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FAQ: What are the most visited pages on this website and how many visits do they get?

Several years ago, I wrote an article on how to write different types of magic uses, or rather how I personally write various types of magic users within the context of my Quaraun books. Today that page is one of my top ten most visited articles. It gets 50 to 500 views/reads/hits/visits per day depending on the time of the years and has had over 200k visits total since it was published.

Amphibious Aliens: Debunking The Atwater Family's Alien Abduction Hoax with more then 30MILLION reads since 2007 and The GoldenEagle: Debunking Stephen King's World's Most Haunted Car Hoax with over tenMILLION reads since 2007 still rank as the two most visited articles on my website, but, neither of those are writing related.

Writing Medieval Servants is my most visited writing related article with over 7MILLION reads.

This website was started in 1996 and has 1 to 3 new articles (all written by me, I am the only writer on this site) published almost daily. In 2017 we crossed ten thousand articles published. As of 2023, EACH article gets MINIMUM 10 to 70 reads PER DAY, with the high traffic articles getting 500+ reads per day.

And since December 2019, my website now gets three hundred thousand to 7 million reads per month - well over ONE HUNDRED MILLION PAGE READS PER YEAR, making it not only the single most trafficked site in the State of Maine, but also one of the most visited websites in ALL OF NEW ENGLAND!

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EelKat on Character Creation

By EelKat Wendy C Allen

Author of Cozy & Gothic Fantasy, Sweet/Fluffy M/M Furry Romance, Cosmic Horror, Space Opera, & Literary SoL genres. I write Elves, Fae, Unicorns, & Demons.

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Hello! I sure hope I'm in the correct place. I've been brainstorming this madness, and I've come to realize I need fresh eyes and a different perspective. I'm what people would call cis or straight. I'm happily married with no children, so that's my very general sexual background for you. It only matters in regards to this pesky main character who deserves a strong voice. She's not exactly anything. 

To begin, this character has never experienced any sort of romantic or sexual feelings for another person (except one - we'll get to that in a moment). She has quite a tragic family life, and that seems to be the heaviest explanation. So far, she's befriended a girl questioning her own sexuality. This girl has a very odd polyamorous (ish) relationship (arrangement?) with another main character who feels she may be more into women than she originally thought. In the scene, my female main protagonist abruptly kisses this girl. She does this mostly to see if she can feel anything. Their conversation piques her interest. She thinks maybe she could try to see if maybe she could feel anything for another girl. 

This scene seems to be a big character moment for this protagonist because she doesn't feel anything. At least she helps the other girl discover that she is indeed not as straight as she thought in the first place. These two aren't terribly close before this, and they don't exactly try to make a relationship out of this moment. This moment is more about the fear within my protagonist that she is broken of sorts. This is a major fear she has. The only person she feels anything for is someone she doesn't think would ever feel the same way, and she uses this to prevent her from exploring her feelings for her best friend (a male).

What exactly is it when you're not exactly attracted to (as a female in this scenario) males and are not attracted to females? She's branched off into other possibilities like demisexual and even asexual. She doesn't exactly fit into any box. 

My very longwinded question seems to come back to this. What exactly is this situation? 

I'm asking genuinely stumped. This character is lost among a lot of things, but for some reason, her (lack) of a sexuality - and at the same time the ability to only be attracted to one specific person - seems to define her in a way I'm not familiar with. Help me please? Hopefully I've ran home with my point. I tend to babble both on and off the Internet. My apologies if something doesn't read right. I'm genuinely stumped and need thoughts!

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Most people with an average sex drive and any moral decency are going to be turned off, repulsed, and grossed out by someone randomly and without warning passionately kissing them.

In fact, only someone with raging hormones and a possible need to be arrested by the police, is going to be aroused by this situation you have described.

Sexual assault, even by a friend, is still sexual assault.

No means no.

What you have described is a sexual assault scene.

