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Be True To You:
Advice For YouTube Gamers:  
"Faking" a personality until you make it?

"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself?

Today's Date is: March 13, 2017

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By EelKat Wendy C Allen

Ask A YouTuber Anything
Be True To You: 
Advice For YouTube Gamers:  
"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

You here me say these words over and over again. To so many people. In so many questions. Today, we find a question that again has me chanting those words...

Today's YouTube Lets Plays question comes from Reddit:

"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself? from letsplay

While my original answer to this question appeared on the Reddit thread linked above, my answer here is longer and has more detail then the one posted on the YouTube Lets Plays Reddit forums.

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Be True To You: Advice For YouTube Gamers:  
"Faking" a personality until you make it or just be yourself?
My Answer:

I'm someone who simply does not understand why it is people feel they must be fake. Whenever people see my car (with 2.5million marbles glued to it) or me, drifting around my yard dressed as an Elf Wizard, they assume, I'm going to be some loud obnoxious person; then they meet me and find out I can barely speak above a whisper, a side effect of having been mute the first 37 years of my life (I have Autism - ACTUAL Autism - not Aspergers).

The first thing people say to me every time they meet me is:

"I'd never dare to dress like that"


"I'd never dare drive a car like that in public."

I ask why and they say:

"What will people think?"

What will people think? Uhm... why does it matter what the hell any one thinks?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

Fuck any one who says otherwise.

When I ask people to explain to me, this bizarre obsession Americans have with what others think, they start babbling about school, friends, co workers, etc, and ask how I did any of those things look as I look, dressing as I dress, and driving that pink Volvo shaped disco ball around...

I point out the very simply fact that THEY are trespassing on my yard and I would not have meet them had they not invaded my PRIVACY -

I'm a hermit with agoraphobia -

only time I talk to a human face to face is when they are piss pants excitedly jumping over fences, barging pass no trespassing and keep out signs,

and I then point out I was never allowed to go to school - check the news reports - they called it one of the worst cases of child abuse in recorded history -

I was 31 years old the first time I had contact with Humans outside of the Heaven's Gate Compound...

and I did not like what I found, promptly went back into the woods and I'm now fast closing in on 60 years without Human contact.

If I cared what other people thought, I'd do as the army of social workers who parade up in here endlessly, keep saying to do and go be a nice friendly people person.

Well, guess what? I'm not a nice friendly people person. So why should I fake being a thing that I am not?

I do not like being around people. Why should I fake enjoying the company of creatures that I find to be vile perversions of life?

This is who I am. Take it or leave it.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

This is who I am. Why should I pretend to be anything else? I'd be miserable if I did.

I spend my life peaceful, happy, and in a constant state of joy... until trespassing home invaders arrive in my yard and disturbed my privacy. I like my privacy. I don't humans invading my privacy. I like to be left alone.

I had 30 years of you vile humans beating me up, raping me, starving me... and guess what: I'm perfectly happy to at long last have peace and quiet with no humans to bother me.

30 years of rape, beatings, starvation, being locked in a room with boarded up windows for days on end, taught me one thing:

what ANY ONE thinks of you DOES NOT MATTER.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

I didn't survive the hell I went through by worry about what others thought. I survived by doing exactly the opposite: by being me and never letter nothing, no one did force me into submission. You don't survive if you back down and give in to the whims of others.

Stand tall, stand proud, and be you, no matter who you are. Don't you dare EVER let any one force you to be someone you are not. Not in the little things, especially not in the big things.

Think about it: YouTube is insignificant. It's a small thing. It's nothing. It's meaningless. If you haven't got the strength to be yourself in something that menial, then how can you ever expect to stand up for yourself when REAL life or death challenges are put in your path?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

Be yourself in the small things, it'll help give you the backbone you need to fight for your life, should the time you ever need to do so arise.

Yes, people are going to complain if you are quiet on YouTube. I know. i'm quiet and they do. And you know what? I don't give a rat's ass what they think. Their opinions are meaningless.

