This week we should be celebrating the 9th birthday of my son.
Instead we are celebrating the 9th anniversary since his murder.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
November 14, 2013 10PM @ Southern Maine Community College Art Studio Bug-Light Parking Lot: 3 strangers armed with golf clubs, attacked me from behind while I was loading bags into the backseat of my car. They were a blond woman 60s-ish whom the others called "Claire", a natural red-haired woman also 60sish who called herself "Kendra", and a bald man, football player-body-type-build in his 30sish. I was 8 months pregnant. They murdered my baby, ruptured 3 discs in my spine, shattered 3 vertebra, broke my pelvis, hips, and knees. I was paralyzed for 5 months and was 18 months relearning to walk. The nerve damage has left me with limited use of my hands, legs, bladder, and intestines.
On top of that, they have also taken to harassing the baby's father, a disfigured, homeless, WW2 veteran, whom they call "Etoile". They spread hateful rumours about him claiming he is a cryptid, a demon, or most often what they term "an amphibious alien". He lives in pine branch lean-toos he builds in Old Orchard Beach and Ocean Park, and they have been hunting the locations of them, tearing them down, and smashing up his belongings.
April 10, 2015 1PM at 146 Portland Ave Old Orchard Beach Maine a gang of estimated 74 people, some of them wearing ku klux klan robes, invaded my farm, used a Blow Brothers sewage truck to pump 500+gallons of sewage into my motorhome flooding it to over the kitchen counters deep, ripped out all the cabinets and built in furniture, while 14 men armed with guns, held my family down on the ice and snow, with guns to our heads, and used cinder block bricks and a metal pole with metal wire loops to beat and behead 10 of my 12 foster children (the youngest age 4, the oldest age 16). May 15, 2015 they returned and nailed their heads to my front door. The 3 people of the November 14, 2013 attack were among the group.
September 12, 2015, 9AM a dozen+ of these same people arrived again in my driveway at 146, this time chanting: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach. Kill of be killed. Remember Saco Shaw's, Transgender Murder Store, kill the transvestites before they kill us all", one white haired man in a dark green pick up truck was leading the herd, while waving a rifle over his head and shooting at me and my pink motorhome, he shot several holes through my neighbour's shed. The crowd was accusing me of being a male-to-female "transgender terrorist" (they thought I was Muslim because I wear Catholic veiling).
June 26, 2016, the same 2 women of the first 2 attacks, arrived at my Scarborough WalMart workplace, and in a near repeat of the first attack, again while I was leaned over the back seat of my car putting bags in, this time they attacked with a chopping cart, re-injuring my spine, hip, and pelvis that was not yet fully healed from the first attack. The blond "Claire" woman was screaming "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband!" while the redhead screamed "I'm Kendra Silvermander it's my turn the shine!" They sped away in a early2000s-vintage gold Volvo SUV station wagon. This attack left me permanently crippled, and bedridden from 2016 until May 2022.
November 21, 2021: They shot "Etiole" in Biddeford, while he was staying at the tent-shanty-village with about 50 other homeless people along the Saco River in Biddeford. They made the claim he was a "suicide demon" citing that he was driving locals to suicide by putting "evil eye curses" on them.
These people murdered my baby, attempted to murder the baby's father, drove a backhoe over our house, and left me crippled for the rest of my life in their attempt to murder me.
I do not know who these people are. I never saw them before these attacks, and I've not seen them outside of these attacks. The police and FBI believe I was not the intended target, and that they were likely after my mother because of posts she makes on FaceBook and got us mixed up. The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police and the FBI are seeking information leading to their identity and arrest.
These people who show up to vandalize, while they scream about aliens and demons and Etiole, prove how retarded they are by their own words.
Because only a retarded person believes in aliens.
Because only a retarded person believes in ufos.
Because only a retarded person believes in demons.
Because only a retarded person believes in ghosts.
Because only a retarded person believes in haunted cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in demon possessed cars.
Because only a retarded person believes in alien abduction.
The inbred insect locals of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine are too damned retarded to know how much of a fool they make themselves look when they run around calling my cars demon possessed, calling my husband an alien, and calling me an alien abductee.
More Info @ eelkat.com
Long detailed info on the over 200 attacks they have done between June 2001 and May 2022, including photos of them driving a backhoe over our house on August 8, 2013 and the details of the malicious "amphibious alien" rumour they have been spreading about a local homeless disabled veteran @
July 4th 2013: my car in front of my house.
August 8, 2013: me getting home from work to find a backhoe sitting on top of my house.
The FBI already found the people with the backhoe incident, and learned that the backhoe driver was paid $600 and given a fake demolition paper, the paper stating one of my relatives (the one who paid him the $600) owned my land. The backhoe driver was unaware that the man he was dealing with was not the owner. I have lived at 146 Portland Ave since 1975 and have owned the land since 1983, it has never been owned by anyone else, even though we have now learned that both my mother and my father and 3 of my uncles had been actively going around Old Orchard Beach claiming they owned my land.
This happened 3 months before my son was murdered and the police and FBI believe my son was murdered BECAUSE of this picture being posted on FaceBook, and my mother making inciting/inflammatory posts about it on HER FaceBook, where she falsely accused me of being a witch. The FBI and OOB police believe the golf club wielding woman of November 14, 2013, is somehow connected to the backhoe driving over my house incident.
Since the murder, 3 other different backhoes have invading my land to dig up my yard, looking for the grave of my son. There is a family cemetery on my land, the stones dating mostly in the 1500s and 1600s, with a few from the past hundred years, the most recent being my son in 2013. 146 Portland Ave has belonged to my family since 1530, and I inherited it in 1983 from my grandmother Helen Ricker Allen. The most recent backhoe attack happened September 19, 2020, when they illegally cut down several trees in my yard, and started construction of a road through my yard between my pink 1975 Dodge Sportsman motorhome and BackElder Brooke, again the backhoe digging up and destroying large portions of my farm, in their search for my murdered son's grave. They dug up 16 of the graves in this attack.
We have had to remove the grave markers from the family grave in order to stop these vandals and their illegally trespassing construction equipment from destroying the graves.
The FBI believes these construction crews are being hired by the golf club wielding women, and believe she is trying to destroy the grave of my son, due to a fear of his golf club smashed skull being used as court evidence against her.
The most recent attacks by these people occurred November 21, 2021 and March 27, 2022 when they attacked my painted Volvo while it was parked at my dad's apartment in Biddeford, both times the vandals also cut all the wires to electricity, internet, and cable off the apartment building, effecting all 9 families living there.
The Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford Police Departments as well as the Portland FBI are seeking any information regarding any and all of these attacks on my family, my home, my land, or my cars.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
And no... to those who asked... the FBI is not looking for info on the 4-door white truck driver... the FBI has ALREADY ARRESTED the driver and owner of the 4-door white truck - 2 different people. The 4-door white truck was owned by Old Orchard Beach Town Hall clerk and Old Orchard Beach Police Department Dispather Kathy Smith, Relief Society President of the Saco Ward of the Agusta Stake Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Her son was the driver. They were both arrested and sentenced in 2017, and were also both excommunicated from the Mormon church as a result of their MANY hate crimes, which included but were not limited to the 4 door white truck attacks of 2013 to 2016.
Yes. A LOT of arrests have already been made. Do keep in mind the April 10, 2015 attack involved 74 people who were wearing Ku Klux Klan style white robes and pillow cases over their heads (which is how you can tell they were not real, actual Ku Klux Klan members as the REAL Ku Klux Klan wear miters on their heads, NOT pillow cases). There are in total MORE THEN 74 people actively being hunted down by twenty-one different Maine police departments, the Maine state police, the Florida State police, the Connecticut State police, and the FBI.
Since the backhoe attack of August 8, 2013, there have been a whooping 24 arrests JUST IN TWO CHURCHES:
The Saco Ward of the Augusta Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
The Sanford Ward of the Exeter Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints.
There have been additional arrests at the following three churches which all have the same owner:
Grace Point in Biddeford
New Life (aka That Church in front of WalMart) in Biddeford
Curtis Lake Church in Sanford
Due to the alarmingly high rate of arrests and prison sentences made at these 5 churches, the police and FBI have focused the bulk of their investigation on all members of these five congregations, with the bulk of the investigation being on the two Mormon churches and all friends, family, and relatives of the members of those five churches, as it is believed that ALL people involved in the murder and 20+ years of harassment of my family, are all members of these 5 churches and or friends, family, and relatives of these five churches.
To date, 64 of the 74 suspected white hood wearers of April 10, 2015, have commit suidice, four of which when killing themselves, also killed 5 or more members of their families with them at the same time. One of them was Old Orchard Beach Police officer Bruce Savoy, who killed his entire family and then himself.
The police and FBI believe there is a suicide pact between the 74 attackers who arrived April 10, 2015 on my farm at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... as 64 of them have now commit suicide, between 2015 and 2023.
Additionally, Agent Andy Drewer was NOT the original FBI agent heading the case. Laura was. FBI agent Laura was murdered February 6, 2021, during her attempt to arrest a murder suspect who was in Florida at the time he murdered her. So in addition to murdering my son, these people have now also murdered an FBI agent.
People around local, seem to forget that what happened April 10, 2015, was not some local hick beating up one person... this was a large PREMEDITATIED ORGANIZED EVENT which drew in a CROWD of WELL OVER ONE HUNDRED PEOPLE to activly participate in beating to deth and beheading ten children, the oldest being aged 16 and the youngest being aged just 4 years old.
What the people of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, Maine did was monstrous on levels of extreemes.
And then when the FBI agents tried to arrest these people, they ganged up again on February 6, 2021 and murdered, not one, but THREE FBI agents.
This is an organized terrorist group that is activly killing people here in Maine.... and this Claire woman that murdered my baby, the one the FBI believes is the ring leader who has been organizing these events.... and when I say events... I was NOT the first family attacked.
According to the FBI, the April 10, 2015 attack was the ELEVENTH such attack to happen on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine since June 2001.
And since the April 10, 2015 attack on my family, this VERY LARGE hate group has repeated this even seven more times, to seven more families all on just one street, all on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine... in total, this extremist fanatical Christian hate group has murdered more then 120 CHILDREN, just on our one street alone.
And in every case, the grand of white hood wearers was chanting the same mantra: "Too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach, kill or be killed, remember Saco Shaws".
This terrorist group is murdering anyone on Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, whom they believe of being gay or transgender, whether or not they are gay or transgender.
These people are beyond evil. And this Claire woman is their leader, and she's the one the FBI wants.
If you have any information, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
I have a weird text message… from the woman, a relative who looks enough like me to pass for my twin…from the women, who keeps pretending to be me, the one who lat Aprile pretended to be me and tried to sell my land, the one who in 2007 pretended to be me and hired a guy with a backhoe to dig holes in my land under the guise of putting in a septic system that I never ordered… the woman who in 2013 hired the same back hoe to drive over my house…
the woman the FBI suspects of being the one who hired the golf club woman also in 2013 to cripple me nd murder my baby… the same woman who was in my yard April 10, 2015 again pretending to be me when she locked her cats in my motorhome, the same woman who took out 27 credit cards in my name and ran them each up to $20k max, me, who’s never had a credit card in my life because I can’t count or do math so also can’t do money or numbers, …. The same woman who creates several online accounts pretending to be me on those… that woman… just sent me a text message, wants me to go with her to Bug Light lighthouse tomorrow…
Uhm… Bug Light lighthouse art studio is where I was November 14, 2013, when the Claire and Kendra women broke my spine with a gold club… so, why does this woman who has a 50 year history of impersonating me… the woman who convinced half of Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford that she owned my land, and has half the locals convinced that SHE and not ME, is me… she, suddenly wants me to met with her at the exact location where the blond Claire and red haired Kendra women - whom the FBI are still trying to find out the identity of - crippled me 9 years ago… and she won’t tell me why.
Well, at the moment I am recovering from, a broken pelvis, so, I can’t get out of bed, I haven’t been able to get out of bed since December, it’s not February. So, even if I would meet up with her, which I wouldn’t, right now, I can’t anyways.
She’s an Atwater… yes, the sister of Bruce Atwater… you remember him, he’s the one who was a member of Heaven’s Gate, and is so obsessed with aliens, that he and her, she helped him by pretending to be me, yet again… went around with the whole “amphibious aliens” rumors, making the claim I was abducted by aliens, calling my husband Ben Wildes, an aliens, dubbing him Etiole… he is by the way, the guy you see walking my dog with me in Biddeford… so, yeah you locals have met and talked to “Etiole” quite frequently, he attends the Saco Ward Church or Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and spent 48 years as the High Preist Quarum Leader of the Sandford Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of atter Day saists, he left the Mormon church in May 2015, after our children were murdered… thhey were kidnapped April 10, 2015, the same day the impersonator bitch locked her ten cats in my motorhome and tried to pretend they were mine, called the police, the police, Will Watson specifically, took her cats, and did not arrest me, because, they weren’t my cats… then she spent the past 9 years running around saying they were my cats and because it happened the same day, she also tries to convince people that mychildren never existed and that her cats are my children… what the fuck? She’s a raving lunatic.
She’s the one who who runs around screaming “Mark and Dan this and Mark and Dan that” and I don’t know who the fuck her Mark or her Dan are, however, the psychotic gun totoing white haired man with a green pickup truck, regularly arrives in my driveway to yell at me a, claiming he’s Mark, while saying I’m deframing him, and I don’t know who the hell he is… but apparently, he’s the Mark she keeps talking about, and she’s fighting with him while claiming to be me, so now, he’s mad at me because of something she said, but I don’t even know who the hell he is or what he’s talking about.
This is the same woman who ran around cutting the internet and electric wires off my Biddeford apartment building in 2021, while screaming about Tod Murphy, and I still don’t know who Todd Muruphrey is yet… except she and her friends claim he was hit by an Amtrak train Nov 21, 2021 at 10PM, and you can check the police records, no one was hit by a train that day… However, as you all saw on my dog walking livestream on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27pm, 4 women on bikes chased a homeless man on the the freight train tracks a quarter mile away from the Amtrak train tracks… I have it on video and I’m the one who called the police. Apparently, that’s the train accident she was talking about, be she had all the dates and times and names wrong, AND, for a full 8 months after that, I had to deal with her Atwater hoodlums and their friend vandalizing my car… they did more then $10k in damages, which yes, that why I don’t have my car again, in case you hadn’t noticed a 40 year old antique car is rather difficult to find parts for.
This woman… the one who does all of these things… oh yeah, by the way, you remember the woman who cut my 1964 Dodge 330 in half on May 9, 2010… yeah… same damn woman… and the same woman who took a fucking sledge hammer to my 1974 AMC Gremlin… that woman, the same one woman who has done ALL of these things… just sent me a text, wanting me to meet her at Bug Light lighthouse, where her Claire and Kendra buddies crippled me and murdered my baby 9 years ago.
Why can’t this bitch leave me and my family alone!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!!!
Bug Light? Really? The location where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life?
Really. She wants me to meet her at Bug Light Lighthouse.
I don't know.
She won't tell me. It's all a big secret.
Everything's always a big secret with the Atwaters. Because everything has to be a secret with criminals. If their crimes get found out, they end up in jail. That's how criminal thugs operate. In secret. So she she can't do anything without it being some big grand secret.
Why do you want me to meet you at BugLight, the lcation where my baby was murdered?
It's a secret, I can't tell you, you just have to come and find out.
For one thing my car is not here, because oh, fucking Atwater scum bags vandalized it.
For another thing, I have a broken pelvis, I have been able to get out of bed since a week before Christmas 2022.
This is the 3rd time my pelvis has rebroken, since it was originally broken by the golf club weilding Claire bitch at... oh, BugLight lighthouse!
This is the same woman and her Mark simp from the day the police showed up at my Biddeford apartment to ask:
Police: "You're EelKat, right?"
Me: "No, that's what people call me though. EelKats a fictional character from my books."
Police: "This is Biddeford, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Police: "And I'm standing here in Biddeford right now, talking to you, right?"
Me: "Uhm? Yeah?"
Officer starts talking in his phone to officers Will and Robby of Old Orchard Beach Police Department: "Yeah, she's right here with me, I'm talking to her right now. Got her Autism car here and everything."
Will and Robbie: "Yeah, that's what I been saying. This isn't her."
Me: "What's going on?"
Police: "Wolfboy is trespassing on your property again…"
Me: "Wolfboy? Who's Wolfboy?"
Police: "Mark. We call him Wolfboy. He calls 911 a few dozen times a day. Constant false complaints about every one. Boy who cries wolf you know."
Me: "Who's Mark? I don't know anyone named Mark."
Police: "Town busy body. Gossips and complains about every one. He's a real pain in the ass. Pardon my French. Can't leave anyone alone."
Me: "Why is he in my yard?"
Police: "Citizens arrest. Says he's arresting you."
Police: "Yeah. He's got some bogus court documents that say you are not allowed on your own property because you're gay."
Me: "I'm gay? How am I gay?"
Police: "Yeah. Well Wolfboy thinks everybody is gay. He's waiting for the gaypocalypse, you know?"
Me: "What's the gaypocalypse?"
Police: "He thinks us guys are going to mass murder all the Christians. We have to deal with his fake 911 calls reporting us gaaaaaayz all the time."
Me: "I take it you're gay?"
Police: "Ahyap, several of us on the department. We don't like jerks like Wolfboy. He harasses people like you all the time."
Me: "Like me?"
Police: "Disabled. He targets disabled women. Thinks it makes him a man. You might not remember me. I was the one who came with the ambulance. You know? I knew you were laid up in bed here and couldn't be in Old Orchard right now, seeing how you can't walk, let alone drive."
Me: "And you said he's in my yard right now?"
Police: "Yep. He says you hired him to dig a septic tank."
Me: "I what?"
Police: "Yeah, we know. We checked. It wasn't you. We got this woman who's impersonating you. She's the one he's trying to arrest right now. She hired him to dig a hole in your front lawn. She says she's EelKat. That's why I'm here, to make sure you are here in Biddeford and not in Old Orchard Beach, right now. Buddy Will and Robbie are dealing with it."
Me: "Why is there anyone in my yard? There should never be anyone in my yard!"
Police: "Yep, we know. Wolfboy and crew do this sort of thing every day. You have no idea how often we have to deal with his crew of chronic 911 false report complainers. Whole family's crazy."
Me: "So, you're telling me there are two people in Old Orchard, right now, on my land, fighting over my land, and one of them is claiming to be me?"
Police: "Yeah, that's the deal."
Me: "He says I hired him to build a septic tank?"
Me: "Do I look like I can afford to have a septic tank built? I have twenty million in medical bills. I can't even walk! What would I even do with a septic system, my bladder and intestines don't work, I wear adult diapers because I can't even use a toilet! Why would I of all people have a septic tank put in?"
Police: "Yeah. I know. I don't think Wolfboy and crew know how crippled you are. That's why we knew whoever he had in your yard, wasn't you. I also, don't think he's ever met you. We showed him a picture of you, and he swears that it wasn't you. We showed him a picture of *name removed* and he says that's you."
Me: "She's not me."
Police: "We know."
Me: "She's been after my land for decades. Was trying to get it aways from Grammy Helen, before I inherited it."
Police: "Oh, we know. Police reports from your Helen Ricker go all the way back to the 60s. They been after the Ricker farm since before you was born. Wolfboy's bitten off more than he can chew this time. He don't know who he's dealing with. He never should have gotten messed up with the Bacon Street Gang."
Me: "Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "Ahyep. That's who Wolfboy has got tangled up with."
Me: "Who's the Bacon Street Gang?"
Police: "A gang. Think of them as kind of like the local Mafia, only worse. Most of them are doing time for murder. A few of them are out now. I don't think Wolfboy knows that's who he's dealing with any more than he knows who you are. He wouldn't be down there right now claiming she's you if he'd ever actually met you face to face."
That woman and that Mark, are the ones behind most of the rumors and misinformation spread about me.
The woman I know. She's a relative, with a long list of mental health problems.
Her Mark buddy, that the local police call Wolfboy, I don't know. I've never seen him. Never met him as far as I know. Obviously he's some friend of hers, probably one of her exs as she has a lot of them. She's got a bad reputation for slutting around with married men and breaking up families.
But all these wild alien abduction, transgender, ufo, nutcase rumors that get spread about me, whenever I ask "Who told you that lie?" They always say it came from her, my Uncle Bruce, or some guy named Mark.
And clearly this Mark guy is talking about her, but he uses MY name when he does it, because he's convinced she is Me. It's incredibly obvious this Mark guy has never met me and has no clue he's being scammed by her. But it is incredibly annoying because, I'm the one who is crippled for the rest of my life because some blonde bitch named Claire beat me up with a golf club at Southern Maine Community College Bug Light Art Studio on November 14, 2013, while screaming "Kill or be killed, gotta kill the transvestite freaks before they kill us all!" I was 8 months pregnant. That mystery Claire bitch not only left me crippled, she also murdered my baby. Why? Because this mystery Mark guy runs around calling me transgender and gay even though I'm not trans or gay. And he's only doing that because this nut job Atwater woman who pretends to be me, is after my land, so she runs around doing crazy ass shit while pretending to be me, in order to start the crazy ass rumors in the first place!
This Claire woman is the one the FBI is looking for information on. Because no one knows who the hell she is. She's just some random nut job who clawed out of the woodwork and showed up at college one day to attack me and kill me baby, while screaming utter insanity. The guy with her called her Claire, beyond that we've no clue who she is.
This Claire woman is the one wanted for murder, agitated assault, and owes me $20million in medical bills. If she's ever identified, she's also got life in prison for murder to look forward to.
No, I can not identify her: I am blind.
Did you forget I am blind? I've been blind my whole life.
I am legally blind. I can not see faces, not even if you are close to me. I can not make out the colour of skin because there is so little variation in colour from light to dark. I can only identify the attackers by their hair colour, because I am blind and can no see their faces. That is why I do not know who these people are. I'm blind. I've been blind since I was 8 years old. I can only identify people by their scent and the sound of their voice. Yes, the golf club woman attacked a blind pregnant women, and the FBI needs help to identify her because, I'm blind, I can only id her by the sound of her voice, and I've only encountered her twice...
November 14, 2013 when she crippled me with a golf club and murdered my babyat SMCC, and June 26, 2016 when she attacked me with a shopping cart at Scarboror WalMart, she drove away in a gold volvo station wagon. The first time 2 people were with her and they called her Claire. The 2nd time only the red haired woman was with her, and she was screaming "My name is Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine!"
I do not know what the faces of wither the blond Claire who drove a gold volvo wagon or the redhair Kendra Silvermander are because I'm blind... I can see exactly 8 inches from my nose, I can't even see the ground to see my own feet. That's why the FBI is in need of witnesses to come forward and identify the 2 women who murdered my baby.
I'm blind, I don't know what they look like, I only know them by their voices.
If you have any information, about the Claire bitch who murdered my baby at BugLight Lighthouse on November 14, 2013, please call FBI Portland Office @ 207-774-9322
ask for Agent Andy Drewer.
I am severely disabled. I have been since November 14, 2013. I was paralyzed for 5 months. It took me 18 months to get out of a wheelchair. It's been 9 years and I'm still using a cane and walker to get around, but, after standing and walking for an hour or two, I collapse and have to be carried back to bed, where I end up staying for days, sometimes weeks, before I can attempt to stand up again.
And since that happened, there have been a lot of local rumores.
Plastic surgery reconstructed my face, but I noticeably don't look the same as I did for 40 years prior to becoming disabled. And this has led to a lot of local rumors... people call me a demon, or demon possessed, or an alien, or say I was abducted by aliens and that's why I look different.
Welcome to Maine, where the average person believes aliens and demons are real, and think nothing of driving a backhoe over my house, because im just a demon who deserves it, they vandalized my car repeatedly every few months I who am already disabled and severe difficultly getting out and to the store, have even less ability to get out when my car is in the shop for repairs months to a time, multiple times a year.
This is the reality of how we horrifyingly disabled people are treated, at least here in Maine.
Being attacked in the college parking lot by 3 strangers with golf clubs is what dramatically changed my appearance. Doctors, plastic surgeons, rebuilt my face as best as they could, and they did a very good job all things considering. My vertebrae are broken in such a way that my spinal column is severed and so I have almost no use of my left hand and arm, I have no control over my bladder or intestines so have to wear adult diapers. And Doctors can't operate on this injury because there is an 80% chance of me becoming paralyzed from the neck down if they even attempt surgery.
I have been sent to the top neurological surgeons in America and they've all said, they wouldn't dare take the risk of doing the surgery.
I have been 9 years, actively studying everything I can find on the subject of spine surgery. I follow every medical journal, hanging on every update, watching and waiting for the day, when surgery advances to the point that it is an option for me.
Interestingly, as a side effect of this, I started reading and watching Horror genre, something I did not previously do. Things like The Island of Dr Moreau have become my favorite books and movies. I'm not sure why. Perhaps it is because I can identify with the characters who have those radical body changing surgeries in those books and movies.
In short, I have become fully obsessed with studying all aspects of radical surgery, both real and fictional, in some sort of hope of finding, something, anything, that will help me walk again.
THIS is what this Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon did November 14, 2013... and made worse when she attacked the second time June 26, 2016.
The Claire woman with the gold Volvo station wagon, not only murdered my son, she completely destroyed my life, my health, my ability to function on even the most basic levels.
I can't walk, my baby is dead, there's a giant fucking hole in my yard that looks like a Moon crater, and I'm homeless because a fucking backhoe drove over my house.
And because I was paralyzed for 5 months, and spent 18 months relearning to walk, and still can't walk on my own now 9 years later, I also have $20million in medical bills, which is why I can't afford to rebuild my house.
In the meantime, some jackass with a green dump truck that has a black and silver striped nose, dumped hundreds of loads of garbage, actual literal black bags of garbage that he stole from the town dump, and dumped them in my yard. Do you know how much garbage he dumped in my yard? It was one hundred and seventy three feet long, thirty feet wide, and twelve feet tall… yes, the pile of garbage was 173 feet long, 30 feet wide, and 12 feet tall… and it cost me $12k March 2015 to have a garbage company come in and haul it away.
What the fuck?
And you know what the police said? They think this woman and her Mark buddy are having a fuel, but because she's convinced him that she is me, and he's never seen me, so he doesn't know she's not me, that the police think, he's the one doing all the harassing of me and my family, but he thinks he's harassing her and her family and doesn't know he's harassing the wrong people, because she gave him my address as her address.
So, I'm being harassed by some guy who is a total stranger to me, because he's mad at some psycho bitch who was pretending to be me.
And because of all this, I'm crippled for the rest of my life, my baby is dead, a backhoe drove over my house, and then on April 10, 2015 my 10 foster children were kidnapped, and then on May 15, 2025 there heads were nailed to the door of my big pink motor home. So, now not only am I homeless and crippled, but my family has been murdered as well, all because some bitch impersonated me spreading weird ass alien abduction lies, weird as transgender lies, and weird ass gay lies about me, because for some reason she thought that would get her my land, and in doing so, she passed off some guy who went psycho serial killer on me, while thinking he was attacking her.
And so, two criminal ass thugs are funding with each other, and now I'm homeless and crippled and my family is dead, and the FBI is here now, and according to them, me and my family was never the target, me and my family got attacked by mistake because at the start of all this, some ufo nut, thought it would be funny to impersonate me and try to make it look like I believed in aliens, because this whole thing started because of some phoney ass alien abduction ufo haunted car hoax started by my uncle Bruce back in the 1990s, because he was mad, that Stephen King filmed The Thinner movie on my land, and my uncle Bruce was mad that he didn't get to be in The Thinner movie.
All of this started because Stephen King filmed a movie in my yard almost 50 years ago, and an uncle of mine was jealous, so he had his sister, pretend to be me to start some crazy ass alien abduction rumors, her running around claiming she was me while claiming to be abducted by aliens, while dubbing my husband as "etiole" and "amphibious alien", because in their minds that was some kind of revenge porn for not being in a Stephen King movie, and they've spent almost 40 years running with their alien abduction hoax, adding more and more to it all time time, including to start calling me a transvestite... and then, these people who used to live in Utah, my uncle and his sister, come back here to Maine to run around spreading the alien and trans rumour on a local level around Old Orchard Beach and Biddeford, because, I have no ide why... they are just pure evil, and evil things like this are what hate filled evil people do.
Jealousy and hate. That's what fuels her. Pure raw jealousy and hate.
And my family is dead, my house is gone, and I'm crippled, all because some uncle of mine, whom I never even knew before any of this started, wanted to be in a Stephen King movie, and wasn't in a Stephen King movie and for some reason that was justification for all of this.
I don't get it.
The Atwaters are just hate filled, evil scum. You can't do something like this and be anything OTHER than pure evil scum.
Buglight lighthouse is where my baby was murdered on November 14, 2013 by the Kendra Silvermander and Claire bitch duo... why would I want to go there?
What the hell is she even thinking?
Every one who knows me knows my baby was murdered at Buglight lighthouse the beach behind the art studio at Southern Maine Community College in South Portland, on November 14, 2013, the same event that left me crippled for the rest of my life.
So why in the hell would anyone dare ask me to meet them at fucking Buglight lighthouse?
How much more evil can you be?
Update: February 19, 2023
??? Weird. ...
So, I just got a flurry of weird text messages… about FabeBook posts? I’ve not seen said posts, so I don’t know exactly what they says, but I’ll respond to the text messages about said posts:
ONE... who is in my yard? It's certainly not me, I broke my pelvis a week before Christmas and haven't been out of bed in 3 months. There should never be anyone in either of my yards, not the one in Biddeford nor the one in Old Orchard...
TWO... when did my cousin Danny die? First I heard of it. Last I knew he was living on a farm up by Heath road in Saco. I haven't seen him since a few years before the grease fryer bomb blew up my house, that happened on October 16, 2006... so it was sometime before 2004 last time I saw Danny. Didn't know he died. That's sad. I liked Danny. He was one of the few good Atwaters...
Three, uhm, what garden? My land in Old Orchard is bare ledge. Not even any soil to plant anything in. It's been that way for nine years. When the backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, it also came in with a green dumptruck and strip mined my land, they stole all of my roses, apple trees, grapes, blueberries, and flowers, and took all the top soil down to over six feet deep, strip mined my farm down to bare shale and granite. It would cost over $three-million dollars to buy new top soil to replace what the vandals stole, and I don't have that kind of money, so I've not had a garden since, no vegetables, no flowers, nothing, can't plant anything on bare ledge....
so, yeah, weird, this latest rumor, which states I stole something from Danny's grave to put in my garden. Seeing how, I didn't even know Danny died and I also don't have a garden.
........... Update February 22, 2023
So, because I didn't know Danny died, people have started sending me these long lists of Atwaters whom have died since 2015... apparently there are well over 30 - thirty - dead Atwaters, none of whom I knew had died, and many of whom, I never even heard their names before. I'm told they are largely from the Utah division of the Scottish Traveller clans. But I did notice, half of the original twelve are dead? Is that true? No one told me any of this. I had no clue. It says here that uncle Peter and his wife, Bobby's wife Cathy, and even my uncle Brucie are all dead? When did all this happen and why did no one tell me? There a bunch of cousins, second cousins, and thrid cousins on the list too, but I've never heard any of their names before I have no clue who any of them are.
There also seems to be some weird thing where they are saying no one ever told them my son was murdered November 14, 2013... my mother, my father, my step father Wade, aunt Barbara, uncle Dickie, uncle Brucie, cousin Danny, and Danny's wife Amanda all knew about this. Barbara showed up at the hospital and tried to get me to join her in some stupid ass medical scam she said she was running via her EMT job, she wanted me to be some poster child for some medical scam website she was running, she said she could get more money if she had a real cripple on her website. Dickie and Brucie were both at my Water St apartment the night it happened and they were mad that the police showed up to question my family and found them there with my daddy and some private detective, I don't know who the private detective was... according to the FBI agent in charge of the murder investigation, my dad hired the private detective to trail my mother and her then husband Wade, and Dickie and Brucie were helping my father with that.
Barbara, Dickie, and Brucie were all at the hospital November 2013, when I was paralyzed.
Barbara knew I was in a wheelchair, because in 2014, at Saco Shaw's, she stopped to talk to me, while I was shopping and in the wheelchair.
I'm also being told most of them are claiming they didn't know a backhoe drove over my house. Uncle Joey in Australia, not only knew about the backhoe driving over my house, by the FBI has copies of the $600 wire he sent to the backhoe driver. My father is the one who forged the demolition permits, with some guy named Dan who I never heard of before.
Also, you remember Barbara's ex Paul Martal... do you know what he's in prison for? FBI arrested him in 2016, for not one, but many bombs that he built, including the bomb that blew up my house October 16, 2006 and wait for it... the Boston Marathon bomb in 2013, he built it and sold it to ISIS.
The Atwaters claiming they know nothing of the 2006 bomb, is a lie, considering the FBI arrested some of them for it.
The Atwaters claiming they knew nothing of the backhoe driving over my house August 8, 2013, that replaced the bombed house, is a lie, because because Joey is the one how organized and funded it and he's going to straight to prison if he ever sets foot in America again, the FBI is ready to arrest him the moment he sets foot outside of Austraila. They have uncovered all the evidence they need to do so.
Barbara posted the message on my FaceBook wall: "The next head nailed to a door will be yours", she posted that message May 14, 2015... the DAY BEFORE my foster children's heads were nailed to the door of my motorhome. I didn't know she posted that message... the FBI agent, had screenshots of it that he had made, he showed them to me in June 2016... I didn't know she had posted that on my wall.
Yvonne and Shem, posted on my FaceBook wall more then two hundred pictures of themselves holding various guns, and on every post they wrote the words: "This is the gun I'm going to kill you with." Again, I did not see the posts, because I was in the hospital, paralized, I was paralyzed 5 months, I was 18 month relearning to walk... I've been bedridden for the last 9 - NINE - years... I found out about the death threats Shem and Yvonne were posting when an FBI agent, the one, who is now dead. Larua, she was murdered February 6, 2021... arrived, at my 6x8 tarp that I was living under in my yard... she arrived, with a huge stack of printed out screenshots of death threats posted by them, along with 27 FaceBook accounts all owned by Brucie, most of them using variations of Doris's name... all 29 of those accounts spent the entire of 2014, 2015, and 2016 DAILY posting death threats on my FaceBook wall, and often mentioned the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, the August 8, 2013 backhoe, and the April 10, 2015 SWAT team... the SWAT team being something I never mentioned online... also... the police department is in search of a VERY UNIQUE murder weapon that was used in the May 15, 2015 beheadings, and the crackhead Camilla, the cocaine dealer for the Bacon Street Gang, who is an Atwater, has been since October 2021 showing up on my Biddeford front porch to gibber about... that murder weapon... the police and the FBI never released to the public what the murder weapon was, because it is a VERY UNIQUE one of a kind hand made item. And yet, MANY of the Atwaters... 23 of them, showed up in my Biddeford driveway January 8, 2021 to gibber about that murder weapon while also chanting "God-King-Trump".
January 15, 2021, a few days later, the fbi shows up with half the fucking plice department, here at my biddeford apartment, said they followed lucy and barbara up here from some attack on the president in washington dc and wanted to know if U'd seen them? what the fuck? I have no clue. I've not see Lucy since 1994 and I've not seen Barbara since 2013 the day she tried to get me to join her weird medical scam plot. But according to the FBI... they were watching my Twith livestream tht day, so they saw the "God King Trump" chanters, as did all of my viewers, I was live and my webcam faces the driveway window so, they were chanting "God-king-trump" on my Twitch livestream... according to the FBI, those 23 people were Lucy's crew and the had stolen stuff from the White House, and were carrying the stolen white house stuff while chanting in my driveway... the FBI wanted to know if I recgonined any of them, and I didn't, the FBI had tons of pictures of them, and I don't know who any of them were... but according to the FBI, they are the adult children of several of my cousins, via Lucy and Barbara's kids. What the hell?
I am so sick and tired of the FBI showing up here and questioning me every few weeks, because of some fucking ass shit Barbaras family is doing, when I don't even know Barbara's family! I haven't babysat for her kids since I was 12 years old and that was fifty fucking years ago!
Tell me, how do so many Atwaters have inside information about the murder weapon that was used to behead my ten foster children on May 15, 2015... when those police records are sealed, were classified by the FBI, and only me, 6 FBI agents, 3 police officers, and of course the murderer, know what the murder weapon was?
I don't know who contacted the FBI... it wasn't me. I assume is was police officer Will Watson as he was the original head of the police investigation. And yet, I have many THOUSANDS of hate emails, hate snail mail letters - hand written and signed by Atwaters, accusing me of sending the FBI to "snoop in on them" as they put it. Good god! The FBI is over here interigating me 2 or 3 times a fucking month! The Atwaters act like they are the only ones who have to deal with FBI agents hanging around all the time! At least with me the FBI are here trying to help solve a crime, not interigating me of being a criminal... my fucking son was murdered! Atwaters bitching about the FBI questioning them, well maybe they shouldn't be posting death threats all over my FaceBook wall constantly none stop, the same week my sn was murdered, but that's what they are being questioned about.
I never sent the FBI anywhere... I don't control the FBI, and anyone who thinks that is got some serious mental retardation issues.
I didn't even know the FBI was actively going from Atwater to Atwater questioning them, and I wouldn't have known, had the Atwaters not been writing long hate letters and mailing them to me.
