February 20, 2015

SAY NO TO CYBER BULLIES!
END DISCRIMINATION AGAINST AUTISM!

^^^ This book was among the ones that fell under attack by this weird anti-gay, anti Gypsy, and anti-Autistic main character attack (not from readers, but rather from other  authors). You can read my response to the boycott of this book HERE.

The response from readers has been very good. This book sold 196 copies it's first day and 211 on day two (in Bizarro genre, that's huge; not so big if you were to compare it with say the Romance genre.) (It was also at it's introductory .99c the first 30 days, which meant I made about $175. LOL! So if the authors who went nutty, were in anyway flipping out because they thought I was raking in cash - as one author said was the reason they were so pissed - they are sorely mistaken!)

As can be expected with small niche genres like this one, sales tapered off after the first 30 days and are about 1 every 3 days ever since, (which means it brings in $35 to $50 a month income) which is still fairly high for this genre, but very low if you were to compare it to a more mainstream genre. Many readers have contacted me to say they loved the book and await the next one.  (I point out the income, because, like I said, I got quite a few nasty emails from authors who were feeling the need to be vindictive. They were very upset that the book sold so many copies the first 2 days. BUT - those first day copies sold to long-time fans who had waited 3 years for the release.)

There have been a few who have contacted me to say: "What in the Hell did I just read? What is this? I need eye bleach!" Oh well. It is Bizarro and Bizarro is a very small genre for a reason: it's not well suited to the tastes of the overall general public. Most people simple are not going to like the Quaraun series, and that's fine. It caters to a very specific niche and very small niche: Bizarre Yaoi Ball Fetish with Knotting and Barbs and the occasional Tentacles.  There are not a lot of people out there into that sort of thing, so I don't expect a lot of sales or that a lot of people will like it...

However, I also did not expect anyone to boycott it, and least of all for the reasons they cited!

For some reason, this series, this book in particular, really pissed off several self-published authors.

Like I said, there were no readers or "general public" involved in this mini-boycott that took place. It was all self-published authors (none of them was traditionally published or trade published). Most of the out-cry came from two authors in particular, who made a small and failed attempt to rally up the authors of KBoards into their boycott.

One interesting thing to note is that, while it appears that boycott starter JDP actually did read the book, it also appears that not a single one of any of the other boycotters had read it, and were basing everything they said off her misinformation and false accusations.

What happened was this:

In October 2014 through into December 2014, a group of about 50 self-published authors launched a mini protest of me and my books, after the release of The Night of The Screaming Unicorn.  Why? Uhm...I'm still not entirely sure, actually.

The two authors leading the attack JDP and LG are not Fantasy writers and I've yet to understand why they did the HORRENDOUS things they did. 

Zombie Apocalypse and Lesbian Erotica author JDP, described the Quaraun series as "FAKE Erotica" (her use of caps), when she wrote a hysterical 200+ post rant on the KBoards forum calling herself an "EAF Erotica Author" (whatever that means) and bragging wild posts via two separate accounts (Eclectic Authoress was the 2nd) stating that: "EelKat is a FAKE Erotica author, she's too stupid and retarded to know what Erotica is. I know what Erotica is because I've been writing REAL Erotica since 2006."

I don't write Erotica, I write Bizarro, so why she was even classifying me as an Erotica author has kind of left me clueless. I believe she may have been referring to the fact that I write Monster Porn, which is NOT Erotica. Monster Porn is a genre which features non-Human characters.

Monster Porn is not called "Porn" as in sex, but rather as in "cult obsession" with monsters. Some Monster Porn contains sex. Some Monster Porn is Erotica. Some Monster Porn is Sweet Romance. Some Monster Porn has no sex at all.

Monster Porn IS NOT a sub-genre of Erotica. Monster Porn is a sub-genre of Horror.

The Night of The Screaming Unicorn does classify as Monster Porn. But does it classify as Erotica?  It is 55,742 words long (173 pages) and contains 23,000 words (74 pages) of gay/yaoi/male on male sex scenes.

She was comparing it to 50 Shades of Grey. With 50 shades of grey being what she called "REAL Erotica"

Now I didn't know who this JDP was until she started lashing out at my books on KBoards. So, I looked her up to find out what she wrote. Her KBoards' account says she writes  Zombie Apocalypse and Lesbian Erotica and her Amazon account confirms this. I suppose my question then becomes does SHE know what Yaoi is?

For starters, Yaoi is not Erotica. Yaoi is gay fiction for female readers. It is NOT intended to gay male readers and does not represent a typical gay relationship. The point of yaoi, is not so much to have sex, but rather to have as many naked men with erect dicks, cocks, and penises as possible on every page. Yaoi novels are to female fans what PlayBoy magazine is to male fans.

Yaoi not Erotica, in the same way PlayBoy is not Erotica. Yaoi is meant to show off the male body, the same way PlayBoy is meant to show off the female body. The difference being that Yaoi is text and PlayBoy is pictures.

The Quaraun series is Bizarro Unicorn Porn Yaoi, a sub-genre of Monster Porn. It is not Erotica, real, fake, or otherwise, so why JDP was making the claims she was making about this book, I don't know, other then the fact, it's quite apparent that she has no clue what Yaoi or Monster Porn or Bizarro is.

But this brings me back to 50 Shades of Grey, because JDP was comparing the Quaraun series to 50SoG. 50 Shades is VERY tame compared to The Night of The Screaming Unicorn. And it is no comparision to it at all. They are two completely separate genres altogether. And so I'm baffled as to the comparison. Of course, if she knows Erotica so "well"... uhmm... yeah... how exactly is 50 Shades of Grey Erotica? 

Really? Seriously? You are calling 50 Shades of grey...Erotica? GOOD GOD! And you claim to know the difference between "FAKE Erotica" and "REAL Erotica"? Honey...your head is so where the sun don't shine, in you think 50 Shades of Grey is even REMOTELY close to being Erotica.

Now if you are somebody who doesn't read Erotica and you read 50 Shades of Grey and thought it was Erotica, well, then, yes, maybe you are going to think that The Night of The Screaming Unicorn is Erotica.

I suppose the question here is: Do you think 50 Shades of Grey is Erotica? I don't. I'm not sure how anyone could, actually. But why do I ask this? Because when you compare a Romance Novel like 50 Shades of Grey to a Yaoi Boy's Love Light Novel like The Night of The Screaming Unicorn well, good God! It is Yaoi after all.

However, it must be remembered that 50 Shades of Grey is NOT Erotica. It is Erotic Romance and there's a HUGE  difference  between  Erotica and Erotic Romance. Anyone who calls 50 Shades of Grey, Erotica, has never read Erotica, no matter how much they claim to be able to tell the difference between "REAL Erotica" and "FAKE Erotica" (again - her use of caps, I'm just quoting what she said.)

If you compare  The Night of The Screaming Unicorn  to actually Erotica and not something like 50 Shades of Grey, then you'd see that it's not Erotica at all.

And while we are on the subject: I have lived 28 wonderful years, very happily the sub of a Master/slave BDSM relationship, and I can tell you this: 50 Shades of Grey has absolutely nothing to do with BDSM. 50 Shades of Grey is just glorified abuse. Whoever wrote that book, doesn't know squat about a DOM/sub relationship. 50 Shades of Grey is nothing but a mockery of the BDSM relationship, it does not accurately represent my lifestyle and I really don't like people comparing my books with it.

But the important thing here is that I never classified  The Night of The Screaming Unicorn as Erotica and I'm not sure why JDP was saying that this series/story was "FAKE Erotica". I am just completely baffled by her logic.

Is she saying that it IS Erotica, but it's not REAL because there are no Humans in it? Or is it because she writes Lesbian Erotica, tat she feels it's FAKE because there are only males in it?

I just don't understand. What exactly does she mean, when she says REAL Erotica, FAKE Erotica, and annoying Erotica.

That last one I think confuses me even more. At first she calls it "FAKE Erotica" (How can Erotica be FAKE? It either is or is not Erotica? Right?) But then later calls it "annoying Erotica". 

Wait...didn't she say it was fake? If it's "Annoying Erotica" isn't that then her saying that it is in fact Erotica?

But then, keep in mind, she posted a whopping 5,000 forum posts between October 2014 and December 2014, while ranting her 3 month long hourly, daily rants of hatred for me and this book. This was not someone writing a review, this was someone daily trolling a forum and posting THOUSANDS of posts, while demanding an all out boycott and attempting to gather up an angry mob to join her. 

I suppose my biggest question of all to JDP is: What the fuck? So, you didn't like me book. Fine. But 5,000 forum posts, posted in a single month, all about how much you hate me and my books?

I have got to find me a fainting banana GIF to insert here.

5,000 forum posts? How does one person have enough time to write 5,000 forum posts of hate in a single month? And good God, WHY?

Damn. My book really pissed this woman off. I think she thought it was supposed to be Erotica and was pissed that it wasn't? I don't know. I still have no clue what she was so flipping out about, she for the most part was just copy and pasting the same phrase over and over again:

 "EelKat is a FAKE Erotica author, she's too stupid and retarded to know what Erotica is. I know what Erotica is because I've been writing REAL Erotica since 2006."

She posted that line in just about every single one of those 5,000 hysterical forum posts...and then she left Kboards and started posting those same posts on other forums. This woman just went friggin wild. And I don't know why. It's actually quite hilarious...do you just sit on your computer all day long and do nothing else? oh, and I do have a banana for that. Oh you know I do. Let's go get him shall we?

Ah...there he is, and look he brought all his buddies along too!

Oh...we can't have those bananas dancing by themselves now can we? let's give them some music for those feet! Here's the song I had on replay while I wrote The Night of the Screaming Unicorn. enjoy!

Are listening to the words of this song? Seriously, listen to the words of this song...I played it about 5,000 times while writing Screaming Unicorn...if you read the book, it'll hit yeah in a minute...oh yeah, I totally fanficed this song.

Nothing like Monster Porn music for writing Monster Porn.

Oh...now that song deserves some vampire bunnies...

Ever seen this site's 404 page?

:p

OMG! Where is in my Snape GIF? We the can't have the vampire bunny with out their cheerleader now can we? Off to go find it...

I'm sorry, I get so distracted so easily, but hey, I've been tossing bananas at you guys since 1997 so why stop now?

I can write crazy people, because I am one. I'm absolutely bonkers. That's not a joke. I got papers that says so and everything.

Try Googling "Maine's Crazy cat woman" - I had 84 cats at the time they branded that title one me. Yes,not a typo eighty-four cats. Do you know Pine Land Center and Spring Harbor? (Maine's two largest mental health institutes?) No? Well, they sure know me.  I'm so crazy I make crazy people normal. I'm so crazy, that they went and got state funding to start a research project, JUST to study me, because they said I'm unclassifiable, they've never seen a case like me. 

I know I'm crazy, Sugar Pie. Every knows I'm crazy. Doctors are screaming from the rooftops and running in herds to study me. I'm in medical journals, and a team of psychiatrists from Australia came all the way here to Maine to study me. I'm so crazy, even Stephen King writes about me.

I know why i write so many forum posts. It's because I'm EElKat the one and only and I'm I'm nuts. What's YOUR excuse?

Now where was I? oh yes, 5,000 forum posts. Damn. She tried to out-crazy me!

 ROTFLMAO!

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

Let's shine some moonbeams on that crazy, eh?

JDP, do you know that in 2005, on the SoapBox a group of us, got together to see how many forum posts we could posts before the Pinks (moderators) stopped us. We each started a thread called "I WON!" (after iwon.com which was a big thing at the time and we were actually getting iwon.com points for doing this, because we did it with iwon.com toolbar and everytime we refreshed the page it added another point.) So, we each started a thread called "I WON!" and then posted nothing but the words "I Won 1", "I Won 2", "I Won 3", etc all day long. In the end most people dropped out after a hundred or a thousand posts...15 hours later of none stop posting, I passed "I Won 15,000"...and then POOF all the I WOn threads vanished. oooooh. A mod logged in. ROTFLMAO! LOLOL!

I didn't post like everyone else did though...I added a banana to every post, and when out of bananas I starts using other GIFs. I have 50,000 GIFs stored in my hard-drive. I have a GIF for EVERYTHING!

I Won. I not only posted the most post, I did each one in a different marquee colour, and added a GIF at the bottom.

Don't know what a marquee post looks like? 

 Let's marquee the next line, shall we?

You know...I do seem to recall mentioning that I'm a professional clown car driver....you know as in...a clown...that drives a car...we're the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach...carnival Gypsies, remember? Being crazy IS my profession.

I got pink-slapped so many times because of that, but boy was it fun. I loved the []. Miss the []. Eh. They changed it. They decided we only post serious post. Oh well. It was fun while it lasted.

"Twighlight Manor Calling MustangRockstar" anyone? Ooooh HAHAHA! Google THAT one - it's still there - 10 years and it's still going! They pinned it? The mods friggin pinned it! You tried to out crazy the super crazy marquuee queen of the SoapBox, Sugar! LOL!

HEY! SomeGuy! Are you still  out there? I'm still using the GIFs you gave me! {{{hugs}}} Thank you for making them for me! I'm loving 'em still after all these years! XOXOXO

I'm the queen of forum crazy, Sugar Pie, you're gonna have a tough time if you try to out-crazy me, but hey go ahead and try. The world needs more crazy... lot's of empty spaces in the Padded Cell...come join us, we have cookies.

:D

There now, you see? I can be crazy too. 

But I'm known for crazy.

I wear crazy clothes.

I drive crazy cars.

I've been a sideshow circus clown since I was 4 years old.

I own crazy amounts of books.

I write Bizarro for crying out loud - a genre that IS crazy for the sake of being crazy.

Crazy is my trademark brand. It's who I am. It's what people expect.  If I'm not being crazy, people start asking "What's wrong with her?"

Crazy is my profession. I am professionally crazy. And yes, I know how crazy that sounds, but...we are carnival people. PEOPLE PAY US TO BE CRAZY IN PUBLIC!

IT'S OUR JOB!

We go out of our way to be crazy ON PURPOSE.

THINK about it, Honey. We are clowns. I'm a clown. Clowns. Have you ever seen one?

Here's a video full of clowns if you don't know what a clown is:

(Yes, I am a Juggalo and proud of it. There's something for to think about.)

I'm a crazy clown fan of insane clowns. WOO-HOO!

You know what's even better then Insane Clown Posse? Their German fanband Megaherz:

Had enough evil clowns for one day? I haven't, but let's move on, I got boycotters waiting for a reply.

But, yeah, carnival Gypsies. Circus. Sideshow. Rhinestoned car, a green metal-flaked motorhome. owner of the side show attraction known as "The World's Most Haunted Car"

Don't know them? Here they are:

Rhinestoned car... (look at the polka-dotted white-walls)

Can you read the flags?

Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsen Fay, Marji Loa to Damballa Weddo

Scotland

Gypsy

Transvestite

...and four Liberace Unicorns.

and

Lime green metal flake motorhome...

and The World's Most Haunted Car...

See? Carnival cars for carnival people. 

No pictures of the clowns as clowns never reveal their true identity, so you're just gonna have to guess who I am, but...

