or Gwent, like I do, you'll soon have 100+ extra cards and a very OP deck; WARNING: This is considered a " cheat against "if you have issues using cheat mods, you'll want to avoid this one) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2004
- Iorveth (A texture mod; this only changes what certain characters look like; changes Roche and Ves into Iorveth and Saskia) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2053
- Iorveth (or Roche) (A texture mod; this only changes what certain characters look like; use with the Ioreth against above to turn anyone into the game to Iorveth) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2066
- Iorveth's Blue Stripes to Scoia'tael (A texture mod; this only changes what certain characters look like; changes Blue Stripes members into Scoia'tel elves) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2066
- Iorveth's Hans or Cidaris Camp to Scoia'tael Camp (A texture mod; this only changes what certain characters look like; The Creature from Oxenfurt Forest and Open Sesame! Quests) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2066
- Iorveth's Scooby Tail in Toussaint (A texture mod; Three only tanks in Toussaint are now Scooby Camps (Arthach Palace Ruins, Mont Crane Castle, Fox Hollow Cave) https: // www. nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2066
- Leveling Gear (basically this is the feature you get in NG + that makes your gear level with you - I have it because my game suffers from the NG + bug) https: //www.nexusmods .com / witcher3 / mods / 2120 (NOTE: Incompatible with ESGO; remove when using ESGO)
- LootBagsGlow (good if you are color blind or have vision issues) - I'm blind in one eye so often miss loot due to vision issues) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3050
- Long Journey - Extended (Limited Fast Travel) (WARNING: Game changing overhaul mod; Disables fast travel between signposts except cross-region and some logically needed travels.) Https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1630
Med denne moden kan du kun flytte til og fra disse steder
- Vyzima -> Hanged Man's Tree (Many)
- Novigrad docks <-> Kaer Trolde Harbor (Different)
- Vyzima <-> Nilfgaardian camp on south (Many)
- Vyzima <-> Woesong Bridge (White Orchard)
- Nilfgaardian camp on south (Many) <-> Woesong bridge (White Orchard)
- Brunwich (Hearts of Stone village) <-> Kaer Morhen
- Hanged Man's Tree <-> Kaer Morhen
- Cackler bridge (White Orchard) <-> Kaer Morhen
- Plegmund's Bridge (Toussaint) <-> Vyzima
- Plegmund's Bridge (Toussaint) <-> Novigrad nilf big camp on south
- MapQuestObjectivesFull (puts ALL markers on maps, even optional ones - handy if you decided to remove the mini-map like I did) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/943
- Merged Free DLC - Mod Limit FIX (This is a repackaging of the 16 free DLC. This package merges 45 bundles and caches into 3, which should allow to greatly increase the mod limit.) Https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3 / mods / 3334
- Patch 1.31 Scripts (how I'm able to use 1.10, 1.15, 1.20, and 1.30 mods on my 1.31 game) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2134
- QuestNudity (replaces Wild Nudity, which crashed after the 1.31-A update; makes all females in game nude; if the women are running around naked, this is the one I've been turned on; NOTE: This mod is HUGE and LOAD HUNDREDS of new texture files in the game - if you are running into blob0.bound issues aka are hitting the so-called "mod limit", removing this mod will usually fix the problem; because this mod takes up so much "space" you You will have to remove most or even all of your blob0.bound style mods to make this against work. ) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3136
- Raddy's New Lodge of Sorceresses (Changes to King Radovid, Phillipa, Margarita, Yen, Triss, Keria, and Fringilla) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/ 2703
- RandomEncounters (use only if you think Death March with Enemy Upscaling is not difficult enough for you - makes game harder by adding lots of Death March Enemy Upscaled monsters into your life - WARNING - this is a gameplay changing "handicap against" makes the game MUCH HARDER to play - not recommended for Death March unless you're crazy like me - if you've ever seen me take Avallac'h "on a run to the Devil's Pit with random encounter", this is the mod I'm referencing when we do that insane onslaught of 100+ monsters lashing out at us at once - prepare for that - this mod is going to kill your character before you know what hit them) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/ 785
(WARNING: Turn Random Encounters off during the Caranthir and Battle of Kaer Morhen boss battles - it conflicts with Caranthir's character file and will crash your game every time he is active in a quest)
- RoachCam (removes locked in camera angles when riding horses - does not affect visuals or gameplay - if you want to get screenshots while riding Roach, this is the one you need for that) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/ mods / 822
* Script Merger: NOT A MOD! This is that thing you see me merging, repairing, and editing mods with. Ef þú notar þetta ekki, munt þú ekki vera fær um að nota mest af þessum mótsendingum. I use many mods that have conflicting scripts and can not normally be used together. https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/484
- SensibleMapBorders (removes the bounder that will not let you run to the end of the world). (WARNING!) U kunt nu nu ook expliciete gebieden die u niet kon bereiken, and fall into oblivion, thus seriously crashing your game) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1458
- SetTheLevelofGuards (a slider menu added to your options panel, that lets you change the guard level lower or higher, from -25 to +25 lvls below or above Geralt - vanilla the guards are 15 lvls above Geralt - I have my set two: -7 to +25 - WARNING: This is considered a cheat mod if you use it to lower guard level - you have issues with using cheat mods, you'll want to avoid this one) https://www.nexusmods.com/ witcher3 / mods / 2940 (NOTE: Incompatible with ESGO; remove when using ESGO)
- SharedImports (needed to use certain mods that are otherwise incompatible with GoTy 1.31) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2110
- SlowerTimeFlow (make time move at 5 minutes per minute instead of 15 minutes per minute - giving the game more realistic time flow - every 1 minute of real life time is 5 minutes of game world time - meaning it takes MANY HOURS of real world time for a day to pass in game now - will frustrate players who like fast paced games - good for players like me who like slow paced exploration) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2299
- SpawnCompanions (not exactly a mod - this is an alternate version of the debug console that includes the codes already in it so you do not have to type them up - this is that black popup menu you see me using to spawn Ge ' Als u weet wat de karaktercodes betreft, kan u handmatig spawnen een karakter met de debugconsole, maar dit is een index van ALL 5000 karakters, en u kunt deze gemakkelijker spawnen dan de debug console. ) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2459
- Stack Size 1000 (All items are stackable up to 1000 except for armor, weapons, and horse gear. Makes inventory easier to sort through; does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3291
- Steel Sword vs Wild Hunt (Bug fix, that makes Wild Hunt Warrior's vulnerable to steel sword instead of silver sword; technically not a bug fix as the Aen Elle Elves are (Avallac'h included) are all dead and wraiths from the future trying to change the past so they do not die from the White Frost, so it is accurate / canon to fight them with silver swords and specter oil; however there is a vanilla bug in the game caused by the code listing them as BOTH non-humans and wraiths, which causes a -1 health bug in certain quests; if your game encounters that bug in the quest called Nameless this mod should fix it; however it will chase the quests Sunstone and On Thin Ice, so remove it before doing those) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3209
- Stylish Yennefer (A texture mod; this only changes what certain characters look like; one of the many Yennefer modes in use) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2653
- WellStockedCraftsmen (I can not remember what this does - it does something with merchant inventory, bug fixes and overhaul I think it was - not quite a "good for" but it does make major changes to game play - probably would be classified as a "cheat mod" so be careful of it if you are wary of such things) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3002
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NOTE: 3 of the mods I use are NOT compatible together, unless you spend time rewriting the code and manually creating a separate script fill to merge them together before merging them with Script Merger:
- Fisstech
- Slots Slots Slots
- More Quick Slots
You will not be able to use all 3 of these mods at the same time, otherwise.
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I'm using several others, including Book Collection, Enhanced Herbalism, but they've been deleted off Nexus mods. I have several mods made by 3 mod creators, each of whom deleted their accounts of Nexus, so 30+ mods got deleted off the site as a result. A lot of modders are deleting their accounts lately, something about a protest, I'm not sure what they are protesting, but lots of amazing mods have vanished off Nexus May - July 2018 because of it :(
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- That thing you see me merging, repairing, and editing mods with is this: https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/484
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Mods Needed To Build Avallac'h As A Player Character ... Avallac'h Himself:
No, it is NOT just one mod that was used to build him. The Geralt Doppler will swap out texture files, but if you want all his attacks, skills, visual effects, spells, weapons, and everything else you see him using in the quest Through Time and Space, you need a LOT of mods used as once to completely build Avallac'h so you can play him same as you see him in the vanilla game.
Keep in mind too, that I'm using more than just the mods listed here.
I have the skeleton swapped out as well, so Avallac'h is his own height, not Geralt's height. A texture swap would be same height as Geralt, a character swap is the actual character.
