Update: November 7, 2022
This week we should be celebrating the 9th birthday of my son.
Instead we are celebrating the 9th anniversary since his murder.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.
On top of that, they have also taken to harassing the baby's father, a disfigured, homeless, WW2 veteran, whom they call "Etoile". They spread hateful rumours about him claiming he is a cryptid, a demon, or most often what they term "an amphibious alien". He lives in pine branch lean-toos he builds in Old Orchard Beach and Ocean Park, and they have been hunting the locations of them, tearing them down, and smashing up his belongings.
April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.
September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (they thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).
June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.
November 21, 2021: They shot "Etiole" in Biddeford, while he was staying at the tent-shanty-village with about 50 other homeless people along the Saco River in Biddeford. They made the claim he was a "suicide demon" citing that he was driving locals to suicide by putting "evil eye curses" on them.
These people murdered my baby, attempted to murder the baby's father, drove a backhoe over our house, and left me crippled for the rest of my life in their attempt to murder me.
I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The police and FBI believe I was not the intended target, and that they were likely after my mother because of posts she makes on FaceBook and got us mixed up. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.
These people who show up to vandalize, while they scream about aliens and demons and Etiole, prove how retarded they are by their own words.
Why?
Because only a retarded person believes in aliens.
Because only a retarded person believes in ufos.
Because only a retarded person believes in demons.
Because only a retarded person believes in ghosts.
Because only a retarded person believes in haunted cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in demon possessed cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in alien abduction.
The inbred insect locals of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine are too damned retarded to know how much of a fool they make themselves look when they run around calling my cars demon possessed, calling my husband an alien, and calling me an alien abductee.
More Info @ eelkat.com
Long detailed info on the over 200 attacks they have done between June 2001 and May 2022, including photos of them driving a backhoe over our house on August 8, 2013 and the details of the malicious "amphibious alien" rumour they have been spreading about a local homeless disabled veteran @
https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html
Images:
July 4th 2013: my car in front of my house.
August 8, 2013: me getting home from work to find a backhoe sitting on top of my house.
The FBI already found the people with the backhoe incident, and learned that the backhoe driver was paid $600 and given a fake demolition paper, the paper stating one of my relatives (the one who paid him the $600) owned my land. The backhoe driver was unaware that the man he was dealing with was not the owner. I have lived at 146 Portland Ave since 1975 and have owned the land since 1983, it has never been owned by anyone else, even though we have now learned that both my mother and my father and 3 of my uncles had been actively going around Old Orchard Beach claiming they owned my land.
This happened 3 months before my son was murdered and the police and FBI believe my son was murdered BECAUSE of this picture being posted on FaceBook, and my mother making inciting/inflammatory posts about it on HER FaceBook, where she falsely accused me of being a witch. The FBI and OOB police believe the golf club wielding woman of November 14, 2013, is somehow connected to the backhoe driving over my house incident.
Since the murder, 3 other different backhoes have invading my land to dig up my yard, looking for the grave of my son. There is a family cemetery on my land, the stones dating mostly in the 1500s and 1600s, with a few from the past hundred years, the most recent being my son in 2013. 146 Portland Ave has belonged to my family since 1530, and I inherited it in 1983 from my grandmother Helen Ricker Allen. The most recent backhoe attack happened September 19, 2020, when they illegally cut down several trees in my yard, and started construction of a road through my yard between my pink 1975 Dodge Sportsman motorhome and BackElder Brooke, again the backhoe digging up and destroying large portions of my farm, in their search for my murdered son's grave. They dug up 16 of the graves in this attack.
We have had to remove the grave markers from the family grave in order to stop these vandals and their illegally trespassing construction equipment from destroying the graves.
The FBI believes these construction crews are being hired by the golf club wielding women, and believe she is trying to destroy the grave of my son, due to a fear of his golf club smashed skull being used as court evidence against her.
The most recent attacks by these people occurred November 21, 2021 and March 27, 2022 when they attacked my painted Volvo while it was parked at my dad's apartment in Biddeford, both times the vandals also cut all the wires to electricity, internet, and cable off the apartment building, effecting all 9 families living there.
The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police Departments as well as the Portland FBI are seeking any information regarding any and all of these attacks on my family, my home, my land, or my cars.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
And no... to those who asked... the FBI is not looking for info on the 4-door white truck driver... the FBI has ALREADY ARRESTED the driver and owner of the 4-door white truck - 2 different people. The 4-door white truck was owned by Old Orchard Beach Town Hall clerk and Old Orchard Beach Police Department Dispather Kathy Smith, Relief Society President of the Saco Ward of the Agusta Stake Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Her son was the driver. They were both arrested and sentenced in 2017, and were also both excommunicated from the Mormon church as a result of their MANY hate crimes, which included but were not limited to the 4 door white truck attacks of 2013 to 2016.
Yes. A LOT of arrests have already been made. Do keep in mind the April 10, 2015 attack involved 74 people who were wearing Ku Klux Klan style white robes and pillow cases over their heads (which is how you can tell they were not real, actual Ku Klux Klan members as the REAL Ku Klux Klan wear miters on their heads, NOT pillow cases). There are in total MORE THEN 74 people actively being hunted down by twenty-one different Maine police departments, the Maine state police, the Florida State police, the Connecticut State police, and the FBI.
Since the backhoe attack of August 8, 2013, there have been a whooping 24 arrests JUST IN TWO CHURCHES:
The Saco Ward of the Augusta Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
and
The Sanford Ward of the Exeter Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints.
There have been additional arrests at the following three churches which all have the same owner:
Grace Point in Biddeford
New Life (aka That Church in front of WalMart) in Biddeford
and
Curtis Lake Church in Sanford
Due to the alarmingly high rate of arrests and prison sentences made at these 5 churches, the police and FBI have focused the bulk of their investigation on all members of these five congregations, with the bulk of the investigation being on the two Mormon churches and all friends, family, and relatives of the members of those five churches, as it is believed that ALL people involved in the murder and 20+ years of harassment of my family, are all members of these 5 churches and or friends, family, and relatives of these five churches.
To date, 64 of the 74 suspected white hood wearers of April 10, 2015, have commit suidice, four of which when killing themselves, also killed 5 or more members of their families with them at the same time. One of them was Old Orchard Beach Police officer Bruce Savoy, who killed his entire family and then himself.
The police and FBI believe there is a suicide pact between the 74 attackers who arrived April 10, 2015 on my farm at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... as 64 of them have now commit suicide, between 2015 and 2023.
Additionally, Agent Andy Drewer was NOT the original FBI agent heading the case. Laura was. FBI agent Laura was murdered February 6, 2021, during her attempt to arrest a murder suspect who was in Florida at the time he murdered her. So in addition to murdering my son, these people have now also murdered an FBI agent.
People around local, seem to forget that what happened April 10, 2015, was not some local hick beating up one person... this was a large PREMEDITATIED ORGANIZED EVENT which drew in a CROWD of WELL OVER ONE HUNDRED PEOPLE to activly participate in beating to deth and beheading ten children, the oldest being aged 16 and the youngest being aged just 4 years old.
What the people of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine did was monstrous on levels of extreemes.
And then when the FBI agents tried to arrest these people, they ganged up again on February 6, 2021 and murdered, not one, but THREE FBI agents.
This is an organized terrorist group that is activly killing people here in Maine.... and this Claire woman that murdered my baby, the one the FBI believes is the ring leader who has been organizing these events.... and when I say events... I was NOT the first family attacked.
According to the FBI, the April 10, 2015 attack was the ELEVENTH such attack to happen on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine since June 2001.
And since the April 10, 2015 attack on my family, this VERY LARGE hate group has repeated this even seven more times, to seven more families all on just one street, all on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... in total, this extremist fanatical Christian hate group has murdered more then 120 CHILDREN, just on our one street alone.
And in every case, the grand of white hood wearers was chanting the same mantra: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach, kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaws".
This terrorist group is murdering anyone on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, whom they believe of being gay or transgender, whether or not they are gay or transgender.
These people are beyond evil. And this Claire woman is their leader, and she's the one the FBI wants.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
Update: February 12, 2023
I have a weird text message… from the woman, a relative who looks enough like me to pass for my twin…from the women, who keeps pretending to be me, the one who lat Aprile pretended to be me and tried to sell my land, the one who in 2007 pretended to be me and hired a guy with a backhoe to dig holes in my land under the guise of putting in a septic system that I never ordered… the woman who in 2013 hired the same back hoe to drive over my house…
the woman the FBI suspects of being the one who hired the golf club woman also in 2013 to cripple me nd murder my baby… the same woman who was in my yard April 10, 2015 again pretending to be me when she locked her cats in my motorhome, the same woman who took out 27 credit cards in my name and ran them each up to $20k max, me, who’s never had a credit card in my life because I can’t count or do math so also can’t do money or numbers, …. The same woman who creates several online accounts pretending to be me on those… that woman… just sent me a text message, wants me to go with her to Bug Light lighthouse tomorrow…
Uhm… Bug Light lighthouse art studio is where I was November 14, 2013, when the Claire and Kendra women broke my spine with a gold club… so, why does this woman who has a 50 year history of impersonating me… the woman who convinced half of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford that she owned my land, and has half the locals convinced that SHE and not ME, is me… she, suddenly wants me to met with her at the exact location where the blond Claire and red haired Kendra women - whom the FBI are still trying to find out the identity of - crippled me 9 years ago… and she won’t tell me why.
Well, at the moment I am recovering from, a broken pelvis, so, I can’t get out of bed, I haven’t been able to get out of bed since December, it’s not February. So, even if I would meet up with her, which I wouldn’t, right now, I can’t anyways.
She’s an Atwater… yes, the sister of Bruce Atwater… you remember him, he’s the one who was a member of Heaven’s Gate, and is so obsessed with aliens, that he and her, she helped him by pretending to be me, yet again… went around with the whole “amphibious aliens” rumors, making the claim I was abducted by aliens, calling my husband Ben Wildes, an aliens, dubbing him Etiole… he is by the way, the guy you see walking my dog with me in Biddeford… so, yeah you locals have met and talked to “Etiole” quite frequently, he attends the Saco Ward Church or Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and spent 48 years as the High Preist Quarum Leader of the Sandford Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of atter Day saists, he left the Mormon church in May 2015, after our children were murdered… thhey were kidnapped April 10, 2015, the same day the impersonator bitch locked her ten cats in my motorhome and tried to pretend they were mine, called the police, the police, Will Watson specifically, took her cats, and did not arrest me, because, they weren’t my cats… then she spent the past 9 years running around saying they were my cats and because it happened the same day, she also tries to convince people that mychildren never existed and that her cats are my children… what the fuck? She’s a raving lunatic.
She’s the one who who runs around screaming “Mark and Dan this and Mark and Dan that” and I don’t know who the fuck her Mark or her Dan are, however, the psychotic gun totoing white haired man with a green pickup truck, regularly arrives in my driveway to yell at me a, claiming he’s Mark, while saying I’m deframing him, and I don’t know who the hell he is… but apparently, he’s the Mark she keeps talking about, and she’s fighting with him while claiming to be me, so now, he’s mad at me because of something she said, but I don’t even know who the hell he is or what he’s talking about.
This is the same woman who ran around cutting the internet and electric wires off my Biddeford apartment building in 2021, while screaming about Tod Murphy, and I still don’t know who Todd Muruphrey is yet… except she and her friends claim he was hit by an Amtrak train Nov 21, 2021 at 10PM, and you can check the police records, no one was hit by a train that day… However, as you all saw on my dog walking livestream on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27pm, 4 women on bikes chased a homeless man on the the freight train tracks a quarter mile away from the Amtrak train tracks… I have it on video and I’m the one who called the police. Apparently, that’s the train accident she was talking about, be she had all the dates and times and names wrong, AND, for a full 8 months after that, I had to deal with her Atwater hoodlums and their friend vandalizing my car… they did more then $10k in damages, which yes, that why I don’t have my car again, in case you hadn’t noticed a 40 year old antique car is rather difficult to find parts for.
This woman… the one who does all of these things… oh yeah, by the way, you remember the woman who cut my 1964 Dodge 330 in half on May 9, 2010… yeah… same damn woman… and the same woman who took a fucking sledge hammer to my 1974 AMC Gremlin… that woman, the same one woman who has done ALL of these things… just sent me a text, wanting me to meet her at Bug Light lighthouse, where her Claire and Kendra buddies crippled me and murdered my baby 9 years ago.
No!
Fucking no!
Why can’t this bitch leave me and my family alone!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!!!
Bug Light? Really? The location where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life?
Really. She wants me to meet her at Bug Light Lighthouse.
Why?
I don't know.
She won't tell me. It's all a big secret.
Everything's always a big secret with the Atwaters. Because everything has to be a secret with criminals. If their crimes get found out, they end up in jail. That's how criminal thugs operate. In secret. So she she can't do anything without it being some big grand secret.
Why do you want me to meet you at BugLight, the lcation where my baby was murdered?
It's a secret, I can't tell you, you just have to come and find out.
No.
For one thing my car is not here, because oh, fucking Atwater scum bags vandalized it.
For another thing, I have a broken pelvis, I have been able to get out of bed since a week before Christmas 2022.
This is the 3rd time my pelvis has rebroken, since it was originally broken by the golf club weilding Claire bitch at... oh, BugLight lighthouse!
This is the same woman and her Mark simp from the day the police showed up at my Biddeford apartment to ask:
Police: "You're EelKat, right?"
Me: "No, that's what people call me though. EelKats a fictional character from my books."
Police: "This is Biddeford, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Police: "And I'm standing here in Biddeford right now, talking to you, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Officer starts talking in his phone to officers Will and Robby of Old Orchard Beach Police Department: "Yeah, she's right here with me, I'm talking to her right now. Got her Autism car here and everything."
Will and Robbie: "Yeah, that's what I been saying. This isn't her."
Me: "What's going on?"
Police: "Wolfboy is trespassing on your property again…"
Me: "Wolfboy? Who's Wolfboy?"
Police: "Mark. We call him Wolfboy. He calls 911 a few dozen times a day. Constant false complaints about every one. Boy who cries wolf you know."
Me: "Who's Mark? I don't know anyone named Mark."
Police: "Town busy body. Gossips and complains about every one. He's a real pain in the ass. Pardon my French. Can't leave anyone alone."
Me: "Why is he in my yard?"
Police: "Citizens arrest. Says he's arresting you."
Me: "Me?"
Police: "Yeah. He's got some bogus court documents that say you are not allowed on your own property because you're gay."
Me: "I'm gay? How am I gay?"
Police: "Yeah. Well Wolfboy thinks everybody is gay. He's waiting for the gaypocalypse, you know?"
Me: "What's the gaypocalypse?"
Police: "He thinks us guys are going to mass murder all the Christians. We have to deal with his fake 911 calls reporting us gaaaaaayz all the time."
Me: "I take it you're gay?"
Police: "Ahyap, several of us on the department. We don't like jerks like Wolfboy. He harasses people like you all the time."
Me: "Like me?"
Police: "Disabled. He targets disabled women. Thinks it makes him a man. You might not remember me. I was the one who came with the ambulance. You know? I knew you were laid up in bed here and couldn't be in Old Orchard right now, seeing how you can't walk, let alone drive."
Me: "And you said he's in my yard right now?"
Police: "Yep. He says you hired him to dig a septic tank."
Me: "I what?"
Police: "Yeah, we know. We checked. It wasn't you. We got this woman who's impersonating you. She's the one he's trying to arrest right now. She hired him to dig a hole in your front lawn. She says she's EelKat. That's why I'm here, to make sure you are here in Biddeford and not in Old Orchard Beach, right now. Buddy Will and Robbie are dealing with it."
Me: "Why is there anyone in my yard? There should never be anyone in my yard!"
Police: "Yep, we know. Wolfboy and crew do this sort of thing every day. You have no idea how often we have to deal with his crew of chronic 911 false report complainers. Whole family's crazy."
Me: "So, you're telling me there are two people in Old Orchard, right now, on my land, fighting over my land, and one of them is claiming to be me?"
Police: "Yeah, that's the deal."
Me: "He says I hired him to build a septic tank?"
Police: "Yep."
Me: "Do I look like I can afford to have a septic tank built? I have twenty million in medical bills. I can't even walk! What would I even do with a septic system, my bladder and intestines don't work, I wear adult diapers because I can't even use a toilet! Why would I of all people have a septic tank put in?"
Police: "Yeah. I know. I don't think Wolfboy and crew know how crippled you are. That's why we knew whoever he had in your yard, wasn't you. I also, don't think he's ever met you. We showed him a picture of you, and he swears that it wasn't you. We showed him a picture of *name removed* and he says that's you."
Me: "She's not me."
Police: "We know."
Me: "She's been after my land for decades. Was trying to get it aways from Grammy Helen, before I inherited it."
Police: "Oh, we know. Police reports from your Helen Ricker go all the way back to the 60s. They been after the Ricker farm since before you was born. Wolfboy's bitten off more than he can chew this time. He don't know who he's dealing with. He never should have gotten messed up with the Bacon Street Gang."
Me: "Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "Ahyep. That's who Wolfboy has got tangled up with."
Me: "Who's the Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "A gang. Think of them as kind of like the local Mafia, only worse. Most of them are doing time for murder. A few of them are out now. I don't think Wolfboy knows that's who he's dealing with any more than he knows who you are. He wouldn't be down there right now claiming she's you if he'd ever actually met you face to face."
That woman and that Mark, are the ones behind most of the rumors and misinformation spread about me.
The woman I know. She's a relative, with a long list of mental health problems.
Her Mark buddy, that the local police call Wolfboy, I don't know. I've never seen him. Never met him as far as I know. Obviously he's some friend of hers, probably one of her exs as she has a lot of them. She's got a bad reputation for slutting around with married men and breaking up families.
But all these wild alien abduction, transgender, ufo, nutcase rumors that get spread about me, whenever I ask "Who told you that lie?" They always say it came from her, my Uncle Bruce, or some guy named Mark.
And clearly this Mark guy is talking about her, but he uses MY name when he does it, because he's convinced she is Me. It's incredibly obvious this Mark guy has never met me and has no clue he's being scammed by her. But it is incredibly annoying because, I'm the one who is crippled for the rest of my life because some blonde bitch named Claire beat me up with a golf club at Southern Maine Community College Bug Light Art Studio on November 14, 2013, while screaming "Kill or be killed, gotta kill the transvestite freaks before they kill us all!" I was 8 months pregnant. That mystery Claire bitch not only left me crippled, she also murdered my baby. Why? Because this mystery Mark guy runs around calling me transgender and gay even though I'm not trans or gay. And he's only doing that because this nut job Atwater woman who pretends to be me, is after my land, so she runs around doing crazy ass shit while pretending to be me, in order to start the crazy ass rumors in the first place!
This Claire woman is the one the FBI is looking for information on. Because no one knows who the hell she is. She's just some random nut job who clawed out of the woodwork and showed up at college one day to attack me and kill me baby, while screaming utter insanity. The guy with her called her Claire, beyond that we've no clue who she is.
This Claire woman is the one wanted for murder, agitated assault, and owes me $20million in medical bills. If she's ever identified, she's also got life in prison for murder to look forward to.
No, I can not identify her: I am blind.
Did you forget I am blind? I've been blind my whole life.
I am legally blind. I can not see faces, not even if you are close to me. I can not make out the colour of skin because there is so little variation in colour from light to dark. I can only identify the attackers by their hair colour, because I am blind and can no see their faces. That is why I do not know who these people are. I'm blind. I've been blind since I was 8 years old. I can only identify people by their scent and the sound of their voice. Yes, the golf club woman attacked a blind pregnant women, and the FBI needs help to identify her because, I'm blind, I can only id her by the sound of her voice, and I've only encountered her twice...
November 14, 2013 when she crippled me with a golf club and murdered my babyat SMCC, and June 26, 2016 when she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarboror WalMart, she drove away in a gold volvo station wagon. The first time 2 people were with her and they called her Claire. The 2nd time only the red haired woman was with her, and she was screaming "My name is Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine!"
I do not know what the faces of wither the blond Claire who drove a gold volvo wagon or the redhair Kendra Silvermander are because I'm blind... I can see exactly 8 inches from my nose, I can't even see the ground to see my own feet. That's why the FBI is in need of witnesses to come forward and identify the 2 women who murdered my baby.
I'm blind, I don't know what they look like, I only know them by their voices.
If you have any information, about the Claire bitch who murdered my baby at BugLight Lighthouse on November 14, 2013, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
I am severely disabled. I have been since November 14, 2013. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to get out of a wheelchair. It's been 9 years and I'm still using a cane and walker to get around, but, after standing and walking for an hour or two, I collapse and have to be carried back to bed, where I end up staying for days, sometimes weeks, before I can attempt to stand up again.
And since that happened, there have been a lot of local rumores.
Plastic surgery reconstructed my face, but I noticeably don't look the same as I did for 40 years prior to becoming disabled. And this has led to a lot of local rumors... people call me a demon, or demon possessed, or an alien, or say I was abducted by aliens and that's why I look different.
Welcome to Maine, where the average person believes aliens and demons are real, and think nothing of driving a backhoe over my house, because im just a demon who deserves it, they vandalized my car repeatedly every few months I who am already disabled and severe difficultly getting out and to the store, have even less ability to get out when my car is in the shop for repairs months to a time, multiple times a year.
This is the reality of how we horrifyingly disabled people are treated, at least here in Maine.
Being attacked in the college parking lot by 3 strangers with golf clubs is what dramatically changed my appearance. Doctors, plastic surgeons, rebuilt my face as best as they could, and they did a very good job all things considering. My vertebrae are broken in such a way that my spinal column is severed and so I have almost no use of my left hand and arm, I have no control over my bladder or intestines so have to wear adult diapers. And Doctors can't operate on this injury because there is an 80% chance of me becoming paralyzed from the neck down if they even attempt surgery.
I have been sent to the top neurological surgeons in America and they've all said, they wouldn't dare take the risk of doing the surgery.
I have been 9 years, actively studying everything I can find on the subject of spine surgery. I follow every medical journal, hanging on every update, watching and waiting for the day, when surgery advances to the point that it is an option for me.
Interestingly, as a side effect of this, I started reading and watching Horror genre, something I did not previously do. Things like The Island of Dr Moreau have become my favorite books and movies. I'm not sure why. Perhaps it is because I can identify with the characters who have those radical body changing surgeries in those books and movies.
In short, I have become fully obsessed with studying all aspects of radical surgery, both real and fictional, in some sort of hope of finding, something, anything, that will help me walk again.
THIS is what this Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon did November 14, 2013... and made worse when she attacked the second time June 26, 2016.
The Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon, not only murdered my son, she completely destroyed my life, my health, my ability to function on even the most basic levels.
I can't walk, my baby is dead, there's a giant fucking hole in my yard that looks like a Moon crater, and I'm homeless because a fucking backhoe drove over my house.
And because I was paralyzed for 5 months, and spent 18 months relearning to walk, and still can't walk on my own now 9 years later, I also have $20million in medical bills, which is why I can't afford to rebuild my house.
In the meantime, some jackass with a green dump truck that has a black and silver striped nose, dumped hundreds of loads of garbage, actual literal black bags of garbage that he stole from the town dump, and dumped them in my yard. Do you know how much garbage he dumped in my yard? It was one hundred and seventy three feet long, thirty feet wide, and twelve feet tall… yes, the pile of garbage was 173 feet long, 30 feet wide, and 12 feet tall… and it cost me $12k March 2015 to have a garbage company come in and haul it away.
What the fuck?
And you know what the police said? They think this woman and her Mark buddy are having a fuel, but because she's convinced him that she is me, and he's never seen me, so he doesn't know she's not me, that the police think, he's the one doing all the harassing of me and my family, but he thinks he's harassing her and her family and doesn't know he's harassing the wrong people, because she gave him my address as her address.
So, I'm being harassed by some guy who is a total stranger to me, because he's mad at some psycho bitch who was pretending to be me.
And because of all this, I'm crippled for the rest of my life, my baby is dead, a backhoe drove over my house, and then on April 10, 2015 my 10 foster children were kidnapped, and then on May 15, 2025 there heads were nailed to the door of my big pink motor home. So, now not only am I homeless and crippled, but my family has been murdered as well, all because some bitch impersonated me spreading weird ass alien abduction lies, weird as transgender lies, and weird ass gay lies about me, because for some reason she thought that would get her my land, and in doing so, she passed off some guy who went psycho serial killer on me, while thinking he was attacking her.
Yeah.
And so, two criminal ass thugs are funding with each other, and now I'm homeless and crippled and my family is dead, and the FBI is here now, and according to them, me and my family was never the target, me and my family got attacked by mistake because at the start of all this, some ufo nut, thought it would be funny to impersonate me and try to make it look like I believed in aliens, because this whole thing started because of some phoney ass alien abduction ufo haunted car hoax started by my uncle Bruce back in the 1990s, because he was mad, that Stephen King filmed The Thinner movie on my land, and my uncle Bruce was mad that he didn't get to be in The Thinner movie.
All of this started because Stephen King filmed a movie in my yard almost 50 years ago, and an uncle of mine was jealous, so he had his sister, pretend to be me to start some crazy ass alien abduction rumors, her running around claiming she was me while claiming to be abducted by aliens, while dubbing my husband as "etiole" and "amphibious alien", because in their minds that was some kind of revenge porn for not being in a Stephen King movie, and they've spent almost 40 years running with their alien abduction hoax, adding more and more to it all time time, including to start calling me a transvestite... and then, these people who used to live in Utah, my uncle and his sister, come back here to Maine to run around spreading the alien and trans rumour on a local level around Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, because, I have no ide why... they are just pure evil, and evil things like this are what hate filled evil people do.
Jealousy and hate. That's what fuels her. Pure raw jealousy and hate.
And my family is dead, my house is gone, and I'm crippled, all because some uncle of mine, whom I never even knew before any of this started, wanted to be in a Stephen King movie, and wasn't in a Stephen King movie and for some reason that was justification for all of this.
I don't get it.
The Atwaters are just hate filled, evil scum. You can't do something like this and be anything OTHER than pure evil scum.
Buglight lighthouse is where my baby was murdered on November 14, 2013 by the Kendra Silvermander and Claire bitch duo... why would I want to go there?
What the hell is she even thinking?
Every one who knows me knows my baby was murdered at Buglight lighthouse the beach behind the art studio at Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, on November 14, 2013, the same event that left me crippled for the rest of my life.
So why in the hell would anyone dare ask me to meet them at fucking Buglight lighthouse?
How much more evil can you be?
Update: February 19, 2023
Update: February 19, 2023
??? Weird. ...
So, I just got a flurry of weird text messages… about FabeBook posts? I’ve not seen said posts, so I don’t know exactly what they says, but I’ll respond to the text messages about said posts:
ONE... who is in my yard? It's certainly not me, I broke my pelvis a week before Christmas and haven't been out of bed in 3 months. There should never be anyone in either of my yards, not the one in Biddeford nor the one in Old Orchard...
TWO... when did my cousin Danny die? First I heard of it. Last I knew he was living on a farm up by Heath road in Saco. I haven't seen him since a few years before the grease fryer bomb blew up my house, that happened on October 16, 2006... so it was sometime before 2004 last time I saw Danny. Didn't know he died. That's sad. I liked Danny. He was one of the few good Atwaters...
Three, uhm, what garden? My land in Old Orchard is bare ledge. Not even any soil to plant anything in. It's been that way for nine years. When the backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, it also came in with a green dumptruck and strip mined my land, they stole all of my roses, apple trees, grapes, blueberries, and flowers, and took all the top soil down to over six feet deep, strip mined my farm down to bare shale and granite. It would cost over $three-million dollars to buy new top soil to replace what the vandals stole, and I don't have that kind of money, so I've not had a garden since, no vegetables, no flowers, nothing, can't plant anything on bare ledge....
so, yeah, weird, this latest rumor, which states I stole something from Danny's grave to put in my garden. Seeing how, I didn't even know Danny died and I also don't have a garden.
