This week we should be celebrating the 9th birthday of my son.
Instead we are celebrating the 9th anniversary since his murder.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.
On top of that, they have also taken to harassing the baby's father, a disfigured, homeless, WW2 veteran, whom they call "Etoile". They spread hateful rumours about him claiming he is a cryptid, a demon, or most often what they term "an amphibious alien". He lives in pine branch lean-toos he builds in Old Orchard Beach and Ocean Park, and they have been hunting the locations of them, tearing them down, and smashing up his belongings.
April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.
September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (they thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).
June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.
November 21, 2021: They shot "Etiole" in Biddeford, while he was staying at the tent-shanty-village with about 50 other homeless people along the Saco River in Biddeford. They made the claim he was a "suicide demon" citing that he was driving locals to suicide by putting "evil eye curses" on them.
These people murdered my baby, attempted to murder the baby's father, drove a backhoe over our house, and left me crippled for the rest of my life in their attempt to murder me.
I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The police and FBI believe I was not the intended target, and that they were likely after my mother because of posts she makes on FaceBook and got us mixed up. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.
These people who show up to vandalize, while they scream about aliens and demons and Etiole, prove how retarded they are by their own words.
Why?
Because only a retarded person believes in aliens.
Because only a retarded person believes in ufos.
Because only a retarded person believes in demons.
Because only a retarded person believes in ghosts.
Because only a retarded person believes in haunted cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in demon possessed cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in alien abduction.
The inbred insect locals of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine are too damned retarded to know how much of a fool they make themselves look when they run around calling my cars demon possessed, calling my husband an alien, and calling me an alien abductee.
More Info @ eelkat.com
Long detailed info on the over 200 attacks they have done between June 2001 and May 2022, including photos of them driving a backhoe over our house on August 8, 2013 and the details of the malicious "amphibious alien" rumour they have been spreading about a local homeless disabled veteran @
https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html
Images:
July 4th 2013: my car in front of my house.
August 8, 2013: me getting home from work to find a backhoe sitting on top of my house.
The FBI already found the people with the backhoe incident, and learned that the backhoe driver was paid $600 and given a fake demolition paper, the paper stating one of my relatives (the one who paid him the $600) owned my land. The backhoe driver was unaware that the man he was dealing with was not the owner. I have lived at 146 Portland Ave since 1975 and have owned the land since 1983, it has never been owned by anyone else, even though we have now learned that both my mother and my father and 3 of my uncles had been actively going around Old Orchard Beach claiming they owned my land.
This happened 3 months before my son was murdered and the police and FBI believe my son was murdered BECAUSE of this picture being posted on FaceBook, and my mother making inciting/inflammatory posts about it on HER FaceBook, where she falsely accused me of being a witch. The FBI and OOB police believe the golf club wielding woman of November 14, 2013, is somehow connected to the backhoe driving over my house incident.
Since the murder, 3 other different backhoes have invading my land to dig up my yard, looking for the grave of my son. There is a family cemetery on my land, the stones dating mostly in the 1500s and 1600s, with a few from the past hundred years, the most recent being my son in 2013. 146 Portland Ave has belonged to my family since 1530, and I inherited it in 1983 from my grandmother Helen Ricker Allen. The most recent backhoe attack happened September 19, 2020, when they illegally cut down several trees in my yard, and started construction of a road through my yard between my pink 1975 Dodge Sportsman motorhome and BackElder Brooke, again the backhoe digging up and destroying large portions of my farm, in their search for my murdered son's grave. They dug up 16 of the graves in this attack.
We have had to remove the grave markers from the family grave in order to stop these vandals and their illegally trespassing construction equipment from destroying the graves.
The FBI believes these construction crews are being hired by the golf club wielding women, and believe she is trying to destroy the grave of my son, due to a fear of his golf club smashed skull being used as court evidence against her.
The most recent attacks by these people occurred November 21, 2021 and March 27, 2022 when they attacked my painted Volvo while it was parked at my dad's apartment in Biddeford, both times the vandals also cut all the wires to electricity, internet, and cable off the apartment building, effecting all 9 families living there.
The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police Departments as well as the Portland FBI are seeking any information regarding any and all of these attacks on my family, my home, my land, or my cars.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
And no... to those who asked... the FBI is not looking for info on the 4-door white truck driver... the FBI has ALREADY ARRESTED the driver and owner of the 4-door white truck - 2 different people. The 4-door white truck was owned by Old Orchard Beach Town Hall clerk and Old Orchard Beach Police Department Dispather Kathy Smith, Relief Society President of the Saco Ward of the Agusta Stake Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Her son was the driver. They were both arrested and sentenced in 2017, and were also both excommunicated from the Mormon church as a result of their MANY hate crimes, which included but were not limited to the 4 door white truck attacks of 2013 to 2016.
Yes. A LOT of arrests have already been made. Do keep in mind the April 10, 2015 attack involved 74 people who were wearing Ku Klux Klan style white robes and pillow cases over their heads (which is how you can tell they were not real, actual Ku Klux Klan members as the REAL Ku Klux Klan wear miters on their heads, NOT pillow cases). There are in total MORE THEN 74 people actively being hunted down by twenty-one different Maine police departments, the Maine state police, the Florida State police, the Connecticut State police, and the FBI.
Since the backhoe attack of August 8, 2013, there have been a whooping 24 arrests JUST IN TWO CHURCHES:
The Saco Ward of the Augusta Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
and
The Sanford Ward of the Exeter Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints.
There have been additional arrests at the following three churches which all have the same owner:
Grace Point in Biddeford
New Life (aka That Church in front of WalMart) in Biddeford
and
Curtis Lake Church in Sanford
Due to the alarmingly high rate of arrests and prison sentences made at these 5 churches, the police and FBI have focused the bulk of their investigation on all members of these five congregations, with the bulk of the investigation being on the two Mormon churches and all friends, family, and relatives of the members of those five churches, as it is believed that ALL people involved in the murder and 20+ years of harassment of my family, are all members of these 5 churches and or friends, family, and relatives of these five churches.
To date, 64 of the 74 suspected white hood wearers of April 10, 2015, have commit suidice, four of which when killing themselves, also killed 5 or more members of their families with them at the same time. One of them was Old Orchard Beach Police officer Bruce Savoy, who killed his entire family and then himself.
The police and FBI believe there is a suicide pact between the 74 attackers who arrived April 10, 2015 on my farm at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... as 64 of them have now commit suicide, between 2015 and 2023.
Additionally, Agent Andy Drewer was NOT the original FBI agent heading the case. Laura was. FBI agent Laura was murdered February 6, 2021, during her attempt to arrest a murder suspect who was in Florida at the time he murdered her. So in addition to murdering my son, these people have now also murdered an FBI agent.
People around local, seem to forget that what happened April 10, 2015, was not some local hick beating up one person... this was a large PREMEDITATIED ORGANIZED EVENT which drew in a CROWD of WELL OVER ONE HUNDRED PEOPLE to activly participate in beating to deth and beheading ten children, the oldest being aged 16 and the youngest being aged just 4 years old.
What the people of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine did was monstrous on levels of extreemes.
And then when the FBI agents tried to arrest these people, they ganged up again on February 6, 2021 and murdered, not one, but THREE FBI agents.
This is an organized terrorist group that is activly killing people here in Maine.... and this Claire woman that murdered my baby, the one the FBI believes is the ring leader who has been organizing these events.... and when I say events... I was NOT the first family attacked.
According to the FBI, the April 10, 2015 attack was the ELEVENTH such attack to happen on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine since June 2001.
And since the April 10, 2015 attack on my family, this VERY LARGE hate group has repeated this even seven more times, to seven more families all on just one street, all on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... in total, this extremist fanatical Christian hate group has murdered more then 120 CHILDREN, just on our one street alone.
And in every case, the grand of white hood wearers was chanting the same mantra: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach, kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaws".
This terrorist group is murdering anyone on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, whom they believe of being gay or transgender, whether or not they are gay or transgender.
These people are beyond evil. And this Claire woman is their leader, and she's the one the FBI wants.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
I have a weird text message… from the woman, a relative who looks enough like me to pass for my twin…from the women, who keeps pretending to be me, the one who lat Aprile pretended to be me and tried to sell my land, the one who in 2007 pretended to be me and hired a guy with a backhoe to dig holes in my land under the guise of putting in a septic system that I never ordered… the woman who in 2013 hired the same back hoe to drive over my house…
the woman the FBI suspects of being the one who hired the golf club woman also in 2013 to cripple me nd murder my baby… the same woman who was in my yard April 10, 2015 again pretending to be me when she locked her cats in my motorhome, the same woman who took out 27 credit cards in my name and ran them each up to $20k max, me, who’s never had a credit card in my life because I can’t count or do math so also can’t do money or numbers, …. The same woman who creates several online accounts pretending to be me on those… that woman… just sent me a text message, wants me to go with her to Bug Light lighthouse tomorrow…
Uhm… Bug Light lighthouse art studio is where I was November 14, 2013, when the Claire and Kendra women broke my spine with a gold club… so, why does this woman who has a 50 year history of impersonating me… the woman who convinced half of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford that she owned my land, and has half the locals convinced that SHE and not ME, is me… she, suddenly wants me to met with her at the exact location where the blond Claire and red haired Kendra women - whom the FBI are still trying to find out the identity of - crippled me 9 years ago… and she won’t tell me why.
Well, at the moment I am recovering from, a broken pelvis, so, I can’t get out of bed, I haven’t been able to get out of bed since December, it’s not February. So, even if I would meet up with her, which I wouldn’t, right now, I can’t anyways.
She’s an Atwater… yes, the sister of Bruce Atwater… you remember him, he’s the one who was a member of Heaven’s Gate, and is so obsessed with aliens, that he and her, she helped him by pretending to be me, yet again… went around with the whole “amphibious aliens” rumors, making the claim I was abducted by aliens, calling my husband Ben Wildes, an aliens, dubbing him Etiole… he is by the way, the guy you see walking my dog with me in Biddeford… so, yeah you locals have met and talked to “Etiole” quite frequently, he attends the Saco Ward Church or Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and spent 48 years as the High Preist Quarum Leader of the Sandford Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of atter Day saists, he left the Mormon church in May 2015, after our children were murdered… thhey were kidnapped April 10, 2015, the same day the impersonator bitch locked her ten cats in my motorhome and tried to pretend they were mine, called the police, the police, Will Watson specifically, took her cats, and did not arrest me, because, they weren’t my cats… then she spent the past 9 years running around saying they were my cats and because it happened the same day, she also tries to convince people that mychildren never existed and that her cats are my children… what the fuck? She’s a raving lunatic.
She’s the one who who runs around screaming “Mark and Dan this and Mark and Dan that” and I don’t know who the fuck her Mark or her Dan are, however, the psychotic gun totoing white haired man with a green pickup truck, regularly arrives in my driveway to yell at me a, claiming he’s Mark, while saying I’m deframing him, and I don’t know who the hell he is… but apparently, he’s the Mark she keeps talking about, and she’s fighting with him while claiming to be me, so now, he’s mad at me because of something she said, but I don’t even know who the hell he is or what he’s talking about.
This is the same woman who ran around cutting the internet and electric wires off my Biddeford apartment building in 2021, while screaming about Tod Murphy, and I still don’t know who Todd Muruphrey is yet… except she and her friends claim he was hit by an Amtrak train Nov 21, 2021 at 10PM, and you can check the police records, no one was hit by a train that day… However, as you all saw on my dog walking livestream on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27pm, 4 women on bikes chased a homeless man on the the freight train tracks a quarter mile away from the Amtrak train tracks… I have it on video and I’m the one who called the police. Apparently, that’s the train accident she was talking about, be she had all the dates and times and names wrong, AND, for a full 8 months after that, I had to deal with her Atwater hoodlums and their friend vandalizing my car… they did more then $10k in damages, which yes, that why I don’t have my car again, in case you hadn’t noticed a 40 year old antique car is rather difficult to find parts for.
This woman… the one who does all of these things… oh yeah, by the way, you remember the woman who cut my 1964 Dodge 330 in half on May 9, 2010… yeah… same damn woman… and the same woman who took a fucking sledge hammer to my 1974 AMC Gremlin… that woman, the same one woman who has done ALL of these things… just sent me a text, wanting me to meet her at Bug Light lighthouse, where her Claire and Kendra buddies crippled me and murdered my baby 9 years ago.
No!
Fucking no!
Why can’t this bitch leave me and my family alone!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!!!
Bug Light? Really? The location where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life?
Really. She wants me to meet her at Bug Light Lighthouse.
Why?
I don't know.
She won't tell me. It's all a big secret.
Everything's always a big secret with the Atwaters. Because everything has to be a secret with criminals. If their crimes get found out, they end up in jail. That's how criminal thugs operate. In secret. So she she can't do anything without it being some big grand secret.
Why do you want me to meet you at BugLight, the lcation where my baby was murdered?
It's a secret, I can't tell you, you just have to come and find out.
No.
For one thing my car is not here, because oh, fucking Atwater scum bags vandalized it.
For another thing, I have a broken pelvis, I have been able to get out of bed since a week before Christmas 2022.
This is the 3rd time my pelvis has rebroken, since it was originally broken by the golf club weilding Claire bitch at... oh, BugLight lighthouse!
This is the same woman and her Mark simp from the day the police showed up at my Biddeford apartment to ask:
Police: "You're EelKat, right?"
Me: "No, that's what people call me though. EelKats a fictional character from my books."
Police: "This is Biddeford, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Police: "And I'm standing here in Biddeford right now, talking to you, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Officer starts talking in his phone to officers Will and Robby of Old Orchard Beach Police Department: "Yeah, she's right here with me, I'm talking to her right now. Got her Autism car here and everything."
Will and Robbie: "Yeah, that's what I been saying. This isn't her."
Me: "What's going on?"
Police: "Wolfboy is trespassing on your property again…"
Me: "Wolfboy? Who's Wolfboy?"
Police: "Mark. We call him Wolfboy. He calls 911 a few dozen times a day. Constant false complaints about every one. Boy who cries wolf you know."
Me: "Who's Mark? I don't know anyone named Mark."
Police: "Town busy body. Gossips and complains about every one. He's a real pain in the ass. Pardon my French. Can't leave anyone alone."
Me: "Why is he in my yard?"
Police: "Citizens arrest. Says he's arresting you."
Me: "Me?"
Police: "Yeah. He's got some bogus court documents that say you are not allowed on your own property because you're gay."
Me: "I'm gay? How am I gay?"
Police: "Yeah. Well Wolfboy thinks everybody is gay. He's waiting for the gaypocalypse, you know?"
Me: "What's the gaypocalypse?"
Police: "He thinks us guys are going to mass murder all the Christians. We have to deal with his fake 911 calls reporting us gaaaaaayz all the time."
Me: "I take it you're gay?"
Police: "Ahyap, several of us on the department. We don't like jerks like Wolfboy. He harasses people like you all the time."
Me: "Like me?"
Police: "Disabled. He targets disabled women. Thinks it makes him a man. You might not remember me. I was the one who came with the ambulance. You know? I knew you were laid up in bed here and couldn't be in Old Orchard right now, seeing how you can't walk, let alone drive."
Me: "And you said he's in my yard right now?"
Police: "Yep. He says you hired him to dig a septic tank."
Me: "I what?"
Police: "Yeah, we know. We checked. It wasn't you. We got this woman who's impersonating you. She's the one he's trying to arrest right now. She hired him to dig a hole in your front lawn. She says she's EelKat. That's why I'm here, to make sure you are here in Biddeford and not in Old Orchard Beach, right now. Buddy Will and Robbie are dealing with it."
Me: "Why is there anyone in my yard? There should never be anyone in my yard!"
Police: "Yep, we know. Wolfboy and crew do this sort of thing every day. You have no idea how often we have to deal with his crew of chronic 911 false report complainers. Whole family's crazy."
Me: "So, you're telling me there are two people in Old Orchard, right now, on my land, fighting over my land, and one of them is claiming to be me?"
Police: "Yeah, that's the deal."
Me: "He says I hired him to build a septic tank?"
Police: "Yep."
Me: "Do I look like I can afford to have a septic tank built? I have twenty million in medical bills. I can't even walk! What would I even do with a septic system, my bladder and intestines don't work, I wear adult diapers because I can't even use a toilet! Why would I of all people have a septic tank put in?"
Police: "Yeah. I know. I don't think Wolfboy and crew know how crippled you are. That's why we knew whoever he had in your yard, wasn't you. I also, don't think he's ever met you. We showed him a picture of you, and he swears that it wasn't you. We showed him a picture of *name removed* and he says that's you."
Me: "She's not me."
Police: "We know."
Me: "She's been after my land for decades. Was trying to get it aways from Grammy Helen, before I inherited it."
Police: "Oh, we know. Police reports from your Helen Ricker go all the way back to the 60s. They been after the Ricker farm since before you was born. Wolfboy's bitten off more than he can chew this time. He don't know who he's dealing with. He never should have gotten messed up with the Bacon Street Gang."
Me: "Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "Ahyep. That's who Wolfboy has got tangled up with."
Me: "Who's the Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "A gang. Think of them as kind of like the local Mafia, only worse. Most of them are doing time for murder. A few of them are out now. I don't think Wolfboy knows that's who he's dealing with any more than he knows who you are. He wouldn't be down there right now claiming she's you if he'd ever actually met you face to face."
That woman and that Mark, are the ones behind most of the rumors and misinformation spread about me.
The woman I know. She's a relative, with a long list of mental health problems.
Her Mark buddy, that the local police call Wolfboy, I don't know. I've never seen him. Never met him as far as I know. Obviously he's some friend of hers, probably one of her exs as she has a lot of them. She's got a bad reputation for slutting around with married men and breaking up families.
But all these wild alien abduction, transgender, ufo, nutcase rumors that get spread about me, whenever I ask "Who told you that lie?" They always say it came from her, my Uncle Bruce, or some guy named Mark.
And clearly this Mark guy is talking about her, but he uses MY name when he does it, because he's convinced she is Me. It's incredibly obvious this Mark guy has never met me and has no clue he's being scammed by her. But it is incredibly annoying because, I'm the one who is crippled for the rest of my life because some blonde bitch named Claire beat me up with a golf club at Southern Maine Community College Bug Light Art Studio on November 14, 2013, while screaming "Kill or be killed, gotta kill the transvestite freaks before they kill us all!" I was 8 months pregnant. That mystery Claire bitch not only left me crippled, she also murdered my baby. Why? Because this mystery Mark guy runs around calling me transgender and gay even though I'm not trans or gay. And he's only doing that because this nut job Atwater woman who pretends to be me, is after my land, so she runs around doing crazy ass shit while pretending to be me, in order to start the crazy ass rumors in the first place!
This Claire woman is the one the FBI is looking for information on. Because no one knows who the hell she is. She's just some random nut job who clawed out of the woodwork and showed up at college one day to attack me and kill me baby, while screaming utter insanity. The guy with her called her Claire, beyond that we've no clue who she is.
This Claire woman is the one wanted for murder, agitated assault, and owes me $20million in medical bills. If she's ever identified, she's also got life in prison for murder to look forward to.
No, I can not identify her: I am blind.
Did you forget I am blind? I've been blind my whole life.
I am legally blind. I can not see faces, not even if you are close to me. I can not make out the colour of skin because there is so little variation in colour from light to dark. I can only identify the attackers by their hair colour, because I am blind and can no see their faces. That is why I do not know who these people are. I'm blind. I've been blind since I was 8 years old. I can only identify people by their scent and the sound of their voice. Yes, the golf club woman attacked a blind pregnant women, and the FBI needs help to identify her because, I'm blind, I can only id her by the sound of her voice, and I've only encountered her twice...
November 14, 2013 when she crippled me with a golf club and murdered my babyat SMCC, and June 26, 2016 when she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarboror WalMart, she drove away in a gold volvo station wagon. The first time 2 people were with her and they called her Claire. The 2nd time only the red haired woman was with her, and she was screaming "My name is Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine!"
I do not know what the faces of wither the blond Claire who drove a gold volvo wagon or the redhair Kendra Silvermander are because I'm blind... I can see exactly 8 inches from my nose, I can't even see the ground to see my own feet. That's why the FBI is in need of witnesses to come forward and identify the 2 women who murdered my baby.
I'm blind, I don't know what they look like, I only know them by their voices.
If you have any information, about the Claire bitch who murdered my baby at BugLight Lighthouse on November 14, 2013, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
I am severely disabled. I have been since November 14, 2013. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to get out of a wheelchair. It's been 9 years and I'm still using a cane and walker to get around, but, after standing and walking for an hour or two, I collapse and have to be carried back to bed, where I end up staying for days, sometimes weeks, before I can attempt to stand up again.
And since that happened, there have been a lot of local rumores.
Plastic surgery reconstructed my face, but I noticeably don't look the same as I did for 40 years prior to becoming disabled. And this has led to a lot of local rumors... people call me a demon, or demon possessed, or an alien, or say I was abducted by aliens and that's why I look different.
Welcome to Maine, where the average person believes aliens and demons are real, and think nothing of driving a backhoe over my house, because im just a demon who deserves it, they vandalized my car repeatedly every few months I who am already disabled and severe difficultly getting out and to the store, have even less ability to get out when my car is in the shop for repairs months to a time, multiple times a year.
This is the reality of how we horrifyingly disabled people are treated, at least here in Maine.
Being attacked in the college parking lot by 3 strangers with golf clubs is what dramatically changed my appearance. Doctors, plastic surgeons, rebuilt my face as best as they could, and they did a very good job all things considering. My vertebrae are broken in such a way that my spinal column is severed and so I have almost no use of my left hand and arm, I have no control over my bladder or intestines so have to wear adult diapers. And Doctors can't operate on this injury because there is an 80% chance of me becoming paralyzed from the neck down if they even attempt surgery.
I have been sent to the top neurological surgeons in America and they've all said, they wouldn't dare take the risk of doing the surgery.
I have been 9 years, actively studying everything I can find on the subject of spine surgery. I follow every medical journal, hanging on every update, watching and waiting for the day, when surgery advances to the point that it is an option for me.
Interestingly, as a side effect of this, I started reading and watching Horror genre, something I did not previously do. Things like The Island of Dr Moreau have become my favorite books and movies. I'm not sure why. Perhaps it is because I can identify with the characters who have those radical body changing surgeries in those books and movies.
In short, I have become fully obsessed with studying all aspects of radical surgery, both real and fictional, in some sort of hope of finding, something, anything, that will help me walk again.
THIS is what this Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon did November 14, 2013... and made worse when she attacked the second time June 26, 2016.
The Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon, not only murdered my son, she completely destroyed my life, my health, my ability to function on even the most basic levels.
I can't walk, my baby is dead, there's a giant fucking hole in my yard that looks like a Moon crater, and I'm homeless because a fucking backhoe drove over my house.
And because I was paralyzed for 5 months, and spent 18 months relearning to walk, and still can't walk on my own now 9 years later, I also have $20million in medical bills, which is why I can't afford to rebuild my house.
In the meantime, some jackass with a green dump truck that has a black and silver striped nose, dumped hundreds of loads of garbage, actual literal black bags of garbage that he stole from the town dump, and dumped them in my yard. Do you know how much garbage he dumped in my yard? It was one hundred and seventy three feet long, thirty feet wide, and twelve feet tall… yes, the pile of garbage was 173 feet long, 30 feet wide, and 12 feet tall… and it cost me $12k March 2015 to have a garbage company come in and haul it away.
What the fuck?
And you know what the police said? They think this woman and her Mark buddy are having a fuel, but because she's convinced him that she is me, and he's never seen me, so he doesn't know she's not me, that the police think, he's the one doing all the harassing of me and my family, but he thinks he's harassing her and her family and doesn't know he's harassing the wrong people, because she gave him my address as her address.
So, I'm being harassed by some guy who is a total stranger to me, because he's mad at some psycho bitch who was pretending to be me.
And because of all this, I'm crippled for the rest of my life, my baby is dead, a backhoe drove over my house, and then on April 10, 2015 my 10 foster children were kidnapped, and then on May 15, 2025 there heads were nailed to the door of my big pink motor home. So, now not only am I homeless and crippled, but my family has been murdered as well, all because some bitch impersonated me spreading weird ass alien abduction lies, weird as transgender lies, and weird ass gay lies about me, because for some reason she thought that would get her my land, and in doing so, she passed off some guy who went psycho serial killer on me, while thinking he was attacking her.
Yeah.
And so, two criminal ass thugs are funding with each other, and now I'm homeless and crippled and my family is dead, and the FBI is here now, and according to them, me and my family was never the target, me and my family got attacked by mistake because at the start of all this, some ufo nut, thought it would be funny to impersonate me and try to make it look like I believed in aliens, because this whole thing started because of some phoney ass alien abduction ufo haunted car hoax started by my uncle Bruce back in the 1990s, because he was mad, that Stephen King filmed The Thinner movie on my land, and my uncle Bruce was mad that he didn't get to be in The Thinner movie.
All of this started because Stephen King filmed a movie in my yard almost 50 years ago, and an uncle of mine was jealous, so he had his sister, pretend to be me to start some crazy ass alien abduction rumors, her running around claiming she was me while claiming to be abducted by aliens, while dubbing my husband as "etiole" and "amphibious alien", because in their minds that was some kind of revenge porn for not being in a Stephen King movie, and they've spent almost 40 years running with their alien abduction hoax, adding more and more to it all time time, including to start calling me a transvestite... and then, these people who used to live in Utah, my uncle and his sister, come back here to Maine to run around spreading the alien and trans rumour on a local level around Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, because, I have no ide why... they are just pure evil, and evil things like this are what hate filled evil people do.
Jealousy and hate. That's what fuels her. Pure raw jealousy and hate.
And my family is dead, my house is gone, and I'm crippled, all because some uncle of mine, whom I never even knew before any of this started, wanted to be in a Stephen King movie, and wasn't in a Stephen King movie and for some reason that was justification for all of this.
I don't get it.
The Atwaters are just hate filled, evil scum. You can't do something like this and be anything OTHER than pure evil scum.
Buglight lighthouse is where my baby was murdered on November 14, 2013 by the Kendra Silvermander and Claire bitch duo... why would I want to go there?
What the hell is she even thinking?
Every one who knows me knows my baby was murdered at Buglight lighthouse the beach behind the art studio at Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, on November 14, 2013, the same event that left me crippled for the rest of my life.
So why in the hell would anyone dare ask me to meet them at fucking Buglight lighthouse?
How much more evil can you be?
Update: February 19, 2023
??? Weird. ...
So, I just got a flurry of weird text messages… about FabeBook posts? I’ve not seen said posts, so I don’t know exactly what they says, but I’ll respond to the text messages about said posts:
ONE... who is in my yard? It's certainly not me, I broke my pelvis a week before Christmas and haven't been out of bed in 3 months. There should never be anyone in either of my yards, not the one in Biddeford nor the one in Old Orchard...
TWO... when did my cousin Danny die? First I heard of it. Last I knew he was living on a farm up by Heath road in Saco. I haven't seen him since a few years before the grease fryer bomb blew up my house, that happened on October 16, 2006... so it was sometime before 2004 last time I saw Danny. Didn't know he died. That's sad. I liked Danny. He was one of the few good Atwaters...
Three, uhm, what garden? My land in Old Orchard is bare ledge. Not even any soil to plant anything in. It's been that way for nine years. When the backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, it also came in with a green dumptruck and strip mined my land, they stole all of my roses, apple trees, grapes, blueberries, and flowers, and took all the top soil down to over six feet deep, strip mined my farm down to bare shale and granite. It would cost over $three-million dollars to buy new top soil to replace what the vandals stole, and I don't have that kind of money, so I've not had a garden since, no vegetables, no flowers, nothing, can't plant anything on bare ledge....
so, yeah, weird, this latest rumor, which states I stole something from Danny's grave to put in my garden. Seeing how, I didn't even know Danny died and I also don't have a garden.
........... Update February 22, 2023
So, because I didn't know Danny died, people have started sending me these long lists of Atwaters whom have died since 2015... apparently there are well over 30 - thirty - dead Atwaters, none of whom I knew had died, and many of whom, I never even heard their names before. I'm told they are largely from the Utah division of the Scottish Traveller clans. But I did notice, half of the original twelve are dead? Is that true? No one told me any of this. I had no clue. It says here that uncle Peter and his wife, Bobby's wife Cathy, and even my uncle Brucie are all dead? When did all this happen and why did no one tell me? There a bunch of cousins, second cousins, and thrid cousins on the list too, but I've never heard any of their names before I have no clue who any of them are.
There also seems to be some weird thing where they are saying no one ever told them my son was murdered November 14, 2013... my mother, my father, my step father Wade, aunt Barbara, uncle Dickie, uncle Brucie, cousin Danny, and Danny's wife Amanda all knew about this. Barbara showed up at the hospital and tried to get me to join her in some stupid ass medical scam she said she was running via her EMT job, she wanted me to be some poster child for some medical scam website she was running, she said she could get more money if she had a real cripple on her website. Dickie and Brucie were both at my Water St apartment the night it happened and they were mad that the police showed up to question my family and found them there with my daddy and some private detective, I don't know who the private detective was... according to the FBI agent in charge of the murder investigation, my dad hired the private detective to trail my mother and her then husband Wade, and Dickie and Brucie were helping my father with that.
Barbara, Dickie, and Brucie were all at the hospital November 2013, when I was paralyzed.
Barbara knew I was in a wheelchair, because in 2014, at Saco Shaw's, she stopped to talk to me, while I was shopping and in the wheelchair.
I'm also being told most of them are claiming they didn't know a backhoe drove over my house. Uncle Joey in Australia, not only knew about the backhoe driving over my house, by the FBI has copies of the $600 wire he sent to the backhoe driver. My father is the one who forged the demolition permits, with some guy named Dan who I never heard of before.
Also, you remember Barbara's ex Paul Martal... do you know what he's in prison for? FBI arrested him in 2016, for not one, but many bombs that he built, including the bomb that blew up my house October 16, 2006 and wait for it... the Boston Marathon bomb in 2013, he built it and sold it to ISIS.
The Atwaters claiming they know nothing of the 2006 bomb, is a lie, considering the FBI arrested some of them for it.
The Atwaters claiming they knew nothing of the backhoe driving over my house August 8, 2013, that replaced the bombed house, is a lie, because because Joey is the one how organized and funded it and he's going to straight to prison if he ever sets foot in America again, the FBI is ready to arrest him the moment he sets foot outside of Austraila. They have uncovered all the evidence they need to do so.
Barbara posted the message on my FaceBook wall: "The next head nailed to a door will be yours", she posted that message May 14, 2015... the DAY BEFORE my foster children's heads were nailed to the door of my motorhome. I didn't know she posted that message... the FBI agent, had screenshots of it that he had made, he showed them to me in June 2016... I didn't know she had posted that on my wall.
Yvonne and Shem, posted on my FaceBook wall more then two hundred pictures of themselves holding various guns, and on every post they wrote the words: "This is the gun I'm going to kill you with." Again, I did not see the posts, because I was in the hospital, paralized, I was paralyzed 5 months, I was 18 month relearning to walk... I've been bedridden for the last 9 - NINE - years... I found out about the death threats Shem and Yvonne were posting when an FBI agent, the one, who is now dead. Larua, she was murdered February 6, 2021... arrived, at my 6x8 tarp that I was living under in my yard... she arrived, with a huge stack of printed out screenshots of death threats posted by them, along with 27 FaceBook accounts all owned by Brucie, most of them using variations of Doris's name... all 29 of those accounts spent the entire of 2014, 2015, and 2016 DAILY posting death threats on my FaceBook wall, and often mentioned the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, the August 8, 2013 backhoe, and the April 10, 2015 SWAT team... the SWAT team being something I never mentioned online... also... the police department is in search of a VERY UNIQUE murder weapon that was used in the May 15, 2015 beheadings, and the crackhead Camilla, the cocaine dealer for the Bacon Street Gang, who is an Atwater, has been since October 2021 showing up on my Biddeford front porch to gibber about... that murder weapon... the police and the FBI never released to the public what the murder weapon was, because it is a VERY UNIQUE one of a kind hand made item. And yet, MANY of the Atwaters... 23 of them, showed up in my Biddeford driveway January 8, 2021 to gibber about that murder weapon while also chanting "God-King-Trump".
January 15, 2021, a few days later, the fbi shows up with half the fucking plice department, here at my biddeford apartment, said they followed lucy and barbara up here from some attack on the president in washington dc and wanted to know if U'd seen them? what the fuck? I have no clue. I've not see Lucy since 1994 and I've not seen Barbara since 2013 the day she tried to get me to join her weird medical scam plot. But according to the FBI... they were watching my Twith livestream tht day, so they saw the "God King Trump" chanters, as did all of my viewers, I was live and my webcam faces the driveway window so, they were chanting "God-king-trump" on my Twitch livestream... according to the FBI, those 23 people were Lucy's crew and the had stolen stuff from the White House, and were carrying the stolen white house stuff while chanting in my driveway... the FBI wanted to know if I recgonined any of them, and I didn't, the FBI had tons of pictures of them, and I don't know who any of them were... but according to the FBI, they are the adult children of several of my cousins, via Lucy and Barbara's kids. What the hell?
I am so sick and tired of the FBI showing up here and questioning me every few weeks, because of some fucking ass shit Barbaras family is doing, when I don't even know Barbara's family! I haven't babysat for her kids since I was 12 years old and that was fifty fucking years ago!
Tell me, how do so many Atwaters have inside information about the murder weapon that was used to behead my ten foster children on May 15, 2015... when those police records are sealed, were classified by the FBI, and only me, 6 FBI agents, 3 police officers, and of course the murderer, know what the murder weapon was?
I don't know who contacted the FBI... it wasn't me. I assume is was police officer Will Watson as he was the original head of the police investigation. And yet, I have many THOUSANDS of hate emails, hate snail mail letters - hand written and signed by Atwaters, accusing me of sending the FBI to "snoop in on them" as they put it. Good god! The FBI is over here interigating me 2 or 3 times a fucking month! The Atwaters act like they are the only ones who have to deal with FBI agents hanging around all the time! At least with me the FBI are here trying to help solve a crime, not interigating me of being a criminal... my fucking son was murdered! Atwaters bitching about the FBI questioning them, well maybe they shouldn't be posting death threats all over my FaceBook wall constantly none stop, the same week my sn was murdered, but that's what they are being questioned about.
I never sent the FBI anywhere... I don't control the FBI, and anyone who thinks that is got some serious mental retardation issues.
I didn't even know the FBI was actively going from Atwater to Atwater questioning them, and I wouldn't have known, had the Atwaters not been writing long hate letters and mailing them to me.
My son was murdered in 2013... it was 3 years later, when the FBI showed up to talk to me, for the first time, and yet they informed me, they'd been on the case for three years at that point and had some pretty daming evidence, about one Atwater: Paul Martal, whom I've never met, didn't even know he existed... he got 14 years in prison for the 2006 bomb that blew up my house. But what the FBI wanted to know was: Why me? It appeared he didn't know me any more than I knew him. According to the FBI, Paul Martal was in heavy contact with 2 people, and the FBI believes it's one of them, who hired the golf club woman to murder my baby November 14, 2013...
...and the problem is, I've not mentioned it to the family, The Atwaters, so they don't know, not even my parents know, but on September 12, 2021, there was another attack. I've not released any details, nor have the police or the FBI, One of the biggest ones yet. The FBI pointed out one thing... the attacks stopped when one of te two primary suspects died. They said they had reason to believe the one, of the two suspects, whom they believe murdered my son, died... so how did the the September 12, 2021 attack happen?
When that attack happened the FBI asked me to repaint paint my car: put the info from 2 different events, with the dates reversed, to see WHO would notice it was wrong. Someone DID notice it was wrong: Crackhead Camilla, cocaine dealer of the Bacon Street Gang, she showed up on my Biddeford porch less then ten hours after I painted my car. She noticed the incorrect date for the incorrect event... and she has said WHO told her... and it was one of the three people who arrived at the hospital November 2013... except, 2 of those 3 people are now dead, and the one she's naming, is the one still alive.
Who is it, who runs around telling people I believe in aliens? That same person. I don't believe in aliens. I'm the one who proved aliens and alien abductions to be a hoax, did that in 2007, posted my findings proving aliens a hoax here: https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html
Who is it, who runs around claiming I say things about Utah Atwaters, people who I've never heard of, people I've never met? That same person.
Whose husband is right now sitting in prison for building the bomb that blew up my house? That same person.
Camilla was the bridesmaid of who? That same person.
Who KNEW I was paralyzed for 5 months, 18 months in wheelchair, and 9 years serverly crippled, bedridden... but neglected to tell anyone in the family? That same person.
Who is it, who is right now spreading rumors and lies about me, my brothers, and my mother, all over FaceBook? That same person.
Do you know what gaslighting means? Look at what she's doing. It's called gaslighting. It means she is trying to cast doubt on the victims, in order to make the victims look guilty, as a way to try to hide, her own crimes.
Ask yourself why you didn't know my son was murdered?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was attacked by a blond woman with a golf club, left for dead, almost died, and have been crippled on paraplegic levels ever since?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was paralyzed for 5 month?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was in a wheelchair for 18 months?
Ask yourself why you didn't know my foster children, where not only murdered, but their heads were nailed to my door?
Ask yourself why you didn't know when Barbara, Brucie, and Dickie were all at the hospital, and knew what had happened. Why didn't they tell any of you? Why did they pretend not to know? Why did they hide for the rest of the family, what had happened to me?
Here's an important thing to ask: Why did none of you know the FBI was here investigating a very brutal murder that coincided with a LOT of harassment, vandalism, and hate crimes that were on levels of alarming extremes?
It's called impeding and FBI investigation.
Someone, in the Atwater family, has been very actively lying to all of you about what happened to me and my family... why? What is their motive? If they have nothing to hide, then why arethey bending over backwards to try to keep every one of you from finding out what happened to me, my son, my house, my yard, and my foster children?
Why?
Only the person doing these crimes, who any motive to try to cover them up.
Only the person who murdered my son, would have any motive to go out of their way to do everything in their power to try to make you forget he ever existed.
Only the person who did these things has any motive, to try to cover it up.
Only the person behind my son's murder has a motive to try to convince you I believe in aliens, when it's damn well documented that I don't believe in aliens.
Think about that, next time an Atwater starts spreading rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my dead children, or my dead son.
Also... who is it who told you that I knew about all these deaths in the family? Was it one of the three people who was at the hospital and knew what happened to me, but never told you all?
Also, yes... I have noticed that Dickies supposed death date is a full 3 months before he was at the hospital, before he was visiting my dad with Brucie and and having a meeting with the private investigator about Wade Witen... that's puzzling... but then again Brucie had faked his own death 4 times since the 1980s, each time to invade IRS fraud, so the Atwaters do have a history of faking their deaths. I know this because the FBI has all that info too and when interviewing me, they wanted to know if I was aware of the faked death, by 3 of the original 12 Atwaters... yep, three of the brothers have faked their deaths multiple times. So... when you people tell me Dickie and Brucie are dead, yeah, I kind of don't believe you.
Also, Barbara is the one going around telling everyone that Danny is dead and his grave is being vandalised... several people have told me that Danny is dead, his grave was being vandalised, and I a bedridden crippled, was being blamed for the vandalism, and I asked each of these people who told them this, and every one of them stated they recieved either a rtext, post, comment, email, or phone call from Barbara, some said she told them face to face in person... near as I can tell NO ONE other then Barbara os saying Danny died, no one other then Barbara is saying his grave is vandaised, and no one other then Barbara is saying I did it... also newsflash... my camera runs 24/7/365 ever since the day my foster children's heads was nailed to my door, so I can prove where I was and what I was doing every minute from May 16, 2015 to right now. The camera runs 24/7 in hopes of catching the murderer returning to attack again. Smile... if you've ever said anything to me online or offline, I have video footage of you doing it.
In case you've forgotten who Barbara is, besides being Bruce's sister, she's the 2 year old girl who was run over by this car. https://www.eelkat.com/images/1964dodge330_theGoldeneagleWorldsMostHauntedCar.jpg My 1964 Dodge 330 the one that was cut in half on May 9, 2010 by raving lunatics of the Saco Ward church calling it demon possessed. She's the one who started the rumor that the car was haunted, possesed by a demon and tried to kill her. The car used to belong to Dr Larochell, who paid Barbara $20k to stop her from spreading rumors about his car. Her rumours about his car got so bad that locals started attacking him, so in 1975 he sold the car and I bought it specifically to prove that it was niether haunted demon possessed and Barbara was just delusional and trying to get attention.
After I proved the car not haunted, I let a local elderly homeless man sleep in the car at night, while the car was parked behind my barn, 175 feet from the road in the forest where it could not be seen from the road, so no one knew the WW@ veteran was sleeping in my car... until that is, in 1978, Barbara tresspassed on my land, found him there, declared him first a demon, then in the 1990s started calling him "The Amphibious Alien"... Barbara is the only Atwater who ever learned French and guess what, she is also the one who coined the name "Etiole" and started calling the homeless WW2 vet "Etiole" and she is the one who has been vocal in instigating EVERY SINGLE attack on Etiole and my 1964 Dodge 330.
Also, do take a look at Barbara... we look alike, she and me... we can almost pass for twins. And what keeps happening around locally? People keep saying they are encountering me doing and saing things in places I've never been to, to people I've never heard of!
Also, every time I go outside, people - ttal strangers - keep coming up to me and asking me why I am emailing them stuff about aliens, and newsflash: I don't even use email! What the hell? I couldn't eail some one even if I wanted to!
In November, this guy comes up to me, he's about 90 years old and carrying this massive stack of sheets of paper - like 300 sheets, it's an entire reem of paper, and he starts waving it around and says it's print out of all the emails I sent him just in the past week, he says he gets more then three thousand emails from me on a daily basis and it's all crazy stuff about aliens... I looked at the papers and, the emails are coming from tons of emails with the word "eelkat" in the name, but they aren't mine. I'm not sending these things out to people and I don't know who is... but I do know who has a history of impersonating me with emails: Barbara!
In 1996, she started an email war with the Atwaters, with two emails, one that she said was heres, and one that she said was mine.
At that point... I had never had contact with an American, or TV, or electricity... I had never heard of computers or internet or email... he email war, was her, impersonating me, and sending hundred of hate filled emails to my aunts, uncles, and counsins... I found out about it a year later when Bishop Paul Morgan of the Cape Elezabeth Ward (no, not the Portland Ward, but yes the same building) called me in to his office one day, to ask why I was sending so many hundreds of emails about aliens and alien abductions to him and 750 other members of the church. No that's not a typo... seven hundred and fifty members of the church...
I had 3 questions for Paul Morgan:
1: What's email?
2: What are aliens?
3: What's alien abduction?
I had never heard of those 3 things before.
Paul Morgan had print outs of those emails, and it took me over a month to read those more then six thousand sheets of paper, but I read every one of them.
Paul Peterson, administrative director of Pine Land Center Insane Asylum... he showed up at church a few weeks later, yeah... turns out, several Atwaters used to be, how shall we call it... straight jacketed in padded cells because they were insane... and Pine Land Center, government run mental health institute, lost funding, shut down, in... oh look... 1996... and literally just let formally straight jacket nut cases, walk free out the front door. It's not hard to find out who the inmates of Pine Land Center were... the micro films are available in New Gloughster. So, yeah, that evidance exists and says a lot.
ALL of the rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my cars... all the Demon rumors, all the alien rumors, ALL of it... every single rumor, all the way back to the 1960s... all of them, were started by one person, Barbara, because, she was the 2 year old girl who was hit by that car, and she's pissed that I bought it, and she's even more pissed that Stephen King, my neighbour at the time, made a movie about it... did you know my real name is Christine and that's why the car is named Christine in the movie, even though the real car was named The Goldeneagle.
After Christine, Stephen King returned to film Thinner on my farm, and THAT is why, Barbara, has had endless amounts of jealosue rage and hatred for my farm, my land, my house... did you know I've rebuilt my house 5 times now... the backhoe has driven over THREE houses on my land, we keep rebuilding and it keeps coming back... but before the backhoe there was the bomb... and who did the FBI arrest for building that bomb again? Barbara's husband Paul Martal. That's what he went to prison for. He built the bomb that blew up my house, the FBI found him with the bomb parts in his house and car.
That's why, I always ask, when these weird rumors about demons and aliens show up... who told you? And EVERY SINGLE PERSON, EVERY SINGL TIME... they always say: "Barbara told me", "Baraba said it" , "Barbara called me" , "Barbara emailed me"... and so, I'm not surprised to find out that the rumors flying around this week, are once again, started by the same person who always starts them: the pissed off now adult, 2 year old girl, who 60 years ago was run over by the world's most haunted car, and is the one who both declared it haunted and dubbed the homeless man living in it as "Etiole"
Know your sources people. Do your background checks. Find out if the one spreading the rumors about me, might actually have a motive. Barbara REALLY hates that car. And at the core, her hatred of that car, her rage that Stephen King made it famous, is the cause of everything.
But guess what: Barbara and Brucie and their fucking endless jealose rage, is why I'm crippled, why my son is dead, why I've had to rebuild my house on my land five fucking times now... I'm not bothering any of them, I never have , and I don't know why they are bothering me! I want those bastards to fucking leave me, my family, my cars, my land, and anything else of mine alone.
