Do Black Lives REALLY Matter
to the BLM Rioters?
No.
If Black Lives REALLY Mattered,
to the BLM Protesters,
they would stop and think
about the consequences their actions have...
UPDATE: June 24, 2020: Much sadness, the painting of Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna, one of Vudo's Primary Loas was destroyed by BLM vandals :( , she along with her sister Erzulie Freda are my patron saints.
Much sadness, the painting of Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna, one of Vudo's Primary Loas was destroyed by BLM vandals :( only 2 days after the destruction of Erzulie Freda aka Immaculate Conception, she along with her sister Erzulie Freda are my patron saints.
Erzulie Danta & Erzulie Freda are 2 of the primary Loa of Voodoo.
They are the 2 wives of Damballah Weddo, The One God, The Great Serpent, The Creator of Life.
White slave owners, would not allow black slaves to worship the Loa. Slave owners brought in Catholic Priests and Nuns to convert the slaves. The slaves took the icons, prayer cards, and paintings the priests and nuns gave them, and gave the Loa, "Catholic names"
Thus Damballah Weddo began to be represented by images of Moses carrying a Brass Serpent, and his wives Erzulie Danta & Erzulie Freda began to be represented by The Black Madonna and The Lady of The Immaculate Conception.
All of the Loa, have Catholic Saints and Martyrs to represent them. It was a way for the slaves to trick the Masters into thinking the slaves were converted to Catholicism, when in fact, Voodoo, or Vuvu as it was called in the 1400 to 1700s, stayed strong in their hearts and the mysteries of the Loa stayed alive.
Today Voodoo is a branch of the Catholic church, and while most Christians call us Pagans or Heathens or worse, we are in fact Christian, and branch of Catholicism.
It's why you see me always with a rosary, which I wear like a necklace, much to the horrors of many Catholics, and why I have so many statues of Mary, Jesus, and the Saints all over my room and my car, and why I have crosses and crucifixes all over my walls, and why I wear veils, mantilla, and hijab.
If you walked in my room, you would immediately assume I was an extremely devout orthodox Catholic, and you'd be wrong.
I am a Voodoo Priestess rank of Medsan Fey Marija Loa to Damballah Weddo and serve the local shrine to Papa Damballah and Erzulies Freda and Danta. This painting was very dear to me.
It means I am married to God, something for which there was an actual wedding, with a wedding dress and everything.
In simpler terms: I'm a nun.
I am married to my god the same way a Catholic nun is married to Christ.
Which is also why sex is not a part of my life.
This painting is a painting that we Voodoo practitioners hold with deep reverence.
The Black Madonna, Erzulie Dantar, Our Dear Sweet Lady of Retribution.
Voodoo Practitioners, follow many things, many paths, many roads, many branches. But with every branch, every form of Voodoo, one thing remains constant: The Black Madonna. There is no Voodoo Practitioner on the planet, who does not have a statue or a prayer card or her dagger through the heart veevee on their prayer alter. She is the mother of life. The mother of us all. The goddess who created life, with Papa Damballah.
This painting is dearly beloved in the Voodoo Community, and now she is destroyed.
The painting was made in 1433, based off of the description of Jesus in the Bible.
The book of Revelations describes Jesus as having roped locks of hair like lambs wool and feet the colour of brass. Jesus was from the southern region of Judea which is in Africa.
Jesus was black. The Bible itself tells us this.
Most images of Jesus and Mary paint them white, blond, blue eyed... but that's not how the Bible described them.
This is one of the few historical images of a Black Jesus and a Black Mother Mary. And most Black people love it dearly. So why would followers of a movement to bring equality to black lives, destroy it?
Or did they? Was it people who hate the BLM movement and so destroyed a symbol near and dear to the hearts of millions in the black community?
Who destroyed this painting?
And why?
BLM graffiti is the only clue.
But is it, BLM because it was done by someone in the BLM movement?
Or was it done by someone against the BLM movement?
No one knows.
No one knows who did this.
My grandmother was half Black *(yes, I am 1/4 Black)* and she loved this painting. She didn't call it The Black Madonna like most people do, she called her Black Baby Jesus. She took a trip over there to see it in person.
Whoever did it, these people should pay heed to history, and to what happened to the pirates who slashed her face. It didn't end well for them.
Our dear Lady of Retribution, wielder of vengeance upon the unjust, may your curse of iniquity fall upon all who cause harm.
She was one of my 2 faves, along with The Immaculate Conception...
Erzulie Danta aka The Black Madonna
Erzulie Freda aka The Immaculate Conception
...and to see them both destroyed 2 days apart from each other is heartbreaking.
Why is the BLM movement attacking the Patron Saint of Slaves? Our Dear Lady of Retribution. Vicious Punisher of the Masters who take away freedom.
She is the symbol of everything the Black Lives Matter movement stands for, so why destroy her?
Do you idiots know nothing?
Do you not know the history of this painting?
Or how it got destroyed by Nazis in World War II... and it remains, rebuilt, in Poland, by Jewish Concentration Camp Survivors.
How many times has she been destroyed since her creation in 1433?
Freed Black Slaves, rebuilt her.
Freed Jews, rebuilt her again.
Why would you destroy the symbol of freedom? The symbol of escape from oppression? The symbol of survival against all odds?
Ignorance and arrogance is a dangerous pairing. This just proves their lack of intelligence. Destroying anything and everything, without knowing what it is.
Do you know, that without this painting, you even have the Black Lives Matter Foundation? Are you aware of the history of the organization you are screaming the name of from the rooftops?
Has anyone else noticed the similarities in behavior with this movement and ISIS or The Ku Klux Klan or The Nazis... destroying anything they don't like, taking control of portions of cities... doing it all in the name of a call to lord over others?
When you destroy history, try to erase it, you will allow it to happen again in future generations. Instead of burying bad parts of history, you should be teaching your children to learn from the mistakes of that history, so history doesn't repeat itself.
Funny thing is... this particular painting... she was hated by the Nazis too. They destroyed her. This is a reproduction that was made in 1945, because Nazis destroyed the original 1433 one.
She was rebuilt, to stand as a testament AGAINST fucking White Power bastards who murdered millions of Jews, Blacks, Gays, and Gypsies.
We Gypsies hail her as our Patron Saint, because she is a strong woman of colour, who survived one of the worst White Power atrocities in history.
If there is any painting out there that should be used as the fucking logo of the BLM movement... THIS IS IT! And you destroy her?
Why?
Regardless of which side destroyed it, you are both acting like ill mannered children.
One side smash and trashes items, then the other side retaliates back with more smash and trash, so the first side smashes more, then then 2nd side smashes back... when will it end? Both sides are acting like idiots right now. Neither side is making the other side look bad, because both sides are too busy making themselves look bad.
The Ku Klux Klan is parading up and down streets in Maine calling BLM protestors monkeys, and, I gotta say... they are kind of right. I mean, monkeys don't have enough brains to know not to smash things, so monkeys run around smashing things. Humans know better then to destroy things, because Humans know how to use their brains.
