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If This Video Is Active, I'm Live Streaming Right Now...
WARNING:
Avallac'h & Ciri Shipping Happens Daily In My Cult of Avallac'h Stream
& ALL Sex Scenes Are Avallach With Ciri
OMG! You people are fucking perverted freaks!
LOL!
Thank you for our biggests traffic month EVER!!!
Google just reranked my website - the keyword currently bringing the most traffic to my site... tells me you people are all sick minded perverts...
You know... half the people in my chat call Avallac'h perverted because he has nude drawings of Ciri...
...but hey...
Every 30 days Google ranks my website and tells me the current top keyword search term trends that are driving traffic to my website.
Here's the list of the top search terms that drove traffic to my website this month:
- ciri nude
- ciri naked
- ciri nude cosplay
- witcher 3 ciri nude
- witcher 3 ciri naked
- witcher ciri nude
- nude ciri
- the witcher 3 ciri nude
And there are more... LOTS more... those are just the top most used versions
And how many people used those search terms to find my website?
"ciri nude" ranks at number 1 with a grand total of 66,715 people reaching my website via that search term this month.
66,715 visited my website in October 2019, via typing into Google the search term "ciri nude".
Good god!
And you people call Avallac'h perverted. What the hell are you?
Apparently I'm the only person who ever played The Witcher 3 as a nude Ciri and them posted screenshots of the whole thing online.
Damn... even all those screenshots of Ciri having sex with Avallac'h got 2,650+ visits each! LOL
What the hell?
What happened?
Why did EVERYONE suddenly start searching for "ciri nude" all of a sudden?
Well, whatever the reason... you pervs pushed us over the 200,000 mark this month!
Yep, 200,000 pages views in a SINGLE MONTH!
A great big hug and thank you to all you wonderful perverted freaks!
Watch Part 1: Google just reranked my website - the keyword currently bringing the most traffic to my site... tells me you people are all sick minded perverts! from EelKat on www.twitch.tvAnd before you get all hyped up over more "nude Ciri content", you might just want to reel your penis in and watch these two videos....
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you might find them, rather eye opening....
You do know what Ciri did to Avallac'h in the novels, right?
If you are a man and you LIKE Ciri... wow, just, fucking WOW... clearly you ain't never read the novels.
You want a nude picture that BEST REPRESENTS Ciri... HERE HAVE A LINK.
Happy nightmares to any man who dares click on ^^^THAT^^^ link (which by the way, oddly, is the most visited picture on my website... I'm not sure why... you people are freaks.)
Ever heard of Lorena Bobbitt?
No?
How about Sada Abe?
No?
Better hide your dick for this one...
Ever heard of Catherine Kieu?
Hey, but you want nude pics of Ciri... well, have fun jerking your penis off to her while you can, because she's got a sword just waiting to slice your dick off.
If you want to continue to jerk off to Ciri, then make sure you NEVER read the novels... run... run far, far away from the novels and the REAL Ciri the game never told you about: the penis chopping, testicle mutilating psycho whore.
I continue to be amazed by how many men fantasize over women who are famous for cutting off penises. Damn. I'll never understand why you men like Ciri so much. But hey, you want to fantasize over penis mutilating women, I'm sure there are hundreds of real world women who would be more then happy to line up to castrate you.
Me personally, I hate rapists, sexual abusers, abortion bitches, spouse abusers, senior abusers, and terrorists... and Ciri is ALL OF THE ABOVE. But you keep on lusting after the baby murdering, spouse abusing, senior citizen raping, penis chopping, testical mutilating, shit bitch of a slutty assed whore... while you're at it, why do you go lust after Alex from Clock Work Orange? His crimes are nearly as horrific, brutal, or violent as Ciri's though, so he probably ain't enough of an abuser for you to like him.
So while you get off fantasizing over Ciri chopping your dick off, I'll continue to hate Ciri and all the psycho-feminist, social-justice-terrorism she stands for and is the poster child of. Sorry but, I like Avallac'h too much to share your love for the bitch who castrated him.