My son was murdered in 2013... it was 3 years later, when the FBI showed up to talk to me, for the first time, and yet they informed me, they'd been on the case for three years at that point and had some pretty daming evidence, about one Atwater: Paul Martal, whom I've never met, didn't even know he existed... he got 14 years in prison for the 2006 bomb that blew up my house. But what the FBI wanted to know was: Why me? It appeared he didn't know me any more than I knew him. According to the FBI, Paul Martal was in heavy contact with 2 people, and the FBI believes it's one of them, who hired the golf club woman to murder my baby November 14, 2013...
...and the problem is, I've not mentioned it to the family, The Atwaters, so they don't know, not even my parents know, but on September 12, 2021, there was another attack. I've not released any details, nor have the police or the FBI, One of the biggest ones yet. The FBI pointed out one thing... the attacks stopped when one of te two primary suspects died. They said they had reason to believe the one, of the two suspects, whom they believe murdered my son, died... so how did the the September 12, 2021 attack happen?
When that attack happened the FBI asked me to repaint paint my car: put the info from 2 different events, with the dates reversed, to see WHO would notice it was wrong. Someone DID notice it was wrong: Crackhead Camilla, cocaine dealer of the Bacon Street Gang, she showed up on my Biddeford porch less then ten hours after I painted my car. She noticed the incorrect date for the incorrect event... and she has said WHO told her... and it was one of the three people who arrived at the hospital November 2013... except, 2 of those 3 people are now dead, and the one she's naming, is the one still alive.
Who is it, who runs around telling people I believe in aliens? That same person. I don't believe in aliens. I'm the one who proved aliens and alien abductions to be a hoax, did that in 2007, posted my findings proving aliens a hoax here: https://www.eelkat.com/AmphibiousAliens.html
Who is it, who runs around claiming I say things about Utah Atwaters, people who I've never heard of, people I've never met? That same person.
Whose husband is right now sitting in prison for building the bomb that blew up my house? That same person.
Camilla was the bridesmaid of who? That same person.
Who KNEW I was paralyzed for 5 months, 18 months in wheelchair, and 9 years serverly crippled, bedridden... but neglected to tell anyone in the family? That same person.
Who is it, who is right now spreading rumors and lies about me, my brothers, and my mother, all over FaceBook? That same person.
Do you know what gaslighting means? Look at what she's doing. It's called gaslighting. It means she is trying to cast doubt on the victims, in order to make the victims look guilty, as a way to try to hide, her own crimes.
Ask yourself why you didn't know my son was murdered?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was attacked by a blond woman with a golf club, left for dead, almost died, and have been crippled on paraplegic levels ever since?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was paralyzed for 5 month?
Ask yourself why you didn't know I was in a wheelchair for 18 months?
Ask yourself why you didn't know my foster children, where not only murdered, but their heads were nailed to my door?
Ask yourself why you didn't know when Barbara, Brucie, and Dickie were all at the hospital, and knew what had happened. Why didn't they tell any of you? Why did they pretend not to know? Why did they hide for the rest of the family, what had happened to me?
Here's an important thing to ask: Why did none of you know the FBI was here investigating a very brutal murder that coincided with a LOT of harassment, vandalism, and hate crimes that were on levels of alarming extremes?
It's called impeding and FBI investigation.
Someone, in the Atwater family, has been very actively lying to all of you about what happened to me and my family... why? What is their motive? If they have nothing to hide, then why arethey bending over backwards to try to keep every one of you from finding out what happened to me, my son, my house, my yard, and my foster children?
Only the person doing these crimes, who any motive to try to cover them up.
Only the person who murdered my son, would have any motive to go out of their way to do everything in their power to try to make you forget he ever existed.
Only the person who did these things has any motive, to try to cover it up.
Only the person behind my son's murder has a motive to try to convince you I believe in aliens, when it's damn well documented that I don't believe in aliens.
Think about that, next time an Atwater starts spreading rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my dead children, or my dead son.
Also... who is it who told you that I knew about all these deaths in the family? Was it one of the three people who was at the hospital and knew what happened to me, but never told you all?
Also, yes... I have noticed that Dickies supposed death date is a full 3 months before he was at the hospital, before he was visiting my dad with Brucie and and having a meeting with the private investigator about Wade Witen... that's puzzling... but then again Brucie had faked his own death 4 times since the 1980s, each time to invade IRS fraud, so the Atwaters do have a history of faking their deaths. I know this because the FBI has all that info too and when interviewing me, they wanted to know if I was aware of the faked death, by 3 of the original 12 Atwaters... yep, three of the brothers have faked their deaths multiple times. So... when you people tell me Dickie and Brucie are dead, yeah, I kind of don't believe you.
Also, Barbara is the one going around telling everyone that Danny is dead and his grave is being vandalised... several people have told me that Danny is dead, his grave was being vandalised, and I a bedridden crippled, was being blamed for the vandalism, and I asked each of these people who told them this, and every one of them stated they recieved either a rtext, post, comment, email, or phone call from Barbara, some said she told them face to face in person... near as I can tell NO ONE other then Barbara os saying Danny died, no one other then Barbara is saying his grave is vandaised, and no one other then Barbara is saying I did it... also newsflash... my camera runs 24/7/365 ever since the day my foster children's heads was nailed to my door, so I can prove where I was and what I was doing every minute from May 16, 2015 to right now. The camera runs 24/7 in hopes of catching the murderer returning to attack again. Smile... if you've ever said anything to me online or offline, I have video footage of you doing it.
In case you've forgotten who Barbara is, besides being Bruce's sister, she's the 2 year old girl who was run over by this car. https://www.eelkat.com/images/1964dodge330_theGoldeneagleWorldsMostHauntedCar.jpg My 1964 Dodge 330 the one that was cut in half on May 9, 2010 by raving lunatics of the Saco Ward church calling it demon possessed. She's the one who started the rumor that the car was haunted, possesed by a demon and tried to kill her. The car used to belong to Dr Larochell, who paid Barbara $20k to stop her from spreading rumors about his car. Her rumours about his car got so bad that locals started attacking him, so in 1975 he sold the car and I bought it specifically to prove that it was niether haunted demon possessed and Barbara was just delusional and trying to get attention.
After I proved the car not haunted, I let a local elderly homeless man sleep in the car at night, while the car was parked behind my barn, 175 feet from the road in the forest where it could not be seen from the road, so no one knew the WW@ veteran was sleeping in my car... until that is, in 1978, Barbara tresspassed on my land, found him there, declared him first a demon, then in the 1990s started calling him "The Amphibious Alien"... Barbara is the only Atwater who ever learned French and guess what, she is also the one who coined the name "Etiole" and started calling the homeless WW2 vet "Etiole" and she is the one who has been vocal in instigating EVERY SINGLE attack on Etiole and my 1964 Dodge 330.
Also, do take a look at Barbara... we look alike, she and me... we can almost pass for twins. And what keeps happening around locally? People keep saying they are encountering me doing and saing things in places I've never been to, to people I've never heard of!
Also, every time I go outside, people - ttal strangers - keep coming up to me and asking me why I am emailing them stuff about aliens, and newsflash: I don't even use email! What the hell? I couldn't eail some one even if I wanted to!
In November, this guy comes up to me, he's about 90 years old and carrying this massive stack of sheets of paper - like 300 sheets, it's an entire reem of paper, and he starts waving it around and says it's print out of all the emails I sent him just in the past week, he says he gets more then three thousand emails from me on a daily basis and it's all crazy stuff about aliens... I looked at the papers and, the emails are coming from tons of emails with the word "eelkat" in the name, but they aren't mine. I'm not sending these things out to people and I don't know who is... but I do know who has a history of impersonating me with emails: Barbara!
In 1996, she started an email war with the Atwaters, with two emails, one that she said was heres, and one that she said was mine.
At that point... I had never had contact with an American, or TV, or electricity... I had never heard of computers or internet or email... he email war, was her, impersonating me, and sending hundred of hate filled emails to my aunts, uncles, and counsins... I found out about it a year later when Bishop Paul Morgan of the Cape Elezabeth Ward (no, not the Portland Ward, but yes the same building) called me in to his office one day, to ask why I was sending so many hundreds of emails about aliens and alien abductions to him and 750 other members of the church. No that's not a typo... seven hundred and fifty members of the church...
I had 3 questions for Paul Morgan:
1: What's email?
2: What are aliens?
3: What's alien abduction?
I had never heard of those 3 things before.
Paul Morgan had print outs of those emails, and it took me over a month to read those more then six thousand sheets of paper, but I read every one of them.
Paul Peterson, administrative director of Pine Land Center Insane Asylum... he showed up at church a few weeks later, yeah... turns out, several Atwaters used to be, how shall we call it... straight jacketed in padded cells because they were insane... and Pine Land Center, government run mental health institute, lost funding, shut down, in... oh look... 1996... and literally just let formally straight jacket nut cases, walk free out the front door. It's not hard to find out who the inmates of Pine Land Center were... the micro films are available in New Gloughster. So, yeah, that evidance exists and says a lot.
ALL of the rumors about me, my mother, my father, my brothers, my husband, my cars... all the Demon rumors, all the alien rumors, ALL of it... every single rumor, all the way back to the 1960s... all of them, were started by one person, Barbara, because, she was the 2 year old girl who was hit by that car, and she's pissed that I bought it, and she's even more pissed that Stephen King, my neighbour at the time, made a movie about it... did you know my real name is Christine and that's why the car is named Christine in the movie, even though the real car was named The Goldeneagle.
After Christine, Stephen King returned to film Thinner on my farm, and THAT is why, Barbara, has had endless amounts of jealosue rage and hatred for my farm, my land, my house... did you know I've rebuilt my house 5 times now... the backhoe has driven over THREE houses on my land, we keep rebuilding and it keeps coming back... but before the backhoe there was the bomb... and who did the FBI arrest for building that bomb again? Barbara's husband Paul Martal. That's what he went to prison for. He built the bomb that blew up my house, the FBI found him with the bomb parts in his house and car.
That's why, I always ask, when these weird rumors about demons and aliens show up... who told you? And EVERY SINGLE PERSON, EVERY SINGL TIME... they always say: "Barbara told me", "Baraba said it" , "Barbara called me" , "Barbara emailed me"... and so, I'm not surprised to find out that the rumors flying around this week, are once again, started by the same person who always starts them: the pissed off now adult, 2 year old girl, who 60 years ago was run over by the world's most haunted car, and is the one who both declared it haunted and dubbed the homeless man living in it as "Etiole"
Know your sources people. Do your background checks. Find out if the one spreading the rumors about me, might actually have a motive. Barbara REALLY hates that car. And at the core, her hatred of that car, her rage that Stephen King made it famous, is the cause of everything.
But guess what: Barbara and Brucie and their fucking endless jealose rage, is why I'm crippled, why my son is dead, why I've had to rebuild my house on my land five fucking times now... I'm not bothering any of them, I never have , and I don't know why they are bothering me! I want those bastards to fucking leave me, my family, my cars, my land, and anything else of mine alone.
Uhm… okay… so, a member of the Sanford ward church was just in a rage yelling at me about the drug raid across the street last year at the missionary apartment and this being the 18th anniversary of the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh… and, I'm not sure why they are yelling at me about it…but they were mad saying: "Why is the FBI here talking to you about the dead girl in Scarborough. You aren't family."
Uhm… no, but I am the one who found the body and called 911 to report it. And I've had to deal with police and FBi questions in regards to her death for the past few decades every single time they get a lead they show up and ask me:"So tell us once again what you saw." And I tell them yet again about the girl with no head, the thirty dogs with no heads, and that, I never saw her or the dogs before.
I was driving to work and they were all laid out ritual like in the road, not a one of them had any heads. Not the girl, not any of the dogs.
First experience with headless bodies… but far from the last. And police and fBi believe the killer was there and saw me call 911 and that's why my 75 pet roosters had their heads cut off and their bodies tied in rope nooses and hung in my Orchard fruit trees and rose bushes shortly after.
I can show you where ever body was the girl and the dogs. The first one was at the Ross rd Portland rd intersection at the light by where the medical building is now. The next one was at the Eastern trail Bridge just before the rv center. There was another at the cascade rd intersection by the flea market... they continued like that all the way to the Scarbourogh marsh. All black dogs, mostly Rottweilers and black labs, more than 30 of them, leading in a path to the dead girl. None of them had heads. Not the girl or the dogs.
It was after dark, I was on my way to Macy's.
The fbi says they think it was the same person who beheaded my cousin Murphy in 2013, beheaded 75 of my roosters and hung them from nooses in trees in 2007, murdered my son in 2013, and beheaded my mother's cats in 2015... he says there were 11 other beheading like this between 2001 and 2015 all of them invloving a huge amount of pets, mostly dogs and cats, but also birds and horses… in title more then 500 pets just on Portland Ave in old Orchard beach alone, the first one was a German Shepherd in June 2001 whose head was hung on the bucket of his owners bulldozer, and there have been 7 more since 2015 to 2021, all on Portland Ave, Ross rd, and Cascade Rd.
The dead girl in Scarborough had no head, neither did any of the dogs. I'm the one who called the police.
I was there when they found Timmy Murphy on cascade and Ross rd intersection. He had no head either.
My cousin Murphy, the newspaper said he was hit by a truck. But that's not what happened. I was there. Police made me wait 3 hours while they looked for his head. I got questioned all over for that. It happened June 2013. Backhoe drove over my house August 8, 2013, and golf club woman attacked November 14, 2013... fbi thinks the backhoe and golfclub attacks were both because I was there when Timmy's body was being wrapped up by police. The police found his head 2 weeks later down by my driveway on Portland Ave almost a half mile from where they found his body.
They believe the killer of my cousin Timmy was at the scene while the police were questioning me, and that's how the killer knew to target my house with the backhoe a month later… the issue with that is, one of my uncles, paid the backhoe driver, but that uncle lives in Australia and wired the money to the backhoe driver. The police have all the paperwork for this. And the police can't figure out, why it appears that my Atwater relatives are heavily invested in impending the investigation of what police are calling "the Ouellette case".
It appears the Atwaters are being egged on by someone involved in the murder of the headless Scarborough marsh girl, and that the Atwaters are being deliberately needled into a frenzy at me and my family in a bold attitude to through police off the killers trail.
The thing is, the Atwaters have gone into wild extremes bringing in weird alien abduction rumors that are just outlandish… but then… one of my uncles, when the FBI went to interview him… he had dozens of dead, headless black dogs, black cats, and black chickens laying in weird pentagram ritual formations, all over his yard, in his driveway, around his house, hanging on his fences… and… well… dead headless black animals were all around the Scarborough marsh that day of the dead girl… and so… it kind of looks a lot like one of my uncles either is the murderer or at least is the one supplying the murderer with dead black pets.
So, this lead the FBi to ask me more questions, because now it looks like the Atwaters lashing out at my family has a far bigger motive then, them just being crazy lunatic ufo nuts.
I've been a witness at 4 different beheadings.. and was the one who called police each time.
The raid at the Saco Ward missionary apartment across the street…I never said the raid across the street was a drug raid... the state drug force wasn't there. Ive seen drug raids before. My Atwater relatives are notorious for drugs, ive been in the house when two drug raids happened, one in 1982 and one in 2016 and both times the state police drug team was the one who did the raid.
State police drug team wasn't there at the raid on the missionary apartment across the street last year, it the US Marshalls and FBI there. They had 8 people handcuffed face down in the road in front of our apartment. And they said it was about the Ouellette case, specifically the headless girl in Scarborough marsh. I know this, because thry asked me if i recognized any of these 8 people. One I did, she's been my dads nurse since 2009. Fbi was here asking me about that raid, because he wanted to know if the dead cats and birds in the road here in front of our Biddeford apartment were lined up same way as the dead dogs were back in Scarborough years ago with the dead girl.
Me and others locally have been finding dead pets lined up on Main Street, western Ave, Cutts St, West Cutts st, James St, and Bradbury st every since summer 2021, I sent videos footage of all the dead pets to fbi, because it DID look like same ritual pattern used in my yard with roosters in 2007 and my mother's cats in 2015 and those dogs with the dead girl at the Scarborough marsh.
That's why I stopped walking around our apartment at night... dead cats and birds are being set up around my apartment and also my mothers apartment... looks like whoever killed cats and roosters in Old Orchard, wanted me to know they knew where I lived.
The officers think the person leaving the dead pets all around our apartment is whoever killed the headless girl at the marsh... they think that's why the attack on my roosters happened in 2007, the backhoe in 2013, the golf club women who killed my son and crippled me in 2013, because I'm the one who called the police about the headless dogs in Scarborough with the dead girl.
Weird, this Sanford Ward Mormon, who was just here at my apartment, made the comment: "But the dead girl in Scarborough wasn't beheaded."
I don't know if there's a different girl too or not. I only know about the headless girl, the one I called 911 about all those decades ago. I never looked up the news reports so I don't know if they ever mentioned the thirty dead dogs or her and the dogs having no head. I don't know what the news said about it. I don't even know her name. I just know whenever the police or FBI ask me to retell how the dogs were laid out, they always call it "The Ouellette Case". Beyond that I know nothing about it.
My focus has always been on the attacks on me and my family. I don't know any of the other families. I just know the officers said the April 10, 2015 attack on my farm was the 11th such attack on Portland Ave since June 2001 and that they now tell me there have been seven more such attacks on Portland Ave since 2015. They said a lot of details have not been released to the public, but that there are a few common things recurring in every attack which indicates it's just one person (group of persons) doing it. They say they keep going back to all 18 of our families reasking us for details we can remember because they are trying to match up the similarities of each case.
I know what details were left out of reports about the attacks on my family. I don't know anything about any of the other 17 families at all.
I don't understand these Saco and Sanford ward church members who keep showing up all upset because I'm trying to find out who murdered my son and left me crippled. What is their problem? It's MY family that's dead, not theirs, what the fuck business is it of theirs? Why are they so damned ruffled up about me asking for anyone with information to call the FBI? By being upset like this, they are just making themselves look suspicious. When they are mad that I'm asking people for help finding the killer, they just make themselves look like they are involved, they make it look like they know who the killer is, they make it look like they are protecting and defending the killer. Do they not realize how suspicious they make themselves look when they get angry that I ask on Facebook for anyone with info to please call the FBI and help put my son's killer in prison?
Do you remember Timmy? He's the same age as you and me. He's the one who lived at the black house next door to my on Portland Ave. He was the used car dealer, the one who always have a dozen or so cars lined up for sale across his front lawn. He also owned Etiole's swamp, my abutting neighbour from the back side of the land. He used to help me babysit Barbara's kids back in the 1970s and 1980s, we used to duo babysit together.
Timmy Murphy was the one beheaded June 2013 at the Ross Rd and Cascaed Rd intersection.
That's why I can't understand these Todd Murphy fucktrds who spent the entire of November 2021 to May 2022, daily arriving in my Biddeford driveway, chanting "Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy! Todd Murphy!" while vandalizing both the building and my car. They did $10k+ in damages to my Volvo and they did so much damage to the building that landlord Matt Holiday couldn't afford to repair the apartment building so he sold it because the city of Biddeford was going to condemn the building and kick out all 9 families at 409 Maine Street, because the Todd Murphy fucktard attackers did so much damage to the building. People know about them cutting all the wires off the building, but it was a lot more then that. They did huge amounts of stucture damage to the building itself as well. That's why Matt sold the building. He just didn't have enough money to repair the damages.
But the thing was, these vandals were acting like they thought I knew who Todd Murphy was, and I never heard of anyone by that name before. I think they mixed up whoever this Todd Murphy was with my cousin Timmy... who is not an Atwater... what the fuck are the Atwaters even talking about? Timmy was my dad's older sister's god-son. My aunt Victoria from Portland? The one who lived in that big tower on the waterfront up on the Promanard.
Why are the Atwaters so damned fucking arrogant that they think they are the only relatives I have? The Allens of Allen Ave in Portland are my relatives too you know, and Timmy Murphy was one of them. You know, the whole family who founded Amatos... the woman who founded Amatos was my dad's great aunt. That's why we always get free food at Atmatos, their family. The Atwaters don't hold a fucking monopoly over me, what the hell is wrong with them? You know, I'm sick of the Atwaters barging their way into everything and trying to make everything be about them. They aren't the center of the world and they need to stop acting like they are.
Near as I can tell, these Todd Murphy vandals are conneted to the Atwaters somehow, but I don't know how. And again, they are impeeding a fucking FBI murder investigation. Do the Atwaters know how to do ANYTHING other then stick their busy body noses in places they don't belong? What the fuck?
Do you know what the police said? They said Todd Murphy is the son of someone my mother and Barbar fight with on FaceBook. I've had my mother and Baraba both blocked on FaceBook since the shit they pulled back in 213 after my son was murdered. I don't have a fucking clue who my mother or Barbara are friends with on FaceBook, I have them blocked. I've had them blocked for 10 years this Novmber.
But then, I have fucktards from the Sanford Ward church showing up here now, do you realize how far they have to drive to get here to my driveway? What the hell? And they claim that Todd Murphy was a member of the Sanford Ward... you know what he's not on the rouster. You know I'm a member of that church right? I got access to the rouster, because my husband is the high preist quorum leader of that church... there's no one named Todd Murphy who is a member of the Sanford Ward church, and there hasn't been in the last 48 years that I've attended that church. So now I'm left wondering, even more what the fuck?
Who the ell is Todd Murhy and why the fuck should I care? I haven't got a clue what these people are talking about. I don't know who they are and I don't know who their Todd Murphy is.
Only thing I can figure, is somehow, something my mother and Barbara said, convinced these people that when I talk about Timmy Murphy's murder case that I'm talking about Todd Murphy. But why? Was Todd Murphy murdered in 2013 of the Ross Rd in Old Orchard Beach, same as my cousin Timmy Murphy, who was also my abutting neighbor and had the same birthday as me, so we celebrated our birthdays together, you know because we grew up together and knew each other own entire lives?
I mean, what the hell? And what does Todd Murphy have to do with The Ouelltte case aka the beheaded girl in the Scarborogh Marsh from 20 years ago? That's what they were talking about last night... thee Snford Ward members who were here in my ard in Biddeford last night, who yes, I do know who they are, but I don't know who this Todd Murphy is that they are talking about or what he has to do with my cousin Timmy Murphy and that girl, both being beheaded down the street from my Old Orchard Beach farm?
I asked, no one in Timmy's family knows any one named Todd. None of my Scarborough or Old Orchard Beach Murphy relatives know or have ant relatives named Todd, so none of them, know what the fuck these people in Biddeford are talking about. You know just because someone has the same last name, doesn't mean they are relatede, right? Do these Todd Murphy people who won't stop hrassing us, and now clearly have a connection to the Sanford Ward realize that?
And what is with Joel Bailey? What? Yeah... they're bringing Joel Bailey back into stuff? He went to prison in 2013, he, if you forgot was the counsellor of the Bisiop of the Saco Ward church, the entire bishiprisk went to prision, 2 to 10 years each one, along with the Old Orchard Beach Town Manager, oh wait, he was one of the bishipric, and 13 people from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and police departments, all members of the Saco Ward church, for stealing a little bitty number of thirty MILLION dollars in Old Orchard Beach tax funds out of the town hall bank account, which I only found out about, because they tried to forge my name onto the documents and that was why FBI Laura, the agent ho was murdered in Florida on Feberuary 6, 2021, was sent to interview me in 2007, 2010, and 20134... the Saco Ward church bishopric stole $30million from the Old Orchard Beach town hall and tried to pin it on me, only, I can't count, mI never learned math, and they didn't know I couldn't possibly have written the math figures. I don't know how to do money and only someone really good with money could have done the things they did. They also put a lot of stuff in Ken Shoop's name. That Joel Bailey, the one who is now out of prison and likes to walk circles around my Biddeford apartment all summer long in 2022. Yeah, I am aware he's back, the mini-Winnie RV that parks at the Biddeford High School at night, he is the one driving it.
Given his past history, no, I'm not surprised at all to find his name bring brought back up. Though the Saco Ward Mormons now trickling out of prison and back on the streets, would explain why the vandalism started up again, seeing how they were the ones who used to do most of it and the vandalism did stop when they went to prison.
I'm sick of the Atwaters and their Mormon friends. They're nothing but criminals, drug dealers, and gangster thugs.
The fact remains, the only thing I'm focused on is finding my son's killer and the Atwaters and their Mormon thugs, are interupting that, and I want to know WHY? No one who is not guilty of being involved in my son's murder has any reason or incentive to be here harassing me and telling me to take the FBI phone number off my FaceBook wall, and that's what they are doing and I want to know why. What business is it of theirs if the FBI phone number is on my FaceBook wall and what is their involvment with my son's murder that they think the FBI phone number on my FaceBook wall effects them?
Here's a weird one… I just got a text message from a Sanford Ward Mormon which states: "I've known you for 40 yeas I would remember you being attacked how come you never mentioned it before now"
Uhm… since 1996, my website, originally known as Space Dock 13, has documented daily blog posts of every day of my life.
The July 2, 2001 attack, when a house mover cut our house in half, put it on a flatbed and drove it to Waterville, was documented the day it happened. It was also the first attack. My neighbor's German shepherd dog was beheaded and left in the bucket of his bulldozer that same day.
Go look at my blog… every day since July 2, 2001 , every attack, from the minor paintball attacks to the big house bomb attacks, are all documented, each blog post written the day it happened. There are more then ten thousand daily blog posts just on that one blog, chronologizing every event of every day of my life and including every attack, since June 2001.
That fact that they only just noticed it now, does not mean, I've never mentioned it… it just means they were too self absorbed to notice anything going on around them. It also means I was never important enough to them, for them to notice I was homeless, or in the hospital, or had a baby that was murdered. … their shock of just discovering these things, says more about their lack of caring about me, then anything else.
As for the headless girl and dogs in the marsh, the murder of my cousin Timmy Murphy, and the golf club attack ,the 3 events they specifically brought up in their text…
I had Squidoo articles about all 3 events. Squidoo went out of business in 2014.
I have more then a thousand blog posts published between 2007 and 2013, on Tumblr, BlogSpot, and WordPress, about those 3 events.
On YouTube I had more than 2k video uploads between 2008 and 2017 that did absolutely nothing but talk about those events, and included the interrogations by police and Fbi, which I've recorded all of since May 2015. So, yes, you can go watch FBI agent Andy Drewer, lawyer Gene Libby in the Biddeford District Court, and police officer Will Watson, and dozens of others talking about these events, on YouTube, because my camera catches everything.
Since 2008, I have posted daily on Facebook and Twitter asking for witnesses to come forward about the dead dogs and the marsh girl...
Since June 2013, I added Tim Murphy to my daily Facebook request for witnesses to come forward,
Since August 2013, I added the back hoe driving over my house info to my daily Facebook requests for witnesses to come forward.
since November 2013, daily every single day requests for witnesses to the attack at phi theta Kappa ceremony at bug light lighthouse, where my baby was murdered and I was left crippled for the rest of my life.
I'm still crippled by the way, are they going to tell me they didn't notice that either? Did they not notice I was 5 months paralyzed, wait I know that person noticed because in February 2014 that exact same person carried me to their car and from their car into the hospital precisely because I was paralyzed and couldn't walk…. The person who carried me to the hospital because I was paralyzed and had to be carried is the exact same person who is now saying they don't remember this… and yet, they are the ones who had to fill out the paperwork to admit me in the hospital and their signature is on those documents. So, proof they are lying, right there.
after the June 2016 attack by the 2013 golf club woman, this time at walmart, the fbi gave me a hotline number for witnesses to call... this phone number has been on the flyers in the windows of my Volvo ever since June 2016 and these events are printed on said flyers.
Also in June 2016 the Old Orchard Beach Libby library and the Biddeford McArthur library and the Old Orchard Beach Salvation Army Church all printed up flyers about these events, and spent the summer handing them out to tourists and the fBI number was on all of those.
This is all very well documented as, I have been post them DAILY for over a decade now... and I talk about it constantly in my livestreams which I started doing in May 2015.
Just because one person had their head shoved too far up their church's ass to know what was going on in their own family, and they only just now noticed what was going on around them, doesn't mean I only just now started talking about it.
This is why I don't like churches. Church people are so focused on their Bibles that they haven't got a clue what's going on in the real world around them.
Not to mention all of the police reports, there are more than four hundred police reports, which span twenty one police departments, in three states as well as the Maine state police and the Florida state police, plus the FBI besides! Most of those police reports are public record, you can go read them for yourself. As far as I know only 3 of them were classified and sealed from public access which means there's still 400+ that can be read. There were newspaper reports of some of the attacks. And even though I don't own a TV so have never seen the tV news reports, I know those exist because there were so many TV station news reporters showing up in my yard with camera crews asking for interviews with me. This case is so damned well documented. It's utterly ridiculous to think there is a single person in Southern Maine who is so self absorbed and so oblivious that they have never heard of this case or any of the events that have happened within it in the last 18 fucking years!
But the worst part is, this my own church, a church I have been a member of for 48 fucking years, that is saying, they never heard of this! What the hell? There were more than 24 people from the Saco and Sanford Wards arrested by the FBI just since 2015, because of their involvement in this case. Several of them are still in prison. These people are really that oblivious that they didn't know I was in the hospital, they didn't know I was in a wheelchair, they didn't know my son was murdered, and they didn't noticed 24 members of their congregation disappeared because they went to prison for their involvement.
Really? Wow do these people really give a shit about their fellow congregation members or what? They not only didn't notice I was missing from meetings for 9 years because I am bedridden now, they also didn't notice 24 other members not in meetings because they are now in prison. Talk about dense numb skulls.
It appears the High Priest is back. You, Paul, have met the High Priest. You met him at WalMart. You met him at McDonalds, where you had a 4 hour long conversation with him. You met him my yard in Old Orchard when you visited a few days after the April 0, 2015 attack, and can I add here that you are the ONLY person since that happened, to ever once stop by and ask how I was doing, it’s you’re the only person I knew before the murder of my family, whom I still talk to. You ARE the only person, who ever showed you actually cared about what was going on.
Not one single member of my family or my church has ever stopped to see how I was doing, has ever asked online how I was doing.
But, since November 2021, Sanford Ward mormons have been showing up, all of them in wild raging infernos, and all of them talking about people and events I know nothing about, so I have no clue what any of them ae talking about, but they act like they think I know who the names they mention are, in particular they are cult-like worshiping someone names Todd Murphy whom I can only assume they have gotten mixed up with my beheaded cousin Tim Murphy of Pine Point district of Scarborough and Old Orchard Beach, somehow.
They showed up near daily from November 21, 2021 until May 17, 2022. They were lead on by two blond girls who looked like twins, and have mega long knee-length hair they kept in pony tails, and a smaller pudgier girl with a mint-green pixie hair cut. I don’t know these girls, they looked to be in their 20s. They are the same girls who spent the entire summer of 2021 harassing the homeless man who was living under the trestle bridge across the street from us. They would show up on bicycles every night around 1AM, chase him up out of the ravine, then chase him up the old back tracks along the dirt road to South Street, up towards your place. They did that every night for about 5 months, until he got hit by a freight train on Nov 19, 2021 at 6:27PM. They started attacking my and my family Nov 21, 2021, I think because they knew I had video footage of them harassing the homeless man and I think too they were pissed that I call the police when they killed him by cornering him at the bridge overpass so he couldn’t get out of the way of the oncoming train. Outside of them nightly harassing the homeless man, and then spending Nov 21, 2021 to May 17, 2002 chanting “Todd Murphy” in my driveway while vandalizing my car and apartment building, I’ve never seen these girls before of since. They seemed to have completely vanished May 17, 2022. Not seen them at all and the vandalism stopped cold turkey that day. I assume the police must have finally caught and arrested them, but the police never said they did, and in the past when someone harassed me, the police would always ask me to go to the station to ID them after the arrest.
In any case, the “Todd Murphy” dipshit bitches stopped harassing us May 17, 2022, and I heard no more of them, until this past month… only it’s not them showing up this time… this time it’s older people, elderly people in their 70s and 80s, members of the Sanford Ward Mormon church across the street from Curtis Lake Church… Curtis Lake Church being the congregation that shows up in my Old Orchard driveway with the “god hates fgs” signs and calling me a transvestite and calling my car gay, and marching around chanting “too gay for the family friendly town of Old Orchard Beach”... several Curtis Lake members have been arrested by the FBI and gone to prison for their involvement in both the April 10, 2015 attack on my family and the headless Marsh girl. However, to date,, the killer has not been found, every one arrested so far has always been weird “cultist-like” gay-haters who are attacking people in the area while chanting “kill or be killed remember Saco Shaws” and then rambling gibbering about heads in ice cream. The people arrested, for 5 different local churches, are all outspoken in radically preaching a doctrine of beheading anyone suspected of being gay, while stating that they are doing so on god’s orders.
That’s why there has been so much difficultly in finding out who killed the marsh girl and my cousin Murphry and my family, because, it looks like it’s not just one person, but rather an entire group of people involved, and so far, all evidence has pointed to those 5 churches: Saco Ward, Sanford Ward, Grace Point, Curtis Lake, and New Life, all in Biddeford, Saco, or Sanford, and all run by just 2 families. One family runs 3, another family runs the other 2.
Anyways, I was just thinking, and I think I figured out why the Sanford Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints members are seemingly so clueless and unaware that I have been crippled and bedridden for nine years and why they were unaware that 24 members of their congregation have gone to prison, arrested by the FBI for being accomplices in the The Ouellette Murder Case aka The Cascade Murders aka The string of beheading on and around Portland Ave, Ross Rd, and Cascade Rd the past twenty years, which included the headless girl I found in the Scarborough Marsh, my cousin Timmy Murphy whom I found headless on the Ross and Cascade Rod crossroads, the beheading of my own foster children… Ben is the common link to all of them.
Ben, as you know, has severe dissociative identity disorder, that was brought on when his brother Willy commit suicide.
Ben has seven different, very distinctive different “people” living in him, that we know of, there could be moe then 7. Etiole is the one most locals are familiar with, though he does not call himself Etiole, Etiole being a name locals dubbed him. However, there is the High Priest, who is the one you, Paul, are personally most familiar with.
I’ve not seen the High Priest since April 10, 2015. Ben WAS there the day of the attack, he was also attacked… the attackers had me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, all on the ground with guns to our heads, while they use a weird looking long pole with a piano wire-like loop on the end, to cu the heads off of everyone else who was there. Me, my mother, one of my brothers, and Ben, were the only ones to walk out of that attack alive. Ben’s favorite daughter Bella was one of the ones beheaded. His mind snapped, because, he recognized one of the attackers as “Rick”... When the attackers arrived, Ben ran up to one of them and said “Rick! What are you doing here?” Ben does have a friend named Rick… I know Rick. Rick is a very violent, vicious spouse abuser. His wife Paula used to come to church been to a pulp every week. Broken arms, broken legs, broken nose, black eyes. It went on for years. She finally divorced him and fled to Utah when he beat and nearly killed their teenage son. Rick has beaten me up, right in the Sanfard Ward church building. He’s a major bully, a huge bigot, and an extreme white power racists. Rick WAS there April 10, 2015… he didn’t have a white pillow case over his head like the rest of them did, but I don’t kow if he was a part of the attack or not, I was too busy trying to fight the bastard who was holding me own with a pistol in my face, to notice what Rick was doing. It was Rick though, his face in unmistakable… he has no face. Elephant man disease, I think you cal it, but you can’t mistake Rick, and he WAS in my yard April 10, 2015 the day my family was murdered, I just don’t know what he was doing there or if he was involved in the attack or not.
The thing is, something snapped in Ben that day. ALL 7 of his multiple personalities vanished, including the High Priest, thankfully. You know how bad the High Preist could get, you met him several times.
Ben left the Mormon church. I don’t know what triggered him more: his favorite daughter Bella being beheaded in front of him or his best friend Rick, seeming to be the one leading the charge ahead of estimated 74 people in white robes and white pillow cases over their heads.
In either case, Ben has developed a server hatred for the Mormon church and refuses to set foot in a Mormon church building… he who was High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward for so many decades.
The thing about the High Priest, was he was everything so far the opposite of who Ben, my husband, actually is.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to be a virgin. Ben in not a virgin. Not even close. He had a prostitute problem back in the 1980s when I met him.
The High Priest Quorum Leader of the Sanford ward boldly proclaims to not be married, yet Ben and I got married on the Old Orchard Beach Pier August 13, 1987, so he’s been married several decades and still is, we don’t live together because he’s terrified of the Bishop finding out he has a wife. Keeping in mind Mormons don’t forbid priests from marrying, however Ben grew up extreme strict Catholic and his brother is the current leader of Opis Dia and he has to keep up appearances of being a Catholic Priest for his brother, from times when he visites from Italy, which happens a few times a year. Ben became a High priest in the Mormon church, but then goes to several local Catholic churches when his brother is in America, so that he can say he’s a High Priest without lying about it, and keeps his brother thinking he’s Catholic High Priest when he’s actually a Mormon High Priest. In other words, Ben lives a very big double life of trying to juggle his priesthood in two religions, hiding it from each other religion, while also maintaining a (very annoyed) wife (me) that he hides from BOTH religions.
Which is WHY, I’m allowed to PUBLICLY be friends with you, because it helps him to keep up the facade of “see, I’m not married, she hangs around with Paul”, which yes, that IS what Ben tells people at church about you.