Uhm… okay… so, a member of the Sanford ward church was just in a rage yelling at me about the drug raid across the street last year at the missionary apartment and this being the 18th anniversary of the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh… and, I'm not sure why they are yelling at me about it…but they were mad saying: "Why is the FBI here talking to you about the dead girl in Scarborough. You aren't family."
Uhm… no, but I am the one who found the body and called 911 to report it. And I've had to deal with police and FBi questions in regards to her death for the past few decades every single time they get a lead they show up and ask me:"So tell us once again what you saw." And I tell them yet again about the girl with no head, the thirty dogs with no heads, and that, I never saw her or the dogs before.
I was driving to work and they were all laid out ritual like in the road, not a one of them had any heads. Not the girl, not any of the dogs.
First experience with headless bodies… but far from the last. And police and fBi believe the killer was there and saw me call 911 and that's why my 75 pet roosters had their heads cut off and their bodies tied in rope nooses and hung in my Orchard fruit trees and rose bushes shortly after.
I can show you where ever body was the girl and the dogs. The first one was at the Ross rd Portland rd intersection at the light by where the medical building is now. The next one was at the Eastern trail Bridge just before the rv center. There was another at the cascade rd intersection by the flea market... they continued like that all the way to the Scarbourogh marsh. All black dogs, mostly Rottweilers and black labs, more than 30 of them, leading in a path to the dead girl. None of them had heads. Not the girl or the dogs.
It was after dark, I was on my way to Macy's.
The fbi says they think it was the same person who beheaded my cousin Murphy in 2013, beheaded 75 of my roosters and hung them from nooses in trees in 2007, murdered my son in 2013, and beheaded my mother's cats in 2015... he says there were 11 other beheading like this between 2001 and 2015 all of them invloving a huge amount of pets, mostly dogs and cats, but also birds and horses… in title more then 500 pets just on Portland Ave in old Orchard beach alone, the first one was a German Shepherd in June 2001 whose head was hung on the bucket of his owners bulldozer, and there have been 7 more since 2015 to 2021, all on Portland Ave, Ross rd, and Cascade Rd.
The dead girl in Scarborough had no head, neither did any of the dogs. I'm the one who called the police.
I was there when they found Timmy Murphy on cascade and Ross rd intersection. He had no head either.
My cousin Murphy, the newspaper said he was hit by a truck. But that's not what happened. I was there. Police made me wait 3 hours while they looked for his head. I got questioned all over for that. It happened June 2013. Backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, and golf club woman attacked November 14, 2013... fbi thinks the backhoe and golfclub attacks were both because I was there when Timmy's body was being wrapped up by police. The police found his head 2 weeks later down by my driveway on Portland Ave almost a half mile from where they found his body.
They believe the killer of my cousin Timmy was at the scene while the police were questioning me, and that's how the killer knew to target my house with the backhoe a month later… the issue with that is, one of my uncles, paid the backhoe driver, but that uncle lives in Australia and wired the money to the backhoe driver. The police have all the paperwork for this. And the police can't figure out, why it appears that my Atwater relatives are heavily invested in impending the investigation of what police are calling "the Ouellette case".
It appears the Atwaters are being egged on by someone involved in the murder of the headless Scarborough marsh girl, and that the Atwaters are being deliberately needled into a frenzy at me and my family in a bold attitude to through police off the killers trail.
The thing is, the Atwaters have gone into wild extremes bringing in weird alien abduction rumors that are just outlandish… but then… one of my uncles, when the FBI went to interview him… he had dozens of dead, headless black dogs, black cats, and black chickens laying in weird pentagram ritual formations, all over his yard, in his driveway, around his house, hanging on his fences… and… well… dead headless black animals were all around the Scarborough marsh that day of the dead girl… and so… it kind of looks a lot like one of my uncles either is the murderer or at least is the one supplying the murderer with dead black pets.
So, this lead the FBi to ask me more questions, because now it looks like the Atwaters lashing out at my family has a far bigger motive then, them just being crazy lunatic ufo nuts.
I've been a witness at 4 different beheadings.. and was the one who called police each time.
The raid at the Saco Ward missionary apartment across the street…I never said the raid across the street was a drug raid... the state drug force wasn't there. Ive seen drug raids before. My Atwater relatives are notorious for drugs, ive been in the house when two drug raids happened, one in 1982 and one in 2016 and both times the state police drug team was the one who did the raid.
State police drug team wasn't there at the raid on the missionary apartment across the street last year, it the US Marshalls and FBI there. They had 8 people handcuffed face down in the road in front of our apartment. And they said it was about the Ouellette case, specifically the headless girl in Scarborough marsh. I know this, because thry asked me if i recognized any of these 8 people. One I did, she's been my dads nurse since 2009. Fbi was here asking me about that raid, because he wanted to know if the dead cats and birds in the road here in front of our Biddeford apartment were lined up same way as the dead dogs were back in Scarborough years ago with the dead girl.
Me and others locally have been finding dead pets lined up on Main Street, western Ave, Cutts St, West Cutts st, James St, and Bradbury st every since summer 2021, I sent videos footage of all the dead pets to fbi, because it DID look like same ritual pattern used in my yard with roosters in 2007 and my mother's cats in 2015 and those dogs with the dead girl at the Scarborough marsh.
That's why I stopped walking around our apartment at night... dead cats and birds are being set up around my apartment and also my mothers apartment... looks like whoever killed cats and roosters in Old Orchard, wanted me to know they knew where I lived.
The officers think the person leaving the dead pets all around our apartment is whoever killed the headless girl at the marsh... they think that's why the attack on my roosters happened in 2007, the backhoe in 2013, the golf club women who killed my son and crippled me in 2013, because I'm the one who called the police about the headless dogs in Scarborough with the dead girl.
Weird, this Sanford Ward Mormon, who was just here at my apartment, made the comment: "But the dead girl in Scarborough wasn't beheaded."
I don't know if there's a different girl too or not. I only know about the headless girl, the one I called 911 about all those decades ago. I never looked up the news reports so I don't know if they ever mentioned the thirty dead dogs or her and the dogs having no head. I don't know what the news said about it. I don't even know her name. I just know whenever the police or FBI ask me to retell how the dogs were laid out, they always call it "The Ouellette Case". Beyond that I know nothing about it.
My focus has always been on the attacks on me and my family. I don't know any of the other families. I just know the officers said the April 10, 2015 attack on my farm was the 11th such attack on Portland Ave since June 2001 and that they now tell me there have been seven more such attacks on Portland Ave since 2015. They said a lot of details have not been released to the public, but that there are a few common things recurring in every attack which indicates it's just one person (group of persons) doing it. They say they keep going back to all 18 of our families reasking us for details we can remember because they are trying to match up the similarities of each case.
I know what details were left out of reports about the attacks on my family. I don't know anything about any of the other 17 families at all.
I don't understand these Saco and Sanford ward church members who keep showing up all upset because I'm trying to find out who murdered my son and left me crippled. What is their problem? It's MY family that's dead, not theirs, what the fuck business is it of theirs? Why are they so damned ruffled up about me asking for anyone with information to call the FBI? By being upset like this, they are just making themselves look suspicious. When they are mad that I'm asking people for help finding the killer, they just make themselves look like they are involved, they make it look like they know who the killer is, they make it look like they are protecting and defending the killer. Do they not realize how suspicious they make themselves look when they get angry that I ask on Facebook for anyone with info to please call the FBI and help put my son's killer in prison?
Do you remember Timmy? He's the same age as you and me. He's the one who lived at the black house next door to my on Portland Ave. He was the used car dealer, the one who always have a dozen or so cars lined up for sale across his front lawn. He also owned Etiole's swamp, my abutting neighbour from the back side of the land. He used to help me babysit Barbara's kids back in the 1970s and 1980s, we used to duo babysit together.
Timmy Murphy was the one beheaded June 2013 at the Ross Rd and Cascaed Rd intersection.
That's why I can't understand these Todd Murphy fucktrds who spent the entire of November 2021 to May 2022, daily arriving in my Biddeford driveway, chanting "Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy!" while vandalizing both the building and my car. They did $10k+ in damages to my Volvo and they did so much damage to the building that landlord Matt Holiday couldn't afford to repair the apartment building so he sold it because the city of Biddeford was going to condemn the building and kick out all 9 families at 409 Maine Street, because the Todd Murphy fucktard attackers did so much damage to the building. People know about them cutting all the wires off the building, but it was a lot more then that. They did huge amounts of stucture damage to the building itself as well. That's why Matt sold the building. He just didn't have enough money to repair the damages.
But the thing was, these vandals were acting like they thought I knew who Todd Murphy was, and I never heard of anyone by that name before. I think they mixed up whoever this Todd Murphy was with my cousin Timmy... who is not an Atwater... what the fuck are the Atwaters even talking about? Timmy was my dad's older sister's god-son. My aunt Victoria from Portland? The one who lived in that big tower on the waterfront up on the Promanard.
Why are the Atwaters so damned fucking arrogant that they think they are the only relatives I have? The Allens of Allen Ave in Portland are my relatives too you know, and Timmy Murphy was one of them. You know, the whole family who founded Amatos... the woman who founded Amatos was my dad's great aunt. That's why we always get free food at Atmatos, their family. The Atwaters don't hold a fucking monopoly over me, what the hell is wrong with them? You know, I'm sick of the Atwaters barging their way into everything and trying to make everything be about them. They aren't the center of the world and they need to stop acting like they are.
Near as I can tell, these Todd Murphy vandals are conneted to the Atwaters somehow, but I don't know how. And again, they are impeeding a fucking FBI murder investigation. Do the Atwaters know how to do ANYTHING other then stick their busy body noses in places they don't belong? What the fuck?
Do you know what the police said? They said Todd Murphy is the son of someone my mother and Barbar fight with on FaceBook. I've had my mother and Baraba both blocked on FaceBook since the shit they pulled back in 213 after my son was murdered. I don't have a fucking clue who my mother or Barbara are friends with on FaceBook, I have them blocked. I've had them blocked for 10 years this Novmber.
But then, I have fucktards from the Sanford Ward church showing up here now, do you realize how far they have to drive to get here to my driveway? What the hell? And they claim that Todd Murphy was a member of the Sanford Ward... you know what he's not on the rouster. You know I'm a member of that church right? I got access to the rouster, because my husband is the high preist quorum leader of that church... there's no one named Todd Murphy who is a member of the Sanford Ward church, and there hasn't been in the last 48 years that I've attended that church. So now I'm left wondering, even more what the fuck?
Who the ell is Todd Murhy and why the fuck should I care? I haven't got a clue what these people are talking about. I don't know who they are and I don't know who their Todd Murphy is.
Only thing I can figure, is somehow, something my mother and Barbara said, convinced these people that when I talk about Timmy Murphy's murder case that I'm talking about Todd Murphy. But why? Was Todd Murphy murdered in 2013 of the Ross Rd in Old Orchard Beach, same as my cousin Timmy Murphy, who was also my abutting neighbor and had the same birthday as me, so we celebrated our birthdays together, you know because we grew up together and knew each other own entire lives?
I mean, what the hell? And what does Todd Murphy have to do with The Ouelltte case aka the beheaded girl in the Scarborogh Marsh from 20 years ago? That's what they were talking about last night... thee Snford Ward members who were here in my ard in Biddeford last night, who yes, I do know who they are, but I don't know who this Todd Murphy is that they are talking about or what he has to do with my cousin Timmy Murphy and that girl, both being beheaded down the street from my Old Orchard Beach farm?
I asked, no one in Timmy's family knows any one named Todd. None of my Scarborough or Old Orchard Beach Murphy relatives know or have ant relatives named Todd, so none of them, know what the fuck these people in Biddeford are talking about. You know just because someone has the same last name, doesn't mean they are relatede, right? Do these Todd Murphy people who won't stop hrassing us, and now clearly have a connection to the Sanford Ward realize that?
And what is with Joel Bailey? What? Yeah... they're bringing Joel Bailey back into stuff? He went to prison in 2013, he, if you forgot was the counsellor of the Bisiop of the Saco Ward church, the entire bishiprisk went to prision, 2 to 10 years each one, along with the Old Orchard Beach Town Manager, oh wait, he was one of the bishipric, and 13 people from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police departments, all members of the Saco Ward church, for stealing a little bitty number of thirty MILLION dollars in Old Orchard Beach tax funds out of the town hall bank account, which I only found out about, because they tried to forge my name onto the documents and that was why FBI Laura, the agent ho was murdered in Florida on Feberuary 6, 2021, was sent to interview me in 2007, 2010, and 20134... the Saco Ward church bishopric stole $30million from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and tried to pin it on me, only, I can't count, mI never learned math, and they didn't know I couldn't possibly have written the math figures. I don't know how to do money and only someone really good with money could have done the things they did. They also put a lot of stuff in Ken Shoop's name. That Joel Bailey, the one who is now out of prison and likes to walk circles around my Biddeford apartment all summer long in 2022. Yeah, I am aware he's back, the mini-Winnie RV that parks at the Biddeford High School at night, he is the one driving it.
Given his past history, no, I'm not surprised at all to find his name bring brought back up. Though the Saco Ward Mormons now trickling out of prison and back on the streets, would explain why the vandalism started up again, seeing how they were the ones who used to do most of it and the vandalism did stop when they went to prison.
I'm sick of the Atwaters and their Mormon friends. They're nothing but criminals, drug dealers, and gangster thugs.
The fact remains, the only thing I'm focused on is finding my son's killer and the Atwaters and their Mormon thugs, are interupting that, and I want to know WHY? No one who is not guilty of being involved in my son's murder has any reason or incentive to be here harassing me and telling me to take the FBI phone number off my FaceBook wall, and that's what they are doing and I want to know why. What business is it of theirs if the FBI phone number is on my FaceBook wall and what is their involvment with my son's murder that they think the FBI phone number on my FaceBook wall effects them?
Here's a weird one… I just got a text message from a Sanford Ward Mormon which states: "I've known you for 40 yeas I would remember you being attacked how come you never mentioned it before now"
Uhm… since 1996, my website, originally known as Space Dock 13, has documented daily blog posts of every day of my life.
The July 2, 2001 attack, when a house mover cut our house in half, put it on a flatbed and drove it to Waterville, was documented the day it happened. It was also the first attack. My neighbor's German shepherd dog was beheaded and left in the bucket of his bulldozer that same day.
Go look at my blog… every day since July 2, 2001 , every attack, from the minor paintball attacks to the big house bomb attacks, are all documented, each blog post written the day it happened. There are more then ten thousand daily blog posts just on that one blog, chronologizing every event of every day of my life and including every attack, since June 2001.
That fact that they only just noticed it now, does not mean, I've never mentioned it… it just means they were too self absorbed to notice anything going on around them. It also means I was never important enough to them, for them to notice I was homeless, or in the hospital, or had a baby that was murdered. … their shock of just discovering these things, says more about their lack of caring about me, then anything else.
As for the headless girl and dogs in the marsh, the murder of my cousin Timmy Murphy, and the golf club attack ,the 3 events they specifically brought up in their text…
I had Squidoo articles about all 3 events. Squidoo went out of business in 2014.
I have more then a thousand blog posts published between 2007 and 2013, on Tumblr, BlogSpot, and WordPress, about those 3 events.
On YouTube I had more than 2k video uploads between 2008 and 2017 that did absolutely nothing but talk about those events, and included the interrogations by police and Fbi, which I've recorded all of since May 2015. So, yes, you can go watch FBI agent Andy Drewer, lawyer Gene Libby in the Biddeford District Court, and police officer Will Watson, and dozens of others talking about these events, on YouTube, because my camera catches everything.
Since 2008, I have posted daily on Facebook and Twitter asking for witnesses to come forward about the dead dogs and the marsh girl...
Since June 2013, I added Tim Murphy to my daily Facebook request for witnesses to come forward,
Since August 2013, I added the back hoe driving over my house info to my daily Facebook requests for witnesses to come forward.
since November 2013, daily every single day requests for witnesses to the attack at phi theta Kappa ceremony at bug light lighthouse, where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life.
I'm still crippled by the way, are they going to tell me they didn't notice that either? Did they not notice I was 5 months paralyzed, wait I know that person noticed because in February 2014 that exact same person carried me to their car and from their car into the hospital precisely because I was paralyzed and couldn't walk…. The person who carried me to the hospital because I was paralyzed and had to be carried is the exact same person who is now saying they don't remember this… and yet, they are the ones who had to fill out the paperwork to admit me in the hospital and their signature is on those documents. So, proof they are lying, right there.
after the June 2016 attack by the 2013 golf club woman, this time at walmart, the fbi gave me a hotline number for witnesses to call... this phone number has been on the flyers in the windows of my Volvo ever since June 2016 and these events are printed on said flyers.
Also in June 2016 the Old Orchard Beach Libby library and the Biddeford McArthur library and the Old Orchard Beach Salvation Army Church all printed up flyers about these events, and spent the summer handing them out to tourists and the fBI number was on all of those.
This is all very well documented as, I have been post them DAILY for over a decade now... and I talk about it constantly in my livestreams which I started doing in May 2015.
Just because one person had their head shoved too far up their church's ass to know what was going on in their own family, and they only just now noticed what was going on around them, doesn't mean I only just now started talking about it.
This is why I don't like churches. Church people are so focused on their Bibles that they haven't got a clue what's going on in the real world around them.
Not to mention all of the police reports, there are more than four hundred police reports, which span twenty one police departments, in three states as well as the Maine state police and the Florida state police, plus the FBI besides! Most of those police reports are public record, you can go read them for yourself. As far as I know only 3 of them were classified and sealed from public access which means there's still 400+ that can be read. There were newspaper reports of some of the attacks. And even though I don't own a TV so have never seen the tV news reports, I know those exist because there were so many TV station news reporters showing up in my yard with camera crews asking for interviews with me. This case is so damned well documented. It's utterly ridiculous to think there is a single person in Southern Maine who is so self absorbed and so oblivious that they have never heard of this case or any of the events that have happened within it in the last 18 fucking years!
But the worst part is, this my own church, a church I have been a member of for 48 fucking years, that is saying, they never heard of this! What the hell? There were more than 24 people from the Saco and Sanford Wards arrested by the FBI just since 2015, because of their involvement in this case. Several of them are still in prison. These people are really that oblivious that they didn't know I was in the hospital, they didn't know I was in a wheelchair, they didn't know my son was murdered, and they didn't noticed 24 members of their congregation disappeared because they went to prison for their involvement.
Really? Wow do these people really give a shit about their fellow congregation members or what? They not only didn't notice I was missing from meetings for 9 years because I am bedridden now, they also didn't notice 24 other members not in meetings because they are now in prison. Talk about dense numb skulls.
It appears the High Priest is back. You, Paul, have met the High Priest. You met him at WalMart. You met him at McDonalds, where you had a 4 hour long conversation with him. You met him my yard in Old Orchard when you visited a few days after the April 0, 2015 attack, and can I add here that you are the ONLY person since that happened, to ever once stop by and ask how I was doing, it’s you’re the only person I knew before the murder of my family, whom I still talk to. You ARE the only person, who ever showed you actually cared about what was going on.
Not one single member of my family or my church has ever stopped to see how I was doing, has ever asked online how I was doing.
But, since November 2021, Sanford Ward mormons have been showing up, all of them in wild raging infernos, and all of them talking about people and events I know nothing about, so I have no clue what any of them ae talking about, but they act like they think I know who the names they mention are, in particular they are cult-like worshiping someone names Todd Murphy whom I can only assume they have gotten mixed up with my beheaded cousin Tim Murphy of Pine Point district of Scarborough and Old Orchard Beach, somehow.
They showed up near daily from November 21, 2021 until May 17, 2022. They were lead on by two blond girls who looked like twins, and have mega long knee-length hair they kept in pony tails, and a smaller pudgier girl with a mint-green pixie hair cut. I don’t know these girls, they looked to be in their 20s. They are the same girls who spent the entire summer of 2021 harassing the homeless man who was living under the trestle bridge across the street from us. They would show up on bicycles every night around 1AM, chase him up out of the ravine, then chase him up the old back tracks along the dirt road to South Street, up towards your place. They did that every night for about 5 months, until he got hit by a freight train on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27PM. They started attacking my and my family Nov 21, 2021, I think because they knew I had video footage of them harassing the homeless man and I think too they were pissed that I call the police when they killed him by cornering him at the bridge overpass so he couldn’t get out of the way of the oncoming train. Outside of them nightly harassing the homeless man, and then spending Nov 21, 2021 to May 17, 2002 chanting “Todd Murphy” in my driveway while vandalizing my car and apartment building, I’ve never seen these girls before of since. They seemed to have completely vanished May 17, 2022. Not seen them at all and the vandalism stopped cold turkey that day. I assume the police must have finally caught and arrested them, but the police never said they did, and in the past when someone harassed me, the police would always ask me to go to the station to ID them after the arrest.
In any case, the “Todd Murphy” dipshit bitches stopped harassing us May 17, 2022, and I heard no more of them, until this past month… only it’s not them showing up this time… this time it’s older people, elderly people in their 70s and 80s, members of the Sanford Ward Mormon church across the street from Curtis Lake Church… Curtis Lake Church being the congregation that shows up in my Old Orchard driveway with the “god hates fgs” signs and calling me a transvestite and calling my car gay, and marching around chanting “too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach”... several Curtis Lake members have been arrested by the FBI and gone to prison for their involvement in both the April 10, 2015 attack on my family and the headless Marsh girl. However, to date,, the killer has not been found, every one arrested so far has always been weird “cultist-like” gay-haters who are attacking people in the area while chanting “kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws” and then rambling gibbering about heads in ice cream. The people arrested, for 5 different local churches, are all outspoken in radically preaching a doctrine of beheading anyone suspected of being gay, while stating that they are doing so on god’s orders.
That’s why there has been so much difficultly in finding out who killed the marsh girl and my cousin Murphry and my family, because, it looks like it’s not just one person, but rather an entire group of people involved, and so far, all evidence has pointed to those 5 churches: Saco Ward, Sanford Ward, Grace Point, Curtis Lake, and New Life, all in Biddeford, Saco, or Sanford, and all run by just 2 families. One family runs 3, another family runs the other 2.
Anyways, I was just thinking, and I think I figured out why the Sanford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints members are seemingly so clueless and unaware that I have been crippled and bedridden for nine years and why they were unaware that 24 members of their congregation have gone to prison, arrested by the FBI for being accomplices in the The Ouellette Murder Case aka The Cascade Murders aka The string of beheading on and around Portland Ave, Ross Rd, and Cascade Rd the past twenty years, which included the headless girl I found in the Scarborough Marsh, my cousin Timmy Murphy whom I found headless on the Ross and Cascade Rod crossroads, the beheading of my own foster children… Ben is the common link to all of them.
Ben, as you know, has severe dissociative identity disorder, that was brought on when his brother Willy commit suicide.
Ben has seven different, very distinctive different “people” living in him, that we know of, there could be moe then 7. Etiole is the one most locals are familiar with, though he does not call himself Etiole, Etiole being a name locals dubbed him. However, there is the High Priest, who is the one you, Paul, are personally most familiar with.
I’ve not seen the High Priest since April 10, 2015. Ben WAS there the day of the attack, he was also attacked… the attackers had me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, all on the ground with guns to our heads, while they use a weird looking long pole with a piano wire-like loop on the end, to cu the heads off of everyone else who was there. Me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, were the only ones to walk out of that attack alive. Ben’s favorite daughter Bella was one of the ones beheaded. His mind snapped, because, he recognized one of the attackers as “Rick”... When the attackers arrived, Ben ran up to one of them and said “Rick! What are you doing here?” Ben does have a friend named Rick… I know Rick. Rick is a very violent, vicious spouse abuser. His wife Paula used to come to church been to a pulp every week. Broken arms, broken legs, broken nose, black eyes. It went on for years. She finally divorced him and fled to Utah when he beat and nearly killed their teenage son. Rick has beaten me up, right in the Sanfard Ward church building. He’s a major bully, a huge bigot, and an extreme white power racists. Rick WAS there April 10, 2015… he didn’t have a white pillow case over his head like the rest of them did, but I don’t kow if he was a part of the attack or not, I was too busy trying to fight the bastard who was holding me own with a pistol in my face, to notice what Rick was doing. It was Rick though, his face in unmistakable… he has no face. Elephant man disease, I think you cal it, but you can’t mistake Rick, and he WAS in my yard April 10, 2015 the day my family was murdered, I just don’t know what he was doing there or if he was involved in the attack or not.
The thing is, something snapped in Ben that day. ALL 7 of his multiple personalities vanished, including the High Priest, thankfully. You know how bad the High Preist could get, you met him several times.
Ben left the Mormon church. I don’t know what triggered him more: his favorite daughter Bella being beheaded in front of him or his best friend Rick, seeming to be the one leading the charge ahead of estimated 74 people in white robes and white pillow cases over their heads.
In either case, Ben has developed a server hatred for the Mormon church and refuses to set foot in a Mormon church building… he who was High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward for so many decades.
The thing about the High Priest, was he was everything so far the opposite of who Ben, my husband, actually is.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to be a virgin. Ben in not a virgin. Not even close. He had a prostitute problem back in the 1980s when I met him.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to not be married, yet Ben and I got married on the Old Orchard Beach Pier August 13, 1987, so he’s been married several decades and still is, we don’t live together because he’s terrified of the Bishop finding out he has a wife. Keeping in mind Mormons don’t forbid priests from marrying, however Ben grew up extreme strict Catholic and his brother is the current leader of Opis Dia and he has to keep up appearances of being a Catholic Priest for his brother, from times when he visites from Italy, which happens a few times a year. Ben became a High priest in the Mormon church, but then goes to several local Catholic churches when his brother is in America, so that he can say he’s a High Priest without lying about it, and keeps his brother thinking he’s Catholic High Priest when he’s actually a Mormon High Priest. In other words, Ben lives a very big double life of trying to juggle his priesthood in two religions, hiding it from each other religion, while also maintaining a (very annoyed) wife (me) that he hides from BOTH religions.
Which is WHY, I’m allowed to PUBLICLY be friends with you, because it helps him to keep up the facade of “see, I’m not married, she hangs around with Paul”, which yes, that IS what Ben tells people at church about you.
Yes, Ben is a dick, I am very aware of this.
But, here’s the thing… Ben TELLS ME he is no longer in contact with any Mormons whatsoever, claims he hates, them, claims he shuns them, claims he’s not spoken to any of them since April 10, 2015…. HOWEVER… he was caught in July 2022, giving one of the Sanford Ward Mormons a ride to the store…. And Rick specifically, has been one the phone with him, when I came in the room and he thought I was elsewhere, causing Be to run around in a panic, knock his glasses off, break them by stepping on them, all while Rick was screaming out of the phone, “Ben, ya there? What happened? What’s going on?”
It appears the High Priest is back…. However, I suspected this in November 2021… the High Priest uses specific pontificating phraseology that none of Ben’s other personalities use…. And on november 24, 2021, the same night the Sanfard Ward Mormons were here cutting the wires off our Biddeford apartment building, Ben started talking like the High Priest again. It’s really distinctive. Normal people don’t talk in long winded drawn out droning, monologuing pontifications about Jesus, and of Ben’s 7 known people living inside him, the High Priest is the only ne who does this. Ben was here and witnessed the wire cutting event, he even went out side and talked to the crowd of “Todd Murphy” chanting lunatics to try to talk to them… and,... he said one of them is Todd Murphy’s grandmother from the Sanford Ward. Ben indicated at that point that he knew who Todd Murphy was, but since then, has denied knowing who Todd Murphy is. But, he came in, and told me outright that “I know her from the Sanfard Ward, she’s Todd Murphy’s grandmother”..
Each of the 7 people who live in Ben have no knowledge or memory of the other 6, and when one of the 7 does or says something, none of the other 6 have any memory of doing or saying those things.
It appears that The High Priest knows Todd Murphy, not only that, but also knows the attackers who came here daily from November 21, 2021 to May 17, 2022… and it looks like Ben, in his High Preist version of himself, is the one who told them where I live and is the one who worked them into a frenzy to begin with.
I have video footage of the homeless man who died Nov 19, 2021… a LOT of it. He knew Ben. That was obvious. Me and Ben were walking Main Street every night the summer of 2021 and the homeless man from under the trestle bridge would stop to talk to us a few times a week. And those weren’t just videos, those were Twitch livestreams so everyone watching my channel saw this homeless man stop and talk to Ben… he said he knew us. I did not recognize him, but Ben… I don’t know… Ben acted like he did know the homeless man, but didn’t want me to know it, so he told the homeless man he was mistaken. But people around local are saying that thie homeless man who kept showing up in my videos IS Todd Murphy, they say they saw my videos and it was Todd Murphy in my videos.
I am finding this whole thing very confusing… because NOW… even though I have video footage of Ben talking to the homeless man, Ben now claims, he never saw the homeless man at all and tells me I’m delusional. That's what he said: Ben said: “Your delusional, there was no homeless man” and, yet hundreds of people, many of them local, saw those videos of Ben talking to the homeless man. Which means, the man Ben was when he was walking with mt summer 2021,is NOT the man he is right now… and… either this a new 8th personality Ben has recently developed, or, it’s the High Priest back, but being deliberately sneaky to try to hide the fact that he’s the High Priest… which is odd, because before now, NONE of Ben’s multiple personalities have ever showed any signs of acknowledging any of the others, and the High Priest trying to high he’s the High Priest by trying to act like a different person, indicates the High Priest DOES remember and IS AWARE of the other personalities.
As you are well aware, I HATE the High Priest. I want nothing to do with him. I never would have married Ben if I had ever encountered his High Priest alter ego before marrying him.
June 26, 2016… FBI Agent Andy Drewer asked me to meet him at his Portland office on Middle St. He had… info. And a new primary suspect. Ben, specifically his High Priest alter ego, is the FBI’s #1 suspect in being the inforat, who told the golf club attackers I was at BugLight Lighthouse November 14, 2013. The FBI has phone records. I told only 3 people, where I was going that night: my mother, my father, and Ben. I told them only 5 minutes before I left, because I had been sick earlier and had previously told everyone I was not going to that event at the college. According to the FBI, my parents and step father Wayne Whiyyen, never left Biddeford, they continued to argue all night, and the FBI knows this because my father had hired a private investigator to tail Wayne, and so they have a lot of evidence as to where 2 of the 3 were. Ben on the other hand, called his friend Rick, the same Rick who was in my yard April 10, 2015… Minutes after I left my dad’s Water St apartment and drive to Southern Maine Community College, November 14, 2013… Ben called Rick. Rick drove to Ben’s house. And the two of them together left.
FBI Agent Andy Drewer had one question: “How well do you trust Ben? Because right now, he’s our primary suspect.”
They believe Ben told Rick, I was pregnant with someone else’s baby and Rick is the one who sent the golf club women to deliberately kill my baby.
Why do they believe this?
Because between 1987 and 2013 I have had 7 miscarriages, something that can be proven… Ben ins the only man I’ve ever been with. It’s not possible for anyone else to be the father. This was my 8th pregnancy by Ben and he was at the time running around accusing me of cheating on him with Etiole. The thing is… he IS the one people call Etiole… but his D.I.D. means he things Etiole is someone else, he doesn’t believe its him, because none of his personalities have any memory of each other.
Ben is a total nightmare to live with because I never know from one day to the next, who the hell he is going to be that day.
Ben has denied every pregnancy. Why? His exact words are: “I wouldn’t. I am a High Priest. What would the Bishop think?”
According to the FBI too, Ben, behind my back, runs around from one LDS/Mormon congregation to the next tell people that I am quote: “An unrhightious, unfaithful aunty-Mormon who puts the church down.”
Interestingly, I have been a member of the Mormon church since 1975. Ben joined in the 1980s. Ben left the church in 2015. I am still a member.
My FATHER is an extremist anti-Mormon, who preaches hatred for the Mormon church. Not me. Kenny, my father, is the anti-Mormon. My father, is such a huge radical extremist anti-Mormon that he has gone on to convince my mother, a 5th generation Mormon who is related to one of Smith’s poly-wives, to leave the church. She left the Mormon church in 1994 and joined up with some anti-Mormon group lead by some woman named Tanner or something. My mother, took her anti-Mormonis to extremes far above and beyond my father, taking to FaceBook and a forum called exMormon something and went total psycho nutjob anti-Mormon conspiracy theory all over the internet through the late 1990s into the 200s and still does it to this day now in 2023, preaching her wild anti-Mormon conspiracy theories now 27 years. In 3 years it’ll be her 30th anniversary of her wild mega hyper anti-Mormon rampage, with my father cheering her on and needling her forward the whole way in a weird Bonnie and clyde style vendetta attack everyone who is a Mormon hate fueled bigotry.
I on the other hand, am still a Mormon, have never had anything to do with the anti-Mormon movement, and, was shocked to learn from the FBI, that, the anti-Mormon rumors about me online are massive, and spread largely by members of the Saco and Sanfard Wards, with their info being just misinformation they regurgitate after talking to Ben, my mother, or my father.
Apparently, because I am bedridden and crippled, since 2013, and thus have had no way to get to church these past nine years, this, my absence in church meetings, after 48 years of never once missing a meeting, has allowed my mother, my father, and Benn to be able to spread wild anti-Mormon rumors about me, with the 3 of them going to my church, the Sandford Ward, and telling the church leaders that I’m not in church because I’ve turned anti-Mormon.
And yet, it is Ben who is the biggest anti-Mormon of all… he’s actual friends with that Tanner woman. My parents only run around preaching the Tanner woman’s message, Ben, actually sought her out and became personal friends with her and helps the Tanner woman one on one…. And he brags about this all the time.
I’m sick of hearing all the anti-Mormon Tanner woman bullcrap from Ben and my father and my mother so, whenever any of the three of them start chiding me for being a Mormon and telling me how evil and deceived I am because I refuse to leave the Mormon church, I just put my headphones on and listen to Markiplier YouTube videos and, ignore them.
I don’t hate the Mormon church like Ben, my mother, and my father do, so I am fed up with them constantly bitching at me because I’m a Mormon. Which is why I’ve not spoken to my father in 3 years even though we live in the same apartment, and was a contributing factor to why I blocked my mother on FaceBook in 203 and have had no contact with her at all offline since… though that hasn’t stopped her from showing up, trespassing, and hounding me.
Ben, is far worse then my mother or my father combined… since 2015, he has hand written thousands of anti-Mormon letters to every church leader he can find, local, not local, all the heads in Utah… and he bought a dozen cases, each case with 144 books in it, cases of Ket Kerr’s books and daily mails them out to every member on every rouster list of every ward in the Exiter and Augusta stakes, using his position as High Priest Quorum leader to get the home addresses of every Mormon in Southern Maine and New Hampshire, mailing all of them aunty-Mormon letters and copies of Kat Kerr’s books. Ben, as you know, has more money then he knows what to do with, and right now, he’s spreading thousands of dollars every day, just on the postage stamps to mail Kat Kerr’s books and his anti-Mormon letters to every local Mormon he can find.
And so, I knew he was mailing out the Kat Kerr books… but, until FBI agent Andy Drewer told me, I did not know that Ben and my mother and my father, having been putting MY NAME of the letters they are mailing out to people, and the three of them, through impersonating me, have got my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, 100% convinced that I stopped attending church because I’mm now an anti-Mormon who hates the church, and that’s why my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, are both unaware that I have NOT left the church, but rather I’m bedridden and crippled and have no one to help me get to church.
And so, now I’m finding out, that Ben, my mother, and my father, working together, according to the FBI, seem to be the fuel that is, and has been for several years, the fuel working locals up into a frenzy… including, they are the ones who are getting the Atwaters riled up, my being an Atwater, and the Atwaters further fueling locals on top of what Ben, my mother, and my father are doing.
What is their motive?
I ask them.
My father says he’s doing it to impress my mother so she’ll remarry him.
My mother says she’s doing it because I need to sell my land and give her the money so she can buy a house in Kennebunk.
Ben says he’s doing it because Mormons are led astray by Satan and he has to save my soul from Hell.
I’m so sick of all of them.
You know, one of the things I find most weird about the Atwaters is that so many of them seem to think I know them, even though I have never met them, nor even know any of their names.
Of the original twelve, I have only ever met five of them. And while I know Danny, I don’t even know the names of his siblings. I met Angelia once when she was twelve, at a Halloween party at the Cape Elizabeth Ward LDS Church, and then I saw her for about 2 minutes before she left. And Danny I only met when I was 37 years old and I only saw him about 10 times, back when my mother was trying to scam him out of his money from being hit by a train… which I didn’t know that was why she was visiting him, until a few years later when she had a big rant about how she wouldn’t visit him any more because he was, in her words “stingy and greedy” because he refused to give her the money to “use as a downpayment for a house in Kennebunk”. I should have known that was why she was visiting him, as that’s the only reason she ever does anything. She’s obsessed with trying to by that $3.7million mansion by the Wedding Cake House, and has been trying to scam relatives out of money for a downpayment on it for decades now… it was her reason for her involvement in the backhoe that her brother Joey hired to drive over my house. She and Joey figured I’d sell my land if there was no house on it. They didn’t exect me to set up a lean to made out of a 8x6 tarp and just spend the next 9 years living under that.
I met Doris once when she was squatting illegally on my land back in 1996. Took me and the Old Orchard Beach Police 9 months to get them out. I only ever saw her one day. She had 4 military tents, the size houses, 2 Winobegos and a Cadillac, that they illegally dumped on top of my corn crops, along with more then 600 bicycles, and 2 school buses full of sawed up copper pipes. Took us 9 months to find out who in the hell was living there and dumping that garbage on m land, and it turned out it was Doris. Only time I ever saw her, was one day, for about 15 minutes.
I remember Micheal, Tonya, and Scotty from before the caged years, but, I was put in the cage hen I was 8 years old, so I’ve not seen then since I was 8.
Once every year, usually on September 19th, David and Lucy would show up with a herd of incredibly violent gun toting vandals who would go through our farm and use shovels to chop the heads off all our pet cats, dogs, hens, ducks, and roosters. They were kill 200 to 500 of our pets every year in this anuel bloodbath on my farm. I don’t know who the hoodlums were. David said they were his kids, but he also said he had 15 kids and there were WAY more then 15 people involved in the annual Sptember 19 boodbaths… way more, closer to 100. Brucie said once that it was not JUST Davivd’s kids, but also a group known as The Halls. I don’t know who any of them were, but the police showed up every time, trying to get them out, and they always had huge shootouts with the police every year. It’s why I have a massive phobia of guns. A bunch of them were arrested in 1982, when that time the state police drg team showed up and arrested them and confincasted meth, marhawana, opium, and LSD
I know Dickie, Brucie, David, and Barbara because they were the ones that helped my mother build that room, that they locked me in when I was 8 years old, right after my Grammy Hellen Ricker’s funeral. They kept me in there for 27 years. One of the 4 of them would show up every 12 days to throw rotted molded food in the cracks between the boards. They are the only 4 Atwaters I know, and I only know them from their weekly coming into the room to beat me up, torture me. They are the five who raised me and said I was not Human, said I was a Demon and that I wasn’t allowed out of that room because Demons weren’t allowed to have contact with Humans.
I was 12 years old when the High Priest found out about that room, and he took me out every Sunday to go to church, and then took me back to that room after.
No one ever told me I was a Human and was allowed to go outside or talk to Humans until the social workers showed up when I was 31 years old. They are the ones who started using the term “feral child” to describe me and they to this day are still trying to “integrate me into Human culture” but two of them say they have given up on trying to convince me I am Human, they say there is little chance of my mind ever fully grasping the concept of being human because it’s too difficult to undo the three decades of Brucie, David, Dickie, Barbara, and my mother doing their “child social experiment” (as the social workers call it) to raise me to believe I was not human. They said the bigger problem is the fact that almost immediately after I was rescued out of that room/cage they kept me locked in for 27 years, the 2006 bomb blew up my house, which the FBI says it was Barbara’s husband Paul Martel who did that, but I don’t know why, as I never met him or even knew about him prior to the FBI arresting him, and the backhoe arrived to drive over my house 5 different times over the next 10 years, same back hoe, same yard, different house each time, as I kept rebuilding houses. Then I found that headless girl in the marsh with all the headless dogs and the FBI thinks one of the Atwaters did it seeing how the headless dogs were lined up in a row from my land to the march, each dog about 500 feet apart (for some reason the Saco and Sanford ward church members forget my land in Old Orchard abuts the Scarborough Marsh and is right on the edge of OOB bordering Pine Point in Scarborough. And that the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh was literally only a few hundred feet away from my driveway… they keep asking why I am obsessed with the Oulette Case, but they forget I’m the one who found the dead girl in the Marsh and that she was set up in a friging ritual pose, practically on my front lawn AND the FBI thinks the whole thing was done in some weird attempt by the Atwaters to frame me, so that I would go to prison for murder and they culd take my land… which it’s always my land and the Atwater obsession with taking it that is at the core of everything)
But in any case, the social workers say that because these events were my very first interactions with Humans, that it instilled in me an psychosis effect of further belief in not being human because I had trouble accepting the fact that I am the same type of creature as the monsters humans are, because, yeah, all I’ve ever seen from humans is death, bloodshed, violence and distruction. I have no reason to WANT to be integrated into a society that leaves headless dogs and headless girls in my front yard.
But then 2013, came along…. Social workers got me into college in 2010, in an attempt to show me that ONLY the Atwaters were shitty bloodthirsty bastards and that MOST humans don’t drop dead headless animals all over their houses and yards the way the Atwares do. And they were right. Humans in college were nothing like the Atwaters and their drug dealing, petty thieve, ganster thugs. The social workers and police keep telling me that this sort of behavior is not normal and that it is ONLY something the Atwaters and their friends do, that normal humans don’t act, do, or say the things the Atwaters do.
But then, I’m constantly running into people who make the claim to “know all about” me and they will spout off this weird freaked out stuff about witchcraft and curses and spelcasting and aliens and ufos and, I’m left totally clueless because I don’t know a single thing at all about witchcraft or curses or spellcasting or aliens or ufo, and I can’t figure out why these people think I have the faintest idea what the fuck they are even talking about.
They’ll say they thought I was some expert in casting curses and say they want to hire me to cast curses on people, and they act like spell casting is some sort of job I do. I don’t know heads or tails about spell casting.
They’ll say, “But your the sea witch of Old Orchard Beach”... yeah, people have been calling me that ever since Stephen King filmed Thinner on my land back in the early 1990s, but, I’ve never read a Stephen King book or seen a Stephen King movie, not even Thinner, so, I haven’t got a clue what is in his books and movies. All I know is he based some “Gypsy witch” in Thinner off me, because I’m the “Queen” (aka Priestess) of a local Gypsy clan. A Gypsy Queen is similar to a Catholic Nun in the Folk Catholicism of Mexico and has nothing to do with witches, witchcraft, spells, or curses, so I don’t know what the fuck Stephen King did in the Thinner movie to make people think I’m some kind of spell casting witch, but, people seem to have trouble understanding that the Thinner movie is FICTIONAL. I’m not a witch and I don’t know the first thing about witches or witchcraft. I haven’t got a clue how to cast spells or curses. And I can’t figure out why so many total random strangers think they can walk up to me at WalMart or Rotary Park or the library and demand I cast some curse on someone for them.
But, when these people do this, and it happens EVERY SINGLE TIME I go outside, which I have agoraphobia, so it’s sometimes weeks or months between my setting foot outside, every single time I go out, some one always identifies me as a witch and watches a curse cast.
At the same time I’ve got these UFO nuts constantly coming up to me asking me this or that about some weird ass alien ufo idea, and I never have a clue what they are talking about, They use all sorts of weird ass words and phrases that I’ve never heard before and gibber on like another language which I can’t understand… but then they act all surprised that I don’t know the meanings of the words they are using, and they’ll say: “But I thought you were supposed to be a top expert on UFOs and alien abductions” and I’m like what the hell are they even talking about and how the hell would anyone in their right mind come to think that I would believe in ufos or aliens, when I think people who believe in ufos and aliens are raving lunatics, my uncle Brucie being a perfect example of a raving lunatic who believes in aliens and ufos.
I don’t get it.
But then, every time this happened, and it just happened again today, because, as you know I’ve not received any mail since May 2022 and I went to the post office yet again today to once again ask where the hell is my mail… and low and behold, I can’t set foot outside without some alien believing, curse believing freak ass weirdo nutjob showing up to ask me to put a curse on someone while gibbering about ufos.
I ask him, where the hell did he get the ludacris idea that I was a witch, that I cast curses, or that I believed in aliens, nd he said: “Well, your mother says on FaceBook…” yeah, my mother is a freaking nut, which is why I’ve had nothing to do with her in decades. She’s a white power freak who runs around calling black people the n-word, is part of the anti-vaccer micro-chip in vaccines conpreracy theory, wouldn’t let me or my brothers go to school because in her words “the government controls the schools, and satan controls the government”, SHE spends 90% of her time running around putting curses on people, all she does is talk about whores and demons, demons and whores, every other word out of her mouth is either demon or whore. And the only time she ever shows up its because she’s trying to pul yet another lame ass scam to try to steal my land because she hated my grandmother and says it’s her life duty to destroy everything that”ever bolgned to that old bitch of a whore” including the farm I inherted from gramy Helen. My mother is spiteful, violent, vindictive, and has a police record for running around beating people in the face with bricks. On top of all of that she’s chronic liar and I’ve never heard a truthful word come out of her mouth.