With a texture swap, the game engine treats you as Geralt no matter what you look like.
With a character swap, the game engine treats you like the npc character and constantly tries to take control away from you the player. It's VERY difficult to maintain control of your character and you'll have to constantly need to reload the game every time the game takes over control of the character, before you'll be able to regain control of him for use as a player character.
If you are just looking for a texture swap and still use Geralt's skeleton, combat, and actions, the only mod you need is The Geralt Doppler.
Do keep in mind that I have completely re-written the game code! This is not me simply dropping mods in the game. This is MUCH MORE than just a texture swap! If you don't have advanced code writing skills, you'll not be able to repeat what I am doing here, the same as I am doing it.
If you want to do what I am doing, and play the actual character, completely removing Geralt, you'll need very advanced script writing skills. There is no mod for this. I fully rewrote the game scripts on my own, in order to play Avallac'h the way I am playing him.
Do remember, I've been writing code, building websites, creating javascript random generators, etc, since 1996 and doing so is my full time job. I have advanced coding skills, that's why I'm able to do this sort of playing characters not able to be played. This is not something you'll be able to do if you don't have years of advanced code writing practice.
I found in Ge'els and Avallac'h's code that there was intended to be a quest where you played as Avallac'h and kept Ge'els alive from a Wild Hunt attack; but no such quest exists in the game, so something was cut involving Wild Hunt, Ge'els and Avallac'h.
It's why I can play Avallac'h as a player character so easily, whereas other characters I can only swap out textures; he was intended to have a scene where you could play as him, so some player character code exists in his files (same as Ciri and Geralt).
It was just a matter of finishing his broken player character codes, filling in the blanks with code out of Ciri and Geralt's code.
So, even if you use the mods listed below, you will NOT be fully doing the same thing I'm doing.
Here's the list:
Avallac'h himself:
- Geralt Doppler: aka The #1 best mod ever made - this is the mod that removes Geralt from the game and let's me play as Avallac'h, Ge'els, Regis, or anyone else (there are 3 versions, I'm usually using V2 - you need V3 to get player character nude during sex scenes; V1 let's you play as female characters - this mod is VERY BROKEN, seriously glitched out and full of bugs -
WARNING!!! The Geralt Doppler is a savefile changing leach mod that latches itself onto your save files like it was a virus with no tomorrow - it WILL corrupt your save files, so make backups of your savefiles BEFORE installing!
WARNING: every scene that changes Geralt's hair or beard will cut your character's head off - you will have to uninstall the Doppler, then reinstall it MULTIPLE TIMES before your character's head will return;
WARNING: The Geralt Doppler is a GAME BREAKING MOD that will completely corrupt your game if it crashes - it WILL delete scripts and erase folders!!! Be prepared to wait many hours while you re-install your game after the Doppler crashes - - I've had to do a full re-install of my game 5 ties as a result of Doppler crashes, know this before you attempt to use it -
also WARNING: The Geralt Doppler is NOT a "traditional" mod, but rather an app/program you install on your computer, you can not just drop it into your mod file and expect it to load - be sure to follow the installation instruction to the letter - this is a very difficult program to get up and running and it has not been updated in years so in not compatible with most versions of the game without you doing your own script tweaking)
- In order to use the Geralt Doppler you have to find the texture files for the character you want to play. For Avallac'h there are 3 files required "m_avallach_head", "m_avallach_hair", and "m_avallah_body_casual". With those 3 he will look like you see him in the image above. To add his cape you need: cloak_02_ma_avallach To add the cape with hood up, you need to remove the hair file and replace it with: cloak_01_ma_avallach , there is an additional clock files as well. To add his silver mask you'll also need: mask_01_ma_avallach
- WalkByDefault (removes sprint and run from player character - forces you to WALK everywhere - use for Avallac'h - in the quest Through Time and Space Avallac'h has trouble walking, is unable to run, and the player is forced to walk at his pace; this mod is that same pace found in that quest) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/458
- Avallac'h's Tattoos (needed if you use Geralt Doppler V3 and want Avallac'h nude in the sex scenes, because he loses his tattoos in sex scenes and we have to manually add them back on him - see our Kiera quest episode to see how very difficult it is to get his clothes off and his tattoos on at the same time) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2467
Same still, same quest, different (24th) playthrough of Through Time and Space.
This is the Geralt Doppler with the same 3 files as the image above, plus the cape file version 2, as well as the files novingrad_citezen_rings, skellige_fishermen_rope, skellige_fisherman_hunting_knife, and detlauff_ring.
You'll notice the color is different because in this one I had removed the game's default yellow overglaze filter and replaced it with a winter hued cold blue filter instead.
Mods Needed To Build Avallac'h As A Player Character ... Avallac'h's Spells and Abilities:
(Image: Avallac'h's overpowered White Frost attack in action.)
In Avallac'h's vanilla character code:
- His aard is 700% higher than Geralt's
- his igni is 3,000% higher than Geralt's
- his adrenaline level is 6 points, while Geralt's is 3 points
- Geralt can take 7 hits or 2,000 damage each, while Avallac'h can only take 1 hit or 2,000 damage points
- Avallac'h's stamina drops twice as fast as Geralt's, but also regenerates 3 times faster
- Gerale relies on Vitality (Health) to stay alive in combat; while Avallac'h relies on adrenaline to stay alive in combat
- Geralt suffers bad side effects of toxicity after 75% and needs toxic levels to drop fast or he'll die; Avallac'h can withstand 100% toxicity without any adverse effects, and the lower his toxic levels are, the worse his health becomes, thus remaining high at all times is required; if he's NOT on drugs / potions / decotions he CAN NOT fight enemies at all
- Avallac'h requires an alchemy build that focuses on getting its toxicity levels to 100% and keeping them there
Aard and Quen are Avallac'h's primary attacks. He heavily uses Quen to cast barriers around himself, while moving in close to the enemy casting a White Frost variation of Earth until he gets close enough to the enemy to jump over them and bring his staff down hard on their head, shattering their Skull, then running back out of battle quickly to heal before repeating this same move again. We see him doing this in the Sand Crab attack in Through Time and Space.
You have manually edited files (in other words there's no mod for this part), so that signs no longer START at 100 points each, before sign intensity increases from skills and potions.
Avallac'h's sign points are as follows:
- Aard: 500+%
- Axii: 300 +%
- Igni 100 +% (not changed)
- Quen: 500 +%
- Yrden: 300 +%
Mods used to build Avallac'h's spells and abilities:
- Cat Blue (visual effect only; turns cat into Elf vision; also has night vision / green, four vision / orange, glamor vision / pinkish purple and infrared / red options; I sometimes change the color I use, but it's still this same against regardless of color) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1813
- DR's Ultimate Decoction Rebalance (changes what decoctions do; Avallac'h's character stats are different then Geralt's, requiring him to be very high in order to fight; this mod is why I can overload Avallac'h on toxins) https: // www. nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3314
- E3Quen2_1 (visual effect only, does not change Quen ability - swaps out Geralt's Yellow Quen, for Avallac'h's Blue Quen) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2366
- Enhanced Quen (This allows you to set how long you want the Quen Shield to stay up, makes Quen block fall damage, and makes Quen stay on during cutscenes and dialogues. Best of all, everything is completely customizable. Includes displaying quen duration as a buff.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/661
NOTE: You have manually edited / rewritten this mod, so in my game it does not do exactly what this says it does; in my game, i have edited this against two include a fall damage buff, changing the game's vanilla 7 foot fall to half health, to a 9 foot fall to half health IF Quen breaks during the fall and changing the game's vanilla 9 foot fall death two 21 foot fall death. I begge tilfeller faller nu for at Quen to activate og Quen er nu i stand til at bryde nedfaldet, hvilket betyder at Avallac'h kan nu falde op til 21 fod uden skade, hvilket giver Quen ikke undervejs; Quen will break during falls that cause landing multiple times, such as down a rocky cliff. Dette tillader en mere realistisk fallskader for spillernes karakter, mens du beholder evnen til at blive skadet eller drept fra småfall still.
