This week we should be celebrating the 9th birthday of my son.
Instead we are celebrating the 9th anniversary since his murder.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.
On top of that, they have also taken to harassing the baby's father, a disfigured, homeless, WW2 veteran, whom they call "Etoile". They spread hateful rumours about him claiming he is a cryptid, a demon, or most often what they term "an amphibious alien". He lives in pine branch lean-toos he builds in Old Orchard Beach and Ocean Park, and they have been hunting the locations of them, tearing them down, and smashing up his belongings.
April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.
September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (they thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).
June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.
November 21, 2021: They shot "Etiole" in Biddeford, while he was staying at the tent-shanty-village with about 50 other homeless people along the Saco River in Biddeford. They made the claim he was a "suicide demon" citing that he was driving locals to suicide by putting "evil eye curses" on them.
These people murdered my baby, attempted to murder the baby's father, drove a backhoe over our house, and left me crippled for the rest of my life in their attempt to murder me.
I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The police and FBI believe I was not the intended target, and that they were likely after my mother because of posts she makes on FaceBook and got us mixed up. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.
These people who show up to vandalize, while they scream about aliens and demons and Etiole, prove how retarded they are by their own words.
Why?
Because only a retarded person believes in aliens.
Because only a retarded person believes in ufos.
Because only a retarded person believes in demons.
Because only a retarded person believes in ghosts.
Because only a retarded person believes in haunted cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in demon possessed cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in alien abduction.
The inbred insect locals of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine are too damned retarded to know how much of a fool they make themselves look when they run around calling my cars demon possessed, calling my husband an alien, and calling me an alien abductee.
More Info @ eelkat.com
Long detailed info on the over 200 attacks they have done between June 2001 and May 2022, including photos of them driving a backhoe over our house on August 8, 2013 and the details of the malicious "amphibious alien" rumour they have been spreading about a local homeless disabled veteran @
https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html
Images:
July 4th 2013: my car in front of my house.
August 8, 2013: me getting home from work to find a backhoe sitting on top of my house.
The FBI already found the people with the backhoe incident, and learned that the backhoe driver was paid $600 and given a fake demolition paper, the paper stating one of my relatives (the one who paid him the $600) owned my land. The backhoe driver was unaware that the man he was dealing with was not the owner. I have lived at 146 Portland Ave since 1975 and have owned the land since 1983, it has never been owned by anyone else, even though we have now learned that both my mother and my father and 3 of my uncles had been actively going around Old Orchard Beach claiming they owned my land.
This happened 3 months before my son was murdered and the police and FBI believe my son was murdered BECAUSE of this picture being posted on FaceBook, and my mother making inciting/inflammatory posts about it on HER FaceBook, where she falsely accused me of being a witch. The FBI and OOB police believe the golf club wielding woman of November 14, 2013, is somehow connected to the backhoe driving over my house incident.
Since the murder, 3 other different backhoes have invading my land to dig up my yard, looking for the grave of my son. There is a family cemetery on my land, the stones dating mostly in the 1500s and 1600s, with a few from the past hundred years, the most recent being my son in 2013. 146 Portland Ave has belonged to my family since 1530, and I inherited it in 1983 from my grandmother Helen Ricker Allen. The most recent backhoe attack happened September 19, 2020, when they illegally cut down several trees in my yard, and started construction of a road through my yard between my pink 1975 Dodge Sportsman motorhome and BackElder Brooke, again the backhoe digging up and destroying large portions of my farm, in their search for my murdered son's grave. They dug up 16 of the graves in this attack.
We have had to remove the grave markers from the family grave in order to stop these vandals and their illegally trespassing construction equipment from destroying the graves.
The FBI believes these construction crews are being hired by the golf club wielding women, and believe she is trying to destroy the grave of my son, due to a fear of his golf club smashed skull being used as court evidence against her.
The most recent attacks by these people occurred November 21, 2021 and March 27, 2022 when they attacked my painted Volvo while it was parked at my dad's apartment in Biddeford, both times the vandals also cut all the wires to electricity, internet, and cable off the apartment building, effecting all 9 families living there.
The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police Departments as well as the Portland FBI are seeking any information regarding any and all of these attacks on my family, my home, my land, or my cars.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
And no... to those who asked... the FBI is not looking for info on the 4-door white truck driver... the FBI has ALREADY ARRESTED the driver and owner of the 4-door white truck - 2 different people. The 4-door white truck was owned by Old Orchard Beach Town Hall clerk and Old Orchard Beach Police Department Dispather Kathy Smith, Relief Society President of the Saco Ward of the Agusta Stake Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Her son was the driver. They were both arrested and sentenced in 2017, and were also both excommunicated from the Mormon church as a result of their MANY hate crimes, which included but were not limited to the 4 door white truck attacks of 2013 to 2016.
Yes. A LOT of arrests have already been made. Do keep in mind the April 10, 2015 attack involved 74 people who were wearing Ku Klux Klan style white robes and pillow cases over their heads (which is how you can tell they were not real, actual Ku Klux Klan members as the REAL Ku Klux Klan wear miters on their heads, NOT pillow cases). There are in total MORE THEN 74 people actively being hunted down by twenty-one different Maine police departments, the Maine state police, the Florida State police, the Connecticut State police, and the FBI.
Since the backhoe attack of August 8, 2013, there have been a whooping 24 arrests JUST IN TWO CHURCHES:
The Saco Ward of the Augusta Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
and
The Sanford Ward of the Exeter Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints.
There have been additional arrests at the following three churches which all have the same owner:
Grace Point in Biddeford
New Life (aka That Church in front of WalMart) in Biddeford
and
Curtis Lake Church in Sanford
Due to the alarmingly high rate of arrests and prison sentences made at these 5 churches, the police and FBI have focused the bulk of their investigation on all members of these five congregations, with the bulk of the investigation being on the two Mormon churches and all friends, family, and relatives of the members of those five churches, as it is believed that ALL people involved in the murder and 20+ years of harassment of my family, are all members of these 5 churches and or friends, family, and relatives of these five churches.
To date, 64 of the 74 suspected white hood wearers of April 10, 2015, have commit suidice, four of which when killing themselves, also killed 5 or more members of their families with them at the same time. One of them was Old Orchard Beach Police officer Bruce Savoy, who killed his entire family and then himself.
The police and FBI believe there is a suicide pact between the 74 attackers who arrived April 10, 2015 on my farm at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... as 64 of them have now commit suicide, between 2015 and 2023.
Additionally, Agent Andy Drewer was NOT the original FBI agent heading the case. Laura was. FBI agent Laura was murdered February 6, 2021, during her attempt to arrest a murder suspect who was in Florida at the time he murdered her. So in addition to murdering my son, these people have now also murdered an FBI agent.
People around local, seem to forget that what happened April 10, 2015, was not some local hick beating up one person... this was a large PREMEDITATIED ORGANIZED EVENT which drew in a CROWD of WELL OVER ONE HUNDRED PEOPLE to activly participate in beating to deth and beheading ten children, the oldest being aged 16 and the youngest being aged just 4 years old.
What the people of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine did was monstrous on levels of extreemes.
And then when the FBI agents tried to arrest these people, they ganged up again on February 6, 2021 and murdered, not one, but THREE FBI agents.
This is an organized terrorist group that is activly killing people here in Maine.... and this Claire woman that murdered my baby, the one the FBI believes is the ring leader who has been organizing these events.... and when I say events... I was NOT the first family attacked.
According to the FBI, the April 10, 2015 attack was the ELEVENTH such attack to happen on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine since June 2001.
And since the April 10, 2015 attack on my family, this VERY LARGE hate group has repeated this even seven more times, to seven more families all on just one street, all on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... in total, this extremist fanatical Christian hate group has murdered more then 120 CHILDREN, just on our one street alone.
And in every case, the grand of white hood wearers was chanting the same mantra: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach, kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaws".
This terrorist group is murdering anyone on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, whom they believe of being gay or transgender, whether or not they are gay or transgender.
These people are beyond evil. And this Claire woman is their leader, and she's the one the FBI wants.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
I have a weird text message… from the woman, a relative who looks enough like me to pass for my twin…from the women, who keeps pretending to be me, the one who lat Aprile pretended to be me and tried to sell my land, the one who in 2007 pretended to be me and hired a guy with a backhoe to dig holes in my land under the guise of putting in a septic system that I never ordered… the woman who in 2013 hired the same back hoe to drive over my house…
the woman the FBI suspects of being the one who hired the golf club woman also in 2013 to cripple me nd murder my baby… the same woman who was in my yard April 10, 2015 again pretending to be me when she locked her cats in my motorhome, the same woman who took out 27 credit cards in my name and ran them each up to $20k max, me, who’s never had a credit card in my life because I can’t count or do math so also can’t do money or numbers, …. The same woman who creates several online accounts pretending to be me on those… that woman… just sent me a text message, wants me to go with her to Bug Light lighthouse tomorrow…
Uhm… Bug Light lighthouse art studio is where I was November 14, 2013, when the Claire and Kendra women broke my spine with a gold club… so, why does this woman who has a 50 year history of impersonating me… the woman who convinced half of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford that she owned my land, and has half the locals convinced that SHE and not ME, is me… she, suddenly wants me to met with her at the exact location where the blond Claire and red haired Kendra women - whom the FBI are still trying to find out the identity of - crippled me 9 years ago… and she won’t tell me why.
Well, at the moment I am recovering from, a broken pelvis, so, I can’t get out of bed, I haven’t been able to get out of bed since December, it’s not February. So, even if I would meet up with her, which I wouldn’t, right now, I can’t anyways.
She’s an Atwater… yes, the sister of Bruce Atwater… you remember him, he’s the one who was a member of Heaven’s Gate, and is so obsessed with aliens, that he and her, she helped him by pretending to be me, yet again… went around with the whole “amphibious aliens” rumors, making the claim I was abducted by aliens, calling my husband Ben Wildes, an aliens, dubbing him Etiole… he is by the way, the guy you see walking my dog with me in Biddeford… so, yeah you locals have met and talked to “Etiole” quite frequently, he attends the Saco Ward Church or Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and spent 48 years as the High Preist Quarum Leader of the Sandford Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of atter Day saists, he left the Mormon church in May 2015, after our children were murdered… thhey were kidnapped April 10, 2015, the same day the impersonator bitch locked her ten cats in my motorhome and tried to pretend they were mine, called the police, the police, Will Watson specifically, took her cats, and did not arrest me, because, they weren’t my cats… then she spent the past 9 years running around saying they were my cats and because it happened the same day, she also tries to convince people that mychildren never existed and that her cats are my children… what the fuck? She’s a raving lunatic.
She’s the one who who runs around screaming “Mark and Dan this and Mark and Dan that” and I don’t know who the fuck her Mark or her Dan are, however, the psychotic gun totoing white haired man with a green pickup truck, regularly arrives in my driveway to yell at me a, claiming he’s Mark, while saying I’m deframing him, and I don’t know who the hell he is… but apparently, he’s the Mark she keeps talking about, and she’s fighting with him while claiming to be me, so now, he’s mad at me because of something she said, but I don’t even know who the hell he is or what he’s talking about.
This is the same woman who ran around cutting the internet and electric wires off my Biddeford apartment building in 2021, while screaming about Tod Murphy, and I still don’t know who Todd Muruphrey is yet… except she and her friends claim he was hit by an Amtrak train Nov 21, 2021 at 10PM, and you can check the police records, no one was hit by a train that day… However, as you all saw on my dog walking livestream on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27pm, 4 women on bikes chased a homeless man on the the freight train tracks a quarter mile away from the Amtrak train tracks… I have it on video and I’m the one who called the police. Apparently, that’s the train accident she was talking about, be she had all the dates and times and names wrong, AND, for a full 8 months after that, I had to deal with her Atwater hoodlums and their friend vandalizing my car… they did more then $10k in damages, which yes, that why I don’t have my car again, in case you hadn’t noticed a 40 year old antique car is rather difficult to find parts for.
This woman… the one who does all of these things… oh yeah, by the way, you remember the woman who cut my 1964 Dodge 330 in half on May 9, 2010… yeah… same damn woman… and the same woman who took a fucking sledge hammer to my 1974 AMC Gremlin… that woman, the same one woman who has done ALL of these things… just sent me a text, wanting me to meet her at Bug Light lighthouse, where her Claire and Kendra buddies crippled me and murdered my baby 9 years ago.
No!
Fucking no!
Why can’t this bitch leave me and my family alone!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!!!
Bug Light? Really? The location where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life?
Really. She wants me to meet her at Bug Light Lighthouse.
Why?
I don't know.
She won't tell me. It's all a big secret.
Everything's always a big secret with the Atwaters. Because everything has to be a secret with criminals. If their crimes get found out, they end up in jail. That's how criminal thugs operate. In secret. So she she can't do anything without it being some big grand secret.
Why do you want me to meet you at BugLight, the lcation where my baby was murdered?
It's a secret, I can't tell you, you just have to come and find out.
No.
For one thing my car is not here, because oh, fucking Atwater scum bags vandalized it.
For another thing, I have a broken pelvis, I have been able to get out of bed since a week before Christmas 2022.
This is the 3rd time my pelvis has rebroken, since it was originally broken by the golf club weilding Claire bitch at... oh, BugLight lighthouse!
This is the same woman and her Mark simp from the day the police showed up at my Biddeford apartment to ask:
Police: "You're EelKat, right?"
Me: "No, that's what people call me though. EelKats a fictional character from my books."
Police: "This is Biddeford, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Police: "And I'm standing here in Biddeford right now, talking to you, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Officer starts talking in his phone to officers Will and Robby of Old Orchard Beach Police Department: "Yeah, she's right here with me, I'm talking to her right now. Got her Autism car here and everything."
Will and Robbie: "Yeah, that's what I been saying. This isn't her."
Me: "What's going on?"
Police: "Wolfboy is trespassing on your property again…"
Me: "Wolfboy? Who's Wolfboy?"
Police: "Mark. We call him Wolfboy. He calls 911 a few dozen times a day. Constant false complaints about every one. Boy who cries wolf you know."
Me: "Who's Mark? I don't know anyone named Mark."
Police: "Town busy body. Gossips and complains about every one. He's a real pain in the ass. Pardon my French. Can't leave anyone alone."
Me: "Why is he in my yard?"
Police: "Citizens arrest. Says he's arresting you."
Me: "Me?"
Police: "Yeah. He's got some bogus court documents that say you are not allowed on your own property because you're gay."
Me: "I'm gay? How am I gay?"
Police: "Yeah. Well Wolfboy thinks everybody is gay. He's waiting for the gaypocalypse, you know?"
Me: "What's the gaypocalypse?"
Police: "He thinks us guys are going to mass murder all the Christians. We have to deal with his fake 911 calls reporting us gaaaaaayz all the time."
Me: "I take it you're gay?"
Police: "Ahyap, several of us on the department. We don't like jerks like Wolfboy. He harasses people like you all the time."
Me: "Like me?"
Police: "Disabled. He targets disabled women. Thinks it makes him a man. You might not remember me. I was the one who came with the ambulance. You know? I knew you were laid up in bed here and couldn't be in Old Orchard right now, seeing how you can't walk, let alone drive."
Me: "And you said he's in my yard right now?"
Police: "Yep. He says you hired him to dig a septic tank."
Me: "I what?"
Police: "Yeah, we know. We checked. It wasn't you. We got this woman who's impersonating you. She's the one he's trying to arrest right now. She hired him to dig a hole in your front lawn. She says she's EelKat. That's why I'm here, to make sure you are here in Biddeford and not in Old Orchard Beach, right now. Buddy Will and Robbie are dealing with it."
Me: "Why is there anyone in my yard? There should never be anyone in my yard!"
Police: "Yep, we know. Wolfboy and crew do this sort of thing every day. You have no idea how often we have to deal with his crew of chronic 911 false report complainers. Whole family's crazy."
Me: "So, you're telling me there are two people in Old Orchard, right now, on my land, fighting over my land, and one of them is claiming to be me?"
Police: "Yeah, that's the deal."
Me: "He says I hired him to build a septic tank?"
Police: "Yep."
Me: "Do I look like I can afford to have a septic tank built? I have twenty million in medical bills. I can't even walk! What would I even do with a septic system, my bladder and intestines don't work, I wear adult diapers because I can't even use a toilet! Why would I of all people have a septic tank put in?"
Police: "Yeah. I know. I don't think Wolfboy and crew know how crippled you are. That's why we knew whoever he had in your yard, wasn't you. I also, don't think he's ever met you. We showed him a picture of you, and he swears that it wasn't you. We showed him a picture of *name removed* and he says that's you."
Me: "She's not me."
Police: "We know."
Me: "She's been after my land for decades. Was trying to get it aways from Grammy Helen, before I inherited it."
Police: "Oh, we know. Police reports from your Helen Ricker go all the way back to the 60s. They been after the Ricker farm since before you was born. Wolfboy's bitten off more than he can chew this time. He don't know who he's dealing with. He never should have gotten messed up with the Bacon Street Gang."
Me: "Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "Ahyep. That's who Wolfboy has got tangled up with."
Me: "Who's the Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "A gang. Think of them as kind of like the local Mafia, only worse. Most of them are doing time for murder. A few of them are out now. I don't think Wolfboy knows that's who he's dealing with any more than he knows who you are. He wouldn't be down there right now claiming she's you if he'd ever actually met you face to face."
That woman and that Mark, are the ones behind most of the rumors and misinformation spread about me.
The woman I know. She's a relative, with a long list of mental health problems.
Her Mark buddy, that the local police call Wolfboy, I don't know. I've never seen him. Never met him as far as I know. Obviously he's some friend of hers, probably one of her exs as she has a lot of them. She's got a bad reputation for slutting around with married men and breaking up families.
But all these wild alien abduction, transgender, ufo, nutcase rumors that get spread about me, whenever I ask "Who told you that lie?" They always say it came from her, my Uncle Bruce, or some guy named Mark.
And clearly this Mark guy is talking about her, but he uses MY name when he does it, because he's convinced she is Me. It's incredibly obvious this Mark guy has never met me and has no clue he's being scammed by her. But it is incredibly annoying because, I'm the one who is crippled for the rest of my life because some blonde bitch named Claire beat me up with a golf club at Southern Maine Community College Bug Light Art Studio on November 14, 2013, while screaming "Kill or be killed, gotta kill the transvestite freaks before they kill us all!" I was 8 months pregnant. That mystery Claire bitch not only left me crippled, she also murdered my baby. Why? Because this mystery Mark guy runs around calling me transgender and gay even though I'm not trans or gay. And he's only doing that because this nut job Atwater woman who pretends to be me, is after my land, so she runs around doing crazy ass shit while pretending to be me, in order to start the crazy ass rumors in the first place!
This Claire woman is the one the FBI is looking for information on. Because no one knows who the hell she is. She's just some random nut job who clawed out of the woodwork and showed up at college one day to attack me and kill me baby, while screaming utter insanity. The guy with her called her Claire, beyond that we've no clue who she is.
This Claire woman is the one wanted for murder, agitated assault, and owes me $20million in medical bills. If she's ever identified, she's also got life in prison for murder to look forward to.
No, I can not identify her: I am blind.
Did you forget I am blind? I've been blind my whole life.
I am legally blind. I can not see faces, not even if you are close to me. I can not make out the colour of skin because there is so little variation in colour from light to dark. I can only identify the attackers by their hair colour, because I am blind and can no see their faces. That is why I do not know who these people are. I'm blind. I've been blind since I was 8 years old. I can only identify people by their scent and the sound of their voice. Yes, the golf club woman attacked a blind pregnant women, and the FBI needs help to identify her because, I'm blind, I can only id her by the sound of her voice, and I've only encountered her twice...
November 14, 2013 when she crippled me with a golf club and murdered my babyat SMCC, and June 26, 2016 when she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarboror WalMart, she drove away in a gold volvo station wagon. The first time 2 people were with her and they called her Claire. The 2nd time only the red haired woman was with her, and she was screaming "My name is Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine!"
I do not know what the faces of wither the blond Claire who drove a gold volvo wagon or the redhair Kendra Silvermander are because I'm blind... I can see exactly 8 inches from my nose, I can't even see the ground to see my own feet. That's why the FBI is in need of witnesses to come forward and identify the 2 women who murdered my baby.
I'm blind, I don't know what they look like, I only know them by their voices.
If you have any information, about the Claire bitch who murdered my baby at BugLight Lighthouse on November 14, 2013, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
I am severely disabled. I have been since November 14, 2013. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to get out of a wheelchair. It's been 9 years and I'm still using a cane and walker to get around, but, after standing and walking for an hour or two, I collapse and have to be carried back to bed, where I end up staying for days, sometimes weeks, before I can attempt to stand up again.
And since that happened, there have been a lot of local rumores.
Plastic surgery reconstructed my face, but I noticeably don't look the same as I did for 40 years prior to becoming disabled. And this has led to a lot of local rumors... people call me a demon, or demon possessed, or an alien, or say I was abducted by aliens and that's why I look different.
Welcome to Maine, where the average person believes aliens and demons are real, and think nothing of driving a backhoe over my house, because im just a demon who deserves it, they vandalized my car repeatedly every few months I who am already disabled and severe difficultly getting out and to the store, have even less ability to get out when my car is in the shop for repairs months to a time, multiple times a year.
This is the reality of how we horrifyingly disabled people are treated, at least here in Maine.
Being attacked in the college parking lot by 3 strangers with golf clubs is what dramatically changed my appearance. Doctors, plastic surgeons, rebuilt my face as best as they could, and they did a very good job all things considering. My vertebrae are broken in such a way that my spinal column is severed and so I have almost no use of my left hand and arm, I have no control over my bladder or intestines so have to wear adult diapers. And Doctors can't operate on this injury because there is an 80% chance of me becoming paralyzed from the neck down if they even attempt surgery.
I have been sent to the top neurological surgeons in America and they've all said, they wouldn't dare take the risk of doing the surgery.
I have been 9 years, actively studying everything I can find on the subject of spine surgery. I follow every medical journal, hanging on every update, watching and waiting for the day, when surgery advances to the point that it is an option for me.
Interestingly, as a side effect of this, I started reading and watching Horror genre, something I did not previously do. Things like The Island of Dr Moreau have become my favorite books and movies. I'm not sure why. Perhaps it is because I can identify with the characters who have those radical body changing surgeries in those books and movies.
In short, I have become fully obsessed with studying all aspects of radical surgery, both real and fictional, in some sort of hope of finding, something, anything, that will help me walk again.
THIS is what this Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon did November 14, 2013... and made worse when she attacked the second time June 26, 2016.
The Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon, not only murdered my son, she completely destroyed my life, my health, my ability to function on even the most basic levels.
I can't walk, my baby is dead, there's a giant fucking hole in my yard that looks like a Moon crater, and I'm homeless because a fucking backhoe drove over my house.
And because I was paralyzed for 5 months, and spent 18 months relearning to walk, and still can't walk on my own now 9 years later, I also have $20million in medical bills, which is why I can't afford to rebuild my house.
In the meantime, some jackass with a green dump truck that has a black and silver striped nose, dumped hundreds of loads of garbage, actual literal black bags of garbage that he stole from the town dump, and dumped them in my yard. Do you know how much garbage he dumped in my yard? It was one hundred and seventy three feet long, thirty feet wide, and twelve feet tall… yes, the pile of garbage was 173 feet long, 30 feet wide, and 12 feet tall… and it cost me $12k March 2015 to have a garbage company come in and haul it away.
What the fuck?
And you know what the police said? They think this woman and her Mark buddy are having a fuel, but because she's convinced him that she is me, and he's never seen me, so he doesn't know she's not me, that the police think, he's the one doing all the harassing of me and my family, but he thinks he's harassing her and her family and doesn't know he's harassing the wrong people, because she gave him my address as her address.
So, I'm being harassed by some guy who is a total stranger to me, because he's mad at some psycho bitch who was pretending to be me.
And because of all this, I'm crippled for the rest of my life, my baby is dead, a backhoe drove over my house, and then on April 10, 2015 my 10 foster children were kidnapped, and then on May 15, 2025 there heads were nailed to the door of my big pink motor home. So, now not only am I homeless and crippled, but my family has been murdered as well, all because some bitch impersonated me spreading weird ass alien abduction lies, weird as transgender lies, and weird ass gay lies about me, because for some reason she thought that would get her my land, and in doing so, she passed off some guy who went psycho serial killer on me, while thinking he was attacking her.
Yeah.
And so, two criminal ass thugs are funding with each other, and now I'm homeless and crippled and my family is dead, and the FBI is here now, and according to them, me and my family was never the target, me and my family got attacked by mistake because at the start of all this, some ufo nut, thought it would be funny to impersonate me and try to make it look like I believed in aliens, because this whole thing started because of some phoney ass alien abduction ufo haunted car hoax started by my uncle Bruce back in the 1990s, because he was mad, that Stephen King filmed The Thinner movie on my land, and my uncle Bruce was mad that he didn't get to be in The Thinner movie.
All of this started because Stephen King filmed a movie in my yard almost 50 years ago, and an uncle of mine was jealous, so he had his sister, pretend to be me to start some crazy ass alien abduction rumors, her running around claiming she was me while claiming to be abducted by aliens, while dubbing my husband as "etiole" and "amphibious alien", because in their minds that was some kind of revenge porn for not being in a Stephen King movie, and they've spent almost 40 years running with their alien abduction hoax, adding more and more to it all time time, including to start calling me a transvestite... and then, these people who used to live in Utah, my uncle and his sister, come back here to Maine to run around spreading the alien and trans rumour on a local level around Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, because, I have no ide why... they are just pure evil, and evil things like this are what hate filled evil people do.
Jealousy and hate. That's what fuels her. Pure raw jealousy and hate.
And my family is dead, my house is gone, and I'm crippled, all because some uncle of mine, whom I never even knew before any of this started, wanted to be in a Stephen King movie, and wasn't in a Stephen King movie and for some reason that was justification for all of this.
I don't get it.
The Atwaters are just hate filled, evil scum. You can't do something like this and be anything OTHER than pure evil scum.
Buglight lighthouse is where my baby was murdered on November 14, 2013 by the Kendra Silvermander and Claire bitch duo... why would I want to go there?
What the hell is she even thinking?
Every one who knows me knows my baby was murdered at Buglight lighthouse the beach behind the art studio at Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, on November 14, 2013, the same event that left me crippled for the rest of my life.
So why in the hell would anyone dare ask me to meet them at fucking Buglight lighthouse?
How much more evil can you be?
Update: February 19, 2023
??? Weird. ...
So, I just got a flurry of weird text messages… about FabeBook posts? I’ve not seen said posts, so I don’t know exactly what they says, but I’ll respond to the text messages about said posts:
ONE... who is in my yard? It's certainly not me, I broke my pelvis a week before Christmas and haven't been out of bed in 3 months. There should never be anyone in either of my yards, not the one in Biddeford nor the one in Old Orchard...
TWO... when did my cousin Danny die? First I heard of it. Last I knew he was living on a farm up by Heath road in Saco. I haven't seen him since a few years before the grease fryer bomb blew up my house, that happened on October 16, 2006... so it was sometime before 2004 last time I saw Danny. Didn't know he died. That's sad. I liked Danny. He was one of the few good Atwaters...
Three, uhm, what garden? My land in Old Orchard is bare ledge. Not even any soil to plant anything in. It's been that way for nine years. When the backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, it also came in with a green dumptruck and strip mined my land, they stole all of my roses, apple trees, grapes, blueberries, and flowers, and took all the top soil down to over six feet deep, strip mined my farm down to bare shale and granite. It would cost over $three-million dollars to buy new top soil to replace what the vandals stole, and I don't have that kind of money, so I've not had a garden since, no vegetables, no flowers, nothing, can't plant anything on bare ledge....
so, yeah, weird, this latest rumor, which states I stole something from Danny's grave to put in my garden. Seeing how, I didn't even know Danny died and I also don't have a garden.
........... Update February 22, 2023
So, because I didn't know Danny died, people have started sending me these long lists of Atwaters whom have died since 2015... apparently there are well over 30 - thirty - dead Atwaters, none of whom I knew had died, and many of whom, I never even heard their names before. I'm told they are largely from the Utah division of the Scottish Traveller clans. But I did notice, half of the original twelve are dead? Is that true? No one told me any of this. I had no clue. It says here that uncle Peter and his wife, Bobby's wife Cathy, and even my uncle Brucie are all dead? When did all this happen and why did no one tell me? There a bunch of cousins, second cousins, and thrid cousins on the list too, but I've never heard any of their names before I have no clue who any of them are.
There also seems to be some weird thing where they are saying no one ever told them my son was murdered November 14, 2013... my mother, my father, my step father Wade, aunt Barbara, uncle Dickie, uncle Brucie, cousin Danny, and Danny's wife Amanda all knew about this. Barbara showed up at the hospital and tried to get me to join her in some stupid ass medical scam she said she was running via her EMT job, she wanted me to be some poster child for some medical scam website she was running, she said she could get more money if she had a real cripple on her website. Dickie and Brucie were both at my Water St apartment the night it happened and they were mad that the police showed up to question my family and found them there with my daddy and some private detective, I don't know who the private detective was... according to the FBI agent in charge of the murder investigation, my dad hired the private detective to trail my mother and her then husband Wade, and Dickie and Brucie were helping my father with that.
Barbara, Dickie, and Brucie were all at the hospital November 2013, when I was paralyzed.
Barbara knew I was in a wheelchair, because in 2014, at Saco Shaw's, she stopped to talk to me, while I was shopping and in the wheelchair.
I'm also being told most of them are claiming they didn't know a backhoe drove over my house. Uncle Joey in Australia, not only knew about the backhoe driving over my house, by the FBI has copies of the $600 wire he sent to the backhoe driver. My father is the one who forged the demolition permits, with some guy named Dan who I never heard of before.
Also, you remember Barbara's ex Paul Martal... do you know what he's in prison for? FBI arrested him in 2016, for not one, but many bombs that he built, including the bomb that blew up my house October 16, 2006 and wait for it... the Boston Marathon bomb in 2013, he built it and sold it to ISIS.
The Atwaters claiming they know nothing of the 2006 bomb, is a lie, considering the FBI arrested some of them for it.