You do know what a clown is right?

You know... comedians who wear crazy clothes and make-up and wigs and do crazy things to make people laugh? Because doing things that are funny and silly and crazy to make people laugh and smile and be happy, is what circus clowns do.

And everybody knows that. We are the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach. We are carnival people. Everywhere we go, online too, we go out of our way to make people happy.

It is our mission in life to spread joy. And that is why you see ME on forums, deliberately, going out of my way to make a fool of myself. Because it gives people something to laugh at. Makes people smile. Gives them a few seconds of laughter, to help them forget for a few seconds at least, their troubles, worries, anger, sadness...

Helping people is what I do. That's why I wrote the 1,371 How-To Articles For Writers, which, because of you, I have removed from the internet.

You see, I act crazy online on purpose to give people joy and happiness for at least a small part of their day...but you... you really ARE crazy...

Think about it, Honey. Really, just stop, breath, relax, and think about what you did. What you said.

All that meanness.

All that anger.

All that vindictiveness.

All that hated...

5,000 posts worth of it.

Me being crazy doesn't hurt my career because being crazy IS my career. I get paid to act like I do.

Honey, going on a wild psycho-crazed, anger filled rant on a forum, that is something that is going to destroy your career. Did you stop and think about that before you did it? Do you have any idea how what you did makes you look? How VERY unprofessional that was of you?

Do you know that I have been on 300+ forums since 1997, and have posted MILLIONS of posts, and NEVER ONCE in that time, have I ever said a mean thing to or about ANYONE?

That's why I was a beta test member of nearly 200 forums, was the moderator of 12 forums (including Squidoo), and have long had a reputation for helping people and/or making them laugh.

Did you know that in all my crazy forum posting, I've NEVER ONCE teased another person.

I've NEVER ONCE picked on another person.

I've NEVER ONCE called out another person.

I've NEVER ONCE put down another person.

I've NEVER ONCE harassed another person.

I've NEVER ONCE bullied another person.

I've never joined in a forum war.

I've never replied to a hateful comment.

And after 600+ books since 1978, I've gotten THOUSANDS of bad reviews on my books and I've NEVER responded to ANY of them.

I maintain peace and nonviolence at all times.

I look for the good in every bad.

THAT is what I'm known for.

People don't know me for my books. My books aren't famous. But people know me for who I am and how I act on forums and how I treat others, and they know they are safe around me because I NEVER do or say ANYTHING to in any way hurt ANYONE. That is my reputation on forums. A lot of forums. for a long time. JDP/EA, LG, SC, K/SS, and the 50+ EAF Erotica Authors - you made a very large-scale attempt to smear my name, destroy my reputation, and damage my career... and I don't know why you did it.

You, I worry about JDP. You started posting you hate for me in September and it's February now and you haven't stopped. You are posting daily, on the hour, every hour, it almost looks automated, except that I know the forum host KBoards uses and you can't automate posts on that. That's why I worry...because this isn't normal forum trolling...this is stalking...you are stalking me and I don't like it.

Do you have anyone you can talk to JDP? A friend? A neighbor? A sister? A brother? A pastor? A counsellor? Do you have the ability to turn off your computer and get up and go outside? You need help JDP. something is seriously wrong here. You posted 5,000 hate filled forum posts about my in October alone, and it's February now and you are still posting daily, hourly, hate.

Why? You didn't like my book. Okay. Fine. I gt the message. Move on. Isn't there another book out there you can read? Don't you have some zombies you can write about? Can't you just step away from the computer for a few hours and take a walk, get some fresh are, drink some tea, have a doughnut. You're freaking me out JDP, you really are. You're taking this to stalking levels now.

You do realize you are going to be remembered for this now? You are not going to be remembered for your books, you are going to be remembered as the angry, hate-filled, psychbitch who wrote 5,000 posts on how much you hated EelKat. Is that REALLY how you wanted history to remember you?

5,000 forum posts about how much you hate me and my books? That's a little obsessive, don't you think? No. It's a lot obsessive. And it takes a lot of time. I know. I did it on the SoapBox remember? And I was only posting a single line in each post, and it took FOREVER. So I know the amount of time, it took you to write 5,000 LONG forum posts, and do it in only a few days. Tell me, did you get any sleep that month?

I'm trying to understand what your problem is, because I really don't think it's me or my books. It looks like you got some really major issues going on in your life and your frustrated and are looking for someone to take it out on, and I think you are being in danger of becoming dangerous. You need to calm down JDP. This 6 month long conniption...that's kind of extreme.

You read a book. You didn't like it. And you are acting like ... I don't know what you are acting like, but this ISN'T a normal reaction to not liking a book you read, and like I said, you are starting to freak me out.

What in the hell pissed you off so much that you reacted, in such a petty, childish way? What was with all the anger? I almost have to ask based on your books (which I did buy and read, because I wanted to find out what sort of books were written by someone who would do this type of thing? --- Or was that your plan all along? Bash my books to drive traffic to yours? You are a freaking lunatic JDP, you know that right?) you really HATE men, don't you? Your books are all very pro-fem-liberator. 

Your books, are all female characters and read in the same angry style you posted on the forum, and my impression is somewhere along the line a man really fucked you over and you now hate every man on the planet, and the only reason my Screaming Unicorn pissed you off is because, it glorifies male genitals, something you seem to utterly loath.

Which then leads me to ask: Do you act like this every time you read a book that has a male character in it? Because, Honey, male  characters make up 90% of the characters in books. That's an awful lot of books for you to go hating.

I'd question the incident more if I was the only author who was singled out, but I wasn't. 73 authors left KBoard during this incident. And more then 3/4 of them wrote gay fiction.  I was one of 73 authors who fell under heavy fire by JDP and her fellow "EAF Erotica Authors" (as they called themselves.) By the middle of October it had become very clear that any author who wrote male/male gay fiction was not welcomed on KBoards and risked being brutally bullied and harassed if they dared to openly admit on KBoards that they wrote gay fiction, the authors of Gay Erotica getting the biggest brunt of the hate force.

It seems, near as I can tell, that my Quaraun series fell under attack, simply because I was in the wrong place at the wrong time (on KBoards with a newly published book featuring a gay couple, during October 2014, when there were several new "EAF Erotica Author" members, on the hunt for any gay author to take down.

Now, there have been readers who have said the story was "Gay Erotica" and oddly, for a few weeks in October (during the height of the KBoards Incident) Amazon, moved this book out of the Epic Fantasy section and into the Gay Erotica section. I had to contact Amazon and ask for a manual review of the book, in order to verify that it WAS NOT Erotica, at which point Amazon put it back in Epic Fantasy where it belongs.

While there were more then 50 authors (and 1 author with 52 accounts) involved in the protest that took place on KBoards demanding a boycott of me, my books, and specifically the Quaraun series, in trying to sort out what happened and how this thing got started, the oldest posts I could find were all written by JDP and all of them were hysterical rants comparing "REAL Erotica" to "FAKE Erotica", the earliests posts being back and forth conversations with herself between her own 2 accounts. 

JDP, since you made 5,000 forum posts to describe my Quaraun series as:

 "EelKat is a FAKE Erotica author, she's too stupid and retarded to know what Erotica is. I know what Erotica is because I've been writing REAL Erotica since 2006."

I think, I therefore need to address this, because it seems to be bothering you quiet a bit. You did say it 5,000 times after all.

Somehow you got it into your head that the Quaraun series was erotica, and then you read it and it wasn't Erotica, and you flipped the frick out. So, you wanted my attention, otherwise, why would you have said that so many times? Well, you got my attention, okay? Actualy, you AREN't the one, I'm mad at. LG is the one who REALLY got my attention. You I was ignoring. But LG's replies to your posts... yeah ...that's not something I can ignore, but before we address LG's comments, I'm going to adress YOUR comment which is what LG was replying to.

As EVERYONE knows. I do NOT respond PRIVATELY to private messages or emails. All of my responses are ALWAYS public. JDP, I've already had readers ask me if the Quaraun series was Erotica and already answered them, long before the series even started to be published. So, let's answer your question, shall we?

*This question and it's answer was previously written and being copied from HERE, so it doesn't "specifically" apply it's answer to the situation of the boycott; I am copying it over to here, because I had already answered a reader's question "Is this series Erotica" and had JDP or LG or SC had any sense, they would have looked that up and read it BEFORE having their false accusation and hysterics on Kboards.

Google is your friend people, AND the link to this page WAS in my forum signature on KBoards, so, you didn't even have to Google to find out what genre this series was, you could have just used your brain and taken a look at the link in my forum signature which went to the page here about the Quaraun series where this question was posted originally.

I'm just going to repost that answer into this space rather then write up a new answer for this situation. Because my time is valuable, and I don't have free time to waste rewriting something I already wrote months ago. You people may have time to do nothing but sit on the internet post forum posts all day, but I don't, because unlike you, I happen to have a life, outside, in the sunlight, and I choose to live it, so copy & paste time...

It's a fairly long answer (8,000 or so words) and I won't be continueing my answer to the boycott until the end of this one, so you got a lot more reading ahead of you.

I've put coloured bars at the beginning and end of this question & it's answer so you know when it stops and I actually start talking about the boycott. If you have previously read the answer to the question via it's original page, then just scroll down, till you reach the colored bars :

So...I'm confused JDP...

...HOW exactly is it that I am either competing with you or out to get you. THIS... right here... NOW ... on this page ... is the FIRST time I have EVER addressed you. I have never replied to one of your forums posts.

Hey, JDP: Guess what? Ask and it shall be given.

I'm competing with you? Explain HOW you came to that conclusion? Since you were saying that I bought your books and read them to see what in the heck it was I was supposedly in competition with (seeing how I had never heard of you prior to your accusations on KBoards)

You write modern day, urban, fem-lib, lesbian fiction, that has a very serious, angry "I hate every one" pro-bitch, fuck the dick attitude. You HATE men and it is oozing out of every corner of your books.

I write quasi-Medieval torture gorn, featuring gay non-Human dressed like Liberace and acting like Vincent Price. I spent 37 years writing EXACTLY ONE THING: The Twighlight Manor series. Everybody they ain't fucking, they is eating.

So, where is the competition JDP?

modern day vs quasi-Medieval

Nope. Those don't compete.

fem-lib vs torture gorn

Nope. Not there either.

lesbian humans vs gay/transvestite non-humans

Nope. That's not it.

You're characters aren't eating people when they get done fucking them, so it ain't that either.

I don't get it. WHERE is the competition?

You have one book, which, as far as I can tell, is the only book that could possible be seen as competing, it's about zombies. But it's like Walking Dead fanfic, it's not alien flesh eaters from space, so even that doesn't compete with mine.

I'm just baffled by your accusations that I'm supposedly competing with you, especially given that'd I'd never even heard of you until you started attacking me on Kboards.

Are you suggesting that you WANT me to compete with you?

I have Autism, JDP. I live in my own world of pink unicorns that you can't see, how exactly do you expect me to compete with you? You write mainstream white American lifestyle characters. I'm not white, I've never lived in American culture. You write lesbians. What do I know about lesbians? JDP, I write what I know.

I have Autism, I lack the ability to imagine things that are not as they actually are. There is a reason I write gay, transvestite, Autistic, Gypsy characters, who wear pink and live in a world cut off from American culture.

You are not writing ANY of the things I write and I am not writing ANY of the things you write, so I am just utterly baffled as to where you see the competition.

And...I'm out to get you?!? WHAT? I've never even heard of you before. How'd you come up with that stupid conclusion?

JDP...you left Kboards, went to TWO other forums, spread a bunch of rumours and lies about me to wind them into a frenzy. Do you want to know HOW I know you did that? EAF and DDF are private forums and no non-member can see what you say there right?

WRONG!

JDP - I've been building websites since 1997. Here's something to chew on:

 I'm an expert at website building. I know pretty much everything there is to know about SEO and Panda, Penguin, Phantom, etc and... 

I used to teach people how to build websites, you know? in fact, I was in the process of helping the owner of Kboards with the forum's "kerfuffle" with Google. Kboards is in finacial trouble, they needed help with their affilatee links, vs Google. In October 2014, Kboards got hit hard by Panda. I know what is wrong with their website. I know how to fix the problem. I was in the process of telling H.V. HOW to fix the problem when I left Kboard. I deleted those posts too.

JDP, Kboards is in serious deep doo-doo with Penguin. They got hit HARD and if they don't have an expert web analyst advisor to tell them how to get out of Google barnyard shit, Kboards is gonna go offline. They don't have people there, who know how to work around Penguin. I do. I've been doing it for years. I was in the middle of helping H.V. SAVE Kboards from being pulled down off the internet by Google.  If they can't fix the Penguin shit they are in with Google, that site won't last to see 2016. People who know how to fix the problem, charge HUNDREDS of dollars an hour. I was doing it for H.V. for free. Kboards is a flounder sinking fast, not many sites have ever survived being hit by Penguin. What do you think happened to Squidoo?

I write java, Html, all that stuff. I'm better at talking to computers in DOS code and java then I am at talking to people. JDP, how do you think I know how to do things like this:

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I was one of the Squdoo SquidAngels. I'm the Squidoo member with all the beeping, blinking, dancing, wild colored Squidoo lenses because I know how to get into the back door of any website and change it's code.  

JDP, I'm a freaking computer programer and website builder and designer, you idiot! Of course I know every thread you start about me, because I can open my website up, inside out and follow all the traffic  breadcrumbs back to it's origins. I can tell you exact numbers of how many people visited my site from each country. Give me a few minutes and I can come up with their home addresses.

JDP, did you know, I can see ALL your PRIVATE threads of EVERY forum, even the private ones...you know the one that ONLY members can see? Yeah. I can. Every time you start a thread about me, and send "minions" as you like to call them over here to my website, it leaves a trail of breadcrumbs, back to the forum thread you created, which I can open and read, now that you have used it to "ping" my site.

Yeah. JDP, think about. Think LONG and HARD about that.  Your private forum, it's not as private as you think...not when you link to me or any other website owned by a webmaster who actually knows how to do web analytics of their site, it isn't.

Let me tell you something about tracking traffic to your site. EVERY time you post a link, ANYWHERE on any forum, even private access ones, Yes DD, even your forum, it's not as private as you think, every time you post a link, when someone clicks that link and visits that site, a little "tracking device" called a breadcrumb, is slapped onto that site. And the owner of that site, if they know how to do it, can look at the list of all the links EVERYWHERE on the internet that have sent traffic to their site. And they can open those links - even the "private" ones to read what was said, to drive traffic to their site. 

It's called website analysis. EVERY website on the internet does this. 

And it's why, I NEVER link to the site/thread/comment or anyone who's attacking me. Why? Because what you are doing is called link baiting. It means, you attack a website and post links to it on a forum, in hopes, that the website owner, responds, like I'm doing right now, and filled their response with links back to YOUR site.

It's a very common, underhanded, dirty pool, marketing tactic, often used by small websites, to get bigger, more popular websites, to unwittingly drive traffic to their small site.

THAT is why not only, do I NOT link, to your site, but I also,  only post the initials of your name. I'm not only not going to give you link traffic, I ain't giving your keyword search engine traffic either.

