EelKat Wendy C Allen - Dark Fantasy Author

UPDATE March 17, 2021: Another death. Waiting for a coffin to be delivered. Funeral the 21st. Unlikely to be streaming for a few weeks.


Update: March 27, 2021: It's not even been a week since the funeral, and now there is another death and another funeral.


UPDATE April 5, 2021: There are still no streams, as, we've now a another (a 3rd) funeral to prepare for.

And that is now 3 deaths in our family, in the past 2 weeks.

This 3rd death hits hard, because it was Pippi.

Our family has now had 13 deaths since March 2020.

April 10, 2015, 12 children were kidnapped.

May 15, 2015, the heads of 10 of them were nailed to my door.

August 24, 2020, one was found still alive. he was just 4 years old when she was kidnapped, but she remembered us, even though 5 years had passed.

August 25, 2020, Pippi came home, but her condition was not well. She had been tortured the entirety of the 5 years she had been held hostage. She was missing limbs and covered with scars, had broken bones many years not set, and suffered serious damage to many of her internal organs. That she was alive at all, in her condition, was a miracle. Doctors had little hope of her survival and she was sent home with Hospice care.

Pippi had cancer in her eye and needed surgery for it, which she was scheduled to have, shortly before she was kidnapped.

In the years they had her, not only did they torture her, but her cancer went untreated and spread to her brain.

By the time she was returned to us, her cancer had reached an inoperable state, so we knew she did not have much time left.

Had her cancer been treated, back when she was a toddler, she probably would have reach adulthood.

She died only 8 months after her return.

Another child, to cry out from the grave, for Etiole's vengeance upon her murderers. Another victim of evil men, who will stoop to no ends, to bury the crimes they committed 50 years ago.  Drug lords. Opium growers. Heroine dealers. Selling little girls 4 to 8 years old for sex to priests. They only care about money.

All hail the mighty tourist ass. Millions come to Old Orchard Beach every year, for one thing and one thing only: heroine. They sell their drugs to the tourists under the pier and off the balconies of that giant motel. Than drag little girls to the bedrooms of the condominiums on Smithwheel Road, behind the school. And any child who dares open their mouth and beg for help, gets tossed in the GooseFare Brooke Ravine.

Bastard drug lords. They've been doing this for 50 years, and the town hall and the police department, turn a blind eye to it, because they get paid $6million a year to not report it to the newspapers, when the body of another child washes down the ravine, into the gulley to be spit out in the ocean. No fewer than 5 bodies are found every summer, but how often does it get in the news?

The corruption of this fucking town needs to end.

Yet another dead at the hands of these criminals who run our town.

How long will the residents continue to turn a blind eye to what is happening in our town.

How many more children will you let them kill, before you stand up to them?

Another child is dead and no one in this town cares. So long as they get their money from the tourists. The blood of another murdered child screams from the graves, begging for justice. Tick tock, tick tock, so begins, yet another of Etiole's 7 year clocks.

This is why there were no/to few streams from May 2020 until now.

May 2020, after 4 years of not hearing from them at all, the FBI returned with a lead, which led to Pip's discovery a few weeks later in August.

Because of the nature of the situation, I could not talk about it, to tell you why streams had stopped.

The kidnappers, were enraged that we had recovered Pip, and that is when the attacks started up again on my home and family September 2020.

Pip's condition continued to grow worse, and she died April 5, 2021.

She was only 10 years old.

This is what it means, to not be white in America.

White men, won't even give a child the chance to grow up.

This is what white people do, to none white families like mine.

We are Gypsies with Jewish blood, for that alone we are hunted like animals.

What the men of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, did to my family, will never be forgotten or forgiven.

#If you have any information on the kidnappers or the murders...

#FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

Have you forgot the extent of the damage these people did, all because, they wanted to dig up my land and removed bodies buried there, before my house builders found that barrel of bones?

Have you forgotten that 7 town hall workers, 5 public works men, a blond woman, her bald son, and her red haired sister Kendra, and 14 police officers, all lead by a man they referred to as "Mark who needs no last name" were the ones 

I name every one of them, except for the ring leaders: blond woman, her bald son, her sister Kendra, and her husband "Mark who needs no last name". I don't know who those 4 are. I'd never seen any of them, other than the Kendra woman before, and I only knew her fro her attacks beating me up at Panera in 2009, 2010, and 2013.

I can name every one of the others, because all I have to do is go to the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police department website, and their are their faces.

With the exception of blond woman, her bald son, her sister Kendra, and her husband "Mark who needs no last name", every one else involved was government official who works for the state of Maine vis the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall, the Old Orchard Beach Police Department, or the Old Orchard Beach Public Works.

And what exactly did they do?

August 8, 2013 they drove a backhoe over my house. That same backhoe drove over my previous house on the same land April 2007. That same backhoe drove over my poultry barn and horse stables July 2001. July 2001 was the first attack.

March 2015 was the the massive attack, with an entire fleet of trucks, and drove over the Church of the Holy Rhinstone, a church that stood on my land, my garage which is why I no longer have a garage to put my car in, my 2 sheds both of which had my tractors and other garden/crop machinery in them at the time. And of course the razing of the land, the cutting down of the apple orchard - the VERY apple orchard planted in 1530 that this town was named after... he actual "old orchard" of Old Orchard Beach... the very original trees - huge massive apple trees over 400 years old. The grape vineyards, the cherry trees, the pears trees. 

April 10, 2015, they returned, 4 police officer held me a gun point, while 10 other police officers held my children down with long poles with metal wire strangle loops on the end, and beat their faces in with cinder block bricks, knocking out every one of their teeth, breaking their jaws... POLICE OFFICERS DID THAT... while men they referred to as "Mark who needs no last name" and "Dan" stood there and told the police officers what to do, how to beat them, while "Mark who needs no last name" boldly bragged that he paid the Old Orchard Beach police $6million dollars to do this.

May 15, 2015... the heads, hands, feet, and intestines of my children were nailed to my door. Later that same day police officer W. W. came to my home begging for forgiveness and claimed that men he referred to only as "Mark and Dan" were holding his beloved mother-in-law hostage and torturing her, and he helped in the April 10, 2015 attack, only to save her life and get her back. He claimed he had no prior knowledge of what was going to happen, claiming that he'd been told they were only going to "scare" us. He said he had not expected anyone to get hurt, he had not known my children would be tortured and kidnapped, he had not known they were going to be murdered. He said he was scared for his life and lives of his family. And he said: "They form a small army, our department doesn't have enough man power to stop them, and every one in this town is too scared to fight back. You don't know what's going on. And I think they mixed you up with someone else. They didn't know you were the owner of this land. They didn't know that was your motorhome. They thought someone else owned this place. It wasn't even your family they were after. You were the wrong target. You don't know who these people are. What they've done to our families. This is the actual Mafia. The real deal. I'm so sorry. This is the address they sent us to. But they had a different name as the owner. This wasn't supposed to happen. They were after someone else. I'm so sorry. I couldn't let my family died. And now yours is dead instead. This wasn't supposed to happen."

June 19, 2016... I did a very specific livestream. You see... A., D., B., and T. in the 1970s and 1980s, were in the habit of dragging big black trash bags into the forest, crossing my land to do it, and dumping those bags into the Goosefare Brook Ravine. In 1983, 3 snuck into Etiole's swamp and planted 3 acres of Marijuana. Someone found it and called the police, I don't know who... it was Maine's largest drug raid for decades. Many, many millions in plants where dug up and removed from Etiole's swamp. A few weeks later A, & D,s 10 year old daughter ran into my yard, touched my car on a dare from other children - the 1964 Dodge 330 former Old Orchard Beach police car, known by Stephen King fans as the REAL Christine, The World's Most Haunted Car... than jumped her bike, and sped down the road, as fast as she could, head on into a car coming the other way. She died instantly, he brain shattered all over the end of my driveway, and her mother A responded by the Battle of 458 - the biggest mass shooting ever in Maine history, that ended up with 3 Gypsy clans and 2 police departments, in a shoot out between 70+ adults all armed with guns. One of my cousins, an 8 year old boy, standing 3 feet from me, had his eye shot out by one of the bullets. While A ran around the street screaming: "FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shot another child. 

"FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shoot another child. 

"FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shoot another child. 

THOSE are the 31 children, whose bones were sawed up and tossed into the GooseFare Brook Ravine... yes, that DOES mean, police officers KNEW those children were there and covered it up.  And I witnessed that entire event.

And THAT is WHY... when police officers murdered my family in 2015, I did a livestream, walking to the ravine, to show the world, where those bones were... because I'm sick and tired of the police corruption in this fucking town, and those sawed up bones of 31 children are PROOF of what this town government is like.... as are the heads of my children that were nailed to my door.

At the end of The Battle of 4-5-8... A. took 2 gas cans and poured them all over the big dome house, than set a match to it, and no one knew, why when she did her brother B., started running, jumped in his robin egg blue truck and backed down the driveway, hit Portland Ave doing 70 and didn't stop driving until the high speed chase caught him in CT... oh but we knew before he was out of sight, why he started running... the dome house went up like Hiroshima into a mushroom cloud that could be seen across the entire state... turns out there was a Meth lab in that house.

June 19, 2016... the livestream of the bones went viral, it's what made my YouTube channel suddenly explode overnight... and police officer W.W. upset, by the fact that, the livestream included the entire police call and response, and that response was to laugh and do nothing... fed up with the corruption in his department, he forwarded that livestream VOD to the FBI, and the FBI arrived in Old Orchard Beach, to dig up the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, and all hell broke lose in this town, as most of the police officers suddenly found themselves arrested. An entire new police force from out of state was brought in to replace the long time officers who had proven they could be trusted to uphold the law. Many town hall officials and public works employees also found themselves arrested by the FBI.

June 26, 2016... barely a week later... the blond woman and the red haired Kendra woman showed up at my workplace, Scarborough WalMart, and tried to kill me, yet again... these are the same 2 woman who attacked me with golf clubs at Southern Maine Community College November 14, 2013... they left dead in 2013, I was paralized for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk. I was out of the wheel chair, and I was without a walker, I was without a cane. I had almost fully covered from their November 14, 2013 attack with golf clubs... June 26, 2016, this time they attacked with shopping carts, and I'm now crippled for the rest of my life. They shattered 3 vertebra this time and it can't be operated on. I had to relearn to walk a second time, and I'm not yet recovered now in 2021. In 2013 they drove away in the 4 door white pickup truck. In 2016 they drove away in a gold Volvo SUV station wagon.

That blond woman and her red haired Kendra sister, they are wanted by the FBI for attempted murder of me and they are also wanted in questioning for being suspected of also being the murderers of my children.

I don't know who these 2 women are.

The blond woman shows up my driveway frequently, screaming and yelling, sometime accompanied by a small child, about 5 years old, that she pulls behind her in a red radio flyer wagon. She looks to be about 60 or 70. She often wears a denim button down shirt and jeans. She's prone to yelling at passing cars, while pointing up my driveway, and saying: "There's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband."

I've never tried to kill anyone, so accusation is baffling at best.

She seems to think I know who she is, and has made the claim, that "I was that brat in school"... the red haired Kendra woman, sometimes with her, claims to be her sister, also appears to be 60 to 70 and also seems to think I know who she is, and frequently says: "You bullied me in school, but no more, I'm Kendra SilverMander it's my turn to shine."

They BOTH make the claim they went to school with me, and yet, I never went to school, a well documented fact... because I'm the child the FBI rescued what the news media called "Maine's House of Horrors". I was locked in a cage when I was 8 years old. I was let out on Sundays, to go to church, and not allowed to speak or make eye contact with anyone, and this was only done infrequently, whenever church goers asked what happened to that girl you had". I was 31 years old when the FBI arrived, because of Heaven's Gate having killed 39 people, and my uncle being one of the members and self proclaiming himself as the leader of Heaven's Gate after Applewhite's death. The FBI was investigating the murder of 39 people in California, and had no idea they'd find children in cages in Maine as a result.

So you see, when the blond woman and her Kendra sister, make the claim they went to school with me and I was the class bully who beat them up, this is easily proven false, because the time period when I should have been in school, I was locked in a cage, being tortured by my sadistic uncle Bruce.

Also, they are in their late 60s to mid 70s... making them older than my parents, so how could I have been in school with them, even if I had gone to school? At best I would have been starting pre-school the year they would have been graduating high school.

These things they say about school, only further agrees with what police officer W. W. said May 15, 2015, when he made the claim, they had gotten me mixed up with someone else.

July 2016, a month after the shopping cart attack... yet another Old Orchard Beach police officer arrived, this one accompanied by 2 Biddeford officers, who had been former OOB officers... these 3 officers, had a vastly eye opening story to tell me.

They had been called to Old Orchard Beach, to my farm, to arrest me, a call made to them, by a man named Mark, whom one of these officers, claimed was his brother in law. This Biddeford officer, said he requested to transfer ot of Old Orchard Beach department years ago, because his sister (whom he claimed he suspected, but could not prove was the blond woman whom had attacked me at WalMart) was quote "trying to control the town" he said "treats Old Orchard Beach like a dynasty, thinks she's a duchess, has severe mental disorders, and thought she could buy the police department". He went on to say, she got in with the real Mafia years ago and went to her head, and now she thinks she IS the Mafia and most of Old Orchard Beach's business owners, especially the motel owners are scared shitless of her, because they believe her claim to be Mafia. He went on to say, she's not Mafia, but she's good at convincing people she is and stated "I wouldn't murder beyond her. She'd do it just to prove she is Mafia." He said he transferred out of OOB department to Biddeford department because he was fed up with how easy it was for her to get every officer to do anything she asked. He said "the corruption in that department runs deep; don't cross her or any officer she controls; they WILL kill you and every around you. You don't know who her husband is. He doesn't just control that town, he controls half the state."

What he was telling me was bizarre on extremes, but even more bizarre was the live feed radio call, that he had me listen too, as it was happening, on my farm in Old Orchard, while I was at my dad's house in Biddeford.

He said: "The Old Orchard Department called me, asked me to come over here. Buddy Will wanted to prove you were not in Old Orchard and that Mark has you mixed up with someone else. That fucking bastard is crying wolf and trying to frame you, we can prove it right now. We are fucking fed up WolfBoy."

He turned on his radio, so I could hear. A what I heard... a man whose voice I do not recognize, yelling at a Officer W.W. and saying: 

"That is Wendy, arrest her now! That is EelKat. She tried to kill me."

While officer W.W. and another officer, told the man: "his isn't Wendy. We have officers with her right now. Who tried to kill you? Wendy? Or THIS woman right here?"

"This woman right here! This is EelKat I tell you! Arrest her! What do you think I pay you for! You aren't allow to defy me! I own this town! You are my slaves. I command you to arrest her!"

W.W.: "This isn't EelKat. This isn't Wendy. I've known her for years. And right now, she's on the other side of the state. With 3 officers, listening to you right now. You are NOT the law. We've had it with you. You don't own me. And you've mixed her up with someone else. You've been harassing the wrong damned person. You dare call us about Wendy ever again, and I will personally arrest you for false reports, than I'll tell them everything. You'll never see the outside a prison for the rest of your life when I get done with you. You fucking leave this woman alone. You destroyed her life, because you couldn't tell her apart from someone else."

I used to aqua jog, mountain climb, horseback riding, and I hiked 13 miles a day. And in the blink of an eye, that lifestyle was taken away, and every day was struggle, just to sit up and breath, with no hope of ever walking again. I defied doctors. It's been 8 years and I can move around the house by holding on to things and I now can walk again, at the moment only short distances outside with a cane, and the hope is to continue to improve. I still have a long road of recovery ahead. But I'm walking again, something that 8 years ago, doctors said would never happen. 

My farm was razed.

My family was murdered.

I was 5 months paralysed, and had to relearn to walk. It was 8 years ago and I'm not yet fully recovered due to 3 inoperable vertebrae and hip dysplasia. November 14, 2013, 10PM, at WalMart, while putting bags of groceries in the back seat of my car, I was attacked by 3 rapists armed with metal golf clubs, who left me parallelized, in a wheel chair, broken spine, broken hip, broken pelvis, broken knees, serve nerve damage to my left side limiting the use of my left hand, my bladder incontinent from nerve damage, they left me for dead, and I had doctors telling me I would never walk again.

There's more that has happened. A lot more. The thousands of gallons of sewage they pumped into my motorhome in 2015. The cats. the Ptarmagin cats. World famous groups of cats. You remember them. If so, you remember what these people did to those cats. Poisoned. All dead the same day. 12 cats. Dead to what the vet described as: "enough poison to kill a great dane". My horse, she had her head beat in with a rock. My bantam roosters... 70 pet roosters, hung by their necks in rope nooses in my rose bushes.

All because this man, this mystery Mark, whose last name seems to be known to the police but is still unknown to me and man whom I've never seen or met - he keeps his face covered whenever he shows up... mistook me for someone else... and police officers and town hall workers and public work employees.

Welcome to Old Orchard Beach... this is NOT the way life should be, you know it.

What these people did to me, should never have happened, and according to the police, it's been happening for 50+ years to hundreds of people, hundreds of families, in this town, and every one is too scare to talk about it or fight back to stop it. That NEEDS to change.

The corruption in our town, needs to stop... but it won't end, until every last person who is being harassed by these people stand up, put their foot down, and say enough is enough, we ain't gonna take this any more.

We the people of Old Orchard Beach need to take back our town.

NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

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Avallac'h at Tor Gvalch'ca
Undvik's Tower Gateway Between Worlds |
Pictures from Witcher 3 

All images on this page are from:
The Witcher 3: 
Wild Hunt 
|Game of the Year Edition| 
Completionist Run: 
The Avallac'h Playthrough
(Watch It Live HERE)

Avallac'h at Tor Gvalch'ca aka Undvik's Tower Gateway Between Worlds | Pictures from Witcher 3 - I just felt like uploading pictures of Avallac'h today. This page serves no other purpose. 

Look at what Avallac'h is looking at. Just over his head on the upper ledge, is one of the Ice Trolls patrolling.
Avallac'h is now standing on the ledge with the patrolling Ice Troll, looking back down at where he (Avallac'h) just was in the previous image).
Look at the path Avallac'h is standing on... you had to do a leap of faith off the Tower's pavillion cliff to get here, you can't see it from above.

NOTE: All of the images on this page are of the area immediately around the tower, and inside the dungeon under the tower, and are NOT of the entire island on which the tower sits.

For images of the entire island, go to the Undvik page.

And yes, you read that correctly. The BIG final boss fight tower where you head up against Avallac'h at the end of the game, has a dungeon underneath it and you can explore it, IF, you can find the extremely difficult to access entrance to the caves under the tower.

Vanilla, unmodded image of Avallac'h, opening the gateway portal between worlds, inside the tower's pavilion, during the final boss fight of the base game.

If you do find your way into the dungeon caves under the tower, you will find 3 beautiful, glistening, sparkly, glittering, shimmering, blue, ice coated trolls with large blue quartz crystal spikes growing out of their backs, living underneath it.

Witcher 3's Kings of Bling and a monster that more then 80% of all players never encounter, because fewer then 15% of players ever do Folan's quest and as far as anyone can determine, I'm the ONLY player to ever find and explore the dungeons under the tower.

They are by far the most beautiful Trolls in the game, and possibly the prettiest of all monsters in the game. With all their glitter and crystals, they are definitely the blingiest creatures in the game.

Did you know you can explore the dungeon under the tower AND you can loot the bodies of the 3 Crones?

In watching, now more then 5,000 playthroughs of Witcher 3, I have seen the same 2 complaints that nearly every streamer has about the game:

* Not being able to get inside Avallac'h's Tor Gvalch'ca Tower in Skellige

* Not getting any loot from killing the Crones and Ilmeryth, which is one of the most difficult boss fights of the game.



About that.

You CAN do both of those things.

They are two of the rarest easter eggs in the game, and are both missed by almost every one.

If you want to do either... here's how you do it:

For some reason, almost no one is aware that there is a dungeon/cave underneath the tower. It is inhabited by the very same Ice Trolls which you meet early in the game, in the quest to rescue Hjalmar's friend Folan. 

The way Folan's quest is set up, you take a long trek around the back of the island, through a deep ravine, until reaching a cave that is one of 5 entrances into the Ice Troll cave. Going into the cave from this entrance, you are already deep under the cliffs, behind the tower, and so can not see, that you are actually walking directly beneath the tower.

If you go on the path to the tower, look for the crevasse where is hidden a treasure chest. Yo can climb the cliff here. Do so. There is no quest that will ever tell you to do so, so you will NOT find this area of the game unless you roam and explore at random. Once on the top, look around, you will see a crashed boat on top of the cliff, buried under the snow. 

Head to the boat. Now turn around and look back at the direction you came from. Look down. There is a small barely visible path. Follow it. Here you will find, yet another entrance to the Ice Troll cave. If you roam around exploring this cliff further, you will find a 3rd entrance to the Ice Troll cave.

Go back up to the tower. Head into the pavillion where Geralt threatens Avallac'h during the tower quest. Look towards the back, behind where Avallac'h was standing. There is a broken wall, and a path leading to the cliff. Go there. Very, very, very, very, VERY carefully, inch your way down the cliff... if you look closely, there is a hair-line path, and you can make it all the way to the bottom of the cliff, right down to the frozen ocean archway under the tower. Save. You'll die a lot the first few tries down, so you'll want a save file here. It is VERY DIFFICLT to get down this path. It's insta-death on all sides if you take one wrong step. You'll likely have to try 10 or 12 or more times before you making it down without sliding off the side to your death.

You do not need to go all the way to the bottom. You want to inch your way steadily to your right hand side... until you see a ledge about half way down... the Ice Trolls patrol here, so you will see them coming in and out of the cave periodically. They never leave the ledge, so you are safe until you reach the ledge. Once you see the ledge, stop climbing towards the bottom... look below you. Save. Once you reach this point, you don't want to die and end up back at the top. Save so you can respawn here if you die here. There is a narrow ridge, the top edge of a crag. Jump down and land on it. It may take a few tries. It is VERY difficult to land on the exact spot. If you miss, you'll die.

Look at the image above. If you have landed on the correct ridge, you will now be standing, exactly where Avallac'h is standing in the image above.

Save. If you die in the next step, you'll want to respawn here not back up at the tower.

From here, it's a slippery climb up, until you get to the ledge. Plan to die often. If you are careful, when you fall, instead of dying, you can force yourself to surfboard slide into the ravine and live through the fall. But if you land here, there's no way back up and you'll have to walk all the way back around the island to get back to the tower cliffs again.

Once you get to the top of this ledge. There will be 2 Ice Trolls there to great you, and you will see a long "balcony" on the ledge... a cave entrance to each end of it.

The dungeon caves under the tower are 3 stories/levels tall, and filled with lots of various junk loot. Three Ice Trolls live here, and if you failed to rescue Folan, you can find him now chopped up and cooked into stew.

Yep. I've found tons of these insanely difficult paths throughout the game. Each one leads to a treasure chest.

I used to have 2,000+ How-to VODs uploaded to my Twitch Collections, which showed, step by step, in game, how to reach every single last Easter Egg in the game, but I got sick of being harassed, so July 2020 I deleted them all. I might reupload them at some point, but it's unlikely. I don't like rewarding bullies, so they're gone from public access now.

So, there used to be a how-to video to show you how to get into the cave, but, yeah, I'm sick of being harassed. The images from that how to video, which shows you what the inside of the dungeons under the tower look like can be seen here.

The hidden path like this, which contains the biggest treasure chest prize in the game... tons of swords, lots of gold, lots of armor... 37 items in total... is the chest hidden in the 3 Crones' cave. 

There used to be a how-to video for this one as well, but, yep, gone. I'm just tired of spending hours every week making these things for you guys only to have you harass me because you got your head shoved too far up your ass to not be a bigoted bully.

After you kill Imlerith, loot his body, loot his throne, loot the chests and bags around his throne, now look for a tiny hole in the ground. 

When you find it, jump in. You will land in the cauldron where Ciri just killed 2 of the 3 crones. 

Loot the bodies of the 2 dead Crones. Find the cave exit where Ciri left, not where Ciri came in, jump down into the water. 