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Why do I hate Ciri? Reasons: 1: Ciri is a rapist. 2: Ciri is an abortion bitch. 3: Ciri is a sex crazed pervert. 4: Ciri is a drunk. 5: Ciri is a cocaine addict. 6: Ciri has a bloodlust. She is addicted to killing anything, everything, and every one that moves. 7: Ciri is a slutty assed whore who spends 90% of her time in the novels masterbating for the reader, demanding sex from every one, and raping elderly men. 8: Ciri says children, especially babies are parasites, and should all be killed. 9: One of Ciri's favorite pastimes is stabbing pregnant women in the belly. to "rescue them from the parasites that will destroy their lives." In short, Ciri is a vile, immoral piece of shit. HAVE YOU NEVER LISTENED TO A WORD I HAVE EVER SAID IN MY STREAMS? Hell! We do more preaching Bible verses here then anything else. We even use Ciri as the Why do you think I hate that immoral, sex-crazed, perverted, crackhead, drunk, child murdering, rapist, gutter scum piece of trash, bitch Ciri so much? Who in their right mind wouldn't hate her? The bigger question here is, why do YOU like a deviated, immoral piece of trash like that? WHAT? DID THEY THINK ^^^^THAT^^^ WAS A JOKE? |
Watch Page 179 of Lady of the Lake aka Why I don't like Ciri and Why I absolutely hate,, loath, and revile Ciri's psychotic fan base from EelKat on www.twitch.tv
<<<---- 24 MILLION people consider this vile drug addicted, drunk, spouse abusing, child murdering, rapist who was modeled after The Lady of the Lake/Satan to be "The #1 female little girls should look up to and strive to be like". While 21 MILLION people consider this moral, just, kind man who was modeled after The Fisher King/Christ Jesus himself, to be the most vile, terrible, evil villain of any villain ever created. --->>> It says a lot about the society we live in when evil acts are hailed as good and good acts are hailed as bad. How? Tell me how.... how do you sick, perverted jackasses look at Ciri and see ANYTHING but disgust and revulsion? |
Why do I like Avallac'h? You mean other then the fact that he was brutally raped and left crippled in a manner near identical to what happened to me? Reasons: 1: Avallac'h is asexual, a virgin, lives a celibate life, and shuns sex. 2: Avallac'h is a vegan, animal rights, human rights, monster rights activist. 3: Avallac'h is doesn't drink alcohol. 4: Avallac'h has morals and strives to live a pious, righteous, holy life free from sin. 5: Avallac'h executes abortion bitches. 6: Avallac'h rescuses would-have-been-aborted babies. 7: Avallac'h abhors violence, weapons, and war 8: Avallac'h is a quiet, peaceful, kind, gentle, loving, docile man who spends his life doing nothing but fishing off his boat. 9: Animals and monsters do not fear Avallac'h because he has never shed innocent blood, never taken an innocent life, he has never murdered anyone. 10: Avallac'h is The Fisher King, holiest of the Grail Knights... The Maimed King... literally Jesus the Christ Fisher of Men; the ultimate moral person. Do you really know NOTHING about King Arthur Myhos or the fact that The Fisher King and the 12 Grail Knights are Jesus and his 12 disciples? Who wouldn't love Avallac'h knowing that? |
I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. You can't even begin to imagine how much I hate the thought of sex, I have post traumatic stress disorder and sex, any mention of it, triggers it. I'm asexual, I have Kanner's Syndrome (actual Autism), I'm a 5th generation Mormon, and I'm an ordained minister.
I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. His wife died while she 8 months pregnant with another man's baby. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. His entire story takes place on a lake, beside his wife's grave, where he does nothing but ride his around the lake, fish off a rowboat, and wander the fields picking flowers for his wife's grave.
And after he's raped, his legs broken, and the tomb of his wife smashed and destroyed, he never again leaves the boat, never speaks again, and never walks again.
Do you know the full extent of what happened to him? How bad it really was? How big of a piece of shit Ciri really is?
He was raped 5 times total. He tried to run away each time, but he's elderly, and had a lame leg, and was easily tackled by the sex crazed shit bitch that is Ciri. Because he kept running away, she broke both of his legs, then raped him again. Then, to punish him for refusing to have sex with her, she drove a sword through his hip, through his testicles, and out his other thigh. He was never able to walk again.
And all this, happened after he had already been tortured, locked in a cage, his blood drained, his family tortured to death in front of him: his parents, his siblings, his wife, his adopted baby, and his cats.... who when they were dead, were chopped up and force fed to him.
And WHY did she do all this? She was angry, that he was an asexual virgin and was refusing to have sex with her on command. She, 12 year old Queen of Cintra, who was used to demanding men to have sex with her and was horrified to encounter a righteous, just, decent, moral holy man who dared stand his ground and NOT obey the vile, perverted, debauched bitch's sex crazed demands.
I was raped, crippled, my legs, hips, knees, and spine broken, I was pregnant at the time, my baby, died and I haven't been able to walk for 6 years. I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again... something I can't do for myself...and THINGY KNEW THAT! I told her that August 2018. The game is only thing that keeps me from killing myself. You don't know what it;s like. I use to aqua jog 13 miles a day, go mountain climbing, horseback riding... and after 6 miscarriages, I finally had a pregnancy that was almost full term and a chance of finally having a baby.
