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FAQ: What religion are you? I thought you were a Muslim because of the hijab and modesty dress, but than I realized you wear a crucifix and have relic statues of Mary and Jesus and Catholic Saints everywhere, but than I heard you say Hail Satan and talk about summoning the Watchers and Azazel, plus people say you are a witch or wiccan or pagan or something.
I am a Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsan Fey and Marija Loa. I worship the One God, the Creator of All Life, the brass serpent of Moses who goes by many names, in Voodoo he is most commonly known as The Rainbow Serpent Papa Damballah Weddo; in Scandinavian folk religions he is known as The Great Serpent Uroboros.
Voodoo is a branch/division of the Catholic Church. We practice the same rites and rituals as does the Orthodox Catholics of the Vatican, and hail the Pope as our earthly guide. Jesus and Mary are at the centre of our belief system, and icons, relics, saint rituals, prayer beads/rosary, crucifix, candle lighting, intercessory prayer, ect.
Marija Loa is a type of Catholic nun. The word Marija Loa is Creole French and means “Married to God”. A Marija Loa is similar to a Mother Superior. She is the highest ranked nun of her order and has undergone a marriage ritual – a full wedding, wedding gown and all – to literally be married to one of the Loa. I am Marija Loa to Papa Damballah Weddo.
Medsan Fey is a rank of Catholic nun. A Medsan Fey is a nun who specializes in herbology, herbal medicine, apothecary, hoodoo magic, candle magic, poppet magic (aka Voodoo dolls).
Medsan Fey means I am a female Houngan/Borka also known as a Mambo or Vudo Queen.
I am one of only 12 Mambo on the planet who practice Death Wangas also known as The 7 Year Generational Death Curse.
I am EelKat, Etiole's Friend. Etiole is the Archangel Ertreal, The Avenging Angel who rained Brimstone and Fire on Sodom and Gomorrah, and is also known as The Pale Horseman of the apocalypse. He was a commanding officer in Azazel's Army in the battle of Heaven. The Watcher known as the lover of human women, who taught the world magic and was the father of the Nephilim and for this crime was one of the 7 Grigori Seraphim Watchers who was chained in the valleys of the Earth. I found him chained in the swamps of Maine in 1978 and set him free.
Everything I know I learned from Etiole. He is my familiar and my protector.
I am hailed by many as the world's most powerful, most feared, most famous, and most deadly witch/poltergeist/spirit medium. This is due largely to my being the real world Gypsy "witch" who my neighbour Stephen King based his fictional Thinner Gypsy witch off of. He also filmed the movie Thinner on my farm.
But I have no power. I am merely a tool, the vessel through which Etiole connects to the physical world. This comes at a great cost and is why my health is so frail.
Everything ye do unto ME, in 7 years time, Etiole will do back unto THEE.
We are often seen as Christo-Pagan, as we rely heavily on magic arts not often seen in other branches of Christianity, such as tarot cards, crystal scrying, Kabbalism, Enochian angel magic, seances, spirit/oui-ji boards, etc.
Many in the more mainstream Christian community consider us to be Occultists and/or Satan worshippers due to our frequent communication and summoning of spirits, including both archangels and demons, and most notably The Loa, The Enochian archangels, and the Grigori aka The Watchers.
Like all Catholic nuns we cover our heads with veils and wear long modest caftan/robes/dresses. The colours and materials and styling of our veils and robes vary from day to day, depending on our sect, what holy day it is, which loa we are attuned to, our patron saint, ect.
Seeing how this question comes to me from gamers, I will simply the answer in gaming terminology that you will understand: If I was a character in an RPG, I am what you would call an Herbalist-Alchemist-Druid-Healer-Priest.
More simply put, I am what the ignorant would call a Witch Doctor or a Gypsy Fortune Teller or a Gypsy Witch.
s Also... April 10, 2015 has a 7 year anniversary coming up soon, has anyone noticed the changes to the Reclaim Blueberry Plains? Yeah. Etiole's been redecorating his home, hasn't he? What goes around, comes around bitches. Nigh on 7 years ago, you razed my farm... funny how government land is being razed the exact same way my farm was razed... I notice too several town hall workers, have seen their entire families die around them, you know just like how my entire family was murdered and their heads nailed to my door... how are you going to explain to the news stations, the fact that 53 people, all involved in the murders of my family, have died from being hit by lightening?
Freak natural phenomena?
Poltergeist activity?
Zapped by alien UFOs - isn't THAT your go to excuse whenever you blame me or Etiole for anything?
Better yet, how will you explain the backhoe, lifted up by a freak tornado in Maine, thrown through the sky to land on... oh look... my, my, there's a back hoe sitting on your house! It just fell out of the sky and landed there. No driver involved. Honey pie, did you know there's a back hoe sitting on your house? How's that feel?
Perhaps, you should call it what it is: punishment handed down by the hand of God himself.
Doesn't feel nice to have your land razed, a backhoe sitting on your house, and your entire family die, does it... you shouldn't have pissed off Etiole... tick tock, tick tock, you can't run from Etiole's 7 year clock... karma's a bitch isn't it?
All that you do, good or bad, is mirrored back on you.
For every good deed you are rewarded seven fold.
Give $10 to the homeless, you'll find $70 mysteriously come to you in return.
7 years ago a back hoe was driven over my house, and now a tornado, has dropped a back hoe on your house.
7 years ago, huge land movers owned by the town, razed my yard, cut down 400 year old apple orchards, 200 year old grape vineyards, and tossed into a wood chopper: $300,000 in rare hybrid long stem rose bushes. A road grader scraped off and stole 6 feet deep of the top soil, taking with it acres of spring bulbs, daffodils, tulips, crocus, hyacinth, snowdrops. They left nothing behind but a few inches of sand on top of ledge and bare rock.
Now this week, 7 years later, a crew of huge land movers, clear cut 72 acres of protected town owned forest, 500 year old endangered pines, rolled back all the top soil, leaving it in a huge 50 foot tall mound, leaving behind a desert wasteland... that is all that left of The Reclaim Blueberry Plains, on this the 7 year anniversary of the razing of my farm.
Those who laughed, when others warned 7 years ago, what Etiole would do, aren't laughing any more, now that 7 years is here, are they?
You always hear people take about their god being a passive god who, stands back and watches from afar. Your god sounds lazy and incompetent.
My god is very active, wields physical justice that can be witnessed by all, dishes out great rewards in exchange for kindness and good deeds, while plowing through sinners and workers of evil with a vicious vengeance. My god doesn't hide in the shadows and leave my prayers unanswered.
I hold no alliance to any religion.
My allegiance is to The One God and his army of archangels, because they have proven themselves, time and time again, to be the most powerful beings this world has ever known.
I have witnessed the power of angels.
I've seen their many wings, heavy laden with shinning feathers, and bright eyes upon each one. Eyes that see through time, through walls, across nations, forward and backward.
They see all.
They know all.
You can hide nothing from them.
Nor can you hide from them.
They see your sin.
They see your works of evil.
They see your compassion.
They see all your good deeds.
And they reward and punish accordingly.
I was raised a 5th generation FLDS Mormon.
I attended 12 years of Calvinist Seminary/Bible College.
And I met Etiole and set him free. In exchange, he taught me the rites and rituals of Voodoo and Enochain Angel Magic.
I believe in the power of angels.
Through faith, all things are possible.
Believe and anything can happen.
I've seen the power and glory of the archangels.
I know without a doubt, that not even every human on the planet gathered together, has even a sliver of the power of just one angel. And I have Etiole and his entire army on my side.
People fear Etiole. Call him a demon.
But they have no reason to.
Etiole is kind and gentle and loving.
Etiole is only dangerous to evil doers who seek to harm those he loves.
Etiole protects his own, as would any moral, decent man.
If you have love, kindness, good thoughts, and compassion in your heart, than you would never seek to do evil. You would never commit sin. And you would never have any reason to fear Etiole.
Your fear of Etiole, exists only because you have hurt me or my family, and you know in your heart of hearts that Etiole WILL come for you.
Etiole is immortal. You can not harm him.
Etiole walks through time. He moves through solid walls, like they were not there. He moves in the blink of an eye, one second here, one second there tens of thousands of miles away. For this reason, you not hide from him, nor can you out run him.
Time. Space. Physical walls. They mean nothing to an archangel.
He is not flesh as humans know it. He takes a solid form, when that is his will. But he can walk out of that flesh, and exist as nothing more than a glowing beam of bright blue light.
He can look like anything or anyone.
I've seen his snake form, his white owl form, his white monkey form, his black shifting shadowy goo under your bed form.
If you want to fear him, he can be fearsome and will be that, if you are deserving of his fear.
He appears to me, as a little man, kind and gentle. I've never had reason to fear him.
But there are throughout Maine, more than 7,000 witness testimonies, from others whom have seen him, and describe him as a huge beast, a demonic creature, with a maw full of many rows of piranha teeth, and sharp eagle's talons on his hands.
I've seen him take that form, in his den in The Reclaim Blueberry Plains, near the graves of the children, whose bodies were sawed up, put in black plastic bags, stuffed in the trunk of 3 cars, and those cars buried in the Goosefare Brooke Ravine.
He takes that form there, because the souls of 31 dead, murdered children, scream out from the ravine of The Reclaim Blueberry Plains, crying for justice, crying for their murderer to be revealed.
He takes that fearsome form, at the ravine, because he has absorbed the souls of those murdered children, and their pain, their suffering, their agony, screams out from within him.
He has guarded their mass grave, their sawed up pieces, in black plastic bags, in the trunks of 3 cars, at the bottom of the ravine, since The Cyr Clan dumped them there, in the 1970s.
Etiole appeared in The Ross Forest, September 23, 1978... his spirit was pulled into our physical plain, by the screams of the souls of The White Monkey Children.
He is a Guardian Angel, an Avenging Angel, who rose up in our town for one purpose and one purpose only: To protect the children who were victims to a horrible group of people.
I was one of those children.
We children who were raped, caged, and tortured by evil men, we begged and we pleaded for help. And no human would help us.
No bishop.
No priest.
No police officer.
No town manager.
No town council men.
We escaped again and again, and we begged every adult we could find in this town, to please help us. Please end our suffering.
But punishment for escape, was death, and being buried by Anne, Bryan, Donald, or Troy at the bottom of that ravine.
As more of us were killed and buried and no help from the men of the town came, we turned to god, we pleaded and begged, send us angel to punish the men who torment, torture, rape, and murder us.
That's when Etiole appeared.
He came in answer to our prayers.
Of more than 140 of us children who were tortured by those evil men, I am one of the last 2 still alive.
There were over 200 of us in 1975 when they started tossing our bodies in the ravine.
Now in 2021, only 2 of those children remain. And I am one of those 2.
That is why Etiole protects me.
He will never leave me.
He will never forsake me.
We children summoned him in our terror and by the blood of my cousins who lay dead at bottom of that ravine, Etiole draws his power.
And even centuries after I am gone, he will continue to guard this location, and he continue for thousands of years, to haunt the children and grandchildren of the men who tortured and murdered The White Monkey Children of Old Orchard Beach, Maine.
If you never hurt us, The White Monkey Children, you have nothing to fear from Etiole.
But if you were ever involved in any crime against any of us, in any way, at any point in our lives... woe unto and your family for 7 generations, for he will haunt you, torment you, and your children, and your grandchildren, and their children and their grandchildren, 7 times over.
Everything you have done to us, he will do to them, for the next 700 years. For that is what we 140 children asked him to do, when we summoned him, 50 years ago.
You may call him a demon, but children who summoned him, we know what he really is: he is our Guardian Angel.
Etiole.
HE is my religion.
HE is what I believe in.
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ZERO
NOTHING
I've NEVER earned a single penny from any of my videos, VODs, or livestreams, not on Twitch, not on YouTube, not on any other platform.
I do not monetize my content.
I do not turn on ads.
I do not have a donation link.
Streaming, gaming, and video creation are things I do in my spare time, after work. It is how I relax and de-stress. It is not a career/income for me. This is why I also do not have a regular or consistent schedule. I stream, play video games, and make videos in my spare time, when I feel like I am in the mood to do so. I find the act of playing video games, streaming, and making videos to be incredibly relaxing and it is my habit to do these things either when I am stressed out and need to relax or when I am having trouble sleeping and need to do something that will help lull me into a sense of calm so I can sleep.
The car/driving/shopping/town vlogs and livestreams are not something I do as a hobby. I do them at the request of FBI agent Andy Drewer, who goes through them all with a fine tooth comb looking for any clues as to the identity of the bomber who blew up my house or the murderers who cut the heads off my children and nailed them to my door. This camera is running 24hrs a day and if you do ANYTHING on that camera, you WILL be questioned by the FBI, so be sure you REALLY want that 5 minutes of fame BEFORE you jump in front of that camera, because it WILL brand you as a murder suspect.
If you have any information on the kidnappers or the murders...
FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322
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The Dazzling Razzberry is back... now all black primer... Repaired, wielded back together, running, licensed, registered, and back on the road again... now primed and ready to be restored.
This car was obliterated by a PsychoBitch 4Chan QAnon Twitch streamer and 5 of her simps armed with baseball bats, in February 2019. They did $30,000 in damages, leaving it chop-shopped to pieces, smashed apart, and all of it's 2.5million beads and marbles scraped off.
This car was my daily driver and daily car vlog streams stopped February 2019 because the car was reduced to so many chopped up pieces, that it took up nearly 3 years to wield the pieces back together, and make the car drivable again.
Because it cost $12,000 for the 2.5million marbles that was glued to it, and took me 4 years to hand glue them on one marble at a time, and most of those 2.5million marbles were reduced to shattered powdered glass dust by the vandals, The Dazzling Razzberry will not be returning to it's former shimmering glory.
If you know the Twighlight Manor series and you know Etiole's brother Razzbury that the car was inspired after... know this... we are going Sea Wolf for the rise of The Dazzling Razzberry 3.
Out with the Green Moray Eels and in with the Piranhas
#FAQs: What do you mean you ain't a boomer?
You really don't know what a boomer is do you?
My dad, who is 82 years old, is not even old enough to be a boomer and you think me who is 30 years younger than HIM could be a boomer?
#NEWSFLASH: you make yourself look retarded when you use words incorrectly. If you don't want people to think you are stupid, try learning the correct meanings for words and start using words properly. No one is going to take you seriously or have any respect for you when you prove yourself to be brain dead every time you open your mouth.
Well, for starters, a female can't be a boomer. Only a male can be a boomer.
Secondly: Are there any boomers even left alive?
My grandfather was a boomer. But he died at age 101, more than 20 years ago.
The definition of a boomer is a WW2 solider who fathered dozens of illegitimate babies overseas (thus: baby boomer) and most of them would be 120 to 140 years old today.
You use Boomer as though it implies "old" and that is not what it means, not even close.
A Boomer is an immoral, degenerate deadbeat dad who booms out sperm all over the fucking planet in every whore he can find and takes no responsibility for his actions. Boomers are vile, degraded whore mongers.
Any Boomer alive today, at the youngest, is going to be 98 years old or older, and is a lot older than a scuzbag like him deserves to be.
Still confused about what the word Boomer ACTUAL means? Let me simplify it for you.
* If you are a man who has sex outside of marriage: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you are a man and you live with a woman you are not married to: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you ever fucked a prostitute: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you are a fornicator: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you are a adulterer: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you are a whore monger: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you practice BDSM: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you ever fathered a baby than demanded it's mother have an abortion: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you ever fathered a baby than disappeared from it's life: YOU are a Boomer!
* If you are a dead beat dad: YOU are a Boomer!
#BOOMER MEANS A MAN WHO BOOMS OUT ILLEGITIMATE BABIES!
#If you are a boomer, than you are a vile sex crazed degenerate and you can be THAT at any age.
The word boomer has NOTHING to do with age and everything to do, with sex, specifically, it means you are an immoral degenerate.
By using the word Boomer to mean old, you simply prove how deeply mentally incompetent you really are.
I have a severe hatred for whore mongers.
I have an even bigger hatred for dead beat dads.
I can't stand men who shoot their sperm into every prostitute they can find than scurry off to the next slut assed whore and leave a trail of babies behind.
Men who boom out babies are the #1 cause of abortion... to the tune of 5,000 babies murdered every day, just in America.
Boomer officially means World War 2 solders who fucked every last whore they could find, than left them behind and never did a damned thing about taking care of a illegitimate bastards they boomed out every where.
