EelKat Wendy C Allen - Dark Fantasy Author

Avallac'h vs Vilgefortz:
Who Did What To Ciri?
The Witcher Series

Answering the question:
So, I know everyone keeps saying Avallac'h is a pedophile, but now I just read that Geralt and Dandelion are pedophiles too. I can't find any ages mentioned in the novels. Where are these people getting the character ages? 

And the follow up question:
 Answering viewer response to Avallac'h having sex with Ciri 22 times in Chapter 5 of Lady of the Lake:

 Wait, that was Avallac'h? I'm confused.
It's been a while since I read the novels, like 5 years.
I thought Avallac'h was the scientist who was studying Ciri.
He kept her locked up in cages and tortured her.
I forgot about the sex crazy guy with the baby.
Was that Avallac'h?
Wait, who was the scientist then?
Wasn't Avallac'h the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood?
Wasn't Avallac'h the scientist who was hunting Ciri all those years?
Wait, I'm confused, the sex crazy one, that was Avallac'h?
Then, who was the scientist obsessed with Elder Blood and spent all that time torturing Ciri, then? 

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The Witcher 3: 
Wild Hunt 
|Game of the Year Edition| 
Completionist Run: 
The Avallac'h Playthrough
(Watch It Live HERE)

Answering the question:

So, I know everyone keeps saying Avallac'h is a pedophile, but now I just read that Geralt and Dandelion are pedophiles too. I can't find any ages mentioned in the novels. Where are these people getting the character ages? ..................................................... 

You are reading the 2018 American release Kindle English edition aren't you?

It's heavily censored.

If you want to see the character ages, as well as the more violent sex scenes, and the 10 deleted Avallac'h scenes, you'll need to track down 1st edition copies of the novels.

The original unabridged edition is not allowed to be published in America because of Federal government COPA laws.

As a general rule MOST books published in Poland are not allowed to be sold in America. Poland is the world's top producer of child porn because it's not illegal in Poland like it is in most other countries.  This results in Poland  having a high rate of novels that feature sex scenes with very young girls and very old men... stuff that can't legally be published in American Erotica, gets casually written in every day none Erotica novels in Poland.

In America the average Erotica novel has 3 sex scenes at the most.

The Witcher novels, not sold as Erotica, has 3 or more sex scenes EACH CHAPTER and they are often more detailed then what is found in American Erotica.

If you are wondering how much sex is there in the Witcher novels... 

* the first sentence of the first novel opens during a sex scene.

#IN ONLY CHAPTER 5 of Lady of the Lake... just 1 chapter, you will find:

* 1 scene where Avallac'h attempts to rape Ciri

* 8 sex scenes between Ciri and King Auberon

* between each of those are 8 sex scenes between Ciri and Avallac'h

* 1 scene where Eredin tries to rape Ciri

* 4 scenes of Ciri raping Avallac'h

* and 1 actually consensual sex scene between Ciri and Avallac'h

For a grand total of 22 sex scenes between 12 year old Ciri and her 3 adult male Elf lovers in ONE SINGLE CHAPTER of the series.

In Poland, the number 1 selling children's picture book aimed at readers 6 to 8 years old, in 2016, was a book that featured a 4 page fully illustrated child rape scene and was sold to schools as a way for Kindergarten teachers to teach children rape was okay because men needed a release. ... Did I mention rape is not illegal in Poland either?

Something to think about.

...especially if you are uncertain if you want to read the Witcher novels.

Uhm... here...

To give you some perspective of how young Ciri was when she was having sex with Avallac'h...

...and to show you just exactly WHY there were so many people in my Twitch chat, chanting that Avallac'h was a pedophile, resulting in I had to turn my Twitch chat off...

Here's a lore-friendly picture of Ciri and Avallac'h their correct novel ages...

Avallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the LakeAvallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake
Avallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the LakeAvallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake
Avallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the LakeAvallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake
Avallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the LakeAvallac'h with 12 year old Ciri... the age she was when she was in those 22 sex scenes with Avallac'h, King Auberon, and Eredin, in Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake

Are you horrified enough yet?


I guarantee  can horrify you even more when it comes to the sex scenes in the Witcher novels...

There is a Polish publisher who takes books like this, including that picture book, to Video Game conventions across America, doing lectures, trying to gain outside support to convince the Polish government to make both Child Porn and Rape illegal. 

He is one of the editors who worked on making the American editions of the Witcher novels.

I found out about him at PortCon 2018 when he recognized that I was CosPlaying one of Poland's most famous characters: Avallac'h, and he approached me before his workshop and asked if I'd be willing to sit in on his panel to be interviewed about CosPlaying a character from the types of books he was trying to get banned.

As I do panels at conventions anyways, I said yes and joined him in his panel and got a chance to read first hand the types of books Americans couldn't even begin to imagine were out there.

Very few Americans can stomach the Witcher novels in their censored edition. I don't recommend you read the original Polish editions. The American sensitive snowflake mind couldn't stomach them.

If you saw it, about a year ago me and my Witcher fanatic brother did a video where we compared my 1st edition 1996 copy of Lady of the Lake to his 2018 American release English Kindle edition.

There are 10 pages of Avallac'h scenes in my copy that do not appear in his copy.

His 2018 copy of the novel has 78 fewer pages then my 1996 edition.

ALL references to the ages of Ciri, Yennefer, and Triss Merigold are DELETED from the 2018 American edition.

In the 1996 edition Ciri is 12 years old in her sex scenes with Avallac'h and Auberon, 

...while Yennefer is 15 in her sex scenes with Geralt and Triss Merigold is the youngest at just 10 years old in her sex scenes with Geralt.

ALL of Dandelion's women were under 16 when he raped them, with Ciri being the youngest at only 7 years old.

Avallac'h is 2,000+, Auberon is 468, Geralt is 198, and Dandelion is 51.

There are ZERO females over the age of 16 in ANY of the Witcher novels' more than 300 sex scenes.

There are ZERO males under the age of 50 in ANY of the Witcher novels' more than 300 sex scenes.

The American editions are more than 400 pages shorter then the original 1st editions. 

A LOT was removed for the American release of the novels, because the American government would not allow some of the more violent child rape scenes to appear in the American editions.

Most people read the American editions and usually only after playing the games, so have a mental image of Ciri, Yennefer, and Triss as adult women when they read the novels and remain blissfully unaware that Ciri is 12, Yennefer is 15, and Triss is 10.

Which is EXACTLY WHY when people ask me if I recommend they read the novels I say: 

*"I'm hesitant to recommend them. The story is great, but there are issues, big ones, that could really cause you to hate the novels, the Netflix series, the characters, the author, and the games REALLY bad."*

#Do be aware, know BEFORE you go to read the novels, that the Witcher novels ARE straight up Hard Core Child Porn Rape Fantasy Erotica, and this is the primary number 1 reason why few people make it through even the 1st volume!

Very few moral people are going to be able to stomach the graphically detailed, back to back, in every chapter, scenes of child rape, child abuse, and child molestation.

There are HUNDREDS AND HUNDREDS of graphically detailed scenes of child rape, child abuse, and child molestation.... like I already said... there are 22 scenes of child rape, child abuse, and child molestation, just in ONE CHAPTER, just between Ciri and Avallac'h, and Avallac'h is the ONLY male character out of 5,000+ male characters who IS NOT ABUSIVE to Ciri (yes, that does mean men like Geralt, Dandelion, and Vesemir were VERY abusive of Ciri in the novels.)

Those 22 scenes with Avallac'h, we see Ciri HAPPY for the ONLY TIME in her life. She classifies him as her friend, the only person she can trust, the only friend she has ever had. 

As bad as things are with Avallac'h, and as much as readers like to complain about him, what he did, was so insignificant compared to what other men did, that he was seen by Ciri as her best friend. And that right there, tells you how really, really, really, REALLY BAD the child rape, child abuse, and child molestation she went through before meeting Avallac'h was.

Remember also there are some very important issues that contribute to my obsession with Avallac'h, that clearly you don't know or have forgotten... and if you have read my profile or watch me regular, there is no way you can forget because I talk about it all the time:

* I was born into and grew up in a Child Prostitution Ring

* I had been raped by men in their 30s, 40s, 50s and older, more than 500 times by the time I was 8 years old

* We were kept locked in closet like isolation cages, with no lights, no toilets, no water, no electricity, in 24 hours of total darkness, slept in mountaiospiles of our own feces for years on end, and only received food and water once every 12 days, with the food often being ridden with maggots 

* None of us had schooling, medical records, birth certificates, social security numbers.... no one even knew any of us had ever been born because we were all born into this and had never been allowed to go out in public

* Me and 140 other children were rescued by an FBI raid, more than half of them commit suicide before reaching the age of 18, most of the ones still alive, ended up going back to prostitution jobs because they were emotionally and mentally crippled so bad by the sex abuse that they had no self esteem, felt they were worthless, and couldn't see anything better

* Today fewer than a dozen of these girls are still alive; most died from being beaten to death by drunk and drug addled pimps and clients, or their pimp's drug dealers

* after the FBI raid I set out to getting a GED and going to college, learning laws, and set out to courthouses to get new laws passed, and devoted my life to working with police and FBI to help get real world child sex abuse eradicated

* In the past decade alone, I have shut down 14 child prostitution rings, and sent over 200 real world child raping pedophiles to prison

* We are briefly told that Avallac'h identifies heavily with Ciri because he was kept as a sex slave by King Auberon, since his childhood because of his Elder Blood

* we are told that Avallac'h is sex crazy, simply because he doesn't know anything else as a result of having been kept imprisoned as a breeder his entire life, since childhood, a side effect of his being one of the few male Elves not born sterile

* we see Avallac'h infuriated with the horrific amounts of child rape, sex abuse, and molestation she has been put through her entire childhood, and we see him rescue her out of that life and try to give her a better life

* we also see Avallac'h not really knowing what a better life is, and simply putting Ciri into a better class of sex abuse, with her being used as a breeder the same way he was, because doesn't know what else to do with her

* we see Ciri at first thinking Avallac'h wanted to abuse her, but then see her witnessing him being abused and he realizing his mind is seriously broken by centuries of sex abuse that he is himself trapped in

* we see Avallac'h mentally torn apart over being forced by the King to put Ciri into the breeding program, while at the same time Avallac'h is doing everything in his power to keep the King from having sex with Ciri and trying to help Ciri escape the breeding program

* and we see Cri befriending Avallac'h on one very simple horror: the realization that what he now is, is what she will become if she doesn't fight back against the men who are sexually abusing them both

* I heavily identified with both Ciri and Avallac'h because, like both of them, I too grew up in horrific child sex abuse.... and I saw many, like Avallac'h, who as adults were mentally broken so badly by decades of sex abuse that they couldn't leave the life of abuse no matter how much they wanted to

While the entire series focuses heavily on the dozens upon dozens of men and women who are sexually abusing Ciri every step of her life, it was Chapter 5 of Lady of the Lake, when Ciri is trapped with Avallac'h, and steps back and sees how centuries of sex abuse destroyed his life, totally crippling his ability to function in normal society at all, and realizes that this is the path her life is becoming, that she will end up emotionally crippled by sex abuse, just like Avallac'h, if she doesn't fight back against Vilgefortz and his henchmen.... 

...THAT is the part of the novels that really hit close to home for me, because, I've been there. I've seen that in real life. 

* I've seen children destroyed by sex abuse.

* I was a child whose life was destroyed by sex abuse.