So, JDP, while you are unwittingly driving LOTS of traffic to my site, but I'm not stupid enough to send traffic, back to your site. Sorry, but I don't fall for that trick.

Every time my site gets a big spike in traffic, I check the source of the traffic and JDP you are spending an inordinate amount of time obsessing over me and demanding that "minions" rise to your "defense" and boycott me to make your life better, because according to your posts on DDF everything that is going wrong in your life is my fault. YES, JDP, I a non-member can read what you wrote, because you posted a link to my website, allowing me access to read the post that sent traffic to me.

(Did you notice how I never link to the pages that are bashing me? If you want to know why, it's because I have no desire to give their site's traffic. You can read about that HERE.)

JDP. Stop. Just Stop. Think about it for a minute. YOU are the one who attacked ME. You and your 50+ "EAF Erotica Authors" attacked me. And what did it get you? The EAF forum got shut down. Now you don't have a forum to "gather minions" from any more.

Do you see what you did JDP/EA? EAF was shut down because of YOU. Think about it.

So, I'm out to get you am I? I wasn't then, but you know, ask and it shall be given. You WANTED me to talk about you, eh? Well now I am. And hey, guess what, I got a lot more fans then you'll ever have, JDP/EA.

You really didn't know who I was did you?

I feel sorry for you JDP/EA, because no forum troll who's ever attacked EelKat has ever been able to live down that flounder of a mistake.

Who here remembers ---M-O-N-K--- or ED or JB.?

ED was a famous Yahoo forum troll in 2004. He attacked one person after another. He attacked and attacked and attacked and then he targeted EelKat.

---M-O-N-K---  SoapBox 2005. He attacked one person after another. He attacked and attacked and attacked and then he targeted EelKat.

JB went to prison, as did JT, and DK.

Are YOU ready to go to prison JDP/EA? Because if you don't stop harassing me, that where you are going. You see, I don't fight with forum trolls. I contact the FBI and let them deal with the forum trolls. You are sadly mistaken if you think the FBI doesn't already know what you and LG and all your little buddies did. What do you think happened to the EAF forum?

But JDP/EA..as much as you want to be in the limelight, you are NOT the one, I'm mad at. 

No. You are just a small, bitter, angry woman, who hates men and seems to especially hate men who pass for women, and it appears that at it's core, you targeting me because I was a transvestite and it just irked you that I even exist, and you seem to have an extra hatred for the male anatomy and my books glorify male anatomy, so you just went bonkers over it. And I'm used to people like you. The world is full of people like you. You are not the one who got me mad, so you are not the one I am now "out to get" as you put it. No, that award goes to Lisa.

JDP/EA, you will go down in history as yet another forum troll who saw nothing wrong with bullying people who are different from you. You will be forgotten.

LG on the other hand...she's gonna be remembered, because she the member who made me leave Kboards. She's the reason, after 30 years of being freely available online - I took down all of my 1,371 How-To Write articles, which had been cross posted to Kboards. LG will be remembered as the bully who was the straw that broke the camel's back.

It upset me that JDP/EA wrote the posts she wrote. but it wasn't JDP/EA's posts that upset me enough to make me leave Kboards. It was the posts made by another author in response to her post that upset me. JDP/EA over the course of 5,000 forum posts, did attract quite a bit of attention. Several authors posted to ask her why she was making a fool of herself on a public forum. 

Two things upset me: 

#1: The single author who created 52 accounts to argue with all 52 versions of herself, calling me a "retard". I went through the posts and counted 70 times that she called me a retard. She used the term many more times, I simply stopped counting when I reached 70.

This went on for a long time. JDP and the 52 account author started bashing my books and slandering my name in September, and I ignored them responding to none of it. I'm used to being called retarded. I've been called retarded more then 15,000 times in my lifetime. Yes, I do keep track. I have Autism. I keep charts of everything.

What upset me and was the REASON I LEFT KBoards, was one word: pedophile

Thing #2:

LG posted in reply to one of JDP's posts:

"Everyone on Kbords has the moral duty to join me in reporting all of EelKat's posts. Let's get that pedophile off KB."

^^^THAT POST^^^

is why I left KBoards.

Name calling. LG. Really? Is that the highest mental ability your brain has? I'm the one that supposed to be the retard, remember? At yet, you're the one who stoops to name calling. 

You remember that 12 year old girl I mentioned back there. The one who was raped in church by a pedophile priest. She was me. He's the reason I carry a machete today. You don't even want to begin to know my hate filled opinions of pedophiles. How much I loath them. And that lying bitch LG, called me a pedophile. That's why I left KBoards. Because I got tired of that forked-tongue bitch slandering my name. 

You it wasn't that long ago, we Scottish Gypsies still had a law for women like that: lock their heads in bird cage and cut their tongue out. It's no wonder America is so overrun with these sorts of disrespectful, lying, gossiping, busy body women. There are no laws to punish them anymore. Does your husband know the things you say? He ought to be doing something to keep you in line. Good god! American men are such wimps, they can not keep their women in control. You wouldn't see a Gypsy woman flapping her mouth off like that. We know own place.

I ignored the posts calling me retarded. I've been called a retarded my whole life. You get used to it after a while.

I ignored the hacker. When I first discovered the hacker, on October 27, 2014, I spent a week, converting my posts back to their original state... I have Autism, I save copies of everything, I had copies of all my original posts saved. It was an easy enough problem to fix, once I'd discovered it had happened.

But I'm not a pedophile. I'm not anything remotely close to a pedophile. And I take great offence at LG calling me that horrid word.

One November 10, 2014, LG went hysterical posting on several threads. She practically started a riot. Moderator BQ came in and locked her threads and did "forum decorum" edits and warned LG that she could get blocked is she didn't "stop calling people out on the forum".

"Everyone on Kbords has the moral duty to join me in reporting all of EelKat's posts. Let's get that pedophile off KB."

That was what the posts said before BQ edited it out and warned LG to not do it again.

I didn't know LG, she rarely posted in any of the areas I did on KBoards so I rarely ran acrossed her. But when I saw that post, I opened her profile and went to her old posts and started reading them. She had a lot to say...

A LOT. And for a long time. And I don't know why she said any of the things she did about me. 

All I can say, is that LG is very sick, twisted, evil, religion crazed, lunatic. See? I can stoop to your level low-functioning brainlessness and call YOU names too.

Name calling hurts, Lisa. Or hadn't you heard?

There was so much hatred and just one post after another, "calling people to action" falsely accussing me of being a pedphile, and railing out a wild slew of hysterical, crazed, accusations.

Her posts included to say things such as:

"let's dry up her sales"

"we need to kill her career"

"her pedophile books should be banned"

"Let's destroy her career"

"people like her need to be shot in the head"

...and a lot worse...oh a lot worse...she said things, not even I would dream of repeating... she wrote a lot of details about what she thought I did and what she thought I was. I don't see how it was even legal for her to post the things she said. It's a sick, twisted mind that could even think of the things she said.

When you said those things about me LG, you forgot one very important thing: I have Autism, I don't have normal Autism.

I have Savant Autism.

I don't tell lies and play mind games like you do LG because...

I have Savant Autism.

I have one thing I can do extraordinarily well... and guess what that is? I read, I remember, and I can write my thoughts with vivid clarity and even without talking I can tell the world what you did.

I may be too retarded to do a single damned thing else, but I write. I write a lot. And I don't like being bullied. And I'm not gonna sit back and be bullied.

I don't talk, I require help to do everything, but I can write. My mind works, even though my body doesn't.

I can barely feed myself. I need help to use the toilet. Do you have any idea how disabled I am? Where do you get off calling me a pedophile?

I read the 100 most recent posts she had made and then, I just deleted all 1,371 of my How-To Articles (huge articles - most of them 10,000 to 20,000 words each). In my 7 years on KBoards I had devoted a lot of my time to helping new writers get started, including LG. She wouldn't have her writing career had I not written those articles. She is one of the authors who two years ago, attributed her success to me help via KBoards. And she repaid my kindness with making up lies about my sex life and making an active attempt to as she put it "destroy" my career as a writer.

This is a woman who does a lot of name calling. In my experience people who resort to name calling, generally have a very low IQ. I'd like to see your MENSA score, LG. Based on all the name calling you did in your posts, I doubt if you can even top 100.

Name calling is always the first sign of someone with a low IQ.

I've gotten a lot of emails since Nov 11, 2014, asking me to return to Kboards. Asking me to repost all those articles I took down. But you gotta understand something: in addition to Autism, I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder so bad that it is physically crippling. 

I was the victim of a pedophile and if you've never though that, you don't know what it does to your mind. 

My PTSD is very bad. The panic attacks frequently hospitalize me. I can't be around ANYTHING that reminds me of what happened. I can't be around men who wear BRUT cologne, because he did, or SURE deodorant, because he did.

You want to see a panic attack, try to get me in a Mormon church building and watch what happens. How long it takes before the ambulance gets there.

You don't know, how really hard it is for me to even be in the same room with a man. Not even relatives. Not even family. You don't know how bad it is, living with PTSD.

The things LG said, triggered a lot of bad memories. To the point that I had to be hospitalized in critical condition on November 14, 2014. That was a Tuesday and the doctors, didn't expect me to make it to the end of the week.

I had a heart attack and went into septic shock, because of the things LG said. 

My blood pressure was 70/60 and my heart rate 122.

Doctors freaked out because a red stripe showed up on my left arm, from my shoulder to my hand, and the veins on my neck and chest, turned purple and my chest turned blue.

I'm not sure what that meant, I don't know medical stuff, but they said I almost died.

I was still touch and go until December 27, 2014. And it's now February and I'm still not well enough to drive.

Two people died in the war on KBoards already. LG almost made it 3. I'm sorry, but my health is not well enough for me to come back. I can't take the risk of another PTSD attack like that. I barly lived through that one. Doctors say I won't make it through another.

That's why I deleted all of my accounts, everywhere, not just KBoards.

I love talking with my readers.

I love helping other writers.

But I'm not strong enough to do that in the midsts of others being mean and vindictive. It is a matter of life and death now, and as suicidal as I have been in the past, this whole event, this almost dying, did make me realize I don't really want to die, I just want the pain to stop. Beside, I have a 130 part serial to finish. In spite of the people who hate the series, I've got quite a few fans who are eagerly awaiting more of it. I can't very well write it if I'm dead.

As baffled as I was by JDP's weird "FAKE Erotica" vs "REAL Erotica" rants about something that isn't Erotica to begin with...it was nothing compared to my confusion of LG's accusation of calling the books "Pedophile Erotica"...

Wait...what? "Pedophile Erotica"? What in the heck is "Pedophile Erotica"? Good God! Does such a thing even exist? And if it did, how is it even legal? What kind of a sick mind, comes up with something like "Pedophile Erotica" and why am I being accused of writing it?

Christian Paranormal Urban Romance author LG described the Quaraun series as "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn" in her replies to JDP's posts on KBoards. LG then started a thread on KBoards requesting all members join her in "reporting all of EelKat's posts. Let's get that pedophile off KB."

I don't understand why she said the things she said. And I have Autism, so I can't get them out of my head. They just keep replaying in my mind over and over again. They won't stop. That's the curse of living with Autism. You can't control the things you remember and you can forget nothing. They won't go away until you find an answer. It's maddening, trying to live with Autism, when run across something you don't understand.

The thing I don't understand, is what could have possibly have possessed her to say those horrible, mean, vindictive, hate filled things? 

It was LG's posts on KBoards which baffled me most of all and continue to baffle me. Why? Because there are no underaged characters in the Quraun series. Quaraun is 330 years old at the start of the series and Unicorn stopped counting his age after he reached a thousand years old.

Quaraun is a young middle aged Elf. At 330 Elven years, he is about 35 years old where he a Human.

Unicorn is a very old Phookan Faerie, nearing the end of his life. Where he a Human, he'd be about 90 or 100.

Quaraun and Unicorn are the ONLY two characters in The Night of The Screaming Unicorn so, how did LG come to the conclusion that this was  "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn" ?

I can only assume that she was referencing the huge age difference between Quaraun and Unicorn. A Pedophile is an adult over the age of 21 who goes after children under the age of 12. There are NO CHILDREN in this book. The youngest character is 330 years old (equivalent to a 35 year old Human).

An elderly man in his 90s having a sexual relationship with an young man in his 30's is NOT  "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn"  and anyone who thinks it is, really needs to sit down and just read a dictionary.

 The Night of The Screaming Unicornis listed as Dec/May relationship. Is THAT what LG is referring to? Is she so clueless as to what Dec/May means, that she just automatically assumed Dec/May mens an adult with a child?

Dec = old.

May = young.

It DOES NOT mean: Dec = adult or May = child.

The only other thing I can think of that could have inspired her to say these things is the cover art and title of one of the later books in the series: A Baby For The Necromancer (not due out until 2016)

This story, takes place after Quaraun and Unicorn have been together for over a decade and are considered a married couple, in spite of their both being male and living in a culture that does not allow gay marriage. They are able to pass off as a married couple, however, because few people are aware Quaraun is a male (he is a transvestite after all...he wears dresses, make-up, lots of jewelry, and acts like a refined aristocratic lady.)

Quaraun is, throughout the series, very effeminate, very maternal, and acts far more female then most women.

In the early volumes, Quaraun is a Lich Hunter, but in the later volumes, he has given up Lich Hunting for "helping the helpless" and after going through several villages helping families, he starts to act like a broody mother hen wanting to settle down with a family.

Quaraun no longer wants to travel, going on quests and adventures in A Baby For The Necromancer when he and Unicorn stumble across a razed Human village. 

(Keep in mind at this point, that the original FanFicion.net story I had written was a Lord sesshomaru fanfic, and Quaraun was Sesshomaru in the original. If you know the InuYasha story which Sesshomaru comes from, then you know what happens next in the Quaraun series starting with A Baby For The Necromancer )

They at first assume everyone dead, but in looking for survivors they find a Human baby still alive, which they adopt and raise as their daughter. This will be the first volume with the third primary character Pippiyata.

The remainder of the story (which as of today February 21, 2015 is at 22,000 words), is their struggle to keep the baby, when in the next village they enter, they are accused of having kidnapped her.  This event results in the injury which cripples Quaraun for the rest of his life and resulting in their settling down in a pink castle.

There are no sex scenes in this volume at all, and the story focuses largely on the struggles of a gay couple trying to adopt a baby in a society that would really like to just execute them and be rid of them. This story is inspired by actual events from my own life: we've been trying to adopt a baby for close to 20 years now and are continually denied because our lifestyle isn't "normal".

There is no "Pedophile Erotica" or "child porn" in this or any other book in the Quaraun series and I am very upset by LG's false accusations about what she just ASSUMES my books to be. 

It is obvious she has never read my books and was jumping to conclusions based on the fact that she has no clue what Dec/May relationship means, saw a book that mentioned "baby" in the title and showed a crib on the cover, and saw JDP falsely calling the series Erotica. She just jumbled her misconceptions and misinformation together and ran around flapping her lying mouth off without ever once stopping to think about the consequences of her actions.