- ForktailFix (bug fix if your game does not load ForkTail Decoction) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2445
- FreezeYrden (bug fix if your game does not load Yreden's Freeze ability) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3141
- Hunter Instinct Skill Patch (This skill does not work in some games - does absolutely nothing at all.) This fixes the buggy Hunter Instinct skill of alchemy tree, makes it do what it says it will do. have this bug.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2352
- KNGWisp (gives Avallac'h his will from Isle of Mists quest) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2390
- Lightsource Yrden and Igni (visual effect only, does not change abilities; makes Yrden and Igni glow like a torch light so you can see better when they are cast at night or in caves; Adds some light sources to the sign and alternative igni. Du kan ikke hitte på at kaste i kilder, for å bruke som en lyskilde alternativ til fakser og katt. https : //www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2853
- Meteor Amulet (The fireball / meteor attack used by Triss and Ciri in Battle of Kaer Morhen and Avallac'h in the final boss battle) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2398
- MoreMoneyForTraders (gives all merchants 5,000 coins - allows you to make money Very fast at farming cows, killing chorts, farming more cows, and everything else, and selling everything you have for 5,000 coins, thus being able to afford upgrades at the Grandmaster and Runemaker VERY early in game - I had Avallac'h's gear fully upgraded to ledgandary with enchantments at level 14, instead of starting to do those quests at level 35, because of this mod; WARNING: This is considered a "cheat mod" if you have issues with using cheat mods, you'll want to avoid this one) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/819
NOTE: I have edited / rewritten this against so that it is slightly different in my game. Thus why merchants have 9,000 coins.
Geralt should not have access to this much money. Unlike Geralt who is poor and can not buy much, Avallac'h is an incredibly wealthy nobleman, who spends a lot of money on fancy things and has hoarding issues; This mod is the one that has allowed me to play him as an accurate wealthy, hoarding, spendthrift, and is also a contributing factor to how I level up his alchemy abilities so fast, as he can buy all the recipes and materials straight from the beginning of the game.
- MoreQuickSlots (changes the 4 slot pockets to 8 slot - lets you activate more potions during battle - does not change any abilities, just moves your potions and bombs to a different place, so you can quickly and easily access them during combat without flipping your inventory page open - allows your combat play to be more immersive) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1221
- QuenAlways4Light (visual effect that makes Quen glow brighter and sparkly - does not change Quen abilities - removes Geralt's shimmer Quen effect and replaces it with Avallac'h spiral sparkle effect) (use if you play as Avallac'h or Ermion, this is the visual effect or quen used on both of them.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3086
Note, I have manually changed what this mod does - with other words, I have rewritten the code, so what does it do for you, will be different then what does it do for me? brighter, to match the description in the novels, which states that Avallac'h had a glowing halo around him at all times - this being caused by his being an undead Wraith so emminated a Wraith glow
- ReduceStaminaCosts (recommended you do not use on your 1st playthrough - makes your character OP if doing a mage build - I only use this when playing as Avallac'h because it adjusts his ability to cast spells to what is cannon for him - it's too OP and out of character for Geralt) TW3 Gameplay Tweaks (a set of about 50 mods that are mostly bug fixes - if there was a problem you ever had with the game The No Fall Damage Against I Use When Playing As Geralt) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2205
- Slots Slots Slots (how my character ability point tree has 8 pages of slots - needed to replicate Avallac'h's canon skill build - this mod is too OP to use on Geralt and keep him lore friendly, I only use it on Avallac'h because he's canon in spells and alchemy - WARNING - this is a "good mode" - major game play changer - use only if you do not mind serious game play changes!) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods / 496 To use this, you want the first page all signs / blue, the 2nd page all alchemy / green; the 3rd page 1 row combat / red, 1 row signs / blue, 1 row alchemy / green; 4th page all brown skills; do not add any skills for weapons except for wirl; Gebruik alleen de niet-wapenvaardigheden in combat / red; bruk alle de blå færdigheder, og alle de grønne færdigheder bortset fra de bomber. Set Piercing Cold as your primary mutagenic attack. End result is insanly OP in signs and alchemy, but handicapped in fist fighting and weapons.
- Play Tomes DLC (a dlc, not a mod; this adds all those extra spells you see Avallac'h casting; adds 10 new characters to cast in addition to the standard signs) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods / 3335
- Stupid Strong 100x Igni Damage Modifier Buff (Overpowers Igni Sign; Great Combat Gameplay Changer; GOD MOD WARNING: This is considered a cheat mod if you have problems with using cheat mods. Https: / /www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1543
- Ultimate Increased Creature Loot (recommended you do not use on your 1st playthrough - this is how I'm doing my alchemy items so damned fast to use high level alchemy during low level quests - added because Avallac'h is supposed to be highly advanced in herbalism and potion making - said in the novels to be the single most advances of all the known multiverses with no one close to his equal - I do not recommend it for playing as Geralt, it will over power his alchemy skills higher than in canon for him) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/38
- Witcher 1 Alchemy Mod (WARNING: This is an "overhaul mod" - a MASSIVE game play changer - it removes the Witcher 3 alchemy system and replaces it with the Witcher 1 alchemy system - VERY buggy and has lots of glitches - lots of mod compatibility issues with other mods; if my game has crashed and you see me take out a mod to fix it, usually this is the mod I have to remove - works great if you only have a couple other mods, raises havoc if you have lots of mods) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3026
- YrdenBuff(1.5)VisualEffectOnly (changes look of Yren to the bright neon glow mine has - does not change Yren ability)https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2695
Mods Needed To Build Avallac'h As A Player Character...Avallac'h's clothes and gear:
If you don't mod in his clothes, Avallac'h will be wearing Geralt's armor, as seen in the picture above.
Avallac'h's clothes and gear:
- Shields and Robes (a dlc that adds npc wardrobes to merchant inventory - how my Avallac'h is able to wear his own robes instead of Geralt's armor, also includes Ge'els robes, Dettlauf and Regis's coat, Eredin and Imerlreth's armor, plus several others) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2356
- RemoveItemLevelRequirements (normally considered a "cheat mod" this is needed when playing as Avallac'h because his clothes are lvl 35 at merchants, and otherwise he'd be dressed in Geralt's armor from lvl 1 to lvl 34) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1542
- 9000 Weight SaddleBags (WARNING - this is a "god mod" - major gameplay changer - use only if you don't mind serious game play changes!) (I use this with Avallac'h because we see him in the game, literally pulling everything he owns out of that tiny bag hanging on his hip, which is apparently Mary Popping's Time Lord Bag of Holding. Watch real/vanilla Avallac'h in the quests Through Time and Space, Battle Preparations, On Thin Ice, and in the final boss battle - he even pulls his sword and his 6 foot tall staff out of that bag.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2948
- Armor No Medallions aka Characters swap Blood and Wine Edition V3 & V2 (needed is using Geralt Doppler - to remove Geralt's wolf pendant) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1798
Mods Needed To Build Avallac'h As A Player Character...Avallac'h's attack moves:
Avallac'h's signature brain-bashing leap.
Avallac'h's attack moves:
- 100FinisherChance/Increased Finisher Chance (used with Always Dismember - why you see Avallac'h ALWAYS chop people up during sword fights - added because of the scene in the novels when the unicorn shows Ciri Avallac'h's boneyard and explains that he goes overboard on chopping people up because he's a necromancer and is afraid of bodies being resurected - it's canon for him to smash skulls open and crush brains, after cutting the heads off his victims - this mod makes him do that)https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2510
- Always Dismember (used with 100FinisherChance - why you see Avallac'h ALWAYS chop people up during sword fights - added because of the scene in the novels when the unicorn shows Ciri Avallac'h's boneyard and explains that he goes overboard on chopping people up because he's a necromancer and is afraid of bodies being resurected - it's canon for him to smash skulls open and crush brains, after cutting the heads off his victims - this mod makes him do that) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1013
Mods Needed To Build Avallac'h As A Player Character ... Other:
(Avallac'h seen here, praying.)
Avallac'h Other:
- FisstechV (uhm - yeah - how do I get Avallac'h high on fisstech - Geralt does not use fisstech so it's not canon on him; I only use it on characters who used it in the novels, thus why I use it on Avallac ' h; in the novels Avallac'h not only uses Fisstech, he also makes and sells it; his fisstech is highly sought after as it is said to be the purest made; King Auberon died on an overdose of it) https: // www .nexusmods.com / witcher3 / mods / 2860
- The Magic Lamp, The Eye of Nehaleni, and the Zynovox from the quest with Keira, are all items Avallac'h made and gave to Kiera. Keira gives them to Geralt at the end of the quest. When playing as Avallac'h, once you have the lamp, it is canon for him to use the lamp in place of either torches or cat potion. Move the lamp into one of the pocket slots and use this default for light in caves and at night.
Mods Needed To Build Avallac'h As A Player Character...Avallac'h's weapons and gear:
Canon to the novels, Avallac'h has a phobia of swords and will not allow anyone in his house if they are wearing one, making them remove their swords and leave them outside.
In the game, it is explained Avallac'h has begun carrying a sword because he's now acting as Ciri's bodyguard and has started using a sword to protect her against the Wild Hunt.