The Atwaters claiming they knew nothing of the backhoe driving over my house August 8, 2013, that replaced the bombed house, is a lie, because because Joey is the one how organized and funded it and he's going to straight to prison if he ever sets foot in America again, the FBI is ready to arrest him the moment he sets foot outside of Austraila. They have uncovered all the evidence they need to do so.
Barbara posted the message on my FaceBook wall: "The next head nailed to a door will be yours", she posted that message May 14, 2015... the DAY BEFORE my foster children's heads were nailed to the door of my motorhome. I didn't know she posted that message... the FBI agent, had screenshots of it that he had made, he showed them to me in June 2016... I didn't know she had posted that on my wall.
Yvonne and Shem, posted on my FaceBook wall more then two hundred pictures of themselves holding various guns, and on every post they wrote the words: "This is the gun I'm going to kill you with." Again, I did not see the posts, because I was in the hospital, paralized, I was paralyzed 5 months, I was 18 month relearning to walk... I've been bedridden for the last 9 - NINE - years... I found out about the death threats Shem and Yvonne were posting when an FBI agent, the one, who is now dead. Larua, she was murdered February 6, 2021... arrived, at my 6x8 tarp that I was living under in my yard... she arrived, with a huge stack of printed out screenshots of death threats posted by them, along with 27 FaceBook accounts all owned by Brucie, most of them using variations of Doris's name... all 29 of those accounts spent the entire of 2014, 2015, and 2016 DAILY posting death threats on my FaceBook wall, and often mentioned the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, the August 8, 2013 backhoe, and the April 10, 2015 SWAT team... the SWAT team being something I never mentioned online... also... the police department is in search of a VERY UNIQUE murder weapon that was used in the May 15, 2015 beheadings, and the crackhead Camilla, the cocaine dealer for the Bacon Street Gang, who is an Atwater, has been since October 2021 showing up on my Biddeford front porch to gibber about... that murder weapon... the police and the FBI never released to the public what the murder weapon was, because it is a VERY UNIQUE one of a kind hand made item. And yet, MANY of the Atwaters... 23 of them, showed up in my Biddeford driveway January 8, 2021 to gibber about that murder weapon while also chanting "God-King-Trump".
January 15, 2021, a few days later, the fbi shows up with half the fucking plice department, here at my biddeford apartment, said they followed lucy and barbara up here from some attack on the president in washington dc and wanted to know if U'd seen them? what the fuck? I have no clue. I've not see Lucy since 1994 and I've not seen Barbara since 2013 the day she tried to get me to join her weird medical scam plot. But according to the FBI... they were watching my Twith livestream tht day, so they saw the "God King Trump" chanters, as did all of my viewers, I was live and my webcam faces the driveway window so, they were chanting "God-king-trump" on my Twitch livestream... according to the FBI, those 23 people were Lucy's crew and the had stolen stuff from the White House, and were carrying the stolen white house stuff while chanting in my driveway... the FBI wanted to know if I recgonined any of them, and I didn't, the FBI had tons of pictures of them, and I don't know who any of them were... but according to the FBI, they are the adult children of several of my cousins, via Lucy and Barbara's kids. What the hell?
I am so sick and tired of the FBI showing up here and questioning me every few weeks, because of some fucking ass shit Barbaras family is doing, when I don't even know Barbara's family! I haven't babysat for her kids since I was 12 years old and that was fifty fucking years ago!
Tell me, how do so many Atwaters have inside information about the murder weapon that was used to behead my ten foster children on May 15, 2015... when those police records are sealed, were classified by the FBI, and only me, 6 FBI agents, 3 police officers, and of course the murderer, know what the murder weapon was?
I don't know who contacted the FBI... it wasn't me. I assume is was police officer Will Watson as he was the original head of the police investigation. And yet, I have many THOUSANDS of hate emails, hate snail mail letters - hand written and signed by Atwaters, accusing me of sending the FBI to "snoop in on them" as they put it. Good god! The FBI is over here interigating me 2 or 3 times a fucking month! The Atwaters act like they are the only ones who have to deal with FBI agents hanging around all the time! At least with me the FBI are here trying to help solve a crime, not interigating me of being a criminal... my fucking son was murdered! Atwaters bitching about the FBI questioning them, well maybe they shouldn't be posting death threats all over my FaceBook wall constantly none stop, the same week my sn was murdered, but that's what they are being questioned about.
I never sent the FBI anywhere... I don't control the FBI, and anyone who thinks that is got some serious mental retardation issues.
I didn't even know the FBI was actively going from Atwater to Atwater questioning them, and I wouldn't have known, had the Atwaters not been writing long hate letters and mailing them to me.
My son was murdered in 2013... it was 3 years later, when the FBI showed up to talk to me, for the first time, and yet they informed me, they'd been on the case for three years at that point and had some pretty daming evidence, about one Atwater: Paul Martal, whom I've never met, didn't even know he existed... he got 14 years in prison for the 2006 bomb that blew up my house. But what the FBI wanted to know was: Why me? It appeared he didn't know me any more than I knew him. According to the FBI, Paul Martal was in heavy contact with 2 people, and the FBI believes it's one of them, who hired the golf club woman to murder my baby November 14, 2013...
...and the problem is, I've not mentioned it to the family, The Atwaters, so they don't know, not even my parents know, but on September 12, 2021, there was another attack. I've not released any details, nor have the police or the FBI, One of the biggest ones yet. The FBI pointed out one thing... the attacks stopped when one of te two primary suspects died. They said they had reason to believe the one, of the two suspects, whom they believe murdered my son, died... so how did the the September 12, 2021 attack happen?
When that attack happened the FBI asked me to repaint paint my car: put the info from 2 different events, with the dates reversed, to see WHO would notice it was wrong. Someone DID notice it was wrong: Crackhead Camilla, cocaine dealer of the Bacon Street Gang, she showed up on my Biddeford porch less then ten hours after I painted my car. She noticed the incorrect date for the incorrect event... and she has said WHO told her... and it was one of the three people who arrived at the hospital November 2013... except, 2 of those 3 people are now dead, and the one she's naming, is the one still alive.
Who is it, who runs around telling people I believe in aliens? That same person. I don't believe in aliens. I'm the one who proved aliens and alien abductions to be a hoax, did that in 2007, posted my findings proving aliens a hoax here: https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html
Who is it, who runs around claiming I say things about Utah Atwaters, people who I've never heard of, people I've never met? That same person.
Whose husband is right now sitting in prison for building the bomb that blew up my house? That same person.
Camilla was the bridesmaid of who? That same person.
Who KNEW I was paralyzed for 5 months, 18 months in wheelchair, and 9 years serverly crippled, bedridden... but neglected to tell anyone in the family? That same person.
Who is it, who is right now spreading rumors and lies about me, my brothers, and my mother, all over FaceBook? That same person.
Do you know what gaslighting means? Look at what she's doing. It's called gaslighting. It means she is trying to cast doubt on the victims, in order to make the victims look guilty, as a way to try to hide, her own crimes.
Ask yourself why you didn't know my son was murdered?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was attacked by a blond woman with a golf club, left for dead, almost died, and have been crippled on paraplegic levels ever since?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was paralyzed for 5 month?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was in a wheelchair for 18 months?
Ask yourself why you didn't know my foster children, where not only murdered, but their heads were nailed to my door?
Ask yourself why you didn't know when Barbara, Brucie, and Dickie were all at the hospital, and knew what had happened. Why didn't they tell any of you? Why did they pretend not to know? Why did they hide for the rest of the family, what had happened to me?
Here's an important thing to ask: Why did none of you know the FBI was here investigating a very brutal murder that coincided with a LOT of harassment, vandalism, and hate crimes that were on levels of alarming extremes?
It's called impeding and FBI investigation.
Someone, in the Atwater family, has been very actively lying to all of you about what happened to me and my family... why? What is their motive? If they have nothing to hide, then why arethey bending over backwards to try to keep every one of you from finding out what happened to me, my son, my house, my yard, and my foster children?
Why?
Only the person doing these crimes, who any motive to try to cover them up.
Only the person who murdered my son, would have any motive to go out of their way to do everything in their power to try to make you forget he ever existed.
Only the person who did these things has any motive, to try to cover it up.
Only the person behind my son's murder has a motive to try to convince you I believe in aliens, when it's damn well documented that I don't believe in aliens.
Think about that, next time an Atwater starts spreading rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my dead children, or my dead son.
Also... who is it who told you that I knew about all these deaths in the family? Was it one of the three people who was at the hospital and knew what happened to me, but never told you all?
Also, yes... I have noticed that Dickies supposed death date is a full 3 months before he was at the hospital, before he was visiting my dad with Brucie and and having a meeting with the private investigator about Wade Witen... that's puzzling... but then again Brucie had faked his own death 4 times since the 1980s, each time to invade IRS fraud, so the Atwaters do have a history of faking their deaths. I know this because the FBI has all that info too and when interviewing me, they wanted to know if I was aware of the faked death, by 3 of the original 12 Atwaters... yep, three of the brothers have faked their deaths multiple times. So... when you people tell me Dickie and Brucie are dead, yeah, I kind of don't believe you.
Also, Barbara is the one going around telling everyone that Danny is dead and his grave is being vandalised... several people have told me that Danny is dead, his grave was being vandalised, and I a bedridden crippled, was being blamed for the vandalism, and I asked each of these people who told them this, and every one of them stated they recieved either a rtext, post, comment, email, or phone call from Barbara, some said she told them face to face in person... near as I can tell NO ONE other then Barbara os saying Danny died, no one other then Barbara is saying his grave is vandaised, and no one other then Barbara is saying I did it... also newsflash... my camera runs 24/7/365 ever since the day my foster children's heads was nailed to my door, so I can prove where I was and what I was doing every minute from May 16, 2015 to right now. The camera runs 24/7 in hopes of catching the murderer returning to attack again. Smile... if you've ever said anything to me online or offline, I have video footage of you doing it.
In case you've forgotten who Barbara is, besides being Bruce's sister, she's the 2 year old girl who was run over by this car. https://www.eelkat.com/images/1964dodge330_theGoldeneagleWorldsMostHauntedCar.jpg My 1964 Dodge 330 the one that was cut in half on May 9, 2010 by raving lunatics of the Saco Ward church calling it demon possessed. She's the one who started the rumor that the car was haunted, possesed by a demon and tried to kill her. The car used to belong to Dr Larochell, who paid Barbara $20k to stop her from spreading rumors about his car. Her rumours about his car got so bad that locals started attacking him, so in 1975 he sold the car and I bought it specifically to prove that it was niether haunted demon possessed and Barbara was just delusional and trying to get attention.
After I proved the car not haunted, I let a local elderly homeless man sleep in the car at night, while the car was parked behind my barn, 175 feet from the road in the forest where it could not be seen from the road, so no one knew the WW@ veteran was sleeping in my car... until that is, in 1978, Barbara tresspassed on my land, found him there, declared him first a demon, then in the 1990s started calling him "The Amphibious Alien"... Barbara is the only Atwater who ever learned French and guess what, she is also the one who coined the name "Etiole" and started calling the homeless WW2 vet "Etiole" and she is the one who has been vocal in instigating EVERY SINGLE attack on Etiole and my 1964 Dodge 330.
Also, do take a look at Barbara... we look alike, she and me... we can almost pass for twins. And what keeps happening around locally? People keep saying they are encountering me doing and saing things in places I've never been to, to people I've never heard of!
Also, every time I go outside, people - ttal strangers - keep coming up to me and asking me why I am emailing them stuff about aliens, and newsflash: I don't even use email! What the hell? I couldn't eail some one even if I wanted to!
In November, this guy comes up to me, he's about 90 years old and carrying this massive stack of sheets of paper - like 300 sheets, it's an entire reem of paper, and he starts waving it around and says it's print out of all the emails I sent him just in the past week, he says he gets more then three thousand emails from me on a daily basis and it's all crazy stuff about aliens... I looked at the papers and, the emails are coming from tons of emails with the word "eelkat" in the name, but they aren't mine. I'm not sending these things out to people and I don't know who is... but I do know who has a history of impersonating me with emails: Barbara!
In 1996, she started an email war with the Atwaters, with two emails, one that she said was heres, and one that she said was mine.
At that point... I had never had contact with an American, or TV, or electricity... I had never heard of computers or internet or email... he email war, was her, impersonating me, and sending hundred of hate filled emails to my aunts, uncles, and counsins... I found out about it a year later when Bishop Paul Morgan of the Cape Elezabeth Ward (no, not the Portland Ward, but yes the same building) called me in to his office one day, to ask why I was sending so many hundreds of emails about aliens and alien abductions to him and 750 other members of the church. No that's not a typo... seven hundred and fifty members of the church...
I had 3 questions for Paul Morgan:
1: What's email?
2: What are aliens?
3: What's alien abduction?
I had never heard of those 3 things before.
Paul Morgan had print outs of those emails, and it took me over a month to read those more then six thousand sheets of paper, but I read every one of them.
Paul Peterson, administrative director of Pine Land Center Insane Asylum... he showed up at church a few weeks later, yeah... turns out, several Atwaters used to be, how shall we call it... straight jacketed in padded cells because they were insane... and Pine Land Center, government run mental health institute, lost funding, shut down, in... oh look... 1996... and literally just let formally straight jacket nut cases, walk free out the front door. It's not hard to find out who the inmates of Pine Land Center were... the micro films are available in New Gloughster. So, yeah, that evidance exists and says a lot.
ALL of the rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my cars... all the Demon rumors, all the alien rumors, ALL of it... every single rumor, all the way back to the 1960s... all of them, were started by one person, Barbara, because, she was the 2 year old girl who was hit by that car, and she's pissed that I bought it, and she's even more pissed that Stephen King, my neighbour at the time, made a movie about it... did you know my real name is Christine and that's why the car is named Christine in the movie, even though the real car was named The Goldeneagle.
After Christine, Stephen King returned to film Thinner on my farm, and THAT is why, Barbara, has had endless amounts of jealosue rage and hatred for my farm, my land, my house... did you know I've rebuilt my house 5 times now... the backhoe has driven over THREE houses on my land, we keep rebuilding and it keeps coming back... but before the backhoe there was the bomb... and who did the FBI arrest for building that bomb again? Barbara's husband Paul Martal. That's what he went to prison for. He built the bomb that blew up my house, the FBI found him with the bomb parts in his house and car.
That's why, I always ask, when these weird rumors about demons and aliens show up... who told you? And EVERY SINGLE PERSON, EVERY SINGL TIME... they always say: "Barbara told me", "Baraba said it" , "Barbara called me" , "Barbara emailed me"... and so, I'm not surprised to find out that the rumors flying around this week, are once again, started by the same person who always starts them: the pissed off now adult, 2 year old girl, who 60 years ago was run over by the world's most haunted car, and is the one who both declared it haunted and dubbed the homeless man living in it as "Etiole"
Know your sources people. Do your background checks. Find out if the one spreading the rumors about me, might actually have a motive. Barbara REALLY hates that car. And at the core, her hatred of that car, her rage that Stephen King made it famous, is the cause of everything.
But guess what: Barbara and Brucie and their fucking endless jealose rage, is why I'm crippled, why my son is dead, why I've had to rebuild my house on my land five fucking times now... I'm not bothering any of them, I never have , and I don't know why they are bothering me! I want those bastards to fucking leave me, my family, my cars, my land, and anything else of mine alone.
Uhm… okay… so, a member of the Sanford ward church was just in a rage yelling at me about the drug raid across the street last year at the missionary apartment and this being the 18th anniversary of the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh… and, I'm not sure why they are yelling at me about it…but they were mad saying: "Why is the FBI here talking to you about the dead girl in Scarborough. You aren't family."
Uhm… no, but I am the one who found the body and called 911 to report it. And I've had to deal with police and FBi questions in regards to her death for the past few decades every single time they get a lead they show up and ask me:"So tell us once again what you saw." And I tell them yet again about the girl with no head, the thirty dogs with no heads, and that, I never saw her or the dogs before.
I was driving to work and they were all laid out ritual like in the road, not a one of them had any heads. Not the girl, not any of the dogs.
First experience with headless bodies… but far from the last. And police and fBi believe the killer was there and saw me call 911 and that's why my 75 pet roosters had their heads cut off and their bodies tied in rope nooses and hung in my Orchard fruit trees and rose bushes shortly after.
I can show you where ever body was the girl and the dogs. The first one was at the Ross rd Portland rd intersection at the light by where the medical building is now. The next one was at the Eastern trail Bridge just before the rv center. There was another at the cascade rd intersection by the flea market... they continued like that all the way to the Scarbourogh marsh. All black dogs, mostly Rottweilers and black labs, more than 30 of them, leading in a path to the dead girl. None of them had heads. Not the girl or the dogs.
It was after dark, I was on my way to Macy's.
The fbi says they think it was the same person who beheaded my cousin Murphy in 2013, beheaded 75 of my roosters and hung them from nooses in trees in 2007, murdered my son in 2013, and beheaded my mother's cats in 2015... he says there were 11 other beheading like this between 2001 and 2015 all of them invloving a huge amount of pets, mostly dogs and cats, but also birds and horses… in title more then 500 pets just on Portland Ave in old Orchard beach alone, the first one was a German Shepherd in June 2001 whose head was hung on the bucket of his owners bulldozer, and there have been 7 more since 2015 to 2021, all on Portland Ave, Ross rd, and Cascade Rd.
The dead girl in Scarborough had no head, neither did any of the dogs. I'm the one who called the police.
I was there when they found Timmy Murphy on cascade and Ross rd intersection. He had no head either.
My cousin Murphy, the newspaper said he was hit by a truck. But that's not what happened. I was there. Police made me wait 3 hours while they looked for his head. I got questioned all over for that. It happened June 2013. Backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, and golf club woman attacked November 14, 2013... fbi thinks the backhoe and golfclub attacks were both because I was there when Timmy's body was being wrapped up by police. The police found his head 2 weeks later down by my driveway on Portland Ave almost a half mile from where they found his body.
They believe the killer of my cousin Timmy was at the scene while the police were questioning me, and that's how the killer knew to target my house with the backhoe a month later… the issue with that is, one of my uncles, paid the backhoe driver, but that uncle lives in Australia and wired the money to the backhoe driver. The police have all the paperwork for this. And the police can't figure out, why it appears that my Atwater relatives are heavily invested in impending the investigation of what police are calling "the Ouellette case".
It appears the Atwaters are being egged on by someone involved in the murder of the headless Scarborough marsh girl, and that the Atwaters are being deliberately needled into a frenzy at me and my family in a bold attitude to through police off the killers trail.
The thing is, the Atwaters have gone into wild extremes bringing in weird alien abduction rumors that are just outlandish… but then… one of my uncles, when the FBI went to interview him… he had dozens of dead, headless black dogs, black cats, and black chickens laying in weird pentagram ritual formations, all over his yard, in his driveway, around his house, hanging on his fences… and… well… dead headless black animals were all around the Scarborough marsh that day of the dead girl… and so… it kind of looks a lot like one of my uncles either is the murderer or at least is the one supplying the murderer with dead black pets.
So, this lead the FBi to ask me more questions, because now it looks like the Atwaters lashing out at my family has a far bigger motive then, them just being crazy lunatic ufo nuts.
I've been a witness at 4 different beheadings.. and was the one who called police each time.
The raid at the Saco Ward missionary apartment across the street…I never said the raid across the street was a drug raid... the state drug force wasn't there. Ive seen drug raids before. My Atwater relatives are notorious for drugs, ive been in the house when two drug raids happened, one in 1982 and one in 2016 and both times the state police drug team was the one who did the raid.
State police drug team wasn't there at the raid on the missionary apartment across the street last year, it the US Marshalls and FBI there. They had 8 people handcuffed face down in the road in front of our apartment. And they said it was about the Ouellette case, specifically the headless girl in Scarborough marsh. I know this, because thry asked me if i recognized any of these 8 people. One I did, she's been my dads nurse since 2009. Fbi was here asking me about that raid, because he wanted to know if the dead cats and birds in the road here in front of our Biddeford apartment were lined up same way as the dead dogs were back in Scarborough years ago with the dead girl.
Me and others locally have been finding dead pets lined up on Main Street, western Ave, Cutts St, West Cutts st, James St, and Bradbury st every since summer 2021, I sent videos footage of all the dead pets to fbi, because it DID look like same ritual pattern used in my yard with roosters in 2007 and my mother's cats in 2015 and those dogs with the dead girl at the Scarborough marsh.
That's why I stopped walking around our apartment at night... dead cats and birds are being set up around my apartment and also my mothers apartment... looks like whoever killed cats and roosters in Old Orchard, wanted me to know they knew where I lived.
The officers think the person leaving the dead pets all around our apartment is whoever killed the headless girl at the marsh... they think that's why the attack on my roosters happened in 2007, the backhoe in 2013, the golf club women who killed my son and crippled me in 2013, because I'm the one who called the police about the headless dogs in Scarborough with the dead girl.
Weird, this Sanford Ward Mormon, who was just here at my apartment, made the comment: "But the dead girl in Scarborough wasn't beheaded."
I don't know if there's a different girl too or not. I only know about the headless girl, the one I called 911 about all those decades ago. I never looked up the news reports so I don't know if they ever mentioned the thirty dead dogs or her and the dogs having no head. I don't know what the news said about it. I don't even know her name. I just know whenever the police or FBI ask me to retell how the dogs were laid out, they always call it "The Ouellette Case". Beyond that I know nothing about it.
My focus has always been on the attacks on me and my family. I don't know any of the other families. I just know the officers said the April 10, 2015 attack on my farm was the 11th such attack on Portland Ave since June 2001 and that they now tell me there have been seven more such attacks on Portland Ave since 2015. They said a lot of details have not been released to the public, but that there are a few common things recurring in every attack which indicates it's just one person (group of persons) doing it. They say they keep going back to all 18 of our families reasking us for details we can remember because they are trying to match up the similarities of each case.
I know what details were left out of reports about the attacks on my family. I don't know anything about any of the other 17 families at all.
I don't understand these Saco and Sanford ward church members who keep showing up all upset because I'm trying to find out who murdered my son and left me crippled. What is their problem? It's MY family that's dead, not theirs, what the fuck business is it of theirs? Why are they so damned ruffled up about me asking for anyone with information to call the FBI? By being upset like this, they are just making themselves look suspicious. When they are mad that I'm asking people for help finding the killer, they just make themselves look like they are involved, they make it look like they know who the killer is, they make it look like they are protecting and defending the killer. Do they not realize how suspicious they make themselves look when they get angry that I ask on Facebook for anyone with info to please call the FBI and help put my son's killer in prison?
Do you remember Timmy? He's the same age as you and me. He's the one who lived at the black house next door to my on Portland Ave. He was the used car dealer, the one who always have a dozen or so cars lined up for sale across his front lawn. He also owned Etiole's swamp, my abutting neighbour from the back side of the land. He used to help me babysit Barbara's kids back in the 1970s and 1980s, we used to duo babysit together.
Timmy Murphy was the one beheaded June 2013 at the Ross Rd and Cascaed Rd intersection.
That's why I can't understand these Todd Murphy fucktrds who spent the entire of November 2021 to May 2022, daily arriving in my Biddeford driveway, chanting "Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy!" while vandalizing both the building and my car. They did $10k+ in damages to my Volvo and they did so much damage to the building that landlord Matt Holiday couldn't afford to repair the apartment building so he sold it because the city of Biddeford was going to condemn the building and kick out all 9 families at 409 Maine Street, because the Todd Murphy fucktard attackers did so much damage to the building. People know about them cutting all the wires off the building, but it was a lot more then that. They did huge amounts of stucture damage to the building itself as well. That's why Matt sold the building. He just didn't have enough money to repair the damages.
But the thing was, these vandals were acting like they thought I knew who Todd Murphy was, and I never heard of anyone by that name before. I think they mixed up whoever this Todd Murphy was with my cousin Timmy... who is not an Atwater... what the fuck are the Atwaters even talking about? Timmy was my dad's older sister's god-son. My aunt Victoria from Portland? The one who lived in that big tower on the waterfront up on the Promanard.
Why are the Atwaters so damned fucking arrogant that they think they are the only relatives I have? The Allens of Allen Ave in Portland are my relatives too you know, and Timmy Murphy was one of them. You know, the whole family who founded Amatos... the woman who founded Amatos was my dad's great aunt. That's why we always get free food at Atmatos, their family. The Atwaters don't hold a fucking monopoly over me, what the hell is wrong with them? You know, I'm sick of the Atwaters barging their way into everything and trying to make everything be about them. They aren't the center of the world and they need to stop acting like they are.
Near as I can tell, these Todd Murphy vandals are conneted to the Atwaters somehow, but I don't know how. And again, they are impeeding a fucking FBI murder investigation. Do the Atwaters know how to do ANYTHING other then stick their busy body noses in places they don't belong? What the fuck?
Do you know what the police said? They said Todd Murphy is the son of someone my mother and Barbar fight with on FaceBook. I've had my mother and Baraba both blocked on FaceBook since the shit they pulled back in 213 after my son was murdered. I don't have a fucking clue who my mother or Barbara are friends with on FaceBook, I have them blocked. I've had them blocked for 10 years this Novmber.
But then, I have fucktards from the Sanford Ward church showing up here now, do you realize how far they have to drive to get here to my driveway? What the hell? And they claim that Todd Murphy was a member of the Sanford Ward... you know what he's not on the rouster. You know I'm a member of that church right? I got access to the rouster, because my husband is the high preist quorum leader of that church... there's no one named Todd Murphy who is a member of the Sanford Ward church, and there hasn't been in the last 48 years that I've attended that church. So now I'm left wondering, even more what the fuck?
Who the ell is Todd Murhy and why the fuck should I care? I haven't got a clue what these people are talking about. I don't know who they are and I don't know who their Todd Murphy is.
Only thing I can figure, is somehow, something my mother and Barbara said, convinced these people that when I talk about Timmy Murphy's murder case that I'm talking about Todd Murphy. But why? Was Todd Murphy murdered in 2013 of the Ross Rd in Old Orchard Beach, same as my cousin Timmy Murphy, who was also my abutting neighbor and had the same birthday as me, so we celebrated our birthdays together, you know because we grew up together and knew each other own entire lives?
I mean, what the hell? And what does Todd Murphy have to do with The Ouelltte case aka the beheaded girl in the Scarborogh Marsh from 20 years ago? That's what they were talking about last night... thee Snford Ward members who were here in my ard in Biddeford last night, who yes, I do know who they are, but I don't know who this Todd Murphy is that they are talking about or what he has to do with my cousin Timmy Murphy and that girl, both being beheaded down the street from my Old Orchard Beach farm?
I asked, no one in Timmy's family knows any one named Todd. None of my Scarborough or Old Orchard Beach Murphy relatives know or have ant relatives named Todd, so none of them, know what the fuck these people in Biddeford are talking about. You know just because someone has the same last name, doesn't mean they are relatede, right? Do these Todd Murphy people who won't stop hrassing us, and now clearly have a connection to the Sanford Ward realize that?
And what is with Joel Bailey? What? Yeah... they're bringing Joel Bailey back into stuff? He went to prison in 2013, he, if you forgot was the counsellor of the Bisiop of the Saco Ward church, the entire bishiprisk went to prision, 2 to 10 years each one, along with the Old Orchard Beach Town Manager, oh wait, he was one of the bishipric, and 13 people from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police departments, all members of the Saco Ward church, for stealing a little bitty number of thirty MILLION dollars in Old Orchard Beach tax funds out of the town hall bank account, which I only found out about, because they tried to forge my name onto the documents and that was why FBI Laura, the agent ho was murdered in Florida on Feberuary 6, 2021, was sent to interview me in 2007, 2010, and 20134... the Saco Ward church bishopric stole $30million from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and tried to pin it on me, only, I can't count, mI never learned math, and they didn't know I couldn't possibly have written the math figures. I don't know how to do money and only someone really good with money could have done the things they did. They also put a lot of stuff in Ken Shoop's name. That Joel Bailey, the one who is now out of prison and likes to walk circles around my Biddeford apartment all summer long in 2022. Yeah, I am aware he's back, the mini-Winnie RV that parks at the Biddeford High School at night, he is the one driving it.
Given his past history, no, I'm not surprised at all to find his name bring brought back up. Though the Saco Ward Mormons now trickling out of prison and back on the streets, would explain why the vandalism started up again, seeing how they were the ones who used to do most of it and the vandalism did stop when they went to prison.
I'm sick of the Atwaters and their Mormon friends. They're nothing but criminals, drug dealers, and gangster thugs.
The fact remains, the only thing I'm focused on is finding my son's killer and the Atwaters and their Mormon thugs, are interupting that, and I want to know WHY? No one who is not guilty of being involved in my son's murder has any reason or incentive to be here harassing me and telling me to take the FBI phone number off my FaceBook wall, and that's what they are doing and I want to know why. What business is it of theirs if the FBI phone number is on my FaceBook wall and what is their involvment with my son's murder that they think the FBI phone number on my FaceBook wall effects them?
Here's a weird one… I just got a text message from a Sanford Ward Mormon which states: "I've known you for 40 yeas I would remember you being attacked how come you never mentioned it before now"
Uhm… since 1996, my website, originally known as Space Dock 13, has documented daily blog posts of every day of my life.
The July 2, 2001 attack, when a house mover cut our house in half, put it on a flatbed and drove it to Waterville, was documented the day it happened. It was also the first attack. My neighbor's German shepherd dog was beheaded and left in the bucket of his bulldozer that same day.
Go look at my blog… every day since July 2, 2001 , every attack, from the minor paintball attacks to the big house bomb attacks, are all documented, each blog post written the day it happened. There are more then ten thousand daily blog posts just on that one blog, chronologizing every event of every day of my life and including every attack, since June 2001.
That fact that they only just noticed it now, does not mean, I've never mentioned it… it just means they were too self absorbed to notice anything going on around them. It also means I was never important enough to them, for them to notice I was homeless, or in the hospital, or had a baby that was murdered. … their shock of just discovering these things, says more about their lack of caring about me, then anything else.