It's normal for a person to not become sexually aroused while being sexually assaulted. That DOES NOT make them asexual. It just means they don't like being raped.

Your character's lack of response is normal and does not indicate she is asexual, rather it indicates her attacker to be a sexual pervert and probably also a rapist, considering she sees no reason to ask for permission before touching another person.

While it could be that your character is asexual, her lack of a sexual response while being sexually assaulted by someone she trusted, is not a good indicator scene to tell us she is in fact asexual.

This type of assault is commonly seen in possessive people suffering from Narcissistic Personality Disorder (a type of Sociopathy). They are driven by ego and feel no real love for anyone, using people only to serve a selfish motive.

Your character abruptly kissing another character, without permission, for the purpose of finding out if it sexually arouses her, tells the reader that she is a dangerous, self centered person who uses others and does not care how they feel.

This woman screams: VILLAIN.

There is nothing sensual or arousing about your character.

She sounds like a horrible person, a sexual predator who should have he face smashed in with a brick, over and over again until her brain is completely obliterated, as ANY victim of sexual assault should ALWAYS do t their attacker,  even in real life, especially in real life.

Also, I'm not sure if you even know what polyamorous means as you seem to be using it incorrectly.

An asexual person has no sex drive and does not want to fix it, because they are not attracted to others. A lack of sex drive is caused by hormone imbalance. Someone who is NOT asexual, lacks sex drive, but is attracted to others and will seek out hormone therapy to curse their lack of sex drive.

There are different types of asexual, depending on how the individual feels emotionally towards other people.

There are asexual people who are straight, who are gay, who are lesbian, who are bisexual, and who are pansexual...meaning they are emotionally attracted to a certain gender type.

  • Straight = male+female
  • Gay = male+male
  • Lesbian = female+female
  • Bisexual = physically/sexually attracted to (aroused by) both males and females, though usually sticks with one or the other after trying out both, though not always
  • Pansexual = emotionally/intellectually attracted to the person regardless of that person's gender
  • Polyamorous = in love with more than one person (by personal choice)
  • Polygamous = married to more than one person (often arranged & not by choice, but sometimes by personal choice)
  • An immoral pervert = any person of any sexual orientation who makes uninvited sexual advances towards another person

An asexual person can be any of the above, but have the added aspect that they do not feel sexual arousal and feels no interest in engaging in sexual activities regardless of the gender they are attracted to.

From what you have said, it sounds to me like your character is either demisexual or aromantic.

Depending on how you want the story to progress, you could have your character be either demisexual or aromantic. Both are types of asexual, but have some very stark differences.

A demisexual is an asexual person who feels sexual satisfaction through emotional instead of physical bonds.

They are the opposite of an aromantic person, who is an asexual who feels not emotional or physical bond.

A demisexual has a deep need to love and feel loved.

An aromantic feels love is a useless emotion and a pointless waste of time.

A demisexual has a deep need for a partner to love them.

An aromantic is often seen by others as "robotic" or "having no emotions" because they are usually physically/medically incapable of feeling love for another person. They may or may not want to love someone, but the synapsis in that part of their brain are not firing, so they simply feel not love towards anyone.

A demisexual feels a strong need to marry - to the point that of any sexual orientation, they are the most likely to practice polygamy and have multiple spouses.

An aromantic feels a deep aversion to marriage, often viewing it as a institution meant to trap and enslave them. Most aromantics with never marry.

Of the two a demisexual is more likely to eventually lose their virginity, while most aromantics will remain virgins their entire lives.

Most demisexuals view sex as a way to show their partner they love them, and will engage in sex, often ONLY if their partner is hurt, injured, sad, or otherwise upset, using sex as a way to cheer up their partner and say "See, it's okay, I'm here for you."

Most aromantics view sex as icky, sticky, messy, gross, and repulsive and will avoid it at all costs.

