Update: April 16, 2022

Tomorrow is Easter.

Easter, like Christmas, Thanksgiving, and Mother's day is one of the worst days of the year. A day that celebrates children and motherhood. On November 14, 2013, while I was 8 month pregnant, and putting bags on the back seat of my car, three still unidentified attackers, brought golf clubs down on my back, breaking my spine and murdering my baby. I am legally blind and almost deaf, so I neither heard nor saw them coming. I read lips, so you must be facing me for me to hear you. Bring legally blind, you also must be less than 3 feet in front of me for me to see your lips, to know you are talking. Because of this it was very easy for them to sneak up behind me while I leaned into my car, putting bags on the seat.

They broke 3 vertebrae in my spine, the shattered bones severing my spinal column, permanently damaging many nerves. Because of this nerve damage I have limited use of my left arm and hand, difficulty breathing, my bladder and intestines no longer function properly requiring adult diapers, massive tremors in both hands prevent me from being able to do basic things like brush my hair or hold a spoon to eat. These are just things from the nerve damage. 

Additionally they broke my pelvis, my hips, and my knees.

I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk. Today I can walk on a very limited basis, aided by a cane, but every step is seeking pain, like lightning bolts going through my leg, across my pelvis and up my spine.

Because of this I was bedridden from 2013 to 2015. And all of that time I had no use of my hands, so I was not online either. And thus was unaware that during that time, a group of locals set to social media to build up massive slanderous rumors about me. They created a huge fairy tale meme of me being an Erotica author, a porn star, a transvestite, a male to female transgender, gay, and an alien abductee. I am none of those things but they spent 3 years, on hundreds of accounts on Facebook and Twitter, many of them fake "Eelkat" accounts where they were pretending to be me, building up this massive slanderous web of lies about me, and I had no idea they were doing it, until October 2021, 9 years after they started doing it.

April 10, 2015 a group of 74 locals, many of them wearing ku klux klan white hooded robes, arrived at my farm. 14 of them held me, Ben, my mother, and one of my 3 younger brothers down on the ice and snow while holding guns to our heads, while the others used cinder block bricks and a metal pole device with wire loops on the end, to beat and behead, 10 of my 12 foster children, then nail their heads to my door. The youngest was 4 years old. The oldest was 16 years old. They chanted "too gay for the family friendly town of old Orchard Beach" while accusing me, my pink Volvo, my pink motor home, and Ben of being gay, transgender, transvestite, and citing that guys were not allowed in Maine.

THIS is what gay haters in Maine do to people they THINK, might maybe, be gay, even though they are not.

No man, woman or child is safe in Maine, so long as these murders walk free. They will kill anything they determine to be gay, even if it is not, as can be seen my the murder of my children.

They also had hundreds of paperback copies of my books, burning them in a huge bonfire on my lawn while calling them gay Erotica and calling mean Erotica author and porn star. (I'm an author, I write a travel blog style series about a homeless man who backpacks his way across Maine, there is no sex in the series. I'm a Mormon, I've never written a sex scene.)

My family was murdered and I am crippled for the rest of my life, because of this group who has been slandering me on social media. But, at the time of these two attacks (November 14, 2013 and April 10,2015) me and my family were unaware of these slanderous rumors the locals of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine were spreading not only on Facebook and Twitter, but by word of mouth around town as well.

May 2021, I started walking around town again, for the first time since being paralyzed 9 years ago on November 14, 2013, and it quickly became apparent something was seriously wrong with the locals.

I was unable to walk my dog on Main Street, Bradbury Street, Harvey Street, or Cutts Street Biddeford, where I have lived since becoming paralyzed, but not before gone outside, because of being paralyzed and bedridden and unable to walk until now…

I was unable to walk my dog on Main Street, Bradbury Street, Harvey Street, or Cutts Street Biddeford without being attacked, pushed off the sidewalk by random strangers running up to me and grabbing my cane and using it to push me in the road in front of cars while accusing me of being gay, transgender, or transvestite. Screaming "transvestite freak" while throwing rocks at me. Group of women joggers stopping to surround me and harass me while saying guys aren't allowed on their street. 

October 2021, my Volvo returned to my driveway after 3 years of being completely rebuilt, after the February 2019 attack on it with baseball bats completely destroyed it. Within 5 minutes of starting to repaint it, 2 men showed up in my driveway yelling about aliens and demons and Etoile and because of this I stopped painting fish on the door, painted over the fish and painted a portrait of Etiole instead. 

November 19, 2021 the red haired American woman from the 2016 High Street attack on my navy blue pick up truck, showed up on the porch here on Main Street. 

The location is 409 Main Street, the big white farmhouse Victorian on the 3way corner of Harvey Lane and Cutts street, right at the train tracks. It has 2 driveways one on Main Street and one on Harvey. There are multiple porches. It's the porch on the Main street side, that goes up the driveway alongside the abortive cedar tree hedge, where I park my painted Volvo. That porch is the one this woman shows up on. 

It's an elderly couple and mother in law who live there at that porch.  When they leave for work, this woman shows up when they are not home and stands on the porch bellowing like a fog horn screaming death threats at me, yelling crazy demon and alien slander about Etiole, making the claim of putting a bomb in the tail pipe of my car, screaming about suicide demons and evil eye curses, and yelling about someone named Todd Murphy (I don't know who that is, I get the impression he's a relative or boyfriend or ex of hers or something, but I don't any one by that name, so I don't know who he is. I don't know who she is either.) She looks to be maybe 30s to 40s aged. 

She was here again yesterday. She was bragging that she got a fight started with my mother and the Atwaters on Facebook, laughing about how easy it is to get my mother and her ex fighting and the old woman was giving her hell and telling her to get off the Atwaters Facebook and leave them alone. 

This happened less then an hour after my mother made the claim that a woman of the same short haired blond description, assaulted her and my father at an ATM machine, the blond woman claiming to my mother to be my father's girlfriend, my father claiming he never saw her before. 

All this happened on April 10, 2022, the 7 year anniversary of the murder of my foster children, and the blond woman who was here in my driveway after the ATM attack was bragging the anniversary is why she is instigating the fighting between my parents. 

I did not see the ATM attack, so, I do not know what happened other then what my mother and father are saying. 

I did however see her here in my driveway.

She does not live here. She's shows up in a silver pick-up truck driven by a small skinny blonde man. No one here at this building knows who she is.

There is another blonde woman, older sometimes with her. I do recognize the older woman. She's one of the November 14, 2013 golf club attackers. The one the others who were with her called "Claire". She looks to be in her 60s. Usually wears a blue denim button down man's worksheet as a coat. She sometimes drives a gold Volvo suv around 2004vintage, sometimes a silver Subaru suv, sometimes a mega sized white Nissan 4 door white pick-up truck, and sometimes a pine dark green pick up truck. She frequently has another older woman with her, who calls herself "Kendra" and has very, very long natural red curly hair, sometimes she wears big Janis Joplin glasses and sometimes cyberpunk cyclops lime green glasses, she frequently carries a small white poodle dog. The dog is often wearing either a purple dragon or a black skeleton costume. These 2 older women and a younger bald man are the 2013 golf club attackers who murdered my baby. This new younger blond woman and the 5 who are often with her, appear to be their relatives. The FBI believes they are part of a drug gang from Connecticut that call themselves "The Cyr Clan". According to the FBI the Cyr Clan was a gang that my uncle Bruce was involved with back in the 1960s in Boston before I was born. The FBI believes Bruce pissed them off in the early 2000s and that's what brought them up here to Maine.

The FBI believes they were after either one of Bruce's daughters or one of Bruce's sisters with both the November 2013 and April 2015 attacks.

One of Bruce's daughters also lives on Portland Ave in Old Orchard Beach and she also has a pink motor home. So there are TWO pink motor homes on the same street. This particular daughter of Bruce IS in fact a porn star. She's a pole dancer for a top less bar.

In 2016, there was another large scale attack, near duplicate to the April 10, 2015 attack. I never talk about it because it didn't happen to me. It happened to Bruce's daughter across the street from me. The attack on her family was bigger, bolder, and bloodier, than the attack on my family the previous year.

In 2017, a third similar attack happened in Biddeford to one of Bruce's sisters. Again I don't talk about it because it didn't happen to me.

Like I've said before there is A LOT MORE going on, then what you hear me talking about. I don't talk about what has happened to several of my cousins and their families both the Atwater cousins and the Murphey cousins- because it is not my place to do so. That's why you ONLY hear me talking about what directly happened to me personally and never mentioning the rest.

And I've not said everything that happened to me. A lot more has happened to me then you hear about because the FBI has specifically requested I don't talk about specific aspects of what happened to me and my children, because a lot was never released to the public, because they want to see who knows what. Certain things no one in the public should know about and knowing those things marks you as involved. This new young blonde woman KNOWS several of those things that were not released to the public and yells those things. Which means she is VERY INVOLVED with the murder of my children. 

Like I said until summer and fall of 2021 when started walking again for the first time in 9 years, I was unaware of the local gossip that was falsely accusing me of being gay, falsely accusing me of being transgender, falsely accusing me of being transvestite, falsely accusing me of being a porn star, falsely accusing me of being an Erotica author, or falsely accusing me of being an alien abduttee. 

I have lived here since 1975. You people know me. You people knew my murdered children. You people know I'm a cis female. You people know I'm not gay. I have published 138 novels and more then 2,000 short stories since 1978, and I  have sold 27k copies of every one of them to you people who come to my house and buy them in person, so you've read my books and know they are not Erotica. You people know I've been a devoted orthodox LDS Mormon my whole life, and that I've been with Ben for 37 years, so you know I'm not a porn star. 

What is wrong with you people? My family was murdered and I have spent 9 years recovering from medical hell, and I go outside for the first time in 9 years and find you people who know me have all devolved into gay hating, sex spewing, gibberish slandering gossips spreading vile, evil, malicious rumors and lies that you yourselves know to be untrue?

No wonder not a single one of you have helped my family through any of this. No wonder not a one of you ever once visited me at the hospital or my home after I got out of the hospital and couldn't go outside because I couldn't walk. 

You don't see me for 9 years because I'm bedridden and you're all to cold hearted to stop by and check in on me, and you spend that 9 years spinning wild, crazy transphobic, gay hating, sex filled lies about me?

What is wrong with you people?

You all let some stranger, who very likely IS the murderer, convince you of crazy ass slandering lies, that you people know to be untrue. 

You all ought to be ashamed of yourselves. 

Every resident of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine,  you all ought to be ashamed of what you have spent the last 9 years doing.

This new younger blonde woman, she's the one who keeps saying my car has a suicide demon in it and yelling about Todd, saying my car caused him to die.

I don't know who she is, but she's the same one who used to show up at 27 High st, also Biddeford and scream "nasty bitch" at me and acuse me of being an Erotica author and porn star. (Which she did during several Witcher 3 livestreams on Twitch, you can see her doing it if you go back and watch my VOD). I am neither an Erotica author or a Porn star, and she had throughout 2016 to 2019 arrived at High st with 5 others, one a blond man with a silver pick-up truck, one a black man with a yellow Mitsubishi with new York plates, one a very obese woman with blond Shirley Temple sausage curls, and the other two hooded men with a navy blue Buick sedan. If you remember the Christmas Eve 2016 livestream when the gang attacked my high st apartment and screaming "transvestite freak" that's them. This that same woman who also slanders me by calling me transvestite and transgender, which I am neither. I am a cis female, I've had 7 miscarriages, and the 1 baby that made it full term was murdered November 14, 2013 by 3 people with golf clubs, who are suspected to be, these same people. 

One day when I went downstairs to get the mail on high st, a mailbox that was in the lobby and you had to go through 2 sets of doors and foyers to get to, she had her hand in the mailbox and when I came out the door she yelled "I wasn't stealing your mail" threw our mail on the ground and ran off.

She knows the Martals, (Aunt Barbara ex, uncle Paul Martal,  the one in prison for building the Boston Marathon bomb in 2013, Mike's father, those Martals) she was staying with them for a few months in 2016. Is somehow connected to Barbara (the one who wrote all those emails in 1997 pretending to be me, when I did not yet have email or internet or a computer at the time, and I had not yet heard of email and didn't even know what email was, back when Barbara wrote all those alien abduction emails about Etiole and pretending I wrote them.)

She has short straight blond hair and sometimes dyes it dark red or purple. I know she follows both me and my mom and most of the Atwaters and my 3 younger brothers (though not my 2 older brothers as the oldest is in prison and the 2nd oldest is dead) on Facebook because she keeps saying that "I read on Facebook…" when she's in my driveway.

She shows up at Walmart to yell at me sometimes, and sometimes shows up while I'm walking Mickey. She talks about Etiole and White Monkey a lot when yelling, which is strange because that's stuff Brucie and Daddy used to write in their letters to Bishop Morgan back in Cape Elizabeth in 1990s. 

I'm not the one who calls him Etiole that's always been Bruce and Barbara who did that. I know his real name and use his real name.. They don't know his real name. And my father is only one who uses the term White Monkey. The white monkey was Helen Pearlys pet back in 1970s, it had nothing to do with Etoile, I don't know why he keeps saying it does.. My father is the only one who ever makes that connection. I've never called Etiole a demon or alien, again that has always been my father, Barbara and Brucie who said the alien and demon stuff. I don't believe in aliens or demons, but they do. (Etiole if you don't know is a local elderly homeless man who has backpacked around New England since 1953, and since 1978 I let him camp on my farm in Old Orchard Beach when he's in the area. He's covered with scars from WW2 and they call him an alien and demon because of his scars. They refuse to believe he is a human, which just goes to show how absolutely stupid they are.)

In November an elderly man came over and started asking me why I was emailing him about Etiole and I'm not, I don't use email. He said he was getting over 300 emails a day about Etiole all claiming to be from me. He said there are hundreds of email addresses getting copies of this email. You remember when Barbara and Brucie used to send emails back in 1997 claiming they were from me but we didn't have computer or internet back then? I think it might be Barbara sending those emails again like she did back then. I can't think of who else could be doing it.

This sometimes blond, sometimes red hair, sometimes purple hair woman, also mentions these emails when she is in my driveway yelling at my Volvo at 409 Main street. 

FBI agent Andy Drewer has found and shut down, so far 27 Facebook accounts, all pretending to be me. He said all of them were owed by Brucie. These fake "Eelkat" accounts appear to be the source of a lot of what this blond woman says and is suspected that she may be one of the people behind writing them.

Keep in mind, Brucie is dead. He may have started those Facebook accounts, but he ain't the one writing them. He died 3years ago.

Mervin Bruce Atwater died from Covid19 on November 24, 2019.

The fact remains you ARE impeding an FBI investigation into the murder of my family, and only someone involved would have any reason to do that. ONLY someone connected to the murderer would have a motive to try to stop the FBIs investigation. That makes you an accessory to murder. You make yourself look VERY GUILTY of being involved every time you spread slanders about me, my car, or Etiole. 

Do consider that the source of your slander in all likelihood is the murderer, please tell FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 at the Portland FBI office on Middle street, the name of the person who is telling you to slander me.

And now tomorrow is Easter. 

A day when mothers take their children on Easter egg hunts.

My children are dead.

My children were murdered. 

And you people have spent the last 9 years making fun of that.

Think about THAT tomorrow when you are out on Easter egg hunts with your babies.

Think about how YOU would feel if it was YOU. How would YOU feel if it had been your baby who was murdered and this entire town was spreading bullying slanderous lies about YOU.

If you know who this blond woman is, please tell FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 at the Portland FBI office on Middle street. She is wanted for questioning about her connection to the November 14, 2013 murder of my baby and attempted murder of me, and the April 10, 2015 murder of my foster children and the September 26, 2016 hit and run attack on my car and the February 2019 vandalism to 27 High st apartment building, and the November 2021 attack on my Volvo and the March 10, 2022 attack on my Volvo and the April 10, 2022 ATM attack on my parents. 



Update April 11, 2022: Do you know who this woman is?

This woman that my mother is talking about, have any of you ever seen her? Does anyone know who she is?

It isn't that woman who keeps coming on the porch and yelling at my car is it? Do any of you know who the woman attacking my car is?

The location is 409 Main Street, the big white farmhouse Victorian on the 3way corner of Harvey Lane and Cutts street, right at the train tracks. It has 2 driveways one on Main Street and one on Harvey. There are multiple porches. It's the porch on the Main street side, that goes up the driveway alongside the abortive cedar tree hedge, where I park my painted Volvo. That porch is the one this woman shows up on. 

It's an elderly couple and mother in law who live there at that porch.  When they leave for work, this woman shows up when they are not home and stands on the porch bellowing like a fog horn screaming death threats at me, yelling crazy demon and alien slander about Etiole, making the claim of putting a bomb in the tail pipe of my car, screaming about suicide demons and evil eye curses, and yelling about someone named Todd Murphy (I don't know who that is, I get the impression he's a relative or boyfriend or ex of hers or something, but I don't any one by that name, so I don't know who he is. I don't know who she is either.) She looks to be maybe 30s to 40s aged. 

She was here again yesterday. She was bragging that she got a fight started with my mother and the Atwaters on Facebook, laughing about how easy it is to get my mother and her ex fighting and the old woman was giving her hell and telling her to get off the Atwaters Facebook and leave them alone. 

This happened less then an hour after my mother made the claim that a woman of the same short haired blond description, assaulted her and my father at an ATM machine, the blond woman claiming to my mother to be my father's girlfriend, my father claiming he never saw her before. 

All this happened on April 10, 2022, the 7 year anniversary of the murder of my foster children, and the blond woman who was here in my driveway after the ATM attack was bragging the anniversary is why she is instigating the fighting between my parents. 

I did not see the ATM attack, so, I do not know what happened other then what my mother and father are saying. 

I did however see her here in my driveway.

She's the one who keeps saying my car has a suicide demon in it and yelling about Todd, saying my car caused him to die.

I don't know who she is, but she's the same one who used to show up at 27 High st, also Biddeford and scream "nasty bitch" at me and accuses me of being an Erotica author and porn star. (Which she did during several Witcher 3 livestreams on Twitch, you can see her doing it if you go back and watch my VOD). I am neither an Erotica author or a Porn star, and she had throughout 2016 to 2019 arrived at High st with 5 others, one a blond man with a silver pick-up truck, one a black man with a yellow Mitsubishi with new York plates, one a very obese woman with blond Shirley Temple sausage curls, and the other two hooded men with a navy blue Buick sedan. If you remember the Christmas Eve 2016 livestream when the gang attacked my high st apartment and screaming "transvestite freak" that's them. This that same woman who also slanders me by calling me transvestite and transgender, which I am neither. I am a cis female, I've had 7 miscarriages, and the 1 baby that made it full term was murdered November 14, 2013 by 3 people with golf clubs, who are suspected to be, these same people. 

One day when I went downstairs to get the mail on high st, a mailbox that was in the lobby and you had to go through 2 sets of doors and foyers to get to, she had her hand in the mailbox and when I came out the door she yelled "I wasn't stealing your mail" threw our mail on the ground and ran off.

She knows the Martals, (Barbara ex, uncle Paul Martal,  the one in prison for building the Boston Marathon bomb in 2013, Mike's father, those Martals) she was staying with them for a few months in 2016. Is somehow connected to Barbara (the one who wrote all those emails in 1997 pretending to be me, when I did not yet have email or internet or a computer at the time, and I had not yet heard of email and didn't even know what email was, back when Barbara wrote all those alien abduction emails about Etiole and pretending I wrote them.)

She has short straight blond hair and sometimes dyes it dark red or purple. I know she follows both me and my mom and most of the Atwaters and my 3 younger brothers (though not my 2 older brothers as the oldest is in prison and the 2nd oldest is dead) on Facebook because she keeps saying that "I read on Facebook…" when she's in my driveway.

She shows up at Walmart to yell at me sometimes, and sometimes shows up while I'm walking Mickey. She talks about Etiole and White Monkey a lot when yelling, which is strange because that's stuff Brucie and Daddy used to write in their letters to Bishop Morgan back in Cape Elizabeth in 1990s. 

I'm not the one who calls him Etiole that's always been Bruce and Barbara who did that. I know his real name and use his real name.. They don't know his real name. And my father is only one who uses the term White Monkey. The white monkey was Helen Pearlys pet back in 1970s, it had nothing to do with Etoile, I don't know why he keeps saying it does.. My father is the only one who ever makes that connection. I've never called Etiole a demon or alien, again that has always been my father, Barbara and Brucie who said the alien and demon stuff. I don't believe in aliens or demons, but they do.

(Etiole if you don't know is a local elderly homeless man who has backpacked around New England since 1953, and since 1978 I let him camp on my farm in Old Orchard Beach when he's in the area. He's covered with scars from WW2 and they call him an alien and demon because of his scars. They refuse to believe he is a human, which just goes to show how absolutely stupid they are.)

In November an elderly man came over and started asking me why I was emailing him about Etiole and I'm not, I don't use email. He said he was getting over 300 emails a day about Etiole all claiming to be from me. He said there are hundreds of email addresses getting copies of this email. You remember when Barbara and Brucie used to send emails back in 1997 claiming they were from me but we didn't have computer or internet back then? I think it might be Barbara sending those emails again like she did back then. I can't think of who else could be doing it.

This sometimes blond, sometimes red hair, sometimes purple hair woman, also mentions these emails when she is in my driveway yelling at my Volvo at 409 Main street. 

FBI agent Andy Drewer has found and shut down, so far 27 Facebook accounts, all pretending to be me. He said all of them were owed by Brucie. These fake "Eelkat" accounts appear to be the source of a lot of what this blond woman says and is suspected that she may be one of the people behind writing them.

Due to the incident yesterday it is now also believed that she is the mystery blond woman who pretends to be my father's girlfriend and harassed my mother for no reason other then to get a laugh on watching my mother fight with my father (something they do quite violently in public places, in stores, just everywhere.)

If you know who this blond woman is, please tell FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 at the Portland FBI office on Middle street. She is wanted for questioning about her connection to the November 14, 2013 murder of my baby and attempted murder of me, and the April 10, 2015 murder of my foster children and the September 26, 2016 hit and run attack on my car and the February 2019 vandalism to 27 High st apartment building, and the November 2021 attack on my Volvo and the March 10, 2022 attack on my Volvo and the April 10, 2022 ATM attack on my parents. 



Update: April 10, 2022, big violent attack, as police and FBI expected.

Today is the 7th anniversary of the murder of my family. Remember I said to watch who does what today?... My father just beat the hell out of my mother, tried to kill her. She is right now refusing to call the police. My mother claims she caught my father with a girlfriend he's had for several years now. But near as I can tell, all he did was stop to tell some random stranger how to use the ATM machine. Note, they got divorced in 1994, my mother left my father for another man, left the other man for another man after that, and left the next man for Wayne. She's been with 2 other men (possibly more) since Wayne. She has not been a part of my father's life for 30 years, but feels the need to control his life and harass him on extreme violent levels. If he does have a girlfriend, so what? She left him 30 years ago.

Wayne died during the cat court case, the 2nd one, when he sued my mother for stealing his cats and putting them in my motorhome. Wayne's father, 8 of his cats, and then Wayne himself each died a few weeks apart all from rat poison. Wayne's daughter sued my mother claiming my mother put rat poison in their food.

The fbi believes my mother did kill Wayne and his cats and believes that's why she put his cats in my motorhome. Fbi believes my mother was one who called police April 10, 2015, expecting them to arrest me, take the motorhome, and return the cats to her. She did not expect police to take cats. All the harassment and vandalism of my mom's cars is believed by fbi to be Wayne's daughter friends and relatives and family.

My family, my children were murdered in 2 attacks, one on November 14, 2013 and one on April 10, 2015, both attacks are believed by the FBI to have been attacks that were intended on my mother and the people hired mixed me and her up.

April 10, is my mother's father's birthday by the way, David Henry Atwater, it's WHY she does everything she does, all her wild crazy vandalisms to people on April 10 every year since the 1950s.


April 6, 2022 update, as the attacks on my family and property continue and now more people are in the hospital

Daddy has sepsis and they keeping him in hospital for a few days.

Sepsis is very bad.

That's what I had.

You can die a few hours after it sets in if not treated.

When I was in the hospital in 2014.

That's why I was in the hospital.

I had surgery for it in march 2015.

That was the surgery on my arm.

Sepsis was in a major artery in left arm to heart. 

Side effect from when I was in hospital November 2013 when I was in wheelchair and February 2014 when I was on crutches relearning how to walk. Doctors was focused on my hip and not my spine. They didn't find the source of infection until until the mri in June 2016. 

Sepsis is why I can't walk without cane and why my lungs are messed up and why I have tremors and can't use my hands good anymore. Sepsis infection was so back it damaged my nerves. I was scheduled for spinal column surgery September 2016, they sent me to a neurosurgeon who was supposed to be top brain surgeon in New England and he did more mri and then canceled surgery because damage to my vertebrae (from golf club attack November 2013, which is what caused all of this, including the Sepsis and is the attack that brought the fbi here they think Mark wife did it but college had no security cameras at the bug light parking lot, they investigating Mark family, Barbara family,  and Brucie family. Charges of murdering my baby and attempted murder of me) is so bad. Shattered vertebrae bone fragments are severed into my spinal column nerve bundle at the sacroiliac joint where the hip and pelvis connect to spine. Neurosurgeon said he can't operate because of how nerve damage is, said if he removed bone fragments I would be paralyzed from neck down. But that is also when the source of Sepsis infection was found to be in my spine and not my hip, and that is when it finally went away because they were able to target the correct place to fix the infection.

Mark’s wife is the #1 suspect the FBI is watching, because, according to the FBI, this mysterious Mark guy, whom I have never met, never heard of prior to this, have never talked to, and have never seen, so I have no clue who he or his wife are… according to the FBI, he is friends with my mother, but only via her FaceBook account, where she hired him to put in a septic system, then gave him MY address in Old Orchard, while making the claim that SHE owned both MY land and MY motorhome, and when he asked for a picture of her so he would know who she was, she gave him a picture of ME, not herself.

According to FBI agent Andy Drewer THIS is the reason why the backhoe was driven over my house August 8, 2013 and why the golf club attackers attacked me on November 14, 2013.

According to the FBI, my mother was trying to get my land so she could sell it to use the money for a down payment on a house in Kennebunk and she used this Mark guy as her pawn to do it, by fighting with him on social media using “fake EelKat” accounts to convince him that he was dealing with me, even though I had never heard of him before.

According to the FBI, my mother started sending his family death threats, in the same way she is currently sending Todd Murphey’s family death threats, and that this is why Mark’s wife attacked with the golf clubs, murdering my baby and crippling my spine. According to the FBI, Mark’s wife thought she was attacking my mother and was unaware that both my mother, her sister Barbara, and her brother Bruce’s wife Doris were all impersonating me, using 27 different “fake EelKat” FaceBook accounts to scam Mark’s family about a septic system.

This was confirmed by the Old Orchard Beach police in October 2016, when Mark attacked my mother in person and was arrested by OOB police, that day. He made the claim, that she, my mother, was me, but the officers in question, Robin and Will, both know me and my mother and informed Mark that this was not me that he was fighting with, it was my mother, to which he said this was the woman he had been dealing with since June 2001 who had called herself EelKat in every correspondence. The police showed Mark pictures of me and he said he had never seen me before and had no clue who I was.

This event October 2016, is when both the police and FBI started expanding their investigation, now looking for people who were friends of my mother, her sister Barbara, and her brother Bruce, and that is when they found the identity of long time stalker and bomb builder Kendra Silvermander who turned out to be a FaceBook friend of all 3 of them.

After Mark’s gang found out October 2016 that I was NOT the person they had been fighting with online, but rather it had been my mother impersonating me, the attacks on my family stopped but the attacks on my mother’s family started February 2017 when a road grader drove 75 feet up her driveway and flattened her car. Since then this event was repeated with 3 more cars.

In August 2021, My mother and her sister began impersonating me on FaceBook and with emails, yet again, and as they had done in the past, used my friend Etiole to do it. Once again, calling him a demon and an alien and a cryptid, and once again pretending to be me, they wrote a lot of emails and started mass spam sending them to every Maine email address they could find, at a rate of sending them to several thousand people a day.

I found out about this in November 2021, after Etiole was shot, gunned down by 6 people at Rotary Park in Biddeford, Maine on November 21, 2021, by people who claimed to be from Scarborough, Maine and claimed to be the mother and in laws of some guy named Todd Murphey.

I still have no clue who Todd Murphey is, but apparently he used to work with my mother and commit suicide recently and my mother and her sister took advantage of his suicide to yet again pretend to be me, and this time, calling Etiole a suicide demon, started harassing this Todd guy’s ex wife, son, and mother on FaceBook and via emails while pretending to be me. Which caused these people to show up at my 409 Main Street/Harvey/Cutts street Biddeford apartment to vandalize my car and cut all the wires off the apartment building, not once, but twice: on Thanksgiving day 2021 and again on March 10, 2022, because these friends and family of this Todd guy are 100% convinced the nut they are dealing with on FaceBook is me, when in fact, the one they are dealing with is no me, but rather my mother yet again pretending to be me.

This is also what led to the December 2021 and January 2022 FBI raids in the Cutts Street are of Biddeford, just a few weeks ago, which led to the arrests of 8 people.

Back to sepsis…

On December 24, 2021, my mother arrived here at 409 Main street and stole my father’s 14 medications that he takes for his triple by pass, his kidney dialysis, his diabetes… and then, she took him in her car, drove to his doctor, and told his doctor, he’s not allowed to have medicine, because he has to do what she says.

He has not taken his medicine since December 24, 2021, it is today April 6, 2022, and he is struggling to stay alive.

All of this is because she is hell bent on a house in Kennebunk and doesn’t give a shit that she has caused my baby to be murdered November 14, 2013, my foster children to be murdered April 10, 2015, me to be going through a decade long medical nightmare after being crippled November 14, 2013, 5 of my cars to be destroyed including The real Cristine The World’s Most Haunted Car that Stephen King based his Cristine off of, my house -the one that was in the Thinner movie- to be driven over by a back hoe, and now my father dying in the hospital.

Death and destruction at every turn, and she doesn’t give a shit because, as she puts it: “What are we going to do about Wendy? She can’t keep that land, I need a house in Kennebunk!”

Her obsession with getting a house is utter ludicrous insanity, that needs to be stopped before anyone else dies at the hands of her fucking retarded FaceBook friends who blinding attack, vandalize, and beat up anyone and everyone on her command.

I am so fed up with her blind devotion to a fairy tale house she thinks she has to have, at the expense of the lives of everyone around her.



March 30, 2022, update on yet another attack on my family and land

Police take notice. 


Scam artists have been bringing real estate agents onto my property in attempt to illegally sell my land. They have no right or permission to be here. My land is NOT for sale. If you see them doing it, please arrest them.

These are the Scottish Travellers. They arrive here every summer, harassing my family for four decades now. They are the same ones who drove a backhoe over my house August 8, 2013. The same ones who crippled me and murdered my baby November 14, 2013 with golf clubs, leaveing me paralized with a broken spine ever since. I am cripled with a shattered spinal column since the golf club attack and am bedridden weeks to a time unable to sit up or get out of bed. I have rebuilt my house 5 times in the past 9 years, and their attempts to steal my land and sell it have been barbaric and violent, and icluded a bomb that blew up my house October 18, 2006, and most of my family is now dead, murdered at their hands. These are the same people who cut my 1964 Dodge 330 in half May 10, 2010. They arrived back here September 19, 2020 and illegally cut down most of the trees across my lawn, and arrived again November 19, 2021 and for the last 20 years they arrive every summer with a green dump truck and dump garbage on my lawn. In 2014 they left a pile of garbage 175 feet long, 30 feet wide and 12 feet tall and it cost me $12,000 to have it removed. I am crippled and elderly and there is no one to help me against their harassment.

There should NEVER be anyone other than me EelKat Wendy C Allen (with the painted Volvo) or my partner Benjamin Wildes (with the blue Honda) in my yard at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, where the ink motorhome is parked. If you see ANYONE ELSE or any other car in my yard, please call the police immediately. There is no one else who has permission to be on my land.

My land is NOT for sale, if you see real estate agents, please inform them they are being scammed and the people trying to sell my land are NOT the legal land owners.

The FBI are on the look out for them as are the local police. If you see them in my yard, please notify both the Old Orchard Beach Police Department at 207-934-4911 and FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 at the Portland FBI office on Middle street.





March 10, 2022 update on the most recent vandalism of my car

This is a copy of the letter that has been forwarded to the police departments involved. For this online edition some parts have been removed (so if you get to a place that seems like the topic changed abruptly, that is why) and the names are removed from the online version, but the version the police have, includes all the full names and contact info of all the people in question. And for those who have asked: yes, the police and FBI have talked to Etiole, they are fully aware of him, his health, his homelessness, etc.

Dear Sirs,

I feel I need to tell you what has been happening as it has gotten very much out of control the past few weeks. It's been slowly escalating for a few years and, if you look at my police record for both Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, you will see dozens of reports for vandalism of my 1992 Volvo 240 (the painted one) at now 3 apartments in Biddeford, and vandalism of my land in Old Orchard Beach. In the past 6 months, a hyper escalation started with has become very out of control the past couple of weeks.

Last night, my car was vandalized again.  

As these events are taking place in both Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, I'm giving this same letter to both departments, so events from both towns are listed.

I am Wendy Christine Allen of 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach, Maine and 409 Main Street apartment 101 Biddeford, Maine.

There appears to be someone fairly local impersonating me online, and is raising hell with a lot of local people, inciting them to do very violent physical attacks on me, my Biddeford apartment, my Old Orchard land, and my car.

It's reached the point where I can not go to the store without having my car towed home, because it gets vandalized so bad while I'm n the store shopping. EVERY TIME I go to the store. I've been at a loss to understand why this is happening. I don't know who these people are or why they are attacking. On Thanksgiving day they cut all the wires off the Biddeford apartment building so we had no internet or heat or anything for a while. There is a "redhaired" woman who shows up on the front porch to cream at my car, every time the family who lives in that apartment goes to work. She stopped a few weeks ago, because the man who lives there fell on the ice, broke his shoulder and has not gone to work since. It appears she knows that family who lives there and does not want them knowing she does this while they are not home.

A few weeks ago an old man walked up to me, asked if I was EelKat and then asked me why I kept emailing him, and I said I don't email anyone cause I don't use email. He said some days he gets over 300 emails a day from someone claiming to be EelKat.

 

We are Gypsies, and though I've lived in America my whole life, I know very little of American habits and laws or what specifically to do in this situation. We are the Gypsies who were in Stephen King's Thinner movie and my 146 Portland Ave land was one of the filming locations of the movie and, the cars in the opening scenes were our cars, one of which I still have. I mention this, because, there are two Gypsy clans, The Atwaters (Scottish Travellers) and the Cyrs (Irish Travellers) fighting over my land and the fight centres largely around the fact that it was the filming location of Stephen King's the Thinner movie.

I own the land. From the 1940s it was owned by my grandmother Helen Ricker Allen. She left it to me in her will in 1983. Unknown to me, at some point after 1983, the Atwaters had the land illegally transferred into their names -they steal land this way as a full time career and many of them have illegally deed swapped land in all 50 states in America.

In 2014, I found out they are done an illegal deed swap, when an auction group showed up on my land to sell it. Upon discovery I had been living on the land since 1975 and paying taxes on it since 1983, but my name was not on the deed, the auctioneer (and member of the OOB town hall) cancelled the auction and ordered a town hall meeting to review the situation. Upon investigation it was discovered that when the land went from my grandmother to me, my father signed as "joint witness" and then a year later, went back to the town hall to have my name removed from the deed and his put on it, even though he had no legal write to do so. After that, the record shows that every 3 to 5 years, he and my mother swapped names on the deed, sometimes his name, sometimes her name. The land changed ownership names more then 30 times between 1983 and 2013. 

Because I have severe agoraphobia, I had not set foot off of my land since the 1970s. When it came time to pay the taxes, I gave my father the money and he delivered it to the town hall, or so I thought. In 2014, I learned that in spite of my paying my taxes like clockwork, since 2006, the town hall had no record of receiving any money. It is unclear where the money went. On one hand it looks like my father spent the money and never paid the taxes. On the other hand it looks like he sometimes did pay the taxes but instead of going to the tax office he gave the money to Kathy BR in the permits office and she gave the money to a guy called JB who went to prison for embezzling $3million in OOB tax money from the town hall. JB did not work for the town hall, he was a software designers who built the online banking security for the town hall to direct deposit money to the bank, and according to the FBI the money was going to his bank account not the town hall bank account, but he was only found with $30k not $3million. I don't know the full details, I only know this part, because when we tried to find out why my land was being auctioned this is the info we were given.

In any case, at some point my dad stole my land via just walking into the town hall and asking the desk clerk to remove my name from the deed and put his name on it instead. The whole thing was done illegally and without my knowledge or permission.

There were 3 lands originally. 144, 146, and 146a. My father stole all 3 of them. 144 was auctioned off to the Collard family in 2007, even though I was still living there until 2015 without any knowledge of the auction happening. No one informed me. I've since spoken with the Collards and they were unaware of the situation. They actually bought the land legally even though it was stolen land they had bought, they were unaware the land had been stolen. Everything has been straightened out between me and the Collards, they are not part of the current problem.