As for the headless girl and dogs in the marsh, the murder of my cousin Timmy Murphy, and the golf club attack ,the 3 events they specifically brought up in their text…
I had Squidoo articles about all 3 events. Squidoo went out of business in 2014.
I have more then a thousand blog posts published between 2007 and 2013, on Tumblr, BlogSpot, and WordPress, about those 3 events.
On YouTube I had more than 2k video uploads between 2008 and 2017 that did absolutely nothing but talk about those events, and included the interrogations by police and Fbi, which I've recorded all of since May 2015. So, yes, you can go watch FBI agent Andy Drewer, lawyer Gene Libby in the Biddeford District Court, and police officer Will Watson, and dozens of others talking about these events, on YouTube, because my camera catches everything.
Since 2008, I have posted daily on Facebook and Twitter asking for witnesses to come forward about the dead dogs and the marsh girl...
Since June 2013, I added Tim Murphy to my daily Facebook request for witnesses to come forward,
Since August 2013, I added the back hoe driving over my house info to my daily Facebook requests for witnesses to come forward.
since November 2013, daily every single day requests for witnesses to the attack at phi theta Kappa ceremony at bug light lighthouse, where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life.
I'm still crippled by the way, are they going to tell me they didn't notice that either? Did they not notice I was 5 months paralyzed, wait I know that person noticed because in February 2014 that exact same person carried me to their car and from their car into the hospital precisely because I was paralyzed and couldn't walk…. The person who carried me to the hospital because I was paralyzed and had to be carried is the exact same person who is now saying they don't remember this… and yet, they are the ones who had to fill out the paperwork to admit me in the hospital and their signature is on those documents. So, proof they are lying, right there.
after the June 2016 attack by the 2013 golf club woman, this time at walmart, the fbi gave me a hotline number for witnesses to call... this phone number has been on the flyers in the windows of my Volvo ever since June 2016 and these events are printed on said flyers.
Also in June 2016 the Old Orchard Beach Libby library and the Biddeford McArthur library and the Old Orchard Beach Salvation Army Church all printed up flyers about these events, and spent the summer handing them out to tourists and the fBI number was on all of those.
This is all very well documented as, I have been post them DAILY for over a decade now... and I talk about it constantly in my livestreams which I started doing in May 2015.
Just because one person had their head shoved too far up their church's ass to know what was going on in their own family, and they only just now noticed what was going on around them, doesn't mean I only just now started talking about it.
This is why I don't like churches. Church people are so focused on their Bibles that they haven't got a clue what's going on in the real world around them.
Not to mention all of the police reports, there are more than four hundred police reports, which span twenty one police departments, in three states as well as the Maine state police and the Florida state police, plus the FBI besides! Most of those police reports are public record, you can go read them for yourself. As far as I know only 3 of them were classified and sealed from public access which means there's still 400+ that can be read. There were newspaper reports of some of the attacks. And even though I don't own a TV so have never seen the tV news reports, I know those exist because there were so many TV station news reporters showing up in my yard with camera crews asking for interviews with me. This case is so damned well documented. It's utterly ridiculous to think there is a single person in Southern Maine who is so self absorbed and so oblivious that they have never heard of this case or any of the events that have happened within it in the last 18 fucking years!
But the worst part is, this my own church, a church I have been a member of for 48 fucking years, that is saying, they never heard of this! What the hell? There were more than 24 people from the Saco and Sanford Wards arrested by the FBI just since 2015, because of their involvement in this case. Several of them are still in prison. These people are really that oblivious that they didn't know I was in the hospital, they didn't know I was in a wheelchair, they didn't know my son was murdered, and they didn't noticed 24 members of their congregation disappeared because they went to prison for their involvement.
Really? Wow do these people really give a shit about their fellow congregation members or what? They not only didn't notice I was missing from meetings for 9 years because I am bedridden now, they also didn't notice 24 other members not in meetings because they are now in prison. Talk about dense numb skulls.
It appears the High Priest is back. You, Paul, have met the High Priest. You met him at WalMart. You met him at McDonalds, where you had a 4 hour long conversation with him. You met him my yard in Old Orchard when you visited a few days after the April 0, 2015 attack, and can I add here that you are the ONLY person since that happened, to ever once stop by and ask how I was doing, it’s you’re the only person I knew before the murder of my family, whom I still talk to. You ARE the only person, who ever showed you actually cared about what was going on.
Not one single member of my family or my church has ever stopped to see how I was doing, has ever asked online how I was doing.
But, since November 2021, Sanford Ward mormons have been showing up, all of them in wild raging infernos, and all of them talking about people and events I know nothing about, so I have no clue what any of them ae talking about, but they act like they think I know who the names they mention are, in particular they are cult-like worshiping someone names Todd Murphy whom I can only assume they have gotten mixed up with my beheaded cousin Tim Murphy of Pine Point district of Scarborough and Old Orchard Beach, somehow.
They showed up near daily from November 21, 2021 until May 17, 2022. They were lead on by two blond girls who looked like twins, and have mega long knee-length hair they kept in pony tails, and a smaller pudgier girl with a mint-green pixie hair cut. I don’t know these girls, they looked to be in their 20s. They are the same girls who spent the entire summer of 2021 harassing the homeless man who was living under the trestle bridge across the street from us. They would show up on bicycles every night around 1AM, chase him up out of the ravine, then chase him up the old back tracks along the dirt road to South Street, up towards your place. They did that every night for about 5 months, until he got hit by a freight train on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27PM. They started attacking my and my family Nov 21, 2021, I think because they knew I had video footage of them harassing the homeless man and I think too they were pissed that I call the police when they killed him by cornering him at the bridge overpass so he couldn’t get out of the way of the oncoming train. Outside of them nightly harassing the homeless man, and then spending Nov 21, 2021 to May 17, 2002 chanting “Todd Murphy” in my driveway while vandalizing my car and apartment building, I’ve never seen these girls before of since. They seemed to have completely vanished May 17, 2022. Not seen them at all and the vandalism stopped cold turkey that day. I assume the police must have finally caught and arrested them, but the police never said they did, and in the past when someone harassed me, the police would always ask me to go to the station to ID them after the arrest.
In any case, the “Todd Murphy” dipshit bitches stopped harassing us May 17, 2022, and I heard no more of them, until this past month… only it’s not them showing up this time… this time it’s older people, elderly people in their 70s and 80s, members of the Sanford Ward Mormon church across the street from Curtis Lake Church… Curtis Lake Church being the congregation that shows up in my Old Orchard driveway with the “god hates fgs” signs and calling me a transvestite and calling my car gay, and marching around chanting “too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach”... several Curtis Lake members have been arrested by the FBI and gone to prison for their involvement in both the April 10, 2015 attack on my family and the headless Marsh girl. However, to date,, the killer has not been found, every one arrested so far has always been weird “cultist-like” gay-haters who are attacking people in the area while chanting “kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws” and then rambling gibbering about heads in ice cream. The people arrested, for 5 different local churches, are all outspoken in radically preaching a doctrine of beheading anyone suspected of being gay, while stating that they are doing so on god’s orders.
That’s why there has been so much difficultly in finding out who killed the marsh girl and my cousin Murphry and my family, because, it looks like it’s not just one person, but rather an entire group of people involved, and so far, all evidence has pointed to those 5 churches: Saco Ward, Sanford Ward, Grace Point, Curtis Lake, and New Life, all in Biddeford, Saco, or Sanford, and all run by just 2 families. One family runs 3, another family runs the other 2.
Anyways, I was just thinking, and I think I figured out why the Sanford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints members are seemingly so clueless and unaware that I have been crippled and bedridden for nine years and why they were unaware that 24 members of their congregation have gone to prison, arrested by the FBI for being accomplices in the The Ouellette Murder Case aka The Cascade Murders aka The string of beheading on and around Portland Ave, Ross Rd, and Cascade Rd the past twenty years, which included the headless girl I found in the Scarborough Marsh, my cousin Timmy Murphy whom I found headless on the Ross and Cascade Rod crossroads, the beheading of my own foster children… Ben is the common link to all of them.
Ben, as you know, has severe dissociative identity disorder, that was brought on when his brother Willy commit suicide.
Ben has seven different, very distinctive different “people” living in him, that we know of, there could be moe then 7. Etiole is the one most locals are familiar with, though he does not call himself Etiole, Etiole being a name locals dubbed him. However, there is the High Priest, who is the one you, Paul, are personally most familiar with.
I’ve not seen the High Priest since April 10, 2015. Ben WAS there the day of the attack, he was also attacked… the attackers had me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, all on the ground with guns to our heads, while they use a weird looking long pole with a piano wire-like loop on the end, to cu the heads off of everyone else who was there. Me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, were the only ones to walk out of that attack alive. Ben’s favorite daughter Bella was one of the ones beheaded. His mind snapped, because, he recognized one of the attackers as “Rick”... When the attackers arrived, Ben ran up to one of them and said “Rick! What are you doing here?” Ben does have a friend named Rick… I know Rick. Rick is a very violent, vicious spouse abuser. His wife Paula used to come to church been to a pulp every week. Broken arms, broken legs, broken nose, black eyes. It went on for years. She finally divorced him and fled to Utah when he beat and nearly killed their teenage son. Rick has beaten me up, right in the Sanfard Ward church building. He’s a major bully, a huge bigot, and an extreme white power racists. Rick WAS there April 10, 2015… he didn’t have a white pillow case over his head like the rest of them did, but I don’t kow if he was a part of the attack or not, I was too busy trying to fight the bastard who was holding me own with a pistol in my face, to notice what Rick was doing. It was Rick though, his face in unmistakable… he has no face. Elephant man disease, I think you cal it, but you can’t mistake Rick, and he WAS in my yard April 10, 2015 the day my family was murdered, I just don’t know what he was doing there or if he was involved in the attack or not.
The thing is, something snapped in Ben that day. ALL 7 of his multiple personalities vanished, including the High Priest, thankfully. You know how bad the High Preist could get, you met him several times.
Ben left the Mormon church. I don’t know what triggered him more: his favorite daughter Bella being beheaded in front of him or his best friend Rick, seeming to be the one leading the charge ahead of estimated 74 people in white robes and white pillow cases over their heads.
In either case, Ben has developed a server hatred for the Mormon church and refuses to set foot in a Mormon church building… he who was High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward for so many decades.
The thing about the High Priest, was he was everything so far the opposite of who Ben, my husband, actually is.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to be a virgin. Ben in not a virgin. Not even close. He had a prostitute problem back in the 1980s when I met him.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to not be married, yet Ben and I got married on the Old Orchard Beach Pier August 13, 1987, so he’s been married several decades and still is, we don’t live together because he’s terrified of the Bishop finding out he has a wife. Keeping in mind Mormons don’t forbid priests from marrying, however Ben grew up extreme strict Catholic and his brother is the current leader of Opis Dia and he has to keep up appearances of being a Catholic Priest for his brother, from times when he visites from Italy, which happens a few times a year. Ben became a High priest in the Mormon church, but then goes to several local Catholic churches when his brother is in America, so that he can say he’s a High Priest without lying about it, and keeps his brother thinking he’s Catholic High Priest when he’s actually a Mormon High Priest. In other words, Ben lives a very big double life of trying to juggle his priesthood in two religions, hiding it from each other religion, while also maintaining a (very annoyed) wife (me) that he hides from BOTH religions.
Which is WHY, I’m allowed to PUBLICLY be friends with you, because it helps him to keep up the facade of “see, I’m not married, she hangs around with Paul”, which yes, that IS what Ben tells people at church about you.
Yes, Ben is a dick, I am very aware of this.
But, here’s the thing… Ben TELLS ME he is no longer in contact with any Mormons whatsoever, claims he hates, them, claims he shuns them, claims he’s not spoken to any of them since April 10, 2015…. HOWEVER… he was caught in July 2022, giving one of the Sanford Ward Mormons a ride to the store…. And Rick specifically, has been one the phone with him, when I came in the room and he thought I was elsewhere, causing Be to run around in a panic, knock his glasses off, break them by stepping on them, all while Rick was screaming out of the phone, “Ben, ya there? What happened? What’s going on?”
It appears the High Priest is back…. However, I suspected this in November 2021… the High Priest uses specific pontificating phraseology that none of Ben’s other personalities use…. And on november 24, 2021, the same night the Sanfard Ward Mormons were here cutting the wires off our Biddeford apartment building, Ben started talking like the High Priest again. It’s really distinctive. Normal people don’t talk in long winded drawn out droning, monologuing pontifications about Jesus, and of Ben’s 7 known people living inside him, the High Priest is the only ne who does this. Ben was here and witnessed the wire cutting event, he even went out side and talked to the crowd of “Todd Murphy” chanting lunatics to try to talk to them… and,... he said one of them is Todd Murphy’s grandmother from the Sanford Ward. Ben indicated at that point that he knew who Todd Murphy was, but since then, has denied knowing who Todd Murphy is. But, he came in, and told me outright that “I know her from the Sanfard Ward, she’s Todd Murphy’s grandmother”..
Each of the 7 people who live in Ben have no knowledge or memory of the other 6, and when one of the 7 does or says something, none of the other 6 have any memory of doing or saying those things.
It appears that The High Priest knows Todd Murphy, not only that, but also knows the attackers who came here daily from November 21, 2021 to May 17, 2022… and it looks like Ben, in his High Preist version of himself, is the one who told them where I live and is the one who worked them into a frenzy to begin with.
I have video footage of the homeless man who died Nov 19, 2021… a LOT of it. He knew Ben. That was obvious. Me and Ben were walking Main Street every night the summer of 2021 and the homeless man from under the trestle bridge would stop to talk to us a few times a week. And those weren’t just videos, those were Twitch livestreams so everyone watching my channel saw this homeless man stop and talk to Ben… he said he knew us. I did not recognize him, but Ben… I don’t know… Ben acted like he did know the homeless man, but didn’t want me to know it, so he told the homeless man he was mistaken. But people around local are saying that thie homeless man who kept showing up in my videos IS Todd Murphy, they say they saw my videos and it was Todd Murphy in my videos.
I am finding this whole thing very confusing… because NOW… even though I have video footage of Ben talking to the homeless man, Ben now claims, he never saw the homeless man at all and tells me I’m delusional. That's what he said: Ben said: “Your delusional, there was no homeless man” and, yet hundreds of people, many of them local, saw those videos of Ben talking to the homeless man. Which means, the man Ben was when he was walking with mt summer 2021,is NOT the man he is right now… and… either this a new 8th personality Ben has recently developed, or, it’s the High Priest back, but being deliberately sneaky to try to hide the fact that he’s the High Priest… which is odd, because before now, NONE of Ben’s multiple personalities have ever showed any signs of acknowledging any of the others, and the High Priest trying to high he’s the High Priest by trying to act like a different person, indicates the High Priest DOES remember and IS AWARE of the other personalities.
As you are well aware, I HATE the High Priest. I want nothing to do with him. I never would have married Ben if I had ever encountered his High Priest alter ego before marrying him.
June 26, 2016… FBI Agent Andy Drewer asked me to meet him at his Portland office on Middle St. He had… info. And a new primary suspect. Ben, specifically his High Priest alter ego, is the FBI’s #1 suspect in being the inforat, who told the golf club attackers I was at BugLight Lighthouse November 14, 2013. The FBI has phone records. I told only 3 people, where I was going that night: my mother, my father, and Ben. I told them only 5 minutes before I left, because I had been sick earlier and had previously told everyone I was not going to that event at the college. According to the FBI, my parents and step father Wayne Whiyyen, never left Biddeford, they continued to argue all night, and the FBI knows this because my father had hired a private investigator to tail Wayne, and so they have a lot of evidence as to where 2 of the 3 were. Ben on the other hand, called his friend Rick, the same Rick who was in my yard April 10, 2015… Minutes after I left my dad’s Water St apartment and drive to Southern Maine Community College, November 14, 2013… Ben called Rick. Rick drove to Ben’s house. And the two of them together left.
FBI Agent Andy Drewer had one question: “How well do you trust Ben? Because right now, he’s our primary suspect.”
They believe Ben told Rick, I was pregnant with someone else’s baby and Rick is the one who sent the golf club women to deliberately kill my baby.
Why do they believe this?
Because between 1987 and 2013 I have had 7 miscarriages, something that can be proven… Ben ins the only man I’ve ever been with. It’s not possible for anyone else to be the father. This was my 8th pregnancy by Ben and he was at the time running around accusing me of cheating on him with Etiole. The thing is… he IS the one people call Etiole… but his D.I.D. means he things Etiole is someone else, he doesn’t believe its him, because none of his personalities have any memory of each other.
Ben is a total nightmare to live with because I never know from one day to the next, who the hell he is going to be that day.
Ben has denied every pregnancy. Why? His exact words are: “I wouldn’t. I am a High Priest. What would the Bishop think?”
According to the FBI too, Ben, behind my back, runs around from one LDS/Mormon congregation to the next tell people that I am quote: “An unrhightious, unfaithful aunty-Mormon who puts the church down.”
Interestingly, I have been a member of the Mormon church since 1975. Ben joined in the 1980s. Ben left the church in 2015. I am still a member.
My FATHER is an extremist anti-Mormon, who preaches hatred for the Mormon church. Not me. Kenny, my father, is the anti-Mormon. My father, is such a huge radical extremist anti-Mormon that he has gone on to convince my mother, a 5th generation Mormon who is related to one of Smith’s poly-wives, to leave the church. She left the Mormon church in 1994 and joined up with some anti-Mormon group lead by some woman named Tanner or something. My mother, took her anti-Mormonis to extremes far above and beyond my father, taking to FaceBook and a forum called exMormon something and went total psycho nutjob anti-Mormon conspiracy theory all over the internet through the late 1990s into the 200s and still does it to this day now in 2023, preaching her wild anti-Mormon conspiracy theories now 27 years. In 3 years it’ll be her 30th anniversary of her wild mega hyper anti-Mormon rampage, with my father cheering her on and needling her forward the whole way in a weird Bonnie and clyde style vendetta attack everyone who is a Mormon hate fueled bigotry.
I on the other hand, am still a Mormon, have never had anything to do with the anti-Mormon movement, and, was shocked to learn from the FBI, that, the anti-Mormon rumors about me online are massive, and spread largely by members of the Saco and Sanfard Wards, with their info being just misinformation they regurgitate after talking to Ben, my mother, or my father.
Apparently, because I am bedridden and crippled, since 2013, and thus have had no way to get to church these past nine years, this, my absence in church meetings, after 48 years of never once missing a meeting, has allowed my mother, my father, and Benn to be able to spread wild anti-Mormon rumors about me, with the 3 of them going to my church, the Sandford Ward, and telling the church leaders that I’m not in church because I’ve turned anti-Mormon.
And yet, it is Ben who is the biggest anti-Mormon of all… he’s actual friends with that Tanner woman. My parents only run around preaching the Tanner woman’s message, Ben, actually sought her out and became personal friends with her and helps the Tanner woman one on one…. And he brags about this all the time.
I’m sick of hearing all the anti-Mormon Tanner woman bullcrap from Ben and my father and my mother so, whenever any of the three of them start chiding me for being a Mormon and telling me how evil and deceived I am because I refuse to leave the Mormon church, I just put my headphones on and listen to Markiplier YouTube videos and, ignore them.
I don’t hate the Mormon church like Ben, my mother, and my father do, so I am fed up with them constantly bitching at me because I’m a Mormon. Which is why I’ve not spoken to my father in 3 years even though we live in the same apartment, and was a contributing factor to why I blocked my mother on FaceBook in 203 and have had no contact with her at all offline since… though that hasn’t stopped her from showing up, trespassing, and hounding me.
Ben, is far worse then my mother or my father combined… since 2015, he has hand written thousands of anti-Mormon letters to every church leader he can find, local, not local, all the heads in Utah… and he bought a dozen cases, each case with 144 books in it, cases of Ket Kerr’s books and daily mails them out to every member on every rouster list of every ward in the Exiter and Augusta stakes, using his position as High Priest Quorum leader to get the home addresses of every Mormon in Southern Maine and New Hampshire, mailing all of them aunty-Mormon letters and copies of Kat Kerr’s books. Ben, as you know, has more money then he knows what to do with, and right now, he’s spreading thousands of dollars every day, just on the postage stamps to mail Kat Kerr’s books and his anti-Mormon letters to every local Mormon he can find.
And so, I knew he was mailing out the Kat Kerr books… but, until FBI agent Andy Drewer told me, I did not know that Ben and my mother and my father, having been putting MY NAME of the letters they are mailing out to people, and the three of them, through impersonating me, have got my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, 100% convinced that I stopped attending church because I’mm now an anti-Mormon who hates the church, and that’s why my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, are both unaware that I have NOT left the church, but rather I’m bedridden and crippled and have no one to help me get to church.
And so, now I’m finding out, that Ben, my mother, and my father, working together, according to the FBI, seem to be the fuel that is, and has been for several years, the fuel working locals up into a frenzy… including, they are the ones who are getting the Atwaters riled up, my being an Atwater, and the Atwaters further fueling locals on top of what Ben, my mother, and my father are doing.
What is their motive?
I ask them.
My father says he’s doing it to impress my mother so she’ll remarry him.
My mother says she’s doing it because I need to sell my land and give her the money so she can buy a house in Kennebunk.
Ben says he’s doing it because Mormons are led astray by Satan and he has to save my soul from Hell.
I’m so sick of all of them.
You know, one of the things I find most weird about the Atwaters is that so many of them seem to think I know them, even though I have never met them, nor even know any of their names.
Of the original twelve, I have only ever met five of them. And while I know Danny, I don’t even know the names of his siblings. I met Angelia once when she was twelve, at a Halloween party at the Cape Elizabeth Ward LDS Church, and then I saw her for about 2 minutes before she left. And Danny I only met when I was 37 years old and I only saw him about 10 times, back when my mother was trying to scam him out of his money from being hit by a train… which I didn’t know that was why she was visiting him, until a few years later when she had a big rant about how she wouldn’t visit him any more because he was, in her words “stingy and greedy” because he refused to give her the money to “use as a downpayment for a house in Kennebunk”. I should have known that was why she was visiting him, as that’s the only reason she ever does anything. She’s obsessed with trying to by that $3.7million mansion by the Wedding Cake House, and has been trying to scam relatives out of money for a downpayment on it for decades now… it was her reason for her involvement in the backhoe that her brother Joey hired to drive over my house. She and Joey figured I’d sell my land if there was no house on it. They didn’t exect me to set up a lean to made out of a 8x6 tarp and just spend the next 9 years living under that.
I met Doris once when she was squatting illegally on my land back in 1996. Took me and the Old Orchard Beach Police 9 months to get them out. I only ever saw her one day. She had 4 military tents, the size houses, 2 Winobegos and a Cadillac, that they illegally dumped on top of my corn crops, along with more then 600 bicycles, and 2 school buses full of sawed up copper pipes. Took us 9 months to find out who in the hell was living there and dumping that garbage on m land, and it turned out it was Doris. Only time I ever saw her, was one day, for about 15 minutes.
I remember Micheal, Tonya, and Scotty from before the caged years, but, I was put in the cage hen I was 8 years old, so I’ve not seen then since I was 8.
Once every year, usually on September 19th, David and Lucy would show up with a herd of incredibly violent gun toting vandals who would go through our farm and use shovels to chop the heads off all our pet cats, dogs, hens, ducks, and roosters. They were kill 200 to 500 of our pets every year in this anuel bloodbath on my farm. I don’t know who the hoodlums were. David said they were his kids, but he also said he had 15 kids and there were WAY more then 15 people involved in the annual Sptember 19 boodbaths… way more, closer to 100. Brucie said once that it was not JUST Davivd’s kids, but also a group known as The Halls. I don’t know who any of them were, but the police showed up every time, trying to get them out, and they always had huge shootouts with the police every year. It’s why I have a massive phobia of guns. A bunch of them were arrested in 1982, when that time the state police drg team showed up and arrested them and confincasted meth, marhawana, opium, and LSD
I know Dickie, Brucie, David, and Barbara because they were the ones that helped my mother build that room, that they locked me in when I was 8 years old, right after my Grammy Hellen Ricker’s funeral. They kept me in there for 27 years. One of the 4 of them would show up every 12 days to throw rotted molded food in the cracks between the boards. They are the only 4 Atwaters I know, and I only know them from their weekly coming into the room to beat me up, torture me. They are the five who raised me and said I was not Human, said I was a Demon and that I wasn’t allowed out of that room because Demons weren’t allowed to have contact with Humans.
I was 12 years old when the High Priest found out about that room, and he took me out every Sunday to go to church, and then took me back to that room after.
No one ever told me I was a Human and was allowed to go outside or talk to Humans until the social workers showed up when I was 31 years old. They are the ones who started using the term “feral child” to describe me and they to this day are still trying to “integrate me into Human culture” but two of them say they have given up on trying to convince me I am Human, they say there is little chance of my mind ever fully grasping the concept of being human because it’s too difficult to undo the three decades of Brucie, David, Dickie, Barbara, and my mother doing their “child social experiment” (as the social workers call it) to raise me to believe I was not human. They said the bigger problem is the fact that almost immediately after I was rescued out of that room/cage they kept me locked in for 27 years, the 2006 bomb blew up my house, which the FBI says it was Barbara’s husband Paul Martel who did that, but I don’t know why, as I never met him or even knew about him prior to the FBI arresting him, and the backhoe arrived to drive over my house 5 different times over the next 10 years, same back hoe, same yard, different house each time, as I kept rebuilding houses. Then I found that headless girl in the marsh with all the headless dogs and the FBI thinks one of the Atwaters did it seeing how the headless dogs were lined up in a row from my land to the march, each dog about 500 feet apart (for some reason the Saco and Sanford ward church members forget my land in Old Orchard abuts the Scarborough Marsh and is right on the edge of OOB bordering Pine Point in Scarborough. And that the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh was literally only a few hundred feet away from my driveway… they keep asking why I am obsessed with the Oulette Case, but they forget I’m the one who found the dead girl in the Marsh and that she was set up in a friging ritual pose, practically on my front lawn AND the FBI thinks the whole thing was done in some weird attempt by the Atwaters to frame me, so that I would go to prison for murder and they culd take my land… which it’s always my land and the Atwater obsession with taking it that is at the core of everything)
But in any case, the social workers say that because these events were my very first interactions with Humans, that it instilled in me an psychosis effect of further belief in not being human because I had trouble accepting the fact that I am the same type of creature as the monsters humans are, because, yeah, all I’ve ever seen from humans is death, bloodshed, violence and distruction. I have no reason to WANT to be integrated into a society that leaves headless dogs and headless girls in my front yard.
But then 2013, came along…. Social workers got me into college in 2010, in an attempt to show me that ONLY the Atwaters were shitty bloodthirsty bastards and that MOST humans don’t drop dead headless animals all over their houses and yards the way the Atwares do. And they were right. Humans in college were nothing like the Atwaters and their drug dealing, petty thieve, ganster thugs. The social workers and police keep telling me that this sort of behavior is not normal and that it is ONLY something the Atwaters and their friends do, that normal humans don’t act, do, or say the things the Atwaters do.
But then, I’m constantly running into people who make the claim to “know all about” me and they will spout off this weird freaked out stuff about witchcraft and curses and spelcasting and aliens and ufos and, I’m left totally clueless because I don’t know a single thing at all about witchcraft or curses or spellcasting or aliens or ufo, and I can’t figure out why these people think I have the faintest idea what the fuck they are even talking about.
They’ll say they thought I was some expert in casting curses and say they want to hire me to cast curses on people, and they act like spell casting is some sort of job I do. I don’t know heads or tails about spell casting.
They’ll say, “But your the sea witch of Old Orchard Beach”... yeah, people have been calling me that ever since Stephen King filmed Thinner on my land back in the early 1990s, but, I’ve never read a Stephen King book or seen a Stephen King movie, not even Thinner, so, I haven’t got a clue what is in his books and movies. All I know is he based some “Gypsy witch” in Thinner off me, because I’m the “Queen” (aka Priestess) of a local Gypsy clan. A Gypsy Queen is similar to a Catholic Nun in the Folk Catholicism of Mexico and has nothing to do with witches, witchcraft, spells, or curses, so I don’t know what the fuck Stephen King did in the Thinner movie to make people think I’m some kind of spell casting witch, but, people seem to have trouble understanding that the Thinner movie is FICTIONAL. I’m not a witch and I don’t know the first thing about witches or witchcraft. I haven’t got a clue how to cast spells or curses. And I can’t figure out why so many total random strangers think they can walk up to me at WalMart or Rotary Park or the library and demand I cast some curse on someone for them.
But, when these people do this, and it happens EVERY SINGLE TIME I go outside, which I have agoraphobia, so it’s sometimes weeks or months between my setting foot outside, every single time I go out, some one always identifies me as a witch and watches a curse cast.
At the same time I’ve got these UFO nuts constantly coming up to me asking me this or that about some weird ass alien ufo idea, and I never have a clue what they are talking about, They use all sorts of weird ass words and phrases that I’ve never heard before and gibber on like another language which I can’t understand… but then they act all surprised that I don’t know the meanings of the words they are using, and they’ll say: “But I thought you were supposed to be a top expert on UFOs and alien abductions” and I’m like what the hell are they even talking about and how the hell would anyone in their right mind come to think that I would believe in ufos or aliens, when I think people who believe in ufos and aliens are raving lunatics, my uncle Brucie being a perfect example of a raving lunatic who believes in aliens and ufos.
I don’t get it.
But then, every time this happened, and it just happened again today, because, as you know I’ve not received any mail since May 2022 and I went to the post office yet again today to once again ask where the hell is my mail… and low and behold, I can’t set foot outside without some alien believing, curse believing freak ass weirdo nutjob showing up to ask me to put a curse on someone while gibbering about ufos.