I loath Boomers.
You want to update the word boom to mean someone OTHER than the dead beat dads of WW2?
#Boomer doesn't mean old, and it NEVER has... it means a fucking degenerate sex monger, who can't be bothered to even make an attempt to be descent moral man.
#When you call someone a boomer, you calling them a dead beat dad NOT old.
Boomers are men who boom out sperm in women they aren't married to... THAT IS THE DICTIONARY DEFINITION OF BOOMER YO FUCKING RETARD! Go out and get yourself a brain, you certainly need one.
I absolutely deplore men who can't be bothered to take care of their own children. And more than that, I HATE sex crazed degenerates. And a Boomer is both.
Vile scum of the earth. That's what a boomer is.
Boomer is a highly offensive word to call someone.
By calling someone a Boomer, you are calling them a fucking sex crazed whore monger.
You might want to look up what a boomer is before calling people that word.
You come off looking like a stupid retarded fool when you don't use words correctly. Is that how you want people to view you?
Words matter. Learn to use them properly, otherwise everyone will think you a brain dead idiot who does nothing but parrot off the mindless ravings of social justice warriors who can't tell their ass from a hole in the ground.
Just because a million people say a thing, doesn't make that thing correct, it just makes a million people prove they are stupid for not researching the facts and finding out the truth.
You using the word Boomer as a synonym for "old" simply proves you are too stupid to fact check word meanings in a dictionary.
Also, you might want to fact check the source of the word boomer for old... it comes from a rather disrespectful paedophile streamer, Dr. Disrespect, who was banned by Twitch for livestreaming himself hiding in girls bathroom stalls and shoving the camera under the doors to livestream little girls peeing... his response to being banned was to call Twitch CEOs "Boomers" who were too old and stuck up to see the fun in watching children pee.
So not only are you using the word Boomer incorrectly, but you are showing your support for a paedophile child abuser when you do so.
So now, not only do you come off as looking too retarded to know the meanings of words, but you also imply that you are a scumbag supporter of child sexual abuse.
You might want to think about that next time you feel like using the word Boomer.
If you don't care that people see you are a retarded, scumbag, who supports disrespectful paedophiles, than by all means, continue to use Boomer in place of old.
My thoughts of on your support of that person? Here, have a quote:
*"Watching people defend someone they're a fan of, completely dismissing any evidence of wrongdoing, just because they think they know that creator like a close friend based solely on what they've seen in videos and stuff. Parasocial relationships are terrifying." ~ Welsknight Gaming*
...and, by the time you read this my answer to your question, you will find that I've already banned you.
Why?
Because I'm a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, and I'll not have degenerates like you, who are supporters of child abusing men like that disrespectful bastard, near me. And if you're using his version of the word Boomer, that means you see nothing wrong with supporting him and don't give a shit about the little girls he sexually abused. And I don't want disrespectful child abuse supporting scum bags like you near me.
Try getting an education, than maybe we'll learn you ain't actually as retarded as you sound when you try to use words.
And if you don't like being called a retard... here's a tip: STOP TALKING LIKE ONE!
A mentally retarded person is any person with a learning disability that prevents them from properly using their brain functions and causes them to be unable to formulate or use words correctly, leaving them unable to communicate with others properly, due to their extreme misuse of words.
You my friend, every time you missuses a word, such a boomer, you simply prove to the world that you ARE mentally retarded according to the actual medical textbook definition of the word.
If it walks like a duck and talks like a duck, it might just be a duck.
If it walks like a retard and talks like a retard... yeah... stop proving yourself retarded every time you open your mouth and maybe some day people will take you seriously and stop treating you like a child.
Also, do unto me as you want me to do unto you... I wouldn't be calling you names if you hadn't called me names first... don't bother me and I won't bother you... harass me and I'll become your worst nightmare.
I keep to myself, I like my privacy, I don't like being bothered, I don't like being interrupted, I especially don't like being harassed, and don't lay down and take it, I defend myself from dipshit bullies like you.
If you can't take it, you shouldn't be dishing it out, because whatever you throw at me, I'm gonna throw it right back in your face.
You don't like being called names? Hey guess what? Neither do I. That's why what you do to me, I do back to you, so that you can know how it feels and learn WHY I don't like you doing it to me.
Here's a thought....
#Fucking grow up.
FAQs: Can I visit you?
No.
No, I do not allow home visits from anyone for any reason - not any more.
I used to, but never again.
Reason: I'm a little bit famous, in fact, I'm quiet a lot famous, and in the past, I agreed to a home visit, and that person, didn't recognize my name at first, until they met me face to face and immediately realized who I was, and where they were standing - my farm was in a rather famous movie, so it's easily recognized by anyone who has ever seen that movie, and that movie, it's a BIG movie, written by an even more famous than me Maine author, and while I write under a penname, my face is on my books, and I'm easy to recognize, and that last time I let someone into my home - they realized who I was, what my farm was, what movie I was connected to, and they ran to social media to tell their friends they had meet me, including to publicly post where I live... by the end of the week I had dozens of paparazzi and some 30,000 (yes thirty thousand - yes I am that famous) screaming fanboys from all over the country in my driveway and the local police had to send out 42 officers to try to deal with it - the mass influx of tens of thousands of trespassers did huge amounts of damage to my farm, my property, my crops, my cars... and resulted in the murder of all of my children.
To this day police don't know who killed them, just that it was likely a crazed fan who saw my home address posted online by some other fan.
With the police and FBI not knowing who murdered my family, I'm left unable to trust anyone.
Who can you trust, in a case like mine?
I've no family to turn to, they were murdered.
I've no friends, what few fans didn't chase away, got hased off after being suspects by the police and FBI.
That's why I'm crippled. That's why I'm alone. That's why I have post traumatic stress disorder.
You don't know what it's like, to have 10 children children murdered, their heads nailed to your front door, and than try to recover from that. And be left with police shrugging and saying all leads lead to dead ends.
And you, are left with a broken spine. Having to relearn how to walk, not even able to mourn your family being murdered, because you're injured so bad yourself, you're just trying to stay alive.
And than, after years of recovery and physical therapy, alongside years of police investigations, FBI investigations, and being left with no answers. The attackers still a mystery, who they are or why they did it, who are they, no one knows, what was their motive, no one knows.
To go from a large family, to being alone, like that, it's hell to live with. And no one understands. People pity you, feel sorry for you, and move on with their lives. While you are left alone. With no answers and no one to talk to because, everyone you would have talked to is now dead.
How many parents know the pain of a murdered child? Not many.
If you've not lived through it yourself, you can't even begin to understand it.
I'm sick of people's pity. I don't want your fucking pity.
I want a friend.
I'm tired of hoping there'll be someone out there who understands how I feel.
I like my privacy and thanks to the murder of my entire family, I'm a lot more famous now than I was back than, and social media was uncommon back than but now today everybody has it - that means the risk now is far greater than it was before, I don't want a repeat of that incident, those trespassers did several $million in damages to my farm and members of my family (now dead) were badly hurt, I don't want to go through something like that again, that's why I now have bodyguards and I don't let anyone near my land any more for any reason at all.
The fact remains:
* I didn't used to have PTSD.
* I didn't used to live alone.
* I used to have a family.
* My entire family was murdered.
* I've spent the past 5 years dealing with police and FBI and lawyers and court... and running into endless deadnends with police and FBI to this day, not knowing who crippled me or murdered my family.
You'll have to excuse me if I'm a little paranoid about people entering my home, but that's one of the side effects of having all your children murdered and police and FBI clueless as to who did it and suspecting that most likely it was a crazy fan who got my home adress off social media after another fan posted it there.
I like my privacy and I do NOT trust psycho-fans to respect it, because I have 4 decades of personal experience with the fact that fans have ZERO respect for the homes/property/pets/family of any famous person they are a fan of and they will ALWAYS run to social media to brag "OMG! Look who I met! Here's their address, go meet them too!"; yes I have become excessively, overly, paranoid about people getting near me, my family, my property, my cars, and my land, but there is a very good and well justified reason for it.
The very reason I no longer allow any one near my home, is the same reason I am now looking for a dog.
I'm tired of being alone, for years on end.
I couldn't go out and get a dog after it happened, I was too busy in the hospital being paralyzed, then then too busy relearning to walk, in between endless weeks of police and FBI interviews.
Now things have stabilized. I'm walking again, more or less; police and FBI come by less and less frequently as the leads grow ever colder. News reporters have more pressing things to talk about like Covid19 so no longer bug me endlessly for interviews.
Life goes back to normal... except, my family is dead and I'm disabled and alone.
I need someone to keep me company, as I am finding the loneliness of an empty home with a family that will never return, unbearable.
I suppose I should have been aware of the covid-19 issue, but, I rather preoccupied with dealing with both the murder of my family and recovering from 3 strangers beating me with golf clubs, so I was a little bit too busy to pay much attention to the news.
Yes, I would LIKE visitors, but experience has taught me that no one ever wants to be my friend. They always have a motive. They always want something.
So no, you can't come visit me.
Before I'll let you visit me, you need to prove I can trust you.
And for me to trust you, you first have to prove it wasn't YOU who killed my family.
Why should I trust YOU?
Can YOU prove, that YOU did not murder my family?
What evidence can YOU provide, to prove that YOU were not involved?
To everyone talking about gun reform after this weeks Colorado shooting, here my thoughts:
Mass shootings happen everywhere often, it's rare they make the news... for example ... in Lewiston Maine, exactly 2 hours BEFORE this shooting in Colorado, there was a shooting in Lewiston, Maine - it was not in the news - if I wasn't local, I wouldn't have known about it.
In America, there is an average of 300 mass shootings EACH AND EVERY DAY, as well as shootings of only 1 or 2 people occurring at a rate of more then 500 per day.
That mass shootings do not make news headlines more often, is the ONLY reason so many people are surprised.
An average of only 1 in every 2,000 shootings ever gets reported on national TV.
That YOU did not know this, simply shows that you are someone who does not pay attention to what goes on daily around you in your own home town and home state.
#That so many people are marveling at the mass shooting, simply tells me that the bulk of society has it's head shoved up their own asses and are too blind to see what it happening in their own town every day.
The ONLY time a mass shooting appears in the news is if:
* 1 - it was a school shooting done by a child
* 2 - it resulted in the death of a police officer
* 3 - the shooter was someone famous - and usually only if they are a sports player, while actors, authors, singers, especially rap singers, commit mass shootings on an alarmingly frequent basis, but usually football stars and basketball players are the only ones who make news headlines when they commit mass shooting
Some states, like California, Massachusetts, and Illinois, have so many mass shootings PER DAY, that the daily newspapers have a column that is titled: **"TODAY'S SHOOTINGS"** which is simply a list of street addresses and times. It item on the list reads like this: *"Shooting at 10:38AM on Main Street, 3 wounded, 2 dead."* These lists will often have 10 or 12 or more shootings, for EACH DAY!
(I worked for Guy Gannett news paper publishing firm for 21 years; they publish many large newspapers, including the Boston Globe)
#DAILY mass shootings are so common in some states, that the newspaper keeps a daily list of today's shootings!
Mass shootings are so common in Maine that I have both witnessed and captured on camera, more than 200 of them JUST since 2015.
March 2020 - 4 men with guns broke into my elderly neighbours house and gunned him down in his bed while he slept - it was not in the news - had the shooting not woken me up and I been standing in my driveway when the police took out his body I would not know it had happened.
February 14, 2019, my cousin was killed in a WalMart shooting in Scarborough, Maine - it was not in the news - I only know it happened because a family member died.
July 2013 - a different cousin was killed in another shooting - it was not in the news - had it not been a family member who died I wouldn't know it happened.
June 2001 another cousin was killed in another shooting - at the San Diego ComicCon - he was shot by a police officer - he was a by stander who got shot by a paranoid, racist police officer shooting at someone who it turned out did not have a gun and was just a black man wearing a hoodie walking by minding his own business - it was not in the news - had it not been a family member who died I wouldn't know it happened.
November 2015 and July 2016 - Scarbughouh WalMart was evacuated because a local white supremist group - a group of about 30 people armed with guns - "took over" the WalMart and started shooting at black and Muslim customers - I was one of the people being shot at because of how I dress, they mistook me as Muslim even though I was not - it was not in the news - had I not been a shopper in the store those 2 days and been one of the people being shot at, I would not know it had happened
In August 2016, there were 5 shootings in a single week in Old Orchard Beach, Maine... one involved a group of 70 people with guns driving through town shooting anyone they suspected of being gay - it was not in the news, I only know it happened because they shot 30 bullets into the front of my house and 50+ bullets into my neighbours house - they claimed I was a male to female transgender gay man even though I'm a natural born woman
My neighbour 2 houses down - a town counsel men of Old Orchard Beach - has had 7 FBI raids on his home the past 4 years - each time removing over 100 illegal assault rifles... he was charged with shooting 4 people in one of the gay shootings done by the group of 70+ people - he was not arrested and is still on the town counsel - had the state police and FBI officers not come to our house to tell us to stay inside during the raid, I would have known about it, because it was not in the news.
Between 2015 and 2021 - I have MORE THAN 100 local mass shootings here in Maine were CAUGHT ON CAMERA during my livestreams on Twitch - not one of them was on any news station.
Maine has one of the LOWEST crime rates in the country.
News stations rely on the police department to forward the reports of these shootings to them, so that the news reporters can reports on the shootings happening.
Gun reform will solve nothing. Because when all is said and done, a gun is nothing but a piece of scrap metal and on it's own all it can do is lay harmlessly on the ground.
A gun can harm no one, unless it is wielded by a dangerous person. The person, not the gun, is the problem.
A person who would shoot somebody, is STILL going to hurt people, even they did not have a gun. They would build a bomb, or wield a knife, or even a wooden fence post. If they want to cause harm, they will, gun or no gun.
Yes, a gun makes it easier for them to hurt more people at once, but take their guns away, and they will just find something else to hurt people with. EVERYTHING is dangerous in their hands because THEY THE PERSON is dangerous.
I live in Maine - the place in the world that has more guns per person than anywhere else on the planet - Maine has just under 2 million residents, and just over 17million leally registered guns and estimated another 5million illegal guns.
Maine is a wild forest region, 3/4s of the population NEED their guns to survive, because they eat deer, moose, squirrel, fox, coywolf, fisher, duck, turkey - every day, and without their guns, their families would starve to death.
Most gun owners ARE responsible people and are NOT running around shooting people.
Look at Maine, Everyone wears fur coats, where do you think the fur came from? It's -40F on a good day. Everyone here in Maine wears furs, because if we didn't, we would freeze to death.
Bear attacks happen daily. Groups of 20 to 50 coywolves gang up on children and tear them to shreds ... here in Maine, you NEED a gun, just go outside and NOT be torn apart by mountain lions, wolves, bear, or coywolves.
Guns keep people alive, warm, and feed, far more often, than guns hurt or kill. There's a lot of people who NEED guns to stay alive, to feed their families, to protect their families.
In the hands of a responsible person a gun is a tool of survival, not a weapon.
Only dangerous people, who would kill even without a gun, make guns a dangerous weapon.
Guns are not the problem - dangerous people are.
Gun reform is NOT the answer.
All gun reform is going to do is punish people who obey the law.
But people who use guns to kill, are not law abiding citizens, so, gun reform will not affect them, because they don't obey laws anyways.
People who use guns to kill, don't care about laws, so changing laws WILL NOT STOP THEM!
If they cared about obeying the law, they wouldn't being killing people in the first place.
My family, we are not white, and THAT is why my family has seen so many mass shootings, because every single mass shooting listed above, was done by a dangerous person, so blinded by racist hate that they felt the need to kill non-whites.
Racism is the problem.
Guns are only dangerous in the hands of haters, racists, and bigots.
But you people obsessing over the Colorado shooting, you act like mass shootings are rare... ad they are NOT... mass shooting happen all the time, they just don't get reported on very often.
We need better awareness to how often mass shootings happen.
it's not gun reform we need - we need police officers willing to do their jobs and #1 arrest the shooters not just take their guns away and #2 tell the news stations how often these near weekly mass shootings happen so the news can report on HOW OFTEN these events happen
#Awareness of how often mass shootings occur and don't get reported on by the news is what is needed
Maybe, if you stopped focusing on self and paid attention to something other than yourself for a change, you'd notice how vastly common gun crime is.