........... Update February 22, 2023
So, because I didn't know Danny died, people have started sending me these long lists of Atwaters whom have died since 2015... apparently there are well over 30 - thirty - dead Atwaters, none of whom I knew had died, and many of whom, I never even heard their names before. I'm told they are largely from the Utah division of the Scottish Traveller clans. But I did notice, half of the original twelve are dead? Is that true? No one told me any of this. I had no clue. It says here that uncle Peter and his wife, Bobby's wife Cathy, and even my uncle Brucie are all dead? When did all this happen and why did no one tell me? There a bunch of cousins, second cousins, and thrid cousins on the list too, but I've never heard any of their names before I have no clue who any of them are.
There also seems to be some weird thing where they are saying no one ever told them my son was murdered November 14, 2013... my mother, my father, my step father Wade, aunt Barbara, uncle Dickie, uncle Brucie, cousin Danny, and Danny's wife Amanda all knew about this. Barbara showed up at the hospital and tried to get me to join her in some stupid ass medical scam she said she was running via her EMT job, she wanted me to be some poster child for some medical scam website she was running, she said she could get more money if she had a real cripple on her website. Dickie and Brucie were both at my Water St apartment the night it happened and they were mad that the police showed up to question my family and found them there with my daddy and some private detective, I don't know who the private detective was... according to the FBI agent in charge of the murder investigation, my dad hired the private detective to trail my mother and her then husband Wade, and Dickie and Brucie were helping my father with that.
Barbara, Dickie, and Brucie were all at the hospital November 2013, when I was paralyzed.
Barbara knew I was in a wheelchair, because in 2014, at Saco Shaw's, she stopped to talk to me, while I was shopping and in the wheelchair.
I'm also being told most of them are claiming they didn't know a backhoe drove over my house. Uncle Joey in Australia, not only knew about the backhoe driving over my house, by the FBI has copies of the $600 wire he sent to the backhoe driver. My father is the one who forged the demolition permits, with some guy named Dan who I never heard of before.
Also, you remember Barbara's ex Paul Martal... do you know what he's in prison for? FBI arrested him in 2016, for not one, but many bombs that he built, including the bomb that blew up my house October 16, 2006 and wait for it... the Boston Marathon bomb in 2013, he built it and sold it to ISIS.
The Atwaters claiming they know nothing of the 2006 bomb, is a lie, considering the FBI arrested some of them for it.
The Atwaters claiming they knew nothing of the backhoe driving over my house August 8, 2013, that replaced the bombed house, is a lie, because because Joey is the one how organized and funded it and he's going to straight to prison if he ever sets foot in America again, the FBI is ready to arrest him the moment he sets foot outside of Austraila. They have uncovered all the evidence they need to do so.
Barbara posted the message on my FaceBook wall: "The next head nailed to a door will be yours", she posted that message May 14, 2015... the DAY BEFORE my foster children's heads were nailed to the door of my motorhome. I didn't know she posted that message... the FBI agent, had screenshots of it that he had made, he showed them to me in June 2016... I didn't know she had posted that on my wall.
Yvonne and Shem, posted on my FaceBook wall more then two hundred pictures of themselves holding various guns, and on every post they wrote the words: "This is the gun I'm going to kill you with." Again, I did not see the posts, because I was in the hospital, paralized, I was paralyzed 5 months, I was 18 month relearning to walk... I've been bedridden for the last 9 - NINE - years... I found out about the death threats Shem and Yvonne were posting when an FBI agent, the one, who is now dead. Larua, she was murdered February 6, 2021... arrived, at my 6x8 tarp that I was living under in my yard... she arrived, with a huge stack of printed out screenshots of death threats posted by them, along with 27 FaceBook accounts all owned by Brucie, most of them using variations of Doris's name... all 29 of those accounts spent the entire of 2014, 2015, and 2016 DAILY posting death threats on my FaceBook wall, and often mentioned the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, the August 8, 2013 backhoe, and the April 10, 2015 SWAT team... the SWAT team being something I never mentioned online... also... the police department is in search of a VERY UNIQUE murder weapon that was used in the May 15, 2015 beheadings, and the crackhead Camilla, the cocaine dealer for the Bacon Street Gang, who is an Atwater, has been since October 2021 showing up on my Biddeford front porch to gibber about... that murder weapon... the police and the FBI never released to the public what the murder weapon was, because it is a VERY UNIQUE one of a kind hand made item. And yet, MANY of the Atwaters... 23 of them, showed up in my Biddeford driveway January 8, 2021 to gibber about that murder weapon while also chanting "God-King-Trump".
January 15, 2021, a few days later, the fbi shows up with half the fucking plice department, here at my biddeford apartment, said they followed lucy and barbara up here from some attack on the president in washington dc and wanted to know if U'd seen them? what the fuck? I have no clue. I've not see Lucy since 1994 and I've not seen Barbara since 2013 the day she tried to get me to join her weird medical scam plot. But according to the FBI... they were watching my Twith livestream tht day, so they saw the "God King Trump" chanters, as did all of my viewers, I was live and my webcam faces the driveway window so, they were chanting "God-king-trump" on my Twitch livestream... according to the FBI, those 23 people were Lucy's crew and the had stolen stuff from the White House, and were carrying the stolen white house stuff while chanting in my driveway... the FBI wanted to know if I recgonined any of them, and I didn't, the FBI had tons of pictures of them, and I don't know who any of them were... but according to the FBI, they are the adult children of several of my cousins, via Lucy and Barbara's kids. What the hell?
I am so sick and tired of the FBI showing up here and questioning me every few weeks, because of some fucking ass shit Barbaras family is doing, when I don't even know Barbara's family! I haven't babysat for her kids since I was 12 years old and that was fifty fucking years ago!
Tell me, how do so many Atwaters have inside information about the murder weapon that was used to behead my ten foster children on May 15, 2015... when those police records are sealed, were classified by the FBI, and only me, 6 FBI agents, 3 police officers, and of course the murderer, know what the murder weapon was?
I don't know who contacted the FBI... it wasn't me. I assume is was police officer Will Watson as he was the original head of the police investigation. And yet, I have many THOUSANDS of hate emails, hate snail mail letters - hand written and signed by Atwaters, accusing me of sending the FBI to "snoop in on them" as they put it. Good god! The FBI is over here interigating me 2 or 3 times a fucking month! The Atwaters act like they are the only ones who have to deal with FBI agents hanging around all the time! At least with me the FBI are here trying to help solve a crime, not interigating me of being a criminal... my fucking son was murdered! Atwaters bitching about the FBI questioning them, well maybe they shouldn't be posting death threats all over my FaceBook wall constantly none stop, the same week my sn was murdered, but that's what they are being questioned about.
I never sent the FBI anywhere... I don't control the FBI, and anyone who thinks that is got some serious mental retardation issues.
I didn't even know the FBI was actively going from Atwater to Atwater questioning them, and I wouldn't have known, had the Atwaters not been writing long hate letters and mailing them to me.
My son was murdered in 2013... it was 3 years later, when the FBI showed up to talk to me, for the first time, and yet they informed me, they'd been on the case for three years at that point and had some pretty daming evidence, about one Atwater: Paul Martal, whom I've never met, didn't even know he existed... he got 14 years in prison for the 2006 bomb that blew up my house. But what the FBI wanted to know was: Why me? It appeared he didn't know me any more than I knew him. According to the FBI, Paul Martal was in heavy contact with 2 people, and the FBI believes it's one of them, who hired the golf club woman to murder my baby November 14, 2013...
...and the problem is, I've not mentioned it to the family, The Atwaters, so they don't know, not even my parents know, but on September 12, 2021, there was another attack. I've not released any details, nor have the police or the FBI, One of the biggest ones yet. The FBI pointed out one thing... the attacks stopped when one of te two primary suspects died. They said they had reason to believe the one, of the two suspects, whom they believe murdered my son, died... so how did the the September 12, 2021 attack happen?
When that attack happened the FBI asked me to repaint paint my car: put the info from 2 different events, with the dates reversed, to see WHO would notice it was wrong. Someone DID notice it was wrong: Crackhead Camilla, cocaine dealer of the Bacon Street Gang, she showed up on my Biddeford porch less then ten hours after I painted my car. She noticed the incorrect date for the incorrect event... and she has said WHO told her... and it was one of the three people who arrived at the hospital November 2013... except, 2 of those 3 people are now dead, and the one she's naming, is the one still alive.
Who is it, who runs around telling people I believe in aliens? That same person. I don't believe in aliens. I'm the one who proved aliens and alien abductions to be a hoax, did that in 2007, posted my findings proving aliens a hoax here: https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html
Who is it, who runs around claiming I say things about Utah Atwaters, people who I've never heard of, people I've never met? That same person.
Whose husband is right now sitting in prison for building the bomb that blew up my house? That same person.
Camilla was the bridesmaid of who? That same person.
Who KNEW I was paralyzed for 5 months, 18 months in wheelchair, and 9 years serverly crippled, bedridden... but neglected to tell anyone in the family? That same person.
Who is it, who is right now spreading rumors and lies about me, my brothers, and my mother, all over FaceBook? That same person.
Do you know what gaslighting means? Look at what she's doing. It's called gaslighting. It means she is trying to cast doubt on the victims, in order to make the victims look guilty, as a way to try to hide, her own crimes.
Ask yourself why you didn't know my son was murdered?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was attacked by a blond woman with a golf club, left for dead, almost died, and have been crippled on paraplegic levels ever since?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was paralyzed for 5 month?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was in a wheelchair for 18 months?
Ask yourself why you didn't know my foster children, where not only murdered, but their heads were nailed to my door?
Ask yourself why you didn't know when Barbara, Brucie, and Dickie were all at the hospital, and knew what had happened. Why didn't they tell any of you? Why did they pretend not to know? Why did they hide for the rest of the family, what had happened to me?
Here's an important thing to ask: Why did none of you know the FBI was here investigating a very brutal murder that coincided with a LOT of harassment, vandalism, and hate crimes that were on levels of alarming extremes?
It's called impeding and FBI investigation.
Someone, in the Atwater family, has been very actively lying to all of you about what happened to me and my family... why? What is their motive? If they have nothing to hide, then why arethey bending over backwards to try to keep every one of you from finding out what happened to me, my son, my house, my yard, and my foster children?
Why?
Only the person doing these crimes, who any motive to try to cover them up.
Only the person who murdered my son, would have any motive to go out of their way to do everything in their power to try to make you forget he ever existed.
Only the person who did these things has any motive, to try to cover it up.
Only the person behind my son's murder has a motive to try to convince you I believe in aliens, when it's damn well documented that I don't believe in aliens.
Think about that, next time an Atwater starts spreading rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my dead children, or my dead son.
Also... who is it who told you that I knew about all these deaths in the family? Was it one of the three people who was at the hospital and knew what happened to me, but never told you all?
Also, yes... I have noticed that Dickies supposed death date is a full 3 months before he was at the hospital, before he was visiting my dad with Brucie and and having a meeting with the private investigator about Wade Witen... that's puzzling... but then again Brucie had faked his own death 4 times since the 1980s, each time to invade IRS fraud, so the Atwaters do have a history of faking their deaths. I know this because the FBI has all that info too and when interviewing me, they wanted to know if I was aware of the faked death, by 3 of the original 12 Atwaters... yep, three of the brothers have faked their deaths multiple times. So... when you people tell me Dickie and Brucie are dead, yeah, I kind of don't believe you.
Also, Barbara is the one going around telling everyone that Danny is dead and his grave is being vandalised... several people have told me that Danny is dead, his grave was being vandalised, and I a bedridden crippled, was being blamed for the vandalism, and I asked each of these people who told them this, and every one of them stated they recieved either a rtext, post, comment, email, or phone call from Barbara, some said she told them face to face in person... near as I can tell NO ONE other then Barbara os saying Danny died, no one other then Barbara is saying his grave is vandaised, and no one other then Barbara is saying I did it... also newsflash... my camera runs 24/7/365 ever since the day my foster children's heads was nailed to my door, so I can prove where I was and what I was doing every minute from May 16, 2015 to right now. The camera runs 24/7 in hopes of catching the murderer returning to attack again. Smile... if you've ever said anything to me online or offline, I have video footage of you doing it.
In case you've forgotten who Barbara is, besides being Bruce's sister, she's the 2 year old girl who was run over by this car. https://www.eelkat.com/images/1964dodge330_theGoldeneagleWorldsMostHauntedCar.jpg My 1964 Dodge 330 the one that was cut in half on May 9, 2010 by raving lunatics of the Saco Ward church calling it demon possessed. She's the one who started the rumor that the car was haunted, possesed by a demon and tried to kill her. The car used to belong to Dr Larochell, who paid Barbara $20k to stop her from spreading rumors about his car. Her rumours about his car got so bad that locals started attacking him, so in 1975 he sold the car and I bought it specifically to prove that it was niether haunted demon possessed and Barbara was just delusional and trying to get attention.
After I proved the car not haunted, I let a local elderly homeless man sleep in the car at night, while the car was parked behind my barn, 175 feet from the road in the forest where it could not be seen from the road, so no one knew the WW@ veteran was sleeping in my car... until that is, in 1978, Barbara tresspassed on my land, found him there, declared him first a demon, then in the 1990s started calling him "The Amphibious Alien"... Barbara is the only Atwater who ever learned French and guess what, she is also the one who coined the name "Etiole" and started calling the homeless WW2 vet "Etiole" and she is the one who has been vocal in instigating EVERY SINGLE attack on Etiole and my 1964 Dodge 330.
Also, do take a look at Barbara... we look alike, she and me... we can almost pass for twins. And what keeps happening around locally? People keep saying they are encountering me doing and saing things in places I've never been to, to people I've never heard of!
Also, every time I go outside, people - ttal strangers - keep coming up to me and asking me why I am emailing them stuff about aliens, and newsflash: I don't even use email! What the hell? I couldn't eail some one even if I wanted to!
In November, this guy comes up to me, he's about 90 years old and carrying this massive stack of sheets of paper - like 300 sheets, it's an entire reem of paper, and he starts waving it around and says it's print out of all the emails I sent him just in the past week, he says he gets more then three thousand emails from me on a daily basis and it's all crazy stuff about aliens... I looked at the papers and, the emails are coming from tons of emails with the word "eelkat" in the name, but they aren't mine. I'm not sending these things out to people and I don't know who is... but I do know who has a history of impersonating me with emails: Barbara!
In 1996, she started an email war with the Atwaters, with two emails, one that she said was heres, and one that she said was mine.
At that point... I had never had contact with an American, or TV, or electricity... I had never heard of computers or internet or email... he email war, was her, impersonating me, and sending hundred of hate filled emails to my aunts, uncles, and counsins... I found out about it a year later when Bishop Paul Morgan of the Cape Elezabeth Ward (no, not the Portland Ward, but yes the same building) called me in to his office one day, to ask why I was sending so many hundreds of emails about aliens and alien abductions to him and 750 other members of the church. No that's not a typo... seven hundred and fifty members of the church...
I had 3 questions for Paul Morgan:
1: What's email?
2: What are aliens?
3: What's alien abduction?
I had never heard of those 3 things before.
Paul Morgan had print outs of those emails, and it took me over a month to read those more then six thousand sheets of paper, but I read every one of them.
Paul Peterson, administrative director of Pine Land Center Insane Asylum... he showed up at church a few weeks later, yeah... turns out, several Atwaters used to be, how shall we call it... straight jacketed in padded cells because they were insane... and Pine Land Center, government run mental health institute, lost funding, shut down, in... oh look... 1996... and literally just let formally straight jacket nut cases, walk free out the front door. It's not hard to find out who the inmates of Pine Land Center were... the micro films are available in New Gloughster. So, yeah, that evidance exists and says a lot.
ALL of the rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my cars... all the Demon rumors, all the alien rumors, ALL of it... every single rumor, all the way back to the 1960s... all of them, were started by one person, Barbara, because, she was the 2 year old girl who was hit by that car, and she's pissed that I bought it, and she's even more pissed that Stephen King, my neighbour at the time, made a movie about it... did you know my real name is Christine and that's why the car is named Christine in the movie, even though the real car was named The Goldeneagle.
After Christine, Stephen King returned to film Thinner on my farm, and THAT is why, Barbara, has had endless amounts of jealosue rage and hatred for my farm, my land, my house... did you know I've rebuilt my house 5 times now... the backhoe has driven over THREE houses on my land, we keep rebuilding and it keeps coming back... but before the backhoe there was the bomb... and who did the FBI arrest for building that bomb again? Barbara's husband Paul Martal. That's what he went to prison for. He built the bomb that blew up my house, the FBI found him with the bomb parts in his house and car.
That's why, I always ask, when these weird rumors about demons and aliens show up... who told you? And EVERY SINGLE PERSON, EVERY SINGL TIME... they always say: "Barbara told me", "Baraba said it" , "Barbara called me" , "Barbara emailed me"... and so, I'm not surprised to find out that the rumors flying around this week, are once again, started by the same person who always starts them: the pissed off now adult, 2 year old girl, who 60 years ago was run over by the world's most haunted car, and is the one who both declared it haunted and dubbed the homeless man living in it as "Etiole"
Know your sources people. Do your background checks. Find out if the one spreading the rumors about me, might actually have a motive. Barbara REALLY hates that car. And at the core, her hatred of that car, her rage that Stephen King made it famous, is the cause of everything.
But guess what: Barbara and Brucie and their fucking endless jealose rage, is why I'm crippled, why my son is dead, why I've had to rebuild my house on my land five fucking times now... I'm not bothering any of them, I never have , and I don't know why they are bothering me! I want those bastards to fucking leave me, my family, my cars, my land, and anything else of mine alone.
Update: February 25, 2023
Uhm… okay… so, a member of the Sanford ward church was just in a rage yelling at me about the drug raid across the street last year at the missionary apartment and this being the 18th anniversary of the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh… and, I'm not sure why they are yelling at me about it…but they were mad saying: "Why is the FBI here talking to you about the dead girl in Scarborough. You aren't family."
Uhm… no, but I am the one who found the body and called 911 to report it. And I've had to deal with police and FBi questions in regards to her death for the past few decades every single time they get a lead they show up and ask me:"So tell us once again what you saw." And I tell them yet again about the girl with no head, the thirty dogs with no heads, and that, I never saw her or the dogs before.
I was driving to work and they were all laid out ritual like in the road, not a one of them had any heads. Not the girl, not any of the dogs.
First experience with headless bodies… but far from the last. And police and fBi believe the killer was there and saw me call 911 and that's why my 75 pet roosters had their heads cut off and their bodies tied in rope nooses and hung in my Orchard fruit trees and rose bushes shortly after.
I can show you where ever body was the girl and the dogs. The first one was at the Ross rd Portland rd intersection at the light by where the medical building is now. The next one was at the Eastern trail Bridge just before the rv center. There was another at the cascade rd intersection by the flea market... they continued like that all the way to the Scarbourogh marsh. All black dogs, mostly Rottweilers and black labs, more than 30 of them, leading in a path to the dead girl. None of them had heads. Not the girl or the dogs.
It was after dark, I was on my way to Macy's.
The fbi says they think it was the same person who beheaded my cousin Murphy in 2013, beheaded 75 of my roosters and hung them from nooses in trees in 2007, murdered my son in 2013, and beheaded my mother's cats in 2015... he says there were 11 other beheading like this between 2001 and 2015 all of them invloving a huge amount of pets, mostly dogs and cats, but also birds and horses… in title more then 500 pets just on Portland Ave in old Orchard beach alone, the first one was a German Shepherd in June 2001 whose head was hung on the bucket of his owners bulldozer, and there have been 7 more since 2015 to 2021, all on Portland Ave, Ross rd, and Cascade Rd.
The dead girl in Scarborough had no head, neither did any of the dogs. I'm the one who called the police.
I was there when they found Timmy Murphy on cascade and Ross rd intersection. He had no head either.
My cousin Murphy, the newspaper said he was hit by a truck. But that's not what happened. I was there. Police made me wait 3 hours while they looked for his head. I got questioned all over for that. It happened June 2013. Backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, and golf club woman attacked November 14, 2013... fbi thinks the backhoe and golfclub attacks were both because I was there when Timmy's body was being wrapped up by police. The police found his head 2 weeks later down by my driveway on Portland Ave almost a half mile from where they found his body.
They believe the killer of my cousin Timmy was at the scene while the police were questioning me, and that's how the killer knew to target my house with the backhoe a month later… the issue with that is, one of my uncles, paid the backhoe driver, but that uncle lives in Australia and wired the money to the backhoe driver. The police have all the paperwork for this. And the police can't figure out, why it appears that my Atwater relatives are heavily invested in impending the investigation of what police are calling "the Ouellette case".
It appears the Atwaters are being egged on by someone involved in the murder of the headless Scarborough marsh girl, and that the Atwaters are being deliberately needled into a frenzy at me and my family in a bold attitude to through police off the killers trail.
The thing is, the Atwaters have gone into wild extremes bringing in weird alien abduction rumors that are just outlandish… but then… one of my uncles, when the FBI went to interview him… he had dozens of dead, headless black dogs, black cats, and black chickens laying in weird pentagram ritual formations, all over his yard, in his driveway, around his house, hanging on his fences… and… well… dead headless black animals were all around the Scarborough marsh that day of the dead girl… and so… it kind of looks a lot like one of my uncles either is the murderer or at least is the one supplying the murderer with dead black pets.
So, this lead the FBi to ask me more questions, because now it looks like the Atwaters lashing out at my family has a far bigger motive then, them just being crazy lunatic ufo nuts.
I've been a witness at 4 different beheadings.. and was the one who called police each time.
The raid at the Saco Ward missionary apartment across the street…I never said the raid across the street was a drug raid... the state drug force wasn't there. Ive seen drug raids before. My Atwater relatives are notorious for drugs, ive been in the house when two drug raids happened, one in 1982 and one in 2016 and both times the state police drug team was the one who did the raid.
State police drug team wasn't there at the raid on the missionary apartment across the street last year, it the US Marshalls and FBI there. They had 8 people handcuffed face down in the road in front of our apartment. And they said it was about the Ouellette case, specifically the headless girl in Scarborough marsh. I know this, because thry asked me if i recognized any of these 8 people. One I did, she's been my dads nurse since 2009. Fbi was here asking me about that raid, because he wanted to know if the dead cats and birds in the road here in front of our Biddeford apartment were lined up same way as the dead dogs were back in Scarborough years ago with the dead girl.
Me and others locally have been finding dead pets lined up on Main Street, western Ave, Cutts St, West Cutts st, James St, and Bradbury st every since summer 2021, I sent videos footage of all the dead pets to fbi, because it DID look like same ritual pattern used in my yard with roosters in 2007 and my mother's cats in 2015 and those dogs with the dead girl at the Scarborough marsh.
That's why I stopped walking around our apartment at night... dead cats and birds are being set up around my apartment and also my mothers apartment... looks like whoever killed cats and roosters in Old Orchard, wanted me to know they knew where I lived.
The officers think the person leaving the dead pets all around our apartment is whoever killed the headless girl at the marsh... they think that's why the attack on my roosters happened in 2007, the backhoe in 2013, the golf club women who killed my son and crippled me in 2013, because I'm the one who called the police about the headless dogs in Scarborough with the dead girl.
Weird, this Sanford Ward Mormon, who was just here at my apartment, made the comment: "But the dead girl in Scarborough wasn't beheaded."
I don't know if there's a different girl too or not. I only know about the headless girl, the one I called 911 about all those decades ago. I never looked up the news reports so I don't know if they ever mentioned the thirty dead dogs or her and the dogs having no head. I don't know what the news said about it. I don't even know her name. I just know whenever the police or FBI ask me to retell how the dogs were laid out, they always call it "The Ouellette Case". Beyond that I know nothing about it.
My focus has always been on the attacks on me and my family. I don't know any of the other families. I just know the officers said the April 10, 2015 attack on my farm was the 11th such attack on Portland Ave since June 2001 and that they now tell me there have been seven more such attacks on Portland Ave since 2015. They said a lot of details have not been released to the public, but that there are a few common things recurring in every attack which indicates it's just one person (group of persons) doing it. They say they keep going back to all 18 of our families reasking us for details we can remember because they are trying to match up the similarities of each case.
I know what details were left out of reports about the attacks on my family. I don't know anything about any of the other 17 families at all.
I don't understand these Saco and Sanford ward church members who keep showing up all upset because I'm trying to find out who murdered my son and left me crippled. What is their problem? It's MY family that's dead, not theirs, what the fuck business is it of theirs? Why are they so damned ruffled up about me asking for anyone with information to call the FBI? By being upset like this, they are just making themselves look suspicious. When they are mad that I'm asking people for help finding the killer, they just make themselves look like they are involved, they make it look like they know who the killer is, they make it look like they are protecting and defending the killer. Do they not realize how suspicious they make themselves look when they get angry that I ask on Facebook for anyone with info to please call the FBI and help put my son's killer in prison?
Do you remember Timmy? He's the same age as you and me. He's the one who lived at the black house next door to my on Portland Ave. He was the used car dealer, the one who always have a dozen or so cars lined up for sale across his front lawn. He also owned Etiole's swamp, my abutting neighbour from the back side of the land. He used to help me babysit Barbara's kids back in the 1970s and 1980s, we used to duo babysit together.
Timmy Murphy was the one beheaded June 2013 at the Ross Rd and Cascaed Rd intersection.
That's why I can't understand these Todd Murphy fucktrds who spent the entire of November 2021 to May 2022, daily arriving in my Biddeford driveway, chanting "Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy!" while vandalizing both the building and my car. They did $10k+ in damages to my Volvo and they did so much damage to the building that landlord Matt Holiday couldn't afford to repair the apartment building so he sold it because the city of Biddeford was going to condemn the building and kick out all 9 families at 409 Maine Street, because the Todd Murphy fucktard attackers did so much damage to the building. People know about them cutting all the wires off the building, but it was a lot more then that. They did huge amounts of stucture damage to the building itself as well. That's why Matt sold the building. He just didn't have enough money to repair the damages.
But the thing was, these vandals were acting like they thought I knew who Todd Murphy was, and I never heard of anyone by that name before. I think they mixed up whoever this Todd Murphy was with my cousin Timmy... who is not an Atwater... what the fuck are the Atwaters even talking about? Timmy was my dad's older sister's god-son. My aunt Victoria from Portland? The one who lived in that big tower on the waterfront up on the Promanard.
Why are the Atwaters so damned fucking arrogant that they think they are the only relatives I have? The Allens of Allen Ave in Portland are my relatives too you know, and Timmy Murphy was one of them. You know, the whole family who founded Amatos... the woman who founded Amatos was my dad's great aunt. That's why we always get free food at Atmatos, their family. The Atwaters don't hold a fucking monopoly over me, what the hell is wrong with them? You know, I'm sick of the Atwaters barging their way into everything and trying to make everything be about them. They aren't the center of the world and they need to stop acting like they are.
Near as I can tell, these Todd Murphy vandals are conneted to the Atwaters somehow, but I don't know how. And again, they are impeeding a fucking FBI murder investigation. Do the Atwaters know how to do ANYTHING other then stick their busy body noses in places they don't belong? What the fuck?
Do you know what the police said? They said Todd Murphy is the son of someone my mother and Barbar fight with on FaceBook. I've had my mother and Baraba both blocked on FaceBook since the shit they pulled back in 213 after my son was murdered. I don't have a fucking clue who my mother or Barbara are friends with on FaceBook, I have them blocked. I've had them blocked for 10 years this Novmber.
But then, I have fucktards from the Sanford Ward church showing up here now, do you realize how far they have to drive to get here to my driveway? What the hell? And they claim that Todd Murphy was a member of the Sanford Ward... you know what he's not on the rouster. You know I'm a member of that church right? I got access to the rouster, because my husband is the high preist quorum leader of that church... there's no one named Todd Murphy who is a member of the Sanford Ward church, and there hasn't been in the last 48 years that I've attended that church. So now I'm left wondering, even more what the fuck?
Who the ell is Todd Murhy and why the fuck should I care? I haven't got a clue what these people are talking about. I don't know who they are and I don't know who their Todd Murphy is.
Only thing I can figure, is somehow, something my mother and Barbara said, convinced these people that when I talk about Timmy Murphy's murder case that I'm talking about Todd Murphy. But why? Was Todd Murphy murdered in 2013 of the Ross Rd in Old Orchard Beach, same as my cousin Timmy Murphy, who was also my abutting neighbor and had the same birthday as me, so we celebrated our birthdays together, you know because we grew up together and knew each other own entire lives?