I am well aware that my mother is the source of 90% of the problem, simply because she’s the biggest fucking gossip in Southern Maine, after he sister Barbara, and the two of them are rather famous all over Maine for thei trouble they have caused HUNDREDS of families. They are petty Karens who devote every minute of their lives to making up vicsious rumors and lies about every person they see, both people they know and people they don’t know.
And thanks to the FBI investigation into the murder of my on, I’ve found out a LOT about both my mother and Barbara and the bizarre, outlandish extremes they each have gone to in their petty vindictivness.
But the fact remains, I’ve not had contact with either of those bitches in several decades, precisely because I am sick and tired of their endless hate for everything and everyone around them. They both do nothing but gossip and lie, lie and gossip, and run around like a couple of teenage brats making a game out of seeing who they can hurt next … they fucking brag about it and spend hours laughing over how fun it is to destroy families.
It doesn’t take any level of intelligence to see that the dynamic trio (Barbara, Brucie, and my mother) are the source of every damn rumor about everyone in York County, Maine.
It’s such a big problem that I’ve had people come to my apartment and ask me if I could ask my mother and her siblings to leave their family alone. The fucking Biddeford Police have stopped by my apartment to ask me if I could do anything about my mother, that’s how I found out it was HER who knows Todd Murphey, because the police came right out and told me that my mother has been harassing Todd Murphey’s ex-wife and 15 year old son on their FaceBook accounts and wanted to know if I could ask her to stop.
No. I can’t. And you know why? Because when I asked her to stop spreading witchcraft and curse casting rumors about me, she arrived the next day and cut my car in half! The 1964 Dodge 330… she said it had a demon in it and she had to kill the demon by killing the car. What the fuck? She’s fucking insane!
And worse… half the time, these people will tell me some name I never heard of. Say this or that person told them I was a witch who cast curses or was some alien expert, and I’ll ask them who the hell is that, and they’ll say: “Oh that’s one of Brucie’s kids” or “David’s kids” or a grandkid… and I’ll point ou that I’ve NEVER EVEN MET Brucie's kids or Davids kids or ANY of the rest of the Atwares.
There are more then four hundred Atwaters, and I’ve meet EXACTLY SEVEN of them in my life time. I don’t even know the names of all the original twelve, let alone the names of their kids or grandkids… why would I? Most of them live in Utah and I’ve not set foot outside of Maine for nearly SIXTY YEARS!
I’ve never in my entire life even talked with an Atwter, not face to face off line, not online.
Because I’ve never even seen pictures of any of the Atwaters, I wouldn’t even know an Atwater if I saw one!
And yet, they run around spouting off things I supposedly said or did, and make the claim I’ve talked to them… and I’m just left wondering who the fuck is running around talking to the Atwaters while pretending to be me, because I don’t even know who the Atwaters are!
Clearly, there is someone out there pretending to be me and the Atwaters think they are talking to me, but they are NOT talking to me, I’m not talking to them, and I want to know in the the fuck is running around pretending to be me?
Its so damned fucking obvious the Atwaters don’t know one iota about me, just by the level of the ludicrous witchcraft, curse, alien, and ufo lies they spread around about me!
I should be able to go to my post office, go shopping, heck just walk down my driveway to get my mail, without being bombarded with stupid ass freaks gibbering about witches, curses, demons, aliens, and ufos! I am so damned sick of my mother and her fucking Atwater relatives…
You know, another thing that’s fucked up about all this and again is my mother running around lying her ass off to hell and back, yet again… is this whole situation with HER cats.
The attack on my family, happened the same day as the whole thing with her cats, and she is so obsessed with the cats, that she has gone out of her way to run around telling people that when I talk about April 10, 2025, I’m talking about HER cats… but, in order to further promote that lie, she also tells people they were MY cats! What the fuck?
You know that Nick guy my mother sleeps around with? The one she broke up his marriage, convinced him to leave his wife and kids down in Mass and move up here to Maine, because she was scamming him… the guy she stole his credit card and went and bought that shed she put on my land, and bought those $2k dogs with, and bought those appliances with, and bought that tractor with, before that Nick guy found out she stole his credit cards? Him.
Did you know, she convinced him that she owned MY land in Old Orchard Beach, and she tried to get him to join her scam, and pretend he was a real estate agent, and my mother and her pimp Nick tried to sell my land last year… and this is not the first time she’s done this.
Did you know, that in 2007, she went to the town hall, pretending to be me, had them divide my land into sections, and then sold one section? That’s why Don Cooliard and his sister have a house in my driveway now… something they built in 2019… and it was when they built the house in 2019, that was when I found out my shit face mother and her jackass whore master Nick, sliced off a peice of my land in 2007 and sold it!
I had no idea they had done it!
That’s the kind of shit faced scum bag scam artist my mother and her fuck buddy Nick are!
But it gets worse.
My mother had 83 cats… eighty three cats.
And she was hiding 113 of them in an apartment owned by this Nick scammer. He found out she had cats in her apartment… guess what day… April 14, 2015. The day before the attack on my farm.
Here’s a thing… did you know there were no locks on the doors of my motorhome? Not one. I bought it February 21, 2012, and first thing I did was took all the locks off, because I have a PTSD phobia of locks, after my mother kept me locked in the room cage thing for 27 years.
And yet… when the vandals showed up with a Blow Brothers sewage truck to fill my motorhome with 500 gallon of raw feces, they had to pry a padlock off the door to get inside. A padlock, that I did not put there.
Do you know how that padlock got there? My mother put it there the night before, when she took HER thirteen cats, and shoved them in my motorhome, without telling me she was doing it… because she had to hide them from Nick.
People often ask, why, I a professional artist whom has had displayed at the Portland Museum of art… don't paint anymore.
It’s because paint supplied are expensive, and 500 gallons of raw human feces not only did $10k in damages to my bedroom, it also destroyed $30k in art materials.
But it gets worse… my mother was two timing Nick with both my father Kenny and her other ex husband Wayne… and on top of that, she was mad at Wayne, so, it turns out, that 7 of those cats were HIS cats, and she had stolen them from HIM…. so not only was she hiding thirteen cats from Nick, but seven of those cats were stolen cats besides!
She put the cats in my motorhome, them, because she is fueding with ALL her whore master fuck buddy men, one of them, the FBI hasn’t figured out which one yet, filled my motorhome with feces out of a Blow Brother’s sewage truck (my cousin Ken Blow is my neighbour, they stole one of his trucks to do it) , and then called the police and told them that the motorhome was HERS, because my mother had been running around telling everybody it was hers, she these guys thought they were pumping sewage into my mother’s bedroom and didn’t know they were pumping sewage into my bedroom.
But, because they DID know that she had put the cats in there, and they were made at both her and Wayne, they thought if they called the police, the police would arrest her and Wayne…
,...however, the gays haters of the local Mormon churches ALSO showed up that same morning, a completely separate incident from the cats, to attack my family, because, earlier that year, I had published a gay Romance novel, called Night of the Screaming Unicorn, and these gay hating church freaks, decided murdering my family was punishment for me publishing a Gay Romance novel.
A fucking five towns worth of police, including a SWAT team showed up… the white robed klan pretenders fled, thep police found the cats, I was left asking “What cats? What are you even talking about?” Later an officer asked me if I knew the cats, and I said, “Yeah, these ones belong to my step father Wayne up in Biddeford and those ones belong to my on the other side of Bideford, how the hell did they get in my motorhome?”
And the court cases people talk about… there where SEVEN different court cases going on all at once, including the Guy Gamon murder trail because he murdered my dog walker who walked my dog when I was sick, which was the big case, that uncovered he was a serial rapist, and went on for several years and included a jury trial.
The murder trail of my family was also going on. Different court case.
And then, my MOTHER had a court case going on with police over the cats, which, in the middle of that, she spun it around, started telling people the cats were mine, and the next thing I knew, there were TWO MORE court cases slapped on me, that I knew nothing about… both an extension of the cat case my mother had going on, because 2 weeks into HER court case about HER cats that SHE hid from Nick in MY motorhome, she had Nick convince the police to switch the case out of her name into my name, because she had convinced Nick that the cats were mine! So all of a sudden, I get this weird court case about HER cats slapped on me, on top of the three murder cases and rape case, that were already going on.
The cat court case lasted less then an hour before the judge threw it out of court, telling some Dan guy that if he ever tried to pull a stunt like this again (apparently he worked for the Old Orchard Beach town hall and had pulled scam court cases to frame disabled women before, because the judge told the Dan guy that this was the 64th bogus case he had done to try to steal land from disabled women in OOB)...... but… the judge was asking me about the cats, and I keep telling him, I don’t know anything about the cats because they were not my cats, they were my mother’s cats, and I still had no clue how they had even gotten in my motorhome in Old Orchard Beach, 14 miles away from Nick’s apartment in Biddeford where they had been for several years before that. Finally the judge asked if someone could get my mother to the court house, and surprisingly she showed up… with Nick of all people… and she boo-hooed to the court about the cats being mine, and my being homeless and living under a tarp (I was still living under the tarp in 2015, but not at the time of the attack… I had just moved in with my dad in Biddeford March 31, 2015 due to I have just come out of intensive surgery and the doctor wanted me to not be sleeping outdoors for the next 6 months because I had intensive amounts of surgery to heal from, so I wasn’t in Old Orchard the day my mother put HER cats in my motorhome and that’s why I had no clue the cats were in there).
Well, the judge got mad at my mother, because it was blatantly obvious to him that the cats were hers, because she was using all the cats’ names, while I didn’t know the cats’ names, and she was describing what they looked like and what breeds and ages they were, while I didn’t know what half the cats looked like, Three of the cats I had never even seen before, and I didn’t know their names. I didn’t know how many cats there were!
The judge outright told my mother to her face that she ought to be ashamed of what she did, framing me and pretending the cats were mine, and he sent the cats to the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter, something we knew right there in the court room, but in order to get pity, and money (my mother started a fund raiser on one of those kickstarter type places) saying she needed to raise money to locate the cats. What the fuck? We knew where the cats were. They were at the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter… she even went there to try to get them back… asked me to drive her there in my car, took Wayne with her because the cats were technically HIS cats that she stole from him… I have the whole thing on video camera, it was livestreamed… she had a big fucking fight with the people at the shelter and they told her they’s arrest her if she ever tried to get near their shelter again.
After that, she built up this weird ass conspiracy that the cats were sent to lots of shelters and foster care… which they probably were., I don’t know… and she went from one animal shelter to the next harassing them.
Meanwhile, her friend Joel Baily hacks my Twitter account and uses it to harass, yet another of my mother’s whore master men that she sluts around with trying to get money out of… some guy named Mark, who I never heard of before, but apparently, he’s been friends with my mother AND my father for some forty odd years, even though I myself had never seen or heard of him before. And yes, the same Joel Bailey from the Saco Ward and Old Orchard Beach town hall who went to prison for hacking the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall bank account and transferring $30MILLION in OOB tax money to members of the Saco Ward church… who it turns out, most of them were the anti-gay attackers in my yard April 10, 2015, which is why 24 members of that church went to prison between 2016 and 2021.
So, I’m still unable to do anything because, you know, still recovering from major spine surgery, because of the golf club attack that murdered my son in 2013, three years earlier, I didn;t have surgery until 2015 and 2016., because of the fucking red tape the USA medical system runs on… here I am, not online at all since November 14, 2013, so I have not yet told anyone about any of the April 10, 2015, and come January 2016, all of a sudden, there’s the Mark guy who crawls out of the woodwork, with yet another court case, this one claiming I was saying stuff on Twittrer about him… and yet, I had never heard of this guy before AND I hadn’t been online since November 14, 2013, so what the fuck? Who the hell is hacking my Twitter account pretending to be me, while harassing this guy I never even heard of before. But by this point FBI Agent Andy Drwer had taken over the whole case, and by June 2016, he found out, yeah,:” it’s your mother’s friends from the Saco Ward church. She’s convinced them the cats were yours and that you need to be punished for animal abuse, that you didn’t even do, by hacking your accounts and framing you” Great. So yet again, my mother and her cat obsession and her Atwater friends, and her Saco ward friends, and her fcck buddies are at the core of all of this, with them once again, putting my name on something I fucking had no part of and didn’t even know anything about! What the fuck!
This court case was ALL livestreamed, you can go watch it on YouTube. The Cat Court case was also live streamed. You can watch that on YouTube too. The murder court cases and the rape court cases, also livestreamed. You can watch them on YouTube too. And then on top of that, was the Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach Court case with the Old Orchard Bach Town Hall… also livestreamed, you can watch that on YouTube as well.
My mother, Nick. all these Saco Ward church people, the Dan guy, the Mark guy, the Gene guy… they are ALL on livestream… the judges, the police officers, the witnesses, the DA, even the FBI agents… all recorded, all livestreamed on Twich, all archived on YouTube, all SEVEN court cases, every day of every trial. You can go watch them all yoursel and see the truth, instead of listening to siller gossip and rumors started by my mother and her Nick buddy trying to cover their asses for trying to steal my land YET AGAIN, via the cats.
But have you ever noticed it is ONLY my mother and Nick talking about the cats in connection to April 10, 2015… do you notice how I never talk about the cats, because… oh look… they were NOT my cats, they were my MOTHER’S cats and that’s why SHE is talking about them?
Did you also notice how, in order to make people believe the cats were mine, that both my mother and Nick, are going out of their way to try to erase the existence of my family that was murdered that same day?
Did you notice how in order to push THEIR cat agenda, my mother and Nick are are doing a major gaslighting move to try to make everyone FORGET what happened two years earlier on November 14, 2013, the day my son was murdered and my spine was broken?
Did you notice how my mother and Nick are trying to use THEIR cats as a slight of hand move, so people wouldn’t see that they DID steal and sell part of my land to Don Colliard in 2007 nd that they tried to sell another section of my land in March 2015… yes, yet another court case which was going on, BEFORE the cats happened, and that the FBI believes my mother and Nick pulled the cat stunt deliberately to try to make people look the other way and forget that she and Nick tried to steal my land only 2 weeks prior to the cat event? Or that she and Nick tried for a THIRD time to steal and sell my land April 2022…
Know the truth.
Those cats were not mine, they never were, and I’m sick and tired of the jack ass fucking animal abuse rumors and lies my mother and Nick are spreading about me… lies that they are spreading ONLY to try to cover up the fact that they were trying to steal my land, to sell my land, so my mother could by some fucking mansion in Kennebunk.
Well guess what… my son is buried on my land, He’s been buried there since November 2013, and it doesn’t matter that there is no house on my land, because my son’s there and I’m never selling it. And my mother and he Nick and Saco Ward and Atwater friends are bunch of fucking scum bags who don’t give a shit about anything but the damned fucking money they think they can get out of my land.
So, we have confirmation that yes, our mail IS being stolen from 146 Portland Ave. As you already know, we have not received mail since May 2022 and it is now March 2023, it's nearly a year. Post office has just been saying "we are short drivers" and has not looked into it... so we went over the heads of the local Old Orchard Beach post office and went to the distribution center, and told the state post master what was going on, they got in touch with our delivery driver, and he has delivered our mail every day, all year, and is baffled because the post office had not alerted him that we were not getting our mail. So, YES, if you live on Portland Ave, in Old Orchard Beach, and have not been receiving mail, and I know most of my neighbors are saying they've not gotten mail in weeks to months, as well, go to the Saco distribution center in the industrial park, and complain there, because tour driver IS delivering daily and has not been missing delivers... all missing mail from Portland Ave is stolen and you need to let them know what mail you have not received to they can get to the bottom of finding who is doing it.
So, while I was at the post office today, seeing how the post office is on the Cascade Road, out here in the Old Orchard Beach section of the Scarbourgh Marsh... I decided to check the family cross, see if the name Todd had been added, seeing how the vandals and shitard harassers can't stop gibbering Todd Murphey this and Todd Murphey that in my driveway, and nope... here it is, https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg as you can see the only two names are my cousin Timmy Murphy and my uncle Gordon Murphy. No Todd.
You know, I would recommend these shittards take their heads out of their asses, and drive through all the roads of the Scarbourough Marsh. Why?
This cross is one of the more then a hundred crosses in the marsh, which marks the locations of the one hundred and twenty people whom have been beheaded in a four mile radius since June 2001. This cross stand at the Ross Road x Cascade Rd intersection. The Cascade Road, as everyone who watches the local news is aware, is where bulk of the serial killer's attacks have occurred, which is why local news reporters have dubbed the entire case as "The Cascade Murders", officially know to law enforcement as "The Oulette Case".
If you start driving through all the side streets of the Scarbourgh Marsh, you will find there are 120 - one hundred and twenty - of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them, each marking the location where the the person dubbed by locals as "The Portland Ave serial killer" has murdered 120+ people between June 2001 and February 2021.
For some odd reason, the Sanford Ward LDS church, a church only a 30 minute drive awa from the Scarborough Marsh, is so clueless about the local biome, that they seem to think the ONLY place the Scarborough Marsh exists is across the street from the church owned candy store Len Libby's Chocolates.
Do you recall how people like to dub my land "Etiole's Swamp"... do you know why they do that? Because my land is a literal swamp. It's a peat bog, with more sinking quicksand and 6 foot tall marsh grass, then solid ground. I live IN the Scarbough Marsh, as does EVERYONE on Portland Ave, Ross Road, Pine Point Road, Cascade Road, Walnut Street, East Grand Ave, West Grand Ave, Milliken Mills Rd, and more then 200 - two hundred - other streets in Old Orchard Beach, all of which are located inside the Scarborough Marsh.
The Marsh is not JUST in Scarborough, nor is it just that one quart mile stretch of road across from Len Libby's. The Marsh sits in two countries and five towns, and covers several thousand acres of land... and the Scarborough WalMart and the South Portland Main Mall, both site in the marsh, with both of those mega buildings building on a massive system of concrete pilings to keep them from sinking into the many acres of peat bog that site under each of those buildings.
But do take a drive on the above listed streets in Old Orchard, as well as the following ones in Pine Point: Pine Point Rd, Blue Point Rd, Black Point Rd, Dunstan Corner, Portland Rd aka Rt 1, Payne Rd, and all the little side streets off of each one. In Saco head to Heath St, Jenkins Rd, Flag Pond Rd (stop and see the very real pet cemetery where Stephen King's The Pet Cemetery movie was filmed while you are there), and all their side streets, yes those are in the Scarbourogh Marsh as well... and instead of just blindly driving through the Marsh on your way to work, slow down and start counting the crosses... big white crosses, little white crosses, unpainted wooden crosses, reflector covered orange crosses... see if you can find all one hundred and twenty crosses in the Scarbourogh Marsh... they sit in 5 towns, in 2 counties... and every one of them marks the location of someone who was beheaded by a still uncaught, still actively killing people, serial killer who has plagued the streets in the Portland Ave region of the Scarbough Marsh since June 2001.
But as you can see, it's Timmy Murphy who was beheaded on the Cascade Rd... not Todd Murphy... there's it's cross which has stood there since June 2013.
You know, if these harassers spent more time paying attention to what is going on around them, and less time being self absorbed jerks... they'd know these crosses were here... they'd know, Old Orchard Beach has a serial killer on the lose who has beheaded more then 120 people and left their bodies at cross road intersections all over the marsh... they'd know that this has been going on for 18 years now, and they'd know that my family had been hit by this madman multiple times now, fist killing my cousin Timmy Murphy, then killing my baby and leaving me not only crippled, but also one of only 5 people to live through and survive one of this serial killer's attacks, thus WHY the FBI is so hyper focused on not letting me out of their sight because this killer has a history of not leaving people alive... they'd know that SEVENTEEN families all within a quarter mile section of Portland Ave, between Walnut St and Milekin Miles Rd, 17 families in this space of street, have not only have their families murdered, but their houses bulldozed by a backhoe, and in just those 17 families, in addiction to the dead people, there are also more then FIVE HUNDRED dead pets, including cats, dogs, birds, and horses, every one of which was beheaded and the headless pet hung from rope nooses and draped in trees and porches of the 17 families... something the FBI says is a scene from a Stephen King book, which the serial killer likes to recreate... and then the FBI points out this: each of those 17 families has appeared in The Thinner movie... it's the one common thread for ALL 120+ Scarbourough Marsh killings: every sing victim has somehow been involved in the filming on one of the 14 Stephen King movies which was filmed in Saco, Old Orchard Beach, and Scarboughor back in the 1980s. According to the FBI, EVERY SINGLE ONE of these murders, animal killings, harassments, vandalisms, and hate crimes, can be found in a Stephen King book and this lunatic is recreating "art" in tribute to Stephen King, using the bodies of family members who were involved in the filming of Stephen King's oldest movies.
If these people in the Sanford Ward church would take their heads out of Joesph Smith's ass long enough to look around, they would have known these things were going on, that they were going on to people in their congregation, that several members of their congregation have stopped attended church because they were murdered, that several other members of their congregation no longer attend because like me they are crippled and bed ridden from these attacks, and that 24 members of their congregation no longer attend church because they are in prison for their connections and involvements in these murders.
Heck, these murders have been all over the TV and paper news for 18 years now... you'd think the people of the Saco and Sanford Ward LDS churches - who are the ones in my driveway bitch screaming about Todd Murphey for the past 2 years now - would at least have seen enough TV news or newspaper news... oh look, did you know one of the big name newscasters on TV, someone who has in fact covered the Scarbough Marsh case on TV several times now, is a member of the Sanfard Ward congregation, and even SHE knows what's going on, obviously because she's one of the reporters who keeps showing up to interview all us families who live in in the Scarborough Marsh... so I know not everyone in the Sandford Ward is clueless as to what has been going on in the community round them.... several of these church members are outright screaming, literally screaming from my neighbor's front porch in Biddeford, that they never heard of any of this before... I'm sorry... what the fuck?
The Scarbourough Marsh murders is quite literally the biggest unsolved murder case in all of New England, not just Maine, it's been covered by DateLine, 20/20 and half the crime network tv shows! The fucking planet has heard of it! These people are telling me, literally, while standing on my neighbors front porch and shrieking at the tops of their lungs, that they never heard of this murder case, a murder case I've not stopped talking about for the last 9 years because as of 9 years ago now members of my family have been murdered.. heck, with so many deaths now, it's pretty hard to find any family in the Scarbourough Marsh who DOESN'T have a dead relative killed by this nutjob... and these people, who vandalized our apartment building so bad that the landlord has a repair crew here all of this next upcoming summer... these vandals and hate fueled harassers from the Sandford Ward church, are telling me, that they had no clue any of this was going on?
And worse... y Atwater relatives... they keep showing up and ALSO saying they never heard of this... really? How? I know the FBI has been talking to them about it because they keep showing up in a rage yelling that the FBI was just at their house and it's all my fault and demanding I stop sending the FBI to their house... but I didn't send the FBI to their house, heck, I didn't even know they were related to me, as I never heard of them before they showed up to yell at me, so how the hell do they think I sent the FBI over there? What the fuck?
But also... what the fuck? Family members have been murdered and as far as I know, the FBI is trying to locate every relative to find out if they might have any information about a member of their family being murdered... I mean, if these people really are relatives, like they scream that they are when they are in my yard yelling at me, then, someone in my family being murdered IS ALSO someone in THEIR family being murdered.... and yeah, of course the law enforcement is going to go to every family member and ask for info, that's what law enforcement does, because, they just naturally assume that normal families help each other and WANT to solv a murder that happened in their family.
Which is something FBI Agent Andy Drewer pointed out to me, he said: "The Atware relatives of yours... they're pretty paranoid aren't they? I'm having trouble getting any of them to talk to me. Most slam the door in my face the minute I say I'm with the FBI. They act like they got something to hide. Looks mighty suspicious. Can you think of any reason why any of your uncles might want you dead?" That was the same day he pointed out that his five top suspects for the November 14, 2013 attack were my uncle Bruce, my aunt Barbara, my mother, my father, and Ben. He said he can prove they all knew about the golf club attack, and yet everyone of them is openingly, publicly denying any knowledge of it, and all five of them are doing their most public outspoken, over the top denying it in two places: The Saco Ward LDS Church and the Sandford Ward LDS Church.
And most disturbing of all is this: He says my father was having an affair with a woman named Claire back in the 1970s, and that my father and my mother and Claire and Claire's husband have been feuding since the late 1970s, a fued which goes on to this day... and... that on ALL of my mother's social media accounts, FaceBook, Twitter, Pinterest, everything, are two usernames that show up in her friends' lists: both with the same last name, one using the username Claire while posting a 4 door white truck as her user photo, and the other... wait for it... has the user name: KendraSilvermander".
Yep.
The FBI has found an actual person, a relative, in law of the Atwaters, who goes by the username KendraSilvermander.
Why is this significant?
The people who murdered my son at BugLight Light house art studio at Southern Maine Community College on November 14, 2013, was a blond woman whom the other two called "Claire", a red haired woman who was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!..." like she was singing a song... both women looked to be in their 60s, and today a decade later, would now be in their mid-70ish, and were with a large bald man, about 30th, today would be about 40ish, and the 3 of them left in a 4 door white pickup truck.
The odd thing is, people don't talk about themselves in 3rd person limited, but, that's what the red haired woman was doing.... and I've seen her before... she showed up at Westbrook Panera 3 different occasions in 2009 and 2010 and in each of those instances also did the same marching goosestep around, back then carrying a white poodle wearing a purple dragon coat... while again saying "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" while also bragging that her father owned Saco FunTownSplashtown USA and having a psychotic meltdown screaming" My chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIR!" Annalese, the woman sitting next to me, another published author, as thi was a NaNoWriMo writer's meeting, who was the NaNoWriMo Ml of Souther Maine, leaned over and whispered to me "That's Kendra Silvermander, she thinks she's he ML, we try to humor her. She can get rather violent if you don't."
Whoever this red haired woman is, she has a server, mega in need of medical care, mental disorder, appears to be incapable of functioning beyond the mental level of a two year old, and is quite proud of repeating her name as fast as an auctioneer. But, she speaks in 3rd person limited about herself, using us and ours and we to refer to herself, and uses the phrase: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" as though it was a period at the end of every sentence. I don't know what sort of a mental disorder she has, but Annelese was right, this woman gets over the top violent, as we quickly saw at Westbrook Panera in 2009, when she started slamming her dog on the table while chanting "My chair", and then quickly lashed out at me, in a mega violent rage of throwing chairs. The restaurant had to drag her out and make her leave.
She repeated this at three different writer's meetings at the Westbrook Panera in 2009 and 2010.
She is the same woman who was ordering/leading/demanding the blond Claire woman's golf club attack at Southern Maine Community college November 14, 2013, murdering my baby and crippling me.
She returned for a 5th attack June 26, 2016, again with the bond Claire woman, this time at Scarborough WalMart, and this time attacking with a shopping cart, this being the attack that caused the inoperable 3 broken vertebrae and the organ and nerve damage which caused my current crippled stat. In this attack, yet again the red haired woman was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" but this time the blond woman was shrieking: "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband. That thing is Ken's son, look at how IT's dressed! Kill or be killed! Remember Saco Shaws! No more heads in ice cream! End the gaypocalypse! Kill the transvestite freak! Too Gay for the Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach!" This time instead of driving away in a 4 door white truck driven by a bald man, this time he two women were alone and drove away in a gold Volvo late 1990s vintage suv station wagon.
The usernames now showing up on my mother's social media, and the Atwater relative's social media is significant, because, according the these FBI agents.... those are the exact same Atwaters who are REFUSING to talk to the FBI, slamming the doors in the FBI agents faces, and also, are the most vocal on social media in spreading the alien/UFO/witchcraft/cat rumors about me. And the FBI believes they not only know who the golf club murderer is, they likely were involved in planning the November 14, 2013 attack... and every one of them has been seen with the Sanford Ward LDS Church members who are likewise the biggest defamatory gossipers, running around slandering my name with their lies about witchcraft/curses/aliens/ufos/and cats.
AND... on top of that... they ae the EXACT SAME Atwaters ans Sandford Ward church members whom have spent the last two years bombarding my Biddeford apartment with these same rumors while the vandalize the building, which the landlord now has to spend the summer repairing.
AND... these are the same people who are also claiming, they had no clue these murders were going on in the Scarborough Marsh.
Overall... these people who are denying the events of the Scarborough Marsh murders, while simaltaniously going overboard gibbering lies about me online, are really working overtime at making themselves look like they were involved in the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, and making themselves look tremendously guilty of not only knowing who the killier is, but trying to cover up for the killer, and attempting to gaslight me with their weird alien rumors, in an attempt to make people not see their connection to the killer, that they are trying so very blatently to hide and are only succeeding and shining a mega sized spotlight of suspision on themselves, leaving everyone who is watching them doing it to ask: What the fuck did they do, that they are trying to hide so damned bad, that they are going mega big time slanderfeat screaming about aliens and ufos all over social media, trying to convince people that I believe in aliens and ufos when there are 40+ years of documented evidance of me debuncking aliens and proving their ufo accusations to a be a hoax they created to cover their own asses over a drug raid from 1982? And now they are rearing up their alien accusations again, which again, I can prove to be a hoax, because... what are they trying to cover up THIS time? Last time they rolled out the alien accusations they were trying to blame literal toddlers for the 1982 drug raid, by saying that 4, 5, and 6 year old children saw aliens... 72 people were arrested in the 1982 drug raid... there were no aliens... if anyone was seeing aliens, it was the drug addicted having drug induced hallucinations... and yet, those same drug dealers, now out of prison, are once again pointing to aliens, this time because they are mad that the FBI showed up to ask if they knew anything about the murder of my son.
???
Can I ask, what the fuck does not real, fictional aliens they saw because of drugs, during a 1982 drug raid, what does that have to do with my son being murdered?
And are they really that retarded that they think I control the FBI and tell the FBI what to do? What the fuck? Them coming over here and screaming for me to stop sending the FBI to their house, when I didn’t even know these people were relatives, never heard of them before, and wouldn’t even have had a way t tell the FBI a blooming thing about them at all, just makes them look suspicious, because for one thing: who even are these people? I still don’t know who they are! And for another thing, why do they think I sent the FBI over to them? And again: who are they? There are over 400 Atwaters and I’ve only ever met 7 of them, I don’t know the names or faces of any of the others, I don’t even know all the names or faces of the original 12, so I can’t figure out how they’d think I would know the names or faces of any of the kids, grandkids, or great grandkids of the original 12. What the fuck?
How are the Atwaters so full of themselves that they think I would have one iota of a clue anything about them, when I’ve never met them and I don’t even know their names… and also… why would I care? Tell me that? Do you know any sane person who knows the names of their parents in-laws.
Yes… my parents in-laws… in-laws of in-laws… not even blood relatives, but the aunts, uncles, cousins, grandkids, and great grandkids of in laws of my parents’ in laws… who in their right mind would even know the names of such distant relatives…
You, reading this right now… can you name your parent’s cousins? Do you know the names of your mother’s uncle’s great grand kids? Do you?
Can you see how utterly stupidly ridiculous the Atwaters are being, when they show up here yelling and screaming, and expect that I should know who they are or what the fuck they are talking about:
Newsflash: normal people don’t live in 400 person large family herds.
Normal people don’t live in herds.
Normal people don’t swamp in shark style frenzies in the driveways of distant relatives of your great grand pappies 5th removed cousin of an in-law, either. What the actual fuck?
And on top of everything else, there are Awaters running around screaming that I am vandalising some grave… the grave of a distant relative whom I never heard of before, so I don’t even know where the grave is… when I’m here bedridden and crippled and not even capable of going to visit my own son’s grave because… oh look: I’m crippled and stuck in bed with a broken spine and severed spinal cord for the past nine years!
You know… if you are going to accuse someone of going somewhere to vandalize something, you might want to first make sure that person is not wheelchair bound, bedridden, and crippled for a decade with a broken spine, so unable to even get to the place you are accusing them of going!
Also… since the day my son was murdered, I have a camera running 24/7 so, it’s pretty foolish of you to lie about me when I can not only prove you are lying, I can also prove every time you’ve been screaming in my driveway, because I have you on camera. They didn’t think of that did they? Oh no, of course not, why would they? They were too busy thinking about those aliens and witches they can’t stop gibbering about.
But look at this cross... Do you remember Timmy Murphy? He was the 5 year old with curly black hair, who was also accused of aliens during that 1982 drug raid. They called us The White Monkey Children, because we found Helen Pearly's missing pet white monkey. And the people arrested during the 1982 drug raid, many of them Atwaters, pointed to that white monkey that had escaped from White Animal Farm, a zoo in Old Orchard at the time, they pointed to that white money and called it an alien. Helen Pearly, look her up, is the founder of the Scarbourgh Marsh preserve, an animal preserve that started out with one pet white monkey, and is today, many thousands of acres of protected land known by the name The Scarboughorgh Marsh.
Can you see NOW why the idiots screaming aliens are seen as so damned idiotic?
But can you also see the names on the cross?
https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg
There were 31 children involved in helping Helen Pearly capture her escaped pet white money.
Drive through the scarborough marsh looking at the names of the beheaded victims on those crosses... 29 of the 31 White Monkey Children are now dead, killed and tossed in the marsh, where 40 years ago, they helped little old lady look for her lost pet albino monkey.
Every one of them accused of being alien abductees; accusations which was screamed ONLY by the drug dealers and drug users of the 1982 drug raid, which took place in the Scarbourough Marsh.
The only people who accuse me of aliens are the people now out of prison, who went to prison because of the 1982 drug raid... a drug raid known to locals as "The 458 Shoot Out" due to one woman screaming "Four! Five! Eight!" in between each time she loaded up her shotgun.
Everybody that has shown up in the marsh since June 2001, has been either one of the now adult White Monkey Children, or one of their children or grandchildren.
EVERY - SINGLE - ONE.
Go to the marsh, look for the crosses. Read the names. My cousin Timmy Murphy's cross is not the only one and if you open your eyes and start looking at the side streets all through the marsh, you'll see one hundred and twenty of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them. Crosses the entire country has seen on Dateline, 20/20, and dozens of unsolved crime shows... crosses that the Atwarers and their friends at the Sandford Ward church, are right now, this very week, posting all over social media, claiming aren't there, claiming I'm the only one talking about them, when clearly I'm not seeing hoe Dateline and 20/20 are pret big international news shows... and also claiming "Yeah EeelKat's crazy, she believes in aliens" when its extremely well documented my not believing in aliens and my debunking alien abductions as hoaxes... and these same people are also trying to convince people on social media "cats!".... but the cats were my mother's not mine, and my son was murdered November 14, 2013, two years before my mother's cat incident occurred.
These people are making total idiots of themselves, because all any one has to do is look up the new reports about the Scarbourough Marsh murders and the Cascade Murders to see that since June 2001, a LOT of people here in the marsh have been murdered, and originally they were not thought to b connected, but, now it is known that they are.
I wish these crazy ass Atwaters and their weird Todd Murphy obsessed Sanford Ward lunatics and their alien abduction ufo nuts, would leave me and my family alone. I don’t know what their problem is or why they are so obnoxiously hell bent on stalking my family and harassing us like this, but I am getting pretty damned sick of it. I have enough shit to deal with with, oh, I don’t know, half my family being murdered, my son’s killer still being on the loose, 9 years bedridden and still relearning to walk, … I don’t need these fucktards jumping into my life and trying to grab their 15 minutes of fame by tampering with the FBI’s investigation into hunting down my son’s murderer.
Know the truth. The truth will set you free.
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UPDATE: February 20, 2015
I'm sorry. The original content for this page, has been removed.
I have removed all 1,371 of my How-To Articles For Writers in protest to a cyber bully attack.
I have Autism and write Autistic main characters and because of this, a small group of very elitists authors in their own words said:
"let's dry up her (book) sales"
"retards should not be allowed to write"
"we need to kill her career"
"Let's destroy her career"
"too stupid to live"
"the only good retard is a dead retard"
'the world would be a better place if you just dropped dead"
"people like her need to be shot in the head"
"justified in boycotting retarded books about retarded characters written by retards"
KEEP READING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED:
(NOTE: It's long - it'll take about 8 hours to read.)
(UPDATE: February 28, 2015: This page now includes an updated re-write of my 2007 Squidoo article "On Being An Adult with Autism")
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QUESTION: Will you be reposting your articles for authors?
ANSWER: Yes. They will go back online starting around August 2015...BUT...they will no longer be free access, you will have to pay money if you want to read them.
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QUESTION: Why did you take your content down?
ANSWER: Short answer is there are people in the world who are mean, cruel, cold-hearted, and take great pleasure in hurting others. I don't like being pushed around by bullies.
Slightly longer short answer is that a small group of authors, after using my articles to jump start their writing careers, decided to make an active attempt to boycott me and my books.
In their own words they said:
"let's dry up her (book) sales"
"retards should not be allowed to write"
"we need to kill her career"
"Let's destroy her career"
"too stupid to live"
"the only good retard is a dead retard"
"the world would be a better place if you just dropped dead"
"people like her need to be shot in the head"
"justified in boycotting retarded books about retarded characters written by retards"
This happened at the same time my account had been hacked. How did he/she access my account? Well, I do know the answer to that. Once I realized that my Kboards account, my Twitter account, and my WordPress blog had all 3 been hacked and all sorts of weird posts were being made on all 3 of them. What did the 3 accounts have in common? They all had the same log-in password, which in each case was a very short and easy to guess password, as all 3 of these accounts were made nearly a decade ago with simple 4 letter passwords were all that was needed to be "secure". Yes, that was very stupid of me. I should have changed the passwords and made them stronger, I never did, because...who hacks someone's forum account? You don't think you need a strong password in a place like Kboards, I means, crazy enough to hack an author's forum account?
When I first realized my account had been hacked, I corrected a few dozen of the posts on the Kboards back to their original state and intended to do this with all the hacked posts, but the next day all the corrected posts had been rehacked, and a very snark "Haha! You can't stop me!" message had been added to the forum signature.
That was when I realized the hacker was hacking still and it had not been a 1-time hack. I corrected some more posts, and then watched to see what happened and a few hours later, my signature was changed again, to yet another snarky posts, one which said something about buying 2 new Rolls Royces just to spite other authors. (And while the Rolls Royce is my favorite car and this is a widely known fact, I do not own one.)
A few days later, my Twitter feed suddenly got bombarded with posting dozens and dozens of book promos for Kboards member DW's newest book.
I realized at that post that it was more then just my Kboards account that had been hacked.
And for the record, I NEVER promote another author's book unless I have first read said book, and you will NEVER see me post the link more then once.
I contacted DW about this and h had no knowledge of why his books were being blasted at a rate of dozens of spam posts an hour via my Twitter account.
I was trying to figure it out when I realized: "OMG! My Twitter account uses the same password as my Kboards account!"
I changed the password on my Twitter account and immediately the bombardment of spam links to other authors' books stopped posting.
I then changed my password on Kboards and the posts stopped being changed. At that point I set out to correcting the posts back to their original form, but then, while I was doing that I got side swiped by JDP/EA's and LG's raging fury, (which in all likelihood was the hacker, retaliating from losing access to my account) and their posts stirring up several other members to join in the herd mentality attack with them, I just said, I really don't want to deal with this.
It's too stressful, I've got too much going on in my life, my health was really bad just then, I was going in for surgery the following week, I just had too many IMPORTANT issues to deal with, I didn't want to have to try to juggle some stupid petty forum war with a bunch of very unprofessional authors who had nothing better to do then fight on a forum.
I mean I they want to act like stupid, childish, unprofessional, spoilt brats, tossing labels and name calling around on a forum, then fine, go ahead, I don't care. It's their own career they are destroying. No good ever comes from attack other people on a forum. Every author who jumps in on something like that is just going to get their career dragged down by it.
What gets me really mad about all of this, is I just walked out. I never said a word. I never commented, never posted a single forum posts, never said anything on my blog, never said anything on Twitter or FaceBook. Nothing No where. I just walked away. And I was in and out of the hospital from October to February, so I wasn't online that whole time, and I kind of forgot about the Kboards incident.
Well, here it is 6 months later (March 2015) and I'm just getting back online again, and I come to find out that, good god, even though I wasn't even online and I had never once responded to a single thing these people said or did, they were STILL attacking me and dragging my name through the mud and screaming "let's dry up her sales" "we need to destroy her career", and well, that's why 7 months after this started, I've decided enough is enough, it's high time I put my foot down and make a public statement about this.
These people are really getting out of hand. They are just absolutely out of control and I for one and sick and tired of the nasty, filthy, sick-minded rumors, lies, and gossip these people are spreading about me.
I mean the stuff that these people are saying about me, come with a MINIMUM 40 years in prison sentence. The stuff they are saying is VERY serious. They are falsely accusing me of having done things that I'm not even physically capable of doing.
The stuff they are saying about me - these are beyond minor little things: they are calling me a pedophile - a crime that has a 40 year prison sentence. They are small minded people who have resorted to making up lies about my sex life, in what they themselves term an attempted to "dry up her sales and kill her career".
This has gone beyond a "normal" little forum war.
Their attacks left the internet and went offline. They did $15,000 of damage to my farm, destroyed my crops, destroyed our source of drinking water, and I ended up in the hospital in critical condition.
I had to be hospitalized in critical condition on November 14, 2014. That was a Tuesday and the doctors, didn't expect me to make it to the end of the week.
I had a heart attack and went into septic shock..
My blood pressure was 70/60 and my heart rate 122.
Doctors freaked out because a red stripe showed up on my left arm, from my shoulder to my hand, and the veins on my neck and chest, turned purple and my chest turned blue.
I'm not sure what that meant, I don't know medical stuff, but they said I almost died.
I was still touch and go until December 27, 2014. And it's now February and I'm still not well enough to drive.
Two authors died in the forum war that is going on, on KBoards already.
They almost made it three.
It bothers me a lot when people die. Suicide bothers me a lot.
I'm the survivor of a mass murder-suicide that happened when I was 14. I've seen people die from suicide and murder and I can't get it out of my head. It's why I write about murder and suicide in all of my stories. Because I have Autism, I forget nothing and I can't get what happened out of my head.
So when members of the Kboards forum started committing suicide over what the forum trolls were doing to them, it bothered me a lot, that no one cared enough to stand up to these trolls.
It bothered me a lot that the bullies didn't care that 2 authors died from their bullying and they just moved on to other authors, as the authors they were bullying died.
I'm sorry, but my health is not well enough for me to to try to keep track of anything extra any more. I can't take the risk of another PTSD attack like that. I barely lived through that one. Doctors say I won't make it through another.
That's why I deleted all of my accounts, all my posts, all my articles, everywhere, not just KBoards.
I love talking with my readers.
I love helping other writers.
But I'm not physically strong enough to do that in the midsts of others being mean and vindictive. It is a matter of life and death now, and as suicidal as I have been in the past, this whole event, this almost dying, did make me realize I don't really want to die, I just want the pain to stop. Beside, I have a 130 part serial to finish. In spite of the people who hate the series, I've got quite a few fans who are eagerly awaiting more of it. I can't very well write it if I'm dead.
My How-To Articles for writers, will never made freely available again. From now on, if you want them, you're gonna have to buy them.
QUESTION: Is it true that the author(s) behind this made an attempt to get your books removed from Amazon?
ANSWER: Yes. See the next question for full details:
QUESTION: I can't find your Quaraun books on Amazon. I tried searching for them but they are not coming up. They were there yesterday and now they are gone. How do I find these books on Amazon?
ANSWER: Yes, I know. Amazon has temporarily (hopefully) removed them from public access, stuffed them in the Erotica section and slapped the "adult filter" over them so that they no longer come up for sale to the general public, while complaints about, so called "pedophile Erotica" are being reviewed.
Someone complained about the Quaraun series. Don't know who or why, (although I do know who it was who has been running all over the internet falsely accusing my books of being what she termed "pedophile Erotica") but yes, the Quaraun series is not going to come up in search results, because the "ADULT" tag has been slapped onto it.
This is actually an interesting phenomena, you see, this the the first time I've ever heard of a NON-EROTICA book, being bitch slapped by Amazon.
What happens is, Amazon deams some books to have cover art that is "too risque" to be viewed by the general public, so they put a filter known as "the ADULT tag" on the book, so that no one under 18 can accidentally find it and look at it's naughty cover art.
Yes, I did say cover art.
Let's look at that naughty cover art, shall we?
Yeah... we got a naked Unicorn, and naked horse, and a naked statue in a graveyard.
Yep, I'm as puzzled as you are.
Amazon put the "Adult" tag on a non Erotica book? I have never seen that happen before. This is new.
People who have actually read my books, know I don't write Erotica. And yet the adult filter is only placed on Erotica books, so something is screwy here.
Quaraun got bitch slapped by Amazon. (March 5, 2015) Every volume. They just put the “adult” tag on the whole series.
I have never seen a non-Erotica book get the adult tag before.
I know it’s not the covers, because there’s unicorns and horses on the covers. Cartoon horses at that.
And it’s not the keywords because the keywords are “Elf, fairies, phooka, unicorn, wizardry”
That means someone complained. Someone specifically contacted Amazon and complained about the books. Uhm...okay...why?
Interesting it happened right after 1 author created 52 fake Amazon accounts, gave each volume 52 fake 1 stars, and then Amazon deleted all her accounts for ToS violation.
*Hi Kendra*
So, the members of KBoards are STILL lashing out I see. Is this really the type of petty thing these people have resorted to? I mean, really? Are they really that childish?