In both the novels and the game, Avallac'h is in the habit of looking for, then obsessive hoarding anything that once belonged to Lara Dorren. While in skellige, searching the many Smuggler's Cache question marks in the water, you will come across Lara Dorren's sword. It is called Tor Lara. If you find it, give it 3 burning runestones and make this his primary weapon.
Avallac'h is allergic to dimaritium and should never carry a weapon made using it.
In the novels, Avallac'h carries a crossbow and a magic flute that hypnotizes people. These are his lore-friendly canon weapons, but he has neither in the game, though they can be modded in.
To play Avallac'h lore-friendly, he should be carrying a staff in place of a silver sword, a crossbow that he uses as his primary weapon, and a Aen Seidhe made steel saber. The following mods will give him those:
Avallac'h's weapons and gear:
- BossBow (bug fix for crossbow - this is the super powered automatic firing, flame thrower cross bow you see Avallac'h ploughing down Redanian Soldiers with - it shots 18 exploding bolts per fire and has auto reload - can shoot 400 bolts in 30 seconds - WARNING - this is a "god mod" - major gameplay changer - use only if you don't mind serious game play changes!) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2639(Glitches when used with other BIG mods, such as ESGO or Witcher 1 Alchemy - still usable with them, but prone to cause game crashes)
- Brutal Combat v1.0 (Blood Mod) (an environment mod; changes look of game; does not affect gameplay; Full Edition of this mod is a complete game play overhaul and is not compatible with about 35 of the mods I am using; I am only using the blood files from this mod. The blood files increase the blood spatter during combate. Use this if you like bloody combat. Makes combat more visceral and blood stains persist. See photo of bloody Avallac'h above for what this mod looks like in action.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/467
- The Flutist of Blaviken (the hypno-Axii flute Avallac'h used in the novels, to make women throw their clothes of and chase him through fields - use it to Axii everything and everyone all at once; WARNING! glitchy and known to cause game crashes!) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2436
- npcWeapons (needed to give Geralt Doppler characters their normal weapons - how my Avallac'h can fight with his staff; include's Eredin's lightning blade sword, Caranthir's staff, Zoltan's ax, Dijkstra's ax, and about 50 other characters' weapons) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/930
- Sword Effects Customizer (changes visual effects/colours of runes and oils on swords - visual effects only - does not change abilities) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2182
- Witcher Silver Sabers (a dlc that adds additional Elf and Ofier sabers to merchant shops - these are those fancy Elven made bent-bladed Aen Seidhe and Ofeir Swords you see me using when playing as Avallac'h) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1275
de-Reapair Kit (depending on which version you use, his makes it difficult to impossible to repair your own weapons - you MUST go to blacksmith for ALL your repairs - makes repair kits useless - I use this on Avallac'h because canon to the novels he has no weapons or combat training and does not know how to repair weapons himself - https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2509
WARNING - this is a gameplay changing "handicap mod" makes the game HARDER to play - not recommended for Death March unless you are crazy like me - if your weapons or armor break in battle you CAN NOT REPAIR THEM!!!)
How To Change Your Game To HD & 4k Graphics, how to remove the yellow filter, and how to change colours of everything...
My game has a cold, winter, foggy blue filter on it and the vanilla yellow glowing summer sunlight filter removed.
I did this with the following reshader, that allows you to edit your own filter and changes in-game colour, brightness, contrast, and gamma settings via a pop-up box.
You can download it here: https://reshade.me/ Note this is not a Nexus mod, but a stand alone website, specifically for this reshader.
Also, this is a reshader, NOT a mod, which is different. Do carefully follow the directions when installing this as there is quite a different process to installing a reshader then there is to installing a mod.
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WARNING: Every mod below this line is consider LOAD HEAVY - meaning they will cut your fps and increase your GPU and CPU.
The mods here are intended to be used with a 4k gaming monitor, run on a full size gaming rig; if you are using either a laptop or a desktop computer you will likely not be able to run the game with these mods.
I am running the game of 60fps Ultra, and without these mods I range 54 to 67 fps and 27%cpu; with the below listed mods my game changes to 28 to 32 fps and 48%cpu.
I'm running with i7-7700 and Nvidia Geforce 1070 GTX
As far as I know these mods will not run on ANYTHING i5 or lower and struggle with anything under 1070, so use with caution if your computer is below i6 or below 1070.
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If you were wondering why my graphics look so much more different (more realistic and lifelike) from what you see on other people's streams. I am using a texture overhaul, which has replaced all the game's vanilla textures with HD textures taken from actual photographs.
In other words, while the vanilla game has rocks, grass, flowers, trees, boards, bottles, books, sand, and other textures made by 3D artists...
...my game has rocks, grass, flowers, trees, boards, bottles, books, sand, and other textures made by actual photographs of rocks, grass, flowers, trees, boards, bottles, books, sand, and other textures.
If you want to do this same thing with your own game, here is the texture swap mod for it: The Witcher 3 HD Reworked Project
NOTE: This texture swap mod is HUGE (depending on your internet connection it could take up to 3 hours to download!) and requires a VERY heavy duty computer, with an exceptional graphics card that is able to run texture files of this massive size. Do not expect to be able to run this mod if you are using either a laptop or a desktop computer - you WILL NEED a full size gaming rig to run this mod.
Other texture changing mods I am using with the HD Project are:
- Beautiful Rocks Mod (Changes the rocks in Velen, Skellige, White Orchard, and Kaer Morhen - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2691
- COMPILATION version 3.1 no cosmetics (Same as Full Edition but with no hair, beards, eyes and teeth - I had the full edition on originally, but it changes Avallac'h's eye colour from the already correct, cannon ice aquamarine blue to a darker teal green blue and I did not like this. This mod changes the texture files of many things in game, making them 4k and or HD: clouds, blood, water, weather, smoke, explosions, flora, trees, mists, fire, terrain, structures, details, signs, corpses, background people, clothes, armour, and more) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2230
- E3 Flares (an environment mod; changes look of game; does not affect gameplay; makes game more immersive; Brings back the anamorphic lens flare from the 2013 E3 trailer.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3318
- E3 HD Birds Reworked Project (an environment mod; changes look of game; does not affect gameplay; makes game more immersive; Dramatically improves the visual quality of flying birds to approach what was originally expected from the E3 demo.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/3204
- More Shadows (an environment mod; changes look of game; does not affect gameplay; makes game more immersive; Enables shadow casting for some light sources: braziers, candles, lamps and torches.There are 2 versions; I'm using the original "with guards" version.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1886
- More Shadows for Toussaint (an environment mod; changes look of game; does not affect gameplay; makes game more immersive; Adds shadows to the majority of the light sources in Toussaint only.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2979
- Next Gen Candles (This is a mesh mod that changes all candles and many candle holders in game. I have increased the poly count on most candles between 30,000 to 100,000 and added a displacement map to give it the depth. - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1350
- Next Gen Hay Stacks (Improved mesh quality of all known haystacks - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1515
- Next Gen Novigrad Reloaded 2 (Changes many of Novigrads street assets and increases lod on many objects - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1373
- Next Gen Stones and Misc (This mod changes the stone debris and other various rocks and support beams. Increases mesh geometry and uses a 4k diffuse and normal map - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1495
- Realistic Contrast Textures UPhoenix Vertex 22 (More contrast for environment textures architecture, textures tileable. - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1505
- Silver Swords (fixes the silver sword bug - makes silver swords gleam with chrome effets seen in trailer - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/445
- Unoptimized Novigrad Castle Wall (the castle wall look closer to the way it did back in 2014. - visual effect only - does not change game play) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1516
The Mod needed to make Roach a purple unicorn...
In the novels, Avallac'h kept Unicorns as slaves and prisoners. He used their in-born magic (by draining their blood) in his lab experiments to create portals between world.
It was the Unicorns who gave him the nickname Avallac'h. His real name is Crevan Espane aep Caomhan Macha. Avallac'h means "Fox", a name the Unicorns gave him, because of his habit of befriending people, gaining their trust, then turning on them and killing them.
Avallac'h is said, by the Unicorns, to be the most evil sorcerer of the universe. It is said, he caused The White Frost, by creating portals between world and not stabilizing them correctly, thus causing rips in the fabric of time and space, resulting in the icy cold of space, freezing every world he opened a portal on.
It is canon for Avallac'h to have and ride on Unicorns, ths Roach was turned into a Unicorn for this playthrough.
- Fera Roach: Thunder Charger (makes Roach a Yrden glowing purple unicorn) (This massive mod bundle includes 100+ mods to change Roah into literally any type of horse or unicorn you could imagine) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/498
Character Swap Mods...
