EelKat Wendy C Allen - Dark Fantasy Author

UPDATE March 17, 2021: Another death. Waiting for a coffin to be delivered. Funeral the 21st. Unlikely to be streaming for a few weeks.


Update: March 27, 2021: It's not even been a week since the funeral, and now there is another death and another funeral.


UPDATE April 5, 2021: There are still no streams, as, we've now a another (a 3rd) funeral to prepare for.

And that is now 3 deaths in our family, in the past 2 weeks.

This 3rd death hits hard, because it was Pippi.

Our family has now had 13 deaths since March 2020.

April 10, 2015, 12 children were kidnapped.

May 15, 2015, the heads of 10 of them were nailed to my door.

August 24, 2020, one was found still alive. he was just 4 years old when she was kidnapped, but she remembered us, even though 5 years had passed.

August 25, 2020, Pippi came home, but her condition was not well. She had been tortured the entirety of the 5 years she had been held hostage. She was missing limbs and covered with scars, had broken bones many years not set, and suffered serious damage to many of her internal organs. That she was alive at all, in her condition, was a miracle. Doctors had little hope of her survival and she was sent home with Hospice care.

Pippi had cancer in her eye and needed surgery for it, which she was scheduled to have, shortly before she was kidnapped.

In the years they had her, not only did they torture her, but her cancer went untreated and spread to her brain.

By the time she was returned to us, her cancer had reached an inoperable state, so we knew she did not have much time left.

Had her cancer been treated, back when she was a toddler, she probably would have reach adulthood.

She died only 8 months after her return.

Another child, to cry out from the grave, for Etiole's vengeance upon her murderers. Another victim of evil men, who will stoop to no ends, to bury the crimes they committed 50 years ago.  Drug lords. Opium growers. Heroine dealers. Selling little girls 4 to 8 years old for sex to priests. They only care about money.

All hail the mighty tourist ass. Millions come to Old Orchard Beach every year, for one thing and one thing only: heroine. They sell their drugs to the tourists under the pier and off the balconies of that giant motel. Than drag little girls to the bedrooms of the condominiums on Smithwheel Road, behind the school. And any child who dares open their mouth and beg for help, gets tossed in the GooseFare Brooke Ravine.

Bastard drug lords. They've been doing this for 50 years, and the town hall and the police department, turn a blind eye to it, because they get paid $6million a year to not report it to the newspapers, when the body of another child washes down the ravine, into the gulley to be spit out in the ocean. No fewer than 5 bodies are found every summer, but how often does it get in the news?

The corruption of this fucking town needs to end.

Yet another dead at the hands of these criminals who run our town.

How long will the residents continue to turn a blind eye to what is happening in our town.

How many more children will you let them kill, before you stand up to them?

Another child is dead and no one in this town cares. So long as they get their money from the tourists. The blood of another murdered child screams from the graves, begging for justice. Tick tock, tick tock, so begins, yet another of Etiole's 7 year clocks.

This is why there were no/to few streams from May 2020 until now.

May 2020, after 4 years of not hearing from them at all, the FBI returned with a lead, which led to Pip's discovery a few weeks later in August.

Because of the nature of the situation, I could not talk about it, to tell you why streams had stopped.

The kidnappers, were enraged that we had recovered Pip, and that is when the attacks started up again on my home and family September 2020.

Pip's condition continued to grow worse, and she died April 5, 2021.

She was only 10 years old.

This is what it means, to not be white in America.

White men, won't even give a child the chance to grow up.

This is what white people do, to none white families like mine.

We are Gypsies with Jewish blood, for that alone we are hunted like animals.

What the men of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, did to my family, will never be forgotten or forgiven.

#If you have any information on the kidnappers or the murders...

#FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

Have you forgot the extent of the damage these people did, all because, they wanted to dig up my land and removed bodies buried there, before my house builders found that barrel of bones?

Have you forgotten that 7 town hall workers, 5 public works men, a blond woman, her bald son, and her red haired sister Kendra, and 14 police officers, all lead by a man they referred to as "Mark who needs no last name" were the ones 

I name every one of them, except for the ring leaders: blond woman, her bald son, her sister Kendra, and her husband "Mark who needs no last name". I don't know who those 4 are. I'd never seen any of them, other than the Kendra woman before, and I only knew her fro her attacks beating me up at Panera in 2009, 2010, and 2013.