*shakes head*
7 months now. They've been pulling these sick twisted little stunts like this for 7 months now. (Kendra has been pulling them for 9 years now. I expect this sort of brainless behavior from her.) The sad part is, is that I have no clue why they are so hung up on me an my books. God! What in the hell did I write in these books that they hate them so much? I don't get it? Don't these people have anything better to do? Are their lives really that empty and meaningless that they have nothing more important to do with their time?
7 freaking months? Don’t you guys ever get tired of bothering me? What is your frigging problem? Good God, this is stalking you know. Look up the definition of stalking. You Kboards creeps are stalking me and I'm sick of it. Will you just get out of my life and leave me alone? Some people just don't have a life.
I guess I’ll go update my website now. I have thoughts and opinions on this, the newest attack on my books, by some very annoying authors who apparently have unicorn horns rammed up their asses, must go write about this.
Yes, you know I’m going to write Unicorn killing a character by ramming his horn up their ass. I just have to. That’s all there is to it. You know, I did just write a scene today, with him skewering human heads on his horn… wouldn’t be too hard to alter that scene. :P
For those who don’t know, Quaraun is a gay, transvestite, Autistic Gypsy, and there exist a handful of religious do-goodie “Christian” authors who are self-righteously indignant over the fact that such a character exists. Some are screaming anti-gay rants, some are screaming anti-Gypsy rants, some are screaming anti-tranny rants, some are screaming anti-retard rants, ad for some unknown reason some are screaming anti-Erotica rants (about a book that isn't even Erotica to begin with!) Each of them has a complaint, some multiple complaints. They are trying to stage a boycott of my books, which would funny if it wasn’t so danged annoying.
Most of the offenders stopped when confronted with this, some required cease and desist orders to get them to stop, the three most persistent offenders, who continue to this day to harass me, have now been added to my blacklist.
But, anyways, yes, that does mean the books are no longer showing up in search results unless you search specifically for the title itself now. The series no longer shows up in general search results.
I'll have to ask Amazon what the reason was for the tag being added, because as far as I know it's only used on Erotica, and this is not Erotica.
But yes, as of March 5, 2015, The Quaraun books are all moved into Erotica and had the adult filter put on them. They are no longer available by general search on Amazon and can ONLY be accessed via clicking a direct link from an outside site linking directly to the sales page. (That's what the "adult filter" does. You can search for Erotica books on amazon, but an "adult filtered" Erotica book is one that has been de-listed from the Amazon website and can only be found via direct-link access.) Essentially what the "adult filter" does is kill sales 100%, because once the adult filter is placed on your book, the only way for someone to buy it is if the author themselves gives the link to the sales page to the customer.
The adult filter is a really, really, really, really, REALLY bad thing to have put on your book, because it means NO ONE has access to buying your book anymore.
Basically your book has been removed from sale to the general public and if you want to buy it, you have to contact the author and ask the author to send you a link to the sale page, so you can buy the book. It is absolutely the worst thing you could have happen to your book.
Needless to say I am very upset that this has happened, because what it means is that basically the Quaraun books are no longer available for sale. You can still buy them, but you have to come directly to my website, find a link to the sale page, and buy them that way. Well, how many people even know to come to my site to look for a link to the sales page? Not many.
It means that the books have gone from 2 to 5 copies sold per title per week, to absolutely ZERO sales at all because they have been removed from the general search index and are no longer available for sale to the general public. You really got to hate an author an awful lot to do something this hate filled, evil, and vindictive to their books.
UPDATE: March 10, 2015
I have heard back from Amazon on one of the books. Into the Swamp of Death has been manually reviewed (meaning someone at Amazon's customer service department has physically read the book to determine if the contents are Erotica and if it requires and adult filter or not.)
They have determined that the book is not Erotica and was moved to the Erotica department by mistake and it has now been taken out of the Erotica department, and the adult filter removed.
Amazon is very good about fixing problems. And after 5 days in review, Amazon has informed me that they have reviewed my book, I am correct, it is not Erotica, it doesn't belong in Erotica, they apologized for the inconvenience, and tell me they have moved it to the category they feel is "most appropriate".
I had originally placed it in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
After someone complained, it was moved without review to: Books › Literature & Fiction › Erotica › Fantasy
After "careful review" (someone at Amazon actually reading the book) Amazon has decided that Into The Swamp of Death belongs in: Books › Literature & Fiction › Genre Fiction › Horror › Dark Fantasy
Uhm...okay. That's not where I had put it originally, but, yep, I can see how it could be seen as Horror and Dark Fantasy. So, Amazon has officially declared that the Quaraun series IS NOT Erotica and is Dark Fantasy.
I am still waiting to hear back about the other 2, but at least one of them has been put back in general search results.
UPDATE: March 14, 2015
I have heard back from Amazon - the adult filter is removed from Screaming Unicorn and it's been moved out of Erotica to Dark Fantasy where it belongs.
So, 2 of the 3 books that had been inaccurately moved to the Erotica section and adult filtered are now fixed - waiting to hear back on 1 more.
I would say this might explain all the questions I've been getting asking if the books were Erotica, except for the fact that they were only moved into Erotica a week ago and I've been getting these questions since last September. Whoever it is telling people these books are Erotica, I wish they'd stop it. Do you have any idea how frustrating it is, having to keep answering the same question over and over again: no, it's not Erotica. No, it's not Erotica. No, it's not Erotica...no, please, stop asking, no, it's not. Sheese. I mean, good God, Where are people finding information telling them that this is Erotica and WHO is saying it? It's really annoying.
Somebody is misrepresenting my books and I really don't like it. By misrepresenting my books, they are misrepresenting me and my reputation and I don't like that.
I can't help but be reminded of the Kboards incident and their threat to:
"let's dry up her (book) sales"
"we need to kill her career"
"Let's destroy her career"
"people like her need to be shot in the head"
If you want to dry up someone's book sale and essentially kill their career on Amazon, there is no better way to do it then to report their books to Amazon, lying to say the books are Erotica, not listed as Erotica, and demand the adult filter be put on them.
A week before the adult filter was put on the Screaming Unicorn, it had a sales rank of 705,143.
After just 9 days with the adult filter on it, it's sales rank is now: 2,061,964.
Yeah, THAT is what the adult filter does to a book. If you are that mean, that evil, that hateful, you CAN kill an author's career by demanding Amazon put the adult filter on a book, because the adult filter puts a 100% freeze on sales.
If you have steady sales (even low steady sales) and sudden one day your sales stop short and you have 100% sales - then check for the adult filter. Number one cause of sudden 100% drop in sales is the adult filter. It is the most horrible thing you can have happen to your book.
Unfortunately, if an author, pretending to be a reader, requests the adult filter put on a book, Amazon, DOES NOT review the book, and simply puts the adult filter on it. Sadly, there has been a rash of unscrupulous and unprofessional authors, contacting Amazon requesting the adult filter be placed on other authors books, to sink sales rank (the theory is, if the other authors' books sink, their books will rise. It doesn't work that way, but that's the black hat belief behind the practice.) Sadly, you can go to places like the Warrior Forum, and find PDFs for sale which tell you step-by-step how to do this dirty pool tactic.
Since the WF started selling these How-To guides (in 2013) there has been a rash of THOUSANDS of authors, getting the adult filter inaccurately placed on their books. It's a horrible hate-scam tactic of trying to boost sales to your own books, by attempting to kill sales to other author's books, and it's a hugely popular trend the past 2 years. I've had dozens of my author friends get attacked by other authors this way, but this is the first time it's happened to me.
It is important to note that the adult filter is ONLY placed on Erotica books, and in order to get it put on a non-Erotica book, someone has to contact Amazon and say "AUTHOR NAME is putting their Erotica books in non-Erotica categories" - Amazon then moves the books to Erotica - WITHOUT DOING A MANUAL REVIEW. The end result is, there are quite a few books in the Erotica department, that are not Erotica and often, the author has no clue their books were moved to the Erotica section.
NOTE: in your KDP dashboard, it'll still say the books are listed in the original categories. To find out if your book has been moved to Erotica, try running a Countdown Deal, and look for the note which says:
"At this time, books that contain mature or erotic content are not eligible for advertising. See advertising guidelines" in the "Run an ad campaign" section. Right beside the Countdown Deal section.
YES! Not only does the adult filter block your books out of showing up in the search results, but it also blocks you out of the marketing dashboard too, and doesn't allow you to run promotions for your book!
Basically if the adult filter gets slapped on your book, you're screwed. You ARE NOT selling another copy of that book again EVER!
The thing is, the adult filter is there for a purpose. It is SUPPOSED to be used, to keep X-rated book cover images from showing up in the search results.
It allows Erotica authors, to publish their books on Amazon, and then created create links to the books on their own personal homepage, allowing Erotica authors to sell books that normally aren't allowed to be sold on Amazon.
The adult filter, prevents the books from showing up on Amazon, while allowing an author to run the own "adult book store" on their own web site. So, the author would be hosting an 18+ porn site, and be able to make money selling their XXX books.
In it's intended purpose the adult filter is a good thing, because it allows X-rated adult books to be sold, allowing authors to make an income. Before the adult filter existed, authors of XXX/adult books had to create their own PDFs or just post the stories online for free. The adult filter now allows them to actually publish those books and earn an income.
Unfortunately, there are people out there who are abusing the system, and are using the adult filter to sink the sales of books that should have the adult filter on them at all. It's a very low brow black hat tactic.
Someone specifically contacting Amazon and making such a request, is the ONLY way a book can get the adult filter put on it 7 months after publication (Screaming Unicorn was published 7 months prior to the adult filter being placed on it). Normally Amazon would put the filter on the book PRIOR to publication, when they review the book, after the author submits it for publication.
There are 4 authors who, for several months now have been champaigning to as they put it:
"let's dry up her (book) sales"
"we need to kill her career"
"Let's destroy her career"
In October they tried to stage a mini protest and boycott n a forum for writers. They then did the same thing on 2 other forums for writers (that I know of. I'm not sure if they did it on any other forums or not.)
One of them is fairly local (a 2 hour drive from me) and so staged an offline protest as well, along with vandalism of our family's farm (doing $15,000 in damages to the town, in addition to the damages to our property.)
In December, the same local one, then created 52 fake accounts on Amazon and gave Screaming Unicorn and Fire Mountain EACH 52 one star reviews, and then had a 300+ comment argument with herself in the comments of said reviews. I don't read my book reviews so I was unaware this was happening until, I found out about it via a friend who had read them and asked what in the heck was this author talking about. Before I got a chance to read all of the comments, Amazon deleted all 52 of that author's fake accounts.
This has been going on, since October, with every few weeks, one of these 4 authors (who may actually all be only one person, I don't any of these authors and none of them use a real author photo, all 4 of them are very much "fake" pennames, and two of them use identical phrases, so I actually suspect it's really only 1 author with 4 different pennames) does something like this.
This, having my non-Erotica books, moved to Erotica and adult filtered, is just the latest of this author's attacks on my books. (And, if you know who I'm talking about - you also know that she has been attacking my books, for 9 years now and her most violent attack included to post a request online for someone to kill me, she put my home address in the post and a few days later October 18, 2006, someone put a grease fryer bomb in my house, which left my family homeless and me and my dad both crippled for the rest of our lives.)
I wish I knew who this woman was and what it was this woman had against me, because it's mind boggling to me, why it is she pulls these stunts. Do you know how maddening it is for someone to spend 9 years doing weird things like this, and you have no idea who they are or why they are doing it? None of this makes any sense to me. *sigh* Oh, well. I suppose eventually she'll have to make it known what exactly it is her motive behind all this is, but until then, there's not much I can do but continue to side step her and clean up the messes she keeps dumping in my lap.
Fortunately, if someone is mean enough to do something like this to one of your books, there is a way to fix it, once you discover it has happened.
Here's what you do. In KDP, go to "Contact Us" and tell Amazon that your Non-Erotica book is being listed as Erotica (no need to mention the adult filter) and ask for a manual review of your book. Explain you did not put the book in the Erotica category, it is not Erotica and could someone please review it to verify that your book is in fact not Erotica and then put it back into the category in which you had originally placed it.
Amazon is very good about fixing problems. And after 9 days in review, Amazon has informed me that they have reviewed my book, I am correct, it is not Erotica, it doesn't belong in Erotica, they apologized for the inconvenience, and tell me they have moved it to the category they feel is "most appropriate".
I had originally placed it in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
After someone complained, it was moved without review to: Books › Literature & Fiction › Erotica › Fantasy
After "careful review" (someone at Amazon actually reading the book) Amazon has decided that Screaming Unicorn belongs in: Books › Literature & Fiction › Genre Fiction › Horror › Dark Fantasy
Uhm...okay. That's not where I had put it originally, but, yep, I can see how it could be seen as Horror and Dark Fantasy. So, once again, Amazon has officially declared that the Quaraun series IS NOT Erotica and is Dark Fantasy.
UPDATE: March 14, 2015 (an hour later)
Okay - that was fast - while I was typing that last update - I just got another email from Amazon - okay - so all 3 of the books that got moved to Erotica last week and adult filtered, are back out of Erotica and filter removed - YAY!
Interestingly while Amazon declared Screaming Unicorn and Swamp of Death as Dark Fantasy, they have put Vampire Leprechaun in Epic Fantasy.
Amazon is very good about fixing problems. And after 9 days in review, Amazon has informed me that they have reviewed my book, I am correct, it is not Erotica, it doesn't belong in Erotica, they apologized for the inconvenience, and tell me they have moved it to the category they feel is "most appropriate".
I had originally placed it in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
After someone complained, it was moved without review to: Books › Literature & Fiction › Erotica › Fantasy
After "careful review" (someone at Amazon actually reading the book) Amazon has decided that Vampire Leprechaun belongs in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
Hey! That's where I had it to begin with! Yay! So, once again, Amazon has officially declared that the Quaraun series IS NOT Erotica and is in fact Fantasy.
So... it's now no longer just me saying this series is NOT Erotica. Amazon has manually reviewed the Quaraun series and has decided it to be Dark Fantasy.
And, thankfully, after 9 long days locked away in the adult filter dungeon, all of the Quaraun books are now back in general search results! YAY!
So, I just checked and, yep, the books are back in the Fantasy (Dark for 2 and Epic for the other) department. The adult filter is gone. And the books are once again showing up in general search results, so you can once again access/buy them directly off the Amazon site without having to request a direct link to the sales page from the author anymore. Thank goodness!
I am so glad that is fixed. You have no idea how stressful the last 9 days have been for me, waiting for Amazon to review these books and give me their verdict.
This is a very frustrating issue, because my books ARE my only source of income and, they made an active attempt to have then removed and they did get the books taken offline for a period of 9 days while amazon manually reviewed the situation and then came to the conclusion that it was a false accusation and my books had no reason to be removed and were put back up for sale.
The people behind this CONTINUING attack on my career, are very, very, very hateful people as you can see from the things they are doing. I wish I knew why they were doing this What is it they hate about me and my books so much that they feel they are justified in these actions? It is almost as if they see me and my books as a threat, but I don't see how they could. I have never had a book sell more then 10 copies in a single week, my books are not famous nor are they close to best sellers. With sales that low my my books are of no threat to anyone. None of this makes any sense to me. Normal people don't do things like this to other people. Only some one with a sick, twisted, corropt mind would go out of their way to try to hurt a fellow human.
But it is now official:
According to Amazon:
THESE BOOKS ARE NOT EROTICA!
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QUESTION: GOD! How much time did you spend writing this? It took me 8 hours to read it!
ANSWER: I type at a speed of 91 words a minute. That's about 5,000 words an hour. I wrote it in 28 sessions of 3 hours each. 3 hours each day over a period of 28 days. My calculator says that 28x3=84 hours. And not all of it is on this page. This only an excerpt of the book. Yes. I said book. What you are reading here is actually only excerpts of a book.
Yes. I did stop writing the Quaraun series, for a few weeks to write this book instead.
QUESTION: Why did they do this?
ANSWER: Because I have Autism and they thought they could get away with it. They thought I was too retarded to fight back.
But they forgot one thing: I don't have normal Autism. I have Savant Autism. I have one thing I can do extraordinarily well...and guess what that is? I can write my thought with vivid clarity and even without talking I can tell the world what they did.
If you don't know what savant Autism is, watch this 6 minute video. This is a very accurate description of the type of Autism I have:
I talk like this.^^^^
I act like this.^^^^
People online read my words and they think I am normal like them. They rarely know, what it is to be an Adult with Autism. Because they do not see me act or hear me talk, they only read my words, they do not know that I am what they would call "retarded" if they met me in person.
Because I can write just as good as any normal person can, people who are not physically seeing me or hearing me, forget that I am severely disabled.
I may be too retarded to do a single damned thing else, but I write. I write a lot. And I don't like being bullied. And I'm not gonna sit back and be bullied. Nor will I sit back and watch them bully others.
See below for more full details:
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Dear Bullies,
My quick response to your belief that I am:
"too stupid to live"
"people like her need to be shot in the head"
is this:
The first video is you. Your annoying, bitchy mouth is going yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap...
The second video is me: a pink, sparkling, gay, Autistic cat, flying through space, blocking out your bitching and whining by going "Nyan-Nyan-Nyan-Nyan..."
Push play, on BOTH of them, at the same time...and WATCH the green llamas. Just blow your mind. The effect is amazing.
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My long response, is this:
As most of my readers know, my books are not mainstream and attract far more hate mail then fans. I have Autism and I write main characters who have Autism. I irk people. My character irk people. My books are frequently being protested by someone ,somewhere, pretty much all the time, I'm used to this happening, and in 40 years of these sorts of things, my only response to any of them was simply to not respond at all. EVER. Not once. So you are probably asking, why am I responding to THIS one?
Why? Because I just got out of the hospital and most of my readers knew I was in the hospital and have been asking why? And I got to thinking...I almost died and if I had, I would have been the third author to be killed in a forum war that left the forum and went offline and I started to realize: two people died and the world should why those authors died, why I almost became casualty number three.
So I am breaking my own rule of never responding to a negative comment to respond to this one, because I think if I don't come forward with what happened, none other authors will. They are too scared and fact is, that's not right. These authors need to go to the police with what has happened to them. Because if they don't more author are going to get hurt, and more authors are going to die.
In February 2013, a couple of authors were attack by other authors on Kboards. The incident shocked everyone and we thought it was a one time thing.
A year later, February 2014, it happened again. Bigger, bolder, then before. The attackers started "picking off" first one author and then another. I personally witnessed 72 authors get targetting. In October 2014, I became author #73 to fall under heavy fire.
In each case, they targeted either a new release or a book with high sales rank. They found something about either the book or author to "target" and then lashed out.
The MAJOR complaint they had about my book was the fact that the main character is retarded. There were several authors in hysterics over the thought of a retarded main character...or at least that's what they said. I'm not sure that was really the issue. Like I said, they had targeted 72 authors before they got to me, and they were able to have an issue with everyone of them, and it was never the same issue, although, a bunch of the books targeted did have gay characters and they did use that as an excuse for their attacks frequently.
One of the authors in question was so infuriated at the thought of a retarded main character, that she created 52 Amazon Accounts, gave this book 52 one-star reviews and then in the comments second had a 52 account argument with herself than ran for more then 300 comments. Her comments went back and forth between her hatred for "retards" and her hatred for Gypsies. She reposted the comment "This is a retarded book, with retarded characters, written by a retard for retards" more then 70 times.
In the forum posts on KBoards, the authors specifically said that they were commenting in reference to what they called "The Unicorn Book" or "The Leprechaun Book." Other terms they used where "The retarded unicorn book", "the retarded leprechaun book", and "the sissy forest elf books" along with several other less savory terms.
I ignored them for 5 months. Did not respond to them. Did not even acknowledge that I was aware of what they were saying...until they left the internet and arrived in my yard to physically attack me offline. That is why I am responding now...now that I am out of the hospital and can respond to what they did.
A lot of my books are not liked by a lot of people. I know that. That never stopped me from writing 600+ books in the past however many years it's been since I published my first book in 1978.
600+ books in nearly 40 years, means I've gotten a lot of hate mail over the years. My name has been dragged around a lot of forums over the years. Blog posts, boycotts...even a book burning in 1993.
I've never responded to any of them before. Until now. I'm responding to this one, because on November 14, 2014. That was a Tuesday and the doctors, didn't expect me to make it to the end of the week.
I had a heart attack and went into septic shock..
My blood pressure was 70/60 and my heart rate 122. I'm not sure what the numbers are supposed to be.
Doctors freaked out because a red stripe showed up on my left arm, from my shoulder to my hand, and the veins on my neck and chest, turned purple and my chest turned blue. The red stripe was the weirdest thing I've ever seen. It was just like someone had painted a red pinstripe up my arm. I've never seen anything like that before. Doctors said it meant that if my caretaker hadn't brought me to the hospital when he did, I would have been dead within an hour, but I'm not sure why. He said it meant there was something wrong with my heart.
I'm not sure what that meant, I have Autism, I don't know medical stuff, but they said I almost died. They were very scared. It's scary when you doctor is scared, because that means there's some very wrong.
I was still touch and go until December 27, 2014. I was very bad off for more then a month. That's why no books got published in December or January and why I was offline for so long. And it's now February 2015 and I'm still not well enough to drive.
But I wasn't the only author they attacked. This group of authors violently lashed out at 73 authors, several authors ended up hospitalized, two authors died, some lost their careers. And it bothers me that they hurt so many people. And for no reason. Near as I can tell, they were just "looking to have fun" and thought destroying live was fun.
Of course the ones doing the instigating, they weren't looking to have fun. They mad. They were really mad, hugely angry at Hugh Howey and they said they were "going to stop at nothing to destroy Hugh Howey and all his author buddies". They even posted a list on a blog of authors they intended to target.
Somehow they got it into their heads, that these particular authors they were targeting were friends with Hugh Howey. I don't know Hugh Howey. I've never even read any of his books. I'm not sure what he writes, even. I'm not sure how they came to the conclusion that I was one of what they termed "Hugh Howey's author buddies" but somehow they did and that's how my book got swept up in this really freakish forum war. I'm not sure what specifically they were mad about, they were rambling about some contest they had entered, and they thought they should have won, and I guess Hugh Howey was one of the contest judges or something. I don't know, I'm not sure what the contest was, I don't follow Hugh Howey's work, I've never read any of his books, I'm not even sure what he wrote. I don't read ebooks. I only read print books.
The hacker went into my account and changed every post I had written those 7 years. They edited all my helpful responses, changing them into mean snark, putting people down, calling them "welfare bums" and saying that they "stupid" and their "lack of income" was "proof" of that.
I checked the dates. Whoever was doing this was logging in daily. At the top of each post you make on KB is the date and time the post was made. At the bottom of every edited post is the date and time of the edit. On my posts made during the months of August, September, and October 2014, the two times were hours apart. I would usually post on KB in the morning (4AM to 6AM) and so all of my posts were started in early morning hours. The time the hacker edited the posts would be in the afternoon or evening of the same day (noon to 6PM). On posts made before August, to 7 years back, nearly all of the edits were made in October 2014.
The hacker was changing my posts without my knowledge and continued to do so until I found out about it October 27, 2014, at which point I set out to undo their edits and restore my posts back to their original states. I keep copies of everything, so it was a simple matter to delete their edited posts and paste the original back into it's place. I spent several days doing this.
On November 10, 2014, when I posted a new post, I noticed my signature quote had been changed. It was a snarky reference to the Rolls Royce photos. So I went back and checked. The posts, I had restored, had been edited AGAIN, to even worse snark then they had been the first time.
That same day L.G. was flipping out in hysterics on every thread on the site. Doing her "report all EelKat's posts" blah, blah, blah. While JdP, now EA, was likewise lashing out her anti-EelKat posts, with the 50+ "EAF Erotica Authors" cheering her on.
I had spent a week, undoing the damage the hacker had done, only to have them redo it as fast as I corrected it.
On the next day I changed my password and deleted all 1,371 posts off of KBoards, as it was easier then trying to go back in and edit each post one at a time to restore the original contents.
Why did I not stay and fight? Why did I just delete my posts and leave?
I spent 5 months of 2014 bedridden from a back, hip, and knee injury that happened February 2014. I'm still not fully recovered from that as it complicated a previous illness I already had. I was in and out of the hospital several times in October, and by the time I found out on November 11th what was going on, my health had reached a "danger zone" due to a septic infection doctors had overlooked.
On November 10th I was not well enough to want to even try to deal with the online shit. I had more important offline shit to deal with and so rather then do anything to defend myself against the trolls, I simply deleted every post off every forum, and took all my blogs offline.
I was admitted into the hospital November 14 in critical condition and I almost died. Like I said, the stupid silly online drama was not a very high priority at that point, considering doctors were pretty sure I wouldn't even make it to the end of the week.
I was rushed back into the hospital for surgery on December 2, 2014 and the first signs that my health was coming back around did not show up until December 17, 2014. Doctor still had me listed as "in critical condition" until December 27, 2014
I am writing this today on February 20, 2015 from my bed. I'm still not well enough to be back up and around. Because of my health issues all the book releases due in October, November, December, January, and February got pushed back, with publication dates unknown because I'm simply not well enough to sit up and type for long periods of time.
That is why I deleted my posts. My health is simply not well enough to bother dealing with the stress. That and no other reason. I don't care what other people are telling you. All those things they are telling you, simply is not true.
The members involved in this attack, every one of them came from the EAF forum. They were NOT long time regular members of KBoards. They were just petty, whinny, jealous crybabies looking for a bone to pick and I happened to be in the right place at the right time. What they did was extremely undignified and unprofessional and in the long run, they are only hurting themselves and their own careers, because what they did, they did on a Google searchable public forum in front of the whole world to see.
I have my own life to live, my own family to take care of, my own career to run...I can't be bothered to to join in on some stupid, petty forum war. They want to fight with someone? Fine. Just remember it takes 2 to fight. I choose to pick my battles. I stand up and fight against things that are important. Guess what? They were not important. Those people were nothing to me but stupid, racist slugs, not worthy of my time or effort. And so rather then join in on their little war, I chose to simply leave and take all my old helpful posts with me.
Simple fact of the matter is this: They can not attack me, if I'm not there for them to attack. They can not hack my posts and rewrite them into stupid chicken shit lies, if I have no posts for them to hack.
I have better things to do with my time, then fight with forum trolls.
I was not the only member whose account was hacked in this manner. Nearly every "minority race" member who had replied on that "minority race" thread, had their account attacked and/or hacked. (Several of them have contacted me to tell me that I wasn't alone that they too had been attacks and/or hacked) I noticed it in October, that two members suddenly started saying really wild things that were completely out of character. D.D. for example had formerly been a very helpful member and suddenly, was a gibbering braggart, claiming to be earning $30,000 a month while calling that "low income". L.G. another formerly helpful member, suddenly was also claiming to be earning insane amounts of money ($14k a week in one post) and sticking it to everyone not making enough to be "in the club".
It was utterly insane the way the entire of Kboards had turned into a "I make more money then you" riot for a while. But what was worse, was when I discovered my posts were like that too! Good god! That was one of the things the hacker had done to my posts and it made me wonder how many of these other crazy money claims were a result of a hacker as well!
But the thing is, they really went wild in their attacks on these authors and...
Two authors died in the war on KBoards already.
That is why I have chosen to respond to this incident when normally I would simply ignore something like this. Because this wasn't a normal "I hate your book" incident. This wasn't readers not liking a book. This was authors in violent competition with one another.
People died. I almost died, and I wasn't even a part of their war.
I wasn't even a bystander watching their war.
I don't even know what they are fighting about.
They just got so out of control, that they started pulling in any author that happened to be a member of any forum Hugh Howey was a member of. These people are out of control and someone needs to stop them, before another author dies.
No one is talking about what happened, because people are scared.
These authors who were attacked - they are terrified, and that's not right.
They are scared to post on KBoards anymore, and that's not right.
They are scared to talk online to their readers anymore, and that's not right.
They are scared to share information to help new writers get started in their writing career anymore, and that's not right.
These people terrified out their minds. Many of them, didn't just leave KBoards - they left everything - they even unpublished all their books, all their social networks, all their blogs - they vanished completely offline. They were that frightened for their lives and the lives of their families, and that's not right.
Some of them, were so terrified, that they commit suicide, and that's not right.
This should not have happened.
The world needs to know what happened to those authors. Why they vanished. Why they unpublished their books. Why they shut all their online sites. Why some of them even commit suicide.
This is the worst case of authors behaving badly I have ever seen.
I've had hundreds of people hate my books before, thousands of people. I'm used to that. It's important that understand, this attack on this book, was NOT readers. This was a group of authors who banded together in a very underhanded attempt to destroy the careers of 73 authors, whom they felt for various reasons "deserved it".
I'm not going to address the issue they attacked other authors for, I will leave that to the other authors themselves. It is my hope, that the other authors who were attacked on Kboards during this horrible event, please come forward and share you story of what happened to you.
TELL YOUR READERS WHAT HAPPENED!
THEY DESERVE TO KNOW!
There is a frightful trend in authors attacking authors, and it's getting worse. It needs to stop. People have died. This have gotten out of control. Someone needs to stop them.
PLEASE COME FORWARD!
TELL PEOPLE WHAT THEY DID TO YOU!
DON'T LET THEM DO THIS TO ANYONE ELSE!
Each of the 73 authors attacked, were attacked for different "reasons". The "reasons" they gave in their forum posts on KBoards for attacking my books were "retarded characters", "Gypsy characters", and oddly "FAKE Erotica" (though, I'm what the term "FAKE Erotica" means.) They changed their specified reason depending on which author they were aiming their posts to.
I suppose part of the issue becomes: Is the main character retarded and, why?
So let me answer one reader's question, and that will then explain why I wrote Quaraun the way I did, and perhaps, you'll understand better why it is these authors were flipping out over Quaraun's character.
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*This question and it's answer was previously written and being copied from HERE, so it doesn't "specifically" apply it's answer to the situation of the boycott; I am copying it over to here, because it explains why Quaraun's character has Autism, which was an issue brought up by the boycotters, and as I had already written about that topic, I'm just going to repost that answer into this space rather then write up a new answer for this situation.
Had JDP or LG or SC had any sense, they would have looked that up and read it BEFORE having their fit of false accusation and hysterics on Kboards.
Google is your friend people, AND the link to this page WAS in my forum signature on KBoards, so, you didn't even have to Google to find out what genre this series was, you could have just used your brain and taken a look at the link in my forum signature which went to the page here about the Quaraun series where this question was posted originally.
I'm just going to repost that answer into this space rather then write up a new answer for this situation. Because my time is valuable, and I don't have free time to waste rewriting something I already wrote months ago. You people may have time to do nothing but sit on the internet post forum posts all day, but I don't, because unlike you, I happen to have a life, outside, in the sunlight, and I choose to live it, so copy & paste time...
It's a fairly long answer (7,000 or so words) and I won't be continueing my answer to the boycott until the end of this one, so you got a lot more reading ahead of you.
I've put coloured bars at the beginning and end of this question & it's answer so you know when it stops and I actually start talking about the boycott. If you have previously read the answer to the question via it's original page, then just scroll down, till you reach the colored bars :
QUESTION: Other characters call Quaraun insane, retarded, stupid, an idiot, or a dolt. He seems to have a mental illness. What is wrong with him?
SHORT ANSWER: I have Savant Autism, Clinical Depression, and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and many people are quick to tell you that I am "insane" because of those things. My entire life everyone has from my parents and relatives in my childhood, to my friends in my adults years, introduce me to people as "This is Wendy, just ignore her. She's insane." I long ago accepted the fact that I have those disorders and that I must be insane otherwise, why would so many people say it? Actually I came to accept the fact that I was insane at the ripe old age of 8 years old, so you can tell how long people, especially my aunts and uncles have been calling me that. I do not like that people call me insane and often ask people to stop saying that about me because it hurts my feelings. People laugh at the idea that a "retarded crazy person" could possibly have feelings, and continue to call me insane.
I have Autism. I write what I know. So, let's try that again, and see what we get this time, eh?
Quaraun has Savant Autism, Clinical Depression, and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. His entire life everyone has from his parents and relatives in his childhood, to his friends in his adults years, introduces him to people as "This is Quaraun, just ignore him. He's insane." He becomes known as Quaraun the Insane, because of the name calling. He does not like that people call him Quaraun the Insane and often asks people to stop saying that about him because it hurts his feelings. People laugh at the idea that a "retarded crazy person" could possibly have feelings, and continue to call him Quaraun the Insane.
Yeah. There it is. Quaraun's character is based largely off myself. He sees the world as I see the world.
I am also mixed blood (red, brown, and black, but look white) married to a white man, who's family came from a very snooty pure-blood background (and are white supremacists) and are thus very much in non-approval of our relationship. Which is thus why I wrote Quaraun, from a very pure blooded race of Elves, with his lover Unicorn/BoomFuzzy being a black Asian mixed blood.
Other characters in the series are quick to call Quaraun stupid and idiot, because of his Autism, and they are also quick to point to his black skinned, Asian looking lover and say, "Here's proof he's stupid, he's white and he's got a coloured lover." (Yes, white people have actually said this to me and my partner.)
A lot of people don't understand what it is like to live with Autism. Most don't want to understand. Most don't care. Hell, the average person doesn't even know what Autism is.
Watch this video. This is what Quaraun has. This is what Quaraun is acting like. This is what he is talking like. This is why people are picking on him so badly:
LONG ANSWER: The full complete 25,000 word long answer with full details on what it is like to be (me) an adult with Autism can now be found here:
CLICK HERE TO READ THE ENTIRE RESPONSE
^^^ This book was among the ones that fell under attack by this weird anti-gay, anti Gypsy, and anti-Autistic main character attack (not from readers, but rather from other authors). You can read my response to the boycott of this book HERE.
The response from readers has been very good. This book sold 196 copies it's first day and 211 on day two (in Bizarro genre, that's huge; not so big if you were to compare it with say the Romance genre.) (It was also at it's introductory .99c the first 30 days, which meant I made about $175. LOL! So if the authors who went nutty, were in anyway flipping out because they thought I was raking in cash - as one author said was the reason they were so pissed - they are sorely mistaken!)
As can be expected with small niche genres like this one, sales tapered off after the first 30 days and are about 1 every 3 days ever since, (which means it brings in $35 to $50 a month income) which is still fairly high for this genre, but very low if you were to compare it to a more mainstream genre. Many readers have contacted me to say they loved the book and await the next one. (I point out the income, because, like I said, I got quite a few nasty emails from authors who were feeling the need to be vindictive. They were very upset that the book sold so many copies the first 2 days. BUT - those first day copies sold to long-time fans who had waited 3 years for the release.)
There have been a few who have contacted me to say: "What in the Hell did I just read? What is this? I need eye bleach!" Oh well. It is Bizarro and Bizarro is a very small genre for a reason: it's not well suited to the tastes of the overall general public. Most people simple are not going to like the Quaraun series, and that's fine. It caters to a very specific niche and very small niche: Bizarre Yaoi Ball Fetish with Knotting and Barbs and the occasional Tentacles. There are not a lot of people out there into that sort of thing, so I don't expect a lot of sales or that a lot of people will like it...
However, I also did not expect anyone to boycott it, and least of all for the reasons they cited!
For some reason, this series, this book in particular, really pissed off several self-published authors.
Like I said, there were no readers or "general public" involved in this mini-boycott that took place. It was all self-published authors (none of them was traditionally published or trade published). Most of the out-cry came from two authors in particular, who made a small and failed attempt to rally up the authors of KBoards into their boycott.
One interesting thing to note is that, while it appears that boycott starter JDP actually did read the book, it also appears that not a single one of any of the other boycotters had read it, and were basing everything they said off her misinformation and false accusations.
What happened was this:
In October 2014 through into December 2014, a group of about 50 self-published authors launched a mini protest of me and my books, after the release of The Night of The Screaming Unicorn. Why? Uhm...I'm still not entirely sure, actually.
The two authors leading the attack JDP and LG are not Fantasy writers and I've yet to understand why they did the HORRENDOUS things they did.
Zombie Apocalypse and Lesbian Erotica author JDP, described the Quaraun series as "FAKE Erotica" (her use of caps), when she wrote a hysterical 200+ post rant on the KBoards forum calling herself an "EAF Erotica Author" (whatever that means) and bragging wild posts via two separate accounts (Eclectic Authoress was the 2nd) stating that: "EelKat is a FAKE Erotica author, she's too stupid and retarded to know what Erotica is. I know what Erotica is because I've been writing REAL Erotica since 2006."
I don't write Erotica, I write Bizarro, so why she was even classifying me as an Erotica author has kind of left me clueless. I believe she may have been referring to the fact that I write Monster Porn, which is NOT Erotica. Monster Porn is a genre which features non-Human characters.
Monster Porn is not called "Porn" as in sex, but rather as in "cult obsession" with monsters. Some Monster Porn contains sex. Some Monster Porn is Erotica. Some Monster Porn is Sweet Romance. Some Monster Porn has no sex at all.
Monster Porn IS NOT a sub-genre of Erotica. Monster Porn is a sub-genre of Horror.
The Night of The Screaming Unicorn does classify as Monster Porn. But does it classify as Erotica? It is 55,742 words long (173 pages) and contains 23,000 words (74 pages) of gay/yaoi/male on male sex scenes.
She was comparing it to 50 Shades of Grey. With 50 shades of grey being what she called "REAL Erotica"
Now I didn't know who this JDP was until she started lashing out at my books on KBoards. So, I looked her up to find out what she wrote. Her KBoards' account says she writes Zombie Apocalypse and Lesbian Erotica and her Amazon account confirms this. I suppose my question then becomes does SHE know what Yaoi is?
For starters, Yaoi is not Erotica. Yaoi is gay fiction for female readers. It is NOT intended to gay male readers and does not represent a typical gay relationship. The point of yaoi, is not so much to have sex, but rather to have as many naked men with erect dicks, cocks, and penises as possible on every page. Yaoi novels are to female fans what PlayBoy magazine is to male fans.
Yaoi not Erotica, in the same way PlayBoy is not Erotica. Yaoi is meant to show off the male body, the same way PlayBoy is meant to show off the female body. The difference being that Yaoi is text and PlayBoy is pictures.
The Quaraun series is Bizarro Unicorn Porn Yaoi, a sub-genre of Monster Porn. It is not Erotica, real, fake, or otherwise, so why JDP was making the claims she was making about this book, I don't know, other then the fact, it's quite apparent that she has no clue what Yaoi or Monster Porn or Bizarro is.
But this brings me back to 50 Shades of Grey, because JDP was comparing the Quaraun series to 50SoG. 50 Shades is VERY tame compared to The Night of The Screaming Unicorn. And it is no comparision to it at all. They are two completely separate genres altogether. And so I'm baffled as to the comparison. Of course, if she knows Erotica so "well"... uhmm... yeah... how exactly is 50 Shades of Grey Erotica?
Really? Seriously? You are calling 50 Shades of grey...Erotica? GOOD GOD! And you claim to know the difference between "FAKE Erotica" and "REAL Erotica"? Honey...your head is so where the sun don't shine, in you think 50 Shades of Grey is even REMOTELY close to being Erotica.
Now if you are somebody who doesn't read Erotica and you read 50 Shades of Grey and thought it was Erotica, well, then, yes, maybe you are going to think that The Night of The Screaming Unicorn is Erotica.
I suppose the question here is: Do you think 50 Shades of Grey is Erotica? I don't. I'm not sure how anyone could, actually. But why do I ask this? Because when you compare a Romance Novel like 50 Shades of Grey to a Yaoi Boy's Love Light Novel like The Night of The Screaming Unicorn well, good God! It is Yaoi after all.
However, it must be remembered that 50 Shades of Grey is NOT Erotica. It is Erotic Romance and there's a HUGE difference between Erotica and Erotic Romance. Anyone who calls 50 Shades of Grey, Erotica, has never read Erotica, no matter how much they claim to be able to tell the difference between "REAL Erotica" and "FAKE Erotica" (again - her use of caps, I'm just quoting what she said.)
If you compare The Night of The Screaming Unicorn to actually Erotica and not something like 50 Shades of Grey, then you'd see that it's not Erotica at all.
And while we are on the subject: I have lived 28 wonderful years, very happily the sub of a Master/slave BDSM relationship, and I can tell you this: 50 Shades of Grey has absolutely nothing to do with BDSM. 50 Shades of Grey is just glorified abuse. Whoever wrote that book, doesn't know squat about a DOM/sub relationship. 50 Shades of Grey is nothing but a mockery of the BDSM relationship, it does not accurately represent my lifestyle and I really don't like people comparing my books with it.
But the important thing here is that I never classified The Night of The Screaming Unicorn as Erotica and I'm not sure why JDP was saying that this series/story was "FAKE Erotica". I am just completely baffled by her logic.
Is she saying that it IS Erotica, but it's not REAL because there are no Humans in it? Or is it because she writes Lesbian Erotica, tat she feels it's FAKE because there are only males in it?
I just don't understand. What exactly does she mean, when she says REAL Erotica, FAKE Erotica, and annoying Erotica.
That last one I think confuses me even more. At first she calls it "FAKE Erotica" (How can Erotica be FAKE? It either is or is not Erotica? Right?) But then later calls it "annoying Erotica".
Wait...didn't she say it was fake? If it's "Annoying Erotica" isn't that then her saying that it is in fact Erotica?
But then, keep in mind, she posted a whopping 5,000 forum posts between October 2014 and December 2014, while ranting her 3 month long hourly, daily rants of hatred for me and this book. This was not someone writing a review, this was someone daily trolling a forum and posting THOUSANDS of posts, while demanding an all out boycott and attempting to gather up an angry mob to join her.
I suppose my biggest question of all to JDP is: What the fuck? So, you didn't like me book. Fine. But 5,000 forum posts, posted in a single month, all about how much you hate me and my books?
I have got to find me a fainting banana GIF to insert here.
5,000 forum posts? How does one person have enough time to write 5,000 forum posts of hate in a single month? And good God, WHY?
Damn. My book really pissed this woman off. I think she thought it was supposed to be Erotica and was pissed that it wasn't? I don't know. I still have no clue what she was so flipping out about, she for the most part was just copy and pasting the same phrase over and over again:
"EelKat is a FAKE Erotica author, she's too stupid and retarded to know what Erotica is. I know what Erotica is because I've been writing REAL Erotica since 2006."
She posted that line in just about every single one of those 5,000 hysterical forum posts...and then she left Kboards and started posting those same posts on other forums. This woman just went friggin wild. And I don't know why. It's actually quite hilarious...do you just sit on your computer all day long and do nothing else? oh, and I do have a banana for that. Oh you know I do. Let's go get him shall we?
Ah...there he is, and look he brought all his buddies along too!
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Oh...we can't have those bananas dancing by themselves now can we? let's give them some music for those feet! Here's the song I had on replay while I wrote The Night of the Screaming Unicorn. enjoy!
Are listening to the words of this song? Seriously, listen to the words of this song...I played it about 5,000 times while writing Screaming Unicorn...if you read the book, it'll hit yeah in a minute...oh yeah, I totally fanficed this song.
Nothing like Monster Porn music for writing Monster Porn.
Oh...now that song deserves some vampire bunnies...
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Ever seen this site's 404 page?
:p
OMG! Where is in my Snape GIF? We the can't have the vampire bunny with out their cheerleader now can we? Off to go find it...
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I'm sorry, I get so distracted so easily, but hey, I've been tossing bananas at you guys since 1997 so why stop now?
I can write crazy people, because I am one. I'm absolutely bonkers. That's not a joke. I got papers that says so and everything.
Try Googling "Maine's Crazy cat woman" - I had 84 cats at the time they branded that title one me. Yes,not a typo eighty-four cats. Do you know Pine Land Center and Spring Harbor? (Maine's two largest mental health institutes?) No? Well, they sure know me. I'm so crazy I make crazy people normal. I'm so crazy, that they went and got state funding to start a research project, JUST to study me, because they said I'm unclassifiable, they've never seen a case like me.
I know I'm crazy, Sugar Pie. Every knows I'm crazy. Doctors are screaming from the rooftops and running in herds to study me. I'm in medical journals, and a team of psychiatrists from Australia came all the way here to Maine to study me. I'm so crazy, even Stephen King writes about me.
I know why i write so many forum posts. It's because I'm EElKat the one and only and I'm I'm nuts. What's YOUR excuse?
Now where was I? oh yes, 5,000 forum posts. Damn. She tried to out-crazy me!
ROTFLMAO!
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!
Let's shine some moonbeams on that crazy, eh?
JDP, do you know that in 2005, on the SoapBox a group of us, got together to see how many forum posts we could posts before the Pinks (moderators) stopped us. We each started a thread called "I WON!" (after iwon.com which was a big thing at the time and we were actually getting iwon.com points for doing this, because we did it with iwon.com toolbar and everytime we refreshed the page it added another point.) So, we each started a thread called "I WON!" and then posted nothing but the words "I Won 1", "I Won 2", "I Won 3", etc all day long. In the end most people dropped out after a hundred or a thousand posts...15 hours later of none stop posting, I passed "I Won 15,000"...and then POOF all the I WOn threads vanished. oooooh. A mod logged in. ROTFLMAO! LOLOL!
I didn't post like everyone else did though...I added a banana to every post, and when out of bananas I starts using other GIFs. I have 50,000 GIFs stored in my hard-drive. I have a GIF for EVERYTHING!
