Avallac'h and his lover Isillira
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The Girl In Avallac'h's bedroom. Her file names are: Avallac'h's Lover Isillira. The name Isillira appears over her head when you hover your mouse cursor over her. In the novels, however, she was unnamed. Also, in the novels she had black skin.

Avallac'h's Lover: Isilira in the game vs Isilira in the novels...

From the Lore Friendly Wild Hunt Mod, Avallac'h's favorite wife Isilira now fights, carries a bow, and is a warrior wearing pistachio green.

Seen above: From the Lore Friendly Wild Hunt Mod, Avallac'h's favorite wife Isilira now fights, carries a bow, and is a warrior wearing pistachio green.


In the game, we see Isilira only briefly, and we see her dressing in bright pink, sitting primping at a mirror, and then yelling at Ciri. 

If you find and read Avallac'h's diary, which seeing how only 3 people out of the 24million+ people who've played the game, have ever found it, chances are high you are not one of those 3 people you never read it.

But if you find and read Avallac'h's diary, you are told a grizzly tale of who Isilira is *(according to the game devs)*. The book explains that Isilira is Avallac'h's older sister. And tells us, that when Avallac'h was 10 years old, he was kidnapped and tortured by a human mage, referred to as "the evil witch". 

The story goes on to tell us that Avallac'h has Elder Blood and the witch drained his blood to drink it and become powerful. When this does not work, she demands to know the secret to how to activate Elder Blood, but Avallac'h in this scene is a very small child and does not know the answer. So the witch kidnaps his parents and siblings, and one by one, tortures them to death and force feeds them to Avallac'h. 

But he still does not know the answer and the witch does not believe him, so she kidnaps his pet ocelots, and tortures them to death, and forces him to eat them too.

Unknown to the witch, one sibling escaped capture: a 14 year old girl, Isilira. And one day while the evil witch was cooking, Isilira sneaked up behind her and killed her. And eat her. Saving her eyes which Islilra now wears as earrings and her teeth, which Isilira now wears as a necklace.

Isilira and Avallac'h fled society, and the 14 year old girl, becomes the deeply protective sorigate mother of her horrifically traumatised 10 year old brother.

That is who Isilira is, according to the book, in the game, written by the game developers.


...that is not what the novels tells us.

In the novels, Isilira is what Ciri described as "a fierce Amazonian elf-woman, carrying a bow, and wearing pistachio green".

She is one of the 5 women who never leaves Avallac'h's side, and acts as both his lover and bodyguard.

We see scenes of Avallac'h, hugging and kissing, and being very sexual with her, scenes described to us, by a very jealous Ciri, who very desperately wants to have sex with Avallac'h. 

In the novels, Avallac'h is Ciri's grandfather, and he loves her very dearly, but he sees her as exactly what she is: his favorite grandbaby. He has no sexual or romantic feelings for Ciri, though he loves more then anyone else ever loves her. This infuriates Ciri, because Ciri, is a sex crazed lunatic who thinks she has to fuck everything that moves. 

When Ciri tells Avallac'h she want to have sex with him, he is horrified by this, tells her that such a thing can never be, asks her to put such thoughts out of her head, asks her to never tell anyone she thinks of him in this manner, asks her to never mention it again, and send her off to have sex with King Auberon, to get her sex urges out of her system.

When Ciri first meets Avallac'h for the very first time, he is with Isilira, he is playing pan pipes, while Isilira strip dances in front of him. Ciri is immediately jealous in this scene, and she doesn't even know who Avallac'h is yet. 

The next time we see Avallac'h, he's gotten off his horse, and Isilira is standing beside him, her arms around him, holding him up, because we are told he can't walk, he's too old, he's ancient, he's very elderly. 

Avallac'h leans heavily on her, relying near entirely on her strength to support him and hold him up, while he walks to great Ciri. Again, Ciri tells us how jealous she is.