Yes, Ben is a dick, I am very aware of this.
But, here’s the thing… Ben TELLS ME he is no longer in contact with any Mormons whatsoever, claims he hates, them, claims he shuns them, claims he’s not spoken to any of them since April 10, 2015…. HOWEVER… he was caught in July 2022, giving one of the Sanford Ward Mormons a ride to the store…. And Rick specifically, has been one the phone with him, when I came in the room and he thought I was elsewhere, causing Be to run around in a panic, knock his glasses off, break them by stepping on them, all while Rick was screaming out of the phone, “Ben, ya there? What happened? What’s going on?”
It appears the High Priest is back…. However, I suspected this in November 2021… the High Priest uses specific pontificating phraseology that none of Ben’s other personalities use…. And on november 24, 2021, the same night the Sanfard Ward Mormons were here cutting the wires off our Biddeford apartment building, Ben started talking like the High Priest again. It’s really distinctive. Normal people don’t talk in long winded drawn out droning, monologuing pontifications about Jesus, and of Ben’s 7 known people living inside him, the High Priest is the only ne who does this. Ben was here and witnessed the wire cutting event, he even went out side and talked to the crowd of “Todd Murphy” chanting lunatics to try to talk to them… and,... he said one of them is Todd Murphy’s grandmother from the Sanford Ward. Ben indicated at that point that he knew who Todd Murphy was, but since then, has denied knowing who Todd Murphy is. But, he came in, and told me outright that “I know her from the Sanfard Ward, she’s Todd Murphy’s grandmother”..
Each of the 7 people who live in Ben have no knowledge or memory of the other 6, and when one of the 7 does or says something, none of the other 6 have any memory of doing or saying those things.
It appears that The High Priest knows Todd Murphy, not only that, but also knows the attackers who came here daily from November 21, 2021 to May 17, 2022… and it looks like Ben, in his High Preist version of himself, is the one who told them where I live and is the one who worked them into a frenzy to begin with.
I have video footage of the homeless man who died Nov 19, 2021… a LOT of it. He knew Ben. That was obvious. Me and Ben were walking Main Street every night the summer of 2021 and the homeless man from under the trestle bridge would stop to talk to us a few times a week. And those weren’t just videos, those were Twitch livestreams so everyone watching my channel saw this homeless man stop and talk to Ben… he said he knew us. I did not recognize him, but Ben… I don’t know… Ben acted like he did know the homeless man, but didn’t want me to know it, so he told the homeless man he was mistaken. But people around local are saying that thie homeless man who kept showing up in my videos IS Todd Murphy, they say they saw my videos and it was Todd Murphy in my videos.
I am finding this whole thing very confusing… because NOW… even though I have video footage of Ben talking to the homeless man, Ben now claims, he never saw the homeless man at all and tells me I’m delusional. That's what he said: Ben said: “Your delusional, there was no homeless man” and, yet hundreds of people, many of them local, saw those videos of Ben talking to the homeless man. Which means, the man Ben was when he was walking with mt summer 2021,is NOT the man he is right now… and… either this a new 8th personality Ben has recently developed, or, it’s the High Priest back, but being deliberately sneaky to try to hide the fact that he’s the High Priest… which is odd, because before now, NONE of Ben’s multiple personalities have ever showed any signs of acknowledging any of the others, and the High Priest trying to high he’s the High Priest by trying to act like a different person, indicates the High Priest DOES remember and IS AWARE of the other personalities.
As you are well aware, I HATE the High Priest. I want nothing to do with him. I never would have married Ben if I had ever encountered his High Priest alter ego before marrying him.
June 26, 2016… FBI Agent Andy Drewer asked me to meet him at his Portland office on Middle St. He had… info. And a new primary suspect. Ben, specifically his High Priest alter ego, is the FBI’s #1 suspect in being the inforat, who told the golf club attackers I was at BugLight Lighthouse November 14, 2013. The FBI has phone records. I told only 3 people, where I was going that night: my mother, my father, and Ben. I told them only 5 minutes before I left, because I had been sick earlier and had previously told everyone I was not going to that event at the college. According to the FBI, my parents and step father Wayne Whiyyen, never left Biddeford, they continued to argue all night, and the FBI knows this because my father had hired a private investigator to tail Wayne, and so they have a lot of evidence as to where 2 of the 3 were. Ben on the other hand, called his friend Rick, the same Rick who was in my yard April 10, 2015… Minutes after I left my dad’s Water St apartment and drive to Southern Maine Community College, November 14, 2013… Ben called Rick. Rick drove to Ben’s house. And the two of them together left.
FBI Agent Andy Drewer had one question: “How well do you trust Ben? Because right now, he’s our primary suspect.”
They believe Ben told Rick, I was pregnant with someone else’s baby and Rick is the one who sent the golf club women to deliberately kill my baby.
Why do they believe this?
Because between 1987 and 2013 I have had 7 miscarriages, something that can be proven… Ben ins the only man I’ve ever been with. It’s not possible for anyone else to be the father. This was my 8th pregnancy by Ben and he was at the time running around accusing me of cheating on him with Etiole. The thing is… he IS the one people call Etiole… but his D.I.D. means he things Etiole is someone else, he doesn’t believe its him, because none of his personalities have any memory of each other.
Ben is a total nightmare to live with because I never know from one day to the next, who the hell he is going to be that day.
Ben has denied every pregnancy. Why? His exact words are: “I wouldn’t. I am a High Priest. What would the Bishop think?”
According to the FBI too, Ben, behind my back, runs around from one LDS/Mormon congregation to the next tell people that I am quote: “An unrhightious, unfaithful aunty-Mormon who puts the church down.”
Interestingly, I have been a member of the Mormon church since 1975. Ben joined in the 1980s. Ben left the church in 2015. I am still a member.
My FATHER is an extremist anti-Mormon, who preaches hatred for the Mormon church. Not me. Kenny, my father, is the anti-Mormon. My father, is such a huge radical extremist anti-Mormon that he has gone on to convince my mother, a 5th generation Mormon who is related to one of Smith’s poly-wives, to leave the church. She left the Mormon church in 1994 and joined up with some anti-Mormon group lead by some woman named Tanner or something. My mother, took her anti-Mormonis to extremes far above and beyond my father, taking to FaceBook and a forum called exMormon something and went total psycho nutjob anti-Mormon conspiracy theory all over the internet through the late 1990s into the 200s and still does it to this day now in 2023, preaching her wild anti-Mormon conspiracy theories now 27 years. In 3 years it’ll be her 30th anniversary of her wild mega hyper anti-Mormon rampage, with my father cheering her on and needling her forward the whole way in a weird Bonnie and clyde style vendetta attack everyone who is a Mormon hate fueled bigotry.
I on the other hand, am still a Mormon, have never had anything to do with the anti-Mormon movement, and, was shocked to learn from the FBI, that, the anti-Mormon rumors about me online are massive, and spread largely by members of the Saco and Sanfard Wards, with their info being just misinformation they regurgitate after talking to Ben, my mother, or my father.
Apparently, because I am bedridden and crippled, since 2013, and thus have had no way to get to church these past nine years, this, my absence in church meetings, after 48 years of never once missing a meeting, has allowed my mother, my father, and Benn to be able to spread wild anti-Mormon rumors about me, with the 3 of them going to my church, the Sandford Ward, and telling the church leaders that I’m not in church because I’ve turned anti-Mormon.
And yet, it is Ben who is the biggest anti-Mormon of all… he’s actual friends with that Tanner woman. My parents only run around preaching the Tanner woman’s message, Ben, actually sought her out and became personal friends with her and helps the Tanner woman one on one…. And he brags about this all the time.
I’m sick of hearing all the anti-Mormon Tanner woman bullcrap from Ben and my father and my mother so, whenever any of the three of them start chiding me for being a Mormon and telling me how evil and deceived I am because I refuse to leave the Mormon church, I just put my headphones on and listen to Markiplier YouTube videos and, ignore them.
I don’t hate the Mormon church like Ben, my mother, and my father do, so I am fed up with them constantly bitching at me because I’m a Mormon. Which is why I’ve not spoken to my father in 3 years even though we live in the same apartment, and was a contributing factor to why I blocked my mother on FaceBook in 203 and have had no contact with her at all offline since… though that hasn’t stopped her from showing up, trespassing, and hounding me.
Ben, is far worse then my mother or my father combined… since 2015, he has hand written thousands of anti-Mormon letters to every church leader he can find, local, not local, all the heads in Utah… and he bought a dozen cases, each case with 144 books in it, cases of Ket Kerr’s books and daily mails them out to every member on every rouster list of every ward in the Exiter and Augusta stakes, using his position as High Priest Quorum leader to get the home addresses of every Mormon in Southern Maine and New Hampshire, mailing all of them aunty-Mormon letters and copies of Kat Kerr’s books. Ben, as you know, has more money then he knows what to do with, and right now, he’s spreading thousands of dollars every day, just on the postage stamps to mail Kat Kerr’s books and his anti-Mormon letters to every local Mormon he can find.
And so, I knew he was mailing out the Kat Kerr books… but, until FBI agent Andy Drewer told me, I did not know that Ben and my mother and my father, having been putting MY NAME of the letters they are mailing out to people, and the three of them, through impersonating me, have got my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, 100% convinced that I stopped attending church because I’mm now an anti-Mormon who hates the church, and that’s why my church, the Sanford Ward, and it’s sister church, the Saco Ward, are both unaware that I have NOT left the church, but rather I’m bedridden and crippled and have no one to help me get to church.
And so, now I’m finding out, that Ben, my mother, and my father, working together, according to the FBI, seem to be the fuel that is, and has been for several years, the fuel working locals up into a frenzy… including, they are the ones who are getting the Atwaters riled up, my being an Atwater, and the Atwaters further fueling locals on top of what Ben, my mother, and my father are doing.
What is their motive?
I ask them.
My father says he’s doing it to impress my mother so she’ll remarry him.
My mother says she’s doing it because I need to sell my land and give her the money so she can buy a house in Kennebunk.
Ben says he’s doing it because Mormons are led astray by Satan and he has to save my soul from Hell.
I’m so sick of all of them.
You know, one of the things I find most weird about the Atwaters is that so many of them seem to think I know them, even though I have never met them, nor even know any of their names.
Of the original twelve, I have only ever met five of them. And while I know Danny, I don’t even know the names of his siblings. I met Angelia once when she was twelve, at a Halloween party at the Cape Elizabeth Ward LDS Church, and then I saw her for about 2 minutes before she left. And Danny I only met when I was 37 years old and I only saw him about 10 times, back when my mother was trying to scam him out of his money from being hit by a train… which I didn’t know that was why she was visiting him, until a few years later when she had a big rant about how she wouldn’t visit him any more because he was, in her words “stingy and greedy” because he refused to give her the money to “use as a downpayment for a house in Kennebunk”. I should have known that was why she was visiting him, as that’s the only reason she ever does anything. She’s obsessed with trying to by that $3.7million mansion by the Wedding Cake House, and has been trying to scam relatives out of money for a downpayment on it for decades now… it was her reason for her involvement in the backhoe that her brother Joey hired to drive over my house. She and Joey figured I’d sell my land if there was no house on it. They didn’t exect me to set up a lean to made out of a 8x6 tarp and just spend the next 9 years living under that.
I met Doris once when she was squatting illegally on my land back in 1996. Took me and the Old Orchard Beach Police 9 months to get them out. I only ever saw her one day. She had 4 military tents, the size houses, 2 Winobegos and a Cadillac, that they illegally dumped on top of my corn crops, along with more then 600 bicycles, and 2 school buses full of sawed up copper pipes. Took us 9 months to find out who in the hell was living there and dumping that garbage on m land, and it turned out it was Doris. Only time I ever saw her, was one day, for about 15 minutes.
I remember Micheal, Tonya, and Scotty from before the caged years, but, I was put in the cage hen I was 8 years old, so I’ve not seen then since I was 8.
Once every year, usually on September 19th, David and Lucy would show up with a herd of incredibly violent gun toting vandals who would go through our farm and use shovels to chop the heads off all our pet cats, dogs, hens, ducks, and roosters. They were kill 200 to 500 of our pets every year in this anuel bloodbath on my farm. I don’t know who the hoodlums were. David said they were his kids, but he also said he had 15 kids and there were WAY more then 15 people involved in the annual Sptember 19 boodbaths… way more, closer to 100. Brucie said once that it was not JUST Davivd’s kids, but also a group known as The Halls. I don’t know who any of them were, but the police showed up every time, trying to get them out, and they always had huge shootouts with the police every year. It’s why I have a massive phobia of guns. A bunch of them were arrested in 1982, when that time the state police drg team showed up and arrested them and confincasted meth, marhawana, opium, and LSD
I know Dickie, Brucie, David, and Barbara because they were the ones that helped my mother build that room, that they locked me in when I was 8 years old, right after my Grammy Hellen Ricker’s funeral. They kept me in there for 27 years. One of the 4 of them would show up every 12 days to throw rotted molded food in the cracks between the boards. They are the only 4 Atwaters I know, and I only know them from their weekly coming into the room to beat me up, torture me. They are the five who raised me and said I was not Human, said I was a Demon and that I wasn’t allowed out of that room because Demons weren’t allowed to have contact with Humans.
I was 12 years old when the High Priest found out about that room, and he took me out every Sunday to go to church, and then took me back to that room after.
No one ever told me I was a Human and was allowed to go outside or talk to Humans until the social workers showed up when I was 31 years old. They are the ones who started using the term “feral child” to describe me and they to this day are still trying to “integrate me into Human culture” but two of them say they have given up on trying to convince me I am Human, they say there is little chance of my mind ever fully grasping the concept of being human because it’s too difficult to undo the three decades of Brucie, David, Dickie, Barbara, and my mother doing their “child social experiment” (as the social workers call it) to raise me to believe I was not human. They said the bigger problem is the fact that almost immediately after I was rescued out of that room/cage they kept me locked in for 27 years, the 2006 bomb blew up my house, which the FBI says it was Barbara’s husband Paul Martel who did that, but I don’t know why, as I never met him or even knew about him prior to the FBI arresting him, and the backhoe arrived to drive over my house 5 different times over the next 10 years, same back hoe, same yard, different house each time, as I kept rebuilding houses. Then I found that headless girl in the marsh with all the headless dogs and the FBI thinks one of the Atwaters did it seeing how the headless dogs were lined up in a row from my land to the march, each dog about 500 feet apart (for some reason the Saco and Sanford ward church members forget my land in Old Orchard abuts the Scarborough Marsh and is right on the edge of OOB bordering Pine Point in Scarborough. And that the dead girl in the Scarborough marsh was literally only a few hundred feet away from my driveway… they keep asking why I am obsessed with the Oulette Case, but they forget I’m the one who found the dead girl in the Marsh and that she was set up in a friging ritual pose, practically on my front lawn AND the FBI thinks the whole thing was done in some weird attempt by the Atwaters to frame me, so that I would go to prison for murder and they culd take my land… which it’s always my land and the Atwater obsession with taking it that is at the core of everything)
But in any case, the social workers say that because these events were my very first interactions with Humans, that it instilled in me an psychosis effect of further belief in not being human because I had trouble accepting the fact that I am the same type of creature as the monsters humans are, because, yeah, all I’ve ever seen from humans is death, bloodshed, violence and distruction. I have no reason to WANT to be integrated into a society that leaves headless dogs and headless girls in my front yard.
But then 2013, came along…. Social workers got me into college in 2010, in an attempt to show me that ONLY the Atwaters were shitty bloodthirsty bastards and that MOST humans don’t drop dead headless animals all over their houses and yards the way the Atwares do. And they were right. Humans in college were nothing like the Atwaters and their drug dealing, petty thieve, ganster thugs. The social workers and police keep telling me that this sort of behavior is not normal and that it is ONLY something the Atwaters and their friends do, that normal humans don’t act, do, or say the things the Atwaters do.
But then, I’m constantly running into people who make the claim to “know all about” me and they will spout off this weird freaked out stuff about witchcraft and curses and spelcasting and aliens and ufos and, I’m left totally clueless because I don’t know a single thing at all about witchcraft or curses or spellcasting or aliens or ufo, and I can’t figure out why these people think I have the faintest idea what the fuck they are even talking about.
They’ll say they thought I was some expert in casting curses and say they want to hire me to cast curses on people, and they act like spell casting is some sort of job I do. I don’t know heads or tails about spell casting.
They’ll say, “But your the sea witch of Old Orchard Beach”... yeah, people have been calling me that ever since Stephen King filmed Thinner on my land back in the early 1990s, but, I’ve never read a Stephen King book or seen a Stephen King movie, not even Thinner, so, I haven’t got a clue what is in his books and movies. All I know is he based some “Gypsy witch” in Thinner off me, because I’m the “Queen” (aka Priestess) of a local Gypsy clan. A Gypsy Queen is similar to a Catholic Nun in the Folk Catholicism of Mexico and has nothing to do with witches, witchcraft, spells, or curses, so I don’t know what the fuck Stephen King did in the Thinner movie to make people think I’m some kind of spell casting witch, but, people seem to have trouble understanding that the Thinner movie is FICTIONAL. I’m not a witch and I don’t know the first thing about witches or witchcraft. I haven’t got a clue how to cast spells or curses. And I can’t figure out why so many total random strangers think they can walk up to me at WalMart or Rotary Park or the library and demand I cast some curse on someone for them.
But, when these people do this, and it happens EVERY SINGLE TIME I go outside, which I have agoraphobia, so it’s sometimes weeks or months between my setting foot outside, every single time I go out, some one always identifies me as a witch and watches a curse cast.
At the same time I’ve got these UFO nuts constantly coming up to me asking me this or that about some weird ass alien ufo idea, and I never have a clue what they are talking about, They use all sorts of weird ass words and phrases that I’ve never heard before and gibber on like another language which I can’t understand… but then they act all surprised that I don’t know the meanings of the words they are using, and they’ll say: “But I thought you were supposed to be a top expert on UFOs and alien abductions” and I’m like what the hell are they even talking about and how the hell would anyone in their right mind come to think that I would believe in ufos or aliens, when I think people who believe in ufos and aliens are raving lunatics, my uncle Brucie being a perfect example of a raving lunatic who believes in aliens and ufos.
I don’t get it.
But then, every time this happened, and it just happened again today, because, as you know I’ve not received any mail since May 2022 and I went to the post office yet again today to once again ask where the hell is my mail… and low and behold, I can’t set foot outside without some alien believing, curse believing freak ass weirdo nutjob showing up to ask me to put a curse on someone while gibbering about ufos.
I ask him, where the hell did he get the ludacris idea that I was a witch, that I cast curses, or that I believed in aliens, nd he said: “Well, your mother says on FaceBook…” yeah, my mother is a freaking nut, which is why I’ve had nothing to do with her in decades. She’s a white power freak who runs around calling black people the n-word, is part of the anti-vaccer micro-chip in vaccines conpreracy theory, wouldn’t let me or my brothers go to school because in her words “the government controls the schools, and satan controls the government”, SHE spends 90% of her time running around putting curses on people, all she does is talk about whores and demons, demons and whores, every other word out of her mouth is either demon or whore. And the only time she ever shows up its because she’s trying to pul yet another lame ass scam to try to steal my land because she hated my grandmother and says it’s her life duty to destroy everything that”ever bolgned to that old bitch of a whore” including the farm I inherted from gramy Helen. My mother is spiteful, violent, vindictive, and has a police record for running around beating people in the face with bricks. On top of all of that she’s chronic liar and I’ve never heard a truthful word come out of her mouth.
I am well aware that my mother is the source of 90% of the problem, simply because she’s the biggest fucking gossip in Southern Maine, after he sister Barbara, and the two of them are rather famous all over Maine for thei trouble they have caused HUNDREDS of families. They are petty Karens who devote every minute of their lives to making up vicsious rumors and lies about every person they see, both people they know and people they don’t know.
And thanks to the FBI investigation into the murder of my on, I’ve found out a LOT about both my mother and Barbara and the bizarre, outlandish extremes they each have gone to in their petty vindictivness.
But the fact remains, I’ve not had contact with either of those bitches in several decades, precisely because I am sick and tired of their endless hate for everything and everyone around them. They both do nothing but gossip and lie, lie and gossip, and run around like a couple of teenage brats making a game out of seeing who they can hurt next … they fucking brag about it and spend hours laughing over how fun it is to destroy families.
It doesn’t take any level of intelligence to see that the dynamic trio (Barbara, Brucie, and my mother) are the source of every damn rumor about everyone in York County, Maine.
It’s such a big problem that I’ve had people come to my apartment and ask me if I could ask my mother and her siblings to leave their family alone. The fucking Biddeford Police have stopped by my apartment to ask me if I could do anything about my mother, that’s how I found out it was HER who knows Todd Murphey, because the police came right out and told me that my mother has been harassing Todd Murphey’s ex-wife and 15 year old son on their FaceBook accounts and wanted to know if I could ask her to stop.
No. I can’t. And you know why? Because when I asked her to stop spreading witchcraft and curse casting rumors about me, she arrived the next day and cut my car in half! The 1964 Dodge 330… she said it had a demon in it and she had to kill the demon by killing the car. What the fuck? She’s fucking insane!
And worse… half the time, these people will tell me some name I never heard of. Say this or that person told them I was a witch who cast curses or was some alien expert, and I’ll ask them who the hell is that, and they’ll say: “Oh that’s one of Brucie’s kids” or “David’s kids” or a grandkid… and I’ll point ou that I’ve NEVER EVEN MET Brucie's kids or Davids kids or ANY of the rest of the Atwares.
There are more then four hundred Atwaters, and I’ve meet EXACTLY SEVEN of them in my life time. I don’t even know the names of all the original twelve, let alone the names of their kids or grandkids… why would I? Most of them live in Utah and I’ve not set foot outside of Maine for nearly SIXTY YEARS!
I’ve never in my entire life even talked with an Atwter, not face to face off line, not online.
Because I’ve never even seen pictures of any of the Atwaters, I wouldn’t even know an Atwater if I saw one!
And yet, they run around spouting off things I supposedly said or did, and make the claim I’ve talked to them… and I’m just left wondering who the fuck is running around talking to the Atwaters while pretending to be me, because I don’t even know who the Atwaters are!
Clearly, there is someone out there pretending to be me and the Atwaters think they are talking to me, but they are NOT talking to me, I’m not talking to them, and I want to know in the the fuck is running around pretending to be me?
Its so damned fucking obvious the Atwaters don’t know one iota about me, just by the level of the ludicrous witchcraft, curse, alien, and ufo lies they spread around about me!
I should be able to go to my post office, go shopping, heck just walk down my driveway to get my mail, without being bombarded with stupid ass freaks gibbering about witches, curses, demons, aliens, and ufos! I am so damned sick of my mother and her fucking Atwater relatives…
You know, another thing that’s fucked up about all this and again is my mother running around lying her ass off to hell and back, yet again… is this whole situation with HER cats.
The attack on my family, happened the same day as the whole thing with her cats, and she is so obsessed with the cats, that she has gone out of her way to run around telling people that when I talk about April 10, 2025, I’m talking about HER cats… but, in order to further promote that lie, she also tells people they were MY cats! What the fuck?
You know that Nick guy my mother sleeps around with? The one she broke up his marriage, convinced him to leave his wife and kids down in Mass and move up here to Maine, because she was scamming him… the guy she stole his credit card and went and bought that shed she put on my land, and bought those $2k dogs with, and bought those appliances with, and bought that tractor with, before that Nick guy found out she stole his credit cards? Him.
Did you know, she convinced him that she owned MY land in Old Orchard Beach, and she tried to get him to join her scam, and pretend he was a real estate agent, and my mother and her pimp Nick tried to sell my land last year… and this is not the first time she’s done this.
Did you know, that in 2007, she went to the town hall, pretending to be me, had them divide my land into sections, and then sold one section? That’s why Don Cooliard and his sister have a house in my driveway now… something they built in 2019… and it was when they built the house in 2019, that was when I found out my shit face mother and her jackass whore master Nick, sliced off a peice of my land in 2007 and sold it!
I had no idea they had done it!
That’s the kind of shit faced scum bag scam artist my mother and her fuck buddy Nick are!
But it gets worse.
My mother had 83 cats… eighty three cats.
And she was hiding 113 of them in an apartment owned by this Nick scammer. He found out she had cats in her apartment… guess what day… April 14, 2015. The day before the attack on my farm.
Here’s a thing… did you know there were no locks on the doors of my motorhome? Not one. I bought it February 21, 2012, and first thing I did was took all the locks off, because I have a PTSD phobia of locks, after my mother kept me locked in the room cage thing for 27 years.
And yet… when the vandals showed up with a Blow Brothers sewage truck to fill my motorhome with 500 gallon of raw feces, they had to pry a padlock off the door to get inside. A padlock, that I did not put there.
Do you know how that padlock got there? My mother put it there the night before, when she took HER thirteen cats, and shoved them in my motorhome, without telling me she was doing it… because she had to hide them from Nick.
People often ask, why, I a professional artist whom has had displayed at the Portland Museum of art… don't paint anymore.
It’s because paint supplied are expensive, and 500 gallons of raw human feces not only did $10k in damages to my bedroom, it also destroyed $30k in art materials.
But it gets worse… my mother was two timing Nick with both my father Kenny and her other ex husband Wayne… and on top of that, she was mad at Wayne, so, it turns out, that 7 of those cats were HIS cats, and she had stolen them from HIM…. so not only was she hiding thirteen cats from Nick, but seven of those cats were stolen cats besides!
She put the cats in my motorhome, them, because she is fueding with ALL her whore master fuck buddy men, one of them, the FBI hasn’t figured out which one yet, filled my motorhome with feces out of a Blow Brother’s sewage truck (my cousin Ken Blow is my neighbour, they stole one of his trucks to do it) , and then called the police and told them that the motorhome was HERS, because my mother had been running around telling everybody it was hers, she these guys thought they were pumping sewage into my mother’s bedroom and didn’t know they were pumping sewage into my bedroom.
But, because they DID know that she had put the cats in there, and they were made at both her and Wayne, they thought if they called the police, the police would arrest her and Wayne…
,...however, the gays haters of the local Mormon churches ALSO showed up that same morning, a completely separate incident from the cats, to attack my family, because, earlier that year, I had published a gay Romance novel, called Night of the Screaming Unicorn, and these gay hating church freaks, decided murdering my family was punishment for me publishing a Gay Romance novel.
A fucking five towns worth of police, including a SWAT team showed up… the white robed klan pretenders fled, thep police found the cats, I was left asking “What cats? What are you even talking about?” Later an officer asked me if I knew the cats, and I said, “Yeah, these ones belong to my step father Wayne up in Biddeford and those ones belong to my on the other side of Bideford, how the hell did they get in my motorhome?”
And the court cases people talk about… there where SEVEN different court cases going on all at once, including the Guy Gamon murder trail because he murdered my dog walker who walked my dog when I was sick, which was the big case, that uncovered he was a serial rapist, and went on for several years and included a jury trial.
The murder trail of my family was also going on. Different court case.
And then, my MOTHER had a court case going on with police over the cats, which, in the middle of that, she spun it around, started telling people the cats were mine, and the next thing I knew, there were TWO MORE court cases slapped on me, that I knew nothing about… both an extension of the cat case my mother had going on, because 2 weeks into HER court case about HER cats that SHE hid from Nick in MY motorhome, she had Nick convince the police to switch the case out of her name into my name, because she had convinced Nick that the cats were mine! So all of a sudden, I get this weird court case about HER cats slapped on me, on top of the three murder cases and rape case, that were already going on.
The cat court case lasted less then an hour before the judge threw it out of court, telling some Dan guy that if he ever tried to pull a stunt like this again (apparently he worked for the Old Orchard Beach town hall and had pulled scam court cases to frame disabled women before, because the judge told the Dan guy that this was the 64th bogus case he had done to try to steal land from disabled women in OOB)...... but… the judge was asking me about the cats, and I keep telling him, I don’t know anything about the cats because they were not my cats, they were my mother’s cats, and I still had no clue how they had even gotten in my motorhome in Old Orchard Beach, 14 miles away from Nick’s apartment in Biddeford where they had been for several years before that. Finally the judge asked if someone could get my mother to the court house, and surprisingly she showed up… with Nick of all people… and she boo-hooed to the court about the cats being mine, and my being homeless and living under a tarp (I was still living under the tarp in 2015, but not at the time of the attack… I had just moved in with my dad in Biddeford March 31, 2015 due to I have just come out of intensive surgery and the doctor wanted me to not be sleeping outdoors for the next 6 months because I had intensive amounts of surgery to heal from, so I wasn’t in Old Orchard the day my mother put HER cats in my motorhome and that’s why I had no clue the cats were in there).
Well, the judge got mad at my mother, because it was blatantly obvious to him that the cats were hers, because she was using all the cats’ names, while I didn’t know the cats’ names, and she was describing what they looked like and what breeds and ages they were, while I didn’t know what half the cats looked like, Three of the cats I had never even seen before, and I didn’t know their names. I didn’t know how many cats there were!
The judge outright told my mother to her face that she ought to be ashamed of what she did, framing me and pretending the cats were mine, and he sent the cats to the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter, something we knew right there in the court room, but in order to get pity, and money (my mother started a fund raiser on one of those kickstarter type places) saying she needed to raise money to locate the cats. What the fuck? We knew where the cats were. They were at the West Kennebunk Animal Shelter… she even went there to try to get them back… asked me to drive her there in my car, took Wayne with her because the cats were technically HIS cats that she stole from him… I have the whole thing on video camera, it was livestreamed… she had a big fucking fight with the people at the shelter and they told her they’s arrest her if she ever tried to get near their shelter again.
After that, she built up this weird ass conspiracy that the cats were sent to lots of shelters and foster care… which they probably were., I don’t know… and she went from one animal shelter to the next harassing them.
Meanwhile, her friend Joel Baily hacks my Twitter account and uses it to harass, yet another of my mother’s whore master men that she sluts around with trying to get money out of… some guy named Mark, who I never heard of before, but apparently, he’s been friends with my mother AND my father for some forty odd years, even though I myself had never seen or heard of him before. And yes, the same Joel Bailey from the Saco Ward and Old Orchard Beach town hall who went to prison for hacking the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall bank account and transferring $30MILLION in OOB tax money to members of the Saco Ward church… who it turns out, most of them were the anti-gay attackers in my yard April 10, 2015, which is why 24 members of that church went to prison between 2016 and 2021.
So, I’m still unable to do anything because, you know, still recovering from major spine surgery, because of the golf club attack that murdered my son in 2013, three years earlier, I didn;t have surgery until 2015 and 2016., because of the fucking red tape the USA medical system runs on… here I am, not online at all since November 14, 2013, so I have not yet told anyone about any of the April 10, 2015, and come January 2016, all of a sudden, there’s the Mark guy who crawls out of the woodwork, with yet another court case, this one claiming I was saying stuff on Twittrer about him… and yet, I had never heard of this guy before AND I hadn’t been online since November 14, 2013, so what the fuck? Who the hell is hacking my Twitter account pretending to be me, while harassing this guy I never even heard of before. But by this point FBI Agent Andy Drwer had taken over the whole case, and by June 2016, he found out, yeah,:” it’s your mother’s friends from the Saco Ward church. She’s convinced them the cats were yours and that you need to be punished for animal abuse, that you didn’t even do, by hacking your accounts and framing you” Great. So yet again, my mother and her cat obsession and her Atwater friends, and her Saco ward friends, and her fcck buddies are at the core of all of this, with them once again, putting my name on something I fucking had no part of and didn’t even know anything about! What the fuck!
This court case was ALL livestreamed, you can go watch it on YouTube. The Cat Court case was also live streamed. You can watch that on YouTube too. The murder court cases and the rape court cases, also livestreamed. You can watch them on YouTube too. And then on top of that, was the Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach Court case with the Old Orchard Bach Town Hall… also livestreamed, you can watch that on YouTube as well.
My mother, Nick. all these Saco Ward church people, the Dan guy, the Mark guy, the Gene guy… they are ALL on livestream… the judges, the police officers, the witnesses, the DA, even the FBI agents… all recorded, all livestreamed on Twich, all archived on YouTube, all SEVEN court cases, every day of every trial. You can go watch them all yoursel and see the truth, instead of listening to siller gossip and rumors started by my mother and her Nick buddy trying to cover their asses for trying to steal my land YET AGAIN, via the cats.
But have you ever noticed it is ONLY my mother and Nick talking about the cats in connection to April 10, 2015… do you notice how I never talk about the cats, because… oh look… they were NOT my cats, they were my MOTHER’S cats and that’s why SHE is talking about them?
Did you also notice how, in order to make people believe the cats were mine, that both my mother and Nick, are going out of their way to try to erase the existence of my family that was murdered that same day?
Did you notice how in order to push THEIR cat agenda, my mother and Nick are are doing a major gaslighting move to try to make everyone FORGET what happened two years earlier on November 14, 2013, the day my son was murdered and my spine was broken?
Did you notice how my mother and Nick are trying to use THEIR cats as a slight of hand move, so people wouldn’t see that they DID steal and sell part of my land to Don Colliard in 2007 nd that they tried to sell another section of my land in March 2015… yes, yet another court case which was going on, BEFORE the cats happened, and that the FBI believes my mother and Nick pulled the cat stunt deliberately to try to make people look the other way and forget that she and Nick tried to steal my land only 2 weeks prior to the cat event? Or that she and Nick tried for a THIRD time to steal and sell my land April 2022…
Know the truth.
Those cats were not mine, they never were, and I’m sick and tired of the jack ass fucking animal abuse rumors and lies my mother and Nick are spreading about me… lies that they are spreading ONLY to try to cover up the fact that they were trying to steal my land, to sell my land, so my mother could by some fucking mansion in Kennebunk.
Well guess what… my son is buried on my land, He’s been buried there since November 2013, and it doesn’t matter that there is no house on my land, because my son’s there and I’m never selling it. And my mother and he Nick and Saco Ward and Atwater friends are bunch of fucking scum bags who don’t give a shit about anything but the damned fucking money they think they can get out of my land.
So, we have confirmation that yes, our mail IS being stolen from 146 Portland Ave. As you already know, we have not received mail since May 2022 and it is now March 2023, it's nearly a year. Post office has just been saying "we are short drivers" and has not looked into it... so we went over the heads of the local Old Orchard Beach post office and went to the distribution center, and told the state post master what was going on, they got in touch with our delivery driver, and he has delivered our mail every day, all year, and is baffled because the post office had not alerted him that we were not getting our mail. So, YES, if you live on Portland Ave, in Old Orchard Beach, and have not been receiving mail, and I know most of my neighbors are saying they've not gotten mail in weeks to months, as well, go to the Saco distribution center in the industrial park, and complain there, because tour driver IS delivering daily and has not been missing delivers... all missing mail from Portland Ave is stolen and you need to let them know what mail you have not received to they can get to the bottom of finding who is doing it.
So, while I was at the post office today, seeing how the post office is on the Cascade Road, out here in the Old Orchard Beach section of the Scarbourgh Marsh... I decided to check the family cross, see if the name Todd had been added, seeing how the vandals and shitard harassers can't stop gibbering Todd Murphey this and Todd Murphey that in my driveway, and nope... here it is, https://www.eelkat.com/images/cross.jpg as you can see the only two names are my cousin Timmy Murphy and my uncle Gordon Murphy. No Todd.
You know, I would recommend these shittards take their heads out of their asses, and drive through all the roads of the Scarbourough Marsh. Why?
This cross is one of the more then a hundred crosses in the marsh, which marks the locations of the one hundred and twenty people whom have been beheaded in a four mile radius since June 2001. This cross stand at the Ross Road x Cascade Rd intersection. The Cascade Road, as everyone who watches the local news is aware, is where bulk of the serial killer's attacks have occurred, which is why local news reporters have dubbed the entire case as "The Cascade Murders", officially know to law enforcement as "The Oulette Case".
If you start driving through all the side streets of the Scarbourgh Marsh, you will find there are 120 - one hundred and twenty - of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them, each marking the location where the the person dubbed by locals as "The Portland Ave serial killer" has murdered 120+ people between June 2001 and February 2021.
For some odd reason, the Sanford Ward LDS church, a church only a 30 minute drive awa from the Scarborough Marsh, is so clueless about the local biome, that they seem to think the ONLY place the Scarborough Marsh exists is across the street from the church owned candy store Len Libby's Chocolates.
Do you recall how people like to dub my land "Etiole's Swamp"... do you know why they do that? Because my land is a literal swamp. It's a peat bog, with more sinking quicksand and 6 foot tall marsh grass, then solid ground. I live IN the Scarbough Marsh, as does EVERYONE on Portland Ave, Ross Road, Pine Point Road, Cascade Road, Walnut Street, East Grand Ave, West Grand Ave, Milliken Mills Rd, and more then 200 - two hundred - other streets in Old Orchard Beach, all of which are located inside the Scarborough Marsh.
The Marsh is not JUST in Scarborough, nor is it just that one quart mile stretch of road across from Len Libby's. The Marsh sits in two countries and five towns, and covers several thousand acres of land... and the Scarborough WalMart and the South Portland Main Mall, both site in the marsh, with both of those mega buildings building on a massive system of concrete pilings to keep them from sinking into the many acres of peat bog that site under each of those buildings.