I Won. I not only posted the most post, I did each one in a different marquee colour, and added a GIF at the bottom.
Don't know what a marquee post looks like?
Let's marquee the next line, shall we?
You know...I do seem to recall mentioning that I'm a professional clown car driver....you know as in...a clown...that drives a car...we're the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach...carnival Gypsies, remember? Being crazy IS my profession.
I got pink-slapped so many times because of that, but boy was it fun. I loved the []. Miss the []. Eh. They changed it. They decided we only post serious post. Oh well. It was fun while it lasted.
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"Twighlight Manor Calling MustangRockstar" anyone? Ooooh HAHAHA! Google THAT one - it's still there - 10 years and it's still going! They pinned it? The mods friggin pinned it! You tried to out crazy the super crazy marquuee queen of the SoapBox, Sugar! LOL!
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HEY! SomeGuy! Are you still out there? I'm still using the GIFs you gave me! {{{hugs}}} Thank you for making them for me! I'm loving 'em still after all these years! XOXOXO
I'm the queen of forum crazy, Sugar Pie, you're gonna have a tough time if you try to out-crazy me, but hey go ahead and try. The world needs more crazy... lot's of empty spaces in the Padded Cell...come join us, we have cookies.
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There now, you see? I can be crazy too.
But I'm known for crazy.
I wear crazy clothes.
I drive crazy cars.
I've been a sideshow circus clown since I was 4 years old.
I own crazy amounts of books.
I write Bizarro for crying out loud - a genre that IS crazy for the sake of being crazy.
Crazy is my trademark brand. It's who I am. It's what people expect. If I'm not being crazy, people start asking "What's wrong with her?"
Crazy is my profession. I am professionally crazy. And yes, I know how crazy that sounds, but...we are carnival people. PEOPLE PAY US TO BE CRAZY IN PUBLIC!
IT'S OUR JOB!
We go out of our way to be crazy ON PURPOSE.
THINK about it, Honey. We are clowns. I'm a clown. Clowns. Have you ever seen one?
Here's a video full of clowns if you don't know what a clown is:
(Yes, I am a Juggalo and proud of it. There's something for to think about.)
I'm a crazy clown fan of insane clowns. WOO-HOO!
You know what's even better then Insane Clown Posse? Their German fanband Megaherz:
Had enough evil clowns for one day? I haven't, but let's move on, I got boycotters waiting for a reply.
But, yeah, carnival Gypsies. Circus. Sideshow. Rhinestoned car, a green metal-flaked motorhome. owner of the side show attraction known as "The World's Most Haunted Car"
Don't know them? Here they are:
Rhinestoned car... (look at the polka-dotted white-walls)
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Can you read the flags?
Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsen Fay, Marji Loa to Damballa Weddo
Scotland
Gypsy
Transvestite
...and four Liberace Unicorns.
and
Lime green metal flake motorhome...
and The World's Most Haunted Car...
See? Carnival cars for carnival people.
No pictures of the clowns as clowns never reveal their true identity, so you're just gonna have to guess who I am, but...
You do know what a clown is right?
You know... comedians who wear crazy clothes and make-up and wigs and do crazy things to make people laugh? Because doing things that are funny and silly and crazy to make people laugh and smile and be happy, is what circus clowns do.
And everybody knows that. We are the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach. We are carnival people. Everywhere we go, online too, we go out of our way to make people happy.
It is our mission in life to spread joy. And that is why you see ME on forums, deliberately, going out of my way to make a fool of myself. Because it gives people something to laugh at. Makes people smile. Gives them a few seconds of laughter, to help them forget for a few seconds at least, their troubles, worries, anger, sadness...
Helping people is what I do. That's why I wrote the 1,371 How-To Articles For Writers, which, because of you, I have removed from the internet.
You see, I act crazy online on purpose to give people joy and happiness for at least a small part of their day...but you... you really ARE crazy...
Think about it, Honey. Really, just stop, breath, relax, and think about what you did. What you said.
All that meanness.
All that anger.
All that vindictiveness.
5,000 posts worth of it.
Me being crazy doesn't hurt my career because being crazy IS my career. I get paid to act like I do.
Honey, going on a wild psycho-crazed, anger filled rant on a forum, that is something that is going to destroy your career. Did you stop and think about that before you did it? Do you have any idea how what you did makes you look? How VERY unprofessional that was of you?
Do you know that I have been on 300+ forums since 1997, and have posted MILLIONS of posts, and NEVER ONCE in that time, have I ever said a mean thing to or about ANYONE?
That's why I was a beta test member of nearly 200 forums, was the moderator of 12 forums (including Squidoo), and have long had a reputation for helping people and/or making them laugh.
Did you know that in all my crazy forum posting, I've NEVER ONCE teased another person.
I've NEVER ONCE picked on another person.
I've NEVER ONCE called out another person.
I've NEVER ONCE put down another person.
I've NEVER ONCE harassed another person.
I've NEVER ONCE bullied another person.
I've never joined in a forum war.
I've never replied to a hateful comment.
And after 600+ books since 1978, I've gotten THOUSANDS of bad reviews on my books and I've NEVER responded to ANY of them.
I maintain peace and nonviolence at all times.
I look for the good in every bad.
THAT is what I'm known for.
People don't know me for my books. My books aren't famous. But people know me for who I am and how I act on forums and how I treat others, and they know they are safe around me because I NEVER do or say ANYTHING to in any way hurt ANYONE. That is my reputation on forums. A lot of forums. for a long time. JDP/EA, LG, SC, K/SS, and the 50+ EAF Erotica Authors - you made a very large-scale attempt to smear my name, destroy my reputation, and damage my career... and I don't know why you did it.
You, I worry about JDP. You started posting you hate for me in September and it's February now and you haven't stopped. You are posting daily, on the hour, every hour, it almost looks automated, except that I know the forum host KBoards uses and you can't automate posts on that. That's why I worry...because this isn't normal forum trolling...this is stalking...you are stalking me and I don't like it.
Do you have anyone you can talk to JDP? A friend? A neighbor? A sister? A brother? A pastor? A counsellor? Do you have the ability to turn off your computer and get up and go outside? You need help JDP. something is seriously wrong here. You posted 5,000 hate filled forum posts about my in October alone, and it's February now and you are still posting daily, hourly, hate.
Why? You didn't like my book. Okay. Fine. I gt the message. Move on. Isn't there another book out there you can read? Don't you have some zombies you can write about? Can't you just step away from the computer for a few hours and take a walk, get some fresh are, drink some tea, have a doughnut. You're freaking me out JDP, you really are. You're taking this to stalking levels now.
You do realize you are going to be remembered for this now? You are not going to be remembered for your books, you are going to be remembered as the angry, hate-filled, psychbitch who wrote 5,000 posts on how much you hated EelKat. Is that REALLY how you wanted history to remember you?
5,000 forum posts about how much you hate me and my books? That's a little obsessive, don't you think? No. It's a lot obsessive. And it takes a lot of time. I know. I did it on the SoapBox remember? And I was only posting a single line in each post, and it took FOREVER. So I know the amount of time, it took you to write 5,000 LONG forum posts, and do it in only a few days. Tell me, did you get any sleep that month?
I'm trying to understand what your problem is, because I really don't think it's me or my books. It looks like you got some really major issues going on in your life and your frustrated and are looking for someone to take it out on, and I think you are being in danger of becoming dangerous. You need to calm down JDP. This 6 month long conniption...that's kind of extreme.
You read a book. You didn't like it. And you are acting like ... I don't know what you are acting like, but this ISN'T a normal reaction to not liking a book you read, and like I said, you are starting to freak me out.
What in the hell pissed you off so much that you reacted, in such a petty, childish way? What was with all the anger? I almost have to ask based on your books (which I did buy and read, because I wanted to find out what sort of books were written by someone who would do this type of thing? --- Or was that your plan all along? Bash my books to drive traffic to yours? You are a freaking lunatic JDP, you know that right?) you really HATE men, don't you? Your books are all very pro-fem-liberator.
Your books, are all female characters and read in the same angry style you posted on the forum, and my impression is somewhere along the line a man really fucked you over and you now hate every man on the planet, and the only reason my Screaming Unicorn pissed you off is because, it glorifies male genitals, something you seem to utterly loath.
Which then leads me to ask: Do you act like this every time you read a book that has a male character in it? Because, Honey, male characters make up 90% of the characters in books. That's an awful lot of books for you to go hating.
I'd question the incident more if I was the only author who was singled out, but I wasn't. 73 authors left KBoard during this incident. And more then 3/4 of them wrote gay fiction. I was one of 73 authors who fell under heavy fire by JDP and her fellow "EAF Erotica Authors" (as they called themselves.) By the middle of October it had become very clear that any author who wrote male/male gay fiction was not welcomed on KBoards and risked being brutally bullied and harassed if they dared to openly admit on KBoards that they wrote gay fiction, the authors of Gay Erotica getting the biggest brunt of the hate force.
It seems, near as I can tell, that my Quaraun series fell under attack, simply because I was in the wrong place at the wrong time (on KBoards with a newly published book featuring a gay couple, during October 2014, when there were several new "EAF Erotica Author" members, on the hunt for any gay author to take down.
Now, there have been readers who have said the story was "Gay Erotica" and oddly, for a few weeks in October (during the height of the KBoards Incident) Amazon, moved this book out of the Epic Fantasy section and into the Gay Erotica section. I had to contact Amazon and ask for a manual review of the book, in order to verify that it WAS NOT Erotica, at which point Amazon put it back in Epic Fantasy where it belongs.
While there were more then 50 authors (and 1 author with 52 accounts) involved in the protest that took place on KBoards demanding a boycott of me, my books, and specifically the Quaraun series, in trying to sort out what happened and how this thing got started, the oldest posts I could find were all written by JDP and all of them were hysterical rants comparing "REAL Erotica" to "FAKE Erotica", the earliests posts being back and forth conversations with herself between her own 2 accounts.
JDP, since you made 5,000 forum posts to describe my Quaraun series as:
"EelKat is a FAKE Erotica author, she's too stupid and retarded to know what Erotica is. I know what Erotica is because I've been writing REAL Erotica since 2006."
I think, I therefore need to address this, because it seems to be bothering you quiet a bit. You did say it 5,000 times after all.
Somehow you got it into your head that the Quaraun series was erotica, and then you read it and it wasn't Erotica, and you flipped the frick out. So, you wanted my attention, otherwise, why would you have said that so many times? Well, you got my attention, okay? Actualy, you AREN't the one, I'm mad at. LG is the one who REALLY got my attention. You I was ignoring. But LG's replies to your posts... yeah ...that's not something I can ignore, but before we address LG's comments, I'm going to adress YOUR comment which is what LG was replying to.
As EVERYONE knows. I do NOT respond PRIVATELY to private messages or emails. All of my responses are ALWAYS public. JDP, I've already had readers ask me if the Quaraun series was Erotica and already answered them, long before the series even started to be published. So, let's answer your question, shall we?
*This question and it's answer was previously written and being copied from HERE, so it doesn't "specifically" apply it's answer to the situation of the boycott; I am copying it over to here, because I had already answered a reader's question "Is this series Erotica" and had JDP or LG or SC had any sense, they would have looked that up and read it BEFORE having their false accusation and hysterics on Kboards.
Google is your friend people, AND the link to this page WAS in my forum signature on KBoards, so, you didn't even have to Google to find out what genre this series was, you could have just used your brain and taken a look at the link in my forum signature which went to the page here about the Quaraun series where this question was posted originally.
I'm just going to repost that answer into this space rather then write up a new answer for this situation. Because my time is valuable, and I don't have free time to waste rewriting something I already wrote months ago. You people may have time to do nothing but sit on the internet post forum posts all day, but I don't, because unlike you, I happen to have a life, outside, in the sunlight, and I choose to live it, so copy & paste time...
It's a fairly long answer (8,000 or so words) and I won't be continueing my answer to the boycott until the end of this one, so you got a lot more reading ahead of you.
I've put coloured bars at the beginning and end of this question & it's answer so you know when it stops and I actually start talking about the boycott. If you have previously read the answer to the question via it's original page, then just scroll down, till you reach the colored bars :
Short answer:
NO!
No. It's a spin-off of The Twighlight Manor series and thus is the same genre: Literary Bizarro.
It's the story of a seriously depressed, suicidal, gay Autistic Elf who dresses like Liberace and falls in love with a sex-crazed drug dealing bi-sexual unicorn. Yes. I grew up in the 1970s. And this is the prequel to a series I wrote in the 1970s.
No. It's not Erotica. It's Bizarro about a gay Elf and his unicorn.
Quaraun is a gay sissified transvestite Elf, born male but lives as a female, and is cast out of Elven society because of his lifestyle. The series follows his everyday life, following the everyday events of his life as he struggles to find acceptance in a world that has no tolerance for males who choose to dress as women.
The series is violent as he is constantly bullied, teased, and beaten up by pretty much everyone. A FEW of the 130+ volumes contain sex scenes, because the series follows the everyday events of his life and over the course of his life he does have sex and people are prone to do.
Most of the series follows his relationship with a bi-sexual, serial-killing, shape-shifting, drug-dealing Unicorn, named BoomFuzzy, who lives in a gingerbread house, makes drugged Fae Food to lure unsuspecting Humans to his dinner plate, and is the only person who accepts Quaraun for who he is.
If this were a movie, it'd only be rated PG-13, and rated that only for the language (there is a lot of swearing and dropping of the f-word) and the use of drugs (secondary character is a Faerie specializing in making drugged Fae Food to trap Humans into the Realm of Fae so he can eat them.)
I think my question to you is: WHY are SO MANY people jumping to the conclusion that this series is Erotica? I mean, this is the single most asked question about the series (I have received this question nearly 30 times now). I can not figure out why I'm being bombarded with this question.
Okay, let me put is another way: Do you classify the Austin Powers movies as Erotica? Genre-wise, the Quaraun series most closely matches the Austin Powers series, as the Quaraun series is a silly nonsensical spoof that makes fun of various 1970s/1980s shows.
Erotica when made into a movie is Rate-X (now called NC-17).
The Austin Powers movies are only rated PG-13 (not even bad enough to be Rated R) and are aimed at an intended age group of 16 to 25 years old. It is considered Young Adult (YA) same as Harry Potter.
LONG ANSWER:
(UPDATE: March 20, 2015: Because this answer is so long, it has now been moved to it's own dedicated page:
It's more then 8,000 words long, and contains full details on what is and is not found in this series.)
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So...I'm confused JDP...
...HOW exactly is it that I am either competing with you or out to get you. THIS... right here... NOW ... on this page ... is the FIRST time I have EVER addressed you. I have never replied to one of your forums posts.
Hey, JDP: Guess what? Ask and it shall be given.
I'm competing with you? Explain HOW you came to that conclusion? Since you were saying that I bought your books and read them to see what in the heck it was I was supposedly in competition with (seeing how I had never heard of you prior to your accusations on KBoards)
You write modern day, urban, fem-lib, lesbian fiction, that has a very serious, angry "I hate every one" pro-bitch, fuck the dick attitude. You HATE men and it is oozing out of every corner of your books.
I write quasi-Medieval torture gorn, featuring gay non-Human dressed like Liberace and acting like Vincent Price. I spent 37 years writing EXACTLY ONE THING: The Twighlight Manor series. Everybody they ain't fucking, they is eating.
So, where is the competition JDP?
modern day vs quasi-Medieval
Nope. Those don't compete.
fem-lib vs torture gorn
Nope. Not there either.
lesbian humans vs gay/transvestite non-humans
Nope. That's not it.
You're characters aren't eating people when they get done fucking them, so it ain't that either.
I don't get it. WHERE is the competition?
You have one book, which, as far as I can tell, is the only book that could possible be seen as competing, it's about zombies. But it's like Walking Dead fanfic, it's not alien flesh eaters from space, so even that doesn't compete with mine.
I'm just baffled by your accusations that I'm supposedly competing with you, especially given that'd I'd never even heard of you until you started attacking me on Kboards.
Are you suggesting that you WANT me to compete with you?
I have Autism, JDP. I live in my own world of pink unicorns that you can't see, how exactly do you expect me to compete with you? You write mainstream white American lifestyle characters. I'm not white, I've never lived in American culture. You write lesbians. What do I know about lesbians? JDP, I write what I know.
I have Autism, I lack the ability to imagine things that are not as they actually are. There is a reason I write gay, transvestite, Autistic, Gypsy characters, who wear pink and live in a world cut off from American culture.
You are not writing ANY of the things I write and I am not writing ANY of the things you write, so I am just utterly baffled as to where you see the competition.
And...I'm out to get you?!? WHAT? I've never even heard of you before. How'd you come up with that stupid conclusion?
JDP...you left Kboards, went to TWO other forums, spread a bunch of rumours and lies about me to wind them into a frenzy. Do you want to know HOW I know you did that? EAF and DDF are private forums and no non-member can see what you say there right?
WRONG!
JDP - I've been building websites since 1997. Here's something to chew on:
I'm an expert at website building. I know pretty much everything there is to know about SEO and Panda, Penguin, Phantom, etc and...
I used to teach people how to build websites, you know? in fact, I was in the process of helping the owner of Kboards with the forum's "kerfuffle" with Google. Kboards is in finacial trouble, they needed help with their affilatee links, vs Google. In October 2014, Kboards got hit hard by Panda. I know what is wrong with their website. I know how to fix the problem. I was in the process of telling H.V. HOW to fix the problem when I left Kboard. I deleted those posts too.
JDP, Kboards is in serious deep doo-doo with Penguin. They got hit HARD and if they don't have an expert web analyst advisor to tell them how to get out of Google barnyard shit, Kboards is gonna go offline. They don't have people there, who know how to work around Penguin. I do. I've been doing it for years. I was in the middle of helping H.V. SAVE Kboards from being pulled down off the internet by Google. If they can't fix the Penguin shit they are in with Google, that site won't last to see 2016. People who know how to fix the problem, charge HUNDREDS of dollars an hour. I was doing it for H.V. for free. Kboards is a flounder sinking fast, not many sites have ever survived being hit by Penguin. What do you think happened to Squidoo?
I write java, Html, all that stuff. I'm better at talking to computers in DOS code and java then I am at talking to people. JDP, how do you think I know how to do things like this:
I was one of the Squdoo SquidAngels. I'm the Squidoo member with all the beeping, blinking, dancing, wild colored Squidoo lenses because I know how to get into the back door of any website and change it's code.
JDP, I'm a freaking computer programer and website builder and designer, you idiot! Of course I know every thread you start about me, because I can open my website up, inside out and follow all the traffic breadcrumbs back to it's origins. I can tell you exact numbers of how many people visited my site from each country. Give me a few minutes and I can come up with their home addresses.
JDP, did you know, I can see ALL your PRIVATE threads of EVERY forum, even the private ones...you know the one that ONLY members can see? Yeah. I can. Every time you start a thread about me, and send "minions" as you like to call them over here to my website, it leaves a trail of breadcrumbs, back to the forum thread you created, which I can open and read, now that you have used it to "ping" my site.
Yeah. JDP, think about. Think LONG and HARD about that. Your private forum, it's not as private as you think...not when you link to me or any other website owned by a webmaster who actually knows how to do web analytics of their site, it isn't.
Let me tell you something about tracking traffic to your site. EVERY time you post a link, ANYWHERE on any forum, even private access ones, Yes DD, even your forum, it's not as private as you think, every time you post a link, when someone clicks that link and visits that site, a little "tracking device" called a breadcrumb, is slapped onto that site. And the owner of that site, if they know how to do it, can look at the list of all the links EVERYWHERE on the internet that have sent traffic to their site. And they can open those links - even the "private" ones to read what was said, to drive traffic to their site.
It's called website analysis. EVERY website on the internet does this.
And it's why, I NEVER link to the site/thread/comment or anyone who's attacking me. Why? Because what you are doing is called link baiting. It means, you attack a website and post links to it on a forum, in hopes, that the website owner, responds, like I'm doing right now, and filled their response with links back to YOUR site.
It's a very common, underhanded, dirty pool, marketing tactic, often used by small websites, to get bigger, more popular websites, to unwittingly drive traffic to their small site.
THAT is why not only, do I NOT link, to your site, but I also, only post the initials of your name. I'm not only not going to give you link traffic, I ain't giving your keyword search engine traffic either.
So, JDP, while you are unwittingly driving LOTS of traffic to my site, but I'm not stupid enough to send traffic, back to your site. Sorry, but I don't fall for that trick.
Every time my site gets a big spike in traffic, I check the source of the traffic and JDP you are spending an inordinate amount of time obsessing over me and demanding that "minions" rise to your "defense" and boycott me to make your life better, because according to your posts on DDF everything that is going wrong in your life is my fault. YES, JDP, I a non-member can read what you wrote, because you posted a link to my website, allowing me access to read the post that sent traffic to me.
(Did you notice how I never link to the pages that are bashing me? If you want to know why, it's because I have no desire to give their site's traffic. You can read about that HERE.)
JDP. Stop. Just Stop. Think about it for a minute. YOU are the one who attacked ME. You and your 50+ "EAF Erotica Authors" attacked me. And what did it get you? The EAF forum got shut down. Now you don't have a forum to "gather minions" from any more.
Do you see what you did JDP/EA? EAF was shut down because of YOU. Think about it.
So, I'm out to get you am I? I wasn't then, but you know, ask and it shall be given. You WANTED me to talk about you, eh? Well now I am. And hey, guess what, I got a lot more fans then you'll ever have, JDP/EA.
You really didn't know who I was did you?
I feel sorry for you JDP/EA, because no forum troll who's ever attacked EelKat has ever been able to live down that flounder of a mistake.
Who here remembers ---M-O-N-K--- or ED or JB.?
ED was a famous Yahoo forum troll in 2004. He attacked one person after another. He attacked and attacked and attacked and then he targeted EelKat.
---M-O-N-K--- SoapBox 2005. He attacked one person after another. He attacked and attacked and attacked and then he targeted EelKat.
JB went to prison, as did JT, and DK.
Are YOU ready to go to prison JDP/EA? Because if you don't stop harassing me, that where you are going. You see, I don't fight with forum trolls. I contact the FBI and let them deal with the forum trolls. You are sadly mistaken if you think the FBI doesn't already know what you and LG and all your little buddies did. What do you think happened to the EAF forum?
But JDP/EA..as much as you want to be in the limelight, you are NOT the one, I'm mad at.
No. You are just a small, bitter, angry woman, who hates men and seems to especially hate men who pass for women, and it appears that at it's core, you targeting me because I was a transvestite and it just irked you that I even exist, and you seem to have an extra hatred for the male anatomy and my books glorify male anatomy, so you just went bonkers over it. And I'm used to people like you. The world is full of people like you. You are not the one who got me mad, so you are not the one I am now "out to get" as you put it. No, that award goes to Lisa.
JDP/EA, you will go down in history as yet another forum troll who saw nothing wrong with bullying people who are different from you. You will be forgotten.
LG on the other hand...she's gonna be remembered, because she the member who made me leave Kboards. She's the reason, after 30 years of being freely available online - I took down all of my 1,371 How-To Write articles, which had been cross posted to Kboards. LG will be remembered as the bully who was the straw that broke the camel's back.
It upset me that JDP/EA wrote the posts she wrote. but it wasn't JDP/EA's posts that upset me enough to make me leave Kboards. It was the posts made by another author in response to her post that upset me. JDP/EA over the course of 5,000 forum posts, did attract quite a bit of attention. Several authors posted to ask her why she was making a fool of herself on a public forum.
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Two things upset me:
#1: The single author who created 52 accounts to argue with all 52 versions of herself, calling me a "retard". I went through the posts and counted 70 times that she called me a retard. She used the term many more times, I simply stopped counting when I reached 70.
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This went on for a long time. JDP and the 52 account author started bashing my books and slandering my name in September, and I ignored them responding to none of it. I'm used to being called retarded. I've been called retarded more then 15,000 times in my lifetime. Yes, I do keep track. I have Autism. I keep charts of everything.
What upset me and was the REASON I LEFT KBoards, was one word: pedophile
Thing #2:
LG posted in reply to one of JDP's posts:
"Everyone on Kbords has the moral duty to join me in reporting all of EelKat's posts. Let's get that pedophile off KB."
^^^THAT POST^^^
is why I left KBoards.
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Name calling. LG. Really? Is that the highest mental ability your brain has? I'm the one that supposed to be the retard, remember? At yet, you're the one who stoops to name calling.
You remember that 12 year old girl I mentioned back there. The one who was raped in church by a pedophile priest. She was me. He's the reason I carry a machete today. You don't even want to begin to know my hate filled opinions of pedophiles. How much I loath them. And that lying bitch LG, called me a pedophile. That's why I left KBoards. Because I got tired of that forked-tongue bitch slandering my name.
You it wasn't that long ago, we Scottish Gypsies still had a law for women like that: lock their heads in bird cage and cut their tongue out. It's no wonder America is so overrun with these sorts of disrespectful, lying, gossiping, busy body women. There are no laws to punish them anymore. Does your husband know the things you say? He ought to be doing something to keep you in line. Good god! American men are such wimps, they can not keep their women in control. You wouldn't see a Gypsy woman flapping her mouth off like that. We know own place.
I ignored the posts calling me retarded. I've been called a retarded my whole life. You get used to it after a while.
I ignored the hacker. When I first discovered the hacker, on October 27, 2014, I spent a week, converting my posts back to their original state... I have Autism, I save copies of everything, I had copies of all my original posts saved. It was an easy enough problem to fix, once I'd discovered it had happened.
But I'm not a pedophile. I'm not anything remotely close to a pedophile. And I take great offence at LG calling me that horrid word.
One November 10, 2014, LG went hysterical posting on several threads. She practically started a riot. Moderator BQ came in and locked her threads and did "forum decorum" edits and warned LG that she could get blocked is she didn't "stop calling people out on the forum".
"Everyone on Kbords has the moral duty to join me in reporting all of EelKat's posts. Let's get that pedophile off KB."
That was what the posts said before BQ edited it out and warned LG to not do it again.
I didn't know LG, she rarely posted in any of the areas I did on KBoards so I rarely ran acrossed her. But when I saw that post, I opened her profile and went to her old posts and started reading them. She had a lot to say...
A LOT. And for a long time. And I don't know why she said any of the things she did about me.
All I can say, is that LG is very sick, twisted, evil, religion crazed, lunatic. See? I can stoop to your level low-functioning brainlessness and call YOU names too.
Name calling hurts, Lisa. Or hadn't you heard?
There was so much hatred and just one post after another, "calling people to action" falsely accussing me of being a pedphile, and railing out a wild slew of hysterical, crazed, accusations.
Her posts included to say things such as:
"let's dry up her sales"
"we need to kill her career"
"her pedophile books should be banned"
"Let's destroy her career"
"people like her need to be shot in the head"
...and a lot worse...oh a lot worse...she said things, not even I would dream of repeating... she wrote a lot of details about what she thought I did and what she thought I was. I don't see how it was even legal for her to post the things she said. It's a sick, twisted mind that could even think of the things she said.
When you said those things about me LG, you forgot one very important thing: I have Autism, I don't have normal Autism.
I have Savant Autism.
I don't tell lies and play mind games like you do LG because...
I have Savant Autism.
I have one thing I can do extraordinarily well... and guess what that is? I read, I remember, and I can write my thoughts with vivid clarity and even without talking I can tell the world what you did.
I may be too retarded to do a single damned thing else, but I write. I write a lot. And I don't like being bullied. And I'm not gonna sit back and be bullied.
I don't talk, I require help to do everything, but I can write. My mind works, even though my body doesn't.
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I can barely feed myself. I need help to use the toilet. Do you have any idea how disabled I am? Where do you get off calling me a pedophile?
I read the 100 most recent posts she had made and then, I just deleted all 1,371 of my How-To Articles (huge articles - most of them 10,000 to 20,000 words each). In my 7 years on KBoards I had devoted a lot of my time to helping new writers get started, including LG. She wouldn't have her writing career had I not written those articles. She is one of the authors who two years ago, attributed her success to me help via KBoards. And she repaid my kindness with making up lies about my sex life and making an active attempt to as she put it "destroy" my career as a writer.
This is a woman who does a lot of name calling. In my experience people who resort to name calling, generally have a very low IQ. I'd like to see your MENSA score, LG. Based on all the name calling you did in your posts, I doubt if you can even top 100.
Name calling is always the first sign of someone with a low IQ.
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I've gotten a lot of emails since Nov 11, 2014, asking me to return to Kboards. Asking me to repost all those articles I took down. But you gotta understand something: in addition to Autism, I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder so bad that it is physically crippling.
I was the victim of a pedophile and if you've never though that, you don't know what it does to your mind.
My PTSD is very bad. The panic attacks frequently hospitalize me. I can't be around ANYTHING that reminds me of what happened. I can't be around men who wear BRUT cologne, because he did, or SURE deodorant, because he did.
You want to see a panic attack, try to get me in a Mormon church building and watch what happens. How long it takes before the ambulance gets there.
You don't know, how really hard it is for me to even be in the same room with a man. Not even relatives. Not even family. You don't know how bad it is, living with PTSD.
The things LG said, triggered a lot of bad memories. To the point that I had to be hospitalized in critical condition on November 14, 2014. That was a Tuesday and the doctors, didn't expect me to make it to the end of the week.
I had a heart attack and went into septic shock, because of the things LG said.
My blood pressure was 70/60 and my heart rate 122.
Doctors freaked out because a red stripe showed up on my left arm, from my shoulder to my hand, and the veins on my neck and chest, turned purple and my chest turned blue.
I'm not sure what that meant, I don't know medical stuff, but they said I almost died.
I was still touch and go until December 27, 2014. And it's now February and I'm still not well enough to drive.
Two people died in the war on KBoards already. LG almost made it 3. I'm sorry, but my health is not well enough for me to come back. I can't take the risk of another PTSD attack like that. I barly lived through that one. Doctors say I won't make it through another.
That's why I deleted all of my accounts, everywhere, not just KBoards.
I love talking with my readers.
I love helping other writers.
But I'm not strong enough to do that in the midsts of others being mean and vindictive. It is a matter of life and death now, and as suicidal as I have been in the past, this whole event, this almost dying, did make me realize I don't really want to die, I just want the pain to stop. Beside, I have a 130 part serial to finish. In spite of the people who hate the series, I've got quite a few fans who are eagerly awaiting more of it. I can't very well write it if I'm dead.
As baffled as I was by JDP's weird "FAKE Erotica" vs "REAL Erotica" rants about something that isn't Erotica to begin with...it was nothing compared to my confusion of LG's accusation of calling the books "Pedophile Erotica"...
Wait...what? "Pedophile Erotica"? What in the heck is "Pedophile Erotica"? Good God! Does such a thing even exist? And if it did, how is it even legal? What kind of a sick mind, comes up with something like "Pedophile Erotica" and why am I being accused of writing it?
Christian Paranormal Urban Romance author LG described the Quaraun series as "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn" in her replies to JDP's posts on KBoards. LG then started a thread on KBoards requesting all members join her in "reporting all of EelKat's posts. Let's get that pedophile off KB."
I don't understand why she said the things she said. And I have Autism, so I can't get them out of my head. They just keep replaying in my mind over and over again. They won't stop. That's the curse of living with Autism. You can't control the things you remember and you can forget nothing. They won't go away until you find an answer. It's maddening, trying to live with Autism, when run across something you don't understand.
The thing I don't understand, is what could have possibly have possessed her to say those horrible, mean, vindictive, hate filled things?
It was LG's posts on KBoards which baffled me most of all and continue to baffle me. Why? Because there are no underaged characters in the Quraun series. Quaraun is 330 years old at the start of the series and Unicorn stopped counting his age after he reached a thousand years old.
Quaraun is a young middle aged Elf. At 330 Elven years, he is about 35 years old where he a Human.
Unicorn is a very old Phookan Faerie, nearing the end of his life. Where he a Human, he'd be about 90 or 100.
Quaraun and Unicorn are the ONLY two characters in The Night of The Screaming Unicorn so, how did LG come to the conclusion that this was "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn" ?
I can only assume that she was referencing the huge age difference between Quaraun and Unicorn. A Pedophile is an adult over the age of 21 who goes after children under the age of 12. There are NO CHILDREN in this book. The youngest character is 330 years old (equivalent to a 35 year old Human).
An elderly man in his 90s having a sexual relationship with an young man in his 30's is NOT "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn" and anyone who thinks it is, really needs to sit down and just read a dictionary.
The Night of The Screaming Unicornis listed as Dec/May relationship. Is THAT what LG is referring to? Is she so clueless as to what Dec/May means, that she just automatically assumed Dec/May mens an adult with a child?
Dec = old.
May = young.
It DOES NOT mean: Dec = adult or May = child.
The only other thing I can think of that could have inspired her to say these things is the cover art and title of one of the later books in the series: A Baby For The Necromancer (not due out until 2016)
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This story, takes place after Quaraun and Unicorn have been together for over a decade and are considered a married couple, in spite of their both being male and living in a culture that does not allow gay marriage. They are able to pass off as a married couple, however, because few people are aware Quaraun is a male (he is a transvestite after all...he wears dresses, make-up, lots of jewelry, and acts like a refined aristocratic lady.)
Quaraun is, throughout the series, very effeminate, very maternal, and acts far more female then most women.
In the early volumes, Quaraun is a Lich Hunter, but in the later volumes, he has given up Lich Hunting for "helping the helpless" and after going through several villages helping families, he starts to act like a broody mother hen wanting to settle down with a family.
Quaraun no longer wants to travel, going on quests and adventures in A Baby For The Necromancer when he and Unicorn stumble across a razed Human village.
(Keep in mind at this point, that the original FanFicion.net story I had written was a Lord sesshomaru fanfic, and Quaraun was Sesshomaru in the original. If you know the InuYasha story which Sesshomaru comes from, then you know what happens next in the Quaraun series starting with A Baby For The Necromancer )
They at first assume everyone dead, but in looking for survivors they find a Human baby still alive, which they adopt and raise as their daughter. This will be the first volume with the third primary character Pippiyata.
The remainder of the story (which as of today February 21, 2015 is at 22,000 words), is their struggle to keep the baby, when in the next village they enter, they are accused of having kidnapped her. This event results in the injury which cripples Quaraun for the rest of his life and resulting in their settling down in a pink castle.
There are no sex scenes in this volume at all, and the story focuses largely on the struggles of a gay couple trying to adopt a baby in a society that would really like to just execute them and be rid of them. This story is inspired by actual events from my own life: we've been trying to adopt a baby for close to 20 years now and are continually denied because our lifestyle isn't "normal".
There is no "Pedophile Erotica" or "child porn" in this or any other book in the Quaraun series and I am very upset by LG's false accusations about what she just ASSUMES my books to be.
It is obvious she has never read my books and was jumping to conclusions based on the fact that she has no clue what Dec/May relationship means, saw a book that mentioned "baby" in the title and showed a crib on the cover, and saw JDP falsely calling the series Erotica. She just jumbled her misconceptions and misinformation together and ran around flapping her lying mouth off without ever once stopping to think about the consequences of her actions.
And there were consequences:
LG: You caused a lot of problems for me. You really did. Because you lied and ran all over the internet posting comments saying that this book was what you called "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn", hundreds of random strangers started emailing nasty hate mail and death threats to me. One of them showed up in my yard and threatened to kill me and my family.
LG: Because of your lies, falsely calling me the author of "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn", vandals showed up in my yard to dump SEVEN 18-wheel crate-dump trucks of tires and pallets in my yard, which the town is fining me $15,000 for!
LOOK at what they did to our farm Lisa!
LOOK at what your busy-body, gossiping lies did:
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Do you see that picture? That brook is our drinking water. We can't drink it anymore because of the oil leaching off the telephone poles that they dumped in it.
Do you see that picture? There are so many smashed wood pallets against the door of out outhouse that we don't have a place to piss or take a dump anymore?
JDP/EA? LG? Do you SEE what YOU did to my family?
We were still harvesting our crops. Thousands of dollars of crops were destroyed by those trucks. People dumped garbage on our land, because you two lied online about me, told people I was "garbage" so one of the people who read your lies, got it into their head to dump garbage on our land.
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And the thought did occur to me that LG had "other" reason for saying what she said.
People don't like transvestites. It's easier for most people to tolerate an Autistic or a Gypsy, then a transvestite.
It's also not uncommon in Christian communities, for Christian women, to use the word pedophile as synonymous with the words transvestite or gay.
I can find no reason, why she said this about me or my books, and am left to the conclusion that because she is a narrow-minded super Christina, she doesn't know the difference between the words pedophile and transvestite.
Yeah.
Just one more stereotype I have to live with because people are too stupid to know what words actually mean.
In a strange twist, on October 28, 2014 mega-bestseller Erotica author, SC joined JDP and LG, and began emailing me threats saying that "Gypsy scum doesn't deserve to live" and "we don't want your kind on our forum". And oddly, her ISP is the same ISP as one of the two ISPs that were used to hack my KBoards account. The other ISP was local. VERY local. In Biddeford, Maine less the 5 miles from my home.
Evidence now suggests that it was long time (local) stalker (unpublished author wannabe) Kendra The Silver Salamander, who then joined the band wagon by creating 52 fake accounts and using one of them to hack my KBoards account, and change all of my posts into utter chaotic raving madness, as only K/SS can do best. (This is not the first time she has hacked one of my accounts. I don't know how long this woman has been stalking me, I first became aware of it in October 2006.) (You really need to stop harassing me Kendra. This has been going on for 9 years and I'm really getting sick of you invading my life every October. Who the hell are you? What is your freaking problem? Do you not have a life? Do you really have nothing better to do than harass me year after year after year after year? I am so damned sick of you popping up in my life every October. GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE AND LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU SICK FILTHY PIECE OF SHIT! There is really something seriously wrong with you Kendra, I am tired of you stalking me.)
This woman shows up at my home, shows up at restaurants and cafes when I am eating, shows up at the library when I am studying, in 2012 she showed up at college and slashed my tires. She has long strawberry blond red wavy hair, is about 50/60 years old and wears big "Janis Joplin" style glasses, and carries a white poodle that she dyed purple; she believes the dog to be a dragon. We don't know her real name, but she calls herself Kendra The Silver Salamander. She claims her father owns FunTown SplashTown (this is not true, I know the people who do own the park). She has a deep hatred for all published authors, claiming they are only published because they used psychic powers to suck ideas out of her head; she says this is why she is still unpublished, because all the published authors won't stop tapping into her brain. She appears to have serious mental health issues. She talks to herself, repeating single phrases over and over again. "It's my turn to shine!" being her most commonly repeated phrase. She has a volatile temper and is prone to wild screaming fits while shaking her dog in your face. She is wanted in connection with the grease fryer bomb that blew up my house and left both myself and my dad crippled, in October 2006.
K/SS has no ability to grasp the fact that I am seriously disabled, and has, every October since 2006, staged anti-EelKat protests on NaNoWriMo, making wild (and false) claims about my life and my lifestyle. She is of the opinion that I am a millionaire. She believes I live in not one, but three mansions, she believes I drive several Rolls Royces.
Though she has accosted me on several occasions in various public places, she has never seen me standing or walking and is clueless to the fact that since the bombing of my house in 2006 I am crippled, I wear a leg brace, a back brace, 2 arm braces, 2 ankle braces, and walk with a cane, usually requiring the assistance of another person to sit and stand. Each time she has attacked me in person, I have been seated at a desk in a library or a table in a restaurant.
Likewise, she seems to be unaware of my Autism, or at least, the fact that I don't talk and must write/type my words to communicate with people. While I can talk, few Americans are able to understand my speech, as I have a Native Maine accent and speak Scottish English, and because of my Autism the words are jumbled and spoken very fast. As such, K/SS has never heard me speak.
This however, has not stopped her from starting threads on the NaNoWriMo forum, every year, to "warn" people of several various accusations, depending on her moods, and usually include such phrases as "I heard EelKat say..." or "When EelKat was walking to..."
I can neither talk, nor walk. K/SS has a bad habit of telling a LOT of lies about me. And she does this EVERY October. I'm not sure how long she's been doing it. I only found out about her during the investigation of the bombing of my house in 2006, when she had been posting "I wish someone would kill EelKat for me". A thread on which commenters joked about building a bomb, 8 days before someone put a bomb in my house. One of the commenters, went to prison. He built the bomb on K/SS's request.
While I had been a member of NaNoWriMo since 2004, I had never been on their forum, before 2006, because I was unaware there was a forum.
I was not aware of K/SS's continued anti-EelKat threads until 2 years later, when another NaNoWriMo member asked me, if I had seen the threads one of the MLs made each year, publically bashing my name. That was when I learned that NaNoWriMo had a separate forum for each state and the first time I visited the State of Maine forum of NaNoWriMo.
Who this woman is and why she was harassing me, I don't.
I don't know why she follows me around both online and offline.
She is extremely obsessed with me and I don't why.
If you know the identity of this woman, please forward her information to the FBI. She has put me and my family through 9 years of hell.
Given the nature and time (October) of the attack of KBoards, evidence suggests that K/SS is the one who hacked my account. Evidence also suggests that K/SS most likely hacked JDP, LG, and SC's accounts as well.
I do not know if JDP, LG, or SC are even aware of what happened on Kboards, via their accounts. I contacted them to alert them what was going on and they did not reply.
But it was October and it was the first October that K/SS did not attack me on NaNoWriMo, which suggests it her attack on Kboards, via other people's accounts.
Especially given that one of JDP's posts said: "It's my turn to shine" and most of JDPs attack was claiming I was in competition with her, which is in fact K/SS's most frequent accusation used in her NaNoWriMo posts.
And the fact that the hacker, used my Gypsy ancestry and made lots of references to my being retarded, and targeted my books with October publication dates. All things with K/SS has done, every October since at least 2006.
Plus the hacker went wild, trying to "back up" JDP's accusations, but posting via my account, lots of wild "I'm a millionaire" braggings. Making it very obvious that both my account's posts and JDP's account's posts were being written by the same hacker.
Kendra don't seem to understand that an adult with Autism, can't take care of themselves. They can't get jobs, because no one will hire them. I average 400 job applications a year, every year for more then 20 years now. I write for a living because I don't have any other option, and contrary to what other authors have said about me, I've never made more then $2,000 in a single year. Not once in my entire life. YES, my TOTAL yearly income is LESS THAN the average person's MONTHLY income.
And the $2,000 thats the MOST, a lot of years it's only $1,000, and I've had several years under $600. Yeah, $50 a month. It was okay when I had a house, but a grease fryer bomb took the house, and now because of the Kboards Incident, if I don't come up with $15,000 before April 2015, to pay for the clean up cost of the vandalism damages, the town says they are going to take the land. The land's all I have. I don't even have enough money to buy, food, I'm only surviving because I farm the land. I'll starve to death if they take the land. The people on KBoards, they don't know what they did. I don't have a place to park the motorhome if they take the land and I don't have enough money to put gas in the motorhome to move it. I don't even make $2,000 a year and I need $15,000 in less then 60 days.
And these people don't even care, that they've done this to me, because I have Autism and to them, I'm not worth living. I mean, they want me dead. They said that. They said "people like her should be shot in the head". That's the kind of people I'm dealing with here.
I don't know who this Kendra person is, or what her problem is, or why she is so hung up on me, but she has staged one of these weird online and offline freak-out attacks every single October since 2006.
If anybody reading this knows who this Kendra person is, PLEASE, forward her information to the FBI. She IS wanted in connection to the attempted murder of my family, via a grease fryer bomber, which was put in our house October 2006. That was the first time we were "introduced" to this Kendra person. She has been stalking my family for 9 years. She was the one posting death threats on the NaNoWriMo forum, requesting that someone kill me, days before the grease fryer bomb was put in our house. Both my and my father are crippled and can no longer walk unaided because of the bomb.
I have been homeless and living under a 8x6 tarp, ever since Kendra and the grease fryer bomb that blew up our house October 2006. Yes, even during winter, snow, and blizzards.
The bomb resulted in $3million in medical bills, which are still not yet paid and that is why I have been unable to rebuild a house these past 8 years.
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I have contacted all 4 of these authors asking why they chose to attack my books in the way that they did, but only Kendra responded and she's quite proud of what she did. As usual she says "It's my turn to shine!" as her reason for what she did. JDP, LG, and SC have refused to comment on their harassment, cyber bullying, stalking, trolling, offline vandalisms, drive by shootings, and death threats.
I don't understand people who do things like this. What is the point? What is their motive? What is their goal? What drives them to do this sort of thing? I don't get it at all. It makes no sense to me on any level whatsoever.
And how does somebody have enough free time to spend that much time doing this sort of thing? Do they really have nothing else to do? Are their lives that empty that the only thing they can find to do is harass people via the internet?
Jolie: What the fuck? 5,000 forum posts about how much you hate me? What the friggin fuck? 5,000 forum posts? In less then a month? Are you just online 24 hours a day? Are you completely insane? God, I so gotta make you into a character for the Quaraun series. I feel so sorry for you. To have that much time on your hands, you must be so lonely. You have absolutely no one in your life do you? You know what, maybe, instead of of trolling forums and raving insanity at fellow authors, you should try turning the computer off once in a while and going outside, maybe meet a person. You have heard of Humans before right? You know other people like yourself. Outside. In the sunlight.