Think about that!
There should NEVER be a point, when we can say "The Ku Klux Klan is right."
The Ku Klux Klan are horrible people, and right now THEY are the ones in the right! That shouldn't happen! The villain shouldn't be better than the hero, and right now that is what's happening!
Come on people... 2 wrongs don't make a right.
Don't be like them!
Do not lower yourselves to their level.
We are better then this.
You ALL are better then this.
Stand up and prove you are better.
Smashing everything, because they smash everything, how does that make you any better than them?
It doesn't!
It makes you JUST LIKE THEM!
And they are standing out there calling black people monkeys! And I wish I could say they were wrong, but it's kind of hard to do, when you are running around, making mindless grunts, waving spray cans, smashing things up, and FUCKING ACTING LIKE MONKEYS!
You are giving the racists POWER OVER YOU!
That's all the rioting and vandalism is doing.
You are giving power to the fucking white power bastards.
STOP GIVING THEM POWER OVER YOU!
The whole point of the BLM Protests is the SHOW that black people ARE NOT monkeys! To prove that black people ARE humans and deserve to be treated like humans.
They should not be out there chanting "monkey" like that. Yes, they are wrong and it is horrible that they are doing it... but at WHY they are saying it.
They are saying that BECAUSE you are giving them reason to.
Don't prove the Ku Klux Klan to be right about black people... prove them WRONG!
#PROVE THEM WRONG!
Stop giving them power to hate. Stop feeding then fuel to fan their hatred with.
Are you people all so caught up in the frenzy of rioting that you not see yourselves, the way the white power haters see you, right now?
Go to Twitter and look for the hashtag "BLMTerrorists" and spend an hour or two, reading those Tweets.
You really, REALLY, need to look at what you are doing. Look at the message your rioting is sending. LOOK at what they saying about the rioters, the vandals.
They're scared. And that's bad. That's really bad. Because sooner or later, they'll lash back. And it won't be good. It never is.
And look at what the rioters are doing.
It's not just statues anymore.
Did you see the video footage of a mob of rioters who ran into Target, and started smashing up the store with baseball bats, and when an elderly man in his 90s, ran from the store to avoid getting hurt, the mod dragged him to the ground, torn off his Covid19 facemask, starting spitting in his face, while kicking him. That happened this morning.
How about the one that happened Sunday. Another elderly man, this one his 80s, leaving church, heading across the parking lot, going to his car... when a BLM mob, came storming across the parking lot, grabbing anyone they saw and throwing them to the ground. Three men, mauled the old man. Beat unconscious. For no reason. He didn't even see or hear them coming.
That's not right.
That's not protesting.
That's being a gangster.
Mobster.
You know what mobster means, right? It means, being part of mob and beating people up for the fun of it.
That's all this has become. A mob of rioters, beating people up for the fun of it.
It's wrong.
You know it is.
Hurting people is never right.
Violence is not going to solve anything.
Violence is just going to make, people who hate minorities, start to hate minorities even more! That the opposite of what we need or want.
Think!
Use your brains.
Every time you act like mindless animals, you just give the white power lunatics MORE POWER over you!
Don't give them that power. They don't deserve it.
Look at what is happening.... You destroy their works of art, so they fight back, by destroying ours.
Can't you see what you are doing?
LOOK at the swastika across The Black Madonna's face, and the words BLM underneath.
This is wrong on so many levels.
These riots, all vandalism... you'll gain one or two victories, small ones, meaningless ones, you'll get statues moved... but what is the fucking point?
You've lost focus of the BIG PICTURE... which is saving lives.
Taking down a statue is NOT going to save lives.
You people should be in courthouse, filing paperwork, writing dockets, reading law books, and getting laws passed.
You can do that. You don't NEED politicians to do those things. All you need is the make your case, in front of a judge who agrees with you.
That's it.
You don't need violence.
You don't need riots.
You don't need vandalism.
You need law books and enough education to know how to write a docket and word it persuasively, so that you can convince a judge, to sign off on that law and get it passed.
Why are none of you doing THAT?
Violence is NOT the answer.
Hate crimes are not the answer.
Riots are not the answer.
Criminal acts are not the answer.
You'll be no help to anyone if you get arrested and are behind bars.
These protests are NOT peaceful, and you're deluded if you think they are.
Yes, there are dirty cops out there. I've met plenty in my lifetime.
But for every bad cop I've ever meet, I've met dozens of officers who were good.
Taking over police stations, setting fire to police cruisers, beating up police officers, just because they are police officers.... none of this is right. It's terrorism.
Yes, action needs to be taken, but not violent action. Look in the mirror... you people are using acts of terrorism to protest acts of terrorism. That's not right.
You don't fight fire with fire.... all that does is make the fire bigger. You are fanning the flames of hate and making them grow.
You fight fire with water. You put the fire out.
You need to tame the lion of hate, make it a lamb of peace. Sooth it. Teach it to see the error of it's ways. Show it that it can trust you, let it know you won't hurt it. That's win the lion over.
But if you attack the lion, threaten it, hurt it, it'll lash back, fiercer, meaner, far worse than it was to begin with.
Can you not see that?
Can you not see, how all this violence is only stirring the haters up more and teaching them to say to themselves "We was right about them minorities"...
You should be showing the haters, that they are wrong, not that they are right.
Every act of violence committed in the name of "Black Lives Matter" only teaches white people, to hate black people even more.
Don't prove the haters they are right, prove them wrong instead.
What the hell is wrong with you people?
Have you all got your heads shoved so damned far up your asses that you are just going to destroy anything and everything you get near now, even symbols like THIS, that you should be hailing as one of the greatest memorials in tribute to people of colour?
She is a tribute AGAINST fucking White Supremacists.... don't you idiots know that?
Or is that EXACTLY the point?
No one saw who did this.
And it happened after so many statues were torn down, statues of white men, torn down by black men.
Are we now seeing here White Supremacists "fighting back"?
It's possible.
But I wonder... how many of the BLM Protesters have ever faced REAL racism face to face?
How many of them, have ever been attacked by the REAL and ACTUAL Ku Klux Klan?
Look at the memes on Twitter, showing supposed KKK pictures... people in white pillow cases with holes cut out.
That is NOT the REAL Ku Klux Klan... you know right?
GOOGLE THE FUCKING BASTARDS! Find out what they REALLY look like, what they REALLY wear.
They wear miter hats, with veils on the front, and long heavily embroidered and beaded white robes, with large red crosses on their capes. Their outfits are EXACT REPLICAS of the Catholic Pope's robes and hat.
It's not a white pointy pillowcase.
Also, ONLY the leaders wear white.
The rest of the members, wear colours based on rank. Green Robes, Red Robes, Blue Robes, Yellow Robes, Black Robes... the REAL card-carrying members of the Ku Klux Klan, DO NOT WEAR WHITE!
There are 200,000 active card-carrying members of the REAL Ku Klux Klan, living in Maine. The largest concentration of them in one place, on the entire planet.