* I saw many of those children, go on to become adults trapped in a cycle of continually going back to their abusers or finding new abusers and never able to break away and live life

Seeing Ciri's life torn apart by sex abuse, and then seeing her encounter an adult whose life had been utterly destroyed by sex abuse and an inability to break out of the going back to abusers cycle... it triggered all kinds of nerves with me, because it's something I've experienced and can identify with.

It's why I like Avallac'h. I understand his pain, more than most.

It's also why it upsets me so much, when people accuse me of hating Ciri because I like Avallac'h.... because I can identify with Ciri, far more than you can even imagine... right down to witnessing the beheading of someone I loved. You can't even begin to imagine how much I can identify with Ciri's torment over Mistel's beheading.

And so while I have to turn my chat off because idiots want to shriek blind furies at pedophiles in my chat.... they clearly have no clue, who I am, what I've lived through, or WHY I can identify with Avallac'h and Ciri on such huge levels.

I know what it is like to live through the hell that both Ciri and Avallac'h lived through in their lives.

That is why I can read the extreme levels of Child Porn and child rape that happens in the Witcher novels and the Witcher novels become my favorite books BECAUSE of the child sex in them.

Because I can look at those sex scenes and think: "OMG! You poor thing! I know what that's like, it happened to me too!" And it drives me to want to help both Ciri and Avallac'h out of the sex slave hell they live with.

And for this reason I do HIGHLY RECOMMEND the Witcher novels, because they are told from Ciri's point of view and you DO see the horror and agony she suffers through as a result of the sexual abuse.


I at the same time can NOT recommend the Witcher novels, precisely because I know MOST people are going to read those scenes while jerking off because they are deviated men who read child porn because they enjoy it.

It becomes a double edged sword, with me WANTING to recommend the novels as a way to say.... "Look! This shouldn't happen to children!" but at the same time, I know the average reader is not looking at the horror of what Ciri is experiencing, because they are too busy jerking off while look at her vagina as it's being raped.

I look at the Witcher novels and see something that is the perfect tool to use to help shut down real world child sex slavery, but I know most reader look at the Witcher novels as Erotica and that deeply saddens me, because 

* these books should NOT be looked at as Erotica. They should be looked at as Horror. 

* These novels should not be seen as a tool to excite you, but rather as a tool to drive you to put an end to the real world shit that is happening to real world children every day.

#Plus the author is a horrendous bigot who hates gay people and black people on EXTREME SUPER FANATIC levels.

If you are gay, I DO NOT recommend you read the novels, unless you have got a stomach of steel and a thick skin, just because the "kill your gays" trope is flagrantly flaunted nearly every single page.

90% of the characters in the novels are gay, lesbian, bi-sexual, or asexual... and within a few pages of telling you this, you WILL see them not only be killed, but they will be mutilated, castrated, guts ripped out, tortured, beheaded, and their bodies paraded around. 

I read on average 3 novels a week. I've read close to 30,000 novels in my life time. I read predominantly LBGTQA+ literature, I've seen a lot of bad stereotypes against gays and a lot of "kill your gays" trope use over the years.... 

#And the gay-hatred is BY FAR THE WORST I'VE EVER SEEN in the Witcher novels!.... Its really, really, REALLY bad!

Likewise, White Power Doctrine is preached and glorified on INSANE EXTREMES in the Witcher novels. There is even a line that outright says "only blacks murder, no white man ever killed anyone".

Black characters are EVERYWHERE in the novels, but as quickly as they show up, they are brutalized and massiquere for the fun of it, and very clearly done because the author hates black people and can't kill them himself so is doing it on the page. This is NOT a case of the author showing us racism is BAD, rather it is a case of the author PROMOTING racism and the murder of none whites as GOOD.

Likewise, there is a anti-abortion message that briefly takes center stage, when you see a radical vigilante, going out every night to hunt down women who've had abortions, kidnapping them, taking them to his lab, torturing them like medical testing lab rats, then strangling them to death and dumping their bodies in a ravine. 

He also hunts down pregnant women about to have abortions, rips their babies out of them, then does the above to the women. Takes the babies home to his wives to take care of. 

He has 500 wives, thousands of children all rescued from abortions living with him, and the ravine is described as being filled with tens of thousands of dead women. 

The abortion bitch murdering, baby rescuing vigilante, is Avallac'h. The game forgot to tell you he did that, didn't it?

There are more. A lot more. But these are the ones that stood out the most to me. The Child Porn is out of control, as is the gay hating and black bashing.

The Witcher novels are first and foremost Andrzej Sapkowski's manifesto of hate alongside his raging pedophillia.

I classify Andrzej Sapkowski in the same category of author as Marion Zimmer Bradley... great at telling a story, but boy do they belong in prison. The only reason neither of them have gone to prison for real life pedophillia, is because Marion Zimmer Bradley died before her court trial ended and Andrzej Sapkowski lives in Poland where both Child Porn and real life rape of children is LEGAL.

If either of them had lived in America after the law changes of September 1997... both of them would have gotten life in prison.

Again... something to think about.

I'm able to look past the cringe horrors of the Child Porn, pedophellia, gay killing, black bashing that gallops through the Witcher novels and see the story behind the author's manifesto and lusts for little girls.

In the 1996 edition Ciri is 12 years old in her sex scenes with Avallac'h and Auberon, 

...while Yennefer is 15 in her sex scenes with Geralt and Triss Merigold is the youngest at just 10 years old in her sex scenes with Geralt.

ALL of Dandelion's women were under 16 when he raped them, with Ciri being the youngest at only 7 years old.

Avallac'h is 2,000+, Auberon is 468, Geralt is 198, and Dandelion is 51.

There are ZERO females over the age of 16 in ANY of the Witcher novels' more than 300 sex scenes.

There are ZERO males under the age of 50 in ANY of the Witcher novels' more than 300 sex scenes.

But I was only able to do so because I had played the games so many times before reading the novels, so could see the little girls of the novels as the adults they were in the games.

Had I read the novels BEFORE playing the games... I would not have finished reading the novels and I NEVER would have played the game.

I highly recommend you DO NOT read the novels until AFTER you have played the games, for that very reason.

22 Times in 1 chapter - if you hate Avallach with Ciri in my game you should really run screaming from the novels from EelKat on

 Answering viewer response to Avallac'h having sex with Ciri 22 times in Chapter 5 of Lady of the Lake:

Wait, that was Avallac'h? I'm confused. 
It's been a while since I read the novels, like 5 years. 

I thought Avallac'h was the scientist who was studying Ciri. He kept her locked up in cages and tortured her. 

I forgot about the sex crazy guy with the baby. Was that Avallac'h? Wait, who was the scientist then? Wasn't Avallac'h the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood? 

Wasn't Avallac'h the scientist who was hunting Ciri all those years? Wait, I'm confused, the sex crazy one, that was Avallac'h? Then, who was the scientist obsessed with Elder Blood and spent all that time torturing Ciri, then? 


Answering viewer response to Avallac'h having sex with Ciri 22 times in Chapter 5 of Lady of the Lake:  


Wait, that was Avallac'h? I'm confused. It's been a while since I read the novels, like 5 years. I thought Avallac'h was the scientist who was studying Ciri. He kept her locked up in cages and tortured her. I forgot about the sex crazy guy with the baby. Was that Avallac'h? Wait, who was the scientist then? Wasn't Avallac'h the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood? Wasn't Avallac'h the scientist who was hunting Ciri all those years? Wait, I'm confused, the sex crazy one, that was Avallac'h? Then, who was the scientist obsessed with Elder Blood and spent all that time torturing Ciri, then?  


No, Avallac'h was not the scientist studying Elder Blood.

Vilgefortz was the one studying Elder Blood.

Avallac'h had no need to study Elder Bloods, because he WAS an Elder Blood.

Yes, Avallac'h was the sex crazy one with the baby.

Avallac'h was King Auberon's court mage.

Avallac'h was the nobleman who lived in a palace on the Lake of Avalon a two day ride through the forest to Tir na Lia.

Avallac'h was the poet and flutist musician who spent his days sitting in the apple orchard on the Lake of Avalon writing love poems and music.

Avallac'h is the Elf who took Ciri horseback riding around the Lake of Avalon every day for 8 years.

Avallac'h is the Elf Ciri slept with camped out on the beach on the shore of the Lake of Avalon.

Avallac'h is the one who was in love with Lara Dorren and tried to make Ciri be Lara Dorren, because Ciri and Lara looked like twins.

Avallac'h is the mage who rescued Ciri from Leo and Vilgefortz, by sending a black pegasus and a silver sword through a portal into the cage she was being tortured in, allowing her to kill her tortures and escape on horseback.

Avallac'h is the one who nursed Ciri back to health and took care of her after her escape from Leo's Gladiator Fighting Rings.

Avallac'h was the friend who was there for Ciri after Ciri's lover Mistel was murdered.

Avallac'h was convinced Ciri was his dead wife Lara come back to him, and he wanted to pick up where he left off. Lara died while 8 months pregnant with another man's baby.

Avallac'h wanted Ciri pregnant with another man's baby so he could have his family (Lara and her illegitimate baby) back.

Avallac'h was the one who sent Ciri off to have sex with King Auberon, because Avallac'h wanted Ciri to give birth to Lara's illegitimate baby.

Avallac'h is the Alder Elf (an Elder Blooded Elf) who lived with The Aen Elle Elves (he was NOT an Aen Elle Elf) and was the last of his kind, so he cloned himself to create a wife out of his own blood. 

Avallac'h is the mage referred to as **The Knowing One**, because he is a psion and could see the past and future, and could hear the thoughts of everyone.

Avallac'h is the one who did the sonic scream and had telekinetic powers.

Avallac'h is the one who was an Aen Servahn Elf aka a Sage aka an Elf with telepathic abilities.

The Aen Elle Elves referred to Avallac'h as "The Elder God" because of the imens powers of his Elder Blood.

Avallac'h lived in a cave in Skellige that was also Lara's tomb. The Skellige Druids, gathered around this cave and worshiped Avallac'h as their god, referring to him as "The Ancient Unseen Elder God".

After 700 years of kidnapping pregnant women who were about to have abortions, strangling them to death, cutting out their fetuses, and draining his own blood and putting it into said fetuses, Avallac'h finally succeeded in creating a female clone of himself whom he named Lara Dorren *(my beloved seagull)* out of the fetus he took from King Auberon's now murdered wife Shandail.

Because Lara and 4 of her female descendants had Elder Blood and the powers that came with it, The an Elle Elves called Avallac'h The Elder God From Whom all Elder Blood Flows.

Because King Auberon was the biological father of Lara Dorren, Avallac'h concluded that if Ciri had a baby by King Auberon it would be Lara's baby.

Avallac'h is the one who had a phobia of swords and vampires because he suffered from severe anemia as a result of draining his blood for 700 years to create Lara Dorren.

Avallac'h is the one who commit suicide after Lara's death and became the wraith that guarded her tomb.

Avallac'h left Lara's tomb when Ciri showed up, and was convinced Ciri was Lara reborn and come back to him.

Avallac'h is the one who always addressed Ciri as "My Lady of the Lake" and worshipped her saying she was a Goddess.

Avallac'h is the one who raved and ranted that his own blood had betrayed him, because Lara left him for a Human lover, Cregannon.

Avallac'h is the one who talked to his brain and had arguments with his brain over the need to get back the blood that Cregannon stole from him.

Avallac'h is the one who obsessively picked feainnewedd flowers in the field where Lara died, while saying that the flowers were his blood brought to life, stating that these flowers sprung up anywhere where his blood was spilt on the ground.

