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FAQ: What are the most visited pages on this website and how many visits do they get?
Several years ago, I wrote an article on how to write different types of magic uses, or rather how I personally write various types of magic users within the context of my Quaraun books. Today that page is one of my top ten most visited articles. It gets 50 to 500 views/reads/hits/visits per day depending on the time of the years and has had over 200k visits total since it was published.
Amphibious Aliens: Debunking The Atwater Family's Alien Abduction Hoax with more then 30MILLION reads since 2007 and The GoldenEagle: Debunking Stephen King's World's Most Haunted Car Hoax with over tenMILLION reads since 2007 still rank as the two most visited articles on my website, but, neither of those are writing related.
Writing Medieval Servants is my most visited writing related article with over 7MILLION reads.
The most requested, but apparently not so easy to find writing article is EelKat's Park Bench Method To Writing (you have to scroll half way down the page to find it. It's after the list of writing prompts). The name of the page is NOT "EelKat's Park Bench Method of Writing" which is why you guys have so much trouble finding it, LOL!)
This website was started in 1996 and has 1 to 3 new articles (all written by me, I am the only writer on this site) published almost daily. In 2017 we crossed ten thousand articles published. As of 2023, EACH article gets MINIMUM 10 to 70 reads PER DAY, with the high traffic articles getting 500+ reads per day.
And since December 2019, my website now gets three hundred thousand to 7 million reads per month - well over ONE HUNDRED MILLION PAGE READS PER YEAR, making it not only the single most trafficked site in the State of Maine, but also one of the most visited websites in ALL OF NEW ENGLAND!
{{{HUGS}}} Thank you to all my readers for making this possible!
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EelKat Wendy C Allen as Quaraun the Insane
So, 3 days ago (back on July 5, 2017; it is now July 8, 2017) when I first started writing this thing, back on Page 1 of this article that got very long an has now passed 50,000 words making it officially what NaNoWriMo considered to be a novel length work...
Back then, 3 days ago, I put a list on the page and at the end of the list said:
How does Quaraun compare to those facts about Autism? As this page has gotten too long already and has already had to be cut into multiple pages, I'm going to answer that question on a new page, which I will link here once it is completed.
... and so, that is the focus of this section of this now very long, multi page article.
If you have not read the previous articles...
If you've never read the Quaraun series, some things you should probably be aware of when reading the novel excerpts found on this page:
So, on with our article...
Back on Page 1, I had created the list, which is now copied and pasted below. On the previous page it was just a list of facts. Here on this page however, I will now take each of these facts, and underneath each one, compare that fact to Quaraun, his character, his personality, his lifestyle, his symptoms, his reactions to the world around him, and his back story, so see how well, this fictional Autistic character matches up to actual real world Autism.
Each fact from the list will be shown here bolded, the text block following it will be the comparison of the fact to Quaraun's character.
And so, I give you the list...
*sigh*
So... I'm adding this little side bar here, because I just been here writing for 2 hours straight... then BOOM! My computer decides:
"Hey, guess what! Windows 10 here, it's time to update and restart your computer without telling you we're going to update, and we're also going to be nice and wonderfully considerate by not giving you any chance to save your work before we turn your computer off and restart it without warning you, Ha ha! Oh by the way, I know you changed the settings to not allow automatic updates, but we realize you didn't really mean that, so we are over-riding that setting for this update, because it's soooo damned important. ~ Love from Microsoft! Thank you for using Windows10, enjoy your utterly useless update to a feature you never even use!"
So... I now I have to go rewrite everything I just wrote, because now that the computer has come back on, I find that more then half what I wrote wasn't saved, because autosave wasn't turned on.
One of the many joys of being an author. Yay!
And then people wonder why we authors don't like Windows' automated update system.
Oh well, I guess it's a god thing I have Autism and have a photographic memory and can easily retype word for word everything I already typed, now isn't it?
Off to rewrite, every thing I already wrote.
*sigh*
As a result of that computer mishap.... this page is only partly finished... I'm going to publish what was saved now (July 10, 2017) and then go back and rewrite all over again the part that got deleted... that section should be added here tomorrow or the next day...
Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?
You might be surprised how little you really know.
A look at REAL Autism and the myth spread by those with a self-diagnosis.
NOTE: Most of the first few items on the list reference Asperger's not Autism, so it'll be a few items in before these become relevant to writing Quaraun's character, but I'm gonna comment on each of these anyways as we go down the list.
ACTUAL Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children
Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed
ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose
1 in 64 children are diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, which means they DO NOT have Autism
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
I wish more people knew this one.
The Autism Spectrum Disorder page of Wikipedia, states that there are 5 ASDs. This is incorrect and was obviously written by someone who is quoting internet memes rather then actual medical books. There are more then 60 ASDs.
I also wish the ill-informed parents of Asperger's children would stop deleting ACTUAL DOCTOR'S text on the Autism Wikipedia page and replacing it with their wild, deranged, urban myths about what they THINK Autism is.
Sadly more then half the information on the Autism Wikipedia page is incorrect and was written largely by self-diagnosed Aspies and their parents. Wikipedia also has a page for Asperger's but, they are too good for that page.
Hopefully doctors actually trained to treat and diagnose Autism will eventually notice that the stuff they wrote for the Autism page has been deleted by parents of Asperger children and replaced by conspiracy theories about mercury and vaccinations.
That's the problem with Wikipedia: any one can write anything on any page and there is no one to check to make sure the information is correct.
In 2007 the information on the Kanner's Syndrome Wikipedia page was correct, but Sheldon Cooper wasn't famous yet, so the Autism Boom had not yet started. If you want accurate information about Autism, don't rely on Wikipedia... the current page for Kanner's Syndrome is almost 90% information on Asperger's Syndrome instead. Someone REALLY needs to do something about fixing the massive amount of errors on that page.
Only 1 in every 10,000 people are ACTUALLY Autistic
Only 1 in every 17,000 people will ever encounter a REAL ACTUALLY Autistic person in their lifetime
1 in every 8 Autistic people will be murdered before the age of 25
Quaraun is murdered, though he is elderly at the time it happens, so he partly falls in with this statistic and partly does not.
1 in every 7 Autistic people will commit suicide because of a bully
Quaraun does attempt to commit suicide multiple times, and in most instances it is triggered by a bully.
1 in every 2 Autistic people will die by the age of 45
Well, Quaraun doesn't fall into this statistic, as he reaches old age. He lives to be about 750 years old (equivalent to around 75 years old in Human years).
40% of self-diagnosed Asperger children between the ages of 12 and 18, admit they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and could not name any symptoms of Aspergers other then: "high IQ, reads comic books, and is socially awkward"
This one does not apply to Quaraun as he has Autism, not Asperger's.
Though let's comment on this while we are here...
Did you know that a High IQ is NOT a symptom of either Autism or Aspergers?
So where do people with Autism and Aspergers fall?
In actual studies done on people ACTUALLY diagnosed with Aspergers, fewer then 10% of them had an IQ higher then 120 and NONE of them had an IQ of over 130.
There are NO known cases of an ACTUAL Aspie with a High IQ
Autism and Aspergers having a High IQ is an urban myth, spread largely by internet memes posted on Tumblr and Pinterest, then shared on FaceBook and Twitter. It is one of the many FICTIONAL symptoms of Asperger's that was created to make Sheldon Cooper's character "more interesting" for the TV Show Big Bang Theory.
Keep in mind that "The Autism Boom" is made up largely of "self diagnosed" Asperger's, and the "boom" occurred the same month the Big Bang Theory TV show was awarded "the most popular show on television".
80% of the people who claim to be "a self diagnosed Aspie" when tested by a doctor, are found to NOT have Asperger's at all.
Interestingly, while 1 in 3 people claim to be "a self diagnosed Aspie with an IQ of 135 or more", and ACTUAL IQ of 135 is incredibly rare and only .03% of the world's population (2.4 million people) have it.
There are currently 11 million people in the United States who claim to be "self diagnosed Aspies with an IQ of more then 135" and yet there are only 2.4 million people on the planet with an IQ of 130 or more and two thirds of them live in China, not America.
There are ACTUALLY fewer then 500,000 people in the United States with an IQ of 130 or more. Meaning that of the 11 million "High IQ" Aspies in the USA, 10.5 million of them are lying about their IQ range.
To compare how many people that is... the State of Maine in 2014, just crossed having a population of 2 million people. Maine is a very small state, with not many people. The amount of people who live in Maine, is the same number of people there are on the planet who ACTUALLY have a High IQ of 130 or more.
And yet.... In the United States alone, there are 11 million people claiming to have self-diagnosed themselves as Aspies "because my IQ is over 130".
And yet... Having a High IQ is NOT a symptom of Aspergers!
Sheldon Cooper (a fictional character) has a High IQ AND he has Aspergers.
Fans of Sheldon Cooper see that and think "High IQ = Aspergers; I have a High IQ therefore I must have Aspergers"; and thus you have the current "Autism Boom".
Also, if Sheldon Cooper was real, his IQ would be somewhere around 200... waaaay above 130. Fewer then 100 people have ever been found to have an IQ above 160.
People fail to realize that Sheldon Cooper is a FICTIONAL character and that while many of his Asperger's symptoms are portrayed accurately, there are just as many FAKE/FICTIONAL symptoms that were given to his character for the sake of plot points in the show.
All of that ranting over... how does any of this apply to Quaraun?
Quaraun has a relatively low IQ. He is described by characters he meets (and readers of the series) as being "too stupid to live"
Quaraun has High Functioning Autism, meaning "has an IQ over 75 and can speak in full sentences".
Throughout most of the series we see Quaraun as an older adult around 450 years old (equivalent to about a 45 to 50 year old Human).
Because he is an older adult, he has learned to adapt to his surroundings to some extent and thus for the most part he is able to "pass off" as fairly normal. As long as he's not asked to do anything with numbers or money or try to get him into a sustained conversation about anything, he tends to get by without people realizing he's rather stupid.
He can read and write quite well; in fact he can read and write far above the average. He can sew and embroider at a very advanced skill level, and is in fact a tailor before becoming a wizard. He ends up being a "wizard for hire" who specializes in sewing magic items for other wizards (capes, cloaks, robes, hats, bags of holding, etc.) (Do keep in mind that this character was originally created as a Dungeon's and Dragons character that I played as in RPG games for several years before I started writing novels about him.)
If one sticks to topics of fabric, sewing, embroidery, fashion, charging items with magic properties, growing roses, and casting spells, Quaraun can keep up with the conversation with no trouble at all. He will n fact dominate those conversations and tell you every aspect of those topics, and he will talk in endless monologue about them with no clue that he is boring everyone around him out of their minds.
Leave those topics, however, and Quaraun becomes wide eyed and clueless as to a thing you are saying to him. His dialogue will fall apart and devolve into a series of:
"Okay"
"Uh-uh"
"Okay"
"No."
"Okay"
"I don't know."
"Okay."
Ask him what you were talking about....
"Why are doing that? What did I just say?" BeaLuna asked.
"I don't know," Quaraun answered.
"You don't know?"
"I don't know."
"Why don't you know?"
"I don't know."
"You don't know why you don't know?"
"I don't know."
"How can you not know why you don't know?"
"I don't know."
"Do you ever listen to anything I say?"
"I don't know."
"Can you stop saying, I don't know!"
"I don't know."
"Unicorn!"
"Why yis yelling at me for?" the Phooka asked.
"Quaraun's broken again."
"Well, stop breaking him then."
"I didn't do anything."
"Ya talking over his head. Ya knows him too stupid to knows what yis talking on. Ya gone un gots hims brain all confusalcated. His brain can'na follows ya that fast."
"A Jelly Fish ate my brain," Quaraun said. "I don't have a brain."
"See?" Unicorn said. "Him agrees. Him have no brain. Problem solved, eh?"
BeaLuna walked off mumbling to herself: "I'm travelling with crazy people and idiots."
~From "The Journey Begins" (Volume 4 of The Quaraun Series)
What happened here was typical of most people with Autism. Quaraun could no longer understand the point BeaLuna was trying to make, so he "zoned out" and didn't hear much of what she was saying. She had just explained in great detail all the reason for not doing a thing, and as soon as she got done taking, Quaraun immediately did exactly what she had just got done telling him not to do. Thus she begins yelling at him, leaving him suddenly lost and confused and not knowing how he is supposed to answer. Unsure what the socially correct thing to do in this situation, he simply starts saying "I don't know" regardless of anything else the other characters say.
By saying "I don't know" he is actually saying that he doesn't know how to respond, he realizes he's done something wrong, but he's not certain what he did wrong, and is in fact attempting to explain that he doesn't know what it is he has done wrong, however, the characters around him do not understand this and assume he is answering the question being asked.
Quaraun is having trouble understanding BeaLuna, when she begins to turn the phrase "I don't know" back on him. He now is not only confused as to what he did wrong, but he also now does not knw what it is she is asking him.
Quaraun continues to say "I don't know" until he hears something that he does understand, which in this case is Unicorn talking about his brain. Quaraun immediately attempts to rejoin the conversation by saying the only thing he does know about the topic of his brain, which is the fact that he suffers from "Thullid Infestation" and has a tiny parasitic jellyfish attached to his brain eating it.
Quaraun does not realize that by saying "A jelly fish ate my brain" that other characters not think he's an idiot. He feels he has joined the conversation once again. When BeaLuna walks away calling Unicorn crazy and Quaraun an idiot, Quaraun is left confused and not understanding what it is he has done to upset her or make her call him an idiot.
Throughout the series Quaraun frequently becomes frustrated when he thinks he's talking to people around him, believing that he is conversing with them properly, then suddenly they call him "stupid", "dumb", "insane", or an "idiot". He knows those things are said with malice and the intent to hurt his feelings. He knows people use these words when they are angry with him. But he rarely is able to comprehend what it is he said or did to cause people to say those words to him.
Quaraun often joins conversations with others cheerfully, happy to be included as part of the group, but he often leaves those same conversations, confused, frustrated, sad, and upset.
Scenes like the one above, often end with the other characters leaving angrily, and Quaraun left alone feeling very much unloved, unwanted, and worthless and wishing he was smart enough for people to want to talk to him the same way they talk to each other.
Scenes with Quaraun sitting alone, separate from the group, wanting to join them, but too scared of being rejected, knowing they'll just laugh at him and call him an idiot, are frequent throughout the series.
I've never tried to determine what his IQ might be. I'd guess it's probably in the range of about 80.
In the few volumes where he is seen in his youth, you see him having greater difficulty interacting with people around him.
60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children have stated they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"; these people could not list the symptoms of Aspergers and simple stated it meant "being a genius".
Yeah, see everything I just said in my previous answer, before the novel excerpt. The same applies here.
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
Have you ever known someone with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy? I have. My next door neighbour has it. (Yes, the woman who cut my car in half on May 10, 2010, while screaming that she was killing a demon and therefore had to kill me car. That woman.). There is not one damned thing wrong with her 3 boys. Nothing. They are 3 healthy, normal little boys.
One of her boys "disappeared" for a while. Never came outside any more. No one saw him. No one talked about hi. It was like he'd vanished.
I babysat for these boys. One day the parents are getting divorced, and want to know if I can take the boys to their doctor's appointments for the next few weeks.
I get to the doctor's office.
Doctor pulls me aside, sends the boys to a play room to play with toys while she talks to me: "Can I talk to you about the mother?"
The doctor explains to me the situation:
The boy who'd been missing (9 years old), had been forced to wear diapers, drink out of a baby bottle and sleep in a crib for the past several weeks. The mother claimed this was because the boy was constipated.
The doctor said: "At first I prescribed stool softeners. But then I noticed she was getting it refilled every 3 days and each bottle should have lasted a full month. So I called the pharmacy to change the prescription to a placebo, but didn't tell her."