But do take a drive on the above listed streets in Old Orchard, as well as the following ones in Pine Point: Pine Point Rd, Blue Point Rd, Black Point Rd, Dunstan Corner, Portland Rd aka Rt 1, Payne Rd, and all the little side streets off of each one. In Saco head to Heath St, Jenkins Rd, Flag Pond Rd (stop and see the very real pet cemetery where Stephen King's The Pet Cemetery movie was filmed while you are there), and all their side streets, yes those are in the Scarbourogh Marsh as well... and instead of just blindly driving through the Marsh on your way to work, slow down and start counting the crosses... big white crosses, little white crosses, unpainted wooden crosses, reflector covered orange crosses... see if you can find all one hundred and twenty crosses in the Scarbourogh Marsh... they sit in 5 towns, in 2 counties... and every one of them marks the location of someone who was beheaded by a still uncaught, still actively killing people, serial killer who has plagued the streets in the Portland Ave region of the Scarbough Marsh since June 2001.
But as you can see, it's Timmy Murphy who was beheaded on the Cascade Rd... not Todd Murphy... there's it's cross which has stood there since June 2013.
You know, if these harassers spent more time paying attention to what is going on around them, and less time being self absorbed jerks... they'd know these crosses were here... they'd know, Old Orchard Beach has a serial killer on the lose who has beheaded more then 120 people and left their bodies at cross road intersections all over the marsh... they'd know that this has been going on for 18 years now, and they'd know that my family had been hit by this madman multiple times now, fist killing my cousin Timmy Murphy, then killing my baby and leaving me not only crippled, but also one of only 5 people to live through and survive one of this serial killer's attacks, thus WHY the FBI is so hyper focused on not letting me out of their sight because this killer has a history of not leaving people alive... they'd know that SEVENTEEN families all within a quarter mile section of Portland Ave, between Walnut St and Milekin Miles Rd, 17 families in this space of street, have not only have their families murdered, but their houses bulldozed by a backhoe, and in just those 17 families, in addiction to the dead people, there are also more then FIVE HUNDRED dead pets, including cats, dogs, birds, and horses, every one of which was beheaded and the headless pet hung from rope nooses and draped in trees and porches of the 17 families... something the FBI says is a scene from a Stephen King book, which the serial killer likes to recreate... and then the FBI points out this: each of those 17 families has appeared in The Thinner movie... it's the one common thread for ALL 120+ Scarbourough Marsh killings: every sing victim has somehow been involved in the filming on one of the 14 Stephen King movies which was filmed in Saco, Old Orchard Beach, and Scarboughor back in the 1980s. According to the FBI, EVERY SINGLE ONE of these murders, animal killings, harassments, vandalisms, and hate crimes, can be found in a Stephen King book and this lunatic is recreating "art" in tribute to Stephen King, using the bodies of family members who were involved in the filming of Stephen King's oldest movies.
If these people in the Sanford Ward church would take their heads out of Joesph Smith's ass long enough to look around, they would have known these things were going on, that they were going on to people in their congregation, that several members of their congregation have stopped attended church because they were murdered, that several other members of their congregation no longer attend because like me they are crippled and bed ridden from these attacks, and that 24 members of their congregation no longer attend church because they are in prison for their connections and involvements in these murders.
Heck, these murders have been all over the TV and paper news for 18 years now... you'd think the people of the Saco and Sanford Ward LDS churches - who are the ones in my driveway bitch screaming about Todd Murphey for the past 2 years now - would at least have seen enough TV news or newspaper news... oh look, did you know one of the big name newscasters on TV, someone who has in fact covered the Scarbough Marsh case on TV several times now, is a member of the Sanfard Ward congregation, and even SHE knows what's going on, obviously because she's one of the reporters who keeps showing up to interview all us families who live in in the Scarborough Marsh... so I know not everyone in the Sandford Ward is clueless as to what has been going on in the community round them.... several of these church members are outright screaming, literally screaming from my neighbor's front porch in Biddeford, that they never heard of any of this before... I'm sorry... what the fuck?
The Scarbourough Marsh murders is quite literally the biggest unsolved murder case in all of New England, not just Maine, it's been covered by DateLine, 20/20 and half the crime network tv shows! The fucking planet has heard of it! These people are telling me, literally, while standing on my neighbors front porch and shrieking at the tops of their lungs, that they never heard of this murder case, a murder case I've not stopped talking about for the last 9 years because as of 9 years ago now members of my family have been murdered.. heck, with so many deaths now, it's pretty hard to find any family in the Scarbourough Marsh who DOESN'T have a dead relative killed by this nutjob... and these people, who vandalized our apartment building so bad that the landlord has a repair crew here all of this next upcoming summer... these vandals and hate fueled harassers from the Sandford Ward church, are telling me, that they had no clue any of this was going on?
And worse... y Atwater relatives... they keep showing up and ALSO saying they never heard of this... really? How? I know the FBI has been talking to them about it because they keep showing up in a rage yelling that the FBI was just at their house and it's all my fault and demanding I stop sending the FBI to their house... but I didn't send the FBI to their house, heck, I didn't even know they were related to me, as I never heard of them before they showed up to yell at me, so how the hell do they think I sent the FBI over there? What the fuck?
But also... what the fuck? Family members have been murdered and as far as I know, the FBI is trying to locate every relative to find out if they might have any information about a member of their family being murdered... I mean, if these people really are relatives, like they scream that they are when they are in my yard yelling at me, then, someone in my family being murdered IS ALSO someone in THEIR family being murdered.... and yeah, of course the law enforcement is going to go to every family member and ask for info, that's what law enforcement does, because, they just naturally assume that normal families help each other and WANT to solv a murder that happened in their family.
Which is something FBI Agent Andy Drewer pointed out to me, he said: "The Atware relatives of yours... they're pretty paranoid aren't they? I'm having trouble getting any of them to talk to me. Most slam the door in my face the minute I say I'm with the FBI. They act like they got something to hide. Looks mighty suspicious. Can you think of any reason why any of your uncles might want you dead?" That was the same day he pointed out that his five top suspects for the November 14, 2013 attack were my uncle Bruce, my aunt Barbara, my mother, my father, and Ben. He said he can prove they all knew about the golf club attack, and yet everyone of them is openingly, publicly denying any knowledge of it, and all five of them are doing their most public outspoken, over the top denying it in two places: The Saco Ward LDS Church and the Sandford Ward LDS Church.
And most disturbing of all is this: He says my father was having an affair with a woman named Claire back in the 1970s, and that my father and my mother and Claire and Claire's husband have been feuding since the late 1970s, a fued which goes on to this day... and... that on ALL of my mother's social media accounts, FaceBook, Twitter, Pinterest, everything, are two usernames that show up in her friends' lists: both with the same last name, one using the username Claire while posting a 4 door white truck as her user photo, and the other... wait for it... has the user name: KendraSilvermander".
The FBI has found an actual person, a relative, in law of the Atwaters, who goes by the username KendraSilvermander.
Why is this significant?
The people who murdered my son at BugLight Light house art studio at Southern Maine Community College on November 14, 2013, was a blond woman whom the other two called "Claire", a red haired woman who was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine! I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!..." like she was singing a song... both women looked to be in their 60s, and today a decade later, would now be in their mid-70ish, and were with a large bald man, about 30th, today would be about 40ish, and the 3 of them left in a 4 door white pickup truck.
The odd thing is, people don't talk about themselves in 3rd person limited, but, that's what the red haired woman was doing.... and I've seen her before... she showed up at Westbrook Panera 3 different occasions in 2009 and 2010 and in each of those instances also did the same marching goosestep around, back then carrying a white poodle wearing a purple dragon coat... while again saying "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" while also bragging that her father owned Saco FunTownSplashtown USA and having a psychotic meltdown screaming" My chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, my chair, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIR!" Annalese, the woman sitting next to me, another published author, as thi was a NaNoWriMo writer's meeting, who was the NaNoWriMo Ml of Souther Maine, leaned over and whispered to me "That's Kendra Silvermander, she thinks she's he ML, we try to humor her. She can get rather violent if you don't."
Whoever this red haired woman is, she has a server, mega in need of medical care, mental disorder, appears to be incapable of functioning beyond the mental level of a two year old, and is quite proud of repeating her name as fast as an auctioneer. But, she speaks in 3rd person limited about herself, using us and ours and we to refer to herself, and uses the phrase: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" as though it was a period at the end of every sentence. I don't know what sort of a mental disorder she has, but Annelese was right, this woman gets over the top violent, as we quickly saw at Westbrook Panera in 2009, when she started slamming her dog on the table while chanting "My chair", and then quickly lashed out at me, in a mega violent rage of throwing chairs. The restaurant had to drag her out and make her leave.
She repeated this at three different writer's meetings at the Westbrook Panera in 2009 and 2010.
She is the same woman who was ordering/leading/demanding the blond Claire woman's golf club attack at Southern Maine Community college November 14, 2013, murdering my baby and crippling me.
She returned for a 5th attack June 26, 2016, again with the bond Claire woman, this time at Scarborough WalMart, and this time attacking with a shopping cart, this being the attack that caused the inoperable 3 broken vertebrae and the organ and nerve damage which caused my current crippled stat. In this attack, yet again the red haired woman was chanting: "I'm Kendra Silvermander It's my turn to shine, my turn to shine, my turn to shine!" but this time the blond woman was shrieking: "That's EelKat, she tried to kill my husband. That thing is Ken's son, look at how IT's dressed! Kill or be killed! Remember Saco Shaws! No more heads in ice cream! End the gaypocalypse! Kill the transvestite freak! Too Gay for the Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach!" This time instead of driving away in a 4 door white truck driven by a bald man, this time he two women were alone and drove away in a gold Volvo late 1990s vintage suv station wagon.
The usernames now showing up on my mother's social media, and the Atwater relative's social media is significant, because, according the these FBI agents.... those are the exact same Atwaters who are REFUSING to talk to the FBI, slamming the doors in the FBI agents faces, and also, are the most vocal on social media in spreading the alien/UFO/witchcraft/cat rumors about me. And the FBI believes they not only know who the golf club murderer is, they likely were involved in planning the November 14, 2013 attack... and every one of them has been seen with the Sanford Ward LDS Church members who are likewise the biggest defamatory gossipers, running around slandering my name with their lies about witchcraft/curses/aliens/ufos/and cats.
AND... on top of that... they ae the EXACT SAME Atwaters ans Sandford Ward church members whom have spent the last two years bombarding my Biddeford apartment with these same rumors while the vandalize the building, which the landlord now has to spend the summer repairing.
AND... these are the same people who are also claiming, they had no clue these murders were going on in the Scarborough Marsh.
Overall... these people who are denying the events of the Scarborough Marsh murders, while simaltaniously going overboard gibbering lies about me online, are really working overtime at making themselves look like they were involved in the November 14, 2013 murder of my son, and making themselves look tremendously guilty of not only knowing who the killier is, but trying to cover up for the killer, and attempting to gaslight me with their weird alien rumors, in an attempt to make people not see their connection to the killer, that they are trying so very blatently to hide and are only succeeding and shining a mega sized spotlight of suspision on themselves, leaving everyone who is watching them doing it to ask: What the fuck did they do, that they are trying to hide so damned bad, that they are going mega big time slanderfeat screaming about aliens and ufos all over social media, trying to convince people that I believe in aliens and ufos when there are 40+ years of documented evidance of me debuncking aliens and proving their ufo accusations to a be a hoax they created to cover their own asses over a drug raid from 1982? And now they are rearing up their alien accusations again, which again, I can prove to be a hoax, because... what are they trying to cover up THIS time? Last time they rolled out the alien accusations they were trying to blame literal toddlers for the 1982 drug raid, by saying that 4, 5, and 6 year old children saw aliens... 72 people were arrested in the 1982 drug raid... there were no aliens... if anyone was seeing aliens, it was the drug addicted having drug induced hallucinations... and yet, those same drug dealers, now out of prison, are once again pointing to aliens, this time because they are mad that the FBI showed up to ask if they knew anything about the murder of my son.
Can I ask, what the fuck does not real, fictional aliens they saw because of drugs, during a 1982 drug raid, what does that have to do with my son being murdered?
And are they really that retarded that they think I control the FBI and tell the FBI what to do? What the fuck? Them coming over here and screaming for me to stop sending the FBI to their house, when I didn’t even know these people were relatives, never heard of them before, and wouldn’t even have had a way t tell the FBI a blooming thing about them at all, just makes them look suspicious, because for one thing: who even are these people? I still don’t know who they are! And for another thing, why do they think I sent the FBI over to them? And again: who are they? There are over 400 Atwaters and I’ve only ever met 7 of them, I don’t know the names or faces of any of the others, I don’t even know all the names or faces of the original 12, so I can’t figure out how they’d think I would know the names or faces of any of the kids, grandkids, or great grandkids of the original 12. What the fuck?
How are the Atwaters so full of themselves that they think I would have one iota of a clue anything about them, when I’ve never met them and I don’t even know their names… and also… why would I care? Tell me that? Do you know any sane person who knows the names of their parents in-laws.
Yes… my parents in-laws… in-laws of in-laws… not even blood relatives, but the aunts, uncles, cousins, grandkids, and great grandkids of in laws of my parents’ in laws… who in their right mind would even know the names of such distant relatives…
You, reading this right now… can you name your parent’s cousins? Do you know the names of your mother’s uncle’s great grand kids? Do you?
Can you see how utterly stupidly ridiculous the Atwaters are being, when they show up here yelling and screaming, and expect that I should know who they are or what the fuck they are talking about:
Newsflash: normal people don’t live in 400 person large family herds.
Normal people don’t live in herds.
Normal people don’t swamp in shark style frenzies in the driveways of distant relatives of your great grand pappies 5th removed cousin of an in-law, either. What the actual fuck?
And on top of everything else, there are Awaters running around screaming that I am vandalising some grave… the grave of a distant relative whom I never heard of before, so I don’t even know where the grave is… when I’m here bedridden and crippled and not even capable of going to visit my own son’s grave because… oh look: I’m crippled and stuck in bed with a broken spine and severed spinal cord for the past nine years!
You know… if you are going to accuse someone of going somewhere to vandalize something, you might want to first make sure that person is not wheelchair bound, bedridden, and crippled for a decade with a broken spine, so unable to even get to the place you are accusing them of going!
Also… since the day my son was murdered, I have a camera running 24/7 so, it’s pretty foolish of you to lie about me when I can not only prove you are lying, I can also prove every time you’ve been screaming in my driveway, because I have you on camera. They didn’t think of that did they? Oh no, of course not, why would they? They were too busy thinking about those aliens and witches they can’t stop gibbering about.
But look at this cross... Do you remember Timmy Murphy? He was the 5 year old with curly black hair, who was also accused of aliens during that 1982 drug raid. They called us The White Monkey Children, because we found Helen Pearly's missing pet white monkey. And the people arrested during the 1982 drug raid, many of them Atwaters, pointed to that white monkey that had escaped from White Animal Farm, a zoo in Old Orchard at the time, they pointed to that white money and called it an alien. Helen Pearly, look her up, is the founder of the Scarbourgh Marsh preserve, an animal preserve that started out with one pet white monkey, and is today, many thousands of acres of protected land known by the name The Scarboughorgh Marsh.
Can you see NOW why the idiots screaming aliens are seen as so damned idiotic?
But can you also see the names on the cross?
There were 31 children involved in helping Helen Pearly capture her escaped pet white money.
Drive through the scarborough marsh looking at the names of the beheaded victims on those crosses... 29 of the 31 White Monkey Children are now dead, killed and tossed in the marsh, where 40 years ago, they helped little old lady look for her lost pet albino monkey.
Every one of them accused of being alien abductees; accusations which was screamed ONLY by the drug dealers and drug users of the 1982 drug raid, which took place in the Scarbourough Marsh.
The only people who accuse me of aliens are the people now out of prison, who went to prison because of the 1982 drug raid... a drug raid known to locals as "The 458 Shoot Out" due to one woman screaming "Four! Five! Eight!" in between each time she loaded up her shotgun.
Everybody that has shown up in the marsh since June 2001, has been either one of the now adult White Monkey Children, or one of their children or grandchildren.
EVERY - SINGLE - ONE.
Go to the marsh, look for the crosses. Read the names. My cousin Timmy Murphy's cross is not the only one and if you open your eyes and start looking at the side streets all through the marsh, you'll see one hundred and twenty of these crosses, some with 5 or more names on them. Crosses the entire country has seen on Dateline, 20/20, and dozens of unsolved crime shows... crosses that the Atwarers and their friends at the Sandford Ward church, are right now, this very week, posting all over social media, claiming aren't there, claiming I'm the only one talking about them, when clearly I'm not seeing hoe Dateline and 20/20 are pret big international news shows... and also claiming "Yeah EeelKat's crazy, she believes in aliens" when its extremely well documented my not believing in aliens and my debunking alien abductions as hoaxes... and these same people are also trying to convince people on social media "cats!".... but the cats were my mother's not mine, and my son was murdered November 14, 2013, two years before my mother's cat incident occurred.
These people are making total idiots of themselves, because all any one has to do is look up the new reports about the Scarbourough Marsh murders and the Cascade Murders to see that since June 2001, a LOT of people here in the marsh have been murdered, and originally they were not thought to b connected, but, now it is known that they are.
I wish these crazy ass Atwaters and their weird Todd Murphy obsessed Sanford Ward lunatics and their alien abduction ufo nuts, would leave me and my family alone. I don’t know what their problem is or why they are so obnoxiously hell bent on stalking my family and harassing us like this, but I am getting pretty damned sick of it. I have enough shit to deal with with, oh, I don’t know, half my family being murdered, my son’s killer still being on the loose, 9 years bedridden and still relearning to walk, … I don’t need these fucktards jumping into my life and trying to grab their 15 minutes of fame by tampering with the FBI’s investigation into hunting down my son’s murderer.
Know the truth. The truth will set you free.
QUESTION: "I'm confused. Your book has a transvestite main character and he's gay and the book is not Erotica? How is that possible? How can your books have gay transvestite characters and not be Erotica?"
This is fast becoming the most asked question about the Quaraun series. People can't seem to grasp the fact that a gay transvestite character can exist in a non-Erotica book, so here is what I have to say on that.
The fact that Quaraun is not even gay at all and in fact has 4 wives, is overlooked completely, because in their minds: transvestite = gay = erotica.
I feel embarrassed to be part of a society that asks such questions.
Because the questions are not being asked out of friendly curiosity.
They are being asked with vehement hatred, and rants of the evils of "the gays", followed by lists of Bible quotes, and demands to repent or be cast forever in the fiery pits of hell.
One man, a proud member of "That Church" in Biddeford, as well as "Curtis Lake Church" in Sanford, where he claims his brother-in-law is the minister, arrived in my driveway screaming of something he called "the gay-pocalyse", citing that "the gays" are taking over the planet and are hoarding together to kill all the Christians in the last days...
"It's kill or be killed," he shrieked hysterically while having a rifle over his head and shooting into the air, followed by threats that he was going to take me to court to get the book unpublished or would shoot me in the head.
2016 UPDATE: He did, and has convinced the Old Orchard Beach Town Hall - a branch of the American government - to ban and force out of publication 27 of my books on the grounds of being "Too Gay For The Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach" and as of January 4, 2016, it is not illegal for LGBTQ+, non-white, and non-Christian residents, to live in Old Orchard Beach, Maine. On January 4, 2016 the York County Sheriff marched 140 families out of their houses.
Part of the court order also states that LGBTQ+, non-white, and non-Christian residents are not allowed to own pets. More then 500 cats and dogs were taken by the police from these 140 families. In the weeks that followed the cats and dogs severed heads were returned to the families, by the Ku Klux Klan.
Welcome to the New Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach.
While the members of That Church and Curtis Lake Church, march around chanting "kill or be killed" and "too gay for the family friend town", members of the Saco Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ are just as violently doing the same... so too is the Victory Chapel on Biddeford, and the Baptist Church of Saco... though the minister of the Saco Baptist church did come over and apologize for his members, stating that they were members of Westboro and only attended his church as the Westboro church had no division in Maine, stating that Baptists don't normally act like this and do not agree with Westboro's standards.
To make things even worse, the Ku Klux Klan also shows up in my yard, and while they hide their faces, I recognize their voices - 3 of them are members of the Saco Ward LDS Church and the rest are members of Curtis Lake Church.
The thing all of these (approximately 700 local church members) have in common is their vehement hatred of and phobia level fears of gay men. Many of them accusing me (a straight woman) of being either gay or transexual or both.
I'm confused as to while these gay haters are gathering in my driveway. Especially when the character in question, Quaraun, is not even gay to begin with.
Okay. Before we go any farther let's talk about Eunuchs. Who here knows what a Eunuch is. Is you said the common, inaccurate stereotype that it is a castrated male, you would incorrect.
A Eunuch is a celibate male, who dress like and passes for a female, and may or may not have had his genitals removed in order to maintain his virginity.
This is what Quaraun is.
In order to be Erotica, it requires sexual activity be the TOPIC of the book. Erotica means the story is ABOUT sex.
Now, nearly all of my books (since the 1970s) have featured male characters passing as female characters. I've been writing books about transvestite characters since 1978.
I wrote my first sex scene in 2006.
Think about that. Think long and hard about that.
I wrote HUNDREDS of short stories, dozens of plays, and a few lengthy books, for 28 years, and did not write one single solitary sex scene in any of them...I did however write transgender, gay, and bi-sexual characters in almost all of them.
I have now been writing for 37 years and, hey, guess what, in 2,000+ short stories, 130+ long books, a few dozen plays, and 6,000+ non-fiction articles, I've only ever written about 36 sex scenes.
More then 2,000 stories total.
And only 36 sex scenes ever written.
Most of them fade to black.
Does that sound like Erotica to you?
Okay. 600+ short stories, all of them with transvestite characters and only 36 sex scenes.
I am known for writing transvestites.
I am not known for writing sex scenes.
My long time readers are always surprised when they find a sex scene in one of my stories because it happens so rarely.
Now, the recent slew of questions, is aimed at the Quaraun series, so, let's address that series directly, shall we?
You remember that I started out here talking about Eunuchs right? Well, there was a reason for that: Quaraun is a Eunuch. He is a male who passes for a female and refuses to have sex with anyone and therefore lives 330 years of his life without ever engaging in sexual activity.
He remains a sexless Eunuch for three long centuries before breaking his vows to the Di'Jin Order, and entering into a physical relationship with Unicorn/BoomFuzzy...who actually IS a Unicorn, by the way.
Well, let's take a look at the question again: How can your books have gay transvestite characters and not be Erotica?
Uhm...easy, there has to be sex in the story in order for the story to be Erotica, AND the point of the story must be the sex, AND sex scenes must make up at least 75% of the total text.
But, most of my stories do not contain ANY sex at all. Zip. Nadda. None. period.
Okay, so explain to me how a book can be Erotica WITHOUT sex in it?
Yeah. That's what I thought.
You do realize the most popular, top selling Erotica out there is male school teacher in his 40s fucking his 12 year old pre-teen students, right?
By your brainless logic that ALL stories with a transvestite in them MUST be Erotica, I could just as easily say, ALL stories about 12 year old school girls MUST be Erotica.
See how stupid it sounds when you put something more common then a transvestite in that sentence?
I don't know which is worse: your ignorance or your arrogance, or perhaps your stupidity, or maybe your lack of intelligence. Your willingness to be a dumb, blind, sheeple to some hate monger minister speaks volumes for your server lack of any ability to think for yourself.
Think about it, you stupid git. Put a brain in that damned head of yours.
It'd be one thing if this question was coming from somebody who read Erotica and was unaware that transvestites were real. I'd had a different, more sympathetic answer for some young kid seek answers to honest questions. But that is not the case here.
This question is coming to me from hate mongering Christians, marching around in my driveway, with their heads stuck so far up God's ass that they can't comprehend the possability that transvestites and gay men as well for that matter, are real live people, with emotions and feelings... JUST LIKE YOU!
These jackasses are too busy running around calling them shapeshifting illuminati aliens sent by Satan, to step back and consider the possability that they are hurting real live HUMANS.
It's easier for them to justify murder, if they dehumanize the men they are murdering first.
You sick pieces of shit. Get the hell out of my driveway and my life. You ain't nothing but gutter scum trash. Think you're so great. Turn around and look in the mirror. You preach Satan came to kill, steal, and destroy? The only one around here, killing, stealing, and destroying lives... is YOU! And you know what that makes you? Servants of Satan. Did you think of THAT before you opened your mouth to spew out your vicious, violent, brutal, gay hating fury?
Not only do you not have an answer, but you also were completely unaware of the lack of any sex scenes in my books. Oh, wait, that's right, you didn't even read them, before you ran in and shoved your foot all the way down your throat. You just ASSUMED.
Never assume for it makes an ASS out of U and ME.
People can't seem to grasp the fact that a gay transvestite character can exist in a non-Erotica book, and I can't understand why it is they can't separate the two.
Since when does wearing a pink dress = Erotica?
Please, somebody explaining it to me, because I'm sitting here looking at all my pink dresses and I can't figure out why it is they could make a book Erotica.
Of course, the local church groups marching in my driveway, are also screaming that I am a transexual because I wear pink dresses and drive a pink car. And I don't understand that either.
Their logic is baffling.
Are they suggesting that every 4 year old girl on the panet is ALSO a transexual for wearing pink dresses?
Do they even know what a transexual is? Clearly not, considering they also don't seem to know that transvestites and transexuals are 2 completly different things and they are using both words interchangeably, and just tossing them everywhere at everyone they can think of.
Of course, I'm also baffled over all this fuss going on over a FICTIONAL character.
Quaraun's not real.
Do they even know that?
And he's also not Human. He doesn't dress Human. He doesn't even act Human.
I'm confused. Why are these people flipping out over a FICTIONAL character in the first place?
I don't get it.
If Quaraun was a female Elf dressed in pink dresses, people would be calling these books ChickLit. But put the pink dress on a male Elf and suddenly it's Erotica? Why? What changed? Certainly not the story. The story is the same wither Quaraun has a vagina or cock and balls under those skirts.
Just because he's wearing a dress, doesn't suddenly make him on the roaming warpath trying to find a million and one sex partners.
I don't get it. I don't get it at all. Why do Americans make everything have to be about sex. A good god! Men have only been wearing pants for the past 200 years. The Quaraun books are set in the 1400's - 200 years before pants were even invented. Okay.
Oh, and in real life: women were FORBIDDEN from wearing pink prior to the 1700s. It was considered a color worn only buy aristocratic MEN. So, it's actually historically accurate for a male in the 1400s to be wearing a pink dress.
Why is it so hard for people to think that the guy just happens to like wearing dresses?
Why do people have to make everything be about sex?
Can't it just be about the dresses?
You know, it says a lot about your own mind, really.
Think about it...
YOU are the one whose mind is in the gutter thinking about sex. YOUR brain is the one that thought transvestite = sex.
Meaning that YOU are sexually aroused when YOU think about transvestites.
Just because YOU get sexually aroused over a man in a dress, doesn't mean the man wearing the dress is also sexually aroused.
It's YOUR OWN perverted thoughts about HIM that is the problem. He's not doing a damned thing. He's just wearing clothes that he likes to wear, while YOU are lusting after him.
YOUR lusts for him are NOT his problem, they are YOUR problem.
You are thinking with a rapist's mentality when you look at someone and assume they are doing something for sex. That's how a rapist thinks.
The only thing deviant and perverted and in need of changing is YOUR own thoughts and perceptions about transvestites.
YOU'RE the one thinking sexual thoughts. He doesn't have to change his clothes... YOU have to change your thoughts and stop being a shit headed lust fuck, going around with perverted thoughts about people you have no business thinking perverted thoughts about. See a psychiatrist you perverted jackass. Maybe the doctor can figure out why you are viciously and violently screaming and yelling and waving guns around in my driveway while you are there.
YOU'RE the sick, fucked up piece of shit in this picture. Just because YOU get sexually aroused when looking at a transvestite, doesn't give you the right to beat him up and want him dead. In fact, the ONLY reason you WANT to beat him up is because you are yourself GAY and beating him up releases your pent up sexual lusts that you are hiding. You ought to be ashamed of yourselves, hiding behind your Bibles like that. What would your God think of you, lusting after ANYONE, male or female?
Little girls love to wear Disney Princess dresses. Sometimes little boys like to wear them too. Did you know that 1 in every 5 male children is going to play dress up and wear frilly dresses when doing so?
Are you gonna tell me that 5 year old boys are wearing their sister's Cinderella and Snow White dresses because they are thinking about sex?
If you believe that, you are crazy!
Telling a person they can not wear a dress because YOU think about sex when you see said dress, just makes YOU a small minded bigot.
How many little girls dream about sparkling prom dresses and big poofy wedding gowns? Are you gonna tell me that, all those sequins and tulle are a little girl's way of saying "fuck me now"? You got a sick mind if you do think that.
I mean, you really need to just stop and think about what you are saying here when you ask a question like: "How can your books have gay transvestite characters and not be Erotica?" What kind of a message are you sending to your children when you ask a bigoted, stereotyped question like that? Do you even stop to think about what it is you are implying here?
When you ask a question like: "How can your books have gay transvestite characters and not be Erotica?"
What you are saying to me, is that you look at transvestites and see nothing but a sex object waiting to be raped by YOU.
That's the message your question sends.
Let's look at that for a minute.
You are implying, that just because this guy is wearing a pink silk dress, he ought to bending over to satisfy you, because that's the ONLY reason you can imagine for a person to be wearing a pink silk dress.
You can't think of ANY reason other sex, for being a reason to wear a pink dress.
Now, here's an important fact to consider: MOST transvestites who live this lifestyle 24/7 are passing 100% of the time as women, and you meet them every day on the streets walking their dogs, ringing up your groceries at WalMart, cooking your meals at McDonald's, teaching in high school, heck, did you know that the career with the highest rate of transvestites passing full-time are lawyers.
Next time you head to court, scan the women lawyers carefully, chances are high that at least one of them is actually a man.
And you know what? It doesn't matter.
The only person it matters to is the person, they are having sex with, and since that person is not you, then none of your damned business what they have between their legs.
Your obsession with needing to know what genitalia a person has is rather disgusting, actually. What sort of a sick pervert runs around obsessing over what type of genitals a person has? You know for someone who claims to be a morally decent Christian, you got some rather immorally, unChristian perverted thoughts running through your brain.
The college I attended a few years ago, had three professors, who were "women" and no one could tell they were born men. When I worked at Macy's my "female" boss/ manager revealed to me that she was really a he, one of the "women" at the make-up counter giving free make-overs was born male, as was one of the shoe sales"women".
Because I was who I was, and worked in the fitting rooms, I was often assigned to assist Macy's "special" customers, who were uncertain if they were supposed to use the mens or womens fitting room - Macy's in the Maine Mall, had at least 5 T-girls coming in every day (a total of several dozen t-girls) just during my shift alone.
And that's just the male to female ones. Did you know that male to female is the minority and that MOST transgender people are female to male?
Did you know that 1 in every 3 "men" you meet are genetically female?
In other words - they are out there - A LOT of them. Transgender are EVERYWHERE. They are all around you. Chances are really high that you knew at least 2 or 3 and don't know they are not born the gender you think they are.
And guess what: Not a one of them works in the sex industry.
Not a one of them participates in BDSM fetish communities, they are living the exact same normal every day lives you live.
So, now with that in mind, let's look at your question again:
"How can your books have gay transvestite characters and not be Erotica?"
Why are you sexualizing people based off the way they are dressed?
I can understand a fangirl sexualizing a fictional character that they love to obsess over.
What I can't understand is a hater demonizing a person they find themselves sexually aroused by as a way to hide their arousal from their church, friends, and family.
But have you even considered the vastly disturbing implications of sexuallizing a person based on the way they dress?
Take one dress, give it to a little girl, a teenage girl, a grown woman, and a man.
Have them each wear the dress, now tell, HOW is it that wearing said dress, suddenly makes ANY of them a sex object to be used and abused in an Erotica book?
The man puts that dress on and because he's wearing pink sparkle and tulle and glitter and lace and velvet and silk, suddenly he's supposed to be playing the starring role in Erotica?
How do you come to that conclusion?
When the little 5 year old girl puts on that same dress, are you ALSO going to say that because she's wearing pink sparkle and tulle and glitter and lace and velvet and silk, suddenly she's supposed to be playing the starring role in Erotica?
Little girls love sparkle and tulle and glitter and lace and velvet and silk, because little girls love sparkle and tulle and glitter and lace and velvet and silk.
It has absolutely nothing to do with sex at all.
Shame on you for thinking it did!
Can you see NOW why I find your question to be so rude and bigoted?
Transvestites are NOT sex toys.
And it is YOU who needs to stop thinking about them that way.
The ONLY person who sexuallizes them is YOU.
YOU are the one obsessed with sex, that's why YOU are the one who thinks transvestite = Erotica.
Transvestites are not sex toys for your sick perversions. Transvestites are real people, with real families, real lives, and real feelings, and they deserve to be treated as such.
I am appalled at the way the common attitude towards a transvestite character in a work of fiction, is that their only purpose is to be a sex toy. That's just disgraceful that the general public sees trans people in that light.
And just like little girls love sparkle and tulle and glitter and lace and velvet and silk, sometimes little boys love sparkle and tulle and glitter and lace and velvet and silk, too.
And it likewise has absolutely nothing to do with sex at all.
Again: Shame on you for thinking it did!
Sometimes little girls grow out of wearing girly dresses, but sometimes they keep right on wearing them long after they are ancient grannies.
Sometimes little girls who want to wear girly dresses grow up in families that don't allow them to wear girly dresses and when they reach adulthood they go overboard wearing the blingest big pink princess dresses they can find.
And there's nothing wrong with that.
The only person who has a problem, is YOU for thinking there was something wrong with how a person dresses.
Part of the problem, seems to be the fact that these jack ass idiots screaming in my driveway, don't know the differance between a transexual and a ttransvestite.
A transexual is a person of one gender attempting to become the opposite gender. Thus a man who not only wears dresses, but takes hormones, uses female pronouns, has been castrated, has hanged HIS name to HER name, and IDENTIFIES as a woman.
Whereas a transvestite is a man who simply believes clothing has no gender and likes wearing dresses because they are comfortable and look good on him. He still uses MALE pronouns, makes no attempt at being female, is NOT taking hormones, is quite happy to have a penis and balls, has no desire to become a woman and in most cases is also NOT gay and likely has a wife and children.
Transexuals are VASTLY different from transvestites, to the point that MOST transexuals are quick to tell you that a transvestite is NOT part of the transgender community.
And just like little girls, sometimes little boys grow out of wearing girly dresses, but sometimes they keep right on wearing them long after they are ancient grandpas. Sometimes little boys who want to wear girly dresses grow up in families that don't allow them to wear girly dresses and when they reach adulthood they go overboard wearing the blingest big pink princess dresses they can find.
When you make something that has nothing to do with sex, be about sex, it only says a lot about you and where your mind is. Because YOU are thinking about sex, you falsly assume everyone else must be thinking about sex too. You can possibly fathom that you are ALONE in your perverted thoughts and are trying to justify your own perversion by trying to say it is their fault for wearing dresses.
Ah, and see there, now we have the root of the problem.
It's not me or my characters, it's you and how you translate me and my characters. When you look at a fictional character and you think that character is thinking about sex, it's because YOU are thinking about sex.
When you look at a man, doing something that you don't understand, and you assume that he is motivated by sex, it is because if YOU were doing what he was doing YOUR reason for doing it would be sex.
Well, shame on you!
It is the same as when you see someone and think they are angry at you, when in fact it is you who is angry at them, and they are oblivious to the fact you are even there.
You simply THINK they are angry, only because anger is in fact how you feel towards them.
It's like that.
Because YOU think sexual thoughts about the transvestite, you assume they must therefore be motivated by sexual thoughts, when in fact the only person thinking about sex is YOU.
Do you know what that means? It means that when you see a transvestite, you become sexually aroused, simply by seeing him and THAT is WHY you falsely assume the word transvestite is synonymous with sex and/or Erotica. You and ONLY you are thinking about the transvestite' sex life.
Not him (or her depending on the pronoun s/he uses.) No. He's not the one obsessing over sex. YOU ARE. He's going about his day. He's getting his work done. He's doing his shopping. He's taking his family out to dinner. He's doing his chores. He's getting his car fixed. He's walking his dog. He's too busy living his life, to stop and think about how sexuallize you are viewing him.
NEWSFLASH: A transvestite, is quite simply a man wearing a dress. Nothing more. How he dresses, has absolutely nothing to do with sex...AT ALL.
The only reason you think transvestite means something sexual, is because YOU have a dirty mind.
Well, that's just...eeeeew!
Get away from me, you sick pervert!
Don't go taking your sick fantasies about trans people and put it on me! Good God! I don't want it, that's for sure.
But let's talk about Quaraun.
Seeing how he is the transvestite in question here and is the reason I've got these hate mongering radicals screaming in my yard, running around like mental institute escapee shooting guns all over the place. (They shot my neighbor's barn full of holes and killed several of her pet chickens while they were here too. Sick bastards.)
Who is Quaraun and why are these ministers, rallying their minos, in my yard over him?
Quarain, is the guy wearing blinding pink dresses, with giant magenta hearts embroidered on them, and huge medallion designs sewn on in tiny faceted seed beads. Every move he makes sends more simmers around the room then ten disco balls ever could.