Avallac'h obsessively picked these feainnewedd flowers while saying he needed to turn then back into his blood because he needed his blood back, because he was in frail health as a result of draining too much of his blood to clone himself to make Lara.

Avallac'h is the one who sometimes couldn't tell that Ciri was not Lara, and called Ciri "Lara" and would ask her why she took his blood and gave it to Cregaggon.

Avallac'h is the one who devolved into gibbering madness, accusing Ciri of stealing his blood and demanding she give it back to him.

Avallac'h is the one who demanded Ciri give him Lara's baby so he could have his stolen blood back.

#Avallac'h was the bipolar manically depressed Elf who spent half of his life building a wife for himself out of his own blood , nearly killing himself to do so, becoming very frail, sickly, and suffering from a weak heart, prone to massive heart attacks as a result of having drained so much of his blood, and went insane when she (Lara) left him for someone else, and became obsessed with getting his blood back, via having a baby with Lara's 4th great-grand daughter Ciri.

Avallac'h was NOT the scientist who was studying Elder Blood.

Avallac'h was the father of all Elder Bloods and was dying from anemia and was trying to gather his blood back from any living Elder Blood he could find.

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The scientist you are thinking of is Vilgefortz NOT Avallac'h.

The scientist with the dungeons and torture devices was Vilgefortz.


Vilgefortz was the scientist-mage with the dungeons and torture chambers. Vilgefortz kept Ciri locked in cages and had his buddy Leo torturing her. 

Vilgefortz is the scientist-mage who was obsessed with Elder Blood and wanted to be the most powerful mage of all time. 

Vilgefortz believed that if he drank the blood of an Elder Blood he would gain super powers, so he kept Ciri in a cage and was draining her blood and drinking it. Vilgefortz then decided that eating Elder Blood babies would make himself invicable. 

Vilgefortz is the scientist-mage who created the machine to pump eggs out of Ciri's overaies so that he could grew Elder Blood babies in jars. Vilgefortz is the scientist-mage who locked Ciri in a cage then hooked Ciri's ovaries up to the torture device egg pumping machine. 

Vilgefortz is the scientist-mage who is in all 8 novels, beginning to end. Vilgefortz is the scientist-mage who hunts Ciri her whole life. Vilgefortz is the primary villain of the series. He appears on well over 2,000 pages of the 4,000+ page series.

There are 800+ scenes of Vilgefortz involving dungeons, torture devices, cages, or hunting Ciri.

Vilgefortz was brutal, vicious, mean, and hateful to Ciri.



Avallac'h was NOT the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood. 

Vilgefortz was the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood. 

Yes, THE GAME tells you Avallac'h was a scientists studying Elder Blood... but the GAME IS FAN FICTION!

Any information that comes from the game, IS NOT CANON!

The GAME NOT THE NOVELS says that Avallac'h is a scientist studying Elder Blood...and BECAUSE THE GAME IS FAN FICTION that was created by the game developers, the info from the game CAN NOT BE COUNTED AS CORRECT! 

BECAUSE THE GAME IS FAN FICTION that was created by fans of the novels, the info from the game CAN NOT BE COUNTED AS LORE FRIENDLY!!

BECAUSE THE GAME IS FAN FICTION that was created by Witcher fan boys, the info from the game CAN NOT BE COUNTED AS ACCURATE!!!

If the game told you the information, then chances are very high, that that information is NOT LORE and is instead FAN FICTION.

The game is a work of fan fiction,

created by fans of the novels, and therefore:

 Any info from the game...


at all, when answering your questions.

Only information from the novels is correct, true, and accurate lore to the series.

The game took many elements of Vilgefortz's character and put them into Avallac'h's game character, thus changing some facts about Avallac'h.

And so, while in THE FAN FICTION OF THE GAME Avallac'h was the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood.

In the ACTUAL, true and accurate lore of the novels Avallac'h was NOT the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood, rather Vilgefortz was the scientist obsessed with studying Elder Blood. 

Avallac'h and Vilgefortz were both scientist-mages.

Ciri tried to have sex with both Avallac'h and Vilgefortz.

Avallac'h had trouble resisting Ciri's throwing her panties at him and masterbating in his face, while Vilgefortz was not tempted by Ciri's pussy flashing, panty dancing behaviours at all.

Avallac'h was highly sexually attracted to Ciri while Vilgefortz found Ciri to be disgustingly repulsive and was sickened to even look at her.

Avallac'h was over joyed that Ciri was a filthy, skanky, slutty assed, whoring, cunt bitch who flashed her pussy in the face of every man she saw. Avallac'h thought that was just the greatest thing for 12 year Ciri to be doing, and became her pimp to encourage her to do it even more then she already had been doing it on her own before she met him.

Vilgeforzt was repulsed and disjusted that Ciri was a filthy, skanky, slutty assed, whoring, cunt bitch who flashed her pussy in the face of every man she saw. Vilgefortz thought that was just the worst thing for 12 year Ciri to be doing, and tortured her worse every time he caught her doing it to discourage her from doing it.

The more furiously Ciri masterbated every other page for the reader, the more Avallac'h chased after her, like a love sick puppy.

The more furiously Ciri masterbated every other page for the reader, the more Vilgefortz put her in cages and tortured her to try to get her to stop being a whore.

Do not underestimate how big of a whore Ciri was in the novels. I seriously question if Andrzej Sapkowski ever met a child before. Is he even aware that normal, sane, not mentally retarded children DO NOT run around with their hand shoved up their vagina 24 hours a day? Ciri is thoroughly disgusting in the novels. It just makes me want to puke, how vile she is.

The worst part of Ciri, is she run around shoving her cunt in every man's face, then gets raped and nearly raped by dozens of men over the course of the novels, and runs away boo-hooing "I don't why they tried to rape me!"... uhm... maybe if you pulled your hand out of your cunt and put your panties back on, men would stop trying to rape you.


Ciri's extreme levels of mental retardation, make her an incredibly unbelievable character, because we see her supposedly"smart" in some scenes, but then every 5 pages there go her panties flying across the room again and her fingers up her cunt again, and if the men in the room refuse to watch her, she throws herself on the floor and holds her breath, and whenever anyone wants to know why she acts like this, she says "Because I can, and you can't stop me, so there! Nannanananaaaaa!"

I mean, really? We are supposed to believe a retard like ^^^THAT^^^ is also smart or intelligent?

At best we could say Ciri has Tourettes and doesn't know how to stop masterbating and screaming "Nananananaaaa!" for that reason, but even real children with Tourettes stop masterbating long enough to do other things, at least once in a while.

And someone with Tourettes is furiously masterbating 24 hours a day because they have a brain malfunction.... Ciri is TRYING to seduce every man around her. That's quite different.

I found Ciri in the novels to be an incredibly revolting, vile, and disgusting character because I got sick of every time I turned the page, there she was yet again shoving her cunt in yet another man's face.

Ciri in the novels is just so disgusting. So vile. So unwholesome. So loathsome. So unpityable. 

Every other thing she does is so disgusting and makes me want to smash her face in with a brick.

In the novels, Ciri was a filthy slut who liked whoring her ass off to every man she saw, something she started doing at the ripe old age of just 7 years old. Much of her childhood was spent dancing in bars.

Vilgefortz was in Ciri's life since she was 4 years old. She grew up with him. He hated the whoring lifestyle that Ciri was trying to live.

Ciri met Avallac'h when she was 12 years old. By the time she met Avallac'h she was a proud prostitute with 68 men under her belt. Avallac'h took advantage of this and became her pimp.

Yes, the sex crazy guy with the mega baby obsession, THAT one was Avallac'h.

Avallac'h was also a scientist-mage, but he is the ONLY Elf to ever be born with Elder Blood. Avallac'h is unique. There are no other Elves like Avallac'h. 

Because Avallac'h was the only one of his kind, there was no mate for him and he wanted a family. 

So Avallac'h cloned himself to create Lara Dorren. But Lara thought of Avallac'h as her father not her husband so she left him for someone else. 

Lara was 8 months pregnant with another man's baby when she died, and she made Avallac'h promise to raise the baby, but he didn't raise it and instead gave it to Humans to raise. The baby died before reaching adulthood (but after giving birth to twins) and Avallac'h felt guilty that he had not raised Lara's baby like he had promised, becoming convinced that she would not have died so young had he kept his promise.

Avallac'h is Ciri's 5th great-grandfather. Avallac'h has no interest in Elder Blood because he has Elder Blood. Avallac'h wants a family and is obsessed with getting Ciri pregnant. 

Avallac'h's entire story revolves around his sex-crazed obsession with Ciri and his blind obsession with convincing Ciri to be his wife and give him a baby. 

Avallac'h was madly in love with Lara Dorren and Ciri looked like Lara's twin, so Avallac'h was making Ciri wear Lara's clothes and teaching her how to walk, talk, dress, and act like Lara. 

Avallac'h went insane from the guilt of the death of Lara's baby and convinced himself that Ciri was Lara reincarnated come back to life to give him a second chance to raise her baby. 

So Avallac'h tried to make Ciri be Lara and tried to make her have an illegitimate baby, so that he could raise Lara's illegitimate baby like he had promised he would do.

Avallac'h is a very minor character who shows up just before the end of the series, appearing on only 32 pages, in 2 chapters of The Tower of Swallows (vol 6) and in Chapter 5 of The Lady of the Lake (vol 7). 

Every page featuring Avallac'h is fully focused heavily on sex, sex, sex, sex, babies, babies, babies, Lara Dorren, strip dancers, babies, prostitutes, sex, sex, sex, and more sex.

There are ZERO scenes of Avallac'h involving dungeons, torture devices, cages, or hunting Ciri.

Avallac'h was was the sex crazy pervert who was in love with Ciri and was kind, gentle, and loving towards her.

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About This Game Play:

This current mod-making playthrough, is prep for a future fully-lore-friendly playthrough....

The ultimate goal of my mod making playthrough, is to make every character as lore-friendly as possible to how they were described in the novels.

Most specifically though we are transforming as much of the game as possible to match Chapter 5 of the novel Lady of the Lake, when Ciri lived with Avallac'h the first time, on The Lake of Avalon.

This current playthrough is largely a lot of test runs of hundreds of mods. It is being played open world with quests rarely happening, to allow us to run tests of various mods as I build them.

Due to the fact that the game engine, scripts, and other files is often open and being edited while I'm playing the game, this current playthrough is very unstable with bugs and glitches happening  daily and game crashes happening, sometimes as often as every few minutes.

You are witnessing a live overhaul and full rewrite of the game, that when finished will be used in a complete (more normal style) playthrough of the game.

However do not expect to see the lore-friendly playthrough any time soon. 

I began building this overhaul mod May 13, 2018 and have worked on it daily for 4 to 12 hours a day, all of it streamed here on Twitch, and... 

...while we've now altered over 2,000 script files, more than 7,000 textures, several hundred meshes, 400+ xml files, dozens of ini files, and have now begun work on changing 3D models...

...this project is far from finished and could see as much as another 3 years of daily work before completion.

Computer  stats: 

Motherboard: Asus Z170

Processor: i7-7000 @4.20GHz

RAM: 16 GB

Graphics Card: NVirdia 1070 GTX

Capture Card: AVerMedia Live Gamer HD

NOTE: Chat is set to emote only on my Twitch channel and my personal contact information has been removed from my website and every place else, due to the HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of false reports of "information", along with vile hateful memes about the murder of my family being sent to me by trolls who think mocking the murder of my family is funny.

FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the of the April 10, 2015 kidnapping of my 12 children by 14 Ku Klux Klan men who invaded our home and the subsequent May 15, 2015 murder of 10 of the 12 whom had their heads nailed to my front door. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322 

FAQs: I just tried to raid your channel and Twitch canceled the raid. Gave me a message saying it wasn't allowed. Why can't I raid your channel?

#FAQs: I just tried to raid your channel and Twitch canceled the raid. Gave me a message saying it wasn't allowed. Why can't I raid your channel?


I turned off raids back in 2018, when a big partnered streamer, with several thousand regular viewers, started sending their followers to my channel to post the message in my chat "deserve to be raped"  with many of them posting a lot of sexual stuff, and most of them saying stuff about how women who wore hijab (I wear hijab, btw) were "really whores and prostitutes hiding their true nature" and were "hiding their bodies to entice men even more, so deserved to be raped because they were asking for it". Along with a lot of them chanting "bitties for titties" and saying "flash your boobs". Plus making lots of racist slurs and other hate comments. It was really vulgar the stuff they were saying.

Well, my channel rarely has more than 10 viewers at a time, and suddenly these people showed up 700 to 2,000 of them all at once. 

They completely flooded my chat. 

Every day. 

For weeks. 

It was a total nightmare. 

They would show up every single stream and it was very difficult to get it under control because my channel was so tiny and they were so many and I was just one person. 

It was nearly impossible for me to stream at all, because I had to stop what I was doing to ban so many of them one after another. And they would create alternate accounts as fast as I banned them. It was the first time I had to deal with trolls and I was completely unprepared for it.

In my mind, I had thought trolls would just be 1 person here or there, so no big deal to deal with on my own without mods. I had never heard of "witch hunting channels" before, so I had no idea there was such a thing as huge channels who would pick a tiny channel then tell their viewers to take up a call to action to attack the small channel.

At the time, I had no mods and no chat bots, just used Twitch's autobot and myself for modding chat. I had never needed mods or a chat bot before. My channel is tiny and I make no attempt to grow it. I'm content with a small channel. My topic is very niche, so not many are going to be interested in my streams. It's just me sharing my rather niche hobby with others in the hobby, so I never expected my channel to be big enough to need mods or a chat bot. At the time I had the mind set that trolls only attacked big channels. You know to start drama in order to get their 15 minutes of fame, so I had not even considered that trolls ever went after tiny channels. I was very naïve about the nature of trolls back than.

So it was very difficult to get on top of it. I immediately modded several of my regulars so they could help me with banning the trolls. And I added 7 chat bots (NightBot, StreamElements, MooBot, WizeBot, ect) to my chat and added all the vulgar, lewd, toxic, racist, and hate slur words the trolls were using in my chat to the bots' blacklist of banned words.

It was silly of me to think that just because my channel was very tiny, that trolls would never be a bigger problem than I could control on my own. This same group continues to to this day to sexually and racially harass me on Twitter, FaceBook, even here on Reddit *(go through my profile and look at the replies to the majority of my comments, on Reddit and you'll see them - pro-Nazi, Jew-hating, white-power, deserve to be raped comments)* 

They've all been blocked on Twitch, but around 800 of these haters follow me to every single social network they can find me on and some sites don't have easy ability to block and ban trolls. They started doing it in 2018, and it's now 2021 and a comment I made on Reddit less than 24 hours ago, they attacked simply it simply because I was the one who commented and for no other reason. 

They found me via a Twitch raid by a very hateful (and now perma-banned) Twitch streamer, who made a habit of actively seeking out female streamers who had shared a story of surviving rape and raiding them with the message "deserved to be raped".

November 14, 2013 - 3 rapists attacked me in a parking lot, a blond woman in her 60s, he bald son in his 30s, and her redhaired sister... the police have not been able to identify them, but their is no one in this town who does NOT know who they are... the woman's husband, is the man who drove the backhoe over my house August 8, 2013...

November 14, 2013 - 3 rapists attacked me in a parking lot...

*I was 8 months pregnant, they killed my baby, 

* broke my hip, legs, and spine, 

**with metal golf clubs**, 

* crushing my spinal column and destroying the nerve bundle - 

* they left me for dead - doctors say it's a miracle I'm even alive - 

* it is why I am bedridden, 

* can't even bath or use the toilet on my own - 

* most of the left side of my body is dead, like one who had a stroke - 

* tremors in my hands are so bad I need help do basic things like eating and getting dressed - and is why I can no longer play console games and can only play mouse driven point & click games - thus WHY I switched to a Witcher 3 exclusive channel - yes I play Witcher 3 almost entirely one handed and with **JUST A MOUSE**

* I have to wear adult diapers because my bladder and intestines have no feeling anymore so I don't know when I have to go - 

* I can barely breath my lungs are messed up now as well - 

**never underestimate the damage that 3 metal golf clubs can do to your body and its ability to function**

* I'm bedridden, these past 8 years and is why I took up streaming as there is little else one can do when stuck in bed 24 hours a day for the rest of your life - 

* and my profile has this information on it as how I got started streaming; this is why they chose the specific raid message "deserve to be raped".

Initially I was on the road to recovery - out of the wheelchair 5 months later and relearning to walk...

April 10, 2015, my children were kidnapped by 14 men who broke in, they had long metal poles with wire retractable nooses on the end. Held us down with those while using bricks to beat us with.

All 14 of the men had handguns. 2 of them held their guns to my head, while this was happening.

They smashed all of our furniture, shredded clothes and bedding and books; ripped cupboard doors off the walls, took knives to to pillows and the sofa ripped out the stuffing ... they acted like they were looking for something, but what ever it was they thought we had, they didn't find it... they left with 12 of our children

Meanwhile more then 70 of my neighbours gathered in the driveway to watch and not one of them did anything to help.

They arrived at 1PM and left 3 hours later. And more than 70 people, from more than a dozen houses and 4 condo complexes - stood there in my driveway for 3 hours watching - and no one tried to help. Not one single person.

My driveway at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... every neighbour from every house, on both sides of the roads, for at least 20 houses in each of all 4 directions... all left their houses, to walk down the road, to stand in my driveway - 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... and watched, and cheered, and encouraged the attack.

Welcome to the Town of Old Orchard Beach, and the bastards who call themselves my neighbours.

May 15, 2015, the first of the heads was nailed to the door.

My family was kidnapped and a month later murdered.

And than June 2016... the original 3 - the blond woman, her bald son, and her redhaired sister - the 3 with the metal golf clubs from 2013 - the ones who murdered my baby - they returned, yet another parking lot, again just their 2013 attack, while I was putting bags on the backseat of my car, they came up behind me, slammed me into the side of the car, and attacked just like before, only this time with a shopping cart.

The 2016 attack, damaged my spinal column, worse than before.

The 2013 attack, the 3 of them left together in a 4 door white pick-up truck.

In the 2016 attack, the blond woman and her bald son left in a gold suv-wagon Volvo, while the redhaired woman left in a silver subaru. 

People ask today... why am I so obsessed with Avallac'h... look at the date I started playing Witcher 3. My family was murdered. I survived. I had a very large family. I'm not used to being alone. My home is filled with silence and memories at every turn. It's not that I am obsessed with Avallac'h, rather I need something to drown out the memories, a reason to live, that's what Avallac'h is - a line line. The only one I have right now. 

Plus - I could find no one I could identify with - few are raped so brutally that they are left crippled - in the novels Avallac'h was. Few know what it is like to survive your entire family being murdered - and again in the novels, Avallac'h survived when his wife and baby were murdered.

Do you have any idea how hard it is to find someone who knows what it is like, to be crippled, bedridden, shattered spine, unable to walk for the rest of your life, from such a brutal attack? To this day I've yet to find another real person who has survived what I survived. There is no one who understand what I went through, what I continue to go through.

And few people there are who've survived their family being kidnapped, and then not only murdered, but their heads, hands, and feet cut off and nailed to your front door?

How many people know what it is like to get u one morning to get your mail, and find THAT on your front door?

There is no one who understands.

And than, be someone who survived BOTH of those things, only 2 years apart.

What happened to me is so rare, that one else alive has ever been through anything like this, and there is no one for me to talk to. Not one person.  

That is WHY the obsession with Avallac'h. I could not find a real person who understood my pain, but I a fictional person, with a similar pain, a survivor of a similar event, and I can understand his pain. I sympathize very deeply with Avallac'h, because there exists no one who can can sympathize with me. 

I read the Witcher novels, March 2018. The game doesn't tell you Avallac'h's history, so playing the game, I had never felt a connection with Avallac'h. But than March 2018, 5 years after the first attack, 3 years after the 2nd, and 2 years after the 3rd, I finally found, someone whom had survived something similar. I identified with him, because there is no one else I can identify with, real or fictional. I started playing the game as Avallac'h May 13, 2018 - 2 days before the 4th anniversary of my family's murder.

The rape raiders of Twitch, thought my pain and suffering was funny. They found rape and murder to be things worthy of jokes, memes, running gags, teasing, and taunting.

And they are not a small group.

In total more than 300,000 Twitch members were involved in the rape raids.

That's a lot of people who support rape and think mocking the murder of my family is a fun pastime.

64 other female streamers have since come forward, also attacked by this same streamer and their rape supporting followers. Some were gamers, some were art streamers, some were just chatters, none of us had anything in common other than each of us had started streaming as a method of self therapy after surviving rape and had said so on our profile.

I have severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder as a result of the rape attack and murder of my baby, which left me unable to walk for the rest of my life.

And now, thanks to the "deserve to be raped" raids, Twitch raids, trigger panic attacks for me as well.

And ever since then, I've wanted nothing to do with raids. So I turned the raid option off.

And if you find yourself one of the 78 mods on my channel today - it's because you were here when the rape raids were happening and you DID NOT join the dipshits in their attacks, as did some of my regulars. You were modded simply because my chat is now emote only and you 78 mods are the ONLY people allowed to chat in chat.

You don't post in my chat any more. Did I do something wrong?

**NOTE: This also answers the question "What happened to the Dazzling Razzberry? It's been months since I've seen it."**

*You don't post in my chat any more. Did I do something wrong?*


You? No. 

Another streamer? Yes. 

And I was so utterly disgusted with it that I simply stopped using Twitch chat. 

April 2018, yes, a month before we started the Avallac'h Playthrough and 5 months before a single Avallac'h screenshot had ever been uploaded to my profile, while I was in the final weeks of the 3rd Geralt Playthrough, a 3D art streamer contacted me.

At the time, I was known around Twitch as the person to contact if you were about to play Witcher 3 and wanted help with anything. Because of her, I no longer do this.

She explained to me that she would soon be taking a vacation to Finland, and had stolen her brother's copy of Witcher 3, made an illegal copy of it, put it on her computer, and when she returned from Finland, she was going to start playing it n stream... and asked would I please lurk in her stream in case she needed help with the game.

I went to her channel the same day she contacted me, and she was making 3D models of a rack, a killing pear, and a Judas chair... medieval torture devices... which she explained to me she hoped to put in Witcher 3 as new game elements. She knew nothing of the Witcher series, she claimed, but had been told it was an easy game to add mods for, and she wanted to add a torture chamber to a game and felt this would be a good game to do it with.

A week later, still in April 2018, she had directly contacted me, said she had returned home from her vacation in Finland, and asked me to visit her stream, and when I did, she asked me a question about how to make mods for Witcher 3, claiming that she wanted to make a "dungeon torture chamber mod" using a set of 3d models of torture devices that she has made in Maya 3D software program, asking how to port such things as torture devices into Witcher 3, because she wanted to make a BDSM mod. I answered the question explaining how to build a mod like this and she, unknown to me, then took a snippet of what I said, took it out of context, and used it to make a meme about Avallac'h calling him a BDSM Fetish freak, while simultaneously calling me a BDSM Dominatrix. She did that August 2018, but I did not find out she did it until October 2019. 