Don't rely on the news media to tell you the whole truth. They tell you pieces of the truth, and only as much of the truth as they think you want to hear, and only than, if they think it'll boost their ratings.
The daily mass shootings of Chicago are rarely in the news, because they happen so often, so many of them every day, that they are deemed "TOO BORING" to be news worthy.
The daily mass shootings of Boston are likewise, rarely in the news, because it's usually gang related and when was the last time you saw the news media report on anything the Mafia did?
The weekly mass shootings of Maine are almost never in the news, because no one in the lower 48 gives 2 shits about Maine.
If it isn't going to bring views or increase ratings, the news station isn't going to cover it, no matter what it is, including, and not limited to, mass shootings.
Gun reform is NOT going to fix the problem.
Responsible gun owners are already obeying the current gun laws.
Gun reform, is ONLY going to punish, responsible people, for things they would never do.
Mass shootings are committed by people who do obey gun laws, so changing gun laws, WILL NOT prevent mass shootings.
People who commit mass shootings, rarely buy their guns legally, so changing laws regarding gun sales, will NOT keep guns out of their hands.
What we need is NOT gun reform, wat we NEED is HONEST NEWS REPORTING.
We NEED news stations who report on ACTUAL daily news.
If people KNEW how many mass shootings occur **EVERY DAY, in ALL 50 STATES**, they would know who truly pointless and a waste of time a resources, gun reform is.
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I stream on Twitch, YouTube, FaceBook, and Twitter. I have no pre-planned schedule for which site I will go live on. I do NOT multi-stream on multiple sites at once, so if I am live on one, I am not live on the other 3. (The FaceBook one will say "Video Unavailable" when not live.)
NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.
FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322
Vanilla Avallac'h vs Modded Avallac'h
If you are Mormon, Mason, Jewish, or Zoroastrian, take a close look at his gambeson and see what you see. If you are Mormon, Mason, Jewish, or Zoroastrian, you'll see it and you'll know exactly what it means. On the other hand if you are a Gentile or an Infidel, you won't have a clue.
>>Both images on the left from May 2018, the 1st Avallac'h Playthrough
Vanilla Avallac'h has black hair and eyebrows turned grey, and has an appalling LOD of 5 and draw distance of 7, and has no hairworks effects, no wind effects, and while his 3d model & texture files have wrinkles, scars, bruises, bug bites, moles, and veins, you can't see them on the vanilla settings.
Also while Avallac'h's clothen had a RedCloth file, it had very low grade settings/pollies causing the details of the cloth weave, seam stitches, and embroidery to be blurry.
Vanilla Avallac'h has pupils that react to light, like all other characters in the game.
>>Both images on the right from September 15, 2020, the 3rd Avallac'h Playthrough
Modded Avallac'h has a 5,000 LOD and draw distance, resulting in wrinkles, scars, bruises, bug bites, moles, and veins on his skin can now be seen. This also revealed that he has a fine scar down the side of his nose and one over his eyebrow, both were not visible at all with the vanilla LOD settings.
Hairworks and wind effects have been added to his hair.
While we are talking about his hair... notice that he wears payot. If you don't know what payot are or why a man would have them... Google will help you. It brands him as Hasidic.
His hair and eyebrows are changed to blond (as described in the novels), his skin has been lightened several shades (again to match novel descriptions), and he has new texture files for his eyes to make them pale ice aquamarine with pink pupils, as described in the novels.
Modded Avallac'h has pupils that are frozen into tiny pinpricks and never grow or retract with light changes, matching the information we were told about him having suffered severe nerve damage which caused him to have tiny frozen pupils that did not react to light.
Because the file which changes a character's pupils, is NOT connected to their eye file, but rather is connected to their shadow file and changes not only the size and shape of pupils in different lights, it also changes the shadows on their face, and changes the intensity of their makeup.
The result of changing this file, is that shadows on Avallac'h's face are now fainter and his vanilla very dark eyeshadow is now many shades much lighter.
This results in a bright highlight on his cheekbones, making them much paler, and has caused an illusion that his cheekbones are even sharper than before, even though no change was made to his 3D model bone structure... i is simply a result of less shadow below his cheekbones with brighter highlight over them, and fewer shadows around his eyes.
I increased the depth of Avallac'h's RedCloth file (edited the 3D model to make ridged details a deeper depth) and increased settings/pollies causing the details of the cloth weave, seam stitches, and embroidery to be much sharper and more noticable, making the cloth look more real.
And speaking of the cloth looking more real... if you are a Gentile or an Infidel, you won't have a clue what it was I mentioned earlier, so let me point it out... on the beast of his gambeson, right over the nipple, there are slash marks that are stitched into a very specific pattern/design... this marks Avallac'h as a very high ranking priest, one who has access to the deepest, inner circles of the Temple, on par with The Levite in the Bible, it also tells us that he is a virgin and living celibate lifestyle because of his religious rank.
On their own, the slash marks do not identify a specific religion, but one of 5 religions. However, that, with the payot, and the fact that he covers his head when going outside, brands him as a Hasidic Jew.
We further know that in the novels, ALL Elves are Jewish, and the masque of the Elves during the Human invasion, was an outright retelling of the Holocaust, and Avallac'h spoke an ancient dialect of Hebrew and was unable to understand most Humans as he spoke none of the common tongues.
Raise your hand if you ACTUALLY KNOW what Manna is? Sephiroth? Sackcloth and ashes? Golems? The Tree of Life? The Pentagram? Tzitzit? Are you able to explain ANY of those things and what they are, when you encounter them in quests in the game?
Can you explain WHY Geralt meditates on a prayer rug facing East?
Explain to me WHY after her grandmother dies, Ciri shreds her cloths, starts wearing sackcloth, and rolls her golden blond hair in ashes to turn it into dreadlocks, resulting her becoming known as "the ashen haired maid"?
When the game shows you Avallac'h naked in Kaer Morhen, can you read the Hebrew writing tattoo across his chest and abdomen? Do you know what the symbols on his tattoos mean?
After having watched more than 5,000 playthroughs of Witcher 3 on Twitch, I'm continually amazed at how few people ever recognize the plethora of openly Jewish characters and miss the HUNDREDS of Holocaust reference easter eggs that flood every segment of the game.
And now that the books are becoming popular, after 40 years of being ignored by the bulk of society... it likewise amazes me, how many people are so clueless about the Holocaust and what happened to the Jews in Poland, that they read the Witcher novels with blind eyes, and completely miss that the Gnomes and Elves are blatantly Jewish, while the Humans are blatantly Nazi, and the mass murder of millions of Jewish Gnomes and Elves at the hands of their Nazi Human invaders, is an outright retelling of the events of real world history.... of that happened just 80 years ago.
Our world is in a pitiful state if the so recent mass murder of 20 million is so easily forgotten, so soon.
If you know nothing about the Holocaust, you REALLY shouldn't play this game or read the novels it was based on, because you'll completely miss the message they send. It'll go right over your head.
Spend a year or two doing some massive research into the Holocaust, especially what happened in Poland, and THEN play the game and read the novels, and THEN remember that the author who created this: was a Polish Jew who as a small child, saw his friends and family murdered, and then you'll understand why he wrote what he wrote.
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UPDATE March 17, 2021: Another death. Waiting for a coffin to be delivered. Funeral the 21st. Unlikely to be streaming for a few weeks.
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Update: March 27, 2021: It's not even been a week since the funeral, and now there is another death and another funeral.
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UPDATE April 5, 2021: There are still no streams, as, we've now a another (a 3rd) funeral to prepare for.
And that is now 3 deaths in our family, in the past 2 weeks.
This 3rd death hits hard, because it was Pippi.
Our family has now had 13 deaths since March 2020.
April 10, 2015, 12 children were kidnapped.
May 15, 2015, the heads of 10 of them were nailed to my door.
August 24, 2020, one was found still alive. he was just 4 years old when she was kidnapped, but she remembered us, even though 5 years had passed.
August 25, 2020, Pippi came home, but her condition was not well. She had been tortured the entirety of the 5 years she had been held hostage. She was missing limbs and covered with scars, had broken bones many years not set, and suffered serious damage to many of her internal organs. That she was alive at all, in her condition, was a miracle. Doctors had little hope of her survival and she was sent home with Hospice care.
Pippi had cancer in her eye and needed surgery for it, which she was scheduled to have, shortly before she was kidnapped.
In the years they had her, not only did they torture her, but her cancer went untreated and spread to her brain.
By the time she was returned to us, her cancer had reached an inoperable state, so we knew she did not have much time left.
Had her cancer been treated, back when she was a toddler, she probably would have reach adulthood.
She died only 8 months after her return.
Another child, to cry out from the grave, for Etiole's vengeance upon her murderers. Another victim of evil men, who will stoop to no ends, to bury the crimes they committed 50 years ago. Drug lords. Opium growers. Heroine dealers. Selling little girls 4 to 8 years old for sex to priests. They only care about money.
All hail the mighty tourist ass. Millions come to Old Orchard Beach every year, for one thing and one thing only: heroine. They sell their drugs to the tourists under the pier and off the balconies of that giant motel. Than drag little girls to the bedrooms of the condominiums on Smithwheel Road, behind the school. And any child who dares open their mouth and beg for help, gets tossed in the GooseFare Brooke Ravine.
Bastard drug lords. They've been doing this for 50 years, and the town hall and the police department, turn a blind eye to it, because they get paid $6million a year to not report it to the newspapers, when the body of another child washes down the ravine, into the gulley to be spit out in the ocean. No fewer than 5 bodies are found every summer, but how often does it get in the news?
The corruption of this fucking town needs to end.
Yet another dead at the hands of these criminals who run our town.
How long will the residents continue to turn a blind eye to what is happening in our town.
How many more children will you let them kill, before you stand up to them?
Another child is dead and no one in this town cares. So long as they get their money from the tourists. The blood of another murdered child screams from the graves, begging for justice. Tick tock, tick tock, so begins, yet another of Etiole's 7 year clocks.
This is why there were no/to few streams from May 2020 until now.
May 2020, after 4 years of not hearing from them at all, the FBI returned with a lead, which led to Pip's discovery a few weeks later in August.
Because of the nature of the situation, I could not talk about it, to tell you why streams had stopped.
The kidnappers, were enraged that we had recovered Pip, and that is when the attacks started up again on my home and family September 2020.
Pip's condition continued to grow worse, and she died April 5, 2021.
She was only 10 years old.
This is what it means, to not be white in America.
White men, won't even give a child the chance to grow up.
This is what white people do, to none white families like mine.
We are Gypsies with Jewish blood, for that alone we are hunted like animals.
What the men of Old Orchard Beach, Maine, did to my family, will never be forgotten or forgiven.
#If you have any information on the kidnappers or the murders...
#FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322
Have you forgot the extent of the damage these people did, all because, they wanted to dig up my land and removed bodies buried there, before my house builders found that barrel of bones?
Have you forgotten that 7 town hall workers, 5 public works men, a blond woman, her bald son, and her red haired sister Kendra, and 14 police officers, all lead by a man they referred to as "Mark who needs no last name" were the ones
I name every one of them, except for the ring leaders: blond woman, her bald son, her sister Kendra, and her husband "Mark who needs no last name". I don't know who those 4 are. I'd never seen any of them, other than the Kendra woman before, and I only knew her fro her attacks beating me up at Panera in 2009, 2010, and 2013.
I can name every one of the others, because all I have to do is go to the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police department website, and their are their faces.
With the exception of blond woman, her bald son, her sister Kendra, and her husband "Mark who needs no last name", every one else involved was government official who works for the state of Maine vis the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall, the Old Orchard Beach Police Department, or the Old Orchard Beach Public Works.
And what exactly did they do?
August 8, 2013 they drove a backhoe over my house. That same backhoe drove over my previous house on the same land April 2007. That same backhoe drove over my poultry barn and horse stables July 2001. July 2001 was the first attack.
March 2015 was the the massive attack, with an entire fleet of trucks, and drove over the Church of the Holy Rhinstone, a church that stood on my land, my garage which is why I no longer have a garage to put my car in, my 2 sheds both of which had my tractors and other garden/crop machinery in them at the time. And of course the razing of the land, the cutting down of the apple orchard - the VERY apple orchard planted in 1530 that this town was named after... he actual "old orchard" of Old Orchard Beach... the very original trees - huge massive apple trees over 400 years old. The grape vineyards, the cherry trees, the pears trees.
April 10, 2015, they returned, 4 police officer held me a gun point, while 10 other police officers held my children down with long poles with metal wire strangle loops on the end, and beat their faces in with cinder block bricks, knocking out every one of their teeth, breaking their jaws... POLICE OFFICERS DID THAT... while men they referred to as "Mark who needs no last name" and "Dan" stood there and told the police officers what to do, how to beat them, while "Mark who needs no last name" boldly bragged that he paid the Old Orchard Beach police $6million dollars to do this.
May 15, 2015... the heads, hands, feet, and intestines of my children were nailed to my door. Later that same day police officer W. W. came to my home begging for forgiveness and claimed that men he referred to only as "Mark and Dan" were holding his beloved mother-in-law hostage and torturing her, and he helped in the April 10, 2015 attack, only to save her life and get her back. He claimed he had no prior knowledge of what was going to happen, claiming that he'd been told they were only going to "scare" us. He said he had not expected anyone to get hurt, he had not known my children would be tortured and kidnapped, he had not known they were going to be murdered. He said he was scared for his life and lives of his family. And he said: "They form a small army, our department doesn't have enough man power to stop them, and every one in this town is too scared to fight back. You don't know what's going on. And I think they mixed you up with someone else. They didn't know you were the owner of this land. They didn't know that was your motorhome. They thought someone else owned this place. It wasn't even your family they were after. You were the wrong target. You don't know who these people are. What they've done to our families. This is the actual Mafia. The real deal. I'm so sorry. This is the address they sent us to. But they had a different name as the owner. This wasn't supposed to happen. They were after someone else. I'm so sorry. I couldn't let my family died. And now yours is dead instead. This wasn't supposed to happen."
June 19, 2016... I did a very specific livestream. You see... A., D., B., and T. in the 1970s and 1980s, were in the habit of dragging big black trash bags into the forest, crossing my land to do it, and dumping those bags into the Goosefare Brook Ravine. In 1983, 3 snuck into Etiole's swamp and planted 3 acres of Marijuana. Someone found it and called the police, I don't know who... it was Maine's largest drug raid for decades. Many, many millions in plants where dug up and removed from Etiole's swamp. A few weeks later A, & D,s 10 year old daughter ran into my yard, touched my car on a dare from other children - the 1964 Dodge 330 former Old Orchard Beach police car, known by Stephen King fans as the REAL Christine, The World's Most Haunted Car... than jumped her bike, and sped down the road, as fast as she could, head on into a car coming the other way. She died instantly, he brain shattered all over the end of my driveway, and her mother A responded by the Battle of 458 - the biggest mass shooting ever in Maine history, that ended up with 3 Gypsy clans and 2 police departments, in a shoot out between 70+ adults all armed with guns. One of my cousins, an 8 year old boy, standing 3 feet from me, had his eye shot out by one of the bullets. While A ran around the street screaming: "FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shot another child.
"FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shoot another child.
"FOUR! FIVE! EIGHT!" than shoot another child.
THOSE are the 31 children, whose bones were sawed up and tossed into the GooseFare Brook Ravine... yes, that DOES mean, police officers KNEW those children were there and covered it up. And I witnessed that entire event.
And THAT is WHY... when police officers murdered my family in 2015, I did a livestream, walking to the ravine, to show the world, where those bones were... because I'm sick and tired of the police corruption in this fucking town, and those sawed up bones of 31 children are PROOF of what this town government is like.... as are the heads of my children that were nailed to my door.
At the end of The Battle of 4-5-8... A. took 2 gas cans and poured them all over the big dome house, than set a match to it, and no one knew, why when she did her brother B., started running, jumped in his robin egg blue truck and backed down the driveway, hit Portland Ave doing 70 and didn't stop driving until the high speed chase caught him in CT... oh but we knew before he was out of sight, why he started running... the dome house went up like Hiroshima into a mushroom cloud that could be seen across the entire state... turns out there was a Meth lab in that house.