And there were consequences:

LG: You caused a lot of problems for me. You really did. Because you lied and ran all over the internet posting comments saying that this book was what you called  "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn", hundreds of random strangers started emailing nasty hate mail and death threats to me. One of them showed up in my yard and threatened to kill me and my family.

LG: Because of your lies, falsely calling me the author of  "Pedophile Erotica" and "Child Porn", vandals showed up in my yard to dump SEVEN 18-wheel crate-dump trucks of tires and pallets in my yard, which the town is fining me $15,000 for!

LOOK at what they did to our farm Lisa!

LOOK at what your busy-body, gossiping lies did:

Do you see that picture? That brook is our drinking water. We can't drink it anymore because of the oil leaching off the telephone poles that they dumped in it. 

Do you see that picture? There are so many smashed wood pallets against the door of out outhouse that we don't have a place to piss or take a dump anymore?

JDP/EA? LG? Do you SEE what YOU did to my family?

We were still harvesting our crops. Thousands of dollars of crops were destroyed by those trucks. People dumped garbage on our land, because you two lied online about me, told people I was "garbage" so one of the people who read your lies, got it into their head to dump garbage on our land.

And the thought did occur to me that LG had "other" reason for saying what she said.

People don't like transvestites. It's easier for most people to tolerate an Autistic or a Gypsy, then a transvestite.

It's also not uncommon in Christian communities, for Christian women, to use the word pedophile as synonymous with the words transvestite or gay.

I can find no reason, why she said this about me or my books, and am left to the conclusion that because she is a narrow-minded super Christina, she doesn't know the difference between the words pedophile and transvestite.

Yeah.

Just one more stereotype I have to live with because people are too stupid to know what words actually mean.

In a strange twist, on October 28, 2014 mega-bestseller Erotica author, SC joined JDP and LG, and began emailing me threats saying that "Gypsy scum doesn't deserve to live" and "we don't want your kind on our forum". And oddly, her ISP is the same ISP as one of the two ISPs that were used to hack my KBoards account. The other ISP was local. VERY local. In Biddeford, Maine less the 5 miles from my home.

Evidence now suggests that it was long time (local) stalker (unpublished author wannabe) Kendra The Silver Salamander, who then joined the band wagon by creating 52 fake accounts and using one of them to hack my KBoards account, and change all of my posts into utter chaotic raving madness, as only K/SS can do best. (This is not the first time she has hacked one of my accounts. I don't know how long this woman has been stalking me, I first became aware of it in October 2006.)  (You really need to stop harassing me Kendra. This has been going on for 9 years and I'm really getting sick of you invading my life every October. Who the hell are you? What is your freaking problem? Do you not have a life? Do you really have nothing better to do than harass me year after year after year after year? I am so damned sick of you popping up in my life every October. GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE AND LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU SICK FILTHY PIECE OF SHIT! There is really something seriously wrong with you Kendra, I am tired of you stalking me.)

This woman shows up at my home, shows up at restaurants and cafes when I am eating, shows up at the library when I am studying,  in 2012 she showed up at college and slashed my tires. She has long strawberry blond red wavy hair, is about 50/60 years old and wears big "Janis Joplin" style glasses, and carries a white poodle that she dyed purple; she believes the dog to be a dragon. We don't know her real name, but she calls herself Kendra The Silver Salamander. She claims her father owns FunTown SplashTown (this is not true, I know the people who do own the park).  She has a deep hatred for all published authors, claiming they are only published because they used psychic powers to suck ideas out of her head; she says this is why she is still unpublished, because all the published authors won't stop tapping into her brain. She appears to have serious mental health issues.  She talks to herself, repeating single phrases over and over again. "It's my turn to shine!" being her most commonly repeated phrase. She has a volatile temper and is prone to wild screaming fits while shaking her dog in your face. She is wanted in connection with the grease fryer bomb that blew up my house and left both myself and my dad crippled, in October 2006.

K/SS has no ability to grasp the fact that I am seriously disabled, and has, every October since 2006, staged anti-EelKat protests on NaNoWriMo, making wild (and false) claims about my life and my lifestyle. She is of the opinion that I am a millionaire. She believes I live in not one, but three mansions, she believes I drive several Rolls Royces.

Though she has accosted me on several occasions in various public places, she has never seen me standing or walking and is clueless to the fact that since the bombing of my house in 2006 I am crippled, I wear a leg brace, a back brace, 2 arm braces, 2 ankle braces, and walk with a cane, usually requiring the assistance of another person to sit and stand. Each time she has attacked me in person, I have been seated at a desk in a library or a table in a restaurant.

Likewise, she seems to be unaware of my Autism, or at least, the fact that I don't talk and must write/type my words to communicate with people. While I can talk, few Americans are able to understand my speech, as I have a Native Maine accent and speak Scottish English, and because of my Autism the words are jumbled and spoken very fast. As such, K/SS has never heard me speak. 

This however, has not stopped her from starting threads on the NaNoWriMo forum, every year, to "warn" people of several various accusations, depending on her moods, and usually include such phrases as "I heard EelKat say..." or "When EelKat was walking to..."

I can neither talk, nor walk. K/SS has a bad habit of telling a LOT of lies about me. And she does this EVERY October. I'm not sure how long she's been doing it. I only found out about her during the  investigation of the bombing of my house in 2006, when she had been posting "I wish someone would kill EelKat for me". A thread on which commenters joked about building a bomb, 8 days before someone put a bomb in my house. One of the commenters, went to prison. He built the bomb on K/SS's request. 

While I had been a member of NaNoWriMo since 2004, I had never been on their forum, before 2006, because I was unaware there was a forum. 

I was not aware of K/SS's continued anti-EelKat threads until 2 years later, when another NaNoWriMo member asked me, if I had seen the threads one of the MLs made each year, publically bashing my name. That was when I learned that NaNoWriMo had a separate forum for each state and the first time I visited the State of Maine forum of NaNoWriMo.

Who this woman is and why she was harassing me, I don't. 

I don't know why she follows me around both online and offline.

She is extremely obsessed with me and I don't why.

If you know the identity of this woman, please forward her information to the FBI. She has put me and my family through 9 years of hell.

Given the nature and time (October) of the attack of KBoards, evidence suggests that K/SS is the one who hacked my account. Evidence also suggests that K/SS most likely hacked JDP, LG, and SC's accounts as well.

I do not know if JDP, LG, or SC are even aware of what happened on Kboards, via their accounts. I contacted them to alert them what was going on and they did not reply.

But it was October and it was the first October that K/SS did not attack me on NaNoWriMo, which suggests it her attack on Kboards, via other people's accounts.

Especially given that one of JDP's posts said: "It's my turn to shine" and most of JDPs attack was claiming I was in competition with her, which is in fact K/SS's most frequent accusation used in her NaNoWriMo posts. 

And the fact that the hacker, used my Gypsy ancestry and made lots of references to my being retarded, and targeted my books with October publication dates. All things with K/SS has done, every October since at least 2006.

Plus the hacker went wild, trying to "back up" JDP's accusations, but posting via my account, lots of wild "I'm a millionaire" braggings. Making it very obvious that both my account's posts and JDP's account's posts were being written by the same hacker.

Kendra don't seem to understand that an adult with Autism, can't take care of themselves. They can't get jobs, because no one will hire them. I average 400 job applications a year, every year for more then 20 years now. I write for a living because I don't have any other option, and contrary to what other authors have said about me, I've never made more then $2,000 in a single year. Not once in my entire life.  YES, my TOTAL yearly income is LESS THAN the average person's MONTHLY income.

And the $2,000 thats the MOST, a lot of years it's only $1,000, and I've had several years under $600. Yeah, $50 a month. It was okay when I had a house, but a grease fryer bomb took the house, and now because of the Kboards Incident, if I don't come up with $15,000 before April 2015, to pay for the clean up cost of the vandalism damages, the town says they are going to take the land. The land's all I have. I don't even have enough money to buy, food, I'm only surviving because I farm the land. I'll starve to death if they take the land. The people on KBoards, they don't know what they did. I don't have a place to park the motorhome if they take the land and I don't have enough money to put gas in the motorhome to move it. I don't even make $2,000 a year and I need $15,000 in less then 60 days.

And these people don't even care, that they've done this to me, because I have Autism and to them, I'm not worth living. I mean, they want me dead. They said that. They said "people like her should be shot in the head". That's the kind of people I'm dealing with here.

I don't know who this Kendra person is, or what her problem is, or why she is so hung up on me, but she has staged one of these weird online and offline freak-out attacks every single October since 2006.

If anybody reading this knows who this Kendra person is, PLEASE, forward her information to the FBI. She IS wanted in connection to the attempted murder of my family, via a grease fryer bomber, which was put in our house October 2006. That was the first time we were "introduced" to this Kendra person. She has been stalking my family for 9 years. She was the one posting death threats on the NaNoWriMo forum, requesting that someone kill me, days before the grease fryer bomb was put in our house. Both my and my father are crippled and can no longer walk unaided because of the bomb.

I have been homeless and living under a 8x6 tarp, ever since Kendra and the grease fryer bomb that blew up our house October 2006. Yes, even during winter, snow, and blizzards. 

The bomb resulted in $3million in medical bills, which are still not yet paid and that is why I have been unable to rebuild a house these past 8 years.

I have contacted all 4 of these authors asking why they chose to attack my books in the way that they did, but only Kendra responded and she's quite proud of what she did. As usual she says "It's my turn to shine!"  as her reason  for what she did. JDP, LG, and SC have refused to comment on their harassment, cyber bullying,  stalking, trolling, offline vandalisms, drive by shootings, and death threats.

I don't understand people who do things like this. What is the point? What is their motive? What is their goal? What drives them to do this sort of thing? I don't get it at all. It makes no sense to me on any level whatsoever. 

And how does somebody have enough free time to spend that much time doing this sort of thing? Do they really have nothing else to do? Are their lives that empty that the only thing they can find to do is harass people via the internet?

Jolie: What the fuck? 5,000 forum posts about how much you hate me? What the friggin fuck? 5,000 forum posts? In less then a month? Are you just online 24 hours a day?  Are you completely insane? God, I so gotta make you into a character for the Quaraun series.  I feel so sorry for you. To have that much time on your hands, you must be so lonely. You have absolutely no one in your life do you? You know what, maybe, instead of of trolling forums and raving insanity at fellow authors, you should try turning the computer off once in a while and going outside, maybe meet a person. You have heard of Humans before right? You know other people like yourself. Outside. In the sunlight. 

Lisa: What the fuck? Please tell me what denomination your holier than thou ass strolled out of so I can be sure never to attend one of it's church services. Good God! Have you ever even read the Bible? TIP: Try Proverbs, especially that bit about the evil woman who ran from house to house, gossiping. NEWSFLASH SugarPlum: I'm an ordained minster, with a church and congregation, I'm turning what you did into a sermon, on wolves in sheep's clothing, who PRETEND to be Christian, while committing the sin of busy-body, gossiping, spreading of falsehoods and telling lies. HOW DARE YOU! You despicable piece of shit. Next time you feel like calling somebody a pedophile, find out who they are.  You vile bitch, may you burn forever in Hell. I was a victim of child rape. There isn't anything on this planet I hate worse then a pedophile.

Kendra:  Go jump off a cliff. Please. Shoot yourself. Drown yourself. Hang yourself. I don't care. Hey, here's one, next time you hire somebody to build a bomb, blow yourself up. Yeah, I'm extra pissed at you. I used to have bum leangth hair. But you know how it is with bombs. I wear wigs now, and I had to have plastic surgery to reconstruct my face. It's why there are no close up photos of me since the bomb that blew up my house and left my dad in a coma. I am so sick of you. Every single October for 9 years, there you are, in my life. And I have no idea who you are or where you came from. Kendra, normal people don't do things like this. Nine friggin years? Really? Do you even have a life? Are you EVER not online stalking me? Are you ever going to stop showing up at my house, at my friends houses, and my relatives house? Will you find somebody else to obsess over for a change? What the hell is wrong with you?

Scarlett: Hitler is dead. You know that right? It's illegal to murder Gypsies now. Or hadn't you heard? It's also illegal to threaten to kill Gypsies. But hey, wave that white power flag high as you want. You can just kiss my non-white Scottish ass. I should probably go put on my kilt so I can moon you better, eh? What is you hate more? That I'm Scottish or that I'm a Gypsy?

Initially when this first happened, I gave them the benefit of the doubt, assuming that whoever had hacked my KB account had likewise hacked their accounts. This was why I contacted them, to alert them to the fact that my KB account had been hijacked and I suspected their accounts had been hijacked as well.

HOWEVER...JDP has posted the same attacks on at least 3 other forums that I am aware of, indicating that she is in fact the person behind her KBoards posts. And the stuff she says, is so similar to the stuff Kendra says, that I'm starting to wonder if JDP is not just YET ANOTHER of Kendra's many accounts.

Were JDP/EA, LG, and SC's accounts hacked? Did the person who hacked my account, also hack their's and use their accounts to attack me without their knowledge? Or was it really JDP/EA, LG, and SC doing these things? I don't know. Like I said, I contacted them and asked: Were you the one who said these false accusations about me and my books, or was someone hacking your account and pretending to be you and using your account without your permission, to say those things?

Like I said, there was a hacker on the loose. My account was hacked and posting stuff without my knowledge or consent. I was not online when this happened: I was in the hospital having surgery. I was still in the hospital recovering from surgery when an offline friend visited me and asked me what the fuck had happened to my KBoards account. It was the reason I logged back into KBoards on Nov 11, 2014 and deleted everything.

More than 50 newly created anonymous ID accounts were created in September, all in the space of 3 days. Every one of those accounts claimed to be what they called "an EAF Erotica Author" - those are the 50+ accounts that did the most damage, to the most authors.

There were 3 other "named" authors involved in the attacks on my and my books, they did contact me back: they had no knowledge of what was going on at KBoards, they had not logged into their accounts in over a year. Their accounts, where also saying things. They were members who had left KBoards in 2013, and had suddenly appeared back on KBoards all the same week. (Several long time members commented on why so many old long gone members returned the same week.) Their accounts were hijacked and being used by a hacker to attack other authors, without their consent or knowledge. So it does remain a possibility that JDP/EA, LG, and SC themselves were not responsible for what was said via their accounts during these attacks.

However, they did not respond. Which leads me to believe that their accounts were NOT hacked and it WAS them saying those things about me, otherwise, they would have responded to deny their involvement in the KBoards Incident. If they were innocent of these crimes, they would have responded to clear their name, for only the guilty have reason to hide.

Whoever did it: either the authors whose names were listed on the accounts in question, the a hacker who hijacked said accounts: it doesn't change the fact, that is what a very violent incident and 2 authors died, others were physically injured in in physical offline attacks, some lost their careers and incomes, and many were terribly terrorized and traumatized. 

Who the person(s) was behind this attack on these authors, they need to be held responsible for their actions and made and example of, so that something like this never happens again, not on Kboards, nor any other forum.

If you did do these things, what you did was despicable, I want an apology from each of you, published just as widespread and vehemently public, as you posted your lies about me. And: you owe the Town of Old Orchard Beach, Maine $15,000  in clean up costs, to removed the 12' tall, 30' wide, 175' long pile of garbage that is now sitting in our yard.