My mother owns 146a, but she owns it illegally. She claims it's rightfully hers because my father gave it to her, but, he stole it from me via illegally rewriting the deed, so he had no right to give it to her.

In 2014 and 2015, all the court and legal work was done to restore 146 back to me.

The current situation is my parents are in an active attempt to remove my name off the deed again, like they had done back in 1983.

On a daily basis my mother shows up and first words out of her mouth every day is: "What are we going to do about Wendy? She can't keep that land. I need a house in Kennebunk." to my father.  She started doing this in August, originally bragging that she was going to take my land out of retaliation for my refusal to cast death curses on Chris at work. I don't know who "Chris at work" is. It was one of the names on her list of people she wants me to kill via death spell curses. I was live streaming on Twitch the day she came in yelling about "Chris at work" and my need to kill him for her, so a lot of people online heard her saying these things. I'm a YouTube gamer, I have a livestream going almost daily for 12+ hours a day, so when she comes in, #1 it's breaking and entering because I didn't let her in, and #2 she is interrupting my live streams quite regular so I have hundreds of video footage clips of her saying these things and making these threats. The day she and my father cut the cable/internet wires off my apartment building - I have that on livestream footage as well. My father cut the wires off the house while my mother was ordering him to do it. In November 2021 and again 2 days ago March 9, 2022.

They both make the claim I don't need internet, because I am as they put it "being a bad daughter" because I "won't sell your land and give me the money for a down payment, I need a down payment, you are supposed to give me the down payment money for a house, I'm your mother!"'

As for what happened to my car March 9, 2022 - my father, my father vandalized my car and tried to make it look like my brother  did it. My father stuffed the tailpipe full of McDonald's ketchup packets that he stole from the Biddeford McDonald's where my brother works, which is what caused the fuel line to blow up. I could have died. My car is now being repaired again, for the exact same thing I had to have it repaired for in November 2021. My father tried to kill me and make it look like my brother who works at McDonald's did it so my brother would be blamed. Twice. Once in November 2021 and again 2 days ago.

My father did the same thing in November, because of some guy named Todd who I supposedly convinced to kill himself via may painting a "suicide demon" on my car. There is a picture of Etiole on my car, that is what they are calling "a suicide demon"

I don't know who Todd is, but I assume the Biddeford police know as they did spend a week scrapping the thousands of exploded parts of him off all the houses around Cutts st and South st, after he jumped in front of a train November 19, 2021 at 6:27PM. I was walking my dog and saw him, he was gibbering a lot of wild nonsense stuff like: "fibbery-gibbit-beebydi-booop-bop-boop-bop-booop-beeeeeeeep!" I amused he was either very drunk or very high on drugs or both and was attempting to make train sounds while he ran up and down the train tracks. I thought nothing of it, as he did this on a daily basis all summer long, he was a homeless man who lived in the ravine by the train tressal bridge over the river, the one the police kept chasing out of the black grain building turned storage units. There were 4 people on bicycles, driving circles around him bullying him, teasing him, taunting him daily around 3AM every morning. I saw them while I was walking my dog. It appeared to be his girlfriend and her friends based on the stuff she was yelling at him. Stuff like "You run off with that whore will you! WW I showed you! I killed your dog! Hahahahahaha! I killed your cat! Hahahahaha! And you ain't never gonna see your baby again! Hahahahaha!" I know every one says he commit suicide, but I think he was just running to get away from the harassers on the bikes and was too drunk to see the train. That's certainly what it looked like to me.

THAT was not a suicide, not what I saw happen. That was a man being bullied and chased down by four harassers riding bicycles up the tracks, driving him head on into a train on purpose to try to kill him so they could laugh about it. I wouldn't call THAT a suicide.

Anyways, I didn't know his name or that my mother was best friends with him. Though I had told her about the homeless man being bullied and her response was "Why should I care? It's just a homeless man!" She changed her tune quite a lot after he got hit by the train, and found out his name. The police contacted her or something, when they were trying to find his family. I guess she knew his family on FaceBook or something.

Since his death, me, my car, and my apartment have been attacked on a near daily basis from people who are making the claim that I am online spreading rumours and lies about Todd. I kept asking them who Todd was (because at that point I did not yet know they were talking about the homeless man hit by the train - though I saw him daily for about 4 months, ever since the police kicked him out of the storage until he'd been living in and he lived under the train bridge and in Rotary Park instead - he only ever spoke to me a few times - once to pet my dog and say "they took my dog" and saying "hi" as we passed on the sidewalk. So I never knew his name. He lived in a yellow pup-tent beside the tracks for a while, but one day it was laying out there cut to ribbons by a knife or scissors.)

Even though I only knew him from saying "hi" each night as we passed each other on the sidewalk and I never knew his name until after his death, more then a dozen people have arrived in my driveway (both the Biddeford and Old Orchard addresses) to accuse me and my friend Etiole and the words painted on my Volvo of being the cause of this Todd guy's train death.

They are focusing heavily on the words on my car, which say: "Have information about the murder of my family? Call FBI @ 207-774-9322"

There is a sign in my Old Orchard driveway which says: "Have information about the murder of my children? Call FBI @ 207-774-9322"

On November 14, 2013, at Southern Maine Community College, while I was 8 months pregnant, I was attacked by 3 people with golf clubs. A man and 2 women.

There is no reason for anyone who is NOT involved in the murder of my baby, to be upset about either the sign in my yard or the sign on my car, both of which are nothing more then the FBI phone number with the request for anyone who has information to call.

I don't understand why me asking for people to help find my baby's killer, is seen by my parents as such a huge threat. The only person who who feel threatened by that would be the person who hired the golf club people - Claire, Kendra, and the bald man - who have still not yet been found/caught/identified to this day 9 years later.

Both my mother and my father keep saying and I quote "take that shit off your car, you are only trying to start trouble!" and "get that sign out of your yard, you are only trying to stir stuff up". I'm trying to find the people who murdered my baby and left me crippled for the rest of my life. I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm not trying to cause trouble. How is me asking people to help identify the murderer, me trying to start trouble?

I was paralyzed for 5 months. I had to relearn to walk. I crippled the rest of my life, and my baby is dead. No one should have to live through this type of agony. And no one who commits crimes like this should be allowed to walk free. Would you stand back and do nothing, say nothing, while a criminal like that walked free? How is my asking people to come forward with any information they know, me trying to start trouble? You tell me that!

I'm not allowed to ask for help in finding the psychopath who murdered my baby and left me crippled for the rest of my life? What kind of logic is that?

Someone out there knows the names of these people. The older blond woman they called Claire, the younger blond woman with the Shirley Temple sausage curls, the red haired woman they call Kendra, the white haired man with the green pick up truck, the bald man with the 4door white pickup truck, the new redhaired women who screams on the front porch. These people, this group, they are the ones who were wielding golf clubs and murdered my baby. They are being allowed to get away wit murder and I'll spend the rest of my life demanding justice if I have to. You tell me, how is my asking if you know who they are, don't let them kill again, tell the FBI everything you know, by painting that request on my car and a sign in my yard, me looking to start trouble? My mother's priorities are fucked up. All she cares about is money, money, money, money, money, money, money, money! 

I'm the bed ridden, crippled by multiple attacks. The November 14, 2013 golf club attack, I was almost healed from, but the June 2016 shopping cart attack at my workplace at Scarborough WalMart re opened the 2013 injury and doctors can't operate this time because of the bone shards severing my spinal column. I'm crippled for the rest of my life and no one in this family ever cared. 

Both attacks the FBI wanted to talk to my parents and they refused to talk to him both times. My baby was murdered in the first attack. I was 8 months pregnant and all any of them would do was gibberish about "rosemary baby" and say there was no baby because it was a demon because it was Etiole's. My parents and the Atwaters hate Etiole that much, that they shun the existence of my baby and act like it was never there. That's how much they hate me. That's how cruel and hate filled they are towards me. They spent the last 50 years calling me demon possessed and them saying that is WHY local people attack me and killed my baby and left me crippled for the rest of my life. 

I am in bed 15 or more hours a day, I can barely sit up, I can barely stand up long enough to cook, I have to wear adult diapers since 2013 because half my organs don't work any more because the nerves from those organs to my spine are cut off. My hands shake so bad that it takes me hours to eat a single meal. I can't go back to college, I can't go back to work. But do they care? No. Not my mother. Not my father. Neither of them give a shit. They are both too damned selfish thinking about their own greed to ever once lift a finger to help me. Daddy treats me like a fucking slave and my mother is so far out of my life shunning me because bishop kenning in Saco ward told her too that she hasn't got a clue how bad things are.

I'm not doing a damned thing to any of them. I mind my own business. I write my novels. I don't contact them. I don't talk to them. I don't talk about them.  Someone is clearly pretending to be me online and is slandering me and getting sick of it. My mother flips out about everything thing under the sun and I never have a clue what she's talking about, because I never did or said any of the things she accuses me of. And my father and the Atwaters do the same thing. Some one is out there pretending to be me to get them worked into a frenzy just to sit back and laugh while watching my mother, my father, and the Atwaters be too damned stupid to think. My mother and my father and the Atwaters are all filled with so much pure hatred for me that it takes nothing to convince them to attack me. And whoever it is posting online pretending to be me, knows that and is taking advantage of it. 

They are obsessed with my land, because my mother's father used to tell people there was $7million in gold buried on my land. Several times over the years the Atwaters have invaded bringing with them shovels, pickaxes, and construction equipment, to illegally dig up my land. They've ripped up flowers, dug up bushes, cut down trees... usually they do it while I'm gone to the store, so I come back to find my property ripped to shreds. They've been doing this on an almost yearly basis since Grammy Helen died in 1983. According to what David Henry Atwater claimed, pirates buried treasure on my land in the 1500s. There is ZERO evidence that pirates ever buried anything on my land. Later he changed the story and said that the gold plates of the Book of Mormon Part 2 were buried on my land, this time he claimed an angel from god told him. So the Atwaters have multiple excuses for why they arrive to dig everything up, but it's always that they are gold crazy and have gold fever and are convinced if they dig long enough they'll find gold on my land.

The other obsession they have with my land is a homeless man they call "Etiole". They sometimes claim he is a demon, they other times claim he is an alien, for a few years they called him a cryptid, they often say he's the Mememegwasi spirit of the Saco River Curse, a few of them say he's a watcher/fallen angel, some say he's a ghost of an Indian chief, some say he's the ghost of a French solider, some have called him a Faerie/Leprechaun/FarDarrig ... and a whole slew of other claims. Regardless of what they call him, they all adimintly refuse to believe that he is just an ordinary human, an elderly homeless man who keeps to himself and desperately wants them to leave him alone. That's all he is. He's just a homeless man who lives in the woods and wants them to leave him alone.

The Atwaters are obsessed with Etiole on severe levels and have gone to alarming levels of monstrous harassment of him through the past 50 years. Part of their obsession with him, is caused by their previously mentioned gold fever. You see, Etiole travels all over Maine, I never know where he is at any given time, but when he's in the local area, I let him camp out on my land. I've let him stay with me like this for over 40 years. In the 1980s, one of the times they arrived to dig up my land, Etiole was sleeping in my 1964 Dodge 330, and according to them, he jumped out of the car and "threw blue lighten bolts" at them causing a tornado to destroy their construction equipment. They claimed he turned into a black serpent with red eyes and 6 blue wings that was hundreds of feet long, surrounded them and killed several of them by summoning lightning bolts. . . . uhm . . . yeah. I wasn't home so I didn't see this event, of Etiole supposedly attacking them. But it's pretty clear they had some sort of massive LSD hallucination, given many of them heavily used LSD back in the 1970s and 1980s when this event happened. According to Etiole, he just jumped out of the car and ran into the swamp to hide, he didn't see any of the stuff they described.

After that they got it into their heads that I had summoned a demon (and that Etiole was said demon) to protect my secret cache of pirate gold, and their battle cry of "kill the demon" is what caused them to blow up my house with a bomb October 18, 2006, drive over my house with a backhoe August 8, 2013, beat me up with golf clubs and murder my baby November 14, 2013, cut my 1964 Dodge 330 in half May 10, 2010. All those things you have all those police reports about.

They are convinced Etiole is in my yard to keep them from my gold. The only problem is, there is no gold on my land. Etiole is not a demon, and their extreme levels of harassment are utterly insane! 

But then, when they get caught on my camera, because I'm a daily vlogger, so the camera is running all the time, them they accuse me of harassing them, because their faces showed up on my livestream. Uhm... I'm on y own land, in my own bedroom, usually a few hours into my daily livestream when they get caught in the background trespassing. That's NOT me harassing them. That's them trespassing and vandalizing, and breaking and entering while not realizing I was home and them getting caught in the act of vandalizing and trespassing.

Then they run to FaceBook and make all kinds of wild claims about me stalking them. I'm crippled. I can't even get out of bed. Every time I have them on camera, it's because they were trespassing and breaking and entering. I'm in my bedroom livestream a game on my computer and they'll be smashing out windows and get mad that it happened to be the window in line with my livestream webcam on my computer. That's NOT be stalking them. That's me laying in bed playing Witcher 3 and them breaking in.

I'm too damned sick and crippled to even attempt to do half the crazy shit my mother and my father are accusing me of. And what's worse, my father is right here in the same apartment with me. He sees me every day, he knows how bad off my health is. 

Look how much I'm bleeding all over the house every day. Massive nose bleeds that last for hours to a time, not bleeding from my nose. Just coming out of my nose. I'm so dizzy I can't sit up for weeks to a time. I faint and blackout when I try to get up to go to the bathroom. The pain in my hip and pelvis and knee and spine is so bad I can't even move my fingers to type my novels. 

And look at what they do. Do they really think I'm physically capable of doing the things they accuse me of? They are so damned self centred and paranoid. It's all I can do just to sit up and eat something, how the hell do they think I can do the stuff they accuse me of? My day is spent focusing on trying to get my leg to move so I can make a meal, I don't even have time to think about them. 

It looks more and like my mother and my father are doing this stuff on purpose to try to kill me. My father knows how bad off my heart and lungs are and how difficult it is for me to breath after just a couple of steps. His mother left that land to me in her will in 1983. He stole it, had it put into his name illegally. He's been pissed ever since her death, because she gave everything to me not him. That's been a big problem for him for the last 40 years. He raves about it alongside his ravings about going to Utah taking him off the fire department. He hates my mother because of Utah, blames her every day for losing his fire department pension. He raves about it all night long every single night. He blames me for his mother disinheriting him. He raves about that all the time too. I was only grandchild That's why she left everything to me. Including the land that he stole and put in his name. That land is rightfully mine, his mother gave it to me, and he can't stand it. He's needling my mother about the land just to spite his mother.

He's only trying to get the land away from me because he is mad that the town didn't take it. His mother wanted it to stay in the family. It had been in her family since 1530. Her family was the original settlement family of Old Orchard and my land is that spot that the first house in Old Orchard was built.  My father stopped paying taxes to spite his mother and lose the land. He said so many times. He was angry when I bought the land back from the town. He still is. He wants it out of the family because his mother wanted it in the family. That's why he's trying to turn my mother against me over the land. Because he gates his own mother that much.

Keep in mind the 4 door white truck showed up at my workplace daily. Even though I never knew ahead of time what store I would be working at. I was a retail merchandiser and stocked shelves at dozens of stores all over the state. Walmart's every where, CVS, khols, sometimes local, sometimes as far as Freeport and once in Vermont and once in Massachusetts.  I got the notice of which store to be at 15 minutes before I left. So the only person who ever knew where I was going was my father. 

And yet the 4 door white truck would also arrive ahead of me and be waiting. They didn't follow me, they got their first.

And the police caught the truck and the driver in 2017. Kathy BR owned the truck. Her son was the driver.

The smith's are my parents friends. My mother's visiting and home teachers for years.

Kathy was the district emergency dispatch for all the towns in the area, not just old Orchard. That's why none of the 911 calls went through during the attacks by the 4 door white truck. He only attacked while she was on duty. She never forwarded any of the calls so officers never were told to come help me.

That includes the November 14, 2013 golf club attack in South Portland. But the college security officer made a report even though the police never arrived. That big black officer who was head of security was on duty and him and 2 student officers from the police academy made the report.

And FBI found the data from the calls, that never got forwarded to police, that's why Kathy BR lost her job. Because she's the one who tampered with the 911 call files.

Tim and Kathy BR both, not together, individually, arriving separately, both arrived at my tent multiple times throughout the entire year of 2013, saying they were coming to speak to me on behalf of someone who wanted to remain anonymous. So I never knew who sent them. Each time they arrived all they would say was that I had to tear down "the little yellow house" as they called the shop. 

August 8, 2013 the backhoe drove over the shop while I was at work on the food truck down by the pier.

I never saw Tim or Kathy again after that. Not once. And these were people who stopped by to visit my parents daily for over 40 years. Since August 8, 2013 and the backhoe attack on my house, Kathy and Tim have gone to alarming extreme levels to avoid running into me. They just down the street, on one of the private drives, so it's difficult to avoid running into me, and we used to see them a few times a week at local grocery stores. They both, if they see me in a store, literally throw whatever they are carrying across the store and run out of the store like they have a pack of rabid wolves on their heels. It's pretty fascinating thing to see.

My cousin and next door neighbour Tim Murphy was murdered that same week, a few days before the backhoe. His body was left at the cascade Ross road crossroad. 14 days later his head was left at the Portland Ave Ross road crossroad road. His mother put up the big white cross a month later. 

Note that there were THREE 4-door white trucks, a smaller one, a larger one, and a mega-sized giant one -like a Dodge Power Wagon type only it was not a Dodge Power Wagon it was one of the look alike brands, possibly a Nissan. The owner and driver of the big-big-super sized one is still unidentified. The other 2 were both caught in 2017, Kathy BR's truck being the larger of the 2. The 3 trucks often showed up together and drive circles around me, on Rout 1/Portland Rd, while I was driving. They would slam my car from back and sides and push me off the road. Several times they did damage to the frame of my car with had to be repaired multiple times. They've done several tens of thousands in damages to my Volvo over the years. You already have a lot of the smashed up car photos on file, at both Biddeford and Old Orchard police departments, you each have more then a dozen reports for attacks on my car -though the FBI has said someone attempted to destroy several of the records with my name, at the Old Orchard police department. FBI said they arrested the officers who did that. I don't know which files were damaged or how. 

For several years/decades now, I have had multiple people trying to buy my land. The same people over and over again. Only buying my land is not what they are asking for. Rather, they claim my land is cursed and I have to sell it to break the curse. Crazy, I know, but that's what they say. The crazier part is they say that after I sell my land I have to hand the money over to them so they can use it as a down payment on a house they want to buy in Kennebunk. The people in question are my parents and they've been doing this for well over 20 years now. I've always said "no, I'm not selling my land" and left it at that.

My mother (she changes her last name often, I'm not sure which she currently uses) and my father my father both have become extreme hostile and violent the past 2 weeks, and I'm not sure what set them off, but they are hyper infuriated on my refusal to sell my land and give them the money for a down payment of a house in Kennebunk. 

I did not suspect them, all these years, because always been other people showing up and say they were contacting me on behalf of someone who wanted to remain anonymous, but now they are directly doing it themselves.

Starting in June 2001, lots of harassment started and at first, I did not suspect them, or think there was a connection. But now they are outright bragging to my face, that they are the ones behind the vandalism. Like I said, check the police records for 144, 146, 148 Portland Ave from June 2001 til current date. There have been dozens of attacks, including drive by shootings, the bombing of my house, the backhoe driving over my next house, me being beat up with golf clubs which is why I am crippled now for the rest of my life and how my baby died.

The FBI is involved. If you need more information beyond what I've written here,  FBI Agent Andy Drewer can be reached at 207-774-9322 he is at the Portland Office on Middle Street, he is in charge of the investigation, of several events, namely the 2013 Boston Marathon bombing, which my uncle Paul Martel went to prison for building the bomb and selling it to ISIS. The 2006 bombing of the house at 144 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach, Maine. My baby was murdered November 14, 2013, a backhoe drove over my house at 146 Portland August 8, 2013 that's why I'm at the Biddeford apartment right now, because we can't get Kathy BR at the town hall to get a building permit, even though she's not the one in charge of that, she takes over our application and won't let it be approved, because she claims I shouldn't be allowed to live in Old Orchard, due to my having left the Mormon church to become a Voodoo Priestess, she says that makes me a witch and I'm not allowed to apply for a house building permit on those grounds, so, it's been 9 years and I'm still without a house on my land in Old Orchard and still stuck in a Biddeford apartment.

It is a long list of a lot of things happening. I'll try to organize it all in order:

At it's start, the whole thing goes back to a homeless man who wishes to remain anonymous, so I'm not using his real name here, nor have I ever used his real name anywhere online or offline or with any conversation with any one.

He, didn't do anything wrong. Quite the contrary, all he's ever done is live in the Ross Forest and surrounding swamps and marshes along the Saco River in Pine Point, OOB, Saco, Biddeford, and probably other areas, he moves around a lot rotating where he sets up camp, something he's done since 1953. I know quite a few people have seen him and talked to him, I don't know if any police officers have ever encountered him or not. Because he is elderly and in frail health, I often let him stay on my land. He's the ONLY person who has permission to be there. Herein lays the problem: he's deformed from acid burn scars covering most of his body. Churches around the area have spent decades accusing him of being a cryptid, alien, demon, watcher, fallen angel, you name it, someone has called him some weird conspiracy. According to him, himself, he was a Jewish WW2 concentration camp survivor, who arrived in OOB with a bunch of other refugees in 1953. Because he's so deformed by his scars, he was bullied by the locals who refused to believe him a human, and that's why he fled into the forest and never set foot in society again. The problem is, the people harassing me have made up this wild conspiracy that he's a demon and I'm protecting him, and they claim they need to get me off my land in order to get to him.

This all started in 1978.

My parents (my father and my mother), uncles (12), aunts (12+), and cousins (64 at the 1970s/1980s time - more then 400 today), teased and bullied me throughout my childhood about him, but they teased and bullied everyone about everything, so I didn't think that much of their bullying back in the 1970s and 1980s when it first started happening. It was just them being the toxic bullies that they are to everyone.

It wasn't until the 1990s and 2000s that it started to become a problem. And 207 is when I first realized how big of a problem it really was.

In 1996 and 1997 Aunt aunt B sent out lots of emails to the family claiming the emails had been written by me. I did not have email, internet, or even a computer yet. She got Dickie (Richard Merlin Atwater) and David (Atwater) and Joey (Atwater -the one who lives in Australia and is wanted by the FBI for kidnapping and selling babies back in the 1980s- FBI can't arrest him until he leaves Australia -I'm not sure why- so he became a citizen. I don't know the details of what he's wanted for.) in raving warpath over it. All three of them showed up in OOB -even Joey from Australia-though I didn't know he was wanted by the FBI back than. But they arrived here in OOB to yell at me in person, because aunt B made the claim that the emails were from me, so they were all mad at me for having written them, but I never did know the contents of the emails because I didn't write them.

I did not see the emails. I didn't have access to a computer back then ad I didn't have internet until 2007 a full 11 years later. Dickie had several of them printed out and waving them around, but I never got a chance to read what they said. One of the emails was 64 pages long, and according to Dickie was all about aliens. I know nothing about aliens, so most of what he said was just gibberish nonsense to me. This was in 1996, shortly before Heaven's Gate killed 39 people in California and at the time, all 3 of those uncles, plus a few other uncles were members of Heaven's Gate, and one uncle -Mervin Bruce Atwater-made the claim to be "the leader of the Maine division of Heaven's Gate"- I don't know if he actually was a Heaven's Gate leader or not, but he maintained that he was right up until 2019, and in April 2019 he was making the claim to be following Comet Wormwood because HaleBop was the wrong one. Like I said, they were coming up with some pretty wild alien and UFO claims and I'm not sure how much of what they claimed was true.

Well, this was the first time I heard the word "Etiole" which was the nickname they had given to the homeless man who sometimes camped out on my yard. Etiole is not his name, it's always been just the word the Atwaters call him (they say it means man from the stars or alien and that it's a French word. I don't know French, aunt B is the one who knows French, so I never would have given him a French name.) Somewhere in the emails, aunt B had called the homeless man "Etiole" and "amphibious alien" and made the claim that he was an "alien grey" who had abducted me to some mother-ship.  

I have never been abducted by aliens and never made such a claim. I never heard such foolishness. But, that this point, I wasn't fully aware of what they were talking about, so I didn't yet realize they were saying that I was making the claim to have been abducted by aliens.

That's the summer they all showed up talking about Etiole and amphibious aliens and alien abduction. aunt B was the one who started all of that stuff about Etiole, who I never called Etiole. But that was how it got started...all this stuff that is happening now with the vandalism and threats going on this week March 2022.

Bruce and Dickie went to a bunch on MUFON forums from 1996 to 2007 spreading lies about me and Etiole calling him a demon and alien and claiming I was an alien abducted. I found out about what they were doing in 2007 after they'd already been doing it for 11 years. 

I don't think aunt B has ever stopped sending out emails about Etiole while pretended to be me, I think she is still doing it. I think this, because in December 2021, I was at the Biddeford library when an elderly man came over to me, asked if I was EelKat and asked me why I was sending him hundreds of emails about Etiole, and who was Etiole? I told the man I don't use email, I've never emailed anyone, I don't know what he's talking about. He says he gets over 300 emails a day about Etiole from someone claiming to be EelKat. But here's the thing: EelKat is not something I call myself. I'll explain that in a bit.

First, let's go back to 1994. Before aunt B started sending the emails out, while claiming they were written by me. My father (my father) was the one who told the Atwaters about Etiole. My father and Dickie both called him "the white monkey". 

In 1994 and 1996 Bishop Paul Morgan asked me to his office and showed me a bunch of letters, all of them signed "The White Monkey, OST". He said the letters were written to sound like I had written them but he said he'd seen my handwriting before and knew I hadn't written these. The Bishop wanted to know if I recognized the handwriting. Some had been written by my father. Others had been written by Dickie. One was written by my mom's father David Henry Atwater who died several years ago now. This was the Mormon bishop in Cape Elizabeth. This bishop had more then one hundred letters laying on his desk, and he had several boxes more around his desk. He said he received no fewer then 5 letter every day for several months, and was quite concerned for my safety as he felt the letter writers may be "mentally unhinged" and "highly dangerous" based on what he called "several homicidal rants" contained in the letters. He said he was giving the letters to Paul Peterson, at Pine Land Centre Mental Health Institute in New Gloucester, because he felt my father and my uncle Dickie should be committed due to the contents of the letters.

The letters looked physically bizarre. Each one started like a normal letter, straight across sentences, line by line, but upon reaching the end of the page, the words spiralled around the outer edge and into a circle around the page, then upside down bottom to top between the first rows.

Each letter contained codes and cryptographers, and large portions of the letters were unreadable unless you cracked the "secret code" that was included with them.

Both my father and my uncle Dickie frequently wrote in that weird spiral and zigzag of lines fashion. My father's letters were the ones that included the cryptography and hidden codes. Dickies letters were just weird spiralling but no codes to solve.

I did not read any of the letters, but the Bishop was deeply upset by them, and stated that he used to be Catholic before becoming Mormon and said that if he was still Catholic he'd recommend my father had an excorsim down, because as the Bishop put it "the white monkey letters are the closet thing I've ever seen to demon possession".

Later that same year Paul Peterson from Pine Land Centre arrived at church and asked to talk to me. He had with him, some of the White Monkey letters and like the Bishop asked me to id the handwriting.

Stake President Earnshaw (of the same church) later called me in to his office for similar letters he had also received and again the white monkey letters were written by mostly daddy and some Dickie all pretending to be me, trying to make it look like I was pretending to be Etiole. 

In total 16 Bishops and 2 stake presidents had contacted me over the years about white monkey letters, all citing they were receiving them daily. Some said members were receiving them. When I stopped attending the Mormon church, my mother's minister's at the 15 churches she was attending at the time, all started getting the letters. (At the time my mom had a belief that she had to be in church as close to 24 hours a day as possible, so she was attending week day church services at every church that had them, even though she was not a member of most of those churches. She became an atheist last I had heard and attends no churches at all anymore as far as I know.) 

My father was in and out of the hospital a lot during this time period (1991 to 1996-ish), due to the violent fights between him and my mother which included him twice being hospitalized due to blood gushing head injuries from a brick, which also included OOB police arresting my mother for beating him said brick. The psychiatrist from Pine Land Centre felt that my dad suffered serious brain damage from one of the brick beating attacks, and wanted him to press charges against my mother, but he refused. The psychiatrist said he felt that my dad's White Monkey letters was a side effect of the multiple head injuries he was hospitalized for. 

The white monkey letters stopped in 2007 when the psychiatrist at Biddeford hospital diagnosed my father as having schizophrenia and put him on psychiatric medicine. The Biddeford police have this arrest on record. We were living at Water st at the time and my father had tried to kill me and my brother Joshua and also himself. The police arrested him. He was in the psych ward for around a week, and released because of the drastic change in his personality that was caused by the medication. He was only released on the condition that he maintained the meds.

Since 2007 no one has mentioned Etiole or the white monkey, until November 19, 2021, when things (the vandalism and harassment and threats) started escalating, the week Todd Murphy died when people started showing up in Biddeford driveway yelling about Etiole and calling him a suicide demon, claiming my Volvo was demon possessed, and accusing me of driving my car around town to drive people to suicide. I don't know who these people were. The one doing most of the yelling has very unique and very identifiable hair: it's a "high fashion" stick straight bob, like what you see in Italy Runways, super stiff as a board, stick straight, like she uses a few jars of jell to get it so straight. And a weird dark-purple tinted red. Very anime cartoon looking hair. You can't mistake it. She always wears big dark glasses, and usually has a little skinny blond man with her, who appears to be her husband or boyfriend. She frequently is beating him over the head with a baby car seat, while yelling at me and my car, while standing on the front porch of our building. They don't live here, I don't know who they re or where they come from. She did it almost every day of December, and most of the last week of November 2021.

This is the first time anyone has mentioned Etiole in years.

They call him Etiole sometimes, White Monkey other times. 

I should tell you where the term "white monkey" come from.

There was a white monkey, in OOB in the 1970s. It belonged to Helen Pearly of Pine Point and was part of her "White Animal Farm" zoo that she ran, which was a little petting zoo of all albino animals. I think it shut down in the early 1980s. Most older folks of the area remember Helen Pearly and her albino zoo animals - which included an elephant, and other such animals. Well, one day the white monkey escaped and Helen Pearly was a friend of my grandmother's (Helen Ricker Allen) and Helen Pearly showed up at 146 Portland Ave (than 862 because the road was renumbers in 1982) to tell my Grammy Helen the monkey had been seen nearby and to let her know if we saw it. Well, after that me and the other neighbour kids started going out into the swamps looking for the white monkey because Helen Pearly was offering a reward for it being returned. And one day we saw it, and tried to catch it and we followed it into the swamps and we found a homeless man out there. He was sick and starving to death. 

The white monkey belonged to Helen Pearly and has nothing to do with Etiole at all. In 1978 Helen Pearly had a pet white monkey that got lost. Me and Atwater cousin Micheal and my Murphy cousin Timmy (the one whose white cross is on the Ross rd he died in 2013) saw it in the woods out back and tried to catch it. We found Etiole the same day. Etiole is a homeless man who lives behind my land in the woods. Me and Micheal and Timmy took him food. And to this day, we still do, except Michael moved away and Timmy died in 2013 so that left just me taking care of Etiole today. Etiole is very old, probably 80s or 90s today. He's very small, not much bigger than a child, maybe around 5'1"-ish. He's covered with acid burns, scars, and tattoos. He has extreme PTSD and is terrified of the sight of people. He's very skittish, almost mute, speaks mostly with his hands, and run terrified from any people who try to get near him. The only reason he didn't run the day we found him, was because he was very sick, probably pneumonia or something like that. Had we children not found him and taken him food for the next several weeks, he probably would have died that same summer. He must have been in his 50s or 60s back then in 1978.

We told the adults about him, and they went to find him, but, they found some plants instead out there in the swamp, and my mom called the police, and the OOB police called the state police, and the state police called the FBI and the entire rest of the week was lots of police digging up lots of plants. Adam and the Babe, were 2 police officers who were left to stand watch over us children while every one else hauled out the plants. News reporters showed up and the news stations called it "Maine's largest drug raid". I don't know what drug plants look like so I don't know what kind of drugs they were. According the the FBI agents who talked to use kids (we were all 5 to 10 years old at the time) a "bad name named Bryan Cyr put those bad plants in the swamp". The FBI agents said they had been looking for Bryan Cyr and his Cyr Clan from Connecticut for several years and wanted to know had we seen him.  We had not, though we did see him about a year later when the big shoot out happened at 142 Portland Ave in front of the Dome house - the day the dome house blue up because Anne Cyr set fire to the meth lab inside- I saw her poured 3 gas cans on the house then throw several matches. Bryan fled in a robin egg blue micro-mini pick up truck, screaming that the meth lab was gonna blow. The whole house went up like a mushroom cloud. It's the only time I ever saw the Cyr Clan.) 

Adam and the Babe went with us kids to look for the sick homeless man/Etiole as he's now called by locals, but he was gone by then, because it had been 5 or 6 or more hours since the adults found the plants. The 2 police officers looked all over the forest for him, and stopped when they found a human leg bone in the Bachelder Brooke and took that with them and left to join the other officers. (144, 146, and 148 Portland Ave and the swamps and forest behind it is a massive Native American grave - there are at least 500 graves, that back in the 1970s all still had markers, most of the dates are 1400s to 1500, but in the mid 1980s someone stole most all of the slate grave markers, so they are unmarked today. I assume the leg bone was from one of those graves - human bones wash up out of the ground all the time on these sections of land because there are just so many Native American graves all over the place here, on my land and the lands abutting me. It's why the Powder Horn campground can't expand any closer to my land - they hit Native American graves last time they expanded the campground.)

So, because they got sidetracked by all the drug plants and all the police everywhere for the rest of the week, the adults never saw the homeless man or the white monkey as both had been scared off by the huge crowd of drug raid crews.

For some reason because we found him while looking for Helen Pearly white monkey my father and the Atwaters got it in their heads that Etiole was a demon alien shape shifter who turned into a white monkey to lure me and Micheal into the woods. And that's how their stupid ass alien and demon rumours got started.

I should point out, her family, The Atwaters, are the Scottish Traveller Gypsies, aka as The Scottish Mafia by several white Americans, her brothers Bruce and David and several of Davids adult children, grandchildren, and great grand children call themselves Scottish Mafia  and act every bit fitting on that title, which is both why the FBI is investigating and why I have nothing to do with them.

Right after the June attack on her car, a large group of Irish Travellers showed up from the Carilinas and Tennessee and were setting up squatting camps all around the area, The had set up a large camp on BB street behind my Main st/Cutts St apartment in Biddeford, setting up in the big chain link fenced yard on the corner (which is why the owners have since roped the land off.) I didn't think anything of it at first, because the Irish Travellers show up in Southern Maine every year for decades now, so there's nothing unusual about seeing them setting up camps on any space they can find, you see it every year. Usually they camp on the cow farms in Dayton/Buxton/North Saco area, so seeing them in Biddeford was a bit strange.

I point this out because the week they arrived on BB, my mother and her Atwater siblings and their families flipped out big time. They put heavy focus on "the brown house on the corner and the chain link fence yard across the street" and laid out to harassing the landlords of those two locations. They had a list of around 100 addresses in Biddeford, Cape Elizabeth, and many other places included Rhode Island and Connecticut. I saw the list because my mother showed up at my yard waving it around and demanding I help her and the Atwaters stage an attack on the Irish Travellers, whom she claimed was family of the man in the green truck with the 2x4 attack on her car.

A war between the Scottish Travellers/Scottish Mafia/The Atwaters and the Irish Travellers -which include The Cry Clan drug gang from Connecticut - the one the FBI is here looking for-, is the last thing I want to get involved in. Those same two clans are the ones who did the 4-5-8 shoot out back in the 1970s/1980s, when they blew up the dome house at 142 Portland Ave. They were armed to the teeth with truck loads and school bus loads of illegal military guns back in the 4-5-8 shoot out and I don't want to see what kind of weaponry that same group lugs around now 40 years later.

I am a Voodoo Priestess. Voodoo is also known as Folk Catholicism. It is a branch of the Catholic Church. Voodoo is a Christian religion, that focuses on reverence the ancestors. Hollywood Horror movies have slandered our religion to such an extent that the average person thinks Voodoo is dark magic, death spells, curses, and voodoo dolls. Those are all things that exist only in Hollywood and do not exist in real world Voodoo. The problem is made worse, when teens and young adults, not knowing the actual religion, call themselves Voodoo while practising things they see in movies.  While the older generations of Gypsies and Travellers know the difference, younger generation have fallen far from the old traditions, especially the old religion, and sadly, even among Gypsies and Travellers today, many in the age group of 60 years old and younger, only know Voodoo from Horror movies and not from their grandmother's actual practice.