And they are actual terrorists. They build bombs. They murder children. They skin people alive, hang them in trees, and leave them there to bleed to death and long slow death that takes weeks to happen.
And they DO NOT WEAR WHITE!
The fakes as white robes and pillow case hoods, are a thing that was created by Hollywood Movies... it's NOT a thing that exists in the REAL world.
Fake ass wanna-bes, wear white robes and white pillow cases, because they never saw a REAL KKK member and they don't know shit about the REAL Ku Klux Klan. They dress up in white robes and put pillow cases on their heads, because that is what MOVIES tell people the Ku Klux Klan does.
That's how you can tell the fake ass wanna-bes from the REAL Ku Klux Klan. And if you have ever seen them face to face, you'd have known that.
My first encounter with the Ku Klux Klan... I was 14 years old. Me and 5 other children were kidnapped and tortured.
Anastasia was just 4 years old. A toddler. They ripped off her leg. Doing so, pulled her intestines out, and spilled her partly digested breakfast all over the floor.
Then they just left her there.
It took her a week to die.
Tajid... they beat his chest, crushed his lungs. He saved my life. Those blows were meant for me. He got between me and them. He died 2 days later.
I survived.
July 1, 2001. A backhoe drove my house while my family was gone to the movies. We rebuilt.
February 14, 2003, my doctor's office, First Care Health Clinic, Saco Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... was blown up with a bomb. My doctor died. 3 of his nurses died. 21 patients were hospitalized in critical condition. The Ku Klux Klan left an 8 foot tall white cross in the parking lot.
It wasn't in the news.
I was there. It was the first Ku Klux Klan bomb, I survived.
May 9, 2006, they beat up my dad, he is in a coma for 2 months, and an additional 6 months in the hospital recovering.
October 16, 2006, a bomb blew up my house, and the Ku Klux Klan left an 8 foot tall white cross in my rose garden.
It wasn't in the news.
It was 1AM. I was asleep in my bed. The bomb was put in the doorway of my bedroom. I was on fire. My hair and my clothes were burned off of me. It was the second Ku Klux Klan bomb, I survived.
We rebuilt again.
April 7, 2007, a backhoe drove over my house, again. We rebuilt again.
Also in 2007, the headless body of a teenage girl was found in the parking lot of Scarborough, Shaw's. Her head was found on the Payne Road, 3 months later, with a circle of 7 dead black labrador retriever dogs around her head.
May 9, 2010, they saw 1964 Dodge 330 car in half.
Also, 2010, a 90-year-old black man, was beaten to death with a shopping cart, in Westbrook Shaw's parking lot, while dozens of white onlookers cheered on his murderer.
May 2013, Southern Maine Community College was evacuated when a bomb was found under my desk, a desk I sat at every day. It was the 3rd bomb I survived.
June 4, 2013, my cousin Murphy's headless body was left in the crossroad of Ross Road and Cascade Road, Old Orchard Beach, Maine.
June 8, 2013, my cousin Murphy's head was left in the crossroad of Portland Ave and Road Road, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, a 1/4 mile away from where his body had been left.
I live on Portland Ave, 5 houses from that crossroad. I found his body while driving home from work at the Maine Mall.
August 8, 2013, a backhoe drove over my house, again.
November 14, 2013, while putting my art easel in the back of my car, after art studio class at Southern Maine Community College, a man and 2 women, with a metal golf club and 2 metal baseball bats, attacked. They were waiting behind my car. I didn't see them. They broke my legs, my hip, my knee. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk.
#You think you know racism... I guarantee you don't know it half as well as I do.
August 2014... Saco Shaw's made national news when a woman's head was found in the ice cream freezer.
A week later another head was found in their dumpster.
April 10, 2015, 12 members of my family were kidnapped, by 14 Ku Klux Klan members, all of them police officers at the Scarborough, Maine Police Department, and Old Orchard Beach, Maine Police Department.
Do you remember Bela? She used to be in all my videos. A police officer beat her head in with a cinder block. Ripped her jaw clean off her face. April 10, 2015. That's why she's not in streams anymore.
Do you remember Georgie? Same thing. Same brick. Split the whole side of his head open.
While a pole with an electric taser neck hold held them down.
12 members of my family, had that happen. April 10, 2015.
How old were they?
The oldest was 14.
The youngest was 4.
Three were 7.
Two were 5.
Yeah. They were very young.
Still think you know what racism is?
But why would white people care about children? Children are disposable in America, remember? Americans murder 5,000 babies every day. Ninety Million babies have been murdered in America, since 1991. It's no wonder, white power terrorists think nothing is wrong with killing children. Murdering babies is, after all the American way.
Two escaped. They lived, but both have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and both are missing all their teeth and most of their jaws.
The other 10?
May 15, 2015, their heads were nailed to my door. Their intestines wrapped around my windows.
It wasn't in the news.
Maine law, only a police officer can report a crime to the news stations or newspapers.
But when the police officers, are marching around wearing white robes and white hoods and erected white crosses in the front yards of the people they torment... there are no police officers too who will file the reports.
THAT is REAL racism.
THAT is REAL police brutality.
But we're just Gypsies, so no one cares.
And this is Maine, the state that is proud to call itself: 99.9% white.
And this is The Town of Old Orchard Beach, a town run by the Ku Klux Klan. They took over our town in 2001. Now they run the Town Hall, the Police Department, the Fire Department, and Dispatch.
Heaven help you if you live in Old Orchard Beach, and you need to call 911, but you ain't white enough for them to respond.
Heaven help you if they do respond... and you're not white enough... because whatever help you called them for, they'll beat the shit out of you.
November 2015, Scarborough Walmart was evacuated, because a bomb was left in my department, under one of the HallMark card displays. I worked at WalMart at the time. It was the 4th bomb I survived.
July 24, 2016, Scarborough Walmart was evacuated, yet again, because a bomb was left in my department, under one of the HallMark card displays. I worked at WalMart at the time. It was the 5th bomb I survived.
July 26, 2016, while putting groceries in my car, at Scarborough Walmart, the same attackers from 2013, beat me with a shopping cart and left me for dead. They broke my spine. Severed the nerves in my spinal column. I've never walked again.
5 times in 2018... you saw my live streams interrupted, as the Ku Klux Klan arrived in my driveway, a shot bullet holes through the walls... you saw them on the live streams. The VODs are still up. I didn't take them down.
October 2019... local Jewish Synagogue was bombed. They blew the whole side off the building. You saw it in my live streams... I drove there and showed you what they did...
It wasn't in the news.
February 12, 2020, yet another of my cousins was gunned down. This time in Scarborough, Maine WalMart, while putting groceries in his car.
Biddeford, Maine's Rotary Park, used to have the Guinness World Record for the tallest, largest flag pole. They took it down 5 years ago. Do you know why?