Barely a page later, we see Avallac'h picking flowers, while his 5 elf-women, stand in a circle around him, their bows aimed and ready to kill any threat that might stop by.  Ciri, riding her horse around them, sees Avallac'h kissing Isillira and yet again, tells us how jealous she is... THIS TIME, we are also told, that Isilira has black skin. 

Avallac'h gets on his horse and rides around the lake, telling his 5 elf woman, to stay and protect Ciri. They protest, he scolds them, and they reluctantly guard Ciri.

Avallac'h does not get far, when he turns back, because he can hear the women fighting. 

When he arrives back to their location, Ciri is calling Avallac'h's 5 BLACK SKINNED elf women, monkeys, telling them they all look alike. 

The 5 black elf women, see Avallac'h and run to him in tears, explaining what Ciri has been saying to and about them, while black-hating racist ass bigot Ciri, in a raging inferno, lashes out at Avallac'h, telling him that he is white and ought to know better then to be fucking black women.... 

THIS is WHY, Isilira, in the games, greats Ciri by saying:

CIRI: "You! I remember you. From Tir na Lia!"

ISILIRA: "Funny, I thought those of our race, all looked alike to you."

By making Isilira in the game WHITE, instead of BLACK, like she was in the novels, her words here in the game, lose their meaning, and most people playing the game end up falsely thinking it is Isillra who is racist against humans, when in fact the racist one, is Ciri, who hate black people and in the novels has several monologues on how she wants kill everyone who is black, including Avallac'h 5 black wives.

Ciri ran around topless in the novels... the game forgot to tell you that... it was a constant embarassment to Avallac'h, who was continually wrapping scarves and shawls around Ciri's shoulders to cover her exposed breasts. He hated going out in public with Ciri with him, because she always embarassing him by ripping off her blouse and throwing it away when his friends were around. He called Ciri a barbaric savage because of her refusal to cover her breasts.

The next time we see Isillra in the novels, Avallac'h is on his horse, Ciri is on her horse, Ciri is crying over her dead mother and grandmother and missing Mommy Yennefer, Avallac'h is rubbing Ciri's leg trying to calm her down, and Ciri *(and most readers)* translates this to Avallac'h being sexual, when quite clearly he is not, and is doing what pretty much ANYONE is going is going to do in this situation, when there friend is bawling their eyes out, you rub their shoulder, you rub their leg, you rub their back... it is not a sexual response at all. 

The fact that we have seen Avallac'h being sexual with the 5 she-elves, means we also know what he acts like when he is being sexual and we can clearly see the difference in how he touches Ciri vs how he touches the 5 she-elves.

Ciri however takes this to mean Avallac'h is sexually attracted to her, tells the reader that the 5 elf-women are walking along beside the horses, so Ciri, decides to gallop off, trying to get Avallac'h to chase her to the beach, so she can seduce him and have sex with him... all seems to be going according to Ciri's plan, because Avallac'h is old and senial, and keeps forgetting that Ciri is Ciri and not his dead wife Lara. ... sooo, NOW he IS being sexual with Ciri.

Because Ciri is seducing Avallac'h, Avallac'h's attention is no longer on holding up the massive barrier spells, one around the Lake of Avalon keeping him and Ciri safe from monster attacks and another around the city of Tir na Lia, keeping him and Ciri safe from King Auberon, Eredin, and the Red Riders... 

Both barriers come down, because Avallac'h is focused on his lust for Lara, and immediately the Unicorns attack, nearly killing Avallac'h. 

And we see Ciri scared to shit, terrified out of her fucking mind, when she realises, she almost got Avallac'h killed and without him, there ain't no one on this alien elf planet who gives a shit about her. 

Remember how Ciri in the game is oh, soooooo powerful. All full of magic. Has that sonic scream. Is a big brave fighter... 

Well, in the novels, there isn't one single, solitary iota of magic in Ciri at all. She's a weakiing with no powers and is too big of a coward to fight anyone.