Lisa: What the fuck? Please tell me what denomination your holier than thou ass strolled out of so I can be sure never to attend one of it's church services. Good God! Have you ever even read the Bible? TIP: Try Proverbs, especially that bit about the evil woman who ran from house to house, gossiping. NEWSFLASH SugarPlum: I'm an ordained minster, with a church and congregation, I'm turning what you did into a sermon, on wolves in sheep's clothing, who PRETEND to be Christian, while committing the sin of busy-body, gossiping, spreading of falsehoods and telling lies. HOW DARE YOU! You despicable piece of shit. Next time you feel like calling somebody a pedophile, find out who they are. You vile bitch, may you burn forever in Hell. I was a victim of child rape. There isn't anything on this planet I hate worse then a pedophile.
Kendra: Go jump off a cliff. Please. Shoot yourself. Drown yourself. Hang yourself. I don't care. Hey, here's one, next time you hire somebody to build a bomb, blow yourself up. Yeah, I'm extra pissed at you. I used to have bum leangth hair. But you know how it is with bombs. I wear wigs now, and I had to have plastic surgery to reconstruct my face. It's why there are no close up photos of me since the bomb that blew up my house and left my dad in a coma. I am so sick of you. Every single October for 9 years, there you are, in my life. And I have no idea who you are or where you came from. Kendra, normal people don't do things like this. Nine friggin years? Really? Do you even have a life? Are you EVER not online stalking me? Are you ever going to stop showing up at my house, at my friends houses, and my relatives house? Will you find somebody else to obsess over for a change? What the hell is wrong with you?
Scarlett: Hitler is dead. You know that right? It's illegal to murder Gypsies now. Or hadn't you heard? It's also illegal to threaten to kill Gypsies. But hey, wave that white power flag high as you want. You can just kiss my non-white Scottish ass. I should probably go put on my kilt so I can moon you better, eh? What is you hate more? That I'm Scottish or that I'm a Gypsy?
Initially when this first happened, I gave them the benefit of the doubt, assuming that whoever had hacked my KB account had likewise hacked their accounts. This was why I contacted them, to alert them to the fact that my KB account had been hijacked and I suspected their accounts had been hijacked as well.
HOWEVER...JDP has posted the same attacks on at least 3 other forums that I am aware of, indicating that she is in fact the person behind her KBoards posts. And the stuff she says, is so similar to the stuff Kendra says, that I'm starting to wonder if JDP is not just YET ANOTHER of Kendra's many accounts.
Were JDP/EA, LG, and SC's accounts hacked? Did the person who hacked my account, also hack their's and use their accounts to attack me without their knowledge? Or was it really JDP/EA, LG, and SC doing these things? I don't know. Like I said, I contacted them and asked: Were you the one who said these false accusations about me and my books, or was someone hacking your account and pretending to be you and using your account without your permission, to say those things?
Like I said, there was a hacker on the loose. My account was hacked and posting stuff without my knowledge or consent. I was not online when this happened: I was in the hospital having surgery. I was still in the hospital recovering from surgery when an offline friend visited me and asked me what the fuck had happened to my KBoards account. It was the reason I logged back into KBoards on Nov 11, 2014 and deleted everything.
More than 50 newly created anonymous ID accounts were created in September, all in the space of 3 days. Every one of those accounts claimed to be what they called "an EAF Erotica Author" - those are the 50+ accounts that did the most damage, to the most authors.
There were 3 other "named" authors involved in the attacks on my and my books, they did contact me back: they had no knowledge of what was going on at KBoards, they had not logged into their accounts in over a year. Their accounts, where also saying things. They were members who had left KBoards in 2013, and had suddenly appeared back on KBoards all the same week. (Several long time members commented on why so many old long gone members returned the same week.) Their accounts were hijacked and being used by a hacker to attack other authors, without their consent or knowledge. So it does remain a possibility that JDP/EA, LG, and SC themselves were not responsible for what was said via their accounts during these attacks.
However, they did not respond. Which leads me to believe that their accounts were NOT hacked and it WAS them saying those things about me, otherwise, they would have responded to deny their involvement in the KBoards Incident. If they were innocent of these crimes, they would have responded to clear their name, for only the guilty have reason to hide.
Whoever did it: either the authors whose names were listed on the accounts in question, the a hacker who hijacked said accounts: it doesn't change the fact, that is what a very violent incident and 2 authors died, others were physically injured in in physical offline attacks, some lost their careers and incomes, and many were terribly terrorized and traumatized.
Who the person(s) was behind this attack on these authors, they need to be held responsible for their actions and made and example of, so that something like this never happens again, not on Kboards, nor any other forum.
If you did do these things, what you did was despicable, I want an apology from each of you, published just as widespread and vehemently public, as you posted your lies about me. And: you owe the Town of Old Orchard Beach, Maine $15,000 in clean up costs, to removed the 12' tall, 30' wide, 175' long pile of garbage that is now sitting in our yard.
If you did not do these things and someone else used your accounts to do them, what they did was despicable, it is your responsibility, to find out who it was who impersonated you and used your accounts to do these things, and help me take them to court, because they owe the Town of Old Orchard Beach, Maine $15,000 in clean up costs, to removed the 12' tall, 30' wide, 175' long pile of garbage that is now sitting in our yard.
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I think one of the problems with these people is, they don't see me in person. they only know me online, and they are deceived by the fact that I can type my words to "talk" coherently, and I'm an adult, so they don't stop and think what my having Autism means.
They think I must have Aspergers and just be a normal person with quirks.
Because I can type they don't think I'm actually Autistic.
Because I'm an adult, they don't think I could possibly have real Autism.
One of those forum trolls even said that.
He said "You aren't ACTUALLY Autistic. They can't communicate. They can't think."
Another said: "You don't have REAL Autism, like my son has, you only have Aspergers."
And what do they judge that by? My books. My articles. My forum posts. They think because I can type and because I'm an adult, that I'm not Autistic.
NEWSFLASH: When you're son reaches 18, he's still gonna be Autistic.
A lot of people see Autism as a childhood illness. There's all kinds of help for parents of autism, and teachers of autism, and day care providers of autism but soon as that autistic child turns 18, that it's. Their are done. There's no more help for them, like POOF the Autism went away because they are adults.
People don't seem to understand that an adult with Autism, can't take care of themselves. They can't get jobs, because no one will hire them. I average 400 job applications a year, every year for more then 20 years now.
And why will no one hire me? Have you ever seen the movie Rainman? People don't hire me because I am like THIS:
I talk just like that^^^
I act just like that ^^^
I rock when I stand just like that^^^
I write for a living because I don't have any other option, and contrary to what other authors have said about me, I've never made more then $2,000 in a single year. Not once in my entire life. YES, my TOTAL yearly income is LESS THAN the average person's MONTHLY income.
And the $2,000 thats the MOST, a lot of years it's only $1,000, and I've had several years under $600. Yeah, $50 a month.
It was okay when I had a house, but a grease fryer bomb took the house, and now because of the Kboards Incident, if I don't come up with $15,000 before April 2015, to pay for the clean up cost of the vandalism damages, the town says they are going to take the land. The land's all I have. I don't even have enough money to buy, food, I'm only surviving because I farm the land. I'll starve to death if they take the land. The people on KBoards, they don't know what they did. I don't have a place to park the motorhome if they take the land and I don't have enough money to put gas in the motorhome to move it. I don't even make $2,000 a year and I need $15,000 in less then 60 days.
And these people don't even care, that they've done this to me, because I have Autism and to them, I'm not worth living. I mean, they want me dead. They said that. They said "people like her should be shot in the head". That's the kind of people I'm dealing with here.
I have Autism, so they think doing this sort of thing is okay. They think I don't have feelings, or I'm too stupid to know what they are doing. They don't think I'm hurt by what they do. When they get done bullying me they have friend they can go off with. I have a dog, a rabbit, and 14 cats, and a husband in his 70s who has alzheimer's and it's been 13 years since he remembered he had a wife. It's a good day when he remembers my name. He was my primary caretaker and no I'm his. I require 24 hour adult supervision. I've been without a caretaker for several years now. It's been 8 years since I had daily meals. Or really meals at all. I can make a SubWay sandwich last 5 day, because I have to. I'll end up 4 days without food at all if I don't.
The thing is...no one cares. No one. Not one single person on the entire planet. There are 368 people in my family. There is an aunt with 8 husbands and an uncle with 5 wives. I have an uncle who makes $2million dollars a year. My mother was #8 of 11 surviving children (there were 12 born alive and 3 stillborns.) 10 of the 11 had at least 4 children each wife, though most had more then 6 each wife. I have an aunt who gave birth to 15 children. I have 64 first cousins, each of whom has 2 to 12 children per wife. Yeah. There are 368 people in my family and every one of them knows how I live and why. I have Autism so they don't care. In their own words I am "the child of Satan", they believe that Autism is demon possession.
Of course about half of them also believe HaleBop would take them to heaven. They are members of a group called Heaven's Gate. My extended family has been involved in 5 murder-suicides. A group of them kills themselves every time a comet flies over head. Usually it's only 4 or 5 people at a time. 37 people died in the biggest one though. They are now waiting scientists to discover a comet called Wormword. They say all the other comets were the wrong ones and Wormwood is the one they are waiting for next. If scientists ever find a comet named Wormwood, there'll be about 200 people die next time.
I survived one murder-suicide when I was 14. It's why I have no contact with any of them any more. They are crazy and I don't want to be around people who think it's okay to put poison in your drinks. I don't like them, even if they are family. They really scare me a lot. I don't like watching people die. I don't want to watch people die again, that why I'm glad, they don't help me, because I know what they are like. If they helped me, they'd use that against me to take my freedom away.
I may not have a house, or a normal income, or enough food to eat, but I have my freedom. They nailed the windows shut and put boards over them and put locks up and down the outside of the door. I don't like being put in a room with nailed windows and locks on the door. I don't ever want to live with them again. It is very hard to live on my own, without caretakers, but I will NEVER go back to them.
Do you know what Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is like? It's worse then the Autism.
Do you know, that when I was a kid, I used to drink Kool-Aid. Tang was my favorite drink.
Did you know that I as hard as cooking for myself is for me, that since I was 14, I've not allowed ANYONE to touch my food. I won't eat food they made. I won't eat food they've bought. I buy my food, separate, and I keep it locked in the car. I'm the only one with a key to that car.
They poison the drink mix power. I have a massive phobia of powder, drink mix, colored drinks. Since I was 14, I haven't drunk anything but water. Did you know, that my phobia of of someone poisoning my drink is so bad today that if you even look at my drink, I'll dump it out. You don't even have to touch it. And I won't accept a drink from anyone. No one. I bring an outside drink with me to restaurants, because I can't even buy a drink at a restaurant. It's that bad. That's what being the survivor of a murder-suicide did to me.
You want to see the room? Oh yes. I have pictures. I have pictures of everything. My grandmother gave me a camera, the relatives didn't know I had it. I kept it hidden under my skirts. I have pictures of everything they did.
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The boarded up window.
The floor below the boarded up window aka "my bed".
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And a few of the many locks on the doors (the door with windows - that's bulletproof plexi-glass)
When you tell me, that you can't help me, because I have 368 people in my family, and I have to ask THEM...you are telling me, to go to people who did THAT^ to me.
I took those pictures in 2010. I did go to them for help. In their minds. I have Autism, and therefor I belong in that room, begging god for forgiveness. Begging god to remove my demon. They believe I have a demon in me. That's what they think Autism is. I'm in my 40s. They were locking me in that room as recent as 5 years ago.
In the Quaraun book, Quaraun tells Unicorn about how his uncle locked him in a room for days without food or water. I can write scenes like that because they happened to me and I know what it feels like to be alone and sared in a room with no light and windows boarded up and nailed shut, and 5 padlocks on the outside of the door, and sitting on the floor for days, being terrified. I can write Quaraun's fear, because it was my fear. I felt it.
I know what it feels like to have people in your life, that you think, love you, and then have them turn their backs on you and turn out to be nothing but self serving monster incapable of loving anyone.
Whenever people find out how I live and they ask "Don't you have relatives, can't you get them to help you?" They don't understand what my relatives are like. You don't know what the Heaven's Gate group is like if you've never lived with them. You don't know what it's like living with people who believe that sickness and disease are demon possession. You don't know what it is like living with people who think God is an alien living on Planet Kolob and are waiting for him to send a comet to take them to Kolob. You have no idea how terrifying it is, every time the news announces a new comet in the sky, and all you can do is sit there and watch people around you killing themselves and each other and threatening to kill you. They've done it 5 times now. And they are geared up and ready to go out 200 people strong if WormWood ever gets here.
Do you want to know what kind of people my relatives are?
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The clan is divided today, there's not 368 in a single group now. 200 of them left and went to Bangor. I'm glad they left, they were the Heaven's Gate members. It's been nice and peaceful, since they've been gone. They went to Bangor in 1997, after the big HaleBop event. They are waiting for Wormwood, they said HaleBop was the wrong one. That's why not everyone from Heaven's Gate is dead. Only a few of them actually believed HaleBop was the right comet. They went to Bangor, because they claim, that by filming Thinner in our yard here in Old orchard, that Stephen Kings gave them an open invitation to squat in the woods behind his house, and Maine squatting laws say that if you live on land for 20 years, it's yours, and they are fast approaching 20 years. They'll own that land soon. Those of us still in Old Orchard, we are very glad the clan is divided now and we hope we never see the ones that now live in Bangor, ever again. If you ever want to see them, go to Bangor, find Paul Bunyan, drive til you get to the grocery store, turn, drive til you get to Stephen King' house, keep going until you find a dirt road, follow it until the road ends. Get out of your car and start walk - don't plan on the car being there when you get back, it'll be stripped to the frame and all the parts sold by the time you come back - keep walking, for about 20 minutes, into the deepest, forest you've ever seen...you will know when you get there. They'll see you before you see them, and you better pray you can outrun their guns. I'm not sure if they still have the guns - very illegal military guns - the compound was raided about 2 years ago. Police. FBI.
The FBI calls them "The Scottish Traveller Crime Family of America" - I mentioned we were Gypsies, right?
The FBI took their guns and about 30 children out of there, several of my first cousin went to prison. The ones not in prison have been sending me death threats via FaceBook ever since. You've seen them. I know you guys have because several of you have been commenting on them. They are my cousins. While they are on FaceBook, they live in a gated compound with barb wire separating them from the world, there no houses on the compound, they live in cars, trucks, a horse trailer, tents. They wouldn't know what to do with a house. They have a bunch of old discarded mobile home trail park houses, they are not water tight. The rooms they lock children in are in those.
Sometimes they lock them in old rusty oil barrels with only a small pinhole in the cover for air. Ask me how I know. Ever notice all the "iron maiden" scenes in the Twighlight Manor series, told from the point of view of the Autistic character who is locked INSIDE? Yeah. I know what that's like too.
My family is insane. How's yours?
They don't understand that all those death threats they keep posting on my FaceBook wall are being read by so many people. They can't even begin to comprehend how many people there are in the world. They also don't comprehend, that all those death threats are illegal, just like they don't see anything wrong with breed cats and dogs for food. Oh yes. They started doing that, 3 months ago.
Our clan was still practicing cannibalism in 1937. My grandfather used to joke and say that he was still doing it in the 1950s. The group in Bangor... each wife has 10 to 15 children, but they don't have that many adults. The children never grow up in that group. They don't report the births. They don't go to hospitals. One woman claims to have given birth to 26 children. Where are they? That was in the 1970s. I meet the children, I saw them. I know she had 26 children. I talked to them. Children never reach adulthood in that group. The adults, say Silence of the Lambs is their favorite movie. They make jokes about eating babies and children all the time.
That's why I write about cannibals. I grew up with people who had practiced cannibalism. My grandfather used to talk about how snapping babies necks was easier then snapping the neck of a rabbit. He said they tasted like pork.
That's why I'm a vegetarian. I stopped eating meat after Grammy Helen died. I never trusted meat to not be someone I knew again. At her funeral, they were not upset that she died, they upset that she was dead so long, that they couldn't eat her. That's what they said at her funeral.
I'm the one who reported them to the FBI. They call me a traitor, because they say I should be putting family first. But, I don't think locking children in rooms with boarded up windows and threatening to eat them, counts as "putting family first". Even if their aren't eating people, they don't stop talking about it. And they terrorize those children with it. The children have firk shaped scars from being stabbed with forks.
One uncle would hold your arm down, while another uncle would stab a fork into your arm, then take a steak knife and start sawing your arm, between the fork tines. I have scars on my arm, from them doing that to me.
That's what my uncles are like. That's why in the Twighlight Manor series I wrote Roderic, being tortured like that by his uncles. That's why in the Quaraun series, I write Quaraun being tortured like that by his uncle.
That's why they send me death threats on FaceBook. Because when I went to Bangor, to visit them and saw them doing to their children the same things they had done to me 40 years ago, I forwarded all my photographs to the FBI and told them how to find the Bangor compound. The FBI took all their guns and all their children and some of them went to prison.
I don't care if they were family. They were hurting children and that's wrong. Bullies MUST be stopped. It doesn't matter who they are.
Stabbing a child with a fork and threatening to eat them, is bullying. I told them that. And I told them if they didn't stop I'd tell the FBI. They didn't believe me. They laughed.
But I did. And they took them away, and I can find a song for ANY occasion...here's another song I used to play on my 45 player, that is very appropriate for the topic at hand:
(Ask me about record collection. It's nearly as big as my book collection.)
They said: "Oh they know we are just teasing. They know we won't eat them."
I look at the child. Bawling his eyes out, with blood dripping down his arm. Wounded and terrified. You don't do things like that to a 4 year old! They don't know you are teasing! All they know is you just stabbed with a fork and said you were gonna eat them. The child is standing there with blood dripping from a fork wound. You should be taking them to the hospital to get stitches, and you don't even give them a band-aid. Why?
I asked. Do you know what he said?
"Well, my dad did worse then that to me, and I lived. I didn't need no band-aids."
Oh yes. I remember your father. David Henry Atwater, Chief Patriarch of The Royal Highland Clan. King of the Gypsies. Applewhite's buddy-buddy. Living out their in "The Kingdom" (his term for Salt Lake City.) I remember him and the things he did. I survived his little visit here to Maine. Remember? Five others didn't though, did they. They died. Horribly. I wasn't supposed to live. REMEMBER. My parents called the police on you people, and the police got there, before I died. I was only 14 years old, but I have Autism. I never forgot. I'll never forget. Your father. Your evil, evil, MONSTER of a father. They tortured me. They tortured my 5 friends. The police interrupted them, so I lived. And you hate that I know.
That's child abuse! And just because your father did it to you, doesn't make it right to do it to your children too! You bastards from Hell! How dare you hurt a child!
Your father abused me too, remember? I know what he was like. My grandfather, your father, he was a monster. A vile, sick, perverted monster. He put me in the trunk of a car. Canton, Maine. OMG! The pile of bones. HUNDREDS and HUNDREDS of bones. Piles and piles and piles of them. Everywhere. Piles of bones, taller then me. Six foot tall piles of bones. Leg bones. Arm bones. I was there in Canton Lake, Canton, Maine. I saw what he did. I was almost added to that piles of bones. They were going to kill me too. My bones almost ended up there in those piles, if the police hadn't arrived. I know what he put you through. I know what he did to you. He did the same thing to me! Your father was a monster, and he should have been in prison.
How dare you, carry on his legacy of child abuse, when you yourself was abused. You know what it felt like, how dare you put your own children through that. I'm not going to let you hurt those children, just because that's what your father did to you. He did it to me too.
I was abused by you people, and I remember how much it hurt. I will NEVER allow you to hurt another child.
I will do everything in my power to stop EVERY bully EVERYWHERE. Family. Stranger. Online. Offline. I don't care.
If you are a bully: YOU ARE EVIL!
You destroy lives!
Family or not, a bully is a bully. Bullies are people who hurt other people on purpose, because they think it is fun to do. Because they don't care about hurting people.
It's wrong. Hurting people is wrong!
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That is the reason you see Gypsies in Maine making a distinction of who they are, why say things like "We are the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach, The Ricker Clan"
David Henry Atwater and George Ricker, lead two rival Gypsy clans. For over 100 years they have feuded. The Rickers have lived on the land in Old Orchard since 1530. The Atwaters "claim" to be Scottish, but they also "claim" to be descended from Daivd Henry Atwater (1600s) of Kent, England. The Scottish Gypsies are very short. All of the Atwaters, men and women are over 6 feet tall. They do not disassemble Scottish Gypsies at all. They immigrants to Nova Scotia in the 1830s. They were boat dwelling Gypsies back them, living on a Junk with blue sails, they made a living by stealing food off merchant ships and selling it to small towns up and down the coast.
In the 1890s/1920s, led by my Grandfather David Henry Atwater (and his father Henry Morris Atwater, and his grandfather Capt John H. Drake) they became bootleggers, they made moonshine in Nova Scotia, boarded it on the blue sailed Junk and dropped the cases into the water off the end of the Old Orchard Beach Pier. The pick up person would fish the crates out, go to Palace Playland, unscrew the tails of the merry go round horses and hide the bottles inside the horses, until Honey Fizt came up from Boston, to buy the moonshine.
My grandfather had a coat, a big full length mink, it was big enough for a 200lb man to wear, and he was really skinny. Inside of the coat, was a double lining. When he unzipped the lining, it was rows of pockets inside. On the nights Honey Fitz came up from Boston, Grandpa would unscrew the tails of the carousel horses, take the bottles out, put them in the many, many pockets of his coat and walk across town to the meeting place, wherever it was that night.
He had a Robin's Egg blue car, and when the government came to try to catch the Canadian Gypsy bootleggers, they chased grandpa driving that car, all the way back to Canada.
Because they were Gypsies and the Ricker's were also Gypsies, the American government assumed we know them. At the the time we didn't. But that is what started the feud.
In the 1940s The Atwaters left Canada for Canton, Maine. That's where the original compound was and whenever they continue to have their "meetings".
In the 1960s The Atwaters invaded Old Orchard Beach, fully armed in an all out war on the town. They claimed they were taking over the town, and the end result was, in 1968, police officers from dozens of towns, and the entire state police force, and several military men (marines people said) came to Old Orchard Beach, gather up the Atwater Clan, all the Romanies, and all the Irish Travellers, about 600 families all together and marched them at gun point out of the state. When they reach New Hampshire, they were meet by most of that's police force, who marched them across New Hampshire, until they reached Vermont. At the Vermont border they were meet by Vermont police. They march across the country in this fashion, until they reached the first to NOT great them with an army of cops: Utah. They settled in Ogden, Utah. It was shortly after this that my grandfather meet Applewhite.
Not all of the Atwaters ended up in Utah. One of the Atwater girls defied her father and married one of the Ricker boys. They were my parents. The violent and hysterical Atwaters were infuriated. They waged war on the Rickers. The feud known as 458. When I was born, the first child to be both Ricker and Atwater, the battles got worse. When I was 3, people started to realize something was really wrong with me. When I was 4, three of the Atwater uncles, began their verbal abuse of me.
Because of the joining of two clans (Gypsies rarely marry outside their clan) their were now two Matriarchs: Grammy Helen Ricker and Grammy Eva Atwater.
Grammy Helen, was against the feud. Grammy Eva, who was an Autistic Kickapoo Native american Indian, was terrified of the feud. My two grammies banded together against the Atwater men, and they are the only reason I reached adulthood. Because of my Autism, Grammy Helen (who was EXTREMELY Scottish and spoke Gaelic and is the reason I have the accent I have) decided I was "Faerie Sighted" and at 3 years old, began teaching me all the plants of the yard, all the spirits of each plant, and all their uses.
Grammy Helen declared that I was going to be the next Matriauch and trained me for that. The Atwaters responded to call her a witch and to say that she was teaching me witchcraft. Their mother Grammy Eva, responded to help Grammy Helen, declaring, that I would replace BOTH Matriarchs, uniting the two clans under one queen. Grammy Eva, is the one who named me "EelKat" when I was 3, because I had a "strange" infatuation or connect to eels and cats. She said they were my spirit animals. "Empress EelKat" is how both Grammies referred to me, whenever the Atwater men were around. They did that to annoy them. They called me "Wendy" otherwise.
Grammy Helen died when I was 8, Grammie Eva when I was 17. My Atwater uncles became very violent after that. They think nothing of hitting me, punching me, breaking my arm, beating me with rocks.
David is the worst. David, son of David, whose son and grandson are both David, he's the Patriarch of the Bangor compound.
There is a David A., David B, David C, David D, David E, etc. It's hard to count how many child the Bangor Atwaters have, because they have a son and name him David and then they have another and name David, and another and name him David...no birth certificates. They ALWAYS for more then 50 years have a child named David. I only know of 1 that ever reached adulthood.
David, he's the fork guy, he also gives his children puppies and kittens. I think that's the thing that bothered me most when I visited the compound. All the piles of dead dogs and cats all over the yard. He gives his children pets, lets them get attached, and if the child is "naughty", he makes them hold the cat while he shots it in the head.
He learn that from his father David Henry. Grammy Eva had a Great dane named Duke, one day, he got mad at her, shot the dog, chopped it up, boiled it, tied her up, and force fed her dog to her. That's my grandfather, the man who bragged that snapping baby necks was as fun as snapping rabbit necks and that babies tasted like pork.
THAT, is why the Ricker Clan, The Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach, are quick to make the distinction, that we are NOT affiliate with the Atwater Clan the Scottish Traveller Gypsies of Bangor, known to the FBI as the Scottish Traveller Crime Family of America.
Unfortunately, I alone, am a Ricker who is also blood relative of the Atwaters, because my mother was from one clan and my father was from the other clan.
The Ricker Clan, The Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach are Carnival Gypsies and Farmers. We do not travel. We've been settled for 500 years.
The Atwater Clan, are English Traveller Gypsies who claim to be Scottish. They travel all over America. They have base camps in Utah and Maine. In the past they've had base camps in Wyoming, Nevada, Minnesota, Illinois, and Florida. They are criminals. They are dangerous. They think nothing of killing people. You know them when they come through, they squat on farms, they strip every bit of copper they find in every house in the town, they steal bikes, they strip cars to their frame. They sometimes call themselves The Avenging Angels. They are waiting for a comet called Wormwood to take them to visit god on Planet Kolob.
The FBI, sends out a pamphlet to police departments, in areas suspected of being in their path, when they are on the move. The pamphlet "How to Deal With Scottish Gypsies", lists all the warning signs to watch for. It tells how to tell the difference between Roma, Irish Travellers, and Scottish Gypsies. It contains warning which say "Most dangerous of all gypsy groups" and "most likely of all gypsy groups to respond with deadly force" and "skilled swordsmen" and "armed with machetes" and "suspected cannibals".
I have a copy of it. It's fairly accurate for the most part. It's always interesting reading the FBI reports on my extended family. They are classified by the FBI as the #1 most dangerous Gypsy group in America, and they are my uncles.
And they periodically showed up in my life, and made hell of my life, every time they did. They were squatting on our land in Old Orchard in 1996, while they were doing their HaleBop thing. It took us 7 months to get them out of our yard. 7 months of non stop absolute hell.
And if you ever run across them: run. Just run. Don't stop. They WILL kill you.
It's WHY you hear Scottish Gypsies, get very upset when white men, confuse us with Scottish Travellers. Because they are two completely different groups. The Scottish Travellers descend from the Celts and Romans, while the Scottish Gypsies descend from the Pict and Sicilians (Persians). They are completely different bloodlines, whole different DNA chain.
The Scottish Gypsies shun the Scottish Travellers and avoid any association with them, viewing the brief union of the two clans as a serious mistake.
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So, when social workers say, they can't help me, because I have family out there, go to them, now you see why I don't go to them. You also begin to understand why I rescue cats and who I rescued them from. And then you also understand why I have a phobia of forks and only eat with plastic spoons. And why I carry a machete and won't let anyone closer then 5 feet to me. Why I have a phobia of milk and K-aid and Tang.
Did you know I walk to the ocean, to bathe fully clothed and without any type of soap, so that I won't get locked in the bathroom and so I don't have to risk somebody holding me under the water in the tub to drown me. Drown me because I have a demon and they have to kill it.
That's what kind of people my uncles are. That's the things they do to me. All those phobias I have, every one of them, and there are hundreds, are because of something my uncles did to me. My uncles are bullies to the extreme. And they are LDS/Mormon High Priest, with temple recommends, every one of them. They say that having the priesthood, gives them the right to pass judgement on whether or not I deserve to live. They said god told them I was a witch, possessed by a demon and must be punished until I cast my demon out.
They don't believe in doctors or disease or illnesses. They say those things are fairy tales created by Satan to deceive the world. The say doctors are evil servants of Satan, who use witchcraft to take "god's punishments" away from the wicked.
I don't want help from them. If they help me, they'll make me live with them again, they'll torture me again, and I may not be normal because of my Autism, but those people are absolutely insane and I don't ever want to see them again.
I'm surviving, barely, but I'm not thriving, and if something doesn't change with my living conditions, my ability to get food...my health deteriorated badly these past 8 years, since the bomb. I've been living under a tarp, yes, even now with 7 feet of snow and -48F temperatures. Winters are cold in Maine. I'm typing mostly, right now, to keep my fingers circulating, so they don't freeze stiff. Doctors say I can't take these living conditions much longer. Two, three years tops.
That's why you see, the Quaraun series set in a quasi-Medieval setting and not in current error. Because, I don't think many people in current error believe in doctors being witchcraft and illness being demons, like my uncles do. But because I grew up with people like this all around more - 300+ of them - I write Quaraun in a time period where he too grows up around people who believe those things.
And Quaraun has hundreds of strange phobias. And it baffles the other characters, the things he does, just to avoid the things he fears. In Vampire Leprechaun, they are travelling along, and they are not far from where they want to go, and they reach this point, where they have to cross a brook, and the brook is only a few feet wide and, where they are at, only a foot deep. They can easily walk across it, and are about to, when Quaraun has a meltdown screaming fit. They can't get him across and they don't know what to do, because they don't know what the problem is.
They end up, having to find another way to get to where they want to go. They are only 2 or 3 days from where they want to be, but the phobia, Quaraun has, is so bad, that they end up backtracking and taking a different road that bypasses and goes around, and adds an addition 2 weeks to their getting to where they want to go.
Have you ever seen Rainman? Watch this scene:
I do that. ^^^ You can't get me on a plane. You can't get me in a car, unless you can prove to me that car is safe.
Quaraun does that ^^^^ that is what you see happening, several times in Vampire Leprechaun. Quaraun is just having one melt down after another, the whole story.
That's what is going on, in Vampire Leprechaun. A fear that to others, looks utterly irrational, but to Quaraun, is completely crippling.
I write him doing these things, because he has Autism, and he's doing the same things I do in those situations.
I'm an adult with Autism. My income has never topped $2,000 a year. Because of those two things, I'm not eligible for medical insurance, so only time I'm getting any treatments anymore is when I get bad enough to have to go to the ER.
I think that is one of the major things which people don't understand. They see that I can write coherently online and they simply do not realize, how severely disabled I am if they have not meet me in person.
A few years ago, my caretakers had a copy of my credit report printed up. Their goal was to attempt to teach me how to read it, in hopes that if I ever was given a job, perhaps I could be taught to do my own taxes. Well, when they got the print out in the mail, they found on my credit history: 3 repossessed cars, a forclosed house, 7 bank accounts in default, and 32 credit cards that had been run to max limit. They were very upset, because they said someone had done identity theft.
I'm not entirely sure what any of that means, I just know that's the things that were on the list and what they called it. So, they explained to me, that someone, somewhere, somehow had gotten a hold of my social security number and was using it to open fake bank accounts and fake credit card accounts. Of course then they had to explain banks and credit cards to me. They didn't get very far with that before they gave up.
They said it was easier for them to just fix the mess, then to try to explain to me what a credit card was, because according to them, I don't possess the mental ability to comprehend what a credit card is, how it works, or what it means to have had someone use identity theft to get a credit card in my name.
And they are probably right. I mean, there's a reason I don't go to stores and buy things or use money, I mean, I don't even know how to count money. I mean, I understand the green paper stuff is supposed to have more value then the metal coins but I don't understand that either. How can paper be worth more then metal? That makes no sense to me at all. And then they try to explain to me, how paper money with pictures of Ben Franklin on them are worth more then ones with pictures of George washington. Uhm...okay. Why? Other then the picture on it, they otherwise are the exact same paper aren't they? They said "Well, the ones with Franklin are more rare." Okay. Whatever.
The more illogical thing though is that the credit cards, which are plastic, they say are worth the most money of all because you can put more money on them and use them over and over again, so you don't have to carry around heavy coins or stacks of paper. You just have one card that pays for everything. But then they also say you have to pay money to use the cards, so you are really only renting the card it isn't yours. The bank puts money on it and you have to pay the bank back later.
Ah. Like a loan! They said, yes, like a loan. Well that I understood, because I'm a Mormon and the Mormon church teaches that loans are evil and no one should ever get into debt to anyone else. No good ever comes of loans, the Church says. Well, once I figured out that credit cards was a loan, then I got mad at whoever it was who put all those credit cards on my name, because I've never had a loan for no one. Loans are evil and I want nothing to do with them.
I still don't understand money and why people want it. I mean, you can't do an absolute thing with it at all. You can't eat it. You can't use it to keep warm. It doesn't protect you from the weather. It just makes no sense to me at all.
My caretakers keep telling me that I should be trying to make more money, but I'm not really sure why. It makes no sense to me. I just do not understand it at all.
And yet, before the bomb, I had a normal life. Or normal by Gypsy standards, I'm told by Americans that my life has never been normal if compared to American society.
MOST of my life was normal. It got interrupted by various, not normal events. Hurricane Bob. Hurricane Katrina. A murder-suicide that killed my 5 friends when I was 14. A couple of crazy, sadistic, violent, child abusing uncles, who thankfully only were in my life for a few brief periods. And a grease fryer bomb blew up my house. Somebody ran over my grandmother's house with a bulldozer. And one of my cars got stolen out of my yard. But, other then that, the rest of my life was normal.
The uncles, who, were ... I don't know what to call them... cultists in the worst sense of the word, I think may be the most accurate word? They were a sub-group of Heaven's Gate. They are going to visit on a comet ride. They think stabbing children with forks and threatening to eat them is normal and okay. They don't believe in doctors. They think Autism is a form of demon possession. I don't know what to call them. They are so far beyond crazy. But for the most part they stay in Utah. They only come to Maine a few times a year. They raise Hell every time they are here, but they only stay a week or two, usually, and so most of the year, my life is as normal a live as someone with Autism can have.
Until the bomb. I've been able to recover from everything else. Bounce back. But the bomb took my house, and I don't have money to build another one, and that's caused a lot of problems with my health, because I've lived outside for 8 years.
The guy who built the bomb, got 2 years in prison. He's back out, warm and dry, in a house. He was warm and dry while he was in prison too. I haven't been warm or dry in 8 years. It rains or snows pretty much every day in Maine.
And that's exactly why I'm writing this series. Because I am just sick and tired of people doing stuff like this to me and thinking it's okay to do things like this to me, because I have Autism. That is why I am writing a story about a character who is severely Autistic and has been bullied to a breaking point and sets out to kill everyone who bullied him. The world needs to know what it feels like to be bullied that much, that long, that often, to that extent.
I think the fact that I am very slow to respond accounts for people thinking I don't feel anything. Because by the time I do respond, they've already left, so they don't see me respond.
I don't have normal reflexes or reaction times. If you hit me, I probably won't start crying or screaming in pain for at least an hour. That's why you don't see immediate response from me online. I have to print out your forum posts and comments an reviews and emails and read them several times over a period of several days in order to be able to fully process and understand what it is, you are saying to me. I usually have to have my caretaker read your words to me, multiple times, and often he has to then get a dictionary and read the definitions of the words you use and then explain them to me. After which I will them Google the stuff you say and try to see if I can figure out what it is you might have meant and which emotion it is, you were trying to trigger in me.
I think that is the thing a lot of people don't understand about Autism.
If you tell a joke - I don't laugh, because I don't know why it was supposed to be funny, because I don't understand what you said until I've had time to research it.
If you bully me with the intent of hurting my feelings - I don't cry or get upset or angry, because I don't know why it was supposed to be hurt by what you said, because I don't understand what you said until I've had time to research it. I will get upset a few weeks later, after I have had time to research your words and the meanings.
A READER ASKED THE FOLLOWING QUESTION: I’m confused. Don’t you own an RV? Why do you sleep under a tarp if you own a motorhome?
ANSWER: Town ordinances. You can't sleep in anything that has wheels on it at night. I use the motorhome during the day. It's my office where I do my writing. My kitchen where I do my cooking. But at night I have to sleep outside in the cold, snow, wet, and rain because the town says it's safer sleeping under a tarp outside with no protection from the rain and snow, then sleeping in the warm dry soft bed in my motorhome. They send the police by at night to check and make sure no one is sleeping in the motorhome at night.
They want us to put a house up, but I don’t have enough money to do that. It took me 4 years to save up the $2,000 I paid for the motorhome. We don’t have electricity or sewer or running water and I don’t have enough money to buy food, that’s why I don’t eat every day and the days I do eat, I don’t even eat a full meals worth, let alone eat more then once a day.
I think that’s part of why the KBoards incident upset me so much, because whoever hacked into my account and rewrote my posts, they said, while impersonating me to make it look like I was saying it, that I was a millionaire and they were saying stuff like, in one post they bragged that I had made $140,000 in a single month! Good god! I wish! Damn! I’ve never had that much money in my entire life.
I’ve never made more then $2,000 in a single year, that’s $80,000 TOTAL in my entire lifetime. I mean, here I am, sleeping under a tarp, cold and hunger, I don’t have enough money to buy food and, they are logging in on my account and pretending to be me and posting sales figures like that?
What the hell? Why did they do that? I don’t understand this at all. What kind of a person does something like that? And why? I mean, what possible motive did they have for doing it? I can’t figure that one out at all. It makes no sense to me at all, I don’t understand what they could possibly get out of doing this at all. It’s just mean and stupid and childish and idiotic and hateful and hurtful. I guess some people are just mean by nature and don’t have to have a reason for hurting other people.
I can sleep in my motorhome when I'm on the road, like when I'm travelling on a book tour to do book signings or going to Autism awareness conventions or car shows or festivals or stuff like that. But when I'm at home parked on my land, I have to sleep outside under the tarp because that's all the town will allow.
Not allowed to use the toilet in the motorhome either. Nearest public bathroom is a 1/4 mile walk.
Before the tarp, I had a wigwam, that took me nearly a month to build, and that was warm and dry just like having a house. But even though we are Native Americans on our ancestral grounds, the town made us take it down. After that I built a teepee and lived in that, town made us take that down too. After that I put up a yurt, which again was warm and dry, but again the town made me take it down. Bought the motorhome February 21, 2012, police showed up in the yard the next day. Didn't even own it 24 hours before they were there wanting to see the paperwork and reciting town ordinances.
It's been very difficult because the cold affects my joints. I have chronic tendonitis in both arms, both wrist, my back, knee, and hip. Cold damp weather make it worse, which slows down my ability to work, which in turn slows down my income, thus makes it harder for me to save up to build a house. If I had a warm, dry place to sleep, I could get more work done and increase my income and get a house rebuilt faster.
No one has helped us with getting a house. The bomb destroyed everything in our lives. It's been very hard. I'm doing everything on my own now. I'm the only one trying to get a house back up, no one else cares to get a house back up. I wish I could sleep in the motorhome at night and be warm and dry, so that my joints wouldn't hurt so much and then I could do more work and have more income and get a house built back up faster.
There are more then 3,000 families in Old Orchard Beach living in RVs. We are the only ones the town makes sleep outside of the RV on the ground under a tarp.
Oh well, at least I can write indoors during the daytime once again, and my hands don't go stiff from the cold before a few paragraphs anymore.
But you must understand that we are a peaceful people, we prefer to obey the law, no matter how silly or ridiculous the law may be, rather then fight it. And we are used to sleeping outdoors under the stars. It is not an uncomfortable thing for us to sleep this way. During the warm dry months, I prefer to sleep outdoors anyways and often did, even back when we still had a house to live in, before the bomb blew it up.
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READER QUESTION: How do you survive blizzards or tornadoes or floods living outside like that?
MY ANSWER: Not well, but, when you have no options, you can't choose to do better can you? I use clothespins (a whole big bag of about 200 of them) to hold the edges of the tarp shut to keep out the wind and rain. Inside of the "tent" I have taken several blankets and layered them, to build up walls of insulation. On the ground I had built up a foundation out of several bucket loads of sand, and than used my futon (a Japanese mattress) to sleep on. I have three sleeping bags, one inside of the other, and slept at night with all of my cloths on and three coats, and slept inside the tripled sleeping bags. What clothes I wasn't wearing, were stuff into every crack and corner to keep out the cold.
This season so far (2015), we’ve had:
January 23 = 3”
January 25 (Blizzard Juno) = 34”
January 28 = 6”
January 30 = 21”
February 3 = 3”
Today February 5 = 6” so far.
That’s 73” (6 feet) of snow so far this week. And around here it starts snowing in October and snows 2 or 3 days a week every week until about middle of April. We have had years when we as much as 21 feet of snow.
People (white Americans) laugh because I wear these huge fur coats, they are always teasing me when I go out in public about my fur coats but, Honey, I don’t have a nice warm dry house to go home to like you do. I live under a tarp. And it’s been below zero for the last 4 weeks. Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to type this? My fingers are red and stiff and very numb, and it’s really hard to type when the temps get below zero. I mean, I’m sleeping outside at night in this.
During Blizzard Juno last week, the temps were down to -32F and the wind was 75 MPH. The coldest day in Maine history was in February 2007, another blizzard, when temps were -48F. I’m living outside in these storms and the only thing between me and the cold, is a tarp and this big fur coat. If I didn’t have this fur coat, I would have frozen to death last week during Juno. This coat keeps me alive. I have a motorhome, but the town won’t let me stay in it at night and at night is when the winds are the highest, the temps are the coldest and the snowfall the deepest. At night is when I need to be in the motorhome most of all, but they send the police around every night to make sure no one is inside the RV after dark, so I have to sleep outside under the tarp.
It’s really hard on my hands, because I don’t have gloves. they are too expensive I can’t afford a pair of glove. I don’t have any boots either, I just have a pair of slippers. I type at night, like right now, because it keeps circulation moving in my fingers. It’s why you see my publishing way more articles and stories and books in the winter months then in the summer months. I don’t have to type so much in the warmer months, but right now, like tonight, it’s -18F right now and so I have to just keep typing so that my fingers go freeze. Some clansmen have lost fingers and toes because they didn’t keep their feet tucked lotus position against their belly up under their furs at night and because they fell asleep and stopped moving their fingers. That’s why I type so much. I’m an author, I can’t risk losing my fingers and in weather like this, that’s a big problem, so I just type and type ad type all night long no-stop, so that I don’t get so cold that my fingers fall off, like has happened to others in the clan on nights like this. I wish the town would let me stay in the motorhome at night. It’s warm in there. It never gets below 30F in there and most days it stay hot as summer in the mid 50Fs. I mean, 50F in there, those are freaking summer temperatures, I don’t need shoes or coat at all in there. I with the town would let me sleep inside at night. It’s so cold and wet out here and my fingers hurt so much right now. It’s really hard to type right now, because I can’t bend my fingers. They are stuck in this half bent position and they feel like they are stuck full of needles. It really hurts, a lot. And it’s only -18F tonight. This is a warm night. And we’ve got another 3 months of this weather before the temps get back up to the 40Fs.
I wish they hadn’t bombed our house. It was easier back then. It wasn’t what Americans call a house, it didn’t have insulation or a foundation of stuff like that. But it did kept out the wind and it almost never got below 40F inside.
In the summer and fall, we have to deal with the thick seaweed scented fogs that rolled in off the ocean every night. You don't really notice fog, until you have to live outdoors in it night after night. It's like having this big wet sponge wrapped all around you for hours. It soaks everything just like it had been a rain cloud. Fog is really weird. Over the months, however, I grew to love the smell of fog and it's rich seaweed and crab scent. I think that is the one thing I would miss about being in the tent. I really love the smell of the ocean air. Of course being outside all night, all year, I found out that I love the sounds of hearing the ocean waves all day and all night. Indoors you don't really notice the sound of the waves or the sound of the gulls, but out under the tarp, you hear them steady all the time.
At the beginning of this, I had me, my dog, and 9 cats. A few months in, the pet food poisoning happened and I lost 5 of my cats in the space of 2 weeks. After that it was me, my dog, a skunk, and 14 cats. Weird, how 9 minus 5 equals 14, but it did, and I am at a loss as to how to explain it, but one morning shortly after the deaths of my other cats, I woke up to find several wild feral cats tucked into the sleeping bag with me. They moved into the tent and I have had them ever since. There had been a blizzard that night, and we were buried under 9 feet of snow.
That cats and skunk came in to get out of the storm. That was the week I went 12 days without food - it was because there was so much snow - 3 blizzards back to back, one each day for 3 days. I kept a shovel under the tarp next to the sleeping bag, and a 2x4 braced under the center of the tarp to keep it from smothering me. Every hour or so, I'd wake up and dig out an opening in the snow to keep air under the tarp. It took 5 days to shovel out from the tarp to the driveway. It was the biggest blizzard we have had since the one in April 1981. The skunk left after the storm ended and I got a path shovels out. But the cats never went outside of the tarp til spring, and after that, they just stayed with me. They are strange cats, because they are wild feral cats and they'll kill any human that gets near them, no one can get near these cats, they are like mini tigers, but, they curl up on me and sing to me all day long, ever since we got trapped under the tarp together during that blizzard. They are a weird pack of wild cats and somehow adopted me into their flock. I've since gotten them all spayed and neutered and they still live with me.