It was what started the Deserve to be Raped raids and why 5 of her followers showed up at my house February 2019, beating up family members, doing $30k damages to my car, $230k damages to our home, hospitalizing 8 people, and raping 2 women.

The rape raids were sending 700 to 2,000 rape raiders to my channel daily. I turned off raids, banned usernames, added more words to autobot and nightbot, and turned on followers only. But they started doing "youtube style" raids once raids were turned off. They started following to by pass follower only, and  when "rape" became a banned word they started getting around it with "r@pe" or "rap3" or "r.a.p.e" etc. And they created new throwaway accounts as fast as me and my 78 mods banned them. At it's worst we were banning more than 2,000 usernames per stream.

Twitch support was not helpful. Their advice was "turn on emote only" while advising that I could get banned if I didn't stay on top of keeping the harassers out of my chat, because it was my responsibility to keep trolls out.

I turned on emote only August 2018.  I turn it off when a stream starts and with 15 to 20 minutes I have to turn it on again... right to this day.

Once someone gets fixated on you, they won't stop, and they'll use their Discord and the power of Twitter's cancel culture to gang up on you and gather huge hoards to help attack. 

I've not been able to have my chat turned on in almost 2 years. It's deeply distressing because, well the primary reason to use Twitch over YouTube IS chat interaction and sexcrazed men harassing female streamers like this is an enormous problem on Twitch.

I'm crippled. Bedridden. Because 3 bastard from that psycho bitch streamer's attack showed up at my house and beat me up with golf clubs and baseball bats. 

I used to do daily 9 hour streams. I'm an elderly senior citizen, for a long time I was the oldest stream on Twitch. I was already crippled from muscle disease, that made it near impossible for me to do anything, so didn't need rape crazed bastards with baseball bats and golf clubs to break my spine, crush my vertebrae, break my hip, and break both legs, and leave me paralyzed in bed for the rest of my life. I'm too weak to sit upright or hold my head up for more then 2 or 3 hours a day, and doing so caused extreme exhaustion with me blacking out for 12 hours or more afterwards. I'm not yet able to get up out of bed or sit up for very long, so it is still difficult for me to stream daily and streams are not very long yet, many have been only 40minutes long. Getting up to 3 hours has been incredibly difficult.

I can barely move my hands, do you have any idea how difficult it is for me to type? And every username has to be typed in to ban them, and with thousands and hour, you literally as a viewer, do absolutely nothing but watch me type ban username for hours on end.... for every single daily stream since August 2018. 

She made 200+ VODs and posted 2,000+ Discord posts calling me a dominatrix, saying I was into bondage, BDSM, and foot fetishes, including to post my home address in her Discord, telling her perverted, immoral, deviated followers to go my house to have sex with me, and some of her followers, did just that, expecting to find me willing to throw myself on them, expecting they could do anything they wanted to me.

Do you know why my family moved February 2019?

Because she and her followers were banned from harassing my chat, she sent her simps to my house, telling them to rape me.

At the time I was staying with my 82 year old disabled dad on his 3rd floor apartment, in a building that had 28 families in it.

To get in the building you have to go through a front entry hall, go through 2 separate sets of doors, and then find your way through the halls and stairways to find which apartment you are looking for.

Because a group of 5 men showed up at 2AM one night. They broke BOTH the 2 front doors off and threw them out into the street.

They made their way up the stairs, punched the glass and screens out of every window they passed on their way.

With baseball bats they smashed up all of the posts on the stair railings, broke the railings off the stairs and threw them out a window onto one of the resident's cars below.

They ripped the front door off the apartment next door to mine, went into that apartment and gang raped the 2 young mothers (sisters) who lived there with their 2 and 4 year old babies.

After that they went back outside, smashing the walls on their way down, pulling out electrical wiring and plumbing pipes as they went.

Once outside they proceeded to trash the 3 cars parked in the driveway, one of them being my Dazzling Razzberry. They used their bats to smash out the glass, and smash up the metal. This is why you've not seen The Dazzling Razzberry since February 2019. The Dazzling Razzberry no longer exists. And you know, it as one of the world's top ten most haunted cars, that's why I bought it December 2006. I still have it and it is being restored. The damages were very extensive and included the wheels being sawed off the axels, the metal bars that hold up the engines and the ones holding up the transmission, were also all sawed off. 

Do you remember the crazy church group lead by the mystery Mark, who sawed up The Golden Eagle, the World's Most Haunted Car, the real Christine that Stephen King based his fictional Christine off of... do you remember how much damage they did to that car May 15, 2010?

Well, this group did even more damage than that to The Dazzling Razzberry. Both cars are very rare antiques and difficult to get parts for. The Dodge, is one of only 5,000 ever made and one of fewer then 100 known to exist today, all parts have to be hand made, there are no parts out there for it, that's why we couldn't restore it, though we do still have it... the Volvo, while rare today, wasn't rare when it was new, and so parts exist for it, if you search far and wide and have enough money to buy them when you find them. The Dazzling Razzberry as such is being restore, but we need so many parts and they are so very expensive, that her we are now 2 years later and my daily driver is still not yet drivable.

They did more than $230,000 in damages to our landlord's building, put 2 women in the hospital, put my 82 year old dad in the hospital with a ruptured kidney, left 1 little 10 year old boy dead, left 28 families homeless, and totaled 3 cars, including my car The Dazzling Razzberry which they did $30,000 in damages to. EVERYBODY in the building had to move because the damages were so bad that the city condemned the building.

#FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the investigation of all of this. If you have information about the case, give it to him not me. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322

My channel went several years with never banning anyone. There was never a need to. Today, because of the deserve to be raped raids, my channel is ban heavy on extreemes ... you step out of line even an inch and you are gone, no warning, no time out, no grace period, no second chances... total zero tolerance for anything now

3 years ago I struggled to ban anyone, felt guilty about doing so; now I ban a dozen or more people every stream without batting an eye.

The deserve to be raped raids started out when she posted that meme she made on DisCord telling her DisCord followers a huge amounts of sex fanfiction lies she had made up about me as though it was actual fact. 800+ of her Discord followers started reposting her lies about me on Twitter, causing a group of radical right-wing, anti-sex extreemists to attack my Twitch channel, my Reddit profile, my Twitter account, and my FaceBook account.

Once she found out how easy it was to instigate people into these violent attacks, she started make 5hr long VODs about me, making up wild stories about my so-called "BDSM Dominatrix" career, with further enraged her DisCord followers, who gathered up even more of their Twitter followers to continue the attack.

Suddenly a mass flood of 300,000 -THREE HUNDRED THOUSAND- extreme radical anti-BDSM radical Christians mass attacked my Twitch channel, my Twitter, my FaceBook, and other places, with thousands of death threats and rape threats.

In total she made 200+ of these fanfiction BDSM fetish freak videos about me, and posted variations of her meme as a running gag in her Discord more than 2,000 times, inciting her followers to pure outrage and extreme levels of both online and offline violence.

I don't use Discord, as Discord is a phone app and I do not own a phone, so I have no way to use things like Discord or Tik-Tok or SnapChat that are phone only apps, and thus do not have accounts with any of those 3 or any other apps like them... I've not had a phone since Old Orchard shut down the switch board operator in 1979... I used to walk to the town hall to use the switchboard to call anyone, and after that was gone I've not access to a phone since... never put a land line in, and when cell phones came out, I never got one... phones, like TVs are very expensive and my income has never been more then $4,000 in any single year of my entire life... a phone service costs more per month than I make in 3 months. I can't afford a phone. So I don't have a DisCord account because I don't have enough money to even buy a phone let alone subscribe to a phone service, plus I'm in Maine, it's not like we have any cell phone towers here... there is no phone service up here unless we set up a satilight dish in own yard... I simple have no way at all to use Discord, because phone are not an option around here even if I did have enough money to buy one... so me not having phone means, me also not having a Discord account which also meant I was unaware of what she was doing and for nearly 2 years was unaware of the source of the deserve to be raped attackers.

As I am an extremist Christian myself (a 5th generation FLDS Mormon) who shuns all things related to sex, I was continually baffled by the steady daily influx of sex accusations, BDSM accusations, fetish freak accusations, and other highly sexual slander that was being accused of me in my Twitch chat.

November 10, 2018, I turned off chat. It returned February 2020 as emote only.

I tried to turn chat back on February 2020, and immediately her rape raid crew showed up. It's why I took a year off from streaming starting February 27, 2020. I not only stopped streaming, but I stopped watching streams as well. I just left Twitch. I got sick of being harassed. 

Now it's 2021 and I've been trying to come back to streaming but, I have post traumatic stress disorder a result of being raped and paralyzed with golf clubs November 14, 2013... and her rape raids have triggered severe PTSD anxiety attacks every time I try to click the "go live" button. 

I've streamed twice since January 1, 2021, and my attempt to return to daily streaming. The anxiety levels of trying to stream is through the roof. Her attacks not only did a lot of damage to my channel numbers (viewers/followers, subs, as her group lashed out at my viewers and followers, sending them death threats if they didn't unfollow and stop watching me) and the physical damage to my home, car, family, and neighbours, it's also done huge amounts of mental and emotional damage, and has set back years of theory, bringing to the surface once again my agoraphobia, I've not left my room in almost 2 years, I sometimes go weeks too scared to get off the bed... I had agoraphobia before because of being raped... and it took a team of psychiatrists and psychologists huge amounts of effort to help me to be able to go outside, and now I'm back to square one and can't go outside again... just too terrified to get near doors or windows... pointing out here, that she knew before she did this, that I had been raped, and that's, another thing she does... all the streamers she attack are rape survivors.

I had hoped taking a year off from streaming, I would able to go back to streaming... I used to stream daily but because of her attacks, it became sporadic, weekly, too scared to click "go live" any more. o I took a year off, hoping, she'd forget about me and leave me alone... I tried to do a test stream December 2020, didn't tell anybody, no announcements, nothing,just a test to see, if I could emotionally go live... I turned off emote only when I did it. 

The stream lasted under 15 minutes, and I turned it off because her followers attacked almost as soon as I had gone live. 

So emote only again, and though I was supposed to return to daily streams Jan 2021, there've only been 2 streams so far because, opening OBS triggers server PTSD anxiety attacks and I can't bring myself to click on the "go live" button.

I discovered what she was doing October 21, 2019, when she did a livestream on Twitch titled: **"Making Bjorn a BDSM Bondage Fetish Freak Just Like EelKat"**... seeing my name in the title of a stream baffled me, and I opened the stream to find her, yet again making 3D models of torture devices, this time, making a male BDSM Dominatrix named Bjorn who looked and dressed near identical to Avallac'h, and watched as she and 37 members of her chat, spent 5 hours with the running gag "Just like EelKat" which involved someone saying something highly sexual, followed by the next person answering with "Just like EelKat"... the stream ended abruptly when a male voice from her Discord voice chat said: "EelKat's in your viewer list, she's watching this, better take it to Discord."

One of her mods, immediately sent me an invite to the Discord and said "You should probably see this, it's really bad. I'm sorry. I don't think she thought you'd ever find out."

And when I opened the DisCord, I saw, and downloaded and watched all 200+ of her VODs about me - which I still have copies of. And I read all 2,000+ of her posts about me.