I say this because my mother and her Atwaters wanted me to join then as a "figure head" for their cause. They specifically demanding I summon demons, make voodoo dolls, cast curses, and use magic to kill the list of people living at the addresses on the list they had. In short they attempted to hire me to be a quasi-hit-man for them.

When I explained to them that this is not what Voodoo is about, Voodoo is peaceful, non-violent, we shun weapons and hurtful acts of all types, they lashed out at Etiole -who was not here, it was just me they were yelling at, yelling about him. My mother called Etiole a demon, said he was my familiar, said "I know you work with demons, you can't lie to me" and "you cast death curses on people all the time you lying little bitch, you just won't do it for me because you want to spite your mother, after all I do for you!

I made a Twitch livestream video that same day, telling what was going on and what I feared was about to happen, because I have seen these same two Gypsy clans go to war with each other before.

Well, I have too much to deal with with my health. I'm bedridden 15+ hours a day, so I do nothing but play video games and write novels and edit novels, ALL of which I do on livestream - yes, I livestream for 12 to 15, sometimes 19 hours each and every single day, and I have 92TB of hard drive full of that video footage all the way back to 2015 - I have every minute of every day of my life not only live streamed on Twitch, but I have ALL the video footage files, which mean I have footage of all the attacks, all the yelling at my car, all the demanding I cast death spells, all the trying to hire me as a hit man - all of it. I have over 15k hours of video footage. And because most of the attacks happened during a livestream, there are also hundreds of witness online who saw and heard the attacks and threats already, seeing and hearing them as they were happening.

Going back to the suspecting someone is impersonating me... My mother makes the claim that it is her right to cut the wires off my Biddeford apartment building, because she claims I've put her name, address, and where she goes online. I've never put her address or name or where she goes on the internet. Don't know what she's talking about. I gave her the FBI contact info and told her that if she actually is seeing "me" posting this stuff she claims I'm posting online, then she needs to forward that stuff to the FBI because it's someone impersonating me, and that was one of the things the FBI has suspected was happening so they are actively looking for that kind of stuff. They are trying to get to the bottom of who it is spreading these wild, crazy ass rumours and lies, both doing it in my name and doing it about me.

They've already located a shut down a few dozen impersonation of me, social network accounts, and so far, to date, all of them have belonged to just one person: my mother's brother Mervin Bruce Atwater. Well, it makes sense that HE would know her home address and where she goes, seeing how, for the past decade they were kind of joined at the hip and did everything together. Yeah, of course he knows where she lives and what car she drives and where she goes. 

Also, I never went to school, she did not allow it, There were several legal/court battles between my mom and the OOB school and the state of Maine ad the department of education throughout the 1980s, over the fact that she was actively refusing to allow me to attend school. So I never learned to do math or numbers. I don't know how to count or do money or any stuff like that. And numbers don't register in my head for some reason. People will tell me a phone number or home address and 5 seconds later my mind is blank on the numbers. I can't remember them. That's why when something like an attack happens I write down the tie and date immediately and keep it on a chart - I have a list, day by day, all times and dates of every attack since June 2001. I wouldn't be able to remember what happened when if I didn't keep a list like that.

Well, my mother knows all of this, so she knows even if she had told me her address, which she didn't, I wouldn't have remembered it long enough to even write it down.

In June 2021, I found out she moved, because I was walking my dog -we walk 3 to 4 miles a day, all over Biddeford, Old Orchard, and Scarborough, because I am trying to rebuild my leg muscles after having been bedridden since 2013, with only minimal movement- Doctors said I would never walk again and I aim to prove them wrong and well I have, because I am at least walking enough to walk my dog each day, but it is very difficult, and every step I take feels like a sword stabbing up my right leg and into my spine, because of the nerve damage. It is why I walk so slow and limp so bad, because it hurts terrible to step down.

Well, one day I was walking my dog and all of a sudden, there's my mother, telling me that I'm standing in front of her house and I was surprised, because last I knew she lived several miles away. I had no clue she lived 2 streets over from me and that she had done so for 3 years!

I don't know how she expects me to even know where she goes considering I've had no contact with her in almost a decade now, not since the stunt she pulled April 10, 2015 when she broke into my motorhome, filled it with feces, and then locked her 13 cats in it to frame me for animal abuse. She did not expect the Old Orchard Beach police to arrive and confiscate her cats and then not give them back to her and she has been in a social media battle with several animal shelters, veterinarians, animal control officers, and police officers ever since. Most of her harassment of these people has been targeted at former OOB town hall worker DF  and OOB police officer WW , both of whom she has been harassing on FaceBook for the past 7 years. You can ask DF  and WW  and their family and friends on FaceBook, how bad it has gotten. In recent months she added a new person to her FaceBook harassment, I don't know their name, just that it's the ex-wife and 15 year old son of someone named Todd Murphy who recently died from being hit by a train in front of my Biddeford apartment on Nov 19, 2021. Sometimes she says his death was a suicide, other times she says he was murdered and thrown in front of the train. I don't know which it is, I didn't know him, and only have her word for any of it.

In her mind, the way the whole thing was supposed to happen was: you police were supposed to confiscate my motorhome and she would take her cats and go home. 

What actually happened was: you police confiscated her cats, and I kept my motorhome.

She has spent the last 7 years harassing every pet shelter and rescue in New England, trying to find the cats.

In answer to questions about the cats from April 2015—those were cats belonging to Wayne Whitten of Biddeford, Maine. I was never able to talk about it because of the court case going on between Wayne's family and the Atwaters.

To make matters even worse, the cats were not hers, either. Rather, they belonged to Wayne Whitten and his daughter. My mother had stolen the cats from Wayne, in an act of retaliation, after Wayne refused to hand over to her, his father, William's land.

If you do not know, there are several polygamists in my family, all on the Atwater side. My mother is one of them. Wayne Whitten is one of her many Husbands, and therefore Wayne Whitten is also my stepfather.

In May 2010, my mother took a chainsaw to my 1964 Dodge 330. But it was not the ONLY car she attacked that week. Two days earlier, she took a chainsaw to Wayne's black 1970s vintage Dodge. AFTER, she locked her Old English sheepdog in the trunk and left it there for 6 months, and then tried to say that Wayne killed her dog, when in fact, she had.

Many people in Biddeford, Maine knew Wayne Whitten and his father William Whitten, and both men were known for the wild tales of Wayne's 5th wife, Jeannie, who daily beat him, gathered her older brothers to beat him, and hospitalized him several times, multiple times nearly killing him. That wife is also my mother.

Unfortunately for Wayne Whitten, no one would believe him about how violent and psychotically deranged his wife was and in the space of only a few weeks, his father, then his cats, and then Wayne himself all died. Because of the violent nature of Wayne's death, details were withheld from the public.

Three cats—the white cat Old Lady, and the 2 tabby's Trouble and Sassy, were already dead before the police arrived, and all three were diagnosed as having been force-fed rat poison. This is why, even though my mother put 13 cats in my motorhome, the police only took 10 cats.

Wayne's father, William, owned the cape house next door to Ben's Flooring in Biddeford, behind Walmart. In his 90s, with his health failing, my mother arrived demanding William sell his house and give her the money for a down payment on a mansion in Kennebunk. The exact same demands she is now making at me, these 7 years later. She did this to William Whitten in 2015, and Wayne's daughter to this day maintains that my mother's threats, demands, and harassment were the major contributing factors of William's death.

My mother took the Whitten cats, intending to hold them hostage, until William sold his house and gave her the money. This was why she hid the cats in my motorhome. This is also why when the police showed up asking about the cats, I had no clue what they were talking about and let them search the motorhome telling them there were no cats in it. My mother broke into my motorhome and hid the cats in there, apparently 3 days earlier, and I was unaware she had done this so was unaware the cats were there.

This is also why, when police officer Will Watson asked how many cats there were and what their names were, why I did not know how many cats there were and only knew the names of a couple of the cats that I had heard Wayne talk about.

William Whitten died while the cat fiasco was going on.

Wayne, realizing what my mother had done to his cats, tried to get them back, but he died a few weeks later.

Wayne, his father, and his cats all died a few weeks apart from each other.

My mother went around triumphantly bragging that she had gotten Wayne's father's land, via being Wayne's wife, and set about to the process of buying the house in Kennebunk. And got slapped with a reality check when the two wills got read and both William and Wayne had left everything they had to Wayne's daughter.

In raging inferno, my mom lashed out at Wayne's daughter, and a lawsuit happened, with Wayne's daughter charging my mother with kidnapping the cats, and using rat poison to slowly poison Wayne. A massive Facebook war happened between the Whittens and the Atwaters as my mother got her Atwater thugs involved, and the Whitten's fled in terror once they realized the rumours that my mother was part of the Scottish Mafia, was in fact, very, very, very true.

To this day, the remains of Wayne Whitten's surviving family live in mortal terror, daily vandalism, and barbaric levels of harassment at the hands of my mother, and her brothers Bruce and David and David's sons and grandsons.

More details of what happened can be found here: Amphibious Aliens: https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html

And no, for the people who are confused, Amphibious Aliens has nothing to do with aliens. It is about a homeless man whom my mother and her brother Bruce, over hyper focused on, and together my mother and Bruce created an elaborate alien abduction and demon possession hoax, so they could try to scam several dozen locals out of their houses.

This cat stealing, house stealing scam is something they have been doing to people all over Southern Maine since BEFORE I was even born. The earliest known attempt at this house stealing scam dates back to their father David Henry Atwater and a house he stole in the 1930s in Rumford Maine. At the time, my grandfather used the hoax of an angel from heaven coming down and telling him to take the Rumford farm. And at the time, my grandfather was a transport driver for Honey Fizt's ACTUAL Boston Mafia, which is WHY, the Atwaters make the claim to be the Scottish Mafia. Their claim is that because they are Scottish, and their father worked for Honey Fitz that they are Mafia. But the Atwaters are neither Scottish nor Mafia, both claims are outright lies that are nothing more than part of the scam they run.

As can be seen with BOTH what she has spent the past 5 decades doing to Etiole and what she is currently doing to Todd Murphy's family on and off FaceBook, you can see how much my mother hyper focuses on homeless people and abusing their friends and relatives and using the homeless person's homelessness as excuses for the scams she runs.

That she spent decades running a land stealing scam in Etiole's name, and now is running another land stealing scam in Todd Murphey's name is utterly deplorable.

And you people who wonder WHY I've not had contact with my mother in 30 years, WHY I shun her. WHY I hate her and her Atwater thugs so much... you are right now witnessing it live as they do it all over again, this time taking advantage of the pain and suffering of Todd Murphy's family to try to steal land from people in the name of a homeless man who was killed by a train.

I am thoroughly and utterly disgusted with my mother's vile abuse of the Murphy family and what she is doing in the name of a dead man.

I've said it thousands of times before and I'll say it again: The Atwaters are scum.

The Atwaters devote their lives to abusing homeless people and the families of those homeless people, just so they can run their filthy scams, and I’m fucking sick of the Atwaters and their filth.


She has had several retaliation attacks happen to her, done by family and friends of the people she's harassing on FaceBook. the retaliation attacks included a Biddeford Public Works road grader being driven into her yard and over her car in 2017. Two additional attacks on her next car, the following year. And in June 2021 a man driving a green pick up truck drove into her yard and beat her car with a 2by4. (Note, I did not witness any of these attacks on her cars and only have her word on what happened.)

All of these people she is fighting with on FaceBook, I don't know, they are people she knows and they are not on my FaceBook and I blocked her and all the Atwaters from my FaceBook back in May 2015, when her and her nieces and nephews and siblings were posting death threats on my FB profile. One cousin cousin name, posted pictures of herself carrying a machine gun (not automatic rifle - but a machine gun - the big type you put on a tripod and have a belt full of hundreds of bullets slung over your shoulder- similar to a gatland gun but not as big, though she had pictures of her gatland gun too that she was also posting on my FB) She'd write under the pictures "This is the gun I'm going to shoot you with"... her husband was one of the guys arrested after the Jan 6 attack, by the way - the guy in Florida with the Nancy something's ( forget her last name, I think it began with a P? I don't know American politics, I find it all confusing so I'm not sure who the Nancy woman was). He stole her pulpit and  he was posting pictures of him stealing on FB. Her mom is aunt L, and she and he were among the 23 cousins that the FBI has been trying to find because they supplied a lot of the guns for the Jan 6th attack, according to posts they made on FB. I don't know, I never saw any such posts because I have them all blocked n FB since 2015. Her brother cousin name was also posting pictures of him carrying guns and writing death threats underneath on my FB wall. His messages said: "I'm an ordained Aaronic Priest and god has given me permission to blow your brains out with this gun". cousin name and cousin name are 2 of David and aunt L's 15 adult kids -all are 40 to 60+ years old. David is my mom's oldest brother, he's in his 80s. He is very violent, there has never been an occasion of him arriving on my land in Old Orchard, that did not involve his trying to kill me, usually by strangling me. He is the most violent of all the uncles. Several times while he's been here he beat up his adult kids by hitting them in the face with weights off of dumbells. 

Most of the Atwater men are retired Marines, and all of them are over 6'2" the tallest, is 7'3". These guys are HUGE and are all weightlifters. You don't want to cross one of the Atwater uncles, they are former Marines trained in weaponless combat. David runs a compound in Palmyra.. . and you might have just seen his crew in the news - they were doing a squatter's rights takeover of that big mansion next door to Stephen King in Bangor and somehow the place caught fire. The news reports didn't mention Stephen King and went out of their way to get camera angles that kept King's house out of the news, but I'm as familiar with Bangor streets as I am Old Orchard and Biddeford streets, so I recognized which house it was on the news, that got attacked by the squatters doing a take over war. 

My uncle and his kids are trying to confiscate the land all around Stephen King - they say they have the right to because no one was ever paid any money for being in The Thinner movie. That happened about 2 weeks ago, the news did not list the squatters name, but like I said, it's my uncle and his crew, they been focusing on the 20 or so houses around King's big red Victorian, for over a decade now. They tried to get me to help them do it, that's how I found out. They made the claim that because I'm an author I should be able to reason with Stephen King and convince him to hand over his red Victorian house in exchange for his never paying them for being in The Thinner. I told them to get lost and burn in hell. Just because I'm an author and King's film crew filmed a part of Thinner on my land in Old Orchard doesn't mean I know King himself, I never even met him, and them being obsessed with stealing land from people is just out of control. 

The whole Atwater clan does this. They don't see anything wrong with moving in, setting up camp, and driving the rightful land owners off their land at gunpoint.

They act like it's a family tradition to steal land from people, via squatting, harassment, corrosion, death threats, and outright just forging deeds and switching the files, like they did with my land.

And that's the issue we have going on right now. My mother has gone on a psych crazed warpath vendetta of taking my land or else, and or else so far has included her twice now having my father shove things up the tailpipe of my car, both times doing lots of damage t the car when I started the engine and everything inside blew up because of the fuel line blocked. And twice now - each time the same day as attacking my Volvo cutting the wires off the Biddeford apartment as well, in the same driveway where the car was parked.

Both times they admitted to doing it and both times used the justification that I deserved it because I was refusing to sell my land and give my mother the money to buy a house in Kennebunk. She says she has to move to Kennebunk to "get away from the niggars invading Maine, Kennebunk is all white they don't allow no niggars". She's very crude and vulgar and has an extreme hatred for black people and hangs around online with some group that calls itself "the workers of iniquity" which claims to be "a branch of the Ku Klux Klan because the original Ku Klux Klan is not strict enough".

Throughout 2016 people wearing KKK-like white robes and hood showed up in Old Orchard to make threats about my land. Back then I was unaware that my mother was friends with such a group. The robes are NOT KKK robes, the KKK robes are very distinctive, covered with fancy bead work and embroidery, and are not white, but are usually green or red or blue or yellow. It's a Hollywood myth that the KKK wears white, and that's how you can tell REAL KKK from fake wannabe's pretending to be KKK. Real KKK is not wearing white sheets and white pillowcases. The real KKK is a church that is organized similar to Catholic church and all their robes mean specific ranks, also they don't wear hood, they wear mitre hats like the pope does, and have a veil mask over their eyes. So its pretty easy to identify real KKK from fakers in white sheets, and the people showing up in my yard were not real KKK, they were fakers literally wrapped in white bed sheets with pillow cases over their heads. 

Well, various white-power groups show up in the area, that's nothing unusual. Neo-Nazi, Sovereign Citizens, ect. They've always been around Maine, so much so that there are KKK and white power history museums in Maine -one is in Saco. So, I didn't think much of the white hood idiots in my yard. We are Gypsies, white hooded idiots are a part of our non-white life.

Well, here's the thing: we are not white. My mother's mother was not a Gypsy. Eva Viola Little John Dyer Atwater was half Kickapoo Native American and half black. He mother was 100% Native America. Her father 100% black. My mom is 1/4 black, 1/4 Native American, and 1/2 Gypsy of Roumania/Arabian/Middle Eastern descent. There is not one drop of white blood in her. Which is why I was surprised to hear her say: "I gotta move to Kennebunk to get away from the niggars invading Maine, Kennebunk is all white they don't allow no niggars". Yes, Kennebunk is all white, and look at the news, the black school teach who lives in Old Orchard Beach and worked at Kennebunk schools is daily bombarded with swastika painted on her car while she's teaching class. I can't drive my Volvo down main street Kennebunk with out getting pelted with rocks and crowds running off the sidewalks screaming "death to Gypsy scum!" It's dangerous t drive through Kennebunk and not be white -they pull us coloured folks out of cars if we get stopped at a red light. Kennebunk is legendary for being the most white power town in the state of Maine.

One has only to look up the international news reports of the 10 year old school children dragging their black teacher into the streets and almost beating her to death -in 2020. That happened barely a year ago. Kennebunk is the most hostile anti-black town in America and they are proud of it, brag about it, and since the BLM stuff of 2020, Kennebunk has gotten ten times worse. And, she's been seeing all that in the news and wants to live there, and I'm not sure why, because like I said,  my mom is 1/4 black, 1/4 Native American, and 1/2 Gypsy of Roumania/Arabian/Middle Eastern descent and if she tries to buy a house there, and they find out she has black blood, they'll kill her. But she's all hyped up on a white power kick and wants to join Kennebunk's anti-black movement, and... I... I just don't understand it and I'm sure if that's actual why she wants to go thee or not.

There was a court case about the cats (3 different ones because the town hall dropped the case after evidence proved the cats were not mine and my mother had snuck them in my motorhome a few days earlier to try to frame me and then some MB guy crawled out of the woodwork to reopen the case a month later), which, for some reason was in my name, not her name, because the motorhome was mine, even though the cats were hers. Weirdly, half way through the court case the town hall dropped the case and some guy named MB Bureau took over it instead. Thing is, I don't know who this MB guy is. He's not anyone I have ever even met before and he was not at the court so I didn't meet him there either. He came in with lots of wild accusations about me harassing him, even though I had no clue who he was and had never heard of him before. MB's lawyer took photo copies of a conversation on Twitter between me and JB (the guy the FBI arrested for embezzling $30k out of the OOB town hall bank account - $3million in OOB tax money went missing, the rest was never found as far as I know. The Twitter conversation was this JB sending me death threats because he had just been released from prison, and he was claiming I had put him there, even though I didn't know him or that he'd been in prison or that he had stolen money from OOB town hall. According to FBI, JB was a church friend of my mother's and he and town manager Jim Thomas, had been Bishopric counsellors to Mormon Church Bishop DK and the 3 of them and several others from the Saco LDS church had taken over the OOB town hall in around 2010 and embezzled $3million in town taxes. Apparently my Uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater, Richard Merlin Atwater, and aunt B had been involved, been involved and they had used fake social media accounts in my name to contact JB so he thought I knew him, that's why he contacted me on my real account after getting out of prison. I don't know the details I only know the small bit of info the FBI told me to let me know why this JB guy was contacting me.) For some reason, this MB guy, said the Twitter conversation with this Joel guy was about him. 

And apparently according to the FBI, this MB guy owns the old abandoned logging road across the street from me, which is numbered as 139 Portland Ave. I don't know, that road has been abandoned at least since the 1970s, I had no idea any one lived down there, but FBI says this MB guy does. I've been at 146 since 1975, and I've never see any one live there. FBI says there is another driveway on a different side that they probably use. Any ways, for some odd reason this MB guy took over the court case with the cats, only he suddenly said it was about me being transgender (but I'm not transgender, so I don't know why he said I was) His lawyer came into court saying I was a man pretending to be a woman, and here's where it got really weird, the lawyer copied what he SAID was an "About Me" page off of my website (eelkat.com) only what he copied was the about page for the main character of the novel series I write (I'm the author of 138 published novels). The series is about a male Elf who is possessed by a female parasitic alien jellyfish. So it's a female jellyfish wearing the body of a dead male Elf like a coat and passing herself off as him.

Well, this lawyer (Gene Libby) for this MB guy is waving THAT fictional character profile around in court, saying it was my personal about me page, and making the claim that I was a male to female transvestite who believed I was an Elf... and here's the kicker... his whole spiel was trying to convince the judge that I was insane so this MB guy could confiscate my land at 146 Portland Ave! It was the most bizarre thing, and the judge thought so too, because the judge tossed the whole thing out of court because the charges this MB guy had against me were so oddball off the wall nut job ridiculous. But the thing was, again, it was someone making wild claims that I had to hand them over my land, which is what keeps happening with every one of these weird attacks. And always, like both these 2 guys: JB and MB Bureau they are creepy ass strangers who crawl out of the woodwork, people I've never heard of before, making claims to being my friend (JB made the claim he was my best friend and said we talked all the time on FaceBook, but he wasn't on my FB and I'd never heard of him before. While MB Bureau in his court papers made the claim to be one of my uncles -he is not-and)

aunt B and aunt L of Bangor used to be putting stuff online about me and my brothers and JB would get it from aunt B and aunt L and forward it every where. This was in 2010 era, but I did not see the posts, because none of them is a FaceBook friend of me. The FBI however said they saw a lot of the posts, these people made, including several death threats. Seems likely something like that is happening again given the way people keep showing up here at the Biddeford apartment when no one even knew I was here.

I met aunt L about 3 times during my childhood, it's been 30+ years since I last saw her, and I've never spoken with her online or offline not once in my entire life.

aunt B I meet 10 or 12 times during my childhood, and likewise it's been 30+ years since I last saw her, except for 2 times. One in 2013 she showed up at my Biddeford apartment on Water St, with some medical scam idea she had that she wanted me to help her with. She said she was working at Blue Cross/Blue Shield and had found a way to get people's insurance money because a lot of people didn't file claims; she said she was also an EMT, and she could take the records from one job to cross with the other job, to have people's insurance money forwarded to a POBox she owned. I told her I wanted nothing to do with it and to get lost. I don't know how true any of the stuff she said was. I don't know if she worked at those places or could do the scam she was claiming or not.

aunt B showed up again in 2016, at the Gazebo Park (might be named Mechanic's Park?) on the Saco River by the water treatment plant. I was there walking my dog, and my mother showed up with an uncle Peter (now deceased) who was visiting from Utah. They were having a picnic. aunt B and Bruce showed up to trash everything, steal the food, and then leave. They were yelling and screaming the whole time. They acted drunk, except I didn't think they drank. I don't know. Mormons don't drink, not usually.

So I don't know aunt B and aunt L otherwise. I know nothing about them. Have never had contact with them, have never spoken with them online or offline. So, I'm puzzled as to why they were posting things online about me in 2010, or why they were acting like they knew me, when neither of them has ever been a part of my life or know anything about me.

But, they make claims that I say and do various things that I don't say or do. The list of things they've accused me of is massive and kind of crazy and include the claims that I am a prostitute, and that I am a Mafia gang leader ... like I said, it's just wild and also very slanderous and I'm sick of it.

Back in 2019 when my mother got her car, she had it over a month before I even knew she had gotten a car. I found out she had it when she flipped out saying I was online telling people she bought a car. And it turned out is was aunt B and Brucie online telling everyone she got a car, but I had told them,  even thought I had never talked to either of them since 2013 when FBI told me cut off all contact with them

aunt B and Bruce and aunt L all 3 are constantly telling people I said things, that I never said. 

I told you people been showing up talking about Todd and claiming I said things online about him, but I don't even know who he is or what they are talking about. It almost looks like someone is online impersonating me.

A few weeks ago an old man walked up to me, asked if I was EelKat and then asked me why I kept emailing him, and I said I don't email anyone cause I don't use email. He said some days he gets over 300 emails a day from someone claiming to be EelKat 

Last time my car had this problem was same day my father cut the internet on my mom's orders. Suspicious my car has same problem again, same day internet goes off again. It went off while my mother was here

aunt B showed up at water st day after golf club attack, but I never knew how she found out , I never told anyone online about it . Her and Bruce knew about it some how before any one else.  They wanted me to use my injury to help them run a medical scam and they were pissed when I refused to. They started spreading lies about me online because of that. That was Nov 2013

aunt B and Bruce knew about the cats and DAY BEFORE it happened. aunt B posted on my FaceBook wall "the next head nailed to the door will be yours" the day before any heads were nailed to door

I think it's aunt B online saying stuff about me and my mom, because she did it before and because FBI was here asking about her going down to Washington Jan 6 attack, but I didn't yet know the Jan 6 attack had even happened. They said aunt B aunt L and 23 cousins had been down there and they FBI was trying to find them. 

Old Orchard police and Biddeford police and a detective have all shown up asking about aunt B and aunt L and 23 cousins as well. But again I don't know anything because I not had contact with them. But FBI, 2 police departments and a detective are all saying aunt B and aunt L and 23 cousins are making claims about me, in connection to bombs and ISIS .

That's how I found out Paul Martel was in prison. According to FBI agents, Paul Martel built the bombs for the 2013 Boston marathon and the 2013 bomb at South Maine Community College and put the college bomb in my class to make it look like I made the Boston bomb. That's why the FBI showed up to begin with. They were at the college investigating both bombs that happened the same day

FBI said they believed the whole thing was aunt B and Bruce idea, but Paul martial was the one who actually built the bomb and sold it to ISIS, and put the second bomb in my class at college so Paul Martel was the only one they could arrest. FBI is trying to arrest aunt B because they think she's the one behind it. They said the whole thing seems to have started because Scott went to prison for selling drugs at Scarborough downs and for some reason aunt B thinks I'm the one who turned him in, even though I've not seen or heard from Scott since he was 8 years old

FBI thinks the attack on the cats was aunt B retaliating because Paul Martel got arrested. 

When Dickie died also in 2013, after the bomb in Boston but before the golf club attackers aunt B was with him taking charge of his medicine and his official cause of death was an overdose of his medicine, with a not saying unable to determine if accident or suicide. I found out this 2 days after he died when Jacksonville County state police from Florida showed up here in Maine to interview me about where I was the day Dickie died  because when he died aunt B called 911 and told the police I had killed him. 

The FBI thinks the golf club attack was aunt B retaliating because police didn't arrest me for murdering Dickie like she had demanded they do

FBI is full focused on arresting aunt B and Bruce. There's no evidence Bruce is dead. All evidence points to him being in New Zealand. 

FBI believes Bruce faked death because FBI was moving in to close and he didn't want to take the fall for what aunt B is doing 

In 1996 and 1997 aunt B sent out lots of emails to the family claiming the emails had been written by me. I did not have email, internet, or even a computer yet. She got Dickie and David and Joey in raving warpath over it. That's the summer they all showed up talking about Etiole and amphibious aliens and alien abduction. aunt B was the one who started all of that stuff about Etiole, who I never called Etiole. Etiole is not his name, it's always been the word the Atwaters used to describe him (it means man from the stars or alien it's a French word. I don't know French, aunt B is the one who knows French, so I never would have given him a French name) Bruce and Dickie went to a bunch on MUFON forums from 1996 to 2007 spreading lies about me and Etiole calling him a demon and alien and claiming I was an alien abducted. I found out about it in 2007 after they'd already been doing it for 11 years. I don't think aunt B has ever stopped sending out emails about Etiole while pretended to be me, I think she is still doing it.

My father was the one who told the Atwaters about Etiole. My father and Dickie both called him the white monkey. In 1994 and 1996 Bishop Morgan asked me to his office and showed me a bunch of letters, all of them signed "The White Monkey, OST". He said the letters were written to sound like I had written them but he said he'd seen my handwriting before and knew I hadn't written these. He wanted to know if I recognized the handwriting. Some had been written by daddy. Others had been written by Dickie. President Earnshaw later called me in for similar letters he had received and again the white monkey letters were written by mostly daddy and some Dickie all pretending to be me, trying to make it look like I was pretending to be Etiole. In total 16 Bishops and 2 stake presidents had contacted me over the years about white monkey letters

The white monkey letters stopped in 2007 when the psychiatrist at Biddeford hospital diagnosed daddy as having schizophrenia and put him on psychiatric medicine. Since 2007 no one has mentioned Etiole or white monkey, until the week Todd died when people started showing up in Biddeford driveway yelling about Etiole and calling him a suicide demon

The white monkey belonged to Helen pearly and has nothing to do with Etiole at all. In 1978 Helen pearly had a pet white monkey that got lost. Me and cousin Micheal saw it in the woods out back and tried to catch it. We found Etiole the same day. Etiole is a homeless man who lives behind my land in the woods. Me and Micheal took him food. For some reason because we found him while looking for Helen pearly white monkey my father and the Atwaters got it in their heads that Etiole was a demon alien shape shifter who turned into a white monkey to lure me and Micheal into the woods. And that's how their stupid ass alien and demon rumours got started.

I used to let him sleep in the Dodge at night, that's why people started saying the car was haunted. They said Etiole was a demon and the car was demon possessed. My father and Bruce used to stay up all night debating what kind of demon Etiole must be and kept calling me a demon child and a witch and saying I was demon possessed and they called Etiole my familiar and said I summoned him to cast curses and death spells. Bruce believed all that stuff as actual fact and after Bruce left for the night my dad would joke about how gullible Bruce was and how easy it was to convince him demons lived in my car. From there the rumours ended up on the internet through the Heaven's Gate group, that Bruce was a member of at the time. They were a group of around 200 people who went from one UFO forum to the next spreading rumours about me and Etiole. They did that for 11 years before I found out Bruce and his UFO friends were doing it. 

I found out when people started showing up in Old Orchard with beeping equipment claiming they were here the capture Etiole while calling him an amphibious alien and EBE and calling me "EelKat Etiole's friend" I did not use the username EelKat online and none of my books about EelKat (the black bobcat) had ever been published so there was no reason for internet people to know either the name EelKat or Etiole.  I was using the username xavychup online not EelKat, that's why my email address is xavychup not EelKat. EelKat is something Grammy called me back in the 1970s because she said eels and cats were my spirit animals. I never called myself EelKat online or offline so only the Atwaters had ever heard that word before and yet in 2007, I spent the entire summer with endless people showing up in my yard at my tent and all calling me EelKat and all looking for Etiole. 

Because I was living under the tarp I had no access to internet yet so had no clue what was going on online. I went to the library and searched Etiole and EelKat to see what came up and I found tens of thousands of forum posts and interviews and articles all written by Bruce and Dickie, including interviews with Buddy Hopkins, David Mack, and David Icke. All the stuff they said was how they had this demon possessed niece who had been abducted by aliens and has brought an alien back from the mother ship with her and was now protecting him. Every one of the forum posts. Interviews and articles had my full name, my old Orchard address, my email, and my old Orchard phone number listed. That was why so many people were showing up at the tent. In 2006 to 2009. The whole thing of people calling me a Witch and saying about curses and death spells and aliens and demons was started by daddy saying that stuff to Bruce and then Bruce and Dickie spreading it online for 11 years from 1996 to 2007

I started using the name EelKat online BECAUSE my uncles had spent 11 years calling me that on MUFON forums, and when I found out about it and started contacting all the forum admins, I had to tell every one:

"I'm Wendy Christine Allen. I'm the one you all call EelKat, Etiole's friend, the REAL EelKat, friend of the REAL Etiole,  and I'm here to slap every damned one of you with protection from harassment orders. I'm tired of the slander and lies you people are spreading about me of fucking UFO websites. I'm not an alien abductee, I've never claimed to be, until this morning I didn't even know what an alien abductee was. Etiole is not an alien. Etiole is not a demon. He's a local homeless man who has a skin deformity, so he hides in the forest because people are scared of him because of what he looks like, and they beat him up and bully him. The people telling you he's an alien are my uncles, who the ring leaders behind beating him up and bullying him, and I'm quite upset to find out they've been doing it online for quite some time and I'm only just finding out about it now, because earlier this week, I had 30,000 people in my driveway, trying to catch him while screaming that he was an amphibious alien and EBE. You UFO crazies are insane, and I want you people out of my yard. My uncles are lying to you about me and Etiole and you'll idiots for believing them."

I created an EelKat username EVERYWHERE just so I could post that message to every place my uncles had posted that fucking ass alien abduction shit about me and Etiole. THAT, is why you saw me start to use the EelKat username in 2007, when I was always xavychup everywhere before that.

And that is also why I do NOT have an EelKat email.  I've had the xavychup email since 1994, I still have it. And anyone using an eelkat email to contact you isn't me, because I don't have an eelkat email. It always has been and still is xavychup.

Last I knew aunt B and Bruce and aunt L and Bruce's daughters and David's kids and grandchildren were all still continuing to spread demon and alien lies about me and Etiole and were still putting my real name and address on everything. In 2019 they were putting my old Orchard address my high street address and also my water st address even though I was no longer at water street on thousands of forum posts and Facebook posts. In 2019 they were making several hundred posts daily across all there accounts and I found 27 fake EelKat accounts owned just by Bruce himself alone. They were all things like eeelkat, ee1kat, 33lkat, etc. Slightly spell different to look like it was me, yo someone looking quick and not paying attention.  They are likely still doing it and I assume they are doing the same to my mother as well. 

Also I don't even know what mothers address is. How could I put it anywhere? I didn't even know she moved until last summer and apparently she moved a few years ago. No one ever told me she had moved. 

Just like the saying about me saying she got a car. I didn't know about the white car until she came over in it to see Mickey last may and apparently she had a few cars in between. Last car I knew was the black one. I didn't even know she had a new car, let alone more than one.

No one ever told me those things, not her or any one else so it's utterly stupid for her to think I could put her address or cars online. Only people who knew about her address and cars could put them online.

Don't forget she never even told me when Dickie or Bruce died. Both times I found out from the FBI showing up to investigate accusations that I had murdered them

I'm the bed ridden, crippled by multiple attacks. The November 14, 2013 golf club attack, I was almost healed from, but the June 2016 shopping cart attack re opened the 2013 injury and doctors can't operate this time because of the bone shards severing my spinal column. I'm crippled for the rest of my life and no one in this family ever cared. 

Both attacks the FBI wanted to talk to my parents and they refused to talk to him both times. My baby was murdered in the first attack. I was 8 months pregnant and all any of them would do was gibberish about "rosemary baby" and say there was no baby because it was a demon because it was Etiole's. My parents and the Atwaters hate Etiole that much, that they shun the existence of my baby and act like it was never there. That's how much they hate me. That's how cruel and hate filled they are towards me. They spent the last 50 years calling me demon possessed and them saying that is WHY local people attack me and killed my baby and left me crippled for the rest of my life. 

I am in bed 15 or more hours a day, I can barely sit up, I can barely stand up long enough to cook, I have to wear adult diapers since 2013 because half my organs don't work any more because the nerves from those organs to my spine are cut off. My hands shake so bad that it takes me hours to eat a single meal. I can't go back to college, I can't go back to work. But do they care? No. Not my mother. Not my father. Neither of them give a shit. They are both too damned selfish thinking about their own greed to ever once lift a finger to help me. Daddy treats me like a fucking slave and my mother is so far out of my life shunning me because bishop kenning in Saco ward told her too that she hasn't got a clue how bad things are.

I'm not doing a damned thing to any of them. I mind my own business. I write my novels. I don't contact them. I don't talk to them. I don't talk about them.  Someone is clearly pretending to be me online and is slandering me and getting sick of it. My mother flips out about everything thing under the sun and I never have a clue what she's talking about, because I never did or said any of the things she accuses me of. And my father and the Atwaters do the same thing. Some one is out there pretending to be me to get them worked into a frenzy just to sit back and laugh while watching my mother, my father, and the Atwaters be too damned stupid to think. My mother and my father and the Atwaters are all filled with so much pure hatred for me that it takes nothing to convince them to attack me. And whoever it is posting online pretending to be me, knows that and is taking advantage of it. 

I'm too damned sick and crippled to even attempt to do half the crazy shit my mother and my father are accusing me of. And what's worse, my father is right here in the same apartment with me. He sees me every day, he knows how bad off my health is. 

Look how much I'm bleeding all over the house every day. Massive nose bleeds that last for hours to a time, not bleeding from my nose. Just coming out of my nose. I'm so dizzy I can't sit up for weeks to a time. I faint and blackout when I try to get up to go to the bathroom. The pain in my hip and pelvis and knee and spine is so bad I can't even move my fingers to type my novels. 