There was one wild night of a lightning storm. That night, required me to take the cinder blocks and tie them down all along the edges of the tarp in order to keep it from flying away.
It's hard once the snows come, though, and I have to use boards to support the center of the "tent" in order to keep the heavy snowfalls from collapsing the tent on us during the night. During the storms I keep a shovel inside the tent, and shovel my way out, and take the snow off the roof of the tent about every 15 minutes or so, to keep it from getting too heavy on the roof.
Once the snows came I found I had new problems, when I awoke one night to find a baby skunk tucked into the blankets along with me and the cats. He had apparently been separated from his family in the storm, came in the tent for shelter, and got snowed in. He couldn't have been more than 3 or 4 months old. Once the storm was over a few hours later, he left.
One night, my blind albino Siamese cat, Utopia, was asleep on my feet when something big, with huge long sharp claws, reached through the tent, grabbed him, and ran off with him. My dog Buddy fought it off, and it dropped Tope and ran into the woods. It was originally suspected to be a Marten or Fisher, but later events would tell us that a wolverine was in the area, killing everything in it's path, including more than 70 of our chickens, a few deer, and a moose, and it is now believed that it was the very same animal which attacked Tope that night. It's scary when you find really big animals all torn up in your yard like that. I work up one morning, crawled out of the tarp, and there it was, a great big moose leg all chewed up, about 20 feet from the tapr. Scared the heck out of me. After the attack Tope had no fur growing on his side, his ear is a mangled up scarred mess which in no way resembles an ear, he is missing all of his teeth on one side, and there was a huge scar running under his eye and down his face. Tope, never again, slept on my feet, and to the day he died in 2009 Tope refused to sleep anywhere except wrapped around my face like a fur scarf.
I'm in Old Orchard Beach, Maine, and I live on the beach. I am homeless. At night the temperature drops to -15*F BEFORE wind chill factor. Including wind chill factor the temps are often as low as -42*F (and the ocean freezes over when the temps are like that!) This year it's pretty warm and stays around 0F. In 2008/2009 winter is not that bad, it's staying around 30*F. We got a ton of snow this year, but it's not as cold. In 2007/2008 it was colder. My first winter homeless (2006/2007) was the worst. In 2006, Maine had it's coldest winter on record since 1927 and I got frost-bite that year, and that's when I started looking for a job. Not to make money, but to have a place to stay warm.
No one cares that you are cold, so long as they are not. I learned that fast too. As long as they are safe and warm and dry, to hell with everyone else in the neighborhood.
It got very cold that year. Our first snowfall came in October of 2006, just days after the bomb. By December, the temperature plummeted to 0F. February of 2007, saw -15F temperatures, before wind chill factor. Living on the beach meant that wind chill factors brought the temperature down to a blistering -40F at night. Once the temperature dropped, my hands started to crack and turn to blisters. It became very hard to use them for anything. Today my hands are extremely sensitive to touch and I go through a family sized bottle of Gold Bond hand cream each week, just to stop the skin on my hands from cracking. Fact of the matter is my hands (and my feet) suffered from frostbite and I don't know if that will ever heal. But who care, you know, it's just a Gypsy with Autism, right?
No one cares about adults with Autism, no one cares about Gypsies, and I'm both, so who cares about me. That's the way of the white man's world.
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A reader asked: Wait... you were one of 73 authors who were attacked? You mean this wasn't just someone singling you out? Why? Did these authors have anything in common?
Yes. That is why I refer to it as the KBoards Incident and not the EelKat was Attacked Incident. This was a fairly large, fairly wide spread attack, that was posted on 3 forums and several social networks. The attack on me was rather small in comparison to what was done to big name authors Viola Riviera and Hugh Howey, who were also hit hard in this attack. Other authors who left KBoards during this time because they too were attacked, included Ella Casey, Russell Blake, Joe Konrath/Jake Kilborn, Tattooed Writer, and Joe Nobody (and many others). The bigger name authors like them, were hit hard.
The attack started in February 2014, with the biggest name authors each being attacked one at a time. As each big name author left KBoards, the attacks moved on to the next biggest name on the site. Three of the big name authors hired lawyers and started a lawsuit, with their lawyers creating KBoards accounts to post a one time post announcing their client was advised to leave KBoards and sue any and every KBoard member involved in the attack.
What did they have in common?
THIS:
In February 2014, 101 authors on KBoards gathered together to compile a "best of KBoards" anthology. Initially only the biggest name authors were on the list.
By May 2014, 40 of the biggest name authors, pulled out of the project and their lawyers sent cease and desist orders to the forum trolls.
While the attacks were initially thought to be mostly on KBoards, a slew of anti-author blogs and websites, mostly aimed as Hugh howey, creator of the anthology, began to show up all over the internet. WordPress and Blogger were each swamped with hundreds of new blogs being created, demanding the boycott of various lists of author names. In every case the only thing these authors had in common was the KBoards Anthology.
By May, Hugh Howey had removed his name from the project, though his story was still published in it.
I was one of the authors, perceived to be a big enough name, to get picked to the initial round up of authors who had been picked for the project.
By May, the outcry against the authors involved in this project was so bad (with many unpublished authors stating that a TRUE KBoards anthology would include a selection of EVERY KBoards author - even the small names and the yet unpublished) that the entire project was canceled, with one of the authors involved committing suicide over the attacks on her books, following shortly after the death of her beloved daughter.
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The suicide sent shock waves through KBoards and resulted in dozens of authors dropping out of the project. One author was so distraught that she unpublished all of her books and deleted her Amazon sellers account, stating that she had written a character suicide in one of her books, but she had never had a friend commit suicide before and she had no idea how much it hurt, to see a friend kill themselves. Three other authors, all having written books with character suicide, followed her example and likewise unpublished their books and deleted their Amazon seller accounts.
Just days after this author's suicide, a second author died. He had been sick for a long time, and the stress of the attacks put him in the hospital. He died that night. More authors left the project.
By the end of May the project was officially called off.
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The forum trolls shifted their attack to a mega sized thread known as The Serialized Romance Thread, where all the pulp fiction serial authors (myself included) hung out on KB. As they had done with the authors involved in the KBoards Anthology Project, the trolls started picking off authors one by one starting with the biggest names first.
In June, the KBoards Anthology was reborn as a new version of the idea was born. A submission call went up, and the first 101 authors to submit a story, would be accepted, no judgement on content, no judgment on previous sales and big name status, just first come first served to anyone and every one. The stories were to go in the book in the order they were received. I was submission #18, because mine is story #18 in the published book.
In August the Serialized Romance Thread and all it's 50+ pages was removed from KBoards, following a horrendous and violent offline attack of nearly a dozen of the authors involved in that thread. One author was hospitalized when another author showed up at her home and beat her face in with a broken bottle. Nearly every author posting to that thread left KBoards in the days to follow.
In all, between February 2014 and November 2014, more then 700 active members (both readers and authors), including 73 big name authors, left KBoards, due to having been attacked during the KBoards Incident.
This was the worst case of authors behaving badly, I have ever seen. Because the authors doing the attacks were calling themselves "EAF Erotica Authors" the EAF Erotica Author Forum was shut down by it's webhost.
Yes. The KBoards Incident was a very violent forum war that left the forum and went offline, in which two authors died, and several others end up in the hospital, some very serious injuries. Like I said, what happened to me, was nothing compared to what happened to some of the other authors who were attacked. In all 73 authors were targeted.
I've been on the internet since 1997. Until November 2014, I was an active member of more then 300 forums. I shut down all my forum accounts the same week I deleted my KBoards posts. This is the worst case of cyber bullying I have ever seen and a very clear indication that people think just because they are hiding behind a computer screen, they think they can do and say anything they want to, and they don't think they will get caught or be held responsible for their actions.
People died.
Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.
People were hospitalized. Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.
People had their homes and property broken into and vandalized. Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.
Authors lost their careers and income. Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.
This needs to stop.
This stupid, idiotic, psychotic, senseless, culture of hate,
NEEDS TO STOP!
CYBER BULLIES NEED TO BE STOPPED BEFORE MORE PEOPLE DIE!
We authors are supposed to be helping each other. That's what the KBoards Writer's Cafe was made for. So we could help each other. What is wrong with you people? You are supposed to help your fellow mankind!
Look at yourselves! Do you see what you people have become? You're acting like a pack of rabid dogs. This is herd mentality at it's worst. You people ought to be ashamed of yourselves. You ought to be hanging your heads in shame.
KBoards was a wonderful place. Authors and readers gathered together. Talked, shared stories, had fun. You people turned it into a war zone. And nobody's fighting back. Can't you see that? It takes two to fight. They're not fighting back. They don't want to fight with you.
All it is, is you attacking, over and over again. Attack after attack on first one author and then the next. You are a terrorist. Nobody is joining your fight. Nobody wants to fight with you. That's why I call these attacks and not fights. Because nobody, not one single person on that site is fighting back. They ignore your attacks until they can take no more, and then they leave.
They don't want to fight, and they are tired of you hurting them. So they just leave. Or die...
LOOK at what you did. You upset that woman so bad, that she killed herself. She didn't just leave the forum, she left life. Have you no shame at all? What is wrong with you people. How can you live with yourselves, knowing you've destroyed lives?
Do you realize that every author you attacked: they were most helpful authors. They were ones showing others the ropes. They were the ones writing the how-to articles. They were the go-to authors, when new authors needed help. And they are all gone now. Every single one of them. Many of them deleted all their helpful information of getting started when they left.
There are no authors left on KBoards who are willing to write long helpful posts to help the new authors get started. You destroyed KBoards for everyone.
You remember how I used the Twighlight Manor books to launch a protest against Proctor & Gamble, got the financial backing of Avon and Estee Lauder, incited 30,000 PETA members into a riot, and successfully got Proctor & Gamble's Animal Test Labs shut down...yeah, I'm doing that with the Quaraun series to get cyber bullies put in prison... oh, boooy, should you people REALLY have found out WHO I was and WHAT I do to people like you. I'm the little girl who 40 years ago took on the world's largest corporation head to head...did you really think I would let you get away with what you did?
Have you never heard of the professional protester known as "The Voice of The Voiceless"?
You really didn't know who I was did you?
Let me introduce myself:
I'm EelKat, Voice of the Voiceless, The Sea Witch of Old Orchard Beach, owner of the World's Most Haunted Car.
I live around the corner from Stephen King. Stephen King think's I'm one of the most fascinating things he's ever encountered. He can't stop writing about me. I'm the reason he features mute scary Autistic girls in his stories. I'm the reason he features cars that are haunted. I'm the crazy Gypsy women he frequently features in his stories.
I'm the matriarch of the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach (known to most Americans as The Scottish Mafia)...you know, the family King based The Thinner off of and in whose yard they filmed the movie?
Oh....and I own the car that supposedly killed 14, you know, eat them, a Gypsy sideshow circus attract billed as The World's Most Haunted Car... I believe King called it Christine in his book and movie.
Do you know how many millions - MILLIONS - of people come to my land every summer, to see the Gypsies of Thinner, to touch the REAL haunted car, the see the REAL mute Autistic little girl that inspired the characters of Rose Red and Chinga?
...and read whatever I chose to write on the 20' tall 40' wide 1950's billboard that stands in our yard....how do you think, I gathered so many followers, so fast, for the Proctor & Gamble Boycott?
That big sign in my yard, THAT is how this page of my website received 14,000 visitors it's first week up: https://www.eelkat.com/KBoards.html Because right now that URL is what is written on the billboard.
And it's written on the sides of my rhinestoned car. Did you know that my car averaged 100 stranger photographing it each every day. That URL is forever branded right across everyone of those photos.
Do you have any idea how much power that billboard in my yard has? Every tourist who comes here sees it, reads it, and I'm very, very, VERY famous. We are stephen King's Gypsies, Thinner was filmed in our yard, and we own the REAL Christine. A LOT of people come here. You can't even begin to imagine the amount of people who are going to know what you did.
You bullied the wrong person Sugar Pie.
I AM "The Voice of The Voiceless", the little girl who took down Proctor & Gamble. You destroyed KBoards and you hurt my friends. Did you really think I would stand back and just watch you hurt my friends?
KBoards had a 10 year history of being the safest and most peaceful forum on the internet, but not anymore, thanks to the 50+ "EAF Erotica Authors" and their massive attack on the site.
I don't know what kind of a hostile forum environment you "EAF Erotica Authors" were used to but damn, just get the fuck off of KBoards before you kill somebody else.
I have seen a lot of forum wars over the years. I was a member of Absolute Write Water Cooler for 9 years, during the hey days of the war that happened there in 2005 for crying out loud, I was one of the moderators of the Squidoo site & forums for 7 years, and I was a member of the SoapBox for 5 years - I've seen some pretty bad forum wars, but the KBoards Incident is one of the few forum wars, I've ever seen, where people left the internet to track down forum members home addresses and violently attack them in person.
This was a case of some very unprofessional, selfish, jealous, small minded, petty authors, attempting to hurt other authors.
Two people died during the KBoards Incident.
I am unaware of a forum war ever costing someone there life before. This was a VERY SERIOUS situation and it is my belief, that the trolls involved, do belong in prison and should be prosecuted. People died. Other were physically injured. Several were deeply emotionally distraught and upset. Some authors lost their careers, they were so scared of the trolls they unpublished their books in terror.
JDP/EA, LG, SC, and Kendra Silver Salamander: you belong in prison and I intend to see to it that you and everyone who helped you do this go there. You peices of shit called people to action, and boy did they take action. PEOPLE DIED ON YOUR ORDERS YOU SHIT HEADS! Do you know what that makes you?
Whoever did it: either the authors whose names were listed on the accounts in question or the a hacker who hijacked said accounts and did it in their names: it doesn't change the fact, that is what a very violent incident and 2 authors died, others were physically injured in in physical offline attacks, some lost their careers and incomes, and many were terribly terrorized and traumatized.
Who ever the person(s) was behind this attack on these authors, they need to be held responsible for their actions and made an example of, so that something like this never happens again, not on Kboards, nor any other forum.
I have a lot of medical bills that need to be paid, I want to know who to send the bill to. Haven't totalled up yet but they include surgery, hospital stays, lots of tests, MRI, ...there's one radiology bill that $4,300 just that one bill alone. And I'm not out of the hospital yet. You're looking at close to $100,000 here.
And the Town of Old Orchard Beach says you own them $15,000 in clean up cost for the vandalism.
An I'm not the only author with medical bills because of this.
And there are two author families with funeral expenses that need paying. Do you have any idea how much a funeral costs? When my grandfather died in 2004, his coffin cost $5,000, the burial plot was another $3,000, and then all the other stuff: his funeral cost well over $20,000.
Ans then there are all the authors who hired lawyers - lawyers aren't cheap. You owe those bills too.
Or and let's not forget that several dozen authors cited having to have counselling. I don't know about theirs, but all the counselors around here charge at minimum $200 an hours. A lot of authors, that's a lot of hours.
You owe a lot of people a lot of money. I can see over a million dollars on that list. Do you have a million dollars? Better prayer you do, because you'll go to prison if you don't and then you'll still have to pay all those authors' bills anyways.
What it boils down to is, someone was REALLY pissed off that the KBoards Anthology was made and published, and targeted every author who had any connection with that book. And they ought to be ashamed of themselves for thinking that this sort of thing was all right to do.
At the start of this, at the very beginning, back in February: there was a new member, who joined KBoards and started a hate campaign against Hugh Howey. They created anti-Hugh Howey websites and blogs. They said that Hugh Howey had done a contest of some sort, I'm not sure what exactly the contest was, but they said they had entered and had the highest votes for their entry and should have won, BUT, they said that Hugh Howey awarded the winner to "one of his writer buddies on KBoards". They threatened several people.
Back in February, they made several threats, calling the members of Kboards "Hugh Howey cheerleading fanboys" and saying that they would "stop at nothing to destroy every one of you".
His or her account was banned by the mods, s/he, created several most accounts during those first few weeks and ranting a lot of wild insanity and crazy accusations at pretty much every member on the forum. The mods subsequently banned each account, and eventually they stopped coming back.
HOWEVER, the KBoards Incident started just days after that person disappeared off KBoards. It is my belief that whoever THAT person is, is the the one ACTUALLY behind the attacks on KBoards. They were very, very, very angry at Hugh Howey. They said they wanted him dead. They said they wanted all his friends dead. They said they would do everything in their power to destroy the career of Hugh Howey and "all his author buddies".
This person returned to KBoards in September 2014, when the contest actually ended, and they threatened Hugh Howey again, and again threatened "all his author buddies." Apparently, this person felt that anybody who had an account of KBoards must therefor know Hugh Howey because he had an account on KBoards.
Outside of his posts on KBoards, I don't know Hugh Howey and I don't think anybody on KBoards does. It is my belief that this person is angry enough and dangerous enough to track down Hugh Howey and "all his author buddies" to physically hurt them and possibly murder them. And I think something needs to be done, to find out who this person is, and put them in prison before they do any more damage.
The attacks started in February, after this person first started raging against Hugh Howey.
The attacks heightened and went out of control, in September, when this person returned to KBoards with more outrage against Hugh Howey.
It appears that because Hugh Howey was in the KBoards anthology, that this person, assumes everyone in the anthology was what they termed "all his author buddies".
That was when the 50+ new accounts were created and a zombie's hoard of long "dead" author accounts were suddenly revived, with authors we hadn't seen in years, suddenly posting again.
That is also when the attacks started on me and my books.
I believe all of it, goes back to that person, who was really angry at Hugh Howey, because of some contest, which they said Hugh howey had done and they claimed they should have won.
I also, don't think that this person cares that 2 people died, that others got injured, that some lost their careers, and that the entire environment of Kboards has turned from a peaceful loving place to a fear filled war zone.
The KBoards Incident was nothing short of a TERRORIST ATTACK. What those trolls did to those authors was unspeakable. Some very serious crimes were committed and the criminals need to be held responsible. People need to start taking this situation seriously. The authors who were hurt in this need to come together and stand up against the bullies. Don't let them hurt you anymore. There are people who care about you. You are not alone in this. You don't deserve what happened to you: none of you do.
The members of KBoards are out of control. They need to be stopped before they hurt someone else, before someone else dies.
My opinion of the trolls involved in these attacks, and every other person like them is this:
May the cheerleading dogs march ever onwards.
(What they did to you and yours is not forgotten.)
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Written March 26, 2015
A reader asked: You mentioned a hacker. What did the hacker do? And how did the hacker access your account?
ANSWER: How did he/she access my account? Well, I do know the answer to that. Once I realized that my Kboards account, my Twitter account, and my WordPress blog had all 3 been hacked and all sorts of weird posts were being made on all 3 of them. What did the 3 accounts have in common? They all had the same log-in password, which in each case was a very short and easy to guess password, as all 3 of these accounts were made nearly a decade ago with simple 4 letter passwords were all that was needed to be "secure". Yes, that was very stupid of me. I should have changed the passwords and made them stronger, I never did, because...who hacks someone's forum account?
You don't think you need a strong password in a place like Kboards, I mean, who's crazy enough to hack an author's forum account, right? It's not like I'm some big name author who needs a lot of security or anything. Damn, most people don't even know I'm an author. They know I'm a "witch" (though witch is a term I have never used to describe myself, which should have tipped people off I wasn't the one writing this stuff), they know I founded the Proctor and Gamble Boycott, they know I build art cars, they know I'm an artist but when it comes to my books, I'm pretty unheard of. You think, "It's never gonna happen to me, I'm just a no-body, who would bother?" but it happened and I don't know why.
When I first realized my account had been hacked, I corrected a few dozen of the posts on the Kboards back to their original state and intended to do this with all the hacked posts, but the next day all the corrected posts had been rehacked, and a very snark "Haha! You can't stop me!" message had been added to the forum signature.
That was when I realized the hacker was hacking still and it had not been a 1-time hack. I corrected some more posts, and then watched to see what happened and a few hours later, my signature was changed again, to yet another snarky post, one which said something about buying 2 new MORE Rolls Royces just to spite other authors. (And while the Rolls Royce is my favorite car and this is a widely known fact, I do not own even one.)
A few days later, my Twitter feed suddenly got bombarded with posting dozens and dozens of book promos for Kboards member DW's newest book. I never promote a book I haven't read and I rarely promote books at all, so when 100+ identical posts for a book I never heard of, suddenly flooded my Twitter, I realized, this was more then just my Kboards hacked.
That same week a relative stopped by and asked what had happened to my WordPress Blog, they said I had spent the week posting a lot of really weird shit that didn't make sense and was out of character for me. Well, I hadn't posted a blog post in about 7 months, you know, because I was paralyzed for 5 months and then another 8 months learning to use my arms and legs again, so was not able to type, so there shouldn't have been any new posts on my blog at all. I went and checked and yep, every day for weeks a dozen or more posts had gone out and they were the same type of hate filled, spiteful, snarky crap that was being posted on my Kboards account.
I realized at that point that it was more than just my Kboards account that had been hacked.
And for the record, I NEVER promote another author's book unless I have first read said book, and you will NEVER see me post the link more than once.
I contacted DW about this and he had no knowledge of why his books were being blasted at a rate of dozens of spam posts an hour via my Twitter account. He went to Kboards and posted an "apology thread" to let folks know there was a hacker on the loose and that he suspected his account was also hijacked, but the mods (or maybe the hacker?) deleted that thread within the hour of his posting it.
I was trying to figure it out what was going on when I realized: "OMG! My Twitter account uses the same password as my Kboards account! I bet my WordPress must have used that same password too."
I went looking for my list of passwords for all my 300+ forums accounts and found I had used the same password on several of them. I started checking all the ones that had that same password and many of them had been hijacked. So this was not just my Kboards account, it was fairly widespread. The hacker had actively set out to track down as many of my accounts as they could to take them over and impersonate me and do EXACTLY what K/SS, JDP/EA, LG, and the 1/52 EAF authors had all threatened they were going to do: make an active attempt to "destroy her career and dry up sales" which they apparently planned to carry out by hijacking my forum and social network accounts to post a bunch of wild crazy shit and thus ruin my reputation.
Whoever did this was very evil person.
I can't figure out who would do something like this. It iis the sort of thing RMA and his best friend JB would (and have done in the past) but RMA died in September 2013 and JB is in prison. (Hacking bank accounts and embezzling tens of thousands of dollars is what he went to prison for. He is a hacker and he did hack my accounts multiple times back in 2007 to 2009. I did not find out his identity until the police traced his bank account hacks in 2011 and discovered he had been the hacker of my accounts as well. He had been hired by RAM to do the hacking.)
As far as I know, no one other then Kendra has a motive to do something like this, and like I've said before, I have no clue who this Kendra person is, or what her motive is, but she's been doing stuff like this for 9 years now. She is just the most baffling person I have ever encountered. Everything that is wrong with her life, no matter how big or how small, she lands in my yard screaming and yelling and claims it's all my fault. I don't know why. I simply can not figure out the logic behind her accusations at all, but then again, this IS the woman who also claims I am telepathically sucking ideas out of her head to prevent her from writing and getting published. And she fully, 100% believes that accusation to be true. I've thought Kendra was a nut for a while now, (I mean, what sane person storms into a restaurant and threatens an author, while she's having a meal with her friends, telling them "It's my turn to shine, you better not publish another book before I do!") but her accusing me of sucking ideas out of her head, kind of confirmed it.
I changed the password on my Twitter account and immediately the bombardment of spam links to other authors' books stopped posting.
I then changed my password on Kboards and the posts stopped being changed. At that point I set out to correcting the posts back to their original form, but then, while I was doing that I got side swiped by authors JDP/EA's and LG's raging fury, (which in all likelihood was the hacker, retaliating from losing access to my account) and their posts stirring up several other members to join in the herd mentality attack with them, I just said, I really don't want to deal with this.
It's too stressful, I've got too much going on in my life, with the harassment from the town, my health was really bad just then, I was going in for surgery the following week, I just had too many IMPORTANT issues to deal with, I didn't want to have to try to juggle some stupid petty forum war with a bunch of very unprofessional authors who had nothing better to do then fight on a forum.
I mean I they want to act like stupid, childish, unprofessional, spoilt brats, tossing labels and name calling around on a forum, then fine, go ahead, I don't care. It's their own career they are destroying. No good ever comes from attack other people on a forum. Every author who jumps in on something like that is just going to get their career dragged down by it.
What gets me really mad about all of this, is I just walked out, I never said a word, I never commented, never posted a single forum posts, never said anything on my blog, never said anything on Twitter or FaceBook. Nothing No where. I just walked away. And I was in and out of the hospital from October to February, so I wasn't online that whole time, and I kind of forgot about the Kboards incident.
I was due in for surgery - again- and still very weak from my 5 months of being paralyzed, not yet fully able to use my arms, not yet fully able to type, not yet walking without someone helping me, and thus not able to type a response to what these people were doing.
That's what infuriated me. Because I was paralyzed, I could not respond. I could not type. I was reading the posts, my account was posting and the responses other authors were posting, and I couldn't do a thing to let these people know - this isn't me. I was still too weak from having been beating up and left for dead, paralyzed for 5 months, to have the ability to type. Someone had taken over my account and was posting from it pretending to be me and I couldn't do anything to stop them. It infuriated me that this low life son of bitch bastard of a creep, was passing themselves off as me and posting a lot of very awful things in a very blatant attack on my career and reputation.
And yet some of the things this hacker wrote were also terrifying. The posts included "updates" on my health - details of hospital visits, details of who was visiting me at home and when. Because the hacker was doing this, it looked even more like I actually was the one posting and what was frightening was that the only way the hacker could have known any of these things was if they were sitting in view of my driveway, while they were typing them.
Whoever this hacker was, it was obvious they could see my driveway. It was obvious, they knew what I did and when I did it. Several posts they wrote, had details about my hospitalization that they could only have known from going to the hospital, and it became frighteningly clear, that his was someone local - very local. Someone who saw me every day and knew where I was, when I was there and was posting posts on the KB forum to match my movements (and lack of). There are only 4 people who live in range to see my yard from their house, meaning the hacker was one of them.
Well, here it is 6 months later (March 2015) and I'm just getting back online again, and I come to find out that, good god, even though I wasn't even online and I had never once responded to a single thing these people said or did, they were STILL attacking me and dragging my name through the mud and screaming "let's dry up her sales" "we need to destroy her career", and well, that's why 7 months after this started, I've decided enough is enough, it's high time I put my foot down and make a public statement about this.
There is someone online pretending to be me. They have been using the ID name "EelKat" on accounts on various sites and posting ludicrous crap. I don't know who they are or why they are doing it, but other then my website here at EelKat.com, the only other sites I post to are:Tumblr, Twitter, and FaceBook. This person hacked into my old forum accounts between August 2014 and October 2014 and began posting weird shit via my old accounts, pretending to be me. Note that, I was in the hospital at the time this happened and was not online. I did not find out about this hacking/hijacking of my accounts until November/December 2014, when I shut down all 34 of my blogs, my social network accounts, and all of my forum accounts. Most of the hacker's target had been focused on my Kboards account, where they attempted to do quite a bit of damage to my reputation and career.
They know enough about me to post SOME (very little) accurate information about me and my life (stuff they, very obviously copied off my website here), enough to make their posts look like they actually are written by me, but most of what they are posting is outright lies, and outrageous inaccuracies, such as claiming that I own two brand new Rolls Royces - I do not even own one! Because, they very clearly don't actually know me, and there is very little information about me out there, they are "filling in the blanks" by making stuff up and posting a lot of "this happened to me" and "I did this and that" type of posts, making claims to things I have never done.
They are also making wild claims about which books I've written, attributing books to me, that I did not write and have no affiliation with at all, at several points making the false claims that I am simply the alternate penname of Twilight author Stephanie Meyers. One post claimed "EelKat" to be a made up "vampire name". No, EelKat Wendy Christine Allen is my REAL name, EelKat is a Kickapoo/Native American word, meaning "girl guided by eels", it was given to me by my Kickapoo grandmother, when I was 3 years old, after she discovered my obsession with collecting, painting, raising, and drawing eels. The Green Moray Eel is my favorite animal, and has been for as long as I can remember. Grammy Eva said eels were my spirit guides, thus why she gave me that as my "spirit name". I have always used EelKat when writing. While I use a penname for my Erotica books, you will find the words "EelKat writing as ---" on the copyright page of those books.
If I wrote a book, it's here on my site. If it's not here on my site, I didn't write it, simple as that. (The Erotica books are not shown or linked to on this site, because of the Google AdSense ToS. They are also not sold on Amazon as they are self-published vanity press chapbooks, only sold locally from local brick&mortar mom&pop bookstores.)
ALL of my books are published by The Twighlight Manor Press. I have no books published with ANY other publisher. (Though I have sold a few work-for-hire 3-page comic book scripts to Disney, those being published by Egmont {Danish language comic books} and Hatchet {French language comic books}. Like the Nancy Drew books written by 57 authors all as Carol Keene, Disney assigns pennames to those, so dozens of authors write the comic script, when it appears to only be one author.)
So, no, I am NOT Stephanie Meyers. (And please STOP addressing her emails to me. No, I will not forward them to her, I just delete, unread, everything addressed to her.) No, I have never published any books that do not connect back to the name EelKat. If it doesn't say: "EelKat writing as ---" on the copyright page, it isn't me. If it wasn't published by The Twighlight Manor Press, it also wasn't me, as that is the only publisher handling all of my books.
They (the hacker) have been making equally wild claims about my income, in one post claiming I was making $140,000 a month! God! I wish! I haven't made that much total in the past 10 years combined. They have posted my home address in their posts, so they know where I live. They are also copying photos off my website (photos of me) and using them in their posts.
I have been finding these impersonation posts like this, on several forums across the internet. Whoever is doing this, they have been very thorough in hacking into as many of my old (and no longer used) forum accounts as they could find. near as I can tell from the dates on the posts, it appears they started doing this in mid-May 2014, and did most of it between August 2014 through October 2014, only stopping in December 2014, after I discovered it was happening and changed the passwords of most of my accounts and deleted the rest (thus ending their access to my old accounts - they can't hack an account if I just delete it and it is no longer there for them to hack.)
It is unclear who is doing this or why, but, do know that if you see "me" postingANYWHERE online, other than here at EelKat.com or Tumblr, Twitter, and FaceBook, it is NOT me!
I have ZERO currently active forum accounts. I am NOT currently posting on ANY forums ANYWHERE! Any posts showing up on forums ARE NOT being posted by me.
And Tumblr, Twitter, and FaceBook are the ONLY currently active social network accounts I have.
I will be so happy when all this Kboards hacker court drama is over, so I have time to write regular again. Damn it. I hate all the time this jackass thug is wasting for me. I spent 5 months bedridden, and I get out of the hospital to find out that while I was offline some creep hijacked my forum accounts and social networks and raised absolute hell. God! What is wrong with people? I am so sick and tired of trouble makers. What is it with shit-headed people like that, that possesses them to do something like this?
I get out of the hospital from months and months and months of medical hell and not being able to write or publish the whole time, think FINALLY I can get back to my daily writing and monthly publishing schedule, and then I find out what this jerk was doing to my accounts while I was offline and now I have THAT mess to clean up and straighten out before I can get back to writing regular again.
Needless to say, I find what this person is doing to be quite annoying and they have been properly cursed to fit their crimes.
You learned enough about me to make an attempt to impersonate me and almost pulled it off because you did convince some people (the members of Kboards) that you were me, but you didn't know me well enough to know about my ToS and Retribution Policy has been in place and on all of my websites since 1997 or know that I have a LONG history of dealing with people like you.
It seems you, dear hacker, overlooked one very important little fact: I am EelKat, the one and only, the single most feared Gypsy Witch/Necromancer in New England, made famous by being featured in Stephen King's The Thinner.
Did you really think you could impersonate me and get away with it?
Did you really think I wouldn't find out?
Do you really think I need to know who you are, what you name is, or where you live to cast a curse on you and send a holy herd of daemons up your ass?
You really should have researched me better before impersonating me and pissing me off. How did you research enough about me to convincingly impersonate me, without discovering I am Voodoo Priestess Necromancer Gypsy Queen with a long history of cursing people like you.
The death of a thousand hungers I rain upon your head. All your ill intents now mirror back upon you. For seven years, you shall suffer, you and your family and your children, shall all wish you had never been born. So let it be written, so let it be done.
These people are really getting out of hand. They are just absolutely out of control and I for one and sick and tired of the nasty, filthy, sick-minded rumors, lies, and gossip these people are spreading about me.
I mean the stuff that these people are saying about me, come with a MINIMUM 40 years in prison sentence. The stuff they are saying is VERY serious. They are falsely accusing me of having done things that I'm not even physically capable of doing.
The stuff they are saying about me - these are beyond minor little things: they are calling me a pedophile - a crime that has a 40 year prison sentence. They are small minded people who have resorted to making up lies about my sex life, in what they themselves term an attempted to "dry up her sales and kill her career".
This has gone beyond a "normal" little forum war.
The hacker? What did he/she do? And why?
I don't know why. It would help if I knew who the hacker was, I suppose. In order to figure out who and why, I guess I have to go back to before my Kboards account was hacked, or rather to before I knew it was hacked. Near as I can tell the hack happened at some point in middle of May 2014, but it's had to tell because, they went back and changed all my old posts as well.
I was on KBoards forum for 7 years. I wrote 1,371 articles, most of them more then 10,000 words long. More then 100 self-published authors attributed their success to my help on the forum and the articles I wrote for them. I was there for 7 years and during that time, no one knew what my race was.
In mid-spring 2014 a black woman on the forum was attacked violently by several dozen members. Why? Because she asked a question: "Should I make my characters white?" She went on to explain that she had written her characters black, but that one editor after another had told her the American market was "white" and the only way her book would sell was if she made her characters white.
The woman went on to explain she was considering self-publishing because she did not want to make her characters white, she wanted her characters to be like her.
The response she got was horrendous. Dozens of white members lashed out at her calling her stupid and told her to "face the reality" of the fact that "black people" were "too stupid" to read, thus why only white readers existed in America. I was shocked by the many hate filled answers she was getting. The thread received 300+ responses in the space of a few hours and not a single helpful answer.
I responded to the woman, because it was clear no one else was going to, to tell her, that like her, I too was not white. I too wrote characters who are the same race and culture as myself. I too had had similar editor requests. I too turned to self publishing because I had refused to make my characters be white. I told her to be true to her story. Be true to her culture. Write the story the way it was intended to be written. We need diversity in our books.
Shortly after my response, a few other "minority" members responded. Each one said they had been scared to speak up. Scared to admit their race on a public forum. Soon the thread evolved, when one guy told his self-publishing story as a Chinese man in America, who likewise had run into too many editors telling him to make his characters white.
After a while someone replied to ask me what my race was, as I had not mentioned it. I had only said that I was not white. I replied to say that I was a Gypsy. That was the beginning on the end.
L.G., S.C., J.DP/EA., and some members were all members who for many years had been my friends. They were the first to lash out attacks on the threads. Horrible attacks accusing me of being a "baby stealer" and adding too that story until by October 2014 they were saying I wrote what they termed "Pedophile Erotica" and stories "promoting child sex slavery".
There was an entire thread started by one member, on which all of the above members posted and spent to course of a week doing nothing but railing out their hate for Gypsies in general and me in particular. That thread was horrendous. Those members basically started a “protest” and “boycott” with one member suggesting that all members of KBoards just go to my profile and going down the list of all of my posts and “hitting the report button” on all of my posts to “get that pediphile of KBoards”, adding “that pediphile has got fairies for brains, did you know she believes fairies are real?” To which another member responded “yeah, sick gypos are like that.”
The thread went on for several more posts all of them poking fun at fairies, leprechauns, and “crazy people who believe in them”.
Nearly 3 pages worth of posts were devoted to tearing apart, Faerie Faith, my culture’s native indigenous religion, spiritual practices, and beliefs. Faerie Faith is a religion which does not follow the Abrahamic god or the belief in the world according to Moses; rather it is an Animistic religion which reverences the spirits of nature (called the Fae).
Faeries, capitalized and spelt with an "E and always ending in "ie" is different from fairy or fairies or fery or feries or faery. They are the Little People, but not tiny, they are Humans sized, just shorter. They are not little flower fairies with butterfly wings. They are what Christians often refer to as "guardian angels" or "ghosts" or "spirits of the dead" or in Voodoo and Vudo "the Loa". They are the spirits of our ancestors.
Leprechaun, as we use it, IS NOT the same as Americans use it. We ARE the Leprechauns. The Indigenous Highlanders of Scotland aka the Picts aka the Scottish Gypsies are shorter then most people. Most of our women are under 5'3" and most of our men are under 5'9". My grandmother was only 5'1" and I'm only 5'6" (thus why Quaraun is 5'6"). When the Celts invaded Scotland they referred to us as "The Little People" because we are little.
Our people are NOT as we are incorrect called actually indigenous to Scotland. My family reached Scotland, via the Vikings, after being kidnapped in Mongolia, where they had previously lived. We did not originate in Mongolia either. We came from Persia originally. We by blood/DNA/genetically are Persians. We are Persians originally and we were a sub-group within the Persian culture known as Magi. Yes - the same group mentioned in the Bible, the travelling "Wise Men of the East" who spent their lives roaming the world. Which is why we dress in the "strange" beaded and embroidered silk robes that we wear.
By profession, traditionally our people made very elaborate, beaded clothes including shoes. Thus when the Irish discovered our people in scotland, they called use both The Little People AND The Leprechauns, which only means "The Shoe Makers".
So when people on the forum started bullying me about the term "Leprechaun" it hurt a lot, because, it's a frequent bullying tactic I've had to live with most of my life.
The problem is Americans are too ignorant to do any research, and when they hear "Leprechaun" the first the they think of is, cartoon Brownies in green coats, hiding gold under rainbows and granting wishes. That is a stupid, idiotic, vile, racist, bigoted stereotype that created by hate mongers to make fun of our people. The cartoon green Leprechaun is to our people, what the Gollywog is to the the black people.
There is an ACTUAL, real, live, HUMAN, group of people who ACTUALLY ARE called Leprechauns. They wear red not green, and they look and dress like THIS:
And they are my people, and I am tired of that stupid green cartoon with his pot of gold and rainbows being thrown in my face.
It's mean.
It's hateful.
It's racist.
And it hurts.
You wouldn't throw Gollywogs at a black person. Why are you throwing green men and rainbows at me?
It's not my problem if you are too stupid to know what a REAL Leprechaun is. But go ahead, rave your stupidity all over a public forum, let the world know you actually ARE retarded, while you sit there calling me a retard.
You're calling ME a retard? YOU'RE the one who doesn't know what a Leprechaun is. YOU'RE the one with stupid cartoons stuck in your head.
When I say we descended from the Leprechauns, I'm not talking about your stupid racist Lucky Charms cartoons! I'm talking about the short race of Persian Magi, who where called Leprechauns and Little People by the Irish, because they were short and they made shoes.
But silly me, I have Autism, I forget, how STUPID you non-Autistic people are, requiring me to EXPLAIN the meaning of EVERYTHING!
YES! It does hurt when you are throwing your stupid jokes about rainbows and pots of gold and laughing about how my favorite colour must be green. And, no, it's NOT funny!
But all you are doing is proving that YOU not me, are the one who is retarded, because YOU'RE the one thinking of cartoon characters because you are too stupid to know the difference between a race/group/ethnicity of people and a stupid cartoon.
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Another member C.J. (a reader, not an author) was torn apart on yet another thread, which resulted in several rant posts by several members (authors) claiming that KBoards was for “authors only” and that "readers should just leave the forum" as “this place isn’t for them”.
A third thread was then started by D.W. called: “A Big Thank You to EelKat and C*****J**” This thread was started in response to the other two. D.W. wrote a long thank you letter to me and C.J. for all the help each of us had given him during the early days of starting his writing career. He encouraged others to join him in standing up to the EAF & DD forum Erotica authors who had invaded KB, stating that he believed overall members of KB were not of the same mind as the large group of 50+ new members who had only been on the forum for fewer then 30 days.
The British Erotica authors from Erotica Author Forum and Dirty Discourses, went into total hootenanny hysterics, lashing out at his thread as well. In their raging inferno they lashed out him, his thread, and anyone who posted on it to defend me or C.J.
One member (who had joined that week and had posted on KB before) went off on a rant on the evils of Gypsies, stating that they lived in Europe and knew all about Gypsies and knew that “the only good Gypsy is a dead Gypsy, I say we exterminate them all.”
There seemed to be yet another thread involved, but I never saw it, so either the mods deleted it off KBoards or the thread in question was on EAF forum or DD forum and not KB forum. Both EAF and DD forums are private access forums with paid membership. I’ve never paid money for any forum, nor would I, so I have never seen either forum and don’t know what goes on over there.
What I do know is that J.DP. changed her KB account id name to E.A. and then (thinking I didn’t know it was still her same account - I have software on my computer that tells me the ISP number of all posters on all forums) started a riot on yet another thread, where she boldly bragged that on the DD forum there was an entire section where they could protest the books of any author they didn’t like and that she and other members of DD forum were in an attempt to figure out all 15 of my pennames so that they could compile a list of all of my books and send it out in email newsletters to readers to “warn them” that I was “a pedophile Gypsy who deserves to die”.
J.DP turned E.A. also posted to say: “if you want to talk about EelKat without her knowing what you are saying about her, join me on KBoards chat, she never uses it.”
Another member replied to this post to say “I started a Google Hangout where we can talk about EelKat without her knowing it, shoot me an email and I’ll send you an invite”.
This went on throughout August, September, and October 2014. I ignored the members and threads involved, never replying or posting on any of them and just continued to talk with other members. Whenever anyone asked me “Why do you stay here, when the environment is so hostile towards you these days?”
My answer was simply: “Let them make fools of themselves that the world may know them mad. This is a public forum, they are just self-ruining their careers by not acting professional.”
J.DP./E.A. was flipping out in hysterics at me - replying to EVERY post I made on ANY thread, by posting a weird, wild, utterly psychotic rant that made absolutely no sense at all. At one point she posted the rant in her signature so it was attached to all of her posts. On the 2 Erotica threads she posted the rant, every hour, on the hour, over and over again, for days.
I was curious why she was posting that same rant, reworded, once an hour, every hour, for more then a week and always posting it as a reply to anything I said, on every thread. Every other post (she apparently stayed online all day long because every post someone made on that thread day or night, she replied to their post by yet again reposting her rant, thus why every other post on the thread was her rant) on the EAF thread was her saying "Come join DD and get away from the FAKE Erotica authors on KB, only REAL Erotica authors are allowed there, YAY!" and every post she made anywhere else was nasty snarkiness tacked on a reply to something I said.
On October 27th I started getting a TON of emails and private messages - not one or two, but DOZENS of them - from all these new members who had joined KB from EAF, included from the owner of DDF. I was baffled. I couldn't figure out why all these people were contacting me, and why so many of them, and why all at once? All minutes apart. I got more then a dozen messages the first hour. It was just mind boggling. I figured something was up, for that many people to start contacting me all at once like that, so I start reading the messages and they were all almost the exact same message, nearly word for word, copy/paste, every one of them.
Guess what they were copy and paste of? Yeah,JDP/EA's posts "ONLY REAL Erotica Authors" blah, blah, blah...
"FAKE Erotica is not allowed" blah, blah, blah.
It became apparent that over on the DD forum, this psycho crybaby zombie writer who'd only taken up Erotica in the past month member, was on some sort of vendetta, but what or why, I had no clue. Whatever it was, I couldn't help but think she was on a clear road to a heart attack or a stroke the way she was just flipping out steady none stop all hours of the day and night, every day for the entire month of October.
GOD! I don't think I've ever seen any one have a complete psycho billy meltdown like J.DP/EA had.
The thing that started bothering me about J.DP/EAs meltdown was that a large majority of her reposted copy and past posts, were replies to my posts, often with parts of my posts in quotes, in between her ranting. It made no sense at all, because the things she was quoting were completely different topic then her rants.
I began to appear the JDP/EA was a spammer, since every sentence of these rants included the phrase "Come join Dirty Discourses!" I chalked her off as being a spammer, over promoting the DD forum, and for the first time in 7 years on KBoards, I went looking for the block/ignore feature so I could block her posts. I blocked JDP/EA around October 17 and after that had no more issues with being harassed by her, as the block goes both ways.
By blocking JDP/EA, I seemed to have set off a light under her ass, because the very next day, I was bombarded with 50+ EAF Erotica authors, lashing out in vehement hatred, replying with the wildest craziest, insane accusations I had ever seen!
From the things they said, it became apparent that JDP/EA was some sort of paranoid conspiracy theory freak, who had it in her head I was "out to get her" (as more then one member said she had told them.)
Out to get her? What? I didn't even know who she was. She'd only joined KBoards in May 2014. She wrote end of the world zombie apocalypse prepper fiction, according to her profile bio, a genre I don't read, don't write, and have absolutely no interest in. She was a nobody who appeared out of nowhere and just went nut case on me and I still have no idea why.
But, several members were adamant in saying that she had gone to another forum and told them I was out to get her, and asked them to come join KBoards to help her, they were saying that they had thus created their KBoards accounts it "come to her defence".