(2016 UPDATE: Here... this is what he looks like:)
Now granted Quaraun is more extreme then what you would normally see in everyday life, and he is seen in SOME highly sexual situations, (about a dozen times over the course of 130 novels) but he is in fact based off a real live transvestite who does in fact dress like he does every day.
(2016 UPDATE: You can find more info on the real transvestite Quaraun was based off of in this video here:)
The fact remains, however, that in spite of the rumors... Quaraun himself is not a gay man. He's also not a transexual.
Quaraun is a transvestite and he has 4 wives.
Yes, he also has 2 male lovers on the side. But that makes him bi-sexual. Not gay.
That brings me to another similar email I got, one which came to me from a person claiming to be gay, and who said: "gays like you give the rest of us a bad name"
Gays like me?
I'm not gay.
Since when am I gay?
The email pointed out various photos of me and said I shouldn't be dressing the way I do because it gives "us gays" a "bad name."
Here... have some pictures of me...
This guy here... this is Ben. Our 30th anniversary was August 17, 2017. We've been together since 1987.
In this picture here, you can very clearly see I have 38DD breasts, which are usually bound because they are too big to fit in a bra and get in my way. They are not bound in this photo.
This is me at college...days before I was beaten up on campus only a few feet from where this photo was taken, and left paralyzed for 5 months and crippled the rest of my life.
THOSE^^^are the pictures the email was referencing.
The email ranted on, how "we gays" should "try to fit in" and "not draw attention to ourselves". What?
The line that really got to me was the one which said that it was "our duty as modern gays" to "squash the screaming gay 1970s Liberace stereotype".
You know I am a natural born straight woman, have a husband (our 30th anniversary is August 17, 2017) and have had 7 miscarriages, and write about men, like Quaraun and Unicorn and GhoulSpawn and Roderic and... you know the 75 OTHER men I write about, because I'm a straight female who like men quite a lot, thus why I write male characters instead of female characters?
You do know you are calling an elderly, straight female... a gay transexual, right?
Let me get this straight... you say, that because of how I dress, I am giving gays a bad name?
How the hell did you ever get in into your head, the idea that I was gay to begin with?
Jackasses like this are the reason I now wear a cape which says:
"I'm To Gay For OOB"
I wear this cape, to mock you jackasses for being so damned gay hating, that you have the audacity to accuse and elderly straight woman of being gay!
It's bad enough, when straight gay haters are hating on gays...
...but it's worse, when the gay haters are other gay men who are angry that this gay or that gay makes their gay look bad!
What the hell?
So this is an example of what I call the "elitist gays."
The ones who think they have something to prove. The ones who think they have to conform to "normal society" in order to be accepted. The ones who think, the only way to be "truly gay" is to look and act like every non-gay on the planet.
You know being gay is not a competition right?
Being gay means you are a man who loves another man. It has nothing to do with the way you dress or the way you act.
You are a man, you love another man. That's it. That's all gay is. I mean, you're supposed to be gay, so, you should know that.
All kinds of men can be gay. Big men. Little men. Old men. Young men. Businessmen. Homeless men. Flamboyant men. Goth men. Emo men. Lawlers. Doctors. Cashiers. Anyone can be gay.
How you dress has nothing to do with it! And I'm surprised that there exist gay men themselves who don't know that!
Well, let's move past the fact that they are so stupid that they think a straight woman is gay...
...and move on to the fact that they are upset over a gay person dressing a certain way.
What I want to know is... what business is it of their's how a person dresses? How is a gay man in a sequine dress, giving THEM a bad name?
I just do not understand their logic.
If a gay man wants to wear a pink sequin dress, then, so the hell what? It's his life, not yours. He's wearing a dress. Big deal. Get over it. He's not bothering you.
You don't like people getting down on you for being gay. I get that.
Well, Peachy Plumkin, if that's what YOU want to do, then fine. More power to you. But don't you dare bitch at me and say I'm giving other gays a bad name because I wear pink dresses, feather boas, and glitter, because Honeybuns, I live for pink dresses, feather boas, and glitter, and I don't care how gay you are, if you are telling other gays that they are "the wrong kind" of gay, you are no different then the non-gays who are down on all gays. Think about it Honey.
And I'm not even gay to begin with so I don't know why you are even bitching at me about it anyways!
I don't care what kind of gay you are. You can be a Twink or a Bear or a Sissy or a Queer or a Butch or a Femme or whatever else you want to be. We are all people. Gay. Not gay. It doesn't matter. We are all People. Every one of us is different and there is room for everyone.
I'm sorry Sugar Pie, but it's the elitists gays like you with no tolerance for any gays who not like you, that's giving gays a bad name.
You know, it takes a pretty low intelligence to look at a fictional character and assume because the character is gay that therefor the author must be as well.
Than again... the character in question is not gay, either, so there's that.
The problem seems to be that Quaraun is an overly Effeminate Sissified Glamour Twink....but as I already said... how he dresses, does not determine his sexuality.
Let's look at some facts about Quaraun:
Anyone who has ever ACTUALLY READ the series knows these facts about Quaraun, as these things are pivotal to the plot and mentioned repeatedly in every single novel in the series.
Quaraun is not gay, nor is he ever portrayed as such.
So my question now becomes this:
As I said... anyone who read the books, knows that the things these people are saying about my books is false.
And people who know me, know the things these people are saying about me is false.
Yes... I've survived FIVE (5) bombings now.
Can you see NOW... why I ask, how these people get their information?
I want to know... WHO went to the Saco Ward Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints of Saco, Maine, and incited them into their gay hating, transphobic fury?
I want to know... WHO went to the Curtis Lake Church of Sanford, Maine, and incited them into their gay hating, transphobic fury?
I want to know... WHO went to the Saco Baptist Church, and incited them into their gay hating, transphobic fury?
I got beaten up, November 14, 2013, still no clue who she is, left me paralyzed for 5 months, during which time she hacked my KBoards account, my NaNoWriMo account, my website, my FaceBook, my Twitter, and other places, pretending to be me and written horrible stuff via my accounts. Then she created 52 fake Amazon accounts and left 52 fake and completely identical 1 star reviews on every one of my books. I was paralyzed 5 months, relearning to walk 18 months... and I was offline for a full 3 years, and had no clue this woman had taken over all my online accounts or had done any of these things, until 2015. :( .
I'm crippled for the rest of my life, on a cane with one leg useless, and only have the use of 1 hand now, and permanent damage to my spine. I used to publish a novel a month... now because of some still unidentified Kboards member, I've got $3million in medical bills, a bomb also blew up my house so living in my car, can barely move, and am lucky if I can get 1 book typed up a year. So frustrating.
It's been 4 years and I'm still in physical therapy, and it's a good day if I can stand up, let alone walk. Had to cancel the 2015-2018 book signing tour, and had to cancel all the monthly book releases from November 2013 to who knows when... still all canceled and we are closing in on 2018 now.
The Kboards hacker crushed my spine, my hip, my pelvis, and my knee. Tore up all the nerves and muscles. Got a $40million lawsuit waiting for when the FBI finally identifies who the person behind these gay hating transphobic rumors is. FBI – Federal Bureau of Investigation agent's contact info is on my website if you have any info about who it was who hacked my Kboards account 2013 to 2015.
Still think, it's okay to run around spreading rumors and lies about people?
People are dead now.
Whoever it is who is running around calling my books Erotica... they caused 4 people to be beheaded.
Whoever it is who is running around calling my books Erotica... they caused 500 cats to be kidnapped from 140 families.
Whoever it is who is running around calling my books Erotica... they caused 5 bombs to be built, several people killed, dozens injured, and hundreds traumitized.
Whoever it is who is running around calling my books Erotica... they are now classified by the FBI as a domestic terrorist and are wanted for murder, inciting riots, and terrorism.
They, in their hatred for gay men, Erotica books, and transexuals... have left a town decimated by bombs and bloodshed.
People wh are NOT gay and NOT transexual and NOT authors of Erotica, are being targeted, because of this person's rumors and lies.
Because this person, didn't think before they ran around gossiping and spreading falsehoods about people they falsely believed to be gay transexuals...the innocent none gay, none transexual victims of their rumours are dead.
In their hatred for gays... they failed to do their research and murdered non-gays.
In their hatred for transexuals... they failed to do their research and murdered non-transexuals.
This needs to end.
These hate mongers need to be stopped.
Next time YOU open your mouth to say something derogatory about a gay man... ask yourself: Are you contributing to the next murder in YOUR town?
If you have to ask, then clearly you don't what happened in 1997, the year my life turned pink...
They say a picture says 1,000 words..
Let's give you 5,000 words to think on then:
Why do I wear pink?
Why did I paint my car pink?
Why did I paint my motorhome pink?
Because on November 24, 1997 Eva Viola Atwater died to breast cancer.
Did you watch that video back there? The one about the transvestite who commit suicide? He was her best friend.
If you lived in the area of Saco or Biddeford, Maine in the 1980s and 1990s, you no doubt remember him.
He was a garbage collector. Road around most of the week on the back of a Blow Brothers garbage truck... while wearing sequin ball gowns, replicas of Scarlet O'hara's hood skirt dresses, and the blingiest bling to be the envy of Rapper everywhere.
He had long blond hair that was the envy of every woman who wished they could grow their hair as long.
His job, had him at every front door in the city.
He was not trying to be a woman. He just liked wearing frilly dresses.
He had few friends, he was bullied constantly, beaten up many times. He was one of many gay men striped naked by the Ku Klux Klan, tied to the back bumper of a car and dragged naked through the streets for 14 miles, to be hung by his balls at the top of Rotary Park's flag pole in Biddeford.
Later he would go on to change his look. Going from 1800s Southern Belle, the being a Billy Idol look-a-like, chopped off his many feet of golden hair to pointy spikes, getting 24 peirces only in one ear, dripping in black leather...
wait for it
BECAME THE FIRST OPENLY GAY MAN TO OWN A STORE IN MAINE...
renting the building owned by...
Maine's infamous "Transgender Murder Store"... shop here and lose your head.
Remember the chant of the gay haters in my driveway?
"Kill or be killed! Remember Saco Shaw's"(link goes the the CBS news report of the most recent murder)
A store blighted by 4 beheadings now.
Because it was the first store in the state of Maine, to accept gay men as equals. The first store in Maine to hire gay men... back in the 1970s.
And in the 1990s, they leased out a section of their store to Biddeford's radically eccentric, over the top, extremely flamboyant transvestite.
Maine's first Dollar Store. Known simply as "The Dollar Store at Saco Shaw's", it was owned by the former garbage collecting transvestite and his lover.
The store struggled to gain traction, as Maine's gay hating public refused to shop there.
Grammy Eva, however, shopped there daily, with me in tow, and she daily spent hours getting fashion tips and beauty advice from the store's super flamboyant owner.
The glass store front had to be replaced multiple times, from gay haters smashing out the windows.
He often complained of how hard life was becoming... but he had his partner there. We never saw them not together. The two were inseparable...the flamboyant transvestite and his far more drab lover.
And then, one day, it was just him alone in the store.
His partner was dead. He was devastated. It was the first murder to haunt Saco Shaws.
A few days later... the store was closed.
No one arrived to open it. No one knew what happened. Not for a long time... because he had no friends and no family. So no one knew he was dead.
Biddeford's flamboyant transvestite commit suicide.
Grammy Eva died from breast cancer only a few months later.
I lost 2 very dear friends, very close together.
Quaraun's character was designed, after the transvestite who was Grammy Eva's friend. The character already existed, but not as a transvestite. It was a change to his character that came about in the late 1990s, in memory of the transvestite who owned the Dollar Store at Saco Shaws.
Quaraun became an over the top, super flamboyant transvestite in the memory of a very dear friend, who was driven to suicide for daring to love who he loved and dress as he pleased.
Quaraun wears pink in the memory of my Grammy Eva, who died far too young, from breast cancer.
Quaraun stands as a tribute to 2 people I loved, both of whom, should still be alive today, and would be, had hate not taken one and disease taking the other.
You want to know something else?
The first time I ever heard the term gay, was in 2015, when a giant green dump truck, with a silver and black striped hood, and a big red apple painted on the side... drove up in my driveway... it's white haired, rifle toting driver got out, and accused me of being gay, accused my car of being gay, and accused my motorhome of being gay, while chanting:
"Too Gay For The Family Friendly Town of Old Orchard Beach! I'm gonna blow your brains out! I'm gonna shoot you in the head! The gays don't belong in this family friendly town. Look at that THING! That's Ken's SON. Look at how that THING is dressed! IT and IT's cars are too gay for our family friendly town!"
On September 12, 2015, that was the first time I had ever heard to word "gay". (see the police report at the Old Orchard Beach Police Department, for September 12, 2015, 146 Portland Ave, Wendy C. Allen of Old Orchard Beach, to see the name of the gay hating ringleader of this town's transphobic riotous mob)
I did not know what it meant. I Googled to find out.
Though I had known the transvestite and his partner... the reality of what they were, had never occurred to me. They were very close, always hugging and kissing and very obviously lovers. But the possibility of men having sex with other men, had never crossed my mind before. Not until nearly 10 years after they had both died.
I'm a 5th generation Mormon. Sex is an extremely taboo topic in Mormon culture. It's never mentioned. Association with non-Mormons in rare. Children are homeschooled, in homes were no TVs exist. Rare is the Mormon who even has internet or cell phones.
I'm a hermit with agoraphobia. I haven't set foot off my land or had contact with Humans in decades.
I had never heard the term gay before and had no idea what these psychopathic gun toting freaks were talking about.
These people, these so-called "Christians" attacked an elderly woman, accusing her of being gay, because, in 1997, after the death of her best friend Eva Viola Atwater, who died from breast cancer, she started wearing pink, painted her car pink, painted her motorhome pink...was about to paint her house pink, but you know, a bomb blew it up before she got that far...
...the colour of Breast Cancer Awareness...
...A thing she started doing, days after her friend died...
...and gay haters, translated that to mean, she MUST be a gay, transexual man, and therefore, must be killed.
This gun toting, gay hating psychopath, arrived in my driveway around 6AM on September 12, 2015 and remained there until the police finally crashed him away 4 hours later around 10AM.
He railed on about my pink mail box being too gay because I painted it pink.
He raved about my being gay, transexual, Muslim, non-white, non-Christian, and a serial killer.... because I was wearing a pink kimono over a pink rhinestone encrusted kaftan, with a pink veil on my head.
(I had never heard the term Muslim before either, and had to go Google that as well, while I was Googling the term gay.)
When the police arrived, he continued to scream and yell at the 3 officers who tried to tell him that he was trespassing, invading my privacy, could be charged with death threats (a felony), and was violating my civil and religious rights.
He screamed and yelled some more and soon was joined by his son in a 4-door white pick up truck, his wife in a gold Volvo SUV, and his red haired sister in law, who joined him in his chanting. Soom a whole group of people were screaming anti-gay hatred, anti-transgender hatred, anti-Muslim hatred, pro White power, American pride, kill all the immigrants, and a whole slew of other mentally deranged insanity.
For some reason about 400 people on bicycles showed up in the middle of it. Apparently there was a bike race or something going on and they heard the screaming and saw all the police cars so decided to side track down my side street to see what was going on.
I spent the entire time standing in my driveway, wondering what the hell was going on. I was about 80 feet back from the road, and never interacted with any of them. The only person I talked to that day was the 2 police officers who came up my driveway to ask if I knew why the people were gathering... which I didn't know why they were gathering, so I had no information to offer them.
Keeping in mind at that point I had no idea what gay or Muslim even meant, so I didn't understand what the crazy people in the crowd were even saying. I had no way to translate their words to make sense of the deranged gibberish.
And now that I do know what gay means...
Where the hell in the Bible does God say pink = gay?
Where in the Bible does God command "kill the gays"?
Did they overlook those pesky little commandments God said...
You the ones:
Love thy neighbour
Thou shalt not kill
Do unto others as you would have others do unto you
Are they suggested they WANT to be killed by gay transexuals? Is that why they are killing people they think, could, maybe, might, possibly, be gay and or transexuals?
Oh... here's one... how about the commandment that says:
Judge not, lest ye be judged by the same measure with which ye judged, pressed down and spilling over, 70 times 7
I'm an ordained minister, if you didn't know, now you do. I've read the Bible - ALL of it, cover to cover like a novel 31 times, in addition to daily Bible studies.
These gay haters who called themselves members of the Curtis Lake Church, which the green dump truck driver claims is the church his brother in law is a minister at... these so-called Christians, in their gay hating fury... seem to have very little knowledge of the Bible, and in addition to falsely accusing me of being gay, they also falsely accused me - a minister myself - of being non-Christian!
And yet... nothing they did that day, is anything even remotely Christian at all! REAL Christians do not promote terrorist activities.
Did you know that the FBI considers all of the following to be terrorist activities:
Did you know this crazed group of gay haters did ALL of those things to me? Because they falsely believed me to be a gay transexual? Here, have pictures of the backhoe sitting on my house...
In all these gay haters have attacked more then 200 times.
So far we have 5 of their shootings on camera.
About 20 people and over a dozen cars have been involved. Several of the cars have been caught on camera now, as can be seen in this video:
and this one...
So these gay haters in my driveway accusing me and my car and my motorhome of being gay, introduced me to a world that I had not known existed.
I started writing the Quaraun series (originally titled The Twighlight Manor series) in 1978. Today there are 130 novels and 231 short stories in the series.
From 1978 to 2015, there were ZERO (0) sex scenes in the ENTIRE series.
Sex was not mentioned.
If characters were having sex, there was no indication of it.
The first time a sex scene was added to the series was in November 2015, when The Night of the Screaming Unicorn was unpublished, and the new pink covered edition released.
The original 30 page short story published to Amazon in 2014. It contained no sex scene, no rape scene, and all references to a gay relationship between Quaraun and Unicorn,, had not yet been thought of, let alone written.
It was rated M18+ for graphic depictions of drug use, violence, cannibalism, and suicide.
The story, originally 30 pages long, is now 248 pages long and has a VERY different ending.
The original 30 page short story published to Amazon in 2014 contained no sex scene, no rape scene, and all references to a gay relationship between Quaraun and Unicorn, had not yet been thought of, let alone written.
It seems the ONLY THING the gay haters knew about the book, was the fact that it said in the description the main character was a transvestite, and it said on the cover "Rate M18+"
It appears that they saw the word "transvestite" and the "Rated M18+" and put 2 and 2 together to create 22 instead of 4, thus jumping to many various false conclusions.
They read "transvestite" + "Rate M18" and thought that meant it was "Erotica" about "gay sex", even though the story contained no sex and no hint of anything even remotely gay.
In it's original 30 page form, the story is about a transvestite, who has just escaped a nearby village, where he was beaten up and badly wounded by a gang of drunks who had run a sword through his belly.
The opening scene is the transvestite Elf wizard running into a blueberry field, then collapsing, from lose of blood, unable to go any further.
He's taking drugs (opium) to alleviate his pain, a huge thunder storm is rolling in off the coast, and terrified that the Humans are still after him, he contemplates killing himself, while wishing for a place to hide, and fearing he'll die from his wounds.
Moments later The Screaming Unicorn Tavern appears out of no where, and vast forest grows up around the Elf, with the field vanishing.
He flees to the tavern, not realizing he's walked into a Faerie trap, where he is now held captive by a sadistic Elf Eating Fae who plans to eat the dying Elf.
After a cat and mouse game of the Fae torturing the Elf nearly to death, the Faerie realizes he knew the old Elf in his youth and suddenly let's him go free, explaining: "I was the pony whose life you saved in the Desert of the DiJinn."
It goes to a flashback of Quaraun as a child, rescuing a dying pony in the desert, which is now revealed to have been a Unicorn.
The Unicorn and the tavern vanish, and Quaraun finds, weeks have passed and his wounds are now healed. He left not knowing if anything he saw that night was real or a hallucination caused by the opium, until he finds an item the Unicorn left behind.
That is the ORIGINAL 30 page story, that was released in 2014, and inspired gay haters (who clearly never read it) to accuse it of being gay Erotica.
It was rated M18+ for graphic depictions of drug use, violence, cannibalism, and suicide.
After the September 12, 2015 "Too Gay For Old Orchard Beach" attack in my driveway, I rewrote the 30 page story story into a 248 page novel.
The story now...
IA transvestite, who has just escaped a nearby village, where he was beaten up and badly wounded by a gang of drunks who mistook him for a woman, raped him, and when he tried to escape and fight back had run a sword through his belly.
An entire chapter passes, detailing why he was at the tavern, how he was once the world's most powerful wizard, but since the suicide death of his lover, now he is a drunk, drug addict who skulks in taverns trying to bury his sorrows.
A new story of how he tried to resurrect said lover, but failed is now told.
No longer the opening scene is the transvestite Elf wizard running into a blueberry field, then collapsing, from lose of blood, unable to go any further.
He's taking drugs (opium) to alleviate his pain, a huge thunder storm is rolling in off the coast, and terrified that the Humans are still after him, he contemplates killing himself, while wishing for a place to hide, and fearing he'll die from his wounds.
Moments later The Screaming Unicorn Tavern appears out of no where, and vast forest grows up around the Elf, with the field vanishing.
He flees to the tavern, not realizing he's walked into a Faerie trap, where he is now held captive by a sadistic UNDEAD Elf Eating Fae.
The Fae, now a Lich, and angry at having been abandoned by his lover, who plans to eat the dying Elf that broke his heart years ago, but realizes the old Elf no longer recognises him.
After a cat and mouse game of the Fae torturing the Elf nearly to death, the Faerie realizes he knew the old Elf in his youth and suddenly let's him go free, explaining: "I was the pony whose life you saved in the Desert of the DiJinn."
It goes to a flashback of Quaraun as a child, rescuing a dying pony in the desert, which is now revealed to have been a Unicorn.
Many new chapters now tell the story of a young Elf and his lover, and the horrible things gay haters did to them, resulting in the death of one.
Quaraun, knowing his lover is dead, fears the Fae before him, thinking the monster is playing tricks on him. Having recently been raped, the traumatized Elf fears being raped again, and the story takes a very dark trip down a sexual rabbit hole, as the Fae, tossing the Elf into an oubliette.
This eventually leads to a sex scene that last for 20 very long pages. It includes knotting and barbs and ball crushing and... not for the squeamish on any level. The scene is BDSM, CBT, Yaoi.
The Unicorn and the tavern vanish, and Quaraun finds, weeks have passed and his wounds are now healed. He left not knowing if anything he saw that night was real or a hallucination caused by the opium, until he finds an item the Unicorn left behind.
This new, expanded version was published November 2015, a few weeks after the gay haters attacked in my driveway.
For the first time in more then 30 years, a sex scene was written for the Quaraun series.
A gay sex scene.
A gay sex scene, that was written SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE of the gay haters in my driveway who were falsely accusing my asexual, pink robes wizard of being gay.
Just think, had the gay haters not been in my driveway September 12, 2015, chanting their gay hatred and threatening to murder me with their guns, I never would have known the existence of gay man or gay marriage or gay sex, and the newest versions of the Quaraun books, would never have had sex scenes, of any type, gay or otherwise, added to them.
For 40 years, the stories were 100% sex free, and not a gay man anywhere. Now, the new books of these past two (2) years, question the possibility of the characters being gay and include scene of them exploring that question.
A gay sex scene between an Elf and a Unicorn, mind you. Neither of the "men" in my books are actually men at all. It's very horny, Unicorn who likes fucking Elves.
And thus the gay haters have resulted in gayness arising, where is previously was not.
But... who is Quaraun and WHY did these gay haters think him gay to begin with?
How was he, with 4 wives, 8 children, and 37 illegitamate children by prostitutes, seen in their eyes as gay?
For one reason, and one reason only:
Because he wears pink dresses.
But my question is...
How do gay haters even know about my books at all?
Before September 1, 2014 the books were short run, small press, meaning fewer then 1,000 copies were made of each volume. The books were never mass produced prior to the 2014 release of The Night of the Screaming Unicorn. The chapters were online on fanfiction.net for most of the 1990s and early 2000s, but what Christian do-goody gay hater reads stories on fanfiction.net?
And again... before the 2015 re release of Night of the Screaming Unicorn, the series contained no sex and no gay couples.
More thoughts on readers seeing things I didn't write here...
In the, now nearly 3 years, since the big gay hating riot in my driveway on September 12, 2015... the gay haters have arrived several more times.. at WalMart (Biddeford, Scarborough, and Sanford WalMarts), at Saco Shaws, at Panera Restaurant (Westbrook and Biddeford) at Saco Dyer Library, at the Golden Rooster Restaurant, at my dad's apartment, at my mom's apartment, and at the Biddeford McArthur Library.
In these many additional attacks, they have screamed and yelled and shouted out more things, to give clues as to what they are pissed off about.
It remains as ever, Quaraun that they are pissed over.
They call him the "gay Elf wizard" and call me "transvestite freak"...
here... you can hear them for yourselves, screaming here...
listen to the gun shots going off as they scream "transvestite freak":
That woman screaming "transvestite freak" is the red haired woman who calls herself "Kendra Silvermander" and claims to be a NaNoWriMo ML.
She's wanted by the FBI for being the primary suspect of being the instigator of all of these things that have happened.
Apparently, she is the unpublished "author" of Christian children's books and is highly offended by the existence of anything she deems "not Christian" or "gay"... or so she has stated in the 21,000 (twenty-one thousand) emails she has sent to me.
Supposedly one of the issues is the fact that I supposedly write Erotica.
The problem with that accusation is the fact that I do NOT write Erotica at all.
Yet Quaraun is, according to these people a "gay Elf wizard" from "Erotica about retards, writing by a retarded author for retarded readers"... or so they stated in EACH of the 52, 1 star reviews they left on EACH of my 49 books on Amazon. Yes, in the space of about an hour, they copy and pasted the same review a grand total of 2,548 times.
These reviews written March 2015 - BEFORE the change to include sex scenes.
They filled my motorhome with feces April 2015.
They cut my cats' heads off May 2015.
They were in my driveway screaming "kill or be killed remember saco shaw's" in June 2015... 2 months BEFORE the Saco Shaw's murder that happened August 2015.
And their big "Too Gay For OOB" attack was in September 2015.
In November 2015, because they wouldn't stop accusing Quaraun of being gay or the books of being Erotica, to the point that they filled my RV with sewage and murdered my cats because of it... I decided to write some gay sex scene and add them to the new editions.
I can't understand either accusation... Quaraun's being gay, or the books being Erotica.
This guy (Quaraun) is a Twink, there is no doubt about that. For some reason Twinks are seen in a bad light, by a lot of members of the LGBT community. There are dozens of types of "gays" and dozens of types of "trannies". That's another thing, they use the word "tranny" and spell gays as "gayz".
Their use of the word "tranny" while you rave and rant like a freaking lunatic in my driveway, also indicated that YOU, gay hater that you are, are also a reader of transgender Erotica, seeing how the word "tranny" is NOT used in actual real world conversations outside of Erotica.
That in itself says a lot.
Think about it. How would a good, moral, upstanding, gay hating, trans bashing Christian like yourself, know a term like tranny? A term that ONLY exists in Erotica... nless, you were not the good, moral, upstanding, gay hating, trans bashing Christian you pretend to be? The only way you'd know that term is if YOU yourself READ tranny Erotica.
What other dark little secrets you hiding from your minister, eh?
"Tranny" is an offensive term, the equivalent of saying nigger, buck, gyped, retard, fag, bugger, cracker, diaper head, coon, or chinko.
Of course... the members of Curtis Lake Church, Saco ward LDS Church, Victory Chapel, and Saco Baptist Church who are out there chanting in my driveway, also are tossing around the words nigger, buck, gyped, retard, fag, bugger, cracker, diaper head, coon, or chinko in addition to tranny, so... they are a rather bigoted lot, very bigoted in more ways then one.
A Twink is a little, hairless runt of a guy, who is ALWAYS the bottom, he is never on top, he doesn't want to be on top. Twinks, are the most femme males on the planets. Their testosterone levels practically don't even exist, because they have a medical condition, which also causes them to not grow facial hair, to be less muscled and more curvy like a female, and they have a highly submissive personality, which makes them good at being Sissies, and often a Twink is also a Sissy.
Twinks stand out as vastly different from other gay men and are different from trans people as well, because they actually have a medical condition which causes their bodies to develop, very closely resembling a female, in spite of their male anatomy. The are often considered to be "the third gender" because they are born with the physical genitals of a male, but their body develops like that of a female. If a Twink, doesn't want to be a Twink, the only thing he can do about it is go to a doctor and get a prescription for hormone replacement, because his body simply is not producing testosterone.
Because of their lack of testosterone, Twinks often have absolutely no interest in sex at all, and often will not seek out sexual relationships. And this is exactly what you are seeing with Quaraun, and is why he lived like a eunuch and remained a virgin for 330 years of his life.
The problem with Twinks in much of the LGBT community, is the fact that because they have a medical condition, they are often seen as "not real gays" because they are often said to be "not gay by choice". That's not an issue I'm going to get into here, but there is a lot of prejudice against Twinks, in some LGBT communities, especially in those where you see the debates of "is being gay a choice or genetics?" While others may chose to be what they are, Twinks do not, for them, it is genetics.
A Sissy is a male who, not only dresses like a female, but he submits to a dominate Bear, Butch, or Dom. Sissies are common in Master/ slave relationships, and are often called SissyMaids or SissySlaves. This guy is more girly then a girly-girl.
An Effeminate Sissified Glamour Twink is one a Sissy Twink who dresses in over the top almost drag queen style beaded and sequined dresses. This is the type of "trans person" Quaraun is. They are fairly uncommon, but the thing is, there ARE transvestites like Quaraun out there. In fact, he's based off the one who lived in Saco Maine in the 1980s, who commit suicide a few years before I started writing the series.
I know what it is like to be an overly Effeminate Sissified Glamour Twink. I know what it is like to be so far ff the deep end that you are not even welcomed in the LGBT community, because they consider "your kind" to be "bad" for the "gay image."
But I just don't understand that mindset of how one trans person is more or less trans... each is unique individual person. No need to get at each other's throats.
There is no one right or wrong way to be a trans person. Some look like everyday women, others almost look like drag queens, and there's everything in between, and there is no one way that is any more right or wrong then any other way.
Sad fact is that if you can pass for an everyday woman and don't tell people you were born male, that's the only way you are going to be accepted. If you are one of the trans people who is bordering on being almost a drag queen, well, you gotta have a thick skin to survive, because people are gonna hate you, and not just the "norms". No, you are gonna be hated by the "more conservative" members of the LGBT community as well.
If you are the type of trans person who goes to the same extremes Quaraun does in the books, you are going to be MORE bullied by members the LGBT community, then you will be by the non-gay community. The majority of the LGBT community is only going to accept you, if you are able to hide among the norms and look like one of them. If you are wearing pink ball gowns every day, you will be even more outcast from the LGBT community then you will be from the norms. That's just the way it is.
The problem is caused by the way so many people sexualize the screaming drag queen style transvestite. People are too busy thinking dirty sexual thoughts about them, to stop and think, that this person is no different then the EMOs, the Goths, the Juggalos, the Punks, or the Lolitas: they simply like to wear this style of fashion.
In most cases, that's all there is to it. They just like to wear the pretty dresses. And a person shouldn't be ostracized simply because of the clothes they choose to wear.
That's just plain wrong.
"How can your books have gay transvestite characters and not be Erotica?"
Why is it so hard to think that a person can be gay, and be a character in a non-Erotica book?
Why is it so hard to think that a person can be a transvestite, and be a just a regular, ordinary, every day character in a non-Erotica book?
Why is is so hard to realize that Quaraun is a wizard in a High Fantasy Sword and Sorcery setting that is NOT Erotica?
Oh wow, some of the emails I get! God! Well, one thing is for sure, a lot of people believe that because I wear pink dresses, I am evil and going to hell. And because I write transvestite characters, I am evil and going to hell.
And so, while you are screaming that he is evil, vile, perverted, going to hell (you do know he's a fictional character, right? Some people get so carried away and upset that I wonder if they know Quaraun is a fictional character), etc, did you ever once stop to think, that maybe, just maybe, the guy just likes the color pink?
Oh, but wait, the main point of the series is the fact that this guy has Autism and is trying to live in a world where Autism is seen as possession by evil spirits. Few non-Autistic people are ever fully able to understand what it is like for us Autistics to live in a world where we are allergic ad irritated by everything.
Everything means EVERYTHING. That includes fabric.
Did you know that because of my Autism, I can only wear silk, velvet silk, and brushed cotton. That's it. Nothing else. And it can't have seams or tags in it.
Any other cloth, causes huge red sores, welts, and blisters to appear all over my skin. The skin allergies to to pretty much every texture of cloth, are one of the most difficult things to live with, because there are so many things I can not wear: wool, georgette, moire, polyester, gabardine - all lovely fabrics, but I can't touch them. My skin breaks out in horrible bleeding blisters if I do.
And that's just the fabrics, let's not even get started on the seams and tags!
Did you know that I physically can not wear pants, because the inseam, causes irritation so bad, that the skin tears off of my inner thighs and crotch linings after wearing the pants for only a few minutes, resulting in my gushing blood down my legs and simply screaming in pain, because it feels (and looks) like someone just sliced my skin off with a knife?
THAT my friends, is Autism.
It's WAY more then a learning disability.
And anyone who tells you that Autism is only a mental disability, has never seen the food, skin, and sunlight allergic reactions people with Autism get.
Okay, Quaraun is not just wearing dresses to look pretty here. This guy has Autism, complete with all the skin irritations that come with it. He HAS to wear silk, because he's body is violently irritated by any other type of cloth, and he CAN'T wear pants, because the seams are going to tear his delicate flesh to shreds.
This guy has a disorder, that makes him act, speak, and react very different from other people, but it also causes tons of food, skin, and environmental allergies that are forcing him to have to work around them in any way he can, and wearing silk dresses, very simply is the best way for him to deal with his skin problems.
So, anyone who looks at a man who has Autism and is wearing silk dresses, and then you call him vile, evil, and perverted, blaming his wearing dresses on some sick perverted sexual fantasy of your own, is an inconsiderate pervert, who is too busy thinking about their own perverted sexual fantasies, to ever once consider that maybe, this guy has some kind of physical ailment that is forcing him to be the way he is.
I think the fact that I wrote several hundred stories featuring transvestite characters, over the course of 28 years, without ever once writing a single sex scene, says quite a lot, right there.
It says that I don't sexualize transvestite and use them as as fantasy sex toys, the way you do. And don't try to tell me you don't. YOU are the one who heard the word 'transvestite' and your mind dropped to the gutter and though transvestite = Erotica. You're the sick minded pervert who's sexuallizing a lifestyle that has absolutly nothing to do with sex.
Think about it.
In the past 37 years, I have written 600+ short stories, 30+ long books, a few dozen plays, and 2,000+ non-fiction articles, nearly all of which featuring transvestites, and I've only ever written about 36 sex scenes. I mean, that alone speaks volumes.
Think about it.
I have written Westerns, with transvestite saloon "girls". (For Disney no less! And you know how strict Disney is!) Good old fashioned, wholesome, child-safe, family-friendly, sex-free classic Lone Ranger style Westerns. With transvestite characters and no sex, nor any hint of sex.
I have written Sweet Romances, with transvestite heroines. Good old fashioned, wholesome, child-safe, family-friendly, sex-free classic Barbara Cartland style Sweet Romances. With transvestite characters and no sex, nor any hint of sex.
I have written D&D style Fantasies, with transvestite wizards. Good old fashioned, wholesome, child-safe, family-friendly, sex-free classic D&D or LoTR style Fantasies. With transvestite characters and no sex, nor any hint of sex.
I have written children's stories, with transvestite children, teens, and/or parents. Good old fashioned, wholesome, child-safe, family-friendly, sex-free classic Little Golden Book style children's stories. With transvestite characters and no sex, nor any hint of sex.
I have written Science Fiction, with transvestite heros. Good old fashioned, wholesome, child-safe, family-friendly, sex-free Star Trek and Lost in Space style Science Fiction stories. With transvestite characters and no sex, nor any hint of sex.
I have written tons and tons and tons of Gothic Horror, with transvestite heros. Good old fashioned, wholesome, child-safe, family-friendly, sex-free Edgar Alan Poe style Gothic Horror stories. With transvestite characters and no sex, nor any hint of sex.
I have written tons and tons and tons of Bizarro, with transvestite heros (namely Etiole; keeping in mind that yet again, Etiole the fictional character, is based off a real transvestite, a different one ). Good old fashioned, wholesome, child-safe, family-friendly, Twilight Zone style Bizarro stories. With transvestite characters and no sex, nor any hint of sex.
I mean, really, stop and THINK about this, because, it says A LOT.
Hey, here's something to think about. Did you know that the average age of most of my readers is 12 to 23? Yeah. Teenagers and young adults?
Did you notice that my web site, while very pro-transgender, is also child-safe, family friendly, and aimed directly at my readers who are predominantly teenagers and college students?
Has it occurred to you yet, that I do not now, nor have I ever written Erotica?
I think, if you are the type of person who can not separate a transvestite from Erotica, and think the only transvestite is the sexuallized fetish sex toy BDSM transvestite, then I think, you go something wrong with your head and need to see a psychiatrist, or a sex therapists, to find out why it is you are idolizing transvestites as sex objects, because Sugar Pie, it ain't me with the problem - it's you. I'm not the one who sees transvestites as sex objects: that would be you doing that.