I can name every one of the others, because all I have to do is go to the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police department website, and their are their faces.

With the exception of blond woman, her bald son, her sister Kendra, and her husband "Mark who needs no last name", every one else involved was government official who works for the state of Maine vis the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall, the Old Orchard Beach Police Department, or the Old Orchard Beach Public Works.

And what exactly did they do?

August 8, 2013 they drove a backhoe over my house. That same backhoe drove over my previous house on the same land April 2007. That same backhoe drove over my poultry barn and horse stables July 2001. July 2001 was the first attack.

March 2015 was the the massive attack, with an entire fleet of trucks, and drove over the Church of the Holy Rhinstone, a church that stood on my land, my garage which is why I no longer have a garage to put my car in, my 2 sheds both of which had my tractors and other garden/crop machinery in them at the time. And of course the razing of the land, the cutting down of the apple orchard - the VERY apple orchard planted in 1530 that this town was named after... he actual "old orchard" of Old Orchard Beach... the very original trees - huge massive apple trees over 400 years old. The grape vineyards, the cherry trees, the pears trees. 

April 10, 2015, they returned, 4 police officer held me a gun point, while 10 other police officers held my children down with long poles with metal wire strangle loops on the end, and beat their faces in with cinder block bricks, knocking out every one of their teeth, breaking their jaws... POLICE OFFICERS DID THAT... while men they referred to as "Mark who needs no last name" and "Dan" stood there and told the police officers what to do, how to beat them, while "Mark who needs no last name" boldly bragged that he paid the Old Orchard Beach police $6million dollars to do this.

May 15, 2015... the heads, hands, feet, and intestines of my children were nailed to my door. Later that same day police officer W. W. came to my home begging for forgiveness and claimed that men he referred to only as "Mark and Dan" were holding his beloved mother-in-law hostage and torturing her, and he helped in the April 10, 2015 attack, only to save her life and get her back. He claimed he had no prior knowledge of what was going to happen, claiming that he'd been told they were only going to "scare" us. He said he had not expected anyone to get hurt, he had not known my children would be tortured and kidnapped, he had not known they were going to be murdered. He said he was scared for his life and lives of his family. And he said: "They form a small army, our department doesn't have enough man power to stop them, and every one in this town is too scared to fight back. You don't know what's going on. And I think they mixed you up with someone else. They didn't know you were the owner of this land. They didn't know that was your motorhome. They thought someone else owned this place. It wasn't even your family they were after. You were the wrong target. You don't know who these people are. What they've done to our families. This is the actual Mafia. The real deal. I'm so sorry. This is the address they sent us to. But they had a different name as the owner. This wasn't supposed to happen. They were after someone else. I'm so sorry. I couldn't let my family died. And now yours is dead instead. This wasn't supposed to happen."

June 19, 2016... I did a very specific livestream. You see... A., D., B., and T. in the 1970s and 1980s, were in the habit of dragging big black trash bags into the forest, crossing my land to do it, and dumping those bags into the Goosefare Brook Ravine. In 1983, 3 snuck into Etiole's swamp and planted 3 acres of Marijuana. Someone found it and called the police, I don't know who... it was Maine's largest drug raid for decades. Many, many millions in plants where dug up and removed from Etiole's swamp. A few weeks later A, & D,s 10 year old daughter ran into my yard, touched my car on a dare from other children - the 1964 Dodge 330 former Old Orchard Beach police car, known by Stephen King fans as the REAL Christine, The World's Most Haunted Car... than jumped her bike, and sped down the road, as fast as she could, head on into a car coming the other way. She died instantly, he brain shattered all over the end of my driveway, and her mother A responded by the Battle of 458 - the biggest mass shooting ever in Maine history, that ended up with 3 Gypsy clans and 2 police departments, in a shoot out between 70+ adults all armed with guns. One of my cousins, an 8 year old boy, standing 3 feet from me, had his eye shot out by one of the bullets. While A ran around the street screaming: "FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shot another child. 

"FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shoot another child. 

"FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shoot another child. 

THOSE are the 31 children, whose bones were sawed up and tossed into the GooseFare Brook Ravine... yes, that DOES mean, police officers KNEW those children were there and covered it up.  And I witnessed that entire event.

And THAT is WHY... when police officers murdered my family in 2015, I did a livestream, walking to the ravine, to show the world, where those bones were... because I'm sick and tired of the police corruption in this fucking town, and those sawed up bones of 31 children are PROOF of what this town government is like.... as are the heads of my children that were nailed to my door.