The doctor continues to explain: "I tried talking to him (the boy) but he no longer talks. He's shut down. Hasn't said a single word in any visit. She (the mother) won't let him talk to me alone and he won't talk if she's in the room. I think something's wrong. You know the boys better then I do, have you noticed anything?"
I ask the doctor what the prescription bottle looks like, I say: "Is it a big gallon sized bottle filled with white powder?"
She says: "Yes, it is, why?"
I tell her: "For months, she (the mother) has been carrying these bottles with her everywhere she goes, never got a good look at them, but she said it was a prescription her doctor gave her for irritable bowel syndrome. About 2 months ago her doctor stopped renewing her prescription. She was in a rage at first, but now past few weeks, she has them again."
The boys doctor asked who the mother's doctor was. Went to call him and talked to him. She came back in the room. She says: "He diagnosed her with Paranoid Schizophrenia and Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy about 6 months ago. I just talked to their dad. He's in the middle of trying to have them taken away from her because she's making (the boy) sick on purpose so I'll give him the same prescription her doctor stopped giving her. I suspected something like that, that's why I switched it to a placebo."
I asked the doctor (a doctor who was a standard non-specialist pediatric a 2 hour drive away from the boys house) while I was there: "How many doctors do the boys have?"
She says: "What do you mean?"
I say: "You're the 5th pediatric I've taken them to in the past 3 days. They've got multiple appointments every day this week."
She asked for the names of the other doctors. Leaves again, Calls the doctors. Comes back in white as a ghost and says: "We've all been giving him the same prescription. She's been refilling all of them too fast and is using a different pharmacy for each one."
She than asks me: "Does she have multiple doctors for herself?"
I say: "32 in Maine that I know of, at least 7 in New Hampshire. She goes to every pharmacy in the state. Last I knew she was taking more then 40 different prescriptions all at once. She's got a big drug problem. I frequently drive her to her appointments and watch the boys in the waiting room, because she won't allow them out of her sight for more then a few minutes."
She goes off to call all of these doctors. None of them knew about any of the others. None of them were hooked up with that online database thing to prevent this sort of thing from happening either, likewise she was using "off grid" pharmacies.
Once all her doctors and all of her kids' doctors started cross referencing the situation... the boys' dad had custody about 2 weeks later.
Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy is a very serious condition and if the state can prove a parent has it, they WILL take the children away.
60% of all children who are self-diagnosed as Autistic or Aspergers by a mother... turn out to be healthy normal children of a mother with a serious prescription drug addiction, who uses her children to get prescriptions, which she takes herself, never giving said prescriptions to the child...
60% of all children who are self-diagnosed as Autistic or Aspergers by a mother... are taken away from their parents and put in foster care, due to the mother having Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.
Once again we've had a side rant that is not connected to Quaraun or the series, so continuing on...
80% of all people claiming to be "Autistic Aspies" do not have either Aspergers or Autism and are shocked when they learn that Aspergers is NOT a "type" of Autism.
You can always tell a website or blog written by someone who has no clue what Autism is, as soon as you see them write:
"My son has the Aspergers type of Autism."
There is no such thing as an "Asperger's type of Autism".
There is Aspergers.
And there is Autism.
Two very different illnesses with similar symptoms.
Aspergers and Autism are so different from one another that you can be diagnosed with BOTH of them as well.
I had myself a long rant about this already, so go read that page and as there is nothing here to say in reference to Quaraun himself, let's move on...
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television"
That link I just put in the previous answer? Go read that to see what I have to say about this one.
This one again, does not apply to Quaraun because, he doesn't have Aspergers, and also because he lives in the 1400s before TV was around.
Of course time travel existes in the Quaraun series and GhoulSpawn (one of Quaraun's lovers) is in fact from the 1970s so does know of things like tv and such, even though Quaraun himself does not.
While Quaraun is from a time period before Autism was known about, there are in fact volumes in the series, where GhoulSpawn (who is from the future) calls Quaraun Autistic. There are scenes when other characters are watching Quaraun have a meltdown and are asking what's wrong with him, and GhoulSpawn will reply to say something like "He has Autism, this is what he does." However, being a man from the 1970s living in the 1400s, his explaining that "this is Autism" means nothing to the people around him, who then just think GhoulSpawn is as crazy as Quaraun because he's using words they never heard before.
Aspergers is an Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)
Asperger's is NOT a "type" of Autism.
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
Yeah. That link again. I covered this there as well.
There are more the 60 ASDs including Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, Schizophrenia, Threadworm Infestation, and having had a Stroke.
Yep. The link. Just go to the link. My answer to this was there to.
73% of all ACTUALLY Autistic people, will never speak, will never learn to wipe their bum, will eat through a tube never learning how to chew, and will wear neck braces and be wheelchair bound from never learning to hold up their head or walk.
The 27% of Autistic people who can talk and walk and chew their own food, will rarely learn to speak in full sentences, will forever "act like a 4 year old" even into their senior years.
There are no known cases of anyone with ACTUAL Autism ever becoming fully independent or living on their own. REAL Autistics require caretakers and adult supervision their entire lives.
Quaraun falls into the same 27% as I do.
Like me, Quaraun has the ability to talk and can feed himself. Though like me he often forgets to do either.
Yes, you can forget to talk.
I've had times when a person was talking to me, and the conversation reached a pint of him saying:
"Why won't you answer me?"
To which I said: "What do you mean?"
"What do you mean what do you mean?"
"I've been answering you."
"No you haven't."
"Yes I have."
"Have not. You ain't said a word once."
Well, in my head I was talking to him, however, my brain forgot to make my mouth move and send the words out. This is actually a rather common problem for people with Autism, and Quaraun does it from time to tome in the novels.
Forgetting to eat can be a problem and it is one of the reasons I'm now in my 50s and still require adult supervision.
I can cook. I can cook really well. I took Culinary Arts in college. I can cook exceptionally well. I just have trouble remembering that I'm supposed to.
I frequently go 4 or 5 days or more between meals. I often reach a point where I am typing and my hand is trembling so much I can no longer type. I am then forced to stop typing.
I call Ben tell him: "My hand's shaking, what should I do?"
Ben instead says: "Where you been I haven't heard from you in 5 days?"
Me: "What do you mean? I just talked to you this morning?"
Ben: "No, that was Monday morning."
Me: "Ain't it Monday?"
Ben: "It's Friday."
Me: "Huh? I started typing after talking to you. I just stopped now. I thought it was only a couple of hours. That must be why my hand is shaking! I must be hungry! Boy! I'll bet I'm tired too."
Ben: "You forgot to sleep, for 5 days?"
Me: "I was writing."
Ben: "For 5 days?"
Me: "Apparently."
I do this sort of thing a few times a month. It's why I have to have caretakers and adult supervision, even at my age.
I forget to talk, during conversations.
I forget to eat.
I forget to sleep.
I forget to go use the toilet.
I've been known to go as much as 6 months between baths. I forget to do that as well.
I have dreadlocs. Guess who forgot to brush her hair for almost 3 years.
This is the reality of living with Autism.
This is what it is like to be ACTUALLY Autistic.
When you hear an Autism mother yelling at an Aspie mother and saying to the Aspie mother: "What are you complaining about, at least your kid can wipe his own bum!"
THIS is what those mothers are talking about.
I am High Functioning so eventually after a few days I notice my "stomach hurts" and I call Ben, tell him, and he'll be... "Have you eaten lately?"
I'll be: "Nope. It ain't that. I've got snacks here... oh I know! I haven't gotten up to go pee in a few days. That's what it is! I have to go pee! Yay! I know why my stomach hurts! I haven't peed in a few day. I gotta go do that."
Yes. I have Autism. And I forget to go pee. Sometimes for several days to a time.
Someone with High Functioning Autism can survive on their own, but without caretakers to check in on them, they will not thrive.
If your child has Autism, they will never have 100% independence.
Aspergers, yes. Most Aspies can live on their own without caretakers. But not Autistics. It's one of the biggest differences there is between Autism and Aspergers.
I have to have timers for everything.
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go eat."
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go pee."
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go sleep."
Are you someone who watches my YouTube videos?
Go watch my Witcher 3 Wild Hunt series of game play videos. You'll see it. Every 45 minutes a timer goes off, and I tell you... "Oh... it's time to go pee! I'll stop the game here and start another episode after I go pee."
I played 117 hours of that game in a single sitting.
Yes.
One sitting.
There are 117 45 minute episodes of me playing that game and every 45 minutes, at the end of every episode, that timer goes off, and I get up to go pee and eat a small mini-meal, Then come back and play through for another 45 minutes until the timer goes off again.
This is my life.
This is life with Autism.
Having a timer that goes off every 45 minutes is the only way I can remember to stop what I am doing and go use the damn toilet.
At least I am high functioning enough to wipe my bum myself. 73% of Autistic people require a caretaker to wipe their bums for them.
In the Quaraun series you see scenes where Quaraun forgets to eat, often for days on end, because I forget to eat.
You see Quaraun go days on end, walking across the country side not stopping to rest, forgetting he needs to sleep, because I forget to sleep.
The sleep issue is a frequent one, one that shows up in nearly every novel as well. It's a reoccurring theme in the Quaraun series, for Quaraun's days f no sleep to cause disruption in the lives of others who are trying to sleep and he's doing something that keeps them awake.
There are many scenes where Unicorn puts opium into Quaraun's food or drink, to mellow Quaraun out enough for him to at least collapse and be forced to rest in a drug induced stupor.
Quaraun woke up again many hours later. He felt the warm heat
of BoomFuzzy's body against his back, and Quaraun moved his body
towards the heat. Quaraun's eyelids were too heavy to open, so
Quaraun lay in the warmth, enjoying the closeness of feeling another
living being pressed close to him. Quaraun's mind couldn't seem to
focus, and he knew the eggnog BoomFuzzy had given him before bed, had
likely been drugged.
"Did you drug me?"
"Aye."
~From "BoomFuzzy" (Volume 3 of The Quaraun Series)
More then 90% of all Autistic people have a low IQ of under 75. Most are considered "mentally retarded" with IQs below 60.
Fewer then 10% of all Autistics are High Functioning.
High Functioning Autism, means:
"Has an IQ of 75 or more and can speak in phrases longer then 2 or 3 words, being able to communicate verbally in full sentences."
We already covered this one a couple of questions ago.
Your child can NOT be diagnosed with Autism, because there is no medical condition called "Autism".
Autism is a slang laymen's term for Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare birth defect caused by genetic mutation.
Raise your hand if you knew there was no disease, illness, or disorder actually named "Autism".
When a doctor says "Your child may be autistic", they DO NOT mean they are diagnosing your child with Autism.
They mean you child is displaying symptoms of Autism and likely has one of the 60+ ASDs.
If your child has one of the ASDs, this means your child DOES NOT have Autism, but has a disease with similar symptoms to Autism.
Yeah, raise your hand if you knew this one.
Doctors are extremely reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism.
It is one of the single most difficult diagnosis to get from a doctor and requires your child be taken for multiple interviews WITH OUT THE PARENTS in the room.
If you TRULY believe your child was sexually traumatized before the age of 3 years old (and that is what Autism is) you will have your child undergo a series of hour long interviews ABOUT THEIR SEX LIFE with multiple social workers and psychiatrists.
It requires 3 psychiatrists to agree that the child is suffering from serious early childhood sexual abuse trauma, before they will consider giving a diagnosis of Autism.
An ACTUAL diagnosis of ACTUAL Autism is a very SERIOUS diagnosis that a doctor can not give lightly, as it also requires the doctor to immediately call the police and have the parents arrested for gross child neglect and extreme child sexual abuse.
When a child is diagnosed with REAL Autism, the child is immediately handed over to child protective services and the parents charged with criminal neglect and abuse.
If your did not receive criminal charges and have your child taken away the same day as the diagnosis, then you DID NOT receive a diagnosis of ACTUAL Autism.
Did you know Autism is caused by early childhood sexual abuse and/or extreme physical or psychological trauma?
Neither did most of the other parents proudly proclaiming themselves rapists, I mean parents of an Autistic child.
Wait... do you mean.... you REALLY didn't know that every time you proudly wave your puzzle piece flag and say "My kid has Autism, YAAAAAY!", that you are also proudly telling the world you sexual abused your child?
A diagnosis of Autism is nothing to be proud of.
Rape is not something to be proud of
Being a parents who rapes your infant is not something to be proud of.
Your child having a psychosis that is caused by having been raped by one of their caretakers before they reached 3 years of age, is nothing to be proud of.
While you are proudly waving your puzzle piece flag, why don't you also get your son a shirt that says:
"My mom raped me before I was 3 years old! I got Autism now, YAAAAY! Rape is the greatest! Go rape go! Ya for rape! Rape those babies! Let's get more Autism in the world! Woo-ho! Ain't child rape the greatest, it gave me Autism! Yay!"
Can you see how, horrible, sick, and disgusting it is, for you to call yourself "A proud Autism mom!"?
ooooh! You didn't child rape was the cause of Autism? I thought you were this great big expect on Autism.
OOooooh my! Somebody didn't do their homework before they self-diagnosed their child with Autism! Imagine that.
Oh wait... you only know about Aspergers.
I'm sorry, I didn't realize you were too retarded to know Aspergers was not a "type" of Autism. Silly me, here I am the one with the low IQ. How stupid of me for thinking someone with an IQ higher then mine actually knew something about Autism. I mean, I'm just the stupid little retard who actually HAS Autism, so what do I know?
Hey, here's an idea, why don't you get your head out of Sheldon Cooper's ass and actual find out what Autism is. Huh? How about that.
Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to find out who in the hell this Sheldon Cooper was that every body kept talking about at all the Autism Awareness events the past couple of years?
Why was it hard?
Oh let me think... I have Autism, and everything that implies.
If you knew what "everything that implies" meant, I wouldn't have to explain why I didn't know who Sheldon Cooper was.
There's a little thing called: no TV, you know, because might bring Satan into the house.
There's also a little thing called: no electricity, you know, because Satan made it.
Then there's that little thing called: child sex slavery and being locked in a room, from the time I was 8 until I was 31, and only allowed out when the High Priests from the Saco Ward LDS Church showed up looking to fuck a baby.
Yeah... I have Autism... REAL Autism... and EVERYTHING that implies.
While you and your children were happily glorifying your TV shows, I was being raped by the highest bidding High Priest.
While your 3 year old was learned her first words, I was being beaten with a nail filled board for not being able to recite the entire book of Genesis in under an hour.
While your 8 year old was worrying about losing her first tooth, I was worrying about losing my first baby during my first miscarriage.
I have Autism, Sugar Plum, and your child's nothing but a damned tv worshiping spoiled brat who wants to "be special just like Sheldon".
You think your child has Autism because your child has a High IQ and is socially awkward? ... Honey, those are not even symptoms of Autism. Why don't you get your head out of the TV and stop re-tweeting memes, long enough to read an actual medical text book. A few Psychology books, maybe?
Try finding out what Autism is before you start diagnosing your children with such a horrifying disease.
Autism is not nice.
Autism is not fun.
Autism is not something to run around all yippie skippies happy about.
Autism is a horrible psychosis that could easy be prevented if perverted adults would stop sexually abusing children.
And yes, I was taken away from my parents at the time of my diagnosis, at the age of 31 years old. It was later realized that my parents were victims as well.
My uncles are now wanted by the FBI for child sex slavery and human trafficking.
Let's see if we can get back on topic... how does this apply to the Quaraun series and writing a fictional character with Autism?
I actually have already written an answer covering this topic over on the page titled: Suicide, Rape, and Abuse In The Quaraun Series. You can go read that for a very long answer.