NEWSFLASH: I treat transvestites like people, because hey, guess what? They ARE people! I treat transvestites as equals. I don't reduce transvestites do cardboard stereotypes and sex objects. Maybe you should give that a try someday, see how it feels to get off your holier than thou high horse and stop treating transvestites like your walking mats for a change.
Yes, some volumes (only a few) contain what could be described as "erotic scenes", but the majority of the books in this series contain absolutely no sex scenes at all.
If I had to sum up the entire Quaraun series in one GIF... it's this one. The cat in this GIF is so Quaraun:
QUESTION: Is this series Erotica?
LONG ANSWER: No. It's a spin-off of The Twighlight Manor series and thus is the same genre: Literary Bizarro.
It's the story of a seriously depressed, suicidal, gay Autistic Elf who dresses like Liberace and falls in love with a sex-crazed drug dealing bi-sexual unicorn. Yes. I grew up in the 1970s. And this is the prequel to a series I wrote in the 1970s.
No. It's not Erotica. It's Bizarro about a gay Elf and his unicorn.
Quaraun is a gay sissified transvestite Elf, born male but lives as a female, and is cast out of Elven society because of his lifestyle. The series follows his everyday life, following the everyday events of his life as he struggles to find acceptance in a world that has no tolerance for males who choose to dress as women.
The series is violent as he is constantly bullied, teased, and beaten up by pretty much everyone. Quaraun is eventually going to snap, become a serial killer and start torturing his bullies in grizzly Necromantic rituals.
No. Not Erotica. this is not a transvestite wielding a sex ready dick under his skirts, no, this is a transvestite wielding a machete and a pair of demon possesed jeweled daggers under his skirts. And he's had it with being bullied. Heads roll in this series. And a dancing purple Unicorn, skewers them like shish kebab on his silver horn.
As Quaraun's son, Roderic's father, Melaca often says: "I like my women like my coffee, ground up and in the freezer."
I did mention this was a spin-off of the Twighlight Manor series right? This series is going to take the exact same wrong turn down Gorn filled Splatter Punk Slasher feast that the TMseries did. The TMseries is not rated M for sex, Honey, there ain't no sex in the series, it's rated M for blood, guts, violence, rancid yak butter, and the traveling shovel of death.
Let's take a time warp back to MySpace. Turn this video on, then scroll down and blow your mind. The Twighlight Manor's MySpace page used to get huge traffic from people who'd just play the music, scroll down and then stare at the screen. Oh, yeah, you know you still want to, so here it is:
Oh, damn, I said time warp while talking about transvestites, you know what that means...time to do the time warp! And, yeah, let's give you that tunnel of love to time warp with again...
Never forget that in it's earliest days, The Twighlight Manor series started out as a fanfiction crossover of The Rocky Horror Picture show and Disney's The Cat From Outer Space.
Yeah, there it is. I LOVE Tim Curry. <3
I did mention I grew up in the 1970s and loved it, right?
Okay...are you starting to see why it is I'm confused as to why I'm getting so many questions asking me if the quaraun series is erotica? It's a freaking prequel to the Twighlight Manor series. It's essentially the same story, just now I'm writing the story of characters, who were long dead before the story started. It's a whole different generation of the same family.
Up til now, the Twighlight Manor series has followed the lives of the characters who living in the Manor from 1600s to 2525. The Quaraun series is the same family, but BEFORE the Twighlight Manor is built. Most of the Quaraun series takes place in the 1300s to 1400s, just before the erection of the Manor in the 1500s.
The Twighlight Manor series is bizarre, bloody, Dark Horror/Sci-Fi. The Quaraun series is a slightly lighter, not quiet as gorey and more Fantasy than Sci-Fi version of the same genre: Absurdist Fiction aka Bizarro. And this is not news, I've been writing the Twighlight Manor series since 1978, and it currently has 237 volumes in the entire serial set.
And you are asking me if this is Erotica?
Like the Twighlight Manor series, The Quaraun series is 1970s Faeries and Unicorns and Elves - with sharp weapons and megalomaniac glee over dancing like Oompa-Loompas in your blood while wearing your entrails on their heads. I am considered the Queen of [Bizarre] Gorn for a reason you know.
The tag line of the Twighlight Manor series is:
"Welcome to the Twighlight Manor, pray they don't ask you to stay for dinner."
The only real difference between the Quaraun series and the Twighlight Manor series, is the TMseries is a set of Star Logs written by a group of cats from outer space, sending back reports of the alien Fae who have invaded planet Earth, told from the 4th person broken wall point of view of The Eel Kat, while the Quaraun series is told 3rd person limited from Quaraun's point of view.
Quaraun, is, after all, Roderic Swanzen's grandfather, Etiole Swanzen's great grandfather, and that can only mean one thing: he's the serial killing king that built the flesh-eating sentient house the series is named for.
Oh yeah, NEWSFLASH: Unicorn is Blackbird's grandfather. You remember Blackbird: White Rock Asylum For The Criminally Insane's third most dangerous inmate, after the Lansquin and the Red Dragon. You only have to jump ahead two generations to get from Quaraun and Unicorn, to their grandchildren and the chainsaw mass murder, cannibal yum-feast of the TMseries.
You got to remember, when The Twighlight Manor series first came out, I had to self-publish it because NO PUBLISHER WOULD TOUCH IT. Everywhere I went, editors told me it was too violent, too gory, too bloody, too graphic, too stomach churning, the murder scenes described in too much detail.
Then after I had local print shops print it up, I couldn't find stores willing to carry it, because shop owners were saying it was too violent, too gory, too bloody, too graphic, too stomach churning, the murder scenes described in too much detail.
People were not complaining about sex and calling it Erotica, because there was no sex and it was not Erotica. They were complaining about the graphic nature of the violence, blood, guts, and gore.
This series is now traditionally printed in small runs and sold out of the trunk of my car from the parking lots of various LDS/Mormon churches. Which is why most of my readers are LDS/Mormons, and I think why the addition of sex scenes to the Quaraun series has gotten so many readers in a tizzy. Blood, guts. gore, that's fines, Mormons are a-okay with that, but sex, oh nooo, no sex is eeeeevil. And even one minor mention of fade into black sex, is enough in their minds to make this Erotica. Yeah. I don't get it either, but that's what they are telling me.
I know the covers of the Twighlight Manor series always confuse people because they are pink and kittens and cute and cuddly, but, that's kind of the point. Absurdist Fiction is absurd, Bizarro is Bizarre. Roderic wears pink. Pink is Roderic's favorite colour, and more then half the characters in the series, are talking alien cats, who are trying to tell the Humans, "Hey you got aliens living in that house, they are going to eat you," and the Humans are not listening, because, well, who listens to anything a cat says.
The Quaraun series, will have the cats in it, but not as frequently, and it will get bloody, but not as bloody as the Twighlight Manor series, and the Quaraun series, does step away from the tradition of no on page sex. A FEW of the 130+ volumes contain sex scenes, because the series follows the everyday events of Quaraun's life and over the course of his life he does have sex as people are prone to do.
The thing was, there was sex in some of the later Twighlight Manor books, the ones written after the 1993 book burning boycott church leaders staged. The only reason they didn't know that is because a majority of Mormons, when told by a church leader what to wear, what not to where, who to marry, who not to marry, what to read, what not to read, they obey without question, because they had no free will of their own. I'm a 5th generation Mormon, with a family of 368 brown-nosing yes-men, *I mean people* and I got rather disgusted growing up watching them, having absolutely one one shred of freedom.
Here's a quick aside: did you know that Mormons are not allowed to masterbate or participate in oral sex or anal sex? The church has actual ordinances against these things and anyone who openly admits to doing these things is excommunicated. Yes, I personally know 5 people who were excommunicated on those grounds. No, we are not talking about sex outside of marriage, we are talking about consenting husbands and wives who were excommunicated, for engaging in the "wrong type of sexual activity". Did I mention it completely disgusts me the kind of control church leaders have over Mormons. And if you want to know why I stay in the Mormon church, that's a topic for another page, but I'll get right on writing that for you, so watch for it to show up soon.
Well, that there is an example of WHY I write the things I do write into the Twighlight Manor series and now also the Quaraun series: Because there are 16 local Bishops screaming and yelling and pulling their hair out going absolutely mad trying to stop me from writing these books and the more they bitch and complain and tell me what NOT to put in them, the more those are EXACTLY the things I add to them.
Lately one of the local bishops has been on my case about bi-sexuals. I'm not sure why, but hey, since he suggested I not write about it...most of the Quaraun series follows his relationship with a bi-sexual, serial-killing, shape-shifting, drug-dealing Unicorn, named BoomFuzzy, who lives in a gingerbread house, makes drugged Fae Food to lure unsuspecting Humans to his dinner plate, and is the only person who accepts Quaraun for who he is.
Remove the violence and gore, if this were a movie, it'd only be rated PG-13, and rated that only for the language (there is a lot of swearing and dropping of the f-word) and the use of drugs (secondary character is a Faerie specializing in making drugged Fae Food to trap Humans into the Realm of Fae so he can eat them.)
I think my question to you is: WHY are SO MANY people jumping to the conclusion that this series is Erotica? I mean, this is the single most asked question about the series (I have received this question nearly 30 times now). I can not figure out why I'm being bombarded with this question.
Okay, let me put is another way: Do you classify the Austin Powers movies as Erotica? Genre-wise, the Quaraun series most closely matches the Austin Powers series, as the Quaraun series is a silly nonsensical spoof that makes fun of various 1970s/1980s shows.
Erotica when made into a movie is Rate-X (now called NC-17).
The Austin Powers movies are only rated PG-13 (not even bad enough to be Rated R) and are aimed at an intended age group of 16 to 25 years old. It is considered Young Adult (YA) same as Harry Potter.
Are you not familiar with Austin Powers? Here's the intro for it:
In the Quaraun series, Unicorn act EXACTLY like what you just saw Austin Powers acting like in that video. ^ Except while he's dancing around naked and making sex jokes, he's also gutting some Human that had the misfortune of getting to close to his gingerbread house.
If you are the type of person who classifies that PG-13 YA movie for teens to be Erotica, then, yes, you are going to think The Quaraun series is Erotica. But the rest of the world is going to laugh at you for not knowing what Erotica is, because that's not Erotica.
No. This series is NOT Erotica and if you buy it thinking you are buying Erotica, you will be VERY disappointed. Sorry. I don't know how this rumour got started or who it is that's been running around calling it Erotica, causing so many people to contact me and ask me if it's Erotica, but, no. Not Erotica.
Does the series even LOOK like Erotica to you? I mean seriously, just look at the covers. Do they LOOK like Erotica covers? Have you ever seen an Erotica cover? Erotica books are full of naked people on the covers. Do you see any naked people on these covers? *jeese*
HOW ARE SO MANY PEOPLE CONTACTING ME AND ASKING: "Is this Erotica? I heard it was Erotica?" You HEARD the Quaraun series was Erotica? I'm sorry, but where? Who is saying that? And WHY?
I do not have it listed as Erotica. I have never called it Erotica. I think I would like to know who in the heck is running around telling people this is Erotica? And why? Clearly, somebody, somewhere, has said something about these books and called them Erotica, because I can not fathom any other reason, why I am being bombarded with questions asking me if this is an Erotica series.
No. It's not Erotica. It's Bizarro about a gay Elf and his unicorn. The purple unicorn, whose name is BoomFuzzy, lives in a gingerbread house, in The Forest of No Return.
It's a gay Elf being chased around the planet by a horny unicorn (pun intended). They periodically jump through portals and come out on other planets or in different time periods, and they FLY across the sky in a pirate ship. (Keeping in mind these are the novelized rewrites of D&D Spelljammer game sessions. I've been playing D&D since the 1980s and have keep records of every single game session and I'm using those to write these with.)
The unicorn, who is a shape-shifter, sometimes turns himself into a pink flamingo at tea parties and runs off with rainbow colored Grateful Dead style dancing teddy bears wearing sequined g-strings.
The unicorn gets the Elf addicted to mushrooms and frogs because he wants sex, and the Elf becomes the unicorn's willing sex slave because he wants drugs. And they see all sorts of weird things and meet all sorts of weird characters, like a Leprechaun who lives in a mushroom and a giant poisonous green jelly cube that tries to eat them. And you the reader has no clue what is really happening to them and what is just drug induced ... in fact ... it's not even clear if the Elf is really travelling with a unicorn at all, or if he's just travelling by himself the whole time, because like the Snuffleupagus, not everybody sees the unicorn. But, hey, this is a world where Jello Jigglers come alive and eat people, so yeah...
Think of it as Alice in Wonderland if Alice was a transvestite Elf wearing pink ball gowns at Woodstock, tossed into Dungeons and Dragons, and everything is pink, and clouds are made of cotton candy and lollipops grow on trees and the unicorn, which may or may not be a figment of the Elf's warped imagination, eats the white rabbit...
I did mention that Quaraun is insane, right?
He's an Autistic Elf, pushed beyond his limits by bullies, drugged out of his mind by a unicorn and becomes a serial killer and then builds a giant house that is alive and eats people, and in a very Little Shop of Horrors fashion, he starts feeding people to his house. Twighlight Manor spin off, remember? House that eats people, built by a psychotic serial killer? This is the prequel to tell how the house got built and who built it and why.
And for some reason while I'm writing it, I have The Great Space Coaster zipping through my head.
Please, tell me somebody reading this actually knows what that means.
You know what, I'm not gonna be able to get that out of my head now that I've said it. I'm going to head over to YouTube see if there is somebody out there who's crazy enough to have posted that. Back in a sec...
...OMG! I found it! There's actually somebody who put this on YouTube! Okay, here you go...Quaraun is like an adult version of this...if you could imagine this as porn staring a gay Elf and a unicorn:
Wow...I loved that show. Never missed it.
What other weird shows did I use to watch that I can compare Quaraun too?
Ooooh! Oh! This has nothing to do with Quaraun, but I just remembered, I used to have a 78 player and they was a song and I used to play it, over and over and over again...and the reason was I couldn't find things funny, you know, because I had Autism. And I wanted to teach myself how to laugh. And after Great Space Coaster ended, I'd put this reacord on and play it all day long, to teach myself how to laugh. And I know it's it's on youTube, because I play it on YouTube...this, will kind of show you how weird my childhood was...
Sometimes I'd get bored with that song and play this one for a few days instead:
And I used to watch (still do) Sesame Street JUST so I could hear this, my all time favorite 1970s cartoon song:
I know I'm going soooo off topic here, but writing the Quaraun series is basically me having myself a nice little midlife crisis, and writing stuff based of weird stuff I used to watch on TV as a kid.
Okay, I'm gonna torture you now. THIS is my favorite YouTube video, I play it EVERY morning, first thing, when I get up, EVERY DAY...Oh yes...here, he is. The man himself! My hero! My idol! My role model. My favorite Autistic person. The inspiration for everything I do and everything I wear: Liberace!
Oh, look at him go! I love that video. If you're one of my long time readers, or anybody who ever followed me on Squidoo, you knoooow I ain't gonna stop now. Let's go find us some more of those sequins, eh?
I know...let's see if we can find the hot pants...
Oh, you'll love this.
So, you don't have to ask: "So, what do Quaraun's cloths actually look like?"... I'm gonna show you, what the pink peacock of an Elf actually dresses...oh, yeah...it's on YouTube... okay watch this whole thing BUT... pay particular attention to the pink peacock costume at 6:45 THAT is the way Quaraun dresses. :D
You gotta keep in mind here, that there are VERY few Autistic people who have ever been able to sidestep their disability and just run with their talent, in spite of the naysayers. If you know the story of Liberace's life, he went through hell to get to where he got.
People HATED him. And the more they hated him, the more he kept on doing what he did best: piano and glitter. He couldn't do much and he had a really hard time talking and he was never able to drive a car (even though he owned 64 of them) and he had a million and one phobias, but he didn't let any of those things stop him from being who he was.
A lot of people today, who didn't grow up with The Liberace show, don't realize that he was a comedian, so here, watch these...the episode with the police officer stopping him for playing too fast is one of my fave episodes. (it starts at 2:49 on the top video of these 2 videos):
I practically worship that man. Hell, I own The Church of the Holy Rhinestone (yes, it's a real church) and petitioned him into sainthood (he's the patron saint of mothers, fashion, and autistic children).
Quaraun's wardrobe, was designed after Liberace's. Every inch of Quaraun is covered in embroidery and glitter and sequins and beads and jewels. And all in pink and sometimes with feathers.
So take everything Liberace wore, turn it pink, make it into a dress, and that Quaraun.
But do keep in mind the style of Quaraun's dresses are very Persian. In spite of the bright pink and glitter, Quaraun is still a Gypsy and wears VERY traditional styled Gypsy outfits. Quaraun is a Gypsy and wears the same style traditional cloths as is worn by the Scottish Gypsies (or are actually Persian in spite of the name) and our traditional style clothing looks like THIS:
So Quaraun dresses like that, on in pink Liberace` style glitter.
Did you know that Liberace was the first man to wear pink on TV? Want to see it? It's on this video at 1:39 (and it's displayed on the preview.) This is the shade, when it says Quaraun is wearing "bubblegum pink sequins", it's this color:
I miss the '70s.
The Quaraun series is like me jumping through a portal back to mu childhood, grabbing all my favorite things from the '70s and bringing them all back and stuffing them into Quaraun's life for no reason at all.
It's not Erotica. It's 70s freak show. Some volumes have erotic scenes in it, but the series as a whole is not Erotica.
It is written in a quasi-play script format and is almost entirely dialogue with little to no descriptions in most of the story.
There is minimal action, many stories having no action at all. This is not a fast paced, heart pounding series.
This is NOT a plot driven series and as such moves forward very slowly.
It is a VERY character driven series and has a lot of monologuing going on.
Have you ever read Ernest Hemingway's "Hill's Like White Elephants"? If not, read it. The entire story is two characters sitting in a bar talking over drinks. The Quaraun series is written using that same format. About 90% of the series is Quaraun and another character sitting and talking in a tavern.
Have you ever seen Vincent Price's movie "House of Usher"? If not, go watch that movie. MOST people find that movie to be dull, dry, slow moving, and very boring. It's not a popular movie. It is considered a very "literary" movie, and mostly features Roderic and Phillip sitting in a room talking to each other. Every once in a while they change rooms and then talk some more. Nothing ever happens in this movie. NOTHING.
It's like one of those really artsy foreign language subtitled films only art students watch. Art students LOVE those movies and the rest of the world goes, HUH?
Here's a summary of the movie:
Philip visits Roderic and his sister.
Roderic becomes depressed and talks about death and suicide.
Phillip tells Roderic he's crazy.
They change rooms.
Roderic talks about how his house wants to eat him.
Phillip tells Roderic he's crazy.
They change rooms.
Roderic talks about how his house wants to eat him because generations of his family are serial killers.
Phillip tells Roderic he's crazy.
They change rooms.
Roderic talks about how his house wants to eat him and therefore he must kill himself and his sister.
Phillip tells Roderic he's crazy.
They change rooms.
Roderic murders his sister.
Phillip tells Roderic he's crazy.
They change rooms.
Sister's undead corpse murders Roderic.
Philp runs out of the house and says Roderic was crazy.
But why talk about it when we can watch it? Okay...I got my Liberace fix for the day, let's get that Vincent Price as Roderic obsession out of my system next:
(And yes, that is my #1 favorite movie of all time and my Roderic and his Twighlight Manor is out right fanfiction of Vincent Price's version of Edgar Allan Poe's Roderic and the House of Usher.)
If you find Vincent Price's movie "House of Usher" to be dull, dry, slow moving, and very boring, and you think those really artsy foreign language subtitled films only art students watch are not for you, then you probably will find the Quaraun series to be dull, dry, slow moving, and very boring as well.
If you are the type of person who LOVE's Vincent Price's movie "House of Usher" and enjoy going to see those really artsy foreign language subtitled films only art students watch, then you'll probably love the Quaraun series.
And because there is no such thing as too much Vincent Price:
Isn't he wonderful?
Now where was I?
Oh, yes, my books and what genre is it... I get side tracked so easily.
Well, I suppose the issue here is the fact that unlike my previous books, the Quaraun series does have sex scenes in them and that is tripping people up somehow, because I guess they just didn't expect it?
Well, the Quaraun series is NOT for kids, and while I personally know a lot of parents who would have no issue with their teenagers reading books like these, I also personally know a lot of parents who wouldn't let their children near a series like this.
So, I would definatly recomend, that if you are under the age of 18, then yeah, you probably want to get your parent's permission before reading these books, because they DO contain graphic sex scenes and they do contain drug use and there is a lot of swearing and also violence, and there is a heavy theme of suicide, with multiple characters committing suicide throughout the series, plus there is a HUGE theme of transvestites and Autistics being bullied, teased, beaten up, and pushed around, along with a theme of the said transvestite/Autistic reacting very violently towards his attackers and both killing and eating them.
And likewise, if you are over 18 and you are squeamish about, bothered by, or have issues with any of the topics I just listed, well, yeah, tread lightly, because these books could easily upset you if any of those things bother you.
I know my writing style is very different from more mainstream books and I'm not trying to be mainstream, so I expect people to not like it. Thing you have to remember is, I have Autism: I am not attracted to fast paced books or fast paced movies. I like books and movies that meander along slowly in a relaxed, not in any hurry to get to the end manner. But there are not many books out there like that, which is why I write my own books the way I do.
I'm not writing to cater to any particular type of reader. I'm simply writing the book I want to read. That's it. Nothing more.
Like I said, this series is NOT a good fit for the overall general public. Most people are probably not going to like it. But that's okay. There are folks who like it and, I absolutely love it. I just have so much fun writing this thing, and for me that's the best part. There isn't much in life that I really enjoy, but writing this series is one of the things I really enjoy doing.
Now some volumes of the series are erotic, I suppose. There are graphic sex scenes in the series, and if you took those scenes on their own without the rest of the book, well those scenes could be described as Erotica.
Not every story in the series has sex in it though, in fact a lot of them don't. The Night of the Screaming Unicorn is probably one of the more graphic volumes, and so is The Jiggler and the G-String Teddy Bears and The FarDarrig of Secrets, but most volumes are going to be more or less having very little sex if any at all. So, while there is crude porn style language in pretty much every volume, actually on page sex scenes are only happening once in a while in only a few volumes.
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The series does however classify as Yaoi, which is sometimes considered a sub-genre of Erotica, HOWEVER Yaoi often doesn't have sex scenes in it, because Yaoi isn't necessarily about sex.
Yaoi has far more in common with Romance then Erotica. Yaoi translated into English is "Boy Love". It means the main couple of the story is a gay couple. that's all the word Yaoi ACTUALLY means. Yaoi can be Erotica and it can be Romance or it can be neither, because Yaoi can also be Horror or Science Fiction or, as in the case of the Quaraun series: Literary Bizarro set in a D&D style Fantasy world.
I suppose we need to look at What is Erotica?
My view of Erotica is that it is a sex scene with no plot. The point of an Erotica story is character A meets character B and BOOM: SEX! SEX! SEX! The End. Often Erotica doesn't even give the characters names. Rarely does erotica give the characters lives, hobbies, or personalities. The characters don't even have faces or features, all they have a boobs or balls and nothing else. THAT is Erotica. I know because I have 8,000 Erotica books on my Kindle and I've read every one of them and they all exactly that and nothing more.
How does The Night of The Screaming Unicorn compare o this? Well, it has a story and a plot and the characters have very detailed lives and issues and while there is sex in the story, the story is not about sex.
MOST Erotica is between 5,000 to 7,000 words long. Once in a while you see one that reaches 10,000 words or even 20,000 words. Novels (50,000 words+) are unusual and rare in the Erotica genre.
Now if you are somebody who doesn't read Erotica and you read 50 Shades of Grey and thought it was Erotica, well, then, yes, maybe you are going to think that The Night of The Screaming Unicorn is Erotica. I suppose the question here is: Do you think 50 Shades of Grey is Erotica? I don't. I'm not sure how anyone could, actually. But why do I ask this? Because when you compare a Romance Novel like 50 Shades of Grey to a Yaoi Boy's Love Light Novel like The Night of The Screaming Unicorn well, good God! It is Yaoi after all.
Yaoi is gay fiction for female readers. It is NOT intended to gay male readers and does not represent a typical gay relationship. The point of yaoi, is not so much to have sex, but rather to have as many naked men with erect dicks, cocks, and penises as possible on every page. Yaoi novels are to female fans what PlayBoy magazine is to male fans.
Yaoi not Erotica, in the same way PlayBoy is not Erotica. Yaoi is meant to show off the male body, the same way PlayBoy is meant to show off the female body. The difference being that Yaoi is text and PlayBoy is pictures.
A primary feature of the Yaoi genre is the fact that male characters in the stories, obsessivly talk about male geniteials and obsess over looking at or touching other male characters, often without any sex taking place at all.
Within Yaoi there are many niches. The Quaraun series features the following niches: balls, knotting, barbs, and tentacles, with the series being primarily a "ball fetish" sub-genre. The Quaraun series caters to a female reader who like swinging balls, slapping balls, squeezing balls, rubbing balls, licking balls, tieing up balls to see how much the man can take, and over all glorifying in the fact that the male scrotum is the most magnificent object the world has ever known.
The men in this series have large, low hung swinging balls, that do a lot of slapping around. Secondary character Unicorn, has got a ball grabbing fetish and thinks nothing of walking up to a stranger and sticking his hand down their pants to squeeze them and see what size balls they got. This is in fact how he introduces himself to main character Quaraun. Every volume in the series features Unicorn grabbing somebody by the balls, just to see how they react to being grabbed.
Unicorn follows Quaraun around precisely because of the fact that Quaraun has a loose ball sac with large, low hung swinging balls. Quaraun isn't a very sexual person, he'd be perfectly happy never having sex, which is how he got to be 330 years old and still a virgin at the time he meets Unicorn. He has absolutely no interest in sex at all. He is VERY effeminate and is described as having a small dick and not liking to use it. It's very obvious he's got a low, practically non-existent, testosterone level, which makes him very, very submissive. And yet, he has a large ball sac that Unicorn goes crazy over.
Quaraun, who hates to be touched by anyone, allows Unicorn to touch him, and do, just about anything he want to him, because Quaraun in turn is fascinated by Unicorn's barbed wolf-like and large horse-like penis. Unicorn is a shape shifter and basically created for himself, "the ultimate penis" with length and girth and barbs and sensual dark purple tint. Quaraun becomes addicted to Unicorn's big, black, barbed dick.
The Night of the Screaming Unicorn, contains first time reluctant, interacial, gay annal sex that includes barbed dicks and knotting. You've got a small, virgin white Elf, how basically gets mauled by a sex-crazed black shape-shifter with a really big, barbed dick, capable of knotting. The sex scene lasts for 23,000 words of the 55,000 words of the story. And Unicorn does literally fuck Quaraun until he's unconscious and them keeps on fucking. It is borderline rape fantasy.
In the original fan-fiction version, this was written as an actual rape scene, with Quaraun being abducted by a unicorn and raped by said unicorn, and in the original Unicorn was an actual unicorn (as in a horse).
Because of Amazon's ToS, I had to make changes to the original to "softened" it down so it could be sold on Amazon. The edition on Amazon, is no longer a true rape scene because while scared of what's about to happen to him, Quaraun is willing to allow it; and Unicorn is in his humanoid form when it happens. And, even though it is VERY mild compared to the original version.
The Night of the Screaming Unicorn is very mild if you compare it to books in the Erotica section of Amazon.
If you've never read Yaoi and are asking what is knotting and barbed penieses, well. It's exactly what it sounds like: the man has sharp thorns (like a rose bush or a blackberry shrub, or as described in Unicorn's case: a hawthorn tree) growing out of his dick, which makes for rather painful (and often bloody) sex for whoever he's fucking.
In The Night of the Screaming Unicorn, being knotted for the first time by a barbed cock is so painful that Quaraun passes out and is unconscious for days.
Quaraun is an Elf that loves pain. Unicorn is a Unicorn that sadistically loves giving pain. The series boarders into BDSM as a result, but it's not normal BDSM, it's Bizarro BDSM, because, in real life, men don't have 3 inch long retractable hawthorn-ike thorns growing out of the sides of their dicks.
If you are squeamish about painful, violent, bloody sex, you really don't want to read the Quaraun series, because, while the sex scenes are few and far between, they are violent and brutal, and graphic when they do show up.
Into The Swamp of Death delves more into BDSM then The Night of The Screaming Unicorn does. Screaming Unicorn falls more into Reluctance then BDSM. And Into the Swamp of Death only has one, rather mild BDSM sex scene in it, not anywheres near enough to classify it as either Erotica or true BDSM (though if you are someone who has never read BDSM and not used to rough and brutal sex scenes that include nipple torture and blood-letting then it may be too much for you to handle.)
The Vampire Leprechaun of Fire Mountain, on the other hand, has no sex scenes in it at all, but includes Unicorn talking about dick sizes and sopping pussies, and was in fact seen by one reader as MORE sexually graphic then the other two volumes which contained actual sex scenes.
Remember what I said about the series OVERALL being Rated M-18 BUT most stories are only T-16? Not every story in the series has sex, and therefore IT IS NOT EROTICA because the requirement to be Erotica, is after all: sex. Several volumes in the series, like The Night of The Screaming Unicorn and Into The Swamp do contain sex scenes that are "Erotic heat level" but that does not in itself make the story erotica.
Another fetish found in the Quaraun series and seen in The Night of The Screaming Unicorn and Into The Swamp of Death is blood letting. Unicorn is and Elf Eater by nature and is frequently biting or clawing Quaraun, often wounding him quite badly (as seen in The Vulgar Alchemist's Inn), so that he can drink his blood.
Quaraun, like I said before, is addicted to pain, and is suicidal. He thrives on Unicorn's blood drinking fetish and Quaraun often states that he only feels alive when he has to fight to stay alive, thus there are several times where Unicorn nearly kills him during a blood frenzy.
Unicorn, who is a shape-shifter and spends his time in Humanoid form, also sprouts tentacles from time to time. While they never do it, Unicorn often talks of his desire to fuck Quaraun while in his Unicorn form. In his horse form, Unicorn is described as an extra-large black Friesian stallion with a gleaming silver horn. They don't have sex while Unicorn is a unicorn, because Quaraun (an extra small Elf with extra large balls) is terrified of how huge the stallion's black cock is.
So SOME stories of the Quaraun series are Bizarro Unicorn Porn Yaoi, a sub-genre of Monster Porn. But like I said, Most stories are not going to have very many, if any, sex scenes at all. The bigger sex scenes could possibly be called erotica scenes, but, a book has to do more than contain erotic scenes to be classified as Erotica.
Plus consider, that the series does have 294 volumes plotted out, 130 volumes outlines, 21 volumes nearly finished, and probably fewer then 40 of them are expected to have sex scenes in them.
Now, there is the issue of language to consider here. I was talking with a panel of local (beta test) readers who got together to talk about the books before they were published and one woman (who had never read my books before and expressed deep shock over the language) called all of the books she pre-read "Porn" - even The Vampire Leprechaun of Fire Mountain.
Well, this puzzled me because Vampire Leprechaun doesn't even have any sex in it at all, and yet, she described it at having sex beginning to end and being vile and perverted. I asked for an explanation as to how she concluded a book with no sex scenes could have sex from beginning to end.
I eventually came to realize what she was referring to. Unicorn, using the word "fuck" pretty much every sentence. Unicorn also uses the words "cock", "dick", "penis", "cum", "erection", "balls". "jobbie", "bawbag", "dobber", "bollocks", and/or "pussy", kind of every time he opens his mouth. He is very, very, very vulgar and uses very crude language and is is a primary character in most of the books.
However, it must be remembered that this same type of language is seen in a PG-13 YA movie aimed at teenagers. Watch this PG-13 clip from Austin Powers (a movie that many consider to be "just a children's film"):
That's is the way Unicorn is talking in the books. That's NOT Erotica, and yet, people have read Fire Mountain (a book with no sex scenes) and called it Erotica, because of the way Unicorn talks.
(I used that video, because it's one of only 2 movies [Passion of Christ was the other] that the LDS/Mormon Church has ever banned. I was in the Relief Society meeting when they read the letter the Prophet had sent out to all the Wards & Stakes. The letter, declared the Austin Powers movie to be "pornography" and "Erotica". And told members to make an active campaign against the movie. I found myself shocked and horrified to see a room of 70+ women, rave and rant on how Autism Powers was the "most graphic porn movie ever made"...yeah...uhm...
Wow. You know, if they think Austin Powers is porn, I'd really hate to see how they respond to actual porn. Do they even know what sex is?
I'm kind of wondering how any woman in the room ever reached the point of having babies. But, you got to remember, this is a religion that FORBIDs "sex while nude" - oh yeah... you are strictly forbidden to remove your temple garments during sex. Temple garments by the way, and made wade with "crotch slits" for the purpose of sex, without ever having to remove your cloths or commit the sin of seeing your spouse naked. Yeah, ask me again why I REFUSE to wear temple garments? - I like sex. And, well, you only have to read a few pages into the Quaraun series to realize I love the male body.)
So, yeah, if you are a Mormon (as many of my readers, who are contacting me, in horror over the content of these books, seem to be) then, yeah, you really want to stay away from the Quaraun series because, you'll definitely think it's Porn and "extreme" Erotica. But for normal people, actually know what Erotica is, no, this isn't Erotica.
But my being a 5th generation Mormon seems to have gotten some people under the impression, that I give a shit about letting a religion crazed lunatic *I mean Bishop* control my life. I'm sorry, but no. Just because my husband happens to be the High Priest Quorum leader of the Sanford, Maine Ward of the Exeter Stake of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and is a temple priest at the Boston Temple, and like the good little hypocrite *I mean Mormon* that he is with all his talk of hating gays and anti-gay blah, blah, blah crap, doesn't mean that my books don't contain swearing, crudeness, or sex.
Heck, do you have any idea how fast they'd excommunicate my holier than thou high priest husband if I ever decided to walk into church naked? Oooooh! It's an attack of the eeeeeviiiiil gaaayz. Uhmm-huh. Yes, I attend Relief Society and use the women's restroom, and attended Young Woman's. And I'm not the only one. No. I'm not. There are several gay men from Ogunquit in that Ward, and you want to see an active LDS LGBT community, head to the Cape Elizabeth Ward. I'm only unique because I'm not closeted.
But then, I exists side by side with the Mormon women and they really are clueless, and they see me write books and they think it's Christian YA Fantasy, and then read it and go off screaminging it's Erotica, when it's neither one nor the other.
And they are screaming at me, in person, to my face: "There are evil transvestites in it! blah, blah, blah, evil transvestites! blah, blah, blah! transvestites are evil, blah, blah, blah, how can you write about those evil transvestites..."...
I'm just standing there looking at them, thinking "Really? It's not like there's not any of those evil transvestites sitting right here next you."
I was an Avon representative for 16 years. I have a degree in Costume Making and Fashion Design. And I worked in theatre years ago. I'm good at what I do. Too good, I had men hitting on me every day in college, I'd say: "You know I'm a transvestite right?" They'd laugh, thought I was joking.
I've been attending Relief Society for 40 years and they haven't noticed YET.
Oh, but non-Mormon straight women, LOVE transvestites, they come to you for make-up tips, hair styling tips, and advice on how to wear corsets, and fashion advice, and then they say stuff like "You are sooooo pretty, I want to have your babies!" Women are constantly throwing themselves at me, which is weird.
Note to all the heterosexual men out there reading this: if you want women, go extreme drag, blind them with pink sequins, pimp out in feather lashes, blood red lipstick...they'll be all over you like flies to manura. You won't be able to get rid of them. Women LOVE transvestites. (As long as they're not Mormons, Mormon women HATE transvestites.)
Then I have gay men walk up to me and scream in my face: "You ought to be ashamed of yourself! look at you! Dressed like that! You give us a bad name!"
I irk so many people with my very existence. It's astounding the wide variety of reactions people have to me.
NEWSFLASH: gay is not synonymous with Erotica
SPECIAL NEWSFLASH: Transvestite is not synonymous with Erotica either.
Near as I can tell, the women that are running around falsely accusing this series of being Erotica, are all Mormon women, who have a 3rd grade level knowledge of how babies are made, think nude sex is "of Satan", have never seen their husband naked, have never let their husband see them naked, think all gay people are minions of Satan, and basically have no clue what sex, Erotica, or Porn even is. So they flipped out when confronted with a naked penis and swinging pair of balls mentioned in the written word.
I'm just shaking my head and wondering: are these people really THAT clueless about what sex is? Are they really THAT sheltered and ignorant about the basic functions of the human body? How in the Hell did they have children?
Here's a NEWSFLASH: To get babies, you have to take a penis and insert it in a vagina...over and over and over again. And guess what: It's NOT evil, because, it's the way GOD MADE YOU. You stupid idiots! Sex isn't evil or "of Satan" God is the inventor of sex, you dingbat! If sex was made by Satan, then you was created by Satan. Did you ever think of THAT? Come on people! Even the Victorians knew more about sex.
I just can't understand how it is, that a character using the word "fuck" in a sentence, can be seen as the book's genre being Erotica.
