IMPORTANT UPDATE:

Due to the murder of my family and the resulting court cases, police investigations, and FBI investigations, I no longer have time to daily update this website.

Likewise ALL novel, short story, and article writing projects are on hiatus.

All book releases, book signings, workshops, and convention appearances for 2015 (and unknown amount of time after) are on hold while the murder investigation of my family is ongoing.

Writing advice for the worldbuilding, character creation, and other writing how to articles are on hold.

From now on, the bulk of updates here will be about the investigation into the murder of my family.

No, NOT just THIS author website, not JUST the EelKat pename, not just self published books: ALL 15 (fifteen) of my penames are on hiatus, that includes traditional published books as well, newspaper reporting jobs, editing jobs, my work for Harlequin Romance Novels, my work for Disney... EVERYTHING is on hiatus. Every publishing house I work for, every series I write, every penname I write under: they are ALL on hiatus, ALL projects.

There is NOTHING being published under ANY penname, not for ANY series, not for ANY publisher, from 2015 onward. EVERYTHING is on hold due to the murder of my family. I do not know when or even if, any of the projects will be restarted or finished.

Yes, BOTH the magazines I owned are indefinitely shut down because of this as well, with no plans for either magazine to return. The publishing house I own is also closed to submissions from now on, we will no longer be publishing anything. It is unlikely we will reopen the publishing house either.

All book signing tours, workshops, letures, PAX events, ComicCon events, carnival/festival/state fair/car show events are also canceled. I will not be attending ANY of them. If a venue still has my name listed as a guest/speaker/etc it is because they've not yet removed it. I WILL NOT be there, no matter where it is! 

EVERYTHING, EVERYWHERE, IS CANCELED!

The ONLY thing continuing from this point on, is THIS website, where I'll post updates on the murder investigation, hopefully every week, but, you know how it is when 10 members of your family are beheaded, it's kind of difficult to have a schedule for anything anymore.







Avallac'h at Lornruk Castle | Pictures from Witcher 3 

All images on this page are from:
The Witcher 3: 
Wild Hunt 
|Game of the Year Edition| 
Completionist Run: 
The Avallac'h Playthrough
(Watch It Live HERE)


Avallac'h at Lornruk Castle | Pictures from Witcher 3 - I just felt like uploading pictures of Avallac'h today. This page serves no other purpose. 


Covid 19 & Lornruk Castle & The Rise of Blond Avallac'h
...
Or Answering The Question of Why I Suddenly Stopped Streaming March 2020

*Is everything okay? I saw your last stream. You didn't even end it. It just got cut off. Are you okay? There were so many guns. You haven't streams in weeks. That last stream was terrifying. It scared me how it ended. What happened? I've been so worried. You vanished off all your social networks. No one has heard anything from your family in weeks. Who were those men with guns?*

..............

Yes, my family is alright. But I could not talk about what happened. The police wanted it kept out of the news, so everyone was asked to say nothing, while the investigation was going on. I still can't say much about it. FBI and police are keeping most of the attacks out of the news and very hush-hush. I'm not sure why.

I don't know many details. I only know the things I saw and the things which effected my family.

What you heard and saw, that was The Ku Klux Klan. They are a problem here in Maine. A big problem. They made major attacks all over the state in March. Covid 19 sent them into some kind of a wild frenzy. They used the stay at home orders as an excuse to try to take over several towns in Maine.


  • * Maine is one of the largest states in America, land size, but it still has not yet reached 2 million residents... for comparison New York City, has over 7 million residents, just one city has 3.5 times the residents our entire state has
  • * Our state is listed by the census as 99.9% white
  • * Our state has 200,000 active Ku Klux Klan members, 100,000 Sovereign Citizen members, and 100,000 Neo Nazi's... meaning 40% of our residents are HIGH LY ACTIVE white supremacists.

On February 27, 2020, when Maine's Covid 19 stay at home orders went out and remained in place until August 21, 2020 - making Maine the 1st state to put out such an order, the last state to lift the order, and the state with the longest stay at home order... throughout the stay at home order, from February 27, 2020 to August 21, 2020 Maine had only 354 cases of Covid-19... after lifting the order, Maine had 5,000 new cases reported in less then 14 days. It's October 16, 2020 now.

Here in Maine the Militia had gone house to house carry assault rifles and checking if anyone had the flue, and if anyone did have the flue, they boarded up all the doors and windows of the house from the outside, locking people in their homes. Local police were gunned down when they tried free/rescue the families the Militia had locked into their houses, and state police were soon called in, and when the state police found themselves under attack, a State of Emergency was declared and Pres. Trump sent the Marines into Maine to disband the Malita and free the imprisoned families.

Maine devolved into total chaos for 7 months and most families lived in mortal terror, not of the Covid 19 pandemic, but rather of the Ku Klux Klan, the Sovereign Citizens, the Neo-Nazi's, and Heaven's Gate, the groups who run Maine's Militia, as the white power lunatics rose up in arms against the police and military and constant, shoot outs and gun fire was a daily issue that made going outside near impossible do to the high risk of being gunned down by a white supremacists if you dared open your door to even look outside.

In March 2020, the Maine Militia took to going from house to house, breaking into people's homes, to raid medicine cabinets. They targeted nursing homes and elderly assisted living apartments, stealing prescription drugs from the elderly, while citing that the elderly would die soon anyways and they had to stock pile medicine to save the young from Covid 19.

Elderly men and women in their 70s, 80s, and 90s, were beaten and shot if they tried to fight off the white power attackers.

In one nursing home alone, they took 82 residents, locked them in a bedroom then boarded up the doors and windows of the building. 39 of the residents died of starvation before they were found a month later, by worried family members who could not get through to the building by phone. 

I live in an apartment building for disabled elderly. The first week of March 2020, two of my elderly neighbours in my apartment building... the one next door down the hall from me, and the one across the hall from me, were both murdered, gunned down, shot to death, during these attacks.