Because in the dead of winter, Old Orchard Beach Officers, thought it would be funny, the strip a 14 year old boy naked, tie his ankles to the back bumper of a police car, and drive 14 miles from Old Orchard Beach, to that flag pole, and tie the child to the rope, like he was a lag, host him to the top, and left him there. 3 days of blizzard later, a dog walker found him, nearly frozen to death, unconscious, hanging upside down from the flagpole.
They assumed him to be gay, he wasn't, but they thought he was because he was wearing a pink coat.
It wasn't in the news. So if you didn't know the family, you didn't know it happened.
2 weeks ago, Black Lives Matter protestors arrived in Biddeford, Maine... they were meet face to face with white hoods carrying assault rifles, machine guns, and Gatlin guns... the protesters, didn't have the balls to stand up to REAL racists, so they fled to Sanford, Maine... but one of the Ku Klux Klan's primary "club" buildings is in Sandford, Maine, so the protestors were met with even more white hoods carrying assault rifles, machine guns, and Gatlin guns... the protesters, didn't have the balls to stand up to REAL racists, so the protestors fled to Monmouth, Maine, and after 5 hours there... they fled Maine entirely.
It wasn't in the news.
Why wasn't it in the news?
All us locals here in Maine, we saw it happen. We saw the protesters turn tail and run, as soon as the White Hoods marched out with their assault rifles.
The BLM protestors CLAIM they have lived with racism, but when they came to Maine, they found out fast, that they really had no clue, what REAL racists are like.
You don't know racism until you've lived with the fucking Ku Klux Klan terrorizing your town, terrorizing your family.
They kidnapped 12 members of my family. April 10, 2015. Tortured them. Killed 10 of them. And nailed their heads to my door.
#THAT IS FUCKING REAL RACISM!!!
You people don't know shit!
The BLM protestors are attacking statues and paintings because they are cowards who don't have the balls to fight REAL racists. They proved that when they arrived in Maine and got chased out within 5 hours, by the fucking Ku Klux Klan.
Yeah, you want to decry police brutality?
Do you remember a few years ago, a black boy while standing in line, at San Diego Comic-Con, waiting to buy tickets for the convention, was gunned down by a police officer...
Do you know who that black boy was? He was cousin Matt. The one I used to play multiplayer video games with... the reason I don't play multiplayer video games anymore.
His mother was so distraught over his death, that she remarried his father and 7 other men. Yeah, my aunt with the 8 husbands. That's WHY she has the 8 husbands. Her son gunned down by a police officer because he was the only coloured person standing in a line of white people, and the police officer thought that was suspicious.
Attacking statues and paintings doesn't help anybody.
You aren't bringing awareness, you are just making yourselves look like idiots.
Don't be haters.
There are enough haters in the world already. Don't add to the hate.
And those of us, who live with REAL racists in our towns, and are families are being brutalized, tortured, and murdered by those fucking racists... you are making life worse for US...
...because while you can go back home, and be safe, we still have the Ku Klux Klan lording over our town. And no amount of torn down statues or destroyed paintings is going to stop them.
And all you people have done is made things worse, for those of us, who live with the daily constant threat of violence at the hands of REAL White Supremacists.
You people running around calling politicians, actors, singers, white supremacists because of something they said on Twitter... you haven't got a fucking clue what a REAL White Supremacists is like.
And let me ask you this: how are YOU any different, from the racist white people who destroy all things non-white?
You're not. You are just the same.
You are acting just like them.
Violence is only going to breed more violence. Don't you people know that?
You who are destroying things... you don't care about the consequences of your actions, but you will not suffer any harm.
But what about my family?
Persian Gypsies. 1/2 Jewish, 1/4 Native American, and 1/4 Black. Not one drop of white blood in us ... living in Old Orchard Beach... the whitest town, of the whitest state in America... and town that got taken over by the Ku Klux Klan June 2001.
Do you care?
Do you care what they will do to us, in retaliation, for what you people are doing to statues on the other side of the world from us?
Do you care, at all?
You people say you care... but I don't see it.
I don't see it at all.
All I see is a herd of mindless sheep, jumping on a bandwagon, following the herd, and not once stopping to think about the consequences of their actions.
You people keep asking me "Why Avallac'h?", "Why are you so obsessed?", "Why did this fandom take over your life?"... look at the date it started.
* Did you know I'm on 24 hour suicide watch, and I have been since January 4, 2016?
* Did you know I was hospitalized for a nervous breakdown, after 10 members of my family had their heads nailed to the door?
* Did you know I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?
* Did you know Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is not itself an illness, but rather is a symptom and a coping mechanism for dealing with extreme emotional trauma?
* Did you know, a team of doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists, social workers, and FBI agents, had me hooked up to tons of medical monitors, heart monitors, blood monitors, a portable EKG... for weeks, so they monitor what activities I did, so they determine a lifestyle change prescription, that would get my resting heart rate under 131 and my blood pressure over 70 over 60?
* Did you know that the doctors discovered that the ONLY time my body relaxes on any level at all is when I'm playing Witcher 3?
* Did you know, I have an actual prescription, which says, to play Witcher 3 as much as possible every day?
* Did you know, playing Witcher 3 is the only thing keeping me alive right now, and my doctors says the worst I could do right now, is STOP playing it?
The Ku Klux Klan took everything from me. My home. My family. My health.
I have no one now. I have 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, of the rest of my life, to be crippled, bedridden, and alone.
"Why Avallac'h?", "Why are you so obsessed?", "Why did this fandom take over your life?"... because I used to be able to walk. I used to have a family. I used to have a home. And I'm having a very difficult time trying to find a reason to live. And I needed something to take away the pain. I needed someone who had lost everything as brutalily as I had, to talk to, because only someone who had been through what I had been through, would understand how I feel. I needed something to see, other then 10 heads nailed to my door. It's all I can see. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't close my eyes. I can't get the image of their bloody heads out of my mind.
Playing this video game, researching every detail, writing articles, and sewing the costume, it's the only thing I can do that blots out the images of their heads. And as soon as I stop playing the game, stop rereading the novels, stop making screenshots, stop writing the articles, stop sewing the costume, the images of their heads are back.
I can't function at all any more. I haven't been able to function since April 10, 2015.
This obsession with Avallac'h... it's not about him. He's just the tool that right now keeping me from killing myself, until I can find something else, some reason to live.
And you people, you think because someone called you a hate slur, that you know racism is. You have no clue.
Until the Ku Klux Klan, kills your entire family and nails their heads to your door... you'll never know what it like to live with real racism.
You who don't know REAL racism, you think you are being funny with your acts of hate and violence, smashing statues? If you ACTUALLY knew REAL racism, you'd be so mentally broken that you wouldn't be able to see the statues, because all you can see is the horror of your murdered families's remains.
And because you don't know REAL racism, after you get done destroying things, you can safely go home, because while you THINK, someone is racist, because they called you a "nigga"... it's just a word. These people who murdered my family and destroyed my home, and left me crippled, they call me a "nigga" all the time. I don't even look black. I'm not even close to being able to pass for black. Heck, half the people who call me "nigga" 10 or 12 shades of brown darker than me. I'm 1/4 black, but you wouldn't know it to look at me. I'm physically whiter than most white people. But that doesn't matter to White Power people like the Ku Klux Klan. They don't care about skin colour. They care about blood.