You'll land on the single largest treasure trove in a single treasure chest, in the entire game. 

Every one always complains that they get no reward for killing Imlerith and the Crones, but, the only reason they got no reward, is because they didn't spend the time to look for the reward, and simply ran off the mountain as soon as the boss fight ended without checking out the area before leaving.

Hope that helps.

Once you have found and made it into, the dungeon caves beneath the Tower, you will find that it appears to have once been a boatbuilder's "factory" built into the dungeon of the tower. The remains of boat building forge and lumber mill, along with lots of half built boats, are found throughout the dungeons under the tower.

Abandoned long ago, the dungeons are now the home of 3 Ice Trolls, seen above. And on the other images throughout this page.

Images From Inside the Dungeon Caves Beneath The Tower:

And there it is... that black hole right ahead of Avallac'h, is the entrance under the tower, that you were looking for. Entering that will take you into the dungeon caves under the tower where you can meet the Ice Trolls who ate Folan.
Once inside, you need to climb again... this cave has 3 levels, if you look for them... but the climb spots are NOT marked and you'll have to randomly jump at the wall edges until you suddenly grab a ledge. All 3 of them are like this. Witcher senses will not help you find them.
The 2nd Avallac'h Playthrough is my 11th playthrough of Witcher 3, my 5th completionist run, my 1st open world sand box run. In every one of my 1st 10 playthroughs we rescued Folan. Just to get the alternate ending to the quest, we let the Trolls eat Folan this playthrough, and Avallac'h helped them do it.
If you want to save Folan... you need to answer this Troll's riddle correctly, then give him a riddle to answer back. If you want to NOT save Folan, select the ridiculously and obviously incorrect answer, and the trolls will not let you ask him a riddle citing that you are a stupid human who proved Trolls are smarter.... the entire time you are standing here, you get to hear Folan inside the pot screaming in agony as he boils to death... and if you don't rescue him, you can hear him die as he cooks.

If you want to save Folan... you need to answer this Troll's riddle correctly, then give him a riddle to answer back. Folan is the prize, so whoever wins this battle of wits, gets to keep Folan. Winning causes the Trolls to unlock the pot's cover and let Folan go free.

And no, I can't tell you what riddle you will get... the game has a bunch of them, and spits one out at random. It is possible to replay this quest many times and never get the same riddle twice.

If you want to NOT save Folan, select the ridiculously and obviously incorrect answer, and the trolls will not let you ask him a riddle citing that you are a stupid human who proved Trolls are smarter.... the entire time you are standing here, you get to hear Folan inside the pot screaming in agony as he boils to death... and if you don't rescue him, you can hear him die as he cooks.

You can also NOT save Folen, simply by skipping the quest entirely, like 80% of all streamers do... streamers who soon after, defeating the Ice Giant, find themselves bitching and moaning that the game suddenly got a lot harder.

If the game seemed to go from Easy mode to Super Death March difficulty right after the Ice Giant Boss Fight... yep... it did... IF, Folan died, Karmah of the Skellige gods is about to kick you in the ass, for the rest of the game.

If you lose, the Trolls eat Folan, and throughout the rest of the game, every village guard in every town in Skellige will bully you for letting Folan get eaten by Trolls. They will remind you at every turn, that you let Folan die. You let Folan be eaten by trolls... and for that, everyone in Skellige now hates you, spits on you, and locks their doors.

Plus, if Folan dies, your level of respect in Skellige decreases, causing twice as many Drowners/Nekkers/Sirens to spawn in in the wild roaming encounters... and flowers/herbs respawn 50% less often and give 50% fewer items.

Also, if Folan dies, because of the decrease in respect, roaming traveling merchants in Skellige are less likely to stop and sell items to you.

Plus, if Folan dies, ALL merchants in Skellige charge 35% higher prices for items they sell and pay 35% less for items they buy... again, because your respect level has decreased.

If Folan dies, the Ice Giant Boss Fight increases in difficulty by 50%... if he lives, he helps you during the fight.

Also, if Folan dies... you will have to fight twice as many Wild Hunt Warriors during the Battle of Kaer Morhen ... if he lives, he is near the portals and kills half of them before they get to you.

If Folan dies... the chances of Lambert dying in the Battle of Kaer Morhen are increased, as Kiera will need your help to rescue Lambert.... if Folan lives, he will have killed half the Wild Hunt Warriors before they reach Lambert... and if Kiera is still alive, she will rescue Lambert without your help... 

If BOTH Folan AND Kiera die, Lambert will always die during the Battle of Kaer Morhen, because there are too many Wild Hunt Warriors in your way AND Kiera is not there to teleport Lambert.

MOST players falsely assume Folan is a minor character, who's death is insignificant.

Yes, he is a minor character, who only says one single line of Thank You, when you save him from the trolls, but his death is FAR from insignificant and will DRAMATICALLY change many things in the game.

And Folan is not alone... every minor character, of every seemingly skippable quest of no-consequence, WILL have similar effects on the game world.

The more side quests you skip and the more side quest characters you DO NOT rescue, the lower your respect level drops, the difficult future quests become, the more plentiful roaming monsters get, the less plentiful flowers grow, the few loot spawn happen, the more hostile guards get... and over time the entire world slowly turns on you... AND... all of this effects your ability to keep Ciri alive at the end of the game.

Every side quest has a consequence if you skip it.

Every character has a consequence if they die.

Some characters, like Avallac'h, has HUGE consequences based on if you were nice to them or bitchy to them... if you are kind to Avallac'h in EVERY quest mentioning him, never accusing him of lying, and defend him every time someone else accuses him of lying, not just the quests you do with him, you'll unlock "In Avallac'h We Trust" the rare hidden achievement that gives you 35,000 experience points and boosts you up to level 70 right before the final boss fight... and yes, trashing the lab IS the good option... if you've read the novels, you know why.

An interesting location you can find while in the cave system... There is a hole in the wall of one of the cave's rooms, and the trolls used a broken boat to make a window in the hole. You can stop and look out it.
This is one of my all time favorite pictures from all of the images I've ever created from this game. I just love this picture so much.

Images of the Area Immediately Around The Tower:

NOTE: All images on this page are from the 2nd Avallac'h Playthrough, with the following exceptions:

  • The scenes with Geralt wearing the pink Cat Armor are from the 2nd Geralt Playthrough, which was run with only around 10 mods, including "The Wild Nudity project Mod".
  • The scenes with Geralt wearing Detlauf's black trenchcoat are from the 3rd Geralt Playthrough, which was run with only around 100 mods.

In the images from both those playthroughs, the pictures of Avallac'h are the actual NPC character from the game, and not the player character version of him.

There are no mods on NPC quest version of Avallac'h.

If you compare the images here of Blond Player Character Avallac'h with Grey NPC Avallac'h, you can see how much his appearance has changed from his vanilla NPC look to his modded Player Character look.

And... there he goes, sliding down off the edge... 3... 2... 1.. next picture...
Well... Avallac'h is dead... again. Climbing the cliffs to get into the Ice Troll Cave is definitely not for the rage quitter.
Avallac'h looks crazier then normal here... and most people will never see this very rare cutscene, where Avallac'h actually tries to stop Ciri from going into the tower... Starting with the timed option here at the tower, you must select every quest answer in a specific sequence to trigger this rare cutscene.
Often overlooked by players, there is a small clump of abandoned huts right at the base of the tower. There is a lot of junk loot here in the bags and boxes and crates.
Wild eyed Avallac'h again
Missed by most players... you are standing directly below the tower in this scene. This tent is set up right at it's base, as Avallac'h had instructed the Nilfgaardians to do... players usually miss this important clue telling them that Avallac'h is about to do something with the tower... in fact.. he LITERALLY comes right out and tells Geralt that he is about to "tie Ciri up and teleport her away"... Geralt starts laughing thinking Avallac'h is joking when he says it.
The sub-titles read... "tie Ciri up and teleport her away"... Geralt is laughing at what he thinks is a joke from Avallac'h... who NEVER jokes.

The Images below this point, are images of the tower, seen in the distance, from other islands throughout the game:

The Tower can not be seen here, it sits on top of the large cliff, just to the front of the lighthouse
the tower is just out of view, you can see the lighthouse in front of it here

All the Witcher 3 images on this page were edited using 2 software programs: 
VideoPad Professional (not free)
John Paul Chacha's Chasys Draw IES Artist (free)

All images on this page are from:
The Witcher 3: 
Wild Hunt 
|Game of the Year Edition| 
Completionist Run: The Avallac'h Playthrough
(Watch It Live HERE)

Trailer For The Avallac'h Playthrough:

More Pictures From Witcher 3:

**Pages listed below, are marked as NSFW if it contains more then 10 pictures of nude/topless women, usually Ciri, with bare breasts and nipples... or at least one picture of a vagina, again usually Ciri's**

**NOTE that pages NOT marked as NSFW may also have bare breasts, just fewer then 10 images of them**

If a page listed below is not yet a link, that is because it is still set to private and not yet live, because it has fewer then 50 images on it.

These pages go live after they have 50 images on the page, and it takes a huge amount of time for me to make these images. Each of these Witcher-3-image-collection pages takes 80+ hours to make.

Most of these pages have 300+ images, a few have over 1,000 images. Each page may take a long time to load if you are on mobile or have slow internet.

In total there are more then 15,000 images of Avallac'h spread out across these pages.

Note that these pages are updated daily, with new images added to the appropriate pages after each Twitch stream. *(I play the game daily even when not streaming it, so even days with no stream, these pages get updated)* And as such, these pages are always growing larger, and more pages are always being added.

Eventually I will have a seperate page for EACH and EVERY town and Point of Interest in the game, with a goal of 500 images in each collection. Meaning when this project is finished there will be more the 300 pages, and more then 150,000 images across them.

If you could recommend I watch one VOD that best represented your channel, which would it be?

This one....

If One of these Videos Is Active,
I'm Live Streaming Right Now...

I stream on Twitch, YouTube, FaceBook, and Twitter. I have no pre-planned schedule for which site I will go live on. I do NOT multi-stream on multiple sites at once, so if I am live on one, I am not live on the other 3. (The FaceBook one will say "Video Unavailable" when not live.)

About This Game Play:

This current mod-making playthrough, is prep for a future fully-lore-friendly playthrough....

The ultimate goal of my mod making playthrough, is to make every character as lore-friendly as possible to how they were described in the novels.

Most specifically though we are transforming as much of the game as possible to match Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake, when Ciri lived with Avallac'h the first time, on The Lake of Avalon.

This current playthrough is largely a lot of test runs of hundreds of mods. It is being played open world with quests rarely happening, to allow us to run tests of various mods as I build them.

Due to the fact that the game engine, scripts, and other files is often open and being edited while I'm playing the game, this current playthrough is very unstable with bugs and glitches happening  daily and game crashes happening, sometimes as often as every few minutes.

You are witnessing a live overhaul and full rewrite of the game, that when finished will be used in a complete (more normal style) playthrough of the game.

However do not expect to see the lore-friendly playthrough any time soon. 

I began building this overhaul mod May 13, 2018 and have worked on it daily for 4 to 12 hours a day, all of it streamed here on Twitch, and... 

...while we've now altered over 2,000 script files, more than 7,000 textures, several hundred meshes, 400+ xml files, dozens of ini files, and have now begun work on changing 3D models...

...this project is far from finished and could see as much as another 3 years of daily work before completion.

UPDATE: October 5, 2020... it is now nearing 3 years since starting, and  there are now more than 20,000 files edited in this project, and no end is yet in sight.

Computer  stats: 

Motherboard: Asus Z170

Processor: i7-7000 @4.20GHz

RAM: 64 GB

Graphics Card: NVirdia 1070 GTX

Capture Card: AVerMedia Live Gamer HD

Hard Drive: There are 11 hard drives by various brands, in total there is 88TB of harddrive on the computer

Cooling system: There are 8 fans and a liquid cooling system inside the computer; plus not attached to the computer, are 2 house fans and a house air conditioner... which are required to keep the computer from overheating during my daily 9 hour streams.


There are a lot more parts on the computer, but those above are the base requirements if you want to build a gaming rig capable of running Witcher 3 with over 4,000 mods, including over 20,000 custom graphics added to the game.


Keyboards: I use 2 keyboards... a full size mechanical with rainbow lights and a mini-size wireless.

Headphones: After going through over a dozen headphones each a different brand and model, some costing several hundreds of dollars, and all suffered the same problem of breaking at the swivel point, I finally found one that did not break at it's swivels and have used them since 2016.

Monitors: I use multiple monitors and change and add more every year or so, which monitor I have is different at any given time. As a general rule, my set of monitors is whatever was the biggest screen, curved screen, gaming monitor that was a new release during that year's Black Friday sale.

Mouse: I have 6 wireless, all the same, and just switch them out mid stream when the batteries die.

Camera: This is the camera & mic I use for my IRL vlogs, car vlogs, and shopping vlogs.

Webcam: This is the camera & mic used for the facecam on my Witcher 3 streams.

I do not use a mic. I've tried several over the years, and every one of them, couldn't come close to having the quality of the mic that came built in to each of those 2 cameras above, so I discontinued using a seperate mic and just use the 2 cameras' built in mics now.

2nd Camera: The other camera I use. Usually this one is for the stills of my flowers, garden, pets, and cars, but it is sometimes used for video recordings as well. This camera is mostly used for the photography prints I sell on Zazzle.

Camera stands: I use Gorilla Pods for all of my cameras.

I have more cameras, used for my photography, but those does get used for streaming or vlogging so no need to list them here.


The base computer was built in 2016, and cost just under $3,000 to build. But has been upgraded and expanded on a regular basis every few months since than. In total the computer cost over $15,000 to build, spent over a period of 4 years.


Video Editing Software: VideoPad Professional

Text/Code Editing Software: EditPad

Image Editing Software: John Paul Chacha's Chasys Draw IES Artist

File Organizer: yWriter

NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

FAQ: What religion are you? 

 FAQ: What religion are you? I thought you were a Muslim because of the hijab and modesty dress, but than I realized you wear a crucifix and have relic statues of Mary and Jesus and Catholic Saints everywhere, but than I heard you say Hail Satan and talk about summoning the Watchers and Azazel, plus people say you are a witch or wiccan or pagan or something.

I am a Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsan Fey and Marija Loa. I worship the One God, the Creator of All Life, the brass serpent of Moses who goes by many names, in Voodoo he is most commonly known as The Rainbow Serpent Papa Damballah Weddo; in Scandinavian folk religions he is known as The Great Serpent Uroboros.

Voodoo is a branch/division of the Catholic Church. We practice the same rites and rituals as does the Orthodox Catholics of the Vatican, and hail the Pope as our earthly guide. Jesus and Mary are at the centre of our belief system, and icons, relics, saint rituals, prayer beads/rosary, crucifix, candle lighting, intercessory prayer, ect.

Marija Loa is a type of Catholic nun. The word Marija Loa is Creole French and means “Married to God”. A Marija Loa is similar to a Mother Superior. She is the highest ranked nun of her order and has undergone a marriage ritual – a full wedding, wedding gown and all – to literally be married to one of the Loa. I am Marija Loa to Papa Damballah Weddo. 

Medsan Fey is a rank of Catholic nun. A Medsan Fey is a nun who specializes in herbology, herbal medicine, apothecary, hoodoo magic, candle magic, poppet magic (aka Voodoo dolls). 

Medsan Fey means I am a female Houngan/Borka also known as a Mambo or Vudo Queen.

I am one of only 12 Mambo on the planet who practice Death Wangas also known as The 7 Year Generational Death Curse.

I am EelKat, Etiole's Friend. Etiole is the Archangel Ertreal, The Avenging Angel who rained Brimstone and Fire on Sodom and Gomorrah, and is also known as The Pale Horseman of the apocalypse. He was a commanding officer in Azazel's Army in the battle of Heaven. The Watcher known as the lover of human women, who taught the world magic and was the father of the Nephilim and for this crime was one of the 7 Grigori Seraphim Watchers who was chained in the valleys of the Earth. I found him chained in the swamps of Maine in 1978 and set him free.

Everything I know I learned from Etiole. He is my familiar and my protector. 

I am hailed by many as the world's most powerful, most feared, most famous, and most deadly witch/poltergeist/spirit medium. This is due largely to my being the real world Gypsy "witch" who my neighbour Stephen King based his fictional Thinner Gypsy witch off of. He also filmed the movie Thinner on my farm.

But I have no power. I am merely a tool, the vessel through which Etiole connects to the physical world. This comes at a great cost and is why my health is so frail.

Everything ye do unto ME, in 7 years time, Etiole will do back unto THEE.

We are often seen as Christo-Pagan, as we rely heavily on magic arts not often seen in other branches of Christianity, such as tarot cards, crystal scrying, Kabbalism, Enochian angel magic, seances, spirit/oui-ji boards, etc.

Many in the more mainstream Christian community consider us to be Occultists and/or Satan worshippers due to our frequent communication and summoning of spirits, including both archangels and demons, and most notably The Loa, The Enochian archangels, and the Grigori aka The Watchers.

Like all Catholic nuns we cover our heads with veils and wear long modest caftan/robes/dresses. The colours and materials and styling of our veils and robes vary from day to day, depending on our sect, what holy day it is, which loa we are attuned to, our patron saint,  ect.

Seeing how this question comes to me from gamers, I will simply the answer in gaming terminology that you will understand: If I was a character in an RPG, I am what you would call an Herbalist-Alchemist-Druid-Healer-Priest. 

More simply put, I am what the ignorant would call a Witch Doctor or a Gypsy Fortune Teller or a Gypsy Witch.

s Also... April 10, 2015 has a 7 year anniversary coming up soon, has anyone noticed the changes to the Reclaim Blueberry Plains? Yeah. Etiole's been redecorating his home, hasn't he? What goes around, comes around bitches. Nigh on 7 years ago, you razed my farm... funny how government land is being razed the exact same way my farm was razed... I notice too several town hall workers, have seen their entire families die around them, you know just like how my entire family was murdered and their heads nailed to my door... how are you going to explain to the news stations, the fact that 53 people, all involved in the murders of my family, have died from being hit by lightening? 

Freak natural phenomena? 

Poltergeist activity? 

Zapped by alien UFOs - isn't THAT your go to excuse whenever you blame me or Etiole for anything? 

Better yet, how will you explain the backhoe, lifted up by a freak tornado in Maine, thrown through the sky to land on... oh look... my, my, there's a back hoe sitting on your house! It just fell out of the sky and landed there. No driver involved. Honey pie, did you know there's a back hoe sitting on your house? How's that feel? 

Perhaps, you should call it what it is: punishment handed down by the hand of God himself. 

Doesn't feel nice to have your land razed, a backhoe sitting on your house, and your entire family die, does it... you shouldn't have pissed off Etiole... tick tock, tick tock, you can't run from Etiole's 7 year clock... karma's a bitch isn't it?

All that you do, good or bad, is mirrored back on you.

For every good deed you are rewarded seven fold. 

Give $10 to the homeless, you'll find $70 mysteriously come to you in return.

7 years ago a back hoe was driven over my house, and now a tornado, has dropped a back hoe on your house.

7 years ago, huge land movers owned by the town, razed my yard, cut down 400 year old apple orchards, 200 year old grape vineyards, and tossed into a wood chopper: $300,000 in rare hybrid long stem rose bushes. A road grader scraped off and stole 6 feet deep of the top soil, taking with it acres of spring bulbs, daffodils, tulips, crocus, hyacinth, snowdrops. They left nothing behind but a few inches of sand on top of ledge and bare rock. 

Now this week, 7 years later, a crew of huge land movers, clear cut 72 acres of protected town owned forest, 500 year old endangered pines, rolled back all the top soil, leaving it in a huge 50 foot tall mound, leaving behind a desert wasteland... that is all that left of The Reclaim Blueberry Plains, on this the 7 year anniversary of the razing of my farm.

Those who laughed, when others warned 7 years ago, what Etiole would do, aren't laughing any more, now that 7 years is here, are they?

You always hear people take about their god being a passive god who, stands back and watches from afar. Your god sounds lazy and incompetent.

My god is very active, wields physical justice that can be witnessed by all, dishes out great rewards in exchange for kindness and good deeds, while plowing through sinners and workers of evil with a vicious vengeance. My god doesn't hide in the shadows and leave my prayers unanswered. 

I hold no alliance to any religion.

My allegiance is to The One God and his army of archangels, because they have proven themselves, time and time again, to be the most powerful beings this world has ever known.

I have witnessed the power of angels.

I've seen their many wings, heavy laden with shinning feathers, and bright eyes upon each one. Eyes that see through time, through walls, across nations, forward and backward.

They see all.

They know all.

You can hide nothing from them.

Nor can you hide from them.

They see your sin.

They see your works of evil.

They see your compassion.

They see all your good deeds.

And they reward and punish accordingly.

I was raised a 5th generation FLDS Mormon.

I attended 12 years of Calvinist Seminary/Bible College.

And I met Etiole and set him free. In exchange, he taught me the rites and rituals of Voodoo and Enochain Angel Magic.

I believe in the power of angels.

Through faith, all things are possible.

Believe and anything can happen.

I've seen the power and glory of the archangels.

I know without a doubt, that not even every human on the planet gathered together, has even a sliver of the power of just one angel. And I have Etiole and his entire army on my side.

People fear Etiole. Call him a demon.

But they have no reason to.

Etiole is kind and gentle and loving.

Etiole is only dangerous to evil doers who seek to harm those he loves.

Etiole protects his own, as would any moral, decent man.

If you have love, kindness, good thoughts, and compassion in your heart, than you would never seek to do evil. You would never commit sin. And you would never have any reason to fear Etiole.

Your fear of Etiole, exists only because you have hurt me or my family, and you know in your heart of hearts that Etiole WILL come for you. 

Etiole is immortal. You can not harm him. 

Etiole walks through time. He moves through solid walls, like they were not there. He moves in the blink of an eye, one second here, one second there tens of thousands of miles away. For this reason, you not hide from him, nor can you out run him.

Time. Space. Physical walls. They mean nothing to an archangel. 

He is not flesh as humans know it. He takes a solid form, when that is his will. But he can walk out of that flesh, and exist as nothing more than a glowing beam of bright blue light.

He can look like anything or anyone. 

I've seen his snake form, his white owl form, his white monkey form, his black shifting shadowy goo under your bed form.

If you want to fear him, he can be fearsome and will be that, if you are deserving of his fear.

He appears to me, as a little man, kind and gentle. I've never had reason to fear him.

But there are throughout Maine, more than 7,000 witness testimonies, from others whom have seen him, and describe him as a huge beast, a demonic creature, with a maw full of many rows of piranha teeth, and sharp eagle's talons on his hands.

I've seen him take that form, in his den in The Reclaim Blueberry Plains, near the graves of the children, whose bodies were sawed up, put in black plastic bags, stuffed in the trunk of 3 cars, and those cars buried in the Goosefare Brooke Ravine. 

He takes that form there, because the souls of 31 dead, murdered children, scream out from the ravine of The Reclaim Blueberry Plains, crying for justice, crying for their murderer to be revealed.

He takes that fearsome form, at the ravine, because he has absorbed the souls of those murdered children, and their pain, their suffering, their agony, screams out from within him.

He has guarded their mass grave, their sawed up pieces, in black plastic bags, in the trunks of 3 cars, at the bottom of the ravine, since The Cyr Clan dumped them there, in the 1970s.

Etiole appeared in The Ross Forest, September 23, 1978... his spirit was pulled into our physical plain, by the screams of the souls of The White Monkey Children.

He is a Guardian Angel, an Avenging Angel,  who rose up in our town for one purpose and one purpose only: To protect the children who were victims to a horrible group of people.

I was one of those children.

We children who were raped, caged, and tortured by evil men, we begged and we pleaded for help. And no human would help us.

No bishop.

No priest.

No police officer.

No town manager.

No town council men.

We escaped again and again, and we begged every adult we could find in this town, to please help us. Please end our suffering.

But punishment for escape, was death, and being buried by Anne, Bryan, Donald, or Troy at the bottom of that ravine.