Her Discord has a NSFW BDSM section and in it is a massive running gag, which involved those same 800+ people who near daily attacked my Twitch chat... there were 2 years of the running gag "Just Like EelKat", where every few minutes, all day and all night, to the tune of several hundred thousand posts over the course of 2 years... one person would post a vile sex act, and the next person would reply "Just like EelKat".

A large majority of the posts involved the commenter detailing how they would rape and kill me, by using BDSM to rape me to death. The more violent the rape details were, the more she encouraged them.

This is a HUGE streamer with a HUGE Discord and she attacked my tiny 300 follower channel, because that's what she does. She's a bully.

And since it happened to me, I've found 68 others she did this same thing to, some before me, some after me, some the same time as me. Most of them gave up streaming and deleted their channels because of her rape raids on their channels. And I've since learned that her username, in certain underground circles of the internet, is a "secret code word" that group used for "rape" in order to bypass NightBot bans of the word "rape" in Twitch chats. By posting her username in chat, they are saying "rape" without actually saying "rape".

Basically, her entire group is devoted to attacking small female streamers, specifically small female streamers who are survivors of rape, with rape threats.

And if you are wondering, why "deserve to be raped" is what they chanted...

Once upon a time, there was a very healthy person, very athletic... hiked 13 miles every day through rough uphill terrain, went mountain climbing, bench pressed 78lbs even though being only 5'6", raised horses and went horseback riding, had a very active social life with dozens of friends, played tennis and golf, got invited to a lot of "high society" dinners and events... and had a partner, always by their side, for 32 years... they were seen in many social circles as the ideal couple...

and then one day... unexpectedly, while groceries into the back seat of the car at 10PM on the way home from work, in a dark corner of the parking lot that had no lights... 3 men carrying metal golf clubs and metal baseball bats, appeared out of the bushes beside the parking lot and attacked.

They left when they thought the person was dead... but they were not dead, they were still alive, against all odds... but their spine was broken, their nerves crushed and severed by the shattered bones of their vertebrae... their pelvis bones crushed, their hips bones obliterated, their knees shattered... they were paralyzed completely for 5 months, and then spent 18 months relearning to walk... but, the spinal column was damage beyond repair, and even after being sent to the best neurosurgeon in the country, the diagnosis was it couldn't be operated on... these particular nerves, it's a miracle this person can still speak or move their arms, that they ONLY lost movement from the chest down, defies medical logic, and no doctor dares touch those nerves, because of 74% chance, doing so, will make that person a vegetable.

They are bedridden now, crippled forever. Regaining movement in one leg but not the other, so can get up and walk, IF the dead dragging leg was the ONLY problem... but nerves control so much of your body, and a damaged spinal column, controls for more than just your legs.

This person no longer has control of bodily functions and has to wear adult diapers, that they can't change themselves... they have no way of knowing if they need to piss or shit and need a caretaker to change their diaper a few times a day.

Nerves in your spinal column also control things like heart and lungs, so breathing is now difficult and the heart needs monitoring because, well, it doesn't always work right anymore.

Nerves also control muscles, so tremors and twitches and seizures are all daily events now that make things like writing and typing very difficult.

There is so much more... but you get the idea... this person, once very active and very healthy, was suddenly and unexpectedly, brutally attacked, left for dead, and is now paralyzed for the rest of their life and left with many millions of hospital bills and countless health issues they they had no idea could be cause by a severed spinal column.

Yes, I am the person with the broken spine. 

That happened to me.

I'm crippled because 3 rapists with golf clubs, attacked me in a parking lot November 14, 2013. I was 8 months pregnant, they killed my baby, broke my spine, and the man I lived with for 32 years, said it was too much to deal with. 

He said it didn't look good if he didn't have a hot woman on his arm when he arrived at tennis matches. He said he had to "keep up public appearances".

I can no longer hike 13 miles a day, no longer bench press 78lbs something most men twice my size can't even do, can’t mountain climb or ride horses. I can't even get out of bed to take a piss in my bathroom 6 feet away.

THAT is the event she was mocking and making jokes about, and is what she and her Discord crew were talking about when they were chanting "deserve to be raped" in my chat.

She is a vile, evil, witch hunting cyberbully, who takes sadistic delight in obliterating the reputations of small streamers, by spreading hateful, malicious, slanderous sex lies about them. She is an absolutely horrible person.

Since the discovery of what she did (October 21, 2019) I no longer post anything in anyone's chat, at all. Chat on my channel is off and I don't post in any one else's chat either. I completely want nothing to do with Twitch chat at all anymore. 

I have severe anxiety attacks now just seeing a Twitch chat on any channel. Thankful Twitch has the open to hide chat and just watch the stream's video player now. I've not used Twitch chat in well over a year and I have no plans to go back to doing so.

So, yeah. There you have it. That's why haven't posted in your chat in a very long time. It's not you. I'm just having a very difficult time recovering from the deserve to be raped raids.

UPDATE: February 14, 2021... this has got to be the most revolting question I've ever received about streaming on Twitch. Let's answer it...

*is twitch racist? I recently started watching twitch, and for the past week every single ad i have gotten served has featured an all african-american cast. is this intentional? is this propaganda?*


Well, it **IS** Black History Month, so maybe there are more than usual right now, but I hadn't noticed. People are people, I tend to not notice what colour they are. 

Of course, I'm not white, so maybe that has something to do with it? I usually only notice skin colour when the Ku Klux Klan is in my driveway... which they are several times a year - 

* they put my elderly dad in a coma May 9, 2006, 

* they blew up my house with a grease fryer bomb October 16, 2006, 

* they cut my car in half May 5, 2010, 

* they left my cousin's head at the cross road 2 streets down from me June 12, 2013, 

* they drove a backhoe over my house August 8, 2013, 

* they broke my spine with metal golf clubs November 14, 2013, 

* they kidnapped 12 of my children April 10, 2015, 

* they returned the heads, hands, and feet of 10 of said children, nailed to my front door May 15, 2015. 

So, I'm rather familiar with how much white people hate us.

And these events, are just a few of the more than 200 such events, including 5 bombs and many more deaths, to happen tomy family sinceJune2001.

And my family, is just one of many these events happen to. That backhoe has driven over 140 homes, just on my street alone, just Portland ave. It drove over 70+ more on Walnut St, and another 45 on Acorn St, both streets can be seen from my driveway.

My neighbour to my left, has dozen of bullet holes in her barn, and an empty lot, because she could not afford to rebuild after the backhoe drove over her house June 2, 2001 - that was the very first attack.

My neighbor to my right, 2 houses down, the bomb that blew up their how caused a mushroom cloud that could be seen all the way to the next state well over 100 miles away.

The attacks are DAILY and have destroyed the lives of more than 2,000 families.

One town, taken over by the Ku Klux Klan, and taken over in numbers so vast, that the police are scared shitless, as Officer Bubby Will put it: "They form a small army, and we aren't equipped to deal with it."

Welcome to Old Orchard Beach, Maine - the town which has a billboard that says: "Welcome to Old Orchard Beach, Maine, the whitest town in the whitest state of America, 99.9% white in the 98% white state."

3,000 of our town's 12,000 residents are active members of the Loyal White Knights of the Ku Klux Klan.

Our town was founded by Gypsies, specifically my family, my 15th great-grandfather founded it in 1530.

Our town became a refuge for escaped slaves during the pre-Civil War era.

Frederick Douglass, Billie Holliday, and Louise Armstrong all lived in our town at various points of their lives.

In 1953 more than 5,000 French/Jewish concentration camp survivors settled in our town, built a temple and synagogue and 300+ hotels, turned our fishing village into a tourist resort town.

The Ku Klux Klan invaded our town June 2001, built 2 topless bars, several honky tonks, a casino, and 15 nightclubs, and it's been a living hell ever since.

I have to deal with shithead, racist bastards like you on a daily basis. Your question disgusts me.

>>>is twitch racist? I recently started watching twitch, and for the past week every single ad i have gotten served has featured an all african-american cast. is this intentional? is this propaganda?

No. Twitch is not racist... you are.

Do you even know what racist means? Clearly you don't or you would see how overbearingly racist your question is.

Only a racist pig would think advertising is propaganda based on the skin colour of the actors in the ads.

#FAQs: Are you a Satan worshiper?

Why? Because I help a homeless man, who you are scared of, because his entire body is covered with acid burns?

Do you even know your own religion?

Judge not lest ye too be judged by the same measuring rod with which you have judged.

As for the question of Satan Worship, I've already answered that elsewhere... I'll move those panels closer to the top so you can find them.

But before that, let me ask your so-called Christian mind, a few questions, let's see how well you know your Bible.

#1... Did you know Satan is NOT in the Bible? Nor does Satan originate from the Christian religion at all?

Had you ACTUALLY read your Bible and not just parroted back the CliffNote inaccuracies your pastor incorrectly preached to you on Sunday, you would have known, that Satan is NOT a character who appears in the Bible, nor nor does he originate from Christianity at all.

Satan first appeared in the novel "Paradise Lost" and was a "Christonized" version of the Pagan Horned God.

There is no reason for any Christian, who was ACTUALLY a Christian, and ACTUALLY knew their Bible, to believe in the existence of Satan at all, seeing how Satan is not part of Christian foundations.

If you CLAIM to be Christian, you can NOT also claim to believe in Satan and STILL be a Christian.

And all those famous people who have "near death experiences" and visit Heaven or Hell... and tell you Jesus, told them about Satan ... well... you can prove every one of them to be fake ass phones, the minute they mention Satan and make the claim that Jesus warned them about Satan.... because Jesus KNOWS Satan is not a part of his religion, so He wouldn't say he was, would he?

Do your research, you'll uncover a LOT of scams in Satan's name, in modern day Christianity, simply because 99% of so-called Christians these days, can't tell the difference between their Bibles and their own ass.

#2... the devil.... did you know, the devil, whom Christians, claim to be the "alternate name" of Satan... is a type of Ghoul and comes from the Koran, and is a type of daemon found in the Muslim religion, and nothing to do with Christianity at all?

The devs and the gauls, or devils and ghouls, are types of spirits of people who died either by murder or suicide, and haunt graves, houses, junkyards, and various objects, until someone releases their soul.

Had read you read the Koran, you would have known that. 

Had you read the Bible, you would have known too, there is no devil in it.

#Here's a thought...

Before you make an ass of yourself by accusing someone of anything... you better make damned sure you can back up your claim.

I am simply a different culture, a different race, and a different religion from you. That is all. Only this and nothing more. 

But because I am different from you, you feel the need to bully and harass, and attack and accuse.


Why do attack me?

Why do you fling your accusations?

Why do you feel threatened by my culture?

Why do you feel threatened by my race?

Why do you feel threatened by my religion?

Why do you feel threatened by the color of my skin?

Why do you feel threatened by a square of fabric on my head?

Why do these things about me, cause you to falsely accuse me of being a witch?

Why do these things about me, cause you to falsely accuse me of casting curses?

Why do these things about me, cause you to falsely accuse me of being a Satan worshiper?

And even if I was any of those things, what business would it be of yours?

I keep to myself and mind my own business, I'm not bothering you, so why are you bothering me?

You my friend, are a busy body, and the Bible had a lot to say about busy bodies and how evil they are and how much Jesus hates them. May I suggest you read Proverbs. 

You love your Bible so much, that you feel the need to throw your fake ass Christian accusations in my face, but perhaps, you would do well, to stop worrying about the mote in my eye, and be more concerned about the log in your own... or did that section of the Bible escape you as well? 

Here's some tips for the next time you think someone isn't Christian enough to exist...

Why do you feel threatened by my culture... it's same culture Jesus had... he was Semitic Hebrew, or did you forget that?