When the Unicorns attack, Avallac'h grabs Ciri and runs for the horses, but realizes too late, he and Ciri are very far away from both the horses and the 5 elf women. 

Terrified, Ciri clings to Avallac'h, hiding behind him, convinced that he and her are both about to die, because Avallac'h carries no weapons, is very old, very sickly, and very weak. 

Yeah, Ciri is so weak, unmagical, and powerless in the novels, that she runs to hide behind a crippled, elderly, Elf who can barely walk, because he's stronger then she is.

And while she has heard rumors that he is both the most powerful and most feared sorcerer in the entire universe, Ciri has yet to see Avallac'h cast a spell or use any magic at all.

However, he is the one and ONLY Elder Blood Elf. He is the last PURE BLOODED Elf. He is The Elder God From Whom all Elder Blood Flows. And this makes him the most powerful being of all the universe, capable of drawing on the energy of the earth, the water, the planets, the air, and pulling it all inside of himself, then lashing it back on his attackers, in a massive brain exploding, eye bursting, eardrum shattering sonic scream that kills everything around him in a 5 mile radius.

Ciri, still clinging to Avallac'h tells the reader she's never seen anything like it.

The heads of all the Unicorn, exploded as Avallac'h's voice steadingly reached a higher and higher pitch.

But she also tells us, is weakened him. His physical body, was not strong enough to withstanding pulling so much energy inside of himself.

Ciri tells us, he's now very weak, struggling to breath, and she fears he will collapse at any minute, and she and him will both be murdered by the 2nd round of Unicorns, now bearing down on them.

Meanwhile, Ciri also tells us, the 5 elf women, have formed a circle around her and Avallac'h and have drawn their bows, ready to kill the attackers. But there are only 5 of them, and hundreds of attackers riding down the hill towards them. 

Ciri has never seen Elder Blood in action before. Avallac'h is the first full blooded Elder Blood Ciri has ever met, so she is stunned, when she sees that he is too weak, to pull the energy of the Lake into himself, so instead, he draws the energy out of the lake and puts it in the the 5 elf women, and once again, starts to sing what Ciri calls: "The Song of Avallac'h", which she describes as starting out sound like bird chirps, increasing to a whale song, then becoming very high pitched, and exploding the brains of everyone outside of the barrier that he has put up around himself, Ciri, Rudy, Kelpie, and the 5 elf women...

...but this time, unlike the first sonic scream, which came from Avallac'h... this time, it came from the 5 elf women, who Ciri described as paralyzed, puppets, fully taken over, no longer in control of their bodies, as Avallac'h wielded his deadly sonic scream through them.

Now on his knees, no longer able to stand, in a field of thousands of dead Unicorns, a 3rd round of Unicorns bears down on them.

Ciri is still clinging to Avallac'h, holding on to him for dear life, and tells us, he's not doing good, he can barely breathe, and fever wracks his body. He tried to unleash his sonic scream a 3rd time and passes out.

While Ciri tries to wake him, the 5 elf women, start to shot their arrows at the Unicorns, knowing full well their are just way too many.

A black skinned, black eyed, black haired samiria knight wearing red lacquer scale armor and riding a red dragon, swoops in, scoops up Avallac'h and Ciri, and rides for the forest, while ordering 12 other red clad knights on red dragons, to kill the Unicorns. 

The 5 elf women run after the knight. And Ciri, tells the reader that this is blackest black person, she has ever seen, and therefore, because black skin is caused by being evil, he must also be the most evil person to ever exist. *(if you are black, by the end of Ciri's interactions with Eredin, which last for only 8 pages, you will hate Ciri so damned bad. She is most vile, white power, white supremacy, black hating, racist pig I've ever encountered in literature.)* 

When racist bigot bitch Ciri, asks the Elf whom she describes as vile, evil, repulsive black bastard who dared touch her lily white skin, what his name is, he tells her, he is Eredin, Captain of the Palace Guards, and he had heard Avallac'h's scream, and came to help his "dear brother". 