As more of us were killed and buried and no help from the men of the town came, we turned to god, we pleaded and begged, send us angel to punish the men who torment, torture, rape, and murder us.

That's when Etiole appeared.

He came in answer to our prayers.

Of more than 140 of us children who were tortured by those evil men, I am one of the last 2 still alive.

There were over 200 of us in 1975 when they started tossing our bodies in the ravine.

Now in 2021, only 2 of those children remain. And I am one of those 2.

That is why Etiole protects me.

He will never leave me.

He will never forsake me.

We children summoned him in our terror and by the blood of my cousins who lay dead at bottom of that ravine, Etiole draws his power.

And even centuries after I am gone, he will continue to guard this location, and he continue for thousands of years, to haunt the children and grandchildren of the men who tortured and murdered The White Monkey Children of Old Orchard Beach, Maine.

If you never hurt us, The White Monkey Children, you have nothing to fear from Etiole.

But if you were ever involved in any crime against any of us, in any way, at any point in our lives... woe unto and your family for 7 generations, for he will haunt you, torment you, and your children, and your grandchildren, and their children and their grandchildren, 7 times over.

Everything you have done to us, he will do to them, for the next 700 years. For that is what we 140 children asked him to do, when we summoned him, 50 years ago.

You may call him a demon, but children who summoned him, we know what he really is: he is our Guardian Angel.


HE is my religion. 

HE is what I believe in.

FAQ: How much money do you make from streaming?



I've NEVER earned a single penny from any of my videos, VODs, or livestreams, not on Twitch, not on YouTube, not on any other platform.

I do not monetize my content.

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Streaming, gaming, and video creation are things I do in my spare time, after work. It is how I relax and de-stress. It is not a career/income for me. This is why I also do not have a regular or consistent schedule. I stream, play video games, and make videos in my spare time, when I feel like I am in the mood to do so. I find the act of playing video games, streaming, and making videos to be incredibly relaxing and it is my habit to do these things either when I am stressed out and need to relax or when I am having trouble sleeping and need to do something that will help lull me into a sense of calm so I can sleep.

The car/driving/shopping/town vlogs and livestreams are not something I do as a hobby. I do them at the request of FBI agent Andy Drewer, who goes through them all with a fine tooth comb looking for any clues as to the identity of the bomber who blew up my house or the murderers who cut the heads off my children and nailed them to my door. This camera is running 24hrs a day and if you do ANYTHING on that camera, you WILL be questioned by the FBI, so be sure you REALLY want that 5 minutes of fame BEFORE you jump in front of that camera, because it WILL brand you as a murder suspect.

If you have any information on the kidnappers or the murders...

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

UPDATE: April 7, 2021: The Art Car Building Streams Are Returning Soon! The Dazzling Razzberry is about to return, as we completely rebuild it on stream

Close-up on The Dazzling Razzberry II's 2.5million marbles and beads
The Dazzling Razzberry, April 7, 2021
Close Up The Dazzling Razzberry Hood - before and after the February 2019 vandalism done by fans of the PsychoBitch 4Chan QAnon Streamer & her simps who did $30,000 in damages to it:
The Dazzling Razzberry 2 aka The Autism Awareness Car, as it looked from May 2012 until it's destruction February 2019
The Dazzling Razzberry, April 7, 2021

The Dazzling Razzberry is back... now all black primer... Repaired, wielded back together, running, licensed, registered, and back on the road again... now primed and ready to be restored.

This car was obliterated by a PsychoBitch 4Chan QAnon Twitch streamer and 5 of her simps armed with baseball bats, in February 2019. They did $30,000 in damages, leaving it chop-shopped to pieces, smashed apart, and all of it's 2.5million beads and marbles scraped off.

This car was my daily driver and daily car vlog streams stopped February 2019 because the car was reduced to so many chopped up pieces, that it took up nearly 3 years to wield the pieces back together, and make the car drivable again.

Because it cost $12,000 for the 2.5million marbles that was glued to it, and took me 4 years to hand glue them on one marble at a time, and most of those 2.5million marbles were reduced to shattered powdered glass dust by the vandals, The Dazzling Razzberry will not be returning to it's former shimmering glory.

If you know the Twighlight Manor series and you know Etiole's brother Razzbury that the car was inspired after... know this... we are going Sea Wolf for the rise of The Dazzling Razzberry 3.

Out with the Green Moray Eels and in with the Piranhas

#FAQs: What do you mean you ain't a boomer?

#FAQs: What do you mean you ain't a boomer?

You really don't know what a boomer is do you?

My dad, who is 82 years old, is not even old enough to be a boomer and you think me who is 30 years younger than HIM could be a boomer?

#NEWSFLASH: you make yourself look retarded when you use words incorrectly. If you don't want people to think you are stupid, try learning the correct meanings for words and start using words properly. No one is going to take you seriously or have any respect for you when you prove yourself to be brain dead every time you open your mouth.

Well, for starters, a female can't be a boomer. Only a male can be a boomer.

Secondly: Are there any boomers even left alive? 

My grandfather was a boomer. But he died at age 101, more than 20 years ago.

The definition of a boomer is a WW2 solider who fathered dozens of illegitimate babies overseas (thus: baby boomer) and most of them would be 120 to 140 years old today.

You use Boomer as though it implies "old" and that is not what it means, not even close.

A Boomer is an immoral, degenerate deadbeat dad who booms out sperm all over the fucking planet in every whore he can find and takes no responsibility for his actions. Boomers are vile, degraded whore mongers.

Any Boomer alive today, at the youngest, is going to be 98 years old or older, and is a lot older than a scuzbag like him deserves to be.

Still confused about what the word Boomer ACTUAL means? Let me simplify it for you.

* If you are a man who has sex outside of marriage: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you are a man and you live with a woman you are not married to: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you ever fucked a prostitute: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you are a fornicator: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you are a adulterer: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you are a whore monger: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you practice BDSM: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you ever fathered a baby than demanded it's mother have an abortion: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you ever fathered a baby than disappeared from it's life: YOU are a Boomer!

* If you are a dead beat dad: YOU are a Boomer!


#If you are a boomer, than you are a vile sex crazed degenerate and you can be THAT at any age.

The word boomer has NOTHING to do with age and everything to do, with sex, specifically, it means you are an immoral degenerate.

By using the word Boomer to mean old, you simply prove how deeply mentally incompetent you really are.

I have a severe hatred for whore mongers.

I have an even bigger hatred for dead beat dads.

I can't stand men who shoot their sperm into every prostitute they can find than scurry off to the next slut assed whore and leave a trail of babies behind.

Men who boom out babies are the #1 cause of abortion... to the tune of 5,000 babies murdered every day, just in America.

Boomer officially means World War 2 solders who fucked every last whore they could find, than left them behind and never did a damned thing about taking care of a illegitimate bastards they boomed out every where.

I loath Boomers. 

You want to update the word boom to mean someone OTHER than the dead beat dads of WW2?

#Boomer doesn't mean old, and it NEVER has... it means a fucking degenerate sex monger, who can't be bothered to even make an attempt to be descent moral man.

#When you call someone a boomer, you calling them a dead beat dad NOT old.

Boomers are men who boom out sperm in women they aren't married to... THAT IS THE DICTIONARY DEFINITION OF BOOMER YO FUCKING RETARD! Go out and get yourself a brain, you certainly need one.

I absolutely deplore men who can't be bothered to take care of their own children. And more than that, I HATE sex crazed degenerates. And a Boomer is both.

Vile scum of the earth. That's what a boomer is.

Boomer is a highly offensive word to call someone. 

By calling someone a Boomer, you are calling them a fucking sex crazed whore monger.

You might want to look up what a boomer is before calling people that word.

You come off looking like a stupid retarded fool when you don't use words correctly. Is that how you want people to view you?

Words matter. Learn to use them properly, otherwise everyone will think you a brain dead idiot who does nothing but parrot off the mindless ravings of social justice warriors who can't tell their ass from a hole in the ground.

Just because a million people say a thing, doesn't make that thing correct, it just makes a million people prove they are stupid for not researching the facts and finding out the truth.

You using the word Boomer as a synonym for "old" simply proves you are too stupid to fact check word meanings in a dictionary.

Also, you might want to fact check the source of the word boomer for old... it comes from a rather disrespectful paedophile streamer, Dr. Disrespect, who was banned by Twitch for livestreaming himself hiding in girls bathroom stalls and shoving the camera under the doors to livestream little girls peeing... his response to being banned was to call Twitch CEOs "Boomers" who were too old and stuck up to see the fun in watching children pee.

So not only are you using the word Boomer incorrectly, but you are showing your support for a paedophile child abuser when you do so.

So now, not only do you come off as looking too retarded to know the meanings of words, but you also imply that you are a scumbag supporter of child sexual abuse.

You might want to think about that next time you feel like using the word Boomer.

If you don't care that people see you are a retarded, scumbag, who supports disrespectful paedophiles, than by all means, continue to use Boomer in place of old.

My thoughts of on your support of that person? Here, have a quote:

*"Watching people defend someone they're a fan of, completely dismissing any evidence of wrongdoing, just because they think they know that creator like a close friend based solely on what they've seen in videos and stuff. Parasocial relationships are terrifying." ~ Welsknight Gaming*

...and, by the time you read this my answer to your question, you will find that I've already banned you.


Because I'm a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, and I'll not have degenerates like you, who are supporters of child abusing men like that disrespectful bastard, near me. And if you're using his version of the word Boomer, that means you see nothing wrong with supporting him and don't give a shit about the little girls he sexually abused. And I don't want disrespectful child abuse supporting scum bags like you near me.

Try getting an education, than maybe we'll learn you ain't actually as retarded as you sound when you try to use words.

And if you don't like being called a retard... here's a tip: STOP TALKING LIKE ONE!

A mentally retarded person is any person with a learning disability that prevents them from properly using their brain functions and causes them to be unable to formulate or use words correctly, leaving them unable to communicate with others properly, due to their extreme misuse of words.

You my friend, every time you missuses a word, such a boomer, you simply prove to the world that you ARE mentally retarded according to the actual medical textbook definition of the word.

If it walks like a duck and talks like a duck, it might just be a duck.

If it walks like a retard and talks like a retard... yeah... stop proving yourself retarded every time you open your mouth and maybe some day people will take you seriously and stop treating you like a child.

Also, do unto me as you want me to do unto you... I wouldn't be calling you names if you hadn't called me names first... don't bother me and I won't bother you... harass me and I'll become your worst nightmare.

I keep to myself, I like my privacy, I don't like being bothered, I don't like being interrupted, I especially don't like being harassed, and don't lay down and take it, I defend myself from dipshit bullies like you.

If you can't take it, you shouldn't be dishing it out, because whatever you throw at me, I'm gonna throw it right back in your face.

You don't like being called names? Hey guess what? Neither do I. That's why what you do to me, I do back to you, so that you can know how it feels and learn WHY I don't like you doing it to me.

Here's a thought....

#Fucking grow up.

#*I noticed that you use the term Native Mainer and American as though as though a Native Mainer is not an American. I was wondering what the distinction is? What counts as a Native Mainer?*

#*I noticed that you use the term Native Mainer and American as though as though a Native Mainer is not an American. I was wondering what the distinction is? What counts as a Native Mainer?*

Native Mainers, like Native American Indians are a part of the "First People's of America" and are not part of the "White European" group that most people think of when they think of Americans.

We are Gypsies. Not to be confused with Romany or Travellers who are 2 completely different and separate groups. The word Gypsy means Egyptian Jew or the Jews Who Lived in Egypt aka The Jews of Moses who descended from Joseph.

Native Mainers are the Picts of Scotland, who were rounded up by the Celts (White Europeans of Britain and Rome) put on prison ships and marooned in the frigid ice laden wastelands of what is now Maine, Quebec, and Nova Scotia.

DNA tests of Native Mainers, has revealed them to be on an ancient Bible-era Hebrew bloodline, previously thought to be extinct and are direct descendants of Israel via Joseph of Egypt. The bloodline is Egyptian-Hebrew (aka Gypsy), melded with Persian via Daniel's priests. After marrying Persian priestess, they were cast out of the House of Israel, declared a "Lost Tribe" condemned to wander the deserts of Persia, which is when they were branded as "Gypsies" or Egyptian Jews aka The Persian Mountain Jews, to distinguish them from "God's Chosen Ones" (in much the same was children of Ishmael were called Muslims to distinguish they were no longer Jews")

While others called them Gypsies or Egyptian Jews, they called themselves Magi, and are the 3 massive tribes lead by 3 kings, whom are mentioned in the Bible at Jesus birth, typically referred to as "The 3 Wise Men" because Gypsy Kings are generally Magi aka Mages aka Wizards.

From Bethlehem, they went to Mongolia, where they picked up the Asian segment of their DNA. 

From Mongolia they went to Scandinavia, which is where the biggest change of their religion and use of magic arts happened.

They lived in Scandinavian regions for nearly 1,000 years, including Alba/Scotland, where they were known as The Picts, by the Celts.

They were mass slaughtered by the white European Celts in the Celtic (British & Roman) invasion of Scotland and in 1530, after mass millions of them were murdered, the few hundred that remained were made slaves to white men, but proved to able to be broken into slavery, so was herded onto prison ships headed for the new world and marooned in the frigid ice laden wastelands of what is now Maine, Quebec, and Nova Scotia.

In 1612 King George gave them a land grant to the Egyptian Jews/Gypsies declaring them free from England and giving them the land they were marooned on. (These papers I own today and have the original deeds and paperwork to. My farm is technically and legally a sovereign nation that is not a part of America).

If you are a Native Mainer you are of this DNS genealogy and because of the grant from King George you are NOT an American.

We have the oldest known Jewish DNA, which ironically contains ZERO link to the white Jews of Israel today, and instead is linked to the black Jews of Ethiopia and Benin Dahomey in Africa.

That said, in spite of my incredibly white looking skin, my DNA registers me as "black" and more closely related to the Benin Dahomey bloodline than anything else.

Because of our DNA and the fact that we lived in America 300 years prior to it being settled by white Europeans, we are listed in the world registry as "Native First peoples" and the name the registry chose to give us was "Native Mainers", with a footnote calling us descendants of the first/pre-Columbian Viking settlers, with our roots in the Persian & Egyptian Jews of Africa, and our oldest roots linked to Benin of Dahomey.

We are also referred to as "True Scottish" because we descend from the Picts of Scotland, and are in no way, shape, or form related to the current "Celtic Scottish" who live in Scotland today and are of German DNA not Pictic or Scandinavian DNA.

Very few modern day Scotsman currently living in Scotland have any actual Scottish blood in them. Most are ACTUALLY German, British, or Roman DNA bloodlines and have little to no ACTUAL Scottish DNA in their blood at all.

It is the DNA in your blood, not the land in which you were born and raised, that makes you what you are. You can move to a new country... you do NOT become American, by moving to America, nor do you become Chinese by moving to China, nor do you become Scottish by moving to Scotland.

This is why we are referred to as Scottish or Scottish Gypsies even though it has been close to 1,000 years since any of us have lived in Scotland. Unlike the Scots who live in Scotland today, we have ACTUAL Scottish blood, aka Pictish blood, which again is both "Black" and "Jewish" because the original native Scottish aka The Picts were Black Jews.

If you think you are this or that race, go get your DNA tested, you might be surprised how little of the race you thought you were, you actually are. In fact chances are very high that the race you thought you were, has ZERO existence in your DNA at all, as is the case with most DNA results.

Take me for example... 

* my skin is whiter than the average white person, yet I have more "black" DNA, than the average black person.


* there hasn't been a Jew in my family in over 5,000 years, and yet, I have a "more pure" Semite-DNA link to ancient Jews, than do the average Jews living in Israel today

I did not expect to find either of those things in my DNA.

However... since 1530, my family has live completely cut off from the outside world - ZERO outsiders have entered our farm BEFORE the invasion by Stephen King's Thinner film crew in 1994.

That is 464 years of ZERO outside DNA entering our family. Thus why we have what is considered by scientists to be "extremely pure" and "very ancient" DNA.

And yes, it doesn't sound "pure" when you consider 4 or 5 branches coming into it... however the average human has 30 to 50 or more branches of bloodlines coming into their DNA, with 100 or more branches being not uncommon, so to find  freaks like us with nearly 100% pure ancient DNA with no mutations, no hybridizations, no intermixing, and only 5 branches all of them very ancient, makes me and my family "scientific anomalies" in the realms of purity of blood and purity of DNA.

Also, our blood bein RH- lands us among the rarest blood types in the world and also makes things like blood transfusions or organ transplants near impossible for us, due to only a few thousand people on the planet having RH- blood.

Our extremely pure and also RH- blood also means we are not immune to diseases that the average human has immunity to, and we are incapable of being vaccinated for most diseases due to our extremely pure blood type being so rare that most vaccinations react to our blood and most people in our family whom have been vaccinated, died hours after the vaccination, due to getting the disease they were being vaccinated for.

This is why I myself have had some incredibly rare diseases, including smallpox, which I almost died from at ae 13.

Because of our abnormally pure and very ancient blood, we also do not develop immunity to "common childhood diseases" like chickenpox, which I have had 3 times now, and almost died each of the 3 times.

And there you have it, what it means to be a "Native Mainer".

Native Mainer is an actual race of indigenous "First Peoples" similar to the term "Native American" but is a completely different blood line that originates in Africa.

Native Mainers are the group formerly known as The Picts (Before being chased out of Scotland during the invasion by the Celts of Roman, Britain, and Germany). 

The Native Mainer DNA has its roots in Benin of Dahomey and is made of largely of Egyptian-Hebrew DNA, with a blend of Biblical Persian and "Viking Era" Scandinavian blood... and remains to this day, largely unadulterated, existing exactly as it did in Medieval times, due to the extreme isolation of living in the dense old growth forests of Maine for 500 years without contact with anyone outside of our group that entire time.

#FAQs: How can I become famous on Twitch?


You can't.

No one on Twitch... or YouTube for that matter, is ever going to actually be famous... unless they were already real world famous before they joined Twitch.

You have a very warped perception of the world and how big it is vs how miniscule Twitch is, if you think you'll ever be famous, because of Twitch.

Here's a test you can do:

Walk down the street or go to the store and ask any random stranger these questions:

* Do you know who Ninja is?

* Do you know who Shroud is?

* Do you know who PewDiePie is?

* Do you know what Twitch is?

* Do you know what PoG is?

Now ask them these questions:

* Can you name the world's most haunted car (answer Christine) or Gypsy "witch" who owns it (answer EelKat) and how many Stephen King movies she and her car have been in (answer 2 - Christine and Thinner)?

* Do you know who Stephen King is?

* Are you one of the 30million people who arrive at EelKat's house every single day in hoards of 10k to 30k people per day, all summer long, to meet the real Gypsy witch the Thinner was based off of, or to see her farm, the filming location of Thinner?

Hello... I'm Voodoo Priestess and Queen of the Scottish Gypsies, EelKat Wendy Christine Allen, a household name, thanks to Stephen King, illegally trespassing on my farm and filming me and my family and my car and my farm without permission or permits or licenses, he named the car Christine after me, the real car is a 1964 Dodge 330 named The GoldenEagle, and the so-called demon who lives in the car is Etiole. EelKat, Etiole's friend, and the world's most haunted car, are the topic of books by David Icke, Buddy Hopkins, David Mack, Whitley Strieber, 20/20 documentaries, thousands of TV and newspaper news reports for 50+ years, and 9 books by Stephen King.

You'd be hard pressed to find somebody who hasn't heard of me or my car or Etiole... but you'll find yourself asking thousands upon thousands of people "Who is Ninja, who is PewDiePie, who is Shroud?", before you'll find a single person who knows what you're talking about.

I have more fans in my little finger than Ninja and PewDiePie combined will ever have in their lifetime.

There's a hell of a big difference between real world famous and Twitch famous or YouTube famous or Twitter famous or any other kind of internet famous. 

If you're only famous online, Honey, you ain't famous at all.

That said, I don't know why anyone in their right mind would want to be famous.

Fame is nothing but endless hell.

On the one side you have the fans who "love" you and never give you a moments peace, because they don't have a life so all they so is follow you around.

Do you realize I can't even do grocery shopping without a bodyguard going with me?

Did you know, the problem is so far out of control that the  town has stationed to patrol cars (4 police officers) to do nothing but drive back and forth, by my house, all day long?

You've seen my shopping vlogs, how hard it is for me to go into WalMart without being mobbed by would-be authors, who carry their manuscripts around with them - hundreds of pages of paper - in the off chance hopes of seeing me, so they can run up to me and say: "So I wrote a novel and I don't know if it's any good. Could you give it to Stephen King next time you see him?" 

I don't know Stephen King. I've never meet him. If I have met him, I didn't know it. I've seen him around. He's local. But, not in a long time. He lives in Florida, not Maine. He was born here. He didn't stay here. That big red Victorian that everyone says is his, that's his son or daughter or some other relative that lives there, not him. Stephen King hasn't lived in Maine in over 20 years. He's in a lawsuit with the State because of it.

You want to give him a manuscript, give it to him yourself. He probably has an agent, you'd likely have to contact the agent. I don't know. I don't know him. I'm just somebody he illegally filmed for one of his movies. I'm not even an actor. 

And yet every day. Every single day. Every time I go outside. There they are. Dozens this day. Hundreds that day. Thousands the next day.

And then comes summer and tens of thousands every day. Stephen King fans, fans of The Thinner, fans of Christine, fans of me - "The Gypsy Witch" in my yard.

No peace.

No quiet.



Did you know, I've never seen the movie or read the book? I know nothing about either. I don't even know what it's about. I don't read Stephen King or watch Stephen King.

And yet, people run up to me and ask what's my favorite part of Thinner or Christine. What's my favorite Stephen King movie or book. I know nothing about any of them.

Do you know WHY I have to have a bodyguard, when I go shopping?

Because random strangers run up to me, and slam me as hard as they can with their shopping carts, than yell something about how I'm evil trash for putting a curse on that man. 

Apparently, the woman who plays as the fictional version of me in the Thinner movie, put a curse on some guy to cause him to starve to death, which apparently is why the movie is called Thinner.

Did you also know I'm not a witch and that we Gypsies are Christians and view witchcraft as evil?

And yet, I am daily accused of being a witch, or more often "that Gypsy Witch from Thinner".

I am a Voodoo Priestess, a Gypsy Queen... and Queen is NOT a total of royalty or government... Queen is a religious title somewhat akin to "Mother Superior" in the Catholic Church. It means I'm a Nun. A very high ranking Nun.

Thanks to misinformation spread by movies, people think of Voodoo as a scary, spooky, dark, evil, group of curse casting witches, and that's not what Voodoo is at all. Voodoo is a branch of the Catholic Church that encompases Traditional Folk Religions of Africa. It's a Christian religion.

Voodoo gets thought of has witchcraft, because, while most Christians simply "pray" to God, we do what God in the Bible told us to do, and follow the step by step instructions of how to draw sigels (veve) and summon archangels (loa) to do our bidding.

The Familiar Spirits of the Old Testament. We do this with various cards, dice, spirit boards (oui-ji), crystals, shells, beads, bones, and poppets (voodoo dolls), and because we are summoning God's own Archangels, we get very good results, which causes people to call us witches and say we consort with demons, when neither is true.

Stephen King, saw my uncles in the news, as did every one, after the murder-suicide event of Heaven's Gate, and he found out that while the event took place in California, the group itself was headquartered out of Utah and had a branch in Maine, just around the corner from his house. And then he discovered they were Gypsies, not Romani, not Travellers, but actual Persian Gypsies, old school "classic" Gypsies, the type often known as Carnies, because they run festivals, carnivals, and sideshows.

I grew up spending most of my life in a cage - from the time I was 8 until I was 31.

Because I possess the ability to be subjected to huge amounts of pain, without flinching, shedding a tear, or showing any emotion at all, while bricks break my bones, knives slice my flesh...

I do feel pain, I just don't outwardly show it. I suffer from a medical condition of the synapses in my brain not firing correctly when I feel pain, so I don't cry or scream or flitch, no matter how much it hurts, I just sit there staring straight ahead.

I'm a real live freak show freak.

My uncles decided to capitalize on that.