And look at what they do. Do they really think I'm physically capable of doing the things they accuse me of? They are so damned self centred and paranoid. It's all I can do just to sit up and eat something, how the hell do they think I can do the stuff they accuse me of? My day is spent focusing on trying to get my leg to move so I can make a meal, I don't even have time to think about them. 

It looks more and like my mother and my father are doing this stuff on purpose to try to kill me. My father knows how bad off my heart and lungs are and how difficult it is for me to breath after just a couple of steps. His mother left that land to me in her will in 1983. He stole it, had it put into his name illegally. He's been pissed ever since her death, because she gave everything to me not him. That's been a big problem for him for the last 40 years. He raves about it alongside his ravings about going to Utah taking him off the fire department. He hates my mother because of Utah, blames her every day for losing his fire department pension. He raves about it all night long every single night. He blames me for his mother disinheriting him. He raves about that all the time too. I was only grandchild That's why she left everything to me. Including the land that he stole and put in his name. That land is rightfully mine, his mother gave it to me, and he can't stand it. He's needling my mother about the land just to spite his mother.

He's only trying to get the land away from me because he is mad that the town didn't take it. His mother wanted it to stay in the family. It had been in her family since 1530. Her family was the original settlement family of old Orchard and my land is that spot that the first house in Old Orchard was built.  My father stopped paying taxes to spite his mother and lose the land. He said so many times. He was angry when I bought the land back from the town. He still is. He wants it out of the family because his mother wanted it in the family. That's why he's trying to turn my mother against me over the land. Because he gates his own mother that much.

Keep in mind the 4 door white truck showed up at my workplace daily. Even though I never knew ahead of time what store I would be working at. I was a retail merchandiser and stocked shelves at dozens of stores all over the state. Walmart's every where, CVS, khols, sometimes local, sometimes as far as Freeport and once in Vermont and once in Massachusetts.  I got the notice of which store to be at 15 minutes before I left. So the only person who ever knew where I was going was my father. 

And yet the 4 door white truck would also arrive ahead of me and be waiting. They didn't follow me, they got their first.

And the police caught the truck and the driver in 2017. Kathy BR owned the truck. Her son was the driver.

The smith's are my parents friends. My mother's visiting and home teachers for years.

Kathy was the district emergency dispatch for all the towns in the area, not just old Orchard. That's why none of the 911 calls went through during the attacks by the 4 door white truck. He only attacked while she was on duty. She never forwarded any of the calls so officers never were told to come help me.

That includes the November 14, 2013 golf club attack in South Portland. But the college security officer made a report even though the police never arrived. That big black officer who was head of security was on duty and him and 2 student officers from the police academy made the report.

And FBI found the data from the calls, that never got forwarded to police, that's why Kathy BR lost her job. Because she's the one who tampered with the 911 call files.

Tim and Kathy BR both, not together, individually, arriving separately, both arrived at my tent multiple times throughout the entire year of 2013, saying they were coming to speak to me on behalf of someone who wanted to remain anonymous. So I never knew who sent them. Each time they arrived all they would say was that I had to tear down "the little yellow house" as they called the shop. 

August 8, 2013 the backhoe drove over the shop while I was at work on the food truck down by the pier.

I never saw Tim or Kathy again after that. Not once. And these were people who stopped by to visit my parents daily for over 40 years. Since August 8, 2013 and the backhoe attack on my house, Kathy and Tim have gone to alarming extreme levels to avoid running into me. They just down the street, on one of the private drives, so it's difficult to avoid running into me, and we used to see them a few times a week at local grocery stores. They both, if they see me in a store, literally throw whatever they are carrying across the store and run out of the store like they have a pack of rabid wolves on their heels. It's pretty fascinating thing to see.

My cousin and next door neighbour Tim Murphy was murdered that same week, a few days before the backhoe. His body was left at the cascade Ross road crossroad. 14 days later his head was left at the Portland Ave Ross road crossroad road. His mother put up the big white cross a month later. 

The 4 door white truck showed up a few days later. 

Tim Murphy had an identical truck. The police and FBI initially thought it was his, but his truck was later found.

Tim Murphy owned Etiole's swamp and was the one buying most of the food and supplies for Etiole. 

Tim Murphy was with me and Micheal the day we tried to catch Helen pearly white monkey and found Etiole. 

The FBI believes that Tim Murphy was killed by someone trying to frame Etiole and believes the murder was a retaliation over Tim Murphy refusing to sell the swamp land behind me. 

At the time the FBI was looking at DF Feeney as a suspect but DF Feeney's family was killed in a murder suicide and he too is now seen as someone who was being framed.

The swamp, sandpit, and pond behind me, the Murphys own that, and 3 people in their family have now died horrifically violent deaths because they, like me were protecting Etiole from the people who would kill him because they believed Bruce's demon and alien lies about Etiole. 

Look at what is being done to me. They drove a backhoe over my house and they murdered my baby and they crippled me, all days apart.

Look at what is being done to the Murphys. And they're massacring the Murphy family. Tim's death the same time as the attack on me.

And look at who screams the loudest hate for Etiole. Look WHO calls him a demon.

And look at WHO the FBI's number one suspect in all of this is.

My family laughs and jokes about this whole thing like they think it's a fucking game. People are dying and the FBI is not laughing. 

Look at WHO keeps attacking my car. Look at WHO keeps cutting the wires off the apartment. Vandalism. Harassment. Bullying. Threats. Evil people Evil things. By their fruits yea shall no them, for no good thing springs from dead wood. Those are small petty crimes, but they are still crimes. But it's far beyond petty crimes. The list of people who have been murdered is quite long now. 13 died just at the Boston marathon bombing. I'm crippled for the rest of my life, and so far, I'm the only person who was attacked who lived through an attack. Every one else they've attacked is dead. Most of them beheaded or killed in a bomb. 7 different bombs, including one in my classroom at college in 2013, two in my workplace in 2015 and 2016, the house in Old Orchard in 2006, and my doctor on Saco Ave in 2003 where the doctor the nurses and 21 patients were killed. And the FBI was on site for every one of them, and my family thinks it's funny to laugh and make jokes about all of it. Because that's they do since the day me and Micheal and Tim Murphy found Etiole

Do you realize for all the shit my parents have pulled,  they've never once apologized for anything. And you know why? Because they aren't sorry. They feel no guilt. They feel no shame. They feel no remorse. Why? Because they hate me. They always have. From the time I was old enough to walk both of them reminded me daily that I was supposed to be a boy to replace the baby boy that was born before me. That's why Grammy Helen was the one who was always with me until I was 8. And after that it was Grammy Eva. And then BW. 

Do you know how I found out Santa wasn't real? Grammy Helen died when I was 8. That year for Christmas there were no Christmas presents. There was just my parents arguing over which one of them should have lowered themselves to buy a gift for the mistake that committed the sin of not being born a boy. I remember that Christmas better than any other. Because that's when found out exactly how much my parents hated me and thought I was worthless because I was a girl.

Look at my MRI scans at the damage the foundation nail through my hip did. The mutilated bones that were shattered when I was 6 years old and no one took me to the hospital. I've walked on a broken leg for almost 50 years. 

Look at the jaw surgery I had to have when I was 42 to repair an injury done to me with a brick when I was 14. 

Look at the Gremlin, 1974 orange, obliterated by a sledgehammer. 

Look at what happened when I was awarded phi theta kappa. No one went to the award ceremony. My mother said it was stupid. My father spent the day raving calling me an educated damned fool. BW was at the temple with Rick. And people with golf clubs were waiting at my car.

Do you realize if just one single person had cared enough to be at the phi theta kappa awards my baby might not have been murdered and I might not be crippled now. 

Grammy Helen would beat my dad's ass for the shit he does to me. And Grammy Eva would be ashamed of the stuff my mother does. Neither Helen or Eva would have let them get away with the constant abuse and harassment.

As for what happened to my car March 9, 2022 - KRA vandalized my car and tried to make it look like my brother did it. KRA stuffed the tailpipe full of McDonald's ketchup packets, which is what caused the fuel line to blow up. I could have died. He tried to kill me and make it look like my brother who works at McDonald's did it so my brother would be blamed.

KRA did the same thing in November, because of some guy named Todd who I supposedly convinced to kill himself via may painting a "suicide demon" on my car. There is a picture of Etiole on my car, that is what they are calling "a suicide demon"



UPDATE: February 27, 2022:

Do not underestimate either my willingness or how far I will go to protect my murdered son's grave from being destroyed by the bastards who are the @FBI s number one suspects in having killed him. The ONLY reason that bitch is hell bent on digging up my farm is because she wants to destroy the evidence of my baby having been murdered by golf clubs.

I'm sick of my mother and my mothers shit head Atwater relatives. They won't stop focusing on the cats. They are lost in a delusional refusal to face reality and that is impeding the fbi investigation of the murder of my baby and the crippling of my spine, because all either of them will do is say there was no baby and tell everyone lies about me and I don't like it. My baby is dead and that has nothing to do with the cats and I'm sick of my mother and her filthy Atwater thugs both ignoring what happened at the college 2 years before the cat event happened AND daily arriving to bully me and say it was “RoseMary’s Baby” and not a real baby because it was a demon, because Etiole was a from.

 

Etiole is not a demon, my baby with him was not a demon, you murdered my fucking baby because you are retarded religion crazed jackasses. Get the fuck out of my life and go burn were evil people like you belong!

 

I'm tired of every time I mention the baby that was murdered November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College,  they wave their hand in my face and say, "no you're just upset about the cats". The cats happened May 14, 2015 and those cats were not mine, they were my mother's cats, that she hid in my motorhome because her landlord Nick didn’t know she had 13 cats in her Birch St apartment. And he evicted her a year later when he found out the cats were hers.

That's why SHE is the one making a fuss about them, not me. I'm not the one running around yapping about the cats constantly,  she is. I'm talking about my son. 

 

My baby boy that was murdered by 3 attackers wielding golf clubs in the SMCC parking lot. A blond woman whom the redhaired woman called Claire, a redhaired woman who the blond woman called Kendra, both in their 60sish, and a bald man in his 30ish.

 

I'm not talking about my mother's cats, I'm talking about my child. What the fuck is wrong with these people? 

 

As for my car … did you all forget when and why I painted it? May 12, 2014. Mother's day. The first mother day after my baby was murdered. I painted my Volo on mother's day to divert my mind from killing myself. That's why I painted my car 9 years ago and you all know that, I've said as much hundreds of times.

Ty Mother and the Atwaters are refusing to acknowledge the baby because also refuse to acknowledge Etiole, a local homeless Jewish man who is the baby's father. 

My Mother and the Atwaters are so damned bigoted and religion crazed that all they’ve ever done is call Etiole a demon or an alien, since the first day they ever saw him: September 23, 1978.

It’s been almost 50fucking years that they’ve harassed him because of what he looks like and harassed me because I won’t let them beat him to death. 

They fully 100% believe he is not human and they run around slandering him every chance they can get and they’ve been doing it for 50 fucking years now. 

And THAT is the ONLY reason, they are doing what they are doing right now. 

 

They have NO RIGHT to be on my land. They are fucking trespassing.

Because they are so damned brainwashed by their fucking religions, that they can’t stop believing anyone who is physically deformed MUST be a Demon.

 

And they’ve spent the last 9 years daily hounding me and whooping and cheering joyous celebration over “killing the demon” as they refer to my baby.

 

In you hadn’t watched the local news - January 2022 - there was a massive FBI raid on Main Street and Cutts Street Biddeford, Maine. 8 of the men who have been roaming Southern Maine beating up pregnant women with golf clubs, were arrested and are now in jail where they belong, soon to be moved to federal prison.

And THAT is what has got the Atwaters in a frenzy now, digging up my land in Old Orchard Beach. They are desperately trying to find my dead baby’s unmarked grave, because they know his gold club shattered skull is very damning evidence for them, now that the FBI made a move and started arresting a bunch of their thugs.

 

And those arrested that just happened, they happened because the FBI phone number was painted on my car and locals in Biddeford, came forward with witness testimony of the attacks.

 

What my mother and the Atwaters are doing is cruel and evil and hateful, and I’m sick of it.

They don’t care about or my life, and my baby or his life. As can be seen by the fact of how he died.

The FBI is still trying to ID the bond Claire woman and the redhaired Kendra woman. They caught the bald man with the 4 door white pick up truck, we now know who he is - the son of the Old Orchard Beach police dispatch woman, the woman who would never let any 911 calls begging for help while these attacks were happening, go through.

Don't be surprised if you see the signs - all 144 of them - go back up in my driveway. Because I'm fucking sick of being harassed, and the agreement to keep the signs down, specified that EVERYONE in Old Orchard Beach - ALL RESIDENTS would NEVER HARASS ME again. You people have broken your agreement. I'm painting new signs as we speak.

EVERYONE - includes real estate agents, developers, contractors, construction workers, and any Atwater bitch who thinks they have the right to daily show up at my Biddeford apartment to say: "What are we going to do about Wendy, she can't keep that land, I need a downpayment on a house, she is going to sell her land and give me the money or else!"

Burn in hell you fucking bitch, and take all your fucking Atwater shitheads with you.

There are more then 500 graves on my farm - more than half of them Native American, some of them buried as far back as the 1400s. I WILL NOT let you touch those graves. I take my job as the guardian of these graves VERY SERIOUSLY. And you WILL have an all out war on your hands if you dare touch them.

Now she's threatening to dig up the graves on my land.

My dead baby means a hell of a lot more to me, then her fucking house. She never gave a damn when my baby died, but look at what she did when the cats died. Her priorities are fucked up.

My dead baby means a hell of a lot more to me, then her fucking house. She never gave a damn when my baby was murdered. But look at what she did when the murderers returned and killed the cats!

Look at what she is STILL doing about the fucking cats!

That's all she cares about. Those damned dead cats and her glut lust to have a mansion in KennebunkPort.

Her priorities are fucked up.

She doesn't give a damn about Human life.

And you know what's worse, the FBI thinks she, her sister Barbara, her brother Bruce, and their friends Claire and Kendra, where the people wearing the fake KuKluxKlan robes and hoods on November 14, 2013, when they used golf clubs to beat my baby to death and break my spine leaving me crippled for the rest of my life. 

Her, Barbara, Bruce, Claire, and Kendra - those are the FBI’s #1 suspects in the murder of my baby, November 14, 2013.

And what the hell is with people mixing up me and my mother? 

I'm NOT the one hell bent on a house. I have been willfully homeless for decades I have no desire for the confines of a house. The one running around yapping hysterics about a house IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one talking about cats. The one running around yapping hysterics about cats IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one talking about Todd, I don't even know who Todd is! I don't know any one named Todd! The one running around yapping hysterics about Todd IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one talking about Mark and Dan and Watson, I don't even know who Mark and Dan and Watson are! I don't know anyone named Mark or Watson and the only Dan I know is my cousin and it's clearly not him she's talking about. The one running around yapping hysterics about Mark and Dan and Watson IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one putting curses on people. I don't believe in curses. The one running around yapping hysterics about curses and claiming she's casting death spells on people IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one talking about demons. I don't believe in demons. The one running around yapping hysterics about demons and calling Etiole a demon IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one calling Etiole a demons. I don't believe in demons. Etiole is a local homeless man and Etiole isn't even his name, I don't use his real name online to protect his identity. I'm not the one who calls him Etiole either. Etiole is the name the Atwaters call him. The one running around yapping hysterics about demons and calling Etiole a demon IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one talking about aliens or UFOs or alien abduction. I don't believe in aliens or UFOs or alien abduction. The one running around yapping hysterics about aliens or UFOs or alien abduction IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one calling Etiole an alien. I don't believe in aliens and besides that, Etiole is a local homeless man. The one running around yapping hysterics and calling Etiole an alien IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

I'm NOT the one talking about Voodoo dolls and Voodoo curses. Voodoo has nothing to do with Voodoo dolls and curses. Voodoo dolls and curses are mumbo-jumbo made up by Hollywood movies and have nothing to do with the Voodoo religion at all. Voodoo is a branch of the Catholic Church. Look it up. Voodoo is a Christian religion. A Voodoo Priest is a type of Catholic Monk. A Voodoo Priestess is a type of Catholic Nun. Voodoo does not cast curses or use voodoo dolls. The one running around yapping hysterics about Voodoo dolls and Voodoo curses IS MY MOTHER NOT ME!

Open your eyes people. Me and my mother don't look that much alike. You should be able to tell the difference between me and her.

Stop showing up in my yard to to attack me because of some fucking shit you argued with my mother about.

If you've got a problem with my mother, take it up with her not me.

Her, Barbara, Bruce, Claire, and Kendra - those are the FBI’s #1 suspects in the murder of my baby, November 14, 2013.

No, I have no updates on Etiole.

He was shot, by a local lunatic.

No, he's not okay.

And I am getting sick of this fucking ass rumour of Etiole being an alien or a demon.

The fact of Etiole being an alien is a stupid urban myth started by some crazy ass locals.

The fact of Etiole being a demon is a stupid urban legend created by some religion crazed nuts.

Etiole is an old man covered with acid burns. His skin is white and face disfigured from acid burns. He's not an alien and he's not a demon. And you people who call him an alien and call him a demon, you're all fucking crazy. 

Etiole is a homeless Jewish man who has no skin because he was tortured in a Nazi concentration camp in France during WW2. He came to Maine in 1953 with a bunch of other refugees, He has post traumatic stress disorder really bad and he's terrified of people. He can't function in normal society, so hides in the forests. He's not an alien, he's not a demon, he's not a cryptid. He's a disfigured old man, now in late 90s. He barely get around. He doesn't you people harassing him like this. Why can't you people leave him alone? Why are you all so damned desperate to believe in aliens or demons that you have to harass a helpless old man? Leave him alone. Why can't you leave him alone? What is wrong with you people?

Read The Amphibious Aliens article, https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html where way back in 2007, I DEBUNKED every one of you stupid ass alien, cryptic, demon, and haunted car rumours. Amphibious Aliens The Story of Etiole and The World's Most Haunted Car, goes over every event from the 1970s, that started the fucking rumour, and lists off how every alien, demon, and haunted car rumour was proven to be nothing but a hoax started by my mother's brother  Mervin Bruce Atwater. Every single one of those rumours was started by that one man, and were proven to ALL be hoaxes he perpetrated to try to get money out of Dr Larochelle, the man who hit Mervin's younger sister with a car. They tried to convince the old doctor his car had a demon living in it and they scammed the doctor out of $20,000 back in the 1970s. THAT is how and why the demon car rumour got started. I bought the car in 1975. Etiole started living in it in 1978. And that is how me and Etiole got dragged into the fucking ass rumours about a demon car.

The article Amphibious Aliens The Story of Etiole and The World's Most Haunted Car DEBUNKS ALL of the alien, cryptid, demon, and haunted car rumours. Every last one of them.

The car is not haunted and Etiole is not a demon.

You people who believe my car is haunted or think that Etiole is a demon, you are all fucking retarded.

You are slandering me!

You are slandering Etiole!

You are slandering my cars!

I'm sick of it!

Grow up and go get a damned fucking brain!

I'm sick of you people harassing me and Etiole over stupid shit started by brain dead idiots.

If you are having problems with my mother, tell FBI agent Andy Drewer about it not me. Have information, call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322

Have information about the murder of my baby, call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322

Have information about any of the attacks on my family, call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322

Have information about the people who shot Etiole, call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322

If you have information about anything, call FBI Agent Andy Drewer at 207-774-9322 and give it to him, not me.

https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html





UPDATE March 8, 2022

One sign is back up. 

How many more go up, is dependent upon YOU.

From now on, every time one of you Old Orchard Beach, Pine Point, or Biddeford shitheads decides to harass me, I'm going to put up another sign.

If you want no more, then you better make dammed sure you keep your friends and family and neighbors out of my yard and out of my life. I'm not selling my land, and I'll not let you dig up those graves.

Burn in hell.

No means no.

And I'm tired of saying no.

Just like rapist, you refuse to take no for an answer.

No. I'm not selling my land and giving you the money so you can buy a house in Kennebunk.

I've said no to you every single week since August 2021. And your current threats to dig up the graves on my land and move them to your land, is why the signs are going back up.

I'm tired of you bullying me.

I'm tired of your threats.

I'm tired of your gaslighting.

I'm tired of your lies.

You keep saying "After all I've done for you!" What have you done for me? When I was 8 years old you locked me in a racoon trap and left me there for 27 years, only letting me out on Sundays so you could parade me around in the Cape Elizabeth and Saco Ward Mormon churches to pedophile priests who paid you so they could rape me. That's why you never had a job until 5 years ago, because you made plenty selling your pre-teen daughter for sex to dirty old men.

You drove a foundation nail through my hip when I was 6 years old.

From the tie I was 14 until I was 42 years old I was near mute, because you broke my jaw with a brick. I was 42 when I had surgery to rebuild my jaw, that's why I can talk today.

You never allowed me or my bothers to go to school or doctors.

YOU took a sledge hammer to my 1974 AMC Gremlin, my 1976 AMC Gremlin, my 1976 AMC Hornet, my Olds station wagon, and you took a chain saw to my 1964 Dodge 330 the worlds most haunted car, the real Christine. YOU did that.

Since 1978 you have harassed me and me boyfriend, the one you call Etiole, because YOU believe he's a demon because of his skin deformities. You and your sister and your brothers contacted MUFON and told them lies about me and Etiole both. You called him the amphibious alien and claimed he had abducted me. Your alien abduction hoax, almost got him killed in 1997 and again in 2007 when ufo crazies arrived in my yard calling him an EBE and trying to shoot him "for science". An elderly man, a French, Jewish Nazis concentration camp survivor who lives in the forest because his PTSD and fear of people is so bad. A man who is scarred with acid burns from being tortured in WW2 and is neither a demon nor an alien and who deeply traumatized by YOUR endless harassment.

It was YOUR friends who drove a backhoe over my house August 8, 2013 because YOU paid them $600 to do so. Because you thought without a house I would sell my land. But I wasn't the one living in that house. My dad lived there. All you did was put him in a Biddeford apartment. I was already living in the tent since May 9, 2006, and I had the Biddeford apartment since February 13, 2007. 

It was YOUR friends who attacked me with golf clubs at Southern Maine Community College, November 14, 2013, while I was 8 months pregnant with Etiole's baby. That they murdered, on YOUR orders, because as YOU put it "It's RoseMary's Baby" while you gibbered about some horror movie about demon babies.

That was YOUR own grandchild that YOU hired those people to kill.

April 10, 2015, YOU broke into my motorhome, put YOUR 13 cats in it, them then brought YOUR friends to attack my family.

We now know the owner of the 4-door white truck, was YOUR visiting teach, Kathy, the driver who tried to kill me, was her son, and the reason the 911 calls didn't go through during each attack, was because she was the 911 dispatcher and her son, driving her 4door white pick up truck, only attacked me she was on duty. They were YOUR friends from the Saco Ward church, YOUR church, attacking YOUR daughter on YOUR orders.

Since August 2021, you arrive at my apartment 3 times a week, to tell me I need to put curses on people at your workplace, citing that I have to, because you're my mother and I'm demon possessed and I should be putting my demons to good use by helping you kill three people you don't like at work.

I'm sick of you calling me demon possessed.

I'm sick of you demanding curses.

You have a severe mental problem and you need psychiatric help.

I'm sick of you spreading slanderous lies about me telling every one around town I cast curses and death spells, when I've never done either.

November 19, 2021, YOU friend Todd commit suicide and YOU told YOUR friends, that me and Etiole used suicide demons to drive him in front of a train.

YOUR friend Todd, who I did NOT know and had never heard of until 6 of YOUR friends showed up at Rotary Park November 21, 2021 to gun down Etiole while screaming that they were "killing the suicide demon", while we were walking my dog.

Something YOU now brag that YOU tricked YOUR friends into do, because you needed to get Etiole off my land in order to convince me to sell it and give YOU the money for a down payment on a house in Kennebunk.

Christmas Eve 2021, you arrived at MY apartment in Biddeford, STOLE my father's psychiatric medicine, medicine he needs to keep him NOT violent, because he has extremely violent schizophrenia and one hell of a criminal record that requires him to never be in the same room with a gun, let alone never have one. He was committed to a mental ward in 2007, and they ONLY let him out because he came to Biddeford to live with ME in MY apartment, and I was monitoring his meds.

After YOU stole his medicine, you took him with you daily to Kennebunk, to a mansion by Bush's house, to daily tell him, you would give him that house if he forced me to sell my land and give you the money from my land to buy that Kennebunk house.

Tell, me, what of THOSE things, is YOU doing anything FOR me?

No, means, no.

I'm done saying NO to you.

You are nothing but a land rapist.

Just like a rapist you refuse to accept No for an answer.

Every week since August 2021, I've said no to you.

No, I will not sell my land and hand you the money so you can buy a house in Kennebunk.

No, means no.

And no, I'm not happy with the fact that because I won't sell my land and give you the money, you are now threatening to dig up the graves on my land and move them to your land.

No, I'm not happy with you saying "You don't need the land, you don't use it, I need a house in Kennebunk, you ought to want to sell your land and give me the money!"

Yes, I do use my land.

Yes, I did see the car YOU dumped behind my motorhome. You have till the end of summer to get it off my land or the police are taking it.

What I do with my land is none of your damned business.

And for your information, my land is where I write my novels. I sit on the hill, and I write every day, all summer long. The only reason I didn't in 2021 is because I had Covid for 3 months.

No, telling me that my grandmother's evil spirit is haunting my land. also does not inspire me to want to sell it.

YOU are an evil, hate fill, mean, cruel, sadistic, child abusing, vindictive sociopath.

Get psychiatric help.

You need it.

What you are doing is wrong and you know it. You won't be so upset about what is painted on my car, if you didn't know it.

You can't hide from the truth forever. 

You can't hide your sins, your crimes, your cruelties forever.

Good things will never come to you, until you stop doing evil things to those around you.


Don't forget, my camera runs 24/7 and it's a simple matter of my uploading the video footage of you doing and saying things thing. Plus a lot of it, you said and did while I was livestreaming so people online have already seen and heard you say and do these things.

Yes, I even have video footage of the 4 bicycle brats who chased the homeless man into the train November 2021.

EVERYTHING, I have said here I have video footage of. That is WHY the FBI have been able to arrest so many people these past few months, in Biddeford.

Cutting the wires off our house November 2021 - you did on a livestream. People saw you do it WHILE you were doing it. 

All 2 of the FedEx workers you demanded death curses for - you did on a livestream.

Stealing my dad's meds - you did on a livestream.

Saying "What are we going to do about Wendy, she can't keep that land, I need a house" - you did on a livestream.

Threatening to dig up the graves on my land - you did on a livestream.

All that n-word stuff you said about the black men at your workplace - you did on a livestream.

People been seeing and hearing you live. They've already seen and heard a lot.

How do you plan to explain away all the hundreds of hours of video footage I have of you breaking into my bedroom during a live stream to threaten me, my family, my land?












To the people who asked about weird emails that you claim you got from someone claiming to be me, here are a few things to consider:

#1: I DO NOT use email and I NEVER have. if you get a letter from me it is going to be written in ink on paper, and in a stamped envelope the mail truck delivered to your mailbox at the end of your driveway. Since 1997 my aunt Barbara has been sending emails out to people CLAIMING they were from me, so in all likelihood whatever you got was actually from her. Her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater did the same thing throughout the early 2000s. And 57 of their children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren have done it at well. No, I’m not special. They do this to THOUSANDS of people. They run a medical scam and pretend to be LOTS of big name famous authors, hoping you’ll click whatever link they put in the email, because the link is going to open a .exe phishing program to steal your credit card data and medical records. The FBI is currently investigating their medical fraud, email fraud, scam operation, so if you ARE getting emails claiming to be from me, PLEASE print up the email ad take it to the FBI office on Middle Street in Portland, Maine. FBI Agent Andy Drewer is in charge of not only the investigation of the 2015 murder of my family, but he is also in charge of the email impersonation fraud, and the stalker doing the email fraud.

#2: As you have stated, the topic of the emails is Etiole... do know that I have NEVER talked about Etiole, with ANYONE, online or offline. Unlike my mother, and her sister, my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater, I happen to respect people’s privacy. As I have said before: Etiole is a Jewish, French, Nazi concentration camp refugee who came to Maine in 1953 with a boatload of about 300 other concentration camp survivors. He is covered with acid burns, so his skin looks ghastly white and horrifically disfigured, which is why he lives in the swamps around the Saco River. he is now in his 90s and is still as homeless as he was in the 1950s. He has severe posttraumatic stress disorder, can not speak/is mute, does not have the mental capacity to function in normal society on any level what so ever, and me and a few others have been taking care of him, giving him food and clothing and supplies and medical attention since 1978. There is nothing else you need to know. You do not need to know where he is or how to find him. If you want to see him, go to y livestream/video archive and watch the VOD where I visited him on livestream so you could see what he looked liked and how crippling his metal condition really is.

#3: I feel I shouldn’t have to say this, but apparently I do NEED to say this: Etiole is NOT an alien, nor is he a demon. The article Amphibious Aliens is free to read online. It goes over all the details of both the alien rumours and the demon rumours and debunks them all, while proving all the proof, including medical records and documentation of the people behind the rumour.

#4: The ONLY person who ever claimed I was abducted by aliens was my uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater, who was the leader of the Mane division of Heaven’s Gate for over 40 years. Heaven’s Gate if you do not know, was the UFO suicide cult who murdered 39 people with poisoned Kool-Aid in California in 1997, because Comet HaleBop flew over that night.

#5: I found out about my so-called alien abduction in 2007, when a MUFON tour group showed up in my yard asking to interview me. They carried with them more than a dozen books by various UFO/alien experts and over 100 newspaper articles, all featuring interviews with my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater, interviews all from the 1970s, 1980s, and 1990s, all of them telling of how I was supposedly a demon possessed child, whose best friend was an alien named Etiole. It was 2007, and it was the first time I had ever heard the term “alien abduction” I didn’t even know what it was. The MUFON group - a group of 30,000 people - standing in my driveway 2007 all wanted to interview me as they pointed out NONE of the 30+ years of several hundred interviews with my aunts and uncles, not ONE of the interviews was WITH ME. This was the source of the April 2007 article titled Amphibious Aliens, where I shocked the MUFON world with the revelation that I was NOT an alien abductee, nor had I ever claimed to be one. It also infuriated me to find out that my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater had been running around telling people about Etiole, as I had never told ANYONE - NOT EVEN THEM - about Etiole. It turns out my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater go their alien and demon stories about Etiole from my mother and THIS is WHY I disowned my mother, shun her, and have had nothing to do with her, or her sister my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater, since 2007. The slanderous alien and demon, gossip, rumours, and lies my mother and her sister my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater spread about me and Etiole are deplorable and I HATE my mother and her sister my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater, and I hope they burn in hell for the alien and demon shit they pulled on me and my homeless boyfriend.

#6: That same Amphibious Aliens article ALSO debunks the stupid ass haunted car rumours. My 1964 Dodge 330 is NOT haunted and we fucking proved that. And AGAIN, the haunted car rumour, is sourced to my aunt Barbara and her brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater. That car ran over my aunt Barbara when she was 2 years old. At the time, the car belonged to Dr. Larochelle of Ocean Ave Old Orchard Beach, Maine. My than 2-year-old aunt Barbara almost died and her older brothers Richard Merlin Atwater and Mervin Bruce Atwater and David Atwater, came up with a haunted car/demon possession hoax to scam that elderly doctor out of $20,000, which my grandmother Eva Viola Atwater spent on a 3 year trip to Hawaii in 1973. The Atwaters scammed and terrorized the doctor so badly, that he sold the car to me in 1975 for $5 because he was convinced it was attacking people. The car became famous in 1983 when my then neighbour Stephen King used the demon possession story of my car as the basis for his book Christine. He named the car Christine because Christine is my real name and I owned the actual car. Stephen King returned 10 years later in 1994 to film the Thinner movie in my yard, because I’m the real world “Gypsy Witch” (priestess) that he based his fictional Gypsy Witch in Thinner off of. The movies Christine and Thinner are what in turn made ME famous, and started locals accusing me of being a witch with a demon car.

And as for the fucking Thinner movie - those bastards were trespassers. They just showed up unannounced, barged in, set up filming, without permits or licenses or contracts or permission or even telling us ahead of time that they were coming. No one in Stephen King’s crew acted legally, we are not in that movie willingly, they were not on our farm legally, no one ever received a penny for any of it, and to make things worse, Steven King had no right or permission to go o late night television and tell people my home address and tel his fucking fans to “go visit the Thinner Gypsies of Saco Maine”. They had no right to be on my farm, they had no right to be filming my family. They just dropped in one day. We had no clue who they were or why they were there and it took us fucking 5 hours to chase those trespassing bastards and their film crew off our farm.

In short: I don’t use email, so you NEVER got an email from me. I’m not a witch. My car isn’t haunted. Etiole is not a demon. Etiole is also not an alien. And I was never abducted by aliens.

Also, I don’t know what you are talking about with the house stuff. I’m NOT trying to build a house, I’ve NEVER tried to build a house, I have never applied for a house permit, I’ve never been denied for a house permit because I’ve never even tried to get one. You clearly have me mixed up with someone else.

I’m at 146 Portland Ave. I have 2 neighbours who are building a house: 144 Portland Ave next door to me and 139 Portland Ave across the street from me. I think you mean one of them. My neighbour at 144, has been trying to build a house for 17 years and the town hall has been giving them the runaround. I think SHE at 144 Portland Ave is the one you mean, not me at 146. You seem to have us mixed up somehow.

SHE at 144 is the one putting in a septic system, not me at 146. I’m the one with the pink motorhome and the 35-year-old black Volvo. she’s the one with the brand new big black car and the log cabin house.

You have seriously mixed the two of us up big time.

Understandable considering it was HER family at 144 fighting with the Cyr Clan over a septic tank in 2014, and the Cyr Clan hired a hitman who accidentally murdered MY children, ten of them and nailed their heads to my motorhome door, at 146 than the white-haired man with the green pick-up truck has spent the last 7 years TELLING YOU via running up the street knocking on doors, tell you that it was EelKat trying to build a house, ONLY telling you that to try to cover his ass for mixing up my children at 146 when it was my neighbours children at 144 that was the ACTUAL target.

This is not speculation, the FBI have 100% positive proof that she and her children, not me and my children were the intended target because her family was having a fight with some Connecticut based heroin drug gang that calls itself the Cyr Clan over the septic tank. The hit men the Cyr Clan hire got the wrong house when they murdered my family. And now the Cyr Clan’s trying to convince you that I was the one building a house. I have no interest in a house. Why would I? I’m a Gypsy, I’ve never lived in a house. I’ve always lived in cars and tents my whole life. I have no interest in a house on any level whatsoever. I don’t NEED one, I never have. And you local people should know that. When my health is bad, I rent apartments in Biddeford. I’ve done this for 50 years now. You know that. You ALL know that. I’ve owned 146 Portland Ave since 1975. You people know me. Why are you pretending you don’t?

I’m the feral child who lived in a cage in a woodshed from the time I was 8 until I was 31. Did you all forget that? Etiole was the local homeless man who used to break into the woodshed and break the lock off the cage and take me out into the swamp to hide me from my bastard uncles. Did you forget that too? The ONLY reason any of you spread your fucking rumours and lies about me and Etiole, calling me a witch and Etiole a demon or alien, and spreading lies about me building houses, is because my Uncle Bruce and his Heaven’s Gate friends, told you those lies.

Did you forget what Heaven’s Gate is, what they fucking did? They are an UFO Alien Cult, who murdered 39 people with poisoned koolaid, because they comet Hale Bop was God’s fucking mother ship. They see fucking aliens EVERYWHERE. In everything. And THEY are the ones who started the stupid ass rumour of Etiole being an alien.

Look at the SOURCE of the alien abduction rumour. My Uncle Mervin Bruce Atwater. One of George Applewhite’s thugs. George Applewhite, a follower of Jim Jones, that’s WHY they killed everyone with kool-aid, because they were fans of Jim Jones, and they wanted to jump onboard God’s mothership like Jonestown did! Did you forget that? THAT fucking lunatic, a fan of Jim Jones, who worked for George Applewhite, called Etiole an alien, because Bruce CALLED EVERYONE aliens.

Bruce locked me in a cage, and Etiole broke me out of it and hide me in the swamps, and THAT is what Bruce called an alien abduction. But Etiole is no alien. He’s just a local homeless man. Etiole’s not even his name. I don’t tell anyone his name to protect him from you fucking jackasses who are too stupid to believe he’s just a normal man. My uncle Buce is a fucking lunatic who spends 24 hours a day gibbering madness and nonsense about aliens and demons.

As for the garbage that keeps being dumped on my land… you have all SEEN the big green dump truck with the black and silver striped nose, that illegally trespasses on my land and dumps that fucking garbage.

Open your eyes and look around. You can SEE the truth. The house being built is at 144 Portland Ave NOT 146. You can SEE that, now that the house is up.