If you did not do these things and someone else used your accounts to do them, what they did was despicable, it is your responsibility, to find out who it was who impersonated you and used your accounts to do these things, and help me take them to court, because they  owe the Town of Old Orchard Beach, Maine $15,000  in clean up costs, to removed the 12' tall, 30' wide, 175' long pile of garbage that is now sitting in our yard.

I think one of the problems with these people is, they don't see me in person. they only know me online, and they are deceived by the fact that I can type my words to "talk" coherently, and I'm an adult, so they don't stop and think what my having Autism means. 

They think I must have Aspergers and just be a normal person with quirks.

Because I can type they don't think I'm actually Autistic.

Because I'm an adult, they don't think I could possibly have real Autism.

One of those forum trolls even said that.

He said "You aren't ACTUALLY Autistic. They can't communicate. They can't think."

Another said: "You don't have REAL Autism, like my son has, you only have Aspergers."

And what do they judge that by? My books. My articles. My forum posts. They think because I can type and because I'm an adult, that I'm not Autistic.

NEWSFLASH: When you're son reaches 18, he's still gonna be Autistic.

A lot of people see Autism as a childhood illness. There's all kinds of help for parents of autism, and teachers of autism, and day care providers of autism but soon as that autistic child turns 18, that it's. Their are done. There's no more help for them, like POOF the Autism went away because they are adults.

People don't seem to understand that an adult with Autism, can't take care of themselves. They can't get jobs, because no one will hire them. I average 400 job applications a year, every year for more then 20 years now.

And why will no one hire me? Have you ever seen the movie Rainman? People don't hire me because I am like THIS:

I talk just like that^^^

I act just like that ^^^

I rock when I stand just like that^^^

I write for a living because I don't have any other option, and contrary to what other authors have said about me, I've never made more then $2,000 in a single year. Not once in my entire life.  YES, my TOTAL yearly income is LESS THAN the average person's MONTHLY income.

And the $2,000 thats the MOST, a lot of years it's only $1,000, and I've had several years under $600. Yeah, $50 a month. 

It was okay when I had a house, but a grease fryer bomb took the house, and now because of the Kboards Incident, if I don't come up with $15,000 before April 2015, to pay for the clean up cost of the vandalism damages, the town says they are going to take the land. The land's all I have. I don't even have enough money to buy, food, I'm only surviving because I farm the land. I'll starve to death if they take the land. The people on KBoards, they don't know what they did. I don't have a place to park the motorhome if they take the land and I don't have enough money to put gas in the motorhome to move it. I don't even make $2,000 a year and I need $15,000 in less then 60 days.

And these people don't even care, that they've done this to me, because I have Autism and to them, I'm not worth living. I mean, they want me dead. They said that. They said "people like her should be shot in the head". That's the kind of people I'm dealing with here.

I have Autism, so they think doing this sort of thing is okay. They think I don't have feelings, or I'm too stupid to know what they are doing. They don't think I'm hurt by what they do.  When they get done bullying me they have friend they can go off with. I have a dog, a rabbit, and 14 cats,  and a husband in his 70s who has alzheimer's and it's been 13 years since he remembered he had a wife. It's a good day when he remembers my name. He was my primary caretaker and no I'm his. I require 24 hour adult supervision. I've been without a caretaker for several years now. It's been 8 years since I had daily meals. Or really meals at all. I can make a SubWay sandwich last 5 day, because I have to. I'll end up 4 days  without food at all if I don't.

The thing is...no one cares. No one. Not one single person on the entire planet. There are 368 people in my family. There is an aunt with 8 husbands and an uncle with 5 wives. I have an uncle who makes $2million dollars a year. My mother was #8 of 11 surviving children (there were 12 born alive and 3 stillborns.) 10 of the 11 had at least 4 children each wife, though most had more then 6 each wife. I have an aunt who gave birth to 15 children. I have 64 first cousins, each of whom has 2 to 12 children per wife. Yeah. There are 368 people in my family and every one of them knows how I live and why. I have Autism so they don't care. In their own words I am "the child of Satan", they believe that Autism is demon possession.

Of course about half of them also believe HaleBop would take them to heaven. They are members of a group called Heaven's Gate. My extended family has been involved in 5 murder-suicides. A group of them kills themselves every time a comet flies over head. Usually it's only 4 or 5 people at a time. 37 people died in the biggest one though. They are now waiting scientists to discover a comet called Wormword. They say all the other comets were the wrong ones and Wormwood is the one they are waiting for next. If scientists ever find a comet named Wormwood, there'll be about 200 people die next time.

I survived one murder-suicide when I was 14. It's why I have no contact with any of them any more. They are crazy and I don't want to be around people who think it's okay to put poison in your drinks. I don't like them, even if they are family. They really scare me a lot. I don't like watching people die. I don't want to watch people die again, that why I'm glad, they don't help me, because I know what they are like. If they helped me, they'd use that against me to take my freedom away.

I may not have a house, or a normal income, or enough food to eat, but I have my freedom. They nailed the windows shut and put boards over them and put locks up and down the outside of the door. I don't like being put in a room with nailed windows and locks on the door. I don't ever want to live with them again. It is very hard to live on my own, without caretakers, but I will NEVER go back to them.

Do you know what Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is like? It's worse then the Autism.

Do you know, that when I was a kid, I used to drink Kool-Aid. Tang was my favorite drink.

Did you know that I as hard as cooking for myself is for me, that since I was 14, I've not allowed ANYONE to touch my food. I won't eat food they made. I won't eat food they've bought. I buy my food, separate, and I keep it locked in the car. I'm the only one with a  key to that car.

They poison the drink mix power. I have a massive phobia of powder, drink mix, colored drinks. Since I was 14, I haven't drunk anything but water. Did you know, that my phobia of of someone poisoning my drink is so bad today that if you even look at my drink, I'll dump it out. You don't even have to touch it. And I won't accept a drink from anyone. No one. I bring an outside drink with me to restaurants, because I can't even buy a drink at a restaurant. It's that bad. That's what being the survivor of a murder-suicide did to me.

You want to see the room? Oh yes. I have pictures. I have pictures of everything. My grandmother gave me a camera, the relatives didn't know I had it. I kept it hidden under my skirts. I have pictures of everything they did.

The boarded up window.

The floor below the boarded up window aka "my bed".

And a few of the many locks on the doors (the door with windows - that's bulletproof plexi-glass) 

When you tell me, that you can't help me, because I have 368 people in my family, and I have to ask THEM...you are telling me, to go to people who did THAT^ to me. 

I took those pictures in 2010. I did go to them for help. In their minds. I have Autism, and therefor I belong in that room, begging god for forgiveness. Begging god to remove my demon. They believe I have a demon in me. That's what they think Autism is. I'm in my 40s. They were locking me in that room as recent as 5 years ago.

In the Quaraun book, Quaraun tells Unicorn about how his uncle locked him in a room for days without food or water. I can write scenes like that because they happened to me and I know what it feels like to be alone and sared in a room with no light and windows boarded up and nailed shut, and 5 padlocks on the outside of the door, and sitting on the floor for days, being terrified. I can write Quaraun's fear, because it was my fear. I felt it.

I know what it feels like to have people in your life, that you think, love you, and then have them turn their backs on you and turn out to be nothing but self serving monster incapable of loving anyone.

Whenever people find out how I live and they ask "Don't you have relatives, can't you get them to help you?" They don't understand what my relatives are like. You don't know what the Heaven's Gate group is like if you've never lived with them. You don't know what it's like living with people who believe that sickness and disease are demon possession. You don't know what it is like living with people who think God is an alien living on Planet Kolob and are waiting for him to send a comet to take them to Kolob. You have no idea how terrifying it is, every time the news announces a new comet in the sky, and all you can do is sit there and watch people around you killing themselves and each other and threatening to kill you. They've done it 5 times now. And they are geared up and ready to go out 200 people strong if WormWood ever gets here.

Do you want to know what kind of people my relatives are?

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The clan is divided today, there's not 368 in a single group now. 200 of them left and went to Bangor. I'm glad they left, they were the Heaven's Gate members. It's been nice and peaceful, since they've been gone. They went to Bangor in 1997, after the big HaleBop event. They are waiting for Wormwood, they said HaleBop was the wrong one. That's why not everyone from Heaven's Gate is dead. Only a few of them actually believed  HaleBop was the right comet. They went to Bangor, because they claim, that by filming Thinner in our yard here in Old orchard, that Stephen Kings gave them an open invitation to squat in the woods behind his house, and Maine squatting laws say that if you live on land for 20 years, it's yours, and they are fast approaching 20 years. They'll own that land soon. Those of us still in Old Orchard, we are very glad the clan is divided now and we hope we never see the ones that now live in Bangor, ever again. If you ever want to see them, go to Bangor, find Paul Bunyan, drive til you get to the grocery store, turn, drive til you get to Stephen King' house, keep going until you find a dirt road, follow it until the road ends. Get out of your car and start walk - don't plan on the car being there when you get back,  it'll be stripped to the frame and all the parts sold by the time you come back - keep walking, for about 20 minutes, into the deepest, forest you've ever seen...you will know when you get there. They'll see you before you see them, and you better pray you can outrun their guns. I'm not sure if they still have the guns - very illegal military guns - the compound was raided about 2 years ago. Police. FBI.

The FBI calls them "The Scottish Traveller Crime Family of America" - I mentioned we were Gypsies, right?

The FBI took their guns and about 30 children out of there, several of my first cousin went to prison.  The ones not in prison have been sending me death threats via FaceBook ever since. You've seen them. I know you guys have because several of you have been commenting on them. They are my cousins.  While they are on FaceBook, they live in a gated compound with barb wire separating them from the world, there no houses on the compound, they live in cars, trucks, a horse trailer, tents. They wouldn't know what to do with a house. They have a bunch of old discarded mobile home trail park houses, they are not water tight. The rooms they lock children in are in those.  

Sometimes they lock them in old rusty oil barrels with only a small pinhole in the cover for air. Ask me how I know. Ever notice all the "iron maiden" scenes in the Twighlight Manor series, told from the point of view of the Autistic character who is locked INSIDE? Yeah. I know what that's like too.

My family is insane. How's yours?

They don't understand that all those death threats they keep posting on my FaceBook wall are being read by so many people. They can't even begin to comprehend how many people there are in the world. They also don't comprehend, that all those death threats are illegal, just like they don't see anything wrong with breed cats and dogs for food. Oh yes. They started doing that, 3 months ago.

Our clan was still practicing cannibalism in 1937. My grandfather used to joke and say that he was still doing it in the 1950s. The group in Bangor... each wife has 10 to 15 children, but they don't have that many adults. The children never grow up in that group. They don't report the births. They don't go to hospitals. One woman claims to have given birth to 26 children. Where are they? That was in the 1970s. I meet the children, I saw them. I know she had 26 children. I talked to them. Children never reach adulthood in that group. The adults, say Silence of the Lambs is their favorite movie. They make jokes about eating babies and children all the time.

That's why I write about cannibals. I grew up with people who had practiced cannibalism. My grandfather used to talk about how snapping babies necks was easier then snapping the neck of a rabbit. He said they tasted like pork.

That's why I'm a vegetarian. I stopped eating meat after Grammy Helen died. I never trusted meat to not be someone I knew again. At her funeral, they were not upset that she died, they upset that she was dead so long, that they couldn't eat her. That's what they said at her funeral.

I'm the one who reported them to the FBI. They call me a traitor, because they say I should be putting family first. But, I don't think locking children in rooms with boarded up windows  and threatening to eat them, counts as "putting family first". Even if their aren't eating people, they don't stop talking about it. And they terrorize those children with it. The children have firk shaped scars from being stabbed with forks.

One uncle would hold your arm down, while another uncle would stab a fork into your arm, then take a steak knife and start sawing your arm, between the fork tines. I have scars on my arm, from them doing that to me.

That's what my uncles are like. That's why in the Twighlight Manor series I wrote Roderic, being tortured like that by his uncles. That's why in the Quaraun series, I write Quaraun being tortured like that by his uncle.

That's why they send me death threats on FaceBook. Because when I went to Bangor, to visit them and saw them doing to their children the same things they had done to me 40 years ago,   I forwarded all my photographs to the FBI and told them how to find the Bangor compound. The FBI took all their guns and all their children and some of them went to prison.

I don't care if they were family. They were hurting children and that's wrong. Bullies MUST be stopped. It doesn't matter who they are.

Stabbing a child with a fork and threatening to eat them, is bullying. I told them that. And I told them if they didn't stop I'd tell the FBI. They didn't believe me. They laughed.

But I did. And they took them away, and I can find a song for ANY occasion...here's another song I used to play on my 45 player, that is very appropriate for the topic at hand:

(Ask me about record collection. It's nearly as big as my book collection.)

They said: "Oh they know we are just teasing. They know we won't eat them."

I look at the child. Bawling his eyes out, with blood dripping down his arm. Wounded and terrified. You don't do things like that to a 4 year old! They don't know you are teasing! All they know is you just stabbed with a fork and said you were gonna eat them. The child is standing there with blood dripping from a fork wound. You should be taking them to the hospital to get stitches, and you don't even give them a band-aid. Why?

I asked. Do you know what he said?

"Well, my dad did worse then that to me, and I lived. I didn't need no band-aids."

Oh yes. I remember your father. David Henry Atwater, Chief Patriarch of The Royal Highland Clan. King of the Gypsies. Applewhite's buddy-buddy. Living out their in "The Kingdom" (his term for Salt Lake City.) I remember him and the things he did. I survived his little visit here to Maine. Remember? Five others didn't though, did they. They died. Horribly. I wasn't supposed to live. REMEMBER. My parents called the police on you people, and the police got there, before I died. I was only 14 years old, but I have Autism. I never forgot. I'll never forget. Your father. Your evil, evil, MONSTER of a father. They tortured me. They tortured my 5 friends. The police interrupted them, so I lived. And you hate that I know. 

That's child abuse! And just because your father did it to you, doesn't make it right to do it to your children too! You bastards from Hell! How dare you hurt a child!

Your father abused me too, remember? I know what he was like. My grandfather, your father, he was a monster. A vile, sick, perverted monster. He put me in the trunk of a car. Canton, Maine. OMG! The pile of bones. HUNDREDS and HUNDREDS of bones. Piles and piles and piles of them. Everywhere. Piles of bones, taller then me. Six foot tall piles of bones. Leg bones. Arm bones.  I was there in Canton Lake, Canton, Maine. I saw what he did. I was almost added to that piles of bones. They were going to kill me too. My bones almost ended up there in those piles, if the police hadn't arrived. I know what he put you through. I know what he did to you. He did the same thing to me! Your father was a monster, and he should have been in prison. 

How dare you, carry on his legacy of child abuse, when you yourself was abused. You know what it felt like, how dare you put your own children through that. I'm not going to let you hurt those children, just because that's what your father did to you. He did it to me too.

I was abused by you people, and I remember how much it hurt. I will NEVER allow you to hurt another child.