I'm a freak of nature and I was tortured by my uncles at Palace Playland, Old Orchard Beach Amusement Park, for the the tourists who paid money to watch grown men stab children with knives and shatter their bones with bricks.

There are laws today, against torturing medical freaks in side shows, but those laws did not exist in the 1970s and 1980s, I was one of many "freaks" tortured, living in a cage, for entertainment.

Among other things, I'm also a professional clown and a professional stunt driver. From the age of 4 until age 12, I used to drive a 3-wheel motorcycle, at very high speeds, and could drive it up walls. Straight up the sides of buildings. Very a dangerous thing to do, and can only be down by a combination of special tires on the bike, and driving insanely fast.

The freak show, I was not willingly a part of.

And clown paint hide the fact that I was also the freak, so most didn't know the 2 were the same person.

And no one cared for my safety on the motor-trike because, well, I was that freak who "didn't feel pain", so people thought if anything went wrong with the bike stunt, I wouldn't get hurt.

Today as an adult, I'm still in the carney circuit, but now, I'm what most would call "A Gypsy Fortune Teller". I read cards, dice, crystals, from an elaborate reading room. I've done card readings my whole life. Started when I was 3. Still do them to this day.

The attraction however, that was most famous, was The World's Most Haunted Car... a 1964 Dodge 330 former Old Orchard Beach Police Car,that within 2 years of being made, killed 14 people, mostly children, and escaped every accident without a scratch.

All 4 of the police officers who drove it those 2 years (1965 and 1966) commit suicide after killing their entire families. It sat unused in the police garage for 10 years, for sale, but no one would buy it. I bought the car in 1975 for $5, because no one dared touch it.

The World's Most Haunted Car, was a side show attraction, for lovers of the macabre who wanted to see this bizarre car.

Stephen King, found out about me and the car, and he wrote Christine, Maximum Overdrive, Buik, and The Thinner a few others based off of visiting us Gypsies and our side shows. I had no knowledge of the books.

Our first introduction to Stephen King was a group of men, with recording equipment, sneaking into the farm to film REAL Gypsies and their REAL carnival, with the goal being to get both The World's Most Haunted Car (my 1964 Dodge), and the infamous "Gypsy Witch" (me) in the footage so that they could have the REAL witch and the REAL car in The Thinner movie.

And I'm not someone who sought out fame or tried to become famous. I just have the misfortune of being related to psychotic uncles who believe in aliens and ufos and magic and demons and ghosts and other stupid ass shit that sane people know isn't real. And because they got in the news for killing 39 people via fucking Heaven's Gate, some jackass named Stephen King decided to invade our privacy by putting us in books and movies **WITHOUT OUR PERMISSION OR KNOWLEDGE** and than, had the audacity, to do a Late Night TV interview and give my home address out telling people where he filmed his movie and telling people to "go visit the REAL Gypsies".

We don't have access to TV or movies, we'd never heard of either Stephen King or Late Night TV before... the first time we ever heard of Stephen King was the next morning when we had 10,000 screaming fans of "Stephen King's Gypsies" thronged in our driveway begging to touch me and my car.

There's nothing I hate more than fucking ass Stephen King fans, unless it's Stephen King himself, who destroyed my family's lives because he thinks someone with a name as big as his can get away with anything. 

Which brings up the other side of being famous... the haters... no one knew we were Gypsies, and no one knew where we lived, before Stephen King plastered our home address all over national television in 1997.

Since 1997, we've had endless non-stop racist, white power, anti-semitic, Gypsy haters on our door step.

You want to know what Stephen King fans have done to my family?

* they put my elderly dad in a coma May 9, 2006, 

* they blew up my house with a grease fryer bomb October 16, 2006, 

* they cut my car in half May 5, 2010, 

* they left my cousin's head at the cross road 2 streets down from me June 12, 2013, 

* they drove a backhoe over my house August 8, 2013, 

* they broke my spine with metal golf clubs November 14, 2013, 

* they kidnapped 12 of my children April 10, 2015, 

* they returned the heads, hands, and feet of 10 of said children, nailed to my front door May 15, 2015. 

So, I'm rather familiar with how much white people hate us.

And these events, are just a few of the more than 200 such events, including 5 bombs and many more deaths, to happen to my family since June 2001.

#We never asked for this.

#Stephen King's film crew arrived at 1AM, snuck into our yard, and started filming in the dead of night, while we were asleep, and had no idea they were there... and when we woke up and found them there, we spent 5 fucking hours trying to get those trespassing white bastards out of our yard and they fucking wouldn't shut the damned cameras off the whole time.

#The Thinner was filmed ...ILLEGALLY... on my farm, and neither me nor my family are in that movie willingly!

#No one received a penny for any of it.

#And members of my family have been fucking MURDERED because of Stephen King's damned Thinner movie!

You think you want to be famous?

I guarantee you don't.

Fame is the last thing any one should strive for.

#I'm one of the most famous people on the damned planet, I fucking hate it!

#I don't want it!

#I never asked for this!

#Thanks to fucking ass Stephen King and his jackassery fans my family hasn't had a minute's peace since 1997.... and I hate it!


We like our privacy.

We don't like constant, non-stop home invasions.

If you seek fame, you're a fucking fool.

Do you realize the thing I like most about Twitch is how obscure and small and unheard of a website Twitch is.

I can stream on Twitch without being constantly bombarded with Stephen King fans, because, Twitch is so small, so miniscule, so teeny-tiny a web site, that the bulk of Stephen King fans have no idea Twitch exists.

It's also why, unlike most streamers, I do nothing, absolutely nothing, to try to grow my channel.

Twitch is one of the very few places, I can go to have any level of privacy.

I like Twitch before it affords me privacy. 

If Twitch ever gets big enough to start putting spotlights on me... I'll just leave, same way I did my big YouTube channel, that spent 8 years with under 1,000 followers and than skyrocketed to 3million overnight when Stephen King fans found it and once again robbed me of having a place in the world where I go could to escape them.

There are precious few Stephen King fans on Twitch, largely because Twitch is a relatively dead website with so few members. And that is WHY I like Twitch.

Twitch is a such a tiny website, that I can have some level of precious privacy here.

Which is also why I laugh when people say they think they can get famous on Twitch.

Honey, if you think Twitch is big enough to give you fame, that just tells me you are either very young, very uneducated, very immature, or all 3, but anyone with an active brain cell, can easily figure out that with 8BILLION people on the planet, a tiny website like Twitch not only is NOT a drop in the bucket, but the drop is so small, it'll evaporate before it hits the bucket. 

In the grand scale of the world's population, Twitch members aren't enough people to fill a drop.

It's very telling when someone thinks Twitch is big enough to make them famous, that they have no clue how big the world is, how many people there are in the world, and how few people have ever heard of Twitch at all.

You might want to try going outside and seeing how many people there are in your town. Chances are high, there are more people living in your hometown, than there are worldwide members of have accounts on Twitch. Think about that, next time you think being famous on Twitch makes you famous.

If you ever become famous, you will never know happiness or privacy or friendship, ever again.

You'll be like a bug under a microscope.

I was born a medical freak, so adults decided to make money off of it. 

Do you know what it's like to grow up on public display? 

To sleep in a cage, be fed only 1 salt herring once every 12 days, for the purpose of keeping me so skinny, that I looked like a skeleton, to make me look even more like than I already was? Just so they could PROVE they had broken my bones, because my flesh was so thin it could be clearly seen if my bones were broken or not?

People paid money to watch them beat me with a brick until my bones were broken.

From the time I was 3 years old. 

I was on public display since I was a baby. Before I could even talk or walk.

Kissing the mighty tourist ass. That's all anyone in the Town of Old Orchard Beach, Maine cares about.

Glut lust for money, causes people to do anything. And the more money tourists throw at them, the worse crimes they are willing to commit.

They didn't stop with just beatings... not once they found our millionaires would pay $12,000 to rape the child.

I was raped more than 500 times by the time I was 12 years old.

I grew up in fucking hell. Because Old Orchard Beach is a fucking tourist town, and the monstrous adults that run our town, will do ANYTHING to tourists request, to get money.

My uncles didn't give a shit about the children, so long as they got their tourists money. And there were no laws against it. The 1970s, 1980s, even into the 1990s... there were no laws against what they did.

Extreme child abuse as entertainment... that's all it was.

Freak shows are illegal today, because the ones my uncles ran, were not unique. Freak shows all over the country did similar things. Children were seen as property, they had no rights.

I used to dream of a day when I could escape, and never again be in the public eye.

I never could have imagined, someone like Stephen King could exist. Someone so much more evil than my uncles. Nor could I have imagined, the existence of Stephen King's fans... people so monstrous, they made the tourist who paid to watch children be tortured, look like saints.

Stephen King and his fans took harassment entertainment to whole new levels, that I didn't even think possible.

They took the pain and suffering of children who were tortured horrifically, and cashed in on it on levels even bigger than my uncles did.

I thought, when the FBI raid rescued me, that the hell was over. I could finally be free. No more put on display in the public eye of THOUSANDS. Finally free to have privacy. No more harassment. No more pain. No more suffering. And than Stephen King swooped in and put me front and center in the public eye of BILLIONS.

Stephen King fans got their entertainment, Stephen King got his money, and my car was cut in half, my farm blown up with a bomb, my pets beheaded and hung from ropes in trees, my family murdered and cut up, and me crippled with golf clubs... all for the sake of fucking entertainment of callus people who don't give a shit about the consequences of their actions.

Growing up locked in a cage, tortured for the entertainment of tourists, never going to school or doctors... I grew up without privacy or friendship or happiness, 3 things I dearly wanted... an FBI raid rescued me and the rest, and for the first time I had hope.... but barely a year later, Stephen King set out to destroy our lives, without a care in the world for the consequences of his actions.

I had fame thrust upon me and I hate it and spent my entire life trying to escape it.

To ever live a normal life, to ever have privacy, to ever have friends, to ever be loved, or to ever be happy... I gave up hope of ever experiencing any of those things, decades ago.

I am one of the most famous people in the world, and because of this, I will never know love, friendship, privacy, or happiness.

You want fame? You can have it. Take it. I have plenty of it and I don't want any of it. And once you have it, I guarantee you won't want it either.

Fame is nothing but misery and suffering beginning to end.

NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

FAQs: Can I visit you?

FAQs: Can I visit you?


No, I do not allow home visits from anyone for any reason - not any more. 

I used to, but never again.

Reason: I'm a little bit famous, in fact, I'm quiet a lot famous, and in the past, I agreed to a home visit, and that person, didn't recognize my name at first, until they met me face to face and immediately realized who I was, and where they were standing - my farm was in a rather famous movie, so it's easily recognized by anyone who has ever seen that movie, and that movie, it's a BIG movie, written by an even more famous than me Maine author, and while I write under a penname, my face is on my books, and I'm easy to recognize, and that last time I let someone into my home - they realized who I was, what my farm was, what movie I was connected to, and they ran to social media to tell their friends they had meet me, including to publicly post where I live... by the end of the week I had dozens of paparazzi and some 30,000 (yes thirty thousand - yes I am that famous) screaming fanboys from all over the country in my driveway and the local police had to send out 42 officers to try to deal with it - the mass influx of tens of thousands of trespassers did huge amounts of damage to my farm, my property, my crops, my cars... and resulted in the murder of all of my children. 

To this day police don't know who killed them, just that it was likely a crazed fan who saw my home address posted online by some other fan.

With the police and FBI not knowing who murdered my family, I'm left unable to trust anyone.

Who can you trust, in a case like mine?

I've no family to turn to, they were murdered.

I've no friends, what few fans didn't chase away, got hased off after being suspects by the police and FBI.

That's why I'm crippled. That's why I'm alone. That's why I have post traumatic stress disorder. 

You don't know what it's like, to have 10 children children murdered, their heads nailed to your front door, and than try to recover from that. And be left with police shrugging and saying all leads lead to dead ends.

And you, are left with a broken spine. Having to relearn how to walk, not even able to mourn your family being murdered, because you're injured so bad yourself, you're just trying to stay alive.

And than, after years of recovery and physical therapy, alongside years of police investigations, FBI investigations, and being left with no answers. The attackers still a mystery, who they are or why they did it, who are they, no one knows, what was their motive, no one knows.

To go from a large family, to being alone, like that, it's hell to live with. And no one understands. People pity you, feel sorry for you, and move on with their lives. While you are left alone. With no answers and no one to talk to because, everyone you would have talked to is now dead.

How many parents know the pain of a murdered child? Not many.

If you've not lived through it yourself, you can't even begin to understand it.

I'm sick of people's pity. I don't want your fucking pity. 

I want a friend.

I'm tired of hoping there'll be someone out there who understands how I feel.

I like my privacy and thanks to the murder of my entire family, I'm a lot more famous now than I was back than, and social media was uncommon back than but now today everybody has it - that means the risk now is far greater than it was before, I don't want a repeat of that incident, those trespassers did several $million in damages to my farm and members of my family (now dead) were badly hurt, I don't want to go through something like that again, that's why I now have bodyguards and I don't let anyone near my land any more for any reason at all.

The fact remains: 

* I didn't used to have PTSD.

* I didn't used to live alone.

* I used to have a family.

* My entire family was murdered.

* I've spent the past 5 years dealing with police and FBI and lawyers and court... and running into endless deadnends with police and FBI to this day, not knowing who crippled me or murdered my family.

You'll have to excuse me if I'm a little paranoid about people entering my home, but that's one of the side effects of having all your children murdered and police and FBI clueless as to who did it and suspecting that most likely it was a crazy fan who got my home adress off social media after another fan posted it there.

I like my privacy and I do NOT trust psycho-fans to respect it, because I have 4 decades of personal experience with the fact that fans have ZERO respect for the homes/property/pets/family of any famous person they are a fan of and they will ALWAYS run to social media to brag "OMG! Look who I met! Here's their address, go meet them too!"; yes I have become excessively, overly, paranoid about people getting near me, my family, my property, my cars, and my land, but there is a very good and well justified reason for it.

The very reason I no longer allow any one near my home, is the same reason I am now looking for a dog.

I'm tired of being alone, for years on end.

I couldn't go out and get a dog after it happened, I was too busy in the hospital being paralyzed, then then too busy relearning to walk, in between endless weeks of police and FBI interviews.

Now things have stabilized. I'm walking again, more or less; police and FBI come by less and less frequently as the leads grow ever colder. News reporters have more pressing things to talk about like Covid19 so no longer bug me endlessly for interviews.

Life goes back to normal... except, my family is dead and I'm disabled and alone.

I need someone to keep me company, as I am finding the loneliness of an empty home with a family that will never return, unbearable.

I suppose I should have been aware of the covid-19 issue, but, I rather preoccupied with dealing with both the murder of my family and recovering from 3 strangers beating me with golf clubs, so I was a little bit too busy to pay much attention to the news. 

Yes, I would LIKE visitors, but experience has taught me that no one ever wants to be my friend. They always have a motive. They always want something.

So no, you can't come visit me.

Before I'll let you visit me, you need to prove I can trust you.

And for me to trust you, you first have to prove it wasn't YOU who killed my family.

Why should I trust YOU?

Can YOU prove, that YOU did not murder my family?

What evidence can YOU provide, to prove that YOU were not involved?

To everyone talking about gun reform after this week's Colorado shooting, here my thoughts:

To everyone talking about gun reform after this weeks Colorado shooting, here my thoughts:

Mass shootings happen everywhere often, it's rare they make the news... for example ... in Lewiston Maine, exactly 2 hours BEFORE this shooting in Colorado, there was a shooting in Lewiston, Maine - it was not in the news - if I wasn't local, I wouldn't have known about it.

In America, there is an average of 300 mass shootings EACH AND EVERY DAY, as well as shootings of only 1 or 2 people occurring at a rate of more then 500 per day.

That mass shootings do not make news headlines more often, is the ONLY reason so many people are surprised.

An average of only 1 in every 2,000 shootings ever gets reported on national TV.

That YOU did not know this, simply shows that you are someone who does not pay attention to what goes on daily around you in your own home town and home state.

#That so many people are marveling at the mass shooting, simply tells me that the bulk of society has it's head shoved up their own asses and are too blind to see what it happening in their own town every day.

The ONLY time a mass shooting appears in the news is if:

* 1 - it was a school shooting done by a child

* 2 - it resulted in the death of a police officer

* 3 - the shooter was someone famous - and usually only if they are a sports player, while actors, authors, singers, especially rap singers, commit mass shootings on an alarmingly frequent basis, but usually football stars and basketball players are the only ones who make news headlines when they commit mass shooting

Some states, like California, Massachusetts, and Illinois, have so many mass shootings PER DAY, that the daily newspapers have a column that is titled: **"TODAY'S SHOOTINGS"** which is simply a list of street addresses and times. It item on the list reads like this: *"Shooting at 10:38AM on Main Street, 3 wounded, 2 dead."* These lists will often have 10 or 12 or more shootings, for EACH DAY! 

(I worked for Guy Gannett news paper publishing firm for 21 years; they publish many large newspapers, including the Boston Globe)

#DAILY mass shootings are so common in some states, that the newspaper keeps a daily list of today's shootings!

Mass shootings are so common in Maine that I have both witnessed and captured on camera, more than 200 of them JUST since 2015.

March 2020 - 4 men with guns broke into my elderly neighbours house and gunned him down in his bed while he slept - it was not in the news - had the shooting not woken me up and I been standing in my driveway when the police took out his body I would not know it had happened.

February 14, 2019, my cousin was killed in a WalMart shooting in Scarborough, Maine - it was not in the news - I only know it happened because a family member died.

July 2013 - a different cousin was killed in another shooting - it was not in the news - had it not been a family member who died I wouldn't know it happened.

June 2001 another cousin was killed in another shooting - at the San Diego ComicCon - he was shot by a police officer - he was a by stander who got shot by a paranoid, racist police officer shooting at someone who it turned out did not have a gun and was just a black man wearing a hoodie walking by minding his own business - it was not in the news - had it not been a family member who died I wouldn't know it happened.

November 2015 and July 2016 - Scarbughouh WalMart was evacuated because a local white supremist group - a group of about 30 people armed with guns - "took over" the WalMart and started shooting at black and Muslim customers - I was one of the people being shot at because of how I dress, they mistook me as Muslim even though I was not - it was not in the news - had I not been a shopper in the store those 2 days and been one of the people being shot at, I would not know it had happened

In August 2016, there were 5 shootings in a single week in Old Orchard Beach, Maine... one involved a group of 70 people with guns driving through town shooting anyone they suspected of being gay - it was not in the news, I only know it happened because they shot 30 bullets into the front of my house and 50+ bullets into my neighbours house - they claimed I was a male to female transgender gay man even though I'm a natural born woman

My neighbour 2 houses down - a town counsel men of Old Orchard Beach - has had 7 FBI raids on his home the past 4 years - each time removing over 100 illegal assault rifles... he was charged with shooting 4 people in one of the gay shootings done by the group of 70+ people - he was not arrested and is still on the town counsel - had the state police and FBI officers not come to our house to tell us to stay inside during the raid, I would have known about it, because it was not in the news.

Between 2015 and 2021 - I have MORE THAN 100 local mass shootings here in Maine were CAUGHT ON CAMERA during my livestreams on Twitch - not one of them was on any news station.

Maine has one of the LOWEST crime rates in the country.

News stations rely on the police department to forward the reports of these shootings to them, so that the news reporters can reports on the shootings happening.

Gun reform will solve nothing. Because when all is said and done, a gun is nothing but a piece of scrap metal and on it's own all it can do is lay harmlessly on the ground.

A gun can harm no one, unless it is wielded by a dangerous person. The person, not the gun, is the problem.

A person who would shoot somebody, is STILL going to hurt people, even they did not have a gun. They would build a bomb, or wield a knife, or even a wooden fence post. If they want to cause harm, they will, gun or no gun.

Yes, a gun makes it easier for them to hurt more people at once, but take their guns away, and they will just find something else to hurt people with. EVERYTHING is dangerous in their hands because THEY THE PERSON is dangerous.

I live in Maine - the place in the world that has more guns per person than anywhere else on the planet - Maine has just under 2 million residents, and just over 17million leally registered guns and estimated another 5million illegal guns.

Maine is a wild forest region, 3/4s of the population NEED their guns to survive, because they eat deer, moose, squirrel, fox, coywolf, fisher, duck, turkey - every day, and without their guns, their families would starve to death.

Most gun owners ARE responsible people and are NOT running around shooting people.

Look at Maine, Everyone wears fur coats, where do you think the fur came from? It's -40F on a good day. Everyone here in Maine wears furs, because if we didn't, we would freeze to death.

Bear attacks happen daily. Groups of 20 to 50 coywolves gang up on children and tear them to shreds ... here in Maine, you NEED a gun, just go outside and NOT be torn apart by mountain lions, wolves, bear, or coywolves.

Guns keep people alive, warm, and feed, far more often, than guns hurt or kill. There's a lot of people who NEED guns to stay alive, to feed their families, to protect their families.

In the hands of a responsible person a gun is a tool of survival, not a weapon.

Only dangerous people, who would kill even without a gun, make guns a dangerous weapon.

Guns are not the problem - dangerous people are.

Gun reform is NOT the answer.

All gun reform is going to do is punish people who obey the law.

But people who use guns to kill, are not law abiding citizens, so, gun reform will not affect them, because they don't obey laws anyways.

People who use guns to kill, don't care about laws, so changing laws WILL NOT STOP THEM!

If they cared about obeying the law, they wouldn't being killing people in the first place.

My family, we are not white, and THAT is why my family has seen so many mass shootings, because every single mass shooting listed above, was done by a dangerous person, so blinded by racist hate that they felt the need to kill non-whites.

Racism is the problem.

Guns are only dangerous in the hands of haters, racists, and bigots.

But you people obsessing over the Colorado shooting, you act like mass shootings are rare... ad they are NOT... mass shooting happen all the time, they just don't get reported on very often.

We need better awareness to how often mass shootings happen.

it's not gun reform we need - we need police officers willing to do their jobs and #1 arrest the shooters not just take their guns away and #2 tell the news stations how often these near weekly mass shootings happen so the news can report on HOW OFTEN these events happen

#Awareness of how often mass shootings occur and don't get reported on by the news is what is needed

Maybe, if you stopped focusing on self and paid attention to something other than yourself for a change, you'd notice how vastly common gun crime is.

Don't rely on the news media to tell you the whole truth. They tell you pieces of the truth, and only as much of the truth as they think you want to hear, and only than, if they think it'll boost their ratings.

The daily mass shootings of Chicago are rarely in the news, because they happen so often, so many of them every day, that they are deemed "TOO BORING" to be news worthy.

The daily mass shootings of Boston are likewise, rarely in the news, because it's usually gang related and when was the last time you saw the news media report on anything the Mafia did?

The weekly mass shootings of Maine are almost never in the news, because no one in the lower 48 gives 2 shits about Maine.

If it isn't going to bring views or increase ratings, the news station isn't going to cover it, no matter what it is, including, and not limited to, mass shootings.

Gun reform is NOT going to fix the problem.

Responsible gun owners are already obeying the current gun laws.

Gun reform, is ONLY going to punish, responsible people, for things they would never do.

Mass shootings are committed by people who do obey gun laws, so changing gun laws, WILL NOT prevent mass shootings.

People who commit mass shootings, rarely buy their guns legally, so changing laws regarding gun sales, will NOT keep guns out of their hands.

What we need is NOT gun reform, wat we NEED is HONEST NEWS REPORTING.

We NEED news stations who report on ACTUAL daily news.

If people KNEW how many mass shootings occur **EVERY DAY, in ALL 50 STATES**, they would know who truly pointless and a waste of time a resources, gun reform is.

Details about the bomb that blew up my house, and the fireman who stole the bomb from Old Orchard Beach Police Department's evidence locker:

When you say "black lives matter",
do you REALLY mean it?
Are you sure?

When you say "Black Lives Matter"... do you mean the lives of ALL black people? 

Do ALL black lives matter to you? Or JUST the lives of black drug dealers, who beat black pregnant women to death, murder black babies, beat black children, and do 9 separate prison sentences for domestic violence against black women?