The short(er) answer is that: I write what I know and I know rape very well. I have never, not once in my entire life, ever had consensual sex with anyone. I don't know what it would be like to have sex with someone and them not be raping me.
I therefore also do not know how to write a sex scene that is kind, loving, consensual, and not rape.
I have Autism and am unable to imagine what it would be like to experience something that I had not myself experienced.
No one has ever hugged me.
No one.
Not my parents. Not the men who raped me. And I've never had a friend, so obviously no friends have ever hugged me either. I don't know how to write a hug. Because I've never experienced a hug to know what it feels like.
No one has ever kissed me.
No one.
Not my parents. Not the men who raped me. And I've never had a friend, so obviously no friends have ever kissed me either. I don't know how to write a kiss. Because I've never experienced a kiss to know what it feels like.
The only sex I've ever experienced was rape and so I don't know how to write a sex scene outside of a rape scene.
There is a lot of sex in the Quaraun series. But it's all rape.
Quaraun never experiences kind, loving, consensual sex. He only ever experiences rape.
He never knows what it is like to enjoy sex. Because I don't know what it is like to enjoy sex.
He only knows what it is like to experience fear an pain during sex, because I only know what it is like to experience fear and pain during sex.
In the Quaraun series sex and abuse take center stage.
Right from the beginning of his life.
His earliest memory is of him being attacked and injured along side his mother.
His strongest memory is witnessing his mother's murder a few years later, while he is still a small child.
Quaraun's mother was beaten to death by his father, who then turned on the small boy and would have killed him as well, except an uncle intervened.
As a teenager, he is near daily beaten by his father and his father's servants.
When his father is angry with him, he drags Quaraun (still a child) out into the center of town, strips him naked, and publicly beats him. (Keeping in mind the series is set in the 1400s when this sort of thing was so common that town squares had special tables made just for holding the child [or spouse] down while you whipped them. It was considered a form of entertainment and huge crowds gathered to watch these events.) Quaraun is publicly tortured and humiliated every few weeks throughout most of his childhood and teen years.
Like I was in real life, Quaraun was frequently locked in a tiny room, left to go days on end without food.
Like I was, Quaraun often had to fight the dogs for scraps.
Like I was, Quaraun was made to sit on the floor and not allowed to eat at the table with his family.
Like I was, Quaraun was often stabbed in the arm with forks, if he dared try to sneak food from the table.
Like I was, Quaraun was little more then a skeleton, malnourished, and starving to death.
Like I was, Quaraun was rescued from his abusive family, by a sex crazed rapist, who was just as sexually abusive to him as his family had been physically abusive.
Yes.
Quaraun's backstory matches his psychosis.
Yes.
Quaraun's childhood, is the childhood that real Autistics have.
Because Autism has become "a fad", many parents, teachers, and even social workers, are quick to suggest a child be submitted to psychiatric evaluation for Autism, often without knowing what that really means or what the evaluation process involves.
Because the parents are not present during the interviews and the child is instructed to NOT reveal to his parents any of the questions asked by the psychiatrists, few parents or teachers are ever fully aware of the extremely sexual nature of the interview questions that their toddler is being asked to answer.
Because the Quaraun series is set in the 1400s this does not apply to him.
However, I do wish, parents would do a little bit better research before sending their children for Autism interviews with Psychiatrists. Your 3 year old is gonna come out of those interviews with a better sex education then a Porn star has. Until you've had to sit through their 100 question sessions about your sex life, you can't even begin to image how intensely an Autism evaluation invades a persons sex life history.
Before you send your child for an Autism evaluation, you might want to step back and consider... is the amount of sexual trauma your child will experience during that interview, worth the diagnosis they may not get?
Autism is caused by sexual trauma and those Autism evaluation questions are designed to find out HOW MUCH sexual trauma your child has been through. If your child has never been sexual traumatized... they certainty will be by the time those Autism evaluation interviews are over.
Doctors actually trained in what REAL Autism ACTUAL is, are very reluctant to submit a young child to the psychological evaluation process because of the highly sexual nature of the questions, which can in fact trigger sexual trauma in a child that was not previously sexually traumatized.
What this means is the evaluation process for Autism, can actually CAUSE Autism in a non-Autistic child.
Yeah. That's what I was just talking about in my previous answer.
Many symptoms of ASDs go away over time, either on their own or with changes to medication, diet, and lifestyle.
ACTUAL Autism is a type of mental retardation, and is a severely crippling lifelong condition. It's symptoms do not lesson or go away with time.
If your child is diagnosed with REAL, ACTUAL Autism aka as an Idiot Savant, your doctor will say: "Your child has Kanner's Syndrome", they will NOT say "Your child has Autism"
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
The symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away over time.
Autism is always easily recognized.
Autism is considered rare and uncommon.
Was identified in 1932.
That is a really long one and is also the one I wanted to comment on the most in regards to writing any Autistic character in general, but especially Quaraun in particular. The second part of that list is very long and most of the words on it I have never heard before and do not know what they are, so will have to look up the meanings to find out what they are. They did provide links, which I think go to Wikipedia? Not sure. I have not checked the links yet to find out where they go to.
Because this one is so long, I think I need to divide it up by parts. Let's also put an outline around it so you know where these start and stop...
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
This is one of the ones I do not know what it means...
a profound lack of affect
What does that mean?
I tried Googling it and all I get back are results for "What is the Difference Between Affect and Effect?"
So I have no clue what this one means. What in the heck is "a profound lack of affect"?
The next part is:
emotional contact with others
Again, what does that mean?
Is it that whoever wrote this list has horrific grammar and the
"affect or" should not be there?
I'm thinking that whoever wrote this list made some type of error there and that the only way to determine what they mean is to remove the "affect or". So let's try that and see if maybe we can make some sense of this.
This is very true. There is absolutely no one in my life who wants to show me any form of emotion at all, what so ever.
My dad is like a robot, completely devoid of any emotion at all, and my mom is an intensely violent, very volital, hot tempered, always screaming, non-stop yelling, getting into violent fights with everyone, spit fire hell cat ready to claw the eyes out of anyone (literally - she's attempted to do so to several people now.) She gets arrested for beating people in the head with bricks and stuff.
I don't think my dad has any emotions at all and I don't think my mom has any emotion other then extreme violent rage.
All three of my brothers have "turned off" as of April 10, 2015. Our cats were the only emotional support any of us had.
Our cats were the only friends we had. Without the cats me and my 3 brothers have no one. Since the kidnapping of the cats, and their heads being returned nailed to our do a month later, all 3 of my brothers have stopped talking.
None of them has smiled since April 10, 2015.
None of them has laughed since April 10, 2015.
None of them has barely said a full sentence since April 10, 2015.
That was almost 3 years ago.
My 3 brothers are intensely traumatized by what was done to their cats.
Our mother does not allow us to have friends.
I escaped the clan. Two of my brothers are still trapped in it. The cats were the only friends they had. Now they have no one.
Because I escaped the clan, I've not been allowed (by the clan) to have contact with my brothers.
My uncles run the clan. There is no love in any of them. Sex and money is all they know, all they do. Sell children for sex so they can have more money. Nothing else matters to them.
I've never had a Human friend before. I wouldn't know where to look for one.
So, yes, this one is very true. There is a profound lack of emotional contact with others in my life. I don't know how I would go about finding some one to have emotional contact with.
My cats were the only friends and emotional support I've ever had. Evil men killed them. Now I have no one at all.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
I had normal speech at first.
I was 8 when the shoot out happened between the Atwater clan and the Cyr clan. One of the Cyrs shoot a kid's eye out of his head. He was standing right beside me. The kid to the other side of me, my cousin Murphy... he had his head cut off July 2013. That big white cross at the corner of Cascade Rd and Ross Rd? That's what's left of him there.
At 14
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:a profound lack of affect or emotional contact with others
Does this mean line taking all 300,000 of my books off the shelf and lining them up from one end of my dad's apartment to the other, then putting then all back on the shelf?
Or like spending 10 or 12 hours sorting my many thousands of Crayola Big Boxes?
Or spending hours drawing thousands of circles in the sand on the beach, for all 7 miles of the beach?
Mixing paint colours on a palet for no reason, with absolutely no intention of painting anything, just doing it because I can watch paint colours mix and swirl for hours.
Squeezing playdough. Kinectic sand. Foam squish putty. Silly putty. Gelly tubes.
My current favorite toy is seen in nearly every one of my youtube videos: a 12" rainbow wand filled with oil and glitter. I flip it and twirl it for hours.
Or picking up every moonsnail on the beach even though the beach is 7 miles long and I went past my 10lb weight limit (doctors orders) many hours ago but I can't stop picking up moonsnails anyways.
Or spending 4 years gluing 2.5million marbles to my car? (started this at age 37...)
How about spending 8 years handsewing one hair at a time a 14 foot long mokomoko for an insanely over the top Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay?
Sitting on the beach, for hours on end, doing nothing but sifting sand through my fingers and being utterly fascinated with the sensation of the sand on my skin.
Collecting 5,000+ stuffed animals and teddy bears, and setting aside a day each week, to do nothing but hug every one of them. Sometimes doing it more then once a week, because I don't have any one to hug me and if I didn't have 5,000+ teddy bears I would never have felt a hug at all. (And this is recently added one, I actually started doing this one in my 40s. I used to have cats to hug every day. Actually, I used to hug each cat every hour of every day. I've only been amassing thousands of teddy bears to hug in the past 2 years since my cats were murdered.)
Bela: April 8, 2015 - 2 days before she was kidnapped. You are looking at a GIANT 30lb cat. Yep... that's the cat everyone used to talk about... the one people thought was a panther, you can how monster sized she was. She was bigger then a Cocker Spaniel.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
I have no clue what visuo-spatial skills means... off to ask Google...
...
Nope...
I still don't know what it means... I'll have to look into this more and come back to it later once I figure out what it means so I know how to translate it.
I am unable to tell you if I have this or not as I do not know what it is.
I can therefore also not tell you if Quaraun has it or not.
I will come back and edit this with a better answer once I've figured out what visuo-spatial skills means.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are
Nope. I do not have any of the facial deformities normally associated with mental retardation.
Neither does Quaraun.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
As soon as people find out I have Autism, the first thing they say is: "Oh, so you must have a High IQ right?"
No. I high IQ is NOT a symptom of Autism.
A low IQ and mental retardation is a symptom of Autism.
So what is my IQ?
My general overall score of all topics combined, including ability to preform basic life skills is 75
My Reading, Writing, and Grammar score is 221 (highest score in the State of Maine - 3 colleges and MENSA all cross tested me, I scored 221 on each other their tests)
My Biology, Earth, and Nature Sciences is 138
Physics and Technical sciences 40
Maths 65
Those are the two highest IQ categories and the two lowest IQ categories, side by side so you can see the variation in range.
Everything else was in a 70 to 90 range.
You can see where my savant skills are, when you look at the two categories that ranked super high.
When my Writing score came back as 221, the school had me retake the test because they thought there must have been an error. When I came back with 221 the second time they decided I must have cheated so had me take it a 3rd time with a bunch of teachers gathered all around me to watch me do it.
When it came back 221 the 3rd time they called a college and asked them to come give me a different version of the test. It was still 221.
That college contacted yet another college. Still 221.
MENSA was contacted. It was still 221.
MENSA tried a different test. It was still 221.
Harvard University was contacted, they said it's one of the top 10 highest IQ scores of any category, ever in history; they said I could attend their college if I could pass the entrance tests... $33k per semester, all semesters, all the way to a PhD in English Literature... paid scholarship, because Harvard has a glut lust for any one with a mega high IQ ... IF I could pas the entrance examines... with a Math IQ of 65 and a Physics IQ of 40, and an overall IQ of 75, I can not pass their entrance tests, in spite of an IQ of 221 in Writing, Reading, and Grammar.
THIS is what a high IQ in Autism looks like.
It is NOT an overall high IQ... it is one super mega high IQ in ONE SINGLE TOPIC ONLY, with an abnormally mega low IQ in every other topic.
This is Savant Autism.
I am very, very, very, very good at one topic and one topic only and mentally retarded in every other area.
I published my first book, at the age of 3 years old, by the way.
My Spelling IQ is 75 by the way. I can't spell worth shit, but I can write. Boy can I ever write. You probably noticed that some few tens of thousands of words ago.
If you've read the Quaraun books, you see this in him as well. He can read and write far above and beyond everyone around him. He can sew elaborate costumes (as can I) and he knows the word of plants and animals inside out and can name every plant and bird he sees... as can I...
Like me, Quaraun is well versed in Necromancy and Voodoo (I'm a Voodoo Priestess rank of Mesden Fey Marija Loa to Damballa Wedo, by the way)...
Quaraun by the way is an ACTUAL Necromancer (also known as a Medium) by the real world definition of the word and NOT the Fantasy definition of the word... meaning he talks to dead spirits, communicates to ghosts, etc. as opppsed to resurecting zombies and building undead armies.
One of the complaints a few readers had with the series was they thought he was a fantasy style necromancer so they expected him to be doing dark bloody rituals, digging up graves and creating undead minions... they were not aware he was a Necromancer, like in the real world and spends his days staring into crystal balls asking questions to dead people for clients. Which, I also do, in case you were wondering... I do the whole card reading, ouji boards, pendulums, etc thing, which is why I have Quaraun doing it. It goes back to me writing what I know.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
Okay, so we've reached the 2nd half of the list. The part that has links. I'm glad they put links in this, so I can hopefully find out what each of these things means, because most of the stuff on this list I have no clue what it is.
Stupor... I don't know what that means. Let's click the link and see where it goes...
Stupor (From Latin stupere, "be stunned or amazed") is the lack of critical mental function and a level of consciousness wherein a sufferer is almost entirely unresponsive and only responds to base stimuli such as pain. Those in a stuporous state are rigid, mute and only appear to be conscious, as the eyes are open and follow surrounding objects.
... a catatonic stupor
Ah! Yes. I do know what this is.
Catatonia, aka the waking coma, which I mentioned at some point in this article, though I don't know now which page it ended up on as I've had to cut this article into smaller parts due to it having gotten so long.
No. I do not have this and neither does Quaraun.
I once meet a person who had this. It's a somewhat shocking thing to see.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
Now this one I know and have. And Quaraun has it as well.
I can and do, go days, sometimes weeks on end without saying a word.
I have Selective Mutism as well. Which means I'll be in the middle of talking and my brain, suddenly and without my permission, turns my vocal cords off and refuses to allow sound to come out of my mouth.
You see it on several of my YouTube vlogs.
I'm alone. Me and the camera. No one else. I can talk more or less normally.
Then, someone walks up to me and BOOM, my voice is completly gone. It's like a vacumme cleaner hose suddenly went down my throat and sucked out my voice and ran away with it, and left me struggling for air and not able to breath.
You know how in the Little Mermaid the Witch takes the mermaid's voice and no matter how much she tries to talk, she can't. It's just like that.
The person leaves and BOOM, my voice comes back, and I pick up talking to the camera like nothing happened.
There are exactly 7 people with whom I am able to talk to face to face without any trouble at all.
In college I could talk to teachers one on one after class, but could not talk to teachers during class while sitting in class. I could not talk to students at all in class or outside of class.
In public situations, such as attending a Convention, my ability to talk is somewhat in the middle - I CAN talk, but it's stuttered or slurred.
When talking to MOST people, I have episodes where I get stuck on a word and can't get past it... it sounds like this...
"It, it, it, it, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, llllllll.... li. li. li. liiiiiiii. lik. k. k.k .k .k. k. k. k. k. like... like... th... th... thi... thi... thiss... THIS!"
This is a language tic.
Now Quaraun doesn't do it in the novels, but GhoulSpawn does. GhoulSpawn often has trouble getting to the end of a sentence without getting stuck on a word half way through.