Quaraun, doesn't talk much. Unicorn on the the other hand, doesn't shut up. And if his mouth is open for the purpose of talking, you can be certain the word "fuck" is going to be on that page, because he uses it like an adjective and and adverb, in addition to a noun and verb. He uses the word fuck the same way a Smurf uses the word smurf. Thus a sentence like: "Oh my friggin fuck! What the flying fuck is that fucker doing? Fuck! Look at him fucking off over there!" Is the type of thing Unicorn is going to say.
In Vampire Leprechaun there is mention of a sex scene, that is not shown on the page, but Unicorn talks about it as only Unicorn can do. So, I guess it's open to interpretation. Are you the type of reader who considers it Erotica, if a character uses those words while talking? Well, then, you'd call it Erotica.
There is a scene where the Dwarf Bullgaar throws his cloths off and jumps in the brook to swim, and Unicorn, spends a half a page comparing dick sizes. Bullgaar who is only half Dwarf, is hall Hill Giant and he is described throughout the series as "the Dwarf with a Giant's dick". Bullgaar, who is very proud of his giant dick, that is MUCH bigger then everyone else's takes every opportunity to take his cloths off so he can show people his dick.
Again, I would not call a scene like this Erotica, but some readers are. It's a Dwarf skinny dipping and a Faerie talking about dicks sizes. I do not consider that Erotica. Porn, maybe, depending on the reader's point of view, possibly, yeah, I'd definitely call the series Porn, with all it's erect dicks of every page, but definitely not Erotica.
Erotica is classy. Porn is crude. This series is not classy, it's crude. It's VERY crude. It crosses the line of crude several times. It's crude in a very South Park sort of way. It's not sexy sex, like in Erotica, it's crude sex talk like in South Park.
I'm not sure what genre you'd call South Park, but whatever genre it is, take it and toss it into a Dungeons and Dragons style era and setting and that's what genre the Quaraun series is.
Crude on many levels of crude. Quaraun, tried to be elegant and dignified, while he is adventuring, questing and travelling with a bunch of guys who don't give a flying fuck about adventures or questing, because all they want to do is visit every tavern of every town they pass.
A typical scene from this series goes like this:
Bullgaar's favorite pastime is "wenching" and they stop at every tavern they find, so that Bullgaar can test out the local whores, often on the table while Quaraun is trying to eat, a task he frequently finds difficult as Bullgaar keeps tossing whores on the table to fuck them.
Meanwhile, Unicorn and FarDarrig are chugging ale and seeing who can burp the loudest.
Drunk Unicorn then decides, why let Bullgaar have all the fun, spikes Quaraun's drink with whatever drug he has on him at the time, Quaraun leaves reality, is higher then the moon and can't tell up from down, while Unicorn tosses Quaraun on a table to fuck him until he passes out.
FarDarrig (a vampire leprechaun) then grabs the nearest Human, cuts their head off and drinks their blood while making a hatband out of their entrails.
A portal opens up out of no where and and army of rainbow colored teddy bears with erect dicks barely hidden behind sequined g-strings come dancing in and blow the tavern up.
Yeah...like I said...it's a gay Elf on drugs, with a horny unicorn keeping him drugged, and they are supposed to be on a Dungeons and Dragons style quest to save the world from Liches, but they have trouble ever getting out of the tavern (almost every volume is set in a tavern) so they never get around to saving anybody.
It has more in common with being a comadey/parody spoof of Erotica, than being actual Erotica.
Unicorn has a MAJOR sex addiction and he doesn't stop talking about the fact that he pretty much wants to fuck EVERYONE and everything and even the plants, all day long. He can look at any object and come up with a way to make it be sexual. He can see a penis or a pussy in the shape of ANYTHING. And there is a scene, in The Journey Begins, with him fuck a tree.
The overall language of the series is VERY crude and typical of "grind house porn", HOWEVER that does NOT make it Erotica. There is a lot of talking about sex, but very little actual sex going on in most stories.
Quaraun is an aristocrat. His uncle was the king. He grew up in a castle. He's VERY refined and elegant, and lives by very snooty etiquettes. He's now homeless and yet he eats with a full place setting and all the silverware lined out in the right order. He wouldn't dream of using the language Unicorn does, though he picks it up after being with Unicorn for a while.
Unicorn has never lived the opulate, extravagant life Quaraun has. He eats with his hands, doesn't even bother to cook his food or uses dishes. He says whatever pops into his head the moment he thinks it and would speak to a queen the same way he'd speak to a whore. Unicorn is wild, bold, brash, and crude.
Unicorn is Quaraun's opposite in every way, so while you have a soft spoken, quiet, elegant Elf, you also have a crude, brash, loud mouthed unicorn.
The Quaraun series has more in common with THIS video, then it does with Erotica:
If you call ^THAT^ Erotica, I'm gonna call you just plain weird.
As it turns out, this beta, admitted to never having read Romance, Erotica, or Porn before and had avoided reading books with sex scenes in them, and read the Quaraun books because she thought they were "Christian YA" books. She said that because I am a Mormon she had assumed there would be no sex or swearing and was very taken back to see that the level of swearing and use of the f-word was so "extreme".
Well, yeah, Unicorn is on pretty much every page and, therefore the word "fuck" is on, pretty much every page. I mean, there's a scene in one volume where Quaraun asks Unicorn to stop saying "fuck" so Unicorn sits down and says "Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck..." until Quaraun kicks him.
Unicorn talks about wanting to erect statues of Quaraun's dick.
Unicorn tells BeaLuna she's a grouchy bitch because no one is fucking her wet dripping pussy and then tells Quaraun he ought to fuck her to shut her up.
Okay THAT is the language is this series. That is the way Unicorn talks and he's he and Quaraun are a "married" couple on some level and they are never out of sight of each other, so if that kind of language bothers you, you won't make it far into this series.
I think, somebody, somewhere, who has no clue what erotica even is, must have said something about this series, saying it was Erotica, because of the way Unicorn talks.
Like I said, one of the beta readers, THOUGHT because I was a LDS/Mormon that this series was YA Christian Fantasy. I don't know how she came to that conclusion because that's not a genre I've written. And she read The Vampire leprechaun of Fire Mountain and called THAT Erotica. And I don't how anyone, even a Christian who has ever read Erotica, could consider that book to be anything close to Erotica. There isn't a single, solitary sex scene in that book! Not one! But it does have Unicorn's mouth using the word "fuck" and "dick" quite a bit.
Even when there is no actual fucking going on there's a lot of fucking going on. You know what I mean?
OMG! You know what I'm gonna do to this page now? I can't not do it. I mean... Yeah, you know what's gonna happen now. Hold on to your hats, here we go....
If you've never been a member of the SoapBox, then you just won't understand, but that was for all you boxers out there, who DO understand what just happened. (Inside joke, most of you probably won't get. Moving on...)
Unicorn also, in addition to being obsessed with sex is obsessed with food on a very "cookie monster" level. This guy can't stop eating. (Because he is a Lich and food doesn't fill him, so he's literally looking for something to eat every second that he's not looking for something to fuck.)
Because Unicorn can't stop thinking about food and fucking and fucking and food, he combines the two obsessions and so, you see "cherries", "kiwis", "mangos", "peaches", and most especially "apricots" used in place of "balls" or "scrotum" and "banana" or "zucchini" in place of "dick" or "penis."
Unicorn is a shape shifter and a one point in his life lived as a wolf with a wolf pack, and discovered the wonders of knotting and barbed penises, and he retained the "wolf dick" now, in any form he takes, so that he can knot his partners. Unicorn likes to introduce himself to people with the phrase "I have a barbed penis, want to see it?"
Unicorn also discovered the joys of penis torture via his sprouting squid tentacles and inserting them up his partner's penis like a catheter....which he does to Quaraun in, The Jiggler and the G-String Teddy Bears, at a tea party while he's a drunk flamingo with tentacles, thus why there is a flamingo on the cover of the book.
So, yeah, SOME volumes do contain sex scenes, and a FEW volumes do contain Erotica style sex scenes, but damn, there's more sex in Game of Thrones, then there is in the Quaraun series, and you don't see people calling that Erotica do you?
There is sex in the series, but not much and not often. The series has way more drug use then sex in it.
Unicorn is extremely sadistic and gets a kick out of getting Quaraun high (he keeps dumping powdered poison mushrooms in Quaraun drink to drug him) and then sexually torturing him. So you do see sex scenes that could be called BDSM, but that doesn't make the series either Erotica or BDSM.
Think about it. You are looking at a series with 130 volumes confirmed, 349 volumes planned, 50,000 words each, that's 17,450,000 words (56,110 pages). Don't you think it'd take a lot more then a single mild, sex scene once every 4 or 5 volumes, and a single BDSM sex scene once every dozen or so volumes, to make this series big classified as Erotica?
Quaraun, who has become addicted to the drugs Unicorn keeps giving him, lets Unicorn do whatever he wants so long as he can have more of the drugs. There is a lot of drug use going on in the series which is why it sort of "zips" in and out of scenes in a surreal "we're in this scene, no wait now we're in that scene" sort of way.
Unicorn gets Quaraun addicted to mushrooms and frogs because he wants sex, and Quaraun becomes Unicorn's willing sex slave because he wants drugs, and that is seen throughout the whole series. Basically Quaraun is a drug addict and Unicorn is a drug maker (BoomFuzzy the candy maker makes more then candy.)
I suppose you could call it sort of an "Alice in Wonderland for adults" kind of thing, only it's not Alice in Wonderland. But, I grew up in the 1970s and you know what the 1970s were like. And opium was not made illegal until the mid-1980s, you could buy it over the counter at any grocery store. And from about 8 until I was about 17, I actually had a prescription for it.
I had night terrors and the pediatrician, prescribed a weird green liquid, looked like green cough syrup, that boy oh boy, knocked me out. Took it and BOOM I was out! No more night terrors...oh no... nooooooo ...no more night terror... weird colorful dreams swirling around me all night long, but no more night terrors. Oh God. My parents used to read Dr. Seuss books to me before bed. Then give me my medicine...and oohhh... wooow ... Dr. Seuss and Opium. Yeah. I had weird dreams as a kid. Still remember every one of them too, and I'm drawing on them for a lot of the stories in the Quaraun series.
I mean, my Autism was better controlled when I was on medications that ACTUALLY WORKED to keep me ... uhm ... calm, I suppose is the word. Oh yeah, very calm. I mean I had Autism and I'm sitting watching unicorns prance around the room, of course I was calm.
"Look at the pretty unicorns!"
I used to put on a pink ballet dress, with lots of long pink tulle on the skirt and swirl and dance all over the house with the unicorns. Which the adults all thought was "cute" because "oh look she's got imaginary friends"... no... no imaginary, there ARE unicorns dancing around the room. Oh, when My Little Pony came out, in about 1981-ish, you know I started collecting those. Still got them.
And people wonder why I write Unicorn Porn. I was an Autistic kid in the 1970s when Opium Syrup was the "cure all" for Autism. I had a very colorful, unicorn filled, childhood.
And then one day my parents come home from the pharmacy and call my doctor to tell him, they wouldn't fill the prescription, and they were in a panic because crazy Autistic kid is off her meds, and now she's having night terrors again and she's screaming and we can't stop her from screaming, what do we do, why won't they fill the prescription...
So, off to the pediatrician, who, calls everybody under the sun, then comes back into the office with: "Well, I found out what happened. Turns out the primary ingredient was opium and it has been made illegal to sell (whatever the name of the medication was) in the US, even as a prescription."
They've never been able to find an alternative medication to "keep my Autism under control" since. But I got a head full of Unicorns and Elves and Faeries and talking cars and cats with wings and all sorts of things that I think I can blame on Dr. Seuss's Green Eggs and Ham.
Why do you think I like SpellJammer? I'm a SpellJammer Dungeon Master because I LOVE the insanity of Dungeons and Dragons drug induced "Elves in Space" series. A lot of the Quaraun series is inspired by SpellJammer. Quaraun is the player character that I play in SpellJammer campaigns!
And actually, you can still buy opium incense in Maine, it's not illegal every grocery store and even WalMart sells it, I love the smell of it... even though opium incense is very different from actual opium, the smell of it alone is enough to trigger the old memories of it and just calm me right down. Smooth as butter. I burn it all the time along with my sandalwood and patchouli, which induces: "Oh, my unicorns are back! I'm okay again, my unicorns are here!"
I have opium sticks tied in my dreadlocks. That's what I smell like, when people get near me and smell my hair and go: "What's that smell it's strange and nice and spicy and what is it?" It's opium. It has a very distinctive smell.
I have Autism. I'm a holy terror. All my caretakers say so. Half the time I'm on the floor screaming at the top of my lung. Then hand me an opium incense stick, don't even have to light it. "Oh look! There's my unicorns!" And then I'm fine again.
Unicorn is an "Elf Eater" which IS a play on the term "Opium Eater".
Think of this as 1970s hippy Elf dressed like Liberace having a drug filled Woodstock love feast in the 1300s with a Unicorn and, that would about describe it.
Or a gay Austin Powers with Elves and Unicorns, maybe?
This series does have a lot in common with the Autism Powers movies, and Unicorn, is kind of bi-sexual Austin Powers both in the way he acts and talks.
I don't know. I only write this thing, I don't know how to describe what it is. It's Bizarro. It doesn't fit any other genre.
So, yeah, if you don't want to read a book that has the words "fuck", "cock", "dick", "penis", "cum", "erection", "balls". "jobbie", "bawbag", "dobber", "bollocks", and/or "pussy" multiple times on absolutely EVERY SINGLE PAGE, you kind of don't want to read the Quaraun series, because it WILL bother you.
But that is an example of where, perspective comes into play. Just because a book uses those words doesn't make it Erotica, and yet there are people who think it does.
I think the series has more in common with 1970s Grindhouse Porn then it does with Erotica.
I don't feel that this series is Erotica. There are not enough stories in the series that contain sex scenes, and while there are very graphic sex scenes when they do show up, I think they are more Porn then Erotica.
Plus I think to be Erotica to story has to be ABOUT the sex and, this isn't about the sex. Sex happened but, that's life, in life sex happens. You are looking at Quaraun's life and during the course of his life he has sex. That doesn't make it Erotica.
It's Bizarro. It's a freaking gay Elf being chased around the planet by a horny unicorn! They periodically jump through portals and come out on other planets or in different time periods, and they FLY across the sky in a pirate ship. and the unicorn grows tentacles and wings and and feeds poison mushrooms to the Elf. I was a kid with Autism in the 1970s, the doctors gave Autistic kids opium back then., this series is a result of me having Autism and growing up in the 1970s. It's Bizarro.
This is Quaraun:
He's a pink sparkling Elf flying around the planet on rainbows (sometimes literally) for no real reason at all. There is no real point to the Quaraun series other then, "Hey, this guy's nuts, let's watch him go nuts!"
And this is Unicorn:
He's got a penis and loves to talk about it. And Quaraun has one too, so he likes to talk about Quaraun's as well, and oh look, that guy over there has one, so he's gonna talk about that one too.
Yeah, it's kind of a fucked up fairy tale.
The whole series is, a Nyan Cat Elf twinkling along, spaced out, no clue what's happening, but it's a-okay because "Oh look at the pretty rainbows", while the Monty Python Unicorn gallops merrily along behind him singing about how much he loves his penis. And while they are doing that, stuff happens.
Yeah, that kind of sums up the entire series.
It's like candy, it has no point, it's just meant to be fun. It's a fun thing to write. That's the point. I have fun writing it.
That's why it doesn't really have a genre, because I'm not writing this too fit any conventions or formulas, I'm just writing it to have fun writing something that is fun to write. Insanity on the page, that's what Quaraun is.
Would YOU call the Quaraun series Erotica, I suppose is the question. Well, let's find out. I'll post a music video. Watch it and pay careful attention to the words. I wouldn't call this Erotica, BUT, I have heard others say it was. I've also heard that the "average" person can't make it through to the end of this video.
If you are the type of person who can't make it to the end of this video, than, stay far away from the Quaraun books, because, Unicorn's mouth is EXACTLY like the language used in this song:
If you can make it through ^^THAT^^ video, try this one (this one I WOULD classify as Erotica)
The Quaraun series is more like ^^^THAT ONE^^^ up there,
NOT this one vvv DOWN HERE vvv: (though it's not really like either - it's more like Austin Powers and South Park combined and staring a gay Elf.)
(That is the EDITED/CENSORED version, if you want to see the uncensored version without the pixel blur it was up on Youtube and is easy to find.)
Can you see the difference between them?
The first one is TALKING about sex, making fun of sex, while the second one is actually DOING sex.
The first video is: "You know I'm talking about sex, let me tease you with thoughts of sex, look at this great body I've got, but you ain't getting none, I'm just gonna tease you all say with hints about sex."
Whereas the second video is: "Look at us haveing sex, sex, sex, sex, YEE-HAH! SEX! WOO-HOO! SEEEEEEX!"
The Quaraun series has a lot more talking about sex (like the first video), then actual doing of sex (like the second video).
However, the LANGUAGE of both songs does match the language of the Quaraun series.
In other words: I see the first video as more of a "mature teen" video and the second video as an "adults only" video.
I think what is confusing people, is the M-18 rating on the pre-release book covers. That is there because these books are available for sale in Japan, and they have naked/nude male characters, and Japan has a law that such books have to be labeled as rated M-18 because of it. The M-18 label doesn't really apply for readers in America or Western Europe.
This Bizarro serial is overall rated M-18 for strong language, yaoi, drug use, suicidal characters, and other fantasy adult situations.
Not all stories in the series contain M-rated material, many stories are only T-16.
The Adventures of Quaraun The Insane series was rated using the FanFiction. Net rating system, as it was originally published there in hundreds of 5,000 word chapters between 1997 and 2011 – this is the non-fan fiction rewrite of the older fan fiction series.
The Rating Chart is as follows:
E-Rated: Suitable for everyone, but usually geared for ages under 8
PG-Rated: May contain topics (such as death, divorce, or mild swearing) disturbing to sensitive children. Parents may wish to read before letting children read it.
T-Rated: Contains topics not advised for readers under the age of 12, which may include mild language, tobacco use, alcohol use, LGBT characters in non-sexual situations, and mild fantasy violence
T-16 Rated: Contains topics not advised for readers under the age of 16, which may include mild references to sex, drugs, suicide, LGBT themes, and violence
M-18 Rated: Contains topics not advised for readers under the age of 18, which may include strong references to sex, drugs, suicide, LGBT themes, and violence.
MA-21 Rated: Explicit Erotica, for mature adults only.
The Adventures of Quaraun The Insane Bizarro serial is overall Rated M-18 for strong language, explicit yaoi sex, BDSM, knotting, barbs, tentacles, drug use, cutting, suicide, thoughts of suicide, attempted suicide, norms bullying autistic characters, victims of bullying and abuse taking revenge on/torturing and murdering their attackers, and transsexual, inter-racial, December/May, male/male relationships. Not all of these things appear in all stories in the series. Not all stories in the series contain M-rated material, many stories are only T-16.
This series is NOT rated MA-21 because it is NOT Erotica. (Some volumes however, do contain erotic content.) There seems to be some confusion here, because of the M-18 Rating, some readers are falsely assuming that this is Erotica. Readers have asked if this was an Erotica series. No, this series is not Erotica. It is Literary Bizarro Fantasy. It is ONLY rated the much lower rating of M-18 it is NOT rated at the much higher rating of MA-21.
So, I guess after all of that, I'll leave it to you to judge if YOU think it's Erotica or not. I don't think it's Erotica, but that's me. Some people are calling it Erotica. I guess that just means I'm used to reading books that are a lot more hard core then books read by people who do think this is Erotica. Oh, well.
QUESTION: I don't remember any drug use in the fan-fiction series. Why did you decide to make Quaraun addicted to drugs?
ANSWER: You're right. The original fan-fiction series I wrote did not have the drug use in it. I didn't originally write Quaraun that way, either.
In the early days of creating his character, I based his back story of a Neverwinter/Mensobrazen player character example, which featured an Elf driven insane after being tortured by the Red Wizards. (Dungeons and Dragons, Forgotten Realms Campaign Legend of Drizzt 4th Edition.)
The first time I played Quaraun's character in a game session, was for Temple of Elemental Evil (Advanced Dungeons and Dragons 2nd Edition.)
The Dungeon Master allowed 2 players to play Evil aligned characters. A Lawful Evil priest and a Chaotic evil Illusionist Wizard (who was really a Necromancer but only the player and the DM knew this fact.)
We had played ToEE many times and getting a character past level 3 in ToEE proved not easy. The DM came to the conclusion the only way we could get a group into Fire Mountain and past the Black Idol of Death, our group was going to require two evil aligned characters: a priest and a necromancer.
ToEE is about a group of Necromancers who have turned themselves into Liches and buried their phylacteries under a volcano guarded by a DracoLich. The goal of the game is to find the 4 Liches and kill them.
To get to the Dragon, you have to get passed the Black Idol of Death. But the only way past it is for one of the players to sacrifice (murder) one of the other player characters, on the altar (the statue holds her hands out and holds a slab). We tried to get around the idol in many various ways, however, this always ended up with the entire group getting killed.
And yes, that is how the idea for the Obsidian Idol came into the series.
The group required either a cultist/ priest or a necromancer/ wizard played by somebody willing to play a murderer and kill another player in the group. Because I had a reputation for playing characters that could hold secrets, I got picked to play the necromancer, and as I had already created a Necromancer (Quaraun) I was able to bring him into actual game play.
The intention was to get to the idol, and the Necromancer and Cultist were going to attempt to sacrifice the entire group.
The group (9 players total) thought they were playing with a Lawful Good priest and a Chaotic Neutral Illusionist. Only 3 players (the priest, the wizard, and a dwarf) knew there was a demonic cultist (not a priest) and a flesh warping necromancer (not an illusionist) in the group.
(A flesh warping necromancer is one on the path to Lichdom - the DM was going to allow me to play a Lich, and turn on the entire group, if we made it far enough into ToEE - this was a home brew re-write of the original story. Basically the DM was allowing a player character to be one of the 4 Liches the players would have to battle at the end of the game.)
The dwarf made the discovery in the course of the game play and, decided he was greedy enough to keep their secret provided they didn't kill him and divided whatever treasure we found with him...ah...the DM didn't tell the other 7 players that the two evil players were planning to kill the rest of the group - the dwarf caught our characters plotting this.
The group knew something was going on, because the priest and wizard were always WRITING their plans to each other behind a second DM screen, and the DM was writing approval for their moves - again, this is unusual - normally players SPEAK out loud every move they make.
When the dwarf had opportunity to catch us plotting the DM allowed it, and the rest of the group expected he'd tell them what he found out, but he shocked them when he decided to join then (requesting in a written note to the DM to change his alignment to evil) and then not tell the group.
The DM allowed this VERY RARE event. You almost never see a DM allow players to play evil aligned characters and AGREE to allow them to attempt to overthrow the group and kill the other players.
The DM had one stipulation: the group must have a lawful good aligned Knight paladin player. Five game sessions in, the paladine caught the priest resurrecting corpses and beheaded him. Quaraun (my player character) backstabbing wizard that he is, was quick to join forces with the paladin and help kill the cultist, earning the paladin's trust.
At that point, there was no more need for secret planning between the two evil characters, as one was dead, and the wizard (me) and the dwarf, played our characters as though the priest had been the ONLY evil character and had been blackmailing us into silence of his secret. The rest of the group never tried to discover if Quaraun had a secret, and I was able to continue playing him, with the intent of killing the other players with the help of the dwarf.
Prior to reaching Fire Mountain, the group got sidetracked by trolls and chased into a swamp, where singing mushrooms drugged everybody, except for the Illusionist wizard. When other players demanded to know why the illusionist didn't get drugged with everyone else, rather then say he was evil and had avoided being drugged because he was the one who had drugged them, he immediately drugged himself (with the very same powder he had drugged them with moments earlier.)
As it turns out, Quaraun on drugs, in actual game play, starts turning players into monkeys and parrots and frogs and himself into a bat, because he's insane and the DM decided on random dice rolls to see what would happen if the necromancer's bag of tricks accidently went off while he was too busy dancing with mushrooms to know what he was doing with his wand.
So, after our player characters had a night of drug induced insanity. Player characters are mostly passed out on the ground, with only one character who wasn't drugged "too bad" and thus able to keep watch that night. A wild feral nature loving Wood Elf Ranger who throughout the game had a bone to pick with the aristocratic, gay transvestite Moon Elf Wizard.
So, the day ends, and everybody ends their turn with something along the lines of "My character passed out face down in the swamp grass." And the DM asked the Wood Elf Ranger so what does you character do?
"My character takes all of the poison mushrooms, grinds them into powder and fills all of the Moon Elf wizard's water skins with them. I drug the Moon Elf Wizard every time he takes a drink"
DM rolls the dice. "20! The Moon Elf Wizard gets high every morning after taking a drink from his waterskin for the rest of the game. The effect lasts all day."
For the rest of the game (about 7 more sessions - 3 hours each, 1 a week) Quaraun was looking like this:
Unfortunately, it was Quaraun being drugged out of his mind that ended the game. Here's what happened:
We are in the volcano. We reach cave, full of orcs. The group as a whole decides to run. We run, almost.
Our group of 9 players have 5, count them, yes 5, wizards in the group. Including 2 gay, bumbling clowns. The 2 gay wizards, one wearing bright pink, the other wearing bright electric blue, have lots and lots and lots of spells. None of them useful, because we are 1970s style screaming gay wizards, so, we have spells to turn things into glitter and spells that bop you on the head with flowers, or dump rainbow coloured paint on your head.
We were weird wizards. Yes, the DM let us create weird spells, so that we could have these wicked exteme uber-gay wizards who enjoyed reveling in their 1970s Liberace style gayness complete with glittering spells to match our glittering wardrobes.
So our group is running away, and my buddy the blue wizard, grabs my arm and says, "Let's create a diversion so the others can escape."
DM says, "What are you gonna do?"
Blue wizard says, "I've got this really great spell that creates lightening bolts. And he (me) has that spell that creates spider webs full of glitter dust. Why don't we use both spells at once. The spider webs would slow down the orcs. The lightening will kill some of the orcs, and a reflection of the lightening on the glitter will blind the rest of them."
DM, says "Sounds good, what does the rest of the group say?"
The other 3 wizards in the group, start pointing out how, we two gay wizards, have purposely weak and girly spells, that are highly prone to backfire (we designed the spells to have a high fail rate, but to do a lot of damage when they didn't fail, with DM's approval). Our spells basically set off a lot of stupid glitter clouds and rainbow coloured dust balls and really didn't do anything other then prove that we were wizards who were too gay to care about anything other then pointing out the fact "Hey, look at me, I'm gay!"
So the other 3 wizards are, really, not confidant that this spell is gonna do anything other then get the 2 gay wizards captured by orcs. (The two gay wizards often got captured by whatever and like the good little damsels in distress sissies we were, required frequent rescuing). So the other 3 wizards, are saying they don't want to have to go rescue us AGAIN, we'd better help them.
Each of the other three wizards, have a "increase power" spell, They all declare: "I cast increase power on their spell."
So, I cast my glitter webs, blue wizard casts his lightning bolt, "increase power" gets cast three times.
DM has a fumble chart. If you fumble. DM rolls the dice on the fumble chart, to determine how bad you fumbled.
We fumbled. We BOTH roll a big fat 1
Remember - each spell is increased by 3, so, this is 3 double fumbles.
DM rolls the dice...
20 on the fumble chart...on a triple/double fumble... oooooooh. That had NEVER happened before.
And the look on his face, was the funniest thing.
DM puts the book down and says:
"Well, the good news is, you've killed the ocrs. The bad news is, you blew up tunnel and killed every member of the group."
And we were escaping too. If we had just kept running, we'd have been out of there. But you know how it is, when you give two gay wizards too many drugs...they blow up the group. :P
Did I ever mention that Quaraun is absolutely the most fun character I have ever played in a D&D game session? Because of his chaotic evil alignment, he's liable to do anything to anyone, and because of his weaknesses (which are many, because a Necromancer is a level 23 wizard and he had to be given LOTS of handicaps to bring him down to a level 3 character with the rest of the group) and because of the insanity overlay, he's absolutely nuts in game play. He can be in the middle of battle and suddenly turn on the other players in a fit of ego mania.
From there I went on to play Quaraun in Spelljammer, where he steals a flying pirate ship and sails it across space in search of giant flying space hamsters.
If you have never played Spelljammer you don't know what you are missing. EVERYBODY in that game is on drugs and seeing dragons flying past them - that game's books are WRITTEN that way.
In Spelljammer you have to deal with constant Illithid attacks. Illithids are the infamous brain eating squid-headed Mind Flayers of the D&D world. They are the evilest villains, most formidable wizards and priests, and most powerful psionics ever to exist in D&D. And everyone of them is aligned with a special monster only alignment: Insane Lawful Evil.
The Illithids originate in Spelljammer and got pulled into other D&D game books later on. In their original versions, they were allowed as player characters.
I originally played Spelljammer as an Illithid Priest named ZooLock, who traveled the cosmos in a Nautiloid starship and had a pet jelly cube monster. His favorite weapon of choice: vampire bunnies and holy hand grenades (yes, home brew weapons from Monty Python's Holy Grail)
Or, if you are a gamer like myself...I actually designed ZooLock's Holy Hand Grenade weapon from the Worms video game. It sings when he throws it, just like seen in the video game:
ZooLock is another character in the Quaraun series, he remains in the books, nearly identical to how I played him in the Spelljammer game sessions.
In SpellJammer, I play Quaraun as a Necromancer's apprentice on a mission for his "master" (who turns out to be ZooLock - in the Quaraun series, I changed it to Gibedon).
We went home brew and crossed Spelljammer with Star Trek, which results in Quaraun, commandeering the U.S.S.Enterprise and taken Captain Kirk and crew hostage, locking them all in a pink genie bottle (straight out of the I Dream of Jeannie TV show)
In the books this is rewritten by combining all three above mentioned game session, resulting in Quaraun commandeering the pirate ship Rent-a-Prize, from a green Gnome named Quirk.
In Spelljammer he had Quaraun being a pirate, who keeps getting sidetracked from his missions, because after all that time he spent in ToEE with his drugged water, he got addicted to drugs and goes berserk trying to find more. So in Spelljammer, now he's on a drug dealer's ship, working for said drug dealer in payment for drugs. (Which if you know the Spelljammer game, you know is perfectly logical.)
I later went homebrew and played him in Ravenloft (Elves don't exists in Ravenloft - we had to write that a portal opened up in the sky and he randomly landed in the Ravenloft setting after having been zapped out of Spelljammer.) In Ravenloft, I play him, as a drug addicted Necromancer with a fetish for vampires. There he's constantly getting caught (on purpose) by Strahd, in the hopes of becoming Strahd's submissive BDSM sex slave.
Which results in stories like Into The Swamp of Death, where Quaraun gets captured and sexualy tortured by a vampire, but is too drugged out of his mind to know what's happening and the vampire that drugged him, drinks his blood and goes bonkers with him.
And FarDarrig of Secrets, where once Unicorn finds out Quaraun likes cock and ball torture, Unicorn just runs with it and almost kills the drugged Elf.
And then finally, you also have to consider the fact that Quaraun is a sissy. And a quick note on Quaraun and my use of calling him a "sissy". I do not mean "sissy" in the common derogatory American street slang. Quaraun is an ACTUAL sissy. A sissy is a type of transgender.
I know a lot of people who are not part of the transgendered and/or BDSM community usually get confused about what the word sissy means and often when they hear me using it they think I am referencing the more common mean, hateful, and derogatory meaning of the word. No. A sissy is a type of gender identification.
Quaraun is an actual sissy - if you don't know what that means look up "sissification" - yes, there is a difference between, the common street slang term sissy, used to tease someone, and the ACTUAL word sissy, which is a type of gender identity.
A sissy is a type of transvestite, who is a male, who dresses like a woman, acts like a woman, etc, BUT does not hide the fact that he is a male. He is not trying to be a female in spite of the way he acts and dresses, and makes no attempt to pass himself off as a female. In spite of looking and acting like a female, he still uses male pronouns for himself. Typically a sissy, is also the sub/slave of a BDSM relationship. Sissies are USUALLY straight men who prefer to be dominated by a butch woman, however some sissies are bi or as in the case with Quaraun, gay.
A sissy is a male, who likes wearing sexy panties and stockings and silks and lace and frilly dresses and putting on make-up, but he's not trying to be a woman. He gets very sexually excited from wearing women's clothing.
A sissy is different from a cross-dresser or a sheMale. A cross-dresser, JUST likes to wear the cloths. A sheMale IS attempting to pass off as a female.
A sissy on the other hand, not only likes to wear the clothes, but lives to serve a dominant Master. A sissy feel "incomplete" if he doesn't have a Master to serve. Sissies are EXTREMELY submissive and nothing makes them happier then to be "the perfect sex slave" doing/taking absolutely anything their partner/spouse/etc (always called Master) requests.
A sissy isn't just "dressing up" for the fun of doing so. They live in those clothes 24/7/365. And they will do anything to please their Master.
If you need more information of this lifestyle and what exactly a sissy is SEE:
And if you are interesting in seeing how much of a sissy you are, try this: http://www.sissify.com/sissyquiz/ Take the quizz called "What kind of sissy are you?" just reading the questions and possible answers will give you quite a bit of insight into the type Elf Quaraun is and the lifestyle he lives.
BTW on that quiz I score:
sissyMaid!: The ultimate sissy, you have ruffles on your soul. Now you just need to learn how to sew them on your panties.
And I should probably point out that that site with the quizz, is a BDSM training school's web site. It's kind of a "college" for men who want to learn to be a sissified sex slave. Most of the site, you can't access
But, if you look at that site and then Google for more Sissy sites, you'll notice a trend - they are ALL bright pink. Which, once you realize Quaraun is an ACTUAL sissy, then it suddenly becomes clear - WHY the covers of the books are pink.
I did mention Quaraun was based largely off my own life, 90% of my wardrobe is pink, and I sparkle head to toe, all day, every day. If there's one thing I know well: it's sissies, the sissy lifestyle, how to accurately play a sissy in a D&D game session, and how to accurately write a sissy character.
A sissy is a type of sex slave in the BDSM community. And for the record I have been the slave of a Master/slave relationship for 28 years. (And I can't even attend game sessions without getting His permission first. I do NOTHING without first getting His permission. He controls everything. It's hard for people outside the BDSM community to grasp the lifestyle of a Master/slave relationship and even within the BDSM community, it's hard for a lot of people to grasp a Sissy Master/slave relationship.)
But Quaraun in the games and also in the books, is a Sissy, the actual lifestyle/gender identity and it's why you see him acting so VERY submissive when it comes to pretty much anything, but especially with sex. It's actually one of the things which makes him such a very poor fighter, because his first response to a confrontation, is quite literally to back down and submit to the most dominant person in the group. Quaraun is not a leader. Which is how his character can get caught by monsters so easily. A monster attack, his reaction is to just drop to his knees.
And once the DM found out I didn't mind playing a submissive BDSM sex slave to any monster in the game, it became a running gag to see how many times players could set Quaraun up to be captured by a sex crazed monster, looking for a slave. Keep in mind, Quaraun was designed to be an idiot so he has spells that do more damage then good and it's not that hard for a monster to carry him off.
Quaraun is a character who adds lots of "color" to a game, but doesn't really do much good in battle. He ends up being the damsel in distress every time he tries to fight a monster. (Uhm...usually he does it on purpose too, because Quaraun, really does like getting captured, tied up, and fucked by monsters - in both the game sessions and the book series based off of those game sessions.)
This in turn lead to what eventually got re-written as a scene in the Quaraun series.
In one of the ToEE game sessions, one night, the group forgot to leave a guard to watch for the night and woke up to find themselves surrounded by mountain trolls. Quaraun, good little sissified transvestite damsel in distress that he was, gets captured, and trussed up in a tree and gangbang fucked by 4 trolls at the same time.
The DM asks the group what are they gonna do.
The Dwarf says, "The Moon Elf looks like he's enjoying it, so I'm gonna jerk myself off because damn this is making me horny."
The Wood Elf says "Me too!"
The rest of the group begins discussing, "But shouldn't we rescue him?"
"Are you kidding, he loves getting raped by monsters. He WANTS this."
"But those are mountain trolls, and he's just a little Elf, look how big they are, they're gonna kill him."
"What? And you think he cares? He's getting double fucked up the ass. He lives for that sort of thing."
The group ends up WAITING until the trolls get done fucking the Moon Elf, two dicks up his ass, one down his throat, another troll sucking his cock, before they decide to rescue him...
But oh...wait, there's that Wood Elf that just hates the aristocratic High Elves, and keeps getting the High Elf high...who says to the DM: "It's odd there's only 4 trolls. Aren't troll tribes bigger than that? Seems like they'd have a whole army here waiting for a turn to fuck the Moon Elf."
DM rolls dice to see if perhaps maybe there are more mountain trolls just out of sight.
Yep, there are! And guess what, they ARE waiting their turn to fuck the Moon Elf.
So Quaraun gets gangraped by a whole army of mountain trolls and the rest of the group are, like, he loves it, we better not interrupt, he'll get mad at us. We'll just sit around and wait until ALL the mountain trolls have had a turn on him, then we'll rescue our gay wizard who loves being a submissive BDSM sex slave to monsters.
And yes, this scene does get written into the books. In the books, that scene is in The Return To Fire Mountain.