June 19, 2016... the livestream of the bones went viral, it's what made my YouTube channel suddenly explode overnight... and police officer W.W. upset, by the fact that, the livestream included the entire police call and response, and that response was to laugh and do nothing... fed up with the corruption in his department, he forwarded that livestream VOD to the FBI, and the FBI arrived in Old Orchard Beach, to dig up the Reclaim Blueberry Plains, and all hell broke lose in this town, as most of the police officers suddenly found themselves arrested. An entire new police force from out of state was brought in to replace the long time officers who had proven they could be trusted to uphold the law. Many town hall officials and public works employees also found themselves arrested by the FBI.
June 26, 2016... barely a week later... the blond woman and the red haired Kendra woman showed up at my workplace, Scarborough WalMart, and tried to kill me, yet again... these are the same 2 woman who attacked me with golf clubs at Southern Maine Community College November 14, 2013... they left dead in 2013, I was paralized for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk. I was out of the wheel chair, and I was without a walker, I was without a cane. I had almost fully covered from their November 14, 2013 attack with golf clubs... June 26, 2016, this time they attacked with shopping carts, and I'm now crippled for the rest of my life. They shattered 3 vertebra this time and it can't be operated on. I had to relearn to walk a second time, and I'm not yet recovered now in 2021. In 2013 they drove away in the 4 door white pickup truck. In 2016 they drove away in a gold Volvo SUV station wagon.
That blond woman and her red haired Kendra sister, they are wanted by the FBI for attempted murder of me and they are also wanted in questioning for being suspected of also being the murderers of my children.
I don't know who these 2 women are.
The blond woman shows up my driveway frequently, screaming and yelling, sometime accompanied by a small child, about 5 years old, that she pulls behind her in a red radio flyer wagon. She looks to be about 60 or 70. She often wears a denim button down shirt and jeans. She's prone to yelling at passing cars, while pointing up my driveway, and saying: "There's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband."
I've never tried to kill anyone, so accusation is baffling at best.
She seems to think I know who she is, and has made the claim, that "I was that brat in school"... the red haired Kendra woman, sometimes with her, claims to be her sister, also appears to be 60 to 70 and also seems to think I know who she is, and frequently says: "You bullied me in school, but no more, I'm Kendra SilverMander it's my turn to shine."
They BOTH make the claim they went to school with me, and yet, I never went to school, a well documented fact... because I'm the child the FBI rescued what the news media called "Maine's House of Horrors". I was locked in a cage when I was 8 years old. I was let out on Sundays, to go to church, and not allowed to speak or make eye contact with anyone, and this was only done infrequently, whenever church goers asked what happened to that girl you had". I was 31 years old when the FBI arrived, because of Heaven's Gate having killed 39 people, and my uncle being one of the members and self proclaiming himself as the leader of Heaven's Gate after Applewhite's death. The FBI was investigating the murder of 39 people in California, and had no idea they'd find children in cages in Maine as a result.
So you see, when the blond woman and her Kendra sister, make the claim they went to school with me and I was the class bully who beat them up, this is easily proven false, because the time period when I should have been in school, I was locked in a cage, being tortured by my sadistic uncle Bruce.
Also, they are in their late 60s to mid 70s... making them older than my parents, so how could I have been in school with them, even if I had gone to school? At best I would have been starting pre-school the year they would have been graduating high school.
These things they say about school, only further agrees with what police officer W. W. said May 15, 2015, when he made the claim, they had gotten me mixed up with someone else.
July 2016, a month after the shopping cart attack... yet another Old Orchard Beach police officer arrived, this one accompanied by 2 Biddeford officers, who had been former OOB officers... these 3 officers, had a vastly eye opening story to tell me.
They had been called to Old Orchard Beach, to my farm, to arrest me, a call made to them, by a man named Mark, whom one of these officers, claimed was his brother in law. This Biddeford officer, said he requested to transfer ot of Old Orchard Beach department years ago, because his sister (whom he claimed he suspected, but could not prove was the blond woman whom had attacked me at WalMart) was quote "trying to control the town" he said "treats Old Orchard Beach like a dynasty, thinks she's a duchess, has severe mental disorders, and thought she could buy the police department". He went on to say, she got in with the real Mafia years ago and went to her head, and now she thinks she IS the Mafia and most of Old Orchard Beach's business owners, especially the motel owners are scared shitless of her, because they believe her claim to be Mafia. He went on to say, she's not Mafia, but she's good at convincing people she is and stated "I wouldn't murder beyond her. She'd do it just to prove she is Mafia." He said he transferred out of OOB department to Biddeford department because he was fed up with how easy it was for her to get every officer to do anything she asked. He said "the corruption in that department runs deep; don't cross her or any officer she controls; they WILL kill you and every around you. You don't know who her husband is. He doesn't just control that town, he controls half the state."
What he was telling me was bizarre on extremes, but even more bizarre was the live feed radio call, that he had me listen too, as it was happening, on my farm in Old Orchard, while I was at my dad's house in Biddeford.
He said: "The Old Orchard Department called me, asked me to come over here. Buddy Will wanted to prove you were not in Old Orchard and that Mark has you mixed up with someone else. That fucking bastard is crying wolf and trying to frame you, we can prove it right now. We are fucking fed up WolfBoy."
He turned on his radio, so I could hear. A what I heard... a man whose voice I do not recognize, yelling at a Officer W.W. and saying:
"That is Wendy, arrest her now! That is EelKat. She tried to kill me."
While officer W.W. and another officer, told the man: "his isn't Wendy. We have officers with her right now. Who tried to kill you? Wendy? Or THIS woman right here?"
"This woman right here! This is EelKat I tell you! Arrest her! What do you think I pay you for! You aren't allow to defy me! I own this town! You are my slaves. I command you to arrest her!"
W.W.: "This isn't EelKat. This isn't Wendy. I've known her for years. And right now, she's on the other side of the state. With 3 officers, listening to you right now. You are NOT the law. We've had it with you. You don't own me. And you've mixed her up with someone else. You've been harassing the wrong damned person. You dare call us about Wendy ever again, and I will personally arrest you for false reports, than I'll tell them everything. You'll never see the outside a prison for the rest of your life when I get done with you. You fucking leave this woman alone. You destroyed her life, because you couldn't tell her apart from someone else."
I used to aqua jog, mountain climb, horseback riding, and I hiked 13 miles a day. And in the blink of an eye, that lifestyle was taken away, and every day was struggle, just to sit up and breath, with no hope of ever walking again. I defied doctors. It's been 8 years and I can move around the house by holding on to things and I now can walk again, at the moment only short distances outside with a cane, and the hope is to continue to improve. I still have a long road of recovery ahead. But I'm walking again, something that 8 years ago, doctors said would never happen.
My farm was razed.
My family was murdered.
I was 5 months paralysed, and had to relearn to walk. It was 8 years ago and I'm not yet fully recovered due to 3 inoperable vertebrae and hip dysplasia. November 14, 2013, 10PM, at WalMart, while putting bags of groceries in the back seat of my car, I was attacked by 3 rapists armed with metal golf clubs, who left me parallelized, in a wheel chair, broken spine, broken hip, broken pelvis, broken knees, serve nerve damage to my left side limiting the use of my left hand, my bladder incontinent from nerve damage, they left me for dead, and I had doctors telling me I would never walk again.
There's more that has happened. A lot more. The thousands of gallons of sewage they pumped into my motorhome in 2015. The cats. the Ptarmagin cats. World famous groups of cats. You remember them. If so, you remember what these people did to those cats. Poisoned. All dead the same day. 12 cats. Dead to what the vet described as: "enough poison to kill a great dane". My horse, she had her head beat in with a rock. My bantam roosters... 70 pet roosters, hung by their necks in rope nooses in my rose bushes.
All because this man, this mystery Mark, whose last name seems to be known to the police but is still unknown to me and man whom I've never seen or met - he keeps his face covered whenever he shows up... mistook me for someone else... and police officers and town hall workers and public work employees.
Welcome to Old Orchard Beach... this is NOT the way life should be, you know it.
What these people did to me, should never have happened, and according to the police, it's been happening for 50+ years to hundreds of people, hundreds of families, in this town, and every one is too scare to talk about it or fight back to stop it. That NEEDS to change.
The corruption in our town, needs to stop... but it won't end, until every last person who is being harassed by these people stand up, put their foot down, and say enough is enough, we ain't gonna take this any more.
We the people of Old Orchard Beach need to take back our town.
NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.
FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322
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EelKat Wendy C Allen as Quaraun the Insane
So, 3 days ago (back on July 5, 2017; it is now July 8, 2017) when I first started writing this thing, back on Page 1 of this article that got very long an has now passed 50,000 words making it officially what NaNoWriMo considered to be a novel length work...
Back then, 3 days ago, I put a list on the page and at the end of the list said:
How does Quaraun compare to those facts about Autism? As this page has gotten too long already and has already had to be cut into multiple pages, I'm going to answer that question on a new page, which I will link here once it is completed.
... and so, that is the focus of this section of this now very long, multi page article.
If you have not read the previous articles...
If you've never read the Quaraun series, some things you should probably be aware of when reading the novel excerpts found on this page:
So, on with our article...
Back on Page 1, I had created the list, which is now copied and pasted below. On the previous page it was just a list of facts. Here on this page however, I will now take each of these facts, and underneath each one, compare that fact to Quaraun, his character, his personality, his lifestyle, his symptoms, his reactions to the world around him, and his back story, so see how well, this fictional Autistic character matches up to actual real world Autism.
Each fact from the list will be shown here bolded, the text block following it will be the comparison of the fact to Quaraun's character.
And so, I give you the list...
*sigh*
So... I'm adding this little side bar here, because I just been here writing for 2 hours straight... then BOOM! My computer decides:
"Hey, guess what! Windows 10 here, it's time to update and restart your computer without telling you we're going to update, and we're also going to be nice and wonderfully considerate by not giving you any chance to save your work before we turn your computer off and restart it without warning you, Ha ha! Oh by the way, I know you changed the settings to not allow automatic updates, but we realize you didn't really mean that, so we are over-riding that setting for this update, because it's soooo damned important. ~ Love from Microsoft! Thank you for using Windows10, enjoy your utterly useless update to a feature you never even use!"
So... I now I have to go rewrite everything I just wrote, because now that the computer has come back on, I find that more then half what I wrote wasn't saved, because autosave wasn't turned on.
One of the many joys of being an author. Yay!
And then people wonder why we authors don't like Windows' automated update system.
Oh well, I guess it's a god thing I have Autism and have a photographic memory and can easily retype word for word everything I already typed, now isn't it?
Off to rewrite, every thing I already wrote.
*sigh*
As a result of that computer mishap.... this page is only partly finished... I'm going to publish what was saved now (July 10, 2017) and then go back and rewrite all over again the part that got deleted... that section should be added here tomorrow or the next day...
Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?
You might be surprised how little you really know.
A look at REAL Autism and the myth spread by those with a self-diagnosis.
NOTE: Most of the first few items on the list reference Asperger's not Autism, so it'll be a few items in before these become relevant to writing Quaraun's character, but I'm gonna comment on each of these anyways as we go down the list.
ACTUAL Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children
Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed
ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose
1 in 64 children are diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, which means they DO NOT have Autism
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
I wish more people knew this one.
The Autism Spectrum Disorder page of Wikipedia, states that there are 5 ASDs. This is incorrect and was obviously written by someone who is quoting internet memes rather then actual medical books. There are more then 60 ASDs.
I also wish the ill-informed parents of Asperger's children would stop deleting ACTUAL DOCTOR'S text on the Autism Wikipedia page and replacing it with their wild, deranged, urban myths about what they THINK Autism is.
Sadly more then half the information on the Autism Wikipedia page is incorrect and was written largely by self-diagnosed Aspies and their parents. Wikipedia also has a page for Asperger's but, they are too good for that page.
Hopefully doctors actually trained to treat and diagnose Autism will eventually notice that the stuff they wrote for the Autism page has been deleted by parents of Asperger children and replaced by conspiracy theories about mercury and vaccinations.
That's the problem with Wikipedia: any one can write anything on any page and there is no one to check to make sure the information is correct.
In 2007 the information on the Kanner's Syndrome Wikipedia page was correct, but Sheldon Cooper wasn't famous yet, so the Autism Boom had not yet started. If you want accurate information about Autism, don't rely on Wikipedia... the current page for Kanner's Syndrome is almost 90% information on Asperger's Syndrome instead. Someone REALLY needs to do something about fixing the massive amount of errors on that page.
Only 1 in every 10,000 people are ACTUALLY Autistic
Only 1 in every 17,000 people will ever encounter a REAL ACTUALLY Autistic person in their lifetime
1 in every 8 Autistic people will be murdered before the age of 25
Quaraun is murdered, though he is elderly at the time it happens, so he partly falls in with this statistic and partly does not.
1 in every 7 Autistic people will commit suicide because of a bully
Quaraun does attempt to commit suicide multiple times, and in most instances it is triggered by a bully.
1 in every 2 Autistic people will die by the age of 45
Well, Quaraun doesn't fall into this statistic, as he reaches old age. He lives to be about 750 years old (equivalent to around 75 years old in Human years).
40% of self-diagnosed Asperger children between the ages of 12 and 18, admit they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and could not name any symptoms of Aspergers other then: "high IQ, reads comic books, and is socially awkward"
This one does not apply to Quaraun as he has Autism, not Asperger's.
Though let's comment on this while we are here...
Did you know that a High IQ is NOT a symptom of either Autism or Aspergers?
So where do people with Autism and Aspergers fall?
In actual studies done on people ACTUALLY diagnosed with Aspergers, fewer then 10% of them had an IQ higher then 120 and NONE of them had an IQ of over 130.
There are NO known cases of an ACTUAL Aspie with a High IQ
Autism and Aspergers having a High IQ is an urban myth, spread largely by internet memes posted on Tumblr and Pinterest, then shared on FaceBook and Twitter. It is one of the many FICTIONAL symptoms of Asperger's that was created to make Sheldon Cooper's character "more interesting" for the TV Show Big Bang Theory.
Keep in mind that "The Autism Boom" is made up largely of "self diagnosed" Asperger's, and the "boom" occurred the same month the Big Bang Theory TV show was awarded "the most popular show on television".
80% of the people who claim to be "a self diagnosed Aspie" when tested by a doctor, are found to NOT have Asperger's at all.
Interestingly, while 1 in 3 people claim to be "a self diagnosed Aspie with an IQ of 135 or more", and ACTUAL IQ of 135 is incredibly rare and only .03% of the world's population (2.4 million people) have it.
There are currently 11 million people in the United States who claim to be "self diagnosed Aspies with an IQ of more then 135" and yet there are only 2.4 million people on the planet with an IQ of 130 or more and two thirds of them live in China, not America.
There are ACTUALLY fewer then 500,000 people in the United States with an IQ of 130 or more. Meaning that of the 11 million "High IQ" Aspies in the USA, 10.5 million of them are lying about their IQ range.
To compare how many people that is... the State of Maine in 2014, just crossed having a population of 2 million people. Maine is a very small state, with not many people. The amount of people who live in Maine, is the same number of people there are on the planet who ACTUALLY have a High IQ of 130 or more.
And yet.... In the United States alone, there are 11 million people claiming to have self-diagnosed themselves as Aspies "because my IQ is over 130".
And yet... Having a High IQ is NOT a symptom of Aspergers!
Sheldon Cooper (a fictional character) has a High IQ AND he has Aspergers.
Fans of Sheldon Cooper see that and think "High IQ = Aspergers; I have a High IQ therefore I must have Aspergers"; and thus you have the current "Autism Boom".
Also, if Sheldon Cooper was real, his IQ would be somewhere around 200... waaaay above 130. Fewer then 100 people have ever been found to have an IQ above 160.
People fail to realize that Sheldon Cooper is a FICTIONAL character and that while many of his Asperger's symptoms are portrayed accurately, there are just as many FAKE/FICTIONAL symptoms that were given to his character for the sake of plot points in the show.
All of that ranting over... how does any of this apply to Quaraun?
Quaraun has a relatively low IQ. He is described by characters he meets (and readers of the series) as being "too stupid to live"
Quaraun has High Functioning Autism, meaning "has an IQ over 75 and can speak in full sentences".
Throughout most of the series we see Quaraun as an older adult around 450 years old (equivalent to about a 45 to 50 year old Human).