How does GhoulSpawn stop the stuck word and get past it? The same way I do.... grab a book and wallop himself in the side of the head. It reset his brain and lets him finish the sentence.
Why?
I have no clue.
It's like, my brain is a record player and the needle got stuck in a scratch and is just skipping and repeating the same word. When that happens you give the record player a shake, the arm bumps up over the scratch and song finishes playing.
My brain does the same damned thing and I don't know why.
I'm in the middle of talking,talking, talking, talking, talking ...slam myself in the head with a book... and now I can finish the damn sentence.
I don't know why my brain sometimes gets stuck on a word or why jostling my brain makes it reset and moves on like nothing happened.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
I have this on some levels, but it's not to the point of my ever being diagnose with ADD/ADHD.
One of my brothers had ADHD as a child but it lessened with age. He still has it but it's kind of "stabilized".
He was a runner. And a climber.
At 2 years old, if you couldn't find him... run to the farthest and tallest tree from the house and look up, usually the giant pine about a 1/4 mile away, he was probably up there in the top some 50 to 60 feet up. Giggling, laughing hysterically, and at about 20 feet up he'd jump screaming "catch me! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"
If you woke up in the middle of the night to Thumptiy, Thump, Thump... that would be my brother, 3 years old, on the roof of the house, throwing firewood down the chimney.
Age 4 at doctor's office, nurse calls his name: "Ha ha! You can't catch me!" he laughs as he rips his cloths off and runs naked out the building and into the parking lot... 2 hours, several miles, and many exhausted adults later, he's finally caught and dragged to his appointment.
6 years old, we are in the ER, explaining to the doctor how it is my brother came to have a piece of wood, about an inch in diameter, skewered through his foot.
"He jumped of the roof into the wood pile..."
"Why was he on the roof?"
"He has ADHD..."
"Oooooooh!" Doctor nods. "I have one of those."
Same brother, now 27 years old. PokemonGo addict. Walks 16 miles a day to catch them all. If you can't find him... there's an old mill... giant 1800s brick factory, Pepperal Mill, if you live in Biddeford, you know it and it's famous 75 foot tall smoke stack. Several hundred rooms, a building that covers more then a mile. 5 stories tall. Can't find my brother. On the back of that mill, hanging over the Saco River, there's a ladder to scare the bravest of men shitless... go climb it... you'll find my brother on the roof of the mill, frantically catching Pokemon.
You know how I found him? He didn't come home one day. Whole family went into a panic. Every one was pacing his known Pokemon rought. I'm walking by the mill. I stop and point to the 75 foot tall smoke stack and comment:
"Boy I'm glad he got over his climbing thing."
We continue on a few feet. I stop walking. I look at my other brother whose with me. We both look up at that massive 75 foot tall chimney.
"I ain't climbing up that" he says shaking his head.
"Here, watch Marcy," I hand him my dog.
I'm scared of hieghts. But 20 minutes later... I'm looking down over the entire city of Biddeford, and there's my brother....waaaaaay up there.
"Watcha doing up here?"
He answers in hyper mile a minute speed...
"There's-Pokemon-everywhere! I-gotta-get'em-all. They're rare ones! No one has these. Look! I've got..." he starts listing them off in giddy hyper excitement... "I've caught 25 in the last hour, they're every where up here!"
His eyes are round with the wild ADHD gleeful mania of the discovery of a Pokemon goldmine hiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh over the top of Biddeford.
I've known several people with varying levels of hyperness, but my brother has everybody else beat. He can make other people with ADHD look calm. And he still runs. You still can't catch him.
He has an actual diagnosis from a doctor.
That's something I've noticed that's different with him than with others. Most people SAY they have ADHD, but most also say they are self diagnosed.
Now my brother, he has an actual diagnosis and medication for it and stuff. He acts REALLY, EXTREMELY different from people who say they self diagnosed themselves.
Most times wen people say they have ADHD, my response is: "Really? You don't act like it." And then they say "Well, I took this test online and it says I have it..."
No... I grew up with someone who ACTUALLY has ADHD, I guarantee, no online test is needed to tell if you have it.
He could run none stop for hours and... it wasn't like he was running because he wanted too... he couldn't control it, and he would literally run until he collapsed from exhaustion.
From age 2 to about age 15 or so... he did this weird thing, where, if he was required to sit down for a long period of time (for example going to church services) as soon as he was allowed to move, he'd jump up, let out a loud whooping yell, then start running, and just run back and forth, really, really, really, wicked, super fast. Scream again, Wave his arms frantically in the air, Scream a few more times. Continue running like a mad man. Stop to kick a few walls. Jump up on tables and chairs, Continue running. Climb up on the roof. Frantically run some more. Jump back down on the ground. Run circles around the building. Kick a few doors. Scream again. Run out to the parking lot. Jump up on the car, Yell at the top of his lungs. Run frantically as if his life depended on it to the nearest tree. Climb to the top. Scream again.
After a half hour or so of that, he'd come back, acting calm and normal again and say:
"There, I got it out."
When asked why he did it, he'd say:
"I don't know. I just had to get it out of me. I was gonna burst if I didn't."
For a short while the doctor thought he might have also had Toureets, but, then he said, "No. It's just ADHD. He's just more hyper then most."
People talk about childhood temper tantrums... well... have you ever seen a ADHD meltdown? Imagine 10 Autistic children all having a meltdown at once, put them on stedoids, and you still haven't got anything even close to an ADHD meltdown.
But the time a 5 year old with an ADHD meltdown is over: every glass item in the house will be smashed, ever doll will have it's head ripped off, every item of clothen owned by everybody in the family will be torn to itty bitty pieces, all the windows will be smashed out of the house, most of the furniture will have the stuffing ripped out, and the only reason it will have stopped, is because he finally threw himself on the floor, held his breath until he turned purple and passed out.
And it wasn't because he wanted anything or was angry, it wasn't a temper tantrum and he had no control over it... at times it seemed to terrify him, as though he was trying to stop, but was being thrown around by outside forces ... it was a result of sensory over stimulation.
And then, after, when you ask him: why did you do it, he shrugs and says "I don't know. It was like there was a monster inside of my trying to get out. I couldn't stop it, I tried, but it wouldn't stop no matter what I did."
(Several people who saw it, said it looked like demon possession, and our mother actually took to calling in exorcists to cast out demons. Several different priests came over the years to cast out "his demon".)
As it turned out... playing music too loud triggered it... our mother had a habit of playing music on mega loud speakers to annoy the Cyrs next door (which is why I'm almost deaf; she daily played music full blast and damaged my ear drums; my mom and the Cyrs have a viscous, often violent feud going on, but I don't know why it started before I was born so I've never known what they are fighting about; before the 1990s they used to shoot at each other; my mom's kind of crazy)... but the music triggered something in his brain... it was described by the doctor as being similar to epilepsy.
An ADHD meltdown has more in common with an epileptic seizure then a temper tantrum, which I didn't know until I saw one happen. And if you've never seen an ADHD meltdown in person, you can't even begin to imagine how bad they can get.
The meltdowns went away after around 12 years old. Replaced by pacing.
Pacing.
He can not sit down to eat, and carries his meal in a bowl, eating while he walks from one end of his apartment to the other.
He can not use a computer because he can not sit down long enough, and so instead has one of those computer-type cell phones so he can browse the internet while he walks from room to room.
Soon as he tries to sit down his feet start tapping and moving in place. His hands started grabbing and touching everything.
He got a treadmill so he could walk in place while doing things that he needs to be stationary for.
When trying to find his first job, he took job placement tests to match your ideal job to your personality, he scored high in fast food places where he could be on his feet and constantly moving around. So that's the job he went looking for. His first job was at a fast food place... he's still there, he loves it... he can walk all day long, chatter obsessively with his co-workers and the customers in a steady non-stop hyper chatter; he now trains the new people there; he will likely stay there forever and work his way up to management, as the hyper fast environment suits his hyper need for movement.
So, while I have some mild hyperactivity, I've never considered myself a hyper person, because I've seen first hand what ADHD is like and I'm nothing like that at all.
As such, Quaraun is not portrayed as being hyperactive.
However, his Unicorn is excessively hyper. Unicorn very clearly has ADHD on extreme levels. Like my brother, Unicorn has random outbursts of screaming and running around the room kicking things for no reason at all, other then he "has to get it out."
Unicorn is rarely shown as stopping to sit or rest. When other characters stop to rest, Unicorn is described as "pacing circles around the outer edge of the camp".
When Quaraun forces Unicorn to sit down, Unicorn starts poking Quaraun with his finger or grabs a stick and starts poking the fire, or starts throwing rocks at GhoulSpawn.
When the group is walking/hiking, Unicorn is often described as "trotting far ahead of the group, then galloping back as fast as he could, running past them, swinging back around and running back ahead of them again, whinnying like rabid pony as he went."
Upon passing a Human village, Unicorn is frequently described as "galloping wildly into the village, stabbing people with his horn as he went, stamping his hooves on children, and prancing merrily on the entrails of his victims". When asked by one of the group, why he does this to every Human village they past, he replies: "It must be done. I can'na not does it."
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The first known case of Autism was Victor de l'Aveyron, a feral child discovered living in the forest, had grown up without any form of human contact, and never spoke in 1801 by French physician Jean Marc Gaspard Itard.
Prior to the 1970s it was assumed that ALL Autistic children were "feral children" whom had been serverly neglected and or abused and had on some levels raised themselves without the normal guidance of a parent.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 are reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism to any child that can not also be considered "a Feral Child", thus why ACTUAL Autism diagnosis are so rare.
I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
TRUE Autism is caused by being born with a genetic mutation which triggers compulsive overcompensation techniques as a way to deal with extreme, abnormal, and excessive early age child abuse. The most common trigger is toddler rape by adults, sexual abuse, and child sex slavery.
Child sexual abuse (CSA) is a form of child abuse in which an adult or older adolescent abuses a child for sexual stimulation.
Sexual abuse refers to the participation of a child in a sexual act aimed toward the physical gratification or the financial profit of the person committing the act.
Forms of CSA include asking or pressuring a child to engage in sexual activities (regardless of the outcome), indecent exposure of the genitals to a child, displaying pornography to a child, actual sexual contact with a child, physical contact with the child's genitals, viewing of the child's genitalia without physical contact, or using a child to produce child pornography. Selling the sexual services of children may be viewed and treated as child abuse rather than simple incarceration.
Persons with ACTUAL Autism often display several of the following side effects of child sexual abuse:
Children who are the victims are also at an increased risk of sexually transmitted infections due to their immature immune systems and a high potential for mucosal tears during forced sexual contact.
In the United States, approximately 15% to 25% of women and 5% to 15% of men were sexually abused when they were children.
The uncles who raised me are currently wanted by and on the run from the FBI.
An increase in children having Autism = an increase in children being raped, molested, and sexually abused by a caregiver before reaching the age of 3.
Yes, because of what the ACTUAL causes of ACTUAL Autism are, if your child REALLY DOES have ACTUAL Autism...
you are one hell of a horrible, shitty, no good son of bitch, bastard of a parent and you should be in prison where your neglectful, self-serving, sexually depraved, child abusing ass belongs.
You might want to think about THAT next time you go around bragging "I self diagnosed my child as Autistic."
As many as 60% of all Autistics are catatonic... meaning they were abused so bad that their brain shut down, forcing them into a "waking coma" as a way to not see the abuse any longer.
Asperger’s Syndrome shares with Autism:
But people with Asperger’s do not have:
Aspies are:
Asperger’s is often not recognized easily or early, and may be misdiagnosed as:
As with Autism, the disorder is lifelong and symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away with time.
Asperger's is considered prevalent and very common.
Was identified in 1944, but was not recognized by doctors as an actual diagnosis until 1994.
Gifted Introverts are shy people with high IQs (an IQ of 130 or higher).
While socially awkward, they do not have the speech issues, ritualistic behaviors, or other symptoms of either Autism or Aspergers.
Many gifted, but introverted children are inaccurately diagnosed as having Aspergers when they in fact do not have it.
Gifted Children have a very high IQ of 130 or higher.
On the other hand, ACTUAL Aspies rarely have high IQs.
Most Aspergers people have a low IQ that is only slightly higher then the IQs of Autistics, usually in the range of 75 to 90.
High Functioning Aspergers are uncommon to rare, and most of them having normal/average IQs of between 90 to 120.
Autism equaling a high IQ is an urban myth spread by internet memes and is NOT an actual symptom of either Autism or Aspergers.
Aspies are more likely then not to have a low IQ in the range of 75 to 90.
Autistics rarely have an IQ above 75.
True Autism, ACTUAL Autism, is defined as "a psychosis caused by extreme psychological trauma in early childhood, often of a sexual nature".
Psychological trauma is a type of damage to the mind that occurs as a result of a severely distressing event. Trauma is often the result of an overwhelming amount of stress that exceeds one's ability to cope, or integrate the emotions involved with that experience. A traumatic event involves one's experience, or repeating events of being overwhelmed that can be precipitated in weeks, years, or even decades as the person struggles to cope with the immediate circumstances, eventually leading to serious, long-term negative consequences.
Trauma can be caused by a wide variety of events, but there are a few common aspects. There is frequently a violation of the person's familiar ideas about the world and their human rights, putting the person in a state of extreme confusion and insecurity. This is also seen when institutions that are depended upon for survival, violate, humiliate, betray, or cause major losses or separations.
Psychologically traumatic experiences often involve physical trauma that threatens one's survival and sense of security. Typical causes and dangers of psychological trauma include harassment, embarrassment, abandonment, abusive relationships, rejection, co-dependence, physical assault, sexual abuse, partner battery, employment discrimination, police brutality, judicial corruption and misconduct, bullying, paternalism, domestic violence, indoctrination, being the victim of an alcoholic parent, the threat or the witnessing of violence (particularly in childhood), life-threatening medical conditions, and medication-induced trauma.
Catastrophic natural disasters such as earthquakes and volcanic eruptions, large scale transportation accidents, house or domestic fire, motor vehicle accident, mass interpersonal violence like war, terrorist attacks or other mass tortures like sex trafficking, being taken as a hostage or kidnapped can also cause psychological trauma. Long-term exposure to situations such as extreme poverty or milder forms of abuse, such as verbal abuse, exist independently of physical trauma but still generate psychological trauma.
If your child has REAL, ACTUAL Autism, it means he suffered one of the above listed events prior to the age of 3 years old.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 believe that an Autistic person, is a person who was born with Aspergers, but whom suffered such horrendous abuse prior to the age of 3, that, their brain triggered over compensation methods to cope with the extreme abuse they were subjected to.
Because of this, Aspergers and Autism are considered by many to be two different forms of the same disorder, but that Aspergers does not become Autism unless it also has the severe early childhood sexual abuse to trigger it.
Because of the severe nature of the levels of sexual abuse required to trigger the Autism component of Asperger's, when a child is ACTUALLY diagnosed with REAL Autism, they are also immediately put into state custody and removed from their parents/guardian's care, and criminal charges are then filed against the parent/guardian.
If your child was not taken away from you at the time of diagnosis, and you did not have sexual abuse charged filed against you by the state, then your child was NOT diagnosed with ACTUAL Autism.
Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism) is listed as a Psychosis and is therefore a mental illness.
It is considered to be caused by a genetic birth defect, which triggers an imbalance of the synapses, when a person suffering from this birth defect, is subjected to sexual abuse.
Doctors and Pediatrics can not legally diagnose Autism because they can not legally diagnose mental illnesses.
Your child can only receive an ACTUAL Autism diagnoses by a Psychiatrist specially trained in severe cases of early childhood sexual trauma.
In spite of untrained teachers, caregivers, social workers, and parents tossing around the "diagnosis" of Autism... to the rate of calling 1 in every 3 children Autistic...