If you think, you know what racism is because someone used hate slurs to describe you, then you don't know a thing about racism. Words can't hurt you. But bombs can. As can golf clubs. Guns can. Shopping carts can.
Look at yourselves... destroying property, vandalism... why? What good does it do? Do you think about those of us who live here and are left behind after you get done trashing things, and you back to the safety of your homes, where the worst thing you have to deal with is people calling you dirty words?
... we are left behind when you leave, and we are the one who will be hanging from flagpoles, our heads nailed to doors, our homes and churches bombed, by REAL racists, who don't just spout off hate slurs, because they are too busy loading their assault rifles and building bombs.
You don't know what REAL racism is.... if you did, you wouldn't be doing these thing, because you'd know how badly every non-white who lives in a town where there are active Ku Klux Klan members, is going to suffer, because of what you people are doing.
If you REALLY wanted to make a difference... you'd do something to make life safe for families like mine, instead of attacking statues and paintings that are never going to hurt anybody.
#STOP THE HATE!
They hate you.
You hate them.
When does it end?
Stop destroying things and start helping people.
Stop spreading hate and start spreading peace.
We who live with actual racism, we desperately need your help... but what you are doing right now... you are making things even worse for us.
Stop making things worse.
Start making things better.
Spread love and peace, not hate and violence.
Before & After
Damages Done To
The Dazzling Razzberry aka The Autism Awareness Car
What Happened To The Dazzling RazzBerry?
The answer is a vicious streamer on Twitch took to spreading maliciously slanderous sex rumors and lies about me, convincing people that I was what she termed: "A BDSM Dominatrix"
Me, a 5th Generation Mormon Turned Voodoo Priestess Rank of Marija Loa!
An asexual nun living a celibate life!
| A Look At What Happens When So-Called "Pranksters"
Take Their Twitch Chat & DisCord Sex-Jokes Too Far
& Send a Gang of 5 Rapists To My House
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The Deserve To Be Raped Raids & Why I Turned Off Twitch Chat...
How The Avallac'h Playthrough changed my life, caused the destruction of The Dazzling Razzberry Autism Awareness Car, made 28 families homeless, caused the death of a 10 year old
Including a detailed look inside what news media said was "The Worst Child Abuse Case In American History", more info about Etiole, and how growing up in a child sex slavery ring caused my to start The Avallac'h Playthrough - [NSFW] |
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I have Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism, not Aspergers), which means I'm not good at group things. I'm classified as Savant, meaning I have a few things that I obsess about, big time, and have world records in them as a result, and everything else in my life I still require a caretaker to help me with.
I was believed to be mute until I was 31 years old, when a college professor whose day job was working with Autism children, meet me at an Autism Awareness event (I own The Autism Awareness Car, which has 2.5million marbles glued to it - took 4 years to build it). He spent several years teaching me to talk and I was able to get a GED at age 37 (I had never been allowed to go to school as Autism in the 1970s = too retarded to be taught anything so why bother? It was assumed I couldn't be taught, so no one tried to, until I was 31 years old), and started college at age 42.
Today in addition to being a rabid gamer, I'm also an artist (acrylic on canvas and watercolor on rag) sell my art in local galleries, I build art cars and installation art, published over 130 Dark Fantasy novels, and became a retail merchandiser for Macy's, WalMart, and HallMark for 16 years because I'm very good at organizing things... I can't do much else, but I can certainly make sure nothing on the sales floor is out of place.
On Twitch I'm known for my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it removing and making my own... I rewrote Witcher 3, removed Geralt and Roach and the combat system, and build my own player character, made travel companions, wrote a new combat system, made new quests, made new maps... removed all the texture files and made all new ones. There's nothing in Witcher 3 that I have not rewritten. With over 4,000 mods now made for it, you can barely recognize my game as being Witcher 3 anymore.... and yet I can't read C++ code.
I spent my childhood and teen years, being told I would never amount to anything. I proved them all wrong.
People see the things I do very well (art, writing, my exemplary organization skills in retail stores, and my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it and making my own) but they often don't see past that.
Social skills are a thing I've not yet mastered, which makes streaming very difficult for me as, chat is sensory overload and I have it turned off. I also can't count, do Math, tell time, use calendars, use money, numbers are lost on me.
Basic things - bathing, eating, brushing my hair, etc - that most people have no trouble with, I have caretakers who have to help me do those thing, even though I'm 20, 30, 40 years older than my caretakers. I am VERY low-functioning, but I can write, I can paint, I disect video games, and I can organize things. I just can't do one thing else. Which is very upsetting, because I wish I could. I try too. I don't know why I can't. It's like there are a few things in my brain turned all the way up on super high and everything else is just turned off and won't come on.
And then there are issues with meltdowns, screaming fits, panic attacks, bad ones. Bad enough that I generally avoid contact with the public, simply because I'm tired of dealing with the police. Someone my age, screaming on the floor, people assume I'm on drugs and call the police. It's very frustrating, because I can not control these attacks and I can't stop them once they start.
It is extremely distressing, I'm insanely good at a few things, but everything else, things most of society doesn't bat an eye at, I can't do them, no matter how hard I try. And I'm not capable of "acting properly" or "behaving in socially acceptable ways".
Most people when they meet me in real life, they are very taken back, by how extremely disabled I am. Fans of my novels, meet me at book signings and ask: "So, what's the joke, what's this retard doing here, where's the author?" They refuse to believe, someone as deeply retarded as me, is capable of writing novels.
It hurts a lot, people's reactions to meeting me and them finding out the reality of what ACTUAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, is really like... and that it's NOTHING like Asperger's, with it's "cute Sheldon Cooper quirks" that they are used to and think of as being Autism.
They forget, people with Asperger's can live normal lives, they can pass for normal in public if they have too, they get married and have families, and I'm not capable of living on my own or without caretakers, and I never will be.
I wish more people knew the difference between Aspergers and Autism, and how vastly different they are from each other. Far too many people hear that I have Autism, and they automatically assume I have Aspergers, and then they meet me in person, and are shocked, horrified, and they tell me they've meet dozens, sometimes hundreds of Aspies, and when they meet me, they say, they realize, they've NEVER seen Autism before, in spite of all the hundreds of Aspies they've met, and then they tell me, they wish they had known, they wished someone had told them, how starkly different Autism is from Aspergers, because they always say, no matter how many Aspies they worked with, it never prepared them to come face to face with ACTUAL REAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, for the first time.
1 in 3 children have Aspergers, it's very common, but only 1 in 1,200,000 children have Autism, it's very rare. In the wake of the mass flood of people calling Asperger's Autism, people forget how incredibly rare actual Autism really is. They aren't the same thing and until you've seen both side by side, you don't realize how different they really are.