I mean, what the hell? And what does Todd Murphy have to do with The Ouelltte case aka the beheaded girl in the Scarborogh Marsh from 20 years ago? That's what they were talking about last night... thee Snford Ward members who were here in my ard in Biddeford last night, who yes, I do know who they are, but I don't know who this Todd Murphy is that they are talking about or what he has to do with my cousin Timmy Murphy and that girl, both being beheaded down the street from my Old Orchard Beach farm?
I asked, no one in Timmy's family knows any one named Todd. None of my Scarborough or Old Orchard Beach Murphy relatives know or have ant relatives named Todd, so none of them, know what the fuck these people in Biddeford are talking about. You know just because someone has the same last name, doesn't mean they are relatede, right? Do these Todd Murphy people who won't stop hrassing us, and now clearly have a connection to the Sanford Ward realize that?
And what is with Joel Bailey? What? Yeah... they're bringing Joel Bailey back into stuff? He went to prison in 2013, he, if you forgot was the counsellor of the Bisiop of the Saco Ward church, the entire bishiprisk went to prision, 2 to 10 years each one, along with the Old Orchard Beach Town Manager, oh wait, he was one of the bishipric, and 13 people from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police departments, all members of the Saco Ward church, for stealing a little bitty number of thirty MILLION dollars in Old Orchard Beach tax funds out of the town hall bank account, which I only found out about, because they tried to forge my name onto the documents and that was why FBI Laura, the agent ho was murdered in Florida on Feberuary 6, 2021, was sent to interview me in 2007, 2010, and 20134... the Saco Ward church bishopric stole $30million from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and tried to pin it on me, only, I can't count, mI never learned math, and they didn't know I couldn't possibly have written the math figures. I don't know how to do money and only someone really good with money could have done the things they did. They also put a lot of stuff in Ken Shoop's name. That Joel Bailey, the one who is now out of prison and likes to walk circles around my Biddeford apartment all summer long in 2022. Yeah, I am aware he's back, the mini-Winnie RV that parks at the Biddeford High School at night, he is the one driving it.
Given his past history, no, I'm not surprised at all to find his name bring brought back up. Though the Saco Ward Mormons now trickling out of prison and back on the streets, would explain why the vandalism started up again, seeing how they were the ones who used to do most of it and the vandalism did stop when they went to prison.
I'm sick of the Atwaters and their Mormon friends. They're nothing but criminals, drug dealers, and gangster thugs.
The fact remains, the only thing I'm focused on is finding my son's killer and the Atwaters and their Mormon thugs, are interupting that, and I want to know WHY? No one who is not guilty of being involved in my son's murder has any reason or incentive to be here harassing me and telling me to take the FBI phone number off my FaceBook wall, and that's what they are doing and I want to know why. What business is it of theirs if the FBI phone number is on my FaceBook wall and what is their involvment with my son's murder that they think the FBI phone number on my FaceBook wall effects them?
Here's a weird one… I just got a text message from a Sanford Ward Mormon which states: "I've known you for 40 yeas I would remember you being attacked how come you never mentioned it before now"
Uhm… since 1996, my website, originally known as Space Dock 13, has documented daily blog posts of every day of my life.
The July 2, 2001 attack, when a house mover cut our house in half, put it on a flatbed and drove it to Waterville, was documented the day it happened. It was also the first attack. My neighbor's German shepherd dog was beheaded and left in the bucket of his bulldozer that same day.
Go look at my blog… every day since July 2, 2001 , every attack, from the minor paintball attacks to the big house bomb attacks, are all documented, each blog post written the day it happened. There are more then ten thousand daily blog posts just on that one blog, chronologizing every event of every day of my life and including every attack, since June 2001.
That fact that they only just noticed it now, does not mean, I've never mentioned it… it just means they were too self absorbed to notice anything going on around them. It also means I was never important enough to them, for them to notice I was homeless, or in the hospital, or had a baby that was murdered. … their shock of just discovering these things, says more about their lack of caring about me, then anything else.
As for the headless girl and dogs in the marsh, the murder of my cousin Timmy Murphy, and the golf club attack ,the 3 events they specifically brought up in their text…
I had Squidoo articles about all 3 events. Squidoo went out of business in 2014.
I have more then a thousand blog posts published between 2007 and 2013, on Tumblr, BlogSpot, and WordPress, about those 3 events.
On YouTube I had more than 2k video uploads between 2008 and 2017 that did absolutely nothing but talk about those events, and included the interrogations by police and Fbi, which I've recorded all of since May 2015. So, yes, you can go watch FBI agent Andy Drewer, lawyer Gene Libby in the Biddeford District Court, and police officer Will Watson, and dozens of others talking about these events, on YouTube, because my camera catches everything.
Since 2008, I have posted daily on Facebook and Twitter asking for witnesses to come forward about the dead dogs and the marsh girl...
Since June 2013, I added Tim Murphy to my daily Facebook request for witnesses to come forward,
Since August 2013, I added the back hoe driving over my house info to my daily Facebook requests for witnesses to come forward.
since November 2013, daily every single day requests for witnesses to the attack at phi theta Kappa ceremony at bug light lighthouse, where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life.
I'm still crippled by the way, are they going to tell me they didn't notice that either? Did they not notice I was 5 months paralyzed, wait I know that person noticed because in February 2014 that exact same person carried me to their car and from their car into the hospital precisely because I was paralyzed and couldn't walk…. The person who carried me to the hospital because I was paralyzed and had to be carried is the exact same person who is now saying they don't remember this… and yet, they are the ones who had to fill out the paperwork to admit me in the hospital and their signature is on those documents. So, proof they are lying, right there.
after the June 2016 attack by the 2013 golf club woman, this time at walmart, the fbi gave me a hotline number for witnesses to call... this phone number has been on the flyers in the windows of my Volvo ever since June 2016 and these events are printed on said flyers.
Also in June 2016 the Old Orchard Beach Libby library and the Biddeford McArthur library and the Old Orchard Beach Salvation Army Church all printed up flyers about these events, and spent the summer handing them out to tourists and the fBI number was on all of those.
This is all very well documented as, I have been post them DAILY for over a decade now... and I talk about it constantly in my livestreams which I started doing in May 2015.
Just because one person had their head shoved too far up their church's ass to know what was going on in their own family, and they only just now noticed what was going on around them, doesn't mean I only just now started talking about it.
This is why I don't like churches. Church people are so focused on their Bibles that they haven't got a clue what's going on in the real world around them.
Not to mention all of the police reports, there are more than four hundred police reports, which span twenty one police departments, in three states as well as the Maine state police and the Florida state police, plus the FBI besides! Most of those police reports are public record, you can go read them for yourself. As far as I know only 3 of them were classified and sealed from public access which means there's still 400+ that can be read. There were newspaper reports of some of the attacks. And even though I don't own a TV so have never seen the tV news reports, I know those exist because there were so many TV station news reporters showing up in my yard with camera crews asking for interviews with me. This case is so damned well documented. It's utterly ridiculous to think there is a single person in Southern Maine who is so self absorbed and so oblivious that they have never heard of this case or any of the events that have happened within it in the last 18 fucking years!
But the worst part is, this my own church, a church I have been a member of for 48 fucking years, that is saying, they never heard of this! What the hell? There were more than 24 people from the Saco and Sanford Wards arrested by the FBI just since 2015, because of their involvement in this case. Several of them are still in prison. These people are really that oblivious that they didn't know I was in the hospital, they didn't know I was in a wheelchair, they didn't know my son was murdered, and they didn't noticed 24 members of their congregation disappeared because they went to prison for their involvement.
Really? Wow do these people really give a shit about their fellow congregation members or what? They not only didn't notice I was missing from meetings for 9 years because I am bedridden now, they also didn't notice 24 other members not in meetings because they are now in prison. Talk about dense numb skulls.
It appears the High Priest is back. You, Paul, have met the High Priest. You met him at WalMart. You met him at McDonalds, where you had a 4 hour long conversation with him. You met him my yard in Old Orchard when you visited a few days after the April 0, 2015 attack, and can I add here that you are the ONLY person since that happened, to ever once stop by and ask how I was doing, it’s you’re the only person I knew before the murder of my family, whom I still talk to. You ARE the only person, who ever showed you actually cared about what was going on.
Not one single member of my family or my church has ever stopped to see how I was doing, has ever asked online how I was doing.
But, since November 2021, Sanford Ward mormons have been showing up, all of them in wild raging infernos, and all of them talking about people and events I know nothing about, so I have no clue what any of them ae talking about, but they act like they think I know who the names they mention are, in particular they are cult-like worshiping someone names Todd Murphy whom I can only assume they have gotten mixed up with my beheaded cousin Tim Murphy of Pine Point district of Scarborough and Old Orchard Beach, somehow.
They showed up near daily from November 21, 2021 until May 17, 2022. They were lead on by two blond girls who looked like twins, and have mega long knee-length hair they kept in pony tails, and a smaller pudgier girl with a mint-green pixie hair cut. I don’t know these girls, they looked to be in their 20s. They are the same girls who spent the entire summer of 2021 harassing the homeless man who was living under the trestle bridge across the street from us. They would show up on bicycles every night around 1AM, chase him up out of the ravine, then chase him up the old back tracks along the dirt road to South Street, up towards your place. They did that every night for about 5 months, until he got hit by a freight train on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27PM. They started attacking my and my family Nov 21, 2021, I think because they knew I had video footage of them harassing the homeless man and I think too they were pissed that I call the police when they killed him by cornering him at the bridge overpass so he couldn’t get out of the way of the oncoming train. Outside of them nightly harassing the homeless man, and then spending Nov 21, 2021 to May 17, 2002 chanting “Todd Murphy” in my driveway while vandalizing my car and apartment building, I’ve never seen these girls before of since. They seemed to have completely vanished May 17, 2022. Not seen them at all and the vandalism stopped cold turkey that day. I assume the police must have finally caught and arrested them, but the police never said they did, and in the past when someone harassed me, the police would always ask me to go to the station to ID them after the arrest.
In any case, the “Todd Murphy” dipshit bitches stopped harassing us May 17, 2022, and I heard no more of them, until this past month… only it’s not them showing up this time… this time it’s older people, elderly people in their 70s and 80s, members of the Sanford Ward Mormon church across the street from Curtis Lake Church… Curtis Lake Church being the congregation that shows up in my Old Orchard driveway with the “god hates fgs” signs and calling me a transvestite and calling my car gay, and marching around chanting “too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach”... several Curtis Lake members have been arrested by the FBI and gone to prison for their involvement in both the April 10, 2015 attack on my family and the headless Marsh girl. However, to date,, the killer has not been found, every one arrested so far has always been weird “cultist-like” gay-haters who are attacking people in the area while chanting “kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws” and then rambling gibbering about heads in ice cream. The people arrested, for 5 different local churches, are all outspoken in radically preaching a doctrine of beheading anyone suspected of being gay, while stating that they are doing so on god’s orders.
That’s why there has been so much difficultly in finding out who killed the marsh girl and my cousin Murphry and my family, because, it looks like it’s not just one person, but rather an entire group of people involved, and so far, all evidence has pointed to those 5 churches: Saco Ward, Sanford Ward, Grace Point, Curtis Lake, and New Life, all in Biddeford, Saco, or Sanford, and all run by just 2 families. One family runs 3, another family runs the other 2.
Anyways, I was just thinking, and I think I figured out why the Sanford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints members are seemingly so clueless and unaware that I have been crippled and bedridden for nine years and why they were unaware that 24 members of their congregation have gone to prison, arrested by the FBI for being accomplices in the The Ouellette Murder Case aka The Cascade Murders aka The string of beheading on and around Portland Ave, Ross Rd, and Cascade Rd the past twenty years, which included the headless girl I found in the Scarborough Marsh, my cousin Timmy Murphy whom I found headless on the Ross and Cascade Rod crossroads, the beheading of my own foster children… Ben is the common link to all of them.
Ben, as you know, has severe dissociative identity disorder, that was brought on when his brother Willy commit suicide.
Ben has seven different, very distinctive different “people” living in him, that we know of, there could be moe then 7. Etiole is the one most locals are familiar with, though he does not call himself Etiole, Etiole being a name locals dubbed him. However, there is the High Priest, who is the one you, Paul, are personally most familiar with.
I’ve not seen the High Priest since April 10, 2015. Ben WAS there the day of the attack, he was also attacked… the attackers had me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, all on the ground with guns to our heads, while they use a weird looking long pole with a piano wire-like loop on the end, to cu the heads off of everyone else who was there. Me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, were the only ones to walk out of that attack alive. Ben’s favorite daughter Bella was one of the ones beheaded. His mind snapped, because, he recognized one of the attackers as “Rick”... When the attackers arrived, Ben ran up to one of them and said “Rick! What are you doing here?” Ben does have a friend named Rick… I know Rick. Rick is a very violent, vicious spouse abuser. His wife Paula used to come to church been to a pulp every week. Broken arms, broken legs, broken nose, black eyes. It went on for years. She finally divorced him and fled to Utah when he beat and nearly killed their teenage son. Rick has beaten me up, right in the Sanfard Ward church building. He’s a major bully, a huge bigot, and an extreme white power racists. Rick WAS there April 10, 2015… he didn’t have a white pillow case over his head like the rest of them did, but I don’t kow if he was a part of the attack or not, I was too busy trying to fight the bastard who was holding me own with a pistol in my face, to notice what Rick was doing. It was Rick though, his face in unmistakable… he has no face. Elephant man disease, I think you cal it, but you can’t mistake Rick, and he WAS in my yard April 10, 2015 the day my family was murdered, I just don’t know what he was doing there or if he was involved in the attack or not.
The thing is, something snapped in Ben that day. ALL 7 of his multiple personalities vanished, including the High Priest, thankfully. You know how bad the High Preist could get, you met him several times.
Ben left the Mormon church. I don’t know what triggered him more: his favorite daughter Bella being beheaded in front of him or his best friend Rick, seeming to be the one leading the charge ahead of estimated 74 people in white robes and white pillow cases over their heads.
In either case, Ben has developed a server hatred for the Mormon church and refuses to set foot in a Mormon church building… he who was High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward for so many decades.
The thing about the High Priest, was he was everything so far the opposite of who Ben, my husband, actually is.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to be a virgin. Ben in not a virgin. Not even close. He had a prostitute problem back in the 1980s when I met him.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to not be married, yet Ben and I got married on the Old Orchard Beach Pier August 13, 1987, so he’s been married several decades and still is, we don’t live together because he’s terrified of the Bishop finding out he has a wife. Keeping in mind Mormons don’t forbid priests from marrying, however Ben grew up extreme strict Catholic and his brother is the current leader of Opis Dia and he has to keep up appearances of being a Catholic Priest for his brother, from times when he visites from Italy, which happens a few times a year. Ben became a High priest in the Mormon church, but then goes to several local Catholic churches when his brother is in America, so that he can say he’s a High Priest without lying about it, and keeps his brother thinking he’s Catholic High Priest when he’s actually a Mormon High Priest. In other words, Ben lives a very big double life of trying to juggle his priesthood in two religions, hiding it from each other religion, while also maintaining a (very annoyed) wife (me) that he hides from BOTH religions.
Which is WHY, I’m allowed to PUBLICLY be friends with you, because it helps him to keep up the facade of “see, I’m not married, she hangs around with Paul”, which yes, that IS what Ben tells people at church about you.
Yes, Ben is a dick, I am very aware of this.
But, here’s the thing… Ben TELLS ME he is no longer in contact with any Mormons whatsoever, claims he hates, them, claims he shuns them, claims he’s not spoken to any of them since April 10, 2015…. HOWEVER… he was caught in July 2022, giving one of the Sanford Ward Mormons a ride to the store…. And Rick specifically, has been one the phone with him, when I came in the room and he thought I was elsewhere, causing Be to run around in a panic, knock his glasses off, break them by stepping on them, all while Rick was screaming out of the phone, “Ben, ya there? What happened? What’s going on?”
It appears the High Priest is back…. However, I suspected this in November 2021… the High Priest uses specific pontificating phraseology that none of Ben’s other personalities use…. And on november 24, 2021, the same night the Sanfard Ward Mormons were here cutting the wires off our Biddeford apartment building, Ben started talking like the High Priest again. It’s really distinctive. Normal people don’t talk in long winded drawn out droning, monologuing pontifications about Jesus, and of Ben’s 7 known people living inside him, the High Priest is the only ne who does this. Ben was here and witnessed the wire cutting event, he even went out side and talked to the crowd of “Todd Murphy” chanting lunatics to try to talk to them… and,... he said one of them is Todd Murphy’s grandmother from the Sanford Ward. Ben indicated at that point that he knew who Todd Murphy was, but since then, has denied knowing who Todd Murphy is. But, he came in, and told me outright that “I know her from the Sanfard Ward, she’s Todd Murphy’s grandmother”..
Each of the 7 people who live in Ben have no knowledge or memory of the other 6, and when one of the 7 does or says something, none of the other 6 have any memory of doing or saying those things.
It appears that The High Priest knows Todd Murphy, not only that, but also knows the attackers who came here daily from November 21, 2021 to May 17, 2022… and it looks like Ben, in his High Preist version of himself, is the one who told them where I live and is the one who worked them into a frenzy to begin with.
I have video footage of the homeless man who died Nov 19, 2021… a LOT of it. He knew Ben. That was obvious. Me and Ben were walking Main Street every night the summer of 2021 and the homeless man from under the trestle bridge would stop to talk to us a few times a week. And those weren’t just videos, those were Twitch livestreams so everyone watching my channel saw this homeless man stop and talk to Ben… he said he knew us. I did not recognize him, but Ben… I don’t know… Ben acted like he did know the homeless man, but didn’t want me to know it, so he told the homeless man he was mistaken. But people around local are saying that thie homeless man who kept showing up in my videos IS Todd Murphy, they say they saw my videos and it was Todd Murphy in my videos.
I am finding this whole thing very confusing… because NOW… even though I have video footage of Ben talking to the homeless man, Ben now claims, he never saw the homeless man at all and tells me I’m delusional. That's what he said: Ben said: “Your delusional, there was no homeless man” and, yet hundreds of people, many of them local, saw those videos of Ben talking to the homeless man. Which means, the man Ben was when he was walking with mt summer 2021,is NOT the man he is right now… and… either this a new 8th personality Ben has recently developed, or, it’s the High Priest back, but being deliberately sneaky to try to hide the fact that he’s the High Priest… which is odd, because before now, NONE of Ben’s multiple personalities have ever showed any signs of acknowledging any of the others, and the High Priest trying to high he’s the High Priest by trying to act like a different person, indicates the High Priest DOES remember and IS AWARE of the other personalities.
As you are well aware, I HATE the High Priest. I want nothing to do with him. I never would have married Ben if I had ever encountered his High Priest alter ego before marrying him.
June 26, 2016… FBI Agent Andy Drewer asked me to meet him at his Portland office on Middle St. He had… info. And a new primary suspect. Ben, specifically his High Priest alter ego, is the FBI’s #1 suspect in being the inforat, who told the golf club attackers I was at BugLight Lighthouse November 14, 2013. The FBI has phone records. I told only 3 people, where I was going that night: my mother, my father, and Ben. I told them only 5 minutes before I left, because I had been sick earlier and had previously told everyone I was not going to that event at the college. According to the FBI, my parents and step father Wayne Whiyyen, never left Biddeford, they continued to argue all night, and the FBI knows this because my father had hired a private investigator to tail Wayne, and so they have a lot of evidence as to where 2 of the 3 were. Ben on the other hand, called his friend Rick, the same Rick who was in my yard April 10, 2015… Minutes after I left my dad’s Water St apartment and drive to Southern Maine Community College, November 14, 2013… Ben called Rick. Rick drove to Ben’s house. And the two of them together left.
FBI Agent Andy Drewer had one question: “How well do you trust Ben? Because right now, he’s our primary suspect.”
They believe Ben told Rick, I was pregnant with someone else’s baby and Rick is the one who sent the golf club women to deliberately kill my baby.
Why do they believe this?
Because between 1987 and 2013 I have had 7 miscarriages, something that can be proven… Ben ins the only man I’ve ever been with. It’s not possible for anyone else to be the father. This was my 8th pregnancy by Ben and he was at the time running around accusing me of cheating on him with Etiole. The thing is… he IS the one people call Etiole… but his D.I.D. means he things Etiole is someone else, he doesn’t believe its him, because none of his personalities have any memory of each other.
Ben is a total nightmare to live with because I never know from one day to the next, who the hell he is going to be that day.
Ben has denied every pregnancy. Why? His exact words are: “I wouldn’t. I am a High Priest. What would the Bishop think?”
According to the FBI too, Ben, behind my back, runs around from one LDS/Mormon congregation to the next tell people that I am quote: “An unrhightious, unfaithful aunty-Mormon who puts the church down.”
Interestingly, I have been a member of the Mormon church since 1975. Ben joined in the 1980s. Ben left the church in 2015. I am still a member.
My FATHER is an extremist anti-Mormon, who preaches hatred for the Mormon church. Not me. Kenny, my father, is the anti-Mormon. My father, is such a huge radical extremist anti-Mormon that he has gone on to convince my mother, a 5th generation Mormon who is related to one of Smith’s poly-wives, to leave the church. She left the Mormon church in 1994 and joined up with some anti-Mormon group lead by some woman named Tanner or something. My mother, took her anti-Mormonis to extremes far above and beyond my father, taking to FaceBook and a forum called exMormon something and went total psycho nutjob anti-Mormon conspiracy theory all over the internet through the late 1990s into the 200s and still does it to this day now in 2023, preaching her wild anti-Mormon conspiracy theories now 27 years. In 3 years it’ll be her 30th anniversary of her wild mega hyper anti-Mormon rampage, with my father cheering her on and needling her forward the whole way in a weird Bonnie and clyde style vendetta attack everyone who is a Mormon hate fueled bigotry.
I on the other hand, am still a Mormon, have never had anything to do with the anti-Mormon movement, and, was shocked to learn from the FBI, that, the anti-Mormon rumors about me online are massive, and spread largely by members of the Saco and Sanfard Wards, with their info being just misinformation they regurgitate after talking to Ben, my mother, or my father.
Apparently, because I am bedridden and crippled, since 2013, and thus have had no way to get to church these past nine years, this, my absence in church meetings, after 48 years of never once missing a meeting, has allowed my mother, my father, and Benn to be able to spread wild anti-Mormon rumors about me, with the 3 of them going to my church, the Sandford Ward, and telling the church leaders that I’m not in church because I’ve turned anti-Mormon.
And yet, it is Ben who is the biggest anti-Mormon of all… he’s actual friends with that Tanner woman. My parents only run around preaching the Tanner woman’s message, Ben, actually sought her out and became personal friends with her and helps the Tanner woman one on one…. And he brags about this all the time.
I’m sick of hearing all the anti-Mormon Tanner woman bullcrap from Ben and my father and my mother so, whenever any of the three of them start chiding me for being a Mormon and telling me how evil and deceived I am because I refuse to leave the Mormon church, I just put my headphones on and listen to Markiplier YouTube videos and, ignore them.
I don’t hate the Mormon church like Ben, my mother, and my father do, so I am fed up with them constantly bitching at me because I’m a Mormon. Which is why I’ve not spoken to my father in 3 years even though we live in the same apartment, and was a contributing factor to why I blocked my mother on FaceBook in 203 and have had no contact with her at all offline since… though that hasn’t stopped her from showing up, trespassing, and hounding me.
Ben, is far worse then my mother or my father combined… since 2015, he has hand written thousands of anti-Mormon letters to every church leader he can find, local, not local, all the heads in Utah… and he bought a dozen cases, each case with 144 books in it, cases of Ket Kerr’s books and daily mails them out to every member on every rouster list of every ward in the Exiter and Augusta stakes, using his position as High Priest Quorum leader to get the home addresses of every Mormon in Southern Maine and New Hampshire, mailing all of them aunty-Mormon letters and copies of Kat Kerr’s books. Ben, as you know, has more money then he knows what to do with, and right now, he’s spreading thousands of dollars every day, just on the postage stamps to mail Kat Kerr’s books and his anti-Mormon letters to every local Mormon he can find.
And so, I knew he was mailing out the Kat Kerr books… but, until FBI agent Andy Drewer told me, I did not know that Ben and my mother and my father, having been putting MY NAME of the letters they are mailing out to people, and the three of them, through impersonating me, have got my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, 100% convinced that I stopped attending church because I’mm now an anti-Mormon who hates the church, and that’s why my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, are both unaware that I have NOT left the church, but rather I’m bedridden and crippled and have no one to help me get to church.
And so, now I’m finding out, that Ben, my mother, and my father, working together, according to the FBI, seem to be the fuel that is, and has been for several years, the fuel working locals up into a frenzy… including, they are the ones who are getting the Atwaters riled up, my being an Atwater, and the Atwaters further fueling locals on top of what Ben, my mother, and my father are doing.
What is their motive?
I ask them.
My father says he’s doing it to impress my mother so she’ll remarry him.
My mother says she’s doing it because I need to sell my land and give her the money so she can buy a house in Kennebunk.
Ben says he’s doing it because Mormons are led astray by Satan and he has to save my soul from Hell.
I’m so sick of all of them.
Update: March 9, 2023
You know, one of the things I find most weird about the Atwaters is that so many of them seem to think I know them, even though I have never met them, nor even know any of their names.
Of the original twelve, I have only ever met five of them. And while I know Danny, I don’t even know the names of his siblings. I met Angelia once when she was twelve, at a Halloween party at the Cape Elizabeth Ward LDS Church, and then I saw her for about 2 minutes before she left. And Danny I only met when I was 37 years old and I only saw him about 10 times, back when my mother was trying to scam him out of his money from being hit by a train… which I didn’t know that was why she was visiting him, until a few years later when she had a big rant about how she wouldn’t visit him any more because he was, in her words “stingy and greedy” because he refused to give her the money to “use as a downpayment for a house in Kennebunk”. I should have known that was why she was visiting him, as that’s the only reason she ever does anything. She’s obsessed with trying to by that $3.7million mansion by the Wedding Cake House, and has been trying to scam relatives out of money for a downpayment on it for decades now… it was her reason for her involvement in the backhoe that her brother Joey hired to drive over my house. She and Joey figured I’d sell my land if there was no house on it. They didn’t exect me to set up a lean to made out of a 8x6 tarp and just spend the next 9 years living under that.
I met Doris once when she was squatting illegally on my land back in 1996. Took me and the Old Orchard Beach Police 9 months to get them out. I only ever saw her one day. She had 4 military tents, the size houses, 2 Winobegos and a Cadillac, that they illegally dumped on top of my corn crops, along with more then 600 bicycles, and 2 school buses full of sawed up copper pipes. Took us 9 months to find out who in the hell was living there and dumping that garbage on m land, and it turned out it was Doris. Only time I ever saw her, was one day, for about 15 minutes.
I remember Micheal, Tonya, and Scotty from before the caged years, but, I was put in the cage hen I was 8 years old, so I’ve not seen then since I was 8.
Once every year, usually on September 19th, David and Lucy would show up with a herd of incredibly violent gun toting vandals who would go through our farm and use shovels to chop the heads off all our pet cats, dogs, hens, ducks, and roosters. They were kill 200 to 500 of our pets every year in this anuel bloodbath on my farm. I don’t know who the hoodlums were. David said they were his kids, but he also said he had 15 kids and there were WAY more then 15 people involved in the annual Sptember 19 boodbaths… way more, closer to 100. Brucie said once that it was not JUST Davivd’s kids, but also a group known as The Halls. I don’t know who any of them were, but the police showed up every time, trying to get them out, and they always had huge shootouts with the police every year. It’s why I have a massive phobia of guns. A bunch of them were arrested in 1982, when that time the state police drg team showed up and arrested them and confincasted meth, marhawana, opium, and LSD
I know Dickie, Brucie, David, and Barbara because they were the ones that helped my mother build that room, that they locked me in when I was 8 years old, right after my Grammy Hellen Ricker’s funeral. They kept me in there for 27 years. One of the 4 of them would show up every 12 days to throw rotted molded food in the cracks between the boards. They are the only 4 Atwaters I know, and I only know them from their weekly coming into the room to beat me up, torture me. They are the five who raised me and said I was not Human, said I was a Demon and that I wasn’t allowed out of that room because Demons weren’t allowed to have contact with Humans.