- I was raped November 14, 2013
- I was beaten with a metal baseball bat, breaking my spine, hip, and knees November 14, 2013
- I was pregnant and the baby died November 14, 2013
- the injuries left me unable to have another baby
- I was paralyzed for 5 months
- I was in a wheelchair and doctors said I would never walk again
- I spent 18 months stubbornly teaching myself to walk again
- I have severe post traumatic stress disorder caused by having been brutally raped
- my internal organs are messed up so bad that surgery can not fix it, I have no control of bodily functions, and have spent most of my life having to wear adult diapers because I have no clue when I have to pee or defecate... to avoid accidents I have to keep a timer on, and use the bathroom every 2 hours when the timer goes off.... something you see every day throughout my daily 12 hour streams
- among other things, my hip, knee, and spine was broken with a baseball bat, resulting in I spent 5 month paralyzed and 18 months relearning to walk... and you see me streaming from bed because I have been crippled the rest of my life.... today I am no longer in a wheelchair and can walk for limited distances with a cane, but I will never again run, dance, or mountain climb
- The attack happened at quarter past 10PM at the BugLight Lighthouse parking lot beside the art department studio of Southern Maine Community College. I was putting an easel in the back of my car, bent over the back seat, and did not see them come up to the car; they carried a metal baseball bat and a golf club, which they used to beat me in the back with, while I was still leaned into the car.
- The attack was done by 3 people, a man and 2 women. The man was bald, around 6'4" and in his 30s, the 2 women were in their 60s and appeared to be the man's mother and aunt; the "mother" had distinctive dyed hair, shoulder length, pageboy cut, of platinum blond and dark brown stripes about 4 inches wide, EXTREMELY 1980s space girl fake hair dye; the other woman had long natural-orange-red curly hair, lime green glasses with a very distinctive narrow "x-men cyclops style" shape, she was screaming "I'm Kendra Silvermander, It's my turn to shine"... the 3 of them drove away together in a 4-door white pick-up truck with a silver tool box across the back and large oversized mountain bike tread tires.
- And do you REALLY need to be reminded about the cats... you know, the 10 kidnapped cats whose heads were nailed to my door!
The murderer has not yet been identified. If you have any information, FBI Agent Andy Drewer out of the Portland, Maine FBI office is in charge of the investigation. He can be reached @ +1-(207)-774-9322
I like Avallac'h because he's asexual, a virgin, and lives a celibate life. I empathize with him, because just like me, he was beaten, raped, and crippled for the rest of his life. He's one of the 12 Holy Grail Knights of King Arthur's Round Table.
My playing as Avallac'h has nothing to do with sex and I'm tired of you vile jackasses trying to make it out to be.
I play as Avallac'h in the game, because I can make him walk again and I can give him his cats back... something I can't do for myself.
Answer me this:
How can you glorify a rapist?
I'm thinking you are so vile, so perverted, so immoral, so evil... that THAT is why you are so in love with Ciri and have a hard time understanding why I don't join you in making fun of a moral, righteous man while glorifying the vile perversion that is Ciri. You are just plain THAT EVIL, that you can't see past your own debauched, vile life of sin to understand what it is like to be utterly disgusted and abhorred by repulsive evil things like yourself.
GO THINK ON THAT FOR A WHILE.
Shame on you!
How dare you glorify a rapist!
You want nude pictures of Ciri?
Here!
Have nude pictures of your vile mother of sin.
Patron of evil.
Embodiment of filth!
Then go burn in hell with her!
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 Stream Schedule:The stream is live EVERY DAY usually from late evening through night and into early morning (EST). Streams last 4 to 12 hours depending on how much free time I have that day. Start time is not specific as my offline work schedule changes daily and is not consistent from one week to the next. Some days I start around 6PM other days I don't start til midnight or as late as 3AM. Usually you can find me on til 7AM, regardless of what time I start. If I miss a day (which is rare, but does happen) it's because my health is worse then normal that day. If I'm able to sit up, but the tremors in my hands are to a point I can not hold the controller, I'll vlog instead of gaming. But if I'm too weak to sit up, I won't vlog that day either. There are simply days when I am too weak to push myself up in bed and I don't have anyone to help me sit up, so I can not record those days. Sorry. DAILY:
NOTE: Witcher 3 a NSFW 18+ Stream with Wild Nudity settings turned on (meaning the females are nude - boobs and titties everywhere) sex scenes happening frequently - drug use and strong graphic violence in every stream - viewer discretion is STRONGLY ADVISED!