Like I’ve been saying right along, it is NOT me building a house. It NEVER has been. I don’t know why you let that idiot try to gaslight you with lies about me building a house, when you can SEE the house is NOT going up on MY land. It’s going up on my NEIGHBOUR’S land.

I know you people are NOT THAT stupid. The white-haired man with the green pickup truck is LYING to you, and you can SEE that for yourselves, just by looking at WHICH property the house is being built on.

Look around... does it LOOK like there is a house being built at 146 Portland Ave where the pink motorhome is? Use your brain and open your eyes. See the truth. The truth will set you free.

Now look next door to 144, you CAN SEE that THEY NOT ME are the one building a house, now that it’s almost finished.

I’d say the white-haired man in the green pickup truck has a lot of explaining to do, like explaining WHY h’s hell bent on trying to convince the town I’m the one putting up a house, when I’ve never even applied for a building permit. Building permits are public record. Go look at the town hall for yourself.

Also, please explain to me HOW the white-haired man with the green pick truck has such very detailed info about the murder of my family, when the records are sealed, not public access, and about 90% of the details were withheld from the public and are know ONLY to myself, the murderer, the police, and FBI? There is ZERO public access to the stuff h is saying happened on April 10, 2015... you know that, right? So HOW did he get the info he has? Explain THAT.

please report any future such emails you receive to FBI agent Andy Drewer 207-774-9322

>>>I’m just more cowardly than they are and I’m afraid of the truth and criticism. In your opinion, what makes someone mean?

When I think of mean, I think of my uncles. 3 in particular. My mother had 12 older brothers and 3 of them all claimed to be “king” (we are Gypsies, Gypsy Kings are a thing). And they fought over it badly. They ended up jointly ruling over the clan, each competing with each other to out-king the other, each doing progressively meaner things to the clan members, especially the female children.

Things they did, just to me, included:

When I was 4 Uncle Bruce stabbed me with a foundation nail - an iron rod over 2 feet long - he drove into my hip, through my pelvis and out my other thigh. I have been crippled and walked with a cane since I was a toddler, because of it. His reason? I was unable to memorize the entirety of chapter 1 of the book of Genesis.

When I was 8 years old, same uncle locked me in a cage that was made for trapping raccoons. He gave me 1 salted herring fish to eat once every 12 days. He let me out only on Sundays to go to church. I lived in that cage for 27 years, until the Heaven’s Gate FBI raid shut down Heaven’s Gate in 1997, after they killed 39 people with Kool-aid. Yes, I am THAT EelKat, the child who lived in a cage, the feral child you see pictures of in almost every college Psychology book. I am the child who survived Heaven’s Gate because I was locked in a cage in a woodshed when they drank their kool aid under the shadow of comet HaleBop. I was 31 years old when the FBI raid rescued me from that cage.

When I was 14 years old, because I was unable to recite from memory the entire book, all chapters of Ecclesiastes, that same uncle beat me in the face with a cinder block brick, breaking my jaw, and cause me to be “mute” until had surgery to fix my jaw when I was 42 years old. From the time I was 14 until 42, I was unable to speak due to the damage of my jaw.

In those 27 years from age 8 to age 31, I was let out of the cage every Sunday to be taken to church and sold or $12k to the priests, who raped me repeatedly, weekly, for 27 years.

While my uncle helped Applewhite to run Heaven’s Gate, he fled the night of Hale Bop. He did not kill himself with everyone else.

Social workers took me after the FBI raid. It took them years to teach me how to not be terrified by the sight of Humans. They say I suffer from having no outward sign of emotions, and that it was caused by my never having experienced a single good event in my early life.

At the time of the FBI raid at 144, 146, and 148 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, I was one of more than 120 girls the FBI rescued out of cages. All of whom had been raped hundreds of times by priests from Cape Elizabeth, Saco, and Sanford wards of the LDS/Mormon church. Including 16 bishops, an OOB town manager, and several OOB motel owners, all of whom were in the habit of paying $12k to rape girls under the age of 10 years old.

The man with the green truck, who likes to spread rumours about me and Etiole and my house, was one of Bruce’s top customers. He had a thing for numbers and raped 7-year-olds, 14-year-olds, and 21-year-olds because he was obsessed with doing everything in 7s.

After years of social workers teaching me how to live with normal, not abusive Humans. I was 37 when I got my GED and while I was at the high school doing that, those uncles built a grease fryer bomb burned my house down to punish me for getting a GED.

2 years later, while I was in college taking classes to learn grammar and writing, three of them, that same uncle and 2 women I had never seen before, arrived at the college armed with golf clubs and attacked me when I was coming out of the college. I was 8 months pregnant at the time. They killed my baby, broke my spine, broke my hip, broke my pelvis, broke my knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to get out of the wheelchair and relearn to walk, and to this day I am still crippled.

That’s the price I paid to learn how to read and write, in a culture that believes it is okay to execute women who commit the sin of learning how to write.

August 8, 2013, that same uncle paid a local construction worker $600 to drive a backhoe over my house.

April 10, 2015, that same uncle and a group of 74 members of the new reorganized Heaven’s Gate, attacked my farm. 14 men held me down with guns to my head, while the others used hand band saws to kill and behead 10 of my 12 children and then nailed their heads to my door.

And it’s very easy to Google the news reports and photos of all of it.

That is what I think of when I hear the word “mean”. My uncle Bruce was a very mean person.

My uncle Bruce Mervin Atwater is a monster. And he calls EVERYONE an alien abductee or a demon. Did you fucking forget that?

No, I have no updates on Etiole.

He was shot by a local lunatic.

No, he’s not okay.

And I am getting sick of this fucking ass rumour of Etiole being an alien or a demon.

The fact of Etiole being an alien is a stupid urban myth started by some crazy ass locals.

The fact of Etiole being a demon is a stupid urban legend created by some religion crazed nuts.

Etiole is an old man covered with acid burns. His skin is white and face disfigured from acid burns. He’s not an alien, and he’s not a demon. And you people who call him an alien and call him a demon, you’re all fucking crazy.

Etiole is a homeless Jewish man who has no skin because they tortured him in a Nazi concentration camp in France during WW2. He came to Maine in 1953 with a bunch of other refugees. He has posttraumatic stress disorder really bad and he’s terrified of people. He can’t function in normal society, so hides in the forests. He’s not an alien, he’s not a demon, he’s not a cryptid. He’s a disfigured old man, now in late 90s. He barely get around. He doesn’t you people harassing him like this. Why can’t you people leave him alone? Why are you all so damned desperate to believe in aliens or demons that you have to harass a helpless old man? Leave him alone. Why can’t you leave him alone? What is wrong with you people?

Read The Amphibious Aliens article, where back in 2007, I DEBUNKED every one of you stupid ass alien, cryptic, demon, and haunted car rumours. Amphibious Aliens The Story of Etiole and The World’s Most Haunted Car, goes over every even from the 1970s, that started the fucking rumour, and lists off how every alien, demon, and haunted car rumour was proven to be nothing but a hoax started by Mervin Bruce Atwater. Every single one of those rumours was started by that one man, and were proven to ALL be hoaxes he perpetrated to try to get money out of Dr Larochelle, the man who hit Mervin’s younger sister with a car. They tried to convince the old doctor his car had a demon living in it and they scammed the doctor out of $20,000 back in the 1970s. THAT is how and why the demon car rumour got started. I bought the car in 1975. Etiole started living in it in 1978. And that is how me and Etiole got dragged into the fucking ass rumours about a demon car.

The article Amphibious Aliens The Story of Etiole and The World’s Most Haunted Car DEBUNKS ALL of the alien, cryptid, demon, and haunted car rumours. Every last one of them.

The car is not haunted and Etiole is not a demon.

You people who believe my car is haunted or think that Etiole is a demon, you are all fucking retarded.

You are slandering me!

You are slandering Etiole!

You are slandering my cars!

I’m sick of it!

Grow up and go get a damned fucking brain!

I’m sick of you people harassing me and Etiole over stupid shit started by brain dead idiots.

And the same goes for the so-called World’s Most Haunted Car. That rumour was started by the same person. That car was proved years ago, to have a mechanical issue that caused it to start and drive ahead until it hit something. No one ever thought to look at the starter. I’m the 3rd owner of the car. I changed the malfunctioning starter and a so called ‘haunted” stuff the car did, went away. It was a problem with the starter, only that and nothing more.

And these people in Biddeford right now, getting you all worked up - if you hadn’t noticed they ARE Mervin Bruce Atwater’s family.

So it’s STILL the same one fucking person running around getting things stirred up. The Atwaters. My fucking uncles. Like usual.

Yesterday at Rotary Park, Biddeford, Maine, a group of people armed with rifles, went down the track team trail behind the soccer field and started shooting... scared the crap out of the 50 or so children and their 100+ parents, got the 30+ dogs in the dog park howling... the sky filled with thousands of Canadian geese, and the park goers assumed the group was hunting geese and started commenting on the fact that hunting was not allowed in Rotary Park.

A few minutes later, a grey/white haired, bearded man, who looks a lot like Kenny Rogers, but not as fat, with a black dog of a German Shepard-Lab mix look, and a woman with pageboy greyish-blond hair, both about late 60s, marched up to me in the park, bragged they had killed Etiole, stating that he has caused their son whom they called “Todd” to jump in front of a train 3 days earlier.

You know what, I knew that homeless man and HE never mentioned it.

You people are just looking for someone to blame, and think because I’m not white, I wear a hijab, and I have a mural painting on my car, you think you are justified on pointing blame at me for something I had no part in.

That homeless man was obsessed with the fact that his dog and son had been taken away from him.

It’s NOT the evil eye as they called it. It’s The eye of The Grigori Archangels aka The Watchers, from the Apocrypha in the Bible. It’s the blue wings of the Seraphim Archangels aka The Watchers. The Watchers are my Guardian angels. I paint them on everything, I sew it on tapestries, it’s on my car, my motorhome, I embroider it on pillows and clothes, paint it on mirrors, paint canvases art for art galleries with it. It’s the blue eyes wings of the archangels as described in the Bible. I’m not sure why they were calling it the Evil Eye.

It’s the Eye of God, the hamsa. A Jewish protection symbol. Etiole’s Jewish, he draws it on everything, so that’s why I do as well.

I’m sick of you jackasses spreading you wild ass rumours about me.

You’re nothing but a bunch of trouble making busy bodies who can’t mind your own fucking business.

I’m not bothering a single damned one of you, so why the fuck are you bothering me?

Why can’t you stupid ass people leave me alone?

There is no reason for a damned one of you to be in my yard.

There is no reason for a damned one of you to be chasing down Etiole.

There is no reason for a damned one of you to be having psychotic meltdowns over my car!

What is wrong with you people?

Fucking brain dead herd mentality that’s all this is.

One of you ran around screaming like a lunatic and rest of you all decided to join in.

But I also ask... WHY would you be scared of me or Etiole? It makes me ask who has been feeding you lies about me? Who has been feeding you lies about Etiole?

I am a crippled elderly woman. I can barely stand up. I’ve been paralyzed and bedridden since the golf club attack November 14, 2013. I’m only just now in 2021 just starting to walk again, and I can barely do that. I have no grip strength so I struggle to even hold me cane. The golf clubs damaged my spine, my nerves, most of my organs don’t function because of the nerve damage to my spine. I struggle to even breath, just sitting up in bed is enough to collapse my lungs. I have no bladder or bowel movement control, I have to wear diapers. What exactly is it you think I can even do?

And Etiole? The old hermit Nazi concentration camp survivor? He’s over 100 years old now, he hasn’t been able to walk, or sit up, or eat on his own, in almost 20 years. He’s dying. What exactly are you expecting him to do?

Etiole is NOT an alien.

Etiole is not a demon.

I am not a witch.

None of my cars are haunted.

I’ve been saying it for years. Why won’t you listen to me?

You are slandering me!

You are slandering Etiole!

You are slandering my cars!

I’m sick of it!

Grow up and go get a damned fucking brain!

I’m sick of you calling Etiole a demon.

I’m sick of you calling Etiole an alien.

I’m sick of you calling me a witch.

I’m sick of you saying one car after another is haunted.

This whole thing boils down to your fucking white privilege. You know that right?

Your white ass can’t stand the fact that we non-white Gypsies live here, so you have to make up stupid ass supernatural spooky shit about us.

You don’t like that I wear the traditional dress of my people instead of dressing like an American, so you feel justified in calling me a witch and making up spook occult lies about me.

I wear hijab and veils and caftan and silk and it bother’s you that I’m not scum diving in trashy t shirts and jeans like the rest of you.

I paint my cars, same as we painted our wagons and vardos for centuries, and it bothers you because it looks different.

Etiole is a Jew, and your anti-Semite white privilege kicks in to hate him for being born Jewish.

Etiole has scars, so you’re scared of him

I’m different.

Etiole’s different.

My cars are different.

And when you get right down to it, that’s ALL any of this is about.

Me, Etiole, and my cars don’t fit in with your fucking ass white privileged ideas of “normal” and that makes you uncomfortable and you try to make the uncomfortable go away by dehumanizing us with your stupid ass rumours.

There are no witches.

There are no aliens.

There are no demons.

There are just a bunch of whinny ass white privileged brats running around making trouble for anyone who’s not white enough for them.

Grow the fuck up!

On writing autistic characters, continued -

Autism, Asperger's, And The Danger of The Self-Diagnosis



What is it like living with Autism?

#FAQs: What is it like living with Autism?

I have Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism, not Aspergers), which means I'm not good at group things. I'm classified as Savant, meaning I have a few things that I obsess about, big time, and have world records in them as a result, and everything else in my life I still require a caretaker to help me with. 

I was believed to be mute until I was 31 years old, when a college professor whose day job was working with Autism children, meet me at an Autism Awareness event (I own The Autism Awareness Car, which has 2.5million marbles glued to it - took 4 years to build it). He spent several years teaching me to talk and I was able to get a GED at age 37 *(I had never been allowed to go to school as Autism in the 1970s = too retarded to be taught anything so why bother? It was assumed I couldn't be taught, so no one tried to, until I was 31 years old)*, and started college at age 42. 

Today in addition to being a rabid gamer, I'm also an artist (acrylic on canvas and watercolor on rag) sell my art in local galleries, I build art cars and installation art, published over 130 Dark Fantasy novels, and became a retail merchandiser for Macy's, WalMart, and HallMark for 16 years because I'm very good at organizing things... I can't do much else, but I can certainly make sure nothing on the sales floor is out of place. 

On Twitch I'm known for my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it removing and making my own... I rewrote Witcher 3, removed Geralt and Roach and the combat system, and build my own player character, made travel companions, wrote a new combat system, made new quests, made new maps... removed all the texture files and made all new ones. There's nothing in Witcher 3 that I have not rewritten. With over 4,000 mods now made for it, you can barely recognize my game as being Witcher 3 anymore.... and yet I can't read C++ code.

I spent my childhood and teen years, being told I would never amount to anything. I proved them all wrong.

People see the things I do very well *(art, writing, my exemplary organization skills in retail stores, and my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it and making my own)* but they often don't see past that.

Social skills are a thing I've not yet mastered, which makes streaming very difficult for me as, chat is sensory overload and I have it turned off. I also can't count, do Math, tell time, use calendars, use money, numbers are lost on me.

Basic things - bathing, eating, brushing my hair, etc - that most people have no trouble with, I have caretakers who have to help me do those thing, even though I'm 20, 30, 40 years older than my caretakers. I am VERY low-functioning, but I can write, I can paint, I disect video games, and I can organize things. I just can't do one thing else. Which is very upsetting, because I wish I could. I try too. I don't know why I can't. It's like there are a few things in my brain turned all the way up on super high and everything else is just turned off and won't come on.

And then there are issues with meltdowns, screaming fits, panic attacks, bad ones. Bad enough that I generally avoid contact with the public, simply because I'm tired of dealing with the police. Someone my age, screaming on the floor, people assume I'm on drugs and call the police. It's very frustrating, because I can not control these attacks and I can't stop them once they start.  

It is extremely distressing, I'm insanely good at a few things, but everything else, things most of society doesn't bat an eye at, I can't do them, no matter how hard I try. And I'm not capable of "acting properly" or "behaving in socially acceptable ways".

Most people when they meet me in real life, they are very taken back, by how extremely disabled I am. Fans of my novels, meet me at book signings and ask: "So, what's the joke, what's this retard doing here, where's the author?" 

They refuse to believe, someone as deeply retarded as me, is capable of writing novels. It hurts a lot, people's reactions to meeting me and them finding out the reality of what ACTUAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, is really like... and that it's NOTHING like Asperger's, with it's "cute Sheldon Cooper quirks" that they are used to and think of as being Autism. 

They forget, people with Asperger's can live normal lives, they can pass for normal in public if they have too, they get married and have families, and I'm not capable of living on my own or without caretakers, and I never will be. 

I wish more people knew the difference between Aspergers and Autism, and how vastly different they are from each other. 

Far too many people hear that I have Autism, and they automatically assume I have Aspergers, and then they meet me in person, and are shocked, horrified, and they tell me they've meet dozens, sometimes hundreds of Aspies, and when they meet me, they say, they realize, they've NEVER seen Autism before, in spite of all the hundreds of Aspies they've met, and then they tell me, they wish they had known, they wished someone had told them, how starkly different Autism is from Aspergers, because they always say, no matter how many Aspies they worked with, it never prepared them to come face to face with ACTUAL REAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, for the first time. 

The problem is these people are also used to interacting with people who 90% of the time are self diagnosed... which is why when they encounter me... **SOMEONE WITH AN ACTUAL MEDICAL DIAGNOSIS**... they are so surprised at how vastly different "MY" Autism is from the so-called "Autism" they are used to encountering with the fake ass self diagnosed Aspies who wouldn't know Autism if it hit them in the face! I hate it when people with “self diagnosed disabilities” talk about how hard being a part of the neurodivergent community is. 

What the fuck? 

What neurodivergent community? 

That's NOT even a thing! 

We who have **ACTUAL REAL MEDICALLY DIAGNOSED DISABILITIES AREN'T A PART OF SOME FUCKING CUTSY COMMUNITY! WE HAVE AN ACTUAL MEDICAL DISEASE THAT SERIOUSLY HAMPERS OUR EVERY DAY EXISTENCE! THIS ISN'T SOME CLUB YOU CAN JOIN!**

**MY** Autism is so vastly different from the hundreds of other so-called "Autistics" they are used to, **because MY Autism is FUCKING REAL and not some stupid ass fako with a self diagnosis because they want to be different!**

Also there is **NO SUCH THING AS A SELF-DIAGNOSED AUTISTIC!**

Read the fucking medical journals and kick the damn anti-vaccer mommy blogger out the window. They don't know shit. 

In **EVERY DOCUMENTED CASE** of a self-diagnosed Autistic going to a doctor and getting **ACTUALLY DIAGNOSED**, their real diagnosis ALWAYS comes back as one of 2 things:

* Schizophrenia

* Narcissism

#HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF SELF-DIAGNOSED AUTISTICS, WHEN THEY FINALLY RECIEVED AN ACTUAL MEDICAL DIAGNOSIS FROM A DOCTOR.... WHERE DIAGNOSED WITH PARINOID GRANDOSE SCHIZOPHRENIA!!!

Think about that.

Think about it, long and hard.

Look up the symptoms of Schizophrenia, then turn around and take a good long look at the actions of the millions of fake ass self diagnosed "autistics" you've encountered online and offline... do you see it now?

Ain't a damned one of those self-diagnosed Aspies who have Autism... they have fucking schizophrenia.

Think about it... scared to go to doctors, paranoid of doctors, so they self-diagnoses, because they have too many paranoid ideas about doctors and vaccinations to go to a doctor.

What are the primary symptoms of schizophrenia?

* Fear of rational, harmless things such as doctors, dentists, and vaccinations

* Social awkwardness, social anxiety, fear of crowds, but has a conflicting desire to be a part of a social group and will go to great extremes to become a part of that group

* Imitation and impersonation, including hypochondria, and pretending to have illnesses that are deemed as popular or cool or trendy

* Self diagnosing themselves as having popular disease to try to fit in with a crowd or social group, in an attempt to gain attention or be more popular

* Seeing themselves as superior to others based on the hypochondriac illnesses they self diagnosed themselves as having

* Pretends to be things they are not, including to pretend to have illnesses that they deem as superior

**A Schizophrenic is scared of everything. **

* They trust no one.

* They see and notice everything going on around them and are terrified of every little sight, sound, or smell. 

* Everything is seen as a threat. 

* Fear rules their lives. 

* They are suspicious of everything and every one and feel an overbearing need to flee from everything.

* They see authority figures such as police, political leaders, or big business owners as "the enemy" and believe those authority figures are always out to get them.

* Paranoia governs their actions. 

* They believe conspiracy theories, think the Illuminati is real, believe aliens are going to abduct them, think the government put mind control drugs in flouride, believe in demon possession, and other such crazy ideas.

* They can do nothing without first thinking out in great detail, every possible outcome, and every possible path they must take to avoid the most fearful of those outcomes. 

* They will frequently avoid doing things they desire to do, out of irrational fears they create about those things. They spend much of their life regretting not trying new things, attending events, or joining others in activities.

* They focus heavily on what others think about them, and will often wear dull, drab, but very conforming to local society, styles of clothing. If every one in their town wears Ts and jeans, they wear Ts and jeans; if everyone wears business suits, they wear business suits... they are terrified to be unique or original, scared of being judged by others, scared of not fitting in with the crowd, and will go overboard in trying to blend in with the local "in crowd".

* They walk quickly, but dutifully. Staying on sidewalks. Always nervously looking around them. Paying careful notice of everyone they see, looking at all strangers with suspicion, suspecting everyone of carrying a gun or knife or being a potential mugger.

* They have trouble making friends because they spend too much time imagining that potential friends will hurt the, so avoid contact with people, due to the conspiracies they build. Their social anxiety is built up by their own irrational fears of everyone around them.

* Because they are so terrified or everything, they fear going to doctors, mostly because they believe doctors, like police and presidents, are part of groups such as the Illuminati, and instead seek out shady conspiracy theorist websites to use to self-diagnoses themselves whenever they find a trendy popular illness that they want to have in order to be part of a group.

* If they do go to a doctor, they are convinced the doctor gave them a false diagnosis to try to trick them, resulting in they take up the hobby of reading mommy blogs of their fellow anti-vaccer conspiracy theorists, and use those shady websites as the basis of self diagnosing themselves with something more socially acceptable than whatever the actual diagnosis their doctor gave them was.

* When someone tells them they are being paranoid, they often fall back on saying something along the lines of: they have to be paranoid because demons, aliens, ghosts, or evil spirits visit them at night and tell them the president is an evil overlord who has stationed minions in every town and the men in black are on every street corner and they must listen to the voices of the spirits in order to know who is plotting with the police against them.

Every part of the above, is a symptom a self-diagnosed Autistic proudly claims as one of their symptoms... and yet...

**A REAL Autistic is the exact opposite. They are scared of nothing.**

* They trust every one.

* They are too lost in the world that exists only inside their head to see and notice anything going on around them and are completely oblivious to the existence of every little sight, sound, or smell.  

* Everything is seen as a learning opportunity. Everything and everyone MUST be studied to see "what makes them tick". They want to know everything there is to know about everything.

* Logic rules their lives. 

* They are curious about everything and every one and feel an overbearing need to study everything.

* They love rules. They see authority figures such as police, political leaders, or big business owners as the greatest people on the planet and believe those authority figures are always doing good and going to help them.

* Fascination and curiosity governs their actions. 

* Eternal skeptics, they will not believe ANYTHING unless you can provide hundreds of documented studies by highly regarded authority figures in leadership positions, and as such they DO NOT believe conspiracy theories, think the Illuminati is a hoax, believe aliens could be real but still require proof, think the government is great because it makes laws to protect them, believes demons are a figment of paranoid imaginations, and think other such crazy ideas are likewise only believed by crazy people.

* They often run into their activities without first thinking out in great detail, and thus are quick to take up things like bungee jumping, mountain climbing, scaling brick smoke stacks, or climbing to the tops of tall trees without any gear, safety nets, or other devices, simply climbing up bare hands and bare feet. They are often seen as careless or daredevils because of their total lack of fear of heights or trying new things. 

* They will NEVER avoid doing things they desire to do, and thus will paint huge murals on cars, buses, or the side of houses, on a whim with no planning aheads of time. They will go out on a limb to try new things. If they feel like dressing up as a fairy with sparkly wings and dancing in the city park's water fountain while tossing pennies to strangers... then they will do exactly that without caring what by passers think of them doing it.

* They do not care what others think about them, and will often wear outlandish clothing, with no thought at all of how society might react to how bizarre they are dressed. They are often see as "hippies" or "free spirited" or "no conformists" or "eccentric" due to how extremely unlike the rest of society they dress. CosPlaying, OtherKin, or dressing like Disney Princesses are common every day outfits for Autistics, even into adulthood.

* They prance and dance, skip and hop, jump over cracks, twirl on their toes, stray of the path, often enter the road or stray onto lawns, finding it difficult to be constrained to sidewalks. They find it difficult to walk and may burst into a sprint and run far ahead of the group if forced to walk too long, they need adult supervision in public places, even as adults, because they are prone to burst into a run, including to run into the road into oncoming traffic, without any fear of the cars on the highway, indeed, they are so lost in the fairy filled world in their head, that they do not even see the road or the cars and only see the fairies they are dancing with.

* They have trouble making friends because most people are too terrified of their seemingly "extremely extroverted" personality. Their outfits, hyper extreme activities, and free spirited prancing and dancing instead of walking often brands them as "crazy" or "insane" or ironically "schizoid", even though schizophrenia is completely the opposite.

* Because they are too busy having fun dancing in water fountains with the fairies only they can see, they often forget to do things like eat or sleep, and require adult supervision, even if they themselves are an adult, to remind them to stop dancing with fairies long enough to eat and sleep. This also contributes to them rarely going to doctors and requiring a caretaker to set up doctor appointments and drive them to the doctor. 

* They are prone to ignoring their illnesses, pain, and diseases because every day of their life is so painful as it is, they find it better to focus on pretty things, bright colours, reading comic books, playing video games, or doing other such things to put their minds in a self-hypnotic-meditative state so they can ignore the pain. 

* They feel no need to try to self-diagnose themselves, because it is pointless to bother at this point, because they've lived with searing pain every day since they were born and now they are used to the pain and use dressing in pink gowns, dancing in water fountains, painting cars, reading comics, and playing video games as coping mechanises to try to find something other than their every day pain and suffering to focus on.

* Because they suffer so many skin pains, allergies, gastrointestinal pains, sensory pains, and their doctor helps to take those pains away, they view their doctor as one of their most trusted friends and can be extremely upset, becoming depressed if their doctor retires or moves and they must start going to a new doctor. 

Now, here is one final thought on the comparisons between Autism and Schizophrenia.

Pay careful attention here.

Because this part, will be very telling, of just exactly how much, you, a self-diagnosed Aspie, REALLY knows about Autism.

Did you know, that up until 1982, ALL children and adults, upon receiving a diagnosis of Autism, the law, in America and most of Europe, REQUIRED that patient to be immediately straight jacketed, removed from their home, and locked in solitary confinement is a government run insane asylum/mental institute.

Do you why that changed in 1982?

You know SO MUCH about Autism, that you feel you qualify to self diagnoses yourself, so you should know the answer to this, shouldn't you? I mean, you DID self-diagnose yourself as Autistic, didn't you?

Did you ever read a medical journal?

How about the official guide to psychiatrics? You know the one, that giant 3,000 page book all 12 of the world's Autism doctors are required to have read and memorized, before they could graduate and their Ph.D ... M.D. ... in Psychiatric medicine.

That book, the one which lists all the symptoms of:

* Kanner's Syndrome (a.k.a. Autism)

AND

* Asperger's Syndrome (a.k.a. Childhood Schizophrenia)

I don't suppose while you were reading that book, to self diagnose yourself, that you noticed WHERE you had to look for both those psychosis, did you?

You would have found BOTH of them under the heading: Schizophrenia and Schizotypal Disorders.

YES, when you run around saying:

* "I'm a proud self-diagnosed Aspie! I have Autism, YAY!"

What you are saying to EVERYONE in the medical field, who knows what Aspergers and Autism are:

* "I'm a proud self-diagnosed Psycho! I have Schizophrenia, YAY!"

Sadly, 99.9% of all self diagnosed Aspies, are fully and completely unaware that Asperger's was known as Childhood Schizophrenia, up until 1982, when it was decided to merge the 2 listings into one, and use the "less stigma" name of Asperger's instead of the more stigma, Childhood Schizophrenia. And THUS HOW AND WHY Asperger's sudden became known as "a type of Autism", because Autism, since it's begin 200 years ago, was ALWAYS classified as "a type of Schizophrenia". 

* Schizophrenia's primary #1 symptom, the symptom it is most known for: "voices in your head" aka "imaginary friends" aka "they talk to demons" or "demons talk to them".

* Autism's primary #1 symptom, the symptom it is most known for: "voices in your head" aka "imaginary friends" aka "they talk to fairies" or "fairies talk to them".

* Asperger's primary #1 symptom, the symptom it is most known for: "voices in your head" aka "imaginary friends" aka "they talk to comic book characters" or "comic book characters talk to them".

Still want to call yourself Autistic or a self-diagnosed Aspie?

Aspergers and Autism, STILL what you thought they were?

Have I ever mentioned Etiole... and... oh look, hey, have you seen my Twitch profile yet? Noticed anything "unusual"... like maybe Avallac'h?

Take a step back, and really, really, REALLY do some REAL, ACTUAL, MEDICAL research into Aspergers and Autism... stop reading mommy bloggers and their anti-vaccination conspiracies, and get to know what Asperger's and Autism REALLY are, and what it's like to live with either one of them... because it's NOT fun.

#AUTISM IS A COMPLETE NIGHTMARE TO LIVE WITH!

We who actually HAVE Autism, we ain't running around calling ourselves "proud autistics", because we Autism is nothing to be proud of. We know, because struggle with it every day of our lives.

And while you self-diagnosed Aspies, get to toss YOUR "autism" aside when get bored with The Big Bang Theory's Sheldon Cooper, and become a fan of something else... we REAL Autistics don't have that luxury. We can't toss Autism aside, because it doesn't come and go when we feel like being "autistic" to be cool and part of the Sheldon Cooper fan club. 

And tell me WHY do you self-diagnosed Aspies think being Autistic is so "cool"?

Have you SEEN how the media portrays Schizophrenia? Ax murderers. Psycho killers. Gibbering lunatics straight jacketed in an asylum. 

You do realize that MOST of society sees Autistics and Aspies as **EXACTLY WHAT THEY ARE**: a sub group of schizophrenics.

So, tell me WHY, you self-diagnosed Aspies, think **THAT** is "cool?

Have you ever noticed that in recent years, the word "autism" has become used on the internet as a slur?

On Twitter and Reddit you see "autism" used interchangeably with "retard" and "schizoid", and those "proud autistic moms" and "proud self-diagnosed Aspies" get so pissed off because of it, but why? They are NOT wrong. 

#Autism IS a form of mental retardation, so, yes, you ARE retarded if you have Autism.

You didn't think about that when you self-diagnosed yourself did you?

#Autism IS a form of Schizophrenia, so, yes, you ARE a schizoid if you have Autism.

But poor you, you proud self-diagnosed Aspie, you didn't do your research well enough did you, because you would have know that, if you had.

But the funny thing is... when these self-diagnosed Aspies go to a doctor to get diagnosed, they NEVER get told they have Autism or Aspergers and ALWAYS get told they have full blown Paranoid Grandiose Schizophrenia.

Why?

Well.... all those years of being too paranoid to go to doctors, and self-diagnosis yourself, had a lot 2 do with it, because, after "hearing voices" the other 2 primary symptoms of schizophrenia are: "irrational paranoid fear" and "hypochondriasis"... lucky you. We who has Autism, only have a Schizotypal subset in the Schizophrenia spectrum of psychoses, but you, with your beloved prous self-diagnosed Aspie chanting, you proved yourself a 100% blown schizoid. 

Still proud to be a self-diagnosed Aspie?

Still being an Aspie or an Autistic is a badge of honor, that'll make society love and accept you?

Honey, there were plenty of illness out their you could have self-diagnosed yourself with to get pity from society, but ANY psychosis on the Schizotypal tree, is NOT going to among them.

So, when you run around telling people you is a proud Aspie or a proud Autistic, 90% of society is fully aware that Aspergers and Autism are BOTH forms of mental retardation with the Schizotypal Psychoses, so all you are doing is convincing society that you are insane and should be in a mental institute.

And the ONLY reason you are NOT in a mental institute, is because the law changed in 1982, and the government is no longer REQUIRED BY LAW to straight jacket all the sub-sets of Schizophrenia anymore.

Thus why you saw a rise in more children with Aspergers and Autism in public schools in 1987, when the law declared they were allowed to go to public schools for the first time in history.

Your fear of doctors lead you to self-diagnose yourself, and you almost got it right... had you read actual medical journals instead anti-vaccer mommy bloggers, you would have gotten it right... 

#AND, you wouldn't be so proud, to say: "I'm a self-diagnosed, Aspie/Autistic!" and you realized you were actually saying "I'm a self-diagnosed, Schizophrenic!" would you?

It was your fear of doctors that lead to your self-diagnosis... perhaps you should have started your search, by finding out what illness causes a fear of doctors?

Your fear of doctors is also what makes the self-diagnosed Aspies dramatically different from an ACTUAL Autistic.

Autistics don't fear doctors. Autistics are not obsessed with being part of a crowd. Autistics don't feel the need to join a group. Autistics are socially DISTANT not socially awkwards... there is a difference you know.

Someone with Autism DOES NOT WANT TO BE SOCIAL... someone with self-diagnosed Asp is desperately trying to be part of a group.

While you were glorifying all the cute, fun, good time, fluffy bunny tummy feelings of Autism, and found yourself wanted to be a part of the "autism club group"... did you also, look up the bad side of Autism? The negative symptoms? The one's that ain't fun or cute or fill your tummy with fluffy bunnies?

No?

You forgot to look into those symptoms didn't you?

Perhaps, if you had, you would not have been so quick to self diagnose.

Being the "prize guest" at so many Autism events, I get to meet thousands of self-diagnosed Aspies every year.

The top thing, they like to say is this:

#"I know I have Autism, because social awkward. I always WANT to join groups and make friends, but have social anxiety, so I MUST be Autistic. That's why I self diagnosed myself."

Well, whoop dee doo, good for you.

Social anxiety is ITSELF it's own, separate disorder... and MOST who have REAL Autism, don't have it as a symptom.

Soooo, if you have social anxiety, changes are VERY high that you don't have Autism.

Why?

Well, we REAL Autistics, usually are having too much fun with our "imaginary friends"... hey, look, Avallac'h, he's all over my profile for a reason you know... we REAL Autistics, usually are having too much fun with our "imaginary friends" to have any want, need, or desire for social activities or real friends who are real people.

**We REAL Autistics, like our "imaginary friends" much, much MORE then we like real people.** In fact, in most cases,  we REAL Autistics also have a deep set HATRED for real people. If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would have plenty of "imaginary friends" and deeply hate when real interrupted your conversations with the people they can't see.

**We REAL Autistics, Do NOT WANT to be part of a group.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would have zero desire to be accepted by a group.

**We REAL Autistics, we are not seeking to join a club and hang out with others.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because would find hanging out with others as grating on your mind as sandpaper on your skin.

**We REAL Autistics, Do NOT WANT to be take part in community activities.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because communities activities would be an gnawing annoying pain forever eating at your brain and you'd be trying desperately to escape the crowd, by climbing the tallest tree the nearest cell phone tower, just to get as far away from the mindless prattle of community gibber gabber..

**We REAL Autistics, we don't like people and we don't WANT to be a part of your world, your world is full of pain and suffer, every sound stabs our ears, every light blinds us**. If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would suffer excruciating pain, at every voice, every laughter, every yip-yap, every scream, every light no matter how dim. And all you would want to do is sit in a corner, holding your hands over your ear to block out the noise, to clamp your eyes shut and keep out the pain of the light. To scream louder than every sound around you, in hopes you can scream loud enough to drown it out and chase it away.

**We REAL Autistics, we don't NEED social interaction with people and we don't WANT to be a part of your world, BECAUSE we have a vastly huge world in our heads, and it's a better world than your real world, and we don't like it when you real people interrupt us and pull us out of the world that lives in our heads.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would have zero desire to be interacting with real people, because fairies and elves are far more fun, more quiet, more docile, less violent, less hostile, less brutal, not as loud, and are kind, loving, and gentle. And tey, unlike real people, will never hurt you.

We REAL Autistics, have no desire, ZERO, none at all, to take part in social activities... and THAT is why social anxiety is very, very, very rare to almost none-existent in REAL Autism.

So, when you diagnosed Aspies say:

#"I know I have Autism, because social awkward. I always WANT to join groups and make friends, but have social anxiety, so I MUST be Autistic. That's why I self diagnosed myself."

You've missed the mark big time, and you don't have a fucking clue what Autism is.