I ask him, where the hell did he get the ludacris idea that I was a witch, that I cast curses, or that I believed in aliens, nd he said: “Well, your mother says on FaceBook…” yeah, my mother is a freaking nut, which is why I’ve had nothing to do with her in decades. She’s a white power freak who runs around calling black people the n-word, is part of the anti-vaccer micro-chip in vaccines conpreracy theory, wouldn’t let me or my brothers go to school because in her words “the government controls the schools, and satan controls the government”, SHE spends 90% of her time running around putting curses on people, all she does is talk about whores and demons, demons and whores, every other word out of her mouth is either demon or whore. And the only time she ever shows up its because she’s trying to pul yet another lame ass scam to try to steal my land because she hated my grandmother and says it’s her life duty to destroy everything that”ever bolgned to that old bitch of a whore” including the farm I inherted from gramy Helen. My mother is spiteful, violent, vindictive, and has a police record for running around beating people in the face with bricks. On top of all of that she’s chronic liar and I’ve never heard a truthful word come out of her mouth.
I am well aware that my mother is the source of 90% of the problem, simply because she’s the biggest fucking gossip in Southern Maine, after he sister Barbara, and the two of them are rather famous all over Maine for thei trouble they have caused HUNDREDS of families. They are petty Karens who devote every minute of their lives to making up vicsious rumors and lies about every person they see, both people they know and people they don’t know.
And thanks to the FBI investigation into the murder of my on, I’ve found out a LOT about both my mother and Barbara and the bizarre, outlandish extremes they each have gone to in their petty vindictivness.
But the fact remains, I’ve not had contact with either of those bitches in several decades, precisely because I am sick and tired of their endless hate for everything and everyone around them. They both do nothing but gossip and lie, lie and gossip, and run around like a couple of teenage brats making a game out of seeing who they can hurt next … they fucking brag about it and spend hours laughing over how fun it is to destroy families.
It doesn’t take any level of intelligence to see that the dynamic trio (Barbara, Brucie, and my mother) are the source of every damn rumor about everyone in York County, Maine.
It’s such a big problem that I’ve had people come to my apartment and ask me if I could ask my mother and her siblings to leave their family alone. The fucking Biddeford Police have stopped by my apartment to ask me if I could do anything about my mother, that’s how I found out it was HER who knows Todd Murphey, because the police came right out and told me that my mother has been harassing Todd Murphey’s ex-wife and 15 year old son on their FaceBook accounts and wanted to know if I could ask her to stop.
No. I can’t. And you know why? Because when I asked her to stop spreading witchcraft and curse casting rumors about me, she arrived the next day and cut my car in half! The 1964 Dodge 330… she said it had a demon in it and she had to kill the demon by killing the car. What the fuck? She’s fucking insane!
And worse… half the time, these people will tell me some name I never heard of. Say this or that person told them I was a witch who cast curses or was some alien expert, and I’ll ask them who the hell is that, and they’ll say: “Oh that’s one of Brucie’s kids” or “David’s kids” or a grandkid… and I’ll point ou that I’ve NEVER EVEN MET Brucie's kids or Davids kids or ANY of the rest of the Atwares.
There are more then four hundred Atwaters, and I’ve meet EXACTLY SEVEN of them in my life time. I don’t even know the names of all the original twelve, let alone the names of their kids or grandkids… why would I? Most of them live in Utah and I’ve not set foot outside of Maine for nearly SIXTY YEARS!
I’ve never in my entire life even talked with an Atwter, not face to face off line, not online.
Because I’ve never even seen pictures of any of the Atwaters, I wouldn’t even know an Atwater if I saw one!
And yet, they run around spouting off things I supposedly said or did, and make the claim I’ve talked to them… and I’m just left wondering who the fuck is running around talking to the Atwaters while pretending to be me, because I don’t even know who the Atwaters are!
Clearly, there is someone out there pretending to be me and the Atwaters think they are talking to me, but they are NOT talking to me, I’m not talking to them, and I want to know in the the fuck is running around pretending to be me?
Its so damned fucking obvious the Atwaters don’t know one iota about me, just by the level of the ludicrous witchcraft, curse, alien, and ufo lies they spread around about me!
I should be able to go to my post office, go shopping, heck just walk down my driveway to get my mail, without being bombarded with stupid ass freaks gibbering about witches, curses, demons, aliens, and ufos! I am so damned sick of my mother and her fucking Atwater relatives…
You know, another thing that’s fucked up about all this and again is my mother running around lying her ass off to hell and back, yet again… is this whole situation with HER cats.
The attack on my family, happened the same day as the whole thing with her cats, and she is so obsessed with the cats, that she has gone out of her way to run around telling people that when I talk about April 10, 2025, I’m talking about HER cats… but, in order to further promote that lie, she also tells people they were MY cats! What the fuck?
You know that Nick guy my mother sleeps around with? The one she broke up his marriage, convinced him to leave his wife and kids down in Mass and move up here to Maine, because she was scamming him… the guy she stole his credit card and went and bought that shed she put on my land, and bought those $2k dogs with, and bought those appliances with, and bought that tractor with, before that Nick guy found out she stole his credit cards? Him.
Did you know, she convinced him that she owned MY land in Old Orchard Beach, and she tried to get him to join her scam, and pretend he was a real estate agent, and my mother and her pimp Nick tried to sell my land last year… and this is not the first time she’s done this.
Did you know, that in 2007, she went to the town hall, pretending to be me, had them divide my land into sections, and then sold one section? That’s why Don Cooliard and his sister have a house in my driveway now… something they built in 2019… and it was when they built the house in 2019, that was when I found out my shit face mother and her jackass whore master Nick, sliced off a peice of my land in 2007 and sold it!
I had no idea they had done it!
That’s the kind of shit faced scum bag scam artist my mother and her fuck buddy Nick are!
But it gets worse.
My mother had 83 cats… eighty three cats.
And she was hiding 113 of them in an apartment owned by this Nick scammer. He found out she had cats in her apartment… guess what day… April 14, 2015. The day before the attack on my farm.
Here’s a thing… did you know there were no locks on the doors of my motorhome? Not one. I bought it February 21, 2012, and first thing I did was took all the locks off, because I have a PTSD phobia of locks, after my mother kept me locked in the room cage thing for 27 years.
And yet… when the vandals showed up with a Blow Brothers sewage truck to fill my motorhome with 500 gallon of raw feces, they had to pry a padlock off the door to get inside. A padlock, that I did not put there.
Do you know how that padlock got there? My mother put it there the night before, when she took HER thirteen cats, and shoved them in my motorhome, without telling me she was doing it… because she had to hide them from Nick.
People often ask, why, I a professional artist whom has had displayed at the Portland Museum of art… don't paint anymore.
It’s because paint supplied are expensive, and 500 gallons of raw human feces not only did $10k in damages to my bedroom, it also destroyed $30k in art materials.
But it gets worse… my mother was two timing Nick with both my father Kenny and her other ex husband Wayne… and on top of that, she was mad at Wayne, so, it turns out, that 7 of those cats were HIS cats, and she had stolen them from HIM…. so not only was she hiding thirteen cats from Nick, but seven of those cats were stolen cats besides!
She put the cats in my motorhome, them, because she is fueding with ALL her whore master fuck buddy men, one of them, the FBI hasn’t figured out which one yet, filled my motorhome with feces out of a Blow Brother’s sewage truck (my cousin Ken Blow is my neighbour, they stole one of his trucks to do it) , and then called the police and told them that the motorhome was HERS, because my mother had been running around telling everybody it was hers, she these guys thought they were pumping sewage into my mother’s bedroom and didn’t know they were pumping sewage into my bedroom.
But, because they DID know that she had put the cats in there, and they were made at both her and Wayne, they thought if they called the police, the police would arrest her and Wayne…
,...however, the gays haters of the local Mormon churches ALSO showed up that same morning, a completely separate incident from the cats, to attack my family, because, earlier that year, I had published a gay Romance novel, called Night of the Screaming Unicorn, and these gay hating church freaks, decided murdering my family was punishment for me publishing a Gay Romance novel.
A fucking five towns worth of police, including a SWAT team showed up… the white robed klan pretenders fled, thep police found the cats, I was left asking “What cats? What are you even talking about?” Later an officer asked me if I knew the cats, and I said, “Yeah, these ones belong to my step father Wayne up in Biddeford and those ones belong to my on the other side of Bideford, how the hell did they get in my motorhome?”
And the court cases people talk about… there where SEVEN different court cases going on all at once, including the Guy Gamon murder trail because he murdered my dog walker who walked my dog when I was sick, which was the big case, that uncovered he was a serial rapist, and went on for several years and included a jury trial.
The murder trail of my family was also going on. Different court case.
And then, my MOTHER had a court case going on with police over the cats, which, in the middle of that, she spun it around, started telling people the cats were mine, and the next thing I knew, there were TWO MORE court cases slapped on me, that I knew nothing about… both an extension of the cat case my mother had going on, because 2 weeks into HER court case about HER cats that SHE hid from Nick in MY motorhome, she had Nick convince the police to switch the case out of her name into my name, because she had convinced Nick that the cats were mine! So all of a sudden, I get this weird court case about HER cats slapped on me, on top of the three murder cases and rape case, that were already going on.
The cat court case lasted less then an hour before the judge threw it out of court, telling some Dan guy that if he ever tried to pull a stunt like this again (apparently he worked for the Old Orchard Beach town hall and had pulled scam court cases to frame disabled women before, because the judge told the Dan guy that this was the 64th bogus case he had done to try to steal land from disabled women in OOB)...... but… the judge was asking me about the cats, and I keep telling him, I don’t know anything about the cats because they were not my cats, they were my mother’s cats, and I still had no clue how they had even gotten in my motorhome in Old Orchard Beach, 14 miles away from Nick’s apartment in Biddeford where they had been for several years before that. Finally the judge asked if someone could get my mother to the court house, and surprisingly she showed up… with Nick of all people… and she boo-hooed to the court about the cats being mine, and my being homeless and living under a tarp (I was still living under the tarp in 2015, but not at the time of the attack… I had just moved in with my dad in Biddeford March 31, 2015 due to I have just come out of intensive surgery and the doctor wanted me to not be sleeping outdoors for the next 6 months because I had intensive amounts of surgery to heal from, so I wasn’t in Old Orchard the day my mother put HER cats in my motorhome and that’s why I had no clue the cats were in there).
Well, the judge got mad at my mother, because it was blatantly obvious to him that the cats were hers, because she was using all the cats’ names, while I didn’t know the cats’ names, and she was describing what they looked like and what breeds and ages they were, while I didn’t know what half the cats looked like, Three of the cats I had never even seen before, and I didn’t know their names. I didn’t know how many cats there were!
The judge outright told my mother to her face that she ought to be ashamed of what she did, framing me and pretending the cats were mine, and he sent the cats to the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter, something we knew right there in the court room, but in order to get pity, and money (my mother started a fund raiser on one of those kickstarter type places) saying she needed to raise money to locate the cats. What the fuck? We knew where the cats were. They were at the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter… she even went there to try to get them back… asked me to drive her there in my car, took Wayne with her because the cats were technically HIS cats that she stole from him… I have the whole thing on video camera, it was livestreamed… she had a big fucking fight with the people at the shelter and they told her they’s arrest her if she ever tried to get near their shelter again.
After that, she built up this weird ass conspiracy that the cats were sent to lots of shelters and foster care… which they probably were., I don’t know… and she went from one animal shelter to the next harassing them.
Meanwhile, her friend Joel Baily hacks my Twitter account and uses it to harass, yet another of my mother’s whore master men that she sluts around with trying to get money out of… some guy named Mark, who I never heard of before, but apparently, he’s been friends with my mother AND my father for some forty odd years, even though I myself had never seen or heard of him before. And yes, the same Joel Bailey from the Saco Ward and Old Orchard Beach town hall who went to prison for hacking the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall bank account and transferring $30MILLION in OOB tax money to members of the Saco Ward church… who it turns out, most of them were the anti-gay attackers in my yard April 10, 2015, which is why 24 members of that church went to prison between 2016 and 2021.
So, I’m still unable to do anything because, you know, still recovering from major spine surgery, because of the golf club attack that murdered my son in 2013, three years earlier, I didn;t have surgery until 2015 and 2016., because of the fucking red tape the USA medical system runs on… here I am, not online at all since November 14, 2013, so I have not yet told anyone about any of the April 10, 2015, and come January 2016, all of a sudden, there’s the Mark guy who crawls out of the woodwork, with yet another court case, this one claiming I was saying stuff on Twittrer about him… and yet, I had never heard of this guy before AND I hadn’t been online since November 14, 2013, so what the fuck? Who the hell is hacking my Twitter account pretending to be me, while harassing this guy I never even heard of before. But by this point FBI Agent Andy Drwer had taken over the whole case, and by June 2016, he found out, yeah,:” it’s your mother’s friends from the Saco Ward church. She’s convinced them the cats were yours and that you need to be punished for animal abuse, that you didn’t even do, by hacking your accounts and framing you” Great. So yet again, my mother and her cat obsession and her Atwater friends, and her Saco ward friends, and her fcck buddies are at the core of all of this, with them once again, putting my name on something I fucking had no part of and didn’t even know anything about! What the fuck!
This court case was ALL livestreamed, you can go watch it on YouTube. The Cat Court case was also live streamed. You can watch that on YouTube too. The murder court cases and the rape court cases, also livestreamed. You can watch them on YouTube too. And then on top of that, was the Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach Court case with the Old Orchard Bach Town Hall… also livestreamed, you can watch that on YouTube as well.
My mother, Nick. all these Saco Ward church people, the Dan guy, the Mark guy, the Gene guy… they are ALL on livestream… the judges, the police officers, the witnesses, the DA, even the FBI agents… all recorded, all livestreamed on Twich, all archived on YouTube, all SEVEN court cases, every day of every trial. You can go watch them all yoursel and see the truth, instead of listening to siller gossip and rumors started by my mother and her Nick buddy trying to cover their asses for trying to steal my land YET AGAIN, via the cats.
But have you ever noticed it is ONLY my mother and Nick talking about the cats in connection to April 10, 2015… do you notice how I never talk about the cats, because… oh look… they were NOT my cats, they were my MOTHER’S cats and that’s why SHE is talking about them?
Did you also notice how, in order to make people believe the cats were mine, that both my mother and Nick, are going out of their way to try to erase the existence of my family that was murdered that same day?
Did you notice how in order to push THEIR cat agenda, my mother and Nick are are doing a major gaslighting move to try to make everyone FORGET what happened two years earlier on November 14, 2013, the day my son was murdered and my spine was broken?
Did you notice how my mother and Nick are trying to use THEIR cats as a slight of hand move, so people wouldn’t see that they DID steal and sell part of my land to Don Colliard in 2007 nd that they tried to sell another section of my land in March 2015… yes, yet another court case which was going on, BEFORE the cats happened, and that the FBI believes my mother and Nick pulled the cat stunt deliberately to try to make people look the other way and forget that she and Nick tried to steal my land only 2 weeks prior to the cat event? Or that she and Nick tried for a THIRD time to steal and sell my land April 2022…
Know the truth.
Those cats were not mine, they never were, and I’m sick and tired of the jack ass fucking animal abuse rumors and lies my mother and Nick are spreading about me… lies that they are spreading ONLY to try to cover up the fact that they were trying to steal my land, to sell my land, so my mother could by some fucking mansion in Kennebunk.
Well guess what… my son is buried on my land, He’s been buried there since November 2013, and it doesn’t matter that there is no house on my land, because my son’s there and I’m never selling it. And my mother and he Nick and Saco Ward and Atwater friends are bunch of fucking scum bags who don’t give a shit about anything but the damned fucking money they think they can get out of my land.
So, we have confirmation that yes, our mail IS being stolen from 146 Portland Ave. As you already know, we have not received mail since May 2022 and it is now March 2023, it's nearly a year. Post office has just been saying "we are short drivers" and has not looked into it... so we went over the heads of the local Old Orchard Beach post office and went to the distribution center, and told the state post master what was going on, they got in touch with our delivery driver, and he has delivered our mail every day, all year, and is baffled because the post office had not alerted him that we were not getting our mail. So, YES, if you live on Portland Ave, in Old Orchard Beach, and have not been receiving mail, and I know most of my neighbors are saying they've not gotten mail in weeks to months, as well, go to the Saco distribution center in the industrial park, and complain there, because tour driver IS delivering daily and has not been missing delivers... all missing mail from Portland Ave is stolen and you need to let them know what mail you have not received to they can get to the bottom of finding who is doing it.
So, while I was at the post office today, seeing how the post office is on the Cascade Road, out here in the Old Orchard Beach section of the Scarbourgh Marsh... I decided to check the family cross, see if the name Todd had been added, seeing how the vandals and shitard harassers can't stop gibbering Todd Murphey this and Todd Murphey that in my driveway, and nope... here it is, https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg as you can see the only two names are my cousin Timmy Murphy and my uncle Gordon Murphy. No Todd.
You know, I would recommend these shittards take their heads out of their asses, and drive through all the roads of the Scarbourough Marsh. Why?
This cross is one of the more then a hundred crosses in the marsh, which marks the locations of the one hundred and twenty people whom have been beheaded in a four mile radius since June 2001. This cross stand at the Ross Road x Cascade Rd intersection. The Cascade Road, as everyone who watches the local news is aware, is where bulk of the serial killer's attacks have occurred, which is why local news reporters have dubbed the entire case as "The Cascade Murders", officially know to law enforcement as "The Oulette Case".
If you start driving through all the side streets of the Scarbourgh Marsh, you will find there are 120 - one hundred and twenty - of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them, each marking the location where the the person dubbed by locals as "The Portland Ave serial killer" has murdered 120+ people between June 2001 and February 2021.
For some odd reason, the Sanford Ward LDS church, a church only a 30 minute drive awa from the Scarborough Marsh, is so clueless about the local biome, that they seem to think the ONLY place the Scarborough Marsh exists is across the street from the church owned candy store Len Libby's Chocolates.
Do you recall how people like to dub my land "Etiole's Swamp"... do you know why they do that? Because my land is a literal swamp. It's a peat bog, with more sinking quicksand and 6 foot tall marsh grass, then solid ground. I live IN the Scarbough Marsh, as does EVERYONE on Portland Ave, Ross Road, Pine Point Road, Cascade Road, Walnut Street, East Grand Ave, West Grand Ave, Milliken Mills Rd, and more then 200 - two hundred - other streets in Old Orchard Beach, all of which are located inside the Scarborough Marsh.
The Marsh is not JUST in Scarborough, nor is it just that one quart mile stretch of road across from Len Libby's. The Marsh sits in two countries and five towns, and covers several thousand acres of land... and the Scarborough WalMart and the South Portland Main Mall, both site in the marsh, with both of those mega buildings building on a massive system of concrete pilings to keep them from sinking into the many acres of peat bog that site under each of those buildings.
But do take a drive on the above listed streets in Old Orchard, as well as the following ones in Pine Point: Pine Point Rd, Blue Point Rd, Black Point Rd, Dunstan Corner, Portland Rd aka Rt 1, Payne Rd, and all the little side streets off of each one. In Saco head to Heath St, Jenkins Rd, Flag Pond Rd (stop and see the very real pet cemetery where Stephen King's The Pet Cemetery movie was filmed while you are there), and all their side streets, yes those are in the Scarbourogh Marsh as well... and instead of just blindly driving through the Marsh on your way to work, slow down and start counting the crosses... big white crosses, little white crosses, unpainted wooden crosses, reflector covered orange crosses... see if you can find all one hundred and twenty crosses in the Scarbourogh Marsh... they sit in 5 towns, in 2 counties... and every one of them marks the location of someone who was beheaded by a still uncaught, still actively killing people, serial killer who has plagued the streets in the Portland Ave region of the Scarbough Marsh since June 2001.
But as you can see, it's Timmy Murphy who was beheaded on the Cascade Rd... not Todd Murphy... there's it's cross which has stood there since June 2013.
You know, if these harassers spent more time paying attention to what is going on around them, and less time being self absorbed jerks... they'd know these crosses were here... they'd know, Old Orchard Beach has a serial killer on the lose who has beheaded more then 120 people and left their bodies at cross road intersections all over the marsh... they'd know that this has been going on for 18 years now, and they'd know that my family had been hit by this madman multiple times now, fist killing my cousin Timmy Murphy, then killing my baby and leaving me not only crippled, but also one of only 5 people to live through and survive one of this serial killer's attacks, thus WHY the FBI is so hyper focused on not letting me out of their sight because this killer has a history of not leaving people alive... they'd know that SEVENTEEN families all within a quarter mile section of Portland Ave, between Walnut St and Milekin Miles Rd, 17 families in this space of street, have not only have their families murdered, but their houses bulldozed by a backhoe, and in just those 17 families, in addiction to the dead people, there are also more then FIVE HUNDRED dead pets, including cats, dogs, birds, and horses, every one of which was beheaded and the headless pet hung from rope nooses and draped in trees and porches of the 17 families... something the FBI says is a scene from a Stephen King book, which the serial killer likes to recreate... and then the FBI points out this: each of those 17 families has appeared in The Thinner movie... it's the one common thread for ALL 120+ Scarbourough Marsh killings: every sing victim has somehow been involved in the filming on one of the 14 Stephen King movies which was filmed in Saco, Old Orchard Beach, and Scarboughor back in the 1980s. According to the FBI, EVERY SINGLE ONE of these murders, animal killings, harassments, vandalisms, and hate crimes, can be found in a Stephen King book and this lunatic is recreating "art" in tribute to Stephen King, using the bodies of family members who were involved in the filming of Stephen King's oldest movies.
If these people in the Sanford Ward church would take their heads out of Joesph Smith's ass long enough to look around, they would have known these things were going on, that they were going on to people in their congregation, that several members of their congregation have stopped attended church because they were murdered, that several other members of their congregation no longer attend because like me they are crippled and bed ridden from these attacks, and that 24 members of their congregation no longer attend church because they are in prison for their connections and involvements in these murders.
Heck, these murders have been all over the TV and paper news for 18 years now... you'd think the people of the Saco and Sanford Ward LDS churches - who are the ones in my driveway bitch screaming about Todd Murphey for the past 2 years now - would at least have seen enough TV news or newspaper news... oh look, did you know one of the big name newscasters on TV, someone who has in fact covered the Scarbough Marsh case on TV several times now, is a member of the Sanfard Ward congregation, and even SHE knows what's going on, obviously because she's one of the reporters who keeps showing up to interview all us families who live in in the Scarborough Marsh... so I know not everyone in the Sandford Ward is clueless as to what has been going on in the community round them.... several of these church members are outright screaming, literally screaming from my neighbor's front porch in Biddeford, that they never heard of any of this before... I'm sorry... what the fuck?
The Scarbourough Marsh murders is quite literally the biggest unsolved murder case in all of New England, not just Maine, it's been covered by DateLine, 20/20 and half the crime network tv shows! The fucking planet has heard of it! These people are telling me, literally, while standing on my neighbors front porch and shrieking at the tops of their lungs, that they never heard of this murder case, a murder case I've not stopped talking about for the last 9 years because as of 9 years ago now members of my family have been murdered.. heck, with so many deaths now, it's pretty hard to find any family in the Scarbourough Marsh who DOESN'T have a dead relative killed by this nutjob... and these people, who vandalized our apartment building so bad that the landlord has a repair crew here all of this next upcoming summer... these vandals and hate fueled harassers from the Sandford Ward church, are telling me, that they had no clue any of this was going on?
And worse... y Atwater relatives... they keep showing up and ALSO saying they never heard of this... really? How? I know the FBI has been talking to them about it because they keep showing up in a rage yelling that the FBI was just at their house and it's all my fault and demanding I stop sending the FBI to their house... but I didn't send the FBI to their house, heck, I didn't even know they were related to me, as I never heard of them before they showed up to yell at me, so how the hell do they think I sent the FBI over there? What the fuck?
But also... what the fuck? Family members have been murdered and as far as I know, the FBI is trying to locate every relative to find out if they might have any information about a member of their family being murdered... I mean, if these people really are relatives, like they scream that they are when they are in my yard yelling at me, then, someone in my family being murdered IS ALSO someone in THEIR family being murdered.... and yeah, of course the law enforcement is going to go to every family member and ask for info, that's what law enforcement does, because, they just naturally assume that normal families help each other and WANT to solv a murder that happened in their family.
Which is something FBI Agent Andy Drewer pointed out to me, he said: "The Atware relatives of yours... they're pretty paranoid aren't they? I'm having trouble getting any of them to talk to me. Most slam the door in my face the minute I say I'm with the FBI. They act like they got something to hide. Looks mighty suspicious. Can you think of any reason why any of your uncles might want you dead?" That was the same day he pointed out that his five top suspects for the November 14, 2013 attack were my uncle Bruce, my aunt Barbara, my mother, my father, and Ben. He said he can prove they all knew about the golf club attack, and yet everyone of them is openingly, publicly denying any knowledge of it, and all five of them are doing their most public outspoken, over the top denying it in two places: The Saco Ward LDS Church and the Sandford Ward LDS Church.
And most disturbing of all is this: He says my father was having an affair with a woman named Claire back in the 1970s, and that my father and my mother and Claire and Claire's husband have been feuding since the late 1970s, a fued which goes on to this day... and... that on ALL of my mother's social media accounts, FaceBook, Twitter, Pinterest, everything, are two usernames that show up in her friends' lists: both with the same last name, one using the username Claire while posting a 4 door white truck as her user photo, and the other... wait for it... has the user name: KendraSilvermander".
Yep.
The FBI has found an actual person, a relative, in law of the Atwaters, who goes by the username KendraSilvermander.
Why is this significant?
The people who murdered my son at BugLight Light house art studio at Southern Maine Community College on November 14, 2013, was a blond woman whom the other two called "Claire", a red haired woman who was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!..." like she was singing a song... both women looked to be in their 60s, and today a decade later, would now be in their mid-70ish, and were with a large bald man, about 30th, today would be about 40ish, and the 3 of them left in a 4 door white pickup truck.
The odd thing is, people don't talk about themselves in 3rd person limited, but, that's what the red haired woman was doing.... and I've seen her before... she showed up at Westbrook Panera 3 different occasions in 2009 and 2010 and in each of those instances also did the same marching goosestep around, back then carrying a white poodle wearing a purple dragon coat... while again saying "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" while also bragging that her father owned Saco FunTownSplashtown USA and having a psychotic meltdown screaming" My chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIR!" Annalese, the woman sitting next to me, another published author, as thi was a NaNoWriMo writer's meeting, who was the NaNoWriMo Ml of Souther Maine, leaned over and whispered to me "That's Kendra Silvermander, she thinks she's he ML, we try to humor her. She can get rather violent if you don't."
Whoever this red haired woman is, she has a server, mega in need of medical care, mental disorder, appears to be incapable of functioning beyond the mental level of a two year old, and is quite proud of repeating her name as fast as an auctioneer. But, she speaks in 3rd person limited about herself, using us and ours and we to refer to herself, and uses the phrase: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" as though it was a period at the end of every sentence. I don't know what sort of a mental disorder she has, but Annelese was right, this woman gets over the top violent, as we quickly saw at Westbrook Panera in 2009, when she started slamming her dog on the table while chanting "My chair", and then quickly lashed out at me, in a mega violent rage of throwing chairs. The restaurant had to drag her out and make her leave.
She repeated this at three different writer's meetings at the Westbrook Panera in 2009 and 2010.
She is the same woman who was ordering/leading/demanding the blond Claire woman's golf club attack at Southern Maine Community college November 14, 2013, murdering my baby and crippling me.
She returned for a 5th attack June 26, 2016, again with the bond Claire woman, this time at Scarborough WalMart, and this time attacking with a shopping cart, this being the attack that caused the inoperable 3 broken vertebrae and the organ and nerve damage which caused my current crippled stat. In this attack, yet again the red haired woman was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" but this time the blond woman was shrieking: "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband. That thing is Ken's son, look at how IT's dressed! Kill or be killed! Remember Saco Shaws! No more heads in ice cream! End the gaypocalypse! Kill the transvestite freak! Too Gay for the Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach!" This time instead of driving away in a 4 door white truck driven by a bald man, this time he two women were alone and drove away in a gold Volvo late 1990s vintage suv station wagon.
The usernames now showing up on my mother's social media, and the Atwater relative's social media is significant, because, according the these FBI agents.... those are the exact same Atwaters who are REFUSING to talk to the FBI, slamming the doors in the FBI agents faces, and also, are the most vocal on social media in spreading the alien/UFO/witchcraft/cat rumors about me. And the FBI believes they not only know who the golf club murderer is, they likely were involved in planning the November 14, 2013 attack... and every one of them has been seen with the Sanford Ward LDS Church members who are likewise the biggest defamatory gossipers, running around slandering my name with their lies about witchcraft/curses/aliens/ufos/and cats.
AND... on top of that... they ae the EXACT SAME Atwaters ans Sandford Ward church members whom have spent the last two years bombarding my Biddeford apartment with these same rumors while the vandalize the building, which the landlord now has to spend the summer repairing.
AND... these are the same people who are also claiming, they had no clue these murders were going on in the Scarborough Marsh.
Overall... these people who are denying the events of the Scarborough Marsh murders, while simaltaniously going overboard gibbering lies about me online, are really working overtime at making themselves look like they were involved in the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, and making themselves look tremendously guilty of not only knowing who the killier is, but trying to cover up for the killer, and attempting to gaslight me with their weird alien rumors, in an attempt to make people not see their connection to the killer, that they are trying so very blatently to hide and are only succeeding and shining a mega sized spotlight of suspision on themselves, leaving everyone who is watching them doing it to ask: What the fuck did they do, that they are trying to hide so damned bad, that they are going mega big time slanderfeat screaming about aliens and ufos all over social media, trying to convince people that I believe in aliens and ufos when there are 40+ years of documented evidance of me debuncking aliens and proving their ufo accusations to a be a hoax they created to cover their own asses over a drug raid from 1982? And now they are rearing up their alien accusations again, which again, I can prove to be a hoax, because... what are they trying to cover up THIS time? Last time they rolled out the alien accusations they were trying to blame literal toddlers for the 1982 drug raid, by saying that 4, 5, and 6 year old children saw aliens... 72 people were arrested in the 1982 drug raid... there were no aliens... if anyone was seeing aliens, it was the drug addicted having drug induced hallucinations... and yet, those same drug dealers, now out of prison, are once again pointing to aliens, this time because they are mad that the FBI showed up to ask if they knew anything about the murder of my son.
???
Can I ask, what the fuck does not real, fictional aliens they saw because of drugs, during a 1982 drug raid, what does that have to do with my son being murdered?