At one point Quaraun got captured by a gladiator orc and was spent most of the game sessions, naked and chained to his master in a very slave princess Leia vs Jabba the Hut fashion.
But all of this is very "normal" for his character's personality.
It's why in the books, other characters get so confused when they meet him, because he really is the most powerful wizard on the planet, and yet, he WON'T fight. He WON'T use his powers. On the few times he does his powers the end result is so catastrophic that basically the entire planet is terrified of him, but then when people meet him for the first time, and realize, "OMG! This is the guy? HIM? He's a freaking sissy, how is he the guy we are all scared of?"
Like I said, once the DM found out I didn't mind playing a character that got captured and raped by monsters every game session, it kind of became a thing. I was playing D&D with a bunch of guys who gave their character giant dicks and and had special cod-piece armor magic items, so it was kind of an rather "adult" group of D&D going on anyways, and for them, standing back and cheering on the monsters why the monsters gang raped the group's gay wizard was kind of a high point for the game sessions.
The difference between the game sessions and the books, is, in the books, Quaraun gets really pissed at other characters and the way they are treating him, and he ends up killing them and feeding them to his unicorn. There was a lot of "gay bashing" talk going on in the game sessions, that really did upset me more then I let then know, thus why Quaraun in the books, eats them.
In Ravenloft he's constantly going out of his way to try to get bitten by vampires because he gets off on vampires drinking his blood. Other players use this as a weapon against the vampires. They drug Quaraun, he gets willfully attacked by vampires, the vampires get a second hand drug effect from drinking the high Elf's (yes, pun intended) drugged blood, which allows the other characters to pull out stakes and kill the vampires.
While Quaraun is a poor fighter and didn't bring much into the group in battle, and he's a sissy - you're looking at a wizard who in the middle of battling monsters, is going to start arguing with the Wood Elf because he got a speck of dirt on his dress. And he's crazy, so if you blow up a monster and it splatters blood on his dress, he's turn his wand on you and blew you up.
If you pick on Quaraun, during battle, he'll change sides and start helping the monsters and picking off player characters. Because he's a Necromancer, he might call up a hoard of zombies to eat you during the night (thus why you DO NOT want to leave Quaraun on night watch while the group sleeps.)
Quaraun is absolutely chaotic and he has no loyalties. He's a total wild card in game play. (And yes, Quaraun was based largely of JarAxle, thus why he changes sides constantly, to be on whichever team looks like it's winning.)
Quaraun is a character who, if you have him on your team in a D&D game session, you REALLY want to be watching your back and sleeping with one eye open. He thinks nothing of stabbing you in your sleep, gutting you and resurrecting you as his undead minion, and he is so good at it, that he can kill you and reanimate you without the rest of the group knowing it. Your character could be his undead minion, doing his bidding and the rest of the group (except the DM) not even know your character is dead.
Quaraun IS evil. He is chaotic. He has a very short temper. And he is a Necromancer hellbent on doing whatever it takes to become a Lich. When push comes to shove, he'll massacre the whole group. He is however a good character to have around if you need to create a diversion, because inspite of his evilness, he is still a bumbling idiot.
Quaraun's capable of casting some of the most powerful spells the group has and can wipe out entire armies with the flick of his hand...unfortunately, because he's very arrogant and careless, his spells have a high fail right. If you roll a 18 - 20, you get a major spell that can blow up entire cities, but if you don't hit that, the spells do nothing useful at all, and worse, anything under a 10 is going to fumble on his spells, with 1 - 3 dice rolls resulting in some wicked bad backfires on the group.
You are looking at an insane and extremely arrogant wizard, who WAS at one point the most powerful wizard around, but because of his huge ego he's become careless, and because he's now a drug addict, he really doesn't know what he's doing half the time. He could be aiming his wand at another player and thinking he's aiming it as an umberhulk...because he's high a kite and he's seeing rainbow colored umberhulks attacking whither they are attacking or not. Part of the reason other players do cheer the monsters on when he gets carried off, is because, he can be a major pain in the ass.
You got to remember that as a player character in actual tabletop game play, Quaraun's alignment is: Insane Chaotic Evil. There is a reason, why few DMs do not allow a Chaotically aligned player character and even fewer DMs ever allow an Evil aligned player character, and why the Insane template, is used on monsters only not player characters. Basically Quaraun is a monster as a player character, with a bunch of handicaps to bring him down to player level.
Quaraun does, however, have one skill that made him a character every group wanted on their team: he was a magic item builder and was willing to practically give away insanely expensive magic items in exchange for drugs. Players could seek out drug dealers at markets and taverns, then rush back to camp and request Quaraun make magic cloaks, magic boots, bags of holding, etc that they otherwise would not have been able to afford. (As a player character, ALL of his skills/feats/etc are selected for crafting magic items - he has absolutely no other skills, but he's really, really, really, really good at the one skill he does have because it's "powered up" so much.)
Of course, how high he was when he made the item was at the DM's discretion and up to the dice roll, so you could request Quaraun to make you a cloak of invulnerability and he might end up making it out of pink flamingo feathers and it be activated only by saying "I'm a pink flamingo" 7 times while dancing the jig and jump roping at the same time. He is insane after all...insane AND on drugs....and your magic item results are controlled by a DM who flashes a cheshire cat grin while rolling his dice and checking his home-brew magic item charts of possible things Quaraun might do to your magic items, depending on how high the dice declared him to be that day.
Basically it's fun to play an aristocratic, nephew of a king High Elf who is too high to know what's going on.
Quaraun is a very High Elf. ;P
...and now you know why.
QUESTION: Is this series Monster Porn?
ANSWER: Yes. This is the first mass market production of my long running underground grind-house Unicorn Porn series that was published on FanFiction.net between 1997 to 2011.
Keep in mind that I did say Monster Porn and not Monster Erotica. Monster Porn is a completely different genre then Monster Erotica.
In Monster Erotica the point of the story is sex with monsters,
In Monster Porn the point of the story is sexy monsters, which may or may not be involved in sex acts.
Monster Erotica ALWAYS contains graphic sex scenes.
Monster Porn can contain sex scenes, but doesn't always.
Monster Erotica is for readers who want to have sex with monsters.
Monster Porn is for readers who just want lots of monsters.
QUESTION: Is this series Yaoi?
ANSWER: Yes. Though what Yaoi means to Americans and what it means to Japanese are two different things, so...what do you consider Yaoi to be?
In Japan, Yaoi, means "boy love". It means the primary couple of the story is gay. It means ONLY that and NOTHING more.
However, in America Yaoi is often thought of as being "gay Erotica for girls". Well, it CAN be that, and it often is that, but, Yaoi encompases ALL genres: Romance, Horror, Fantasy, Sci-Fi, Steampunk, Mystery, and of course also Erotica.
Yaoi doesn't have to have sex in the story to be counted as Yaoi. It only needs to have a gay couple as the primary characters of the story. This is the thing American readers often overlook and can be disapointed, if they head into a Yaoi book expecting that all Yaoi is only Erotica.
This series is Yaoi, because the main character is a gay Elf and his partner is a bi-sexual shpe-shifter/unicorn. There is sex in the series, but not in every volume. There are graphic porn level erotic sex scenes in the series, but most of the sex scenes are far more tame and fade-to-black scenes are frequent as well.
Yaoi does not = Erotica.
This series = Yaoi; it does NOT = Erotica.
QUESTION: How can this series be Monster Porn, but not be Erotica?
ANSWER: Simple, you don't know what the word Porn means. Porn, in American street slang, is inaccurately thought to mean sex. No. The word Porn ACTUALLY means obsession.
In other words the word pornography = obsessed with watching others having sex.
Monster Porn means = obsessed with monsters.
Monster Pornograpy = obsessed with watching monsters have sex.
Can you see the difference?
Keep in mind I called this series Unicorn porn and type of Monster Porn, I did not call it Unicorn Erotica a type of Monster Erotica.
In Monster Erotica the point of the story is sex with monsters,
In Monster Porn the point of the story is sexy monsters, which may or may not be involved in sex acts.
Monster Erotica ALWAYS contains graphic sex scenes.
Monster Porn can contain sex scenes, but doesn't always.
Monster Erotica is for readers who want to have sex with monsters.
Monster Porn is for readers who just want lots of monsters.
Unicorn Porn is a story about unicorns. It's got lots of unicorn stuff going on. It's for readers who need a daily fix of unicorn obsessions. It's for people who obsessively obsess over their obsession for unicorns.
Unicorn Erotica is a story about having sex with unicorns. It's got lots of unicorn sex going on. It's for readers who need a daily fix of unicorn sex obsessions. It's for people who obsessively obsess over their obsession for having sex with unicorns.
Does that help, explain how it can be Monster Porn without being Erotica?
That said, it does fall into the definition of Grindhouse Porn. Grindhouse Porn is a crude form of pornography, sort of a redneck, white trash trailer park style porn, that features characters that say fuck in the their everyday language, women that think nothing of shaking their boobs and booty in public, men that pull out their dick at the drop of a pin, and everybody is grinding groins. It' the very crude style of Porn that features plumbers and housewives, and is what most people think of when they hear the word "Porn".
And yes, a story can be Grindhouse Porn and still not be Erotica. Erotica is an upper level classy style of sex. Think of it like the movie Pretty Woman. If Pretty Woman was a book, Amazon would put it in Erotica. It's be tame Erotica, but still, it'd be Erotica. Whereas the plumber and the housewife are Porn not Erotica.
QUESTION: Wait. Quaraun is gay, but he has children? How is that possible?
ANSWER: Yes. He has eight children. He also has a wife.
Quaraun's NOT gay. That's not what I said. I said the series contains gay sex scenes. That's different. Quaraun is bi-sexual. He has both male and female lovers.
Okay, you're gonna get a major spoiler here. The Lich Lords didn't kill the Moon Elves. Quaraun killed the Moon Elves and made it look like the Lich lords did it. He set them up. Quaraun kills EVERYONE: his children, his wife, his father, his uncle the king, and every last Moon Elf he can find.
They killed BoomFuzzy, or at least that's the way Quaraun sees it.
Quaraun starts out a peaceful Mage of the Di'Jin Order. He has lived his life, completely devoted to peace, kindness, and celibacy. He is at the beginning of the series a eunuch.
Quaraun's uncle the King, has no male children, and, while the king's younger brother has many children, he has only one male offspring: Quaraun, a sexless transvestite with no intention of ever marrying.
Quaraun's father and the King are furious at Quaraun's lifestyle and his refusal to keep to keep the family line going, but Quaraun is still a fairly young Elf, so they overlook it at first, though they are both teasing him and bullying him.
Then a Half-Elf/Half-Faerie named BoomFuzzy moves into the village and Quaraun become lovers. They are lovers secretly for 30 years before the royal family finds out about it and and pull a really big, elaborate stunt to break them up.
They have Quaraun kidnapped, and then tell everyone that he's married some princess and basically has left. They convince all the other Moon Elves that this is true, which in turn convinces BoomFuzzy.
There are two very important things to consider here:
#1: BoomFuzzy is not what they think he is. He's a Phooka, a Trickster Faerie, a shape-shifter in disguise, he's not a half-Elf
#2: Quaraun bonded his soul to BoomFuzzy's soul in an Elven Soul Bond Ritual
Because BoomFuzzy is not a real Elf, the soul binding ritual is not complete, it only works on Quaraun. Their souls are bonded, and Quaraun knows immediately that BoomFuzzy is not an Elf, but once the bonding is done there's nothing he can do about it. Quaraun can now feel everything BoomFuzzy feels, but the bond is not two-way, because BoomFuzzy is not and Elf, so he can't feel what Quaraun feels. Because BoomFuzzy is a Faerie his emotions are over the top hyper and are more then Quaraun, an emotionless Elf, can cope with. It's being bound to a Faerie that slowly drives him insane.
There is no Elf that would ever risk causing a soul bounded Elf to be separated from that bond, because they go out of their minds (Advanced Dungeons and Dragons The Complete Handbook of Elves 2nd Edition).
Quaraun bound his soul to BoomFuzzy in secret, so none of the other Elves knew about it. Not until they had Quaraun kidnapped and he suddenly starts acting wild and out of control and they have no clue what's wrong with him.
Meanwhile back at the Moon elf village BoomFuzzy, believing Quaraun betrayed him is going in a wild chaotic frenzy, tosses aside his illusions reviling himself to be ing Gwallmaiic, King of the Faeries, and a fearsome Necromancer known as The elf Eater of Pepper Valley.
For being betrayed by one Elf he vows to return in 100 years to kill every last one of them, and then commits suicide in an elaborate Lich making ritual that creates 13 powerful Liches known as the Lich Lords.
Quaraun's father and the King, don't know what BoomFuzzy is doing back at the village, all they know is Quaraun has suddenly been thrown into a crazed screaming fit and seems to be in agony.
Quaraun not only feels everything BoomFuzzy feels, but he suffers through feeling him die, and then the soul bound being ripped from him, ripping his own soul apart, leaving him deranged and insane.
It's not until they realize (days later) that BoomFuzzy has died, that they realize Quaraun was soul bounded to him. It has been centuries since the Moon Elves have seen and Elf survive a damaged soul bonding and they are now terrified of what will become of Quaraun.
In a desperate attempt to save the family repetition, Quaraun's father and the King cover up everything, and force Quaraun to marry a she-Elf. Quaraun has gone completely despondent. He's not registering anything.
The Moon Elves are assuming BoomFuzzy's dead and Quaraun is just in mourning, however, BoomFuzzy is actually now a Lich and the soul bound is still there: Quaraun is now bound to a Lich. The Lich is going around the world on a killing rampage and everything the Lich does, Quaraun is seeing in his head, like he's watching a movie. He's not just seeing it, he's feeling it.
Quaraun is absolutely refusing to do anything, he's just sitting there for years, silently staring off into space, not saying a word for years, and no one knows why. They don't know his soul is bound to a Lich and it's more then he's mentally or emotionally able to deal with.
All the while, he's still being teased and bullied by the other Elves, as they have done his whole life. And now he's forced into a marriage to a she-Elf that he is silently blaming on having caused BoomFuzzy's death. They have four children together, because she rapes him, which is not helping his mind.
As the 100th anniversary of BoomFuzzy's death nears, Quaraun suddenly "returns to normal" and the Moon Elves assume he's gotten over BoomFuzzy's death.
The Elf Eater of Pepper Valley has spent the last hundred years on a rampage slaughtering millions of Elves (the reason Elves disappear and the Human race takes over the planet) and he's now chopping a bloody path back to the Moon Elf Village, and Quaraun knows this, because their souls are bound and he knows everything the Lich is doing and planning to do.
Knowing that BoomFuzzy is about to return, Quaraun murders his four children, then murders his wife, them casts a spell that poisons the entire food supply of the village resulting in everyone dying, except for his father and the king. He kills the king, declaring himself to now be king, and then kills and eats his father. And finally casts a Lich-like freeze spell on the village to make it look like a Lich killed everyone.
(All of that takes place in the volume called: BoomFuzzy.)
In the TMseries, it never says who is the mother of King Vielder and his twin brother Melaca, only that, she died in childbirth and their father was deeply distraught by her loss. The TMseries never explores this any farther.
In the Quaraun series, that will be addressed over a period of many volumes. The short of it is this: About 50 volumes into the series, Quaraun and Unicorn are going to find what they assume to be a Human baby, which they rescue (an event which results in Quaraun being critically and permanently injured and crippled) and raise, only realizing she is not a Human, after they realize they've been raising her for more then 100 years.
At this point her race is not revealed and is unknown if it ever will be (we'll see what happens when I start writing this section in more detail). As an adult the girl goes off on her own and does not return into the series, for a space of 30 or 40 years. When she does return into their lives, it results in a brief lover's triangle between Pippi, Quaraun, and Unicorn, which in turn results in her giving birth to Quaraun's twin boys Vielder and Melaca.
Crystal Elf, Empress Glacious (The Crystal Plague - The Twighlight Manor series) is of course the mother of Dr. Vangoneese and Lady Trillian.
For those who don't know the book. King Vielder and twin brother Melaca (Roderic's father), join their father, (known in the TMs book as 'The Emperor of the Triple Planets") in The Battle of Ongada, on Mt Demontooth during The Great Crystonite War, and annihilate the Crystal Elves (known as the Chrystonites), killing every last Elf in the continent with a weapon they stole from the Diontite Scientists via the Patamgin Kats.
When they leave, while on their way back to the starship the VISION-D8, they find a lone female Chrystonite who escaped and hide in the forest. King Vielder is about to kill her but is stopped by his father, who tells his sons she reminds him of himself, when his own village had been destroyed centuries ago and he was the last survivor. The Emperor can't kill her and he won't let them kill her. Instead they take her with them, because the Emperor says as much as he hated the Liches, he had hated being abandoned and left alone in an empty village more. When she later bemoans the fact that they killed her children, the Emperor rapes her, telling her "Now you will have children again." She gives birth to the twins Gwansheese-Vangoneese and Trillain, who are the brother/sister parents of the TMseries' primary villain The Lansquin.
Quaraun does not love Empress Glacious, he simply pities her and feels guilty for having killed her family and, in his own twisted mind, felt that taking her as his wife and giving her children made up for murdering her family. He never once considers the fact that he may actually be making the situation worse. This story is going to be retold from the Emperor's (Quaraun's) point of view in "The Crystal Palace of Mount Demontooth."
So, Quaraun is gay, but had a couple of bi-sexual interludes that resulted in children, and then went back to Unicorn/ BoomFuzzy. In spite of his having fathered children, he remains with Unicorn (the resurrected BoomFuzzy) until his untimely death at the hands of his own flesh-eating house. Quaraun and Unicorn live together as a couple for just under 400 years, as Quaraun is just over 700 years old at the time of his death.
QUESTION: Is this series Hentai?
ANSWER: Yes. And No. It depends on what definition of Hentai you are using.
I'm assuming that since this is a book and you are asking, is it Hentai, that what you are actually asking, is, "is it illustrated?" or "is it manga?" If that's what you mean, then No, these are novels. There are no pictures.
I'm a bit confused by this question as MOST people inaccurately assume Hentai = animated sex. Therefore most people would not ask if a book was Hentai. I can assume you are someone who actually knows the correct and proper meaning of the word Hentai.
Yes. It is Hentai by the TRUE and ACTUAL Japanese definition of the word. However, Hentai has a completely different meaning in Japan, then it does in America.
In Japan Hentai means: bizarre sexual acts; in other words to be Hentai in Japan it has to contain things like tentacles or barbed penises or sex with trolls - things that DO NOT EXIST in reality.
Hentai means Bizarre Sex and is a sub-genre of Bizarro. when the word is used CORRECTLY, it can be applied to both animation and text and also comics.
Unfortunately, the American slang use of the word Hentai can mean anything from gay sex to annal sex to BDSM - as long as it's animated. No. No. NO! Henti doesn't mean "animated weird sex", the way Americans use the term to mean. If you can do it in real life it is NOT Hentai! And Hentai can be text or animation.
Monster Porn is Hentai, because monsters are not real, you can not have sex with monsters in real life.
However, I myself do not use the term Hentai to describe this series, because like I said, most folks think Hentai means animated sex, and to use the word Hentai here, would cause most folks to assume the books were illustrated and they are not. so, no, not Hentai, unless that's what you want to call it, they, go ahead.
Personally, I would call this Unicorn Porn and just leave it at that. Let people interpret that to mean, whatever they want it to mean.
QUESTION: I can't find your Quaraun books on Amazon. I tried searching for them but they are not coming up. They were there yesterday and now they are gone. How do I find these books on Amazon?
ANSWER: Yes, I know. Amazon has temporarily (hopefully) removed them from public access, stuffed them in the Erotica section and slapped the "adult filter" over them so that they no longer come up for sale to the general public, while complaints about, so called "pedophile Erotica" are being reviewed.
Someone complained about the Quaraun series. Don't know who or why, (although I do know who it was who has been running all over the internet falsely accusing my books of being what she termed "pedophile Erotica") but yes, the Quaraun series is not going to come up in search results, because the "ADULT" tag has been slapped onto it.
This is actually an interesting phenomena, you see, this the the first time I've ever heard of a NON-EROTICA book, being bitch slapped by Amazon.
What happens is, Amazon deams some books to have cover art that is "too risque" to be viewed by the general public, so they put a filter known as "the ADULT tag" on the book, so that no one under 18 can accidentally find it and look at it's naughty cover art.
Yes, I did say cover art.
Let's look at that naughty cover art, shall we?
47,191 / 35,000 words.
Yeah... we got a naked Unicorn, and naked horse, and a naked statue in a graveyard.
Yep, I'm as puzzled as you are.
Amazon put the "Adult" tag on a non Erotica book? I have never seen that happen before. This is new.
People who have actually read my books, know I don't write Erotica. And yet the adult filter is only placed on Erotica books, so something is screwy here.
Quaraun got bitch slapped by Amazon. (March 5, 2015) Every volume. They just put the “adult” tag on the whole series.
I have never seen a non-Erotica book get the adult tag before.
I know it’s not the covers, because there’s unicorns and horses on the covers. Cartoon horses at that.
And it’s not the keywords because the keywords are “Elf, fairies, phooka, unicorn, wizardry”
That means someone complained. Someone specifically contacted Amazon and complained about the books. Uhm...okay...why?
Interesting it happened right after 1 author created 52 fake Amazon accounts, gave each volume 52 fake 1 stars, and then Amazon deleted all her accounts for ToS violation.
So, the members of KBoards are STILL lashing out I see. Is this really the type of petty thing these people have resorted to? I mean, really? Are they really that childish?
7 months now. They've been pulling these sick twisted little stunts like this for 7 months now. (Kendra has been pulling them for 9 years now. I expect this sort of brainless behavior from her.) The sad part is, is that I have no clue why they are so hung up on me an my books. God! What in the hell did I write in these books that they hate them so much? I don't get it? Don't these people have anything better to do? Are their lives really that empty and meaningless that they have nothing more important to do with their time?
7 freaking months? Don’t you guys ever get tired of bothering me? What is your frigging problem? Good God, this is stalking you know. Look up the definition of stalking. You Kboards creeps are stalking me and I'm sick of it. Will you just get out of my life and leave me alone? Some people just don't have a life.
I guess I’ll go update my website now. I have thoughts and opinions on this, the newest attack on my books, by some very annoying authors who apparently have unicorn horns rammed up their asses, must go write about this.
Yes, you know I’m going to write Unicorn killing a character by ramming his horn up their ass. I just have to. That’s all there is to it. You know, I did just write a scene today, with him skewering human heads on his horn… wouldn’t be too hard to alter that scene. :P
For those who don’t know, Quaraun is a gay, transvestite, Autistic Gypsy, and there exist a handful of religious do-goodie “Christian” authors who are self-righteously indignant over the fact that such a character exists. Some are screaming anti-gay rants, some are screaming anti-Gypsy rants, some are screaming anti-tranny rants, some are screaming anti-retard rants, ad for some unknown reason some are screaming anti-Erotica rants (about a book that isn't even Erotica to begin with!) Each of them has a complaint, some multiple complaints. They are trying to stage a boycott of my books, which would funny if it wasn’t so danged annoying.
Most of the offenders stopped when confronted with this, some required cease and desist orders to get them to stop, the three most persistent offenders, who continue to this day to harass me, have now been added to my blacklist.
But, anyways, yes, that does mean the books are no longer showing up in search results unless you search specifically for the title itself now. The series no longer shows up in general search results.
I'll have to ask Amazon what the reason was for the tag being added, because as far as I know it's only used on Erotica, and this is not Erotica.
But yes, as of March 5, 2015, The Quaraun books are all moved into Erotica and had the adult filter put on them. They are no longer available by general search on Amazon and can ONLY be accessed via clicking a direct link from an outside site linking directly to the sales page. (That's what the "adult filter" does. You can search for Erotica books on amazon, but an "adult filtered" Erotica book is one that has been de-listed from the Amazon website and can only be found via direct-link access.) Essentially what the "adult filter" does is kill sales 100%, because once the adult filter is placed on your book, the only way for someone to buy it is if the author themselves gives the link to the sales page to the customer.
The adult filter is a really, really, really, really, REALLY bad thing to have put on your book, because it means NO ONE has access to buying your book anymore.
Basically your book has been removed from sale to the general public and if you want to buy it, you have to contact the author and ask the author to send you a link to the sale page, so you can buy the book. It is absolutely the worst thing you could have happen to your book.
Needless to say I am very upset that this has happened, because what it means is that basically the Quaraun books are no longer available for sale. You can still buy them, but you have to come directly to my website, find a link to the sale page, and buy them that way. Well, how many people even know to come to my site to look for a link to the sales page? Not many.
It means that the books have gone from 2 to 5 copies sold per title per week, to absolutely ZERO sales at all because they have been removed from the general search index and are no longer available for sale to the general public. You really got to hate an author an awful lot to do something this hate filled, evil, and vindictive to their books.
UPDATE: March 10, 2015
I have heard back from Amazon on one of the books. Into the Swamp of Death has been manually reviewed (meaning someone at Amazon's customer service department has physically read the book to determine if the contents are Erotica and if it requires and adult filter or not.)
They have determined that the book is not Erotica and was moved to the Erotica department by mistake and it has now been taken out of the Erotica department, and the adult filter removed.
Amazon is very good about fixing problems. And after 5 days in review, Amazon has informed me that they have reviewed my book, I am correct, it is not Erotica, it doesn't belong in Erotica, they apologized for the inconvenience, and tell me they have moved it to the category they feel is "most appropriate".
I had originally placed it in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
After someone complained, it was moved without review to: Books › Literature & Fiction › Erotica › Fantasy
After "careful review" (someone at Amazon actually reading the book) Amazon has decided that Into The Swamp of Death belongs in: Books › Literature & Fiction › Genre Fiction › Horror › Dark Fantasy
Uhm...okay. That's not where I had put it originally, but, yep, I can see how it could be seen as Horror and Dark Fantasy. So, Amazon has officially declared that the Quaraun series IS NOT Erotica and is Dark Fantasy.
I am still waiting to hear back about the other 2, but at least one of them has been put back in general search results.
UPDATE: March 14, 2015
I have heard back from Amazon - the adult filter is removed from Screaming Unicorn and it's been moved out of Erotica to Dark Fantasy where it belongs.
So, 2 of the 3 books that had been inaccurately moved to the Erotica section and adult filtered are now fixed - waiting to hear back on 1 more.
I would say this might explain all the questions I've been getting asking if the books were Erotica, except for the fact that they were only moved into Erotica a week ago and I've been getting these questions since last September. Whoever it is telling people these books are Erotica, I wish they'd stop it. Do you have any idea how frustrating it is, having to keep answering the same question over and over again: no, it's not Erotica. No, it's not Erotica. No, it's not Erotica...no, please, stop asking, no, it's not. Sheese. I mean, good God, Where are people finding information telling them that this is Erotica and WHO is saying it? It's really annoying.
Somebody is misrepresenting my books and I really don't like it. By misrepresenting my books, they are misrepresenting me and my reputation and I don't like that.
I can't help but be reminded of the Kboards incident and their threat to:
"let's dry up her (book) sales"
"we need to kill her career"
"Let's destroy her career"
"people like her need to be shot in the head"
If you want to dry up someone's book sale and essentially kill their career on Amazon, there is no better way to do it then to report their books to Amazon, lying to say the books are Erotica, not listed as Erotica, and demand the adult filter be put on them.
A week before the adult filter was put on the Screaming Unicorn, it had a sales rank of 705,143.
After just 9 days with the adult filter on it, it's sales rank is now: 2,061,964.
Yeah, THAT is what the adult filter does to a book. If you are that mean, that evil, that hateful, you CAN kill an author's career by demanding Amazon put the adult filter on a book, because the adult filter puts a 100% freeze on sales.
If you have steady sales (even low steady sales) and sudden one day your sales stop short and you have 100% sales - then check for the adult filter. Number one cause of sudden 100% drop in sales is the adult filter. It is the most horrible thing you can have happen to your book.
Unfortunately, if an author, pretending to be a reader, requests the adult filter put on a book, Amazon, DOES NOT review the book, and simply puts the adult filter on it. Sadly, there has been a rash of unscrupulous and unprofessional authors, contacting Amazon requesting the adult filter be placed on other authors books, to sink sales rank (the theory is, if the other authors' books sink, their books will rise. It doesn't work that way, but that's the black hat belief behind the practice.) Sadly, you can go to places like the Warrior Forum, and find PDFs for sale which tell you step-by-step how to do this dirty pool tactic.
Since the WF started selling these How-To guides (in 2013) there has been a rash of THOUSANDS of authors, getting the adult filter inaccurately placed on their books. It's a horrible hate-scam tactic of trying to boost sales to your own books, by attempting to kill sales to other author's books, and it's a hugely popular trend the past 2 years. I've had dozens of my author friends get attacked by other authors this way, but this is the first time it's happened to me.
It is important to note that the adult filter is ONLY placed on Erotica books, and in order to get it put on a non-Erotica book, someone has to contact Amazon and say "AUTHOR NAME is putting their Erotica books in non-Erotica categories" - Amazon then moves the books to Erotica - WITHOUT DOING A MANUAL REVIEW. The end result is, there are quite a few books in the Erotica department, that are not Erotica and often, the author has no clue their books were moved to the Erotica section.
NOTE: in your KDP dashboard, it'll still say the books are listed in the original categories. To find out if your book has been moved to Erotica, try running a Countdown Deal, and look for the note which says:
"At this time, books that contain mature or erotic content are not eligible for advertising. See advertising guidelines" in the "Run an ad campaign" section. Right beside the Countdown Deal section.
YES! Not only does the adult filter block your books out of showing up in the search results, but it also blocks you out of the marketing dashboard too, and doesn't allow you to run promotions for your book!
Basically if the adult filter gets slapped on your book, you're screwed. You ARE NOT selling another copy of that book again EVER!
The thing is, the adult filter is there for a purpose. It is SUPPOSED to be used, to keep X-rated book cover images from showing up in the search results.
It allows Erotica authors, to publish their books on Amazon, and then created create links to the books on their own personal homepage, allowing Erotica authors to sell books that normally aren't allowed to be sold on Amazon.
The adult filter, prevents the books from showing up on Amazon, while allowing an author to run the own "adult book store" on their own web site. So, the author would be hosting an 18+ porn site, and be able to make money selling their XXX books.
In it's intended purpose the adult filter is a good thing, because it allows X-rated adult books to be sold, allowing authors to make an income. Before the adult filter existed, authors of XXX/adult books had to create their own PDFs or just post the stories online for free. The adult filter now allows them to actually publish those books and earn an income.
Unfortunately, there are people out there who are abusing the system, and are using the adult filter to sink the sales of books that should have the adult filter on them at all. It's a very low brow black hat tactic.
Someone specifically contacting Amazon and making such a request, is the ONLY way a book can get the adult filter put on it 7 months after publication (Screaming Unicorn was published 7 months prior to the adult filter being placed on it). Normally Amazon would put the filter on the book PRIOR to publication, when they review the book, after the author submits it for publication.
There are 4 authors who, for several months now have been champaigning to as they put it:
"let's dry up her (book) sales"
"we need to kill her career"
"Let's destroy her career"
In October they tried to stage a mini protest and boycott n a forum for writers. They then did the same thing on 2 other forums for writers (that I know of. I'm not sure if they did it on any other forums or not.)
One of them is fairly local (a 2 hour drive from me) and so staged an offline protest as well, along with vandalism of our family's farm (doing $15,000 in damages to the town, in addition to the damages to our property.)
In December, the same local one, then created 52 fake accounts on Amazon and gave Screaming Unicorn and Fire Mountain EACH 52 one star reviews, and then had a 300+ comment argument with herself in the comments of said reviews. I don't read my book reviews so I was unaware this was happening until, I found out about it via a friend who had read them and asked what in the heck was this author talking about. Before I got a chance to read all of the comments, Amazon deleted all 52 of that author's fake accounts.
This has been going on, since October, with every few weeks, one of these 4 authors (who may actually all be only one person, I don't any of these authors and none of them use a real author photo, all 4 of them are very much "fake" pennames, and two of them use identical phrases, so I actually suspect it's really only 1 author with 4 different pennames) does something like this.
This, having my non-Erotica books, moved to Erotica and adult filtered, is just the latest of this author's attacks on my books. (And, if you know who I'm talking about - you also know that she has been attacking my books, for 9 years now and her most violent attack included to post a request online for someone to kill me, she put my home address in the post and a few days later October 18, 2006, someone put a grease fryer bomb in my house, which left my family homeless and me and my dad both crippled for the rest of our lives.)
I wish I knew who this woman was and what it was this woman had against me, because it's mind boggling to me, why it is she pulls these stunts. Do you know how maddening it is for someone to spend 9 years doing weird things like this, and you have no idea who they are or why they are doing it? None of this makes any sense to me. *sigh* Oh, well. I suppose eventually she'll have to make it known what exactly it is her motive behind all this is, but until then, there's not much I can do but continue to side step her and clean up the messes she keeps dumping in my lap.
Fortunately, if someone is mean enough to do something like this to one of your books, there is a way to fix it, once you discover it has happened.
Here's what you do. In KDP, go to "Contact Us" and tell Amazon that your Non-Erotica book is being listed as Erotica (no need to mention the adult filter) and ask for a manual review of your book. Explain you did not put the book in the Erotica category, it is not Erotica and could someone please review it to verify that your book is in fact not Erotica and then put it back into the category in which you had originally placed it.
Amazon is very good about fixing problems. And after 9 days in review, Amazon has informed me that they have reviewed my book, I am correct, it is not Erotica, it doesn't belong in Erotica, they apologized for the inconvenience, and tell me they have moved it to the category they feel is "most appropriate".
I had originally placed it in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
After someone complained, it was moved without review to: Books › Literature & Fiction › Erotica › Fantasy
After "careful review" (someone at Amazon actually reading the book) Amazon has decided that Screaming Unicorn belongs in: Books › Literature & Fiction › Genre Fiction › Horror › Dark Fantasy
Uhm...okay. That's not where I had put it originally, but, yep, I can see how it could be seen as Horror and Dark Fantasy. So, once again, Amazon has officially declared that the Quaraun series IS NOT Erotica and is Dark Fantasy.
UPDATE: March 14, 2015 (an hour later)
Okay - that was fast - while I was typing that last update - I just got another email from Amazon - okay - so all 3 of the books that got moved to Erotica last week and adult filtered, are back out of Erotica and filter removed - YAY!
Interestingly while Amazon declared Screaming Unicorn and Swamp of Death as Dark Fantasy, they have put Vampire Leprechaun in Epic Fantasy.
Amazon is very good about fixing problems. And after 9 days in review, Amazon has informed me that they have reviewed my book, I am correct, it is not Erotica, it doesn't belong in Erotica, they apologized for the inconvenience, and tell me they have moved it to the category they feel is "most appropriate".
I had originally placed it in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
After someone complained, it was moved without review to: Books › Literature & Fiction › Erotica › Fantasy
After "careful review" (someone at Amazon actually reading the book) Amazon has decided that Vampire Leprechaun belongs in: Kindle Store › Kindle eBooks › Science Fiction & Fantasy › Fantasy › Epic
Hey! That's where I had it to begin with! Yay! So, once again, Amazon has officially declared that the Quaraun series IS NOT Erotica and is in fact Fantasy.
So... it's now no longer just me saying this series is NOT Erotica. Amazon has manually reviewed the Quaraun series and has decided it to be Dark Fantasy.
And, thankfully, after 9 long days locked away in the adult filter dungeon, all of the Quaraun books are now back in general search results! YAY!
So, I just checked and, yep, the books are back in the Fantasy (Dark for 2 and Epic for the other) department. The adult filter is gone. And the books are once again showing up in general search results, so you can once again access/buy them directly off the Amazon site without having to request a direct link to the sales page from the author anymore. Thank goodness!
I am so glad that is fixed. You have no idea how stressful the last 9 days have been for me, waiting for Amazon to review these books and give me their verdict.
This is a very frustrating issue, because my books ARE my only source of income and, they made an active attempt to have then removed and they did get the books taken offline for a period of 9 days while amazon manually reviewed the situation and then came to the conclusion that it was a false accusation and my books had no reason to be removed and were put back up for sale.
The people behind this CONTINUING attack on my career, are very, very, very hateful people as you can see from the things they are doing. I wish I knew why they were doing this What is it they hate about me and my books so much that they feel they are justified in these actions? It is almost as if they see me and my books as a threat, but I don't see how they could. I have never had a book sell more then 10 copies in a single week, my books are not famous nor are they close to best sellers. With sales that low my my books are of no threat to anyone. None of this makes any sense to me. Normal people don't do things like this to other people. Only some one with a sick, twisted, corropt mind would go out of their way to try to hurt a fellow human.
But it is now official:
According to Amazon:
THESE BOOKS ARE NOT EROTICA!
QUESTION: I saw another author post some pretty nasty stuff about you and this series. What is that all about?
ANSWER: There are a few (rather snobby and elitist) authors who are against books featuring gay characters, Gypsy characters, and/or mentally disabled characters, and they have started a boycott of me and the Quaraun series. I wrote a detailed response about what happened, why it happened, and how I have responded to this boycott HERE.
It will take you about 4 hours to read that. If you don't have time for the full length long version, there is a shorter version HERE. (Scroll about halfway down the page to find it.)