There have been so many attacks, rioting, shooting, and violence going on, that I'm finding it difficult to livestream at all. My health was already an issue, but, the first week of March, every day, every stream, got cut short by crazy people with guns having a shoot out in our driveway.

That's WHY I started uploading pre-recorded videos and have not had a livestream since March 2020. There were just too many shoot outs between the Militia and police goin on, and the police were showing up here and saying... "You can't be streaming! We don't want this in the news. We don't want this footage online!"

There was just no way for me to livestream around the fighting going on outside, and NOT have the fighting getting caught on camera.

And you've probably noticed the pre-recorded videos I've uploaded, since than, had a lot of edits, a lot of sections cut out. I had to cut out the shoot outs, going on 20 feet away and getting picked up on camera, thus why, after the last livestream, I took to pre-recording, and no more livestreams.

But... the psycho-streamer and her hoard of Ciri-fan simps, were also still in full attack mode online. February and March 2020 is when the streamer-bitch gathered up a hoard of 300,000 of her followers on Discord and unleashed their most massive attacks yet on all of my social networks... not just Twitch anymore. With my Twitch chat set to emote only, and all her followers blocked and banned from my channel, she went into a total psycho meltdown from not being able to atack on Twitch chat anymore, so lashed out fiercely at FaceBook, Twitter, Reddit, Tumblr, and every place else she could find... it was no longer her and her 800 Twitch followers attacking my Twitch Channel, now it was her and her 300,000 Discord followers attacking EVERYWHERE.

Well, my health being what it is, makes it difficult enough to stream to begin with. And this psycho-deranged-streamer-bitch was making streaming even more difficult for me, and than on top of all that, now suddenly I had a war going on in front of my driveway between the Militia, the Ku Klux Klan, the Police, and the US Military, and they were here knocking on the door saying, no one in the neighbourhood was allowed to talk about what was going on, and me trying to livestream, here I am picking up the fighting and shooting of the war zone in the background of my streams.

And so, as time went by, I not only stopped streaming, but also stopped uploading videos.

There was just too much going on with the police fighting with the Militia, for me to find a way to stream and NOT pick up their fighting outside on my camera.

But then, what few pre-recorded videos I did upload, they would get 10 views at the most, and within an hour of uploading, I'd get an onslaught of 90,000 to 300,000 hate messages in my email!

Not a one of those hate mongers had ACTUALLY WATCHED ANY of the videos they were hating on me for... as could be seen by the VODs only having 10 views at most, and yet, they were lashing out in wild crazed hate mob frenzy because of what they THOUGHT was supposedly on those videos because they listened to the lies of the leader of their Discord community ... because the psycho-bitch would watch my VODs and then go post on her Discord telling her followers to attack.

I couldn't livestream because of what's going on here in Maine with all the rioting, but I was trying to keep in touch with my tiny Twitch community by at least uploading videos every week. 

But it became rather pointless to try to even try to do that much, because my followers on Twitch were telling me that the psycho-streamer was attacking them too because they followed me, and they were saying they were too scared to even watch my videos because they were getting attacked by her followers every time they tried to watch my streams. She was going into the viewer list in chat to see who was watching my streams and passing their usernames on to her Discord group.

What this woman is doing is a total nightmare, not only for me, but also for my 350 followers as well.

So, daily livestreams stopped.

Then pre-recorded video uploads stopped being weekly and instead became a one video a month update.

But, I did not stop playing the game every day...  you just stopped seeing the recording of it.

I still recorded every day, still talking to the camera, like usual, as if it was livestreamers, so I have footage of all of it, but, with it not being either streamed or uploaded, you missed out on seeing, quite a lot.

In particular, you missed out on seeing Avallac'h, Ciri, and Ge'els living at Lornruk Castle for 2 months and you missed seeing Avallac'h become blond.

For some reason, seeing how my family were trapped in our apartment building, with no way out, and fighting and chaos and police and KKK going on outside... I came to the conclusion, Avallac'h, Ciri, and Ge'els were going to remain trapped in wherever they were in the game.

Unfortunately, because the fighting going on outside can be clearly heard through my window and in many cases is louder than either my voice or the game's audio, I can not upload the video footage of Avallac'h, Ciri, and Ge'els living at Lornruk Castle. I can however upload screenshots from that video footage. And so, here they are.

This is the time period when the most extreme changes were made to Avallac'h himself, as the Blond Avallac'h mod was released March 3, 2020, while we were here at Lornruk Castle.

This is also when I made the Covid-19 Mask mod that put masks on all of the Elves... we left the Humans to die. 

This is also when our rabbit hoard became our rat hoard.

And this is when the 5 Wild Hunt girls stopped traveling with us and our 5 plague doctors traveled with us instead.

Yes, I know, that doesn't totally answer your question, but, like I said, no one is being allowed to talk about what is going on, because for some reason every time the Ku Klux Klan is involved in ANYTHING, the police go around telling everyone, "you can't talk about this" and the police never tell the news stations about it, so it never gets in the news either, I don't know why, and I'm not entirely sure what is going on, other than, local radical extremists believe Covod-19 is the Pestilence released by the 4 Horsemen of the Apocalypse, and this is armageddon in their minds, soo they are... "being the army of god" and more or less trying to take over the police departments. And, shit went down, here, because elderly locals with pills were the ones they decided to attack.

Basically, religion crazed lunatics, being religion crazed lunatics. 

Well, this IS Maine after all... home to America's most extreme extremists.

Me? I'm just trying ignore them.

Life is hard enough without crazy people making it worse.

So, I continue to do what I do best: Ignore the the fact that the world has gone to hell in a handbasket and live my life in a video game with Avallac'h while pretending the real world no longer exists. 

Avallac'h and Ciri and crew, arriving at Lornruk Castle's front gate... February 26, 2020, the day before Maine's stay at home orders for Covid-19 went out. Avallac'h is still grey haired, Ciri still has dreadlocks, and Avallac'h has not yet started wearing pink underwear. Those things would all change in March and April 2020, while Ciri and Avallac'h spent 2 months of streams quarantined here at this castle.