At the end of The Battle of 4-5-8... A. took 2 gas cans and poured them all over the big dome house, than set a match to it, and no one knew, why when she did her brother B., started running, jumped in his robin egg blue truck and backed down the driveway, hit Portland Ave doing 70 and didn't stop driving until the high speed chase caught him in CT... oh but we knew before he was out of sight, why he started running... the dome house went up like Hiroshima into a mushroom cloud that could be seen across the entire state... turns out there was a Meth lab in that house.

June 19, 2016... the livestream of the bones went viral, it's what made my YouTube channel suddenly explode overnight... and police officer W.W. upset, by the fact that, the livestream included the entire police call and response, and that response was to laugh and do nothing... fed up with the corruption in his department, he forwarded that livestream VOD to the FBI, and the FBI arrived in Old Orchard Beach, to dig up the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, and all hell broke lose in this town, as most of the police officers suddenly found themselves arrested. An entire new police force from out of state was brought in to replace the long time officers who had proven they could be trusted to uphold the law. Many town hall officials and public works employees also found themselves arrested by the FBI.

June 26, 2016... barely a week later... the blond woman and the red haired Kendra woman showed up at my workplace, Scarborough WalMart, and tried to kill me, yet again... these are the same 2 woman who attacked me with golf clubs at Southern Maine Community College November 14, 2013... they left dead in 2013, I was paralized for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk. I was out of the wheel chair, and I was without a walker, I was without a cane. I had almost fully covered from their November 14, 2013 attack with golf clubs... June 26, 2016, this time they attacked with shopping carts, and I'm now crippled for the rest of my life. They shattered 3 vertebra this time and it can't be operated on. I had to relearn to walk a second time, and I'm not yet recovered now in 2021. In 2013 they drove away in the 4 door white pickup truck. In 2016 they drove away in a gold Volvo SUV station wagon.

That blond woman and her red haired Kendra sister, they are wanted by the FBI for attempted murder of me and they are also wanted in questioning for being suspected of also being the murderers of my children.

I don't know who these 2 women are.

The blond woman shows up my driveway frequently, screaming and yelling, sometime accompanied by a small child, about 5 years old, that she pulls behind her in a red radio flyer wagon. She looks to be about 60 or 70. She often wears a denim button down shirt and jeans. She's prone to yelling at passing cars, while pointing up my driveway, and saying: "There's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband."

I've never tried to kill anyone, so accusation is baffling at best.

She seems to think I know who she is, and has made the claim, that "I was that brat in school"... the red haired Kendra woman, sometimes with her, claims to be her sister, also appears to be 60 to 70 and also seems to think I know who she is, and frequently says: "You bullied me in school, but no more, I'm Kendra SilverMander it's my turn to shine."

They BOTH make the claim they went to school with me, and yet, I never went to school, a well documented fact... because I'm the child the FBI rescued what the news media called "Maine's House of Horrors". I was locked in a cage when I was 8 years old. I was let out on Sundays, to go to church, and not allowed to speak or make eye contact with anyone, and this was only done infrequently, whenever church goers asked what happened to that girl you had". I was 31 years old when the FBI arrived, because of Heaven's Gate having killed 39 people, and my uncle being one of the members and self proclaiming himself as the leader of Heaven's Gate after Applewhite's death. The FBI was investigating the murder of 39 people in California, and had no idea they'd find children in cages in Maine as a result.

So you see, when the blond woman and her Kendra sister, make the claim they went to school with me and I was the class bully who beat them up, this is easily proven false, because the time period when I should have been in school, I was locked in a cage, being tortured by my sadistic uncle Bruce.

Also, they are in their late 60s to mid 70s... making them older than my parents, so how could I have been in school with them, even if I had gone to school? At best I would have been starting pre-school the year they would have been graduating high school.

These things they say about school, only further agrees with what police officer W. W. said May 15, 2015, when he made the claim, they had gotten me mixed up with someone else.

July 2016, a month after the shopping cart attack... yet another Old Orchard Beach police officer arrived, this one accompanied by 2 Biddeford officers, who had been former OOB officers... these 3 officers, had a vastly eye opening story to tell me.