Vanilla this should be Geralt and Syana, not Avallac'h and Ciri.
The Geralt Doppler was used to bring Avallac'h into this quest.
Ciri was brought in using Character Swapping.
The Character Swap mods allow you to switch out almost any character for almost any other character.
Characters swap Blood and Wine Edition V3 & V2 (needed is using Geralt Doppler - to remove Geralt's wolf pendant) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1798
NOTE: HYPE? This mod does a lot more than just remove medallions or Doppler characters !!! This is the mod, a lot of people keep asking what I'm using - (this is a MASSIVE bundle of 100+ mods - the one listed here is just one of many mods in this package; there are 2 packages - download both - this Package includes Artist Integrity AND Aen Elle Booze Up, the Scream Mod for Nameless, ALL the Geel and Avallac'h character swap files you see me using, MOST of the sex girls to Ciri character swaps, the Yen / Triss to Ciri character swaps, and 100+ additional character swaps - this is my single most used mod set; she built this to be compatible with the Geralt Doppler - yes, this is the mud who HATES Avallac'h and made it possible to drop him into every scene that lets' s us kill him or beat the crap out of him - we love her avallac'h hating mods around here and use them often; this also includes the Dijkstra to Geel's mod we are currently using to make Geels king - after the Geralt Doppler this is the best mod ever made)
Mods Needed To Build Avallac'h As A Player Character ... Avallac'h Himself: Assembling Avallac'h's Nude File, In Game ...
There are additional files for Avallac'h, including additional hair file, and a nude body file. The nude body file is a lot of pieces and difficult to put together, literally every body part has a separate file that has to be manually connected (head, hair, body, torso, arms, legs, hands, feet, tattoos - NOT the same head and hair file used in clothed Avallac'h).
MOST characters in the game have no nude body file and are only a head file and clothing file. Avallac'h is one of the few male characters who has an actual body file under his clothes file.
Because Avallac'h in the vanilla game, is unconscious and not moving, in the cutscene when he is seen naked, his files are not intended to be used on the skeleton of a moving character; Det er utrolig vanskelig at bygge nude Avallac'h, og det er vanskeligere å bruke ham som en spiller karakter uten at han har noen alvorlige klipingsproblemer.
Fordi han har så mange filer som behövs, skal de ha to filer: Hovedsiden har kun 3 filer: Avallac'h har en whopping 16 texture files!) It makes Avallac'h one of the most difficult characters to put together, to use as a player character. Ef hann er ekki sett saman rétt, hann mun bókstaflega falla í sundur þegar þú reynir að spila eins og hann í staðinn eða Geralt.
It is for this reason you don't often see me using nude Avallac'h in game play. If you've seen the streams when we did have nude Avallac'h running around, well, you saw what happens and how incredibly difficult it is to keep him in one piece. :P
Like I said, it is not a simple of easy thing to do, to assemble Avallac'h and use him as a player character, especially nude Avallac'h.
Mods Needed To Get These Sort of Bloody Screenshots....
Used to get lore-friendly screenshots of Avallac'h and Ciri from page 179 of Lady of the Lady.
If you only know Ciri from the game, you are sadly deluded into thinking she's a sweet innocent waif, and have no clue she's the Witcher universe's version of Rosemary's Baby. A brutal, sadistic, murderous, rapist lesbian, hell bent on hacking and slashing her way through every male she meets, she lives only to see everything and everyone die. This 12 year old she-devil spends her every waking existence seducing men, only to murder them and prove lesbians win.
It's no wonder everyone, Yennefer included, is hell bent on seeing Ciri eliminated.
With everyone and their cousin one her tail ready to kill the she-bitch demon child and save the world, only one person stepped forward to defend Ciri and saw his life destroyed, same way she destroyed everyone else who got in her path. Avallac'h tried to tame and train Ciri, believing against all evidence that a good person existed beneath the evil emotionless creature that she is.
To tame some one as violent and rabidly savage as Ciri, meant Avallac'h had to be just as brutal and savage with her as she was with him, something that was not in his nature and ultimately left him cast out of Elf society.
Ciri in the game, isn't even a shadow of the blood-thirsty, evil beast she is in the novels. How Ciri in the game can even claim to be based off the evil creature in the novels, is a wonder.
In any case to play a lore-friendly Avallac'h, we need too a lore friendly Ciri there to beat him up.
In the novels Avallac'h and Ciri are both violent with each other - boh have dominate, short tempered personalities.
Ciri was not beyond punching out Avallac'h and he'd punch her right back.
There's a scene when Ciri and Avallac'h start fighting, and end up on the ground both trying to strangle each other and punching each other in the face and no one can break them up.
After being brutally raped by her, Avallac'h has a tendency to back down to Ciri, while Ciri becomes ever more violent. While Avallac'h is known to hit Ciri, there is never a time when he is not hitting her in self defance. Every instance of him hitting her, is a case of him getting fed up with her viciously beating him up, and finally fighting back to get her to leave him alone.
I've often said I wish the game devs had made the characters, especially Ciri and Avallac'h more accurately faithful to how they acted in the novels.
If you didn't know, I'm currently working on a project to illustrate/recreate many scenes from the novels, via screenshots from the game.
This does include of course, the fact that Ciri is a wild, crazed, brutal, violent, excessively abusive woman who beats the shit of of the men in her life, Avallac'h included.
Pay attention to how jumpy and nervous Avallac'h is around Ciri in the game, and how quickly he shuts up and backs off when se gets in his face. Avallac'h is terrified of Ciri. He prefers to back down and obey, then take yet another beaten, thus why we see him so willing to obey her orders through out the game.
Though bigger, stronger, and having better control of his powers, then Ciri, and easily able to toss her aside, Avallac'h can't get past the fact Ciri looks like his beloved Lara and refuses to defend himself against Ciri when she beats him up.
As her incredibly abusive, excessively violent nature is largely removed from the game, it becomes difficult to recreate the scenes of her abuse of Avallac'h.
To recreate these scenes, requires a lot of careful timing, and getting battles with monsters set up in locations where we can quickly move the characters. The blood effect seen in the image above, lasts for only 30 seconds, and appears at random during combate, meaning getting these screenshots and having them match the novels is VERY DIFFICULT.
To get images like this, you need the Geralt Doppler to swap out the texture of the player character.
You then need 2 mods that apply blood spatter during combat.:
- Brutal Combat v1.0 (Blood Mod) (an environment against; changes look of game; does not affect gameplay; Full Edition of this mod is a complete game play overhaul and is not compatible with about 35 of the mods I am using; I Am only using the blood files from this mod. The blood files increase the blood spatter during combating. Use this if you like bloody combat. like in action.) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/467
- COMPILATION version 3.1 no cosmetics (Same as Full Edition but with no hair, beards, eyes and teeth - I had the full edition on originally, but it changes Avallac'h's eye colour from the already correct, cannon ice aquamarine blue to a darker teal green blue and I did not like this. This mod changes the texture files of many things in game, making them 4k and or HD: clouds, blood, water, weather, smoke, explosions, flora, trees, mists, fire, terrain, structures, details, signs, corpses, background people, clothes, armour, and more) https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/2230
With these 2 mods, go into any combat situation, and you will end up with a blood spattered character, as seen in the image above.
How hard is it to build Avallac'h into a player character and can you swap out the dialogue?
Det er så enkelt eller så vanskelig som du ønsker å gjøre det.
Ja det kan ikke være noe mer enn en enkel tekstur swap.
No, what I have done is not just a simple texture swap, and is considered advanced level modding, but with a little practice, modding is pretty easy once you learn the basics, so you can easily do this with pretty much any character in the game.
Essentially, what I have done is built a separate stand alone character, and dropped it in, in place of the player character.
If you just want to do a texture swap, all you need is The Geralt Doppler.
Nei, du kan ikke bytte dialog. De originale karakter stemmer forbliver uansett hvem du vender dem til.
I'm running 78 mods on Witcher 3. Several are not compatible with each other normally, and I had to re-write script to make them work.
Selv om det virker som mange mods, er det faktisk bare noen få mods som påvirker selve spillet. Most of the mods are all on Avallac'h himself. No, to play Avallac'h (or any other character) if I do, it takes a hell of a lot more then 1 mod.
It took 30+ mods just to build Avallac'h as a player character (to make him fully playable with his correct attacks, weapons, and armor - none of which are available to be used by Geralt, as opposed to being just a texture swap or Geralt, using Geralt's attacks, weapons, and armor). See one of the other sections here for a list of how to do it.
Du kan ekki bytte ut dialogen uten at finde den stemmeaktør og få dem til at re-læs alle Geralt's linjer.