Someone with Autism will hiss, growl, shriek, scream, bite, kick, scratch your eyes out if you try to force them into a crowd of people. Someone with self-diagnosed Asp is going to stand their awkwardly and wait to be asked to join the group, when you push them into a crowd.

Yes... you **CAN** see the **HUGE** amounts of vast difference between **REAL, ACTUAL, AUTISM** and the fake ass wannabes with a self diagnosis. And those differences are miles apart from each other.

#THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A CASE OF A SELF-DIAGNOSED AUTISTIC SUCCESSFULLY BEING MEDICALLY DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM!

And **THAT** is why so many hundreds of people meet me at conventions and say: *"I've worked with hundreds of Autistics over the years and I've never seen anyone with anything like you have before."*

I always ask them: *"Where they self diagnosed or did they have actual medical records proving they had Autism?"*

And the answer is **ALWAYS**: *"Well, it's so hard to get a diagnosis, only 12 psychiatrists in the world are qualified to diagnosis Autism, so they **HAD** to self diagnose themselves. They were all proud self-diagnosed Aspies. Just like me! I'm Autistic too, but, wow are you nothing like me. Are you sure you have Autism? I'm not like you at all and I know I diagnosed myself correctly, because I'm just like Sheldon Cooper and I've watched every episode of Big Bang Theory, so I know I have Autism, just like my hero Sheldon Cooper does."*

Yeah. There ARE only 12 psychiatrists on the planet, who are legally qualified and legally able to make a diagnosis of Autism.

I get so sick and tired of jackass Autism-wanna-bes, who call themselves Autistic just because they think it's "cool".

Can you wipe your own ass when you take a shit? If so, you probably don't have Autism.

Are you in your 20s, 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s+ and can live on your own without 24 hour adult supervision? Hey, well, guess what **YOU DO NOT HAVE AUTISM! SO STOP FUKING PRETENDING YOU DO!**

Someone with REAL Autism, will go total psycho on your ass, when you try to force them to interact with others... they will act like a wild rabid animal, tear your skin off your faces, bite chunks of flesh out of your arm, you WILL be seriously injured, and **YOU WILL NEED HOSPITALIZATION FOR YOUR MASSIVE INJURIES**. 

Never underestimate the extreme levels of violence, hostility, and animalistic strength an Autistic possesses when upset.

#THERE IS A REASON MOST PARANTS OF ACTUALLY AUTISTIC CHIDLREN BELIEVE THEIR CHILD IS DEMON POSSESSED AND TAKE THEM TO PRIESTS FOR EXOSISMS!

Believe me... there is a big difference between an upset self-diagnosed aspie pouting in the corner and an upset ACTUAL autistic, breaking your bones, pulling your hair out, ripping your ears offm, and biting your fingers off.

Self diagnosed Aspies, will run and hide with you yell at them... actual real Autistics, will fight back with vicious animal ferocity, and you'll be in an ambulance on your way to get your fingers sewed back on.

There is a hell of a big difference between:

* "Oh my kid has quirks, likes comic books, and won't eat peas or green beans, he must have Autism"

and

* "Ohmigawd! My demon possessed kid just bit my fucking finger off, because I stopped him from laying his comic books out around the edge of the house in rainbow colour order!"

People focus on the "good" or "positive" symptoms of Autism... like quirks and obsessions with cartoons... but they forget, those are just the iceberg tip of Autism that you see on the surface, and MOST of Autism's symptoms are a  true nightmare, horrific, dark, and are very, very, very negative.

The fakers with their self diagnoses, prance around "look at me I got quirks!"... but ask them, about the dark side of Autism, and they'll tell you there is none. 

The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you Autism is all good and has no bad... but me with real Autism, I can tell you how easy it is for an 8 year old girl to rip a man's testicals off and force feed them to him... because I did it. I really don't like being touched, and like even less being raped.

The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you they read comic books... me with real Autism, I can quite line by line, every pages of more than 10,000 comic books.

A photographic memory, the ability to look inside your mind and see photographic images of EVERYTHING you have ever looked at EVER in your entire life, and quickly file through those photos to read from your head, books line by line... is a primary required symptoms of Autism, and if you don't have that, you don't have Autism.

The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you look how pretty the trees are, let's paint pictures of them... me with real Autism, I can tell you the best and fastest way to get to the top of that tree and how many days was the longest I stayed up there 130 feet off the ground.

Oh... did no one ever tell you one of the primary symptoms of Autism is climbing things like telephone poles, water towers, smokestacks, and giant old growth pine and redwood trees?

I thought you said you knew Autism well enough to diagnose yourself with having it?

The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you how much fun it is to be a part of the neurodiversity community, where they get to hang out with other none neural typicals... me with real Autism, I'll punch your teeth out with a brick if you try to force me into any community at all. No I'm not joking, I have Autism, I NEVER joke, I am ALWAYS dead serious, look at my uncles, most of them have no front teeth, and most of them lost their teeth before I was 12 years old. I don't like being hit in the face with a brick and my uncles always taught:

*"DO unto others as you want others to do unto you"*... meaning, they would not have broken my jaw with a brick and knocked out 17 of my teeth, unless they wanted me to return the favor and knock out their teeth with the exact same brick they used to knock out mine.

The golden rule... do unto others what you want others to do to you, in other words, I wait to see how you are going to treat me, and I will do to you EXACTLY the same thing you did to me, line by line, word by word, action by action, measure by measure, because by doing it to me, you have informed me that I MUST do it back to you, it's what you wanted me to do to you, otherwise, you would not have done it to me... do to others EXACTLY what they first did to you. So says the Golden Rule in the Bible... my uncles shouldn't have preached it, if they didn't mean it; likewise, they should not have beaten out 17 of my teeth with a brick, if they didn't want me to fight back in self defence and with that self same brick. Just because a child is 8 years old, and 5 men in their 30s are holding her down and raping her, and beating her face with a brick to stop her from crying for help, doesn't mean she ain't strong enough to tear her arm free, pull that brick from their hand, and throw it right back at them.

Did you know Autism is CAUSED by childhood rape? And that if you were NOT raped as a toddler, than it is NOT possible for you to have Autism?

I suppose that would be, yet another thing you overlooked when self-diagnosing yourself, eh?

Do you realize, when your parents say: "I'm a proud mom of an autistic child"... that what she is ACTUALLY saying is: "I'm proud the men in my life raped my toddler and gave her Autism!" 

Yeah.

I'm wondering how many "Proud Autism moms" there would be, if they ACTUALLY READ the ACTUALLY medical diagnosis guide for Autism, and found out that Autism, is a form of childhood post traumatic stress disorder, caused by childhood rape?

Did you know Autism, is a coping mechanism... a way to shut out the real world, because people are evil, mean, and hurtful, and imaginary friends don't hurt you and live in a world, where you are safe and protected, and you can ONLY be hurt if you leave there would and return to the real world... 

...and THAT is WHY Autistics, shut out the real world, ignore it completely, and have no desire, absolutely ZERO desire for social interaction.

Which is WHY it is foolish for self-diagnosed Aspies, to claim to be Autistic because of social anxiety.

We with REAL Autism, don't have social anxiety... we have 100% pure hatred for humanity and the world humans live in and our brain shut down and protects us, by blocking out the real world... that why we don't see it... why don't see cars in the road... why we need 24 hour adult supervision, even into our adulthood and elderly years... because we see the world of the Fae and we can no longer see your real world, because your real world is far too painful to see anymore.

The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you they could NEVER hurt anyone, it would hurt their feelings... me with real Autism, I don't give a shit about your feelings and I won't think twice about breaking your nose, arm, leg, if you hurt me, I'm going to hurt you right back. You break my nose, I will immediately break your nose, and while you are on the ground crying in pain, I'm standing dry eyed, not sheading a tear, not making a sound, because I've been in searing pain so long, that nothing you can do will hurt me worse than I already hurt every day. You are not used to pain, so you cry and scream... me, I stopped crying decades ago, I stopped screaming decades back. I also stopped smiling... I hurt too much to smile. I've not laughed in decades, I've no reason to laugh and laughter only shakes my insides and makes the pain worse.

Common misconception is that we with ACTUAL Autism, have no feelings... no... we have feelings, we just are in so much agonizing pain, all day, every day, that we learned to stop showing emotions... it was the only way, to learn to stop crying 24 hours a day, stop screaming with every step we take. We had to cancel out outward sings of emotions, otherwise we would never make it from one day to the next.

The agonizing pain, is so bad that we pass out several times a day, whenever the stabbing pain of pinched nerves, bloated bellies, bleeding blisters, splitting eardrums, stabbing pain in our eyes, reaches a point when we can bear it in silence no longer, and we stop breathing, our bodies shut down. And we lay unconscious on the floor for seconds, minutes, hours, sometimes days, before we wake up again.

The physical pain is the worst part of Autism.

The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you all their favorite foods, their likes, their dislikes, and how they are picky, finicky eaters who must have everything laid out just so... me with real Autism, I'll tell you about WHY I can not eat most foods... the bloating, the rashes, the hives, the vomiting, the diarrhea... an Autistic's strict "finicky" diet is NOT a cute little quirk like the fake ass self diagnosers say, it's a full blood gastrointestinal allergy that you can die from... the same thing that causes our synapses to misfire also causes our digestive tract to reject every food we eat like it was poison.

If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.

The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you "I like to read, I'm a deep thinker and like to get lost in thought, thinking about the other worlds"... me with real Autism, I don't get lost in thought thinking about other worlds I've read about in books, I spend hours every day, in what I'm told is called "Astral projection". I don't think about those worlds, I live in them. I don't read about those characters, I interact with them. 

People have recorded this "phenomena" when it happens ... they can't wake me up. I go into a rigid catatonic state, for hours, days, some times weeks. It's almost like a coma, but my body is still functioning so I don't need life support.

When I finally come out of it and they ask where I went, my answer is always: "I went into a book to visit the characters" or "I went into the vide game, to live with the characters" or "I went into the movie, to find out what was going on in their world"

I don't just "think" about characters, I go meet them in their world... and THAT is what makes Autism, Autism, and what makes a REAL Autistic, so vastly different from the faker ass wannabes with their self diagnoses.

Doctors, can't explain catatonia and classify it as "one of the mysteries" of Autism.

#While not all catatonics have Autism... ALL Autistics ALWAYS have catatonia.

Catatonia is the one thing, that makes REAL Autism, REAL Autism... and if you don't have catatonia, you ain't got Autism.

And if you didn't know catatonia is the ONLY symptom that determines if or not you have Autism, then Honey, you really do know absolutely nothing about REAL, ACTUAL Autism.

#IF YOU DO NOT HAVE CATATONIA, YOU DO NOT HAVE AUTISM!

And then there are the senses. The over powering senses. 

Every sound, even the tiniest whisper, is like a cruise ship fog horn going off in my ears. 

If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.

I can see in the dark like a cat, and that's a good thing, but the trade off, I can't see at all in light. Sun light, daylight, land light, they blind me. I can not go outside between 10AM and 5PM because the sunlight causes searing pain and I pass out from the pain, then when I wake up, I can't see at all for several minutes, and when I can see again all I can see a rainbow star bursts and black and red polka dots for hours.

If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.

The faker ass wanna bes with their self diagnoses, will tell you their eyes hurt if they look at the sun... newsflash... EVERYONE'S eyes hurt if you look at the sun. Stop being an idiot, stop looking at the sun!

People with Autism, don't have to look at the sun to black out ... a 30 watt lamp in a bedroom will cause them to pass out from the searing pain as well. The pain is THAT bad.

When was the last time you felt pain that was so extreme you passed out?

Never? Really? I thought you said you had Autism? 

When was the last time you were blind for hours on end and saw nothing but total blackness, while fireworks starburst of rainbow colours exploded in front of you and black and red polka dots zipped by?

Never? Really? I thought you said you accurately self diagnosed yourself with Autism? Extreme photosensitivity is a primary symptom, classified as, you don't have Autism, if you don't have this symptom.

Still think you diagnosed yourself accurately?

The faker ass wanna bes with their self diagnoses, will tell you they can't wear cloths with tags because "tags are itchy"...

Nothing can touch me. Nothing. No one. Not fabric. Not human skin. I break out in horrifying blisters, huge bubbles that burst and bleed. I can only wear 100% pure silk, pure cotton, pure bamboo fiber cloth, or real fur. Everything burns my skin. Turns my skin bright red. My skin blisters, bubbles, bleeds, and peels if anything else touches it.

If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.

As for itchy tags... tags itch EVERYONE, you stupid ass!

People with Autism... tags cause massive blisters, hives, and bleeding.

Far too many people only know the "good", "cute", "funny", "quirky", "socially acceptable" symptoms of Autism, and they want in on that. They want to be cute, funny, quirky, social acceptable... but they completely ignore the dark side of Autism... and very, very, very dark, that dark side is. The bad symptoms, the violent symptoms, the social unaccepted symptoms, are far bigger, far greater, then the good ones. To the extent that a REAL Autistic can't function in society.

And that's how you can tell the fake ass wanna bes with their self diagnoses, from someone with REAL, ACTUAL Autism.

They parade around talking how good and fun Autism is, they make out like having Autism is a badge of honor to be proud of.

It's not, and don't be fooled into thinking it is.

And 90% of all Autistics, can't even talk. Mutism, is one the biggest symptoms.

Yes, Autism gives you good things like making art and literature are big part of your life, but the bad parts of Autism are so overpowering bad, that you can NOT enjoy those good things.

Real Autistics aren't trying to be a part of a group. They are just trying to get from one day to the next without searing pain in their bellies, without their skin bursting open and bleeding all over everything, without mind numbing pain in their eyes from sunlight. They are in far too much pain 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year, every year for their entire lives, to have any free time to join groups or happily chat about how fun Autism is.

#Autism is not fun to live with, and any one who tells you it is, does not have Autism.

The fakers with their self diagnoses, forget to tell you about the dark side of Autism, because **THEY DO NOT HAVE AUTISM** so they didn't even know the dark side of Autism existed.

If you only know self-diagnosed Aspies, then you don't know Autism, and you are in for one hell of a big surprise when the day comes that you actually meet someone with REAL Autism.

1 in 3 children have Aspergers, it's very common, but only 1 in 120,000 children have Autism, it's very rare. In the wake of the mass flood of people calling Asperger's Autism, people forget how incredibly rare actual Autism really is. They aren't the same thing and until you've seen both side by side, you don't realize how different they really are.

People forget WHY I became such a good writer. I was mute for 31 years. Writing was the only way I could communicate with anyone. But I grew up in a family that crumpled up the paper, never even looked at it. In their minds I was too stupid to talk and therefore anything I wrote on paper MUST have been gibberish. They didn't even look at it. So I wrote letters to the cats that lived with us. I started doing that when I was 8 years old. I still do it 50+ years later.

 I'm not likely to be much use in a group, as outside of writing, art, video games, and organizing sale floors of retail stores, I'm too retarded to be able to do anything else. 

I'm rarely welcomed in groups, because I'm too retarded, too Autistic to fit in, or so I'm always told. I'm rarely of any use to anyone.

Missed Reading PART 1? 

You probably want to read Part 1 before continuing here to read Part 2.

This page is here to illustrate a point. It might piss you off, if you had not first read part 1, to understand the context of Part 2.

If you do read Part 2, before reading part 1... hold off on your enraged hissy fit until you have reached the end of the pink list... you'll see what I mean if you read the whole thing...

If you are a self-diagnosed Aspies and leave in a raging furry before you get the the end of the pink list, well... 

#1: It proves you don't have Aspergers

#2: If you don't finish reading the entire thing, you'll never know why that proves you don't have Aspergers.


Quick recap of why we are here...

I get very annoyed by writers who use mental illness as a plot devise, especially when it becomes clear that they know nothing of the illness they are writing about, have clearly never lived with it, have no clues the every day challenges a person faces by living with it, and obviously did little to no research into it, basing everything the character does off something they saw in a movie and assumed the movie must have got it right.

....

On this page we are going to look at what happens, when a character with a mental illness, becomes very, very, very famous...

His name is Sheldon Cooper and he has Asperger's. And in the show Big Bang Theory, his Aspergers is portrayed correctly... to some extent...

however his Aspergers is FICTIONAL.... it's not real... and yet... 1 in 3 children, now have this fictional made up form of Asperger's in what may be the largest and most bizarre heard mentality phenomena to ever hit America

...

Since the arrival of the Big Bang Theory, 19 years ago, something very strange happened in the real world medical community...

...a brand new mental health illness arrived almost over night and hit pediatricians everywhere by storm...

The name of the strange new illness?

"Self Diagnosed Asperger's" which is vastly different from actual, real Aspergers.

Self Diagnosed Aspergers is a bizarre illness that has a few of the symptoms of Autism, a few symptoms of Asperger's, and shit ton load of one illness... the real illness, that it really is... it's based entirely off a fictional character (Sheldon Cooper) and one author's fictional translation of what Aspergers is in the world of The Big Bang Theory.

Self-Diagnosed Aspergers is NOT the same as Asperger's Syndrome, as you soon shall see. It is a very unique illness... and imaginary illness, invented by fans of Sheldon Cooper, and spread like wildfire across America, infecting a whooping 1 in 3 children.

Let's now take a look at this bizarre phenomena, known in the medical world as "The Mysterious Autism boom"...

Some interesting facts:

  • Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 120,000 children
  • Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed
  • ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose
  • More then 40% of teens with self-diagnosed Aspergers,when asked why they decided to self diagnose themselves as having Asperger's admitted to only diagnosing themselves as Aspies in order to be more like their hero Sheldon Cooper, 

  • and could not list what the actual symptoms of Asperger's were, as they ONLY knew the "symptoms" as shown on the TV show and had never researched to find out what Asperger's really was.

 (children aged 12 to 18 who self-diagnosed themselves with a serious crippling mental illness, that doctors take 12 years of Abnormal Psychology college classes to learn how to recognize) 

  • More then 60% of parents who self-diagnosed  their children as having Aspergers, admitted to being fans of Sheldon Cooper and said they hoped that by "self diagnosing" their children as Aspies, it would make them aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper and become famous noble prize winning physicists.

  • and could not list what the actual symptoms of Asperger's were, as they ONLY knew the "symptoms" as shown on the TV show and had never researched to find out what Asperger's really was.

(very young parents, themselves only children aged 16 to 24 - who self-diagnosed their children with a serious crippling mental illness, that doctors take 12 years of Abnormal Psychology college classes to learn how to recognize- without knowing what it actually was, simply because they were a fan of a fictional character who had a MADE UP FICTIONAL version of a seriously debilitating disease.)


So... if you came here from clicking the link in Part 1, you know what you are about to read and here it is...

There is one thing more frightening then the trend of children self-diagnosing themselves with serious mental illnesses...

and that's the fact that they are ALSO making up "new" symptoms, and using these FAKE "Aspie symptoms" as excuses to commit horrific crimes: including dissecting their sibling's pets, building bombs to blow up their neighbors houses, and stealing guns for school shootings...

Did you know that EVERY case of a school shooting in the United States was done by a child who had self diagnosed as an Aspie?

But did you also know that someone with ACTUAL Aspergers, lacks the part of the brain that triggers anger and violence? And like Autistics, REAL Aspies, are completely and totally docile, non-violent, and it is almost impossible to get either Autistics or Aspies angry and are NOT CAPABLE of committing the horrific violent hate crimes that are being done by self diagnosed Aspies?

Self-diagnosed Asperger's ranks among the most dangerous, most violent, and most sociopathic illness in history, and yet, self-diagnosed Asperger's is a fictional illness that did not exist prior to the invention of the fictional character Sheldon Cooper from the fictional TV show Big Bang Theory.

Here are two very important numbers to look at:

#1: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies will commit violent crimes, more then half of those crimes will be murder.

#2: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies have mis-diagnosed themselves and do not have Asperger's at all.

Did you see it?

No?

Let's repeat it and see if you see it the next time around?

  • #1: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies will commit violent crimes, more then half of those crimes will be murder.
  • #2: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies have mis-diagnosed themselves and do not have Asperger's at all.

Still missing it? Let's show you it a third time, see if you see it yet...

#1: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies will commit violent crimes, more then half of those crimes will be murder.

#2: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies have mis-diagnosed themselves and do not have Asperger's at all.

Funny how the amount of Asperger's patents who commit violent crimes is the EXACT SAME amount who are also not actual Aspies, isn't it.

You know there's a reason for that right?

The list below, is a list complied, by interviewing, children who had self diagnosed themselves with Asperger's... or the very young (14 to 24) teen parents whom had self diagnosed their children. When asked what are the symptoms of Asperger's and how do they compare with Autism... these are the answers they gave...


Below are 2 lists... one side it titled "Autism" the other is titled "Aspergers". 

The side titled Autism, is the ACTUAL symptoms.

The side title Aspergers are the symptoms which self-diagnosed Aspies CLAIM are Symptoms of Aspergers...

Compare the difference, and see for yourself, the stark danger, of giving yourself a REAL diagnoses, based off a FICTIONAL TV show...


Autism

Autistic children are very quiet. Non-verbal. Often mute. They never have out bursts of screaming. They don't suddenly burst out into endless chatter. They may reach adulthood without ever saying a word. While some Autistic children can talk, most CAN NOT physically form words.


Autistic children MAY have a high IQ, but they will probably never know what the the concept of an IQ is. More often an Autistic child has a very high IQ about one subject, but is so below average low IQ in everything else that they are unable to put to use the high IQ topic.



Autistic children rock back and forth and stare at the wall for hours because they are living inside their head having fascinating conversations with imaginary friends. They have loads of fun telepathically speaking to people that do not exist and only can see or hear.





Autistic children usually wear diapers into adulthood, rarely learn how to feed themselves with a spoon, often need help to bath, need someone to wipe their bum for them after taking a shit, can not - even as adults - cross the street without adult supervision, and frequently wear head and neck braces because they never learn how to hold their heads up on their own.




Autistics have a deep need for privacy and personal space. They have little to no desire for human contact or social interaction. The fastest way to trigger a meltdown is to touch them, and don't you dare try to hug them.


Autistics are not aware they are any different from other people, and when others say they are "different" or "special" or "unique" they well respond with: "What do you mean? I'm not different. I'm normal just like you."

Unlike Aspies, Autistics do not have the constant need to self-proclaim their self importance. Indeed the Autistic is often too busy living in their head, having silent conversations with imaginary friends, to be aware that real people exist around them and therefore feel no need to try to compete with others.

Autistic fail to grasp the concept of self importance.

Tell an Autistic they are special and they reply with: "No, I'm not. I'm just like you."



While socially awkward, Autistics find no need to try to join social actives, do not try to be part of a group, and are quite content to do solo activities such as reading, writing, drawing, or having internal conversation with the people living inside their head.

They become frustrated if adults try to force them to join groups or do activities with others.

When by themselves, Autistics often giggle and laugh, for seemingly no reason.

They frequently clap their hands excitedly, hum to themselves, hug themselves, and while being completely alone, tend to enjoy their own company quite a bit, becoming frustrated if you interrupt them or suggest they play with other children.

When asked why they are laughing or singing, they will often give detailed descriptions of Faeries, unicorns, angels, or other "invisible beings" who were telling them jokes or putting on plays for them.




Autistics are quite to say such things as:

When I am alone, I feel relaxed.

I like to be completely alone.

I'm always alone and I love it.

I'm so glad people leave me alone. Listen to all this peace and quiet with no one bothering me. Now I can think and have fun with the Fairies.

Autistics are quick to cover their yards with "Keep Out" and "No Trespassing" signs.

Autistics have a high need for privacy and have meltdowns when their personal space is invaded by rude people who do not respect the privacy of others.



Autistics are:

Open, original, curious, imaginative, conscientious, reliable, organized, thorough, and have overly high self esteems.


Autistics (both boys and girls) frequently like to dress up in pink ruffles, frilly skirts, fake wings, and dance around with magic wands, often saying that they are dancing with fairies.


Pink is the most common colour worn by Autistics, even into adulthood.



Male Autistics have a high rate of wearing dresses as adults.



Male to female transgender is common among Autistics.



Autistics are often described by others as being "quiet and shy, not talking much and keeping to themselves"




Autistics rarely notice what is going on around them. They rarely pay attention to what other people are doing. Usually they are having too much fun interacting with the people living inside their head, to notice the real people around them. They therefore rarely compete with others.

Autistics fail to grasp the concept of competition, and therefor have no ability to play competitive sports or compete in contests or competitions.

Items such as awards, prizes, and trophies bear no meaning to Autistics who do not understand why competitive people seek to gain such things.

If forced by their parents to join sports or contests, they will become overly lazy, sleeping through practice, missing games, and otherwise not participating.

Because they can find no logic behind other people's need to compete with one another, they find things like sports, contests, and competitions to be dull, unexciting, and dreadfully boring.

They are content to play by themselves and do solo actives and find group activities frustrating and annoying.




Autistics are likely to be vegan, vegetarian, animal rights activists, or otherwise extreme when it comes to living as peacefully as possible, and doing as little harm as possible to humans, plants, animals, and the earth.


Autistics have a higher then normal complicity for empathy and compassion for all living creatures.

Autistics abhor guns, weapons, violence, murder, eating meat, accidentally breathing in bugs, or anything else that might cause harm.

Most Autistics obsess over these things to extremes.




Most Autistics have some form of spelling problems, such as dyslexia. They often spell words phonetically.

They may replace words with pictures (such as drawing an eyeball for the pronoun "I" or a bumblebee for the word "be".)

Most Autistics can not process numbers, never learn to count, can not do even simple addition, and are unable to read clocks, tell time, can not tell you the dates, do not know how old they are, and are unable to identify the current year or the current president of the United States.

Most Autistics prefer to write with crayons due to the bright colours, as well as the enjoyment of being able to line up the crayons after getting done writing.

Autistics tend to write very large, loopy letters in italic (half print/half cursive), often dotting i's with hearts, turning g and y tails into dragonfly wings, adding smiliy faces inside of o's. Their letters are often forward slanting, go off the page and scribbled on the table, and are written, very, very fast.

They often write on coloured construction paper and decorate it with glitter glue and stickers.




Autistics have a high tendency to love everything. They think more often with their heart then with logic. Their decisions are ruled by emotions and a mortal fear of causing harm. They tend to be optimistic and see the good in everyone. They are often seen by others are "tootie fruitie air heads, floating around in rose coloured glasses" and are often described as "tree hugging hippies".



Autistics have an extreme trusting nature and are prone to trusting every one they meet.

Because of this, they are seen as "gullible" or "too stupid to live" and have a higher then normal rate of being the victims of scams, fraud, rape, and identity theft.

More then 90% of all Autistics have a "bully story" or "stalker story" to tell.

Most Autistics can tell you night mare stories of having been targeted, hunted down, stalked, and victimized by someone who has Aspergers.

Autistics frequently cite that Aspies call them "retarded competitions for attention that therefore expendable life forms not worthy to live"

Autistics commonly report being told by Aspies: "You deserve to die" and/or "You deserve to be shot in the head."

There has NEVER been a case of someone with Autism owning, possessing, or using a gun.

Nearly all reports of an Autistic child being beaten, bullied, or murdered in a school environment, they were beaten, bullied, or murdered by some one with Aspergers.

Autistics commonly report being targeted by Aspies for repeat violence and harassment, often receiving crippling injuries, and claim that the Aspies said they did it because: "You're not really Autistic like me. I know. I'm self-diagnosed. You're not. You're not smart like me. You're just a retard pretending to Autistic. I know better then your doctor. I'm smarter then him. I'm smarter then you. I'm smarter then everyone. You're not special. I am. I'm special. Not you. I have Autism not you."


There are no cases of self-diagnosed Autism.

Autism is NOT a medical term and a doctor will NEVER diagnose your child as "having Autism".

The ACTUAL diagnosis, and the one your doctor will say is: "Your child has Kanner's Syndrome, more commonly known as Autism."

TRUE Autism aka Kanner's Syndrome, remains one of the rarest and least common diagnoses.

Only 1 in every 10,000 has ACTUAL Autism.

73% of ACTUAL Autistics will never learn to talk, never learn to walk, be wheelchair bond their entire lives, and will be fed by tubes due to an inability to know how to open and shut their mouths or swallow food.

Other names for Kanner's Syndrome are:

Actual Autism

Classic Autism

True Autism

Real Autism


Autistics do not notice things like skin colour or religion and are unaware of the fact that white people should hate black people, Christians should hate Muslims, straights should hate gays, or vice versa.

Due to their inability to comprehend the differences between races, religions, genders, and sexualities, and their inability to grasp the concept of competition,  Autistics have a low tendency towards violence.

Mot only are Autistic people not more likely to commit a violent crime than non-Autistic people, but that the rate of violence among Autistics is lower than in the general population. Autistic people are also far more likely to be the victims of crime than the perpetrators.





Autistcs are more likely then average to identify as gay, lesbian, bi-sexual, pansexual, etc.


However, most Autistics do not know what sex is and will live their entire lives as virgins, never engaging in sexual activities.



When an Autistic becomes frustrated, their first reaction to become very silent, "shut down" (no longer seeing or hearing anything going on around them), and begin stimming and or punding more then usual.




While Autistics pick up on every detail, they think nothing of those details and do not make comparisons between people, or things.

They are more likely then the average person to be seen as "liberal", due to their not making judgement on people based on race, religion, skin colour, gender, or sexuality.

Autistics have difficulty understanding the concept of people being different. They can not see a reason white white skin is better then black skin, rich are better then poor, straights are better the LGBTQA+, etc. They see people as people and do not see the need for people to compete against other people.


Autistics often go years without saying a word.

It is not unusual for an Autistic to reach adulthood and be presumed mute and only say their first word in their late 20s or early 30s.

About half of individuals with autism do not develop enough natural speech to meet their daily communication needs.


Autistics have a high rate of never becoming valuable citizens within society because they are too busy happily painting rainbows on pebbles, dressing up in pink ruffles, and dancing with fairies to notice the world around them.




Autistics tend to be very stupid, knowing only a few basic things. They have abnormally, extreme high IQs of 200+ in 1 or 2 areas, but such low IQs of -75 in every thing else that they are rarely able to apply usefulness to the 1 or 2 things they excel at.

73% of Autistics are classified as clinically mentally retarded having an IQ of 30 to 50.

High Functioning Autism is very rare, only 1 in every 7 Autistics have it. An Autistic is considered High Functioning if their IQ is 75 or higher AND they are able to communicate in full sentences instead of 1 word answers (Okay, Yes, No, etc) and short phrases (I don't know, I like that, I don't like that, etc)



Only 1 in every 1,000 Autistics will ever be able to attend elementary and grade school.

Even fewer will ever attend highschool.

Most will never graduate or go on to college.



Autistics form close bonds with a few people, such as caregivers or siblings.


What few Autistics there are who reach adulthood and are able to do enough things on their own without the help of a 24 hour caretaker, are most likely to seek out jobs involving the arts: painting, drawing, writing novels, acting in theater, writing poetry, embroidery, beadworking, quilting, doll making, fashion design, cooking, landscaping, and crochet being the most common jobs sought out by Autistics. However fewer then 10% of all Autistics will be able to verbally communicate with others enough to function in normal society.


Autistics enjoy creating things.



Another name for an Autistic is "idiot savant".


Autism is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children


Asperger's

Asperger's children are very quiet, but they are verbal. Rarely mute. They frequently have out bursts of screaming. They OFTEN suddenly burst out into endless chatter about a beloved topic.  While Asperger's children can talk, most REFUSE TO DO SO because they don't see the point.


Asperger's children nearly always have a high IQ and they love to tell any one and everyone willing to listen (or not) how great and wonderful they are because high IQs make them, great, and wonderful, and amazing.



Asperger's children rock back and forth and stare at the wall for hours because they believe their IQ is so far above the IQ of every one else in the room, that there is therefore no one in the room worth talking to and thus they have fascinating dialogues with themselves as no one but themself has an IQ worth interacting with.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies absolutely refuse to degrade themselves by speaking to people with IQs lower then their own.


Asperger's children may choose to wear diapers into adulthood because it takes too much time away from their expanding their high IQ to get up to go to the bathroom, but they have no need for someone to help them change said diapers. They also need no help learning to coordinated getting a spoon to their mouth instead of their ear, and if they have trouble crossing the street it's because they forgot to stop reading their book before stepping into the road, not because they couldn't tell the difference between a car and a tree.



Asperger's need privacy but crave social interaction. They love touching everyone and everything. As smart as they are, they have no ability to grasp the concept of privacy or personal space and will get as close to you as possible when they talk to you.


Most self-diagnosed Aspies walk around with the "I'm special" chip on their shoulder. They constantly use terms such as: “I’m special,” “I’m one-of a kind,” “I’m ahead of my time,” “I’m so unique no one understands me,” and “I’m so smart I’m above everyone else.” Statements such as these reveal common narcissistic tendencies of superiority, grandiosity, and entitlement. 

Considering 1 in every 3 children has Aspergers, they are not as different, special, unique, or as misunderstood as they believe, but their extreme self importance refuses to allow them to see that.

EXCEPT: only 1 in every 400 children have an ACTUAL Asperger's diagnosis; the remainder of the 1 in 3 children are self diagnosed.

Tell an Aspie they are special and they reply with: "I know it! I have the best brain on the planet!"


While socially awkward, Aspies feel a desperate need to try to join social actives, will repeatedly and often unsuccessfully try to be part of a group, and become highly frustrated when if in a group, others do not recognized their supreme dominance and superiority to the others, by virtue of their having the highest IQ of anyone in the room.

Though often alone, Aspies do not want to be.

When by themselves, most self-diagnosed Aspies become angry, frustrated, and frequently hit themselves in the head, punch walls, kick doors, break their siblings toys, throw things, and often throw themselves on the ground scream that they are going to hold their breath and kill themselves if someone doesn't play with them.

However when others try to play with them, most self-diagnosed Aspies get great pleasure out of bullying, teasing, picking on, and beating up anyone whose IQ is not deemed high enough to match their superiority.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies  find "pretend play" and "imaginary friends" to be dull and boring, often citing that "those things are for stupid babies with low IQs. We intelligent beings do not do stupid baby stuff like that."


Aspies are quick to say such things as:

I feel uncomfortable when I am alone.

Being alone quickly gets to be too much for me.

I'm always alone and I hate it.

While most self-diagnosed Aspies say:

I'm so sick of people ignoring me, I have to seek revenge on them and show them I'm the best, then they'll wish they had spent time with me. I'll teach them to leave me alone like this. You'll see. I'll show them.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies  are quick to tear "Keep Out" and "No Trespassing" signs off trees, say "that ain't there for me" and trespass in your yard anyways with no regard for your privacy and no clue that they are invading your personal private space.


Aspies are:

Neurotic, curious, tense, moody, worry a lot, feel a deep need to belong to a social group, organized, thorough, and have overly low self esteems.


Aspies(both boys and girls) frequently like to dress in dark clothes, and as teens and young adults are most likely to identify as "emo". They are also prone to pity parties, cutting, and self mutilation.


Black is the most common colour worn by Aspies, even into adulthood.


Most self-diagnosed Female Aspies have a high rate of wearing pants as adults, refusing to wear dresses, often referring to girls who wear dresses as "frumpy" and "stupid".


Female to male transgender is common among Aspies.


Aspies are often described by others as being "loud, obnoxious, and over boisterous, they never stop talking and can't keep their hands to themselves"


Aspies are highly competitive and are constantly on the look out for the smallest most minute details in which they are different from (and therefore superior to)  those around them. They are very nosy, needing to know every move everyone makes, to be able to constantly be "two steps ahead" so that no one is able to "beat them at the game". They turn everything into a competition, for example: quickly eating their meal without chewing, just so they can jump up from the table screaming "I'm done first! I win!" even though no one else was competing against them in eating fastest.

Aspies are highly motivated by the concept of winning, being the best, having the most, receiving awards, prizes, and trophies. They do not care about the game, contest, or activity itself as their motive is simply being better at everything then every one else.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies  often take to cheating and deviant and hurtful methods "to win", especially in things where no one is actually competing against them. (Such as setting fire to a neighbors house, because the neighbors house was bigger then theirs and the only way for them to "win" was to make their neighbors house smaller.)


Aspies must win at all costs. About 1 in every 9 self-diagnosed Aspies  are quick to say that violence, vandalism, and even murder are justified if it means they will win.

Because they lack empathy, about a 3rd of all self-diagnosed Aspies do not see anything wrong with violence, vandalism, or murder and believe that if these things serve their purpose (to win and prove their brain is the best) than they are perfectly  okay things to do.

Self-diagnosed Aspies have the lowest rate of empathy and compassion (of all mental illnesses) for those around them. All life - human, plant, or animal - is expendable.

Parents should be on the look out for self-diagnosed Aspies who kill and dissect their pets (cats, dogs, hamsters, etc) as this is a common problem in about a 3rd of all Aspies children. If your neighbors dog goes missing and is then returned to them dissected, this is often a tell tale sign that their is a self-diagnosed Aspie in the area.


Most Aspies have better than average spelling and grammar skills and are quick to bully any one with poor spelling. They are often described as "grammar Nazis".