I was 12 years old when the High Priest found out about that room, and he took me out every Sunday to go to church, and then took me back to that room after.
No one ever told me I was a Human and was allowed to go outside or talk to Humans until the social workers showed up when I was 31 years old. They are the ones who started using the term “feral child” to describe me and they to this day are still trying to “integrate me into Human culture” but two of them say they have given up on trying to convince me I am Human, they say there is little chance of my mind ever fully grasping the concept of being human because it’s too difficult to undo the three decades of Brucie, David, Dickie, Barbara, and my mother doing their “child social experiment” (as the social workers call it) to raise me to believe I was not human. They said the bigger problem is the fact that almost immediately after I was rescued out of that room/cage they kept me locked in for 27 years, the 2006 bomb blew up my house, which the FBI says it was Barbara’s husband Paul Martel who did that, but I don’t know why, as I never met him or even knew about him prior to the FBI arresting him, and the backhoe arrived to drive over my house 5 different times over the next 10 years, same back hoe, same yard, different house each time, as I kept rebuilding houses. Then I found that headless girl in the marsh with all the headless dogs and the FBI thinks one of the Atwaters did it seeing how the headless dogs were lined up in a row from my land to the march, each dog about 500 feet apart (for some reason the Saco and Sanford ward church members forget my land in Old Orchard abuts the Scarborough Marsh and is right on the edge of OOB bordering Pine Point in Scarborough. And that the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh was literally only a few hundred feet away from my driveway… they keep asking why I am obsessed with the Oulette Case, but they forget I’m the one who found the dead girl in the Marsh and that she was set up in a friging ritual pose, practically on my front lawn AND the FBI thinks the whole thing was done in some weird attempt by the Atwaters to frame me, so that I would go to prison for murder and they culd take my land… which it’s always my land and the Atwater obsession with taking it that is at the core of everything)
But in any case, the social workers say that because these events were my very first interactions with Humans, that it instilled in me an psychosis effect of further belief in not being human because I had trouble accepting the fact that I am the same type of creature as the monsters humans are, because, yeah, all I’ve ever seen from humans is death, bloodshed, violence and distruction. I have no reason to WANT to be integrated into a society that leaves headless dogs and headless girls in my front yard.
But then 2013, came along…. Social workers got me into college in 2010, in an attempt to show me that ONLY the Atwaters were shitty bloodthirsty bastards and that MOST humans don’t drop dead headless animals all over their houses and yards the way the Atwares do. And they were right. Humans in college were nothing like the Atwaters and their drug dealing, petty thieve, ganster thugs. The social workers and police keep telling me that this sort of behavior is not normal and that it is ONLY something the Atwaters and their friends do, that normal humans don’t act, do, or say the things the Atwaters do.
But then, I’m constantly running into people who make the claim to “know all about” me and they will spout off this weird freaked out stuff about witchcraft and curses and spelcasting and aliens and ufos and, I’m left totally clueless because I don’t know a single thing at all about witchcraft or curses or spellcasting or aliens or ufo, and I can’t figure out why these people think I have the faintest idea what the fuck they are even talking about.
They’ll say they thought I was some expert in casting curses and say they want to hire me to cast curses on people, and they act like spell casting is some sort of job I do. I don’t know heads or tails about spell casting.
They’ll say, “But your the sea witch of Old Orchard Beach”... yeah, people have been calling me that ever since Stephen King filmed Thinner on my land back in the early 1990s, but, I’ve never read a Stephen King book or seen a Stephen King movie, not even Thinner, so, I haven’t got a clue what is in his books and movies. All I know is he based some “Gypsy witch” in Thinner off me, because I’m the “Queen” (aka Priestess) of a local Gypsy clan. A Gypsy Queen is similar to a Catholic Nun in the Folk Catholicism of Mexico and has nothing to do with witches, witchcraft, spells, or curses, so I don’t know what the fuck Stephen King did in the Thinner movie to make people think I’m some kind of spell casting witch, but, people seem to have trouble understanding that the Thinner movie is FICTIONAL. I’m not a witch and I don’t know the first thing about witches or witchcraft. I haven’t got a clue how to cast spells or curses. And I can’t figure out why so many total random strangers think they can walk up to me at WalMart or Rotary Park or the library and demand I cast some curse on someone for them.
But, when these people do this, and it happens EVERY SINGLE TIME I go outside, which I have agoraphobia, so it’s sometimes weeks or months between my setting foot outside, every single time I go out, some one always identifies me as a witch and watches a curse cast.
At the same time I’ve got these UFO nuts constantly coming up to me asking me this or that about some weird ass alien ufo idea, and I never have a clue what they are talking about, They use all sorts of weird ass words and phrases that I’ve never heard before and gibber on like another language which I can’t understand… but then they act all surprised that I don’t know the meanings of the words they are using, and they’ll say: “But I thought you were supposed to be a top expert on UFOs and alien abductions” and I’m like what the hell are they even talking about and how the hell would anyone in their right mind come to think that I would believe in ufos or aliens, when I think people who believe in ufos and aliens are raving lunatics, my uncle Brucie being a perfect example of a raving lunatic who believes in aliens and ufos.
I don’t get it.
But then, every time this happened, and it just happened again today, because, as you know I’ve not received any mail since May 2022 and I went to the post office yet again today to once again ask where the hell is my mail… and low and behold, I can’t set foot outside without some alien believing, curse believing freak ass weirdo nutjob showing up to ask me to put a curse on someone while gibbering about ufos.
I ask him, where the hell did he get the ludacris idea that I was a witch, that I cast curses, or that I believed in aliens, nd he said: “Well, your mother says on FaceBook…” yeah, my mother is a freaking nut, which is why I’ve had nothing to do with her in decades. She’s a white power freak who runs around calling black people the n-word, is part of the anti-vaccer micro-chip in vaccines conpreracy theory, wouldn’t let me or my brothers go to school because in her words “the government controls the schools, and satan controls the government”, SHE spends 90% of her time running around putting curses on people, all she does is talk about whores and demons, demons and whores, every other word out of her mouth is either demon or whore. And the only time she ever shows up its because she’s trying to pul yet another lame ass scam to try to steal my land because she hated my grandmother and says it’s her life duty to destroy everything that”ever bolgned to that old bitch of a whore” including the farm I inherted from gramy Helen. My mother is spiteful, violent, vindictive, and has a police record for running around beating people in the face with bricks. On top of all of that she’s chronic liar and I’ve never heard a truthful word come out of her mouth.
I am well aware that my mother is the source of 90% of the problem, simply because she’s the biggest fucking gossip in Southern Maine, after he sister Barbara, and the two of them are rather famous all over Maine for thei trouble they have caused HUNDREDS of families. They are petty Karens who devote every minute of their lives to making up vicsious rumors and lies about every person they see, both people they know and people they don’t know.
And thanks to the FBI investigation into the murder of my on, I’ve found out a LOT about both my mother and Barbara and the bizarre, outlandish extremes they each have gone to in their petty vindictivness.
But the fact remains, I’ve not had contact with either of those bitches in several decades, precisely because I am sick and tired of their endless hate for everything and everyone around them. They both do nothing but gossip and lie, lie and gossip, and run around like a couple of teenage brats making a game out of seeing who they can hurt next … they fucking brag about it and spend hours laughing over how fun it is to destroy families.
It doesn’t take any level of intelligence to see that the dynamic trio (Barbara, Brucie, and my mother) are the source of every damn rumor about everyone in York County, Maine.
It’s such a big problem that I’ve had people come to my apartment and ask me if I could ask my mother and her siblings to leave their family alone. The fucking Biddeford Police have stopped by my apartment to ask me if I could do anything about my mother, that’s how I found out it was HER who knows Todd Murphey, because the police came right out and told me that my mother has been harassing Todd Murphey’s ex-wife and 15 year old son on their FaceBook accounts and wanted to know if I could ask her to stop.
No. I can’t. And you know why? Because when I asked her to stop spreading witchcraft and curse casting rumors about me, she arrived the next day and cut my car in half! The 1964 Dodge 330… she said it had a demon in it and she had to kill the demon by killing the car. What the fuck? She’s fucking insane!
And worse… half the time, these people will tell me some name I never heard of. Say this or that person told them I was a witch who cast curses or was some alien expert, and I’ll ask them who the hell is that, and they’ll say: “Oh that’s one of Brucie’s kids” or “David’s kids” or a grandkid… and I’ll point ou that I’ve NEVER EVEN MET Brucie's kids or Davids kids or ANY of the rest of the Atwares.
There are more then four hundred Atwaters, and I’ve meet EXACTLY SEVEN of them in my life time. I don’t even know the names of all the original twelve, let alone the names of their kids or grandkids… why would I? Most of them live in Utah and I’ve not set foot outside of Maine for nearly SIXTY YEARS!
I’ve never in my entire life even talked with an Atwter, not face to face off line, not online.
Because I’ve never even seen pictures of any of the Atwaters, I wouldn’t even know an Atwater if I saw one!
And yet, they run around spouting off things I supposedly said or did, and make the claim I’ve talked to them… and I’m just left wondering who the fuck is running around talking to the Atwaters while pretending to be me, because I don’t even know who the Atwaters are!
Clearly, there is someone out there pretending to be me and the Atwaters think they are talking to me, but they are NOT talking to me, I’m not talking to them, and I want to know in the the fuck is running around pretending to be me?
Its so damned fucking obvious the Atwaters don’t know one iota about me, just by the level of the ludicrous witchcraft, curse, alien, and ufo lies they spread around about me!
I should be able to go to my post office, go shopping, heck just walk down my driveway to get my mail, without being bombarded with stupid ass freaks gibbering about witches, curses, demons, aliens, and ufos! I am so damned sick of my mother and her fucking Atwater relatives…
You know, another thing that’s fucked up about all this and again is my mother running around lying her ass off to hell and back, yet again… is this whole situation with HER cats.
The attack on my family, happened the same day as the whole thing with her cats, and she is so obsessed with the cats, that she has gone out of her way to run around telling people that when I talk about April 10, 2025, I’m talking about HER cats… but, in order to further promote that lie, she also tells people they were MY cats! What the fuck?
You know that Nick guy my mother sleeps around with? The one she broke up his marriage, convinced him to leave his wife and kids down in Mass and move up here to Maine, because she was scamming him… the guy she stole his credit card and went and bought that shed she put on my land, and bought those $2k dogs with, and bought those appliances with, and bought that tractor with, before that Nick guy found out she stole his credit cards? Him.
Did you know, she convinced him that she owned MY land in Old Orchard Beach, and she tried to get him to join her scam, and pretend he was a real estate agent, and my mother and her pimp Nick tried to sell my land last year… and this is not the first time she’s done this.
Did you know, that in 2007, she went to the town hall, pretending to be me, had them divide my land into sections, and then sold one section? That’s why Don Cooliard and his sister have a house in my driveway now… something they built in 2019… and it was when they built the house in 2019, that was when I found out my shit face mother and her jackass whore master Nick, sliced off a peice of my land in 2007 and sold it!
I had no idea they had done it!
That’s the kind of shit faced scum bag scam artist my mother and her fuck buddy Nick are!
But it gets worse.
My mother had 83 cats… eighty three cats.
And she was hiding 113 of them in an apartment owned by this Nick scammer. He found out she had cats in her apartment… guess what day… April 14, 2015. The day before the attack on my farm.
Here’s a thing… did you know there were no locks on the doors of my motorhome? Not one. I bought it February 21, 2012, and first thing I did was took all the locks off, because I have a PTSD phobia of locks, after my mother kept me locked in the room cage thing for 27 years.
And yet… when the vandals showed up with a Blow Brothers sewage truck to fill my motorhome with 500 gallon of raw feces, they had to pry a padlock off the door to get inside. A padlock, that I did not put there.
Do you know how that padlock got there? My mother put it there the night before, when she took HER thirteen cats, and shoved them in my motorhome, without telling me she was doing it… because she had to hide them from Nick.
People often ask, why, I a professional artist whom has had displayed at the Portland Museum of art… don't paint anymore.
It’s because paint supplied are expensive, and 500 gallons of raw human feces not only did $10k in damages to my bedroom, it also destroyed $30k in art materials.
But it gets worse… my mother was two timing Nick with both my father Kenny and her other ex husband Wayne… and on top of that, she was mad at Wayne, so, it turns out, that 7 of those cats were HIS cats, and she had stolen them from HIM…. so not only was she hiding thirteen cats from Nick, but seven of those cats were stolen cats besides!
She put the cats in my motorhome, them, because she is fueding with ALL her whore master fuck buddy men, one of them, the FBI hasn’t figured out which one yet, filled my motorhome with feces out of a Blow Brother’s sewage truck (my cousin Ken Blow is my neighbour, they stole one of his trucks to do it) , and then called the police and told them that the motorhome was HERS, because my mother had been running around telling everybody it was hers, she these guys thought they were pumping sewage into my mother’s bedroom and didn’t know they were pumping sewage into my bedroom.
But, because they DID know that she had put the cats in there, and they were made at both her and Wayne, they thought if they called the police, the police would arrest her and Wayne…
,...however, the gays haters of the local Mormon churches ALSO showed up that same morning, a completely separate incident from the cats, to attack my family, because, earlier that year, I had published a gay Romance novel, called Night of the Screaming Unicorn, and these gay hating church freaks, decided murdering my family was punishment for me publishing a Gay Romance novel.
A fucking five towns worth of police, including a SWAT team showed up… the white robed klan pretenders fled, thep police found the cats, I was left asking “What cats? What are you even talking about?” Later an officer asked me if I knew the cats, and I said, “Yeah, these ones belong to my step father Wayne up in Biddeford and those ones belong to my on the other side of Bideford, how the hell did they get in my motorhome?”
And the court cases people talk about… there where SEVEN different court cases going on all at once, including the Guy Gamon murder trail because he murdered my dog walker who walked my dog when I was sick, which was the big case, that uncovered he was a serial rapist, and went on for several years and included a jury trial.
The murder trail of my family was also going on. Different court case.
And then, my MOTHER had a court case going on with police over the cats, which, in the middle of that, she spun it around, started telling people the cats were mine, and the next thing I knew, there were TWO MORE court cases slapped on me, that I knew nothing about… both an extension of the cat case my mother had going on, because 2 weeks into HER court case about HER cats that SHE hid from Nick in MY motorhome, she had Nick convince the police to switch the case out of her name into my name, because she had convinced Nick that the cats were mine! So all of a sudden, I get this weird court case about HER cats slapped on me, on top of the three murder cases and rape case, that were already going on.
The cat court case lasted less then an hour before the judge threw it out of court, telling some Dan guy that if he ever tried to pull a stunt like this again (apparently he worked for the Old Orchard Beach town hall and had pulled scam court cases to frame disabled women before, because the judge told the Dan guy that this was the 64th bogus case he had done to try to steal land from disabled women in OOB)...... but… the judge was asking me about the cats, and I keep telling him, I don’t know anything about the cats because they were not my cats, they were my mother’s cats, and I still had no clue how they had even gotten in my motorhome in Old Orchard Beach, 14 miles away from Nick’s apartment in Biddeford where they had been for several years before that. Finally the judge asked if someone could get my mother to the court house, and surprisingly she showed up… with Nick of all people… and she boo-hooed to the court about the cats being mine, and my being homeless and living under a tarp (I was still living under the tarp in 2015, but not at the time of the attack… I had just moved in with my dad in Biddeford March 31, 2015 due to I have just come out of intensive surgery and the doctor wanted me to not be sleeping outdoors for the next 6 months because I had intensive amounts of surgery to heal from, so I wasn’t in Old Orchard the day my mother put HER cats in my motorhome and that’s why I had no clue the cats were in there).
Well, the judge got mad at my mother, because it was blatantly obvious to him that the cats were hers, because she was using all the cats’ names, while I didn’t know the cats’ names, and she was describing what they looked like and what breeds and ages they were, while I didn’t know what half the cats looked like, Three of the cats I had never even seen before, and I didn’t know their names. I didn’t know how many cats there were!
The judge outright told my mother to her face that she ought to be ashamed of what she did, framing me and pretending the cats were mine, and he sent the cats to the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter, something we knew right there in the court room, but in order to get pity, and money (my mother started a fund raiser on one of those kickstarter type places) saying she needed to raise money to locate the cats. What the fuck? We knew where the cats were. They were at the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter… she even went there to try to get them back… asked me to drive her there in my car, took Wayne with her because the cats were technically HIS cats that she stole from him… I have the whole thing on video camera, it was livestreamed… she had a big fucking fight with the people at the shelter and they told her they’s arrest her if she ever tried to get near their shelter again.
After that, she built up this weird ass conspiracy that the cats were sent to lots of shelters and foster care… which they probably were., I don’t know… and she went from one animal shelter to the next harassing them.
Meanwhile, her friend Joel Baily hacks my Twitter account and uses it to harass, yet another of my mother’s whore master men that she sluts around with trying to get money out of… some guy named Mark, who I never heard of before, but apparently, he’s been friends with my mother AND my father for some forty odd years, even though I myself had never seen or heard of him before. And yes, the same Joel Bailey from the Saco Ward and Old Orchard Beach town hall who went to prison for hacking the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall bank account and transferring $30MILLION in OOB tax money to members of the Saco Ward church… who it turns out, most of them were the anti-gay attackers in my yard April 10, 2015, which is why 24 members of that church went to prison between 2016 and 2021.
So, I’m still unable to do anything because, you know, still recovering from major spine surgery, because of the golf club attack that murdered my son in 2013, three years earlier, I didn;t have surgery until 2015 and 2016., because of the fucking red tape the USA medical system runs on… here I am, not online at all since November 14, 2013, so I have not yet told anyone about any of the April 10, 2015, and come January 2016, all of a sudden, there’s the Mark guy who crawls out of the woodwork, with yet another court case, this one claiming I was saying stuff on Twittrer about him… and yet, I had never heard of this guy before AND I hadn’t been online since November 14, 2013, so what the fuck? Who the hell is hacking my Twitter account pretending to be me, while harassing this guy I never even heard of before. But by this point FBI Agent Andy Drwer had taken over the whole case, and by June 2016, he found out, yeah,:” it’s your mother’s friends from the Saco Ward church. She’s convinced them the cats were yours and that you need to be punished for animal abuse, that you didn’t even do, by hacking your accounts and framing you” Great. So yet again, my mother and her cat obsession and her Atwater friends, and her Saco ward friends, and her fcck buddies are at the core of all of this, with them once again, putting my name on something I fucking had no part of and didn’t even know anything about! What the fuck!
This court case was ALL livestreamed, you can go watch it on YouTube. The Cat Court case was also live streamed. You can watch that on YouTube too. The murder court cases and the rape court cases, also livestreamed. You can watch them on YouTube too. And then on top of that, was the Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach Court case with the Old Orchard Bach Town Hall… also livestreamed, you can watch that on YouTube as well.
My mother, Nick. all these Saco Ward church people, the Dan guy, the Mark guy, the Gene guy… they are ALL on livestream… the judges, the police officers, the witnesses, the DA, even the FBI agents… all recorded, all livestreamed on Twich, all archived on YouTube, all SEVEN court cases, every day of every trial. You can go watch them all yoursel and see the truth, instead of listening to siller gossip and rumors started by my mother and her Nick buddy trying to cover their asses for trying to steal my land YET AGAIN, via the cats.
But have you ever noticed it is ONLY my mother and Nick talking about the cats in connection to April 10, 2015… do you notice how I never talk about the cats, because… oh look… they were NOT my cats, they were my MOTHER’S cats and that’s why SHE is talking about them?
Did you also notice how, in order to make people believe the cats were mine, that both my mother and Nick, are going out of their way to try to erase the existence of my family that was murdered that same day?
Did you notice how in order to push THEIR cat agenda, my mother and Nick are are doing a major gaslighting move to try to make everyone FORGET what happened two years earlier on November 14, 2013, the day my son was murdered and my spine was broken?
Did you notice how my mother and Nick are trying to use THEIR cats as a slight of hand move, so people wouldn’t see that they DID steal and sell part of my land to Don Colliard in 2007 nd that they tried to sell another section of my land in March 2015… yes, yet another court case which was going on, BEFORE the cats happened, and that the FBI believes my mother and Nick pulled the cat stunt deliberately to try to make people look the other way and forget that she and Nick tried to steal my land only 2 weeks prior to the cat event? Or that she and Nick tried for a THIRD time to steal and sell my land April 2022…
Know the truth.
Those cats were not mine, they never were, and I’m sick and tired of the jack ass fucking animal abuse rumors and lies my mother and Nick are spreading about me… lies that they are spreading ONLY to try to cover up the fact that they were trying to steal my land, to sell my land, so my mother could by some fucking mansion in Kennebunk.
Well guess what… my son is buried on my land, He’s been buried there since November 2013, and it doesn’t matter that there is no house on my land, because my son’s there and I’m never selling it. And my mother and he Nick and Saco Ward and Atwater friends are bunch of fucking scum bags who don’t give a shit about anything but the damned fucking money they think they can get out of my land.
Update: March 13, 2023
So, we have confirmation that yes, our mail IS being stolen from 146 Portland Ave. As you already know, we have not received mail since May 2022 and it is now March 2023, it's nearly a year. Post office has just been saying "we are short drivers" and has not looked into it... so we went over the heads of the local Old Orchard Beach post office and went to the distribution center, and told the state post master what was going on, they got in touch with our delivery driver, and he has delivered our mail every day, all year, and is baffled because the post office had not alerted him that we were not getting our mail. So, YES, if you live on Portland Ave, in Old Orchard Beach, and have not been receiving mail, and I know most of my neighbors are saying they've not gotten mail in weeks to months, as well, go to the Saco distribution center in the industrial park, and complain there, because tour driver IS delivering daily and has not been missing delivers... all missing mail from Portland Ave is stolen and you need to let them know what mail you have not received to they can get to the bottom of finding who is doing it.
So, while I was at the post office today, seeing how the post office is on the Cascade Road, out here in the Old Orchard Beach section of the Scarbourgh Marsh... I decided to check the family cross, see if the name Todd had been added, seeing how the vandals and shitard harassers can't stop gibbering Todd Murphey this and Todd Murphey that in my driveway, and nope... here it is, https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg as you can see the only two names are my cousin Timmy Murphy and my uncle Gordon Murphy. No Todd.
You know, I would recommend these shittards take their heads out of their asses, and drive through all the roads of the Scarbourough Marsh. Why?
This cross is one of the more then a hundred crosses in the marsh, which marks the locations of the one hundred and twenty people whom have been beheaded in a four mile radius since June 2001. This cross stand at the Ross Road x Cascade Rd intersection. The Cascade Road, as everyone who watches the local news is aware, is where bulk of the serial killer's attacks have occurred, which is why local news reporters have dubbed the entire case as "The Cascade Murders", officially know to law enforcement as "The Oulette Case".
If you start driving through all the side streets of the Scarbourgh Marsh, you will find there are 120 - one hundred and twenty - of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them, each marking the location where the the person dubbed by locals as "The Portland Ave serial killer" has murdered 120+ people between June 2001 and February 2021.
For some odd reason, the Sanford Ward LDS church, a church only a 30 minute drive awa from the Scarborough Marsh, is so clueless about the local biome, that they seem to think the ONLY place the Scarborough Marsh exists is across the street from the church owned candy store Len Libby's Chocolates.
Do you recall how people like to dub my land "Etiole's Swamp"... do you know why they do that? Because my land is a literal swamp. It's a peat bog, with more sinking quicksand and 6 foot tall marsh grass, then solid ground. I live IN the Scarbough Marsh, as does EVERYONE on Portland Ave, Ross Road, Pine Point Road, Cascade Road, Walnut Street, East Grand Ave, West Grand Ave, Milliken Mills Rd, and more then 200 - two hundred - other streets in Old Orchard Beach, all of which are located inside the Scarborough Marsh.
The Marsh is not JUST in Scarborough, nor is it just that one quart mile stretch of road across from Len Libby's. The Marsh sits in two countries and five towns, and covers several thousand acres of land... and the Scarborough WalMart and the South Portland Main Mall, both site in the marsh, with both of those mega buildings building on a massive system of concrete pilings to keep them from sinking into the many acres of peat bog that site under each of those buildings.
But do take a drive on the above listed streets in Old Orchard, as well as the following ones in Pine Point: Pine Point Rd, Blue Point Rd, Black Point Rd, Dunstan Corner, Portland Rd aka Rt 1, Payne Rd, and all the little side streets off of each one. In Saco head to Heath St, Jenkins Rd, Flag Pond Rd (stop and see the very real pet cemetery where Stephen King's The Pet Cemetery movie was filmed while you are there), and all their side streets, yes those are in the Scarbourogh Marsh as well... and instead of just blindly driving through the Marsh on your way to work, slow down and start counting the crosses... big white crosses, little white crosses, unpainted wooden crosses, reflector covered orange crosses... see if you can find all one hundred and twenty crosses in the Scarbourogh Marsh... they sit in 5 towns, in 2 counties... and every one of them marks the location of someone who was beheaded by a still uncaught, still actively killing people, serial killer who has plagued the streets in the Portland Ave region of the Scarbough Marsh since June 2001.
But as you can see, it's Timmy Murphy who was beheaded on the Cascade Rd... not Todd Murphy... there's it's cross which has stood there since June 2013.
You know, if these harassers spent more time paying attention to what is going on around them, and less time being self absorbed jerks... they'd know these crosses were here... they'd know, Old Orchard Beach has a serial killer on the lose who has beheaded more then 120 people and left their bodies at cross road intersections all over the marsh... they'd know that this has been going on for 18 years now, and they'd know that my family had been hit by this madman multiple times now, fist killing my cousin Timmy Murphy, then killing my baby and leaving me not only crippled, but also one of only 5 people to live through and survive one of this serial killer's attacks, thus WHY the FBI is so hyper focused on not letting me out of their sight because this killer has a history of not leaving people alive... they'd know that SEVENTEEN families all within a quarter mile section of Portland Ave, between Walnut St and Milekin Miles Rd, 17 families in this space of street, have not only have their families murdered, but their houses bulldozed by a backhoe, and in just those 17 families, in addiction to the dead people, there are also more then FIVE HUNDRED dead pets, including cats, dogs, birds, and horses, every one of which was beheaded and the headless pet hung from rope nooses and draped in trees and porches of the 17 families... something the FBI says is a scene from a Stephen King book, which the serial killer likes to recreate... and then the FBI points out this: each of those 17 families has appeared in The Thinner movie... it's the one common thread for ALL 120+ Scarbourough Marsh killings: every sing victim has somehow been involved in the filming on one of the 14 Stephen King movies which was filmed in Saco, Old Orchard Beach, and Scarboughor back in the 1980s. According to the FBI, EVERY SINGLE ONE of these murders, animal killings, harassments, vandalisms, and hate crimes, can be found in a Stephen King book and this lunatic is recreating "art" in tribute to Stephen King, using the bodies of family members who were involved in the filming of Stephen King's oldest movies.
If these people in the Sanford Ward church would take their heads out of Joesph Smith's ass long enough to look around, they would have known these things were going on, that they were going on to people in their congregation, that several members of their congregation have stopped attended church because they were murdered, that several other members of their congregation no longer attend because like me they are crippled and bed ridden from these attacks, and that 24 members of their congregation no longer attend church because they are in prison for their connections and involvements in these murders.
Heck, these murders have been all over the TV and paper news for 18 years now... you'd think the people of the Saco and Sanford Ward LDS churches - who are the ones in my driveway bitch screaming about Todd Murphey for the past 2 years now - would at least have seen enough TV news or newspaper news... oh look, did you know one of the big name newscasters on TV, someone who has in fact covered the Scarbough Marsh case on TV several times now, is a member of the Sanfard Ward congregation, and even SHE knows what's going on, obviously because she's one of the reporters who keeps showing up to interview all us families who live in in the Scarborough Marsh... so I know not everyone in the Sandford Ward is clueless as to what has been going on in the community round them.... several of these church members are outright screaming, literally screaming from my neighbor's front porch in Biddeford, that they never heard of any of this before... I'm sorry... what the fuck?