...Autism remains one of the most difficult diagnoses to get diagnosed with, due to the fact doctors are reluctant to risk being sued for false charges of sexual abuse of the child, should it later be discovered the child had not been sexually abused and therefore does NOT have Autism.
Only 1 in 10,000 children are ever ACTUALLY diagnosed with Autism, by someone ACTUALLY TRAINED in recognizing this level of early childhood sexual abuse trauma.
Because Kanner's Syndrome aka ACTUAL Autism is so rare, fewer then 20% of all doctors are trained in how to recognize, diagnose, or treat it.
If your doctor diagnoses your child with "Autism" - get a new doctor immediately, as they are not trained in Autism well enough to know there is no actual medical diagnoses of "Autism" because there is no disease, illness, or disorder that actually has the medical name "Autism".
Both Aspergers and Autism are considered to be "types" of Schizophrenia.
Contrary to popular urban myths spread by ill informed parents and patients, both Autism and Aspergers are mental illnesses and can only be treated by psychiatrists. Family Practitioners and Pediatricians are not legally licensed to treat or diagnose either Aspergers or Autism. Beware of any one who says otherwise.
Unlike most mental illnesses, Aspergers and Autism are disorders you are born with. You can not "get" them. Once activated, they do not lesson, get better, or go away with time.
Similar to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, both Aspergers and Autism require traumatic stress to "activate" the genes the child was born with. Once activated, they do not turn back off.
Both Aspergers and Autism are also known as "Childhood Onset Schizophrenia".
The difference in the diagnoses, and the severity of the symptoms, is typically a result of the age of onset.
Autism is when the genes are triggered in early childhood before the age of 3. Because of the early onset, Autism is the most physically crippling and disabling type of Schizophrenia. There are no known treatments.
Aspergers is when the genes are triggered in late childhood often around the age of 14. Because of the later onset, many Aspies are able to live independent and functional lives. Diet and lifestyle are considered to help, though this is only speculation.
Schizophrenia is when the genes are triggered in adulthood after the age of 20. Late onset Schizophrenia is often treated with medication, though there is much debate in the medical world as the usefulness of this approach.
I am 1 of the 1 in 10,000 people who has REAL, ACTUAL Autism.
I do not have more then 90% of the symptoms "commonly attributed to Autisim", because most of those symptoms are urban myths made up by fans of Sheldon Cooper and are not real symptoms of REAL Autism.
Find out what it is like to live with REAL Autism here.
Find out why 80% of people claiming to be Autistic are not here:
Autism, Asperger's, And The Danger of The Self-Diagnosis
Keep in mind that MOST of what you find posted on the internet as "Symptoms of Asperger's" is written by self-diagnosed Aspies, and is VASTLY different from what the ACTUAL, clinical symptoms are.
Remember:
Autism is very rare, only 1 in 10,000 children ACTUALLY have it.
Getting a diagnosis of Autism is next to impossible.
Parents who push their doctors to look for Autism in their child, are rarely aware that they are asking their doctor to look for sex abuse done by a parent.
Aspergers is fairly uncommon, only 1 in 400 children ACTUALLY have it.
Yet 1 in ever 3 children is self diagnosed (by themselves or a parent) as being an "Aspie".
Autism Spectrum Disorder in far more common with 1 in 64 children having it. (This means, 1 in every 64 children, have one of the illnesses o the list below)
There are more then 60 illnesses, which are commonly miss-self-diagnosed as Aspergers:
Some of the illnesses on that list are extremely life threatening if left untreated.
Most parents who self-diagnose their child, do so with out ever looking at ANY alternative. Many of these mothers are later diagnosed with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television", with 40% of children between the ages of 12 and 18, admitting they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and 60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children stating they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"... The horrible reality is Autism always has been and still is very rare, with only 1 in 10,000 children actually having it (also the correct medical name for Autism is Kanner's Syndromn and if you child has REAL Autism, the doctor NEVER says "your child has Autism" but rather says "your child has Kanner's Syndrom").
In spite of the fact that Autism (Kanners Syndrome) is a very rare BIRTH DEFECT caused by mutated genes, and effects only 1 in every 10,000 people, as many as 1 in 3 people currently claim to have Autism.
These facts make me feel sad for all the REAL Autistics and their parents, because the fact remains there are a lot of fakers out there and they don't realize how hard they make it for those of us with real Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare, and very crippling birth defect that is in no way, shape or form, related to Aspergers or Autism Spectrum Disorder.
To know Autism better, it is best to look at real life people who actually have it.
Liberace was noted for:
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Liberace's kind loving, gentle, childlike nature, his very low IQ, his savant skills in music and cooking, his addictions to all things pink and glitter, his speech disorders (see the videos to hear it in the interviews), his love of animals, his obsessive hoarding problem (watch him trying to squeeze through massive mega hoarding piles of his collections in his house in the family and friends interview below) and his desire to help everyone he meet, are all ACTUAL SYMPTOMS of both Autism and Aspergers.
People who look at Liberace, his glitter, his bright colours, his eye poping pinks, his giddy childlike manner, and often say stuff like...
"But 1 in 3 children have Autism and you don't see 1 in 3 people acting like Liberace. Almost no one dresses or acts like him..."
Ah!
That's what THIS page is for. Go read Part 2: On Writing Autistic Characters Accurately: Autism, Asperger's, And The Danger of The Self-Diagnosis, which explains why it is, 1 in 3 children "have Autism" while only 1 in 10,000 people dress and act like Liberace.
The short answer is this:
The fact of the matter is, Autism always has been and still is a very rare disorder and Asperger's is markedly different from Autism, and self-diagnosed Aspergers is different then either Autism or Aspergers.
When you meet someone with Autism... REAL Autism... you are gonna know it. You are not going to say to yourself:
"Hmmm maybe they might possibly have Autism"...
No, you a gonna say:
"OMG! What the freaking hell is wrong with that person, did you see how they were dressed? Did you hear how they talked? They are dancing around chasing butterflies like a 2 year old! What the freaking hell? They are so bizarre!"
If you can get a person with Autism to talk, you are gonna notice, they have a very distinctive voice. They all have it. Every single one of us. Don't know what is sounds like? Here... watch this video... an interview with Liberace... pay attention to his voice and how he talks in a "child like pitch" and uses "childlike" phrases and expressions while talking... (he is in his 60s in this interview)
That is what is known as "the autistic voice" also known by bigots as "the gay voice".
If you ever looked at my YouTube videos, you'll see the most common comment across the board is for people to ask: "What's wrong with her voice?"
I have Autism, and so, like every one else who has Autism, I have that very distinctive "autistic voice".
Aspies do not have it. It one of the ways Aspergers is different then Autism. Aspergers have what is known as the "monotone voice" also known as "the robotic voice" or "the emotionless voice".
It's one of the easiest ways to tell if a person has Autism or Aspergers or neither. Just get them to talk and listen to their voice.
Also Autistics tend to prance instead of walk and gallop instead of run. Watch an autistic walk - they don't stroll along like most people do, but rather have a hop, skip, jump, tippy toe a few steps, then hop, skip, jump again, then twirl around on their toe like a ballerina, hop, skip, jump again, take a few steps, and repeat.
When told to walk slow, Autistics often hold their arms straight out, and do very tiny "ballerina toe steps" nearly walking in place. Which adults often describe as "twinkle toes".
Autistics walk as though their was music playing and they were prancing across a stage. This is how they walk, every day.
Autistic children, also like to climb, and can frequently be seen jumping up onto chairs or tables, and then spinning around in circles, often with a cape of some sort tied around their neck.
Aspergers on the other hand walk very slow and carefully, often toe to heel, one foot before the other in an awkward straight line, as if walking on a tight rope. It's very controlled, very robotic, and very stiff.
When Aspies run, they also have an interesting way of doing so, where they hold their arms down to their sides, very stiff, very straight, not moving at all, while they high goose step a march, pushing their knees so high, you wonder how they are not knocking their teeth out.
Like the Autistic voice and the Aspie voice, the Autistic walk and the Aspie walk are each very distinctive, and are again, hallmarks of each disorder, making it VERY easy to identify someone with REAL Autism or REAL Aspergers.
80% of self-diadnosed Aspies do not display either the Autistic voice or the Aspie voice, nor the Autistic walk or the Aspie walk, which can be used as proof in itself, that they have miss-self-diagnosed.
But, no, you are right... in spite of 1 in 3 children being self diagnosed as "Aspies" and claiming they therefore are "autistic"... you only see 1 in 10,000 who "talk childish", prance instead of walk, wear capes, pink, and glitter as every day fashion, and act like they are 2 years old no matter how old they are, because, in spite of the boom of "self diagnosed" Aspies and Autistics, there are still ONLY 1 in 10,000 children born with REAL Autism.
A person can be diagnosed as having BOTH Autism AND Asperger's.
A common thing I hear from readers is the phrase:
"But how can he have Autism, only kids get that!"
"But that's a childhood illness, he's a grown man, he can't be Autistic."
"Wait, how can an adult have Autism?"
It seems to baffle many readers of the series to see Quaraun, an adult with Autism.
While the series spans his entire life (750 years), the bulk of the series takes place in a small 50 year period, when he is around 450 years old, which is the equivalent of a 40 to 50 year old human man.
For some reason the average person is unaware of the fact that Autism does not go away once the child becomes an adult.
The problem seems to be based in:
"But I never see adults with Autism!"
No. You don't. That's because 73% of all Autistic children, grow up to be adults who living in nursing homes, group care homes...
Did you know that a Nursing Home is NOT the same thing as a Home For the Elderly, a Seniors' Home, or a Retirement Assisted Living Complex?
Contrary to what you are told in movies, a Nursing Home is a place for adults who can not function without 24 hour adult supervision and have no relative willing to care for them. Autism and Downs Syndrome are the two most common types of patients in a Nursing Home. Most of them being between the ages of 18 to 45. (Few Autistics live past 45 years of age.)
Do you know why most Autistics do not live past 45? Because most die from starvation, malnutrition, untreated injuries, untreated broken bones that became infected, suicide, or being beaten to death by bullies.
Autistic adults are rarely able to cook for themselves, and without caregivers can go weeks on end without food.
Autistic adults are rarely aware they are sick, hurt, or injured, and if they do not have a caregiver to take them to the hospital, they do not think to go on their own. This is not an avoidance of doctors, but rather them absent minding forgetting that things like doctors exist.
Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by poison" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell the difference between a white bottle of milk and a white bottle of Draino.
Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by overdose" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell the difference between take 2 before bed and take 20 before bed, due to their not being able to count or comprehend differences in the amount of things.
And again Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by overdose" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell time and instead of "take 1 pill every 8 hours" taking 8 pills every half hour.
Autistic adults have the highest rate of any illness of dying from injuries sustained by bullies. This is a combination of Autistic adults being 63% more likely to be bullied with excessive physical violence and 83% more likely to not seek medical help (see above).
73% of Autistic adults will never set foot out of a nursing home or be seen by the general public.
(And why do all these percentages end in 3?)
Pay close attention to Autistic children... have you ever noticed that between the ages of 18 to 24, they simply disappear? Vanish from the world as though they never existed? This is because 73% of all parents of Autism, mistakenly thought their child would hit 18 and BOOM the "childhood illness" would disappear.
Then 18 came and went and reality hit them... their child was going to continue to wear diapers for the next 50 year. Their child would never talk, never learn to eat on their own... after 18 years of waiting for that magical day when adulthood would set in and they could FINALLY have a break from raising an Autistic child - reality set in and they were faced with: OMG! Autism is NOT a childhood illness! It doesn't magically go away at adulthood!
And so, it was off to the nursing home with them. The parents finally got their freedom. The Autistic adult is left traumatized, feeling abandoned by his family, unloved, unwanted, and in more then half of all cases, will commit suicide with in the first 2 years of being sent to a nursing home, once the realization their family is never coming back for them sets in.
That is why you rarely see Autistic adults in public, and that is why Autism has the highest suicide rate of any mental illness. A symptom of Autism is an inability to accept change; becoming closely attached to their caretakers; and suicide if ever separated from said caregivers.
It’s important to avoid stereotypes like, “All people with autism do . . . .” Remember, there are just as many individual differences among people with autism as there are among people without autism.
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Evil men go out of their way to try to drive a person to suicide.
Are you an evil man?
Are you sure you're not?
How many people have YOUR hate filled words killed?
Next time you go to do a mean thing to a fellow human, stop and really think about the consequences of your actions.
Did you ever notice how every one has a story to tell about me, yet not one of them ever speaks the truth?
What lies has YOUR gossiping tongue spread about me?
Did you know...
October 16, 2006, bomb blew up my house because of YOUR lies.
August 8, 2013, the house which replaced the one the bomb blew up, was driven over by a backhoe.
November 14, 2013, my 8 month old infant son was murdered because of your lies.
November 14, 2013, I was beaten up, paralized for 5 months, spent 18 weeks relearning to walk, I'm now crippled for the rest of my life, because of YOUR lies.
Are you proud of what you have done?
Enjoy your eternity in Hell. You earned it. You've certainly worked hard for it.
~EelKat
If you have any information about any of these events, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
Two days is the 10 year anniversary of the murder of my 8 month old son. The killer has not been found yet. Old Orchard Beach, Maine Police at 207-935-4911 and Portland Maine FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 are investigating the murder of my son so, if you have any information, please give it to them. https://www.eelkat.com/Never-Forget.html
UPDATE to add answer to question:
No. I am legally blind. I have been since I was 4 years old. I can not see what she looks like. I go by sound of voice and body smell to identify people. For what someone looks like I have to go by what others tell me. Like I said, I've never seen the woman who attacks, as she clearly knows I am legally blind and stays over 4 feet away from me.
A person has to be closer than four feet from me in order for me to even make out the blur outline of their body shape/height/weight. But in order for ne to see their face they must have their face closer the EIGHT INCHES.
It's why I CAN identify the Claire woman and the Kendra woman who murdered my son, if anyone ever finds them and gets them in a line-up, I would be able to pick them out, but why I can not identify this weird crazy woman who shows up at the Biddeford apartment and stand yelling on the front porch and killed my dog Mickey in June 2023, and tried to kill me by poisoning my pizza at Round 1, while running around the restaurant screaming the same way she does here.
I can identify her voice and her laugh and her smell, its a very "Minnie Mouse type" high pitch shrieking with a megaphone style booming cackle laugh. And she smells really strong of alcohol drinks but I don't know what type as I am a Mormon and I don't know them. She also has a weird "rotting cat pee mixed with burned cotton candy smell" to her, which I am told by police, sounds like I am trying to describe a mix of "crack and weed" which the police said is some type of drug, but again, I'm a Mormon so I do not know those things. According to witnesses she is very fat, According to both my mother and my father she is well over 300lbs. Around twenty different people said she has "Shirley Temple Sausage curls" hair, while nearly a dozen other people said she has red curly hair, and several more people described her with straight purple hair, while some described her as wearing a "pulp fiction uma thurman wig".
In total well over a hundred people have come forward citing that she shows up on their porch and starts yell at them, and always starts out with some kind of "I got to warn you about EelKat and her demons" rant. They always describe her as "fat", "morbidly obeses", some say "200lbs" others say "300lbs". Some say she is in her 30s others say she is in her 40s. None of them know who she is, they all say she is a total stranger to them and they also all say, they had no idea who I was either.
They come to my apartment, they said, to tell me what she is doing, each of them saying they found out where I was because she told them my address, and they came over to tell me that she was doxxing my family. These people are always citing that they live in the Cutt St/Main street/May St/South St area, all of them saying they live within 3 or 4 blocks of me and that she walks to their buildings, they never see a car. My Biddeford apartment is 409 Main Street and she has shown up here daily from November 21, 2021 (the same day Etiole was shot; he says by her) until May 17, 2022. After May 2022, she showed up every holiday and every weekend, but no longer every day.