Eredin refers to Avallac'h as his brother, and the way they interact, it appears they are brothers, in a sense that they grew up together, and it appears most likely that Avallac'h was adopted, because he's also the ONLY Elf with white skin and while Eredin calls him "brother", Avallac'h also, states that he is last of his kind and has no siblings.

We see Ciri jealous of how close Avallac'h and Eredin are. 

You'll notice quickly in the novels that Ciri is jealous of EVERYTHING and EVERYONE, and every time Ciri feels jealous of something her immediate response is to fuck it, rape it, castrate it, then kill it, because Ciri is a lesbian and in the Witcher universe the word lesbian means a female who hates, rapes, and castrates any man who refuses to have sex with her on command.

Seeing that Avallac'h has a brother, or at least a very dear friend who calls him brother, infuriates Ciri's raging jealousy and she mentally tells the reader that both these men deserved to be raped because no man deserves to be happy, or have friends, or siblings.

The novels tells us, Avallac'h has no siblings and is the last of his kind. So why does the game tell us that Isillira is his sister?

Back to Isillia in the novels.

After the Unicorn attack, we don't see Isilira again for quite some time. However, we do see several scenes of Ciri, jealous, raging, black hating, bigoted inferno, telling the reader that she is sitting on a balcony, or by a window, in her bedroom, or in King Auberon's bedroom, or the dining room in the Palace of Tir na Lia... that she sits in these places, to watch for Avallac'h on the riverbank, where she can see him, hugging, kissing, humping, and signing to his 5 black elf women. 

Ciri is waiting for Avallac'h to have sex with them, because she wants to watch, but Avallac'h is asexual so he's not having sex with anybody, especially not Ciri, which infuriates Ciri.

Avallac'h in the novels is portrayed as being extremely lustful, and capable of giving women orgasms by singing to them and using his psychic powers to sexually satisfy them without ever having to have sex with them.

Resulting in these women are rabidly addicted to him like he was a drug and cling to him in a wild, desperate, sexual desire, that defies logic, and they will do anything for him.

And Avallac'h is a bit of a deviated bastard, when it comes to using women to get what he wants. 

Avallac'h keeps female bodyguards because females are vicious fighters and fierce protectors of things they love. He seduces them, and sleeps with them, but refuses to have sex with them.

Avallac'h never intends to have sex with any of his women, but he is always hugging, kissing, and rubbing his crotch all over them, which has got the 5 elf women, addicted to him and madly in love with him, resulting in, he has the best damned bodyguards ever because they love him and they will kill for him. And this infuriates Ciri.

The last time we see Isilira, we see that Avallac'h has started trying to keep his 5 elf women and Ciri separated from each other. 

Ciri's psychoticly jealous nature and her perverted sexzilla attraction to Avallac'h, has made Avallac'h's 5 women become very upset, argumentative, and angry. All of which Crevan says he dislikes. 

Avallac'h is very docile, very peaceful, and very, very, very lazy. 

In one scene Ciri described Avallac'h, saying that he reminded her of a stuffed peacock, sitting around looking pretty all day while his  flock of drab coloured females took orders from him.

Avallac'h deeply dislikes fighting, arguing, contention, and lifting a finger to do anything if he can get one of his women to do it for him.

But with his women upset and arguing with Ciri constantly, Avallac'h is now having trouble getting his women to obey his every whim, meaning Ciri's slutty ways are starting to become a rather big problem for Avallac'h.

And Ciri's sex crazed actions and constantly trying to get between Avallac'h and his women, has upset him quite a lot because it is upsetting his peaceful balance of symbiotic mind meld harmony he had with his 5 elf women. In one scene, he said as much and asked Ciri to stop because it was causing problems for him with his women.