1:01 AM in game, during a dark, stormy night, Avallac'h and Ciri and crew, arriving at Lornruk Castle's front gate... the stream was ending after 9 hours of  hunting for Harpy Eggs at the nearby Harpy Feeding Grounds, just outside of Heatherton, and Lornruk Castle was the nearest safe zone building to spend the night at, so we trekked here to send Ciri and Avallac'h to the warm dry bedroom of the abandoned castle, to stop the stream.

This was February 26, 2020.

February 26, 2020, the day before Maine's stay at home orders for Covid-19 went out. 

That night a lone news report announced that a Marine, coming home from Italy, escaped quarantine, snuck into the baggage compartment of a plane, and brought Covid-19 to America and was the first confirmed case both in America and in the state of Maine.

By the start of the next stream, the next day, Maine had become the first state in America to close it's borders to travel, shut down all businesses, mandate fines for anyone caught leaving their home, police-firemen-mailmen-hospital staff-deliver workers-and walmart cashiers were issued government passes allowing them to go outside, and to require the wearing of masks by everyone.

With Maine in full lock down, and the rest of America laughing at Maine's paranoid stupidity for 2 full months before the rest of the country would follow Maine's example and shut down in May 2020, after 130,000 Americans had died and 2million hospitalized.

Because Maine shut down in February, instead of May like the rest of the country, it had only 3 cases of Covid-19, until a wedding in August, brought with it 300 infected guests from New York, who bypassed border roadblocks to sneak into the state through forest hiking trails.

The picture above, was from less then 3 hours before the lock down happened in the real world, inspiring me to role play the same lock down in the game.

For the next 2 months, all gameplay took place in this castle and on the beach around it.

Avallac'h is still grey haired, Ciri still has dreadlocks, and Avallac'h has not yet started wearing pink underwear. Those things would all change in March and April 2020, while Ciri and Avallac'h spent 2 months of streams quarantined here at this castle.

Avallac'h contemplating the use of ladders.

Let's talk about the Ciri & Avallac'h sex controversy that made me the #1 most hated streamer on Twitch... and the idiocy of people who, can't think for themselves...

The bedroom Avallac'h and Ciri stayed in during the quarantine.

The bedroom Avallac'h and Ciri stayed in during the quarantine... and hey, look!

I actually put them in separate beds for the quarantine. Though not far enough apart for to make Ciri fans happy. 

It is so, NOT lore-friendly for Ciri and Avallac'h to sleep in separate beds. Avallac'h's letting his women, all 6 of them, Ciri, Isilira, and the 4 not named sleep in his bed with him, was the reason given in the novels for why he was called "The Fox" and looked down upon by Humans and other Elves alike for his vile, immoral, animal-like behaviour of letting a low-life female sleep with him... 

The novels explain to us that Avallac'h is excessively evil, because, he allows his 5 wives to sleep in bed with him.

Uhm...??? I'm confused.

How does a married man sleeping in the same bed with his wife make him evil?

After I read this in the novels, I went back and paid attention to the game and I realized, Avallac'h has the ONLY bed in the game, that is NOT a single person bed, and in EVERY house in the game, men sleep in one room while women sleep in another room.

I went back and reread the novels looking for this detail and yep... every married couple sleeps in separate bedroom, not just separate beds. And the ONLY time a female is allowed to enter a man's room, is if he invited her in for sex... or more often then not, drags her in to rape her.

In any case, man + women + bed = sex in the Witcher novels and the game.

And yet, we are also told that Avallac'h is an asexual virgin, has never had sex with any of his women, and it is their LACK of sexual relations that keeps him and his women so closely and strongly emotionally bonded with each other in a strong friendship.

We see too, that Avallac'h and his 5 wives, share a bizarre sybiominic hive mind bond, with them knowing each others thoughts, and sharing each other's feelings... to the extent that a stab wound to any one of them, hurts and injures all 6 of them, Avallac'h included. This is never explained or looked into.

Even Ciri pointed out that Avallac'h's total lack of any sexuality at all, was the very reason she was able to trust him, placing him as the ONLY person she could truly trust because he had no sexual attraction for her or any other female at all, not even Lara. Which is why, while Ciri ran fighting from other men, she had no issues snuggling up in bed with Avallac'h.

The Witcher universe views men and women sleeping in the same bed together are one the greatest evils out there... I'm not sure why, but in researching Polish culture after reading the novels, it seems to be a wide spread thing in Poland's real culture to view men and women sleeping together - even married couples - as a bad thing and husbands and wives have separate rooms in a whopping 84% of Polish households. 

I can't even begin to imagine a society that sees men and women sleeping in separate bed, or even seperate rooms, as the norm, because I grew up in a culture where men DO sleep with their wives in the same bed. 

Of course, polygamist society does not see the bedroom as a place of sex either, it is a place where the family sleeps together... so, I'm assuming the society norm of men and women in separate beds stems from the overly sexualized minds of the none polygamist, and their inability to look at a bed and NOT see sex.  

In any case, I see nothing wrong with a man allowing his women to sleep in his bed at night, and I don't see Avallac'h letting his women sleep with him as a reason to say he's evil, which is what the author did. Quite the contrary, Geralt is the one I see as evil, because he's lying and cheating and bed hoping with 5 dozen different women throughout the novels, none of the women are aware of any of the other women, and he sleeps alone, because bed + women = sex in his mind. 

I grew up in a polygamist family, in a polygamist culture. Sex rarely happens. Everyone knows when it does. It's only done for making babies. The concept of sex for pleasure/fun/recreation is seen as a grave sin and severely punished. And sex never involves beds. Beds are where you sleep.

I bring all of this up, because, at the start of the Avallac'h Playthrough back in May 13, 2018... I was completely unaware that there was a concept of beds = sex in any part of society.

I'd never heard of such a thing.

I also was unaware that it is common for people to say "sleep" when they mean "sex".