The Scarbourough Marsh murders is quite literally the biggest unsolved murder case in all of New England, not just Maine, it's been covered by DateLine, 20/20 and half the crime network tv shows! The fucking planet has heard of it! These people are telling me, literally, while standing on my neighbors front porch and shrieking at the tops of their lungs, that they never heard of this murder case, a murder case I've not stopped talking about for the last 9 years because as of 9 years ago now members of my family have been murdered.. heck, with so many deaths now, it's pretty hard to find any family in the Scarbourough Marsh who DOESN'T have a dead relative killed by this nutjob... and these people, who vandalized our apartment building so bad that the landlord has a repair crew here all of this next upcoming summer... these vandals and hate fueled harassers from the Sandford Ward church, are telling me, that they had no clue any of this was going on?
And worse... y Atwater relatives... they keep showing up and ALSO saying they never heard of this... really? How? I know the FBI has been talking to them about it because they keep showing up in a rage yelling that the FBI was just at their house and it's all my fault and demanding I stop sending the FBI to their house... but I didn't send the FBI to their house, heck, I didn't even know they were related to me, as I never heard of them before they showed up to yell at me, so how the hell do they think I sent the FBI over there? What the fuck?
But also... what the fuck? Family members have been murdered and as far as I know, the FBI is trying to locate every relative to find out if they might have any information about a member of their family being murdered... I mean, if these people really are relatives, like they scream that they are when they are in my yard yelling at me, then, someone in my family being murdered IS ALSO someone in THEIR family being murdered.... and yeah, of course the law enforcement is going to go to every family member and ask for info, that's what law enforcement does, because, they just naturally assume that normal families help each other and WANT to solv a murder that happened in their family.
Which is something FBI Agent Andy Drewer pointed out to me, he said: "The Atware relatives of yours... they're pretty paranoid aren't they? I'm having trouble getting any of them to talk to me. Most slam the door in my face the minute I say I'm with the FBI. They act like they got something to hide. Looks mighty suspicious. Can you think of any reason why any of your uncles might want you dead?" That was the same day he pointed out that his five top suspects for the November 14, 2013 attack were my uncle Bruce, my aunt Barbara, my mother, my father, and Ben. He said he can prove they all knew about the golf club attack, and yet everyone of them is openingly, publicly denying any knowledge of it, and all five of them are doing their most public outspoken, over the top denying it in two places: The Saco Ward LDS Church and the Sandford Ward LDS Church.
And most disturbing of all is this: He says my father was having an affair with a woman named Claire back in the 1970s, and that my father and my mother and Claire and Claire's husband have been feuding since the late 1970s, a fued which goes on to this day... and... that on ALL of my mother's social media accounts, FaceBook, Twitter, Pinterest, everything, are two usernames that show up in her friends' lists: both with the same last name, one using the username Claire while posting a 4 door white truck as her user photo, and the other... wait for it... has the user name: KendraSilvermander".
Yep.
The FBI has found an actual person, a relative, in law of the Atwaters, who goes by the username KendraSilvermander.
Why is this significant?
The people who murdered my son at BugLight Light house art studio at Southern Maine Community College on November 14, 2013, was a blond woman whom the other two called "Claire", a red haired woman who was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!..." like she was singing a song... both women looked to be in their 60s, and today a decade later, would now be in their mid-70ish, and were with a large bald man, about 30th, today would be about 40ish, and the 3 of them left in a 4 door white pickup truck.
The odd thing is, people don't talk about themselves in 3rd person limited, but, that's what the red haired woman was doing.... and I've seen her before... she showed up at Westbrook Panera 3 different occasions in 2009 and 2010 and in each of those instances also did the same marching goosestep around, back then carrying a white poodle wearing a purple dragon coat... while again saying "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" while also bragging that her father owned Saco FunTownSplashtown USA and having a psychotic meltdown screaming" My chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIR!" Annalese, the woman sitting next to me, another published author, as thi was a NaNoWriMo writer's meeting, who was the NaNoWriMo Ml of Souther Maine, leaned over and whispered to me "That's Kendra Silvermander, she thinks she's he ML, we try to humor her. She can get rather violent if you don't."
Whoever this red haired woman is, she has a server, mega in need of medical care, mental disorder, appears to be incapable of functioning beyond the mental level of a two year old, and is quite proud of repeating her name as fast as an auctioneer. But, she speaks in 3rd person limited about herself, using us and ours and we to refer to herself, and uses the phrase: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" as though it was a period at the end of every sentence. I don't know what sort of a mental disorder she has, but Annelese was right, this woman gets over the top violent, as we quickly saw at Westbrook Panera in 2009, when she started slamming her dog on the table while chanting "My chair", and then quickly lashed out at me, in a mega violent rage of throwing chairs. The restaurant had to drag her out and make her leave.
She repeated this at three different writer's meetings at the Westbrook Panera in 2009 and 2010.
She is the same woman who was ordering/leading/demanding the blond Claire woman's golf club attack at Southern Maine Community college November 14, 2013, murdering my baby and crippling me.
She returned for a 5th attack June 26, 2016, again with the bond Claire woman, this time at Scarborough WalMart, and this time attacking with a shopping cart, this being the attack that caused the inoperable 3 broken vertebrae and the organ and nerve damage which caused my current crippled stat. In this attack, yet again the red haired woman was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" but this time the blond woman was shrieking: "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband. That thing is Ken's son, look at how IT's dressed! Kill or be killed! Remember Saco Shaws! No more heads in ice cream! End the gaypocalypse! Kill the transvestite freak! Too Gay for the Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach!" This time instead of driving away in a 4 door white truck driven by a bald man, this time he two women were alone and drove away in a gold Volvo late 1990s vintage suv station wagon.
The usernames now showing up on my mother's social media, and the Atwater relative's social media is significant, because, according the these FBI agents.... those are the exact same Atwaters who are REFUSING to talk to the FBI, slamming the doors in the FBI agents faces, and also, are the most vocal on social media in spreading the alien/UFO/witchcraft/cat rumors about me. And the FBI believes they not only know who the golf club murderer is, they likely were involved in planning the November 14, 2013 attack... and every one of them has been seen with the Sanford Ward LDS Church members who are likewise the biggest defamatory gossipers, running around slandering my name with their lies about witchcraft/curses/aliens/ufos/and cats.
AND... on top of that... they ae the EXACT SAME Atwaters ans Sandford Ward church members whom have spent the last two years bombarding my Biddeford apartment with these same rumors while the vandalize the building, which the landlord now has to spend the summer repairing.
AND... these are the same people who are also claiming, they had no clue these murders were going on in the Scarborough Marsh.
Overall... these people who are denying the events of the Scarborough Marsh murders, while simaltaniously going overboard gibbering lies about me online, are really working overtime at making themselves look like they were involved in the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, and making themselves look tremendously guilty of not only knowing who the killier is, but trying to cover up for the killer, and attempting to gaslight me with their weird alien rumors, in an attempt to make people not see their connection to the killer, that they are trying so very blatently to hide and are only succeeding and shining a mega sized spotlight of suspision on themselves, leaving everyone who is watching them doing it to ask: What the fuck did they do, that they are trying to hide so damned bad, that they are going mega big time slanderfeat screaming about aliens and ufos all over social media, trying to convince people that I believe in aliens and ufos when there are 40+ years of documented evidance of me debuncking aliens and proving their ufo accusations to a be a hoax they created to cover their own asses over a drug raid from 1982? And now they are rearing up their alien accusations again, which again, I can prove to be a hoax, because... what are they trying to cover up THIS time? Last time they rolled out the alien accusations they were trying to blame literal toddlers for the 1982 drug raid, by saying that 4, 5, and 6 year old children saw aliens... 72 people were arrested in the 1982 drug raid... there were no aliens... if anyone was seeing aliens, it was the drug addicted having drug induced hallucinations... and yet, those same drug dealers, now out of prison, are once again pointing to aliens, this time because they are mad that the FBI showed up to ask if they knew anything about the murder of my son.
???
Can I ask, what the fuck does not real, fictional aliens they saw because of drugs, during a 1982 drug raid, what does that have to do with my son being murdered?
And are they really that retarded that they think I control the FBI and tell the FBI what to do? What the fuck? Them coming over here and screaming for me to stop sending the FBI to their house, when I didn’t even know these people were relatives, never heard of them before, and wouldn’t even have had a way t tell the FBI a blooming thing about them at all, just makes them look suspicious, because for one thing: who even are these people? I still don’t know who they are! And for another thing, why do they think I sent the FBI over to them? And again: who are they? There are over 400 Atwaters and I’ve only ever met 7 of them, I don’t know the names or faces of any of the others, I don’t even know all the names or faces of the original 12, so I can’t figure out how they’d think I would know the names or faces of any of the kids, grandkids, or great grandkids of the original 12. What the fuck?
How are the Atwaters so full of themselves that they think I would have one iota of a clue anything about them, when I’ve never met them and I don’t even know their names… and also… why would I care? Tell me that? Do you know any sane person who knows the names of their parents in-laws.
Yes… my parents in-laws… in-laws of in-laws… not even blood relatives, but the aunts, uncles, cousins, grandkids, and great grandkids of in laws of my parents’ in laws… who in their right mind would even know the names of such distant relatives…
You, reading this right now… can you name your parent’s cousins? Do you know the names of your mother’s uncle’s great grand kids? Do you?
Can you see how utterly stupidly ridiculous the Atwaters are being, when they show up here yelling and screaming, and expect that I should know who they are or what the fuck they are talking about:
Newsflash: normal people don’t live in 400 person large family herds.
Normal people don’t live in herds.
Normal people don’t swamp in shark style frenzies in the driveways of distant relatives of your great grand pappies 5th removed cousin of an in-law, either. What the actual fuck?
And on top of everything else, there are Awaters running around screaming that I am vandalising some grave… the grave of a distant relative whom I never heard of before, so I don’t even know where the grave is… when I’m here bedridden and crippled and not even capable of going to visit my own son’s grave because… oh look: I’m crippled and stuck in bed with a broken spine and severed spinal cord for the past nine years!
You know… if you are going to accuse someone of going somewhere to vandalize something, you might want to first make sure that person is not wheelchair bound, bedridden, and crippled for a decade with a broken spine, so unable to even get to the place you are accusing them of going!
Also… since the day my son was murdered, I have a camera running 24/7 so, it’s pretty foolish of you to lie about me when I can not only prove you are lying, I can also prove every time you’ve been screaming in my driveway, because I have you on camera. They didn’t think of that did they? Oh no, of course not, why would they? They were too busy thinking about those aliens and witches they can’t stop gibbering about.
But look at this cross... Do you remember Timmy Murphy? He was the 5 year old with curly black hair, who was also accused of aliens during that 1982 drug raid. They called us The White Monkey Children, because we found Helen Pearly's missing pet white monkey. And the people arrested during the 1982 drug raid, many of them Atwaters, pointed to that white monkey that had escaped from White Animal Farm, a zoo in Old Orchard at the time, they pointed to that white money and called it an alien. Helen Pearly, look her up, is the founder of the Scarbourgh Marsh preserve, an animal preserve that started out with one pet white monkey, and is today, many thousands of acres of protected land known by the name The Scarboughorgh Marsh.
Can you see NOW why the idiots screaming aliens are seen as so damned idiotic?
But can you also see the names on the cross?
https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg
There were 31 children involved in helping Helen Pearly capture her escaped pet white money.
Drive through the scarborough marsh looking at the names of the beheaded victims on those crosses... 29 of the 31 White Monkey Children are now dead, killed and tossed in the marsh, where 40 years ago, they helped little old lady look for her lost pet albino monkey.
Every one of them accused of being alien abductees; accusations which was screamed ONLY by the drug dealers and drug users of the 1982 drug raid, which took place in the Scarbourough Marsh.
The only people who accuse me of aliens are the people now out of prison, who went to prison because of the 1982 drug raid... a drug raid known to locals as "The 458 Shoot Out" due to one woman screaming "Four! Five! Eight!" in between each time she loaded up her shotgun.
Everybody that has shown up in the marsh since June 2001, has been either one of the now adult White Monkey Children, or one of their children or grandchildren.
EVERY - SINGLE - ONE.
Go to the marsh, look for the crosses. Read the names. My cousin Timmy Murphy's cross is not the only one and if you open your eyes and start looking at the side streets all through the marsh, you'll see one hundred and twenty of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them. Crosses the entire country has seen on Dateline, 20/20, and dozens of unsolved crime shows... crosses that the Atwarers and their friends at the Sandford Ward church, are right now, this very week, posting all over social media, claiming aren't there, claiming I'm the only one talking about them, when clearly I'm not seeing hoe Dateline and 20/20 are pret big international news shows... and also claiming "Yeah EeelKat's crazy, she believes in aliens" when its extremely well documented my not believing in aliens and my debunking alien abductions as hoaxes... and these same people are also trying to convince people on social media "cats!".... but the cats were my mother's not mine, and my son was murdered November 14, 2013, two years before my mother's cat incident occurred.
These people are making total idiots of themselves, because all any one has to do is look up the new reports about the Scarbourough Marsh murders and the Cascade Murders to see that since June 2001, a LOT of people here in the marsh have been murdered, and originally they were not thought to b connected, but, now it is known that they are.
I wish these crazy ass Atwaters and their weird Todd Murphy obsessed Sanford Ward lunatics and their alien abduction ufo nuts, would leave me and my family alone. I don’t know what their problem is or why they are so obnoxiously hell bent on stalking my family and harassing us like this, but I am getting pretty damned sick of it. I have enough shit to deal with with, oh, I don’t know, half my family being murdered, my son’s killer still being on the loose, 9 years bedridden and still relearning to walk, … I don’t need these fucktards jumping into my life and trying to grab their 15 minutes of fame by tampering with the FBI’s investigation into hunting down my son’s murderer.
Know the truth. The truth will set you free.
On Writing An Actually Autistic Character Accurately: Quaraun VS Real Autism
What is wrong with Quaraun?
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(Supplemental Information HERE.)
(On Writing A Clinically Insane Character Accurately, While Avoiding The Psychopath Stereotype - Part 3)
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EelKat Wendy C Allen as Quaraun the Insane
So, 3 days ago (back on July 5, 2017; it is now July 8, 2017) when I first started writing this thing, back on Page 1 of this article that got very long an has now passed 50,000 words making it officially what NaNoWriMo considered to be a novel length work...
Back then, 3 days ago, I put a list on the page and at the end of the list said:
How does Quaraun compare to those facts about Autism? As this page has gotten too long already and has already had to be cut into multiple pages, I'm going to answer that question on a new page, which I will link here once it is completed.
... and so, that is the focus of this section of this now very long, multi page article.
If you have not read the previous articles...
- #1: I have Autism. Not Aspergers. Not Autism Spectrum Disorder. But ACTUAL Autism, which is vastly different from either Aspergers of Autism Spectrum Disorder.
- #2: I am an author, who writes an Autistic character who's Autism is based off of my own Autism symptoms, and whos life is losely based off actual events from my own life.
- #3: I am writing this article series because another writer requested it, because they were seeking to write an Autistic (not Asperger) character, but could not find much information online about ACTUAL Autism aka Kanner's Syndrome.
If you've never read the Quaraun series, some things you should probably be aware of when reading the novel excerpts found on this page:
- #1: The Quaraun series is listed as the following genres: Yaoi, Bizarro, Dark Fantasy, Sword & Sorcery, High Fantasy, Epic Fantasy, Psychological Horror
- #2: Quaraun is not Human. He is an Elf and as such, is physically able to live though things/not be harmed by things that would normally kill a Human.
- #3: Quaraun is a polyamorous bi-sexual transvestite, with 4 wives and 2 male lovers. (If you are uncertain the difference between a transgender person, a transsexual, and a transvestite, then please read this page to find out what each word means.)
- #4: Quaraun is a fictional character. Yes, I know is seems ridiculous that I have to say this, however... some people are not able to tell the difference between fact and fiction, reality and fantasy, the author and a fictional character, and as such, gay-haters beat me up (a straight female) accusing me of being a gay transsexual man, after reading one of the novels from the Quaraun series.
- #5: While the Autism components of his character are portrayed accurately, he also suffers from a FICTIONAL, illness as well, which was created based off of a combination of Naegleria fowleri, Kuru, & Mad Cow Disease, 3 very rare real world illnesses that cause insanity. In the books this FICTIONAL illness is called "Thullid Infestation" and is what Quaraun is referencing when he says such things as "There's a Jelly Fish in my head" or "A Jelly Fish ate my brain". (Yes, one's brain being eating by a tiny jelly bodied parasite is a real thing that can happen to you, Google "Naegleria fowleri" to find out more about it.)
So, on with our article...
Back on Page 1, I had created the list, which is now copied and pasted below. On the previous page it was just a list of facts. Here on this page however, I will now take each of these facts, and underneath each one, compare that fact to Quaraun, his character, his personality, his lifestyle, his symptoms, his reactions to the world around him, and his back story, so see how well, this fictional Autistic character matches up to actual real world Autism.
Each fact from the list will be shown here bolded, the text block following it will be the comparison of the fact to Quaraun's character.
And so, I give you the list...
*sigh*
So... I'm adding this little side bar here, because I just been here writing for 2 hours straight... then BOOM! My computer decides:
"Hey, guess what! Windows 10 here, it's time to update and restart your computer without telling you we're going to update, and we're also going to be nice and wonderfully considerate by not giving you any chance to save your work before we turn your computer off and restart it without warning you, Ha ha! Oh by the way, I know you changed the settings to not allow automatic updates, but we realize you didn't really mean that, so we are over-riding that setting for this update, because it's soooo damned important. ~ Love from Microsoft! Thank you for using Windows10, enjoy your utterly useless update to a feature you never even use!"
So... I now I have to go rewrite everything I just wrote, because now that the computer has come back on, I find that more then half what I wrote wasn't saved, because autosave wasn't turned on.
One of the many joys of being an author. Yay!
And then people wonder why we authors don't like Windows' automated update system.
Oh well, I guess it's a god thing I have Autism and have a photographic memory and can easily retype word for word everything I already typed, now isn't it?
Off to rewrite, every thing I already wrote.
*sigh*
As a result of that computer mishap.... this page is only partly finished... I'm going to publish what was saved now (July 10, 2017) and then go back and rewrite all over again the part that got deleted... that section should be added here tomorrow or the next day...
Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?
You might be surprised how little you really know.
A look at REAL Autism and the myth spread by those with a self-diagnosis.
Are You Sure You Know What Autism Is?
Did you know?
NOTE: Most of the first few items on the list reference Asperger's not Autism, so it'll be a few items in before these become relevant to writing Quaraun's character, but I'm gonna comment on each of these anyways as we go down the list.
ACTUAL Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children
Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed
ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose
1 in 64 children are diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, which means they DO NOT have Autism
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
I wish more people knew this one.
The Autism Spectrum Disorder page of Wikipedia, states that there are 5 ASDs. This is incorrect and was obviously written by someone who is quoting internet memes rather then actual medical books. There are more then 60 ASDs.
I also wish the ill-informed parents of Asperger's children would stop deleting ACTUAL DOCTOR'S text on the Autism Wikipedia page and replacing it with their wild, deranged, urban myths about what they THINK Autism is.
Sadly more then half the information on the Autism Wikipedia page is incorrect and was written largely by self-diagnosed Aspies and their parents. Wikipedia also has a page for Asperger's but, they are too good for that page.
Hopefully doctors actually trained to treat and diagnose Autism will eventually notice that the stuff they wrote for the Autism page has been deleted by parents of Asperger children and replaced by conspiracy theories about mercury and vaccinations.
That's the problem with Wikipedia: any one can write anything on any page and there is no one to check to make sure the information is correct.
In 2007 the information on the Kanner's Syndrome Wikipedia page was correct, but Sheldon Cooper wasn't famous yet, so the Autism Boom had not yet started. If you want accurate information about Autism, don't rely on Wikipedia... the current page for Kanner's Syndrome is almost 90% information on Asperger's Syndrome instead. Someone REALLY needs to do something about fixing the massive amount of errors on that page.
Only 1 in every 10,000 people are ACTUALLY Autistic
Only 1 in every 17,000 people will ever encounter a REAL ACTUALLY Autistic person in their lifetime
1 in every 8 Autistic people will be murdered before the age of 25
Quaraun is murdered, though he is elderly at the time it happens, so he partly falls in with this statistic and partly does not.
1 in every 7 Autistic people will commit suicide because of a bully
Quaraun does attempt to commit suicide multiple times, and in most instances it is triggered by a bully.
1 in every 2 Autistic people will die by the age of 45
Well, Quaraun doesn't fall into this statistic, as he reaches old age. He lives to be about 750 years old (equivalent to around 75 years old in Human years).
40% of self-diagnosed Asperger children between the ages of 12 and 18, admit they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and could not name any symptoms of Aspergers other then: "high IQ, reads comic books, and is socially awkward"
This one does not apply to Quaraun as he has Autism, not Asperger's.
Though let's comment on this while we are here...
Did you know that a High IQ is NOT a symptom of either Autism or Aspergers?
- An IQ of 140 or more is considered "genius"
- A High IQ is considered to be any IQ over 130.
- An IQ of 110 to 130 is considered "smart"
- An IQ of 90 to 110 is considered "normal IQ range for most people".
- The average IQ of most people on the planet is 100.
- An IQ of 75 to 90 is considered "slow" or "stupid"
- A Low IQ is considered to be any IQ under 75.
- An IQ of 60 or less is considered "mentally retarded"
So where do people with Autism and Aspergers fall?
- High Functioning Aspergers = an IQ on the high side of average, usually 100 to 120
- Aspergers = an IQ on the low side of average, usually of 90 to 100
- High Functioning Autism = an IQ of 75 or higher and can speak in full sentences
- Autism = an IQ of 75 or less and is able to communicate verbally in short 2 or 3 word phrases
- Low Functioning Autism = believed to have an IQ below 60, but being non-verbal makes it difficult to tell
In actual studies done on people ACTUALLY diagnosed with Aspergers, fewer then 10% of them had an IQ higher then 120 and NONE of them had an IQ of over 130.
There are NO known cases of an ACTUAL Aspie with a High IQ
Autism and Aspergers having a High IQ is an urban myth, spread largely by internet memes posted on Tumblr and Pinterest, then shared on FaceBook and Twitter. It is one of the many FICTIONAL symptoms of Asperger's that was created to make Sheldon Cooper's character "more interesting" for the TV Show Big Bang Theory.
Keep in mind that "The Autism Boom" is made up largely of "self diagnosed" Asperger's, and the "boom" occurred the same month the Big Bang Theory TV show was awarded "the most popular show on television".
80% of the people who claim to be "a self diagnosed Aspie" when tested by a doctor, are found to NOT have Asperger's at all.
Interestingly, while 1 in 3 people claim to be "a self diagnosed Aspie with an IQ of 135 or more", and ACTUAL IQ of 135 is incredibly rare and only .03% of the world's population (2.4 million people) have it.
There are currently 11 million people in the United States who claim to be "self diagnosed Aspies with an IQ of more then 135" and yet there are only 2.4 million people on the planet with an IQ of 130 or more and two thirds of them live in China, not America.
There are ACTUALLY fewer then 500,000 people in the United States with an IQ of 130 or more. Meaning that of the 11 million "High IQ" Aspies in the USA, 10.5 million of them are lying about their IQ range.
To compare how many people that is... the State of Maine in 2014, just crossed having a population of 2 million people. Maine is a very small state, with not many people. The amount of people who live in Maine, is the same number of people there are on the planet who ACTUALLY have a High IQ of 130 or more.
And yet.... In the United States alone, there are 11 million people claiming to have self-diagnosed themselves as Aspies "because my IQ is over 130".
And yet... Having a High IQ is NOT a symptom of Aspergers!
Sheldon Cooper (a fictional character) has a High IQ AND he has Aspergers.
Fans of Sheldon Cooper see that and think "High IQ = Aspergers; I have a High IQ therefore I must have Aspergers"; and thus you have the current "Autism Boom".
Also, if Sheldon Cooper was real, his IQ would be somewhere around 200... waaaay above 130. Fewer then 100 people have ever been found to have an IQ above 160.
People fail to realize that Sheldon Cooper is a FICTIONAL character and that while many of his Asperger's symptoms are portrayed accurately, there are just as many FAKE/FICTIONAL symptoms that were given to his character for the sake of plot points in the show.
All of that ranting over... how does any of this apply to Quaraun?
Quaraun has a relatively low IQ. He is described by characters he meets (and readers of the series) as being "too stupid to live"
Quaraun has High Functioning Autism, meaning "has an IQ over 75 and can speak in full sentences".
Throughout most of the series we see Quaraun as an older adult around 450 years old (equivalent to about a 45 to 50 year old Human).
Because he is an older adult, he has learned to adapt to his surroundings to some extent and thus for the most part he is able to "pass off" as fairly normal. As long as he's not asked to do anything with numbers or money or try to get him into a sustained conversation about anything, he tends to get by without people realizing he's rather stupid.
He can read and write quite well; in fact he can read and write far above the average. He can sew and embroider at a very advanced skill level, and is in fact a tailor before becoming a wizard. He ends up being a "wizard for hire" who specializes in sewing magic items for other wizards (capes, cloaks, robes, hats, bags of holding, etc.) (Do keep in mind that this character was originally created as a Dungeon's and Dragons character that I played as in RPG games for several years before I started writing novels about him.)
If one sticks to topics of fabric, sewing, embroidery, fashion, charging items with magic properties, growing roses, and casting spells, Quaraun can keep up with the conversation with no trouble at all. He will n fact dominate those conversations and tell you every aspect of those topics, and he will talk in endless monologue about them with no clue that he is boring everyone around him out of their minds.
Leave those topics, however, and Quaraun becomes wide eyed and clueless as to a thing you are saying to him. His dialogue will fall apart and devolve into a series of:
"Okay"
"Uh-uh"
"Okay"
"No."
"Okay"
"I don't know."
"Okay."
Ask him what you were talking about....
"Why are doing that? What did I just say?" BeaLuna asked.
"I don't know," Quaraun answered.
"You don't know?"
"I don't know."
"Why don't you know?"
"I don't know."
"You don't know why you don't know?"
"I don't know."
"How can you not know why you don't know?"
"I don't know."
"Do you ever listen to anything I say?"
"I don't know."
"Can you stop saying, I don't know!"
"I don't know."
"Unicorn!"
"Why yis yelling at me for?" the Phooka asked.
"Quaraun's broken again."
"Well, stop breaking him then."
"I didn't do anything."
"Ya talking over his head. Ya knows him too stupid to knows what yis talking on. Ya gone un gots hims brain all confusalcated. His brain can'na follows ya that fast."
"A Jelly Fish ate my brain," Quaraun said. "I don't have a brain."
"See?" Unicorn said. "Him agrees. Him have no brain. Problem solved, eh?"
BeaLuna walked off mumbling to herself: "I'm travelling with crazy people and idiots."
~From "The Journey Begins" (Volume 4 of The Quaraun Series)
What happened here was typical of most people with Autism. Quaraun could no longer understand the point BeaLuna was trying to make, so he "zoned out" and didn't hear much of what she was saying. She had just explained in great detail all the reason for not doing a thing, and as soon as she got done taking, Quaraun immediately did exactly what she had just got done telling him not to do. Thus she begins yelling at him, leaving him suddenly lost and confused and not knowing how he is supposed to answer. Unsure what the socially correct thing to do in this situation, he simply starts saying "I don't know" regardless of anything else the other characters say.
By saying "I don't know" he is actually saying that he doesn't know how to respond, he realizes he's done something wrong, but he's not certain what he did wrong, and is in fact attempting to explain that he doesn't know what it is he has done wrong, however, the characters around him do not understand this and assume he is answering the question being asked.
Quaraun is having trouble understanding BeaLuna, when she begins to turn the phrase "I don't know" back on him. He now is not only confused as to what he did wrong, but he also now does not knw what it is she is asking him.
Quaraun continues to say "I don't know" until he hears something that he does understand, which in this case is Unicorn talking about his brain. Quaraun immediately attempts to rejoin the conversation by saying the only thing he does know about the topic of his brain, which is the fact that he suffers from "Thullid Infestation" and has a tiny parasitic jellyfish attached to his brain eating it.
Quaraun does not realize that by saying "A jelly fish ate my brain" that other characters not think he's an idiot. He feels he has joined the conversation once again. When BeaLuna walks away calling Unicorn crazy and Quaraun an idiot, Quaraun is left confused and not understanding what it is he has done to upset her or make her call him an idiot.