A demisexual needs to feel they are in a long term, stable relationship before they will engage in sex. Often they date their partners a decade or more before getting married and will only engage is sex after marriage, and even than only if their partner initiates it.

Neither demisexuals or aromantics feel strong sexual attraction to anyone, male or female, and both will be turned off by someone kissing them, no matter what gender they find attractive.

Both demisexuals and aromantics usually feel content to remain virgins their entire lives.

Demisexuals have a tendency to be very social and have a strong need to form close bonds with a romantic partner.

Aromantics have a tendency to be loners, not feeling any need to have a partner, companion, or spouse.


...After all of that... every person is different, so no two demisexual people or aromantic people are exactly alike. Thus they may be exactly like this list or nothing like this list, or they may have some parts of the aromantic list and some parts of the demisexual list at the same time.

Keep in mind that this list is just a generalization to help you pinpoint where your character lays, and is not a one size fits all checklist.


*I am demisexual, btw. I have been with my partner since August 1987. He is asexual. While sex is a part of our relationship, it is rare, and the longest we've gone between sex was 13 years. However we have a strong intellectual and emotional bond. Both of us are people who are highly attracted to intelligent people (whereas the average person is attracted to physical beauty). While the average person gains deep satisfaction from physical touch (sex) we gain deep satisfaction from lengthy debates about various scholarly type topics, from religion to politics to current events to to the latest medical news,. People who have seen us interact, often have the first impression that we are fighting or arguing angrily. We do get quite into our discussions often screaming and yelling at each other. But if you were to pay close attention, you also see that neither of us is every angry, both of us are laughing between the yelling, and the entire engagement is intermingles with us holding hands and hugging, all the while. People often also say that of any couple they know, we are the closest, that we seem to be soul mate and have a close knit bond that defies logic. 

We are rarely seen in public without the other, and people are often quick to "call us out" for public displays of affection (meaning walking while holding hands and hugging each other - both of which being things most people consider offensive, but I do not know why.) There is no kissing or sex between us, because find these things to be dull and boring and see them as things that take away from time we could be spending interacting (debating?) together.


And as to the scene you described... if some woman walked up to me and out of the blue kissed me, I'd punch her in the face as an automatic reflex response, before she got close enough to kiss me.

I am someone who has a deep need for my personal space. I have Autism (ACTUAL Autism aka Kanner's Syndrome NOT Aspergers) and keep a 3 foot invisible barrier around me at all times. My partner is the only person ever allowed to step over that line. Anyone else steps that close to me and it triggers an instant anxiety attack meltdown. I will kick them, punch them, bite them, and pull out a machete, as the machete has a 28" blade and is the fastest way to get people to step back out of my space. (Yes, I do carry a machete on me.) I do not take invasions of my personal space lightly, my brain sees any one stepping close to me as an immediate attack and my brain starts going on the defensive.

Someone trying to kiss me in the way your scene describes, would be seen by me as an attempted attack.  So regardless of any gender I liked, that situation would never be seen as romantic or something to cause sexual arousal.

In the Quaraun series, you frequently see scenes exactly like the one you have described, in which Unicorn is making unwanted sexual advances towards Quaraun.

Unicorn has a sex addiction problem. He is also a serial rapist. He frequently sexualy abuses Quaraun and has raped Quaraun multiple times.

Quaraun is asexual and is perfectly content to live his life a virgin. You see a point in the series where Quaraun comes to the realization that Unicorn stops raping random strangers when he's with Quaraun, which is the reason Quaraun eventually submits to being Unicorn's lover.

Unicorn has a very obsessive personality and when he finds someone who can tolerate his often childish behaviour, he becomes obsessed with them, to the point of ignoring all others. In being obsessed with Quaraun, he leaves others alone and is no longer rampantly raping everyone who crosses his path. And it is for this reason which Quaraun, becomes Unicorn's lover.

Their sexualities are polar opposites. Quaraun being asexual is content to live without sex, but being demisexual can tolerate being in a sexual relationship. Unicorn has rampant hormones that keep him wanting sex multiple times a day.