Because he is an older adult, he has learned to adapt to his surroundings to some extent and thus for the most part he is able to "pass off" as fairly normal. As long as he's not asked to do anything with numbers or money or try to get him into a sustained conversation about anything, he tends to get by without people realizing he's rather stupid.
He can read and write quite well; in fact he can read and write far above the average. He can sew and embroider at a very advanced skill level, and is in fact a tailor before becoming a wizard. He ends up being a "wizard for hire" who specializes in sewing magic items for other wizards (capes, cloaks, robes, hats, bags of holding, etc.) (Do keep in mind that this character was originally created as a Dungeon's and Dragons character that I played as in RPG games for several years before I started writing novels about him.)
If one sticks to topics of fabric, sewing, embroidery, fashion, charging items with magic properties, growing roses, and casting spells, Quaraun can keep up with the conversation with no trouble at all. He will n fact dominate those conversations and tell you every aspect of those topics, and he will talk in endless monologue about them with no clue that he is boring everyone around him out of their minds.
Leave those topics, however, and Quaraun becomes wide eyed and clueless as to a thing you are saying to him. His dialogue will fall apart and devolve into a series of:
"Okay"
"Uh-uh"
"Okay"
"No."
"Okay"
"I don't know."
"Okay."
Ask him what you were talking about....
"Why are doing that? What did I just say?" BeaLuna asked.
"I don't know," Quaraun answered.
"You don't know?"
"I don't know."
"Why don't you know?"
"I don't know."
"You don't know why you don't know?"
"I don't know."
"How can you not know why you don't know?"
"I don't know."
"Do you ever listen to anything I say?"
"I don't know."
"Can you stop saying, I don't know!"
"I don't know."
"Unicorn!"
"Why yis yelling at me for?" the Phooka asked.
"Quaraun's broken again."
"Well, stop breaking him then."
"I didn't do anything."
"Ya talking over his head. Ya knows him too stupid to knows what yis talking on. Ya gone un gots hims brain all confusalcated. His brain can'na follows ya that fast."
"A Jelly Fish ate my brain," Quaraun said. "I don't have a brain."
"See?" Unicorn said. "Him agrees. Him have no brain. Problem solved, eh?"
BeaLuna walked off mumbling to herself: "I'm travelling with crazy people and idiots."
~From "The Journey Begins" (Volume 4 of The Quaraun Series)
What happened here was typical of most people with Autism. Quaraun could no longer understand the point BeaLuna was trying to make, so he "zoned out" and didn't hear much of what she was saying. She had just explained in great detail all the reason for not doing a thing, and as soon as she got done taking, Quaraun immediately did exactly what she had just got done telling him not to do. Thus she begins yelling at him, leaving him suddenly lost and confused and not knowing how he is supposed to answer. Unsure what the socially correct thing to do in this situation, he simply starts saying "I don't know" regardless of anything else the other characters say.
By saying "I don't know" he is actually saying that he doesn't know how to respond, he realizes he's done something wrong, but he's not certain what he did wrong, and is in fact attempting to explain that he doesn't know what it is he has done wrong, however, the characters around him do not understand this and assume he is answering the question being asked.
Quaraun is having trouble understanding BeaLuna, when she begins to turn the phrase "I don't know" back on him. He now is not only confused as to what he did wrong, but he also now does not knw what it is she is asking him.
Quaraun continues to say "I don't know" until he hears something that he does understand, which in this case is Unicorn talking about his brain. Quaraun immediately attempts to rejoin the conversation by saying the only thing he does know about the topic of his brain, which is the fact that he suffers from "Thullid Infestation" and has a tiny parasitic jellyfish attached to his brain eating it.
Quaraun does not realize that by saying "A jelly fish ate my brain" that other characters not think he's an idiot. He feels he has joined the conversation once again. When BeaLuna walks away calling Unicorn crazy and Quaraun an idiot, Quaraun is left confused and not understanding what it is he has done to upset her or make her call him an idiot.
Throughout the series Quaraun frequently becomes frustrated when he thinks he's talking to people around him, believing that he is conversing with them properly, then suddenly they call him "stupid", "dumb", "insane", or an "idiot". He knows those things are said with malice and the intent to hurt his feelings. He knows people use these words when they are angry with him. But he rarely is able to comprehend what it is he said or did to cause people to say those words to him.
Quaraun often joins conversations with others cheerfully, happy to be included as part of the group, but he often leaves those same conversations, confused, frustrated, sad, and upset.
Scenes like the one above, often end with the other characters leaving angrily, and Quaraun left alone feeling very much unloved, unwanted, and worthless and wishing he was smart enough for people to want to talk to him the same way they talk to each other.
Scenes with Quaraun sitting alone, separate from the group, wanting to join them, but too scared of being rejected, knowing they'll just laugh at him and call him an idiot, are frequent throughout the series.
I've never tried to determine what his IQ might be. I'd guess it's probably in the range of about 80.
In the few volumes where he is seen in his youth, you see him having greater difficulty interacting with people around him.
60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children have stated they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"; these people could not list the symptoms of Aspergers and simple stated it meant "being a genius".
Yeah, see everything I just said in my previous answer, before the novel excerpt. The same applies here.
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
Have you ever known someone with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy? I have. My next door neighbour has it. (Yes, the woman who cut my car in half on May 10, 2010, while screaming that she was killing a demon and therefore had to kill me car. That woman.). There is not one damned thing wrong with her 3 boys. Nothing. They are 3 healthy, normal little boys.
One of her boys "disappeared" for a while. Never came outside any more. No one saw him. No one talked about hi. It was like he'd vanished.
I babysat for these boys. One day the parents are getting divorced, and want to know if I can take the boys to their doctor's appointments for the next few weeks.
I get to the doctor's office.
Doctor pulls me aside, sends the boys to a play room to play with toys while she talks to me: "Can I talk to you about the mother?"
The doctor explains to me the situation:
The boy who'd been missing (9 years old), had been forced to wear diapers, drink out of a baby bottle and sleep in a crib for the past several weeks. The mother claimed this was because the boy was constipated.
The doctor said: "At first I prescribed stool softeners. But then I noticed she was getting it refilled every 3 days and each bottle should have lasted a full month. So I called the pharmacy to change the prescription to a placebo, but didn't tell her."
The doctor continues to explain: "I tried talking to him (the boy) but he no longer talks. He's shut down. Hasn't said a single word in any visit. She (the mother) won't let him talk to me alone and he won't talk if she's in the room. I think something's wrong. You know the boys better then I do, have you noticed anything?"
I ask the doctor what the prescription bottle looks like, I say: "Is it a big gallon sized bottle filled with white powder?"
She says: "Yes, it is, why?"
I tell her: "For months, she (the mother) has been carrying these bottles with her everywhere she goes, never got a good look at them, but she said it was a prescription her doctor gave her for irritable bowel syndrome. About 2 months ago her doctor stopped renewing her prescription. She was in a rage at first, but now past few weeks, she has them again."
The boys doctor asked who the mother's doctor was. Went to call him and talked to him. She came back in the room. She says: "He diagnosed her with Paranoid Schizophrenia and Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy about 6 months ago. I just talked to their dad. He's in the middle of trying to have them taken away from her because she's making (the boy) sick on purpose so I'll give him the same prescription her doctor stopped giving her. I suspected something like that, that's why I switched it to a placebo."
I asked the doctor (a doctor who was a standard non-specialist pediatric a 2 hour drive away from the boys house) while I was there: "How many doctors do the boys have?"
She says: "What do you mean?"
I say: "You're the 5th pediatric I've taken them to in the past 3 days. They've got multiple appointments every day this week."
She asked for the names of the other doctors. Leaves again, Calls the doctors. Comes back in white as a ghost and says: "We've all been giving him the same prescription. She's been refilling all of them too fast and is using a different pharmacy for each one."
She than asks me: "Does she have multiple doctors for herself?"
I say: "32 in Maine that I know of, at least 7 in New Hampshire. She goes to every pharmacy in the state. Last I knew she was taking more then 40 different prescriptions all at once. She's got a big drug problem. I frequently drive her to her appointments and watch the boys in the waiting room, because she won't allow them out of her sight for more then a few minutes."
She goes off to call all of these doctors. None of them knew about any of the others. None of them were hooked up with that online database thing to prevent this sort of thing from happening either, likewise she was using "off grid" pharmacies.
Once all her doctors and all of her kids' doctors started cross referencing the situation... the boys' dad had custody about 2 weeks later.
Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy is a very serious condition and if the state can prove a parent has it, they WILL take the children away.
60% of all children who are self-diagnosed as Autistic or Aspergers by a mother... turn out to be healthy normal children of a mother with a serious prescription drug addiction, who uses her children to get prescriptions, which she takes herself, never giving said prescriptions to the child...
60% of all children who are self-diagnosed as Autistic or Aspergers by a mother... are taken away from their parents and put in foster care, due to the mother having Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.
Once again we've had a side rant that is not connected to Quaraun or the series, so continuing on...
80% of all people claiming to be "Autistic Aspies" do not have either Aspergers or Autism and are shocked when they learn that Aspergers is NOT a "type" of Autism.
You can always tell a website or blog written by someone who has no clue what Autism is, as soon as you see them write:
"My son has the Aspergers type of Autism."
There is no such thing as an "Asperger's type of Autism".
There is Aspergers.
And there is Autism.
Two very different illnesses with similar symptoms.
Aspergers and Autism are so different from one another that you can be diagnosed with BOTH of them as well.
I had myself a long rant about this already, so go read that page and as there is nothing here to say in reference to Quaraun himself, let's move on...
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television"
That link I just put in the previous answer? Go read that to see what I have to say about this one.
This one again, does not apply to Quaraun because, he doesn't have Aspergers, and also because he lives in the 1400s before TV was around.
Of course time travel existes in the Quaraun series and GhoulSpawn (one of Quaraun's lovers) is in fact from the 1970s so does know of things like tv and such, even though Quaraun himself does not.
While Quaraun is from a time period before Autism was known about, there are in fact volumes in the series, where GhoulSpawn (who is from the future) calls Quaraun Autistic. There are scenes when other characters are watching Quaraun have a meltdown and are asking what's wrong with him, and GhoulSpawn will reply to say something like "He has Autism, this is what he does." However, being a man from the 1970s living in the 1400s, his explaining that "this is Autism" means nothing to the people around him, who then just think GhoulSpawn is as crazy as Quaraun because he's using words they never heard before.
Aspergers is an Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)
Asperger's is NOT a "type" of Autism.
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
Yeah. That link again. I covered this there as well.
There are more the 60 ASDs including Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, Schizophrenia, Threadworm Infestation, and having had a Stroke.
Yep. The link. Just go to the link. My answer to this was there to.
73% of all ACTUALLY Autistic people, will never speak, will never learn to wipe their bum, will eat through a tube never learning how to chew, and will wear neck braces and be wheelchair bound from never learning to hold up their head or walk.
The 27% of Autistic people who can talk and walk and chew their own food, will rarely learn to speak in full sentences, will forever "act like a 4 year old" even into their senior years.
There are no known cases of anyone with ACTUAL Autism ever becoming fully independent or living on their own. REAL Autistics require caretakers and adult supervision their entire lives.
Quaraun falls into the same 27% as I do.
Like me, Quaraun has the ability to talk and can feed himself. Though like me he often forgets to do either.
Yes, you can forget to talk.
I've had times when a person was talking to me, and the conversation reached a pint of him saying:
"Why won't you answer me?"
To which I said: "What do you mean?"
"What do you mean what do you mean?"
"I've been answering you."
"No you haven't."
"Yes I have."
"Have not. You ain't said a word once."
Well, in my head I was talking to him, however, my brain forgot to make my mouth move and send the words out. This is actually a rather common problem for people with Autism, and Quaraun does it from time to tome in the novels.
Forgetting to eat can be a problem and it is one of the reasons I'm now in my 50s and still require adult supervision.
I can cook. I can cook really well. I took Culinary Arts in college. I can cook exceptionally well. I just have trouble remembering that I'm supposed to.
I frequently go 4 or 5 days or more between meals. I often reach a point where I am typing and my hand is trembling so much I can no longer type. I am then forced to stop typing.
I call Ben tell him: "My hand's shaking, what should I do?"
Ben instead says: "Where you been I haven't heard from you in 5 days?"
Me: "What do you mean? I just talked to you this morning?"
Ben: "No, that was Monday morning."
Me: "Ain't it Monday?"
Ben: "It's Friday."
Me: "Huh? I started typing after talking to you. I just stopped now. I thought it was only a couple of hours. That must be why my hand is shaking! I must be hungry! Boy! I'll bet I'm tired too."
Ben: "You forgot to sleep, for 5 days?"
Me: "I was writing."
Ben: "For 5 days?"
Me: "Apparently."
I do this sort of thing a few times a month. It's why I have to have caretakers and adult supervision, even at my age.
I forget to talk, during conversations.
I forget to eat.
I forget to sleep.
I forget to go use the toilet.
I've been known to go as much as 6 months between baths. I forget to do that as well.
I have dreadlocs. Guess who forgot to brush her hair for almost 3 years.
This is the reality of living with Autism.
This is what it is like to be ACTUALLY Autistic.
When you hear an Autism mother yelling at an Aspie mother and saying to the Aspie mother: "What are you complaining about, at least your kid can wipe his own bum!"
THIS is what those mothers are talking about.
I am High Functioning so eventually after a few days I notice my "stomach hurts" and I call Ben, tell him, and he'll be... "Have you eaten lately?"
I'll be: "Nope. It ain't that. I've got snacks here... oh I know! I haven't gotten up to go pee in a few days. That's what it is! I have to go pee! Yay! I know why my stomach hurts! I haven't peed in a few day. I gotta go do that."
Yes. I have Autism. And I forget to go pee. Sometimes for several days to a time.
Someone with High Functioning Autism can survive on their own, but without caretakers to check in on them, they will not thrive.
If your child has Autism, they will never have 100% independence.
Aspergers, yes. Most Aspies can live on their own without caretakers. But not Autistics. It's one of the biggest differences there is between Autism and Aspergers.
I have to have timers for everything.
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go eat."
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go pee."
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go sleep."
Are you someone who watches my YouTube videos?
Go watch my Witcher 3 Wild Hunt series of game play videos. You'll see it. Every 45 minutes a timer goes off, and I tell you... "Oh... it's time to go pee! I'll stop the game here and start another episode after I go pee."
I played 117 hours of that game in a single sitting.
Yes.
One sitting.
There are 117 45 minute episodes of me playing that game and every 45 minutes, at the end of every episode, that timer goes off, and I get up to go pee and eat a small mini-meal, Then come back and play through for another 45 minutes until the timer goes off again.
This is my life.
This is life with Autism.
Having a timer that goes off every 45 minutes is the only way I can remember to stop what I am doing and go use the damn toilet.
At least I am high functioning enough to wipe my bum myself. 73% of Autistic people require a caretaker to wipe their bums for them.
In the Quaraun series you see scenes where Quaraun forgets to eat, often for days on end, because I forget to eat.
You see Quaraun go days on end, walking across the country side not stopping to rest, forgetting he needs to sleep, because I forget to sleep.
The sleep issue is a frequent one, one that shows up in nearly every novel as well. It's a reoccurring theme in the Quaraun series, for Quaraun's days f no sleep to cause disruption in the lives of others who are trying to sleep and he's doing something that keeps them awake.
There are many scenes where Unicorn puts opium into Quaraun's food or drink, to mellow Quaraun out enough for him to at least collapse and be forced to rest in a drug induced stupor.
Quaraun woke up again many hours later. He felt the warm heat
of BoomFuzzy's body against his back, and Quaraun moved his body
towards the heat. Quaraun's eyelids were too heavy to open, so
Quaraun lay in the warmth, enjoying the closeness of feeling another
living being pressed close to him. Quaraun's mind couldn't seem to
focus, and he knew the eggnog BoomFuzzy had given him before bed, had
likely been drugged.
"Did you drug me?"
"Aye."
~From "BoomFuzzy" (Volume 3 of The Quaraun Series)
More then 90% of all Autistic people have a low IQ of under 75. Most are considered "mentally retarded" with IQs below 60.
Fewer then 10% of all Autistics are High Functioning.
High Functioning Autism, means:
"Has an IQ of 75 or more and can speak in phrases longer then 2 or 3 words, being able to communicate verbally in full sentences."
We already covered this one a couple of questions ago.
Your child can NOT be diagnosed with Autism, because there is no medical condition called "Autism".