Do the lives of the black women and black children he beat to death mean NOTHING to you?

Please tell me why you would rename your school after a man who murdered a pregnant black woman ad her unborn black baby?

#Did HER black life not matter to you?

#Did HER black baby's life not matter to you?

Yes, black lives matter, but a murderer is a murderer no matter what color they are, and you shouldn't be renaming your streets, schools, hospitals, and airports after a monster who murdered a pregnant woman and her baby.

Did you know WHY that a white police officer killed a black murderer? To protect the lives of black women and children.

No, that police officer should not have taken the law into his own hands... but fact remains, he cared more about the lives of black women and black children that YOU do!

Do your research.

Know the facts.

Stop being a brain dead jackass parroting every word you hear others say.

Do your research and stop worshipping a man who devoted his life to murdering pregnant black women and their unborn black babies.

If black lives REALLY mattered to you, you'd STOP disrespecting the black women and black children, murdered by that monster. Every time you glorify his name, you tell are openly telling his black victims that THEIR black lives don't mean shit to you.

If you REALLY believe ALL black lives mattered, you would be renaming everything after the black pregnant woman he murdered, NOT naming your school after her murderer.

What message are you sending?

You are NOT sending the message that black lives matter... far from it in fact.

By renaming your school after a man who murdered pregnant black women, you are TEACHING your children it is okay to murder black women and black children... did you even stop to think about THAT?

Are you really so quick to want to please the crowd that you are willing to completely overlook the more than 900 accounts of rape, domestic violence, drug dealing, drive by shootings, and the murder of a pregnant woman? All committed by the one man, you are now renaming your schools, hospitals, streets, towns, and airports after?

You don't care about black lives, you only care about looking good in front of others.

If you cared about black lives, you'd care MORE about his 900+ black victims than you would him.

You people are fucking hypocrites.

All you care about is looking hip or cool or being part of the in crowd and doing what the popular people do. You don't give a shit about the trail of **BLACK** victims... the 900+ **BLACK LIVES** that were destroyed by the man you people are glorifying.

If you REALLY care about black lives, than prove it, and STOP DISRESPECTING the 1,000's of black families who REJOICE at the death of the terrorist crime lord gangster who terrorized their families for decades... stop worshiping the crime lord that made their BLACK lives a living nightmare.

Every time you glorify his name... you are telling ALL of his BLACK victims that their BLACK LIVES don't mean shit to you.

Look at you sheep, acting all righteous, pretending to care about others, when all you care about is your precious 15 minutes of fame. 

You don't care about black lives, you only care about being part of the in crowd. 

Fucking herd mentality. 

You'll do and say whatever you have to, just to be a part of the biggest, loudest group.

You chant "Black lives matter" with your mouths, but you don't mean it in your heart.

Those of us who aren't white - you don't give a shit about us.

You just want people to THINK you care... so long as it LOOKS like you care, you don't care about anything else.

Those of us who actually suffer at the hands of white bastards, you don't care about us, and you never will. And that can clearly be seen, by WHICH black face you wave on your signs... not a black hero, no, but an inhuman monster who broke into a house to steal drugs, but got the wrong address, and broke into the home of a pregnant black woman. A man who beat his child. A man who committed drive by shootings. A man whom at the time of his death had more than 40 warrants for his arrest. A man who'd already gone to prison for violent crimes 9 times. A man who HATED black lives, beat black lives, tortured black lives, abused black women, beat black children... if you REALLY cared about black lives, you WOULD NOT be glorifying a man like that, who destroyed hundreds of black lives.

Blind, mindless sheep. That's all you are.

You don't care about anyone. And you never will. All you care about is following the in-crowd, and doing and saying whatever they say, WITHOUT doing any research.

If you REALLY cared about black lives, you'd help the victims of crimes against them, NOT glorify the criminal who committed hundreds of crimes against hundreds of black women and black children.

Every time you name a school or street after him, you tell EVERY black person on the planet that their black lives DO NOT matter, because all that matters to you is glorifying the name of a man who was a terrorist to make yourself look good.

You rush to be the first in line so you will get the glory, and you completely overlook the greater harm that you are causing.

Black lives matter, but those words mean nothing to you, because all you're thinking about is your own self glory.

You are NOT seeing, worse, you are ignoring the MILLIONS of black people who are crying out to you idiotic white people, asking you white people to STOP glorifying the monster who terrorised so many black lives.

Your GLORY while you scream "Black lives matter" in front of news cameras, means MORE to you, than the the lives of of actual black people... we KNOW this, BECAUSE, you are ignoring the MILLIONS of black lives who are BEGGING you to stop glorifying the man who terrorised so many black lives.

In you rush to seem black-friendly, you forget to research the facts, and instead of promoting the good in the black community, you promote the scum bag that terrorized and own people, the man whom millions of black people are saying they are GLAD he's finally dead. GLAD that no more black women, no more black children, will be terrorized by that monster. And they are asking you to STOP glorifying him. 

Why won't you listen to what they are saying?

 *Could it be, that they are too BLACK for you to care about what they have to say? 

 *Are they too BLACK for you to listen to them?

 * Are they too BLACK for you to take the time to care about their feelings?

If you REALLY cared about black lives, then WHY are you IGNORING the pleas of his BLACK victims?

There are plenty of good strong, moral, decent, glory-worthy black people out there... so why are you glorifying the terrorist, crime lord, gangster whom black people themselves are BEGGING you to stop glorifying.

#By glorifying a man who devoted his live to hurting black people, you are letting your white superiority fly high.

Why aren't you naming your schools after the BLACK pregnant women he attacked? She's the real hero, not him. 

Why are glorifying HIM and not HER?

You scream "I can't breath" in his honor... what about HER? Could SHE breath while he was strangling her in her own home?

What about her unborn baby? Could IT breath while that monster was strangling it's mother to death?

Why aren't you naming your schools after the BLACK children he terrorised with his drive by shootings? 

Why are you glorifying a monster who thought nothing of shooting the innocent BLACK children, who were playing on the front lawns, completely unsuspecting that that monster was going to drive by shooting at everyone because he was mad at his drug dealer?

Why are you naming your school after a man who shot at children playing in their yards, as if they were bottles on a fence?

Do any of you even take the time to stop and THINK before you do these things?

That man was a monster. Who cares what color he was. Men like him are monsters no matter what color their skin is, they should NEVER be glorified.

Men who beat up pregnant women should NOT have schools named after them.

You people ought to be ashamed of yourselves, naming your schools after a man who terrorized pregnant women and black children.

You say black lives matter, but are you sure you REALLY mean it?

Why than do the lives of black pregnant women and black children, mean NOTHING to you?

How can you hypocrites stand there chanting "black lives matter" while in the same breath glorifying the man who made life hell for so many innocent black women and their children?

#In renaming your school after a man who spent decades raping, shooting, beating, torturing, and killing black people, you are saying that black lives DO NOT matter to you.

Worse, you are teaching the children who attend those schools, that it is OKAY for a man to beat pregnant women, shoot at children, deal drugs, and be a gangster. It that what you REALLY want your children to grow up to be?

#By renaming your school after a man who spent decades raping, shooting, beating, torturing, and killing black people, you are TEACHING YOUR CHILDREN... THAT raping, shooting, beating, torturing, and killing black people IS OKAY.

Children who attend a school named after a famous person, will be taught by the teachers of that school to idolize that person.

What are you going to do, when your child, idolizing that man, takes a gun to school, and shoots his pregnant teacher in honor of the man the school is named after, killing pregnant women in order to be more like the "hero" the school was named after?

#By renaming your school after a man who devoted his entire life to abusing black people, you are TEACHING YOUR CHILDREN... THAT abusing black people IS OKAY.

What are you going to do, when your child, idolizing that man, takes a gun to school, and shoots his classmates in honor of the man the school is named after, running through the halls of the school pretending to be doing a drive by shooting to be just like the "hero" the school was named after?

#in naming your school after a criminal who terrorized black people you are sending the message THAT BLACK LIVES DO NOT MATTER... don't you realize that?

Did you jackasses ever once stop to think about the long term effects of your actions?

Children aren't dumb. They'll do their research, they'll find out what kind of a man he REALLY was and seeing how much their teachers and parents glorify this this criminal, these children will take up guns in his honor, to do the things he did, because they'll think that's what your parents and teachers want.

Children want to please you. And when they see you honor and glorify a monster, they will do everything in their power to become just like that monster, killing in his name, just as he killed, dealing drugs in his name, just like he did, because they want to make you proud, and they are going think, with how much you worship that man, they'll think the ONLY way for you to ever be proud of them, is if they mimic everything he did in his lifetime, and they'll research and they learn, all the crimes he committed, and they'll re-enact every last one of them, just to make you proud.

By glorifying a criminal to hero status, you will teach your very own children, to be criminals, just like him, committing crimes far worse than he committed.

Open your eyes to the truth.

Stop following the fucking herd.

Take a step back and THINK before you act. 

FAQ: What advice would you give to someone looking to get started in streaming? How do I avoid burn out? What should I use to motivate me if I get burned out?

#FAQ: What advice would you give to someone looking to get started in streaming? How do I avoid burn out? What should I use to motivate me if I get burned out?



Stream for fun, because streaming is what you enjoy doing, and always remember that: No one owes you anything.

#Note to streamers: 

Your viewers owe you nothing. 

Just because you stream, does not give you the right to demand your viewers be there every day, watch you every minute, or follow/subscribe/donate just because you asked them to.

Viewers are people. They have lives. Learn to respect that.

#Note to viewers: 

Streamers don't owe you a thing. 

Your views and your money does not give you the right to demand how often someone streams or what content they stream.

Streamers are people. They have lives. Learn to respect that.

#Why do I say that?

A culture of entitlement has risen up on Twitch, which has made it no fun to watch nearly every streamer whom has joined Twitch after May 2020.

You can tell immediately streamers who joined in the days of JustinTV from the ones who joined after the Amazon ownership... 

JustinTV had no monetization, so JustinTV streamers stream for fun, as a hobby, with no expectation of money, and that attitude stays with them to this day.

Amazon's Twitch introduced bits and subscriptions, and brought with it a rise of streamers who started streaming with the hopes of making money, but still doing it for fun and hobby and not looking at it as a career.

September 21, 2019, Twitch introduced ads, which played only on Partnered streams, with a handful of Affiliates also beta testing it. March 27, 2020, the ads reached Affiliates as well.

* January 2005, Twitch had 100 members.

* January 2016 Twitch had 200,000 members

* January 2018, Twitch had 1Million members.

* January 2020, Twitch had 2Million members

* January 2021, Twitch had 10Million members

**While January 2021 now boasts 10million streamers streaming every day on Twitch... there are only 1million active viewer accounts... Twitch's AI defends active viewer accounts as having logged in at least 1 day in the past 12 months and watched 1 stream**

As of January 2021, there are now *(according to Twitch's own stats tracking page)* an estimated 17 streamers for every 1 ACTIVE viewer.... meaning 16 out of every 17 streamers will be sitting at 0 viewers every stream, through no fault of their own, simply because there are not enough viewers to go around.

And THIS is what has caused much of the current problem we see now in 2021.

Between May 2020 and December 2020 8 million people joined Twitch... and many of them are very open in their outrage at the lack of viewers.

It is very difficult to find a channel which started in 2020, that does anything other than bitch about lack of viewers.

Myself, I get 3 to 10 viewers each stream, and Twitch's stats page lists me in the top 10% of the most viewed streamers on Twitch because I reach 3 to 10 viewers nearly every stream.

This is something that should be taken into consideration.

My channel is very tiny. As of today (March 13, 2021) it has: 


* 87,056 total views

* in the past 8 years has had in total 3 subscribers. 

* From ads has made $15.37. 

* In 8 years, has made in total $34 

* and is still $66 away from reaching the $100 threshold to receive the first payout.

* I have no donation options set up and thus have never once received a donation

* when streaming at my normal schedule I stream 6 to 9 hours 7 days a week *(in recent months, my health has disrupted this)*

As you can see from my stats, I do not make money from streaming, and yet I do it more hours per week than the average person works at a 9-5 job.

And Twitch lists me as one of the top 1,000 streamers... that alone should tell you how very difficult it is to gain viewers or followers on Twitch.

I started streaming in 2004 (on MySpace) so 2021 is my 17th year of streaming 60 hour weeks for no pay.

A lot of people ask me how I have done this for so many years, while having so few viewers, so few followers, and no money reward from it?

My answer is... I don't stream for OTHERS.

I stream for ME.

I stream because, I have fun streaming.

I DO NOT stream for YOU. YOU mean nothing to me. YOU are just a faceless username.

>>>I have Autism... ACTUAL Autism. Kanner's Syndrome, NOT Asperger's. Because of this, if I can not SEE YOUR FACE, I have ZERO ability to acknowledge you as a real person.


>>> If you want ME to acknowledge YOUR existence, you MUST be standing in the same room with me talking to me face to face. 


>>>This means that EVERYONE who talks to me online, including streamers who I'm in chat for, or you in my chat... 


>>>I am not capable of mentally acknowledging you as a REAL PERSON... because you are just a face on a screen, you are not sitting in the physical room with me.


>>> If I can not reach out and touch your face while you are talking, I can not acknowledge you as being a real person. 


>>>And because of THIS, YOU, your views, your follows, your money... none of that is important to me.


I DO NOT stream to try to get YOUR attention.

I DO NOT stream to get views. YOUR time spent watching me, is not something I care about.

I DO NOT stream to get followers. YOUR opinion of me does not matter to me.

I DO NOT stream to make friends. I friend REAL friends offline and don't need YOUR fake online pseudo-friendship.

I DO NOT stream to get fame. YOU knowing who I am is not important to me.

I DO NOT stream to entertain YOU.

#I stream for ME and not for YOU and THAT is why I can stream for 17 years to almost no one and not lose motivation.

This is why 403 followers in 8 years, doesn't bother me.

It's why often streaming to 0 viewers and almost never reaching 10 viewers, doesn't bother me.

It's why streaming for 60 hours a week for 17 years to rarely more than 3 people and never once receiving a single penny for it, doesn't bother me or cause me to lose motivation.

This question gets asked to me, a few times a week... how do I keep going and not lose motivations, and it is often asked to me by streamers with 5k+ followers, listing off "only getting $200 a month from subscribers", and after just 3 months of streaming they are burned out and wanting to give up.... they turn to me, a much smaller channel, doing this for nearly 2 decades, and puzzled as to why I did not give up like they are going after not even a full half a year.

The reason, is the motive.

I am NOT motivated by getting attention, so gaining viewers or followers does nothing to motivate me.

I am NOT motivated by being part of a club or group, so joining teams or moving in clique circles of streamers (what most new streamers refer to as "networking") does not motivate me.

I am NOT motivated by money, I have an income outside of streaming, so reaching income goals does not motivate me to stream.

I gain fewer than 10 new followers a month.

I consistently have very few viewers.

And yet... Twitch lists me as one of the top 1,000 most viewed channels on Twitch.


Because I enjoy what I do.

I'm not spending my time begging for followers, begging for subs, begging for bits, begging for viewers, begging for donations... so I don't get burned out.

Yes. I can understand why people get burned out when they spend 2 or 3 hours doing dull boring things like begging.

Think about it... is begging fun? No.

What is fun? Well, for me, picking flowers. Something I spent many hours doing, for the past 50 years, and now I'm crippled and I can't spend hours in the blueberry plains of Maine picking wildflowers like I've done my whole life... so... I seek out video games that let me pick flowers, and thus Witcher, Witcher 3, Don't Starve, and Subnautica, became the 4 video games that I play for many hours every day.

I can sit here and stream to no one for 10 or 12 hours each and every day, because I'm having fun with what I am doing... which for the past 3 years, has been playing Witcher 3 as Avallac'h, running around Skellige picking wildflowers, and not doing quests and not doing anything remotely close to normal gameplay.

If I was worrying about views, I'd have to play other games, games that are not as fun.

If I was seeking followers I would have to be constantly begging and pleading and groveling, asking people to follow.

 And if I wanted people to come back after following, than I'd have to be doing stupid stuff like eating foul jelly beans and drinking various hot sauces.

I love Jelly Bellies... I eat them almost daily, I have since the 1980s. I probably eat more Jelly Bellies in a single week than the average streamer ever will in their lifetime. So I've very familiar with the... bamboozalled beans... heck, I drink 3 to 4 cans of Moxie a day, you think Jelly Bellies "bad tasting" jelly beans is going to faze me? I hold place in the Guinness Book of World Records for how much Moxie I can chug... I wouldn't fun to watch eating those jelly beans, I can knock back an entire box without flitching... I'm a world record holding Moxie drinker... you want a real taste test challenge … you try drinking Moxie, one swig of Moxie and you'll be begging for the safety those so bad tasting beans.

So, for me... taste test challenges, hold no incentive. Those things people do, to gain views, people watch them, to watch them try to swallow something they hate... no one is interested in watching they chow down on something they eat every day.... heck, you see me guzzle down 3 or 4 cans of Moxie every single stream and I don't charge you a penny to watch me do it... it's just a thin I drink... any other streamer would be asking for a $500 donation and expect a week off from streaming just to taste Moxie and not even drink it.

Do you realize how much money I could make and many viewers I'd have, if I started asking people to pay to watch me drink Moxie? But I don't because, I drink Moxie like it was a water. Something you are well aware of if you watch me daily.

I'm not a competitive person. And so even though I'm drinking something others wouldn't touch for anything under a $500 donation, I see no reason to monetize my ability to drink something others call foul.

If viewers or followers or money ever became an incentive to motivate me to stream, all I would have to do is add a donation wheel and slap Moxie and Jelly Bellies on it and spend 10 hours doing what you watch me do on stream anyways... eating Jelly Bellies and drinking Moxie.

But... I think if I took a thing I love and tried to monetize it, I would get bored with that thing and burn out.

Does any of this make sense to you?

Do you understand how it answers your question?

#FAQ: What advice would you give to someone looking to get started in streaming? How do I avoid burn out? What should I use to motivate me if I get burned out?

In my experience, as a viewer, for 17 years... and seeing thousands upon thousands of streamers give up streaming less than 3 months after starting...

...the thing they ALWAYS have in common was this:

* They streamed for OTHERS... they did NOT stream for THEMSELVES.

By this I mean:

* They streamed with a goal of gaining a certain number of followers by a certain date.

* They streamed with the goal of getting so many viewers per stream.


I've seen many who SAY they stream as a hobby, but in watching them, it is quickly clear they say that ONLY to try to sound cool or to try to hide their true goals, and ARE NOT actually streaming as a hobby.

How do I know this?


#A hobby is a thing you do for self-enjoyment; you do it in your free time, when you are alone, by yourself, and no one is watching.

#While a hobby CAN be done with others, a hobby is a thing you do without any goal of sharing with others, because it is a private thing just for you and you love doing it so much that it doesn't matter to you if any one does it with you or not... others doing it with you is just an added bonus and you would still do it even if no one did it with you.

When you SAY that you stream as a hobby, but than you sit there bitching that you have no followers, no viewers, and talk about how disapointed you are to have no one to talk to in chat... you opening admit that you are LYING when you say streaming is a hobby.

There is nothing wrong with streaming for money. If that's your goal, go ahead and admit it. Stop lying to yourself saying streaming is a hobby.

There is nothing wrong with streaming to build a community of friends/followers/viewers... if that is your goal, than say so, stop lying to yourself calling streaming a hobby, when it's not!

Perhaps my culture is showing, seeing how I was born and raised in Maine, a place that has laws forbidden lies and telling a lie comes with the punishment of having one's tounge cut out, so I come from an extraordinarily honest culture that views lying as a grave sin....

...but I'm having a servere amount of culture shock at seeing how many people, partcuarly streamers, tell one lie after another, with dozens of lies rolling out of their mouths every single minute... and they think nothing of it.

I find the general acceptance of this culture of endless lies to be horrifying, vile, and disgusting. And I find both American and European laws to be deplorable for not punishing people for the sin of telling a falsehood.

But I feel it is because their society is so full of such deep degradation, perversion, sin, and immorality, that these streamers are truely unaware they are lying.

I find this level of immoral degradation so astounding, I have no words for it and can feel nothing but shock.

That people tell lies on a regular and daily basis is perhaps the most shocking thing watching Twitch has taught me.

And no where do we see more of this utter lack of morals than we do in newbie streamers who lie to their viewers and say "I stream for a hobby."

If you streamed for a hobby, than you would NOT be asking how to stay motivated.

If you streamed for a hobby - you would not NEED followers, viewers, subscribers, or donations to inspire you to keep on going.

A hobby is a thing that you do for personal satifaction.

If you are streaming for views... you are NOT streaming for a hobby.

Learn to tell the truth for once in your life, and you might find it easier to be honest with your motivation.

When you LIE about what motivates you to stream, you can not focus properly on your motivation.

Don't say streaming is you hobby, if it not.

Admit you stream for views.

Admit you stream for followers.

Admit you stream for money.

Admit you stream to seek out friends.

Stop lying to yourself.

The reason you get burned out if because you say one thing and do another. 

If you want to stream like I do? Well, I stream as a hobby. .. and while MOST streamers say streaming is a hobby, their action while streaming prove them liars.

Following my advice, will NOT work for you, if you stream for any reason other than a hobby.


Because I'm a hobby streamer and my advice will teach you only how to stream hobby stream methods.

I can't teach you to gain followers, because I don't try to gain followers myself.

I can't teach you how to gain viewers because viewers mean nothing to me.

Motivation to stream, for hours every day, for years on end, to no followers and no viewers, well, that I can teach you, but chances are high you won't like what I have to say.


Because when you stream as a hobby, you stream whatever the hell you want to stream, and tell the viewers to fucking go to hell.

The viewers either watch what you stream or they fuck off.

As a hobby streamer, I don't kiss the mighty viewer ass.

As a hobby streamer, I know that the viewers owe me nothing.

As a hobby streamer I expect nothing from my viewers.

As a hobby streamer, I owe my viewers nothing.

As a hobby streamer, I don't whore myself out for view or follows or subs or donations.

As a hobby streamer, I'm not looking to build a community.

As a hobby streamer, I'm not looking to make friends.

As a hobby streamer, I'm not trying to make money.

As a hobby streamer, I'm free to take off a day, a weekend, a week, a month, even a full a year like I did in 2020, just took the entire year off.

If I lose viewers or followers from taking time off, it's not a problem, because as a hobby streamer I know the viewers are real people, who have real lives and real friends offline and real families, and they don't owe me a thing.

If they come back when I return from a long break, great; if not, well, it's a sad lose yes, but, they have their own lives to live and owe me nothing.

I'm not a slave master demanding loyalty of my followers, which sadly is what many streamers today, thing streaming is.

Since May 2020, we've seen a massive rise is a horrifying "culture of entitlement" spreading across Twitch, faster than Covid-19 spread across New York City.

I've never seen anything like this before. Not in all 17 years of streaming. Not on Twitch. Not on YouTube. Not on PornHub. Not on any of the 14 other streaming sites I use. No where.

It's bizarre.

They act like because they created a Twitch channel, now they re the end all be all, God of all creation, and they DESERVE viewers. They DESERVE followers. They DESERVE to have donations thrown at them. 

And they get angry if they aren't at 10,000 followers and 5,000 viewers and earning $1,000 a day, by the end of their first week of streaming.

And the they start hounding "bigger" streamers, like my channel... you know, us HUGE streamers who have 3 to 10 viewers every stream, under 500 followers, and after a decade or more of streaming have yet to reach the $100 payout threshold ... us HUGE streamers... who made it on to Twitch's list of the Top 1,000 most viewed streamers on Twitch, because we are the top 1% of Twitch to gain 3 to 10 viewers per steam...

...they turn to us and bitch and moan and rave and rant their hatred and jealousy for us... they see own names in the Top 1,000 list and make up lies about us claiming we are millionaires ... 

... than they rush to Twitter and try to spread hateful rumors about us hoping to kill our channels because they think we are making so much more money than they are...

.... then, after 3 months of streaming to no one and bashing us "big" streamers on Twitter, they start contacting us "big" top 1,000 list most viewed channels to ask us, how we did it, why don't we burn out, why are we still motivated....