But ... uhm ... yeah ... my mind has actually wondered what the possibility of getting Mike Maloney do that ... probably expensive, but definitely a thing that crossed my mind ...
...and hey, if you've followed me long enough you know full well, I'm good at tracking down voice actors... points to my prized collection of correspondances, letters, emails, photos, and autographs with/from Alan Young, including the fact that he sent me a birthday present for my 30th birthday. I was such a screaming fan girl of Alan Young I actually ended up becoming friends with him.
:D
(Alan Young did the Disney voice actor best known as the voice of Scrooge McDuck, btw, if you didn't know who he was.)
And, yes, I have tracked down Mike Maloney (voice actor of Avallac'h), in case you were wondering how serious I was about having him redo the dialogue for Geralt.
Where Do I Find The Geralt Doppler and Which Version Should I Use?
If you are looking for the very old, original version of the Geralt Doppler, which was made for Witcher 1, that I use to play as Kalkstein, see my list of Witcher 1 Mods in a different panel of my profile here.
Several of the mods I used to build Avallac'h are available on Nexus Mods. If the mod is available on Nexus mods, I've included the link to it on my profile, so that you can use it as well.
The mods I'm using, were each intended to be used with Geralt on their own. In order to use them together, and build a new character with them, may require some advanced script merging and code rewriting. I've tried to make a note of which mods are not compatible "out of the box" with which other mods I'm using.
On my screen, these panels are 4 across and lined up correctly. However if you are on mobile or a small screen, the panels get reordered for some reason and are no longer in correct alignment. So the list of mods, may be several panels in order one after the other, or they may be scattered all about depending on what size screen you are viewing this page with.
And since it's the most requested mod of any mod I use, here it is:
Geralt Doppler: aka The #1 best mod ever made - this is the mod that removes Geralt from the game and let's me play as Avallac'h, Ge'els, Regis, or anyone else (there are 3 versions, I'm usually using V2.
Which version to use is dependant on what you want to do in the game.
- V1 lets you play as female characters
- V2 lets you play as male characters, but WITHOUT ARMOR - essentially a "naked Geralt" challenge run if you use this version - the character will wear their correct and proper clothes, but have no armor stats or protections in battle.
If you know how to do it, it is possible to turn a character's proper clothes into armor, thus have a V2 character with armor, but this requires a lot of rewriting of a lot of codes and is a VERY advanced form of mod building.
I am playing Avallac'h with V2 so he is dressed in his proper blue toga and olive hood/cape, however, I've also turned his gear into armor, so he's, got h same stats as if he was wearing Geralt's Feline gear with Ursine Gear buffs.
- V3 let's you play as any male character WITH Geralt's armor INSTEAD of their normal clothes; you can play the character, with armor stats and protections in combat, but WITHOUT their proper clothing - they will be dressed as Geralt
If you see Avallac'h wearing Ursine or Feline armor, you know I'm using V3
Which version should you use? Only you can decide which you want to use. Here are some things I've learned that may help you decide...
- Geralt Doppler V1: V1 let's you play as female characters; if you ever wanted to play as Yen or Triss of Shani or a Succubi or some random townswoman this is how you do it - NOTE - this version removes male voice acting so you can play a female character - it DELETES vocal/sound dialogue from the game, you'll be forced to read subtitles only! V1 suffers a combat glitch - meaning during finishers, your character will suddenly turn back into Geralt for a few seconds. You can turn off battle finishers in your game settings to bypass this. V1 sometimes suffers T-pose death glitch because female ragdolls don't swap out to male player characters well; in some characters Geralt's skeleton won't switch out and you get a wide shoulder effect that stretches out the character and makes them look weird - sometimes saving the game and reloading fixes it, but not always.
- Geralt Doppler V2: MOST characters have only 3 texture files (head, body, hair) and if that is the case V3 is recommended; however, if you are dealing with a character that has 6 or more texture files, V2 is recommended as it holds them together better; Avallac'h has 16 base texture files and nearly as many additional texture files; the only characters with more texture files are Geralt and Ciri; V2 allows me to assemble all 16 of Avallac'h's default texture files, quickly and easily without clipping issues that are caused by manually assembling him
- Geralt Doppler V3: the easiest version to use fr most character swaps; you need V3 to get the player character nude during sex scenes - V3 however suffers serious neck clipping issues on character who are shorter or taller then Geralt;
NOTE...
For characters who are shorter then Geralt... they can not make the jumps across broken bridges or leap high enough to reach certain ledges on cliffs. Geralt is said to be 5'10" tall, and many cases he struggles to make these jumps. Avallac'h is 5'6" (in the game - he was 7'3" in the novels; but all Elves are 2 feet shorter in game then in novels - Avallac'h was the shortest Elf, the others being well over 9 feet tall, by making all the Elves 2 feet shorter in game then in novels, Avallac'h in the game ended up shorter then the Humans.)
Avallac'h is the shortest male in the game who is not a dwarf or halfling. The end result is, Avallac'h as a player character can not make many of the leaps across broken bridges and has to go around, and can not climb up some cliffs, meaning skipping those quests entirely.
Also, because he is so much shorter then Geralt, he can not wear MOST of Geralt's armor, any of the masks, any of the Olgierd dress robes, and can not wear the Professor's glasses.
Additionally, because he is shorter, he sometimes can walk into places and get trapped. Certain burned houses that Geralt is too tall to walk into, Avallac'h strolls in... then because the building is not intended to be accessible there is no way back out without reloading an old save file from before going in the building.
Also because he is shorter then Geralt, Avallac'h can jump on beds, all of them, even ones with canopies.
Oddly, because he is s short, Avallac'h dies faster from falls then Geralt does. Fall amage is GREATER on Avallac'h then it is on Geralt. A tumble down the stairs will kill him, as well tripping over rocks. Be careful where you have him step. If you think Geralt's fall damage was bad, wait till you play as Avallac'h.
ALSO: Characters who are MUCH taller (like Ge'els at 7'1") or much shorter (such as Zoltan at 4'3") will not swap out properly, and will instead be Geralt's height (5'10"). I do not know how to fix this or if it can be fixed, nor have I tried to fix it.
If you want to try to fix it, I do know you'll need to find the original character's skeleton file and swap it out. If there is not much change in height (Avallac'h is only 4" shorter then Geralt) the skeleton adjusts to fit, but ONLY in V2 of the Doppler. V1 of the Doppler uses Ciri's skeleton, so female characters adjust to her height.
NOTE: V2 character skeleton files vs V3 skeleton files...
V3 of the Doppler retains Geralt's skeleton unaltered. And is the reason I rarely use V3 on Avallac'h, because of the difference in their base skeletons. Geralt has the wire-frame/base skeleton of a well muscled fighter. Any character you use with V3 will have their texture file stretched over that wireframe, resulting in them becoming well muscled out. This is not a problem for MOST of the male characters in the game... however... it is noticeable if used on a character who has a much thinner body frame then Geralt.
Avallac'h is very skinny - the novels tell us he is elderly, has lost most of his teeth, and is extremely skeletal from near starvation, and that his lack of back teeth and going too many days between meals is the reason for his extremely exaggerated cheekbones. That Avallac'h is very underweight is not so noticeable when wearing his many layers of clothes, but very noticeable when he's nude.
Avallac'h wears a silver embroidered black silk tunic, under a undyed linen padded gambeson, under a brown leather tunic, under a double layered grey suede toga dyed blue and heavily embroidered, under a padded leather spaulder, under a olive linen hooded cowl collar with red linen lining, under a doubled over brown wool shawl. (I read the graphic artists' notes on what each piece of clothing was when making the CosPlay) The many layers make him look quite a bit larger then he is, as can be seen when his clothes are removed, and you see how very skinny, underweight and almost anorexic he looks.
V2 of the Doppler retains Avallac'h original thin wireframe skeleton base, while Doppler V3 retaines Geralt's much larger, well muscled wireframe skeleton base. The end result is it changes what Avallac'h looks like, thus I rarely use V3.
- ALL 3 VERSIONS suffer the serious glitch known as the "headless character" glitch. It happens during certain cutscenes and in specific quests. PayBack if you steal horses and put on a face mask, Dead Man's Party, when you shave your beard, for example. It is caused by the game swamping out your head texture file, for a masked, beard, or shaved texture file. The game literally removes your character's head, attempts to put on one of Geralt's heads, the mod over rides it, and the end result is your character has no head at all.
To fix the headless glitch, you must save the game, exit the game. Uninstall the Geralt Doppler. Wait about 30 seconds. Reinstall the Geralt Doppler. Open the game. Reload the last save file. It should be fixed, but not always. If not fixed, go to the Geralt Doppler's Rea Me file and detailed instructions for how to manually reattach the head file, via the debug consolue is there. After doing that, you have to save again, exit again, uninstall the Doppler again, wait again, reinstall again, load save file again, and this time it should be fixed.