And are they really that retarded that they think I control the FBI and tell the FBI what to do? What the fuck? Them coming over here and screaming for me to stop sending the FBI to their house, when I didn’t even know these people were relatives, never heard of them before, and wouldn’t even have had a way t tell the FBI a blooming thing about them at all, just makes them look suspicious, because for one thing: who even are these people? I still don’t know who they are! And for another thing, why do they think I sent the FBI over to them? And again: who are they? There are over 400 Atwaters and I’ve only ever met 7 of them, I don’t know the names or faces of any of the others, I don’t even know all the names or faces of the original 12, so I can’t figure out how they’d think I would know the names or faces of any of the kids, grandkids, or great grandkids of the original 12. What the fuck?
How are the Atwaters so full of themselves that they think I would have one iota of a clue anything about them, when I’ve never met them and I don’t even know their names… and also… why would I care? Tell me that? Do you know any sane person who knows the names of their parents in-laws.
Yes… my parents in-laws… in-laws of in-laws… not even blood relatives, but the aunts, uncles, cousins, grandkids, and great grandkids of in laws of my parents’ in laws… who in their right mind would even know the names of such distant relatives…
You, reading this right now… can you name your parent’s cousins? Do you know the names of your mother’s uncle’s great grand kids? Do you?
Can you see how utterly stupidly ridiculous the Atwaters are being, when they show up here yelling and screaming, and expect that I should know who they are or what the fuck they are talking about:
Newsflash: normal people don’t live in 400 person large family herds.
Normal people don’t live in herds.
Normal people don’t swamp in shark style frenzies in the driveways of distant relatives of your great grand pappies 5th removed cousin of an in-law, either. What the actual fuck?
And on top of everything else, there are Awaters running around screaming that I am vandalising some grave… the grave of a distant relative whom I never heard of before, so I don’t even know where the grave is… when I’m here bedridden and crippled and not even capable of going to visit my own son’s grave because… oh look: I’m crippled and stuck in bed with a broken spine and severed spinal cord for the past nine years!
You know… if you are going to accuse someone of going somewhere to vandalize something, you might want to first make sure that person is not wheelchair bound, bedridden, and crippled for a decade with a broken spine, so unable to even get to the place you are accusing them of going!
Also… since the day my son was murdered, I have a camera running 24/7 so, it’s pretty foolish of you to lie about me when I can not only prove you are lying, I can also prove every time you’ve been screaming in my driveway, because I have you on camera. They didn’t think of that did they? Oh no, of course not, why would they? They were too busy thinking about those aliens and witches they can’t stop gibbering about.
But look at this cross... Do you remember Timmy Murphy? He was the 5 year old with curly black hair, who was also accused of aliens during that 1982 drug raid. They called us The White Monkey Children, because we found Helen Pearly's missing pet white monkey. And the people arrested during the 1982 drug raid, many of them Atwaters, pointed to that white monkey that had escaped from White Animal Farm, a zoo in Old Orchard at the time, they pointed to that white money and called it an alien. Helen Pearly, look her up, is the founder of the Scarbourgh Marsh preserve, an animal preserve that started out with one pet white monkey, and is today, many thousands of acres of protected land known by the name The Scarboughorgh Marsh.
Can you see NOW why the idiots screaming aliens are seen as so damned idiotic?
But can you also see the names on the cross?
https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg
There were 31 children involved in helping Helen Pearly capture her escaped pet white money.
Drive through the scarborough marsh looking at the names of the beheaded victims on those crosses... 29 of the 31 White Monkey Children are now dead, killed and tossed in the marsh, where 40 years ago, they helped little old lady look for her lost pet albino monkey.
Every one of them accused of being alien abductees; accusations which was screamed ONLY by the drug dealers and drug users of the 1982 drug raid, which took place in the Scarbourough Marsh.
The only people who accuse me of aliens are the people now out of prison, who went to prison because of the 1982 drug raid... a drug raid known to locals as "The 458 Shoot Out" due to one woman screaming "Four! Five! Eight!" in between each time she loaded up her shotgun.
Everybody that has shown up in the marsh since June 2001, has been either one of the now adult White Monkey Children, or one of their children or grandchildren.
EVERY - SINGLE - ONE.
Go to the marsh, look for the crosses. Read the names. My cousin Timmy Murphy's cross is not the only one and if you open your eyes and start looking at the side streets all through the marsh, you'll see one hundred and twenty of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them. Crosses the entire country has seen on Dateline, 20/20, and dozens of unsolved crime shows... crosses that the Atwarers and their friends at the Sandford Ward church, are right now, this very week, posting all over social media, claiming aren't there, claiming I'm the only one talking about them, when clearly I'm not seeing hoe Dateline and 20/20 are pret big international news shows... and also claiming "Yeah EeelKat's crazy, she believes in aliens" when its extremely well documented my not believing in aliens and my debunking alien abductions as hoaxes... and these same people are also trying to convince people on social media "cats!".... but the cats were my mother's not mine, and my son was murdered November 14, 2013, two years before my mother's cat incident occurred.
These people are making total idiots of themselves, because all any one has to do is look up the new reports about the Scarbourough Marsh murders and the Cascade Murders to see that since June 2001, a LOT of people here in the marsh have been murdered, and originally they were not thought to b connected, but, now it is known that they are.
I wish these crazy ass Atwaters and their weird Todd Murphy obsessed Sanford Ward lunatics and their alien abduction ufo nuts, would leave me and my family alone. I don’t know what their problem is or why they are so obnoxiously hell bent on stalking my family and harassing us like this, but I am getting pretty damned sick of it. I have enough shit to deal with with, oh, I don’t know, half my family being murdered, my son’s killer still being on the loose, 9 years bedridden and still relearning to walk, … I don’t need these fucktards jumping into my life and trying to grab their 15 minutes of fame by tampering with the FBI’s investigation into hunting down my son’s murderer.
Know the truth. The truth will set you free.
#FAQs: What is it like living with Autism?
I have Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism, not Aspergers), which means I'm not good at group things. I'm classified as Savant, meaning I have a few things that I obsess about, big time, and have world records in them as a result, and everything else in my life I still require a caretaker to help me with.
I was believed to be mute until I was 31 years old, when a college professor whose day job was working with Autism children, meet me at an Autism Awareness event (I own The Autism Awareness Car, which has 2.5million marbles glued to it - took 4 years to build it). He spent several years teaching me to talk and I was able to get a GED at age 37 *(I had never been allowed to go to school as Autism in the 1970s = too retarded to be taught anything so why bother? It was assumed I couldn't be taught, so no one tried to, until I was 31 years old)*, and started college at age 42.
Today in addition to being a rabid gamer, I'm also an artist (acrylic on canvas and watercolor on rag) sell my art in local galleries, I build art cars and installation art, published over 130 Dark Fantasy novels, and became a retail merchandiser for Macy's, WalMart, and HallMark for 16 years because I'm very good at organizing things... I can't do much else, but I can certainly make sure nothing on the sales floor is out of place.
On Twitch I'm known for my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it removing and making my own... I rewrote Witcher 3, removed Geralt and Roach and the combat system, and build my own player character, made travel companions, wrote a new combat system, made new quests, made new maps... removed all the texture files and made all new ones. There's nothing in Witcher 3 that I have not rewritten. With over 4,000 mods now made for it, you can barely recognize my game as being Witcher 3 anymore.... and yet I can't read C++ code.
I spent my childhood and teen years, being told I would never amount to anything. I proved them all wrong.
People see the things I do very well *(art, writing, my exemplary organization skills in retail stores, and my ability to open up a video game and completely rewrite it and making my own)* but they often don't see past that.
Social skills are a thing I've not yet mastered, which makes streaming very difficult for me as, chat is sensory overload and I have it turned off. I also can't count, do Math, tell time, use calendars, use money, numbers are lost on me.
Basic things - bathing, eating, brushing my hair, etc - that most people have no trouble with, I have caretakers who have to help me do those thing, even though I'm 20, 30, 40 years older than my caretakers. I am VERY low-functioning, but I can write, I can paint, I disect video games, and I can organize things. I just can't do one thing else. Which is very upsetting, because I wish I could. I try too. I don't know why I can't. It's like there are a few things in my brain turned all the way up on super high and everything else is just turned off and won't come on.
And then there are issues with meltdowns, screaming fits, panic attacks, bad ones. Bad enough that I generally avoid contact with the public, simply because I'm tired of dealing with the police. Someone my age, screaming on the floor, people assume I'm on drugs and call the police. It's very frustrating, because I can not control these attacks and I can't stop them once they start.
It is extremely distressing, I'm insanely good at a few things, but everything else, things most of society doesn't bat an eye at, I can't do them, no matter how hard I try. And I'm not capable of "acting properly" or "behaving in socially acceptable ways".
Most people when they meet me in real life, they are very taken back, by how extremely disabled I am. Fans of my novels, meet me at book signings and ask: "So, what's the joke, what's this retard doing here, where's the author?"
They refuse to believe, someone as deeply retarded as me, is capable of writing novels. It hurts a lot, people's reactions to meeting me and them finding out the reality of what ACTUAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, is really like... and that it's NOTHING like Asperger's, with it's "cute Sheldon Cooper quirks" that they are used to and think of as being Autism.
They forget, people with Asperger's can live normal lives, they can pass for normal in public if they have too, they get married and have families, and I'm not capable of living on my own or without caretakers, and I never will be.
I wish more people knew the difference between Aspergers and Autism, and how vastly different they are from each other.
Far too many people hear that I have Autism, and they automatically assume I have Aspergers, and then they meet me in person, and are shocked, horrified, and they tell me they've meet dozens, sometimes hundreds of Aspies, and when they meet me, they say, they realize, they've NEVER seen Autism before, in spite of all the hundreds of Aspies they've met, and then they tell me, they wish they had known, they wished someone had told them, how starkly different Autism is from Aspergers, because they always say, no matter how many Aspies they worked with, it never prepared them to come face to face with ACTUAL REAL Autism, Kanner's Syndrome, for the first time.
The problem is these people are also used to interacting with people who 90% of the time are self diagnosed... which is why when they encounter me... **SOMEONE WITH AN ACTUAL MEDICAL DIAGNOSIS**... they are so surprised at how vastly different "MY" Autism is from the so-called "Autism" they are used to encountering with the fake ass self diagnosed Aspies who wouldn't know Autism if it hit them in the face! I hate it when people with “self diagnosed disabilities” talk about how hard being a part of the neurodivergent community is.
What the fuck?
What neurodivergent community?
That's NOT even a thing!
We who have **ACTUAL REAL MEDICALLY DIAGNOSED DISABILITIES AREN'T A PART OF SOME FUCKING CUTSY COMMUNITY! WE HAVE AN ACTUAL MEDICAL DISEASE THAT SERIOUSLY HAMPERS OUR EVERY DAY EXISTENCE! THIS ISN'T SOME CLUB YOU CAN JOIN!**
**MY** Autism is so vastly different from the hundreds of other so-called "Autistics" they are used to, **because MY Autism is FUCKING REAL and not some stupid ass fako with a self diagnosis because they want to be different!**
Also there is **NO SUCH THING AS A SELF-DIAGNOSED AUTISTIC!**
Read the fucking medical journals and kick the damn anti-vaccer mommy blogger out the window. They don't know shit.
In **EVERY DOCUMENTED CASE** of a self-diagnosed Autistic going to a doctor and getting **ACTUALLY DIAGNOSED**, their real diagnosis ALWAYS comes back as one of 2 things:
* Schizophrenia
* Narcissism
#HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF SELF-DIAGNOSED AUTISTICS, WHEN THEY FINALLY RECIEVED AN ACTUAL MEDICAL DIAGNOSIS FROM A DOCTOR.... WHERE DIAGNOSED WITH PARINOID GRANDOSE SCHIZOPHRENIA!!!
Think about that.
Think about it, long and hard.
Look up the symptoms of Schizophrenia, then turn around and take a good long look at the actions of the millions of fake ass self diagnosed "autistics" you've encountered online and offline... do you see it now?
Ain't a damned one of those self-diagnosed Aspies who have Autism... they have fucking schizophrenia.
Think about it... scared to go to doctors, paranoid of doctors, so they self-diagnoses, because they have too many paranoid ideas about doctors and vaccinations to go to a doctor.
What are the primary symptoms of schizophrenia?
* Fear of rational, harmless things such as doctors, dentists, and vaccinations
* Social awkwardness, social anxiety, fear of crowds, but has a conflicting desire to be a part of a social group and will go to great extremes to become a part of that group
* Imitation and impersonation, including hypochondria, and pretending to have illnesses that are deemed as popular or cool or trendy
* Self diagnosing themselves as having popular disease to try to fit in with a crowd or social group, in an attempt to gain attention or be more popular
* Seeing themselves as superior to others based on the hypochondriac illnesses they self diagnosed themselves as having
* Pretends to be things they are not, including to pretend to have illnesses that they deem as superior
**A Schizophrenic is scared of everything. **
* They trust no one.
* They see and notice everything going on around them and are terrified of every little sight, sound, or smell.
* Everything is seen as a threat.
* Fear rules their lives.
* They are suspicious of everything and every one and feel an overbearing need to flee from everything.
* They see authority figures such as police, political leaders, or big business owners as "the enemy" and believe those authority figures are always out to get them.
* Paranoia governs their actions.
* They believe conspiracy theories, think the Illuminati is real, believe aliens are going to abduct them, think the government put mind control drugs in flouride, believe in demon possession, and other such crazy ideas.
* They can do nothing without first thinking out in great detail, every possible outcome, and every possible path they must take to avoid the most fearful of those outcomes.
* They will frequently avoid doing things they desire to do, out of irrational fears they create about those things. They spend much of their life regretting not trying new things, attending events, or joining others in activities.
* They focus heavily on what others think about them, and will often wear dull, drab, but very conforming to local society, styles of clothing. If every one in their town wears Ts and jeans, they wear Ts and jeans; if everyone wears business suits, they wear business suits... they are terrified to be unique or original, scared of being judged by others, scared of not fitting in with the crowd, and will go overboard in trying to blend in with the local "in crowd".
* They walk quickly, but dutifully. Staying on sidewalks. Always nervously looking around them. Paying careful notice of everyone they see, looking at all strangers with suspicion, suspecting everyone of carrying a gun or knife or being a potential mugger.
* They have trouble making friends because they spend too much time imagining that potential friends will hurt the, so avoid contact with people, due to the conspiracies they build. Their social anxiety is built up by their own irrational fears of everyone around them.
* Because they are so terrified or everything, they fear going to doctors, mostly because they believe doctors, like police and presidents, are part of groups such as the Illuminati, and instead seek out shady conspiracy theorist websites to use to self-diagnoses themselves whenever they find a trendy popular illness that they want to have in order to be part of a group.
* If they do go to a doctor, they are convinced the doctor gave them a false diagnosis to try to trick them, resulting in they take up the hobby of reading mommy blogs of their fellow anti-vaccer conspiracy theorists, and use those shady websites as the basis of self diagnosing themselves with something more socially acceptable than whatever the actual diagnosis their doctor gave them was.
* When someone tells them they are being paranoid, they often fall back on saying something along the lines of: they have to be paranoid because demons, aliens, ghosts, or evil spirits visit them at night and tell them the president is an evil overlord who has stationed minions in every town and the men in black are on every street corner and they must listen to the voices of the spirits in order to know who is plotting with the police against them.
Every part of the above, is a symptom a self-diagnosed Autistic proudly claims as one of their symptoms... and yet...
**A REAL Autistic is the exact opposite. They are scared of nothing.**
* They trust every one.
* They are too lost in the world that exists only inside their head to see and notice anything going on around them and are completely oblivious to the existence of every little sight, sound, or smell.
* Everything is seen as a learning opportunity. Everything and everyone MUST be studied to see "what makes them tick". They want to know everything there is to know about everything.
* Logic rules their lives.
* They are curious about everything and every one and feel an overbearing need to study everything.
* They love rules. They see authority figures such as police, political leaders, or big business owners as the greatest people on the planet and believe those authority figures are always doing good and going to help them.
* Fascination and curiosity governs their actions.
* Eternal skeptics, they will not believe ANYTHING unless you can provide hundreds of documented studies by highly regarded authority figures in leadership positions, and as such they DO NOT believe conspiracy theories, think the Illuminati is a hoax, believe aliens could be real but still require proof, think the government is great because it makes laws to protect them, believes demons are a figment of paranoid imaginations, and think other such crazy ideas are likewise only believed by crazy people.
* They often run into their activities without first thinking out in great detail, and thus are quick to take up things like bungee jumping, mountain climbing, scaling brick smoke stacks, or climbing to the tops of tall trees without any gear, safety nets, or other devices, simply climbing up bare hands and bare feet. They are often seen as careless or daredevils because of their total lack of fear of heights or trying new things.
* They will NEVER avoid doing things they desire to do, and thus will paint huge murals on cars, buses, or the side of houses, on a whim with no planning aheads of time. They will go out on a limb to try new things. If they feel like dressing up as a fairy with sparkly wings and dancing in the city park's water fountain while tossing pennies to strangers... then they will do exactly that without caring what by passers think of them doing it.
* They do not care what others think about them, and will often wear outlandish clothing, with no thought at all of how society might react to how bizarre they are dressed. They are often see as "hippies" or "free spirited" or "no conformists" or "eccentric" due to how extremely unlike the rest of society they dress. CosPlaying, OtherKin, or dressing like Disney Princesses are common every day outfits for Autistics, even into adulthood.
* They prance and dance, skip and hop, jump over cracks, twirl on their toes, stray of the path, often enter the road or stray onto lawns, finding it difficult to be constrained to sidewalks. They find it difficult to walk and may burst into a sprint and run far ahead of the group if forced to walk too long, they need adult supervision in public places, even as adults, because they are prone to burst into a run, including to run into the road into oncoming traffic, without any fear of the cars on the highway, indeed, they are so lost in the fairy filled world in their head, that they do not even see the road or the cars and only see the fairies they are dancing with.
* They have trouble making friends because most people are too terrified of their seemingly "extremely extroverted" personality. Their outfits, hyper extreme activities, and free spirited prancing and dancing instead of walking often brands them as "crazy" or "insane" or ironically "schizoid", even though schizophrenia is completely the opposite.
* Because they are too busy having fun dancing in water fountains with the fairies only they can see, they often forget to do things like eat or sleep, and require adult supervision, even if they themselves are an adult, to remind them to stop dancing with fairies long enough to eat and sleep. This also contributes to them rarely going to doctors and requiring a caretaker to set up doctor appointments and drive them to the doctor.
* They are prone to ignoring their illnesses, pain, and diseases because every day of their life is so painful as it is, they find it better to focus on pretty things, bright colours, reading comic books, playing video games, or doing other such things to put their minds in a self-hypnotic-meditative state so they can ignore the pain.
* They feel no need to try to self-diagnose themselves, because it is pointless to bother at this point, because they've lived with searing pain every day since they were born and now they are used to the pain and use dressing in pink gowns, dancing in water fountains, painting cars, reading comics, and playing video games as coping mechanises to try to find something other than their every day pain and suffering to focus on.
* Because they suffer so many skin pains, allergies, gastrointestinal pains, sensory pains, and their doctor helps to take those pains away, they view their doctor as one of their most trusted friends and can be extremely upset, becoming depressed if their doctor retires or moves and they must start going to a new doctor.
Now, here is one final thought on the comparisons between Autism and Schizophrenia.
Pay careful attention here.
Because this part, will be very telling, of just exactly how much, you, a self-diagnosed Aspie, REALLY knows about Autism.
Did you know, that up until 1982, ALL children and adults, upon receiving a diagnosis of Autism, the law, in America and most of Europe, REQUIRED that patient to be immediately straight jacketed, removed from their home, and locked in solitary confinement is a government run insane asylum/mental institute.
Do you why that changed in 1982?
You know SO MUCH about Autism, that you feel you qualify to self diagnoses yourself, so you should know the answer to this, shouldn't you? I mean, you DID self-diagnose yourself as Autistic, didn't you?
Did you ever read a medical journal?
How about the official guide to psychiatrics? You know the one, that giant 3,000 page book all 12 of the world's Autism doctors are required to have read and memorized, before they could graduate and their Ph.D ... M.D. ... in Psychiatric medicine.
That book, the one which lists all the symptoms of:
* Kanner's Syndrome (a.k.a. Autism)
AND
* Asperger's Syndrome (a.k.a. Childhood Schizophrenia)
I don't suppose while you were reading that book, to self diagnose yourself, that you noticed WHERE you had to look for both those psychosis, did you?
You would have found BOTH of them under the heading: Schizophrenia and Schizotypal Disorders.
YES, when you run around saying:
* "I'm a proud self-diagnosed Aspie! I have Autism, YAY!"
What you are saying to EVERYONE in the medical field, who knows what Aspergers and Autism are:
* "I'm a proud self-diagnosed Psycho! I have Schizophrenia, YAY!"
Sadly, 99.9% of all self diagnosed Aspies, are fully and completely unaware that Asperger's was known as Childhood Schizophrenia, up until 1982, when it was decided to merge the 2 listings into one, and use the "less stigma" name of Asperger's instead of the more stigma, Childhood Schizophrenia. And THUS HOW AND WHY Asperger's sudden became known as "a type of Autism", because Autism, since it's begin 200 years ago, was ALWAYS classified as "a type of Schizophrenia".
* Schizophrenia's primary #1 symptom, the symptom it is most known for: "voices in your head" aka "imaginary friends" aka "they talk to demons" or "demons talk to them".
* Autism's primary #1 symptom, the symptom it is most known for: "voices in your head" aka "imaginary friends" aka "they talk to fairies" or "fairies talk to them".
* Asperger's primary #1 symptom, the symptom it is most known for: "voices in your head" aka "imaginary friends" aka "they talk to comic book characters" or "comic book characters talk to them".
Still want to call yourself Autistic or a self-diagnosed Aspie?
Aspergers and Autism, STILL what you thought they were?
Have I ever mentioned Etiole... and... oh look, hey, have you seen my Twitch profile yet? Noticed anything "unusual"... like maybe Avallac'h?
Take a step back, and really, really, REALLY do some REAL, ACTUAL, MEDICAL research into Aspergers and Autism... stop reading mommy bloggers and their anti-vaccination conspiracies, and get to know what Asperger's and Autism REALLY are, and what it's like to live with either one of them... because it's NOT fun.
#AUTISM IS A COMPLETE NIGHTMARE TO LIVE WITH!
We who actually HAVE Autism, we ain't running around calling ourselves "proud autistics", because we Autism is nothing to be proud of. We know, because struggle with it every day of our lives.
And while you self-diagnosed Aspies, get to toss YOUR "autism" aside when get bored with The Big Bang Theory's Sheldon Cooper, and become a fan of something else... we REAL Autistics don't have that luxury. We can't toss Autism aside, because it doesn't come and go when we feel like being "autistic" to be cool and part of the Sheldon Cooper fan club.
And tell me WHY do you self-diagnosed Aspies think being Autistic is so "cool"?
Have you SEEN how the media portrays Schizophrenia? Ax murderers. Psycho killers. Gibbering lunatics straight jacketed in an asylum.
You do realize that MOST of society sees Autistics and Aspies as **EXACTLY WHAT THEY ARE**: a sub group of schizophrenics.
So, tell me WHY, you self-diagnosed Aspies, think **THAT** is "cool?
Have you ever noticed that in recent years, the word "autism" has become used on the internet as a slur?
On Twitter and Reddit you see "autism" used interchangeably with "retard" and "schizoid", and those "proud autistic moms" and "proud self-diagnosed Aspies" get so pissed off because of it, but why? They are NOT wrong.
#Autism IS a form of mental retardation, so, yes, you ARE retarded if you have Autism.
You didn't think about that when you self-diagnosed yourself did you?
#Autism IS a form of Schizophrenia, so, yes, you ARE a schizoid if you have Autism.
But poor you, you proud self-diagnosed Aspie, you didn't do your research well enough did you, because you would have know that, if you had.
But the funny thing is... when these self-diagnosed Aspies go to a doctor to get diagnosed, they NEVER get told they have Autism or Aspergers and ALWAYS get told they have full blown Paranoid Grandiose Schizophrenia.
Why?
Well.... all those years of being too paranoid to go to doctors, and self-diagnosis yourself, had a lot 2 do with it, because, after "hearing voices" the other 2 primary symptoms of schizophrenia are: "irrational paranoid fear" and "hypochondriasis"... lucky you. We who has Autism, only have a Schizotypal subset in the Schizophrenia spectrum of psychoses, but you, with your beloved prous self-diagnosed Aspie chanting, you proved yourself a 100% blown schizoid.
Still proud to be a self-diagnosed Aspie?
Still being an Aspie or an Autistic is a badge of honor, that'll make society love and accept you?
Honey, there were plenty of illness out their you could have self-diagnosed yourself with to get pity from society, but ANY psychosis on the Schizotypal tree, is NOT going to among them.
So, when you run around telling people you is a proud Aspie or a proud Autistic, 90% of society is fully aware that Aspergers and Autism are BOTH forms of mental retardation with the Schizotypal Psychoses, so all you are doing is convincing society that you are insane and should be in a mental institute.
And the ONLY reason you are NOT in a mental institute, is because the law changed in 1982, and the government is no longer REQUIRED BY LAW to straight jacket all the sub-sets of Schizophrenia anymore.
Thus why you saw a rise in more children with Aspergers and Autism in public schools in 1987, when the law declared they were allowed to go to public schools for the first time in history.
Your fear of doctors lead you to self-diagnose yourself, and you almost got it right... had you read actual medical journals instead anti-vaccer mommy bloggers, you would have gotten it right...
#AND, you wouldn't be so proud, to say: "I'm a self-diagnosed, Aspie/Autistic!" and you realized you were actually saying "I'm a self-diagnosed, Schizophrenic!" would you?
It was your fear of doctors that lead to your self-diagnosis... perhaps you should have started your search, by finding out what illness causes a fear of doctors?
Your fear of doctors is also what makes the self-diagnosed Aspies dramatically different from an ACTUAL Autistic.
Autistics don't fear doctors. Autistics are not obsessed with being part of a crowd. Autistics don't feel the need to join a group. Autistics are socially DISTANT not socially awkwards... there is a difference you know.
Someone with Autism DOES NOT WANT TO BE SOCIAL... someone with self-diagnosed Asp is desperately trying to be part of a group.
While you were glorifying all the cute, fun, good time, fluffy bunny tummy feelings of Autism, and found yourself wanted to be a part of the "autism club group"... did you also, look up the bad side of Autism? The negative symptoms? The one's that ain't fun or cute or fill your tummy with fluffy bunnies?
No?
You forgot to look into those symptoms didn't you?
Perhaps, if you had, you would not have been so quick to self diagnose.
Being the "prize guest" at so many Autism events, I get to meet thousands of self-diagnosed Aspies every year.
The top thing, they like to say is this:
#"I know I have Autism, because social awkward. I always WANT to join groups and make friends, but have social anxiety, so I MUST be Autistic. That's why I self diagnosed myself."
Well, whoop dee doo, good for you.
Social anxiety is ITSELF it's own, separate disorder... and MOST who have REAL Autism, don't have it as a symptom.
Soooo, if you have social anxiety, changes are VERY high that you don't have Autism.
Why?
Well, we REAL Autistics, usually are having too much fun with our "imaginary friends"... hey, look, Avallac'h, he's all over my profile for a reason you know... we REAL Autistics, usually are having too much fun with our "imaginary friends" to have any want, need, or desire for social activities or real friends who are real people.
**We REAL Autistics, like our "imaginary friends" much, much MORE then we like real people.** In fact, in most cases, we REAL Autistics also have a deep set HATRED for real people. If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would have plenty of "imaginary friends" and deeply hate when real interrupted your conversations with the people they can't see.
**We REAL Autistics, Do NOT WANT to be part of a group.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would have zero desire to be accepted by a group.
**We REAL Autistics, we are not seeking to join a club and hang out with others.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because would find hanging out with others as grating on your mind as sandpaper on your skin.
**We REAL Autistics, Do NOT WANT to be take part in community activities.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because communities activities would be an gnawing annoying pain forever eating at your brain and you'd be trying desperately to escape the crowd, by climbing the tallest tree the nearest cell phone tower, just to get as far away from the mindless prattle of community gibber gabber..
**We REAL Autistics, we don't like people and we don't WANT to be a part of your world, your world is full of pain and suffer, every sound stabs our ears, every light blinds us**. If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would suffer excruciating pain, at every voice, every laughter, every yip-yap, every scream, every light no matter how dim. And all you would want to do is sit in a corner, holding your hands over your ear to block out the noise, to clamp your eyes shut and keep out the pain of the light. To scream louder than every sound around you, in hopes you can scream loud enough to drown it out and chase it away.
**We REAL Autistics, we don't NEED social interaction with people and we don't WANT to be a part of your world, BECAUSE we have a vastly huge world in our heads, and it's a better world than your real world, and we don't like it when you real people interrupt us and pull us out of the world that lives in our heads.** If you REALLY had Autism, you'd have known that, because you would have zero desire to be interacting with real people, because fairies and elves are far more fun, more quiet, more docile, less violent, less hostile, less brutal, not as loud, and are kind, loving, and gentle. And tey, unlike real people, will never hurt you.
We REAL Autistics, have no desire, ZERO, none at all, to take part in social activities... and THAT is why social anxiety is very, very, very rare to almost none-existent in REAL Autism.
So, when you diagnosed Aspies say:
#"I know I have Autism, because social awkward. I always WANT to join groups and make friends, but have social anxiety, so I MUST be Autistic. That's why I self diagnosed myself."
You've missed the mark big time, and you don't have a fucking clue what Autism is.
Someone with Autism will hiss, growl, shriek, scream, bite, kick, scratch your eyes out if you try to force them into a crowd of people. Someone with self-diagnosed Asp is going to stand their awkwardly and wait to be asked to join the group, when you push them into a crowd.
Yes... you **CAN** see the **HUGE** amounts of vast difference between **REAL, ACTUAL, AUTISM** and the fake ass wannabes with a self diagnosis. And those differences are miles apart from each other.
#THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A CASE OF A SELF-DIAGNOSED AUTISTIC SUCCESSFULLY BEING MEDICALLY DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM!
And **THAT** is why so many hundreds of people meet me at conventions and say: *"I've worked with hundreds of Autistics over the years and I've never seen anyone with anything like you have before."*
I always ask them: *"Where they self diagnosed or did they have actual medical records proving they had Autism?"*
And the answer is **ALWAYS**: *"Well, it's so hard to get a diagnosis, only 12 psychiatrists in the world are qualified to diagnosis Autism, so they **HAD** to self diagnose themselves. They were all proud self-diagnosed Aspies. Just like me! I'm Autistic too, but, wow are you nothing like me. Are you sure you have Autism? I'm not like you at all and I know I diagnosed myself correctly, because I'm just like Sheldon Cooper and I've watched every episode of Big Bang Theory, so I know I have Autism, just like my hero Sheldon Cooper does."*
Yeah. There ARE only 12 psychiatrists on the planet, who are legally qualified and legally able to make a diagnosis of Autism.
I get so sick and tired of jackass Autism-wanna-bes, who call themselves Autistic just because they think it's "cool".
Can you wipe your own ass when you take a shit? If so, you probably don't have Autism.
Are you in your 20s, 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s+ and can live on your own without 24 hour adult supervision? Hey, well, guess what **YOU DO NOT HAVE AUTISM! SO STOP FUKING PRETENDING YOU DO!**
Someone with REAL Autism, will go total psycho on your ass, when you try to force them to interact with others... they will act like a wild rabid animal, tear your skin off your faces, bite chunks of flesh out of your arm, you WILL be seriously injured, and **YOU WILL NEED HOSPITALIZATION FOR YOUR MASSIVE INJURIES**.
Never underestimate the extreme levels of violence, hostility, and animalistic strength an Autistic possesses when upset.
#THERE IS A REASON MOST PARANTS OF ACTUALLY AUTISTIC CHIDLREN BELIEVE THEIR CHILD IS DEMON POSSESSED AND TAKE THEM TO PRIESTS FOR EXOSISMS!
Believe me... there is a big difference between an upset self-diagnosed aspie pouting in the corner and an upset ACTUAL autistic, breaking your bones, pulling your hair out, ripping your ears offm, and biting your fingers off.
Self diagnosed Aspies, will run and hide with you yell at them... actual real Autistics, will fight back with vicious animal ferocity, and you'll be in an ambulance on your way to get your fingers sewed back on.
There is a hell of a big difference between:
* "Oh my kid has quirks, likes comic books, and won't eat peas or green beans, he must have Autism"
and
* "Ohmigawd! My demon possessed kid just bit my fucking finger off, because I stopped him from laying his comic books out around the edge of the house in rainbow colour order!"
People focus on the "good" or "positive" symptoms of Autism... like quirks and obsessions with cartoons... but they forget, those are just the iceberg tip of Autism that you see on the surface, and MOST of Autism's symptoms are a true nightmare, horrific, dark, and are very, very, very negative.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, prance around "look at me I got quirks!"... but ask them, about the dark side of Autism, and they'll tell you there is none.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you Autism is all good and has no bad... but me with real Autism, I can tell you how easy it is for an 8 year old girl to rip a man's testicals off and force feed them to him... because I did it. I really don't like being touched, and like even less being raped.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you they read comic books... me with real Autism, I can quite line by line, every pages of more than 10,000 comic books.
A photographic memory, the ability to look inside your mind and see photographic images of EVERYTHING you have ever looked at EVER in your entire life, and quickly file through those photos to read from your head, books line by line... is a primary required symptoms of Autism, and if you don't have that, you don't have Autism.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you look how pretty the trees are, let's paint pictures of them... me with real Autism, I can tell you the best and fastest way to get to the top of that tree and how many days was the longest I stayed up there 130 feet off the ground.
Oh... did no one ever tell you one of the primary symptoms of Autism is climbing things like telephone poles, water towers, smokestacks, and giant old growth pine and redwood trees?
I thought you said you knew Autism well enough to diagnose yourself with having it?
The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you how much fun it is to be a part of the neurodiversity community, where they get to hang out with other none neural typicals... me with real Autism, I'll punch your teeth out with a brick if you try to force me into any community at all. No I'm not joking, I have Autism, I NEVER joke, I am ALWAYS dead serious, look at my uncles, most of them have no front teeth, and most of them lost their teeth before I was 12 years old. I don't like being hit in the face with a brick and my uncles always taught:
*"DO unto others as you want others to do unto you"*... meaning, they would not have broken my jaw with a brick and knocked out 17 of my teeth, unless they wanted me to return the favor and knock out their teeth with the exact same brick they used to knock out mine.
The golden rule... do unto others what you want others to do to you, in other words, I wait to see how you are going to treat me, and I will do to you EXACTLY the same thing you did to me, line by line, word by word, action by action, measure by measure, because by doing it to me, you have informed me that I MUST do it back to you, it's what you wanted me to do to you, otherwise, you would not have done it to me... do to others EXACTLY what they first did to you. So says the Golden Rule in the Bible... my uncles shouldn't have preached it, if they didn't mean it; likewise, they should not have beaten out 17 of my teeth with a brick, if they didn't want me to fight back in self defence and with that self same brick. Just because a child is 8 years old, and 5 men in their 30s are holding her down and raping her, and beating her face with a brick to stop her from crying for help, doesn't mean she ain't strong enough to tear her arm free, pull that brick from their hand, and throw it right back at them.
Did you know Autism is CAUSED by childhood rape? And that if you were NOT raped as a toddler, than it is NOT possible for you to have Autism?
I suppose that would be, yet another thing you overlooked when self-diagnosing yourself, eh?
Do you realize, when your parents say: "I'm a proud mom of an autistic child"... that what she is ACTUALLY saying is: "I'm proud the men in my life raped my toddler and gave her Autism!"
Yeah.
I'm wondering how many "Proud Autism moms" there would be, if they ACTUALLY READ the ACTUALLY medical diagnosis guide for Autism, and found out that Autism, is a form of childhood post traumatic stress disorder, caused by childhood rape?
Did you know Autism, is a coping mechanism... a way to shut out the real world, because people are evil, mean, and hurtful, and imaginary friends don't hurt you and live in a world, where you are safe and protected, and you can ONLY be hurt if you leave there would and return to the real world...
...and THAT is WHY Autistics, shut out the real world, ignore it completely, and have no desire, absolutely ZERO desire for social interaction.
Which is WHY it is foolish for self-diagnosed Aspies, to claim to be Autistic because of social anxiety.
We with REAL Autism, don't have social anxiety... we have 100% pure hatred for humanity and the world humans live in and our brain shut down and protects us, by blocking out the real world... that why we don't see it... why don't see cars in the road... why we need 24 hour adult supervision, even into our adulthood and elderly years... because we see the world of the Fae and we can no longer see your real world, because your real world is far too painful to see anymore.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you they could NEVER hurt anyone, it would hurt their feelings... me with real Autism, I don't give a shit about your feelings and I won't think twice about breaking your nose, arm, leg, if you hurt me, I'm going to hurt you right back. You break my nose, I will immediately break your nose, and while you are on the ground crying in pain, I'm standing dry eyed, not sheading a tear, not making a sound, because I've been in searing pain so long, that nothing you can do will hurt me worse than I already hurt every day. You are not used to pain, so you cry and scream... me, I stopped crying decades ago, I stopped screaming decades back. I also stopped smiling... I hurt too much to smile. I've not laughed in decades, I've no reason to laugh and laughter only shakes my insides and makes the pain worse.
Common misconception is that we with ACTUAL Autism, have no feelings... no... we have feelings, we just are in so much agonizing pain, all day, every day, that we learned to stop showing emotions... it was the only way, to learn to stop crying 24 hours a day, stop screaming with every step we take. We had to cancel out outward sings of emotions, otherwise we would never make it from one day to the next.
The agonizing pain, is so bad that we pass out several times a day, whenever the stabbing pain of pinched nerves, bloated bellies, bleeding blisters, splitting eardrums, stabbing pain in our eyes, reaches a point when we can bear it in silence no longer, and we stop breathing, our bodies shut down. And we lay unconscious on the floor for seconds, minutes, hours, sometimes days, before we wake up again.
The physical pain is the worst part of Autism.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you all their favorite foods, their likes, their dislikes, and how they are picky, finicky eaters who must have everything laid out just so... me with real Autism, I'll tell you about WHY I can not eat most foods... the bloating, the rashes, the hives, the vomiting, the diarrhea... an Autistic's strict "finicky" diet is NOT a cute little quirk like the fake ass self diagnosers say, it's a full blood gastrointestinal allergy that you can die from... the same thing that causes our synapses to misfire also causes our digestive tract to reject every food we eat like it was poison.
If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, will tell you "I like to read, I'm a deep thinker and like to get lost in thought, thinking about the other worlds"... me with real Autism, I don't get lost in thought thinking about other worlds I've read about in books, I spend hours every day, in what I'm told is called "Astral projection". I don't think about those worlds, I live in them. I don't read about those characters, I interact with them.
People have recorded this "phenomena" when it happens ... they can't wake me up. I go into a rigid catatonic state, for hours, days, some times weeks. It's almost like a coma, but my body is still functioning so I don't need life support.
When I finally come out of it and they ask where I went, my answer is always: "I went into a book to visit the characters" or "I went into the vide game, to live with the characters" or "I went into the movie, to find out what was going on in their world"
I don't just "think" about characters, I go meet them in their world... and THAT is what makes Autism, Autism, and what makes a REAL Autistic, so vastly different from the faker ass wannabes with their self diagnoses.
Doctors, can't explain catatonia and classify it as "one of the mysteries" of Autism.
#While not all catatonics have Autism... ALL Autistics ALWAYS have catatonia.
Catatonia is the one thing, that makes REAL Autism, REAL Autism... and if you don't have catatonia, you ain't got Autism.
And if you didn't know catatonia is the ONLY symptom that determines if or not you have Autism, then Honey, you really do know absolutely nothing about REAL, ACTUAL Autism.
#IF YOU DO NOT HAVE CATATONIA, YOU DO NOT HAVE AUTISM!
And then there are the senses. The over powering senses.
Every sound, even the tiniest whisper, is like a cruise ship fog horn going off in my ears.
If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.
I can see in the dark like a cat, and that's a good thing, but the trade off, I can't see at all in light. Sun light, daylight, land light, they blind me. I can not go outside between 10AM and 5PM because the sunlight causes searing pain and I pass out from the pain, then when I wake up, I can't see at all for several minutes, and when I can see again all I can see a rainbow star bursts and black and red polka dots for hours.
If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.
The faker ass wanna bes with their self diagnoses, will tell you their eyes hurt if they look at the sun... newsflash... EVERYONE'S eyes hurt if you look at the sun. Stop being an idiot, stop looking at the sun!
People with Autism, don't have to look at the sun to black out ... a 30 watt lamp in a bedroom will cause them to pass out from the searing pain as well. The pain is THAT bad.
When was the last time you felt pain that was so extreme you passed out?
Never? Really? I thought you said you had Autism?
When was the last time you were blind for hours on end and saw nothing but total blackness, while fireworks starburst of rainbow colours exploded in front of you and black and red polka dots zipped by?
Never? Really? I thought you said you accurately self diagnosed yourself with Autism? Extreme photosensitivity is a primary symptom, classified as, you don't have Autism, if you don't have this symptom.
Still think you diagnosed yourself accurately?
The faker ass wanna bes with their self diagnoses, will tell you they can't wear cloths with tags because "tags are itchy"...
Nothing can touch me. Nothing. No one. Not fabric. Not human skin. I break out in horrifying blisters, huge bubbles that burst and bleed. I can only wear 100% pure silk, pure cotton, pure bamboo fiber cloth, or real fur. Everything burns my skin. Turns my skin bright red. My skin blisters, bubbles, bleeds, and peels if anything else touches it.
If that doesn't happen to you, than you don't have Autism.
As for itchy tags... tags itch EVERYONE, you stupid ass!
People with Autism... tags cause massive blisters, hives, and bleeding.
Far too many people only know the "good", "cute", "funny", "quirky", "socially acceptable" symptoms of Autism, and they want in on that. They want to be cute, funny, quirky, social acceptable... but they completely ignore the dark side of Autism... and very, very, very dark, that dark side is. The bad symptoms, the violent symptoms, the social unaccepted symptoms, are far bigger, far greater, then the good ones. To the extent that a REAL Autistic can't function in society.
And that's how you can tell the fake ass wanna bes with their self diagnoses, from someone with REAL, ACTUAL Autism.
They parade around talking how good and fun Autism is, they make out like having Autism is a badge of honor to be proud of.
It's not, and don't be fooled into thinking it is.
And 90% of all Autistics, can't even talk. Mutism, is one the biggest symptoms.
Yes, Autism gives you good things like making art and literature are big part of your life, but the bad parts of Autism are so overpowering bad, that you can NOT enjoy those good things.
Real Autistics aren't trying to be a part of a group. They are just trying to get from one day to the next without searing pain in their bellies, without their skin bursting open and bleeding all over everything, without mind numbing pain in their eyes from sunlight. They are in far too much pain 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year, every year for their entire lives, to have any free time to join groups or happily chat about how fun Autism is.
#Autism is not fun to live with, and any one who tells you it is, does not have Autism.
The fakers with their self diagnoses, forget to tell you about the dark side of Autism, because **THEY DO NOT HAVE AUTISM** so they didn't even know the dark side of Autism existed.
If you only know self-diagnosed Aspies, then you don't know Autism, and you are in for one hell of a big surprise when the day comes that you actually meet someone with REAL Autism.
1 in 3 children have Aspergers, it's very common, but only 1 in 120,000 children have Autism, it's very rare. In the wake of the mass flood of people calling Asperger's Autism, people forget how incredibly rare actual Autism really is. They aren't the same thing and until you've seen both side by side, you don't realize how different they really are.
People forget WHY I became such a good writer. I was mute for 31 years. Writing was the only way I could communicate with anyone. But I grew up in a family that crumpled up the paper, never even looked at it. In their minds I was too stupid to talk and therefore anything I wrote on paper MUST have been gibberish. They didn't even look at it. So I wrote letters to the cats that lived with us. I started doing that when I was 8 years old. I still do it 50+ years later.
I'm not likely to be much use in a group, as outside of writing, art, video games, and organizing sale floors of retail stores, I'm too retarded to be able to do anything else.
I'm rarely welcomed in groups, because I'm too retarded, too Autistic to fit in, or so I'm always told. I'm rarely of any use to anyone.
You probably want to read Part 1 before continuing here to read Part 2.
This page is here to illustrate a point. It might piss you off, if you had not first read part 1, to understand the context of Part 2.
If you do read Part 2, before reading part 1... hold off on your enraged hissy fit until you have reached the end of the pink list... you'll see what I mean if you read the whole thing...
If you are a self-diagnosed Aspies and leave in a raging furry before you get the the end of the pink list, well...
#1: It proves you don't have Aspergers
#2: If you don't finish reading the entire thing, you'll never know why that proves you don't have Aspergers.
I get very annoyed by writers who use mental illness as a plot devise, especially when it becomes clear that they know nothing of the illness they are writing about, have clearly never lived with it, have no clues the every day challenges a person faces by living with it, and obviously did little to no research into it, basing everything the character does off something they saw in a movie and assumed the movie must have got it right.
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On this page we are going to look at what happens, when a character with a mental illness, becomes very, very, very famous...
His name is Sheldon Cooper and he has Asperger's. And in the show Big Bang Theory, his Aspergers is portrayed correctly... to some extent...
however his Aspergers is FICTIONAL.... it's not real... and yet... 1 in 3 children, now have this fictional made up form of Asperger's in what may be the largest and most bizarre heard mentality phenomena to ever hit America
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Since the arrival of the Big Bang Theory, 19 years ago, something very strange happened in the real world medical community...
...a brand new mental health illness arrived almost over night and hit pediatricians everywhere by storm...
The name of the strange new illness?
"Self Diagnosed Asperger's" which is vastly different from actual, real Aspergers.
Self Diagnosed Aspergers is a bizarre illness that has a few of the symptoms of Autism, a few symptoms of Asperger's, and shit ton load of one illness... the real illness, that it really is... it's based entirely off a fictional character (Sheldon Cooper) and one author's fictional translation of what Aspergers is in the world of The Big Bang Theory.
Self-Diagnosed Aspergers is NOT the same as Asperger's Syndrome, as you soon shall see. It is a very unique illness... and imaginary illness, invented by fans of Sheldon Cooper, and spread like wildfire across America, infecting a whooping 1 in 3 children.
Let's now take a look at this bizarre phenomena, known in the medical world as "The Mysterious Autism boom"...
Some interesting facts:
(children aged 12 to 18 who self-diagnosed themselves with a serious crippling mental illness, that doctors take 12 years of Abnormal Psychology college classes to learn how to recognize)
(very young parents, themselves only children aged 16 to 24 - who self-diagnosed their children with a serious crippling mental illness, that doctors take 12 years of Abnormal Psychology college classes to learn how to recognize- without knowing what it actually was, simply because they were a fan of a fictional character who had a MADE UP FICTIONAL version of a seriously debilitating disease.)
So... if you came here from clicking the link in Part 1, you know what you are about to read and here it is...
There is one thing more frightening then the trend of children self-diagnosing themselves with serious mental illnesses...
and that's the fact that they are ALSO making up "new" symptoms, and using these FAKE "Aspie symptoms" as excuses to commit horrific crimes: including dissecting their sibling's pets, building bombs to blow up their neighbors houses, and stealing guns for school shootings...
Did you know that EVERY case of a school shooting in the United States was done by a child who had self diagnosed as an Aspie?
But did you also know that someone with ACTUAL Aspergers, lacks the part of the brain that triggers anger and violence? And like Autistics, REAL Aspies, are completely and totally docile, non-violent, and it is almost impossible to get either Autistics or Aspies angry and are NOT CAPABLE of committing the horrific violent hate crimes that are being done by self diagnosed Aspies?
Self-diagnosed Asperger's ranks among the most dangerous, most violent, and most sociopathic illness in history, and yet, self-diagnosed Asperger's is a fictional illness that did not exist prior to the invention of the fictional character Sheldon Cooper from the fictional TV show Big Bang Theory.
Here are two very important numbers to look at:
#1: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies will commit violent crimes, more then half of those crimes will be murder.
#2: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies have mis-diagnosed themselves and do not have Asperger's at all.
Did you see it?
No?
Let's repeat it and see if you see it the next time around?
Still missing it? Let's show you it a third time, see if you see it yet...
#1: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies will commit violent crimes, more then half of those crimes will be murder.
#2: 80% of all self-diagnosed Aspies have mis-diagnosed themselves and do not have Asperger's at all.
Funny how the amount of Asperger's patents who commit violent crimes is the EXACT SAME amount who are also not actual Aspies, isn't it.
You know there's a reason for that right?
The list below, is a list complied, by interviewing, children who had self diagnosed themselves with Asperger's... or the very young (14 to 24) teen parents whom had self diagnosed their children. When asked what are the symptoms of Asperger's and how do they compare with Autism... these are the answers they gave...
Below are 2 lists... one side it titled "Autism" the other is titled "Aspergers".
The side titled Autism, is the ACTUAL symptoms.
The side title Aspergers are the symptoms which self-diagnosed Aspies CLAIM are Symptoms of Aspergers...
Compare the difference, and see for yourself, the stark danger, of giving yourself a REAL diagnoses, based off a FICTIONAL TV show...
AutismAutistic children are very quiet. Non-verbal. Often mute. They never have out bursts of screaming. They don't suddenly burst out into endless chatter. They may reach adulthood without ever saying a word. While some Autistic children can talk, most CAN NOT physically form words. Autistic children MAY have a high IQ, but they will probably never know what the the concept of an IQ is. More often an Autistic child has a very high IQ about one subject, but is so below average low IQ in everything else that they are unable to put to use the high IQ topic. Autistic children rock back and forth and stare at the wall for hours because they are living inside their head having fascinating conversations with imaginary friends. They have loads of fun telepathically speaking to people that do not exist and only can see or hear. Autistic children usually wear diapers into adulthood, rarely learn how to feed themselves with a spoon, often need help to bath, need someone to wipe their bum for them after taking a shit, can not - even as adults - cross the street without adult supervision, and frequently wear head and neck braces because they never learn how to hold their heads up on their own. Autistics have a deep need for privacy and personal space. They have little to no desire for human contact or social interaction. The fastest way to trigger a meltdown is to touch them, and don't you dare try to hug them. Autistics are not aware they are any different from other people, and when others say they are "different" or "special" or "unique" they well respond with: "What do you mean? I'm not different. I'm normal just like you." Unlike Aspies, Autistics do not have the constant need to self-proclaim their self importance. Indeed the Autistic is often too busy living in their head, having silent conversations with imaginary friends, to be aware that real people exist around them and therefore feel no need to try to compete with others. Autistic fail to grasp the concept of self importance. Tell an Autistic they are special and they reply with: "No, I'm not. I'm just like you." While socially awkward, Autistics find no need to try to join social actives, do not try to be part of a group, and are quite content to do solo activities such as reading, writing, drawing, or having internal conversation with the people living inside their head. They become frustrated if adults try to force them to join groups or do activities with others. When by themselves, Autistics often giggle and laugh, for seemingly no reason. They frequently clap their hands excitedly, hum to themselves, hug themselves, and while being completely alone, tend to enjoy their own company quite a bit, becoming frustrated if you interrupt them or suggest they play with other children. When asked why they are laughing or singing, they will often give detailed descriptions of Faeries, unicorns, angels, or other "invisible beings" who were telling them jokes or putting on plays for them. Autistics are quite to say such things as: When I am alone, I feel relaxed. I like to be completely alone. I'm always alone and I love it. I'm so glad people leave me alone. Listen to all this peace and quiet with no one bothering me. Now I can think and have fun with the Fairies. Autistics are quick to cover their yards with "Keep Out" and "No Trespassing" signs. Autistics have a high need for privacy and have meltdowns when their personal space is invaded by rude people who do not respect the privacy of others. Autistics are: Open, original, curious, imaginative, conscientious, reliable, organized, thorough, and have overly high self esteems. Autistics (both boys and girls) frequently like to dress up in pink ruffles, frilly skirts, fake wings, and dance around with magic wands, often saying that they are dancing with fairies. Pink is the most common colour worn by Autistics, even into adulthood. Male Autistics have a high rate of wearing dresses as adults. Male to female transgender is common among Autistics. Autistics are often described by others as being "quiet and shy, not talking much and keeping to themselves" Autistics rarely notice what is going on around them. They rarely pay attention to what other people are doing. Usually they are having too much fun interacting with the people living inside their head, to notice the real people around them. They therefore rarely compete with others. Autistics fail to grasp the concept of competition, and therefor have no ability to play competitive sports or compete in contests or competitions. Items such as awards, prizes, and trophies bear no meaning to Autistics who do not understand why competitive people seek to gain such things. If forced by their parents to join sports or contests, they will become overly lazy, sleeping through practice, missing games, and otherwise not participating. Because they can find no logic behind other people's need to compete with one another, they find things like sports, contests, and competitions to be dull, unexciting, and dreadfully boring. They are content to play by themselves and do solo actives and find group activities frustrating and annoying. Autistics are likely to be vegan, vegetarian, animal rights activists, or otherwise extreme when it comes to living as peacefully as possible, and doing as little harm as possible to humans, plants, animals, and the earth. Autistics have a higher then normal complicity for empathy and compassion for all living creatures. Autistics abhor guns, weapons, violence, murder, eating meat, accidentally breathing in bugs, or anything else that might cause harm. Most Autistics obsess over these things to extremes. Most Autistics have some form of spelling problems, such as dyslexia. They often spell words phonetically. They may replace words with pictures (such as drawing an eyeball for the pronoun "I" or a bumblebee for the word "be".) Most Autistics can not process numbers, never learn to count, can not do even simple addition, and are unable to read clocks, tell time, can not tell you the dates, do not know how old they are, and are unable to identify the current year or the current president of the United States. Most Autistics prefer to write with crayons due to the bright colours, as well as the enjoyment of being able to line up the crayons after getting done writing. Autistics tend to write very large, loopy letters in italic (half print/half cursive), often dotting i's with hearts, turning g and y tails into dragonfly wings, adding smiliy faces inside of o's. Their letters are often forward slanting, go off the page and scribbled on the table, and are written, very, very fast. They often write on coloured construction paper and decorate it with glitter glue and stickers. Autistics have a high tendency to love everything. They think more often with their heart then with logic. Their decisions are ruled by emotions and a mortal fear of causing harm. They tend to be optimistic and see the good in everyone. They are often seen by others are "tootie fruitie air heads, floating around in rose coloured glasses" and are often described as "tree hugging hippies". Autistics have an extreme trusting nature and are prone to trusting every one they meet. Because of this, they are seen as "gullible" or "too stupid to live" and have a higher then normal rate of being the victims of scams, fraud, rape, and identity theft. More then 90% of all Autistics have a "bully story" or "stalker story" to tell. Most Autistics can tell you night mare stories of having been targeted, hunted down, stalked, and victimized by someone who has Aspergers. Autistics frequently cite that Aspies call them "retarded competitions for attention that therefore expendable life forms not worthy to live" Autistics commonly report being told by Aspies: "You deserve to die" and/or "You deserve to be shot in the head." There has NEVER been a case of someone with Autism owning, possessing, or using a gun. Nearly all reports of an Autistic child being beaten, bullied, or murdered in a school environment, they were beaten, bullied, or murdered by some one with Aspergers. Autistics commonly report being targeted by Aspies for repeat violence and harassment, often receiving crippling injuries, and claim that the Aspies said they did it because: "You're not really Autistic like me. I know. I'm self-diagnosed. You're not. You're not smart like me. You're just a retard pretending to Autistic. I know better then your doctor. I'm smarter then him. I'm smarter then you. I'm smarter then everyone. You're not special. I am. I'm special. Not you. I have Autism not you." There are no cases of self-diagnosed Autism. Autism is NOT a medical term and a doctor will NEVER diagnose your child as "having Autism". The ACTUAL diagnosis, and the one your doctor will say is: "Your child has Kanner's Syndrome, more commonly known as Autism." TRUE Autism aka Kanner's Syndrome, remains one of the rarest and least common diagnoses. Only 1 in every 10,000 has ACTUAL Autism. 73% of ACTUAL Autistics will never learn to talk, never learn to walk, be wheelchair bond their entire lives, and will be fed by tubes due to an inability to know how to open and shut their mouths or swallow food. Other names for Kanner's Syndrome are: Actual Autism Classic Autism True Autism Real Autism Autistics do not notice things like skin colour or religion and are unaware of the fact that white people should hate black people, Christians should hate Muslims, straights should hate gays, or vice versa. Due to their inability to comprehend the differences between races, religions, genders, and sexualities, and their inability to grasp the concept of competition, Autistics have a low tendency towards violence. Mot only are Autistic people not more likely to commit a violent crime than non-Autistic people, but that the rate of violence among Autistics is lower than in the general population. Autistic people are also far more likely to be the victims of crime than the perpetrators. Autistcs are more likely then average to identify as gay, lesbian, bi-sexual, pansexual, etc. However, most Autistics do not know what sex is and will live their entire lives as virgins, never engaging in sexual activities. When an Autistic becomes frustrated, their first reaction to become very silent, "shut down" (no longer seeing or hearing anything going on around them), and begin stimming and or punding more then usual. While Autistics pick up on every detail, they think nothing of those details and do not make comparisons between people, or things. They are more likely then the average person to be seen as "liberal", due to their not making judgement on people based on race, religion, skin colour, gender, or sexuality. Autistics have difficulty understanding the concept of people being different. They can not see a reason white white skin is better then black skin, rich are better then poor, straights are better the LGBTQA+, etc. They see people as people and do not see the need for people to compete against other people. Autistics often go years without saying a word. It is not unusual for an Autistic to reach adulthood and be presumed mute and only say their first word in their late 20s or early 30s. About half of individuals with autism do not develop enough natural speech to meet their daily communication needs. Autistics have a high rate of never becoming valuable citizens within society because they are too busy happily painting rainbows on pebbles, dressing up in pink ruffles, and dancing with fairies to notice the world around them. Autistics tend to be very stupid, knowing only a few basic things. They have abnormally, extreme high IQs of 200+ in 1 or 2 areas, but such low IQs of -75 in every thing else that they are rarely able to apply usefulness to the 1 or 2 things they excel at. 73% of Autistics are classified as clinically mentally retarded having an IQ of 30 to 50. High Functioning Autism is very rare, only 1 in every 7 Autistics have it. An Autistic is considered High Functioning if their IQ is 75 or higher AND they are able to communicate in full sentences instead of 1 word answers (Okay, Yes, No, etc) and short phrases (I don't know, I like that, I don't like that, etc) Only 1 in every 1,000 Autistics will ever be able to attend elementary and grade school. Even fewer will ever attend highschool. Most will never graduate or go on to college. Autistics form close bonds with a few people, such as caregivers or siblings. What few Autistics there are who reach adulthood and are able to do enough things on their own without the help of a 24 hour caretaker, are most likely to seek out jobs involving the arts: painting, drawing, writing novels, acting in theater, writing poetry, embroidery, beadworking, quilting, doll making, fashion design, cooking, landscaping, and crochet being the most common jobs sought out by Autistics. However fewer then 10% of all Autistics will be able to verbally communicate with others enough to function in normal society. Autistics enjoy creating things. Another name for an Autistic is "idiot savant". Autism is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children |