So, me being totally oblivious to the fact that there existed people who thought going to bed meant "have sex" or sleeping meant "have sex"... left me also very taken back, baffled, and confused, when, I ended every single stream, by having Ciri and Avallac'h look for a house/castle/tent/etc to stay in for the night, and ended the streams with them standing by a bed, saying, they were going to sleep, because I was tired and was going to end the stream so I could go to sleep... and this resulted in at first dozens, later hundreds, and still later thousands, and now 300,000 enraged Ciri fans sending me hate messages in my chat, my email, on Twitter and FaceBook, and now since summer 2020 even on Reddit.

Why are they mad that I end every stream this way?

I could not understand.

#REMEMBER: Just because YOU WERE THINKING ABOUT SEX, while I was talking... DOES NOT MEAN THAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT SEX!

The ONLY people who thought Ciri and Avallac'h have sex at the end of every stream was **people WHO USE THEIR OWN IMAGINATION to think that**!

If **YOU** thought Ciri and Avallac'h have sex at the end of each of my streams... it's **BECAUSE YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT SEX!**

Had you ACTUALLY WATCHED my streams and ACTUALLY LISTENED to anything I said, you would have known how silly and stupid you were being if you thought sex was implied anywhere.

But I like I said, I had never heard of the concept of having sex in a bed, nor had I ever heard of the slang term of using the word "sleep" to mean "sex"... so I had no idea, these people were mad because they thought, I was saying Avallac'h and Ciri were about to have sex.

Uhm.

Virgins don't have sex.

Asexuals don't have sex.

A celibate lifestyle means... never has sex.

Avallac'h is an asexual, virgin, living a celibate lifestyle, and just because Ciri sleeps in his bed, doesn't mean they are having sex.

We were told this in the novels!

In fact, it's WHY they broke up... because **CIRI WANTED SEX WITH AVALLAC'H** and **HE REFUSED TO HAVE SEX WITH HER**... and that plot point, spans a full 32 pages of the story, while they fight about the fact that she wants to have sex with him and he's refusing to lose his virginity because who knows why... he spends 7 pages telling the reader how horrible and icky and terrible the thought of sex and female genitalia are.

And these Ciri fans, **MOST OF WHOM CLAIM TO HAVE READ THE NOVELS** were freaking out over me having Ciri and Avallac'h **DO EXACTLY WHAT THEY DID IN THE NOVELS** and find find a safe place to sleep at night, together, in the same bed... without sex.

I fail to understand the sex crazed minds of Ciri fans, and I agree with Avallac'h: **everyone who has sex because they think sex is fun, is no better and no smarter than a brainless cockroach**

And that 300,000 number is rather ridiculous, considering how many views there are on my channel.

Think about this:

* I have as of October 19, 2020, just 398 followers, and only 79,260 total lifetime views on my channel... 

* That's 398 followers in 8 years of streaming.

* That's 79,260 total lifetime channel views in 8 years of streaming.

* That means I get fewer then 50 new followers a year.

* That means I get fewer then 10,000 total views per year.

* AND I get 300,000 different usernames sending me hate mail to my email, saying how much they hate my channel, hate my streams...

And it's NOT 300,000 from one place. I used Google analytics tracking to track the footprints of these usernames to see where they came from... she had 800 Twitch users, send out messages on their Twitters, asking their friends to retweet, asking their friends to retweet, and asking their friends to retweet.

Her 800 Twitch followers, combined with her 2,000 Discord followers where all doing this, and each of them had 50 to 5,000 Twitter followers, each of them doing this... that is where the 300,000 individual people came from. Most of them don't even have Twitch accounts, don't watch Twitch, and are simply sending me hate because a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend told them to on Twitter!

Some of the people harassing me are friends of friends of friends 8 or more friends distant from the original streamer who sent out the request they do this attack!

Meaning the large majority of people harassing me don't even know, watch, or follow the streamer who made the original order to harass! They are just harassing me because a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend or a friend retweeted her message to attack me, and they decided to do so on a whim with no knowledge of who they were attacking, why they were attacking, who ordered the attack.... nothing!

#DO YOU SEE THE PROBLEM HERE?

These people who are complaining that I have Ciri and Avallac'h having sex at the end of every stream...

**DON'T EVEN WATCH MY STREAMS!!!**

So how would they even know, if I did or did not have Ciri and Avallac'h having sex at the end of each stream?

And here's the biggest kicker of all... well over 200 of these people **DID TAKE THE TIME TO WATCH MY STREAMS** and then they complained **BECAUSE THERE WAS NO SEX!**

They contacted me to give me hell, saying they had been lied to, saying that they had only come to my channel because the streamer they watch regular *(yes, they told me who she was)* had told them how **EVERY STREAM I DO ENDS WITH CIRI AND AVALLAC'H HAVING SEX** and they took the time to watch stream after stream after stream hoping to see a sex scene with Ciri and Avallac'h, and they were royally pissed, because after watching a week of streams, and then also reading my profile and finding out the truth, they were upset, that the streamer whom had sent them here was telling people my channel was nothing but sex.

They were mad, because they WANTED sex scenes of Ciri and Avallac'h and were pissed to learn, that sex **NEVER** happens on my channel at all!

Yeah.

#Those 300,000 bullies who are harassing me... **HAVE NEVER EVEN WATCHED A SINGLE ONE OF MY STREAMS!**

They simply harass me because **the streamer that THEY DO WATCH, watches my streams and than lies about me in her streams to her viewers, and they are too stupid to take the time to find out that she is lying to them about me and my channel!**

HERE: **Go buy a dictionary**. You desperately need one.

And for anyone who came here because a sex crazed psycho bitch sent them here looking for sex... sorry to disappoint you, but I have post traumatic stress disorder, a side effect of being raped. I have an extreme hatred for sex. I was already asexual BEFORE being raped, now I'm anti-sexual: I hate sex and don't allow it near me.

Not in ANY form.

Not in books.