NOTE: this mod is VERY BROKEN, seriously glitched out and full of bugs -
AND... WARNING!!!!!!!
The Geralt Doppler is a savefile changing leach mod that latches itself onto your save files like it was a virus with no tomorrow - it WILL corrupt your save files, so make backups of your savefiles BEFORE installing!
WARNING: The Geralt Doppler is a GAME BREAKING MOD that will completely corrupt your game if it crashes - it WILL delete scripts and erase folders!!! Be prepared to wait many hours while you re-install your game after the Doppler crashes - - I've had to do a full re-install of my game 5 ties as a result of Doppler crashes, know this before you attempt to use it -
also WARNING: The Geralt Doppler is NOT a "traditional" mod, but rather an app/program you install on your computer, you can not just drop it into your mod file and expect it to load - be sure to follow the installation instruction to the letter - this is a very difficult program to get up and running and it has not been updated in years so in not compatible with most versions of the game without you doing your own script tweaking)
What the hell is with the rabbits? Why did you add all those rabbits to the game? Was there an actual reason why did you do that?
In the Witcher universe, you can tell how evil a character is, by the pets they keep. Sorcerers all have pets. Cats, dogs, owls, the usual stuff. Some keep monsters, one or two.
Avallac'h?
Avallac'h has cute, cuddly killer bunnies.
Avallac'h in the novels is a beast lord and monsters protect him.
While rumors exist of Avallac'h being an evil, brutal murderer ... the fact remains, that this can be proved a lie, by the fact that ALL animals and monsters trust him.
In de witcher lore, als een persoon nooit het bloed van een onschuldige heeft, zullen zij de mogelijkheid hebben om met dieren en monsters te praten, en alle dieren en monsters zullen hen beschermen en komen tot hun hulp.
Avallac'h is the ONLY character out of the 5,000+ characters that grace the Witcher novels, to possess this ability.
No animal fears him.
No monster fears him.
He can call any animal, any monster to protect him.
Unicorns alone, stand against him.
In the novels Avallac'h will not carry a sword, because animals and monsters fear swords.
Avallac'h walks the world unarmed, never touching a weapon, never allowing a weapon to enter his presence, and as a result of this, he can be seen with a menagerie of animals and monsters gathered around him, ready to die for him.
His pet Echinops and Archespores, giant 8 foot tall killer flowers, travel at his side. He rides, not a horse, but Knockers - huge troll like beasts. While thousands of Barbegizes - rabbit like, pumpkin sized orange furred tribble like balls of sharp fanged, man eating fur, rolling along the ground at his feet, ready to attack and devour any man who dares get near their dearly beloved Knowing One.
Avallac'h refers to his tens of thousands of Barbergizes as "my children" and treats them with more care and love then he does any of his other pets, save his favorite pet Human (Ciri).
To get close to Avallac'h one must first wade through his sea of Barbergizes first, and they are like furry rabbit shaped piranhas - one false move and they will reduce you to picked clean bones in seconds. While Avallac'h shrugs, laughs at your demise, and than rushes off to gleefully write poetry about the color of your blood and the sound of your dying screams.
"Stupid wtcher! Stupid witcher!"
He (Geralt) refrained from comment. He bit his lip and carefully moved past the echinops. The monster's spines swayed like sea anemone's tentacles.
Two immense barbergazis waddled across his path, jabbering and growling. From the ceiling came the flapping of webbed wings and a hissing cackle, unerringly signaling the presence of vampyrodes and vespertyles.
"He comes here, a murderer, a killer, a witcher! He comes down here, he dared!" But he has no sword, the killer.
"Or maybe we kill him?"
The barbergazis babbled in a noisy chorus. One of them, as big as a mature pumpkin, rolled closer and closer and snapped it's teeth at Geralt's heels.
"Wiitch-tcha! Ba-stard!"
En enorm cave painting was in the process of being created on the wall, which nature had seemingly prepared for that purpose. The painter a fair-haired elf dressed in a painted smudge mantle, ringed by a luminous halo.
"Sit down," said the elf without wresting his gaze away from the painting. He gestured to a boulder with a wave of his brush. "They did not hurt you, did they?"
"No, not really."
"You'll have to forgive them."
"Indeed I will."
"They're a bit like children. They were awfully happy you were coming."
Geralt watched in silence.
The elf dipped his brush in the paint. "The phallic cult was typical of primitive civilizations. The human race is yielding to physical degeneration. Its forebears had phalluses like clubs, but their descendants were left with ridiculous, vestigial little pricks."
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The introduction of Avallac'h and his hoard of monsters, pag e 236 of Tower of Swallows, the first scene he appears in, while painting giant penises on cave paintings.
If you suddenly see hoards of rabbits on the horizon - run, just run. Run fast. For those are Avallac'h's Barbergizes and he's somewhere in the middle of their rolly-polly tumbling hoard.
Avallac'h comes off as a crazy cat woman, with thousands of killer rabbits instead of cats. THIS is how Avallac'h is described in the novels.
I wish they had made Avallac'h in the game, more like Avallac'h in the novels, as it takes something away from his character to see him without his ever loving hoard of flesh eating bunnies.
And ... I've corrected this oversight. If you ever wondered why I play Avallac'h, with a herd of rabbits bouncing along at his heels, well, you've never read the novels, and now you know why I gave him a bunch of bunnies to travel with.
Avallac'h loves his killer bunny rabbits, and they are a central part of his character in the novels, so to see Avallac'h in the game, without his pack of evil bunnies, leaves us without a lore friendly Avallac'h.
Lore-friendly Avallac'h just isn't lore-friendly without his killer bunnies bouncing around his feet. I'm glad I was able to find a way to fix this oversight and gve game Avallac'h his killer bunnies.
I'm not sure the logic of why Barbergizs are round rabbit like creatures in the Witcher. In folklore otherwise, they are similar to gnomes, halflings, or dwarves.
Playing a Lore-Friendly Avallac'h and what exactly that means:
... this is one of my fave pictures of Avallac'h (it comes from the quest Through Time and Space ... who'd a thunk?) ... a screenshot from before I started modding the game, so Avallac ' h as he should look.
- Avallac'h was seen in the novels, lazily strolling around field picking flowers, making flower wreaths to wear, and overall acting like a hippie. Avallac'h frequently annoyed Ciri (unintentionally) by his refusal to ever be in a hurry, and by his endlessly interrupting important tasks by running off in fields to pick every flower he saw. Avallac'h is portrayed in the novels as having OCD and suffering from Punding, and once he sees a flower, he can not, walk by it, he must stop what he's doing to pick it. He will continually, obsessively, pound his way across a field picking every last flower if someone (Ciri or a herd of attacking Unicorns) does not step in the forcibly stop him. You see me playing Avallac'h Lore-Friendly to the novels and sidetracking quests to run off and pick flowers.
- When playing as Avallac'h we never sell Verbera and Beggartick, and also never pass any Verbena or Beggartick without stopping what we are doing to pick them. Avallac'h's favorite flower is verbena, which he uses to make perfume out of (which he wears). Fisstech is made of Beggertick flowers and Avallac'h makes fisstech.
- Avalac'h collects human skulls. He owns thousands of them. Formentlig er de trophies han holdt af de mennesker han er drept. So in game whenever we collect a skull while looting, we store them all in our stash.
- Avallac'h is a vegetarian and animal rights activist. He has full on meltdowns in the novels, if someone eats meat or harms an animal. When playing as Avallac'h you see me selling off all the meat we loot, and avoiding fighting / killing wolves, dogs, and bear.
- In the novels, Avallac'h openly admitted his raging sexual lusts for Ciri, and made her wear skimpy silk skirts slit up to her thigh, black lace, and long silk scarf tied round her neck. He also made he keep her hair long and loose. By far the single most perverted character of the whole franchise, Avallac'h went out of his way to keep Ciri always close to him, was constantly described as touching, stroking, caressing, hugging, cuddling, kissing, and embracing her. Here took great pleasure in gently pulling Cri close, embracing her, while nuzzling her neck, this being something he does to her often in the novels. Avallac'h is also the only character Ciri has sexual intercourse with, in spite of getting tossed in bed with several other characters throughout the novels. While Ciri tramps here prostituting, Slutty whore ass in front of some 5 boxes but throughout the novels, Avallac'h remains the only character in the entire franchise she has ever sex with, and that through her beating the hell out of him, then raping him. We changed Ciri in the game to match the way Avallac'h made her dress for him in the novels. We've also added the ability for Avallac'h to hug Ciri in the game.