Asperger'sAsperger's children are very quiet, but they are verbal. Rarely mute. They frequently have out bursts of screaming. They OFTEN suddenly burst out into endless chatter about a beloved topic. While Asperger's children can talk, most REFUSE TO DO SO because they don't see the point. Asperger's children nearly always have a high IQ and they love to tell any one and everyone willing to listen (or not) how great and wonderful they are because high IQs make them, great, and wonderful, and amazing. Asperger's children rock back and forth and stare at the wall for hours because they believe their IQ is so far above the IQ of every one else in the room, that there is therefore no one in the room worth talking to and thus they have fascinating dialogues with themselves as no one but themself has an IQ worth interacting with. Most self-diagnosed Aspies absolutely refuse to degrade themselves by speaking to people with IQs lower then their own. Asperger's children may choose to wear diapers into adulthood because it takes too much time away from their expanding their high IQ to get up to go to the bathroom, but they have no need for someone to help them change said diapers. They also need no help learning to coordinated getting a spoon to their mouth instead of their ear, and if they have trouble crossing the street it's because they forgot to stop reading their book before stepping into the road, not because they couldn't tell the difference between a car and a tree. Asperger's need privacy but crave social interaction. They love touching everyone and everything. As smart as they are, they have no ability to grasp the concept of privacy or personal space and will get as close to you as possible when they talk to you. Most self-diagnosed Aspies walk around with the "I'm special" chip on their shoulder. They constantly use terms such as: “I’m special,” “I’m one-of a kind,” “I’m ahead of my time,” “I’m so unique no one understands me,” and “I’m so smart I’m above everyone else.” Statements such as these reveal common narcissistic tendencies of superiority, grandiosity, and entitlement. Considering 1 in every 3 children has Aspergers, they are not as different, special, unique, or as misunderstood as they believe, but their extreme self importance refuses to allow them to see that. EXCEPT: only 1 in every 400 children have an ACTUAL Asperger's diagnosis; the remainder of the 1 in 3 children are self diagnosed. Tell an Aspie they are special and they reply with: "I know it! I have the best brain on the planet!" While socially awkward, Aspies feel a desperate need to try to join social actives, will repeatedly and often unsuccessfully try to be part of a group, and become highly frustrated when if in a group, others do not recognized their supreme dominance and superiority to the others, by virtue of their having the highest IQ of anyone in the room. Though often alone, Aspies do not want to be. When by themselves, most self-diagnosed Aspies become angry, frustrated, and frequently hit themselves in the head, punch walls, kick doors, break their siblings toys, throw things, and often throw themselves on the ground scream that they are going to hold their breath and kill themselves if someone doesn't play with them. However when others try to play with them, most self-diagnosed Aspies get great pleasure out of bullying, teasing, picking on, and beating up anyone whose IQ is not deemed high enough to match their superiority. Most self-diagnosed Aspies find "pretend play" and "imaginary friends" to be dull and boring, often citing that "those things are for stupid babies with low IQs. We intelligent beings do not do stupid baby stuff like that." Aspies are quick to say such things as: I feel uncomfortable when I am alone. Being alone quickly gets to be too much for me. I'm always alone and I hate it. While most self-diagnosed Aspies say: I'm so sick of people ignoring me, I have to seek revenge on them and show them I'm the best, then they'll wish they had spent time with me. I'll teach them to leave me alone like this. You'll see. I'll show them. Most self-diagnosed Aspies are quick to tear "Keep Out" and "No Trespassing" signs off trees, say "that ain't there for me" and trespass in your yard anyways with no regard for your privacy and no clue that they are invading your personal private space. Aspies are: Neurotic, curious, tense, moody, worry a lot, feel a deep need to belong to a social group, organized, thorough, and have overly low self esteems. Aspies(both boys and girls) frequently like to dress in dark clothes, and as teens and young adults are most likely to identify as "emo". They are also prone to pity parties, cutting, and self mutilation. Black is the most common colour worn by Aspies, even into adulthood. Most self-diagnosed Female Aspies have a high rate of wearing pants as adults, refusing to wear dresses, often referring to girls who wear dresses as "frumpy" and "stupid". Female to male transgender is common among Aspies. Aspies are often described by others as being "loud, obnoxious, and over boisterous, they never stop talking and can't keep their hands to themselves" Aspies are highly competitive and are constantly on the look out for the smallest most minute details in which they are different from (and therefore superior to) those around them. They are very nosy, needing to know every move everyone makes, to be able to constantly be "two steps ahead" so that no one is able to "beat them at the game". They turn everything into a competition, for example: quickly eating their meal without chewing, just so they can jump up from the table screaming "I'm done first! I win!" even though no one else was competing against them in eating fastest. Aspies are highly motivated by the concept of winning, being the best, having the most, receiving awards, prizes, and trophies. They do not care about the game, contest, or activity itself as their motive is simply being better at everything then every one else. Most self-diagnosed Aspies often take to cheating and deviant and hurtful methods "to win", especially in things where no one is actually competing against them. (Such as setting fire to a neighbors house, because the neighbors house was bigger then theirs and the only way for them to "win" was to make their neighbors house smaller.) Aspies must win at all costs. About 1 in every 9 self-diagnosed Aspies are quick to say that violence, vandalism, and even murder are justified if it means they will win. Because they lack empathy, about a 3rd of all self-diagnosed Aspies do not see anything wrong with violence, vandalism, or murder and believe that if these things serve their purpose (to win and prove their brain is the best) than they are perfectly okay things to do. Self-diagnosed Aspies have the lowest rate of empathy and compassion (of all mental illnesses) for those around them. All life - human, plant, or animal - is expendable. Parents should be on the look out for self-diagnosed Aspies who kill and dissect their pets (cats, dogs, hamsters, etc) as this is a common problem in about a 3rd of all Aspies children. If your neighbors dog goes missing and is then returned to them dissected, this is often a tell tale sign that their is a self-diagnosed Aspie in the area. Most Aspies have better than average spelling and grammar skills and are quick to bully any one with poor spelling. They are often described as "grammar Nazis". Most Aspies are able to do advanced Algebra at a young age (as young as 5 years old) and find things like Trigonometry equations to be relaxing past-times. Aspies are sometimes said to be "human calculators". Most Aspies can not only list off all the presidents of the United States in order, but can also tell you the names of each first lady, each vice president, and then each governor of each state during the presidency of each president. Most Aspies write in fine point archival ink pens, often in very neat, carefully aligned, very tiny block letters, which closely mimic typed fonts. They may re-write the same letter to someone a dozen or more times, if they accidentally make one word a millimeter too high above the line. They always write on college ruled or graph paper, to ensure the letters are perfectly straight and even. Writing with 1 inch margins on all sides. Aspies are cold, calculating, and often described as being robotic. They feel emotions are a waste of their time and energy and use cold logic to base all their decisions off of. They tend to be pessimistic and see the bad in everyone. They are often seen by others are "mean, cold-hearted tyrants" or "rigid and unforgiving", or "heartless and uncaring", and are often described as "little Hitlers". Aspies have an extreme "ego maniac" or "super villain" nature, displayed by a need to do "dastardly daring deeds" simply to prove to everyone that they can and thus show the world they have the biggest, bestest, brain in all the land. Because of this, one third of all Aspies (the 3rd all being self-diagnosed) are quick to hone in on anyone seen as "gullible" or "too stupid to live" and have a higher then normal rate of being the perpetrators of scams, fraud, rape, and identity theft. Most self-diagnosed Aspies of this type have a high need to be given constructive things to do in order to prevent them from becoming master mind criminals. Most self-diagnosed Aspies have a tendency to hunt down, stalk, and victimize Autistics, because they see Autistics as "retarded competitions for attention" and therefore expendable life forms worthy of their deviant , super brainy, methods of torment. Self-diagnosed Aspies have a higher then normal rate of being in possession of guns, in most cases stolen from a relative. Nearly ALL school shootings to occur in the United States was committed by a person with self-diagnosed Aspergers. Nearly all reports of an Autistic child being beaten, bullied, or murdered in a school environment, they were beaten, bullied, or murdered by some one with self-diagnosed Aspergers. Self-diagnosed Aspies are more (then any other mental illness) likely to target someone with Autism and ignore all other disorders, as they feel Autistics are "fakers" and "not really Autistic like me". Aspies are very strong willed and dominant and have a need to be in control. Because of their extreme levels of narcissism, their high levels of feeling superior and self important, and their total lack of empathy towards others, self-diagnosed Aspies have a high rate towards violence and criminal activity, especially being violent towards anyone they feel is "different and therefor inferior" to them. Most self-diagnosed Aspies have no tolerance level for anything not completely identical to themselves. White Aspies therefore hate with a vengange all non-whites. Christian Aspies are of the believe it is their god given duty to murder every Muslim before the Muslims murder them. Straight Aspies believe the only good gay man is a dead gay man. And so on. Self-diagnosed Aspies are more likely then the average person, and more likely then any other mental illness, to show animosity towards gay, lesbian, bi-sexual, pansexual, etc. people because they are "different" and all things different = inferior to the Aspie's superior intellect. When self-diagnosed Aspies becomes frustrated, their first reaction is usually to grab the person closet to them, hold them down, and punch them in the face over and over again, even if that person was in no way related to the cause of their frustration. Aspies notice every detail of everything and put high focus on ways people are different from them. Most self-diagnosed Aspies are more likely then the average person to show intolerance to different races, religions, genders, and sexuality, feeling that their own race, gender, sexuality, and religion are the ONLY CORRECT ones and that all other are evil and should be eliminated. Most self-diagnosed Aspies are more likely then the average person to join racially bigoted gangs (such as Nazis or Ku Klux Klan or the Westboro Baptist Church) or be attracted to racism. Most self-diagnosed Aspies are more likely to take part in Zionism, White Power, gay-bashing, anti-gay movements, etc. Asperger's have difficulty going 5 seconds without being the center attention of every single conversation. If they are not the ones talking, they have no use for the conversation, so they make sure to talk as often as possible to make sure no one else gets a chance to get a word in. Aspies have a high rate of never becoming valuable citizens within society because they are too busy plotting global domination and seeking revenge on all the unintelligent, low IQ, know nothings they are forced to live with. Aspies tend to be very smart, knowing everything about everything and making sure everyone around them knows it as much as possible. Most Aspies have an IQ of 130 to 160. Aspies are considered High Functioning if their IQ is over 145. While no one questions that they have the brains of Enstien, most people choose to avoid contact with Aspies because of their over obnoxious need to be constantly declaring their superiority over everyone because of their high IQ. Most self-diagnosed Aspies DO NOT have a high IQ and instead have an average range IQ of 90 to 100, but they are the LOUDEST to proclaim they have a high IQ. REAL Aspies are usually several grades ahead of their peers in school. A 5 year old may be sent on to 3rd grade. A 12 year old may be graduating high school and filling out college applications. Most Aspies will start college before the age of 16. Aspies are more likely then the average person to be accepted in places like Harvard, Yale, or MIT. Most self-diagnosed Aspies are high-school drop outs, often expelled on grounds of extreme violence towards other students or teachers. They rarely go to college. They rarely make it past the 8th grade. They re likely to have repeated multiple grades and be 3 or 4 uears older then others in their class. Aspies are repulsed by the idea of forming emotional bonds to people in their lives and see it as a sign of weakness and low intelligence to show emotion. Aspies who do not succumb to depression, self-loathing, a criminal lifestyle of violence against "the inferiors of the world" or go on to become virus building computer hackers, have a high likelihood of seeking careers in the sciences and technologies. Many will become inventors. Aspies have gone on to start the largest web companies in the world, including Google, FaceBook, and Amazon. Bill Gates and Stephen Hawkings are considered to be two of the most famous currently living Aspies. Aspies enjoy inventing and building things. Self-diagnosed Aspies enjoy destroying things, especially if they can make some one cry by doing so. One of the high lights of their day is killing a siblings favorite pet and ripping heads off dolls. Another name for an Aspie is "child genius". Asperger's is very COMMON effecting 1 in 3 children |
Most people self-diagnosed as Aspies, will also CLAIM that those are the symptoms of Asperger's, and will become incredibly hostile to the point of violence, if you tell them they are wrong and need to go look up actual medical books instead of random crap on the internet.
Consider this:
Hostile behavior is NOT a symptom of Aspergers, in fact, REAL Aspies are extreemly docile... and yet 80% of self-diagnosed Aspies display some of the most violent tempers out there... and that alone is proof they do not have Aspergers.
If you reading this right now, thought you had Asperger's but are feeling anger over reading this... know that a REAL Aspie lacks the part of the brain that triggers anger and any anger you are feeling right now is 100% proof that you DO NOT have Aspergers.
The thing is, I wrote this the way I did, specifically to prove a point.
To prove that ANYONE can write ANYTHING on the internet about Aspergers... but that doesn't make it true.
90% of what you read on Autism mommy blog is pure bull crap.
They bitch and moan "my child has Autism, I know my child has Autism, but the damn doctor refuses to diagnosis with Autism!"
Yeah.. because federal law REQUIRES the child diagnosed with Autism to be removed from it's parents and it's parents arrested due to the nature of the REAL and ACTUALLY CONFIRMED cause of autism, being child rape and sex abuse by a parent.
Look it up... in a medical book. Get the information from a REAL DOCTOR, not these head up their ass bull crap autism mommy bloggers who just want to join the autism fad.
To get diagnoses with a psychosis requires a psychiatrist to diagnose it. Pediatricians can not legally diagnose autism, that's why they WON'T.
Autism is a psychosis... and it's a psychosis that is so horrifically severe, that the law requires THREE (3) psychiatrists to diagnose it... because they have to make sure the diagnoses is correct, due to the legal requirement of arresting the parents for child rape once the diagnosis of autism is confirmed.
Still think you know what autism is?
Still think you have anything even remotely close to it?
Go back and read the Aspergers side of that list again.
How many things on it did you agree with while saying:
"Yes! Yes! Yes! That's Me! I'm An Aspie! I do that!"
Still confused?
Want to see something VERY DISTURBING?
When asked who the most famous Aspie was... who do you think they said? Bill Gates? President Obama? Stephen Hawkins? Albery Einstien? Benjamin Franklin? The guys who started Google, FaceBook, or Amazon?
Nope.
They did not pick someone who ACTUALLY had Aspergers and is generally considered the most famous Aspies... instead, they picked someone who does NOT have Aspergers, but in fact, has the same symptoms as the "Aspergers symptoms" they gave in the list above.
Still can't tell the difference between Autism and Aspergers?
How about this then?
The two most famous people to have each:
Let's take the person who REALLY IS the most famous person with Autism (Liberace) and compare him to the man, the self-diagnosed Aspies picked as the "most famous Aspie".... it might shock you who it is they glorified and idolize as being the "ideal Aspie to look up to"...
Liberace was noted for:
Liberace's kind loving, gentle, childlike nature, his very low IQ, his savant skills in music and cooking, his additions to all things pink and glitter, his speech disorders (see the videos to hear it in the interviews), his love of animals, his obsessive hoarding problem (watch him trying to squeeze through massive mega hoarding piles of his collections in his house in the family and friends interview) and his desire to help everyone he meet, are all ACTUAL SYMPTOMS of both Autism and Aspergers.
Autism =: Oh boy colour! Let's have fun! Every body dance! Flap your arms and be a butterfly. Run with the faeries. Yipppie!
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According to self diagnosed Aspies...
Asperger's =: Bow down and worship my super brain you unintelligent ingrate, I'm better then you, and you know it you worm. I'm the greatest, god said so.
Now, here's something to think about...
The problem with all of the above mentioned descriptions of Asperger's is...
they are the descriptions given by people who self-diagnose as Aspies, and are NOT the actual medical descriptions of Aspergers.
Even Hitler.
Yes... while the current population of self-diagnosed Aspies, love to flaunt Hitler as their poster boy (and idol) for being the most famous Aspie, the fact remains that no psychiatrists lists Hitler as an Aspie. In fact, Psychiatrists point to Hitler as the model for megalomania.
Hmmmm.
Again, can you see the problem of the recent flood of self-diagnosed Aspies running around these days?
Not only do they not know what Aspergers is, they are making up symptoms for Aspergers that are NOT symptoms of Aspergers!
They then make things worse, by saying Aspergers is just another word for Autism, and now instead of just being self diagnosed Aspies, they are also self-diagnosed Autistics as well!
And it gets worse... most of them are also roving hypochondriacs and have long lists of other things they supposedly self diagnosed themselves with. And these change depending on what disease is currently in the news. Lately, in 2017, the "current popular" disease to have is Lyme Disease. Self Diagnosed Aspies have Lyme Disease left and right this year.
One only has to read a few dozen of the hundreds of "self-diagnosed Aspie" blogs to see that trend loud and clear.
This is a problem, because people who have children who are ACTUALLY diagnosed by real live doctors (who knew those existed?) get the diagnosis, are not sure what it is, head to Google to find out, and instead of getting accurate information on Autism and Aspergers, they get "popular blog post" information on Aspergers and Autism, which is nearly always written by one of these "I'm a special snowflake because I self diagnosed as an Aspie" blogs.
Now, I'm not saying ALL self-diagnosed Aspies do not have Aspergers, some do, but the ones that do are not nearly as vocal, bossy, bitchy, self-righteous, or arrogant, as the ones who self-diagnose but don't actually have it. And THAT is the problem.
A REAL Aspie is NOT arrogant.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY arrogant to an extreme.
A REAL Aspie is NOT violent.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY violent to an extreme.
A REAL Aspie is NOT claiming to be special or trying to get attention.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies DEMAND attention, and will beat you to a pulp if you don't agree they are special.
A REAL Aspie does NOT seek out revenge and vengeance, even if you try to kill them.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies are quick to build bombs, buy guns, shoot up schools, burn down houses, and kill pets, for something as simple as you sneezed while walking pass them in the store (yes, that actually happened - it's what is known as Maine's Transgender Murder at Saco Shaw's).
Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?
You might be surprised how little you really know.
ACTUAL Autism (Kanner's Syndrome) is very RARE, effecting only 1 in every 10,000 children
Self diagnosed Asperger's is very COMMON with 1 in 3 children self-diagnosed
ACTUAL Asperger's is rarer then people think however as only 1 in 400 children who actually have a doctor's diagnose
1 in 64 children are diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, which means they DO NOT have Autism
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
Only 1 in every 10,000 people are ACTUALLY Autistic
Only 1 in every 17,000 people will ever encounter a REAL ACTUALLY Autistic person in their lifetime
1 in every 8 Autistic people will be murdered before the age of 25
1 in every 7 Autistic people will commit suicide because of a bully
1 in every 2 Autistic people will die by the age of 45
40% of self-diagnosed Asperger children between the ages of 12 and 18, admit they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and could not name any symptoms of Aspergers other then: "high IQ, reads comic books, and is socially awkward"
60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children have stated they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"; these people could not list the symptoms of Aspergers and simple stated it meant "being a genius".
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
80% of All People Claiming To Be "Autistic Aspies" do not have either Aspergers or Autism and are shocked when they learn that Aspergers is NOT a "type" of Autism.
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television"
Aspergers is an Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)
Asperger's is NOT a "type" of Autism.
There are more the 60 ASDs including Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, Schizophrenia, Threadworm Infestation, and having had a Stroke.
Autism Spectrum Disorder means "an illness that is commonly misdiagnosed as Autism, but is not Autism."
73% of all ACTUALLY Autistic people, will never speak, will never learn to wipe their bum, will eat through a tube never learning how to chew, and will wear neck braces and be wheelchair bound from never learning to hold up their head or walk.
The 27% of Autistic people who can talk and walk and chew their own food, will rarely learn to speak in full sentences, will forever "act like a 4 year old" even into their senior years.
There are no known cases of anyone with ACTUAL Autism ever becoming fully independent or living on their own. REAL Autistics require caretakers and adult supervision their entire lives.
More then 90% of all Autistic people have a low IQ of under 75. Most are considered "mentally retarded" with IQs below 60.
Fewer then 10% of all Autistics are High Functioning.
High Functioning Autism, means:
"Has an IQ of 75 or more and can speak in phrases longer then 2 or 3 words, being able to communicate verbally in full sentences."
Your child can NOT be diagnosed with Autism, because there is no medical condition called "Autism".
Autism is a slang laymen's term for Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare birth defect caused by genetic mutation.
When a doctor says "Your child may be autistic", they DO NOT mean they are diagnoses your child with Autism.
They mean you child is displaying symptoms of Autism and likely has one of the 60+ ASDs.
If your child has one of the ASDs, this means your child DOES NOT have Autism, but has a disease with similar symptoms to Autism.
Many symptoms of ASDs go away over time, either on their own or with changes to medication, diet, and lifestyle.
ACTUAL Autism is a type of mental retardation, and is a severely crippling lifelong condition. It's symptoms do not lesson or go away with time.
If your child is diagnosed with REAL, ACTUAL Autism aka as an Idiot Savant, your doctor will say: "Your child has Kanner's Syndrome", they will NOT say "Your child has Autism"
Symptoms of Kanner's Syndrome are:
Someone with Autism has ALL of the symptoms above and one or more of the symptoms below (and can have all of the symptoms below):
The symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away over time.
Autism is always easily recognized.
Autism is considered rare and uncommon.
Was identified in 1932.
The first known case of Autism was Victor de l'Aveyron, a feral child discovered living in the forest, had grown up without any form of human contact, and never spoke in 1801 by French physician Jean Marc Gaspard Itard.
Prior to the 1970s it was assumed that ALL Autistic children were "feral children" whom had been serverly neglected and or abused and had on some levels raised themselves without the normal guidance of a parent.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 are reluctant to give a diagnoses of Autism to any child that can not also be considered "a Feral Child", thus why ACTUAL Autism diagnosis are so rare.
I am diagnosed as both "A Feral Child" and "Autistic Savant". I grew up in the Ross Forest of Old Orchard Beach with very little Human contact; I was 31 years old before I had what is considered to be any form of "normal interaction with American society." I did not start speaking in full sentences or American English until I was 37 years old, after being trained to do so by a College Professor who was trained in teaching Autistic children to talk.
I was also classified as having suffered the following:
TRUE Autism is caused by being born with a genetic mutation which triggers compulsive overcompensation techniques as a way to deal with extreme, abnormal, and excessive early age child abuse. The most common trigger is toddler rape by adults, sexual abuse, and child sex slavery.
Child sexual abuse (CSA) is a form of child abuse in which an adult or older adolescent abuses a child for sexual stimulation.
Sexual abuse refers to the participation of a child in a sexual act aimed toward the physical gratification or the financial profit of the person committing the act.
Forms of CSA include asking or pressuring a child to engage in sexual activities (regardless of the outcome), indecent exposure of the genitals to a child, displaying pornography to a child, actual sexual contact with a child, physical contact with the child's genitals, viewing of the child's genitalia without physical contact, or using a child to produce child pornography. Selling the sexual services of children may be viewed and treated as child abuse rather than simple incarceration.
Persons with ACTUAL Autism often display several of the following side effects of child sexual abuse:
Children who are the victims are also at an increased risk of sexually transmitted infections due to their immature immune systems and a high potential for mucosal tears during forced sexual contact.
In the United States, approximately 15% to 25% of women and 5% to 15% of men were sexually abused when they were children.
An increase in children having Autism = an increase in children being raped, molested, and sexually abused by a caregiver before reaching the age of 3.
The uncles who raised me are currently wanted by and on the run from the FBI.
Yes, because of what the ACTUAL causes of ACTUAL Autism are, if your child REALLY DOES have ACTUAL Autism...
you are one hell of a horrible, shitty, no good son of bitch, bastard of a parent and you should be in prison where your neglectful, self-serving, sexually depraved, child abusing ass belongs.
You might want to think about THAT next time you go around bragging "I self diagnosed my child as Autistic."
As many as 60% of all Autistics are catatonic... meaning they were abused so bad that their brain shut down, forcing them into a "waking coma" as a way to not see the abuse any longer.
Asperger’s Syndrome shares with Autism:
But people with Asperger’s do not have:
Aspies are:
Asperger’s is often not recognized easily or early, and may be misdiagnosed as:
As with Autism, the disorder is lifelong and symptoms do not lesson, change, or go away with time.
Asperger's is considered prevalent and very common.
Was identified in 1944, but was not recognized by doctors as an actual diagnosis until 1994.
Gifted Introverts are shy people with high IQs (an IQ of 130 or higher).
While socially awkward, they do not have the speech issues, ritualistic behaviors, or other symptoms of either Autism or Aspergers.
Many gifted, but introverted children are inaccurately diagnosed as having Aspergers when they in fact do not have it.
Gifted Children have a very high IQ of 130 or higher.
On the other hand, ACTUAL Aspies rarely have high IQs.
Most Aspergers people have a low IQ that is only slightly higher then the IQs of Autistics, usually in the range of 75 to 90.
High Functioning Aspergers are uncommon to rare, and most of them having normal/average IQs of between 90 to 120.
Autism equaling a high IQ is an urban myth spread by internet memes and is NOT an actual symptom of either Autism or Aspergers.
Aspies are more likely then not to have a low IQ in the range of 75 to 90.
Autistics rarely have an IQ above 75.
True Autism, ACTUAL Autism, is defined as "a psychosis caused by extreme psychological trauma in early childhood, often of a sexual nature".
Psychological trauma is a type of damage to the mind that occurs as a result of a severely distressing event. Trauma is often the result of an overwhelming amount of stress that exceeds one's ability to cope, or integrate the emotions involved with that experience. A traumatic event involves one's experience, or repeating events of being overwhelmed that can be precipitated in weeks, years, or even decades as the person struggles to cope with the immediate circumstances, eventually leading to serious, long-term negative consequences.
Trauma can be caused by a wide variety of events, but there are a few common aspects. There is frequently a violation of the person's familiar ideas about the world and their human rights, putting the person in a state of extreme confusion and insecurity. This is also seen when institutions that are depended upon for survival, violate, humiliate, betray, or cause major losses or separations.
Psychologically traumatic experiences often involve physical trauma that threatens one's survival and sense of security. Typical causes and dangers of psychological trauma include harassment, embarrassment, abandonment, abusive relationships, rejection, co-dependence, physical assault, sexual abuse, partner battery, employment discrimination, police brutality, judicial corruption and misconduct, bullying, paternalism, domestic violence, indoctrination, being the victim of an alcoholic parent, the threat or the witnessing of violence (particularly in childhood), life-threatening medical conditions, and medication-induced trauma.
Catastrophic natural disasters such as earthquakes and volcanic eruptions, large scale transportation accidents, house or domestic fire, motor vehicle accident, mass interpersonal violence like war, terrorist attacks or other mass tortures like sex trafficking, being taken as a hostage or kidnapped can also cause psychological trauma. Long-term exposure to situations such as extreme poverty or milder forms of abuse, such as verbal abuse, exist independently of physical trauma but still generate psychological trauma.
If your child has REAL, ACTUAL Autism, it means he suffered one of the above listed events prior to the age of 3 years old.
Many psychiatrists ACTUALLY TRAINED in diagnosing REAL Autism, even today in 2017 believe that an Autistic person, is a person who was born with Aspergers, but whom suffered such horrendous abuse prior to the age of 3, that, their brain triggered over compensation methods to cope with the extreme abuse they were subjected to.
Because of this, Aspergers and Autism are considered by many to be two different forms of the same disorder, but that Aspergers does not become Autism unless it also has the severe early childhood sexual abuse to trigger it.
Because of the severe nature of the levels of sexual abuse required to trigger the Autism component of Asperger's, when a child is ACTUALLY diagnosed with REAL Autism, they are also immediately put into state custody and removed from their parents/guardian's care, and criminal charges are then filed against the parent/guardian.
If your child was not taken away from you at the time of diagnosis, and you did not have sexual abuse charged filed against you by the state, then your child was NOT diagnosed with ACTUAL Autism.
Kanner's Syndrome (ACTUAL Autism) is listed as a Psychosis and is therefore a mental illness.
It is considered to be caused by a genetic birth defect, which triggers an imbalance of the synapses, when a person suffering from this birth defect, is subjected to sexual abuse.
Doctors and Pediatrics can not legally diagnose Autism because they can not legally diagnose mental illnesses.
Your child can only receive an ACTUAL Autism diagnoses by a Psychiatrist specially trained in severe cases of early childhood sexual trauma.
In spite of untrained teachers, caregivers, social workers, and parents tossing around the "diagnosis" of Autism... to the rate of calling 1 in every 3 children Autistic...
...Autism remains one of the most difficult diagnoses to get diagnosed with, due to the fact doctors are reluctant to risk being sued for false charges of sexual abuse of the child, should it later be discovered the child had not been sexually abused and therefore does NOT have Autism.
Only 1 in 10,000 children are ever ACTUALLY diagnosed with Autism, by someone ACTUALLY TRAINED in recognizing this level of early childhood sexual abuse trauma.
Because Kanner's Syndrome aka ACTUAL Autism is so rare, fewer then 20% of all doctors are trained in how to recognize, diagnose, or treat it.
If your doctor diagnoses your child with "Autism" - get a new doctor immediately, as they are not trained in Autism well enough to know there is no actual medical diagnoses of "Autism" because there is no disease, illness, or disorder that actually has the medical name "Autism".
Both Aspergers and Autism are considered to be "types" of Schizophrenia.
Contrary to popular urban myths spread by ill informed parents and patients, both Autism and Aspergers are mental illnesses and can only be treated by psychiatrists. Family Practitioners and Pediatricians are not legally licensed to treat or diagnose either Aspergers or Autism. Beware of any one who says otherwise.
Unlike most mental illnesses, Aspergers and Autism are disorders you are born with. You can not "get" them. Once activated, they do not lesson, get better, or go away with time.
Similar to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, both Aspergers and Autism require traumatic stress to "activate" the genes the child was born with. Once activated, they do not turn back off.
Both Aspergers and Autism are also known as "Childhood Onset Schizophrenia".
The difference in the diagnoses, and the severity of the symptoms, is typically a result of the age of onset.
Autism is when the genes are triggered in early childhood before the age of 3. Because of the early onset, Autism is the most physically crippling and disabling type of Schizophrenia. There are no known treatments.
Aspergers is when the genes are triggered in late childhood often around the age of 14. Because of the later onset, many Aspies are able to live independent and functional lives. Diet and lifestyle are considered to help, though this is only speculation.
Schizophrenia is when the genes are triggered in adulthood after the age of 20. Late onset Schizophrenia is often treated with medication, though there is much debate in the medical world as the usefulness of this approach.
I am 1 of the 1 in 10,000 people who has REAL, ACTUAL Autism.
I do not have more then 90% of the symptoms "commonly attributed to Autisim", because most of those symptoms are urban myths made up by fans of Sheldon Cooper and are not real symptoms of REAL Autism.