Not in movies.

Not in TV shows.

Not in video games. 

Perhaps, before you jackasses started harassing me, maybe you would have done well, to do a little research on me and find out who I am. Just ask any nearby Stephen King fan and they'll tell you who I am. They'll even start listing off Stephen King movies for you.

Sex and nudity have been completely removed from the game. Sorry, but the bitch who sent you here lied to you. You will NOT find any sex here.

I keep my Twitch channel small, deliberately, because I like my privacy, and there are precious few places online where I can escape the onslaught f Stephen King's fans. Thankfully, most people on Twitch are too young to be Stephen King fans and likewise too young to know I am or recognize me, making Twitch my safe zone. And I don't like it being invaded by the lewd gossip and rumors of an immoral, sex crazed degenerate and her followers. So if you came here from her channel: please return to her channel, tell her and the rest of her viewers to leave me alone. I'm not bothering you. There is no reason for you to be bothering me.

The end result, is I no longer interact with chat.

There is no kindness in chat. Only hatred and meanness. 

Chat has been, since August 2018, nothing but steady hate for Avallac'h, and even more hate for Avallac'h and Ciri as a couple, with even more hate demanding I stop the play the game as Avallac'h and stop pairing him with Ciri.

I'm sorry, that your entitled ass thinks it's God and can order me around.

You play the game you want to play it and let me play it the way I want to play it.

If you don't like how I play the game: just leave, and watch someone you do like.

You hoped to stop the Avallac'h Playthrough, but all you've done is gotten yourself blocked from my chat.

And think about this... even when I'm not streaming, I'm still playing this game. I play it offline as much as I play it online. So, Avallac'h and Ciri are STILL going to be in bed together even if I'm not streaming. Sorry, but, that's just the way it is.

There is a thing called **FREEDOM OF CHOICE**... your right to say you don't like Avallac'h with Ciri, doesn't cancel out my right to play my game, my way.

Let me repeat that:

Your right to say you don't like Avallac'h with Ciri, doesn't cancel out my right to play my game, my way.

And if you are too immature to understand that, than you are far too young to be on Twitch or anyplace else on the internet. So go run back to mommy, get your diaper changed, and don't come back here until you grow up and learn to behave like a rational adult.

Anyways...

Today, October 19, 2020, one of my channel mods, explained to me, what the problem was... He said:

*"Every time you say "sleep" people think you mean "sex". They don't understand that when you say Ciri and Avallac'h are going to sleep here tonight, that you ACTUALLY MEAN sleep. When most people say "sleep" they mean "sex" not actual sleep. These people who are harassing you, think you are talking about sex.  They don't understand Autism. They don't understand your inability to misuse words. People are scared to talk about sex, so they use other words instead when they mean sex. Bed, sleep, spend the night together... those things all mean "have sex" to most people. I think I'm only just realizing you didn't know that."* 

Ah.

Well, I suppose, knowing that, their anger would than make some sense. I mean, I can understand perfect what a vile, horrible, terrible thing sex is. No one in their right mind would ever want to have sex. Sex is the most vile, evil, hate filled disgusting, mean thing that anyone could ever do to another person.

No one who loves someone would ever do sex to the person they loved.

No one who was kind or good would ever do sex.

So, yes, I can understand why they got so upset if they thought sex was happening. I mean who wouldn't get upset over the idea of ANYONE doing sex to ANYONE!

But Avallac'h is not evil. He doesn't do sex to anyone, which makes him the ONLY not evil person in the Witcher franchise.

Everyone else is always doing sex to every one around them. They are THAT evil!

And Ciri's is the worst one of all. She does sex to more people than anyone else in the entire franchise! She's the most vile, evil, hate filled piece of shit their is.

I mean, she tried to do sex to Avallac'h! That alone tells you how much she hates him! I can't understand why he would want to be with someone who hates him so much.

You only do sex to people you hate.

No good, kind, loving person ever does sex to anyone.

There are only 2 reasons anyone ever does sex:

* make babies

or

* hurt people you hate

But like I said, these people are infuriated that I have Ciri Avallac'h having every stream, and I can't understand why they would even think that, when **I DON'T DO THE SEX QUESTS!**

But if they are so stupid that they can't use the correct words correctly, well, yeah, I can see why they would think sleep means sex... but that just proves they were also too retarded to graduate from school.

Sleep and sex are both words you'll learn the meaning of by the time you are 8 years old. So anyone who over 8 years old who mixes up those 2 words and uses one when they mean the other, is pretty damned stupid. They nothing short of retarded if they don't know that sleep is NOT sex!

Why must you people sexualize everything?

If I was going to send Ciri and Avallac'h were off to have sex, I would have SAID they were going to have sex. I would not have said they were going to sleep.

YOU thinking about sex when I talk, DOES NOT mean I was talking about sex!

**YOU** saw sex where there was no sex to be found, because **YOU WANTED** sex to be there.

The novels told us Avallac'h was an asexual virgin living a celibate life. His beloved wife Lara, left him for that very reason. He loved her more than anything, but even though he loved her, the thought of sex repulsed him and she left him because he refused to have sex with her. He tells Geralt that he wishes he could have gotten over his revulsion of sex to make Lara happy so she wouldn't have left him. And later when Ciri tries to have sex with him, we see the same thing repeated, with Avallac'h bemoaning the fact that no one loves him they just want sex, why can love can't love exist without sex. 

Avallac'h hates sex as much as I do, and that's exactly why I like him. Do you have any idea how difficult it is to find an man who doesn't want sex? 

Accurately portrayed fictional asexual men are even more rare then real world asexual men.

How many times do I have to say, we role play this playthrough, lore-friendly to the novels.

Do you really think I would have an asexual character having sex?

It is **YOU NOT ME** who is sexualizing Avallac'h and imagining him and Ciri having sex.

You put sex in a place where there was no sex, then you get mad at me for it, when you should be mad at yourself,, because YOU are the one saw sex there. Not me. It never would have occurred to me that you thought they were having sex. And I'm horrified that would think that.