People forget WHY I became such a good writer. I was mute for 31 years. Writing was the only way I could communicate with anyone. But I grew up in a family that crumpled up the paper, never even looked at it. In their minds I was too stupid to talk and therefore anything I wrote on paper MUST have been gibberish. They didn't even look at it. So I wrote letters to the cats that lived with us. I started doing that when I was 8 years old. I still do it 50+ years later.
But I'm not likely to be much use in a group, as outside of writing, art, video games, and organizing sale floors of retail stores, I'm too retarded to be able to do anything else. I'm rarely welcomed in groups, because I'm too retarded, too Autistic to fit in, or so I'm always told. I'm rarely of any use to anyone.
Wait? You like Avallac'h? Have you not read the novels? What are your thoughts on the scene when Avallac'h beats the shit out of Ciri?
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Wait? You like Avallac'h? Have you not read the novels? What are your thoughts on the scene when Avallac'h beats the shit out of Ciri?
You mean that scene from Lady of the Lake on page 179... where he strangles her, than smashed her face into the ground while punching her teeth out and screaming he's gonna kill her? ...see also the above picture... The rape scene?
My thoughts? You REALLY want my thoughts, on the scene that I am fully aware causes every Witcher fan on the planet to grab their pitchforks and go running after Avallac'h ready to kill him?
You do realize I HATE rapists, right? And if you hate Avallac'h because of that scene, well, I think you are seriously fucked up.
What are my thoughts on Ciri raping Avallac'h, and him responding to being raped by beating the shit out of his rapist?
So many fans call Ciri a "strong woman" but, if a woman acted like her in real life, she'd have so many life sentences that she'd be several thousand years old before she saw the outside of a prison cell. Beating up men at every turn, killing men because they are male and for no other reason, raping men just to show them who's boss... those things really don't say strong woman to me and instead say dangerously deranged sociopath in need of a straight jacket.
Avallac'h is the ONLY character of the franchise who Ciri ever has sex with. And it was far from consentual on his part. He makes 3 attempts to get away from her, and finally has to strangle her before he can successfully get her off of him.
Yes, the scene Ciri fans hate Avallac'h for, the scene when he throttles her and smashes her face into the ground... he did that because she was, at the time, raping him. And there's something serious messed up with you, if you hate hm for fighting back against his rapist.
Yeah, he really shouldn't be beating women up, but given the circumstances, she got off easy, he should not have stopped beating her. He should have smashed bitch's damned brains out.
I'm someone who's been raped. I've no sympathy for a rapist.
No means no, and rape should never be something that causes people to say: "She's a strong woman."
Ciri is a rapist. Plain and simple. Avallac'h was not randomly beating her up for no reason. He was trying to get away from her. He gets away from her 3 times, only to be tackled to the ground again before he can get to the door.
Tackled, I might add, by a woman who is said to be the only person who even closely rivaled his own magic abilities. The only woman who could in any way get an upper hand over him.
He is said to be the most powerful mage of the multiverse, but he is also crippled, physically weak, in poor health due to his advanced age, and was never trained in combat, thus in spite of his advanced powers in magic, he fears deeply any one who is armed, which Ciri was, she was weilding a sword in that scene.
Avallac'h is described as underweight, sickly, and physically very weak. He's nearly blind, has a lame leg, suffers tremors from nerve damage, and is an ancient, elderly Elf, over 2,000 years old, when most Elves live to only 400... and he's now got a super strong, overpowered female Witcher on top of him, beating him, waving a sword at him, and threatening to kill him if he doesn't make her pregnant right here and now.
His first 3 attempts to get away from her, he merely pushes her away, gets up and runs for the door. He makes no attempt to fight back, simply trying to flee from the deranged fisteck addict who is beating him up, tearing his clothes off, and trying to rape him.
He only beats her up AFTER she starts bitch mouthing about his dead ex-wife Lara, whom he is still very much in love with.
The fact that on page 180 he's willing to forgive her and agrees to pretend the rape never happened, and agrees to pretend she's Lara (Ciri's idea, not his) and have sex with her willingly, makes him a hell of a lot stronger then her... and also shows how incredibly terrified of Ciri he is, as he'd rather let her rape him, then risk getting her mad enough to kill him.
To make matters even worse and more humiliating for Avallac'h, this entire scene takes place in a public garden, where dozens of other Elves gathered around to watch while the king's court mage got raped by a psychotic human.
No. The rape scene didn't happen in private behind closed door, half the damned city was gathered to watch, because it happened in a public garden beside the lake, where most of the Elves were gathered that particular day.
Ciri is not a good person, as that scene so glaringly shows. And why fans of Ciri hate Avallac'h because he tried to defend himself against a crazy woman raping him, is something I will never understand.
I even less understand why Avallac'h later starts to refer to Ciri as his "lover" as it's clear from the novels, he never would have done so had she not first raped him.
And again, sorry to burst the Ciri fan love bubble, but raping a man DOES NOT make a woman a strong woman whom other women should look up to as a hero. It simply does not. Rape should never be the reason you consider a character a hero, and that's exactly the case here.
My question is, WHY to people hate Avallac'h because he fought back and tried to defend himself?
Think about it... if a man rapes a woman, everyone is ready to scream bloody murder and lynch him, but when a woman rapes a man, no one cares and says the woman is some kind of hero. Would you call a man a hero if he raped a woman? No? Then why would you call a woman a hero for raping a man?
Sorry, but speaking as one who know, rape is a very traumatic thing to have happen to you and I doubt very much if men like being raped any more than women do, so no, I have a hard time having any positive feelings for Ciri considering she's a rapist who uses rape as a tool to get men to obey her every whim.
I know she's supposed to be the hero of the story, but she comes off as way more villainous then Vilgefortz himself...and no, the fact that Vilgefortz tried to rape her is no excuse for getting back at him by raping someone else.
People always use what Vilgefortz did to her, to justify Ciri's actions here, but what does Vilgefortz have to do with Avallac'h?
Vilgefortz is NOT Avallac'h and so many fans get these two mixed up. Vilgefortz is the one who beat Ciri up because beating her up was fun. He's the one who stuffed fistek up her vagina, because he's a freak. He's the one who killed her friends, including her lesbian lover Mistel, just to watch her reaction. He's the one who put her in a cage and sadistically tortured her. He's the one who tried to rape her. He's the one who stuffed her in a test tube and tried to remove her eggs for his experiments. He kept her locked in gallows. He's the one who cut half her face off - not some small scar like in the game - he literally cut half her face off.
All those things were done by Vilgefortz not Avallac'h, yet how many Ciri fans attribute those things to Avallac'h? Most all of them. They can't keep their wizards straight.
Avallac'h never once hurt Ciri, in fact he rescues her time and time again, including to rescue her from Vilgefortz the night Vilgefortz tried to rape her, Avallac'h takes her in when no one else would, he took care of her, he's the one who made the healing potions to help her re-grow he face back, he defended her, he was royalty and lost his lands rank and titles because he defended her - he lost his family, his friends turned on him, his people cast him out, he was a nobleman cast into the streets and turned into a wandering vagabond... all because he dared stand up for Ciri against Eredin, when no one else would, rightly so because she's a vicious, violent, blood thirsty, feral wild animal that in no way resembles anything even close to being a lovable human being.