Often doing mod building, mod editing, and how to mod Witcher 3 streams as well. Full list of publicly available mods I'm using, is listed on my Twitch profile, along with detailed instructions for how to get each of the 3 Ciri endings of the game, and the full history of Avallac'h's character from both the novels and the game. WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT:
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Avallac'h & Ciri Shipping Happens Daily In My Cult of Avallac'h Stream
& ALL Sex Scenes Are Avallach With Ciri
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CATEGORY ARCHIVES:
The Autism & Me Squidoo Article
An Autistic Person Speaks Out On
What It Is REALLY Like To Live With Autism
How Disgusted She Is With Asperger's People Pretending To Have Autism
And Why Authors Who Write An "Autistic" Character With Asperger's Symptoms Are Doing More Harm Then Good
The 10th Anniversary Return EelKat's Biggest "Big Lens"
Autism & Me
A Plea To NaNoWriMo Overachievers:
If You're Gonna Write Autistic Characters,
Then Stop Research Asperger's And
Start Researching Autism For A Change!
As has been requested (endlessly) EK's Star Log is returning to the internet. You can still read the original archive here... https://eelkat.wordpress.com
The reason you couldn't find it is because I set it to private un-index mode, meaning it no longer shows up in Google search results and can only be accessed by a direct link.
Meaning, if you didn't have the url for it, no amount of searching for it would tell you how to find it. Anyone who had the url could still access it though.
I had set it to private September 23, 2013, intending to move each page here to EelKat.com... however, November 14, 2013, after only moving about 30 pages, I was beaten up and left paralyzed for 5 months, then spent 18 months relearning to walk. I am still crippled and have limited mobility.
Below is one of the blog posts that originally appeared on EK's Star Log. The original articles are still online but no longer indexed in Google. Links to the original article, are included with this post, as is the original posting date. Clicking the links will take you to the original site, where you can see the old Space Dock 13 website still online. Space Dock 13 as it looked when hosted on WordPress from 2003 to 2013.
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Resources:
Where to find ACTUAL (Accurate) Information on ACTUAL Mental Illnesses
Every year since 2004, I post in the Mental Illness thread on NaNoWriMo, a list of places where authors can find actual/accurate information on a variety of mental illnesses and physical disabilities to help them write their characters more accurately. Most of these site also have lists of other sites as well.
Here for you now, is that list:
Act Early on Developmental Concerns: Partnering with Early Intervention
Adolescents with autism spectrum disorder at risk for bullying
Advancing Futures for Adults with Autism
Advice for autistic adults about work - NASAlmost half of kids with autism are bullied, study shows
American Association of People with Disabilities
American Association on Intellectual and Developmental Disabilities
American Foundation for the Blind
American Psychological Association
American Psychological Association's Trauma Psychology Division
Americans Disabled for Accessible Public Transit
An Anti-Bullying Intervention for Children with Autism
Anxiety and Depression Association of America
AnxietySocialNet - Agoraphobia support groups and more
Archives of Scientific Psychology®
Are Autistic People More Sensitive To Trauma
Asian American Journal of Psychology
Assistance Dog Advocacy Project
The Association Between Bullying and the PsychologicalAssociation for Applied Psychophysiology and Biofeedback
Association of University Centers on Disabilities
Australian Centre for Posttraumatic Mental Health
Australasian Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
Autism and Asperger Syndrome Educator’s Guides, Organization for Autism Research (OAR)
Autism Genetics Initiative Data Archive
Autism Genetics Resource Exchange
Autism, PDD-NOS & Asperger's fact sheets | BullyingAutism, Ptsd, And Emdr | My PTSD Forum
The Autism Speaks Transition Tool Kit
Autistic Self Advocacy Network
Autism Source, Autism Society of America (ASA)
Autism Spectrum Disorder and bullying
Autism Wandering Awareness Alerts Response Education (AWAARE)
Behavior Analysis: Research and Practice
Biofeedback Foundation of Europe
BC Schizophrenia Society Foundation
Bullying | Autism SpeaksBullying Among Adolescents With Autism Spectrum DisordersBullying & Abuse | Life on the SpectrumBullying and Autism: Helping Kids CopeBullying and Autism - Medical Home Portal
Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders: guidance for
Bullying and autism spectrum disorders - Norfolk Schools
Bullying: children & teens with autismBullying, disability and mental health
Bullying Experiences Among Children and Youth with Autism
Bully Stoppers - Victorian Government
Canadian Foundation for Trauma Research & Education
Canadian National Institute for the Blind
Canadian Psychology / Psychologie canadienne
Cannon (1942/1957). "Voodoo" death. (Walter Cannon's seminal article on death through the shock of terror.)