Throughout the series Quaraun frequently becomes frustrated when he thinks he's talking to people around him, believing that he is conversing with them properly, then suddenly they call him "stupid", "dumb", "insane", or an "idiot". He knows those things are said with malice and the intent to hurt his feelings. He knows people use these words when they are angry with him. But he rarely is able to comprehend what it is he said or did to cause people to say those words to him.
Quaraun often joins conversations with others cheerfully, happy to be included as part of the group, but he often leaves those same conversations, confused, frustrated, sad, and upset.
Scenes like the one above, often end with the other characters leaving angrily, and Quaraun left alone feeling very much unloved, unwanted, and worthless and wishing he was smart enough for people to want to talk to him the same way they talk to each other.
Scenes with Quaraun sitting alone, separate from the group, wanting to join them, but too scared of being rejected, knowing they'll just laugh at him and call him an idiot, are frequent throughout the series.
I've never tried to determine what his IQ might be. I'd guess it's probably in the range of about 80.
In the few volumes where he is seen in his youth, you see him having greater difficulty interacting with people around him.
60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children have stated they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"; these people could not list the symptoms of Aspergers and simple stated it meant "being a genius".
Yeah, see everything I just said in my previous answer, before the novel excerpt. The same applies here.
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
Have you ever known someone with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy? I have. My next door neighbour has it. (Yes, the woman who cut my car in half on May 10, 2010, while screaming that she was killing a demon and therefore had to kill me car. That woman.). There is not one damned thing wrong with her 3 boys. Nothing. They are 3 healthy, normal little boys.
One of her boys "disappeared" for a while. Never came outside any more. No one saw him. No one talked about hi. It was like he'd vanished.
I babysat for these boys. One day the parents are getting divorced, and want to know if I can take the boys to their doctor's appointments for the next few weeks.
I get to the doctor's office.
Doctor pulls me aside, sends the boys to a play room to play with toys while she talks to me: "Can I talk to you about the mother?"
The doctor explains to me the situation:
The boy who'd been missing (9 years old), had been forced to wear diapers, drink out of a baby bottle and sleep in a crib for the past several weeks. The mother claimed this was because the boy was constipated.
The doctor said: "At first I prescribed stool softeners. But then I noticed she was getting it refilled every 3 days and each bottle should have lasted a full month. So I called the pharmacy to change the prescription to a placebo, but didn't tell her."
The doctor continues to explain: "I tried talking to him (the boy) but he no longer talks. He's shut down. Hasn't said a single word in any visit. She (the mother) won't let him talk to me alone and he won't talk if she's in the room. I think something's wrong. You know the boys better then I do, have you noticed anything?"
I ask the doctor what the prescription bottle looks like, I say: "Is it a big gallon sized bottle filled with white powder?"
She says: "Yes, it is, why?"
I tell her: "For months, she (the mother) has been carrying these bottles with her everywhere she goes, never got a good look at them, but she said it was a prescription her doctor gave her for irritable bowel syndrome. About 2 months ago her doctor stopped renewing her prescription. She was in a rage at first, but now past few weeks, she has them again."
The boys doctor asked who the mother's doctor was. Went to call him and talked to him. She came back in the room. She says: "He diagnosed her with Paranoid Schizophrenia and Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy about 6 months ago. I just talked to their dad. He's in the middle of trying to have them taken away from her because she's making (the boy) sick on purpose so I'll give him the same prescription her doctor stopped giving her. I suspected something like that, that's why I switched it to a placebo."
I asked the doctor (a doctor who was a standard non-specialist pediatric a 2 hour drive away from the boys house) while I was there: "How many doctors do the boys have?"
She says: "What do you mean?"
I say: "You're the 5th pediatric I've taken them to in the past 3 days. They've got multiple appointments every day this week."
She asked for the names of the other doctors. Leaves again, Calls the doctors. Comes back in white as a ghost and says: "We've all been giving him the same prescription. She's been refilling all of them too fast and is using a different pharmacy for each one."
She than asks me: "Does she have multiple doctors for herself?"
I say: "32 in Maine that I know of, at least 7 in New Hampshire. She goes to every pharmacy in the state. Last I knew she was taking more then 40 different prescriptions all at once. She's got a big drug problem. I frequently drive her to her appointments and watch the boys in the waiting room, because she won't allow them out of her sight for more then a few minutes."
She goes off to call all of these doctors. None of them knew about any of the others. None of them were hooked up with that online database thing to prevent this sort of thing from happening either, likewise she was using "off grid" pharmacies.
Once all her doctors and all of her kids' doctors started cross referencing the situation... the boys' dad had custody about 2 weeks later.
Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy is a very serious condition and if the state can prove a parent has it, they WILL take the children away.
60% of all children who are self-diagnosed as Autistic or Aspergers by a mother... turn out to be healthy normal children of a mother with a serious prescription drug addiction, who uses her children to get prescriptions, which she takes herself, never giving said prescriptions to the child...
60% of all children who are self-diagnosed as Autistic or Aspergers by a mother... are taken away from their parents and put in foster care, due to the mother having Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.
Once again we've had a side rant that is not connected to Quaraun or the series, so continuing on...
80% of all people claiming to be "Autistic Aspies" do not have either Aspergers or Autism and are shocked when they learn that Aspergers is NOT a "type" of Autism.
You can always tell a website or blog written by someone who has no clue what Autism is, as soon as you see them write:
"My son has the Aspergers type of Autism."
There is no such thing as an "Asperger's type of Autism".
There is Aspergers.
And there is Autism.
Two very different illnesses with similar symptoms.
Aspergers and Autism are so different from one another that you can be diagnosed with BOTH of them as well.
I had myself a long rant about this already, so go read that page and as there is nothing here to say in reference to Quaraun himself, let's move on...
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television"
That link I just put in the previous answer? Go read that to see what I have to say about this one.
This one again, does not apply to Quaraun because, he doesn't have Aspergers, and also because he lives in the 1400s before TV was around.
Of course time travel existes in the Quaraun series and GhoulSpawn (one of Quaraun's lovers) is in fact from the 1970s so does know of things like tv and such, even though Quaraun himself does not.
While Quaraun is from a time period before Autism was known about, there are in fact volumes in the series, where GhoulSpawn (who is from the future) calls Quaraun Autistic. There are scenes when other characters are watching Quaraun have a meltdown and are asking what's wrong with him, and GhoulSpawn will reply to say something like "He has Autism, this is what he does." However, being a man from the 1970s living in the 1400s, his explaining that "this is Autism" means nothing to the people around him, who then just think GhoulSpawn is as crazy as Quaraun because he's using words they never heard before.
Aspergers is an Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)
Asperger's is NOT a "type" of Autism.
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
Yeah. That link again. I covered this there as well.
There are more the 60 ASDs including Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, Schizophrenia, Threadworm Infestation, and having had a Stroke.
Yep. The link. Just go to the link. My answer to this was there to.
73% of all ACTUALLY Autistic people, will never speak, will never learn to wipe their bum, will eat through a tube never learning how to chew, and will wear neck braces and be wheelchair bound from never learning to hold up their head or walk.
The 27% of Autistic people who can talk and walk and chew their own food, will rarely learn to speak in full sentences, will forever "act like a 4 year old" even into their senior years.
There are no known cases of anyone with ACTUAL Autism ever becoming fully independent or living on their own. REAL Autistics require caretakers and adult supervision their entire lives.
Quaraun falls into the same 27% as I do.
Like me, Quaraun has the ability to talk and can feed himself. Though like me he often forgets to do either.
Yes, you can forget to talk.
I've had times when a person was talking to me, and the conversation reached a pint of him saying:
"Why won't you answer me?"
To which I said: "What do you mean?"
"What do you mean what do you mean?"
"I've been answering you."
"No you haven't."
"Yes I have."
"Have not. You ain't said a word once."
Well, in my head I was talking to him, however, my brain forgot to make my mouth move and send the words out. This is actually a rather common problem for people with Autism, and Quaraun does it from time to tome in the novels.
Forgetting to eat can be a problem and it is one of the reasons I'm now in my 50s and still require adult supervision.
I can cook. I can cook really well. I took Culinary Arts in college. I can cook exceptionally well. I just have trouble remembering that I'm supposed to.
I frequently go 4 or 5 days or more between meals. I often reach a point where I am typing and my hand is trembling so much I can no longer type. I am then forced to stop typing.
I call Ben tell him: "My hand's shaking, what should I do?"
Ben instead says: "Where you been I haven't heard from you in 5 days?"
Me: "What do you mean? I just talked to you this morning?"
Ben: "No, that was Monday morning."
Me: "Ain't it Monday?"
Ben: "It's Friday."
Me: "Huh? I started typing after talking to you. I just stopped now. I thought it was only a couple of hours. That must be why my hand is shaking! I must be hungry! Boy! I'll bet I'm tired too."
Ben: "You forgot to sleep, for 5 days?"
Me: "I was writing."
Ben: "For 5 days?"
Me: "Apparently."
I do this sort of thing a few times a month. It's why I have to have caretakers and adult supervision, even at my age.
I forget to talk, during conversations.
I forget to eat.
I forget to sleep.
I forget to go use the toilet.
I've been known to go as much as 6 months between baths. I forget to do that as well.
I have dreadlocs. Guess who forgot to brush her hair for almost 3 years.
This is the reality of living with Autism.
This is what it is like to be ACTUALLY Autistic.
When you hear an Autism mother yelling at an Aspie mother and saying to the Aspie mother: "What are you complaining about, at least your kid can wipe his own bum!"
THIS is what those mothers are talking about.
I am High Functioning so eventually after a few days I notice my "stomach hurts" and I call Ben, tell him, and he'll be... "Have you eaten lately?"
I'll be: "Nope. It ain't that. I've got snacks here... oh I know! I haven't gotten up to go pee in a few days. That's what it is! I have to go pee! Yay! I know why my stomach hurts! I haven't peed in a few day. I gotta go do that."
Yes. I have Autism. And I forget to go pee. Sometimes for several days to a time.
Someone with High Functioning Autism can survive on their own, but without caretakers to check in on them, they will not thrive.
If your child has Autism, they will never have 100% independence.
Aspergers, yes. Most Aspies can live on their own without caretakers. But not Autistics. It's one of the biggest differences there is between Autism and Aspergers.
I have to have timers for everything.
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go eat."
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go pee."
A timer to tell me "Stop what you are doing and go sleep."
Are you someone who watches my YouTube videos?
Go watch my Witcher 3 Wild Hunt series of game play videos. You'll see it. Every 45 minutes a timer goes off, and I tell you... "Oh... it's time to go pee! I'll stop the game here and start another episode after I go pee."
I played 117 hours of that game in a single sitting.
Yes.
One sitting.
There are 117 45 minute episodes of me playing that game and every 45 minutes, at the end of every episode, that timer goes off, and I get up to go pee and eat a small mini-meal, Then come back and play through for another 45 minutes until the timer goes off again.
This is my life.
This is life with Autism.
Having a timer that goes off every 45 minutes is the only way I can remember to stop what I am doing and go use the damn toilet.
At least I am high functioning enough to wipe my bum myself. 73% of Autistic people require a caretaker to wipe their bums for them.
In the Quaraun series you see scenes where Quaraun forgets to eat, often for days on end, because I forget to eat.
You see Quaraun go days on end, walking across the country side not stopping to rest, forgetting he needs to sleep, because I forget to sleep.
The sleep issue is a frequent one, one that shows up in nearly every novel as well. It's a reoccurring theme in the Quaraun series, for Quaraun's days f no sleep to cause disruption in the lives of others who are trying to sleep and he's doing something that keeps them awake.
There are many scenes where Unicorn puts opium into Quaraun's food or drink, to mellow Quaraun out enough for him to at least collapse and be forced to rest in a drug induced stupor.
Quaraun woke up again many hours later. He felt the warm heat
of BoomFuzzy's body against his back, and Quaraun moved his body
towards the heat. Quaraun's eyelids were too heavy to open, so
Quaraun lay in the warmth, enjoying the closeness of feeling another
living being pressed close to him. Quaraun's mind couldn't seem to
focus, and he knew the eggnog BoomFuzzy had given him before bed, had
likely been drugged.
"Did you drug me?"
"Aye."
~From "BoomFuzzy" (Volume 3 of The Quaraun Series)
More then 90% of all Autistic people have a low IQ of under 75. Most are considered "mentally retarded" with IQs below 60.
Fewer then 10% of all Autistics are High Functioning.
High Functioning Autism, means:
"Has an IQ of 75 or more and can speak in phrases longer then 2 or 3 words, being able to communicate verbally in full sentences."
We already covered this one a couple of questions ago.
Your child can NOT be diagnosed with Autism, because there is no medical condition called "Autism".
Autism is a slang laymen's term for Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare birth defect caused by genetic mutation.
Raise your hand if you knew there was no disease, illness, or disorder actually named "Autism".
When a doctor says "Your child may be autistic", they DO NOT mean they are diagnosing your child with Autism.
They mean you child is displaying symptoms of Autism and likely has one of the 60+ ASDs.
If your child has one of the ASDs, this means your child DOES NOT have Autism, but has a disease with similar symptoms to Autism.
Yeah, raise your hand if you knew this one.
Doctors are extremely reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism.
It is one of the single most difficult diagnosis to get from a doctor and requires your child be taken for multiple interviews WITH OUT THE PARENTS in the room.
If you TRULY believe your child was sexually traumatized before the age of 3 years old (and that is what Autism is) you will have your child undergo a series of hour long interviews ABOUT THEIR SEX LIFE with multiple social workers and psychiatrists.
It requires 3 psychiatrists to agree that the child is suffering from serious early childhood sexual abuse trauma, before they will consider giving a diagnosis of Autism.
An ACTUAL diagnosis of ACTUAL Autism is a very SERIOUS diagnosis that a doctor can not give lightly, as it also requires the doctor to immediately call the police and have the parents arrested for gross child neglect and extreme child sexual abuse.
When a child is diagnosed with REAL Autism, the child is immediately handed over to child protective services and the parents charged with criminal neglect and abuse.
If your did not receive criminal charges and have your child taken away the same day as the diagnosis, then you DID NOT receive a diagnosis of ACTUAL Autism.
Did you know Autism is caused by early childhood sexual abuse and/or extreme physical or psychological trauma?
Neither did most of the other parents proudly proclaiming themselves rapists, I mean parents of an Autistic child.
Wait... do you mean.... you REALLY didn't know that every time you proudly wave your puzzle piece flag and say "My kid has Autism, YAAAAAY!", that you are also proudly telling the world you sexual abused your child?
A diagnosis of Autism is nothing to be proud of.
Rape is not something to be proud of
Being a parents who rapes your infant is not something to be proud of.
Your child having a psychosis that is caused by having been raped by one of their caretakers before they reached 3 years of age, is nothing to be proud of.
While you are proudly waving your puzzle piece flag, why don't you also get your son a shirt that says:
"My mom raped me before I was 3 years old! I got Autism now, YAAAAY! Rape is the greatest! Go rape go! Ya for rape! Rape those babies! Let's get more Autism in the world! Woo-ho! Ain't child rape the greatest, it gave me Autism! Yay!"
Can you see how, horrible, sick, and disgusting it is, for you to call yourself "A proud Autism mom!"?
ooooh! You didn't child rape was the cause of Autism? I thought you were this great big expect on Autism.
OOooooh my! Somebody didn't do their homework before they self-diagnosed their child with Autism! Imagine that.
Oh wait... you only know about Aspergers.
I'm sorry, I didn't realize you were too retarded to know Aspergers was not a "type" of Autism. Silly me, here I am the one with the low IQ. How stupid of me for thinking someone with an IQ higher then mine actually knew something about Autism. I mean, I'm just the stupid little retard who actually HAS Autism, so what do I know?
Hey, here's an idea, why don't you get your head out of Sheldon Cooper's ass and actual find out what Autism is. Huh? How about that.
Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to find out who in the hell this Sheldon Cooper was that every body kept talking about at all the Autism Awareness events the past couple of years?
Why was it hard?
Oh let me think... I have Autism, and everything that implies.
If you knew what "everything that implies" meant, I wouldn't have to explain why I didn't know who Sheldon Cooper was.
There's a little thing called: no TV, you know, because might bring Satan into the house.
There's also a little thing called: no electricity, you know, because Satan made it.
Then there's that little thing called: child sex slavery and being locked in a room, from the time I was 8 until I was 31, and only allowed out when the High Priests from the Saco Ward LDS Church showed up looking to fuck a baby.
Yeah... I have Autism... REAL Autism... and EVERYTHING that implies.
While you and your children were happily glorifying your TV shows, I was being raped by the highest bidding High Priest.
While your 3 year old was learned her first words, I was being beaten with a nail filled board for not being able to recite the entire book of Genesis in under an hour.
While your 8 year old was worrying about losing her first tooth, I was worrying about losing my first baby during my first miscarriage.
I have Autism, Sugar Plum, and your child's nothing but a damned tv worshiping spoiled brat who wants to "be special just like Sheldon".
You think your child has Autism because your child has a High IQ and is socially awkward? ... Honey, those are not even symptoms of Autism. Why don't you get your head out of the TV and stop re-tweeting memes, long enough to read an actual medical text book. A few Psychology books, maybe?
Try finding out what Autism is before you start diagnosing your children with such a horrifying disease.
Autism is not nice.
Autism is not fun.
Autism is not something to run around all yippie skippies happy about.
Autism is a horrible psychosis that could easy be prevented if perverted adults would stop sexually abusing children.
And yes, I was taken away from my parents at the time of my diagnosis, at the age of 31 years old. It was later realized that my parents were victims as well.
My uncles are now wanted by the FBI for child sex slavery and human trafficking.
Let's see if we can get back on topic... how does this apply to the Quaraun series and writing a fictional character with Autism?
I actually have already written an answer covering this topic over on the page titled: Suicide, Rape, and Abuse In The Quaraun Series. You can go read that for a very long answer.
The short(er) answer is that: I write what I know and I know rape very well. I have never, not once in my entire life, ever had consensual sex with anyone. I don't know what it would be like to have sex with someone and them not be raping me.
I therefore also do not know how to write a sex scene that is kind, loving, consensual, and not rape.
I have Autism and am unable to imagine what it would be like to experience something that I had not myself experienced.
No one has ever hugged me.
No one.
Not my parents. Not the men who raped me. And I've never had a friend, so obviously no friends have ever hugged me either. I don't know how to write a hug. Because I've never experienced a hug to know what it feels like.
No one has ever kissed me.
No one.
Not my parents. Not the men who raped me. And I've never had a friend, so obviously no friends have ever kissed me either. I don't know how to write a kiss. Because I've never experienced a kiss to know what it feels like.
The only sex I've ever experienced was rape and so I don't know how to write a sex scene outside of a rape scene.
There is a lot of sex in the Quaraun series. But it's all rape.
Quaraun never experiences kind, loving, consensual sex. He only ever experiences rape.
He never knows what it is like to enjoy sex. Because I don't know what it is like to enjoy sex.
He only knows what it is like to experience fear an pain during sex, because I only know what it is like to experience fear and pain during sex.
In the Quaraun series sex and abuse take center stage.
Right from the beginning of his life.
His earliest memory is of him being attacked and injured along side his mother.
His strongest memory is witnessing his mother's murder a few years later, while he is still a small child.
Quaraun's mother was beaten to death by his father, who then turned on the small boy and would have killed him as well, except an uncle intervened.
As a teenager, he is near daily beaten by his father and his father's servants.
When his father is angry with him, he drags Quaraun (still a child) out into the center of town, strips him naked, and publicly beats him. (Keeping in mind the series is set in the 1400s when this sort of thing was so common that town squares had special tables made just for holding the child [or spouse] down while you whipped them. It was considered a form of entertainment and huge crowds gathered to watch these events.) Quaraun is publicly tortured and humiliated every few weeks throughout most of his childhood and teen years.
Like I was in real life, Quaraun was frequently locked in a tiny room, left to go days on end without food.
Like I was, Quaraun often had to fight the dogs for scraps.
Like I was, Quaraun was made to sit on the floor and not allowed to eat at the table with his family.
Like I was, Quaraun was often stabbed in the arm with forks, if he dared try to sneak food from the table.
Like I was, Quaraun was little more then a skeleton, malnourished, and starving to death.
Like I was, Quaraun was rescued from his abusive family, by a sex crazed rapist, who was just as sexually abusive to him as his family had been physically abusive.
Yes.
Quaraun's backstory matches his psychosis.
Yes.
Quaraun's childhood, is the childhood that real Autistics have.
Because Autism has become "a fad", many parents, teachers, and even social workers, are quick to suggest a child be submitted to psychiatric evaluation for Autism, often without knowing what that really means or what the evaluation process involves.
Because the parents are not present during the interviews and the child is instructed to NOT reveal to his parents any of the questions asked by the psychiatrists, few parents or teachers are ever fully aware of the extremely sexual nature of the interview questions that their toddler is being asked to answer.
Because the Quaraun series is set in the 1400s this does not apply to him.
However, I do wish, parents would do a little bit better research before sending their children for Autism interviews with Psychiatrists. Your 3 year old is gonna come out of those interviews with a better sex education then a Porn star has. Until you've had to sit through their 100 question sessions about your sex life, you can't even begin to image how intensely an Autism evaluation invades a persons sex life history.
Before you send your child for an Autism evaluation, you might want to step back and consider... is the amount of sexual trauma your child will experience during that interview, worth the diagnosis they may not get?
Autism is caused by sexual trauma and those Autism evaluation questions are designed to find out HOW MUCH sexual trauma your child has been through. If your child has never been sexual traumatized... they certainty will be by the time those Autism evaluation interviews are over.
Doctors actually trained in what REAL Autism ACTUAL is, are very reluctant to submit a young child to the psychological evaluation process because of the highly sexual nature of the questions, which can in fact trigger sexual trauma in a child that was not previously sexually traumatized.
What this means is the evaluation process for Autism, can actually CAUSE Autism in a non-Autistic child.
Yeah. That's what I was just talking about in my previous answer.
Many symptoms of ASDs go away over time, either on their own or with changes to medication, diet, and lifestyle.
ACTUAL Autism is a type of mental retardation, and is a severely crippling lifelong condition. It's symptoms do not lesson or go away with time.
If your child is diagnosed with REAL, ACTUAL Autism aka as an Idiot Savant, your doctor will say: "Your child has Kanner's Syndrome", they will NOT say "Your child has Autism"
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
- a profound lack of affect or emotional contact with others
- an intense wish for sameness in routines
- muteness or abnormality of speech
- fascination with manipulating objects
- high levels of visuo-spatial skills, but major learning difficulties in other areas
- attractive, alert and intelligent appearance (meaning does not physically look retarded even though they are)
- mental retardation
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
- Stupor
- Mutism
- Hyperactivity
- Agitation
- Excitement
- Posing
- Negativism
- Rigidity
- Waxy flexibility
- Automatic obedience
- Combativeness (during excitement)
- Stereotypies
- Tics
- Grimacing
- Echolalia
- Echopraxia
- Perseveration
- Verbigeration
- Staring
- Withdrawal
- Immobility
- Challenging behaviour
- Tremor
- Slowness
- Amotivation
- Grasp reflex
- Mannerism
- Gaze fixation
- Choreoathetoid movements of the trunk and extremities
- Autonomic instability (during excitement)
- Cannot start actions
- Cannot stop actions (if during excitement episodes needs acute psychiatric care)
- Freezing
- Impulsivity
- Bizarre/psychotic
- Sleep problems
- Urinary or Fecal incontinence
- Odd gait
- Passivity
- Reversal of day and night
- Eyerolling
- Stiff muscles
- Catalepsy
- Physiological pillow
- Difficulty crossing lines
- Gegenhalten
- Mitgehen
- Mitmachen
- Ambitendency
- Rituals
The symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away over time.
Autism is always easily recognized.
Autism is considered rare and uncommon.
Was identified in 1932.
That is a really long one and is also the one I wanted to comment on the most in regards to writing any Autistic character in general, but especially Quaraun in particular. The second part of that list is very long and most of the words on it I have never heard before and do not know what they are, so will have to look up the meanings to find out what they are. They did provide links, which I think go to Wikipedia? Not sure. I have not checked the links yet to find out where they go to.
Because this one is so long, I think I need to divide it up by parts. Let's also put an outline around it so you know where these start and stop...
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
- a profound lack of affect or emotional contact with others
This is one of the ones I do not know what it means...
a profound lack of affect
What does that mean?
I tried Googling it and all I get back are results for "What is the Difference Between Affect and Effect?"
So I have no clue what this one means. What in the heck is "a profound lack of affect"?
The next part is:
emotional contact with others
Again, what does that mean?
Is it that whoever wrote this list has horrific grammar and the
"affect or" should not be there?
I'm thinking that whoever wrote this list made some type of error there and that the only way to determine what they mean is to remove the "affect or". So let's try that and see if maybe we can make some sense of this.
- a profound lack of emotional contact with others
This is very true. There is absolutely no one in my life who wants to show me any form of emotion at all, what so ever.
My dad is like a robot, completely devoid of any emotion at all, and my mom is an intensely violent, very volital, hot tempered, always screaming, non-stop yelling, getting into violent fights with everyone, spit fire hell cat ready to claw the eyes out of anyone (literally - she's attempted to do so to several people now.) She gets arrested for beating people in the head with bricks and stuff.
I don't think my dad has any emotions at all and I don't think my mom has any emotion other then extreme violent rage.
All three of my brothers have "turned off" as of April 10, 2015. Our cats were the only emotional support any of us had.
Our cats were the only friends we had. Without the cats me and my 3 brothers have no one. Since the kidnapping of the cats, and their heads being returned nailed to our do a month later, all 3 of my brothers have stopped talking.
None of them has smiled since April 10, 2015.
None of them has laughed since April 10, 2015.
None of them has barely said a full sentence since April 10, 2015.
That was almost 3 years ago.
My 3 brothers are intensely traumatized by what was done to their cats.
Our mother does not allow us to have friends.
I escaped the clan. Two of my brothers are still trapped in it. The cats were the only friends they had. Now they have no one.
Because I escaped the clan, I've not been allowed (by the clan) to have contact with my brothers.
My uncles run the clan. There is no love in any of them. Sex and money is all they know, all they do. Sell children for sex so they can have more money. Nothing else matters to them.
I've never had a Human friend before. I wouldn't know where to look for one.
- a profound lack of emotional contact with others
So, yes, this one is very true. There is a profound lack of emotional contact with others in my life. I don't know how I would go about finding some one to have emotional contact with.
My cats were the only friends and emotional support I've ever had. Evil men killed them. Now I have no one at all.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
- an intense wish for sameness in routines
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
- muteness or abnormality of speech
I had normal speech at first.
I was 8 when the shoot out happened between the Atwater clan and the Cyr clan. One of the Cyrs shoot a kid's eye out of his head. He was standing right beside me. The kid to the other side of me, my cousin Murphy... he had his head cut off July 2013. That big white cross at the corner of Cascade Rd and Ross Rd? That's what's left of him there.
At 14
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:a profound lack of affect or emotional contact with others
- fascination with manipulating objects
Does this mean line taking all 300,000 of my books off the shelf and lining them up from one end of my dad's apartment to the other, then putting then all back on the shelf?
Or like spending 10 or 12 hours sorting my many thousands of Crayola Big Boxes?
Or spending hours drawing thousands of circles in the sand on the beach, for all 7 miles of the beach?
Mixing paint colours on a palet for no reason, with absolutely no intention of painting anything, just doing it because I can watch paint colours mix and swirl for hours.
Squeezing playdough. Kinectic sand. Foam squish putty. Silly putty. Gelly tubes.
My current favorite toy is seen in nearly every one of my youtube videos: a 12" rainbow wand filled with oil and glitter. I flip it and twirl it for hours.
Or picking up every moonsnail on the beach even though the beach is 7 miles long and I went past my 10lb weight limit (doctors orders) many hours ago but I can't stop picking up moonsnails anyways.
Or spending 4 years gluing 2.5million marbles to my car? (started this at age 37...)
How about spending 8 years handsewing one hair at a time a 14 foot long mokomoko for an insanely over the top Lord Sesshomaru CosPlay?