Today is the 12th of November 2023 and she has already been here 4 times this month. At the same time, people around the Portland Ave and Cascade area of Old Orchard, are also arriving saying the same things, but about a man. They cite a white haired man, very skinny, rather short, around 5'6", around 70, is going driveway to driveway, parking a big Power Wagon sized Dodge Ram pickup truck across their driveway, then getting out, waving a rifle over his head, and yell up at their house ALSO saying he is there to "warn you about EelKat and her aliens".
The two are believed to be grandfather/granddaughter, and FBI suspects they are the husband and granddaughter of the mystery "Claire" woman who murdered my son. They believe, that the homeless man who was murdered November 19, 2021, DID in fact know who the "Claire" woman who murdered my son was, and they believe this white haired man and woman who screams from porches are the ones who killed the homeless man, seeing how, he showed up on the 7 year anniversary of my son's murder, asking for the FBI phone number, claiming he knew who the woman who murdered my son was, but 5 days later he was murdered before he got a chance to talk to the FBI (the federal building in Portland was closed for the holiday week and the homeless man died before they reopened).
These 2, the white haired man and younger woman both showed up November 21, 2021, 2 days after the November 19, 2021 murder of the homeless man, who was murdered in the backyard of my Biddeford apartment, by the way, that week our building was yellow taped and crawling with police, that's why they were picking up the hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of chopped up pieces of the homeless man, which took them 3 days to find all of him. The FBI believes the homeless man was killed by someone who did not want him to identify my son's murderer... this homeless man's death is WHY my son's cold case, was reopened and the FBI once again here asking all the neighbors for leads.
The FBI believes that the reason these two are hyper going from house to house all around me (I have 2 addresses: 409 Main Street Biddeford and 146 Portland Ave, Old Orcharch; and they are going up and down both streets and all side streets off of both streets), trying to spread slanderous rumors about me, most of the rumors involving some gibberish about demons, aliens, haunted cats, kidnapped cats, schizophrenia, and tons of other similar outright gibbering insanity.
The FBI believes they are spreading their wild gibbering slander in a weird attempt to get witness to NOT come forward with information about my son's murder. This in turn has led the FBI to believe that SOMEONE NEAR BY IS a witness to my son's murder and is scared of these two people. It is believed that this weird smear slander campaign these two are doing, is a direct fear tactic aimed at terrorizing someone they know to be a witness.
These two are bullying and harassing my family on extreme and outlandish levels. The whole thing is very bizarre, and if this woman had NOT started running her gossiping, busy body, slandering mout h off on every front porch in the area, my son's murder investigation would NOT have been reopened.
The thing is, for 7 years, from 2013 to 2021, there were ZERO leads.
The mystery homeless man who showed up on the 7 year anniversary, was the first time anyone came forward claiming to know who the murderer was, but he was murdered 5 days later, and 2 days after that these 2 showed up with their wild tales of demons, aliens, haunted cars, etc.
Interestingly, at the same time, YouTube got flooded with HUNDREDS of deep fake "Golden Eagle Haunted Car" AI generated videos, alongside TENS OF THOUSANDS of weird "anti-EelKat" Reddit posts spread across well over a hundred Reddit accounts. Which in turn caused my website to have a MEGA massive increase in traffic - with now over a million users per month, searching Google for the term "EelKat golden Eagle Ghost Car Wendy Allen Demon Car" (the keyword that Google Analytics says has sent the most traffic to my website since November 2021). In their weird slander attempt, and in making all these weird deep fake videos, and in posting all those weird Reddit posts, they have had an unexpected side effect of RAISING AWARENESS to my son's murder, by sending millions of people to my website.
I don't do any marketing or promoting of my website, there is the URL painted on my car and the link from my FaceBook profile, together those each around two thousand people.
This weird smear campaign these 2 have done since November 2021, has had a HUGE impact on traffic to my website. HUGE. With my site going from 10k average monthly visitors to over SEVEN MILLION average monthly visitors.
This woman and the white haired man, in their mega hyper attempts to slander men, inadvertently caused people to start direct typing the word "EelKat" into Google search engine, which of course cause Google to give them eelkat.com as a search result. In their attempt to BURY all thoughts of my son's murder, by trying to spread crazy rumors about me, they instead caused the page about my son's murder to receive an average of over ONE MILLION NEW USERS visiting it, EACH MONTH since they stated yelling from porches around Biddeford in November 2021.
Which in turn has also lead to more than one thousand people calling the police and FBI giving tips about my son's murder.
So, in their attempt to make me look crazy, all they did was make themselves look very, very, VERY guilty, while spreading awareness about my son's murder to people who, before these two arrived on porched in Biddeford and Old Orchard, were unaware of my son's murder.
But no, back to your question, I've never seen either of these two. I'm blind, remember? Blind since I was 4 years old. Blind from being beaten in the face with a limb from a pine tree. I have been blind for five decades.
And no, I've never spoken with either of them. I'm mute, remember? My jaw was fused shut, from the bone growing back wrong, after being beaten in the face with a cinder block brick, when I was 14 years old. I have been mute for four decades. I was 42 years old when doctors discovered I was not born mute, but was forcable made mute by "medical augmentation" aka torture. In June 2016, I had surgery to allow me to open my jaw properly for the first time in 40 years, but four decades mute, meant my vocal cords never grew properly, never received conditioning, and now today, I still can not speak properly, my voice is barely a whisper, IF I can even form vocalizations at all, which usually I can not. Because of this I have no physical ability to raise my voice at all, I can not scream or yell at all, I am physically, medically incapable of getting my voice to be anything other then a whisper, and even that causes searing pain, resulting in I don't bother trying to speak.
And no, I've not had contact with anyone. From 1983 until 2006 I was locked in a rusted racoon trap cage in a wood shed "room", and there were only 7 people who ever checked in on me that entire time, and they only did that once a week. Needless to say I never went to school. I had a typewriter, and my grandmother brought paper each week. I became very good at typing, because for 27 years, I had nothing else to do.
October 2006 a bomb blew up that house. I almost died. Someone put the bomb in that "room" while I was asleep. From 2006 to 2015, I lived under a 8x9 tarp at the back of that wood shed.
Out of the entire of my more then five decades of life, I have only had contact with Humans for three years. From October 2010 to November 2013.
In October 2010 I went to the Old Orchard Beach High School and got my GED after 3 weeks of night classes. I got a ride to the DMV and got my driver's permit. Then I enrolled in two colleges York County Community College and Southern Maine Community College, taking five classes per semester. I could not enroll as a degree student because I do not know how to count or tell time or read clocks or calendars or do maths.
At SMCC, three professors (Andrew Parker, Robert Vettes, and Chris M) attempted to teach me how to speak. The SMCC student counselor brought in social workers and a state psychologist who diagnosed me as "a feral child" and stated I had no social skills on any level whatsoever due to what they termed "the most horrific case of child abuse and neglect ever seen in Maine history". They found my not knowing about things like eating utensils, bathing, or communicating verbally to be the worst case of "feral childism" in modern history.
A team of psychiatrists were brought to the college, over a dozen of the world's top child behavior specialists from countries all over the world: to do a study on the "training of a feral child" and to make "attempts to intergrade a feral child into modern American society". They called me an anomaly and a "once in a hundred years chance of a lifetime study subject".
Four of them predicted I would: never drive a car, never learn to talk, never make a single friend, never learn to interact with Humans, never learn to eat with a fork, and never learn math.
I became the "test subject" of more then a dozen "feral child studied" which lasted my entire time at college, and ended abruptly November 14, 2013, when a mystery woman who identified herself as "Claire" attacked with a golf club, murdering my baby and leaving me with a broken spine and paralyzed legs.
Even before I became bedridden in 2013, I could not walk unaided. My hip was stabbed with a foundation rod, that was driven through my right hip and out my left thigh. My Uncle Bruce did that when I was 4 years old. I've struggled to even stand, let alone walk, since I was FOUR years old. So being crippled, unable to walk, was not new. But my whole life, it was my hips, and now it is my spine, and a severed nerve bundle in my spinal column.
Since November 2013 I have been bedridden, and the ONLY way you can talk to me or see me is to visit me, visit my bed.
I can not see.
I can not talk.
I can not walk.
Since 2013 I am out of bed fewer then 2 hours a day.
And NO ONE... not ONE SINGLE PERSON, ever visited me since 2013, or before.
The ONLY people who arrive are the ones who stand in the driveway and on the porch and yell obscenities and hate slurs from the street... and they are too far away for me to see them, and they are too far away for them to hear my whisper if I tried to talk, which I don't. Plus, I can not sit up, it takes well over an hour for me to sit up in my bed, so by the time I am sitting up, they are gone.
So, anyone telling you I have seen them, spoken with them, yelled at them, interacted with them, at ANY point prior to 1983... when I was locked in that cage ... is lying to you. Because since 1983, NO ONE but my husband Benjamin Kitchle Wildes, my grandmother Eva Viola Atwater, and my uncles Bruce, Dickie, & David, and my aunt Barbara has EVER underreacted with me at all. And the only interactions from Brice, David, Dickie, and Barbara was to electrocute me for the fun of watching me pass out, stabbing me with broken glass again for th e fun of it, and beating me with cinder block bricks because breaking the bones of children is funny according to them.
From October 2010 to November 2013, ar the ONLY three years of my life where I ever went outside and had interaction with Humans, and I was seen as so UN-human that 90% of my Human interactions was with psychiatrists who were giddy piss pants excited to have "a real live feral child oh boy!" to study.
So ANYONE telling you they have ever had ANY form of interactions with me EVER in my ENTIRE LIFE, if lying to you, because those interactions I just listed are the ONLY ones that have EVER happened. PERIOD.
You ask how I can remember everything everyone has ever done and said? Easy? Because so FEW people have ever done or said ANYTHING AT ALL, that it makes it each to remember EVERY ONE of them, for the very simple fact that there is literally not one other thing in my life to remember.
More then 99% of the hours of my life have been spent ALONE, in total darkness, in a cage, or alone, bed ridden in a bed, with no one saying ANYTHING to me, no one EVER interacting with me at all... and with fewer then two hundred total interactions with a Human in my ENTIRE LIFE, I am easily able to remember every single one of them.
Two days is the 10 year anniversary of the murder of my 8 month old son. The killer has not been found yet. Old Orchard Beach, Maine Police at 207-935-4911 and Portland Maine FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 are investigating the murder of my son so, if you have any information, please give it to them. https://www.eelkat.com/Never-Forget.html
You never saw the room Ben and my mother kept me locked in for 27 years from the time I was 8 years old, the one Etiole used to break me out of? Well here you go, photos of it from the 2007 FBI and police reports, THIS is the "room", my mother designed it, my father built it, Bruce hired the priests of the Cape Elizabeth, Saco, and Sanford ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints to rape me in it... from the time i was 8 until 12, when Ben aka the High Priest came along and declared I was his and from the time i was 12 until 31 Ben kept me in this room only allowing me out on Sundays to attend church. still wonder why I hate the Atwaters? When I was 37 years old the FBI showed up and started the investigation into the trafficking ring the Atwaters ran out of 37 Smithwheel Road and 144 Portland Ave, Maine, this room was a pivotal piece of evidence that was roped off and no one allowed in it because of the FBI investigation... that's why the backhoe that ran over this room August 8, 2013 is such a very big importance... THIS room is what the backhoe was trying to hide. Look close at the floor, you can see the bones of the children who didn't survive.
I'm a survivor of adults who thought selling children to priests was a good income and this room was the biggest piece of evidence the FBI had until the backhoe drove over the house and carried off the remained, doing the biggest tampering of evidence of a fucking murder investigation ... that's WHY the backhoe drove over the house, because the Atwaters were desperate to hide the evidence of this rooms existence, and that's WHY they started the alien abduction hoax about me and Etiole because they thought if they destroyed the room and gaslighted me by spread alien abduction rumors, they thought they could convince everyone i was crazy for saying i was locked in this room for 27 years... but they didn't know before they did that, that the FBI had already been in the room and has HUNDREDS of photos of every inch of it. It was not the only place like this. These Atwater run child trafficking "rooms" have been found in twenty-one states. The FBI has shut down 14 of these child trafficking rings run by the Atwaters. If you support the Atwaters in any way, THIS is what you are supporting. When you send money to an Atwater run fund raiser, you funding building more rooms like this one. That's what they do with your hard earned money. Rooms like this, where small children, are raped and starved. And because the children have no birth records, no ID, they live and die without a paper trail. They exist to be raped daily, until they have their first period and risk getting pregnant, and they the room is locked not to be opened again, until they starve to death. Most die before their 12th birthday.
I'm a survivor, and I survived because of Etiole, because while HUNDREDS of people in Old Orchard Beach, Maine knew of this room, used this room, he was the only person with the moral decency to be horrified by this room and try to stand up to the Atwaters, and try the help the children. He used to break in and try to rescue me. Took me out into the swamps of the Ross Forest. But the Atwaters always found me and took me back.
To discredit me, when I was 14 years old, and escaped to the local police and tried to get help, the Atwaters made up a terrible story: they lied to the police. They told the police, there was no room, and Etiole was a figment of my imagination, they called him a demon at first, and later they called him an alien. The Atwaters spread a horrific lie, telling people that I was an alien abductee. And depending on WHICH Atwater you talked to the story changed wildly: sometimes Etiole was a evil spirit, other times a cryptid, other times a demon, but most often "The Amphibious Alien".
We had a neighbor back in the 1970s, his name was Stephen King, he wrote about us. My Gypsy family, my car, me, and Etiole. He filmed two movies on our farm, but never once tried to help the children he wrote about. He never tried to help us children, even though his books and movies today exist as evidence that he was well aware of this room and Etiole. Instead, he profited off of our pain and suffering, while 120 of those children were saw up and their bones dumped in the Goosefare Broke Ravine in the Reclaim Blueberry Plains of the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach, Maine... bones confiscated by the FBI in June 2016, which led to the arrest of many of the child traffickers at 37 Smithwheel Rod, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, that same year.
Meanwhile The Atwaters continued to spread their lies about me and Etile, contacting hundreds of alien and UFO and cryptid organizations telling them I was abducted by aliens and Etiole was that alien. Only I have no clue what they were doing and I had never heard of the concept of aliens or cryptids or UFOs, and so I had no clue what MUFON and the UFO nuts were talking about, when they showed up on my farm to interview me and try to catch Etiole, calling him an EBE.
There are no aliens.
There are no demons.
There are no evil spirits.
There are no haunted cars.
There was just this room, and the children raped by Mormon priests... Mormon Priests, known as The Atwaters... Mormon Priests who invented the urban myth of a haunted car and a child abducted by aliens, for one reason, and one reason only: to make the children crazy, if those children ever dared tell people about this room.
Rooms like the one at 144 Portland Ave, 146 Portland Ave, and 37 Smithwheel Road, exist all over the State of Maine, and the 3 the FBI shut down in Old Orchard Beach, ran from the 1950s until 2016. I was put in this room in 1983. That's why I have no knowledge of any world event, any movie, and TV show, and books, anything that occurred between 1983 and 2010.
ALL of the children who survived these rooms, ALL of them, have been slandered the same way the Atwaters slandered me and Etiole. Each with stories of aliens and demons. Thirty-one of those survivors, have commit suicide, all who escaped, killed themselves within 3 years because of the alien abduction lies the Atwaters spread about them, alien abduction lies that are no different then the alien abduction lies the Atwaters spread about me and Etiole.