Care For Disabled Veterans: Acknowledging Post-traumatic Stress Disorder from Iraq War Experience
Caring for Children With Autism Spectrum Disorders: A Resource Toolkit for Clinicians
CDC’s Disability and Health Program
CDC’s National Center on Birth Defects and Developmental Disabilities Funding Opportunities
The Center on the Social and Emotional Foundations for Early Learning (CSEFEL)
Center for Evolutionary Psychology
Child Abuse Prevention Network
The Child Survivor of Traumatic Stress [newsletter]
Children and Adults with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
Children’s Health Insurance Program
Clinical Practice in Pediatric Psychology®
Code of Federal Regulations, Title 45, Part 46
Community Alliance for the Ethical Treatment of Youth
Council of Parent Attorneys and Advocates
Cultural Diversity & Ethnic Minority Psychology®
Data Resource Center for Child and Adolescent Health
The Decline in Child Sexual Abuse Cases.
Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance
Developmental and Behavioral Pediatrics Online
Developmental Screening/Testing Coding
Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders
Disability Rights Education and Defense Fund
Disabled Peoples' International
DisAbled Women's Network Canada
Down Syndrome Advocacy Foundation
Drew Westen's Lab of Personality & Psychopathology
Eastern Association for the Surgery of Trauma
EEG & Clinical Neuroscience Society
The Effects of Psychological Trauma on Children with Autism
Equal Employment Opportunity Commission
ERIC - The Experience of Friendship, Victimization and Bullying in ChildrenEuropean Federation of Associations of Families with Mental Illness
EFORT European Federation of National Associations of Orthopaedics and Traumatology
European Society for Trauma and Dissociation
European Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
Exploring the Nature of Traumatic Memory
Family Association for Mental Health Everywhere
Families for Depression Awareness
Family Council - Empowerment For Families
Focus on Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders | StarrFoundations of Positive Psychology
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Down Syndrome Advocacy Group
From "Bully" to Bullied - Autism Spectrum ExplainedGalloway's Society for the Blind
The Growing Concern of Suicide and High Functioning AutismHealth Resources and Services Administration
Human Behavior and Evolution Society
Information Sheet Bullying and Autism Spectrum Disorders
International Bipolar Foundation
The International Classification of Diseases
International Consortium for Brain Mapping
International Disability and Development Consortium
International Society for Neuronal Regulation
International Society for Traumatic Stress Studies
International Trauma Studies Program
Journal of Abnormal Psychology®
Journal of Applied Psychology®
The Journal of Injury and Violence Research (JIVR)
Journal of Personality and Social Psychology®
Journal of Rural Mental Health®
Leaving the Mentally Ill Out in the Cold (newspaper/blog post)
Learning Disabilities Association of America - Disability Rights and Advocacy
Lew Goldberg's International Personality Item Pool
Life Journey Through Autism Series, Organization for Autism Research (OAR)
Maeve: Psychiatric Service Dog and Mental Health Advocate
Marriage Advocates - Infidelity and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Mencap (The Royal Society for Mentally Handicapped Children and Adults)
Mental Disability Advocacy Center
Mental Health Advocacy Services
Mental Health for Youth in Armed Conflict
Mental Health Services Locator, National Mental Health Information Center
Mental Wellness Today (magazine - has large article database)
Mood Disorders Society of Canada
Mood Disorders Association of Ontario - Helpful Links
Muscular Dystrophy Association
Naropa University: Somatic Counseling Psychology
National Advocate for People with Down Syndrome
National Association of County and City Health Officials
National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC)
National Alliance on Mental Illness
National Association of the Deaf
National Association of Special Education Teachers
National Centre Against Bullying - The Alannah and Madeline Foundation
National Center for Education Statistics
National Center for Health Statistics
National Center of Medical Home Initiatives for Children with Special Needs
National Child Traumatic Stress Network
National Database for Autism Research
National Dissemination Center for Children with Disabilities (NICHCY)
National Network of Adult and Adolescent Children who have a Mentally Ill Parent
The National Professional Development Center on Autism Spectrum Disorders
NCP Clinicians Trauma Update Online
North American Society for Childhood Onset Schizophrenia
Office of the Children's eSafety Commissioner - Australian Government
Office of Special Education and Rehabilitative Services
Open Culture: Free Online Classes
Operation Autism for Military Families
A Parent’s Guide to Evidence-Based Practice and Autism
Parkinson's Disease Foundation
Pet Partners - Denied Access, Now What?