I'm sorry...what? Her defence? You're joking right? Defence against what? What in the hell are you people talking about?
They came right out and said I was attacking her and targeting her posts and that they were going to defend her from me.
I'm thinking: "Good god, these people are nuts. I don't even know who this woman is. I've NEVER responded to her posts at all, let alone was attacking her and out get her, like they were saying I was.
I've been on hundreds of forums since 1997. EVERYONE knows me and EVERYONE knows I NEVER reply or respond to mean posts, and this woman, has never said a kind post. She's been raining hellfire on first one author and then the next since May, so why would I reply to anything she says? No reason to. She's just a mean, bitter person, very obviously a forum troll, just trying to stir up troule. No reason to feed the troll with a response.
I mean, this woman lashed out at dozens of other authors for several months, before she got around to lashing out at me. She's a bully. Bullying authors on the forum is what this woman is known for. It's what she does. And I want nothing to do with bullies. So, I ignore her. I just act like she isn't even there. If me and someone else are talking on a thread and she jumps in with her crazy rants, I just act like I didn't see them. I don't even acknowledge her presence. I am a Gypsy after all, we are very good at shunning people and ignoring their existence. And I have Autism, I was shunned for more then 40 years by a good 3/4s of the clan.
If there's one thing I learned how to do while growing up in Gypsy culture, it how to shun people and pretend they aren't there, act like they are dead even though they are in the room talking. It's what the aunts and uncles and cousins did to me. I have Autism, they viewed that as a form of demo possession. They said my Autism would go away if I repented of my demon possession and cast the demons out. They had an exorcism done on me once and, they said I "threw" the priest across the room (I didn't - I punched him in the face and tripped and fell down on his backside; but they say I used "demon strength throw him across the room.") and they've shunned me ever since because, they believe I am the "child of Satan" as they like to call me.
So, you see, I know how to shun a person and pretend they are dead and not there, I had more then 200 family members do it to me (which is why Quaraun's family and village do it to him in the books. The Quaraun books are a very accurate representation of how people treat Autistic people because it's how people treat me because of my Autism.)
Anyways. This woman has been posting crazy mean stuff at a lot of authors for a lot of months, and I just ignore her and pretend she's not there. So when she starts lashing out at me next, I continue to ignore her and pretend she's not there. And when these 50+ "EAF Erotica Authors" show up, all saying they are her "minions" and their "in her defence", I ignore them too.
I didn't reply to any of them, not her or her "minions" (what, does she think she's a super villain? Why does she have "minions"?) and I made a point to avoid any thread they posted on, and they were working themselves up into a progressively bigger and bigger and wilder and ever more ludicrous frenzy with each passing hour.
But...some things started to stand out as they posted more and more rants...something very odd, and I suddenly realized... omg... I know what happened...
In the midst of their raving and ranting, they were tossing in odd statements like "We don't want your kind on KB" and "People like you don't deserve to live" and "she out to be shot in the head" and "let's destroy her career" and "your kind don't belong here"...and a lot of stuff like that.
There were multiple "reasons" they had. But lots of empty "your kind" and "people like you" statements went not specified.
Some were very adamant in their hatred for "retards" and others were very vocal about their hatred for "gays", and at first I thought those were the only two issues, but then some other things started to pop into their rants.
My kind? What does that even mean? What are you talking about?
People like me? What do you mean people like me?
One made the statement that they had been to Romania once and therefor "I know first hand what kind of scum you are."
Romania? What? I'm not Romanian. I've never been to Romania. Why are they directing these posts to me? I don't get it. These people obviously had absolutely no clue who they were talking to. It was clear that they only knew me from stuff JDP had told them and whatever it was she told them, it was REALLY wrong, because they were aiming a lot of hate at me for a lot of reason that simply did not apply to me at all. So I was extremely confused as to why they were addressing these posts to me.
I wanted to reply and ask them what they meant by these things, but I continued to read only and not reply to anything they said, because in all my years of forum activity, I have never once responded to a troll and I didn't intend to start.
But as the hours rolled on, more pieces fell into place as the phrases "dirty gypo" and "thieving gypsies" and "baby stealing scum" began to pop into their posts.
Ah! Gypsy haters. THAT's what they meant by Romania. They were talking about Romnies, Romas.
No. Romas. Gypsies. Travellers. They are three separate races. Because REAL Gypsies are so rare, Romas and Travellers think they can call themselves Gypsies and get away with it because most people don't know the difference between a Gypsy and a Roma and a Traveller.
Okay...so...now I click on the KB profile of the owner of DD forum and the admins of DD forum and these several dozen members of DD forum and...oh my... do you know what I found out? Why golly goshy me, they do be white men from good old Britain.
Yeah.
Scottish Gypsy haters to the core.
No one hates a Scottish Gypsy more then a white Brit, no one is more vocal in their belief that the only good Gypsy is a dead Gypsy. why gosh darn, little old mountain hick me, I should had seen that one coming now shouldn't I have? Oh boo-hoo-hooo poor little wittle tighty whity assed crybaby britty wittys have got a big bad brown assed Gypsy-whipsy on the forum and they can't stand it.
Oooooooh, let's all play Frankenstein and gang up on her. Yeah, real mature, real mature. Hey, here's something, why don't you grow up and, I don't know, try acting like a human being for a change. Might do you some good. Here I am, I'm the one one with Autism, "the idiot illness" and yet, you guys are the ones acting like idiots on a public forum.
But then the emails and PMs start rolling in and I'm like, what the...? Pediphile Erotica? Child sex for titillation? What in the heck are these people talking about? I was completely clueless. Absolutely utterly clueless. And what was in the emails? Well, they were supposedly responses to something I had written on the KB forum, but how in the heck they came to the conclusions they were jumping to, I have no idea, because me, I still didn't know someone had hacked my account and was using it to promote child porn and spread nasty filthy lies about how Gypsies are all evil scumbags who go after children.
And yet I'm getting emails tell me that I...uhm...*cough* am not a "real" Erotica writer, I don't write the *correct* type of Erotica, because it's "fake" or so I was told by 1 of DDFs mods and more then a dozen EAF/DD members via the KB private messages, where they contacted me to tell me that under no circumstances was I ever to consider attempting to join their DD forum.
Okay...I write Bizarro. Bizarro Horror. Bizarro Sci-Fi. Bizarro Yaoi. And yes, Bizarro Erotica (also known as Monster Porn) and most of what I write in either gay or bi-sexual. And whether it’s Erotica or not, my stories use the words Fuck, Cock, Dick, and Penis in just about every paragraph...and if you are talking about The Twiglight Manor Series or Quaraun the Insane series, you are gonna find the words Fuck, Cock, Dick, and Penis in just about every sentence. Both those series are not Erotica and are only rated M18 for language (as opposed to stuff like my Monster Porn which is rated MA21 for graphic sex AND language.)
While I do not consider either The Twighlight Manor Series or Quaraun the Insane series to be Erotica, most readers say the sex in them is far more graphic then what is seen in Erotica and classify both series as Porn. Both series evolve around the lives of the non-human (aliens and merfolk in the TMSeries and Elves and Fae in the QtISeries) main characters (Etiole, Razzbury, and Roderic Swanzen of the TMSeries and Quaraun and Unicorn of the QtISeries). They are Literary stories that focus on minor everyday details that happen in the life of the main character, thus the point of each story is character development, not plot or action (there is no action in either series, and many readers describe the stories as “slow moving but emotionally intense”.)
I point out The TMSeries and the QtISeries specifically here, because these are the two series which JDP/EA and S.M.R. specifically mentioned in their posts. J.DP/E.A. had made frequent comments about the TMSeries usually comparing it to Stephenie Meyers Twilight Saga. Her constantly comparing the two series made no sense to me as they are not anything alike at all! Other then the word Twighlight and Twilight in the titles and a character named Swanzen vs Swan and both authors being Mormons, there is no similarities to the two series at all. She even made a post saying that I had copied S.M’s Twilight! How laughable is that! I wrote the TMSeries in the 1970s and S.M. wrote Twilight just 3 or 4 years ago. My series was written before S.M. was even born for crying out loud!
Why J.DP/EA kept bringing this up, I don’t know, but every time she did, another member S.M.R. would jump in and say: “You know what Gypsies are like. They steal everything. Look at me, I’m a Gypsy, I wrote Harry Potter!”
On several threads J.DP/EA and S.M.R. posted countless accusations accusing me of claiming that I WAS Stephenie Meyers and said that I was claiming I had written the Twilight Saga! I have never made any such claim and I have no idea why they were saying that I had, but it was another thing that the members of the D.D. forum were saying as well, stating that they “know all about you and how you impersonate Steph Meyers”!
I found the posts by S.M.R. most baffling, as she had left KBoards in 2013 (after being attacked by forum trolls back then, in a very similar manner as what was going on here) and had been very vocal in her leaving, that she would never go back. She had been very vocal on her blog, FaceBook, Twitter, and even stated on one occasion that her lawyer had forbidden her to have any connection to KBoards after the way her account had been horrendously slandered by KB members back in 2013.
The odd thing about S.M.R.s posts is that she and I had been friends on KB years ago and these new posts in October 2014, were not her “voice” or “writing style” at all. S.M.R. also did not write Erotica and she was posting saying that she was a member of EAF in some posts. The snark, voice, and style matched J.DP/EA nearly exactly, and every time J.DP/EA made a post, S.M.R. would post a few minutes later. It appeared that whoever was posting via J.DP/EA’s account, was also posting via S.M.R.’s account.
I found this very odd and am fairly certain that S.M.R.s account was hacked. At this point I began to wonder if J.DP/EAs account had been hacked as well, however, J.DP/EA had used this brash, crash and bash attack style of posting ever since she created her account. She was a very bigoted, volatile, high strung, prone to wild accusations, and lashing out at other members for no logical reason, right from day one, so these posts lashing out at me were not unusual for he and given the way she had attacked first one member after another, it was only logical that eventually she would get around to lashing out at me too. No. It was S.M.R.s posts that were sending up the red flags that KBoards had a hacker on the loose.
Several old members, commented on S.M.R.s sudden return to KBoards after nearly two years gone. She ignored every one of them and oddly acted as though she didn’t know any of these old long time members whom had once been her close friends. When members asked her how she was doing (she’d had surgery just before leaving) and how her children were doing, again, she avoided these members and acted as though she did not know about her own health issues or children. This sent up more red flags indicating that S.M.R. was NOT the one writing her posts.
When the EAF Erotica authors started lashing out their threats, demanded that I “better not join Dirty Discourses or else”, oddly S.M.R. jumped in to join them. S.M.R. was not an Erotica Author and her claims as such, were a glaring red flag, that whoever was now controlling her account had slipped up and made a HUGE mistake by posting this message via the WRONG account! With this person posting to the wrong account, there was no longer any question that S.M.R.’s account was hacked and she was not the one posting these messages.
The oddest thing of all, was, I write Erotica under a penname that I have NEVER revealed to ANYONE. No one knows what my penname is. I used to write under other pennames, but I unpublished those and after doing so, revealed, yes, that was me writing as those two names. So these members lashing out at me saying I was “writing fake Erotica” and pointing to the Twighlight Manor Series and the Quaraun the Insane series, were making a huge error here, because neither of those series is Erotica. Yes, they have sex scenes in them, but that doesn’t make them Erotica. I have never called either of those two series, Erotica. Some of my readers have called them Erotica, but I haven’t.
So, it was just ridiculous, them pointing at these particular books, and saying that I was writing fake Erotica and they knew it, “because look these are not REAL Erotica”...well, yeah, no duffy! Of course they aren’t Erotica! I never said they were!
But then, WHY in the heck were they flipping out and demanding I not join the DD forum? They acted like I had said I was going to join. And...I never had any interest in joining so, I don’t even know what they were talking about. Why were they flipping out?
Wait...what? Join the DD forum? What? What are they talking about? Why would anyone in their right mind pay money to join a forum? I don't get it. You can't taste it, you can't touch it, you can't hold it in your hands, it isn't gonna keep you warm or dry, why would I pay money for it? Hey, they want to waste their money joining some snooty private forum, it's no skin off my back. What do I care? What the hell are they talking about? Why are they sending me these emails. Here I am getting ready for surgery in a few days, and these people, these strangers from Britain are bombarding me with messages and emails that make sense to me at all!
They seemed to be under the impression that I intended to join the DD forum and "invade" their private territory, because "that's what Gypsies do" according to them. That’s when the “I used to live in Romania, I know what your kind is like” posts started showing up.
They started out yelling for me to not invade DD forum and by the end of the posts they were rambling on about how “Gypsies are all squatters, they invade every place”. One poster started raving about how they were “sick of trash like you moving around all the time and invading everyone’s land”!
What the hell? My family have been settled Gypsies since the 1530s. We own this land ourselves and we haven't moved off of it in 500 freaking years. Where in the hell do you get off throwing lying stereotypes in my face, accusing me of invading your private property! But like I said, I never once posted on their little EAF/DDF thread, I never joined their conversation, heck, I didn't even know these people, they had only been members of KB for less then 20 days. So I still don't know why they thought I was going to join.
Not sure what exactly happened over there on the DD forum (as I'm not a member) that inspired a whole slew of them to PM me here within an hour of each other, but something clearly happened, somewhere, to cause them to all message me minutes apart, to tell (threaten) me not to join their private forum. This was not some random, oh let's message her when we get around to it, this was a very organized, oh, it's been two minutes, well guess it's my turn to copy and paste the exact same message to her. Somehow they thought I would join DDF and wanted to let it be know that I was in no way welcomed over there. And boy did they ever let it be known! What a potty mouthed group of shit heads they are in private messages when they think no one can see them...
I spent 36 years building a name and reputation for myself as a writer and I don't take kindly at all to your little petty racist attempt to destroy my career and reputation, just because YOU HATE Gypsies! ?
They think they know me, because they think they know Gypsies? But no, they didn't take the time to find out anything about me at all. They just jumped to false conclusions and incited up a riot over on DDF and told them to land in my inbox on KB. Nice. Good one. Great way to be a professional and start your career.
Do they really think that's the way to operate a business? You do know anybody can saunter on over to KB, read the posts going on and on and on about how they write REAL Erotica and how they just can't stand FAKE Erotica authors, and oh yippie skippies, look at them ruining their own career.
Yeah. You know what? You want to drag your career down the toilet. Fine. Have at it. I’ll not have you dragging my career down the drain with you.
You wonder why your sales are in the toilet...uhm...you might want to reconsider what you've been saying on KB!
J.DP/EA. and her EAF/DDF friends and their little outburst of insanity in my inbox, at first I wasn't sure what they meant by it, but their exact words were "we don't want your kind around our forum" and "our forum is only open to REAL Erotica writers" and "FAKE Erotica is not allowed" (they capitalized the words real and fake).
My kind? What exactly is my "kind"?
Fake Erotica? What is "fake" Erotica?
Real Erotica? What is "real" Erotica?
And what did they mean by "your kind"?
My kind?
What does my kind, even mean?
There are so many ways that can be translated, with me being a short, Autistic, transvestite, minority race. Which of the not-normal things I am is it that pisses you off most?
I'm a Scottish Gypsy/Kickapoo Native American, who writes Weird Horror, Bizarro , Monster Porn, Sword and Sorcery Epic Fantasy, and Yaoi. Those are all real categories found on Amazon with lots of authors writing them. Don't know which one they consider fake or not real , or what they were referring to when they said my "kind", but, needless to say I turned off the PMs.
They did however keep referencing back to "your post" about this.
"Your post" about that.
The "this" and "that" being reference to child sex, pedophiles, sex slavery, child porn, and other things of that nature.
My post? I have 1,371 posts on KB, which post are you talking about?
And what the hell?
I never wrote anything about child porn or paedophilia erotica.
What are you talking about?
This is just crazy. You people are freaking crazy!
In late October, nearly a dozen members suddenly had most of their posts deleted and edited and the mods claimed they had not done it. L.G. (an author whom had previously been my friend and we had even worked together on the KBoards Anthology book) started a thread, which on one hand accused me of being a pedpophile and writing what she called “pedophile erotica” and on the other hand accused mod B.Q. deleting “200 of my posts for no reason, while leaving EelKat’s pediphile posts untouched.”
She ranted on for 7,000 words of how B.Q. was playing favorites by “picking on” her and not deleting my posts in spite of “having been reporting all of EelKat’s posts every day” because ‘we got to get that pedophile off KB”.
I saw that post by L.G. and wondered: WHAT is she talking about?
Pedophile posts?
WHAT pedophile posts?
WHAT pedophile Erotica?
What the hell?
Her accusations completely took me by surprise. How in the heck could anybody attribute anything I had written, in either my books or on my forum posts, as having any connection to pedophiles?
Well, I had seen the other members on the other threads screaming their rants about pedophiles, but in their posts, they were just generalizing with statements like: “all Gypsies are pedophiles, why do you think they steal babies?”
The other members were basing their pedophile accusations on Gypsy stereotypes and generalizing that because I was a Gypsy I therefore must be all these other things, blah, blah, blah, (list of things Gypsies “do”) with pedophiles being on the list.
But L.G.’s thread was not making sweeping generalizations about Gypsies. Her opening post on the thread, called me out by name and boldly accused me of posting things, I knew for a fact that I had never posted. Why was she saying I had posted these things, when I hadn’t?
Keep in mind, these people who did this, they had previously lied and said they were my friends.
I hate liars and backstabbers.
Mod B.Q. posted on the thread to say that, yes TWO of L.G.s posts had been deleted, both for harassing another member and being against forum decorum and yes a few of her posts on various threads had been edited by the mods, to remove “personal attacks on other members” in order to “comply with forum decorum”.
B.Q. then stated, that the other “200 posts” which L.G. was saying had been edited and/or deleted “without mod notes at the bottom” had not been edited or deleted by a mod.
The thread then exploded into a huge battle of several members suddenly saying they had also had posts edited and or deleted without proper mod notification. B.Q. locked the thread stating that she would review the situation with the other mods.
Last post I read on KBoards stated that mods B.Q., A.A., and H.V. were looking into the situation an hoped to have it settled shortly. They are good mods, I've seen dozens of "attacks" like this happen to other members over the years, and the mods are always quick to get things under control. I don't doubt that they did look into it and did get the offenders back in line. But I didn't care to stick around to find out.
What happened after that on KBoards, I don’t know. That was the last thread I read. That was October 27, 2014. Puzzled by L.G’s wild accusations that I was posting pediphile stuff on the forum, and puzzled as to why so many authors were claiming the mods were attacking them and why so many authors were claiming their posts were being edited without their permission and why so many authors were claiming that many of their posts were being deleted; while at the same time the mods were responding to these complaints and saying “We didn’t do t. If someone edited your posts it wasn’t us mods.”
This was the first time I was alerted to the fact that my posts on KB had been edited and changed. Curious to find out how any of my posts could have been misconstrued by L.G. as “promoting pedophilla” I went to my KB account profile and scrolled down through the list of my old posts to try to find what post she could be talking about and re-read it to see how she could possibly have mistranslated it as promoting pedophilila. What I found was shocking.
It was very confusing for me, why did I have all these people contacting me? And contacting me with such rage and hate? There wasn't a kind word in any of them and they were getting angrier with each private message. I couldn't understand it at all. And the stuff some of them were saying it was becoming down right terrifying. Dozens of them had gone from people who were supposedly my friends to bitter angry people who were coming right out and saying they wanted me dead. And I didn't know why.
There was no reason for it. For 30 years I've had a reputation for mediating peace and joy and kindness on online forums. I had a reputation for always being the person no one was ever mad at, because I went out of my way to never do anything that got people, mad, and here these people were worked up into a herd mentality mod of self-righteous anger.
How does someone like me, who never done anything but post love and kindness and try to help people, fall under this kind of attack, that was happening here?
I'e never said a mean or unkind thing to or about anyone. Not once in my 30 years of being online. I'm famous across 300 forums for that. EVERYONE knows for that. That is my reputation.
And yet these people were of the opinion I was attacking them, out to get them, they said.
90% of my posts on forums look like this:
How is that an attack?
How is that out to get someone?
I had no clue what these people were talking about. But I also didn't know my account had been highjacked and someone was changing all of my posts. I didn't go back and read my old posts. I knew what wrote. Why did I need to go back and read it? So I know idea someone had changed them.
It became obvious, as the PMs continued to slaughter my inbox with ever more hysterical insanity, that somewhere on one of my posts on KB, I had said something to really piss these people off, but what it was I had no clue, because nothing these people were accusing me of made any sense at all. They did not appear to be referencing anything I had said anywhere ever, KB or otherwise..
The PMs they wasn't why I deleted my posts, but that was how I found out that someone on KB was SERIOUSLY editing a lot of my posts. Nearly every one of them in fact. I keep copies of everything. Every post I post on KB, is cross posted to a private section of my website, which is cross posted to both my WP blog and my Blogger blog, and kept on my computer, and kept on my spare hard drive, so I have copies of everything I write saved in multiple locations so I never lose it in case of server crashes or computer crashes. I've lost manuscripts in the past to server crashes and computer viruses, so now I don't take chances. EVERYTHING I write, even if it's just a one line "Hey, how you doing?" comment, is saved.
ALL OF THEM.
I have an entire yWriter5 File that is nothing but every single post I've ever written on KB.
Well, after getting all these messages telling me I wasn't welcomed by the other Erotica authors, who while they were telling me not to join DD, they were also saying they didn't want me on KB either, I started going back over my posts on KB, to see if I could figure out what I could possibly have said that had inspired such vehement outrage in my message box. And oh my god! What I found!
I was shocked to see the hack and slash job that had been done on my posts...at first I thought it was the moderators of the forum editing my posts, but there was no notation stating that the mods had edited my posts. If the mods edit your posts, they always leave a note at the bottom to say what was edited and why. There were no mod notes, but my posts were edited...boy were they ever edited.
For starters EVERY post had had the copyright notice and reprint permission disclaimer completely removed. There was nothing left to indicate that these posts were NOT comments, but rather reprints of articles, already published, that I posted in response to a question, asked by the thread's OP.
Some posts had huge sections missing, others were COMPLETELY reworded and changed, and no longer had the same meaning as what I had originally said! And worse, completely new passages, not things I had written at all, were added in. I was horrified by what I was finding.
Oh, yeah, I could see why people were mad. I would have been too. It was bad. And a lot of it was stuff, that was promoting child porn, with lots of snarky "I can get away with it because I'm a Gypsy and have a million dollars, La la la la la!" (That's an actual quote.) It was really, really bad, the things that were being said in my posts, but the thing of it was: it wasn't me! I didn't write those words! Someone had removed my words, respun them, added lots of inconsistent, inaccurate, bitchy snark and crass, and then reposted it. (The same sort of wild bitchy snark and crass, even the same style and voice as J.DP/EA - it appeared to be the same person who wrote her posts, that was re-writing my posts.)
AND every one of the posts had a note at the bottom, stating they had been edited by me!!!! But I had never edited any of them at all!
OMG! Someone had hacked into my account and was completely rewriting all of my posts! I don't know who did it, but it was pretty obvious why. This person HATED Gypsies and had found a Gypsy and they were gonna do everything they could do to use my account to make Gypsies look bad. I was utterly disgusted that someone would do this to another human being. How does a person get to hate a race like this?
In my 7 years on KB I had never once gone back to my old posts to read, change, or edit a thing. This was my first time re-reading my old posts. The first thing I noticed was that every one of them had a notice at the bottom stating “This post was last edited by EelKat on {DATE} at {TIME}” Every single post. I was looking at that note on the bottoms of all my posts and thinking: “What? I didn’t edit that post. I didn’t edit any of my posts. The only times I ever edited a post, I type a note at the opening line that reads “ETA: Editing because my spelling sucks.” Out of my thousands of posts, that note was only on less then 10 of them. Those were the only posts I had ever edited and they were edited to fix spelling errors. But here I was looking at my posts and they had ALL been edited, and not by me, even though there was a note at the bottom saying I had edited them!
Good god! Who edited my posts? And why?
I started reading to see what had been edited, and oh my fricking bejesusms! Yeah, there they were, all those posts L.G. was talking about. Posts promoting pediphilia! Lots of them. And not just that, but really weird shit too. Things saying I was making millions of dollars on my books and weird stuff about my cars and my family and my hobbies...and oh my god...the stuff about the mansions! Yie! Jesum Crow, what the fricking hell?
Since when do I live in a mansion? I’ve been homeless and living on the streets under a 8x6 tarp since the bomb took out my house in 2006 and EVERYONE knows this. There are hundreds of interviews with me, news reports, 2 books that I was featured in, I go to lectures and events, etc, because of this. I happen to be willingly homeless. I didn’t start out that way, but it turns out I like camping out full time so I stuck with it even after I didn’t have to anymore. It’s no secret my alternative lifestyle, heck there pictures of my and my tarp-tent all over the freaking internet. It’s so famous that I get hundreds of tourists coming here to Maine every year JUST to come see me in my tarp tent in person. One guy drove all the way from Alaska to see it. A women came all the way from Japan to see it.
Whoever edited my posts, knew enough stuff about me to pull off sounding like me, but they clearly never did a Google search on me, because if they had, first thing that would have come up was information on my 8 years living under a tarp through 5 hurricanes, dozens of blizzards, and 8 month long winters with sub-zero temperatures. I do not live in a mansion, I never have, and never would, so any body that actually knew me, would have known immediately that I had not written these posts, just by that fact alone.
At some point in mid-August someone hacked into my account and began editing my posts, turning them into arrogant gibberish that bragged about utter nonsense.
Some of the claims they wrote via my account bragged of being a millionaire. One said I owned three mansions. Another said I paid $75,000 for a single book, while another said I had paid $600,000 for a car.
The hacker also changed numbers in the sales figure, book ranks, and income, deliberately making everything a miss-match contradictory mess, that came of reading as gibberish.
The worst of the hackers changes was to then change the actual text of the articles themselves, inserting wild claims, making excessively arrogant and boastful remarks, riddling the articles with snide racist putdowns, using vile words that are not part of my vocabulary, and attributing lewd "incest and pedophile erotica" books to me, which I would never write.
I do not know how long the hacker was altering my posts on the KB forum. I only found out about it, when, a new forum, Dirty Discourses, was created for the Erotica authors of KB (many of whom were claiming to have fallen under heavy attack from non-Erotica author members. I can not verify if these attacks happened or not, but they probably did, seeing the way my account was attacked, I don't doubt if they say they were attacked to, they probably were.) And inspired by their posts L.G. wet off on a rant on her thread calling me out by name and accusing me of writing stuff I'd never written.
I was unaware of DDF until THEY CONTACTED ME in my inbox, but their messages were indicating that they assumed I knew who they were and indicated they thought I not only knew of their forum but that I planned to (in their words) "invade it".
This whole thing was just so baffling for me, because these people acted like I knew who they were and what they were talking about, until they contacted me I had never heard of them of their forum.
I can only assume that whoever hacked my account, must have also been contacting these people, while claiming to be me, and these people were replying to the impersonator's messages, but doing so by contacting me directly. Thus the impersonator did not get the replies, I did, thus I found out of the impersonators existence.
So, there is somebody out there, pretending to be me and contacting these people getting them mad, and they in turn contact me, thinking it was me who had initiated contact with them. But it wasn't me. I didn't know who these people were or what they were talking about.
Just before this all happened there was another major forum attack. This on V.R. and Vm.B. It started in July and went out of control in August, much the same way and they were attacked by some of the same members who lashed out on my in October and November.
In August, three Erotic Romance KB members, did fall under heavy attack, but not by KB members. Their Amazon accounts fell under heavy fire from 1* reviews - 30 or more posted every hour on the hour for several days, all on KDP Select ebooks, all with non-verified purchases. a week later every book attacked, was copied word for word and republished by a plagiarist. Throughout August a legal battle between Amazon, the authors, and the thief raged on, much of the information being posted to, the now infamous "Serialized Romance Thread" of KB.
The Serialized Romance Thread, for those not familiar with it, was started by V.R. one of the authors who fell under attack. It was a mega sized thread, started in February 2014, on which she posted some 30,000 words of step-by-step detailed information on how to write, edit, format, create covers, publish, and market and successful Paranormal Erotic Romance Serial. She then invited other authors to add their how-to articles to the thread. Many of my articles posted to KB, were posted to this thread.
The Serialized Romance Thread and the posting of mega long, mega detail, step-by-step how to articles on this thread, was the ONE AND ONLY thing each of the authors who fell under attack, had in common. When it was realized this thread on KB was the only connection between the authors who'd been attacked, they all (myself and more then a dozen others) promptly removed their posts from the thread. In a matter of hours, the thread went from a whopping 70+ forum pages long to it's current 32 pages long. All but two of the authors who came under fire during what is now referred to as "Serialized Romance Thread Attacks" left KB in a mass exodus. I was one of the two who remained, VmB was the other.
In order to protect ourselves, both me and the other author, stripped our forum signatures of any links back to our books for sale on Amazon, and we both took to lurking more often then posting. Once bitten, twice shy.
I was not aware, how deep the attacks had run. I only removed my posts off that one thread, and I did not go back and read them before deleting them. I was unaware, of how vastly our how-to article posts had been altered from how we had originally posted them. I would not become aware of this piece of the puzzle until a few days ago (first week of November 2014).
More issues began cropping up in mid-September, when I began to receive several very nasty private messages from various KB members. Their messages were baffling and confusing, as they suggested they were in response to my forum posts, and yet, the things they were suggesting I said, where not what I had said at all. I brushed the first few off, thinking they must have mistakenly messaged the wrong member, as I knew I had never said any of the things they were saying I had said. So I thought nothing of these messages assuming they were meant for someone else.
Around this same time, another forum, EAF (The Erotica Author Forum) which I had never heard of before, and I therefore was not a member, had server issues and went offline. One of it's members was also a member of KB and started a thread on KB asking if anyone knew what had happened to EAF. In the few days to follow more then 50 new members joined KB, all of them landing on the EAF thread, saying they would hang out there until EAF went back online.
I never posted on the EAF thread, but I read it as it grew by many pages every day. It wasn't clear what happened to EAF, but after a couple of weeks, some of the members decided to form a new forum, called Dirty Discourses. their reason? It wasn't because EAF was offline, it was because it their words, they were sick and tired of being "attacked" by KB members. They claimed that every time they posted, the KB members were respond with snarky comments. Thing was, there were no "regular" KB members posting on this thread and the EAF members were not posting anywhere else on KB but this thread. Their accusations were wild and baffling, growing more hysterical by the hour, as no KB members were responding to them at all.
The first week of October, another thread was started. The 7 Day Erotica Challenge Thread. It was started by a regular KB member who writes Erotica and was a friend of mine. Me and her and a few others chatted about what we were writing for the challenge and posted updates of sales as we published each challenge book.
As I said, I don't go back and read my old posts. I knew what it was I had written and had no reason to think my posts said anything other then what I had originally said.
In mid-October, both the Challenge Thread and the EAF Thread, was suddenly bombarded with psychotic ranting posts by one of the Erotica authors, who began citing riots against what she called "The FAKE Erotica Authors" (she capitalized the words) and began posting wild hysterical accusations against several of the KB members (myself being her primary target for most of her rants, I knew this as she called me out by name in her posts). The new forum, Dirty Discourses, went live around this time, and upon joining, she upper her rage on KB, loudly boasting of how "ONLY REAL Erotica Authors" were allowed on DDfSeveral of us KB members thought either she had flipped her lid or she was a troll. Either way, we ignored her posts and continued chatting about our progress.
But she just kept on posting and started posting one crybaby rant after another on the EAF Thread, bragging that "only REAL erotica authors" were on DD's forum and how glad she was "FAKE authors" were not irritating her with their "annoying advice" and "boastful sales figures".
Next thing I know, I'm getting called out on the forum blasted and told,I better not dare join the DD forum. I was like...what the...? What? Well, I've never been a member of EAF or it's new replacement DDF. Never heard of EAF til it went offline and DDF costs $10 to join. No secret I don't like paying money for stuff, anything, at all, ever. I buy print books because I refuse to pay money for an ebook I can't hold....and I buy print books used for .25c. I have an outhouse because I won't pay to have sewer hooked up. I won't even pay for book promo ads, to market my own books that I write, so why anyone thought I'd pay to join a forum which I had no way to even preview, I don't know.
Did I mention I'm Scottish and I really don't like spending money, and won't unless absolutely necessary? Heck, most years my income doesn't even top $2k and I can live off that. Most years I make less in a year then most people make in a week. . You really think I'd waste $10 on joining a forum? Honey, that's a whole months worth of food for me. Homeless, since 2006. Grease fryer bomb. J.B., buddy of J.T. and D.K. blew up my house, remember?
Like I said, I save everything I write no matter how small or insignificant, so as I started going back, I opened KB on one browser window and my website copies of the original posts on another window so I could read them side by side, and the changes were flabbergasting at best, ludicrous at worst, and downright illegal in other cases, with several posts promoting pedophilia! OMG! I was the victim of child rape - repeated, over a long period of time. If there's one thing in this world I hate it's a pedophile! And every one locally knows my work to get local pedophiles out of church leadership positions.
It was clear that whoever was editing my posts, not only knew I was a Gypsy, but also knew my absolute hatred for pedophiles and was using that to spite me by rewriting my posts, to be promoting books on Pedophile Erotica!
Good GOD!
The stuff they had written into my posts, just blew me away. Someone really put a lot of work and effort into doing this. I had to have taken them weeks to write all this stuff and days on end to go through my account and open each post one at a time to rewrite them. I can't even begin to imagine the amount of hours this person must have put into hacking my account in this manner.
In places where I had mentioned my income and sales, those had been changed, exploded out of proportion, amplified, and reworded to the point that they sounded like arrogant bragging and boasting - and that's not how I had written them at all! In the originals I had posted info on my sales, royalties, percentages, income, sales rank, ect. had all been erased and replaced with stupid phrases like "I made a bagillion dollars last week and you can kiss my ass." (another direct quote.)
If I said $10 they changed it to $100 or a $1,000 or even $10,000. Pretty much every dollar amount I wrote had been changed to ad at least 2 extra zeros on the end. If I wrote $75, their edited version said $750 or $7,500.
It is very upsetting to me that they did this because I keep very accurate records of everything. I have Autism. I keep everything accurate, organized and in order. Do you have any idea how much inaccuracies eat at my brain?
And they were saying stuff about my writing method, saying it was "to write as much crap as fast as possible, woo hoo!" (another direct quote.) But then other posts bragged of "my book sold 1,000 copies today because I'm the best so there." (another direct quote)
My method of writing, is based on the DWS Method (Dean Wesley Smith), which is NOT to have one book reach high sales and high rank, but rather to write lots of lower ranking books in the smaller, poorer selling niches which are largely ignored by other writers who are chasing the latest trends. The idea is not to have a lot of sales over a few titles, but rather to only 1 or 2 sales per title per week over a wide range of titles. I do not have any big seller books. Most of them rank below 300,000 (3 sales a week), several rank below 1,000,000 (3 sales a month), and some even rank below 2,000,000 (1 sale every 60 days). My method of writing has always been lots of little titles, that each sell just 1 or 2 copies a week, thus why I have 600+ books out there.
I have Autism and I'm an obsessive compulsive writer, who hates marketing. The only way to make money on 1 or 2 books is to market the hell out of them. I don't want to do that, because it takes time away from writing. I'd rather write myself into oblivion and be putting out a new title every week or every month, and just keep on writing. Writing is what I do. So why bother to market a few books, when I can just let sale come organically on hundreds of books?
My advice on making money writing, has always been, lots of titles with only a few sales each, never a few titles and bombardments of sales.
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And my income is not huge, either. I'm still not eligible for medical insurance because they say I'm too far below poverty level to get it. Yes, I have a lot of cars (if you consider 9 cars to be a lot), but I've NEVER paid more then $2,000 for any of them and that was for the motorhome, which means I only paid $2k for my house. My daily driver? That was my most expensive car and I only paid $900 for that. My cheapest car was the Goldeneagle, I paid $5 for it. These are NOT new cars, they are not in good condition, often when I buy they are not running and were sold for salvage...I happen to like to work on cars. I like restoring old junkers. Think about it. You take all my cars combined, I paid less for the grand total of them, then the average person makes for a SINGLE PAYMENT on the average new car.
All that bragging, boasting stuff about the cars being super expensive...listing the prices I supposedly paid for my cars being at $200k and up per car...that wasn't me...I didn't write that. That was some creep editing my posts! That was a nut job, looking at the types of cars I drive, and thinking I was a millionaire. Sugar Plum, the most I ever paid for a car was $900 for the Rhinestone Volvo. I don't own a single new car. The Volvo is my newest car and it's 25 years old this year. Most of my cars are both older then me AND not running. In fact, the Volvo is the ONLY one that is running, (besides the motorhome) that's why it's the only one I drive!
That's one thing about Gypsies, our cars are how we present ourselves to the world. Our cars are an extension of us and who we are. A lot of work goes into the designing, painting, and decorating one of these Gypsy cars. It took me 3 years to build The Dazzling Razzberry - it takes a long time to glue 2.5million marbles to a car! Like our painted wagons of old, our art cars of today are like family to us. You misrepresent one of our cars you misrepresent us. You don't dis family and you don't dis our cars!
GOOD GOD! Whoever the hell rewrote that stuff about my cars in my posts, was a complete loony-bin. I think I'm more upset about all the lies they said about my cars more then anything else. They completely misrepresented me and who I was by making my cars look like they were something completely different then they actually were. That was just so mean of them. I don't why they did it.
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And my mega-super-sized book collection? I buy books bulk on eBay .25c a pound. 75 pounds at a time (that's the post office limit for box weight) and that's $18.75 for 200 to 800 paperbacks depending on page count of each book. I spend $20 a month, to buy one of those bulk boxes a month.
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[Here is what a world record collection looks like: This is a stack of 8,000 Historical Romance Novels - a small fraction of the collection of the most Historical Romance novels owned in a single private collection.]
That's a grand total of $225 a year for 2,400 to 9,600 books a year, and I've been doing this for 40 years, which means, I've at minimum 384,000 IF that was the only way I buy books. I also got to every library in the state of Maine, day after they have a book sale and buy EVERYTHING that didn't sell for a $1 a bag. There's usually about 50 books in a bag, so I usually get 500 to 2,000 books in a single day for about $10. I also go to Salvation Army and Goodwill, and buy the ENTIRE BOX/BIN of their .05c books. That's a couple thousand books a month for under $10.
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[Pidgie and 400 Dungeons and Dragons books - a stack of books that stands 8 feet tall - not in boxes because this is the office I use when writing the Quaraun books (which are 100% written by the roll of the dice)- behind that - 10,000 non-fiction books in boxes - this room is 14 feet x 15 feet and 10 feet tall - the path into the room between the books is 4 feet wide by 8 feet long - the boxes are stacked 5 boxes tall by 20 boxes deep]
AND I go dumpster diving for books, watch Craigslist for curbside listings of boxes of books, and buy entire tables of .25c books at flea markets. In all I'm averaging as many as 20,000 new books added to my collect EACH YEAR FOR 40 YEARS and paying under $500 a year for them. 800,000 fiction paperback books, not including hardcovers, non-fiction, cookbooks, or comic books. The two records that I have are these: I own more Historical Romance paperbacks (around 12,000) then anyone else in the world and I own more Uncle Scrooge and Donald Duck comic books (around 10,000) then anyone in the world, because I own every copy in 13 languages. |
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I have 8,000 Erotica ebooks on my Kindle cloud ALL free downloads. Anyone who says anything otherwise about how many books I own, what sort of world records I have, and how much I pay for my books, is lying to you.
Well, that's the other thing that made me mad. There was a thread that asked how many books people had and I listed my books. Someone asked how I paid for so many books. I told, exactly what I just said above.
And in going back over my posts - both those posts were changed as well. The numbers of books and how many records had both been changed, as well as the amount of money I spent on the books - the post I did not write, said I paid at minimum $75,000 a year for my books!
The hacker went into my account and changed every post I had written those 7 years. They edited all my helpful responses, changing them into mean snark, putting people down, calling them "welfare bums" and saying that they "stupid" and their "lack of income" was "proof" of that.
I checked the dates. Whoever was doing this was logging in daily. At the top of each post you make on KB is the date and time the post was made. At the bottom of every edited post is the date and time of the edit. On my posts made during the months of August, September, and October 2014, the two times were hours apart. I would usually post on KB in the morning (4AM to 6AM) and so all of my posts were started in early morning hours. The time the hacker edited the posts would be in the afternoon or evening of the same day (noon to 6PM). On posts made before August, to 7 years back, nearly all of the edits were made in October 2014.
The hacker was changing my posts without my knowledge and continued to do so until I found out about it October 27, 2014, at which point I set out to undo their edits and restore my posts back to their original states. I keep copies of everything, so it was a simple matter to delete their edited posts and paste the original back into it's place. I spent several days doing this.
On November 10, 2014, when I posted a new post, I noticed my signature quote had been changed. It was a snarky reference to the Rolls Royce photos. So I went back and checked. The posts, I had restored, had been edited AGAIN, to even worse snark then they had been the first time.
That same day L.G. was flipping out in hysterics on every thread on the site. Doing her "report all EelKat's posts" blah, blah, blah. While JdP, now EA, was likewise lashing out her anti-EelKat posts, with the 50+ "EAF Erotica Authors" cheering her on.
I had spent a week, undoing the damage the hacker had done, only to have them redo it as fast as I corrected it.
On the next day I changed my password and deleted all 1,371 posts off of KBoards, as it was easier then trying to go back in and edit each post one at a time to restore the original contents.
Why did I not stay and fight? Why did I just delete my posts and leave?
I spent 5 months of 2014 bedridden from a back, hip, and knee injury that happened February 2014. I'm still not fully recovered from that as it complicated a previous illness I already had. I was in and out of the hospital several times in October, and by the time I found out on November 11th what was going on, my health had reached a "danger zone" due to a septic infection doctors had overlooked.
On November 10th I was not well enough to want to even try to deal with the online shit. I had more important offline shit to deal with and so rather then do anything to defend myself against the trolls, I simply deleted every post off every forum, and took all my blogs offline.
I was admitted into the hospital November 14 in critical condition and I almost died. Like I said, the stupid silly online drama was not a very high priority at that point, considering doctors were pretty sure I wouldn't even make it to the end of the week.
I was rushed back into the hospital for surgery on December 2, 2014 and the first signs that my health was coming back around did not show up until December 17, 2014. Doctor still had me listed as "in critical condition" until December 27, 2014
I am writing this today on February 20, 2015 from my bed. I'm still not well enough to be back up and around. Because of my health issues all the book releases due in October, November, December, January, and February got pushed back, with publication dates unknown because I'm simply not well enough to sit up and type for long periods of time.
That is why I deleted my posts. My health is simply not well enough to bother dealing with the stress. That and no other reason. I don't care what other people are telling you. All those things they are telling you, simply is not true.
The members involved in this attack, every one of them came from the EAF forum. They were NOT long time regular members of KBoards. They were just petty, whinny, jealous crybabies looking for a bone to pick and I happened to be in the right place at the right time. What they did was extremely undignified and unprofessional and in the long run, they are only hurting themselves and their own careers, because what they did, they did on a Google searchable public forum in front of the whole world to see.
I have my own life to live, my own family to take care of, my own career to run...I can't be bothered to to join in on some stupid, petty forum war. They want to fight with someone? Fine. Just remember it takes 2 to fight. I choose to pick my battles. I stand up and fight against things that are important. Guess what? They were not important. Those people were nothing to me but stupid, racist slugs, not worthy of my time or effort. And so rather then join in on their little war, I chose to simply leave and take all my old helpful posts with me.
Simple fact of the matter is this: They can not attack me, if I'm not there for them to attack. They can not hack my posts and rewrite them into stupid chicken shit lies, if I have no posts for them to hack.
I have better things to do with my time, then fight with forum trolls.
I was not the only member whose account was hacked in this manner. Nearly every "minority race" member who had replied on that "minority race" thread, had their account attacked and/or hacked. (Several of them have contacted me to tel me that I wasn't alone that they too had been attacks and/or hacked) I noticed it in October, that two members suddenly started saying really wild things that were completely out of character. D.D. for example had formerly been a very helpful member and suddenly, was a gibbering braggart, claiming to be earning $30,000 a month while calling that "low income". L.G. another formerly helpful member, suddenly was also claiming to be earning insane amounts of money ($14k a week in one post) and sticking it to everyone not making enough to be "in the club".
It was utterly insane the way the entire of Kboards had turned into a "I make more money then you" riot for a while. But what was worse, was when I discovered my posts were like that too! Good god! That was one of the things the hacker had done to my posts and it made me wonder how many of these other crazy money claims were a result of a hacker as well!
Through out most of 2007 to 2013 Squidoo was my #1 source of income. As one of Squidoo's top 50 highest paid members (number 3 out of nearly 2 million members) I was getting between $75-$200 per month, (their highest paid member was paid an average of $600 per month - no, there was NO ONE getting rich on Squidoo - after all, the company went bankrupt and no longer exists.) This was money paid to be directly from Squidoo, and not additional money that is paid to me by affiliate links promoted on Squidoo lenses.
But think about it, just stop and think about it: Squidoo had me on their list as highest paid member #3 and I ONLY made between $75-$200 per month. That's not much. I had mentioned on KBoards once