Avallac'h and his women are boarding a river boat. As is usual, 4 of the she-elves are wearing nothing but gold glitter body paint, while gathered around Avallac'h, and Isillia, Avallac'h's favorite, is dressed in pistachio green and hanging on his arm, kissing him. 

Ciri runs up, interrupts this, screaming at the top of her lungs **"AUBERON IS REFUSING TO GIVE ME AN ORGASM!"** and Avallac'h quickly pushes Isillira away, asks the 5 women to go back to his room and wait for him. 

The 4 in gold, do as they are told, while Isilira, the one in green pistachio, starts to speak Elvish words that Ciri has never heard before. 

The indication is that Isillia is swearing worse than a drunken pirate. 

Avallac'h is clearly embarrassed, now by Isillira as well as Ciri, and obviously wishing to avoid a fight between the 2 sex crazed females who are now both fighting over him and are ready to rip each other's throats out.

Avallac'h takes Ciri's arm and asks her to get on the boat, which she does, expecting Avallac'h to get on the boat with her, but when she looks to see where he went, he's now very sexually making out with Isilira on the dock. Then tells her, to back to his room, which she does, while continuing to spout Elvish obscenities at Ciri.

We do not Isilira again after this. Which is understandable as we are at this point in the story just 2 pages from page 179, and the last we will see Avallac'h in the novels as well.

Anyways, there you have it... the WHY, behind why I changed Isilira in the game, to be a bow carrying warrior wearing pistachio green.

For some reason, writing this, has resulted in, right now, I'm sitting here eating pistachios. Oh well.

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About This Game Play:

This current mod-making playthrough, is prep for a future fully-lore-friendly playthrough....

The ultimate goal of my mod making playthrough, is to make every character as lore-friendly as possible to how they were described in the novels.

Most specifically though we are transforming as much of the game as possible to match Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake, when Ciri lived with Avallac'h the first time, on The Lake of Avalon.

This current playthrough is largely a lot of test runs of hundreds of mods. It is being played open world with quests rarely happening, to allow us to run tests of various mods as I build them.

Due to the fact that the game engine, scripts, and other files is often open and being edited while I'm playing the game, this current playthrough is very unstable with bugs and glitches happening  daily and game crashes happening, sometimes as often as every few minutes.

You are witnessing a live overhaul and full rewrite of the game, that when finished will be used in a complete (more normal style) playthrough of the game.

However do not expect to see the lore-friendly playthrough any time soon. 

I began building this overhaul mod May 13, 2018 and have worked on it daily for 4 to 12 hours a day, all of it streamed here on Twitch, and... 

...while we've now altered over 2,000 script files, more than 7,000 textures, several hundred meshes, 400+ xml files, dozens of ini files, and have now begun work on changing 3D models...

...this project is far from finished and could see as much as another 3 years of daily work before completion.

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Why is the Quaraun Series Rated M18+?

I think it's stupid that the average Mainer is such a cry baby whimpering snowflake that I have a court order issued by the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall via the Biddeford District Court requiring I tell you this, but apparently my books are deemed to violent for the retards, I mean citizens of the Town of Old Orchard Beach, so here you go, a court required trigger warning for you all,...

I repeat, I am required by court order of the American federal government to put a warning telling you that there is a 


 for the Quaraun series, as it is 200+ volumes, 8 million+ words of steady, endless, non-stop suicide, suicide references, depression, and suicidal characters attempting suicide in nearly every chapter of every volume!

Don't be fooled by the pink covers. The Quaraun series has won awards for being among the darkest novels ever published.

It's one of the few series so dark, so disturbing, so gory, so bloody, and so focused on putting suicide in your face that...

...on January 6, 2016 the American government has issued a court order declaring I was required to put M18+ book rating on the cover, as well as banned 27 volumes of the Quaraun series from being sold in America.

If you have any questions regarding this court order issued by the Old Orchard Beach, Maine Town Hall, an division of the American Government,  which violates the first amendment, where we are clearly told the government can not censor freedom of speech...

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