Why do you feel threatened by my race?

Why do you feel threatened by my religion... Jesus was NOT a Christian. The Christian religion was founded by Roman Emperor Constantine 800 years AFTER Jesus died.

Why do you feel threatened by the color of my skin... Jesus had darker skin than me. He wasn't white. Your white power hatred, means you hate Jesus too.

Why do you feel threatened by a square of fabric on my head... jesus wore a cloth on his head. There are more 100 verses in the New Testament which say as much. Jesus also said it was a sin for a man to cut either his hair or his beard, and that neither men nor women should go outside without their head covered. Did you just overlook those teaches from Jesus. Jesus not Christian enough for you?

You feel threatened by curses? What about Balam's ass, you know Jesus's talking donkey? Or how about the water that turned to wine? Walking on the ocean waves? Taking 2 loaves of bread, breaking them into enough pieces to fill 5,000 baskets? The fig tree that refused to feed Jesus in winter when figs don't grow? The 12 year old boy eaten by a bear that Jesus sent to it, because the boy threw a rock at Jesus? Maybe you should read your Bible more.

Let me ask you another question... do you think Jesus was a carpenter? Silly jackass, had you read your Bible, you would have known Mary was a temple prostitute who got pregnant at age 12 and was forced to marry the carpenter, Jesphe, accused of getting her pregnant. That baby was Jesus, he had 3 brothers, and 5 sisters born after, and Jesus grew up to be a fashion designer, a tailor, and a dyer of cloth. Not a carpenter. Had you read the Bible, you would have known that. Had your minister read the Bible and not children's picture books, he would have known that too, and preached it to you correctly.

You idiot. You're just like everyone else who claims to be a Christian these days, following the mindless herd, without actually knowing the foundation behind your faith.

What was it Jesus said about many coming and preaching in his name, but they will be nothing more then the blind leading the blind?

By trying to prove how much of a great big super Christian you are, all you've done is prove you know nothing about your religion at all.

If you take part in harassing and bullying someone, YOU are a mean person.

No, someone abusing you does NOT make you mean. I guarantee I've received way more abuse then you ever have, and I choose to be kind and helpful to everyone... even mean people like YOU.

It's YOUR CHOICE to be mean.

No one makes you be mean.

To be a better person, you have to first CHOOSE to be better then you are now.

Everything you do makes a difference in the lives of others.

Are you a GOOD impact on their lives or a BAD one?

Did your words and actions HELP someone today or HURT someone today?

Are you a GOOD person?

Or are you EVIL?

Look in the mirror and find out.

FAQs: Are you a Satan Worshiper? 

All 12 of my uncles were high ranked men in the church. Mission leaders, Bishops, Boy Scout Leaders, Quorum presidents, Stake Presidents, Branch Presidents... every one of them. And they sold children for sex to other priests in the church. It's where they got their fucking money. And most of those children didn't reach adulthood. Most of then were beaten to death before they were even 10 years old. Beaten to death by the priests who paid $12,000 for 15 minutes alone with a child to rape them. 

The whole REASON people call me a Satan Worshiper is BECAUSe those same uncles, thought ahead of time, to go to MUFUN and spread rumors and lies about those children. 

It was a fucking scam.

The whole damned thing.

Every bit of it.

The alien abductions, the haunted car... it was ALL a fucking scam, created by my uncles to discredit toddlers 3, 4, and 5 years old, to make sure no one would believe them, should those toddlers ever tell any adults about the priests that were raping them.

That's all it was.

My uncles scammed you all, and millions of idiots all over the world believed them.

Stupid ass people, believing in demons and aliens and haunted cars.... when the stories my uncles told you about those demons, aliens, and haunted cars was nothing but their fake ass cover up story to hide the fact that they were running a child prostitution ring.

You see the constant police and backhoes digging up my farm at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine - it's been going on since the first bodies were dug up by coyotes in 2016, ... if you're local, you've seen it, the hundreds of rusty oil barrels the FBI and police are digging up in my yard... the crowds of locals gathering around my farm, and police simply saying: "We are investigating cannibals" and giving no more details.

The oldest barrels they've excavated so far, date to the 1920s.... the bulk of them are from the 1950s to 1970s.... 

In those oil barrels are the bones of children. Little girls, 8, 9, 10, 12 years olds, who dared commit the sin of getting pregnant when white Americans paid $20,000 to rape them.

Americans like to spread all kinds of rumors about the group they call "The Scottish Mafia", but the reality of the so-called Scottish Mafia, is far worse then the stupid ass rumors.... a clan of cannibals, who raised little girls like they cattle, girls who spent their childhoods in cages, let out only long enough to be raped by American men willing to pay the highest prices, then slaughtered eaten as steaks when they turned 14 years old.... that's the REAL Scottish Mafia, a very big far cry from what you see portrayed as "Scottish Mafia" in TV and movies isn't it?

We females were seen as livestock.

Kept in cages, even puppy mills wouldn't dream of using.

Let out long enough to be raped by strangers.

Our rape babies beaten out of our bellies, on the orders of their fathers, who the uncles blackmailed more money out of. Pay money to beat the 8 year old child carrying your rape baby, ensure no one finds out what you do in your spare time.

Then slaughtered for food when you turn 14.

Your bones, sawed up, packed in oil barrels, and buried in the swamps.

They thought the swamps would rot the metal barrels, rot the bones.

They were wrong, weren't they?

The peat bog moss of the swamp preserved them. And now they are being dug up.

Go watch the VOD. See the bones being excavated out of my farm for yourself.

That is what I grew up with.

Daily being raped from the time I was 4 years old

When any of children got pregnant, our bellies were crushed.

And when we reached the age of 14, we were cut up into steaks and sold as fucking deer meat.

Have you noticed that in 2016, the door-to-door deer steak trucks all but vanished in Maine? Yeah. Now you know why. A lot of them are in prison now for selling human not deer steaks.

#If you have any information regarding this case, FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the investigation. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322

I'm one of the few who survived, because I had papers. When I was 12, a millionaire high priest from Austria, bought exclusive rights to me, and he also got me legal paperwork: American citizenship, a social security number, a birth certificate - things females in this clan were not allowed to have. Ben is the only reason I went on to become one of the few girls still alive today, and not sold as deer steaks when I turned 14.

A lot of people don't know WHY I got so damned mad at this vile, lewd, deviated sex crazed, slutty assed streamer woman, when she took events from my childhood and made BDSM sex fetish memes about it... because unlike this vile, lewd, deviated sex crazed, slutty assed streamer woman, a lot of people don't know the full details of what happened to me, what I saw happen to my cousins.

Half the time they weren't killed humanely... Anastasia... was only 4 years old, when on August 21, 1991, she had her leg pulled off her body.... the intestines came out with the bone .... her breakfast half digested spewed out all over the floor mingled with the blood... it took her 5 damned days to finally bleed to death. And they left her laying their, while the older male cousins,  leading them, kicked her, punched her, and rapeded her, over and over again.


Do you know what it feels like to have your head held down on a cement cinder block while a more traditional red brick is slammed into your face?

I do!

It was a common punishment.

I can even begin to count how many times my jaw was broken that way.

#Do you see now how incredibly VILE the sex joke memes this vile, lewd, deviated, piece of shit woman made about the torture I went through, is?

#HOW DISGUSTING this vile, lewd, deviated sex crazed, slutty assed streamer woman IS FOR CALLING A 4 YEAR OLD BEING TIED DOWN, RAPED, AND JAW BROKEN WITH A BRICK, A BDSM SEX FETISH!!!!!

This vile, lewd, deviated sex crazed, slutty assed streamer woman is a bad as the fucking men who did that to us!

How dare she call the torture we went through BDSM sex fetishes!

Over 300 little girls between the ages of 4 and 14 were MURDERED!

What kind of a sick bastard makes sex jokes about THAT?


There has never been a time in my life, when I wasn't suffering in pain from broken bones that never got set, ruptured organs that left me bleeding for weeks on end. Not once being allowed to go to the hospital.

My hip dysplasia was caused by having a 2 foot long foundation nail driven through my hip when I was 4 years old.  

I've heard people say sex was good, fun, happy... I've never had sex that wasn't forced, wasn't rape, wasn't brutal, and didn't leave me without broken bones or torn muscles. Sex is the worse, most evil, most horrible, vile, pain riddin form of torture there is. I can't even image how anyone could enjoy being beaten, having their bones broken, strangled, stabbed with knives, forks, and broken glass plates... sex the most awful thing there is, I can not understand how anyone would want it.

The only good thing about sex is the babies that come from it, but all of mine were murdered before they could be born. I was never allowed to raise any of my babies, and I nearly died after every beaten that killed my babies. 

The most recent one, they beat me with metal baseball bats and golf clubs, left me not only without my baby, but with my spine, hips, and knees broken, I'm crippled for the rest of my left and have spent the last 6 years relearning to walk.

No one has ever been kind to me.

No one has ever hugged me.

No one has ever kissed me.

No one has ever loved me.

There are only 2 things I've ever wanted: a baby and a friend.

America has laws, a woman my age can't adopt, you have to be under 45 in order to qualify for consideration to adopt a child in America; and the last beaten, left me unable to have children.

That leaves me with only one thing left to hope for in life: a friend, someone to talk to. I've never had that. Not once. More then half my life was spent locked in a cage, with no lights, no heat, total darkness, in a room with no windows, no nothing, just mold and fungus several inches thick on rotten walls, and a dirt ledge floor, bare ground, no floor boards. Alone for weeks on end, not knowing if or when I would ever see a person, if or when I would be given another burned saucepan to claw scrapings off of.

#When the FBI raid happened, I was

* 31 years old, 5'6" and weighed 87lbs. 

* my bones and muscles were (and still are) brittle and falling apart from 2 decades of extreme malnutrition. 

* I was nearly starved to death and the rescuers estimated I would have died with in the next few months had the raid not happened

* the room was filled with the bones of others who had died, been tossed in the room, their flesh eaten by the same rats that chewed on my arms and legs each night... they had all been beheaded, so no heads or skulls were ever found and the FBI continues to excavate the area and dredge local waters in search of the skulls, to this day

* It had been decades since I'd last eaten a meal, with as many as 2 weeks passing between being tossed a burned pan to scrap out. 

* I couldn't see in daylight because I'd spent so many years in total darkness. 

* And I didn't know how to speak human languages, was only able to speak cat and chicken, due to the only ones I had, had to talk to in that time, was the feral cats that snuck in through the cracks in the walls at night, and the chickens who were put in the room in the winter to protect them from the cold.

* I had no social skills, did not know how to communicate with others; was only able to communicate via writing; 

* because the only physical touch I had ever had from anyone was being raped or being beaten... I had (and still have) a massive phobia of humans getting near me and am prone to massive meltdowns of total hysteria if someone gets within 5 feet of me

* I had (and still have) a massive phobia of forks, seeing them as weapons, not food utensils, due to have been stabbed, scarred, and tortured with sharped forks by my uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater, so many dozens of times

* I was 37 years old before I found out I was a human, and not a demon, like I had been raised to believe

* the team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers assigned to me, all agreed that they did not believe I would ever be able to assimilate into HUMAN society, due to my extreme hatred for and fear of HUMANS, and my total 100% belief that I was not a HUMAN, caused by my mother's extreme paranoid schizophrenia, and her having locked me in a cage in that isolation room on my 8th birthday because she believed faeries had stolen her real daughter and replaced her with me, a demon changeling

* the team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers assigned to me, all agreed that I likely will never be able to feel any empathy for or towards HUMANS, due to 3 decades of being raised by violent mentally unstable humans who had severe untreated schizophrenia that they bounced off each other... with them glorifying the glories of them being HUMAN and us children being DEMONS unworthy of living in HUMAN presence

* the thing this group of 24 psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers found to be the single most disturbing fact of all, was that ...