Ciri and Avallac'h did not have a sexual relationship. He didn't want that. He said so 17 times.

Shame on you for trying to sexualize an asexual character.

Stairs... not much safer than ladders. Avallac'h's rolls down stairs as often as he falls off ladders.
For some reason Avallac'h had progressively fewer clothes on as the quarantine progressed.
Avallac'h is still grey haired here... this was footage from the final livestream... the one that got cut off without warning due to gun fire and the home invasion and murder of the 80 year old man, who lived one door down the hall from me. Lornruk Castle can be seen in the distance, we are swimming to it here. The stream cut off right after we arrived. This would be both the last time you saw Avallac'h grey and the last livestream.
Possibly one of my top 10 favorite images from the game, and one you see me posting everywhere... this is the beach of Lornruk Castle, and during the 2nd month of our quarantine here, as can be seen by the plague doctors and rats in the background. Avallac'h is seen here just leaving the ocean after his daily swim around the castle.
Avallac'h forgot to use the ladder... here he is falling down the hole in the ceiling, zipping past the ladder, to surprisingly not be dead on the floor below... you can only see his cape as he falls.
Ladders... a dreadfully useful item that helps you get off high places. Most of Avallac'h's deaths in game are not from being killed by monsters, but rather from forgetting to use the ladder when coming off a roof.
Hey look... remembering to climb down the ladder instead of tripping off the edge and falling to our death!
While quarantined at Lornruk Castle, Ciri's apearance changed as well, with her hair losing it's dreadlocks and becoming glossy smooth, golden blond. It takes weeks to brush out dreadlocks. And requires someone dedicated to sit there and spend 4, 5, or more hours a day for 3 or 4 weeks, to remove the dreads without shaving your head... I know, I had 42" long dreadlocks and Ben brushed them out. We know from the novels, Avallac'h brushed out Ciri's dreadlocks, washed the ashes out of her hair, revealing her hair to be smooth shiny golden blond. So we went on the assumption he did so again while they were stuck in quarantine.


All the Witcher 3 images on this page were edited using 2 software programs: 
VideoPad Professional (not free)
 
John Paul Chacha's Chasys Draw IES Artist (free)

All images on this page are from:
The Witcher 3: 
Wild Hunt 
|Game of the Year Edition| 
Completionist Run: The Avallac'h Playthrough
(Watch It Live HERE)





Trailer For The Avallac'h Playthrough:



More Pictures From Witcher 3:

**Pages listed below, are marked as NSFW if it contains more then 10 pictures of nude/topless women, usually Ciri, with bare breasts and nipples... or at least one picture of a vagina, again usually Ciri's**

**NOTE that pages NOT marked as NSFW may also have bare breasts, just fewer then 10 images of them**


If a page listed below is not yet a link, that is because it is still set to private and not yet live, because it has fewer then 50 images on it.

These pages go live after they have 50 images on the page, and it takes a huge amount of time for me to make these images. Each of these Witcher-3-image-collection pages takes 80+ hours to make.

Most of these pages have 300+ images, a few have over 1,000 images. Each page may take a long time to load if you are on mobile or have slow internet.

In total there are more then 15,000 images of Avallac'h spread out across these pages.


Note that these pages are updated daily, with new images added to the appropriate pages after each Twitch stream. *(I play the game daily even when not streaming it, so even days with no stream, these pages get updated)* And as such, these pages are always growing larger, and more pages are always being added.

Eventually I will have a separate page for EACH and EVERY town and Point of Interest in the game, with a goal of 1,000 images in each collection. Meaning when this project is finished there will be more the 500 pages, and more then 500,000 images across them.

This project started May 13, 2018 and as of May 8, 2021 now has 32,500 screenshots uploaded. You can see them by clicking on the links below.

New pages are added all the time and the links go live after there are at least 100 images on the page. MOST of the links below have more than 500 images, some have more than a 1,000. Know that due to the image heavy nature of these pages these pages may not load well on mobile and may suffer from long loading times if you are on low quality internet speeds. If you are on dial up, these pages may not load at all, due to the large sizes of the image files and the fact of500+ images per page.

If a page is listed below, but does not yet have a link, it is because the page has been started, but is still in draft format due to not yet having 100 images uploaded to it. It'll go live once it reaches 100 image.



If you could recommend I watch one VOD that best represented your channel, which would it be?

This one....








If One of these Videos Is Active,
I'm Live Streaming Right Now...

I stream on Twitch, YouTube, FaceBook, and Twitter. I have no pre-planned schedule for which site I will go live on. I do NOT multi-stream on multiple sites at once, so if I am live on one, I am not live on the other 3. (The FaceBook one will say "Video Unavailable" when not live.)





About This Game Play:


This current mod-making playthrough, is prep for a future fully-lore-friendly playthrough....

The ultimate goal of my mod making playthrough, is to make every character as lore-friendly as possible to how they were described in the novels.

Most specifically though we are transforming as much of the game as possible to match Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake, when Ciri lived with Avallac'h the first time, on The Lake of Avalon.

This current playthrough is largely a lot of test runs of hundreds of mods. It is being played open world with quests rarely happening, to allow us to run tests of various mods as I build them.

Due to the fact that the game engine, scripts, and other files is often open and being edited while I'm playing the game, this current playthrough is very unstable with bugs and glitches happening  daily and game crashes happening, sometimes as often as every few minutes.

You are witnessing a live overhaul and full rewrite of the game, that when finished will be used in a complete (more normal style) playthrough of the game.

However do not expect to see the lore-friendly playthrough any time soon. 

I began building this overhaul mod May 13, 2018 and have worked on it daily for 4 to 12 hours a day, all of it streamed here on Twitch, and... 

...while we've now altered over 2,000 script files, more than 7,000 textures, several hundred meshes, 400+ xml files, dozens of ini files, and have now begun work on changing 3D models...

...this project is far from finished and could see as much as another 3 years of daily work before completion.