- Avallac'h communicates with tree spirits, rock spirits, and flat spirits, and as such will not harm Leshens, Knockers, Archespores, Echinops, and Trolls. So, we try in game, to avoid fighting any of these creatures (not all appear in game).
- Avallac'h's very devoutly religious character. His fictional religion is heavily influenced by real-world Muslim and Jewish cultures, and heavily influenced by Kabbalism. As such he prays often throughout the day, refuses to eat meat, will not touch pork at all, does not drink alcohol, and goes weeks on and without drinking and drinking (a form of Ramanadah). Fordi dette er en pivotal del af hans karakter, prøver vi at huske at gøre disse ting i spillet.
- Avallac'h jumps on beds. We do not know why. Men når looting houses vi laver et punkt på jumping på alles seng, Elf glad.
- After being brutally raped by Ciri, Avallac'h suffers from some serious PTSD and Stockholm Syndrome. He lives in absolute mortal, traumatized fear of Ciri, and is terrified to disobey anything she says. Though we hate Ciri's slutty, rapist bitch whore ass, we spawn her as Avallac'h's travel companion because, ever since she raped him, he's terrified to be out of her shadow.
- Avallac'h's favorite color is purple, so why we gave him a purple unicorn.
- Avallac'h's clothes should be red and purple, not blue and brown, and his hair platinum ash blonde not black gone gray. Sooner or later will you see me get around to make a mod to make his clothes and hair lore-friendly.
- Avallac'h is infertile, a side effect of the radioactive magic he uses. he is obsessed with finding a cure for the infertility that most mages suffer from. The novels are not fully clear on the hows and whys, but curing infertility somehow involved gold dragon scales and green olives, both of which you can loot in the game, from Avallac'h's boat, Many hideout, his brothel apartment, and his laboratory . Due to his canon obsession with these items, we never sell them and our stash has become quite full of them.
- Avallac'h in the novels collects shiny reflective things. Has a massive mirror collections. Collects antiques, especially silverware. And spoons. Thus, when we find such items in bulk, they all go straight to the stash and are not sold.
- Avallac'h in the novels has hoarding issues. So we gave him hoarding issues in the game. Derfor hvorfor vores stash nu lider nogle alvorlige lag problemer når du laster. : P
- Avallac'h in the novels is constantly surrounded by a variety of monsters, including a large herd of Barberzis, so we gave him a motley crew or monsters and animals to travel with him, including a herd of bunny rabbits. Hvilken type af kreaturer rejser med ham i spillet afhænger af mit humør og ændringer fra en dag til den næste.
- Avallac'h likes racing his horses around lakes, something Ciri chided him for as he forgets to let his horses rest. In the novels Ciri and Avallac'h had a daily time of racing their horses around the lake. Ciri considered Avallac'h her best friend, and racing horses with him was her favorite thing to do with him. Det var en ting som de likte at lave sammen hver dag, og derfor gør vi det ofte og at tilfældigt i spillet.
- Though quick to become proper, silent, shy, and sullen in the presence of other Elves while trying to hide his infatuation for Ciri, when alone with Ciri, Avallac'h's personality changed dramatically with him acting like a wild giddy toddler. De to av dem løper ofte sammen og handler som barn, og jager hverandre gennem felt. We can and often do, do this in game.
- Though everyone fears him and trembles in terror at his presence, Avallac'h himself is a very fear-filled, phobia-prone person. He '' attack viciously and violently when he is cornered and threatened, become more violent than normal if Ciri is with him, fiercely protecting her. Hans spell casting angreps er dødelig med han kan vaporise folk ved blot at pege på dem. Men, han rarely resorts to violence, and if has the option to do so, will flee, while dragging Ciri with him and abandoning everyone else. He prefers to turn and run, rather then stand and fight. Han er rask til at skjule mens noen andre fights the danger for him. As such we play him in game this way and do more running from enemies then actually fight them.
- I hate rapists with a vengeance. I was raped when I was 12 years old and again when I was 14. There is nothing on this planet I find mod vile and disgusting then a rapist. That said, be prepared to hear me to A LOT of raving and ranting on how much I HATE Ciri and her vile rapist bitch self, every time I see her trashy, rapist ass show up on screen. Gutter trash like Ciri doesn't deserve to live. If you start fangirling over that evil, vile rapist you'll get an earful from me up one side and down the other. Rapist trash, pieces of shit like Ciri are worse than murderers and should be given the death sentence.
But Witcher 3 has a 10 mod limit! How do you play with 100+ mods? What is this stacking mods method you are talking about? How do I do that on my game?
Mod stacking is an advanced technique and assumes you already know how to build mods on a basic level, and have the software needed to uncook and recook modes.
If you do not know how to uncook a mod, create a new metastore data file for it, then recook it, you will not be able to stack mods. You will want to learn against cooking first.
Ef þú hefur nú þegar vitað hvernig á að hreppa upp móts, búa til nýtt metastore gagnaskrár, þá endurskoða módelið, þá er stacking mods mjög auðvelt og auðvelt að gera.
Witcher 3 has what is known as a "10 to limit". Det er ikke en faktisk mod grænse, men et problem forårsaget af Witcher som er gjort for Windows 7, og Windows 10 messing up, hvordan det laster koden. In other words, if you play on Windows 7, you should not run into a mod limit, but if you play on Windows 10, you'll max out after 10 mods. It's a problem of how Win10 loads scripts vs how Win7 loads scripts and is NOT a mod limit that CDProjectRed put in the game.
In order to by pass the 10 mod limit, you have to know how to stack mods inside of other mods, inside of other mods. You can stack 12 mods inside of each other against, and load 12 mods in the game. Du kan nå Witcher 3 med en total total av 144 mods, hvis du stakkar korrekt.
Script mods you can load without limit page by page normally, as long as it does not contain a metastore data file for blob.bundles. Windows 10 can not properly load more than 12 metastore data files.
Du har til å skapa en mappe som heter ModMerged1 og derefter åbne hver mod, slette det med metrore datafil, rename det blob0.bundle filen til madNAME.blob0.bundle, og flytte det til modMerged1.
Once you've put 10 mods inside of the merged file, you need to use RedEdit's lite.ws against cooker to create a new metastore data file.
If you want to add an addition 10 mods, create a new folder forMerged2, modMerged3, modMerged4, etc, up to modMerged12 (12 is the max Windows 10 will load) and place up to 12 blob files inside of each, for a total of 144 mods, merged into 12 mods.
Mens du kan gå 12 deep inside of 12 files (144 mods total), I recommend doing 10 deep inside of 10 files instead (100 mods total), to avoid GPU issues with your computer.
Også i order to do this you want to have an i7 processor, anything under i7 will not load this many mods on Witcher 3 without crashing the computer. No, you can not run Witcher 3 with this many mods if you have an i3 or i5.
I'm running 78 mods on Witcher 3. Several are not compatible with each other normally, and I had to re-write script to make them work.
The reason I stop being 78 mods is because I run into RAM issues with my computer. If I added another stick or two of RAM, I could easily load 144 mods. I just have not gotten to add more memory to my computer yet. With another 16 RAM I should remove the layer issues I run into with loading mods.
So, consider how much memory is on your PC when modding Witcher 3. 16RAM minimum recommended for modding Witcher 3, but 32RAM is a better way to go and if you can get it, 64RAM is going to be best for playing Witcher 3 with heavy duty mods and no layers.
Mens det virker som om jeg er meget mods, er der faktisk kun nogle få mods som påvirker den generelle spillet selv. Most of the mods are all on Avallac'h himself. No, to play Avallac'h (or any other character) if I do, it takes a hell of a lot more then 1 mod.
It took 30+ mods just to build Avallac'h as a player character (to make him fully playable with his correct attacks, weapons, and armor - none of which are available to be used by Geralt, as opposed to being just a texture swap or Geralt, using Geralt's attacks, weapons, and armor). See one of the other sections here for a list of how to do it.
Several of the mods I used to build Avallac'h are available on Nexus Mods. If the mod is available on Nexus Mods, I've included the link to it on my profile, so that you can use it as well.
The mods I'm using, were each intended to be used with Geralt on their own. In order to use them together, and build a new character with them, may require some advanced script merging and code rewriting. I've tried to make a note of which mods are not compatible "out of the box" with which other mods I'm using.
On my screen, these panels are 4 across and lined up correctly. However if you are on mobile or a small screen, the panels get reordered for some reason and are no longer in correct alignment. So the list of mods, may be several panels in order one after the other, or they may be scattered all about depending on what size screen you are viewing this page with.
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