Sitting on the beach, for hours on end, doing nothing but sifting sand through my fingers and being utterly fascinated with the sensation of the sand on my skin.
Collecting 5,000+ stuffed animals and teddy bears, and setting aside a day each week, to do nothing but hug every one of them. Sometimes doing it more then once a week, because I don't have any one to hug me and if I didn't have 5,000+ teddy bears I would never have felt a hug at all. (And this is recently added one, I actually started doing this one in my 40s. I used to have cats to hug every day. Actually, I used to hug each cat every hour of every day. I've only been amassing thousands of teddy bears to hug in the past 2 years since my cats were murdered.)
Bela: April 8, 2015 - 2 days before she was kidnapped. You are looking at a GIANT 30lb cat. Yep... that's the cat everyone used to talk about... the one people thought was a panther, you can how monster sized she was. She was bigger then a Cocker Spaniel.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
- high levels of visuo-spatial skills, but major learning difficulties in other areas
I have no clue what visuo-spatial skills means... off to ask Google...
...
Nope...
I still don't know what it means... I'll have to look into this more and come back to it later once I figure out what it means so I know how to translate it.
I am unable to tell you if I have this or not as I do not know what it is.
I can therefore also not tell you if Quaraun has it or not.
I will come back and edit this with a better answer once I've figured out what visuo-spatial skills means.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are
- attractive, alert and intelligent appearance (meaning does not physically look retarded even though they are)
Nope. I do not have any of the facial deformities normally associated with mental retardation.
Neither does Quaraun.
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
- mental retardation
As soon as people find out I have Autism, the first thing they say is: "Oh, so you must have a High IQ right?"
No. I high IQ is NOT a symptom of Autism.
A low IQ and mental retardation is a symptom of Autism.
So what is my IQ?
My general overall score of all topics combined, including ability to preform basic life skills is 75
My Reading, Writing, and Grammar score is 221 (highest score in the State of Maine - 3 colleges and MENSA all cross tested me, I scored 221 on each other their tests)
My Biology, Earth, and Nature Sciences is 138
Physics and Technical sciences 40
Maths 65
Those are the two highest IQ categories and the two lowest IQ categories, side by side so you can see the variation in range.
Everything else was in a 70 to 90 range.
You can see where my savant skills are, when you look at the two categories that ranked super high.
When my Writing score came back as 221, the school had me retake the test because they thought there must have been an error. When I came back with 221 the second time they decided I must have cheated so had me take it a 3rd time with a bunch of teachers gathered all around me to watch me do it.
When it came back 221 the 3rd time they called a college and asked them to come give me a different version of the test. It was still 221.
That college contacted yet another college. Still 221.
MENSA was contacted. It was still 221.
MENSA tried a different test. It was still 221.
Harvard University was contacted, they said it's one of the top 10 highest IQ scores of any category, ever in history; they said I could attend their college if I could pass the entrance tests... $33k per semester, all semesters, all the way to a PhD in English Literature... paid scholarship, because Harvard has a glut lust for any one with a mega high IQ ... IF I could pas the entrance examines... with a Math IQ of 65 and a Physics IQ of 40, and an overall IQ of 75, I can not pass their entrance tests, in spite of an IQ of 221 in Writing, Reading, and Grammar.
THIS is what a high IQ in Autism looks like.
It is NOT an overall high IQ... it is one super mega high IQ in ONE SINGLE TOPIC ONLY, with an abnormally mega low IQ in every other topic.
This is Savant Autism.
I am very, very, very, very good at one topic and one topic only and mentally retarded in every other area.
I published my first book, at the age of 3 years old, by the way.
My Spelling IQ is 75 by the way. I can't spell worth shit, but I can write. Boy can I ever write. You probably noticed that some few tens of thousands of words ago.
If you've read the Quaraun books, you see this in him as well. He can read and write far above and beyond everyone around him. He can sew elaborate costumes (as can I) and he knows the word of plants and animals inside out and can name every plant and bird he sees... as can I...
Like me, Quaraun is well versed in Necromancy and Voodoo (I'm a Voodoo Priestess rank of Mesden Fey Marija Loa to Damballa Wedo, by the way)...
Quaraun by the way is an ACTUAL Necromancer (also known as a Medium) by the real world definition of the word and NOT the Fantasy definition of the word... meaning he talks to dead spirits, communicates to ghosts, etc. as opppsed to resurecting zombies and building undead armies.
One of the complaints a few readers had with the series was they thought he was a fantasy style necromancer so they expected him to be doing dark bloody rituals, digging up graves and creating undead minions... they were not aware he was a Necromancer, like in the real world and spends his days staring into crystal balls asking questions to dead people for clients. Which, I also do, in case you were wondering... I do the whole card reading, ouji boards, pendulums, etc thing, which is why I have Quaraun doing it. It goes back to me writing what I know.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
Okay, so we've reached the 2nd half of the list. The part that has links. I'm glad they put links in this, so I can hopefully find out what each of these things means, because most of the stuff on this list I have no clue what it is.
Stupor... I don't know what that means. Let's click the link and see where it goes...
Stupor (From Latin stupere, "be stunned or amazed") is the lack of critical mental function and a level of consciousness wherein a sufferer is almost entirely unresponsive and only responds to base stimuli such as pain. Those in a stuporous state are rigid, mute and only appear to be conscious, as the eyes are open and follow surrounding objects.
... a catatonic stupor
Ah! Yes. I do know what this is.
Catatonia, aka the waking coma, which I mentioned at some point in this article, though I don't know now which page it ended up on as I've had to cut this article into smaller parts due to it having gotten so long.
No. I do not have this and neither does Quaraun.
I once meet a person who had this. It's a somewhat shocking thing to see.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
Now this one I know and have. And Quaraun has it as well.
I can and do, go days, sometimes weeks on end without saying a word.
I have Selective Mutism as well. Which means I'll be in the middle of talking and my brain, suddenly and without my permission, turns my vocal cords off and refuses to allow sound to come out of my mouth.
You see it on several of my YouTube vlogs.
I'm alone. Me and the camera. No one else. I can talk more or less normally.
Then, someone walks up to me and BOOM, my voice is completly gone. It's like a vacumme cleaner hose suddenly went down my throat and sucked out my voice and ran away with it, and left me struggling for air and not able to breath.
You know how in the Little Mermaid the Witch takes the mermaid's voice and no matter how much she tries to talk, she can't. It's just like that.
The person leaves and BOOM, my voice comes back, and I pick up talking to the camera like nothing happened.
There are exactly 7 people with whom I am able to talk to face to face without any trouble at all.
In college I could talk to teachers one on one after class, but could not talk to teachers during class while sitting in class. I could not talk to students at all in class or outside of class.
In public situations, such as attending a Convention, my ability to talk is somewhat in the middle - I CAN talk, but it's stuttered or slurred.
When talking to MOST people, I have episodes where I get stuck on a word and can't get past it... it sounds like this...
"It, it, it, it, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, sounds, llllllll.... li. li. li. liiiiiiii. lik. k. k.k .k .k. k. k. k. k. like... like... th... th... thi... thi... thiss... THIS!"
This is a language tic.
Now Quaraun doesn't do it in the novels, but GhoulSpawn does. GhoulSpawn often has trouble getting to the end of a sentence without getting stuck on a word half way through.
How does GhoulSpawn stop the stuck word and get past it? The same way I do.... grab a book and wallop himself in the side of the head. It reset his brain and lets him finish the sentence.
Why?
I have no clue.
It's like, my brain is a record player and the needle got stuck in a scratch and is just skipping and repeating the same word. When that happens you give the record player a shake, the arm bumps up over the scratch and song finishes playing.
My brain does the same damned thing and I don't know why.
I'm in the middle of talking,talking, talking, talking, talking ...slam myself in the head with a book... and now I can finish the damn sentence.
I don't know why my brain sometimes gets stuck on a word or why jostling my brain makes it reset and moves on like nothing happened.
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
I have this on some levels, but it's not to the point of my ever being diagnose with ADD/ADHD.
One of my brothers had ADHD as a child but it lessened with age. He still has it but it's kind of "stabilized".
He was a runner. And a climber.
At 2 years old, if you couldn't find him... run to the farthest and tallest tree from the house and look up, usually the giant pine about a 1/4 mile away, he was probably up there in the top some 50 to 60 feet up. Giggling, laughing hysterically, and at about 20 feet up he'd jump screaming "catch me! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"
If you woke up in the middle of the night to Thumptiy, Thump, Thump... that would be my brother, 3 years old, on the roof of the house, throwing firewood down the chimney.
Age 4 at doctor's office, nurse calls his name: "Ha ha! You can't catch me!" he laughs as he rips his cloths off and runs naked out the building and into the parking lot... 2 hours, several miles, and many exhausted adults later, he's finally caught and dragged to his appointment.
6 years old, we are in the ER, explaining to the doctor how it is my brother came to have a piece of wood, about an inch in diameter, skewered through his foot.
"He jumped of the roof into the wood pile..."
"Why was he on the roof?"
"He has ADHD..."
"Oooooooh!" Doctor nods. "I have one of those."
Same brother, now 27 years old. PokemonGo addict. Walks 16 miles a day to catch them all. If you can't find him... there's an old mill... giant 1800s brick factory, Pepperal Mill, if you live in Biddeford, you know it and it's famous 75 foot tall smoke stack. Several hundred rooms, a building that covers more then a mile. 5 stories tall. Can't find my brother. On the back of that mill, hanging over the Saco River, there's a ladder to scare the bravest of men shitless... go climb it... you'll find my brother on the roof of the mill, frantically catching Pokemon.
You know how I found him? He didn't come home one day. Whole family went into a panic. Every one was pacing his known Pokemon rought. I'm walking by the mill. I stop and point to the 75 foot tall smoke stack and comment:
"Boy I'm glad he got over his climbing thing."
We continue on a few feet. I stop walking. I look at my other brother whose with me. We both look up at that massive 75 foot tall chimney.
"I ain't climbing up that" he says shaking his head.
"Here, watch Marcy," I hand him my dog.
I'm scared of hieghts. But 20 minutes later... I'm looking down over the entire city of Biddeford, and there's my brother....waaaaaay up there.
"Watcha doing up here?"
He answers in hyper mile a minute speed...
"There's-Pokemon-everywhere! I-gotta-get'em-all. They're rare ones! No one has these. Look! I've got..." he starts listing them off in giddy hyper excitement... "I've caught 25 in the last hour, they're every where up here!"
His eyes are round with the wild ADHD gleeful mania of the discovery of a Pokemon goldmine hiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh over the top of Biddeford.
I've known several people with varying levels of hyperness, but my brother has everybody else beat. He can make other people with ADHD look calm. And he still runs. You still can't catch him.
He has an actual diagnosis from a doctor.
That's something I've noticed that's different with him than with others. Most people SAY they have ADHD, but most also say they are self diagnosed.
Now my brother, he has an actual diagnosis and medication for it and stuff. He acts REALLY, EXTREMELY different from people who say they self diagnosed themselves.
Most times wen people say they have ADHD, my response is: "Really? You don't act like it." And then they say "Well, I took this test online and it says I have it..."
No... I grew up with someone who ACTUALLY has ADHD, I guarantee, no online test is needed to tell if you have it.
He could run none stop for hours and... it wasn't like he was running because he wanted too... he couldn't control it, and he would literally run until he collapsed from exhaustion.
From age 2 to about age 15 or so... he did this weird thing, where, if he was required to sit down for a long period of time (for example going to church services) as soon as he was allowed to move, he'd jump up, let out a loud whooping yell, then start running, and just run back and forth, really, really, really, wicked, super fast. Scream again, Wave his arms frantically in the air, Scream a few more times. Continue running like a mad man. Stop to kick a few walls. Jump up on tables and chairs, Continue running. Climb up on the roof. Frantically run some more. Jump back down on the ground. Run circles around the building. Kick a few doors. Scream again. Run out to the parking lot. Jump up on the car, Yell at the top of his lungs. Run frantically as if his life depended on it to the nearest tree. Climb to the top. Scream again.
After a half hour or so of that, he'd come back, acting calm and normal again and say:
"There, I got it out."
When asked why he did it, he'd say:
"I don't know. I just had to get it out of me. I was gonna burst if I didn't."
For a short while the doctor thought he might have also had Toureets, but, then he said, "No. It's just ADHD. He's just more hyper then most."
People talk about childhood temper tantrums... well... have you ever seen a ADHD meltdown? Imagine 10 Autistic children all having a meltdown at once, put them on stedoids, and you still haven't got anything even close to an ADHD meltdown.
But the time a 5 year old with an ADHD meltdown is over: every glass item in the house will be smashed, ever doll will have it's head ripped off, every item of clothen owned by everybody in the family will be torn to itty bitty pieces, all the windows will be smashed out of the house, most of the furniture will have the stuffing ripped out, and the only reason it will have stopped, is because he finally threw himself on the floor, held his breath until he turned purple and passed out.
And it wasn't because he wanted anything or was angry, it wasn't a temper tantrum and he had no control over it... at times it seemed to terrify him, as though he was trying to stop, but was being thrown around by outside forces ... it was a result of sensory over stimulation.
And then, after, when you ask him: why did you do it, he shrugs and says "I don't know. It was like there was a monster inside of my trying to get out. I couldn't stop it, I tried, but it wouldn't stop no matter what I did."
(Several people who saw it, said it looked like demon possession, and our mother actually took to calling in exorcists to cast out demons. Several different priests came over the years to cast out "his demon".)
As it turned out... playing music too loud triggered it... our mother had a habit of playing music on mega loud speakers to annoy the Cyrs next door (which is why I'm almost deaf; she daily played music full blast and damaged my ear drums; my mom and the Cyrs have a viscous, often violent feud going on, but I don't know why it started before I was born so I've never known what they are fighting about; before the 1990s they used to shoot at each other; my mom's kind of crazy)... but the music triggered something in his brain... it was described by the doctor as being similar to epilepsy.
An ADHD meltdown has more in common with an epileptic seizure then a temper tantrum, which I didn't know until I saw one happen. And if you've never seen an ADHD meltdown in person, you can't even begin to imagine how bad they can get.
The meltdowns went away after around 12 years old. Replaced by pacing.
Pacing.
He can not sit down to eat, and carries his meal in a bowl, eating while he walks from one end of his apartment to the other.
He can not use a computer because he can not sit down long enough, and so instead has one of those computer-type cell phones so he can browse the internet while he walks from room to room.
Soon as he tries to sit down his feet start tapping and moving in place. His hands started grabbing and touching everything.
He got a treadmill so he could walk in place while doing things that he needs to be stationary for.
When trying to find his first job, he took job placement tests to match your ideal job to your personality, he scored high in fast food places where he could be on his feet and constantly moving around. So that's the job he went looking for. His first job was at a fast food place... he's still there, he loves it... he can walk all day long, chatter obsessively with his co-workers and the customers in a steady non-stop hyper chatter; he now trains the new people there; he will likely stay there forever and work his way up to management, as the hyper fast environment suits his hyper need for movement.
So, while I have some mild hyperactivity, I've never considered myself a hyper person, because I've seen first hand what ADHD is like and I'm nothing like that at all.
As such, Quaraun is not portrayed as being hyperactive.
However, his Unicorn is excessively hyper. Unicorn very clearly has ADHD on extreme levels. Like my brother, Unicorn has random outbursts of screaming and running around the room kicking things for no reason at all, other then he "has to get it out."
Unicorn is rarely shown as stopping to sit or rest. When other characters stop to rest, Unicorn is described as "pacing circles around the outer edge of the camp".
When Quaraun forces Unicorn to sit down, Unicorn starts poking Quaraun with his finger or grabs a stick and starts poking the fire, or starts throwing rocks at GhoulSpawn.
When the group is walking/hiking, Unicorn is often described as "trotting far ahead of the group, then galloping back as fast as he could, running past them, swinging back around and running back ahead of them again, whinnying like rabid pony as he went."
Upon passing a Human village, Unicorn is frequently described as "galloping wildly into the village, stabbing people with his horn as he went, stamping his hooves on children, and prancing merrily on the entrails of his victims". When asked by one of the group, why he does this to every Human village they past, he replies: "It must be done. I can'na not does it."
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The first known case of Autism was Victor de l'Aveyron, a feral child discovered living in the forest, had grown up without any form of human contact, and never spoke in 1801 by French physician Jean Marc Gaspard Itard.
Prior to the 1970s it was assumed that ALL Autistic children were "feral children" whom had been serverly neglected and or abused and had on some levels raised themselves without the normal guidance of a parent.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 are reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism to any child that can not also be considered "a Feral Child", thus why ACTUAL Autism diagnosis are so rare.
I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
- Supervisory neglect: characterized by the absence of a parent or guardian. (My mother attended 15 different churches of as many denominations, she spent up to 15 hours a day, up to 5 days a week, in church buildings - I was either left in the care of my sexually abusive uncles/her brothers, or left to hide in the Ross Forest, thus how I came to spend most of my days with the local hermit known as Etiole.)
- Physical neglect: characterized by the failure to provide the basic physical necessities, such as a safe and clean home; (I often went days between meals, was not allowed to eat at the table, often had to fight 8 large dogs for my food, and was frequently kept locked in a room that had ledge "floor", 1 inch wide spaces between roof boards allowing rain and snow to come in, had boards nailed over the windows, had more then a dozen padlocks on the door, and boards full if 8" long nails was left on the floor [see photos of the room here] Being locked in this room was often a form of punishment for such "crimes" as saying "I'm hungry, can I have something to eat.")
- Medical neglect: characterized by the lack of providing medical care; (I was taken to a pediatric from birth to age 8; between 8 and 31 I was allowed to go to the emergency room 8 times; during those years I suffered 7 miscarriage, multiple injuries, and many serious infections, none of which I was allowed to go to the hospital for. Because of the state of the room I was kept looked in [see photos here] I new suffer from "stacibotrin poisoning" and have crippling life-long respiratory and sinus problems)
- Emotional neglect: characterized by a lack of nurturance, encouragement and support; (Asking for a hug was punishable by being beaten with one of the boards full of nails; not being able to recite the books of the Bible and Book of Mormon fast enough could result in not food for a week; forgetting to say my hourly prayers, could result in being sold to one of the Saco ward LDS church high priests as his sex slave for the day.)
- Educational neglect: characterized by the caregivers lack to provide an education and additional resources to actively participate in the school system; (My mother removed me from school at the age of 8 on grounds of "The government controls the school, Satan controls the government, no child off mine will be taken by Satan.")
- Abandonment: when the parent or guardian leaves a child alone for a long period of time without a babysitter. (I was frequently -3 to 5 days a week -left looked in the car during hot summer evenings for upto 12 hours to a time, while my mother did karaoke in bars with her sister Barbie Jean)
I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
- Supervisory neglect: characterized by the absence of a parent or guardian. (My mother attended 15 different churches of as many denominations, she spent up to 15 hours a day, up to 5 days a week, in church buildings - I was either left in the care of my sexually abusive uncles/her brothers, or left to hide in the Ross Forest, thus how I came to spend most of my days with the local hermit known as Etiole.)
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
- Physical neglect: characterized by the failure to provide the basic physical necessities, such as a safe and clean home; (I often went days between meals, was not allowed to eat at the table, often had to fight 8 large dogs for my food, and was frequently kept locked in a room that had ledge "floor", 1 inch wide spaces between roof boards allowing rain and snow to come in, had boards nailed over the windows, had more then a dozen padlocks on the door, and boards full if 8" long nails was left on the floor [see photos of the room here] Being locked in this room was often a form of punishment for such "crimes" as saying "I'm hungry, can I have something to eat.")
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
- Medical neglect: characterized by the lack of providing medical care; (I was taken to a pediatric from birth to age 8; between 8 and 31 I was allowed to go to the emergency room 8 times; during those years I suffered 7 miscarriage, multiple injuries, and many serious infections, none of which I was allowed to go to the hospital for. Because of the state of the room I was kept looked in [see photos here] I new suffer from "stacibotrin poisoning" and have crippling life-long respiratory and sinus problems)
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
- Emotional neglect: characterized by a lack of nurturance, encouragement and support; (Asking for a hug was punishable by being beaten with one of the boards full of nails; not being able to recite the books of the Bible and Book of Mormon fast enough could result in not food for a week; forgetting to say my hourly prayers, could result in being sold to one of the Saco ward LDS church high priests as his sex slave for the day.)
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
- Educational neglect: characterized by the caregivers lack to provide an education and additional resources to actively participate in the school system; (My mother removed me from school at the age of 8 on grounds of "The government controls the school, Satan controls the government, no child off mine will be taken by Satan.")
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
- Abandonment: when the parent or guardian leaves a child alone for a long period of time without a babysitter. (I was frequently -3 to 5 days a week -left looked in the car during hot summer evenings for upto 12 hours to a time, while my mother did karaoke in bars with her sister Barbie Jean)
TRUE Autism is caused by being born with a genetic mutation which triggers compulsive overcompensation techniques as a way to deal with extreme, abnormal, and excessive early age child abuse. The most common trigger is toddler rape by adults, sexual abuse, and child sex slavery.
Child sexual abuse (CSA) is a form of child abuse in which an adult or older adolescent abuses a child for sexual stimulation.
Sexual abuse refers to the participation of a child in a sexual act aimed toward the physical gratification or the financial profit of the person committing the act.
Forms of CSA include asking or pressuring a child to engage in sexual activities (regardless of the outcome), indecent exposure of the genitals to a child, displaying pornography to a child, actual sexual contact with a child, physical contact with the child's genitals, viewing of the child's genitalia without physical contact, or using a child to produce child pornography. Selling the sexual services of children may be viewed and treated as child abuse rather than simple incarceration.
Persons with ACTUAL Autism often display several of the following side effects of child sexual abuse:
- guilt and self-blame
- flashbacks
- nightmares
- insomnia
- fear of things associated with the abuse (including objects, smells, places, doctor's visits, etc.)
- self-esteem difficulties
- sexual dysfunction
- chronic pain
- addiction
- self-injury
- suicidal ideation
- somatic complaints
- depression
- post-traumatic stress disorder
- anxiety
- other mental illnesses including borderline personality disorder and dissociative identity disorder
- propensity to re-victimization in adulthood
- bulimia nervosa
Children who are the victims are also at an increased risk of sexually transmitted infections due to their immature immune systems and a high potential for mucosal tears during forced sexual contact.
In the United States, approximately 15% to 25% of women and 5% to 15% of men were sexually abused when they were children.
- Most sexual abuse offenders are acquainted with their victims;
- approximately 30% are relatives of the child, most often brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, uncles or cousins;
- around 60% are other acquaintances such as friends of the family, babysitters, or neighbours;
- strangers are the offenders in approximately 10% of child sexual abuse cases.
- In over one-third of cases, the perpetrator is also a minor.
The uncles who raised me are currently wanted by and on the run from the FBI.
An increase in children having Autism = an increase in children being raped, molested, and sexually abused by a caregiver before reaching the age of 3.
Yes, because of what the ACTUAL causes of ACTUAL Autism are, if your child REALLY DOES have ACTUAL Autism...
you are one hell of a horrible, shitty, no good son of bitch, bastard of a parent and you should be in prison where your neglectful, self-serving, sexually depraved, child abusing ass belongs.
You might want to think about THAT next time you go around bragging "I self diagnosed my child as Autistic."
As many as 60% of all Autistics are catatonic... meaning they were abused so bad that their brain shut down, forcing them into a "waking coma" as a way to not see the abuse any longer.
Asperger’s Syndrome shares with Autism:
- a severe and sustained impairment in social interaction
- restricted and repetitive patterns of behaviour and interests.
But people with Asperger’s do not have:
- the significant delays in language, cognition, self-help skills or adaptive behaviour that are typical in autism
Aspies are:
- often physically clumsy and awkward, more obviously than children with classic Autism
Asperger’s is often not recognized easily or early, and may be misdiagnosed as:
- Tourette’s Syndrome
- Attention Deficit Disorder
- Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
- Oppositional Defiance Disorder
- Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
As with Autism, the disorder is lifelong and symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away with time.
Asperger's is considered prevalent and very common.
Was identified in 1944, but was not recognized by doctors as an actual diagnosis until 1994.
Gifted Introverts are shy people with high IQs (an IQ of 130 or higher).
While socially awkward, they do not have the speech issues, ritualistic behaviors, or other symptoms of either Autism or Aspergers.
Many gifted, but introverted children are inaccurately diagnosed as having Aspergers when they in fact do not have it.
Gifted Children have a very high IQ of 130 or higher.
On the other hand, ACTUAL Aspies rarely have high IQs.
Most Aspergers people have a low IQ that is only slightly higher then the IQs of Autistics, usually in the range of 75 to 90.
High Functioning Aspergers are uncommon to rare, and most of them having normal/average IQs of between 90 to 120.
Autism equaling a high IQ is an urban myth spread by internet memes and is NOT an actual symptom of either Autism or Aspergers.
Aspies are more likely then not to have a low IQ in the range of 75 to 90.
Autistics rarely have an IQ above 75.
True Autism, ACTUAL Autism, is defined as "a psychosis caused by extreme psychological trauma in early childhood, often of a sexual nature".
Psychological trauma is a type of damage to the mind that occurs as a result of a severely distressing event. Trauma is often the result of an overwhelming amount of stress that exceeds one's ability to cope, or integrate the emotions involved with that experience. A traumatic event involves one's experience, or repeating events of being overwhelmed that can be precipitated in weeks, years, or even decades as the person struggles to cope with the immediate circumstances, eventually leading to serious, long-term negative consequences.
Trauma can be caused by a wide variety of events, but there are a few common aspects. There is frequently a violation of the person's familiar ideas about the world and their human rights, putting the person in a state of extreme confusion and insecurity. This is also seen when institutions that are depended upon for survival, violate, humiliate, betray, or cause major losses or separations.
Psychologically traumatic experiences often involve physical trauma that threatens one's survival and sense of security. Typical causes and dangers of psychological trauma include harassment, embarrassment, abandonment, abusive relationships, rejection, co-dependence, physical assault, sexual abuse, partner battery, employment discrimination, police brutality, judicial corruption and misconduct, bullying, paternalism, domestic violence, indoctrination, being the victim of an alcoholic parent, the threat or the witnessing of violence (particularly in childhood), life-threatening medical conditions, and medication-induced trauma.
Catastrophic natural disasters such as earthquakes and volcanic eruptions, large scale transportation accidents, house or domestic fire, motor vehicle accident, mass interpersonal violence like war, terrorist attacks or other mass tortures like sex trafficking, being taken as a hostage or kidnapped can also cause psychological trauma. Long-term exposure to situations such as extreme poverty or milder forms of abuse, such as verbal abuse, exist independently of physical trauma but still generate psychological trauma.
If your child has REAL, ACTUAL Autism, it means he suffered one of the above listed events prior to the age of 3 years old.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 believe that an Autistic person, is a person who was born with Aspergers, but whom suffered such horrendous abuse prior to the age of 3, that, their brain triggered over compensation methods to cope with the extreme abuse they were subjected to.
Because of this, Aspergers and Autism are considered by many to be two different forms of the same disorder, but that Aspergers does not become Autism unless it also has the severe early childhood sexual abuse to trigger it.
Because of the severe nature of the levels of sexual abuse required to trigger the Autism component of Asperger's, when a child is ACTUALLY diagnosed with REAL Autism, they are also immediately put into state custody and removed from their parents/guardian's care, and criminal charges are then filed against the parent/guardian.
If your child was not taken away from you at the time of diagnosis, and you did not have sexual abuse charged filed against you by the state, then your child was NOT diagnosed with ACTUAL Autism.
Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism) is listed as a Psychosis and is therefore a mental illness.
It is considered to be caused by a genetic birth defect, which triggers an imbalance of the synapses, when a person suffering from this birth defect, is subjected to sexual abuse.
Doctors and Pediatrics can not legally diagnose Autism because they can not legally diagnose mental illnesses.
Your child can only receive an ACTUAL Autism diagnoses by a Psychiatrist specially trained in severe cases of early childhood sexual trauma.
In spite of untrained teachers, caregivers, social workers, and parents tossing around the "diagnosis" of Autism... to the rate of calling 1 in every 3 children Autistic...