#my 3 decades of neglect, abuse, and isolation was so extreme that I possess no sympathy, empathy, compassion, pity, or ability to identify with Humans - the only emotion I feel towards humans is loathsome hatred ... and they coined the term "OtherKin" to describe me, because there was no psychosis out there to label me... yes, I'm EelKat the first OtherKin, the child that psychiatrists coined the term for

* among things included in my diagnosis, was the phrase: 

>>>"is a UFO suicide cult survivor"


>>>"was raised by radical fundamentalist extremists"


>>>"was raised to believe she was not human"


>>>"was raised to believe she was a demon"


>>>"in interviewing the adults who raised her, 52 of them maintain the belief that she is a demon channeling that they refer to her as 'Her Grandmother's Evil Spirit'", "they claimed the real child ceased to exist after her grandmother's funeral", "they claimed that upon returning from the funeral, the real child was gone and this demon changeling was left in her place"


>>>"evidence suggests that her grandmother was murdered and she witnessed this event, resulting in the adults who murdered her grandmother creating the delusion that she was a demon, removing her from public school, and locking her in a cage in order to prevent her from telling anyone about the grandmother's murder"


>>>"they said they could not let her out of the cage because she refused to reveal where the faeries had taken the real child to"


>>>"they said they had no choice but to beat her daily because of her refusal to reveal the location of the real child she had replaced"


>>>"they likewise believe that both grandmothers were not human, citeing they too were demons"


>>>"they cited that the girl inherited 'Helen's evil spirit' upon Helen's death and 'Eva's evil spirit' upon Eva's death"


>>>"alarmingly every adult involved in her rearing displays severe schizophrenia, total belief in demons, and is fully convinced that this girl is a demon changeling; scarily their delusions fed on each other, giving rise to even more delusions" 


>>>"was removed from public school at the age of 8 years old a few hours following her grandmother's funeral; an investigation was made by the superintendent of schools, but social workers never followed up on the girl's sudden disappearance from public eye. These horrific events may never have happened had The Maine State Department of Human Services taken those initial reports from the her teacher, principal, superintendent, school nurse, and the child's pediatrician, all of whom files individual reports regarding concerns for the girl's safety after witnessing several signs of abuse during the weeks prior to her disappearance"


>>>"reports were made to the Old Orchard Beach Police Department regarding the girl's disappearance from school. No follow up was done. It has been discovered that members of the family worked in the police department and destroyed the department's record of these reports made by concerned school officials" 


>>>"has never experienced kind, good, or loving relationships"


 >>>"since infancy has never been hugged, held, cuddled, or touched in a good way by other humans" 


>>>"displays post traumatic stress disorder symptoms similar to WW2 concentration camp victims"


>>>"can not remember her name, answers to the names 'four eyed retard' and 'competition bitch' which appear to be the only names her mother called her since the age of 8 years old"


>>>"has never been taught to view humans as equals" 

* in the weeks following the FBI raid, 3 aunts and 8 uncles, were all diagnosed with schizophrenia... among other things

* the 12 siblings, their 50+ spouses, and 400+ adult children who ran the child prostitution ring, were all diagnosed with sociopathy, 5 were diagnosed with megalomania, more the 3 dozen (including my mother) were diagnosed with Munchausen syndrome by proxy

* the group was classified as the most radical of the compounds that called themselves members of Heaven's Gate - 4 of it's leaders killed themselves in the infamous HaleBop murder/suicide that killed 39 people in California and was what led to the FBI raid a few weeks later

* the FBI raid would result in dozens of Catholic, Mormon, Pentecostal, Baptist, Born Again Holy Roller, New Life, and non-Denominational churches throughout southern Maine and the Greater Boston tri-state area being closed in the weeks/months that followed, in the mid-late 1990s, as hundreds of pedophile priests were arrested for having paid money (often $millions in church funds) to rape the young girls

* wild rumors began to surface, as horrified Americans dubbed the clan leaders involved in the Scottish Gypsy child prostitution ring as "The Scottish Mafia"

* while American movie producers had a field day stereotyping "Scottish Mafia" to mean anything and everything, we 140 survivors, had to fight claw and fang against paparazzi, alongside trying to even learn what the hell an American even was

* the worst of them, Stephen King arrived at the compound, with a huge movie crew and set out to filming a movie "The Thinner" based off what he referred to as "the Gypsies of Saco, Maine, the most REAL Gypsy style Gypsies I have ever encountered"... he and his crew were trespassers, had no permits or permissions, and today are in a legal battle against our clan trying to get the rights to release Thinner on DVD, something we absolutely refuse to sign off on - we are abhorred that he tried to capitalize on our decades of torture, pain, and suffering

* and all of the 140 others like myself, were also raised to believe they were locked in cages because they were demons....

* as of 2020, more than half of the 140 survivors rescued from that FBI raid have commit suicide, due to the pressures of trying to BECOME A HUMAN and to date none have been able to see themselves as HUMANS or successfully assimilate in HUMAN society and most are still 100% convinced they are DEMONS and are unable to identify as HUMAN or live among HUMANS

* while I was 31 at the time of the FBI raid; the eldest of my brothers was only 7 years old - yes, I am old enough to be the grandmother of every one of my brothers; one of them, was so badly traumatised by the abuse he received, he does not talk still to this day

* given the fact that my mother has multi-hundreds of medical records that all list her as infertile and unable to have children, after a brutal "miscarriage" (caused by an overdose of sleeping pills, then having her head cracked open with a brick b an unknown attacker while she was unconscious) she had 4 years after I was born, combined with the dates of the births of my brothers vs the dates of the so-called "miscarriage" beatens, some of the psychiatrists, psychologists, and social workers involved in the case, believe that chances are high that my brothers, may actually be my sons, stolen from me by my own mother, after being beaten unconscious by her brother Mervin Bruce.... this theory was further emphasized by the fact that one of my brothers is a blue eyed blond (everyone in the Atwater family has dark skin, black eyes, and black hair, due to being 3/4 Native American and 1/4 black African) and looks exactly like Ben (a blue eyed blond Austrian), the father of my babies

* my mother suddenly and mysteriously "became infertile again" after the FBI raid and her freak unexplained popping out new babies days after each of my so-called "miscarriages"  (each one caused by being beaten unconscious at around 8 months pregnant, and waking up with the baby gone, followed by my mother's miraculous "giving birth" to a slightly premature baby a few weeks later) suddenly ceased to happen

* I was 37 years old when a team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers set out to training me how to do things like walk on my feet instead of crawl on all 4s like a cat

* I was also 37 years old when a team of psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers set out to teaching me how to speak in human languages instead of in chicken clucks and cat growls and hisses

* during attempting to teach me to speak, they made an alarming discovery: I spoke via chicken clucks and cat growls and hisses, not because I didn't know human languages or lacked understanding as they originally thought, but rather, because I'd been hit in the face with a brick so many times in my lifetime, that I couldn't open my jaw wide enough to form words

* x-rays and trips to a dentist, revealed massive damage to my jaw bones, cheek bones, sinus region bones, and teeth, from years of being baten in the face with a brick

* at 41 years of age I had reconstructive surgery of my jaw, including 7 root canals... meaning my jawbone and 21 of my teeth are porcelain - not real bone or teeth, resulting in I am now able to eat solid foods for the first time in my life and also am now able to talk normally (before the surgery, the damage to my jawbone was so bad that I was classified as "near-mute" due to an extreme inability to open my jaw enough to be able to form words.

* all of my molars (back teeth) were crumbled shards, with raw pulp exposed

* my jaw was broken and healed improperly, in so many places that doctors could not determine how many times I had suffered a broken jaw in my lifetime

* the broken teeth and jaw bones were a result of having my head held down on a cement cinder block, while a regular red brick was used to smash my jaw - this was a recurring punishment I received a few times a month, from the time I was 8 years old until I was 31 years old

* I stopped talking when I was 14 years old and was classified as mute for the next 16 years - I "refused" to talk, because the searing pain in my jaw was so bad that I could not open my mouth far enough to form words

* the reconstructive surgery at age 41, resulted in my being able to speak normally, for the first time in my life

* I was 42 years old when I found out the concept of things like friends and people talking to other people existed; and my desire to have a friend, someone I could talk to set in

* July 1, 2001 a backhoe with the mural of a big red apple painted on it's side, drove over my house, while me and my brothers were gone to the movie theater... my mom's brother Joey bragged on Facebook that he had hired the man to do it

* February 14, 2003 - I was stuck in traffic and arrived to my doctor's appointment 10 minutes late.... lucky for me, as I arrived in time to see the mushroom cloud as a bomb in my doctor's office blew up First Care Health Clinic on Saco Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, killing my doctor and 3 nurses, and leaving 21 patients in critical condition

* October 16, 2006 a bomb blew up my house and an 8 foot tall Ku Klux Klan cross was left behind in the rubal (keeping in mind, several uncles and cousins are members of the KKK)

* April 2007, the same backhoe returned to drive over my house yet again

* May 15, 2010, my car, the 1964 Dodge 330, was cut in half by a group of radical members of a local church known as The Saco Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints; the Bishop's first counselor went to prison 7 months later

* May 2013 Southern Maine Community College was evacuated when a bomb was found in the back corner of the classroom I was in

* July 2013, while driving home from my job at the Maine Mall, I was pulled off the road to wait, while police closed off the crossroad at my street.... the body of my cousin Murphy was laid out in the middle of the road, minus his head... the police found his head a few miles away at a different crossroad... he was one of the children abused and survivors rescued

* August 8, 2013 the infamous backhoe returned to drive over my house yet again and this now being the 5th house this backhoe had driven over shortly after rebuilding from the previous attack, I gave up rebuilding houses to live under a tent instead

* August 13, 2013, on my birthday, one of my uncles posted on my FaceBook wall "paying that construction worker to demolish your house for your birthday was the best $600 I ever spent, Americans are such boobs, they'll do anything for money"

* November 14, 2013, while in a parking lot putting bags of art supplies in the back of my car 3 unknown people attacked me from behind with 2 metal baseball bats and a metal golf club. This was the first time since the FBI raid of 1997, that I had been pregnant again, and for nw the 7th time, had a "miscarriage" caused by a brutal beaten; but for the first time a beaten by stranger, not one of my uncles or my mother

* 2 of them were women who looked to be about 65 and acted like sisters or best friends, one with long curly orange red hair and cyberpunk looking neon lime green cyclops-style glasses and a off the shoulder sweater of large black and white stripes and screaming "it's my turn to shine"; the other a blond wearing a denim button front work-shirt; the 3rd a bald man who acted like either the blond woman's son or lover, and had a football player muscle build

* the November 14, 2013 attack broke my spine, hips, and knees leaving me paralyzed for 5 months and 18 months to relearn to walk 

* I returned to work in 2015, but now with limited movement and requiring a cane

* November 2015 Scarborough WalMart evacuated when a bomb was found in the department I was stationed to work in

* March 2015 my aunt's husband was arrested  by the FBI on a Boston Mass beach for selling bombs, bomb marking parts, automatic rifles, and machine guns to members of Isis; his bombs were identified both as the bombs that were used in the Boston Marathon attacks AND the bombs in my house, doctors' office, college, and work places; branding my mom's sister as the FBi's number 1 suspect in ALL of the attacks prior