I will do everything in my power to stop EVERY bully EVERYWHERE. Family. Stranger. Online. Offline. I don't care.

If you are a bully: YOU ARE EVIL!

You destroy lives!

Family or not, a bully is a bully. Bullies are people who hurt other people on purpose, because they think it is fun to do. Because they don't care about hurting people.

It's wrong.  Hurting people is wrong!

That is the reason you see Gypsies in Maine making a distinction of who they are, why say things like "We are the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach, The Ricker Clan"

David Henry Atwater and George Ricker, lead two rival Gypsy clans. For over 100 years they have feuded. The Rickers have lived on the land in Old Orchard since 1530. The Atwaters "claim" to be Scottish, but they also "claim" to be descended from Daivd Henry Atwater (1600s) of Kent, England.  The Scottish Gypsies are very short. All of the Atwaters, men and women are over 6 feet tall. They do not disassemble Scottish Gypsies at all. They immigrants to Nova Scotia in the 1830s.  They were boat dwelling Gypsies back them, living on a Junk with blue sails, they made a living by stealing food off merchant ships and selling it to small towns up and down the coast.

In the 1890s/1920s, led by my Grandfather David Henry Atwater (and his father Henry Morris Atwater, and his grandfather Capt John H. Drake) they became bootleggers, they made moonshine in Nova Scotia, boarded it on the blue sailed Junk and dropped the cases into the water off the end of the Old Orchard Beach Pier. The pick up person would fish the crates out, go to Palace Playland, unscrew the tails of the merry go round horses and hide the bottles inside the horses, until Honey Fizt came up from Boston, to buy the moonshine.

My grandfather had a coat, a big full length mink, it was big enough for a 200lb man to wear, and he was really skinny. Inside of the coat, was a double lining. When he unzipped the lining, it was rows of pockets inside. On the nights Honey Fitz came up from Boston, Grandpa would unscrew the tails of the carousel horses, take the bottles out, put them in the many, many pockets of his coat and walk across town to the meeting place, wherever it was that night.

He had a Robin's Egg blue car, and when the government came to try to catch the Canadian Gypsy bootleggers, they chased grandpa driving that car, all the way back to Canada. 

Because they were Gypsies and the Ricker's were also Gypsies, the American government assumed we know them. At the the time we didn't. But that is what started the feud.

In the 1940s The Atwaters left Canada for Canton, Maine. That's where the original compound was and whenever they continue to have their "meetings". 

In the 1960s The Atwaters invaded Old Orchard Beach, fully armed in an all out war on the town. They claimed they were taking over the town, and the end result was, in 1968, police officers from dozens of towns, and the entire state police force, and several military men (marines people said) came to Old Orchard Beach, gather up the Atwater Clan, all the Romanies, and all the Irish Travellers, about 600 families all together and marched them at gun point out of the state. When they reach New Hampshire, they were meet by most of that's police force, who marched them across New Hampshire, until they reached Vermont. At the Vermont border they were meet by Vermont police. They march across the country in this fashion, until they reached the first to NOT great them with an army of cops: Utah. They settled in Ogden, Utah. It was shortly after this that my grandfather meet Applewhite.

Not all of the Atwaters ended up in Utah. One of the Atwater girls defied her father and married one of the Ricker boys. They were my parents. The violent and hysterical Atwaters were infuriated. They waged war on the Rickers. The feud known as 458. When I was born, the first child to be both Ricker and Atwater, the battles got worse. When I was 3, people started to realize something was really wrong with me. When I was 4, three of the Atwater uncles, began  their verbal abuse of me. 

Because of the joining of two clans (Gypsies rarely marry outside their clan) their were now two Matriarchs: Grammy Helen Ricker and Grammy Eva Atwater.

Grammy Helen, was against the feud. Grammy Eva, who was an Autistic Kickapoo Native american Indian, was terrified of the feud. My two grammies banded together against the Atwater men, and they are the only reason I reached adulthood. Because of my Autism, Grammy Helen (who was EXTREMELY Scottish and spoke Gaelic and is the reason I have the accent I have) decided I was "Faerie Sighted" and at 3 years old, began teaching me all the plants of the yard, all the spirits of each plant, and all their uses. 

Grammy Helen declared that I was going to be the next Matriauch and trained me for that. The Atwaters responded to call her a witch and to say that she was teaching me witchcraft. Their mother Grammy Eva, responded to help Grammy Helen, declaring, that I would replace BOTH Matriarchs, uniting the two clans under one queen. Grammy Eva, is the one who named me "EelKat" when I was 3, because I had a "strange" infatuation or connect to eels and cats. She said they were my spirit animals. "Empress EelKat" is how both Grammies referred to me, whenever the Atwater men were around. They did that to annoy them.  They called me "Wendy" otherwise.

Grammy Helen died when I was 8, Grammie Eva when I was 17. My Atwater uncles became very violent after that. They think nothing of hitting me, punching me, breaking my arm, beating me with rocks. 

David is the worst. David, son of David, whose son and grandson are both David, he's the Patriarch of the Bangor compound.

There is a David A., David B, David C, David D, David E, etc. It's hard to count how many child the Bangor Atwaters have, because they have a son and name him David and then they have another and name David, and another and name him David...no birth certificates. They ALWAYS for more then 50 years have a child named David.  I only know of 1 that ever reached adulthood. 

David, he's the fork guy, he also gives his children puppies and kittens. I think that's the thing that bothered me most when I visited the compound. All the piles of dead dogs and cats all over the yard. He gives his children pets, lets them get attached, and if the child is "naughty", he makes them hold the cat while he shots it in the head.

He learn that from his father David Henry. Grammy Eva had a Great dane named Duke, one day, he got mad at her, shot the dog, chopped it up, boiled it, tied her up, and force fed her dog to her. That's my grandfather, the man who bragged that snapping baby necks was as fun as snapping rabbit necks and that babies tasted like pork.

THAT, is why the Ricker Clan, The Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach, are quick to make the distinction, that we are NOT affiliate with the Atwater Clan the Scottish Traveller Gypsies of Bangor, known to the FBI as the Scottish Traveller Crime Family of America. 

Unfortunately, I alone, am a Ricker who is also blood relative of the Atwaters, because my mother was from one clan and my father was from the other clan. 

The Ricker Clan, The Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach are Carnival Gypsies and Farmers. We do not travel. We've been settled for 500 years.

The Atwater Clan, are English Traveller Gypsies who claim  to be Scottish. They travel all over America. They have base camps in Utah and Maine. In the past they've had base camps in Wyoming, Nevada, Minnesota, Illinois, and Florida. They are criminals. They are dangerous. They think nothing of killing people. You know them when they come through, they squat on farms, they strip every bit of copper they find in every house in the town, they steal bikes, they strip cars to their frame. They sometimes call themselves The Avenging Angels.  They are waiting for a comet called Wormwood to take them to visit god on Planet Kolob.

The FBI, sends out a  pamphlet to police departments, in areas suspected of being in their path, when they are on the move. The pamphlet "How to Deal With Scottish Gypsies", lists all the warning signs to watch for. It tells how to tell the difference between Roma, Irish Travellers,  and Scottish Gypsies. It contains warning which say "Most dangerous of all gypsy groups" and "most likely of all gypsy groups to respond with deadly force" and "skilled swordsmen" and "armed with machetes" and "suspected cannibals".  

I have a copy of it. It's fairly accurate for the most part. It's always interesting reading the FBI reports on my extended family. They are classified by the FBI as the #1 most dangerous Gypsy group in America, and they are my uncles. 

And they periodically showed up in my life, and made hell of my life, every time they did. They were squatting on our land in Old Orchard in 1996, while they were doing their HaleBop thing.  It took us 7 months to get them out of our yard. 7 months of non stop absolute hell.

And if you ever run across them: run. Just run. Don't stop. They WILL kill you. 

It's WHY you hear Scottish Gypsies, get very upset when white men, confuse us with Scottish Travellers. Because they are two completely different groups. The Scottish Travellers descend from the Celts and Romans, while the Scottish Gypsies descend from the Pict and Sicilians (Persians). They are completely different bloodlines, whole different DNA chain.

The Scottish Gypsies shun the Scottish Travellers and avoid any association with them, viewing the brief union of the two clans as a serious mistake.

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So, when social workers say, they can't help me, because I have family out there, go to them, now you see why I don't go to them. You also begin to understand why I rescue cats and who I rescued them from. And then you also understand why I have a phobia of forks and only eat with plastic spoons. And why I carry a machete and won't let anyone closer then 5 feet to me. Why I have a phobia of milk and K-aid and Tang.

Did you know I walk to the ocean, to bathe fully clothed and without any type of soap, so that I won't get locked in the bathroom and so I don't have to risk somebody holding me under the water in the tub to drown me. Drown me because I have a demon and they have to kill it.

That's what kind of people my uncles are. That's the things they do to me. All those phobias I have, every one of them, and there are hundreds, are because of something my uncles did to me. My uncles are bullies to the extreme. And they are LDS/Mormon High Priest, with temple recommends, every one of them. They say that having the priesthood, gives them the right to pass judgement on whether or not I deserve to live. They said god told them I was a witch, possessed by a demon and must be punished until I cast my demon out.

They don't believe in doctors or disease or illnesses. They say those things are fairy tales created by Satan to deceive the world. The say doctors are evil servants of Satan, who use witchcraft to take "god's punishments" away from the wicked.

I don't want help from them. If they help me, they'll make me live with them again, they'll torture me again, and I may not be normal because of my Autism, but those people are absolutely insane and I don't ever want to see them again. 

I'm surviving, barely, but I'm not thriving, and if something doesn't change with my living conditions, my ability to get food...my health deteriorated badly these past 8 years, since the bomb. I've been living under a tarp, yes, even now with 7 feet of snow and -48F temperatures. Winters are cold in Maine. I'm typing mostly, right now, to keep my fingers circulating, so they don't freeze stiff. Doctors say I can't take these living conditions much longer. Two, three years tops. 

That's why you see, the Quaraun series set in a quasi-Medieval setting and not in current error. Because, I don't think many people in current error believe in doctors being witchcraft and illness being demons, like my uncles do. But because I grew up with people like this all around more - 300+ of them - I write Quaraun in a time period where he too grows up around people who believe those things.

And Quaraun has hundreds of strange phobias. And it baffles the other characters, the things he does, just to avoid the things he fears. In Vampire Leprechaun, they are travelling along, and they are not far from where they want to go, and they reach this point, where they have to cross a brook, and the brook is only a few feet wide and, where they are at, only a foot deep. They can easily walk across it, and are about to, when Quaraun has a meltdown screaming fit. They can't get him across and they don't know what to do, because they don't know what the problem is.

They end up, having to find another way to get to where they want to go. They are only 2 or 3 days from where they want to be, but the phobia, Quaraun has, is so bad, that they end up backtracking and taking a different road that bypasses and goes around, and adds an addition 2 weeks to their getting to where they want to go.

Have you ever seen Rainman? Watch this scene:

I do that. ^^^ You can't get me on a plane. You can't get me in a car, unless you can prove to me that car is safe. 

Quaraun does that ^^^^ that is what you see happening, several times in Vampire Leprechaun. Quaraun is just having one melt down after another, the whole story.

That's what is going on, in Vampire Leprechaun. A fear that to others, looks utterly irrational, but to Quaraun, is completely crippling.

I write him doing these things, because he has Autism, and he's doing the same things I do in those situations.

I'm an adult with Autism. My income has never topped $2,000 a year. Because of those two things, I'm not eligible for medical insurance, so only time I'm getting any treatments anymore is when I get bad enough to have to go to the ER.

I think that is one of the major things which people don't understand. They see that I can write coherently online and they simply do not realize, how severely disabled I am if they have not meet me in person.

A few years ago, my caretakers had a copy of my credit report printed up. Their goal was to attempt to teach me how to read it, in hopes that if I ever was given a job, perhaps I could be taught to do my own taxes. Well, when they got the print out in the mail, they found on my credit history: 3 repossessed cars, a forclosed house, 7 bank accounts in default, and 32 credit cards that had been run to max limit. They were very upset, because they said someone had done identity theft.

I'm not entirely sure what any of that means, I just know that's the things that were on the list and what they called it. So, they explained to me, that someone, somewhere, somehow had gotten a hold of my social security number and was using it to open fake bank accounts and fake credit card accounts. Of course then they had to explain banks and credit cards to me. They didn't get very far with that before they gave up.

They said it was easier for them to just fix the mess, then to try to explain to me what a credit card was, because according to them, I don't possess the mental ability to comprehend what a credit card is, how it works, or what it means to have had someone use identity theft to get a credit card in my name.

And they are probably right. I mean, there's a reason I don't go to stores and buy things or use money, I mean, I don't even know how to count money. I mean, I understand the green paper stuff is supposed to have more value then the metal coins but I don't understand that either. How can paper be worth more then metal? That makes no sense to me at all. And then they try to explain to me, how paper money with pictures of Ben Franklin on them are worth more then ones with pictures of George washington. Uhm...okay. Why? Other then the picture on it, they otherwise are the exact same paper aren't they? They said "Well, the ones with Franklin are more rare." Okay. Whatever.

The more illogical thing though is that the credit cards, which are plastic, they say are worth the most money of all because you can put more money on them and use them over and over again, so you don't have to carry around heavy coins or stacks of paper. You just have one card that pays for everything. But then they also say you have to pay money to use the cards, so you are really only renting the card it isn't yours. The bank puts money on it and you have to pay the bank back later. 

Ah. Like a loan! They said, yes, like a loan. Well that I understood, because I'm a Mormon and the Mormon church teaches that loans are evil and no one should ever get into debt to anyone else. No good ever comes of loans, the Church says. Well, once I figured out that credit cards was a loan, then I got mad at whoever it was who put all those credit cards on my name, because I've never had a loan for no one. Loans are evil and I want nothing to do with them.

I still don't understand money and why people want it. I mean, you can't do an absolute thing with it at all. You can't eat it. You can't use it to keep warm. It doesn't protect you from the weather. It just makes no sense to me at all.

My caretakers keep telling me that I should be trying to make more money, but I'm not really sure why. It makes no sense to me. I just do not understand it at all.

And yet, before the bomb, I had a normal life.  Or normal by Gypsy standards, I'm told by Americans that my life has never been normal if compared to American society.

MOST of my life was normal. It got interrupted by various, not normal events. Hurricane Bob. Hurricane Katrina. A murder-suicide that killed my 5 friends when I was 14. A couple of crazy, sadistic, violent, child abusing uncles, who thankfully only were in my life for a few brief periods. And a grease fryer bomb blew up my house. Somebody ran over my grandmother's house with a bulldozer. And one of my cars got stolen out of my yard. But, other then that, the rest of my life was normal.

The uncles, who, were ... I don't know what to call them... cultists in the worst sense of the word, I think may be the most accurate word? They were a sub-group of Heaven's Gate. They are going to visit on a comet ride. They think stabbing children with forks and threatening to eat them is normal and okay. They don't believe in doctors. They think Autism is a form of demon possession. I don't know what to call them.  They are so far beyond crazy. But for the most part they stay in Utah. They only come to Maine a few times a year. They raise Hell every time they are here, but they only stay a week or two, usually, and so most of the year, my life is as normal a live as someone with Autism can have.