And the reason THEY burn out and I didn't... is I mind my own business, and just stream for fun... I'm not focused on views or follows or subs or money or running around social media trying to bring others down... I just play my video games, turn off view counters, turn off chat, and having fun playing Witcher 3.

I don't burn out because: 

* I don't stress myself out trying to please others.

* I don't stress myself out worrying what other streamers are doing.

* I don't stress myself out trying to compete with others.

* I don't stress myself out worrying about numbers.

**You burn out because you focus on stressful things.**

#If you want to stop burning out, than just stop focusing on stressful things. It really is that simple.

As for motivation? 

You shouldn't NEED motivation.

No matter what you are doing, not just streaming, but ANYTHING in your life... if you ever feel you need outside incentive, aka, motivaton, to do it, than, that's how you know it's time to move on.

If your 9-5 job is such that you are no longer motivated to get up and go to work, than it's time to quit that job, and look for a new job.

If you can't find motivation to stream, just stop streaming.

You don't owe your viewers anything.

Move on. Find something else to do.

There's no shame in that.

If you lack motivation, that means you are bored, stressed, upset, or otherwise not having fun.

If you lack motivation, that means the joy has gone away and what you are doing is no longer fun to do.

Take my chat for example.

I joined Twitch in the days before chat was a thing.

So, my first years of streaming, we streamers talked TO chat, just like a YouTube video... we didn't talk WITH any LIVE chat because live chat had not yet been invented.

At first, live chat was great. Taking to viewers, live, while I streamed, made streaming even more fun than it already was.

But than 2018, the deserve to be raped raids hit my chat and, even 7 chat bots and 78human mods couldn't keep on top of the 2,000+ bullies we had to ban every stream.

Streaming became no longer fun.

But... it wasn't streaming that was the issue. I still loved streaming. I still enjoyed streaming. I was still motivated to stream.

Chat was the problem.

Chat was no longer fun.

Chat had become stressful.

I have post traumatic stress disorder, and chat was refusing to obey the chat rules that asked not to talk about certain topics, topics which were triggers, specifically rape and torture and sex... rape is a trigger for me, torture is a trigger for me, sex is a trigger for me, and BDSM torture-sex is a very bad trigger for me... and yet, suddenly I had 2,000 bullies in chat doing nothing but talking about rape and torture and sex and BDSM and they were creating new accounts as fast as we banned them.

Chat was going out of it's way to TRY to trigger my PTSD panic attacks... they'd seen that they could do it, they triggered a massive seizure one of the very first rape raids... they saw real fast how seriously severe a medical condition this was, that they could put me in a coma live on stream, that they could trigger a catatonic seizure and me with no live in nurse to help and no one to shut the stream down... I could have died on stream... and they thought that was funny and tried actively went out of their way to try to trigger this very life threatening medical emergency again.

Attempted murder... that's what it was... and the law saw it that way, that's why 6 streamer were arrested for instigating these rape raid attacks... 2 of the streamers each got 2 years in prison and the other 4 each got 6 months in jail... and the charge was "attempted murder" because they knew I had a serious medical condition that could be triggered by talking about rape, sex, torture, and BDSM, and tried to trigger it on purpose, with the GOAL of trying to put me in a coma during a livestream.

And so... chat is now emote only.

Chat was the problem.

Streaming was not the problem.

I had not lost motivation to stream.

But I had lost motivate to interact with chat, after chat tried to kill me.

Chat is gone from channel now.

Unfortunately ... a side effect of what they did was a stroke, and my already poor health, becoming much worse, and since the rape raids, which caused not 1 but rather 3 strokes in a single month's time, I'm now struggling to even breath, my lungs suffering greatly from the stroke that the rape raids caused, and while I'm motivated to stream, since the rape raids, I'm no longer able to stream for more than 2 or 3 hours a day and only 1 or 2 days a week at best.

Chat tried to kill me and they almost did, and now in 2021, I'm still struggling to regain use of my lungs.

A side effect of my lungs not functioning properly, is I now sleep 18 to 42 hours to a time.

My low breathing function, puts my brain into a "sleep mode" and entire days pass between me being awake.

That's why I don't stream daily any more. I try to but, often I wake up thinking it's the next morning, and find out I went 2 or 3 days ago, and completely slept through half the week.

When you understand how frail my health is, than you understand, why I don't give 2 shits about views or followers... I have bigger things to worry about - like trying to stay alive from one day to the next.

I can't be bothered to worry about petty meaningless things like how many followers or viewers I got a social network online.

The online world is just that - a virtual world. The real world is the important one.

So while you worry about meaningless virtual world problems, I worry about real world problems.

That's why I don't burn out or lose motivation to stream.

Because I know the difference between the virtual world of the internet and the real world offline.

I know the difference between things that are ACTUALLY important and things that are insignificant.

NOTHING on the internet has any real importance.... some day you'll grow up and you'll understand that too. And when you do, you'll realize all your worry about numbers, view counts, follower goals... it was all for naught.

Don't wait too long to learn that the REAL world, offline, is what is important. Many people wait too long to learn that. And when it's too late, they realize, how very much too late they learned that lesson.

Real people matter. Your family. Your friends. Your pets. Your town. They matter. Put them first.

If you put ANYTHING you do online, before them, than you're a fool.

And that's what I'm seeing spreading across Twitch, right now... millions of streamers who don't give 2 shits about anything or anyone, cruel, cold, heartless, callous people chasing after the glut lust for he who has the most numbers. Attacking every one they see, thinking they have to beat down others to get to the top.

Not only do not have fun while streaming, they also not fun to watch.

Than they wonder WHY they burn out, why they lack motivation?

Because they are not having fun.

When fun is gone, burn out begins.

When fun fleas, motivation goes with it.

Restore the joy, and burn out melts away.

Bring back the fun, and motivation returns.

Why don't I burn out?

Because I do the thing that is fun for me to do.

Right now that's Witcher 3.

I didn't start out playing Witcher 3. I started out with Sonic the Hedgehog 2 and a camera sitting on the table behind me pointed at the TV screen...yeah, I didn't even have screen capture or capture card... because in 2004, screen capture and capture cards had not yet been invented.

I never stuck with one game. Changed games almost daily. Just playing whatever game I felt like playing.

My family was murdered in April & May 2015. The court case went on for almost 2 years. I started playing Witcher 3 in March 2016, as a way to de-stress after long days in court.

The trial finally ended October 2016 and, the fact that my family was dead and I'd never see them again, finally hit me, and I for some reason, because I played Witcher 3, every day after coming home from court, for some reason I couldn't stop playing it after the court trail ended. And I've just played it ever since.

I think the characters in Witcher 3, took the place of my family. 

I had a very large family. 12 children were kidnapped April 10, 2015... 10 of them were murdered May 15, 2015.

The court case dragged on for 2 years.

After court every day, I came home to an empty house.

Witcher 3, was a new game, it had just been released, so it was the game I just happened to pick up and start playing. For no other reason than it was there. Had this all happened a different time, different year, it wouldn't have been Witcher 3, it would have been some other game.

I also think, Witcher 3, is not necessarily anything to do with it... I think I would have done the same thing no matter which game I had played. Whatever game I had played during the court case, I think would have gotten stuck on eternal play, for no other reason that it was the last thing I was doing when my family died.

The Avallac'h obsession, was not a thing early on.

In 2017, I found a very item in the game. Avallac'h's diary, which reveals his horrible childhood, and the murder of his entire family when he was 10 years old... his parents, his siblings, his pets... before than I had no interest in reading the novels. I bought the novels the very next day... I wanted to find out more about Avallac'h... and I did. Oh boy did I. He lost his family again, years later, when his wife left him for another man, and than, lost his family a 3rd time, when she returned, only to be murdered that same day.

I had started playing Witcher 3 to block out the dead silence of a dead family... murdered... there are so few people who survive when their entire family is murdered that there is no one for me to talk to who can even begin to understand what it is like to to survive what happened to me and my family... so I just zoned out to playing video games, and while doing so, found a character, I could identify with, because he'd lost his family as well, also to murder.

You really do need to know the full story behind not only WHY I stream, but WHY I stream Witcher 3 and WHY I made mods to allow me to play as Avallac'h.... to fully understand WHY I don't burn out or lose motivation.

You see... if I stop playing the game... there is nothing for me to do but sit in an empty house and think about every one who died and left me behind, alone.

It's soul crushing.

My drive to stream, my motivation, is very simply, from a need to fill in the silence that fills every corner after my family was murdered.

I don't stream for views.

I don't stream for followers.

I don't stream for money.

I stream to block out the silence that surrounds me.

I stream to block out the memories of laughter that is no longer there.

Stream for fun, because streaming is what you enjoy doing, and always remember that: No one on Twitch owes you anything.

Your viewers owe you nothing. 

Just because you stream, does not give you the right to demand your viewers be there every day, watch you every minute, or follow/subscribe/donate just because you asked them to.

Viewers are people. They have lives. Learn to respect that.

Same goes for viewers.

Streamers don't owe you a thing. 

Your views and your money does not give you the right to demand how often someone streams or what content they stream.

Streamers are people. They have lives. Learn to respect that.

Lack of respect... that’s the biggest problem on Twitch. No one has any respect for any one else. Like I said, a culture of entitlement. 

I suppose that must be what comes from living in 1st world conditions. I wouldn’t know. I live in a 3rd world region. Perhaps that is why I find Twitch culture so bizarre. Things like bitchy demands to join your Discord server, when I live in a region that doesn’t even have access to phones, so I can’t join your precious phone app club house.

I didn’t post your entire question, but I’ll answer even the parts I did not post.

You say you’ve been streaming for almost a month and you find yourself lacking motivation.

Have you ever considered, perhaps the problem is, you have too much and are too used to being pampered?

Here’ some things to try:

* Go outside and dig a trench for this months feces bucket dumping... oh wait, you don’t have to do that do you? You have indoor plumbing and toilets, don’t you? Lucky you. That’s a luxury where I live. Most people in Maine would kill for the option to take a shit on a warm seat inside a building.

* Maybe you should hike a few miles to the nearest brook, creek, or stream, and haul several gallons of water for drinking this week. It’s not clear, straining out all the mud, bugs, and tapeworms is rather difficult, it takes hours to get the firepit hot enough or the fire big enough to boil the tapeworms dead without boiling out the water... just let them settle to the bottom and drink around them... oh that’s right, you have indoor plumbing, and clean water to drink, and you don’t cook outside over an open fire. You have luxuries like a sink and bottled water. Lucky you.

It’s no wonder you are bored and lacking in motivation. You sit in the lap of luxury. You sleep indoors. You have clean water to drink. I bet you get to eat a meal at least once a day and don’t have to make a single sandwich last an entire weeks of meals.

I guarantee if you lived here in Maine, and you were blessed with an extremely rare luxury of having the internet, and a video game set up... you wouldn’t bitching about boredom and needing motivation.

You want my kind of motivation? Well, the first step to that, is living in a 3rd world region in what most call “utter destitution” and “homelessness”. 

I don’t get bored with streaming or lack motivation, because of the life I live.

I doubt you could even begin to comprehend the lifestyle I live, any more than I could even begin to understand you lazing around in the lap of luxury.

You want my type of motivation... I’d tell you to walk a mile in my shoes, if I had any for you to walk in. 

There’s one to try:

* Try shovelling snow, in -40f weather, BAREFOOT.

Can you do that? I’ve been doing it for 50+ years.

You don’t need motivation, you need a reality check.

You need to get off your fucking high horse and take a good long look at the world around you. You with your 1st world pampered boredom and slothful lack of motivation, you are in the top 3% of the world’s population. The rest of the world, lives like I do or worse, and can only dream of your petty 1st world problems, like being bored or lacking motivation.

Starvation, now there’s a good motivation.

When you have to get off your ass and hoe the ground, plant the seeds, pull the weeds, harvest the crops, stock the fire, and cook your own meals... you don’t have time to be bored and the chance to stream is a reward.

Frostbite, is another good motivation.

When you have to set traps, skin corpses, tan hides, and sew your own fur counts and blankets, and pray you have enough layers of fur to wear and sleep on, to keep out the 12 foot blizzards, the -120F wind, and the -40f weather, in a region that gets only 3 hours of sunlight a day... the time you get to spend streaming, is such a good reward, you won’t need any other motivation.

This is how I live.

I grow my own food. Hunt my own cloths. And while the rest of America bemoans a winter of oh look 2 inches of snow and 30F weather, for one week of the year... that’s the weather we get in an August heat wave. We have snow year round here... and Mt Washington, is right next door, with the coldest weather on the entire planet. We are lucky if the weather gets as HIGH as 40F in the summer.

And, no, I’m not complaining. I like where I live. I like this lifestyle. I live here by choose. I don’t like 1st world living conditions any more than I like 1st world society. You people are slaves to your possessions, and when disaster strikes, you won’t survive because you don’t know how to live off the land. You spend you life separated from nature. I live at one with the planet. But the fact remains, you boo-hooed to me, asking WHY I don’t get bored, how can I possibly remain motivated for 17 years of streaming and “getting no where” as you put it. 

I live a harsh life, in a harsh region, in an even harsher society. For me, streaming is a reward. Streaming is precious. I don’t take it for granted like you do. It’s not a “ho hum, I’m bored, I’ll stream” for me. 

I don’t stream to gain views or followers or subscribers or friends or build a community or have a career... I stream after a long hard day of work. I stream to relax. I stream, simply because, I’m done with my chores and have free time for a hobby. Streaming is my hobby. The thing I do, for fun, after work.

You get bored and lose motivation, because you have nothing to fill your time. You don’t appreciate life. You have all your needs met in the blink of an eye. It is because you do no hard work, that you find yourself bored when doing things like streaming or playing games.

Video games are toys.

Toys are rewards.

Rewards are things you receive at the end of the day/week/month/year after you’ve finished your work.

You try to take a reward, and turn it into a career, and that it why streaming is not rewarding for you.

When streaming and playing video games is a rare treat, a reward for work well done, you’ll find you don’t get bored, you don’t lose motivation.

And that is the difference between you and me.

For me: 

* Video games are toys.

* Toys are rewards.

* Rewards are things you receive at the end of the day/week/month/year after you’ve finished your work.

* Streaming and playing video games is a rare treat, a reward for work well done, so I don’t get bored, and I don’t lose motivation.

THAT is why I can stream for 17 years to almost no one and not lose motivation.

This is why 403 followers in 8 years, doesn't bother me.

It's why often streaming to 0 viewers and almost never reaching 10 viewers, doesn't bother me.

It's why streaming for 60 hours a week for 17 years to rarely more than 3 people and never once receiving a single penny for it, doesn't bother me or cause me to lose motivation.

Viewers do not motivate me.

Followers do not motivate me.

The opinion of others, does not motivate me, that is why I can shut off chat and stream without it, and why I can ban 2,000 viewers without batting an eye.

I don’t rely on OTHERS for my happiness.

Happiness and joy are found from within.

If you look for others to make you happy, you will never be happy.

If you rely on others to provide you with joy, you will never feel true joy at all.

I live in 3rd world living conditions, and yet I am always filled with joy... and you in your 1st world luxuries, you can’t find any joy at all.

My family was murdered, and yet I always laugh and smile... and you with your family beside you living in your 1st world luxuries, you can’t find any reason to laugh or smile.

My grandmother died when I was 8 years old, she left me everything, disinherited everyone else... so my 12 enraged uncles, locked me in a cage... a rusted raccoon trap... shoved it in a woodshed... tossed a single salted herring to me to food, once every 12 days... and there I remained until I was 31 years old and an FBI raid rescued me. 

My uncles used me as an income... they charged Mormon high priests $12,000 to rape me. 

I had been raped more then 500 times by the time I was 12 years old.

I became “mute” at age 14, after a cinder block was used to shatter my jaw.... I was 42 years old when I was able to speak again for the first time in decades, thanks to surgery to restore my jaw, and implant 7 false teeth.

I never went to school.

I was 37 years old when I learned how to eat with silverware and walk on my feet not crawl on all 4s, and talk with human words... now speak in cat growls and hisses.

When they rescued me, the social workers, called me a feral child. I’m in 100s of college Psychology test books, thousands of psychiatrists have studied me. They still do to this day. They say they are astounded that I’ve assimilated into society as well as I have.

I suffer from a freak medical condition - I show no outward sign of pain - slice a knife through my arm to the bone and out the other side and I don't flinch, don't cry, don't make a sound. The hallmark of REAL Autism, ACTUAL Autism - how you can prove someone who is REALLY Autistic from the self-diagnosed Aspie who wouldn't know recognize Autism if they saw it.

In spite of 1 in every 3 people CLAIMING to be Autistic, only 1 in every 1,200,000 people ACTUAL has REAL Autism. It's one of the rarest diseases in the world... and you can easily prove REAL Autism from fake ass wannabes with their self diagnoses, by slice their flesh open or breaking their bones, and watching to see if they respond, if they scream.

My uncles, especial that bastard Bruce, thought it was funny, changed people money to watch him stab me and beat me with bricks. He claimed I felt nothing. Not true. I felt everything, I just show no outward signs of pain, but I still feel pain.

Men who stab children with knifes and beat them with bricks, to stand back and laugh, they nothing but cruel heartless monsters.

Since I was a baby I was nothing but a freak show to be put on display.

The FBI rescued me, but the fucking news reporters glorified it. Sensationalized it and than fucking Stephen King saw the news reports and immortalized me far worse than fucking paparazzi did.

I went from being a caged display piece in a Gypsy Carnival Freak Show to being front page news to being plastered all over a Stephen King movie without my permission. 

Since the FBI raid that rescued me, my life has been nothing but being studied by psychiatrists because I'm medical freak, chased down by Stephen King fans because he fucking put me in a movie, harassed by racist white power Gypsy haters again because of Stephen King's fucking Thinner, always having to dodge reporters every time I try to go shopping, and stalked every where I go by my fucking uncles and their clan because they live by fucking Mafia-style laws that say you don't leave family unless you die.

Always on public display.

Never a minute's privacy.

My entire life.

Not a moment's peace.

Not once in 50 years.

Always under every one's spot light like a bug under a fucking microscope.

No one has ever respected my privacy. NO ONE!

I’ve never been loved.

I’ve never been wanted.

I’ve never been hugged.

Not once has a kind word ever been said to me.

Perhaps that contributes to my outlook on life... and why I am so fully aware that video games and streaming are luxuries to be thankful for, not things to take for granted and be bored with.

In the end, nothing I do or say, and nothing any one else does or says, can help you.

I can't help you gain motivation. No one can.

You have to seek motivation from within yourself.

Motivation, like joy and happiness, anger and hate, love and sadness, is a choose you actively make.

No one can give you any of those things.

No one can cause any of those things.

You feel those things by your own choice.

You can only be bored if you CHOOSE to be bored.

You can only be happy if you CHOOSE to be happy.

You can only feel joy if you CHOOSE to feel joy.

You will only motivation if you CHOOSE to be motivated.

I can not help you feel any of those things. No one can.

You CHOOSE your feelings, your reactions, your motivations, all by yourself.

You have to help yourself.

Stop being lazy.

Stop relying on others to feel for you.

You'll forever feel a lack of motivation, for EVERYTHING, if you forever wait for someone else to motivate you.

You'll be bored with EVERYTHING, if you constantly wait for others to inspire you.

If you can not inspire yourself, you'll forever live a life lacking in inspiration. You'll forever be bored. You'll forever sloth your way through endless lack of motivation in all that you do.

My childhood was full of motivation:

* motivation to survive

* motivation to stay alive

* motivation to castrate as many men as possible - I was 8 years old when I learned the best protection from rapists is to slice off their balls with a machete – what were YOU doing when you were 8 years old?

* motivation to claw and bite everyone who beat me with bricks, stabbed me with forks - I was also 8 years old when I learned how to bite hard enough to draw blood and rip off abuser fingers with my teeth

I know motivation better than most.

You want my kind of dedication to motivation... learn to survive the levels of abuse I was subjected to... nothing will teach you motivation, dedication, and discipline faster than fighting for your life every single day your entire childhood.

You don't have time to be bored when you are 8 years old being vivisected by your older cousin on orders from your uncles, and Draino poured into the wounds.

Nothing motivates you like being 8 years old and gang raped by Mormon high priests armed with knives and hammers, slicing your flesh and breaking your bones, for sexual pleasure.

You want my kind of dedicated motivation? I guarantee you don't.

I wasn't the only child they caged and abused. July 19, 2016, the FBI dug up the sawed up bones of 31 other children, in GooseFare Brooke Ravine, in the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, in the Ross Forest, of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, my cousins, most of them dumped there in the 1970s, children who unlike me didn't have the fortitude to fight back, didn't have the will to survive.... were not motivated to spite their abusers and live.

I could have been like the others, too bored, too lacking in motivation to fight back and stay alive.... but my desire to live, motivated me and now I'm free. 

Caged for 27 years, from the time I was 8 years old until I was 31.

I didn't have the luxury of school or friends like you did.

I lived my entire childhood, teen years, and young adult years in a cage... and THAT is why I have the motivation I have in everything I do.

I'm a survivor.

I was motivated to live.

So you can also see, why you see you as pampered and silly, for boo-hooing, your lack of being motivated to play with toys.

Be glad you are blessed to be a child who has toys, has school, has parents who feed you, and are more than just the cash cow of adults who sell you to rapist priests.

Your lack of motivation to play video games, speaks volumes to the pampered lap of luxury you live in.

You want for nothing.

Everything is handed to you on a silver platter.

You don't know hardship.

You don't know starvation.

You don't know abuse.

You don't know rape.

You don't know what it is to fight for your life.

You don't know what it is to lay on a rusted wire cage floor, your arms and legs sliced to the bone, your bones broken, drinking your own blood because it's the only liquid you have to drink... and sleep that way every day, for 27 years, from the time you are 8 years old.

Until you know that kind of torture, that kind of abuse, you'll never know my kind of motivation.

Until you actively help yourself, you’ll continue on in your boredom and lack of motivation.

If you are so bored and so lacking in motivation that you feel the need to ask others how to not be bored and how to be motivated, than I would think that is red flag trying to tell you that streaming just isn’t something you enjoy doing.

Nothing wrong with that. Streaming is not for everyone. There is no reason to force yourself to do a thing you do not enjoy. Find another hobby, one that you DO enjoy. One that doesn't bore you. One that you are naturally motivated to do.

FAQs: How can you like Avallac'h when he....

#TIP: Before asking me a question about Avallac’h:

* Make sure that you ACTUALLY mean AVALLAC’H and not Vilgefortz, Leo, King Auberon, or some other character.

* Make sure your source has ACTUALLY read the Witcher novels.

* Make sure you are ACTUALLY ASKING A QUESTION and are not just spewing mindless hate because a troll worked you up into a frenzy, telling you lies about me and/or Avallac’h then sent you here. 

* Make sure your source for the info is not a troll jebating you into anger.

* Make sure the source of your information is not a 4Chan/QAnon jackass with “Chan” in their username, as 99.99% of everything they have to say about EVERYONE real and fictional is out right lies intended to troll you and laugh at you for making a fool of yourself getting angry over something that never happened at all.

#Know that 99.9% of the stuff you people are accusing Avallac’h of doing, is stuff that was done by other characters. 

#Nearly 99.9% of everything you people attribute to Avallac’h was something done by:

* Vilgefortz

* Leo Bonhart

* King Auberon

* ...and was NOT done by Avallac’h.

#Brain – it’s the thing that keeps you alive. It does other things too. Learn how to use it.

It’s not that difficult to tell Avallac’h from Leo, Avallac’h from Vilgefortz, Avallac’h from King Auberon ... it’s really not. Go back and re-read the Witcher novels again. Focus your eyes on the words instead of speed skimming over the page. Actually pay attention this time. You’ll soon learn the error of your mistakes, and will quickly find, that in all your bitching about Avallac’h, all you’ve done is prove yourself an idiot with poor reading comprehension skills.

* Avallac’h is NOT Leo.

* Leo put Ciri in pits of monsters and charged people money to watch her be tortured.