They had been called to Old Orchard Beach, to my farm, to arrest me, a call made to them, by a man named Mark, whom one of these officers, claimed was his brother in law. This Biddeford officer, said he requested to transfer ot of Old Orchard Beach department years ago, because his sister (whom he claimed he suspected, but could not prove was the blond woman whom had attacked me at WalMart) was quote "trying to control the town" he said "treats Old Orchard Beach like a dynasty, thinks she's a duchess, has severe mental disorders, and thought she could buy the police department". He went on to say, she got in with the real Mafia years ago and went to her head, and now she thinks she IS the Mafia and most of Old Orchard Beach's business owners, especially the motel owners are scared shitless of her, because they believe her claim to be Mafia. He went on to say, she's not Mafia, but she's good at convincing people she is and stated "I wouldn't murder beyond her. She'd do it just to prove she is Mafia." He said he transferred out of OOB department to Biddeford department because he was fed up with how easy it was for her to get every officer to do anything she asked. He said "the corruption in that department runs deep; don't cross her or any officer she controls; they WILL kill you and every around you. You don't know who her husband is. He doesn't just control that town, he controls half the state."

What he was telling me was bizarre on extremes, but even more bizarre was the live feed radio call, that he had me listen too, as it was happening, on my farm in Old Orchard, while I was at my dad's house in Biddeford.

He said: "The Old Orchard Department called me, asked me to come over here. Buddy Will wanted to prove you were not in Old Orchard and that Mark has you mixed up with someone else. That fucking bastard is crying wolf and trying to frame you, we can prove it right now. We are fucking fed up WolfBoy."

He turned on his radio, so I could hear. A what I heard... a man whose voice I do not recognize, yelling at a Officer W.W. and saying: 

"That is Wendy, arrest her now! That is EelKat. She tried to kill me."

While officer W.W. and another officer, told the man: "his isn't Wendy. We have officers with her right now. Who tried to kill you? Wendy? Or THIS woman right here?"

"This woman right here! This is EelKat I tell you! Arrest her! What do you think I pay you for! You aren't allow to defy me! I own this town! You are my slaves. I command you to arrest her!"

W.W.: "This isn't EelKat. This isn't Wendy. I've known her for years. And right now, she's on the other side of the state. With 3 officers, listening to you right now. You are NOT the law. We've had it with you. You don't own me. And you've mixed her up with someone else. You've been harassing the wrong damned person. You dare call us about Wendy ever again, and I will personally arrest you for false reports, than I'll tell them everything. You'll never see the outside a prison for the rest of your life when I get done with you. You fucking leave this woman alone. You destroyed her life, because you couldn't tell her apart from someone else."

I used to aqua jog, mountain climb, horseback riding, and I hiked 13 miles a day. And in the blink of an eye, that lifestyle was taken away, and every day was struggle, just to sit up and breath, with no hope of ever walking again. I defied doctors. It's been 8 years and I can move around the house by holding on to things and I now can walk again, at the moment only short distances outside with a cane, and the hope is to continue to improve. I still have a long road of recovery ahead. But I'm walking again, something that 8 years ago, doctors said would never happen. 

My farm was razed.

My family was murdered.

I was 5 months paralysed, and had to relearn to walk. It was 8 years ago and I'm not yet fully recovered due to 3 inoperable vertebrae and hip dysplasia. November 14, 2013, 10PM, at WalMart, while putting bags of groceries in the back seat of my car, I was attacked by 3 rapists armed with metal golf clubs, who left me parallelized, in a wheel chair, broken spine, broken hip, broken pelvis, broken knees, serve nerve damage to my left side limiting the use of my left hand, my bladder incontinent from nerve damage, they left me for dead, and I had doctors telling me I would never walk again.

There's more that has happened. A lot more. The thousands of gallons of sewage they pumped into my motorhome in 2015. The cats. the Ptarmagin cats. World famous groups of cats. You remember them. If so, you remember what these people did to those cats. Poisoned. All dead the same day. 12 cats. Dead to what the vet described as: "enough poison to kill a great dane". My horse, she had her head beat in with a rock. My bantam roosters... 70 pet roosters, hung by their necks in rope nooses in my rose bushes.

All because this man, this mystery Mark, whose last name seems to be known to the police but is still unknown to me and man whom I've never seen or met - he keeps his face covered whenever he shows up... mistook me for someone else... and police officers and town hall workers and public work employees.

Welcome to Old Orchard Beach... this is NOT the way life should be, you know it.