Most Aspies are able to do advanced Algebra at a young age (as young as 5 years old) and find things like Trigonometry equations to be relaxing past-times. Aspies are sometimes said to be "human calculators".

Most Aspies can not only list off all the presidents of the United States in order, but can also tell you the names of each first lady, each vice president, and then each governor of each state during the presidency of each president.

Most Aspies write in fine point archival ink pens, often in very neat, carefully aligned, very tiny block letters, which closely mimic typed fonts.

They may re-write the same letter to someone a dozen or more times, if they accidentally make one word a millimeter too high above the line.

They always write on college ruled or graph paper, to ensure the letters are perfectly straight and even. Writing with 1 inch margins on all sides.


Aspies are cold, calculating, and often described as being robotic. They feel emotions are a waste of their time and energy and use cold logic to base all their decisions off of. They tend to be pessimistic and see the bad in everyone. They are often seen by others are "mean, cold-hearted tyrants" or "rigid and unforgiving", or "heartless and uncaring", and are often described as "little Hitlers".


Aspies have an extreme "ego maniac" or "super villain" nature, displayed by a need to do "dastardly daring deeds" simply to prove to everyone that they can and thus show the world they have the biggest, bestest, brain in all the land.

Because of this, one third of all Aspies (the 3rd all being self-diagnosed) are quick to hone in on anyone seen as "gullible" or "too stupid to live" and have a higher then normal rate of being the perpetrators of scams, fraud, rape, and identity theft.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies of this type have a high need to be given constructive things to do in order to prevent them from becoming master mind criminals.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies have a tendency to hunt down, stalk, and victimize Autistics, because they see Autistics as "retarded competitions for attention" and therefore expendable life forms worthy of their deviant , super brainy, methods of torment.

Self-diagnosed Aspies have a higher then normal rate of being in possession of guns, in most cases stolen from a relative.

Nearly ALL school shootings to occur in the United States was committed by a person with self-diagnosed Aspergers.

Nearly all reports of an Autistic child being beaten, bullied, or murdered in a school environment, they were beaten, bullied, or murdered by some one with self-diagnosed Aspergers.

Self-diagnosed Aspies are more (then any other mental illness) likely to target someone with Autism and ignore all other disorders, as they feel Autistics are "fakers" and "not really Autistic like me".


Aspies are very strong willed and dominant and have a need to be in control. Because of their extreme levels of narcissism, their high levels of feeling superior and self important, and their total lack of empathy towards others, self-diagnosed Aspies have a high rate towards violence and criminal activity, especially being violent towards anyone they feel is "different and therefor inferior" to them.



Most self-diagnosed Aspies  have no tolerance level for anything not completely identical to themselves. White Aspies therefore hate with a vengange all non-whites. Christian Aspies are of the believe it is their god given duty to murder every Muslim before the Muslims murder them. Straight Aspies believe the only good gay man is a dead gay man. And so on.

Self-diagnosed Aspies are more likely then the average person, and more likely then any other mental illness, to show animosity towards gay, lesbian, bi-sexual, pansexual, etc. people because they are "different" and all things different = inferior to the Aspie's superior intellect.


When self-diagnosed Aspies  becomes frustrated, their first reaction is usually to grab the person closet to them, hold them down, and punch them in the face over and over again, even if that person was in no way related to the cause of their frustration.


Aspies notice every detail of everything and put high focus on ways people are different from them.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies are more likely then the average person to show intolerance to different races, religions, genders, and sexuality, feeling that their own race, gender, sexuality, and religion are the ONLY CORRECT ones and that all other are evil and should be eliminated.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies  are more likely then the average person to join racially bigoted gangs (such as Nazis or Ku Klux Klan or the Westboro Baptist Church) or be attracted to racism.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies  are more likely to take part in Zionism, White Power, gay-bashing, anti-gay movements, etc.



Asperger's have difficulty going 5 seconds without being the center attention of every single conversation. If they are not the ones talking, they have no use for the conversation, so they make sure to talk as often as possible to make sure no one else gets a chance to get a word in.



Aspies have a high rate of never becoming valuable citizens within society because they are too busy plotting global domination and seeking revenge on all the unintelligent, low IQ, know nothings they are forced to live with.





Aspies tend to be very smart, knowing everything about everything and making sure everyone around them knows it as much as possible.

Most Aspies have an IQ of 130 to 160.

Aspies are considered High Functioning if their IQ is over 145.

While no one questions that they have the brains of Enstien, most people choose to avoid contact with Aspies because of their over obnoxious need to be constantly declaring their superiority over everyone because of their high IQ.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies DO NOT have a high IQ and instead have an average range IQ of 90 to 100, but they are the LOUDEST to proclaim they have a high IQ.


REAL Aspies are usually several grades ahead of their peers in school. A 5 year old may be sent on to 3rd grade. A 12 year old may be graduating high school and filling out college applications. Most Aspies will start college before the age of 16.

Aspies are more likely then the average person to be accepted in places like Harvard, Yale, or MIT.

Most self-diagnosed Aspies are high-school drop outs, often expelled on grounds of extreme violence towards other students or teachers. They rarely go to college. They rarely make it past the 8th grade. They re likely to have repeated multiple grades and be 3 or 4 uears older then others in their class.


Aspies are repulsed by the idea of forming emotional bonds to people in their lives and see it as a sign of weakness and low intelligence to show emotion.


Aspies who do not succumb to depression, self-loathing, a criminal lifestyle of violence against "the inferiors of the world" or go on to become virus building computer hackers,  have a high likelihood of seeking careers in the sciences and technologies. Many will become inventors. Aspies have gone on to start the largest web companies in the world, including Google, FaceBook, and Amazon. Bill Gates and Stephen Hawkings are considered to be two of the most famous currently living Aspies.



Aspies enjoy inventing and building things.


Self-diagnosed Aspies enjoy destroying things, especially if they can make some one cry by doing so.

One of the high lights of their day is killing a siblings favorite pet and ripping heads off dolls.


Another name for an Aspie is "child genius".


Asperger's is very COMMON effecting 1 in 3 children



Do You Know What The Most Frightening Part of This List Is?

That The Asperger's Side Is Listing Things
That
Are NOT Symptoms Of Aspergers,
But Instead Are Things Displayed
By the 80% of Aspies
Who Claim To Be "Self-Diagnosed"

Most people self-diagnosed as Aspies, will also CLAIM that those are the symptoms of Asperger's, and will become incredibly hostile to the point of violence, if you tell them they are wrong and need to go look up actual medical books instead of random crap on the internet.

Consider this:

Hostile behavior is NOT a symptom of Aspergers, in fact, REAL Aspies are extreemly docile... and yet 80% of self-diagnosed Aspies display some of the most violent tempers out there... and that alone is proof they do not have Aspergers.

If you reading this right now, thought you had Asperger's but are feeling anger over reading this... know that a REAL Aspie lacks the part of the brain that triggers anger and any anger you are feeling right now is 100% proof that you DO NOT have Aspergers.

The thing is, I wrote this the way I did, specifically to prove a point.

To prove that ANYONE can write ANYTHING on the internet about Aspergers... but that doesn't make it true.

90% of what you read on Autism mommy blog is pure bull crap.

They bitch and moan "my child has Autism, I know my child has Autism, but the damn doctor refuses to diagnosis with Autism!"

Yeah.. because federal law REQUIRES the child diagnosed with Autism to be removed from it's parents and it's parents arrested due to the nature of the REAL and ACTUALLY CONFIRMED cause of autism, being child rape and sex abuse by a parent.

Look it up... in a medical book. Get the information from a REAL DOCTOR, not these head up their ass bull crap autism mommy bloggers who just want to join the autism fad.

To get diagnoses with a psychosis requires a psychiatrist to diagnose it. Pediatricians can not legally diagnose autism, that's why they WON'T.

Autism is a psychosis... and it's a psychosis that is so horrifically severe, that the law requires THREE (3) psychiatrists to diagnose it... because they have to make sure the diagnoses is correct, due to the legal requirement of arresting the parents for child rape once the diagnosis of autism is confirmed.

Still think you know what autism is?

Still think you have anything even remotely close to it?

That The Asperger's Side Is Listing Things
That
Are NOT Symptoms Of Aspergers,
But Instead Are Things Displayed
By the 80% of Aspies
Who Claim To Be "Self-Diagnosed"

And Are Instead Symptoms of:
Covert Narcissists
and
Megalomaniacs


80% of All People Who "Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!


Go back and read the Aspergers side of that list again.

How many things on it did you agree with while saying:

"Yes! Yes! Yes! That's Me! I'm An Aspie! I do that!"

Still confused?

Want to see something VERY DISTURBING?

When asked who the most famous Aspie was... who do you think they said? Bill Gates? President Obama? Stephen Hawkins? Albery Einstien? Benjamin Franklin? The guys who started Google, FaceBook, or Amazon?

Nope.

They did not pick someone who ACTUALLY had Aspergers and is generally considered the most famous Aspies... instead, they picked someone who does NOT have Aspergers, but in fact, has the same symptoms as the "Aspergers symptoms" they gave in the list above.

Still can't tell the difference between Autism and Aspergers?

How about this then?

The two most famous people to have each:

Let's take the person who REALLY IS the most famous person with Autism (Liberace) and compare him to the man, the self-diagnosed Aspies picked as the "most famous Aspie".... it might shock you who it is they glorified and idolize as being the "ideal Aspie to look up to"...

The World's Most Famous Autistic Person: Liberace:

Liberace was noted for:

  • having a very low IQ
  • as a child was not considered smart enough to attend school
  • speech impediments
  • difficulty talking
  • the ability to play by ear any song on the piano he heard from the age of 3
  • was born disabled but almost no one knew this as he hid his disabilities
  • had bone and joint issues, causing him to frequently fall, resulting in him often falling on stage, then turning it into a comedy skit... most people thought it was an act, few people were aware of his disability
  • multiple serious physical ailments which had him frequently hospitalized every few weeks of his entire life from childhood throughout his adult years
  • his extremely cheerful docile demeanor, 
  • his alarming inability to be made angry (even when his mother was kidnapped and held hostage by a gang of gay-haters)
  • being the first man to wear pink on TV
  • having 300 rhinestone suites
  • having 200 capes
  • having 36 dogs, 2 elephants, and dozens of other pets, all rescues
  • buying dozens of abandoned buildings and rebuilding them into massive apartment housing complexes for the homeless, giving tens of thousands of homeless people places to live and jobs to provide for their families, without any background checks or judgement 
  • giving 100s scholarships out each year to disadvantaged, homeless, minority, and coloured children
  • being America's first billionaire (his income was $32,000 a day in 1952)
  • being the wealthiest man in the world from 1968 to 1987
  • in spite of being a billionaire, his estate had very little money at the time of his death, because in the months before he died it went into hyper donate to every one every where mode, but never telling anyone he did it and it was not discovered until his relatives fought his estate for billions after his death, only to find the money was gone
  • starting more charity groups then any other celebrity to date
  • being the first feather dancer in LasVegas (yes, he invented feather dancing; and yes the first LasVegas show girl was actually a man - this man)
  • inventing synchronized water display systems
  • inventing the art car (he built 64 of them)
  • being the first openly gay celebrity
  • being the first openly bi-sexual/polyamorous  celebrity (he had 5 girlfriends and 1 male lover whom he was rarely seen without)
  • he never married because laws prevented him from marrying all 6 of his lovers
  • was the first person in America to die from AIDS, his death inspired most of the AIDS cure research groups that now exist today

Liberace's kind loving, gentle, childlike nature, his very low IQ, his savant skills in music and cooking, his additions to all things pink and glitter, his speech disorders (see the videos to hear it in the interviews), his love of animals, his obsessive hoarding problem (watch him trying to squeeze through massive mega hoarding piles of his collections in his house in the family and friends interview) and his desire to help everyone he meet, are all ACTUAL SYMPTOMS of both Autism and Aspergers.

Autism =: Oh boy colour! Let's have fun! Every body dance! Flap your arms and be a butterfly. Run with the faeries. Yipppie!














The World's Most Famous Aspie: Adolf Hitler
(according to self-diagnosed Aspies)


  • had speech issues most of his life and trained himself to speak by recording himself talking and playing it back watching for his errors
  • was an animal rights activist
  • was vegan
  • was a landscape painter
  • loved children and often played with the neighbor children
  • loved dogs
  • was violently abused and bullied as a child by a Jewish family
  • as a teen his favorite dog was murdered by a Jewish solider, who walked up to him and shot his dog in the head while he was holding it
  • growing up being a Christian in a Jewish community he was often bullied and teased for his beliefs and told he was evil for being a gentile
  • because he was "strange" he grew up being heavily bullied and told he was worthless, this made him very bitter and vengeful
  • during the Great Depression, he lived in an area where Christians were starving to death and wealthy Jewish bankers were refusing to help them on grounds of their being gentiles
  • he believed that the Jewish businessmen were plotting to take over Europe and had perpetrated the Great Depression
  • spent his nights talking to an "alien" who visited him with instructions (was an alien contactee) he sometimes called him an angel and sometimes called him "Etiole"
  • became obsessed with the fact that an alien invasion was about to happen and we (Humans) had to prepare to help them (the Aryans aka Pleiasians)
  • claimed to have captured several aliens, and claimed to be in possession of two UFO/alien ships, which he claimed he hid in Antarctica
  • on the urging of said aliens, he concluded that anyone without Aryan blood must be eliminated
  • was the originator of the Human-Alien Hybrid conspiracy theory
  • believed anyone without alien/Aryan blood had to be killed
  • set out to help the aliens take over the planet by taking over the planet himself
  • preached a radical theory that whites were superior because they were alien hybrids and therefore "chosen by god"
  • believed god was an alien
  • believed anyone not white had demon blood and were children of Satan
  • starting with Gypsies, moving on to transgender and gay people, followed by Jews, he was about to start killing blacks but commit suicide when he discovered he was about to be captured by the Allied Armies
  • believed the people he was having killed were not  really Humans, but rather were Demons in disguise, thus why they were not white, and therefore were expendable
  • did not see himself as evil or villainous
  • thought of himself as a savior and hero
  • believed he was saving humanity from a demonic invasion
  • believed he was preparing Earth for the arrival of God and his mothership



According to self diagnosed Aspies...

Asperger's =: Bow down and worship my super brain you unintelligent ingrate, I'm better then you, and you know it you worm. I'm the greatest, god said so.

Do you know what it is psychologists say Hitler had?
It wasn't Aspergers...
It was
Narcissistic Personality Disorder
that went untreated so long it advanced into the extremely danger disorder known as
Megalomania


Now, here's something to think about...

The problem with all of the above mentioned descriptions of Asperger's is...

they are the descriptions given by people who self-diagnose as Aspies, and are NOT the actual medical descriptions of Aspergers.

Even Hitler.

Yes... while the current population of self-diagnosed Aspies, love to flaunt Hitler as their poster boy (and idol) for being the most famous Aspie, the fact remains that no psychiatrists lists Hitler as an Aspie. In fact, Psychiatrists point to Hitler as the model for megalomania.

Hmmmm.

Again, can you see the problem of the recent flood of self-diagnosed Aspies running around these days?

Not only do they not know what Aspergers is, they are making up symptoms for Aspergers that are NOT symptoms of Aspergers!

They then make things worse, by saying Aspergers is just another word for Autism, and now instead of just being self diagnosed Aspies, they are also self-diagnosed Autistics as well!

And it gets worse... most of them are also roving hypochondriacs and have long lists of other things they supposedly self diagnosed themselves with. And these change depending on what disease is currently in the news. Lately, in 2017, the "current popular" disease to have is Lyme Disease. Self Diagnosed Aspies have Lyme Disease left and right this year.

One only has to read a few dozen of the hundreds of "self-diagnosed Aspie" blogs to see that trend loud and clear.

This is a problem, because people who have children who are ACTUALLY diagnosed by real live doctors (who knew those existed?) get the diagnosis, are not sure what it is, head to Google to find out, and instead of getting accurate information on Autism and Aspergers, they get "popular blog post" information on Aspergers and Autism, which is nearly always written by one of these "I'm a special snowflake because I self diagnosed as an Aspie" blogs.

Now, I'm not saying ALL self-diagnosed Aspies do not have Aspergers, some do, but the ones that do are not nearly as vocal, bossy, bitchy, self-righteous, or arrogant, as the ones who self-diagnose but don't actually have it. And THAT is the problem.

A REAL Aspie is NOT arrogant.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY arrogant to an extreme.

A REAL Aspie is NOT violent.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY violent to an extreme.

A REAL Aspie is NOT claiming to be special or trying to get attention.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies DEMAND attention, and will beat you to a pulp if you don't agree they are special.

A REAL Aspie does NOT seek out revenge and vengeance, even if you try to kill them.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies are quick to build bombs, buy guns, shoot up schools, burn down houses, and kill pets, for something as simple as you sneezed while walking pass them in the store (yes, that actually happened - it's what is known as Maine's Transgender Murder at Saco Shaw's).

So What Is REAL Autism and
How Is It Connected To Aspergers?


Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?

You might be surprised how little you really know.


Are You Sure You Know What Autism Is?

Did you know?

ACTUAL Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children


Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed


ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose


1 in 64 children are diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, which means they DO NOT have Autism


Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."


Only 1 in every 10,000 people are ACTUALLY Autistic 


Only 1 in every 17,000 people will ever encounter a REAL ACTUALLY Autistic person in their lifetime


1 in every 8 Autistic people will be murdered before the age of 25


1 in every 7 Autistic people will commit suicide because of a bully


1 in every 2 Autistic people will die by the age of 45


40% of self-diagnosed Asperger children between the ages of 12 and 18, admit they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and could not name any symptoms of Aspergers other then: "high IQ, reads comic books, and is socially awkward"


60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children have stated they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"; these people could not list the symptoms of Aspergers and simple stated it meant "being a genius".


More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.


80% of All People Claiming To Be "Autistic Aspies" do not have either Aspergers or Autism and are shocked when they learn that Aspergers is NOT a "type" of Autism.


The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television"


Aspergers is an Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

Asperger's is NOT a "type" of Autism.


There are more the 60 ASDs including Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, Schizophrenia, Threadworm Infestation, and having had a Stroke.


Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."


73% of all ACTUALLY Autistic people, will never speak, will never learn to wipe their bum, will eat through a tube never learning how to chew, and will wear neck braces and be wheelchair bound from never learning to hold up their head or walk.


The 27% of Autistic people who can talk and walk and chew their own food, will rarely learn to speak in full sentences, will forever "act like a 4 year old" even into their senior years.


There are no known cases of anyone with ACTUAL  Autism ever becoming fully independent or living on their own. REAL Autistics require caretakers and adult supervision their entire lives.


More then 90% of all Autistic people have a low IQ of under 75. Most are considered "mentally retarded" with IQs below 60.


Fewer then 10% of all Autistics are High Functioning.

High Functioning Autism, means:

"Has an IQ of 75 or more and can speak in phrases longer then 2 or 3 words, being able to communicate verbally in full sentences."


Your child can NOT be diagnosed with Autism, because there is no medical condition called "Autism".

Autism is a slang laymen's term for Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare birth defect caused by genetic mutation.


When a doctor says "Your child may be autistic", they DO NOT mean they are diagnoses your child with Autism.

They mean you child is displaying symptoms of Autism and likely has one of the 60+ ASDs.


If your child has one of the ASDs, this means your child DOES NOT have Autism, but has a disease with similar symptoms to Autism.


Many symptoms of ASDs go away over time, either on their own or with changes to medication, diet, and lifestyle.


ACTUAL Autism is a type of mental retardation, and is a severely crippling lifelong condition. It's symptoms do not lesson or go away with time.


If your child is diagnosed with REAL, ACTUAL Autism aka as an Idiot Savant, your doctor will say: "Your child has Kanner's Syndrome", they will NOT say "Your child has Autism"


Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:

  • a profound lack of affect or emotional contact with others
  • an intense wish for sameness in routines
  • muteness or abnormality of speech
  • fascination with manipulating objects
  • high levels of visuo-spatial skills, but major learning difficulties in other areas
  • attractive, alert and intelligent appearance (meaning does not physically look retarded even though they are)
  • mental retardation

Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):

The symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away over time.

Autism is always easily recognized.

Autism is considered rare and uncommon.

Was identified in 1932.

The first known case of Autism was Victor de l'Aveyron, a feral child discovered living in the forest, had grown up without any form of human contact, and never spoke in 1801 by French physician Jean Marc Gaspard Itard.

Prior to the 1970s it was assumed that ALL Autistic children were "feral children" whom had been serverly neglected and or abused and had on some levels raised themselves without the normal guidance of a parent.

Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 are reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism to any child that can not also be considered "a Feral Child", thus why ACTUAL Autism diagnosis are so rare.

I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.

I was also classified as having suffered the following:

  • Supervisory neglect: characterized by the absence of a parent or guardian. (My mother attended 15 different churches of as many denominations, she spent up to 15 hours a day, up to 5 days a week, in church buildings - I was either left in the care of my sexually abusive uncles/her brothers, or left to hide in the Ross Forest, thus how I came to spend most of my days with the local hermit known as Etiole.)
  • Physical neglect: characterized by the failure to provide the basic physical necessities, such as a safe and clean home; (I often went days between meals, was not allowed to eat at the table, often had to fight 8 large dogs for my food, and was frequently kept locked in a room that had ledge "floor", 1 inch wide spaces between roof boards allowing rain and snow to come in, had boards nailed over the windows, had more then a dozen padlocks on the door, and boards full if 8" long nails was left on the floor [see photos of the room here] Being locked in this room was often a form of punishment for such "crimes" as saying "I'm hungry, can I have something to eat.")
  • Medical neglect: characterized by the lack of providing medical care; (I was taken to a pediatric from birth to age 8; between 8 and 31 I was allowed to go to the emergency room 8 times; during those years I suffered 7 miscarriage, multiple injuries, and many serious infections, none of which I was allowed to go to the hospital for. Because of the state of the room I was kept looked in [see photos here] I new suffer from "stacibotrin poisoning" and have crippling life-long respiratory and sinus problems)
  • Emotional neglect: characterized by a lack of nurturance, encouragement and support; (Asking for a hug was punishable by being beaten with one of the boards full of nails; not being able to recite the books of the Bible and Book of Mormon fast enough could result in not food for a week; forgetting to say my hourly prayers, could result in being sold to one of the Saco ward LDS church high priests as his sex slave for the day.)
  • Educational neglect: characterized by the caregivers lack to provide an education and additional resources to actively participate in the school system; (My mother removed me from school at the age of 8 on grounds of "The government controls the school, Satan controls the government, no child off mine will be taken by Satan.")
  • Abandonment: when the parent or guardian leaves a child alone for a long period of time without a babysitter. (I was frequently -3 to 5 days a week -left looked in the car during hot summer evenings for upto 12 hours to a time, while my mother did karaoke in bars with her sister Barbie Jean)



TRUE Autism is caused by being born with a genetic mutation which triggers compulsive overcompensation techniques as a way to deal with extreme, abnormal, and excessive early age child abuse. The most common trigger is toddler rape by adults, sexual abuse, and child sex slavery.


Child sexual abuse (CSA) is a form of child abuse in which an adult or older adolescent abuses a child for sexual stimulation.

Sexual abuse refers to the participation of a child in a sexual act aimed toward the physical gratification or the financial profit of the person committing the act.

Forms of CSA include asking or pressuring a child to engage in sexual activities (regardless of the outcome), indecent exposure of the genitals to a child, displaying pornography to a child, actual sexual contact with a child, physical contact with the child's genitals, viewing of the child's genitalia without physical contact, or using a child to produce child pornography. Selling the sexual services of children may be viewed and treated as child abuse rather than simple incarceration.

Persons with ACTUAL Autism often display several of the following side effects of child sexual abuse:

  • guilt and self-blame
  • flashbacks
  • nightmares
  • insomnia
  • fear of things associated with the abuse (including objects, smells, places, doctor's visits, etc.)
  • self-esteem difficulties
  • sexual dysfunction
  • chronic pain 
  • addiction
  • self-injury
  • suicidal ideation
  • somatic complaints
  • depression
  • post-traumatic stress disorder
  •  anxiety
  • other mental illnesses including borderline personality disorder and dissociative identity disorder
  • propensity to re-victimization in adulthood
  • bulimia nervosa

Children who are the victims are also at an increased risk of sexually transmitted infections due to their immature immune systems and a high potential for mucosal tears during forced sexual contact.

In the United States, approximately 15% to 25% of women and 5% to 15% of men were sexually abused when they were children.

  • Most sexual abuse offenders are acquainted with their victims;
  • approximately 30% are relatives of the child, most often brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, uncles or cousins;
  • around 60% are other acquaintances such as friends of the family, babysitters, or neighbours;
  • strangers are the offenders in approximately 10% of child sexual abuse cases.
  • In over one-third of cases, the perpetrator is also a minor.

An increase in children having Autism = an increase in children being raped, molested, and sexually abused by a caregiver before reaching the age of 3.


The uncles who raised me are currently wanted by and on the run from the FBI.


Yes, because of what the ACTUAL causes of ACTUAL Autism are, if your child REALLY DOES have ACTUAL Autism...

you are one hell of a horrible, shitty, no good son of bitch, bastard of a parent and you should be in prison where your neglectful, self-serving, sexually depraved, child abusing ass belongs.

You might want to think about THAT next time you go around bragging "I self diagnosed my child as Autistic."


As many as 60% of all Autistics are catatonic... meaning they were abused so bad that their brain shut down, forcing them into a "waking coma" as a way to not see the abuse any longer.


Asperger’s Syndrome shares with Autism:

  • a severe and sustained impairment in social interaction
  • restricted and repetitive patterns of behaviour and interests.

But people with Asperger’s do not have:

  • the significant delays in language, cognition, self-help skills or adaptive behaviour that are typical in autism

Aspies are:

  • often physically clumsy and awkward, more obviously than children with classic Autism

Asperger’s is often not recognized easily or early, and may be misdiagnosed as:

  • Tourette’s Syndrome
  • Attention Deficit Disorder
  • Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
  • Oppositional Defiance Disorder
  • Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

As with Autism, the disorder is lifelong and symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away with time.

Asperger's is considered prevalent and very common.

Was identified in 1944, but was not recognized by doctors as an actual diagnosis until 1994.


Gifted Introverts are shy people with high IQs (an IQ of 130 or higher). 

While socially awkward, they do not have the speech issues, ritualistic behaviors, or other symptoms of either Autism or Aspergers.

Many gifted, but introverted children are inaccurately diagnosed as having Aspergers when they in fact do not have it.

Gifted Children have a very high IQ of 130 or higher.

On the other hand, ACTUAL Aspies rarely have high IQs.


Most Aspergers people have a low IQ that is only slightly higher then the IQs of Autistics, usually in the range of 75 to 90.

High Functioning Aspergers are uncommon to rare, and most of them having normal/average IQs of between 90 to 120.

Autism equaling a high IQ is an urban myth spread by internet memes and is NOT an actual symptom of either Autism or Aspergers.

Aspies are more likely then not to have a low IQ in the range of 75 to 90.

Autistics rarely have an IQ above 75.


True Autism, ACTUAL Autism, is defined as "a psychosis caused by extreme psychological trauma in early childhood, often of a sexual nature".

Psychological trauma is a type of damage to the mind that occurs as a result of a severely distressing event. Trauma is often the result of an overwhelming amount of stress that exceeds one's ability to cope, or integrate the emotions involved with that experience. A traumatic event involves one's experience, or repeating events of being overwhelmed that can be precipitated in weeks, years, or even decades as the person struggles to cope with the immediate circumstances, eventually leading to serious, long-term negative consequences.

Trauma can be caused by a wide variety of events, but there are a few common aspects. There is frequently a violation of the person's familiar ideas about the world and their human rights, putting the person in a state of extreme confusion and insecurity. This is also seen when institutions that are depended upon for survival, violate, humiliate, betray, or cause major losses or separations.

Psychologically traumatic experiences often involve physical trauma that threatens one's survival and sense of security. Typical causes and dangers of psychological trauma include harassment, embarrassment, abandonment, abusive relationships, rejection, co-dependence, physical assault, sexual abuse, partner battery, employment discrimination, police brutality, judicial corruption and misconduct, bullying, paternalism, domestic violence, indoctrination, being the victim of an alcoholic parent, the threat or the witnessing of violence (particularly in childhood), life-threatening medical conditions, and medication-induced trauma.

Catastrophic natural disasters such as earthquakes and volcanic eruptions, large scale transportation accidents, house or domestic fire, motor vehicle accident, mass interpersonal violence like war, terrorist attacks or other mass tortures like sex trafficking, being taken as a hostage or kidnapped can also cause psychological trauma. Long-term exposure to situations such as extreme poverty or milder forms of abuse, such as verbal abuse, exist independently of physical trauma but still generate psychological trauma.

If your child has REAL, ACTUAL Autism, it means he suffered one of the above listed events prior to the age of 3 years old.


Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 believe that an Autistic person, is a person who was born with Aspergers, but whom suffered such horrendous abuse prior to the age of 3, that, their brain triggered over compensation methods to cope with the extreme abuse they were subjected to.

Because of this, Aspergers and Autism are considered by many to be two different forms of the same disorder, but that Aspergers does not become Autism unless it also has the severe early childhood sexual abuse to trigger it.


Because of the severe nature of the levels of sexual abuse required to trigger the Autism component of Asperger's, when a child is ACTUALLY diagnosed with REAL Autism, they are also immediately put into state custody and removed from their parents/guardian's care, and criminal charges are then filed against the parent/guardian.


If your child was not taken away from you at the time of diagnosis, and you did not have sexual abuse charged filed against you by the state, then your child was NOT diagnosed with ACTUAL Autism.


Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism) is listed as a Psychosis and is therefore a mental illness.

It is considered to be caused by a genetic birth defect, which triggers an imbalance of the synapses, when a person suffering from this birth defect, is subjected to sexual abuse.

Doctors and Pediatrics can not legally diagnose Autism because they can not legally diagnose mental illnesses.

Your child can only receive an ACTUAL Autism diagnoses by a Psychiatrist specially trained in severe cases of early childhood sexual trauma.


In spite of untrained teachers, caregivers, social workers, and parents tossing around the "diagnosis" of Autism... to the rate of calling 1 in every 3 children Autistic...

...Autism remains one of the most difficult diagnoses to get diagnosed with, due to the fact doctors are reluctant to risk being sued for false charges of sexual abuse of the child, should it later be discovered the child had not been sexually abused and therefore does NOT have Autism.

Only 1 in 10,000 children are ever ACTUALLY diagnosed with Autism, by someone ACTUALLY TRAINED in recognizing this level of early childhood sexual abuse trauma.


Because Kanner's Syndrome aka ACTUAL Autism is so rare, fewer then 20% of all doctors are trained in how to recognize, diagnose, or treat it.


If your doctor diagnoses your child with "Autism" - get a new doctor immediately, as they are not trained in Autism well enough to know there is no actual medical diagnoses of "Autism" because there is no disease, illness, or disorder that actually has the medical name "Autism".


Both Aspergers and Autism are considered to be "types" of Schizophrenia.

Contrary to popular urban myths spread by ill informed parents and patients, both Autism and Aspergers are mental illnesses and can only be treated by psychiatrists. Family Practitioners and Pediatricians are not legally licensed to treat or diagnose either Aspergers or Autism. Beware of any one who says otherwise.

Unlike most mental illnesses, Aspergers and Autism are disorders you are born with. You can not "get" them. Once activated, they do not lesson, get better, or go away with time.

Similar to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, both Aspergers and Autism require traumatic stress to "activate" the genes the child was born with. Once activated, they do not turn back off.

Both Aspergers and Autism are also known as "Childhood Onset Schizophrenia".

The difference in the diagnoses, and the severity of the symptoms, is typically a result of the age of onset.

Autism is when the genes are triggered in early childhood before the age of 3. Because of the early onset, Autism is the most physically crippling and disabling type of Schizophrenia. There are no known treatments.

Aspergers is when the genes are triggered in late childhood often around the age of 14. Because of the later onset, many Aspies are able to live independent and functional lives. Diet and lifestyle are considered to help, though this is only speculation.

Schizophrenia is when the genes are triggered in adulthood after the age of 20. Late onset Schizophrenia is often treated with medication, though there is much debate in the medical world as the usefulness of this approach.


Still think you know what Autism is?


I am 1 of the 1 in 10,000 people who has REAL, ACTUAL Autism.

I do not have more then 90% of the symptoms "commonly attributed to Autisim", because most of those symptoms are urban myths made up by fans of Sheldon Cooper and are not real symptoms of REAL Autism.

Find out what it is like to live with REAL Autism here.



And so I say again... if you are an author and you want to write about a character who has Autism... then write a character with Kanner's Syndrome, because that is the real name of Autism. Do your research from actual medical books and actual patients. You may be surprised, how vastly different Autism really is, from the way self-diagnosed Aspies portray it.

And, if you want to write about a character with Asperger's, go to actual medical books and find actual people with actual medical diagnosis to interview. Once you start looking into REAL symptoms of Aspergers and talking to ACTUALLY diagnosed patients of Aspergers, you'll be stunned by how starkly different REAL Aspergers is, from the popular urban myths spread by the ever growing population of Sheldon Copper fans who self-diagnose so they can be "just like Sheldon Cooper".


REMEMBER:

80% of All People Who

"Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!

Know the facts.

Know the truth.

DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING A Self-Diagnosed "Aspie"

Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's

Chances Are VERY HIGH that they

DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.



9 in every 10 people claiming to have Aspergers are self-diagnosed.

It is estimated that 2 of every 3 people claiming to have Asperger's actually has Schizophrenia, Sociopathy, Psychopathy, or Covert Narcissism and has not been accurately diagnosed.

More them 80% of the cases of self-diagnosis of Aspergers, when they finally do get an ACTUAL doctor diagnosis, their REAL diagnosis is almost always "Covert Narcissism" or Megalomania and NOT Aspergers.

Covert Narcissism is a sub-type of Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) in it's advanced stages it is becomes known as Megalomania.

The recent boom of self-diagnoses Aspies flooding America the past decade is the reason why Aspergers went from 1 in every 400 children to 1 in every 3 children.

Only 1 in every 10 people claiming to have Asperger's ACTUALLY have a doctor's diagnosis, and USUALLY, the diagnosis was NOT Aspergers, but rather Schizophrenia and the parents told relatives (and the child) is was Aspergers because Aspergers is a "better" thing to have then Schizophrenia.

Medical professionals still say that 1 on 400 children have Aspergers, even though 1 in 3 children currently proclaim to have it.


Behold, the danger of the self-diagnosis.


80% of All People Who "Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!


DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING

A Self-Diagnoses "Aspie" Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's

Chances Are VERY HIGH that they DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.


Covert Narcissists

exaggerated feelings of self-importance

an excessive need for admiration

a lack of understanding of others' feelings

often spend a lot of time thinking about achieving power or success

take advantage of the people around them

Therapy is often difficult as people with the disorder frequently do not consider themselves to have a problem

In the mind of a narcissist, there is no boundary between self and other

Grandiosity with expectations of superior treatment from others

Fixated on fantasies of power, success, intelligence, attractiveness, etc.

Self-perception of being unique, superior and associated with high-status people and institutions

Needing constant admiration from others

Sense of entitlement to special treatment and to obedience from others

Exploitative of others to achieve personal gain

Unwilling to empathize with others' feelings, wishes, or needs

Intensely envious of others and the belief that others are equally envious of them

Pompous and arrogant demeanor

Defiance of their will is a narcissistic injury that can trigger narcissistic rage

they can be controlling, blaming, self-absorbed, intolerant of others' views, unaware of others' needs, the effects of their behavior on others, and insist that others see them as they wish to be seen

use various strategies to protect the self at the expense of others

tend to devalue, derogate, insult, blame others and they often respond to threatening feedback with anger and hostility

they are prone to feelings of shame, humiliation and worthlessness over minor or even imagined incidents

they may react with outbursts of rage, defiance, or by seeking revenge

Seeks to counteract or cancel out deep feelings of inferiority and lack of self-esteem

offsets deficits by creating illusions of being superior, exceptional, admirable, noteworthy; self-worth results from self-enhancement

Feels privileged and empowered by virtue of special childhood status and pseudo achievements

entitled façade bears little relation to reality

Fearless, guiltless, remorseless, calculating, ruthless, inhumane, callous, brutal, rancorous, aggressive, biting, merciless, vicious, cruel, spiteful

hateful and jealous

anticipates betrayal and seeks punishment

desires revenge

Narcissists see themselves as perfect, using distortion and illusion known as magical thinking. They also use projection to "dump" shame onto others.

is often suicidal, and is homicidal

A narcissist may secure a sense of superiority in the face of another person's ability by using contempt to minimize the other person or their achievements

An obvious self-focus in interpersonal exchanges

Problems in sustaining satisfying relationships

A lack of psychological awareness (see insight in psychology and psychiatry, egosyntonic)

Difficulty with empathy

Problems distinguishing the self from others (see narcissism and boundaries)

Hypersensitivity to any insults or imagined insults (see criticism and narcissists, narcissistic rage and narcissistic injury)

Vulnerability to shame rather than guilt

Haughty body language

Flattery towards people who admire and affirm them (narcissistic supply)

Detesting those who do not admire them (narcissistic abuse)

Using other people without considering the cost of doing so

Pretending to be more important than they actually are

Bragging (subtly but persistently) and exaggerating their achievements

Claiming to be an "expert" at many things

Inability to view the world from the perspective of other people

Denial of remorse and gratitude

Megalomaniacs

Delusion of being superior to others

Delusion of greatness

Delusion of having great social and political power

Lack of empathy for anything

do not recognize that they have boundaries and that others are separate and are not extensions of themselves

is considered an "awkward" or "difficult" person

Others either exist to meet their needs or may as well not exist at all

Delusion of importance

narcissism (narcissism)

hyperactivity, garrulity

concentration on own thoughts

Defiance of their will is a narcissistic injury that can trigger narcissistic rage

frequent change of mood

lack of interest to the opinion of people around

aggression in relation to people around

sleeplessness

will pretend to have other disorders, especially Asperger's in order to gain the sympathy of others

They often take to cheating and deviant and hurtful methods "to win", especially in things where no one is actually competing against them. (Such as setting fire to a neighbors house, because the neighbors house was bigger then theirs and the only way for them to "win" was to make their neighbors house smaller.)

must win at all costs

are quick to say that violence, vandalism, and even murder are justified if it means they will win.