When push comes to shove, they couldn't survive 30 years of rape, beatings, starvation, being locked in a room with boarded up windows for days on end - you know how I know that?

Because, they are such spineless whimps who've never seen any bad side of life, living in the lap of luxury to such an extent that the ONLY thing they can find to complain about is if someone is too loud or too quiet on YouTube, and THAT makes their opinion of me meaningless, because I know where I've been, what I've survived, and I know busy body complaining whimps like them, could never even face a shadow of what I survived.

Remember that, next time you are worries about what someone thinks of you. Ask yourself: Does it REALLY matter? No. It doesn't. Any one who tries to force you to be someone you are not, is a person whose opinion means nothing.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

Be yourself. Never let anyone change you. Be proud of who you are.

I'm a hermit with a agoraphobia. This is who I am. Why should I try to pretend I'm anything other then what I am?

Why would you, feel that the opinions of others makes enough of a difference in your life, that's you'd be willing to crush the real you and put a fake you in your place?

If you are a loud person, be loud. If you are a quiet person, be quiet. A person who fakes being something they are not, is just trying to impress someone whose opinion didn't matter in the first place.

I simply do not understand why it is the Americans believe they have to do whatever everyone else does, pander to a false leader, grovel at the feet of bullies, and only do things that others say they must do.

Does no one in America have a spine? Can no one stand up to any one? Is their entire population spineless pussies that can do nothing without someone else doing it first?

Is there no one in America, willing to do their own thing? Be their own person? Does everyone have to follow the Jones, playing follow the leader, doing only things they see others doing?

Do they not have brains? Can they not think for themselves?

Why the need to run to others asking "should I do this or that, what is the more popular thing to do?"

Since when is doing the most popular thing, the best thing, the thing you actually should do?

When the whole world is standing in shit, are you going to be a brainless sheep and wallow in the shit with, just because everyone else is doing it, or are you going to use your brain and walk away to safety, even if you have to walk alone?

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

You don't need to follow the crowd.

Dare to be different.

Dare to be unique.

Dare to be you.

And consider this: Your question asks what it takes to become popular on YouTube, how to get more views. Should you be like Jack or should you be like Cryotic? Did you ever consider that both of them became successful by NOT following the crowd? Both of them stand out, because NEITHER of them does what is considered standard, typical or the norm when it comes to YouTube.

Jack and Cryotic BOTH stand out in the crowd, because both just do their own thing and bes them-self. 

Jack and Cryotic BOTH reached success because they were DIFFERENT from every one else.

You want to be like Jack and Cryotic? You'll never stand out in the crowd, if you do what every one else is doing.

Be true to you.

Be true to who you are.

Be true to yourself.

You don't need to follow the crowd.

Dare to be different.

Dare to be unique.

Dare to be you.

This article was originally written on: March 13, 2017

This page last updated on: March 13, 2017

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Throughout 2013 - 2015 a slew of FAKE "EelKat" accounts surfaced, both on social networks and on forums, most were created by a woman calling herself Kendra Silvermander, or her backhoe driving cousin who drove a backhoe over my house, the same woman and her family who cut the heads off my cats, are the same people who hacked my online accounts, created a slew of fake accounts and pretended to be me, after they beat me up on November 14, 2013, leaving me paralyzed for 5 months, relearning to walk for 18 months, and clueless to their impersonation of my online due to my life threatening crippled state that had me offline from November 2013 to March 2016.

Who they are and why they are doing this remains unknown. If you know the identity of these people, please contact the FBI in charge of the investigation into their murder attempts on my life:

Agent Andy Drewer

of the Portland FBI

@ 207-774-9322 

NOTE: I was very active on forums from 1997 to 2007 and have RARELY used a forum since then. Other then the Warriors Forum and Absolute Write I have not posted on ANY forums AT ALL since 2012.