Because he is asexual, Quaraun often finds his relationship with Unicorn overburdensome. Quaraun is also very shy, very introverted, and very submissive. He prefers to avoid confrontations and backs down from a fight. This results in his frequently submitting to Unicorn sexually, when he really doesn't want to and his not saying anything to let Unicorn know this is the case. He also feels he can not talk to Unicorn about this and usually turns to GhoulSpawn instead.

Unicorn is a very dominate person. He hates to be challenged, he doesn't like anyone who disobeys him, and he can become violent when he doesn't get his way. He was a high ranking military officer most of his life and expects people to quickly obey and submit to his every whim.

While Quaraun does love Unicorn, he also feels frustrated and overburdened by him. Unicorn has a big personality. He's very bold, very outgoing, very hyper, very extroverted, and often loud and rude, frequently going out of his way to start fights. Quaraun, who just wants peace and quiet, often feels a need to run away from Unicorn and hide.

GhoulSpawn, is a neutral zone. He's not as flighty and submissive as Quaraun, but not as bold and outgoing as Unicorn. Unicorn gets drunk and violent, resulting in Quaraun become very frightened and running to GhoulSpawn for protection.

Though GhoulSpawn is only a teenager, and Quaraun old enough to be his grandfather, you see GhoulSpawn taking a fatherly stance with Quaraun.

Later in the series, when GhoulSpawn is much older, you see him standing up to Unicorn more and more, and a growing bond between him and Quaraun that has Unicorn feeling very threatened.

All of this eventually leads to Quaraun keeping both Unicorn and GhoulSpawn as his lovers, and over time Unicorn's harsh personality softens quite a bit as he comes to realize, Quaraun's love for GhoulSpawn happened as a result of his own chasing Quaraun away.

You eventually see the three of them, always together, never separated, each of the three caring deeply for the other two. THIS is a polyamorous relationship. Three or more people who love one another BY CHOICE. Polyamorous relationships are not forced or arranged.

When a person is forced into a multi partner relationship such as the one you has described, that is called sexual abuse, specifically known as sex slavery and sex trafficking. It is NOT a polyamorous relationship, it is a type of rape.

If you are wondering I was raised in a Fundamentalist Mormon Polygamist Family (my grandfather had 2 wives, my uncle with the most wives has 5, and my aunt with the most husbands has 8.) There are multiple bi-members of my family, including one of my brothers. Growing up my best friend was a transvestite, and I had 3 other trans friends. As a teen, I was friends with a gay couple, one of whom was a transvestite, both died young, one committing suicide after his partner's death.

These things combined is why my main character, Quaraun, is a Genderfluid Demisexual Bi-sexual Transvestite living in a polygamist relationship with 4 wives and 2 male partners.

A 2021 Update...

Could this be considered "changing a character's sexuality" or "exploring it"?

I am writing a horror based fanfiction and one of the characters happened to be an immortal demon. In my opinion, having that demon sleeping with men and women is not changing his sexuality. But then, he could be asexual, but it was just never directly addressed... If all he did was fighting and doing evil deeds, it is hard to know what his sexuality was.

Anyway, my point is that, he was there since at least the Middle Ages and is a demon, and he never said out loud "oh, sex is such a distracting pleasure!" or something like that. He probably at least experienced once in a while during all these centuries... Also, having him playing for both teams would help my story going forward.

What's your opinion on it? Is it okay to have an immortal demon being pansexual when his sexuality was never addressed before?

Isn't the point of 90% of fanfic getting characters the author likes to be romantically involved? Since fanfic is for personal enjoyment, do what pleases you. Especially if there's nothing in the text directing you one way or the other (I have a character in one of my stories who, to me, is asexual, but I'd hardly squawk if a fanfic author made something with him dating, since in that particular book it isn't touched on. Fanfic, by definition, doesn't need to take authorial intent into consideration.