What these people did to me, should never have happened, and according to the police, it's been happening for 50+ years to hundreds of people, hundreds of families, in this town, and every one is too scare to talk about it or fight back to stop it. That NEEDS to change.

The corruption in our town, needs to stop... but it won't end, until every last person who is being harassed by these people stand up, put their foot down, and say enough is enough, we ain't gonna take this any more.

We the people of Old Orchard Beach need to take back our town.

NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

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Hello! I sure hope I'm in the correct place. I've been brainstorming this madness, and I've come to realize I need fresh eyes and a different perspective. I'm what people would call cis or straight. I'm happily married with no children, so that's my very general sexual background for you. It only matters in regards to this pesky main character who deserves a strong voice. She's not exactly anything. 

To begin, this character has never experienced any sort of romantic or sexual feelings for another person (except one - we'll get to that in a moment). She has quite a tragic family life, and that seems to be the heaviest explanation. So far, she's befriended a girl questioning her own sexuality. This girl has a very odd polyamorous (ish) relationship (arrangement?) with another main character who feels she may be more into women than she originally thought. In the scene, my female main protagonist abruptly kisses this girl. She does this mostly to see if she can feel anything. Their conversation piques her interest. She thinks maybe she could try to see if maybe she could feel anything for another girl. 

This scene seems to be a big character moment for this protagonist because she doesn't feel anything. At least she helps the other girl discover that she is indeed not as straight as she thought in the first place. These two aren't terribly close before this, and they don't exactly try to make a relationship out of this moment. This moment is more about the fear within my protagonist that she is broken of sorts. This is a major fear she has. The only person she feels anything for is someone she doesn't think would ever feel the same way, and she uses this to prevent her from exploring her feelings for her best friend (a male).

What exactly is it when you're not exactly attracted to (as a female in this scenario) males and are not attracted to females? She's branched off into other possibilities like demisexual and even asexual. She doesn't exactly fit into any box. 

My very longwinded question seems to come back to this. What exactly is this situation? 

I'm asking genuinely stumped. This character is lost among a lot of things, but for some reason, her (lack) of a sexuality - and at the same time the ability to only be attracted to one specific person - seems to define her in a way I'm not familiar with. Help me please? Hopefully I've ran home with my point. I tend to babble both on and off the Internet. My apologies if something doesn't read right. I'm genuinely stumped and need thoughts!

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Most people with an average sex drive and any moral decency are going to be turned off, repulsed, and grossed out by someone randomly and without warning passionately kissing them.

In fact, only someone with raging hormones and a possible need to be arrested by the police, is going to be aroused by this situation you have described.

Sexual assult, even by a friend, is still sexual assult.

What you have described is a sexual assault scene.

It's normal for a person to not become sexually aroused while being sexually assaulted.

Your character's lack of response is normal and does not indicate she is asexual, rather it indicates her attacker to be a sexual pervert and probably also a rapist, considering she sees no reason to ask for permission before touching another person.

While it could be that your character is asexual, her lack of a sexual response while being sexually assaulted by someone she trusted, is not a good indicator scene to tell us she is in fact asexual.

This type of assault is commonly seen in possessive people suffering from Narcissistic Personality Disorder (a type of Sociopathy). They are driven by ego and feel no real love for anyone, using people only to serve a selfish motive. Your character abruptly kissing another character, without permission, for the purpose of finding out if it sexualy arouses her, tells the reader that she is a dangerous, self centered person who uses others and does not care how they feel. This woman screams: VILLAIN.

Also, I'm not sure if you even know what polyamorous means as you seem to be using it incorrectly.

An asexual person has no sex drive and does not want to fix it, because they are not attracted to others. A lack of sex drive is caused by hormone imbalance. Someone who is NOT asexual, lacks sex drive, but is attracted to others and will seek out hormone therapy to curse their lack of sex drive.

There are different types of asexual, depending on how the individual feels emotionally towards other people.

There are asexual people who are straight, who are gay, who are lesbian, who are bisexual, and who are pansexual...meaning they are emotionally attracted to a certain gender type.