Yes, I am EelKat, Etiole’s friend, but I don’t know why you call me that, because it’s the other way around. He was my friend. He was my ONLY friend. He was the only person in this godforsaken town of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, who did not value money or sex over the lives of children.
There are ONE group of people who call me an alien abductee. The Atwaters and their evil, child raping church group. They call me an alien abductee, simple as a gaslighting method, of trying to make me sound crazy, so you won’t look at what they are doing to children. They try to make all the children they torture look crazy, so that no one will believe the child when child tells an adult about the rooms or the rape. Trust NO ONE who calls me an alien abductee, because THEY are involved in a very big child trafficking ring.
I am not an alien abductee and I never claimed to be, and if anyone ever told you I was, you should look at them with suspicion and ask what they did, that they are trying to make you look somewhere else, to not see what they are doing.
There are ONE group of people who call Etiole an alien. The Atwaters and their evil, child raping church group. They call him an alien, simple as a gaslighting method, of trying to make me sound crazy, when I was 8 years old said an old man broke into the room and took me into the swamps; they call him an alien so you won’t look at what they are doing to children. They try to make all the children they torture look crazy, so that no one will believe the child when child tells an adult about the rooms or the rape. Trust NO ONE who calls Etiole an alien, because THEY are involved in a very big child trafficking ring.
Etiole is not an alien and I never said he was, and if anyone ever told you he was, you should look at them with suspicion and ask what they did, that they are trying to make you look somewhere else, to not see what they are doing.
He is a local homeless French Jewish man, whom I let sleep in my car on rainy nights so that he can stay dry. Retarded locals think he is a demon or alien or whatever else they call him, because he is covered in scars and burns and Kabalic tattoos and number tattoos from being a concentration camp survivor from WW2.
You can see video footage of his living conditions:
and HERE
and HERE. These videos where filmed in 2022
As you can see from the videos, this homeless man whom my sick jackass Uncle Bruce has spent DECADES harassing, has NOTHING, he LITERALLY is living in a hole he dug with his fingernails, in the sand under a fallen tree, and you can see from these videos WHY I let him sleep in my car, and WHY the shit heads of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Maine who are harassing this homeless man, calling him a cryptid, calling him an alien, calling him an evil spirit, are scumbag pieces of shit who don't deserve the life god gave them.
The Atwaters and their church group are evil, and if you believe their lies about me or Etiole, then you've fallen for their scam, just like they wanted you to do.
There is right now, in October of 2023, a group of people actively going to houses, store, bars, and restaurants throughout Biddeford and Old Orchard Beach, randomly approaching total strangers and and saying "Have you heard about EelKat?" And then going on some spiel involving wild radical tales of demons, aliens, haunted cars, cats, about 40 people near as we can tell, led by an elderly white haired man who drives a dark green pick up truck and a very fat, extremely morbidly obese blond woman about late 30s/early 40s, who people in the area have dubbed "porch bitch" because she goes from porch to porch all over Biddeford screaming from strangers' porches to walkers on the sidewalk, always screaming "Have you head about EelKat?" usually referencing also my Volvo. The FBI believes these two to be the husband and daughter of the woman who murdered my son. If you know who the white haired man or "porch bitch" are, the FBI is actively seeking information about their identity.
I am legally blind, I have never seen either of these people, so I do not know what they look like, I only know what witnesses are telling me they looked like when they showed up at their homes. I also have Kannar's Syndrome, real and actual (non-verbal, low functioning) Autism (not to be confused with high functioning Aspergers; I am only able to communicate by typing, and so here I am, typing, so I am unable to verbally respond to what these people are telling me. I have agoraphobia so, it is often months between me setting foot outside, but I am crippled with a broken spine from the November 14, 2013 attack of the golf club woman who crippled me when she murdered me son and thus I also can not get out of bed or stand up unaided. I do not know who either porch bitch or the white haired man these people are telling me is approaching them are. My son's murderer whom also crippled me, she I can identify if she ever got close enough again, but these two people whom are suspected of being her husband and daughter, I have not seen and can not identify. When you come to me and tell me they have approached you, you do nothing useful or helpful. I can not take YOUR testimony to the police or FBI, because it is YOUR testimony, not mine. YOU have to tell the POLICE and FBI what these people did. Do not come to me and tell me, because other then post this message here, there is nothing else I can do with the information you have provided.
There is some speculation that porch bitch may in fact live in my apartment building here at 409 Main Street in Biddeford, but I have lived here since February 2019, and of the 9 other families here, only one of them has lived here longer than me. Between the 9 families in our building, there are more then people living in this building and to date, I have met none of them.
Initially I had tried to introduce myself to each family in this building however, they are white and I am not, they are Christians and I am Moron/Voodoo, and this Maine where hatred of all things not white and not Christian are at their worst in the entire country.
White hatred for us Gypsies is very bad here in Maine and many in my family have been beaten, tortured, and murdered by the white Christians of Maine.
Does porch bitch live in our building? I do not know. But many witnesses are now saying they have seen her going in and out of the building, so she either lives here or knows someone who does.
With the extreme anti-Gypsy animosity and anti-Pagan animosity the 9 families who live at 409 Main Street have shown my family since we moved in here on February 2019, I would not be at all surprised if porch bitch not only lived here but the others know it, know what she is doing to my family and are not reporting it to the police simply because, that's what white people do to us non-whites.
Interestingly, witnesses are saying they believe the white haired man with the big green Dodge Ram pickup truck, lives on Portland Ave, very near my farm.
It is deeply disturbing, if this is true, because that means porch bitch and the white haired man are doing very severe levels of stalking, because my family has lived at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach since the 1530s, we settled and founded the town, and in 2019 when I moved into this apartment in Biddeford, no one else lived in this building, other then the gay couple who are still here and the only ones here longer than me. And also in 2019, there was no white haired man living near me on Portland Ave.
This means, the man suspected of being "Clair's husband and the woman suspected of being "Claire's" daughter, Claire being the name the woman who murdered my son, called herself, have moved in next door to BOTH of my addresses within the last 3 years.
Claire used a golf club to beat my 8 month old son's head in with. If you are protecting Claire, know that THAT is the sort of child murdering bitch you are defending.
Claire's identity is the one we want. We want to know who she is. In 2021 a homeless man showed up in my driveway, claiming he knew who Claire was... 2 days later he was dead on the train tracks and splattered across the back of my house, and 2 days after that, this porch bitch woman showed up. We don't know who any of these people are, not the homeless man, not porch bitch, not Claire. We only got the name Claire, because that's what the bald man with her,November 14, 2013, the day she murdered my son, that's what he called her, and she answered him to that name, like it was her real name.
The Claire who murdered my son, she's who we are looking for... and apparently we got really close in 2021, because that's when porch bitch showed up with her wild alien/demon/cat slander, and she's working over time spreading her slander as far and as wide as she can, making it damn clear, she's scared shitless of us finding out who Claire is.
So, NOW, the FBI is not just asking for information about Claire's identity, they now want the identity of both Biddeford's porch bitch and Old Orchard Beach's white haired elderly man driving the mega, big 2ton dark green Dodge Ram pick up.
These 2 people closing in on my family, DAYS after a witness came forward saying he knew who Claire was, a witness who died 2 days later, before the FBI agents had a chance to talk to him... this is terrifying for my family, and it's deeply disturbing.
Porch bitch and her friends are terrorizing my family. And less then a month ago they killed my dog Mickey. There is something wrong with these people. These are NOT good people.
This is very, very deeply disturbing.
This makes them, in addition to everything else: stalkers.
Keep in mind too, porch bitch is the woman who poisoned and killed my dog Mickey only a few weeks ago. And one week before she poisoned and killed my dog, Mickey, she showed up at PortCon 2023, with a gang of about 12 others, at Round 1 in the Maine Mall, and tried to kill me, by peeling back the cheese on my pizza and loading it up with onions, something I am deadly allergic to. I would have been dead within 15 minutes had I eaten it. Porch bitch is dangerous. And she wants me dead. And she thinks nothing of killing my pets. She's proven that much.
There are HUNDREDS of people throughout Biddeford and Old Orchard Beach contacting me, both online and in person offline, telling me that these people approached them at random. They appear to be hellbent on approaching every single person to set foot in either town, so if you are in Biddeford or Old Orchard Beach you'll likely encounter them sooner or later if you haven't already. They appear to have been doing this since around May 2021, but so far no one knows who they are.
One detail though: porch bitch, has been saying some very specific information about the murder that was NEVER made public, and is not in the police public access report, it's only in the FBI's classified report. The ONLY person who knows this detail is the murderer herself, and porch bitch is too young to be the murderer. The blond golf club woman who attacked me November 14, 2013, was in her late 60s to early 70s, she'd be in her late 70s or early 80s today. Porch bitch is young enough to be her daughter or granddaughter. But porch bitch has been saying information that ONLY the murderer would know, so porch bitch DOES have personal contact with my son's murderer and is probably dangerous herself.
She has information that was never released to the public. Information the police and fbi kept out of public access reports. Information that was kept classified so it could be used to identify the murderer. Information she could only get, from the murderer. She is using 27 Facebook accounts and over 100 Reddit accounts to post that information as far and wide as possible, while gathering up a large group from the Sanford ward church to go around Biddeford and Old Orchard Beach also spreading that classified information, while at the same time spreading the rumors and lies that I am an alien Abducted and Etiole is an alien, while also spreading rumors of my cars being haunted, while also making hundreds of deep fake videos on YouTube about me and my cars and Etiole. She is orchestrating a huge defamation slander smear campaign, which you have seen some of the videos about me and my car. Fbi believes she is the daughter of the golf club bitch who murdered my baby and is doing this because Tod Murphy told the FBI his mother was bragging to be the golf club woman. Porch bitch showed up same time Tod Murphy did, in fall of 2021. The Sanford ward people joined her around May 2022. Fbi is currently investigating every one connected to the Sandford ward, and they now believe the golf club woman to have been a member in 2013. You don't have full details of what porch bitch is doing, who is helping her, and how alarmingly large scale what she is doing is, simply because I can not give you full details. There is a lot of information about porch bitch and her crew that I've not said, things the FBI and police are aware of, and you the general public, don't need to be aware of.
These people are actively and deliberately making a massive attempt to compromise an FBI murder investigation, alongside huge levels of victim shaming.
Porch bitch clearly knows who the murderer is, and the FBI is looking for ANY information you have that leads to identifying porch bitch, because arresting porch bitch, is right now, the #1 best chance of also finding and arresting my son's killer.
If you have any information about any of these events, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
Never forget: my son was murdered. That's what they want you to forget. They make up crazy rumors and lies because they want you to think about something, anything OTHER then my son's murder. And the ONLY person with THAT motive, is the golf club wielding blond woman, and anyone who is trying to cover up her crimes.
They want you to forget my son was murdered.
Clearly porch bitch is scared shitless that the killer, someone she knows, will be arrested soon, or she wouldn't be so hyper vigilant in her mega extreme slander campaign going on in Biddeford, Maine right now.
Beware of ANYONE who calls Etiole an alien, for he is not an alien and they are lying to you about him, as a slight of hand means of misdirection, to turn you away from seeing their own crimes.
Beware of anyone who tells you I believe in aliens, for I do not, and they are lying to you in a gaslighting technique meant to keep you from noticing the crimes they commited.
Trust no one who tells you I cast curses or consort with demons, for I do neither, and they say these things to you out of malicious motives, to make you look at anything other than themselves. They don't want you to see the sins they do, so they spread wild and bizarre rumors about me and an elderly homeless veteran, in a magicians pallor trick of misdirection. They use me and Etiole as their smoke and mirrors, so that you are looking the other way, while they get away with heinous crimes.
Beware of anyone who calls me a witch, for I am a Mormon, 5th generation, and we Mormons do not believe in witchcraft.
I need not tell you their names, for by their own actions, they will reveal themselves to you.
Pay very close attention to anyone who approaches you to "warn you" about EelKat... because remember too, my name is not EelKat. My name is Wendy Christine Allen. EelKat is a fictional character, a talking back fairy cat, from a Space Fantasy novel. Miss Citten The Eel Kat is Empress of Planet Ptarmagin and she travels to distant galaxies in a star ship, collecting deep space eels from other planets, her name is unpronounceable, so people call her "The Eel Kat" because she is the cat who has pet eels. The book was titled "Friends Are Forever" and it was published in 1978. You have to be severely mentally disabled in order to think that a talking space cat from a Fantasy novel is real, let alone be crazy enough to think that the author is that character. The very fact alone that porch bitch refers to ME as EelKat, that alone tells you the deeply disturbed fantasy prone mental case we are dealing with her. Her inability to discern fiction from reality, and he belief that I, a real person, an EelKat, a fictional space cat from a novel, or her belief that a local homeless veteran, is an alien, or her belief that my Dodge or my Volvo are demon possessed, that alone tells you what type of incredibly dangerous psychopath porch bitch really is.
You can see video footage of his living conditions:
and HERE
and HERE.
THAT is the homeless veteran, this woman is calling an alien or a demon, depending on which delusion she is babble that day. THAT is Etoile. THAT is how he lives. THAT is who this deplorable woman is harassing.
Pay very close attention to anyone who approaches you to "warn you" about EelKat or otherwise tries to convince you I have anything to do with aliens, demons, curses, or witches, for they are deceiving you, and they do so, to draw your attention away from themselves.
Never forget, my son was murdered on November 14, 2013, and the killer still walks free, and anyone telling you anything about aliens, demons, curses, or witches, has one goal and one goal only: a flagrant attempt to discredit me, and protect my son's murderer.
They ONLY want you to think about aliens to make you forget my son was murdered.
The FBI is looking for my son's killer AND the identity of the people who are trying to hinder their investigation.
If anyone approaches you and tells you Etiole is an alien CALL FBI Agent Andy Drewer and tell him who they are. They ONLY want you to think about aliens to make you forget my son was murdered.
Never forget, November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
If anyone approaches you and tells you that I believe in aliens CALL FBI Agent Andy Drewer and tell him who they are. They ONLY want you to think about aliens to make you forget my son was murdered.
Never forget, November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
If anyone approaches you and tells you Etiole is a demon CALL FBI Agent Andy Drewer and tell him who they are. They ONLY want you to think about demons to make you forget my son was murdered.
Never forget, November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
If anyone approaches you and tells you that I believe in demons CALL FBI Agent Andy Drewer and tell him who they are. They ONLY want you to think about demons to make you forget my son was murdered.
Never forget, November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
If anyone approaches you and tells you that I cast curses CALL FBI Agent Andy Drewer and tell him who they are. They ONLY want you to think about curses to make you forget my son was murdered.
Never forget, November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
If anyone approaches you and tells you that I am a witch CALL FBI Agent Andy Drewer and tell him who they are. They ONLY want you to think about witches to make you forget my son was murdered.
Never forget, November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
They are going out of their way to try to make you forget my son died, by coming up with ludicrous tales of aliens and demons. And the ONLY person with ANY motive to do that, is the blond woman who murdered my son.
They want you to forget my son was murdered.
Never forget, November 14, 2023 will be the 10 year anniversary of the November 14, 2013 murder of my 8 month old infant son, at BugLight Lighthouse Art Studio of Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, Maine. If you have any information about who his killer is, please call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322
They are going out of their way to try to make you forget my son died, by coming up with ludicrous tales of aliens and demons. And the ONLY person with ANY motive to do that, is the blond woman who murdered my son.
Every year since 2004, I post in the Mental Illness thread on NaNoWriMo, a list of places where authors can find actual/accurate information on a variety of mental illnesses and physical disabilities to help them write their characters more accurately. Most of these site also have lists of other sites as well.