Autism is a slang laymen's term for Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare birth defect caused by genetic mutation.
Raise your hand if you knew there was no disease, illness, or disorder actually named "Autism".
When a doctor says "Your child may be autistic", they DO NOT mean they are diagnosing your child with Autism.
They mean you child is displaying symptoms of Autism and likely has one of the 60+ ASDs.
If your child has one of the ASDs, this means your child DOES NOT have Autism, but has a disease with similar symptoms to Autism.
Yeah, raise your hand if you knew this one.
Doctors are extremely reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism.
It is one of the single most difficult diagnosis to get from a doctor and requires your child be taken for multiple interviews WITH OUT THE PARENTS in the room.
If you TRULY believe your child was sexually traumatized before the age of 3 years old (and that is what Autism is) you will have your child undergo a series of hour long interviews ABOUT THEIR SEX LIFE with multiple social workers and psychiatrists.
It requires 3 psychiatrists to agree that the child is suffering from serious early childhood sexual abuse trauma, before they will consider giving a diagnosis of Autism.
An ACTUAL diagnosis of ACTUAL Autism is a very SERIOUS diagnosis that a doctor can not give lightly, as it also requires the doctor to immediately call the police and have the parents arrested for gross child neglect and extreme child sexual abuse.
When a child is diagnosed with REAL Autism, the child is immediately handed over to child protective services and the parents charged with criminal neglect and abuse.
If your did not receive criminal charges and have your child taken away the same day as the diagnosis, then you DID NOT receive a diagnosis of ACTUAL Autism.
Did you know Autism is caused by early childhood sexual abuse and/or extreme physical or psychological trauma?
Neither did most of the other parents proudly proclaiming themselves rapists, I mean parents of an Autistic child.
Wait... do you mean.... you REALLY didn't know that every time you proudly wave your puzzle piece flag and say "My kid has Autism, YAAAAAY!", that you are also proudly telling the world you sexual abused your child?
A diagnosis of Autism is nothing to be proud of.
Rape is not something to be proud of
Being a parents who rapes your infant is not something to be proud of.
Your child having a psychosis that is caused by having been raped by one of their caretakers before they reached 3 years of age, is nothing to be proud of.
While you are proudly waving your puzzle piece flag, why don't you also get your son a shirt that says:
"My mom raped me before I was 3 years old! I got Autism now, YAAAAY! Rape is the greatest! Go rape go! Ya for rape! Rape those babies! Let's get more Autism in the world! Woo-ho! Ain't child rape the greatest, it gave me Autism! Yay!"
Can you see how, horrible, sick, and disgusting it is, for you to call yourself "A proud Autism mom!"?
ooooh! You didn't child rape was the cause of Autism? I thought you were this great big expect on Autism.
OOooooh my! Somebody didn't do their homework before they self-diagnosed their child with Autism! Imagine that.
Oh wait... you only know about Aspergers.
I'm sorry, I didn't realize you were too retarded to know Aspergers was not a "type" of Autism. Silly me, here I am the one with the low IQ. How stupid of me for thinking someone with an IQ higher then mine actually knew something about Autism. I mean, I'm just the stupid little retard who actually HAS Autism, so what do I know?
Hey, here's an idea, why don't you get your head out of Sheldon Cooper's ass and actual find out what Autism is. Huh? How about that.
Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to find out who in the hell this Sheldon Cooper was that every body kept talking about at all the Autism Awareness events the past couple of years?
Why was it hard?
Oh let me think... I have Autism, and everything that implies.
If you knew what "everything that implies" meant, I wouldn't have to explain why I didn't know who Sheldon Cooper was.
There's a little thing called: no TV, you know, because might bring Satan into the house.
There's also a little thing called: no electricity, you know, because Satan made it.
Then there's that little thing called: child sex slavery and being locked in a room, from the time I was 8 until I was 31, and only allowed out when the High Priests from the Saco Ward LDS Church showed up looking to fuck a baby.
Yeah... I have Autism... REAL Autism... and EVERYTHING that implies.
While you and your children were happily glorifying your TV shows, I was being raped by the highest bidding High Priest.
While your 3 year old was learned her first words, I was being beaten with a nail filled board for not being able to recite the entire book of Genesis in under an hour.
While your 8 year old was worrying about losing her first tooth, I was worrying about losing my first baby during my first miscarriage.
I have Autism, Sugar Plum, and your child's nothing but a damned tv worshiping spoiled brat who wants to "be special just like Sheldon".
You think your child has Autism because your child has a High IQ and is socially awkward? ... Honey, those are not even symptoms of Autism. Why don't you get your head out of the TV and stop re-tweeting memes, long enough to read an actual medical text book. A few Psychology books, maybe?
Try finding out what Autism is before you start diagnosing your children with such a horrifying disease.
Autism is not nice.
Autism is not fun.
Autism is not something to run around all yippie skippies happy about.
Autism is a horrible psychosis that could easy be prevented if perverted adults would stop sexually abusing children.
And yes, I was taken away from my parents at the time of my diagnosis, at the age of 31 years old. It was later realized that my parents were victims as well.
My uncles are now wanted by the FBI for child sex slavery and human trafficking.
Let's see if we can get back on topic... how does this apply to the Quaraun series and writing a fictional character with Autism?
I actually have already written an answer covering this topic over on the page titled: Suicide, Rape, and Abuse In The Quaraun Series. You can go read that for a very long answer.
The short(er) answer is that: I write what I know and I know rape very well. I have never, not once in my entire life, ever had consensual sex with anyone. I don't know what it would be like to have sex with someone and them not be raping me.
I therefore also do not know how to write a sex scene that is kind, loving, consensual, and not rape.
I have Autism and am unable to imagine what it would be like to experience something that I had not myself experienced.
No one has ever hugged me.
No one.
Not my parents. Not the men who raped me. And I've never had a friend, so obviously no friends have ever hugged me either. I don't know how to write a hug. Because I've never experienced a hug to know what it feels like.
No one has ever kissed me.
No one.
Not my parents. Not the men who raped me. And I've never had a friend, so obviously no friends have ever kissed me either. I don't know how to write a kiss. Because I've never experienced a kiss to know what it feels like.
The only sex I've ever experienced was rape and so I don't know how to write a sex scene outside of a rape scene.
There is a lot of sex in the Quaraun series. But it's all rape.
Quaraun never experiences kind, loving, consensual sex. He only ever experiences rape.
He never knows what it is like to enjoy sex. Because I don't know what it is like to enjoy sex.
He only knows what it is like to experience fear an pain during sex, because I only know what it is like to experience fear and pain during sex.
In the Quaraun series sex and abuse take center stage.
Right from the beginning of his life.
His earliest memory is of him being attacked and injured along side his mother.
His strongest memory is witnessing his mother's murder a few years later, while he is still a small child.
Quaraun's mother was beaten to death by his father, who then turned on the small boy and would have killed him as well, except an uncle intervened.
As a teenager, he is near daily beaten by his father and his father's servants.
When his father is angry with him, he drags Quaraun (still a child) out into the center of town, strips him naked, and publicly beats him. (Keeping in mind the series is set in the 1400s when this sort of thing was so common that town squares had special tables made just for holding the child [or spouse] down while you whipped them. It was considered a form of entertainment and huge crowds gathered to watch these events.) Quaraun is publicly tortured and humiliated every few weeks throughout most of his childhood and teen years.
Like I was in real life, Quaraun was frequently locked in a tiny room, left to go days on end without food.
Like I was, Quaraun often had to fight the dogs for scraps.
Like I was, Quaraun was made to sit on the floor and not allowed to eat at the table with his family.
Like I was, Quaraun was often stabbed in the arm with forks, if he dared try to sneak food from the table.
Like I was, Quaraun was little more then a skeleton, malnourished, and starving to death.
Like I was, Quaraun was rescued from his abusive family, by a sex crazed rapist, who was just as sexually abusive to him as his family had been physically abusive.
Yes.
Quaraun's backstory matches his psychosis.
Yes.
Quaraun's childhood, is the childhood that real Autistics have.
Because Autism has become "a fad", many parents, teachers, and even social workers, are quick to suggest a child be submitted to psychiatric evaluation for Autism, often without knowing what that really means or what the evaluation process involves.
Because the parents are not present during the interviews and the child is instructed to NOT reveal to his parents any of the questions asked by the psychiatrists, few parents or teachers are ever fully aware of the extremely sexual nature of the interview questions that their toddler is being asked to answer.
Because the Quaraun series is set in the 1400s this does not apply to him.
However, I do wish, parents would do a little bit better research before sending their children for Autism interviews with Psychiatrists. Your 3 year old is gonna come out of those interviews with a better sex education then a Porn star has. Until you've had to sit through their 100 question sessions about your sex life, you can't even begin to image how intensely an Autism evaluation invades a persons sex life history.
Before you send your child for an Autism evaluation, you might want to step back and consider... is the amount of sexual trauma your child will experience during that interview, worth the diagnosis they may not get?
Autism is caused by sexual trauma and those Autism evaluation questions are designed to find out HOW MUCH sexual trauma your child has been through. If your child has never been sexual traumatized... they certainty will be by the time those Autism evaluation interviews are over.
Doctors actually trained in what REAL Autism ACTUAL is, are very reluctant to submit a young child to the psychological evaluation process because of the highly sexual nature of the questions, which can in fact trigger sexual trauma in a child that was not previously sexually traumatized.
What this means is the evaluation process for Autism, can actually CAUSE Autism in a non-Autistic child.
Yeah. That's what I was just talking about in my previous answer.
Many symptoms of ASDs go away over time, either on their own or with changes to medication, diet, and lifestyle.
ACTUAL Autism is a type of mental retardation, and is a severely crippling lifelong condition. It's symptoms do not lesson or go away with time.
If your child is diagnosed with REAL, ACTUAL Autism aka as an Idiot Savant, your doctor will say: "Your child has Kanner's Syndrome", they will NOT say "Your child has Autism"
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
The symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away over time.
Autism is always easily recognized.
Autism is considered rare and uncommon.
Was identified in 1932.
That is a really long one and is also the one I wanted to comment on the most in regards to writing any Autistic character in general, but especially Quaraun in particular. The second part of that list is very long and most of the words on it I have never heard before and do not know what they are, so will have to look up the meanings to find out what they are. They did provide links, which I think go to Wikipedia? Not sure. I have not checked the links yet to find out where they go to.
Because this one is so long, I think I need to divide it up by parts. Let's also put an outline around it so you know where these start and stop...
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
This is one of the ones I do not know what it means...
a profound lack of affect
What does that mean?
I tried Googling it and all I get back are results for "What is the Difference Between Affect and Effect?"
So I have no clue what this one means. What in the heck is "a profound lack of affect"?
The next part is:
emotional contact with others
Again, what does that mean?
Is it that whoever wrote this list has horrific grammar and the
"affect or" should not be there?
I'm thinking that whoever wrote this list made some type of error there and that the only way to determine what they mean is to remove the "affect or". So let's try that and see if maybe we can make some sense of this.
This is very true. There is absolutely no one in my life who wants to show me any form of emotion at all, what so ever.
My dad is like a robot, completely devoid of any emotion at all, and my mom is an intensely violent, very volital, hot tempered, always screaming, non-stop yelling, getting into violent fights with everyone, spit fire hell cat ready to claw the eyes out of anyone (literally - she's attempted to do so to several people now.) She gets arrested for beating people in the head with bricks and stuff.
I don't think my dad has any emotions at all and I don't think my mom has any emotion other then extreme violent rage.
All three of my brothers have "turned off" as of April 10, 2015. Our cats were the only emotional support any of us had.
Our cats were the only friends we had. Without the cats me and my 3 brothers have no one. Since the kidnapping of the cats, and their heads being returned nailed to our do a month later, all 3 of my brothers have stopped talking.
None of them has smiled since April 10, 2015.
None of them has laughed since April 10, 2015.
None of them has barely said a full sentence since April 10, 2015.
That was almost 3 years ago.
My 3 brothers are intensely traumatized by what was done to their cats.
Our mother does not allow us to have friends.
I escaped the clan. Two of my brothers are still trapped in it. The cats were the only friends they had. Now they have no one.
Because I escaped the clan, I've not been allowed (by the clan) to have contact with my brothers.
My uncles run the clan. There is no love in any of them. Sex and money is all they know, all they do. Sell children for sex so they can have more money. Nothing else matters to them.
I've never had a Human friend before. I wouldn't know where to look for one.
So, yes, this one is very true. There is a profound lack of emotional contact with others in my life. I don't know how I would go about finding some one to have emotional contact with.
My cats were the only friends and emotional support I've ever had. Evil men killed them. Now I have no one at all.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
I had normal speech at first.
I was 8 when the shoot out happened between the Atwater clan and the Cyr clan. One of the Cyrs shoot a kid's eye out of his head. He was standing right beside me. The kid to the other side of me, my cousin Murphy... he had his head cut off July 2013. That big white cross at the corner of Cascade Rd and Ross Rd? That's what's left of him there.
At 14
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:a profound lack of affect or emotional contact with others
Does this mean line taking all 300,000 of my books off the shelf and lining them up from one end of my dad's apartment to the other, then putting then all back on the shelf?
Or like spending 10 or 12 hours sorting my many thousands of Crayola Big Boxes?
Or spending hours drawing thousands of circles in the sand on the beach, for all 7 miles of the beach?
Mixing paint colours on a palet for no reason, with absolutely no intention of painting anything, just doing it because I can watch paint colours mix and swirl for hours.
Squeezing playdough. Kinectic sand. Foam squish putty. Silly putty. Gelly tubes.
My current favorite toy is seen in nearly every one of my youtube videos: a 12" rainbow wand filled with oil and glitter. I flip it and twirl it for hours.
Or picking up every moonsnail on the beach even though the beach is 7 miles long and I went past my 10lb weight limit (doctors orders) many hours ago but I can't stop picking up moonsnails anyways.
Or spending 4 years gluing 2.5million marbles to my car? (started this at age 37...)
How about spending 8 years handsewing one hair at a time a 14 foot long mokomoko for an insanely over the top Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay?
Sitting on the beach, for hours on end, doing nothing but sifting sand through my fingers and being utterly fascinated with the sensation of the sand on my skin.
Collecting 5,000+ stuffed animals and teddy bears, and setting aside a day each week, to do nothing but hug every one of them. Sometimes doing it more then once a week, because I don't have any one to hug me and if I didn't have 5,000+ teddy bears I would never have felt a hug at all. (And this is recently added one, I actually started doing this one in my 40s. I used to have cats to hug every day. Actually, I used to hug each cat every hour of every day. I've only been amassing thousands of teddy bears to hug in the past 2 years since my cats were murdered.)
Bela: April 8, 2015 - 2 days before she was kidnapped. You are looking at a GIANT 30lb cat. Yep... that's the cat everyone used to talk about... the one people thought was a panther, you can how monster sized she was. She was bigger then a Cocker Spaniel.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
I have no clue what visuo-spatial skills means... off to ask Google...
...
Nope...
I still don't know what it means... I'll have to look into this more and come back to it later once I figure out what it means so I know how to translate it.
I am unable to tell you if I have this or not as I do not know what it is.
I can therefore also not tell you if Quaraun has it or not.
I will come back and edit this with a better answer once I've figured out what visuo-spatial skills means.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are
Nope. I do not have any of the facial deformities normally associated with mental retardation.
Neither does Quaraun.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
As soon as people find out I have Autism, the first thing they say is: "Oh, so you must have a High IQ right?"
No. I high IQ is NOT a symptom of Autism.
A low IQ and mental retardation is a symptom of Autism.
So what is my IQ?
My general overall score of all topics combined, including ability to preform basic life skills is 75
My Reading, Writing, and Grammar score is 221 (highest score in the State of Maine - 3 colleges and MENSA all cross tested me, I scored 221 on each other their tests)
My Biology, Earth, and Nature Sciences is 138
Physics and Technical sciences 40
Maths 65
Those are the two highest IQ categories and the two lowest IQ categories, side by side so you can see the variation in range.
Everything else was in a 70 to 90 range.
You can see where my savant skills are, when you look at the two categories that ranked super high.
When my Writing score came back as 221, the school had me retake the test because they thought there must have been an error. When I came back with 221 the second time they decided I must have cheated so had me take it a 3rd time with a bunch of teachers gathered all around me to watch me do it.