Note: My old inactive forum accounts were hacked and "resurrected" in 2013/2014/2015 by a psychotic NaNoWriMo ML who is upset over my having won a total of 27 writing contests/challenges and published 130+ novels since 2004 and and apparently (according to her emails) she has yet to win or publish anything.

If you see "me" posting on a forum at any point after 2012, know that it is likely this mysterious, and still yet unidentified "Kendra Silvermander".

More information about Kendra Silvermander and what she did can be found here.

Let's think about something here...

I'm just a harmless old lady who likes to dress like and Elf and paint everything pink and write stories about Elves having sex with Unicorns. For THAT, the residents of Old Orchard Beach, call me crazy, build a bomb, blow up my house, stand in my drive way and shoot at me, kidnap my cats, cut my cats' heads off, nail my cats' heads to my door, beat my 28 year old Shetland pony's head in, drive a back hoe over my house 3 times, filled my motorhome with feces 3 feet deep, I was paralyzed for 5 months because they trespassed up in here and beat me up, 3 years later I finally recover and start walking again and they beat me up again this time with a shopping cart rupturing 3 discs in my spine while screaming "kill or be killed remember Saco Shaw's!" and they cut my car in half. I'm sorry, WHO exactly is the crazy person here? 

Yes, I wear pink ball gowns every day.

Yes I wear fake pointy ears and long white Rapunzel wigs.

Yes, I paint my cars, my motorhome, and my mailbox pink.

Yes, I write about Elves having sex with Unicorns.

So the fucking hell what?

I haven't set foot off my land in 40 years. The only time I have contact with people is when THEY trespass on my yard and invade my privacy. And you know what? I've always welcomed them with happy smiles and open arms, made them meals and served them tea, and spent the day happily chatting with any one and every one who wanted to visit me. I love it when you people stop by to visit me as it's the only time I have any one to talk to other then my cats... oh wait... I don't have ANYONE to talk to any more, now that sociopath freaks murdered them and nailed their heads to my door!

You call me crazy because I wear pink dresses, yet THESE THREE PEOPLE are the ones who built a bomb and blew up my house!

You call me crazy because I wear pink dresses, yet THESE THREE PEOPLE are the violent trespassers who stands in my drive way and shoot at me.

You call me crazy because I wear pink dresses, yet THESE THREE PEOPLE are the ones who kidnap my cats, cut my cats' heads off, nail my cats' heads to my door, beat my 28 year old Shetland pony's head in, drive a back hoe over my house 3 times, filled my motorhome with feces 3 feet deep, and cut my car in half.

I mean REALLY stand back and look around.

All I'm doing is wearing strange cloths. I'm not the violent animal abusing, bomb building, psychopath beating up elderly women... THEY are.

There's a hell of a big difference between a half blind elderly woman dressing up as comic book characters and not bothering one damned person, and violent psychopathic criminal creeps beating her up, bombing her house, driving a back hoe over 3 more of her houses, cutting her car in half, filling her motorhome with feces, murdering her horse, and slaughtering her cats!

Old Orchard Beach has a crazy person in it all right, but isn't me... and the residents of this town need to get off their asses and tell the FBI who this white haired man and his blond wife and red haired sister-in-law are BEFORE THEY KILL ME! The red haired woman calls herself Kendra Silvermander.

I don't know who this man and his two women are. They are strangers to me. I don't know their names. And I don't know why they are doing this. Some body in this town must know who these people are ... PLEASE... the FBI is trying to put a stop to these insane hate crimes... PLEASE if you know who these psychopathic monsters are, PLEASE tell Agent Andy Drewer before they kill me. They cut my car in half in 2010. They cut my cats in half in 2015. How long do you think it'll be before they cut ME in half too? PLEASE HELP ME!

➽ ➽ ➽ If you have any information regarding the identity of the stalker/attacker/driver of the 4-door white pick-up truck please contact Officer Tim DeLuca of the Old Orchard Beach Police Department @ 207-934-4911 and/or

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