Until the bomb. I've been able to recover from everything else. Bounce back. But the bomb took my house, and I don't have money to build another one, and that's caused a lot of problems with my health, because I've lived outside for 8 years.

The guy who built the bomb, got 2 years in prison. He's back out, warm and dry, in a house. He was warm and dry while he was in prison too. I haven't been warm or dry in 8 years. It rains or snows pretty much every day in Maine.

And that's exactly why I'm writing this series. Because I am just sick and tired of people doing stuff like this to me and thinking it's okay to do things like this to me, because I have Autism.  That is why I am writing a story about a character who is severely Autistic and has been bullied to a breaking point and sets out to kill everyone who bullied him.  The world needs to know what it feels like to be bullied that much, that long, that often, to that extent.

I think the fact that I am very slow to respond accounts for people thinking I don't feel anything. Because by the time I do respond, they've already left, so they don't see me respond.

I don't have normal reflexes or reaction times. If you hit me, I probably won't start crying or screaming in pain for at least an hour. That's why you don't see immediate response from me online. I have to print out your forum posts and comments an reviews and emails and read them several times over a period of several days in order to be able to fully process and understand what it is, you are saying to me. I usually have to have my caretaker read your words to me, multiple times, and often he has to then get a dictionary and read the definitions of the words you use and then explain them to me. After which I will them Google the stuff you say and try to see if I can figure out what it is you might have meant and which emotion it is, you were trying to trigger in me.

I think that is the thing a lot of people don't understand about Autism. 

If you tell a joke - I don't laugh, because I don't know why it was supposed to be funny, because I don't understand what you said until I've had time to research it.

If you bully me with the intent of hurting my feelings - I don't cry or get upset or angry, because I don't know why it was supposed to be hurt by what you said, because I don't understand what you said until I've had time to research it. I will get upset a few weeks later, after I have had time to research your words and the meanings.

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Why do you sleep under a tarp if you own a motorhome?

A READER ASKED THE FOLLOWING QUESTION: I’m confused. Don’t you own an RV? Why do you sleep under a tarp if you own a motorhome?

ANSWER: Town ordinances. You can't sleep in anything that has wheels on it at night. I use the motorhome during the day. It's my office where I do my writing. My kitchen where I do my cooking. But at night I have to sleep outside in the cold, snow, wet, and rain because the town says it's safer sleeping under a tarp outside with no protection from the rain and snow, then sleeping in the warm dry soft bed in my motorhome. They send the police by at night to check and make sure no one is sleeping in the motorhome at night.

They want us to put a house up, but I don’t have enough money to do that. It took me 4 years to save up the $2,000 I paid for the motorhome. We don’t have electricity or sewer or running water and I don’t have enough money to buy food, that’s why I don’t eat every day and the days I do eat, I don’t even eat a full meals worth, let alone eat more then once a day.

I think that’s part of why the KBoards incident upset me so much, because whoever hacked into my account and rewrote my posts, they said, while impersonating me to make it look like I was saying it, that I was a millionaire and they were saying stuff like, in one post they bragged that I had made $140,000 in a single month! Good god! I wish! Damn! I’ve never had that much money in my entire life.

I’ve never made more then $2,000 in a single year, that’s $80,000 TOTAL in my entire lifetime. I mean, here I am, sleeping under a tarp, cold and hunger, I don’t have enough money to buy food and, they are logging in on my account and pretending to be me and posting sales figures like that?

What the hell? Why did they do that? I don’t understand this at all. What kind of a person does something like that? And why? I mean, what possible motive did they have for doing it? I can’t figure that one out at all. It makes no sense to me at all, I don’t understand what they could possibly get out of doing this at all. It’s just mean and stupid and childish and idiotic and hateful and hurtful. I guess some people are just mean by nature and don’t have to have a reason for hurting other people. 

I can sleep in my motorhome when I'm on the road, like when I'm travelling on a book tour to do book signings or going to Autism awareness conventions or car shows or festivals or stuff like that. But when I'm at home parked on my land, I have to sleep outside under the tarp because that's all the town will allow.

Not allowed to use the toilet in the motorhome either. Nearest public bathroom is a 1/4 mile walk.

Before the tarp, I had a wigwam, that took me nearly a month to build, and that was warm and dry just like having a house. But even though we are Native Americans on our ancestral grounds, the town made us take it down. After that I built a teepee and lived in that, town made us take that down too. After that I put up a yurt, which again was warm and dry, but again the town made me take it down. Bought the motorhome February 21, 2012, police showed up in the yard the next day. Didn't even own it 24 hours before they were there wanting to see the paperwork and reciting town ordinances.

It's been very difficult because the cold affects my joints. I have chronic tendonitis in both arms, both wrist, my back, knee, and hip. Cold damp weather make it worse, which slows down my ability to work, which in turn slows down my income, thus makes it harder for me to save up to build a house. If I had a warm, dry place to sleep, I could get more work done and increase my income and get a house rebuilt faster.

No one has helped us with getting a house. The bomb destroyed everything in our lives. It's been very hard. I'm doing everything on my own now. I'm the only one trying to get a house back up, no one else cares to get a house back up. I wish I could sleep in the motorhome at night and be warm and dry, so that my joints wouldn't hurt so much and then I could do more work and have more income and get a house built back up faster.

There are more then 3,000 families in Old Orchard Beach living in RVs. We are the only ones the town makes sleep outside of the RV on the ground under a tarp.

Oh well, at least I can write indoors during the daytime once again, and my hands don't go stiff from the cold before a few paragraphs anymore.

But you must understand that we are a peaceful people, we prefer to obey the law, no matter how silly or ridiculous the law may be, rather then fight it. And we are used to sleeping outdoors under the stars. It is not an uncomfortable thing for us to sleep this way. During the warm dry months, I prefer to sleep outdoors anyways and often did, even back when we still had a house to live in, before the bomb blew it up.

How do you survive blizzards or tornadoes or floods living outside like that?

READER QUESTION: How do you survive blizzards or tornadoes or floods living outside like that?

MY ANSWER: Not well, but, when you have no options, you can't choose to do better can you? I use clothespins (a whole big bag of about 200 of them) to hold the edges of the tarp shut to keep out the wind and rain. Inside of the "tent" I have taken several blankets and layered them, to build up walls of insulation. On the ground I had built up a foundation out of several bucket loads of sand, and than used my futon (a Japanese mattress) to sleep on. I have three sleeping bags, one inside of the other, and slept at night with all of my cloths on and three coats, and slept inside the tripled sleeping bags. What clothes I wasn't wearing, were stuff into every crack and corner to keep out the cold.

This season so far (2015), we’ve had:

January 23 = 3”

January 25 (Blizzard Juno) = 34”

January 28 = 6”

January 30 = 21”

February 3 = 3”

Today February 5 = 6” so far.

That’s 73” (6 feet) of snow so far this week. And around here it starts snowing in October and snows 2 or 3 days a week every week until about middle of April. We have had years when we as much as 21 feet of snow.

People (white Americans) laugh because I wear these huge fur coats, they are always teasing me when I go out in public about my fur coats but, Honey, I don’t have a nice warm dry house to go home to like you do. I live under a tarp. And it’s been below zero for the last 4 weeks. Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to type this? My fingers are red and stiff and very numb, and it’s really hard to type when the temps get below zero. I mean, I’m sleeping outside at night in this. 

During Blizzard Juno last week, the temps were down to -32F and the wind was 75 MPH. The coldest day in Maine history was in February 2007, another blizzard, when temps were -48F. I’m living outside in these storms and the only thing between me and the cold, is a tarp and this big fur coat. If I didn’t have this fur coat, I would have frozen to death last week during Juno. This coat keeps me alive. I have a motorhome, but the town won’t let me stay in it at night and at night is when the winds are the highest, the temps are the coldest and the snowfall the deepest. At night is when I need to be in the motorhome most of all, but they send the police around every night to make sure no one is inside the RV after dark, so I have to sleep outside under the tarp. 

It’s really hard on my hands, because I don’t have gloves. they are too expensive I can’t afford a pair of glove. I don’t have any boots either, I just have a pair of slippers. I type at night, like right now, because it keeps circulation moving in my fingers. It’s why you see my publishing way more articles and stories and books in the winter months then in the summer months. I don’t have to type so much in the warmer months, but right now, like tonight, it’s -18F right now and so I have to just keep typing so that my fingers go freeze. Some clansmen have lost fingers and toes because they didn’t keep their feet tucked lotus position against their belly up under their furs at night and because they fell asleep and stopped moving their fingers. That’s why I type so much. I’m an author, I can’t risk losing my fingers and in weather like this, that’s a big problem, so I just type and type ad type all night long no-stop, so that I don’t get so cold that my fingers fall off, like has happened to others in the clan on nights like this. I wish the town would let me stay in the motorhome at night. It’s warm in there. It never gets below 30F in there and most days it stay hot as summer in the mid 50Fs. I mean, 50F in there, those are freaking summer temperatures,  I don’t need shoes or coat at all in there. I with the town would let me sleep inside at night. It’s so cold and wet out here and my fingers hurt so much right now. It’s really hard to type right now, because I can’t bend my fingers. They are stuck in this half bent position and they feel like they are stuck full of needles. It really hurts, a lot. And it’s only -18F tonight. This is a warm night. And we’ve got another 3 months of this weather before the temps get back up to the 40Fs.

I wish they hadn’t bombed our house. It was easier back then. It wasn’t what Americans call a house, it didn’t have insulation or a foundation of stuff like that. But it did kept out the wind and it almost never got below 40F inside.

In the summer and fall, we have to deal with the thick seaweed scented fogs that rolled in off the ocean every night. You don't really notice fog, until you have to live outdoors in it night after night. It's like having this big wet sponge wrapped all around you for hours. It soaks everything just like it had been a rain cloud. Fog is really weird. Over the months, however, I grew to love the smell of fog and it's rich seaweed and crab scent. I think that is the one thing I would miss about being in the tent. I really love the smell of the ocean air. Of course being outside all night, all year, I found out that I love the sounds of hearing the ocean waves all day and all night. Indoors you don't really notice the sound of the waves or the sound of the gulls, but out under the tarp, you hear them steady all the time. 

At the beginning of this, I had me, my dog, and 9 cats. A few months in, the pet food poisoning happened and I lost 5 of my cats in the space of 2 weeks. After that it was me, my dog, a skunk, and 14 cats. Weird, how 9 minus 5 equals 14, but it did, and I am at a loss as to how to explain it, but one morning shortly after the deaths of my other cats, I woke up to find several wild feral cats tucked into the sleeping bag with me. They moved into the tent and I have had them ever since. There had been a blizzard that night, and we were buried under 9 feet of snow. 

That cats and skunk came in to get out of the storm. That was the week I went 12 days without food - it was because there was so much snow - 3 blizzards back to back, one each day for 3 days. I kept a shovel under the tarp next to the sleeping bag, and a 2x4 braced under the center of the tarp to keep it from smothering me. Every hour or so, I'd wake up and dig out an opening in the snow to keep air under the tarp. It took 5 days to shovel out from the tarp to the driveway. It was the biggest blizzard we have had since the one in April 1981. The skunk left after the storm ended and I got a path shovels out. But the cats never went outside of the tarp til spring, and after that, they just stayed with me. They are strange cats, because they are wild feral cats and they'll kill any human that gets near them, no one can get near these cats, they are like mini tigers, but, they curl up on me and sing to me all day long, ever since we got trapped under the tarp together during that blizzard. They are a weird pack of wild cats and somehow adopted me into their flock. I've since gotten them all spayed and neutered and they still live with me.

There was one wild night of a lightning storm. That night, required me to take the cinder blocks and tie them down all along the edges of the tarp in order to keep it from flying away.

It's hard once the snows come, though, and I have to use boards to support the center of the "tent" in order to keep the heavy snowfalls from collapsing the tent on us during the night. During the storms I keep a shovel inside the tent, and shovel my way out, and take the snow off the roof of the tent about every 15 minutes or so, to keep it from getting too heavy on the roof.

Once the snows came I found I had new problems, when I awoke one night to find a baby skunk tucked into the blankets along with me and the cats. He had apparently been separated from his family in the storm, came in the tent for shelter, and got snowed in. He couldn't have been more than 3 or 4 months old. Once the storm was over a few hours later, he left.

One night, my blind albino Siamese cat, Utopia, was asleep on my feet when something big, with huge long sharp claws, reached through the tent, grabbed him, and ran off with him. My dog Buddy fought it off, and it dropped Tope and ran into the woods. It was originally suspected to be a Marten or Fisher, but later events would tell us that a wolverine was in the area, killing everything in it's path, including more than 70 of our chickens, a few deer, and a moose, and it is now believed that it was the very same animal which attacked Tope that night. It's scary when you find really big animals all torn up in your yard like that. I work up one morning, crawled out of the tarp, and there it was, a great big moose leg all chewed up, about 20 feet from the tapr. Scared the heck out of me. After the attack Tope had no fur growing on his side, his ear is a mangled up scarred mess which in no way resembles an ear, he is missing all of his teeth on one side, and there was a huge scar running under his eye and down his face. Tope, never again, slept on my feet, and to the day he died in 2009 Tope refused to sleep anywhere except wrapped around my face like a fur scarf.

I'm in Old Orchard Beach, Maine, and I live on the beach. I am homeless. At night the temperature drops to -15*F BEFORE wind chill factor. Including wind chill factor the temps are often as low as -42*F (and the ocean freezes over when the temps are like that!) This year it's pretty warm and stays around 0F. In 2008/2009 winter is not that bad, it's staying around 30*F. We got a ton of snow this year, but it's not as cold. In 2007/2008 it was colder. My first winter homeless (2006/2007) was the worst. In 2006, Maine had it's coldest winter on record since 1927 and I got frost-bite that year, and that's when I started looking for a job. Not to make money, but to have a place to stay warm.

No one cares that you are cold, so long as they are not. I learned that fast too. As long as they are safe and warm and dry, to hell with everyone else in the neighborhood.

It got very cold that year. Our first snowfall came in October of 2006, just days after the bomb. By December, the temperature plummeted to 0F. February of 2007, saw -15F temperatures, before wind chill factor. Living on the beach meant that wind chill factors brought the temperature down to a blistering -40F at night. Once the temperature dropped, my hands started to crack and turn to blisters. It became very hard to use them for anything. Today my hands are extremely sensitive to touch and I go through a family sized bottle of Gold Bond hand cream each week, just to stop the skin on my hands from cracking. Fact of the matter is my hands (and my feet) suffered from frostbite and I don't know if that will ever heal. But who care, you know, it's just a Gypsy with Autism, right?

No one cares about adults with Autism, no one cares about Gypsies, and I'm both, so who cares about me. That's the way of the white man's world. 

Wait...you were one of 73 authors who were attacked? You mean this wasn't just someone singling you out?

A reader asked: Wait... you were one of 73 authors who were attacked? You mean this wasn't just someone singling you out? Why? Did these authors have anything in common?