Neither of you knows what asexual is.

People who are not asexual and are not willing to do the research to find out what asexual even is, shouldn't be writing asexual characters, fanfiction or otherwise.

>>>sleeping with men and women is not changing his sexuality. But then, he could be asexual, ... he never said out loud "oh, sex is such a distracting pleasure!" 

An asexual would not say this, an asexual finds no pleasure in sex, quite the contrary most real world asexuals are childhood rape victims with have massive phobias of sex caused by sexual abuse and sex related trauma. Sex has no pleasure for an asexual person.

An asexual person finds sex repulsive.

An asexual person vomits at the very thought of sex.

>>>is asexual, but I'd hardly squawk if a fanfic author made something with him dating

asexual people date, fall in love, and get married, they can be straight, gay, bi, and even polygamous ... they just don't enjoy sex, refuse to have sex, find sex disgusting/revolting, get no pleasure out of sex, and/or don't become sexually aroused. Many, though not all, are victims of child sex abuse or were raped as a small child/toddler - usually under 8 years old - and developed a raging PTSD phobia of sex Some remain virgins their whole lives and are known as "true asexuals", while others will have sex with their spouse/partner at their spouse/partner's request to satisfy their partner's needs but get no pleasure out of it themselves, and are known as "demi-sexual asexuals" because they WILL have sex, but very, very, rarely and not out of any sexual desires of their own.

- source: I am asexual, raped as a small child by many, many, many men because my uncle though selling 4 years old to priests for sex was a good way to make money, I suffer from server PTSD that is triggered by pretty much everything referencing sex and as such I can't read things like Erotica without it trigger major panic attacks - in short, while sex triggers pleasure sensors in most people, it triggers massive fight or flight fear sensors in me, but that doesn't mean I don't fall in love, go on dates, and have been with a man for 37 years who is also asexual, we love each other very much but sex isn't part of our relationship.

That said, I do agree that:

>>>Isn't the point of 90% of fanfic getting characters the author likes to be romantically involved?

So I think it's just a given that a fanfic writer is going to change characters to suit their own like and dislikes, including if they want a straight character to be gay or bi or poly or whatever.

>>>Since fanfic is for personal enjoyment, do what pleases you. 

Seeing how it's fanfiction, I agree. Just write it whatever way you like. I don't think it would bother me if a fanfic writer changed a character's sexuality.

But you shouldn't be writing a sexuality you know nothing about.

By writing a sexuality you know nothing about you only help to promote phobias and harassment of that sexuality.

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What did you do today to step closer to that goal?
Whatever you do, be your best at it!
And remember to have yourself a great and wonderfully glorious day!


By EelKat Wendy C Allen

Eye of the GrigoriIf you ever made fun of or had any part in the destruction of my farm, and the illegal selling of half of my land to Colliard, you shall lose your land.
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If you ever made fun of or had any part in the murder of my son, your child shall die an equally horrible death.

Evil men go out of their way to try to drive a person to suicide.

Are you an evil man?

Are you sure you're not?

How many people have YOUR hate filled words killed?

Next time you go to do a mean thing to a fellow human, stop and really think about the consequences of your actions.

Did you ever notice how every one has a story to tell about me, yet not one of them ever speaks the truth?

What lies has YOUR gossiping tongue spread about me?

Did you know...

October 16, 2006, bomb blew up my house because of YOUR lies.

August 8, 2013, the house which replaced the one the bomb blew up, was driven over by a backhoe.

November 14, 2013, my 8 month old infant son was murdered because of your lies.

November 14, 2013, I was beaten up, paralized for 5 months, spent 18 weeks relearning to walk, I'm now crippled for the rest of my life, because of YOUR lies.

Are you proud of what you have done?

Enjoy your eternity in Hell. You earned it. You've certainly worked hard for it.


If you have any information about any of these events, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322