Find out what it is like to live with REAL Autism here.
And so I say again... if you are an author and you want to write about a character who has Autism... then write a character with Kanner's Syndrome, because that is the real name of Autism. Do your research from actual medical books and actual patients. You may be surprised, how vastly different Autism really is, from the way self-diagnosed Aspies portray it.
And, if you want to write about a character with Asperger's, go to actual medical books and find actual people with actual medical diagnosis to interview. Once you start looking into REAL symptoms of Aspergers and talking to ACTUALLY diagnosed patients of Aspergers, you'll be stunned by how starkly different REAL Aspergers is, from the popular urban myths spread by the ever growing population of Sheldon Copper fans who self-diagnose so they can be "just like Sheldon Cooper".
REMEMBER:
80% of All People Who
"Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!
Know the facts.
Know the truth.
DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING A Self-Diagnosed "Aspie"
Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's
Chances Are VERY HIGH that they
DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.
9 in every 10 people claiming to have Aspergers are self-diagnosed.
It is estimated that 2 of every 3 people claiming to have Asperger's actually has Schizophrenia, Sociopathy, Psychopathy, or Covert Narcissism and has not been accurately diagnosed.
More them 80% of the cases of self-diagnosis of Aspergers, when they finally do get an ACTUAL doctor diagnosis, their REAL diagnosis is almost always "Covert Narcissism" or Megalomania and NOT Aspergers.
Covert Narcissism is a sub-type of Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) in it's advanced stages it is becomes known as Megalomania.
The recent boom of self-diagnoses Aspies flooding America the past decade is the reason why Aspergers went from 1 in every 400 children to 1 in every 3 children.
Only 1 in every 10 people claiming to have Asperger's ACTUALLY have a doctor's diagnosis, and USUALLY, the diagnosis was NOT Aspergers, but rather Schizophrenia and the parents told relatives (and the child) is was Aspergers because Aspergers is a "better" thing to have then Schizophrenia.
Medical professionals still say that 1 on 400 children have Aspergers, even though 1 in 3 children currently proclaim to have it.
Behold, the danger of the self-diagnosis.
80% of All People Who "Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!
DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING
A Self-Diagnoses "Aspie" Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's
Chances Are VERY HIGH that they DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.
Covert Narcissistsexaggerated feelings of self-importance an excessive need for admiration a lack of understanding of others' feelings often spend a lot of time thinking about achieving power or success take advantage of the people around them Therapy is often difficult as people with the disorder frequently do not consider themselves to have a problem In the mind of a narcissist, there is no boundary between self and other Grandiosity with expectations of superior treatment from others Fixated on fantasies of power, success, intelligence, attractiveness, etc. Self-perception of being unique, superior and associated with high-status people and institutions Needing constant admiration from others Sense of entitlement to special treatment and to obedience from others Exploitative of others to achieve personal gain Unwilling to empathize with others' feelings, wishes, or needs Intensely envious of others and the belief that others are equally envious of them Pompous and arrogant demeanor Defiance of their will is a narcissistic injury that can trigger narcissistic rage they can be controlling, blaming, self-absorbed, intolerant of others' views, unaware of others' needs, the effects of their behavior on others, and insist that others see them as they wish to be seen use various strategies to protect the self at the expense of others tend to devalue, derogate, insult, blame others and they often respond to threatening feedback with anger and hostility they are prone to feelings of shame, humiliation and worthlessness over minor or even imagined incidents they may react with outbursts of rage, defiance, or by seeking revenge Seeks to counteract or cancel out deep feelings of inferiority and lack of self-esteem offsets deficits by creating illusions of being superior, exceptional, admirable, noteworthy; self-worth results from self-enhancement Feels privileged and empowered by virtue of special childhood status and pseudo achievements entitled façade bears little relation to reality Fearless, guiltless, remorseless, calculating, ruthless, inhumane, callous, brutal, rancorous, aggressive, biting, merciless, vicious, cruel, spiteful hateful and jealous anticipates betrayal and seeks punishment desires revenge Narcissists see themselves as perfect, using distortion and illusion known as magical thinking. They also use projection to "dump" shame onto others. is often suicidal, and is homicidal A narcissist may secure a sense of superiority in the face of another person's ability by using contempt to minimize the other person or their achievements An obvious self-focus in interpersonal exchanges Problems in sustaining satisfying relationships A lack of psychological awareness (see insight in psychology and psychiatry, egosyntonic) Difficulty with empathy Problems distinguishing the self from others (see narcissism and boundaries) Hypersensitivity to any insults or imagined insults (see criticism and narcissists, narcissistic rage and narcissistic injury) Vulnerability to shame rather than guilt Haughty body language Flattery towards people who admire and affirm them (narcissistic supply) Detesting those who do not admire them (narcissistic abuse) Using other people without considering the cost of doing so Pretending to be more important than they actually are Bragging (subtly but persistently) and exaggerating their achievements Claiming to be an "expert" at many things Inability to view the world from the perspective of other people Denial of remorse and gratitude |
MegalomaniacsDelusion of being superior to others Delusion of greatness Delusion of having great social and political power Lack of empathy for anything do not recognize that they have boundaries and that others are separate and are not extensions of themselves is considered an "awkward" or "difficult" person Others either exist to meet their needs or may as well not exist at all Delusion of importance narcissism (narcissism) hyperactivity, garrulity concentration on own thoughts Defiance of their will is a narcissistic injury that can trigger narcissistic rage frequent change of mood lack of interest to the opinion of people around aggression in relation to people around sleeplessness will pretend to have other disorders, especially Asperger's in order to gain the sympathy of others They often take to cheating and deviant and hurtful methods "to win", especially in things where no one is actually competing against them. (Such as setting fire to a neighbors house, because the neighbors house was bigger then theirs and the only way for them to "win" was to make their neighbors house smaller.) must win at all costs are quick to say that violence, vandalism, and even murder are justified if it means they will win. Because they lack empathy, they do not see anything wrong with violence, vandalism, or murder and believe that if these things serve their purpose (to win and prove their brain is the best) than they are perfectly okay things to do. have the lowest rate of ANY MENTAL ILLNESS of empathy and compassion for those around them. All life - human, plant, or animal - is expendable. Parents should be on the look out for children/adults who kill and dissect their pets (cats, dogs, hamsters, etc). If your neighbors dog goes missing and is then returned to them dissected, this is often a tell tale sign that their is megalomaniac, often passing as a self-diagnoses Aspie, in the area. ruthless, open, unashamed egotism An obvious self-focus in interpersonal exchanges Problems in sustaining satisfying relationships A lack of psychological awareness (see insight in psychology and psychiatry, egosyntonic) Difficulty with empathy Problems distinguishing the self from others (see narcissism and boundaries) Hypersensitivity to any insults or imagined insults (see criticism and narcissists, narcissistic rage and narcissistic injury) Vulnerability to shame rather than guilt Haughty body language Flattery towards people who admire and affirm them (narcissistic supply) Detesting those who do not admire them (narcissistic abuse) Using other people without considering the cost of doing so Pretending to be more important than they actually are Bragging (subtly but persistently) and exaggerating their achievements Claiming to be an "expert" at many things Inability to view the world from the perspective of other people Denial of remorse and gratitude are physically violent, highly destructive to other people's property are viscous spousal abusers IS CONSIDERED HIGHLY DANGEROUS AND HOMICIDAL. Takes delight in torturing animals, but will quickly progress to babies, children, and eventually adults. considered to be one of the single most dangerous mental illnesses there is. nearly ALL people having it will commit murder and more the HALF of them will get away with it. |
80% of All People Who
"Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!
DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING
A Self-Diagnoses "Aspie" Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's
Chances Are VERY HIGH that they DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.
If you are a self-diagnosed Aspie and you feel enraged, bitter, and angry by this revelation, consider this:
Some one who ACTUALLY had Asperger's WOULDN'T be enraged, enbittered, or become angered by this information.
Why?
Because, like someone with Autism, someone with ACTUAL Aspergers, lacks the part of the brain that triggers anger.
Like Autistics, REAL Aspies, are completely and totally docile, non-violent, and it is almost impossible to get either Autistics or Aspies angry.
Know that if you are feeling anger right now after reading this, then you do NOT have Aspergers and your self-diagnosis was wrong.
Now, here's something to think about...
The problem with all of the above mentioned descriptions of Asperger's is...
they are the descriptions given by people who self-diagnose as Aspies, and are NOT the actual medical descriptions of Aspergers.
Even Hitler.
Yes... while the current population of self-diagnosed Aspies, love to flaunt Hitler as their poster boy (and idol) for being the most famous Aspie, the fact remains that no psychiatrists lists Hitler as an Aspie. In fact, Psychiatrists point to Hitler as the model for megalomania.
Hmmmm.
Again, can you see the problem of the recent flood of self-diagnosed Aspies running around these days?
Not only do they not know what Aspergers is, they are making up symptoms for Aspergers that are NOT symptoms of Aspergers!
The self-diagnosed children who have no clue what Aspergers even really is, then make things worse, by saying their "form" of Aspergers is just another word for Autism, and now instead of just being self diagnosed Aspies, they are also self-diagnosed Autistics as well!
A person can be diagnosed with BOTH Autism and Aspergers, they are that different from one another! And yet these children, who know nothing about either are claiming each word is interchangeable for the other!
And it gets worse... most of them are also roving hypochondriacs and have long lists of other things they supposedly self diagnosed themselves with. And these change depending on what disease is currently in the news. Lately, in 2017, the "current popular" disease to have is Lyme Disease. Self Diagnosed Aspies have Lyme Disease let and right this year.
One only has to read a few dozen of the hundreds of "self-diagnosed Aspie" blogs to see that rend loud and clear.
This is a problem, because people who have children who are ACTUALLY diagnosed by real live doctors (who knew those existed?) get the diagnosis, are not sure what it is, head to Google to find out, and instead of getting accurate information on Autism and Aspergers, they get "popular blog post" information on Aspergers and Autism, which is nearly always written by one of these "I'm a special snowflake because I self diagnosed as an Aspie" blogs.
Now, I'm not saying ALL self-diagnosed Aspies do not have Aspergers, some do, but the ones that do are not nearly as vocal, bossy, bitchy, self-righteous, or arrogant, as the ones who self-diagnose but don't actually have it. And THAT is the problem.
A REAL Aspie is NOT arrogant.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY arrogant to an extreme.
A REAL Aspie is NOT violent.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies ARE EXCEPTIONALLY violent to an extreme.
A REAL Aspie is NOT claiming to be special or trying to get attention.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies DEMAND attention, and will beat you to a pulp if you on't agree they are special.
A REAL Aspie does NOT seek out revenge and vengeance, even if you try to kill them.
80% of self-diagnosed Aspies are quick to build bombs, buy guns, shoot up schools, burn down houses, and kill pets, for something as simple as you sneezed while walking pass them in the store (yes, that actually happened - it's what is known as Maine's Transgender Murder at Saco Shaw's).
And so I say again... if you are an author and you want to write about a character who has Autism... then write a character with Kanner's Syndrome, because that is the real name of Autism. Do your research from actual medical books and actual patients. You may be surprised, how vastly different Autism really is, from the way self-diagnosed Aspies portray it.
And, if you want to write about a character with Asperger's, go to actual medical books and find actual people with actual medical diagnosis to interview. Once you start looking into REAL symptoms of Aspergers and talking to ACTUALLY diagnosed patients of Aspergers, you'll be stunned by how starkly different REAL Aspergers is, from the popular urban myths spread by the ever growing population of Sheldon Copper fans who self-diagnose so they can be "just like Sheldon Cooper".
REMEMBER:
80% of All People Who
"Self-Diagnose" As Asperger's
ACTUALLY
are
Covert Narcissists
or
Megalomaniacs
and
DO NOT HAVE ASPEGERS AT ALL!
Know the facts.
Know the truth.
DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING A Self-Diagnosed "Aspie"
Tells You Is A Symptom of Asperger's
Chances Are VERY HIGH that they
DON'T KNOW what they are talking about.
So what ARE the symptoms of Asperger?
Go back to the Autism side of that list.
Autism and Aspergers are 2 very different disorders, affecting different sides of the brain.
The Autism side f the list, are the Actual Autism symptoms.
The differance between Aspergers and Autism, is :
Aspergers doesn't have the speech delay
the average IQ of Aspergers is 100 to 120 instead of the Autistic 75 (no, not mega high)
While Autistics wear bright colours, especially pink, Aspergers wear muted colours especially brown/green/black.
While Autistics are ruled by "right brain creativity", Aspergers are ruled by "left brain sciences"
Autistics are less like to be social then Aspies.
A person can be diagnosed as having BOTH Autism AND Asperger's.
When comparing Autism to Asperger's Wikipedia has this to say:
High-functioning autism is characterized by features very similar to those of Asperger syndrome. The defining characteristic most widely recognized by psychologists is a significant delay in the development of early speech and language skills, before the age of three years. The diagnostic criteria of Asperger syndrome exclude a general language delay.
Further differences in features between people with high-functioning autism and those with Asperger syndrome, include the following:
Can you see now the difference between REAL Autism and the rise of the "self diagnosed Aspie"?
Keep in mind that MOST of what you find posted on the internet as "Symptoms of Asperger's" is written by self-diagnosed Aspies, and is VASTLY different from what the ACTUAL, clinical symptoms are.
Remember:
Autism is very rare, only 1 in 10,000 children ACTUALLY have it.
Aspergers is fairly uncommon, only 1 in 400 children ACTUALLY have it.
Yet 1 in ever 3 children is self diagnosed (by themselves or a parent) as being an "Aspie".
Autism Spectrum Disorder in far more common with 1 in 64 children having it. (This means, 1 in every 64 children, have one of the illnesses o the list below)
There are more then 60 illnesses, which are commonly miss-self-diagnosed as Aspergers:
Some of the illnesses on that list are extremely life threatening if left untreated.
It is not unusual for Autism (Kanner's Syndrome aka Actual Autism) to be confused with the items on that list due to their having overlapping symptoms. Meaning children get diagnosed with Autism... INSTEAD of the illness they ACTUALLY have, often self-diagnosed by a parent, who is not trained to tell the difference between Autism and those 50+ other illnesses.
Keeping in mind that:
Most parents who self-diagnose their child, do so with out ever looking at ANY alternative. Many of these mothers are later diagnosed with Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy.
More then 60% of mothers who self diagnose their children have Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy and the child turns out to have NO disorder AT ALL and is just a normal healthy child who is victim to a Hypochondriac mother, who gains attention from other mothers by pretending her child has the same illness as the mother she is trying to compete with.
The saddest part is that self-diagnosed Aspergers rose 6,000% the same month the TV show Big Bang Theory became "the most popular show on television", with 40% of children between the ages of 12 and 18, admitting they only claimed to have Aspergers "to be more like Sheldon Cooper" and 60% of all parents who self diagnosed their children stating they hoped that by "convincing" their child they had Aspergers, they would "aspire to be more like Sheldon Cooper"... The horrible reality is Autism always has been and still is very rare, with only 1 in 10,000 children actually having it (also the correct medical name for Autism is Kanner's Syndromn and if you child has REAL Autism, the doctor NEVER says "your child has Autism" but rather says "your child has Kanner's Syndrom").
In spite of the fact that Autism (Kanners Syndrome) is a very rare BIRTH DEFECT caused by mutated genes, and effects only 1 in every 10,000 people, as many as 1 in 3 people currently claim to have Autism.
These facts make me feel sad for all the REAL Autistics and their parents, because the fact remains there are a lot of fakers out there and they don't realize how hard they make it for those of us with real Kanner's Syndrome, a very rare, and very crippling birth defect that is in no way, shape or form, related to Aspergers or Autism Spectrum Disorder.
Now, you may be wondering, is there are reason why this issue hit my nerves so much?
Yes.
Yes there is.
A bomb blew up my house.
My cats were kidnapped, dissected, and their heads nailed to my door.
...
Let's look at that...
I get very annoyed by writers who use mental illness as a plot devise, especially when it becomes clear that they know nothing of the illness they are writing about, have clearly never lived with it, have no clues the every day challenges a person faces by living with it, and obviously did little to no research into it, basing everything the character does off something they saw in a movie and assumed the movie must have got it right.
In case you are wondering, this is me:
That picture is from PortCon 2017.
A friend was there and he saw me... came over and said:
"I thought you were gonna be in costume, what you doing wearing your every day clothes?"
Yes. I do dress like this every day.
Here, these are also me, NOT at PortCon, just doing my every day things around town...
I am OtherKin. ElvenKin to be specific. Since February 4, 1987, I have lived every day of my life as a male transvestite Elf.
Why?
Because I have Autism and OCD and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Schizo-Effective Personality Disorder, and this is who I am... all day, every day, for decades.
My mental illnesses don't go away, for the connivance of plot points in my life. They do not show up only when I need them, to use to advance the story of my life. They are there 24 hours a day. 7 days a week. 12 months a year. Every years, since the day I was born.
Why do authors think, they can have characters act normal until all a sudden a plot changes and requires them to "act crazy" and so suddenly they are acting crazy, then plot device is over and they act normal again? Mental illness ain't like that, you can't turn it on and off whenever the plot needs it.
I am a female who lives as male who lives as a female. It confuses people quite a lot, but it is what it is.
I do not claim to be normal. I do not try to be normal. I am what I am. And because of what I am, I am faced with daily bullying, teasing, and bigotry.
October 18, 2006 a bomb blew up my house, and a Ku Klux Klan cross left behind in the rubble, because I am perceived to be a transgender person in "a family friendly town".
May 10, 2010, members of the Saco Ward LDS Church, arrived in my yard and cut my car in half.
One night, November 14, 2013, while loading my art supplies into my car, after a day of painting the ocean, someone snuck up behind me, smashing my back, with what I do not know... a 4 door white truck, drove away... but they left me left me paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to relearn to walk. I'm crippled for the rest of my life, because I am transgender in Old Orchard Beach, and therefor do not deserve to live.
April 10, 2015, my motorhome, also known as "The Transgender Awareness Tour Bus" was broken into, filled with thousands of gallons of raw sewage, the furniture smashed, my clothes ripped up, and my cats kidnapped.
May 15, 2015, my cats were returned dissected, their cut off and nailed to my door.
January 7, 2016 - the 4 door white truck, was used as a weapon to try to kill me, yet again. Slamming into my car, while screaming out the window "Kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaw's all transsexuals are alike", doing more 75MPH on a 25MPH road.
June 10, 2016, the 4 door white truck, repeated this.
June 26, 2016 - while loading groceries into my car at WalMart, a woman came up behind me, took a shopping cat, and began beating me with it, while screaming "Kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaw's all transsexuals are alike". She ruptured 3 discs in my spine. She and a red haired woman who called herself "Kendra Silvermander" jumped into a gold Volvo suv and drove away. I was paralyzed once again.
January 4, 2016, the town of Old Orchard Beach passed and ordinance making it illegal to be transgender, gay, black, or Muslin, and forced 140 families out of their homes - not rentals, not apartments, but home owners, who owed no mortgages or taxes. More then 500 pets were confiscated by the Old Orchard Beach police department, most of them later returned to their owners chopped up returned one head at a time, because it was now illegal for LGBTQA+ citizens to own pets, because only "family friendly" families can own pets in Old Orchard Beach... the land of each of these families began to be auctioned off, to one motel owner... the same motel owner, who drove a back hoe over my house, August 8, 2013....the same motel owner who drive the 4-door white pick-up truck and who's wife drives a gold Volvo SUV.
July 2016 the FBI arrived in Old Orchard Beach.
October 18, 2016 the civil rights violating "Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach" ordinance was overruled by Superior Court.The LGBTQA+ citizens of Old Orchard Beach were homeless for 9 months.
The 4-door white truck, sits at the end of my driveway, every night at sunset... reeving his engine, squealing his wheels, and screaming gay hating obscenities out his window.
This picture was taken June 15, 2017:
The 4 door white truck continues to sit at the end of my drive way (146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine) near every night around sunset, reeving it's engine and squealing it's tires, with the driver yelling anti-gay threats and obscenities out the window. He continues to do the same thing at my dad's apartment building (Biddeford Maine) a few times a week, usually in mid to late afternoon time. He continues to follow me to shopping to various stores in various towns throughout the states.
Phrases he yells from the truck include:
"Kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws all transsexuals are alike"
"I keep a gun under the seat of my truck, I'm gonna use it to shoot you in the head, you transvestite freak"
if cars are going by he yells to them: "that thing is Ken's son, look at how's it's dressed; it's insane, it has autism, we can't allow that thing and it's gay cars in our family friend town of Old Orchard Beach"
He often babbles deranged ramblings about something he calls "the gay-pocalypse", raving lunacy about how "all the gays are gathering" on his doorstep. He raves some crazy nonsense about how Armageddon is coming and the war to end all wars will be "the gays against the Christians" and Christians have to be ready to "kill the gays"
My car is the Autism Awareness Car and had 2.5million marbles glued to it (I have Autisn - savant - Kanner's syndrome) he claims tat my car "is gay" because of what it looks like. My car has been vandalised several dozen times, including to have the tires slashed 7 times in 6 months.
After dark often around 10PM, he stands at the end of the logging road across the street from me and shoots at my motohome (in February 2014 he shot holes in my neighbour's barn while doing this). I have video footage of 3 of his shootings at me here: https://youtu.be/NUebzJ9sz9U and here: https://youtu.be/C4dZbgG-Smw
This has gone on since August 2013 now, in addition to all the vandalism, hate crimes, pet beheadings, etc that has happened, including the bomb that blew up our house in 2006.
As you know, that whole time I had not been able to get a plate number on the truck. He as just here again, and I just realized why I could not get a plate number... there are no plates on the truck, either on the front or on the back. However, as he was driving away today... I noticed, there is a plate, stuck up in the back window of the truck, where it can barely be seen, deliberately obscured from view behind a silver tool box.
This is the reality of being transgender in Old Orchard Beach.
This is the reality of what bullies do to someone with mental illnesses, they do not understand.
Someone with a mental illness, they do not just live with their illness, but they also live with people's reaction to it as well. This is some thing many writers fail to realize. And it's quite annoying, for those of us, who actually have to live with the illness they are writing about, to read their work and know, they've never lived with our illness, they don't know what it's like.
Everywhere I turn there's a new book misusing yet another mental illness. I hate how characters act normal until all a sudden a plot changes requires them to "act crazy" so suddenly they are acting crazy, then the plot device over and they act normal again.
Mental illness ain't like that, you can't turn it on and off whenever the plot needs it.
Writers rarely get it right. And would like to see that changed.
People always ask me about my main character, from current series "Quaraun the Insane" asking, what is wrong with him? What mental illness does he have? How did you research it? How do you know what to write?
My answer?
I write what I know.
Quaraun acts like me, talks like me, dresses like me, and the bullies in the books? They do to Quaraun, what real life bullies have done to me.
Quaraun was crippled by bullies and now walks on a cane after months paralyzed and months relearning to walk, because I was crippled by bullies and now walk on a cane after months paralyzed and months relearning to walk.
Quaraun has Autism and OCD and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Schizo-Effective Personality Disorder, because I have Autism and OCD and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Schizo-Effective Personality Disorder.
I write Quaraun as he is, because this is who I am... all day, every day, for decades.
I write what I know.
If you want to know how to write a mental illness, go to the source. Find someone who has the illness you want to write, Interview them. Talk to them. Spend several days living with them. Find out what their every day life is life. Don't write stereotypes - write the truth.
Because people have asked me to write up a "how to" on how to write a "clinically insane character like Quaraun", I have written this page, to tell you how it is, I write him.
Something people rarely consider is that in the 1400s, the disease now called Autism, was at the time called "insanity". For more then 700 centuries, when a person said "he's insane" what they meant was "he has autism".
Autism continued to be used interchangeable with the word "insanity" into the 1950s.
Quaraun lives in the 1400s. When people call him "insane" they are referring the the fact that he has autism, which was not yet called autism. It is historically accurate for characters in the 1400s to classify an autistic person as insane as this was the correct terminology.
Also interestingly, the disease we now call Asperger's, used to be refereed to as "childhood schizophrenia".
Both Insanity (Autism) and Childhood Schizophrenia (Asperger's) were treated with locking the person in cast iron restraints (called Faerie iron) and burning them with hot irons to "drive the Faerie Changling out of them". In more resent history Insanity (Autism) and Childhood Schizophrenia (Asperger's) were treated with the lobotomy.
Another interesting fact is what people call "the autism boom" claiming that there are more children born with autism in recent years. Actually, there are FEWER children born with autism, since the 1970s. Though there is a reason you see autistics and Asperger's people more often in recent years. From the 1600's until the 1980s Autistics and Asperger's were institutionalized in mental institutes, often without their parents consent or permission. In 1987 laws were passed making it illegal for mental institutes to take Autistic and Asperger children away from their families, and thus throughout the 1990s onward you see a "boom" of autistic and asperger children in public, simply because they are no longer locked away from public eye.
In any case, Quaraun is called by other people "Quaraun the Insane" because he has Autism, and in the 1400s the terms "autism", "autistic", or "special needs" did not exist, and it was a medical and historically correct diagnose for an autistic person to be diagnoses as "insane" if they had autism.
Unfortunately, because I have Autism and write an Autistic main character, I have met hundreds of people with Asperger's who are quick to trespass into my yard, vandalize everything they touch (doing so in the name of: "I'm a fan, it's okay for me to pull up your rose bushes and steal them. I have Autism just like you and I need a souvenir.")
I am just so sick and tired of loud, noisy, motor-mouthed, obnoxious, home invading, trespassing "I have autism too, YAAAAAAY!" Aspies barging their way into my yard.
I'm sorry, but, you're forming full sentaces clarly and you expect me to believe you have Autism?
You're trespassing on my land, with no respect for my pricay, invading my personal space and you expect me to believe you have Autism?
I'm sorry, but do you even know what Autism is?"
And ask them that, you know what they say:
"Of course I know what autism is. I have it. I self diagnosed myself. I have a high IQ. I can do that. I know more then doctors. I'm smarter. I have the Asperger type of Autism."
There is no such thing as "the Asperers type of Autism"
There is Aspergers and there is Autism. They are two completely different disorders. Two separate diagnoses. And a person can be diagnosed with BOTH. They are that different from each other, that you can have both of them.
And newsflash: a self-diagnosis is not a diagnosis.
More them 80% of the cases of self-diagnosis of Aspergers, when they finally do get an ACTUAL doctor diagnosis, their REAL diagnosis is almost always "Covert Narcissism" and NOT Aspergers.
Being constantly bombarded by Aspies pretending to be Autistics, trespassing on my land, Is annoying, frustrating, nerve wracking, and, newsflash:
I have Autism NOT Aspergers, so, no, you are nothing like me, in fact, if you were like me, you'd know how incredibly rude and annoying you were being and you'd also have respect for other people's privacy and be horrified by the idea of invading someone's personal space or vandalizing their private property.
Because I owned the Autism Awareness Car and attend Autism Awareness Events with it, I als see large numbers of both Autistics and Aspies at once, frequently. I'm constantly faces with thousands of dollars in damages done to my car at every single event, as Aspies, screaming "I have Autism! I'm like you!" rip marbles, beads, and teddy bears off the car.
And you can not to a thing to stop them, as once they are in a large group, they can only do what they see others doing and all do it together because "We have high IQs it's okay. We're in a group it's okay! see? The rest of the group is doing it. We have to do it with them, because we have autism and we do things together. We have to, we have autism."
Try to get their parents to stop them from vandalizing your car and you are greeted with: "Oh, no, it's okay. They have autism. We can't interfere. We have to let them do what they want. They get violent if we try to stop them."
In both cases, all I can do is wonder: Where are their parents? Why are their caretakers letting these inconsiderate hoodlums get away with these levels of stalking, trespassing, vandalism, and destruction of property?
And yet, REAL Autistics, ACTUAL Autistics, the the ones who have Autism not Asperger, never do those things. Never once has someone with Autism trespassed in my yard. Thousands of Aspies have. Never once has someone with Autism stalked me - at least 1 (the Kboards Hacker) Aspie stalked me for 10 years including to hack most of my online accounts, before eventually getting caught an going to prison. His reason in court for the viscous, violent criminal activities he did: "It's okay, I have Autism, my IQ is 138, I had to do it to prove I could." The other stalker who helped him, Kendra Silvermander, the one who blew up my house with a bomb, cut my cats heads off and nailed them to my door, and filled my motorhome with 1,000s of gallons of feces, and is as yet currently unidentified and still on the lose, she is suspect by the FBI who is trying the find her, of also having Aspergers.
The worst ones of all are the Stephen King fans, Because I own the world's most haunted car, which Stephen King based Christine off of and because we are the Gypsies whose farm Thinner was filmed on, every summer my family is subjected to Stephen King fans, all proclaiming they have Autism, and since 1984, arriving in my yard in mass hoard of tens of thousands of screaming fangirls, do do monstrous levels of vandalism to my car and yard, all in the name of their love for Stephen King, and when asked to stop, they always say: "It's okay, I have Autism"... No, no you do not. I have Autism, and I know for a fact, no one with Autism does these things - they can't, but people with Aspergers do.
There's a hell of a big difference between Autism and Self-Diagnosed Aspergers and when you place a patient of each, side by side, you can see it immediately, the vast differences between the two.
Someone with Autism would never build a bomb and blow up your house.
Someone with Self-Diagnosed Aspergers did:
Someone with Autism would never kidnap your cats, cut their heads off, and nail their heads to your door.
Someone with Self-Diagnosed Aspergers did:
Someone with Autism would never build a web site glorifying the Ku Klux Klan and calling people to action to kill the "bugger fagots" of Old Orchard Beach.
Someone named "Tom Addams" a self proclaimed "internet marketing guru" with Aspergers did:
Someone with Autism would never cut your car in half.
Someone with Self-Diagnosed Aspergers did:
Can you see the difference between ACTUAL Autism and self diagnosed Asperger's yet?
Want to know more? The list below are of actual Autism organizations (and a few other related things)... try reading them, before reading the Sheldon Cooper worshiping, self-diagnosis mommy blogs next time. You might actually learn what Autism REALLY is.
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