* Avallac’h DID NOT put Ciri is pits of monsters or charge people money to watch her be tortured.

* Avallac’h is NOT Vilgefortz.

* Vilgefortz is the sadistic mage with a baby breeding program, who keeps little girls, including Ciri in cages in the dungeons of his castle, and sadisticly tortures them with torture devices.

* Avallac’h is NOT a mage, he is a scientist.

* Avallac’h does NOT have a baby breeding program.

* Avallac’h does NOT keep little girls cages.

* Avallac’h does NOT have any dungeons, because he’s does NOT have a castle.

* Avallac’h does NOT own any torture devices.

* Avallac’h is NOT King Auberon.

* King Auberon physically, sexually, and emotionally abused Ciri. King Auberon sexually molested Ciri, every night for weeks. King Auberon, demanded sex from Ciri, then beat the hell out of her if she tried to have sex with him.

* Avallac’h did NOT physically, sexually, and emotionally abuse Ciri. He was however, often in the room when King Auberon abused Ciri and didn’t do a damned thing to stop the King from molesting or beating Ciri....

* ...HOWEVER... we are told, that Avallac’h is the King’s prisoner, has a powerful pendant around his neck that is forcing him to be powerless against his masters *(King Auberon and The Unicorns)*... and that Avallac’h in his true form is a 130ft (40m) serpent forced into Elf form against his will by that same amulet... and that this is WHY he can’t do anything to stop King Auberon from abusing Ciri, nor disobey any order from King Auberon... and Avallac’h is incapable of removing the necklace, which can only be removed by a woman who loves him...

* ...AND... we are also told Avallac’h is plotting to kill King Auberon and has made poisoned fistech to kill the King with because he does not like what King Auberon is doing to Ciri

It is dreadfully annoying to be constantly sent the same few questions over and over and over and over... and they are never questions about DID Avallac’h do the things he’s accused of, they are always instead accusations thrown at me for liking Avallac’h even though he did this or that, but than, the things he is accused of doing are never things he did and are always things some other character did.

The confusion is caused by readers who have ZERO reading comprehension ability, getting confused about what they read, mixing characters up, than running to the internet and CLAIMING character A did things character B did.

The Witcher novels are written in what is known as “The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format”, which is considered to be the worst, most atrocious, least reader friendly style of writing. Every English/Grammar teacher/professor is going to tell you to avoid this writing style like the plague, because nothing is going to confuse your readers faster.

The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format is incredibly rare, seen almost exclusively in use by  The Ernest Hemingway himself (thus the name of it) and is considered to be a pretentious/snooty, style of writing that is only recommended for writing things such as PhD Doctorates, drafts from Bills/Laws/Congress, Law Dockets for court cases, and other legal papers, as only high IQ people are even capable of being able to comprehend how to read The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format and actually understand what it is that they have read.

The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format should NEVER be used in a novel, and one has only to read a novel written by Ernest Hemingway to see why.

* The average person reads on a 3rd grade level.

* Because of this, the average novel is written using 3rd  grade grammar.

* The average college textbook is written using 8th grade grammar and is comprehensible to only 9% of the population.

* The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format is 4th year Doctorate student level and is nearly incomprehensible to EVERYONE with an IQ of anything lower than 135.

* Only .00003% of the world’s population scores at 135IQ or higher.

* Meaning only .00003% of the world’s population is going to be able to read the Witcher novels and come anything close to being able to mental understand what they have read.

It was poor choice on Andrzej Sapkowski’s part to use The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format when writing The Witcher novels, but he is one of the world’s rare few actually high IQ people and he wrote on the same reading level he is capable of reading, and made no attempt to cater to the reading level of the general public, so, it is understandable why so many people get so many characters so very mixed up with one another.

The average person simply is not capable of fully wrapping their mind around the legalize format used by lawyers when writing bills, laws, IRS tax forms, and court dockets, so when that same format shows up in a novel, it’s simply beyond reason to expect the average reader to be able to comprehend what they are reading while reading said novel.

Poor choice that it may be, the fact remains, The Witcher novels are written in The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format and suffer from the following flaws rarely seen in novels:

* big words, often in Latin without translation... the full, correct, scientific Latin versions of common every day words, often leaves readers 100% clueless as to what a simple, common, every day item is because they don’t have a dictionary laying around to look up the common word of the Latin word used

* dry, often boring, technical writing that reads like it was written by a team of the worlds most stuck up, pretensions, highest IQ, most elite law firm

* name tags don’t exist: no Geralt said, Ciri said, he said, she said.... dialogue looks like this:

>>>”I am talking right now.”


>>>”Did I tell you, you could talk?”


>>>”I‘m talking any ways.”


>>>”I told you you should have gagged her.”


>>>”I’m sick of you telling me what to do.”


>>>”I’m not listening to any of you.”




How many characters where talking?

The answer is 4.

Normal novels would read like this instead:

>>>”I am talking right now,” said One.


>>>”Did I tell you, you could talk?” Two demanded.


>>>”I‘m talking any ways.”


>>>”I told you you should have gagged her,” Three interjected.


>>>”I’m sick of you telling me what to do,” pouted Two.


>>>”I’m not listening to any of you,” retorted Four.




The hallmark of The Ernest Hemingway Format is it’s complete and utter lack of dialogue/name tags.

The Ernest Hemingway Style requires the reader to pay very careful attention to character voice, tics, and quirks in how they speak. It requires the author to do huge amounts of making sure each character has a unique quirk. One character stutters, one uses bad grammar, one uses reversed pronouns, one slaps her ass and shrieks “Nahnahnahnahnahnaaaaa!” at the end of every sentence like it was a period, ect.

In this, Andrzej Sapkowski EXCELS above any author I’ve ever seen, including Ernest Hemingway. There are 5,000+ characters with speaking roles in the Witcher novels and, he did give each and every one of them their own unique speaking quirk, and you CAN, if you are careful at paying attention, tell who every character is, without ever seeing their name, just by how they talk.

This is an astounding feat.

That Andrzej Sapkowski was able to pull of 8 novels of 400+ pages each, with 5,000+ characters, without dialogue tags, is mind boggling.

When I quote character dialogue in my articles, I add their names at the start of the line, because their names were not there in the novels.

All of this, has yet to add the most mind blowing aspect of The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format, which is what trips of even the most competent readers: 


Chapter 5 of Lady of the Lake, is quoted by readers as being by far the single most confusing section of the Witcher novels.


Because of how time flows in the Witcher novels.

You see the events IN ORDER of the happening.

Meaning HUGE amounts of head hopping and constant Point of View shifts from one sentence to the next.

What does this mean?

It means this:

* It is 7AM. Sentence one tells you what Ciri is doing on Planet A with Avallac’h. Sentence 2 does not start a new paragraph and tells you what Geralt is doing in the blizzard in the North of planet B. Sentence 3 also does not start a new paragraph and tells you what Triss is doing in Skellige with Crach. A unicorn runs by, who knows where or why, it’s probably planet A. Sentence 5 is Vilgefortz tying up Yennefer in his castle back on the other side of Planet B. Sentence 6 is on the other side of Planet B and is Regis tearing everything apart trying to find Ciri. Sentence 7 is in the South of Planet B and is Dandelion and Cahir. Sentence 8 is Leo drowning in the ocean, apparently on Planet A after being sucked through a portal??? Unicorns are galloping, we don’t know where or why – apparently in outer space, flying from one planet to another. Sentence 10 is Dijkstra talking to a half-elf by a campfire outside of the war zone. End of Paragraph 1.

* Start of paragraph 2. It is 8AM. Sentence one tells you what Ciri is doing on Planet A with Avallac’h. Sentence 2 does not start a new paragraph and tells you what Geralt is doing in the blizzard in the North of planet B. Sentence 3 also does not start a new paragraph and tells you what Triss is doing in Skellige with Crach. A naked she-elves run by, who knows where or why, it’s probably planet A. Sentence 5 is Vilgefortz with Yennefer in his castle back on the other side of Planet B. Sentence 6 is on the other side of Planet B and is Regis doing vampire things. Sentence 7 is in the South of Planet B and is Dandelion and Cahir. Sentence 8 is Leo’s men planning what to do next. Mountain trolls are galloping to, who knows. Sentence 10 is Dijkstra drinking with a half-elf by a campfire outside of the war zone. End of Paragraph 2.

Skip ahead 30 or so pages and you come too...

* Sentence one 8PM Ciri with Avallac’h. Sentence 2 does not start a new paragraph 9PM Ciri with Auberon. Sentence 3 also does not start a new paragraph 9PM on a different planet Vilgefortz torturing Yennefer. A naked she-elves run by, who knows why. Sentence 5 is 1AM Ciri with Eredin. Sentence 6 is 5AM Ciri with Avallac’h. Sentence 7 also 5AM is back on Planet B Geralt doing Witcher things. Sentence 8 a boat made out of pink cotton candy floats by in the sky. Sentence 9 it’s  8AM Ciri with Avallac’h. Sentence 10 is 9PM Ciri with Auberon. Sentence 11 it’s 2AM Ciri with Avallac’h. Sentence 12 is 9PM Ciri with Auberon. Sentence 13 it’s 8AM Ciri with Avallac’h. Sentence 14 is 9PM Ciri with Auberon.

Lack of dialogue tags, teamed up with literal timeline flow of events, while being written is long scientific Latin versions of common words, is one of the most mind frying, brain draining things to read. It is WHY every English/Grammar teacher/professor on the planet tells newbie writers to stay away from using The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format and just don’t even touch it with 9 foot pole.

The Ernest Hemingway Style/Format, is the style Andrzej Sapkowski used to write The Witcher novels.

THIS is the reason WHY so many readers, come bitching to me, over my love for Avallac’h, saying I shouldn’t like him, for this or that reason... and end up accusing him of things, he did not do, but rather were done by Vilgefortz, Leo, or King Auberon.

All of the stuff that happens with Avallac'h, happens along side what is happening with Vilgefortz in a very unconventional writing style, that tells us one line of what Ciri and Avallac'h are doing, followed by one line of what Geralt and Regis are doing, followed by one line of what Vilgefortz and Yennefer are doing, then back to one line of what Ciri and Avallac'h are doing,  followed by one line of what Geralt and Regis are doing, followed by one line of what Vilgefortz and Yennefer are doing, then back to one line of what Ciri and Avallac'h are doing, ... and so on, for some 70 pages of the story, making it very difficult for most readers to comprehend what they are reading and causing a lot of readers to incorrectly mix up Avallac'h with Vilgefortz.

While Avallac'h and Ciri are arguing with King Auberon and Eredin about the baby... Vilgefortz is building a machine to suck eggs out of ovaries to make fetuses in jars to build synthetic Elder Blood. You see these scenes side by side because timeline wise they are happening at the same time.

#To help you out, here’s some quick facts:

* Avallac’h is NOT a mage. He takes great offence when Ciri calls him a sorcerer and explains there is no such thing as magic, that everything everyone calls “magic” is simply science that they are too stupid to comprehend. OTHERS call Avallac’h a mage, but he is in fact a time travelling scientist, akin to Dr. Who, from 5,000 years in the future and is not a mage.

* Vilgeforzt is the evil mage/wizard/sorcerer who tortured Ciri, and also Yennefer. 

* Vilgeforzt put Ciri in a cage.

* Leo also kept Ciri in a cage.

* There are several other villains who also kept Ciri in cages.

* Avallac’h NEVER put Ciri in a cage. Avallac’h doesn’t even own any cages. Avallac’h doesn’t own anything. Avallac’h is homeless.

* Vilgeforzt is the evil mage/wizard/sorcerer who owned a huge castle.

* Avallac’h does NOT own a castle. Avallac’h is a homeless hermit. He lives in a cave. Wears rags and ratty matted furs.

* Avallac’h is homeless. Avallac’h on warm nights, sleeps beside a campfire on the beach of the lake in a pile with his 5 wives, his horse, 6 Knockers/Mountain Trolls, 2 Echinops, a few Vampyrhodes, and several hundred Barbagazi (orange shag furred Tribble-like/Fizz-Gig-like creatures that look like a cross between Pekinese dogs and sharp fanged vampire bunnies).

* Avallac’h is homeless. Avallac’h on cold, windy, rainy, or snowy nights, he sleeps on Lara’s coffin. Inside the cave. While his 5 wives, his horse, 6 Knockers/Mountain Trolls, 2 Echinops, a few Vampyrhodes, and several hundred Barbagazi (orange shag furred Tribble-like/Fizz-Gig-like creatures that look like a cross between Pekinese dogs and sharp fanged vampire bunnies) sleep in a pile on the floor around Lara’s coffin.

* Vilgeforzt is the evil mage/wizard/sorcerer who had torture chambers, full of torture devices, in the dungeons of his castle.

* Avallac’h does NOT own a dungeon or torture device. Avallac’h is a homeless. Avallac’h doesn’t own anything.

* Vilgeforzt is the evil mage/wizard/sorcerer with the BDSM fetish torture gorn freak obsession. Vilgeforzt kept naked women gallows(cages) hanging over his dinner table and ordered his soldiers to sadisticly sexually abuse the women, while he ate. Ciri hung in one of these cages for 2 years, from the time she was 10 years old until she was 12 years old.

* Avallac’h is asexual. He abhors all things related to sex. He says the only time one should have sex is when one wants to create a baby. Sex for pleasure is out of the question and in his mind an evil sin.

* Avallac’h states that: sex, torture, vengeance, retribution, war, violence, drinking, weapons, and fighting to all be deplorable sins that must be avoided at all costs.

* Vilgeforzt is the evil mage/wizard/sorcerer who sexually, emotionally, and physically abused Ciri on horrendous levels, including shoving hot pokers up her vagina.

* Vilgefortz DID keep girls in cages... he even kept Ciri in a cage, hanging over dinner table, she was 12 years old, naked, and ordered his servants to shove hot pokers up her vagina, so he could watch he be tortured while he ate

* Leo is the bounty hunter who ALSO sexually, emotionally, and physically abused Ciri on horrendous levels, including forcing her to watch while he tortured and beheaded her lover Mistle.

* Leo Bonhart WAS a rapist.

* Leo Bonhart WAS an abuser. 

* Leo Bonhart DID physically, emotional, or sexually abuse Ciri and Mistle and The Rats, and many more.

* Leo Bonhart WAS a dungeon master.

* Leo Bonhart DID torture Ciri. 

* Leo Bonhart DID have and use on Ciri, many torture devices.

* Leo Bonhart DID have many dungeons and he DID keep Ciri locked in them.

* Leo Bonhart DID put Ciri in a cage. 

* Leo Bonhart DID hurt poor Ciri... he almost killed her, and if Avallac'h hadn't nursed Ciri back to health, when he found her 2 hours after she escaped from Leo, Ciri would have died from the injuries Leo gave her.

* Ciri didn't learn to fight at Kaer Morhen, like the game told you. Ciri being trained by Witchers at Kaer Morhen is game only fanfiction.

* Ciri learned to fight because Leo Bonhart, owned a gladiator ring.

* Leo Bonhart, threw Ciri in a pit with monsters, when she was 12 years old, and she was forced to fight or die, for entertainment, while thousands of gambling men bet money, to who would win: a 12 year old child or a giant monster.

* Leo Bonhart tortured Ciri, put her in cages, let men pay to publicly rape her, made her publicly fight against monsters... all for entertainment.

#In fact, EVERY SINGLE THING you people accused Avallac'h of doing... those things WERE in the novels, but it wasn't Avallac'h who did those things... Leo Bonhart did those things to Ciri.

* Avallac’h is the painter/poet/flutist/scientist/fisherman who nursed Ciri back to health after she escaped Vilgeforzt and Leo. Ciri would have died from her injuries, had Avallac’h not found her 2 hours after she escaped Leo and took her home to the lakeside cave and taken care of her.

* King Auberon sexually abused and molested Ciri in grizzly detail, on horrifying levels, for 80 endless pages straight.

* Eredin took Ciri on a picnic to bad mouth Avallac’h, and try to convince Ciri to help Eredin to kill King Auberon and frame Avallac’h for it, and during that picnic Eredin tried to rape Ciri.

* Avallac’h never rapes Ciri nor does he ever sexual abuse her.

* We do see Avallac’h constantly touching Ciri, hugging Ciri, kissing Ciri, always in a very parent-like comforting way, but we also always see Ciri translate it as being sexual even though it clearly isn’t.

* Ciri is Avallac’h’s 5th great-granddaughter. Avallac’h is Ciri’s 5th great-grandfather. Ciri is Avallac’h’s beloved little grandbaby, and he sees her as such. Avallac’h deeply love Ciri, but it’s a parental love, not a sexual love.

* Avallac’h is an ancient elderly Elf, suffering from manic-depression, suicidal tenancies, is bi-polar, is displaying signs of Alzheimer's, and is clearly senile...

* ...and because Ciri looks like Lara, and Avallac’h, often forgets Lara is dead, forgets Ciri is not Lara, and called Ciri, Lara, and acts like she is Lara. Avallac’h’s relationship with Ciri is confusing and conflicting because, some days he loves her as his granddaughter Ciri and other days he loves her as his wife Lara.

* When Avallac’h forgets Lara is dead, he comes out of his shell and we see him happy, laughing, smiling, his depression melted away and we see him kind, loving, doting, gentle... but than when he remembers, no, this isn’t Lara, this is Ciri, Lara is dead, and he immediately sinks back into moody fits of depression and despair, often becoming full of rage and displaying extreme levels of violence amid distressed tears.

* Ciri tries to seduce Avallac’h, resulting in Avallac’h lecturing Ciri on the evils of sex and being outright horrified by Ciri’s sexual advances... Enraged by his refusal to have sex with her on command, Ciri rapes Avallac’h.

* Vilgeforzt wanted a baby from Ciri because he believed drinking Elder Blood would make him the most powerful mage in the universe. He built an egg sucking machine to shove up Ciri’s ovaries, to fill jars with babies so he could have endless thousands of Elder Blood babies.

* King Auberon wanted a baby from Ciri because he believed in Iithllayn’s prophecy which stated that The Child of the Elder Blood, a child born to 2 Elder Blood parents, would rise up among the Elves and become a weapon/savoir to kill all Humans and end the Elf enslavement by Humans. He had already enslaved a male Elder Blood (Avallac’h) but needed a female and so, had helped in clone Avallac’h to create Lara Dorren, than forced Avallac’h and Lara to marry. Avallac’h however was asexual a refused to consummate the marriage and Lara subsequently got pregnant by a human. Lara was executed and Avallac’h outcast, as punishment for not obeying King Auberon’s orders to have sex and create the ultimate weapon-baby. ......... . King Auberon, now plans to get Ciri pregnant, with a female baby, take that baby, raise it, and force Avallac’h to breed with it wither he wants to or not, to create  The Child of the Elder Blood, a child born to 2 Elder Blood parents, the child that will result from pairing Avallac’h to Ciri’s female baby via King Auberon.

* Eredin wanted a baby from Ciri for the same reason as King Auberon, he planned to take said baby fathered by King Auberon after it was born....

*  *(Not canon to the novels, but found in various letters in the game... we are told Ciri got pregnant from raping Avallac’h and gave birth to a male baby - Caranthiar, Eredin killed King Auberon, took the baby, raised it to be said weapon child of prophecy, and this is why Ciri and Avallac’h have teamed up together in the game against Eredin... this however, contradicts many aspects of what we were told in the novels, because it is game dev created fanfiction, I choose to not accept it as part of the cannon.)*

* Avallac’h wanted a baby from Ciri because he wanted his dead family back, which consisted of Ciri’s 4th-great grandmother Lara Dorren, and her illegitimate baby by Creaganon of Lod. Because Ciri looked like Lara, Avallac’h made Ciri wear Lara’s cloths, change her hair to match Lara’s hairstyle, and than sent Ciri off to get pregnant by King Auberon so she could be Lara and give birth to an illegitimate baby. Avallac’h tricked Ciri into agreeing to this by offering to rescue Ciri’s Mommy Yennefer from Vilgefortz, and reuniting Ciri with her dream family, which consisted of Geralt and Yennefer as her parents, after the baby was born. Ciri was 12 years old when she agreed to this.

* Though Avallac’h promised to help Ciri escape his world, return to Mommy Yennefer, and rescue Yen from Vilgefortz, in exchange for Ciri giving him her baby... we see a scene of him and Ciri fighting, in which Ciri spitefully says she’ll get pregnant than have an abortion just to spite him, and Avallac’h’s response to this, very clearly brings to light how deeply, suicidally depressed Avallac’h really is and that he wants Ciri more than the baby and he not only never intends to let her leave, but if she tries to leave, he’ll kill Ciri and than kill himself, because now that he has Lara back *(through Ciri)*, he’s not letting her go and if he can’t have her, no one can. ... Avallac’h is revealed to be the most dangerous person Ciri has ever met or ever will meet, because there is nothing more dangerous than someone with nothing left to lose, and Avallac’h has already lost everything. Ciri is all he has left.

#Yes, Avallac’h was evil. He did do bad things. He was a villain... BUT:

* Avallac'h is NOT a rapist.

* Avallac'h DID NOT rape Ciri or anyone else.

* Avallac'h is NOT an abuser. 

* Avallac'h did NOT physically, emotional, or sexually abuse Ciri or any one else.

* Avallac'h is NOT a BDSM fetish freak. 

* Avallac'h does NOT like nasty sexual perversion.

* Avallac'h is NOT a dungeon master.

* Avallac'h DID NOT keep girls in cages.

* Avallac'h does NOT have a breeding program.

* Avallac'h did NOT torture any one. 

* Avallac'h does NOT have any torture devices.

* Avallac'h does NOT have any dungeons.

* Avallac'h did NOT put Ciri in a cage. 

* Avallac'h did NOT hurt poor Ciri.

#In the future, could you at least TRY to get your accusations to be aimed the correct characters...

...yes, I know the author made it insanely difficult for lazy incompetent people to understand which character was doing what... but, The Ernest Hemingway Style Format really isn’t that hard to read, if you just take the time to use your brain and THINK while you read.

There are plenty of people who don’t have mind bogglingly high IQs and can read and understand and comprehend both Ernst Hemingway and The Witcher novels, just fine.

On the one hand, I like that the Netflix series has inspired so many people to take up reading.

On the other hand, it’s painfully obvious that many of these people, find it easier to tell the difference between their ass and a hole in the ground, then they do understanding the meaning of even the most simple written sentences.

I wonder who is more at fault here: the incompetent school system who can’t take the time to ensure reading comprehension is a skill students graduate with... or the parents, who are so lazy they can’t be bothered to help their children succeed in skills the school system failed to teach.

Reading comprehension is such a basic skill that it’s taught in kindergarten. It’s not that difficult to learn, otherwise they wouldn’t teach it to 5 year olds.

I am daily bombarded with questions about Avallac’h, that have nothing to do with Avallac’h, and are actually about completely different characters.... and the only reason, I’m being asked these questions, is because, Netflix viewers who become Witcher readers, have so little reading comprehension, that they can’t tell one character from another, and end up, accusing Avallac’h of doing things he did not do, things a different character did.

The worst ones of all, are the people who DID NOT read the novels, but instead, fell victim to the ones with no reading comprehension skills and came to believe Avallac’h did a thing, without even reading the novels for themselves at all!

Normally these questions would not bother me, because it’s fictional characters, so none of it matters.


...when people show up at my front door with a gun, threatening to kill me, because I like Avallac’h, and they falsely believe he raped Ciri, well, now I’m upset.

Because now, it’s no longer an issue of people just mixing up characters... now it’s an issue of people who less self control than reading comprehension, so mad, over something that, that they are willing to kill for it.

You want to kill me, because I like Avallac’h, and you think he raped Ciri... but, he didn’t rape Ciri, and you were willing to commit murder, because you were too stupid to take the time to learn reading comprehension.

You were willing to kill, because of an error you made, will reading... you skipped a sentence, missed a line, and incorrectly read it as Avallac’h, not Vilgefortz.

How stupid would you have felt in prison, after committing murder, and than re-reading the novels, and realizing, that you read the sentence wrong, and you killed someone, because you made a mistake while reading a fictional novel about fictional characters.