UPDATE: October 5, 2020... it is now nearing 3 years since starting, and  there are now more than 20,000 files edited in this project, and no end is yet in sight.



Computer  stats: 

Motherboard: Asus Z170

Processor: i7-7000 @4.20GHz

RAM: 64 GB

Graphics Card: NVirdia 1070 GTX

Capture Card: AVerMedia Live Gamer HD

Hard Drive: There are 11 hard drives by various brands, in total there is 88TB of harddrive on the computer

Cooling system: There are 8 fans and a liquid cooling system inside the computer; plus not attached to the computer, are 2 house fans and a house air conditioner... which are required to keep the computer from overheating during my daily 9 hour streams.

..........

There are a lot more parts on the computer, but those above are the base requirements if you want to build a gaming rig capable of running Witcher 3 with over 4,000 mods, including over 20,000 custom graphics added to the game.

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Keyboards: I use 2 keyboards... a full size mechanical with rainbow lights and a mini-size wireless.

Headphones: After going through over a dozen headphones each a different brand and model, some costing several hundreds of dollars, and all suffered the same problem of breaking at the swivel point, I finally found one that did not break at it's swivels and have used them since 2016.

Monitors: I use multiple monitors and change and add more every year or so, which monitor I have is different at any given time. As a general rule, my set of monitors is whatever was the biggest screen, curved screen, gaming monitor that was a new release during that year's Black Friday sale.

Mouse: I have 6 wireless, all the same, and just switch them out mid stream when the batteries die.

Camera: This is the camera & mic I use for my IRL vlogs, car vlogs, and shopping vlogs.

Webcam: This is the camera & mic used for the facecam on my Witcher 3 streams.

I do not use a mic. I've tried several over the years, and every one of them, couldn't come close to having the quality of the mic that came built in to each of those 2 cameras above, so I discontinued using a seperate mic and just use the 2 cameras' built in mics now.

2nd Camera: The other camera I use. Usually this one is for the stills of my flowers, garden, pets, and cars, but it is sometimes used for video recordings as well. This camera is mostly used for the photography prints I sell on Zazzle.

Camera stands: I use Gorilla Pods for all of my cameras.

I have more cameras, used for my photography, but those does get used for streaming or vlogging so no need to list them here.

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The base computer was built in 2016, and cost just under $3,000 to build. But has been upgraded and expanded on a regular basis every few months since than. In total the computer cost over $15,000 to build, spent over a period of 4 years.

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Video Editing Software: VideoPad Professional

Text/Code Editing Software: EditPad

Image Editing Software: John Paul Chacha's Chasys Draw IES Artist

File Organizer: yWriter








NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 







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Please Note: The Quaraun Series Is SplatterPunk Horror Gorn Rated M18+ for extreme graphic violence, grizzly depictions of suicide, and you must be 18 or older to buy it if you live in America, Japan, Australia, Germany, or any other country with government laws regulating explicit media

Why is the Quaraun Series Rated M18+?





















Though he is the main character of the series, this is one of only 4 covers to feature a picture of Quaraun himself.


























































































































































































The load-screen Avallac'h CosPlay
Avallac'h as he appeared in the load screen art


























*"Watching people defend someone they're a fan of, completely dismissing any evidence of wrongdoing, just because they think they know that creator like a close friend based solely on what they've seen in videos and stuff. Parasocial relationships are terrifying." ~ Welsknight Gaming*


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"You people who watch, follow, subscribe to, and defend the streamers who spread malicious sex lies about others, are accessories to the crimes they perpetrate. Without viewers like you, my family would not have been murdered by fans of bitches like them." ~EelKat


































“Don't tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass.” - Anton Chekhov





“Read, read, read. Read everything -- trash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the master. Read! You'll absorb it. Then write. If it's good, you'll find out.” - William Faulkner



“Many writers write because they’ve been there, seen that, did it and burnt their fingers” - Bangambiki Habyarimana





"Close the door. Write with no one looking over your shoulder. Don’t try to figure out what other people want to hear from you; figure out what you have to say. It’s the one and only thing you have to offer."- Barbara Kingsolver




"I'm writing a first draft and reminding myself that I'm simply shoveling sand into a box so that later I can build castles."  - Shannon Hale





"It is common sense to take a method and try it. If it fails, admit it frankly and try another. But above all, try something."

- Franklin D. Roosevelt





April 10, 2015 my 12 children were kidnapped,
from 146 Portland Ave. Old Orchard Beach, Maine.

May 15, 2015, ten of their heads were nailed to my door.

Do you have information?

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the 
Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the case.

If you have information about the April 10, 2015 murder of my family 
or any of the attacks on our home and relatives, give it to him not me.
He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 


Do you live in Biddeford, Maine?

Especially in the Main St, Elm St, Cutt St area?

The woman suspected of  orchestrating the murder, has been sighted the past few weeks at bars and shops in this area and the FBI wants your help catching her.

As of September & October 2021, new information has come forward, and the FBI wants YOUR help, to catch the people who murdered my family.

Go to THIS PAGE and read the article for more info on how you can help, and also full details on the murder and investigation. 

Please, don't let them get away with this. They've walked free, far too long. And they've hurt so many more people in the 7 years since April 10, 2015.

Do you have information?

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the 
Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the case.

If you have information about any of these attacks, give it to him.
He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 
















The best place to hide a body is on any random second page of Google search results. No one ever looks there.


“1. Bullying is not okay. Period.
2. Freedom of religion does not give you the right to physically or verbally assault people.
3. If your sincerely-held religious beliefs require you to bully children,
then your beliefs are fucked up.” ― Jim C. Hines


Give a man a fish and he'll eat for a day. Teach a man to fish and you can sell him fishing gear for the rest of his life. 

“People try to say suicide is the most cowardly act a man could ever commit.
I don't think that's true at all.
What's cowardly is treating a man so badly that he wants to commit suicide.” ― Tommy Tran


"This site contains daily blogs & vlogs of every event of every day of my life from 2003 til today.