...Autism remains one of the most difficult diagnoses to get diagnosed with, due to the fact doctors are reluctant to risk being sued for false charges of sexual abuse of the child, should it later be discovered the child had not been sexually abused and therefore does NOT have Autism.
Only 1 in 10,000 children are ever ACTUALLY diagnosed with Autism, by someone ACTUALLY TRAINED in recognizing this level of early childhood sexual abuse trauma.
Because Kanner's Syndrome aka ACTUAL Autism is so rare, fewer then 20% of all doctors are trained in how to recognize, diagnose, or treat it.
If your doctor diagnoses your child with "Autism" - get a new doctor immediately, as they are not trained in Autism well enough to know there is no actual medical diagnoses of "Autism" because there is no disease, illness, or disorder that actually has the medical name "Autism".
Both Aspergers and Autism are considered to be "types" of Schizophrenia.
Contrary to popular urban myths spread by ill informed parents and patients, both Autism and Aspergers are mental illnesses and can only be treated by psychiatrists. Family Practitioners and Pediatricians are not legally licensed to treat or diagnose either Aspergers or Autism. Beware of any one who says otherwise.
Unlike most mental illnesses, Aspergers and Autism are disorders you are born with. You can not "get" them. Once activated, they do not lesson, get better, or go away with time.
Similar to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, both Aspergers and Autism require traumatic stress to "activate" the genes the child was born with. Once activated, they do not turn back off.
Both Aspergers and Autism are also known as "Childhood Onset Schizophrenia".
The difference in the diagnoses, and the severity of the symptoms, is typically a result of the age of onset.
Autism is when the genes are triggered in early childhood before the age of 3. Because of the early onset, Autism is the most physically crippling and disabling type of Schizophrenia. There are no known treatments.
Aspergers is when the genes are triggered in late childhood often around the age of 14. Because of the later onset, many Aspies are able to live independent and functional lives. Diet and lifestyle are considered to help, though this is only speculation.
Schizophrenia is when the genes are triggered in adulthood after the age of 20. Late onset Schizophrenia is often treated with medication, though there is much debate in the medical world as the usefulness of this approach.
Still think you know what Autism is?
I am 1 of the 1 in 10,000 people who has REAL, ACTUAL Autism.
I do not have more then 90% of the symptoms "commonly attributed to Autisim", because most of those symptoms are urban myths made up by fans of Sheldon Cooper and are not real symptoms of REAL Autism.
Find out what it is like to live with REAL Autism here.
Find out why 80% of people claiming to be Autistic are not here:
Autism, Asperger's, And The Danger of The Self-Diagnosis
If You Are Going To Write An Autistic Character...
Then Write An Autistic Character,
NOT Someone With Self-Diagnosed Aspergers
Self-Diagnosed Aspergers Is NOT Autism
It is Aspergers either.
It is a FICTIONAL disease, created by fans of Sheldon Cooper.
Know The Difference.
Keep in mind that MOST of what you find posted on the internet as "Symptoms of Asperger's" is written by self-diagnosed Aspies, and is VASTLY different from what the ACTUAL, clinical symptoms are.
Remember:
Autism is very rare, only 1 in 10,000 children ACTUALLY have it.
Getting a diagnosis of Autism is next to impossible.
Parents who push their doctors to look for Autism in their child, are rarely aware that they are asking their doctor to look for sex abuse done by a parent.
Aspergers is fairly uncommon, only 1 in 400 children ACTUALLY have it.
Yet 1 in ever 3 children is self diagnosed (by themselves or a parent) as being an "Aspie".
Autism Spectrum Disorder in far more common with 1 in 64 children having it. (This means, 1 in every 64 children, have one of the illnesses o the list below)
There are more then 60 illnesses, which are commonly miss-self-diagnosed as Aspergers:
Can You List all Of The Autism Spectrum Disorders?
Most People Can Only List 5 of Them
There Are More Then 60 Disorders "On The Autism Spectrum" Including Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, Schizophrenia, Threadworm Infestation, and having had a Stroke.
Did you know that?
Autism Is A Rare Illness
Only 1 in 10,000 ACTUALY Have Autism
Yet 1 in 3 People Self Diagnose Themselves As "Aspergers Type of Autism"
Only Problem Is Aspergers Is Not A Type Of Autism
Aspergers Is One Of More Then 60 Illnesses Known As "The Autism Spectrum Disorders"
An ASD Is An Illness That Is NOT Autism, But Displays Autistic-Like Symptoms
80% of All People Claiming To Be "Autistic Aspies" Actually Have One of The Illnesses on This List Instead:
Here Are The Autism Spectrum Disorders
(Illnesses commonly misdiagnosed as Autism & which 80% of self diagnosed Aspies ACTUALLY have)
- Abnormal Fear Structure
- Alzheimer Disease
- Angelman Syndrome
- Anxiety disorders
- Aphasia
- Asperger syndrome
- Attention Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder, or AD/HD
- Auditory Processing Disorder
- Avoidant Personality Disorder
- Bipolar disorder
- Bi-Polar Affective Disorder
- Candida Albicans.
- Carnitine Deficiency
- Celiac's Disease
- Childhood Disintegrative Disorder
- Chromosome 15 inverted duplication
- Chromosome 17 trisomy mosaicism
- Chromosome 18, Monosomy 18p
- Chromosome 18p minus syndrome
- Chromosome 19 ring syndrome
- Chromosome 1q21.1 Deletion Syndrome
- Chromosome 2, monosomy 2q37
- Chromosome 20, deletion 20p
- Chromosome 20p deletion syndrome
- Cocaine use during pregnancy
- Cocktail Party Speech Syndrome
- Concentration Disorder
- Congenital Rubella Syndrome
- Cornelia de Lange Syndrome
- DAS "Developmental Apraxia of Speech"
- Deafness
- Defiant Disorder
- Del(1) (pter-p35)
- Deletion 20p
- Developmental Verbal Dyspraxia (apraxia)
- Down’s Syndrome
- Epilepsy
- Fetal Alcohol Effect
- Fragile X Syndrome
- Galactosemia
- Heckenlively syndrome
- Heller's Disease
- Hyperlexia
- Hypomelanosis of Ito
- Intellectual Disability
- Intermittent Explosive Disorder
- Irlen Syndrome/Scotopic Sensitivity Syndrome (SSS)
- Klinefelter Syndromes
- Lactic Acidosis
- Landau-Kleffner Syndrome
- Lead poisoning
- Lesch-Nyhan Syndrome
- Manic Depression
- Mental retardation
- Mesenteric adenitis
- Microdeletion 3q29
- Migraine
- Mild traumatic brain injury (MTBI)
- Monosomy 20p
- Mucopolysaccharidoses (MPS)
- Narcissistic Personality Disorder
- Neurofibromatosis
- Nonverbal learning disorder
- Normal Pressure Hydrocephalus (NPH)
- Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD)
- Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder (OCPD)
- PDD-NOS "Pervasive Development Disorder/Not Otherwise Specified"
- Phenylketonuria
- Porphyria
- Post-concussive brain injury
- Prosopagnosia
- PTEN Hamartoma Tumor Syndrome
- Reactive Attachment Disorder
- Receptive Developmental Dysphasia
- Rett Syndrome
- Schizo Effective Personality Disorder
- Schizoid Personality Disorder
- Schizotypal Personality Disorder
- Schizophrenia
- Selective mutism
- Semantic Pragmatic Disorder or SPD
- Sensory processing disorder
- Sleep Disorder
- Smith-Magenis Syndrome
- Social anxiety disorder
- Spacial Planning Disorder
- Static Encephalopathy
- Stereotypic movement disorder
- Stroke -- Undiagnosed
- Tardive Dyskinesia
- Threadworm infestation
- Tourette’s Syndrome
- Tuberous Sclerosis
- Turner's syndrome
- Unspecified Neurodevelopmental Disorder
- WAGR Syndrome
- William’s Syndrome
- Wilms tumor
- Wilsons Disease
Some of the illnesses on that list are extremely life threatening if left untreated.
Most parents who self-diagnose their child, do so with out ever looking at ANY alternative. Many of these mothers are later diagnosed with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television", with 40% of children between the ages of 12 and 18, admitting they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and 60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children stating they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"... The horrible reality is Autism always has been and still is very rare, with only 1 in 10,000 children actually having it (also the correct medical name for Autism is Kanner's Syndromn and if you child has REAL Autism, the doctor NEVER says "your child has Autism" but rather says "your child has Kanner's Syndrom").
In spite of the fact that Autism (Kanners Syndrome) is a very rare BIRTH DEFECT caused by mutated genes, and effects only 1 in every 10,000 people, as many as 1 in 3 people currently claim to have Autism.
These facts make me feel sad for all the REAL Autistics and their parents, because the fact remains there are a lot of fakers out there and they don't realize how hard they make it for those of us with real Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare, and very crippling birth defect that is in no way, shape or form, related to Aspergers or Autism Spectrum Disorder.
To know Autism better, it is best to look at real life people who actually have it.
The World's Most Famous Autistic Person: Liberace:
Liberace was noted for:
- having a very low IQ
- as a child was not considered smart enough to attend school
- speech impediments
- difficulty talking
- the ability to play by ear any song on the piano he heard from the age of 3
- was born disabled but almost no one knew this as he hid his disabilities
- had bone and joint issues, causing him to frequently fall, resulting in him often falling on stage, then turning it into a comedy skit... most people thought it was an act, few people were aware of his disability
- multiple serious physical ailments which had him frequently hospitalized every few weeks of his entire life from childhood throughout his adult years
- his extremely cheerful docile demeanor,
- his alarming inability to be made angry (even when his mother was kidnapped and held hostage by a gang of gay-haters)
- being the first man to wear pink on TV
- having 300 rhinestone suites
- having 200 capes
- having 36 dogs, 2 elephants, and dozens of other pets, all rescues
- buying dozens of abandoned buildings and rebuilding them into massive apartment housing complexes for the homeless, giving tens of thousands of homeless people places to live and jobs to provide for their families, without any background checks or judgement
- giving 100s scholarships out each year to disadvantaged, homeless, minority, and coloured children
- being America's first billionaire (his income was $32,000 a day in 1952)
- being the wealthiest man in the world from 1968 to 1987
- in spite of being a billionaire, his estate had very little money at the time of his death, because in the months before he died it went into hyper donate to every one every where mode, but never telling anyone he did it and it was not discovered until his relatives fought his estate for billions after his death, only to find the money was gone
- starting more charity groups then any other celebrity to date
- being the first feather dancer in LasVegas (yes, he invented feather dancing; and yes the first LasVegas show girl was actually a man - this man)
- inventing synchronized water display systems
- inventing the art car (he built 64 of them)
- being the first openly gay celebrity
- being the first openly bi-sexual/polyamorous celebrity (he had 5 girlfriends and 1 male lover whom he was rarely seen without)
- he never married because laws prevented him from marrying all 6 of his lovers
- was the first person in America to die from AIDS, his death inspired most of the AIDS cure research groups that now exist today
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Liberace's kind loving, gentle, childlike nature, his very low IQ, his savant skills in music and cooking, his addictions to all things pink and glitter, his speech disorders (see the videos to hear it in the interviews), his love of animals, his obsessive hoarding problem (watch him trying to squeeze through massive mega hoarding piles of his collections in his house in the family and friends interview below) and his desire to help everyone he meet, are all ACTUAL SYMPTOMS of both Autism and Aspergers.
People who look at Liberace, his glitter, his bright colours, his eye poping pinks, his giddy childlike manner, and often say stuff like...
"But 1 in 3 children have Autism and you don't see 1 in 3 people acting like Liberace. Almost no one dresses or acts like him..."
Ah!
That's what THIS page is for. Go read Part 2: On Writing Autistic Characters Accurately: Autism, Asperger's, And The Danger of The Self-Diagnosis, which explains why it is, 1 in 3 children "have Autism" while only 1 in 10,000 people dress and act like Liberace.
The short answer is this:
- ACTUAL Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children
- Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed
- ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose
- 1 in 64 children are diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, which is different then all of the ones listed above
The fact of the matter is, Autism always has been and still is a very rare disorder and Asperger's is markedly different from Autism, and self-diagnosed Aspergers is different then either Autism or Aspergers.
When you meet someone with Autism... REAL Autism... you are gonna know it. You are not going to say to yourself:
"Hmmm maybe they might possibly have Autism"...
No, you a gonna say:
"OMG! What the freaking hell is wrong with that person, did you see how they were dressed? Did you hear how they talked? They are dancing around chasing butterflies like a 2 year old! What the freaking hell? They are so bizarre!"
If you can get a person with Autism to talk, you are gonna notice, they have a very distinctive voice. They all have it. Every single one of us. Don't know what is sounds like? Here... watch this video... an interview with Liberace... pay attention to his voice and how he talks in a "child like pitch" and uses "childlike" phrases and expressions while talking... (he is in his 60s in this interview)
That is what is known as "the autistic voice" also known by bigots as "the gay voice".
If you ever looked at my YouTube videos, you'll see the most common comment across the board is for people to ask: "What's wrong with her voice?"
I have Autism, and so, like every one else who has Autism, I have that very distinctive "autistic voice".
Aspies do not have it. It one of the ways Aspergers is different then Autism. Aspergers have what is known as the "monotone voice" also known as "the robotic voice" or "the emotionless voice".
It's one of the easiest ways to tell if a person has Autism or Aspergers or neither. Just get them to talk and listen to their voice.
Also Autistics tend to prance instead of walk and gallop instead of run. Watch an autistic walk - they don't stroll along like most people do, but rather have a hop, skip, jump, tippy toe a few steps, then hop, skip, jump again, then twirl around on their toe like a ballerina, hop, skip, jump again, take a few steps, and repeat.
When told to walk slow, Autistics often hold their arms straight out, and do very tiny "ballerina toe steps" nearly walking in place. Which adults often describe as "twinkle toes".
Autistics walk as though their was music playing and they were prancing across a stage. This is how they walk, every day.
Autistic children, also like to climb, and can frequently be seen jumping up onto chairs or tables, and then spinning around in circles, often with a cape of some sort tied around their neck.
Aspergers on the other hand walk very slow and carefully, often toe to heel, one foot before the other in an awkward straight line, as if walking on a tight rope. It's very controlled, very robotic, and very stiff.
When Aspies run, they also have an interesting way of doing so, where they hold their arms down to their sides, very stiff, very straight, not moving at all, while they high goose step a march, pushing their knees so high, you wonder how they are not knocking their teeth out.
Like the Autistic voice and the Aspie voice, the Autistic walk and the Aspie walk are each very distinctive, and are again, hallmarks of each disorder, making it VERY easy to identify someone with REAL Autism or REAL Aspergers.
80% of self-diadnosed Aspies do not display either the Autistic voice or the Aspie voice, nor the Autistic walk or the Aspie walk, which can be used as proof in itself, that they have miss-self-diagnosed.
But, no, you are right... in spite of 1 in 3 children being self diagnosed as "Aspies" and claiming they therefore are "autistic"... you only see 1 in 10,000 who "talk childish", prance instead of walk, wear capes, pink, and glitter as every day fashion, and act like they are 2 years old no matter how old they are, because, in spite of the boom of "self diagnosed" Aspies and Autistics, there are still ONLY 1 in 10,000 children born with REAL Autism.
A person can be diagnosed as having BOTH Autism AND Asperger's.
Autistics may also display the following symptoms:
- are slow to develop speech
- would rather talk to adults than kids their own age
- deficits in social-emotional reciprocity; ranging from abnormal social approach and failure of normal back and forth conversation through reduced sharing of interests, emotions, and affect and response to total lack of initiation of social interaction
- are perceived by others are "strange", "weird", bizarre", or "insane"
- many also have co-occurring conditions of mental illness (such as bipolar disorder), behavioral or mood disorder (such as clinical depression or tourette's syndrome), learning disability (such as dyscalcula), or intellectual disability (formerly called mental retardation.)
- develop strange obsessions with unusual objects
- most have aversions to light touch, such as patting the back, stroking hair, or poking, and may reflexively lash out at someone or something making such contact
- lack the ability to read facial expressions or interpret the emotions of others
- many also have conditions like executive function disorder, sensory processing disorder (formerly called sensory integration disorder), prosopagnosia (face blindness), dyspraxia, synesthesia, anxiety disorders, and learning disabilities
- are easily frightened, suffer high anxiety, and are prone to panic attacks
- are frequently also diagnosed with OCD or OCPD
- are often misdiagnosed or given simultaneous diagnoses with various conditions like attention deficit disorder (add), attention deficit disorder with hyperactivity (adhd), post-traumatic stress disorder (ptsd), or intellectual disability
- frequently wear capes and hats as part of their everyday wear
- problems with gross and fine motor skills
- are seen by others as "loners"
- deficits in nonverbal communicative behaviors used for social interaction; ranging from poorly integrated verbal and nonverbal communication, through abnormalities in eye contact and body language, or deficits in understanding and use of nonverbal communication, to total lack of facial expression or gestures
- practice various stereotypy, stimming, and punding activies
- identify as geeks and nerds
- an easily come across as arrogant, rude, self-centered, or mean, and will rarely be aware of this unless informed directly
- are good with computers
- tend to understand language literally and explicitly
- have a tendacy to play video games more then is considered normal
- many are also germaphobic and wash their hands dozens of times a day
- when a routine is altered or disrupted, may have a meltdown, experience severe anxiety, and will have extreme difficulty adapting to the change
- most also have gastrointestinal problems
- tend to be very truthful or honest, sometimes even to the point of extreme bluntness
- many have glucose and/or lactose intolerance
- deficits in developing and maintaining relationships, appropriate to developmental level (beyond those with caregivers); ranging from difficulties adjusting behavior to suit different social contexts through difficulties in sharing imaginative play and in making friends to an apparent absence of interest in people
- have a love for all things sci-fi, especially Star Trek and Star Wars and FireFly
- idioms are difficult to understand
- most will live their entire lives as virgins, never once engaging in sex
- rely heavily on routine, sameness, or being able to expect something to be or occur a certain way
- most find the idea of engaging in sex activities repulsive, but obsessively read/watch hentai (which they see as comedy, rather then erotic)
- obsess over comic books and super heroes
- resistance to a change in routine
- watch a lot of anime
- read a lot of manga
- hyposensitivity to pain and touch
- both have a high rate of never becoming valuable citizens within society: Autistics because they are too busy happily painting rainbows on pebbled and Aspies because they are too busy plotting global domination
- stereotyped or repetitive speech, motor movements, or use of objects; (such as simple motor stereotypies, echolalia, repetitive use of objects, or idiosyncratic phrases)
- most will never marry
- have great difficulties with nonverbal communication such as facial expressions and body language, and have trouble understanding social subtleties and subtext
- cite attending comic book and gaming conventions while CosPlaying their favorite characters, among their favorite past times
- play RPGs like Dungeons and Dragons
- play collectible card games like Magic the Gathering
- enjoy board games
- amass huge collections, tens of thousands of items - all identical
- excessive adherence to routines, ritualized patterns of verbal or nonverbal behavior, or excessive resistance to change; (such as motoric ritual, insistence on same route or food, repetitive questioning or extreme distress at small changes)
- read every book they can find
- are prone to enjoy reading (and memorizing) unusual books, such as phone books, dictionaries, or all 100 volumes of a 100 volume encyclopedia set
- highly restricted, fixated interests that are abnormal in intensity or focus; (such as strong attachment to or preoccupation with unusual objects, excessively circumscribed or perseverative interests)
- have photographic and/or idenic memories
- are highly stressed by loud noises, bright lights, and quick movements
- do not do well in large crowds
- hyper or hypo reactivity to sensory input or unusual interest in sensory aspects of environment; (such as apparent indifference to pain/heat/cold, adverse response to specific sounds or textures, excessive smelling or touching of objects, fascination with lights or spinning objects)
- are prone to developing odd phobias (such as fear of death by paper cut infections)
- are prone to developing agoraphobia
- poor eye contact
- too much sensory overstimulation can lead to sensory overload -- a debilitating state in which the affected person is unable to process or respond to any sensory stimuli, including social interaction
- live by a rigid set of ritualistic activities (such as eating the exact same food at the exact same time of certain days: Mac&cheese on Thursday at 4 and never at 4:05 and never on Friday)
- are comforted by tactile activities (playing with kinetic sand, squeezing squishie balls, hugging teddy bears) and will do so for hours to a time
- most have a very strong sense of justice -- of right and wrong, and of fairness
- are more likely to commit suicide before reaching the age of 45, then any other neuro disorder
Autism is a life-long, chronic disorder
Yes - Adults Have Autism
A common thing I hear from readers is the phrase:
"But how can he have Autism, only kids get that!"
"But that's a childhood illness, he's a grown man, he can't be Autistic."
"Wait, how can an adult have Autism?"
It seems to baffle many readers of the series to see Quaraun, an adult with Autism.
While the series spans his entire life (750 years), the bulk of the series takes place in a small 50 year period, when he is around 450 years old, which is the equivalent of a 40 to 50 year old human man.
For some reason the average person is unaware of the fact that Autism does not go away once the child becomes an adult.
The problem seems to be based in:
"But I never see adults with Autism!"
No. You don't. That's because 73% of all Autistic children, grow up to be adults who living in nursing homes, group care homes...
Did you know that a Nursing Home is NOT the same thing as a Home For the Elderly, a Seniors' Home, or a Retirement Assisted Living Complex?
Contrary to what you are told in movies, a Nursing Home is a place for adults who can not function without 24 hour adult supervision and have no relative willing to care for them. Autism and Downs Syndrome are the two most common types of patients in a Nursing Home. Most of them being between the ages of 18 to 45. (Few Autistics live past 45 years of age.)
Do you know why most Autistics do not live past 45? Because most die from starvation, malnutrition, untreated injuries, untreated broken bones that became infected, suicide, or being beaten to death by bullies.
Autistic adults are rarely able to cook for themselves, and without caregivers can go weeks on end without food.
Autistic adults are rarely aware they are sick, hurt, or injured, and if they do not have a caregiver to take them to the hospital, they do not think to go on their own. This is not an avoidance of doctors, but rather them absent minding forgetting that things like doctors exist.
Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by poison" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell the difference between a white bottle of milk and a white bottle of Draino.
Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by overdose" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell the difference between take 2 before bed and take 20 before bed, due to their not being able to count or comprehend differences in the amount of things.
And again Autistic adults have a high rate of "suicide by overdose" which is presumed to be not actual suicide, but rather, mishaps such as them not being able to tell time and instead of "take 1 pill every 8 hours" taking 8 pills every half hour.
Autistic adults have the highest rate of any illness of dying from injuries sustained by bullies. This is a combination of Autistic adults being 63% more likely to be bullied with excessive physical violence and 83% more likely to not seek medical help (see above).
73% of Autistic adults will never set foot out of a nursing home or be seen by the general public.
(And why do all these percentages end in 3?)
Pay close attention to Autistic children... have you ever noticed that between the ages of 18 to 24, they simply disappear? Vanish from the world as though they never existed? This is because 73% of all parents of Autism, mistakenly thought their child would hit 18 and BOOM the "childhood illness" would disappear.
Then 18 came and went and reality hit them... their child was going to continue to wear diapers for the next 50 year. Their child would never talk, never learn to eat on their own... after 18 years of waiting for that magical day when adulthood would set in and they could FINALLY have a break from raising an Autistic child - reality set in and they were faced with: OMG! Autism is NOT a childhood illness! It doesn't magically go away at adulthood!
And so, it was off to the nursing home with them. The parents finally got their freedom. The Autistic adult is left traumatized, feeling abandoned by his family, unloved, unwanted, and in more then half of all cases, will commit suicide with in the first 2 years of being sent to a nursing home, once the realization their family is never coming back for them sets in.
That is why you rarely see Autistic adults in public, and that is why Autism has the highest suicide rate of any mental illness. A symptom of Autism is an inability to accept change; becoming closely attached to their caretakers; and suicide if ever separated from said caregivers.
How to tell if an adult has Autism:
- Only 33% of Autistic adults are able to achieve at least partial independence; full Independence is rare.
- Impaired ability to initiate or sustain a conversation with others. Autistic adults find it very difficult to communicate.
- 40% of adults with autism never speak/are 100% mute
- 70% of adults with autism rarely speak/are near mute
- About 10% of adults with autism have some form of savant skills-limited gifts such as memorizing lists, drawing, or musical ability.
- 50% of Autistic adults wander away from caregivers (not realizing they have done so, often following a floating dust speck or a beam of light, etc).
- 50% of Autistic adults can get "lost", even s only a few feet from their driveway.
- 50% of Autistic adults have no facial recognition and will not recognize a person they see today as being the same person they meet yesterday.
- 50% of Autistic adults have no familiar recognition and can not tell the difference between one car or another, one house or another, and often if get to the end of their driveway, can not tell which house is theirs to go back into it.
- Sleep problems occur in about 40% to 70% of adults with autism.
- Some adults with Autism never develop functional communication, while others may have speech, but not use it functionally.
- Stereotyped, repetitive, or unusual use of language. Autistic adults find it very difficult to verbalize what they want to say. Adults with autism often repeat over and over a phrase they have heard previously (echolalia)
- Adults with Autism use the word "okay" to answer nearly everything anyone says to them, rather than answer with "yes", "no", or full sentences.
- It is difficult for Autistic adults to start and continue a conversation.
- Autistic adults avoid eye contact completly.
- Autistic adults do not comment on sociological-political issues, rarely vote, and are rarely aware of what is going on in the world at large.
- Difficulty understanding what other people mean to say.
- An Autistic adult person will not understand that someone is using humor. They instead interpret the communication word by word and fail to catch the implied meaning.
- Jokes, slang terms, sarcasm, and irony are beyond the Autistic Adult's realm of understanding.
- Autistic adults take words literally. If you say a word they do not know, they will look up i's meaning in the dictionary and assume that it was you meant, while remaining clueless to any slang, hidden, double, or innuendo meanings you may have intended.
- Most people find interacting with Autistic adults frustrating and avoid communication with them.
- Autistic adults cannot keep track of time, have no grasp of time (minutes, hours, days are all the same to them). They can not read clocks or calendars.
- Restricted patterns of interest that are abnormal in intensity or focus.
- Preoccupation with certain objects or subjects.
- When doing something they enjoy, Autistic adults may continue to do it for hours, or days, on end without stopping to eat or sleep or pee, and may require another person to physically get them out of that state.
- People find it difficult to deal with autistic adults, due to their none standard emotions (laughing at death, crying at a joke, etc). Autistic adults rarely know when to use which emotion and may use random emotions at random, to simply try to appear normal, but using said emotions at the wrong time only males them appear even less normal.
- Autistic adults have trouble participating in a two-way conversation and may appear to talk at people rather than with them
- Like children, adults with Autism may have a tendency to throw tantrums, however, their tantrums cannot be compared with that of a child, as children often do this for attention, while an Autistic is completely unaware there are others with them. An Autistic tantrum, more correctly called a "fit" or "meltdown", bares more similarities to an epileptic seizure then and actual temper tantrum. A true tantrum is a controlled tool to get something desired, whereas an Autistic meltdown is a uncontrolled response to over stimulation of lights, sounds, or crowds.
- Most of the autistic adults are hyper or hypo sensitive to light, sounds and crowds and have sensory processing issues and experience unusual reactions to certain noises, sights, smells or textures.
- Autistic adults suffer from fine or gross motor difficulty.
- Adults with Autism often can not focus their eyes and are not able to participate in activities such as sports which require coordination with other people.
- Adults with Autism engage themselves in repetitive activities.
- Impaired ability to make friends with peers. Autistic adults often find it difficult to make and maintain friends.
- Autistic adults live in their own world, which is fully populated and exists in their head. They prefer activities, which require minimum interaction with other people, so that they can interact with the people living in their head instead.
- Autistic adults have an inflexible adherence to specific routines or rituals. Can only walk on certain roads at certain times, can only eat certain foods at certain places on certain days, etc.
- Some Autistic adults have a significant cognitive impairment, while others are gifted in one area.
- Autistic children who displayed excessive lining up of toys or objects, will continue to do so as adults.
- Autistic adults do not often enjoy or seek out interaction with others, yet some do not get to socialize as much as they would like, but have not develops age appropriate skills to know how to interact with those around them.
It’s important to avoid stereotypes like, “All people with autism do . . . .” Remember, there are just as many individual differences among people with autism as there are among people without autism.
 
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