I don’t like people showing up at my house with guns.

I don’t like people threatening my family.

It’s bad enough, racist people wanting to kill us for not being white... but now there are people who would kill over a fictional character?


They are fictional. Not real. The people you want to kill, they are real. Don’t you people know that?

Is is a bigger issue than reading comprehension?

Are you mentally retarded? 

I think you might be.


Please explain to me the logic of why you think it is okay to murder real people, because you got mad at a fictional character?

It tells me, you are mentally incapable of knowing the difference between reality and fantasy. 

It tells me that you have a serious brain defecate, a mental retardation, know as schizophrenia, which causes you to not know which people you see around you are real and which are hallucinations. It tells me that you are not safe to be around other people. It tells me you are a dangerous sociopath. It tells me that you don’t know fictional characters are not real. It tells me that you don’t know killing people is wrong. It tells me you belong in a padded cell, straight jacketed and medicated.

If that doesn’t classify as mentally retarded logic I don’t know what does.

No, I don't say you are retarded to be mean... I say it because I truly believe I should call the police and have them send the men in little white coats to drag you away, because I believe you are truly too dangerous and not mentally fit to walk free outside of a padded cell.

Your logic brands you as dangerous. You believe it is okay to kill a real person, because of which fictional characters they enjoy. You my friend are very dangerous sociopath, not fit to walk free, suffering severe mental retardation. You belong behind bars in a straight jacket, BEFORE you hurt someone.

Get yourself a Journal of Psychiatry and look up the medical definition of being mentally retarded. It might astound you to learn what it ACTUALLLY MEANS and how similar you are to the textbook meaning of retarded.

It would be bad enough if it was just 1 or 2 people... but... 19,000 people in one week (March 2021) and a year ago, 300,000 people in one day (February 2020)... flooded my email with viscous amounts of hate, a lot of death threats, a lot of rape threats... and 2 years before that (February 2019) 5 men arrived at my front door with guns... and all of these people.... ALL of them, were hating me for liking Avallac’h, while making the false claim that Avallac’h raped Ciri.

I can’t help but notice the date... 3 Februaries in a row.

What is it about February?

Why do you people attack like clockwork, every February, for 3 years in a row?

I don’t understand that.

I do understand this:

* None of these people have ever been to my Twitch channel, a fact that we can prove, by my total channel views: 86,805 as of today, March 8, 2021 and total followers: 403 as of today... in 8 years. That means my channel gets about 10,000 views per year.


*  19,000 people in one week (March 2021) and a year ago, 300,000 people in one day (February 2020)... flooded my email with viscous amounts of hate, a lot of death threats, a lot of rare threats...

Which means...

* someone actively, told these people, not only lies about Avallac’h, but specifically lies about me, while also instructing them to contact me and harass me.

#Think about that.

These people don’t know me. They just know what someone told them about me.

Which makes me think too, that they don’t know Avallac’h either, and only know what someone told them about him.

... which is pretty obvious, considering the huge glaring errors they made about him.. and the fact that so many people made the exact same error.


#Think about that.

When 7,000 people are saying the exact same error, in exactly the same way... that means, 1 person made the error, and 6,999 people simply quote that error.

It’s how teachers can tell if you cheated on your math test.

It’s WHY teachers, tell you to do the work on paper.

When 5 students, hand back a test, and all 5 have the exact same error, the teacher knows, 4 students, copied the work of one.

It's WHY I checked the accounts of these usernames to see if they were bots.

Seeing how Avallac’h is such a rare, incredibly minor, obscure character... it’s odd to think that anyone would take notice of him at all.

He’s barely in the novels at all. One of the most minor characters.

No ones pays any attention to him. Why would they? He's such a minor character.

He’s in and out of the novels so fast that most readers hardly notice he was there at all.

These people treat him, like he’s the primary villain. He’s not. Not even close. Everyone who has read the novels knows that.

These people have information only found in the novels, but they’ve have it wrong.

So many people, so upset, over a character that is so minor he gets overlooked by most Witcher fans.

When I first started liking Avallac’h most people asked: 

* “Why Avallac’h, he’s such a minor character? Is he even on 5 full pages? Why don’t you like one of the main characters or somebody with a big role?”

That’s the way it always was. 2016. 2017. Most of 2018.

Something happened August 2018, because that’s when it started.

August 2018 is when the accusation: “But Avallac’h raped Ciri! How can you like a rapist?” first showed up.

He didn’t rape Ciri.

Why would say he did?

They answered back: “Well, I was told...” 

You was told wrong. 

Avallac’h did NOT rape Ciri.

Like I said, it didn’t bother me at first. It’s just fictional characters and someone made a mistake.

By September 2018, it became clear that someone, REALLY had a HUGE vendetta against me or Avallac’h or both, and was using a lot of social media to gather up hate mongers to attack me, here on Twitch, on Twitter, on Reddit, on FaceBook, on Tumblr.

I don’t know if this person actually BELIEVES Avallac’h raped Ciri and is out for blood, too bull headed to correct their error, or do they for some reason hate me, and just made up the lie that Avallac’h raped Ciri, to use as a tool to work up Ciri fans who hadn’t read the novels, into a frenzy so they could sic them on me.

I don’t know their motive.

It’s clear, that 300,000 people HAVE NOT visited my Twitch channel and outside of Twitch, I don’t mention Avallac’h, so if you don’t watch me on Twitch, you wouldn’t know I liked Avallac’h.

Scrooge McDuck. That’s the character every body knows me for. HE’S the one the one I talk about everywhere. I have since I joined the internet in 1996. 

Outside of Twitch everyone knows me as the crazy fangirl of Scrooge McDuck.

It’s only on Twitch that you see the Avallac’h fangirling happen.

So, no one outside of Twitch even knows I like Avallac’h.

That means EVERY question I receive about Avallac’h comes ONLY from Twitch viewers. There’s no other source they can come from.

300,000 emails, in a single day, is way more than 80,000 views in 8 years of streaming on Twitch.

Can you see what I’m getting at here?

Also, the wording of many of the emails is “odd”. By “odd” I mean, the wording feels “off”. Like when a child talks about things they know nothing about. 

For example, when you go to an LDS/Mormon church, 1st Sunday of the month, Fast & Testimony Meeting, and the Bishop “opens the pulpit up to the public” and now anyone, can go to the front and talk about whatever aka “bare their testimony”. You’re supposed to say why you “know the church is true/god is real/Jesus is saviour/whatever”, but 90% of the people get up to gossip about how they called the police on their 93 year old neighbour who hasn’t mowed their lawn in 2 weeks *(bishop’s wife gave that “testimony”)* and 10 or 12 women in succession get up and talk about their latest doctor visits, and than come the “children”. If you’ve ever been to a Mormon church, you’ve seen it, and you know, before I even tell you, what it is that happens, in every Mormon church across America, the Bishop says to bring your children until God... 

...and... uhm... it’s a sight to behold...

...arrogant parents, who feel the need to “out parent” each other, pick up their babies, their toddlers, no NOT their children... but 6 month old, 1 years old, literal babies, who don’t yet know yet know how to form sentences on their own...

...Mommy or daddy carries the baby to the pulpit, to the microphone... 

Daddy: “Now, repeat after me: I know the church is true...”

6 month old baby: “Aaaaahhh,,, chuck twuuuuuuuuu.”

Daddy: “And Joseph Smith is the one true prophet.”

6 month old baby: “Proooooooofffffffick?”

Daddy: “Amen.”

6 month old baby: “Mweeeeeeen!”

Every county in every state, has no fewer than 4 Mormon churches. And every 1st Sunday of every month, every Fast & Testimony Meeting, no fewer than 30 babies, not yet old enough to talk or even think, “bare their testimony”, that exact one, word for word. Gurgling and babbling, making attempts to repeat Mommy or daddy, because they were told to and they because they don’t yet have enough brain power to think on their own or have a free will, they just say what they are told... but because they don’t KNOW what they are saying, they say it wrong.

These 19,000 emails, and many of the previous 300,000 emails, they are like that.

I think every one of them, is written by a small child, too young, and therefore too stupid, to have enough brain power to think on their own or have a free will. They know their parents don’t give a shit about them, the internet is the babysitter, that’s WHY they are on the internet so young. Their parents don’t give 2 shits about them. They know because hours of Mommy look!” have been ignored. They know nothing they do will ever please Mommy so, they try to please their favourite streamer instead. When that streamers say: “Do this!” They do it without question.

The bulk of these emails:

* I don’t think they know who Avallac’h is.

* I don’t think they know Ciri from anything other than Netflix, if they even know her at all.

* I don’t think they know what the word rape means.

* I think they may even be too young to even know what the word sex means.

Think about it. There is out there an adult, who is instructing very small children, to make death threats and rape threats.

Let’s put it another way:

How many of you reading this right now are parents and you let your child, watch Twitch unattended?

Is YOUR child one of the ones sending me rape threats?

Do you know what YOUR children are doing and watching on Twitch?

Is YOUR 10 year boy one of the 300,000 children emailing rape threats to strangers? 

Do you REALLY know what your child does online?

The numbers, alongside the level of extreme hate, death threats, rape threats, violence threats... are very disturbing.

What this means is, one person, with a very large following, is working THEIR viewers – people who don’t me from Adam – people many of whom don’t seem to know Avallac’h or Ciri either - into hate filled frenzies... and then sending them to email me.

And THAT email... it's not easy to find. It's NEVER been posted online. Which means one of my relatives gave it to these masses.

You should do your research a little better.

Whoever is telling you these things about Avallac’h – they are lying to you. 

...please try to be a little more original, a little less brain dead mindless herd following sheeple, do your research a little better, know your sources a little better, before you rush to email me with your sex crazed lunacy accusations about Avallac’h... okay?

Maybe, you should just read the Witcher novels.

Not listen to audio books or a YouTube video of someone reading to you. You’re gonna miss half the story that way. You’ll be cooking, eating, driving, doing chores, homework. Focused on what you are doing and NOT the story. Unless you are following along in your own copy of the novels, how will you know if they said a word wrong?

Read the books for yourself. Get lost in the story. Fully immersed in the adventures of Ciri and Witcher Geralt. 

Until you read them for yourself, you’ll never fully understand Ciri or Avallac’h.

Once you read them, you’ll see for yourself, how silly these rumours about Avallac’h are.

You’ll see for yourself, just how minor and insignificant a character he really is.

You’ll see too, the vast difference between Avallac’h, and King Auberon, Leo, and Vilgefortz, all 3 of whom are much bigger villains, than Avallac’h will ever be. You’ll be left wondering, how it is possible that anyone thought Avallac’h was worth fussing over at all.

You’ll be surprised too, to find, the worse, most vile, most evil villain of them all, is Ciri herself. There is no kindness in her. No good. No innocence. Nothing sweet. Nothing loving. Nothing wholesome. A drunk. A drug addict. A prostitute. Her lust to watch others suffer, is insatiable. That’s a revelation most readers can’t deal with. And until you read the novels for yourself, you have no idea, how horrible a person she really is.

This is NOT about Avallac’h. This is about one person, mad at me for who knows what reason, and trying to cancel me, by gathering up strangers online and saying things to those strangers, trying to convince those strangers to hate me with them.

I get other emails you know... calling Scrooge McDuck a rapist, calling Lord Sesshomaru a rapist, calling Darkwing Duck a rapist, calling Prof. Snape a rapist... you start to see a trend, right? Do you see the trend? Every fiction character I like, I end up getting tens of thousands of emails, sent me to give me hell, for liking a character, accusing that character of rape... and yet, the character is never a rapist.

I don’t talk about the other emails here on Twitch because, I reserve Twitch for my fangirling, so I talk about only the Avallac’h rape emails and not the other character rape emails. Which of course leaves you without the full picture.

When you have the full picture and are made aware that a lot of characters are being called rapists, you start the see that this isn’t about Avallac’h.

Somewhere out there is someone who is completed fixated on my. I don’t know if it’s a fan gone psycho or a hater with no life. Are they a simp infatuated with me and angry that I have a boyfriend whom I’ve been with 37 and am not leaving, so they are acting out because of that? Are they a hater angry over some random thing they heard me say? Are they a psycho-crazed Witcher fan who just really hates Avallac’h and is trying to make others hate Avallac’h with them? If that was the case, than why the emails about Uncle Scrooge, Lord Sesshomaru, Snape, and DW? 

You people who believe this person and let that person work into a rape crazed frenzy... you are just blind sheep being lied to.

And when I say there’s a bigger issue here...

...I want you to take a very careful look at EXACTLY what these people are saying, and than I want you to take a look at the news reports, about a certain FBI raid...

These people are not JUST taking characters I like and accusing them of rape.


These people are taking characters I like and accusing them of child abuse, sexual torture, rape, extreme torture device torture, and locking them in cages.

Why is this significant?

July 19, 2016, the FBI dug up the sawed up bones of 31 children, in GooseFare Brooke Ravine, in the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, in the Ross Forest, of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, my cousins, most of them dumped there in the 1970s, children who unlike me didn't have the fortitude to fight back, didn't have the will to survive.... were not motivated to spite their abusers and live.

If you don’t know, that’s my farm.

That’s where I live.

That’s why in 2016, all excavation equipment dug up, every last inch my land.

Did you miss what I said?

Let me repeat it.

#July 19, 2016, the FBI dug up the sawed up bones of 31 children, in GooseFare Brooke Ravine, in the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, in the Ross Forest, of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, my cousins, most of them dumped there in the 1970s.

I’m very famous.

I’m probably the most famous person you’re ever going to meet.

I’m Maine’s infamous “feral child”, the survivor of what the paparazzi called: 

#The Worst Child Abuse Case In American History.... the child who lived, and survived Old Orchard Beach, Maine’s House of Horrors

The House of Horrors, that’s what the news reporters called that house, the house with that room... scroll down far enough, there’s pictures of the room on my profile.

My mother comes from a horrible family. He father was Honeyfizt’s infamous driver during the rum-running days of the 1920s, bringing Moonshine from Canada to Massachusetts. Old Orchard Beach was the drop off point. Yes. The REAL and ACTUAL Mafia. Not the tuttie-fruite stuff you see on TV and movies. My grandfather David Henry Atwater, himself, went blind from bad Moonshine, and lost his job driving for the Kennedys. So he started his own “Mafia” the Scottish Mafia, with his than pre-teen sons “running the family business”. Yes, THE David Henry Atwater, co-founder of Heaven’s Gate, best buddies of George Applewhite, leader of Heaven’s Gate – the UFO murder suicide cult who killed 39 people under the shadow of comet Hale-Bop. Heaven’s Gate wouldn’t come until the 1970s.

Before Heaven’s Gate they were scam artists, and they tried to pull a big scam on the Ricker Dynasty. “Old Lady Ricker” as they referred to her, was a wealthy woman, with only one living child... my father. Grandpa and his 8 sons, they convinced him to marry one of Grandpa’s 4 daughters, my mother. The plan was terrible. They planned to kill the old lady, after convincing her to write a will giving everything to my mother, not yet a teenager, Grandpa than planned to kill my father, have my mother disappear, and take everything for himself.

There was one problem... I was born. My mother had no interest in raising a child. She was only a child herself. My father’s mother raised me the first 8 years. Grammy Helen, sent me to public school. I had a birth certificate. Social security number. The than require vaccinations, meaning I had medical records. I had a paper trail, a rare thing in Gypsy culture. So they couldn’t just kill me, like they had done other children.

There was one problem... I was born. My mother had no interest in raising a child. She was only a child herself. My father’s mother raised me the first 8 years. Grammy Helen, sent me to public school. I had a birth certificate. Social security number. The than require vaccinations, meaning I had medical records. I had a paper trail, a rare thing in Gypsy culture. So they couldn’t just kill me, like they had done other children.

Remember, July 19, 2016, the FBI dug up the sawed up bones of 31 children, in GooseFare Brooke Ravine, in the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, in the Ross Forest, of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, my cousins, most of them dumped there in the 1970s? Those children didn’t have a paper trail. I did. So I couldn’t just die and be tossed in GooseFare Brooke Ravine, like the others. The Americans would notice I had gone missing.

They did kill her. Grandpa and his sons, my uncles. My father’s mother. She changed her will weeks before she died, and they didn’t know.

They took me out of school, to go to the funeral. I never saw school or the outside world again.

My grandmother died when I was 8 years old, she left me everything, disinherited everyone else... so my 12 enraged uncles, locked me in a cage... a rusted raccoon trap... shoved it in a woodshed... tossed a single salted herring to me to food, once every 12 days... and there I remained until I was 31 years old and an FBI raid rescued me. 

My uncles used me as an income... they charged Mormon high priests $12,000 to rape me. 

I had been raped more then 500 times by the time I was 12 years old.

I became “mute” at age 14, after a cinder block was used to shatter my jaw.... I was 42 years old when I was able to speak again for the first time in decades, thanks to surgery to restore my jaw, and implant 7 false teeth.

I was 37 years old when I learned how to eat with silverware and walk on my feet not crawl on all 4s, and talk with human words, not cat growls and hisses.

When they rescued me, the social workers, called me a feral child. I’m in 100s of college Psychology test books, thousands of psychiatrists have studied me. They still do to this day. They say they are astounded that I’ve assimilated into society as well as I have.

My childhood was spent in a cage from 8 years old being vivisected by your older cousin on orders from your uncles, and Draino poured into the wounds. Beat me with bricks, stabbed me with forks. 

8 years old and gang raped by Mormon high priests armed with knives and hammers, slicing your flesh and breaking your bones, for sexual pleasure.

Caged for 27 years, from the time I was 8 years old until I was 31.

I didn't have the luxury of school or friends like you did.

I lived my entire childhood, teen years, and young adult years in a cage.

Do you see NOW the inspiration, of WHY, these bastards word their emails as they do?

WHY they say Avallac’h raped Ciri?

WHY they say he put her in a cage and tortured her?

Avallac’h didn’t do those things to Ciri... those are the things my uncles did to me.

These people are so cruel, that they think it’s funny, to take real world torture of real world children, and make fun of it, by taking descriptions of the torture as it was it was described in the news reports about the FBI raid, and make it be about that child’s favourite fictional character.

Do you understand NOW, why I find what these people are doing so deeply unsettling?

They took the time to hunt news reports about my childhood, and copy those news reports word for word, changing my name to “Ciri” and changing the names of my Uncles Mervin Bruce, Richard Merlin, and David Jr to Avallac’h.

That’s what they did.

That’s how evil the people the behind these emails are.

I’ve kept these events separate from my streaming for 15 years. No stream ever mentioned it. Nothing on my profile mentioned it either. These emails, these attacks on my chat, they’ve reached a point where I’m no longer going to ignore the trolls and instead talk about the abuse they think is so funny to make light of.

These people are bullies. No different than my uncles.

You who make fun of torture, child abuse, and rape, you all ought to be ashamed of yourselves.

You people who send me these emails, you are pure evil and I pray you swiftly meet your master in Hell.

Remember that I am EelKat, Etiole's Friend, Queen of the Gypsies, the real life Voodoo Priestess (Gypsy witch) Stephen King, based Thinner off of... I am the single most feared "witch" on the planet, and I put a curse on you, all the pain and suffering I have felt, I send it to you, 7 x 7, that you may never make fun of anyone's pain ever again. Tick tock, tick tock, start now Etiole's 7 year clock. As yeah have done to me, so shall be done to you. Run, run, little one, but you can never out run or hide from Etiole. So let it be written, so let it be done.

FAQs: I just tried to raid your channel and Twitch canceled the raid. Gave me a message saying it wasn't allowed. Why can't I raid your channel?

#FAQs: I just tried to raid your channel and Twitch canceled the raid. Gave me a message saying it wasn't allowed. Why can't I raid your channel?


I turned off raids back in 2018, when a big partnered streamer, with several thousand regular viewers, started sending their followers to my channel to post the message in my chat "deserve to be raped"  with many of them posting a lot of sexual stuff, and most of them saying stuff about how women who wore hijab (I wear hijab, btw) were "really whores and prostitutes hiding their true nature" and were "hiding their bodies to entice men even more, so deserved to be raped because they were asking for it". Along with a lot of them chanting "bitties for titties" and saying "flash your boobs". Plus making lots of racist slurs and other hate comments. It was really vulgar the stuff they were saying.

Well, my channel rarely has more than 10 viewers at a time, and suddenly these people showed up 700 to 2,000 of them all at once. 

They completely flooded my chat. 

Every day. 

For weeks. 

It was a total nightmare. 

They would show up every single stream and it was very difficult to get it under control because my channel was so tiny and they were so many and I was just one person. 

It was nearly impossible for me to stream at all, because I had to stop what I was doing to ban so many of them one after another. And they would create alternate accounts as fast as I banned them. It was the first time I had to deal with trolls and I was completely unprepared for it.

In my mind, I had thought trolls would just be 1 person here or there, so no big deal to deal with on my own without mods. I had never heard of "witch hunting channels" before, so I had no idea there was such a thing as huge channels who would pick a tiny channel then tell their viewers to take up a call to action to attack the small channel.

At the time, I had no mods and no chat bots, just used Twitch's autobot and myself for modding chat. I had never needed mods or a chat bot before. My channel is tiny and I make no attempt to grow it. I'm content with a small channel. My topic is very niche, so not many are going to be interested in my streams. It's just me sharing my rather niche hobby with others in the hobby, so I never expected my channel to be big enough to need mods or a chat bot. At the time I had the mind set that trolls only attacked big channels. You know to start drama in order to get their 15 minutes of fame, so I had not even considered that trolls ever went after tiny channels. I was very naïve about the nature of trolls back than.

So it was very difficult to get on top of it. I immediately modded several of my regulars so they could help me with banning the trolls. And I added 7 chat bots (NightBot, StreamElements, MooBot, WizeBot, ect) to my chat and added all the vulgar, lewd, toxic, racist, and hate slur words the trolls were using in my chat to the bots' blacklist of banned words.

It was silly of me to think that just because my channel was very tiny, that trolls would never be a bigger problem than I could control on my own. This same group continues to to this day to sexually and racially harass me on Twitter, FaceBook, even here on Reddit *(go through my profile and look at the replies to the majority of my comments, on Reddit and you'll see them - pro-Nazi, Jew-hating, white-power, deserve to be raped comments)* 

They've all been blocked on Twitch, but around 800 of these haters follow me to every single social network they can find me on and some sites don't have easy ability to block and ban trolls. They started doing it in 2018, and it's now 2021 and a comment I made on Reddit less than 24 hours ago, they attacked simply it simply because I was the one who commented and for no other reason. 

They found me via a Twitch raid by a very hateful (and now perma-banned) Twitch streamer, who made a habit of actively seeking out female streamers who had shared a story of surviving rape and raiding them with the message "deserved to be raped".

November 14, 2013 - 3 rapists attacked me in a parking lot, a blond woman in her 60s, he bald son in his 30s, and her redhaired sister... the police have not been able to identify them, but their is no one in this town who does NOT know who they are... the woman's husband, is the man who drove the backhoe over my house August 8, 2013...

November 14, 2013 - 3 rapists attacked me in a parking lot...

*I was 8 months pregnant, they killed my baby, 

* broke my hip, legs, and spine, 

**with metal golf clubs**, 

* crushing my spinal column and destroying the nerve bundle - 

* they left me for dead - doctors say it's a miracle I'm even alive - 

* it is why I am bedridden, 

* can't even bath or use the toilet on my own - 

* most of the left side of my body is dead, like one who had a stroke - 

* tremors in my hands are so bad I need help do basic things like eating and getting dressed - and is why I can no longer play console games and can only play mouse driven point & click games - thus WHY I switched to a Witcher 3 exclusive channel - yes I play Witcher 3 almost entirely one handed and with **JUST A MOUSE**

* I have to wear adult diapers because my bladder and intestines have no feeling anymore so I don't know when I have to go - 

* I can barely breath my lungs are messed up now as well - 

**never underestimate the damage that 3 metal golf clubs can do to your body and its ability to function**

* I'm bedridden, these past 8 years and is why I took up streaming as there is little else one can do when stuck in bed 24 hours a day for the rest of your life - 

* and my profile has this information on it as how I got started streaming; this is why they chos