Though she claims to be Avallac'h's prisoner, she has free roam of his palace, the entire city, the nearby fields, the whole freaking damned planet, it wasn't his fault she couldn't get off the planet, she is showered with gifts, is given an entire wardrobe of clothes, Avallac'h is the one who gives her, her sword Ziereal (not Geralt as seen in the game). He takes care of her horse. He gives her servents.
She ONLY calls him her galor and claims to be his prisoner because she is traped on his planet and can't get off of it, but she's free roam the entire damned planet, because, hey look, he's NOT keeping her prisoner. She's perfectly able to walk away at any time, yet to runs back to his bed every night. Him being classified, by Ciri herself, as the only friend she's ever had in her entire life.
When the Elves tried to kill her the night Auberon died, it was Avallac'h who helped her get to the Unicorns so she could escape his planet...
The game does go over the top of dramatically humanizing her character, and the ONLY reason Ciri in the game is anything close to being civilized and not tearing everyone apart like the rabid monster she is, is because she spent 21 years living with Avallac'h who did his damist to try to tame and civilized the crazed beast she was.
I'm sorry, but he never did anything to warrant the hate he gets from Witcher fans... the fact that he's the most hated character in the franchise, simply because he defended himself when Ciri raped him, that's just messed up and goes a long way to say the sorry state our society lives in when a rape victim is villainised for hitting his rapist.
In the real world, men get raped almost as often as women do, but few dare fight back, even fewer dare admit it happened. And you almost never seen men get raped in fiction. If you do, it's usually in Erotica and you see the man, quite happy it happened. To see male rape portrayed in fiction as something traumatic, is rare and I applaud Andrzej Sapkowski for daring to write it that way. And I'm horrified by how many people read that scene and suddenly hate Avallac'h and start gushing Ciri praise.
You read what it says, he didn't really hit her that hard, and he stopped as soon as he was able to get free of her and then he ran away terrified and in tears. He was not trying to hurt her. He's a hell of a lot stronger then her. He could have killed her with one hit. And he didn't. He wasn't beating her up to try to hurt her, he was just trying to stop her from raping him.
It even SAYS that...
His hands shot towards her neck like snakes and squeezed like steel pincers. She understood that if he'd wanted to, he could have throttled her like a fledgling.
If he wanted to... meaning he didn't want to her hurt. He only wanted to stop her from raping him.
Go back and try re-reading that scene without your Ciri fangirl gushing filters on. Avallac'h ain't as mean or villanous as many Ciri fans like to tell you he is.
You may dislike it, but I call Ciri what she is: a bitch and a rapist. Same way I call people who hate on Avallac'h for defending himself, what they are: seriously fucked up in the head. I call it like I see it.
And yes, I can call Avallac'h what he is too: a perverted, self-centered, arrogant, douchebag, jerk. I'm well aware he's a bastardly, bitchy dick who needs to be shoved off his high horse, but that doesn't justify Ciri's raping him.
UPDATE: August 3, 2018
to the one who asked: yes, you can use Witcher 3 to recreate the rape scene from the novel Lady of the Lake… just did it in the Twitch stream that just ended… it’ll be on YouTube in a few days (and for people who’ve not read the novel… she raped him, not the other way around)
to do it in your own playthrough you need:
Geralt Doppler version 2, set to Avallac'h; the Shani to Ciri Character swap mod; and run both during the Hearts of Stone, Wedding Quest; play through the 3rd ending of the sex scene with Shani - the one with BOTH the Rowan Brandy and the bottle of wine; you’ll get the cutscene you want
https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1031/
https://www.nexusmods.com/witcher3/mods/1798
^^you’ll also get a drunk Avallac'h juggling on stage, wearing donkey ears, dancing a jig, beating people up with a fence post, winning a stuffed pig for Ciri by chasing pigs through a pigpen, having a fight with Gaunter ODimm, and a drunk Ciri vomiting all over him^^ Thank you for the suggestion. best episode I’ve ever played. :P
oh yeah, and you’ll have to reset the Geralt Doppler after they shave Avallac'h because they shave his head off and crash the mod… unless of course you don’t mind him running around with no head for the rest of the quest, which he will certainly do
interestingly, you also get the scene after, with Ciri saying the same line as in the novel “Forgotten already?” in answer to Avallac'h wanting to pretend the rape never happened and Ciri’s tearful drunken apology, seconds after raping him
Twitch video is here: https://www.twitch.tv/videos/292545723
Ciri corners and kisses the surprised Avallac'h in the garden of the Moon Palace
An innocent boat ride, that went very wrong.
Ciri forcing Avallac'h to the ground, trying to take his clothes off, while he fights back trying to get her off him."Your Alder King won't fulfil the task. But I want to fulfil the contract. Let someone else impregnate me to begat the child you care so much about. If you're all repulsed by me, use the hinny breeders' method. You show a stallion a mare, blindfold it and put a jenny in front of it. You perhaps! If you want I'll give myself to you! Well? Won't you sacrifice yourself? They say I''ve got Lara's eyes!""
Lady of the Lake
(from the rape scene) pages 179-180
Avallac'h, strangling Ciri, while trying to force her off of him.His hands shot towards her neck like snakes and squeezed like steel pincers. She understood that if he'd wanted to, he could have throttled her like a fledgling.
"Who are you to dare to defile her name in such a way? I know who you are. You are not the daughter of Lara. You are the daughter of Cregennan.Your ancestor stole my love from me, took her away from me, selfishly and arrogantly took Lara from me. But I shall not permit you, O his worthy daughter, to take the memory of her from me."
Lady of the Lake
(from the rape scene) pages 179-180
Ciri's tearful apology, seconds after raping the old Elf.
An upset Avallac'h...
...and a haunty Ciri.
"Forgotten already?" (in game)... quote from book: "Please, forgive me and if you can, forget," Ciri cried. "It is already forgotten." (Avallac'h)If the character exists in the Witcher 3 game file code, I'm pretty sure you can use/manipulate the game to recreate cutscene images of every scene in the novels. Though not all novel characters appear in the game, and for that, you'd have to take their files from Witcher 1, or Witcher 2, and make them Witcher 3 compatible, then swap them in, switching them with some other character.
As you will see on this page, I've a LOT of cutscene, that are not vanilla to the game, but rather are scenes from the novels, which I created using the game.
And since it's the rape scene I get the most email questions about, let's explain it, and tell you in detail, what exactly happened.
Most people who hate Avallac'h, when asked why they hate him, say they hate him because of the scene when Avallac'h beats the crap out of Ciri and nearly kills her. I know this, because I am of the habit of raming YouTube and Twitch, asking players of the game, what they think of Avallac'h, have found about 80% of player hate him and only start hating him after reading the novels.