PTSD - AUTCOM - The Autism National CommitteePTSD | Autism SpeaksPost-Traumatic Stress Disorder | The Scott CenterThe Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Alliance
PTSD and Autism - The Thinking Moms' RevolutionPTSD and Autism It has amazed me how... - AutismPrejudice. No way! - NSW Government
Primate Handedness and Brain Lateralization
Psychological Trauma: Theory, Research, Practice, and Policy®
Questioning Answers: PTSD and autismRacism. No way! - NSW Government
Raindrop: Death Education for Children of all Ages
Recovered Memories of Sexual Abuse: Research and Resources
Reflections on The Problem of Psychic Trauma
Retrieving, Assessing, and Classifying Traumatic Memories
Schizophrenia and Related Disorders Alliance of America - SARDAA
Schizophrenia Awareness Association of India
Schizophrenia News and Information
Schizophrenia Society of Canada
Schizophrenia Society of Ontario - Official SiteSchool Accreditation, National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC)
Special Education Technical Assistance and Dissemination Network
Spina Bifida Association of America
Stigmatization of People with Autism Spectrum DisordersStress, Trauma and Sleep in Children
Suicide Awareness Voices of Education
Survey finds 63% of children with autism bullied - CBS NewsTeaching Tips for Children and Adults with Autism
Terrorism Injuries: Information, Dissemination and Exchange (TIIDE)
tips for educatorsTrauma Intervention Programs, Inc.
The Traumatic Stress Centre (Wales)
UK Psychological Trauma Society
University of Washington - Fact Sheets - Facts About Mental Illness and Violence
Using Drawing as Intervention with Traumatized Children
Washington Autism Alliance & Advocacy
Webcast Berkeley: online courses & speakers at UC Berkeley
When Bullies Target Autistic Kids | Support for Special NeedsWhy Autistic Kids Make Easy Targets for School BulliesYoung Children with Challenging Behavior
Autism & Me:
The Squidoo Lens
10th Anniversary
(2007 to 2017)
During NaNoWriMo 2007's novel writing contest, a forum thread was started... a young author wanted to write an Autistic main character and asked on the NaNoWriMo forum if any one could tell her how to write a mental illness that she did not have and also knew no one with... the result was a 700 page non-fiction book, called "Autism and Me: On Being An Adult With Autism, A Look Into My Everyday Life."
Originally published on LuLu as a book for sale, a month later I unpublished it and released it as a free to read online series of articles on Squidoo. I continued to add new articles to the series on a near monthly basis in the 10 years since then.
The series of pages linked below, are those articles, the 2007 originals, the ones written in the years since, and the 2017 10th Anniversary updates on what has changed in the decade since those first articles were released.
Don't Know Where To Start?
Start With These Two First
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Autism & Me - Part 2: A look at REAL Autism and the urban myths spread by those with a self-diagnosis. |
"People deserve a break. The stressed and unorganized person who doesn’t have the same priorities as you. They may be dealing with an autistic child, abusive spouse, fading parents, or cancer. Don’t judge people until you’ve walked a mile in their shoes. Give them a break instead."
— Guy Kawasaki
I'm a woman who has had 7 miscarriages, and wears "elaborate clothes". Because I have no children, the residents of Old Orchard Beach, beat me up, calling me a transsexual, claiming only a man would dress like I do, claiming that the reason I have no children is because I'm not really female.
They left me paralyzed and crippled.
They crushed my hips, my pelvis, and my spine, and took away, what little chance I had to carry a pregnancy to full term.
I'm crippled for the rest of my life. I can barely walk now. It's why I'm now on a cane. Any hope I had of having children is gone now.
That's the reality, of the gay hatred of this town.
I have Autism. I wear pink. I wear glitter. I talk with a "funny gay sounding voice".
Acording to the people in this towm:
I walk like a fag...
talk like a fag...
dress like a fag...
act like a fag...
and therefor must be treated like a fag...
I need to be taught my place...
I deserve to be shot in the head...
I look gay, and therefore I must be,
because no one but gay men, talk in this voice
no one but gay men wear pink
no one but gay men wear glitter
no one but gay men prance instead of walk...
so they beat me up, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they cut my car in half, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they put a bomb in my house, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they filled my motorhome with feces, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they kidnapped my cats, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they drove a back hoe over my house, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
they cut my cats heads off and nailed their heads to my door, because I'm "too gay" for Old Orchard Beach
because I have Autism
and that makes me "too gay for the family friend town of Old Orchard Beach"
I used to dance when I walked... but after 5 months paralyzed, 18 months relearning to walk, and now 4 years later, my leg is lame and I am crippled, barely able to stand, dragging a lame leg, I'll never dance again.