If you are in my life, you are on this site - your name, your face, and probably your home address.

If you don't want to be on this site, then get your ass the fuck out of my life.

If you're harassing me or my family, you're here a lot, and if you don't want anyone to know about it, then don't do it! Don't think I won't defend myself and my family from you, because I will, rest assured if you even THINK about hurting me or any one in my family, I WILL become your WORST nightmare.

And if you do it to me... you can be certain the whole world will know, because I WILL tell EVERYONE.

I will also remind you: I am also a Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsen Fey. I do readings, spell castings, curses, and exorcisms for clients. I'm also a Ceremonial High Magic Necromancer. I trained under the Hebrew Enochain Kabbalist Etiole de bleu de Azure Swanzen, famed for his ability to call up Devs, Ghuls, Daemons, and Djinn, the terror of Maine known mostly for his deadly 7 Year Retribution Curses and Mirror Box Wanga Death Spells. I was his apprentice for 37 years and have now taken over for him. If you hurt me or my family, rest assured a 7 Year Curse HAS been cast on you."

~EelKat (tagline from EK's StarLog 2006)


“Everything... affects everything” 

― Jay Asher



never judge yourself, by the way a hater judges you, you are way better then they say you are, and they know it, that's why they are trying to bring you down to their level ~EelKat






"Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm."

- Winston Churchill






"My will shall shape the future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be lost in the maze. My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny."

- Elaine Maxwell






bullies don't care

because bullies are cruel





















“Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.” - Franz Kafka















"There is only one success:  to be able to spend your life in your own way."

- Christopher Lasch




"Being a writer is a little bit like being insane, since I spend a lot of time anguishing over problems that involve people who don’t exist doing imaginary things in places that aren’t real." - Aaron Thier













Don't let a bully pretend they are the victim, their crocodile tears are just a deviant trick they use to hurt you even more, by convincing others to not help you.




Did you know, before Hugh Howey Wrote wool, he and I wrote this book?



















“I love deadlines. I love the whooshing noise they make as they go by.” - Douglas Adams


















"Writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way." -  E. L. Doctorow










“You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you.” - Ray Bradbury




"You can’t wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club." - Jack London


"This violence against our Asian American neighbors is from the mouth of hell. Hate acts. It does not stay confined to the heart & mind. It incites the tongue. Untreated, it travels to hands & feet. Hate is murderous. (1Jn 3:15) Stand against it. Speak against it. Pray against it." - Beth Moore






Please Note: The Quaraun Series Is SplatterPunk Horror Gorn Rated M18+ for extreme graphic violence, grizzly depictions of suicide, and you must be 18 or older to buy it if you live in America, Japan, Australia, Germany, or any other country with government laws regulating explicit media

Why is the Quaraun Series Rated M18+?

I repeat, there is a MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING for the Quaraun series, as it is 200+ volumes, 8 million+ words of steady, endless, non-stop suicide, suicide references, depression, and suicidal characters attempting suicide in nearly every chapter of every volume!

Don't be fooled by the pink covers. The Quaraun series has won awards for being among the darkest novels ever published.

It's one of the few series so dark, so disturbing, so gory, so bloody, and so focused on putting suicide in your face that...

...on January 6, 2016 the American government has issued a court order declaring I was required to put M18+ book rating on the cover, as well as banned 27 volumes of the Quaraun series from being sold in America.

If you have any questions regarding this court order issued by the Old Orchard Beach, Maine Town Hall, an division of the American Government,  which violates the first amendment, where we are clearly told the government can not censor freedom of speech...


please head to the State of Maine, Biddeford District Court and ask for copies of


Docket #BDDC-PA-2015-00574 and CV-15-58/CV-15-59


the Alfred Superior Court Docket #CV-15-299


and the Portland Superior Law Court Docket #YOR-15-253


Additionally, you can find more information by going to the Old Orchard Beach Police Department and requesting copies of ALL police reports made in regards to 144, 146, and 146a Portland Avenue, from 2001 to 2016 (approximately 300 reports).















"To produce a mighty book, you must choose a mighty theme." - Herman Melville













“You should be nicer to him,' a schoolmate had once said to me of some awfully ill-favored boy. 'He has no friends.'     This, I realized with a pang of pity that I can still remember, was only true as long as everybody agreed to it.” - Christopher Hitchens








“When people see you're happy doing what you're doing, it sort of takes the power away from them to tease you about it.” 

― Wendy Mass, Every Soul a Star
















































Attempt Something New Today! – too many people talk about doing this or that but few actually take action, it's the why behind why so few succeed and so many fail.
















Our new 2017 "Pink Christmas" theme Web Graphics were designed by Ana Terium of Dark & Light Graphics (Yes, same designer who's been doing art for my sites since 2005! She's the same one who did all the cat graphics and blinkie borders, etc as well.)


Most of the animated .gifs, dolls, and dividers found on this site were designed by Chibiville









Be the hero, not the bully.





13 black cats magical supply shop logo


April 10, 2015 my 12 children were kidnapped,
from 146 Portland Ave. Old Orchard Beach, Maine.

May 15, 2015, ten of their heads were nailed to my door.

Do you have information?

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the 
Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the case.

If you have information about the April 10, 2015 murder of my family 
or any of the attacks on our home and relatives, give it to him not me.
He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 


Do you live in Biddeford, Maine?

Especially in the Main St, Elm St, Cutt St area?

The woman suspected of  orchestrating the murder, has been sighted the past few weeks at bars and shops in this area and the FBI wants your help catching her.

As of September & October 2021, new information has come forward, and the FBI wants YOUR help, to catch the people who murdered my family.

Go to THIS PAGE and read the article for more info on how you can help, and also full details on the murder and investigation. 

Please, don't let them get away with this. They've walked free, far too long. And they've hurt so many more people in the 7 years since April 10, 2015.

Do you have information?

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the 
Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the case.

If you have information about any of these attacks, give it to him.
He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322