  • Straight = male+female
  • Gay = male+male
  • Lesbian = female+female
  • Bisexual = physically/sexually attracted to (aroused by) both males and females
  • Pansexual = emotionally/intellectually attracted to the person regardless of that person's gender
  • Polyamorous = in love with more than one person (by personal choice)
  • Polygamous = married to more than one person (often arranged & not by choice)
  • An immoral pervert = any person of any sexual orientation who makes uninvited sexual advances towards another person

An asexual person can be any of the above, but have the added aspect that they do not feel sexual arousal and feels no interest in engaging in sexual activities regardless of the gender they are attracted to.

From what you have said, it sounds to me like your character is either demisexual or aromantic.

Depending on how you want the story to progress, you could have your character be either demisexual or aromantic. Both are types of asexual, but have some very stark differences.

A demisexual is an asexual person who feels sexual satisfaction through emotional instead of physical bonds.

They are the opposite of an aromantic person, who is an asexual who feels not emotional or physical bond.

A demisexual has a deep need to love and feel loved.

An aromantic feels love is a useless emotion and a pointless waste of time.

A demisexual has a deep need for a partner to love them.

An aromantic is often seen by others as "robotic" or "having no emotions" because they are usually physically/medically incapable of feeling love for another person. They may or may not want to love someone, but the synapsis in that part of their brain are not firing, so they simply feel not love towards anyone.

A demisexual feels a strong need to marry - to the point that of any sexual orientation, they are the most likely to practice polygamy and have multiple spouses.

An aromantic feels a deep aversion to marriage, often viewing it as a institution meant to trap and enslave them. Most aromantics with never marry.

Of the two a demisexual is more likely to eventually lose their virginity, while most aromantics will remain virgins their entire lives.

Most demisexuals view sex as a way to show their partner they love them, and will engage in sex, often ONLY if their partner is hurt, injured, sad, or otherwise upset, using sex as a way to cheer up their partner and say "See, it's okay, I'm here for you."

Most aromantics view sex as icky, sticky, messy, gross, and repulsive and will avoid it at all costs.

A demisexual needs to feel they are in a long term, stable relationship before they will engage in sex. Often they date their partners a decade or more before getting married and will only engage is sex after marriage, and even than only if their partner initiates it.

Neither demisexuals or aromantics feel strong sexual attraction to anyone, male or female, and both will be turned off by someone kissing them, no matter what gender they find attractive.

Both demisexuals and aromantics usually feel content to remain virgins their entire lives.

Demisexuals have a tendency to be very social and have a strong need to form close bonds with a romantic partner.

Aromantics have a tendency to be loners, not feeling any need to have a partner, companion, or spouse.


...After all of that... every person is different, so no two demisexual people or aromantic people are exactly alike. Thus they may be exactly like this list or nothing like this list, or they may have some parts of the aromantic list and some parts of the demisexual list at the same time.

Keep in mind that this list is just a generalization to help you pinpoint where your character lays, and is not a one size fits all checklist.


*I am demisexual, btw. I have been with my partner since August 1987. He is asexual. While sex is a part of our relationship, it is rare, and the longest we've gone between sex was 13 years. However we have a strong intellectual and emotional bond. Both of us are people who are highly attracted to intelligent people (whereas the average person is attracted to physical beauty). While the average person gains deep satisfaction from physical touch (sex) we gain deep satisfaction from lengthy debates about various scholarly type topics, from religion to politics to current events to to the latest medical news,. People who have seen us interact, often have the first impression that we are fighting or arguing angrily. We do get quite into our discussions often screaming and yelling at each other. But if you were to pay close attention, you also see that neither of us is every angry, both of us are laughing between the yelling, and the entire engagement is intermingles with us holding hands and hugging, all the while. People often also say that of any couple they know, we are the closest, that we seem to be soul mate and have a close knit bond that defies logic. 

We are rarely seen in public without the other, and people are often quick to "call us out" for public displays of affection (meaning walking while holding hands and hugging each other - both of which being things most people consider offensive, but I do not know why.) There is no kissing or sex between us, because find these things to be dull and boring and see them as things that take away from time we could be spending interacting (debating?) together.


And as to the scene you described... if some woman walked up to me and out of the blue kissed me, I'd punch her in the face as an automatic reflex response, before she got close enough to kiss me.

I am someone who has a deep need for my personal space. I have Autism (ACTUAL Autism aka Kanner's Syndrome NOT Aspergers) and keep a 3 foot invisible barrier around me at all times. My partner is the only person ever allowed to step over that line. Anyone else steps that close to me and it triggers an instant anxiety attack meltdown. I will kick them, punch them, bite them, and pull out a machete, as the machete has a 28" blade and is the fastest way to get people to step back out of my space. (Yes, I do carry a machete on me.) I do not take invasions of my personal space lightly, my brain sees any one stepping close to me as an immediate attack and my brain starts going on the defensive.