Do you know what that's like?
Can you even begin to imagine?
To be an Autistic person, who can no longer dance when I walk?
They hate gay men so much, that they are willing to beat up a childless autistic women, in ill health, accusing her of being a transvestite.
Because these evil people took away my ability to have children, I had cats; but they took my cats, and cut off their heads, and nailed them to my door.
Welcome to Old Orchard Beach. The gay-hating capital of Maine.
This is the reality of how Autistics are seen by the world.
This is the reality of how Autistics are treated by "normal" people.
This is the reality of being transgender in Old Orchard Beach.
This is the reality of what bullies do to someone with mental illnesses, they do not understand.
This is the reality of living with Autism.
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Open your eyes to the truth. It’s all around you.
Don’t deny what the eyes to your soul have revealed to you.
Now that you know, you cannot feign ignorance.
Now that you’re aware of the problem, you cannot pretend you don’t care.
To be concerned is to be human.
― Vashti Quiroz-Vega
"Ignore and ignorance share the same root."
— Kathryn Erskine
“With ignorance comes fear- from fear comes bigotry. Education is the key to acceptance.”
― Kathleen Patel, The Bullying Epidemic-the guide to arm you for the fight
A Plea To NaNoWriMo Overachievers:
If You're Gonna Write Autistic Characters,
Then Stop Research Asperger's And
Start Researching Autism For A Change!
"Can anyone tell me how to write characters with autism while avoiding stereotypes? Thank you."
Here is my response to a question from the NaNoWriMo forums on avoiding the stereo types when writing about characters with Autism:
"Can anyone tell me how to write characters with autism while avoiding stereotypes? Thank you."
My response, resulted in a 700+ page non-fiction book on living with autism.
The response, went off into a rant, not because of the person asking the question, but instead, because of the 300+ Asperger's patients who responded to the question to tell her how to write ASPEGER'S characters, all while claiming their Asperger's was the SAME THING as Autism.
More then 2,000 forum posts were added to the thread, by these 300+ people, boldly spreading huge amounts of extremely inaccurate misinformation about what Autism is and is not, and helping to spread the urban myth that Aspergers is a type of Autism.
Sadly after taking 3 days to read every post on the thread, I finally reached the end to find that not even ONE of the more then 2,000 posts had given her ANY information about Autism.
My response is too long for one page, all pages are being linked to here:
Think you know what it's like to live with Autism?
You might be surprised how little you really know.
A look at REAL Autism and the myth spread by those with a self-diagnosis.
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Autism and Spacing Out
Autism and Spacing Out
Excuse me . . . I’m sorry, but I’ve been talking to you for a half hour now and you haven’t heard a word I said . . .
This is a frustrating thing and unfortunately, it happens often. I well be sitting usually writing, sometimes drawing, other times embroidering (the three things I do more than anything else), when suddenly I look up and see some one standing over me, and asking why I haven’t answered them yet. Me? I’m sitting there confused as hell, wondering what it is I am supposed to be answering and how they got there without me noticing them.
I don’t talk, I write. I write a lot. I am often told people like my writing style, because it is unique, and I am often asked, if I could explain or teach them how I write so that they can learn my methods and write like I do. The problem comes when I try to explain what happens to me when I start writing. I guess, if you want to learn to write like me, than you’d have to learn to mimic one the the more outlandish symptoms of Autism: blocking out everything around you and seeing and hearing nothing.
Nothing. Period.
I can’t teach my writing method, because it’s not really teachable, all I can do, is try to explain it.
The biggest problem with my writing style, is the fact that I simply sit down and start writing. Literally. No matter where I am, or what I am doing, I simply sit down and start writing. This is such a huge problem, that you almost never see me go out in public unaccompanied by another adult. This is also why I do not live alone, why I do not drive a car, and why I can not hold a *regular* day job. I sit down where ever I am, when ever the mood strikes and just start writing. If you ever see a comic book character sitting cross legged on the floor in the middle of the milk aisle at Wal-Mart, writing away, well, that’s me.
I actually can not walk in places where I will have to cross the street or a parking lot, unless I have some one with me to guide me across the road, because I frequently, just stop to write right there in the cross walk. It’s a problem I have, and a really bad one that has caused me to be nearly hit by a car on countless occasions, because my mind no longer see things around me.