I find this part interesting, because there is only one scene in the novels, when Avallac'h is anything other than kind, loving, and gentle with Ciri. Only one scene where he ever raises a hand to her. Only one scene where he beats the crap out of her and nearly kills her: The rape scene of Lady of the Lake.
People who've not read the novels, hear that there is a rape scene, and immediately assume, Avallac'h raped Ciri.
No.
Ciri raped Avallac'h.
And that's why he beat her up.
I found Witcher fans reaction to to this scene fascinating, as it implies while the average person would scream bloody murder over a man raping a woman, they general population has no issue with a woman raping a man, and goes so far as to fully hate him, if he tries to fight back and defend himself from his attacker.
In the novels, Ciri is insanely, viciously violent. She beats up Avallac'h, in pretty much every scene, and he simply shrugs it off and goes back to either playing the flute, picking flower, or writing poetry. Twice in the novels Ciri, spitefully destroys Avallac'h's collections, including to smash all his antique and irreplaceable mirrors, which upsets him quite badly. When he asks her why she did it, she said because she wanted to. This results in a conversation between them, where we see Avallac'h confused and not understanding what Ciri is angry about, and is one of the few times we see him talking at length (he rare speaks at all).
In that scene he explains he's taken care of Ciri, given her a home, given her servents, bought her fancy dresses, gave her a new sword (a sword named Ziereal - yes the sword we see in the game being given to her by Geralt was given to Ciri by Avallac'h in the novels), let her horse stable with his horses, takes her for walks by the lake every day, feeds her, bathes, she's living like a queen and wants for nothing, so why has she repaid kindness for with hate?
Here... I fixed that horrifically inaccurate scene of Geralt giving Ciri Zireael... now it's lore-friendly and accurate to the books.She responds to call him a gallor (meaning jailer or prison guard) stating that all the things he has given her is nothing but things meant to make her forget she is his prisoner. Demands to be sent home to "mummy and daddy" (Yen and Geralt), at which point Avallac'h tells her, her world is gone. It was destroyed hundreds of years ago by The White Cold, Geralt and Yen died many hundreds of years ago, Ciri alone has survived the end of her people and has no home to return to, thus why he took pity on her and gave her a home with him. He tells her he put up the barrier around the city to protect her from the Elves outside the city who would kill and eat her. He says she is not his prisoner and that he is only trying to protect her from getting hurt and is taking care of her because no one else would. He ads that he has taken her in at great risk to himself as to be caught consorting with humans is punishable by death. She accuses him of lying and proceeds to smash more of his antiques.
When he asks her to stop smashing his things, she states that they are just material possessions and he should not care so much for them. He replies, yes, but he's had them for 700 years and he had gotten them for Lara and neither she nor things that remind him of her can be replaced.
The following week, she tells King Auberon what Avallac'h has said and Auberon laughs at her, mocks her, bullies her, belittles her, and then hand her a snow globe and tells her to look inside. In the snow globe, she watches in horror as her world is torn apart by a world swallowing blizzard. Auberon, shake the globe, changes it's scene, and shows Ciri the day Geralt and Yen die. Then tosses the globe aside and laughs at Ciri when he sees her crying. Eredin overhears this happen.
Ciri runs from the room, heads to the river that leads to the lake, and finds Avallac'h in the garden. Eredin sees this and follows, stops her to tell her no one want her, every one here hates her, calls her "Avallac'h's gold nugget pulled from a dung heap" and proceeds to tell her that she'll never leave because Auberon hates her and will never impregnate her, and until she has a baby, no one is going to let her leave, and even if she ever did leave, she's got no home, no friends, no family, not even any world to go back to, because by coming to Tir ni Lia, she passed far into the future and her world has been gone for centuries. Eredin leaves and Ciri, now allow with Avallac'h, suddenly leaps on him, forces him to the ground and rapes him, while screaming that he's the only one who likes her, so he's going to make her pregnant, so she can hurry up and have this stupid baby and go back home.
In the rape scene, we see Ciri, viciously turn on Avallac'h, the only Elf who stands between her and the dinner table, as the other Aen elle are in the habit of eating Humans, Humans being the primary food source of the Aen Elle Elves. Avallac'h alone, because of his religion, does not eat Humans, because he vegetarian and does not eat meat at all. Avallac'h, makes 3 attempts to peacefully get Ciri away from him, each time getting her off of him and trying to run out of the garden, only to have her tackle him to the ground again, and once again proceed to tear his clothes off demanding he stop trying to escape and just let he fuck him. He's not trying very hard to stop her, and simply keeps pushing her away while trying to talk his way out of this situation.
It is not until Ciri starts bad mouthing Avallac'h's dead lover Lara, that Avallac'h suddenly goes into a rage and starts beating the shit out of Ciri. At which point you see the tables turn, Avallac'h now on top of Ciri threatening to not only rape her, but then kill her. He does neither, as Ciri starts crying and he lets go of her, stating he can not hurt Lara and Ciri looks too much like Lara. At this point Avallac'h runs from the garden, but Ciri goes after him and stops him, now begging him to forgive her for what she did to him. With the two of them now both in tears, as neither wanted to hurt the other, you next see the ONLY sex scene of the entire series involving Ciri, which this time is not rape on the part of either of them.
Avallac'h later refers to Ciri using the word "lover", implying that their relationship has changed dramatically. And still later, we see Avallac'h write a letter (we are never told to who) in which he states that he regrets sending Ciri to bed with Auberon, had not expected how Auberon would treat her, stating that it has deeply damaged his own relationship with her and from hence forth he'll do whatever it takes to undo this damage. We also learn here that Avallac'h is in love with Ciri, wanted to have a baby with her, but he is infertile thus why he had sent her to Auberon.
That is the rape scene in full, and that is why the average Wicher fan, hates Avallac'h. And, I've said it before, and I'll say it again... I do not see why people hate him. Ciri's a bitch. Ciri is violent. Ciri is abusive. And Ciri is a rapist. And yet people adore her as a "strong woman". No. A woman who beats up her boyfriend at every turn, is just as much of a scumbag as a man who beats up his girlfriend at every turn. Like I said, Avallac'h doesn't deserve the hate he gets from Witcher fans, any more then Ciri deserves the love she gets from them.
Ciri is an abuser. Simple as that. Heaven help the man she ever marries, as she's be nothing more than a drunk spouse beater, just the same way she is to Avallac'h. And no, raping a man doesn't make her a strong woman, it just makes her that much more of an abusive, petty bitch then she already was. Sorry if that upsets people, but I have a hard time finding any reason to glorify a woman who spends 90% of her time getting drunk and beating up every man she meets, and Ciri doesn't do much other than that inthe novels. Avallac'h is not the first man she beat up, nor is he the last. She beats the crap out of well over 3 dozen men over the course of the novels. He is just different than the rest by being the only one she also raped after beating him up. The only difference between Avallac'h and the other men she beat up, is Avallac'h actually loves her and is willing to turn a blind eye to how abusive she is to him, while the other men just saw her as some trophy prize to use and lose.
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