Because they lack empathy, they do not see anything wrong with violence, vandalism, or murder and believe that if these things serve their purpose (to win and prove their brain is the best) than they are perfectly  okay things to do.

 have the lowest rate of ANY MENTAL ILLNESS of empathy and compassion for those around them. All life - human, plant, or animal - is expendable.

Parents should be on the look out for children/adults who kill and dissect their pets (cats, dogs, hamsters, etc).

If your neighbors dog goes missing and is then returned to them dissected, this is often a tell tale sign that their is megalomaniac, often passing as a self-diagnoses Aspie, in the area.

ruthless, open, unashamed egotism

An obvious self-focus in interpersonal exchanges

Problems in sustaining satisfying relationships

A lack of psychological awareness (see insight in psychology and psychiatry, egosyntonic)

Difficulty with empathy

Problems distinguishing the self from others (see narcissism and boundaries)

Hypersensitivity to any insults or imagined insults (see criticism and narcissists, narcissistic rage and narcissistic injury)

Vulnerability to shame rather than guilt

Haughty body language

Flattery towards people who admire and affirm them (narcissistic supply)

Detesting those who do not admire them (narcissistic abuse)

Using other people without considering the cost of doing so

Pretending to be more important than they actually are

Bragging (subtly but persistently) and exaggerating their achievements

Claiming to be an "expert" at many things

Inability to view the world from the perspective of other people

Denial of remorse and gratitude

are physically violent, highly destructive to other people's property

are viscous spousal abusers


IS CONSIDERED HIGHLY DANGEROUS AND HOMICIDAL.

Takes delight in torturing animals, but will quickly progress to babies, children, and eventually adults.


considered to be one of the single most dangerous mental illnesses there is.

nearly ALL people having it will commit murder and more the HALF of them will get away with it.



Next time some one tells you they are a self-diagnosed Aspie, REMEMBER:

80% of All People Who

"Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!


DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING

A Self-Diagnoses "Aspie" Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's

Chances Are VERY HIGH that they DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.


If you are a self-diagnosed Aspie and you feel enraged, bitter, and angry by this revelation, consider this:

Some one who ACTUALLY had Asperger's WOULDN'T be enraged, enbittered, or become angered by this information.

Why?

Because, like someone with Autism, someone with ACTUAL Aspergers, lacks the part of the brain that triggers anger.

Like Autistics, REAL Aspies, are completely and totally docile, non-violent, and it is almost impossible to get either Autistics or Aspies angry.

Know that if you are feeling anger right now after reading this, then you do NOT have Aspergers and your self-diagnosis was wrong.


Now, here's something to think about...

The problem with all of the above mentioned descriptions of Asperger's is...

they are the descriptions given by people who self-diagnose as Aspies, and are NOT the actual medical descriptions of Aspergers.

Even Hitler.

Yes... while the current population of self-diagnosed Aspies, love to flaunt Hitler as their poster boy (and idol) for being the most famous Aspie, the fact remains that no psychiatrists lists Hitler as an Aspie. In fact, Psychiatrists point to Hitler as the model for megalomania.

Hmmmm.

Again, can you see the problem of the recent flood of self-diagnosed Aspies running around these days?

Not only do they not know what Aspergers is, they are making up symptoms for Aspergers that are NOT symptoms of Aspergers!

The self-diagnosed children who have no clue what Aspergers even really is, then make things worse, by saying their "form" of Aspergers is just another word for Autism, and now instead of just being self diagnosed Aspies, they are also self-diagnosed Autistics as well!

A person can be diagnosed with BOTH Autism and Aspergers, they are that different from one another! And yet these children, who know nothing about either are claiming each word is interchangeable for the other!

And it gets worse... most of them are also roving hypochondriacs and have long lists of other things they supposedly self diagnosed themselves with. And these change depending on what disease is currently in the news. Lately, in 2017, the "current popular" disease to have is Lyme Disease. Self Diagnosed Aspies have Lyme Disease let and right this year.

One only has to read a few dozen of the hundreds of "self-diagnosed Aspie" blogs to see that rend loud and clear.

This is a problem, because people who have children who are ACTUALLY diagnosed by real live doctors (who knew those existed?) get the diagnosis, are not sure what it is, head to Google to find out, and instead of getting accurate information on Autism and Aspergers, they get "popular blog post" information on Aspergers and Autism, which is nearly always written by one of these "I'm a special snowflake because I self diagnosed as an Aspie" blogs.

Now, I'm not saying ALL self-diagnosed Aspies do not have Aspergers, some do, but the ones that do are not nearly as vocal, bossy, bitchy, self-righteous, or arrogant, as the ones who self-diagnose but don't actually have it. And THAT is the problem.

A REAL Aspie is NOT arrogant.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY arrogant to an extreme.

A REAL Aspie is NOT violent.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY violent to an extreme.

A REAL Aspie is NOT claiming to be special or trying to get attention.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies DEMAND attention, and will beat you to a pulp if you on't agree they are special.

A REAL Aspie does NOT seek out revenge and vengeance, even if you try to kill them.

80% of self-diagnosed Aspies are quick to build bombs, buy guns, shoot up schools, burn down houses, and kill pets, for something as simple as you sneezed while walking pass them in the store (yes, that actually happened - it's what is known as Maine's Transgender Murder at Saco Shaw's).


And so I say again... if you are an author and you want to write about a character who has Autism... then write a character with Kanner's Syndrome, because that is the real name of Autism. Do your research from actual medical books and actual patients. You may be surprised, how vastly different Autism really is, from the way self-diagnosed Aspies portray it.

And, if you want to write about a character with Asperger's, go to actual medical books and find actual people with actual medical diagnosis to interview. Once you start looking into REAL symptoms of Aspergers and talking to ACTUALLY diagnosed patients of Aspergers, you'll be stunned by how starkly different REAL Aspergers is, from the popular urban myths spread by the ever growing population of Sheldon Copper fans who self-diagnose so they can be "just like Sheldon Cooper".


REMEMBER:

80% of All People Who

"Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!

Know the facts.

Know the truth.

DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING A Self-Diagnosed "Aspie"

Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's

Chances Are VERY HIGH that they

DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.

So what ARE the symptoms of Asperger?

So what ARE the symptoms of Asperger?

Go back to the Autism side of that list.

Autism and Aspergers are 2 very different disorders, affecting different sides of the brain.

The Autism side f the list, are the Actual Autism symptoms.

The differance between Aspergers and Autism, is :

Aspergers doesn't have the speech delay

the average IQ of Aspergers is 100 to 120 instead of the Autistic 75 (no, not mega high)

While Autistics wear bright colours, especially pink, Aspergers wear muted colours especially brown/green/black.

While Autistics are ruled by "right brain creativity", Aspergers are ruled by "left brain sciences"

Autistics are less like to be social then Aspies.


A person can be diagnosed as having BOTH Autism AND Asperger's.


Both Autistics and Aspies:

  • are slow to develop speech

  • would rather talk to adults than kids their own age

  • deficits in social-emotional reciprocity; ranging from abnormal social approach and failure of normal back and forth conversation through reduced sharing of interests, emotions, and affect and response to total lack of initiation of social interaction

  • are perceived by others are "strange", "weird", bizarre", or "insane"

  • many also have co-occurring conditions of mental illness (such as bipolar disorder), behavioral or mood disorder (such as clinical depression or tourette's syndrome), learning disability (such as dyscalcula), or intellectual disability (formerly called mental retardation.)

  • develop strange obsessions with unusual objects

  • most  have aversions to light touch, such as patting the back, stroking hair, or poking, and may reflexively lash out at someone or something making such contact

  • lack the ability to read facial expressions or interpret the emotions of others

  • many also have conditions like executive function disorder, sensory processing disorder (formerly called sensory integration disorder), prosopagnosia (face blindness), dyspraxia, synesthesia, anxiety disorders, and learning disabilities

  • are easily frightened, suffer high anxiety, and are prone to panic attacks

  • are frequently also diagnosed with OCD or OCPD

  • are often misdiagnosed or given simultaneous diagnoses with various conditions like attention deficit disorder (add), attention deficit disorder with hyperactivity (adhd), post-traumatic stress disorder (ptsd), or intellectual disability

  • frequently wear capes and hats as part of their everyday wear

  • problems with gross and fine motor skills

  • are seen by others as "loners"

  • deficits in nonverbal communicative behaviors used for social interaction; ranging from poorly integrated verbal and nonverbal communication, through abnormalities in eye contact and body language, or deficits in understanding and use of nonverbal communication, to total lack of facial expression or gestures

  • practice various stereotypy, stimming, and punding activies

  • identify as geeks and nerds

  • an easily come across as arrogant, rude, self-centered, or mean, and will rarely be aware of this unless informed directly

  • are good with computers

  • tend to understand language literally and explicitly

  • have a tendacy to play video games more then is considered normal

  • many are also germaphobic and wash their hands dozens of times a day

  • when a routine is altered or disrupted, may have a meltdown, experience severe anxiety, and will have extreme difficulty adapting to the change

  • most also have gastrointestinal problems

  • tend to be very truthful or honest, sometimes even to the point of extreme bluntness

  • many have glucose and/or lactose intolerance

  • deficits in developing and maintaining relationships, appropriate to developmental level (beyond those with caregivers); ranging from difficulties adjusting behavior to suit different social contexts through difficulties in sharing imaginative play and in making friends to an apparent absence of interest in people

  • have a love for all things sci-fi, especially Star Trek and Star Wars and FireFly

  • idioms are difficult to understand

  • most will live their entire lives as virgins, never once engaging in sex

  • rely heavily on routine, sameness, or being able to expect something to be or occur a certain way

  • most find the idea of engaging in sex activities repulsive, but obsessively read/watch hentai (which they see as comedy, rather then erotic)

  • obsess over comic books and super heroes

  • resistance to a change in routine

  • watch a lot of anime

  • read a lot of manga

  • hyposensitivity to pain and touch

  • both have a high rate of never becoming valuable citizens within society: Autistics because they are too busy happily painting rainbows on pebbled and Aspies because they are too busy plotting global domination

  • stereotyped or repetitive speech, motor movements, or use of objects; (such as simple motor stereotypies, echolalia, repetitive use of objects, or idiosyncratic phrases)

  • most will never marry

  • have great difficulties with nonverbal communication such as facial expressions and body language, and have trouble understanding social subtleties and subtext

  • cite attending comic book and gaming conventions while CosPlaying their favorite characters, among their favorite past times

  • play RPGs like Dungeons and Dragons

  • play collectible card games like Magic the Gathering

  • enjoy board games

  • amass huge collections, tens of thousands of items - all identical

  • excessive adherence to routines, ritualized patterns of verbal or nonverbal behavior, or excessive resistance to change; (such as motoric ritual, insistence on same route or food, repetitive questioning or extreme distress at small changes)

  • read every book they can find

  • are prone to enjoy reading (and memorizing) unusual books, such as phone books, dictionaries, or all 100 volumes of a 100 volume encyclopedia set

  • highly restricted, fixated interests that are abnormal in intensity or focus; (such as strong attachment to or preoccupation with unusual objects, excessively circumscribed or perseverative interests)

  • have photographic and/or idenic memories

  • are highly stressed by loud noises, bright lights, and quick movements

  • do not do well in large crowds

  • hyper or hypo reactivity to sensory input or unusual interest in sensory aspects of environment; (such as apparent indifference to pain/heat/cold, adverse response to specific sounds or textures, excessive smelling or touching of objects, fascination with lights or spinning objects)

  • are prone to developing odd phobias (such as fear of death by paper cut infections)

  • are prone to developing agoraphobia

  • poor eye contact

  • too much sensory overstimulation can lead to sensory overload -- a debilitating state in which the affected person is unable to process or respond to any sensory stimuli, including social interaction

  • live by a rigid set of ritualistic activities (such as eating the exact same food at the exact same time of certain days: Mac&cheese on Thursday at 4 and never at 4:05 and never on Friday) 

  • are comforted by tactile activities (playing with kinetic sand, squeezing squishie balls, hugging teddy bears) and will do so for hours to a time

  • most have a very strong sense of justice -- of right and wrong, and of fairness

  • are more likely to commit suicide before reaching the age of 45, then any other neuro disorder 

When comparing Autism to Asperger's Wikipedia has this to say:

High-functioning autism is characterized by features very similar to those of Asperger syndrome. The defining characteristic most widely recognized by psychologists is a significant delay in the development of early speech and language skills, before the age of three years. The diagnostic criteria of Asperger syndrome exclude a general language delay.

Further differences in features between people with high-functioning autism and those with Asperger syndrome, include the following:

  • People with HFA have a lower verbal reasoning ability
  • Better visual/spatial skills (higher performance IQ) than people with Asperger syndrome
  • Less deviating locomotion than people with Asperger syndrome
  • People with HFA more often have problems functioning independently
  • Curiosity and interest for many different things, in contrast to people with Asperger syndrome
  • People with Asperger syndrome are better at empathizing with another
  • The male to female ratio of 4:1 for HFA is much smaller than that of Asperger syndrome

Can you see now the difference between REAL Autism and the rise of the "self diagnosed Aspie"?


Keep in mind that MOST of what you find posted on the internet as "Symptoms of Asperger's" is written by self-diagnosed Aspies, and is VASTLY different from what the ACTUAL, clinical symptoms are.


Remember:

Autism is very rare, only 1 in 10,000 children ACTUALLY have it.

Aspergers is fairly uncommon, only 1 in 400 children ACTUALLY have it.

Yet 1 in ever 3 children is self diagnosed (by themselves or a parent) as being an "Aspie".

Autism Spectrum Disorder in far more common with 1 in 64 children having it. (This means, 1 in every 64 children, have one of the illnesses o the list below)

There are more then 60 illnesses, which are commonly miss-self-diagnosed as Aspergers:

Can You List all Of The Autism Spectrum Disorders?

Most People Can Only List 5 of Them

There Are More Then 60 Disorders "On The Autism Spectrum" Including Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, Schizophrenia, Threadworm Infestation, and having had a Stroke.

Did you know that?

Autism Is A Rare Illness

Only 1 in 10,000 ACTUALY Have Autism

Yet 1 in 3 People Self Diagnose Themselves As "Aspergers Type of Autism"

Only Problem Is Aspergers Is Not A Type Of Autism

Aspergers Is One Of More Then 60 Illnesses Known As "The Autism Spectrum Disorders"

An ASD Is An Illness That Is NOT Autism, But Displays Autistic-Like Symptoms

80% of All People Claiming To Be "Autistic Aspies" Actually Have One of The Illnesses on This List Instead:

Autism Spectrum Disorders
(Illnesses commonly misdiagnosed as Autism & which 80% of self diagnosed Aspies ACTUALLY have)

  • Abnormal Fear Structure
  • Alzheimer Disease
  • Angelman Syndrome
  • Anxiety disorders
  • Aphasia
  • Asperger syndrome
  • Attention Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder, or AD/HD
  • Auditory Processing Disorder
  • Avoidant Personality Disorder
  • Bipolar disorder
  • Bi-Polar Affective Disorder
  • Candida Albicans.
  • Carnitine Deficiency
  • Celiac's Disease
  • Childhood Disintegrative Disorder
  • Chromosome 15 inverted duplication
  • Chromosome 17 trisomy mosaicism
  • Chromosome 18, Monosomy 18p
  • Chromosome 18p minus syndrome
  • Chromosome 19 ring syndrome
  • Chromosome 1q21.1 Deletion Syndrome
  • Chromosome 2, monosomy 2q37
  • Chromosome 20, deletion 20p
  • Chromosome 20p deletion syndrome
  • Cocaine use during pregnancy
  • Cocktail Party Speech Syndrome
  • Concentration Disorder
  • Congenital Rubella Syndrome
  • Cornelia de Lange Syndrome
  • DAS "Developmental Apraxia of Speech"
  • Deafness
  • Defiant Disorder
  • Del(1) (pter-p35)
  • Deletion 20p
  • Developmental Verbal Dyspraxia (apraxia)
  • Down’s Syndrome
  • Epilepsy
  • Fetal Alcohol Effect
  • Fragile X Syndrome
  • Galactosemia
  • Heckenlively syndrome
  • Heller's Disease
  • Hyperlexia
  • Hypomelanosis of Ito
  • Intellectual Disability
  • Intermittent Explosive Disorder
  • Irlen Syndrome/Scotopic Sensitivity Syndrome (SSS)
  • Klinefelter Syndromes
  • Lactic Acidosis
  • Landau-Kleffner Syndrome
  • Lead poisoning 
  • Lesch-Nyhan Syndrome
  • Manic Depression
  • Mental retardation
  • Mesenteric adenitis
  • Microdeletion 3q29
  • Migraine
  • Mild traumatic brain injury (MTBI)
  • Monosomy 20p
  • Mucopolysaccharidoses (MPS)
  • Narcissistic Personality Disorder
  • Neurofibromatosis
  • Nonverbal learning disorder
  • Normal Pressure Hydrocephalus (NPH)
  • Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD)
  • Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder (OCPD)
  • PDD-NOS "Pervasive Development Disorder/Not Otherwise Specified"
  • Phenylketonuria
  • Porphyria 
  • Post-concussive brain injury
  • Prosopagnosia
  • PTEN Hamartoma Tumor Syndrome
  • Reactive Attachment Disorder
  • Receptive Developmental Dysphasia
  • Rett Syndrome
  • Schizo Effective Personality Disorder
  • Schizoid Personality Disorder
  • Schizotypal Personality Disorder
  • Schizophrenia
  • Selective mutism
  • Semantic Pragmatic Disorder or SPD
  • Sensory processing disorder
  • Sleep Disorder
  • Smith-Magenis Syndrome
  • Social anxiety disorder
  • Spacial Planning Disorder
  • Static Encephalopathy
  • Stereotypic movement disorder
  • Stroke -- Undiagnosed
  • Tardive Dyskinesia
  • Threadworm infestation
  • Tourette’s Syndrome
  • Tuberous Sclerosis
  • Turner's syndrome
  • Unspecified Neurodevelopmental Disorder
  • WAGR Syndrome
  • William’s Syndrome
  • Wilms tumor
  • Wilsons Disease

Some of the illnesses on that list are extremely life threatening if left untreated.

It is not unusual for Autism (Kanner's Syndrome aka Actual Autism) to be confused with the items on that list due to their having overlapping symptoms. Meaning children get diagnosed with Autism... INSTEAD of the illness they ACTUALLY have, often self-diagnosed by a parent, who is not trained to tell the difference between Autism and those 50+ other illnesses.

Keeping in mind that:

  • The Autism Boom, is only a "boom" due to the increased rate of self-diagnosis, 80% of which are made incorrectly.

  • Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children
  • Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed
  • ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose
  • 1 in every 68 children have Autism Spectrum Disorder
  • 80% of children with self-diagnosed Aspergers have misdiagnosed themselves or been misdiagnosed by parents in denial
  • 30% of all parents of children diagnosed with Schizophrenia, will attempt to hide the doctor's actual diagnosis, by telling their family, friends, and the child himself, that the child has Asperger's because Asperger's is more socially acceptable then Schizophrenia
  • 80% of ADULTS with self-diagnosed Aspergers have misdiagnosed themselves and instead have Narcissistic Personality Disorder
  • More then 40% of teens with self-diagnosed Aspergers, admit to only diagnosing themselves as Aspies in order to be more like their hero Sheldon Cooper, and could not list what the actual symptoms of Asperger's were.

Most parents who self-diagnose their child, do so with out ever looking at ANY alternative. Many of these mothers are later diagnosed with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.

More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.


The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television", with 40% of children between the ages of 12 and 18, admitting they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and 60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children stating they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"... The horrible reality is Autism always has been and still is very rare, with only 1 in 10,000 children actually having it (also the correct medical name for Autism is Kanner's Syndromn and if you child has REAL Autism, the doctor NEVER says "your child has Autism" but rather says "your child has Kanner's Syndrom").

In spite of the fact that Autism (Kanners Syndrome) is a very rare BIRTH DEFECT caused by mutated genes, and effects only 1 in every 10,000 people, as many as 1 in 3 people currently claim to have Autism.

These facts make me feel sad for all the REAL Autistics and their parents, because the fact remains there are a lot of fakers out there and they don't realize how hard they make it for those of us with real Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare, and very crippling birth defect that is in no way, shape or form, related to Aspergers or Autism Spectrum Disorder.




Now, you may be wondering, is there are reason why this issue hit my nerves so much?

Yes.

Yes there is.

A bomb blew up my house. 

My cats were kidnapped, dissected, and their heads nailed to my door.

...

Let's look at that...

I get very annoyed by writers who use mental illness as a plot devise, especially when it becomes clear that they know nothing of the illness they are writing about

I get very annoyed by writers who use mental illness as a plot devise, especially when it becomes clear that they know nothing of the illness they are writing about, have clearly never lived with it, have no clues the every day challenges a person faces by living with it, and obviously did little to no research into it, basing everything the character does off something they saw in a movie and assumed the movie must have got it right.


In case you are wondering, this is me:

That picture is from PortCon 2017.

A friend was there and he saw me... came over and said:

"I thought you were gonna be in costume, what you doing wearing your every day clothes?"

Yes. I do dress like this every day.

Here, these are also me, NOT at PortCon, just doing my every day things around town...

I am OtherKin. ElvenKin to be specific. Since February 4, 1987, I have lived every day of my life as a male transvestite Elf. 

Why?

Because I have Autism and OCD and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Schizo-Effective Personality Disorder, and this is who I am... all day, every day, for decades.

My mental illnesses don't go away, for the connivance of plot points in my life. They do not show up only when I need them, to use to advance the story of my life. They are there 24 hours a day. 7 days a week. 12 months a year. Every years, since the day I was born.

Why do authors think, they can have characters act normal until all a sudden a plot changes and requires them to "act crazy" and so suddenly they are acting crazy, then plot device is over and they act normal again? Mental illness ain't like that, you can't turn it on and off whenever the plot needs it.

I am a female who lives as male who lives as a female. It confuses people quite a lot, but it is what it is.

I do not claim to be normal. I do not try to be normal. I am what I am. And because of what I am, I am faced with daily bullying, teasing, and bigotry.

October 18, 2006 a bomb blew up my house, and a Ku Klux Klan cross left behind in the rubble, because I am perceived to be a transgender person in "a family friendly town".

May 10, 2010, members of the Saco Ward LDS Church, arrived in my yard and cut my car in half.

One night, November 14, 2013, while loading my art supplies into my car, after a day of painting the ocean, someone snuck up behind me, smashing my back, with what I do not know... a 4 door white truck, drove away... but they left me left me paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk. I'm crippled for the rest of my life, because I am transgender in Old Orchard Beach, and therefor do not deserve to live.

April 10, 2015, my motorhome, also known as "The Transgender Awareness Tour Bus" was broken into, filled with thousands of gallons of raw sewage, the furniture smashed, my clothes ripped up, and my cats kidnapped.

May 15, 2015, my cats were returned dissected, their cut off and nailed to my door.

January 7, 2016 - the 4 door white truck, was used as a weapon to try to kill me, yet again. Slamming into my car, while screaming out the window "Kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaw's all transsexuals are alike", doing more 75MPH on a 25MPH road.

June 10, 2016, the 4 door white truck, repeated this.

June 26, 2016 - while loading groceries into my car at WalMart, a woman came up behind me, took a shopping cat, and began beating me with it, while screaming "Kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaw's all transsexuals are alike". She ruptured 3 discs in my spine. She and a red haired woman who called herself "Kendra Silvermander" jumped into a gold Volvo suv and drove away. I was paralyzed once again.

January 4, 2016, the town of Old Orchard Beach passed and ordinance making it illegal to be transgender, gay, black, or Muslin, and forced 140 families out of their homes - not rentals, not apartments, but home owners, who owed no mortgages or taxes. More then 500 pets were confiscated by the Old Orchard Beach police department, most of them later returned to their owners chopped up returned one head at a time, because it was now illegal for LGBTQA+ citizens to own pets, because only "family friendly" families can own pets in Old Orchard Beach... the land of each of these families began to be auctioned off, to one motel owner... the same motel owner, who drove a back hoe over my house, August 8, 2013....the same motel owner who drive the 4-door white pick-up truck and who's wife drives a gold Volvo SUV.

July 2016 the FBI arrived in Old Orchard Beach.

October 18, 2016 the civil rights violating "Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach" ordinance was overruled by Superior Court.The LGBTQA+ citizens of Old Orchard Beach were homeless for 9 months. 

The 4-door white truck, sits at the end of my driveway, every night at sunset... reeving his engine, squealing his wheels, and screaming gay hating obscenities out his window.

This picture was taken June 15, 2017:

The 4 door white truck continues to sit at the end of my drive way (146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine) near every night around sunset, reeving it's engine and squealing it's tires, with the driver yelling anti-gay threats and obscenities out the window. He continues to do the same thing at my dad's apartment building (Biddeford Maine) a few times a week, usually in mid to late afternoon time. He continues to follow me to shopping to various stores in various towns throughout the states.

Phrases he yells from the truck include:

"Kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws all transsexuals are alike"

"I keep a gun under the seat of my truck, I'm gonna use it to shoot you in the head, you transvestite freak"

if cars are going by he yells to them: "that thing is Ken's son, look at how's it's dressed; it's insane, it has autism, we can't allow that thing and it's gay cars in our family friend town of Old Orchard Beach"

He often babbles deranged ramblings about something he calls "the gay-pocalypse", raving lunacy about how "all the gays are gathering" on his doorstep. He raves some crazy nonsense about how Armageddon is coming and the war to end all wars will be "the gays against the Christians" and Christians have to be ready to "kill the gays"

My car is the Autism Awareness Car and had 2.5million marbles glued to it (I have Autisn - savant - Kanner's syndrome) he claims tat my car "is gay" because of what it looks like. My car has been vandalised several dozen times, including to have the tires slashed 7 times in 6 months.

After dark often around 10PM, he stands at the end of the logging road across the street from me and shoots at my motohome (in February 2014 he shot holes in my neighbour's barn while doing this). I have video footage of 3 of his shootings at me here:  https://youtu.be/NUebzJ9sz9U and here: https://youtu.be/C4dZbgG-Smw

This has gone on since August 2013 now, in addition to all the vandalism, hate crimes, pet beheadings, etc that has happened, including the bomb that blew up our house in 2006.

As you know, that whole time I had not been able to get a plate number on the truck. He as just here again, and I just realized why I could not get a plate number... there are no plates on the truck, either on the front or on the back. However, as he was driving away today... I noticed, there is a plate, stuck up in the back window of the truck, where it can barely be seen, deliberately obscured from view behind a silver tool box.

This is the reality of being transgender in Old Orchard Beach.

This is the reality of what bullies do to someone with mental illnesses, they do not understand.

Someone with a mental illness, they do not just live with their illness, but they also live with people's reaction to it as well. This is some thing many writers fail to realize. And it's quite annoying, for those of us, who actually have to live with the illness they are writing about, to read their work and know, they've never lived with our illness, they don't know what it's like.

Everywhere I turn there's a new book misusing yet another mental illness. I hate how characters act normal until all a sudden a plot changes requires them to "act crazy" so suddenly they are acting crazy, then the plot device over and they act normal again.

Mental illness ain't like that, you can't turn it on and off whenever the plot needs it. 

Writers rarely get it right. And would like to see that changed.

People always ask me about my main character, from current series "Quaraun the Insane" asking, what is wrong with him? What mental illness does he have? How did you research it? How do you know what to write?

My answer?

I write what I know.

Quaraun acts like me, talks like me, dresses like me, and the bullies in the books? They do to Quaraun, what real life bullies have done to me.

Quaraun was crippled by bullies and now walks on a cane after months paralyzed and months relearning to walk, because I was crippled by bullies and now walk on a cane after months paralyzed and months relearning to walk.

Quaraun has Autism and OCD and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Schizo-Effective Personality Disorder, because I have Autism and OCD and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Schizo-Effective Personality Disorder.

I write Quaraun as he is, because this is who I am... all day, every day, for decades.

I write what I know.

If you want to know how to write a mental illness, go to the source. Find someone who has the illness you want to write, Interview them. Talk to them. Spend several days living with them. Find out what their every day life is life. Don't write stereotypes - write the truth.

Because people have asked me to write up a "how to" on how to write a "clinically insane character like Quaraun", I have written this page, to tell you how it is, I write him.

Writing an Autistic Character Accurately

Something people rarely consider is that in the 1400s, the disease now called Autism, was at the time called "insanity". For more then 700 centuries, when a person said "he's insane" what they meant was "he has autism".

Autism continued to be used interchangeable with the word "insanity" into the 1950s.

Quaraun lives in the 1400s. When people call him "insane" they are referring the the fact that he has autism, which was not yet called autism. It is historically accurate for characters in the 1400s to classify an autistic person as insane as this was the correct terminology.

Also interestingly, the disease we now call Asperger's, used to be refereed to as "childhood schizophrenia".

Both Insanity (Autism) and Childhood Schizophrenia (Asperger's) were treated with locking the person in cast iron restraints (called Faerie iron) and burning them with hot irons to "drive the Faerie Changling out of them". In more resent history Insanity (Autism) and Childhood Schizophrenia (Asperger's) were treated with the lobotomy.

Another interesting fact is what people call "the autism boom" claiming that there are more children born with autism in recent years. Actually, there are FEWER children born with autism, since the 1970s. Though there is a reason you see autistics and Asperger's people more often in recent years. From the 1600's until the 1980s Autistics and Asperger's were institutionalized in mental institutes, often without their parents consent or permission. In 1987 laws were passed making it illegal for mental institutes to take Autistic and Asperger children away from their families, and thus throughout the 1990s onward you see a "boom" of autistic and asperger children in public, simply because they are no longer locked away from public eye.

In any case, Quaraun is called by other people "Quaraun the Insane" because he has Autism, and in the 1400s the terms "autism", "autistic", or "special needs" did not exist, and it was a medical and historically correct diagnose for an autistic person to be diagnoses as "insane" if they had autism.

What is Autism?

Autism is NOT Self-Diagnosed Aspergers
Self-Diagnosed Aspergers is NOT Autism
Know The Difference:

Unfortunately, because I have Autism and write an Autistic main character, I have met hundreds of people with Asperger's who are quick to trespass into my yard, vandalize everything they touch (doing so in the name of: "I'm a fan, it's okay for me to pull up your rose bushes and steal them. I have Autism just like you and I need a souvenir.")

I am just so sick and tired of loud, noisy, motor-mouthed, obnoxious, home invading, trespassing "I have autism too, YAAAAAAY!" Aspies barging their way into my yard.

I'm sorry, but, you're forming full sentaces clarly and you expect me to believe you have Autism?

You're trespassing on my land, with no respect for my pricay, invading my personal space and you expect me to believe you have Autism?

I'm sorry, but do you even know what Autism is?"

And ask them that, you know what they say:

"Of course I know what autism is. I have it. I self diagnosed myself. I have a high IQ. I can do that. I know more then doctors. I'm smarter. I have the Asperger type of Autism."

There is no such thing as "the Asperers type of Autism"

There is Aspergers and there is Autism. They are two completely different disorders. Two separate diagnoses. And a person can be diagnosed with BOTH. They are that different from each other, that you can have both of them.

And newsflash: a self-diagnosis is not a diagnosis.

More them 80% of the cases of self-diagnosis of Aspergers, when they finally do get an ACTUAL doctor diagnosis, their REAL diagnosis is almost always "Covert Narcissism" and NOT Aspergers.

Being constantly bombarded by Aspies pretending to be Autistics, trespassing on my land, Is annoying, frustrating, nerve wracking, and, newsflash:

I have Autism NOT Aspergers, so, no, you are nothing like me, in fact, if you were like me, you'd know how incredibly rude and annoying you were being and you'd also have respect for other people's privacy and be horrified by the idea of invading someone's personal space or vandalizing their private property.

Because I owned the Autism Awareness Car and attend Autism Awareness Events with it, I als see large numbers of both Autistics and Aspies at once, frequently. I'm constantly faces with thousands of dollars in damages done to my car at every single event, as Aspies, screaming "I have Autism! I'm like you!" rip marbles, beads, and teddy bears off the car.

And you can not to a thing to stop them, as once they are in a large group, they can only do what they see others doing and all do it together because "We have high IQs it's okay. We're in a group it's okay! see? The rest of the group is doing it. We have to do it with them, because we have autism and we do things together. We have to, we have autism."

Try to get their parents to stop them from vandalizing your car and you are greeted with: "Oh, no, it's okay. They have autism. We can't interfere. We have to let them do what they want. They get violent if we try to stop them."

In both cases, all I can do is wonder: Where are their parents? Why are their caretakers letting these inconsiderate hoodlums get away with these levels of stalking, trespassing, vandalism, and destruction of property?

And yet, REAL Autistics, ACTUAL Autistics, the the ones who have Autism not Asperger, never do those things. Never once has someone with Autism trespassed in my yard. Thousands of Aspies have. Never once has someone with Autism stalked me - at least 1 (the Kboards Hacker) Aspie stalked me for 10 years including to hack most of my online accounts, before eventually getting caught an going to prison. His reason in court for the viscous, violent criminal activities he did: "It's okay, I have Autism, my IQ is 138, I had to do it to prove I could." The other stalker who helped him, Kendra Silvermander, the one who blew up my house with a bomb, cut my cats heads off and nailed them to my door, and filled my motorhome with 1,000s of gallons of feces, and is as yet currently unidentified and still on the lose, she is suspect by the FBI who is trying the find her, of also having Aspergers.

The worst ones of all are the Stephen King fans, Because I own the world's most haunted car, which Stephen King based Christine off of and because we are the Gypsies whose farm Thinner was filmed on, every summer my family is subjected to Stephen King fans, all proclaiming they have Autism, and since 1984, arriving in my yard in mass hoard of tens of thousands of screaming fangirls, do do monstrous levels of vandalism to my car and yard, all in the name of their love for Stephen King, and when asked to stop, they always say: "It's okay, I have Autism"... No, no you do not. I have Autism, and I know for a fact, no one with Autism does these things - they can't, but people with Aspergers do.







No, Your High IQ Is NOT An Excuse To Build Bombs
Just To Prove You Are Smarter Then Every One Else!

There's a hell of a big difference between Autism and Self-Diagnosed Aspergers and when you place a patient of each, side by side, you can see it immediately, the vast differences between the two. 

Someone with Autism would never build a bomb and blow up your house.

Someone with  Self-Diagnosed Aspergers did:



No, Having Aspergers Is NOT An Excuse!
Proving You Are Smart By
Dissecting Someone's Family Members
Makes You a Sociopath
Not An Intelligent Person With A Big Brain

Someone with Autism would never kidnap your cats, cut their heads off, and nail their heads to your door.

Someone with  Self-Diagnosed Aspergers did:




No, Having Aspergers Does NOT Excuse You!
Joining The Ku Klux Klan
Does Not Make You "Part of the Group"
Promoting White Power Does Not Make You Superior!
Harassing People Different From You,
Doesn't Make You Smarter
It Makes You A Criminal!

Someone with Autism would never build a web site glorifying the Ku Klux Klan and calling people to action to kill the "bugger fagots" of Old Orchard Beach.

Someone named "Tom Addams" a self proclaimed "internet marketing guru" with Aspergers did:



Having Aspergers Does NOT Give You
The Right To Be A Bully

Someone with Autism would never cut your car in half.

Someone with  Self-Diagnosed Aspergers did:




Can you see the difference between ACTUAL Autism and self diagnosed Asperger's yet?


Want to know more? The list below are of actual Autism organizations (and a few other related things)... try reading them, before reading the Sheldon Cooper worshiping, self-diagnosis mommy blogs next time. You might actually learn what Autism REALLY is.












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