Here for you now, is that list:
Act Early on Developmental Concerns: Partnering with Early Intervention
Adolescents with autism spectrum disorder at risk for bullying
Advancing Futures for Adults with Autism
Advice for autistic adults about work - NASAlmost half of kids with autism are bullied, study shows
American Association of People with Disabilities
American Association on Intellectual and Developmental Disabilities
American Foundation for the Blind
American Psychological Association
American Psychological Association's Trauma Psychology Division
Americans Disabled for Accessible Public Transit
An Anti-Bullying Intervention for Children with Autism
Anxiety and Depression Association of America
AnxietySocialNet - Agoraphobia support groups and more
Archives of Scientific Psychology®
Are Autistic People More Sensitive To Trauma
Asian American Journal of Psychology
Assistance Dog Advocacy Project
The Association Between Bullying and the PsychologicalAssociation for Applied Psychophysiology and Biofeedback
Association of University Centers on Disabilities
Australian Centre for Posttraumatic Mental Health
Australasian Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
Autism and Asperger Syndrome Educator’s Guides, Organization for Autism Research (OAR)
Autism Genetics Initiative Data Archive
Autism Genetics Resource Exchange
The Autism Speaks Transition Tool Kit
Autistic Self Advocacy Network
Autism Source, Autism Society of America (ASA)
Autism Spectrum Disorder and bullying
Autism Wandering Awareness Alerts Response Education (AWAARE)
Behavior Analysis: Research and Practice
Biofeedback Foundation of Europe
BC Schizophrenia Society Foundation
Bullying | Autism SpeaksBullying Among Adolescents With Autism Spectrum DisordersBullying & Abuse | Life on the SpectrumBullying and Autism: Helping Kids CopeBullying and Autism - Medical Home Portal
Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders: guidance for
Bullying and autism spectrum disorders - Norfolk Schools
Bullying Experiences Among Children and Youth with Autism
Bully Stoppers - Victorian Government
Canadian Foundation for Trauma Research & Education
Canadian National Institute for the Blind
Canadian Psychology / Psychologie canadienne
Cannon (1942/1957). "Voodoo" death. (Walter Cannon's seminal article on death through the shock of terror.)
Care For Disabled Veterans: Acknowledging Post-traumatic Stress Disorder from Iraq War Experience
Caring for Children With Autism Spectrum Disorders: A Resource Toolkit for Clinicians
CDC’s Disability and Health Program
CDC’s National Center on Birth Defects and Developmental Disabilities Funding Opportunities
The Center on the Social and Emotional Foundations for Early Learning (CSEFEL)
Center for Evolutionary Psychology
Child Abuse Prevention Network
The Child Survivor of Traumatic Stress [newsletter]
Children and Adults with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
Children’s Health Insurance Program
Clinical Practice in Pediatric Psychology®
Code of Federal Regulations, Title 45, Part 46
Community Alliance for the Ethical Treatment of Youth
Council of Parent Attorneys and Advocates
Cultural Diversity & Ethnic Minority Psychology®
Data Resource Center for Child and Adolescent Health
The Decline in Child Sexual Abuse Cases.
Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance
Developmental and Behavioral Pediatrics Online
Developmental Screening/Testing Coding
Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders
Disability Rights Education and Defense Fund
Disabled Peoples' International
DisAbled Women's Network Canada
Down Syndrome Advocacy Foundation
Drew Westen's Lab of Personality & Psychopathology
Eastern Association for the Surgery of Trauma
EEG & Clinical Neuroscience Society
The Effects of Psychological Trauma on Children with Autism
Equal Employment Opportunity Commission
ERIC - The Experience of Friendship, Victimization and Bullying in ChildrenEuropean Federation of Associations of Families with Mental Illness
EFORT European Federation of National Associations of Orthopaedics and Traumatology
European Society for Trauma and Dissociation
European Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
Exploring the Nature of Traumatic Memory
Family Association for Mental Health Everywhere
Families for Depression Awareness
Family Council - Empowerment For Families
Focus on Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders | StarrFoundations of Positive Psychology
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Down Syndrome Advocacy Group
From "Bully" to Bullied - Autism Spectrum ExplainedGalloway's Society for the Blind
The Growing Concern of Suicide and High Functioning AutismHealth Resources and Services Administration
Human Behavior and Evolution Society
Information Sheet Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders
International Bipolar Foundation
The International Classification of Diseases
International Consortium for Brain Mapping
International Disability and Development Consortium
International Society for Neuronal Regulation
International Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
International Trauma Studies Program
Journal of Abnormal Psychology®
Journal of Applied Psychology®
The Journal of Injury and Violence Research (JIVR)
Journal of Personality and Social Psychology®
Journal of Rural Mental Health®
Leaving the Mentally Ill Out in the Cold (newspaper/blog post)
Learning Disabilities Association of America - Disability Rights and Advocacy
Lew Goldberg's International Personality Item Pool
Life Journey Through Autism Series, Organization for Autism Research (OAR)
Maeve: Psychiatric Service Dog and Mental Health Advocate
Marriage Advocates - Infidelity and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Mencap (The Royal Society for Mentally Handicapped Children and Adults)
Mental Disability Advocacy Center
Mental Health Advocacy Services
Mental Health for Youth in Armed Conflict
Mental Health Services Locator, National Mental Health Information Center
Mental Wellness Today (magazine - has large article database)
Mood Disorders Society of Canada
Mood Disorders Association of Ontario - Helpful Links
Muscular Dystrophy Association
Naropa University: Somatic Counseling Psychology
National Advocate for People with Down Syndrome
National Association of County and City Health Officials
National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC)
National Alliance on Mental Illness
National Association of the Deaf
National Association of Special Education Teachers
National Centre Against Bullying - The Alannah and Madeline Foundation
National Center for Education Statistics
National Center for Health Statistics
National Center of Medical Home Initiatives for Children with Special Needs
National Child Traumatic Stress Network
National Database for Autism Research
National Dissemination Center for Children with Disabilities (NICHCY)
National Network of Adult and Adolescent Children who have a Mentally Ill Parent
The National Professional Development Center on Autism Spectrum Disorders
NCP Clinicians Trauma Update Online
North American Society for Childhood Onset Schizophrenia
Office of the Children's eSafety Commissioner - Australian Government
Office of Special Education and Rehabilitative Services
Open Culture: Free Online Classes
Operation Autism for Military Families
A Parent’s Guide to Evidence-Based Practice and Autism
Parkinson's Disease Foundation
Pet Partners - Denied Access, Now What?
PTSD - AUTCOM - The Autism National CommitteePTSD | Autism SpeaksPost-Traumatic Stress Disorder | The Scott CenterThe Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Alliance
PTSD and Autism - The Thinking Moms' RevolutionPTSD and Autism It has amazed me how... - AutismPrejudice. No way! - NSW Government
Primate Handedness and Brain Lateralization
Psychological Trauma: Theory, Research, Practice, and Policy®
Questioning Answers: PTSD and autismRacism. No way! - NSW Government
Raindrop: Death Education for Children of all Ages
Recovered Memories of Sexual Abuse: Research and Resources
Reflections on The Problem of Psychic Trauma
Retrieving, Assessing, and Classifying Traumatic Memories
Schizophrenia and Related Disorders Alliance of America - SARDAA
Schizophrenia Awareness Association of India
Schizophrenia News and Information
Schizophrenia Society of Canada
Schizophrenia Society of Ontario - Official SiteSchool Accreditation, National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC)
Special Education Technical Assistance and Dissemination Network
Spina Bifida Association of America
Stigmatization of People with Autism Spectrum DisordersStress, Trauma and Sleep in Children
Suicide Awareness Voices of Education
Survey finds 63% of children with autism bullied - CBS NewsTeaching Tips for Children and Adults with Autism
Terrorism Injuries: Information, Dissemination and Exchange (TIIDE)
tips for educatorsTrauma Intervention Programs, Inc.
The Traumatic Stress Centre (Wales)
UK Psychological Trauma Society
University of Washington - Fact Sheets - Facts About Mental Illness and Violence
Using Drawing as Intervention with Traumatized Children
Washington Autism Alliance & Advocacy
Webcast Berkeley: online courses & speakers at UC Berkeley
When Bullies Target Autistic Kids | Support for Special NeedsWhy Autistic Kids Make Easy Targets for School BulliesYoung Children with Challenging Behavior
During NaNoWriMo 2007's novel writing contest, a forum thread was started... a young author wanted to write an Autistic main character and asked on the NaNoWriMo forum if any one could tell her how to write a mental illness that she did not have and also knew no one with... the result was a 700 page non-fiction book, called "Autism and Me: On Being An Adult With Autism, A Look Into My Everyday Life."
Originally published on LuLu as a book for sale, a month later I unpublished it and released it as a free to read online series of articles on Squidoo. I continued to add new articles to the series on a near monthly basis in the 10 years since then.
The series of pages linked below, are those articles, the 2007 originals, the ones written in the years since, and the 2017 10th Anniversary updates on what has changed in the decade since those first articles were released.
Autism & Me - Part 2: A look at REAL Autism and the urban myths spread by those with a self-diagnosis. |
"People deserve a break. The stressed and unorganized person who doesn’t have the same priorities as you. They may be dealing with an autistic child, abusive spouse, fading parents, or cancer. Don’t judge people until you’ve walked a mile in their shoes. Give them a break instead."
— Guy Kawasaki
I'm a woman who has had 7 miscarriages, and wears "elaborate clothes". Because I have no children, the residents of Old Orchard Beach, beat me up, calling me a transsexual, claiming only a man would dress like I do, claiming that the reason I have no children is because I'm not really female.
They left me paralyzed and crippled.
They crushed my hips, my pelvis, and my spine, and took away, what little chance I had to carry a pregnancy to full term.
I'm crippled for the rest of my life. I can barely walk now. It's why I'm now on a cane. Any hope I had of having children is gone now.
That's the reality, of the gay hatred of this town.
I have Autism. I wear pink. I wear glitter. I talk with a "funny gay sounding voice".
Acording to the people in this towm:
I walk like a fag...
talk like a fag...
dress like a fag...
act like a fag...
and therefor must be treated like a fag...
I need to be taught my place...
I deserve to be shot in the head...
I look gay, and therefore I must be,
because no one but gay men, talk in this voice
no one but gay men wear pink
no one but gay men wear glitter
no one but gay men prance instead of walk...
so they beat me up, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they cut my car in half, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they put a bomb in my house, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they filled my motorhome with feces, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they kidnapped my cats, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they drove a back hoe over my house, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they cut my cats heads off and nailed their heads to my door, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
because I have Autism
and that makes me "too gay for the family friend town of Old Orchard Beach"
I used to dance when I walked... but after 5 months paralyzed, 18 months relearning to walk, and now 4 years later, my leg is lame and I am crippled, barely able to stand, dragging a lame leg, I'll never dance again.
Do you know what that's like?
Can you even begin to imagine?
To be an Autistic person, who can no longer dance when I walk?
They hate gay men so much, that they are willing to beat up a childless autistic women, in ill health, accusing her of being a transvestite.
Because these evil people took away my ability to have children, I had cats; but they took my cats, and cut off their heads, and nailed them to my door.
Welcome to Old Orchard Beach. The gay-hating capital of Maine.
This is the reality of how Autistics are seen by the world.
This is the reality of how Autistics are treated by "normal" people.
This is the reality of being transgender in Old Orchard Beach.
This is the reality of what bullies do to someone with mental illnesses, they do not understand.
This is the reality of living with Autism.
Once you’ve seen, you can no longer act like you don’t know.
Open your eyes to the truth. It’s all around you.
Don’t deny what the eyes to your soul have revealed to you.
Now that you know, you cannot feign ignorance.
Now that you’re aware of the problem, you cannot pretend you don’t care.
To be concerned is to be human.
― Vashti Quiroz-Vega
"Ignore and ignorance share the same root."
— Kathryn Erskine
“With ignorance comes fear- from fear comes bigotry. Education is the key to acceptance.”
― Kathleen Patel, The Bullying Epidemic-the guide to arm you for the fight
Here is my response to a question from the NaNoWriMo forums on avoiding the stereo types when writing about characters with Autism:
"Can anyone tell me how to write characters with autism while avoiding stereotypes? Thank you."
My response, resulted in a 700+ page non-fiction book on living with autism.
The response, went off into a rant, not because of the person asking the question, but instead, because of the 300+ Asperger's patients who responded to the question to tell her how to write ASPEGER'S characters, all while claiming their Asperger's was the SAME THING as Autism.
More then 2,000 forum posts were added to the thread, by these 300+ people, boldly spreading huge amounts of extremely inaccurate misinformation about what Autism is and is not, and helping to spread the urban myth that Aspergers is a type of Autism.
Sadly after taking 3 days to read every post on the thread, I finally reached the end to find that not even ONE of the more then 2,000 posts had given her ANY information about Autism.
My response is too long for one page, all pages are being linked to here:
Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?
You might be surprised how little you really know.
A look at REAL Autism and the myth spread by those with a self-diagnosis.
I am wondering why has Amazon moved the Quaraun books to the category "Transgender Romance" and also "Gay Erotica"? The base story is a deeply depressed, suicidal, drug addict Elf who's lover commit suicide and he's trying not to do the same. It's an old Elf in a tavern, monologuing a lot of flashbacks and back story scenes of his youth. These stories are dark, bloody, angsty, full of drug use, murder, rape, Medieval torture, mental/physical/emotional abuse, and references to depression and suicide - no romance in it, unless you count the occasional (and usually brutally violent) rape scenes that show up in nearly every volume - sorry - no clue what Amazon is thinking or why they moved these to Romance and Erotica, but these books are NOT even close to being Romance or Erotica on any level at all. When I published these books I put them in "Dark Fantasy" and "Yaoi". If they show up in any category other then "Dark Fantasy" and "Yaoi", it's because Amazon put them there without my authorization or approval.
~EelKat
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The 4 door white truck continues to sit at the end of my drive way (146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine) near every night around sunset, reeving it's engine and squealing it's tires, with the driver yelling anti-gay threats and obscenities out the window. He continues to do the same thing at my dad's apartment building (Biddeford Maine) a few times a week, usually in mid to late afternoon time. He continues to follow me to shopping to various stores in various towns throughout the states.
Phrases he yells from the truck include:
"Kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws all transsexuals are alike"
"I keep a gun under the seat of my truck, I'm gonna use it to shoot you in the head, you transvestite freak"
if cars are going by he yells to them: "that thing is Ken's son, look at how's it's dressed; it's insane, it has autism, we can't allow that thing and it's gay cars in our family friend town of Old Orchard Beach"
He often babbles deranged ramblings about something he calls "the gay-pocalypse", raving lunacy about how "all the gays are gathering" on his doorstep. He raves some crazy nonsense about how Armageddon is coming and the war to end all wars will be "the gays against the Christians" and Christians have to be ready to "kill the gays"
My car is the Autism Awareness Car and had 2.5million marbles glued to it (I have Autism - savant - Kanner's syndrome) he claims tat my car "is gay" because of what it looks like. My car has been vandalized several dozen times, including to have the tires slashed 7 times in 6 months.
After dark often around 10PM, he stands at the end of the logging road across the street from me and shoots at my motohome (in February 2014 he shot holes in my neighbour's barn while doing this). I have video footage of 3 of his shootings at me here: https://youtu.be/NUebzJ9sz9U and here: https://youtu.be/C4dZbgG-Smw
This has gone on since August 2013 now, in addition to all the vandalism, hate crimes, pet beheadings, etc that has happened, including the bomb that blew up our house in 2006.
As you know, that whole time I had not been able to get a plate number on the truck. He as just here again, and I just realized why I could not get a plate number... there are no plates on the truck, either on the front or on the back. However, as he was driving away today... I noticed, there is a plate, stuck up in the back window of the truck, where it can barely be seen, deliberately obscured from view behind a silver tool box.
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