Someone trying to kiss me in the way your scene describes, would be seen by me as an attempted attack.  So regardless of any gender I liked, that situation would never be seen as romantic or something to cause sexual arousal.

In the Quaraun series, you frequently see scenes exactly like the one you have described, in which Unicorn is making unwanted sexual advances towards Quaraun.

Unicorn has a sex addiction problem. He is also a serial rapist. He frequently sexualy abuses Quaraun and has raped Quaraun multiple times.

Quaraun is asexual and is perfectly content to live his life a virgin. You see a point in the series where Quaraun comes to the realization that Unicorn stops raping random strangers when he's with Quaraun, which is the reason Quaraun eventually submits to being Unicorn's lover.

Unicorn has a very obsessive personality and when he finds someone who can tolerate his often childish behaviour, he becomes obsessed with them, to the point of ignoring all others. In being obsessed with Quaraun, he leaves others alone and is no longer rampantly raping everyone who crosses his path. And it is for this reason which Quaraun, becomes Unicorn's lover.

Their sexualities are polar opposites. Quaraun being asexual is content to live without sex, but being demisexual can tolerate being in a sexual relationship. Unicorn has rampant hormones that keep him wanting sex multiple times a day.

Because he is asexual, Quaraun often finds his relationship with Unicorn overburdensome. Quaraun is also very shy, very introverted, and very submissive. He prefers to avoid confrontations and backs down from a fight. This results in his frequently submitting to Unicorn sexually, when he really doesn't want to and his not saying anything to let Unicorn know this is the case. He also feels he can not talk to Unicorn about this and usually turns to GhoulSpawn instead.

Unicorn is a very dominate person. He hates to be challenged, he doesn't like anyone who disobeys him, and he can become violent when he doesn't get his way. He was a high ranking military officer most of his life and expects people to quickly obey and submit to his every whim.

While Quaraun does love Unicorn, he also feels frustrated and overburdened by him. Unicorn has a big personality. He's very bold, very outgoing, very hyper, very extroverted, and often loud and rude, frequently going out of his way to start fights. Quaraun, who just wants peace and quiet, often feels a need to run away from Unicorn and hide.

GhoulSpawn, is a neutral zone. He's not as flighty and submissive as Quaraun, but not as bold and outgoing as Unicorn. Unicorn gets drunk and violent, resulting in Quaraun become very frightened and running to GhoulSpawn for protection.

Though GhoulSpawn is only a teenager, and Quaraun old enough to be his grandfather, you see GhoulSpawn taking a fatherly stance with Quaraun.

Later in the series, when GhoulSpawn is much older, you see him standing up to Unicorn more and more, and a growing bond between him and Quaraun that has Unicorn feeling very threatened.

All of this eventually leads to Quaraun keeping both Unicorn and GhoulSpawn as his lovers, and over time Unicorn's harsh personality softens quite a bit as he comes to realize, Quaraun's love for GhoulSpawn happened as a result of his own chasing Quaraun away.

You eventually see the three of them, always together, never separated, each of the three caring deeply for the other two. THIS is a polyamorous relationship. Three or more people who love one another BY CHOICE. Polyamorous relationships are not forced or arranged.

When a person is forced into a multi partner relationship such as the one you has described, that is called sexual abuse, specifically known as sex slavery and sex trafficking. It is NOT a polyamorous relationship, it is a type of rape.

If you are wondering what I am...  I am Transgender/GenderFluid & Demisexual and have identified as such since February 1987, so 2017 is my "official" 30th Anniversary of "being" transgender. I was raised in a Fundamentalist Mormon Polygamist Family (my grandfather had 2 wives, my uncle with the most wives has 5, and my aunt with the most husbands has 8.) There are multiple bi-members of my family, including one of my brothers. Growing up my best friend was a transvestite, and I had 3 other trans friends. As a teen, I was friends with a gay couple, one of whom was a transvestite, both died young, one after fallen ill, the other committing suicide weeks after his partner's death.

These things combined is why my main character, Quaraun, is also a Genderfluid Demisexual Bi-sexual Transvestite living in a polygamist relationship with 4 wives and 2 male partners.

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