Yes. That is why I refer to it as the KBoards Incident and not the EelKat was Attacked Incident. This was a fairly large, fairly wide spread attack, that was posted on 3 forums and several social networks.  The attack on me was rather small in comparison to what was done to big name authors Viola Riviera and Hugh Howey, who were also hit hard in this attack. Other authors who left KBoards during this time because they too were attacked, included Ella Casey, Russell Blake, Joe Konrath/Jake Kilborn, Tattooed Writer, and Joe Nobody (and many others). The bigger name authors like them, were hit hard.

The attack started in February 2014, with the biggest name authors each being attacked one at a time. As each big name author left KBoards, the attacks moved on to the next biggest name on the site. Three of the big name authors hired lawyers and started a lawsuit, with their lawyers creating KBoards accounts to post a one time post announcing their client was advised to leave KBoards and sue any and every KBoard member involved in the attack.

What did they have in common?

THIS:

In February 2014, 101 authors on KBoards gathered together to compile a "best of KBoards" anthology. Initially only the biggest name authors were on the list.

By May 2014, 40 of the biggest name authors, pulled out of the project and their lawyers sent cease and desist orders to the forum trolls.

While the attacks were initially thought to be mostly on KBoards, a slew of anti-author blogs and websites, mostly aimed as Hugh howey, creator of the anthology, began to show up all over the internet. WordPress and Blogger were each swamped with hundreds of new blogs being created, demanding the boycott of various lists of author names.  In every case the only thing these authors had in common was the KBoards Anthology.

By May, Hugh Howey had removed his name from the project, though his story was still published in it.

I was one of the authors, perceived to be a big enough name, to get picked to the initial round up of authors who had been picked for the project.

By May, the outcry against the authors involved in this project was so bad (with many unpublished authors stating that a TRUE KBoards anthology would include a selection of EVERY KBoards author - even the small names and the yet unpublished) that the entire project was canceled, with one of the authors involved committing suicide over the attacks on her books, following shortly after the death of her beloved daughter.

The suicide sent shock waves through KBoards and resulted in dozens of authors dropping out of the project. One author was so distraught that she unpublished all of her books and deleted her Amazon sellers account, stating that she had written a character suicide in one of her books, but she had never had a friend commit suicide before and she had no idea how much it hurt, to see a friend kill themselves. Three other authors, all having written books with character suicide, followed her example and likewise unpublished their books and deleted their Amazon seller accounts.

Just days after this author's suicide, a second author died. He had been sick for a long time, and the stress of the attacks put him in the hospital. He died that night. More authors left the project.

By the end of May the project was officially called off.

The forum trolls shifted their attack to a mega sized thread known as The Serialized Romance Thread, where all the pulp fiction serial authors (myself included) hung out on KB. As they had done with the authors involved in the KBoards Anthology Project, the trolls started picking off authors one by one starting with the biggest names first.

In June, the KBoards Anthology was reborn as a new version of the idea was born. A submission call went up, and the first 101 authors to submit a story, would be accepted, no judgement on content, no judgment on previous sales and big name status, just first come first served to anyone and every one. The stories were to go in the book in the order they were received. I was submission #18, because mine is story #18 in the published book.

In August the Serialized Romance Thread and all it's 50+ pages was removed from KBoards, following a horrendous and violent offline attack of nearly a dozen of the authors involved in that thread.  One author was hospitalized when another author showed up at her home and beat her face in with a broken bottle. Nearly every author posting to that thread left KBoards in the days to follow.

In all, between February 2014 and November 2014, more then 700 active members (both readers and authors), including 73 big name authors, left KBoards, due to having been attacked during the KBoards Incident.

This was the worst case of authors behaving badly, I have ever seen. Because the authors doing the attacks were calling themselves "EAF Erotica Authors" the EAF Erotica Author Forum was shut down by it's webhost.

Yes. The KBoards Incident was a very violent forum war that left the forum and went offline, in which two authors died, and several others end up in the hospital, some very serious injuries. Like I said, what happened to me, was nothing compared to what happened to some of the other authors who were attacked. In all 73 authors were targeted.

I've been on the internet since 1997. Until November 2014, I was an active member of more then 300 forums. I shut down all my forum accounts the same week I deleted my KBoards posts. This is the worst case of cyber bullying I have ever seen and a very clear indication that people think just because they are hiding behind a computer screen, they think they can do and say anything they want to, and they don't think they will get caught or be held responsible for their actions.

People died.

Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.

People were hospitalized. Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.

People had their homes and property broken into and vandalized. Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.

Authors lost their careers and income. Those trolls need to be held responsible for that.

This needs to stop.

This stupid, idiotic, psychotic, senseless, culture of hate,

NEEDS TO STOP!

CYBER BULLIES NEED TO BE STOPPED BEFORE MORE PEOPLE DIE!

We authors are supposed to be helping each other. That's what the KBoards Writer's Cafe was made for. So we could help each other. What is wrong with you people? You are supposed to help your fellow mankind!

Look at yourselves! Do you see what you people have become? You're acting like a pack of rabid dogs. This is herd mentality at it's worst. You people ought to be ashamed of yourselves. You ought to be hanging your heads in shame.

KBoards was a wonderful place. Authors and readers gathered together. Talked, shared stories, had fun. You people turned it into a war zone. And nobody's fighting back. Can't you see that? It takes two to fight. They're not fighting back. They don't want to fight with you.

All it is, is you attacking, over and over again. Attack after attack on first one author and then the next. You are a terrorist. Nobody is joining your fight. Nobody wants to fight with you. That's why I call these attacks and not fights. Because nobody, not one single person on that site is fighting back. They ignore your attacks until they can take no more, and then they leave. 

They don't want to fight, and they are tired of you hurting them. So they just leave. Or die... 

LOOK at what you did. You upset that woman so bad, that she killed herself. She didn't just leave the forum, she left life. Have you no shame at all? What is wrong with you people. How can you live with yourselves, knowing you've destroyed lives?

Do you realize that every author you attacked: they were most helpful authors. They were ones showing others the ropes. They were the ones writing the how-to articles. They were the go-to authors, when new authors needed help. And they are all gone now. Every single one of them. Many of them deleted all their helpful information of getting started when they left.

There are no authors left on KBoards who are willing to write long helpful posts to help the new authors get started. You destroyed KBoards for everyone.

You remember how I used the Twighlight Manor books to launch a protest against Proctor & Gamble, got the financial backing of Avon and Estee Lauder, incited 30,000 PETA members into a riot, and successfully got Proctor & Gamble's Animal Test Labs shut down...yeah, I'm doing that with the Quaraun series to get cyber bullies put in prison... oh, boooy, should you people REALLY have found out WHO I was and WHAT I do to people like you. I'm the little girl who 40 years ago took on the world's largest corporation head to head...did you really think I would let you get away with what you did? 

Have you never heard of the professional protester known as "The Voice of The Voiceless"?

You really didn't know who I was did you?

Let me introduce myself:

I'm EelKat, Voice of the Voiceless, The Sea Witch of Old Orchard Beach, owner of the World's Most Haunted Car. 

I live around the corner from Stephen King.  Stephen King think's I'm one of the most fascinating things he's ever encountered. He can't stop writing about me.  I'm the reason he features mute scary Autistic girls in his stories. I'm the reason he features cars that are haunted. I'm the crazy Gypsy women he  frequently features in his stories.

I'm the matriarch of the Scottish Gypsies of Old Orchard Beach (known to most Americans as The Scottish Mafia)...you know, the family King based The Thinner off of and in whose yard they filmed the movie?

Oh....and I own the car that supposedly killed 14, you know, eat them, a Gypsy sideshow circus attract billed as The World's Most Haunted Car... I believe King called it Christine in his book and movie.

Do you know how many millions - MILLIONS - of people come to my land every summer, to see the Gypsies of Thinner, to touch the REAL haunted car, the see the REAL mute Autistic little girl that inspired the characters of Rose Red and Chinga?

...and read whatever I chose to write on the 20' tall 40' wide 1950's billboard that stands in our yard....how do you think, I gathered so many followers, so fast, for the Proctor & Gamble Boycott?

That big sign in my yard, THAT is how this page of my website received 14,000 visitors it's first week up: https://www.eelkat.com/KBoards.html Because right now that URL is what is written on the billboard.

And it's written on the sides of my rhinestoned car. Did you know that my car averaged 100 stranger photographing it each every day. That URL is forever branded right across everyone of those photos.

Do you have any idea how much power that billboard in my yard has? Every tourist who comes here sees it, reads it, and I'm very, very, VERY famous. We are stephen King's Gypsies, Thinner was filmed in our yard, and we own the REAL Christine. A LOT of people come here. You can't even begin to imagine the amount of people who are going to know what you did.

You bullied the wrong person Sugar Pie.

I AM "The Voice of The Voiceless", the little girl who took down Proctor & Gamble. You destroyed KBoards and you hurt my friends. Did you really think I would stand back and just watch you hurt my friends?

KBoards had a 10 year history of being the safest and most peaceful forum on the internet, but not anymore, thanks to the 50+ "EAF Erotica Authors" and their massive attack on the site.

I don't know what kind of a hostile forum environment you "EAF Erotica Authors" were used to but damn, just get the fuck off of KBoards before you kill somebody else.

I have seen a lot of forum wars over the years. I was a member of Absolute Write Water Cooler for 9 years, during the hey days of the war that happened there in 2005 for crying out loud, I was one of the moderators of the Squidoo site & forums for 7 years, and I was a member of the SoapBox for 5 years - I've seen some pretty bad forum wars, but the KBoards Incident is one of the few forum wars, I've ever seen, where people left the internet to track down forum members home addresses and violently attack them in person.

This was a case of some very unprofessional, selfish, jealous, small minded, petty authors, attempting to hurt other authors. 

Two people died during the KBoards Incident. 

I am unaware of a forum war ever costing someone there life before. This was a VERY SERIOUS situation and it is my belief, that the trolls involved, do belong in prison and should be prosecuted. People died. Other were physically injured. Several were deeply emotionally distraught and upset. Some authors lost their careers, they were so scared of the trolls they unpublished their books in terror.

JDP/EA, LG, SC, and Kendra Silver Salamander: you belong in prison and I intend to see to it that you and everyone who helped you do this go there. You peices of shit called people to action, and boy did they take action. PEOPLE DIED ON YOUR ORDERS YOU SHIT HEADS! Do you know what that makes you?

Whoever did it: either the authors whose names were listed on the accounts in question or the a hacker who hijacked said accounts and did it in their names: it doesn't change the fact, that is what a very violent incident and 2 authors died, others were physically injured in in physical offline attacks, some lost their careers and incomes, and many were terribly terrorized and traumatized. 

Who ever the person(s) was behind this attack on these authors, they need to be held responsible for their actions and made an example of, so that something like this never happens again, not on Kboards, nor any other forum.

I have a lot of medical bills that need to be paid, I want to know who to send the bill to. Haven't totalled up yet but they include surgery, hospital stays, lots of tests, MRI, ...there's one radiology bill that $4,300 just that one bill alone. And I'm not out of the hospital yet. You're looking at close to $100,000 here.

And the Town of Old Orchard Beach says you own them $15,000 in clean up cost for the vandalism.

An I'm not the only author with medical bills because of this.

And there are two author families with funeral expenses that need paying. Do you have any idea how much a funeral costs? When my grandfather died in 2004, his coffin cost $5,000, the burial plot was another $3,000, and then all the other stuff: his funeral cost well over $20,000.

Ans then there are all the authors who hired lawyers - lawyers aren't cheap. You owe those bills too.

Or and let's not forget that several dozen authors cited having to have counselling. I don't know about theirs, but all the counselors around here charge at minimum $200 an hours. A lot of authors, that's a lot of hours. 

You owe a lot of people a lot of money. I can see over a million dollars on that list. Do you have a million dollars? Better prayer you do, because you'll go to prison if you don't and then you'll still have to pay all those authors' bills anyways.

What it boils down to is, someone was REALLY pissed off that the KBoards Anthology was made and published, and targeted every author who had any connection with that book. And they ought to be ashamed of themselves for thinking that this sort of thing was all right to do.

At the start of this, at the very beginning, back in February: there was a new member, who joined KBoards and started a hate campaign against Hugh Howey. They created anti-Hugh Howey websites and blogs. They said that Hugh Howey had done a contest of some sort, I'm not sure what exactly the contest was, but they said they had entered and had the highest votes for their entry and should have won, BUT, they said that Hugh Howey awarded the winner to "one of his writer buddies on KBoards". They threatened several people.

 Back in February, they made several threats, calling the members of Kboards "Hugh Howey cheerleading fanboys" and saying that they would "stop at nothing to destroy every one of you".

His or her account was banned by the mods, s/he, created several most accounts during those first few weeks and ranting a lot of wild insanity and crazy accusations at pretty much every member on the forum. The mods subsequently banned each account, and eventually they stopped coming back.

HOWEVER, the KBoards Incident started just days after that person disappeared off KBoards. It is my belief that whoever THAT person is, is the the one ACTUALLY behind the attacks on KBoards. They were very, very, very angry at Hugh Howey. They said they wanted him dead. They said they wanted all his friends dead. They said they would do everything in their power to destroy the career of Hugh Howey and "all his author buddies".

This person returned to KBoards in September 2014, when the contest actually ended, and they threatened Hugh Howey again, and again threatened "all his author buddies." Apparently, this person felt that anybody who had an account of KBoards must therefor know Hugh Howey because he had an account on KBoards.

Outside of his posts on KBoards, I don't know Hugh Howey and I don't think anybody on KBoards does. It is my belief that this person is angry enough and dangerous enough to track down Hugh Howey and "all his author buddies" to physically hurt them and possibly murder them. And I think something needs to be done, to find out who this person is, and put them in prison before they do any more damage.

The attacks started in February, after this person first started raging against Hugh Howey. 

The attacks heightened and went out of control, in September, when this person returned to KBoards with more outrage against Hugh Howey.

It appears that because Hugh Howey was in the KBoards anthology, that this person, assumes everyone in the anthology was what they termed "all his author buddies".

That was when the 50+ new accounts were created and a zombie's hoard of long "dead" author accounts were suddenly revived, with authors we hadn't seen in years, suddenly posting again.

That is also when the attacks started on me and my books. 

I believe all of it, goes back to that person, who was really angry at Hugh Howey, because of some contest, which they said Hugh howey had done and they claimed they should have won.

I also, don't think that this person cares that 2 people died, that others got injured, that some lost their careers, and that the entire environment of Kboards has turned from a peaceful loving place to a fear filled war zone.

The KBoards Incident was nothing short of a TERRORIST ATTACK. What those trolls did to those authors was unspeakable. Some very serious crimes were committed and the criminals need to be held responsible. People need to start taking this situation seriously.  The authors who were hurt in this need to come together and stand up against the bullies. Don't let them hurt you anymore. There are people who care about you. You are not alone in this. You don't deserve what happened to you: none of you do.

 The members of KBoards are out of control. They need to be stopped before they hurt someone else, before someone else dies.

My opinion of the trolls involved in these attacks, and every other person like them is this:

May the cheerleading dogs march ever onwards.

(What they did to you and yours is not forgotten.)