I once sat down and started writing, and didn’t stop for 48 hours . . . Did not eat, did not sleep, I completely lost track of time. I was totally taken by surprise when I realized the 2 whole calendar days had passed before I noticed it, because to me, it seemed like no more than 20 minutes had passed. The odd thing about this, though, is I only started doing this less than ten years ago, and this seemed to have happened shortly after a month with 4 deaths: first my horse, than my grandmother, than my dog Blackie, and than my other dog Muffin. All four of them died with in 3 weeks of each other. Stress, seems to be the triggering factor that shuts off my brain and causes me to not see or hear anything or any one around me and makes me simply start writing in an uncontrolled and unstoppable manner.
This *shutting off* and writing is the same reason why I rarely speak to people, because fact is, I rarely see them. I see the streets, I see the buildings, if there is a car made prior to 1975, I see that car and that car only and not the other cars speeding by. They simply become totally invisible to me. When I mentioned this to some one last year, they had an explanation which I had never heard of before, but quickly Googled and found out more about: she called it “second sight”.
She said that this “second sight” could explain both my seeing and talking with Etiole, as well, as my odd inability to see and hear people around me at certain times. She explained that “second sight” believers claim there are two worlds: the physical world and the spiritual world and that the co-exist one on top of the other, constantly intermingled, but that neither world is aware of the existence of the other, except on rare occasions when “sightings” (ghosts, faeries, aliens, angels, or demons) occur.
She also said that there is a high frequency of Autistic people being able to see through the barrier between the two worlds and see beings from the spirit world. She said that people who can see and otherwise interact with the normally invisible spirit world, are said to have the gift of “second sight” and she believed that this was what was happening when I see Etiole and when I seem to no longer be able to see or here people around me.
Well. Okay. Whatever. I actually haven’t been able to find much info on this “second sight” thing, so I don’t know if I should believe in “second sight” yet or not, but, it did make sense and sound like a plausible answer.
I do talk to people if I notice they are there. The trick is to get me to notice that you are there. Like I said, it’s like watching TV, and I have to switch from one channel to the other in order to notice you there. If I shut off the world in my head, I can see people around me and talk to them fine, the problem is, switching my mind out of the world I write about and into the real world where people around me live. It’s not easy. I know when I stopped talking. I can tell you the exact date: August 21, 1991, the day my best friend was murdered. I know when I started turning off the real world too: after the things that happened at church with the bishop and Pine Land Center. The real world simply became more than I was able to handle on my own and I had no friends or family to turn to.
This also explains my cloths. You see, I dress no different than the characters of my books, and to me this is perfectly normal, as it is the way all of them dress. I don’t notice that real people are dressed different than me, because I don’t very often see the real people around me, and it is not until some one comes up to me and asks me why I’m dressed like I am, that I am brought back from one world to the next, and see that, yes, in this world, I am dressed quite a bit different from other people.
But you see, there is another part of the problem: the people I write about are the people Etiole knows. His family, his friends, his enemies. When people ask me where I come up with my ideas, I can’t give them an answer they will believe.
I can’t tell them that I am writing down things that Etiole has told me about his world.
I can’t tell them that Etiole is not a fictional character from my books. I can’t tell them, that I don’t come up with these ideas, that it is Etiole who comes up with them, and that Etiole is a very real creature who lives along side us, even though very few humans have ever seen him.
I use to tell people these things, back in the 1980’s, but no one ever believed me when I told them, so I stopped telling them, and simply, stopped answering them at all.
Of course, my cloths, started when I was just 4 years old, and I was wearing my Wonder Woman underoos under my Cinderella dresses . . . I always did dress like a comic book hero gone princess. No one paid any attention to it though, until after I was about 22 years old, and people started questioning why I didn’t wear *normal* cloths, but the fact is, for me they are normal, because I have never worn any thing else.
Does having a mental illness effect my writing? Most certainly. It effects every thing in my life. But than again, as I have never been diagnosed as having a mental illness, there in lays the question: why do people think I have a mental illness? (Autism is a birth defect not an illness.)
As you can see when people say they think I have schizophrenia, or Aspengers, they are not saying so in jest, to be funny. They are very serious, and often very frightened of me when they say it. In nearly 40 years, I have yet to have a friendship last more than 6 months, because most people, once they get to know me, are completely terrified of me. At first they meet me and think I’m in costume and acting in character, and they think of it as some sort of role playing game, but once it dawns on them, that this is no act, this is no game, that my mind is what my mind is, and that I am like this 24-7-365, I never hear from them again. If I do hear from them again, it is only to ask if I have considered medication to make me *normal* yet.
My question is, Why would I want to be *normal*?
What incentive is there?
None that I can see.
The section above was originally written in 2007. A 2017 10th Anniversary update is coming soon and will appear in this section below.
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