When it came back 221 the 3rd time they called a college and asked them to come give me a different version of the test. It was still 221.
That college contacted yet another college. Still 221.
MENSA was contacted. It was still 221.
MENSA tried a different test. It was still 221.
Harvard University was contacted, they said it's one of the top 10 highest IQ scores of any category, ever in history; they said I could attend their college if I could pass the entrance tests... $33k per semester, all semesters, all the way to a PhD in English Literature... paid scholarship, because Harvard has a glut lust for any one with a mega high IQ ... IF I could pas the entrance examines... with a Math IQ of 65 and a Physics IQ of 40, and an overall IQ of 75, I can not pass their entrance tests, in spite of an IQ of 221 in Writing, Reading, and Grammar.
THIS is what a high IQ in Autism looks like.
It is NOT an overall high IQ... it is one super mega high IQ in ONE SINGLE TOPIC ONLY, with an abnormally mega low IQ in every other topic.
This is Savant Autism.
I am very, very, very, very good at one topic and one topic only and mentally retarded in every other area.
I published my first book, at the age of 3 years old, by the way.
My Spelling IQ is 75 by the way. I can't spell worth shit, but I can write. Boy can I ever write. You probably noticed that some few tens of thousands of words ago.
If you've read the Quaraun books, you see this in him as well. He can read and write far above and beyond everyone around him. He can sew elaborate costumes (as can I) and he knows the word of plants and animals inside out and can name every plant and bird he sees... as can I...
Like me, Quaraun is well versed in Necromancy and Voodoo (I'm a Voodoo Priestess rank of Mesden Fey Marija Loa to Damballa Wedo, by the way)...
Quaraun by the way is an ACTUAL Necromancer (also known as a Medium) by the real world definition of the word and NOT the Fantasy definition of the word... meaning he talks to dead spirits, communicates to ghosts, etc. as opppsed to resurecting zombies and building undead armies.
One of the complaints a few readers had with the series was they thought he was a fantasy style necromancer so they expected him to be doing dark bloody rituals, digging up graves and creating undead minions... they were not aware he was a Necromancer, like in the real world and spends his days staring into crystal balls asking questions to dead people for clients. Which, I also do, in case you were wondering... I do the whole card reading, ouji boards, pendulums, etc thing, which is why I have Quaraun doing it. It goes back to me writing what I know.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
Okay, so we've reached the 2nd half of the list. The part that has links. I'm glad they put links in this, so I can hopefully find out what each of these things means, because most of the stuff on this list I have no clue what it is.
Stupor... I don't know what that means. Let's click the link and see where it goes...
Stupor (From Latin stupere, "be stunned or amazed") is the lack of critical mental function and a level of consciousness wherein a sufferer is almost entirely unresponsive and only responds to base stimuli such as pain. Those in a stuporous state are rigid, mute and only appear to be conscious, as the eyes are open and follow surrounding objects.
... a catatonic stupor
Ah! Yes. I do know what this is.
Catatonia, aka the waking coma, which I mentioned at some point in this article, though I don't know now which page it ended up on as I've had to cut this article into smaller parts due to it having gotten so long.
No. I do not have this and neither does Quaraun.
I once meet a person who had this. It's a somewhat shocking thing to see.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
Now this one I know and have. And Quaraun has it as well.
I can and do, go days, sometimes weeks on end without saying a word.
I have Selective Mutism as well. Which means I'll be in the middle of talking and my brain, suddenly and without my permission, turns my vocal cords off and refuses to allow sound to come out of my mouth.
You see it on several of my YouTube vlogs.
I'm alone. Me and the camera. No one else. I can talk more or less normally.
Then, someone walks up to me and BOOM, my voice is completly gone. It's like a vacumme cleaner hose suddenly went down my throat and sucked out my voice and ran away with it, and left me struggling for air and not able to breath.
You know how in the Little Mermaid the Witch takes the mermaid's voice and no matter how much she tries to talk, she can't. It's just like that.
The person leaves and BOOM, my voice comes back, and I pick up talking to the camera like nothing happened.
There are exactly 7 people with whom I am able to talk to face to face without any trouble at all.
In college I could talk to teachers one on one after class, but could not talk to teachers during class while sitting in class. I could not talk to students at all in class or outside of class.
In public situations, such as attending a Convention, my ability to talk is somewhat in the middle - I CAN talk, but it's stuttered or slurred.
When talking to MOST people, I have episodes where I get stuck on a word and can't get past it... it sounds like this...
"It, it, it, it, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, llllllll.... li. li. li. liiiiiiii. lik. k. k.k .k .k. k. k. k. k. like... like... th... th... thi... thi... thiss... THIS!"
This is a language tic.
Now Quaraun doesn't do it in the novels, but GhoulSpawn does. GhoulSpawn often has trouble getting to the end of a sentence without getting stuck on a word half way through.
How does GhoulSpawn stop the stuck word and get past it? The same way I do.... grab a book and wallop himself in the side of the head. It reset his brain and lets him finish the sentence.
Why?
I have no clue.
It's like, my brain is a record player and the needle got stuck in a scratch and is just skipping and repeating the same word. When that happens you give the record player a shake, the arm bumps up over the scratch and song finishes playing.
My brain does the same damned thing and I don't know why.
I'm in the middle of talking,talking, talking, talking, talking ...slam myself in the head with a book... and now I can finish the damn sentence.
I don't know why my brain sometimes gets stuck on a word or why jostling my brain makes it reset and moves on like nothing happened.
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I have this on some levels, but it's not to the point of my ever being diagnose with ADD/ADHD.
One of my brothers had ADHD as a child but it lessened with age. He still has it but it's kind of "stabilized".
He was a runner. And a climber.
At 2 years old, if you couldn't find him... run to the farthest and tallest tree from the house and look up, usually the giant pine about a 1/4 mile away, he was probably up there in the top some 50 to 60 feet up. Giggling, laughing hysterically, and at about 20 feet up he'd jump screaming "catch me! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"
If you woke up in the middle of the night to Thumptiy, Thump, Thump... that would be my brother, 3 years old, on the roof of the house, throwing firewood down the chimney.
Age 4 at doctor's office, nurse calls his name: "Ha ha! You can't catch me!" he laughs as he rips his cloths off and runs naked out the building and into the parking lot... 2 hours, several miles, and many exhausted adults later, he's finally caught and dragged to his appointment.
6 years old, we are in the ER, explaining to the doctor how it is my brother came to have a piece of wood, about an inch in diameter, skewered through his foot.
"He jumped of the roof into the wood pile..."
"Why was he on the roof?"
"He has ADHD..."
"Oooooooh!" Doctor nods. "I have one of those."
Same brother, now 27 years old. PokemonGo addict. Walks 16 miles a day to catch them all. If you can't find him... there's an old mill... giant 1800s brick factory, Pepperal Mill, if you live in Biddeford, you know it and it's famous 75 foot tall smoke stack. Several hundred rooms, a building that covers more then a mile. 5 stories tall. Can't find my brother. On the back of that mill, hanging over the Saco River, there's a ladder to scare the bravest of men shitless... go climb it... you'll find my brother on the roof of the mill, frantically catching Pokemon.
You know how I found him? He didn't come home one day. Whole family went into a panic. Every one was pacing his known Pokemon rought. I'm walking by the mill. I stop and point to the 75 foot tall smoke stack and comment:
"Boy I'm glad he got over his climbing thing."
We continue on a few feet. I stop walking. I look at my other brother whose with me. We both look up at that massive 75 foot tall chimney.
"I ain't climbing up that" he says shaking his head.
"Here, watch Marcy," I hand him my dog.
I'm scared of hieghts. But 20 minutes later... I'm looking down over the entire city of Biddeford, and there's my brother....waaaaaay up there.
"Watcha doing up here?"
He answers in hyper mile a minute speed...
"There's-Pokemon-everywhere! I-gotta-get'em-all. They're rare ones! No one has these. Look! I've got..." he starts listing them off in giddy hyper excitement... "I've caught 25 in the last hour, they're every where up here!"
His eyes are round with the wild ADHD gleeful mania of the discovery of a Pokemon goldmine hiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh over the top of Biddeford.
I've known several people with varying levels of hyperness, but my brother has everybody else beat. He can make other people with ADHD look calm. And he still runs. You still can't catch him.
He has an actual diagnosis from a doctor.
That's something I've noticed that's different with him than with others. Most people SAY they have ADHD, but most also say they are self diagnosed.
Now my brother, he has an actual diagnosis and medication for it and stuff. He acts REALLY, EXTREMELY different from people who say they self diagnosed themselves.
Most times wen people say they have ADHD, my response is: "Really? You don't act like it." And then they say "Well, I took this test online and it says I have it..."
No... I grew up with someone who ACTUALLY has ADHD, I guarantee, no online test is needed to tell if you have it.
He could run none stop for hours and... it wasn't like he was running because he wanted too... he couldn't control it, and he would literally run until he collapsed from exhaustion.
From age 2 to about age 15 or so... he did this weird thing, where, if he was required to sit down for a long period of time (for example going to church services) as soon as he was allowed to move, he'd jump up, let out a loud whooping yell, then start running, and just run back and forth, really, really, really, wicked, super fast. Scream again, Wave his arms frantically in the air, Scream a few more times. Continue running like a mad man. Stop to kick a few walls. Jump up on tables and chairs, Continue running. Climb up on the roof. Frantically run some more. Jump back down on the ground. Run circles around the building. Kick a few doors. Scream again. Run out to the parking lot. Jump up on the car, Yell at the top of his lungs. Run frantically as if his life depended on it to the nearest tree. Climb to the top. Scream again.
After a half hour or so of that, he'd come back, acting calm and normal again and say:
"There, I got it out."
When asked why he did it, he'd say:
"I don't know. I just had to get it out of me. I was gonna burst if I didn't."
For a short while the doctor thought he might have also had Toureets, but, then he said, "No. It's just ADHD. He's just more hyper then most."
People talk about childhood temper tantrums... well... have you ever seen a ADHD meltdown? Imagine 10 Autistic children all having a meltdown at once, put them on stedoids, and you still haven't got anything even close to an ADHD meltdown.
But the time a 5 year old with an ADHD meltdown is over: every glass item in the house will be smashed, ever doll will have it's head ripped off, every item of clothen owned by everybody in the family will be torn to itty bitty pieces, all the windows will be smashed out of the house, most of the furniture will have the stuffing ripped out, and the only reason it will have stopped, is because he finally threw himself on the floor, held his breath until he turned purple and passed out.
And it wasn't because he wanted anything or was angry, it wasn't a temper tantrum and he had no control over it... at times it seemed to terrify him, as though he was trying to stop, but was being thrown around by outside forces ... it was a result of sensory over stimulation.
And then, after, when you ask him: why did you do it, he shrugs and says "I don't know. It was like there was a monster inside of my trying to get out. I couldn't stop it, I tried, but it wouldn't stop no matter what I did."
(Several people who saw it, said it looked like demon possession, and our mother actually took to calling in exorcists to cast out demons. Several different priests came over the years to cast out "his demon".)
As it turned out... playing music too loud triggered it... our mother had a habit of playing music on mega loud speakers to annoy the Cyrs next door (which is why I'm almost deaf; she daily played music full blast and damaged my ear drums; my mom and the Cyrs have a viscous, often violent feud going on, but I don't know why it started before I was born so I've never known what they are fighting about; before the 1990s they used to shoot at each other; my mom's kind of crazy)... but the music triggered something in his brain... it was described by the doctor as being similar to epilepsy.
An ADHD meltdown has more in common with an epileptic seizure then a temper tantrum, which I didn't know until I saw one happen. And if you've never seen an ADHD meltdown in person, you can't even begin to imagine how bad they can get.
The meltdowns went away after around 12 years old. Replaced by pacing.
Pacing.
He can not sit down to eat, and carries his meal in a bowl, eating while he walks from one end of his apartment to the other.
He can not use a computer because he can not sit down long enough, and so instead has one of those computer-type cell phones so he can browse the internet while he walks from room to room.
Soon as he tries to sit down his feet start tapping and moving in place. His hands started grabbing and touching everything.
He got a treadmill so he could walk in place while doing things that he needs to be stationary for.
When trying to find his first job, he took job placement tests to match your ideal job to your personality, he scored high in fast food places where he could be on his feet and constantly moving around. So that's the job he went looking for. His first job was at a fast food place... he's still there, he loves it... he can walk all day long, chatter obsessively with his co-workers and the customers in a steady non-stop hyper chatter; he now trains the new people there; he will likely stay there forever and work his way up to management, as the hyper fast environment suits his hyper need for movement.
So, while I have some mild hyperactivity, I've never considered myself a hyper person, because I've seen first hand what ADHD is like and I'm nothing like that at all.
As such, Quaraun is not portrayed as being hyperactive.
However, his Unicorn is excessively hyper. Unicorn very clearly has ADHD on extreme levels. Like my brother, Unicorn has random outbursts of screaming and running around the room kicking things for no reason at all, other then he "has to get it out."
Unicorn is rarely shown as stopping to sit or rest. When other characters stop to rest, Unicorn is described as "pacing circles around the outer edge of the camp".
When Quaraun forces Unicorn to sit down, Unicorn starts poking Quaraun with his finger or grabs a stick and starts poking the fire, or starts throwing rocks at GhoulSpawn.
When the group is walking/hiking, Unicorn is often described as "trotting far ahead of the group, then galloping back as fast as he could, running past them, swinging back around and running back ahead of them again, whinnying like rabid pony as he went."
Upon passing a Human village, Unicorn is frequently described as "galloping wildly into the village, stabbing people with his horn as he went, stamping his hooves on children, and prancing merrily on the entrails of his victims". When asked by one of the group, why he does this to every Human village they past, he replies: "It must be done. I can'na not does it."
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The first known case of Autism was Victor de l'Aveyron, a feral child discovered living in the forest, had grown up without any form of human contact, and never spoke in 1801 by French physician Jean Marc Gaspard Itard.
Prior to the 1970s it was assumed that ALL Autistic children were "feral children" whom had been serverly neglected and or abused and had on some levels raised themselves without the normal guidance of a parent.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 are reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism to any child that can not also be considered "a Feral Child", thus why ACTUAL Autism diagnosis are so rare.
I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
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I was also classified as having suffered the following:
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I was also classified as having suffered the following:
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TRUE Autism is caused by being born with a genetic mutation which triggers compulsive overcompensation techniques as a way to deal with extreme, abnormal, and excessive early age child abuse. The most common trigger is toddler rape by adults, sexual abuse, and child sex slavery.
Child sexual abuse (CSA) is a form of child abuse in which an adult or older adolescent abuses a child for sexual stimulation.
Sexual abuse refers to the participation of a child in a sexual act aimed toward the physical gratification or the financial profit of the person committing the act.
Forms of CSA include asking or pressuring a child to engage in sexual activities (regardless of the outcome), indecent exposure of the genitals to a child, displaying pornography to a child, actual sexual contact with a child, physical contact with the child's genitals, viewing of the child's genitalia without physical contact, or using a child to produce child pornography. Selling the sexual services of children may be viewed and treated as child abuse rather than simple incarceration.
Persons with ACTUAL Autism often display several of the following side effects of child sexual abuse:
Children who are the victims are also at an increased risk of sexually transmitted infections due to their immature immune systems and a high potential for mucosal tears during forced sexual contact.
In the United States, approximately 15% to 25% of women and 5% to 15% of men were sexually abused when they were children.
The uncles who raised me are currently wanted by and on the run from the FBI.
An increase in children having Autism = an increase in children being raped, molested, and sexually abused by a caregiver before reaching the age of 3.
Yes, because of what the ACTUAL causes of ACTUAL Autism are, if your child REALLY DOES have ACTUAL Autism...
you are one hell of a horrible, shitty, no good son of bitch, bastard of a parent and you should be in prison where your neglectful, self-serving, sexually depraved, child abusing ass belongs.
You might want to think about THAT next time you go around bragging "I self diagnosed my child as Autistic."
As many as 60% of all Autistics are catatonic... meaning they were abused so bad that their brain shut down, forcing them into a "waking coma" as a way to not see the abuse any longer.
Asperger’s Syndrome shares with Autism:
But people with Asperger’s do not have:
Aspies are:
Asperger’s is often not recognized easily or early, and may be misdiagnosed as:
As with Autism, the disorder is lifelong and symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away with time.
Asperger's is considered prevalent and very common.
Was identified in 1944, but was not recognized by doctors as an actual diagnosis until 1994.
Gifted Introverts are shy people with high IQs (an IQ of 130 or higher).
While socially awkward, they do not have the speech issues, ritualistic behaviors, or other symptoms of either Autism or Aspergers.
Many gifted, but introverted children are inaccurately diagnosed as having Aspergers when they in fact do not have it.
Gifted Children have a very high IQ of 130 or higher.
On the other hand, ACTUAL Aspies rarely have high IQs.
Most Aspergers people have a low IQ that is only slightly higher then the IQs of Autistics, usually in the range of 75 to 90.
High Functioning Aspergers are uncommon to rare, and most of them having normal/average IQs of between 90 to 120.
Autism equaling a high IQ is an urban myth spread by internet memes and is NOT an actual symptom of either Autism or Aspergers.
Aspies are more likely then not to have a low IQ in the range of 75 to 90.
Autistics rarely have an IQ above 75.
True Autism, ACTUAL Autism, is defined as "a psychosis caused by extreme psychological trauma in early childhood, often of a sexual nature".
Psychological trauma is a type of damage to the mind that occurs as a result of a severely distressing event. Trauma is often the result of an overwhelming amount of stress that exceeds one's ability to cope, or integrate the emotions involved with that experience. A traumatic event involves one's experience, or repeating events of being overwhelmed that can be precipitated in weeks, years, or even decades as the person struggles to cope with the immediate circumstances, eventually leading to serious, long-term negative consequences.
Trauma can be caused by a wide variety of events, but there are a few common aspects. There is frequently a violation of the person's familiar ideas about the world and their human rights, putting the person in a state of extreme confusion and insecurity. This is also seen when institutions that are depended upon for survival, violate, humiliate, betray, or cause major losses or separations.
Psychologically traumatic experiences often involve physical trauma that threatens one's survival and sense of security. Typical causes and dangers of psychological trauma include harassment, embarrassment, abandonment, abusive relationships, rejection, co-dependence, physical assault, sexual abuse, partner battery, employment discrimination, police brutality, judicial corruption and misconduct, bullying, paternalism, domestic violence, indoctrination, being the victim of an alcoholic parent, the threat or the witnessing of violence (particularly in childhood), life-threatening medical conditions, and medication-induced trauma.
Catastrophic natural disasters such as earthquakes and volcanic eruptions, large scale transportation accidents, house or domestic fire, motor vehicle accident, mass interpersonal violence like war, terrorist attacks or other mass tortures like sex trafficking, being taken as a hostage or kidnapped can also cause psychological trauma. Long-term exposure to situations such as extreme poverty or milder forms of abuse, such as verbal abuse, exist independently of physical trauma but still generate psychological trauma.
If your child has REAL, ACTUAL Autism, it means he suffered one of the above listed events prior to the age of 3 years old.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 believe that an Autistic person, is a person who was born with Aspergers, but whom suffered such horrendous abuse prior to the age of 3, that, their brain triggered over compensation methods to cope with the extreme abuse they were subjected to.
Because of this, Aspergers and Autism are considered by many to be two different forms of the same disorder, but that Aspergers does not become Autism unless it also has the severe early childhood sexual abuse to trigger it.
Because of the severe nature of the levels of sexual abuse required to trigger the Autism component of Asperger's, when a child is ACTUALLY diagnosed with REAL Autism, they are also immediately put into state custody and removed from their parents/guardian's care, and criminal charges are then filed against the parent/guardian.
If your child was not taken away from you at the time of diagnosis, and you did not have sexual abuse charged filed against you by the state, then your child was NOT diagnosed with ACTUAL Autism.
Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism) is listed as a Psychosis and is therefore a mental illness.
It is considered to be caused by a genetic birth defect, which triggers an imbalance of the synapses, when a person suffering from this birth defect, is subjected to sexual abuse.
Doctors and Pediatrics can not legally diagnose Autism because they can not legally diagnose mental illnesses.
Your child can only receive an ACTUAL Autism diagnoses by a Psychiatrist specially trained in severe cases of early childhood sexual trauma.
In spite of untrained teachers, caregivers, social workers, and parents tossing around the "diagnosis" of Autism... to the rate of calling 1 in every 3 children Autistic...
...Autism remains one of the most difficult diagnoses to get diagnosed with, due to the fact doctors are reluctant to risk being sued for false charges of sexual abuse of the child, should it later be discovered the child had not been sexually abused and therefore does NOT have Autism.
Only 1 in 10,000 children are ever ACTUALLY diagnosed with Autism, by someone ACTUALLY TRAINED in recognizing this level of early childhood sexual abuse trauma.
Because Kanner's Syndrome aka ACTUAL Autism is so rare, fewer then 20% of all doctors are trained in how to recognize, diagnose, or treat it.
If your doctor diagnoses your child with "Autism" - get a new doctor immediately, as they are not trained in Autism well enough to know there is no actual medical diagnoses of "Autism" because there is no disease, illness, or disorder that actually has the medical name "Autism".
Both Aspergers and Autism are considered to be "types" of Schizophrenia.
Contrary to popular urban myths spread by ill informed parents and patients, both Autism and Aspergers are mental illnesses and can only be treated by psychiatrists. Family Practitioners and Pediatricians are not legally licensed to treat or diagnose either Aspergers or Autism. Beware of any one who says otherwise.
Unlike most mental illnesses, Aspergers and Autism are disorders you are born with. You can not "get" them. Once activated, they do not lesson, get better, or go away with time.
Similar to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, both Aspergers and Autism require traumatic stress to "activate" the genes the child was born with. Once activated, they do not turn back off.
Both Aspergers and Autism are also known as "Childhood Onset Schizophrenia".
The difference in the diagnoses, and the severity of the symptoms, is typically a result of the age of onset.
Autism is when the genes are triggered in early childhood before the age of 3. Because of the early onset, Autism is the most physically crippling and disabling type of Schizophrenia. There are no known treatments.
Aspergers is when the genes are triggered in late childhood often around the age of 14. Because of the later onset, many Aspies are able to live independent and functional lives. Diet and lifestyle are considered to help, though this is only speculation.
Schizophrenia is when the genes are triggered in adulthood after the age of 20. Late onset Schizophrenia is often treated with medication, though there is much debate in the medical world as the usefulness of this approach.
I am 1 of the 1 in 10,000 people who has REAL, ACTUAL Autism.
I do not have more then 90% of the symptoms "commonly attributed to Autisim", because most of those symptoms are urban myths made up by fans of Sheldon Cooper and are not real symptoms of REAL Autism.
Find out what it is like to live with REAL Autism here.
Find out why 80% of people claiming to be Autistic are not here:
Autism, Asperger's, And The Danger of The Self-Diagnosis
Keep in mind that MOST of what you find posted on the internet as "Symptoms of Asperger's" is written by self-diagnosed Aspies, and is VASTLY different from what the ACTUAL, clinical symptoms are.
Remember:
Autism is very rare, only 1 in 10,000 children ACTUALLY have it.
Getting a diagnosis of Autism is next to impossible.
Parents who push their doctors to look for Autism in their child, are rarely aware that they are asking their doctor to look for sex abuse done by a parent.
Aspergers is fairly uncommon, only 1 in 400 children ACTUALLY have it.
Yet 1 in ever 3 children is self diagnosed (by themselves or a parent) as being an "Aspie".
Autism Spectrum Disorder in far more common with 1 in 64 children having it. (This means, 1 in every 64 children, have one of the illnesses o the list below)
There are more then 60 illnesses, which are commonly miss-self-diagnosed as Aspergers:
Some of the illnesses on that list are extremely life threatening if left untreated.
Most parents who self-diagnose their child, do so with out ever looking at ANY alternative. Many of these mothers are later diagnosed with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television", with 40% of children between the ages of 12 and 18, admitting they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and 60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children stating they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"... The horrible reality is Autism always has been and still is very rare, with only 1 in 10,000 children actually having it (also the correct medical name for Autism is Kanner's Syndromn and if you child has REAL Autism, the doctor NEVER says "your child has Autism" but rather says "your child has Kanner's Syndrom").
In spite of the fact that Autism (Kanners Syndrome) is a very rare BIRTH DEFECT caused by mutated genes, and effects only 1 in every 10,000 people, as many as 1 in 3 people currently claim to have Autism.
These facts make me feel sad for all the REAL Autistics and their parents, because the fact remains there are a lot of fakers out there and they don't realize how hard they make it for those of us with real Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare, and very crippling birth defect that is in no way, shape or form, related to Aspergers or Autism Spectrum Disorder.
To know Autism better, it is best to look at real life people who actually have it.
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Liberace's kind loving, gentle, childlike nature, his very low IQ, his savant skills in music and cooking, his addictions to all things pink and glitter, his speech disorders (see the videos to hear it in the interviews), his love of animals, his obsessive hoarding problem (watch him trying to squeeze through massive mega hoarding piles of his collections in his house in the family and friends interview below) and his desire to help everyone he meet, are all ACTUAL SYMPTOMS of both Autism and Aspergers.
People who look at Liberace, his glitter, his bright colours, his eye poping pinks, his giddy childlike manner, and often say stuff like...
"But 1 in 3 children have Autism and you don't see 1 in 3 people acting like Liberace. Almost no one dresses or acts like him..."
Ah!
That's what THIS page is for. Go read Part 2: On Writing Autistic Characters Accurately: Autism, Asperger's, And The Danger of The Self-Diagnosis, which explains why it is, 1 in 3 children "have Autism" while only 1 in 10,000 people dress and act like Liberace.
The short answer is this:
The fact of the matter is, Autism always has been and still is a very rare disorder and Asperger's is markedly different from Autism, and self-diagnosed Aspergers is different then either Autism or Aspergers.
When you meet someone with Autism... REAL Autism... you are gonna know it. You are not going to say to yourself:
"Hmmm maybe they might possibly have Autism"...
No, you a gonna say:
"OMG! What the freaking hell is wrong with that person, did you see how they were dressed? Did you hear how they talked? They are dancing around chasing butterflies like a 2 year old! What the freaking hell? They are so bizarre!"
If you can get a person with Autism to talk, you are gonna notice, they have a very distinctive voice. They all have it. Every single one of us. Don't know what is sounds like? Here... watch this video... an interview with Liberace... pay attention to his voice and how he talks in a "child like pitch" and uses "childlike" phrases and expressions while talking... (he is in his 60s in this interview)
That is what is known as "the autistic voice" also known by bigots as "the gay voice".
If you ever looked at my YouTube videos, you'll see the most common comment across the board is for people to ask: "What's wrong with her voice?"
I have Autism, and so, like every one else who has Autism, I have that very distinctive "autistic voice".
Aspies do not have it. It one of the ways Aspergers is different then Autism. Aspergers have what is known as the "monotone voice" also known as "the robotic voice" or "the emotionless voice".
It's one of the easiest ways to tell if a person has Autism or Aspergers or neither. Just get them to talk and listen to their voice.
Also Autistics tend to prance instead of walk and gallop instead of run. Watch an autistic walk - they don't stroll along like most people do, but rather have a hop, skip, jump, tippy toe a few steps, then hop, skip, jump again, then twirl around on their toe like a ballerina, hop, skip, jump again, take a few steps, and repeat.
When told to walk slow, Autistics often hold their arms straight out, and do very tiny "ballerina toe steps" nearly walking in place. Which adults often describe as "twinkle toes".
Autistics walk as though their was music playing and they were prancing across a stage. This is how they walk, every day.
Autistic children, also like to climb, and can frequently be seen jumping up onto chairs or tables, and then spinning around in circles, often with a cape of some sort tied around their neck.
Aspergers on the other hand walk very slow and carefully, often toe to heel, one foot before the other in an awkward straight line, as if walking on a tight rope. It's very controlled, very robotic, and very stiff.
When Aspies run, they also have an interesting way of doing so, where they hold their arms down to their sides, very stiff, very straight, not moving at all, while they high goose step a march, pushing their knees so high, you wonder how they are not knocking their teeth out.
Like the Autistic voice and the Aspie voice, the Autistic walk and the Aspie walk are each very distinctive, and are again, hallmarks of each disorder, making it VERY easy to identify someone with REAL Autism or REAL Aspergers.
80% of self-diadnosed Aspies do not display either the Autistic voice or the Aspie voice, nor the Autistic walk or the Aspie walk, which can be used as proof in itself, that they have miss-self-diagnosed.
But, no, you are right... in spite of 1 in 3 children being self diagnosed as "Aspies" and claiming they therefore are "autistic"... you only see 1 in 10,000 who "talk childish", prance instead of walk, wear capes, pink, and glitter as every day fashion, and act like they are 2 years old no matter how old they are, because, in spite of the boom of "self diagnosed" Aspies and Autistics, there are still ONLY 1 in 10,000 children born with REAL Autism.
A person can be diagnosed as having BOTH Autism AND Asperger's.
A common thing I hear from readers is the phrase:
"But how can he have Autism, only kids get that!"
"But that's a childhood illness, he's a grown man, he can't be Autistic."
"Wait, how can an adult have Autism?"
It seems to baffle many readers of the series to see Quaraun, an adult with Autism.
While the series spans his entire life (750 years), the bulk of the series takes place in a small 50 year period, when he is around 450 years old, which is the equivalent of a 40 to 50 year old human man.
For some reason the average person is unaware of the fact that Autism does not go away once the child becomes an adult.
The problem seems to be based in:
"But I never see adults with Autism!"
No. You don't. That's because 73% of all Autistic children, grow up to be adults who living in nursing homes, group care homes...
Did you know that a Nursing Home is NOT the same thing as a Home For the Elderly, a Seniors' Home, or a Retirement Assisted Living Complex?
Contrary to what you are told in movies, a Nursing Home is a place for adults who can not function without 24 hour adult supervision and have no relative willing to care for them. Autism and Downs Syndrome are the two most common types of patients in a Nursing Home. Most of them being between the ages of 18 to 45. (Few Autistics live past 45 years of age.)
Do you know why most Autistics do not live past 45? Because most die from starvation, malnutrition, untreated injuries, untreated broken bones that became infected, suicide, or being beaten to death by bullies.
Autistic adults are rarely able to cook for themselves, and without caregivers can go weeks on end without food.
Autistic adults are rarely aware they are sick, hurt, or injured, and if they do not have a caregiver to take them to the hospital, they do not think to go on their own. This is not an avoidance of doctors, but rather them absent minding forgetting that things like doctors exist.
Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by poison" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell the difference between a white bottle of milk and a white bottle of Draino.
Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by overdose" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell the difference between take 2 before bed and take 20 before bed, due to their not being able to count or comprehend differences in the amount of things.
And again Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by overdose" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell time and instead of "take 1 pill every 8 hours" taking 8 pills every half hour.
Autistic adults have the highest rate of any illness of dying from injuries sustained by bullies. This is a combination of Autistic adults being 63% more likely to be bullied with excessive physical violence and 83% more likely to not seek medical help (see above).
73% of Autistic adults will never set foot out of a nursing home or be seen by the general public.
(And why do all these percentages end in 3?)
Pay close attention to Autistic children... have you ever noticed that between the ages of 18 to 24, they simply disappear? Vanish from the world as though they never existed? This is because 73% of all parents of Autism, mistakenly thought their child would hit 18 and BOOM the "childhood illness" would disappear.
Then 18 came and went and reality hit them... their child was going to continue to wear diapers for the next 50 year. Their child would never talk, never learn to eat on their own... after 18 years of waiting for that magical day when adulthood would set in and they could FINALLY have a break from raising an Autistic child - reality set in and they were faced with: OMG! Autism is NOT a childhood illness! It doesn't magically go away at adulthood!
And so, it was off to the nursing home with them. The parents finally got their freedom. The Autistic adult is left traumatized, feeling abandoned by his family, unloved, unwanted, and in more then half of all cases, will commit suicide with in the first 2 years of being sent to a nursing home, once the realization their family is never coming back for them sets in.
That is why you rarely see Autistic adults in public, and that is why Autism has the highest suicide rate of any mental illness. A symptom of Autism is an inability to accept change; becoming closely attached to their caretakers; and suicide if ever separated from said caregivers.
It’s important to avoid stereotypes like, “All people with autism do . . . .” Remember, there are just as many individual differences among people with autism as there are among people without autism.